/snow/ - flakes & mistakes

Isabella was the victim of a complex and organized attack committed by so many people its untraceable. And its highly strange for me to say this. But I do find myself not only not believing her shit. But knowing its all an act. A place in my heart is growing for this person. And I respect her struggle right now. And I know it well myself. The basic start to this is to not believe her. Do not believe the discord, what you read, what she said. Even people who come on forums. It is a complex fabrication designed to look like the worst person possible.

I have no pride in this. I understand her pain. I have acted out in ways to make myself look the worst I possibly could. And to explain that takes time.

We all have secrets, we all can act terrible, we all fail ourselves and others.


NO ONE was certain she left a hamster outside, but it was rumored. And she did not convince a trans-person to kill themselves, she was one of the last people to talk to them. Isabella is the victim of everyone around her. Her inability to relate to them and the things she has been told and told herself haunt her. The reality is she has been bullied. And gave into that pain and it expanded, she chose to make herself look terrible. She framed herself. The treatment of max is however a question but I doubt there is much there. Same with goober.

She did not shoot a dog. She didn't microwave a hamster and eat it. What she did do was lie and pretend. She meme'd and just accepted the treatment she endured. She has always been treated poorly by others. These are lies. And there is depth to this situation.

Her behavior is the actions of someone reacting in fear. Possible psychosis. Most people are unaware of how to respond to such a large assault and that is certain. Confrontation is not always an easy option. This entire situation is predictable and unpredictable. But i have been unable to recall it why it feels this way.. Instead it just always feels familiar. I had my role. I never actually wanted her to endure it.

If people stop for a moment. And ask themselves what they could actually do about circumstantial evidence other then to release it, things become clearer. Secondarily, she seems to advocate for Chris to stop his relationship with his mom by suggesting another person.

The reality is a true conspiracy. And it was carried out by the anonymous of the internet. She heard an insane man talking shit and for some reason she just let it happen and leaned into it. I am emotionally concerned for her. No one should ever want someone to suffer. Lies were told even with purpose not all were.

But reality can be simple. Its human nature. On human nature. Like a game of telephone with lies the plot gets lost.
Here we are.

Everyone wants to be loved. Everyone can act out in ways that are unclear and difficult for people to understand. The extent of pain this woman is enduring is endearing and respectable. Because I know exactly what that shit feels like. And I was on all sides of so much in life. A small piece. A big piece.

I care about her. I dont want her to suffer and she needs to just stop. If someone can get her to talk with me I would appreciate that. But I know it wont happen. But we are both here at the same time. And I am a legitimately ill person. I see her behavior. I dont fucking buy it.

You are all being trolled. Its true. She is trolling you into hurting her. And you all dont understand this behavior. It is what someone does when they are preparing to die. Or they have an intention that is unclear and complex.

I have endured enough abuse that you could call me a sociopath although that is contestable, I do have all my emotions and feel for people I just can give it up. I was made this way. It didnt just happen. But it did give me a complicated way of looking into the world. And pain I cant explain. To deny yourself life is an awful thing. And I did that. That is what she is doing. She isnt even fighting well, its all an act… Which tells me she doesnt know how. And I dont believe she actually is a psychopath or sociopath. But I know what it feels like to be attacked by the entire world. I am afraid for her. I want her to speak honestly. And drop this fucking game.

I see it. I doubt it. Bella is pretending. Like I used to pretend. Because I wanted to be hated for all the hate I felt. The pain people inflicted on me in such intense and brutal ways. And I learned to use it to my advantage. When your not afraid of dying anything is possible. And to explain that is impossible itself.

To be honest I live in several different versions of the world. And it distorts what I understand. But I do love people. I hate to see them suffer. It actually brings a great deal of fury out of me. So when its my fault I want to die. But I cant kill myself. I want to love but I cant relax. I have a distance to me. I would do extreme and destructive things for the people I love because I do not feel the same feelings when others do.

No doxing. Leave spooky alone. I swear on this. It will be a serious consequence. I have extreme forgiveness because that is what people need sometimes. Especially if they are fucking acting. What she is enduring is bullshit. And yet I find myself in a complicated love for her. Because maybe she would understand the horror of my own life better then anyone I could ever meet.

I dont know her that well. But I see through her shit. Shes panicking. But shes acting. Shes angry. Buts shes also confused. No one here im sure could imagine this the same way. But my life is extreme. I see into the world and pull shit out of it. Sometimes people are just so kind. And it breaks my heart. There are people who care. And you are not evil. Stop pretending.

We all want to be loved. We do not do things for no reason. Everyone you have ever met wanted to be loved. Even if they murdered people for a living. No one exists without that need. And pretending like this is hurtful.

You all are fools for believing what you read like you do. You never even met her. Or you are just hateful and prefer this way. I dont know.

This is not my first day. I have a clear idea of what im doing when I do it. No certainty. But there is result. I ask a lot, of many people, for many reasons.(absolute peak autism)