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No. 58311
>>58242I wanted to live by myself.
First I lived with my overbearing divorcee parents, then they wouldn't let me move out until I got a boyfriend because they were scared I wouldn't be able to take care of myself, I've lived with that boyfriend for 4 years now because I don't have enough money to move out. Next year I'll be studying abroad for a year but I'm staying with a family with little kids.
I'm in my mid twenties, I'll never get to live alone.
No. 58315
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Ever since I discovered rainbow in middle school I wanted to be a kpop idol. But that will never happen because I'm black.
No. 58333
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This is going to sound ridiculous but I want to be a beautiful fairy princess living in a cute mushroom castle in the middle of an ancient forest. I want a giant garden where I can gather ingredients to cast spells and use herbs to bake things in the kitchen. And I want little mini cats with glittering fairy wings to live with me too lol
No. 58336
>>58329>I really just want to leave my family behind and find a quiet house in the woods for me and my dogs. I want to be alone.Me too, though I'd have to get a lot of disposable income somehow so I wouldn't have to go to work either.
>>58333Anon that is fucking adorable, too bad it's not an attainable impossible dream. I guess you could always build a mushroom shaped house in the woods and study herbology. Adopt some small cats and wear a pair of Renaissance Faire wings.
No. 58348
>>58330Yes please.
>>58333Me too, anon. It would be such a sweet, simple life. Maybe one day
No. 58359
>>58326I'm lesbian, no worries. It's why I would prefer an all girl's school. Higher chance of a cute nurse or principle who is also incredibly gay. And the idea of students who support us and draw fan art of us and stuff would be really cute.
>>58350You can have my southern accent, anon. People tend to either think they're cute or the trait of an inbred redneck, but they are kind of necessary as a folk singer, I guess.
No. 58367
>>58352If it's any comfort, 'talent' can only get you so far. I live in a block of flats under a professional opera singer, and trust me when I say she sounds horrible 99% of the time when she's rehearsing. But that's because she's, y'know, rehearsing - not performing on stage. I used to sing in a church choir (both as an adult and as a child) and by the time we were ready to perform we'd get so sick of all the songs we never wanted anything to do with them ever again.
Even if you have a beautiful voice you're going to sound like shit without vocal training, so all might not be lost. Go to a music school and ask to try out for solo singing.
No. 58373
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I wish I could live in a Ghibli movie. Maybe the town in Kiki's Delivery Service. People just seem kinder. There's no pettiness or cattiness or stupid drama like you see with people daily.
I just want a nice, simple life, surrounded by kind people who have nothing but kindness in their hearts.
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I wish I lived in the kingdom hearts universe and could just bounce around Disney worlds all day and believe in the power of friendship and all that shit
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No. 58384
>>58379Think of talent like sprinkles (I feel like onision lol) and hard work is the cake. Every cake is better with sprinkles, a little rubbish cake will always look better with sprinkles than a nice plain cake can look without, but you can still make a damn good cake without.
Pick something for you and stick with it, it doesn't matter if it's art or learning code, just something for you. Work at it.
No. 58631
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As a kid I always wanted to be the pretty rich girl who's kinda lonely because she doesn't have any siblings and befriends the shy new girl at school, taking her under my wing and going on like a huge shopping spree complete with a montage and junk and we're total besties
Basically I wanted to be the best friend character in a shitty 90's movie lmao
No. 58645
>>58631My dream is an alteration of this happening where I'm the shy girl, I get pulled under the popular girl's wing as a sort of "pet project"/sympathy case, but then we end up becoming closer and she has to act all tsundere in public because she's embarrassed of her growing affections.
Eventually, one of us confesses and we get married and get 2 dogs and 3 rats and a nice loft apartment with a backyard and my own herb garden and she goes off and does her passions while I spend my time on copy writing jobs and writing my screenplay on the side.
No. 58796
>>58791I think the closest you'd get to that is just playing shitloads of Tropico 4 lol
I remember when I was like 7 I wanted to be a cool girl fighter pilot with a ~*kawaii*~ codename like Destiny Angel from the 2005 Captain Scarlet reboot but my eyesight and hand-eye coordination are utter shit lmao
Also at one point I wanted to be an author but then secondary school was a thing and now I have no ideas for anything anymore, I'm pretty sure someone earlier in the thread experienced something similar.
I suppose I need a new life goal but I honestly don't even know.
No. 58865
>>58848
>Then she got knocked up by a guy who literally looks like a silverback gorilla and I inherited most of his family's appearance.My sides.
Anyway, I'm sure you're not that ugly anon, and being mixed doesn't automatically make a person attractive.
No. 59009
To generalize, I've always wanted to be famous. I would really like to be in movies or make music. I'm too shy and self conscious to act though and not committed enough to get better at music.
>>58631Same! I'm "too old" now, but a girl can dream…
No. 59047
I've always wanted to excel at STEM, either as a biologist or maybe something combining 3D animation, programming, and physics. I'm too fucking garbage at math to do that, though. I'm good at analysis and memorization, but math turns everything into a jumble.
Also, I still wish I was hot and had a petite body frame.
>tfw broad shouldered>>59025I'm mostly Asian looking with white-ish features, but man, that fucking red-ass flush from the most minor things is the worst. My first derm even diagnosed me with Rosacea (turns out I just have really pink undertones).
No. 59095
>>59067>>59068Really? I'm under the impression Calculus or a laterally difficult class is required for a Bachelors in Science, and more advanced classes are required for grad school. I guess I'll take a closer look at accumulating STEM credits as a fall back in case art doesn't work out for me (lel). But I'm really terrible at math, and not in a cute way. It's like reading a book in a foreign script like Urdu or something and trying to write an literary analysis about it.
I'm half-white, but yeah, there's a lot of diversity of body types even among (and between) homogenous populations (which aren't actually that homogenous) in East/South East Asia.
>>59090>those proportionsI'm sweating. Also the only thing that makes me feel better about my broad shoulders is that it makes my head look smaller and gives me a taller looking body ratio.
No. 59166
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I always wanted to open a small and personal coffee shop in a rustic town, vintage style (think persona 5 leblanc) and have it decorated with all-cat style, so pastries would be cute kitten forms, the cups would be cute cat forms, etc. With a nice fireplace, delicious home-made pastries and an incredible coffee smell. Basically a comfy second-home style.
Realistically i'm too poor to own a buisness and it wouldn't last that much because small business get crushed pretty fast, so i'm salty that it most likely won't happen. But i'm still saving up for it so in the future, i'll hopefully be the kind old lady who owns a cute cat coffee shop in a small mountain village, lmao.
This dream would be made even 1000x better if it was owned by me and my cute supportive boyfriend/husband, who helps me at everything and is kind and helpful and we basically live in a ghibli movie irl, but alas, real life.
Also, I always wished i could become a movie/tv actress, but realistically i'm fucking awkward in front of cameras and i cannot afford to train for it.
No. 59171
when i was a little kid, i used to fantasize about dating a girl as a boy. i hoped some cute feminine girl would notice me when i hit high school and had this whole self-deprecating-but-earnest artsy loner shtick, but all that happened was some straight girls teased me in front boys that they wanted to impress.
i have a boyfriend now, and i really do love him. but at the same time, it'd be really neat to have a relationship with a girl. ideally to just bone a ton of messy art chicks, but it'd be cute to be some girl's doofy butch gf. bf is monogamous as hell, and he's not interested in threesomes. i'd never go behind his back or anything, but man. i can't read cute yuri stories or classicl lez fiction without feeling this awkward longing.
(to be fair, even if i didn't have a bf, i probably wouldn't be getting laid anyway. i've never had a close female friendship past elementary school on account of being awkward/not having anything to talk about w girls. i dress like an average boring male nerd, have bad skin, and lift on the reg but don't build muscle. not at all "daddy" material U~U )
No. 59173
>>59171I'd totally date someone like you, anon.
I only dated men but it's just because I'm way too awkward to talk to girls. I'm very feminine in style as well, and I found that back when I was a tomboy girls didn't make me nearly as nervous. Now they can judge my make-up and style while they couldn't before.
But
>not having anything to talk about w girlsjust talk about the same shit you talk to boys? The few interactions I have with girls are always on the exact same subject as with boys (college stuff, games, anime, etc).
No. 59189
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>>59173I've literally never understood girls who say it's easier to make friends with guys. How?
No. 59190
>>59189Idk. I have mostly guy friends and I made them because I was into anime and videogames before it was cool (inb4 hipster, no… I was literally that weird nerdy chick no one really liked till 11th grade)
My female friends from elementary school grew apart from me during that period, but I had stuff in common with the nerdy guys and they could tell I wasn't just faking it for attention.
Someone said it's easier to impress guys and make them like you by being awkward, while girls need a different set of social skills and I think that's true.
No. 59199
>>59193>Guys only care about making stupid jokes.Holy fuck this.
I did my best to make conversation with some german guy and one day, he out of the blue mentioned that he enjoyed talking to me because it's different than when he's hanging out with this group of guy friends. Said it was more "serious" when we talked and that his friends just laugh and crack jokes all the time. I thought he didn't like his friends or something but later realized what it meant.
Not to mention whenever I'm talking to guys online they're really bad at opening up. They're always spouting overdone memes and making lame jokes and it's totally boring.
No. 59202
>>59173haha, thanks. it would make sense to talk to girls the same way i talk to boys, but as
>>59190 said, guys tend to find awkwardness charming, whereas girls find it off-putting. it might help to qualify that i don't have that many friends to begin with. i tend to befriend a very specific kind of nerdy/artsy guy with mother issues, and then spend most of the time cracking jokes as per
>>59196, and then part of the time talking through his emotional issues (matilda bernstein sycamore's relationship model: "First you reveal everything, and then when you can't think of anything else to reveal you go deeper.") this sort of guy is attracted to awkwardness because it makes a girl seem more obtainable (see
https://theblog.okcupid.com/the-mathematics-of-beauty-51bd25ae9a75 ). i've had all but one friend admit to me that they mainly talk to me because they're tryna fuqq and hope that i'll eventually break down and throw them a bone. it sort of sucks to have your friends want something from you that you're not able to fulfill, but it is probably better than having no friends?
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>>58242pfft me too. i used to visit websites like supermodels.nl all the time back when i was around 10/11 and wanted to be like Gemma Ward and Jessica Stam. I wanted to be a high end supermodel for Christian Dior who lived in LA in a mansion. Also Paris Hilton was my everything.
No. 59301
>>59287hey anon! hearing this kinda stuff makes my heart sympathetically twinge because i also felt the same way for a long while– that i loved science, but was too poor at math to succeed in it. but this blog post did a lot to encourage me to switch from a philosophy to chemistry major;
https://fledglingphysicist.com/2013/12/12/if-susan-can-learn-physics-so-can-you/if you're struggling with general mathematical skills, khanacademy is a great way to build those up;
https://www.khanacademy.org/exercisedashboardin addition, if you're interested in the general principles behind mathematics but feel hideous dread as soon as numbers appear (i speak from personal experience) take a look at
http://www.people.vcu.edu/~rhammack/BookOfProof/ No. 59302
>>59266Are you me, anon? This how I feel about myself too and I have no idea how to change that. I wish I would have enough discipline and stick to my goal.
I would love to see myself doing some artsy stuff and live in a big city and having a nice and aesthetically pleasant group of people who make art as well. Also finding somebody to love.
No. 59308
>>59301The idea behind Susan Fowler's post is good but she's known for embellishing her achievements and making herself look better/smarter than she really is. That's her whole thing, "oppressed girl in tech/STEM", and I'm not just talking about the Uber blogpost (which I believe was perfectly valid on her part, fwiw). She claims she's studied at unis where she only took a couple of online summer courses a few times and said she's worked at a million different 'startups' even though she's a freelancer doing gig work (or was, don't really know what she's up to now). I'd take any claims she makes with a grain of salt.
As for the concept of 'talent' for any particular skill (science, maths, whatever), Mindset by Carol Dweck is a great book even though it does get preachy and repetitive at times. Thanks for the other links btw!
No. 59345
I want to be cute and stylish, but I'm ugly, too poor to go shopping as often I would like to, and I'm shit at doing makeup or even picking what would suit me because of my skin color (I look like I'm permanently sick). I just look like an ugly normie right now but that's a vast improvement compared to what I was like as a teenager.
I also wish I had some sort of internet presence somehow. Like for example, having a lot of followers on twitter and be able to talk to them about fun stuff whenever I want to. But I really don't want people I know irl to find me and to judge me so I'm avoiding getting in that situation.
The thing I'd say seem the most unrealistic to me is getting a small comfy flat just for myself, and stable job that doesn't require me to keep working even after my work day is over, and be able to play video games at home whenever I want, cook whatever I want, and just have more freedom in general. Right now I'm living with my family and we're so many that I can't even do simple things such as sleeping early if I'm tired because everyone else is doing their things and being noisy for example. And once I'll get out, I'll probably have to have roommates because the only places where their are jobs are expensive cities.
>>59167Same tbh, it seems really fun because you can have a lot of people to talk to about the video games you like. I'd never try to do it though, I like staying anonymous online.
No. 59682
>>58242Also wanted to model. I hit my height of 5'0 at age 11. Also when I got big tits. First boyfriend dated me just for having tits so my self image was warped for all of my adolescence. I'm trying to lose weight so I can at least be a fake instagram model if nothing else.
Aside from that, I also really wanted to be a lawyer. While this isn't an impossibility I got discouraged really early on because i'm shy and everytime i've ever tried to pursue it i got shot down by people for having such a soft voice so I gave up. My grades weren't good enough for a good enough college anyway. I legitimately have no fall back if art doesn't work out though and that petrifies me.
I want to be a cute dancing/singing idol (a la japanese idols) but i'm obviously one, not japanese, and two, 25. I'm debating going for it anyway when i reach my weight goal in a year and just seeing if i can gain any traction, even if it's just a tiny online following. I can sing and dance, and exercise daily so endurance isn't an issue, i just don't know how to compose music or sew so it's still a long shot..
and the finally just in general i'm one of the weebs that always felt kind of sad i wasn't born a kawaii japanese girl in japan. I like the culture (outside of anime even).
I'm less fetishizey about it now than i was in my teens but i still sometimes look in the mirror and kind of sigh about it.
Ah well. I believe in reincarnation so maybe if i wish on it enough i can be a kawaii idol in the next life.
No. 59683
>>58325Anonchan, making a popular podcast isn't that far off of a dream. If you or any of your friends are any good at voice acting/are willing to put in the work to GET good at it, and if you can write a good interesting story you could totally do it. If Nightvale can gain most of their success on one voice actor for the first videos, you can easily do it even if you have to do it alone.
I believe in you. Invest in a good mic, a pop filter, and learn to edit audio and you can do it!
No. 59856
>>59682I'm pretty similar to you anon: i was always very tall, so from kindergarten on, everybody told me i should model. Now i'd really like to but i completely ruined myself by gaining weight and not being able to lose it for years…
My dream is not being an idol, but since i love japanese (visual kei) bands i'd really love to be a guitarist. After i finished school i saved money to buy myself a guitar.
That was 3 years ago and i still haven't done anything, it's so frustrating.
Has anybody else the problem of wanting to be a little bit 'special', like not super famous, but still not just living a boring life with a normal job…?
No. 59881
>>59856You should go pick up your guitar right now and practice. Guitar is hard to learn but if it's something you want to do you should just sit down and do it. There's lots of decent beginner shit on youtube to get you started and sometimes live teachers aren't too expensive (Shop around and see).
I believe in you though, you can totally be a guitarist if you practice, and people LOVE female guitarists (Since usually girls pick up bass which people incorrectly think is "easier." )
DO IT.
but i have that same problem with wanting to be special. I mean on one hand, I have more natural talents than most people (I can sing and dance, which a lot of people can't do even with training) but i don't think there's room enough int he world for two Adeles (i.e. a whale with a good voice).
I also can't write music for shit. I was considering just singing covers of songs I like on youtube and see if anyone likes it but i don't know the legal issues regarding that.
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I wanted to be a cute asian girl. The type that's shy, small and has long straight black hair. Basically a shoujo protagonist. I feel like asian girls are neutral when it comes to the preference of guys. Like, they probably won't get rejected because they're so cute. However, I'm the complete opposite and a bit to outspoken. Like the kind of girl guys like to hit(?). I'm lowkey an asiaboo.
Also, how does one overcome this. I have slight body dysmorphia so the only way I know I'm obese and ugly is through photos. It makes me really anxious and has greatly affected my posture. I'm like quasimodo.
No. 60010
>>59999What race are you anon?
If you are white, asian, latin (sometimes) and black guys like white girls
If you are black then latin, white, and some asian guys like black girls
If you are something else, then same thing. Just work on making yourself the cute protagonist of your own story. You don't
have to be a petite asian girl.
No. 60013
>>59999one way to get over it is by finding ppl of your ethnicity you think look good and try to emulate them\ remember theres a bunch of asian girls who wish they were born white
instead of daydreaming about being born asian just work towards being the best version of you
but what do you specifically find attractive about asian girls other than shortness?
> their skin? improve ur skin regimen and diet (asian diets r pretty good w/ all the vegetables they incorporate)> slenderness?> their silky straight dark hair? > fuller lips? obvi don't yellow face but i think its alright to look at different beauty standards and adopt them somewhat
No. 60014
>>60013oh wait i just assumed that anon was white
just replace white w. whatever ethnic u are
No. 60015
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I've always wanted to be a femme fatale type but it really doesn't translate well in real life…I'm also way too much of a cry baby and have absolutely zero confidence
No. 60016
>>60015imo the "femme fatale look" is really just that, a look. and it's not about the aesthetic that's glamorous, but who it's on. for example, kaya sco can work effy as a character but she can also work "proper 18th century handmaiden". "femme fatale" is like clothing she wears.
on the other hand in real life, more often than not, it looks like the clothes is wearing the person. guys will see the girl dressed like effy and think "she looks like a hoe/druggie" without regard to her personality. girls will look at the girl with corsets, red lipstick etc and think "mis matching/trying too hard". post pics on Instagram of yourself with mascara running? edgy 13 year old.
also i've met some innocent looking "good girls" who turned out to be huge man eaters/femme fatales so i guess character doesn't often reflect physical appearances
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>>60010>>60013I'd rather not share my race to avoid any generalization by lurkers. However, thank you for the advice. I find Asian beauty/health philosophies superior.
No. 60090
>>60030Me too like.
I'm already a European polyglot but kind of average looking and from the part of Europe nobody knows or cares about. Whenever I tell people I'm from Europe they get really excited but when they find out I'm not from a "Good" country I can just see the disappointment in their eyes as they shrink away and gradually stop talking to me.
I wish I was from literally any other European country people knew about. At this point I can't even feel proud about mine because whenever I say something nice about it people look at me in disbelief because they've been conditioned to believe we're all savages living in mud huts and beating each other with wooden clubs or something. Every time I open my mouth people act surprised that my English is as good as it is, even though they'd never do that to, say, a Swede. When they ask for my passport at airports I get treated so much better when I show them my Swiss one instead of the one I used to have.
At this point even Israel sounds better, at least people treat them like humans of normal intelligence, even if they do get hate.
No. 60093
>>59999Being Asian isn't that great, friend. I have the Asian flush thing down to a T and because of that, I don't drink anymore. My skin scars really easily and persistently after an acne breakout – it takes 3-4 months for it to completely fade away. My body is also kind of pretty meh. I also can't tell if guys like me because of my race or my personality/looks/etc and that's not a fun thing to have.
sage for blogpost
No. 60097
>>60090>>I can just see the disappointment in their eyes as they shrink away and gradually stop talking to me.
>>I can't even feel proud about mine because whenever I say something nice about it people look at me in disbelief because they've been conditioned to believe we're all savages living in mud huts and beating each other with wooden clubs or somethingA- are you me anon? I'm American, but lived abroad in a few countries. People often excitedly assume I'm from Russia or Germany. When I correct them that I'm from America, every-single-time they are like "Oh…". Literally, I've had people just walk away from me in disgust.
Also, I've had people tell me they think we are savages here who run around with guns killing people, are uneducated, and morbidly obese, driving hummer and SUVs everywhere…I've had my people described as "uncivilized". Luckily, when I mention I'm from California, people will sometimes react better (but usually not, I'm often asked "Is…that a…state orrr…a country?").
No. 60100
>>60092Serbia
>>60097Yeah… But at least you can stay home and live somewhat comfortably. For me it's actually cheaper and more lucrative to study and get a job abroad, then retire back home.
The place is so nice and warm, full of history and pretty nature but it's also corrupt to fuck and decent jobs are only reserved for people in the upper echelons of society who studied PolSci with the boss's daughter at a private uni. It's not fair. The Catch 22 here is that the average salary is like €450 so most people can't afford to study abroad (or even rent their own flat back home) and are effectively doomed to being cleaners and maids working under the table and being bullied by their boss for the rest of their lives, so many young people just say 'fuck it' and stop working. We're also not in the EU (yet, possibly never) so getting a job or studying abroad is made all the harder.
Despite all that, it's a beautiful place and I hate to see it ruined by a band of uneducated highlander yobs (our equivalent of Appalachians, basically) running the show over there. And I really don't think we deserve the hate and disgust we get, most youngsters there are actually really smart and ambitious but negative attention sells better I guess so we'll always be dirty terrorist Orcs to most Europeans. At least you have Silicon Valley and other things to show for, we have… ??? Nikola Tesla I suppose???
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>>60100My family came to Canada after the war in ex-Yugo broke out in the 90s. That sounds miserable, anon. I hope things get better for you. If it makes you feel any better, I haven't experienced any sort of discrimination in Canada, although I have been considering changing my name to something that sounds more… Anglo.
No. 60184
>>60176i'm 32. i also tend to take up and drop a lot of things, and i don't want acting to be one of them. i had enough of bailing out on shit.
if you're no older than your mid-20s i'd say you still have a decent chance anon.
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>>58333>this will never be my lifewhy even live
No. 60336
>>60216>I dont have time to study for it and even if I did i would be old as shit by the time I can start actually practicingI'm not studying medicine, but I'm on the same boat. I don't have time and I'm doing the career really slowly but it's fine, I'm doing it. And fuck that 'I will be x age when I end'. So? You'll age anyways. Better be old with that degree you want that not doing it.
D o I t.
No. 64222
when I was younger, I wanted to be a concept artist for video games. I hoard art books (some of my favorites are the assassin's creed art books, dark souls, and castlevania ones) and flip through them almost every day. I wanted to go to school for art, and I guess I should've. I enjoyed it and was fairly good, and I'm getting better now with practice. but the art industry, especially for concept artists, is very hard. I ended up majoring and minoring in something completely unrelated, but part of me really wished I hadn't.
another thing is that I really want one of those boy bodies from the 1920s lol. I'm short and stocky, and I really hate it, but that's how all the women in my family are. I'm losing weight, but I'll probably never look thin enough to like myself in clothes. I have a lot of muscle in my thighs, calves, and ass, and it just makes me look so gross in pants. oh well.
No. 64223
>>58242I want to have my own kids animated show but i don't know if it'll ever come true. I'm having trouble pushing my art and grasping animation concepts alone and can't afford school. I'm about to get a house so getting a student loan isn't super possible right now.
I'd also like to be a model even just a instagram 'model'
or a youtuber that gets to review makeup products for free but i'm too fat i don't think people will like me and weight loss progress is slow.
I also have dreams of being a mom with a little house and a white picket fence and playdates and a soccermom van but i hate kids lmfao so that ones impossible for me (But my sister just had a baby so i'll at least get to do auntie stuff when she gets older).
all of these things are doable aside from the last one for me..i just have zero drive and it sucks. It fucking sucks to wake up every day and go "Fuck it" and not bother with anything and it's really hard to push myself out of that mentality. Even when I started going to art school that mentality came in and i had to quit to avoid blowing money.
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>>64225I daydream about playing glinda in wicked and belting out popular on the stage, its such a fun song and she is such a wonderfull character
Another really random dream of mine is to learn to play piano and sing the scales and arpeggios song from the aristocats, and perform it on the painos at st pancreas station lol
Too bad I can't sing or act for shit and have 0 confidence lmao
No. 64277
Same OP, I need money but have no work experience. Wanted to try runway for my genetically boney, long figure and pretty above average face. I've been scouted a few times when I was forced to go out as a teen. Now, I have severe agoraphobia, social anxiety, bad social skills from lifelong homeschool, and generally low body awareness/coordination. I imagine walking into an agency, getting signed, doing jobs, and being crammed into a small model house with 8 girls while they take a big chunk outta my cheque for "rent". That really makes the dream fade. It ties into my real dream, doing a fellowship in tuscany for a Phd program.
No. 64522
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i wish i lived a comfy life in the 1800s as a rich british-canadian woman who had both a white husband and a first nations husband. incredibly unrealistic.
No. 64524
>>64522Where's image from?
I have vague memories of it
No. 64947
>>58242My old pipe dream was being an exchange student, actually going to Japanese high school, then living in Japan and learning the language. Live that anime slice-of-life.
I've had model, pop star (lol, I can't even sing for the life of me), and general "fame" wishes too, but I absolutely do not have the personality for any of them. I've realized I'm a really private person and fame means nothing really other than people know you. lolcow in general has helped me realize people get invasive with fame and there's plenty of bad reasons to be famous.
No. 65388
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I wanted to be an animator. Too bad there's no industry in my country and I did not have enough money to study abroad. My dream was attending calarts.
Now I'm studying law in my country's top university, but still.
No. 65411
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I always wanted to be a witch, a really cute one too. Kinda like a world where I was a really pretty witch's subordinate learning to be as great as her. I would have a really fluffy black cat with purple eyes. Our outfits would be something like a traditional witch, but detailed with gold. Maybe I'd have a huge crush on the queen witch too. We would live inside a cave with a very 1930s look. Have huge meetings with other soon to be witch graduates and cause immature trouble. Of course this would absolutely never happen and is kinda cringy, but I can dream right?
No. 65413
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>>65411Are you me? Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be a witch. After watching Kiki's delivery service, I would get my mom's broom and run up and down the street trying to fly.
When it obviously didn't work, I figured I just had to wait until I was 13 for my witch powers to manifest or whatever.
I still secretly wish I had a Kiki-like lifestyle, where I could be a friendly magic user and fly on a broom. I feel so silly, but it's a good dream.
No. 65501
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>>64994jesus, i feel the same. i'm 5'0. its the worst. why even live? girls who are 5'5 and say they are short have no idea how lucky they are tbh.
i fucking hate my tiny legs. having to wear heels/creepers/platforms every time you go out is god awful. going out in flats isn't even a choice for us. when i do wear them i'm always the smallest (adult) person everywhere i go and its uncomfortable.
also, i'm not from the US, but i've been there and everyone is fucking tall. i can't imagine living there, i'd get eaten alive. are you american, anon? if so, god bless you… everyone is so tall there, it fucks with your self esteem imo.
No. 65508
>>65501Come to Arizona lol
I'm a fuckin giant and I'm 5'5"
No. 65519
>>65501stretch
I'm shorter than you and about the same height as everyone here
No. 65577
>>65501>>65528>>65545i think when it comes to straight M/F dating, tall women have it harder. many men have apprehension about dating a taller woman, and a lot of guys just flat out won't. you'd be hard pressed to find a guy who wouldn't want to date a woman just because she's shorter than him, or just short in general. lots of dudes actively seek out short women to have a larger height difference. really, just look around the general population and see how much more uncommon taller F/shorter M relationships are.
as such, taller women (especially when they aren't waif-thin) as perceived as unfeminine. i've had male acquaintances blatantly state that they find tall women to be masculine and unattractive. unless you're already conventionally attractive and thin, being a tall woman means working harder to fit that ~dainty, feminine~ archetype. maybe it's a bit easier for a tall woman to be perceived as sexy as opposed to a particularly short woman, but again, you have to already be conventionally attractive.
No. 65580
>>65577Yes, this. I am also too tall and I've had men tell to my face they were ashamed to be seen with me because I was like a tower.
this is probably why i'll never date/see anyone shorter than me ever againI see everyfuckingwhere that short woman (or avarage) are cuter, more desirable, more fuckable ("you can't lift someone as big as a tree!"), more feminine.
Good luck finding clothing, especially if you are not model thin. Most of my pants end on my calves. Sometimes I can't find a cute dress/skirt that doesn't show my vagina.
I've had women making fun of me as well, like stupid jokes and stuff like "I wanna be tall, but not
anon tall".
Also, if hills are on the dress code, be prepared for everyone else looking at you like you are a circus freak. People will either find it funny or scary.
I fear for the day I go to Japan.
I am 175cm for reference, 10cm taller than the avarage in my country, and most girls I know are actually even shorter. I know some girls even taller than me (180cm and 188cm) and they probably have it even worse.
Sage for rant.
No. 65590
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>>655875 foot here, I'd kill to be that height, even if I'm not model thin, all the women I look up to such as ashley graham are that height and I feel ridiculous everytime I try to go for the IG, model, dominatrix aesthetic
No. 65592
>>65580What the fuck? 175 is above average but barely even stands out in a western country. Where do you live? It's exactly the height where you're considered modelesque but not an amazon.
Your concern about Japan is weird too. Maybe the manlets there don't want a tall girl because they're short too, but height is not contrary to Asian beauty standards. They don't like stumpy proportions either.
No. 65619
>>65583lmao I misspelled, sorry.
>>65592I live in South America and in my experience, yeah, people won't give you a second glance on the subway, of course, you're not considered an anomally, however when you start talking to people it's always like
>omg you're too tall>if you were like 2cm taller i probably would not go out with you>how do you buy shoes??>how's the weather up there? huehueheu>do you play basketball? you should play basketball>must be hard for you to date>how you look like a horse (in my country this means you're big in general, not necessarily that you have a horse face)>are you a lesbian? (not that this offends me, but people asking me about my sexuality solely base on my height of all things is baffling)>i wish i was tall but not as tall as you>i thought you were way shorter when we talked onlineetc etc.
The avarage height for women here is 165m and 175cm for men. Of course, there is taller men
thank god, but I think most of my male friends are my height or just a tad bit taller, like 176 or 177. My current boyfriend is 181 and people often comment on our "height as a couple" (??)
I am not saying that that I am opressed and ChEcK UR ShORT PRIviLEgE!!, it's just that it's pretty annoying because since I was eleven and 165cm people comment on my height unwarranted. Like I said, I people don't look twice at me on the street (they do with this 188cm friend of mine), but once they start talking, it gets annoying as fuck.
(btw no one likes stumpy proportions, but you can be short/avarage and have good proportions, most k-idols are like 165cm)
sage again.
No. 65629
>>65619>South Americathat explains everything to those anons, hopefully. I'm South American too and 1.73 and let me tell you, only two of the guys from my circle of friends is as tall/taller than me. Men average at 1.70 here and I only dated one guy taller than me. Every other bf was 1.65-1.70
I am usually thin though so I have an easier time, but I fully believe it was one of the reasons why I developed an ED. People judge you hard if you're normal sized and tall
No. 65634
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>>65632>bmi of 15.5 (naturally)literally how?
No. 65644
>>65619K-idols were exactly what I was thinking of when I said Asians don't like stumpy proportions, be a use Koreans are absolutely vicious to short girls unless they have miraculously long legs for their height.
Anyway I'm about 172. 161 is average in the western country where I live and nobody ever mentions my height, let alone insults me for it. My sister is even taller, and she's fit and hot and gets nothing but positive attention. But other people's reactions shouldnt matter anyway - guys hating height in girls says more about them and their insecurities than you, it's just another way they want to be (literally) above us. And girls who insult other girls looks to their faces must be some petty, insecure birches too.
No. 65649
>>65634>>65640i'd say fast metabolism but apparently that's not a real thing? i don't know. i've always been severely underweight even though i eat like shit. crazy thing is, i tend to lose weight if i sit around and eat, rather than gain it.
i'm trying to build muscle to gain some weight because i've been stuck at 105lbs for awhile.
>>65643i have never heard of this until today but that would explain my long ass fingers and legs. how do doctors diagnose this?? mine never cared and told me it was good i was skinny because americans are fat af. she was a little old asian lady so i never took her compliments seriously.
No. 65662
>>65651damn nevermind then ):
>>65655oh i'll try dates! peanut butter makes me constipated lol. thanks for the suggestion!
No. 65672
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My impossible dream is to help humanity in a very significant way. Maybe through developing superpowers to become a hero, becoming a political/economical influence, developing a breakthrough technology, etc.
I don't really care about recognition. Just want my existence to contribute in some meaningful, positive way.
However, my GPA tanked these past two semesters which will drop my acceptance to certain companies for co-op/internship positions to -35%. Organic Chem 2 and Physics 2 fucked me up real good. I'm also not charismatic enough to sell myself in interviews, and I'm basically a social sperg who stutters when someone's attention is on me. The smoldering ashes of my already impossible dreams are being stomped to nothing with every passing semester lmfao.
Another much more reasonable dream of mine is to have a nice income and own a lot of scenic land so I can take good care of all my adopted animals. I'd also secretly practice alchemy and master martial arts, archery, rifle skills, piano, etc..
No. 65763
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I've been watching too much isekai anime, I wanna be a cute archmage or a swordswoman and help get rid of a super evil demon or smth.
No. 65782
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>>65763i love the concept of isekai
there were so many good shoujo isekai anime but all the modern isekai targeted towards men is… eh
but i want to be a strong swordswoman too!
No. 65863
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>>58333All you need is Marisa and Yuuka and you'd be set.
No. 66650
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I want to be an upper middle class stay at home mom (homeschooling, maybe) with mom friends that are nice (not snobby or appearance obsessed) and I want to be good at it. I want a husband who is loving and involved in parenting. I have low energy, kids are hard work, I don't know how to be a mom, and my life is a mess.
No. 66669
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>>66650i get you anon :( i want a girl like the one you pictured. the older i get the more i long for that lifestyle tbh. i'm a lesbian though, and i know that its never going to happen. my gf would be such a perfect mother too… it makes me so sad at times. i've never told her either, cause i know its just going to make her cry.
did your mother work when you were a kid? my mother did, so i remember that when i was little i was jealous of kids with stay-at-home moms. maybe it has something to do with it?
No. 66716
>>66709This happens to me, July was full of nothing but panic attacks for me. I'm not completely better, feel more numb and like everything is pointless. Panic attacks have lessened but thoughts are still there.
Try seeing a therapist. I think most go through this at one point on their lives. Do you have any mental disorders? I have anxiety, depression and depersonalization disorder. Those things make these thoughts and feelings worse.
No. 66757
>>66731You should try an adult ballet class, even if you can't be a pro you can have fun learning. They're pretty low pressure and most people are there for fitness, so being fat is alright.
I sometimes get jealous of pro dancers and figure skaters because I got into both as an adult after quitting as a kid, but then I remember how much pressure there would've been on them and how much more I enjoy doing it for fun rather than to be the best.
No. 66773
What I want is attainable, but at the same time it seems totally unattainable. I want to finally lose the extra weight I've been carrying all my life, 120+ extra pounds. I want to be the hot girl, the small girl, to not be self-conscious, to wear a bikini and fit into normal sized clothing. But I know I've already fucked my body for life with my loose skin. My parents did everything l for me growing up and I love them for it, but the shitty eating habits they instilled in me has made me an obese landwhale just like them.
Along with this, I also want to cosplay my favorite characters, the ones I've put off for years and years because I don't want to ruin my waifus as a fat pig. I want to be stopped in the halls of the convention and have people take my picture. Cosfame is whatever, but being recognized IRL for being cute and attractive would be amazing.
Finally, I want to fit into Liz Lisa and all the cheap clothes from Taobao, eBay, and Aliexpress.
If I can do these three things, my life will improve vastly. I lost fifteen pounds already (with 120+ more to go), but on my 5'3" frame that's not even really a dress size. Totally useless.
No. 66776
>>58823>I want to be pretty & feminine. I try to be the best 'me' I can but I have so many masculine traits. I'd need a butt load of PS and I can't afford that/don't want it.fuck anon I was just about to post this when I saw this thread. I was born a goddamn tomboy and I seriously can't help it despite trying to. I want to be a cute girl but it makes me extremely insecure to try to be one. I wish it came naturally to me.
I also want a serious boyfriend in a stable relationship. Men don't find me attractive because of my masculine traits and I'm growing old. Worst thing is that everyone including the men just assume that I'm a lesbian.
No. 66854
get a nice slightly taller than me gf and catch all the spiders for her and maybe like make a friend an a half
get back into drawing and embroidery (i feel too sluggish and demotivated and empty to do most things that i enjoyed), try out woodworking ( i really liked hanging out in grandpas shop and doing random crap when i was little)
honestly go to a fucking therapist and a derm! having nice skin and being able to go to uni without the overwhelming feeling of "this is it, i'm dying"
>>66848that's ideal
No. 73237
>>73232Have you tried coding websites and starting from there? Or small games? Having a specific project to complete always helps in attaining broader goals like this
Aside, I also want to code but dismiss it as a potentially automated skill quite soon down the line. Learn things that will help you rather than career/job-seeking goals, so whatever happens the skill will serve you and not serve specific employment roles. Hence things like website/games as that will always be useful to you.
No. 73239
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I dress boring and tomboyish, 90% of my wardrobe is Uniqlo with some Mango basics and flat comfort shoes and I want to look cute and feminine without being too girly and uncomfortable like pic related but idk if I'm retarded about combining pieces or colours or what cause I always end up looking boring. I'm also poor and my hair is hard to manage so it makes everything even worse. At least my makeup is nice tho.
No. 73262
>>73239The outfit you posted is super cute, anon. Have you tried using Pinterest for outfit ideas? I have a big board full of outfits I don't necessarily have but I try to copy as best as I can. Sometimes when I'm not sure what to wear with a certain piece of clothing, I'll google "Outfit with orange blazer" or w.e and pick an image to follow that looks close to my wardrobe.
Also maybe you're just not making use of accessories. How do you look in hats? What about chunky necklaces? Scarves are my favourite, light ones are really classy and feminine but also practical. I'd also highly recommend checking out capsule wardrobes because they make it really easy to plan outfits!
No. 73433
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Dressing like this every day and living that aesthetic would also a massive dream I have
Tfw when I’m not at an acceptable age range for it
No. 73510
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>>73489Anon that's just fucking weird. As long as it's not being paired up with silly schoolgirl socks or trashy fishnets, no one will bat an eyelash at a plaid skirt on a woman in her twenties.
No. 73527
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>>73522What do you pair it with anon?
I would love to see how you coordinate a plaid skirt for it to look classy
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>>73489Maybe they have those types of "connotations" if you're mentally confined to anime and pornos, but these skirts have been worn for ages without issue.
No. 73549
>>73527I avoid overkill combos. I never do plaid AND pleated, it's one or the other. If I have a short plaid skirt I balance it with a more serious/masculine/less revealing top (wooly sweater, turtleneck, etc.), thicker stockings in winter, and avoid shirts and blazers at all cost so I don't look like I'm wearing a school uniform, especially if I'm already wearing ankle socks or a beret for instance.
The pic
>>73530 posted are good examples. If you are small and/or look younger you'll get away with more. If you're scared of what people may say, as long as you don't have only cute pieces or overdo it you'll be fine. But if I may say, you could also not not give a shit and go all out. I sometimes do, because rules are meant to be broken (except plaid and pleated) and fuck people. The worse I've gotten was "I like your skirt" and "are you British?".
(Edited for grammar.)
No. 73766
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That I'll be rich ad be able to afford designer clothing and top of the line electronics and all the expensive things that very wealthy people have.
I'm 26 years old and I've never made it passed holding down a retail job. I'm bombarded by medical expenses, and I have a boatload of student loans. I don't think I'll ever be able to own a house, let alone live a life of luxury. But I still find myself thinking these ridiculous things, like when I pick out a new shirt from target, or I find a new hole in the lining of my thrifted purse. I think to myself "well, this is ok, it's only temporary- this will just be a funny memory when I can buy my designer bag, or high end clothes". When I get my food at the dollar store I imagine what it will be like when I'm so wealthy I can pay a nutritionist to plan meals for me and shop at whatever grocery store I want.
It's painfully obvious it's never going to happen, I don't know why I do it anymore. Maybe it's just a coping mechanism that will never go away.
No. 79031
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I always wanted to work at Disney as one of the face characters, especially one ofthe princesses. I really have no idea where this stemmed from because I'm not too much of a Disney fan, I think I just like how excited people get to see them. I also really like improv so maybe that's it? It'll never happen though because I have an ugly man face and scars all over my arms ╮(╯_╰)╭
No. 79046
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>wanted to be a pilot as a kid but have very poor eyesight
>wanted to be a vet but am allergic to a lot of animals
No. 79087
>>79078Anon as someone who just left the library field (was an academic and public paraprofessional) and gave up that dream:
There are like ten times as many applicants as paraprofessional jobs posted. And lots are getting cut, too. The comfiest and best library jobs are in colleges / schools which are ridiculously competitive unless you want to live in a really podunk town ( and even then in my not so large city, people moved to take the jobs )
You’ll probably end up in public libraries. It’s a glorified customer service job. I got screamed at by ghetto ass parents, verbally abused by swaths of smelly homeless men with nowhere else to go, had to clean syringes out of the bathrooms , and the other 99 percent of my time was just spent cashiering people out or shelving books and showing old people how to print 159 times a day.
I mean it is comfy in the very very very boring sense. You’re just not going to be helping people find interesting knowledge and stuff. But I wasn’t going to sink money on an unnecessary masters to do this job a high school kid could do.
No. 79105
>>79083A bullshit marketing degree.
>>79087I know anon, but still. I know it's nowhere close to reality but I can't help but picturing myself organizing books back in my tiny village library. I guess it's more of a nostalgia thing.
My first 'paper' as a middle schooler was about that library and how it felt so serene and mysterious to me.
Maybe it's sad that I never had a dream besides that. I'm almost 30 and I can't think about anything I would want.
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>>79031I'm sorry but picturing a tired girl coming home from a long day of being a Disney princess to relax and shitpost on lolcow.farm is the funniest mental image I've had in awhile
No. 80216
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>>58333>>58354It makes me think about this book, I couldn't find an english very of it, but it roughly translate into "the mansion of winged cats"
Yeah I know, I'm a year late.
No. 81838
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My biggest dream is to be a Hollywood star. My "ideal" role would have been playing Snow White in a Disney live action.
Just now i read that a new Snow White movie was announced for 2019, meaning they probably already have an actress, so my dream will never come true…
No. 83893
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i wish i looked like a gangnam unnie
No. 84037
>>84010tbh not even that anon but I can't.
I was willing to $$$ fot it but some people will look straight up retarded with the v libe
No. 84100
>>84047Maybe you could find someone and build up his confidence?
It's a lot of work to invest that effort, but it's an option.
No. 84128
>>84058Anon, have you considered streaming instead? It sounds like it might be your cup of tea and it's so much easier to get noticed on Twitch (especially in their creative section). It's not a walk in the park either, and the grind is there, but it's bearable.
YouTube is a shitshow at this point, I witnessed only one channel going from zero to 100k's and the girl was already known a bit for her modeling. Seems like nowadays you need to either go viral or be semi-famous already
No. 84173
>>84128Thx for your tipp. But I am an introvert and the only way to speak in front of the camera would be to prepare a script and only show my hands lol
I could never show my face or interact live with people since English is not my native language.
And you are totally right about youtube. Too bad I am not an extrovert and an insta hoe
No. 89501
Ever since I was in primary school all the way up til highschool I was really good at drawing. I drew a lot of catholic stuff as a kid that got framed in halls and the headteachers office (went to catholic schools) and when I got to highschool I was put in its 'gifted and talented' program, basically if you were exceptionally good at art, theatre, dance etc you got certain perks like school trips and stuff.
But the thing is, certain horrible life events happened from when I was a kid and had repercussions on me through highschool whether it be from bullying, court cases, therapy etc and I got depressed, insomnia and would having very horrible nightmares about it.
I dont talk about it anymore with anyone except my boyfriend but I think one of the biggest signs I had/still exhibit when it comes to depression is I simply cannot finish any type of art/drawing anymore and haven't been able to since I was 15. Even now at 20, I remember atleast being to draw whatever as a way of relaxing but now I just get angry, frustrated and upset when I sit down to do it now. All I ever wanted to do as a kid was be an illustrator or a comic book artist.
I've made the best of my situation since then, I'm a psychology student now but there was a period from 15 - 18 years old where I had such a strong self hate towards myself because I had always thought the only thing I have ever been really good at was drawing/art. I dont know if I'll ever shake off those horrible feelings I get when it comes to drawing.
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I stupidly wish I could still be fully functional whilst staying 40 kilos. I’ll never go back to being a dumb anachan but fuck I wish I could without also going mental and physically shutting down.
No. 90124
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My dream is to live freely.
Might seem not so impossible but for somebody with my personality it is. I was always a weirdo, obsessed with keeping everything in order. I was always very strict with myself, even got an ED. As a teen I only allowed myself to listen to classical music, read foreign literaure, dressed in blouses, pullovers and trenchcoats etc. I had some (bad) friends, but ended up losing them. Now I've lost control over my live and hate myself for it. I wish I never started starving myself, because I was pretty skinny to begin with. I wish I wasn't such a nerd and instead focused more on making friends and superficial stuff like being stylish. I wish I just wouldn't give a shit whether my room is messy or whether something that was "dirty" touched something that's clean and therefore makes me start from anew. Even when I do go out (like once a year) I end up not being able to enjoy it because some detail is out of place, like e.g. I hate my akeup (read: my face) or something happens that I didn't expect.
I'm still somewhat young but wish I could be a teen again. I never flirted with anybody, I was never "desired" by anybody. I wouldn't want to be a slut, but just a pretty, somewhat popular girl, with girlfriends, do some crazy stuff, risk somehing. I want to stay up all night, and even if it's just getting some pizza and beer. I want to be interested in normal things and therefore being able to conect better with others. I wish I was somehow granted a restart. (or at least some miracle that makes me stop being shy, anxious, miserable and rids me of IBS).
Pic related, going on a road trip, maybe to a rock concert or festival with a best friend would be heaven.
No. 90125
>>90124Tfw I have the personality you want for yourself but could never get anyone to go to a festival or gig with me. Guys will go with me and put the moves on, girls don't want to go to festivals and gigs.
It's hard to make good friends and I don't think it's your fault. Your character is perfect for you. Even if you were the easy-going person you want to be, you may still be dissatisfied with your experiences, as I am. Honestly am much happier being hermit queen than trying to please dozens of people who only think about themselves.
No. 90167
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I wish I lived in a pretty house with two boyfriends who love me and each other. Sometimes we'd play-fight over each other or pretend to get jealous, but none of it would ever be serious. We'd spend entire days just cuddling in one large bed (and maybe having threesomes), have picnics, movie marathons, cook together, etc. At least one would be a photographer, and we'd take lots of cute aesthetic photos at forests, beaches, etc. We'd also all go to abandoned places together to explore, take more photos, have our own little private parties and hang out. They'd dress me up like a doll and take care of me, and I'd comfort them, stroke their hair, share all sorts of music with them, write novels or short stories for them (or with, if they like writing), and listen to all their worries without judgment.
It'd be such a comfy life. Too bad the polyamory meme just doesn't work in reality, or so I've heard/seen.
No. 91581
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I want to be a model so badly… I've been told to model since I was a toddler (not because I'm that pretty, but because of my body). Somebody told me that models can only eat very little, so I started my first "diet" when I was just in kindergarten.
Throughout my school years I told myself that I'm too intelligent, that I need to go to Uni, that it's unrealistic, etc. and now I've gained weight and am nearly 23 already, but it's still my biggest dream…
No. 91583
>>91581At this point you probably can't make a career out of it but you may as way make a vanity project of it, everyone needs a hobby. Apply your energy to uni and finding a realistic career, but in your spare time pay to get head shots or whatever and work on maintaining your looks. You can join a casual agency and apply for everything you find online.
If you're not trying to make a career out of it then that's better because you won't feel so forced to apply for sleazy Craigslist boudoir shots but can do some fun unpaid work for fashion students etc
No. 94104
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Perhaps not a life long aspiration and rather dumb and immature than impossible, but I lowkey really want to be one of those Japanese influencers you see on instagram and in teen magazines (people like Ginsyamu and Dakota Rose).
Although I speak Japanese, I'm not cute enough to ever get 10k+ followers based on my looks, despite how much Nile Perch and Candy Stripper I wear. I am also white, and I don't think that I'm going to become the next Dakota any time soon (which I guess is a good thing considering her cow status). My only successful instagram page was my meme/spam one, not very worthy of anything
No. 94125
>>94123Same here! I want to experience a bunch of different types of romances with all sorts of different types of guys in different locations around the world. I watch too many romance movies and dramas both western and japanese which feeds my brain so many (stupid) imaginations. I often pretend I'm the main character in the movies and fantasize about different scenarios and men in my head before I fall asleep at night.
You and I can be losers together lol. I'm obsessed with daydreaming about someone who could love me.
No. 94127
>>94125Oh my gosh really?
Whenever i get into something i have to reinvent the story so im the heroine and also snag a cute guy lol
No. 94128
>>94125I wish I had a lesbian fling in high school. There was a girl I had a big crush on but she wanted me to kiss her first (there were three times when she was blatantly waiting) but I'm not sexually aggressive so whatever. I don't want to be lesbian now but I kinda want a cute guy who dresses like a girl
No other impossible/not that impossible dreams though, I am.a reformed romantic though. I think only women can be truly romantic with each other, men just don't understand
No. 94214
>>94191I’m the anon who originally wrote
>>94184Ngl, I do envy certain aspects of that life, like being rich and having the perfect body. But I still think it’s not the life to aspire to. As an adult, you shouldn’t complete depend on someone unless you’re mentally or physically disabled. I think
>>94199 said it best.
No. 94222
>>94220who's talking about marrying young? god anon it's someone's fantasy, they know it's not gonna happen, and even if they're fantasizing over it they don't need you grounding them in reality.
the kinds of women anon is talking about don't live in the same world that people like you or i do.
No. 94223
>>94219Statistically, women are very likely to be impoverished by divorce. Stuck with the kids, but with a huge gaping hole in their work history and education. Men lose money to alimony but their earning potential just grows over time.
Very rich men have very good lawyers. I would not assume women escape with good financial standing, many probably choose to tolerate cheating rather than go through a divorce and have to downgrade their lifestyle. And I dont know what middle aged women you know that trade up, but this discussion is not about hot young trophy wives who theoretically could.
No. 94224
>>94222I know plenty of women who live that life, and yes they're marrying young because otherwise their old gross ass husbands wouldn't want them.
but yeah you've made it abundantly clear you don't live in the same world as them
No. 94577
>>94500There’s lots of girls in prowrestling like this, anon! If Charlotte wasn’t Ric Flair’s daughter, do you think she really had a chance with the logic you’re using? She’s awful! All you need to have, really, are the stage personality and athletic skills, nobody is going to care so much what you look like. By all means Asuka is plain, cute, but overall meh—but she has a lot of spirit and is super fun to watch on stage.
I saw her IRL when she was still with NXT and she blew me away!!
I’m rooting for you, anon. You can do it! Keep your head up high and don’t tell yourself you can’t do it.
No. 94580
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astrophysicist
>too shit at maths despite numerous teachers encouraging me and helping me, providing helpful sources and lessons, I'm so fucking dumb that doing anything remotely related to science with my life is impossible
astronaut in the ISS
>same deal
>affordable space tourism won't be available in my lifetime
>I won't become a billionaire so I can't go like this dude for a week in the ISS
ugh, damned to stay a theoretical astrophysics nerd for my whole life
No. 94582
>>94580>too shit at maths despite…Was this in school or college? I wasn't great in maths either in school. Now I'm doing computer science, and I got through the math subjects by sitting down EVERYDAY studying my ass off. Some of them actually ended up being my favourite subjects (linear algebra, numerical analysis).
I felt math in school was very different from math in college. Imo with enough dedication and effort, college-level math is doable for anyone (as long as they don't have a learning disability I guess?).
I'm writing this because I too, wanted to go into a field that just wasn't were my strengths lay, but I made it work, and I want to encourage you to try it too. Are you from a country where higher education is relatively cheap? If so I'd definitely say give it a shot. If it doesn't work out you still gained some experience that you can apply in the path that you do end up choosing for yourself.
I believe in you anon!
No. 94650
>>94582Damn anon, congrats, I admire you so much!
The thing is that I have this really weird block when it comes to maths, I love the theory, I understand how it's supposed to work but everytime I have to apply it I fail, it's ridiculous how dumb I appeared to teachers bc of it. I remember sweating like crazy during exams cause I knew how to do the thing but overthinking made me fail.
I'm French, and it's too late to work officially in this field. The French university system is extra cheap but it's determined by which "baccalaureat" you passed. Scientific oriented formations won't allow you in if you passed a litterature baccalauréat, doors close automatically. You might try and do what we call a "prepa" (preparatory class) but it's incredibly expensive, and leads to many burnouts.
Even if you take the maths option while being in litt (which wasn't even an option at my highschool), all scientific courses will exclude you or put you at the bottom of lists.
I'm almost 19 btw so I'm pretty young, but the French education system is very weird and it's not getting any better. So I'm just going to continue what I'm doing rn (languages) bc I excel in it.
Anyways thank you , it's really heartwarming to know that you got in it !
(sorry for the french sperg)
No. 94839
>>94581I was in a very similar situation, had a passion for acting and it is the only thing I can see myself doing but I was forced to major in physics. Did that for 2 years and was constantly depressed. I was thinking at least it is a safe choice and it would give me a stable job but knew I would never be happy this way and would always have this "what if" at the back of my mind. I am now 20 and said fuck it and changed schools. I'm about to start my first year in drama school and although I'm happy I still feel like I completely wasted 2 years of my life and time is running out.
It was very hard to make my parents understand and support this decision though.
I understand if you can't drop everything and just sing, but maybe you could do open mics, or youtube videos, or start a band, or maybe join a singing group in your university if you have one.
You never know where life could take you and it's really important to do even a little bit of what you truly love and makes you happy.
No. 96984
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How do you guys deal with the fact that you will probably never reach those goals?
I always wanted to move away from my little hometown, even migrate to another country, and be part of a rock band.
When I graduated I realized that I couldn't, but at least wanted to go to uni and study something "artsy". Turns out I can't draw well enough.
In the end I settled with studying teaching. I told myself that I at least will go abroad for a semester and when finished will move to a bigger city, to "flee" from all that boring monotonous country life here. There's literally nothing for young people. All you can do is go to traditional festivals get anniliated every day and then marry some boring guy. That's it.
Now I can't go abroad because I'm simply not a good enough student. And working here would be so comfy. The other teachers are nice, nearly no foreign kids; meanwhile in the bigger cities there sometimes are no native speakers at all in classes, meaning it would be a lot more difficult. Plus, I might would not manage to make any new friends and I'd miss my parents. I guess I'm a too much of a chicken to ever do something outside of the norm.
As a child I always told myself I NEVER want to be a teacher, I never want to stay living here and I never want to get married/kids. But it seems that I'm turning out to be exactly what I always hated.
Anyways, recently I feel so sad from time too time. When I was in my last year of hs I was so happy and hopeful and excited for the future - only to realize how childish and unrealistic my dreams were all the time.
No. 96986
>>96984I've dealt with it by embodying that average life goals twitter account tbh
But seriously, I agree life isn't as hopeful as when you're a kid. I wanted to become a comic artist since I was 8 but there's little opportunity in that field and the money isn't amazing. I also had to work around my other desires and needs that appeared as I grew older (wanting money and a househusband), weighing what was really most important to me and deciding my future based on that (it's the househusband btw).
Anyway anon, have you considered getting into your local music scene and making music pals? Maybe you could create a hobby band together. It doesn't have to be one or the other, you can balance your passions with what you "need" to do. I still draw things for fun and it feels almost more enjoyable.
And you can always move to a new place after you graduate. You may even have to for job opportunities.
No. 97059
>>97044R u me?
I joined an art group on /ic/ a few years ago and there were a lot of posts from anons with the same studio dreams. I thought that group was my chance but in the end I was too socially retarded to bond with any of the members. I spent two years believing my dream was about to come true before becoming disenchanted and dropping out.
Even without them, it seems like there are thousands of animators across the internet with the same damn goal but no one ever reaches out to each other. Whenever someone mentions wanting to form a studio, I'm the first to volunteer and I just end up getting ignored. It's frustrating.
No. 97089
>>96984I always wanted to study fashion design but ended up with teaching. I even cried on the first day of college saying I don't want to be a teacher. but I graduated somehow. now I feel like I wasted those years and wishing I would drop out. I used to work at a private academy and dealing with problem kids every day was tough for me.
now I enrolled in college again (not for fashion design though) I want a fresh start, but I'm worried that if I regret this decision later. working seems like better option maybe but I don't enjoy teaching that much.
also, my hometown is pretty basic too. I always wanted to live in a big city and escape my hometown. my new college is in the capital, so I'm moving to a bigger city. but that's another reason I'm worried, because I've never lived by myself before. I guess I'll miss my parents so much.
I just hope to feel better and happier in the future and improve myself at my new school. wish you the best for you too, anon!
No. 99953
>>97044Damn, I want this too, but i don't even have any related education.
Please share your art anon, even if you think it's not good, even if it objectively is not good, I've been too embarassed and scared to post whatever I draw for years and that was a shit experience, makes you burn out faster and devalues your effort. If someone shits on you ignore them and keep going, it's not that most of criticism and praise one gets is objective anyways
No. 99959
I really just want a painfully average life. Get married, move into an average house in an average town, work in a coffee shop or a book store, read and play piano for fun, etc. I wish I had never gotten any tattoos or piercings, or stretched my ears. My days would be very “boring,” going to the dentist, hitting the bank on my way home… no big worries or anything, no acne or health concerns or anything that would make me stand out in a crowd. My life has always been very traumatizing and ugly and I’m 24 already, I don’t even know how it happened. It’s pathetic but I know I’ll live a messy, ugly, retarded hard life forever and I often dream about living a “normal” life.
No. 100240
I am the same as you and just here to agree. I am heavily tattooed and have almost 30mm ears (took out all my other piercings though cause I just got tired of them) and am married with a lovely calm life and a baby on the way. I was a bad girl when I was younger but my life is super chill and introverted now and I am genuinely really happy with it. I'd never want to undo the work on my body to match my calm life, all of it reflects how you felt at one time or another and doesn't automatically make you the tryhard looking edgy alt cow meme. I actually think tattoos and looks like this look really cool with a toned down style and lifestyle,
>>99959Your appearance isn't what needs to change here I guess I'm saying. Your life can be what you try your best to make it, my life is very far from boring and uneventful on the daily and has it's stress but my little family is definitely my cheesy lifetime movie dream. Don't be so hard on yourself especially if you have already taken such steps to behave better for yourself and make better choices.
No. 100723
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>>100709Abandoning disgusting meat suits and becoming a Kafka-esque stream of consciousness? I’m in.
No. 100750
>>100709I don't want to be human, I wanna be a monster or a cryptid. I'm so tired of my physical body not matching who I am inside.
Super edgy, I know.
No. 100776
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I'd love to be an acclaimed DJ but I can't even make a decent playlist on my computer.
No. 102672
>>58315Same for me anon. Which is hilarious because I can't sing or dance and I'm not even asian.
I always feel a little bad for wanting it because idols get mistreated by their companies and they have no control over anything. Maybe I just want someone to live my life for me lol.
No. 102673
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I want to live in Dracula's castle from Castlevania Symphony of the Night, minus all the demons and gorey shit.
The Royal Chapel is the most beautiful place I've ever seen. I just want to wander this place with Alucard by my side. Eat a special dinner with him and have endless amounts of books to read.
No. 104245
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This is sort of reasonable I guess. I want to be a tyrant over some third world shithole full of hot black or brown guys.
I would be a benevolent ruler and work hard for my subjects outside of trolling the UN and giving edgy speeches in which I yell and gesture a lot.
That all said, every once in a while I'd just get bored and toss some people to the alligators. Or crocodiles, depending on where my country is located. Maybe I'll feed some alligators to my crocodiles, see if I care.
Also I would subsidize and promote live music but only for bands I like so everyone has to listen to what I want to listen to. My taste is pretty good so anyone who complains is getting alligator'd.
No. 104261
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I want a ménage à trois relationship with a beautiful goth girl and my current bf. I fantasize about this every day, but I know my partner would not be about it. I assume this is most straight men’s fantasy, but my fella would definitely get jealous. Oh how a girl can dream though.
No. 104274
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I always wanted to be Dakota but… successful. and not catfishing the entirety of Korea and Japan
I honestly still want that, what can I say, I'm a weeaboo for life
No. 104294
>>104274Honestly? Same.
I am not jealous about her life as is, but I always had that fantasy; I'd actually would keep trying to maintain the image and strive towards being a tarento in shitty TV shows. Making money for laughing and being generally polite on TV while wearing generally cute clothing? Kote is so dumb for letting this is slide. All she had to do was exercise and not feel superior for being a viral gaijin. I guess that's what you get for being entitled instead of thankful, I guess.
I guess that's why she'll always have a place in my heart because of that, even though she's a fucking idiot and ugly now too, to boot.
No. 104317
>>104274>>104294>>104307Same, I'm still dreaming of becoming famous in nipponland…
Even thought of trying to become a musician, actress or otherwise famous in the west, just so that I can use my wealth and fame to move to Japan, be on stupid tv shows and get invited to model some brands.
That's literally what all my daydreams revolve around.
And maybe it's because I'm an ignorant straight and white europoor, but I don't think being a 16yo edgelord who made fun of asians and lesbians is as much of a crime as others make it out to be. Same for shooping.
So, I also have a soft spot for her and even kind of want her to get better again.
No. 104363
>>104333You’re right, anon! I do want to give it a try again and (eventually) travel there for a vacation. Of course, learning the language of the country I live in is a top priority (I’m at like A2 level, and I should really be better) so it’s kind of pushed onto the back burner indefinitely.
Sometimes just wish I would have gone to live there for a year after college, just to give it a try. Ah well.
No. 104684
>>66757I wanted to be a ballerina and I took dance lessons during my childhood before a serious injury occured that put a stop to it for almost a year.
A while ago I was taking ballet classes again but I realized I'd NEVER be happy with myself or be able to have fun knowing that I'd never actually be good at it.
No. 106204
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writing a best seller and living off of it or living off of writing in general
No. 106249
>>106248One person should love you always. You.
Stop focusing on others until that happens, then it won't be an impossible dream.
No. 106251
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Whatever this girl is doing is what I want
No. 113751
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I want to get my PhD in something related to the astronautical field (electrical/ mechanical engineering, applied physics, etc) I'm too dumb and poor. And I majored in the wrong kind of engineering to get to that point. And I'm pushing 30.
I want to marry into a loving family. Mine is really shitty and abusive.
It would take a miracle for either of these to happen.
No. 127337
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I wish I could go back and start anew, my life is only filled with regrets.
Most of them stem from me being too shy to function. There were so many times that I wanted (or didn't want) something but didn't dare to tell my parents - and I still can't forget about it nowadays.
I wish I asked my parents to allow me to go to the summer camp all my friends went to as well, I wish I enjoyed my time in elementary school more, I wish I made more and better friends in high school. I wish I didn't develop an ed, I wish I didn't act so weird, I wish I had a normal teen experience, got a bf, went out, simply enjoyed life. I wish I wouldn't have been bullied or at least stuck up for myself, against assholes and against my "friends". I wish I went to prom, I wish I went on vacation after graduating, I wish I thought about what I really wanted to study. I wish I did what I wanted instead of always only listening and being obedient. I wish I had a nice university life, moved to a bigger city, lived with friends, went shopping, eating, to the cinema, was less stressed, anxious and depressed, had a bf,…
I'm close to graduating and have nothing to look forward in my life. No friends, no bf, ugly, fat, I studied the one thing I never wanted to do and I still live with my parents. My father plans to gift me a house around 100 metres from where we live, which might sound good but it also means that I will very likely end up staying in the same small town for the rest of my life. I wanted to travel, study (or live) abroad and ended up doing nothing of what I planned to do. I'm slowly getting too old for the clothes I always wanted to wear but never dared to, I have zero romantic experience, I absolutely failed in everything. I'm so jealous of little teen girls being loud, obnoxious and carefree because I've acted mature and self conscious since I was a just a young child.
I always dreamt of being a model or an actress and as dumb as it sounds, I feel like I will never be able to be happy since I'm not rich and famous. I'm the mousiest person you could imagine but I secretly only crave attention and an exciting extraordinary lifestyle. I wish I was at least pretty enpugh to bank a rich husband.
The sad thing is, even if I magically managed to lose 80lbs, transformed my personality to be charming and outgoing and maybe got a nosejob, I'd still already be too old to ever make it.
People around me are content with simple lifes, already getting engaged/married and thinking of kids but just the thought of having to live like this makes me sick.
No. 127489
>>127448I was actually close to getting a degree but now I don't have one, I just have a lot of debt and still no plan because nobody wants to hire a 23 year old with no degree or work experience or a driver license (in my area there's almost nothing so I have to travel for over an hour to get to the city)
I really just want to win the lottery because I can't imagine myself getting this sorted out and actually being able to move out and afford my own place..
No. 127533
>>127514You must know there's a market for this, anon. Art majors commonly get shat on by society, but nobody can deny that porn is paying. In porn specifically, commission artists have longer careers compared to porn stars and patreon/onlyfans girls because aging won't affect their job and reputation tends to increase with time.
I definitely wouldn't rule this out as an impossible dream unless you were adamant about refusing popular fetishes like furry stuff or lack skill. Good luck!
No. 127552
>>127514You can make bank doing this. Degenerates will hand over hundreds for their fetish. Just report the ones who ask for cp themes and charge the rest as much as they will pay.
Post a few of your best anonymously and get some feedback on quality. Live the dream.
No. 127561
>>58242Modeling is not hard but it's really a boring repetitive depressing job and you'd outgrow it or wear out in your early twenties anyways. Consider it a blessing.
I wanted to be less damaged and hurt I guess. Pretty impossible but I can fix what's there still left over and try to improve myself as good as possible.
No. 127577
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I've always wanted to create a hugely successful saga like Avatar the Last Airbender, Harry Potter, Lord or The Rings etc. A fantasy series with its own worldbuilding that becomes an established part of pop culture. I imagine it specifically in the form of a comic book (or manga) and then into an animated TV series (anime).
I make up stories in my head all the time but they're always half-baked. I used to draw but not anymore so I doubt I'll ever be skilled enough to be a comic book artist. I'm also from a country that has no animation industry basically and adult animated series outside of Japan are still pretty much a novelty.
I wish I could create an iconic work of fiction that develops a fandom and people get excited and cry over it like that guy's reaction to the Star Wars trailers.
No. 127586
>>127577wtf it's like i wrote this.
everything is the same for me anon, except that my country had a nice comic and animation industry but it fell apart a decade ago with the rise of the internet, so my daydreams include me being the one to revive it lol
No. 127714
>>127533>>127552You know what, I'll go for it. I'm just gonna throw some stuff online and see how it goes. I'm nervous but I have to try at least.
Thank you anons
No. 129578
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I want to live in a cosy cabin in the woods where I can work from home and tend to a small gang of friendly Raccoons. I don't live anywhere near North America and I don't think it'd be worth moving there. I find Raccoons insanely cute but I know they make for bad pets bc of how hyperactive/vicious they can be.
No. 129957
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>>129936Was the game Shadow of the Memories?
No. 129960
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I have two. I sometimes wish I would have moved to Japan and lived my best dumb gaijin life there. One of my old internet friends actually did it. She still goes to concerts weekly and has an edgy VK style. I’m truly amazed that she kept it up all this time.
My other one is to work at and live on some kind of animal sanctuary, but for wolves or foxes or something.
No. 130089
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Since I was a kid, I wanted to be an artist and work with illustration and comics. I intended to go to college in another state, to study design or art, but my mom said she wouldn't let me go. So I lost all my hope, stopped drawing and went to law school, as mom and my deceased dad wished. I think about my dream almost everyday but it's impossible now.
No. 130090
>>130089You're not alone, anon. Just half an hour ago I had pretty much similar regrets and decided I need to change things and get back to drawing more, like A LOT more.
I actually came to the board for checking on a completely different thread, saw the picture you posted on the main page, only to read that we've had the same thoughts. Life is weird sometimes.
If I was allowed, I'd post a heart emote, but know that I hear and feel you, anon.
No. 130091
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>>130090I'm glad there's someone here who can relate. Let's draw a lot next year, anon!
No. 130092
>>130091Yes, let's do that! I'm looking forward to 2020.
And thanks for posting tonight, anon.
No. 130096
>>130089>>130090Hey, it's not impossible, you two. Perhaps it won't be exactly in the industry, but you can surely publish some indie comics on the side or something. Under a pseudonym to keep your career safe, if necessary.
I feel this since I'm becoming an accountant to break the poverty cycle in my family, but I still draw as much as possible and am going to finish my own comic this year. If I can try, I hope you guys do, too!
To comics in the 2020s.
No. 130133
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There's this house my mom and I toured around 3 years ago . It was around 100 years old at the end of a secluded driveway nestled in the back of a quiet neighborhood. The interior was like pic related, it was bulit halfway underground, most of the rooms had brickwalls and wooden beams supporting the ceilings, there was even a mini library. The master bedroom had a porch that lead to a huge shaded garden with a fountain and pond with little fish in it. It's literally my dream home. I fantasize all the time about it being my house. The house is still there but I think an older rich couple lives there now. I don't know if I ever will get to go there again but my fantasy is to someday be able to live there.
No. 130290
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>>130284I'm not a real programmer I just program for school when I have to (I find it really fun though). I think thinking mathematically helps a lot but you can do without it. Programming is mostly just trial and error, just think of what you want to program, look up what functions are available that can help you and try to write something, if it doesn't work, read the error messages and try to change some of your code, and then try again, and then if it doesn't work google it, and then try again, and again and again…
If you want to try, you can install Jupyter Notebook, it's an interface for programming in the python language. I think it's nice for beginners because you can do fun stuff like making graphs. I frickin love graphs, pic related is a graph I made of a ball bouncing off inclined walls, aint it cool
No. 130311
>>130284To add onto what the other anon said, a really good thing to do would be to really, really think about the problem before you start writing any code.Try breaking up a problem into little bits.
When I first learned how to program, I just started typing away at a solution that was inefficient, buggy, or both. For my job process, I was writing a piece of code that was garbage for two days, then realized that the first solution that I had before, but abandoned because it seemed "too complicated" (woops), was actually the efficient and cleaner solution. Planning really pays off.
Also, debugging tools are good to learn; otherwise, you just end up writing multiple print statements and also going crazy ie. me.
Gl, hf anon!
No. 132003
My dream is to live in a cute village like in harvest moon or stardew valley. Everyone would be kind and get along well with each other and we would be surrounded by nature. It's not going to happen because I can't afford to buy a home, I have to live in an urban area to work in my field (at least at my level in my career), and I probably couldn't find a village like that anyway. Most rural towns I go to are just depressing and the people are poor or really conservative.
>>127337>>127096These hit me hard anons. I wish I could redo my teen years too. I was so shy and I assumed everyone thought I was annoying, so I missed out on so much.
No. 136132
>>58242being a runway model was always my dream too op.
except i was chubby growing up, and now i'm just too old (27, the age a lot of runway models start retiring.)
another dream of mine was to work in the fashion industry in new york. i always wanted to work at a magazine. this is not completely impossible, but not super plausible as i'm studying computer science.
i hope to one day model in some capacity even if i'm too old for high fashion now. and i would settle for doing IT at a fashion mag or brand lmao.
No. 136200
>>58415Oof, this is mine.
I dream of just changing identity and going back to school and living the life I was supposed to instead of being a degenerate chubby hairy loser. I actually look good now so it'd be different. I completely sabotaged my high school experience.
No. 136202
>>59025lmao this thread is making me kek at some of the descriptions.
you can try fake tan? my features look better with a darker skin tone. if you're mixed the tan will probably take better to your skin anyway
No. 136203
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When I was younger I wanted to be a hunter like from Supernatural, drive across America in a muscle car and listen to classic rock. I was obsessed with the aesthetic of old desert American roads, roadtrips, old music, badass hunter things.
Really weird now that I think about it.
No. 136208
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I've always dreamed of being extremely rich, and living in a large penthouse or modern Greek villa, spending my days learning languages, playing sport, dressing well and filling my time with hobbies. All without being famous or anything, just like a silent entrepreneur. No reason for it other than wanting to be able to afford all of life's luxuries.
I started my business a few years ago and it's finally doing well so… this is a possibility. I just really want to achieve it by the time I'm 25 because being young and rich is better than old and rich.
I feel guilty sometimes because everyone automatically assumes rich people = bad, but I just want a carefree, luxury life. If I had endless heaps of cash I'd also just randomly pay for people's operations and things.
No. 136209
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I always wanted to be a rich eccentric savant artist slash writer that lives alone in a cosy isolated farm or an English cottage in Lake District or Peak District area.
People would make tv shows, movies, games and other products based on my work and I get to have a say in which actor/actress gets to be in the movie/tv shows. I would just live on my royalties and maybe use some of the money to invest in science and technology. Also do a bit of philanthropy at the side.
Alas! I'm just another 9-5 white collar worker.
No. 136552
>>136551This one gets me :(
I missed out on the youth of going out with friends, young love, just fun in general. I was riddled with anxiety, chubby and useless.
No. 137628
>>136621same here.
its ridiculous
No. 138155
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Sooo uh
I am OP.
And i just signed a modelling contract with a local angency, for commercial stuff not runaway obviously im still 5'1, they are pretty much the guys who almost all commercial shit in my city area and i do have a unique face, the casting director was actually super eager to meet with me.
Im just, in utter shock.
I was so non chalant during the whole process because i was just baffled that this was happening. I didn't even go to a casting, they just messaged me on instagram and scheduled an interview.
The pay is kinda shit tbh, its mostly a side gig to do while im in college (I was taking a gap year when I first wrote this thread at 18), I get between 250 to 3000 depending if its just one photo for a catalog or a full blown commercial with speaking lines.
No. 138165
>>138155Oh my gosh, congrats anon! I wasn't expecting it to be you posting you got a modeling job, but that's such a perfect way to return to this thread. Not to be a negative person, but please keep your wits about you and don't ever let them eat into your self esteem. I know you've probably heard this a billion times anyway.
A part of me still wants to model but feels too "old" (I'm turning 24) and a bit scared of working in the industry somehow fucking with my body image more now that I've got a better relationship with my body. I almost did a portfolio and went looking for jobs when I was 18/19 but some of the adults in my life (who did work in/around the industry) kind of discouraged me because of wanting to protect me. I'm not heavily pursuing it anymore but definitely wouldn't immediately say no if I got recruited either.
I guess one of my other "impossible dreams" would be being a famous musician or some other type of artist, besides a model, but I think I may be able to cut it on a lower level of fame. Fame looks kind of shitty too anyway. Pls no bully but part of me really would love to be an art model/muse (nude included…) or vintage-styled pinup girl, but I don't want people to be shitty to me/deeply uncomfortable about it or for it to ruin my career because people have seen my body. It ties right back into the wanting to be an artist thing because I would love to help plan and contribute to this stuff or to do it all myself. If it weren't for my concerns, I think that or being a writer/musician would be the least impossible dream for me. A lot of the dreams people think are "stupid" in here are honestly so cute and sweet and I hope that you all are happy, if not today, someday.
No. 151575
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So, my dream is to mingle in the NYC art world and become well connected with socialites and artists (kinda like what Anna Delvey did without the grand larceny.) I’m an undergrad student in rural USA who’s studying hard so I can attend post-grad at NYU or Columbia. Practicality scared me away from studying art/art history (Still don’t know if this was a smart or dumb move.)
I know this isn’t the advice thread but I felt this post would be a bit too much for it… I’m actually posting with the intent to get advice, so if anyone has any tips pls tell
I only come to this site for advice so forgive me if I did anything stupid
No. 151603
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I grew up wanting to be a movie star. At that moment, I had never been so sure of something in my life, I was very passionate about acting, I'm a very charismatic person and the glamurous-hollywood lifestyle was very attractive for me, I really wanted to have fans, be in massive movies, travel the world, attend red carpets, land contracts with luxury brands and so on, so on.
Then I started to really see what comes with being the public figure I wanted to be and now I found celebrity culture and Hollywood disgusting and I know I'd be paranoid and unhappy if I was as exposed like celebrities are.
Nowadays I've cultivated completely different mindsets, new hobbies and interests. Still want to be able to afford some of their luxuries tho
No. 151705
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It's so lame but I wish I was more athletic. I wasn't the most sporty of my group of friends and didn't really participate in any sports for school. I was in gymnastics as a child but never ended up going anywhere with it. I have a nice base body to build some muscle onto but I feel like I'll never develop that athletic dexterity that someone who did sports/training as a kid would get.
No. 153391
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I always wanted to be an actor, I had no problems with performing on stage as a small kid but then I became more self aware and my mental illness and autism were too strong, I couldn't even go through an audition. And now it's too late anyway. I feel like nothing will ever give me true happiness and satisfaction.
No. 153396
>>153360I genuinely fantasize about getting men to kill themselves. Obviously I can't kill a grown man because I'm weaker but there's something so appealing about getting a man (especially the terminally online ones that post about male loneliness or whatever) to kill themselves. I reckon it would be easy since these dudes already post about being unloved and wanting to kill themselves anyway.
Yes I know I have a problem and yes I know I need help.
No. 153397
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>>153391Lots of actors actually start older anon, get treatment for your issues and follow your dreams!
Naomi Watts only really got famous at 31.
No. 153579
>>153570can you explain what you mean by hotness not really existing?
also there are still private servers of club penguin around if you wanna live your childhood dream
No. 153584
I've always wanted to get to know my maternal grandparents, but I only met them twice and they died when I was young. I also wish I had bigger hips.
>>153570>>153579I'm actually a mod for one of those. Idk I was bored and nostalgic and the other mods are really nice.
No. 153588
>>153579men and industries created 'hot' basically just look at insta thots, plastic surgery fake hair and makeup. the upkeep for that shit is thousands of dollars and days spent in salons and designer clothes and disordered eating, taking off your makeup and chilling in bed in ratty pajammas with a messy bun instantly ruins 'hot' no matter what men say, its a constant illusion girls have to keep up with 24/7 on top of already being genetically blessed
also ive played on some of the new club penguin servers, thanks for reminding me tho im gonna go check on that game lmfao although i dont wanna be a discord mod
No. 155564
>>155551Oh man, I second this. I’d rather do the Japanese Ninja Warrior, but the American one is cool too.
In reality, I’d probably slip off of the first thing I lept into though lol.
No. 155683
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>>138155>cope with being a huge unfeminine amazon woman by telling myself it’s fine cause models are all tall so as long as I’m skinny I’ll be good >5’1 women are straight up being OFFERED modeling gigs S-so happy for you, anon
No. 158300
>>151705That's total BS anon. Look at this guy, he started climbing in his mid 30ies and this is him at 48 sending a boulder one grade below the maximum difficulty there is.
It's true you might be too old to reach olympic level. But you can surpass 99% of the people you envy now for their head start.
No. 160917
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i'd like to assemble a group of hippie friends, so we would travel the world all year round and come stay in our cottage somewhere in a forest during cold winters.
unrealistic because i'm a pussy and cottages are expensive
No. 160918
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Being a Dj, I remember loving the idea of being a pretty Dj that makes huge and extremely expensive concerts with awesome 3D effects, actors and dancers on a stage, live singers and so on.
I actually have a small turntable which is actually my brother’s so I can’t really use it but I’m so busy studying for my career and doing chores that I end up not indulging in hobbies like that one. I also only have just a slight idea of how to compose, it’s mostly extreme entry level since any hobbies I’ve always had always got diminished by some of the people surrounding me, making me unable to enjoy them
No. 161112
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Forming a band. I haven't had the time and health to paractice before and now at 25 I feel like it's too late. I remember that Kim Gordon started Sonic Youth when she was like 28. But then again, she was already part of some art underground so making friends and connections in the industry was easier for her. I don't really know anyone. But hey, I'm going to torture my neighbours with botched Pixies covers anyway
No. 161159
>>161128This is not unrealistic at all, even if pretty difficult! If you can draw and speak fluently, maybe you'll able ot get a job as an assistant to some currently publishing manga artist, work under a nickname so no one knows you're not Japanese and eventually get to do your own thing, maybe collaborate like
>>161136 suggested. Good luck!!
No. 165341
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>>165302This is the ultimate dream. Congrats on at least getting by as an illustrator, that's step one right?
No. 165367
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>>165361iktf, I know deep down I'd hate living in Japan and especially in the countryside, but the idea is still so nice
No. 165608
>>165361I suppose I never grew out of my weeaboo phase and still fantasize about moving to Japan. I speak passable Japanese, have been to Japan, have both Japanese born and foreign born friends who live in Japan, and I'm aware it's not the omg animu paradise so many people think it is, but it is an absolutely beautiful country.
at the risk of being a complete autist on my last trip I got lost in Kyoto and while I was retracing my steps I pretended I lived there and was walking home from work.
No. 165619
>>165499lowkey in the same headspace rn. after i graduate college i'm thinking about taking a gap year and doing some traveling, but i have so many places i wanna live in and see so idk if that would be sufficient.
i think having a job that provides travel is something that im gonna try to pursue, and having a partner with the same vision is ideal.
>>165604settling down in a suburb really sounds like my worst nightmare. i'd feel so trapped and probably lose it, seeing people live that lifestyle depresses me.
No. 205935
>>205933I cannot agree. Things were stinky, but the way things are now makes those times seem ideal. At least there weren't genderfluid 12 year old dream stans, kids could be terminally online but at least it was less common, and there was a greater feeling of optimism, innocence and national unity. Also, phones had less function- instead of being a telephone, workspace, mini theatre, identity- technology was far less intertwined with our daily lives, allowing more freedom and more face to face and real experiences. Now school can be online, shopping is online, chatting is online (bc of lockdowns) but everything that is online is heavily filtered, so it feels less real too.
There's less unfiltered dialogue without censorship, which I hate, because I want to conclude that something is dumb without being shielded from it, and we have been giving the state too much power under the pretense of our own safety and fairness. I think 2010 was stinky, but this is so much worse. We could have fixed things a lot easier back then.
No. 206099
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I have several of these
>be a professional ballet dancer (would probably actually hate it though in all honesty)
or
>travel full time, have lots of friends all around the world and make a comfortable living
or
>be the lead singer in a symphonic metal band
and
>have a beautiful angular face with bold features (my face is really flat and round with a lot of baby fat)
No. 206310
I want to have huge breasts. Purely for myself, not male attention. I do not like men. I do not want to show them off. I already have issues with my back and finding tops that fit right, but I'd easily put up with those issues 10x if I could go up at least 4 cup sizes.
I've always had a breast complex. Even before puberty. Lucky for me, puberty hit me like a truck and as soon as I was 11 I had huge boobs out of nowhere. I didn't notice until around 7th grade when a bunch of my classmates brought it to my attention, but as soon as I realized I was busty I was never satisfied with my chest. I wanted to go bigger. Not outrageously so, just prominently. It's an impossible dream because I want them to be natural. Surgery is not an option unless it's fat transfer… But I don't know where it would come from since I don't want to look like the letter P. My ultimate dream would be to suddenly have gigantomastia like the adult actress Hitomi Tanaka. I don't like porn, but I love her look. And no, boobs aren't sexual to me. In my eyes, they're the apex of femininity and very beautiful. But mostly I just like the way they look. I've tried just about every non-surgical quack method there is, hoping something would work. Massages, supplements. When I was 18 I ordered boxes of these cookies that were supposed to help grow your breasts. None of it worked, obviously. Though I'm so dumb I'd probably try again if some other titty snake oil product hit the market. I'm just that desperate.
I got hurt bad earlier this year and during recovery, I dropped 20lbs. It took me from around a K-cup back down to a H. I can no longer fill a bra that was bordering on too small for me before the weight loss and sometimes it makes me physically ill to think about. I've almost gained it all back but now my breasts are just droopier and saggier than before, like thick pancakes. I want to die.
No. 207750
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Ever since I was a toddler I wanted to be a gymnast, I loved the idea of doing cool acrobatics and wearing the pretty outfits they wear.
But my mom wouldn’t let me get into gymnastics, she told me that the only decent gym in the city had issues with the teachers molesting the students.
That honestly shocked me a lot because I was just a child, and I cried so much because my dream wasn’t even going to the olympics, I just wanted to show off my flexibility.
No. 207763
>>168095i sort of feel the same way but i dont think it was innocent at all , and thats partly what i miss most about it. i was let loose on the internet at age 5 so i experienced a lot of the early internet just didnt understand it nor do i remember anything very clearly. i love how people were much more tolerant and i like the supreme edgyness ( in general, ex:slur usage amongst other things ) everyone had. sure people were perverted but in no way can they compare to today's coomers. also a lot of the
jfashion i like now was a lot more popular back then and easier/cheaper to come by than it is now so that also really sucks… and more than that back then corporations didnt take over social media the way they currently are today and you would have never seen so much social media content being covered in the news of all places because people weren't so into the internet at the time ETC ETC… sigh
No. 207870
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>>58242being a professional ice skater but i live in florida or a musician but im 20 and its too late and none of that will pay the bills. i need to be serious about a career soon.
No. 208203
>>208153Is it? I'm 26 and moving to a foreign country next year. I'm pretty scared everyone around my age will already be in a LTR or have kids, I mean my ex best friend had a baby this year and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Actually my impossible dream would've been to move to this country with her, share an apartment with her, experience a new culture, meet people, go to festivals. But she got knocked up by an absolutely ancient guy she meet on tinder. I get so bummed just thinking about it.
No. 208987
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Sounds more like a wish but I always dream of having my family and I live a comfortable wealthy life in a nice big house with all of us having our own rooms and yards with outdoor lights, green grass with shady trees to picnic under and huge spaces for gardening. I also wish my family could fix their relationships with each other and it's tiring that I have to play as the convincer, messenger or the linking bridge to this family.
I want all of us to get along and have more than enough money to get or do the things we want and to fix our problems. Not having our house filled with unmatched or out of place furnitures/items and oddities, not having to worry about bills, insurance, house rent, the possiblity of moving out or going through health related issues as time continues to grow more expensive. We could be traveling, going to places, trying new things and spend time with each together stress-free then again we got jobs to take care of to earn money, keep a roof over our heads and food on the table. It's like we're going no where and I'm sure a dream like this is never going to happen.
No. 209471
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I actually post about it before, but it keeps coming in bouts, so what the hell.
This is very dumb, but sometimes I still daydream about being in Tokyo/Japan for my research project and being scouted by someone on the street (like a real agent, not gaijin hunters) or catching the eye of an obnoxious japanese TV show and becoming a model/tarento. This is obviously never going to happen because I am literally the anti-japanese beauty standard lol
>tall
>broader frame
>not super skinny
>nearing my 30s
>despite having a gaijin nose, I have black hair and brown almond eyes so no "anglo gaijin novelty"
>tattoos
>kinda ugly anyway
The only way this would ever be possible is if I had a "Gap moe" appeal, having this image that is very "gangster" but actually being cute/polite/dressing in lolita maybe. Kinda like Lady Beard lol But not only is that a very, very small chance, but it's like… I'd probably have to be signed to an agency before going to Japan, anyway.
It's so stupid that I still have teenage tier daydreams like that, but I can't help it. Probably they'll disappear when I get to Japan again, because I'd be too busy to think about being a moderu tarento gaijin san kek
No. 284172
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i wanted to be an astronaut and discover new planets and perhaps live in the space where no one can find me lol
another dream was to be the best martial artist to the point no one could beat me including any men because i used to be obssesed with bruce lee
No. 285225
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Being a witch. I don't want to be a religious schizo, I want to fly on a broom.
No. 285244
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I wish fantasy and legends were real. It sucks that I will never be some divine soul that lives within the stars or some shit
No. 285334
>>58242I've always dreamt about running away because of fucked attachment issues. It used to be going to live in Japan ofc but when I went solo travelling there I got very lonely very quickly.
Now it's changed to living alone in a cottage by a stream in the middle of nowhere. Growing my own fruit and vegetables and preserving them, keeping chickens for eggs and meat, a goat or a cow for milk. Not needing money for anything. Burning wood for heat and some kind of filter system for the stream water. Tending my home and woodworking and sewing. Never talking to anyone.
I know it's unrealistic and a basic bitch cottagecore dream
I also have a reoccurring daydream to get me to sleep where I think about what I'd do if I woke up one day and I was the only person on earth. My usual plan would be to travel to a celebrity's house and fuck shit up, go inside museums and touch the artefacts, go try on expensive clothing, basically do whatever I want, then score some drugs for the day when I inevitably get too lonely to keep living so I get wasted and jump from a high building
No. 285589
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I wish I could date/marry a woman who is reserved to the point of being stoic, even stand-offish, on top of being very smart, confident, and successful, so people find her intimidating and hard to approach. But then when she's with me it all melts away and she's very affectionate and gentle and sweet. People would be totally shocked to see her treat me that way and she'd just be like picrel. I'm sure women like this exist but how common is it? Even if I met one, there's no reason for her to have any interest in me, I'm very unattractive and have nothing to offer. Hence the impossible dream…
No. 285593
>>285589They exist
nonny, I have met those before
No. 285724
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>>285636
Good news Nona! Men don't actually have standards. They will talk shit, idolise pornography, put women down, and encourage us to criticise each other too, but at the end of the day they will settle for basically any woman available. This isn't an advice thread but I think if you have such low self esteem that you feel fundamentally "ruined" and unlovable then you should not be dating or trying to date. Men can smell that vulnerability and will take advantage of it.
No. 286759
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one time, like years ago, maybe 3, i got very sick and could barely speak. during the time i fantasized about a voice box of sorts that'd hold down my vocal cords while also stabilizing them and whatever, so i could finally be able to sing. i have musical hearing, can read sheet music, but i can't sing to save my life, so ever since that time in my lifei fantasize about this. i listen to music and i imagine me, with a giant voice box around my neck, binding and constricting my vocal chords and bringing out just the right sound i want. i've always wanted to sing, so, so much. if the technology would be real, i'd slit my neck to have this happen. how i wish.