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No. 1010495
Unleash the beast
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>>>/ot/1005183 No. 1010519
>>1010502I'm the anon towards the end of the last thread with the shit boyfriend and I wonder this too.
And if you ask for any investment, it's suddenly your fault for being needy in their eyes, god forbid you want to spend maybe more than an hour with them. They only want to focus on their dreams and you're just an obstacle to them. Why even fucking bother to begin with then?
No. 1010531
>>1010526Thank you!
>>1010530He isn't itchy but apparently some people don't react to bed bug bites at all. You might be right though
nonnie, I'll keep it in mind. Thank you for telling me.
No. 1010534
>>1010501sounds like vaginismus.
>>1010467Here's the absolute broadest and as such useless advice white-collar that I can give:
>the idea of a linear or exponential career path is a myth for most people. if you look at any given person who you would consider successful, chances are that they had a rough time at some point and had to work through it. persistence and passion are what get you through the door if you're working a white-collar job and not hired right out of school>if you're unemployed, set modest employment goals and portion off a few hours of a few days a week towards sending out resumes. if you find yourself getting stuck at any point in the process then troubleshoot your methods before continuing to send out resumes>getting rid of your 'protagonist syndrome' and learning how to cope with (relative) mediocrity is the best thing you can do for yourself if you want to carve out a good life for yourself. Western countries and America in particular have a mythology where anybody can dream big and defy their wildest expectations with hard work and a bit of luck, or that prodigies coast into their dreams. The reality is that a fraction of a fraction of us will ever reach our dreams, and that's okay. You just need to strive for a relative point of stability and look for something more once you can and if you want to.>Same goes for relationships>Always prioritize full-time jobs and especially jobs with benefits over gig shit No. 1010559
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Fiancé whined at me because I told him I applied for a weekend contract job to make more money. He's upset because he won't ever get to see me.
While I don't want to be resentful, yet I am. Sorry fiancé, you don't make enough to support me. I split every bill including our mortgage with you and I'm finding it hard to dig myself out of the debt I took on to improve and furnish our new house. Working more is the mature thing to do for this situation. I won't ever get days off now but what choice do I have? Who's gonna pay my debt?? Nobody. Not him, even though he benefits from the debt I've been left to pay.
It makes me think he's actually mad that he won't get to act like the most pressed in the room anymore with his wacky juvenile retail schedule and customer interactions–also matters that I have years of personal experience with but are treated like they didn't happen because I have a 9-5 office job now as an adult.
I want to chew him out for shirking out on so many of these responsibilities.
He's a man who's older than me. If he wanted to have a higher paying job he could and he would be taken seriously and be paid more just because he is a dude. He's just lazy. Meanwhile I actually apply, prove, and jump through hoops myself and can't even be paid for what I'm worth. I'm so tired, but I fucking have to.
No. 1010565
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I hate everyone and what everyone has done to me and how my work has never been paid and how I've been demonized and how people just tell me empty words like "move your country" or "get help". I have crippling mental and physical illness and nobody has ever helped me people have only harassed me especially women. I've had around 10 women trying to make me kill myself in the past 1 year. I live in 9/10 pain and soon my father and I won't be able to pay for electricity or food and I cannot get a job nor immigrate. I think very soon I will become unable to walk. I have very severe Elhers danlos due to abuse and extreme neglect as a child. My country doesn't offer me governmental support and I've lost my job as a camgirl due to women harassing me on the internet. It was the only job I could work. I'm literally physically unable to work. I'm murderous due to whatever people have done to me. People are so selfish and egoistical and only rich and upper middle class people succed and I have to listen to their stupid trauma that is not real and give them attention while my issues have been and are objectively 100000 times worse and im supposed to be thankful for whatever empty word you throw my way. You tell me to get help but help costs money that I do not have and that I cannot work to have due to extreme abuse that has left me crippled and that I have NEVER had any support for. The only time I have ever had support was when I could pay for it with money from being a camgirl but I got harassed by rich and well of radfems from 1st world countries that don't know what suffering is and I've been harassed by another camgirl that was lying about being mentally ill for scrote attention and she also had to steal my entire personality due to her bpd and send scrotes after me to harass me. I was extremely abused to the point where I'm crippled I spent my childhood in extreme poverty and physical abuse and never got help or therapy for it since I'm in a 3rd world country. I cannot get benefits and my dad has worked his entire life and he won't have a job. People are evil and especially women. I will very soon use my energy and remaining physical capacity to kill some BPD whore that ruins people's lives. Women are literally incapable of real empathy and are so judgemental. Women have ruined my life and no radfem will help me with money or anything and only judge me or objectify my suffering as a story for their stupid internet arguments. I truly hate humans. I was given shit by life to the point I will die in my early 30s and instead of helping me people only dragged me down but especially women. Women are so judgemental and non understanding. They are as bad as men. I curse you and hope great misfortune will come your way. You are not responsible for your "work", your environment is. If you were born like me you wouldn't have nothing. You don't understand how important socio economical factors are.Now shut the fuck up and suffer you stupid whores i have all your pictures and addresses and I will come to ruin your lives like you have proceeded to ruin mine. You cannot have any empathy for anyone but yourself and your "narc" parents and if someone tells you they have it worse it's all about you. Nobody will help me unless I become their ideological slave, servant or personal therapist. I'm sorry I cannot offer you more unpaid labor while your empathy is literally limited by me being your ideological servant. It's not like you can actually have empathy for me because of my situation you don't have empathy as most people you are unable of it. I was supposed to love life but how can I love life when all this great misfortune has hit me since my childhood and has modified my brain and left me physically crippled? I have realized I cried for people in way more better off situations while they never truly ever had it for me. My entire life I have offered people unskilled labor and they offered me shit. People are horrible and you won't know it until you meet true misfortune. Why should others live when I was not allowed to live and nobody helped me? I am literally physically crippled and im developing ulcers in my stomach because I've been taking pain killers daily for 1 year. I'm becoming unable to walk or open my mouth due to my joints and I cannot afford medical help and soon I won't have electricity in my house because my dad doesn't have a job. I cannot get benefits. Cannot immigrate. Cannot work. I don't know what Jobs to work from home. I have no connections or friends anymore and I've been looking on the internet for jobs and I cannot find any stay at home jobs. How do people get jobs from home? I can speak English, I'm beautiful and I can do basic tasks
Most humans don't even truly work and their job is offered to them by their socialization and environment. I can draw and nobody ever thaught me how to. Most people that can make art are guided by environment. Art is not for poor people from disadvantaged social situations. And the only thing you can tell a person that slightly criticzes you is to tell them to kill themselves because you are raging narcissists that project it on people that do not do things the way you want because you think everything revolves around you. Nobody has ever validated my trauma although I was raped, beaten, starved for the first part of my childhood, had intestinal worms and hundreds of other fucked up things and my entire life I had to listen to rich people and people that were better off than me complain about "uwu suicide " and having it hard. People that truly have it hard hide it and are socially excluded. Everything is dependent on dialectical materialism and social status and money. If I had money I could simply fix my issues and go to school. I literally only want enough money to have food utilities and be able to handle my medical issues.(we heard you the first time)
No. 1010571
>>1010562Thanks anon. I wish paying women equally to men were more of a thing. If I got paid worth a damn I'd never want roommates or spouses to live with me.
>>1010567It does legally belong to both of us as my name is also on the deed.
Both of us needed each other to buy a house…but still.
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>>1010565since on every post you mention you poor third world country. hey, schizo, i live in a poor south american country and have my entire life. dude, no one fucking cares. no one owes you jack shit cause you think you're pretty. i am not well off and never have. i believe in feminism cause i live in a place where it is dangerous to simply exist as a woman (altough you could say that about most places but you legit think the world is only the US and Romania). Ive lost friends to human trafficking of women as if they were only sex objects, i was also sexually abused and hid it most of my life then as an adult realized most of my friends and even my own sister was also sexually abused as most women in this country are. but we gossip and we totally ruined your comwhoring career so therefore feminism is a scam… girl, please.
you will never kill yourself. let alone others. you just like coming in here and playing like youre the most opressed and hurt person who has ever lived. but you come back every single day and its all
our fault everytime.
Youre an idiot and thats why youre broke. Socio my ass, bitch. Yes, of course living in a shit country in a shit family you're in disadvantage. But the way to stop that is through hard work education and yes having to put up with assholes every day. It is the way it is. You do not fix it by complaining about being bullied in middle school on a vent thread. So don't act like its impossible to overcome those things, you're just lazy and very stupid. Thank you. Get wrekt.
No. 1010614
>>1010565>>1010575as a fellow thirdie I'm actually taking her side, even though I suffer in this country I'm still part of the rare(what could be considered) an upper middle class
Its lower then people in the west but its better then what a lot of other people have to deal with
I don't know why anons are so dismissive towards her here
No. 1010630
>>1010614Beyond what the other anons said, she hates everyone here for not being as crippled as her (in her opinion) and not offering her an USA citizenship. Have you even read her post? I don't blame you if you didn't, but here are some choice quotes:
>.Now shut the fuck up and suffer you stupid whores i have all your pictures and addresses and I will come to ruin your lives like you have proceeded to ruin mine>I will very soon use my energy and remaining physical capacity to kill some BPD whore that ruins people's lives>How do people get jobs from home? I can speak English, I'm beautiful and I can do basic tasks>Women are literally incapable of real empathy and are so judgemental. Women have ruined my life and no radfem will help me with money or anything and only judge me or objectify my suffering as a story for their stupid internet arguments. I truly hate humans.>my entire life I had to listen to rich people and people that were better off than me complain about "uwu suicide " and having it hard. People that truly have it hard hide it and are socially excluded. >not that post, but basically "stop larping as a neet/hikki you ugly whores, trauma is quantified and yours is fucking nothing compared to mine, so shut up you western cunts"How many times can you read this bs and not get angry? She is being hateful toward most of the username here, if not everyone (western women, radfems, traumatized women… probably missed something)
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>>1010634
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I don't know why everyone's hating this, there's some great content in this thread rn
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>>1010649
Cats are built different you fool.
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>>1010642>Yes I'm unironically saying both sides are bad and I'm tired of it.As you should, you're 100% right. This place is good because it's the ideal middle ground - not women hating, racist, homophobic MRA/MGTOW/trad rightoids, but also not women hating, libfem, sex positive queerpoclgbabc tranny loving lefties. I guess women hating is what really unites everywhere else on the internet.
No. 1010660
>>1010646hope you accidentally quoted my post
>>1010630 along with the laser schizo one. I don't even understand why they replied to me
No. 1010707
>>1010702we make such a great team,
nonnie. wrapping my fists as we speak. his lardy girlfriend won't even know what hit her.
No. 1010727
>>1010641>>1010630Im a way I do understand her frustration against western radfems, so many of them seem to be upper middle class, having comfortable lives and security that most women in the world can only dream off, It leads non-western women to be envious of western women and also be hateful against radfems for being "ungrateful"
Its a mentality I somewhat have, I try to understand western radfems and am well aware the west has many many issues but I also feel that western radfems are blind to their own privilege's of just living in the west and the fact they always seem unwilling to acknowledge it
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>>1010729his shed is such a dump… looks like that picture where you can't identify a single thing.
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Don't reply to him.
Look at this instead.
No. 1010744
>>1010728Aren't people who would want to help discouraged with the notion that they are trying to be a "white saviour"? I do not even mean radfems. I've personally never seen radfems act like you say, but I believe you and I'm sorry.
>also feel that western radfems are blind to their own privilege's of just living in the westI'm wondering how they are supposed to express that though. Make thankful posts inbetween criticism of western society?
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Anyways, I tried making a cute nail color but the mixture I made had the same brand but slightly different components in them. Some had nail hardeners and some didnt so it caused it to bubble up and burn a hole through the plastic plate I had it in and stain my bed.
No. 1010762
>>1010728oh, that's my first time hearing about that.
>>1010732I think that's possible? I've definitely seen applications open for just /ot/ or /g/ before.
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>>1010761
My income and sustenance are independent of any system.
I don't need anything this world has to offer, so even if my life where to somehow be uprooted, I could survive indefinitely.
Can you radfems even hunt or fish, much less preserve food?
No. 1010770
>>1010765>>1010764>Muh women are superior>Can't even hunt or fishAlaskan women are superior.
You are all just trash.
No. 1010777
>>1010772Lololol
You think I've told you anything new?
Everything I post is being monitored.
>>1010773I'm laseranon :/
This is the first time I've been here I found you through the allchan index.
Next I'm off to harass the Israeli chan
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>>1010773Also holy shit, do you not see the literal laser rifle or something?
Do you really think you would be ok if you got hit with a CO2 laser?
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Also fuck you.
Come fight me irl, I'll show you what it means to have weapons like these.
No. 1010786
>>1010781Naw incels and right wingers don't do shit sadly.
I really wish they would, because my reach is limited, but 3rd and 2nd world militaries listen to me.
Look at belereus, they deployed my weapons after a very short email exchange, and now Poland suffers at it's border
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Nonas, the guy I slept with but kinda parted ways in a not so great way is at a holiday stay now with my other friends. One girl (that has a bf that wasn't invited here) got very drunk and they kept like grinding and shit while we were playing board games, they kept on like touching right in the seat I was facing. He wasn't nearly as drunk and really liked the attention. I think they also might have fucked after we went to sleep. I don't want him at all, I wanted something casual but he is older and wants to start family and that's why we ended it. He was a bit of a dick to me. But it just feels awkward and I don't know how to act towards him. I almost entirely ignored him yesterday and just instinctively tried not to make eye contact. How the hell should I act, I don't know if I can force myself to act casual
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I’m at a New Years party and tried to answer the question “why do we have fuckboys but not fuckgirls?” with some genuine feminist theory. I immediately got jumped on by every moid in the room desperate to share with me their feelings about male mental health and false rape accusations. I entertained them for maybe 20 minutes before I tapped out because I have better ways to spend my evening. One of them was laughing in delight about how “triggered” I was, and the other one said he was desperate to win the argument while also making it obvious he wanted to fuck me. Why are moids so annoying and self-sabotaging
No. 1010856
>>1010852Because admitting that men do bad shit means women might not fuck them, so they have to cope and pretend women are just as bad so you should fuck them anyway. Totes a human thing, totes men are actually oppressed (because individual moid does not have world laid at his feet). They're
triggered about being degenerates, but don't want to give up the self-serving hedonism, or acknowledge it as a bad thing encase others finally stop them from being degenerate.
No. 1010858
>>1010727radfems from this website harassed me for being a camgirl and having slightly different opinions than them although they made it appear like they care about women who are struggling, they DO NOT. Radfem ideology should be about helping women In need but instead they harassed me for being a camgirl and told me I have no excuse and have been trying to make me kill myself on lolcow since I left the server and if I kill myself I will actually post their pictures and names as linked to my suicide. For the past 1 year around 10 women have been trying to get me to kill myself because they cannot stand being disagreed with over one even little thing and will lose all empathy for you if you disagree with them like you are a mere ideological object made to satisfy their thoughts and the moment you do not anymore you do not deserve empathy anymore. Radfems objectify women and literally harsss them on the internet because they have hidden frustrations and extreme mysoginy, not to mention a lot of them are right wingers which are inherently mysoginistic. I consider myself a radfem but do not consider the retards on here that harassed me for being a camgirl, poor and abused and watch gay porn to be Radfems, nor do I consider the stupid twitterfags/tumblrfags radfems to be radfems when they have enough resources and privileges to actually help women. They are just sociopathic narcissists that have appropriated a humanitarian movement for their own ego and to find a community for themselves, not to help women, it is for them not for women Ironically, a lot of them end up harassing even female
victims for being "pick mes" or "sex workers", I get it doing that when necessary but most people cannot see context. See the mentally ill women on this website that actually went through abuse be harassed by the same women that then circle jerk in their echo chambers about being the superior feminists because they are better than them. No, you are not better than libfems you realistically bring no real change to the world for women and you have appropriated a humanitarian movement for your own pleasure because you are a sociopathic narcissist with a delusion of superiority over an ideology. And now you will continue denigrating me and completely missing the point of my post because you are very stupid and everything you care about is yourself and you literally have 0 self awareness. Humanitarian movement about women's rights doesn't go very well with gossip about mentally ill women. Stop appropriating what isn't yours. Radicalfeminism is becoming just another stupid ideology made to stroke people's egos so they can circle jerk amongst themselves. You are literally unaware of what evil appropriating a humanitarian movement brings to the world. Now you're gonna further dehumanize me or make shit up about me or completely misinterpret everything I said and try to twist it your way because you are intellectually and emotionally manipulative and dishonest. Most of the things said about me here are untrue, gossip demonizes people and literally creates a fake demonic reality about them. I did not make the scrote come here, he was already here. I know most of you are newfags but do you remember 6 years ago? There were scrotes on this website and some of them have remained since then. Ironically only BPD scrotes are attracted to gossip which tells something about women. I never said western radfems shouldn't complain about their struggles, but why do they harass me or use me just because I'm poor, mentally ill and dysfunctional and had to rely on camming to make money? Why do they harass me although I am a female
victim and why do 99% of them although relatively healthy and wealthy instead of going out helping women at shelters or redistributing capital to poor women. I will literally make more change in the world if I write a manifesto where I include the struggle of being a woman in a chapter than you ever will and you were given privilege by life. What is your excuse to sit on a chair and do nothing for women but harass them and use their misfortune in arguments. Radfems just like libfems objectify women and use them as a mere tool for their agenda. A very sad world where humanitarian movements cannot exist without people getting their egos involved and really sad that your ideology impacts women more negatively than positively. How have you used your good fortune to help other women? You haven't, but instead you have decided to contribute to the suicide and death of a woman that has been met with misfortune since her birth. You literally cannot read or understand my posts because you are simply stupid. I've never said you cannot complain If you are white, western or rich. A lot of people have called me racist or that I hate 1st worlders but I literally have extreme empathy for even people like Shayna and she is American, I just think she is simply mentally ill and you do not.know the struggles she's been through to end up like that with that much self hatred. You're the ones not.letting me express myself about anything. Can you imagine being met with so much misfortune and abuse and when you reach out to the world you realize literally everyone is a sociopathic narcissist in it for themselves and that if you do not have money you SIMPLY CANNOT GET HELP. Everything is about money and if you don't have it you are fucked, but of course you are incapable of empathy as most humans are. 90% of humans both female and male do not deserve to be alive, as simple as that. Most humans are entitled, have no self awareness, their empathy revolves around them and they refuse to give anything to the world but seek pleasure and comfort for themselves. Also, you do realize people on here constantly LARP as one another and try to troll? Literally Elaine's activity is not even hers like 40% of the things you think she's done or she does are not done by her literally. This is what gossip does, it's kind of like mass psychosis where others convince you of untrue things about someone else and then those things become true because the entire point is to turn that person into a demon and convince others of it too. I won't leave lolcow. I've been here for 7 years. I don't care what you think about me since I only think about the truth. When you are on the verge of death you just don't care anymore. It's kinda sad people from here have added to my death.
How are you supposed to thank fatality it gave you such luck of being born in a good country with money???? Use the time you use on arguing with people, criticizing troons, making fun of sex workers and gossiping about women and watching anime and go to a women's shelter or give money to homeless women. Buy them sanitary pads and food. The only way we can thank the universe for our good fortune and give back is by giving back to others and redistributing resources to those in need and you should be motivated to do this especially because you are a radfem and involved with humanitarian discourse. Either way, I will leave now. You should feel guilty for being handled good enough resources to make a change and everything you can do is sit on your chair and think you're changing women's lives by sitting on a chair and talking. You must actually be shamed and humiliated for being handled resourced by simply luck- you were lucky enough to be born somewhere fortunate enough and you won't die in 3-5 years like me due to extreme abuse and being unable to get health care and I have done more good acts towards women than you have ever did. I've volunteered for female shelters and I would spend my camming money on buying things for homeless women. I just went around town and bought them sanitary pads, clothing, food and so on and I made that money getting naked in front of men but I redistributed it to women in need. Usually homeless women are more vulnerable and deserve help more than homeless men. What's your fucking excuse? Oh, yea, just being a person born in privilege that doesn't know suffering therefore cannot display empathy or help the world. Stop appropriating humanitarian movements for your own egos sociopathic retards. You deserve nothing but death and suffering just as 90% of the human population does. You're all liars and narcissists "radical feminists" my ass. Only other poor people have ever helped me and ironically people not involved with humanitarian movements. Humans that appropriate humanitarian movements have killed anything that is meant for the OPRESSED. There is nothing about those OPRESSED in society and we are being made to think trannies are opressed or that you can be opressed for being of a certain race. You are opressed if you are poor no matter your race, but if you are poor and a woman it becomes 10 times more shittier. Everything becomes shittier when you are a woman, but if you have the resources to help women just fucking do it and you literally have no excuse. I have done more good to this world and I have nothing and will soon die and you cannot be bothered to stop consooming weeb shit, step out of your room and help the hundreds of homeless women that suffer because they WERE BORN DISPRIVILEGED AND POOR and not because they chose it. You're literally sociopaths. Most humans are narcissists/sociopaths. You have the resources, time and privilege to make a change and everything you can do is laugh as Shayna's pussy, make fun of me for being a camgirl and argue with troons. That's where your feminism begins and ends, you waste of human resources and space. I'm not leaving the vent thread and I will vent until I die and come back every year after year after year until I die. You're so narcissistic. This is an imageboard so different opinions should be allowed theoretically but like absolutely any other space on the internet it has turned into an echo chamber. You won't shut me up you pathetic narcissists. Go masturbate in your stupid "radfem" circle jerk. Most humans literally do not bring anything of value to this world and just want to make money for themselves and do things for themselves and they just create and partake in more useless production of useless unneeded services while they lie to themselves that they are contributing to the world while people that have the genetical intellectual potential to change the world are being born in India. Fucked up world, fucked up world fucked up world. Some people are living like humans used to live when humanity began and some humans own as much capital to save the entire world and that capital is not even rightfully earned, it is just passed on from generation to generation with the necessary socialization of earning more money. Fucked up world. I wish only suffering and misfortune upon you if you have a good life, most humans with good lives are born into it or manipulate and do a lot of social and environmental damage to earn their money and have a good life. The main quality of earning money is not the skill of the labour you are doing in itself but you have to have the skill of manipulating masses and being a deceitful liar and you have to constantly lie to yourself that what you're doing is actually meaningful and that you are a good person. If you were given, then give something back to the world but material because your life is good since you were given something material.
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>>1010858>NPD+BPD.exe executedPic for the things we hate thread anon.
No. 1010877
>>1010856It’s so fucking tiring like. The short version I gave was women as a class don’t have the power and resources men as a class do and make sexual purity isn’t as prized as female SP, so women can’t wield sex as a weapon against men the way they do against us. I thought it was a perfectly reasonable response, no naming names or pointing fingers, but they had to jump in and try and “well akshully” me into a coma.
>>1010858Get a diary camchan the adults are talking.
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I know New Year is just a day and it's a meaningless date but I've never in my life been worse and it hurts. Depression has spiralled out of control, maybe the new meds are making it worse, I'm completely alone and overwhelmed with this awful hopelessness about the future. Not how I imagined my 30 year of life to look like.
No. 1010931
Fuck the autists who actually read and respond to sperg posters
>>1010922Agreed, even if I didn't have pets I'd still hate that shit.
No. 1010983
>>1010922Same. In my country the sale and use of any fireworks bigger than sparklers is banned this year but for the past weeks, people have been setting off all sorts of explosions around my flat, as well as destroying bus stops and mailboxes with illegal fireworks. For some reason I’m expected to feel bad for men (it’s
always boys and men) like this when they inevitably injure themselves but honestly, fuck that. The worst part is that they even harass and attack ambulances and EMTs when they show up to help someone whose illegal firework blew up in his face to the point that every year in December we have to have PSAs everywhere like “Hey please don’t attack EMTs when they’re trying to save your friend’s fingers thank you”.
No. 1011000
>>1010988I don’t know how to make it happen, but for the record I would order you a cat care package for the next few months if you want to keep your cat. I guess let me know if we can figure out a way to help
nonnie.
No. 1011004
>>1010922 I loathe fireworks. My dad drives out of state to buy the types that are illegal, and a couple years ago he shot off a bunch next to my bedroom window after I asked him to be quieter because I had an exam in the morning.
Speaking of my dad, I want to vent because he’s been home since Christmas and does absolute jack shit while my mom has been working almost every day. He refused to go to any relatives houses for Christmas because of covid, yet he’s been trying to get my mom to go out to eat with him all week. He didn’t help her at all with the Christmas tree, wrapping gifts they bought, and now he’s been at home on his phone browsing youtube and her facebook account all day. I noticed that he hasn’t even moved his car for her so she doesn’t have to drive around it to leave to go to work. It’s so depressing seeing how he treats her
No. 1011029
>>1010495My bf and I were talking about sexual history and I realized, as I was explaining this one situation that happened, it was actually rape.
My 19 year brain just made excuses for the guy being drunk and aggressive and I thought it was ok because we just started dating. But as I was explaining it to my -now-bf it all clicked.
That guy really woke me up by slamming his dick in with no warning, raped me, and my brain just went on auto pilot the whole time.
Looking back at the relationship, I did tell him the next day it hurt and waking up to unsolicited anal when I was drunk was awful. I remember him apologizing and trying to care for me. I remember him crying and trying to hide it. I tried to brush over it so quickly, I didn’t quite process the severity of it .
After that we didn’t have a great sex life, as you can imagine. But also, I know he hasn’t dated many other people since, and that was 10 years ago. Maybe that’s his guilt, idk.
Im not excusing his actions now, but fuck why did I at 19?
I know trauma is complicated. I know it’s taken therapy to sort out other issues in my life, but why did it click 10 years later? I should have dumped him . I should have called my brother immediately and he would have kicked the guys ass.
The rage I feel is warranted, but also past it’s expiration date. So many emotions. I wish I handled it differently then.
No. 1011069
>>1011051Thank you for thoughtful response. I wish we could have tea and talk about more positive things in our lives.
I’m sorry about that babysitter. I hope he rots.
No. 1011078
>>1011029Seconding
>>1011051I was raped when I was 15, and I also didn't realize I was raped until I told a friend about what happened.
I was crying hysterically and saying no and asking him to stop over and over again until my brain blanked out and started dissociating.
When I told my friend about it, I romanticized what happened as my first time being "rough sex". I also had bruises.
However, the time frame was different in that I told a friend about it the next day. Had I not told her, I'm sure it would have taken months to kick in.
The severity of what happened didn't kick in for a few months or years on different levels.
Trauma is complicated, and our brains want us to be happy. Your brain was coping to find a way to be okay.
No. 1011080
>>1011078Thank you for replying as well. I hate how common sexual assault and rape is. Im sorry that happened to you, I’m glad you had your friend.
I wish it clicked sooner, for me. it’s so much trauma to carry for that long, on top of other events. I was a severe binge eater for a long time land I’m sure it played a part in fueling it.
No. 1011082
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I've always loved imitating voices and making weird sounds since I was little, so I learned to make a lot of cool things with my voice and experimented a lot with singing and voice acting throughout my life (only as a personal hobby).
I recently decided to start taking singing classes and was convinced that it would be extremely easy due to my abilities and vocal range, or that I least I would have a very versatile and unique voice kinda like Nina Hagen. Lord was I wrong. Turns out I learned everything I know with a terrible technique, so I basically have to re-learn everything the correct way, which turns out, is way harder than I expected. I just can't "open"/relax my throat for the life of me, or raise my soft palate, or drop my jaw, or keep my tongue relaxed, or keep my voice properly placed for resonance, or even open my mouth. I didn't expect it to be this difficult at all.
When I more or less do everything the way I'm supposed to with the correct technique, I'm unable to replicate any of the voices and sounds I'm normally able to.
I 100% know it's just about practicing and persevering and I'll eventually become better, but my ego was completely annihilated the moment I took my first class. I really thought I had some sort of natural talent for singing. It's been some months since I started and I still struggle more or less as much as the first day, but I guess I haven't become fully aware and understanding of how everything works and the amount of hard work and practice I have to dedicate to this if I want to get better.
No. 1011083
>>1011082Just keep at it
nonnie. Maybe you do have a natural talent, but since you learned in a different way you just need more time to uncover it. That's actually pretty fascinating though, I also like to randomly sing and wondered what it would be like if I took a class
No. 1011147
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i hate youtube o face i hate it so much, like irrationally so, i want to hurt these people (in minecraft) and that dumb fucking arrow pointing at nonsense? fuck you. i hate youtube in general. i go out of my way to not watch it. i dont go on youtube it just makes me so angry
No. 1011184
>>1011172Same
nonnie.
I also hate the videos zoomers make about internet history and drama just for clicks and clout. Everyone wants to feel like an important person or celebrity now. I miss unscripted nonsense
No. 1011187
>>1011162He doesn't give a shit about my brother because my brother neglects him. I've been taking care of him for 2 years now.
It's new years eve so all the retards are outside making as much noise as possible with fireworks and other shit. I just hope he didn't develop a tolerance to the anti anxiety he gets every new year
No. 1011206
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I think there’s something wrong with me, and I can’t see it but other people can. This is the second time I’ve texted friends about hanging out on an occasion and was ignored by everyone. Once on my birthday and now this. I’m a bit dumb when it comes to social niceties, and I don’t know whether “yeah we should hang out on NYE” was sincere or not, and I’m stuck again like the time I heard “yeah we should catch a movie next week or something” and emptied my weekend and spent it alone, anyway, because that invitation was not sincere. It’s gotten to the point where it made me not want to talk with people anymore because they falsely perform so easily. They’ll be nice and social with someone they aren’t really into and they’ll go above and beyond for them and it fucks with me. I’ve always thought you put in effort with people you like and you don’t bother yourself with those you’re indifferent about, and you make that politely clear. I’m not even upset; I just want to understand.
The only fun interactions I’ve had this year were on lolcow. The only rewarding ones were on here too. I’ve learnt a lot of things from fleeting nonnies here, and got back to reading after not reading for two, three years, mainly because of this site too. I used to want to be a writer all through my teen years and wrote for hours everyday and showed my work to people who helped me believe in myself, but then I got depressed for a good few years and never wrote or read again. And when I tried to read, there wasn’t that anxious joy or excitement at a book. But I’ve found that little joy now, and I found that I really miss it. It’s nice to have it back. I think this is enough of a NYE gift for me; I’ll gladly take being ignored and dismissed if I get to have it.
No. 1011279
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Please let this be bullshit…
I kinda figured there was a reason why I was seeing so many articles praising her lately and hoped it wasn't due to poor health. Right before her 100th too.
F
No. 1011283
>>1011185>>1011179It was this or continuing to pay increasing rent by myself without ever being able to afford a home because my family is
abusive and don't give an actual fuck about me. I was living outside my car, anon.
Be happy that you're privileged enough that you don't have to constantly compromise with lackluster roommates and life partners in order to not be homeless or constantly in threat of it.
No. 1011290
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The absolute total state of de/g/enerates
No. 1011310
>>1011303golden girls wasnt that good but she was a good meme and had a huge following and was adored by the wildest group of people but im seeing more mourning about age # instead of celebrating how she had a cool life. its not doing her any credit
the ay people handle death overall is a bit selfish
No. 1011328
I spent the holidays at my mom's place and the whole time I felt like a rat in a cage. I can't be myself here, I can't do what I want here, I want to go home to my own place, read, draw, watch movies, do an online art history course, whatever. Also, my mother asked me, fully knowing that I have no friends, if I didn't want to spend NYE's someplace else. Sure ma, I would have loved to
No. 1011337
>>1011330welcome to consoomerism
it turns out guys dont care about tit shape as much as we do and if they do they consoom too much and should be tossed into the sun
i believe in you and your tits anon. she has a pair and you do,
No. 1011419
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I'm alone tonight. I live with my aunt and she went to the new year party with her friends and didn't even ask me if I wanted to go with her. I don't have any other family or friends, the only person I talk to at work is at her boyfriend's place, I'm a kissless sexless autist and I'm afraid the next year is going to be exactly the same as the old one
No. 1011441
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I HATE MY SKIN REEEE REEE RE I CAN REEEE REEE TRADE reee REE REEE PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WHY CANT I HAVE NICE SKIN REEEE
No. 1011508
New year vent, i find it hard being happy about new year at all. Just next year of going nowhere, sorry for sounding so dramatic. i'm studying at the university, but still feeling like it's completely useless. i know, i'll get my degree which i need, but probably not going to work in that field i'm studying. i'm a drug addict, depressed, etc. i have no energy/want to do anything, i hate everything i used to like, can't even read books anymore, which is awful. idk how to find any motivation to do literally anything at all except watching TV. i have no energy to try any therapy, medicines or shit, been here done that. i can live like that, just wish i had some more motivation or creativity moments sometimes
No. 1011562
>>1011558I suddenly want to live, I want to take chances, I want to tell my crush how I truly feel… I'll wake up sober tomorrow and have no such feelings but right now… life has ben stagnant, I want to feel alive. I'm just existing right now.
New years fucks me up
No. 1011573
>>1011419You're not alone
nonnie you're here with us! Happy New Years ♥
No. 1011594
>>1011536>>1011548thank you nonnies, it really helps.
>>1011568you're goddamn right.
No. 1011597
>>1011419Don't worry
nonnie, you're not alone. I'm an autistic kissless virgin in my early 30s and I've basically lost all hope to experience love. All of my friends went out to meet their other friends and had a great time. It'll be like this every year, all I have are my 2D husbandos while everyone else gets married and has kids. Happy new year, hopefully it gets better for us at some point.
No. 1011599
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When I was a kid I slept over my best friend’s house on NYE, and we watched the Twilight Zone marathon while eating pigs in a blanket
I don’t think I’ve ever had that much fun on NYE in years
No. 1011601
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>>1011455>>1011597>>1011599nonny discord pajama party when
No. 1011602
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>>1011597Lolcow needs some kind of AMARS compound for all of us to live in
No. 1011604
>>1011601I'll bring the pizza nonas
>>10116033D men are disgusting and make me gag, they should all just kill themselves tbh
No. 1011615
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>>1011611good for u nonna, know your worth!
No. 1011618
>>1011613I have a job too, I just mean my friendships are basically superficial and my love life is dead. Giving up on love/sex feels like it'd be easier if I didn't know what I'm missing out on,
The cliche question, is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all? Both suck in their own way I guess.
No. 1011659
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>finally decided to use dating app
>male roommate that i hate gave me a superlike
off to a great start i guess…
No. 1011661
>>1011659oh no
nonny, that is awful awkward.
No. 1011679
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My roommates both tested positive for Covid yesterday and I started to get chills/headache/stomach pain while I was getting ready to leave to hang with my boyfriend tonight. I was so excited for this stupid holiday, I bought a new dress, tried a new eyeshadow palette and I was just doing my hair when I started to feel shitty. My job gave us all a couple of rapid tests a couple weeks ago and I ended up testing positive. Had to cancel my plans less then an hour before I was supposed to leave and now I'm sitting in bed feeling shittier by the minute. I posted this in the dumbass thread too but fuck my roommate I know she ate out of MY peanut butter jar because she's a nasty fuck and I've seen her do it before less then a week ago.
Anyways, hope all you anons have a good night and party slightly extra hard for me.
No. 1011728
>>1010858>I will literally make more change in the world if I write a manifesto where I include the struggle of being a woman in a chapter than you ever will and you were given privilege by life. What is your excuse to sit on a chair and do nothing for womenDidn't you sperging earlier up in the thread about how you much you hate women for being judgmental and were going to kill some "BPD whore" in your own words?
This is why no one likes you. Every time you come here with your sob story you ruin any goodwill we may have by being as vile as possible. You have to have an IQ in the single digits to threaten to kill people and animals and yet still expect empathy from anybody. I seriously doubt that you made so many enemies simply for "disagreeing" with them, that's just you playing the
victim once again and neglecting to acknowledge how much of a deranged, condescending bitch you are. The ugly inceloid was right about you all along.
No. 1011786
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Not even a year in and hes lost pretty much all sexual interest. Spent the new year's being rejected and ignored. I know ive gained weight but for once in my life i am at a normal size. He was the main one pushing me to stop being underweight. Well now he doesnt even want to touch me. Not only do i feel fat, but i also feel really fucking ugly. Heres to all my fellow fat ugly dumbasses!
No. 1011808
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AAAAA I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE BEFORE I MOVE AWAY FROM MY CITY BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO FLIRT WITHOUT GETTING FLUSTERRD AND HOW TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE IM NOT MEETING SOME RANDO FOR SEX OR HOW TO HIDE THE EVIDENCE goddamn it probably won't even be worth it
No. 1011832
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There is literally nothing to me. I have no hobbies, I don't have any passion, I have nothing to talk about and I have achieved nothing. I listen to music all day but have no favourite artist or genres. I couldn't tell you the last show I watched or what I thought of it even though it was probably last week. I literally can't talk to people. Even when my social anxiety is doing okay I have nothing to say. I want to talk to people but there is nothing to me, nothing interesting about me. I know people say take up a hobby so you will have things to talk about but I am not good at anything and I have no motivation.
I feel like if I did try and find something it would be fake, like I'm only doing it so that I have something to talk about rather than me actually being interested in the thing. I feel completely empty and like I will never find someone that I can connect with.
Sometimes I want to put myself out there just like that, lay it out bluntly. Find someone near me (or not) and we could do things together while we try and find some meaning in out lives, but I know it would be the same as always. The texts would dry up nearly immediately because I'm not socialised (was home schooled and couldn't make friends as a child, plus I am genuinely very uneducated and dumb) and can't hold conversations.
Maybe I need someone that is the opposite of me, someone who can carry the conversation 95% of the time, I've been around out going people before and I did eventually come out of my shell a little bit.
But someone like that most likely already has friends because they can talk to people andwouldn't want anything to do with someone like me.
So I start reaching out in unhealthy ways, look for attention anywhere I can get it.
Tempted to talk to sexual old men on the Internet because they'll give you attention. Sure, they're also giving it to a bunch of other young women, most likely only in the hopes they'll be able to get nudes out of it, but at least it's human contact outside of immediate family.
I am going to take 2022 and attempt to improve myself in some way. I am going to lose weight, consistently take medication, start exercising again, work on learning some of the basic education that I lack, start reading again, attempt to find things that I am into that I actually have the drive to learn more about.
And if by the end of the year it all fails and was for nothing, I'll go full anachan fetlife degen that talks to old men on the Internet and eventually end up killing myself.
I don't know how to not feel this way. I don't know how to talk to people and everything I do feels fake. I literally feel defective.
I leave the house less than 5 times a year (not an exaggeration) I've never had a job, I have next to zero formal education. I feel like I was set up for failure and it hurts seeing people around me succeed.
I am wasting my youth I'm only 23 but I feel so old and I look like shit because I never took care of my skin because I didn't care about myself. I know I have plenty of time to turn things around but I genuinely don't think that I can.
The longer I take the worst things get. Harder to make friends because everyone else in your age group has there shit together and is so much more mature than you, harder to get a job because everyone else already has years of experience on you.
I want a girlfriend, so I'm going to work on myself get into shape and work on my skincare.
I know, why not seek attention from on older women rather than a man if you want a girlfriend. It's daddy issues plain and simple. I have mommy issues too but it's different because she is in my life a lot more than him so the ways I'm fucked up is different for the both of them.
I can't articulate my thoughts or seem to form fleshed out opinions, maybe my brain is fried after 10 years of being depressed and is now unsalvagable.
With all that being said, I am actually optimistic about 2022. 2022 is my make or break year. I am going to work on myself the whole year, I have already started medication again which is helping my emotional eating and I'm already losing some weight.
I have this longing to go to America because they have trees there that I really like that aren't here. Maybe I'll study tree types, I don't know anything about trees but I do know that I like looking at them and being around them. That's something that I'm kind of interested in. Maybe I figured out at least one thing about myself.
I just needed to get that off my chest.
No. 1011844
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you just HAD to unpromptedly tell me off on new years for not being in the mood, making me feel inadequate in the process.
it seems as if you view my own happiness as brownie points for your parenting.
no surprise I turned out to be one miserable bitch.
No. 1011866
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I wish there would be less infighting in the vent threads. OT is a safe haven for wholesome nonnies, though I know this website isn't really the best place for sunshine and rainbows.
A vent is a vent. Sage for low quality vent kek
No. 1011924
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What is with these dudes I’ve had pursue me or been in relationships with come back years later to get all up in my DMs? THEYRE ALL MARRIED. Every last one of them, even the ones I flat out rejected years ago. I’d never in a million years try anything with any of them (hooray for late to lesbianism) but it’s so disgusting that long after they’re married and popped out a fresh baby or two they show up to rekindle an old flame or whatever. It’s so fucking pathetic watching them cry about their new lives and being busy because they married the first girl they got pregnant, then try to flirt like they didn’t just moan about their wives 5 messages ago. Take care of your new baby and work on your marriage. Revolting worms.
No. 1012034
>>1012027> did you feel sad when she was talking to you?Honestly, no but that's because I was so focused on keeping a sad face I couldn't think about anything else. It's not the first time this happened and I really dread the next time because even if I explain it to the person, it's not going to sound convincing. I mean, I was in tragic situations and if someone started laughing I would feel a bit hurt.
>>1012028Thank you anon! It makes me feel a bit better. I'm looking up stories about involuntary laughing and smiling at tragic news but it also frightens me a bit when I see the word psychopath/sociopath being often brought up within the context. But I recalled right now that when I thought I was about to lose my cat, I didn't laugh, I just cried. So I really don't know anymore.
No. 1012059
>>1012044I'm so glad to hear that, anon. Reading your post made me sad even though I didn't even know the full story kek. Always watch over and protect your dog,
nonny. She really could've been killed over some shitty asshole lying
No. 1012062
>>1012044Amazing news! Give your dog a nice hug for me,
nonnie.
No. 1012132
>>1010495My ex is such a cow. It is so entertaining watching him act like father of the year, while DM’ing my friend/ his co worker trying to hookup. #familyman
I told her to share the receipts with the baby mama but she doesn’t want to “start a fight”. Ma’am, the fight began with the dick pic he sent.
But apparently him posing in matching pjs with his family is enough for her to turn the cheek, because she doesn’t want to be labeled homewrecker. n my humble opinion, she is causing great damage by letting it slide.
It’s good milk and great entertainment to watch him grow older and fatter, balder and uglier, all while trying to make his social media perfect.
No. 1012137
>>1012099My roommates gf is skinwalking me hard, to the point she has ordered all the same skincare regime I keep in the bathroom, she literally buys the same brands of food items the same day I bring them home. (I’ve even switched it up and she’s copied.) I started a new job and week later she’s “applied and has an interview there”.
Bitch, you’re not fooling me or my bf. Next you’ll dye your hair to look like mine too.
As my dad says, “often imitated, never duplicated.”
No. 1012143
>>1012136See I’m on the other side of this. I can’t deny I find women beautiful and sexually attractive, but I’m in a relationship. My bf supports me, but I’m afraid to even ask a chick out without being clingy. (He doesn’t want to initiate a threesome, he just supports my curiosity)
But I also want to explore my sexuality, ah. So difficult.
No. 1012150
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>>1012147Wow wait hold on please explain how you navigate these waters I am taking notes.
No. 1012151
>>1012142All y'all in
toxic non-
abusive relationships say that "it's not that easy" as if you're going to have a lot more decades of opportunity to be happy and free of people who are willing to lie to you and get angry if you point it out. You're going to look back on the times you wasted on people who don't respect you & your heart in regret.
No. 1012152
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I have an exit plan for leaving the country in a couple months but don't have the motivation to do literally anything in the meantime. I'm worried because I still have responsibilities to carry out and failing to do so could sabotage my plans.
No. 1012158
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No matter how hard I try, my mental health keeps getting worse. I don't know how much longer I can do this for nonnies. It hurts so much. Every day.
No. 1012160
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>>1012152You can do it,
nonnie, you will be able to succeed.
No. 1012162
>>1012094I don’t know. At this point I’m starting to feel like there’s something inherently wrong with me as a person, like there’s something about friendship and life I don’t have access to. Whatever you hear about online and see in the movies, that doesn’t work with me. I’m not upset by it, I’m just perplexed. What is it with me that doesn’t click?
Anyway it won’t matter if I drop them as friends. We’ll have the same amount of contact anyway.
No. 1012163
>>1012156That's definitely a factor, but it's mostly that I've just stopped caring about the stuff I need to do here given that I'll be leaving it all behind soon. Thanks for the support,
nonnie!
>>1012160Thanks for the encouragement!
No. 1012168
>>1012162 I’ll be your friend! Have no idea how to make that happen through the board though.
( I mean if we click)
No. 1012176
Depression is a natural reaction to the world around us. There is a huge disproportion between pain and happiness; the phenomenon of chronic pain exists, but there's no such thing as chronic pleasure; your body can get heavily damaged very quickly, but the recovery always takes much longer; acquiring knowledge takes time and effort, but it can be taken away in a second through a stroke or some other kind of brain damage; one traumatic event can break you mentally for life and cause you to struggle, but one very happy event can't give you permanently good mental health forever. There are multiple examples, you can't say that depressed and pesimistic people only see one side of the coin and that the world is divided into two equal parts because it is not. "Healthy" people assume our perspective is distorted only because their perspective makes it easier for them to adjust and adapt to the world through COPE, but that doesn't make it objectively true. Terapy is a meme. Yes little anon, take that magic bluepill I've been paid to give you and it will fix you, the environment of late stage capitalism you live in is not the problem, the chemical imbalance in your brain is! Depressed people see the world as it is, they see all sides, they just can't delude themselves anymore like "healthy" people, which is why they fall into depression. This world was created for meat machines incapable of deeper reflection about the implications and fairness of the game they're playing and keep forcing new beings to play it without their consent, and ridiculing those who refuse to play the game, when the only way to win is not to play anymore. There was no need for anything to exist. Life exists because your DNA wants to spread itself like a parasite and anything you say to defend life is just your biological imperative speaking and lizard brain seething, there's no deeper meaning behind it.
No. 1012190
>>1012184lmao
nonnie, I watched the first vid yesterday too. Of course trannies can relate to coomers cutting their dicks off with the mere purpose of living their fetish 24/7. They're just showing their true nature.
No. 1012273
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nonnies I hate being an adult.. i’m 19 and you all may love being independent, responsible and being an adult but that’s not me the rest of you stay safe out there
No. 1012298
>>1010495>post vulnerable post in new thread>realizes too late it’s posted somewhere else but I can’t find itI suck so fucking much goddamnit I do deserve the dumb ass band I’m bound it get banned now.
It’s 2022 and I’m a DUMB bitch
No. 1012302
>>1012286they needs to stuff this "uwu i hate adulting" crapola back in their sweatpants. you dont have to get a "real job" in an office or w/e but any retard can work a wagie service job and be independent. like grow up kek. "im too sad" like binch single moms make it work somehow, and you only have yourself to pay for.
first world life is fucking easy. hate this "im too good for service jobs but too awkward for office jobs" mindset. get over yourself and get ya hands dirty.
No. 1012316
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>snag cute dress from Buy Nothing group
>lady is located a 20 minute walk away
>my neighborhood is kind of sketchy
>ask partner if he wants to take a walk with me
>he's feeling down so says no
>okie dokie it's daytime so nbd
>walk outside
>NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES LATER
>man walks up to me with stupidest smile
>"hey can I ask you a question? whats your name?"
>give him the most wtf look
>"I don't want to give you my name"
>I make nonsense noises and angry hand movements until he goes away
>I go home
>message BN lady that I changed my mind
I can't have one nice day in this neighborhood without my nigel there to physically tell these scrotes to back off
No. 1012348
>>1012311>this happens to zoomers because they just let spotify/youtube shuffle play and don't actually pick anything out themselves. thus they dont actually have anything that they actively seek out. it's quite sad really.NTA but the weird thing to me about this is like…nothing ever stands out to them? They have no emotional reaction like
I love this, I should research/save/whatever which is how people attain favorites?
I feel like Zoomers are all emotionally numb from their shitty online upbringing or something.
No. 1012397
>>1011832You said you have nothing to talk about yet wrote a pretty long post about how you feel, so no you actually do have something to talk about but I wouldn’t recommend venting to people you’re not very close to.
Working out and working on your skincare will help you make small talk with some people, the topic of skincare would come up randomly and I’d find myself having a convo with someone for about 5 minutes just about skincare or haircare I’m sure the same will happen for exercising. You should also try and read books, just any time of book or join a book reading club/community see if your local library has anything like that. From my experience having a conversation about hobbies is the easiest type of convo to have, you can also talk with people about it online.
If you ever do stick around to exercising people might randomly come up to you to make small convo you could try and learn about them and they could learn about you even if you have nothing to say you could try and talk about aspirations or past experiences, try to look for resources on how to talk to people you have to start from somewhere.
I don’t think it needs to be said but don’t seek out sexual attention from older people.
Sorry if my advice was really simple but I really do hope you achieve your goals in 2022
No. 1012445
>>1012435Jesus Christ
nonnie, drop the fucking drugs, keep them away and don’t let anyone convince you to go back to them, sell them or throw them in a public toilet, you have to do this for yourself.
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Gen
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>>1012424??? What, no he's not. I remember the Asherah's Garden creator's real name. Steven is this guy, he's the scrote who doxxed Romanianon and caused her to have a meltdown on Christmas in these threads. Are you Steven trying to give yourself notoriety? Fuck off
No. 1012467
>>1012465Nonnie, I cannot even begin to explain to you how retarded you sound freaking out that you've failed and your life is over because you're out of your teens.
There are people well into their 30s and 40s who've struggled with addiction or have an ex-convict or other terrible struggles in their past still go on to success and happiness.
No. 1012479
>>1012465I know people who through things like addiction have spent their entire twenties fucking up. Like really fucking shit up and wasting the years away with nothing to show for it. Soon as they got their shit together they picked life up again. It's all you can do. You can't get time back but you can start over whenever you're ready. 20 is nothing.
I know a guy of 33 who got out of prison lately, addiction and robbery in his past, he's working and driving and doing the stuff he should've done years ago. Nice enough guy now, took him a while to get there but he sure put my 'couple years of going hermit' into perspective for me. People have to pick themselves back up after all sorts of long pauses like that.
No. 1012500
>>1012474>>1012479>>1012467Thanks nonnies. It’s not really that I’m upset I grew out of my teens, it’s just that I’ve been sleepwalking through my entire life in a depressed fog. My brain is fried. I spent all my years holed up inside, and not in a cool hermit Hildegard of Bingen type of way. I live in a shitty third-world country and I have no money and being a girl here sucks to be it very lightly. I’ve never thought I’d have a “future”, like you know how Americans talk about how the 2008 crash ruined future for them? I’ve never had that, because things have been fucked here forever. But when I was a teen I guess I thought there’d be magic around adulthood that would transform my environment, kek. My aspirations have genuinely become painful because they’re reminders of my constraints and own helplessness. Sometimes it feels unfair in this really childish way, that other people have it better than me by luck, by being born elsewhere, or even born to financially stable conditions, something that I haven’t known since I was 10. It’s just one of these nights. No matter how I’ll feel about it it won’t change anything, though.
>>1012488Hell yeah I am!!!!!!!!!
No. 1012507
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>>1012465Am truly enjoying the very noticable gradual increase of zoomers entering their quarter life crisis, kicking and screaming. It's like watching someone afraid of water freak out in the shallow baby zone. I wonder how bad it'll get when they realize Gen Alpha is about to take their place as the next generation of navel-gazing, terminally online youth with opinions.
No. 1012511
>>1012456Same for me
nonnie. I get compared to trannies quite often, and the men who have been attracted to me were chasers or attracted to masculine women. A cruel life we laed
No. 1012515
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>>1012456>built like a hon>built like a HunLet's go
nonny No. 1012523
>>1012348Of course they do
nonnie everyone does. Very weird generalisation.
No. 1012531
>>1012524Getting grossed out by crazy dangerous cam prostitutes =/= stephan the discord autist
Remember that she cried that her nudes were leaked even though she’s a camgirl. She craycray.
No. 1012540
>>1012507It’s not about aging, for me at least. I’d love to be 30, 40, but I’d also love to be able to stand up and say I’ve made those years count, say I’ve made my dreams come true. With my conditions though I can’t do anything. But this thing you have with zoomers does say a lot about you, anon. Having problems with younger people does hint at having unresolved issues with one’s youth, and the opposite is true for retarded zoomers who go “you’re 30!!!!!!!!!!” …unresolved issues with one’s old age. Better make peace with it
nonnie instead of being spiteful and petty.
I think this issue is a universal though, feeling “too old” or like time’s gone by. Especially with those who happen to be born into less than fortune circumstances go through. Just feels shittier because I live in a thirdie shithole.
>>1012501I know it’s rich of me to speak but 26 seems like a perfect age for college. You’re really young but the retardation has worn off so you know your priorities right. I’ve heard from lots of people that going to uni at 26, 27 was a better choice in hindsight because of the brain reaching full development. And I know irl people who went to college at that age and they seem pretty cool. I’d say if you’re financially stable and have some savings you’ve got one part down. You’re going to grow older anyway, so do you won’t to do something you like with that time or just paralyze yourself into inaction? Because you can be stuck in static for years, anon. Start with small stuff, definitely. And it’s never too old to have friends. You just to figure out how to find them. Good luck! Don’t get hopeless, you can always do something extremely retarded and deranged.
No. 1012546
>>1012519I never told her to kill herself. I actually defended her and tried to be kind when possible, but then she posted that she wanted to kill her cat as a grown adult, so I stopped
Doesn't change that Steven is an unhinged, misogynistic piece of shit himself. He didn't turn on her because of her bleak childhood confessions, he did it because he's an incel. Two people can be bad, and usually, the male is worse
No. 1012549
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>>1012544Does anyone have a screen capped quick rundown
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>>1012470I think a big reason I am not attracted to males is that I know their assholes and mouths are dirty. I wash my asshole after every dump and have mouthwash by the kitchen to rinse my mouth after every meal. I know no male would willingly adopt these standards so I've decided to be chaste forever vs living in a reality where skidmarks are actually a thing.
No. 1012553
>>1012549>girl shows up says she was doxxed and her nudes were leaked by a guy she met on here>girl says she will kill herself>no nonnie doxx him we will defend your honor>STEVEN you EVIL man you are making me KILL meself x10>girl says she was abused and sexually assaulted and killed cats and molested other children when she was 8>anons get into a fight whether she’s a result of abuse or whether she’s genuinely deranged>anon posts steven’s fb>anons flock to metal band member lookalike to tell him to self destruct>stevtard is smug, keeps saying Femanons,,,,my lovelies,,,,I understand why you’re enraged,,,,,but this is a CHILD MOLESTER>stevtard keeps posting here>anon infightinf about morality, couple of anons keep insisting they’re samefagging and clogging up the thread>romanian anon is a sex worker>what the fuck why you are you so upset that your nudes are out then>i dont know i went to eat some christmas cookies but i think the anon infighting drowned them outyes how did you know i have no social life irl
No. 1012555
>>1012553Oh so Romanian anon is the one who this happened to? I thought it may have been the schizo who was posting walls of text a couple of days ago. Idk maybe they're the same person
Anyway thanks for the update
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>>1012551Holy shit I read some of it already and for anons who love to call other anons who are having a bad day BPD, she is the real BPDchan in the flesh
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No. 1012567
>>1012552I had an ex who loved prostate stuff but refused to ever 'clean out' in prep. He didn't have a great diet and wanted it deep. Dude if you want any woman to be willing then you have to do this one thing. It's not asking for much.
He eventually made ass stuff an ultimatum.. but still wouldn't budge on the cleaning issue. I had to laugh. Fuck me what is wrong with men? Good luck finding a scat fetishist of a woman I guess.
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>>1012567>He eventually made ass stuff an ultimatumIt was that important to him but yet he wouldn't eat right or do enema/bidet?? lmao.
I don't even suck dick for performative brownie points, what's with these men who are unashamed of wanting their swamp asses ate.
No. 1012577
>>1011832Glad you got that off your chest, anon. I know everything can feel overwhelming at times and your post definitely does unfortunately come off as a little pathetic, but it's good that you're making strides to change that. You're so young! I think getting a job is definitely in your best interest, it helps a ton with not only getting out but setting a routine for yourself and also practicing socializing at least a little. That should be a grand goal for you; don't compare yourself to other people, take it all one step at a time. Good luck, you can do it!
P.S. Tree types sound like a really cool interest and seeing as they're super diverse, there's a lot to learn about them. You could even try to have interests that are tree-adjacent, like photography or going to nature reserves and documenting the trees you see there. I'm rooting for you, pun intended.
No. 1012580
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People who play social games and do these social niceties are fucking EVIL and CRUEL. EVVIIIIIILLLLL. I don’t care. They’re genuinely more cruel than anybody I’ve ever seen. I’ve been called every kind of racist slur you could think of and was verbally abused by religious teachers and the most cruel people are I’ve ever encountered were those types of people. They’re even more cruel because they don’t have enough respect for me to be straightforward and honest. They promise me with false nice behavior, talk of going this place and that place, put in effort to listening to me, and then agree to hanging out. Why’d you put so much effort into talking about the Anya Joy Taylor film with me? Why’d you say that we should see it sometime this week when you didn’t mean it? Why’d you pretend to mentally check for days where you’re free? Why’d you let me wait for you after work? Why’d you tell me to wait for you so we can go home together? And then I emptied out my week and foolishly waited for you, only to find out you’re being “nice”. But that is the most fucking cruel thing of all, why’d you let me think that you liked me as a friend? I’d wait for hours for you after work and make mental notes of your birthday and all the things you like so I can buy cute presents like a fucking retard who desperate for friendship because I don’t know how to have it. You like black, edgy vintage skirts, robots, micro-controllers, weird earrings, and you mentioned that your room is empty and you want to decorate it. I was thinking of buying you a poster of that film you said you wanted to see with me but you were fucking lying. And those people, they lied too, when they feigned interest in me and my life, and tried to be complimentary, and said we should hang out on Christmas and NYE, so I emptied out my schedule again and thought, “Maybe they mean it this time, maybe they really do”, but ended up waiting and alone and staring at my fucking phone. Again. Realizing they were being nice too. Again. Realizing that everybody is being just nice to me like I’m the family’s retarded little child who can’t handle being told to fuck off. I won’t be even sad if they told me to fuck off. I’d appreciate the honesty. But I’m genuinely so fucking tired of people acting this way. It’s so cruel to go on and lie like this and put so much effort into it and just say it’s how people act, it’s normal behavior. It’s not and I’m tired of constantly guessing at people’s words and trying to gauge whether they’re sincere or not. Ironically, by trying to be “nice” and “decent”, these people are anything but.
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>>1012579Steven Michael from Phoenix Arizona, was it? Interesting. Very interesting.
No. 1012615
I'm not a whore I was groomed into being a camgirl in the mental hospital at 18 by a girl that was admitted there and was involved with a basically sex trafficking ring. I was admitted to the mental hospital because my mother had just commited suicide, I was already unwell and suffered from severe dissociation because my childhood trauma was left unadressed because my country is poor and it has no mental health awareness. I struggled with severe dissociation and suicidal ideation for my entire life due to the extreme stress and abuse I've endured growing up. When mum killed herself dad also became an alcoholic, I was only 18 I was literally a kid and I was severely distressed. When all my peers started college I was too distressed to put up with the entrance exam. I also couldn't live with my dad and I moved out. I worked in retail but I got fired two times. I ended sleeping on the street and I attempted killing myself at the metro station so the authorities picked me up and I was admitted to the mental hospital. There, a young girl befriended me and she told me about camming and I felt like I was on the verge of death daily and I was about to be homeless so I thought it might be a good idea. I was very poor, distressed. My entire life has been ruined by rape, abuse, neglect, poverty and a shit government that could never help me. I'm not a camgirl, I used to be one, but basically it has ruined my already unfortunate life even more and everything everyone around me has ever told me is that it was my fault my fault my fault from the holy "radfems" to the stupid scrotes. My life is ruined beyond belief and it was never my fault. I was literally thrown into a chaos. I do not want this. I am a smart and worthy individual, but life is not about that. Life is about the socio-economical situation you're born into and if you are born into a bad life, bad circumstances that condition you to do bad things everyone tells you it was your fault and that you should kill yourself. Nobody has ever helped me in my life with anything and I could only go to therapy when I used to be a camgirl because that's the only time I had any money. I cannot afford therapy and medication now and im slowly going insane. I dont know how to work and I might go back to being a camgirl because my career prospects have already been ruined. I literally quit being a camgirl because I came across radical feminist discourse on lolcow but radical feminism simply is not for women like me and radical feminism objectifies me more
No. 1012616
>>1012580I'm sorry nonna. I've been there too. Now I'm so distrusting of people and assume they just think I'm 'off', so I don't bother. But there are some good people out there, you just need to find them. Most people are very performative, they wanna climb the social ladder and look good. Makes the world seem bleak, but good people do exist.
Not trying to be mean but are you on the autism spectrum? And where did you find these people?
No. 1012622
>>1012615supposedly radical feminism was a movement for a humanitarian cause and a class of opressed individuals, it turns out it is not, it turns out it is for other women's egos and circle jerking and stroking your huge narc egos over how good you are. Most radfems are mysoginistic and hateful right wingers and most radfems use the stories of women like me for literal arguments on the internet to why they are right about things
I do not want my misfortune to be objectified and used by anyone. I dont want people that pretend to care about me. I did not choose this life, it chose me. People with certain amounts of privilege do not have the awareness of what it means to literally be doomed by life. There is literally no free will and what is given to you by life the socio economical situation you are born with dictates the outcome of your life, your career, your success. Free will literally does not exist free will is pushed as an ideology by society to absolve itself of the crimes it does tlwards people. If I end up killing myself it isn't because of "free will" it is because a sequence of factors have determined me taking my life, a sequence of external factors that can be traced back to my ancestors. And if I kill myself society does not take responsability for my suicide, when in reality it is society which is responsible for it. I could have been given therapy, could have been given support and help for my situation but instead I was abused my entire life and told to deal with it by myself. The government of this country helped me with nothing. If I was offered some help my life wouldn't have ended in this way and I wouldn't have ended in sex work. Now, I must be faced with "the consequences of my actions" but those were not even my true actions, I did not take them, my environment took them for me
No. 1012637
>>1012627Okay to be fair, anons like
>>1012620Calling
abusive moids 'hot' ARE part of the problem and are fucking annoying. You know this man has lied and took advantage of a vulnerable albeit morally questionable girl yet you still decide to stroke his ego? What's wrong with you?
Anyway, Tsun-chan you talk about lolcow like it's one person. You talk about empathy but it wasn't even a week ago when you said you wanted to murder others, the opposite of empathy. I know I'm probably wasting my time responding to you and you never really even respond back to people, but oh well. I wonder if you truly won't come back here again huh. I wish you wouldn't for your own good.
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I'm so fucking upset right now that I could cry. I'm so sick of her lying to me and pretending like she doesn't do the things she does. I'm not the crazy one
No. 1012678
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There's an underground musician I listen to every once in a while. Some of his work is relatable in a deeply depressing way, and it veers on "based" as long as you ignore that he's a scrote. This includes things I'm sure only or mainly women can relate to, to the point where I wonder if he listens in on his female friends' conversations and uses their rants to write songs. All his other content is cringe, but when he puts out a "good" song, he basically says all the things I'm afraid to say. I think he makes those songs because he already knows no one who'd take offense knows who he is, so they'll never hear
Whenever I hear a particularly cutting song, I just think to myself "If this was written and performed by a woman, it'd be a fucking godsend", and I know for a fact that it'd gain a following among other women. I can sing, so it all seems so perfectly ripe for the taking, but it also seems wrong somehow. Is it a bad idea to take inspiration from him?
No. 1012727
>>1010760okay so late reply but when I talk about western radfem shit that makes me just angry and well offended, I mean stuff like when the fall of Afghanistan happened I saw many radfem post about "how this could happen to us as well, If we aren't careful" and I got offended by that, cause western women will never experience 1/1000th of the shit women in Shariah countries have to suffer through
even women in the dark ages had more rights and freedoms these those women in Afghanistan
I'm not saying that they shouldn't do activism against Domestic Violence, sexism, cat-calling and other issues but to pretend that all the patriarchy has the potential to be the same is just flat out wrong and delusional
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do you guys think romantic/sexual attraction can be split? there's this guy i have genuine feelings for – i could imagine us settling down together – but the moment things tilt towards the sexual is the moment my body taps out. it makes me wonder if i just need more time to get used to the idea of being with a man. i know that sounds insane but i used to scoff at the idea of someone being like, i don't know, biromantic but homosexual? i hope this doesn't sound retarded but i can't exactly speak to anyone irl about it and i don't want to ask reddit because i don't want trannies trying to give me advice or whatever
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This is such a niche sperg but I fucking hate the cultural shift of the past few decades that tries to present drug traffickers and cartels as dogged folk heroes instead of the absolute bottom of the barrel scum that they are. I know white girls who will scream and cry about Trump peeping on miss teen USA contestants but then treat Escobar like some champion of the underclass, even though he and his underlings partook in actual human trafficking and most of the violence that made Columbia the deadliest country in the world for several years was them raping and murdering prostitutes and ‘civilian’ women. There are whole towns in Mexico where girls and women live in total hiding like it’s fucking Afghanistan, because if the cartels find them they’ll be kidnapped and forced into sexual slavery. The tipping point for me was seeing the tweets about this fucking piece of shit’s sons having a $5m bounty on their heads and tons of 17yos retweeting and saying that they would hide them because they’re so cute though.
There is absolutely no such thing as an honorable criminal, especially when it comes to their treatment of women. A man can have no money and no power and still be a useless wife beater. We are worth less than nothing than them, and when they are given even an ounce of power or authority, the first thing they will use for us to hurt us. Stay the fuck away from crims anons. They will drag you down to the very lowest depths and then act like to took them there instead.
No. 1012767
My friend told me that she was abused by her ex when she was drunk, and then made an scene in front of everyone, accused him publicly, and kicked him out of a party last month.
Now she tells me that despite that, she hasn't told her fiancee, and isn't planning to (hence, she won't formally denounce him either, and asked us to not tell him), but that she wants all of us to stop talking to me.
I know I'm supposed to believe her, but she's a huge liar,and I'm pretty sure she's acting this way cause she actually cheated and doesn't want the fiancee to know.
She keeps telling everyone she meets, including my girlfriend, whom I introduced last night, that he raped her.
What's the point? What does she want to achieve?
I only know her cause I'm friends with the ex in question, and he introduced us. I don't even like her, but I keep talking to her cause they broke up on good terms, and I noticed she didn't have a lot of girl friends. Guess now I know why.
Oddly enough, it's not the first situation where a friend's ex makes a scandal that leaves me on an uncomfortable position with a friend, but this time I'm close enough to him to not know if I should stop talking to him.
What would I gain? A shitty friendship with an annoying bitch?
Honestly I'm getting tired, and my gf thinks I should stop talking to both of them just in case, and that she being like this is the reason of why she didn't have friends in the first place, and that I shouldn't feel guilty.
BUT UGH, I HATE BEING PUT IN THESE SITUATION
No. 1012768
>>1012762Somewhat related, I was reading a great non-fiction book called Mafia Brotherhood, about the history of the Mafia's in southern Italy
and there is a big part in the book in how they frame themselves and justified their exploitation, they presented themselves as representing the common people, protecting "their" values and culture from outsiders
but they were 99% responsible for all the problems in southern Italy, they stunted business, they halted mechanization of farming, had corrupt officials elected and as for protecting the people from outsiders, they literally had women and children kidnapped and sold them to European Brothels or some Arab sheiks
Its why I hate romanization of mafia's, just cause they were more organized and wore suits doesn't mean they were anything more then thugs
I'm noticing a lot of dumb zoomer romanticize the Korean mafia and they were just as awful as well
No. 1012770
>>1010951Damn
nonnie I'm kinda on the same place.
I wish God gives you patience, cause if he gives you strength, might as well.
No. 1012772
>>1012764True fucking that, and even if Narcos was good at showing the horror and chaos that the drug trade caused in Columbia, even the people who worked on it seem immune to that message. I met a guy who worked on it on location and he said he snorted more coke between shoots on that show than he had as a drama student in New York. I almost couldn’t believe it, because the point repeated again and again throughout the show is that the drug trade gives money to terrible people and directly leads to death and destruction in impoverished communities, but he literally just shrugged and said that it was cheap there and easy to get a hold of, so why not do it.
He’s also a Latino whose made a career out of bitching about how white America is so unfair to Latinos and how he suffers so uniquely as a Latino man trying to make it in America, never mind that back home he’s a member of the oligarchy and as far removed from the poor Latam immigrant experience as the average wealthy gringo. Escobar had a higher kill count than Bin Laden, but because he sold the fun party drug the planes he blew up and the judges he assassinated were just a cost of doing business. You cannot be a good person and support drug trafficking. It’s an oxymoron.
No. 1012777
>>1012397 Thank you anon, I guess I never considered things like that being good conversation material.
>>1012403 I would love to, are you the same as me in being bad at conversation? If we're both still here by next new year anon we should try and connect.
>>1012577 I appreciate it, I actually do really like tree photography and a job is definitely one of my end goals.
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After 20 years, its finally hitting me that i might be asexual, and its scaring the shit out of me. It hurts so much not being able to relate to my friends at college when it comes to talking about hookups and expermentation, but no matter how much i wish to grow into my sexuality i still feel unfinished and abnormal. It does feel a little better to know there might be a reason i run away from relationships whenever anything starts to go below the belt, but its scary thinking that this may never change. Im still romantically attracted to women, and used to correlate my low/nonexistent desire for sex as a symptom of my lesbianism and aversion to men. I think it might just be me. i cant even attempt masturbation without feeling it forced and pointless. i i feel disgusted with myself and still am kind of hoping that, by a miracle, i’ll feel normal one day. This feels fucking humiliating
No. 1012819
>>1012795Something similar happened to me anon: the back of my throat was itchy, and dumb me figured I could scratch it lightly with a toothbrush. Turns out oral thrush can bleed. There wasn't anything wrong with my throat, but I have an autoimmune disease and I get them from time to time.
Might be nothing, but get checked to be safe.
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>>1010565are you romanian anon? I thought you were mad at steven for threatening to post your nudes everywhere… but you're a camgirl which means your nudes are probably everywhere already. hmmmmmmmm
No. 1012861
>>1012856First of all, not a retard; your bf is really immature to treat you like this, he just openly said he prefers to play the game even when you told him you really need more time with him; he really should have more consideration and empathy for you as his partner.
Is breaking up a right choice? It's likely. No one is without fault and people can become better with some effort but the question is - is he willing to put that effort and are you willing to wait for it, being only in your early 20s?
No. 1012864
>>1012857wow you're such a radfem, well excuse me for being sexually abused my entire life and being groomed when I was a literal child and excuse the other romanian whores for having a life as bad as mine that has led them to do that. There are women with worse lives and better that end up in sex work and once you end up there you cannot exit it since it dictates the entire outcome of your life and there is no point in trying to get a career after you were made to be a camgirl at 18. Ah this is about how much the radfem empathy lasts. If I slightly antagonize you then I am a schizophrenic whore because you cannot use my depressing life story for your personal agenda and because Im telling you the truth about your sociopathy. Even if I was schizophrenic that would imply I cannot apply for erasmus or do much with my life due to the crippling mental illness of having schizophrenia . How do you even "excuse yourself" for being schizophrenic. I did not lose my career, I became aware of how fucked it was and of me being a
victim but sometimes when I look at it and how my life is and how the world works and how those supposed to help me treated me when they could not use me no longer for their agenda, I wanna go back to being a whore and possibly kill myself and link it to this website for all the women on this website that have ruined my life. I am mentally ill, I was severely abused and I don't know how to make money and radfems dont give a fuck about abused women since most of them have narcissism or sociopathy. They only want to use their story for their agenda and to win internet arguments and then they call them whores, prostitutes and so on. I want to kill myself and link it to this website and to all hundreds of people that have pushed me to it because I spoke the truth. I want to write a manifesto and commit homicide and suicide and I will link it to this website. I am doing it in one week.
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>>1012864I’m no radfem but lol. They pitied you actually, beta orbited you, all whilst you killed chickens en raped some romanian kids. Who the hell gets abused by an online guy? You were cyber bullied yes. And it sucks but you wouldnt have gotten cyber bullied if you didn’t mention your hobby’s (killing chickens). Hope your
victims hate you for it btw the same way you hate this website.
One more thing to get through your BPD schizo head: the radfems here only hated you ever since you decided to think this is your wordpress. They refused to see through your bullshit and unicef-scam tier bullshit and even personal armied you. But I guess you hate them when you aren’t hurt by the 100th scrote you pathetically date online. And bitch you’re not poor, you have internet.
No. 1012901
>>1012857Romania isn't even a third world country, they have EU citizenship and can fuck off to whichever country they choose and find work there.
I fucking wish I was Romanian instead of being born in Bosnia. You have no idea how much of a privilege being an EU citizen is. She's full of shit and I don't feel bad for her.
No. 1012918
>>1012615 >>1012864You claimed earlier in the thread
>>1010565 that radfem farmers harassed you out of the job, but now you're claiming that you stopped camwhoring of your own volition due to an ideological dispute?
>My country doesn't offer me governmental support and I've lost my job as a camgirl due to women harassing me on the internet. It was the only job I could work. I'm literally physically unable to work. Either someone completely manufactured this tragic BPD whore backstory to troll the farms, or this schizo actually embellishes details (read: lies) for more internet pity points and can't keep her story straight.
No. 1012938
I want to eat meat from time to time, I feel like my body needs it, I have severe anaemia and taking iron supplements and eating iron rich plants hasn't helped me yet. But I feel so disgusted by meat, it makes me sick, the smell and the texture. My guts seem to only tolerate cooked or baked meat, I can't eat it fried because it triggers my IBS hard. When it's in a cooked form, it's not as puke inducing as raw meat, but I have no one to cook it for me and I know I have to first look at raw meat, touch it and smell it etc. in order to prepare it. And I just can't do it because seeing raw meat makes me not want to eat it at all. So I end up eating it very rarely or almost puking when I eat it. Restaurants are closed here now, and I wouldn't have the time and money to eat at such places. It's also hard to find places that prepare food with ingridients that don't trigger my IBS. I just wish I had someone who could cook meat for me from time to time,vso I wouldn't have to look at it pre-prepared lmao
No. 1012940
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>>1012894I figured it out……………………………………….
No. 1012945
>>1012915Break the cycle, first in your mind, then find a way to live somewhere else. You will never make her feel sorry for how she raised you (I'm assuming she will always have a justification for everything, it's what my mother did/does still, they just have to be "right" and win the argument everytime, no matter how idiotic what they say sounds like), so stop trying to make her see reason. Focus on yourself, you have your whole life ahead of you. The online is full of self help. She is old and has low self esteem and from what you're saying, her daughters won't hurry to do more than their duty when she's old. How bleak. But she chose this, she chooses to be a cow every day - talking about my own mother here. Sorry, end of advice/vent.
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>>1012864You said you'd leave this site in your last post you liar
No. 1012950
>>1012940don't feel too stupid,
nonnie. i'd owned a flatscreen computer monitor for about 5 years before i realized i could tilt the screen kek
No. 1012952
>>1012874I agree. It's infuriating dealing with people like her and it's not like we can filter her either. It's always woe is me, everyone else is bad, everyone else is evil, I've never done anything wrong. Oh someone's trying to give me advice? Fuck you! Someone's trying to give me genuine comfort? I'll ignore them anyway.
What the fuck does she want? Does she even know what she wants? She just wants to spend her time giving empty threats on an anonymous imageboard's vent thread?
You cannot blame every single thing in your life on other people and your situation. But you don't even care about other's sympathy anyway. You just want to complain and rot away.
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>>1012938does your local supermarket have a cooked food section? those are usually prepared in a pretty bland way (even seniors eat that food) and is pretty affordable, and you can measure how much you want.
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I’m so tired of wasting my words and energy on people who clearly just don’t give a fuck, I’m increasingly becoming convinced that violence is more efficient than anything else like I’m losing my civility and sanity every fucking day
No. 1012978
>>1012953Mostly poultry, I like beef but only if it's in a form of beef broth, and not big amounts. No pork.
>>1012956We don't have it here unfortunately. I moved here recently and I only have one supermarket near me. There are others, but it's an almost 30 minutes walk, and I don't have time for it after work, I don't have my own car either. But I'll try to check them out next saturday or sunday and see if they have cooked meat sections
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I went out on NYE and now my throat is kinda itchy and I feel like I need to cough. Still have taste and smell, no fever. Pray it's not covid I will kms if I spread it to my family because I wanted to get drunk.
No. 1013120
>>1013080a lot of people do it here and poverty dehumanizes you. In the village I grew up in children would encourage one another to kill and abuse animals and molest each other. I had cats thrown around and killed in front of me and older kids coerced me into killing cats in front of them. All the children in my village would pull down each others pants and touch their genitals and perform sexual acts on each other. I was made to sniff glue(aurolac) and I became addicted to it at 7 which is a very potent drug that fucked up how my brain has developed but for some reason im still smarter and more empathetic than most of you. There are children in my country and all over the world that live worse lives than pets do. When your environment is completely dehumanizing you are simply not human anymore. Your humanity is stripped away from you by poverty, lack of education and guidance. I didn't live the average life of someone in my country. A lot of people in 3rd world, 2st world and 1st world countries grow up in completely dehumanizing childhoods but most real abuse sufferers close themselves up inside of themselves because society just shuns you and if you open up about your trauma or thoughts you are faced with even more abuse. A lot of surviovrs of extreme abuse become criminals, killers or simply isolate themselves. I'm not very sure abt other countries, but if you're born disprivileged in a country with corruption bad environment everyone abuses you and nobody helps you. Most people from social circles ive been in didn't live childhoods like I did, but that doesn't mean im a rarity. Romania has huge rates of poverty but most people that grew up in poverty and such dont speak English and are in prison.
>>1013093why would i prostitute mysef and let some
abusive douchebag take advantage of me? Like thanks for the solution darling you're so helpful and totes empathetic
>>1013092Yes, but going to school is useless nowadays. Only narcs make money. You literally have to be a narc to make money out of anything, it's impossible to be paid for something genuine
You bitches will never ever know true suffering and you will never give anything back to this horrible world. My country has 20 million ppl and at least 1 million are growing up the way I did
No. 1013127
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>>1013120pic rel is you before heading to the cat gulag
No. 1013135
>>1012940LMAO that's so cute nona, I hope you enjoy reclining now, chairs that do that are the best.
However, 2003? Your chair is old enough to drink in some countries, how is it still alive
No. 1013137
>>1013110don't worry
nonnie, this has happened to me several times before. Obviously you should be wary about other people in the house, but I had the same suspicions and it ended up happening again while i was sleeping in a totally different place in a empty house. Keep note of how and where you found your pants; I tend to throw them over the side over the side of the bed each time. Once I noticed the pattern I felt more reassured it was my own doing
No. 1013149
>>1013123i do not need or want your help. I just want somewhere to vent my thoughts without being attacked and I want to inspire others to give to the world. You could buy some poor woman some food or buy her something to help her get through her horrible life. I want to inspire everyone to give to the poor. Even 1 dollar can change their life and especially giving to women. Feminism and radical feminism is born from Marxist thought and it is about women as a oppressed class that has become an oppressed class due to lack of resources and materials. A way of liberating women is by giving them money. It does not mean you cannot or are not allowed to complain about trivial issues or misogyny in the modern world. I just wish people would help the poor more and especially those in privileged situations. Most humans are entitled and only care about themselves, their issues which in the big picture do not even exist. I live in my father's house and I will see how I will get by until zi die. Im just trying to spread a message. Help others with no expectations. Just help them. If you have a piece of bread give a portion of it to someone that was not fortunate enough to aquire it. A lot of people grow in extreme abuse and poverty and nobody helps them and it isn't their fault at all for being born like that. We are facing huge social issues in the world due to bad distribution of capital, narcissism, egoism and so on. Some women face horrible humiliatiom, abuse and end up being prostitutes and the world only uses them. We are all so stuck in our little schizophrenic worlds to see the big picture of how much humans suffer. The average human is a schizo and he thinks made up worlds inside of the real world is the actual real world. Anime doesn't exist. Hoarding figurines is stupid, getting plastic surgery lacks any sort of essence. Just help those in need, but not me. I would never let myself be helped by narcissists, because they don't want to help. They just pretend to help to get something out of you.
Look at Venus Angelic. Life dealt her with misfortune and pain since birth and what does the average human do? Feed off her suffering. 30 narcissists have made videos with millions of views capitalizing off Venus's misfortune while showing fake empathy and Venus's life is collapsing and nobody is helping her. They disposed her since they cannot consume her like an object anymore and the narcissists immediately saw an opportunity to capitalize and gain fame.
No. 1013155
>>1013110Where were your pants? I very rarely wake up with them around my ankles or around my knees. I don't think it would be suspicious to wake up with them somewhere in your bed. If they were folded on a chair next to your bed that would be weird.
>>1013145There's narcotics without side effects. I know because I used them to sleep. IDK whether they'd have kept me asleep through assault though.
>>1013148This website probably has a large population of people who are unconditionally interested in weirdos. I'm one of them.
No. 1013159
>>1013110Anon any chance you did wake up like you usually do and took off your pants? And just don't remember it…
Like
>>1013145 said being drugged usually is a very specific thing and you don't just go to sleep like normal.
I hope you are safe.
No. 1013166
>>1013133>>1013114>>1013126>>1013162Komaeda-chan, I'm sorry. Komaeda-chan, I love you. What I would give to be subjected to pastas about a smelly dick rather than schizo posts from a person that doesn't want to be here yet comes back everyday
>>1013158How do you know that? Did you Google her name? I only saw the Facebook and already felt that I shouldn't have
No. 1013177
>>1013166>How do you know that? The facebook + some other website that was posted about the facebook person's mother dying + something else I can't recall right now.
Nothing 100% solid, but not nothing either.
No. 1013203
>>1013191It is a terrible disorder. Just keep in mind alcoholics can avoid a liquor store, heroin addicts can avoid the dealer, but she -has- to eat.she has to relearn that relationship with food. It’s not so easy during the holidays for people recovering.
I can’t imagine your stress, and I’m sorry . Here for you to vent anytime
No. 1013266
>>1013120You’re the gypsy curse inflicted by the American bastard Stephan.
This is a Japanese board, we do not like the West/Romania.
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>>101325315 is a long time, nona, and I'm sure she knew how much you loved her. I don't know how she passed, but considering her age there might not have been that much that could have been done. Rest in peace Sabrina.
No. 1013273
>>1013269t. Romanian
Like all of you are part gypsy at least and there’s nothing wrong with it. Anyways as I said we’re a Japanese board and we don’t give a shit about the Westu.
No. 1013277
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>>1013253I'm sure Sabrina had a good life with you
nonny. My cat got euthanized at 14 yo, I had her since I was 3. I still bawl my eyes out when I think about me and my mom going to the euthaniza appointment, then hearing her last deep little breath on the vet table and going back home with her empty cage sitting in the back. Now I cry everytime I hear You by Petit Biscuit because it was playing on the radio that day
I hope she passed on peacefully and I'm sure Sabrina is purring in paradise and loafing on clouds
No. 1013278
>>1013253Cat update: mom killed Sabrina by accident. I wanna scream. We can never have nice things in this stupid house.
And she was saying how "liberating" is to say the truth. Fucking idiot you didn't last half an our with a simple lie. This is not about you what the fuck…
No. 1013279
>>1013269romanians are gypsies and i know this because well i don’t actually know tbh they just are anon why are you being a
triggered eurofag?
No. 1013284
>>1013265Thank you so much. I don't want to enter in details to entertain the morbid taste of some. But all I'll say is that she didn't suffered much.
>>1013267Thank you a lot. That image is so pretty. I hope she wakes up on the other side just like that.
>>1013277I'm so so sorry nona. I bet your feline companion lived beautifully with you and your mom. Going to the other side with both of you by her side is the best way she could have.
No. 1013286
>>1013281Thank you a lot. Yeah, it's a habit she has but I'm more sad about Sabrina to give energy to whatever she says.
Thank you so much everyone, I really needed to vent and read your kind words
No. 1013289
>>1012938Iron from plants is harder to absorb than iron from meat, it's also unlikely that you are getting all the essential amino acids and enough B12 from plants. If you don't like handling meat and don't care for the taste of it, you can buy protein powder made from beef. It's usually tasteless or can be bought flavoured. All you have to do is mix it into shake and drink it.
Here's an article about it
https://hpfreemanpni.org/best-beef-protein-powder/ No. 1013390
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i applied for a job and they gave me an assignment so they could check my abilities and i turned that in and was SO sure that i would get the job, but now i realize that i might have done one part completely wrong. i have no prior work experience and obviously they would have to teach me things first, but i worry that they flat out reject me because i misunderstood the assignment.
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i need MONEY
SO MUCH MONEY THAT I CAN NEVER WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING OR ANYONE AGAIN
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
No. 1013459
>>1013447That's how they learn, the hard way.
They all claim to be pro life, yet when deformities are detected in the womb, over 90% of women abort.
No. 1013557
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just had to factory reset my phone (i very suddenly forgot the pin out of nowhere) and the ease with which i did so shocked me. i don't have anything more personal on there than rare-ish memes and a few food photos that i never even look at anyway, and screenshots of people i obsessively stalked over twitter once-upon-a-time.
so wild to think my social life is that dead that losing years worth of information from my phone means nothing.
like at worst i'll have to spend a half hour on google searching for phone numbers to various medical offices.
No. 1013575
>>1013485Takes one to know one
>having male friendsLoser slut
No. 1013592
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I'm filled with so much fucking anger. I was 14. Women in my life told me I was an idiot for going up stairs with him. I was 14 and so stupid and had no idea that men had sex on their mind. I just literally didn't know. I REALLY, REALLY, DID NOT KNOW. I had never been to a party or had a guy show interest in me. No one believes that part, that I just didn't know. But I didn't know. I didn't have any idea. I didn't know what going to a private place with someone implied. I had never kissed a boy and I barely knew what a penis looked like. I didn't understand men were dangerous, I just hadn't been taught, or read the right books, or watched the right show. I was so naive. And now, I will sometimes timidly timidly timidly begin to share the details, and that trusted person that I love so much will say "well what did you expect?"
I expected when you go upstairs with someone who asked if you want to hang out that you're going to hang out. Because that's what happened every other time when I was 6 years old, 9 years old, 12 years old. It's like the whole world played a joke from me. Am I fucking insane? Maybe every other 14 year old was a hundred times as knowledgeable about sexual relationships and coercion, etc and it's inconceivable that I didn't know. I just want to sob into someones shoulder but every time I try they call me retarded. It was so easy to just say that men don't get it but women too, women didn't believe me just as much as men didn't believe me. And when they did believe me they said it was my fault. I don't care if this turns into some cringey copypasta, I'm angry.
No. 1013608
>>1013592 Oh
Nonnie, it was not your fault.
No. 1013627
>>1013592No one's falling for your bullshit. You already sperged in other threads about how women are all
victim blamers and how men on 4chan are totally better than therapists. Nice try anyway but fuck off
No. 1013671
>>1013645The brain is flexible, and reading rules. It'll take time to fix your attention span, but you can do it
nonnie.
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>>1013697I'm sorry about your slippers nonna, hope you have more luck next time. I'm just making a bag that looks like picrel. I messed something up (not sure what yet) on one of the rows of the mesh/net part. I've been working on this all day, so I just decided to stop and pick up tomorrow.
No. 1013736
>>1013708Hey anon, a question
Are these bags actually good for groceries? they scare me, I feel like something will fall, but I'm curious to use them too
No. 1013768
>>1013604>>1013608>>1013610>>1013612These kind words really helped me tonight, thank you.
>>1013627You've mistaken me with someone else and I haven't even seen those posts. I was just sharing my own personal experience. I also don't even feel that way, I will never tell another man in my life about my trauma, I don't think they're capable of understanding. I just wish more women had stood up for me is all.
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I would like to move in with my boyfriend of 3 years here when I graduate this upcoming fall semester, but I don't know if he would want to. He's in med school and will be doing a residency program in a year and a half, so if he's placed far away I don't know if I'd feel comfortable just up and moving my life to some faraway city. I'm hoping he stays closer to where we live but ultimately it's obviously up to him. I'd like to think he has more respect and love for me than he would consider it, but considering how most moids act I wouldn't doubt he's just riding this out until he moves.
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Missing kitten nona, did she come back?
>>1013838>I had one where the gyno kept telling me to relax with increasing annoyance then sent me awayI hate gynos so much, why do they always do that shit? I saw 2 different ones before finding one that wasn't a stressful pissy little bitch. And guess what, it's a scrote, but at least he's not sperging out about me being stressed and tries instead of barking at me to relax kek.
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I'm turning 29 in 5 months and I'm so scared. Not because of anything specific but because everyone around me is settling into their lives, coupling up, some are already having corona babies, and I'm still in grad school and single. The worst part is, I like it. This is the most freedom I've ever had. I'm just sad that I'll have so little time to enjoy being young and free with decent money and savings.
I had to get married very young because I was poor as fuck, and my spouse was a manchild who suffocated me for years. He wasn't abusive, just very whiny and melodramatic. We didn't do anything nice together because he never wanted to, I regretted going on every holiday trip with him because he whined and whined about wanting to go home and play on his Playstation 4 and how boring travelling with me was. When it came to me and my interests, we never had enough money, but for video games everything was allowed. I dumped him and he made my life a living hell for months. Then I got into another relationship with a guy who was 8 years older and treated me like a dumb child while at the same time pressuring me to pop out a few kids for him and hurrying me along. I never dated in my teens because I wasn't interested in it, and these idiots stole most of my twenties that I could've used having fun and going on dates but instead spent sitting at home.
I'm just sad that my "good years" are coming to an end and there's nothing to look forward to. My friends will slowly bow out of friendships in favor of raising kids with some bland, unworthy scrote, I'll get older and people will either pity me or mock me for being single and childless, my parents will die and I'll have nobody in this world who really loves me the same way my parents or friends do. I've learned very early on that men's love is not unconditional, that they want a mommy bangmaid to do things their own mommy did for them and I am from then onwards responsible for someone else's happiness and well-being until the day I die the way nobody will be responsible for mine. I just thought I had more time.
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>>1013981Exactly the kind of thoughts that make them wanna sedate you with pills. Fuck this earth
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i’m going to cry because i’m starting college again this week and it’s actually on-campus this time i actually want to kill myself. there really must be no god
No. 1014012
>>1013996I had a nightmare experience with piano lessons a few years ago and haven't tried it since… I hope you don't get put off music,
nonnie. there have to be competent instructors somewhere for us
No. 1014026
>>1014003Yeah. Weird question since it wasn’t related to whatever I was asking about too.
>>1014006There are a couple but they’re either too expensive or I’ve called and the people who answered were rude or really condescending as well. There was one that was like 40 minutes away but it seemed cool, and but I did a little online digging because I’m kind of paranoid, and I found out that the guy who runs the place sexually harassed female students and when there would be a show and they wouldn’t go along with his advances he’d get someone to play in their place. Really sucked because it seemed to be a great place with people from all over.
>>1014012Oh man, I’ve hated instructors for years because of this. Was your experience with piano that shitty? I hope you find a good instructor sometime soon. No one tells you how a good environment is important to this kind of stuff.
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>>1014021is this why i've been feeling better mentally after i started eating yogurt for breakfast
No. 1014101
>>1014082People only learn through firsthand experiences
>>1013805Oh my god, this is horrible. Cumpets shouldn't be allowed near animals
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>>1014106Nah it’s just a crumpet, but with cum on it.
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>>1014076after you m'lady
No. 1014114
>>1014062The concept of mental illness isn't predicated on mind body dualism. You can absolutely be mentally ill because of physiological causes.
You can also make your mental illness worse or better by thinking thoughts. That doesn't mean you will be cured if you stop being a sped in your head, but it's one of the many things that affect your brain.
If you spend all day brooding over how to best blot out this abominable world and the souls that inhabit it, you're going to feel bad and reinforce negative thought patterns.
Also, you could try yakult, I've been feeling happier since I started to drink it.
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>>1014135>turn into Too late
No. 1014141
>>1013701Your friend is a creep and a wierdo. Not sure why it took you years to see that, but secret skinwalking is always "run away" territory.
Do the slow fade on your friend.
Stop telling me then anything about your life or interests.
Since everybody knows that they are skinwalking you it's not 'exposing' them to be like "I know! And drives me nuts!" when someone brings it up. Not sure why you would think.
Anyway, I would tell everyone I hate it because no way would I want people to think I was complicit in my friends creepiness.
No. 1014158
>>1014062Never said that eating yoghurt is a definite cure of course lmao. Just said that it's one of a lot of methods that are researched to help depression because your body
is your mind. Because your mind is an organ, brain. Maybe there be an evidence of something more abstract in far future but right now it looks like we're just flesh.
And I don't get your reply to me, I literally said that the brain changes can be permanent. But it is about your brain being ill - being structurally changed and not working as it should (as in for your own benefit, not having you be depressed and suicidal) because of some kind of a stressor (small, big, physical, psychological…). If it's severe or too long it causes damage. Certain structures go to shit, hormones get unregulated and you have a bad time.
Stressed people can get diabetes or hypertension which is also alteration of one's body, one can also cause neurological symptoms like moodiness or anger yet no one thinks it's that abstract.
I wasn't blaming people who are depressed in any way?
'mental illnesses' are still body functioning wrong, there are scans and pictures that depict the actual physical aspect of it, and yet when you add 'mental' people suddenly get all esoteric and argue it isn't real.
No. 1014161
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>>1013756Idk if you can find any in your area anon but i have some small mesh bags that you use as reusable fruit/vegs bags that I leave in my usual shopping bags. They'd be good for storing nail polish and won't slip out of the larger holes of the bag.
You can find them pretty cheap online
No. 1014176
>>1014135Idk
nonnie, I'd say it's more GPs than anything. It's hard to have a good medical system in place when the entire system is driven from profit.
capitalists pls no bully I've had so many bad experiences with doctors (mostly male, shocker) but there are good ones out there, just hard to track down and few and far between.
No. 1014185
>>1014170Nona I'm trying to explain it to the other anon in an understandable way and I'm not a native English speaker. I don't think vent thread is the place for science arguing, I just don't get why people deny depression is real.
Hormones that are related to depression are serotonin, dopamine, norepinephrine, cortisol but there's so many others (prolactin, estrogen, aldosterone…). Read up on them if you're interested.
Brain structures changed - hippocampus (memory related), amygdala (fear regulation), prefrontal cortex (complicated thinking, personality). There are other structural changes, do you want me to list them all?
Source are notes from my neuro classes, seriously this is what you get from any neuro textbook.
No. 1014190
>>1014139I don't believe that. In fact, I fully support patients informing other patients and doing something, if they are able, about bad doctors. I have had my share of them and it really fucks you up. I wish this profession was at least spared from greed and moneyhungry-ness but it may be the one most entrenched in it which is awful. Maybe more awareness would change it but that's too optimistic, you know as well as me. I'm just saying the profession itself isn't awful and generalization is stupid.
>>1014183You said it.
No. 1014194
>>1014138>her life is fuckedThat really hurts but it's true
>>1014133It's so hard. Everytime I try to change the awareness of how worthless my life has been becomes too much to bear I end up trying to numb the pain instead. And this goes on over and over and over again. Im so ashamed of who I've become
No. 1014203
>>1014194Do you think you could perhaps change your life? Do you have the resources to change your life? Because I can tell you that with money you can absolutely change your life. If you have money you can do anything to change your life. What would you like to do? Have you ever had dreams as a child?
I believe everyone has an inclination towards a field.
No. 1014226
>>1014180>It does not make sense for a real radfem to be racistRadfeminism automatically ignores race in favour of sex, which makes sense considering it was created and shilled to upper class white women
>Now a lot of right wingers are appropriating radical feminismKek i wonder why
No. 1014313
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one of my friends shaved off her hair a year ago, which was cool obviously, but then she began dressing in that ugly kweerio way (patterned shirts, mullet, septum piercing, dyed hair) and now she has they/them pronouns on her ig account and her reading list for 2022 includes all these enby transmasc boi books like giovanni's room. i worry the next time i check in with her, she's scheduling her appointment to get her tits lopped off and is gonna post topless pics like any other perverted scrote whipping out his dick at the playground.
No. 1014392
A girl friend of mine trooned out a while ago, she became fairly annoying about her transition, but I wanted to be a good friend, so I mostly kept distance about the gender stuff but tried to be nice to her and make her happy. Yesterday, she got exposed for grooming a 12 year old girl, not only forcing her to troon out too, but trying to get into a sexual relationship with her. After we all found out, my now ex-friend disappeared, all her accounts are down and her phone number is changed, she didn't feel sorry for what she did, for a while she even kept bringing up her muh lesbian-nb oppression and how I would never understand her. Great way to start the new year, I will never have the same empathy again.
My only wish for the new year is for the kid to recover, I wish I could do more for her, but her first step for getting better was to get away from the Internet, which I understand.
No. 1014401
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I fucking hate friends that act like you were so toxic after your friendship ended.
I joined a friend group on my last year of HS and we kinda lost touch because of college, covid and stuff. She spammed the groupchat with unicorn stickers to cheer people up (she litteraly described herself as an empath). She and I were the most invested in trying to organise hang out, it was tiring and a few months ago i got feed up and stopped. It fucking infuriates me that she's more angry at me because i stayed active and tried to stay in touch than people you never did anything, i have more of a blame apparently. I organised the first party she ever attended to on halloween (because she though we were stupid for smoking and driking so she was never out past 6) and i got in an argument with her. Yes, i was angry and reproach her things she didn't do but i told her i was in a really bad mood hours prior and i apologized immediately, later the same night and the morning after. I messed up ONCE and now she can't forgive me and tells me i'm a hypocrite and that the group split up because we were talk behind each other back which literally none of us did. We just stop talking to each other because shit happens but in her fantasy world, there must be a bad guy, but THERE ISN'T. A month after she said she needed time to reflect i send her a friendly text and she answers me to let me now she has new friends that are so much better than us and i was immature for drinking (?). She later said the none of us contacted her and the few who did (me) were doing out of pride ? She said she go past us but created a chat room just hours ago to once again let us now she hates us..
Her feelings may be valid but they're fucking stupids
TLDR
>immature friend live in a tvshow were there's need to be a bad guy
>told us she hated clubs, alcool and weed (which is totally fine) but got angry when we went to a club w/ her
>plays the victim and makes me the bad guy because i got angry at her ONE FUCKING TIME EMMA ! GROW UP
No. 1014461
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>>1014455Everyone is stuck in some kind of loop. We all have our bad habits and patterns and unhealthy coping mechanisms.
No. 1014463
>>1014447we got you anon, you'll be just fine. nothing bad lasts forever
I'm pretty bummed out. I just finished my masters dissertation after a 4 month extension (due to mental illness) and I was so excited this morning but none of my friends were free to hang out and I've spent the day third-wheeling my roommate and her boyfriend. I start back at work tomorrow so I feel like I won't get to celebrate properly and I'm upset that nobody else seems to think of it as a big deal.
No. 1014477
>>1014461ty anon this makes sense its kinda like nothing feels good enough to force me into doing anything different. i straight up barely feel anything right now and i get paranoid that being on tons of psych meds in my early teens destroyed all my brain folds and now the only things that get through the numbness brick wall are drugs and risky/harmful actions. but i just quit drugs so idk what to do now
(i really want to do drugs)>>1014462i love you anon
>>1014467yknow what you're right, rn its just like- how many times does that have to happen? i've "gotten through" so much shit just to keep having to do it again with rare and brief patches of joy that is now questionable if its materially worth it.
i also realize how circular and stubborn and annoying/illogical this line of thinking is and its especially sad for an almost 24 year old to still be doing, the awareness doesn't fix it however No. 1014533
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i want a boyfriend lurking /g/ fags what do i do tired of being ugly too
No. 1014552
>>1014463Amazing job, nona. I'm sure you've worked very hard to accomplish what you have.
Third wheeling always feels shitty but don't let it take away from your achievement. At least you can feel proud even if there's little time to celebrate right now.
No. 1014689
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Silly little me decided to look at my bfs social media just to see what silly little funny memes he has been liking and i see some dumb tik tok about a young couple having a baby he shared and him talking about how cute it is and how families are the most extraordinary thing, and now i feel extremely guilty about "trapping" him in a relationship because I can't have kids (congenital heart disease, i put that much strain on my body im kaput by the 6 month) and honestly don't even like them, he says he loves me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me but i feel like him keeping him from his actual dream of having a family just because i have an unusual and interesting personality he's charmed by, on top of all that he seems to prefer normie girls when im a retard that looks like Riamu.
I think he's entranced by the novelty of dating me but the kindest and loving thing that I could do is leave the relationship so he can have what he obviously wants.
Any advice welcome anons, i feel like someone just dunked ice water on me.
No. 1014705
>>1014695Yeah im sure, me looking through his stuff is pretty rare and our sm of choice are completely different.
>>1014698He has a "it is what is" attitude to it because yknow not much anyone can do if there's a high chance I'd just kick the bucket.
>>1014699It really sucks because aside from this our lifegoals and personalities really align and i genuinely consider him my best friend and partner, I have a hard time making deep connections with people and it feels so awful to have to let go of my most special one because….i lost the genetic lottery?
I'm just scared the moment a normie woman shows he's gonna cheat on me.
No. 1014709
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>>1014700Cabins are overrated, cold, usually in disrepair pieces of shit. If you're craving isolation I recommend a good and proper Yurt. That way you can up and move by the time the government helicopters spot you, and be gone the next day when their goons come around demanding tributes (taxes aren't real).
No. 1014722
>>1014709thanks
nonnie ill start looking at options. hope i can get internet installed at least.
>>1014707the best thing about dolls is the garments arent being made for real people. you can cut LOTS of corners even if seamstressing wouldnt allow it for wearable clothes. plus nobody will outgrow the stuff. try basting it first if you havent (wide hand sewing before machine) and it should help set some of the bunching.
No. 1014797
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>>1014796Have my healing energy
No. 1014873
>>1014846How old are you?
I'm mid-late twenties and five year difference is my absolute max… and I still kind of feel like that's pushing it.
A cute nineteen year old liked me more recently but I just feel like a big sister to them. I don't know how people date with huge age gaps and not feel gross.
No. 1014881
>>1014596Have you thought about making videos? I know it's hard to get discovered in an over saturated market, but I think people really enjoy thoughtful videos, be they on YouTube or even Tiktok. If not that then find another medium that suits you, even if you have to innovate.
Please don't give up if it's what you're meant to do. Good art will always eventually be noticed.
No. 1014899
>>1014890I'm sorry nona.
I feel that though, I don't know how to meet bi/ gay women my age with similar interests anymore. It's rough.
No. 1014979
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>client implies I'm retarded for following my manager's instruction which made perfect sense given the situation
>too hungry and tired to function
>2 coworkers have covid and will work at home but only for like 3 days
>job opportunities are kinda shit because of the pandemic, I just wish I could get my own apartment without having a permanent contract because I legit can't get one
>just want to go back home, eat junk food and read yaoi
No. 1014996
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I'm pushing 30 and I still look like pic related. I was hoping I'd be more womanly and pretty by now but I'm stuck looking like a garden gnome child until I get old enough to just be a regular old woman. I can't even cry about it to my parents because my mother thinks I'm the bee's knees and my friends would never tell me I'm ugly-cute at best. No wonder I'm single.
I wanted to get fillers but I'm sure they'd just make me look like a Bogdanoff with my face.
No. 1015009
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>be 20, had issues making friends my entire life
>become friends with a pretty girl at work
>get along well
>i quit my job and start seeing her very little (we dont really text often not even at the height of the friendship
>now that i dont see her everyday i stop "letting" brushing off her weird comments/behavior
>now that i have a friend group i stop "needing" her unhinged advice
>she makes comments about how she hates that i have other female friends cause i dont
>she says that im a bad person cause i have a best friend and its not her, that its unfair and that if i truly loved her i would cut off my best friend from my life
>im lke… ok? not doing that but thanks i guess.
>invite her to my 23th bday last year
>she ghosts me
>i just have my party with my other female friends instead, whatever
>posts some pics of the party
>ex co worker friend goes mad and starts insulting me and calling me a liar and saying i was intentionally doing everything to her.
>she said that i only posted that i had a good time to make her feel bad for not going (when i literally invited her…) and started sperging at my best friend and female friends again but now more unhinged
>its very tiring and stupid so i just stop responding and delete her on social media
>this fight was like six months ago
>she still wont let go and i caught her accidentally liking one my pictures on insta.
>i thought it was funny and i took a screenshot, less than 10 minutes later the like was gone
>it was random old picture, so she was literally snooping through my old photos and accidently liked it
>also on wattsapp (where we had the fight) she would block me and unblock me every other day… but i havent spoken to her in six months… shes literally arguing with herself…
>she told me i was her first "real" friend and i understand why its painful but im also not a therapy and i dont care at this point. she was a very selfish friend and i dont miss her
>eg: i was raped by a dumb scrote i trusted and went to her having a meltdown and she didnt believe me… she would pressure me to things i didnt want to… she gave me spiked shit once cause i take lithium so i dont "do fun stuff" and that shit fucked me up for days and she didnt admit it till like a year later… she knew i was abused as a child but she told me she had sexual fantasies of raping kids. i actually was so distraught by this, that i thought i dream it, not even kidding. but then she brought it up again and i wanted to die. more weird bad shit that maade my psychiatrist say shes gonna end up in jail no joke
i dont miss you!!! all the other times ive said those word i didnt mean it. but with you, i actually leegit do not fucking miss you and would never make amends with you. jjusut go on bumble or some shit!!!!
No. 1015017
>>1014996I'll be honest with you
Nonnie. If you look like female reviewbrah I think you're cute and attractive. You probably look like a female high elf with superior cognitive capacities. I think you are beautiful if you truly do look like Reviewbrah.
>>1014881Yes, I have thought of making videos and I have actually, but it is potentially dangerous and my environment did not allow me to properly develop my artistical skills or writing skills due to lack of guidance/abuse etc. I am still very creative tho and I love expressing myself and I think I could make "outsider art" although that sort of art has lost its popularity. My problem is that I cannot stay within a niche because I feel like that is limiting my self expression. If you wanna be a YouTuber or content creator you have to stay within a very limited niche to get a following and get recognized. But my life and philosophy is all about wandering and trying different things and molding myself according to the things I like. Also, the internet is dangerous and I do not need more drama or hatred or people misunderstanding me added to my life. My political perspective is also quite odd because I am quite literally critical of all modern manifestations of the political quadran. I think I'm a radfem, but ironically I don't even like the radfem community on the internet, so I wouldn't like making videos about that. I know this might sound dumb but I've seriously considered making asmr/mukbang videos but I'm afraid it will turn very ugly. But I will see, if it doesn't work out I will simply remove myself from it.
No. 1015024
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god i'm so tired of being sick for the past 3 days
>pain behind eyes (very intense, can't turn my eyes, need to turn whole head)
>fever (38.5 degrees sunday, took medicine and began to sweat like crazy, now body temp is normal)
>coughing (light)
>diarrhea (started today)
>headache (light, goes away when i take medicine)
i really hope that i'll feel better until this friday, when i go back to work
No. 1015078
>>1014477Not any of those anons, but I hope you'll find peace. I'm not much older than you, 26, but even at 24 I was struggling to not end it all every day. Some people will just struggle for a long time, but I hope you'll really be able to one day just be at peace with yourself. Things are not glamorous in my life, but I can at least just exist without intrusive thoughts and be happy just enjoying things like snuggling under the covers on a cold night or enjoying a nice walk outside. I think it's a life long journey, learning how to enjoy living and wanting to continue to live.
Even if I am at peace with myself now, there are days where I think "I have to keep this up for at least another 50 years before I kick the bucket? Oh god." and it
is frightening to realize how long of a life I have ahead of me, but I can only hope I'll find new things to continue making life worth while and staving off the idea that I should just end this shit early. I hope you will find that your time on Earth is worthwhile.
No. 1015094
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Does anyone else feel like they don't really belong anywhere? I've honestly felt this way since I was a kid - I've always seen myself as being a kind of lonely child, and I feel like it's just grown more and more as I've gotten older. It's not exactly that I can't find anyone to relate to (though I don't like relating too much to people, but that's a different topic) but it's like I don't quite fit anywhere. I think I just have a knack for finding too many faults in everything tbh, and feeling cut off and too different as a result, I really don't know. It's like I want to separated from things and/or people and not be too engaged in them for some reason. And I've never felt at home with my generation particularly, sometimes I genuinely feel like I should've been born at least 10 years earlier. I've never really liked people my age, especially nowadays, I feel completely disconnected to them in so many ways. I can't help but think this feeling is gonna stick with me forever, and I'll always feel out of place and like the world doesn't really need me or something. I hate to sound all cynical and gloomy and edgy, I honestly hate when I'm so wrapped up and indulgent in my emotions like this. I guess I just never realised how deep and huge this feeling inside me had gotten
No. 1015123
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>>1015094100%, let me join you on the floor
No. 1015202
I love you, but you act like a little bitch over the tiniest of shit sometimes. Sorry, I had to throw away perfectly good food because of the "fridge taste" I didn't want to make shit that night, but you begged me and begged me for weeks and we end up throwing it away after I spent 30 minutes doing prep, dirtied dishes, but you just took a few bites and gagged.
Oh now your clothes smell horrible, oh the house smells. Jesus Christ, I have no energy, I feel like I'm moving at a snail pace. I wish I could be Ms. Do-It-All, but can you at least help a bit? Don't mix dirty clothes with clean clothes, don't puke on the toilet and then leave it for me to clean up, don't buy a new self-cleaning litter box that you never told me how to use then let the coils get tangled with shit and random papers, then say it's too smelly… You want to change the world, but you can't even change cat litter without whining and you look at me funny when I roll my eyes when you tell me your ideas and plans…
No. 1015238
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I'm happy to finally have a therapists that is willing to help me with my shit, but holy shit is this ruthless. The entire session was spent on me trying to say a sentences that would summarize some pretty severe trauma from when I was a kid. Like almost an hour was just spent on me attempting to say it a couple of times without having a physical reaction to it and it was fucking HARD.
But I'm happy my therapist is matching my pacing and gave me a lot of praise when we were finishing up the session. But I wish I had someone to hug and talk about this with because it's a lot to carry the weight of these sessions on my own.
No. 1015239
>>1015118Hey there, so not medfag, but the past couple years my dad (very healthy, former personal trainer, doesn’t drink or smoke) had issues with acid hitting the bottom of his esophagus. At first it just made him vomit, but then, the esophagus started to close and he choked during a meal and had to go to the hospital. Apparently the acid aggravated so much, the body was like “fuck swallowing”. He had to have a procedure where they stretch the esophagus back out with a balloon.
Now he’s okay but he’s so skinny now, and my dad has always been a healthy, hearty man.
Bonus fun fact, he once trained with John cena at the gym when he was touring for wrestling. Cool guy.
I know you’re stressed, but you can only do what you can, and the rest will unfold anyways.
No. 1015241
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>>1015017>You probably look like a female high elf with superior cognitive capacitiesDon't know about the cognitive capacities since I am remarkably stupid, but it's funny you should mention the high elf thing because pic related are nearly all the people/characters I've been compared to in the past and one of them is the Adoring Fan. Also notice the astounding lack of conventionally attractive real world women in the photo (Anya doesn't count because the person who told me I looked like her was high on e).
No. 1015270
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>>1015262You can do it!!!
No. 1015288
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>>1015262Good luck! I believe in you nona!
No. 1015330
>>1015326B-but
nonnie…you just saged.
No. 1015346
>>1015257Butthurt much autist
>>1015260No I’m just a nervous whore
No. 1015364
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my mom turned 50 this year and i never considered her old or anything, but last time i visited her she kept taking off her glasses when looking at something on her phone. idk maybe it's nothing, but having to take off your glasses to read is such an old people thing in my head. ugh.
No. 1015365
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My boyfriend watches gore and I’m grossed out. I don’t like it why do men do this I hate it it started with Reddit and TikTok random “funny” or “crazy” normie videos but then it just escalated to fights to actual vile shit and I wanna cry because it’s so gross and I’m already 1 year in, I hate this shit. Might leave him 4 dis kinda sad and betrayed
No. 1015382
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>>1015365>My boyfriend watches gorewtf anon, do you mean very graphic horror movie/art or just straight up gore ?
No. 1015418
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i really dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. i continue doing the most retarded things and i am completly losing myself as a person, literally not being able to recognize myself anymore. i dont know if anyone remembers but i am the same anon in these vents:
>>742622,
>>742686. the guy mentioned in these vents is my boyfriend and we have been dating for roughly 6-7 months now and i literally dont understand how he can endure all of this. when shit happens and i go totally into schizo-mode my brain has two different reactions and assumptions on the thing happening and i can see through both lenses and perspectives of the thing happening and what 'normal' and mentally unstable people would think about this situation. i really cant fucking describe it but its like my brain is in a fight between the mentally unstable and the normal side of me which absolutely fucks the perception of me, my surroundings and my actions/reactions to things. its like a fucking debate in my head between my irrational and rational side and who can name more aspects in favor of themselves and based on that i do my decisions. its just so bizarre because deep inside of me i literally know and can differenciate between right and wrong and can think rational but i cant turn it into action because my mentally unstable schizo-mode doesnt allow me that and thinks of the other option as not-safe and non-plausiable. i also have this weird fucking thing that still keeps happening where i suddenly switch personas and cant calm the fuck down or control myself in a rational manner and act like a complete maniac retard who is giving a fuck about everything and its consequences. its also that i need attention and reassurance from my bf 100% at the time and the second i dont receive it i doubt his love and think that he secretly hates me and just takes advantage of me. nonnies please take my pain away its so hard to watch myself do this much of damage to myself and my boyfriend as well as other people while being able to think rational but still acting irrational because of my poor mental health and my extreme pessimism and anxiety. i really want to get better but i doubt that it will. i am so fucking scared of losing him and the relationship but i cant fucking function as a human being. why was i cursed with all of these misfortunes?
No. 1015430
thinking about the unpopular thread and the first anons comments on scars, I don't know how to feel about my own. It's got me wondering if there's a reason why people don't want to approach me. Maybe this is why I only attract unstable people as friends? as emotionally turbulent as I have been this pandemic. burns leave less of an impression than cuts. none of it is pretty, but it's just another set of relapses after a few years of recovered decency. I feigned for a long stretch, and I couldn't bear it anymore. I managed to be clean for a couple years after 18 and then started intermittently doing it again at 20, I'm in my mid twenties now having done it on and off every year to couple years in pockets. I've harmed myself much more as an adult than I ever did as a teen, and it's pathetic. I also have scars from numerous trips, falls, accidents, acne, cysts, etc, and they blend together into this indistinguishable swamp of red and white that brightens when my body warms.
I can't tell whether I live in absolute inferiority knowing people see my scars and don't say anything, or am ambivalent about the fact that they're there. At this point there's so many of them. the last year and a half has been hell. My fear is that when it's over. when or if I've overcome it, theyll linger around forever. I don't want to be seen any differently from someone else. As a victim, as a crazy person, I don't want to believe people would see me as different from anyone else, but I don't know. I don't want to be seen as vulnerable either. I don't want moids to mock and think they can take advantage of me for it. There are some places I shouldn't have marked, that the next person I'm intimate with will see, and it's terrifying knowing I haven't had intimate contact with anyone post pandemic.
how much uglier and dysmorphic my body is. I know it's my fault, I can't help the insecurity when it nips at me. I'm not trying to victimize myself, what am I supposed to do? Yet I will always live with the pain of knowing they are there, or were there. Down to my nerves themselves. I don't want to be like this. I don't even know what I want to be. I'm so fucking tired and it hurts to analyze and think about people seeing my scars and judging me over them, not even knowing which ones came from where. If me being a scraped and burnt up bitch bothers you, fucking good, whatever, I'm just trying to cope.
No. 1015572
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Just watched a video where this woman told her bf that she was nauseous from not eating (typical) and he was approaching her with a peeled banana smiling like an idiot and the comments were praising his ass. It was maybe a joke video but lesbians are right heterosexual women are never gonna make it
No. 1015614
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I was gonna post about how I'm watching the 2012 Spider-Man movie for the first time and how cute Andrew Garfield is as Peter Parker. Got to thinking about how I used to LOVE Spider-man. I watched the original trilogy growing up, LOVED the second movie's crazy octopus man, LOVED Venom the weird crawling black thing, sand-guy and cried at the last movie's ending. I still have ceramic bowl somewhere in the kitchen, my dad even drove back 30 minutes to the beach for a towel I left on a railing. Had some comics, a rug, and a small coloring book I brought inside an ice-cream parlor while nauseous.
All this and I still remember the exact moment I told my mother. standing on my Tinker-bell rug in my bedroom how "I don't like spider-man anymore, that's a boy thing!", probably a mix of her enforcing femininity and seeing it in society. Both parents were actually extremely supportive but my dad would be the one to take my sisters and I to hike, camp, fish, run around and play instead of dressing up in restrictive clothes to look pretty in church every Saturday. She would come with us but we'd almost always have to persuade her, and I'm 99% sure if she wasn't almost the youngest in a huge Hispanic family with 20+ year older siblings she would have had a lot less problems and trauma, drama and be more confident.
I'm extremely lucky I didn't go through some of the things she did, and how she never encouraged us to wear makeup or shave my legs at 12 like other girls, but I also had to learn about my changing body from books and about guys from stumbling upon porn and the internet (I thought you bounced on a guys lap, you get that weird good feeling when you put something between your legs, and a baby would form, kek.) I just imagine: if that religion didn't exist, the big family weighing on her, dealing with puberty at 9 almost all on my own, no pressure of "boy" and "girl" things, my childhood would've gone from good to great.
It KNOW it was a really damn great childhood, but I've been so lost and casually depressed for years I rarely get a chance to look back and remember the good, innocent carefree times before I realized being alone on my own front porch was dangerous, not because of simply "don't go outside or someone will take you, honey!", but from "Wow, if I'm out alone there are people who literally want to hurt me for being a child and a girl".
When I read enough comics or re-watch late 2000s superhero shows and movies, when my mind is blown by a really good one, I think back to the sense of amazement and wonder I had when I was 9. I get it back when I see a reference to an earlier movie and comic in ones now, staying up late to watch Justice League: Unlimited on Boomerang, seeing Nightcrawler teleporting across an entire ocean in Wolverine and the X-Men, from catching an episode of TF:Prime coming home from middle school, from watching Pacific Rim a month after it came out in theaters with my mom. Even though I still have never watched those shows from start to finish to this day because I didn't understand what TV schedules were, that you could find shows online and I didn't get my first phone or internet-savvy until I was 15 (thank god I didn't).
And that's what goes through my mind every time I watch a Spider-Man movie lmao.
No. 1015629
I really was convinced I was the one who was overreacting, I was the one who was unstable, I was the one who was sensitive. But no matter what kind of day I have, depressing or productive, active or idle, something happens between us that makes me want to break up with him, and it's usually something he says or does and later even admits to being his fault or just a stupid decision on his end. I'm tired of him constantly saying how sad he is that I want to break up when I finally collect the confidence and clarity to express to him that I won't put up with it any longer and that I don't need him. But I don't want to hurt his feelings and it makes me sad to break up, so I just let it be and say to myself I'll see where things go. Then I relax and let it go and act all loving to him until the cycle repeats: he messes up something so simple yet meaningful that really hurts my feelings, and it makes me want to leave him because there's no reason I should put up with it. He wants us to take a sort of break as I had suggested quite some while ago when I was more willing to try and make things work. We won't be in contact for two weeks (I'm in another country) so we, especially I, can focus on ourselves. I thought this would be what could help our relationship, since I thought I was just super sensitive and traumatised and therefore overreacted. But now the difference is that, instead of crying (which I do end up doing eventually), I just get annoyed and cold by things he does. Now that I'm a bit more productive and confident, even without the break, the things he does still hurt me but my initial reaction is just to break up since it makes me unattracted to and apathetic towards him. Idk, seems pretty obvious to me that I should break up, but I just can't seem to accept how dumb this guy really is to just treat our relationship so carelessly when we've had enough opportunities for learning. It really isn't that hard and there are so many guys who would love to take his place. I receive confessions multiple times a week and he knows I reject them because I truly am loyal to him. But I don't think I want to take this anymore, it's just not worth it. All of these instances just make me like him less. Whatever was special about him in my eyes just withers away when I see how he really acts to me on a consistent basis. He doesn't deserve me, and every time I tell him that he changes and tries a little bit but ugh, it's such obvious laziness. I know he does love me and that's why it's maybe not as apparent as usual douchebag behaviour, but it is still just jerk behaviour and I'm tired of being told it's MY fault and I'm just too sensitive. No, retard, you've just never been with a girl who is on your level or even above it before. He one time said he never was with someone as demanding or with as high expectations as I. So I asked him if he wanted to go back to his previous relationships. He said he didn't, and I know he doesn't, because I'm the best girl he's ever had and I'm not even exaggerating. They're his words anyway. So I told him that if he wants a girl like me, this is the price: effort. If he wants one of his ex girlfriends to avoid these problems, he can. I really think he always saw his girlfriends as below him and they probably felt the same way since he is very educated and considers himself very smart whereas the ex-girlfriends I know of lived a very different life. He is also always emphasising how ~ intelligent ~ I am, so I know it matters to him. But he needs to understand that for a girl like me, he needs to behave better. He's calling me now, let's see what he has to say.
No. 1015635
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A close friend of mine has somehow managed to fuck up the muscles in one of her legs, perhaps permanently.
She's an instructor in dance, aerial and pole, and also competes in the last two. These things are her entire fucking life, she absolutely loves staying active and these activities especially makes her so happy. The studio is her goddamn second home because it makes her feel so much at peace.
The doctor at the emergency didn't give her any straight answers on if it's going to heal, only that she has to take it easy for now and not put any pressure on it. But she is of course scared of it being permanently damaged, she is straight up devastated at the thought of it. I'm so upset for her sake, I don't know what to say or do for her. What do I do anons? I want to cheer her up somehow but I'm at a loss for words
No. 1015670
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I live with my sister right now and getting her to do anything is the definition of "if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself." She couldn't figure out how to put air in my car tires when she took it out even though she's done it loads of times on her car, so now I have to make a whole separate trip out to do this one damn thing. I'm always the one who takes the trash out when it gets too full and restocks things like soap dispensers and cleans the kitchen beyond only loading and unloading the dishwasher, and it's so petty but it really adds up after a while.
No. 1015683
>>1015679Have you looked under your nails?
>>1015682oh
No. 1015689
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WHERE the FUCK is my boyfriend? he's gone awol
No. 1015692
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Kicked out of the house. Finding a place to live isn’t a big deal, it’s just the betrayal. I hate my dad for being an enormous scrote who hates lesbians.
No. 1015702
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I realised I have an aversion to a specific smouch sound and it figured out from my sister and her boyfriend smouching.We aren't even in the same room but the soundproofing is bad so it's audible and shit it makes me angry, annoying and nauseous.I didn't know a sound like this could bother me.And it's not like I can tell them anything cause they don't do anything wrong and it's also stupid.Idk if it's misophonia or whatever but I'm so repulsed. I was literally like this wojak expecting them to stop
Also yes I'm a khv but I feel like if I actually gota boyfriend and this happened even accidentally I'd flip
I'd post this in the annoying thread but it doesn't seem to be a thing anymore
No. 1015750
>>1015745Eh, there's facial features almost everyone finds appealing and some almost nobody finds appealing (especially asymmetry), and good looking people get treated a lot better.
I think self acceptance is healthier than copium. I'm unattractive. It is what it is.
No. 1015787
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It's been 2-3 years since I have last spoken to him, yet he still refuses to move on from me. I logged into an old discord account for something, only to find out he's been messaging me everyday for all of those years. Every single day. About how he misses me, everything along those lines. He's sent me actual letters to my house too once or twice. I know there's nothing I can do. You can't stop someone from being obsessed with you. All I can do is ignore him. He doesn't know I'm engaged to another man whom I actually love. I don't like being around him, I don't like him, yet I don't want him to suffer like this. But what am I to do? I wish he'd just move on, but he refuses. I can't do anything to help him. What a fool. It'd have been better if we were to never have met in the first place. I know I'm not the cause of his suffering, it's his fault really, but it still doesn't feel good. Especially since I'm helpless.
No. 1015796
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>>1015772I dont want attention and I hate this actually. You do realize that by making such posts you are urging me to reply more and baiting me? There have been hundreds of posts made about me in the past week and then when I clear up things I am personalityfagging. Are you stupid? You're the ones obsessively talking about me. I'm a fucking farmer, not some random bitch you found on the internet and made a thread on. I am here. Also, most of the posts made about me are straight up psychopathic.
I would also never hurt my cat. I love her so much, but I have been saying stupid shit due to the immense amounts of anger everyone in here has put in me and everything that has been happening I just can't believe it. I have literally sacrificed myself to make a stupid moid that has been posting on here for years leave. I wish I never sacrificed myself to doxx steven and that instead you would have browsed the friend finder thread and he would have added you and continued to creep on you and post "empathetic psychiatrist" LARP posts. You dont deserve my sacrifice and the effort I have put to change lolcow and its mentality. Rot in hell bitches. Good luck with your sociopathic shithole. My work here is done.
(just log off) No. 1015798
>>1015789>>1015783No, I completely agree that Romani-chan is way fucking worse, I'm not entirely convinced she's not a troll/scrote made personality. Paki-chan is annoying and a bit woe is me (always accusing everyone of being from a 1st world country when we have a lot of latamfags, also she keeps bringing moids up), but she's not
as bad. I think she's a bit more contained, nowadays.
No. 1015800
>>1015796Didn't you and the scrotoid meet in the vent thread?
>>1015798She's real. Paki-chan is definitely woe is me but Paki-chan also has concrete plans despite being very depressed, she's just miserable and a little obsessive.
No. 1015801
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Bf would rather look at Reddit porn than have sex with me, am I gonna dump him? Probably not because my esteem is rock bottom and I’ll find any excuse to dismiss it
No. 1015810
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>>1015787you're young werthering him!!!!
No. 1015822
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I don’t want to be a black person, white person, brown person, I just don’t want to be perceived anymore..
No. 1015826
>>1015816I really wish jannies would release her post history so she has no choice but to leave, can't even read a vent thread without annoying walls of schizo text everywhere.
I remember there was someone posting similar walls of dead mom eternal
victim text in the friend finder thread that ended up getting it banned for Discord drama. Bet it was her.
No. 1015843
>>1015838stop lying
>>1015772this clearly is about me and nobody else. Everyone has been sperging about how I am personalityfagging, attentionwhoring and such. So, why just lie after you make the post manipulative cunt. You made the post and I told you that if you would shut the fuck about me I would simply stop posting and replying.
>>1015837bad LARP
No. 1015850
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holy imposter syndrome, which one is the real thing
No. 1015881
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>>1015850these two are dating I'm sure of it
No. 1015891
>>1015854Me too
nonnie. But in a way, I'm sad it had to come to this. Lolcow is far superior but 4chan has the advantage of being much more active and having some threads about my niche interests that won't gain enough traction to warrant their own threads on lolcow.
Decided to stop browsing it after reaching my limit of tolerating dumb scrotes including the fucking /v/ mods. What is /blog/?
No. 1015961
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>>1015949
I agree, plus reading all the chaos is kind of fun
No. 1015993
>>1015984samefag and there's usually no conversation anyway, just yelling about nothing
>>1015990no
No. 1016022
>>1015983i just said the racist infighting is always a no. the bar for what "infighting" is is sometimes very low depending on the person so i prefer it to be more relaxed than strict generally, except when it comes to what you mentioned, like politics and race.
>>1015984not really, sometimes they're the same and sometimes they're different.
No. 1016072
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Warning for gross bathroom talk but this shit (kek) was traumatizing and I need to share somewhere. Was horribly constipated, tried regular enema and just ripped my asshole with nothing but little pebbles coming out. Redid it, this time adding oil into the mix. Literally within a minute felt my bowels ready to explode, quickly made it to the toilet and had the most horrifying dump of my life. Felt like I'd literally given birth with how much and how large an amount came out of me, at least it was quick, if slightly painful and discomforting.
mfw feel like there's probably still going to be a round 2.
No. 1016075
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>>1016062Nta but there is a whole series of them
No. 1016086
>>1016079You've proved my point kek
I'm not even talking about negative mindset, I'm talking about any hard topics in a relationship.
No. 1016105
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>>1016076My live in moid has never shied away from difficult convos and in fact actively asks me what's wrong if I seem down about stuff. I am definitely one of those people that love to internalise and suppress and he has been helping me stop doing that.
Tldr if I could find a moid that's decent then so can u, good luck in your love quest
No. 1016108
>>1016105love this gif
nonny!!
No. 1016114
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It's been a little over a year since I last had a serious relationship. I need a girlfriend NOW! I'm sick of feeling lonely.
No. 1016130
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>>1016125I read this post over like 7 times and I still don't know what it says
No. 1016133
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>>1016130I said have you ever been far decided to use even go far look more like? That’s what I thought and see alike. The thing is that because and to unpack and deal and preserve and provide. Every things bad bitch lining silver?
No. 1016135
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decided to start dating a close friend of mine. weve known each other for like three or four years. ive had feelings for her since last year (uh, late 2020 i mean). and shes had feelings for me since we first met and werent even friends. all her breakups have been super messy, but all my breakup have been super messy. decided to give it a shot. its not even been a month and idk… shes having a lot of family issues, but to be fair she always is, non-stop. and i feel bad for not feeling bad at this point cause ive heard so many things about them throughout the years i dont like a single one. we were supposed to meet up monday, she didnt text me till it was night time to say sorry, then said she would def come today, and ive been texting her all day with no response whatsoever its like 11pm. i wont be surprised if she promises shes def coming over tomorrow and then does this same shit. dating my best friend years ago was a huge mistake, dating strangers from tinder was a mistake, dating a coworker was a mistake, dating a close friend thinking it would be better than letting strangers into my life is also not working as intended…
stupid me already told my friends about this, and i feel like a fucking idiot about it…
No. 1016151
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I mostly drink out of boredom, and it seems that for the past year I’ve been killing my liver with how much I’m drinking. I have so much to lose but it’s so easy to take some shots, listen to music and zone out. It’s making me more and more depressed but it’s so hard to quit. I’m so scared of my family or partner finding out but I don’t know where to start. It all feels so hopeless, I wish I never tried alcohol.
No. 1016178
>>1016130 i think they're saying that they're sane because she doesn't get attention from farmers, those who do are
>retards, trolls, or samefaggingso she's "incredibly sane" because only schizos get the spotlight
No. 1016200
>>1015843the op said it's about paki-chan and it makes 100% sense
>I hope she never leavesPaki-chan posted about planning to escape to the USA.
FYI, I don't agree about OP's sentiment and especially the last part No. 1016202
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>>1016124DID SOMEONE SAY SPARKLING CATS???
No. 1016224
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>make twitter
>put some cute profile pic vague description and vent about being sad for some days
>for some reason i gain followers
>i open it sometimes and post random stuff, i rarely get "likes" or "retweets" but real accounts follow me everyday and idk why.
>only things about me in the account is that im a female +21 and that im sad
>pro ana followers even though ive never ever posted pro ana shit
>twitter randomly also suggest me pro ana tweets
>i rarely tweet anymore, i just like having the account and the app on my phone to report as much pro ana content as i can
>also self harm content, which, most pro ana fags are also cutters so i get that 2 for 1 deal.
>i literally never interact with the accounts, rarely post, just reporting and reporting pro ana shit, self harm shit, "i wanna killmyself i swear!!" shit.
>they dont always get deleted but when they do i feel a little bit better about dumbass me as a teenager starving myself and getting hospitalized.
>its been going on for months and i will keep reporting them every single time i dont care how many times i have to, its disgusting.
also, i see this happen every single time i open the app, the girls who are 18+ (who have a bunch of underage followers) will make "callout" posts on creeps who send them creepy DMs. But, they are literally posting almost naked bodychecks to underage teens? But they are surprised scrotes are going to send them messages about it? like i just saw a girl "callout" a guy for making a comment about her breasts, but on her profile shes showing full nipple and everything on her bodychecks. like, at this point you're almost one of those twitters that promote OF, what kinda attention are you expecting? Clown world.
No. 1016229
>>1016207No, Radfems do believe evil women exist, but generally they will always be better than men
Anyways, romanianon wherever you are kill yourself please
No. 1016234
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>>1016229Can we stop with the kys posts, jeez
No. 1016241
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>>1016238Hnngngggguhhhhhh
No. 1016256
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I really don't get the hate. This is a gossip site where telling/being told to kys is as common as grass, venting about killing people who anger you (most of the time moids) and about bad shit that happened to you. Some of you literally spend time sperging about how a cow's vag looks when yours looks exactly the same, only it's not posted anywhere (that we know of). I really don't care some girl threatened to kill her cat and dad in the middle of an emotionally distressing situation. If it's a male I'd genuinely believe it and not be surprised to see it in the news.
Romanianon, if you're not a troll or larping scrote, you said you've been here 7 years. There's no use in false comforts because you already know no one is magically going to offer you a lifeline. The radfems who harassed you were either fakes who only hate troons and don't know theory or extremist asians who call us "coksuckerr breeder whoaaarr!11" Sorry you got manipulated by that moid but please get off here, stop threatening to do shit you're going to regret doing/saying, find a way to release your emotions safely and get some professional therapy from someone who won't kick you while your down.
No. 1016258
>>1016244Nah I don't care about attention I just think she's super retarded and has murdering intentions
>>1016256>Troon characterAnon why…
No. 1016295
>>1016271The whole world is designed to be as easy and convenient as possible for men, yet they still find an excuse to play the
victim just because they’re too fucking stupid and hedonistic to finish a degree.
No. 1016302
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I hate people who cannot communicate their feelings. The fact that I had to go out of my way to ask someone what the fuck I did to them only to get some bullshit none answer about how they don’t owe me an explanation is ridiculous. Fuck people who don’t know how to communicate and resolve issues like adults.
No. 1016304
>>1016289Admin is deliberately letting trannies/moids post bait to
trigger radfems because she hates them, they even try to larp as radfems too but their psychopathy is too obvious, most of the time I assume I'm talking to a trannie
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>>1016333She did say she was pretty and ugly girls bullied her in middle school.
No. 1016343
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she literally looks like a moid hope she kills herself(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 1016356
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>>1016354No
(stop derailing) No. 1016514
>>1016258NTA but fuck this 'Troon character' shit AKA letting troons have shit real women enjoy
Shock horror real women can genuinely like things trannies do without being trannies