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No. 241908

For all the nonnas who wanted it, may you feel better soon ♥

No. 241918

well I've been in mental hell since before Valentine's Day and it appears I'm not getting out. When does the rapture come? When does WWIII start so I can finally have an excuse to stop dragging my ass? When can god actually give me something good? I'm on the verge of failing an assignment I already want to turn in late and considering giving up on it, because I'm so fucking broken right now. I hate having this doomer mentality but it comes and goes like the tides, and I don't want to be in the middle of it right now. I wish my body would just give out on me so somebody could realize what was wrong and actually give a fuck. Seems like nobody does

No. 241923

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Already posted this in the bunker thread but seems more suitable here. It was my grandpa’s birthday last week and I forgot to call him and say happy birthday, and now my moms called and told me he’s had a massive stroke and is in the hospital. I feel like such a fucking piece of shit right now. Why did I let it slip my mind like that? The last time I was in town and went to visit them he was at lawn bowling and I didn’t stop by and see him. I feel like the worst grandchild ever rn.

No. 241925

>>241923
I don’t even know my grandparents’ birthdays kek

No. 241929

>>241923
Omg anon i'm so sorry, there was no way to know something like that would happen, i'm sure he already appreciates every moment he lived with you and that's all that matters

No. 241931

I want to shit on an old BPD friend so badly. I used to truly love her, she was fucked up but she tried her best and had my back but she got worse as time went on. It got to the point I was hiding that I made new friends or was hanging out with my family to avoid making her jealous and setting her off. Eventually I ended the friendship, quick text and blocked her because I know she'd never let the relationship end easily. Now she emails me from random addresses saying I'm a fucking loser with no friends and my family hates me. I want to go off on her and tell her exactly why no one, not even her family, wants to deal with her. I won't though, but I will stop opening her emails.

No. 241941

Nonnies help I can’t stop seething about how middle class boys growing up or reaching adulthood in the 80s was the ultimate life on easy mode and just how imbalanced it made everything even still today

No. 241958

>>241931
That’s nuts nonners, how do you know it’s her?

No. 241964

>>241958
Because the first couple came from accounts I recognized and then blocked too. It's not constant, maybe once every 2 months but it's been about a year and a half now.

No. 242008

I hate that people assume everyone had normal, caring parents. I had an abusive family and it's annoying as hell having coworkers ask about them. I just have to answer the questions (I hate just talking about them), and hold back mentioning how shitty they are and how much I hate them. I've mentioned some things on how I don't talk to them much, stay away as much as I can, and how neglectful and controlling they were/are, but like normies do they just look at me blankly. One even tried to come up with excuses for their actions, but she's old and raised conservative so I try to take it with a grain of salt. It just gets so annoying being asked by them what my parents do or what my parents think about my work. I can't vent or tell them the truth of how I feel or what's going on, because it seems to be some taboo mentioning you had an abusive background and want no-contact with your family.

Ugh makes me angry and frustrated. It's worse that I still have to live with them too. So I can't mention all the details of my situation or my coworkers might say something to law enforcement, leading to trouble and conflict.

No. 242011

>>241923
Phone or try visit anon! I had something similar happen, your grandpa will understand, you're young. Maybe send him a card or something if you can't see him? I hope your grandpa makes it out okay, I send you my love nonnie

No. 242076

Thank you nonnie!

I miss talking to my boyfriend. He treated me really horribly over the weekend so I can't bring myself to message him, even though this sucks and feels very lonely.

No. 242117

>>241931
jesus christ nona i was in the same boat as you. keep on ignoring her nonny and if possible block her IP address. You don't have to deal with someone like that

No. 242138

I don’t even live with my deadbeat dad but he’s so fucking obsessed with me he constantly goes out of his way to try and provoke me. earlier this week he was outside my house trying to take my cable box, My sibling just handed it over because they didn’t want problems but I ended up fighting my dad because he had no business even being here and told him the day he died can’t come soon enough he got out of his car trying to hit me while screaming “I’m going to fucking kill you!” in front of everyone and I had to run back inside threatening to call the cops so he wouldn’t try to get in, too. then my mom and my visiting family go out to dinner with him on the same day and every day since like that doesn’t make me feel like shit and they my family doesn’t care that this man is straight up abusive and violent. yesterday he called a visiting family member to ask if I was home? why? and now this morning I wake up and my first notification is a threatening text from him about how he’s cutting off my cell service and that I better figure out a new phone and phone plan like just leave me the fuck alone!!! I don’t have anything to do with you and you swear up and down you don’t care about me but the way you’re so obsessed with me says otherwise!!

No. 242142

My mother and I don't live in the same areas anymore so this happens less frequently but im cleaning out my closet so I have to vent. Even though Im in my late 20s, my mom buys clothes for me in the interim between when i see her, even underwear (utilitarian stuff to clarify, not lingerie, but still weird). She doesn't ask me what I might need, or even lets me know she's shopping for me. Just has a pile of things she's collected and no matter how many times I tell her to stop doing this, she doesn't listen. Even saying no to everything, she pouts, nags or gets angry until I agree to take at least some of the things. On top of everything else they are never even remotely my style so I never wear them and they just end up taking up space in my wardrobe until I finally donate them. I don't invite my mom to visit me in the city I live in, but the few times before I decided Id rather visit her than have her here, she would look through my closet to make sure I still had clothes she gave me. Even though she can't see my wardrobe anymore, she'll drill me about articles of clothing to ask if I still have them or ask why I am wearing a similar article of clothing but not one she bought, for example a jacket I bought and like, rather than one she had forced on me. It's just so exhausting and frankly weird, like some strange control thing. I wish she'd just spend all that money on things for herself or her grandchildren (from another sibling).

No. 242152

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I need someone to slap me and tell me to finally stop being an idiot and open up public art commissions instead of thinking that announcing commissions is ebegging. My healths been doing terrible for half of a year now and general doctor does not give a shit (his rating is one star and I can't change him because of the area). The only private doctors are in a different city and both cost a lot of money. This jerk always shrugs and tells me he doesn't know what's wrong with me while prescribing meds that make me faint. I really need help but Ive always been a stubborn "I'll suffer alone" type, always too embarrassed to talk about my problems.

No. 242167

>>242152
Nonna if you're doing commissions it's literally not even ebegging, you're selling something. Open them up, you have nothing to feel guilty about. I hope your health improves.

No. 242168

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>>242152
OPEN UP COMMISSIONS!

No. 242218

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My whole life right now is going back and forth between
>use lolcow to pass the time
>see something that pisses me off
>have bad compulsive thoughts
>decide to quit using lolcow
>literally anything on the internet or irl pisses me off
>immediately get urge to use lolcow

I really really really need to get rid of my computer, I have a legit internet addiction. A few years ago I laughed at the idea of "digital self harm" but I think that's what lolcow is for me. But I have classes online so I can't get rid of my devices. And my living condition right now sucks so bad I can't unplug from my devices for even a moment because they're my only coping mechanism. This sucks I want to be functional so bad. I love you nonnies but I stopped having fun a long, long time ago

No. 242305

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I'm on day 3 of a 4-day weekend and it's fucking with my head. This is the longest period of consecutive days off I've had since the pandemic started, I've been working every second day with the occasional 2 days off in a row. I haven't done anything except sleep for 12 hours a night, shitpost here, and play Switch games. I feel guilty for wasting my time off just sitting around being lazy but I'm so tired and thinking about doing anything productive literally makes me break down crying. I'm dreading going back to work because it's been so nice. I also hate myself for not idk spending these 4 days doing uber eats or learning a skill. I'm so tired and it feels so good to have unlimited free time. Working every second day is hell because all your days off feel like Sunday so you can't even enjoy them. This time off has felt like heaven but I feel so guilty and sad for 'wasting' it because it might be the only time off like this I get for the rest of the year. It feels like I don't deserve the time off because I'm not appreciating it, I'm just resting.

No. 242309

>>241931
Ignoring her is the thing that hurts her the most. Do not engage.

No. 242310

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>>242305
You deserve a nice break where you can sit around and do nothing. Don't get down on yourself for much needed rest! It's hard to switch from being so crazy productive to being relaxed. You aren't wasting anything!

No. 242311

>>242218
Literally same. I would escape to /m/ when /ot/ gets too retarded. But now…man I don’t even know. Every time I go anywhere on the internet I get the urge to get on lolcow to feel sane again because everything I see out there is repulsive and depressing and alienating.

No. 242374

>>242311
NTA but nonna this is exactly how I feel. I immediately get mad at how male-oriented the rest of the internet is, how nobody ever really calls out male bullshit, how nobody gives a shit about women in general. I always end up coming back because I feel like this is the only place where I can find peace at even though anons get retarded plenty of times. Once you go full girlclub you just can't go back

No. 242409

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I'm starting to feel like what I was good at and always praised for as a kid/young adult [art] I'm suddenly realizing I'm not really that talented in. I was always praised and told I was amazing for my age group but i must've peaked then because my stuff is so stagnated compared to others now. There's nothing else I'm known for being good so I've got nothing

No. 242416

I seriously hate living in this 3rd world shithole.
>move from my aunt grandma’s house
>come back home
>we don’t have curtains yet
>the internet at home comes and goes
>the internet at aunt grandma’s house is completely dead
>calling the internet provider is always the same as googling why the fuck is the internet not working
>can’t get in my language classes because no internet
>internet usually comes back at around the time the class is over
I want to fucking die already.

No. 242422

I hate how race obsessed americans are and how every time i look around discussion of my home city i always see stupid racism being thrown around lmao. i feel alienated from americans (from both my ethnicity and outside) and im glad i moved to a dif country

No. 242426

>>242416
This will be me in some months oof

No. 242429

>>242409
Talent will only get you that far in art, anon. It's something you have to nurture and grow. If you want to continue being good you have to put the work in, by doing studies and learning from other people you admire. There are always new things to learn and ways to experiment and improve. Also, it's important to you do art for your own enjoyment and not just because other praise you.

No. 242431

Actually most psychologists endorse corrective rape

No. 242434

>>242426
Don’t worry, I’ve started to get fed up just by around the remodeling at home was almost done, I often want to die, so it’s okay, you will be able to handle it, nonnie.

No. 242440

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>>242429
Ty anon, I will try not to give up.
The drawing boards of all things made me really feel this, there were anons doing amazing drawings in half the time I could, and actually finishing them ffs I stopped doing art for a while because work, and been holding that as an excuse not to be doing more drawing. I get so caught up in the definition of 'artist', but really I have more ideas than finished work

No. 242442

Emailed that “sage” bitch and told her to stop spamming

No. 242446

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>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping
>google play services keeps stopping

No. 242448

>>242218
This is me as well. If the site goes down I guess I'd have no choice about it then but I use this place as my vent/advice/stupid spam place because I don't have any irl close friends to bitch to. I just realized today when I couldn't connect to one of my favorite apps that I've been using it as a cope for loneliness and I would have so much free time & be more productive if I wasn't constantly using it but I still have the urge to get on. You could block the site but knowing its still there is tempting. Sometimes it's better when the power is out of your hands

No. 242449

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>>242446

No. 242450

im gonna fail and i have no one else to blame but myself.

No. 242473

>>242450
As terrible as this sounds, the first step to getting back up is accepting your failure and learning to grow from it. Yes you failed, and it sucks and hurts but you just have to push forward. If you're already at the bottom there is no other way to go but up.

No. 242475

>>242450
Everyone fails at some point, nonnie, what matters is that you get up and keep fighting to accomplish what you want and need.

No. 242792

You're a naggy perfectionist who doesn't listen to a fucking word I say, you keep pushing and poking and ignoring me asking for time cos Im getting angry and then you play victim when I shout at you. I should have left you years ago but you're an expert victim you little bitch grow up

No. 242838

I'm pretty sure everyone at my workplace is convinced that I am profoundly retarded because I have attention problems and can't remember stuff I was told 547842x times and keep asking questions I've asked before 3566327x times. I noticed they choose their words very carefully when talking to me and explain things from the verrry basics as if I was actually 'special'

No. 242844

I don’t have a home, and everything is so uncertain right now. I have a warm place to sleep, but my life is really falling apart due to external circumstances. I still have to get up and go to work for 40 cents above minimum wage, and act like nothing is happening.
Things are so consistently fucked up and incoherent that I am just dissociating 24/7 to white knuckle through it, and I can tell that the vibes I’m emitting around other people are falling along a variable range of abnormality, that “can’t quite put my finger on it, but something is wrong with this person” type of impression. That’s not really a priority though, I guess. Definitely feeling very empty and dead inside lately. Even my physical mannerisms radiate a warped discomfort and tension, my health is going to shit from stress.
I don’t really feel like a human being at all.

No. 242937

i hate it when i'm just browsing the web and come across random misogyny. It's like a smack in the face every time. It makes me realize how normal it is for men to actively hate women but if you say anything mildly critical of men they lose their shit. They really can't take any criticism. They will flat out say "men are better" even in "progressive" spaces and people think it's fucking normal. I hate men more every day.

Yesterday on reddit politics sub they had a whole thread about how tucker carlson is actually a woman because he's so entitled? Have they ever fucking MET a man? Men will literally kill women for rejecting their advances. There is no entity on this planet as entitled as a male, ESPECIALLY one from old family money like Tucker. He's the perfect caricature of the trustfund white american male. God if this place dies and I don't have somewhere to vent about this stuff I'll explode.

No. 242948

>>242937
I just saw an article about mistakes women make when trying to defend themselves. The comments were full of gymbros circlejerking about how women have no chance against men when assaulted, how much stronger they are and how women shouldn't even try to defend themselves. The article wasn't even about comparing men to women.
Yeah sure, you won't overpower me if I shoot you first, you asshole.

No. 243152

I just want some honesty on the internet. It used to feel so genuine when I would chat on forums with people about every random thing we thought of, and now it just feels so safe and corporate. Everyone’s projecting the same bland image and having the same boring trendy conversations, because they’re all advertising themselves to look good for employers. God forbid anyone just talk about real issues going on in their lives, because that’d be too negative and “toxic”. Everyone I talk to sounds like a bot. They use the same buzzwords over and over. I'm tired of everything real being considered problematic. Just let people talk and enjoy things. It’s like faking a smile at a job. I don’t want to do that when I'm casually on the internet.

tldr, I don’t want to hear people regurgitate the same nonsense about fucking Squid Game.

No. 243204

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why did you delete my testing posts? I was checking out if the website worked because it clearly doesnt. I hate moderation in this website so fucking much, also she's not even korean she's from a japanese advertisement. If the dumb dog boy can stay so can this unhinged society woman

No. 243213

>>243152
>I just want some honesty on the internet. It used to feel so genuine when I would chat on forums with people about every random thing we thought of, and now it just feels so safe and corporate. Everyone’s projecting the same bland image and having the same boring trendy conversations, because they’re all advertising themselves to look good for employers.
This, and everyone has the same lukewarm political correct opinion on everything. Even this website doesn't feel safe from it, and I'm honestly tired. Everyone gets so fucking angry easily and everyone accuses everyone of everything and you can't escape it, it's in every corner of the internet. I don't want to use the internet anymore. The internet is fucking dead.

No. 243239

>>243204
I love this pic

No. 243365

>>243152
What would you like to talk about in a honest way nona?

No. 243397

I feel really happy lately. Maybe it's a little cringe, but a year or so ago I tried to start this anime and I couldn't get past the first episode because I was so jealous of the friend group. I was friendless at the time and really not doing well. Now, I'm watching that anime with my best friend. Comparing how I felt a year ago to now makes me really happy. I'm not alone anymore, I'm happy. I don't want these happy peaceful days to end. I want to spend everyday like this.
This isn't a vent but I usually just use this thread as a diary anyway.

No. 243407

>>243152
Its not just people trying to look good for employers it's the fact that slightly disagreeing with the general public will get you cancelled, stalked, harassed, etc.

I'm also getting very sick of how sexual everything needs to be now. All Snapchat ads have to have some photoshopped thot in a bikini, all Pinterest "fashion" posts of women using body filters and just body checking, Twitter and Instagram is overrun but insanely proportional women wearing almost nothing and all of their fans swearing up and down "she actually looks like that guys!". Even YouTube shorts are just porn clickbait now. Can't we do anything without everything having to either be softcore porn or some boring cliche thing to appeal to public?

No. 243479

I am 100% convinced that I am on the spectrum but at the same time I keep denying it despite the fact that most of my behaviours are fucking autistic.
When I was a kid I used to spend my time counting leaves on a bush or rocks and enjoyed being left alone. Now I don't truly know what intentions people have when they talk to me, in my experience I assume something bad so I close down myself and not talk when I don't have to because I don't want to spill my spaghetti.
I always sit on the same chair when I am eating and become frustated if something as small as a bus route changes.
Right now I am saving money to get my license so I can't get diagnosed in the near future.

No. 243531

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I'm a bitter loser and I push everyone away, when I spend time with people I genuinely feel disgust and anger towards them, every little sound they make annoys me and I have to go somewhere lonely and small. I don't know what's wrong with me, I guess I don't want to be alone forever but the mere thought of enjoying something with someone else makes me want to vomit.

No. 243616

>>243479
Recently got diagnosed myself and was also aware but in denial of the high change I was autistic. Getting the diagnosis is helpful for confirmation and for self-acceptance. Not in a way of saying all your faults are due to autism and making excuses, but understanding that your brain operates differently and how it's affected your life trajectory. I'm deeply sorry to hear you don't have the funds to get diagnosed sooner. Don't lean fully into self-diagnosis, but do check out scientific literature on it and dealing with thought patterns common in autistic people. I've only read a few sections from Tony Atwood's The Complete Guide to Asperger's Syndrome (current day terminology is level 1 ASD for "high-functioning" people) but I found it illuminating.

No. 243714

Friend breakups are rough. My ex-friend took advantage of my naivety and convinced me I was not ready for a real job so I can keep working on her passion project. She treated me like shit in general, too. She would always correct behaviors of mine she deemed wrong or annoying, but let our other friends get away with similar behaviors. Our entire friend group stopped talking to me because of all the things she said about me when venting about her passion project. It was because I was so sick of working on it that I just started to ignore her. We haven't spoke in a couple years other than for her to pick up her stuff she left at my place. I know I'm not the best person and I'm at fault too, but I feel really manipulated and gaslit by her. Then at times, I really miss hanging out with her and talking to her. We were friends for nearly a decade and I haven't really made that close of friends since. She still watches my IG stories and I often wonder what she's thinking or if it was a misclick.

No. 243766

i just deleted everything i wrote, basically: i'm not okay, i pretend i'm fine but i'm fucking not, and nobody gives a fuck, i hate everyone and i hate this life, i'm sick of hearing bad news, i'm sick of my bad luck, i'm sick of conforming to the the shitshow that is my life, i want to genuinely kill myself. If no one was here i would scream until i passed out, i want to hit something, hit someone, i'm so fucking angry at the world and my family and the only thing distracting me of all this suffering is seeing the schizos and retards infight at the /ot bunker, that's how pathetic my life is

No. 243771

>>243531
get new friends silly

No. 243812

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I know I'm young and that I might be wording this overdramatically, but I'm scared that I'll never experienc love, or if I'm incapable of loving. I can't really imagine myself 'being in love' with a person, even if I was dating them for a year or something. I like the idea of a person's presence in my life greatly benefiting me and us both needing eachother a little bit (not in an unhealthy way), and have somebody to share my life with, but I'm unsure if I'm capable of loving someone else. Even in the case of puppy love or whatever, I've never felt a signfigantly strong attachment to anyone. That isn't to say I'm incapable of caring- I do care

No. 243872

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s like the doctors shook me too hard when I came out of my mom’s uterus. I’m so bad at life. I think I retired from life without knowing it. I sit in my room for so long that I forget there’s a world beyond. It seems so unreal. Last time I went out with someone was last year, in October I think. I can’t believe that there’s a real world out there and people do real things in it. It can’t be real. What do they do? Shovel sand? Do they go out and talk? The streets are so strange and lucid at night. I don’t go out anymore even to normal places because I’ve grown too hesitant. I can’t believe new places exist and new people dwell around in them. It’s so strange it’s unsettling. And you make friends? What the fuck? And do things?

No. 243906

I used to initiate hang outs with a friend and she’d agree then cancel at the last minute. Would say stuff like “I’m not feeling it” or “I’m in a bad mood” or “I feel like it might suck tonight”. I didn’t think she disliked me because we got on great but now I realize we always hung out in groups and outside of that she always canceled. I stopped hanging out with her due to this and it’s cool and all but it’s strange seeing her magically enjoy going to all those places but with other people.

No. 243969

>>243771
It's a bit hard because watching people from afar still makes me mad for some reason, but I'll get back to uni in a few days, hopefully I'll make some friends. I plan on hiding those feelings for a while and eventually I'll get used to (and enjoy) having relationships.

No. 243977

I HAVE THIS UGLY FUCKING SCAB ON MY KNUCKLE AND IT'S SO SO UGLY BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT DONE HEALING UGH. The way it's healing makes it look like a giant blackhead. Fucking gross. Why me.

No. 244033

I liked this guy so much and found out what a narcissist he is and that he wasn't taking me seriously because he thought I just liked his "persona" instead of having a crush on him. I just want to love and be loved anons. No more mind games, no more emotional abuse, please, why are people so hurtful.

No. 244085

I hate my life and living with my abusive parent. I want to move to my bf's home country with him but then I would feel so lost and bored. I can't even study what I want to study there because there are no international classes for it yet still would have to pay tuition.

No. 244096

>>243872
Go to the movie theater

No. 244761

>>243365
There’s not really something specific I want to talk about. I just miss when I would go online and share entire stories back and forth with online friends or get into lighthearted debates with them. Everyone posted with more personality. Now it feels like I’m reading the same bland things over and over. No one acts like themselves.

No. 244864

I was talking to a friend and his mom (I was eating over) today about someone I got into a fight with and made up and they told me I was a good person for it. I don't know why that made me cry, I always feel like a bad person who hurts everyone around her and hearing that I'm not is so meaningful, even from people who don't know me that well. (wanted to post this in the other thread but there's no space)

No. 244868

>>244864
You're a good person nonnie ♥

No. 244909

I want my /ot/ back. I want to complain about plastic.

No. 244981

I feel so empty. I hate this. No feelings I can vent out just emptiness. No joy for life.

No. 245062

I like being as fit as I am now but sometimes I just want to be a fat fuck that doesn’t give a shit and just eat whatever garbage I want.

No. 245064

Whenever I have sex I imagine an idealized version of myself so I can cum. Last night, the actual image of myself was fucking me up. I'm so ugly. I can't bear to see or imagine what I really look like. I can't see my idealized self again though I'm trying to see her. Cumming is worth it.

No. 245066

>>245064
Why are you imagining yourself at all during sex? You should be looking at your partner for arousal and enjoying the sensations. You aren’t ugly, you might be dealing with some pornsickness though.

No. 245081

I've been having more and more suicidal thoughts lately in these past couple of months. I'm not suicidal, but it's like there's no other option.

No. 245087

>>245081
Why's that, Nonna? What is this theoretical hole you're in? Please talk to someone. I'd say talk to anything (like a tree, usually meant for talking out frustrations), but you need actual feedback.

No. 245099

I am stuck and everything is due to finances and how the world is organized and I might kill myself soon

No. 245101

been working my ass off and i just wanted to hang out with you but you chose your friend whos probably a neet to hang out with, ok, cool, great, see you later i guess

No. 245109

>>245066
I know, I wish I knew how to cum normally. I'm not pornsick in the sense that I've ever been addicted to porn, but I learned how to masturbate way too early (like I don't have memories of learning it and my earliest memories are being 2-3 and my parents discouraging me from doing it) and I linked it with visual images before I reached double digits. My boyfriend talks about his experience of sex with me and it sounds too good to be true since he genuinely is just turned on by me and the sensations of sex and max imagining for him is when he's behind me and he wants to imagine my face. It makes me sad because I wish I could learn that. I really suck at sexualizing men, I like their bodies and penises, but in a weird obsessive way, not in a turned on way. I only get the latter around women but I think that's conditioned onto me.

No. 245114

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mad @ long distance bf cuz after 5 minutes of talking on the phone he asked what time i have to be up for work & it was super early so he hurriedly got off the phone with me.

fUCK i'm an adult i know when my bedtime is i was enjoying talking to you but i have to just play it cool and say goodnight and then stay up for an additional 2 hours fuming :)))

No. 245118

>>245114
Your mistake is having a LDR in a first place

No. 245146

I have to go into the office to do some paperwork after being in home office ever since I was employed here and my social anxiety ridden ass could barely sleep

No. 245159

>>245087
I know you're right that I should tell someone, but I'm so ashamed of what's going on that I can't. I can't even say it here. Even if I did tell someone, nothing can be done. I'm just lost.

No. 245164

I have a boyfriend but I don't really want to have sex with him, and we haven't done it in a long long time. He still loves me and is really excited to see me, but I just don't feel the same. I don't know if this is just a regular depressive episode or if maybe I'm asexual/gay. I'm commenting on the later because I have had sex with two men but I didn't enjoy it with either, and I don't feel turned on by men at all. Sexuality seems so performative to me. I don't even imagine myself dating or anything. I like having a crush on someone and picture hand holding in my mind and that's good enough for me. Should I break up? I feel stupid.

No. 245169

>>245164
I honestly feel like most women feel like this. Do you have any attraction to women? If no, you’re not gay. If you should break up, idk, that’s up to you.

No. 245172

>>245164
I used to feel that way, I'd say it's depression or like >>245169 said

No. 245176

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My rant is mundane compared to some other nons but I'm getting so pissed off and frustrated with the director for our group project. I'm scriptwriting and he keeps suggesting changes we already talked about and agreed on in previous drafts. Pretty much every change, even mundane shit like having weather in the script even if it might change when filming- which was his suggestion to begin with. He and the rest of the team liked the idea of a whistling kettle instead of an electric, but now wants it electric without even explaining why. He also wants me to add time to the scene headings, which I told him is a formatting no-no but despite the fact he can google it for himself he keeps suggesting it.

I noticed a plot hole in his pitch outline and fixed it in the first draft, now he wants it back for literally no reason plus another plot hole. He also keeps telling me to follow his structure which I did from day 1. I only made a big change to the structure in the most recent draft which he agreed to try in a meeting. He also said he doesn't want it to be too much of a horror, but does want it to have a horror trope. ??? Bitch be consistent.

At first I blamed myself for being emotionally attached to my script, but you know what nonnies I think it's him who's attached to a shitty idea, because when I fight back or suggest a change he doesn't have any reason for it. He said he's had this idea for years, but clearly never actually put thought into it because it took me 2 seconds to notice a plot hole, and a few minutes to fix it without it even affecting the story. I set up a meeting with our tutor today because "we need help deciding on beats" which is the polite way of saying I want to bite this dudes head off. Wish me luck.

No. 245198

>>245172
>>245169
Yes, I do like women. I've been liking women since I was a kid, my first crush was a woman, and the first time I masturbated it was to a woman.
I just don't want to be a lesbian… I don't think the type of girl I like exists or would date me.

No. 245199

>>245176
I'm so curious, is it for a live action movie or tv show? Working with this guy seems frustrating, stay strong and good luck.

No. 245233

>>245198
> I just don't want to be a lesbian… I don't think the type of girl I like exists or would date me.
Lol, what is the point of this? Just break up with your bf and let him move on if you’re gay and don’t actually love him. And do something about your internalised homophobia.

No. 245236

>>245233
Well, it's not that I think being a lesbian is bad because it's morally wrong. I think it's bad because it fucking sucks to be gay if you live in a conservative place and you're retarded and mean spirited, like I am.
Also I don't even know if I'm a lesbian. I might be bi. Or I might not be attracted to anyone. I don't want sex I just want to make out with a girl, maybe hold hands. I still like my boyfriend, as a friend.

No. 245248

i am slowly getting over the man that broke my heart. it's a bit painful to think about it. sometimes i still think of him and i wonder how he's doing. he hurt me emotionally for months but somehow i still can't bear the thought of cutting all contact with him - everyone tells me to do that. he kept me for months on edge giving me mixed signals and switching back and forth between being friends and feeling something more for me.

i guess this ties into my issues with love. somehow whenever my therapist asks me what i think about love and what i could do to improve my romantic relationships i just start bawling. i don't know exactly why. i want love but i also want love that won't be hurtful for me or the other person.

No. 245265

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I miss my college city and all its fun bars and venues so fucking much why does it have to be so expensive and be overrun with drug addicts and Twitter commies

No. 245337

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I wish weight loss was faster

No. 245339

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Honestly, some nonnies on this site are harsher than men. Some girl posted her picture to the kibbes body type thread and everyone started saying she looked like a tranny, hand linebacker shoulders, had a broad frame and all this other horrible shit. If you sent that picture to any man you know they would just say “hot”, including the bfs of the cunts in that thread. Honestly it annoyed the hell out of me because I have genuinely massive shoulders for a woman.

No. 245343

>>245339
>If you sent that picture to any man you know they would just say “hot”, including the bfs of the cunts in that thread.
Yeah those anons were mean but they only assumed it was a tranny because of the dirty room and the outfit choice which didn't work for kibbe test. Your attitude of "stealing ur boyfriend zomg" is just as hilarious and womenhating as those women though. Next time you want to argue about something, defend a woman without turning it into a competition for shitty men.

No. 245350

>>245343
NTA but I remember the room wasn't that dirty, just filled with toddler toys, I don't get how that points to troonery, the opposite for me actually.

No. 245351

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>>245343
>they only assumed it was a tranny because of the dirty room
Why the fuck you lying, why you always lying

No. 245352

>>245339
yeah those anons are jealous and retarded
>>245343
the room looked like a nursery, yeah it was messy but how the fuck does that translate to troon. also multiple anons explicitly said her body looked masculine and "horsey" (what the fuck does that even mean???)

No. 245355

>>245339
I didnt post on the thread myself but it was a combination of what >>245343 said, weird dirty room full of kids stuff, egirl clothes, heels which you arent supposed to year for figuring out your kibbe type.
That with her skinny and angular body totally can set off troon flags.

No. 245356

>>245343
Again, you are harsh as fuck. Normal people would put 2 and 2 together and think “those are toys and baby things, raising a baby is messy work, it’s also a small room so things get cluttered easily”. You use any excuse to harm the ego of another woman to bring her down to her level, and that likely means that you are either fucking ugly and jealous, or a larping scrote, or both (tranny) And then you turn around and deny it, and “n-no u!!!” When I point out the obvious fact.

No. 245358

>>245351
A woman can still have masculine body qualities nonny. I have extremely broad shoulders too but I was one of the tranny tinfoilers, and it was because of the background.

No. 245359

>>245355
>skinny angular body
>Troon like
Seething fatty confirmed

No. 245361

>>245355
Shut the fuck up already, let it go

No. 245364

>>245359
jfc anachan if you cant admit she underweight enough to make her look more angular than average you need therapy

No. 245365

>>245355
KEKKKK. Being skinny is normal Americunt.

No. 245366

>>245364
In my country the majority of women around her age look like that. Just admit that you’re fat.

No. 245367

>>245361
nta and I think the tranny tinfoilers are retarded too but anons are allowed to have a conversation, don't read it if it bothers you so much

No. 245369

>>245364
You have to be specially retarded to think a skinny woman looks even remotely like a man, her bone structure is more obvious it should be evident she's a woman

No. 245370

>>245367
One of them in particular was really stuck on how skinny they all where when they where young women around size 6 - 10. Aka a normal weight. Some people don’t sit around stuffing their fat pie hole all day and therefore have defined waist and collarbones. To act like simply having visible collarbones is abnormal is such fat bitch behaviour. We need to stop letting Americans define what is normal because h they are literally the fattest cunts in the world.

No. 245372

>>245365
Anon did you quote the wrong post? I'm defending the skinny girl at the kibbe thread
>>245370
This, everyone in my family and neighborhood has visible collarbones, we are not anas just normal weight

No. 245375

>>245370
> how skinny they all where when they where young women around size 6 - 10
wait who's they? I thought we were talking about the girl from the kibbe thread

No. 245376

>>245367
No I replied to the right post, I was agreeing that the tranny tinfoilers are retarded and pointed out another aspect of how retarded they are

No. 245377

>>245375
There where two different women who posted in that thread.

No. 245388

>>245377
They told the other girl she was balding wtf

No. 245399

>>245339
I just read it and you're 100% right wtf. That was obviously a woman posting. Anons being bitchy for 0 reason.

No. 245400

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That's it nonas, I have to ghost my main guy. He's flaky as fuck and doesn't even contact me to set plans the day we're supposed to meet up in the evening. I told him two times I hate making last minute plans. He's defo just stringing me along and testing how much he can get away with. He always comes back (the next day) with saccharine messages that make me feel better about him and he definitely knows what he's doing. I gave him so many chances.

I'm digging an imaginary grave to this guy. I'm quite upset.
I liked how he looked and he seemed non-psycho and educated. I lost my best one and now I have no one suitable. Fuck him for wasting my time and making me think he was stable.
RIP blonde over-texting suddenly disappearing asshole. May you never find a good secure gf. Hope you get stuck with some BPD-chan that'll make you miserable for the rest of your life. Hope you get bald and fat. You're a ghost to me now. Even if you multitext me now, wasting my time and not letting me know meet up day/time over and over again is way too disrespectful. You're not getting another reply from me.

No. 245403

Kibbe is autistic as fuck just wear what you like and don't be fat

No. 245405

>>245400
>main guy

theres your problem. fwb type shit will get you low effort

No. 245417

>>245400
Don't sleep with men until you're officially dating. Most men have a madonna whore complex and you'll forever be the fwb if you sleep with them too early because of their retarded views.

No. 245418

>>245417
>>245405
What? We didn't sleep together.

No. 245420

>>245418
Wtf? Then I have no idea what he was stringing you along for, sorry anon and glad you got rid of him.

No. 245425

>>245417
NTA and unrelated, but your post made me think how schizophrenic it was to get a message as a teen that you are not supposed to sleep with guys because they will just use you while developing horny feelings AND knowing that sex is a part of romantic relationships…

No. 245426

>>245159
Ayrt, I understand. I'm in the same boat. I can't talk to parents because they'll dismiss me and are actually a major part of the problem. I had a therapist once for a short time due to a dumb stint. I only talked about the incident that lead me there and not the underlining issue because I was too embarrassed to talk about it too. She was nice and actually trying to help me. Too bad I couldn't stick around longer. Maybe I would have told her and she could have helped me coped. I just don't want you to be like me. I hate everything and none of my old hobbies bring me joy. I'm a husk and been for way too long. No one deserves to go through it.

No. 245428

>>245425
I'm sorry I couldn't understand what you're saying? I just think most men have that thought pattern especially nowadays but once you're actually dating, of course you're going to have sex.

No. 245436

>>245420
Same. It was part of the reason why I still gave him a chance. This Friday I tried to say goodbye cause his flakiness pissed me off and he totally freaked so I gave him one last chance. We were supposed to meet up today evening, it's afternoon already and he didn't even reply to me asking if today was still on, nor did he tell me where or when do we meet.
He didn't look like he wanted to have sex soon, I think he probably wanted me to feed his ego or he's dating someone with bigger priority but really wanted me as a second option if it doesn't work out. Honestly I'm paranoid now and think he might have a gf because his texting patterns are so weird.
I never know if I'm way too trusting or too schizo, it's hard to know when dating guys.
Part of me wants to set a meetup if eventually contacts me (if he won't just ghost) and just not come, let him wait for me in the cold somewhere and block him. Though I guess that's too nerve-wracking and petty. But it pisses me off that he thinks I'm gonna immediately come to him like a dog any minute he whistles.

No. 245459

I do not want to let scrotes have a monopoly on cute things! I hate that some cute art drawn by women or jfashion period are considered scrotey here now, I just want to like the things I like without thinking about scrotes and whatever disgusting ways they might fetishize it. I don't want to live my life and get dressed in the morning entirely focused on what men might think, to let them control my life and tastes like that. Men do not get to have everything that's fun to me after making fun of women and belittling us for anything cute we enjoy anyway.

No. 245474

>>245459
i don't entirely understand the mindset behind telling women off for engaging in things that are now associated with scrotes. are we supposed to cower and look for things less "embarrassing" and let scrotes carry on dominating that thing? that's weak in my opinion. and it's sad when women enjoy cute things and are thought of as creepy because of the association men formed with cute & perverted. i don't want to be a coward who allows myself to perpetuate scrote perversion taking over what i like by pretending i don't enjoy it anymore. it's so tiring, carry on liking cute things anon. and be strong with it

No. 245479

>>245474
Right, that's how I feel too. And if we always let scrotes have all our things once they develop fetishes for them then they will do it with whatever else women move on to. I just don't want whether scrotes like or dislike the way I look to have any bearing on my life, they will take anything from us if we let them
>carry on liking cute things anon. and be strong with it
And thank you for this anon!

No. 245489

>>245459
The anons who accuse you of being a scrote for liking cute things are annoying as hell
>>245474
This is exactly what I think and what I've been saying but retarded anons won't listen


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