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No. 1010495

Unleash the beast
Previous thread >>>/ot/1005183

No. 1010501

My vagina suddenly locks up during sex and goes from feeling like sex to feeling like an injury, even though nothing changed physically. It isn't my boyfriend's fault or anything he's doing, it'll just randomly happen. I think it's related to my interstitial cystitis. He's really understanding though, and if he sees that I'm wincing or anything he asks "Are you locking up?" and immediately stops. Just sucks. I'm so horny and was having a nice time up until God stuck a hotknife in my biscuit

No. 1010502

What is the point of even being in a relationship if you have no interest on putting forth any support or investment of free time? If you want a fuck buddy it's a lot easier without the pretenses…

No. 1010509

>>1010502
Men like the consistent sex of relationships but would gladly relegate as many women as possible to "fuck buddy" if possible. However in reality, few women are interested in no strings attached sex, especially with the average schlubby male. So they play relationship while doing as little of their part as required without getting dumped.

No. 1010519

>>1010502
I'm the anon towards the end of the last thread with the shit boyfriend and I wonder this too.
And if you ask for any investment, it's suddenly your fault for being needy in their eyes, god forbid you want to spend maybe more than an hour with them. They only want to focus on their dreams and you're just an obstacle to them. Why even fucking bother to begin with then?

No. 1010521

I don’t want to see my stupid ass in laws tomorrow!
Soul sucking bunch who is negative in everything they say and negative in all the facets of their life! It’s so bleak. There’s no hope with them. I wonder if the more annoying ones will end up as miserable as the parents. I really had more hope for these people!

No. 1010523

I wish I could grow a spine and stop letting this guy mess with my feelings. He doesn't like me, he's just bored.

No. 1010524

The last thread was damn awful. I guess that Steven guy was right about that one Romanian chick, though I'm pretty confident she's all bark no bite.

No. 1010525

I wanna cry nonnas. My bf and I are staying at a hotel for a month and I think it has bed bugs. It's 4am so can't search too much for now or get a room replacement but fuck, I'm so itchy and have been bitten way too much. I'm so sad. This hotel sucks anyway but there's nowhere else for us to go for now. I don't think I can sleep tonight. In the morning I'll ask for a room replacement but if it is bed bugs I'm afraid they'll have gotten in our luggage aahhh so stressful fuck I hate this. I get warm very easily so bugs always target me!! I hate this

No. 1010526

>>1010525
Wtf nonna I'm so sorry. Report this shit right away and see if you can get a refund. Won't help with the damage ofc but definitely put up a fuss about this sort of thing

No. 1010528

covid shot got me feeling tired af. i was going to do laundry tomorrow but now, probably not. i will stay home and make cream stew.

No. 1010530

>>1010525
Is your bf itchy too? If not, you could be allergic to the detergent or something like super high quantities of dust mites in hotel bedding. I only ask because I went through something similar. Either way, I hope you can get it sorted out

No. 1010531

>>1010526
Thank you!
>>1010530
He isn't itchy but apparently some people don't react to bed bug bites at all. You might be right though nonnie, I'll keep it in mind. Thank you for telling me.

No. 1010534

>>1010501
sounds like vaginismus.
>>1010467
Here's the absolute broadest and as such useless advice white-collar that I can give:
>the idea of a linear or exponential career path is a myth for most people. if you look at any given person who you would consider successful, chances are that they had a rough time at some point and had to work through it. persistence and passion are what get you through the door if you're working a white-collar job and not hired right out of school
>if you're unemployed, set modest employment goals and portion off a few hours of a few days a week towards sending out resumes. if you find yourself getting stuck at any point in the process then troubleshoot your methods before continuing to send out resumes
>getting rid of your 'protagonist syndrome' and learning how to cope with (relative) mediocrity is the best thing you can do for yourself if you want to carve out a good life for yourself. Western countries and America in particular have a mythology where anybody can dream big and defy their wildest expectations with hard work and a bit of luck, or that prodigies coast into their dreams. The reality is that a fraction of a fraction of us will ever reach our dreams, and that's okay. You just need to strive for a relative point of stability and look for something more once you can and if you want to.
>Same goes for relationships
>Always prioritize full-time jobs and especially jobs with benefits over gig shit

No. 1010535

>>1010534
*white-collar advice sorry I've had way too much to drink

No. 1010536

>>1010531
I don't know much about bed bugs but I hear the bites are pretty distinct in rows of three dots, so you might wanna check for that

No. 1010540

I feel like a gate keeping scrote cuz gamer can mean anything. But the chick I hate only plays tetris. I guess fear the man who practices a single kick but she can't play well despite playing it all day everyday. Then bitches on the server when no one watches her streams. All I see is my mom playing candy crush.

I wanna tell her to thot up or play literally anything else if she wants some viewers on twitch that bad.

No. 1010546

I feel very odd and alone in this, but for some reason everything feels more 'real' to me online. It should be the opposite way around. But all of my strong memories that have happened offline I feel very disconnected from, whereas I remember most of the more personal conversations I've had online. I don't feel real in real life. I know that sounds very pathetic and edgy, but it's true and a very weird feel. Maybe it's because I was one of those kids who had neglecting parents that just threw their kid in front of unlimited internet access from a young age. I never really had irl friends because I went to horrid schools and my only friends for most of my life were people online. My boyfriend's romantic words are easier for me to understand when they're through text vs when they're spoken whilst we're together irl. I feel everything stronger when it's an online interaction. Because it's what I'm used to?
I don't feel real in the real world, I think "that's not me". I don't know how to stop feeling like this. I feel like I can only truly open myself up when it's on an anonymous imageboard or a one on one dm. Even calls are easier for me than irl stuff. Am I broken?

No. 1010557

>>1010540
Kek who the fuck streams Tetris?

No. 1010559

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Fiancé whined at me because I told him I applied for a weekend contract job to make more money. He's upset because he won't ever get to see me.

While I don't want to be resentful, yet I am. Sorry fiancé, you don't make enough to support me. I split every bill including our mortgage with you and I'm finding it hard to dig myself out of the debt I took on to improve and furnish our new house. Working more is the mature thing to do for this situation. I won't ever get days off now but what choice do I have? Who's gonna pay my debt?? Nobody. Not him, even though he benefits from the debt I've been left to pay.
It makes me think he's actually mad that he won't get to act like the most pressed in the room anymore with his wacky juvenile retail schedule and customer interactions–also matters that I have years of personal experience with but are treated like they didn't happen because I have a 9-5 office job now as an adult.

I want to chew him out for shirking out on so many of these responsibilities.
He's a man who's older than me. If he wanted to have a higher paying job he could and he would be taken seriously and be paid more just because he is a dude. He's just lazy. Meanwhile I actually apply, prove, and jump through hoops myself and can't even be paid for what I'm worth. I'm so tired, but I fucking have to.

No. 1010562

>>1010559
That sounds miserable, I’m sorry. I wish being a lesbian were a choice. Women are so much more considerate and caring in relationships.

No. 1010565

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I hate everyone and what everyone has done to me and how my work has never been paid and how I've been demonized and how people just tell me empty words like "move your country" or "get help". I have crippling mental and physical illness and nobody has ever helped me people have only harassed me especially women. I've had around 10 women trying to make me kill myself in the past 1 year. I live in 9/10 pain and soon my father and I won't be able to pay for electricity or food and I cannot get a job nor immigrate. I think very soon I will become unable to walk. I have very severe Elhers danlos due to abuse and extreme neglect as a child. My country doesn't offer me governmental support and I've lost my job as a camgirl due to women harassing me on the internet. It was the only job I could work. I'm literally physically unable to work. I'm murderous due to whatever people have done to me. People are so selfish and egoistical and only rich and upper middle class people succed and I have to listen to their stupid trauma that is not real and give them attention while my issues have been and are objectively 100000 times worse and im supposed to be thankful for whatever empty word you throw my way. You tell me to get help but help costs money that I do not have and that I cannot work to have due to extreme abuse that has left me crippled and that I have NEVER had any support for. The only time I have ever had support was when I could pay for it with money from being a camgirl but I got harassed by rich and well of radfems from 1st world countries that don't know what suffering is and I've been harassed by another camgirl that was lying about being mentally ill for scrote attention and she also had to steal my entire personality due to her bpd and send scrotes after me to harass me. I was extremely abused to the point where I'm crippled I spent my childhood in extreme poverty and physical abuse and never got help or therapy for it since I'm in a 3rd world country. I cannot get benefits and my dad has worked his entire life and he won't have a job. People are evil and especially women. I will very soon use my energy and remaining physical capacity to kill some BPD whore that ruins people's lives. Women are literally incapable of real empathy and are so judgemental. Women have ruined my life and no radfem will help me with money or anything and only judge me or objectify my suffering as a story for their stupid internet arguments. I truly hate humans. I was given shit by life to the point I will die in my early 30s and instead of helping me people only dragged me down but especially women. Women are so judgemental and non understanding. They are as bad as men. I curse you and hope great misfortune will come your way. You are not responsible for your "work", your environment is. If you were born like me you wouldn't have nothing. You don't understand how important socio economical factors are.Now shut the fuck up and suffer you stupid whores i have all your pictures and addresses and I will come to ruin your lives like you have proceeded to ruin mine. You cannot have any empathy for anyone but yourself and your "narc" parents and if someone tells you they have it worse it's all about you. Nobody will help me unless I become their ideological slave, servant or personal therapist. I'm sorry I cannot offer you more unpaid labor while your empathy is literally limited by me being your ideological servant. It's not like you can actually have empathy for me because of my situation you don't have empathy as most people you are unable of it. I was supposed to love life but how can I love life when all this great misfortune has hit me since my childhood and has modified my brain and left me physically crippled? I have realized I cried for people in way more better off situations while they never truly ever had it for me. My entire life I have offered people unskilled labor and they offered me shit. People are horrible and you won't know it until you meet true misfortune. Why should others live when I was not allowed to live and nobody helped me? I am literally physically crippled and im developing ulcers in my stomach because I've been taking pain killers daily for 1 year. I'm becoming unable to walk or open my mouth due to my joints and I cannot afford medical help and soon I won't have electricity in my house because my dad doesn't have a job. I cannot get benefits. Cannot immigrate. Cannot work. I don't know what Jobs to work from home. I have no connections or friends anymore and I've been looking on the internet for jobs and I cannot find any stay at home jobs. How do people get jobs from home? I can speak English, I'm beautiful and I can do basic tasks
Most humans don't even truly work and their job is offered to them by their socialization and environment. I can draw and nobody ever thaught me how to. Most people that can make art are guided by environment. Art is not for poor people from disadvantaged social situations. And the only thing you can tell a person that slightly criticzes you is to tell them to kill themselves because you are raging narcissists that project it on people that do not do things the way you want because you think everything revolves around you. Nobody has ever validated my trauma although I was raped, beaten, starved for the first part of my childhood, had intestinal worms and hundreds of other fucked up things and my entire life I had to listen to rich people and people that were better off than me complain about "uwu suicide " and having it hard. People that truly have it hard hide it and are socially excluded. Everything is dependent on dialectical materialism and social status and money. If I had money I could simply fix my issues and go to school. I literally only want enough money to have food utilities and be able to handle my medical issues.(we heard you the first time)

No. 1010566

>>1010501

I also have interstitial cystitis and the same exact issue. My gyn told me that it was a guarding response due to my body associating the pelvic area of my body with pain. Lots of slow foreplay as well as deep intentional breaths with initial penetration helps me a lot. I still guard pretty badly with fingering unfortunately, and I'm not sure why it's worse with fingers.

No. 1010567

>>1010559
I hope you didnt seriously take on debt to improve a house that doesnt legally belong to you…

No. 1010570

>>1010559
> I split every bill including our mortgage with you and I'm finding it hard to dig myself out of the debt I took on to improve and furnish our new house
>He's a man who's older than me.

Girl, if this isn't fake then you better have that loaded gun ready to go because this is just embarassing

No. 1010571

>>1010562
Thanks anon. I wish paying women equally to men were more of a thing. If I got paid worth a damn I'd never want roommates or spouses to live with me.

>>1010567
It does legally belong to both of us as my name is also on the deed.
Both of us needed each other to buy a house…but still.

No. 1010572

>>1010565

You got banned for this last thread

No. 1010575

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>>1010565
since on every post you mention you poor third world country. hey, schizo, i live in a poor south american country and have my entire life. dude, no one fucking cares. no one owes you jack shit cause you think you're pretty. i am not well off and never have. i believe in feminism cause i live in a place where it is dangerous to simply exist as a woman (altough you could say that about most places but you legit think the world is only the US and Romania). Ive lost friends to human trafficking of women as if they were only sex objects, i was also sexually abused and hid it most of my life then as an adult realized most of my friends and even my own sister was also sexually abused as most women in this country are. but we gossip and we totally ruined your comwhoring career so therefore feminism is a scam… girl, please.
you will never kill yourself. let alone others. you just like coming in here and playing like youre the most opressed and hurt person who has ever lived. but you come back every single day and its all our fault everytime.
Youre an idiot and thats why youre broke. Socio my ass, bitch. Yes, of course living in a shit country in a shit family you're in disadvantage. But the way to stop that is through hard work education and yes having to put up with assholes every day. It is the way it is. You do not fix it by complaining about being bullied in middle school on a vent thread. So don't act like its impossible to overcome those things, you're just lazy and very stupid. Thank you. Get wrekt.

No. 1010576

I hate screaming so much, especially my mother. She screams in anger to the point of blowing her lungs out. Even if it isn't directed at me, I still tear up and have a panic attack. As a grown adult. Thinking about it right now is making my heartbeat race. She screams so loud, it's insane.

No. 1010579

>>1010572
>>1010575
just ignore her

No. 1010593

I LOVE having sex but I was an awkward permavirgin a few months ago so now all of my friends are virgins and I have nobody to talk to about sex. I appreciate the sex advice threads here but I just want to talk about sex in general sometimes. I was considering adding people from the friend finder thread to talk about things like this with (not just sex), but I really want to keep my friendships irl mainly.

No. 1010595

>>1010565
How are you going to murder if you can't even walk kek

No. 1010614

>>1010565
>>1010575
as a fellow thirdie I'm actually taking her side, even though I suffer in this country I'm still part of the rare(what could be considered) an upper middle class
Its lower then people in the west but its better then what a lot of other people have to deal with
I don't know why anons are so dismissive towards her here

No. 1010617

>>1010614
probably because 90% of people that responded to her 2 days ago were super, super supportive of her and then she came back threatening to murder her dad and cat and blame us for committing murder??? a minority of anons questioned her for her actions as a kid but it was very, very minor. almost everyone was in her corner.

No. 1010618

>>1010614
check the previous thread. she wants to kill her cat for one thing.

No. 1010619

I can write essays for lolcow effortlessly when nobody asks for it, yet when it is required for an assignment, it feels so unnatural… I've tried tricking my brain into thinking the assignment was a thread prompt. Even just this message flows from my fingers carelessly, so the same should be possible for my essay. It's such a simple prompt, lol. I am so silly sometimes urgh

No. 1010620

stop me from calling my bf pls…..

No. 1010629

>>1010624
truly, i mean this with love - but i hope you hemorrhage terribly in the night from both your anus and eyes for this shockingly stupid and pointless post

No. 1010630

>>1010614
Beyond what the other anons said, she hates everyone here for not being as crippled as her (in her opinion) and not offering her an USA citizenship. Have you even read her post? I don't blame you if you didn't, but here are some choice quotes:
>.Now shut the fuck up and suffer you stupid whores i have all your pictures and addresses and I will come to ruin your lives like you have proceeded to ruin mine
>I will very soon use my energy and remaining physical capacity to kill some BPD whore that ruins people's lives
>How do people get jobs from home? I can speak English, I'm beautiful and I can do basic tasks
>Women are literally incapable of real empathy and are so judgemental. Women have ruined my life and no radfem will help me with money or anything and only judge me or objectify my suffering as a story for their stupid internet arguments. I truly hate humans.
>my entire life I had to listen to rich people and people that were better off than me complain about "uwu suicide " and having it hard. People that truly have it hard hide it and are socially excluded.
>not that post, but basically "stop larping as a neet/hikki you ugly whores, trauma is quantified and yours is fucking nothing compared to mine, so shut up you western cunts"
How many times can you read this bs and not get angry? She is being hateful toward most of the username here, if not everyone (western women, radfems, traumatized women… probably missed something)

No. 1010631

>>1010629
Too far

No. 1010635

>>1010633
It's schizo LARPing hours here I see.

No. 1010636

>>1010565
Venting in the vent thread gets you banned? Not very sugoi of you, mods

No. 1010641

>>1010630
idky but her specifically coming for radfems because they're not giving her money is cracking me up

No. 1010642

This is one of the only good places on the internet left and I'm scared of it going away.
There's nowhere to have actual discussions anymore. I love and value anonymity, yet hate 4chan. There's barely any anon sites to go to, but god do I fucking hate retarded 4channers. It you even somewhat resemble anything other than utter compliance to their anti-wokism obsession they shit themselves. Mods on every board are shit. I am tired of politics being shoved into my face everywhere. That being said, of course I hate actual wokism shit like reddit. It feels like people are always too far in one direction. 4chan is too negative, reddit is too fake-positive. Everyone is so easily offended - both sides. Yes I'm unironically saying both sides are bad and I'm tired of it.

No. 1010643

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>>1010634

No. 1010644

>>1010534
Hey thank you so much for responding

No. 1010645

>>1010637
why are some of you so cringe? i hope you're under 18 or some neet.

No. 1010647

>>1010633
How am I supposed to aim a lazer at each eyeball long enough, I'd need to strap them down or look like a retard trying to aim that thing at someone running away. I may as well shoot his kneecaps out and call it a day.

No. 1010650

>>1010634
>his
Fuck off newfag moid.

No. 1010651

>>1010642
I’m tired too. I’m so so tired of the normalization of the extremes. Fuck politics dude. The online world SUCKS.

No. 1010652

>>1010637
>>1010634
>>1010633
can you fuck off please? go somewhere else, we're not even a male board. get a constructive hobby. destruction is so pitiful and pathetic. all of the energy and complexity that goes into the creation even simple objects, and especially life, and you see none of the value in it but to destroy. pathetic. it's really the most pathetic and stupid thing.

No. 1010654

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I don't know why everyone's hating this, there's some great content in this thread rn

No. 1010655

>>1010630
Truly hating that she's actually proving the horrible moid correct.

No. 1010657

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>>1010649
Cats are built different you fool.

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>>1010642
>Yes I'm unironically saying both sides are bad and I'm tired of it.
As you should, you're 100% right. This place is good because it's the ideal middle ground - not women hating, racist, homophobic MRA/MGTOW/trad rightoids, but also not women hating, libfem, sex positive queerpoclgbabc tranny loving lefties. I guess women hating is what really unites everywhere else on the internet.

No. 1010660

>>1010646
hope you accidentally quoted my post >>1010630 along with the laser schizo one. I don't even understand why they replied to me

No. 1010661

>>1010655
She hates Steven yet proved him right. Sad.

No. 1010662

>>1010660
i did, i removed you. soz anon. it was completely to lazer schizo.

No. 1010663

>>1010630
add women uglier than her to the list too, kek

No. 1010664

>>1010653
What am I looking at here

No. 1010665

>>1010534
kek what if you skipped the college part?

No. 1010668

>>1010659
I hate that you're completely right.

No. 1010669

last night I had two nightmares
I only remember the 2nd but the 1st was in the same vein
I'm just wondering what the fuck is going on with me that I had this nightmare

I remember waking up in a room of 2 other females and a male who had been kidnapped
1 was a young girl and the other was her older sister
the men who kidnapped us made them play a game for whoever lost would be tortured
the day before their mom sacrificed herself and was gagged and blindfolded naked in a dog kennel and being starved with an IV drip that sustained her
the guy in charge said it was to get her to the brink of death
anyway the game between the two girls was very clearly made so the young one would lose, but the older one managed to make herself lose and I helped the young one be okay
she was then taken off and we didn't see her again
then I remember sexually manipulating one of the kidnappers, I get his phone and dial 911, they don't pick up, and the other guy comes in the room and I throw the phone and run off
then I wake up

what the fuck?
I'm scared to fall asleep tonight

No. 1010675

>>1010673
how is this a vent

No. 1010676

Too many gloomy crybabies in this world over non-problems and I'm probably one of them

No. 1010677

>>1010655
You know, she sounds like Steven. Or rather like a man. I really would like to think it's some retarded scrote larp. Really sad if it isn't

No. 1010682

>>1010677
I don't think it is Steven. I just don't get the feeling.

No. 1010685

I wish more people could agree to disagree, to an extent, of course.

No. 1010686

>>1010683
so this is a scrote?

No. 1010687

I hope family doesn’t take it personally that I don’t want to participate tomorrow. I’m trying to stay drink free. And keep my emotions balanced on my own. I’m enjoying mom being away. I deserve this healing and every upgrade coming to my life soon. I will not let anyone take that away from me. They had time to heal and move on. I need my turn. Like I can’t even sleep. The fact that I can’t make a choice for myself feels horrible. On one side I’m pretty sure we all needed time away from mom. Meanwhile on the other hand I see myself in their eyes. “Hasn’t this bitch had enough time to heal?”. No not really. I was moms main scape goat because I always supported her. A fake cloud she put in my face to have a daughter to pit against dad. “Hey look what I have on my side”. I don’t know what to do. I can go and sleep on my family’s couch and not participate and be somber on New Years. Or I can stay home alone and continue to heal.

No. 1010691

>>1010683
That illustration looks nothing like the lardy tard you posted earlier

No. 1010693

>>1010630
>you will never kill yourself. let alone others.
Idk man, she's been writing manifestos, that's a classic precursor to murder-sucide.

No. 1010694

Not to beat a dead horse here, but allowing so much covid conspiracy crap and the locking of the MH thread has led to the exact dramatic and cringy shitshow we are witnessing right before our very eyes, and often, in fact, on these boards now.

No. 1010696

>>1010688
tell her to come at me right now then. i'm ready to throw hands, i'll cancel my new years plans just for this. square up.

No. 1010697

>>1010683
quit while you're ahead MT & RN please

No. 1010700

>>1010686
No shit.

No. 1010701

>>1010694
the conspiracy insanity was the last straw. i agree with you.

No. 1010702

>>1010696
Fuck yeah anon, kick that fat neko nyaa nyaa bitch in her pimply tits. I'll bring a full length mirror and take on Lazer Sperg there.

No. 1010704

>>1010703
where do u sell these toys?

No. 1010707

>>1010702
we make such a great team, nonnie. wrapping my fists as we speak. his lardy girlfriend won't even know what hit her.

No. 1010708

>>1010705
You seem about 2 posts away from doxxing yourself, whatever drugs you're on, take another hit and put down the phone

No. 1010710

Of course… it's some Alaskafag. Cringiest motherfuckers in the US.

No. 1010714

>>1010710
Lack of vitamin D innit.

No. 1010717

>>1010713
Youre not a badass for having a sheriff serve you a court summons

No. 1010718

>>1010710
Idk what's going on here, but I don't think we (Americans) even claim Alaska.

No. 1010719

I think we need more mods for this shit

No. 1010720

>>1010713
clean your fucking nails

No. 1010721

>>1010715
no1curr about your toys

No. 1010724

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>>1010710
>it's some Alaskafag. Cringiest motherfuckers in the US.

No. 1010725

>>1010719
farmhand applications have been open for literally ages, I guess no one wants to mod

No. 1010727

>>1010641
>>1010630
Im a way I do understand her frustration against western radfems, so many of them seem to be upper middle class, having comfortable lives and security that most women in the world can only dream off, It leads non-western women to be envious of western women and also be hateful against radfems for being "ungrateful"

Its a mentality I somewhat have, I try to understand western radfems and am well aware the west has many many issues but I also feel that western radfems are blind to their own privilege's of just living in the west and the fact they always seem unwilling to acknowledge it

No. 1010728

>>1010725
I think people were complaining about never getting replies to their applications?

No. 1010729

>>1010715

You sound retarded but it makes sense now to know you’re from Alaska. Only freaks live there.

No. 1010731

If lasers and sound were real weapons we'd have used them on some third worlders by now. So this all sounds, as the scholars put it, fake and gay

No. 1010732

>>1010725
The application process intimidates me ngl, but I understand they have to vet out good ones. I think each board should have different mods. I'd consider being a farmhand if I could only be involved with the non-cow boards since I don't use the cow ones.

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>>1010729
his shed is such a dump… looks like that picture where you can't identify a single thing.

No. 1010735

>>1010730
Ew wash your hands sometimes, no wonder you got brain eating amoebas

No. 1010738

not understanding why this man thinks a board full of women would be impressed by his faggoty small-ball weapons and greasy girlfriend, no offense to his gf expressedly

No. 1010739

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Don't reply to him.
Look at this instead.

No. 1010741

>>1010739
Cutie.

No. 1010744

>>1010728
Aren't people who would want to help discouraged with the notion that they are trying to be a "white saviour"? I do not even mean radfems. I've personally never seen radfems act like you say, but I believe you and I'm sorry.
>also feel that western radfems are blind to their own privilege's of just living in the west
I'm wondering how they are supposed to express that though. Make thankful posts inbetween criticism of western society?

No. 1010746

>>1010730
Congrats retard, you didn't get the joke

No. 1010747

>>1010738
It's just another Tsundere-anon larp. Why is anyone giving it any attention at this point.

No. 1010750

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Anyways, I tried making a cute nail color but the mixture I made had the same brand but slightly different components in them. Some had nail hardeners and some didnt so it caused it to bubble up and burn a hole through the plastic plate I had it in and stain my bed.

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>>1010737
Post vid and not low rez enhanced photos or stfu

No. 1010755

>>1010754
>>1010751

Post your disc/socials, do it pussy

No. 1010760

>>1010727
it's too self-absorbed to feel western radfems cannot complain about their struggles and need to have us in their thoughts all the time. it's not like crime against women do not happen regularly there, and that they need to crusade for us third-worlders and always minimize whatever they deal with. we aren't gaining or losing anything if some girl complains about her exboyfriend being a weeb gamer while she worked and fed him. it would seem priviledged for us but it sucked for her. we need to build communities for ourselves than seethe at some rich radfem from the us or something. and every western radfem acknowledges that women from other parts of the world have less rights/deal with worse. i don't know, just feels like a waste of energy, not to say i've never been envious, i have and i will be in the future but i try to be mindful.

No. 1010762

>>1010728
oh, that's my first time hearing about that.

>>1010732
I think that's possible? I've definitely seen applications open for just /ot/ or /g/ before.

No. 1010764

>>1010762
The current application seems geared more towards the cow boards. I'm not sure.

No. 1010765

report and ignore. please.

No. 1010769

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>>1010761
My income and sustenance are independent of any system.
I don't need anything this world has to offer, so even if my life where to somehow be uprooted, I could survive indefinitely.

Can you radfems even hunt or fish, much less preserve food?

No. 1010770

>>1010765
>>1010764
>Muh women are superior
>Can't even hunt or fish
Alaskan women are superior.

You are all just trash.

No. 1010772

>>1010757
Just enough info, mods stop deleting the posts, archives help.

No. 1010773

>>1010747
Call me paranoid, but I think a lot of the recurring trolls are the same person. Whenever tsundere chan reemerges, retarded bait posts magically appear in every /ot/ thread. Something that jumps out to me is that the posts always mention a "hometown" (alaska, orange county, brazil, etc) unsolicited, which is pretty common for one person who's trying to maintain multiple characters. The obnoxious highly recognizable formatting (paragraph break between every sentence, no paragraphs at all, same attached image every time) also suggests someone who wants their characters to be recognized. It's all just one social reject who likes to waste their time I think.

No. 1010777

>>1010772
Lololol
You think I've told you anything new?
Everything I post is being monitored.
>>1010773
I'm laseranon :/
This is the first time I've been here I found you through the allchan index.

Next I'm off to harass the Israeli chan

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>>1010773
Also holy shit, do you not see the literal laser rifle or something?
Do you really think you would be ok if you got hit with a CO2 laser?

No. 1010781

>>1010779
Tell us more about the incels you sell shit to, you think they actually go through with that because we'd have heard of psycho virgins blinding women by now

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Also fuck you.
Come fight me irl, I'll show you what it means to have weapons like these.

No. 1010785

>>1010764
Apps for /ot/ are open rn but you're right, the rest of it are cow boards.

No. 1010786

>>1010781
Naw incels and right wingers don't do shit sadly.
I really wish they would, because my reach is limited, but 3rd and 2nd world militaries listen to me.

Look at belereus, they deployed my weapons after a very short email exchange, and now Poland suffers at it's border

No. 1010787

>>1010784
Why is your girlfriend so fat, what are you feeding her

No. 1010788

>>1010773
Ayrt, I feel like it's already obvious that everything was fake (even the facebook page) from the start, but I also have a tinfoil that tsundere-anon purposefully sends moids to the site to help troll and derail.

No. 1010789

>>1010787
All the candy and sweets I don't eat so she will maintain dependence on me.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 1010793

>>1010788
I buy the second part for sure.

No. 1010796

>>1010786
There is no way you'd be living in bumfuck Alaska if you sold weapons to Belarus, you'd either be on an island rn or in prison

No. 1010809

I’ve been making an account where I larp as my female rapist. It’s kinda funny.

No. 1010811

>>1010810
>>1010810
Lol mods you can't ban me I'll leave when I choose which is now(TRAGIC)

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Nonas, the guy I slept with but kinda parted ways in a not so great way is at a holiday stay now with my other friends. One girl (that has a bf that wasn't invited here) got very drunk and they kept like grinding and shit while we were playing board games, they kept on like touching right in the seat I was facing. He wasn't nearly as drunk and really liked the attention. I think they also might have fucked after we went to sleep. I don't want him at all, I wanted something casual but he is older and wants to start family and that's why we ended it. He was a bit of a dick to me. But it just feels awkward and I don't know how to act towards him. I almost entirely ignored him yesterday and just instinctively tried not to make eye contact. How the hell should I act, I don't know if I can force myself to act casual

No. 1010833

>>1010820
Let the indifference you’ve described him with here influence your actions towards him. If anything enjoy the feeling of high and mightiness that comes from watching this girl put her relationship at risk for your sloppy seconds kek.

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I’m at a New Years party and tried to answer the question “why do we have fuckboys but not fuckgirls?” with some genuine feminist theory. I immediately got jumped on by every moid in the room desperate to share with me their feelings about male mental health and false rape accusations. I entertained them for maybe 20 minutes before I tapped out because I have better ways to spend my evening. One of them was laughing in delight about how “triggered” I was, and the other one said he was desperate to win the argument while also making it obvious he wanted to fuck me. Why are moids so annoying and self-sabotaging

No. 1010856

>>1010852
Because admitting that men do bad shit means women might not fuck them, so they have to cope and pretend women are just as bad so you should fuck them anyway. Totes a human thing, totes men are actually oppressed (because individual moid does not have world laid at his feet). They're triggered about being degenerates, but don't want to give up the self-serving hedonism, or acknowledge it as a bad thing encase others finally stop them from being degenerate.

No. 1010858

>>1010727
radfems from this website harassed me for being a camgirl and having slightly different opinions than them although they made it appear like they care about women who are struggling, they DO NOT. Radfem ideology should be about helping women In need but instead they harassed me for being a camgirl and told me I have no excuse and have been trying to make me kill myself on lolcow since I left the server and if I kill myself I will actually post their pictures and names as linked to my suicide. For the past 1 year around 10 women have been trying to get me to kill myself because they cannot stand being disagreed with over one even little thing and will lose all empathy for you if you disagree with them like you are a mere ideological object made to satisfy their thoughts and the moment you do not anymore you do not deserve empathy anymore. Radfems objectify women and literally harsss them on the internet because they have hidden frustrations and extreme mysoginy, not to mention a lot of them are right wingers which are inherently mysoginistic. I consider myself a radfem but do not consider the retards on here that harassed me for being a camgirl, poor and abused and watch gay porn to be Radfems, nor do I consider the stupid twitterfags/tumblrfags radfems to be radfems when they have enough resources and privileges to actually help women. They are just sociopathic narcissists that have appropriated a humanitarian movement for their own ego and to find a community for themselves, not to help women, it is for them not for women Ironically, a lot of them end up harassing even female victims for being "pick mes" or "sex workers", I get it doing that when necessary but most people cannot see context. See the mentally ill women on this website that actually went through abuse be harassed by the same women that then circle jerk in their echo chambers about being the superior feminists because they are better than them. No, you are not better than libfems you realistically bring no real change to the world for women and you have appropriated a humanitarian movement for your own pleasure because you are a sociopathic narcissist with a delusion of superiority over an ideology. And now you will continue denigrating me and completely missing the point of my post because you are very stupid and everything you care about is yourself and you literally have 0 self awareness. Humanitarian movement about women's rights doesn't go very well with gossip about mentally ill women. Stop appropriating what isn't yours. Radicalfeminism is becoming just another stupid ideology made to stroke people's egos so they can circle jerk amongst themselves. You are literally unaware of what evil appropriating a humanitarian movement brings to the world. Now you're gonna further dehumanize me or make shit up about me or completely misinterpret everything I said and try to twist it your way because you are intellectually and emotionally manipulative and dishonest. Most of the things said about me here are untrue, gossip demonizes people and literally creates a fake demonic reality about them. I did not make the scrote come here, he was already here. I know most of you are newfags but do you remember 6 years ago? There were scrotes on this website and some of them have remained since then. Ironically only BPD scrotes are attracted to gossip which tells something about women. I never said western radfems shouldn't complain about their struggles, but why do they harass me or use me just because I'm poor, mentally ill and dysfunctional and had to rely on camming to make money? Why do they harass me although I am a female victim and why do 99% of them although relatively healthy and wealthy instead of going out helping women at shelters or redistributing capital to poor women. I will literally make more change in the world if I write a manifesto where I include the struggle of being a woman in a chapter than you ever will and you were given privilege by life. What is your excuse to sit on a chair and do nothing for women but harass them and use their misfortune in arguments. Radfems just like libfems objectify women and use them as a mere tool for their agenda. A very sad world where humanitarian movements cannot exist without people getting their egos involved and really sad that your ideology impacts women more negatively than positively. How have you used your good fortune to help other women? You haven't, but instead you have decided to contribute to the suicide and death of a woman that has been met with misfortune since her birth. You literally cannot read or understand my posts because you are simply stupid. I've never said you cannot complain If you are white, western or rich. A lot of people have called me racist or that I hate 1st worlders but I literally have extreme empathy for even people like Shayna and she is American, I just think she is simply mentally ill and you do not.know the struggles she's been through to end up like that with that much self hatred. You're the ones not.letting me express myself about anything. Can you imagine being met with so much misfortune and abuse and when you reach out to the world you realize literally everyone is a sociopathic narcissist in it for themselves and that if you do not have money you SIMPLY CANNOT GET HELP. Everything is about money and if you don't have it you are fucked, but of course you are incapable of empathy as most humans are. 90% of humans both female and male do not deserve to be alive, as simple as that. Most humans are entitled, have no self awareness, their empathy revolves around them and they refuse to give anything to the world but seek pleasure and comfort for themselves. Also, you do realize people on here constantly LARP as one another and try to troll? Literally Elaine's activity is not even hers like 40% of the things you think she's done or she does are not done by her literally. This is what gossip does, it's kind of like mass psychosis where others convince you of untrue things about someone else and then those things become true because the entire point is to turn that person into a demon and convince others of it too. I won't leave lolcow. I've been here for 7 years. I don't care what you think about me since I only think about the truth. When you are on the verge of death you just don't care anymore. It's kinda sad people from here have added to my death.

How are you supposed to thank fatality it gave you such luck of being born in a good country with money???? Use the time you use on arguing with people, criticizing troons, making fun of sex workers and gossiping about women and watching anime and go to a women's shelter or give money to homeless women. Buy them sanitary pads and food. The only way we can thank the universe for our good fortune and give back is by giving back to others and redistributing resources to those in need and you should be motivated to do this especially because you are a radfem and involved with humanitarian discourse. Either way, I will leave now. You should feel guilty for being handled good enough resources to make a change and everything you can do is sit on your chair and think you're changing women's lives by sitting on a chair and talking. You must actually be shamed and humiliated for being handled resourced by simply luck- you were lucky enough to be born somewhere fortunate enough and you won't die in 3-5 years like me due to extreme abuse and being unable to get health care and I have done more good acts towards women than you have ever did. I've volunteered for female shelters and I would spend my camming money on buying things for homeless women. I just went around town and bought them sanitary pads, clothing, food and so on and I made that money getting naked in front of men but I redistributed it to women in need. Usually homeless women are more vulnerable and deserve help more than homeless men. What's your fucking excuse? Oh, yea, just being a person born in privilege that doesn't know suffering therefore cannot display empathy or help the world. Stop appropriating humanitarian movements for your own egos sociopathic retards. You deserve nothing but death and suffering just as 90% of the human population does. You're all liars and narcissists "radical feminists" my ass. Only other poor people have ever helped me and ironically people not involved with humanitarian movements. Humans that appropriate humanitarian movements have killed anything that is meant for the OPRESSED. There is nothing about those OPRESSED in society and we are being made to think trannies are opressed or that you can be opressed for being of a certain race. You are opressed if you are poor no matter your race, but if you are poor and a woman it becomes 10 times more shittier. Everything becomes shittier when you are a woman, but if you have the resources to help women just fucking do it and you literally have no excuse. I have done more good to this world and I have nothing and will soon die and you cannot be bothered to stop consooming weeb shit, step out of your room and help the hundreds of homeless women that suffer because they WERE BORN DISPRIVILEGED AND POOR and not because they chose it. You're literally sociopaths. Most humans are narcissists/sociopaths. You have the resources, time and privilege to make a change and everything you can do is laugh as Shayna's pussy, make fun of me for being a camgirl and argue with troons. That's where your feminism begins and ends, you waste of human resources and space. I'm not leaving the vent thread and I will vent until I die and come back every year after year after year until I die. You're so narcissistic. This is an imageboard so different opinions should be allowed theoretically but like absolutely any other space on the internet it has turned into an echo chamber. You won't shut me up you pathetic narcissists. Go masturbate in your stupid "radfem" circle jerk. Most humans literally do not bring anything of value to this world and just want to make money for themselves and do things for themselves and they just create and partake in more useless production of useless unneeded services while they lie to themselves that they are contributing to the world while people that have the genetical intellectual potential to change the world are being born in India. Fucked up world, fucked up world fucked up world. Some people are living like humans used to live when humanity began and some humans own as much capital to save the entire world and that capital is not even rightfully earned, it is just passed on from generation to generation with the necessary socialization of earning more money. Fucked up world. I wish only suffering and misfortune upon you if you have a good life, most humans with good lives are born into it or manipulate and do a lot of social and environmental damage to earn their money and have a good life. The main quality of earning money is not the skill of the labour you are doing in itself but you have to have the skill of manipulating masses and being a deceitful liar and you have to constantly lie to yourself that what you're doing is actually meaningful and that you are a good person. If you were given, then give something back to the world but material because your life is good since you were given something material.

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>>1010858
Jfc romani anon is back. Please write your novel in a diary instead of a post, please and thank you.

No. 1010861

>>1010858
what discord does to a mf

No. 1010862

>>1010858
Stop killing cats pls.

No. 1010863

>>1010862
too much punctuation to be cat-killer anon

No. 1010864

>>1010858
We aren't your personal army or your therapist or your mother or the principal so please romani anon, kindly fuck off

No. 1010865

>>1010863
It's absolutely her

No. 1010868

>>1010858
Doctor could diagnose anon from this post alone kek.

No. 1010870

romania is in europe?

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>>1010858
>NPD+BPD.exe executed
Pic for the things we hate thread anon.

No. 1010875

>>1010870
Near Hungary.

No. 1010877

>>1010856
It’s so fucking tiring like. The short version I gave was women as a class don’t have the power and resources men as a class do and make sexual purity isn’t as prized as female SP, so women can’t wield sex as a weapon against men the way they do against us. I thought it was a perfectly reasonable response, no naming names or pointing fingers, but they had to jump in and try and “well akshully” me into a coma.
>>1010858
Get a diary camchan the adults are talking.

No. 1010879

>>1010875
i see, thank you.

No. 1010880

>>1010870
It's an EU member state.

No. 1010883

>>1010877
Men think they are the best sex, as if one can be the best, when they are more evil than good if we tried to quantify each sexes worth to civilization as a whole. Even when we try to play fair with the old 'well some men' they chimp out. They don't care about how 'men have it worst' (they don't kek), they just want women to stop trying to change things so they have it better, and are no longer oppressed in both medium (not providing medical consideration, seeing women's bodies as just smaller men) and major (rape/violence/dv) ways. Don't you dare change the system that benefits men ladies, that's the message.

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I know New Year is just a day and it's a meaningless date but I've never in my life been worse and it hurts. Depression has spiralled out of control, maybe the new meds are making it worse, I'm completely alone and overwhelmed with this awful hopelessness about the future. Not how I imagined my 30 year of life to look like.

No. 1010887

>>1010864
no you fucking kill yourself I have the right to post my truth on here. It isn't always about you. It's the vent thread, don't read my posts.

No. 1010888

>>1010870
Wouldn't it have been easier to just google this lmao

No. 1010889

>>1010887
>wahhh I can't believe people are telling me to kill myself, you guys are psychos wahhhh

No. 1010890

>>1010887
Go to the "get it off your chest" thread if you don't want people to reply to you romanichan. You're here looking for attention and you're only mad at me because I don't want to kiss your cat killing ass.

No. 1010893

>>1010887
write in your diary if you don't want people to read what you post on a public board kek

No. 1010895

>>1010887
Did you do it? Did you kill your cat like you said you would yesterday?

No. 1010897

>>1010887
>don't read my posts.
Your posts take up 50% of the screen dumbass

No. 1010898

>>1010887
>My truth.
>Not the truth.

No. 1010900

Please can you bitches just report….

No. 1010902

>>1010895
More importantly, did she kill the people? Shall we be seeing her in the news? "I know that unhinged npdfag…"

No. 1010904

>>1010900
I'm sorry nona, you're right

No. 1010905

>>1010900
farmers can't ignore posts for shit.

No. 1010906

>>1010900
Already been reported. Reported myself the minute she posted kek.

No. 1010908

This is a perfect opportunity for steven to have a redemption arc kek

No. 1010909

>>1010908
No it isn't Steven

No. 1010910

This is why discord fucking sucks. Always shit drama.

No. 1010911

>>1010909
I know. I'm just saying that if he were to post again, maybe nonnies would go easy on him this time lmao

No. 1010912

>>1010911
No. He's a scrote.

No. 1010922

I hate that I have to drug my dog today so he doesn't die of stress because retards like fo throw big boom sticks. I can understand fireworks but anything else is retarded as shit and I swear any adult who still uses that shit is a fucking redneck type of idiot. At east it's not as bad as last year

No. 1010926

I'm so mad kim petras is a troon because hills and bloody valentines are absolute bops

No. 1010930

>>1010858
Third world ass whitoid moment

No. 1010931

Fuck the autists who actually read and respond to sperg posters
>>1010922
Agreed, even if I didn't have pets I'd still hate that shit.

No. 1010950

I've been having bad cramps and light bleeding for the past week. My period was supposed to start this weekend. Apparently I was pregnant and I am miscarrying. It hurts so much, I can't wait for it to be over. I don't want to go to the ER for that. I am just glad that the baby is gone. I am also waiting for my friend's covid results cause her son had a positive on a fast test and I babysat him Monday.

No. 1010951

I’m so tired of men with victim complexes. Don’t cry on my shoulder and ask for advice to just keep doing the same dumb shit and dating women who don’t respect you. This gf cheats, and you go right back to them, but turn around and ask “why did this happen to me, AGAIN?”
Because you have no spine and you refuse self evaluate. Just admit you’re a cuck and move on.
The only reason I even care is because I know my bf found you in the tub with your wrists slit years ago and had to get you to the ER. I know he stresses out about it happening again.
I’m at the point of apathy. You’re never going to change, and frankly I don’t think you’re even a good friend to the guy that has helped you for 10 years. Ready for you to leave our social circle, and I hate I can’t be direct with you because it might trigger self harm issues.

No. 1010953

>>1010636
She's posted this like 20 times in the past 4 days nonnie

No. 1010954

WHERE THE FUCK ARE ALL THESE MOSQUITOS COMING FROM?! I have fly screens on all the windows but somewhere between my bathroom and bedroom they are teleporting in and devouring me and fucking up my sleep FUCK. Asthmafag so can't even use one of those plugin things. FUCK MOSQUITOS

No. 1010958

>>1010858
get a job like everyone else

No. 1010960

>>1010954
Nonita! Rosemary oils / plants help deter them!

No. 1010962

>>1010636
>Vent
mf wrote a sequel to her original novel

No. 1010983

>>1010922
Same. In my country the sale and use of any fireworks bigger than sparklers is banned this year but for the past weeks, people have been setting off all sorts of explosions around my flat, as well as destroying bus stops and mailboxes with illegal fireworks. For some reason I’m expected to feel bad for men (it’s always boys and men) like this when they inevitably injure themselves but honestly, fuck that. The worst part is that they even harass and attack ambulances and EMTs when they show up to help someone whose illegal firework blew up in his face to the point that every year in December we have to have PSAs everywhere like “Hey please don’t attack EMTs when they’re trying to save your friend’s fingers thank you”.

No. 1010988

it's been a long time coming but I'm ripping the bandaid and rehoming my cat that I had for years.
I'm penniless by the end of the month since covid began and I can't afford my own necessities because I don't want to give my a cat miserable life like mine and I'm embarrassed to borrow from my parents every other week, I have been borrowing money for the vet and cat food as well and not just mine so I can't even afford a cat anymore.
I love her so much but my problems that need money to be fixed have been piling and piling with no way out I can't do this anymore, it's very embarrassing and it's been making me very anxious and in a bad mental state it reflected on her so neither of us is happy.
It's been lingering in the back of my head but I have to face it, both of us would be happier if she gets rehomed and I'll be saving $120 per month that I spend on her food only.
It's a difficult decision to make and it makes me sad, I'm gonna get judged by people for giving her away but it's not like I had any other option.

No. 1010991

>mfw only one of the few people at the office today and even the other girl in my department meant to be here faked a car problem just to stay home
Why couldn't my office just give us a paid day fr. It's dead and no one cares or has anything to do. Let me gooooo

No. 1010992

>>1010988
Anon, I'm so sorry. But don't worry about being judged, you're doing the right thing and that's all that matters. Hope you find a good home and maybe even be able to get her back.

No. 1010993

>>1010988
Oh anon, I am terribly sad for you. But you are doing the right thing, for both you and your cat! I hope you can find a comfortable home for her. But you are doing what’s best due to circumstances, so anyone that judges is stupid.

No. 1010994

>>1010988
Last resort, but could you contact a shelter or food bank that may be willing to donate some food and cat litter? I feel bad that you can't afford your pet anon. I'm sure other people agree with that sentiment and would be willing to help.

No. 1010996

>>1010988
I am very sorry for you anon, this must have been a very hard decision. I could never do it. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. As much as your cat will miss you and feel depressed for a bit, it is for her well being. You are not rehoming her because you don't care but because you do care. Most people give up their pets for bad reasons.

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>>1010858
Wtf is this huge wall of text, it took me ages to scroll up. I know this is the vent thread but Christ, maybe buy a journal or a therapy appointment

No. 1011000

>>1010988
I don’t know how to make it happen, but for the record I would order you a cat care package for the next few months if you want to keep your cat. I guess let me know if we can figure out a way to help nonnie.

No. 1011004

>>1010922
I loathe fireworks. My dad drives out of state to buy the types that are illegal, and a couple years ago he shot off a bunch next to my bedroom window after I asked him to be quieter because I had an exam in the morning.

Speaking of my dad, I want to vent because he’s been home since Christmas and does absolute jack shit while my mom has been working almost every day. He refused to go to any relatives houses for Christmas because of covid, yet he’s been trying to get my mom to go out to eat with him all week. He didn’t help her at all with the Christmas tree, wrapping gifts they bought, and now he’s been at home on his phone browsing youtube and her facebook account all day. I noticed that he hasn’t even moved his car for her so she doesn’t have to drive around it to leave to go to work. It’s so depressing seeing how he treats her

No. 1011027

>>1011004
I hope he at least has life insurance you can look forward to

No. 1011029

>>1010495
My bf and I were talking about sexual history and I realized, as I was explaining this one situation that happened, it was actually rape.
My 19 year brain just made excuses for the guy being drunk and aggressive and I thought it was ok because we just started dating. But as I was explaining it to my -now-bf it all clicked.
That guy really woke me up by slamming his dick in with no warning, raped me, and my brain just went on auto pilot the whole time.
Looking back at the relationship, I did tell him the next day it hurt and waking up to unsolicited anal when I was drunk was awful. I remember him apologizing and trying to care for me. I remember him crying and trying to hide it. I tried to brush over it so quickly, I didn’t quite process the severity of it .

After that we didn’t have a great sex life, as you can imagine. But also, I know he hasn’t dated many other people since, and that was 10 years ago. Maybe that’s his guilt, idk.
Im not excusing his actions now, but fuck why did I at 19?
I know trauma is complicated. I know it’s taken therapy to sort out other issues in my life, but why did it click 10 years later? I should have dumped him . I should have called my brother immediately and he would have kicked the guys ass.
The rage I feel is warranted, but also past it’s expiration date. So many emotions. I wish I handled it differently then.

No. 1011051

>>1011029
A lot of traumatic events are like that, when things are happening it's like no one really knows they're in the thick of something that's going to haunt their minds for years. The "shutoff" you felt was your psyche in shock. Either way don't blame yourself, that response is very common. That's kinda how I felt was I was diddled as a child by a male babysitter and didn't realize how fucked it was until I was a teenager.

No. 1011067

>>1010999

He's "been on the verge of killing himself for 7 years" but apparently negative female attention from nonnies has kept him going. We should just ignore him

No. 1011069

>>1011051
Thank you for thoughtful response. I wish we could have tea and talk about more positive things in our lives.
I’m sorry about that babysitter. I hope he rots.

No. 1011078

>>1011029
Seconding >>1011051
I was raped when I was 15, and I also didn't realize I was raped until I told a friend about what happened.
I was crying hysterically and saying no and asking him to stop over and over again until my brain blanked out and started dissociating.
When I told my friend about it, I romanticized what happened as my first time being "rough sex". I also had bruises.
However, the time frame was different in that I told a friend about it the next day. Had I not told her, I'm sure it would have taken months to kick in.
The severity of what happened didn't kick in for a few months or years on different levels.
Trauma is complicated, and our brains want us to be happy. Your brain was coping to find a way to be okay.

No. 1011080

>>1011078
Thank you for replying as well. I hate how common sexual assault and rape is. Im sorry that happened to you, I’m glad you had your friend.
I wish it clicked sooner, for me. it’s so much trauma to carry for that long, on top of other events. I was a severe binge eater for a long time land I’m sure it played a part in fueling it.

No. 1011081

>>1010858
Reading about your life breaks my heart. I hope you get better. I hope you can find help. You're smart and you speak English; the entire EU is your oyster.

No. 1011082

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I've always loved imitating voices and making weird sounds since I was little, so I learned to make a lot of cool things with my voice and experimented a lot with singing and voice acting throughout my life (only as a personal hobby).
I recently decided to start taking singing classes and was convinced that it would be extremely easy due to my abilities and vocal range, or that I least I would have a very versatile and unique voice kinda like Nina Hagen. Lord was I wrong. Turns out I learned everything I know with a terrible technique, so I basically have to re-learn everything the correct way, which turns out, is way harder than I expected. I just can't "open"/relax my throat for the life of me, or raise my soft palate, or drop my jaw, or keep my tongue relaxed, or keep my voice properly placed for resonance, or even open my mouth. I didn't expect it to be this difficult at all.
When I more or less do everything the way I'm supposed to with the correct technique, I'm unable to replicate any of the voices and sounds I'm normally able to.
I 100% know it's just about practicing and persevering and I'll eventually become better, but my ego was completely annihilated the moment I took my first class. I really thought I had some sort of natural talent for singing. It's been some months since I started and I still struggle more or less as much as the first day, but I guess I haven't become fully aware and understanding of how everything works and the amount of hard work and practice I have to dedicate to this if I want to get better.

No. 1011083

>>1011082

Just keep at it nonnie. Maybe you do have a natural talent, but since you learned in a different way you just need more time to uncover it. That's actually pretty fascinating though, I also like to randomly sing and wondered what it would be like if I took a class

No. 1011086

>>1010852
Fuckgirls do exist they just call them sluts/whores. It's the same thing more or less.

No. 1011088

>>1010911
Stupid newfag.

No. 1011104

New years eve always makes me nervous.

No. 1011108

>>1010530
Update, I think you were right about the dust mites nonna. We searched around the whole room but couldn't find any sign of bed bugs. Thank you so much for telling me ♥

No. 1011111

>>1010858
didn't read + you're cringe

No. 1011112

>>1010833
Sadly I think I look more like a bitter ex. But it's just very awkward to me. I don't know how to react when guy who I slept with is basically fucking someone in front of me. Really don't know how to react but ignore and the ignoring is starting to look very awkward too now. I will probably have to force myself to talk to him normally but I just think he's trashy as fuck and dislike him a lot now.

No. 1011147

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i hate youtube o face i hate it so much, like irrationally so, i want to hurt these people (in minecraft) and that dumb fucking arrow pointing at nonsense? fuck you. i hate youtube in general. i go out of my way to not watch it. i dont go on youtube it just makes me so angry

No. 1011152

I now have to spend 10 more hours with my brothers retarded dog. I wish he would just sleep but he keeps constantly walking through the kitchen and hallway

No. 1011162

>>1011152
Maybe he’s anxiously waiting for us owner to come back?

No. 1011172

>>1011147
Me too. I miss just watching YTPs and edgy ironic comments are old pewdiepie horror gameplay. It’s so formulaic now.

No. 1011179

>>1010559
Don't marry this fucking loser please

No. 1011184

>>1011172
Same nonnie.
I also hate the videos zoomers make about internet history and drama just for clicks and clout. Everyone wants to feel like an important person or celebrity now. I miss unscripted nonsense

No. 1011185

>>1010559
lmao you're doing this to yourself. It's a choice to date a loser.

No. 1011187

>>1011162
He doesn't give a shit about my brother because my brother neglects him. I've been taking care of him for 2 years now.

It's new years eve so all the retards are outside making as much noise as possible with fireworks and other shit. I just hope he didn't develop a tolerance to the anti anxiety he gets every new year

No. 1011190

I’m now catfishing my female rapist with the intentions of leaking her nudes. All because cops didn’t lock her up. Why should I murder her if I can emotionally make her feel even worse than I did? Lol

No. 1011200

>>1011187
Poor puppy, I hope the fireworks doesn't frighten him too much.

No. 1011201

>>1011190
I'm sorry about what happened to you anon, but this is probably not healthy for you.

No. 1011204

I'm sad about spending NYE in quarantine

No. 1011206

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I think there’s something wrong with me, and I can’t see it but other people can. This is the second time I’ve texted friends about hanging out on an occasion and was ignored by everyone. Once on my birthday and now this. I’m a bit dumb when it comes to social niceties, and I don’t know whether “yeah we should hang out on NYE” was sincere or not, and I’m stuck again like the time I heard “yeah we should catch a movie next week or something” and emptied my weekend and spent it alone, anyway, because that invitation was not sincere. It’s gotten to the point where it made me not want to talk with people anymore because they falsely perform so easily. They’ll be nice and social with someone they aren’t really into and they’ll go above and beyond for them and it fucks with me. I’ve always thought you put in effort with people you like and you don’t bother yourself with those you’re indifferent about, and you make that politely clear. I’m not even upset; I just want to understand.

The only fun interactions I’ve had this year were on lolcow. The only rewarding ones were on here too. I’ve learnt a lot of things from fleeting nonnies here, and got back to reading after not reading for two, three years, mainly because of this site too. I used to want to be a writer all through my teen years and wrote for hours everyday and showed my work to people who helped me believe in myself, but then I got depressed for a good few years and never wrote or read again. And when I tried to read, there wasn’t that anxious joy or excitement at a book. But I’ve found that little joy now, and I found that I really miss it. It’s nice to have it back. I think this is enough of a NYE gift for me; I’ll gladly take being ignored and dismissed if I get to have it.

No. 1011215

Shut the fuck up about how firewords scare your poor widdle puppers, you don’t give a shit when your stupid mutt barks day and night and shits up the street, i will light a firework right next to its ear if i can

No. 1011226

Romanianon unironically opened my eyes about a lot of things and I'm slowly distancing myself from this place

No. 1011227

>>1011215
It scares cats, rabbits (they can get a heartattack and die) and wild animals as well. I wish peple were more careful with fireworks.

No. 1011230

>>1011226
Too bad she herself also did and posted about everything the judges LC for.

No. 1011234

>>1011227
and single-use plastic kills sealife but somehow it only matters the 1 day in the year when it's about fireworks. nta.

No. 1011237

>>1011234
Single use plastic matters all days of the year, nona.

No. 1011238

>>1011215
Like you did with your cat?

No. 1011243

>>1011215
Go play with your fireworks in your containment thread spaz

No. 1011253

My brother is the only anti-vax/anti-masker in the family, and as of yesterday he has covid. Not shocking. Now I'm just lumping his groceries into my trip and dropping them off as needed. I'm not shocked so I'm also not angry, just glad he didn't come near my extended, elderly family members this holiday season.

No. 1011255

>>1010858
Holy shit bitch nobody is gonna read all that

No. 1011258

>>1011184
the worst about those channels is you know they get the info from places like 4c and kiwifarms and stuff and they dont give credit like they did all of the info diving. they just read threads with dreary music in the background

No. 1011259

>>1011215
Disgusting freak

No. 1011260

>>1011201
I havent yet received the rancid nudies but I’m close. explain first to me why? Maybe i’ll block her and cancel my activity and enjoy NYE.

No. 1011275

I've liked a guy for a while now. I've no idea how he views me. At first I thought I was getting signals but then doubt set in because I know I've become quite the hermit type in the last couple years and… he has a social life. That makes me feel like he's out of my league in a strange way. He has a life and I have very little going on.

We have this ongoing thing of bumping into each other and making small talk. Tonight I passed by him but it was dark and he was on his phone so I didn't even look at him.. just heard his voice and saw him from the corner of my eye. Half of 2021 has been me waiting to see if anything happens. Knowing I won't do shit so he would have to. He's probably heading off to his new year plans right now. I walked home with less hope than ever about this. ffs he seemed really keen back in the summer and I did nothing.

Inside I really like him but externally I know I'm giving off the opposite impression. Why am I like this.

No. 1011279

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Please let this be bullshit…

I kinda figured there was a reason why I was seeing so many articles praising her lately and hoped it wasn't due to poor health. Right before her 100th too.

F

No. 1011283

>>1011185
>>1011179
It was this or continuing to pay increasing rent by myself without ever being able to afford a home because my family is abusive and don't give an actual fuck about me. I was living outside my car, anon.

Be happy that you're privileged enough that you don't have to constantly compromise with lackluster roommates and life partners in order to not be homeless or constantly in threat of it.

No. 1011284

>>1011279
wtf I thought she already died months ago

No. 1011285

>>1011279
Holy fuck, no

No. 1011287

>>1011279
>poor health
she was in her late 90s, its not surprising she died. its sad that youre not the only one to mourn how she couldnt make it to 100 like she had a choice. its dehumanizing and callous

No. 1011290

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The absolute total state of de/g/enerates

No. 1011291

I hate this soon to be party, I hate this place, I can't leave, I hate December, I hate NYE. I can't wait to have my own place and spend the whole day sleeping and reading/whatever the fuck.

No. 1011292

>>1011287
>its sad that youre not the only one to mourn how she couldnt make it to 100 like she had a choice. its dehumanizing and callous

……..Sorry is this your autistic way of coping? How did you read "callousness" and "dehumanizing" from being upset that she's dead? No one thinks death is a choice you incredulous dumbass.

No. 1011293

>>1011287
It’s just cool when people make it to 100 years old. Very satisfying.

No. 1011294

>>1011292
>Right before her 100th too.
the fact she was 99 is incredible but this isnt the first instance i have seen people being uwu upset that she didnt make 100

No. 1011295

>>1011290
Anon tbh there really is no rational way to confirm who is and isn’t a man on here, sometimes they can integrate here very easily. It’s very possible that many /g/ posters could be covert trannies or men and I’m not trying to make a scapegoat but I also am because /g/ is the only thing that can accept my unconventional half ironic tastes in men and women

No. 1011297

>>1011287
Her birthday is in two weeks and people were talking about it so, yes, there will be remarks made about how tragic that is. Don't be retarded, no one here thinks she owed us to live.

No. 1011298

>>1011279
rest in peace to the true queen

No. 1011300

>>1011297
have any of you actually met a 90 something? some of them are ready just their body wont give out. being bummed she didnt age up to a cool number is stupid.

No. 1011303

>>1011300
What kind of pseudo moral police shit is this? Fuck off.

No. 1011307

>>1011279
This can't be true is it? I was literally thinking of her and Golden Girls yesterday. RIP, queen.

No. 1011310

>>1011303
golden girls wasnt that good but she was a good meme and had a huge following and was adored by the wildest group of people but im seeing more mourning about age # instead of celebrating how she had a cool life. its not doing her any credit
the ay people handle death overall is a bit selfish

No. 1011328

I spent the holidays at my mom's place and the whole time I felt like a rat in a cage. I can't be myself here, I can't do what I want here, I want to go home to my own place, read, draw, watch movies, do an online art history course, whatever. Also, my mother asked me, fully knowing that I have no friends, if I didn't want to spend NYE's someplace else. Sure ma, I would have loved to

No. 1011329

i want to untroon this girl so badly

No. 1011330

saw a coworker's breasts, bare, due to social media

way perkier than they have the right to be, like I kinda figured from her general outline but I was secretly hoping they'd be saggier? I feel like I've seen a lot of boobs that weren't as saggy as I assumed they'd be and that just made me feel bad about the way I look
I'm kinda frustrated (maybe sexually too?)

I almost wish I could tell her how nice and beautiful she is lol

I'll be thinking about this all day until I can get it out of my head but maybe venting about it will help

No. 1011337

>>1011330
welcome to consoomerism

it turns out guys dont care about tit shape as much as we do and if they do they consoom too much and should be tossed into the sun

i believe in you and your tits anon. she has a pair and you do,

No. 1011360

>>1011328
Also can't stop thinking about that one coworker. Got off to the thought of being with him multiple times. I wonder if he thinks about me at all

No. 1011419

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I'm alone tonight. I live with my aunt and she went to the new year party with her friends and didn't even ask me if I wanted to go with her. I don't have any other family or friends, the only person I talk to at work is at her boyfriend's place, I'm a kissless sexless autist and I'm afraid the next year is going to be exactly the same as the old one

No. 1011436

Mom ordered KFC, I said I didn’t want anything but I just saw that they have a sandwich that looks just like the old KFC Snacker…argh

No. 1011438

I just found out that what I thought was a very good online friend of mine who ghosted me out of nowhere got sucked into the orbit of a very manipulative abusive moid who also had his hooks in another friend of mine. The other friend was actually in danger at one point and I'm hearing all this for the first time and trying to be there for her but I am also so fucking pissed at this bitch for ghosting me and letting me think I did something to offend her. I was broken up about it but now I know it was just about chasing a crumb of dick around. But I feel like I don't dare talk too much about how upset I am because it pales in comparison to what happened to the other girl. It's just all really dark, I've been crying.

No. 1011441

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I HATE MY SKIN REEEE REEE RE I CAN REEEE REEE TRADE reee REE REEE PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WHY CANT I HAVE NICE SKIN REEEE

No. 1011442

there's an intolerable (he incessantly uses twitter lingo) gay moid avatarfag on /a/ who likes my husbando. i want to murder him

No. 1011451

>>1011442
Time to assert your dominance anon. Let him know your husbando is yours and yours only.

No. 1011455

>>1011441
is that the diabeetus guy

No. 1011491

habby new year jobs in nonnacitas!!!!!

No. 1011493

>>1011491
fuck no ideawhere that "jobs in" came feom, fuck you autocorrect

No. 1011498

alone on new year's again. fuck new year's and fuck birthdays. i don't want to be reminded of time passing. someone please kill me.

No. 1011506

my friend only cares about seeing her boyfriend on holidays now so i'm sitting at home in my depressing messy bedroom with nothing but a bottle of wine and the pathetic, sickly habit of checking my phone every 5 minutes hoping the guy i'm currently fixated on will text me even though it's already beyond blatant nothing will go anywhere and this is all my joke of a rotted brain turning my life into misery. worst NYE in 4 years by far, and i'm also pmsing so the emotions i feel and the mental obsessions are just unbearable

No. 1011507

>>1011493
you were right though, i definitely need to get a fucking job this new year

No. 1011508

New year vent, i find it hard being happy about new year at all. Just next year of going nowhere, sorry for sounding so dramatic. i'm studying at the university, but still feeling like it's completely useless. i know, i'll get my degree which i need, but probably not going to work in that field i'm studying. i'm a drug addict, depressed, etc. i have no energy/want to do anything, i hate everything i used to like, can't even read books anymore, which is awful. idk how to find any motivation to do literally anything at all except watching TV. i have no energy to try any therapy, medicines or shit, been here done that. i can live like that, just wish i had some more motivation or creativity moments sometimes

No. 1011517

>>1011328
We suffered through some horrible TV shows and stuck out until midnight, took two sips of champagne then we both fucked off to bed. I don't understand traditions

No. 1011518

>>1011507
me too, we're gonna make it this year. Both you and I, lets GET THIS

No. 1011524

>>1011491
I've had 3 sexless years, I want to suck one dick this year, nobody judge me, thank

No. 1011529

>>1011524
no judgement here, treat yourself nonnatella

No. 1011536

>>1011498
I feel you nonna. I'm alone too, it's fucking depressing. Sending you love, you'll get through this ♥

No. 1011538

i'd just love to know why every single ad i get on instagram is for fucking birth control. retards recommend me actually useful shit like anxiety meds, anti depressants, any other junk just stop accusing me of letting scrotes cum in me before i kill myself thanks

No. 1011539

Holy fuck, my dog survived the new year, I'm so happy. At one point we were playing catch and I think that was when the pill kicked in and he was high as balls lol. He's sleeping now and fuck, I'm so glad it's over.

No. 1011544

>>1011538
I set my gender to male on insta just to avoid ads for make up and shit, I get ads for alcohol and pretty much nothing else

No. 1011548

>>1011536
>>1011498
Sorry nonnos I wish we could chill and I’d bake you a cheesecake

No. 1011550

>>1011538
Tangentially related but I'm on birth control for my periods, and whenever I go to something medical related and I have to tell them I'm on the pill it makes me want to kms. Knowing that they're assuming that I'm fucking men feels so humiliating for some reason

No. 1011558

Why is time so fast n fleeting. I wish i could go back in time every year on January first im absolutely heartbroken and regretful

No. 1011560

I hate this timeline, I want to be 21 again

No. 1011562

>>1011558
I suddenly want to live, I want to take chances, I want to tell my crush how I truly feel… I'll wake up sober tomorrow and have no such feelings but right now… life has ben stagnant, I want to feel alive. I'm just existing right now.

New years fucks me up

No. 1011564

>>1011550
aww i'm sorry anon, i'd feel the same lmao but the important thing is, you aren't fucking men, and that's what matters!

No. 1011565

>>1011498
Same here.

No. 1011568

>>1011498
Fuck xmas too, all times when the pressure is on to be social and thriving

No. 1011573

>>1011419
You're not alone nonnie you're here with us! Happy New Years ♥

No. 1011574

I CANNOT WAIT FOR NYE TO BE FUCKING OVER IT'S MAKING ME GO INSANE WITH SADNESS AND EMPTINESS

No. 1011594

>>1011536
>>1011548
thank you nonnies, it really helps.

>>1011568
you're goddamn right.

No. 1011597

>>1011419
Don't worry nonnie, you're not alone. I'm an autistic kissless virgin in my early 30s and I've basically lost all hope to experience love. All of my friends went out to meet their other friends and had a great time. It'll be like this every year, all I have are my 2D husbandos while everyone else gets married and has kids. Happy new year, hopefully it gets better for us at some point.

No. 1011599

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When I was a kid I slept over my best friend’s house on NYE, and we watched the Twilight Zone marathon while eating pigs in a blanket

I don’t think I’ve ever had that much fun on NYE in years

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>>1011455
>>1011597
>>1011599
nonny discord pajama party when

No. 1011602

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>>1011597
Lolcow needs some kind of AMARS compound for all of us to live in

No. 1011603

>>1011597
getting laid is ez. ill help u, but honestly, 3d men are pretty cringe

No. 1011604

>>1011601
I'll bring the pizza nonas

>>1011603
3D men are disgusting and make me gag, they should all just kill themselves tbh

No. 1011607

Suicidal thoughts on full blast. Not sure if i wanna continue on or off myself while i still have the dignity

No. 1011608

>>1011597
>autistic kissless virgin in my early 30s
Diff anon but I'm early thirties too and a hermit, not a virgin tho and I've dated/slept around in the past. I almost wish I were a virgin. New years is making me miss those old habits. I'm too hermitty now to do that shit.

No. 1011610

so basically I worked with a guy, we got super close, I thought he cared about me and kept acting like he was my boyfriend despite us being friends with benefits, he gave me herpes and ghosted me, while we still worked together. I left my job for another one in the same company because he made me so uncomfortable at work I would leave crying. New job is so much better but my best friend who didn't even know him before me continues to hang out with him, and in general everyone is still friends with him and sympathetic to him even though he ruined me. I'm so over it, I feel myself getting better and getting over him but then something stupid like my friend hanging out with him despite seeing me cry over it to her and telling her it made me uncomfortable and I feel like shit again.

No. 1011611

I'm so upset, I'm about to set the world on fire. My boyfriend basically snubbed me off even though I was looking forward for WEEKS to hang with him. To kiss him on midnight. He's ditching me for his sister (Sounds like BULLSHIT!)
His excuse "We can kiss anytime"
Oooh we can kiss anytime? How about never you insensitive asshole. Not the first time he has ditched me and I'm already looking for someone better. the dumbass

No. 1011612

>>1011610
Genital herpes? That's fuuuuucked

No. 1011613

>>1011608
I'm not a hermit, I go outside, I have friends like I mentioned and even a stable job but I just never found love because I'm an autistic dumbass. I don't even care about virginity, I just wish I had someone who would make me feel loved.

No. 1011614

>>1011607
New years 5 years ago I tried to hang myself and failed, spent 4 months in hospital. I was watching a doc lately about a celeb scrote who hung himself over a situation that realistically would've passed. Weird how I'd pretty much forgotten my own attempt til watching that. My crisis passed, his would've passed. It's weird viewing it as an outsider versus being the one in crisis.

No. 1011615

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>>1011611
good for u nonna, know your worth!

No. 1011618

>>1011613
I have a job too, I just mean my friendships are basically superficial and my love life is dead. Giving up on love/sex feels like it'd be easier if I didn't know what I'm missing out on,

The cliche question, is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all? Both suck in their own way I guess.

No. 1011620

>>1011612
he was in denial that he gave it to me too, it was type 1 so I think it was from oral e.g. he had a cold sore and went down on me. I'm bi as well so it has ruined a lot.

No. 1011625

I hardly ever even post on lolcow, usually just lurk. But tonight I am to distract myself. My bf has covid and my mom was diagnosed with cancer a few days ago, we don't know what kind yet. it's a little over a year since I lost my godmother who I was very close to, to cancer as well. I am trying to have hope for the new year but it's hard.

No. 1011627

>>1011625
Hoping for the best for you and your family anon, I'm sorry these things are happening.

No. 1011648

>>1011226
>>1011230
Where can I find this Romanian anons posts

No. 1011659

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>finally decided to use dating app
>male roommate that i hate gave me a superlike
off to a great start i guess…

No. 1011661

>>1011659
oh no nonny, that is awful awkward.

No. 1011667

>>1011659
Hey, to be fair I always super liked my friends I’d see in passing on those apps. He could be encouraging?

No. 1011673

i just can't fucking believe this. my friend who i always party and drink with told me she was spending nye in with her boring scrote and i was annoyed sure but i wasnt mad or anything because whatever. now i see her on snap with one of our mutual friends amnd some random guy. like really? and we are always on great terms no drama nothing i remain pefectly amicable and niCE BECAUSE I DONT HAVE PEOPLE andf yet i'm still cast out. and she was the one to call me her best friend all summer. fuck this shit, i'm just so done, i wasalready battling so much and already been crying over a bunch of other shit the last 2 days (all in secret, i refuse to sperg to irls) and i still get abanbdoned lied to blown off blah blkah blah kill me now fuck 2022

No. 1011679

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My roommates both tested positive for Covid yesterday and I started to get chills/headache/stomach pain while I was getting ready to leave to hang with my boyfriend tonight. I was so excited for this stupid holiday, I bought a new dress, tried a new eyeshadow palette and I was just doing my hair when I started to feel shitty. My job gave us all a couple of rapid tests a couple weeks ago and I ended up testing positive. Had to cancel my plans less then an hour before I was supposed to leave and now I'm sitting in bed feeling shittier by the minute. I posted this in the dumbass thread too but fuck my roommate I know she ate out of MY peanut butter jar because she's a nasty fuck and I've seen her do it before less then a week ago.

Anyways, hope all you anons have a good night and party slightly extra hard for me.

No. 1011687

>>1011667
considering we arent really on friendly terms i think he is taunting me

No. 1011690

>>1011648
This and the previous vent thread. Look for the unhinged pages long posts with little paragraph breaks reeing about not being crowned queen of oppression/feminism, saying men are nicer than women, and that she is the true gay porn watching, camwhoring queen radfem kek.

No. 1011691

>>1011690
and cat/people killing.

No. 1011704

yall really keep interacting with school shooter manifesto scrote nonnie huh

No. 1011711

>>1011704
>yall
Pls fuck off twitterfag.

No. 1011728

>>1010858
>I will literally make more change in the world if I write a manifesto where I include the struggle of being a woman in a chapter than you ever will and you were given privilege by life. What is your excuse to sit on a chair and do nothing for women
Didn't you sperging earlier up in the thread about how you much you hate women for being judgmental and were going to kill some "BPD whore" in your own words?
This is why no one likes you. Every time you come here with your sob story you ruin any goodwill we may have by being as vile as possible. You have to have an IQ in the single digits to threaten to kill people and animals and yet still expect empathy from anybody. I seriously doubt that you made so many enemies simply for "disagreeing" with them, that's just you playing the victim once again and neglecting to acknowledge how much of a deranged, condescending bitch you are. The ugly inceloid was right about you all along.

No. 1011747

Holy shit some men really don't deserve to procreate. It should be a crime for women to have sex with these men. Let them be pitiful eunuchs. Ftuh, I spit on them. I don't even have to give any information on my life aside from the fact that I'm a girl for literally everybody here to understand the disgusting type of monologues I have to deal with. I wish someone would cut out their tongues. They're such fucking morons holy shit and the worst part is that I don't shut them up. I'm only 18 so I think the anger hasn't accumulated sufficiently yet. But there will always be a reason for men to berate women being done with their shit, so I shouldn't hold back any longer.

No. 1011752

>>1011704
no idea who you even mean fag

No. 1011763

>>1011752
nta but they were clearly talking about the romania anon

No. 1011767

>>1011763
sorry i just do not care about a blabbermouth camwhore i had to go read up to graspit

No. 1011786

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Not even a year in and hes lost pretty much all sexual interest. Spent the new year's being rejected and ignored. I know ive gained weight but for once in my life i am at a normal size. He was the main one pushing me to stop being underweight. Well now he doesnt even want to touch me. Not only do i feel fat, but i also feel really fucking ugly. Heres to all my fellow fat ugly dumbasses!

No. 1011787

>>1011786
it really fucking sucks, because i had a feeling i'd be ignored tonight all week. i thought i'd be proven wrong, but nope. not to piggyback or derail off your post, but i feel the same. i've also gained weight lately. kill me

No. 1011800

posted in the wrong thread, sorry. anyways, woke up to screaming and crying matches on the first day of the year. i really wanted today to be a good day.

No. 1011803

I was feeling really out of it today but my friend asked if I wanted to facetime and talk for New Years Eve so we did and a few hours in she asked if I was upset because I was acting off. I tried to be honest to a certain extent and said that I just wasn't feeling well emotionally today and she offered that we could end our talk and I could go to bed early if I wanted. I feel so bad. I just didn't have a lot of energy to really say much tonight or feel much and I feel like I must have been so boring. I was feeling pretty depressed just with the coming new year and all the feelings that come up related to that and now I feel awful because my shitty mood probably made her feel worse for her new year too.

No. 1011806

happy new year nonnies… i'm glad to spend another year with you all

No. 1011808

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AAAAA I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE BEFORE I MOVE AWAY FROM MY CITY BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO FLIRT WITHOUT GETTING FLUSTERRD AND HOW TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE IM NOT MEETING SOME RANDO FOR SEX OR HOW TO HIDE THE EVIDENCE goddamn it probably won't even be worth it

No. 1011812

>>1011808
Over 95% of women don't orgasm from sex with strangers so it's really not worth the trouble letting some scrote half assed jackhammer you and give you Chlamydia

No. 1011819

I gave myself radial nerve palsy because I sleep in a fucked up position. It’s the only position I can get comfortable in though. RIP

No. 1011821

>>1011812
Huh. I thought it was normal to only be able to cum from having sex with new people. Relationship sex is so boring to me. Does this mean I have a scrote brain? Like, for me, the feeling of new dick is the absolute best.

No. 1011828

I thought I was leaving this site for good, then i had a massive diarrhea attack on fucking NYE. I feel so fucking stupid, i shouldn't have drunk that much coca-cola, i almost fainted shitting. Now my tummy hurts and I feel dizzy, this sucks so much

No. 1011832

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There is literally nothing to me. I have no hobbies, I don't have any passion, I have nothing to talk about and I have achieved nothing. I listen to music all day but have no favourite artist or genres. I couldn't tell you the last show I watched or what I thought of it even though it was probably last week. I literally can't talk to people. Even when my social anxiety is doing okay I have nothing to say. I want to talk to people but there is nothing to me, nothing interesting about me. I know people say take up a hobby so you will have things to talk about but I am not good at anything and I have no motivation.
I feel like if I did try and find something it would be fake, like I'm only doing it so that I have something to talk about rather than me actually being interested in the thing. I feel completely empty and like I will never find someone that I can connect with.
Sometimes I want to put myself out there just like that, lay it out bluntly. Find someone near me (or not) and we could do things together while we try and find some meaning in out lives, but I know it would be the same as always. The texts would dry up nearly immediately because I'm not socialised (was home schooled and couldn't make friends as a child, plus I am genuinely very uneducated and dumb) and can't hold conversations.
Maybe I need someone that is the opposite of me, someone who can carry the conversation 95% of the time, I've been around out going people before and I did eventually come out of my shell a little bit.
But someone like that most likely already has friends because they can talk to people andwouldn't want anything to do with someone like me.
So I start reaching out in unhealthy ways, look for attention anywhere I can get it.
Tempted to talk to sexual old men on the Internet because they'll give you attention. Sure, they're also giving it to a bunch of other young women, most likely only in the hopes they'll be able to get nudes out of it, but at least it's human contact outside of immediate family.
I am going to take 2022 and attempt to improve myself in some way. I am going to lose weight, consistently take medication, start exercising again, work on learning some of the basic education that I lack, start reading again, attempt to find things that I am into that I actually have the drive to learn more about.
And if by the end of the year it all fails and was for nothing, I'll go full anachan fetlife degen that talks to old men on the Internet and eventually end up killing myself.
I don't know how to not feel this way. I don't know how to talk to people and everything I do feels fake. I literally feel defective.
I leave the house less than 5 times a year (not an exaggeration) I've never had a job, I have next to zero formal education. I feel like I was set up for failure and it hurts seeing people around me succeed.
I am wasting my youth I'm only 23 but I feel so old and I look like shit because I never took care of my skin because I didn't care about myself. I know I have plenty of time to turn things around but I genuinely don't think that I can.
The longer I take the worst things get. Harder to make friends because everyone else in your age group has there shit together and is so much more mature than you, harder to get a job because everyone else already has years of experience on you.
I want a girlfriend, so I'm going to work on myself get into shape and work on my skincare.
I know, why not seek attention from on older women rather than a man if you want a girlfriend. It's daddy issues plain and simple. I have mommy issues too but it's different because she is in my life a lot more than him so the ways I'm fucked up is different for the both of them.
I can't articulate my thoughts or seem to form fleshed out opinions, maybe my brain is fried after 10 years of being depressed and is now unsalvagable.
With all that being said, I am actually optimistic about 2022. 2022 is my make or break year. I am going to work on myself the whole year, I have already started medication again which is helping my emotional eating and I'm already losing some weight.
I have this longing to go to America because they have trees there that I really like that aren't here. Maybe I'll study tree types, I don't know anything about trees but I do know that I like looking at them and being around them. That's something that I'm kind of interested in. Maybe I figured out at least one thing about myself.
I just needed to get that off my chest.

No. 1011840

caught myself acting like a narcissist and i hate myself for this. possessive, pushing boundaries, wanting my partner to fill the void, craving validation. it's infuriating and embarrassing. i might actually be a narcissist since i am indifferent or scared of what people think of me, i either overthink my interactions or don't give a fuck at all. it used to be fun being alone but now i hate myself and cannot stand it. i must numb my mind with a constant stream of online content otherwise i feel useless, stupid and an embarrassment. i can barely focus on anything worthwhile or care about anything anymore. i am deeply ashamed and disgusted. my christmas presents could have been better. my behaviour could have been better. but i was a lazy, dumb, sick bitch. i just want to be better for my boyfriend and family without becoming a doormat.

No. 1011843

>>1011840
>since i am indifferent or scared of what people think of me, i either overthink my interactions or don't give a fuck at all.
that doesn't sound like narcissism to me, a lot of regular people are like that

No. 1011844

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you just HAD to unpromptedly tell me off on new years for not being in the mood, making me feel inadequate in the process.

it seems as if you view my own happiness as brownie points for your parenting.

no surprise I turned out to be one miserable bitch.

No. 1011866

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I wish there would be less infighting in the vent threads. OT is a safe haven for wholesome nonnies, though I know this website isn't really the best place for sunshine and rainbows.

A vent is a vent. Sage for low quality vent kek

No. 1011871

For the first time I can truly say I don't care anymore about her and her antics and I feel extremely relieved. I used to feel guilty because she was always the saddest one, the one with a traumatic past, the girl who always had a reason to complain and/or be depressed about. Without knowing it, she made me responsible of carrying around her sadness, having to be there always for her and I accepted that was normal because what else could I do? I listened to her, give her advice, make her get out of the bed when she couldn’t do it by herself and I only received passive aggressive remarks when something wasn’t right instead of her being open with me about her struggles.
It’s not that I can’t help her anymore, I don’t want to do it anymore and that’s what makes the difference.
Here’s to a 2022 when I’m going to focus on me and my happiness.

No. 1011894

I've been single for such a long time to the point where I don't even know how to function around a possible love interest anymore and the thought of spending almost 24/7 with someone else scares me. A guy told me he's interested in me a few days ago and my brain went full on retard mode. I guess that's just nature being selective because I'm too socially retarded and I'll just die alone. I like my solo time but that shit gets harder and harder once people start getting older and having their own families,especially around Christmas and NYE.

No. 1011923

I don't like my main friend group anymore but I'm clinging on because I don't think I'll ever get a group of female friends again. I only still like two, maybe three of them. Too much drama, pickmeism, just general stupidity, etc. I especially can't stand the BPD thot that everyone defends. That being said I've always been a picky person with friends and I think my standards are probably too high, but if I lowered them it wouldn't be genuine anyway.

No. 1011924

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What is with these dudes I’ve had pursue me or been in relationships with come back years later to get all up in my DMs? THEYRE ALL MARRIED. Every last one of them, even the ones I flat out rejected years ago. I’d never in a million years try anything with any of them (hooray for late to lesbianism) but it’s so disgusting that long after they’re married and popped out a fresh baby or two they show up to rekindle an old flame or whatever. It’s so fucking pathetic watching them cry about their new lives and being busy because they married the first girl they got pregnant, then try to flirt like they didn’t just moan about their wives 5 messages ago. Take care of your new baby and work on your marriage. Revolting worms.

No. 1011925

My dog assaulted someone and she’s going to be put down
I cant process

No. 1011928

>>1011925
That sucks for every party involved. Sorry it ended up this way

No. 1011933


No. 1011937

>>1011924
any good looking, age appropriate, personable man who flirts with me is always married. the only unmarried men who flirt with are never someone I'd date, they're too young or way too old. it fucks with my self esteem, like a married guy thinks I'm lame enough to fuck him. or a 60 year old. what do I look like to people?

No. 1011940

I HATE HIMMMMMM! FUCK MOIDS! LITERALLY GONE GIRL TIER SCROTE RHETORIC: "I WAS JUST AT A PARTY AND REJECTED THIS GIRL FOR YOU BUT THE JUXTAPOSITION BETWEEN HOW SHE TRRATED ME AND HOW YOU WERE BEING BITCHY IS JUST… MEH IDK…" HOLY SHIT HOW ABOUT YOU FUCKING CUT OFF YOUR OWN TESTICLES FOR ME AND CHOKE ON THEM FUCKING IDIOT MEATBRAIN MOID

No. 1011942

I kind of upset my boyfriend. He asked me why I felt down earlier on in the night and I mentioned it was because I was thinking it was another year, and I had a thought of "will I kill myself this year maybe". That thought often runs rampant in my mind but I know I probably won't. I just like self harming and being an alcoholic. But I haven't hurt myself or abused alcohol in quite a few months now. He mentioned how it does really hurt him to think that if I do have an episode or something I'll resort back and kill myself. Anyways, from a long conversation we had it led to me realizing I was holding onto a lot of guilt from my past relationship. He lives on the opposite side of the planet. I told him everything, and I apologized. I basically ran away from him. In a almost physical literal sense. I left the country without much explanation. I feel a bit better, like weight has been lifted. I do kind of hope he doesn't reply though.

No. 1011948

>>1011940
Samefag, I love crazy girls who don't give a fuck and are off-putting to men due to radiating misandry. I love crazy girls who respect themselves

No. 1011969

>>1011329
godspeed, nonnie

No. 1012002

This is such a dumb vent but my mentally ill neurotic brain is acting up again and I can’t help it.

Years ago I went to the dentist after not having gone to one for like 5 years and he told me I had to get a couple of fillings. The thing is, those teeth never hurt nor were they really decayed thinking about it now. I told him I had those black lines on my teeth for years and that my previous dentist always ignored them and didn’t see them as a problem. He ended up convincing me that they are cavities and that they’ll get worse despite them not having progressed at all. I thought small fillings or sealants are no problem but this man literally drilled away 1/3 of my teeth despite its superficial nature. Later I learned that they probably were stains or dead cavities- both of which don’t need any fillings. Now 3-4 years later I see stains around them and I’m afraid they’re new cavities formed because of his sloppy fillings and I’m so scared to loose a bunch of healthy teeth because of an incompetent dentist. Plus I cannot afford all these fucking treatments. I can’t help but to blame myself for not listening to my gut feeling but he’s literally a surgeon and I thought ofc he knows what he’s doing. It feels like I have ruined my teeth…and these aren’t even the only dental problems. I don’t wanna be losing a bunch of teeth before I’m even 30. I feel like I brought this all upon myself and it causes me such distress whenever I think about it.

No. 1012009

I feel so fucking sad, my first day of the year is going so fucking awful through no fucking fault of my own. I'm crying right now even. I know I should not place importance on an arbritrary day but it was important to me and it's fucking ruined. Our plans to go to a fancy dinner all ruined because someone apparently shat in her face and she's been fucking foul all fucking day fucking it up for everyone.

No. 1012020

>wanted to kill myself 7 years ago
>kinda survived throughout the following years
>my mental state got horribly bad last spring/summer
>finally decided that i have to go to therapy
>after calling 30+ different therapists i finally found a nice one and also found new hope
>he's been ill since october

praying for his recovery…i'm scared that he has covid and dies, i really wouldn't know what to do then

No. 1012022

I hate my brain. I really fucking do. So my mom's dog is dying and I'm genuinely sad. When I'm alone with the dog I need to struggle to hold back tears. BUT when mom was with me in the room with the dog, devestated that the dog probably won't get to live another day, I couldn't hold back laughter and smiling. I felt disgusted with myself but I don't know what this disorder is called. I honestly don't know. I know mom noticed and I told her I was sorry but I really came out as some sort of sociopath and sadist.

No. 1012023

>>1012022
And if the dog dies and I hope the poor thing doesn't, I won't be able to keep a straight face when mom tells me the news. It will come off as incredibly fake if I try to put a sad face. I'd like to think that maybe performative sympathy is just not my thing and that by telling myself "be sad" it has the opposite effect on me but idk. Fuck.

No. 1012026

>>1011925
I'm sorry, anon. Is there no way to get out of this?

No. 1012027

>>1012023
>>1012022
Ignoring the laughing part, did you feel sad when she was talking to you? Sometimes we laugh at stuff like that as an instinct, like one time my aunt fell dangerously ill and was in the hospital and when I was informed by her daughter I had to hold back a smile but I was very worried inside. It was some weord mechanism.

No. 1012028

>>1012023
>>1012022
This happens to me sometimes. Laughing to react to sadness, you're not a sociopath anon, it's okay. I'm sorry about your mother's dog

No. 1012034

>>1012027
> did you feel sad when she was talking to you?
Honestly, no but that's because I was so focused on keeping a sad face I couldn't think about anything else. It's not the first time this happened and I really dread the next time because even if I explain it to the person, it's not going to sound convincing. I mean, I was in tragic situations and if someone started laughing I would feel a bit hurt.
>>1012028
Thank you anon! It makes me feel a bit better. I'm looking up stories about involuntary laughing and smiling at tragic news but it also frightens me a bit when I see the word psychopath/sociopath being often brought up within the context. But I recalled right now that when I thought I was about to lose my cat, I didn't laugh, I just cried. So I really don't know anymore.

No. 1012037

>>1012022
Do an internet search for pseudobulbar affect.

No. 1012039

>>1012034
luckily for you, the people who claim to be psychopaths because they like or just "smile" at hearing bad news are just npd or bpd.

No. 1012044

>>1011928
Update, she’s not going to be put down. She barked at a lady and followed her as she was running away, but the lady lied to the cops saying she bit her. So there was no assault.

No. 1012050

i think i have to cut contact with one of my friends. she is just too dumb. i've previously wondered if she is on the spectrum (not because she's dumb, but because her social skills are questionable) but i think she's just an idiot. she doesn't know that things are, like she doesn't know what a burrito is.

she doesn't understand simple movies. when we watched 'she's the man' i had to keep explaining what happened because she didn't understand what was going on. it's a silly romantic comedy with a simple plot ffs. she doesn't understand politics either, or how society works, nothing. she's not even a NEET, she has a job and a degree.

also, she is terrible at getting gifts. every year i get a gift bag with a bunch of items i know she has gotten as samples. she doesn't have money problems either. idk if she is too dumb to get me a proper gift or if she's stingy. if she were to spend like 5€ on some flowers i would probably be really happy it's not even about the money.

i can't take it anymore. she keeps saying so many dumb things that simply are untrue, often to play devils advocate. i feel like she doesn't respect my boundaries either. i don't really know what i get out of this friendship.

No. 1012059

>>1012044
I'm so glad to hear that, anon. Reading your post made me sad even though I didn't even know the full story kek. Always watch over and protect your dog, nonny. She really could've been killed over some shitty asshole lying

No. 1012062

>>1012044
Amazing news! Give your dog a nice hug for me, nonnie.

No. 1012067

i'm so exhausted, nonnies. i am so over this whole, "u gotta love n respect ur family no matter what!!! they're the only family u get :)" rhetoric. what if those family members constantly berate and degrade you? what if they are constantly disrespecting and taking down all the boundaries you try to set? what if they never do anything to help you or show that they "love" you outside of their own fucked perception of what love looks like (such as "tough love" lol…).
familial leeches will do nothing but suck up all your energy and then shield themselves behind the idea of "unconditional familial love" if you ever try to call them out on what they're doing. all i want is to be shown a little bit of kindness by these people, but empathy is much too difficult, huh?

No. 1012080

>>1011840
Anon, you aren't a narc. First of all, narcs don't posses a modicum of self awareness and wouldn't care to self reflect like you are. Also, they definitely would never feel disgusted, ashamed, or embarrassed by their behavior.

No. 1012081

i dump my 5 years long ex i was off and on with and get with a much better guy last month. i start playing smash bro’s melee online. suddenly see my ex join the same melee discord server i’m in and write a greeting in chat. weird cuz he hasn’t played melee for years, but suddenly he sees me
playing it and gets back into it too? is he hoping he’ll be matched up with me in the online mode? also, i made a twitter for the first time this month and i was on there last night and suddenly my ex’s account pops up on people you may know, i check his page, and it says he JUST made his twitter too! and i think he made it because he crept on my instagram and saw my latest post where i mentioned having a twitter. maybe it’s all just coincidences but it’s really weird i keep ‘running into’ him online. whenever we’d break up he’d usually stalk me online by checking my tumblr page repeatedly (i knew cuz i had an ip tracker on the blog) and he would constantly watch my instagram stories even though we weren’t following each other and were split up. wtf is his deal? he acts like he doesn’t give a f about me during our relationship, never invites me to hang out, but we break up and boom he’s obsessed again? i hope he literally dies. oh and ofc i checked some of his pages and since we broke up he re added his ex who he told me is just a stupid bitch who cheated on him, re added this girl who crushed on him and blocked me out of nowhere when i got back with him a while ago, etc.

No. 1012083

Happy NYE to me, a true sigma female: again, all of my friends made a point to exclude me from this NYE party and ignored all of my texts.

No. 1012089

I don't care for the politics of covid. I don't care what people choose to do about their own health, but to bring people from a covidstricken household around your elderly parents! And to call me mean for pointing it when you didn't even begin to consider them. I hope your beef stew curdles.

No. 1012090

>>1012081
I would just block him and not interact, even if he sock puppets more accounts. He wants what he can’t have, no matter how happy he is

No. 1012094

>>1012083
I'm far from an expert on friends but.. it's better to have no friends than to have friends and know they're ignoring you

No. 1012099

anyone deal with irl skin walking from your peers? I’m usually good at ignoring it but this one girl been taking it to an extreme lately (outfits, haircuts, slang, mannerisms, etc) and it’s been irritating me. I feel petty but I take solace in the observation that she is fat, short, and stocky while I am tall and slim. I don’t wanna vent about this irl because it’s dumb and petty so here I am lol

No. 1012103

>>1011942
Cringe

No. 1012105

>>1012059
Still it was my fault for not watching her properly. I didn’t even notice she escaped the backyard.

No. 1012113

I finally got my period this morning after days of cramps, but now I'm so tired of the cramps that I want to take pain meds (which I've never done for my period before). My PMS isn't ever that bad at all, but I'm just so sick of it now. Go away.

No. 1012132

>>1010495
My ex is such a cow. It is so entertaining watching him act like father of the year, while DM’ing my friend/ his co worker trying to hookup. #familyman
I told her to share the receipts with the baby mama but she doesn’t want to “start a fight”. Ma’am, the fight began with the dick pic he sent.
But apparently him posing in matching pjs with his family is enough for her to turn the cheek, because she doesn’t want to be labeled homewrecker. n my humble opinion, she is causing great damage by letting it slide.

It’s good milk and great entertainment to watch him grow older and fatter, balder and uglier, all while trying to make his social media perfect.

No. 1012135

My LDR Girlfriend lied to me about something in her life. It's not a major thing, but why lie to me about it? What's the point of lying?

I can't bring it up since I know she is going to stop talking to me for days over it. Even though I did nothing wrong when I found out.

I hate my life

No. 1012136

If I had a nickel for every time someone seemed to take interest in hanging out with me & being friends, but it turned out it was just a ploy by her scrote for a threesome, I'd have 15 cents. Which isn't a lot but enough for me to feel pissy

No. 1012137

>>1012099
My roommates gf is skinwalking me hard, to the point she has ordered all the same skincare regime I keep in the bathroom, she literally buys the same brands of food items the same day I bring them home. (I’ve even switched it up and she’s copied.) I started a new job and week later she’s “applied and has an interview there”.
Bitch, you’re not fooling me or my bf. Next you’ll dye your hair to look like mine too.
As my dad says, “often imitated, never duplicated.”

No. 1012138

>>1012135

> Stonewalls whenever a valid question about honesty is brought up


Run, nonnie

No. 1012140

>>1012137

maybe she has a crush on you

No. 1012142

>>1012138
I know, I know… but it's not always so easy

No. 1012143

>>1012136
See I’m on the other side of this. I can’t deny I find women beautiful and sexually attractive, but I’m in a relationship. My bf supports me, but I’m afraid to even ask a chick out without being clingy. (He doesn’t want to initiate a threesome, he just supports my curiosity)
But I also want to explore my sexuality, ah. So difficult.

No. 1012144

>>1012136
This happened to me twice and both times the couple broke up, then the scrote still chased me right after

No. 1012145

>>1012140
I wish she was hot but honestly she dumb, too much plastic surgery, and literally drinks all day.

No. 1012147

>>1012143

I'm also in a relationship where I connect with women separately, but a man using his girlfriend's friendly social link-ups to Trojan horse his gnarled genitals into the mix makes me rage

No. 1012149

>>1012137
Teens do this all the time but adults doing it often have a disorder that affects their ability to create a stable sense of self. A PD or other mental health issue. Would explain the surgery and drinking too.

No. 1012150

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>>1012147
Wow wait hold on please explain how you navigate these waters I am taking notes.

No. 1012151

>>1012142

All y'all in toxic non-abusive relationships say that "it's not that easy" as if you're going to have a lot more decades of opportunity to be happy and free of people who are willing to lie to you and get angry if you point it out. You're going to look back on the times you wasted on people who don't respect you & your heart in regret.

No. 1012152

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I have an exit plan for leaving the country in a couple months but don't have the motivation to do literally anything in the meantime. I'm worried because I still have responsibilities to carry out and failing to do so could sabotage my plans.

No. 1012153

>>1012151
Wow, this is some real wisdom that will be slept on, but you are on point.

No. 1012155

>>1012135
LDR, you're not even getting good sex to make up for the horrible personality

No. 1012156

>>1012152
Don’t sabatoge yourself. Are you afraid (even if subconsciously) you’re not able to make it once you move? I believe in you anon, get.your.shit.together.

No. 1012157

>>1012150

"I love and respect you deeply, and want to spend the foreseeable future together, but I've come to terms that my sexuality is important to my happiness and I feel like being able to connect with other women will fulfill that part of my identity that I didn't ever have opportunity to explore. I want to be able to trust and communicate throughout with you to make sure you feel safe, loved, and comfortable as my life partner, but this feels very important for me as a person to at least explore."

No. 1012158

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No matter how hard I try, my mental health keeps getting worse. I don't know how much longer I can do this for nonnies. It hurts so much. Every day.

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>>1012152
You can do it, nonnie, you will be able to succeed.

No. 1012161

>>1012149
I have suggested therapy to her in the past but she’s anti mental healthcare and an antivaxer, so there’s no hope for her. (I hate her if you can’t tell)

No. 1012162

>>1012094
I don’t know. At this point I’m starting to feel like there’s something inherently wrong with me as a person, like there’s something about friendship and life I don’t have access to. Whatever you hear about online and see in the movies, that doesn’t work with me. I’m not upset by it, I’m just perplexed. What is it with me that doesn’t click?

Anyway it won’t matter if I drop them as friends. We’ll have the same amount of contact anyway.

No. 1012163

>>1012156
That's definitely a factor, but it's mostly that I've just stopped caring about the stuff I need to do here given that I'll be leaving it all behind soon. Thanks for the support, nonnie!
>>1012160
Thanks for the encouragement!

No. 1012164

>>1012157
That was beautiful anon, really. But I mean, how do you navigate it on dating apps? I don’t want to mislead a lesbian , you know?

No. 1012168

>>1012162
I’ll be your friend! Have no idea how to make that happen through the board though.
( I mean if we click)

No. 1012172

>>1012164

I've just been really blunt, like "I'm in a male-female long term relationship but my partner disavows himself completely from any dating or activities I have with other women. If you're not comfortable with that, I absolutely respect that. If you want to move forward, just let me know at any time if it no longer works for you, because I understand relationships and dating feel very different when one partner is in a separate long-term relationship."

No. 1012175

>>1012164

I think I used the word "disavows" wrong but ykwim

No. 1012176

Depression is a natural reaction to the world around us. There is a huge disproportion between pain and happiness; the phenomenon of chronic pain exists, but there's no such thing as chronic pleasure; your body can get heavily damaged very quickly, but the recovery always takes much longer; acquiring knowledge takes time and effort, but it can be taken away in a second through a stroke or some other kind of brain damage; one traumatic event can break you mentally for life and cause you to struggle, but one very happy event can't give you permanently good mental health forever. There are multiple examples, you can't say that depressed and pesimistic people only see one side of the coin and that the world is divided into two equal parts because it is not. "Healthy" people assume our perspective is distorted only because their perspective makes it easier for them to adjust and adapt to the world through COPE, but that doesn't make it objectively true. Terapy is a meme. Yes little anon, take that magic bluepill I've been paid to give you and it will fix you, the environment of late stage capitalism you live in is not the problem, the chemical imbalance in your brain is! Depressed people see the world as it is, they see all sides, they just can't delude themselves anymore like "healthy" people, which is why they fall into depression. This world was created for meat machines incapable of deeper reflection about the implications and fairness of the game they're playing and keep forcing new beings to play it without their consent, and ridiculing those who refuse to play the game, when the only way to win is not to play anymore. There was no need for anything to exist. Life exists because your DNA wants to spread itself like a parasite and anything you say to defend life is just your biological imperative speaking and lizard brain seething, there's no deeper meaning behind it.

No. 1012179

>>1012172
Thank you wise nonita, I will save that and keep in mind when putting myself out there.

No. 1012184

Today I watched 2 vids on youtube. First was about men who have a kink for cutting their dicks off, basically cbt gone wild. The second vid was a true crime one about a rapist and killer who broke into womens homes and would steal/lick/wear their underwear. He even did it with the underwear of little girls aged 9 and 10. Wore their underwear and licked them in pics that were later found. Pretty stomach turning.

Both vids had people commenting suggesting they're secretly trans and just don't know it?? ffs they have weird/sadistic kinks, end of. One was a fucking pedo and rapist/murderer. I don't even have the strongest views on tranny stuff but why are we trying to make people trans in our own heads now? Applying it to people who don't even claim it… why? lol

No. 1012190

>>1012184
lmao nonnie, I watched the first vid yesterday too. Of course trannies can relate to coomers cutting their dicks off with the mere purpose of living their fetish 24/7. They're just showing their true nature.

No. 1012195

>>1012190
I laughed at the one big burly guy who cut his off because he knew it was laughably small on his large frame. Loved the honesty.

No. 1012196

>>1012184
many a troon wants to do horrible shit to women, and they went trans because "oh i'm traumatized by not being a woman" makes them feel better than "i have sick thoughts because i've indulged in porn and pornographic fantasy for years unchecked." many such cases. see also: incel-to-trans pipeline

No. 1012203

>>1012050
Is she very sheltered?

No. 1012204

>>1012081
This is why you don't have public social media

No. 1012217

Sorry about the Reddit style but I just need to gossip about this so bad right now.
Went to a NYE party in my female friend's house (A) and this guy I'm curious about was there (B). We were deciding on who would sleep there and when I said I was staying, B decided to stay. When I decided on leaving, B decided he was leaving too and offered to drive me home.
Driving home at 2AM with this guy I started getting nervous wondering if he was going to try to make a move, but he ultimately didn't, and so I thought it was a perfect opportunity to ask him. I asked him if he's into A in the car before I left and he got serious and said it was complicated.
Now, A is engaged to sometone but she still liked B a lot until recently when she started to despise him. She would text me saying she wanted to kiss him and she got jealous when he showed interest in me and asked for my phone, even going as far as not allowing him to talk to me.
I got home and asked A about it she said there was nothing between them, they just fucked. She told me her fiancée (working abroad) agreed when she asked him to fuck B and they fucked on camera with the fiancée watching a few times before she got tired and stopped caring about B.
I'm so relieved because I already like someone and felt guilty about being curious about B but all of that disappeared as soon as she told me about this. What a mess. Happy New Year indeed.

No. 1012233

More newfags flocking to lolcow in 3… 2… 1…

No. 1012270

>>1012217
Oof what a mess. Good for you to know all this for sure; and it's definitely the type of gossip I'd be dying to share with someone too

No. 1012273

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nonnies I hate being an adult.. i’m 19 and you all may love being independent, responsible and being an adult but that’s not me the rest of you stay safe out there

No. 1012284

I JUST WANT TO MAKE ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY A CAR AND LIVE BY MYSELF IS THAT TOO MUCH TO FUCKING ASK?!
I'm fixing to walk into a national forest with a tent and squat there or die trying

No. 1012286

>>1012273
WHats up with all the 18-22 people on lolcow recently? I'm old……

No. 1012287

>>1012184
Trannies have gross kinks so it makes sense

No. 1012289

Wanting to commit suicide is so mocked and memed online I have to dig through the thickest layer of cringe to say i'm feeling like this to the psychiatrist and I still feel like pretentious retard despite knowing I have a legitimate mental illness I need to be medicated for. I get it but at the same time I kinda hate it.

No. 1012295

>>1012286
NTA i've been here for years ig, more young women need radfem content

No. 1012298

>>1010495
>post vulnerable post in new thread
>realizes too late it’s posted somewhere else but I can’t find it
I suck so fucking much goddamnit I do deserve the dumb ass band I’m bound it get banned now.
It’s 2022 and I’m a DUMB bitch

No. 1012300

>>1012298
>makes typos
FUCK

No. 1012302

>>1012286
they needs to stuff this "uwu i hate adulting" crapola back in their sweatpants. you dont have to get a "real job" in an office or w/e but any retard can work a wagie service job and be independent. like grow up kek. "im too sad" like binch single moms make it work somehow, and you only have yourself to pay for.

first world life is fucking easy. hate this "im too good for service jobs but too awkward for office jobs" mindset. get over yourself and get ya hands dirty.

No. 1012303

>>1011832
How is it possible to have no favorite artists or genres? I think you need to work on yourself by atleast finding a couple of things you like. You've got the entire internet available, there has to be something out there you find interesting. I live like you and my autistic niche interests is what keeps me going most days.

No. 1012308

>>1012302
>first world
paki-anon respectfully shut up there are plenty of people in the first world who live in unregulated dumps and work paycheck to paycheck, just because they happen to live in a certain location doesn’t make their situation better trust and believe me

No. 1012311

>>1012303
this happens to zoomers because they just let spotify/youtube shuffle play and don't actually pick anything out themselves. thus they dont actually have anything that they actively seek out. it's quite sad really.

No. 1012316

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>snag cute dress from Buy Nothing group
>lady is located a 20 minute walk away
>my neighborhood is kind of sketchy
>ask partner if he wants to take a walk with me
>he's feeling down so says no
>okie dokie it's daytime so nbd
>walk outside
>NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES LATER
>man walks up to me with stupidest smile
>"hey can I ask you a question? whats your name?"
>give him the most wtf look
>"I don't want to give you my name"
>I make nonsense noises and angry hand movements until he goes away
>I go home
>message BN lady that I changed my mind

I can't have one nice day in this neighborhood without my nigel there to physically tell these scrotes to back off

No. 1012323

>>1012273
Aw, you're not an adult. Your brain isn't even done developing. You will be ok.

No. 1012331

>>1012311
Another day on lolcow, another day of zoomer hating. Sad.

No. 1012334

I'm trying to enjoy what would be the perfect afternoon on my new back patio - lovely weather, sun through the trees, my cats lounging, birds coming to and from the feeder without fear, plants swaying in the wind - but some dumbass is 2 whole buildings away on her phone whining about how shitty her baby daddy is for not taking their baby so she could go to a New Year's party. Like take that shit inside. Her voice is ricocheting everywhere and it's been 15 minutes straight.

Maybe should have thought about this before spawning with a scrote, lady. He definitely is shit but you set yourself up

No. 1012340

>>1012334
I feel like that would've added to the experience if I was in your shoes anon kek. Free entertainment!

No. 1012341

>>1012217
>She told me her fiancée (working abroad) agreed when she asked him to fuck B and they fucked on camera with the fiancée watching a few times before she got tired and stopped caring about B.

The state of people's relationships in current year

No. 1012348

>>1012311
>this happens to zoomers because they just let spotify/youtube shuffle play and don't actually pick anything out themselves. thus they dont actually have anything that they actively seek out. it's quite sad really.

NTA but the weird thing to me about this is like…nothing ever stands out to them? They have no emotional reaction like I love this, I should research/save/whatever which is how people attain favorites?
I feel like Zoomers are all emotionally numb from their shitty online upbringing or something.

No. 1012371

>>1012340

only entertaining if i could actually hear word for word what she was saying and not only glean the gist by hearing enough random words yelled extra loudly to be coherent, over 15 minutes

No. 1012374

>>1012348

I oversee dozens of zoomers at work and it's almost like they're more performedly empathetic than any previous age cluster, but then when it comes down to interpersonal interactions it's like they're all autistic because they were raised by iPads and early 2010s Shane Dawson

No. 1012377

>>1012348

It's like they've been told by social media that you have to be nice, and sharing anti-bullying and pro-diversity materials on instagram all their adolescence, and then they don't know how to actually do it lol. I also hate the way they A-log or talk shit online and then cop out with "I'm a minor!! You're being a creep!!" when you bully them back

No. 1012397

>>1011832
You said you have nothing to talk about yet wrote a pretty long post about how you feel, so no you actually do have something to talk about but I wouldn’t recommend venting to people you’re not very close to.
Working out and working on your skincare will help you make small talk with some people, the topic of skincare would come up randomly and I’d find myself having a convo with someone for about 5 minutes just about skincare or haircare I’m sure the same will happen for exercising. You should also try and read books, just any time of book or join a book reading club/community see if your local library has anything like that. From my experience having a conversation about hobbies is the easiest type of convo to have, you can also talk with people about it online.
If you ever do stick around to exercising people might randomly come up to you to make small convo you could try and learn about them and they could learn about you even if you have nothing to say you could try and talk about aspirations or past experiences, try to look for resources on how to talk to people you have to start from somewhere.

I don’t think it needs to be said but don’t seek out sexual attention from older people.

Sorry if my advice was really simple but I really do hope you achieve your goals in 2022

No. 1012403

>>1011832
I wish I could be friends with you, truly. I also don't have any zest for life and what it entails.

No. 1012409

>>1011832
>I know people say take up a hobby so you will have things to talk about but I am not good at anything

So you really think Michelangelo came out the womb painting like that, eh? You're right, you are wasting your youth, and it's a result of your hubris.

No. 1012413

daily reminder that stupid scrotes like Steven are still invading lolcow and blending with the crowd creeping on you and your posts like a tranny in a female bathroom. They are convinced this place is not against men too and that they are not doing something wrong by invading a female only space

No. 1012422

>>1012413
Who the fuck is steven

No. 1012424

>>1012422
Asherah's Garden creator I think

No. 1012426

>>1012422
Steven is the moid who abused an unhinged Romanian anon on the Lolcow discord and has admitted to posting on Lolcow faking being a woman for years.

No. 1012427

>>1012424
…oh shit, I didn't know he also created Asherah's Garden. I guess it's a good thing that site went under. We really can't be trusting anybody

No. 1012428

>>1012413
I hate when scrotes think this place is for them.

No. 1012429

>>1012426
Oh so they probably have to do with some of the creepery in the /g/ Friend Finder thread

No. 1012432

>>1012428
no they know it's not for them which is why they insist on violating the rules

No. 1012435

Someone please tell me to stop being such a retard and doing drugs. It’s getting old. I told my psychiatrist about my drug problem to be fully transparent and he literally told me that it was my brain’s way of “self medicating” to cope with my PTSD. Then prescribed me a benzo which of course my stupid ass didn’t turn down. This is retarded, the sick fuck who ruined my life is a junkie and some of my worst memories that keep me up at night are things he did to me while high or drunk. So stupid. I worry if I go to rehab they won’t hold me accountable or take me seriously because my own psychiatrist gave me the uwu it’s ok when I told him I had a history of substance abuse.

No. 1012445

>>1012435
Jesus Christ nonnie, drop the fucking drugs, keep them away and don’t let anyone convince you to go back to them, sell them or throw them in a public toilet, you have to do this for yourself.

No. 1012447

>>1012435
What kind of shit psychiatrist gives benzos to someone with a drug problem? Drop him and find a new one

No. 1012453

>>1012428
Any time I'm about to post about a scrote in my life doing a dumb thing.. I brace myself for the usual rewriting of my story that some scrote will respond with… they werent there but it turns out the scrote in my story is askually right and I'm the dumb one. Oh wow, my bad, thanks lurking scrotes lmao. They have such insight.

No. 1012454

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Gen

No. 1012456

>>1012454
genuinley feel like no guy will ever love me because I look like a fucking hon. I'm like 5'9 built like a linebacker and I hate it

No. 1012459

>>1012456
(I'm not a tranny btw just have fucked up genes)

No. 1012461

>>1012453
That even happens here, but with stories from/about women, either because they just want to shit on other posters to bait, or the exact type of person you have (or had) a problem with will feel called out by your story and try to attack you lmao

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>>1012424
??? What, no he's not. I remember the Asherah's Garden creator's real name. Steven is this guy, he's the scrote who doxxed Romanianon and caused her to have a meltdown on Christmas in these threads. Are you Steven trying to give yourself notoriety? Fuck off

No. 1012465

Older nonnies, I love ya, don't shit on me, but I've turned 20 two months ago and I can't help but feel like I'm never going to make my dreams come true and to achieve a stage of life where I'm impressed with myself. I feel like a lot of that depends on parents and environment and neither were particularly encouraging; for me, I have to forge my way into a self-directed life. That takes time, and some people already had that at 15. It doesn't help that I wasted the last two years in bed-ridden depression. How do I stop time? Or stop fucking freaking out about it, I keep looking at people's ages and go, "Did it they make it at 20? Do I still have time?" I just feel so unfinished and dumb and skill-less and lost, and I don't have the faintest idea of how to navigate anything. Feels like I'm trying to catch up to everybody else in the epilogue.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No. 1012467

>>1012465
Nonnie, I cannot even begin to explain to you how retarded you sound freaking out that you've failed and your life is over because you're out of your teens.
There are people well into their 30s and 40s who've struggled with addiction or have an ex-convict or other terrible struggles in their past still go on to success and happiness.

No. 1012470

I just had to tell my bf he's supposed to brush his teeth after waking up. Jfc.

No. 1012474

>>1012465
I'm so tired of the constant stream of zoomers assuming their lives are over because they're 20 and still unmarried with no kids or a degree or a job. You're still a fucking child and got at least 60 years left to live. At 20 I was a severely suicidal NEET who thought I would just kill myself instead of figuring out what to do with my life, I'm now 32, got a uni degree, a job, an apartment, friends, shit managed to work out with lots of elbow grease and pushing forward. And none of it happened overnight, it was a slow and tedious progress. I'm still depressed though but at least I'm normie passing

No. 1012476

>>1012311
>>1012348
Not OP but I'm not a zoomer, don't have social media and have this exact same problem so now what

No. 1012479

>>1012465
I know people who through things like addiction have spent their entire twenties fucking up. Like really fucking shit up and wasting the years away with nothing to show for it. Soon as they got their shit together they picked life up again. It's all you can do. You can't get time back but you can start over whenever you're ready. 20 is nothing.

I know a guy of 33 who got out of prison lately, addiction and robbery in his past, he's working and driving and doing the stuff he should've done years ago. Nice enough guy now, took him a while to get there but he sure put my 'couple years of going hermit' into perspective for me. People have to pick themselves back up after all sorts of long pauses like that.

No. 1012488

>>1012465
Fucking hell 20 year olds are retarded.

No. 1012500

>>1012474
>>1012479
>>1012467

Thanks nonnies. It’s not really that I’m upset I grew out of my teens, it’s just that I’ve been sleepwalking through my entire life in a depressed fog. My brain is fried. I spent all my years holed up inside, and not in a cool hermit Hildegard of Bingen type of way. I live in a shitty third-world country and I have no money and being a girl here sucks to be it very lightly. I’ve never thought I’d have a “future”, like you know how Americans talk about how the 2008 crash ruined future for them? I’ve never had that, because things have been fucked here forever. But when I was a teen I guess I thought there’d be magic around adulthood that would transform my environment, kek. My aspirations have genuinely become painful because they’re reminders of my constraints and own helplessness. Sometimes it feels unfair in this really childish way, that other people have it better than me by luck, by being born elsewhere, or even born to financially stable conditions, something that I haven’t known since I was 10. It’s just one of these nights. No matter how I’ll feel about it it won’t change anything, though.

>>1012488
Hell yeah I am!!!!!!!!!

No. 1012501

>>1012465
I thought the same when I was 20 and I fucking wasted 6 years of my life because of depression and thinking it's too late and now at 26 I'm at the exact same spot except now I have a job and some savings. Still, I feel like it's to late for me, too late to get friends, to late to go to college, too late to stop being a virgin and finding a decent partner etc. Anyway, now I see how retarded I was at your age because objectively I had way more time and energy than I have now, and I wasted that time because of my limiting beliefs, don't commit the same mistake

No. 1012507

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>>1012465
Am truly enjoying the very noticable gradual increase of zoomers entering their quarter life crisis, kicking and screaming. It's like watching someone afraid of water freak out in the shallow baby zone. I wonder how bad it'll get when they realize Gen Alpha is about to take their place as the next generation of navel-gazing, terminally online youth with opinions.

No. 1012511

>>1012456
Same for me nonnie. I get compared to trannies quite often, and the men who have been attracted to me were chasers or attracted to masculine women. A cruel life we laed

No. 1012515

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>>1012456
>built like a hon
>built like a Hun

Let's go nonny

No. 1012518

>>1012334
I feel bad for that child. Your kid matters more than some damn party.

No. 1012519

>>1012463
>>1012426
when she pops up here yall tell her to kill herself when it’s to spite the scrote yall defend her. shes an 8 year old who actually raped kids who may or may not have been younger but thats besides the point. She also drowned chickens, that’s not unhinged, it’s sociopathic and she’s a literal serial killer tier crazy. You cant abuse anybody fucking online just walk away from the screen lmao.

No. 1012523

>>1012348
Of course they do nonnie everyone does. Very weird generalisation.

No. 1012524

>>1012519
Go away Steven

No. 1012525

>>1012308
Don't tell pakichan that 80% of Americans live paycheck to paycheck it'll ruin her fantasy

No. 1012526

>>1012474
Just fucking tired of the prospect of capitalism like nta obviously but I can’t envision a future for myself either and I’m one year younger than them kek..

No. 1012530

>>1010495
I never really wore makeup at most lipstick but even then rarely but my skin looks awful. Pimple here pimple there PIH here PIH there it’s not fair

No. 1012531

>>1012524
Getting grossed out by crazy dangerous cam prostitutes =/= stephan the discord autist
Remember that she cried that her nudes were leaked even though she’s a camgirl. She craycray.

No. 1012539

>>1012463
Wait a minute, what? What the fuck did I miss? Damn I should have been lurking more on here during that day but obviously had shit going on but I’m confused isn’t romanianon a cat killer or something?

No. 1012540

>>1012507
It’s not about aging, for me at least. I’d love to be 30, 40, but I’d also love to be able to stand up and say I’ve made those years count, say I’ve made my dreams come true. With my conditions though I can’t do anything. But this thing you have with zoomers does say a lot about you, anon. Having problems with younger people does hint at having unresolved issues with one’s youth, and the opposite is true for retarded zoomers who go “you’re 30!!!!!!!!!!” …unresolved issues with one’s old age. Better make peace with it nonnie instead of being spiteful and petty.

I think this issue is a universal though, feeling “too old” or like time’s gone by. Especially with those who happen to be born into less than fortune circumstances go through. Just feels shittier because I live in a thirdie shithole.

>>1012501
I know it’s rich of me to speak but 26 seems like a perfect age for college. You’re really young but the retardation has worn off so you know your priorities right. I’ve heard from lots of people that going to uni at 26, 27 was a better choice in hindsight because of the brain reaching full development. And I know irl people who went to college at that age and they seem pretty cool. I’d say if you’re financially stable and have some savings you’ve got one part down. You’re going to grow older anyway, so do you won’t to do something you like with that time or just paralyze yourself into inaction? Because you can be stuck in static for years, anon. Start with small stuff, definitely. And it’s never too old to have friends. You just to figure out how to find them. Good luck! Don’t get hopeless, you can always do something extremely retarded and deranged.

No. 1012542

>>1012470
I still do it twice a day of course but I also hate brushing my teeth when I wake up because as soon as I wake up my first thought is 'get food'. But brushing teeth too much before eating makes food taste worse. I'm underweight if that has anything to do with it?

No. 1012543

Going into 2022 giving less fucks and I feel like I'm gonna lose a lot more friends by being more open about my TERFness kek

No. 1012544

>>1012539
It was the WORST thread ever, she and steven kept schizofagging, attentionwhoring and samefagging. Holy fuck.

No. 1012545

I posted last night but am still having big feels about this. It's a complicated situation but one friend of mine ended up enabling the abuse of another in an incredibly fucked up way. I'm trying to console my friend but I'm also so mad at this person for my own reasons but my reasons feel petty relative to hers. I'm beating myself up too because I didn't see this coming. I'm gutted. I thought these people were my friends then I thought they ghosted me because of something I had done and then I find out it is just about chasing risky dick. And I don't know how I'm so dense as not to have noticed.

No. 1012546

>>1012519
I never told her to kill herself. I actually defended her and tried to be kind when possible, but then she posted that she wanted to kill her cat as a grown adult, so I stopped
Doesn't change that Steven is an unhinged, misogynistic piece of shit himself. He didn't turn on her because of her bleak childhood confessions, he did it because he's an incel. Two people can be bad, and usually, the male is worse

No. 1012548

>>1012519
>shes an 8 year old
Fucking zoomers on lolcow I swear. Any 6 year old lurkers here GTFO and eat your damn veggies.

No. 1012549

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>>1012544
Does anyone have a screen capped quick rundown

No. 1012550

>>1012531
Nooo anon you're an evil radfem antagonising her now she's going to sperg out about you reeeee

No. 1012551

>>1012539
You missed a lot. I can't screencap everything but this was the thread: >>>/ot/1003504

No. 1012552

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>>1012470
I think a big reason I am not attracted to males is that I know their assholes and mouths are dirty. I wash my asshole after every dump and have mouthwash by the kitchen to rinse my mouth after every meal. I know no male would willingly adopt these standards so I've decided to be chaste forever vs living in a reality where skidmarks are actually a thing.

No. 1012553

>>1012549
>girl shows up says she was doxxed and her nudes were leaked by a guy she met on here
>girl says she will kill herself
>no nonnie doxx him we will defend your honor
>STEVEN you EVIL man you are making me KILL meself x10
>girl says she was abused and sexually assaulted and killed cats and molested other children when she was 8
>anons get into a fight whether she’s a result of abuse or whether she’s genuinely deranged
>anon posts steven’s fb
>anons flock to metal band member lookalike to tell him to self destruct
>stevtard is smug, keeps saying Femanons,,,,my lovelies,,,,I understand why you’re enraged,,,,,but this is a CHILD MOLESTER
>stevtard keeps posting here
>anon infightinf about morality, couple of anons keep insisting they’re samefagging and clogging up the thread
>romanian anon is a sex worker
>what the fuck why you are you so upset that your nudes are out then
>i dont know i went to eat some christmas cookies but i think the anon infighting drowned them out

yes how did you know i have no social life irl

No. 1012555

>>1012553
Oh so Romanian anon is the one who this happened to? I thought it may have been the schizo who was posting walls of text a couple of days ago. Idk maybe they're the same person

Anyway thanks for the update

No. 1012557

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>>1012551
Holy shit I read some of it already and for anons who love to call other anons who are having a bad day BPD, she is the real BPDchan in the flesh

No. 1012558

>>1012555
yes, it's the same schizo

No. 1012564

>>1011832
I swear all zoomers are clones.

No. 1012566

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No. 1012567

>>1012552
I had an ex who loved prostate stuff but refused to ever 'clean out' in prep. He didn't have a great diet and wanted it deep. Dude if you want any woman to be willing then you have to do this one thing. It's not asking for much.

He eventually made ass stuff an ultimatum.. but still wouldn't budge on the cleaning issue. I had to laugh. Fuck me what is wrong with men? Good luck finding a scat fetishist of a woman I guess.

No. 1012574

>>1012566
Is this Steven posting himself…

No. 1012576

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>>1012567
>He eventually made ass stuff an ultimatum

It was that important to him but yet he wouldn't eat right or do enema/bidet?? lmao.

I don't even suck dick for performative brownie points, what's with these men who are unashamed of wanting their swamp asses ate.

No. 1012577

>>1011832
Glad you got that off your chest, anon. I know everything can feel overwhelming at times and your post definitely does unfortunately come off as a little pathetic, but it's good that you're making strides to change that. You're so young! I think getting a job is definitely in your best interest, it helps a ton with not only getting out but setting a routine for yourself and also practicing socializing at least a little. That should be a grand goal for you; don't compare yourself to other people, take it all one step at a time. Good luck, you can do it!

P.S. Tree types sound like a really cool interest and seeing as they're super diverse, there's a lot to learn about them. You could even try to have interests that are tree-adjacent, like photography or going to nature reserves and documenting the trees you see there. I'm rooting for you, pun intended.

No. 1012579

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>>1012566
>Average incel lurking lolcow face

No. 1012580

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People who play social games and do these social niceties are fucking EVIL and CRUEL. EVVIIIIIILLLLL. I don’t care. They’re genuinely more cruel than anybody I’ve ever seen. I’ve been called every kind of racist slur you could think of and was verbally abused by religious teachers and the most cruel people are I’ve ever encountered were those types of people. They’re even more cruel because they don’t have enough respect for me to be straightforward and honest. They promise me with false nice behavior, talk of going this place and that place, put in effort to listening to me, and then agree to hanging out. Why’d you put so much effort into talking about the Anya Joy Taylor film with me? Why’d you say that we should see it sometime this week when you didn’t mean it? Why’d you pretend to mentally check for days where you’re free? Why’d you let me wait for you after work? Why’d you tell me to wait for you so we can go home together? And then I emptied out my week and foolishly waited for you, only to find out you’re being “nice”. But that is the most fucking cruel thing of all, why’d you let me think that you liked me as a friend? I’d wait for hours for you after work and make mental notes of your birthday and all the things you like so I can buy cute presents like a fucking retard who desperate for friendship because I don’t know how to have it. You like black, edgy vintage skirts, robots, micro-controllers, weird earrings, and you mentioned that your room is empty and you want to decorate it. I was thinking of buying you a poster of that film you said you wanted to see with me but you were fucking lying. And those people, they lied too, when they feigned interest in me and my life, and tried to be complimentary, and said we should hang out on Christmas and NYE, so I emptied out my schedule again and thought, “Maybe they mean it this time, maybe they really do”, but ended up waiting and alone and staring at my fucking phone. Again. Realizing they were being nice too. Again. Realizing that everybody is being just nice to me like I’m the family’s retarded little child who can’t handle being told to fuck off. I won’t be even sad if they told me to fuck off. I’d appreciate the honesty. But I’m genuinely so fucking tired of people acting this way. It’s so cruel to go on and lie like this and put so much effort into it and just say it’s how people act, it’s normal behavior. It’s not and I’m tired of constantly guessing at people’s words and trying to gauge whether they’re sincere or not. Ironically, by trying to be “nice” and “decent”, these people are anything but.

No. 1012581

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>>1012579
Steven Michael from Phoenix Arizona, was it? Interesting. Very interesting.

No. 1012585

>>1012581
Kys romanian”anon”. I don’t care about steven but why care about that whore.

No. 1012588

>>1012585
I'm not Romina anon you stupid newfag

No. 1012589

>>1012566
Please marry your aids infested schizo girlfriend already so you will stop bothering us. Get out.

No. 1012610

>>1012579
KEK why tf does he look like that ugly ass man from The Doors

No. 1012615

I'm not a whore I was groomed into being a camgirl in the mental hospital at 18 by a girl that was admitted there and was involved with a basically sex trafficking ring. I was admitted to the mental hospital because my mother had just commited suicide, I was already unwell and suffered from severe dissociation because my childhood trauma was left unadressed because my country is poor and it has no mental health awareness. I struggled with severe dissociation and suicidal ideation for my entire life due to the extreme stress and abuse I've endured growing up. When mum killed herself dad also became an alcoholic, I was only 18 I was literally a kid and I was severely distressed. When all my peers started college I was too distressed to put up with the entrance exam. I also couldn't live with my dad and I moved out. I worked in retail but I got fired two times. I ended sleeping on the street and I attempted killing myself at the metro station so the authorities picked me up and I was admitted to the mental hospital. There, a young girl befriended me and she told me about camming and I felt like I was on the verge of death daily and I was about to be homeless so I thought it might be a good idea. I was very poor, distressed. My entire life has been ruined by rape, abuse, neglect, poverty and a shit government that could never help me. I'm not a camgirl, I used to be one, but basically it has ruined my already unfortunate life even more and everything everyone around me has ever told me is that it was my fault my fault my fault from the holy "radfems" to the stupid scrotes. My life is ruined beyond belief and it was never my fault. I was literally thrown into a chaos. I do not want this. I am a smart and worthy individual, but life is not about that. Life is about the socio-economical situation you're born into and if you are born into a bad life, bad circumstances that condition you to do bad things everyone tells you it was your fault and that you should kill yourself. Nobody has ever helped me in my life with anything and I could only go to therapy when I used to be a camgirl because that's the only time I had any money. I cannot afford therapy and medication now and im slowly going insane. I dont know how to work and I might go back to being a camgirl because my career prospects have already been ruined. I literally quit being a camgirl because I came across radical feminist discourse on lolcow but radical feminism simply is not for women like me and radical feminism objectifies me more

No. 1012616

>>1012580
I'm sorry nonna. I've been there too. Now I'm so distrusting of people and assume they just think I'm 'off', so I don't bother. But there are some good people out there, you just need to find them. Most people are very performative, they wanna climb the social ladder and look good. Makes the world seem bleak, but good people do exist.

Not trying to be mean but are you on the autism spectrum? And where did you find these people?

No. 1012620

>>1012463
He's pretty cute not gonna lie

No. 1012622

>>1012615
supposedly radical feminism was a movement for a humanitarian cause and a class of opressed individuals, it turns out it is not, it turns out it is for other women's egos and circle jerking and stroking your huge narc egos over how good you are. Most radfems are mysoginistic and hateful right wingers and most radfems use the stories of women like me for literal arguments on the internet to why they are right about things
I do not want my misfortune to be objectified and used by anyone. I dont want people that pretend to care about me. I did not choose this life, it chose me. People with certain amounts of privilege do not have the awareness of what it means to literally be doomed by life. There is literally no free will and what is given to you by life the socio economical situation you are born with dictates the outcome of your life, your career, your success. Free will literally does not exist free will is pushed as an ideology by society to absolve itself of the crimes it does tlwards people. If I end up killing myself it isn't because of "free will" it is because a sequence of factors have determined me taking my life, a sequence of external factors that can be traced back to my ancestors. And if I kill myself society does not take responsability for my suicide, when in reality it is society which is responsible for it. I could have been given therapy, could have been given support and help for my situation but instead I was abused my entire life and told to deal with it by myself. The government of this country helped me with nothing. If I was offered some help my life wouldn't have ended in this way and I wouldn't have ended in sex work. Now, I must be faced with "the consequences of my actions" but those were not even my true actions, I did not take them, my environment took them for me

No. 1012623

I’m starting some college classes in a couple weeks and I’m wondering if the school will go online or not. I just missed having to go remote last year because I only had one class in the spring that was already online.

No. 1012627

now you're gonna wet your pussies over steven go back to laughing at mentally ill women like Venus and whoever and say you hate trannies so so much like that makes any change in the life of women. Everyone that I have met in most of my life has contributed to my suicide and to my downfall.Only those that meet great misfortune are capable of giving and capable of empathizing. Humans that do not go through horrible things in life are literally incapable of empathy. This is about how great the human species is, incapable of empathy unless abused, incapable of giving back to the world unless poor. Now you're gonna make some stupid shit up about me because I have slightly antagonized you, your beliefs and practices but it should not be like that and my antagonization of your beliefs and practices is incredibly justifiable. I have lost all my hope in the human kind. I do not wish to ever directly interact with a human ever again.99% of the people I have met in my life have used me because when life puts you in an unfortunate position others pray on you it's like you are bound to be victimized. Humans are incredibly predatory and everything in society is blood sports. There is no way for humans to pay for the atrocities they have committed and they continue on commiting. The human race will literally end in a maximum of 1000 years because of our own greediness, stupidity and disorganization and it is exactly what we deserve. I do not care anymore. I will never ever come back here again. And to anyone posting in Venus's thread fuck you

No. 1012630

>>1012620
You're so fucking retarded shut up

No. 1012632

>>1012622
I don't get why you're still here instead of writing this in a diary or something. I understand you're venting in the vent thread but if I really hated this place and radfems this much I'd just stop visiting the site. I really don't get it.

No. 1012635

I find it so damn annoying when people bitch about wanting to kill themselves on social media. I get it, we all get it, you're miserable and cause problems for yourself, but I came here for dumb kawaii shit and outfits to mindlessly scroll through not the clockwork breakdowns
I would just unfollow but then that would be like half of the community that posts

No. 1012637

>>1012627
Okay to be fair, anons like
>>1012620
Calling abusive moids 'hot' ARE part of the problem and are fucking annoying. You know this man has lied and took advantage of a vulnerable albeit morally questionable girl yet you still decide to stroke his ego? What's wrong with you?

Anyway, Tsun-chan you talk about lolcow like it's one person. You talk about empathy but it wasn't even a week ago when you said you wanted to murder others, the opposite of empathy. I know I'm probably wasting my time responding to you and you never really even respond back to people, but oh well. I wonder if you truly won't come back here again huh. I wish you wouldn't for your own good.

No. 1012639

I realized that the bizarre emotions and disgust with life I've had for years now are symptoms of depersonalization and that I am not just some freak barely masquerading as a human. I feel like a wild and retarded animal but at least there's a name for it I guess.

No. 1012640

Nonnies I'm so embarrassed… my bf and I were laughing over dumb shit and I didn't realise how loud we were being and we got a noise complaint. The person was nice about it but I still feel so ashamed. I never wanted to be the noisy neighbour, but it's hard to know exactly what others can hear. Now I'm paranoid. How loud can I be? What have they heard? I wish there was somewhere we could just be as loud as we wanted to, just laughing and giggling. How thin are the walls here really??

No. 1012643

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I'm so fucking upset right now that I could cry. I'm so sick of her lying to me and pretending like she doesn't do the things she does. I'm not the crazy one

No. 1012657

2022 barely started and I have already lost one of my closest friends over fucking porn of all things. Over our brief 20 minutes discussion in which she mainly screamed at me for not wanting to date pornsick men, she blessed me with absolute great takes such as
> her husband has every right to watch porn and its her duty as a loving wife to accommodate it. “You will understand once you truly love a man”
> women in porn have no dignity. They don’t deserve pity. In fact most of them deserve the abuse they get
Later she was saying something about underage bitches who seduce peoples husbands but at that point I was just too checked out to pay attention.
It is bizarre to see a woman I know and love turn into a stranger in front of my eyes. She was so cool before too. She was the one who laughed in my face when I was in my stupid libfem men can get abused too !!1! phase. How can she admit that porn is objectifying and horrible to women and at the same breath say that its totally the evil womenz fault. How can she say that these women’s humanity and dignity doesn’t matter as long as her husband can coom?

No. 1012659

>>1012657
>In fact most of them deserve the abuse they get
>underage bitches who seduce peoples husbands
Good fucking riddance lmao. Be glad she exposed her true colors.

No. 1012665

I absolutely want a child, 100%. But I am absolutely terrified of actually being pregnant. I'm the type of person to easily have a panic attack when I get onto a plane because I become hyperaware of how I have 0 control of what happens from take-off to landing. You can't just turn around and decide you don't want a baby once you're pregnant (generally, you know what I mean…) I'm scared I'll be 6 months in and say wait this is horrifying and feels like a horror movie and every moment is panic and I don't want to be pregnant anymore but of course, there is nothing that can be done. If a 6 hour flight is terrifying to me, how will I be able to handle over half a year of being 'trapped' in a state I can't get out of? I feel like I'll just be counting on motherly hormones to kick in and override my panic about being host to a little fetus growing inside me. I feel so immature for thinking this.

No. 1012667

>>1012657
You didn't lose anything. I just feel bad for her, she's been brainwashed.

No. 1012672

Psycho bitch I know who I didn't know was psycho has been skinwalking the story of an incredibly traumatic event in my life to…what? Make herself more interesting? Farm pity? Did she think I wouldn't find out? Does she not think I'm petty as shit and going to put her on blast? What on earth is the thinking? Why not make up a story? Why not steal one from some random site? Why does a trauma victim feel the need to steal the story of a trauma victim to tell to another trauma victim? What the fuck is wrong with people?

No. 1012673

>>1012665
You're not immature at all. It seems like most women don't think about how horrifying and dangerous pregnancy can be, so to take the time to think about whether you want to go through it or not can spare you a lot of agony down the line. If you really want a baby, the best thing would be to make sure you have a loving partner who will take care of you and comfort you, perhaps a therapist or similar to be with you all the way. That way if you do feel panicked or out of control, you'll have a great support system to help you through it.

No. 1012678

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There's an underground musician I listen to every once in a while. Some of his work is relatable in a deeply depressing way, and it veers on "based" as long as you ignore that he's a scrote. This includes things I'm sure only or mainly women can relate to, to the point where I wonder if he listens in on his female friends' conversations and uses their rants to write songs. All his other content is cringe, but when he puts out a "good" song, he basically says all the things I'm afraid to say. I think he makes those songs because he already knows no one who'd take offense knows who he is, so they'll never hear
Whenever I hear a particularly cutting song, I just think to myself "If this was written and performed by a woman, it'd be a fucking godsend", and I know for a fact that it'd gain a following among other women. I can sing, so it all seems so perfectly ripe for the taking, but it also seems wrong somehow. Is it a bad idea to take inspiration from him?

No. 1012682

>>1012678
DO it, I would love to listen to your music

No. 1012689

>>1012678
Can you say who the artist is? I'm really curious

No. 1012727

>>1010760
okay so late reply but when I talk about western radfem shit that makes me just angry and well offended, I mean stuff like when the fall of Afghanistan happened I saw many radfem post about "how this could happen to us as well, If we aren't careful" and I got offended by that, cause western women will never experience 1/1000th of the shit women in Shariah countries have to suffer through
even women in the dark ages had more rights and freedoms these those women in Afghanistan
I'm not saying that they shouldn't do activism against Domestic Violence, sexism, cat-calling and other issues but to pretend that all the patriarchy has the potential to be the same is just flat out wrong and delusional

No. 1012736

>>1012678
you should post in the "Musician Farmers" thread anon

No. 1012754

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do you guys think romantic/sexual attraction can be split? there's this guy i have genuine feelings for – i could imagine us settling down together – but the moment things tilt towards the sexual is the moment my body taps out. it makes me wonder if i just need more time to get used to the idea of being with a man. i know that sounds insane but i used to scoff at the idea of someone being like, i don't know, biromantic but homosexual? i hope this doesn't sound retarded but i can't exactly speak to anyone irl about it and i don't want to ask reddit because i don't want trannies trying to give me advice or whatever

No. 1012762

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This is such a niche sperg but I fucking hate the cultural shift of the past few decades that tries to present drug traffickers and cartels as dogged folk heroes instead of the absolute bottom of the barrel scum that they are. I know white girls who will scream and cry about Trump peeping on miss teen USA contestants but then treat Escobar like some champion of the underclass, even though he and his underlings partook in actual human trafficking and most of the violence that made Columbia the deadliest country in the world for several years was them raping and murdering prostitutes and ‘civilian’ women. There are whole towns in Mexico where girls and women live in total hiding like it’s fucking Afghanistan, because if the cartels find them they’ll be kidnapped and forced into sexual slavery. The tipping point for me was seeing the tweets about this fucking piece of shit’s sons having a $5m bounty on their heads and tons of 17yos retweeting and saying that they would hide them because they’re so cute though.
There is absolutely no such thing as an honorable criminal, especially when it comes to their treatment of women. A man can have no money and no power and still be a useless wife beater. We are worth less than nothing than them, and when they are given even an ounce of power or authority, the first thing they will use for us to hurt us. Stay the fuck away from crims anons. They will drag you down to the very lowest depths and then act like to took them there instead.

No. 1012764

>>1012762
Huge reason why I couldn't bring myself to like either Narcos series on Netflix. They made Escobar look like a calm man and hardly touched on the way he treated underage girls and women as disposable playthings. Giving money to certain communities doesn't erase what they did to those communities. They're fucking scum no matter how they try to spin it.

No. 1012766

>>1012754
Or maybe he's just ugly and you're trying to convince yourself he's the right guy because he sounds good on paper.

No. 1012767

My friend told me that she was abused by her ex when she was drunk, and then made an scene in front of everyone, accused him publicly, and kicked him out of a party last month.
Now she tells me that despite that, she hasn't told her fiancee, and isn't planning to (hence, she won't formally denounce him either, and asked us to not tell him), but that she wants all of us to stop talking to me.
I know I'm supposed to believe her, but she's a huge liar,and I'm pretty sure she's acting this way cause she actually cheated and doesn't want the fiancee to know.
She keeps telling everyone she meets, including my girlfriend, whom I introduced last night, that he raped her.
What's the point? What does she want to achieve?
I only know her cause I'm friends with the ex in question, and he introduced us. I don't even like her, but I keep talking to her cause they broke up on good terms, and I noticed she didn't have a lot of girl friends. Guess now I know why.
Oddly enough, it's not the first situation where a friend's ex makes a scandal that leaves me on an uncomfortable position with a friend, but this time I'm close enough to him to not know if I should stop talking to him.
What would I gain? A shitty friendship with an annoying bitch?
Honestly I'm getting tired, and my gf thinks I should stop talking to both of them just in case, and that she being like this is the reason of why she didn't have friends in the first place, and that I shouldn't feel guilty.
BUT UGH, I HATE BEING PUT IN THESE SITUATION

No. 1012768

>>1012762
Somewhat related, I was reading a great non-fiction book called Mafia Brotherhood, about the history of the Mafia's in southern Italy
and there is a big part in the book in how they frame themselves and justified their exploitation, they presented themselves as representing the common people, protecting "their" values and culture from outsiders
but they were 99% responsible for all the problems in southern Italy, they stunted business, they halted mechanization of farming, had corrupt officials elected and as for protecting the people from outsiders, they literally had women and children kidnapped and sold them to European Brothels or some Arab sheiks

Its why I hate romanization of mafia's, just cause they were more organized and wore suits doesn't mean they were anything more then thugs
I'm noticing a lot of dumb zoomer romanticize the Korean mafia and they were just as awful as well

No. 1012769

>>1010559

Is your fault for dating an score older than you. When will you learn that there's a reason those men don't date women their age?

No. 1012770

>>1010951

Damn nonnie I'm kinda on the same place.
I wish God gives you patience, cause if he gives you strength, might as well.

No. 1012772

>>1012764
True fucking that, and even if Narcos was good at showing the horror and chaos that the drug trade caused in Columbia, even the people who worked on it seem immune to that message. I met a guy who worked on it on location and he said he snorted more coke between shoots on that show than he had as a drama student in New York. I almost couldn’t believe it, because the point repeated again and again throughout the show is that the drug trade gives money to terrible people and directly leads to death and destruction in impoverished communities, but he literally just shrugged and said that it was cheap there and easy to get a hold of, so why not do it. He’s also a Latino whose made a career out of bitching about how white America is so unfair to Latinos and how he suffers so uniquely as a Latino man trying to make it in America, never mind that back home he’s a member of the oligarchy and as far removed from the poor Latam immigrant experience as the average wealthy gringo. Escobar had a higher kill count than Bin Laden, but because he sold the fun party drug the planes he blew up and the judges he assassinated were just a cost of doing business. You cannot be a good person and support drug trafficking. It’s an oxymoron.

No. 1012777

>>1012397 Thank you anon, I guess I never considered things like that being good conversation material.
>>1012403 I would love to, are you the same as me in being bad at conversation? If we're both still here by next new year anon we should try and connect.
>>1012577 I appreciate it, I actually do really like tree photography and a job is definitely one of my end goals.

No. 1012789

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After 20 years, its finally hitting me that i might be asexual, and its scaring the shit out of me. It hurts so much not being able to relate to my friends at college when it comes to talking about hookups and expermentation, but no matter how much i wish to grow into my sexuality i still feel unfinished and abnormal. It does feel a little better to know there might be a reason i run away from relationships whenever anything starts to go below the belt, but its scary thinking that this may never change. Im still romantically attracted to women, and used to correlate my low/nonexistent desire for sex as a symptom of my lesbianism and aversion to men. I think it might just be me. i cant even attempt masturbation without feeling it forced and pointless. i i feel disgusted with myself and still am kind of hoping that, by a miracle, i’ll feel normal one day. This feels fucking humiliating

No. 1012795

I’m freaking the fuck out! I woke up because I got hot and there’s a huge bloody streak down the back of my throat! My throat has been hurting for like a week, but the last time I looked, I couldn’t see anything. I’m hoping it’s just a nosebleed leaking down the back of my throat because I’ve been laying down and the climate I’m in is extremely dry, but I have a very bad feeling that it’s not that. I will go to the doctor as soon as I can.

No. 1012800

I'm so pissed off rn I can't even sleep. I was the anon who freaked out about her new kitten disappearing and I regret to inform y'all that the worst has happened and its all my dad's fault. I told him several times to not leave my bedroom door open because I didn't want her escaping or exploring the rest of the house as yet since she's still anxious around humans and I needed more time to train her. He completely ignores me and opens my door when I'm asleep and she gets out and finds a new hiding spot in our storage room, which is directly opposite to the door that leads to the back porch. I couldn't figure out which part of the storage room she was hiding in, but I left food and water for her that she'd usually eat around night time and I'd close the storeroom door to avoid losimg track of her. My father insisted on leaving the door open so she would come out and I said that's not a good idea because she is still anxious around us and she'll try to go outside. Yesterday, I woke up around 1pm because I stayed up late with my sister and I found that not only was the storeroom door open,but the fucking door to the back porch was open as well. My dad tells me how the kitten needs to explore so he opened the storeroom, and he opened the porch because the house was stuffy and he doesn't think she'll go outside because we have dogs in the yard. Mind you, that our dogs don't stay in the backyard and that kittens that aren't familiar with an area ALWAYS try to escape. Anyways, I practically emptied out the storeroom and I couldn't find her. I set out her food in hopes that she just found a new place to hide and its 7am rn and it hasn't been touched. She's mostly likely gone and we have no way to find her since I haven't trained her to respond to sounds and we live in a forested area but this wouldve never happened if my dad just fucking respected my wishes and let me handle the damn cat instead of thinking that his way is the correct way. Now not only do I have to deal with getting over losing such a sweet but shy kitten but also with comforting my little sister who was so attached to her. I'm so fucking upset.

No. 1012803

>>1012800
that is horrifying. I hope you make it clear it was his fault. Its a bit of long shot but try putting her litter box right outside, she might be able to smell it and get back.

No. 1012804

>>1012800
You can't imagine the fucking anger that I feel while reading that. I'm not even a catfag, I'm so sorry that ""you"" lost her nonna. Please update if she comes back

No. 1012807

>>1012803
>>1012800
this or something that has her smell on it if you have (like a blanket on which she laid). May your dad never find a cold spot in his bed ever again and gets jumped by 1000 huntsman spiders while he showers

No. 1012817

>>1012800
she likely won't have gone too far. I agree with the person who said to put her litter box out. that worked for me when my cat took off to chase another cat as I opened the front door. check outside for her from time to time.

No. 1012819

>>1012795

Something similar happened to me anon: the back of my throat was itchy, and dumb me figured I could scratch it lightly with a toothbrush. Turns out oral thrush can bleed. There wasn't anything wrong with my throat, but I have an autoimmune disease and I get them from time to time.
Might be nothing, but get checked to be safe.

No. 1012820

>>1012803
>>1012804
>>1012807
>>1012817
Thanks for the advice and responses nonas. I'll try what you all suggested and I'll definitely have a proper talk with my father about his actions. I'll update if anything changes.

No. 1012828

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>>1010565
>I've lost my job as a camgirl due to women harassing me on the internet.

No. 1012833

Shannon resurfacing makes me cringe hard. She reminds me so much of one of my old friends. Gossipping vile shit behind your supposed "friends", buying them expensive gifts to get to their good side, denying every mistake and victimizing herself, stalking her old friends and finding their old accounts to prove they were always bad people and she is super awesome for gossipping about them… At least it makes me happy to know that majority of the population will view this behavior as insanity and the only person that thinks this is normal people behavior is her and her current drones.

No. 1012836

>>1012800
Might be retarded but maybe playing this outside will work?

No. 1012838

Dae feel like people's obsession with relationships is unnatural? If I'm doing something on my phone, people immediately assume that I must be texting someone, if I'm single for several years or won't talk about my dating life with others, people assume that I must be in the closet, if I say I'm not in a relationship people ask 'how come', etc. Like is it that unbelievable that some people just want to be alone? That I'm not hiding anything, I just simply don't want to be in any kind of relationship?

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>>1010565
are you romanian anon? I thought you were mad at steven for threatening to post your nudes everywhere… but you're a camgirl which means your nudes are probably everywhere already. hmmmmmmmm

No. 1012848

>>1012838
they can sense that you have an infantile mind which worries them on a deeper level

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>>1012848
>infantile mind

No. 1012851

>>1012850
Report the bait and move on

No. 1012856

I barely have talked to my bf this last week and been feeling super emotionally distant to cope, but last night we spent a lot of time together in discord call.
He asked if it was OK to leave at X time to go play on a new minecraft server with our friends made today. I said yeah, but to the end of the call I felt very much like I didn't want to go.
I told him I wanted to stay longer because it hit me how much I missed talking to him, and he kept saying he "had to" and we can "talk tomorrow". He caught himself and said "well I don't have to, but I want to." No other explanation.
Then he hung up and I cried a lot like a retard about how he'd rather play baby game than talk to me kek. I messaged him saying the same thing, that I missed him and felt needy and still wanted to talk and he said the same thing.
This feels ridiculous because we're both early 20s.

I posted about our relationship before and nonnas told me to break up, so I'm expecting that response to this.
I've been considering breaking up, but now I feel like I really should. This feels like a redflag for how I'll potentially be treated down the line: being left so he can go play video games.

No. 1012857

>>1012615
Marilyn Monroe was a whore and look at her life. Name one whore on earth that had a good life/past. There are women with worse lives than yours who did not make any mistakes like internet dating and they’re no whores. If we are the reason that you lost your career that’s a mighty good thing. Romanians in this country are often prostitutes, time to change the stereotypes, learn less about sucking dick and e-girl shit and apply for an erasmus programme. I said it rough because the BPD whore often uses their sad sob story as an excuse to be schizophrenic.

No. 1012858

This is dumb but I need to let it out. I've recently had to move back in with my mom and despite having a severe sleep disorder(s?) since I was four, she still does not want to understand what I go through. Part of my disorder is excessive pacing at night. I have to do it. When I moved in during the summer, I was able to pace in the backyard pretty much without problem. She thought/thinks it's weird but whatever, the weather was nice and I didn't bother anyone at ungodly hours. Now it's literally freezing out and I can not go outside to pace. I try to be as quiet as one can get but she complains about hearing me. I don't know what to do because I can't go outside and I can't do it inside without bothering her. Pacing is something I need to do or else I'll sleep the entire day (I'm active during late day but it doesn't help before someone brings up exercising) and she'll throw a fit over that. I want out of here so I'm not an annoyance but I'm unable to. I feel like a burden and annoyance.

No. 1012861

>>1012856
First of all, not a retard; your bf is really immature to treat you like this, he just openly said he prefers to play the game even when you told him you really need more time with him; he really should have more consideration and empathy for you as his partner.
Is breaking up a right choice? It's likely. No one is without fault and people can become better with some effort but the question is - is he willing to put that effort and are you willing to wait for it, being only in your early 20s?

No. 1012864

>>1012857
wow you're such a radfem, well excuse me for being sexually abused my entire life and being groomed when I was a literal child and excuse the other romanian whores for having a life as bad as mine that has led them to do that. There are women with worse lives and better that end up in sex work and once you end up there you cannot exit it since it dictates the entire outcome of your life and there is no point in trying to get a career after you were made to be a camgirl at 18. Ah this is about how much the radfem empathy lasts. If I slightly antagonize you then I am a schizophrenic whore because you cannot use my depressing life story for your personal agenda and because Im telling you the truth about your sociopathy. Even if I was schizophrenic that would imply I cannot apply for erasmus or do much with my life due to the crippling mental illness of having schizophrenia . How do you even "excuse yourself" for being schizophrenic. I did not lose my career, I became aware of how fucked it was and of me being a victim but sometimes when I look at it and how my life is and how the world works and how those supposed to help me treated me when they could not use me no longer for their agenda, I wanna go back to being a whore and possibly kill myself and link it to this website for all the women on this website that have ruined my life. I am mentally ill, I was severely abused and I don't know how to make money and radfems dont give a fuck about abused women since most of them have narcissism or sociopathy. They only want to use their story for their agenda and to win internet arguments and then they call them whores, prostitutes and so on. I want to kill myself and link it to this website and to all hundreds of people that have pushed me to it because I spoke the truth. I want to write a manifesto and commit homicide and suicide and I will link it to this website. I am doing it in one week.(ok)

No. 1012874

I’m so ducking over the Romanian anon; get a fucking diary; rant on Reddit, but shit the fuck up. You put so much effort to be here and it’s not working. The more you post the walls of incoherent texts, the less anyone cares about you wanting to kill yourself.

No. 1012884

>>1012864
I’m no radfem but lol. They pitied you actually, beta orbited you, all whilst you killed chickens en raped some romanian kids. Who the hell gets abused by an online guy? You were cyber bullied yes. And it sucks but you wouldnt have gotten cyber bullied if you didn’t mention your hobby’s (killing chickens). Hope your victims hate you for it btw the same way you hate this website.
One more thing to get through your BPD schizo head: the radfems here only hated you ever since you decided to think this is your wordpress. They refused to see through your bullshit and unicef-scam tier bullshit and even personal armied you. But I guess you hate them when you aren’t hurt by the 100th scrote you pathetically date online. And bitch you’re not poor, you have internet.

No. 1012886

>>1012864
girl, please stop using lolcow for this. its ok to vent, but you make yourself identifiable in every post and it's really annoying. you should get banned for this

No. 1012890

my desk chair never reclined but this time I guess I reclined just right and it unlocked and started reclining. I have been using this chair in this manner since 2003. please don't make me replace it NOW when I was planning to prolong its life just a little bit before getting a nice yuppie office chair. hopefully I can figure this out. I have a vague recollection of this happening once before, maybe 7 years ago and it just kind of went back to being stuck in a static position. personally that works much better for my boomer adjacent bodical happenings.

No. 1012892

>>1012886
Jesus christ stop being a cuckesse. This bait is worse than anyone could ever make. First steven was the reason she’d commit suicide and now this website. Bpds lie a lot and threaten with suicide a lot like romanianl“anon” does.

No. 1012894


No. 1012901

>>1012857
Romania isn't even a third world country, they have EU citizenship and can fuck off to whichever country they choose and find work there.
I fucking wish I was Romanian instead of being born in Bosnia. You have no idea how much of a privilege being an EU citizen is. She's full of shit and I don't feel bad for her.

No. 1012911

An artist I've admired for years inexplicably started dating a balding troon. The other day she drew and posted a cutesy cartoon gif of her troon gf growing big tits. I'm gonna spew

No. 1012915

My mother keeps aging me up as some weird way to bother me and make me disposable and hopeless, shes a big time misogynist who hates her daughters. She kinda traumatized me as a teenager and stunted me for a long time and i realized it as an adult and called it out and expressed how i wasted years stunted and didnt enjoy being a kid or learn stuff that im now catching up on all those years bc of what she did and now in her retarded mind she thinks im upset that i’m not “young” anymore. Bitch… i’m 21… weirdo. She keeps bringing anything that bothers me like age and more and i can’t stand her. She keeps me in this cycle and enjoys seeing me doubt myself and Its too much

No. 1012918

>>1012615
>>1012864
You claimed earlier in the thread >>1010565 that radfem farmers harassed you out of the job, but now you're claiming that you stopped camwhoring of your own volition due to an ideological dispute?
>My country doesn't offer me governmental support and I've lost my job as a camgirl due to women harassing me on the internet. It was the only job I could work. I'm literally physically unable to work.

Either someone completely manufactured this tragic BPD whore backstory to troll the farms, or this schizo actually embellishes details (read: lies) for more internet pity points and can't keep her story straight.

No. 1012919

I had to admit something to my father in law that I didn’t want to admit in first place just because my bf threatened me to spill when he got mad at me for stupid reasons. So instead of being a coward I did it without thinking about it too much and I didn’t tell me boyfriend I was going to.
So I came home extremely relieved because I talked with his father and he was kind of okay with our talk (disappointed but I was expecting it) and of course, as expected too, my boyfriend made me feel guilty somehow just twisting the situation and also calling me a liar (which he did before anyways).
I know he’s doing it on purpose because I was two steps ahead of him and I also know I shouldn’t be hurt because he’s just pissed off I’m making my own decisions and he can’t blackmail me anymore with this topic but here I am, feeling guilty even thought I did nothing wrong.
I wonder how did I end up in this situation, with someone like him.

No. 1012926

>>1012911
That sucks so much. More people I like seem to be hand maidens to troons now

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No. 1012930

>>1012919
Your own dad saying he's 'disappointed in you' is bad enough but someones elses dad saying that… like fuck off. You're not married to his shitty blackmailing son. He's not your family.

No. 1012938

I want to eat meat from time to time, I feel like my body needs it, I have severe anaemia and taking iron supplements and eating iron rich plants hasn't helped me yet. But I feel so disgusted by meat, it makes me sick, the smell and the texture. My guts seem to only tolerate cooked or baked meat, I can't eat it fried because it triggers my IBS hard. When it's in a cooked form, it's not as puke inducing as raw meat, but I have no one to cook it for me and I know I have to first look at raw meat, touch it and smell it etc. in order to prepare it. And I just can't do it because seeing raw meat makes me not want to eat it at all. So I end up eating it very rarely or almost puking when I eat it. Restaurants are closed here now, and I wouldn't have the time and money to eat at such places. It's also hard to find places that prepare food with ingridients that don't trigger my IBS. I just wish I had someone who could cook meat for me from time to time,vso I wouldn't have to look at it pre-prepared lmao

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>>1012894
I figured it out……………………………………….

No. 1012943

>>1012833
Reminds me of an old friend of mine too. It makes me sad that these people will never realise or admit they were/are in the wrong.

No. 1012945

>>1012915
Break the cycle, first in your mind, then find a way to live somewhere else. You will never make her feel sorry for how she raised you (I'm assuming she will always have a justification for everything, it's what my mother did/does still, they just have to be "right" and win the argument everytime, no matter how idiotic what they say sounds like), so stop trying to make her see reason. Focus on yourself, you have your whole life ahead of you. The online is full of self help. She is old and has low self esteem and from what you're saying, her daughters won't hurry to do more than their duty when she's old. How bleak. But she chose this, she chooses to be a cow every day - talking about my own mother here. Sorry, end of advice/vent.

No. 1012946

>>1012856
I went through almost the exact same thing with my ex. I know how it hurts, and I'm so sorry nonna. I admit I am a clingy girlfriend but if I knew my partner didn't want me to leave badly and I didn't literally have to (for work or school or an appointment etc) I'd simply just stay. Priorities.

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>>1012864
You said you'd leave this site in your last post you liar

No. 1012950

>>1012940
don't feel too stupid, nonnie. i'd owned a flatscreen computer monitor for about 5 years before i realized i could tilt the screen kek

No. 1012952

>>1012874
I agree. It's infuriating dealing with people like her and it's not like we can filter her either. It's always woe is me, everyone else is bad, everyone else is evil, I've never done anything wrong. Oh someone's trying to give me advice? Fuck you! Someone's trying to give me genuine comfort? I'll ignore them anyway.
What the fuck does she want? Does she even know what she wants? She just wants to spend her time giving empty threats on an anonymous imageboard's vent thread?
You cannot blame every single thing in your life on other people and your situation. But you don't even care about other's sympathy anyway. You just want to complain and rot away.

No. 1012953

>>1012938
What kind of meat do you crave? I'm trying to scheme up other options for you rather than dealing with it raw

No. 1012954

>>1012858
Pacing all night is definitely not normal behavior, and if you’re keeping her up at night, you are objectively being an annoyance. Have you tried things like quiet exercises (ab workout, no-jumping hiit/tabata) to tire you out?

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>>1012938
does your local supermarket have a cooked food section? those are usually prepared in a pretty bland way (even seniors eat that food) and is pretty affordable, and you can measure how much you want.

No. 1012957

>>1012800
He wants to get rid of the kitten. That's the only thing I can think in this scenario. Your dad's a fucking asshole. I'm so sorry anon, I hope she comes back, I'd follow the other anon's advice

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I’m so tired of wasting my words and energy on people who clearly just don’t give a fuck, I’m increasingly becoming convinced that violence is more efficient than anything else like I’m losing my civility and sanity every fucking day

No. 1012964

I just opened my mouth to ask my boyfriend what we should do today RIGHT as his phone rang, calling him into work. Like I didn't even get to finish the sentence before it was answered. REEEEEEEEEEEEE

No. 1012972

I feel like there isn't really any place for femme4femme lesbians to go. Am I wrong in thinking this?
I'm always accused of being a scrote/tranny when I talk about things like wanting to wear matching feminine outfits with a girl, liking stereotypical feminine anime girls etc. I really don't get most fandoms.

No. 1012978

>>1012953
Mostly poultry, I like beef but only if it's in a form of beef broth, and not big amounts. No pork.
>>1012956
We don't have it here unfortunately. I moved here recently and I only have one supermarket near me. There are others, but it's an almost 30 minutes walk, and I don't have time for it after work, I don't have my own car either. But I'll try to check them out next saturday or sunday and see if they have cooked meat sections

No. 1012982

>>1012960
People don't listen to those they don't respect so you have to show them why you should

No. 1012983

>>1012964
Was it his day off? In which case, he’s an idiot for answering. I would never.

No. 1012986

>>1012983
He was on call, I think ten weeks out of each year he's at risk of being called in on his days off. If he hadn't picked up the phone, he'd be letting his work friends down and "missing an opportunity to learn" so he kinda likes taking these jobs. Plus it's like a foot of snow outside, so I should have figured this was how the day would go. If it were me, I'd have a million excuses as to why I couldn't go in to work today kek

No. 1012995

>>1012972
It isn't easy for butch lezzies either, but yeah femme4femme spaces are always taken over by troons.

No. 1012997

>>1012995
I get that. I hope I don't sound overdramatic but sometimes it feels like the world truly hates lesbians. Women overall I suppose. I hope more women will peak so our spaces will stop being taken over by trannies, but I'll admit it breaks my heart a little when I'm being genuine and get called a tranny by other women.

No. 1013007

>>1012997
I can relate anon, sometimes I just want to watch a moe moe show with cute feminine girls. It's normal, it's doesn't make you a bad lesbian. It's sucks getting misgendered.

No. 1013008

Currently in line getting tested for COVID. My mom tested positive and now I'm starting to get symptoms. She's unvaxxed and I'm partially vaxxed so I'm not sure what to expect. She was down and out for a few days, she's still coughing. Now I have to tell everyone we came in contact with to get tested once my results come in because she refuses. I'm annoyed because she spent so much time saying "don't get vaxxed, take these vitamins and also you need to stop going out so much because I don't want COVID" but she gave it to me and won't tell anyone she tested positive.

No. 1013023

>>1013008
Vaxed status has nothing to do with spreading the virus

No. 1013030

>>1013023

no shit I'm just annoyed I got it from someone who thought multivitamins would save them and won't tell anyone she's been in contact with she's positive

No. 1013033

10 years ago, the same views I hold today would had been seen as center-left. Now, the views I have are labeled as center-right. I honestly don't care anymore.

No. 1013035

>>1013008
Wow your mom is dumb

No. 1013049

>>1013035

I just told my cousins since we spent Christmas with them so I'm getting prepared for her meltdown because I "told people". I didn't mention her at all and said that I have reason to believe I was exposed, but she's a selfishn boomer obsessed with image, more so than compassion for her family lol

No. 1013064

>>1013033
The meme about becoming more conservative as you age is true, I just didn't realise that your politics don't change at all, the world changes around you

No. 1013070

Im 26 today is my birthday.I've only been eating 400 calories daily for the past 3 months. I live with my parents but they are soo abusiveee my mom cried today and I felt so abusseeeed by her. Anyway, Im gonna continue starving myself and I wish the pakistani anon would not invalidate my SUFFERING and abuse. My parents are so abusive they told me to get a job Im on NEETbux right now. The only thing that keeps me going is browsing lolcow. I have lolcow so I can laugh at mentally ill women that have it worse than me. I-I-I mean hahaha I love women I hate scrotes and trannies. Now, back to /snow/ I need to laugh at some BPD camwhore. Jeez I wish my parents would stop abusing me and that I wouldn't have to hear about Pakistani anon's suffering. You know people like me in 1st world countries SUFFER TOO I am 26, a NEET and living with my mommy and daddy and I couldn't become an idoru at 15 and go to Japan because my parents are abusive!!!I am a feminist but Jesus I wish 3rd world country whores would take a hold of their lives and take accountability for their misfortune. I don't fucking care you were raped and that the world has brought you to insanity and you want to commit murder and kill yourselves. Like helllllloo girl?? Women in 1st world like me suffer too. You dont have to make me feel bad about mum screaming at me this morning for spending 12 hours in my room watching anime daily. Jeeez, I don't care you were raped, humiliated and lived in utter poverty as a child my suffering is totally justifiable too. Not to mention most girls I have talked to that were raped and abused were total BPD bitches and they did not give me a lot of positive reaffirmation for the advice I have provided them with. Like bitch it isn't all about yourself you stupid dick sucking whore. You killed cats at 8 because your environment was so abusive it coerced you to?? Wow what a psycho bitch. My mum scolded me at 9 and slapped me and I didn't kill cats like you did. It couldn't possibly be that you lived in a 10 time worse environment than I did and that I am incapable of understanding different life situations and how different environmental factors contribute to an individual's life outcome.you were born a psycho hope you kill yourself. Ahahaha I hate scrotesss so much they are so unempatheticccc and mean and grosss. Ahh yes back to /snow/ hahahaha I wanna laugh at some stupid whore that chooses to have a horrid life, it couldn't possibly be that everyone has very different life circumstances that condition their life. Would you stop lying about your life already?? You gave out too many details and the way I put them together in my head means you are lying. I would help any anon here by telling her to "get help" that will truly give them a new perspective but some people just dont want to be helped JEEEEZZZZZZZ. I'm such an empathetic and good person. I'm totally not a psychopathic sociopath that only cares about herself. HELLLOOOOOOOO can you shut the fuck up about being sex trafficked?? Schizooo!! I don't care. Stop shitting up the thread. Mommy and daddy are upset at me for being a 26 year old child and it is very very very abusive and Im tired of it. Ahhh Im gonna take this anger out by going to Shayna's thread and calling her ugly and a slut and hopefully she will read it too. Im so glad I became a radfem. I help women so much. Either way, sorry for shitting up the thread but I wish for schizos to stop posting and making it about themselves and saying things that indirectly offend me. Like girlll I will give you empathy but only if you become my emotional slave and you kiss my ass non stop. Ahhh the audacity of this bitchessss. Yeaaa your life is really bad shut the fuck uppppp I have my issues too!!! I cannot reach my desired weight and mum and dad are scolding me. What the fuck is Romania even a 3rd world country??? Just immigrate. I mean I cannot move out of my family's house at 26 and Im willingfully starving myself to victimize myself but like bitch yea maybe your entire brain was affected by the extreme abuse you endured and you probably can barely leave your house but just immigrate and stop talking about being a "sex trafficking" victim you just want to be a whore get a real JOB like the rest of us. Blarrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhh I need to go back to reading my manga now. Jesus I wish these schizos would leave so I would not feel invalidated for my valid problems.

No. 1013074

>>1013070
I get what that anon in the unpopular opinions thread meant about the schizophrenic walls of text some of you guys like to post now. 8/10 good pasta

No. 1013080

>>1013070
So you kill cats?

No. 1013085

>>1013070
Jesus christ just get a diary

No. 1013088

>>1013070
Keep coping, tsun-chan. Not even your fellow third worlders are buying your shit.

No. 1013092

>>1012918
Didn't she also go to college? IIRC she claimed to major in philosophy before she dropped out and she kinda talks like it.

No. 1013093

>>1013070
you're hot, why don't you just get enough money to go to Italy and try to con a guy into marrying you?

No. 1013104

>>1013070
Romania isn't the shithole this anon is making it out be, it's no heaven but please don't blindly listen to her. It's hard to believe she's really Romanian.

No. 1013109

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I went out on NYE and now my throat is kinda itchy and I feel like I need to cough. Still have taste and smell, no fever. Pray it's not covid I will kms if I spread it to my family because I wanted to get drunk.

No. 1013110

I went to sleep with my pajama bottoms on. I woke up without my pants on but I have no memory of taking them off during the night. I have sleeping problems because usually I wake up like every hour or two, I'm incapable of reaching that deep phase of sleep, but this night I didn't wake up even once, and it's been the first time since like 2 years, which makes this situation even more weird. I have a new male housemate and after waking up without my pants my first thought was that he slipped something in my drink and tried to rape me or something. I also remember I felt some pain down there, but my period should be coming soon so it may be due to that. I think I'm paranoid, I don't know why my first thought after waking up was that of being violated

No. 1013114

>>1013104
I swear it's not even real and it's just a scrote LARP, I wish people would stop interacting with those posts

No. 1013120

>>1013080
a lot of people do it here and poverty dehumanizes you. In the village I grew up in children would encourage one another to kill and abuse animals and molest each other. I had cats thrown around and killed in front of me and older kids coerced me into killing cats in front of them. All the children in my village would pull down each others pants and touch their genitals and perform sexual acts on each other. I was made to sniff glue(aurolac) and I became addicted to it at 7 which is a very potent drug that fucked up how my brain has developed but for some reason im still smarter and more empathetic than most of you. There are children in my country and all over the world that live worse lives than pets do. When your environment is completely dehumanizing you are simply not human anymore. Your humanity is stripped away from you by poverty, lack of education and guidance. I didn't live the average life of someone in my country. A lot of people in 3rd world, 2st world and 1st world countries grow up in completely dehumanizing childhoods but most real abuse sufferers close themselves up inside of themselves because society just shuns you and if you open up about your trauma or thoughts you are faced with even more abuse. A lot of surviovrs of extreme abuse become criminals, killers or simply isolate themselves. I'm not very sure abt other countries, but if you're born disprivileged in a country with corruption bad environment everyone abuses you and nobody helps you. Most people from social circles ive been in didn't live childhoods like I did, but that doesn't mean im a rarity. Romania has huge rates of poverty but most people that grew up in poverty and such dont speak English and are in prison.
>>1013093
why would i prostitute mysef and let some abusive douchebag take advantage of me? Like thanks for the solution darling you're so helpful and totes empathetic

>>1013092
Yes, but going to school is useless nowadays. Only narcs make money. You literally have to be a narc to make money out of anything, it's impossible to be paid for something genuine


You bitches will never ever know true suffering and you will never give anything back to this horrible world. My country has 20 million ppl and at least 1 million are growing up the way I did

No. 1013121

>>1012164
slightly late but you'd be surprised how many times I've seen women on dating apps just blatantly put that they're looking to experiment. I think it's a safe option to look for women like that because you'll both be in the same sort of headspace.

No. 1013123

>>1013070
haha sucks for you ahaaa, didn’t you kill animals? what are we retards supposed to do for you? we are your not saviors we’re fucking idiots go find another place for help

No. 1013126

>>1013120
> im still smarter and more empathetic than most of you.
>You bitches will never ever know true suffering

whoa you're right that's some real 169 iq shit there

No. 1013127

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>>1013120
pic rel is you before heading to the cat gulag

No. 1013128

>>1013114
I thought the same thing, idk the piss drinking and smearing shit on anon's face just seemed like torture porn a scrote stole from salo or another top ten disturbing movies video.

No. 1013129

>>1013126
Is there a term like Dunning-Kruger but for people who think they're empaths?

No. 1013130

>>1013129
Retarded schizo on the internet

No. 1013132

>>1013070
Unhinged. Absolutely unhinged

No. 1013133

God, stop interacting with that annoying attention whore. This bitch is probably some scrote baiting LC anyway.

No. 1013135

>>1012940
LMAO that's so cute nona, I hope you enjoy reclining now, chairs that do that are the best.
However, 2003? Your chair is old enough to drink in some countries, how is it still alive

No. 1013136

>>1013110
That sounds scary. I think you should listen to your gut and investigate further, anon.

No. 1013137

>>1013110
don't worry nonnie, this has happened to me several times before. Obviously you should be wary about other people in the house, but I had the same suspicions and it ended up happening again while i was sleeping in a totally different place in a empty house. Keep note of how and where you found your pants; I tend to throw them over the side over the side of the bed each time. Once I noticed the pattern I felt more reassured it was my own doing

No. 1013139

>>1013133
nonnas aren't good at knowing the phrase "don't reply to bait" or "report bait"

No. 1013143

I wish my mother would have died 20 years ago. I wish we would have seen it coming what pain she will cause. I wish I could take the pain my brother is feeling and give him everything back he has lost.

No. 1013144

>>1013120
How did you go to university if you became a camwhore and then homeless at 18?

No. 1013145

>>1013110
I'm a very paranoid person but if you were drugged, you would know. Did you feel nausea when waking up or before bed? Did you black out or fall asleep like normal? Have you had any headaches or muscle pains?

No. 1013148

>>1013139
I think they like her company. They're purposely egging her on and baiting her to get more replies, and then playing innocent because they "told her to stop"

No. 1013149

>>1013123
i do not need or want your help. I just want somewhere to vent my thoughts without being attacked and I want to inspire others to give to the world. You could buy some poor woman some food or buy her something to help her get through her horrible life. I want to inspire everyone to give to the poor. Even 1 dollar can change their life and especially giving to women. Feminism and radical feminism is born from Marxist thought and it is about women as a oppressed class that has become an oppressed class due to lack of resources and materials. A way of liberating women is by giving them money. It does not mean you cannot or are not allowed to complain about trivial issues or misogyny in the modern world. I just wish people would help the poor more and especially those in privileged situations. Most humans are entitled and only care about themselves, their issues which in the big picture do not even exist. I live in my father's house and I will see how I will get by until zi die. Im just trying to spread a message. Help others with no expectations. Just help them. If you have a piece of bread give a portion of it to someone that was not fortunate enough to aquire it. A lot of people grow in extreme abuse and poverty and nobody helps them and it isn't their fault at all for being born like that. We are facing huge social issues in the world due to bad distribution of capital, narcissism, egoism and so on. Some women face horrible humiliatiom, abuse and end up being prostitutes and the world only uses them. We are all so stuck in our little schizophrenic worlds to see the big picture of how much humans suffer. The average human is a schizo and he thinks made up worlds inside of the real world is the actual real world. Anime doesn't exist. Hoarding figurines is stupid, getting plastic surgery lacks any sort of essence. Just help those in need, but not me. I would never let myself be helped by narcissists, because they don't want to help. They just pretend to help to get something out of you.

Look at Venus Angelic. Life dealt her with misfortune and pain since birth and what does the average human do? Feed off her suffering. 30 narcissists have made videos with millions of views capitalizing off Venus's misfortune while showing fake empathy and Venus's life is collapsing and nobody is helping her. They disposed her since they cannot consume her like an object anymore and the narcissists immediately saw an opportunity to capitalize and gain fame.

No. 1013151

>>1013149
Get a job.

No. 1013154

>>1013148
I don’t think it’s a “her” but to fair bait or not the person does sound insane regardless

No. 1013155

>>1013110
Where were your pants? I very rarely wake up with them around my ankles or around my knees. I don't think it would be suspicious to wake up with them somewhere in your bed. If they were folded on a chair next to your bed that would be weird.

>>1013145
There's narcotics without side effects. I know because I used them to sleep. IDK whether they'd have kept me asleep through assault though.

>>1013148
This website probably has a large population of people who are unconditionally interested in weirdos. I'm one of them.

No. 1013158

>>1013154
The alleged Steve person posted the dox of a Romanian woman whose life story vaguely overlaps with what is described in the posts, at least as far as things you'd find on public websites goes.

No. 1013159

>>1013110
Anon any chance you did wake up like you usually do and took off your pants? And just don't remember it…
Like >>1013145 said being drugged usually is a very specific thing and you don't just go to sleep like normal.
I hope you are safe.

No. 1013160

>>1013155
What kind of sleeping aide do you use? I assume you can still feel them coming on? I used ambien in the past and it doesn't feel like normal sleepiness, if that makes sense. It comes on fast and intensely.

No. 1013162

>>1013120
YOU SAID YOU WOULD STOP USING THE SITE BAKA

No. 1013166

>>1013133
>>1013114
>>1013126
>>1013162
Komaeda-chan, I'm sorry. Komaeda-chan, I love you. What I would give to be subjected to pastas about a smelly dick rather than schizo posts from a person that doesn't want to be here yet comes back everyday
>>1013158
How do you know that? Did you Google her name? I only saw the Facebook and already felt that I shouldn't have

No. 1013168

>>1013160
Good point about the falling asleep. I don't remember how natural it felt, I just sort of got very sleepy and passed out for an amazing night's sleep. I used GHB.

No. 1013169

I'm only in my 20s, but I feel like a grumpy old man. I feel so exhausted and done with people's bullshit all the time.

No. 1013170

12:06

No. 1013174

>>1013070
>>1013149
Damn bitch you tryna enter a flash fiction contest?

No. 1013177

>>1013166
>How do you know that?
The facebook + some other website that was posted about the facebook person's mother dying + something else I can't recall right now.

Nothing 100% solid, but not nothing either.

No. 1013180

>>1013149
> I just want somewhere to vent my thoughts without being attacked
well this isn't it. go away

No. 1013184

>>1013120

Imagine wasting your time sperging out on lolcow? Very low IQ. If you had a high IQ you would have the mental cognition to fix yourself faggot.

No. 1013186

I'm just so sad.

No. 1013189

I SAID SOMEONE GIVEBUG GIVE HUG GIVE HUUUUGGGGGGGGG

No. 1013191

I'm fucking furious at my ana-chan sister for relapsing. Yes, it's not her fault,etc etc. I'm just so, so angry at her. I spent so long caping for her, telling everyone she's ok, she's working so hard on her ~recovery~. I'm trying not to feel hurt, and I can't. And I don't want her to become the center of the life of everyone in the family again. I can't stand the idea of us being "the anorexic's family" again. Of her illness monopolizing our lives, our parents' time and money. She's an adult now. She should know better. How can she do this to us again?

No. 1013192

>>1013109

You went to an indoors bar or did you go to someone's house? I'd say get tested to be sure since you're showing symptoms. hope it's not covid

No. 1013197

>>1013191
I know it's hard, but relapses are a part of recovery. She will be ok.

No. 1013203

>>1013191
It is a terrible disorder. Just keep in mind alcoholics can avoid a liquor store, heroin addicts can avoid the dealer, but she -has- to eat.she has to relearn that relationship with food. It’s not so easy during the holidays for people recovering.
I can’t imagine your stress, and I’m sorry . Here for you to vent anytime

No. 1013209

>>1013189
ok anon i give you hugggg

No. 1013212

Try to help mom with phone since it keeps telling her there's no more storage. She's deleting old text messages to help. Can't tell her it's telegram that's constantly running, nope. She refuses to delete anything from it. kill me, jk

No. 1013228

>>1013203
>>1013197
thank you nonnies, I really needed this. It'll be ok. And I'll do my best to be a good sister to her, it really is not her fault.

No. 1013231

>>1013070
You made some decent points about lolcow users but my goodness this degraded into a spergathon. And if it’s satire, ok, but this is still peak autism.

No. 1013235

>>1013212
I know that feel. Just leave them to their own retarded devices. Eventually they just buy a whole new phone instead of getting an SD card and removing the huge file size videos shot at 2k resolution for no reason.

No. 1013238

>>1013235
>they just buy a whole new phone instead of getting an SD card and removing the huge file size videos shot at 2k resolution for no reason
kek so true

No. 1013241

My back hurts so fucking bad, I can’t lift anything. I’m so scared the doctor will tell me to give up bodybuilding. I cant live without it.

No. 1013253

Our cat fucking died last night. And I'm pissed at myself because I belive there was something I could do about it. But no, I choosed work, study and buying stupid shit before prioritizing my 15 year old fluffy sister. God we got her when I was 10! And I left her go so easily.
Rest in peace Sabrina. I hope you find a better place in the other side.

No. 1013257

I've considered sex really overrated after dating around years ago. Now I've actually spent a week with a man who used his mouth and fingers more than his dick and I see sex in a whole diffefent light than before. Like I'd had rolled my eyes at the suggestion of "healing sex" before and now I'm here.

No. 1013265

>>1013253
I’m so sorry anon. I hope she went peacefully

No. 1013266

>>1013120
You’re the gypsy curse inflicted by the American bastard Stephan.
This is a Japanese board, we do not like the West/Romania.

No. 1013267

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>>1013253
15 is a long time, nona, and I'm sure she knew how much you loved her. I don't know how she passed, but considering her age there might not have been that much that could have been done. Rest in peace Sabrina.

No. 1013269

>>1013266
>thinks the romani gypsies and romanians are the same group of people
American moment.

No. 1013273

>>1013269
t. Romanian
Like all of you are part gypsy at least and there’s nothing wrong with it. Anyways as I said we’re a Japanese board and we don’t give a shit about the Westu.

No. 1013275

>>1013269
it was very obviously a joke, gypsy-anon

No. 1013277

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>>1013253
I'm sure Sabrina had a good life with you nonny. My cat got euthanized at 14 yo, I had her since I was 3. I still bawl my eyes out when I think about me and my mom going to the euthaniza appointment, then hearing her last deep little breath on the vet table and going back home with her empty cage sitting in the back. Now I cry everytime I hear You by Petit Biscuit because it was playing on the radio that day
I hope she passed on peacefully and I'm sure Sabrina is purring in paradise and loafing on clouds

No. 1013278

>>1013253
Cat update: mom killed Sabrina by accident. I wanna scream. We can never have nice things in this stupid house.
And she was saying how "liberating" is to say the truth. Fucking idiot you didn't last half an our with a simple lie. This is not about you what the fuck…

No. 1013279

>>1013269
romanians are gypsies and i know this because well i don’t actually know tbh they just are anon why are you being a triggered eurofag?

No. 1013281

>>1013278
This is beyond angering but sadly it happens a lot (doesn't excuse your mom for lying about it, even for half an hour and then making it about her)

No. 1013284

>>1013265
Thank you so much. I don't want to enter in details to entertain the morbid taste of some. But all I'll say is that she didn't suffered much.

>>1013267
Thank you a lot. That image is so pretty. I hope she wakes up on the other side just like that.

>>1013277
I'm so so sorry nona. I bet your feline companion lived beautifully with you and your mom. Going to the other side with both of you by her side is the best way she could have.

No. 1013285

>>1013228
Seriously glad you vented, you’re a great sister.

No. 1013286

>>1013281
Thank you a lot. Yeah, it's a habit she has but I'm more sad about Sabrina to give energy to whatever she says.

Thank you so much everyone, I really needed to vent and read your kind words

No. 1013289

>>1012938
Iron from plants is harder to absorb than iron from meat, it's also unlikely that you are getting all the essential amino acids and enough B12 from plants. If you don't like handling meat and don't care for the taste of it, you can buy protein powder made from beef. It's usually tasteless or can be bought flavoured. All you have to do is mix it into shake and drink it.

Here's an article about it
https://hpfreemanpni.org/best-beef-protein-powder/

No. 1013294

>>1013110
If it's not too hot maybe wear two bottoms next time and lock your door, see what happens

No. 1013295

SHUT UP ABOUT BEING TRANS! SHUT UP ABOUT BEING TRANS!! SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT BEING TRANS!!! FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!

No. 1013297

>>1013289
they can get b12 from nutritional yeast, mushrooms, there are ways for vegetarians and vegans to get proper nutrients carnivore-chan all it takes is effort

No. 1013298

>>1013278
Wow, holy fuck, I am so sorry. I would never be able to forgive her. Love you nona

No. 1013313

>>1013278
holy FUCK i am so sorry anon. i relate heavily (not exact same situation just general gist). no offense but fuck your mom and her liberation, she should feel absolutely crippled with shame, not worried about "liberating" herself from the truth. RIP sabrina. so sorry, anon. wish i could give you hugs and bring her back.

No. 1013319

Trying to shut up and not correct misinformation bc I don't want to get into a fight on lolcow. But damn some people are annoying.

No. 1013320

>>1013319
Don't curse me gypsy

No. 1013330

>>1013319
are you going to steal my misinformation gypsy? :3rawrxd

No. 1013338

>>1013169
You and me both, it seems the last 2 years everyones looking for someone to dump their negative moods/mental illness on. Just going to the grocery store is tiring because people's energy is so weird/agitated.

No. 1013344

>>1013241
Maybe you need to reapproach your training, and figure out more back/core supportive exercises ?

No. 1013350

>>1013338
Nayrt I agree. Even if I try finding IRL they'd just start traumadumping on me instantly. But it's still worse on internet especially Discords

No. 1013359

>>1013350
trauma dumping isn’t real we all live in the same sandbox planet

No. 1013375

>>1012627
I had to stop reading venus' thread and watchng her yt because it was just so painful. I used to watch her growing up and now… Ppl on here making fun of her rotting teeth especially, I had to have a tooth pulled due to not brushing my teeth during a long depression spell. I'm not saying she's perfect but at this point leave her alone, hasen't she been poked and prodded enough. I hope she can get the psych help she needs.

No. 1013386

>>1013109
Take a shitton of vit d, c, and some zinc.

No. 1013390

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i applied for a job and they gave me an assignment so they could check my abilities and i turned that in and was SO sure that i would get the job, but now i realize that i might have done one part completely wrong. i have no prior work experience and obviously they would have to teach me things first, but i worry that they flat out reject me because i misunderstood the assignment.

No. 1013394

>>1013212
I don't get telegram, why would you used an app for "privacy"? Wouldn't gov/data miners/etc pay more attention to ppl using telegram and getting their data, than just somoene using instagram/fb?

No. 1013399

>>1013319
>misinformation
I will always cringe reading this, it's become a dogwhistle for "yes I would sell my family to the gov if they were wrongthinkers".

No. 1013401

>>1013359
Basically everyone I talk to starts whinging/venting about their problems. Idk if I just have a "dump on me" face but it's a real problem.

No. 1013403

Life is so frustrating sometimes because I know I’m not a real person yet my body exists in reality so I feel the constant pressure to care about my future but I genuinely just don’t give a fuck anymore. I feel like I’m waiting for something and I don’t know if that’s death or what but I just want to go fucking nuts I was not meant for this life I hate everything why am I here why do I keep coming why am I perceived as anything no one gives a fuck

No. 1013425

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i need MONEY
SO MUCH MONEY THAT I CAN NEVER WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING OR ANYONE AGAIN
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No. 1013432

I think my friend's gf is getting him to ask me questions about my opinions on things like transgender women and vaccines. He's never cared about about my terf tendencies and idk where the vaccine questions are coming from.

No. 1013447

A good friend of mine who's extremely pro life just called me sobbing and asking for emotional support because she got knocked up by a ONS and "will do anything to abort the baby"… I feel bad for her because she seemed genuinely distressed but on the other hand I'm pissed that she used to or maybe still is dismissive of women who are/were in the same situation. I'll be supportive for now but once some time has passed I'll tell her what a fucking hypocrite she is.

No. 1013453

>>1013120
lol you're going to get your curses all fucked up because I helped your dumb ass before and now you're being a dumbass

No. 1013459

>>1013447
That's how they learn, the hard way.

They all claim to be pro life, yet when deformities are detected in the womb, over 90% of women abort.

No. 1013469

>>1012954
Obviously. When I am up during the day I lead a normal life with work, eating healthy, and exercising.

No. 1013485

My male friends giving me advice on how to evade sexual harassment.

No. 1013492

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>>1013485
>Male friends

No. 1013504

Happy 30th birthday, old friend. You fat bitch.

No. 1013557

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just had to factory reset my phone (i very suddenly forgot the pin out of nowhere) and the ease with which i did so shocked me. i don't have anything more personal on there than rare-ish memes and a few food photos that i never even look at anyway, and screenshots of people i obsessively stalked over twitter once-upon-a-time.

so wild to think my social life is that dead that losing years worth of information from my phone means nothing.

like at worst i'll have to spend a half hour on google searching for phone numbers to various medical offices.

No. 1013560

My male coworker is a considerate sweet guy and I wish I could stop overthinking everything he does. We don't talk very often, but he gave me a ride home after work even though he didn't have to and it was like 11 pm, he gave me his car keys and told me to leave my bag in his car when there was a suspicion that someone stole our coworker's phone from the locker and everyone was afraid of the safety of our stuff, I know he said some nice things about me, like my friend told me once she was talking with him about me and some guy who was hitting on me at work, and he supposedly said to her that I'm above this guy's level. And I know these are probably just friendly gestures but I can't stop thinking what if. I recently found out he's taken and it makes me mad because I managed to develop a crush on him and now I know I must stop, but I still can't stop overthinking his behavior. I wish I wasn't an autist, I can't read people at all

No. 1013562

I feel so alone. My best friend has been really distant the past few months and I feel she's been taking advantage of me because I help her out twice a week with something. No one reaches out to me to ask me to hang out. I never get any matches on dating apps. I want to move somewhere new and start completely new.

No. 1013575

>>1013485
Takes one to know one
>having male friends
Loser slut

No. 1013589

>>1013562
Me too, me too

No. 1013592

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I'm filled with so much fucking anger. I was 14. Women in my life told me I was an idiot for going up stairs with him. I was 14 and so stupid and had no idea that men had sex on their mind. I just literally didn't know. I REALLY, REALLY, DID NOT KNOW. I had never been to a party or had a guy show interest in me. No one believes that part, that I just didn't know. But I didn't know. I didn't have any idea. I didn't know what going to a private place with someone implied. I had never kissed a boy and I barely knew what a penis looked like. I didn't understand men were dangerous, I just hadn't been taught, or read the right books, or watched the right show. I was so naive. And now, I will sometimes timidly timidly timidly begin to share the details, and that trusted person that I love so much will say "well what did you expect?"

I expected when you go upstairs with someone who asked if you want to hang out that you're going to hang out. Because that's what happened every other time when I was 6 years old, 9 years old, 12 years old. It's like the whole world played a joke from me. Am I fucking insane? Maybe every other 14 year old was a hundred times as knowledgeable about sexual relationships and coercion, etc and it's inconceivable that I didn't know. I just want to sob into someones shoulder but every time I try they call me retarded. It was so easy to just say that men don't get it but women too, women didn't believe me just as much as men didn't believe me. And when they did believe me they said it was my fault. I don't care if this turns into some cringey copypasta, I'm angry.

No. 1013593

>>1012002

It's not your fault, anon. The dentist took advantage of you. Nobody really expects doctors and dentists to be shady assholes who try to fleece their clients with unnecessary procedures.

No. 1013596

>>1012020

Find another nice one. It will suck but you did it once and can do it again. You can even start calling around now if you want and see someone else until he recovers.

No. 1013599

I always initiate conversations w my friends but i tried not doing it once and all of my social life fell apart. Some of them got mad, some of them accused me of ignoring them not even directly came and started a conversation i heard thru other people kek. And some just walked out of my life. It made me feel worthless for the longest time, and honestly one of the many reasons i became a shut in

No. 1013603

>>1013593
Eh everyone should expect a dentist to up-sell procedures you don't need. That's their business model.

No. 1013604

>>1013592
I believe you. it's tough to talk to others about what men have done to you, whether the 'mundane' bad things or the extreme. people feel the need to write it off. why? maybe they feel if they accept the information they'll have to do something with it or act on it. maybe it's more comfortable for them not to look at the evil that exists. or if something bad happens to someone, that's scary because then it could happen to them, so they need to feel the person did it on purpose or deserved it, because that makes them feel safe from the same evil. the conventional wisdom says 'talk to someone', and yet that person can easily make us feel even worse. I believe in your innocence, and every 14 year old girl's innocence for that matter. and deep down, the people you told probably do too.

No. 1013605

>>1012158
Some days are really fucking hard. Sorry you are going through this. It is a lot for any one person to bear and sounds like you have been holding on for so long. I hope that you can find the right treatment and that you are have support from family/friends.

No. 1013607

>>1013592
Ah the wonder of being a woman, gaslighted and brainwashed that men are just like us and safe, and when one eventually preys on you everyone calls you dumb for not seeing through the gaslighting and brainwashing.

No. 1013608

>>1013592

Oh Nonnie, it was not your fault.

No. 1013610

>>1013592
It was never your fault. Anyone who blames you is full of shit

No. 1013612

>>1013592
I believe you, and I know. Even if you did have doubts (which you didn't) it would still not be your fault. It's not your fault. I'm so sorry.

No. 1013616

>>1012919
Why are you with someone who blackmails you, makes you feel guilty, twists your words, and calls you a liar? I mean, if you need a shitty boyfriend, you could undoubtedly get one who just cheats on you and doesn't emotionally abuse you. I mean you probably get one who cheats on you and treats you really nice because he's cheating on you.

No. 1013618

>>1012960
It is, but it also gets you sent to jail. If it's worth some jail time, beat the crap out of 'em.

No. 1013627

>>1013592
No one's falling for your bullshit. You already sperged in other threads about how women are all victim blamers and how men on 4chan are totally better than therapists. Nice try anyway but fuck off

No. 1013640

I used to have this friend that I suspect was either NPD or something similar. I liked her a lot, and we knew each other since childhood, but she'd always brag about how great her life was going and sort of rub it in my face that I wasn't doing as well as her. Every time we went out somewhere she had to make it a photo-op and post every single detail on her Facebook. It was fucking exhausting. Her entire Facebook was full of bragging and selfies. Every few years she's cut contact with me because I'd accidentally piss her off in some way. Then she began dating some loser recovering drug addict after she and her bf of 5 years split. She straight up admitted to me that she wanted a rebound and someone who would rely on her and give her attention. We tried to hang out during this time but she'd always ghost me or ditch to hang with him. She'd take hours to reply only to reveal she'd be with him instead. So I gave up. She then made up some story to her ex, whom I'm friendly with, about how I was the one who would always cancel, how it was all my fault, and how she was fed up with me. It was the stupidest shit.

She split with the druggie and there were rumors that she emotionally and physically abused him. She denied this of course. I still don't know what the true story is. I ended up messaging her last year saying I was hurt by how things left off, and she denied this too, and deflected the blame onto her ex of all people. Even after I showed her proof of what she had said, she said it never happened. I had a family tragedy that I updated her about and she just did not even acknowledge it. It pisses me off still to think about. I know armchair diagnosing NPD is such a meme now but I can't help but wonder. I hate how I still miss her and the fun times we had. But I really feel like she never actually gave a shit. She doesn't keep friends very long either and she always would say how it was their fault in some way. I know I probably dodged a bullet and need to get over it but I can't help but think about her once in awhile. She meant a lot to me but it sucks I probably didn't to her. Am I too sensitive and overthinking this? Fuck.

No. 1013645

going thru withdrawals from kratom tonight its been 4 years of using that shit nonstop and im realizing that i literally used it to numb myself when i was bored constantly. i gotta get a fucking hobby nonnies. or learn how to read books again. my attention span is total shit rn i feel retarded but also hopeful

No. 1013670

I'm so frustrated right now because I have to frog part of a project I've been working on for a couple hours since I'm pretty sure I fucked something up. I'm already irritated because of shit that's out of my control, this is genuinely making me want to rip my hair out.

No. 1013671

>>1013645
The brain is flexible, and reading rules. It'll take time to fix your attention span, but you can do it nonnie.

No. 1013697

>>1013670
What are you making? I just frogged the toe of a wool slipper I'm knitting and called it a night, reading this was cute

No. 1013701

I have this friend that’s been skinwalking me for years. Every single aspect of my style or interests or art, they copy down to a tee. At first I figured they were just insecure and tried not to get too upset about it but now its to the point where it’s basically ruining our friendship because I am so constantly annoyed and frustrated with them that I can hardly see the good parts of our relationship anymore. It wouldn’t bother me so much if they mentioned they liked something of mine and that they were interested in getting the same thing etc, but they do it all behind my back thinking I won’t notice. It makes me feel like they think I’m too dumb to catch on. It’s gone on for so long that I have no idea how to tell them to stop without completely ruining our friendship and creating an enemy. Its also just really sad to me that they haven’t found the confidence to be their own person after all of these years. I’ve had so many people bring it up to me over the years and I just don’t know what to tell them without feeling like I’m betraying my friend’s trust by essentially exposing them. I’m so tired of people thinking we’re doing this all intentionally together or even mistaking us for one another (yes its that bad).

No. 1013705

I can't stand how boring my husband is.

Everyday–barring his opening shifts–he sleeps in to about 9 or 10am. If he has a mid shift he will go to that shortly after waking up, but if he has off or second shift, then I can expect another 2 hour nap from him in the early afternoon and then early bed usually between 8-10pm.
This leaves little in the way of doing anything fun together, romantic, or him performing chores or other responsibilities. He'll do them but it takes my nag, typically. It would be one thing if he had a demanding job but he doesn't. He doesn't do shit besides come home and plop in front of tv or games before sleeping again. I work too and do so much more shit on less sleep including taking care of and interacting with our puppy dog. Glad we do not have kids because he does not take care of his fertility health. Thank. Fuck.
I'd be completely on my own and fear he wouldn't step up for me. Just imagine him trying to do night wakes when he's grouchy if he doesn't get a solid 12 hours of sleep daily.

I'm so bored, fed up, and becoming resentful. He's so paranoid that I'll stray while doing nothing to retain my interest. It's hard because with men, women must mollycoddle these issues or they get even worse but hide behind depression or something.
>inb4 dump
Can't. Sucks when you're a woman who's gotta financially survive huh?

No. 1013708

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>>1013697
I'm sorry about your slippers nonna, hope you have more luck next time. I'm just making a bag that looks like picrel. I messed something up (not sure what yet) on one of the rows of the mesh/net part. I've been working on this all day, so I just decided to stop and pick up tomorrow.

No. 1013713

>>1013399
get help

No. 1013736

>>1013708
Hey anon, a question
Are these bags actually good for groceries? they scare me, I feel like something will fall, but I'm curious to use them too

No. 1013742

>>1013740
/cgl/?

No. 1013751

>>1013736
Honestly, idk. After I finish making mine this will be my first time using one of these bags. I think it's probably fine, the holes of the mesh part aren't big enough for anything that I can think of (except for maybe like, beef jerky) to slip through, and the bottom is a tighter stitch so it's sturdy and nothing can fall through it. I think mesh bags like that are actually becoming more common. I plan on making a ton of them once I get to test it out.

No. 1013756

>>1013751
Hopefully it works out! I like buying nailpolish from the store so I feel like it could fall out, and I love frozen fruit so it might not be big enough or get wet… so idk if they're for me. But I love how they look.

No. 1013759

>>1013742
damn I'm retarded for forgetting the amount of user crossover lolcow and cgl has

No. 1013763

>>1013759
Nah not retarded, I've been part of those secret santas before too

No. 1013768

>>1013604
>>1013608
>>1013610
>>1013612
These kind words really helped me tonight, thank you.

>>1013627
You've mistaken me with someone else and I haven't even seen those posts. I was just sharing my own personal experience. I also don't even feel that way, I will never tell another man in my life about my trauma, I don't think they're capable of understanding. I just wish more women had stood up for me is all.

No. 1013772


No. 1013774

>>1013705

ofc you resent your husband, he spends half his life unconscious and the other half prioritizing his own needs. he might be depressed but it's not your job to fix a man who does nothing and makes you pick up the slack. start saving so you don't have to spend your life living with resentment and stress until you die ten years earlier from your moid leaching your life force from you. leaving might not be possible for you now, but it could be possible in the future, if you stored a little bit of funds away from work into a private account or something it could help you leave when you really want to. you can either exhaust yourself coaching him and begging him like he's a child to preform basic human decency, or you can put in some effort towards leaving in the future and learn to limit the energy you spend on your husband because he obviously doesn't deserve it.

No. 1013791

I can't sleep, it's 2am. Gonna just be an Ameriboo for a bit and watch late-night TV until my brain calcifies

No. 1013801

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I would like to move in with my boyfriend of 3 years here when I graduate this upcoming fall semester, but I don't know if he would want to. He's in med school and will be doing a residency program in a year and a half, so if he's placed far away I don't know if I'd feel comfortable just up and moving my life to some faraway city. I'm hoping he stays closer to where we live but ultimately it's obviously up to him. I'd like to think he has more respect and love for me than he would consider it, but considering how most moids act I wouldn't doubt he's just riding this out until he moves.

No. 1013805

I fucking hate kids. I was at the pet store today and some little shit dad wasn't watching his kids and his son tormented the hamsters and broke one of their arms, I had to inform the store which didn't even seem to fucking care. I'm going to check the store tomorrow and if the hamster isn't getting help I'm going to steal it. I informed the store

No. 1013813

i can’t stand the internet anymore. sometimes i miss the days where i just went onto gaia online and dicked around on RP threads and AOL chat rooms. i can’t fucking stand instagram and twitter and facebook and ended up just deleting all of my accounts. now i feel like an old fuck when my friends talk to me and they fucking make fun of me for not knowing memes. it doesn’t help when they send me videos and they aren’t even funny. i just fake laugh whenever they make a reference to some stupid fucking tiktok audio now. am i just a giant asshole with no sense of humor? probably

No. 1013823

>>1013813
It's become 100x dumber, and witch hunty too if you want to be edgy. I check lc and some blogs but that's it. It's better this way though, using the internet just for information and trolling.

No. 1013828

>>1013605
You're a good person, thank you anon. I'll try my best to sort it all out.

No. 1013838

I have a gyno appointment this week and I'm so fucking nervous. I have vaginismus and the examinations have always been painful and left me sore for hours after (if they could examine me at all…I had one where the gyno kept telling me to relax with increasing annoyance then sent me away, saying that she can't do anything and the whole thing made me feel awful)

No. 1013841

Some anon on here said I shouldn’t leak my rapist’s nudes. Should I try to get her fired instead? I keep having dreams of where I violently do violent stuff to her ugly animal ass.

No. 1013867

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Missing kitten nona, did she come back?

>>1013838
>I had one where the gyno kept telling me to relax with increasing annoyance then sent me away
I hate gynos so much, why do they always do that shit? I saw 2 different ones before finding one that wasn't a stressful pissy little bitch. And guess what, it's a scrote, but at least he's not sperging out about me being stressed and tries instead of barking at me to relax kek.

No. 1013873

>>1013841
Getting her fired sounds great, anon, wish u luck

No. 1013900

I think the internet turns people more sociopathic and narcissistic

No. 1013956

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I'm turning 29 in 5 months and I'm so scared. Not because of anything specific but because everyone around me is settling into their lives, coupling up, some are already having corona babies, and I'm still in grad school and single. The worst part is, I like it. This is the most freedom I've ever had. I'm just sad that I'll have so little time to enjoy being young and free with decent money and savings.

I had to get married very young because I was poor as fuck, and my spouse was a manchild who suffocated me for years. He wasn't abusive, just very whiny and melodramatic. We didn't do anything nice together because he never wanted to, I regretted going on every holiday trip with him because he whined and whined about wanting to go home and play on his Playstation 4 and how boring travelling with me was. When it came to me and my interests, we never had enough money, but for video games everything was allowed. I dumped him and he made my life a living hell for months. Then I got into another relationship with a guy who was 8 years older and treated me like a dumb child while at the same time pressuring me to pop out a few kids for him and hurrying me along. I never dated in my teens because I wasn't interested in it, and these idiots stole most of my twenties that I could've used having fun and going on dates but instead spent sitting at home.

I'm just sad that my "good years" are coming to an end and there's nothing to look forward to. My friends will slowly bow out of friendships in favor of raising kids with some bland, unworthy scrote, I'll get older and people will either pity me or mock me for being single and childless, my parents will die and I'll have nobody in this world who really loves me the same way my parents or friends do. I've learned very early on that men's love is not unconditional, that they want a mommy bangmaid to do things their own mommy did for them and I am from then onwards responsible for someone else's happiness and well-being until the day I die the way nobody will be responsible for mine. I just thought I had more time.

No. 1013963

>>1013956
>I'm just sad that my "good years" are coming to an end
What country do you live in? This is a lie your thirties can be amazing as long as you find your people and you won't even start to look "old" unless you choose to dress that way. Unless you live in a very conservative unprogressive country, in which case at least you are now free from being an eligible child bride and can enjoy starting your best independent spinster life at an incredibly young age

No. 1013967

Another night of lying awake crying not able to sleep. And crying that I’m not able to sleep.

No. 1013970

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>>1013070
>Ahhh Im gonna take this anger out by going to Shayna's thread and calling her ugly and a slut and hopefully she will read it too. Im so glad I became a radfem. I help women so much.

No. 1013972

>>1012176
So true bestie

No. 1013973

I feel like one of those sad moms on tv who always has to rest in a dark room

No. 1013981

Depression isn't real, it is just a reaction to your environment or simply to waking up and realizing how fucked the world is. In order to do well in life you need to become a manipulative narcissist. In order to make people like you, you need to constantly manipulate lie to yourself and others. This world conditions you to being a ruthless and empty narcissist that hurts others while deluding yourself that you are a good person that is helping the world. Nobody helps the world, nobody does shit for the world. People only help themselves at the expense of others. We are all narcissists and those that we think are narcissists are pure hearted and theoretical so they end up acting out the narcissism they need like an act. EVERYONE IS A NARCISSIST INCLUDING ME AND YOU BUT AT LEAST I'M SELF AWARE ENOUGH TO ACCEPT IT AND SPEAK ABOUT IT. THE MAN THAT SITS IN HIS CHAIR DIAGNOSING OTHERS WITH NARCISSISM IS A NARCISSIST. BUT LIKE A REAL NARCISSIST HE DOES NOT HAVE ANY DOUBTS ABOUT HIMSELF HE THINKS HE IS DOING GOOD TO THE WORLD BY BEING "LE PSYCHIATRIST" PSYCHOLOGIST BUT HE IS DOING NOTHING TO THE WORLD. ALL PIECES OF SHIT ARE CONVINCED THEY ARE GOOD AND WORTHY AND VALID BUT THEY ARE NOT. EVERYONE ONLY WANTS THEIR OWN WELL BEING EVEN IF IT COMES AT THE EXPENSE OF THE DEATH AND SUFFERING OF OTHERS LATE STAGE CAPITALISM MAKES IT ABSOLUTELY OBLIGATORY THAT YOU TURN INTO A NARCISSIST. LOOK AT THE AVERAGE YOUTUBER LOOK AT THE AVERAGE PERSON HAVING A JOB, THEY NEED TO BE A NARC TO PUT UP WITH IT LIE TO THEMSELVES AND THE WORLD THAT THEY ARE A GOOD PERSON. I HOPE THE ENTIRE WORLD ROTS IN HELL YOUR HAPPINESS IS AT THE EXPENSE OF OTHERS BECAUSE YOU PARTAKE IN A SICK SYSTEM AND INDIRECTLY BY PARTAKING IN IT YOU CONTRIBUTE TO THE SUFFERING AND OPRESSION OF OTHERS. I HAVE COMPLETELY GIVEN UP ON PHYSICAL POSSESIONS, ON GOING TO WORK, ON ANY SORT OF "LADDER CLIMBING" BECAUSE I KNOW HOW FUCKED UP THE WORLD IS AND HOW THROUGH YOUR JOB YOU ARE HURTING OTHERS AND CONTRIBUTING WITH YOUR WORK FORCE TO A SICK SICK SYSTEM. I WOULD RATHER DIE THAN PARTAKE IN THIS SICK WORLD BEING A NARCISSIST LIKE ALL OF YOU AND LYING TO MYSELF THAT I AM ACTUALLY A GOOD PERSON YOURE NOT A GOOD PERSON YOU ARE WORTHY OF DEATH YOU SHOULD DIE YOU ARE AS SHIT AS EVERYONE ELSE YOU ARE A LIAR MANIPULATIVE DUMB PIECE OF SHIT THAT IS TRYING TO CONVINCE OTHERS OF HOW GOOD THEY ARE WHEN IN REALITY YOU BRING NO REAL VALUE TO THI WORLD BUT MORE SUFFERING. AT LEAST I'M SELF AWARE ENOUGH TO HATE MYSELF AND THE WORLD AND REALIZE I AIN'T SHIT AND PRESENT MYSELF LIKE A CLOWN TO OTHERS. EVERYONE IS A FUCKING NARCISSIST AND THE INTERNET IS MAKING IT WORSE. EVERYONE IS WALKING AROUND WITH A FAKE MASK. YOU COULD HAVE CONTRIBUTED TO THE DOWNFALL OF PEOPLE AND YOUR STUPID NPC THERAPIST WILL TELL YOU THAT "YOU ARE GOOOD AND WORTHY" NO MOST PEOPLE ARE WORTHY OF NOTHING AND ONLY BRING SUFFERING TO THIS WORLD AT THE EXPENSE OF OTHERS. I AM THE ONLY REAL MARXIST LEFT IN THIS WORLD AND I WISH EVERYONE WOULD CAUSE A REVOLUTION STOP WORKING STOP BEING A NARCISSIST STOP PLAYING THE SQUID GAME STOP LYING TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS

No. 1013982

I feel like my sister tells all of my schizo ramblings to her boyfriend I really dont care about him but its about our relationship as sisters and she has to respect my privacy and my confiding in her. I’m not gonna tell her shit anymore.

No. 1013987

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>>1013981
Exactly the kind of thoughts that make them wanna sedate you with pills. Fuck this earth

No. 1013991

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i’m going to cry because i’m starting college again this week and it’s actually on-campus this time i actually want to kill myself. there really must be no god

No. 1013996

I called a place that was offering lessons and the guy was really rude for no reason, then interrupted me half way to ask, “Are you a boy or a girl? It’s not clear.” Apparently my voice is non-binary. It’s kind of not making me want to sign up because when I was a kid I had this really old music teacher who regularly screamed at me whenever I played wrong and just terrorised me and made me hate anything music-related and now my brain is like “you’ll find her twin there!”

No. 1013999

>>1013981
sorry not everyone can live off mommy and daddy

No. 1014001

Feeling like a husk of my former self. My room has so much that reminds me of my past-self. The huge book racks, I actually loved reading. All my art supplies because I drew a lot. Now I do absolutely nothing. All the craft supplies stashed in here… I wish I could fix myself somehow.

No. 1014003

>>1013996
It's a stupid question to ask. Sounds like that place is run by dipshits

No. 1014006

>>1013996
Well, that's rude. I still hope you can get some lessons somewhere nice. Any other places near you?

No. 1014012

>>1013996
I had a nightmare experience with piano lessons a few years ago and haven't tried it since… I hope you don't get put off music, nonnie. there have to be competent instructors somewhere for us

No. 1014021

>>1013981
There are literally pictures of brain suffering from depression and how it's different from a healthy one. Yeah the world being shitty can cause gradual changes to your body (brain) but the fact that depression is a mental illness doesn't make the brain changes not real. All emotions are basically chemicals and so on and if the shitty ones accumulate and cause other shitty hormones and chemicals to spike, it causes pernamnent damage in the long run. There's nothing metaphysical about us, we're just flesh and chemistry and so are our feelings. Eating a lot of yoghurt is literally one of the ways to help depression because your gut bacteria change the way you think with stuff they produce. Hate when people can't understand that brain isn't a magical pool of thoughts but just an organ that gets defective and even a physical damage to your head can change your personality and ideals.

No. 1014022

>>1013705
just check out and treat him like a roommate since he's basically treating you like one

No. 1014026

>>1014003
Yeah. Weird question since it wasn’t related to whatever I was asking about too.

>>1014006
There are a couple but they’re either too expensive or I’ve called and the people who answered were rude or really condescending as well. There was one that was like 40 minutes away but it seemed cool, and but I did a little online digging because I’m kind of paranoid, and I found out that the guy who runs the place sexually harassed female students and when there would be a show and they wouldn’t go along with his advances he’d get someone to play in their place. Really sucked because it seemed to be a great place with people from all over.

>>1014012
Oh man, I’ve hated instructors for years because of this. Was your experience with piano that shitty? I hope you find a good instructor sometime soon. No one tells you how a good environment is important to this kind of stuff.

No. 1014035

>>1010495
Why do I always have to take a shit as soon as the power goes out? This is what I hate about well water fuck

No. 1014039

>>1014021
This. Denying depression is moid tier tbh

No. 1014062

>>1014021
No, eating yogurt is not gonna cure the illness that has been put on you by abuse and not fitting into this world. Yes, depression is real but it should not be seen as an illness. Being depressed is nothing but the reaction you have to your environment. From being misplaced in the world or abused your brain srructure will change forever! Normies and even mental professionals put the blame on those that suffer "you dont have the right thoughts" "you are mentally ill" but that is not at all true. Mentally ill individuals are not ill they are just suffering the objective manifestations of their environment. Mental health literally blames humans that have depression and it tells them they do not have the right thoughts.

No. 1014069

22 and I want to die. All I've ever accomplished in life is wasting time and money

No. 1014071

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>>1014021
is this why i've been feeling better mentally after i started eating yogurt for breakfast

No. 1014075

>>1014071
nonnie it works. drink water within 30 mins of waking up. eat within one hour, like eggs and some berries

No. 1014076

>>1013981
okay so kill yourself

No. 1014077

>>1014075
that's so cool! i remember feeling really good about myself when i would wake up, go on a 20-30 minute walk, then come home, fry some eggs and go about my day. now i usually eat eggs in the evening because they help with the cravings between dinner and bedtime…

No. 1014079

>>1014069
everything will be alright

No. 1014081

>>1014062
shut up. yogurt is all you need. stop crying you weak dairy-less cretin

No. 1014082

A while ago a friend asked for some advice, I gave her some but she didn't take it. Now she's whining because she didn't take my advice. I'm so done with her.

No. 1014084

>>1014082
I have a friend who is the same way. It's learned helplessness. I can't tell you the amount of times I've heard "you were right" from her. I think these types just want to be coddled and hear what they want to hear

No. 1014101

>>1014082
People only learn through firsthand experiences
>>1013805
Oh my god, this is horrible. Cumpets shouldn't be allowed near animals

No. 1014103

>>1014101
>Cumpets
kys

No. 1014106

>>1014101
Cumpet sounds like something a pedo pandering twitter tard, who might or might not be a tranny, would call themselves. So yeah kys

No. 1014108

>>1014101
this is why we abort male fetuses

No. 1014109

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>>1014106
Nah it’s just a crumpet, but with cum on it.

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>>1014076
after you m'lady

No. 1014112

>>1013120
>brain damage from glue sniffing
I’m not at all surprised.

No. 1014114

>>1014062
The concept of mental illness isn't predicated on mind body dualism. You can absolutely be mentally ill because of physiological causes.
You can also make your mental illness worse or better by thinking thoughts. That doesn't mean you will be cured if you stop being a sped in your head, but it's one of the many things that affect your brain.
If you spend all day brooding over how to best blot out this abominable world and the souls that inhabit it, you're going to feel bad and reinforce negative thought patterns.

Also, you could try yakult, I've been feeling happier since I started to drink it.

No. 1014117

I clicked on the post thinking someone had successfully managed animal abuse with a crumpet.

No. 1014120

I'm tired of the fact that every time I have a health problem (which isn't often) I have to be my own doctor.
>had stomach issues
dr said it's nothing. I had to just deal with it for years until I started taking a probiotic which solved my stomach issues overnight.
>started developing a weird bite
dentist said this can only be fixed with braces. I looked up mewing and literally my jaw went back to normal in a few weeks.
>have persistent sore throat
went to the dr yesterday and he said it's nothing. I haven't solved this one yet but I've been using zinc spray, lozenges, drinking tea with honey, making sure I sleep with my mouth closed and nothing.

What's also annoying is that he just looks at my throat with the tube thing and says "well nothing there so you have nothing bye".
And for the 5 minute visit you pay a bunch of money. I don't care if insurance covers it, I would like a dr for once who will say "well… maybe it's this other thing" rather than being a one trick monkey.

Why do I have to be my own doctor all the time.

Now I only have respect for surgeons because yeah, I can't do my own surgery. And nurses.

No. 1014121

>>1014109
spoler that shit, absolutely disgusting

No. 1014122

>>1014079
No it won't. Everytime I think about my life I get a painful stifling feeling in my chest and I start to hyperventilate and cry uncontrollably

No. 1014123

>>1014116
it's simple
>people are bitter because everyone around them is pushing them to have kids and bullying them into 'starting a family', especially in conservatard areas
>those people form a community on the internet where they can vent and discuss these issues
>the community now becomes an echochamber because they constantly hype one another up, extreme opinions form
>members of said community now become bold enough to go outide and say their true opinions out loud because they know there's many like-minded individuals on the internet supporting them
>when outsiders see them in the wild or come across their echochamber, they think it's full of lunatics
tale as old as time

No. 1014125

>>1014122
Anon, Don't listen to them. Your suffering is justified. It probably won't get better. They are lying to you. Don't listen to their lies. People that have been highly mistreated or put in the wrong environment are always lied "it will get better". No, for people that have been born in the wrong environment it won't get better.

No. 1014129

>>1014120
Most drs are power trippers who want $ above everything and will fuck you over. Hell even when they give you live saving antibiotics they don't tell you to take a pre and probiotic so your gut isn't fucked up forever. I trust them as much as I trust a homeless scrote.

No. 1014133

>>1014125
Don't be an ass, she can get better if she wants it enough.

No. 1014135

Some of you idiots villanize doctors too much. Of course there are gonna be shitty people in every profession, especially in medicine and other professions directly involving interaction with people with varying degrees of vulnarability but have some tact. I'm not gonna turn into a cold-blooded psychopath just because I'm becoming a doc. Uggos.

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>>1014135
>turn into
Too late

No. 1014138

>>1014133
yes she can but I think telling her that is invalidating her suffering. Her life is very fucked. Dont tell her lies

No. 1014139

>>1014135
>"Oh no, patients, stop bullying the poor doctorinos. Who cares if you might get your life/body fucked up by some incompetent or sadistic piece of shit who claims to be there to help you? Of course that happens, but please be kind! You're ugly btw!"
People are figuring out that this is actually about money, not healing people, and it always has been, so this rhetoric won't stop for a while lol. The only option is to be one of the few good ones instead of trying to defend shit

No. 1014141

>>1013701
Your friend is a creep and a wierdo. Not sure why it took you years to see that, but secret skinwalking is always "run away" territory.

Do the slow fade on your friend.
Stop telling me then anything about your life or interests.
Since everybody knows that they are skinwalking you it's not 'exposing' them to be like "I know! And drives me nuts!" when someone brings it up. Not sure why you would think.
Anyway, I would tell everyone I hate it because no way would I want people to think I was complicit in my friends creepiness.

No. 1014146

>>1013967
Oh, man, insomnia is a bitch anon. Can you take some benadryl or something a couple of nights awake so you can get some sleep.

No. 1014148

>>1013982
Sorry your sister betrays your trust. That's such fucked up thing for her to do.

No. 1014154

>>1014001
I'm sorry your going through that. I hope you can find a way back. Sounds like depression? Maybe picking up some self help books on depression or anxiety or even watching some youtube vids could help?

No. 1014157

My worst trait is procrastination. It may cost be some really big opportunities because I'm just such a procrastinator. I haven't washed my underwear in ages and I've ran out of them and I cannot be assed to wash them still.

No. 1014158

>>1014062
Never said that eating yoghurt is a definite cure of course lmao. Just said that it's one of a lot of methods that are researched to help depression because your body is your mind. Because your mind is an organ, brain. Maybe there be an evidence of something more abstract in far future but right now it looks like we're just flesh.
And I don't get your reply to me, I literally said that the brain changes can be permanent. But it is about your brain being ill - being structurally changed and not working as it should (as in for your own benefit, not having you be depressed and suicidal) because of some kind of a stressor (small, big, physical, psychological…). If it's severe or too long it causes damage. Certain structures go to shit, hormones get unregulated and you have a bad time.
Stressed people can get diabetes or hypertension which is also alteration of one's body, one can also cause neurological symptoms like moodiness or anger yet no one thinks it's that abstract.
I wasn't blaming people who are depressed in any way?
'mental illnesses' are still body functioning wrong, there are scans and pictures that depict the actual physical aspect of it, and yet when you add 'mental' people suddenly get all esoteric and argue it isn't real.

No. 1014161

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>>1013756
Idk if you can find any in your area anon but i have some small mesh bags that you use as reusable fruit/vegs bags that I leave in my usual shopping bags. They'd be good for storing nail polish and won't slip out of the larger holes of the bag.
You can find them pretty cheap online

No. 1014170

>>1014158
Please show actual clinical studies with definitive proof instead of sperging about scans and hormones, you don't know what you're talking about. Which 'structures' go to shit? Which hormones get unregulated? What type of damage do brain scans of 'depressed' brains show?

No. 1014171

There's a tranny tied to my friend group and I've tried my best to ghost but I just can't shake him. He just sent me a message linking to his stream. Wish he would fuck off and leave me alone already. He's autistic and cracks jokes at the most inappropriate times and only knows how to talk about himself and his transition.

No. 1014172

>>1014120
Isn't mewing an incel thing? Does it actually have any benefit in jaw correction?

No. 1014176

>>1014135
Idk nonnie, I'd say it's more GPs than anything. It's hard to have a good medical system in place when the entire system is driven from profit. capitalists pls no bully
I've had so many bad experiences with doctors (mostly male, shocker) but there are good ones out there, just hard to track down and few and far between.

No. 1014180

>tfw you realize a lot of brown radfems are extremely racist towards black people

like wtf? does anyone know why this is? any brown anons

No. 1014183

Housework can be annoying but I do feel a lot better after it's done.

No. 1014184

i feel like fucking shit im gonna wash my hair and go to a park and try to read part of a book today its cold outside it WILL be nice i WILL have a nice day and i will NOT think about ending it all. today at least.

No. 1014185

>>1014170
Nona I'm trying to explain it to the other anon in an understandable way and I'm not a native English speaker. I don't think vent thread is the place for science arguing, I just don't get why people deny depression is real.
Hormones that are related to depression are serotonin, dopamine, norepinephrine, cortisol but there's so many others (prolactin, estrogen, aldosterone…). Read up on them if you're interested.
Brain structures changed - hippocampus (memory related), amygdala (fear regulation), prefrontal cortex (complicated thinking, personality). There are other structural changes, do you want me to list them all?
Source are notes from my neuro classes, seriously this is what you get from any neuro textbook.

No. 1014187

>>1014148
I’m not sure if she does honestly but i suspect it. Because sometimes i’ll go back on a topic i told her about before and shes like “yeah my bf thinks you should do this or have this mindset” And its super embarrassing that she told him but i feel like a weirdo if i tell her not to tell him shit. Sis if i wanted his insight i’d ask him. I don’t care what he thinks. I want my big sister’s insight, not his. Its mostly tame stuff but sometimes i get paranoid that shes telling him about the “will ruin your social life if people knew” intrusive thoughts i vent to her only

No. 1014188

>>1014180
because they might be right wingers. It does not make sense for a real radfem to be racist. Now a lot of right wingers are appropriating radical feminism. There are a lot of black right wingers that are self hating and racist

No. 1014190

>>1014139
I don't believe that. In fact, I fully support patients informing other patients and doing something, if they are able, about bad doctors. I have had my share of them and it really fucks you up. I wish this profession was at least spared from greed and moneyhungry-ness but it may be the one most entrenched in it which is awful. Maybe more awareness would change it but that's too optimistic, you know as well as me. I'm just saying the profession itself isn't awful and generalization is stupid.
>>1014183
You said it.

No. 1014194

>>1014138
>her life is fucked
That really hurts but it's true

>>1014133
It's so hard. Everytime I try to change the awareness of how worthless my life has been becomes too much to bear I end up trying to numb the pain instead. And this goes on over and over and over again. Im so ashamed of who I've become

No. 1014199

>>1014187
people in a relationship tend to tell each other everything. my friend tells her husband every single little thing, and he's a gossiper, which can get a bit annoying. i don't find it necessary to tell my boyfriend everything my sister says unless he explicitly asks.

No. 1014203

>>1014194
Do you think you could perhaps change your life? Do you have the resources to change your life? Because I can tell you that with money you can absolutely change your life. If you have money you can do anything to change your life. What would you like to do? Have you ever had dreams as a child?
I believe everyone has an inclination towards a field.

No. 1014204

Any anons who have been assigned as the black sheep/punchbag of the family? It depresses me so much, everything is my fault as I'm the official scapegoat if something bad happens, they will always blame me no matter how illogical the accusation is. What's the point of minding my business if everyone is going to treat me like shit anyways?

No. 1014206

>>1014138
nta I think there is a middle ground between 'you will get better no problem uwu' and 'you are fucked forever no matter what'

No. 1014209

>>1014135
Even if they don't become psychos the shit they were taught in school is incomplete/wrong and fucks ppl over. And don't start dog piling with the "akshully we have all the answers already to the universe", we all know it's not true.

No. 1014210

>>1014204
That was me, I feel you anon. I just moved far away lol. Idk how old you are but start saving however you can and get out if possible, you will never be able to properly work on yourself if the closest people to you keep bringing you down.

No. 1014211

>>1014204
Go grey rock method on them. Fuck a "family" like that

No. 1014219

>>1014172
It does to some degree, by strengthening certain muscles to support your bones better. Works for mild cases of dental crowding/malocclusion. But if you aren't in puberty then it won't give you a Chad/Stacy face. I hope kids nowadays can use it to avoid going to the dentist for braces, man I wish it was a known thing growing up.

No. 1014221

>>1014204
Meeee, and they wonder why I've cut them out of my life. Once you get out, never look back. You owe them nothing. You hold no obligation to them, you didn't ask to be born. I'm excited for the day you get to live your life for yourself.

No. 1014222

>>1014183
I love housework but not if someone else is living in the place. I can cook to my taste and cleaning is meditative.

No. 1014225

>>1014120
I had this too and drinking close to two liters of water each day fixed it. Try it

No. 1014226

>>1014180
>It does not make sense for a real radfem to be racist
Radfeminism automatically ignores race in favour of sex, which makes sense considering it was created and shilled to upper class white women
>Now a lot of right wingers are appropriating radical feminism
Kek i wonder why

No. 1014229

everyone in this thread needs to take a cold shower right now in solidarity if you don’t you’re not a feminis do it Now

No. 1014233

>>1014204
Lots of women become the "sacrifice" to their dysfunctional shitty families. Moving away is obvious but if you can't then I've found pretending to be dead inside works to deter them as they don't have anything to feed on. Walking out of the room, "thats your opinion", etc are good methods. Try to stay under the radar until you can get out, and if you can "borrow" money off them then all the better.

No. 1014239

>>1014229
I JUST got out of an ice cold shower to read this. I feel like a part of a larger society now

No. 1014243

I really hate that when people talk about "normalizing sex work" and "supporting sex-workers" they really just mean the glamorized version of sex work on social media, which is Camgirls/Onlyfans girls who are all mysteriously in the top 0.1%. They never want to talk about the actual majority of women who have to sell their bodies. I really don't have an issue with women who do Onlyfans or whatever, but I hate what they've done by convincing so many young girls to do the things they do, and telling people that "sex work" is completely safe and empowering, and that most women who do it are doing it because they want to.

No. 1014250

>>1014233
Nta but This is such good advice anon i kinda knew i have to do this but im super hyper due to anxiety and trying to perfect it it makes mw miserable and sad that my family is trash but ill try

No. 1014251

I have never been honest about my sexual history with anyone ever and im glad i can talk about it here finally

No. 1014253

>>1014203
I don't have much money nor do I have dreams or anything I want to do. I feel aimless and empty. I've been in school studying for something I don't even want to do. I grew up having to take care of my siblings because of my mostly absent parents so I missed out on that crucial developmental stage of childhood and I think it really screwed me up.

No. 1014269

My grandma is currently bed bound and wearing diapers, it's so bleak. I hope she gets better, obviously, but I also hope this will be a bit of a wake up call to my mom so she let me help her lose some weight. I just want them to be healthy…

No. 1014271

I'm so annoyed. I feel like I've been working a full time job for my entire life since I was a kid. It's like I've always been putting in labour without ever getting paid. I've been cleaning the house, the entire house for the past 10 years because my father is incredibly dirty and it just feels like a full time job, everything is filthy constantly and I need to clean it like a maid and I've always been told by my aunt that I am LAZY. When I've been a professional chef and cleaner since 9 years old. My dad always complains about his job but he has months in which he is like a NEET and stays at home and since I was a kid he doesn't do ANYTHING. Just recently I've finally convinced him to do stuff but I feel like I'm taking after him and becoming messy. Im just tired of being the fucking house maid and my parents both mum (when she was alive) and dad have been taking out their anger and work problems on me and have socialized me into feeling like life is hell and hard and im condemned to suffering. When I was 8 I had to move in with my dad's side of the family they humanized me because they are middle class so I did not live in poverty anymore but they also broke me. My dad has never cleaned and has always taken his issues out of me and had to act like his therapist. My dad would work abroad so he'd leave me with his dad and mum (my grandparents) and my grandpa was an alcoholic and he would beat the shit out of me for disobeying him. I was not allowed to ever wear clothes that I wanted they would beat the shit out of me. When I was 13 I started listening to visual kei and I dyed my hair and my grandfather (dad's dad) beat me and tried shaving off my head but grandma stopped me. He would also call me a whore non stop for wanting to wear alt clothing but it wasnt nothing extreme. Like I was not allowed to wear ripped jeans and such or have piercings. Im not allowed to have piercings now either bcuz I live in a small town and everyone stares at me if I stand out. I think the only escape I have is financial freedom. I really dont wanna clean the kitchen again. All the pll I grew up with come from normal environments that are doing good in life or having careers, the ones from bad environments are doing sketchy shit. Sometimes I wish I could be a camgirl again. I dont know how to work a normal job and it is severly underpaid where I live. But even when I was a camgirl another girl started skinwalking me and she basically made more money off copying my personality which made me sad. I have nothing in my life and it ain't my fault and my entire childhood I lived like an adult. I literally just want money. I dont want to be my dad's housemaid in this remote town where I am isolated. I think financial freedom is the only way I can be happy and my brain is too fried to work a normal job or climb the ladder in a classic environment. I just cannot fucking stand cleaning this house it is horrible I fucking hate these retards. Idk why mom and dad gave birth to me they broke me and they are responsible for my childhood being hell and if anything ever happens it is their fault.

No. 1014296

Someone fucking muted me on the meeting I'm in and its making me want to cry.

No. 1014304

I'm sad I will never know what it's like growing up in a normal family with mentally healthy parents. I wonder if I will be coursed to mourn over it all my life.

No. 1014309

>>1014271
Is that modified pasta of romani anon

No. 1014313

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one of my friends shaved off her hair a year ago, which was cool obviously, but then she began dressing in that ugly kweerio way (patterned shirts, mullet, septum piercing, dyed hair) and now she has they/them pronouns on her ig account and her reading list for 2022 includes all these enby transmasc boi books like giovanni's room. i worry the next time i check in with her, she's scheduling her appointment to get her tits lopped off and is gonna post topless pics like any other perverted scrote whipping out his dick at the playground.

No. 1014314

I'm so tired of my male "friend". It has become increasingly clear to me that, because of my supposed "bpd-like traits" or maybe because I tend to be a good listener, I end up attracting the most narcissistic and fucked up men. Anyway, the one friend and I got very close in a very short amount of time. I mean almost inseparable. Then I started paying attention to how he talks about women and how spineless he is and how he obviously makes fun of other people because he's scared of it happening to him. And now that I'm aware of it all, I get incredibly drained when I'm around him. Like he's sucking the lifeforce out of me. There was a mutual friend I was trying to get with to see if I actually liked guys or not (it did not work out, thank god) and a few months after that he tells me that it made him upset that I went to someone else and not HIM. Which is fucking weird to say to a friend imho. I think I really fucked up with this guy because I really believed that he was my BEST friend and I told him I loved him and that we were like conjoined twins and now I've realized how fucking uncomfortable and narcissistic he is and I feel like I've trapped myself in this friendship. I wish I could take all that back but I feel like I've made my bed and now I have to lie in it. I wish I wasn't such a weirdo that gets super attached to the first person to show me friendship jesus fucking christ.

No. 1014316

I had to go to my room to cool off because I could legit kill my brother.

I was in a job training session that requires me to have my cam and mic on. He comes home, sees what's going on, proceeds to eat on the table right behind me and watch the office on full blast. Told him to turn it down - "no". I had to mute myself. After the meeting I went to the gym, came home and the cunt THEN decided to go cook something. I haven't eaten in 8+ hours and just had a 1h leg day session. He didn't do the dishes after cooking. I want him gone. I hate him so fucking much, he's 32 but acts like he's 15 holy fucking shit, I could a-log about him for hours

No. 1014318

>>1014309
That's literally romani anon

No. 1014371

>>1014316
I wish laxatives in his food

No. 1014375

>>1014269
damn anon i'm very sorry, i was in your place last year too and it was one of the hardest moments i went trough, I hope your grandma gets better

No. 1014386

>>1014313
This is so sad

No. 1014392

A girl friend of mine trooned out a while ago, she became fairly annoying about her transition, but I wanted to be a good friend, so I mostly kept distance about the gender stuff but tried to be nice to her and make her happy. Yesterday, she got exposed for grooming a 12 year old girl, not only forcing her to troon out too, but trying to get into a sexual relationship with her. After we all found out, my now ex-friend disappeared, all her accounts are down and her phone number is changed, she didn't feel sorry for what she did, for a while she even kept bringing up her muh lesbian-nb oppression and how I would never understand her. Great way to start the new year, I will never have the same empathy again.

My only wish for the new year is for the kid to recover, I wish I could do more for her, but her first step for getting better was to get away from the Internet, which I understand.

No. 1014401

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I fucking hate friends that act like you were so toxic after your friendship ended.
I joined a friend group on my last year of HS and we kinda lost touch because of college, covid and stuff. She spammed the groupchat with unicorn stickers to cheer people up (she litteraly described herself as an empath). She and I were the most invested in trying to organise hang out, it was tiring and a few months ago i got feed up and stopped. It fucking infuriates me that she's more angry at me because i stayed active and tried to stay in touch than people you never did anything, i have more of a blame apparently. I organised the first party she ever attended to on halloween (because she though we were stupid for smoking and driking so she was never out past 6) and i got in an argument with her. Yes, i was angry and reproach her things she didn't do but i told her i was in a really bad mood hours prior and i apologized immediately, later the same night and the morning after. I messed up ONCE and now she can't forgive me and tells me i'm a hypocrite and that the group split up because we were talk behind each other back which literally none of us did. We just stop talking to each other because shit happens but in her fantasy world, there must be a bad guy, but THERE ISN'T. A month after she said she needed time to reflect i send her a friendly text and she answers me to let me now she has new friends that are so much better than us and i was immature for drinking (?). She later said the none of us contacted her and the few who did (me) were doing out of pride ? She said she go past us but created a chat room just hours ago to once again let us now she hates us..
Her feelings may be valid but they're fucking stupids

TLDR
>immature friend live in a tvshow were there's need to be a bad guy
>told us she hated clubs, alcool and weed (which is totally fine) but got angry when we went to a club w/ her
>plays the victim and makes me the bad guy because i got angry at her ONE FUCKING TIME EMMA ! GROW UP

No. 1014410

>>1014401
>she litteraly described herself as an empath
lmao, every fucking time, at this point I see it as a red flag

No. 1014411

I bought a book off of ebay that I remember it saying it was a hardback but it got here and it was a paperback.. then I looked at the item description and it does say paperback even though I remember double/triple checking that it was a hardback with a dustjacket

99% sure they did a bait and switch on me but I can't prove it

No. 1014414

>>1014375
Thanks, anon. She was okay (to some extent) a few days ago, but her doctors think it was exhaustion from the NYE celebrations. She is really old, so stuff like that throws her balance off. She's lucid, but she's forgetful: she keeps forgetting that we told her many times already that she can't wear panties right now and have to keep the diapers on, but she keeps calling for us asking for her panties. It's so sad. I don't live with her, and I'm hoping that until my departure she gets better again. It would be really bad if when I have to go back to my own home state, she was still bed bound. All I can do aside from the obvious is "praying".

No. 1014430

>>1014211
>>1014233
nta but these methods never worked ime it just made them shit on me even more

No. 1014447

Am I going to be okay? Please, somebody. Even if it’s a lie. Please dear god some body tell me that I’m going to be okay.

No. 1014452

>>1014447
You're going to be okay

No. 1014454

>>1014447
You're going to be more than okay, anon. I love you and trust you, whatever you're going through now will pass.

No. 1014455

>>1014184
update this didnt work and i do in fact want to end it all. does anyone else feel like they're permanently stuck in certain patterns and habits and ways of thinking and even though none of it serves you any more its like impossible to change? even to do things you'd like to do? for instance, growing up isolated i started using imageboards and here i am still but at this point its much more of a problem and less of a creative solution

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>>1014455
Everyone is stuck in some kind of loop. We all have our bad habits and patterns and unhealthy coping mechanisms.

No. 1014462

I’m 32, single, dumped, virgin and not any suiters. Is love not an option for me at this point?

No. 1014463

>>1014447
we got you anon, you'll be just fine. nothing bad lasts forever

I'm pretty bummed out. I just finished my masters dissertation after a 4 month extension (due to mental illness) and I was so excited this morning but none of my friends were free to hang out and I've spent the day third-wheeling my roommate and her boyfriend. I start back at work tomorrow so I feel like I won't get to celebrate properly and I'm upset that nobody else seems to think of it as a big deal.

No. 1014467

>>1014455
if you end it all now you won't live to see the part where you look back on this and think "I'm so glad that didn't last forever and that I got through it"

No. 1014469

>>1014462
It is still possible but it might be harder. You need to actively seek out love, this 'it will find you when you aren't looking' bs is fake news. Only works for extroverted young attractive people in urban environments with large social groups or who work somewhere where they meet a lot of people. Terrible advice for anyone else. We also don't know what your standards are, they could be perfectly reasonable or you're looking for another 32 year old virgin in the same line of work who lives no further than 2 miles away who is also trilingual and vegan yadda yadda and sometimes for some things compromise is a good idea.

No. 1014473

Even if I do manage to change my life the memory of all the wasted time will never stop haunting my thoughts. To looks at everyone I knew and see them so far ahead in what I've just acheived

No. 1014474

CP BELOW don’t scroll

No. 1014475

>>1014462
How have you tried to meet people?

No. 1014476

>>1014474
lets all report it nonas

No. 1014477

>>1014461
ty anon this makes sense its kinda like nothing feels good enough to force me into doing anything different. i straight up barely feel anything right now and i get paranoid that being on tons of psych meds in my early teens destroyed all my brain folds and now the only things that get through the numbness brick wall are drugs and risky/harmful actions. but i just quit drugs so idk what to do now (i really want to do drugs)
>>1014462
i love you anon
>>1014467
yknow what you're right, rn its just like- how many times does that have to happen? i've "gotten through" so much shit just to keep having to do it again with rare and brief patches of joy that is now questionable if its materially worth it. i also realize how circular and stubborn and annoying/illogical this line of thinking is and its especially sad for an almost 24 year old to still be doing, the awareness doesn't fix it however

No. 1014478

>>1014473
I spent that time enjoying myself, even if sometimes all I did was nothing. I spent that time becoming a little better and getting closer to knowing what I want. I spent that time growing up. I can't say that I regret it, even if I didn't live up to the arbitrary standards I set for myself. Even if I didn't accomplish every goal I had. The only thing I was really supposed to do was live and I did, and I'm going to keep on living and only get better from here. I'm going to achieve new things and form better habits and treat myself better and the time it takes me to get there isn't wasted.

No. 1014488

>>1014475
I’ve tried dating spa but I haven’t found anyone. One guy I didn’t manage to chat up stopped the conversation a few days ago. I have an irrational fear of ending up alone. I don’t want to be alone. I’m scared. I’m so scared I’m going to scare every person I love away cuz it’s happened so many times. Just one. I want someone to stay just once. To hold me and say it’s okay. I’m sorry. I’ve been drinking my feelings. It’s a bad day.

No. 1014491

How can I get rid of my inferiority complex regarding not going into a good college? I that a lot of the circumstances surrounding it weren’t within my control so it’s completely useless but I can’t stop.

No. 1014495

im expecting a package and the tracking hasnt updated at all nonas can you wish me luck

No. 1014503

>>1014495
Good golly gosh I hope it comes

No. 1014504

>>1014081
>>1014114
>>1014075
What if I can't digest those things and already drink water

No. 1014508

>>1014504
You can try to find some probiotic that doesn't contain lactose. I don't know any, but I never looked.

No. 1014516

I’m probably going only work with a hang over. Idk. Not like I need a job. Fuvk this.

No. 1014523

>>1013557
Cute pic

No. 1014529

>>1013627
I really dislike anons like you. That's obviously not Romanian anon you stupid bitch.

No. 1014533

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i want a boyfriend lurking /g/ fags what do i do tired of being ugly too

No. 1014535

>>1014529
hi steven

No. 1014536

I feel like a child for being sad over it but I really hate that most of my interests have mentally ill fandoms that suck the fun out of the game/anime/etc. I really like it when people talk about the things I like and simply just talking about whatever it is with others, but when the fanbase is shit it's hard to find people into it.
I just want to have fun talking about things, I want to agree on any disagreements because ultimately it's just an anime/game but some people take it too seriously.
I want to listen to people talk about the things they love without getting heated up over silly things or having to put up with retards.

No. 1014537

>>1014535
Don't insult me like that

No. 1014543

My hairdresser blocked me for no reason! Urgh, why? I DM'd her on an alt on why, but still!

No. 1014552

>>1014463
Amazing job, nona. I'm sure you've worked very hard to accomplish what you have.
Third wheeling always feels shitty but don't let it take away from your achievement. At least you can feel proud even if there's little time to celebrate right now.

No. 1014596

Im so broken from everything that has happened in my life and I don't think I will truly feel free or happy. I've always wanted to be an artist/philosopher/writer but that is nearly impossible for someone like me and I am not allowed to truly express myself in those fields. It is impossible to actually write philosophy and have people buy it nowadays. Plus, I would never be able to write something that normies would like. I want to express myself and for someone to truly understand it. I have so many ideas. I just want to be an artist. But it isn't for people like me. I'm jealous of Daniel Johnston. I want someone to listen to my ideas and to understand me. I am truly losing myself.

No. 1014598

It makes me feel bad but I always feel intimidated and kind of annoyed whenever I work with my deaf coworker, I just kind of ignore him like I generally ignore all but a handful of my coworkers but I worry I come off as rude for not trying to interact with him at all, he gets annoyed easily and when he gets mad he signs random stuff at people who don't know ASL which also seems weird lol but idk I know his situation is probably difficult. He's way older than me and a genderspecial so it's not like I have anything to talk to him about.

No. 1014603

I have this intense fear of my future kid trooning out and mutilating because of outside influence. Even I was taught very questionable things in school about gender and sex… I don't like imagining what they'd teach to the next generation.

No. 1014622

>>1014603
then don't have kids

No. 1014627

>>1014135
you're posting on lolcow. you're definitely already a cold-blooded psychopath

No. 1014629

>>1014622
It is genuinely a life goal of mine to have kids so that doesn't seem like a good option either.

No. 1014645

>>1013070
I fucking love this kek

No. 1014674

>>1014478
Thank you nona this made me feel a little less terrible

No. 1014688

>>1014687
just throw some salt and pepper on him and devour him, problem solved.

No. 1014689

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Silly little me decided to look at my bfs social media just to see what silly little funny memes he has been liking and i see some dumb tik tok about a young couple having a baby he shared and him talking about how cute it is and how families are the most extraordinary thing, and now i feel extremely guilty about "trapping" him in a relationship because I can't have kids (congenital heart disease, i put that much strain on my body im kaput by the 6 month) and honestly don't even like them, he says he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me but i feel like him keeping him from his actual dream of having a family just because i have an unusual and interesting personality he's charmed by, on top of all that he seems to prefer normie girls when im a retard that looks like Riamu.

I think he's entranced by the novelty of dating me but the kindest and loving thing that I could do is leave the relationship so he can have what he obviously wants.

Any advice welcome anons, i feel like someone just dunked ice water on me.

No. 1014690

>>1014689
Adoption not an option?

No. 1014693

>>1014690
In typical scrote fashion he wants muh biological kids

No. 1014695

>>1014689
Are you sure he didn't do that on purpose? Sounds like a dick move

No. 1014698

>>1014693
Sorry to hear that. My bf is also muh biological kids. I'm a bit older than him and having kids is not a good idea for me. If I did it wouldn't be until much later when it may be risky. So I understand feeling like you're holding him back. I think you should talk to him about this and see what he says

No. 1014699

>>1014689
Sounds very painful but also a big difference in your life goals. You're trapped with someone who wants children just as much as he's trapped with someone who doesn't. You're trapped in with someone who prefers normies, as well. It would seem that you could also be with someone who better suits you if you look at the big picture. You can't really help not being able to have children, so do not blame yourself. The pain subsides in time, and the less time you waste with people not suitable for you, the sooner you can move on.

No. 1014700

in the last week everyone in my life has decided im not worth the air, od tips? tips about running off alone to a cabin? nc tips? ill take it all. i dont care at this point.

No. 1014705

>>1014695
Yeah im sure, me looking through his stuff is pretty rare and our sm of choice are completely different.
>>1014698
He has a "it is what is" attitude to it because yknow not much anyone can do if there's a high chance I'd just kick the bucket.
>>1014699
It really sucks because aside from this our lifegoals and personalities really align and i genuinely consider him my best friend and partner, I have a hard time making deep connections with people and it feels so awful to have to let go of my most special one because….i lost the genetic lottery?

I'm just scared the moment a normie woman shows he's gonna cheat on me.

No. 1014707

Ugughhhnhnnn I fucking SUCK at sewing miniature doll clothing. I'm trying to make 1970s-esque tiny doll clothes and it's driving me wild. I worked all day for everything to turn out perfectly except a bunched section on tbe crotch and the fact that they're a little loose, which can be fixed I guess. I'm too annoyed to fix them tonight though. I can design anything mathematically in other textile and fabric arts but sewing eludes me. I'm pissed. My piss is rotten

No. 1014708

>>1013492
They don’t kek

No. 1014709

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>>1014700
Cabins are overrated, cold, usually in disrepair pieces of shit. If you're craving isolation I recommend a good and proper Yurt. That way you can up and move by the time the government helicopters spot you, and be gone the next day when their goons come around demanding tributes (taxes aren't real).

No. 1014710

>>1013575
Radfem

No. 1014713

>>1014622
Wow great solution

No. 1014722

>>1014709
thanks nonnie ill start looking at options. hope i can get internet installed at least.

>>1014707
the best thing about dolls is the garments arent being made for real people. you can cut LOTS of corners even if seamstressing wouldnt allow it for wearable clothes. plus nobody will outgrow the stuff. try basting it first if you havent (wide hand sewing before machine) and it should help set some of the bunching.

No. 1014732

>>1014722
Thank you so much for the advice!

No. 1014737

>>1014689
just eat him problem solved

No. 1014744

I was depressed about where I was in life. Between one new shitty living situation after another every year, stuck living with disgusting hoarder family, and being too poor to escape. So I tried to work full time while taking 6 courses in one semester to just finally finish school and graduate asap, was hoping for this spring. That way I could start finding an actual job that pays a living wage and gives benefits so I can finally afford to live on my own. Well turns out being depressed in a volatile living situation makes that course load impossible so I dropped 4 of those courses because I wanted to keep my job. Now I probably won't graduate until Fall. Day to day I just cope with vidya and distractions but today the smell of this house is overwhelmingly bad and I haven't been able to do laundry in two months because of living situation shit and I'm running out of clothes to wear and I don't know when I'll be able to finally clean my clothes. Poverty is hell on Earth. Please don't have kids if you can't afford to give them a good quality of life.

No. 1014747

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>>1014737
Yass sis

No. 1014748

>>1013575
>slut
scrote detected

No. 1014750

>>1014748
it was probably that steven guy seething again kek

No. 1014753

>>1014705
I also used to believe in the special one but I assure you it isn't a thing. If he truly wants biological children, you'll be wasting your time on him and make yourself miserable blaming yourself for something you didn't choose. I also thought I lost the one but I ended up meeting someone even better than I could've ever imagined. Made me realize that there are multiple people out there for us, the right one just makes devoting our time for one worth it.

No. 1014755

my parents are so damn gross. they keep coughing and clearing their throats all damn day. they're not even sick or anything and they don't smoke. it's just so fucking gross and I'm so tired of it.

No. 1014763

Idk if my friend was just trying to make me feel bad but I brought up watching her kids in the future (she really wants to have a lot of kids) and she was like "well hmmm idk if we would trust you enough, M and I wouldn't be comfortable." Which whatever, who cares, you choose you watches your kids but I literally babysit for two foster families on a regular basis, am the oldest of 7 kids and was a nanny for 6 years and was a regular babysitter for 15 years for randos people recommended me to. Maybe I'm just sensitive lol

No. 1014769

Before I was employed I used to stress all the time about getting a job to secure myself financially and now I work for 9 hours 5 days a week in customer service. I thought the stress would go away when I work but now I stress more about my job in my days off. It's exhausting. I'm afraid to lose my job hence I rethink every detail of my work. I rethink everything I say and do it's starting to drain me. How do I even stop thinking about my job all the time. Does anyone have an advice?

No. 1014770

>>1014763
what a bitch rofl… who says that?

No. 1014787

I've felt so irritated lately, very little things annoy me, I try to calm myself but I just don't feel right. I lost my job, so I gave myself some weeks to relax, but I always feel so stressed so I can't enjoy anything. The Internet is stressing me, I keep hearing discussions of stuff I don't care about and sometimes I have basement dwellers telling me that getting a job is easy for a woman despise no one wanting me for that reason. Sometimes I almost lash out to some anon here, but I alway contain myself because I don't like infights. I don't know if it's only how I have been feeling or my environment/friends/the farms are stressing me, but I just feel tired and annoyed with so many things, I just don't feel on my own skin anymore. I just want to cry or punch something.

No. 1014796

I hitmy fuvking elbow on the door frame right on the fuckung nerv im wrirting thids with 1 fucking hAND HELP

No. 1014797

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>>1014796
Have my healing energy

No. 1014798

>>1014797
thank yuo ani n, im feelingf better alewasdy

No. 1014801

I think I'm sick. The cascade of phlegm won't stop dripping and I for one grow tired of harfing it back down. Kinda wary to go to sleep now knowing my nasal drip has worsened. I don't want to think about the time I had pneumonia some years back knowing it almost killed me, but this is the worst respiratory shit I've dealt with in years. Gotta calm down. Don't want to calm down. I've been pacing and walking around tirelessly to keep the edge off and trying to cough it out with my exertions. Now I want to sit down and let it consume me. Blegh. This is awful

No. 1014802

>>1014796
let us know if it leaves a bruise later, I bump into shit regularly and it's amazing how much the corner of a wall can bang the shit out of your skin

No. 1014808

I'm so annoyed with myself. I posted a story on snapchat of me actually talking about something important to me (a story about my coworker fighting with her boyfriends ex about who did more for him as a girlfriend. I talked about how we shouldn't do that because no guy is worth it. it wasnt a rant or anything, it was just me talking) i immediately had to take it down because i got embarrassed of myself. I hate how I get that way so easily. It's so frustrating because I know people say weirder stuff online and own it. I tried so hard to make myself leave it up, just so that I could prove to myself I could do it. But I caved once I saw 10 people see it. Even typing this out I'm embarrassed that I could even think someone would listen to me. Bleak.

No. 1014826

>>1014808
You remind me of my sister, she second-guesses everything she says, online too. We have some stupid inside joke and we posted it on our stories and she got so embarrasse over it she deleted it like 2min in. She overthinks her captions, and like, very meaningless things. She's also extremely insecure, which I think might be the cause.

No. 1014828

>>1014808
I know exactly how you feel anon. You're not embarrassing, and I would bet that the people who saw it are not as judgemental as you are about yourself. If one of my friends posted a story like yours I would watch it all the way through because I like other people's drama and I agree with your opinion.

No. 1014832

Can't believe people around the world are having sophisticated debates over the policies, the legalities and all this over the fact that men want to get their dicks wet without any effort so they'd pay some poor sap for the night to enact their fantasies or watch someone enact their fantasies. Like, that is it. This is what these whole arguments are over. Men are so fucking childish.

No. 1014846

theres a new girl at my work thats been overtly flirting with me but i am like 5 yrs older than her and i dont think she realizes it, rip. im sad because shes actually cute and isnt a themlet lol. still waiting for the right gf to materialize someday i guess…

No. 1014873

>>1014846
How old are you?
I'm mid-late twenties and five year difference is my absolute max… and I still kind of feel like that's pushing it.
A cute nineteen year old liked me more recently but I just feel like a big sister to them. I don't know how people date with huge age gaps and not feel gross.

No. 1014875

>>1014543
KEK what did you do

No. 1014881

>>1014596
Have you thought about making videos? I know it's hard to get discovered in an over saturated market, but I think people really enjoy thoughtful videos, be they on YouTube or even Tiktok. If not that then find another medium that suits you, even if you have to innovate.
Please don't give up if it's what you're meant to do. Good art will always eventually be noticed.

No. 1014887

>>1014596
I want to

No. 1014890

>>1014873
im 25 and her schedule says minor so im guessing she is 17 which means we are actually even farther away in age now that im actually thinking about it. i would never try to pursue someone that much younger than me it would be way too weird kek. but i am lamenting the fact that an older cute girl isnt working at my store and flirting with me instead. i feel like cute girl my age with similar interests just doesnt exist sometimes… like hello.. where are they all…

No. 1014899

>>1014890
I'm sorry nona.
I feel that though, I don't know how to meet bi/ gay women my age with similar interests anymore. It's rough.

No. 1014904

>>1014899
theres another girl the same age that works with us and i know she also likes women maybe i can spark a moment between them kek. that would be cute. im holding out hope for when i transfer to university, maybe ill find some similar minded people in the field i actually want to pursue. truthfully i work with a lot of people that are younger than me since its an entry level job so its a subtle reminder that i need to move on to better things i guess. good luck to you too nona

No. 1014944

>>1014596
Nonnie publish all your philosophy and whatever you want to make anonymously and any normie that comments just ignore them. There will always be someone who listens and appreciates it

No. 1014946

my PTSD symptoms have become so unmanageable at work that i am scared of getting fired.
i finally managed to work up the nerve to speak to my coworkers, though. i've spent 5 years without socializing offline and at least a full calendar year thinking about suicide. i have gallstones and haven't been able to sleep more than a couple of hours or make myself eat properly in a long time. i lost 60 pounds in 2021 from being poor and exhausted.
have a feeling of dread that this will finally be the year my mother ends up dead or in prison.
i've been dissociating severely and constantly to the point where i am experiencing gaps in memory and can't conceptualize of myself as real.
i'm going to bake cookies for the girl at work who is always nice to me.

No. 1014947

I've been so hurt and consistently let down recently, I feel like I've cried more in these past few months than ever before. I can't do anything to even stop how I feel because it's so out of my control. It feels like I'm in constant tension. I'm tired of this.

No. 1014973

Going to work with a hang over and an stomach full of water and ibuprofen. Maybe I’ll throw up and get sent home. That’s be nice. I slept like shit because of the hellish day I had yesterday. I felt I only slept from 7:30 to 10 and then was up all night. Woke up at 3am to my period and maybe slept an hour before my clock went off at 5am. I’m not ready for the coming days. I just lost a close friend and they told me to block their mom who was probably more of mother to me than my own biological mom. I’m gonna miss talking to her. She was a lovely lady and she just wanted a friend too. We just wanted to be lonely together.

No. 1014979

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>client implies I'm retarded for following my manager's instruction which made perfect sense given the situation
>too hungry and tired to function
>2 coworkers have covid and will work at home but only for like 3 days
>job opportunities are kinda shit because of the pandemic, I just wish I could get my own apartment without having a permanent contract because I legit can't get one
>just want to go back home, eat junk food and read yaoi

No. 1014982

>>1014596
You should set up a blog or/and website, there's not reason for you to not express yourself! And I'm sure you'll eventually find people who will be interested in what you have to say and show, please don't be discouraged

No. 1014995

I was in the bathroom and the cleaning lady started asking me if I have a hair brush on me because I “should brush my hair”. Which was funny because it’s already brushed. Then she kept telling me that I should wear my hair in a pony tail and put some lipstick on to be as “pretty as the other girls”. THEN she told me to put some foundation on and I tried being very polite and telling her that NO and then she told me that, “No, you should definitely put some on.” I never bought foundation in my life and I don’t think I have terrible skin. And I thought my semi-messy curly hair wasn’t that bad. I’m not even bothered by all of this, I’m just bothered by the fact I got bleach on my favorite coat (which isn’t even mine).

No. 1014996

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I'm pushing 30 and I still look like pic related. I was hoping I'd be more womanly and pretty by now but I'm stuck looking like a garden gnome child until I get old enough to just be a regular old woman. I can't even cry about it to my parents because my mother thinks I'm the bee's knees and my friends would never tell me I'm ugly-cute at best. No wonder I'm single.

I wanted to get fillers but I'm sure they'd just make me look like a Bogdanoff with my face.

No. 1015001

>>1010495
Nonnies I thought Covid was over but I’m congested, feverish, weak and it’s harder to breathe and I’m so nervous. I don’t want to be sick anymore I want to be social and working. Pray for me nonnas

No. 1015002

>>1015001
I hope you'll get better faster than I did when I got sick.

No. 1015004

>>1015001
It will pass, just sleep and eat soup and don't worry about being stuck at home it will pass and you will be out again, get well soon

No. 1015007

>>1014996
No way you look like this disgusting little twerp. Be kind to yourself

No. 1015009

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>be 20, had issues making friends my entire life
>become friends with a pretty girl at work
>get along well
>i quit my job and start seeing her very little (we dont really text often not even at the height of the friendship
>now that i dont see her everyday i stop "letting" brushing off her weird comments/behavior
>now that i have a friend group i stop "needing" her unhinged advice
>she makes comments about how she hates that i have other female friends cause i dont
>she says that im a bad person cause i have a best friend and its not her, that its unfair and that if i truly loved her i would cut off my best friend from my life
>im lke… ok? not doing that but thanks i guess.
>invite her to my 23th bday last year
>she ghosts me
>i just have my party with my other female friends instead, whatever
>posts some pics of the party
>ex co worker friend goes mad and starts insulting me and calling me a liar and saying i was intentionally doing everything to her.
>she said that i only posted that i had a good time to make her feel bad for not going (when i literally invited her…) and started sperging at my best friend and female friends again but now more unhinged
>its very tiring and stupid so i just stop responding and delete her on social media
>this fight was like six months ago
>she still wont let go and i caught her accidentally liking one my pictures on insta.
>i thought it was funny and i took a screenshot, less than 10 minutes later the like was gone
>it was random old picture, so she was literally snooping through my old photos and accidently liked it
>also on wattsapp (where we had the fight) she would block me and unblock me every other day… but i havent spoken to her in six months… shes literally arguing with herself…
>she told me i was her first "real" friend and i understand why its painful but im also not a therapy and i dont care at this point. she was a very selfish friend and i dont miss her
>eg: i was raped by a dumb scrote i trusted and went to her having a meltdown and she didnt believe me… she would pressure me to things i didnt want to… she gave me spiked shit once cause i take lithium so i dont "do fun stuff" and that shit fucked me up for days and she didnt admit it till like a year later… she knew i was abused as a child but she told me she had sexual fantasies of raping kids. i actually was so distraught by this, that i thought i dream it, not even kidding. but then she brought it up again and i wanted to die. more weird bad shit that maade my psychiatrist say shes gonna end up in jail no joke
i dont miss you!!! all the other times ive said those word i didnt mean it. but with you, i actually leegit do not fucking miss you and would never make amends with you. jjusut go on bumble or some shit!!!!

No. 1015017

>>1014996
I'll be honest with you Nonnie. If you look like female reviewbrah I think you're cute and attractive. You probably look like a female high elf with superior cognitive capacities. I think you are beautiful if you truly do look like Reviewbrah.

>>1014881
Yes, I have thought of making videos and I have actually, but it is potentially dangerous and my environment did not allow me to properly develop my artistical skills or writing skills due to lack of guidance/abuse etc. I am still very creative tho and I love expressing myself and I think I could make "outsider art" although that sort of art has lost its popularity. My problem is that I cannot stay within a niche because I feel like that is limiting my self expression. If you wanna be a YouTuber or content creator you have to stay within a very limited niche to get a following and get recognized. But my life and philosophy is all about wandering and trying different things and molding myself according to the things I like. Also, the internet is dangerous and I do not need more drama or hatred or people misunderstanding me added to my life. My political perspective is also quite odd because I am quite literally critical of all modern manifestations of the political quadran. I think I'm a radfem, but ironically I don't even like the radfem community on the internet, so I wouldn't like making videos about that. I know this might sound dumb but I've seriously considered making asmr/mukbang videos but I'm afraid it will turn very ugly. But I will see, if it doesn't work out I will simply remove myself from it.

No. 1015023

>>1015007
don't be rude about reviewbrah smh

No. 1015024

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god i'm so tired of being sick for the past 3 days
>pain behind eyes (very intense, can't turn my eyes, need to turn whole head)
>fever (38.5 degrees sunday, took medicine and began to sweat like crazy, now body temp is normal)
>coughing (light)
>diarrhea (started today)
>headache (light, goes away when i take medicine)
i really hope that i'll feel better until this friday, when i go back to work

No. 1015025

>>1015023
I am kind to animals but not towards that ratfaced son of a bitch

No. 1015029

>>1015025
>>1015007
I honestly don't understand how could you feel so strongly about reviewbrah kek

No. 1015039

>>1015029
Ntas but is reviewbrah asexual or just really awkwardly autistic? I ask in the nicest way one can ask something like that..

No. 1015042

>>1015039
being asexual many times comes with being autistic

No. 1015045

Bf of several years caught me cheating and flirting with guys online and left me.
I don't even know why I cheated

No. 1015048

>>1014313
I'm sorry, this shit sucks

No. 1015049

>>1015045
seek therapy anon, you can be fixed

No. 1015050


No. 1015051

>>1015045
What sort of things did he read or see?

No. 1015074

>>1014313
This is just me being retarded but I've always wanted to shave my head but I wonder if it will be the beginning of my downfall like this kek

No. 1015078

>>1014477
Not any of those anons, but I hope you'll find peace. I'm not much older than you, 26, but even at 24 I was struggling to not end it all every day. Some people will just struggle for a long time, but I hope you'll really be able to one day just be at peace with yourself. Things are not glamorous in my life, but I can at least just exist without intrusive thoughts and be happy just enjoying things like snuggling under the covers on a cold night or enjoying a nice walk outside. I think it's a life long journey, learning how to enjoy living and wanting to continue to live.

Even if I am at peace with myself now, there are days where I think "I have to keep this up for at least another 50 years before I kick the bucket? Oh god." and it is frightening to realize how long of a life I have ahead of me, but I can only hope I'll find new things to continue making life worth while and staving off the idea that I should just end this shit early. I hope you will find that your time on Earth is worthwhile.

No. 1015094

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Does anyone else feel like they don't really belong anywhere? I've honestly felt this way since I was a kid - I've always seen myself as being a kind of lonely child, and I feel like it's just grown more and more as I've gotten older. It's not exactly that I can't find anyone to relate to (though I don't like relating too much to people, but that's a different topic) but it's like I don't quite fit anywhere. I think I just have a knack for finding too many faults in everything tbh, and feeling cut off and too different as a result, I really don't know. It's like I want to separated from things and/or people and not be too engaged in them for some reason. And I've never felt at home with my generation particularly, sometimes I genuinely feel like I should've been born at least 10 years earlier. I've never really liked people my age, especially nowadays, I feel completely disconnected to them in so many ways. I can't help but think this feeling is gonna stick with me forever, and I'll always feel out of place and like the world doesn't really need me or something. I hate to sound all cynical and gloomy and edgy, I honestly hate when I'm so wrapped up and indulgent in my emotions like this. I guess I just never realised how deep and huge this feeling inside me had gotten

No. 1015112

>>1014875
Nothing! Our last DMs were me booking an appointment and I went to the appointment! I even recommended a friend who ended up going TWICE, second time with her kids. Wtf.

No. 1015118

I hate hypochondria. I had an endoscopy a few months ago and although they found some abnormal cells, they came back negative for h. Pylori, cancer, etc. But I fret so much about esophageal cancer. I always am "checking" if I can swallow okay, and I panic if something sticks to my throat because I feel like that's evidence that I have this cancer. I've always had acid reflux since I was a little kid and I have this habit of little burps forming in the back of my throat (not from my stomach). I woke up with a sore throat today, probably dehydration related, and it pains me.

No. 1015123

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>>1015094
100%, let me join you on the floor

No. 1015164

>>1015112
Anon she could have made a mistake, or she’s being harrassed and tried to over correct, cutting you off. Why don’t you just dm her, or swing by with a coffee?

No. 1015165

>>1014995
What the fuck that's so rude. What country??

No. 1015202

I love you, but you act like a little bitch over the tiniest of shit sometimes. Sorry, I had to throw away perfectly good food because of the "fridge taste" I didn't want to make shit that night, but you begged me and begged me for weeks and we end up throwing it away after I spent 30 minutes doing prep, dirtied dishes, but you just took a few bites and gagged.

Oh now your clothes smell horrible, oh the house smells. Jesus Christ, I have no energy, I feel like I'm moving at a snail pace. I wish I could be Ms. Do-It-All, but can you at least help a bit? Don't mix dirty clothes with clean clothes, don't puke on the toilet and then leave it for me to clean up, don't buy a new self-cleaning litter box that you never told me how to use then let the coils get tangled with shit and random papers, then say it's too smelly… You want to change the world, but you can't even change cat litter without whining and you look at me funny when I roll my eyes when you tell me your ideas and plans…

No. 1015207

>>1015094
Hey anon, I've been there. I was a weird loner kid who never really felt like I belonged. All throughout school it's not like I didn't have friends at all but I went from group to group trying to find my rightful place. I did eventually find a place where I belong just last year, although it's online. You can too! This feeling is definitely partially self-inflicted so try to look inward and ask yourself why you feel this way and if it's something you can try to overcome. Good luck anon! May you find a sense of belonging in this confusing world, and remember you're right where you're supposed to be.

No. 1015212

I miss being able to people watch while I did artwork. I used to sit at the library in a really, really, REALLY bad neighbourhood and sit near a window on the second story overlooking both the first floor of the library and the entire length of the street outside (including a very rowdy homeless shelter). It's a nice drive to it on a one-way street in and out. I also had this desire to people watch and complete my art in a public swimming pool. I think the smell will cause me to be in a different mood, and the sounds will almost be foreign. I feel so.. not bored. I'm still doing art. But I desperately miss being able to see massive amounts of people while talking to none. I just miss it all. I feel lonely as fuck, even though these sorts of scenarios weren't exactly for social reasons. I miss seeing people that I recognize from previous visits. I miss the daily groups that the library hosted. There is no contrast to the silence I experience at home anymore and it hurts my whiny heart

No. 1015214

>>1015118
Bitch same, fuck acid reflux. I be worrying about the most irrational scenarios, i wish i could find some peace and enjoy my healthiness

No. 1015238

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I'm happy to finally have a therapists that is willing to help me with my shit, but holy shit is this ruthless. The entire session was spent on me trying to say a sentences that would summarize some pretty severe trauma from when I was a kid. Like almost an hour was just spent on me attempting to say it a couple of times without having a physical reaction to it and it was fucking HARD.
But I'm happy my therapist is matching my pacing and gave me a lot of praise when we were finishing up the session. But I wish I had someone to hug and talk about this with because it's a lot to carry the weight of these sessions on my own.

No. 1015239

>>1015118
Hey there, so not medfag, but the past couple years my dad (very healthy, former personal trainer, doesn’t drink or smoke) had issues with acid hitting the bottom of his esophagus. At first it just made him vomit, but then, the esophagus started to close and he choked during a meal and had to go to the hospital. Apparently the acid aggravated so much, the body was like “fuck swallowing”. He had to have a procedure where they stretch the esophagus back out with a balloon.

Now he’s okay but he’s so skinny now, and my dad has always been a healthy, hearty man.

Bonus fun fact, he once trained with John cena at the gym when he was touring for wrestling. Cool guy.
I know you’re stressed, but you can only do what you can, and the rest will unfold anyways.

No. 1015241

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>>1015017
>You probably look like a female high elf with superior cognitive capacities
Don't know about the cognitive capacities since I am remarkably stupid, but it's funny you should mention the high elf thing because pic related are nearly all the people/characters I've been compared to in the past and one of them is the Adoring Fan. Also notice the astounding lack of conventionally attractive real world women in the photo (Anya doesn't count because the person who told me I looked like her was high on e).

No. 1015249

>>1015241
UR a cute

No. 1015251

>>1015241
are you also tall? I think you are unconventionally beautiful and you have your own type. Not everyone has to fit into a cookie cutter type of beauty.

No. 1015253

Hey sluts
I’m a fucking whore who wants this fucking appartement but the fucking slut that advertises it has a friend that’s also looking for a place. I sent the advertising slut a fucking message and it’s been 23 h she hasn’t even seen it. God fucking damn it. I want to send another message but don’t want to come over as pushy esp now I’m competing with somebody who at least has the slut’s number. I’m just a fucking whore who can’t eat or sleep because I want the fucking glorious cheap appartement. I don’t want roomies I don’t want attics. HELP ME.

No. 1015257

>>1015253
Put lemon juice in your dickhole and post the vid, scrote

No. 1015258

My job is making shit so bad and we just started. We had a snow storm in my area early morning yesterday, so I called out due to car issues. I told them this and they guilted me for it. Now today I'm only working a short 5 hour shift and my boss never told my coworkers this , so they were calling me all morning, asking where I was. This level of unprofessionalism is insane. Please wish me luck on finding a new job soon because this ain't it

No. 1015260

>>1015253
>hey sluts
r u a tranny

No. 1015262

Currently 160 pounds and really hope to get to 140 by spring. I'm so sick of being ugly and unhealthy

No. 1015270

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>>1015262
You can do it!!!

No. 1015271

>>1015253
I'm sure I'll be seeing you under the overpass

No. 1015288

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>>1015262
Good luck! I believe in you nona!

No. 1015290

My mum was a total abusive bitch to me growing up but I have "forgiven" her because she was going through a lot and I am clearly collateral lol. When I was 19 a boyfriend among a string of many was moving in and I had been working since dropping out of uni and living at home and had saved enough for a deposit on an apartment. I got one behind her back because if she knew she's sabotage it somehow. I made a good call cause that guy is now my step dad and I moved out the week he moved in so he never got to experience the toxicity of me and my mother lol and from them getting engaged we've been playing happy families. Like he knows nothing about my upbringing. But recently my mum has been getting really passive aggressive with me and I don't even know if it's intentional and she's must really annoying. She did it loads years ago and I "snapped" and sent her back a harsh message and the fucking grief I got from my step dad. I'm biting my tongue atm but she's been really pushing it. She needs to shut up.

No. 1015291

>>1015262
Gl anon!!! You can do it

No. 1015292

I fucking hate the winter. I can barely get out of bed, I fucking hate it and 2-3 more months of this shitty fucking weather? Kill me

No. 1015309

Why whyyy am I incapable of making female friends but always attracting every flavor of male friend under the sun I just want female friends to get coffee and dress cute with wtf!! Do I give off tomboy nlog vibes or what!!??? My male friends aren’t even trying to sleep with me afaik (gay or loyal to a gf) we just genuinely get along!!! I even work in a specific female dominated creative industry in a female dominated company and OF COURSE my only friend is our ONE male coworker because we happened to have the same interests and live in the same neighborhood somehow

This absolutely sucks I feel like such an autistic failure of a woman and YES I am cis before anyone asks!!!!

No. 1015317

>>1015309
I feel this. Do you have a brother or sister I think this is fundamental to this issue. I have a brother. And every girl best friend I have ends up leaving me for another girl lmao

No. 1015319

>>1015317
Samefag, to clarify; and older brother. To be as autistic as possible I was the Tails to his Sonic

No. 1015320

I am lying to myself.
I tell myself the McDonald’s is good for me because it is high in protein.
My asshole says differently.

No. 1015324

I also want a female friend. The only one i ever had was in high school. We watched anime together and she gave me a hug every morning and insisted we eat lunch together. I moved away mid year and didn’t even say goodbye. I still tear up about it. I ended up seeing her again by chance and it was so awkward. Maybe i dont deserve friendship again.

No. 1015326

I’m never saging in /ot/ and the jannies can’t do anything

No. 1015330

>>1015326
B-but nonnie…you just saged.

No. 1015343

Headache 5th evening in a row. I won't take a painkiller tonight just to show my bitch brain who's boss.

No. 1015346

>>1015257
Butthurt much autist
>>1015260
No I’m just a nervous whore

No. 1015347

>>1015343
My head aches in solidarity

No. 1015351

>>1015271
Imagine being this pathetic. Yes im op but still.

No. 1015353

I miss my cat. He was the only one that would cuddle me and wanted to be around me. He’d come and curl up in my lap even if I was stinky because I was too depressed to shower or if I was too boiling hot because my body was still adjusting to my meds. All he wanted from me was a warm place to cuddle, food and water and a clean litter box. Occasionally to play, though skidding up and down the hallway seemed to be the best entertainment to him. I wish he was still here. I wish his finally memories of me weren’t so terrible, I try to remind myself I was trying to help him, give him another day where he could cuddle and purr and be happy. I hope he doesn’t hate me. I hope one day I can feel that kind of nonjudgmental and unconditional love again. I wish he could have stayed with me longer.
I miss him everyday, I love him so much. I wish I could hug him again, kiss his little head and tell him his too cute. If there is something after death I hope he’ll come find me even if it’s just for a headscritch.

No. 1015364

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my mom turned 50 this year and i never considered her old or anything, but last time i visited her she kept taking off her glasses when looking at something on her phone. idk maybe it's nothing, but having to take off your glasses to read is such an old people thing in my head. ugh.

No. 1015365

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My boyfriend watches gore and I’m grossed out. I don’t like it why do men do this I hate it it started with Reddit and TikTok random “funny” or “crazy” normie videos but then it just escalated to fights to actual vile shit and I wanna cry because it’s so gross and I’m already 1 year in, I hate this shit. Might leave him 4 dis kinda sad and betrayed

No. 1015368

My fever is hovering around 100F and it won't go down, I feel like death anons. I can't sleep but I can't watch anything because my head hurts. I've just been scrolling here all day waiting for death to take me.

No. 1015380

>>1015368
only thing that's worked for me was taking pain meds every few hours + using a cold cloth until it goes away

No. 1015382

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>>1015365
>My boyfriend watches gore
wtf anon, do you mean very graphic horror movie/art or just straight up gore ?

No. 1015418

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i really dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. i continue doing the most retarded things and i am completly losing myself as a person, literally not being able to recognize myself anymore. i dont know if anyone remembers but i am the same anon in these vents:
>>742622, >>742686. the guy mentioned in these vents is my boyfriend and we have been dating for roughly 6-7 months now and i literally dont understand how he can endure all of this. when shit happens and i go totally into schizo-mode my brain has two different reactions and assumptions on the thing happening and i can see through both lenses and perspectives of the thing happening and what 'normal' and mentally unstable people would think about this situation. i really cant fucking describe it but its like my brain is in a fight between the mentally unstable and the normal side of me which absolutely fucks the perception of me, my surroundings and my actions/reactions to things. its like a fucking debate in my head between my irrational and rational side and who can name more aspects in favor of themselves and based on that i do my decisions. its just so bizarre because deep inside of me i literally know and can differenciate between right and wrong and can think rational but i cant turn it into action because my mentally unstable schizo-mode doesnt allow me that and thinks of the other option as not-safe and non-plausiable. i also have this weird fucking thing that still keeps happening where i suddenly switch personas and cant calm the fuck down or control myself in a rational manner and act like a complete maniac retard who is giving a fuck about everything and its consequences. its also that i need attention and reassurance from my bf 100% at the time and the second i dont receive it i doubt his love and think that he secretly hates me and just takes advantage of me. nonnies please take my pain away its so hard to watch myself do this much of damage to myself and my boyfriend as well as other people while being able to think rational but still acting irrational because of my poor mental health and my extreme pessimism and anxiety. i really want to get better but i doubt that it will. i am so fucking scared of losing him and the relationship but i cant fucking function as a human being. why was i cursed with all of these misfortunes?

No. 1015430

thinking about the unpopular thread and the first anons comments on scars, I don't know how to feel about my own. It's got me wondering if there's a reason why people don't want to approach me. Maybe this is why I only attract unstable people as friends? as emotionally turbulent as I have been this pandemic. burns leave less of an impression than cuts. none of it is pretty, but it's just another set of relapses after a few years of recovered decency. I feigned for a long stretch, and I couldn't bear it anymore. I managed to be clean for a couple years after 18 and then started intermittently doing it again at 20, I'm in my mid twenties now having done it on and off every year to couple years in pockets. I've harmed myself much more as an adult than I ever did as a teen, and it's pathetic. I also have scars from numerous trips, falls, accidents, acne, cysts, etc, and they blend together into this indistinguishable swamp of red and white that brightens when my body warms.

I can't tell whether I live in absolute inferiority knowing people see my scars and don't say anything, or am ambivalent about the fact that they're there. At this point there's so many of them. the last year and a half has been hell. My fear is that when it's over. when or if I've overcome it, theyll linger around forever. I don't want to be seen any differently from someone else. As a victim, as a crazy person, I don't want to believe people would see me as different from anyone else, but I don't know. I don't want to be seen as vulnerable either. I don't want moids to mock and think they can take advantage of me for it. There are some places I shouldn't have marked, that the next person I'm intimate with will see, and it's terrifying knowing I haven't had intimate contact with anyone post pandemic.

how much uglier and dysmorphic my body is. I know it's my fault, I can't help the insecurity when it nips at me. I'm not trying to victimize myself, what am I supposed to do? Yet I will always live with the pain of knowing they are there, or were there. Down to my nerves themselves. I don't want to be like this. I don't even know what I want to be. I'm so fucking tired and it hurts to analyze and think about people seeing my scars and judging me over them, not even knowing which ones came from where. If me being a scraped and burnt up bitch bothers you, fucking good, whatever, I'm just trying to cope.

No. 1015432

>>1015418
Oh anon, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry you have to live like this, it sounds like you're trapped inside of your own mind and I can't even fathom how uncomfortable and scary it must be to feel so out of control. I know you mentioned in a previous vent that you couldn't afford therapy, but do you have a family doctor that you could at least talk to and consider a medication? I wish I could scoop you up in my arms and just hold you for a while so just in that moment you will know for sure that someone is thinking about and caring for you without any doubts.

No. 1015476

I GOT THE APPARTEMENT
I GOT THE FUCKING APPARTEMENT. MY ANXIETY MY TENSIONS I CAN FINALLY REST. I’m the happiest gal in the world I’m so thankful I can scream but I don’t wanna annoy my current roomies so I’m annoying you slu- I mean gals instead. Legit I’m so fucking grateful all my life i’ve lived in small dorms that costed me almost 1k and now I’m gonna live in a fucking appartement for half the price. Jesus christ. I’m gonna faint.

No. 1015485

>>1014802
Update: it left a massive bruise anon, but now I can use my right hand again.

No. 1015490

>>1015485
I'm glad your hand is usable again! Cherish your little bruise child and maybe put some ice on it.

No. 1015572

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Just watched a video where this woman told her bf that she was nauseous from not eating (typical) and he was approaching her with a peeled banana smiling like an idiot and the comments were praising his ass. It was maybe a joke video but lesbians are right heterosexual women are never gonna make it

No. 1015614

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I was gonna post about how I'm watching the 2012 Spider-Man movie for the first time and how cute Andrew Garfield is as Peter Parker. Got to thinking about how I used to LOVE Spider-man. I watched the original trilogy growing up, LOVED the second movie's crazy octopus man, LOVED Venom the weird crawling black thing, sand-guy and cried at the last movie's ending. I still have ceramic bowl somewhere in the kitchen, my dad even drove back 30 minutes to the beach for a towel I left on a railing. Had some comics, a rug, and a small coloring book I brought inside an ice-cream parlor while nauseous.
All this and I still remember the exact moment I told my mother. standing on my Tinker-bell rug in my bedroom how "I don't like spider-man anymore, that's a boy thing!", probably a mix of her enforcing femininity and seeing it in society. Both parents were actually extremely supportive but my dad would be the one to take my sisters and I to hike, camp, fish, run around and play instead of dressing up in restrictive clothes to look pretty in church every Saturday. She would come with us but we'd almost always have to persuade her, and I'm 99% sure if she wasn't almost the youngest in a huge Hispanic family with 20+ year older siblings she would have had a lot less problems and trauma, drama and be more confident.
I'm extremely lucky I didn't go through some of the things she did, and how she never encouraged us to wear makeup or shave my legs at 12 like other girls, but I also had to learn about my changing body from books and about guys from stumbling upon porn and the internet (I thought you bounced on a guys lap, you get that weird good feeling when you put something between your legs, and a baby would form, kek.) I just imagine: if that religion didn't exist, the big family weighing on her, dealing with puberty at 9 almost all on my own, no pressure of "boy" and "girl" things, my childhood would've gone from good to great.
It KNOW it was a really damn great childhood, but I've been so lost and casually depressed for years I rarely get a chance to look back and remember the good, innocent carefree times before I realized being alone on my own front porch was dangerous, not because of simply "don't go outside or someone will take you, honey!", but from "Wow, if I'm out alone there are people who literally want to hurt me for being a child and a girl".
When I read enough comics or re-watch late 2000s superhero shows and movies, when my mind is blown by a really good one, I think back to the sense of amazement and wonder I had when I was 9. I get it back when I see a reference to an earlier movie and comic in ones now, staying up late to watch Justice League: Unlimited on Boomerang, seeing Nightcrawler teleporting across an entire ocean in Wolverine and the X-Men, from catching an episode of TF:Prime coming home from middle school, from watching Pacific Rim a month after it came out in theaters with my mom. Even though I still have never watched those shows from start to finish to this day because I didn't understand what TV schedules were, that you could find shows online and I didn't get my first phone or internet-savvy until I was 15 (thank god I didn't).
And that's what goes through my mind every time I watch a Spider-Man movie lmao.

No. 1015617

>>1015418
This is literally just bpd anon. Welcome to the club

No. 1015629

I really was convinced I was the one who was overreacting, I was the one who was unstable, I was the one who was sensitive. But no matter what kind of day I have, depressing or productive, active or idle, something happens between us that makes me want to break up with him, and it's usually something he says or does and later even admits to being his fault or just a stupid decision on his end. I'm tired of him constantly saying how sad he is that I want to break up when I finally collect the confidence and clarity to express to him that I won't put up with it any longer and that I don't need him. But I don't want to hurt his feelings and it makes me sad to break up, so I just let it be and say to myself I'll see where things go. Then I relax and let it go and act all loving to him until the cycle repeats: he messes up something so simple yet meaningful that really hurts my feelings, and it makes me want to leave him because there's no reason I should put up with it. He wants us to take a sort of break as I had suggested quite some while ago when I was more willing to try and make things work. We won't be in contact for two weeks (I'm in another country) so we, especially I, can focus on ourselves. I thought this would be what could help our relationship, since I thought I was just super sensitive and traumatised and therefore overreacted. But now the difference is that, instead of crying (which I do end up doing eventually), I just get annoyed and cold by things he does. Now that I'm a bit more productive and confident, even without the break, the things he does still hurt me but my initial reaction is just to break up since it makes me unattracted to and apathetic towards him. Idk, seems pretty obvious to me that I should break up, but I just can't seem to accept how dumb this guy really is to just treat our relationship so carelessly when we've had enough opportunities for learning. It really isn't that hard and there are so many guys who would love to take his place. I receive confessions multiple times a week and he knows I reject them because I truly am loyal to him. But I don't think I want to take this anymore, it's just not worth it. All of these instances just make me like him less. Whatever was special about him in my eyes just withers away when I see how he really acts to me on a consistent basis. He doesn't deserve me, and every time I tell him that he changes and tries a little bit but ugh, it's such obvious laziness. I know he does love me and that's why it's maybe not as apparent as usual douchebag behaviour, but it is still just jerk behaviour and I'm tired of being told it's MY fault and I'm just too sensitive. No, retard, you've just never been with a girl who is on your level or even above it before. He one time said he never was with someone as demanding or with as high expectations as I. So I asked him if he wanted to go back to his previous relationships. He said he didn't, and I know he doesn't, because I'm the best girl he's ever had and I'm not even exaggerating. They're his words anyway. So I told him that if he wants a girl like me, this is the price: effort. If he wants one of his ex girlfriends to avoid these problems, he can. I really think he always saw his girlfriends as below him and they probably felt the same way since he is very educated and considers himself very smart whereas the ex-girlfriends I know of lived a very different life. He is also always emphasising how ~ intelligent ~ I am, so I know it matters to him. But he needs to understand that for a girl like me, he needs to behave better. He's calling me now, let's see what he has to say.

No. 1015635

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A close friend of mine has somehow managed to fuck up the muscles in one of her legs, perhaps permanently.
She's an instructor in dance, aerial and pole, and also competes in the last two. These things are her entire fucking life, she absolutely loves staying active and these activities especially makes her so happy. The studio is her goddamn second home because it makes her feel so much at peace.
The doctor at the emergency didn't give her any straight answers on if it's going to heal, only that she has to take it easy for now and not put any pressure on it. But she is of course scared of it being permanently damaged, she is straight up devastated at the thought of it. I'm so upset for her sake, I don't know what to say or do for her. What do I do anons? I want to cheer her up somehow but I'm at a loss for words

No. 1015647

THIS SCROTE WORKER AT MY DOG'S DAYCARE IS IGNORING MY DOG. THEY CALL THE STAFF PACK LEADERS AND IT JUST AMKES ME THINK THAT IF I WERE THE ONE PICKING HIM UP I WOULD BE THE BIGGER AND SCARIER ANIMAL THAN THIS DREW MONSON ADJACENT. MY DOG IS CUTER THAN YOU. YOU ARE NOT A PACK LEADER. YOU JERK IT TO ANIME PORN MOST LIKELY. ARFARFARFARFARAFRARF

No. 1015649

>>1015647
I'M WATCHING THE LIVESTREAM FOOTAGE. HE IS JUST WALKING IN CIRCLES SO DOGS FOLLOW HIM. HE GETS NEAR MY DOG AND DOES NOT PET HIM. DOES NOT ACKNOWLEDGE. MY LAWYERS WILL BE IN TOUCH

No. 1015651

I've recently come to accept that I am just ugly, and there's nothing that I really can do about it.
My facial features are just ugly–that's it. No matter how much I treat my skin, carry myself confidently, dress nicely… my face is just straight up ugly. No amount of makeup can hide that. I look deformed. It makes me sad that I used to think I was pretty, or somewhat cute, but now I've finally realized that I was delusional that whole time. I am below average. It's okay. I'll like a fine life, I have a job and a loving boyfriend, but I'll never be pretty or beautiful because my face just simply does not do that for me.
I'll never have to face the trauma of growing old though, since I never had good looks to really lose.
It's sad but it's the reality.

No. 1015660

>>1015365
Why did this post not start with "My ex boyfiend"? You bitches are so desperate I swear

No. 1015666

>>1015647
Kill him sis

No. 1015670

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I live with my sister right now and getting her to do anything is the definition of "if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself." She couldn't figure out how to put air in my car tires when she took it out even though she's done it loads of times on her car, so now I have to make a whole separate trip out to do this one damn thing. I'm always the one who takes the trash out when it gets too full and restocks things like soap dispensers and cleans the kitchen beyond only loading and unloading the dishwasher, and it's so petty but it really adds up after a while.

No. 1015673

>>1015647
>>1015649
Justice for poochie

No. 1015674

>>1015660
Nta but half my posts start with "my ex boyfriend" .. y-you proud of me?

No. 1015679

I'm losing my mind, I can't find my nail clipper. I last saw it on my desk but it's not there anymore. It's not in the bathroom either. Where can it be? I looked everywhere. Do I seriously need to buy a new one?
I blame radfems for this.

No. 1015682

>>1015679
Update: It was in my bag.

No. 1015683

>>1015679
Have you looked under your nails?
>>1015682
oh

No. 1015689

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WHERE the FUCK is my boyfriend? he's gone awol

No. 1015692

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Kicked out of the house. Finding a place to live isn’t a big deal, it’s just the betrayal. I hate my dad for being an enormous scrote who hates lesbians.

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I realised I have an aversion to a specific smouch sound and it figured out from my sister and her boyfriend smouching.We aren't even in the same room but the soundproofing is bad so it's audible and shit it makes me angry, annoying and nauseous.I didn't know a sound like this could bother me.And it's not like I can tell them anything cause they don't do anything wrong and it's also stupid.Idk if it's misophonia or whatever but I'm so repulsed. I was literally like this wojak expecting them to stop

Also yes I'm a khv but I feel like if I actually gota boyfriend and this happened even accidentally I'd flip

I'd post this in the annoying thread but it doesn't seem to be a thing anymore

No. 1015709

>>1015651
Being ugly's okay once you accept it, and if you're in a relationship clearly you don't look that bad. Also if you used to think you were pretty it could just be a self-esteem issue; in my experience genuinely ugly people have always known that they're ugly, there's zero uncertainty involved. I had extremely shitty luck in the facial features lottery and while it's not ideal, the fact is that there's not much you can do unless you're willing to dump money on surgery (where results are highly variable anyway), so it's better to just try and stop dwelling on it and focus on things that actually matter instead.

No. 1015733

My ex cheated 3 and a half years ago, left me one day and went off on holiday with the new woman the next day. Then he moved in with her, still with her today. Brags about their love online. I think he spun a story to other people if they somehow don't know it was a affair that they sprouted from. Maybe people don't care.

I hate that I've had to live feeling fucked up by the betrayal, the shock, my life plans being turned upside down in a moment. I've always been quiet but I've isolated to a whole new degree since then. I feel like him 'finding love' is gonna be the thing that stops me from ever putting myself out there. I don;t even have friends at this point. The fallout has me feeling fucked to this day. I know life isn't fair but god give me a break. I don't how to not feel worthless.

No. 1015740

>>1015709
NTA but I never knew I was ugly, I thought I was just average but didn't take care of myself well and dressed tomboyish. That is until later on in life and looking back on a lot of my past treatment from people it began to make more sense. Things began to add up and I saw what my face actually looked like. So sometimes it's not just sudden self esteem issues but moments of clarity that ruin you. And just coming to learn about what proper facial proportions are. It's similar to troons thinking they suddenly look female cuz growing out their hair or wearing skirts but have no awareness otherwise

No. 1015744

For the past couple of months I have days where I'm so horny that it literally distracts me from my work. I still try to push through and ignore it but it's really hard sometimes and it can even last the whole day. I feel like such a gross coomer for it and I don't know what to do.

No. 1015745

>>1015740
>Proper facial proportions

There is no such thing. We are all creepy looking fucked up primates lol attractiveness is something we kinda made up. I mean everyone has their tastes, I have mine, but at the end of the day we're just smelly mammals. How you look is meaningless.

No. 1015747

>>1015740
Yeah maybe it depends on your surroundings. For me I had heard that I was ugly ever since I was a kid so I just always knew I was that way, but maybe I was around people who were just especially blunt kek. Honestly it seems preferable to a moment of clarity like you're describing, that sounds rougher to deal with. But I've also seen women who are suddenly convinced that they're ugly with no real reason to assume that based on how people treat them, so that's why I tend to assume self-esteem issues in those cases.

No. 1015748

Over the past week I've constantly felt like I'm in fight or flight mode and I don't know why. My vision is spinning and my ears are throbbing and I feel dizzy and clumsy and my whole head feels like it's pressurised, i've been getting horrible acid reflux multiple times per day. Maybe I'm ill or maybe it's just because term starts again soon. I can't even sleep and normally I'm great at that. Sure wish I could talk to people in real life instead of venting on here.

No. 1015750

>>1015745
Eh, there's facial features almost everyone finds appealing and some almost nobody finds appealing (especially asymmetry), and good looking people get treated a lot better.

I think self acceptance is healthier than copium. I'm unattractive. It is what it is.

No. 1015751

>>1015745
Also, I'm >>1015750 NTAYRT

No. 1015766

>get job
>move out
>overdose on otc drug cocktail
>feel the sweet release from BDD and the shit hand I've been dealt
wish me luck I want to do this is soon as possible.

No. 1015771

Why the fuck is everyone on lolcow dating? Stop bragging about your bf bitch you're probably dating down anyway

No. 1015772

I want to vote for worst poster with my actual worst poster but I despise that bitch so much I don't want to give her more attention or make her happy. Stupid personalityfagging bitch. I hope you never escape.

No. 1015776

>>1015772
Just say paki-chan

No. 1015778

>>1015635
Bring her a bouquet or a hyacinth

No. 1015783

>>1015776
NTA but I'm pretty sure they're talking about the Romanian. Paki-chan isn't nearly as insufferable.

No. 1015787

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It's been 2-3 years since I have last spoken to him, yet he still refuses to move on from me. I logged into an old discord account for something, only to find out he's been messaging me everyday for all of those years. Every single day. About how he misses me, everything along those lines. He's sent me actual letters to my house too once or twice. I know there's nothing I can do. You can't stop someone from being obsessed with you. All I can do is ignore him. He doesn't know I'm engaged to another man whom I actually love. I don't like being around him, I don't like him, yet I don't want him to suffer like this. But what am I to do? I wish he'd just move on, but he refuses. I can't do anything to help him. What a fool. It'd have been better if we were to never have met in the first place. I know I'm not the cause of his suffering, it's his fault really, but it still doesn't feel good. Especially since I'm helpless.

No. 1015789

>>1015776
don't sully paki-chan's name with this. paki-chan is way, way, way, way nicer

No. 1015793

>>1015783
>>1015789
No she's right. Fuck that attention-seeking sperg.

No. 1015796

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>>1015772
I dont want attention and I hate this actually. You do realize that by making such posts you are urging me to reply more and baiting me? There have been hundreds of posts made about me in the past week and then when I clear up things I am personalityfagging. Are you stupid? You're the ones obsessively talking about me. I'm a fucking farmer, not some random bitch you found on the internet and made a thread on. I am here. Also, most of the posts made about me are straight up psychopathic.

I would also never hurt my cat. I love her so much, but I have been saying stupid shit due to the immense amounts of anger everyone in here has put in me and everything that has been happening I just can't believe it. I have literally sacrificed myself to make a stupid moid that has been posting on here for years leave. I wish I never sacrificed myself to doxx steven and that instead you would have browsed the friend finder thread and he would have added you and continued to creep on you and post "empathetic psychiatrist" LARP posts. You dont deserve my sacrifice and the effort I have put to change lolcow and its mentality. Rot in hell bitches. Good luck with your sociopathic shithole. My work here is done.(just log off)

No. 1015798

>>1015789
>>1015783
No, I completely agree that Romani-chan is way fucking worse, I'm not entirely convinced she's not a troll/scrote made personality. Paki-chan is annoying and a bit woe is me (always accusing everyone of being from a 1st world country when we have a lot of latamfags, also she keeps bringing moids up), but she's not as bad. I think she's a bit more contained, nowadays.

No. 1015800

>>1015796
Didn't you and the scrotoid meet in the vent thread?

>>1015798
She's real. Paki-chan is definitely woe is me but Paki-chan also has concrete plans despite being very depressed, she's just miserable and a little obsessive.

No. 1015801

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Bf would rather look at Reddit porn than have sex with me, am I gonna dump him? Probably not because my esteem is rock bottom and I’ll find any excuse to dismiss it

No. 1015805

>>1015801
What does he do for you otherwise? Obviously sexually your relationship with this man is garbage, but is he valuable in any other way to you?

No. 1015807

>>1015796
is that the cat you wanted to kill? i really hope you get the help you need and dont hurt anyone, yourself included.

No. 1015809

aliexpress banned me from doing their coupon games. fucking cunts.

No. 1015810

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>>1015787
you're young werthering him!!!!

No. 1015811

>>1015796
SHUT UP! TAKE YOUR LEAVE!!!

No. 1015812

>>1015796
>I have been saying stupid shit due to the immense amounts of anger everyone in here has put in me and everything that has been happening I just can't believe it. I have literally sacrificed myself to make a stupid moid that has been posting on here for years leave.
Shut the fuck up, most anons were simping for you before you posted your psycho rant in the vent thread about killing your cat and family. Grow up and take responsibility for once.

No. 1015813

>>1015801
>Probably not because my esteem is rock bottom and I’ll find any excuse to dismiss it
At least you're honest and self aware, work on yourself and dump his ass when you're ready to live your best life

No. 1015815

>>1015771
>dating down
enjoy being lonely and using phrases like this as if they mean anything

No. 1015816

>>1015812
almost all anons were really, really freaking supportive of her

No. 1015818

>>1015796
cya tomorrow. also what was with all that talk about wanting to post other anons nudes? not very sacrificial of you

No. 1015821

>>1015796
I'm OP and I was talking about the Paki sperg. I just glaze over your essay posts so idgaf about you

No. 1015822

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I don’t want to be a black person, white person, brown person, I just don’t want to be perceived anymore..

No. 1015825

>>1015796
Booooo.

No. 1015826

>>1015816
I really wish jannies would release her post history so she has no choice but to leave, can't even read a vent thread without annoying walls of schizo text everywhere.

I remember there was someone posting similar walls of dead mom eternal victim text in the friend finder thread that ended up getting it banned for Discord drama. Bet it was her.

No. 1015827

>>1015815
>t. dating an overweight caveman

No. 1015829

>>1015826
I do not think that would make her leave at all

No. 1015832

>>1015829
Right? She would relish in it. If she hated the attention so much she would stop making it so obvious that it's her.

No. 1015833

>>1015826
Apparently her mom committed suicide so that anon probably was her.

No. 1015835

>>1015832
Not romaniananon but I would love the attention you’re almost virtually a nobody on here

No. 1015836

>>1015832
You have too much faith in people's smarts nonna. I believe she simply does not have the braincells required to change her way of typing.

No. 1015837

>>1015832
anons keep on making posts about me. If you truly want me to stop "personalityfagging" then stop making 100 posts about me daily. Making shit about me and urging me to respond.

No. 1015838

>>1015837
Retarded bitch the original post wasn't about you

No. 1015839

>>1015838
When you have schizophrenia, you think everyone is talking about you and stalking you. Even if we didn't mention her at all she'd accuse us of it.

No. 1015843

>>1015838
stop lying
>>1015772
this clearly is about me and nobody else. Everyone has been sperging about how I am personalityfagging, attentionwhoring and such. So, why just lie after you make the post manipulative cunt. You made the post and I told you that if you would shut the fuck about me I would simply stop posting and replying.

>>1015837
bad LARP

No. 1015847

>>1015836
I don't think she's retarded, just unstable and an attention-seeker. She knows full well she could post anonymously despite her past post. Her choice not to is thought out.

No. 1015850

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holy imposter syndrome, which one is the real thing

No. 1015852

>>1015837
You really are stupid, she said the post wasn't about you

No. 1015854

here to say it again but i am officially done with 4chan outside of a single general. /blog/ to specify.
that place gets worse and worse with every passing year and if i need anonymous conversation i just come here or any of the other female-only imageboards. thank fuck

No. 1015855

>>1015850
Tag yourself, I'm the small fluffy gray one

No. 1015857

>>1015852
She realises how retarded she looks now and is trying to keep the conversation going by doubling down, just ignore

No. 1015858

>>1015857
You're right, it's so tempting to respond but I just gotta let her be her wacky self

No. 1015860

>>1015855
on an anonymous ib we are all little gray cat

No. 1015861

>>1015850
Lolcow group photo ♥

No. 1015865

2021 has really been the year of crazy farmers. I'm starting to become sick of it.

No. 1015881

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>>1015850
these two are dating I'm sure of it

No. 1015888

>>1015881
do tell, which 2 farmers are they

No. 1015891

>>1015854
Me too nonnie. But in a way, I'm sad it had to come to this. Lolcow is far superior but 4chan has the advantage of being much more active and having some threads about my niche interests that won't gain enough traction to warrant their own threads on lolcow.
Decided to stop browsing it after reaching my limit of tolerating dumb scrotes including the fucking /v/ mods. What is /blog/?

No. 1015892

>>1015888
Me and you. kiss

No. 1015893

>>1015888
Me and you bby

No. 1015894

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No. 1015896

>>1015892
NAH, SHE'S MINE

No. 1015898

>>1015827
your bitterness is showing

No. 1015907

>>1015892
>>1015893
this is a lot more wholesome than whatever this thread was just on, pls continue

No. 1015922

>>1015891
/blog/ is the bl + otome general on /jp/. it's slow as hell but i still enjoy browsing it

No. 1015925

why tf is lolcow so dead today?

No. 1015926

>>1015925
Here I am an instant later

No. 1015931

>>1015925
because anons keep bitching in the vent thread tired of the offtopic infighting sometimes it’s like there’s no more moderation on this website anymore

No. 1015938

When I sit down to draw its like every idea I've ever had just leaves my brain and I don't have any creativity left! I'm so frustrated, I just want to draw and have fun like I used to. Someone help meeee!

No. 1015954

>>1015931
tbh i think looser moderation regarding infighting on vent is more fun and relaxed tbh. it's kind of cool imo for conversations to flow organically while people continue to separately vent. like there's a certain level of "infighting" that is tolerable and interesting. the difference is that we're kind of having pretty unusual and very specific infighting going on right now that involve some particularly bizarre people. the racist infighting is always a no though.

No. 1015960

>>1015938
Unironically drawing later in the day has helped me because when I'm tired part of my critical thinking that says "no this is shit, different idea pls" has switched off.

No. 1015961

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>>1015949
I agree, plus reading all the chaos is kind of fun

No. 1015983

>>1015954
You make it sound like anons just ~peacefully debate~ itt kek. Not just in this thread, things lately get pretty ugly every time nonnas start infighting, specially when its about politics/race.

No. 1015984

>>1015954
when's the last time infighting has been 'tolerable and interesting'? it's just the exact same arguments everyone's had 50000 times already, that's boring

No. 1015990

>>1015984
boohoo be happy with the slop.

No. 1015993

>>1015984
samefag and there's usually no conversation anyway, just yelling about nothing
>>1015990
no

No. 1016022

>>1015983
i just said the racist infighting is always a no. the bar for what "infighting" is is sometimes very low depending on the person so i prefer it to be more relaxed than strict generally, except when it comes to what you mentioned, like politics and race.

>>1015984
not really, sometimes they're the same and sometimes they're different.

No. 1016023

In my first proper relationship ever and I feel so fucking insecure. I overthink everything and start to convince myself that my boyfriend hates me if he uses less emojis in texting or some shit.
Like I know the solution to all this is to just focus on myself but no matter what I’m doing, my mind almost always wonders into the anxiety ridden ‘let’s think about how everything good in our life is going bad’ mentality. It’s all so tiresome.

No. 1016029

>>1016022
other than the romanian sperg when did anons fight over a new topic

No. 1016030

the little fantasy world in my head is so much nicer than the reality I'm living in. i hate leaving.

No. 1016038

I feel like relationships are so performative and I don't want to even bother with them. You need to act perfect and distant for scrotes to like you. You can't show any emotion at all. If you ask to spend time with them, even just a little, you're a clinger. It's the norm to not be open with your partner and show no weakness, don't talk about any issues. Just be a perfect, flawless doll. What's the point? Why do men and women even get together?

No. 1016049

>>1016038
What sort of shitty relationships have you been in anon kek.

No. 1016052

>>1016038
Uhhh, I've only ever been in this one relationship, but mine isn't anything like this.

No. 1016062

>>1014979
I hope you get to go home and chill soon. I love this image so much and wish i had it as a shirt.

No. 1016072

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Warning for gross bathroom talk but this shit (kek) was traumatizing and I need to share somewhere. Was horribly constipated, tried regular enema and just ripped my asshole with nothing but little pebbles coming out. Redid it, this time adding oil into the mix. Literally within a minute felt my bowels ready to explode, quickly made it to the toilet and had the most horrifying dump of my life. Felt like I'd literally given birth with how much and how large an amount came out of me, at least it was quick, if slightly painful and discomforting.

mfw feel like there's probably still going to be a round 2.

No. 1016075

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>>1016062
Nta but there is a whole series of them

No. 1016076

>>1016049
Some, but you'd still be hard-pressed to find a scrote that doesn't shut you down if you bring up anything mood-killing. Maybe I just attract manchildren

No. 1016078

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No. 1016079

>>1016076
Then maybe anon should be less of a Debbie downer if she wants to get hitched.

No. 1016086

>>1016079
You've proved my point kek
I'm not even talking about negative mindset, I'm talking about any hard topics in a relationship.

No. 1016087

>>1010565
>People that truly have it hard hide it and are socially excluded. Everything is dependent on dialectical materialism and social status and money. If I had money I could simply fix my issues and go to school.

you may be batshit insane and deserve to b in prison but this is complete facts

No. 1016105

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>>1016076
My live in moid has never shied away from difficult convos and in fact actively asks me what's wrong if I seem down about stuff. I am definitely one of those people that love to internalise and suppress and he has been helping me stop doing that.
Tldr if I could find a moid that's decent then so can u, good luck in your love quest

No. 1016108

>>1016105
love this gif nonny!!

No. 1016114

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It's been a little over a year since I last had a serious relationship. I need a girlfriend NOW! I'm sick of feeling lonely.

No. 1016123

(This is unrelated to the conversation about moids upthread) The older I get the harder I find it to hold on to the idea of marriage. I was kind of a tomboy growing up so I never had the experience of daydreaming about my fantasy princess wedding or whatever, I never even got to go to a school dance and wear a nice dress, always gagged at the idea of getting married. In my early 20s I slowly warmed up to it and started to feel hopeful and giddy about being proposed to and having a terribly sentimental wedding and building a family. Then two long-term relationships went wrong (mostly my fault) and I started finding out more about the seemingly perfect marriages in my family, how half of my sweetest kindest uncles have cheated on or been abusive to their equally sweet wives, how even my own parents (my personal highest standard of ideal marriage) were still in love with other people when they got engaged and nearly hated one another for the first 5 or so years.
I don't understand how all of this is supposed to work. Seeing anons talk about their relationships on here only makes me feel further from understanding what a good relationship "should" be like. I guess typing this out is helping me work through the idea that this is just how it is and there's really no perfect marriage or precise way that things will line up. There's no such thing as my perfect lovely sentimental soul mate who will have a perfect fulfilling life with me. I thought I had that once, but it turned out to be pretty unhealthy in the end so who knows anymore. I guess the best I can do is respect myself and respect my future partner.

No. 1016124

oh to be a popular farmer nonnie except i'm beloved & sent sweet sparkling cat photos instead of being annoying as hell and threatening everyone

No. 1016125

I gotta be the least retarded person on this entire website because whichever retard, troll, or samefag gets the spotlight then you know I must be incredibly sane.

No. 1016130

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>>1016125
I read this post over like 7 times and I still don't know what it says

No. 1016133

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>>1016130
I said have you ever been far decided to use even go far look more like? That’s what I thought and see alike. The thing is that because and to unpack and deal and preserve and provide. Every things bad bitch lining silver?

No. 1016135

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decided to start dating a close friend of mine. weve known each other for like three or four years. ive had feelings for her since last year (uh, late 2020 i mean). and shes had feelings for me since we first met and werent even friends. all her breakups have been super messy, but all my breakup have been super messy. decided to give it a shot. its not even been a month and idk… shes having a lot of family issues, but to be fair she always is, non-stop. and i feel bad for not feeling bad at this point cause ive heard so many things about them throughout the years i dont like a single one. we were supposed to meet up monday, she didnt text me till it was night time to say sorry, then said she would def come today, and ive been texting her all day with no response whatsoever its like 11pm. i wont be surprised if she promises shes def coming over tomorrow and then does this same shit. dating my best friend years ago was a huge mistake, dating strangers from tinder was a mistake, dating a coworker was a mistake, dating a close friend thinking it would be better than letting strangers into my life is also not working as intended…

stupid me already told my friends about this, and i feel like a fucking idiot about it…

No. 1016151

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I mostly drink out of boredom, and it seems that for the past year I’ve been killing my liver with how much I’m drinking. I have so much to lose but it’s so easy to take some shots, listen to music and zone out. It’s making me more and more depressed but it’s so hard to quit. I’m so scared of my family or partner finding out but I don’t know where to start. It all feels so hopeless, I wish I never tried alcohol.

No. 1016167

>>1016133
You've got to be kidding me. I've been further even more decided to use even go need to do look more as anyone can. Can you really be far even as decided half as much to use go wish for that? My guess is that when one really been far even as decided once to use even go want, it is then that she has really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like. It's just common sense.

No. 1016178

>>1016130
i think they're saying that they're sane because she doesn't get attention from farmers, those who do are
>retards, trolls, or samefagging
so she's "incredibly sane" because only schizos get the spotlight

No. 1016180

Can't believe you guys rather listen to a bitch who is clearly a narc that victimizes herself and call her "based" when she wants to kill people and her cats and details every fucking thread with her bullshit. I hope you die Romaninon, kill yourself honestly.

No. 1016186

>>1012768
Welll, that's where we get the word guappo isn't it? basically means "well-dressed thug." which became "wop" among Italian American immigrants.

No. 1016187

>>1016180
Anyone agreeing with her is ignoring her psycho posts about killing or posting other women's nudes in favor of her radfems of lolcow are fake and dumb rhetoric and it's not really worth paying attention to.

No. 1016191

>>1016187
Why they aren't considering those very important posts, I don't understand.

No. 1016192

>>1016124
>>1016130
loving the duality between these 2 posts

No. 1016200

>>1015843
the op said it's about paki-chan and it makes 100% sense
>I hope she never leaves
Paki-chan posted about planning to escape to the USA.
FYI, I don't agree about OP's sentiment and especially the last part

No. 1016202

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>>1016124
DID SOMEONE SAY SPARKLING CATS???

No. 1016207

>>1016191
the radfems here don’t believe that evil women exist kek

No. 1016210

>>1016187
>>1016207
No offense, but are you dumb? Romanianon has been ranting about radfems since her Tsundere-anon days. Why would they like her?

No. 1016211

>>1016207
The people agreeing with her dislike radfems.

No. 1016215

>>1016200
I genuinely don't understand why people hate paki-chan so much, tf did she even do I think they're salty muslims maybe

No. 1016224

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>make twitter
>put some cute profile pic vague description and vent about being sad for some days
>for some reason i gain followers
>i open it sometimes and post random stuff, i rarely get "likes" or "retweets" but real accounts follow me everyday and idk why.
>only things about me in the account is that im a female +21 and that im sad
>pro ana followers even though ive never ever posted pro ana shit
>twitter randomly also suggest me pro ana tweets
>i rarely tweet anymore, i just like having the account and the app on my phone to report as much pro ana content as i can
>also self harm content, which, most pro ana fags are also cutters so i get that 2 for 1 deal.
>i literally never interact with the accounts, rarely post, just reporting and reporting pro ana shit, self harm shit, "i wanna killmyself i swear!!" shit.
>they dont always get deleted but when they do i feel a little bit better about dumbass me as a teenager starving myself and getting hospitalized.
>its been going on for months and i will keep reporting them every single time i dont care how many times i have to, its disgusting.

also, i see this happen every single time i open the app, the girls who are 18+ (who have a bunch of underage followers) will make "callout" posts on creeps who send them creepy DMs. But, they are literally posting almost naked bodychecks to underage teens? But they are surprised scrotes are going to send them messages about it? like i just saw a girl "callout" a guy for making a comment about her breasts, but on her profile shes showing full nipple and everything on her bodychecks. like, at this point you're almost one of those twitters that promote OF, what kinda attention are you expecting? Clown world.

No. 1016229

>>1016207
No, Radfems do believe evil women exist, but generally they will always be better than men
Anyways, romanianon wherever you are kill yourself please

No. 1016232

>>1016191
Because they're males, or troons, who want to "own the radfems XDDDD" and they're using her as a scapegoat. Simple as that. They forget she wants to kill people and animals and has molested children in favor of winning a dumb internet argument. For what? Nothing. Just use crystal.cafe if they hate radfems so much.

No. 1016234

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>>1016229
Can we stop with the kys posts, jeez

No. 1016238

>>1016234
No, I hope she kills herself.

No. 1016240

I really do hope romanianon kills herself she's a worthless piece of shit that doesn't deserve empathy. She molested children and killed cats when she was 8 because she's a psycho. She needs to off herself. Romanianon has molested children at 8 years old to win a dumb argument on the internet and she needs to be caged she's a danger to society(a-logging)

No. 1016241

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>>1016238
Hnngngggguhhhhhh

No. 1016243

>>1016240
why does this sound like romanianon herself, anyways reported for alogging.

No. 1016244

Not romanian anon but I think someone is definitely jealous that some wacko’s posts are getting read more than to pathetic vent posts hehe

No. 1016247

>>1016244
Schizos becoming obsessed with other schizos

No. 1016256

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I really don't get the hate. This is a gossip site where telling/being told to kys is as common as grass, venting about killing people who anger you (most of the time moids) and about bad shit that happened to you. Some of you literally spend time sperging about how a cow's vag looks when yours looks exactly the same, only it's not posted anywhere (that we know of). I really don't care some girl threatened to kill her cat and dad in the middle of an emotionally distressing situation. If it's a male I'd genuinely believe it and not be surprised to see it in the news.
Romanianon, if you're not a troll or larping scrote, you said you've been here 7 years. There's no use in false comforts because you already know no one is magically going to offer you a lifeline. The radfems who harassed you were either fakes who only hate troons and don't know theory or extremist asians who call us "coksuckerr breeder whoaaarr!11" Sorry you got manipulated by that moid but please get off here, stop threatening to do shit you're going to regret doing/saying, find a way to release your emotions safely and get some professional therapy from someone who won't kick you while your down.

No. 1016258

>>1016244
Nah I don't care about attention I just think she's super retarded and has murdering intentions
>>1016256
>Troon character
Anon why…

No. 1016271

Men have it so fucking ez, every job that doesn't require u to have a college degree, just a license/certificate and pays you over 50k are made for them. Literally ALL of them. Meanwhile the female equivalent make minimum wage or outright less than burger flippers. I just wanna pay for my damned college classes ffs

No. 1016279

>>1016271
And then they turn around and say that most college students and graduates are female. YES, BECAUSE WE HAVE NO CHOICE

No. 1016288

>>1016256
Romanianon is a raging narc. She threatens suicide for attention, lies that most of her camwhore money goes to women’s shelters and has an all round superiority complex. She’s not the only one here who has grown up poor and been blamed for their own sexual abuse, but she IS the only one here who coped by sexually abusing other kids and torturing animals (allegedly) I bet she’s absolutely horrible IRL. No radfem has harassed her, she’s just delusional and retarded. She thinks she can murder one of us, we all saw what she looks like when she was doxxed here and she’s about 5’1 and scrawny as hell (and ugly too - she also delusionally thinks she’s pretty but she looks like a gerbil) she couldn’t murder her way out of a paper bag. I’m sorry I ever stuck up for her.

No. 1016289

I somehow feel like admin doesn't care about us anymore

No. 1016291

>>1016279
Right, i could easily just get into a trade to pay for my college classes, graduate, and fuck off to work not being surrounded by them again, but i'm a softie and couldn't deal working with around men even if it was only short-term. Really wish I was wired differently to just be able to say fuck it and do it.

No. 1016292

>>1016288
>She thinks she can murder one of us, we all saw what she looks like when she was doxxed here and she’s about 5’1 and scrawny as hell (and ugly too - she also delusionally thinks she’s pretty but she looks like a gerbil)
KEKKK I need to see the pic, someone post it please. It made me audibly kek irl when she said she was so "pretty and smart" when she's ugly and dumb, but worst of all, a child molester

No. 1016294

>>1016289
Yeah, I feel that way too. I bet they laugh at me every time I hit the report button.

No. 1016295

>>1016271
The whole world is designed to be as easy and convenient as possible for men, yet they still find an excuse to play the victim just because they’re too fucking stupid and hedonistic to finish a degree.

No. 1016297

I just wanna throw myself out of a fast moving vehicle and tuck and roll down a rocky cliff into some roaring fucking rapids with sharp ass stones down a waterfall into a canyon down a trench into a pit of lava these romanian anon posts are making me crazy yoooooo

No. 1016301

>>1016292
She IS Ugly and dumb. I don’t think I can ever find her picture again since I don’t remember her name but I saw her on Facebook and her shitty emo clothes and fakeboi haircut. Short, Gerbil looking MF.

No. 1016302

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I hate people who cannot communicate their feelings. The fact that I had to go out of my way to ask someone what the fuck I did to them only to get some bullshit none answer about how they don’t owe me an explanation is ridiculous. Fuck people who don’t know how to communicate and resolve issues like adults.

No. 1016304

>>1016289
Admin is deliberately letting trannies/moids post bait to trigger radfems because she hates them, they even try to larp as radfems too but their psychopathy is too obvious, most of the time I assume I'm talking to a trannie

No. 1016307

>>1016304
You're breaking my heart over here

No. 1016313

>>1016301
>>1016303
She had a profile pic like any person. I have her FB in my history but won't post the pic I know of due to a scrote dox because I'm not an asshole, unlike her

No. 1016314

>>1016295
They're just basic/have no interests and are not ambitious. I'm thinking of how much of these guys' salaries are a waste and how I would have a better use for it if only they didn't make working with them uncomfortable enough to make me and many women disregard jobs we would do without thinking twice about otherwise.

No. 1016315

>>1016313
Yeah don’t post it, take the moral high ground. We remember what she looks like so we can laugh every time she comes here claiming to be pretty and talking about how she hates ugly people or whatever schizo nonsense she’s screeching about on that particular day.

No. 1016316

>>1016301
>>1016313
>>1016315
Come the fuck on, she's a cow and worse things have been posted on /snow/ for lesser offenses

No. 1016317

>>1016315
On a gossip imageboard where unflatteringly pictures are constantly being nitpicked for fun?

No. 1016318

>>1016315
yeah dont be a moralfag. i wanna see her too

No. 1016319

>>1016315
she must not be ugly if you aren't posting her then

No. 1016320

>>1016314
If they’re not getting rewarded with sex every half hour then they genuinely think everything they do is a waste of time. That’s way they seethe when women overtake them, because she’s not gonna want muh dik now. They go out of their way to make women uncomfortable so that they leave. I know a friend of a friend who worked in a sales environment that was very high earning, low skilled and male dominated. They where baffled when I tried to explain that buying dildos as a secret Santa present for the women was offensive and gross and contributing to the high turnover of female staff but they where straight up flabbergasted. They would just rather believe women are shit at the job (when most of the time the job is easy as piss and all you need is a modicum of confidence to do it) rather than fed up of the dehumanising behaviour.

No. 1016322

this is literally steven vendetta posting from different IPs

No. 1016323

>>1016322
No it isn’t, we are just fed up with her. The same people who tried to stick up for her against Steven now hate her.

No. 1016325

>>1016322
Implying I don't hate both and am fed up with their bullshit

No. 1016326

>>1016322
Both are disgusting attention seeking pieces of shit.

No. 1016328

>>1016319
Sounds like she is ugly but people want to keep the fun for themselves. Why even gatekeep a public Facebook selfie? And then I bet these are the same anons digging for Corpse Husband pics and leaking them.

No. 1016329

>>1016302
My own grandmother is like this, she refuses to have serious discussions about what she's feeling. She'd rather play weird mind games and punish me passive aggressively.

No. 1016330

>>1016328
It seems like shes average and they don't want anyone to disagree. If not why gatekeep a supposedly ugly mug? what''s the worst that could happen if shes indeed ugly? other anons agreeing?

No. 1016333

>>1016330
im actually going with pretty until proven otherwise

No. 1016335

>>1016333
Sorry to say this to you anon but you sound retarded.

No. 1016337

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>>1016333
She did say she was pretty and ugly girls bullied her in middle school.

No. 1016338

>>1016335
Nonnie I promise you, as long as this conversation goes on, you all sound retarded

No. 1016341

>>1016338
Nah she’s right you do sound retarded. Romania anon is ugly with a shit haircut, end of.

No. 1016342

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No. 1016343

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she literally looks like a moid hope she kills herself(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 1016344

Let's leave this bullshit in this thread anons, and be civil and venty in the next one.

No. 1016345

>>1016341
That wasn’t me dumbass, all you’re saying is she has a bad haircut. But ugly how? close set eyes? tiny forehead? big jaw?

No. 1016346

>>1016343
Just like I thought, she literally looks average. You anons are unhinged

No. 1016348

>>1016343
Come on, just delete this. She's gonna go full-sperg and write a Stephen King lenght novel in the upcoming thread.

No. 1016349

>>1016346
anon, if you actually read the schizo posts she makes she brags many times bruh about being naturally so pretty and smart that everyone hates her for it… she is not. like you're saying, anything of the sort. wk yet its what we are all agreeing on, pretty silly.

No. 1016350

>>1016343
I can’t believe she thinks she’s pretty kek she’s below average.

No. 1016351

>>1016344
You know they (and she) won't

No. 1016354

>>1016349
I guess, whatever, let’s all forget about her now

No. 1016356

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>>1016354
No(stop derailing)

No. 1016357

>>1016346
Shes below average, kinda fug, could be prettier if she didn't suck dick for a living and if she wasn't a psycho

No. 1016359

>>1016320
kek imagine the outrage if male nurses were treated the same by female coworkers

No. 1016368

>>1016356
idk who is this person but she looks decent, you sound as insane as her nonettes

No. 1016369

>>1016346
>You anons
It's probably the steven moid spamming in 10 different threads within an hour.

No. 1016370

why do normies love saying they're going to "check things out"? i know you aren't going to. so why even lie?

No. 1016379

>>1016368
If by decent you mean molester then sure

No. 1016385

>>1016379
she said she was raped at 8 and lived in a village where other kids would molest each other constantly kill animals and she was being drugged up by older kids. Just shut up already, these posts are more annoying than schizo-chan herself.

No. 1016387

>>1016356
she's pretty but i still dont know why her photo is being spammed here

No. 1016409

I just had a flashback to when my dermatitis spread to my face and I was living overseas two years ago. I was stressed out of my mind and suicidal. I walked into a chemist and I went to the counter basically crying and I asked the guy, "please fix my face I don't know whats wrong with me" and he said I shouldn't be upset. He gave me hydrocortisone and it went away within a day. For 3 months I had people ask what was wrong with my face everyday, it was so shit. I remember running back to the chemist to tell him thank you a few days after. My face is kind of breaking out right now so I am a bit worried, and I didn't realize you shouldn't use hydrocortisone for long periods of time. I don't know what to do aghh

No. 1016488

>>1016370
It's more polite than saying "I'm not interested, fuck off with your lame shit."

No. 1016514

>>1016258
NTA but fuck this 'Troon character' shit AKA letting troons have shit real women enjoy
Shock horror real women can genuinely like things trannies do without being trannies

No. 1016515

>>1016301
She's dumb but she looks quite cute tbh



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