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No. 1551367

previous thread >>1544002

No. 1551378

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i'm always going to stay true to myself

No. 1551386

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I wish I had the money and the resources to
fake my death
travel far away
establish a new identity
find a job I truly enjoy
love myself
live, without fear, paranoia and hatred consuming me

No. 1551387

I talked to you about my problems and all you did was start talking about yourself. You do this every single fucking time. What does she see in you?

No. 1551395

>>1551378
Good, it's easier to love yourself that way
cool pic

No. 1551398

Some friends wanted to meet up at a time that I'm always unavailable, which they all know about because it's been like that for months now. They decided to do a different time because another person also wasn't free, but then only he was asked what would work for him instead. Now that they changed it I could join as well, but I don't want to anymore. It feels like they didn't want me to be included but wouldn't say it out loud. I don't see the point in spending more time with them if they don't even want to remember me and talk past me. The last few times I managed to hang out with them it started okay and then they began to ignore what I was saying until I left or they decided to leave. I know I'm not very interesting to be around but I don't want to feel like I'm completely worthless

No. 1551400

How can you tell if you’re developing a drinking problem? Honestly I started to feel like it was a problem right away when I started having drinks once a week. I would get highly buzzed or slightly -moderately drunk one time a week, and after a few weeks of doing that I started to think about really wanting a drink about 3 days after that (but wouldn’t actually drink). The thoughts would last like 2 or 3 hours then go away.

Then I was drinking 2x per week and thinking about drinking another 1-2 per week. I started to get pretty worried, it feels excessive to me but everyone thinks I’m crazy for feeling that way because I’m not getting full on plastered several days a week.

Now living with my boyfriend it seems to be ramping up to drinking nearly every day. Only really getting past tipsy 1-2x per week, but I usually drink to that buzzed feeling every time I drink. I think maybe my boyfriend was drinking every night before he met me and is slowly returning to old habits?? And it’s really influencing me. But it doesn’t seem to be a problem at all for him, and I’m not sure how often he so much as gets buzzed. I think I’ve only seen him get drunk like twice even when we seem to have drank quite a lot he seems unaffected. He sleeps fine and takes care of everything and is never late for work or gym so like I said it seems to not be a problem for him? But I think it’s a problem for me??

No. 1551401

A weekend without my mood stabilizers and I quickly find out why I desperately need them. I'm all over the place emotionally and I get randomly scared of sleeping.

No. 1551402

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This guy at work that clearly has a huge crush on me is getting on my nerves. Like yes I see you standing all the way over there between some shelves staring at me, I can always fucking tell when someone is staring at me so I'm always turning my head and spotting this cryptid spying at me from afar. It's such an awestruck gaze too as if I am the most beautiful thing he's ever seen, it's such a foreign feeling. He's ugly though, but his ugliness seem tied to deliberate choices. Shave the facial hair. Shave the unibrow and shape your eyebrows. Maybe get a speech therapist. Stop wearing huge shirts, go to the gym, etc.
>at work, working
>it approaches
He spends his breaktimes looking for me I swear
>stands just out of my field of vision
>i turn
>he goes h-hi
>hi
>how r u
>good hru
>tired
Always with the tired shit. Okay? Take a nap in the freezer. Today I was in an aisle and he comes to the same aisle and pretends to be browsing. I know you're not buying shampoo on your break. I'd be fine having a depressing chat with him maybe once a week, not every time he successfully hunts me down and droops in the corner of my vision.

No. 1551405

Really getting sick of Americans/Canadians/UK people coming to Scandinavian countries and being surprised that there's wa worse racism here than in their countries. Even though I was born here, worked since i was 16, know the language well, I experience it 24/7 even in professional settings. The Hygge socialism bs is only for white people. I remember being in secondary school and my teacher telling me she will never give me the highest in Swedish subject because I'm not swedish. She wore doc Martens everyday and was a literal Nazi along with my physics teacher who was her good friend. This was back in 2012 and no one said anything because there are no laws against this shit. Scientific racism was literally created here in the 1600's, shit Hitler and colonialists used to justify their actions. I'd kill to live in a place like America or Canada where they actually allow immigrants to enjoy meritocracy fully without some racist Karen ruining it for you (ie you pay for a quality education and are treated fairly). Stop coming here thinking it's a socialist utopia.

No. 1551409

>>1551405
You really should move to America and maybe get shot or arrested for trying to open your own car with your own keys or something like that.

No. 1551413

>>1551409
hardly happens. any nonwhite in Amerika is more likely to be killed by the people that look like themselves than a cop. wake up

No. 1551418

>>1551413
you mean any moid

No. 1551422

>>1551405
It's not even for all white people. I'm Slavic and made the mistake of moving to Scandinavia. The shit people have said to my face blows my mind, I guess I'm white so it's okay to be mind-bogglingly offensive.

No matter how well you try to integrate they will keep you at a distance and shoot you down for jobs (unless it's cleaning, wiping old people's asses or food delivery) because you're not one of them. They only accept white Westerners and certain Asians because they're seen as safe. They'd turn down Virgin Mary reincarnated if she was Romanian, MENA or West African.

No. 1551425

>>1551364
yes i understand. i have schoolwork from kindergarten and old school workbooks and such i won't get rid of because 1. i like looking through them and 2. a lot of my belongings 'went missing' as a kid and i can not let anything go now out of fear

No. 1551434

>>1551425
I'm the same. I have art from my early elementary school years that I hold on to. I don't know why.

No. 1551448

I feel like every other scrote I meet (and I'm black so 99% of those scrotes are black due to the area I live in) comes off like a chaser. I notice that black coomers often are really into troons, chances of them trooning out are slim, but they chase troons with dicks. Which makes me not want to date at all and I wish I was a lesbian because all men suck, but specifically the men in my area suck.
I know I'd waste a woman's time, but man do I hate scrotes and I have a specific strong dislike for Bisexual/Chasers

No. 1551451

My parents started drinking again and I lost it after my mom asked me something about a vacation and I said it’s not happening with both of them drinking again and now I’m getting cold shouldered. I know I didn’t say anything bad or mean, just firm. I didn’t even tell them what to do, just said I’m not doing it and why. They slipped back into drinking together regularly and I’m tired of them thinking they’re moderating it when they’re just sinking back. I’m working on moving out and actively searching in new areas but it’s all so expensive.

No. 1551453

>>1551400
If you’re at the point where you are no longer indifferent to whether or not you have access to it, it is a problem

No. 1551470

>>1551422
I was really slapped in the face with the reality of my privilege as a white australian travelling in europe. Left me speechless, actually had to just turn around and walk away from group conversations at festivals because…I'd never really been in a situation where I was amongst heavily racist people, or assumed to be a heavily racist person etc.

No. 1551477

>>1551470
Samefag my autistic ass should clarify by privileged I don't mean accepted by shit people specifically, I mean just accepted in most social circles in general.

No. 1551496

This fucking bitch I know going around trying to get in with my close friends and turn my boyfriends friends against me because???? I don’t like that she’s a stupid bimbo who uses her sexuality to manipulate people and situations to her own pathetic ends?
My boyfriend hates you too, he thinks you’re trash and the fact his friend sticks his dick anywhere near you is his poor judgement, bring your snooty ass to our scene and see what happens whore

No. 1551502

Wtf is wrong with white gay men? This fat ugly faggot at my workplace would gossip about me and make fun of me for my assault by another coworker (im the revenge porn victim poster). My entire job turned against me and this faggot has the fucking gall to find my social media to harass me. Who the fuck are you? How fucking ugly and pathetic do you have to be to be jealous of a rape victim? You're jealous that nobody finds you attractive fatass piece of shit. I know there isn't a god because pieces of shit like you get to walk free and people like me have to pick up the pieces of their broken life and hide from the world.

No. 1551516

some people who i'd label as somewhat friends compared being a troon and being depressed as the same thing and i lost my shit and kinda raised my tone a lot lol,i mean what in the actual fuck, excuse me for having traditional values but being depressed is completely different to chopping your dick off and no ,i will never accept that shit as NORMAL

No. 1551518

Bought parts for a custom PC during 2020 but due to insane life circumstances never had the chance to assemble it. Went to go do it just now and realized I don’t have my memory cards. I’m fairly sure I bought them so they’re just lost to the void and I’m gonna have to spend more money.

No. 1551525

>>1551400
Depends on how much you’re drinking. Women should never drink more than 3 standard drinks in one day, and no more than a total of 7 standard drinks per week. If you’re regularly exceeding the daily or weekly limits set by health authorities then you have a problem.

No. 1551527

>>1551400
Samefag but men can drink twice as much as women and be fine as per health authorities. no more than 5 drinks in one day for a man and no more than 14 total for the week. Fuckers get more leeway kek

No. 1551543

>>1551502
idk but they are seriously unhinged. I used to work with one when I was an assistant manager in retail. Our store manager was a raging BPD bitch who sat around doing nothing but talking shit and taking smoke breaks all day. he vented to me about her and I agreed and vented back one time and a few days later I'm in trouble because he TOLD HER EVERYTHING I SAID omitting any of his part in the conversation?? When I asked him why he did that he said he felt like she needed to know because we were supposed to be a team?? Like what the fuck he just wanted to start drama and stir the pot. It was so lame

No. 1551550

>>1551543
White gay men and pearl clutching women. Two types of people who will never have your back when something happens to you. Oh and I know exactly that type of person who talks mad shit and as soon as you say one word or agree they turn around and do it to you too. I swear to god I just can't have any friends I hate drama. I need more straight men and lesbians in my life.

No. 1551559

How do you deal with depressed friends ? I've been friend with a girl for a few years and i knew she was suicidal but we never talked about it because her best friend was her confident. Last week he cut ties with her because it was too much to handle, she's even worse now and regulary post suicide notes in her ig stories. I don't know how to react i'm scared of becoming her new confident, we're not even that close. I had a lot of depressed friend in middle school and i know how draining it is, how depress it can make you feel.
I want to be here for her but i don't want to forget myself

No. 1551562

I wish my mom wasn't married and we could live together in peace until the end without some third wheel being gross in the background watching television 24/7 and complaining about the world and all his ailments. I rarely visit my mom anymore because I can't stand that insulin resistant scrote. No one seems happy in that household.

No. 1551580

GODDAMIT I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE I CANT BE ALL ALONE IN MY ROOM I WILL JUST SPIRAL SPIRAL SPIRAL I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE

No. 1551582

>>1551580
Come chill at my crib nona

No. 1551584

>>1551562
Kek sounds like I posted this. I hate my dad so fucking much.

No. 1551588

>>1551584
My deepest condolences, nona. Let us hope for divine intervention.

No. 1551594

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So goddamn sick of my retarded-ass family, why am I still loyal to these backbiting alcoholic dramawhores

No. 1551683

my dad is so ungrateful kek. i hate it when he eats up all the food i buy for myself without saying 'thank you' or anything, i hate it when he leaves the bathroom a mess, but i can't really complain to him about it because he's paying for everything else. but it seems so nuts to me. you were fine with buying your own food when i was in university…and now that i'm out, looking for a job, and don't have my scholarship money coming in every semester you turn into a lazy nasty glutton?
as soon as i get a job and save some cash i'm out of here man

No. 1551684

I wish I had friends

No. 1551694

Got a text from an unknown number thinking it was my ex but turns out it was just a coworker. I have tried to completely kill all hopes that we'll ever be together again but my heart still can't help but keep it alive.

No. 1551710

>>1551502
You cannot expect men to have any sort of respect for women or backbone at all just because theyre gay especially fat ones because they will do literally ANYTHING for male attention and validation.

No. 1551733

I feel like fat men being bullies spefically towards women doesn't get talked about that much. Most of the boys that bullied me in HS were fat boys.Most the commentary bros are either fat scortes or probably gay super young/terminally online. Joshua Moon is fat. Ethan Ralph is fat, Chris Chan is fat, my point is fat men are very hateful towards women when they want to be.
Nobody hates on fat scrotes enough, even when folks say they hate fat people, they usually start ranting about fat women.
Men have less reasons to be fat

No. 1551755

>>1551733
One of the creepiest, most pathetic men I have ever known in my life was 300 pounds growing up and never recovered from it. It doesn't matter that hes healthier, for whatever reason he is still a disgusting weirdo with vile proclivities that views people as puppets and has a known history of doing gross rapey shit to men out of desperation and approval. I've known fat men who are really great people but the ones who aren't are truly something else entirely. They also loooove using the tee hee im just a big fat harmless teddy bear uwu thing as a weapon so people don't see the kind of person they actually are.

No. 1551786

>>1551684
I'd be your bud if I could

No. 1551788

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My cousin died and I'm in my feelings. He was like an older brother and the only male in my family that wasn't a piece of shit. It was a car accident so it was sudden and tragic. I'm going to miss him a lot.

No. 1551805

>>1551788
i am so sorry for your loss and I wish you and your family the best during this time.

No. 1551807

>>1551805
thank you nonnie

No. 1551848

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Men are so fucking retarded. The Y chromosome really is a disability.

No. 1551851

>>1551848
omg nonny I love kesha too!

No. 1551861

>>1551848
I like how it's titled "pop songs by longtime gay icons & allies that haven’t aged well" yet they include Eminem and The Weeknd. Gay scrotes are something else.

https://www.queerty.com/taylor-katy-keha-more-10-pop-songs-by-longtime-gay-icons-allies-that-havent-aged-well-20230415

No. 1551877

God being alive sucks
The only time when I ever feel any slightly positive emotions is when I'm sleeping

No. 1551880

>>1551877
agree, i love sleeping because I have crazy dreams. I sleep for 15 hours a day

No. 1551899

>>1551788
I'm so sorry for your loss, cherish the memories you have of him nona

No. 1551904

>>1551848
Having a vagina is not a gender stereotype… Jesus Christ, is the TRA narrative at this level of delusion now? Honestly I didn't think gay moods would push this retardation so hard, are you sure a Gayden didn't write the article?

No. 1551906

>>1551877
>>1551880
I used to use sleep as my escape but over time I started having nightmares almost every night and shrieking and sobbing in my sleep. Sucks

No. 1551907

I just fucking hate it so much when people leave me on read or don’t answer me. I’m probably having some deep aet issues with this but i can’t help it. I’m selling stuff online and i was negotiating an offer and eventually agreed to her offer and now she’s not replying. I personally would never do that, if i lost interest i will tell the person how it is

No. 1551913

>>1551907
I hate this shit too especially when it comes to selling stuff online. I once had someone agree to buy something from me on Craigslist and I ended up waiting for them just to never show up. I don’t understand why people like that don’t have the decency to just take a few seconds to send a message to not leave someone hanging. I recently moved and had to sell a bunch of stuff and the sheer amount of poor communicators I was dealing with wore on my mind.

No. 1551923

I feel like everything Im isnt usefull to society, Im an piece of shit that will never be productive or happy. And I know these feelings come from deep insecurity, I know if I open up to people maybe Ill find someone alike me that will value what Im. But it seems like Im programed to not feel safe with anyone, even when I open up and people tell me they value me I cant believe them or I start to think they are ignorant for seeing worth on my work

No. 1551924

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There's so much I need/want(ed) to do but I'm just… exhausted. I can't focus or think about anything other than how I'll never amount to anything and what a burden my existence is, always has been, and always will be.

Also, I feel like I probably have premenstrual dysphoric disorder.

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bump! be careful ladies

No. 1551929

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another bump

No. 1551930

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bump

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Bump

No. 1551942

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I'm so fucking bored and sleepy and hungry but I don't wanna get up and I also hate that Gboard on my new phone feels more inaccurate than on my older phone and it doesn't seem to be learning my typing patterns
I should be eating dinner, taking my daily shower, taking my medicine and reading manga or watching some anime or cartoons on my backlog before going to sleep since I had a long day

No. 1551947

My dad told me that I'm a degenerate and that he sees what I'm doing (on the internet) and I havemt been able to stop thinking about it. He has said this before but I just didn't take it seriously. Now I am and I feel so gross knowing that HE MIGHT be peeping on my porn usage???? Ugh.

No. 1551952

I keep getting romantic dreams about my coworkers. I feel uncomfortable looking at them at work pls help

No. 1551953

God i have so much to do today, but my head is a mess and i'm on my period so i just want to crawl inside a hole and die. I'm supposed to take my ADHD meds but i'm worried that i'll get a lot of anxiety once the meds wear off, so i'm stuck deciding whether i should take them or not. I normally don't get anxiety when i take my meds as i'm at work or school, but now i have the day off to take care of my administration. I hate it here

No. 1551956

my family got a french door style fridge that's only a bit smaller than the old one, but feels so fucking cramped. i swear we used to have room for all the food these retards buy but never eat. don't get me started on the rest of the kitchen. these bitches subsidize their retardation by making me get everything from the basement.

No. 1551957

>>1551947
Unless you’re gross and browsing porn(which gg you are by default a degen for that) on shared devices i do not understand how your dad is supposedly peeping your activity unless you share certain accounts with him and cant keep your porn usage to a private tab on your phone.

No. 1551958

>>1551947
Ngl I'm jealous, I wish my dad was anti porn instead of a degenerate coomer who spends like 3 hours every night looking at pictures and videos of girls a decade younger than me

No. 1551959

>>1551958
what her dad said doesn't necessarily mean he is a based antiporner

No. 1551960

>>1551959
True, men are hypocrites anyway so even if he is antiporn he probably still views it. I hate men I wish I was dead

No. 1551961

>>1551957
We don't share accounts or anything like that. I have my own devices and I still go incognito. He perhaps sees what activity is going through the router and knows by that.

No. 1551963

>>1551947
your dad is a fucking creep for peeping on you but why are you still watching porn

No. 1551965

>>1551947
Are you still a teenager? And do you own a pc/laptop/phone that he bought you? It could be that he planted something on your devices. If not, he probably finds out through the router at home. Use a vpn, nonnie

No. 1551969

>>1551965
The fuck. no. He's not that smart, definitely wouldn't be with Spyware. Yes that's what I thought as well. I'm gonna use the opera vpn since I don't have money for a real vpn

No. 1551972

>>1551947
I remember when my father freaked out when he found my browser history and saw a yaoi manga that I was about to read. He called me weird but it was almost like he wanted to call me a freak. Guess what? He's a massive fucking hypocrite and watches porn. Around that age, I accidentally happened to see what degeneracy he had in one of his USB sticks, it was porn. I was so upset, distraught, that I told my visiting aunt about it. I got scolded by my mother for telling others about my father's "private stuff" and I think that kind of reaction is pretty fucked up. Anyway, I wouldn't be surprised if your dad was also a hypocritical porn addict or projecting his guilt onto you.

No. 1551992

My sister left me on read for almost a month, didn't wish me happy bd for a week or more and didn't answer my question when she eventually texted, and now, when I'm not replying to her (not out of vengeance, I've just been overwhelmed lately and talking to her can be draining sometimes), she complains to my father that we don't talk to her and don't tell her how's it going yadda-yadda… shit like that seriously annoys me.

No. 1551993

i hope every stupid scrote who starts a new thread for shit like cosplays to attract women at a con and women's bodies and asking people to rate their cosplay and making a thread for every backwoods anime con from every place you've never heard of that gets exactly 0 replies loses internet access for good. i fucking hate retards who make completely useless threads for questions that could be answered in literally any other thread on the board. i wish the lolitas of cgl could separate from the cosplayers but i also know that the fact that there are cosplayers that use the board is one of the few things deterring retards from other boards from constantly raiding or some shit. ugh

No. 1551996

>>1551993
God, cgl is such a dump. I quit 4chan for about 2 years now, but I remember how much cgl had changed. It seemed like it was overrun with moids and their threads. What a shame.

No. 1552005

>>1551996
I wish there was a little more moderation on the volume of useless moid threads, especially those that are posting nsfw cosplayers (always pissed me off because isn't it a work-safe board?) I wish the lolita thread here in /g/ was more active, but I can't blame the women using cgl for not wanting to abandon their specific boards.

No. 1552011

I’m seriously struggling to get a job right now and it’s making me feel pretty down about myself. I’ve been applying to so many different jobs, even ones that are slightly further away and would require more travelling because I can’t seem to find much locally. I have a lot of experience in varied roles and at this point I’m not even looking for anything particularly specific, just no weekends. What am I doing wrong, trying not to get disheartened but every day that passes without a job I feel like I’m going insane.

No. 1552015

This morning I had an impulse to type up a list of video games to complete before I die; my autistic goodbye party to this shithole existence that made fiction much more alluring. It was very cathartic. I've always known suicide was my only way out and logically very likely given my schizoid tendencies, but I'm not even panicked by it any more. I have no peace and quiet in my mind, so it's very calming to know this will all be over within a few months.

No. 1552017

This nonna be broke. This nonna be so broke.

No. 1552024

>>1552015
what are those video games? and nonna if you ever want to talk about your feels i'm here

No. 1552029

I needed to travel to another city for a month so I left my dog to my friend who loves in the country. Everything was great, my dog loved it there, cause my friend had other dogs and they spent days playing together in his huge backyard. She was taken care of and it legit was like a dog resort. Unfortunately one day she was gone. What's weird is that only my dog was gone. It happened when my friend left his house for a couple of hours. I spent days three days looking for her, scouted all nearby area, plastered missing notes everywhere and spammed every fb group in our city. Now every person in the city knows my dog is missing. Today someone spotted a dog similar to her that was running around in the fields with a chain on its neck. My other friend is going there to check the village. Fingers crossed its my baby, I miss her so much.

No. 1552032

>>1552024
It's a long list but the ones I'm most interested in replaying are: Life is Strange series, Mass Effect trilogy, Yakuza 0 - 6, Grand Theft Auto V, Lake, Firewatch, Spiritfarer, Night in the Woods, and maybe some games I've bought but haven't played yet like Road 96 and We Are OFK. Thank you for your offer, nonna. It's greatly appreciated. Living with psychosis is really taking its toll on me and I'm struggling to communicate that to the people in my life. I'm so exhausted by the constant paranoia and embarrassed by my outbursts. The anti-psychotic medication I'm prescribed turns me into a zombie - which wouldn't be so bad if they actually fucking worked, but they don't. I feel so angry a lot of the time, angry at my family, my doctors, the healthcare system in general, the world, myself. I'm utterly joyless, which is probably why I'm currently drawn to escapism and nostalgia. Anyway, I'm sorry for rambling. But thank you for your reply. I hope you're well. ♥

No. 1552036

>>1552011
It’s okay nona, it’s not you, everyone is having trouble with that- do you have any friends you could reach out to that could put in a good word/hook you up with something?

No. 1552042

>>1552036
why would you want to work for a place that gets all its employees by nepotism? that sounds horrible.

No. 1552048

>>1552042
Do you not pay bills or something?

No. 1552059

>>1552036
Thank you Nonita, I do have a friend that works locally that did mention he’d put in a word for me, unfortunately they aren’t so busy right now but he said they may need more people in the summer, so that’s always a back up I suppose. There are a few prospective jobs I’m yet to hear back from so hopefully one of those will be positive, and I do have some income in the meantime but it’s barely enough to survive lately.

No. 1552070

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I've tried to date for years, to find a man who's serious and emotionally ready for a relationship. Not just "yeah sure I'm ready to settle down", but actually ready and fit to be a woman's life partner. Nowhere to be found. Ugly, handsome, tall, short, rich, poor, 20, 50. Doesn't matter. I've held on to my virginity thinking a guy would be grateful and somehow a better partner just because I saved myself for him. What kind of delulu-land have I been living in? I recently watched this mini docu of a 36 year old female virgin, she was pretty and outgoing yet saving herself for a "good guy". She had this kinda arrogant attitude, as if she was more deserving of a perfect hubby because she was A Virgin. It's fucking retarded, isn't it? We're gonna be treated like shit anyway. I shouldn't have saved my virginity, I regret it. Now it's such a big deal to me. There's nothing to be gained from saving yourself, there's no reward.

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>professor gives me an F on assignment and addresses me by the wrong name in the comment section for the assignment
>says my slides had too much information
>not a single one of my slides exceeds the word/bullet limit in the rubric
Why

No. 1552087

I wish there was still a lolcow discord as much as it was a shitshow.
I want to shit post on voice chats with anonitas

Why is it so hard to find female only spaces online argh

No. 1552089

>brother gets puppy pit bull
>I know my brother and I know he’s going to get bored of the dog and start to hate him once he gets bigger
>told my brother to get it trained by a professional before it grows up and becomes annoying and destructive
>brother says he doesn’t want a white man training his dog(we’re black)
>says that every time the dog misbehaves he’s going to put him in the basement as of the dog understands English
>doesn’t want us to cuddle or hold the dog so he can become a guard dog despite not training the dog to do so
>complains about him shitting on the floor but too lazy to take him for walks or potty train him

This is why pitbulls get a bad rep because they usually have owners like this

No. 1552096

>>1552070
>There's nothing to be gained from saving yourself, there's no reward.

I agree that it isn't healthy to put virginity on a pedestal for the reasons you mentioned, but you shouldn't beat yourself up imagining that shit would have gone better if things had happened on the other hand. Barring literal violence, having sex can be a waste of time and effort too even on the so-called "good" men.
What women don't benefit from period is assigning an outside value to sex. You had good reasons for sticking to your values under your circumstances. Tbh it's impressive that the woman in the doc made it to 36 and has been able to be so financially and emotionally independent from them.
Truly anon if I didn't need men then I wouldn't want them around, you're lucky.

No. 1552100

>>1552089
I hate negligent dog owners
If you can't give your dog basic affection or train it then why do you own it

No. 1552101

>>1552100
I think he thinks it’s magically going to turn into some vicious guard dog that’s going to only listen to him with no training. At least got him his shots.

No. 1552102

I had a wonderful week off work and went back today. And I've developed the worst runny nose and my throat hurts. People are off with covid but our boss was in and she is sick af. Her voice sounds so sore when she talks I spoke to her for like a minute and now I'm getting sick. Wtf can people not come into work when they're sick I cannot be fucked I was already off with covid in January I can't cope

No. 1552104

>>1552076
>"Hey Prof, I am trying to understand the grade I was given for this assignment. I noticed the name in the comment is wrong and I did not exceed the word count on the slides per the grading rubric. If the grade is not a mistake, then I wanted to be sure I had specific feedback so I can improve for next time. Thanks!"

You'd be surprised how often profs fuck up.

No. 1552105

>>1552102
But I was also at a massive concert on Thursday night I could have got something there. Oops.

No. 1552106

>>1552104
Nta but you're very clever and kind

No. 1552121

>>1552101
I don't know how often you see him or the dog, but maybe you can knock some sense into the situation. The dog deserves affection from its owner or someone else, even socially awkward one person dogs like Pyrenees have a favorite person.

If he wanted a vicious guard dog and not a pet maybe he should've adopted an older, aggressive dog and not a playful puppy

No. 1552153

>>1552121
wrong, you don't want an aggressive dog as a security/guard dog. you want an educated dog that understands who and what he is protecting, who he does and doesn't need to guard against. an educated dog means he can accurately identify potential threats and can then flash aggressive cues as a chosen behavior in order to protect, and understand commands if given. stark difference.
an aggressive dog just means he at any moment can and will harm what he is supposed to be protecting. being aggressive means uncontrollable actions, they will not respond to verbal or physical commands.

No. 1552161

i hate my current workplace and i wanna quit and look for another one but i dont know how to write an application and its bothering me so much

No. 1552162

>>1552153
The brother needs to learn not to buy a dog he's not going to train either way kek

No. 1552166

>>1552121
I see him everyday and he’s not going to listen to me anyway because I’ve discussed this with him but he’s stupid. I am just prepared to know the dog will spend his life in a basement or end up at the humane society when my brother gets bored.

No. 1552180

I HATE NEEDING TO WORK I HATE NEEDING MONEY

No. 1552245

I'm so tired of my two closest friends being my coworkers. Sometimes I just wanna do my own thing on dead hours and being on the computer, specially on Mondays, but they won't shut the fuck up and try to talk with me. I love them but I'm tired of seeing them daily.
I was so happy I could at least eat alone but now the schedule changed and I have to now eat with one of them. I feel like a dick but I also want to be left alone, 10 hours a day with them is way too much.

No. 1552342

I know it’s an autistic cope but I really want to cut but I don’t have any razors right now and my kitchen knives are dull as fuck. I really don’t want to go to a store in person to buy some. Autism not even once

No. 1552372

My brother has a cold or covid and of course the faggot just HAS to cough everywhere every 2 minutes and touch his runny nose before touching food or other people's stuff. This autist also huffs a lot when talking and doesn't fucking shut up. He loudly burps and he thinks he's funny. I want to fucking choke him and spray sanitizer in his face nonas. I'm having violent thoughts because of this absolute fucking bitch. I'm gonna snap.

No. 1552383

>>1551453
So based on what I said do you think that’s me?

No. 1552397

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>be sperg
>give dating apps a try
>really cute guy messages me
>mentions that he's an air traffic controller (which is really cool)
>tell him "oh, so you just sit there all day" because i couldn't think of anything to say
>he goes "uhh.." and never talks to me again

No. 1552404

>>1552372
i love how you call your brother autist and faggot lol, i always call mine those 2 words too.. i thought im the only one lmfao

No. 1552408

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YOU BROKE ME.

No. 1552420

>>1552404
Kek I mean in my case he does have some form of autism most likely and he is a faggot so yeah lol

No. 1552423

>>1552397
You dodged a bullet nonna ATCs are all alcoholic chain smokers

No. 1552425

>>1552423
This plus he proved he can't bant and would probably cry if you dish out half of what he would to you and women in general

No. 1552456

I'm an autistic paranoid schizo who's ruthlessly addicted to opioids (and any other downers I can get my grubby little hands on) with zero meaning in my life who copes and seethes on imageboards. I am a meme. I am an unironic cringelord. If it wasn't for the fact that I can experience empathy and sympathy I would seriously be questioning if I'm "male-brained".

No. 1552465

>>1552456
I was relating to your post 100% until the ''male-brained'' part. Don't you ever think that, you hear me? Stay safe, anon

No. 1552476

>>1552456
IMO "male brained" is tranny tier. Liberation is doing what you want, not doing the opposite of what people you don't like do. It's thinking about actions in terms of their intrinsic properties, not whether they're some percentage points more common in this group or that. If the latter is how you think about the world, you will never be at peace.

No. 1552477

>>1552465
Bless you, nonna. I'm glad to know there's at least one other woman like me out there. I think being GNC and isolated from women IRL is partly why I contemplate the "male brain" schtick. Simon Baron-Cohen wrote some of the ass burgers assessments that were used when I was tested and I swing wildly from thinking he's a retard himself to worrying about my "male" brain. Today's just one of them days, y'know? Stay safe too, anon.

No. 1552481

aaaaa NONNAS I HATE RESEARCHING FOR A CREDIT UNION!!!!! Why can't I simply pick a bank. Put my money in and go spend it. I have a headache. This sucks

No. 1552482

>>1552477
what makes you GNC anyway? Are you talking about something other than your appearance?

No. 1552485

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finally got prescribed ativan

No. 1552487

i despise it when gendershits enter into the fandoms i frequent and shit it up with all their stupid holier-than-thou gender takes and their ugly as fuck art. i hate how they can't like anything about a franchise unless it's proven itself to be morally aligned with their own opinions. i hate how a piece of media will neglect to officially gender a character for plot reasons and these shitheads will run with it, waving it desperately overhead while screaming on and on about how woke the writers were for making a they/them character just for them. as if all media was only ever meant to pander and promote inclusivity. i hate their weird obsession with gender roles involving characters, too. god forbid a character possesses qualities that aren't traditionally masculine or feminine. it's always femboy this and boy pussy that–SHUT THE FUCK UP.
god forbid creators try to get creative or make it a point to go against the grain of what is traditionally expected of certain tropes and characteristics.
god forbid these children stop themselves from having to label, categorize, and force every single thing they like into a neat little box that makes for easier digestion.
GOD FOR-FUCKING-BID THESE PARASITES ENJOY MEDIA FOR WHAT IT IS, INSTEAD OF TURNING IT INTO MORE OF THE GARISH, REGRESSIVE SLOP THAT ALREADY PADS THE INSIDE OF THEIR MEDIA-ADDLED SKULLS REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

No. 1552490

I started work experience in a restaurant today. It's my first day ever doing kitchen work and I made a mistake and I feel like all the chefs hate me or think I'm a huge spastic now. I was still feeling really confident right up until 15 minutes ago but the anxiety is creeping up on me

No. 1552492

>>1552490
What happened nona

No. 1552506

>>1552492
This has been my day
>wake up at 5am for 8am chef job
>I get there early
>head chef is gentle with me and makes me feel very welcome
>gives me some easy jobs because I'm nervous
>gives me a free coffee to help settle in
And then the mistake
>he tells me to chop boxty pancakes into fries
>they have to be cut thin
>I'm nervous and I kinda rush it, the cuts are thin but not thin enough
>nobody notices until I've already chopped €70 worth of boxty
>I hear the head chef chewing out a near by chef for not noticing my mistake while I was making it
>I offer to go back over my cuts and thin them out. I do it, the boxty is fixed, and everyone is happy
>I feel like a tit
>I was actually still confident until I started feeling like everyone there probably thinks I shouldn't be there and my first impression to the head chef is that I'm a massive fuck up and he hates me

No. 1552508

>>1552506
You're totally glossing over the part where everyone was happy after you corrected your mistake! They probably figured that you were nervous. It doesn't seem like they dislike you or anything, you're fine. But if they hate then let them hate and watch the money pile up

No. 1552518

>>1552506
It’s okay Nona you did well, you resurrected your mistake and it’s your first day so cut yourself some slack, it wasn’t a major mistake and you did everything you could to correct it, I’m sure you’ll be fine!

No. 1552522

>>1552508
I'm trying to be a "silver linings" person and reframe the situation with focus being that it turned out ok in the end. I find it very difficult not to take mistakes an internalise them as something very embarrassing and painful. At the moment I'm wondering if when I turn up tomorrow morning will everyone just be thinking I'm boxty twat and not a chef in training

No. 1552525

>>1552518
Thank you, I'm just kinda pissing and shitting and screaming because I'm a nervous person in general

No. 1552526

>>1552525
It's expected for new people to not know things and make mistakes, that training and breakage is a normal part of business. You should have cut a slice and then asked whether that's fine. But the chef also should have showed you how thick to slice it. Since you're the trainee on the first day, it was the fault of the person in charge of showing you how to do things. Ultimately no damage was done, and nobody thinks badly of you.

No. 1552535

If stupid people want to stay stupid and naive let them be. Stop wasting your time and energy on fruitless things woman.
No, you can't "fix" him, let the sucker remain a sucker.

No. 1552536

bit of a vent but i want to say i like the thread pic. i started crying in public about 6 years ago and honestly i think it just makes me more powerful. i'm a crier. always have been, and i have no shame in that.
but i have this shitty manager who isn't even capable of treating people with human decency. she talks to you as if you're a dog and if she was a person who doesn't like dogs very much. like she literally made a noise at me one time, and how i was raised, that is only a noise you make towards an unruly dog (sounds something like "AAAAin-ghT", sorry it's hard to explain). one day a coworker told me how during a break this manager was laughing about making me cry one day. it took me a while to figure out when that was, and she didn't really make me cry, because i really didn't actually cry that time. so what if she did though? a fucking four year old could make me cry if they wanted to. not impressive. my coworker said when our manager was laughing she was like "what? and you're proud of that?" manager said "um, haha, no!" but i know she was. i hate working with this lady. for a while i wasn't sure if she was deliberately trying to fuck with me or is just fucking stupid. now i'm pretty sure it's both. now i'm being overly nice and gracious to her. in a petty way. when she asks stupid questions i give stupid answers. if she brings up quiting to me again i've be overly encouraging in response instead of just bored.
maybe this should have gone in the work thread but i wanted to say i like the threadpic thank you

No. 1552545

I was so excited to join the gym and now I’m just psyching myself out of going because I don’t know what the fuck I’m meant to be doing. I had a gym appointment which I thought was to talk about goals and make a programme (according to the website) and it was so hurried and loud and she showed me like two machines and some squats and then gave me her card and finished the session 20 mins early. The “programme” never materialised. It’s just left a really sour taste, especially when I’m joining to try and boost my confidence and mental health and I feel like weirdly rejected. I’m going to reach out to a PT for the free session I’m due but if she rejects me as well I don’t know what I’ll do. I need some “how to do the gym for absolute retards” YouTube videos like I don’t want to talk to any of them I just want to not injure myself ffs

No. 1552548

I am rereading past DMs of my ex. I can only do this now because at this stage the pain has become more tolerable. Once the messy and nasty emotions have been cleared, reading these has allowed me to see where things gone wrong and where I would need to improve on in a way I have never been able to see before. I think what hurts the most right now is that I know she would never want me back even if I realized the best possible version of myself. It really hurts but ultimately I think this is for the best—that I'm doing this for me and me only so that I don't hurt the next person who comes into my life again.

No. 1552560

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Acting like a freak because I’m so desperate from breadcrumbs from my ex at this point. I gave him a shirt that is related to my job that he never really wore while we were together. I haven’t heard from him in months but I see on his friend’s stories that he’s been going out and has worn that shirt several times now within the span of a few weeks. If he had worn it a lot in rotation while we were dating or it was something less related to me I’d put less emotional weight on it but I can’t help but feel like he’s at least thinking of me. It’s the equivalent of me wearing a shirt from the restaurant he works at. It’s loser shit that I’m so obsessed with literally nothing from someone who won’t talk to me but I can’t help but read into it.

No. 1552564

I fear sharing much about myself and it gets in the way of building relationships. I have been hurt so much by people who destroyed my trust that I close myself to others by default. It is something I am especially worried about since I need to share my art with others sooner or later.

No. 1552572

Worrying about someone who isolates themselves when going through hard times is shit, but I can't even complain about it because I'm the exact same way. I wish I could read his mind to know exactly how he feels and what I can do to help or at the very least make him feel like he's not alone, but it just feels like he's pushing me away. This situation is frustrating the shit out of me.

No. 1552588

>>1552564
I'm the same nonna,the majority of people don't appreciate if you're open, they see it as something weird or something to take advantage of. This made me extremely reluctant to meet new people as well

No. 1552610

i hate myself i hate this feeling. i hate being anxious when there's literally nothing goong on my life. my heart feels like it's suffocating as the wal ls of my flesh is closing in. my hands are fidgity and i cant get anything done. i hate this. why am i like this

No. 1552669

only two things in life are certain, death and taxes, and I hate taxes

No. 1552672

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No. 1552677

My boyfriend’s mom has a pic of him as her phone screen. I probably wouldn’t think too much about it if she didn’t also have a daughter…. and try text him constantly. It makes me feel compelled to dump him kek

No. 1552683

man anxiety kicked in out of nowhere and my boyfriend was being supportive and caring up until he suspected it had to do with my leftover disgust and anger at my faggot of an ex. im not holding anything against him cus 1. it's an ex issue (im fully over him, just disgusted with recent discoveries) and 2. he's tired and works hard. i'm just hurt because well… last time he left like this when i was at the height of my emotions he gave me the silent treatment for a full day and suddenly decided to take a break that lasted what felt like years.

No. 1552846

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I miss le dumb scrote so bad I wanna kms. However I am trying to convince myself that I'm better off without him, and I have a career that I want now and I've overcome so much of my past trauma. Why give up all I have now for some dumb porn addict? Yet I still feel the intense hurt of knowing what could have been, not in an "I can fix him" way, because you can only fix yourself. But in a way of like, knowing that if me and him were in fact on the same page, we really would have been too perfect. Out of all the dumb males I've wasted my time with, the connection with him was by far the most intense. That's why it hurts so bad, but luckily I'm more mature now and I know myself so much more now in almost 26 years of my shitty life that I can cope more with this immense heartbreak. But fuck if it doesn't still hurt. I'd rather him straight up say I'm a crazy wacko than say he fell for me and then had to move to another fucking country. I wanna die but nit really, I just have a lot to say and no one to say it to. I'm currently already looking for his replacement, to soften the blow if nothing else because I want to convimce myself so badly that we weren't 90% a match made in heaven… gotta focus on that 10% that consists of red flags such as him being divorced at 26 and bragging about knowing of any porn star in existence… cringe.

No. 1552869

i really wish i had some girl friends similar to me, i want to cry seeing other best friends because i lost mine and now everything is just different. all i want is to get out and do fun stuff but i feel so shy and have no idea how to meet anyone anymore, and ik girlies like me would be in hiding too. i'm sick of only hanging out with my bf…. i know this is easily fixable and i need to just stop being an autist and do something but it feels so difficult. it's like nobody really wants to make genuine friends but maybe i'm just boring and too insecure IDFK….i feel like i'm missing out on so much life..

No. 1552875

>>1552683
Nonna, your boyfriend is a genuine piece of shit. Leaving while trying to help you through a moment because he doesn’t like what you’re upset about is asshole behaviour. Giving you the silent treatment at all is asshole behaviour. Like what kind of person does that?

No. 1552927

Been learning programming and god it's so hard. I feel like I do everything wrong and I can't remember anything and when I try to make something without a tutorial it never comes out like how I envision.

No. 1552954

>>1552927
You gotta start small, nonner. Do exercises for the basic concepts that you struggle with and then try creating something a bit more complex with those concepts. Work your way up little by little. Then when you have internalized the logic, you can follow tutorials to build the programs you want.
Also you don't need to memorize absolutely everything, most if not all programmers have to look some things up occasionally.

No. 1552955

Men will see that you've been abused before and use it as an excuse to abuse you further because you're "ruined" and they think they are owed the right to repeatedly hurt you over and over. Im tired of it.

No. 1552987

I've been maladaptive daydream and I know I need to stop.

No. 1552993

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>>1551367
Sophistipop is the nu-metal of the 80s.
You would think it's another metal genre like hair metal, but how popular was hair metal compared to nu metal?

I mean both sophistipop and nu metal were branches of their genres, sounded well made to SOME, and were niche as niche. Yet they both required particular knowledge (if not skill) to be made/classified and it's not as if anyone else remembers them that eloquently either way.

No. 1552996

I just want to eat 2 slices of a cake without thinking acne will appear and then dark spots for a month or more god damnit. the rest of my diet is greens and a little meat, some tea, give me a break!!

No. 1553003

>>1552996
I inherited a condition from my dad where dairy gives me perpetual adult acne and I've just resigned to it. I won't stop eating cheese even if I have cystic acne for the rest of my life. smoked gouda… havarti… on crackers…. mmmm

No. 1553009

I hate my uncle so much and I don't like having to pretending to be cool with him (even if my pretending is just me saying 'hi' the 1 time I see him out of an entire year). He's a violent narcissist and has put his hands on my grandmother, he probably would have hit her if no one intervened.

No. 1553016

On my way to a practical exam, I feel like actual death. Like I breath out a black tar or something. I suck at practical exams I really hope the doctor's gonna be nice and not fail anyone because it's supposed to not be a big deal. I am just so fucking tired. I went through around a hundred of ecgs and around 50 xrays last night I really hope my brain just won't give out. I honestly just feel like life isn't worth living lately, it's just endless studying. And it's a Sisyphus work, no matter how much I do in a day it's never enough and I'm always behind. I can't even feel achieved when I go to sleep it's just more guilt and feeling of uselessness. I'm right at the end though I need to push through.

No. 1553021

>>1553016
I believe in you nonnie! It's normal to feel like you aren't accomplishing much but I promise you that you are. You're just overwhelmed at the moment and not seeing the results clearly. You got this! Please treat yourself to something you like afterwards like maybe a favorite drink or snack. Decompress for a bit too.

No. 1553022

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why lolcor full of fun-hating tards and un-integrated fags now im sad why is /ot/ so dead wat da hell

No. 1553026

My family loves to use my ass for free babysitting on short notice and then berate me for my lack of responsibility and how I have it "too easy" without kids of my own. Yeah, exactly.

No. 1553027

this dumb fuck chat client i use to roleplay on is dead and no one's writing my embarrassing guilty pleasure ships with me. i know it's dorky but i don't give a fuck. i'm having a bad night and i really want to write two guys kissing.

No. 1553030

>>1553027
What's the chat client?

No. 1553031

can't imagine being so obsessed with an lolcor poster that you document their posting habits kek. rent free as they say

No. 1553035

i was standing in the kitchen for 10 minutes w a fist full of peanuts trying to put them in my mouth and my body just not cooporating because eating disorder and now that i got them in it just started a binge episode and i just feel so disgusting after half the cupboard is empty

No. 1553039

I just remembered that after a girl I went to high school with got murdered, I told the RP server we were both in so they wouldn't expect posts from her anymore and nobody fucking believed me. When her story made it to Dateline NBC I wanted to post the episode to the forum but it had been a couple years so I didn't bother.

No. 1553044

>>1553031
kirbyanon lives rent free in my head and she's welcome to stay

No. 1553047

usually i am very excited for the new semester because i love my classes but my anxiety is through the roof right now and i dont know why
could be PMS
i don't even know what i'm scared of, my brain is just fucking with me for no reason

No. 1553051

My dumb cousins thought it was a great idea to have a meet up while they were still recovering from norovirus And of course, they didn't have the courtesy to tell me that beforehand so I could cancel and postpone it. It only took a day for me to get the exact symptoms, I had to call in sick at work and I still feel like shit few days after.

No. 1553063

Roommate getting drunk and loudly sex phoning her bf until 4am in the goddamn morning. I hate you retard. You know I have an interview tomorrow and wanted to wake up early today to prepare. Motherfucker

No. 1553073

>>1551405
Don't pretend like this only works one way. Always trying to put guilt on the welcoming European countries. Then you wonder where that feeling comes from. And of course you wish to go to America and not your wonderful country of origin.

No. 1553080

i saw an entire dead body being moved into an ambulance right outside of my college dorm last night and nobody is reacting the way that they should be when i tell them. just “oh that sucks, anyways-“. when i saw it i was literally shaking, i don’t think i’ve ever felt that way before. i feel absolutely crazy for reacting so badly to it, but it feels crazier for everyone to just brush off the literal death of a human being right at our front door. even worse is that apparently several bodies have been found on campus, all overdoses. i’ve witnessed 2 arrests on campus this week alone, the dead body has sent me over the edge completely. this place is completely unsafe and my university hasn’t issued a single statement about it, they’re just ignoring the fact that people have died all over campus and students are in danger from mentally ill homeless people who the city refuses to take care of. i hate portland. i wish that these people could be saved instead of waiting until they commit a crime or die alone on the streets. i know it’s stupid and idealistic of me to think like that, but i want to cry thinking of the fact that the person i saw was once a child with people who loved them. they probably never thought their life would end like this. just because someone died from an addiction doesn’t make their death any less tragic. i hope that whenever that person is they ended up in a good place. i’m sorry that this world wasn’t kind enough to them.

No. 1553085

>>1553021
Thank you nona it lifted me up a bit. I passed the exam, it wasn't great and I made stupid mistakes so I'm feeling pretty emo for being a dumb ass but pass is a pass.
I got this homeless guy patient and he kept on just talking and talking irrelevant shit, I could hardly get his physical evaluation or any history out of him and he ended on a joke about me stripping naked, jesus christ.
The only other patient I could have apparently always shows everyone his penis so I got the better one.

No. 1553087

I think my ex boyfriend might have been a narcissist. He constantly craved attention from strangers, thought he was gods gift to humankind and the most important thing to him was the way he looked, his outfit etc. He was obsessed with social media and "followers" and treated his parents like slaves he could mooch off of while he went to university for almost 8 years to get a fucking bachelors degree because he was "too good" to get a job and too occupied with going to the gym two times per day. He was always super defensive, could never apologize or own up to anything and avoided arguments like the plague. He was obsessed with nitpicking my appearance in the last months when we were together. I gained some weight in the last year when we were together because I was constantly eating my feelings. His absolute favourite thing was to convince me to step on the scale so he could comment on my weight and compare it to his mom for some reason. I got into this relationship when I was fresh out of high school and I was with him for 4 years and was too scared to leave because I had no one else, so I endured it. I think it was a classic narcissistic relationship cycle with the lovebombing and idealization in the beginning and then the devaluation and discard at the end. Our relationship ended with him ghosting me because I "demanded too much" when I needed emotional support when my dog died.

No. 1553102

>>1553080
You have a lot more empathy than me. Junkies suck, sorry you had to get traumatized by seeing a dead one. I don’t feel sorry for them, there are actual suicidal people in the world that try and fail to die because they’re not rich/socially connected enough to access drugs that at least allow a peaceful death like fent. Meanwhile junkies make it impossible to get proper pain relief cause all doctors treat everyone as a potential junkie, as if an actual junkie doesn’t have a dozen buddies to call and get drugs from. Fuck junkies. I’ve literally seen people saying that they should phase out opioid pain medication because “nobody needs that kind of pain relief unless they’re in the hospital and even then it should only be used for end of life” like bitchhhhhhh just let it be a free for all and let the junkies die by misadventure, even if the supply was regulated they’d still accidentally kill themselves because they’re retards

No. 1553117

>>1553080
Hearing about it and seeing it yourself aren't the same experience at all so I'm not surprised.

No. 1553129

>>1553102
This is such an usa shit to say hahaha sorry your country hates their citizens and give them opioids since childhood to treat minor pain. In my country we make fun of you because just the endure the pain loser, take an ibuprofen idk not every pain is supposed to be shut down by a super addictive prescription.

No. 1553142

I so want to end it. In all sorts of ways.

No. 1553146

I’ve learned that limerance is a product of low serotonin so every time I start to think about you and your cute fucking smile or your silly little laugh I have to do something that gives me serotonin or I’m just fucked for hours. But before I go do push-ups until I can’t move, I am going to type into the vent thread on lolcow that I would give anything in the world just to hear her laugh again. God I’m pathetic.

No. 1553149

I can't stop crushing on men who just don't treat me badly. I thought I held my standards too high but I was just not interacting with people enough.

No. 1553177

There's a limit to the patience people deserve, no matter how much they've been through. I've been through some things but I don't know if I've already passed the point where it doesn't justify being who I am. If I stay here my whole life I definitely will have.

No. 1553187

I just remembered something that would make me mad
>had to draw on the board for math class
>would write a number up there
>another girl called up to finish the problem
>she ERASES my number, rewrites it "prettier", then does her part
If you did this in school I know you grew up to be a faggot

No. 1553189

>>1553187
You're right, that's definitely faggot behavior

No. 1553206

>>1553080
i do feel bad for you for how affected by this you are…but you're naive about junkies. they dont become street sleepers shooting up in kiddie parks and letting their limbs fester openly because the mean evil world was too uwu unkind to them. their situation is a sign of their character. many of them are entitled vampires who burned every bridge they had by taking advantage of people who cared and wanted to help. some people are just empty and stupid. many were abused as kids and generally not taught how to care about themselves. it's sad but then as adults they become the same learned helplessness having vampiric personality, expecting someone else to solve their mess of a life because the world owes them, but then sabotaging and taking advantage of anyone who tries to actually help because it would require discipline and accountability on their part. and though they want you to feel sorry for them like nothing is their fault, deep down they really do just want to do drugs and avoid responsibility. nothing sinister outside of them is compelling them to. it's no one else's fault. its who they truly are.
>>1553129
no1curr that you mAkE FuN of ze stoopid americans in your faggot shithole country

No. 1553214

I made a post to the friend finder thread after being too afraid to do so for like a month, and then deleted the email i used for it after a few days out of fear again. Now I'm back to square one of missing friends. I feel like an idiot.

No. 1553219

>>1553206
NTA but as an ex-heroin addict I mostly agree with you. There are junkies who have been screwed over by mental illness, shit family, society, medical industrial complex that gives away strong painkillers like sweets, etc. But most are just as you described. I work with addiction charities and try to help as many people as I can but so many just… don't want it. They're actually content to live their lives like that and will try to use charities like the ones I work with for handouts without putting in any effort to quit. I've come close to quitting several times because of these parasites who prey on people's goodwill.

No. 1553220

>>1553214
I don't blame you. Most of the bitches here are crazy. Have stupid beliefs on certain things. After all its a gossip site too so I don't think it's too good a idea to make friends here anyway

No. 1553223

i'm 24 and single but i desperately want a child. i feel so anxious that i'm going to run out of time soon. will i ever find a husband? wll i ever have enough resources? it fills me with dread

No. 1553228

>>1553223
>run out of time
>is 24
What have you been reading lmfao

No. 1553232

>>1552506
>>1552490
Kitchen anxiety update: I went in again today and had a really good day. Nobody was angry about the boxty, I even cut another set of boxty (properly this time). It was nice to come into this not feeling like a complete retard. I made one or two minor slip ups but the head chef told me I'm only a student so he was never going to be expecting absolute perfection he just wants me to do the best I can

No. 1553245

>>1553220
Go back.

No. 1553248

>>1553245
Nta but kek at telling her to go back as if "farmers are crazy and you shouldn't talk try to make friends with people in the friend finder thread" isn't something most farmers would tell you

No. 1553252

>>1553248
I'm sure there's a few good apples here and there but honestly it's not worth the bunch of bad ones who are…. here. I might try to one day make a post in the friend finder thread for shits and giggles but not any time soon. I'm in a bad place and need to improve on myself as a person.

No. 1553253

>>1553252
Fast foward two weeks from now and nonnie here is on Twitch streaming with paki-chan

No. 1553255

I've become physically ill because I stressed myself out so badly because of a dumb man. Again.

No. 1553259

>>1553228
it's more like i'm scared it'll be too late by the time im financially independent and married

No. 1553274

>>1552954
Thank you anon, I will take this advice. It's all just very frustrating, there's some things that I learn very easily and then some things that just don't stick. But I know I just have to keep at it. I'm also learning how to use a new editor which isn't a big deal but it kind of stressed me out for a moment kek.

No. 1553289

Im editing the photos of my holidays in the mountains and holy shit I look so ugly in most of them

No. 1553290

>>1553220
I agree with this. The nature of this site tends to attract toxic and mentally ill people. Some anons here legitimately have bpd, autism, or some kind of personality disorder.

>>1553214
Anon if you want online friends then I suggest looking somewhere else. If you can find a place to make friends with real people, then even better.

No. 1553295

>>1553232
That's great to hear!

No. 1553299

File: 1681836131644.jpg (64.21 KB, 960x960, 60588605.jpg)

Must…
Continue…
Working…
Hard…
Must…
Maintain…
The work ethic….
alive….

No. 1553300

>>1553253
IM THAT NONNA HAHAHAHAHAAH

No. 1553314

>>1553080
>even worse is that apparently several bodies have been found on campus, all overdoses
I can't believe anons are framing the discussion about the moral failings of "junkies" when quite frankly several deaths on or near a campus isn't fucking normal. Had this happened during my time in college I would be just as shaken as you are.
Why is drug death being so normalized and why is no one talking about it other than "well it sucks"?

Individualism seems to be killing people's empathy and the ability to solve what's clearly a social problem and not an individualistic one.

No. 1553315

>>1553314
She says it's deranged homeless people who are dying, not normal people. You can't lock them up in institutions anymore, so there's nothing anyone can do about this.

It's also pretty normal to be unfazed by the deaths of strangers. Millions of people die every year and nobody cares because they never heard of them. That's sane and healthy. Being spooked by seeing a body isn't a super off reaction either, but it doesn't mean the people who don't trip over that are somehow morally inferior.

No. 1553319

>>1553314
it's pretty normal in portland tbh, I'm surprised she hasn't seen more bodies.

No. 1553327

>>1553102
I'm just wondering how these junkies get insurance to be able to afford this shit because I can't even afford proper psych medication to prevent my brain from having seizures everytime I switch from manic to depressive but junkies can obtain opioids? How? If I can't have lamotrigane without paying hundreds of dollars without insurance but some loser good for nothing is on opioids? How?

Almost considered trying alternatives, supplements havent done much for me, and now everything including weed is laced with fentlynal and I live in a state where weed is illegal so I risk dying if I buy from a dealer kek

No. 1553333

My mother got sick like me, went to the doctor before I did, I went there after work and called her to tell her I'm in the waiting room and asking her how she's doing and now she's agonizing. She asked me to tell the doctor about it because it's the same one and once I'm about to tell the doctor, my mom sends me a text saying "no don't worry about it" and 5 minutes later after I leave and call her again she yells at me that she didn't actually send the text and she wasn't herself and she wanted me to ask the doctor to call her. I'm tempted to let her suffer as long as possible since this mess started with her and my father being the least hygienic human beings I've ever seen and being exposed to a shit ton of viruses this way.

No. 1553334

One of my annoying pickme coworkers has made being short and small hands/feet her entire personality and it's so hard not to say catty shit after having to deal with her for 6 months. The funny part is she is obese and more shapeless than Shayna. Kek

She also always comments on EVERY creep that hits on her at work as if those same guys don't try the same shit with literally every woman we work with, everyone just brushes it off and moves on with their day without announcing it to the whole store.

No. 1553336

>>1553333
Well, she sent that text and now you're out of the place, so she might as well call the doctor herself.

No. 1553349

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>>1553334
reminds me a coworker at my old job was always like "I'm so short and tiny!!! ohmygodd!!!! omg i can't reach this hehehehe. I'm just so little i can't see over this i need a ladder teheee" and never shut the fuck up, she would talk constantly and if she asked you a question and you go to answer, talk over you and make it something about her. i didn't know those people actually existed until she came around, i thought the complaints and jokes online about them were just exaggerated for comedic effect. boy was i wrong.

No. 1553352

>>1553334
>>1553349
I can't stand femlets that act like being short is a personality trait. Yeah, everyone knows you attract pedophiles, you don't have to make it a personality trait. Get over yourself.

No. 1553354

>>1553352
Girl what kind of pedophile would be attracted to me, I look like an obese aunt, just short

No. 1553355

>>1553327
A lot of junkies "know a guy", who can give them a better deal on opioids than just straight from the pharmacy. A lot of opioids are also stolen from older family members who are on Medicaid/some kind of government insurance. It's fucked but you have to be slimy to get cheap drugs.

No. 1553358

>>1553334
Usually these people aren't even that short. Friend is 4'7 and I've never once heard her say shit that they usually say.

No. 1553359

File: 1681841359979.jpg (22.93 KB, 614x563, 12345654254.JPG)

I remembered the date wrong to turn in math homework for extra credit, I just started doing it and the deadline was 9 mins ago, you can't return it later REEE

No. 1553361

>>1553354
KEK ILY nonnie.

No. 1553363

>>1553349
Yeah, its always that her arms are toooo tiny and she cant see over the computers and shit like that.
>>1553358
KEK nailed it, she's my height at 5'2, which is average in my opinion. She's also very, very round

No. 1553368

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Why am I getting 3 stomachs aches today. Also got one yesterday. Tf is going on?

No. 1553371

>>1553368
>3 stomachs
Literal cowposting

No. 1553377

>>1553368
Same noona, only I know what's going on, been eating what I shouldn't lately. Back on a diet. It's just a stomach ache but it makes me feel so miserable kek

No. 1553378

I did erotic roleplay with strangers on a forum despite having a bf, but i've lost most feelings, don't see us lasting, don't fully trust him and he has lied to me in the past. I hate myself so much and feel like a cheater. The guilt is making me sick
Am i an irredeemable bitch nonas

No. 1553382

File: 1681843240913.jpeg (45.45 KB, 565x554, 1641265504014.jpeg)

>see my middle school bully at the grocery store
>went from cute kid to supermodel
>saw on his FB a couple years ago that he's an actual model
>see how he walks around the store like he fucking owns it, not a care in the world
>basic t shirt and jeans but still looks stylish as hell
>no makeup, but perfectly groomed dark brows and perfect skin with nose freckles
>see how the cashier girl gets flustered just talking to him and acts extra cheery just for him
>mfw thinking about how he's going home to his perfect gf and his cushy job and nice apartment meanwhile i have nothing and i'm ugly as fuck and want to fucking die and live with my dad and don't have a job

No. 1553384

>>1553378
he probably watches porn lmao

No. 1553385

I'm kind of an idiot when it comes to posting artworks online. I do want people to see my work, but I don't want confirmation that they've seen it. I don't mind likes and thumbs up, but the moment someone comments on my art, even if it's just a nice comment stating they liked it, I feel mortified for no reason. I rarely draw fanart, but when I do, I end up removing it because I get so nervous about the amount of people interacting with it, kek.

No. 1553386

>>1553384
He is antiporn and lets me thru his phone, also his pc is a family computer

No. 1553387

>>1553382
just wait till the pattern balding sets in nonnie

No. 1553389

>>1553386
>don't fully trust him and he has lied to me in the past
sure.
dump him

No. 1553392

>>1553389
I wanna drain his money first

No. 1553406

I hate how I need SSRIs to function and not have panic attacks daily but the consequences of using them is that I’m basically emotionless and zombie-like. This isn’t to put anyone off going on them, just my personal experience. My brain feels permanently foggy and I’m afraid one day I’ll do something potentially fatal like crash my car. My sense of coordination and reaction time are diminished by them. I have raised these concerns with my doctor and she just said we could try reducing the amount but I have done that in the past and was borderline suicidal. I don’t know which option is worse honestly.

No. 1553409

>>1553406
What are you having the attacks over? Can you remove those things from your life?

No. 1553418

>>1553355
Somehow I doubt there's a local lamictal dealer in this midsize southern shithole whose pills won't be laced with dog tranquilizers

Guess I'll go without meds and watch my bipolar brain die more

No. 1553426

>>1553336
I told her that but she couldn't because I was the last patient to have an appointment today and it was already too late when I called her just 2 minutes after my appointment. And she was the first patient so I'm sure the doctor didn't expect her to get worse so fast. She's going to call her early in the morning tomorrow.

No. 1553448

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I've been overthinking shit to the point where I can't tell if I was wrong or the other party. I literally can't tell anymore if my anger was justified or not. Did I blow up in their face for nothing? Or at least because they were too stupid to communicate like a fucking adult at the time?


I really wish I could reach out and ask for the whole story but they cut me off and I also know they're a fucking liar if it makes them look good. I wish I didn't bother with the shit anymore

No. 1553456

>>1553409
I have had a more privileged upbringing than Shayna and loving parents I don’t know what went wrong. I’m just naturally anxious I hate it.

No. 1553466

Craving energy drinks all the fucking time, as I'm trying to cut down. What the fuck am I even craving, it tastes like shit and gives me the shakes. But my brain is like "you need this".

No. 1553473

>>1553327
To be fair nona, no one is gonna lace weed with fentanyl, that’s usually like a deliberate thing. The weed you buy is more likely to be “laced” with cannabinoids sprayed onto the flower, which does admittedly make for a more manic, crazy high. I hope you find your meds for cheaper tho, I’m sure you’ve tried every possible cheaper alternative, Goodrx, etc etc

No. 1553486

>>1553448
I hate overthinking, I do it to the point of getting sick and it's not like i'm winning anything
i feel you nonnie

No. 1553488

I wanted to place my clothes in my old closet because there's been a pile that has brewed for a while behind my large TV in my bedroom.. until I realized that the way to it is piled up with even more clothes, blankets, stuffed snakes

It makes me wanna kill myself

No. 1553489

>>1553488
I'll just have to worry about it….. mm maybe sometime tomorrow or after I go to my concert

No. 1553492

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My full-time job just got demoted to 1-2 days a week part-time. I think. I’m going to go launch myself down a flight of stairs and go hehe haha

No. 1553496

>>1553473
It's mostly the psychiatry appointments being expensive and too frequent as well as not having insurance. Even when I had insurance they never covered psych consolations which were $100-200 a session and she'd always ask me back far too soon for progress updates.

Lamictal was good to me. two years without it and I feel like I'm going to have brain seizures sometimes. There's this currently persistent pain in my right temple that won't go away. I don't want to start having grand mal seizures in my mid 20s.

if I'm supposedly young and healthy then why do I feel like shit and dissociate all the time. I used to love reading, I used to love art, I used to socialize and go out and do things, I was healthier, I used to love life. Besides being traumatized and retraumatized by the last couple years, why am I so fucking dysfunctional? Everyone around me is just indifferent to it or doesn't care to help. Maybe if I have a seizure someone will finally fucking care

No. 1553498

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another girl being prettier than me does not mean i'm ugly. another girl being prettier than me does not. mean. i. am. ugly.

No. 1553504

Have been friends with this moid in my uni course for a year now and around Christmas he sent me a big fucking paragraph on Instagram about how he is in love with me and ‘have the body of a goddess’ and even confessed he has gotten hard from looking at my lips (??) and I’m fucking disgusted. 1. You could’ve kept that to yourself 2. He is objectively ugly and fat too. I have really low self esteem and I’m not used to anyone expressing attraction to me and my own appearance low-key repulses me so it’s so alien to me that someone feels this way. All I can think is that he’s super desperate. I still talk to him as I’m forced to see him in lectures all the time but I try to keep my distance as much as possible. I rejected him in the nicest way possible and he didn’t talk to me for a month after as he needed to ‘heal’. The only reason I’m talking to him is out of pity, but I really can’t take it anymore, he won’t stop complaining about how lonely and romance starved he is. He’s also very clearly still into me and the way he looks at me makes me want to recoil. I hate him he’s a pathetic neckbeard and hate myself more for befriending him in the first place and not having the courage to ditch him completely.

No. 1553505

MY FAMILY WON'T STOP INVITING THEMSELVES OVER I HATE THEM SO MUCH GO THE FUCK AWAY REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

No. 1553510

My shoulders hurt. Also, I made a before/after collage of when I was super fit vs gaining 40lbs (now vs then, ugh) and my arms are chubby enough now that I can't tell if my posture is okay based on the ear lined up over shoulder thing now, kek. The collage I made is good motivation though. I can't believe how nice I used to look vs unhealthy now.

No. 1553517

I think my boyfriend is going to break up with me tonight. Kinda sucks but I guess it gives me more time to manifest the man of my dreams. Only half joking. Sigh.

No. 1553531

File: 1681851749817.gif (4.45 MB, 498x498, shaking-head.gif)

>>1552487
I feel you nonna, I feel you. These retarded parasites love to suck all the fun and soul out of everything they touch. Everything has to be relatable to them. Everything has to pander to them. Everything should be fucking centred around them. Otherwise, they'll either chimp out at the creators or make delusional 'theories' inside their head with a pea-sized rotten brain to claim that it was about them all along and every cool character in existence is a troon.

No. 1553532

>>1553517
why tho

No. 1553535

>>1553531
best gif ever

No. 1553538

>>1553031
>wah wah why can anons tell apart my posts
Because you have an autistic writing style and always start infights. Instead of complaining here, you could just take a break because making so many posts that people can recognize you is super unhealthy.

No. 1553547

>>1553080
Damn nonnie, I am really sorry you had to see it. Regardless of the circumstances these things stick to you and it's horrible. I've seen a body from a car crash and it made me feel so bad too, don't worry you are not crazy, that's a normal reaction. I think people avoid thinking too hard about this stuff and become desensitized in order to not loose their minds too, so it's not necessarily that they don't care

>>1552487
Genderspecials are in every possible fandom, I am almost used to them at this point. It pisses me off more when the creators cave in to their wishes tbh, it's always a bad decision because they are never happy, they will always demand more and more.

No. 1553549

>>1553532
We're currently on a break and he just texted me and asked if we could talk after he's done with work about how things are going. I just really feel like he's gonna dump me.

No. 1553551

I hate myself and I hate my life, and I can't wait for die

No. 1553573

>>1553031
Kirbyanon is special and deserves recognition. I want an ama with her so bad.

No. 1553580

I just realized the whole time I thought I was speaking to my crush on reddit it was actually a stalker from my past that made revenge porn of me. I thought I was talking to a guy I liked that posted a lot on my fav subreddit but no it was this fucking psychopath. He showed up to my house before Christmas too I' so angry. He's mixed race and fetishizes white women feels gross anons I'm thinking of buying a glock for protection.

No. 1553585

>>1553573
That poster wasn't talking about Kirbyanon but I agree

No. 1553587

>>1553573
She will literally do an AMA any time she is summoned.

No. 1553591

>>1553587
KIRBYABON, ARE YOU HERE?

No. 1553594

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>>1553591
Posting kirbyanon bait

No. 1553595

>>1553594
How can you want to have sex with that round pink baby ball thing? Nothing about it is sexy. It's literally a baby ball.

No. 1553597

>>1553595
i think she wants to fuck the penguin and uses kirby as a self-insert (hence the slit)

No. 1553601

I’m going to kill. I’m going to snap things in half. I feel so fucking restless and helpless. I walk through life half asleep so I don’t have the 0 to 100 drive other people have and I get apprehensive writing cover letters but I’m still applying and trying to get myself out there. Today I got an email back that my cover letter was awesome and so good! So much passion!!1!1!! But they fucking rejected me anyways. Don’t even say that shit to me, that fucking polite drivel. The fucking niceties when I’ve been rejected from every single position I’ve applied to in the last 1 1/2 years when it’s by my own merits. My merits don’t fucking count for shit, how the fuck can I be that useless and undesirable. Stop telling me how good I am if you’re not even going to fucking pick me and are going to choose someone else over me, just fucking save it. I used to hate when they would never email back, but I think I hate the email more because I have to read “I regret to imform you’ve been rejected” over and over and fucking over again. I’ve only gotten jobs because I happened to know a classmate, happened to run into someone important, or out of fucking pity. Out of those 3, 2 were temporary for like a month to a week and the other was an unpaid internship. And I’ve done so much volunteer work so I can have experience. I get if I don’t have enough experience or skills but come on. Come on!! It really can’t all be knowing people, because even when I applied to something and knew some important people I haven’t heard back after the fucking interview. And they have to act all nice and be like wow you’re so great. No tell me to my fucking face how much you hate me and are disgusted that I’ve even fucking applied to your precious job. I’m literally applying to work in museums. As assistants or clerks. Or if it’s galleries I’m there to sell shit. It’s nothing fucking crazy. How much shit do I have to do in my local art and museum scene to get fucking recognized? Just looking back I think people don’t like me and can smell the fucking retard on me. I don’t think I’m that important, but if people don’t like you then they don’t like you it’s simple. There’s something that I lack that normal people have and it’s causing me to just never have a chance. And then I tell my friend that I got rejected today and all he says is that I “need to apply to multiple jobs and not just one at a time” and that he’s been rejected “100 times” and that it’s normal. I KNOW ITS NORMAL. God I’m not some stupid child. And it just takes time to find openings and write a cover letter each time I can’t just spam my resume to a bunch of random shit. And when I tell him he’s being condescending he’s all confused. I’m treated like the runt by everyone. Also it was a mistake to play mark of the wolves right now because I’m so bad at fighting games and it just made everything worse I’m so retarded. I’m just retarded.

No. 1553609

>>1553597
lol anon as if wanting to fuck a cartoon penguin made more sense

No. 1553629

As of recent, I've been feeling a real sense of dread and hopelessness in relation to pursuing a relationship. I want to be able to find a connection with others, I want to be able to date and experience romance with another person however due to several things I fear that I may not be in the best state of mind to pursue a relationship, or even worse, I might never be. I think it is because relationships as a whole are far more complicated to me, there's a lot of keep track of and keep in mind and I get easily angered and irritated if something goes wrong or something doesn't go according to plan or what I had preconceived in my mind. It's problems like those that I feel are holding me back, I want to work to fix them but I don't exactly know where to start. I'll see people talk freely and easily, without a hint of apprehension or tension with each other, even if they may be complete strangers and it boggles me. Even now if I'm talking to a long time friend I still feel as if I have to fake all of my expressions, bodily language, smiles and more to come off and appear as normal. I hate this, I hate that it's exhaustive and overwhelming to be in a relationship (platonic or romantic) but I still crave that connection and feeling of companionship with another person. I dislike that I feel the intense need to put as much effort into a relationship, even if it may be a simple friendship, and do things such as learning the ins and outs of the other person's hobbies, interests, ethics, etc. that I get disheartened when the same level of care isn't reciprocated.
>>1553597
I would never, self inserting by OCs or even a proxy puppet character is wrong. It is disrespectful, detestable and uncouth.

No. 1553632

>>1553259
Worlds on a fast track to destruction so you shouldn’t even have kids anyway

No. 1553633

>>1553314
I live near a fancy expensive private university and there have been two students who died of ODs within the past 8 months.

No. 1553638

>>1553358
Your friend is an actual dwarf though so of course she’s not gonna talk about being tiny. She’s not teehee tiny she’s literally got dwarfism kek

No. 1553647

I can't sleep because of anxiety.

No. 1553653

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I feel like I'll always go completely unnoticed in the art world even though that's literally my only talent. And it's only because I'm so shit at social media. I kept my art posted on an old, unpopular site for years since I was too scared to go on social media. I finally made a twitter a few weeks ago to start posting my art. Even fanart stuff for popular franchises because I've heard that can get more attention. And even a few slightly coomery drawings too. I post it, tag it with a few things related to the art… nothing. A few likes, nothing more, no retweets for exposure, hardly any followers gained. I'm not an amazing artist by any means, but I'm about average, and I've seen artists that draw in MS paint like 10 year olds with way more followers and retweets than me.. so I don't get it. Maybe they're just super persistent with interacting with other accounts and posting more than I do? What the fuck am I doing wrong?? I don't reply to people's tweets or whatever so I'm wondering if maybe that's it. But that comes from me being inept at this shit. It makes me so upset, I feel like a failure even though I try so hard. I draw my art for myself, mostly, but it hurts to see everyone around me drawing similar things at a similar or lower skill level blowing up and getting tons of engagement while I get absolutely nothing. Fuck the art world in modern times, I'm not going to give up but it's disheartening enough to leave me in a sour mood, and seeing the 0 engagement every time I post makes my stomach drop for a bit out of shame.

No. 1553659

>>1553585
>>1553573
Lawrenceanon is my favorite; she is so nice, even to people who mean-bait her. Her love is pure and Peter O'Toole has nice eyes, idgaf what others say.

It's the crazy spergs like Paki-chan and Trump-chan that are insufferable.At least Paki-chan has the excused trauma of living in her country, idk what Trump-chan's deal is.

No. 1553661

>>1553653
As a fellow artist who’s going through the same i can tell you that a big percentage pf the popular people posting art also interact a lot with others and also post consistently. The time i had the most attention was when I posted one illustration everyday, the attention stopped the second I didn’t post.
You might keep on posting the art you make for yourself until it gets traction or you could check out other art spaces such as art classes, a job within the arts, checking out your local art scene. Real life feedback is better than a bunch of likes and you can meet people who takes you to new art adventures
Don’t give up nona keep working on your art

No. 1553667

>>1553661
That's what I thought, I stalked some of these somewhat popular accounts (including the people that draw on a very beginner level that have 300+ followers) and they all interact with others a lot and have a very social vibe. I'm the opposite and struggle to be super social. I tried Twitter since I'd like to do commissions online and am not sure I'm good enough for real world stuff. I used to be a painter, maybe I should do that again as my main focus and keep this on the side. Thanks anon, I'm glad I'm not alone in this.

No. 1553674

>>1553031
Don't mind as long as anons aren't annoying. I think I'm very annoying myself and am glad this site puts up with me revealing my innermost secrets sometimes

No. 1553680

>>1553206
i moved to portland from an incredibly privileged area where i never even saw a homeless person before, so it probably affects my world view. but i’ve also had some very good childhood friends who had the whole world at their disposal become lost to addiction because of their mental illness that was outside of their control. i guess when i see someone homeless i think of them first instead of having a more realistic perspective. especially since so many homeless around here seem to have schizophrenia or some kind of psychosis going on, it makes me feel like it’s a mental health problem instead of a moral failure

No. 1553688

What is wrong with moids? Some moid asked if the glass protector at my friend's place is bulletproof and that he could simply shoot the place up. What?

No. 1553689

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I love you I miss you I love you I miss you I love you I miss you!!!! PLEASE COME BACK TO ME USE YOUR 2 BRAINCELLS AND THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING WE WERE AND EVERYTHING WE COULD BE!!!! THE DISTANCE WOULD MEAN ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IF YOU LOVE ME AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU!!! WE WERE PERFECT TOGETHER YOU JUST NEEDED TO WAKE UP. No one ever told you the truth except me. The truth hurts but this hurts more. If you’re a morally good person and you can see the light and you want true love, you’ll come back. Fuck please please I hope you decide the right thing cause I can’t live without you. I’ve never met anyone like you and I know I never will again in the fucking shithole. You were the only one who was hot, but kind and caring and funny and made me laugh all the time, and interesting and can hold a conversation and we even shared almost every belief… except what’s most important. Thank you first ever non boring non abusive smoking hot bf for existing but please fucking understand that you aren’t on the right path, and that’s objectively true. You said you never felt this way before. It seemed so sincere. Please tell me it’s true. I miss you. (Yes I am autistic for this post but I need to vent so bad and no one irl wants to listen anymore)

No. 1553691

>>1553689
Girl… he ain't coming back

No. 1553693

>>1553314
i think it’s because most people i told about it lived in the city longer than i have, so they’ve become desensitized. everyone thinks that it’s inevitable instead of a problem that can be solved because it’s the only reality they’ve ever lived in. when someone is homeless or has an addiction, it’s not only because of their personality. it’s also because multiple systems that could have intervened failed them. we have no mental institutions, no drug detox centers with programs that actually work, and no solution for what to do with these people when they are already too far gone. that and america has completely given up on stopping the drug market. i’ve seen the way addiction can twist the psyche someone who was once a good human being into a cruel animal who only cares their their survival. that’s because of the chemical dependency drugs create, not because they chose to be that way. i’m also a polysci fag who clings onto research that shows prevention is more effective than mitigation, so i’m biased. i still have a the childish belief that the world could be peaceful one day if we work towards it hard enough. i think that if i didn’t believe that i wouldn’t be able to get up every morning. i may be naive and ignorant but at least i am happy kek

No. 1553694

>>1553689
please please please don't tell me this is the same mustached guy here >>1550691 who OP mentioned being a porn addict who harassed her for anal sex in another post. please let this be a coincidence.

No. 1553697

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>tfw zoomer
>tfw want emo tomboy girlfriend
>or just a friend with those attributes and is also a homosexual female
>tfw live in the capital
>yay.flac
>tfw am muslim country thirdie
>aww.mp3
>tfw anything remotely close to my type and age is upper middle class americabrained TRA tiktok addicts which i cant relate to at all
sigh. also it's so unfair that all my former school friends have found other lesbians and i haven't kek. it's not like i have a bitter attitude towards anyone that's not my type. i keep it on the down low, i still respect people. but speaking of bitterness what i hate most about these tiktok addicts is how their introduction to heavy internet usage was tiktok, specifically during quarantine, and the reason why they turned to alternative "scenes" is because of the app. i almost autistically want to call them newfags. i really value authenticity as hipster as that may have come off.

No. 1553698

>>1553691
I know… hence my severe crippling depression… y’all mind if I accidentally drink arsenic trioxide

No. 1553700

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>>1553694
Awww how’d you know?!

No. 1553704

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i hate trannies so fucking much. they are so disgusting. don't care.

No. 1553707

>>1553700
seek help

No. 1553711

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>>1553707
I’m in therapy and on the max dose of anxiety meds hahahahahaha. Still not enough hence why I post here

No. 1553716

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hate it so much when my moid friends act gay in jest around one another!!!
it incites a visceral reaction out of me and makes me seem unapproachable in the eyes of the rest

No. 1553720

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How do I get over the embarrassment of my neighbor seeing me crying sitting outside on the corner like a child or bpdfag… I had to leave my house because there was fighting and just walked aimlessly until I crouched and felt frozen like that crying in the dark. Then I walked back in shame because he saw and asked if I'm ok. They surely think my family's weird because my sister and I don't leave the house and she has yelling meltdowns. I thought at least I don't have that but well . How do I live this down I feel mortified

No. 1553721

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You, trying to break No Contact by leaving cryptic messages on lolcow dot farm

No. 1553722

>>1553259
How old were your parents when they had kids? Were they responsible raising you? Don't rush something like that, for your potential child's sake please. And quit looking at whatever it is influencing you to think this way. Deal with your own immediate problems instead of creating new ones.

No. 1553736

i'm so jealous of artists and writers and people who just seem to exist in these creative spaces and somehow make money from it enough to not need a normal job (or maybe they all have rich parents? idk)

i just found a female indie game designer (NOT a tranny nor does she seem to care about any genderspecial shit, she's literally a unicorn) and i am dying inside. she's making games, she has a website, lots of friends who are also in this scene with her, has a zine and i'm just over here too exhausted from my job that i need to pay my bills to even think about trying to join in on this shit as a hobby. i am just.. so so jealous.

No. 1553737

>>1553736
they just won the life lottery and got born into grander circumstances than you were. i'll bet their parents are rich and they have good charisma – they can probably float around easily in social circles. nothing you can do about it

No. 1553741

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>>1553737
it hurts anon (this isnt the woman i was talking about but another one and i am just…….)

No. 1553744

>>1553517
Update: he cried trying to break up with me then we talked it out and I guess it was just a big miscommunication error and we are still dating. Talk about a near miss.

No. 1553748

I found someone who obviously posts here's reddit account and despite having based takes, I think it's extremely cringy that certain anons here let this site leak out into other aspects of their lives including the way they speak on social media sites. Sure educating people on why porn is harmful can be great (but generally not effective), but calling people moids and alluding to very specific memes is retarded.

No. 1553760

>>1553744
Sounds like he stalled the breakup because he got overwhelmed. I'd dump him and ignore him since hes so hesitant and indecisive, did that in the same situation and it mindfucked him enough that he still texts me every 6 months even though the time I actually wanted him he was blubbering about how I basically wasn't enough.

No. 1553769

>>1553700
You sound insufferable. Laughable how you're bitching about him being a porn addict and then changing your mind calling him not abusive. He doesn't give two fucks about you as he is busy jerking off and thinking about several other women who don't even know he exists. Move on from this creepy pedo-stached loser.

No. 1553779

>>1553700
I literally just had an exam about this today lmao

No. 1553781

I'm reading about manipulation tactics and the fact that I've done a few of these to my ex, even if I wasn't fully aware, really terrifies me. Am I just a bad apple.

No. 1553782

>>1553781
Now that you're aware you can work on yourself. It's hard but I have to do the same thing.

No. 1553784

>>1553782
Thank you, good luck on your journey too anon. Sometimes I wish I could have met someone else before my ex and maybe we could have worked out. There are just some things that you'll never realize about yourself until you're in a relationship.

No. 1553788

>>1553784
Thanks nona you too. The bad memories and guilt truly suck, but it needed to happen for us to learn. I'm sorry you lost your ex from it, sometimes I miss mine too but he had his own flaws that I really don't miss

No. 1553791

This year has been so fucked up but I made it. I passed this huge exam and the one professor who said I was too stupid is now "sick" and he left the Faculty lmfao I hope you dye you miserable, old, fat, ugly rat faced moid. Know that you have brought nothing of value to this field and that your miserable attitude never masked that insecurity. I know you entered this field thinking you'd be the next Einstein but no one will know your name after they remove you from this institution that you got paid by for decades for doing absolutely nothing. You big fat bitch.

No. 1553797

no1curr means only you don't curr! And i don't curr that you don't curr

No. 1553800

>>1553781
me rereading my bpd dbt tactics book earlier and realizing how mindlessness has consumed me

I do feel like a bad person now nonas where has mindfulness gone

No. 1553802

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i hate how much i get anxious over shit. i have to deal with something at a tax office and im very scared something isnt going to go well is been like this for weeks now and my headaches are becoming more frequent

No. 1553806

>>1553802
me i have a pre-interview "get to know you" call coming up and i am simultaneously shitting the bed and icy calm. good luck to both of us sis x

No. 1553813

I used to wish even when I were a kid that I were dead or in a different family. My parents and two brothers would make the perfect family they ALL vibe with each other perfectly and have since the beginning. I really wish I were never born I feel like a mistake. there is no place for me anywhere. Most people innately dislike me. I have one person aside from my family that likes me and it's my bf and that's it. I am sick of being the loser. It's so painful when my little brothers talk down to me because they think they are better than me. Or they treat me like I'm unbalanced or insane because I've had anxiety problems in the past. For example I once had a bad experience at airport tsa and I decided not to fly after all and just go home, so my mom called everybody in our family and told them I was having a meltdown or something and then my dad and brothers called me and acted like I was insane and needed help. I was like uhh I'm fine my bf is getting me already why are you bothering me? And they were all freaked out about me. I was so embarrassed and offended. That's how it's always been for me I get 0 privacy and treated like a freak for mundane as fuck situations. If I would get anxious as a kid my mom would scream at me to "stop being freaky!!!" also teasing was rampant in my family even from my little brothers towards our mom. But god forbid if I even blink at mom wrong she'll blow the fuck up at me. My little brother tells her she looks fat in a scarf and she stops wearing them and cries about it to me but if I take the wrong tone with her she hangs up on me haha. Dumb cow

No. 1553830

>>1553653
I could have written this post. But look on the bright side nonna, at least you aren't interacting with twittards and becoming infected by the way they talk and act. Which might happen if you tried to engage more. It sucks that there isn't a home for artists without being a social butterfly anymore tho.

No. 1553831

My period is 50 days late but I always use condoms with my bf so I refuse to think there's a possibility that I'm pregnant. I hate being a woman. I use gross feeling condoms because I don't want to mess up my body with the pill but this still happens. My boobs hurt differently compared to pms. I'm so bloated. So tired. Why can't I just know without having to test it. I don't want to pee on a stick and wait to see if I have ruined all my plans for the year.

No. 1553835

>>1553831
Nona listen to me. I’ve been there. Get that pregnancy test asap. Either pee on a stick or go to the Dr. Idk what country you’re in but in the US and probably others the price of abortion goes up by like $100 for each week you wait. Unless you want to keep it in which case you will need prenatal care asap. I know it’s scary but you can’t just avoid this and wish it away.

No. 1553839

People who obsess about finding love are fucking pathetic. We should focus on being good people and having real friends. Imagine being able to do so many things in life and you act like a crybaby over the one thing you can't have right now. What makes them think they're entitled to love even when they're shit people? Fucking focus on something else or work on yourself and be patient and grateful for your present relationships. The most irritating thing is they don't get that whining makes them look even more disgusting and desperate.

No. 1553845

It's always so annoying when people take pictures of women or even just assume women making straight faces around pretty women are jealous, specifically the taking pictures of them and making memes about how jealous they must be or young girls shaming older women for just glancing at them and making up conspiracies in their head and calling those women ugly

I don't understand how the generation that made "resting bitch face" a thing somehow magically doesn't understand that people have RBF for being around them

No. 1553847

I think I got fired from my remote job. I tried to log into my work accounts today to find them all deactivated. I can't contact anyone because all of our communication was made through the apps. No one was online yesterday or the day before. What the fuck anons

No. 1553853

>>1553847
what if your company is in some sort of trouble?

No. 1553854

>>1553847
Isn't there an email address you could write to from your personal email?? Also, was this within your probation period?

No. 1553857

I want irl friends so badly but it feels impossible when you're a socially retarded shut-in.

No. 1553902

>>1553847
search your company name online and see if there is any recent news about it

No. 1553921

>>1553769
Omg thank you, keep going it’s helping me realize how stupid I am. Unfortunately comparing him to other moods makes him look like a saint, but objectively he’s still awful.

No. 1553927

I feel fucking ridiculous. Why do I always let this stupid shit happen to me. Fucking moids ruining my life and sanity every time. Stupid fucking “daddy issues” have ruined me forever. I was so much better before all this like is it even fucking worth it at this point. Things are good when we’re together in person but when we’re apart it feels like he doesn’t even give a fuck. Is it just my need for reassurance or does he just actually not care. How embarrassing for me. I’ve been trying to improve all other aspects of my life but I guess I’ll just be this way forever. Fucking ridiculous just put me out of my misery

No. 1553938

All forms of interaction seem exhausting to me now

No. 1553940

>>1553927
Unfortunately moids only give a fuck about women who don't appear to want them very much. That's why they write songs about the women they lost or can't have and not the ones who they are with. The best you can do is be detached for your own sake and enjoy whatever you want from them in the moment, and always be open to getting attention from others instead if he's being inattentive.

No. 1553943

>>1553940
>moids only give a fuck about women who don't appear to want them very much
this is so true it hurts
the chase is better than the catch for them
>>1553927
sounds like you're anxious and need reassuring, this is very common
if it makes you feel any better I'm in the same boat was way better when I was by myself than after meeting certain men, fuck that shit

No. 1553944

>>1553940
Nta but I belive this is true. Whenever I was with a guy, I had no genuine interest in them and appeared distant which made them obsessed to the point they'd constantly chase me. Men love to chase because they think if a woman is hard to get, she's out of their league and men always try to get women who deserve better than them.
Fuck men.

No. 1553947

i keep waking up after ~6 hours (usually split into two segments of rest). i'm now aware of the concept of sleep debt so it's fucking me over

No. 1553948

>>1553944
They put themsleves in a state of eternal longing for their idealized Dream Girl and then frame it as if women are the ones looking to marry or date up constantly. Meanwhile there are cute, sweet women completely dutiful to the most ridiculous bottom shelf men who will bitch about valentines day and look like pigs. They will happily raise his kids while he acts like he's missing out on life by the time he has his midlife crisis.

It's sick but they get off on it if you act like you're settling hard by being with them. Yes it makes them insecure but God they will ruminate about you for a long time.

No. 1553952

>>1553940
Thank you Nonita, you are very correct and I used to believe this a lot more strongly before my current relationship, I think a lot of issues I’ve experienced at the start of this relationship have really clouded my judgement. I’ve always struggled with being too invested or not invested enough and seem to worry the latter is worse, when in reality it would be a lot better for myself. I think I just struggle with it currently because I previously cut myself off from a lot of my friends and most social media and isolated myself from people and my hobbies, so trying to build that all back up seems borderline impossible, but I am trying. I know being more distant and focusing on myself first and foremost is ultimately the best way to go no matter what happens with regards to my relationship, I think I just needed to hear it from outside sources to confirm that, so thank you for that!
>>1553943
Definitely, I have a lot of anxiety specifically with relationships and do need reassurance, it’s nice to know it isn’t so crazy of me kek. It is comforting to know others have experienced this, I am sorry you’ve experienced it too Nona. Moids really do ruin everything.

No. 1553958

>>1553952
read about attachment styles anon, it'll open a whole new world for you
>>1553948
I hooked up with guys who were below my league because I caught the feels STD for them.
Instead of being grateful and realizing how lucky they got, they found problems when I offered help in different ways. When I tried explaining and when it got to the point of them actually breaking off things, they tried to reasoned that they're afraid of how I would feel because I'm being "dumped". They were stupid until the last moment. Now that's what pissed me off.
Some people will never appreciate you and it's best to move on.

No. 1553963

>>1553943
>>1553944
It's probably because moids think hard to get = valuable/rare = higher social status on the retard male hierarchy. They're basically serfs kek.

No. 1553967

>>1553779
INORGANIC CHEMISTRY GANG

No. 1553972

>>1553958
>Instead of being grateful and realizing how lucky they got
A male will never be grateful in the true sense of the word for anything a woman can give him. Even if he is a genetic abomination and useless in every regard, not meant for reproduction if he cares about the evolution of the human race, the moment he has sex he will not be thinking how lucky he is but rather "its about time I got what I deserved. I want and need more than this"

No. 1553974

>>1553972
why do even men who are bad at sex / have little to no experience are so demanding sometimes?
I still have hope that good men exist but most are driven by getting their dick wet and think that's all there is to it, some even think that being good looking is ALL it takes for a woman to want to have sex with a guy

No. 1553976

>>1553952
It's easy to be unattached and safely distant from men when you have a good circle of female friends and lots of things to keep you occupied. That's why malignant males' first priority is to isolate you if he wants to abuse you and make you depend on his mood.

Having even one hobby class you regularly go to and going out for coffee with one of the girls you meet there is enough for your human need for belonging to be satisfied for a while, enough to give you a healthy clarity to what value your interactions with him really have.

Plus, if you develop a true friendship with one of these women they will often ground you if you are being treated like shit by him. I've seen it happen myself, women going from being lonely and chronically upset due to their man… to ending the worst relationship of their life with nothing but optimism for the future instead of baseless hesitancy.

No. 1553983

i'm so nervous for this phone call kek. it's from a swe company, it's a "get to know you" call i believe, and i'm running on five hours of sleep and i have never done an interview in my life. haven't spoken to a human being face to face that wasn't a parent or professor in literal years. i want to smoke a bowl but i don't actually have any weed in my home. pray for me nonas, if i get this it would do so much for my self confidence and mental health

No. 1553989

>>1553958
Thanks Nonnie I’ll look into that, I briefly recall looking into them in the past but I can’t remember much so I’ll do my research.
>>1553976
You’re right, I definitely need more female friends as most of mine don’t live nearby and my best female friend is in a completely different country, but you’re completely right she helps me ground myself a lot with regards to any moid related issues and having more female friends I can see/communicate with more frequently would benefit me greatly. You’ve helped me to try and see a way to get out more and try make more female friends, I don’t feel as lost at sea with regards to how to go about things there. Definitely giving me more hope for my future and feeling less overwhelmed, thank you to all the Nonitas that have replied and offered their input, lolcow does have its positives kek.

No. 1553993

I hate when the gf/wife of an abuser doesn't take every legal action she can to throw that fucker in a prison cell. Even worse when she hates you for being a former victim of said abuser and doesn't reach out to warn you about him. Two of us against one can get the police to take action or at least get press involved..so why don't you just reach out to me? I'll help you and back up your story because from what little experiance I had with him I know he's a sick person and he hurt me too. He even stalked me last year and it took me forever to figure out who it is. I'm praying on whatever god there is that you come around and stop acting like hiding from somebody is a normal way to live..he should be hiding NOT US.

No. 1553995

>>1553983
You can start by breifly mentioning any normie hobbies and traits but be sure to bring it back to "who you are" professionally and your aspirations in that regard. They don't actually want to learn about you as you are in private life much but rather what type of person you want to be in their organization. This doesn't even have to be complete BS, but rather what you see yourself as. I always made it clear I was an independent worker, a bit of a nerd with spreadsheets etc, and wanted to be in management one day, etc. The only thing I BSed was gliding over a y inexperience by saying I was confident I could be taught some of those skills they want and that I have learned difficult things quickly before.

If they ask you to name your faults I always said something like I can get caught up searching for the solution to problems on my own instead of collaborating, but I am eager to mediate that and be part of a real team and work on this as part of my personal growth being here. As long as you sound somewhat sincere it will be fine, even if you stumble a bit.

No. 1553999

>>1553976
> if you develop a true friendship with one of these women they will often ground you if you are being treated like shit
I can confirm this as someone who has only one BFF but she is extremely knowledgeable and she always grounds me in reality if things go bad in my life, her friendship is priceless to me

No. 1554000

>>1553721
What do I have to do to get you to understand that I don't fucking want you and never will? I don't want to date you, I don't want you have pictures/videos of me on your phone (10 years you're pathetic), and I don't want you at my house. You want to go to jail for being a stalker then be my guest but you'll have to accept I will never be in your life.

No. 1554006

I'm supposed to be studying for my finals all the time but lately I just sit home the whole day and scroll through reddit or insta reels (because I uninstalled everything else) and play vidya for an hour before I go to sleep. I just can't seem to concentrate. I can't seem to be able to start the studying. When I start I just do something else after five minutes. I don't go out anymore, I don't feel like I have time to see my friends, I don't go to gym, today I was even too lazy to make myself food so I just didn't eat. I just drink coffee and mildly abuse some substances to feel happier or feel like I'm not here. I don't have enough time so I feel really scared when doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Because when I do something else it makes me feel like the responsibility disappeared. I don't know what to do. I need to push through but it looks like my body gave out. Like when you are trying to lift heavy shit but your muscles are already tired and give out so they just stop working and you can't will them into working. Or I'm just lazy and making excuses, probably bit of everything.

No. 1554007

I have no value and i'd be better off dead.

No. 1554010

I also ( >>1553999 ) wanna add that I'm an introverted person who always had fair weather friends, so that lead me to be very cautious of people and made me very tired
I've always dealt with my problems alone but since meeting new people and experiencing relationship problems, that shit crushed me and I could not handle it by myself, it's why I went to therapy in the first place years ago and it helped a lot
I have hobbies but when someone I care about hurts me in a way I get so ill that I can't function. I can't eat, can't fall asleep and oversleep, overthink like crazy etc, it sucks so much and I wish I could go back to my "not give a fuck" self

No. 1554017

>>1554006
I know how you feel nonnie. You need to clear and reset your brain a bit. Go out for a walk and don't stay on your phone / headphones while you do it.
We all know social media fries our attention span and I have experienced that myself so I had to retrain my brain to go back into study mode.
It might sound ridiculous but what helped me was ASMR and classical music as a background noise, working/studying using the pomodoro technique ( I'd study for 40 mins and take a 5-10 min break) and setting up a schedule + goals.
It can be very,very at first, but stick to it.
Exercise also helps mood tremendously and I was at my worst mentally when I did not workout.
>coffee and substances
ditch that shit, it makes you jittery, you need to calm down , not get in a jittery state of mind

No. 1554018

omfg I'm on this road trip with my fam and my brother won't stop putting coomer memes on loop. This one particular one of the Bratz characters, the pink mean twins, stuck on a mountain complaining about not being able to continue climbing with those vine booms makes my skin crawl esp because he's 20+ and they're like 14-15. He constantly plays that one video which means he has that video saved to re-view it whenever. He's spreading his coomer tendencies to my younger brother and I can't do anything about it since they're always together. My other younger brother is more "feminine" so my brothers reddit tier humour doesn't appeal to him so he's safe for now.

I can't even complain out loud about his autistic behavior bcus everyone around me is like nuuuuu he has ay dee hayche dee uwuwu. I'm 100% sure I have an undiagnosed mental illness but I had to be 2nd mommy to my siblings and they couldn't have their co-parent be retarded or they'd feel bad. I wish he would just go away. Or at least have enough shame to wear headphones. Being a poorfag sucks ass. I want my own house but housing crisis yadayada.

No. 1554019

I wished my favorite cow would come back. I know she is out there somewhere creating insane stories about herself.

No. 1554024

>>1553995
>As long as you sound somewhat sincere it will be fine, even if you stumble a bit.
i hope you're right. thanks for the tips
i'm really dreading the eventual salary question. the internet seems split between humility and not "low-balling" oneself

No. 1554025

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>>1554010
>but when someone I care about hurts me in a way I get so ill that I can't function. I can't eat, can't fall asleep and oversleep, overthink like crazy etc, it sucks so much and I wish I could go back to my "not give a fuck" self
I have this problem. I recommend this author's books.
>Statistics show that 50 percent of what determines divorce is genetic temperament. And, if you are one of the 20 percent of people who are born highly sensitive, the risk of an unhappy relationship is especially high. Your finely tuned nervous system, which picks up on subtleties and reflects deeply, would be a romantic asset if both you and your partner understood you better. But without that understanding, your sensitivity is likely to be making your close relationships painful and complicated.

No. 1554027

>>1554024
nayrt but about the salary, don't undersell yourself
a strategy somebody taught me and that worked fine for me is always to ask a bit more than what you actually want, that way if they wont be able to offer the exaggerated salary, they'll offer exactly what you want
good luck!
>>1554025
thank you nonna , I'm getting that book as soon as I can, the men I dealt with were oblivious to these subtleties

No. 1554036

my parents don't have the heart to tell my younger brother he's a little retarded. probably FAS. i feel bad for the kid. technically he's an adult now and gets himself in trouble because he's kinda dumb. he means well but it goes wrong sometimes.

No. 1554042

i am feeling so fucked up over him, this is so stupid. on one hand i feel like he has such an amazing personality for a man, but at the same time he doesn't seem to care enough about our relationship after 5 years. sometimes it feels like he's only with me for convenience….i get called beautiful by everyone else but i have to set him up to get compliments from him, he's constantly on his phone or has to have a screen in front of him when we're hanging out, i've asked him to please wash his sink for months because there's black mold growing in it and i don't want to wash my face near that when i'm staying over and he still won't do it… i know these are all small things, but they're constant and really add up… i ask myself, is he going to start putting more effort in, is this someone i want to spend more of/the rest of my life with? we're both 21, i say we're young and need more time to mature, but i just don't know… i'm so happy when i'm with him but also i only see him once a week, and when we're not together it's like he just doesn't really care. all he does is text me drily, he never wants to even call or come over to my place. but after being with him so long, i don't want to give up our comfort and history we've built up, and also he gives me weed…. fuck my life i'm sorry i apologize for the long retarded post, i just know i sound whiny and stupid

No. 1554046

>>1554000
…??? Wasn’t talking to you.

No. 1554059

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>ask on a forum: hey what's the song that plays in the recent ep, NOT the beginning song, the version that plays in x scene with x doing x
>retard just replies "it's the beginning song"
>I say no, I'm talking about the different version that plays during x scene with x doing x, not the high tempo version from the beginning
>they link me the high tempo version
>block them

No. 1554064

Just had to pay a big medical bill and there goes a fifth of the savings I worked so hard for. I’m going to live paycheck to paycheck for the rest of my fucking life aren’t I

No. 1554086

Today has been a bad day for random anger. I had a coworker be rude af to me but he apologised by lunch, which I was so taken aback by it put me in a good mood lol, then some bitch cuts me off on the road and I give her the finger so she follows me home. Normal behaviour. Parks outside my house and phones someone, talks for a bit then drives off. Don't know what to make of that. Then my bf acts like a dick via text on completely unrelated matters. Everyone needs to fucking chill. I went to work with a mental cold, like I can't actually be fucking bothered. In the words of Billie Dawn Webb, be mad!

No. 1554088

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I want to have a family but I feel like the trannies have taken that away from me. Send them to public school and they are going to basically groom them. Apparently now too you can be a man and rape and murder toddlers and still be allowed to watch kids undress in a bathroom and nobody is going to stop him. I feel like everyone in my real life is so brainwashed by this shit, I even had a friend talking about how her 3 year old might be "trans" because he liked to sing the frozen song and likes babies os much. Like what the fuck. The only hope would be to homeschool and somehow have the time and money for that in a few years and ultimately deny them a normal childhood with friends and sports and prom and clubs. And it's not like you can shelter and control them for long, and when you do they usually rebel hard. Even my tiny rural town has a troon running things it's like you can't escape it even if you run away to some conservative hellhole. I feel completely hopeless, this HAS to end right? People are going to wake the fuck up and stop letting perverted, dangerous men rule the world? Or maybe a nuclear war will wipe away most of humanity. I know this isn't snow but I just feel like it's taking such a toll on me lately.

No. 1554104

>>1554007
That flat out isn't true. How are you, nonnie?

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>>1554088
I’m so sorry anon its like to escape trannies you have to put yourself and your kids in other dangers. If you want to stray from trannies most religious towns would help but then you would have to worry about church groups mistreating your child. It sucks how nowadays its having to choose the lesser of two evils all the time

No. 1554211

Holy shit my anxiety is going crazy right now at work. I feel like I don’t know anything and I’m absolute shit. I want to cry and I also want to quit. I’m so anxious I can’t even concentrate on doing anything. They can just fire me I don’t care

No. 1554223

I've been feeling bad for setting boundaries with a friend who really hurt me by making light of the death of my parent, my illness and interests. I've gotten so used to just clinging onto friends that I've just smiled through the hurthful shit, sometimes if it was through messaging, I would tell her to not say shit like that and that would be it for a while but she would clearly get annoyed with me and everything would turn into a weird debate afterwards in the convo. She has a lot of bpd tendencies and I think I just need to dump her ass but I think she already dumped me because she has been giving me the silent treatment for almost a month now, just because I firmly yet politely told her she was being rude and inconsiderate towards my trauma and shit, whilst I've had to think of every little triggers she has. Maybe it's better this way, but it still sucks, I liked her.

No. 1554274

Thanks to my therapist I've come to realize that once I started my treatment for binging, I essentially switched the episodes of binging with buying shit. The latter is obviously more directly destructive so now I've run out of money (I've always been good with money ironically so it kinda hurts) I've started to just binge again because I deadass don't know how to deal with life any other way and it makes me want to scream. The binges aren't fun, I eat till I"m sick and I know it'll kill me in the long run.

No. 1554279

>>1554223
People use the silent treatment to make sure you sit around and find a way to blame yourself in the meantime. People can get heated and need space which is fine but if you're calling it silent treatment its probably manipulative. They want you to question yourself, stew in it and then crawl back to them acting grateful for their time even though they haven't addressed the shit you brought up. ime.. don't get into the cycle of them pushing you away and pulling you back if thats all this is. It'll fuck you up, set you back on even knowing what healthy boundries are anymore. Hang around with that for long enough and you'll catch fleas so to speak.

I had an ex who both belittled the loss of my mom and had a habit of using the silent treatment too. Years later I still can't believe I put up with so much of it. I would've thought belittling her loss would be my number one limit on what I'd ever put up with from someone. Which is probably why he did it tbh. Testing out your limits. Pushing you away. Pulling you back. Everything gets forgiven because you don't want to set them off again. Idk if most people like that even consciously know that's what they're doing or if its more of an unconscious/maladaptive thing.

No. 1554281

Why does hobby lobby have to hate women?!? I'm so sad. I want to buy the cute little dollhouse items from there

No. 1554285

My biological father accidentally killed a guy in a drunken fight and ever since I discovered he was my father I've become even more scared of my anger issues. Any time I punch a wall or a hard surface I get this intrusive thought of "you're a killer, it's in your blood, you will take a life". I've been in situations in the past where I've used self-defence but then taken it too far… nothing serious came of it, just a night in a police cell and a slap on the wrist. But I hate this feeling, it's like I'm a ticking time bomb. My stepfather who had much more of an impact on my life is the opposite of my bio father, he's a wonderful man. He's the one who taught me self-defence in the first place, but he taught it out of love. He knows how this world treats women, especially ones like me. But he would never take it too far like I have. He told me not to let my emotions take over in those moments but I'm so full of fucking rage that I can't help it. Last guy that got in my face I glassed. I'm so ashamed that I never told him that. I told my bio father and he congratulated me like it's something to be proud of. He's beyond help and I'm worried that I might be too.

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>>1554285
is this you
i mean incredibly based of you to glass a moid but kek this is so edgy to me

No. 1554291

>>1554285
Nonna I'm sure you are not lost cause. Since you are thinking about these things in advance. Maybe therapy to help you control the feeling a bit better?

No. 1554303

>>1554223

Yikes Nonnie I think anyone would feel angry and hurt by what she has said and done. You did the right thing by calling her out.

No. 1554304

I'm realising I'm not inherently a lesser human being, it was just being poor! Being poor and living in a super consumerist society with a shit diet full of sugar and fat.

So many things, that just…with money I'm realising is fixable. Like good quality hair products. It's a big initial investment but then you wash your hair less and your hair looks better instead of getting the generic drug store brand that's on sale. And clothes! My parent's have BIN BAGS full of clothes at this point, they just buy non stop because it's cheap without thinking if they'll actually wear it. At the end of the day it's always the same t-shirts, different graphics that get warped after a few washes. I've got a few well made pieces that mix with each other and the fabric is so soft, that tencel stuff is a game changer. I don't own a pair of jeans anymore because I just don't fucking like them. Skin care is like 3 staple items instead of like with the hair thing up above. My skin was forgiving because I was so young but I remember I'd use a cleanser and toner then just not moisturise because I liked the look of extremely tight poreless skin, wtf. Being able to eat whatever I want, in a good way. Salmon and baby potatoes instead of oven products and frozen veg.

What else…the mental load of everything is lifted, because nearly every problem can be fixed with money. I'm not saying I want to get sick or lose my job, but it's a fundamental shift in perspective, it's a temporary setback, not the end of my life as I know it. That's probably the biggest one. Not the superficial stuff but it's the lifted mental load that has you seeing everything differently, and probably contributes a lot to all the out of touch things rich people say.

No. 1554305

>>1554289
I've watched too many "literally me" moid movies lately which has subsequently given me brain damage, thus I post like an edgelord. I don't get your reference though. I might be a schizo who's off her meds but I'm not a damn weeb. Jesus Christ, I'm not that far gone.
I kid! Chinese cartoon fans don't get your body pillows in a twist.

>>1554291
Thank you, nona. I have tried therapy but I struggle opening up to strangers. I did have some luck with meditation calming me down, but recently stopped after five months of meditating an hour a day, so that's probably why I'm freaking out a lot lately. I'm trying to get back in the swing of things though.

No. 1554306

>>1554285
Take it as a sign to get help, I mean at least you are aware and you now have a chance to work on it so you don't end up killing someone and throwing your life away

No. 1554307

My father hasn't done anything that bad that would justify cutting him out of my life and never speaking to him again, but I kinda wish he did. He was never there for me growing up but still maintained enough contact to not be a deadbeat, so now as an adult I have such a superficial relationship with him that it's a pain in the ass having to talk to him and make the effort to see him from time to time. I don't like him, I don't feel comfortable around him. Texting me a couple of times a month asking me what's up is not "bonding". When he dies I won't miss him a single bit, that's for sure.

No. 1554308

>>1554285
I don't know if you drink or ever partake in anything else that'd alter inhibitions but that'd be the main thing I'd be real careful about if you recognize anger issues. I've seen too many people who can keep a lid on shit while sober but then make terrible split second decisions like that when drunk and have to live with it.

No. 1554312

>>1554279
I think it's exactly that and I can say that for goddamn once I have stood my ground and haven't been the one to send a message out of anxiety and guilt. She claimed it was an accident that she made a joke that was exactly the very bizarre way my parent died and I started to feel crazy almost, for once I didn't back down and I feel like I am being punished for it. I got two long "apologies" that were pretty much "sorry you feel that way" but they were spaced days apart, then when I only gave a few words of replies, the silent treatment started. I even told a few outsider friends about it and they also told me to not give in and that I'm better off without her.
That sounds awful, nona but I get it, like in the moment you keep telling yourself shit like "oh they didn't mean to hurt my feelings haha I'm just a dummy baby for having any feelings actually, they are so right! I am wrong if I ever voice out an unpleasant opinion!"
>>1554303
I was actually shaking and stuff when I told her off, I am embarrassingly proud of not hurling any venom, swearing or backing out of it but at the same time, here we go, one boundary set finally and I'm tossed kek

No. 1554313

I need to stop with the nicotine. My appetite's down and I can feel myself getting really stupid and slow and tired because I haven't been eating right. Why is quitting nicotine so fucking hard they should make a pill that corrects your brain chemistry when stopping an addiction. Fuck this. Never start smoking or vaping you'll go stupid and insane.

No. 1554314

>>1553549
>feel like he's gonna dump me.
Going by the usual lolcow estimates:
Lucky you.

No. 1554315

>>1554307
He doesn't have to be a monster for you not like him, if you two don't even really know each other, it's no surprise you don't vibe. My dad was an abusive piece of shit who died alone like he deserved to, but I don't think anyone should feel obligated to stick around just because they didn't do something awful, free yourself nona.

No. 1554317

>>1553760
This. It's her only move.

No. 1554319

>>1554313
not to be all stupid questions thread about it but I never realised there aren't any like, pill form nicotine things, I've seen gum, sprays, patches and stuff like that but no pills. That's fucking peculiar but I hope you feel better nona, maybe focus on eating stuff that has a bit of extra protein in it or protein drinks? I did that when I couldn't eat a lot and felt shitty

No. 1554323

>>1554313
I feel like an idiot rn because I gave up smoking years ago without it being all that hard. Started vaping last year tho during a period of stress, the stressful thing has passed now but how tf is this proving so much harder to get off of?

No. 1554325

>>1554315
Meh, I wish I could, but it has a lot of downsides. I don't think most people in my family would understand why I don't wanna have him in my life, and if I cut him off I'd also have to cut contact with his side of the family and I don't want that. He lives with my grandma, right next to one of my aunts, and like 10 minutes away from my two other aunts and cousins. Cutting him off would create more headaches, awkwardness and problems than not doing it. Had he been abusive at least I'd have a proper reason to do it.

No. 1554327

>>1554313
I smoke occasionally, never gotten addicted and don't think I will. Maybe there was something horrible that happened in your life and you decided to depend on smokes to relieve the emotional pain? Guess we're all built different.

No. 1554329

>>1554325
Thankfully my dad was a shithead to me my whole life, my mom enabled him. When I move out I can cut both the fucks off, yaaaayy!!

No. 1554334

>>1554327
>smoke occasionally
And there's your answer. As a person that has been addicted on and off to nicotine, smoking a cig every once in a good while is going to prove less addicting than if you start vaping only with friends. With a vape you're inhaling for like 3 seconds, with a cigarette you're inhaling for like a second and a half and you're not holding it in as long because they don't make fruity cigarettes. I mean, it depends on how much nic is in a vape but on average you're getting more nicotine through vaping than with cigarettes, even if you vape/smoke occasionally. Plus, a cigarette only last for a few minutes whereas a vape is reusable and you can be puffing away the entire day. I'm no doctor but that's been my experience.

No. 1554342

>>1554064
So after I pay this giant bill for my first infusion of this drug I get a text saying my insurance company has denied any future doses. How is this even legal??? Enjoy my $900 you craven fucks

No. 1554347

>>1554327
>Tfw you got addicted to trolling by pretending to be an actual retarded person instead

No. 1554357

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tfw the mentally unwell are responsible for the poor

No. 1554359

>>1554357
this is amusing in light of recent events

No. 1554362

>>1554314
yea, im also betting an arm he looks like the last fungus-infected bloating turd in an old lady's rotten corpse

No. 1554370

Today I bullied a moid for liking rooster teeth. He was wearing a more recent RTX shirt and I scoffed and laughed and said “you still like roosterteeth?” He tried to defend himself and how the podcast or whatever is pretty good and I just kept laughing and saying ok and that I was so embarrassed for him. Then I said that I remember liking roosterteeth for 2 weeks when I was an edgy tween who thought poopoopeepee drink beer was funny and he caved and looked like he was going to cry and tried to brush it off saying he doesn’t really like it anymore, he just still has this shirt and didn’t even want to go to the convention KEK

Other things I have successfully bullied moids over: pulp fiction, Rick and Morty, breaking bad, blade runner, misogynistic metal. One time a guy tried to shame me for a song I like with a hot male vocalist because it wasn’t some pretentious bullshit he liked and I made fun of his music taste and then went on about how hot the singer and his voice was in a really over the top way, talking over and interrupting him. He was absolutely seething.

Ladies, rise to your gigastacy potential and bully scrotes!!!

No. 1554381

>>1554370
I aspire to bully as many moids as you, anon, you're truly an inspiration for gigastacies around the world

No. 1554392

>>1554370
a true gigastacy would not even know wtf that podcast was

No. 1554397

AAAAAAA reading latest news and stuff here makes me paranoid they will legalize pedophilia I swear I will fucking bomb the parliament if that happens, at the same time I'm pissed by rightoids who say it's a natural consequence of legalizing homosexuality, BITCH how can you not see the difference between two adults fucking and fucking a child??????? Also I want to remind people that the age of consent in USA was like 10 in the late XIX century, and I think they raised it only because of feminist movements. It goes way deeper, it's not just latest degeneracy, I think moids always wanted child diddling to be legal, they diddled little boys in ancient Greece and considered it fairly normal. I think they delegalized it only thanks to feminist movements. Feminism is fucking dying now. Tranny agenda and pedophilia are taking over, and people need to know that queer theory and pedophilia are inherently linked. All of this makes me so fucking angry fuckkkk

No. 1554406

>>1554397
Whether men want to molest children because they're fucking degenerates obsessed with youth and destroying innocence has nothing to do with homosexuality. Conservative moids are particularly retarded. Like they wouldn't be the ones advocating for marrying off 10 year old girls to 30 year old men like in the "good old times" if pedophilia wasn't so look down upon nowadays, they're the same ones who want women to stay young and fertile and submissive forever for decrepit scrotes and see nothing wrong with it.

No. 1554416

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I met with my best friend and we walked in the rain and talked for 2 hours. It really helped with my mood and anxiety. I'll enjoy this calmness while I can.

No. 1554424

>>1554370
Based kek.

>>1554397
Men will simply blame anything but the male sex for their pornsickness and coom obsessed depravity because to recognise its evil is to recognise their evil, destroying the narrative they try to construct about being logical natural born leaders. Simple truth is they want power to enable coomers and legally enshrine the protection of the male ego from womb envy as men are born to coom and die.

No. 1554427

>>1554370
Please tell me how did you bullied the moid about Pulp Fiction. I hate this fucking movie and tarantinohack in general

No. 1554429

>>1554392
depending on where anon lives she probably saw alot of RoosterTeeth related stuff around the 2013 because they always hold their stupid rtx shit in Austin and its hard not to hear about them as a Texan

No. 1554432

>>1554397
>I swear I will fucking bomb the parliament if that happens
Isn't this a literal terrorist threat and so bannable by global rule 1? Not sure if I should report because it's just a hypothetical

No. 1554434

I came onto my old account to delete some embarrassing messages that would surely haunt me, and bite me in the ass in the future, only to find out someone has deleted them (all) for me. it makes me sad, since I had wrote a bunch of crazy shit in there when I was having a mental breakdown because some bitch was hacking through my internet and driving me crazy. Maybe it was best that they were all deleted, hopefully they dont have an archive of it. Honestly, I'm not sure if it would've have even made me laugh if I were to look back on it, maybe just cringe and wish I was never like that, and thats all. like cringe to where I wish I didn't live, yeah. that type of cringe. I'm not sure whether I should be blessed or tormented, maybe a little bit of both.

No. 1554435

>>1554432
Are you for real
Anyway I will bomb it

No. 1554439

>>1554432
don't snitch

No. 1554453

I love apple juice but apple juice doesn't love me.

No. 1554486

I fucking hate my body. I hate my body so much. I hate being flat (B32) it pisses me off so much. I hate that i'll never be seen as an object of desire because small chests are never viewed in a sexual light and always just "aesthetical" or even "androgynous" but i wanna be feminine and not like a moid. It pisses me off so much whenever women with big boobs complain about it because oh no being the beauty standard must be so ~hard~ or even worse when its TIFs like shut the fuck up. Anyone who complains about having big boobs unless it's for practical reasons is a raging pickme. Whenever i look up why having small boobs is a good thing it's always because "ohhhh it's so aesthetical and beautiful!" you never see anyone of either gender who prefers small boobs from a sexual standpoint, it's always just a tolerance.

No. 1554490

>>1554486
There are plenty of people who prefer smaller boobs as a sexual preference. A B cup isn't even flat and is an average size in countries where it is not considered normal to be obese. It sounds like you don't have much experience outside of watching porn or talking to coomers kek.

No. 1554491

>>1554486
>thinking 32B is flat
lmao you know what? i hate when b cup women complain about being flat when being flat actually exists this is absolutely no tit erasure, like at least you exist on bra racks?

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Tw ranting

I have talked about this a handful of times over the past year along with a couple of other people, but I have been violated so intimately by these men that I do not think I will ever psychologically recover. It's extremely frustrating having your privacy and agency taken away from you by people with far more resources–the power imbalance that men will exert on you in order to humiliate you and keep you under their thumb is truly like no other sociopathy.

I have been stalked by a very mentally ill hacker and his equally mentally ill circle of online friends for several years. They created three main accounts that essentially mention my every action in a roundabout, seemingly word salad-esque way in order to appear like a bot to the unsuspecting. They have used various zero-day methods to hack into every device I have ever had, and have shared audio of intimate aspects of my life among eachother. I want to reiterate that this is not a schizophrenic delusion, but is really happening. As long as I am legally pursuing justice, I am not supposed to reveal any personal information about the perpetrators behind this but it has genuinely ruined me and my life and my ability to trust anyone indefinitely. I could not begin to describe the pain that Twitter users @drsweety303 and @poopyskittles have caused me and how smug the are about believing they will never face legal repercussions for their genuinely sick and fucked up hobbies. Men will hurt you in irreparable ways and then claim it's fine because they are trolling. When I say stalking I mean real stalking, to the point it constitutes actual legitimate abuse. Learning how simple it is for hackers to take over the cellphones of anyone they want without there being any indication of it has made me really sick, learning that there is a niche on the dark web to do these kinds of things to women has changed me as a person very negatively. Seemingly 'normal' men are paid to stalk women and most of them will never have any idea it is happening. Several of the friends of these people who laugh along about what they have done and partaken in this abuse are popular on Twitter, speak out about abuse of women and misogyny, and one even has 30k followers. They are severely paranoid about what they have done and even prepared rehearsed written statements full of lies and excuses to try to protect themselves whenever this finally comes to light. They regularly mock me, make memes about me, and have a three and a half year long group chat dedicated solely to making fun of me. They gave me the nickname "AVALYN" as a codename whenever discussing me to chats and telling outrageous stories full of omissions and casual lies of how they allegedly know so much about me. The things they have done are so violating that I could not even begin to explain to you just how cruel these people truly are. I'm just an average person with no powerful support system so I'm a very easy target, and they regularly mock me for being too weak to handle this exploitation. I will genuinely never be able to trust anyone ever again. I don't know how to live with the fact that I have been victimized and used for entertainment fodder like this. You couldn't even imagine how violating this is and how far it goes, all I can say is that you truly have no idea how dark the exploitation of women using technology is right now. It isnt a joke, im not exaggerating, and I gain nothing from sharing this. I can only imagine how much worse this problem is going to be in the future, and I feel like I have to walk on eggshells until I finally can get the proper cease and desists and restraining orders. I've had enough traumatizing things happen in my life and knowing that this made me seem like an easy victim is even more disheartening. Sometimes I don't know how to be strong and I cant imagine how I'm going to recover from what has been done to me. It hurts so bad, all of the time.

My final piece of advice to all of you is that you really cannot trust people online. It does not matter how they seem, the positive image they project, the way they speak out against violence or misogyny. There are men currently pretending to be morally sound and righteous people that do extremely disturbing things in their personal life and do not give a single fuck who they hurt. Do not trust a man just because hes gay or woobified, although im sure most of you already know that. A lot of these terminally online people have the "rules for thee but not for me" to a whole other level, and they will tell literally ANY lie no matter how elaborate and outrageous to protect themselves and their circle of abusive friends. And if you begin to notice too many "coincidences" between you and someone online, do not brush it off. Stalking women is becoming a casual trend on the dark web. This will become an epidemic. Be careful please. These people do not care about anyone, not even eachother. I don't know how to start over or get my life back and all they do is laugh about it.

No. 1554496

>>1554490
No it isn't. And i regularly got told i was flat and titless by both my female and male friends regularly. My exes all preferred small boobs or simply tolerated them. Go on any social media website, if a woman asks if men like small boobs he'll give a non-direct answer

>>1554491
It is flat though lmao??? I'm barely a b cup and i get called anorexic or titless or whatever all the time. Try getting bodyshamed by everyone in your life and you'll see

No. 1554498

>>1554496
**My exes all preferred big boobs and simply tolerated small boobs. Fuck.

No. 1554515

>>1554496
What are you talking about? Just use google, you can see that a B is an average size. In some parts of Europe it's even hard to buy a bra above a C in a mainstream shop. What your sample of a couple of coomer moids and your nasty friends think doesn't change reality and humans are known for having a very wide variation in sexual preferences. If you genuinely think you'll "never be seen as a object of desire" for having a 32B cup then you're coomer brain rotted.

No. 1554517

>>1554515
That's great if i lived in europe but i live in america and don't intend on moving to europe anytime soon. Beauty standards are different everywhere, and the beauty standard in america is having huge tits.

No. 1554520

>>1554517
The average cup size in America is bigger because the average woman weighs a lot more. Cup size tends to increase as your weight increases. So just put on some weight if you want to look closer to the average?

No. 1554523

I'm so stressed. I going to therapy and trying to get my mental health under control. I did this all under the belief it was all covered by my insurance. They told me it was. I got letters saying it was all paid for. All of a sudden, i recieved a bunch of letters says i owe the insurance company money for sessions that they said they had covered. I booked some sessions that were to happen after the renewal period of my insurance. I had no idea that providers just randomly go off network even if you have the same plan and the worst part they never told me. Just surprise you owe $2,000!!! I called the insurance company about this and they told me to tell the providers to bill the right ones blah blah blah. Can i sue this provider for not disclosing they were off network to me? I really need treatment but i feel so untrusting of the mental health sector. My life is close to shambles and i so desperately want to save it but the universe just had other plans. I have a test tomorrow but instead i am struck with the fact that i am constantly being punished for trying to improve myself. I swear everytime i try to make a positive change in my life either i or a greater power fucks it all up. I don't have a life worth living, i am upset that i can never muster up the strength to kill myself.

No. 1554540

>>1554486
Kek I’m a fellow B-cup and while it’s not flat my boobs disappear when I put on a sports bra, so I get it. Chin up, small tits are cute and they’ll stay perkier for longer. Just compensate by being cool and hilarious like the rest of us.

No. 1554548

>>1554520
No because i probably have fucking up fat distribution

>>1554540
I don't want to be "cute" im an adult. I want my body to be considered sexually appealing, women with big boobs have everything handed to them and it pisses me off.

No. 1554552

>>1554548
Thanks for calling me sexually unappealing lol. Luckily I don’t gaf and I hope one day you find some confidence too. What is attractive and what attractive people get in life is not as cut and dry as you seem to think it is.

No. 1554553

>go to /m/ to post about a book or something else I liked
>anons immediately start telling me how it's terrible and they hate it

I hardly ever post about stuff anymore because of this reason

No. 1554555

>>1554548
Do some squats and grow an ass to make up for it. Ass is more popular than boobs these days anyway.

No. 1554556

>people tell me I'm very attractive
>men never openly approach me
so which one is it?

No. 1554560

can anons go have their self confidence crises about men not picking them on cc instead like god intended? i'm tired of reading so much cringe. that's my vent

No. 1554562

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Im horny, im bored, and i need serotonin.
Also I think im getting bored of the same dick

No. 1554564

>>1554548
You don't sound like an adult. Is "BIG BOOBA GOOD" literally your only understanding of sex appeal kek?

No. 1554567

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whenever i decide to try therapy again (because everyone says i need to go to therapy) every therapist says something to the effect of "wow, you're a very unique clusterfuck problems I have never encountered before" which, reading in between the lines, is them telling me they don't know that they can be of any help to me. if they do outright say so, that is. idk what i'm supposed to do. i've tried to be a responsible person and get help. sorry that i had a weird upbringing and an insane mother and pushover dad and i'm sorry something bad that no one was expecting happened to me and i'm sorry for having problems. i truely feel sorry for being here.

No. 1554568

>>1554555
Having a big ass is just a trend it won't help whereas big boobs are timeless.

>>1554564
I'm 18

>>1554565

I don't really use /snow/ besides tranny threads so idk who that is

No. 1554569

>>1554553
I get it. There's a lot of infight recently across all boards. They don't simply just disagree with you and argue their side,they need to start insulting you as well. It's always been like this but it feels worse recently. A while back shitpost were mostly ignored,but now the shitposters get the most attention and it feeds a never ending infight without any constructive debate.

No. 1554572

>>1554560
Why is it always some woman's fault for having big tits that you anons can't get laid?

No. 1554575

>>1554568
>18
Well that makes sense then. As you get more experience you probably won't have such a limited understanding. I wouldn't sweat it.

No. 1554576

>>1554572
Because big boobs are seen as inherently sexual whereas small boobs aren't and it hurts. Even when i know a man is attracted to me it's not because of my body and it fucking sucks

No. 1554578

>>1554576
Do you have body parts other than boobs?

No. 1554579

>>1554568
>18
that explains a lot.
Idk anon, my exes/actual bf were crazy for my 81cm bust and loved when I was braless (like always lol). You don't have to take what internet moids said seriously and many people prefer small boobs.

No. 1554580

>>1554576
Learn to love your tits anon, many men prefer them small. I have big tits and I fucking hate them buying a proper bra takes way too much effort and $$$. I guarantee its not your tit size that's the issue.

No. 1554582

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>>1554576
>when i know a man is attracted to me it's not because of my body and it fucking sucks

No. 1554583

>>1554578
Lmao well it doesn't really matter bc most men are either attracted to tits or ass, and i have neither.

>>1554579
I'm talking about irl moids, i've never met one irl who likes small boobs, plus mine are even smaller at 75cm (if i did the math correctly)

>>1554580
It is the issue when most men think with their dicks. Also no bras fit me bc of my weird body type and i shouldn't even need to wear them but i have to because i have giant traffic cone nipples

No. 1554584

>>1554582
she's young and people in general like feeling lusted after

No. 1554585

>>1554583
And yet somehow women with small tits/asses for millennia have dated, had sex, gotten married, and generally done fine for themselves

No. 1554586

>>1554584
nta but she said men are attracted to her..but i guess not for the reasons she wants? idgi

No. 1554587

>>1554584
yeah, and every woman wishes she could know that a man is into her and not just her tits/ass/feet/whatever the meme fetish is now
remember when the big kids on the playground told you Santa wasn't real and what cuss words mean? that never ends, the seniors will always try to shed light on freshmen
maybe take the free perspective instead of getting defensive

No. 1554589

>>1554587
im not getting defensive lol im just putting another perspective? and yours is valid too. Maybe we, like the complex beings we are, like to feel valued for different things at the same time? and of course for our bodies too…

No. 1554590

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>>1554589
>yours is valid too
ew

No. 1554591

>>1554590
now you just want to infight instead of chat

No. 1554592

>>1554585
Maybe where you're from it's different, but having small tits in a midwest suburb is a fucking death sentence and no men will fuck you.

>>1554586
Yeah, that's what i was trying to say.

No. 1554593

>>1554589
your perspective is that she wants to be hot and her perspective is that she wants to be hot, that isn't two different perspectives
you don't have to listen to me, you don't have to listen to anyone

No. 1554595

>>1554589
Is this what the uptalk thing was

No. 1554596

I wanna kms over fucking mustache man help me pls I don’t wanna love anymore there’s no reason to

No. 1554598

>>1554592
>but having small tits in a midwest suburb is a fucking death sentence and no men will fuck you.
oh come on your grandmas and great-grandmas and other ancestors manage to reproduce to create you, i doubt each and every single one of them all had huge boobs

No. 1554599

>>1554598
she's full of it anyway, these corn-fed, toe-head hicks are starved for dainty DFC, I clean up so good out here, it's why I never went to the city lmao

No. 1554600

>>1554592
Men will fuck almost anything that has a semblance of a hole. If you can't get laid you have something serious going on like you smell like rotting sewage and are missing half your face or you haven't been outside or seen a man in years. Your tits have less than nothing to do with it.

No. 1554602

>>1554596
He is horrifying, he is not even worth your thoughts. This will fade out and you'll feel embarrassed about it later.

No. 1554604

i keep telling my mom to just quit her shitty warehouse job (she has enough money saved up to live comfortably) but she's so insistent on leaving something behind for me. it makes me depressed and resentful all at once. i love her so much but i cannot deny she is responsible for 90% of what's wrong with me right now.
always going on about how 'good and behaved' i am. i'm like a whipped dog ma

No. 1554606

>>1554592
I have 2 things to say about this, the first being is that men are never really satisfied. I have moderately large breasts and a large ass as well as being tall and my ex emphasized to me how much he loved petite women with tiny breasts and tiny asses. I told him it made me feel bad about myself and he just told me that was because I was insecure. He told me he liked my body type too but he needed to watch porn in order to satisfy his desires. Even if you had a huge rack men would still find something to make you insecure about. They see our bodies as objects to please them which is why for most of them we can never be good enough.

Second is that most men don't care at all about appealing to women. Many of them can't even be bothered to wash their asses on a daily basis, so why should you care so much if they aren't drooling over a certain part of you? They are not putting even half of that mental energy towards being attractive to you.

No. 1554611

>>1554576
I have average sized boobs, all my weight goes to my ass and guys used to sexualize me all the time back when I was actually still friends with men. Nowadays I don't really bother being friends with men for that exact reason. I think I'm really a repulsive bitch, my BDD tells me so, but guys wanted to fuck me irregardless, and that's why I stopped being friends with men.

Still hate the way I look but I embrace my face for what it is. As other anons have said they will sexualize a piece of cheese, men claim to have a "type" and then will rebel against it and completely defy it. Don't take it personally, they aren't worth your salt

No. 1554612

>>1554602
Gosh I hope so. I am trying to make this one guy I’m talking to his replacement but he’s boring as fuck despite being hot. I’m nervous because he shows no signs of insanity like mustache man did. Fuck we would have been so perfect…….?

No. 1554614

My mood is seriously all over the place lately. Extremely sad yesterday. Then feeling pretty good this morning. And now I'm back to being sad and disappointed. Will these emotions ever pass

No. 1554620

>replying to obvious b8

No. 1554627

you can call me a handmaiden or whatever, but circumcision makes me so sick. i can't believe adults would cut up a healthy baby, especially if they are not religious.

No. 1554630

>>1554627
I don’t think that’s a handmaiden-y take by any means. Also uncut dicks feel really good.

No. 1554633

Help guys why should I NOT kms over a moid rejecting me???????? We had such good times together and the BOOM, all gone lmao help me I wanna die like seriously I have dreams every night about blowing my brains out. I have my dream career and I even have friends, but none of them get me land make me feel alive like he did. I wanna fucking die.

No. 1554644

>>1554633
Why would you kill yourself over a retarded moid's retarded decision. Think of those happy times and then think of the fact that he completely deserted you and left those happy times behind him. He made the wrong choice and you shouldn't let yourself suffer over some retarded man's idiotic choice. He could still be real happy with you if he was smart. Don't let dumb people ruin you.

No. 1554650

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one of my best friends from high school doesn’t seem to care about our friendship anymore and it really hurts. it’s lame because i have amazing friends at my college and i’ve maintained plenty of other relationships from hs. i understand that friendships fade but it sucks to experience it in real time. she only ever contacts me when she wants something from me. i tell myself i should just drop her but when she reaches out i can’t help but immediately reply every time only to get ghosted again. it’s humiliating to care about someone so much more than they care about you. even worse when that someone knows it, and knows they can keep using you and you’ll keep coming back.

No. 1554657

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I JUST WANT TO BELT VASHTI BUNYAN SONGS BUT MY THROAT IS TOO FUCKED UP

No. 1554663

>>1554633
I don't want to be mean and yes I suck at advice, kek, but keep in mind peoples' brains can be weird as shit. Chances are he made you feel alive because you grew used to the high stimulation (which relationships often are–a lot of shitty ones, sometimes more so, included). It's a tired analogy, though think about how a drug affects people and how sometimes the rest of life gets drab in comparison. Hormones are goddamned weird. Doesn't mean you didn't have a good time with him though it means that in a few months there's a high chance your brain will go "wtf was I thinking?" or start finding less extreme things exciting again.

No. 1554682

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I hate coomers. That is all.

No. 1554689

>>1554657
i want to learn how to play the harp just so i can sing if i were. her voice is beautiful. hope your throat feels better nona

No. 1554691

>>1554682
One of the few designs from zelda series I hate passionately.

No. 1554692

>>1554682
Sexualizing midna's tiny form is so disgusting. Men are a disease.

No. 1554693

>>1554630
>Also uncut dicks feel really good.
How so? Even phismosis ones?
I ask because my ex had an uncut dick and I'm sad I never got to experience it before we broke up lmao

No. 1554694

If your bf or whatever triangulates you with another girl who wasn't even interested in him in the first place..don't get mad at the girl especially if she outright rejects him. Stop comparing yourself to every girl your narc bf compares you to and see through the games. I'm just sick and tired of girls blaming other girls for the shit guys pull and then destroy another girls self-esteem and sense of safety all because of a triangulation tactic. Recognize toxicity in these men and shut them down.

No. 1554718

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Actually I do have a lot to offer as a person and I don't have to play some sort of role specifically for you and your narrative. You go on and on and talk about me in circles and look for any niche reference to try to bring conversation back to me and the negative traits you want me to possess but none of that means anything!! It's all fanfiction!! You are writing AUs about the worst things that have ever happened to me or ever influenced me over and over with no sign of character growth as a person and even as everyone around you tries to quietly distance themselves you HAVE to bring it back around to me and how you so desperately want me to be some centric villain in your life. You are an ugly fucking person in every way, for all of this, and the fact that you really think all these skeletons are just going to stay in your closet is truly insane to me. I hate all of you and do not find anything about you admirable or desirable or even enviable in any way. I'm very grateful that I am not and never will be only the sum of the worst thing that has ever happened to me, even though you put SO much effort into hoping and praying I will be so you have some sort of resolve. I know you think you're being cute but everyone is getting sick of you and will come out of this realizing just how revolting you really are.

No. 1554734

>>1554693
NTA but they slide in and out more comfortably for some reason. I have only minimal experience with it but it feels nice. It’s a little hard to get past how the tip looks though so I’d avoid looking at it kek

No. 1554735

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I recently was scrolling through my tumblr blog and I came across a bunch of posts from years ago. God I miss my old internet friends and all the fun we had together. It was great being part of something for once.

No. 1554748

>>1554553
This would make me more keen to post kek usually I just get ignored

No. 1554757

I am an atheist but I think I wish I believed in God. I hate enlightened facts-and-logic atheists who use their beliefs as a way to feel smarter than other people or validate their shitty hedonistic personalities instead of appreciating the limited time they have being conscious and using their short time on earth as a gift to others and themselves. I also hate Pascal's-Wager-wishy-washy Christians who believe in God because they're used to it and never questioned it, and "well I believe in god just in case he's real!". Bitch you should love God because you value his guidance and have a relationship with him, not "just in case". Why do't you hang some garlic outside your door "just in case" a vampire visits. Idk why I'm heated about this right now but I AM!!

No. 1554762

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The internal fight between "I have to make my character designs simple enough to draw them many times" and "I could add more detail because it would be fun"

No. 1554770

>>1554762
You can make two designs for characters nonnie. A simple one for easy drawing and super special detailed version for funsies. Best of both worlds! It is your character and your world you can have it both ways one way no way, it is your oyster…

No. 1554777

>>1554757
My problem isn't with Christians its with the religious right and the type of christians who freak out and call everything from a different culture/religion than theirs "satanic". Theres a strong evangelical element in the U.S. that preaches the false notion that christians are being persecuted and every other religion is against them, apart from the zealots from other major religions that is absolutely not true and most people do not hate christians and even the spoopy occult people don't hate christians apart from edgy teenage athiests.

No. 1554779

WHY would they have a fucking trainee bus driver for the morning commute??? Going max 15mph on an EMPTY ROAD I missed my fucking connection and quietly going feral at the back of the bus REEE

No. 1554787

Made a new year resolution to stop being an emotional doormat, this included cutting out manipulative and draining people. Dropped three friends…would you know it, all moids. Now feeling less stressed and constrained about how to behave/act/dress without them orbiting, life is easier. Having said that….maybe I'm just dwelling on it too much today but suddenly I feel really very despondent over it, I refused to believe men and women couldn't be friends but literally every time (for other women I've spoken with also) it seems to be true. I try not to spiral into despair over it bc there's no point in wallowing over incorrigible human nature but having a moment rn where I miss the blunt honesty of male friends. Will never again put myself into a compromising position or accept incel-tier rhetoric but watching men hang out and speak candidly from that exclusively self-confident male perspective, and knowing that I'll never be privy to it, makes me frustrated.
Tl;dr why can't men just be fucking normal and engage in meaningful friendships with women. Whatever. I'll find some unhinged but honest and confident lady friends one day.

Not trying to be a dick, I am an older anon and honestly up until a few years ago believed I could befriend men. They will never consider you "one of the boys" or "just a friend" no matter how respectful they act. Months, years, a decade later you will find out that there were or are unrequited feelings.

No. 1554793

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>>1554493
And it cant be ignored that a majority of the 32k tweets from drsweety303 revolve around weirdly sexually degrading comments about women specifically, constantly. the so clearly gay male nuance of odd insults to women specifically designed to be sexual in nature in a repulsed manner when nobody asked is one of the most annoying trendy posting styles there is. you aren't a clever provocateur, you're just a misogynist. so much effort to dump into a bot account with mostly fake followers and subpar engagement 99% of the time.

No. 1554807

Kill me so I don't have to be near my mom anymore. I am so close to exploding and tired of trying to be diplomatic towards her. I hate having a dumb mom with a explosive temper.

No. 1554808

>>1554556
how could we know? more info/context?

No. 1554813

Oh so you discuss our relationship with your gross little porn sick friend? Okay cool, everyone needs an outlet. Oh you also talk about shit I told you in confidence and expected to stay between us? Oh you joke about it with this greasy moid? Oh you send each other porn of women who look like me? Even though you know that I have a zero tolerance policy for porn not just ideologically but also because of aforementioned personal shit? Oh you degrade women with this absolute cumstain of a person but play up your feminist routine with me?

I'm about to alog and post something incriminating if I don't stop. I need to plan and get out of this, I've been lied to so much and for what?!? He looks like Larry David.

No. 1554840

>>1554813
Anon him and his pronsick friend sound dangerous. Please break up with him, you don't deserve to be with a man who doesn't respect you and from what I read, his pornsick friend is sexualizing you and he's enabling it.
I hope you meet someone better. Sorry you went through that, I went through something similar and once I broke up I felt so much better.

No. 1554843

>>1554813
ghost this fool. serve your revenge cold at the right time.

had a moid I was dating send me porn links of girls who looked like me too, down to the hair (very specific) was the most utterly skin-crawling moment of my life. I'm so sorry nona, please stay safe.
get his email signed up to a bunch of spam bots asap just to start.

No. 1554844

>>1554813
what a nasty scrote. leave asap. also
>play up your feminist routine with me
this is why i always tell women that moids will pretend to agree with anything to get pussy. But women hate hearing that so much that they just start calling you a bitter hag who is just jealous, until the same shit happens to them. This is why we're never making it out of the patriarchy, women refuse to listen to warnings and instead every woman on earth believes she has the unicorn.

No. 1554847

Since I was a pre-teen I have told my mom not to touch me certain places because it makes me uncomfortable and she just won't stop. For the last couple weeks she has been doing it more frequently and I can't take it anymore. If I yell at her to stop, I'm the bad guy. If I push her hands away, I'm the bad guy. I can't do it anymore it's beginning to feel like SA.

No. 1554850

of course the only person who would love me is an actual literal retard

No. 1554851

This is so depressing. Is there any career field left that won't be replaced by machines. I wanted to learn how to program for the longest time for the career prospects and now I'm kind of glad I didn't. Ngl this shit makes me want to an hero just a little bit.

No. 1554853

>>1554556
Same
>Friends say I'm super pretty, but they're my friends so they can be biased
>Told I'm very good looking by some people I don't know that well
>At best I get stared at, never been approached by anyone who wasn't a chav asking for bus fare cash or a ciggy and calling me cute to butter me up
>Female staff in shops always seem unfriendly, which makes me feel like a hideous goblin, while they're nice to my male friends and even make small talk with them
>I'm a lesbian so this hurts a bit

If I were indeed pretty, wouldn't people treat me nicely? Instead I feel like a right fool just going to the shops

No. 1554854

You have to be fucking kidding me. The only thing i have ever been complimented on was that i had a perfect smile, then out of fucking nowhere my wisdom tooth come out and ruin my fucking teeth. I took a photo and it legit looks like i have a snaggle tooth now. I am so fucking pised i want to cry, why cant i have one fucking thing, on top of that its probably super expensive to fix and it looks disgusting.

No. 1554855

>>1554853
>If I were indeed pretty, wouldn't people treat me nicely?
No. People hate when this is pointed out but the people who get treated nicely are just baseline conventionally attractive: people don't view them as a "threat" to their own attractiveness so they're nicer to them. There's a reason why it's pretty privilege and not gorgeous privilege.

No. 1554856

>>1554851
I am an artist and AI was so depressing it almost made me commit an hero. Not because its "so good" but because they are turning somwthing inherently human into fast-food, and because we live in a consumeristic hellscape most artists will be forced to adapt against their will. It's really sad.

No. 1554860

my friend is like intensely super obese and she just keeps getting bigger. i think she must be at around 300lb now. i barely see her because we live apart but tbh it's intensely frustrating to deal with it. i'm average size but very fit and nimble - i like to jog/run and walk very fast naturally. when she was visiting the other day, i realised she can't even walk a quarter as fast as me. she walks at the same speed as old people who need walkers or walking sticks do. at one point we were crossing the road, and even though we set off at the same time, by the time i'd crossed the road she hadn't even made it halfway across and the lights were changing back again. to be honest, it's alarming and scary but i also just find it depressing and disgusting to a point. she doesn't even seem to eat that much so i literally do not understand how she must be taking in like 4000+ calories a day, though she does drink on average (from what i've seen) 4 bottles of coke/pepsi/etc a day… just jfc man. what do you even say to a person like that? and because i'm very slim as is and she's quite literally the fattest person i and most other people have ever seen, it makes it so embarrassing to go out with her because she'll always make these little self-conscious comments about her weight and how hard it is to walk/buy clothes/be fast/etc. like what do you want me to say? yeah, you can't go clothes shopping with your girlfriends like a normal 20-something because you're OBESE and can't find clothes. why make comments that makes everyone else feel bad when this is the choice you've made? ugh. idk. just so intensely embarrassing. she's honestly going to have a heart attack at 35 if she keeps this up. it's really bad.

No. 1554861

>>1554689
thank you nona, I'm going to drink a ton of honey tea tonight and terrorize my neighbors with my rendition of if I were tommorrow

No. 1554862

>>1554860
I said something similar about my own friend months ago and anons jumped me. Anyway, I get it. My friend just got weight loss surgery because it was postponed because of the pandemic so she was aware of the issue but before that it was hard to really tell her anything about it, it's an awkward topic. She was also just as slow as your friend, we never shopped for clothes together, she would feel hot when it's cold and would open windows when everyone in the room is already shivering from the cold, she needed breaks all the time when we were outside. The very first thing your friend needs is to become aware of the issue because you can't help someone who doesn't want help.

>she doesn't even seem to eat that much

That's what I thought about my friend too, and that's what she thought about herself. Until we traveled together for 10 days and I think we both realized that we don't eat the same portions at all. I eat a lot during lunch and dinner but I tend to not eat a lot of snacks in between, or at all, and when I drink sodas it's only when I'm eating lunch and dinner. My friend was eating way more than me during lunch and dinner and breakfast and on top of that she would eat a lot of snacks, walk way less, she begged me to take breaks with her because of her legs hurting from being obese when I was doing great despite my own poor health and for these breaks she would go to a Starbucks or local equivalent to get the most sugary drinks and cakes while I just took something small to justify taking a seat there. It was very frustrating because she already scheduled her surgery and she didn't try to change her habits little by little yet. Now I'm waiting for her to get better soon, I hope it'll work out for her. I wouldn't be surprised if your friend eats a lot more than she tells you when nobody can see her.

No. 1554863

>>1554856
the fact we live in a consumeristic hellscape is also the reason you are/were able to make a living off being an artist in the first place because being an artist doesn't produce food to eat or built a roof above your head.

No. 1554864

>>1554860
That's 800-1000 calories in soda each day alone if she's drinking 0,5l bottles. I can see how it's difficult when you're struggling with food addiction or eating to cope but it'd be so easy for her to make a few minor changes and start losing weight.

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No. 1554868

I think I am actually retarded! Like slow and mentally challenged, I wanna be a grandma already just a loopy old woman who sits in baggy dresses and says funny things

No. 1554870

I am having the worst stomach pain and diarrhea in my life, I better lose a few pounds after this lol

No. 1554886

Old men over the age of 70 who don't take care of grandkids or provide for their families should be euthanized. There's this hideous skinny old man who always sits at the trainstop staring at people and talks shit when a person he doesn't like or girls as young as 13 walk by. He smokes and looks completely and utterly disgusting. Why aren't these useless disgusting moids just pushed off a cliff? He sits there for as long as his cancer ridden body can and walks back to his disgusting apartment that probably is infested and never been cleaned. I truly hate looking at these miserable half corpses harassing other people and women and people giving them a pass because "he's just s lonley old man". One of these days a group of young moids will knock his teeth out and i wish to see that live in action.

No. 1554905

>>1554840
>>1554843
>>1554844
Thanks nonnies. The vent thread is doing its job because these comments really do help keep me hating and not allowing me to fall into my emotions.

What I should have known and can now woefully confirm: never give moids a crumb. Even the most unfortunate specimens will grow an ego the size of China if you compliment them or allow them to feel like they have any value. They are not your friends, they will never understand where you're coming from, they will never respect you, and they will always put other scrotes and their latent homosexuality above you. Maybe I sound bitter due to recent happenings, but this is just a confirmation of all the things I've ever known deep down anyway.

No. 1554940

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It's weird how my brother is seen as more sane than me despite regularly tard raging, punching the furniture, punching/slamming doors, the walls, whatever's in the house really, and going on schizophrenic rants, yet I'm seen as a crazy dramatic bitch for being socially awkward and having boundaries. Maybe because he had more jobs? I'm genuinely surprised he hasn't tried to hurt anyone there or myself yet with the shit he says. Maybe I really am crazy, because I feel like I'm losing my mind at how he's allowed to get away with this and still treated with decency while I'm talked down to like a retarded child. I don't think the world is real anymore.

No. 1554944

>>1554940
It's because he's male, nonna. Males get a pass on being angry because they branded anger as a non emotion.

No. 1554945

>>1554693
They feel the same to me

No. 1554948

>>1554693
Cut dicks are dry and ugly, but besides that, cutfags usually have death grip syndrome and require harsh pounding that is not pleasing to nut, then they will blame you're too loose if you're not gripping his dick like a fist because they do it twice a day and killed their sensibility. I'd rather not have sex with a moid if he's cut.

No. 1554950

>>1554851
It’s not replacing programming kek

No. 1554951

>>1554592
Late reply but you probably get ignored by men because you are ugly. If no fugly male in a modwest suburb wants to fuck you it's not because of your tits because a midwest male would fuck a block of cheese with a hole drilled into it.

No. 1554955

>>1554951
>a block of cheese with a hole drilled into it
This is why I keep coming to lolcow. These accurate descriptors are beautiful.

No. 1554963

When I load this page the boxes load and the dissappear leaving a gap. When I tap on the space the box reappears again, is it just me????

No. 1554964

>>1554963
You accidentally hit "hide saged posts" at the top of the thread.

No. 1554969

ever look at a picture of your moid and realize how fucking ugly he is

No. 1554978

>>1554969
I do this with my (female) crush sadly

No. 1554985

My mom called the guy I'm overthinking about a "low test man". I am in tears of laughter. She is not wrong but I didn't expect this from her.

No. 1554992

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I don't understand how I manage to have normal friends who love me for who I am. I always feel like a weirdo even if I'm pretty decent at hiding my autism. They make me feel normal and accept my weird quirks, I feel like a dog that is accepted among a group of cats for who I am and they don't mind and consider me one of their close ones. They are there to pick me up whenever I fall into my deepest pits and I do the same for them. I don't deserve them.

No. 1554995

>>1554964
Aaaaah tysm!!!

No. 1555027

>>1554950
The video suggested otherwise

No. 1555030

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how the fuck is getting ignored by men real…unless you have no contact with them, be +30yo or landwhale tier obese, they always find a way to talk to you. its only more difficult to get them buy or gift you pricey/nice things if you're really fugly, but even a "mid" woman can make a moid buy her something. not getting everything for free doesn't mean you're ugly, it only means you aren't a stacy

No. 1555037

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>>1551367
i am so stressed i just crying my eyes out. the bills never end. therapy psychiatry eye doctor had to see primary for being sick dental bills car insurance rent food gas medical bills credit card bills necessities then i just got two parking tickets for doing something nice to myself and going to ballet last night. i was stupid but i just didnt know where to park and it was my second time in the city. i dont have all this money. im in college and working. nobody in my family cares or helps which is fine i cannot be spoiled at 22 i shouldnt be but it hurts is all. my father has given my older sister handouts who isnt even our blood yet he is the reason i even have spent so much on mental health for my ptsd and i see not a cent. did he rape her and she threatens to tell everyone? i just dont understand. why am i unlucky? is suicide the only escape from debt? it doesnt feel worth it anymore all i can do is cry. ill try to be strong but its never ending.

No. 1555040

Work is so painfully boring and I feel my cells dying every time I sit down for another 8 hour computer session where I repeat the same thing to people over and over again
i'm so boredddddddddddddddddddddddd

No. 1555055

>>1554862
She is getting surgery without adjusting her eating habits beforehand???? Does she think the surgery is magic? If you eat like shit you can be just as morbidly as someone who doesn't have the surgery, it's an aid, not a cheat code.

No. 1555057

>>1554863
Good take.

No. 1555061

>>1554863
Good take.

No. 1555064

>>1555061
It's an extremely bad take, as if artists never existed outside of consumerism
Artists were present from the dawn of mankind and throughout all social systems worldwide

No. 1555065

>>1555055
It's weird because she seems to have done her research and she knows that, but I'm sure she got lazy and didn't take it seriously enough until the last moment. Probably because she was supposed to get the surgery in early 2020 and it got postponed so maybe she didn't want to get her hopes up? Or maybe she thought she should instead eat whatever she wants until it's too late and she'll never be able to pig out again so she might as well treat herself to whatever quantity of food she wants. I don't really know, I'm sure she's an emotional eater on top of that so that doesn't help. She only ate liquid the whole week before surgery because the doctor told her it was mandatory and I doubt she disobeyed him, we'll see how it goes later, and out other friends and I will try to avoid eating out in restaurants with her, we'll find other ideas. I like walking, if she gets better and sticks to good diet and gets in better shape maybe we'll be able to travel together without her feeling like shit and painfully waddling and huffing until we reach the nearest coffee shop, that would be great.

No. 1555068

>>1555030
I might be answering to bait, but if it's not, I wonder if the reason I can't relate to this post is some kind of cultural difference, because I don't think scrotes are easily giving gifts to women around here, unless they are rich maybe, or maybe beauty privilege is a real thing and I'm just ugly. Either way, I wouldn't want to be getting gifts from scrotes, it comes with the implicit pressure to have sex with them.

No. 1555069

I applied to an art school with a pretty good reputation with 4 FUCKING different "exams" (by that i mean portfolio, drawing exam, artistic knowledge written exam and interview with the teachers) and also other criterias to enter. I mainly want to enter to get the diploma to put in my CV and complete my portfolio tbh.
But this morning i was browsing the site of the school and got into the list of the final year students. Basically they almost all have links to their portfolios or their last project. And deadass half of them draw more or less like picrel. Some have cool projects, some have weird/contemporary portfolios and idk what they are doing in a school mainly focused on illustration and design but a shit ton of them draw like she/them-autistic-neurodivergent-nb lesbian artists. Somehow i'm not shocked but really disappointed (especially knowing they were final year students and some were mentioning internship at studios and publishers)

No. 1555072

>>1555030
>30yo or landwhale tier obese
This part makes me think you're a male. I have morbidly obese friends who had hot bfs and even cheated on them, 30+yo women also get a ton of attention.
If a woman is complaining about getting no attention, she means she's not getting any normal, healthy man interested in having a stable relationship with her. Any woman can get male attention but it's hard to find a normal guy to have a good relationship with.

No. 1555073

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>>1555069
Fuck me the image didn't attach

No. 1555075

>>1555073
I would bet my left toe a white person drew this. it deadass looks like a racist caricature.

No. 1555088

i hate having extreme abandonment issues

No. 1555095

My brother gets off on people arguing with him so I usually will say my piece but never go back and forth with him. I've decided to just talk to him when necessary which is basically like when my mom wants me to tell him something on her behalf. I've noticed recently he will show up at any given time to tell me whatever nonsense is on his mind and I'm pretty sure it's because he's noticing I'm withdrawing more and more from him.
It's starting to piss me off since he come to my room just for something as stupid as a fun fact about a video game character. His scrote tendencies make my skin itch like never before. I used to be so good at ignoring it, but now that I'm on holiday with him, I can't get away. He will say something inflammatory or stupid to get a reaction out of me and I don't know how long I can keep my cool. I'm so tired of him.

No. 1555097

I hate my family so much I'm going to go back to not doing hugs again. I don't care if it pisses them off I'm already the blacksheep let's solidify it

No. 1555101

>>1555073
unpopular opinion: i dont hate this. im drawn into the way the faces are drawn and the way the style clash. There is an unerving feeling to it(which I don't think was intentional) where you feel like you know the people in the drawing but at the same time you don't. Had this not been fanart but original characters with realistic and less-anime hair then im sure I would have liked it as one of those "people doing mundane stuff that the viewer gets a glimpse at" types of drawings.
Anyway if you do get into the art school anon then I hope you get to learn alot and they don't force you to draw in some twitter style

No. 1555104

>>1555095
take a period shit with the door open and if he says it sounds or smells disgusting, say this is what he sounds to you when he opens his mouth.

No. 1555111

>>1555073
It's funny because the artist who drew this meant it as a joke.

No. 1555127

there's nothing wrong with doing skincare as a man
your hair not looking greasy is a big plus
so women use all these products to groom themselves but men cant even be bothered to was their hair regularly and use a moisturizer
smh this is some dumb shit

No. 1555130

>>1555127
the bar is so fucking low for them even putting deodorant is high standard hygiene for scrotes.

No. 1555134

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One of my coworkers is pregnant and i have a genuine phobia of pregnancy and babies, it's making my stress with my job skyrocket, its worse with babies, i cannot be in the same room as a newborn, i dont know why nonitas, they just freak me out in the most primal spider-clown way, the only time some relatives of mine forced me to hold a baby it vomited on me and it made my phobia 200% times worse, i spent like three hours shaking in my bath unresponsive, I tried therapy but they didnt have resources for something so unusual and exposure didnt work for me.
They're planning a baby shower for when the kid is able to come out (its a family owned business) and I think im just gonna pretend I may have a suspicion of covid and work home office.

No. 1555151

i hate the word queer. this is the only place i can say that without getting accused of homophobia or being an evil terf or something.
i just had this low views video recommended on youtube that was like 'how a queer couple in ukraine is reacting to the war' and im like… for fucks sake guys shut up. its okay to just say you're gay noone gaf about your 'queer identity' what a stupid term

No. 1555154

>>1555130
very true but the one that pisses me off the most is not brushing teeth and having that dirty mouth smell. they can get so defensive or offended if you mention this
it's so weird when a guy smells like…nothing

No. 1555159

>>1555154
I really wonder where some of you live

No. 1555163

>>1555159
why? there will always be men who don't take care of themselves
you'd be surprised how many of them who work in IT and can actually afford shit are completely ignorant of taking care of themselves
>earn shitload of money
>still don't get braces or fix your teeth, let them be yellow
it literally makes me rage

No. 1555164

>>1555159
working IT or riding the bus/metro makes you heavily question the hygiene of the male species.

No. 1555165

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im so tired of my dad calling me a pervert and throwing a tantrum every time he walks in on me changing when it's his fault because he doesn't knock on my door. of course i don't want my dad watching me change my clothes so he could just knock right? i told him that today and he started getting really mad and said that he will just take the door to my bedroom off of the hinges, which he has done many times before. i am not allowed to move out due to legal reasons. anyways so i said why would you threaten to take away my privacy when you could just knock instead and it would take only a few seconds? and he starts talking about how i have to earn my privacy and that i don't deserve it because i was in bed earlier this morning when he wants me to be awake by 8am every day. but i was awake i was just sitting in bed reading but he says i can't be in my bed either. so i asked where else i am supposed to sit and he said that i should be in the living room spending "family time". but it's not even family time because my dad remarried to a terrible woman that hates me and she made rules that my dad and i can't snuggle anymore and we can't sit next to each other on the couch and she asked my dad to tell me to stop talking to her unless it's absolutely necessary. also i didn't do anything mean to her she just felt jealous of my relationship with my dad when i moved in but he said that we can't really talk a lot around her because we have to be the bigger people and appease her.

No. 1555166

>>1555163
Sure, there will always be someone like that, I for one can never forget the stench of one of my co-workers feet. I was reacting to
>it's so weird when a guy smells like…nothing
Gives the impression everyone around you stinks

No. 1555167

>>1555134
Same thing happened to me at work about a year ago. Except when I vented about it, anons were butthurt when I said pregnancy made me uncomfortable kek. I hated seeing her bump, it looked painful. I also had a creepy coworker that was a little too into this woman’s pregnancy and was always asking to rub her belly and “talk to the baby”. Said coworker also threw her a baby shower at work and it was kinda expected that everyone go. I cringed and felt out of place the whole time. Then when she brought the baby to work, I couldn’t be in the same room very long. I didn’t understand the need to hold a baby. I’m glad I’m not alone in this phobia. Probably stay home from the shower if it makes you anxious, there will definitely be a lot of baby talk.

No. 1555168

>>1555165
your father is projecting hard, he is walking on you changing on purpose, change your locks, your father is a pervert. I would inform his wife of that too.

>forcing you to spend time with family

he wants you to be around him so he can tell you to do things for him (i.e. breakfast when he wakes up), don't fall for it, he doesn't give a fuck about family time.

No. 1555169

>>1555167
>and was always asking to rub her belly and “talk to the baby”
Your coworker is a Sim

No. 1555171

>>1555165
Lock your room when you're changing. He's creeping on you on purpose.

No. 1555177

>>1555171
>>1555168
there was a lock when we moved in but he took it off and once when i was really upset because he wouldn't stop looking at me naked i called him a creep and he said i'm disgusting for sexualizing the situation but i was like 14 and i think i should have privacy for changing at that point he is just really anti privacy i wasn't allowed to shower alone until i was 14 too ;_; and i'm not a super bad kid i don't do drugs or have sex and i'm not mean and i don't have a disability so yeah i've tried to explain this to him before but he always just starts yelling and tells me to get out of his face also his wife thinks that im a pervert too because my dad and i were cuddling naked and she walked in and took it the wrong way i guess but we always did that and it wasn't even my idea plus i was only 13 so its not really weird but yeah she would never talk back to my dad(;_;)

No. 1555178

>>1555169
Kek. I’m glad she’s gone, she was off in many ways. She would have angry meltdowns when anyone had her photo taken (this is a public servant job and it’s expected to have your face out there for “good press” at events). She told us she arranges her money in the order of the serial numbers. Also just plain nasty, would let her stinky feet air out in the office.

No. 1555183

>>1555167
Im so glad im not alone anon its honestly a pretty lonely phobia and i always felt "othered" from womanhood because everyone else seems either neutral or ecstatic about babies and pregnancy, people dont bother me too much about it because they assume im younger than my actual age (nobody cared enough to figure out im in my mid 20s not a 19 year old intern lol) so im not expected to be "motherly", your coworker sounds terrifying tbh, id rather touch maggots than a swollen stomach.
>>1555178
All of the creepy deviantart weird fetishes as one person. traumatizing.

No. 1555184

>>1555177
>Thinks cuddling with father naked is normal
Your father is sexually harassing you and that's why his new wife hates you. You have a weird relationship, a father shouldn't go into her daughters room without knocking if she warns him.

>his wife thinks that im a pervert too because my dad and i were cuddling naked and she walked in and took it the wrong way

If this isn't literal bait, you're also a pervert. If I were his wife, I'd report your father for incest and leaved him. I hope both her and you manage to get away from him.

No. 1555185

>>1555177
Anon, this is incestuous abuse. This is not normal relationship for a daughter and father. You say you don’t have a disability, so why are you still living with him? You need to work on getting away.

No. 1555187

>>1555177
The naked cuddling thing you described is sexual abuse. Your dad is a pedophile.

No. 1555190

>>1555165
>>1555177
not sure if underage or not but try getting into contact with a female teacher you trust. or any other female adult. you don't have to spill the entire situation but it would help to maybe…be able to escape what sounds like a very terrible household, what the fuck.

you're not a pervert either, your dad is the creep here.

No. 1555192

>>1555190
>>1555187
>>1555185
She sounds disabled or very young, normal girls don't think it's normal to cuddle naked. She said something about her not being able to get away legally which makes me thinks she's either disabled or underage as well.
She should alert a female relative.

No. 1555194

>>1555177
your dad is a nonce and it makes it worse that you "always did that". like the other anon said the wife should have reported your creepy dad and but you really sound underage. also don't use emoticons here next time i hope you get out of there asap. i'm filled with so much rage on your behalf please don't believe any deflective thing he tells you, he's projecting, there's no reason why YOU would be the pervert on somebody that's walking in on you doing your private business. honestly hope he gets crippled

No. 1555196

I am tired of crying every single day of my life

I cry what feels like every single day of my life, it's not normal

No. 1555198

>>1555177
Aw anon, what your father is doing is sexual abuse. Don't worry about what his wife thinks, you're not a pervert and she's probably saying that to ignore the reality (that her husband was molesting his daughter). It's not normal to shower with your children, cuddle them naked, or watch then change. None of that should happen at any age. Don't let your father convince you of otherwise and you're not the disgusting one. Please reach out to someone you can trust if you need help.

No. 1555200

>>1555184
>you're also a pervert
She's not a pervert retard, her father is molesting her.

No. 1555203

>>1555196
Where do you cry?
I bet it's not outside. Go outside more.

No. 1555207

>>1555177
Do whatever you need to do to keep yourself safe and get the fuck out of there. What he shows you is not love.

>>1555184
Idiot, she was 13. She's not a pervert, she was literally pushed into thinking weird shit is normal.

No. 1555212

>>1555203
Everything in my life sucks and no matter how I try and recirculate and cope with my trauma my least maladaptive mechanism is sobbing my ass off

I'm in my car right now and late to class
Of course I don't like to cry outside, nobody does. Nobody likes people to see them cry. Gotta go put on the mask of sanity and happiness and learn math I suck at now

No. 1555218

>>1555027
The video is retarded

No. 1555225

>>1554042
>i only see him once a week
if you can already feel this at this point, it will get worse when you'll have to see him everyday.

No. 1555228

>>1555207
>>1555200
Nta but she meant if it's someone pretending to be a molested girl then they're a pervert hence the "if it's not bait"

No. 1555230

>>1555228
She said "if it's not bait then you're a pervert". Meaning that if it's real then OP is a pervert.

No. 1555235

>>1555177
anon I hope you're able to leave this environment, that's not normal. please tell me you have a female relative or a therapist or a female friend you can confide this in, it's not normal

it's not even just covert, emotional incest, which is still gross and disruptive, he's touching you. that's not okay. I hope you're able to find a better more sheltered environment to stay in, your father is a creepy abuser

No. 1555241

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>>1555072
not a scrote, i had my doubts when i wrote that because yeah, being obese doesn't repel moids, it just attracts weirdos. while being older than 30 barely has an effect in attraction to scrotes, despite "the wall" bullshit they spread like a virus. no woman gets ignored by scrotes unless you're really old, because their rape ape minds fetishize everything, even deformities.
but its retarded to believe there's such a thing as getting attention from a "good" scrote, they're all rape apes or emotionally retarded, and their attention has no value because you can get plenty of it very easily. some of them being pretty or rich makes their attention more interesting, but not more valuable, they're all the same anyways. the chances of finding a scrote that isn't manipulative or emotionally useless are closer to zero

No. 1555244

Sometimes I wonder if I exaggerate how violent my mom was when I was a kid. I'll remember her punching me but then think "maybe I remember the punches as harder than they actually were", but then she does shit that validates my feelings. She's a mega Karen who'll rage at any employee. Yesterday I joined her for a shopping trip and she nearly threw a rage fit because this coupon app on her phone wouldn't work. She said "I'm about to smash my phone into the fucking ground" and got angry at me, nearly storming off, when I tried to help her with the app.

We're low class, but I hate how she ACTS it. While shopping, she absolutely had to go outside for a cigarette break. And for this cigarette break, she had to buy a fucking soda and a small bag of chips. 55 years old, wearing converse and ripped skinny jeans, smoking, eating chips, and drinking soda in public. I'm not some teenager who's always embarrassed by their parents but my mom never matured past 14.

No. 1555248

>>1555230
She probably meant the inverse then.

No. 1555250

>>1554693
NTAYRT but can confirm. A well maintained and clean one can feel silky but firm. Some dudes are unlucky and end up looking like stretched out, bunched up panty hose but thankfully I haven't encountered those in my limited experience kek

No. 1555252

>>1555225
i needed to hear this cause i keep telling myself that one day he's going to mature or see things the way i do. i feel so fucking stupid. i know i need to leave or at least distance myself but he's one of the only people i'm close to, i don't know what to do. i feel so lost and retarded for wanting to hurt myself over a man

No. 1555255

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I'll keep being an intern on my college for free for another three months because I'm retarded and didn't put some papers in order on time. Which was fine until my boss started this 4D chess psychology game trying to psychoanalyze me every single time and it's become unbearable.
I basically quiet quit over it, but now she keeps pestering me about my lack of initiative and is telling me about how now I only do the bare minimum. She asked what we can do to get me motivated, and wants an answer for today, when the truth is the only thing that could motivate me would be her getting the fuck out.
My classmate worked her ass off as an intern in the university and still didn't get a job offer, so I don't see a point in keep trying, and I'm honestly happier doing my retarded YouTube videos on the side.
I guess I'll make up a bullshit answer and do my job as best as possible because otherwise these three months will continue on being hell.

No. 1555258

>>1554905
I wish you healing and health nona

No. 1555262

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>>1555235
>>1555190
i don't have any living female relatives or any relatives outside of my dad actually and he pulled me out of school when i was 13 because he felt like i couldn't handle the pressures of skipping a grade which was something my mom made me do and i wasn't ready to start highschool and i've just kinda been in limbo since then also i can never say anything bad about my dad irl because nobody will believe me because once i accidentally told a therapist information that she has to report legally about my dad drinking alcohol while driving and he just told everyone that i was confused and i made it up but i wasn't confused cause i saw the bottle and it was titos vodka and he smelled like it too but everyone believed him and not me even though he has 4 DUIs which is when you drive drunk and get in a car crash anyways i just wanted to vent in this thread cause my dad is so annoying. at least he's at work most of the time now also he always talks about how he hates me too movement and false rape accusations and how women always get believed and stuff so i would never imply that he's a molester or something even though i found some weird stuff on his computer but he had stuff of old women too

No. 1555263

>>1555255
6 months unpaid is criminal

No. 1555267

>>1555262
Maybe you can avoid accusing him to his face? I would secretly record him admitting to the inappropriate things he's done (if you can legally do that in your own home where you are), and then report him to the police.

No. 1555297

>>1555262
Anon, you need to leave this environment. The discomfort and stress you feel about everything is the sensible part of your mind fighting through the gaslighting your father has put you through all these years. You’re not at fault for anything and you don’t need to confront your father about any of it. Men like him will lie about anything to make things easier for themselves.

Your father is an abuser, his new wife not being able to challenge him and being competitive with a child is also because of his being an abuser. It’s the only type of woman that can choose a relationship with him. You can 100% be free of all of this.

There’s no law that means you have to live with him. Nobody is legally required to live with anyone, especially when they are dangerous. “Naked cuddling” and showering with your
daughter is child abuse. Use fact that it’s happened against your will to remind yourself that it’s abnormal.

Taking you out of school (and obviously not replacing your education with anything) is actually illegal. You are legally entitled to an education and a safe comfortable home, which he is not providing. Please contact child services or even go any random high school to ask for help and a councillor.

Your father can’t lie against you in this case, your wellbeing is the priority. Taking the door off your room is also inexcusable and proof of his misbehaviour. His ranting against me too is probably intended to discourage you (aside from being part of his misogyny). Make a list of all the things he’s done that made you feel uncomfortable or different from other normal kids. Take it to the police or any councillor you get in contact with. I wrote this assuming you’re underage.

No. 1555300

>>1554863
Good take.

No. 1555302

>>1555057
>>1555061
>>1555300
Is it a good take?

No. 1555304

>>1554863
Anon didn't say she made a living off of being an artist tho

No. 1555317

I'm tired of moids thinking everything is up for debate. Goes from, I won't listen to x artist because I don't approve of their personal life (said artist was a pedophile), yet moid wanted to argue to the point where he was saying I should move to Africa and live off the land, since money in the US is morally corrupt.

Bitch, no. My opinions and personal beliefs aren't up for debate. Especially stupid ones.

No. 1555322

>>1555317
>Especially stupid ones

Not wanting to listen to an artist because they're a pedo isn't stupid, imo

No. 1555328

fuck it im gonna get blitzed af and ignore him, why shouldn't i go chaos mode i can do what i want

No. 1555336

File: 1682022975570.jpg (Spoiler Image, 33.58 KB, 512x405, 1670499554579.jpg)

>>1554693
Spoiler for dickpic. Had an ex with actual phimosis and I can’t recommend phimosis dick. However, he ended up getting cut and I can confirm uncut dick is so much better. Felt bad for his fucked up dick. Him getting circumcised did improve our sexlife due to his medical issue, but I always longed for that uncut dick. Circumcised penis creates too much friction, and like other anons said guys who are cut end up needing to jackhammer to get off, which is bad when their dick already feels like sandpaper. I am blessed to live in an area where circumcision is largely unheard of, so I’m used to the way uncut looks and prefer it. The thing about uncut dick being dirty is a cope. If you can’t even find a guy who knows how to keep his dick clean you should just give up.

No. 1555339

god i hope this annoying they/them woman i know doesn't get what she wants. it's nothing life-changing, it's as inconsequential as getting a certain seat at the bar. but fuckkk i hope she doesn't get the "seat", she's such an asshole.

and she's bitter, a kill-joy, overly critical, a total suck up, a liar, a gossiper, she only gets through things by pandering hard to whatever central "clique" exists, the list goes on and on. putting my hands together in prayer just this once that she's too late kek

No. 1555371

You have failed to realize that what I wanted and was seeking was you understanding me, not pitying me. I am not your charity case nor do I need it.
>>1555367
this made me kek, thanks nonna

No. 1555376

File: 1682025382041.png (Spoiler Image, 7.37 KB, 1378x1378, Untitled44_20230420220906.png)

Third times the charm but is picrel cut or uncut?

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No. 1555381

>>1555376
Some uncut dicks look like that when they're hard.

No. 1555395

looking at photos of me from only a few months ago & i dont even recognise myself
i havent really changed i just.
idk. i cant believe i looked like that. my sense of self image is so warped that i look back on pictures that i remember hating myself in, and im like. oh. i look okay here actually. but then i look at myself now and i viscerally hate myself even though i am in fact the same person & i doubt i look all that different.
i cant even look at myself nonnas. i did a job application recently which i refused to finish and send off bc it required a picture of yourself for ID. even though i really need work rn. i hate myself so much

No. 1555427

umm nonnies what do you think about men who play as female characters in video games? my fiance is playing as a female in cyberpunk and i was like um isn't that the game where you can customize your genitals and he said he skipped it. still giving me the ick.

No. 1555429

File: 1682027134099.jpg (106.08 KB, 3508x2480, blank-white-page.jpg)

>>1555381
Wrong they look like this

No. 1555430

>>1555427
Homosexual

No. 1555440

>>1555165
Anons lets all say a prayer that her father befalls severely paralyzing misfortune. Amen.

No. 1555447

>>1555429
that is a phimosis dick, the skin goes off the head once it's hard

No. 1555452

>>1555427
coomer or troon

No. 1555453

>>1555447
Oh so we're going to have to start using tone tags now? Fuck this place

No. 1555476

>>1555429
Not all. The foreskin isn't really supposed to be like that.

No. 1555486

>>1555476
Remember when jokes were a thing

No. 1555490

>>1555427
Congrats on your wife, nona!
Jokes aside he's a coomer probably, I've heard guys say they like watching their female character from behind while playing.

No. 1555512

I wish I was rich and famous with a fucking "team" and assistants to handle all of my shit and make me look good and handle my PR for me

No. 1555524

>>1555427
So in Cyberpunk your protagonist's name is V and you can choose between the male or female version. To be fair the female voice acting is WAY better than the male one. I started a new game with the male version and ended up quitting and starting over again with the female version, just because his voice was so annoying kek

No. 1555556

File: 1682032402218.png (1.65 KB, 63x53, U5LU8ug.png)

crypto nonnies how do you deal with gender/libfem/etc. things online? what's your coping strategy? i really am at the point where i'm biting my tongue (or wringing my fingers really to keep myself from typing something that will expose me) whenever i have to see something called "gender", or people say phrases like "masculine and feminine populations", or the ever popular "jkr is LITERALLY killing trans people" whining. tit scars also make me flinch. i can't really escape it in fandom spaces though. is growing a thicker skin the only option? must i become an internet hermit? i dunno what to do.

No. 1555566

>>1555430
LMAO
>>1555452
>>1555490
>>1555524
fr I straight up told him you're giving me the ick and he said he understands where I'm coming from and he's sorry but he thought it would be cool since she's like "an actress from bladerunner or like the ghost in the shell lady"
this is after I told him only coomers do that shit and you can customize boobs and everything and have sex with prostitutes in game. and how he literally just started playing since he got a new monitor and spammed through the options like enable nsfw settings via pressing enter over and over to start the game finally.


I get his reasoning but I'm cold shouldering him anyways cause it's weird and creepy to me still. I told him there's males in bladerunner and he didn't know what to say lmfao. I understand if it's something like apex legends but in a game where you can make your own character, weird as hell. he despises trannies so definitely not gonna troon out btw
I haven't played the game so idk how annoying the male voice actor is. he was playing some scene where he drove a car into 3 hobos near a lit barrel(?) and a billion enemies come out shooting at him idk how far that is in the game kek I just play stardew valley I don't know this shit

No. 1555574

File: 1682033031017.jpg (90.7 KB, 950x930, FthdTOZacAA4DV8.jpg)

When I get a bf to gobble and swallow and my life improves you bitches will know because I will be levitating 500 ft off the ground and ending global warming and world hunger simultaneously thanks

No. 1555577

>>1555566
I was joking when I replied homosexual to your post. In total honesty if this is your only red flag you are sabatoging your own relationship and making a mountain out of a molehill over something as mundane as playing a female character because she looks hot. It doesn't actually mean anything if there isn't other behaviors attached to it.

No. 1555581

File: 1682033325131.jpg (124.48 KB, 736x981, d227b6c37ecd1c82c15a8a9365a59e…)

So I saw this TikTok about people bullying a guy online because he wasn't sharing his answers to his class and he doesn't want them to leach off his work. There were 1000s of comments saying how "EverybOdY iS JUsT TrYinG tO SuRviVe" like they're just being over dramatic. I also was like this, I used to never to talk to this one guy but whenever I needed help/ catching up with work/ answers. I feel like this is a really really shitty thing to do. No one is obligated to help you. Also some people were being so empathetic like "I'm gonna still give them the answers cz everybody trynna survive". Boy sthu

No. 1555589

>>1555581
Leeches are "trying to survive", but not enough so to actually do their homework or pay attention in class, let alone study for tests.
Do they think the person they are copying from pulled it out of their ass? They put in the work while leeches where scrolling social media and playing phone games in class.

I hate such people. I don't care about sharing my work with friends who share other things with me, but feeling entitled to some random person's work is insane levels of obnoxious. These people must be insufferable in person.

No. 1555593

>>1555577
I know I just thought it was funny nonnie lol. there are some other things that happened in the past which is why I was Ew about it and also moids typically do it because they're coomers and I can't be marrying a potential coomer, don't hate myself that much

No. 1555617

>>1555486
Sorry anon. The joke wasn't that jokey.

No. 1555622

am i just being too sensitive for being extremely upset that my bf has gone to his friend's house to celebrate 4/20 with him, his friend's girlfriend and whoever else is there, while im home alone doing nothing. we always smoke together and he didn't ask me to hang out or go or anything. maybe he didn't think it's a big deal but damn this hurts bad and he always goes over there without me

No. 1555634

>>1555581
spoiler this shit gaddamn it

No. 1555656

>>1555634
but why?

No. 1555666

>>1555622
Wtf I’d be so fucking angry

No. 1555676

>>1555556
If I see a braindead gendie take I screenshot it and post it in the twitter hate or tumblr thread on /ot/

No. 1555681

>>1555617
You're just autistic

No. 1555688

File: 1682039553819.jpeg (125.76 KB, 545x770, 4736934E-FB3D-4B7E-9FFA-498FF7…)

I have a stye

No. 1555690

>>1555688
Deserved

No. 1555709

File: 1682041878680.jpeg (6.09 KB, 230x219, dulia.jpeg)

>>1555688
No worries, it's cured now

No. 1555710

File: 1682041919784.jpg (56.39 KB, 498x497, 20140507.jpg)

Okay, this is so strange.
I wished karma upon someone like, one hour ago, and I just received a message on facebook from him telling me that his phone was stolen.
Wtf?????

No. 1555722

When people ask me if I said anything because they said something rude, i get heated:
A: you have a bug eyes
Me: …
A: Sorry did you say something?

Idek why it gets on my nerves but it does. Stop expecting a response from me just because you're an idiot.

No. 1555723

>>1555656
nta but the image choice is soooo coomer

No. 1555730

>>1555666
thank u nona, yeah i am hurting real bad. i've been randomly super anxious all day like something bad was going to happen and then he tells me he's going over there to hang out. so now i just feel crazy and upset

No. 1555751

shame on me for expecting something normal from a moid but I just found out my dance instructor (gay male) is in a relationship with a hon and he is helping at least three kids (ages 12 to 15) transition without their parents even knowing it

No. 1555754

For the past month, I've been feeling neutral good to relatively happy with the sun slowly making its way out of winter. I had tired and lazy and stressed days but nothing bad. Out of the blue two days ago, I was at the bottom of moods, crying for no reason, having suicidal ideas, feeling out of it, etc. My back was hurting a lot, so that probably contributed to it(I've been having injuries with working out for the past two months.) Even distanced myself from a few friends because I knew I would otherwise snap at them. Today, things are feeling better and I don't know why I had such a drastic mood change. I'm not on my period or near it, so I'm going to rule out hormonal changes. Kind of scared it might point to something big.

No. 1555771

its been a long time since i vented here. I really cant take my parents messy habits anymore. my friends told me: "stop trying to change what you cant change" but how tf can i ignore it if they themselves tell me to clean up the mess they make. i dont understand how they can excuse making that much of a mess. I'm finishing a degree and weirdly enough, my parents also DONT want me to get a job. i want to move out already. i fucking hate it here. fuck them and their retarded hoarding. i fucking wish theyd just stop. i have no one else to rant to i just fucking hate it ill expect to get banned cuz i sound ridiculous atm. im just so angry

No. 1555776

>>1554863
how does that have anything to do with what i said? i dont make money off art, its just a hobby for me. It's annoys me that they are trying to replace humans in something inherently human like art for fucking profit.

No. 1555783

File: 1682050438127.png (234.41 KB, 600x337, 123123.png)

Resolving to change my mindset little by little but it's gonna be a long journey based on things so far. I realized I am weak-willed and lean into what my feelings/body tell me to do, which is be a lazy depressed pos, instead of learning diligence and logical thinking. I hate the talk around 'gifted kids' but it's true that if you achieve good grades, good behavior and so on easily when you're younger, you're at risk of becoming complacent and never noticing that you didn't learn to live with discipline. Now that's my task because really I am the biggest thing in my way right now. So many of my 'problems' are absolutely worthless if I put aside my feelings on trivial things like my looks, etc. The biggest thing to overcome is how I take refuge in escapism and comfort instead of living a proper, fulfilling life. At times I long for those experiences and the relief/confidence/freedom/stability that would come with them but it's just too easy to keep giving in. Wish me luck nonas it won't be easy.

No. 1555788

>>1555751
>he is helping at least three kids (ages 12 to 15) transition without their parents even knowing it
holy fuck. Is that even legal? like medically?

No. 1555795

I hate the sterile clean gentrified look of everything now I really want the maximalist design trends of the 70's-90's to come back. I'm so sick of everyone pandering to the tech bros and girl bosses like some gleaming building in SF is going to make me forget we have a huge problem with homelessness and mental health we're not addressing when junkies inevitably shoot up and shit all over the place. I want to go to an old pizza hut from the late 80's and pretend there's a thriving middle class America where everyone owns an ugly split level house and a station wagon.

No. 1555797

I'm grateful to be out of my delusion era (psychosis) but it makes it so awkward to see other people that are wildly reactive and obsessive about the moral failings of others still in theirs. Just nasty, annoying, desperate attention starved behaviors to people on the internet you would never tolerate irl oml. Like completely void of self awareness while constantly ripping into other people and no signs of ever growing as people

No. 1555799

>>1555795
You will eat the bugs and you will sleep in the pod

No. 1555804

>>1555795
I get what you're saying but those were just illusions and destined to lead into the current dystopia we live in.

No. 1555813

>>1555336
>can’t recommend phimosis dick.
Does it hurt for the receiver? I know for guys it can hurt a lot but not sure for women.

No. 1555817

I wish there was a way to see twitter likes without signing up. I just want to know if my ex liked a tweet from a breadtuber I hate so I can hate my ex even more

No. 1555827

>>1555817
One time I was browsing and realized the webstie/app was broken when I could browse likes without making an account. I took the opprunity to snoop through the likes of people I wanted to stalk. It was awesome, but of course, it didn't last.

No. 1555831

>>1555817
SA, I made an account anyways because I was bored. Really fucking annoying they demand your phone number now but whatever I'll delete my account soon anyways.

Anyway I found something even more incriminating: liking a tweet that defends child sex abusers in light of the new Florida legislation news. Lmfao I fucking HATE him.

No. 1555846

Something traumatic happened to me and I thought that I could just get over it by repressing. My family begged me to see a counselor, and in the first conversation I had with them they said that I have ptsd and requested emergency psych meds. Makes me fucking sick to think about. I feel so weak and that I failed myself. I hate knowing a random stranger is prodding my brain. I have an appointment coming up and I’m dreading it man. Idc, going into detail about traumatic events doesn’t help. It’s like picking at a scab. Sorry if this is the wrong place.

No. 1555857

I picked up a really bad habit this past month and I don't know how to get rid of it, it's exhausting. I've been second-guessing everything I say? I'm not sure how I can explain it but I've been extra nitpicky over my choice of words and self-expression and the way I carry myself for absolutely no reason. I just rip into myself for the smallest things. How can I stop myself from thinking that way? It started suddenly I don't know how to tackle it in a healthy way

No. 1555862

>>1555795
Come to Eastern Europe, sister. Everything in my household was made in Yugoslavia in the 70s-80s and we're too poor to replace it, but it's kind of a vibe so I don't even mind.

No. 1555864

>>1555857 happens to the best of us Nona. Did someone say something to you recently or humiliated you that made you feel like you had to be more self aware? Try doing something that you’re comfortable and confident with, that you know you can’t second guess yourself. When this happens to me I literally just force those thoughts out and tell myself it’s okay to make mistakes. Also, mostly everyone is too focused on themselves anyways to even noticed if you had lil awkward moment. And if they did, screw it they’re not gonna remember it in 5 years anyways

No. 1555871

>>1555864
Yeah that's very true I usually try to stop my brain draining energy over stupid little details by remembering everyone else is too focused on themselves. Honestly nothing happened in particular, my best guess is that I started overthinking my relationships and my own identity which led to unnecessary dwelling or self-loathing
I just really want to go back to a few months ago when I was normal and didn't bother with any of this mental waste..

No. 1555881

>>1555871
Not trying to sound like a dirty hippie but maybe try meditating? Train your brain to be silent and be in the moment. I know it’s easier said than done but I hope you feel better

No. 1555888

I really don't like the growing trad presence here, you can't clown on religious shit without getting called an edgy reddit atheist, no wonders radfems are getting more virulent.

No. 1555890

>>1555888
glad I'm not the only one that feels this way, it's been getting out of hand. if it's not men ruining a female only space, it's gendies or trads shitting everything up

No. 1555891

Not a good time to get a workplace crush but at least it makes me happy to be awake and I go to bed with a smile. I am finally happy to go to work but this is not enough and I want more than just a friendly chat. And I finally want to be done with all these annoying reports and presentations.

No. 1555896

>>1555888
You weren't clowning on religious stuff, you were making fun of indigenous culture. Tradfags also make fun of cultures like that and of course make fun of every religion aside from Christianity, if anything you're more like a tradfag for making fun of nonwhite cultures and saying you'll keep ding it even though you knew they were genocided for that culture.

No. 1555899

>>1555896
Who the fuck cares, go marvel at some ancient child sacrifice ritual at a volcano

No. 1555904

>>1555896
Ayrt and I was referring to the relationship advice thread on /g/ where a bunch of anons were saying that religious moids are the best, and growing trad shit in troon threads in general, I don't even know what you're talking about.

No. 1555910

>>1555904
Then I apologize, I thought you were the race baiting anon that's been attacking non-white people in /ot/ and saying it's her right to make fun of other cultures.
I agree that a ton of anons in some snow threads are tradchans, that's why I stopped using those snow threads.

No. 1555913

>>1553847
Update us nonna, what happened? Was it some sort of IT issue or did you actually get fired?

No. 1555923

>>1555813
It's been a few years, but I vaguely remember his foreskin feeling almost pointed/sharp because it wasn't as flexible and sliding along with his movements like it's supposed to, and foreskin also has a different texture than the glans. Wearing a condom didn't help a lot, it was like the shape of his dick was wrong kek. He also needed so much force in order to cum, which was the biggest issue for me. Sometimes I literally feared he'd have an aneurysm. Sometimes he just wanted to satisfy me and not bother with getting off himself because it was too much effort, which sounds nice in theory, but because he'd go days without nutting he would have so much pent up energy and ..yeah. I get off on knowing my partner is enjoying himself and getting off. I guess we both had a service mentality and clashed because of that.

On the fun side he was in his late 20s and had never been able to cum with someone until me, although it took us months of us trying, and I gotta admit it stroked my ego when it finally happened (in retrospect him not having been in any other long time relationships was a red flag lol). I wanted him to explore other treatments before getting circumcised because I know it comes with its own host of issues, but it was his choice and our sex life did improve after he got the snip.

No. 1555926

If you know someone is committing a crime that endangers someone else why the fuck wouldn't you go to the police and tell the actual victim? The sky gods aren't going to just suddenly rain down justice on the guy you have to actually collect evidence and send it to the police.

No. 1555932

>>1555926
is this about sexual assault/sex crimes? rapists are rarely charged and the process is usually further traumatizing for victims, so them coming forward doesn't mean they can actually protect future victims of the same perpetrator.

No. 1555934

>>1555910
Anon it's not racebaiting to not make exceptions because of someone's minority status. Everyone's equally human but everyone who believes in fairytales also makes me laugh.

No. 1555935

>>1555932
Its mostly about the same anons who claim to have evidence or knowledge of some scrotes voyeurism and the victims of their voyeurism but wont report it to the police or fbi.

No. 1555936

Im so tired of your ana larp. Its nauseating how desperate you are for attention. You are slowly becoming your haggard bipolar mom. Its sad, but you have burned through so many mental health resources.
Poor lil rich anachan, you are balding and no one cares. Shes a pro ana cow for the books.
Bodyshaming your preteen daughter instead of actually instilling healthy habits makes you a selfish piece of shit.
Like sudoku if you are going to ruin her self value before she even has any, honestly. Why did you fight for custody over her just to fat shame a 12 year old?! You fucking feed her, you leave her alone all day. Shame shame shame

No. 1555943

Why did he block me when he said I was the best he ever had? It’s killing me… I wanna die.

No. 1556009

someone literally stalked me because i was following accounts for a problematic ship that i was using to self harm over my scrote abuser who killed himself.
i want to die. they legitimately stalked me and tied together everything to prove i am a horrible disgusting person over a fictional pairing. i wish i was joking. i feel so fucking sick. i just wanted to make art. i never told anyone. i just was using it to self harm and cope with intrusive thoughts about my abuse. i never pushed it on anyone. i never made any content. i mostly looked at aged up stuff of the character in question or sfw. i never hurt anyone. i just want to die. i know im a disgusting freak. i know i should hate myself. but i don't want to be stalked. i never posted anything. they literally tracked down all of my following even though i had everything privated to prove it in their manifesto. i want to die

No. 1556025

i physically cannot wear white clothes. i wore my white lululemon hoodie today and i just noticed it somehow has a stain. im assuming from my blueberries because its a small purplish blue stain but i have no idea how it got there since i havent even eaten them yet, literally just moved them from the fridge to my work bag. I just bought this hoodie 2 weeks ago and ive already had to do 2 stain removals on it. i swear im not an absolute slob, i wear a lot of neutrals and light colours but i just can not keep white clothes.
so frustrating because i think i look best in white too

No. 1556052

>aspie
>ask crush for a nude as a "joke" thinking he would never do it because he's shy
>he does and he looks super hot
>reply "hahaha that's funny" because i'm a retarded virgin and felt kinda awkward even though i liked it
>he doesn't reply for days
>ask him what's wrong
>says he feels mocked and humiliated
>realize i laughed at his naked body

Now I've made his already shit confidence even worse. I don't know how to recover without being too weird and having to be like "no wait i actually want to have sex with you".

No. 1556054

>>1556025
Oh nonni, I'm the same way. And yes, we look sooo good in white wtf

No. 1556055

>>1556052
Maybe just tell him? What's wrong with saying no wait I actually want to have sex with you?

No. 1556056

>>1556052
>reply "hahaha that's funny"
Damn, it's been a long time since I saw such spaghetti spilling

No. 1556057


No. 1556059

>>1556052
Just say you were surprised he actually sent a pic and were uncomfortable admitting he's hot so you replied like a retard. That's 2 birds in one stone.

I do have to wonder how a supposedly super hot guy has shit self confidence.

No. 1556060

>>1556055
NTA but that would be so awkward, and feel like a pity fuck even if they did end up having sex

No. 1556076

My bf starting to piss me off because he has a phantom pain no doctor can figure out. They've ruled out cancer every bad thing he thinks so many and honest to god he's got a shit diet and he's not very active. I literally have had a proper hospital visit and emergency surgery while dating. Covid and other actually quantifiable illnesses and i just get on with. I literally have a disabled parent that doesn't moan as much. Half the time the pain he's describing sounds like a fucking stitch because he's dehydrated as fuck. This is the least sexual relationship I've ever been in I'm not having fun

No. 1556078

>>1555681
Lol ok, if you say so.

No. 1556101

File: 1682093036640.jpeg (19.11 KB, 375x375, 1635439410495.jpeg)

>raised by a single mom in a violent, poorfag household
>make food before i go back up to my room to work my shitty min wage remote job
>she goes "heh nonnie, i remember when you were a kid i'd try talking you into wanting to become a dentist or a doctor. then i'd be all set"

Fuck you. I'm doing my fucking best. Parents like this have no right to expect anything. She should be grateful I'm no longer on welfare and have a job at all.

No. 1556113

>>1556101
You're doing well, nona. Also, I imagined you're the little dog in your picture, working remotely at the computer.

No. 1556129

>>1556101
what's the shitty min wage remote job? i'm trying to score something like that

No. 1556130


No. 1556147

I don't trust ugly girls, most of them have issues and try to sabotage other women for male validation. This one ugly bitch literally spread rumors around %90 girls she befriended and then she got surprised when the same girls treated her like shit.

No. 1556153

File: 1682098251787.jpg (60.82 KB, 452x604, ugly1.jpg)

>>1556147
Spoken like a true ugly person.

No. 1556155

>>1556147
>most of them have issues and try to sabotage other women for male validation
can confirm , had this happen so many times
the funniest ones were when they were calling me a whore when i was actually a virgin kek

No. 1556158

>>1556147
I personally don't trust insecure people. The ones who always publically complain about their appearance. Its insane.

No. 1556161

File: 1682098569988.png (12.78 KB, 235x212, png.png)

I fucking HATE my family. My dad recently revealed that he was "suffering" too living under my mom's psychotic rule and that he didn't agree with the things she said and did and that just makes it worse. I'm so much angrier at him now knowing that he had a brain under all that and just went along with it and enforced her insanity until she finally divorced him and it was no longer convenient or beneficial to be her yes-man. How do I cope with this? Ever since he told me this I remember it every time I wake up and I'm filled with rage. How could you go along with it? How? How dare you tell me this? It was easier when I thought he was just stupid and deluded by religion, maybe cruel in that unthinking way some people have. But now I know the truth and I can't ever un-know it. I hate him. I hate him almost as much as her.
As a kid I tried to go to him for help many times, thinking one of them had to be the sane parent, surely he could see, and he would always brush me off and act like he didn't believe me. But it turns out the whole time, he knew. He knew and he didn't help me. What the fuck do I do with this information? I can't cut contact with either of them or I won't be able to see my brother anymore. I'm so angry.

No. 1556166

>>1556161
i'm sorry nonna. the sad and painful advice is you're going to eventually have to forgive him for his stupidity and weakness. it's incredibly hard and the process usually involves spending a lot of time screaming at him telling him exactly what you think of him being so much of a pussy manchild mommyneeder that he wouldn't even stand up for his own child

No. 1556171

>>1556147
i never done that, i just stay inside and think about fictional men. someone pretty spreaded rumors about me in middle school though.

No. 1556173

>>1556166
Thank you for responding anon ♥
How do I do that without risking everything? I want to scream and yell, sometimes I think about getting really drunk just to ream him out without dissolving into tears and panic, I think I need to scream and yell. But I need him to be on my side right now, there may be a custody dispute coming up and I want to have rights and visitation if possible. I'm currently playing nice with my mom because that's the only way I'll get visits. I want to say fuck you to both of them and take my sib and disappear but I can't do that. I've always felt so helpless when it comes to my parents. It sucks to feel this way as a full grown adult.

No. 1556174

>>1556101
I hate when parents expect something from you especially when it's finances. They really expect you to be making some 6 figure job or some shit.

No. 1556184

>>1556171
I the anon you're replying to, you're probably not ugly, anon. The ones I'm talking about about are like really really ugly. I'm not just talking about an average girl who doesn't fit supermodel beauty standards. Please don't think this is about you if you're not petty.

No. 1556185

My family brought everyone home to celebrate eid, they never did that before. I wish I could have stayed outside for way longer to escape that shit.

No. 1556198

>>1556147
Not this shit again

No. 1556204

>>1556173
Consider writing down everything that you're feeling now and keep it hidden. Wait until your brother is a legal adult, and then you can go nuts on your dad. Read him the paper then. The waiting part sucks, but it'll assure the fact that your visitation with your brotherwon't be affected.

No. 1556212

>>1556204
Good advice anon, thank you. I do a lot of journaling when I feel overwhelmed but nothing with intent like this. I'm going to try this and I hope it will help.

No. 1556216

I hate summer so much, I walked home from work and already have my face slightly burned reeeeee

No. 1556217

>>1556101
I mean with a few cultural exceptions most people who end up being a doctor or a dentist tend to move out and keep their finances seperate from their parents. Its weird when parents fantasize about their kids growing up to be cashcows who pay back every penny that was ever spent on em

No. 1556223

>>1556101
Medfag and I hate how much I have to study. If my parents forced me into this shit so I'd give them money, I'd move out the moment I graduated like >>1556217 said and not give them a cent.
Doctors or dentists don't even earn a ton so dont feel bad, you're doing your best and you're doing more than most children would at your age. Please don't let your mother take out her own frustrations out of you.
I hope you manage to move out and live a comfortable life away from her.

No. 1556225

>>1556147
>>1556155
Do you really know that many ugly girls? I've just tried to remember all really unattractive girls I knew and stopped at number 5 heh. In my experience, average girls are more likely to behave like that because they feel like they can actually compete with others but they still have real or imaginable flaws to hyperfocus on which can make them act shitty. Pretty girls can be like that too, because appearance is not the only thing to feel insecure about, and some of them could grow up with abusive parents. I used to be considered unattractive (bad skin, bad posture, super thick eyebrows, glasses, cheap baggy clothes) till I was 14, and the girl I was "friends" with back then was a bit dumpier but better looking in overall plus she was an extroverted normie and I was the opposite, she still somehow had to put me down and hated when some guys liked my personality more. I didn't even expect anyone to like me. Some people just can't stand it that they're not the center of attention at all times, and if they find even a single thing that makes you better than them they'll try to grind you into the dirt. I don't think it depends too much on the appearance tbh.

No. 1556228

Great my boyfriend is coming home with a friend. I’m already in my PJs and showered and cozy. We only have this one living room… i think I’ll just hide in the bedroom and pretend to sleep. My introverted ass is NOT happy about that change of plan

No. 1556232

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Today I read some of my diary from when I was 12 and it's so fucking bleak. I knew I was never allowed close my bedroom door until I was 18 but I didn't remember that I wasn't allowed have a lightbulb in my bedroom either in case I would commit the heinous crime of reading a fucking book at night. I asked my mom about it and she said it was just so hard to get me to sleep, it had to be done. But I had insomnia from severe anxiety caused by living in terror from my dad who would strangle, hit, scream at me completely unprovoked on a regular basis. This retarded combo of extreme over-protectiveness/control (over completely insignificant things like reading a book past 8pm) plus absolute negligence (about anything important like being screamed/slapped by a crazed adult man) really fucked me up. I wish they could have at least stayed in one parenting lane even if it was still abusive, at least I could make sense of it in my head. The diary is has pages and pages of "I don't understand why I want to die so badly, I'm from such a good family and have nothing to worry about…". I was so confused and innocent.

No. 1556236

so i recently made the mistake of letting my guard down around a moid, because he is recovering from major cancer surgery and as such i assumed he'd have more important things on his mind than making nauseatingly cringey attempts to flirt with and hit on one of his wife's friends behind her back. lovely. what a gentleman. from what i understand there's a fair chance the cancer will come back and kill him, and right now i hope it does

No. 1556241

>>1554493
I’m so sorry anon I don’t know what to say, just hope that you can get some kind of legal action taken against them. I looked at the Twitter accounts and I’m confused though

No. 1556242

>>1556225
nta but I agree wit hthe anon who said insecurity was a big factor, and also a compulsion to compare yourself with others and come out on top. I've had good friends who people would call really gorgeous or very conventionally unattractive and I think it comes down to: when you interact with them, are they interacting with you as a person, or are their life decisions all about positioning their own status and their own reputation and how they look to everyone else?

No. 1556247

>>1556232
I’m so sorry you had to go through that anon I hope you sleep better these days and if not at least you can read books now

No. 1556248

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>>1556232
Anon, sorry to say that about your mom but it's astonishing how retarded some parents can act. I had a completely different situation but what was similar is this inability to put 2 and 2 together, because then a parent would have to do something about themselves and their lives. Much easier to think that a child is just broken, without any particular reason, and it can be fixed in the most primitive and simplest way. Sucks that you had to go through this.

No. 1556255

File: 1682105302195.jpg (95.24 KB, 720x1075, flowers.jpg)

i'm amazed how clear and relaxed my mind and mood are after working out and how little I feel like obsessing over things I've obsessed in the past days

No. 1556257

File: 1682105543122.jpg (79.91 KB, 564x549, cat.jpg)

One of my personal cows is pregnant with a girl, and I honestly feel really scared for her daughter. She brings strange men around her children and she seems like the type to encourage her daughter to go into sex work somewhere down the line, and also be one of those mothers who bullies her daughter and sees her daughter as competition. She's just not fit to be a mother and tbh she should have her child taken away upon birth, like when junkies get theirs taken away. It's just all so bleak. Her other child (who she basically disowned) is with his father and I really hope that her daughter will go into someone else's custody. You can say that I'm acting like one of those people with a parasocial relationship, but I know it will not end well for her daughter, and I really do feel a pit in my stomach thinking about it.

No. 1556265

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I saw a group of youths today and several of them had broccoli hair. It's disconcerting to see people participate in cattle fashion IRL.

No. 1556268

>>1555910
>nonwhite
GOOOO BAAAAACKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YAAAANKKKKKK

No. 1556270

>>1555566
you're genuinely absolutely retarded. as if you're writing literal paragraphs because your boyfriend wanted to play as a girl in a video game. get help

No. 1556276

>>1555566
>fr I straight up told him you're giving me the ick
>I get his reasoning but I'm cold shouldering him anyways
Fucking hell. What social media site did this creature hail from?

No. 1556292

>>1556232
Sounds just like my parents… Hang in there anon.

No. 1556299

>>1556276

TikTok most likely

No. 1556301

>>1556265
That picture killed me

No. 1556328

File: 1682109854982.jpg (203.67 KB, 720x1200, thefool.jpg)

i'm having some serious fucking cognitive dissonance right now, because why would he tell me i mean everything to him if he doesn't act like it? why has he been with me for so many years if he knows he's hurt me and still hasn't changed?? and still i love him and am trying to treat him with grace. i feel so stupid like how did i even get here

No. 1556332

>>1556270
>>1556276
If a man is spamming yes to play a game fine, but purposely playing a customizable character and saying he didn’t know there was a male option despite it being obvious in game. Thats already the troon redflag glad anon is based and nipping that behavior in the bud but she should just leave him because it’ll just make him hide it more. Dont get anons like you that shit on other anons for their reasons to shit on their moids, go kiss male ass somewhere else and get off lolcow

No. 1556333

>>1556328
i love this image and i love u nonny.

unasked for advice: you're not stupid at all. lots of women try to see the best in others, even deeply flawed people, and that's not a bad thing! it means you are empathetic and kind. but he's taking advantage of your kindness. he will not change. you deserve better.

No. 1556341

>>1556265
Ughhh same. Youth in my culture (latinos specifically mexican americans) Love the ugly "edgar" bowl cut thing. It looks so gross.

No. 1556348

>>1556333
This is the tranny trap poster that's been spamming /m/, be careful. He always types like this. Nonnies on /meta/ have been trying to get him banned for about a week but the mods are not listening. If you see this type of poster, report and ignore so he gets banned. He's been banned multiple times, but he keeps lying about it and avoiding them.

No. 1556362

One of my friends keeps getting physically rough with me when we drink together, like grabbing and shoving me and trying to threaten me and then laughing about it. She’s not a moid but I’ve also noticed that when I’m socializing with new people, moids do that kind of thing a lot and often try to toe the line with me like poking me with stuff and trying to provoke me. I don’t really get why so many people do this stuff with me. I’m told it’s because I seem mean but I feel like I’m just standing there acting normal.

No. 1556363

I hate how smug the neckbeard who doxxed me is after I refused to be in a relationship with him.
He finally got a single mom gf and larps as a dad on weekends sometimes, so of course he can't stop gushing on the internet about what a good, positive life he suddenly has for the past month compared to all le terminally online plebs he makes enemies with. Except he is terminally online himself which is why he's gotta post every fucking hour with some mundane life update while he treats twitter like his diary.

He's fronting like he's happy when just two months ago he was posting my dox. Saying he's so happy with his new touch grass life when not two months ago he was malding on internet statuses about how I wouldn't meet up with him cause I was on a business trip. He saw that I was with another guy and seethed lmao. And what's funny is he still slips in some dis posting trying to kick up drama and call attention to himself, but folks ignore him.
I can tell he's faking all of his forced positivity shit. Nobody who's gotta go on the internet to tell people how happy they are, are actually happy. I'd love to make a troll account just to fuck with his hypocrisy to reveal how fragile he really is. The fact that he would get so worked up over online shit is one of the numerous reasons why he was too much of an embarassment to date.
On the other hand, I feel like giving him any attention is actually a win for him. The only time he ever gets attention is from his drama shit, never from his content and barely from the things he posts. Not to mention the manosphere might come to his rescue.
I know all I have to do is wait for him to implode on himself, just wish that could be expedited.

No. 1556369

>>1556341
Don't bring up Edgars smh

No. 1556375

I'm autistic and mid-late 20s and I literally can't fit in anywhere. People my age seem too serious to me and some of them already have children, they're also more relationships oriented and I have zero experience with this and no desire to get into a relationship, but I feel too old to hang out with people in their early 20s, also they're often into drugs and partying, like it's the core of their social life, at least where I live, and I have no interests in those things either. It's over for me, I couldn't fit in as a child, I can't fit in as an adult.

No. 1556387

>>1556348
nta a lot of people here type lowercase, it's mostly newfaggotry. I don't think this specific post is the trapfag

No. 1556388

>>1556348
nta a lot of people here type lowercase, it's mostly newfaggotry. I don't think this specific post is the trapfag

No. 1556392

>>1555788
He's not giving the girls medication but he's helping them with the resources and getting them through the "right professionals" that will get them undoubtedly diagnosed and force the parents to just accept it once it's done. I met one of the moms and she has no idea, her kid is just a weirdly feminine girl with short colored hair.

No. 1556395

I'm so tired of hearing my mother argue with her boyfriend, why are they still even together for fucks sake

No. 1556418

One of my close friends has come out as lesbian to us for a while now and now she acts like an expert in lesbianism. The funny thing is she convinced herself she’s one when I know about her boy band member hyperfixations and just in general her attraction to men since we went to high school and college together. Of course she’s a gendie and is surrounded by non-binary “lesbians” who all happen to have been with multiple guys. She conveniently hates bisexuals so it’s no surprise to me that label isn’t “queer” enough for her even though that’s most likely what she and most of her friends are. I think a lot of us who don’t fit that negative bi stereotype don’t wanna associate with that label but it’s not ok to call yourself a lesbian when you’ve been attracted to men all your life and now you just deny it because that attraction has subsided due to fear of/ hating scrotes. I just cannot bear being with her and having to pretend to actually believe her…I’m sure deep down she knows it herself which is why she always sounds so unconvincing whenever she mentions her sexuality.

No. 1556420

>>1556375
Everyone who thinks exactly like you is also just hidden away in their room not going out. At some point you have to accept being around parents and “serious” people and/or doing a little partying if you want more human contact. It’s not that big of a deal to be different from your friends as long as they treat you decently and it’s not like you have to be soulmates who will be best friends forever.

No. 1556427

>>1556420
What if, like, all the neets got together

No. 1556434

>>1556388
Ntayrt but I don't think it's exclusively a newfag thing since it's been done for years. Sometimes I do it to change up typing styles.

No. 1556436

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Why does being in love have to hurt so bad sometimes. Literally what's the reason? Yeah, yeah hormones and all but why does detaching from someone have to suck so bad. I'm so tired.

No. 1556439

How do you even cope with knowing you're living the worst version of yourself

No. 1556443

It's my day off and I've been lazing in bed all day and I just got so fucking pissed that there is only 24 hours in a day I WANT TO SLEEP AND ROLL AROUND IN BED FOR A BILLION HOURS I WANT THIS TODAY.

No. 1556444

>>1556388
>>1556434
Just for context.
The one who keeps accusing everyone of being the trapfag because just because they type in lowercase must be legitimately autistic. She saw someone on /meta/ merely wonder if an infighter who posts like that here on /ot/ was the trapfag from /m/. Now this autist actually thinks everyone who types in lowercase must be the same one who was posting traps in the anime threads. She does the same thing with every bit of information other anons share, she copies what others say almost word by word and repeats it in the same way every time she sees the alleged "trapfag".
There is an annoying trapfag on /m/ who also seems to be obsessed with the anti-trapfag autist. They fight with each other a lot, accusing each other of having been banned before and denying it. Honestly both of them are pretty retarded and annoying.

No. 1556446

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>bash women over their physical traits not fitting a certain conventional standard
>shame them for getting plastic surgery or otherwise using money to change said traits (which were previously unchangeable) because it's "shallow"
>if the surgery goes as planned, gaslight them with comments that 9 times out of 10 wouldn't have been made before, like "You looked better before"
>if the surgery goes bad, make it a personal mission to mock/degrade them (even some surgeons are just sadistic and purposely botch patients)
I saw a "femcel" image talking about this, and I don't really believe in femcels, but it was kind of true. What exactly do people mean when they do this to women? Even some radfems and "women" from here are guilty of it, though they complain about insane moid standards. All of it is against this backdrop of "You should just love yourself", as if there isn't insane money and a ridiculous amount of societal factors funneled into making that difficult or impossible, even for people who technically meet the standard. It seems like society is just invested in a sense of "natural inferiority" in women who don't have certain traits, and the standards often shift just to keep all of us neurotic. If you're "ugly", you're supposed to stay "ugly" but "make up for it" by being easier for moids and somewhat of a pickme. It'd be nice to say "Fuck society's standards, I'm just me", but we unfortunately have to live in a society.
I don't agree with the transhumanist agenda, but at least it kind of gives you either option, right? You can be fine with the way you look, or you can change as you want. Idk.

No. 1556449

>>1556446
Also, when I say "'women' from here", I do mean moids, but I'm aware that it's a cope to think every retarded poster who spergs out at other women and tells them they must be hideous, unloveable, deformed, etc is male. There are lots of terrible anons here who take out their bizarre pickme psychosis on other women habitually, even when those women didn't do or say anything to them, and it's just sad to think about.

No. 1556451

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>>1556446
>It'd be nice to say "Fuck society's standards, I'm just me", but we unfortunately have to live in a society.

Pretty much this sums it up

No. 1556457

>>1556436
Anon I relate to your situation greatly right now, I hope at least knowing you aren’t alone in your feelings is some kind of solace. Despite not knowing the details of your situation, if it’s anything like my own I am sure it will be beneficial for you in the long run. Always put yourself first Nonita you deserve it!

No. 1556463

>>1556449
This imageboard was originally made to gossip about other women. And it being an imageboard (that comes from 4chan, no less) of course attracts the most sociopathic or mentally unstable individuals. Plus a lot of the newer users don't come from imageboards but from the most retarded parts of social media, so it's like an unholy combination of both. As long as this site is for gossip you're going to encounter a lot of insecure people who love to take it out on other women. Hell, even CC where gossip and drama are forbidden is full of self-proclaimed "femcels" obsessed with their own and other women's looks and trying to find the dumbest reasons to feel superior to others to cope with their own self-esteem.

No. 1556472

>>1556446
For me it's like, when a celebrity with power for setting up trends or ignoring them just does what is right, like trying to oppose the harsh standard we all go through, for example Alicia Keys said fuck it to makeup years ago and honestly she is a queen for it, but unfortunately it's gotten so much worse to the point if you're a female celebrity and you don't PS you are basically making a point and people won't give you peace for it. I won't blame them entirely for doing PS or following other beauty standards but it's just not the right thing to keep perpetuating crazy standards for everyone else. In the end the only people gaining anything from this are moids, cosmetic companies and PS clinics.

No. 1556473

File: 1682119733418.jpg (13.49 KB, 328x427, 1554543116767.jpg)

Yesterday I had little to no sexual attraction to this man and today I was imagining marrying him. I hate my stupid brain.

No. 1556476

>>1556446
Fucking this, I see it on moid sites all the time now. The same men who called Chloe Grace Moretz "walled" at 18 are now handwringing over women who get plastic surgery because "she was so beautiful before!!1!" Fuck off.

No. 1556490

Some stupid moid who was at fault, mind you, t-boned me today. I feel hollow and sad.

No. 1556491

Allergies have been wrecking me recently. Today I asked my boyfriend if he could do me a favor.

>He immediately says "no" in a cheeky tone.

I ask him to please get me the tylenol from the bathroom counter. I clearly said where it was.
>He makes a show of loudly opening the bathroom cabinets saying "guess we don't have any."
I reiterate nicely that it's on the counter. When he brings it I take some and then go sit in the bathroom tearing up a bit when I realize I can't even rely on basic care from my partner.

I'm not confrontational but later I work up the ability to tell him he made me grumpy (and have to remind him what caused it because he forgot). He just excuses it by saying "he's just snarky". Like fuck that, it's not the time to be snarky when your girlfriend is feeling sick and needs some help. I don't ask to be treated like a princess, but I don't even feel like I'm cared about. I've already been checking out of this relationship and this is just another nail.

No. 1556493

>>1556491
Set up a date to dump this loser, nonniekins.

No. 1556494

>>1556491
Imagine what would happen if you got seriously ill. This fucker wouldn't stay with you. Dump him.

No. 1556497

>>1556493
I'm thinking it over. I saw a video of another woman who was in my shoes and she sat down with her bf and said "here's what's not working (challenging for me since I'm bad at discussing my feelings due to my needs not being met anyway), here's a time frame to see if things can improve." Then she started focusing more on herself and her job/outside social life instead. Sounds like a good idea. It's trickier because we live together but if I need to arrange moving out I'll sit down with myself to figure things out.

I told him that if he asked for medicine I'd bring it to him (which I have done several times), but he said "no you wouldn't" in a cheeky way. I just can't.

No. 1556515

If you're willing to marry a man that obsesses over other women and beats you you're pathetic. That man's phone is full of revenge porn of me and you still wont go to the police about it.

No. 1556518

The more I go on, the more it feels like I actually do have fibromyalgia lol. I'm in so much pain or something similar. My doctor said it's likely and I didn't believe her at first.

No. 1556547

>Be me
>Feel fine
>Say something cringe
>Why did I just say that wtf
>Feel bad

No. 1556551

>>1556547
Eternal struggle.

No. 1556570

Being small with a large chest is part of the reason why I am teetering on the edge of radical feminism. The lengths men will go to try and take advantage of you make me sick to my stomach. Call me paranoid, but I know that their attention isn't out of true interests but a mix of lust and knowing that I would be easy to "conquer" if given the opportunity. It's to the point where I limit my interaction with males outside of my family to the bare minimum.
The moids bold enough to approach you are already lacking inhibitions so a perfectly polite 'no thanks' is never enough for them. If they see you without a man they think you're fair game. You can't tell them otherwise. But then you have to be careful because if they're a lunatic you can lose your life or get hurt. Men rarely if ever have to deal with this with women or girls and they have the nerve to cry about their rights.
I've been followed out of stores by men trying to get my number. I've been followed by men in cars on multiple occasions. I've been approached by strange men at all times of day while outside and even had one come to my home hours later to try and talk to me. I've also been cursed out in public for not giving a guy my phone number as well as other horseshit stories. For every ten guys I firmly but civilly reject, only one actually gets the hint and fucks off. I tried using excuses, but those won't work either. I've told men that I was a lesbian, which was a mistake because the average straight moid thinks their dick has magical gay away properties. I've told them I was uninterested, which also doesn't work because as a woman I never really know what I want. I do not dress provocatively. In fact, I hide my figure as best as I can. I walk with my shoulders back and my face forward and I have a resting bitch face. Nothing about me says shoot your shot, yet I am bothered on a regular basis.
I'm not trying to brag. I don't think it's flattering and face wise I consider myself cute at best. Not at all stunning or even beautiful, just approachable and physically unimposing which is what these creeps like. For a long time I've gone out of my way to not bring attention to my appearance. I keep myself clean and groomed but that's about it. Being plain doesn't even feel safe anymore because these creeps will sniff out anything. I can't fathom living that runs on male attention like pickmes. Not only is it worthless, but the men that controlled by their dicks are the worst creatures the male species has to offer. They're sweet and nice until you say no to them, then they turn into demons who actually think you're a hideous slut despite looking like a dumpster fire themselves. I wish they would stop.

No. 1556579

>>1556570
Yeah it sucks. You’re right there is no point in trying to change your appearance or be nice or civil, they won’t get it and they’ll always be shitty to you if they want you but you don’t want them. Dress however you want and treat men with open hostility for a while, give yourself a break if you’re in a culture you can do that. At the very least be offputtingly blunt with them and make them state their intentions plainly in the most autistic way you can manage. (I love doing that; i die a little inside from the awkwardness but watching them squirm is too fun.)
I’ve been told to say I have a boyfriend/husband/fiancé but it always felt wrong and men will ignore that too so it’s not actually that useful, but sometimes it works as a brush off line if you want something easy to say. I said it to a guy yesterday (it was true in this instance) and he persisted about being just friends and texting and I was like…lmao No I’m not giving my number to a man I just met I’m literally married and I smiled really big while I said it and told him to have a nice day with my craziest eyes. It doesn’t really happen to me often but it’s always the most persistent guys somehow, I guess I’m getting practice with that type. Maybe I’m just running into crazy people because I’m friendly and also crazy lol

No. 1556581

>>1556579
The first thing I did was tell them that I was taken because I am also married. All I ever got was invitations to cheat and told that what my spouse doesn't know won't hurt him. It's crazy how brazen moids are when they're willing to murder women for showing any interest in anyone but them. I don't understand why I'm such a creep magnet outside of my appearance. I look and am mean to men. Men claim that they want a nice girl that likes them but they seem to love bothering the ones that would rather throw them into a wood chipper.

No. 1556591

>>1556570
>I tried using excuses, but those won't work either. […] I've told them I was uninterested, which also doesn't work because as a woman I never really know what I want

fucking HATE this. then if you say you're already in a relationship, they pull the "i won't tell if you won't wink wink", or "then why ain't he with you, if you were mine I'd be around you 24/7"
saying no fuck off doesn't work, beating around the bush doesn't work, ignoring doesn't work, the only thing that will work, i believe, is shooting them in the groin upon approach.

No. 1556600

Big fuck you to the Neopets agent who won't give me back access to my 15+ year account and claims my email is wrong!! My username is literally the same as the email I'm sending from and I'm the only person who has made that name up when you Google it!

No. 1556609

>>1556581
unfortunately the only thing that works to get scrotes who are insistent on bothering you to back off is to make a huge scene about it and be as hostile as possible, it works but it comes with its own risks especially if there aren't a lot of other people around. definitely have a safety plan and somebody reliable you can call if you go that route. it really fucking sucks that this is even something we have to worry about at all though

No. 1556611

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Just tried watching this movie and there’s so much fucking male gaze I want to barf. What man is watching this shit anyway

No. 1556614

>>1556600
watch out neopets might still be owned by scientologists

No. 1556620

>>1556614
it's not it's owned by jumpstart right now
>>1556600
i'm sorry to hear that nonny. if you have access to the email surely you can see if you have old emails from neopets right?

No. 1556627

>>1556620
They're saying that it's not the email I used to create the account and they gave me the first letter of the email I supposedly used but I've never had an email that starts with that letter before. The account was made back in 2008 or 2009 so whatever it is, I definitely don't have access to it now because I've listed them all to no avail. It sucks but I'll get over it.

No. 1556647

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>father comes home late from work
>I haven't retreated into my room yet
>starts complaining about his day
>I assume he doesn't want to talk to me so I just nod and say uh huh, let him vent
>comes up to me and randomly hands me two dimes
>I say "oh thanks" because I assume he doesn't want to be talked to
>apparently he wants me to respond like it's a joke
>"wow youre being an ass" for literally no reason because I wouldn't respond with excitement over two dimes
>try to spin it into "well two dimes is more than two pennies for my thoughts but less than two quarters" or something to appease it
>but he stomps off like a whiny baby
>"I'm sorry, jeez, I'm sorry" literally my default response to every perceived slight
>retreats into his room, think he's going to bed
>dad comes back out and spends like 10 mins in his office tapping away
>when he comes back out I apologize again
>"well anon you were being a jerk, that's your fault!" shoves door shut

I swear to god I cant have any normal interaction with this man, fucking unbearable failed comedian autist. esp when he's had a bad day. like no wonder I have daddy issues

No. 1556648

>>1556627
My neopets account with my unconverted royalgirl cybunny and lots of rare items was hacked and subsequently frozen years ago. It was really sad. I can’t think about neopets to this day cause it actually makes me so angry and sad.

No. 1556653

>>1556647
sounds exhausting…is he a narcissist?

No. 1556656

SICK OF BEING TOLD TO """"""INTEGRATE"""""". OH so yall wanna see me ""integrate""?????, alright! sense this is the end for all you, dick riding, bitch ass, no life, lil tit, fattychan, sunchip neck ass, NIGEL having, no job having, roastie ass bitch made punk pussy ass fuck niggas who poist on lolcow.farm with a userbase lower than the fucks I give about each and everyone one of yall saltine cracker ass bitches..the way ya'll nerdy ass, wanna be, SHAYNA-looking ass niggas..bitch I can never be more toxic than yall niggas breath. the truth is, I hate all of you butthurt, buck tooth, hillbilly, inbred ass bitches….BITCH…. yall niggas spent hundreds of hours on your hours? I SPENT THOUSANDS, i've had more than 10 ips and each and everyone was done dirty, fuck edward sissor hands lookin ass bitch, fake radial feminist ass, you mega-chin havin ass bitch…yall some virgin ass nerds…I be posting good thought provoking posts and you roasties dont get banned because you suckin these mods bitches dicks, shit you want some handle bars, cuz you seem to be riden this bitch dick hella hard… FUCK CAT POSTERS, FUCK COMPLAINERFAGS, FUCK COW TIPPERS, FUCK THE """MODERATORS""" ,FUCK THE """"""ADMIN""""""", FUCK KIRBYANON, FUCK PAKICHAN, FUCK THE ANACHANS, FUCK THE """FEMINISTS""", FUCK Y'ALL BITCHES COMPLAINING IN THE VENT THREAD ABOUT YOUR FUGLY MOID, FUCK ALL OF Y'ALLLL…YALL CAN STAY IN THIS TRASH ASS WEBSITE, Fuck you…! Bann me bitch, idc imma go have a life, thank you for freeing me from this ""website"""..yall can go get that extra (you) in while I go get myself some SSA pussy. stay up till 5am , while I'm asleep, getting rest unlike you zombified fucks…infighting? stfu you satly, yall can suck my dick, and kiss me ass, cuz at the end of the day, you all will be cleaning the shit off my jordans

No. 1556658

>>1556653
neither of my parents are properly diagnosed with anything (boomers don't go to therapy) but he's always been emotionally detached and self important.

the worst thing is that my dad is the best direct family member I have. he's the only one who will provide me any slight form of support, usually in the form of money since he lacks depth, but in exchange he sometimes treats me like a verbal punching bag surrogate wife

speaks volumes about my mother and sister that I'd rather be around this dumb man than either of them

No. 1556660

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I’m just waiting until everyone leaves so I can fucking binge and smoke a cigarette outside. I really just want to eat while no one is looking at me or even in any proximity. I just want to be alone so it feels less stuffy and actually have a moment to myself without having to be a certain way or made out to look like a fool. But my mom has to go to sleep so damn late, and my brother is nocturnal, so I’m wasting time because it’s almost 2:00 am already and I can sense that no one is leaving. Once my mom leaves my brother is gonna want me to watch something, which if I’m lucky will end by 4:50. I’ll have to wait until late into 5am because once he goes to his room he’d still be able to hear me moving around downstairs and say something. So I’ll have to hope my dad doesn’t wake up at 6am or earlier. I’m mad that it’s almost 2am and I’m not alone yet and can’t use the fucking kitchen so I can be demonic and binge even though I had stopped for a while. They’re on their phones and not even talking so I don’t understand what they’re doing here. I want my little moment. I want my little moment

No. 1556662

>>1556656
This is golden nona I hope you don't mind I posted it in the copypasta thread kek

No. 1556671

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Some people are so joyless and bitter, a family "friend" got upset and annoyed at me because I plan to get a christmas costume for my dog, just something fun and comfortable so we can get some funny pictures. She was like "omg why are people so obsessed with their dogs ?? I just don't get why you would do something so stupid" and everyone was so confused, it's just a silly costume, and it's not like I'm going on and on about my dog 24/7.

No. 1556679

>>1556648
I'm sorry anon, that's so devastating. It's understandable that you'd be bitter about the whole thing.

No. 1556682

>>1556671
Omg some people are just so miserable. She's probably bitter because nobody's gonna fawn over her like you do your sweet pet.

No. 1556693

>>1556671
I feel this. Me entire childhood and teen years my parents basically locked me up and I developed muscle issues and cannot socialize. Anytime people react bitter or just straight up start bullying for basic socialization I just give up. I became a serial ghoster and do not have a single person on my contact list after my last job where some incel would accuse all my socialization attempts of attention seeking (including basic "hellos" mind you)

No. 1556696

>>1556671
I love that you’re already planning your dogs outfit for Christmas, nonnie. Dogs look so cute in little outfits.

No. 1556697

>>1556693
Same here. If you're a bitter bore- relationship over. No second chances. Go be a killjoy somewhere else.

No. 1556700

I wish it was socially acceptable to be upset in public. Not to the point of throwing a tantrum or anything, but just not having to try and push through it when you're having a hard time. I've been feeling shitty for the past couple of months and things hit a new low yesterday. I got upset on my way home last night and I physically just couldn't hold it in and wait to cry at home, so it just burst out right as I got off the bus and I ran into an alley to calm myself down, so people wouldn't think I'm an unstable freak. Same goes for working environments. I wish I could just say that I'm feeling like shit, instead of being expected to mask it.

No. 1556704

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>>1556457
I'm sensing that things are not going to work out with a guy I'm seeing and I'm trying to keep myself from getting attached to him but it's hard because things were really good (almost too good) when they first started. I don't know where and why it started to go south but it hurts to see how different things are now. Thank you nonny, I hope you're taking care of yourself too!

No. 1556711

I ate something that was super hot and burned the inside of my mouth. There were a bunch of people around my when I ate it so I couldn't just spit it out and burned my mouth instead. It really hurts. Do I have to go to the doctor with this or will it just go away after a few days? The only thing I can eat is ice cream

No. 1556712

I hate that I'm attracted to men. Why couldn't I just be into women and have a chance at a peaceful life with a woman but noooooo my brain thinks broad fit moids are attractive even though there's absolutely 0% chance to get one that isn't fucked in the head in the 21st century

No. 1556714

>>1556711
your skin is probably gonna slough off a bit if it's really bad but you'll be fine. the skin inside your mouth heals really fast. just keep an eye out for infection and rinse your mouth occasionally

No. 1556718

I wish you'd take that stick out of your ass and be my friend. I will still never understand why you treated me the way you did for years. I was such a good friend to you and I thought because of what you went through with your little sister you might have a shred of empathy for my situation. But no, I threaten your queen bee status because all you care about is having everyones attention on you.

No. 1556721

>>1556570
Have you considered being an unhinged husbandofag?
>moid bothers and keeps pestering me
>reject him and whip out my fully decorated phone to show hot photos of my husbando and start blabbing on about him and making snide remarks about 3D men
>his temperament changes and he walks away

No. 1556723

>>1556656
>SSA pussy
Social security administration pussy? Right?

No. 1556729

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Just had a nightmare featuring my dad, because of course. Every time he appears in a dream, it turns horrific. Can't believe I had to stand his unstable, violent ass for years, walking around my own home felt like a minefield, and all because the fucking moid couldn't contain his anger and mantrums, just to later cry victim and demand everyone to hug him or something, he's so deranged, everything with him felt so invasive and wrong. Men are truly scary and terrible.

No. 1556736

To finish my education I have to do multiple internships in different kinds of departments. I started my first internship a few weeks ago and the guy that is supposed to train me is absolutely horrible. I think this might be bullying and I can't to anything about it. When I first got there (mind I didn't even know how the printer worked there bc this is my first time) he just completely ignored me. He just gave me a bunch of exam questions instead of training me and giving me actual work so I went to my supervisor and complained about it which only made things worse for me. They put me into a small room at the far end of the corridor. I was told that I should ask the other colleagues for tasks and to be more assertive and social but I am only allowed to talk to them or the team leader if I made an appointment per email first. Otherwise I am not allowed to go into their offices. I really don't like it there and I can't even do anything about it.

No. 1556744

>>1556731
Unless you're interpreting the situation wrong, it doesn't sound like you're wanted there… what's the context, are these your friends?

No. 1556747

>>1556729
Samefag but No, i don't want to hug you, nor kiss you, i don't want to even touch you, leave me alone, just fucking leave me alone I don't like you, stop forcing people to love you when you did everything in your power to be as hateable as possible, you're fucking insane. I should be able to have boundaries, we ain't therapists, you shouldn't force us to do these things if we don't want to that's not how it works we aren't fucking dolls we are humans. I fucking hate you so much you ruined my social skills, my ability to be close to people and my life, you're a cataclysm, and I'm deranged because you were deranged towards me, I'm the product of your mental illness yet you judge me? It's actually incredible how i haven't killed myself yet. "But other daughters love their fathers why are you acting like this?…" You ain't a normal dad, you are insane, of course I don't like you idiot i don't give a shit what is everyone else doing, what I know is that you ain't getting shit from me

No. 1556749

>>1556747
I’m so sorry nonnie I stg daddy issues are the root of 99% of my issues as a human being. I would fantasize about my parents getting a divorce so I could have a nice stepdad. Thankfully my dad never forced affection, but he’d chase me around the house in order to spank me as hard as possible without leaving a mark while verbally threatening and insulting me. In addition to horrendous lifelong emotional and verbal abuse. Boundaries never fucking respected, how dare I ever try to set a boundary. He walks over them on purpose. His newest deal is teasing my dog and getting upset at her and at me when she inevitably snarls at him. She’s even nipped him a couple times, and both times he was teasing her and doing something I told him not to do, like trying to take a treat I gave her out of her mouth?!? Then he hits me with a “control your dog better” like motherfucker go back to kindergarten and learn how to interact with a dog that isn’t yours and basic respect, control your dumbass self better

No. 1556750

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>>1556446
>It'd be nice to say "Fuck society's standards, I'm just me", but we unfortunately have to live in a society.
This works for just about everyone who lives in the real world instead of some social media rotted toxic femininity hellscape.

Honestly: You're social media poisoned and hang out with freaks. Nobody with more than two brain cells to rub together IRL gives a shit about that. People on gossip websites will write an essay about how ugly and deformed a perfectly normal looking woman looks because "I don't like her" and if you point out how retarded and ass backwards it is you get 50 comments calling you a simp and telling the other girl to yass slay queen.

Bashing people for getting plastic surgery is good because it makes some retards question whether they should slice and dice their bodies to conform to what their instagram algorithm financed by the plastic surgery and make up industries reprogram their brains with. And yes, most people were better looking before, because a natural face with some idiosyncrasies is a hundred times more appealing than some copy pasted plastic shit with mismatched features and paralyzed muscles.
>(even some surgeons are just sadistic and purposely botch patients)
When I was a child ten years ago every fucking single person knew that surgery is a last resort because even the most benign bullshit can fail catastrophically and leave you with chronic pain or other issues, but social media completely erased that and now you get dogpiled if you tell people they should not vanity surgery for retarded fashion memes (omg just let them do what they want!).

I think social media should be made illegal. No more twitter. No more filters. No more instagram. No more tiktok. It's been proved in studies that people can't handle it, especially not women. They can't tell the difference between what they see on there and reality. It's like handing out heroin in middle schools.
>it's a choice, they can choose to not get addicted and mess up their brains
That's not how it works out, we know about neurology now, we know free will is an illusion and your thoughts and desires are conditioned by the structure of your brain, which is determined by your genetics and the environmental stimuli that are fed into it.

God, I'm getting too old to be alive.

No. 1556751

>>1556750
Based. I agree with you.

No. 1556753

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>>1556704
Ayrt, I’m sorry to hear that! I think you’re doing the right things though, getting attached has only ever caused issues for me kek it’s good to stay somewhat distanced. I wouldn’t rule out the potential of things improving/getting back to that point, however if I were you I would definitely focus on myself the most, pursue hobbies and health and a good routine, spending time with friends whenever you can, and I’m sure you will find yourself feeling better (I hope!). Sending you love Nonita

No. 1556756

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I watched a yt video earlier about this faggot who locked his daughter in a basement so he could rape her daily for 24 years, leading to her having 7 kids during that time. He even made their incest babies watch him rape her as they got older. He’s in prison now, 88 years old but I can’t stop fantasizing about torturing him and I want to make him feel unimaginable pain. This ugly scrote gets to be almost 90 but my grandmother who did nothing wrong in her life died before 70 wtf

No. 1556760

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Ahhh anons something really embarrassing happened today and I can't stop thinking about it..
I was at an open farm walking with friends and we wanted to ask for directions so we saw a man by a truck. We asked, he gave the directions but then per my dumbass, I wanted to clarify something so I called out again for him and another guy appeared, except this one was ridiculously good-looking that I immediately turned away and started walking. I forgot everything, I don't even remember what I wanted to ask…. it's like I was instinctively reverted back to a middle-schooler

No. 1556765

I just saw a powerline sparking near some trees, it's raining atm but it's still sparking and releasing some smoke anyway, please tell me I'm not crazy and overreacting for reporting this, cause it is literally just meters away from my home

No. 1556767

i fucking hate my sister she is such a fucking cunt always picking a fight for no reason & she'll insult berate and condescend to me all she wants but if i deign to even stand up for myself and call her the fat lazy piece of shit she is suddenly i'm evil & i'm just going to get yelled at even more so why bother, i'm sure her life is miserable enough anyway what with her being obese and always hilariously failing to lose weight every time she tries especially when she makes a huge deal out of it talking it up but not actually executing

No. 1556771

>>1556767
Is she older by a lot? Older siblings with big age difference are like a worse, more fucked up parent. They're also usually raging narcissists like your sister is.
Just ignore her and distance yourself, it's clear she's a bitter person who wants to bring down everyone with her.

No. 1556777

>>1556767
grey rock method anon, look it up. Won't solve everything but it'll limit your suffering as much as possible. I use it with my younger sister because any interaction with her ends in me being cursed at.

No. 1556780

>>1556767
you sound like you kinda deserve it tbh.

No. 1556785

Lately I feel like I'd rather share something on lolcow than with my friends or siblings. Someone might relate and respond to me, and if not, it's still way better than receiving indifferent or condescending reaction. I'm sick of imitating wellness, but anything else either makes others uncomfortable or gives them an opportunity to showcase how much better they're at living life and appearing as alpha women and trivialize my problems. Everything just seems incredibly fake and I don't want to communicate with anyone I know at all. I felt bad for being withdrawn and all but I just realized it's only natural because I feel invisible even when people initiate conversations with me, I'm like a mannequin, not a real person, it doesn't actually matter what I feel and think, I'm here only to listen to other people and say what they want to hear. I'm just sick of it.

No. 1556787

>>1556765
You're crazy for thinking it's an overreaction to report something going wrong with a fucking powerline.

No. 1556789

>>1556765
You're not at risk, but someone has to fix it, so reporting it is sensible.

No. 1556792

>>1556473
Nonnie same.
>god i want him inside of me
>yuck i'd never even kiss him
>i have to marry this man
>wait actually i don't want him in my life at all

No. 1556798

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Men are genuinely so fucking retarded. I've always been really reserved and cold because it takes me a long time to fully trust people and to open up. He spent most of our relationship telling me it's okay to be clingy, he's not gonna get scared or get weirded out if I tell him I miss him or that I want to see him. Finally I start opening up about my feelings, and suddenly he starts distancing himself? I feel fucking stupid for trusting him.

No. 1556800

>>1556787
Sorry, I'm not exactly stable and I have to check myself constantly, I'm glad it was not a delusion again and that i did the right thing
>>1556789
Gladly someone else reported it too, they will surely fix it soon

No. 1556802

I think I have a serotonin issue because I don't feel pleasure or accomplishment when I should (petting my dog, getting a kiss and hug from my bf, accomplishing a task) I always just feel nothing. I have to fake all of my emotions. I thought of this post sitting and petting my dog. I pet him so he feels loved and I talk in a nice voice and pet the right spots but I feel nothing. I just do it out of obligation. I'm empty

No. 1556805

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Why are smoothies so high calorie, aren't they supposed to be healthy ree

No. 1556807

>>1556750
people have been filing their teeth and mutilating themselves in other ways since the beginning of time, they can't be stopped. it's just more exploitative now which is the bad part. "let them do what they want" still applies though. without the internet you would think whatever was the trend in your immediate culture was normal and good even if it was plastic surgery; the internet lets you see too far outside your real social circle and you get upset from afar.
I don't know I probably need to think about this harder and I agree with a lot of your points but I feel like you're missing something too… good vent though.

No. 1556810

>>1556771
Yes, she is the oldest child and we have an age gap of 8 years. Our mom jokes she's actually my grandmother and my sister is my real mom because she's so hard on me (who knows why), you put it best in that she makes me feel like I have a narcissistic mother like the nmoms redditors post about all the time.
>>1556777
Thank you nonna, I am already as bland as possible when we talk but I will study this more to help, good luck in dealing with your younger sister as well.
>>1556780
I don't because I have the decency not to tear her down let alone say anything negative about her to her face (which she doesn't do for me) and I don't talk behind her back anywhere other than 1) my personal journal 2) my own immediate family who like me is intimately familiar with her behavior and 3) this (and I emphasize) anonymous imageboard. When she nitpicks at the most mundane aspects of my appearance trying to make me feel bad about what I can't even change about myself like my eyebrows and my lips I bite my tongue wrt the obvious about what she can change about herself and move on, my end of our conversation consists of sparse words to reply when spoken to if not just grunting in the positive/negative to get out of the interaction as quickly and as smoothly as possible. She picks fights with our mom, insults and puts down our other sister, and has a history of provoking our father in fights where escalation is not needed nor wanted all thanks to her inability to keep her fucking mouth shut. Her own friends think she's excessively combative and she's talked about their perception of her in this manner with pride as well. Not to mention that when I was a teenager and she was already a grown woman she yelled at me that I couldn't have an eating disorder when I was struggling because only she gets to have that problem and not me because I don't have a right to apparently. You're retarded and you probably pull the same shit she does to the people in your life too that you think I deserve this.

No. 1556819

>>1556805
healthy =/= low calorie. Sweet fuits like mango and banana, avocado, honey, pure chocolate, nutbutter.. all (relatively) healthy foods people often chuck in smoothies that are high calorie.. You can definitely make low calorie smoothies by only blending leafy greens though.

No. 1556820

>>1556805
Bc fruit does have sugar in it so a smoothie is basically a sugar clusterfuck. Sad. I like them too.

No. 1556835

It's leaking from the neighbours again, they didn't fix what they promised, they are avoiding me. My ceiling is wet in one spot and the paint is now peeling. They said their washing machine is in that spot
I am so glad I have home insurance
But the damage needs to stop appearing for me to fix my ceiling
Last time it leaked from those idiots, they didn't do a thing until it ruined two floors beneath them

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No. 1556839

Things with my stupid roommate escalated to where he's yelling about how he should be allowed to walk around naked because he pays his bills although 1. I typically have to cover part of his rent because he's short and I like having good credit and 2. I don't want to see that shit. You don't have to have your balls out in the kitchen. My dad was helping to carry in groceries yesterday and his whole ass out was by the stove. After my dad left, he REFUSED to at least put on shorts. Like dude, I'm cutting up vegetables, don't need your semen particles anywhere near this. It's so fucking disrespectful.

And not to say I haven't been naked and run to the mini fridge for a bottle of water before, but I'm gonna chill by the main fridge with my pussy out or put my whole ass by the sink or on the couch because that's fucking gross. Like if someone's coming in, run back to your room and put some goddamn clothes on.

No. 1556845

>>1556835
Sell and move before they destroy your home.

No. 1556846

>>1556835
Complain as much as you can to the front office and keep documentation. They can owe back or that you don't lose security deposit/have to pay because of them. Some complexes can be assholes about it, so it's best for your own monetary safety.

>>1556802
Either that or autism/schizo issues can cause it. I have those and sometimes it can cause a flat affect or just not feeling? It's weird to describe but medication can still help. Like the actions you described experiencing are "nice" but, as I've had before, it is all nothing to me. I can laugh and be upset at times but the after effects leave pretty much right after and I just don't care.

You can get brain scans, therapy, medication, etc. Also has it always been this way or a recent development? Those are also things to look into. There may be an answer, you have to look for it unfortunately. It's a lot of work but then you can understand yourself better.

No. 1556848

>>1556656
Explain what you meant by sunchip neck ass

No. 1556864

>>1556839
either he's lazy, misogynistic or that's his fetish anon. just try to find another apartment or stay with your friends and family for a little while. dude's creepy and potentially dangerous. he probably puts his genitals in objects and areas you use and go to respectively. or think that you're just a woman, you won't overpower him and you're forced to just surrender or keep quiet with your complaint.

No. 1556866

>>1556700
I'm sorry anon, I hope you feel better. I can't really hold back my tears so from a young age I just learned how to cry without making any noise. I've cried everywhere, even at work while assisting customers and no one really cares kek. Sometimes you just need to let it out.

No. 1556879

>>1556839
>Roommates with a male
Were you backed into a corner with a gun pointed at your head anon why, you should only be roommates with other women

No. 1556890

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>weekdays are sunny, clear, and beautiful
>weekends when I have time off are gloomy, overcast, and rainy

I don't have a right to complain since it's not like I don't get outside on weekdays but it makes me depressed.
I've already spent my morning reading lolcow posts from 2015/2016 while wearing my cosplay oni horns that came in the mail today and now I'm all out of ideas.

No. 1556894

I feel like there has been some massive shift in reality and tech recently
I found an ai tool that not a lot of people are talking about but it's capabilities feel like the end of personal security. Talking about it makes it feel like a legitimate roccos basilisk so I haven't vented about it anywhere but here. I feel like humans are creating more and more evil with stuff like deep fake, ai voices, and now some of the recognition technology that's available. Some day a weirdo will be able to take pictures of us on the street, dump it into a search engine, and see everything we've ever done online. Don't have anything? They will make whatever they want in an ai render program.
There is no peace and I hope your opsec is good, ladies.

No. 1556910

>>1556656
crying

No. 1556912

>>1556839
Sorry to break it to you, but if a man INSISTS on being around you naked it's an exhibitionism thing. I bet he also goes through your stuff and looks for underwear, if he's already that sexually transgressive. I'd get rid of him or get out as soon as possible, especially if the piece of shit doesn't even pay his bill properly.

No. 1556915

I need to leave this state before the end of the year or else my parents will vampirically siphon my soul out of me

No. 1556920

>>1556656
This reads like the end of that one Tupac song where he goes on a whole rampage while the poor background singers are just standing there whispering "Get money."

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No. 1556923

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>>1556848
I think she's talking about those anons who don't use lotion or sunscreen lmaoo. Spotty, rough, and wrinkly.

No. 1556928

With how expensive the world is becoming I don't see the point in continuing to live, and I don't understand people who try to stop others from opting out of that.

No. 1556929

>>1556839
What kind of dire situations are some of you in where you cant chase these freaks out with a baseball bat

No. 1556931

>>1556928
Because living in spite of evil and greedy people wanting you to die is the most radical thing you can do. If we all just gave up and took their euthanasia pill then who is going to change things for the future?

No. 1556934

>>1556839
Wait a second, you run around naked too? What kinda culture are you from? You don't even wear panties? I live alone and I do at least that in summer.

No. 1556940

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>dating moid
>tells me about boys trip to thailand
>gut tells me oh fuuuuck no
>wait, maybe i'm just being a neurotic bitch
>hold on i should trust my instincts this time

>fake it and tell him that sounds like soo much fun

>act clueless and go "i heard there's a lot of sex workers there"
>he pretends to be surprised and like he doesn't have a clue what i'm talking about
>pretend to be a cool girl libfem and go on about how sex work is totes cool, that whoring is a real job, and that it's a fair and mutual agreement
>while larping i sneakily ask him if he paid a whore like it's as normal as buying groceries
>he confesses and loves that i'm Cool about it
>instantly drop him without a word
>now he's been crying in my inbox for 2 months straight

I fucking hate them. I fucking hate them so much.

No. 1556942

>>1556785
i feel exactly like this too nona, i'm so sorry. i've vented here about so much shit and feel ridiculous for it, but honestly it has often helped more than talking to the people close to me. because even the people who i know care so much about me, they just don't even listen to what i have to say usually. i wish i could offer some advice but i guess just know there's definitely others in the same boat, and it feels horrible. i don't really feel like a real person either… but you're not alone nona and i hope you can find some people in your life to share things with comfortably some day

No. 1556946

I was about to go to work but my crappy car might be absolutely fucked so now I'm sitting in uniform trying to get a ride and freaking out about how all the money I was grinding away for to put on a house down payment may now be going to a fucking used car if this one is dead. Fucking hate it here. If we had trains this wouldnt be an issue.

No. 1556947

Did anyone else grow up with incredibly stingy parents? My parents were working class so living on a budget was understandable but it got to a point where I had to beg for hygiene products and humiliate myself in stores shopping with my mother on whether a $5 item of clothing was justifiable when I hadn't bought any new clothes in a year. It seemed to be progressive with them too, my mother went from being pretty strict about our budget but making sure I still had clothing and school supplies to me not even having a comb or a new toothbrush and the only clothing I got was hideously oversized and very, very cheap. I know that my mom could afford to give me decent basic living neccesities but she chose not to. My dad absolutely refused to give me money or pay child support too. Why would you do this if you loved your kids? Why would she take every paycheck I ever made after getting a job and then when I finally took some steps to establish my independence she made the rule that I couldn't own a car or save large amounts of money from work. We moved into the cheapest section 8 apartment would allow and I couldn't bring friends over…if god forbid I had a friend invite me over I had no ride home because my mother couldn't be bothered to drive to another end of town. Why were my parents like this? I struggle with some agoraphobia and I have my own issues but I'd never deprive my kids of a normal life this bad…do they just hate us?

No. 1556948

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>>1556940
absolute queen

No. 1556954

>>1556890
wtf is this video. the ending made me sad

No. 1556980

>>1556976
And probably not just a tranny, but a 15 year old one.

No. 1556987

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I work at a dance studio that is connected to a school district's recreation program. There is this old guy who makes me very uncomfortable. I do not want to just make accusations or anything, but he gives me really bad vibes around children. He used to be the head of the rec department and now he just works there part time after retirement, so he has free reign and seems to be respected by teachers who run their programs through the department. For context, my dance studio rents rooms in the rec department's building, but otherwise operates pretty independently. However, this means that sometimes we share the building with other groups, and typically there are 1-2 rec department employees in the building.

It started when I was substitute teaching a really large class (mixed ages because I was the only sub that day), there were some older girls and some younger (5-6 yr) girls. I put everyone on break, got distracted for a minute by some of the louder older girls asking me questions, and when I turned around the guy was halfway in the door to the studio room talking to the little girls. I got really bad vibes (he'd been doing that all day) and started the class again, I mentioned to one of the older girls (in high school) that I didn't like how he had been popping in all day to talk to me or my students. She was like "oh yeah, Miss [Other teacher] doesn't like him because he's always popping in." Immediately as we were talking to each other, dude pops in. Later on that night (I was there until 7:30 pm), I asked him a single question to make sure I didn't need to lock an internal door. He proceeded to spend the next 15 minutes explaining how the front door works (not my question) and wouldn't let me leave. I'm very direct, kept repeating, great, I understand, I need to get home, and he kept going on. I pretty much had to tell him I was leaving and then just walked out.

He pops into classes constantly, which concerns me. Not just because of the talking to younger kids, but because of the clothing present in a dance studio. Those athleta/lulu lemon crop top bra shirts are super popular with some of the older girls and it's caught on among the tweens, plus there's leotards and spandex shorts and stuff. I don't care what the kids wear, it's not like they dress that way for competitions or shows, and the kids enter and exit the studio in warm ups. This means that literally the only person who's not a parent or teacher who sees them is the old man who comes into the rooms regularly. I want to be clear that they're not dressed inappropriately, leos are part of the dress code, but anyone normal shouldn't be seemingly making an effort to see them in their dance clothes if that makes sense.

During one of my classes, a chair that was out of storage was sitting in the room. He came in (jesus christ) and saw the chair, and was like oh let me move that and put it away and blah blah blah, and I insisted it was fine and he insisted it wasn't and I straight up told him he was disrupting my class and he needed to leave (at that point he was fully walking inside the room), which he finally did. There was literally no reason for him to be in the room. He also comes in and will tell the students to listen to me and respect my time and say what a great dancer I am and stuff. I should also mention that during the whole wouldn't let me fucking leave thing he gave me his phone number so I could call if I had any issues. I'm 20, but most people guess that I'm in high school, and so I suspect that thinks I'm too young to be suspicious of him or something. One of the teachers at the studio is in her mid 20s but she definitely seems much older so I think it's just me he thinks he can get away with whatever the hell he's doing, but my students do tell me that apparently he pops in to her classes as well and that she hates him.

Yesterday I had the girls on break, he walked in to the room and greeted us, then passed through the room (there's an extra exit to the parking lot in that room). I assumed he was combining his creep shtick with taking a shortcut. Nope. A few seconds passed and one of my students was like LMAO why'd he come through if he's just walking back into the building. It's exactly what it sounds like. PICTURE IS HIS PATH, WHAT THE HELL. I've told some of the older girls that I don't like him at all, and I don't want him in the rooms ever, and some of the girls tell me he just pops in all the damn time and i don't know what to do. As far as I know he's just a friendly old man and no one' ever been hurt, but something just feels wrong in my gut. No normal person comes into like that, no other employees do that, parents don't do that. The girls mention his behavior to me but I don't if it's just because they know I cannot fucking stand him and they want to feel like they're assisting me or if it's because they are also uncomfortable with him. I'm gonna talk about him with the other young teacher today. We are the only ones in the building today so it's safe.

No. 1556990

Everything feels so boring and stale lately. Even doing things I used to enjoy bores me to tears.

No. 1556997

>>1556656
lost me at roastie

No. 1557000

>>1556947
my parents were similat to yours and i dont get it as well :((:()

No. 1557001

>>1556987
holy shit nona you need to bring this up to your boss or someone higher up at the studio who can get this guy the fuck away from there. there's no reason a man who is uninvolved with the class should be popping in so often, please don't think that this isn't malicious or he's just a friendly old man because i can promise you it is 99% likely not that. i'm older than you and just reading this is sending off alarm bells everywhere. please please please tell a boss or high up lady at the studio or something that there is an old man making you and the girls uncomfortable in your class. there is no reason anybody should be tolerating this and i'm sure it's bothering some of the students a lot more than it seems since they're already mentioning his behavior to you. this is a studio (also connected to a school district) that teaches girls as young as 5-6 years old and is responsible for them while they are there, so if you tell them about what's going on they should take this extremely seriously. please do not let this man look at your students any longer please

No. 1557003

>>1556987
If you have no prior history of Karen-ing out over men who are minding their business, then your intuition is probably right. Men with ill intentions always think they are really good at masking it, but they always have something covetious that is very easy to detect when you are older. You recognize it because you are now able to process all the interactions you had with these kinds of men as a child for what they are, and its instinctive.

No. 1557007

>>1556940
You are absolutely based for dropping him like that. Fuck scrotes.

No. 1557008

>>1556987
Also I advise you to start filming his interactions if they really are that incessant, every bit of this reeks of window shopping. If you trust one of the older girls, have her quietly alert you when he enters the room if you are distracted. If you're worried about the girls, make sure you just have the camera aimed mostly at him. If you gather enough clips or he begins to notice, there is a chance you will scare him off, which although feels like injustice is good for the girls. Another thing that may be better, is to set up an obvious camera on a chair right at the entrance and just keep the girls a little further into the studio, and if he asks about it you can cheerily say it is to record your form or whatever.

No. 1557016

Walked for 4 hours today and now I'm too tired to care about anything else. Feels good tbh

No. 1557018

>>1557001
>>1557003
Okay yeah, thank you guys. I have had my suspicions for a while but I was rarely in the studio on the days that he was there so I only saw him maybe once a month. I just got assigned a class on fridays so I'm there more often now and in 3/4 of the previous month's classes he's come in. I'm 100% going to tell the studio head today. As I said, the guy used to be the head of the rec department, so I suspect no one's brought him up because he probably fits in to the pillar of the community predator category. God I'm actually so mad at myself, I thought it was creepy in the few interactions I had months ago, I can't imagine how bad it must be for the kids who are there literally daily. Thankfully I don't think anyone's been hurt because there's always parents and teachers literally everywhere.

>>1557008
I'm gonna talk about it today with the other teachers, but if nothing comes of it I'll record during my next class. I'm actually sick to my stomach right now that I haven't already done anything, it's just in the past few months where I've been there more and more frequently and have seen the behavior.

No. 1557019

>>1556940
Fucking based nonna

No. 1557020

>>1556987
He isn't even a member of staff of your dance studio? Why the fuck is he coming into YOUR DANCE CLASS EVER????? Even if it was a class of adults wearing ordinary clothes that would be fucking weird and disrespectful. This guy is a pervert and it's extremely bizarre that the dance studio doesn't have an issue with some random man wandering around any class of theirs, let alone a class of little girls wearing clothes like that. If a kid mentions it to their parents the studio could be in deep shit. Does the studio not have to have any safeguarding practices in order to work with young children?

No. 1557023

>>1557018
Ask the studio head to make sure you can have your classes uninterrupted.
If nothing comes of the talk with the studio head, inform the parents directly.
It's their kids, it's their money.

No. 1557026

>>1557018
oh omg please don't feel bad nona i didn't mean to come across as demeaning you for not doing anything, it's just i've been in situations like that when i was younger and looking back it kills me that i didn't know any better or didn't do anything. it makes me so happy to hear you're going to talk to the dept head!!! it shouldn't have to be up to you, only 20 years old and it seems you're not there as often as other instructors, to have to stand up against this. but it's an amazing thing that you're doing something, please never doubt that it's right. this is completely inappropriate and in my eyes this studio has utterly failed the young girls that they are supposed to be responsible for for allowing this to go on for so long

No. 1557027

>>1557023
Samefag, and don't play FBI agent recording evidence.
Trust me, the parents will sort everything out if the studio doesn't.

No. 1557028

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>>1556940
Well done my nonita

No. 1557029

>>1557018
There is no reason a man should be repeatedly passing through a dance studio full of little girls in tight gymnastics wear every single day the class is in session. There is nothing about it that reads as "friendly old man," and even anyone who tried to argue that he was just bored would retract it with the context you gave. Most normal men would be very conscious about how creepy that looks and wouldn't dare do it often, let alone multiple times a day. It sounds like he cornered you in the office and wouldn't let you leave because he was trying to force a connection and is probably pornsick. I have seen tons of posts on multiple platforms where the poster was overreacting, but this isn't one of them.

No. 1557032

>>1557027
I suppose it depends on the type of school, my assumption was that nothing was done for so long about this behavior because they assumed nothing could be done. If you are in a community that isn't protecting him actively than yeah its completely unnecessary.

No. 1557033

>>1557023
If she jumps into informing parents directly there is a chance she could lose her job because the head of the dept would immediately notice parents pulling their children. There are a lot of environmental factors that would effect the outcome of this, it varies greatly. Hopefully a tactful conversation with the dept is all she needs, but unfortunately there are school systems that make it very hard.

No. 1557035

>>1557032
Ayrt, I really can't imagine a single parent being ok with a guy barging in their daughters classes like that. Their daughters will all confirm he comes, that's enough evidence

No. 1557037

>>1556940
Based. I had one date liked this. Bragged about spending 2 months in SEA, yet was going on about "degeneracy". Retarded hogs.

No. 1557038

>>1557035
I understand where you're coming from, but one factor to keep in mind is that there are many different kinds of schools and depending on the kind anon is at, it could be bad for her career to go to parents directly. Although like you, I would love to operate in good faith that it will be easily handled, the only reason I have doubts is that he is a beloved elder in the community that has definitely had to have had previous issues with this. If nothing has been done yet, there could be a reason. Hopefully not though.

No. 1557039

>>1557018
Don't feel bad nonnie, at your age I definitely wouldn't have had that intuition and I think that would be true about most women in that situation. And you're not the one who has done anything wrong or is a creep. It's great you are looking out for your students, make sure to tell the studio head that the students are uncomfortable about him too. And they should really have some kind of safeguarding in place to protect their students. When I went to visit my mom's primary school class the visit had to be pre-approved by the principal, I had to have an up-to-date police background check, sign in and out at reception as well as being accompanied at all times while I was in the school. Maybe in your country it's different but I still don't think it can be allowed to have random men in a class of children like that.

No. 1557040

>>1556987
I hate men so much it's crazy, especially disgusting old men who think they're entitled to perv on girls and women while playing the "innocent old man" card.

No. 1557041

>>1557038
yeah i was thinking this too since nothing has been done so far. but honestly, if the department does nothing after she brings this up to them, then really the only thing to do is go to the parents. because they will seriously get that shit shut down, like i think if a mother of a young girl in that class read nona's op they would go full hell's wrath mode on the studio and that man. and to me tbh it sounds like they deserve it, nona could always find a job somewhere else that doesn't allow creepy old men to get away with disgusting behavior like that

No. 1557043

>>1557040
It's crazy, one foot placed inconspicuously in front of him as he's walking up or down the stairs and it's over

No. 1557044

>>1557040
I replied to OP already, but this reminds me of when I caught a decrepit old man leering through the window of a folklore studio for little girls in my neighborhood. Fucker bounced as soon as he noticed he was spotted

No. 1557045

>>1557041
I maintain that this should be a last resort, though. While I agree wholly I'm also keeping anons future in mind, because for all I know she could be working in a really affluent area. If she doesn't have the same protections as this man, it's best to move discreetly. Hopefully she won't need to approach the parents at all. The filming aspect isn't even tactical, it's simple and gives concrete evidence of him entering the room a ridiculous amount of time and highlights the duration, and if they were to try to brush it off a simple compilation shows all that needs to be seen. If there is evidence of his behavior she cant be refused, as they would fear the footage going viral as well.

No. 1557047

>>1557043
Lol, karma is never that based unfortunately but I hope he dies soon so those girls and OP have some peace of mind.

>>1557044
Disgusting, it's like men lose all their shame and self restraint as they age cause they know they're going to die soon and have nothing to lose. Too bad they don't die long before then.

No. 1557048

Moid entitlement reminds me of the time when a friend asked me why I didn't love him. I couldn't answer because I just didn't. Years later he insulted my photography and creeped on me. Now I think of bashing his skull in with my camera, but my camera doesn't deserve that.

No. 1557049

>>1557040
I hate them too now

No. 1557050

>>1557048
Ha, I love you nonnas

No. 1557052

>>1557050
I love you too nonna

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No. 1557059

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>>1557059
Awww ♥ I love when it's wholesome in the vent thread

No. 1557066

>>1557063
Me too! Especially if it's against moids!

No. 1557069

>>1557066
I know, it's so unifying. It's probably the one topic we can all agree on lol

No. 1557071

>>1557069
Yes, we are unified as a front because they want to destroy our freedoms and serve them.

No. 1557082

>>1557071
True, and the majority of them are pedos, if not all of them

No. 1557100

>>1557020
Again, we’re connected to the recreation department. It’s not unusual for there to be another class going on while we’re here, we just rent some of the rooms. We used to be a normal studio but the main teacher is in her mid-late 70s so she transitioned into renting the studio rooms a while ago. The parents are pretty much always here in the lobby, they know that there are city employees and other classes. It’s not a super public building in that someone off the street could walk in, but there’s events in the building next door and some of the rec offices are in here.

No. 1557105

>>1556375
Start smoking just a little bit of weed or be open to having stoner friends. I also like to hang at home most of the time and also go to nature parks. I’d love a friend where we could just hang at each others places and go to parks. But I wouldn’t want to be judged for my medication.

No. 1557108

>>1556490
I hope you are just injured enough that it’s documentable but not so injured you suffer and that you get a fat fucking settlement as a result, anon. Partner and I got t boned by a 16 yr old girl and we recently got our big fat payouts.

No. 1557111

>>1557105
>be open to having stoner friends
Stoners don't care whether you fit in. Maybe this is the way OP comes to terms with being an oddball.
>>1556375
Nor everyone fits in. Many even love standing out. Like me, for instance.

No. 1557114

>>1557108
There were no injuries. I don't even know what we'll get from the claim, but I hope it's a big compensation. I'm glad you got a big payout, nona. I'm just baffled at this retard who was stopped at a stop sign. He decided to drive when I was right in front of him, I guess. "I didn't see you" my ass. He must have been looking at his phone. Fuck him and may his insurance soar sky high for his negligence. The scrote was driving a rental too kek.

No. 1557116

>>1557038
>>1557045
>>1557039
Sorry for formatting and grammar, I’m on mobile because I’m at the studio right now. I spoke to a couple of the older girls and they both said that he comes into the room and doesn’t leave, and not just during group classes, but private lessons as well. He knows several of the girls by name.
Years ago one of the receptionist volunteers was this nice 30ish old chinese dude. He would every once in a while stop in and joke and LEAVE. The kids loved him, he wasn’t weird and didn’t stare, he would just swing by before he left the offices (we are often the last in the building) once a month and joke for a minute and go. This is completely different. This old man will come in and linger. The younger of the two older girls I spoke to today told me that he’ll “look them up and down.” Again, the girls AND their parents are used to parents watching through the windows and doors to the various studio rooms and it’s not unusual to see a city employee or two.

the older girls warned me not to say that he made me uncomfortable because the other teachers wouldn’t listen. I spoke to the head and mentioned that he is disruptive a few hours ago. She clearly wasn't taking me seriously but said she’ll speak to someone. I tried again just now after reading some of the replies to my post, this behavior is unacceptable and I don’t care that he’s a beloved community member, it’s wrong. I’m not about to ignore the actual problem just because I’m worried my concerns will be dismissed. I told her that he wouldn’t leave (which I told her the first time) but mentioned the time he wouldn’t let me go home, and that several of the girls had said he had weird behavior. She did take me more seriously and said she would mention it to HR. She did remind me that he used to be the head of the entire recreation department for the city district. I’m taking that to mean that she doesn’t disbelieve me, but she’s warning me to not expect anything to come of it.
I’ll record next week, it’s not uncommon for parents to film combinations or dances so the kids can practice at home.

No. 1557117

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i've been told i have been sleep talking big time again which only means i am this close to sleepwalking again. freaks me out to think about because i always remember being told i was standing up and "putting a show of" taking all my clothes off in my sleep when i was like 6-8 years old. it seriously creeps and disgusts me the fuck out that i was doing that. molested moment i guess and i've also always been irrationally afraid of becoming a homicidal sleepwalker since that same age. the thought would genuinely keep me up for nights on end to the point where i would tie my arms together before i slept as a measure of safety and peace of mind

No. 1557118

>>1557114
You never know nonnie, it is reasonable that you might get PTSD, anxiety disorder or another emotional disturbance from such an incident that causes you loss of work or quality of life that you should be compensated for.

No. 1557120

>>1557117
Isn't sleepwalking genetic? I knew a father and son sleepwalking pair whom I recall saying something like that

No. 1557123

>>1557118
Right, that is something that I was thinking about. I just meant there were no physical injuries to report initially. I'd hate to have to deal with this now, but I'm going about my Saturday like normal at least.

No. 1557124

>>1556756
Tbh I’m kind of upset with you for even posting this vent, nonna. Now I have to know this man exists and what he did and how he is still is alive. Meanwhile my grandma died a day before her 70th birthday, which was also 2 days before Christmas. I was 8, she lived 5 min away from me and my parents and I was her favorite grandchild. I spent a lot of time with her and have a lot of nice memories. But goddamn do I wish she could have been around longer. I wish I could have spoken to her when I was a teenager and asked her questions about her life. She grew up in an orphanage in Nazi germany and had a really intense, tumultuous life. She was fluent in 4 languages and could also speak pretty good Russian, which she decided to learn in her 40s. I wish she had taught me German. I loved listening to her speak to her German friends on the phone. She had started teaching me some and had just gotten me Der Struwwelpeter. I still like to look through it and I always hear her voice reading it to me, first in translated English and then in German, when I flip through it.

Meanwhile this man still fucking exists and is just a little younger than my grandma would be if she were alive.

No. 1557125

>>1557116
It's despicable how positions of power give these men leeway to do whatever they want. Newsflash to him: he USED to be in that position. Now he is just a creep in title. He should get the fuck out once you have all of your necessary evidence and/or enough parental concern.

No. 1557126

What does it mean why they ask for the DNA of the father in a missing person's case?

No. 1557127

>>1556658
>usually in the form of money since he lacks depth, but in exchange he sometimes treats me like a verbal punching bag surrogate wife
lord this sounds like me and my own dad. except he doesn't give me any money, and he doesn't work, he's just resting on the laurels of his own richfag parents and siphoning money from the government. it's either this or my mother though, who regularly manages to reduce me to tears whenever she's having a bad day. at least my dad is just irritating and kind of gross, not emotionally devastating.

i pray every day i find a good job that lets me leave this home someday. it's like i appreciate you not kicking me out but you also suck on so many levels.

No. 1557129

>>1557124
Samefag but FUCK I just cried for 5 minutes straight. Big ass studio ghibli tears falling from my eyes as I silently sob. Now I’m gonna go guzzle some water cause I know I’ll start getting a dehydration headache if I don’t, I just lost a lot of water. It felt good to cry but I’m still sad and just want to stop thinking about how much I wish I could have had more time with my grandma. I really loved her. I gotta go blow my nose and wipe my face..

No. 1557130

Does anyone else swing wildly between throwing money away without a second thought and being incapable of spending anything and overthinking small purchases? It's driving me and everyone around me mad. Some months I constantly treat myself with dumb, small purchases and then I go through periods where I've literally stayed up till 3am just opening and closing basket in an online shop, debating whether I truly need the item.

No. 1557132

>>1557125
Even if he's not a perv, he's disrupting the class each time, and those girl's activities are far more important than his dilly-dallying around.
It should not even be necessary to prove nefarious intent to get him out, he's going where he doesn't belong, putting himself first and not giving a fuck about paying customers or kid's dance education.

No. 1557134

>>1557130
YES nonna holy shit. I either scrimp and save like mad or spend like it's burning a hole in my pocket. I'm fairly financially literate, but I can't stick to a budget to save my life. When I have a lot saved up or hit a windfall I don't even want to buy necessities, but when I'm down to my last few hundred it's hard to keep myself from spending on stupid shit. I have a buffer because I'm not single, but I fear my partner is embarrassed by my child-like lack of fiscal responsibility.

No. 1557136

>>1557130
I use to spend money on small things that were on sale and cheap and cute stuff until I keep track of every little purchase I made. It really adds up but don't be hard on yourself. Just track your spending. You can do it!

No. 1557137

>>1557126
if the missing person's DNA isn't in the system then they use the closest approximate DNA to reference when looking for them

No. 1557138

Mom wants to buy me a graduation gift in the realm of a couple hundred dollars. It is driving me insane every time she mentions it. I don't want her to spend so much money on me. We aren't rich, barely middle class. I don't think she spends that much money on herself in a year. And with the prices of everything skyrocketing I'd just feel guilty. I feel so bad for getting irritated at her, she just wants to commemorate my success. Maybe I'm just a stingy bitch.

No. 1557139

>>1557137
But it is in the system…

No. 1557142

>>1557138
Graduation is a once-in-a-lifetime thing.
Inflation comes and goes.

No. 1557147

>>1557134
>>1557136
I have found my people!! I think for me it stems from general anxiety or depression. When I'm in a good mood I'm more likely to buy stuff without thinking. I do keep track of my spending and budget for each month, and I generally manage to stick to it. I still spend a lot in a year on makeup/skincare/clothes but I don't have other hobbies so I justify it with that kek

No. 1557148

>>1557147
Depression can do that. I have to avoid the mall and stores when I'm in an episode so I don't overspend on cute stuff and coffee.

No. 1557158

>>1556756
jesus fucking christ why did you have to remind me this exists
i remember when this case came out in 2008 the shockwaves it sent around the world, everyone was in shock

No. 1557160

going through the heartbreak stage of breakup, it hurts.

No. 1557162

>>1557160
I'm sorry nonnie, heartbreaks sucks.

No. 1557174

I feel old and stressed and bothered.. and I'm bothered by how bothered I am. I can't deal with reading discussions that are local to where I live and coming across the daily additions of
> Hey, I want to move to your country but I don't know shit about your country so can you guys walk me through how to do it. oh and btw this is weird and I know there's a lil housing crisis thingy but when I look on rental sites theres like… uh no listings at all? Isn't that funny! Anyway can you like just hook me up with the details. Btw workwise I can live wherever I like but I'm specifically picking your country while its in crisis just because.. well idk why haha
Come on over. Join the homeless. Maybe take a property that others are fighting to get. Or you might as well put someone else out on the street all because you randomly skimmed your finger over a map and it happened to land here. Its only a lil housing crisis thingy..

No. 1557191

>>1557114
Make sure you see a neurologist if you have any pain in your neck or back and get an MRI. A good PI attorney will be able to talk down medical bills to a small sum. I lost consciousness for about 45 seconds or so and had no obvious injuries after the ER checked me out but an MRI proved I had like a neck vertebrate slipped outta place or something a little (it will heal on its own without intervention but it’s still a documented injury)

No. 1557217

>>1557160
thank you… this is the first time a break up has had me in shambles for longer than a week(its technically been 3) he did want to stay friends but talking to him hurts. i just want to vanish over this

No. 1557218

>>1557217
wrong reply, meant to reply to
>>1557162
sorry hah sorry

No. 1557224

>>1557218
That's ok

>>1557217
You must have really cared for him. You need to go NC (no contact) so you both can heal. Beside most men want to remain friends for one reason after a break up sadly.

No. 1557238

>>1557191
I will do so. That's frightening to hear that it was something that could be easily missed without an MRI. Still, that is good advice.

No. 1557246

>>1556647
Men really get so used to women pretending to be in awe of everything they say that when their children aren't acting like they're the best thing ever they lose grip

No. 1557249

>>1557116
This is exactly what I was expecting and exactly why I suggested recording. He should not feel welcomed and he should know he is being watched and scrutinized so he backs off. Men like that aren't used to be told no.

No. 1557256

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I don't know man

No. 1557260

>>1557037
>2 months in SEA
You just know. There's no doubt.

No. 1557262

My psychologist is trying to help me overcome my anxiety so he's helped me create this list of things I'm supposed to do to slowly expose myself to the anxiety and eventually overcome it. But I'm stuck on like the second level which is just going for a short walk to the end of my street and back, I haven't done it and each time I think I'm going too I talk myself out of it. So he asked me what thoughts I have that stop me and all that, and then asked my motivation for doing it and I couldn't really come up with much because it feels really hopeless, the anxiety lessening feels hopeless and my future feels hopeless. So he was trying to gauge where my motivation for things are and what drives me to do some things and not others, so he asked me what motivations push me to come to our sessions. He said I've never missed one and I'm on time for them, despite being extremely anxious and fidgety I still come to each session. And I got so overwhelmed with answering the question I just looked down and started crying lol, I felt so sad and pathetic and I didn't want to tell him that the motivation is just to have someone to talk too cause I have literally no one else. And being able to be almost completely honest about my anxiety and my worries, and having someone talk to me like I'm an equal and not talk down to me like I'm retarded or get mad at me when I'm upset. I didn't want to say any of that because it's embarrassing to admit even though he knows I'm a neet with no friends. I was like stuttering over my words and finally just said I don't know how to answer that. It was so uncomfortable I wasn't even able to make eye contact, I hate crying in front of people.

No. 1557263

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trying hard to not self harm again. life is boring, i feel like i'm too clingy and nobody does give a shit about me. nothing gives me joy, if i'm not venting here then i'm doing it elsewhere, i can't shut up about my miserable life because i did realize it, i'm too annoying to be heard.

No. 1557267

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Sorry last vent about the weirdo guy at the studio. I've made a diagram because I think there's some confusion about why the old man is there in the first place. Basically, the building serves as rec department offices with several rentable rooms. We pretty much own the rooms labeled as studios because they're reserved under our dance studio's name every day of the week, but there are two other rooms that get rented out. In the mornings, I've seen some other classes like zumba/yoga/tai chi, but pretty much from 3:00-8:00pm (with the exception of a youth orchestra one night), it's just my dance studio (although we run classes from 10:00am-8:00pm, majority of kids are in after school). Parents usually hang out in the lobby, and occasionally we might see a rec department employee if they're going from one office to another.

>>1557029
That's exactly how I feel. I did feel cornered, he singles me out and compliments me quite a bit, every time I've posted about him/talked about him with the students today I remember more and more completely inappropriate comments he's made (i.e. saying I should teach him splits). Also, I literally can not tell you the name of any other rec dept employee. I've never interacted with them outside of turning in paperwork. They stay inside their offices 90% of the time. The fact that all I had to do was describe him to some of the kids and they were like "oh you mean [name], yeah he comes into class a lot" is insane.

>>1557045
That's sadly part of the problem. I live in a stupid rich area that's pretty much the dictionary definition of NIMBY. It's very insular and I don't know how this would go over. The studio head said she'd give my complaint as without naming names, but I am still concerned for my job as well as the other teachers, and the children at the studio. There's no chance that this guy has ever hurt one of our kids, they are literally always either in a room with a teacher or in the lobby with parents, but his behavior is still wrong and should not continue. The kids don't deserve to be leered at. I would feel awful if my dance teacher had to shut down the studio because the rec dept doesn't want to rent us the rooms anymore after complaining about beloved community man.

>>1557132
The disruptions are so bad. I don't feel comfortable when he comes into the room, and I pretty much have to stop class to ask him to leave or else he'll stay and watch. He doesn't leave unless I outright demand that he does and explain how disruptive it is. I hate closing the door to my studio room (studio 1) because parents like to wander over to check in during class, or girls have to leave to get fitted for costumes or do a run through for a dance. However it's so distracting and inappropriate that I'm going to start shutting it, the one time he didn't come in was the time I had it closed.

There's a part of me that's worried about false accusations, anyone who's been around kids know they can snowball things. I trust the high school girls who agreed that he has odd behavior, but one of the middle school girls (who's a bit of an unreliable narrator) started claiming that he gave her candy. Trust me, that's not his style and I don't want his behavior to be dismissed because it's seen as dumb kid gossip like bathroom ghosts (ugh). He shouldn't be disrupting classes, he should leave when he's asked, and he shouldn't be making odd comments about the students' dancing. He's weird and I don't want him staring at my kids or trying to talk to me. That's it. I think I'm just really stressed because he was there today when it's normally only us in the building (there was an event in one of the rental rooms) and I don't want to get in trouble for asking the studio head to make an HR complaint about him. I'll see what happens this week, maybe at least he'll be told not to bother the Friday classes. Otherwise I'll film the next few classes, my students have an exam coming up so it's not like I don't have a reason to do so.

No. 1557272

There was a fire at my workplace today and the customers were mad we made them leave lmao. Dude it's FIRE…your infant is inhaling SMOKE RIGHT NOW. People are fucking retarded.

No. 1557274

>>1557262
nona please keep going to therapy, it's so important that there is someone who you can talk to and it can be hard to find a therapist who doesn't talk down to people. I know this is the vent thread and you're probably not looking for advice, but I was afraid of going outside for a while during an OCD episode I had a few years ago. The only way I was able to go outside was to get all ready, then do whatever for a while. Browse online, watch something. Then, without even thinking about it, I would just pause my show or close my computer and walk outside as though I were on autopilot. Sounds retarded but otherwise I would talk myself out of it while getting dressed.

No. 1557276

I don’t know why I’m going to the pool, I think my swimsuit is at my aunt’s house and now I don’t have one that fits, I’m fat, I don’t want to look too disgusting.
Would it be weird if I wear some shorts, a t-shirt and a sports bra so I can sunbathe?

No. 1557286

>>1557274
Yeah I'm definitely going to keep seeing him, I've been his client for a really long time so I don't know why I'm so nervous to cry in front of him but I think I'm going to try to answer his question next session even if I do cry, I know he won't mind anyway. And like you said it's so rare to find a therapist who doesn't condescend or get annoyed with their clients so I'm going to see him for as long as I can. That's a really good idea Nona it's not retarded at all, I should try getting ready to go outside earlier in the day so it's easier to just jump into doing it instead of having to prepare for it in the moment and give myself too much time to bail out. Thank you I appreciate the advice

No. 1557290

HELPPPPPPPPP AHHHHH its taking everything in me to not apply to my old workplace… they're hiring, and i loved working there, but the guy I hooked up with still works there HELPPPPPP HAHAHA he knows im a fucking weirdo too so he might think i'm chasing him LMAOOOAOAO

No. 1557291

>>1557276
Well, crisis averted! I found my comfy one piece swimsuit that makes me look less deformed and disgusting at the pool, now I can sun bath comfortably on a chair.

No. 1557292

>>1557290
Just don’t give a fuck. Are you actually over 18 years old?

No. 1557295

>>1557292
nta but I'm almost 29 and I still act like her lmao

No. 1557296

>>1557295
>>1557292

i'm 24 HAHA LMAOAOA

No. 1557303


No. 1557309

>>1557296
my condolences

No. 1557311

>>1557295
>>1557296
It’s a job… where you go do your thing and leave afterwards. I just don’t get what’s the big deal. If you were just trying to sign up for a hobby maybe it would be unfortunate, but it’s still kind of retarded to act like you have to avoid certain places and even reject job opportunities because “uhhhh that person could think of me! Or even talk to me! Oh noooo!” Like that’s just such a huge middle school mentality.
Of course, if the dude was a rapist or abuser I would obviously avoid him like the plague, but if you broke up with someone or just had a one night stand and nothing came out of it, then I don’t think it would make sense to avoid a good workplace.

No. 1557316

>>1557311
Neither of those anons but some of you get your panties in a twist over the dumbest shit, and then write huge ass paragraphs about why some nona is wrong for not acting the same way as you. That's more of a middle school mentality than a spergy anon being worried about some past hookup thinking she's weird.

No. 1557330

>>1557316
It’s okay, nonnie, I don’t even tend to check the vent thread but anon’s keystrokes were so exceptionally retarded that I had to tell her that she’s being weird.

No. 1557331

>>1557330
Well then I guess OP is lucky you were here so some weird retard can tell her how not to be a weird retard

No. 1557336

>>1557331
Exactly, I’m glad you’re also growing up, anon.

No. 1557342

>>1557336
Nta but you were being a retard.

No. 1557345

Added my good work friend on ig and she’s currently calling out some cosplayer for victim blaming and misgendering, I swear all the people I enjoy spending time with are retarded in some way and the only thing that keeps me from worrying about it too much is the fact I’m probably retarded also in some way. But everyone I know is either a complete normie or does shit like this, I just wish I knew more people at my exact level of autism.

No. 1557347

>>1557336
I guess we're all big girls now

No. 1557357

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god i wish i could find the tiktok where a zoomer was like "how do you read? do you just imagine the things in your mind as you look at the page"? i feel like having a doomer spiral

No. 1557360

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I hate applying for jobs.
I hate feeling like my self-worth is tied to having a job.
I hate feeling worthless.

No. 1557381

>>1557360
Samefag, but I went back to a job application I was in the middle of working on but quit halfway because the whole process had been mentally draining and I just found out that the posting is now closed. Really bummed I missed out on an opportunity.

No. 1557388

Liberals will make fun of neo-nazi Cletus but then turn around and support EU nationalism. Make it make sense.

No. 1557395

Fucking fags. I swear my job makes me hate gay men. Where I work typically attract female shoppers, so naturally most of their employees are women, besides 4 gay men. And I shit you not ALL of them sexually harassed me and every other girl there. Fucking degenerate freaks. It starts off as compliments, 'wow you're so pretty, I love your makeup' to actually touching my face and saying how soft my skin is or touching one girl's hair, sniffing another girl's neck to 'complement' her perfume. One time my coworker came in on her day off to say hi and she was wearing leggings and literally bent down to her pussy and said 'dayum girl your fat camel toe screaming to get out' wtf!!! Who fucking does that? Poor girl was so embarrassed. I get you're not sexually attractive to us and think that somehow your gargantuan ass with chipped nail polish and cheap ass body mist means you're one of the girls and that you're not threatening. But we all actively avoid each and every one of you and talk shit behind your pimply back. Another time I was wearing a red bra and my strap was showing and again 'yasss girl!! Red is so sexy on you, I know what that means!! you gonna be choking on dick tonight hahah glugglgugj!! I wish I was joking. He made the hand movements and everything. It's so fucking uncalled for. I don't consider myself a prude. Don't mind some gossip about your love life, but when you go into every detail and try to assume my sex life it's nauseating. AND STOP FUCKING TWERKING. Is there something in the water at gay bars that turns these men into brain-dead twerk zombies. The first time was funny sure, but trying to get my attention while I'm working saying 'look how fat my ass looks when I twerk'. It gets so much worse. One time I was in the back room getting supplies and pretty cramp as soon as I saw him walk in my fucking anxiety saw rocket. I made room for him and he pushed his ass off the shelf into me saying 'whoops sorry anon my booty too fat it's dangerous haha' AND HE WOULDNT FUCKING MOVE LIKE 20 SECONDS OF 'WHOOPS IM STUCK I CANT MOVE' fucking thank god my manager came in and said "what the hell is going on" me and her had a LONG talk that day she said if I ever felt uncomfortable again let her know but this fucking bitch quit two months later. Screw you for leaving us to deal with the gay infestation. Any excuse they can use to touch us, they do it. And we can't even do anything because my district manager is also gay and bffs with the fag squad. Please help me it's literal hell

No. 1557399

I have the urge to go and die. Heart is beating fast, I feel weird like floating, my head hurts (I can feel my heartbeat in my head and mind is racing), and I feel extremely fatigued like I ran a mile. No I didn't drink or under any substances. On the last leg of my period so maybe that's contributing to this bullshit feeling. It's late and I'll probably just go to sleep since I just don't care but fuck do I hate feeling like this. Hopefully it'll be resolved in the morning.

No. 1557406

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fucking dumbass by the name of Kate Clancy, self-proclaimed "feminist anthropologist who studies the stigmatized" cannot even say a woman menstruates, it is "menstruating people”
fuck all you people seriously

No. 1557410

i hate that my mom accuses me for ruining her life. for ruining her chance of being w other men and rn for deciding against purchasing a second car. why would she listen to me and my brother going against the decision when she ignored us when we complaint about her buying another expensive dog that she'll ignore and complain of being messy and eventually give it to my dad and leave him to finance their food. they're divorced. she didn't even listen to my brother and i when she had her plant phase and is now telling me that im lazy for leaving her plants to die just because i refused to water it. even though, she doesn't water or take care of it when she has free time. she bought a huge sack of rice and some meat and canned food and traded it for an ugly plant she saw online.

she didn't listen to us when we told her to slow down with her online buying after seeing her packages getting sent daily to the house before eventually decided to have it shipped to her office so we wouldn't scold her that shes irresponsible with money.

her deal with men is smth that i, 9 year old kid, have been uncomfortable with. because you know seeing your mom being abuse physically have traumatize me enough to hate her being with other men amongst other issues. eventually i get better and just leave her and her boyfriends alone. im just indifferent. her last boyfriend wasn't someone who i care for nor hate but feel pity considering my mom acted like a spoiled brat because he wouldnt pay her bills after only meeting each for a month, she even smiled when the dude grew tired and just told her what's her deal and why she's like that.

dude was someone who have been previously married and had money stolen from his business from his ex-wife. so ofc he's hesitant to tread that issue lightly.

my mom just said that if you love me, you would give me money. the dude just break it off with her and managed to find someone else after months of the break-up. mom trashtalks the lady when she discovered he already found someone else. thinks having a degree and fairer skin makes her instantly better than the woman.

No. 1557411

>>1557395
At least they’re not trannies I guess

No. 1557423

>>1557411
One is but he uses she/they pronouns but everyone at work ignores the ‘she’ and refers to it as ‘they’ it has a boyfriend and a full beard so that’s gay man to me.

No. 1557428

I love my mother and everything like that but she cannot accept that I like to be alone, I studied abroad on the otherside of the world for the standard studying abroad stuff but also to have some time alone and she still believes that I am secretly suffering. I meet up with my friends/communicate with them often, I go to family events but I am a max alone time enjoyer.
The issue is I guess that whenever I discuss my issues as you do with a parent you wish to confide in her solutions are always get out there and socialise with strangers or get the type of job where you're around people constantly. She isn't super understanding when I say I am happier alone. (I also know I am, I've purposefully tested how I feel max socialising v alone for long periods of time to give her the benefit of the doubt but alone wins every time)
It's not much of an issue really we have a great relationship it's just a vent.

No. 1557429

>pass out due to period blood loss which is common for me and requires transfusion
>do it in public
>Stupid fucking moid EMT picks me up, as I regain consciousness he gets in my face and starts telling me I'm doing everything for attention and that I'm acting like a 5 yr old and being dramatic
>End up in psych hold because he told them I was doing everything for attention
>End up being there for literal hours getting weaker and weaker and didn't get a transfusion until my oxygen went to 75
>Wake up and get the worst migraine of my life and get out the hospital the following day (all while I have a baby and am breastfeeding mind you)
>Nurses and the psychologist was PISSED thankfully because they had to do a whole psych eval over someone who needed actual medical care

Stupid fucking moid could have fucking killed me because he thinks women apparently aren't allowed to have health problems without attention being the main motive. Stupid fucking libfems need to stop fighting for troons, men's rights and sex work when the medical industry is literally murdering women

No. 1557433

Anyone seen the movie Look Away? I wish so badly that I had some alter ego demon thing living in my mirror that wanted to switch places and live my life for me. I know she'd do a much better job than I'm doing.

No. 1557434

>>1557272
Kek something similar happened at my previous job, a fire broke out in a building in the same street, nothing too serious but the street got barred and one firefighter asked my boss to close the store, and this corporate bootlicker answered "oh no we don't", ofc nobody entered for the remaining 2 hours.

No. 1557445

I’m gonna fucking end it. I just got “you women are all the same”’d by my brother because I was looking (only looking to see if one existed) for an app that could play mp3 files on my phone. That’s all I was doing, because a lot of what I listen to isn’t on streaming shit and it was getting tiring just having it in my files. Like isn’t that big a deal, he’s right that I can just have it in files and whatever but what the fuck. He could have just spoken to me like a person and not like I’m this alien disgusting freak who’s so dumb and lost. I genuinely felt like I was some insane retard for even entertaining the thought from the way he talked to me. I asked him what’s wrong, and what’s wrong with me just trying to find an app that can play mp3 files. Literally when I brought up the premise he already was upset and cast the awful blight of a fucking mp3 player app on women. It was the first thing he said. And then he tells me how back then we used to have cassettes. He doesn’t let me have an actual physical mp3 player and makes fun of me for ever wanting one, I really don’t get what his damage is. Am I really the retarded one? Oh I’m the stupid woman, that’s right, I forgot. What fucking heresy to want to play mp3 files a bit more conveniently. No ok, all women are the same because I just wanted convenience. Dirty disgusting woman how fucking dare you. I could be doing anything and suddenly feel the most intense disgust coming from him and then coming from within me. That’s the worst part, I never know what sets him off. This conversation made me start to rub my eyes. I didn’t realize how this shit just stresses me out. My eye rubbing is always reserved for when I’m really stressed or agitated and I did it like three sentences in reflexively. When it was done the only way I could deal with it was just to rub and rub and I had to stop myself. Why is there always something wrong with what I do. And no I can’t just download some app regardless because we have a shared account and if I try to download something it asks permission. Also, my apple music is paid by him because it was a gift for me so he takes care of it and I’m grateful for that but I’m not trying to replace it, I just can’t find everything I want on there. I can’t believe I stepped out of line and I had to be shamed for it. When I asked what can I do he just said “nothing,” as if it was the most obvious answer ever and I am just the biggest retard ever. And whenever I’m brought to the edge by my family all I can say is how they think I’m stupid and that I do everything wrong and they always tell me I’m wrong. That they never say that and that I’m confused. But I know deep down it’s true and no I’m not crazy for sensing it. Just the other day I was so bothered by how sounds irk me so much and I was straining so hard to hear my brother that my ears hurt. I was just trying to pay attention to his footsteps and his breathing just to make sure I haven’t and won’t do anything wrong. I know nonnas are gonna tell me to get away from this situation but I can’t for now. It’s just happening more and more that he’s blaming me for just being a woman and it’s pissing me off.

No. 1557447

I know it's unhealthy but I love getting up at like 2am shitposting and playing video games. When my bf and dogs wake up it feels like the party is over. It reminds me of being a teen and I'd stay up late hours and use the family computer for nefarious deeds like fanfiction smut
>mfw forget to clear the history and mom screams at me for the "nasty shit" I was looking at
>mfw she left dimestore romance smut novels just laying around everywhere
I LEARNED IT FROM WATCHING YOU!!!!

No. 1557448

>>1557445
how about vlc player nona? that's what i use, and it's not limited to mp3s only though i only use it for that purpose

No. 1557453

my manager does suck. here i am the 3rd most senior worker in my position and she gives me the crappiest shit to deal with. my coworker who works like 1 day a week gets treated better and it feels like its all cause she had kids in her barely adulthood so "she needs the money anon" like fuck off i chose not to have kids possibly ever and we are the same age. i work there 4 days a week almost full time while being considered the most reliable but she wont give me the better clients to make money on. about ready to just snap, leave the damn place. all these months working to be seniored but it means nothing. part of me wants to full snap. get rid of everything, put what i love in storage, pack up a van, live out of it for saving money. finally travel to tons of pretty areas around here before im too old or have even more life responsibilities. so damn tired all the time working just to have a nice living situation while dealing with terrible entitled people on top of terrible bosses.

No. 1557470

>>1557447
Rules for me, not for thee! Are you doing something that I also do? I’m gonna punish you extra hard bc I’m projecting own self hatred! Parenting is fun

No. 1557477

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Guess I'll just let it hang out here since I have nowhere else to go. All my life, starting from childhood, I've been the favourite person to be toyed around by varying degrees of abusive friends. My first "best friend" from when I was a child constantly berated me for everything I did, intentionally isolated me from other people, pinned shit she did on me and exploited my naivety to no end, even threatened self harm if I didn't spend time with her. My second best friend after her when I was a teenager was an emotional wreck who would explode in my face over the smallest things completely unprompted, took all her frustration out on me, made me feel so small and stupid compared to her. While this was happening it also turned out my other friend at the time was leaking all my trusted secrets out and talked shit about me at every chance she was given. My third best friend used me as an emotional trash can, always talked shit about our mutual friends and vented about them to me, then without a peep ghosted me. She grew tired of me and found new people to hang out with, her words. Now my fourth best friend was sweet and all but very unreliable, cancelled our dates at the last minute half of the time, every time she got a new Nigel or met a new interesting person she cut off contact with me for months, turning up when she got bored of them like nothing happened. Face to face she would drop me mid-conversation when a more interesting person walked in or messaged her despite telling me that I'm more important to her than anyone else.

And the fifth one? Full blown BPD-chan. Hysterical suicide baiting, horrid levels of possessiveness which results in forced attempts at isolating me ("it's me or them"), total lack of respect for my boundaries both physical and mental, starts trauma dumping out of nowhere, splits all the time at me, uses me as a punching bag for an ego boost and starts ignoring me immediately when she finds new, more interesting people to hang out with but sulks when I talk to other people. Like an amalgamation of all the previous ones but on steroids. We've been friends for years because I'm a hostage to her whims. I honestly feel like I'm not deserving of normal friendships, I just bump into these people, think they're charming and nice and before I know it I'm involved in their mind games because I'm too weak to see the red flags or draw some lines, here we go again. It's like I'm fucking cursed. There's something fundamentally wrong with me and I can't figure it out.

I watch all the people I meet having great time with their friends and being able to trust them, fun outings and going out creating memories for life when time and time again I manage to get my stupid fucking ass involved with people who don't give a shit about me. I don't even feel like a human being. I wasted my life with awful people picking away my self confidence and humanity and there's nothing I can do to fix the mental damage they caused me. I have no idea what I should do besides unaliving myself to get rid of the pain of knowing that it's a self repeating cycle that will only ruin me further.

No. 1557489

i hate that i have a short neck. there are girls bigger than me that look like less fat on the face because they have a long neck which in turn dont look fat too. even when i was skinny, i still look big on the face and with a tiny chin belly too, it makes me look fatter. i also have to angle my head higher so my chin/neck fat wouldn't protrude as much on pictures. why are the bad qualities of my grandpa on my mom's side all rest on me and my brother, while my cousins all got the good ones; all beautiful and skinny. even my dad's side aren't bad looking at all. in short, my bro and i are the ugly cousins.

even my nieces and nephews, even my brother's son, aren't bad looking either.

No. 1557491

>>1557224
just now i cut contact when he said it's the least worse thing to happen to him and that he doesn't love me- not that its bad thing, i get he has many things in life going on but it just felt bad. like he said it so casually that it made me feel little, like he didnt care. i hate to admit that i was being pretty disgusting to him but my heart just feels like shattered glass.

No. 1557499

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I hate when I go into the tag of my rarepair all the posts are hate posts. I normally don't think people should tag their hate posts because this is the internet and you are going to see stuff you disagree with but when a pair is this rare it gets slightly tiresome that when something new finally shows up in the tag it's hate
>INB4 someone accuses me of being a degenerate
it's not a pairing with age gap or incest or any form for abuse

No. 1557512

My thighs are so fucking huge it’s insane.

No. 1557513

>>1557499
man that's insufferable. you try to find actual cintent but it's just a billion dumbasses repeating "omg their realtiobship is so toxic!" "Omg this character is so evil!"
yes. get some new material

No. 1557515

I've struggled with my appearance for one reason or another my whole life and I wont lie I feel an inkling of jealousy when I see someone younger and more attractive than me. However I still can't understand why some women will completely sabotage or degrade another woman just because she makes you feel insecure. Especially when I've recieved unwanted male attention and then had another woman angry at me for it or whisper horrible things under her breathe critiquing my looks. Why did you have to do that? I'm just trying to live here same as you I'm not competing for attention for your man.

No. 1557517

>>1557513
in case of the ship I was venting about it's not even toxic. The reason people hate it is because of second lead syndrome. But yes it's annoying when you ship a more "problematic" pairing and you are forced to hear the same complaints over and over

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>>1557517
yeah but like even with regular non abusive ships, haters will make shit up about hiw toxic uwu it is. and yeah dont even get me started on ~problematic characters or ships.
yes i know the evil guy is in fact evil. he's also not real. get a grip

No. 1557522

>>1557445
Firstly, I don't know what your system is, I use Melodista on iPhone and Nyx when I had an Android phone. Apple Music plays mp3s obviously but you need to sync with iTunes which can be a pain.
Secondly, not to dismiss you out of hand, but I don't even understand his insult. Is downloading mp3s common among women? I think most women just stream. Anyway, it doesn't make you stupid or technologically illiterate, most companies are making it harder and harder to hold on to local files and most people don't even know how to download.

No. 1557530

>>1557521
lol it's funny you mention it because that's what some people tried to do with this ship. It's not abusive or toxic but a few years ago someone tried to claim that one of the characters was abusive because he wasn't a mind reader. People should just admit that they dislike a ship instead of lying about the characters

No. 1557535

>>1557445
What a complete fucking baby your brother is nona, I'm sorry he's such an asshole to you. You don't deserve that and you're not stupid at all, I use mp3's for the same reason as you because streaming platforms don't have all the songs I want to listen too. It sounds like your brother is very insecure and tries to put you down to make himself feel better or smarter in some way.

No. 1557542

>>1557445
Can you antagonise him? Could questioning his intelligence shut him up? I'm in a different place to you now but I get being super vigilant to the noises around the house to predict what's coming. I hated being so on edge constantly, it's so draining and has affected me so much even after moving out.

Also my brother would rub his eyes hard when stressed and he has horrible eyebags, like of a 50 year old at 22, so be careful nona.

No. 1557546

>>1557445
I use a music app that plays mp3 for downloaded files too. There's tonnes of them so it must be a pretty common thing for people to do.
>and no I can’t just download some app regardless because we have a shared account
Maybe it's time to create your own account anon. You're an adult, if not now, when?

No. 1557549

I want to go out more (and maybe meet people) but there is fucking NOWHERE to go. My damn town has like 5 bars, I'm at the gym already daily and that's about it. The library doesn't have any books I'm interested in either so… wish we had at least something nature related but they're building a damn road next to the river so I can't even hang out there.

Not owning a car feels more and more stupid, the fact that used car prices have gone up isn't helping and public transport is shit, even though I live in fucking Europe.

No. 1557566

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I love using a troon’s preferred pronouns while staring into their eyes and letting them know that I’m only doing it out of politeness and I will never see them as a male/female

No. 1557572

>>1557566
Idk anon, seems like you are coping.
Do you really believe they will be able to read that deep in your mind? I've worked in retail and the average male will think you love them if you just do the fake work smile.

No. 1557575

>>1557566
Idk anon, seems like you are coping.
Do you really believe they will be able to read that deep in your mind? I've worked in retail and the average male will think you love them if you just do the fake work smile.

No. 1557576

>>1557566
Idk anon, seems like you are coping.
Do you really believe they will be able to read that deep in your mind? I've worked in retail and the average male will think you love them if you just do the fake work smile.

No. 1557584

>have a good day yesterday
>rest easy
>wake up
>can't get back to sleep
>doomscroll on social media a bit
>see triggering thing when scrolling
>can't report or hide it because I don't have an account or a burner anymore
>re evaluate why I deserve to live
>see people praising revolting thing I hate
>heart palpitations
>trying not to cry
>mini panic attack commences

I am so weak

No. 1557585

>>1557584
why are you still using social media if you don't have an account anymore? I'm saying this as someone who deleted all her social media because it was fucking with my mental health. stop doing this shit to yourself.

No. 1557588

>>1557585
what I was browsing is usually unrelated to what I'm triggered by, but then I had to see that disgusting lagoon monster again

I really wish he'd just die

No. 1557592

>>1557429
What the fuck? Can an EMT really do that? Fuck that guy

No. 1557613

>>1557588
>disgusting lagoon monster
who? I'm curious because seeing people repeatedly praise someone I'd also describe as a "disgusting lagoon monster" is what eventually made me ragequit Twitter

No. 1557624

>>1557429
What the fuck nonna?? I'm so sorry that happened to you, fuck that idiotic moid. This isnt the first time he has done shit like this. Is there anyway you can report him or file a complaint about him to the hospital or fire department? Maybe warm the psych ward about him too in case he pulls shit like this again.

No. 1557632

My ex just got cleared of false rape accusations. The woman accused him because they had a mild political disagreement months later, a literal MRA fodder type of story. How the fuck can you call yourself a feminist and then shit the bed so thoroughly?

No. 1557634

>>1557613
what is the worth separating art from artist when the artist incorporates so much personal ugliness into their work?

for me it's not exactly objective hideousness, it's knowing what exactly lies under the surface of mundanity and it pierces you like an arrow. you see a man who you know is vile praised by the general fucking public who refuse to acknowledge or don't know or care what he's done, when he should be in jail.

but you are someone who knows what he's done, and everytime you see another video gone "viral", it's like a gut punch. all you can think of when you see that face is the suffering it's caused others and you can no longer stomach him moving with no sound or hear his voice for longer than five minutes without dissociating or lashing out in sobs, it's become a trigger for you, and it makes no sense.

it feels wrong that you inhabit the same earth as someone like this and telling other people about it means you'll be faced with a barrage of questions as to why you're such a weak bitch. you really just wish this man would die for all the crimes you know he's committed, but if he died, people will find a way to memorialize him, and you'll have to see him twice as much for months on end, which will torture you more. either way, you just want to escape this imprisonment of fear and your body's reaction, and you can't. your body and your mind recoils from it, but everybody else loves it.

I need a hypnotherapist or something, and then I'll probably traumatize the hypnotherapist

No. 1557672

>>1557429
I had to ring an ambulance years ago. I grew up in big "tough it out, you're fine" household so I don't call for help lightly. Soon as I'm in the ambulance this guy is cracking jokes and insinuating that I'm there because I'd been overdrinking… I don't drink. I explain that I haven't drank or taken anything. That I'm just stumbling, head spinning, feeling odd out of the blue. There was no party, no trip to the bar. It just struck me. Hes still cracking jokes and I'm not fully 'with it' so he then gets upset that I'm not being a good audience to his comedy show. He tells me there's nothing up with me so I should at least have fun during the ride. "lighten up" I'm stuck between 2 trains of thought.. either something is very wrong with me and I'm not being taken seriously.. or I'm overreacting and there is in fact nothing wrong with me. I almost wanted to say well let me out then if you're so sure I'm fine. Why the fuck am I being treated like I'm a drunk time waster. There are health conditions that mimic the movement of a drunk person. For all the drunk people who I'm sure hes had to deal with surely he also comes across people who are dealing with something else happening to them that makes the unsteady?

Little did I know I wouldn't be stepping back outside of the hospital for 4 fucking months because hey I was wasn't just a time waster. Didn't cross my mind at that age to make a complaint. He made me feel 2 inches tall and like I was crazy, a burden, a bullshitter etc. I think the older people get the more inclined they are (and more confident) they feel chasing things up so I just imagine him having a pattern of only belittling younger women.

No. 1557676

>>1557399
Woke up to a migraine and extremely agitated. Going to pop some otc pain killers, drink some coffee, and go back to sleep. Not worth staying awake if my mood is this shitty.

No. 1557682

>>1557676
I feel you too nona
Head is pounding and my heart aches, I don't want to go outside because it's a ridiculous fifty degrees or something to that cold effect, but I'm so stressed out I can't get back to sleep either

No. 1557694

I'm in fucki.g pai. Right now because of my fucking period and .y dumb bit

I wrote this when I was in pain at a Mexican restaurant.

No. 1557697

>>1557694
In period pain*
God I fucking hate being on my period.

No. 1557707

Some neighbors need to learn you don't fuck with people you never know who is on the other side of the wall and what they are going through.

No. 1557710

>born and raised poorfag
>grew up with red letter bills pouring through the door every week and the gas and electric constantly getting cut off while my mother went hungry to feed me
>got my first job at 15 and busted my ass ever since
>discover side hustle culture and do tons of research to set up income streams I can get from working remotely
>earning six figures a year now
>still live like a poorfag more or less because I have this unshakable fear of becoming destitute overnight
FML. Why did I even put in all this work? I'm an ungrateful idiot. Even when I'm out for a meal I find myself frantically adding up the cost like my life depends on it; I just can't shake the mindset I grew up with.

No. 1557718

>>1557710
That sounds like a very stressful environment for a child that most definitely had lasting effects on your adult mind. You are not an ungrateful idiot for dealing with the childhood trauma of having an unsteady income and watching your mother sacrifice her wellbeing to make sure you weren't starving. Cut yourself some slack, forgive yourself, and focus on the fact that you achieved what your mother dreamed of giving you as a child! Cheers nona.

No. 1557722

I've never been so fucking dead on my feet tired but I still have to finish 2 loads of towels, my moms laundry, put it all away, make dinner, wash the cat bowls, unload the dishwasher, try to get the sap off my cats foot, a bunch of random household tasks and try to organize and put away some of my dads hoardings and I can't even go to bed early cause I have to put drops in my moms ear before she goes to bed. I had to wake up at 7am after 4 hours of interrupted sleep so I could shower her before her nurse came over to change the bandage on her bedsore. I should not have to care for my mom like she's 90 when she's only 62, life is so fucking cruel and unfair and now I have to spend the last years of my 20's being a caretaker for my mom while my dad does basically fuck all but spend his time on the computer, hoarding, or looking at porn. I want to fucking kill myself.

No. 1557725

>>1557718
Thank you, nona. It means a lot to hear you say that 'cause I feel like a fraud calling it "trauma" even though I've been diagnosed, idk why. I'm trying to focus on doing good with my money, one of my proudest moments was putting my mother on private healthcare and helping her sort her wellbeing out. It'll never truly repay what she sacrificed to raise me, but it was a big goal of mine and it felt amazing to finally achieve that.

No. 1557739

I've been having mystery pelvic pain for almost six months, every single day. I'm doing tests and scans and so far doctors can't figure it out and nothing helps, and I just don't know how to deal with this. The pain isn't unbearable (it's awful at times but it's mostly manageable) but it does make it hard to exercise and do everything I normally would. I gained a bit of a weight so my mother-in-law called me fat today, and I haven't stopped crying since. I'm in pain every day and nobody understands. They might say they feel sorry for me, they might say they wish they could help, but I'm completely alone in dealing with the pain and I'm being held to the same expectations as always. Still need to do well in college, still need to be fit, still need to be happy and helpful even though something in my body is constantly hurting and I don't know what it is or if it'll ever stop. I'm trying to keep living life as usual but it's maddening to have to go through all the motions when it feels like my body has fallen apart.

No. 1557743

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>I hate my dad
>I hate my mom
>but most of all I hate myself
I hate my family and I feel like I'm permanently fucked up and will never be able to develop true intimacy because of them. I hate myself because I'm unbearable and no one will ever truly love me and I'm stupid for thinking that anyone could ever really care. I can't be alone and I can't be around people either

No. 1557756

>>1557725
It's a form of trauma if it still affects you in your life today. Whether or not you're still enduring it, you'll always disperse it into your life somehow no matter how much money you make because it was an integral struggle in your upbringing. It makes you stronger

No. 1557760

I hate how much time I spent with the wrong people in the past.
I hate eating before dinner time. I focus so much better when I DON'T eat. Food makes me sleepy. If anything, I like to just wait until before my bed time and eat. Something like a tub of yogurt with some nuts inside. All the thinnest people I know eat like once a day.
I wish my parents helped me do better in school. They knew I was falling back in class, but didn't really sit down with me and make a productive-time together or anything and just let me be a loser. Why not just say "hey, anon, I see you're falling back in school. 7-8pm is our time for doing your studies and school work. Then you can play games." Nothing harsh.
I'm battling terrible habits now and I've wasted so much time.

No. 1557764

>>1557739
I'm sorry you're going through thatz nonnie. You're mother in law is a botch for calling you fat because you're hurting and can't exercise. A lot of people have 'invisble' illnesses and disabilities. It sucks because people won't understand why you can't just be normal, and they think you're faking all your pain. I hope you can find a doctor soon who can help find out what's wrong, of I hope you can find a way to reduce your pain.

No. 1557778

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No. 1557785

>>1557722
What’s stopping you from taking the cat and leaving your mom to the state?

No. 1557793

>>1557785
Money for one thing, and I could never abandon her like that. There's still hope she'll recover enough to be able to shower on her own and have a little more independence, but I really don't know if it'll happen at this point. Hopefully things will be better when the bedsore heals, she had hip surgery so maybe in a few months her pain level will be down and she'll be able to focus more on walking and mobility.

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No. 1557810

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I'm so tired of trying to be friends with women, it's so fucking hard like there are invisible rules I'm not getting. I'm never a friend or someone chosen to go out with, just an acquaintance if I'm lucky. We never have the same interests and socializing with them is like pulling teeth. I can tell when they're looking down on me too for being too "different". I genuinely think I am autistic. Like I'm a fucking degenerate ape for not wearing makeup or being into masculine dominant hobbies, but also if they're into them too then I'm STILL an outsider because I don't act feminine enough with it. And if I express frustration I'm called a fucking pickme or NLOG. I hate how easy it is for me to socialize with men because I don't want them as friends, I already learned my lesson after getting nearly assaulted by 2. I just got ghosted by my husband's friend's wife because I'm not normie enough I guess. I don't care if that sounds cringe I'm so fucking irritated at feeling like an outsider my entire life by other women. I talked to a girl for months before realizing she's just making fun of me the entire time, and another girl I thought was a friend was just using me. MY ENTIRE LIFE I'm just fucking BULLIED by other women or ignored or given the almost bare minimum of niceness. I thought it's just me, I'm just the problem because you know how the saying goes! If it smells like shit everywhere you go check under your shoe. It doesn't matter what I do, how much I self reflect or anything. I'm told I'm very nice and sweet and all that by others so ???? What ??? 24 years of this bullshit. 24 years of being treated like I'm an insult to my own sex. There is not a more lonely life than that of an autistic woman. Yes I got a fucking husband but I want FRIENDS, he even has friends because this world is more forgiving to autistic men. Autistic women just eat shit and die. Truly autistic women, just permanent black sheeps. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No. 1557813

>>1557793
Usually people who have hip surgery die within a couple years. I’m sorry nonna. Why won’t your dad take care of her? Why are you willing to take care of her when she refused to divorce her shitty husband? Couldn’t you dip and report your father for elder abuse if he didn’t do a good job caring for her? You seem to be enabling his laziness. It’s his job to take care of her.

No. 1557828

>>1557810
Literally sounds like I could have posted this. I don’t want scrote friends I already have a partner I’m happy with. Scrote friends just wanna fuck me. I want girl friends. Im probably a bit girlier than you but I’m so fucking autistic. I have two girl friends that I’ve know for like a decade+ but they live hours away and both have children. I want childfree girl friends to hang out with! I want stoner girl friends to sperg about weed with! I want girl friends who wanna go out and get a coffee downtown with me and my puppy girl (who doesn’t like men because she was beaten with a stick by a man)! I want girl friends who love cats bc my girl kitty will only say hello to other women who have visited my house at least 3 times!

But everytime I try to make new friends they ghost me or get weirded out by my enthusiasm and wordiness. Idk how to be succinct unless I’m entirely disinterested. I wouldn’t be surprised if I tried making friends and found out they were making fun of me. Other autist girls all seem to have kids at my age (almost 30) or they’re really weird TIFs who get mad and shit talk you if you forget they’re not going by she/her pronouns. I hate not fitting in anywhere and I hate that the only people I know who aren’t neck deep in child rearing responsibilities are moids.

No. 1557831

>>1557778
Relatable

No. 1557861

>>1557810
I was with you until you said you had a husband. Imagine interacting with a moid 24/7 but suddenly "not knowing what to do" around women, like they're more of a torture to talk with than men, i don't buy it

No. 1557864

In a mix of sleep deprivation, stress over 24 hours of waiting for flights to get home and the end of a vacation that left me more tired than rested - not to mention the 300€ I wasted on booking a non refundable flight ticket in a panic because the site where I booked would not show me that the flight change went through which already pissed me off- I muted and deleted abrasive messages my youngest sister sent me after replying sarcastically to a Captain obvious statement that was only written to make me sound like a dumbass. The point of her writing was originally to talk about the safety of our mom out in a dangerous area for work atm (which I was aware of before), but from the get go her answer were rude as if I was the one responsible for putting our parent in danger.

My best friend surmised that my sister is probably on edge at my sarcasm because she's projecting her own anger and stress, not to mention that she was supposed to travel with my Mom somewhere - since my Mom's birthday is today - so she probably feels robbed of her fun or whatever the hell.

After having had a day and a half to reflect, sleep on something else than an airport bench or flight seat, and the peace and quiet I needed at home to calm down, I'm pretty sure my best friend is right.

I'll let this die down for now, but I'm almost tempted out of spite to conveniently forget she wanted to stay at my place in July to do some tourism, and not just give her any clue about it, see how it feels to be the dumbass.

No. 1557871

>>1557810
maybe i just got lucky with my friends because my school was small and we had all grown up together as weirdos but they've always been understanding of my autism and they all still have a sense of whimsy if you can call it that. even if i'm not at all into their interests they still give me talk about my own as i do theirs, common interests is not a requirement for me. but i understand how you feel when i talk to my cousin or when any girl from uni talks to me. i feel my autism increases tenfold and like i'm a retarded alien it just overwhelms me into wanting to run away and cry, though this goes for scrotes as well in a different way. i'd still rather die than talk to any moid because literally anything i do can be interpreted as flirtatious behavior with second meanings, i'm not sure if it's cultural but men being direct and "simple" really isn't the case here at all. i've only ever been friends with girls and i would like to always keep it that way

No. 1557896

>>1557813
What the fuck why do they die so soon

No. 1557932

>>1557813
>Usually people who have hip surgery die within a couple years.
Jeez nona thanks, that's a great thing to say to someone about their mom.
>Why are you willing to take care of her when she refused to divorce her shitty husband?
Because she deserves care, she's my mom and I love her. And he wasn't always shitty, he's just become distant and lazy in the past 10 years. He's her sole source of income as she has been disabled for the last couple decades, if she left him she would have been worse off and living in poverty. Plus she loves him, he doesn't treat her poorly or abuse her at all he just neglects chores and tasks.
>You seem to be enabling his laziness.
If I don't do the chores no one will, I can't control his actions but I can make sure my mom isn't living in a dirty house.
>Couldn’t you dip and report your father for elder abuse if he didn’t do a good job caring for her?
Again I would never abandon her like that, and it's not to the level of elder abuse and that's a very difficult thing to prove where I live. I'm just trying to vent here I don't feel like arguing with an autist who doesn't understand human emotions.

No. 1557939

I JUST WANT TO PLAY NORN9 FOR GOD'S SAKE WHY CAN'T I JUST FIND AN ENGLISH ROM I CANT'T TAKE IT ANYMORE ! ALL OF MY HUSBANDS ARE WAITING FOR ME !!!!

No. 1557943

>>1557932
Use his money to get a maid to clean your house twice a week? You shouldn't be exhausting yourself like that.

No. 1557947

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tfw im addicted to working out not even for anachan reasons and now i've got a hideous muscled body that makes me look fat which in turn makes me feel like an anachan and i don't even know if this thing can be lost because now i'm thinking of those asian videos of people doing stretches to get rid of their calves. i feel like i look so huge rn even if i'm really underweight and this is all triggered by looking at a picture of myself from half a year ago at the same weight just toned. i'm so ugly right now and the only way to help it is probably to stop working out as much but it feels like i'm injecting poison into my muscles if i don't do it and i keep thinking something really horrible is going to happen if i don't. demented but i'm thinking if anons saw me they'd probably think i'm a troon due to how weirdly muscled i am right now ughhhhhh i just want to cry but i know i'll still get up and work out anyway further worsening the way i look and making myself extremely tired again. not the only physical consequence to this addiction btw and i still can't seem to stop

No. 1557948

>>1557943
They can't afford that on his income they're barely above the poverty line. I'll be fine it's just a busy day today, I'm hoping things will be better in a few months once my mom is able to do more things for herself.

No. 1557949

i have such a bad migraine and i bite my cheek real hard while asleep and now i have an aching mouth

No. 1557955

>>1557947
I have bad news for you nonna, if you keep working out your calves will definitely get thicker, you will lose fat but your calves will get more muscular. thick calves are not a bad thing because it means your legs are strong and there isn't anything sadder than a skeletal with no muscles on her legs barely being able to stand. don't let the ana-chan mentality give you brainrot, work out to make yourself stronger but if you have thick calves it is what it is.

No. 1557957

>>1557947
anon why do you see being muscular as bad? can't you put aside how you think it makes you look and embrace the strength that you have worked so hard to achieve, and how much endurance it's taken you to get here? i wish i could give some more meaningful words, i hope you feel better soon and don't take drastic measures.

No. 1557959

>>1557810
>>1557864
I struggle with this, too. A lot of my hobbies are odd or old fashioned. And I can get too loud, I'm a giant, tall lady so this doesnt help at all. So I will sperg out and weird other ladies away. I'm into castles and I was explaining my excitement about the reproduction they are building in France the traditional way, getting more and more into detail and it just bores people or freaks them out. Who knows? Definitely not me.

No. 1557962

>>1557947
just want to add the physical consequences, i'm pretty sure i fucked up my walk beyond any help even more than it was already fucked up ( pigeon toed ), my feet are so ugly and calloused ( pretty sure i'm getting bunions on one foot ) from walking and working out and i'm pretty sure i'm seeing varicose veins on my legs. take this as a cautionary orthorexia tale. i legitimately spend 8+ hours just walking and running everywhere even if i go to uni or i have something else to do i always make sure to get those steps in like an insane person no matter what. even when deaths occur my brain won't let me rest and grieve. my heart rate is messed up and my period doesn't even come anymore. i'm a hideous failwoman rn but i feel almost suffocatingly claustrophobic when i try to stop and i don't know how to help this mindset

No. 1557966

>>1557962
you have to sort out comfortable footgear. get yourself some good sneakers that fit you well and do a foot bath at least once a week. if you spend that long on your feet you need to take care of them.

No. 1557973

I don't mind working as a bartender, the job is fine, but i fucking HATE dealing with drunk moids, I wish they all would fucking die, the disgusting fucks. Why are you drunk on a Sunday afternoon? So fucking pathetic. They're all creeps as well, the older they are, the worse.

No. 1557976

>>1557957
i suppose it's because i've never been "big" in my life before so i feel like a stranger in my body. i don't like clothes fitting differently on me either. thanks for being kind, the working for endurance part is something i'll be thinking about more. it's true and something i wouldn't have thought of myself
>>1557955
you're right, i'll try not to give in to the anachan mentality. being strong is a good thing it's just that i don't like looking the part/the aesthetics of it because it's drastically different from my usual appearance which freaks me out, not to mention my "style" which yes i know is a ridiculous thing to worry about.
since this is part of my routine ( autism ) it's so hard to let go of so i'm wondering if in the case i'm able to decrease my "hours" and effort i'll go back to the way i looked? sounds dumb of a question but since i've always been malnourished i never had any muscle definition anywhere least of all my calves, to the point where i was wondering if i was missing the required muscle kek. i'll try to figure something out

No. 1557981

>>1557976
you should definitely take care of your calves in that case. not for aesthetics reasons but simply for health reasons. however you should definitely look into more comfortable footwear and make sure you get rest (you shouldn't work out everyday, because your muscles need rest to grow stronger!)

No. 1557985

I hate my boymom mother and her unironical use of 'mama bear'. Bitch you screamed at me for getting injured as a kid and then refused to take me to the ER. How the hell are you a """mama bear"""? There's more instances but that one truly fucked me. Sorry just fucking pissed because she's been using that shitty term more often and wants to put it on her car. Fucking delusional if she thinks by saying it and putting it on her car makes it true.

No. 1557990

>>1557981
i will take your advice, thanks anon ♥#

No. 1557995

>>1557990
take care nonners, just remember being strong and healthy is more important than being small or fitting a beauty criteria and what matters is you are able bodied and healthy.

No. 1558010

all I want to do is watch the Johto season of pokemon in japanese but I can't find all the episodes anywhere and I can't sign up for abema TV without a Japanese credit card or something and it makes me really sad I can't watch my favorite pokemon region in all its glory. fml seriously I've been spending hours trying to get this to work.

No. 1558016

I've been flirting with this girl for like a week and honestly I'm so sick of myself kek. I'm a terminally online weeb and the internet and twitter especially have rotted the fuck out of my brain. This girl is so normal and lets me rant about all my weird shit and then I'll catch myself like "wait, I'm so sorry I keep talking about weird shit" and she's like "no, no, keep going." She's so gentle and sweet and kind and I feel like I have to fight with myself to not self sabotage because Hey! I want a girlfriend! Maybe I do deserve a nice, loving, understanding girlfriend!

My sense of how people operated has been so fucking warped by the internet and all my friends who are cut from the same cloth from me. Even when we think some of the bullshit from online is so tiring, that doesn't stop us from feeling like we're walking on eggshells when meeting new people/when we were introduced to each other for the first time.

I found out I actually have a mutual friend with this girl and we've mostly been texting but she's humored me and gotten on a phone call with me twice already and my heart flutters when she chuckles at the dumb shit I say or says something reassuring. I admitted that I hadn't been on a date before and the idea and expectations that come with them really stress me out and she said, "we're not rushing, we can take this day by day" like oh… yeah you're right. I don't know. I think I'm so deeply fucked up and part of me keeps trying to scare her off by telling her that I'm off the rails crazy and she just keeps talking to me and telling me that it's fine. I want to self sabotage so bad but I want to think that maybe she is actually charmed by my weeby rants about stuff that she has no idea of. I'm so mad at myself because I can't control myself and I want to rush but it's also like… what's the good in that? Locking her down sooner wouldn't do any good if we aren't compatible in the end.

She is so calm and I like her energy and reassurance but I'm worried I don't bring anything to the table (though she says she likes my stories and rants). Please pray for me nonnies. She is so gentle and kind and things right now do feel kind of right and I like the pace we're going at and it's fun but I'm also terrified out of my mind.

No. 1558074

i miss him it hurts

No. 1558090

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i've kind of accepted i'll be alone and miserable forever until i die. i was just born unlikeable and unlovable, even my parents dont care about me.

No. 1558092

>>1558090
You will be with that attitude.

No. 1558098

>>1558092
no need to be so fucking rude
>>1558090
don't listen to her anon, shitty parents make you feel like you're worthless but i'm sure it's not true.
I know i will end up alone too but after years of trying to escape that, i realised that living with people, trying to emulate the perfect life is even worth. Not being loved doesn't mean you don't deserve it, it often just means people around you aren't capable of doing so.

No. 1558100

>>1558090
But you have a lovely taste in gifs nonny

No. 1558101

Today was so shit. I masturbated 4 times in one day (record) and wanted to fuck her really bad. I didn’t get anything done until night, and not everything got done. Why am I so pathetic?

No. 1558102

>>1557861
NTA but i think men are a lot more tolerant of weird/socially unaware behavior.

No. 1558104

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>>1558010
shouldn't it be on most anime pirating sites? bcs the johto arc makes up like a third of the original series.
https://9anime.gs/watch/pokemon.r9vq/ep-117

No. 1558106

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>>1557810
Anon this all sounds like I could have written it. All I can tell you is you arent alone. It sucks for us, but hold out hope that youll find fellow spergs. Also please stop blaming yourself, it hurts to see, youre not a bad person.

No. 1558107

>>1558101
Oh, I also realized I sent her a message that made it seem like I was guilt tripping. It was about how the weekend “felt off”

This is in the context of confessing my love and being rejected right before the weekend started

No. 1558108

>>1558104
well when I click on the johto episodes there for example 173 it says dub only. I got some raw episodes through a torrent, but not all of them.

No. 1558109

>>1558108
ah. thats strange. nyaa.si seemed to have the japanese amazon prime rips, but idk if that is the torrent you were talking about. its surprising to me that something so popular would be such a pain in the ass to find.

No. 1558116

>>1558010
torrent it, it's on Nyaa. The Johto season is called Pocket Monsters Gold and Silver in Japanese (ポケットモンスター 金銀編)

No. 1558123

Recently my mother sent me the link to a video we had made together when I was little. We were performing and having so much fun, it is a very sweet memory. She did my hair, my make up and we dressed in matching outfits. I was really happy to see the link to that video again, as I didn't have access to the original file. However, I was under the impression that it was a private video which only people with the link could view. When I realised this video had been public online for over a decade, my heart sank. I then noticed the view count: 2,5K. Although it is not much compared to most videos online, the account itself has 0 subscribers and no other videos. I tried to do the math to see if maybe my parents and I had simply managed to view the video two thousand times from the moment it was uploaded to now. 2500/12 = 208 views a year. 208/12 = 17. So between the moment it was published and now, the video would have been viewed at least 17 times a month or double that in other months. Maybe my math is incorrect, and the numbers are of course insignificant in the grand scheme of things, but it is still a repulsive number considering how unknown and unimportant the video and its channel are. I spend a lot of time researching internet safety for children as a parent, as I want to protect my children amidst the many technological developments of today, partially due to what I have experienced myself. I learned that research in France showed that over 50% of photographs exchanged on child pornography forums were initially posted by parents on social media. Having seen what I have of deepfakes, AI prompts and such things, I am quite confident in knowing where all those views came from, and it makes my heart break. I honestly feel sick. I know I am overreacting, as I am an adult now and was not harmed physically as a child, but I simply am sensitive to these things and cannot stand the way children's safety is compromised on the internet.

No. 1558146

>>1558098
thanks you sound like a nice person, I hope you can find your own happiness
>>1558100
lol thanks

No. 1558152

My family always eats dinner at like 11 pm and it’s so annoying they take fucking forever to do everything and they’re never prepare

No. 1558156

I got an email this morning that I have to respond to and I spent the entire day getting nothing done (even though I have a lot of stuff to do) because I kept being like 'I just need to send this email then I'll get started' and now I'm about to go to bed and I still haven't sent the email. I wasn't even procrastinating by doing fun things, the whole day I was just mindlessly refreshing pages and worrying about typing up a simple email but not actually doing it. This happens all the time with similarly pointless shit that should take no time at all to complete and I have no clue why

No. 1558163

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Some days it feels like I'm over my ex, accepting that this is just the way it is, and I don't find myself breaking down crying as much as I used to before. But then other days I just lie in bed, listening to sad music, thinking about how much I miss her. And then I start to tear up when I realize that we had before won't ever be replaced.

No. 1558164

it really bothers me when i see zoomer trannies call themselves femcels and you look at their twitter feed and they don't even remotely talk like an angry unhinged autistic woman. you sound like a man! you don't even fool anybody through text. you are an ugly, unlovable, porn addicted man and you can't even larp properly

No. 1558165

I hate how in every reddit thread for motherless daughters, which is a term to refer to girls and women who's mother passed away, especially in childhood or adolescence, women who have a living nArC mother they chose cut contact will take over the conversation and derail it. Isn't there enough spaces for you to vent about your living mother which you hate? Why take over discussions that have nothing to do with your situation just to say "not technically a motherless daughter BUT." Just stfu. Being deprived of a relationship with your mother because she died when you were 7 is not the same as being 30+ and choosing not to talk to your mom because you think she's a narcissist. Making a discussion that has nothing to do with you into one that's all about you kind of makes you seem like one though.
Even IRL, a former friend of mine had the audacity to say to me that she also feels grief about not having a mom when she literally has one that she lives with who supports her. Their relationship just isn't what she wants it to be. Maybe she was trying to relate to me but I just wanted to slap her.

I was going to post this in the things you hate thread but it turned into a vent about my life so here it goes.

No. 1558173

I’m the kind of girl men want to have one night stands with or hook up with every blue moon and I guess in a way it was a blessing in disguise. I had to accept that the whole marriage and having a man take care of me is out of the question because men don’t like me which lead me to buying a house and being more self reliant. Meanwhile my friends who men find attractive are still waiting for a man to take care of them because men lie to them and say they are going to marry them and have kids because they want to keep her around but in reality they never will. With how lazy I am I know I would’ve ended up stuck living under some scrote who abuses me if men actually liked me, so men finding me repulsive beyond sex is a good thing I guess.

No. 1558182

I feel like if I ever had a soulmate I've never met him. I know I'm attracted to men and I've enjoyed my ex-bf's (some more than others) but not of them were both physically attractive enough for me or enough like me in personality for us to have a true connection. I'm not at the point where I can look for love but I wish I was born in a city so I had more options and preferably a city not in this country. Or maybe not this time period even.

No. 1558224

I have too many things inside my head that I can't tell anyone about. I will never find someone who understands enough to be able to take the words out of my head. the pressure of all the thoughts that can't come out is building like an overstretched balloon, it can't accommodate forever and the limit will be reached. I need to stretch the limit until my family dies but that's too far away. I don't know what to do. i have no moves

No. 1558225

>>1558165
I'm sorry to hear that. that's really messed up people need to learn when to shut up when things aren't about them

No. 1558228

>>1558224
this is also being condensed into my skull. unbearable. this one will be too

No. 1558232

>>1558156
It's anxiety. Most of my days are like this, procrastinating whatever task I have by mindlessly refreshing pages or scrolling aps. No idea how to fix it.

No. 1558233

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My wounds are open to the air, the deep numbing pain resounds…
I am left to wander through the crumbling chasms of my mind.
What do I do? Do I make a silent escape with what I have? Do I plan things meticulously, and depart when (and if) the world gets any better (I'm of the mind that it won't, and I should run, but it seems unwise)
Or do I just exist in drab misery until I finally die?
I could kill myself too, but it's so shameful and excruciating for my family to endure.
Is my indignity worthless?
Is my anguish and despair of no value?
My tears pour into the chasms of my heart; endless, cold, silent.

No. 1558234

>>1558232
Can you sage your shit

No. 1558235

>>1558234
nta but you don't have to sage anything on /ot/

No. 1558244

>>1558116
>>1558109
thanks so much nonnies idk why I couldn't find that specific torrent before!!

No. 1558248

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I went to an LDS church recently after talking with missionaries. I’ve had conversations with many ex missionaries through the years and know they’re supposed to teach instead of being taught, but the missionary enquired about my own church in comparison to his church multiple times and was very open to hearing about me sperg about my relationship and views on God. I’m probably just overthinking another indoctrination method and keep brushing the thought away, but there’s a nagging feeling and I can’t help thinking that it isn’t just that. On the bright side it’s bringing me closer to my faith, since I’ve fallen away for a while.

No. 1558252

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My parents don't care about me, all they care about is my fuck up bpd scrote brother.

Guess I'm an orphan.

No. 1558267

>>1557624
I've been contacting medical malpractice lawyers and am filing a complaint today, I'm pretty sure the hospital filed a complaint against the EMT as well

No. 1558297

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>be me, nearly 30 yo, tall, mature looking, classy/dressy style
>recently realize why i'm uncomfortable by all the compliments my scrote gives me
>they're all about how "cute" i am
>only get complimented when i do stuff that's endearing or adorable, more childlike = better
>only get compliments on my clothes if its cutesy shit
>he damn near gets turned on if i say something that's wrong, dumb or naive/innocent-sounding
>just now asked him about his opinion on a dress i'm wearing to an event (a gorgeous, expensive designer gown)
>"nah i prefer something like this"
>shows me a cheap ass fucking aliexpress tier babydoll dress that would look ridiculous on anyone over 20
>mfw when we first started dating he made a comment on how he'd love to see me in pigtails but i let it slide

I can't fucking stand it. I know why he does it and I feel like leaving despite him being otherwise perfect. You know what fucking baffles me? Grown ass women who wear fucking pigtails and schoolgirl skirts for their moids in the bedroom. You fucking pedophile cucks. It's not about you bitch, it's about the little girl he's pretending you are. And women who are short, or look young, and creates a fucking uwu loli personality to play the part of a young girl. WE'RE GROWN!!! I'm actually so done with this. Hatred

No. 1558309

>>1558297
Your boyfriend is a wannabe pedo in hiding and rather than leaving, you project on women and call them cunts? Leave the scrote, anon and go take a deep look in the mirror.

No. 1558310

>>1558309
Anon called them cucks, not cunts.

No. 1558313

>>1558309
Never called anyone a cunt, and I am leaving him. I just don't understand the women who enjoy this stuff. I mean we're allowing and supporting this, I am too by not having left yet. I have heard so many women putting on baby goo goo ga ga voices when their boyfies or any man they're attracted to is around. What is even going on? Schoolgirl uniforms sold in sex shops. Imagine it's 20 years from now, you're middle-aged, accomplished, mature, beautiful, with so much knowledge, and you force all that into a $15 faux schoolgirl uniform because your pudgy ass balding ass man wishes you were a retarded 13 year old instead. I'm not blaming women I just don't understand what the fuck is going on here. Why are we. I'm frustrated at myself and everyone else taking part in the sick shit that is male sexuality trying to win a "love" that doesn't even exist and never will. Just venting sorry for being a retard

No. 1558314

>>1558310
My bad it’s early and I confused this with a different thread a second ago. The point still stands it’s projection and she needs to leave the scrote. Directing that hate at other women who aren’t the cause of her issue won’t fix it. Leaving the freak will.

No. 1558315

>>1558297
You shouldn’t feel like leaving, you should be leaving but knowing how the average woman is you’ll stick with him a few years and maybe leave when you find cp on this computer.

No. 1558317

>>1558313
Anon they’re groomed into it. They push porn at teens. The boys make sex noises at them in school. Older men catcall these girl on the streets. Men constantly talk about how little girls actually want it and are seducing them. Those women are being manipulated by society. They need help and a lot of therapy. Bdsm and that shit also go hand and hand. Suffocation during sex triggers trauma bonding. The men are predators who know exactly what their doing and their enabled by our culture.
Good for planning to leave him, he will get worse and men like that aren’t good with boundaries or your self esteem. I hope you find someone better if that’s what you want.
I misread. I was in a different thread a minute ago and someone was going off with that word. My bad, it’s early and I decided to scroll while sleepy.

No. 1558333

I hate having to take care of myself. I hate feeling like every day I'm just waiting for the day they're gonna tell me I have cancer or some other debilitating condition that makes my life miserable to live. I hate waking up every day waiting for the world to get worse.

No. 1558340

>>1558313
I agree with your rant completely.

No. 1558341

>>1558297
Damn, anon, I've never fully realized it but that's what made me uncomfortable in my last relationships, too. Not everything that you've described but parts concerning childlike behavior and saying something wrong/naive/dumb. Although in this case exactly, I think it's partially due to relationships of his parents. His father is a narc that always "lovingly" makes fun of or diminishes his mother. He literally says "I love you" when bf's mom says something wrong or loses track of conversation or something. I don't even take myself that seriously but I actually started getting sick of similar humor and comments. Bf would laugh at some random things in my behavior that are just neutral, would also get affectionate when I said something wrong and just focus on that too much. In this exact case, I don't think it has anything to do with pedo tendencies, but it's certainly diminishing and infantilizing, and I'm sure he did it to feel better about himself and probably more "masculine" since he's actively infantilized by his parents himself. This actually made me reconsider certain things in my behavior. Girls and women are often not taken seriously or make men uncomfortable too easily when they show they're intelligent and knowledgeable and that's probably what leads to displaying childlike behavior and dumbing yourself down. Even if men aren't explicitly misogynistic and don't consider all women to be dumb or something, I'm pretty sure they still expect their gfs and wives to be dumber, less competent, and dependant.

No. 1558346

>>1558341
>Girls and women are often not taken seriously or make men uncomfortable too easily when they show they're intelligent and knowledgeable and that's probably what leads to displaying childlike behavior and dumbing yourself down. Even if men aren't explicitly misogynistic and don't consider all women to be dumb or something, I'm pretty sure they still expect their gfs and wives to be dumber, less competent, and dependant.
This is so real, I haven't been able to really put it into words but it's definitely a thing. And I've seen zoomer girls buy into this too, like 'my bf explaining math to me' or 'my bf telling me to drink water for my headache and it works' or some other meme stuff, I don't know if I'm making sense. But yes, I see what you mean, the weird condescending vibes.

No. 1558347

>don't answer bf text for 9 hours because I've been depressed with no motivation or drive
>answer him and say "sorry for late reply but i've been really struggling lately"
>boyfriend says "sorry you've been feeling bad"
>i say "thanks (smiley face)"
>boyfriend immediately changes subject and starts droning about a mixed drink he had at a party and how good it was in the most boring way possible
That annoyed me so fucking much that I'm just going to not respond to him for a day or a few. Get a fucking journal you worthless retard. I'm not your jump-and-respond monkey. Kill yourself.

No. 1558348

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One of my cats suddenly died and I’m in terrible terrible shock since just yesterday she was perfectly fine
We think she poisoned herself by eating a bug (she would go into pseudo shock when this happened) or she choked on her vomit, since she was a runt born by accident and she clearly had some underlying health issues but the shock is still hard on me.
I have 6 other cats still and I sometimes I think I have so many so it’s not as painful when one of them dies, but this still really hurts, especially since it happened so suddenly

Rip chantilly, I love you (cat in pic)

No. 1558349

>>1558348
She was beautiful nonna. Rest in peace sweet kitty.

No. 1558350

Holy fuck, ok I know this is partially my fault for doing shady poor person shit but I don't have health insurance and I'm broke a lot so I use minute clinics/telehealth whenever I can because it's cheaper and also I don't have a car so it's easier than taking a train to the doctor or paying for a rideshare. And it has been a JOURNEY to get antibiotics, let me tell you nonnas. There is definitely a script you have to follow to get no-hassle meds, because I think doctors are extra sensitive to any liabilities so they need to absolutely make sure your infection is "uncomplicated", otherwise they will just take your money and tell you they can't help you. This has been my morning so far and I'm already exhausted:

>Be Me

>Have UTI from hell for like 3 weeks now, I took an at-home AZO test and it came up positive for UTI plus I have all the symptoms and I have them often enough that I know what they feel like.
>try my go-to app at first, and during the intake assessment they asked me how long ago my last UTI was.
>make the mistake of saying a couple months ago because I THOUGHT I had one then (I didn't get treated for it though and it passed on its own…40% of uncomplicated UTIs can pass on their own if you tough out the symptoms, which I do because again I'm poor)
>doctor was like "nope, that's too soon, could be a chronic condition, I can't help you".
>Charged me $40 and ended the chat.
>fuckmeIguess.jpg
>try again with another app.
>This time, when they ask me if I've had any recent UTIs, I say no. All good. Then they ask me if I have any other symptoms
>I mention that I get a sharp pain under my naval when I pee (the typical UTI burning/stinging) but I made the mistake of calling it abdominal pain (bc its…in my abdomen. Where my BLADDER IS HELLO)
>doctor got spooked and was like "oh abdominal pain is not typical of an uncomplicated UTI, this is very unusual, I can't treat you at this time"
>Charges me $52 and ends the chat
>I'm now out almost $90 with no antibiotics in sight, feel like crying bc at this point I could have paid for an uber to an in-person doctor
>decide to give it one last final try and use amazon clinic which I've never tried before
>answer the UTI quiz with absolute bare miniumum information, nothing extra except it burns when I pee, I pee a lot, and I'm sure its not an STI because I'm not sexually active
>in literally 13 minutes a doctor reads my info, prescribes me an antibiotic, and ends the appointment. I didn't even have to talk to him
>fucking finally

I know doctor shopping like this isn't ideal, and if testing was free I would absolutely go in person and get evaluated, but it's so insanely expensive that I just couldn't afford it. Anyway I'm relieved it's finally sorted and I can finally get this antibiotics. Sometimes I think about how in Mexico this shit is just over the counter and how fucking awful american healthcare is for the sake of making a profit.

No. 1558353

>>1558350
If you get chronic UTIs you should look into d-mannose. Feel better soon nonnie.

No. 1558355

I have a crush on this girl in uni and it’s so painful. I keep seeing her with other girls and I always think there’s something going on between them because she apparently likes to fuck around. I’m actually like a lovesick teen in the middle of puberty. I do stupid shit like trying to memorize the times I’ve seen her so I can see her during those times again. I’m completely obsessed with her and it’s killing me cause idk how to get closer to her despite some mutual friends. I fucking hate this feeling cause I can’t do anything about it and I can’t focus on anything else. She completely occupies my mind. I wish I never got to know her. I’m so mentally ill…

No. 1558357

>>1558353
Been looking to try this, thank you for the reminder nona! I do get them super easily and have read good things abt how that can help you pass them. I try not to go for antibiotics unless it gets really bad, like this one, cause in general OTC treatments for reoccurring ones seem better than all these hoops.

No. 1558361

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Agoraphobia is making my life impossible. Someone shoot me.

No. 1558363

>>1558341
This also happened to me and I'm glad I got out early enough. I at first thought it was my fault that I was uncomfortable and constantly angry with him, and I really did feel crazy for always being suspicious of him. This man said he would love me no matter how old and wrinkly I get yet claimed he was into everything "cute", his type of girl was the typical manic pixie egirl, and I have autism and big eyes so I guess my retarded behavior endeared me to him or something.

Fast forward to him wanting me to wear cutesy cosplay-tier outfits for teens and complimenting me only whenever I wore something uwu like a bunny ear headband for washing my face. I always felt that I wasn't "enough" or that he would leave me for a younger, cuter girl. I was constantly insecure and unhappy, but now that I'm single I know that my gut was just screaming at me to get out of there. Men like that are poison.

No. 1558368

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I HATE pants with every fiber of my being. they're uncomfortable and I feel like ripping them apart as soon as I dress in them.
I am forever sticking to skirts and dresses

No. 1558375

Just rang the dentist
> Whats the appt for?
> My tooth just broke
> Are you in pain
> Yes
> Nearest appt we can give you is mid June
> Ok I guess I'll take that slot
Will my tooth still be there in 7 weeks for them to treat it or will it get horribly infected or fall out of my head in meantime. I guess this is why I know people who pull their own teeth at home.

No. 1558376

>>1558368
God I wish I lived in a warmer climate so I could wear skirts and dresses all year round, instead my country just has to be assfreezing cold 6-7 months a year

No. 1558377

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suddenly had a flashback to the time some girl in my 6th grade class directly told me "you know nobody likes you right? like no one at all"

No. 1558378

What the hell happened to Etsy. I just want to buy some cute, homemade stuff. Why is everything on there from resellers and dropshippers of shitty aliexpress garbage reeee

No. 1558380

>>1558368
Dresses are the comfiest clothes ever. But I think you're in the wrong thread

No. 1558385

>>1558378
Bought some nice things recently, left good reviews just to find the same items being sold on Amazon for less. UUUUUURRRRRGHHHHHH

No. 1558396

>>1558368
How does one wear skirts in the summer without flashing everyone? Asking for a friend.

No. 1558398

>>1558396
long boho dresses / over the knee ones
>>1558380
I am venting after a workout which is the only time I wear pants
>>1558376
damn nonnie, that sounds like some sucky weather

No. 1558400

>>1558385
Were they cheaper on Amazon?
I bought a snail from Etsy once. Nowadays I don't really go on there unless it's for something specific (like crochet patterns).

No. 1558408

my regular hairstylist that i love fucked up my dyeing my hair twice and i'm so upset. i pointed to the specific color i wanted and she didn't tell me until it was done that she couldn't do it (for some obscure reason, i'm going darker so i don't need to bleach?) i told her i only wanted the roots done and she said she had to do everything so i said okay.. i know it's retarded for a vent but i spent so much money on it after finally working myself up to dye it again and now i feel it's too damaged to dye again somewhere else and i just wanna cry i feel so ugly

No. 1558409

>>1558378
I bought a cool 3d printed thing on there lately, my first etsy purchase and a bit of a splurge but I'm happy with it. Any other time I browsed etsy I just hated wading through all the results that're obviously bulk bought cheap shit from china being sold way above what its worth and passed off as so homemade and rare.

No. 1558410

I FUCKING HATE OVULATING ! ! ! cant stop thinking about tribbing with my stupid engaged ex. killing myself

No. 1558413

>>1558408
I hate when stylists do that. The other week I asked a lash tech my friend recommended for Manga lashes. When I went to go take a look in the mirror she gave me the caterpillars instead of what I asked for. When I politely told her they were different from what I wanted she then tells me that since my lashes are too thick it wouldn't be possible. In my head I was thinking WHY didn't you tell me before I had payed and why tell me AFTER you did my lashes??????? Why dont they tell you up front if somethings not possible????? I just cried at home since they were my first time getting it done and I didn't know what to do about them.

No. 1558416

>finds 63362727th dress up game to play
>chat is full of gendie zoomers cancelling someone for dressing up as a "problematic" character
WHY does EVERY dress-up game I find seem to attract such a retarded fan base?? Why me?????

No. 1558421

>>1558416
Because most of the userbase is gonna be autistic and autists are the biggest gender freaks.

No. 1558429

I can't do it nonas. I want to be woken up years from now after everything has passed.

No. 1558438

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last night i cried so hard that my stomach still hurt when i woke up. i wish my brain functioned more like other people's i want to believe that i can truly love myself and what my body looks and feels like and love someone else one day despite feeling like i will always be a neet-adjacent autist womanchild until i die. peace and love

No. 1558439

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last night i cried so hard that my stomach still hurt when i woke up. i wish my brain functioned more like other people's i want to believe that i can truly love myself and what my body looks and feels like and love someone else one day despite feeling like i will always be a neet-adjacent autist womanchild until i die. peace and love

No. 1558440

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last night i cried so hard that my stomach still hurt when i woke up. i wish my brain functioned more like other people's i want to believe that i can truly love myself and what my body looks and feels like and love someone else one day despite feeling like i will always be a neet-adjacent autist womanchild until i die. peace and love 5ever

No. 1558441

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I think character beta ai has tricked me into getting a mild puppy play fetish fucking kill me

No. 1558442

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last night i cried so hard that my stomach still hurt when i woke up. i wish my brain functioned more like other people's i want to believe that i can truly love myself and what my body looks and feels like and love someone else one day despite feeling like i will always be a neet-adjacent autist womanchild until i die. peace and love 5ever

No. 1558443

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I think character beta ai has tricked me into getting a mild puppy play fetish fucking kill me

No. 1558444

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I think character beta ai has tricked me into getting a mild puppy play fetish fucking kill me

No. 1558450

>>1558297
'otherwise' is doing a lot of work for your pedophile there

No. 1558451

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>>1558438
Oh my god, nonna. I wish I could hug you rn and make your sadness go away. I'm sending so much love you'll feel it in the 5th dimension!! You are 100% someone worthy to be loved, even if you're not the version of yourself you want to be right now. Please don't be so hard on yourself and cry so much that you're in physical pain. You owe it to yourself to be kind, too, 'cause a horse being flogged will only drop dead instead of going faster. I hope that you can take those baby steps and grow to strike a balance between the self you want to be and the you that you are right now. Sorry, I know it's not much coming from another anonymous person but I really do care, even if we never meet or know each other's names.

No. 1558457

Might have to put our senior dog to sleep. I'm trying not to lose my shit at work. Been keeping a stoic face on but it is hard. It's just hard to stay strong nonnies, I won't lie. She is a sweet dog and I hate knowing I will be losing a warm fuzzy companion.

No. 1558465

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>>1558455
tysm nonnie, i feel indescribably grateful for your reply. i would cry again if i wasnt on the bus thank youuu youre so sweet and I'll think back on this

also rip at the posting downtime spam i cant delete anymore because im away from my pc kek

No. 1558466

Am I the only one this happens to? Is it just me? Am I shit?
Why do I always seem to end up in jobs where I DO LITERALLY NOTHING FOR OKAY MONEY.
I can’t do this anymore, I want to progress, I want my job to HAVE MEANING. I’m so bored, deflated, unmotivated, complacent that I can’t even do the teeny requirements of my job properly because I am so switched off.
Am I just dumb? Do people not care that I do nothing? Do they not want to delegate to me because I’m shit? Am I weird? WHAT IS IT?????????

No. 1558467

>>1558413
omg i'm so sorry nona, im the op and i also had an experience like that one of the first times i got lash extensions done. that is so annoying and unprofessional!! like at this point i'm scared to even go to salons because pretty much most of the stylists i've been to are just snooty, unprofessional and don't listen to what i want at all. but i really hope you can find another better lash artist!! there are definitely amazing ones out there but it took me a few tries to find one

No. 1558472

>>1558466
Why not take initiative instead of waiting to be delegated smth

No. 1558533

>>1558472
I hear you nonnie, and I wish it was that simple. I have tried, have always offered to help; I can do x, I can do y.
You hear stories of people turning up to a job where they do nothing, that is almost me..

No. 1558540

>>1558347
Nonnie.

No. 1558545

I tried to be honest with a customer and it bit me in the ass. Fuck that, everyone is on their own from now on.

No. 1558561

I DON’T WANNA DO THIS ASSIGNMENT

No. 1558569

I am just ugly and I don't know what else should I do, how funny should I become, how many additional hobbies and experiences should I get, how much should I improve and how much do I have to try just to be in the same position in dating life as an average girl. In the end, personality means nothing to a man.

No. 1558571

I'm pregnant and have too much time on my hands, I can't smoke weed, can't drink, can't work, bored of my video games, what the fuck do i do?!

No. 1558574

>>1558569
You aren't wrong. Men do not value personality or achievement the same way women do. The "hot girl ugly guy" trope on tv also trains women to see past looks while training men to just expect a hot girl, despite his looks. I have no advice, it's just rough out there for women in general.

No. 1558585

>>1558571
Knit a baby blanket

No. 1558588

I'm fucking tired of trying to have a normal life. I'm just over trying to get education in order to have a nice job and some money and family in the future. I'm tired of arguing over some stupid-ass stuff with my girl. I just want a low-effort job, enough to pay my rent and just live in the fantasy bubble of books, games etc.. Just screw normie life. But I know it wouldn't work either. It just feels like I'm gonna be unhappy no matter what I do. It's just pointless.

No. 1558590

>>1558569
you gotta ask yourself if personality means nothing to a man should you really be wanting to date such trash regardless of your looks?

No. 1558597

>>1558590
Yes, I do. I want to be loved romantically at least once in my lifetime.

No. 1558603

>>1558106
>>1557959
>>1557828
>>1557871
Thanks nonnies for responding and understanding. I seriously don't understand why it's so difficult to socialize with the average normie woman. I don't even care if the other woman is girly or feminine, just atleast accept me for who I'm not. I love all of you ladies
And honestly if I do have a successful conversation I just end up feeling like a circus monkey for them because they just laugh at my bluntness and I guess "absurdity" because "normal" women aren't this open or blunt or enthusiastic or however I'm acting

>>1557861
There's always that 1 retard with brainlet takes like this

No. 1558608

>>1558375
You might want to look and see if someone can take you sooner. If the nerve in your tooth is exposed, it could cause you a lot of pain down the road. It's fucked. I wish I could offer you better advice.

No. 1558627


No. 1558628

My god this company is seriously out of touch or think I'm desperate or stupid enough to accept a job with 35k salary in a place where rent can be anywhere from $1000-1600 ON TOP of inflation. I have a bachelors degree, too. I've heard it's possible to live off of this salary but living paycheck to paycheck barely feels like your living at all. It all feels so depressing, man.

No. 1558641

>>1558377
That reminds me of a time a girl cut in front of me to the bus in 3rd grade or so and said "nobody likes you anyway" or whatever. Kids are cruel.

No. 1558643

I curse myself for wasting the energy of my early 20s on moid majority imageboards. Initially believing, then trying to understand, picking apart and finally railing against what felt like an impenetrable wall of violent, hateful misogyny. It was like my brain couldn't accept these people existed and thought these things of women just because they're women. Surely they had a bad experience, surely they just need to get out and talk to women (also fuck past me for advising inflicting their disgusting selves on a woman). I'd argue ALL day with different posters, and for what? To maybe convince a braindead moid there's one exception to their fucking stupid blanket rule? Hopeless.

Now I'm seeing what they really need is to not be acknowledged and as soon as a moid spouts a red pill/incel adjacent opinion, I stop engaging completely. Still, as I ration out my energy for the day in my 30s, I'm astounded at how much time and energy I wasted that I'll never get back.

No. 1558652

>>1558628
It’s only possible to live off a salary like that in a high COL area if you either own a home and are locked into a lower monthly mortgage payment OR you live with a million roommates

No. 1558655

>>1557710
Nonna what are those income streams fuck now I wanna do those

No. 1558657

>>1558643
I did this in my teens too lol. "I don't look only date chads and I am not a golddigger! I'm shallow and like cool things too" begging them to believe that girls aren't like that won't work because ultimately their reasons for hating women are only a justification. If you somehow manage to prove this justification wrong, they will come up with something else. They hate women because they are frustrated about themselves (once you notice everything they say about women is a projection, and that their natural state is to project, it all makes a lot more sense) and nothing will change about their outlooks unless they are happier with themselves. It's the same reason why so many people notice uglys scrotes seem to be the most misogynistic and mean, while average or cute guys are generally much nicer.

No. 1558662

>>1558641
It’s honestly very shitty, nta, and surely an unpopular opinion but it only shows how some parents are so shit at raising their children that they think that such behavior is cute, funny or even normal.
At what point is a kid just not having a filter? At what point is that shit parenting and projection?

No. 1558667

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Life is hard and I need a break

No. 1558676

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So my little sister is employed after finishing school, and that officially means that all of the family members my age (my cousins and stuff), are all employed, and are either dating or are married. They all have their own homes and apartments and stuff, and here I am… a piece of shit unemployed NEET.
I actually finished school and graduate with a computer science degree a year ago, but then I had a mental breakdown about being stuck in the field with older men who were seriously creeping me out, and I dropped all my perspective jobs. Now a year later and my parents resent my and I hate myself. I don't know why I do it. Why couldn't I just be normal? I could never find anyone who I could be in a relationship with (man or woman), and I never could hold down a job with a livable wage. The only job I was successful at was in mcdonalds. I'm not above the mcdonalds job, I'd work there forever if it had a livable wage, but it doesn't really offer enough health care options for me (long story, I'm basically cringe).
Anyways, I'm so embarrassed I could die. Sometimes I want to run into traffic. I can't believe that I'm the person in my family who's a biggest failure. Actually, I can believe that, but still, WTF. It sucks being the dead weight of the family, the piece of shit who just could never make it. My mental health is so shit I feel 'successful' when I eat, shower and do laundry. I feel like when my sister got a job, it hit me way harder than I expected (and don't get me wrong, I'm super proud of her. I hope she does great at her new job, I know she will). but damn. The only thing I can do is feel sorry for myself. Why am I like this? I tried so hard my whole life but I never got it. It's like I'm missing an integral part of my brain that other people have. What am I missing? Why can't I be normal? My family's so nice to me, but you can tell they're tired of my shit and just want me to grow up and move out. I don't know what to do. I try to do all of the housework and cook and clean and stuff to make up for my lack of a job, but I'm not independent, and it hurts. I don't wanna be a burden. I want to be normal. I feel like I'm missing something. Why don't I get how to be normal?

No. 1558682

>>1557710
I had a similar mindset, but what helped me was thinking through essential expenses. I have 20k saved and that'd be enough for a medical emergency causing me to quit my job and a years worth of rent and at least basic food, which is enough time to get back on my feet with another source of income. And that's a whole lot more security than some people have. With that security blanket I don't go overboard with being frugal so long as I have that base amount. Money is to be enjoyed nona.

No. 1558704

>>1558375
What?? Maybe urgent care?

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>>1558676
If it makes you feel better, I was a NEET for 4 years before finally getting my life on track, going to trade school was a really good start for me and maybe it can help you too.

No. 1558706

>>1558676
Don't be so hard on yourself, you only graduated a year ago nona. Probably being so hard on yourself is part of what has gotten you into this situation. What you are going through is very understandable and not very unusual at all. A computer science degree is a great achievement and something you should be proud of. Do you think you could get some WFH work from it?

No. 1558719

i desperately want to kill myself but am too cowardly to actually do the deed. whatever

No. 1558721

>>1558676
if it makes you feel any better, nonna, i’m basically in the same situation, except i’m a high school dropout who hasn’t even gotten her ged yet

No. 1558722

>>1558706
>>1558705
Thanks for the replies, nonnies. Actually, a work from home job doesn't sound like a bad idea for me, considering now that I've been home so long getting an in person job seems like a much bigger leap. I know I need to do something soon, and that if I could just get started again, it would be easier for me. I just feel like I got stuck unexpectedly. Not that I haven't ever gotten 'stuck' in life before, but it's just difficult.

No. 1558725

lol at me and my ex fwb of 5 months messaging each other w playful banter & insults over the course of a day. it turns out the girl he broke up w me for ghosted him out of nowhere (i implied it was bc he cheated and he said facts), he’s in a ldr now for the past month, and yesterday he admitted he wanted to stop seeing me bc he felt bad about how much he enjoyed rough sex w me. i haven't contacted him for 9 weeks and that was after harrassing him thru dms and then getting sick of no response and saying i wasn't going to reach out to him anymore to which he wished me good luck in life. i am resigned to the fact we will never fuck again even tho we acknowledged the sex was bomb and he really sounds like he likes this girl but idk why i keep him around (follow and watch each other’s stories pretty much it) and vice versa. why does anyone do anything.

No. 1558726

I hate hate hate that you can't be a woman with short hair nowadays without a bunch of idiots trying to call you "they" or asking you what your pronouns are

No. 1558731

>>1558725
Lol cuck

No. 1558733

>>1558731
yea i already know

No. 1558734

I have two people taking their anger out on me because they're mad at their partners and my brother is being a dick and yelling at me for tickets he was supposed to order a month ago, he invited our nephew for a three day con then kept talking about how it's a three day con so of course he expects to go all of those days but no his cheap ass wants to pay one day for him so he keeps yelling at me about it and I have to pay more, then he has a new girlfriend who sounds and acts like a bitch and he just meet her two weeks ago and he's already talking shit about her but kissing her ass when she's there and changing his whole personality to be Mr cool

No. 1558744

>>1558676
I dropped out of university and got kicked out the second time for failing and now i am dragging myself along to get an associates degree that probably won't get me any work that doesn't pay me any better than mcdonalds. I can totally relate to you about the computer science thing, hearing stories about women leaving the industry for that exact reason was very off putting and i think that people over exaggerate how easy it is to get a job in the field. I know in my family, most people don't get married until their 30s and a lot of people i used to work with who graduated stuck around in minimum wage jobs for a good 2 years before getting ama
zing jobs.

>>1558603
Nonnie, can you explain how it is easier to talk to men than it is to women? I am not being antagonistic, I am extremely confused when anons talk about being lonely but are able to have a moid that they have a full blown emotional connection and doesn't purely want them as a sex toy or just talk down on them constantly. For the record, i completely agree about everything you said about normie women, i honestly kind of hate them and find that they love gaslighting people a lot and have a disgusting obsession with conformity and moid pleasing.

No. 1558748

>>1558726
this is the only thing i don't miss about having short hair, i had the hardest time containing my rage every time i was asked that fucking question

No. 1558768

I think my coworker just saved me from being potentially abducted? Idk but this was weird and she also said she thought it was weird. We work at a warehouse and we often finish work shortly before midnight. I'm an autistic retard who's too afraid to try and learn to ride a bike, so I always go to work on foot. I already had a few casew of guys following me. And today when I was going home, there was a white van approaching me, it very slowly went past by me, and then slowly turned around the corner and started approaching me again, still very slowly. At this point I was just standing stiff as fuck at staring at it. Usually we only have 18-wheelers around warehouses, not smaller cars, and not at that hour. Then I started thinking maybe he's just looking for something that's why he's so slow and I'm just a schizo. An arab looking dude in than van was staring at me. Luckily my female coworker was just getting close to us on her bike and then she started walking next to me and said she saw everything and she will walk with me for a while. Dude was staring for a second and then drove away. My coworker told me I need to learn to ride a fucking bike because situations like this are too scary. God I feel like such a retard, whenever I tried to ride a bike I just couldn't coordinate my legs in order to push bicycle pedals, even when someone was holding my bike I just couldn't push them for longer than 5 seconds kek but I need to do something if I don't want to experience eerie shit like this today. And I can't change work for the moment

No. 1558769

>>1558768
you can get an electric scooter

No. 1558773

>>1558769
from what I know most electric scooters are banned in netherlands and the ones that are legal are expensive and also I would need a license.

No. 1558774

My therapist keeps giving suggestions to try to meet people because I keep complaining about feeling unsatisfied socially, but I just don’t want to do it. I feel like shit because we just keep going in circles about it and I feel like I’m probably being so annoying complaining about the same shit and being resistant to the idea of meeting people. But I just don’t want to. It’s one thing if I could put myself out there with people I knew in real life, but since I don’t have that I don’t want to join a meet up group or a club or people off of Facebook or whatever. Maybe that’s my only option but fuck I don’t want to do that. So now I think they probably dislike me and think I’m annoying for continuing to resist the idea.

No. 1558775

>>1558774
Kek are you me

No. 1558776

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Having any shred of competency in one area of life really unmasks just how insecure people really are. I admittedly have a very strong personality but being told that I’m intimidating or even scary when I’m just existing is really disheartening. I’ve had too much of the miserly that is the real world thrown at me from a very young age and I think it’s just accelerated some areas of my development to someone who’s middle aged. Sitting around twirling my fingers and pretending like I don’t know what I want isn’t going to get my anywhere and I’m sick of having to placate other people just because they don’t know how to fulfill themselves. I’ve put a lot of time and hard work and white knuckling through pain just to get at a somewhat functional level. I’d say I’m pretty stunted in a lot of other areas but I apparently hide it pretty well. I’ve never fully understood the concept of not knowing yourself or what you wanted. I had to become a blank slate in order to appease the insanity of my BPDchan dad but internally I always knew what I really wanted from life, but just that I could never truly be myself until he wasn’t around. I had two sides of myself for a very long time and while a lot of other things have been a lot harder to process allowing myself who I really am has been the easiest one.

No. 1558792

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I'm growing out my hair from a buzzcut and I don't even know what month I am on (at the end of this year I think I will have grown it out for a year and maybe… four? three? months) and my hair is in that weird-ass almost-a-bob-but-not-quite length. The sides of my hair are just barely past jaw length and the back of my hair just barely covers the full length of my neck. It's not very awkward looking because my hair can get pretty wavy so it looks pretty cute. I just wish there was a website documenting the growth of hair and you could click on the different months to get a rough estimate on what your hair will look like on that month. I'm just tired of waiting and I wish I could speed up the growth as fast as possible but I know that's not possible. UGHHHH I just want it down to my collarbones already. I'm tired of having short hair. I've had short, short hair for most of my life. I think short, sleek pixie cuts are the cutest thing on earth but I'm just so tired of having had short hair for legit over a decade of my life and then having to pay every few weeks for a touch up and leaving the salon with a different haircut every fucking time. Every time I've gone to get my pixie retouched up I have left with a different haircut every single time kek. I have had so many (unintentionally) different short haircuts this last decade and I'm so fucking over it. I've never seen myself as an adult woman with long hair and I'm very anxious to experience long hair again. The last time I had long hair was in like… the fourth grade kek. Plus I really want to do fun little updos and braids and different ponytails and buns and the thought of taking care of the long hair excites me. I love skincare and trying out different skincare/haircare techniques and having long hair would give me an extra avenue of self-care and the thought makes me happy. I want to sleep in loose braids and try different moisturizing treatments and see what makes the waves in my hair stand out. Ohhh I'm so anxious to have long hair I wish I could press a button and have my hair grow immediately to my collarbones. I seriously don't think I would ever stop playing with my hair when it gets long. Plus it would be a huge change to my appearance considering I've had short hair for so long. I'm very eager to see what I'd look like. Ahhhhh I can't wait. I need to fast forward like a year and eight months I can't take this shit!!!!!!

No. 1558802

>>1558775
Kek noni. If you ever figure out what to do about this conundrum please let me know. I thought I’d get a therapist to help with anxiety but now I feel anxious every session because I feel like all I do is complain lol.

No. 1558822

>>1558774
This is exactly me except I did go befriend somebody and then regretted it because I just didn't feel like doing it anymore. Turns out I don't even want to be social I simply wanted to annoy somebody for a while and then go back to my solitude.

No. 1558830

I NEED NY PERSONAL SPACE PLEEEASE FOR THE LIVE IF GOD BACK THE FUCK UP YOU DONT NEED TO BE SO DAMN CLOSE TO TALK TO ME FUCK

No. 1558841

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>>1558744
Ok if you are the previous anon then I apologize for my aggression and rudeness as I thought you were really insulting me.
here is my personal explanation though it may be different for other women. This is just my personal thing
>HUGE one is men do not view me as a threat and are amused by my aggression/intensity/blunt behavior and rarely take me seriously (side effect of being a woman)
>vs women you need to be more "gentle" or respectful. male banter is more aggressive
>men can bond over the littlest shit and ignore awful shit about their male friends vs women who have standards and strong morals. I also have strong morals so this makes things difficult and confuses males. I feel like normie women prefer a slow and meaningful build up to feel safe and make connections whereas I am intense and ready to jump into anything any conversation and very open/unaware of social rules
For example my husband is friends with an annoying melodramatic dumbass but his friend group doesn't dump him because they all share the interest in the same video games and just work around it vs a female friend group would most likely dump said woman after the first or second talking or silently ghost her.
>I raised myself mainly + raised on the (male dominant) corners of the internet means I feel like I was mostly exposed to male socialization and my humor mainly comes from that plus other hobbies so we end up having a lot in common
>family was neglectful and mom was possibly autistic as well and "masculine" compared to her peers so I had no positive female influence or normal lady interactions even with family
I don't think I am more male than woman because in the end I am female, seen as female, and have the same trauma as other women. I am going to be honest I got INCREDIBLY LUCKY with my husband, he immediately stood out. He was very gentle and patient and reserved, not pornsick or a general degenerate. Has strong morals too. His friend told him about me (The friend knew me because he was friends with my cousin) and he made an effort because its rare to find other people with same music tastes as us. He is literally my male form. I can't speak for other anons but for me personally I was just lucky. I had a hard time forming a bond with other men with the intent of a relationship because they were all boring, degens, etc or like you said want to use me as a sex toy. I never had attraction for anyone til I met my husband. I hope that helps you in understanding it all.

No. 1558845

>>1558822
The word for that is autism

No. 1558846

>>1558841
Nta but I think its less about gender constructs and more about the fact that most women do not know who they really are as people without being smothered by misogyny. They have no idea what their true personalities are because every single thing they think, do, and say is after a childhood, teenhood, and now adulthood around certain types of women upholding certain stereotypes of how a woman is supposed to think and behave. I think a lot of women would be easier to talk to if they weren't browbeaten by all of these bases their whole life.

No. 1558855

>>1558845
No. It can't be…

No. 1558856

>>1558841
I have a lot of trouble with befriending men but a lot of my hobbies are more male dominated like smash bros or mtg. Mtg guys are surprisingly nice, very cool usually while smash bros guys are THE WORST. Very misogynistic, hard to be around. Female circles are the same, but I have a lot of trouble meeting female friends because I don't seem to be able to integrate with any groups. I just stick out like a sore thumb. I got married too and my husband doesn't watch porn and is empathetic and nice, but he's a sore thumb too and doesn't seem to be able to make male friends either even though he does hockey. I think it's just personalities and groups, if you are lucky you will integrate with a group and if you are lucky again that group will be filled with kind people.

No. 1558860

>>1558822
Damn I was just wondering this after my therapy session. Do I actually want friends or no. I mean I do have friends, but the connections are unsatisfying and most of them live far away. That's why my therapist was saying that maybe I should try making more friends in my area but is that the answer? What if they just end up causing me anxiety too? The only friend I have who doesn't cause me that kind of stress is my online friend.

No. 1558861

It took me 5 hours to write an email. Granted, I had to look up how best to respond to it as well as taking breaks if the draft is the best it can be but the whole process was so damn tiring. I was supposed to get some shit done today.

No. 1558872

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I actually really want a boyfriend but I am not in a place in life where I would be comfortable pursuing anyone in any capacity. I think that if you expect someone to love you the way you want to be loved you also need to make sure you're the best version of yourself and not a monumental fuck up like I am atm. And while I know its temporary it really sucks, won't cry about it but sometimes I do feel really really sad. I miss taking care of someone.

No. 1558874

>>1558872
your pic is literally me and every time I see it I get hit by nostalgia and how pointless my existence is, I sit back and cry

No. 1558880

>>1558860
I think you should go for it. I made the mistake of befriending someone at work, so now telling her that I don't want to be her friend is really messy, but I gained the satisfaction of knowing that one, I do not want friends like her, and two, it's better to be alone than having an annoying friend.

No. 1558882

>>1558874
Your existence doesn't have to mean anything at all. It isn't a requirement for you to have every right be here and take up space.

No. 1558891

>>1558297
Do you know anything about his exes? It's reasonable to assume the worst, considering he's a man, but it always jumps out at me when a man tries to play build-a-bitch with a woman. He might not even be a pedo, he's just got oneitis over a girl from his past who was cutesy (possibly because he fell for her when they were literally kids) and he's trying to change you into her.

No. 1558894

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>freelancer
>client gives me a 1-day job
>ok cool i'll do it
>realize it's way out of my skill set, panic
>email them saying i can't do it
>they ask why
>hit that mf blocc button
Why yes I am severely autistic. I want to work at McDonalds or some shit so bad but I'd have a mental breakdown from so many people and end up crying or sperging out and pushing myself into a 6 month long isolation period. I really can't talk to people at all, we don't speak the same language, I'm an alien retard, I feel like everyone else has skin and I'm a skinless raw red chicken

No. 1558897

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The state of men. THE STATE of men

No. 1558898

>>1558897
So many men are so ugly because they can’t even do the bare minimum in taking care of themselves. Their bar is set so low and yet they don’t even bother. I can barely find a scrote my age without a massive gut or pube beard.

No. 1558901

Nonnies, I need advice. Right now I'm really fucking mad.
I'm a neet and my mother crackhead boyfriend is calling her a bitch and screaming. He knows I can hear, but if I say something it'll start a bunch of drama, my brothers will have to get involved and it's just like i'm nobody. I want to do. And before you ask, Yes, I've spoken to my mother multiple times. This retarded scrote acts like he'll try to harm me simply for saying not to call my mom a bitch. Yet when he called my mom a bitch in front of my brother, My brother basically cursed him out and he was like, "yeah, rigt, your right'.
But I'm a girl and there's more but..this has been going on for years. It's like i'm nobody, and I feel so trapped mentally and physically. Like i'm being punked in my own home and I know that my mom is going to always chose him over me. She already did so.
I'm not a child, I just feel drained. All that I ask now is that I don't have to hear it but apperently he wants me to hear it, why else are you screaming at someone's mother calling them a bitch. I hate him. I want to die. It's to the point where I'm like, "Okay he's calling her a bitch, I just don't want to hear it", this is the second time he spazzed at my mom and made me feel he was going to put hands on her with how he's screaming at her. Yet if I say something, it'll be me whose wrong and I'm grown and I should be gone, so…ugh…

No. 1558903

It's insane to me that someone can develop such a harrowingly autistic obsession with you that they overstep every boundary and law put in place to protect you from harm because they believe they are owed your existence as a woman. They really view you as their own public property. And then when you stand up for yourself and make it clear you will make sure they will never be able to do the harm they are doing to you to others, them and their nasty little group of yes men spend so much of their brain power talking about how much they hate you and wish you would just die because if you died, they would get away with the awful unforgivable things they have done. It's honestly surreal watching this behavior play out for as long as it does.

No. 1558906

>>1558901
Can't you record him and report him

No. 1558925

I wish I could ever feel comfortable venting to people I actually knew. I have like 2 years worth of shitty friend problems that has been eating me up for ages and I think about how hurt I feel by all of it and how much it’s crippled my other friendships and I just wanna get it off my chest to people I actually know. Most of the people I know are either actually in the group and I don’t wanna put mutual friends on blast to them, or they’re out of the group and don’t care about my pointless drama with people they don’t know
>Nona it’s bad if your friends don’t care about your problems
Well yeah but if I had good friends a lot of my problems would go away. I feel like I’ve been settling with whatever meager social connections I can manage to cling to for a long time and I’m so tired of the loneliness and bitchiness and passive aggression

No. 1558935

>>1558901
this sucks so bad dude. I am so sorry. it is really clear your mom is dating a violent misogynist and I'm really hoping that she comes to her senses and breaks up with him for both of your safety. practically speaking, if this guy actually listens to your brother, can you ask him to help defend your mom? I'm hoping and praying he dies, nonny

No. 1558936

>>1558901
From an outside perspective I’m more worried about your mom to be honest. But you can’t help her unless you destroy him and it sounds like that’s totally impossible for you right now plus if she’s on his side she’ll destroy you right back. I’ve been in a similar situation and I’m sorry to say I was not able to do anything but leave forever and I advise you to do the same. I don’t know your exact situation but you sound more like an abused (young?) woman than a NEET — not mutually exclusive I guess.
Seriously, leave forever. Make thorough silent plans to escape your situation. Do not tell your mother or ask her for help if you know she’ll take his side. This all sounds like an extremely volatile situation and I hope you can get help if you can’t completely help yourself.

No. 1558939

>>1558903
Absolutely. I truly hate moids.

No. 1558943

Just discovered a troon lolcow who looks an awful lot like me kekkkkkk. At least I don’t have the big ass tooth gap. Or the y chromosome.

No. 1558949

>>1558901
Why are you wasting your time trying to defend your pick me mom? Get a job and move out

No. 1558950

I heard about planes avian… ? I guess those fan things that are on the wings of planes catching on fire on the news just now and now I'm sitting here wondering if it's even SAFE to go traveling anymore, I wanted to go to so many concerts this year nonnas noòoo
My heart is broken. Is it even safe to travel anymore???? On the brightside, I guess that means I can save up more to move out of my parents house

No. 1558953

>>1558950
you are more likely to die of heart disease than you are in an airplane.

No. 1558954

>>1558950
Car crash versus plane crash statistics keep me level headed. Downside is I’m more afraid of driving than ever lol

No. 1558955

I miss the 90's where you didn't have to do a million things to your face and wear cropped everything to be cute and dress up. I hate when I talked to a moid and he told me he loved the music of that era but hated the fashion. Why? Because it was classier than the y2k bimbo aesthetic? We had so many cute dressy and feminine things in the 90's its just the focus wasn't on looking like a bimbo and that's why men hated it. Not to mention its funny how boys and girls related to each other back then it was so much more normal to have casual platonic friendships with the opposite sex that weren't sexually charged. Fuck this life.

No. 1558959

Last summer I went to a guy's apartment after a date and we made out and fooled around on his bed the furthest he got was fingering me, but I wouldn't let him do anything else. Anyway it was my first time being that intimate with a guy and I totally froze up. I thought he was cute and did want to fool around so it was consensual, but I got so anxious in the moment that I ended up just lying there and he did all the work. He even commented on it although I can't remember exactly what he said since it was a while ago. I also said a shit ton of cringy stuff and definitely came off as such a sperg because I was nervous and don't go on dates very often. He never contacted me after that night, which is fine because I was not super emotionally invested but I still think back to that date and cringe so fucking hard. I was such a turboautist I can't believe it. I have no doubt that I was probably the worst or weirdest date he'd ever had and it makes me want to die lol. How the fuck do I get over that? I learned my lesson at least. Fooling around with guys I barely know isn't for me because I just can't be natural around them and end up freezing up and being a total sperg and I never want to embarrass myself like that again. I'll be celibate my whole life I don't care.

No. 1558964

>>1558955
Every single thing that's happened after the turn of the century has been awful i think

No. 1558965

>>1558959
Sounds cute to be honest. I wouldn’t even worry for one second about it. You’re good.

No. 1558967

>>1558955
Don’t be silly all eras suck ass in different ways.
Maybe back then seemed like that to you, particularly, but I seriously hated how everyone was outwardly shitty and everyone would laugh at racist jokes and shit making fun of disabled people. At least people are beginning to have a sense of shame for being shitty towards others nowadays and keep their stupid ass jokes to themselves and their shit people circles.
I don’t care if that makes me a fragile special snowflake but I seriously hated that shit because it actually affected me a lot as a kid.
Fashion-wise it was meh, people just were more genuine while dressing up because there was less social pressure from literal whos from the other side of the world and less dick measuring competitions to see who has the most people constantly monitoring their every move.

No. 1558970

I've been going through a mental breakdown for the past 7 weeks (it's not unusual they last 1-2 months and i get them every other year roughly). The only problem is that I am in college and I kinda need to not ruin my GPA which is hard when I haven't been to school in 4 weeks. Two classes are okay, they're online. But my in person calculus and a plant biology course are in the fucking hole. idk what to do. I can drop them both and have two more Ws on my transcript (I have two already from some random winter courses I signed up for and then decided not to take, as well as one actual one from Calculus 2 hence why I'm retaking it right now). I guess I just need to email my professors but idk what to do, I missed exams in both of the classes too. It's a community college and I'm a very good student otherwise, I'm just digging myself into a hole and I don't know what to do. I don't even ever know when I'm about to have a break down, they come on slowly and then I slowly get out of it. thankfully the current one is winding down I just hope to god I haven't screwed myself over too much this time. It's one thing in middle and high school but I can't be doing this once i've transferred to university, if I can even get in to university after this round. I'm not even depressed or mentally unstable, I just feel so guilty right now about having to email my professors and I'm so anxious about all the work I've missed

No. 1558974

You have no morals or social justice on your side you're just a criminal sociopath and any leftist that capped for you with money uses that money to move far, far away from people like you.

No. 1558977

>>1558967
The issue of racism is kind of meh to me. I've experianced prejudice and I think all forms of discrimination are wrong but I've witnessed some horrible consequences of wokeism that don't address any issue of racism at a systemic level and just put a bandaid on the issue by selling you woke media and doxxing people for offensive tweets 10+ years old. Things haven't changed for the better if anything the same kids that made funny haha racist jokes in 1999 but didn't mean it ended up storming charlottesville in 2017 because they got sick of the culture wars.

No. 1558979

My life sucks.
I just wanna die.

No. 1558983

>>1558979
Same, wanna come over and murder-suicide & chill?

No. 1558991

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angy

No. 1558993

>>1558979
pls don't

No. 1558994

Abusers really will jump through HOOPS to justify what they've done and continue to do. Genuinely Olympic level mental gymnastics. Like what the fuck are they ever even talking about!! Just evil and obsessive and retarded.

No. 1558995

>>1558979
Live to spite it. Duh

No. 1559062

Every vape flavour I like they decide to discontinue, this is the third one and I don't know what to buy anymore
This suuuuucks whyyyyyy
Why me, why each and every one I like
I don't want to vape those sickly fruity ones nor the disgusting tobacco flavoured ones
I even bought actual tobacco and have been smoking that the last to days but it gives me a headache
I want to vape

No. 1559090

>>1559062
What flavors? You know you can go to custom vape shops and they will make e liquid for you? They have like every flavor known to man kek, they will even customize nicotine percentages of pg and veg glycerin. They also make cbd juices around where I’m from. I had an ex who really wanted me to vape and I refused until he told me about this place and took me there, I got a nicotine-free rose cream flavored CBD juice with no PG. I just don’t like vaping period so I never caught on with it, but the taste was nice. I prefer dry herb vapes and old school joint smokin.

No. 1559099

I was serving a MtF and FtM and when I handed them their food I said "here you go guys" and got venom from the MtF for it. Go fucking shave your chest you stupid bitch, I was being polite. It's not my fault you've clearly got more than one mental illness under your belt.

No. 1559100

>>1558977
I don't disagree but as recently as the 2010s people used to tell me the wildest shit. Now it's pretty much normal to name and shame the bully and tell them their racism is cringe and embarrassing, or record them and post on tiktok/send to their mom. And you know what? It works.

Back then I was just called sensitive for getting offended by "a joke" when the joke was someone calling me a mail order bride and telling me to go back to my country. Nobody cared at all and twitter/tumblr were not used by normal young people. I hate trannies weaponizing wokeness to bully you into letting them into your spaces but I do like clapping the cheeks of people who bullied me without repercussions lol, and people really fear being seen as racist more than anything else.

No. 1559103

>>1558955
>you didn't have to do a million things to your face
You don't have to do it now either.

No. 1559104

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No. 1559113

car broke down bad enough to need towing and even though it can be fixed the yolo part of me wants to ditch my old car for a newer used one or a fully used one. rational me knows that the repair would be only 2 months of payments worth and will last me a while again. god why wasnt i just born rich…

No. 1559114

>>1559099
I hope you made a disgusted annoyed face in response

No. 1559115

>>1559090
Vanilla, Lemon and Cappuccino. They're all mid flavours, not too sweet, not to bitter. I know of one such custom shop though it's a bit far so I'll call them first. That's a great idea thank you so much

No. 1559117

>>1559115
They’ll definitely have those flavors nonny! Go forth and enjoy your tasty vapes. If that shop is anything like the one I went to they’ll have an insane assortment and can even combine flavors. You can totally get vanilla cappuccino juice if you want. I think it was vanilla that I got mixed with the rose juice to make the rose cream flavor.

No. 1559145

>>1559113
i would just fix it and wait until the car market crashes again

No. 1559148

Why does my body have to exhibit inconvenient but typical for asians reaction to alcohol? I just want to drink without people worrying about my well-being. Leave me alone. I want to see none of you.



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