/g/ - girl talk

I met a perfect boy at uni. At first I just noticed him because he is the absolute most handsome guy I’ve ever seen. Call me superficial but that alone made me develop a crush. I sort of tried to forget about him since I didn’t think it would go anywhere and tried to tell myself that he probably was a jerk anyway.

However, I was grouped with him and a few other girls for some group assignment, and he turned out to be the nicest person I’ve ever met. He’s ridiculously funny, interesting, cultured, creative (turns out he’s actually semi-famous in multiple fields), exciting, smart, he just has literally everything going for him. I’m not the most beautiful girl ever but I take care of myself (I’m skinny, have very well maintained natural blonde hair, blue eyes etc.). Acne has slways been a problem but after meeting this guy my face was finally clearing up. I suggested that everyone in the group exchanged numbers and everyone obliged.

Then the guy started texting (actually whatsapp which is the norm in my country but whatever) me. Mostly school stuff but also some personal things. He’d always reply to me right away, never left me on read, and was always willing to help and when I helped him he was super grateful and cute about it. I’ve never had text contact as good as this. He’d always say hi to me when we ran into each other, and in class he’d letvme sit with him. If he was talking to other people he’d always try to make me a part of the conversation too.

It got even better when I found out he was basically pure (yes meme af I know, you know what I mean). He was very serious about hygiene (he talked about how he disliked visiting friends who didn’t clean their rooms properly), wasn’t active on FB, IG or dating apps, isn’t part of a frat, and disliked weed (he does drink though but so do I so ehrm yeah). He also never mentioned a gf or anything like that.

The thing is, despite growingsomewhat close he never asked me out or anything and I was afraid to ask him out because I’m not sure if I’m worthy of him and came to the conclusion that he might be gay or something and I didn’t want to embarrass him. He was literally too perfect to not have a gf.

Then it all went wrong.

Last night I went out for drinks with a few uni friends and afterwards walked back to the train station (I don’t live in my uni’s city, I live with my parents in my hometown (which is completely normal in my country, the boy does the same thing as do most students)). During my walk I passed my uni’s most notorious sorority house (again, we don’t have campusses here so sorority houses are just somewhere in the city) which is only open to really, really rich girls. I have classes with a few of them and they’re mostly quite friendly, but some of them really look down on me for not being one of them. There’s one in particular who’s the only person in my year whom I dislike because she treats anyone who isn’t a rich skinny white girl like shit (I’m a skinny white girl but my parents aren’t multi millionaires and I don’t play the sorority social game).
Then I heard the voice of the boy. I looked around and saw him standing a little further down the street. The girl I hate was with him. Then she kissed him. And they just kept going.
I stood there for like five minutes. I finally decided to take a different route and ended up missing my train and had to wait 30 minutes for another one.

When I got home I started crying and I could barely sleep and I’m still crying now. I’m sorry if none of this makes sense because I’m so fucking mad and upset. The boy and the girl don’t even talk to each other in class. She’s also really tall (180cm+), don’t guys hate tall girls and only like short girls? I want to scream but I don’t want my parents to hear.

I just had to post this, I’m sorry if it’s too bloggy. Do any of you have experience with the one you love ending up with someone you hate? Maybe found out that someone you thought could be a potential bf actually had a gf?

I’m never going to find anyone like this ever again. And now he’s off limits and tainted anyway.