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No. 1604285
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She says she doesn’t want kids but she’s lying to you. That’s gonna be your wake up call. You’ll call me and tell me I was right, just like I was right about everything else I’ve warned you about since you’ve known me. You’ll apologize for letting your evil side that you told me about that one time we were tripping take over your good side. You’ll acknowledge you let it happen and her and her dad encouraged it. They are both evil spiritual voids intent on trapping your soul here and you’re too blinded by thinking you’re above me and my “chaos” to realize you’re being duped while they run a campaign against me and everything I stand for. For now you’re a fake sell out, but I really think in a few years I’ll get that call from you and your voice will be back to normal. You’ll have the goodness back and you’ll apologize. I’ll forgive you, but for now and until then, I hate you and I hate that you let some evil entity bring out your evil side to the point it completely overtook your goodness.
No. 1604289
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How do I stop comparing myself to others? I can’t even admire something on someone else without ragging on myself, it’s not just looks it’s personality. I am trapped in a prison of my neuroticism..
No. 1604293
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I hate what I have become. I used to have hobbies that I was ACTIVELY pursuing and was interested in. I used to be able to sit down and just read a book or finish a film. I used to attempt to get out of my comfort zone to socialize and maintain friendships.
Now I'm doing the absolute minimum in everything. I stopped my hobbies because just scrolling endlessly and watch short Youtube videos takes less effort and gives the same amount of satisfaction. I start watching films or read books only to drop them some time later and never finish them. Lost all of my friends. Occasionally someone writes to me but I cannot make myself answer.
I know I'm not depressed because I can function just fine, I eat regularly, I can work, I talk to my family members, sometimes even work out. I am just numb and mostly do things on an autopilot and don't know how to get back to the way I used to be
No. 1604301
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I rarely get affected by coffee but I decided to drink a cup at around 11 o'clock at night because I'm an idiot. Of course this is the one time coffee affects me so now I have an intense heartbeat that's really painful. Which also means I didn't get any sleep last night.
I have drunken plenty of water and exercised but it's no use my heart is still beating like crazy I feel like I'm being hunted for sports.
I read that caffeine will leave your system after 6-10 hours but 10 hours has already passed and my heart is still beating. Fuck this I'm never drinking coffee again
No. 1604303
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I'm so sad that I was too ahead of the times, kek. I'm serious - when I was still a teenager (circa 2015-16) I wanted to dress just like what is today called dark academia, but back then it didn't have a name. I just called it 'British style'. Clothes like that were so hard to find in my country/my part of Europe, only Uniqlo had something similar and you had to wait for autumn usually.
Brown clothing in general was almost non-existent, thrifting hadn't caught on here and the local thrift shops only had very large clothing left over from dead old people. Online thrifting didn't exist either. The only colors you had here were black, white, navy blue, maybe 'millennial pink'. Skinny jeans with holes in the knees were at their peak and finding a shoe that wasn't an ugly ballet flat or sky high heel was hard. Now autumn tones are trending and so did dark academia until recently, the silhouette I could only dream of then is popular now, and nice shoes to go with the style are everywhere but I took my wardrobe in a different direction and now it's too late.
No. 1604314
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Can an anon answer please? What the fuck do I do with my life? I have nothing to talk about. I am socially awkward from growing up ill and isolated from my peers in childhood. Even at my real adult years, full time job, living independently for over 6 years, I am still immature. Socially. I don't know how to keep friendships going, I am uncomfortable with talking to new people and getting to know them. My friendships are with men on the Internet, consisting of sharing memes. I have become depressed for 4 years, only have 1 friend since university and they live in another country, I was so depressed that I forgot what I even like. I tried new hobbies but they were only interesting for 1 month tops. The only friends I made at those hobbies and at my current job were with guys who hit on me who then all disappeared when they got into relationships. I can get into relationships but they end up in painful breakups because I want a family and they want to wait 10 more years, or "don't know what they want". The men here that want a family for sure are either cultish religious, over 40 years old burnouts, or racist redneck types, and I am an immigrant with a shitty job and some feminism and real morals. I am not gonna off myself of course but what is the point of living a life all alone? All I ever wanted was just normal: good friends to go out with sometimes, chat about life and deep topics, have a family with a loving husband. This all seems too much to ask. I tried Bumble BFF, it's pretty much dead, tried events at my gym but was too tired to keep going to them (caffeine gives me insomnia) every club I joined was full of people younger than I am and meanwhile we could be friends, I would feel weird messaging 20 year olds to hang out with me. I have my mom and dad, I am very grateful for that, but it's not the same as friendships with peers.
No. 1604456
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I hate summer so much. I hate summer even more in countries that aren't built around the heat. But I just hate summer in general and have no idea why people enjoy it so much. In very specific circumstances, where you don't have to walk about a lot/work/exercise/clean the house etc I'm sure summer is very enjoyable. I'm sure it's very enjoyable if you can sit in a floaty dress in a nice quiet field where there's a breeze and some shade. But no one has the time for that shit really and trying to navigate everyday tasks when there's blistering heat and AC is nonexistent in this country is actually a nightmare and it's driving me insane.
Every time summer comes around I fear the heatwaves and anything above 22c. It makes me feel sticky, extremely tired and sluggish and I can't get shit done as efficiently as I can in this country's normal weather. I even walk to the gym in the snow and rain and 2c weather but when it's hot I just cannot cope, I wish I could just slumber and hibernate over the summer and emerge into autumn like the true English rose that I am. I HATE SUMMER
No. 1604464
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i need to find a job soon but i hate job seeking so fucking much
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>>1604492
No. 1604521
>>1604456Same, I wanna scream every time there's a news forecast with a celebratory remark that "now we will get to enjoy the WARMTH oh yeah!", like shut up I'm suffering
>>1604504>I hope all women get divorcedSo do I because it increases scrote suicide rate. Marriage is a shit deal for women.
No. 1604580
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I have a license and a car. I’ve been driving for almost 10 years but only on rural roads and areas I’m familiar with. However I recently moved to a major city in the US for work and I haven’t been able to go anywhere without my fiancé driving me. I know I can do it but I’m terrified of getting into an accident, there are too many cars and people here. I’m just rotting in this apartment most days because I can’t get back behind the wheel. I know the solution is to just go for a drive but it feels damn near impossible for some reason.
No. 1604604
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I've lived in a literal desert province for eight long years now, and I've managed to tolerate the heat just fine up until this year. But let me tell you, this summer is hotter and drier than anything I've ever experienced. It's so unbearably sweltering you'll break into a sweat within minutes of stepping outside, even in the middle of the night. The locals can't even handle it, so how am I, a northerner, supposed to survive? The government won't do a damn thing about climate change and even if they did, it'll take centuries to recover. That's why I'm starting to think that geoengineering might be our only hope. As much as I hate to admit it, we need some drastic measure to alleviate this heat and drought. I'm willing to admit that I'm one of the lucky ones. People are dying en-masse from heatstroke, and helpless animals are dying or fleeing their habitats just to stay alive
No. 1604623
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Fucking hate comics like this, its pretending to come from a place of virtue, but its just setting up a woman strawman and then calling her a misogynistic term. And at the end of the day this comic is basically saying "it's OK to call a person a misogynistic term, they deserve it and their hysterics is ridiculous" I would fucking slap whoever made this comic.
And fuck you, I hate Mexican cuisine and calling me a karen isn't going to make me like it
No. 1604634
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>>1604592>>1604597Unfortunately I live in a city regarded as having the worst public transportation in the country. Not to mention there are a couple homeless encampments near my apartment so the bus stops are usually makeshift shelters like picrel except add 10+ more people, and they get pretty territorial from what I’ve seen and heard.
No. 1604657
I posted in the last thread about my sister's boyfriend telling me that they were moving in 3 months, and how I was very hurt that she didn't tell me herself. Well, I talked to my sister about it and she didn't know what he was talking about. Like, they had talked about it as a possibility in the future, but it was never a set plan. She said that she would never do that without telling me. She apologized to me and said that it was messed up that he said that but that he didn't mean any harm. That he's just a bit dumb and that she'll talk to him about it. Everything seemed normal so I almost thought she hadn't spoken to him yet. I waited a bit and sent her a text asking how the talk went. She said "good" and that was it. I don't know. I still feel kind of weird about it. Like, why is the bf not apologizing to me? Why was my sister apologizing for the dumbass behavior of her boyfriend in the first place? Am I being ridiculous to even expect an apology? Am I making a bigger deal of it than it is? I felt like he was being very disrespectful to me, and in a way to my sister as well, since she's still on the fence about moving at all. I don't even know why he would say that in the first place if it wasn't true, when I spoke with my sister I asked if he was testing the waters or something and she sighed and says he likes to "push things." I feel weird about it. I don't know. I want to be happy for her because she really loves him but I'm starting to really hate men and I worry for her a lot. He doesn't seem malicious, just really dumb, but I've been hurt too much by men to not overly read into everything they say and do. I'm holding my tongue on it for now because I don't want to rock the boat too much but I just don't know what to make of all of this. Maybe I'm being dramatic.
No. 1604659
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>>1604623these comics are always so contrived. Anti-immigration conservatives from the border states tend to love mexican food, or at the very least texmex.
No. 1604751
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Men who are so afraid of the word relationship are so fucking pathetic, it's insane. Why do they act as if calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend means that we're gonna end up married and with 3 kids? We trust each other, you rely on me when something happens and I rely on you, we can't see each other too often because the circumstances are what they are, but when we are together we act like a couple, neither of us talk to other people or sleep around, etc. The fuck are we? acquaintances? fucking kek
Call me whatever the fuck you want, it doesn't negate the fact that you're a giant manchild who is afraid of compromise and gets scared because I mentioned the word "dating". Grow the fuck up already.
No. 1604807
>>1604800all of this is bullshit
moids are over 200 times more likely to get jumped and raped in the ass by another moid than it is likely for them to get falsely accused of rape by women - yet somehow none of them walk around deathly scared for their ass virginity while they never shut up about all women being potential "false accusers"
No. 1604809
>>1604774> They’re so fucking obnoxious, they want all of the benefits a girlfriend provides but squirrel away from commitment because they know they’re too big of losers to step up even in the most bare minimum way.that’s exactly it. He comes running to me when he needs comfort, he tells me stuff about his life I doubt too many other people outside of his close friends/family know, because he knows I’m gonna be there to support him, but god forbid I dare to think that maybe I’m more than just a “special friend”.
He wants me to care about him, love him and have sex with him, do all the things you would do in a regular relationship, but then gets upset when I expect the same in return?
No. 1604842
>>1604832I'm not a model. Never interested, not good at it, no desire. If I were taller I might try just because. I've met tons of models and all of them are kinda insane and have a chip on their shoulder. Several of them hated me based on my looks, saying they get told they are ugly on a regular basis and my looks is more ideal. Um, you are the one being paid to model, paid for your appearance. I am not. You also chose this profession, I know my self esteem would drop and pursued other things. Come the fuck on now.
Anyway that's my vague experience with models. They weren't famous or rich, a lot of them did adult work to support themselves. A lot of them are poor and tricked by agencies. Idk I've seen enough to not envy that life. You are making a good choice.
No. 1604856
>>1604841You wouldn't have heard of her, anon. She was never big time. She was in a few different countries Vogues, but almost always as the token "exotic" non-white woman. Never got truly famous but I did see some faggot with an 80s aesthetic blog post her on tumblr once, back in like, 2012 or something. That's her legacy, faggy aesthetic blogs. Not exactly a household name.
>>1604842All models are fucked up. Never met a normal one who had any manners. You're right about not being rich. My mother got ripped off by an agency too, it's a really common occurrence, especially for foreign women that are poorfags like my mother. I guess most don't discuss it as it ruins the glamorous look and lifestyle they want you to think they have.
>>1604843Yes, but I'm already married, kek.
>>1604844Aye aye, cap'n.
>>1604848She fucked one of the Miami Vice guys and got rejected by Tom Selleck, which she is still bitter about to this day. That's all you're getting out of me before I dox us both, kek.
No. 1604864
About two months ago my boyfriend very upfront asked me about my ring size, and what kind of stones I liked. He said he just simply wanted to get me a gift, and he was going to do some research into rings to find me a nice gift. He's always pretty upfront about things like gifts, planning dates, he'll just flat out tell me that he bought me something or that he's taking me somewhere specific, he's not a secretive planner
Anyway, a few days ago he was on his phone and I asked what he was looking at and he says "Don't worry about it". And then that night as he got into bed he teasingly said something about a "date" he had planned for "next week", and then laughed when I started asking questions and told me to go to bed. For the first time he's being secretive about something he's planning
I want it to be an engagement so bad, to the point I'm worried how I'm going to take it if it's not an engagement. I love this man with my whole heart but I'm so ready to have a real commitment with him. I want him to propose so badly, an embarrassing amount, and now I've gotten my hopes up that it's going to crush me if he doesn't. With how excited I feel about this, if he doesn't propose I think I'm going to end up silently setting a deadline for it. I want to be married, I want to be a mother, if he doesn't propose this week I'm going to figure out how long I'm realistically willing to wait and start silently counting down. I don't want to be a forever girlfriend.
No. 1604889
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I hate this fat fuck that I used for temporary housing because he doxxed me and tried to publicly embarass me after I dumped his ass and wanted nothing more to do with him for being an immature cringey retard. Kept pressuring me back into a domestic relationship with him and would not take no for an answer when he would threaten me if I would not meet up with him "to talk" about the breakup. He tried to steal my trauma for an abortion I went through and claimed it as his own trauma until he deleted it for how incredulous it looked. Yeah, that kind of asshole.
What drives me extra irate is that as soon as he got a new girlfriend, he stopped his unhinged sadboy act towards me–was so dramatic when I only stayed with him for 4 months–turned into a champion for anti-misogyny even though he was a hateful ass towards me. Even when I was there he would refer to me as "the girlfriend" as if I had no fucking name, and male feminists (lol) totally doxx women and throw tantrums when women don't want to date them anymore amirite?
What's worse is that the woman he's with now is a single mom, and so not only is he larping as a saviour of women but also a weekender daddy for her son. It's fucking gross. Imagine a man fancying himself as a parent just because he took your kid to Chuck E Cheese on a Saturday. Is the bar in hell for her? Does it not make her furious that this creep tries to grab attention using her son and akins this so-called effort to being an actual parent?
I'm ok with women cucking him but they should demand more from this otherwise useless tubba blubba.
I would shoot this roly poly into the fucking river and watch it turn red. The parasitic stain.
No. 1604890
>>1604456Me too nonna but are you able to get like a window ac unit or portable ac unit? In the US window units can be bought for like $100 and for people with non traditional windows (like my house sadly) a portable unit was like $280 but it was so fucking worth it.
>>1604871>tfw autist but not socially anxiousI usually end up making friends who are kinda weird wherever I go, I’d probably have befriended you if I came across you at a party if you were at all indulgent of me sperging at you about something random. I make awkward non superficial conversation with people everywhere I go and sometimes I’ve had my mom tell me I’m making people uncomfortable and I literally do not care. Neurotypicals used to make me uncomfortable my whole life now they can deal with my social weirdness and friendliness and seethe and cope if they don’t like it
No. 1604919
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can't cope I'm gonna jump
No. 1604973
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>Banned 4 "Posting Cookie Pachookie"
This really is 2018 all over again! :D(lost retard)
No. 1604974
>>1604963Men back then actually worked, and if not were sent off to wars. They had purpose and got that male brain aggression out. They would long for their love with letters. They would be stuck around me and smoke cigars or drink and let it out.
Now men dress women, hipsters, children, or famtasy cjaracters, they barely work or make money, they aren't sent off to battle, there is no threat to their lives because mommy is always there and if not a drug den or a modern woman or the streets or their apartment with roommates, and they have the internet on their phones to constantly indoctrinate themselves with all their failures and self loathing and see talking heads who want their money pray on that, they see women not needing them anymore, and they have easy access to hurt people and there in no mental health care for anyone. It's a growing monster.
Also sorry if this described any of you, although I think the anons of this quality got permaed recently
No. 1605025
>>1605009kek sorry reposting for typos. people tend to be self-concerned, it's human nature. maybe the internet encourages circlejerking echo chamber behaviour too because they can't wait for the opportunity to talk about themselves. you either have to take the initiative and if you get an in start talking about yourself or you can wait until a person comes along who will genuinely reciprocate getting to know each other mutually.
i've gotten pretty good at not asking more than i care to know irl or online, you have to stop investing yourself in other people.
No. 1605056
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I'm feeling completely unlovable and like I'm never gonna find a person who loves me and wants to be with me because my social skills are non existent and I'm incapable of forming bonds with other people. For 23 years of my life I only ever felt comfortable enough around 1 person, but he's too afraid of commitment and doesn't feel the same way I do. Feels like pure shit, I thought I was fine being on my own and not having someone until I met him.
How and where do you even meet a moid who doesn't belive in hook up culture and wants to have a proper relationship, without trying to fuck whatever girl crosses his path? Who is also my type? And I am his? I feel like no one like this exists kek
Ah fuck it. I'll just embrace being the crazy cat lady like everyone always told me I'd end up as, at least my cats love me unconditionally.
No. 1605057
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Tired of wanting to see normal art of media I liked and it’s all fucking ugly bimbofied shit. Yes 2B was created by a man for the male gaze, but it was done pretty subtly imo, she’s a modest and stoic character who never even indicates that she knows what sex is. The story has NOTHING to do with sexuality. This character who is created to be a soldier dealing with philosophical questions about consciousness and humanity is taken by all of these people, including countless women, and molded into a silly sex doll with boobs and ass out for male approval and OF follows. I wouldn’t even care or mind if it was balanced at all by normal art or normal cosplay but it’s not. I know this sounds unhinged but I think it kind of upsets me because it gives me the same sickly feeling as when I’m sexualized for just existing irl. If we can’t escape it irl why can’t women even exist as fictional characters and be treated with dignity?
No. 1605112
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what do you even do when you're at the point where you just don't care? i thought i was getting better, i felt like i was getting a handle on my depression, i was genuinely trying my best, i felt content for a good while after years of struggling. the best i'd felt in years. and it just all came back out of nowhere and hasn't gone away despite me trying to use all the skills i've learned, going to therapy, continuing to take whatever drugs they pump me full of because i'm desperate.
i know the only answer is for me to keep going and keep trying, but i don't want to. the only thing i want anymore is to die. i haven't eaten in a week or so, i stopped exercising at all, i dont care for myself, i don't want to. i don't have a job anymore. i'll probably be homeless because i can't bring myself to continue. i would finally end it all sooner but i'm so cowardly, and i don't want to do it in a way that would risk directly traumatizing someone else. i just do things that will inevitably lead to death instead.
none of my loved ones even want to talk to me anymore, i assume because the fact that i led them on and let them down after getting their hopes up after years of this depression bullshit was the last straw. i've taken so much. this is the last thing i could give them back: the chance to be free of me. i just wish i could be around afterwards to see how much happier they were. if i am lucky, there will be an afterlife where i can watch over them without bothering them.
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i pulled a muscle in my neck or something and it's radiating all down my arm and it all hurts so bad i want to fucking die. icyhot and pain meds aren't helping. this whole area is so sore and has been all day
No. 1605136
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>Girl on TikTok posts video explaining that there are different schools of feminist thought
>she's basically a very newborn baby radfem lite at most
>but it's a start
>makes the grave mistake of wearing false lashes and mascara
>vid gets passed around on "blackpilled separatist radfem" Twitter
>mfw watching a bunch of self-proclaimed radical feminists calling a girl a retard and a whore for wearing makeup
It's so much more productive to bash a random woman who's making an effort than it is to go after misogynistic scrotes! Radfem utopia accomplished!
No. 1605151
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About a month ago I decided to just be friends with my then-bf because I'm not in a place to date. I told him he didn't have to wait for me or anything. Fast forward to today, he says he has a date this week. Why does this hurt so much? I don't want to associate with people ever again in any context it's just not worth it when I can't be normal about it
No. 1605152
>>1605144I'm really sorry to hear that nona. Give your little guy lots of love until then. I've owned lots of pet rats and it doesn't get any easier with such short lifespans, you never feel ready for when the time comes.
What I try to tell myself is that I've given my little guys as much love and companionship and care as I possibly could throughout their entire lives; they've never had to experience a hardship, never had to go through sickness or an injury without me being there to help, and now I still need to be there for them in those last moments. Their lives were spent happy and cared for, pampered and fed well. Now their last moments will be no different, they'll know nothing but love until the very end.
You sound like a lovely hamster owner. The grief over losing a beloved pet can easily be as painful as losing any other loved one. Take time for yourself if you can, spend lots of time loving and remembering the good moments, not just the sad moments. Remember that you provided your little hamster guy with a better life than many. Its cheesy, but it helps me to also read that sweet Rainbow Bridge poem and cry a little (or a lot). Let out your pain but don't let it cloud your memories of your beloved pet.
No. 1605182
>>1605152Thank you for the reply, it means a lot from another rodent owner. So many people seem to just brush off any animal that isnt a dog or cat passing. I wouldn't make light of someones lizard, tarantula, fish passing because I know it's still someones companion. I just flattened all his bedding which he isnt happy about but it will make sure he doesnt fall over. Seems like a stroke or brain tumor from other hamster videos. Just keeps wobbling in circles or sleeping. Hoping he doesn't pass in pain.
>>1605174I wont lie I picked hamsters because they're so cute and I love making a habitat for them. It's fun to give them plain nuts and fruit from my own groceries. Couldnt commit to a larger rodent so I went with hamster. Their short life let's you have many hamster personalities over time. The sad part is always feeling so attached by year 1-3 then having them pass though. It is nice to know I give them a lot better lives than commercial hamster stuff. People always insist the enclosure is too big for one little ham but I dont care. Right now I just wish I'd given even more treats, bought a play pen, somehow let him free roam but I always got too scared he'd go behind an appliance then be stuck.
No. 1605200
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>have internalized racism/self-hate triggered by some incel account posting cruel things online
>want to cry thinking about how literally everyone must hate me, I must automatically be ugly no matter what, etc
>suddenly remember the OP is 100% suicidal and painfully lonely
>instantly feel better
For some reason, schadenfreude is at least as good as therapy. At least I have people who love me, am not addicted to social media, and don't feel the need to bash any race because I'm not some kind of pathetic asshole. No matter what nonsense ideas have been drilled into my head, reality says something different.
No. 1605218
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I love bishounen I loves bishies I love beautiful 2d men with pretty faces and are still strong with thin body frames I pity faggots who pretend ugly old tired men can be “babygirls” or whatever the current buzzword is I pity women who have memed themselves into ironically finding “pathetic” an attractive trait like I’m sorry you’ve brainwashed yourself into liking the 2d equivalent of 3dpd moids and you cant see the appeal in a beautiful boy. That doesnt make Karna any less sexier, it just shows that you’re a walking husk of a human who has to hide her terminally shit taste behind 3 layers of irony. My condolences.
No. 1605221
>>1605182AYRT, yeah, those feelings are understandable. I still wish to this day despite it being two years since my last rats passed, I wish I could've given even more treats, more playtime, more room to explore, everything etc etc. But I bet your little hamster was just happy to get treats and playtime in the first place. He didn't know you had even more treats, he was happy with what you gave him. And you can only give so much playtime and space to explore before it becomes dangerous. It was kinder of you to keep him safe rather than let him free roam and get stuck somewhere.
One of my first rats passed from a pituitary tumor, he had similar symptoms to your hamster - the wobbling in circles, weird movements, sleeping a lot. I kept an eye on him, held him until he passed despite that being difficult. He seemed to just fall asleep in my arms. I'd like to think he knew I loved him. Of course I can't read the mind of a rodent, but I bet your hamster loved you too, in whatever way hamsters do.
Sorry, I don't mean to talk so much about my own experiences, but I don't want you to feel alone. Small animals are pets just like a dog or a cat. Even if they're small, they have a big impact on us, since like you said, they all have such unique personalities and you get so attached. It's going to be hard losing your companion, and ignore what people have to say about your pet being "just a hamster". Grieve him as much as you need to when the time comes. Drawing pictures of my rats helped me when they passed. Find a way to honor his memory, if that would comfort you.
No. 1605243
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>>1605063She's has a woman's form but her chest is small compared to most anime game characters. You wouldn't know that from all of the "artistic" liberties people take with fan art to make her their perfect waifu.
No. 1605251
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>>1605245
Die mad
No. 1605259
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>>1605245
How I'm reading this post after episode 490249 of trannies having meltdowns and trying to "cancel" everyone and everything for liking children's books, videogames, gender non-conformity, music by/for women and actual pussy bc all of it is "terfy"
No. 1605262
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Remember to report and ignore ladies
>>1605158YouTube had recently recommended me vids of this JP channel that has Japanese women play games where they remove their clothes the fastest or doing group in very tight clothes. The whole channel is sus and full of horny scrotes on the comments . I hate it
No. 1605266
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Re-reading the so far rereleased strips from Go Get a Roomie makes me a bit frustrated. The art was so pretty for a while, and while the she got better as an artist her stylistic choices became more and more boring. The direction she took with some of the characters annoys me too, the comic was already fairly woke for it's time but then she went overboard, turned one of the mains into a troon (a decision that some other commenters seem to also think was odd for that specific character), retconned some of the character's previous mistakes, and some other shit that didn't make any sense and made the entire cast so boring.
No. 1605281
>>1605057Why'd you choose 2B though? How the hell is she doing male gaze subtly? She's an attractive woman who is explicitly put in sexualized positions. Just running, she already flashes her ass at you.
Now if people were sexualizing Valerie Solanas or Andrea Dworkin, then you might be justified in your hopelessness but your not. Your looking at something that has a purpose (moid pandering) and getting mad its doing its purpose
No. 1605297
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>>1605275Nta but I’m glad they do this. I wish the rate was 100% kek
No. 1605317
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>>1605125Agree with you and picrel. I’m here to have as good of a time as I can have while being as nice as I can to people who deserve kindness, and every now and then antagonizing some sort of villain. All in a day’s life.
No. 1605331
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Wakey wakey mods
No. 1605332
>>1605136>>1605141cute pic. i hate liberal feminism, but this is personally why i am not a radfem really either. i would sum up my views as:
1. i mostly keep to myself, i want people to fuck off and leave me alone
2. anti-perversion (dislike any form of troonism, hate porn, negative views of promiscuity from my own experiences, absolutely hate coomers. no i do not think sex in general is bad or evil)
i choose to not strongly identify as a member of any group because i see online how basically every single political group absolutely LOVES to infight. it seems like a waste of my own time and i do not engage. luckily i have better conversations with people IRL over politics anyway.
No. 1605342
Tbh most bishonen don't even register as human (or male) to me. They're just the male equivalent of modern hyperdeformed anime girls. It's uncanny. A lot of those fuckers don't even have nostrils. And the more complex their designs get, the more appeal they lose.
I'm attracted to males my age, not teenagers. I doubt it's because I was "memed into it", it's more likely that being attracted to those around your own age, and also finding personality traits attractive in addition to looks, is natural. I don't get this extreme obsession with youth (which is not synonymous with beauty) that some people here have. Something tells me those who can't stop shitting on other women's taste for adult or mature men (even if they're fictional, and even if they're not actually ugly) are the type to think other women are ugly too the moment they turn 30 or if they don't wear makeup or perform feminity. In other words, I don't see any other reason those people insist so much on judging other women over something so trivial, other than they're immature and perpetually obsessed with chasing youth and artificial beauty (either through themselves or the characters they obsess over), and that's as sad as low self-esteem TIFs lusting after the ugliest, fattest old cartoon men. It's insane that some people see nothing wrong with the former just because the latter is open about preferring ugliness. Clearly both of them suffer from insecurities, mostly related to physical appearance. I believe those two things are related. If you were confident in yourself and didn't care about your own aging or weren't afraid of people making fun of your looks, you'd enjoy whatever kind of character you like in peace without constantly announcing how much better YOUR taste is and how much other women's taste sucks. Having your own personal opinions about others and their preferences is normal, but virtue-signalling constantly and loudly about it is clearly an obsession born from your own insecurities. Maybe also a desire to fit in, or to feel superior to others (which is in itself a sign of being insecure). In any case it reeks of projection to attack a huge group so strongly based on nothing but… their taste being different from yours? And let's not pretend that the people who do this don't lump in every single thing they don't like into the same group as the worst possible traits, and shit on every woman who likes any of those things for any reason.
Note that none of this has anything to do with how shitty men are in real life, being in love with any 2D male is automatically better for you than being in love with the average real moid, because you can rest assured no fictional man will ever hurt you. (And also I'm obviously not saying we should give any kind of 3D male a chance like these people like to claim sometimes)
No. 1605364
File: 1686645127326.png (65.06 KB, 540x469, bao.png)
>>1605342(mostly) agree. when i was a young teen (up until maybe 17) i always was drawn to the cutesy boyish anime characters. then gradually had more of an attraction to the cool, skilled, somewhat aloof nature of older male characters. not trying to wax poetic, it's just my tastes changing over time and there's no psychopathology involved. i let women have whatever husbandos they want without a peep from me, they can have all the youthful boyish husbandos they want. i am peaceful enjoying my own husbandos (no yucky dad bods or fatties tho).
No. 1605398
>>1605396nah you're just retarded
>>1605386same
No. 1605417
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I really wish people would understand that whenever I mention not being able to eat something or having to watch my calories, that's not their invitation to suddenly give me a novel's worth of unwanted advice about my lifestyle and what I'm doing to improve my health. I'm not even doing a crash diet or any crazy shit either, all I'm doing is sticking to a sustainable TDEE deficit and getting lots of protein in. I love the meals that I make and I can frequently make room for snacks, but whenever I just mention the idea of "Oh sorry I can't eat this deep fried thing with 200g of cheese and then a massive sundae for dessert" they look at me like I'm trying to starve myself. No, I'm just trying to be disciplined because binging on shit like that is what got me so fat in the first place. But people just keep giving me their two cents on my health and fitness and I never even fucking ask for it kek.
The other day, I mentioned to someone that my binge eating was massively reduced and helped by having set rules and set amount of calories per day to follow because I lift weights and want to lose fat/build muscle. They instantly said that I still have eating disordered mindset because "there is no such thing as unhealthy food and rules around food is disordered" when I didn't even ask for their opinion on advice on the matter. It's so fucking infuriating to grow up slowly becoming fatter because I would just eat, eat, eat and now that I've found something that is sustainable and works, people still want to say that it's disordered. I'm not starving myself, I get to have ice cream and fizzy drinks and treats like burgers on a regular basis. I'm losing fat in a slow sustainable manner and getting stronger too. This is enjoyable for me because I finally have control over my appetite and don't feel like a slave to the binging part of my brain and yet people still want to shit on it and criticise me. I'm not harming anyone by doing any of this so just fucking leave me alone.
No. 1605433
>>1605417i know how you feel, nonna. it's like people really hate when fat people make healthy changes. when i was on my weight loss journey i felt like everyone hated me for not wanting to be the ugly fat friend anymore. it's like they want you to just become magically thin overnight because seeing the changes your body goes through over weeks and months upsets them? idk.
keep doing what you're doing and don't let them get to you. next time, just say you don't feel like it or that you already ate or that you brought your own lunch or whatever. my skinny coworker won't even eat a single piece of chocolate because "she just ate" and no one bats a lash at that.
No. 1605446
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When I dreamed of opening my own small cafe themed like the four seasons, and there's already a cafe like that in Japan. I think they created every themed cafe that could exist. Should I still do it.. maybe I can make it more unique with a few changes. Outside of Japan the cafe market is still wide open, only Korea and China have anything similar.
>Haute Couture Cafe
No. 1605481
Everything I read about this new condition the doctor thinks I have (hard to gauge because there's no test for it but everything else has been ruled out) talks about "accepting the pain". Some meds can reduce the pain somewhat, and some lifestyle changes help a bit, but it's never gone, and I have to "accept" it. But I just feel so fucking angry about it.
It feels so fucking unfair that I put so much effort into being healthy, cook such healthy meals every day, exercise so much and my body just decides to fuck me over for no reason. I already had one physical condition to manage and now I get two? As some sort of cosmic joke? Neither are curable but neither are life-ruining either, I know I'm luckier than a lot of people, but it does hurt and it does suck. None of the symptoms are outwardly visible so nobody knows that I'm in some degree of pain all the time and I just want to scream. Both conditions are also related to being female so it took so long for doctors to take me seriously, and the rest of the world never will. On bad days the pain makes it almost impossible to focus, but it's not like I can tell college professors and employers about it and get a pass, because the bad days sometimes last weeks and I never know when a flare up will start or end.
How do people with serious illnesses/conditions who seem happy do it? I'm SO angry, and the people I've met with other conditions (that are much worse than mine, so I know I shouldn't complain about my own situation that much) are also angry and depressed. How can anyone "accept" the pain when you never fucking asked for it and the world will never truly understand or support you?
No. 1605494
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>mfw the stress of not getting my period stressing my body and making it worse so I become more stressed
No. 1605650
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I am so desperate to get out of my living situation. I have fallen back on bad habits ((self harming. Yeah yeah I know only children do it, attention seeking BPD whores. Sue me)). My suicidal ideation is climbing. My friends have put their foot down and are insisting on helping me.. so.. I may be moving to Sweden with my best moid friend. I am nervous as I feel as if I am using him, being a burden and just taking up space but my sanity, safety, health and keeping what relationship I have with my family in tact is more important… I am so thankful for him and my other friends. Canada with another bestie is a back up option but we are trying to avoid it as a collective. I feel loved and it’s hard to let it happen. I am not used to people wanting to help.. going the extra mile like this. I am unsure what to do.
No. 1605673
>>1605650This is gonna sound a little paranoid but please stick with me, you're sure you'll be safe in a different country with a moid, even if he's your best friend? Take care of yourself and definitely get out of your living situation, but just make sure you have enough money to at least buy food and stay in a hotel if things get bad. Never rely on a man for all your needs and shelter, always have a back-up. You can yell at me since he is your best friend, but please at least consider this if you haven't.
Also you're not a burden for asking for or needing help. You aren't taking up space. You have people in your life who want to help you, that isn't you being a burden. You wouldn't call your friends burdens if you were helping them, so why would you be one? Its good that you're taking these steps to get out of your situation, but just be careful out there nona.
No. 1605731
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My lease is up at the end of the month and I’ve been trying to get it renewed however the property manager and front desk will not return my calls or respond to my emails? I’ve gone in person and was told they’ll “pass on the message” but I still haven’t heard back! I’ve got two weeks left and have no idea what else to do? Fuck slumlords and their incompetent lackeys.
No. 1605735
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hearing my older brother talk to his friends about an airbnb he's going to rent and the size of its pool and jacuzzi while my mother and i rely on him for income and eat the blandest basic hospital food tier food ( meanwhile he eats gymbro quantities with expensive supplements ) makes me feel extreme dread. i'm not even sure i have money for 3 days worth of uni commute and he's talking about drinking on a rented villa with his friends. i don't want to explain my financial situation but i just want this to be fixed. he works from home and slacks off all the time always out with his friends yet he's like damn i need a vacation like when aren't you? it's not like he's breaking his back. he only ever gives us money to buy his groceries with, literally. we're living just to eat and sleep and he's renting a villa. and he's his car isn't even his car it's my dad's who is no longer with us . i'm so bitter and i just want to cry but i know there's people without houses to sleep in so i should be grateful but the contrast just fucks with me and i don't like seeing my mom like this i don't like that she obviously can't take it and isn't able to talk him about money at all because he'll get violent destroying shit in his way and will threaten to kill himself again. he literally forbade us from even mentioning money because it "stresses him out" and he isn't responsible enough, like yeah we know we're living in your irresponsibility retard.
i've been living like this since i was about 14 i'm turning 19 in a few months he never even drove me to school because he hates being woken up/is an insomniac which gets him all testerical even when i had exams even on my baccalaureat he couldn't be arsed so it was just wasted taxi money because it was "wasted gas" but he could go see his friends in other cities any time they asked him to just fine.
No. 1605788
>>1605777
>I'm 19You're too young to burn bridges like that. Proud of you for quiting and taking care of yourself mentally but try to give a two weeks notice to any jobs you get so you can use them as a reference (unless you're truly dealing with an asshole boss/
toxic work environment). What made you decide to quit? Also since you're 19, unless you dropped out of HS and never went to college you're technically not a NEET.
No. 1605859
>>1605842i know noni i'm just scared. I know it's irrational but i can't bring myself to do it, i don't know how to put it nicely and
safely since he knows where i live and stuff. I haven't let a moid even hug me for a couple years now so i'm pretty detached from the whole dating game. I feel retarded tbh.
>>1605844thank you sm beb. I will try my best. It's not helping that I'm currently sick with the flu so i ruminate endlessly on if i'm of sound mind at all (i am but i still obsess over it). It's just all so disappointing.
No. 1605864
>>1605859>i don’t know how to put it nicelyForever grateful that female socialization apparently never stuck to me, it makes me want to rip my hair out seeing women being door mats for assholes and terrible people.
Nonnie I guarantee he is not this mindful of your feelings, you have got to learn how to be a bit selfish and put yourself first. If you don’t advocate for yourself, no one else will.
No. 1605893
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I hate everything about periods but I hate even more how much it fucks up my hormones and ends up affecting my mental/emotional health. Forget the way it finds new torture methods to bother me before my period starts. Even after my period, I get this weird 'impending doom' feeling. Every fucking time. I suddenly get so anxious and feel paranoid over the most random shit, lasting from minutes to 2-3 hours at most. Like right now, my period ended yesterday and currently, my dumbass is sitting here being afraid of some 'ghost' in my house, although I don't believe in ghosts and haven't had any paranormal activities in my house. But for some reason, my brain wants to keep screaming at me that there's something supernatural following me, staring at me, and ready to kill me. I know it's not true, I know there's nothing like that. I genuinely don't believe in ghosts. I feel like a schizo but I'm not (yes, it's confirmed by a specialist, I'm not a schizo in denial). I really don't have any mental disorders, sparing for adhd and dyslexia but neither of these two would cause paranoia I feel after my periods. After a few days, it'll go back to normal as it always had in the past, so I'm sure it has something to do with my periods fucking with me. Too bad I don't even know what I can do about this shit. I've looked up PMDD but I haven't really seen anyone with PMDD having the same symptoms as me, my premenstrual symptoms actually aren't even severe (I was just being dramatic in this post before) so it doesn't seem like I have it? Idk. Either way, I'm so done with my periods. I wish I had never gotten them.
No. 1605945
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I just gotta say this. On fatties, high waisted clothing looks like diapers. Fat people need clothes too fucking duh but like in picrel it looks like a full diaper to me and I feel bad for thinking it but I cannot unsee it.
No. 1605975
>>1605673No no I get your concerns nonna. I am setting up such back up plans instead. Have had it happen before and I won’t have it happen again!!!! There will be a quick trial stay before hand. It just depends on how things work out. Things are a HUGE wip but we are all sitting down to configure.
Thank you tho. It’s really hard to ask for help esp since I have been conditioned to not ask for it.
No. 1605982
>>1605961>when the older person in the relationship has a clear, obvious fetish for youthfulness.That's like 99% relationships with big age gaps
These older men aren't dating women 7+ years younger than them by some weird coincidence or miracle
No. 1606014
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I'm just incredibly sexually incompetent and dysfunctional and would feel like a gross perv for even wanting to talk about it and it's not like I even know what I want. I just don't know anymore and I truly will never understand. I feel empty, lonely, and kind of like a loser. I'm so lame, I really missed a memo or three that feels like everyone else certainly got. Ugh, I just feel disgusting for caring, and broken for how confused I truly am. Nothing helps really at all.
No. 1606032
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The rate at which America is rapidly regressing back to 1980s tier homophobia scares the shit out of me. Even the zoomers are homophobic. I saw this video of an entire classroom of teenagers booing when their teacher showed them a YouTube video which was prefaced by an ad showing two women kissing in front of a pride flag today. Major corporations no longer subscribe to rainbow capitalism. My friend who is 17 (I'm 18) said that some Jewish tranny came to speak at his high school about discrimination and everyone in the audience was giggling. He even told me that one student even said "Imagine being Jewish and trans, pick a struggle." I'm not even super butch looking and when I went to the bathroom today this woman shooed her kids out as if she thought I was a dude, I swear I overheard her saying something like "let's get out of the restroom." Usually I'd think nothing of it but considering the current political climate this scares me. Sometimes I think that troons are right when they say that there's no point to being a TERF because the LGB are going down with the TQ ship anyways. I always had this hope that lesbians and gays would become more accepted as trannies started to receive more backlash because we would look "normal" in comparison, but I guess not. I don't even think that trannies are what caused the sudden spike in homophobia, I think their degenerate behavior just gave everyone an excuse to start being openly homophobic again.
No. 1606057
>>1606032>I saw this video of an entire classroom of teenagers booing at two women kissing in front of a pride flagI saw a similar sounding video. Some random math teacher showing a video and in the first second a rainbow flag came on, and all the kids groaned. The video was stitched with this conservative women being like yes the kiddies are on our side fight the good fight my little warriors
I feel a vent of my own incoming. If you keep shoving something, even if it's a good thing like accepting homosexuality as a normal variation, in someone's face they're gonna start to hate it. It only started being shoved cos troon retards wanna be all special and seen, which they are getting deserved hate for, but cos they're tacked onto LGB we really are being dragged down with them in the eyes of the straights. Their excuse is tranz wimminz threw the first brick at stonewall, marsha wasn't trans and there are more lgbt events than just the American ones stfu. Troons are literally trying to deag us back to where we started, while also trying to stand on the backs of what the og LGB activists have done. Then they turn around and claim but but but we aren't hurting anyone we just wanna be more comfortable! Yeah OK it/zhe/pup you little retard. I can't believe I'm nostalgic for when it was trendy to be faux bi for shock value.
No. 1606059
>>1606057Same fag to add about
>we really are being dragged down with them in the eyes of the straightsI'm not saying we need to grovel to the straights so they'll pick us you get what I mean
No. 1606143
>>1606138Samefag
>INB4 "but you have so much life ahead of you!!!!"I know that. Please don't give me BS, It doesn't erase the things I've been through.
I just ate a big ass salad and now I'm crying in bed when I was meaning to watch a movie and craft before going to sleep.
No. 1606159
File: 1686718585575.jpg (53.49 KB, 435x443, jesus.jpg)
I'm working through my sexual traumas and realized I'm bisexual and grappling with it. I know it doesn't change anything and I don't have to date or have sex with men. But I avoided coming to terms with it for so long because I felt like it meant I did. As I felt all my life men were being pushed on me, figuratively and literally by everyone around me and I just wanted to be fucking left alone. I know part of it is trauma that's why I have a hard time accepting it and feel this way. I hate it. I hate it so fucking much. It doesn't change anything, it doesn't mean anything about me as a person, it doesn't make my love and attraction to women any less valid or real and I know I don't have to do anything I don't want to. But FUCK. I hate men so much I wish they would fucking die. Leave me alone. LEAVE ME ALONE. LEAVE ME ALONE. LEAVE ME ALONE. LEAVE ME ALONE! FUCK! FUUUUUCK!
No. 1606163
>>1605956there's no reason
for anyone to be fat
maybe there is
No. 1606188
File: 1686721063942.jpeg (74.25 KB, 700x700, 1642138863836.jpeg)
I'm going to be single for the rest of my life. I know what I want and what kind of person I could actually fall for, but those qualities don't exist in any men. It sucks. The loneliness is really messing me up. I hate that there's part of me that has a tiny bit of hope because it's preventing me from accepting reality and moving on. I'll just have to be alone. I'd rather be alone than settle. Because I've settled before and that's way more painful. It just sucks that things are this way and that men are the creatures that they are.
I actually feel extremely depressed when i read romantic shit now. Before it used to be something that brought me a lot of joy, but now it's just painful. I'll never experience something even close to that.
Do any of you know how to best deal with perpetual loneliness? Or how to accept probably being single forever?
No. 1606271
>>1605959Kill yourself retard, 99% of moids are braindead coomers and u wanna
victim blame (unfortunately) straight women who have the choice of either dealing with them or just never finding love. Rope.
No. 1606275
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sometimes is hard to not fall to the doom and gloom of economic instability. There's this fog around the possibility of making a living out of your unconventional dreams or choose the false security of a common job. I wonder what kind of mindset I should embrace in order to achieve what I desire in life before I die, working hard is important but so is being smart and healthy. I guess believing in letting what makes you happy destroy you, but it sounds silly and useless. Being realistic is key I guess, living life for oneself and your loved ones, there are a lot of important things in life. Also french fries.
No. 1606291
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>>1606280i'm the anon with the gross innocence fetish moid and i also agree with both kek. guess i'm going back to celibacy
No. 1606328
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My face aged so much in the last month that I've been stressing out about state exams and locking myself at home to study and do nothing else. Especially today, I woke up and I can't even recognise myself in the mirror. I don't even have wrinkles, it's just that my undereyes and nasolabial folds are ghostly and deep while other parts are kinda swollen. My upper eyelids are puffer and go over my eyes more. I aged like 10 years this week. I didn't eat well but I did still take vitamins and it was only like a three days of not as great food. I think I gained 4 kilos and lost it through the month so that also probably makes me look like shit.
I hope it will revert back because I can't even recognise myself. This isn't my face. I cri
No. 1606380
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I just can't paint my nails properly with my non-dominant hand for fucks sake. I tried to make a VERY simple heart, and my left fingernails does have a heart, but my right fingernails has a bunch of pink butts that look so fucking ugly I want to rip my nails off. I know I can buy stickers, but I don't want to.
No. 1606403
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I'm so lonely and bored
I can usually find ways to enjoy myself or at least numb myself to it with the internet but so many online spaces are filled with moids or virtue-signalling women now while lolcow just feels too angry and dead.
I just wish there was somewhere I could discuss recent stuff I've played or watched without a moid making it solely about coom and hating on every handsome male character, or a twitter tranny headcanoning characters with their mental illness and completely disengaging with the actual plot or characters, or a farmer turning it political or into fujoyume war #367484
Where the hell do all the half-normal female weebs hang out
No. 1606411
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headphones actually connect to my fucking laptop challenge, i am this close to losing my shit
No. 1606413
>>1606377I see your point and acknowledge your feelings, but respectfully disagree. People's mistakes, especially done when they're young, should not define them. My heart cries for the detrans women because of the irreversible and painful changes for their bodies. I wish them peace. They should not be social pariahs.
Now the Aidens that shill their lifestyle without disclosing negative aspects and groom young women to troon out? Painful torture until they repent.
No. 1606416
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>>1606412NYC ranks #95 among US cities for total crime and #59 for total violent crime.
Here's the top 20 most dangerous cities in the US.
No. 1606424
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One of the girls in my friend group brags about herself a lot and lives in this weird magic land where everyone is totally flirting with her, obsessed with her, calling her extremely gorgeous and talented, full on I'm the main character delusion.
Ik it's better than shitting on yourself, but it's becoming annoying. We can't spend 5 minutes in one whole day talking about anyone but her. She never asks what anyone else is doing. I would never tell her to quit the delulu talk though, don't want to beef with anyone.
No. 1606466
So sick of my younger brother. As the youngest and a moid he's used to mommy doing everything. Instead of even just taking his ass to the kitchen, he shouts can I eat something and mom will get it. He can't take meat off a chicken leg and needs mommy to do it, or needs to only ever eat drumsticks like a baby. She complains about having to wait on him, ok girl DON'T DO IT. I tell her and she fucking ignores me. He leaves dirty plates, with leftovers not even thrown in the trash, and she says oh he'll learn when he's ready what about you huh you're terrible at cooking! Stop comparing! Right when he's "ready," when I was 14 you tried to say I'm ready to cook the family meals. Thankfully she never forced it at that age but that was the expectations she had, versus me having to teach her 18 year old how to wash a plate.
Right now she's in a work meeting and he shouted can I eat something as usual. I told him to be quiet. She wrote "rice?" on some paper and gave it to me to show him. He clearly looked at but shouted huh what is it what's that I don't even know and went back to roblox. I whispered to mom just don't give it to him it's that easy. But now as I'm writing this she's going to the kitchen I think she's fucking doing it. Good luck raising a manchild, girlie.
She calls him her sweetie her baby her precious, he doesn't like it. She gets all sad and depressed when she thinks he's acting "just like his father" such as ignoring her and he doesn't care - but she'll HAPPILY do those same behaviours to me, like ignoring me especially when I'm trying to discuss smth important, like how she ignores me. He never does school work, mom spends so much money on private tutors and he ADMITS that he just stares into the distance while the tutor drones on but "as long as it gets him in front of a book, I'll pay however much!" Cos her sweetie's gonna be a doctor when he's older juuust like she's always wanted, while her other child is a nasty evil failure because I didn't want to choose from doctor lawyer engineer. I will never stop wishing I was an only child. The entire dynamic changed so much and so irreversibly.
Yep, she's served him the rice. He didn't even blink.
No. 1606576
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Had a fun day at work (saw an A-10 do a barrel roll), the weather was good, snacked on tasty cheese popcorn, and I'm still as unhappy as every night. Literally nothing went wrong today but it feels like it did. Why fuck can't I attain even a crumb of joy.
No. 1606594
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I finally and painstakingly managed to internalize a tiny shred of "Well, it happened and I can't do anything about it now", but somehow everyone is coming for me telling me "No, anon, actually you have to care very much about this particular thing you can't change in any way,". Like, can you shut up? It's been a process of I think like five years mostly unsuccessfully c'est la vieing and que sera seraing and yoloing through my day-to-day and I'll kick your shin if you keep trying to take it from me now that it finally works lol.
No. 1606635
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Why are the cutest men always walking red flags? Sigh. At least I'll always have my husbando.
No. 1606670
>>1606518Kek my friend (acquaintance is more accurate but idk) is also 29. Just yesterday she was convincing the 4 of us that a beer garden waiter was totally flirting with her and casting glances at her. I just think he was looking to see if he could take our empty pints.
I don't wanna burst her bubble because she needs the delusion to keep her going in life and I feel bad, but I do wish she'd ask us about our day once in a while.
No. 1606672
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I think I can sense when people are looking at me. I've woken up from sleep before from it. I sometimes wonder if it is me, but it can't be. I'll turn my head and immediately meet someone's eyes. Either that, or people just stare at me a lot. But I feel like I sense it.
What I am getting at is that it is very annoying at my job where I pass by many people everyday and these certain boys my age are just staring at me. Why am I always making eye contact with these ones specifically and they make it so awkward and look back at me with fear? I view them as uber pathetic and I think this is why. It worsens my day to have to walk past them, not even necessarily because they are scrotes, but because they are awkward. One of them literally dropped eggs in front of me and I watched him clean it because I was bored. Also I was talking to another coworker. But now there's a new boy and he also looks at me fearfully. My least favorite is the really short one with a potbelly.
Gifrel is me
No. 1606728
>>1602940It happened again. It happened a fucking gain. I got a nice cold cup of almond milk and blueberry cobbler creamer, ready for a nice crochet session while watching the rain outside, and not even 5 minutes after setting it down there was a FRUITFLY!!!!! I EVEN HAVE A TRAP SET UP BUT THE MOTHERFUCKERS DECIDE TO GO IN MY DRUINK!!!!!!!! QUIT FUCKING WITH MY ALMOND MILK!!
That's it. No more Ms. Nice girl. These flies have to die. I won't stop until every single fly is eradicated from this earth. They've been given mercy for far too long.
No. 1606731
>>1606391I went through the same thing a few years ago (I think I was 25 or 26, too), anon. Felt a lump on my breast, went to my GP and she found another. I had to wait 2 weeks to be seen by the breast clinic, and it ended up being benign/cysts. I did not cope well during those 2 weeks, I had to be put on benzos so I could sleep/stop having anxiety attacks, so I know how terrifying this is. I suggest that you don't look up anything, because you'll only scare yourself further. If it's small and moveable, it's more than likely a cyst because tumours tend to want to stay in place. Just hold onto the fact that they're investigating further because that's the standard procedure for any breast lump; it doesn't necessarily mean they believe there's anything sinister going on.
The brain can be cruel af because I also felt pains in my breast during this time, and I believe it was anxiety-induced, but it still feeds into that spiral of terror. I'll be thinking of you, sweetheart. I hope you'll come out of the consultation with good news.
No. 1606782
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there's going to be a solid 5 more years of gender shit. and it sucks that it's so prevalent among my generation and that it's bound to come up in casual convo…i wish something else was trendy..my 20s are going to be ruined by this crap. it makes me want to cry. FIVE MORE YEARS
No. 1606811
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Gals, I’m so afraid of dying that I’m having panic attacks on the drive to/from work. Like after this, it’s nothing, forever. That’s it. No more happiness or experiences. Forever nothing.
No. 1606813
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>>1606780calm down nonna.
No. 1606822
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I've realized nobody likes me for me, only for who I'm related to or what I can do for them. I will always just be "x's daughter" or "y's sister," never just me. Nobody has ever been excited to sit and have a chat with me just for the sake of it. Nobody will wake up in the morning and get a warm fuzzy feeling thinking of me, or get excited when they see me and ask to catch up over coffee. As an individual, I am completely irrelevant to others. Nobody even answers my calls. The worst part is I help everyone when they need it and I get nothing in return. I feel like an alien in this world, like everyone knows something I don't. I just don't feel human.
No. 1606830
>>1606822It's not too late nona, I was always known as "xyzs sister" and it hurt my self identity a lot but I promise that you can make your own. I know it sounds silly but bumble friends really REALLY helped me make friends. Please keep trying
nonnie. You are human and I love you.
No. 1606834
>>1606830I'll try to hang on a little longer. I love you too
nonnie. Thank you.
No. 1606848
I was retarded enough to snoop and found out my violent ex has a new girlfriend. All I can gather is she's a foreigner and I'm thinking he did it on purpose so she won't catch on to what he's doing as fast as I (and his other ex) did. I really wish I could just move on but I can't, I'm so sad to see the pictures with her face obscured knowing he probably does all the same awful shit to her as he did to me, and if he's not she's already well in the process of being manipulated and he'll start hitting her in a couple months. He's such a fucking waste of oxygen, I'm devastated for this poor girl. It's no use reaching out, he'll use it as fuel to manipulate her further and she won't believe me. I can only hope he continues to have no friends and family and once this relationship is over, he finally kills himself. I went no contact 5 months ago and I suffer every day from what happened when he just walks around scot-free with no sense of guilt grabbing another toy. He even continues to online stalk me since he bought something from my business I now legally have to ship to his place.
I don't know what to do to stop being so bothered by this.
>>1606811That thing I read forever ago that went "do you remember what it was like before you were born? There you go" helped me a lot with that fear. It's like picturing what's outside the universe or what's north of the north pole. I had this phase of fear for a while but it will pass.
No. 1606855
>>1606811I have had terrible death anxiety even as a child, with varying severity. What this
>>1606848 anon said is comforting somehow, I’ve heard it from a few other places too “you’ve already experienced the void” although I understand if that doesn’t help you much. The other thing that really helped me was looking at the way animals live without our stupid existential fears, idk I find it comforting, worried or not it’s gonna happen so whatever. When I die I would most like my body to just be left in a forest and let animals eat me and nourish plants, to me that feels like living on in a way.
No. 1606858
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Anyone else depressed? Anyone not?
No. 1606864
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I love not having coffee for over 24 hourse!
No. 1606871
>>1606850>>1606857Western EU country. Through Bandcamp and paypal a lot is legally binding and apparently to cancel his order I'd need to get in touch with the support team and probably provide a
valid reason. Something he manipulated me with was his extensive knowledge of the law and how
trigger-happy he is with it especially as a customer. He's a really shady character and I wouldn't be surprised that he was bored enough to see if I'd try to cancel his order for no reason so he could start drama on my professional life. I don't even want his money.
No. 1606892
>>1606871stalking should count as a
valid reason not to ship, but these megacorps are retarded
No. 1606939
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>>1606858im extremely depressed, at a very low point right now
No. 1606981
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>>1606939who else wants to eat veggie straws and drink with me on this fine NEET night.
No. 1607007
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>>1606981lets make molotov with alcohol
No. 1607021
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>>1607007you'r a fuckign wild 1. i am just drinking the smirnoff bomb pop with lemonade. i like the violent streak of urs tho
No. 1607032
>>1606960I feel the same way rn. I was doing okay the past few months until today. the resident NLOG at work has it out for me because I don't kiss her ass and the asses of the men she serves. She got caught fudging her hours, in addition to other major fuck ups, and now she's trying to turn the boss against me.
I know it's just her being salty she got caught in a web of lies and unprofessionalism but omg own your shit instead of trying to make my life miserable. I'm the one who doesn't take a break, arrives early, and stays late. Now realizing this is a work pattern of mine.
No. 1607038
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>me wanting to apologize to every ex in some major cathartic resolution when i have a sip of alcohol
anons i'm 28 and have two exes, kill me now.
it's been years of personal growth an i'm happy now i just want to fully heal and they think i'm a weirdo..
slike bruuh sorry? half a decade each of my life was spent with you and our relationship ended so suddenly.
i wanna put you out of my mind and make peace.
No. 1607059
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I SWEAR TO GOD IF MY PERIOD WAS THE BOMBER ON THE ENOLA GAY, SHE WOULD'VE DROPPED THE ATOMIC BOMB ON FUCKING OAHU. YOU ILL-TIMING PIECE OF SHIT. WHY NOW. WHY.
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actual pic of me.
No. 1607317
>>1607280There are no voices, but at least I am right about you being miserable.
Godspeed
nonnie.
No. 1607331
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BABY I'M SORRY, I REALIZE NOW HOW I HURT YOU AND CAUSED THE PROBLEMS. BUT NOW IT'S TOO LATE. I'M SO SORRY. AHHHHHHH
No. 1607418
>>1607407Did you cut before or after lingering in these communities? If it's the second, come back when you're over 18. That's way too impressionable for an adult.
I know this is retarded advice but drawing something in red on your body can help, you could even replace the tryhard "fat" and hello kitty carvings that people on shtwt post with something more interesting of your choice in pen or a washable marker (or watercolour pencils if you have them), possibly something that also can release your feelings.
No. 1607432
>>1607426Ah, that's ok then, sorry for assuming you were a minor. I've thought about getting tattoos in the near future when my old self-harm scars will become white (although having a visible tattoo could actually attract attention to these places I suspect?)
If you're worried about hiding scars it's obviously harder this season (unless you're in the southern hemisphere) but scars that look like you fell on concrete are pretty excusable.
No. 1607436
>>1607432no worries, seeing minors in sh and edtwt is sickening i dont really go on there at all but especially due to the number of teenage girls that are on there. personally i think that tattoos cover sh scars pretty well especially if you get that area shaded, but it definitely depends on the severity and age of the scar. i am kind of worried my friends will see them and immediately know since theyre all sh veterans but i used my ankle and thigh so i think i can cover them if need be
thanks for letting me shit up the vent thread with my dumb shit btw it helps talking to you about this i feel slightly less retarded and disgusting
No. 1607446
>>1607436I remember some incel trying to create both a self-harm and pro-ana forum to make teenage girls cut and starve themselves. Thankfully it flopped, but there's still plenty of anorexia fetishists lurking on edtwt and other pro-ana communities. They are often easy to spot though (the moid shows through) but some can be sneaky and with the amount of underage girls posting their body checks… sickening.
There are also closed anorexia fetish communities that pay women to "model" (starve themselves and send the moids their nudes and rape on tape videos with other anorexic women). I didn't look too much into them (they are mostly paid to register) but I think they save pictures from edtwt and post them on their forums too.
Also, due to the rise of Red Scare and antifeminist pro-ana glorification coquette "culture", there are now moids who leeched into it and are trying to attract young coquettes and one of the central parts of the coquette aesthetic is "attraction" to much older, ugly, way post-wall scrotes. The pro-ana and the coquette worlds overlap much more than ever.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts on covering scars with tattoos. Do you get a lot of looks at your tattoos? Also, if they're all self-harm veterans they might just understand you're going through hard times and not even say anything about your scars directly, just offer some help (if they're good friends that is).
No. 1607458
>>1607446i have one on the top of my forearm that people usually notice because of the placement/its kind of an intricate design, but in general only a couple of my tattoos are shaded at all so if there were scarring underneath most of them it might be visible. i think my friends would mostly be disappointed as ive always been seemingly the only person among everyone i know that hasnt cut themselves and its especially obvious during summer. they are good people though.
re: anorexia forums, although i know a lot of ed elders (like dorian) look upon them as a haven for young people with ed i feel like the amount of moid infiltration and actually dangerous circlejerking there makes it more of a hell than anything. i dont even have anything clever to say about moids who get off on that other than they should be strung up by their balls. same for older women who encourage ed in younger people, however they may pretend like theyre trying to help them its all ultimately just grooming them into the same disordered behavior. i dont have ed though so as an outsider its pretty fucking easy to be against those forums in general
No. 1607464
>>1606391I did some research and found the following:
>cancer related lumps are usually not mobile, cancer likes to get 'rooted' into the tissue>cancer-related lumps are usually not painful>Most breast lumps – 80% of those biopsied – are benign (non-cancerous)>other than cancer, lumps could also be caused by: cysts, abscesses, fibroadenoma, intraductal papilloma, lipomaKeep us updated nonna, I hope everything goes well
No. 1607477
>>1607458I see. I don't think I will get a large shaded tattoo since that would remind me of a particular person I really don't want to constantly be reminded of so I guess I'll have to look into other methods of covering (or just stop caring at all, I already look deformed kek).
I have somewhat more experience with ED communities due to bulimia (which I fully recovered from) and while they can be somewhat of an understanding place for young people with eating disorders like Dorian said in multiple videos, you also have to constantly gatekeep it from fetishist moids which can sometimes spill over onto women and create more hostility in general which certainly doesn't help. Though I've also seen women worship "poor ana boy" scrotes who probably were larpers (or aidens in stealth) and simultaneously tear each other down in bouts of extreme internalised misogyny.
No. 1607513
>>1607433Thanks anon. It helps more than enough! That you consider the possibility I might have been treated unfairly. Approving my experience is more than enough because most people deny it
I am incredibly suicidal and yesterday I was telling my friend and she said "can you please stop saying you will kill yourself? I need to do groceries and go to the doctor"
No. 1607579
it might be obvious to everyone but
I used to think a relationship with a moid was supposed to be about friendship, having a life partner, someone to share everything with, becoming one for the sake of making each other's life better, that kind of thing
It's nothing like that and my take is incredibly naive
I just realized a couple/a relationship is a place of power
The two people dating have mostly antagonistic interests : they give away their freedom for their partner, give away a lot of time and things like that..
for the sake of one main common interest : building a family (you can be a family even without a child but it's a lesser form of family)
What I mean is : partners generally have opposite interests (the interest of a man would be fucking around, going home at any time, keeping his money to himself, kind of similar for the woman) and they try to give up these interests for the sake of building a family, but whenever they have the chance to maximize fulfillment of their other intersts (by cheating, abuse, whatever), they will do it, they have no reason not to ("love"? lmao)
All the beautiful phrases like "I love you" and whatnot.. it's just cosmetic(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 1607585
>>1607579unfortunately i think this is true for many couples, but there's ones out there where this just isn't the case. i also think being raised by parents who are together but in an unhappy relationship tends to make their kids think that's normal too. my parents have been happily married 30 years and i've been in a healthy, good relationship for about 4 years now. yes, there are bumpy times, sometimes difficult conversations, and sacrifices have to be made for both people. ideally couples are better together than they are apart, but yeah a lot of people stay together dysfunctionally because there's this silent agreement that if the other doesn't change, they won't either. and a lot of passive aggressiveness instead of genuine communication and willingness to work with the other.
people just don't believe in love anymore. i think people's obsession with media, romanticization of dysfunctional relationships, and fixation with loving fictional characters (which, yes that's their right, sure) makes people less compatible with another person in general. i see a lot of people unwilling to compromise at all, like if the other person does ONE thing they don't like, they're trash. living with someone, you get to know them very well. you're gonna run into a trait you don't like too much. over time you really see what you value in a partner. but if i was single right now i'd feel fucked since so many men are so fucking perverted.
No. 1607589
>>1607579I mean, in so many words yes. If you think about human beings as animals we are socially inclined, and I think our true nature is to live in communities. We seek other people’s company and can achieve more (resources) in numbers. The nuclear family and true love is a capitalist construct. I think being in a relationship can still be fulfilling. Ideally you both sacrifice some, but you can achieve more with a partner than on your own and experiencing love and partnership, even if fleeting, can lead to personal growth.
>>1607585Well said. I don't think romantic, passionate love is constant, and people generally have an unrealistic idea about lasting companionship. There will be ups and downs, sacrifices, it's can take hard work.
No. 1607598
>>1607589>true love is a capitalist constructoh yeah, how it's depicted in media can be so ridiculous. we're literally fed the idea that fulfilling relationship = buying expensive shit (weren't diamond rings shilled by companies that owned mining sites and they hugely inflated the prices?), expensive luxury vacations, going out all the time. yeah that can be nice but can you get along, can you even just enjoy a FREE walk outside together, etc?
>nuclear familyi sort of agree, i do think it's one of the better ways to raise kids but if you look at those weird family channels on YT it is soulless and empty, and of course they tend to love showing off the money they make. it just seems so phony and weird. i mean, i don't want kids anyway so it's not even interesting to me.
yeah, it's good to have a level of independence in a relationship. i don't really get the whole "you are one" woo woo stuff. you're a unit, a couple. we have our own careers and discuss what we'd like to do in the future together but it's important to know who you are before getting into a relationship. like if one of us is about to leave the house obviously we're gonna let the other know what we're doing but there's no codependency there. codependency is another trap people fall into, usually younger couples but it's unhealthy.
No. 1607694
I'm spending time with my family and my mom and aunts starter telling me about all the sexual assault and harassment they've had to deal with.
>mom was at a hotel, hotel manager and another guy came into her room to rape her. The guy got on top of her and she had to fake being sick so they would let her run to the bathroom, where she locked herself up until they left
>aunt was at a beauty pagent at 14, one of the judges tried to fuck her but she rejected him, he got angry and insulted her. Some years later he tried to fuck her again
>mom got told by uni professor she had to fuck him to pass his class, she refused and he failed her
>mom was tanning at the beach, some guy stat next to her and pulled his dick out and started masturbating
>aunt and her friends were asking for a ride, some guy pulled over, after they all got in he started masturbating and they had to jump out of a moving car
>mom and aunts were asking for a ride, some guys pulled over and they got in, after a few minutes they told them they were going to rape them. After my mom jumped out of the car, they told them it wasn't true and just said it so they would stop asking for a ride
>aunt was at a bar, a guy came up to her and told her not to let any guys buy her a drink because his 7-guy friend group was plotting to rape her, he felt bad so he told her
>aunts ex husband is a disgusting, disgusting pervert. At over 60 years old and with ED he still hires models to pose nude for him at this miami apartment, and shows other people the photos. Tried to make a move on my older sister when she was 14, told my aunt to let her niece say with him when she got older because he thought she was hot (now he's dying of horrible cancer, good riddance.)
>other aunt's ex husband put out a cigarrate on her leg when he was drunk
>all their husbands used to coerce them into sex and throw a tanturn when they refused
The worst part is none of them think any of this was too bad. I assume it's because their dad was physically abusive and did horrible things to them and their mom, so in comparison, these men are not as bad. Reconsidering my own relationship now.
No. 1607711
>>1607692It’s not easy, I relapsed a few weeks ago and I’ve been binge eating again. Before taking any diet advise or tips, you need to go to a doctor and seek help to find out what actually is nutritionally valuable for your body and what isn’t.
I went to the doctor, an endocrinologist, and she told me that my insulin resistance makes it harder for me to lose weight. And that’s why she prescribed to me this new drug that’s used to lose weight.
I got prescribed again metformin and it kind of helps with helping me at least keep my current weight which is 100 kilos.
So you better discard first any medical issues you may have before eating the right portions and good quality foods, because you may not even know what way of preparing them works best for you.
Like, my endocrinologist gave me a list of food based on the insulin content and I didn’t know that broiled carrots were as bad as having mashed potatoes. And so on.
No. 1607722
>>1607703i could care less about the loose skin, i just want to be in less pain and feel like less shit everyday but thank you nonna
>>1607711yeah it was a challenge when i was trying a few years ago and did manage to lose some weight, then stress came in and ive been binge eating. every doctor i see just tells me to lose the weight, even my endocrinologist when telling me the weight's the main concern . have requested for a list of foods and such but they don't really give me anything other than "be active eat less carbs". also offtop but how's metformin going?(??? sry i dont know how else to ask that) cus im also on them, i've not been keeping up with em unfortunately
No. 1607733
>>1607722It’s okay! I mean, it makes me have diarrhea most mornings, but I think it may be doing it’s job, I had to set up an alarm to take it, my doctor told me that it’s best to take it at night, around 7:15pm to 9:30 pm, she told me it works better that way and that then you can just go to the bathroom in the morning if you need to.
In any case, try the list of foods that the ADA (American Diabetes Association) has, here’s the link of what I found.
>http://main.diabetes.org/dorg/PDFs/awareness-programs/hhm/what_can_i_eat-best_foods-American_Diabetes_Association.pdfSomething else that my doctor recommended to me is trying to find a way to relax, I usually relax by doing yoga and working out because I disconnect from the world in those moments, maybe you could find something else that works for you, like painting, drawing, studying something and the sorts. She told me so because cortisol makes it harder for anyone to lose weight.
Also, don’t pay attention to that anon, it’s some retard being aggro to everyone for no reason.
No. 1607832
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My good friend is exhibiting eating disorder behaviours and it's pissing me off.
She lost around 7 kilos last year which she did by just calorie restriction and good for her since she already has a pretty active lifestyle, but ever since then I am annoyed and straight up embarrassed for eating around her.
Yesterday the only thing we both ate after lunch was just three sponge cakes our other friend made and today in the morning she exclaimed how "bloated" she feels because of all the food she ate yesterday. Girl my stomach was rumbling the whole day and we were up until 3am.
A few weeks ago she spent the whole weekend partying and I had to watch her explain to me with pure glee in her eyes how she barely ate at all in those three days because she was hungover and how she had diarrhea the whole time.
I miss being able to enjoy food and pig out with her once in a while. I hate when people get all shy when eating food in front of others and I can't even bring it up since she looks great and has a friend that struggles with more extreme anorexia so I feel like I'll just sound overly concerned and jealous.
No. 1607889
>>1607864ehler danlos and autism are frequent munchie diagnoses… i'd just assume this person is a liar honestly until they get properly diagnosed by professionals.
best not to interact with liars.
and being mid 30s is a bit too old to be acting like a tiktok zoomer.
No. 1607900
Instead of basing your views on your own research or studying or personal experience, you base them on what the algorithm shows you. Your politics, your style of clothing and hair, the algorithms, the way you talk, the food you eat, your gender identity, who you are attracted to, your sense of humor, what movies you watch, decided by the algorithms of the social medias you use all day. It's not even being decided by a person anymore, just machines. Even if you quit the internet, if you cut the cord, everyone else you know hasn't so you pick it up from them. I can tell which social medias my friends use based just on how they talk and act. I know max uses tiktok and tumblr because of how he thinks typos are funny. I know chase uses reddit and youtube because of how he theorizes about movies. I can tell that the annoying guy in my class uses 4chan because of his tendency to say things that are offensive on purpose and his willingness to use older memes. Imageboards encourage offensiveness with the way that posts with many replies get sent to the top. Twitter encourages brevity and lack of thought with its character limit. Facebook encourages paranoia by adding a more human level to it all. No matter what way a website is organized, it doesn't matter, it still changes the way we think and interact. People were not meant to interact like this. We talk a lot here about how trannies are articial women but are we any different? We are a generation carefully created and raised by algorithms, sorting us into demographics so much we define ourselves solely by those demographics. Race, age, gender, how often do we put these in our bios instead of who and what we are? Enough about AI art, we are AI people. Personalities generated and created by machines. And there is no escape. And I am no different, I use the internet more than anyone else I know. I tried to talk to my friends about this, to someone, but nobody cares. They think noticing this stuff makes me like a boomer, as if boomers even know just how bad it's gotten(they don't). I wish I could be a real person, but I don't know how to be, or what that could even look like. TBH, I'm kind of scared of what I would become, since I really don't know.
No. 1607904
>>1607889yeah Idk that's really where my suspicions are coming from. That's why I've been lurking around here. Illness fakers, munchausen's, etc. I feel like this is a person with a personality disorder.
Ok I'll vent about them more… they won't take out the trash, so I take it out. They tell me it's because of sensory issues. Well, one day they get in my car and they want to grill me about whether or not I put trash in the front seat. So not only are you going to refuse to take out trash, you're going to micromanage the way I do it? How about you take your own car and fuck off then. I take out the trash on my break, because by the time I get off work the dump is closed. But you aren't working at all, maybe you have work to do for an hour or two, but you still refuse to take out the trash because sensory issues.
Don't even get me started on the micromanaging of cleaning chemicals even though I'm the one that does the cleaning. Acting like they're hypersensitive and yet nothing happened when I cleaned a window with regular cleaner when they weren't home. Seems like they didn't have a chemical allergy attack over it when they didn't have any control over what I was doing.
I've screwed myself anons…
No. 1607967
>>1607391Did I write this and forget?
I hope you feel better, all I can offer is generic cheer up because I can't even fix myself in this situation
No. 1607980
File: 1686849235158.jpg (32.65 KB, 750x601, IMG_20230510_091404_269.jpg)
I'm so sick of my job but I also feel scared and guilty to quit?
It all started ~3 weeks ago when I was supposed to cancel my holiday leave that I had planned almost a year ago in favor of my other colleague. In the end, my boss made an exception and i don't have to cancel my holiday.
But since the battle for the paid leave (I was supposed to be away 5 days anyway compared to the colleague), I noticed my other colleagues' attitude changed even more than before, with backhanded jokes and guilt tripping me for other paid leves and overall, the atmosphere is tense for almost 3 weeks. Not only that, the pay is shit (~ 50€ more than minimum wage - and I supposedly have a well seen job), I have only 1 day off of the week instead of the legal 2 and other cons. I think I have only 2 pros in the entire list kek. I wanted to leave earlier, but I also have uni going on, so I postponed until I accomodate well there. I've been crying for the past week or so and also my stomach issues started again and I don't want to eat that much lately.
Thing is, I want to leave anyway when I start uni in autumn, I can't be at uni and at work at the same time on the weekends and my education is more important atm.
I don't know what to do, I want to leave now, but I also want my other colleague to go on that summer holiday, I don't want someone hating me for that. I also wanted other 5 days off in july to travel with my family, but I think that's off the cards since again, someone has to be here while the colleague is away with other stuff for a couple of hours/day this month…
So what should I do? Tolerate 3 more months and then leave or leave now?
No. 1608014
File: 1686852310311.jpg (108.75 KB, 828x1015, 0bc90e5afeb6da5205dd05c38409dc…)
shooting scrotes in the kneecaps is always correct
No. 1608078
File: 1686856252338.jpeg (26.44 KB, 736x444, WHYYY.jpeg)
WHAT THE FUCK DID THEY DO TO WEHEART IT???????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No. 1608084
File: 1686856522689.jpeg (37.13 KB, 772x579, d874c80c-033e-47d7-802a-6c8c1e…)
>>1608079THEY RUINED IT YOU CAN'T EVEN LOG IN ANYMORE
No. 1608096
File: 1686857052545.jpg (342.4 KB, 1450x1450, FZGWNz3XgAYrTxf.jpg_large.jpg)
Every fucking comic is the same. Set up a "bad person" strawman (always a woman) and then wow blobby is such a good person for disagreeing with the bad man. And then you like the comic and give yourself a little pat on the back for holding the "good person" opinion. Boomer comics are better because at least they have a joke, this is nothing but self-preening
No. 1608104
File: 1686858279235.jpg (515.73 KB, 1391x1800, Fx2uE6aYAA3uj6.jpg)
>>1608096I don't think this belongs ITT but you are right, some boomer comics are funny in there own way.
No. 1608111
>>1608104I have a soft spot for simple boomer humor, but I also gotta agree with the other anon.
>>1608105This coomer male drew cartoons for Playboy magazine, it's natural you'd be disgusted.
No. 1608125
File: 1686859360946.jpg (38.91 KB, 473x355, improvised-air-conditioning-si…)
It's the 10th day with at least 26°C in my flat. There is no AC and I can't install one, can't use a fan because of the noise and can't open the windows between 6am and 1am because of all the chain smokers living next and below me.
It's also been over 3 weeks without rain and I'm now looking at places that might have rain at least twice a week all year round. I'm just not made for temperatures above 20°C and I need rain to be happy.
(And yes, I will come here regularly to whine until summer is over or I won the lottery and bought a house with AC)
No. 1608165
>>1608143You can move into my flat, when I found a flat somewhere, don't know, in Norway
>>1608144Thanks nona, sadly, I can't make ice, so it's not an option, I will just keep on bitching about the weather until it's Halloween, kek
>>1608151I live in Northern Germany, my ancestors were penguins, I'm not made for this weather and enjoy my flat the most when it's around 17°C inside
No. 1608166
>>1608125The noise? Fans can be as low as 20 decibel.
>>1608144That was interesting nona.
No. 1608175
File: 1686861675131.jpg (466.94 KB, 2048x2048, 104d.jpg)
I hate my roommate's little dumbass rat dog so fucking much, the stupid thing yaps at everything during the day and in the night. The only thing my roommate does is gently say "omgg no barking, bad mama!!" as if it can speak English. It's one of those retarded ugly inbred mini poodles that looks like fried chicken (picrel). I hate even leaving my room when she has the stupid thing scampering about since it inevitably tries to jump on me and gets under my feet and follows me around everywhere despite me ignoring it and pushing it away.
To top it off my roommate has decided it is acceptable to repeatedly squeak the dog's toys at 7-8 in the morning and squeal in the ultimate high-pitched baby voice at it for what feels like an hour straight and then she does the same thing when she gets home. I've been woken up by her dumb fucking baby voice and squeaking the dog toys. She's gotten upset with me before for being "too loud in the morning" ONCE but apparently she doesn't think of me trying to fucking sleep in the morning because I work later in the day than her. She doesn't listen to me when I talk to her about it because she just keeps doing it.
She also talks to her gigantic braindead moid with anger issues boyfriend in that same intentionally childish voice and goes "BAAAYYYBBBUUUHHH" (idk how else to transcribe this) every goddamn day in this baby voice. God please just shut the fuck up… I can hear them having nasty ass loud sex and get to hear their daddy roleplay kink despite my door being shut and having headphones on. I just want to have peace in my own fucking room these people are so fucking weird. Please never get roommates if you can because this is actual hell
No. 1608187
>>1608166Yes, the noise, I just can't handle some sounds, it's annoying but it is what it is. And in the end a fan alone won't cool down the air in the room. And yes, I know I'm annoying, but I never complain about snow, rain, wind, long dark days, winter, autumn and spring, kek.
No. 1608229
>>1608205I honestly wish I had meds I could take
>>1608209Thank you very much for the kind words nona, that really helped me calm down. I know you're right and I know I'd survive it if it ever turned out to be an infestation because I've had other bugs in my apartment that at first scared me to death and that I'm now able to handle more calmly but I can't help but worry. Maybe it won't be as scary tomorrow morning. And I really don't have anyone I can call about this, all my friends here are more like loose acquaintances that I only talk to at uni and my family lives some hours away.
No. 1608244
File: 1686866296826.jpg (75.16 KB, 617x900, 20220304_143340_IMG_5204.JPG)
>>1607997id go with u nonna
No. 1608249
>making a lot of money
>feel strong, confident, and powerful even with looming bad shit in my life like I can handle anything for once
>get thousands of swipes on dating app in a matter of 2 weeks
>guess I'm not as hideous as I thought either
>match with skinny goth viking guy and decide to give a first date a shot at a karaoke bar
>bar is kinda lame, guy lets slip his friends were supposed to meet us there
>says they are going to a different bar downtown, I like him so I agree to go
>he tells me his friend 'J' will be there and is a douche
>hints I should bully him when I can, I agree to do it
>says J had actually matched with me on app but that I had stopped talking so he was telling their group about me lol
>I legit don't remember this guy but I grow curious
>we meet his friends at other bar, nice people who were impressed by me, I answered questions and liked the convos
>J appears: overdressed, ego, thinks he is hot but is average at best, loud–yep, douche
>J says to my guy "Aren't you going to introduce this beautiful lady?"
>he accidentally lets slip he'd talked to me on the app before
>"Ah, so you do know me then! My reputation precedes me hehe~"
>his friends laugh
>he is embarassed, retard
>J acts real familiar to all the ladies in this friend group and it irks me
>men go to play table pool while I chat with the ladies
>J is sticking his dumb man ass out in front of me to show off and is terrible at the game
>two hot lesbians playing pool next to us are annoyed by these men
>I compliment the sleeve on one of the ladies 'A' and shoot the shit
>one of the girls from my guy's friend group 'M' joins in, she is sweet
>M admits she is 20 and is one of the women dating J
>J is 33
>and now I have discovered the friend group barring my guy are a polycule to this douche canoe J who apparently is also a groomer
>anyway, M is crushing on A
>A admits she wants to call J a fucking faggot cause he is being annoying and bad at games
>she wants to fight him
>I giggle and tell her to fucking do it, she's awesome
>try to hook M up with A in hopes she will dump J, but she's stupidly loyal
>walk away to go to bathroom
>come back to hearing J going on outside to the group about how a mean woman called him a faggot like what's her problem!
>kek
>I walk up "Oh that was me, I encouraged her."
>group looks at me nervously
>J gets a serious stare then meekly says not to do that again
>"Not do what? The part where I ghost you on the dating app or where I got someone to call you a faggot?"
>J is such a beta underneath his alpha schtick he fumbles on what to reply with
>sense the tension, introduce levity and play into the group's interests by joking that I am an agent of chaos & mischief and I am like Loki
>group laughs and starts going off about mythology
>I fistbump J and tell him no worries
>my date fucking loves how hard I am mogging this pinhead
>and bc J told them all excitedly about matching with me earlier he could not even play off like he thought I was shit or something ahaahahahaha
>the night continues, we all go back for a "house party" and everyone tells me it's my date's "special night"
>group by now is interested in me cause I got shit to say and I am funny
>J overhears I like to shoot guns and sees my pics, brags he is ex military
>idiot brings out a fucking handgun and gives it to me in a room full of drunk people
>he insists it isn't loaded but I say real loud "I don't know for a fact that it's not!" while I point the barrel away from people
>everyone in room is uncomfortable
>J is once again embarassed by his dumbassery and apologizes to me like a pathetic little cuckman
>later, my date was initiated into the polycule's house in some sort of ritual
>he even says he himself is not poly but it's the only family he feels he has
My mission is to keep clowning J until the polycule sees he is a loser. I want to dissolve the polycule so that everyone in it can have a real shot at happiness and not whatever the fuck this shit is.
No. 1608303
File: 1686869594756.jpg (10.26 KB, 305x218, skunk-min.jpg)
I feel exceptionally stressed at the moment. As an aside, I'd like to applaud my period for its role in exacerbating my emotions. I spent all this time saving up for any crucial circumstances that may need an excruciating amount of money to "save" me. Well, I finally had that moment happen thanks to some room temperature IQ subhuman. When I mention to my mom a thought of how I'd like to use my money against taking out a loan, she makes a note of how my dad said he will need to borrow money soon. What? He didn't tell me anything yet, and he still owes me 4k. I love my parents, I truly do. However, as an adult, I feel and understand the burden of debts and money. I feel the challenge of starting back over with saving and being more frugal, which I can always handle. However, I still have to deal with my parents borrowing money from me and worrying about the future: their future and my own.
No. 1608305
File: 1686869689119.jpg (27.18 KB, 500x281, 1681753678509.jpg)
I'm actually starting to cry with worry. I plan to go into data analytics and after learning about AI I'm terrified that I've ended up softlocking myself into a career that will be rendered moot by the time I actually get my bachelors. I can't believe this, I just like sorting and condensing information.
No. 1608309
>>1608249This reads like a fic written by a woman who definitely does not go out much. Tags: slowburn, enemies to domxsub,
tw degradation
No. 1608335
File: 1686872605164.jpg (38.96 KB, 564x564, 1686734185488266.jpg)
i need i need i need i need i need a dopamine fix. this imageboard is so fucking slow. but.i will.NOT download the social media apps. 4chan sucks–i even resorted to visiting /lgbt/. everything everywhere is deadWHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
No. 1608348
File: 1686873262245.jpg (23.66 KB, 386x386, 350514186_260809233151715_7315…)
a friend is mad at me because i lost it while helping her cleaning her room. besides her dad, i'm her only friend that helps her sorting out big piles of clothes and cleaning an unhealthy ammount of cigarette butts. not even her bf helps her in that. she's a hoarder, can take 3 - 5 hours just sorting out shit. and my patience wasn't very high that day, i just wanted to chill, but i lost it, i told her i lost it and stopped helping. then she went mad at me but didn't tell me nothing when i asked her whats wrong multiple times because i can be autistic but i could tell she was angry. she specially waited for me to go home to send me voice notes about how sad i made her feel and shit. she's the type that always talks about the need to communicate feeling uwu but couldn't tell me to my face what the fuck was wrong.
i told her that yeah i just lost it and asked her why she didn't tell me right in that moment. she broke all the mantra about the need to communicate feelings uwu and then she started to send me voice notes ranting at me, telling me i'm a freeloader and idk. i always help her, almost always bring something to her house, sometimes i buy lunch for her, it made me feel strange to be called out like that. she didn't stop the chihuahua barking and i told her i wasn't going to say sorry lmao.
i fucking hate when people pick up on me like that because i'm a weak autist. i do everything they want and they still shit on me, no matter how much i play into their retarded games. they always take it out on me because they cannot control shit in their lifes and i do everything i can to not be lonely. i've a lot of money for my age range and all of that without working, without asking for parent's money and without whoring out. i just want someone to share it with and the fuckers aren't even grateful. yes and i have nobody else to talk to now.
No. 1608361
i stayed up all night, i thought i'd do better than yesterday, i didn't, it's even worse this time, i at least went to bed at 3 am. this time i stayed up again just crying that i'm not likable, in between scrolling through instagram to try and distract myself or looking through the reels i saved of pretty men, but now even it does not comfort me, it's just like a fucked up mirror reminding me that i'm ugly. i used to fall asleep to imagining romantic/spicy scenarios, my fantasies used to be my escape and now they're fucking blending with reality, every other scenario i imagine, i keep repeating it bc i'm distracted by just how unlikely it is, like "no guy would ever like you that much""you're not that likable a person""you don't even talk to guys irl""you're not that pretty even with makeup""that's not even your body type""guys don't like physically masculine girls", i know my appearance doesn't determine my worth, but being alone forever isn't exactly the most thrilling prospect, god, i wish i could be delusional again and turn my back to radical feminism. i'm so tired of everything.
No. 1608371
File: 1686874368045.png (38.51 KB, 300x300, image_2023-06-15_201441423.png)
I don't know what I expected when I saw the 2.0/5 reviews from my new workplace. I was desperate and they were willing to train me who had school experience but no working experience.
While the reviews are all at least a few years old, they are still true today and the things the reviews talk about still happen. I work in a very. very small doctor's office with no more than like 10 employees and everyone there is either brand new just like me or has been there for at least a decade, no in between.
I'm not sure what to do. I like the job itself but hate the practice, I want to work for another practice/specialty but this place gave me a chance.
No. 1608374
File: 1686874770460.png (22.21 KB, 434x411, 1664760096644.png)
In line to Bonnaroo.It's been 2 hours and counting. Poor cell reception, can't read shitposts
No. 1608375
>making a lot of money
>feel strong, confident, and powerful even with looming bad shit in my life like I can handle anything for once
>get thousands of swipes on dating app in a matter of 2 weeks
>guess I'm not as hideous as I thought either
>match with skinny goth viking guy and decide to give a first date a shot at a karaoke bar
>bar is kinda lame, guy lets slip his friends were supposed to meet us there
>says they are going to a different bar downtown, I like him so I agree to go
>he tells me his friend 'J' will be there and is a douche
>hints I should bully him when I can, I agree to do it
>says J had actually matched with me on app but that I had stopped talking so he was telling their group about me lol
>I legit don't remember this guy but I grow curious
>we meet his friends at other bar, nice people who were impressed by me, I answered questions and liked the convos
>J appears: overdressed, ego, thinks he is hot but is average at best, loud–yep, douche
>J says to my guy "Aren't you going to introduce this beautiful lady?"
>he accidentally lets slip he'd talked to me on the app before
>"Ah, so you do know me then! My reputation precedes me hehe~"
>his friends laugh
>he is embarassed, retard
>J acts real familiar to all the ladies in this friend group which is weird
>men go to play table pool while I chat with the ladies
>J is sticking his dumb man ass out in front of me to show off and is terrible at the game
>two hot lesbians playing pool next to us are annoyed by these men
>I compliment the sleeve on one of the ladies 'A' and shoot the shit
>one of the girls from my guy's friend group 'M' joins in, she is sweet
>M admits she is 20 and is one of the women dating J
>J is 33
>and now I have discovered the friend group barring my guy are a polycule entanglement to this douche canoe J who apparently is also a groomer
>anyway, M is crushing on A
>A admits she wants to call J a fucking faggot cause he is being annoying and bad at games
>she wants to fight him
>I giggle and tell her to fucking do it, she's awesome
>try to hook M up with A in hopes she will ditch J, but she's stupidly loyal for a poly
>walk away to go to bathroom
>come back to hearing J going on outside to the group about how a mean woman called him a faggot like what's her problem!
>kek
>I walk up "Oh that was me, I encouraged her."
>group looks at me nervously
>J gets a serious stare then meekly says not to do that again
>"Not do what? The part where I ghost you on the dating app or where I got someone to call you a faggot?"
>J is such a beta underneath his alpha schtick he fumbles on what to reply with
>sense the tension, introduce levity and play into the group's interests by joking that I am an agent of chaos & mischief and I am like Loki
>group laughs and starts going off about mythology
>I fistbump J and tell him no worries with a smirk
>my date fucking loves how hard I am mogging this pinhead
>and bc J told them all excitedly about matching with me he could not even play off like he thought I was shit or something ahaahahahaha
>the night continues, we all go back for a "house party" and everyone tells me it's my date's "special night"
>group by now is interested in me cause I got shit to say and I am funny
>J overhears I like to shoot guns and sees my pics, brags he is ex army
>suddenly comes out with a glock in a room full of drunk people and hands it to me
>people in room get uncomfortable
>I take it with the barrel pointing away from everyone
>he insists it is not loaded
>"I can't know that for a fact."
>I hand it back to him with a disapproving look on my face
>this is like rookie shit 101
>he realizes he fucked up and apologizes to me like the dumb bitch he is
>later they initiate my date into their "house" even though he is not poly, which apparently requires a vote, bc he says they are like his family
Later I went back to J's match profile and it mentions fuck all about being the main guy in some dumb poly cult. I'm sure this loser tries to bag whatever woman will have him on the side while he keeps these poor girls on the hook with breadcrumbs. I want to keep dunking on J so that hopefully they all can see him for the lost dumbass that he is behind his pseudo charisma and disband this dumb polycule. M deserves better than this shit, my date deserves less messy friends.
No. 1608392
>>1608375>skinny goth vikingwhat the
what the fuck does this mean
No. 1608402
File: 1686876222720.jpeg (15.25 KB, 608x598, IMG_9690.jpeg)
>>1608244thank youuu…. i wish more people appreciated being outdoors like u
No. 1608409
File: 1686877036684.jpeg (28.94 KB, 896x812, FxNPOkLaEAANhBf.jpeg)
Ugh I hate waiting for something I'm excited or happy about. Unhinged shit in my life has never made me wait, it doesn't even take 2 seconds before turning this already-terrible life into absolute hell. But whenever it's something good, I'm supposed to wait? How? JUST HOW?? Exactly how I'm supposed to sit still and wait for it?
No. 1608413
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>>1608402i love going outside, but i need to touch grass more. i barely do. i enjoy nature (especially with little or no people around) and it makes my mood instantly better. i'm just a retard who gets anxious about it, but i should push myself to do it more often.
No. 1608444
File: 1686878886783.jpg (163.15 KB, 874x914, 38d5833055f8cfdde866611fd16134…)
>>1608434honestly wish farmers could meet up IRL to go hang outside together to touch grass but it's too likely we'd be stuck meeting up with a tranny, creepy moid, or one of those types of farmers who is here because she's a cow herself lmao
No. 1608451
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>>1608444all that and if that's not the case, we all might be living on different sides of the world
No. 1608568
>>1608556this 100%. these bisexual, "gender fluid", "sex positive" male feminist types are creepy as fuck. i have so many stories about a particular one i had a fwb with. used to facetime me every morning jerking off on his toilet where i could see his nasty bare feet, would get openly upset whenever i disagreed with him and whine, was a literal manchild bitter about having to work a job like an adult, had an std scare. so coombrained and a sex addict. couldn't deal with him after a few months, when he started telling me he wants an open relationship with me, thinks he might be nonbinary or genderfluid, i'm pretty proud of myself for dumping his stupid ass right then and there, telling him how much i hated tranny bullshit (and he already knew that, so coombrained even a tranny supporter still wants to fuck an evil tranny hater haha), and openly told him i'm not talking to him anymore and dating a normal guy i'm still with and he always said he was jealous of him. i was so stupid when i was 20 but at least i did one thing right. i genuinely don't care if i broke his heart, perverts aren't people.
No. 1608581
File: 1686888939878.jpg (11.58 KB, 283x302, tktm.jpg)
ublock origin isn't working on pinterest and now I'm afraid to check youtube, fuck
No. 1608591
File: 1686889567026.png (7.67 KB, 651x154, ads get wrekt.PNG)
>>1608586omg thank you sweet nonita, picrel, now I can go back to looking at pictures of Buster Keaton in peace
No. 1608618
File: 1686891647443.jpg (102.9 KB, 1200x1200, FyDxCE9WcAQ8e-q.jpg)
People who get offended by "terminally online" don't seem to understand that it's reserved for people who become so consumed by what's going on online that they reduce people to objects and sources of entertainment or puppeterring rather than people. You are called terminally online because you are incapable of functioning on a daily basis and have to spend 14 hours a day logged in fucking elbow deep in everyone else's business with nothing else for years. Thats why you are terminally online. A normie who browses reddit four hours a day is a Saint in comparison. Also I hate 4chan posters theyre truly like gone as people.
No. 1608621
File: 1686891993544.png (240.67 KB, 1010x910, nya.png)
>>1608618Normals fear us noticers
The world is a stage and I'm chomping some popcorn
No. 1608670
>>1608568why were you this person's friend let alone his friend with benefits? I've met some real fucking weirdos but I've never had one call me from the toilet. At least you didn't stay with him long.
I experienced something similar but I blocked him the moment he told me he wanted me to help him transition. He sought out my friends to get closure and the transition never materialized even months later, definitely a fetish thing from the start.
No. 1608689
File: 1686895209523.jpeg (35.62 KB, 540x520, 1681672466886.jpeg)
How do you go about finding someone from your past without it being creepy? If it's been years then adding on social media seems creepy. We only have very very loose acquaintances now as a connection so bringing asking them would be weird also. All I can really hope for is a random bumping into somewhere out and about but that's never a given and probably if it did happen I'd be looking like bedraggled roadkill on my way to the store at 11pm at night. Fuck it nonnies it's over isn't it.
No. 1608730
>>1608556In recent years I've had 2 close male friends, one was a more typical male who likes edgy humor and of course throws in sexist jokes, the other was a nonbinary self-proclamied feminist guy. If you're woke then the nonbinary guy on the surface seems like the better person and the other like you should be vary of him, but in reality it was the reverse. The nonbinary guy sexually harassed me, constantly tried to manipulate me into touching him, told me that butch lesbians are indistinguishable from men, that female rapists are just as bad and common as male ones therefor women have no right to be upset if the 50% of troons who are in jail for rape go to female prison to rape female inmates, that feminists aren't real feminists unless they include troons and cater to dicks.
Meanwhile the other "bigoted cishet edgelord" guy wouldn't leave my side if another guy in the room made me uncomfortable to make sure I was safe, has never laid a finger on me, would stop and apologize for his edgy jokes if he went too far and refuses to pretend a man with a dick can ever be female or that nonbinary is real. Needless to say I'm no longer friends with the enby.
No. 1608747
>>1608730i've had this experience too. the male friends who i have kept around are pretty conservative and have always treated me with respect, and they're literally just up front with their opinions on things. they've never so much as tried to hit on me. liberal men ive known (with the exception of one) have always been sneaky as fuck with their true intentions, creepy, constantly wanting to bang anything with a pulse, literally will orbit you while constantly expressing disdain that you don't also love trannies and whining that you don't share 100% of the same views as them. i've also highly suspected for years that these types are only pro-choice because they'd pressure any woman they got pregnant into an abortion so of course just like their "sex positivity" they only support stuff if it really benefits THEM in the end.
>If you're woke then the nonbinary guy on the surface seems like the better personyeah they're totally aware of this and it's why they do this identity bullshit in the first place, it's cuttlefishing
No. 1608753
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I just saw a clip of this guy who made fun of me for having ugly/weirdly shaped breasts when I was underage. I feel pathetic for still feeling bad even though it's been years. I want to get plastic surgery, but part of it feels like letting him and other shitty moids win over me, and I worry that it makes me no different from a tranny. On the other hand, I didn't ask to be born with a body that's deemed "bad" in this day and age, and I really don't see why I deserve to carry lifetime stigmatization for it. It's also hard to take any woman who says "Just live with it" seriously, because unless they have the same thing or worse, they don't really know what it's like, and women are often socialized to tell lies that sound "nice". Even on Lolcow, there are deranged, pornsick women who won't hesitate to go on about how other women who have certain bodily traits are deformed freaks who deserve to be mocked, and this is the kind of place you usually get reamed for thinking that way.
I'm being dramatic, but it really is like people take actual, personal offense if a woman doesn't look how they think she should. They turn into sadistic, drooling apes. It sucks, I hate living out the consequences, and I hate knowing that if the surgery goes badly, I'll be treated like I deserve it for being so "vain" and insecure that I'd try to get away from that kind of hatred.
No. 1608755
>>1608753people will definitely take offense on how other people look but that tells more about them than about who they criticise. like what you think someone is ugly? just fucking look away. it's pretty obvious they just need to put someone down because they are ugly inside.
keep being yourself and pay the haters no attention.
No. 1608816
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I wish I hadn't lost my teenage years to depression. I'm envious of people who spent this time partying and doing stupid things. I'm in my 20s so I could do those things now but I'm socially stunted and haven't had any luck with that. I feel lonely and bored, like I haven't lived. Even though I'm trying I still have nothing going on in my life. It feels empty and not worth it. It's crazy how much your teenage years affect your adulthood. My life is slipping through my hands
No. 1608820
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>>1608816same here. i get pissy at teens/college students being wild but i think part of it is jealousy. most of my "partying" was just me drinking or smoking while browsing LC or playing vidya.
i-i'll party with you nonna if u want…
No. 1608825
>>1608821>a cdWtf what year does he think it is
Nobody has cd burners anymore
No. 1608828
>>1607980Samefag, I'm crying right now and i don't know what to do, food also seems more and more disgusting and I don't want to eat.
I think I'm just overreacting. I wanted to leave since last year, but I didn't have the courage to do so, even my friends encouraged me to leave and maybe have a month off for the sake of my mental health, but I feel so guilty, especially when my parents also had issues with colleagues at work and didn't leave (altough they have all legal days off and better salary tbh).
I know they are trying to encourage me to not care about others so much that I will leave my job, but idk what anymore incentives i have so I will want to stay.
I'm scared to go and Tell my boss I want to leave, but something is stopping me. I'm just pathetic i guess, guess I will gaslight myself that hey, it ain't a bad workplace
No. 1608839
>>1608831I still have to find something else until uni and with the actual economic situation and ai taking over, I doubt I will find something better
>>1608837Thx, kek
No. 1608860
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I'm a manager that has different site accounts within my company.
My boss recently acquired a high stake new account for startup. It is a monster. It was an all-hands situation for everyone in my company and they even flew out other managers from other districts to help–which they begrudgingly did and very little help was actually done. My manager brought me aboard specifically to train a division of employees, and this division is usually what makes our bread and butter at any site. However the people we grandfathered in from the last vendor do not speak, write, or understand english and I received no written procedure documents from this messy client to give the proper direction. The environment is highly precise and regulated and so these factors make my job near impossible. Basically, I use my SME knowledge to try to mind read here. The employees are sometimes willfully doing the jobs wrong and while we have had small victories, we also had complaints from the client who suddenly adopted a very high bar of expectations now that we are the yes men. It has been very hard to train or manage anything in the past month for those reasons and this is not the only hat I am being made to wear there.
My boss flip flops between being appreciative of me to guilt tripping me for not doing enough. I have legit not had more than 2 actual days off (where I did not answer a work related email or call) in a month, and those only happened because I got sick from physical and mental exhaustion. Every day I go onsite, because not doing so will result in a guilt trip from my boss. I have been there doing a minimum of 10+ hours each day.
This is not my account. I am neglecting my duties at my other accounts because my boss wants my attention on this one.
This is not my account.
He hired two useless stupid older bitches at a level and pay grade above me and THEY own this account. Yet they use their ADULT children as excuses as to why they can't come to work. One has already claimed she won't come in on Saturdays because her adult son is incarcerated far away so she coincidentally needs the whole fucking day off to see him (and specifically Saturday and no other days, ofc). My boss said he is okay with this because I guess he is a fucking moron. Why does an adult man need mommy to see him once a week in prison because he fucked up and got what he deserved? I don't even get to see my family once a week. I hate this stupid bitch in particular because she tries to talk over me and fights me on shit she doesn't fucking know about because she physically hasn't done the work that I have. Neither bitch has my SME experience, so that's why my boss is so adamant about me being there all the time.
But again, this is THEIR account and they have no other accounts to worry about, unlike me.
The other useless bitch always has an iphone bud in her ear and it's obvious that she's taking calls for her side gig while on our hours. Yet my boss lets her get away with it just because she speaks the employee's language to bark orders at them occasionally.
I fucking hate them. It's almost 8am and I am not onsite, and because I will be made to work over the weekend once again, I don't feel like going in today at all.
What's my boss gonna do? Fire me? LOL.
No. 1608871
>>1608867Because male.
If he were female they'd tell him to take responsibility for his actions and to go pound sand.
They are sexist enablers.
No. 1608881
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im tired of being nice! I HATE EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!
No. 1608882
>>1608753That really sucks
nonny, I get where you are coming from. Personally I'd set a time limit, within which you genuinely work at getting over this. If a year+ from now that doesn't work then you can reconsider surgery. Chances are good its not nearly as bad as you think but life is too short to feel miserable about it.
>>1608816I mostly miss how much easier it was to be with friends back then. The working world doesn't provide the same sense of community.
No. 1608884
>>1608871100%
nonny and it’s so sad.
Although it would be nice to have parents who have a shit about their daughter, I’m glad I don’t have his life or his entanglement with them. What a mess.
No. 1608895
>>1608872report report report
I know that can be an awkward thing to do but he's definitely sexually harassing you so be confident you are not being dramatic when you tell them this guy is crossing the line in majorly unprofessional and inappropriate way.
No. 1608979
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Can white men just get rid of them already? Genuinely baffled these losers still exist. Isn't the whole point of conquering getting rid of the males of that said country? I'm really annoyed white men haven't gen0cided them yet. It all makes sense, they can't compete with the superior men so they start attacking women. This paki London dweller should be deported and never be allowed into Europe ever again. I'm so sick of these third world moids. Fuck off.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 1608986
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Someone is not responding to my time sensitive email and my bf told me to send another one asking for a response. I feel like that's rude/pushy, is it actually a normal thing to do? I'm so stressed out, it's making it hard to be productive with anything else.
No. 1608992
>>1608986Follow up emails are totally normal
nonnie. My BF is in tech and does this a lot. They're clearly not prioritizing your time or forgot about it. Just a simple "Hi (blank), was wondering if you got my email? Thank you, (name)" is really common!
No. 1608994
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i closed all my social media because i'm tired of everybody. i'm tired of my fwb pledging to me that he'd make me his girlfriend and still waiting for it, tired of having to be clingy to my friends to get a crumb of their attention. i broke up with my fwb weeks ago because he was emotionally abusive with me and he came back in a creepy stalker way, pledging to me that he'd make me his gf and finally be lovely with me. he didn't.
you can tell men you're okay with being a fuck meat as long as they don't bother you everyday demanding love and affection like partners do, and they'll fool you with the girlfriend trait. there's no winning with moids. now i know it will take days, weeks maybe, to somebody to notice i've closed my accounts. i want to make an unhinged account where i just vent to the void, without caring about followers.
No. 1609010
>>1608992Okay, thanks anon.
>My BF is in tech and does this a lotSo is mine and I wondered if it was just something men do at work that they think is ok but is actually just entitled and impolite lmao.
No. 1609015
Shit, I'm really slipping in my unemployed behaviour. I planned out a whole day of stuff and did better than usual (cooked for lunch and organised a drawer) but like I've literally freed up 45 hours a week since losing my job, how the fuck am I doing LESS? I thought I'd be miss productive out here.
>>1608994Sorry for where you're at nonna. You need to draw the line at what you're willing to accept and stick to it, and you should have higher standards than that. I have a group chat that I used to write cool stuff and observations in and would barely get a response except on the mundane. It's like they couldn't engage with anything that wasn't trending on twitter. Even then they'd spout other peoples opinions and not their own. Now I've got a friend who thinks I'm cool and observant and loves to discuss things with me, it's a night and day difference. And it's actually those old friends who were boring as shit, not me.
No. 1609047
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whenever I decide to try being a nicer person it always just makes me boring to be around. I need to figure out how to have an actual personality that isn't just mocking and criticizing other people. Everyone in my family is the same way though so often it feels like I'm just fighting the inevitable.
No. 1609059
I tried to keep in touch with my friend from college, Anna, after we graduated last year through texting. Anna started asking me a lot of questions, which was flattering, but she sometimes would ask me very personal ones (like asking me if I had STDs) or she would ask me like 10+ questions in a row. And when I didn't answer a question (either because I forgot to answer it or I didn't really feel like answering it), she would bump it up in a few hours and ask it again, which I felt like was stressful.
One day, I woke up to her asking me 20 questions after I went to bed. I felt a little overwhelmed, so I nicely tried to explain to her that I am happy to chat but I don't always have time to answer all of those. I guess I could have phrased things better, but I don't think what I said was that bad or harsh. Now it seems like I upset Anna because she hasn't asked me any questions since and refuses to chat with me.
I'll just let this go for a bit and take a break from talking with her. But it's annoying because we were supposed to go to a wedding together in a few months (not as a couple, but I don't know anyone there but her and the groom) and now I feel like maybe I should cancel because I was planning on staying with her and her family. So glad I haven't RSVP'd yet.
No. 1609098
Am I right for wanting to tell guys who I've been seeing for less than a month to fuck off because they're wanting to play house?
By that I mean they know I work a lot, yet instead of taking me out on a date or bringing me food their idea of spending time with me is basically "Hey let's chill at your place and cook dinner together."
Like ok but we're not official yet and you haven't taken me on not even a few legit dates. What makes you think I wanna tidy, cook, and clean up to have their company over?
Benefit of the doubt: Maybe in their minds it sounds romantic on paper because they think I'm too tired to be out or something, but to me it just screams that they're cheap, cannot host at their places for reasons, and wanna close in fast.
Am I wrong?
There's only one guy I am willing to entertain this with among them, and only because he is long distance, has offered me to stay at his place, and might end up watching my dog for free while I travel out of town for work in a couple weeks kek. But even he is kinda needy of my time over text and needs validation sometimes, a flaw that he even recognizes in himself. Idk. I fucking hate adult dating even more than I hated dating in my 20s.
No. 1609119
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I ordered orange chicken again and I'm very happy kek. I rarely order takeout and it's simple things like these that make me happy.
Comfy fridays are the best.
No. 1609213
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>why are you not taking to us anon haha
>she's shy haha
>for once I talk about something that actually interests me
>I either get weird stares or one word reply or "why are you wasting your time on thinking about stuff like this instead of enjoying life haha"
>then they proceed to talk about instagram dramas or celebrity fights like it wasn't a waste of time
I'm too autistic for this shit. And I'm not even talking about my super autistic interests, just trying to initiate discussion on some other topics that aren't social media or daily life/weather related, like idk history or politics or trans agenda kek and I always get the
>lol it doesn't matter focus on your life lol who cares people do what they want to do why do you care about stuff you have no influence on
Like do those people have any opinions on literally anything?? Because I can't remember when was the last time when I heard an actual opinion about anything. And then they talk about meaningless petty shit like celebrity fights or some weird news stories, not even serious ones affecting society. I just can't do this shit. I really force myself to talk about that shit because otherwise I would be totally ostracized, but fuck, I'd like to talk about something… Idk meaningful for once? I don't believe in the NPC theory but sometimes… idk Maybe it's just my way of speaking is boring?
No. 1609237
>>1609213I don't know if its that I'm just autistic too but I feel the same way. It's like, you try to discuss something beyond boring shit, have a more in-depth discussion and its always "it doesn't matter!! live your life bestie" and nothing you say will get through to them. Its like they just can't think about something that isn't surface level, or they just refuse to.
I've tried to understand the 'normie' interests, I'm not mean when I talk to them, I try to understand their interests and likes, I try to interact and get involved and talk about normie shit but I just can't get into it. I don't fucking understand it no matter how much I try. I honestly think maybe I'm just bound to forever be socially inept and retarded because I don't get how to talk to the average person.
I don't follow any popular new artists. I can't name most celebrities and if I can, I know literally nothing about them, because why would I care? I didn't watch the 214105th Marvel movie that came out. I don't watch TV, I don't own Netflix or Hulu or anything like that. I don't read/watch the news. And I understand that's what makes people uninterested in talking to me, I wouldn't want to talk to someone that I had nothing in common with either. But I just can't get into it or pretend to enjoy it or be interested, and I don't understand how other people find that boring shit interesting in the first place. I wish I did though.
No. 1609282
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This summer's summerfags are extra annoying.
No. 1609301
>>1609293The world is going to shit and our pizza land is going to shit a lot faster. The fuckers survived and they say they continued filming after smashing the smart car. A lot of younger people (but some older ones too) have giant ass vehicles to look cool but they can't fucking drive. They NEED to text on their phones or make tiktok stories while driving because they will die if they don't I guess.
I hope the unapologetic moids involved suffer a lot.
No. 1609375
>>1604864He took me out on an amazing date to a huge outdoor garden with a koi pond and a lake. He dressed nicely, seemed nervous, 100% proposal date. Halfway through I even saw the ring box in his pocket and I started freaking out.
We get to a beautiful spot overlooking the lake, and he gives me the ring. It was just a gift. No proposal. Still trying to not let my disappointment show, I really thought we were on the same page
No. 1609509
>>1604289you have to catch yourself when you start doing this. meditate more, and focus on mindfulness. become more aware of you, as you are, in this very moment. take a moment to sit and be grateful for what you have, even if it's something simple like a hot cup of tea or the sun shining through your window. remember that everyone is an individual and has their own unique journey…if you waste time comparing yourself to others you will never see all the good things surrounding you or your own potential. we are not all meant to live the same lives and it is your job and your job alone to figure out what god has in store for you. you don't know what other people have been through to get what they have and if you aren't willing to ask them, then you aren't ready to put in the work you need to evolve.
because eventually you will become envious of someone, and then you'll hate them, and it will destroy you more than the person you envy. you'll spend everyday of your life living in guilt and shame because you allowed irrational thoughts to take over your mind. focus on yourself 100% and you will find other people and their lives less interesting. ask the universe/god to show you what your life means and everything will make more sense…
No. 1609523
>>1609237>>1609213Honestly it just sounds like they're aggressively trying to cope with social issues because it's too depressing from them and totally avoiding the subject is the way they do it. The problem is that they end up ostracizing those who do dare to tackle those issues.
Maybe try talking to older people? Sometimes if you want deeper conversations you just can't rely on people your age for that.
No. 1609538
Me and my grandma were always extremely close and I really enjoyed talking to her a lot even when I was a kid. When I was around 7-11, my grandma told me extremely minimally about having experienced severe physics abuse with her dad and experiencing csa, I can’t remember if the two were the same incident because I was so young and extremely sheltered and I think did not actually register the concept of “sexual abuse” or what it means. When she told me about it, it was part of a flowing conversation about her childhood and wasn’t framed in a way of being like “I have something serious I need to tell you about etc”, and the sexual abuse topic was mostly a part of a conversation where she was giving me basically like a sex ed talk around 10 because I was so sheltered and my parents had taught me nothing and she was worried about me being vulnerable because of it. She didn’t go into graphic detail about any of it but just enough that basically I understood something had happened and that it was extremely difficult for her.
My grandma recently passed away, and I was talking with my mum the other day about her life and she was talking about the fact that from around mid teens, my grandma ran away to live with a woman next door and lived the rest of her childhood there, and said “yes I think grandma must have experienced some kind of physical or sexual abuse because why would she live there” and without thinking I was just like “yeah obviously, her dad!?” And my mum didn’t know what I was talking about, she said my grandma had just said he was an “old bastard” but not talked about any kind of actual abuse. My mum said she never talked about it to any of her children, and I realised I think I might be the only person she ever told?
I was so young and what she told me was so minimal, the idea never even crossed my mind other immediate family members didn’t have a similar degree of knowledge, I thought they would have known way more than me. Now I don’t know what to make of it, in a way I feel like, should I have tried to bring it up with her again as an adult? But she always seemed to not want to be asked further questions/find it hard to discuss during the conversations when I was a child. I feel awful because I can’t even remember my exact reaction back then, but I definitely didn’t process the gravity of things
No. 1609562
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nonnies this is getting creepy as fuck. i think its better to keep them closed now.
as a facebook addict, i already had another account with 0 friends, a male name and was actually used vent to the void. but hours before i wrote
>>1608994, i wanted to play multiple personalities and start adding randoms to feel something. i remembered the name of another fb attention whore i was mutuals with to see who i would add. her friendlist has nearly the same people i had, but then something was off. there was an account with the name i had in my old facebook, but i closed that account like a year ago. i clicked on it and IT WAS MY FWB'S EX. THE EX OF MY FWB HAS TAKEN MY OLD USERNAME THAT I USED TO HAD IN ALL OF MY SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS.
No. 1609573
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I hate people who don't realize that men dressing as women in the old days was done for comedy, there's no deeper meaning to it. It doesn't mean they're secretly trans/gay/whatever else. Tired of people trying to rewrite history and project their modern, twitterbrained views in general especially on my vintage husbandos
No. 1609620
>>1609523I never thought about it this way, some of them just genuinely don't seem to care or have any knowledge to engage with me but I also know some people who would fit your description. It that's true that's really sad bc I would like to bond with them over something more meaningful but they just won't let me
Like, there's this young guy in our country, he studied biology and now he works for university and also has a blog about science. He's a public figure, a gay man and he speaks against trans agenda. He gets lots of shit for it from lgbtqxwz and liberal circles and even some death threats. Some time ago he admitted on his blog that he was taking hormones in his teens and then he detransitioned later on and he described his whole experience of how much that fucked him up mentally, also the drugs gave him osteoporosis at 18 etc. I actually happened to be his childhood friend but I stopped talking to him after he trooned out and kept spamming me with his narcissistic trans bullshit. I was younger than him and it affected me badly. He tried to reach me for like a year after that. Time passed and when I discovered he's now an openly gay man and he talks against trans agenda and against transing kids, despite getting so much hate, I was proud of him, but I felt too stupid to write to him after all that time. But recently I really felt the need to reach him out and say I support him. So I expressed that to one of my coworkers who seemed to be like more aware and keen on talking about social stuff and shit, and I got basically mocked by him and I got the good old "lol it's not important, also it's this guy's fault if he's a public figure and wants to ruin his career lol" and I said "but universities should stand for what's truth and he represents the university" and he said "truth doesn't exist lol who cares, stop wasting your life on things that don't matter". It was really a let down. I still want to reach my childhood friend though because I believe it matters
No. 1609629
>>1609606H-how old are you
nonny…?
No. 1609644
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I just got food poisoning for the first time in like 5+ years, is this karma for using food poisoning to get out of work while I was in college? Also who knew pooping could make you so sleepy. Goodnight Nonas ilu.
No. 1609648
>>1609644Goodnight
nonnie, sleep well and drink lots of water and salty foods for your electrolytes. Food poisoning sucks.
No. 1609654
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I know this sounds like a total LARP but I just had the worst day you can possibly imagine. I’m on vacation in this area that has a reputation for being liberal and yet I just had two of the freakiest experiences I’ve ever had in a long time.
I went into this record shop. This WASPy looking girl walked in before I did, and I noticed that the owner of the shop welcomed her in and not me. I didn’t think much of it at first until I asked the owner where the punk albums were and I noticed that he had multiple Nazi tattoos on his arms. An SS symbol, a bunch of Viking runes, etc. The weirdest part was that he was acting so normal and friendly when he was talking to me. Everyone has this idea that Nazis go around shouting about how much they hate Jews and whatever from the rooftops, but then when you meet them in real life and you realize they’re literally just people who happen to hold evil views it’s so jarring. I considered leaving a negative Yelp review but I feel like exposing him would just make him more dangerous because he would hide his views and then no one would be able to tell.
Afterwards, I was walking down the street and I passed this group of frat boys. I heard one of them say “dude did you see that tranny” and they kept looking over their shoulder and staring at me like I’m a fucking zoo animal or something. I’m literally just a butch detransitioner. Maybe that’s what makes them so mad, the fact that I’m a woman who has made herself undesirable to men.
If this is how I’m being treated right now, I can’t imagine how much worse it’s gonna get in the next couple of months or years.
No. 1609659
>>1609538this is kind of eerie because i had a similar relationship with my late grandma (she died in 2014 when i had just turned 19). she was molested as a child and i later come to find out no one in the family knew she was abused except for me? i was legit so shocked about that. she told me everything about her abuse, too. it hurts even more because i am convinced my aunt lied about being molested out of some weird hatred she has directed towards her. i feel sad now because i had a dream about her after my roommate attacked me and i was in my apartment scared all night thinking her and her sister were going to kill me while i slept.
sending you all my love nona.
No. 1609670
>>1609606There is no wall for women, Nona. That’s a belittlement and negging tactic to make women under 25-30 (they can’t even decide on what age the mythical wall even is lol) feel pressured into dating and settling down early in their prime. They really fucking hate that women are not pressured into forced marriages these days and there’s no need to commit to any one scrote. We can enjoy life and have millions of options for career, travel, or taking any path in life.
You are internalizing that your worth as a woman is your beauty. You don’t understand you’ve been poisoned by the patriarchal moid driven world around us. Women are products to men thanks to the pornification, and you need to break free from their mindset and how they want you to see yourself as an “expired product.” You are a human being with far more worth than your physical looks and that scares them you might one day comprehend that. You were valuable when you were a little girl, you will be valuable when you are an old lady, and you are valuable right now. They don’t want you to understand that because you’re harder to manipulate.
Also it’s clear to me you’re hanging out in the wrong parts of the internet with genetic dead end male dominance, like Reddit or 4chan. You need to hang out on radfem areas of the internet like ovarit and immediately block any website that even uses phrases like “hit the wall”. Use a website blocker if you have to.
Love you, Nona. Be around other women and dedicate your life to everything enjoyable to you.
No. 1609680
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yooooooooo i haven't menstruated since September 2022..
>(i started antipsychotics & an antidepressant in may 2022 but ended them in february 2023)
should i be concerned or what
No. 1609704
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>>1609697Women's 'gossip' usually involves commiserating about men, leading to female solidarity and a better understanding of moid degeneracy. ofc they constantly rail on us for being gossips because it's a threat to them. Meanwhile they stay gossiping about how stacey won't fuck them instead of chad and doing their best to radicalize as many potential school shooters as possible.
But I mean obviously people are gonna talk shit about each other sometimes, it's just not an exclusively female moral failing.
No. 1609714
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>>1609697Men are legit fucking petty bitches and anyone who tells you otherwise is a pick me or has never been around a group of them. Especially when it comes to vidya. Like at that one smashbros event where some retarded petty moid threw an actual raw crab at a player KEK
No. 1609716
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Does anyone else get these deranged disgusting videos that just appear when they search stuff ????
No. 1609735
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godddd i want to kill my loud inbred retard neighbours and their even louder inbred retard spawn
No. 1609752
>>1609697Unfortunately I met more female than male gossipers. I despise them regardless of their sex. They're always two faced narcissistic cunts. Some of them literally can't talk about anything else at work and when they see you're not engaging they're surprised
>>1609743>womenDon't lump us together
No. 1609770
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>>1609648Ty
nonnie I'm feeling much better after some good sleep and lots of water, I didn't know salt was an electrolyte!
Unrelated I found out a close online friend is an active homophobe, shit sucks - my one scrote friend is now gone, which is okay.
No. 1609782
>>1609375I don't think you ought to marry someone this oblivious and tone deaf. I've heard of men giving apeasement rings so that their gfs won't bug them as much over an engagement ring because of the "promise" rings and superfluous investment that they imply.
Do you even know if he wants to marry? Was a general timeline not discussed during the initial dating period? Weird stuff.
No. 1609783
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WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS WRONG WITH TUMBLR??? IT JUST SHOWS ME POSTS FROM FOLLOWED 'TAGS'. WHY WOULD I WANT MY FEED TO JUST BE RANDOM AMALGMATIONS FROM ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING IN #ART #AESTHETIC #PAINTING. I EVEN TRIED UNFOLLOWING ALL THE TAGS AND ITS JUST SHOWED ME SUGGESTED POSTS. WHY CAN'T IT JUST SHOW ME A FEED OF POSTS FROM BLOGS I ACTUALLY FOLLOW???
No. 1609838
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>guy is coming to see me
>texts me in the middle of the night "we need to talk.." and have missed calls that didn't wake me up somehow even though my phone was turned up
>freak out and read the messages as soon as I wake up
>he's still coming just on another flight
I swear I feel a migraine coming on
No. 1609840
>>1609833"they " "them" just use he/she for crying out loud
no man is asexual and as retarded as it sounds they're obviously gonna go for the young girls if they can, youth and beauty are everything in today's society
No. 1609842
It's not petty to break up with a guy who lectures you on the food you eat, right? My boyfriend is an ex-fatty turned gym bro who has adapted fully to the "food is fuel" mindset and wants me to do the same, but I just can't seem to get there and the more he reprimands me for it, the more petty I get. I had a father who was obsessed with my weight and I spent my whole childhood feeling shitty about it and hiding snacks in crazy places just to get some kind of revenge on him, and now when my boyfriend is doing the same I have started to repeat these patterns. Hiding snacks. Not eating at all when he's at home only to binge like crazy when I have the chance to be alone.
My boyfriend was obviously extremely upset when I compared him to my abusive father, swearing that he only has my health in mind and that all he wants is for us both to live long, happy lives together. He feels that my lack of effort when it comes to my health is proof I don't truly love him, and at this point I think he's right. I don't love him, and now as we're preparing for a breakup he keeps telling me that it's childish of me to want to end the relationship just because of food. Everything else is so great, but I think I'm going to puke if I have to live the rest of my life with a guy who is so stressed out about his own health and mine, to the point where he thinks his life will be an utter failure if he doesn't make it to being 90 years old.
No. 1609873
>>1609842>now as we're preparing for a breakup he keeps telling me that it's childish of me to want to end the relationship just because of foodWell, he's the one who escalated it, no? You were honest about how what he was saying to you was making you feel due to current and past issues and he chose not to respect that.
Even fatties deserve a snack every now and then anon. "Food is fuel" is an autismo take that the majority of the world finds strange and doesn't adhere to. To many people, food is an important cultural and familial aspect in their lives, so just imagine their reaction should someone come along to tell them they can't have food anymore. He's projecting his ex fatass mindset on you and cannot imagine that someone else could eat snacks because he himself still has no self control.
He is eating disordered.
Watch him revert back into a fat the second he cannot devote every waking hour at the gym anymore, I think you're right to leave and I don't buy that he cares about your health. He's being too selfish to have anyone else on his mind.
No. 1609879
>>1609845Sending hugs anon. I won’t say I know exactly how you feel, but I’m in a similar boat. No one I can hang out with in person/beginning to doubt every interaction I’ve ever had.
For what it’s worth I’d come have a picnic with you. I’m sure you’re awesome
No. 1609886
>>1609842Is he doing this because he's worried about you becoming fat, or does he actually care about your health? Because I've been on the other side of this situation, where I had an ex who didn't give a shit about his diet. He was skinny, but ate like shit all day every day. It's very stressful to be romantically involved with someone who doesn't take care of themselves, because it affects you too. You begin to worry about their health, and when, not if, when they're going to develop serious complications because of their diet. And as their partner, you have to be the one who watches the love of your life suffer over something that could have been avoided. It's a really scary thing. Any person who truly cares about you will be bothered by this.
But since he's a man, he's likely a selfish vain asshole who wants your body to look a certain way. Just dump him.
No. 1610081
>>1609944Felt that
nonnie, I was supposed to go on a road trip today but I developed a crazy yeast infection and my urethra burns. Inshallah we get better soon.
No. 1610248
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Realizing I hated on a character so much in spite of him largely being likable in story, because he perfectly represented my shadow self that I was avoiding confronting. Kind of weak and pathetic, coddled, inability to be honest with himself or others, lives a life of hedonism, codependency & willful ignorance to avoid facing his own misery and need to change. Now that I've realized that and started to confront the part of myself I was running from, I like his character more. (I'm still working on being a better, self-aware and more independent person)
No. 1610283
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>>1610260>they look so fucking similarIn what way do you think they look similar? Do you mean in conventional attractiveness level they are similar?
No. 1610308
>>1610283Not in conventional attractiveness- they just look super similar, like similar noses, eyebrows, facial feature placement, small eyes, proportions etc. I assume that's why they were casted as father/daughter. He is slightly better looking because like I said her mouth area is bizarre, but it's fucked up it's common to shit on her and nobody really pokes at his looks
>>1610279Yes lmfao. They both look weird to me but Bella really doesn't deserve the amount of hate she gets. Proof that you can only be unconventional looking as a man, it's pure sexism.
No. 1610315
>>1610312Don't be deliberately obtuse. I'm complaining that society shits on unconventionally attractive women's looks while gassing up unconventionally attractive men who look like the male equivalent. You can't deny that it's unfairly skewed.
>>1610310I don't find him attractive but I haven't seen the show, so I don't know if his acting makes him more charming. Even in his younger photos he isn't great looking, but he has a nice jawline.
No. 1610379
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Why the FUCK does every task I need to do make me feel like I'm gonna die. And then I panic, and do it, and it's usually pretty ok. But I NEVER remember that for the next time. Why am I so stupid.
No. 1610390
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Have you guys noticed that men would rather murder people than tell the truth? Its been done so many times. Men killing their kids. Men killing their parents. Men killing their wives. I see it everywhere, on crime shows, on the news, online. A man would rather brutally murder someone than have people know what kind of person he really is. That's fucking insane.
I'm thinking about it because I am dealing with a male like that and it's the creepiest shit I think I will ever deal with in my life. He's confided in a 'friend' of his that all the horrible things he's done to me are fine and they will get away with it because all they have to do is 'wait'. He has 'joked' on two different occasions I know of about the horrible deaths he wish would happen to me–all because I know things about them that would not only shun him from everyone he grifts on and lies to, but get him put in jail. I have done nothing to him. Yet he's obsessed with revolved his life around tormenting me and making other people pawns. He is the president of my hate club and is desperate to make any degen he can join–and it's funny to him, he genuinely thinks me dying will make him get away with all the fucked up shit he does indefinitely. If you've never had to deal with a man like this, lucky you. I will tell you though that what makes it so scary now especially in the age of social media cult of personalities is that some of these men that are literal monsters seem very normal or morally sound on socials. You really can't trust any of them. He said that it's okay, it's fine to abuse me because I'm a "white bitch" and all he has to do is tell people I'm a Karen or racist or something (not any of those things and never will be) and they'll say I deserve it and go along with it. I will never understand how anyone could be so psychotic and fixated and I don't want to. Truly an aberration.
No. 1610396
>>1610390Hey nona, tell more than one person in real life everything you just posted here. Give them all the details. If he really is that unhinged, you need to let people around you know he genuinely wants to threaten your life.
As for grifters, don't feel scared. All men in power are made to be toppled. It's almost always women who will destroy a man from his own hubris, especially some soylent e-celeb. Do you know any other girls who might know details about him too? There is so much power in numbers for women.
No. 1610416
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My body's changed significantly and is more "curvy". I don't want to bash it, I wouldn't even dislike it on someone else. It fits into the beauty standards of my culture, which is nice, I guess. It just doesn't feel like me, but I don't really want to be pro-ana again. I guess I'm fine, as long as I'm not fat. I think I've always had imposter syndrome in my own body. Weeb brainrot is there for sure, but there's something else going on. I don't know what it is, it's not like I actually want to troon out.
I remember a latina anon saying she doesn't like having a super skinny, lean body and wishes she had more of a curvy body. I wish I could switch with her. I think thin, androgynous body types are the most beautiful. Pic unrel, I just think it's funny and kind of eerie
No. 1610426
All my friends canceled on me. I guess it’s because I’ve become a bad person and they don’t want to do anything with me until I “fix” myself and it’s because I’m neglecting myself and because I seem sad. I’m sorry but this isn’t going to help. It seems like they all have a leg up and doing things in their lives and this past month I’ve just been skating by on the bare minimum. I’ve said ok I’ll change too many times and I guess they’re fed up with me but how I live my life doesn’t affect them and I understand if they think it’s sad but why do they have to put me down like that. Why do I keep getting hang outs dangled in front of me and then just told no after. Maybe I’m being dramatic because it doesn’t happen that often but I know they’re upset at me because I blew up (samefag from
>>1610089) but it was between me and him and how he was being cold to me again. I just want to be left alone but I like spending time with my friends. I’m arrogant to think I could just do that and not expect that they would want to see me in a better position I guess? I have no job right now and I’ve lost every passion of mine and the fact I’m writing fanfiction seems to upset them (it’s 3 people by the way) and I said it was just a way for me to like writing again but I know its dumb. I have really juvenile problems and I haven’t been learning how to drive. And my friend is out with the other and she’s practicing driving right now and it was a possibility that I was going to join them but three hours later I finally have to squeeze out of them that no I’m not going to join them. I left hours ago because I didn’t want to be home and now I’m just sitting in the bathroom of a supermarket because that’s as far as I could walk. I’m sorry, it’s just that it hurts. I didn’t think people saw how much my life is in the shitter and are disgusted by it. I don’t even think it’s that bad, I’m just being awful because I’m being stagnant. Im just sorry that I lie by saying I’ll do something and then don’t do it, or admit that I’m not doing something. It’s mainly about my health like my skin and how I seem sad which I don’t understand. Monday I’m going to start volunteering (can’t land an actual hire) and my friend first thought it was so I have something to do. But I just wanted something to fill up my resume gap. She keeps telling me to get some initiative. I just feel retarded because it’s not bad but it’s been kinda sudden and now everyone’s telling me how I’m not the same person anymore and that I need to do something. I don’t know I’m just cratered right now. I don’t know why people cancelling plans hurts so much. It feels pathetic to hurt right now because it seems I was hurting everyone else.
No. 1610441
>>1610438Even weirder response. I've generally found that when another woman is being abused and she has something to say about it, she isn't going to play coy and delete all her posts, insult a
victim, and then withhold on the basis of an alias. Why are
you the one that's paranoid, given what I just shared?
No. 1610452
>>1610425Go to a store that sells all purpose flour I’m sure there’s a Publix somewhere that has some.
Also nonnies always freeze flour for 2 weeks until you store it regularly. Flour mites suck
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No. 1610460
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>start a new job
>1 of the women there lets me know she's autistic basically the first time we meet
>oh cool, another autistic woman. maybe we can be friends
>find out she diagnosed herself with autism and also EDS, ADHD
>she's very loud, sarcastic and gossipy. kind of hard to talk to
>overhear her shit-talking me today with someone else, calling me "weird" and "socially challenged"
damn that's what i get for trying to talk to people kek
No. 1610461
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>>1610453Too much weed for me I am never being baited again. I am just sad about everything I have gone through and scared of retribution
No. 1610462
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I've noticed this pattern more than once.
>one anon talks about being internet-stalked by some moid with a little group of other moids on his side
>another anon pops up and says the exact same thing is happening to her
>regardless of what happens after that, someone gets called a "schizo"
>an incoherent infight breaks out ("you are my stalker" accusation, needlessly inflammatory response to said accusation, rinse and repeat)
It's happened on 2-3 other occasions. I don't know what it means or what's going on, but it's weird. I remember someone posted a strange Twitter account allegedly run by one of the stalker moids in the past, too, but I forgot the username.
No. 1610468
>>1610462It's because the type of creepy,
abusive techbros who do that kind of stuff camp out in vulnerable female spaces. No surprise there.
No. 1610470
>>1610462I wrote
>>1610390The anon who responded to me claimed the moid they are dealing with goes by a fake name starting with a K,
one of the scrotes im dealing with uses a fake alias that starts with a K, and one just so coincidentally happens to use a fake name from South Park, which anon posted a reaction image from here
>>1610461The male in question has posted plenty times on lolcow, especially in 2020 and 2021. They're grotesquely terminally online. The aggression is fucking weird, yes. Im done with whatever this is and am not interested in playing games with faggots though. I've been through enough.
No. 1610487
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I got so drunk last night at a work party. I hate myself! I never usually drink so ofc can’t pace myself like a normal person. I cried to two of my workmates about my relationship and just messy drunk confessions in general. Fuck my life man. Why can’t I just act dignified.
No. 1610563
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>mfw I see women unironically defend pedophiles/rapists/murders just because they're trans
I can't see how this is worth the troon brownie points.
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>>1610589Well fuck you, because now I’m looking right at you anon
Through you even
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ok well whoever the fuck this "Kyle" faggot is i hope he get unalived in an unpleasant way in minecraft. dont fuck with my nonnas.
No. 1610723
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My airline has fucked me so absolutely and now I don’t know what to do. They overbooked my second international flight so I had to be rerouted through a different city, but even with three extra hours they managed to lose my bag. I have a stopover with family in the middle (where I’m posting from), but they’ve fucked that too because the reroute means the rest of my tickets have been cancelled so I don’t know if I can complete my trip at all, so now I have no luggage and no forward trip. I spent months planning this, thousands of dollars in bookings and down payments, and they’ve managed to fuck it up completely in the space of a few days. Fuck all of this. Once I get home I’m locking my bedroom door and I’m never travelling again. I would 100% take being a hermit over this bullshit.
No. 1610752
All the nastiness, hatred, violence, pedophilia, female hatred, you name it, in my community makes me sick to my stomach and I hate how it’s normalized. I could say 100 times over that things need to be better but I would just get told every community has problems. I don’t fucking get why things need to be like this at all. I hate seeing stories of pedophilia and it being met with laughter or an excuse. I hate seeing extreme female hatred met with people turning a blind eye and making excuses. It hurts me the most that the women will turn a blind eye and in most situations make retarded excuses and actively do their best to make the situations worse. Blaming your own child for getting raped by the 50th scrote you brought into the house that you met on the first date… even competing with that child for the love and attention from someone you know hurt her all being too common… Girls being raped, beaten, treated as objects, thrown around like trash all being the punchline of jokes for so many of the community. It being seen as cool to be apart of all the senseless violence against innocent people and it being an actively life ruining thing to speak up against shit you’ve seen since being a “snitch” is way worse than stabbing your girlfriend to death and killing her children… I don’t fucking understand it anymore. Seeing the absolute state of everything just gives me more suicide fuel, and I doubt anything is ever going to get better. Absolute shit world.
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NGL that Stacy vs fembot bingo made me feel like shit. Not only it shits on me for being an introvert, but also cause I'm a kissless virgin like it's my fault. I'm not even unattractive at all, i just live in a very dangerous, poor country, i cannot risk a pregnancy or intimacy it would fuck my life further. I live a relatively peaceful life by avoiding men why is that a bad thing? I don't think I would be happy or an "Stacy" if i fucked around with random moids i would end up brutalized or even killed, i consider myself "blessed" to have avoided being raped/trafficked/trapped with 5 kids at this point. The way that bingo emphasized sex you would think I'm actually commiting a crime by…not getting laid? Wtf??
Tl;Dr: attractive volcels exists, I'm not a femcel just because I reject men that are not in my league or could murder me
No. 1610814
>>1610237Money = power. Men do not like giving up power. Especially to someone they consider a lesser, aka a woman. They give you stuff because they can say "look at all the stuff I've done for you you ungrateful bitch, you
should be sucking my dick right now." If he just gives you the money he's just a John now. (Which he was anyway but men are retarded)
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Nonnies I need to sleep im so tired nothing is working
No. 1611028
>>1610891There used to be a burlesque thing in my old city. It was advertised as featuring a 'drag king' This was before trans shit had really blown up so I was expecting it to maybe just be a butch take on burlesque.
They had a badly drawn on mustache. That was the drag aspect ig. Other than that they were indistinguishable from the rest.
No. 1611033
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So tired of being ignored. I can send my best friend a message anytime and 50/50 she will leave me on seen, you just can’t compete with a woman’s boyfriend. I don’t fucking understand it they can be amazing friends you can count on but the moment they get a bf it feels like they would sell your organs and burn your body if only nigel asked.
No. 1611080
>>1611067Your friends are assholes. Whenever my friends and I make plans, we stick to them, even though none of us actually want to leave the house ever.
I've had friends like yours, and unless your dynamic is different, hanging out with you is not a priority if they treat you like this. Usually I let these friendships whither and make friends who look forward to hanging out with me.
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I get that my family is getting on my ass because of non-existent boyfriends and marriage even though I'm only in my early twenties so still stfu, won't you? but my co-workers now, too? Really?
No. 1611133
>>1611124I have never heard of anyone doing this IRL or online. What age group are you, do you live in a major city? No way it's normal. It literally is something you would hear when learning about domestic violence and signs of
abusive partners.
No. 1611150
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Really want to buy some doujinshi for an uncommon pairing but I can't fucking read a lick of japanese.
No. 1611157
>>1611133I live in a big city in the US, I’ve met plenty of college age-early/mid 30s couples who share location (it’s an iPhone thing maybe??) and I’ve seen a lot of people talk about it online too
>>1611145And I want to note that it’s a mutual thing, they both have it on so I guess they can argue since it’s mutual it’s not
abusive No. 1611190
>>1611157yeah they
can but those of us with brains know you only do that shit with adults if you're paranoid. Sometimes it's reasonable, like if your partner drives Uber for a living or something but usually it's because someone cheated and the other party doesn't trust them anymore. Surveiling adults is not something healthy people do
No. 1611202
>>1611112I'm doing exactly that ! I got some readymade meals that can be eaten cold such as rice salad that she can take with her. Tonight I stir fried cabbage that I grew myself with some sesame. I'm mostly worried about her spiraling back into her vicious circle of alcoholism.
My grandma is absurdly tough however. She has also been an alcoholic, has abused every kind of prescription medicine in existence throughout her life, has tried to kill herself a few times and from all this she got zero health issues, during Covid she had something that remained unidentified but we believe it was a stroke and she was in such a bad state we thought it would be the end and yet she pretty much came back from the dead, healthier than she'd ever been. I'm surprised that I even had tears left to cry because I've been basically microdosing grief for so long.
My mom has been dealing with my grandma's antics and taking care of her all by herself for many years. I think deep down she still has hope that she'll once again pull her resurrection stunt and just wake up and walk out the door like it's nothing. The doctor said that she would last for only a few days but at this point, if she took half a year to go I wouldn't even be surprised.
No. 1611218
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Found some crazy shit on fanfiction dot net. Someone (multiple someones?) has been making various sockpuppet accounts impersonating some middle aged women and saying they're all pedophiles, posting gross shock value pedo fics on accounts that have their full names as usernames and full doxes in bio. They also spam review sections of random stories posting these women's full doxes and impersonating them to make them look like pedophiles. It seems the women are all from Texas and involved in some way with education. This has been going on for years and there are users claiming to have been stalked by these sockpuppets, it's very bizarre. There also seems to be some relation to some group "Critics United" who claim they just try to report rule breaking fics but also they too seem to have their fair share of impersonator sockpuppets and there's also a whole bunch of people crying about "cyberbullying" and even "stalking". It's a very autistic rabbit hole that I haven't really seen anyone talk about outside fanfiction dot net.
No. 1611253
>>1611251My desires, problems, issues have always been ignored or taken against me. I need someone to help me or support me. I cannot afford going to therapy and paying a man to tell me things I already know and he goes back to his family with my money while I cannot achieve basic living quality no matter how much effort I put in. I'm genuinely terrified of interacting with other people because of the harassment that is instilled onto me, of the rejection, of having my insecurities pushed out…
It genuinely feels like nobody's ever had empathy for me
No. 1611317
I just went on my first long holiday in years with my bf. We're long distance but he's moving to my city in a month or so. It was honestly one of the best months of my life, we had so much fun and every moment we spent together was heaven. Now I'm back home, back to my miserable, boring life and I don't know how to deal with it. We talked about spending more time travelling (I work remotely but he does not) and it's a life I could see us living. Right now, that's all I want but it's obviously not something that can happen immediately. So I'm back home, and stuck, and feeling miserable. I'm trying to enjoy thinking about the time we spent together, the places we went and the things we did, but it's hard to think about it all when I'm right back to where I was before flying out. This isn't the life I want to live, this isn't where I want to be. I'm tired of this city, the terrible cold weather year round, the people. I just want more from this.
No. 1611351
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I’m obsessed with stalking this girl from my ex’s work. There’s not a lot of info of her online and she seems like an enigma to me. In some photos she looks stunning and exactly like his type but in others she looks very average. She’s not ugly by any means but just seems odd. Some of her pictures look like 2016 filtered edits and some look like crystal clear candids. It’s driving me crazy trying to figure out if she looks like how she does online in real life. I’ve gone to some great creeper level lengths of snooping and found some evidence she might be off. She doesn’t have her full name on her profile but her real name could possibly be in her username, and I found an old LinkedIn that lines up with the name, the face, and the city she seems to follow a lot of people from. It’s not a very big city so for all these things to line up would be a pretty big coincidence. If this profile and the other things I’ve found are correct then she’s lying about being 4 years younger than she is and had a period of not being able to hold down a job for more than two months. It seems like she dropped out of high school and took a several year break before getting a GED. It’s driving me crazy trying to find out if he would be into her. On one hand she is really pretty online but looks a lot like his ex in her possible candids. This could really go either way for whether he’s drawn to or not interested in her. She’s more what he says is his type on paper but they had an awful break up and he pretty much erased her from his life. I look the exact opposite of them. I’m ruminating and obsessing because she seems like the perfect girl for him and he will forget about me forever. I already got discarded severely and he’s just going to keep getting rewarded with perfect women falling into his lap while I die alone.
No. 1611359
>>1611357I don't know what I am but I consider myself bisexual, I've had both male and female partners and had sex with both, but I feel deep discomfort remembering those experience despite letting myself enjoy them in the moment. I guess I'm posting here to see if other people have ever felt the same way. I'd look for someone who felt the same, but I've been in this relationship for over half a decade and I really do love my partner, I just wish I could be in this relationship but not have sex. I still want to kiss and cuddle but… I don't know why these feelings have been growing more and more in the past year, I've become more and more disgusted by my own libido and sexuality, and the fact that I've let my partner use me this way. He's a genuinely sweet man though, lots of love and care and thoughtfulness all around, he doesn't force me into it and likes to make sure I'm feeling ok and stops if I ask, but I just let him use me anyway. But I feel disgusted with myself after. Like how you'd feel great in the moment using drugs, but feel disgusted with yourself afterwards.
I just don't know whats wrong with me
No. 1611368
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In recent years I finally lived up to my teenage dream of owning and wearing lolita, from all the brands I ogled as a kid. But I was left kind of disappointed by the reality of wearing the fashion. The petticoat is very heavy and takes up space, I wear other jfashion but even in comparison to them, lolita feels very costumey. I've still had fun wearing it and think it looks gorgeous on other girls but … I don't know. It's possible I started wearing it at too old of an age and now feel a bit silly wearing something so excessively whimsical. I'm in my late 20s and I know that's not super old or anything. But I suppose It's also wearing it now as a someone well into adulthood feels like I'm trying to recapture something from my youth that's long gone and is longer truly 'me'. But I've been going through a bit of an identity crisis in general, related to some personal developments and mental health related discoveries during therapy. An awakening of sorts and trying to find out who I am in the now, and not who I was in the past.
No. 1611436
>>1611411I'm the anon she replied to, I am going to therapy and I really do try to talk this through with my bf. I know I need to work this out. I want to work this out. I just feel so fucked up for feeling this way. I'm trying to get better.
>>1611405Thank you for telling me this. At the same time though I feel like I do have an issue I need to get help for. I just want to know if anyone else has felt this way. I'm not normal. I'm just so confused. I don't want to break up. I don't think anyone else would or could ever love me, I can't even handle basic intimacy. I just want to be fixed.
No. 1611451
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I am 26 years old and my only "friend" is a man that looks down on and is embarrassed by me
I have been "friends" with this man for almost a decade and he never liked me. He always found me an ugly cringe mongoloid but needed someone to prop up his ego when the rest of his roster was preoccupied
He keeps telling me he wants me in his life and invites me to shit but EVERY SINGLE TIME he treats me like the dirt under his shoe. He'll entertain me privately but in public I'm some delusional pet retard that accidentally stumbled into the occasion (that he invited me to)
No. 1611484
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>>1611368Something I learned about lolita is the "lifespan" of most lolitas is about 5 years honestly. 10 years is a very long time and anyone who sticks to it for more than that is in it for life in some form, even if it's sort of a casual lolita look. After being into it for so long, I kind of understand why.
It's ultra expensive, it is never practical in any weather or season, and depending on what style you choose like sweet, most of it looks very immature to most people once they get past 30, sometimes even something like 27. It really feels like it's a style most girls wear in their 20s and go hardcore into for about 5 years, then get super burnt out. Part of that burn out is the community demanding perfection in all photos (I blame the rise of Instagram) and you must accessorize with difficult to find accessories that must fit the rules. It can really rule your life and it ruled mine when I was really in it. You can get so absorbed in pointless community drama that doesn't matter outside lolita and waste entire days looking or trying to get dresses or pieces you want. I'd think about if my pinks were matching obsessively or if my shoes matched the "rules", despite being better for my feet, if my makeup and hairstyle was proper for lolita. That sort of thing.
It's also needlessly ruthless with it's hazing towards newbies. You are always too fat, too tall, too busty, too old, don't have a "cute" enough face, pressured to wear wigs even if your hair is fine, not enough poof, not the right kind of poof, and I can go on and on with nitpicks. It's not a good fashion style for anyone sensitive or with body issues at all. Lots of ana chans are in it.
Just trust me when I say you probably dodged a bullet. If you really like the look of lolita still, I think collecting dolls like BJDs and dressing them in lolita could be more fun for you at this point.
No. 1611485
>>1611470>>1611473He's pretty much my only "lifeline" to normal society at this point, I am convinced I will never meet people otherwise… But he isn't, because he only has disdain and indifference towards me and doesn't introduce me to people anyway. My brain's still convinced
I'm going to therapy but I'm so isolated that I feel like I'm fucking myself over if I stop interacting with him
Yes I am very pathetic
No. 1611554
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I like using social media like instagram, but I also hate using it because I feel this chronic need to perform even though I know It's not necessary. I'm blessedly just some unknown nobody, but even then I feel the need to put on the dancing monkey persona. Making sure my life looks cool and exciting and that all my photos of myself look cute or pretty. I quit using almost all social media a few years back with no fanfare and keep feeling tempted to return, but every time I do seriously consider it, I get this sense of needing to 'perform'. It's exhausting, I feel this way even with social interaction. Which is why I'm much more of a loner even though I love people. It's lessened with age, but I still feel this sense of needing to mold myself into a person others would approve of and like. I'm starting to realize more and more, I don't know who I am when I'm not performing for other people or trying to live up to their expectations.
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End of semester, project due tomorrow and I’m so burnt out on it. I need a decent grade on this to pass and trying my best but my brain just hits a wall sometimes. I want to pass but I mostly just want it to be over. I’m sad that I’m not super passionate and motivated like some of my classmates. They dedicate all of their free time to making amazing work and they deserve success. Meanwhile I dick around on lolcow and play Zelda when I should be working.
No. 1611579
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i noticed i'd see images or memes on lolcow and a within a few hours this troon i know would coincidentally post the same memes… if you're reading this, whether you're lurking, integrating or moid raging you do not belong here and never will. outside of your hugbox of fellow trannies and women too browbeaten to stand against you, this is the only place you can pretend to be "one of the girls" because you are not a woman, and you use the cover of anonymity as a crutch. everyone laughs at your "girlmode" attempts and fake falsetto behind your back and you also literally reek, please go shower.
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I want to eat curry tomorrow, but I have an evening appointment that same day and I don't want to shit my brains out.
No. 1611603
>>1611591some of the characters I want to cosplay are from seinen, shounen, cgdct animes and video games with a male dominated playerbase so those ones would definitely attract weirdo scrotes I fear. but there are also lots of crossplays I want to do (mainly guys from otome games kek), plus some shoujo characters and more obscure ones in general so I'm hoping those should be safe.
my friend does lots of weeb game cosplay like final fantasy, genshin, danganronpa, zero escape, persona etc but she is pretty modest so her cosplays aren't revealing yet coomer men still swarm her replies.
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My life is pretty empty nonas.
No. 1611629
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i want a cute and long haired metalhead catboy to ruin my life. one wasn't enough. i need another one.
No. 1611635
>>1611631i know
nonnie. he couldn't be my bf anyways because he's broke as fuck and more emotionally retarded than most men. the type of moid you know he'll beat a woman in less than a 10 years span. it was just my retarded delusions again.
No. 1611651
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my friend has been sorta avoiding me and i feel horrible because i try to check in with her and she ignores the question and we just end up sending memes for like ten minutes. she said she's going through something, it doesn't involve me but she will "tell me soon". it's been weeks. i'm getting more and more concerned she's emotionally cheating on her husband (she did this once, before they got married) with our mutual friend. i really fucking love her and will support her no matter what, i will be saddened by this but won't judge her. i wish she felt like she could tell me what's going on because i could just be schizo but all signals are pointing to the worst unfortunately. she was confiding in me over feeling like they don't have much in common a while ago. i'm friends with the husband too they've been together since i met them and i think he's a really sweet guy, but yeah you never know the full details of any relationship… please God don't let my theory be fucking true. i'm honestly just fucking sad and want her to be okay, to spend time with her, and hope i'm being schizo. she's a wonderful person and always been a great friend to me. i really care about her and will just sit and rot, waiting and hoping that when she tells me what she's been going through isn't what i worry it is.
No. 1611663
>>1611659I know, and I know how insufferable it is to talk like that. I'm just feeling really, really hopeless about my (lack of) social status right now
and this is the goddamn vent threadthe autism is just one aspect, it's more about feeling like a deeply unpleasant and disgusting person that can't interact properly with ANYONE. Like, really. It truly feels like every single person I meet wants to be as far away from me as possible and that every time I open my mouth people want nothing more than for me to shut up as soon as possible
I really want to kill myself a lot of the time and I know how disgusting self-pity is. I know!!!!!!!!! No. 1611671
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>>1611436hey, my issue isn't the exact same as yours but if you're feeling sexually dysfunctional or broken, i have been too. i am also in a loving normal relationship with a caring guy but we basically can't have sex because i shut down and cannot relax or enjoy it due to a bad sexual past that really hurt me. i feel lonely and very touch starved but the difference with me is i want to have a normal sex life, and i can't. if we have sex i just feel horrible about it the whole time and like i'm a gross pervert and we just barely have sex. it's not fun to feel this way in the relationship but we agree to it and everything else is going well. i just have a history that has colored my feelings about sex so dark that i'll never be able to enjoy it. on the plus side, he has a super low libido (depression + tons of work stress) and hates porn. those types of guys are sadly rare, but out there.
No. 1611683
>>1611677Doesn't sound like it's friendship, though. At least not how you've described it. It also sounds like you're allowing yourself to be some sort of collective target where the whole basis of your friendships are you making constant self-deprecating jokes and them laughing at it.
>>1611679You take accountability and work on yourself internally. Being autistic does not make you incapable of personal growth or learning to be a more tolerable person. I guarantee the constant self-depreciating is absolutely not the way to go.
No. 1611688
>>1611683I guess. The thing is I'm not convinced it's my autism making me incapable of change, it's more like the cocktail of issues plus the autism plus the incredibly unpleasant attitude I'm showing right now
I truly believe I'm hopeless sometimes and not even in a "uuuuu I'm special and nobody understands" way just that It's So Fucking Over and always was for me. I know this attitude isn't helping. I know the only way to improve is to get the fuck over it. But sometimes it really feels like I can't make it being a person this unlikable and empty and aimless and above all cringe
No. 1611699
>>1611653>I pretty much have a choice between being shunned completely and begging for scraps from men like himNo, you don't. What happened to you to you to talk like that about men? Look at what he's done to your self image. You should never have to "beg for scraps" from anyone, much less a male.
Just get away from that person and I actually recommend you do so suddenly and quietly. You don't need to tell him anything. He doesn't deserve even a goodbye for treating you like his personal punching bag and don't tell him where you're going in any way or form. He is a major source of your anxiety and self esteem issues and you don't see it.
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>>1611632Yes I sent the worst of mine a glitter bomb
No. 1611740
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My shithead neighbors have been playing shit music at full volume to the point where I could feel the vibrations in my wall for like 3 hours, I wanted to be nice and let them have fun on a holiday night but I finally got sick of it because its the middle of the night and made a noise complaint but as soon as I made a noise complaint they stop playing their music and now I feel like a fucking idiot for wasting someones time
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Annnnd I am back to him
No. 1611746
I really hate when rich people pretend they have "merit" or need "credit" for stuff they achieved in life
I'm in med school and there's a bit of social mixity although it's mostly upper middle class and straight up rich people, I'm part of the lower middle class so I still ahve it better than others but seeing some of my richest classmates kind of triggers me
Med school is competitive throughout, on the first year we have a competitive exam
I'm in Paris so there's some of the richest french people out there in my school
These bastards go on on tiktok about how they scored super high and how it's all thanks to their good work. One day we were talking with my classmates and the daughter of a fucking heart surgeon tells us "One day someone told me I succeeded thanks to my parents… Are they crazy??? I succeeded thanks to my work!!!"
Well, bitch, they are fucking right
Everyone fucking works in a competitive year, the difference is your dad earns 10k a month and you live right in the middle of Paris 10 mins from the school while us, slightly lower class, we have to go 1 hour to 2 hours of train to get to class
You have been paid personal lessons, Ipads, Iphones, macbooks, you had your dad come pick you up with his car when you were late, you have been doing no house chores whatsoever
There was this other bitch, who was on tiktok saying "yeah thanks to my parents I didn't have any chores to do… Like clear the table.."
Her idea of a "chore" is "clear the table"???? The idea of a chore of us regular peasants is cleaning the house from the bottom up walls included, but surely your house maid does that for you
I'm just triggered by how rich they are and the fact they don't even realize it.
No. 1611752
>>1611749Yeah that's a big possibility
Also the competitive system is relyig more and more on oral presentations rather than anonymous written exams and that is DEFINITELY a modification made to allow nepotism
I'm not going to get into the details but these oral exams are basically designed for the examinator to rate subjectively
There is no meritocracy alright
No. 1611763
>>1611760yeah we can relate to each other nonna
didn't get your downgrade upgrade bs though
No. 1611775
>>1611771What do you study nonna?
God I just hate rich privilege so bad
No. 1611778
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I want to keep being friends with someone but she never asks to hang out first. It's so confusing. I would sometimes wait to see if she messages first, she wouldnt but then I would want to see her again because I like hanging out with her and feel like she does too. Then once I went months without messaging first and when I finally did, she was like "oh finally". I don't know whether to take her silence as her not wanting to hang out or her expecting me to message first all the time even though I tell her to message me when she wants to do something together. We're in uni and we'll be in different cities during summer break, I was expecting her to message before she left because she said she wants to have a finals ending celebration (we'll just go out to eat and drink) and she also said she wanted to make up for missing my birthday because we had to study online for a while this semester. Now the finals are done and gone, everyone's leaving the campus, yet she didn't say anything. I even said that I thought she didn't want to hang out when she didn't message me for a long time (after she said "finally you messaged me"). She never says no when I ask to hang out either. I like her a lot and feel like we both enjoy spending time together but I can't help but wonder why she wouldnt message me first if she actually wanted to hang out.
No. 1611816
>>1611793yup. a lot of the rich bitches I talk about get good grades at these oral tests.
I dunno it just feel sreally unfair but that's "meritocraty" for you, just nepotism/high class people favouring each other in disguise
No. 1611822
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I have confusing feelings for my manager. Obviously I’m not going to go there but what I wonder is, if you feel sexual chemistry with somebody, do they feel it too?
No. 1611826
>>1609029An enforced routine that gives you comfort that you can afford life's expenses, some leisure activities and automatically gives you value in society instead of being viewed as an active leech.
Sorry, AYRT and I'm feeling bitter about it this morning.
No. 1611856
>>1611840Not be up my own ass but there's men my workplace that will linger around me and take the smallest amount of small talk I make with them as interest. They probably feel something when we talk together but I definitely don't.
I'm just giving another perspective I have no idea what you and your manager are like
No. 1611860
>>1609213Oh that reminds me of my two besties unfortunately. Maybe it's because we're all from a small town and they never left. Maybe I'm autistic, who knows. I talked about several things;
>BSE epidemic in the UK>talked about those giant bird dinosaurs that could walk well (forget the name) and what Neanderthals were really like>talked about some cool things during the Italian renaissance>apparently local bus tickets are going to be raised 5% by 2024And guess, out of those topics, is the only thing they even responded to? They don't even take the bus, they drive everywhere! Not to be conceited but I WISH I had a friend as cool and informed as me. They just completely lack any curiosity. It's terrible to say about my friends but it's true. They don't even go anywhere that isn't necessary. To work, to the shops, to a restaurant to meet a friend and home. They're about an hour's drive away from one of the most beautiful areas that tourists come from all round the world to see and they've never been despite having owned a car for about 8 years now. Both of them.
I don't think I'm boring. I've met people who thought I was super interesting and could return good conversation in kind (not to be classist but these were almost always people with phds/postdocs) and it was so energising. It made me want to literally ditch my besties but honestly we're all emotionally supportive to each other and that's hard to find, I appreciate them in that capacity.
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>>1611856Totally, I’ve had that and it’s so uncomfortable. I never want to come across as the female equivalent or just desperate in general like those moids. Regardless, I’m in a relationship so need to slam the hatch on these feelings now.
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>>1611860you sound fun nonna. lets hangout
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I hate being told to reflect on myself and realize why I do the things I do as if that will make it better somehow or easier to stop my supposedly unhealthy coping mechanisms. Unfortunately my metacognition is almost level capped at this point in my life and it doesn’t help my situation at all. Therapy has been useless, idk why people tout therapy as some sort of cure all. The weird thought experiments they try to do in CBT, that’s really supposed to help some people? If I could make my brain not be a retarded alarmist that goes into cortisol spikes and gets 150+ bpm because I can’t get intrusive thoughts of worrisome shit out of my head you really think telling me to do that multi body part relaxation thing and controlled breathing and meditation and “think of water flushing away all those memories” and shit is gonna help? DBT was only marginally better because it was less woo woo weirdness but telling me how to analyze my emotions and think about them logically doesn’t help me, I already know how to do that and it still can’t stop me. It’s like part of me is somewhat rational and another part is literally like a retarded child I cannot control no matter how much I beg and plead and coax and comfort.
EMDR is an absolute fucking woo woo scam and I can’t believe how many people shill for that. What an absolute waste of time for anyone who has a triple digit IQ or above. Sorry I can’t be gaslit into being happy about my shitty lot in life and to stop worrying about valid worries that I have extremely little control over but will fuck my life up if they go sour.
No. 1611909
I'm typing this out so I can see the red flags together at once for myself.
I matched with a guy online who lives about an hour and a half away. He's stayed over a couple weekends now. I'm due to stay at his place next weekend.
I don't want to move too fast because I just got out of an abusive relationship a month and a half ago and I'm still dealing with lingering bullshit from my ex fiancé a year before that. He seemed to understand that but I could tell he is a little anxious because I refuse to announce I'm in another relationship just because we are dating. Yes, dating, but I have known him for less than a month. I think it would make people worried about me if they found out I hopped into another relationship so soon. Truth is I am also dating other guys but that is none of his business, I just want to see their true colors before I declare commitment to something. I am sus of men who seem to rush to secure the bag with women asap. It's like, why do you need me to be so invested right off the bat? What are you hoping I won't notice in time before I catch feelings or develop investment?
Nonetheless, we-and by that I mean him-have taken to calling each other bf/gf already.
He was still living with his ex in an apartment when we started talking (she sounds bpd) but she began the moving out process when he confessed that he was seeing me. She did a bunch of unhinged crazy shit. Which tells me they still had some co-dependent hook whether financial or emotional.
Over the weekend he asked me to be a co-leaser of the apartment he has if his ex chooses to break the lease. He wanted me to agree because he doesn't have the income to be re-approved by himself. He insisted he would pay for it all but he just needs me to sign to pass the approval.
I said yes but I'm not going to do it. That seems like such a dumb fucking move if this guy decides to tank everything, and doubly so cause until I sell my property with my ex I can't even realistically live with him at that apartment. Apparently him moving to my place isn't an option, although I do understand that either of us are tied to our workplaces and an hour and a half drive is just too great a distance to reconcile the commute for.
I guess I'll have to renege and tell him the truth but I don't think this will end well. To me, it sounds less like I am the match of his life and moreso a roommate/financer option because he can't do it alone–I relate, but I also have options. He's pretty cheap for the fact too and I think I can do better.
One thing he does that bothers me, and may be the biggest dealbreaker of it all, is that I can never say anything with a raised voice, tone, or attitude without him accusing me of "yelling" and being angry. I recognize this as a controlling, gaslighting behavior of men who do not want to deal with a woman's justified reactions that don't submit to their will.
Yesterday, a different guy was double-texting and calling me across multiple platforms trying to get me to talk to him while I was driving us to dinner. The caller is actually kind of sweet but also an anxious type, I just think me not responding to him over the weekend and asking for space kinda spooked him yet he did apologize to me later for crossing a boundary.
But anyway, the guy I was with asked who it was and I told him the truth about how it had been someone I was dating. I probably should have lied. He immediately interrogated me and asked why I hadn't blocked him, why I was leading that person on, etc. etc. and he did not let up about it at all. I tried to explain ("Men have mistreated me and have become violent in the past when I drastically cut them off, I prefer easing in to the discussion and it's much more likely that they will respect my decision if I wait for the right time to talk to them about it"). He kept repeating how he didn't understand my logic. Naturally I got defensive and copped an attitude because why do I need to re-explain it? He said I was being angry. Yet I even pointed out my recently ended abusive relationship and the shenanigans men have put me through in the past year, so of course the third degree around why I am doing things the way I am should make me upset. He hasn't gone through what I have! Of course it's easy for him to say. He then nonsensically whined that I was "painting him with the same brush as my exes" even though what I was saying had nothing to do with me making generalizations about him. But the fact that I wasn't yelling, the fact that I wasn't being rude, and the fact that I did try to explain myself rationally just makes me all the more pissed that he cried about how mean I was being or some shit. We managed to move past it but I still resent the indignation he claimed when nothing was done to him besides me defending my decisions from his retarded interrogation.
No. 1611916
>>1611907>they're just saying your problems are annoying to themThey could also be saying that they're not equipped to professionally handle your problems. Perhaps venting to people all the time makes them feel obligated to give input or advice because they care about you, but it isn't something they always have the bandwidth for nor the knowhow to handle.
Ever think about that?
No. 1611920
>>1611918>they don't want to listen to youI literally just stated how someone may
want to listen to you but for legitimate reasons they cannot. You sound like you don't listen and use your friends as an emotional tampon. Insufferable.
No. 1611927
>>1611920And I just said the outcome is the same. Whether they can or cannot, they are literally telling you not to talk to them. Ergo, they don't want to listen to you.
I don't care what I sound like on an anonymous forum to be honest, I said what I said.
No. 1611943
>>1611927>the outcome is the sameThen acknowledge the difference between someone who
wants to listen but can't versus someone who doesn't want to listen as a baseline.
Are you mentally ill? You have no nuance at all.
No. 1611948
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I'm on holidays and I'm visiting my home country and literally the first convenience store I go to in my city has my two triggers
>a shitbull without a muzzle on
>a tranny clerk, literally a dude with a stubble but with heavy make up and stylized long hair
What's worse, this dumb bitch that came inside the store with her shitbull without a muzzle on, entered the queue when me and another lady were already waiting for the clerk. She literally just pushed in before the lady's face. I said
>Excuse me, there's a queue
And this dumb bitch didn't react. I just can't believe those people. Then the tranny came to service us and I was at the verge of laughing, just pursing my lips very hard, and I'm sure xem noticed that. Now I regret I didn't tell that bitch with the dog not to bring an un-muzzled shitbull to the store, but I was so dumbfounded at the audacity of this cunt I couldn't think kek. I work abroad and sure, I've seen shitbulls on the streets, even without a muzzle, but people never brought them to stores. And this fucking lovecraftian tranny abomination. Dude I've been in this city for literally 4 hours and that's the first thing I see when entering a store. The question is will I survive in this city for 2 weeks without killing anyone?
No. 1611953
>>1611951>>she goes "No, I'm serious, be careful.">I get angry You got angry for no reason.
>She knows I'm going through a hard time right now why can't she just be nice to meNobody's obliged to walk on eggshells when you're having a "hard time"
You just let out your frustration on innocent people and are insisting they should just take it.
No. 1611977
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I've been trying to stop using chans or at the very least only use female-dominated ones because they're more civil. Last week I saw actual CP footage of a 7yo girl being posted and I've been paranoid ever since, I really wish I didn't see that. It was a raid so they were posting that stuff on random threads to try to fuck the admin over.
I've seen all sort of shit and I've been traumatizing myself and I have to accept this is some sort of addiction and self-harm to go on these websites, it's like some sort of drug where you get used to light drugs and then have to move onto harder ones.
I barely use lolcow anymore. It was my first chan and I started using it in 2015, the worst thing I saw here was just the blowfly girl blog. After that I went on r*k on 2016 and spent some time there, worst thing I saw there was the guy who shot himself on the head. 2020 I met a guy in real life who told me he used an imageboard from my native country, and I started going there because of him, and it's by far the most horrible imageboard I have ever went. Cat getting murdered in a blender, a dog getting his eyeball perforated by high heels while still alive, the CP footage, guy getting run over by a truck and having his lower body smashed under the tire while the upper part is still alive and talking to the emergency responder while slowly accepting it has no solution and he will die. And I still I go there, and for what? To torture myself?
Funnily enough the two female only imageboards I go including lolcow have 0 tolerance for this shit while males constantly are egging each other on to show the vilest stuff to each other. Actual animals.
I'm gonna treat this as an addiction. I will talk to my therapist about it as soon as possible. I don't want to self-harm like this anymore.
If any anons here use imageboards aside from lolcow which is a relatively healthy website, I advise you to seriously stop doing that. I've seen a fair share of horrid stuff on liveleak and deathaddict, but I don't think I'll ever be the same after seeing what I saw on imageboards.
No. 1611985
>>1611951>>1611956I have a teenage sister and I chuckled to myself reading this because this is just the pure nectar of teenager problems.
>physical coordination not fully developed>very clumsy and frequently doing stuff wrong>gets angry at adults telling to pay attention and lashes outIt's ok anon, my 16yo sister threw a fit last week after my mother pointed she was holding her fork shovel style.
No. 1611988
>>1611927nah, it's actually selfish/weird to see your friend struggling and not recommend other forms of support despite knowing that you have no idea how to handle the situation/what advice to give/how to help. just listening as a friend is not always enough to help a person to heal.
>>1611793expecting people to come in suits and high heels is too much indeed but tbh in france for oral tests at uni it's always kinda expected that you dress formally
>>1611948>Excuse me, there's a queue>And this dumb bitch didn't react.omg, had this happen to me and the rage was hard to contain. stay strong nonna
>>1611957i agree it's weird to let you use some precious bowl for the
dog if she gets anxious just by you tripping next to it. though you can say that to her without getting angry but i know that it's not always easy
No. 1611997
>>1611977I can relate to that, frequenting imageboards have traumatized me a lot, besides making me feel like trash, insecure, and just really hateful overall. They made me hate myself, hate men, hate women, hate everyone. Reading the horrible things people wrote about others, seeing things they do to hurt with each other, everything made me bitter and sad.
I don't want to ever feel like this anymore, so I have only been using lolcow from time to time, and it's been pretty good for my mental health so far. I never intended to use imageboards for feeling bad, it was supposed to be just a fun place to go where people are anonymously sharing cool random things with each other.
I wouldn't say lolcow is the most safe and good place to be, but I do feel happy to be here, and don't feel disgusted with everything. I feel better here than on any social media, for example.
Social media is obviously not as bad as imageboards, obviously, but they still made my life miserable in other ways, so I also don't use them anymore.
I do feel sad reading some threads here though, so I just avoid them and try to go for the stuff that feels lighter and more fun!
In general, I think spending less time online is good, and avoiding things that make you feel miserable is really important. I don't accept horrible things anymore, I look forward being blissfully unaware of things I can't actively fight against.
Life is too short, we should do our best to be happy!
Good luck, nonna.
No. 1612001
>>1611997>They made me hate myself, hate men, hate women, hate everyone.You hit the nail on the head with this one.
>I wouldn't say lolcow is the most safe and good place to be, but I do feel happy to be here, and don't feel disgusted with everything.Yeah, it's a place filled with vitriol. I came here to laugh at kotakoti the first time but these days I don't even go on snow anymore, I don't feel interested in cow's lives anymore. But infighting and gossiping is the least of my problems right now.
>I look forward being blissfully unaware of things I can't actively fight against.Thanks anon, your post gave me hope and helped me understand things better. Wishing, you too, the best of luck in your journey.
No. 1612013
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What does this mean? Was she spicy straight and now she's a "lesbian"? I'm so confused.
No. 1612019
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I’ve started to drool when I eat, like drool just drops from my mouth?? It’s embarrassing and disgusting, it happened at work today. My mom drooled and she had MS
No. 1612035
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No. 1612039
>>1612029I agree that women can be hateful and disgusting too, but I don't feel nearly as threatened here in comparison to men's imageboards. It's just a whole different level of horror in there.
Anyway, if you really feel bad here, you shouldn't keep coming back, it's not healthy…
No. 1612047
>>1612029I'm literally talking about men posting CP to taunt each other and you're telling me calling some girl's wig ugly is comparable. Fuck off.
>>1612026The thing is I'm sensible to that stuff. I actually cry watching some of the videos. But you may be right, it's an easier way to entertain myself, either for good or bad.
>>1612034No, it's Brazil's chan. The number is 1500. It's gotten so bad in there they put a fake korean 404 error page in which you have to input some stuff before getting into the site, they did that to ward off some of the police and journalists after the shootings started to occur more often here.
>>1612041What's the link to your thread on snow, anon?
No. 1612059
>>1612055One of the most popular brazilian chans was shutdown after a guy posted a manifesto there the day before his shooting happened. Since then many shootings have happened, but none were pinned to this new imageboard, even though journalists have been trying to make that happen to shut this one down also.
>>1612056Is there a ban in which you can't even lurk? I'm banned from posting there already (when they think someone is a woman they permaban until you send them a picture of your hairy arm to prove you're a man lol) but lurking is still making me feel like absolute shit.
No. 1612060
>>1612059saddens me that this mass shooting incel rage muricashit isn't only spreading to my country but to others like brazil.
>when they think someone is a woman they permaban until you send them a picture of your hairy arm to prove you're a manreverse lolcow kek
also naturally hairy women and women with excessive testosterone could bypass this quite easily
No. 1612147
I've been having a pretty bad 2023 so far.
I don't think I ever bounced back from yet another layoff at my workplace, which I again survived, and my work place almost going bankrupt 1 month later due to bank shenanigans.
I should be happy, I just bought my mom a house, I think my employment is safe for at least 1 more year, I go to therapy, I take my vitamins, but I'm just so miserable all the time lately.
I can't find anyone I truly connect with in real life, or in my country, I just realised that people I was being social with only ever appreciate me if I pretend to be what they want me to be and it hurts more than I expected.
I think I might just accept that I lost the time window in which most people develop friendships because I was too busy dealing with trauma and parentification to have any availability to not be extremely depressed, maniac, and starving myself.
I don't know, my whole immediate family is made up of sad people that live and die sad and unfulfilled.
Maybe the same will happen to me.
Like, why even, I can't even imagine a viable future with earth fucking burning down and all non-human life withering away, I hate that I care so much and that I can't do anything to help at all but to work in a meaningless job just to pay bills.
I legit even had a dream some 4 days ago about planning suicide in a close future to escape a climate catastrophe or something.
I just want to manage to have 5 good years, that would be enough, but maybe I just don't know how to be happy? The only thing I ever learned how to do properly, out of a miracle, is to work.
Is this all that there will ever be to my life? Work, pay for stuff, order food, work more, sleep, is that it?
No. 1612163
>>1612157Im in a similar situation and currently doing what
>>1612159 said. Apply around for another job and then quit once you have an offer somewhere else
No. 1612174
>>1612173Fucking thank you. I’m not a prude by any means but I don’t understand how anyone can pretend it’s “empowering”.
>why not open female-only bathhouses and saunasGod, that would be so nice. Female-only gym, bathhouse, sauna, everything. And my first thought was “Oh but the troons would come in and try to take over”. We really can’t have anything without men bulldozing their way into everything
No. 1612177
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>eat nothing for 3 days
>lose no weight
I can't do anything right
No. 1612183
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I will never have a vampire bf to eat me out on my period, what’s the point
No. 1612207
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I'm starting to feel like going into therapy this time was a mistake. I know why I feel the way I do and I know the things I should do and feel, I just need to do them. I know I'm projecting my strict mother on everyone and that is why I have a tendency to self-isolate. I know that during conversations I should stop focusing on myself and my inner critic and just focus on the other person. I know I should get friends, do my hobbies regularly, do sports, stop catastrophizing when I do a mistake at work. Basically my therapist cannot tell me anything I do not already know. I just need to act and I cannot find the motivation for it. Maybe there should be a therapy form where someone is holding a gun at you at all times to motivate you or something
No. 1612223
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I'll buy a crop top, feel cute in it, but then never ever wear it outside because I'm too self-conscious and chicken out. Yet when I go outside women are walking around in bras, low rise short shorts, tops that are just straps covering their nipples. I don't necessarily judge them for wearing skimpy clothing but I have no idea how they have the confidence to wear it out, or how they deal with men staring at them. I wish I had that confidence. I kinda dress like a frumpy grandma and all my friends call me "too modest". Right now I'm procrastinating at home wearing basically picrel, it's so cute and flattering and I KNOW it's relatively covered-up but I'm so nervous to go out. I'm not fat, I don't hate my body, I just feel too exposed.
No. 1612320
>>1612021Man I’ve seen a lot of human gore and none of it ever phased me at all, including people shooting themselves in the head and all the aftermath, fucked up war
victim bodies, pain series, none of it fucked with me tbh. But if I’d seen whatever the fuck clip you anons are talking about it would make me literally homicidal. So I’m glad I never saw that shit or else my life would have ended with me trying to find a man with a crush fetish and then murdering him instead of hurting a poor defenseless puppy. I’m gonna just tell myself it was a pit bull, if anyone can tell me the dog was at least a pit bull I’ll feel somewhat less enraged and saddened
No. 1612325
I feel like such a basic bitch
I was born in the states, I am 3/4 Italian and 1/5 Irish. These are exact because I have traced all my ancestry back, the only cross mixing were my paternal grandparents Italian and Irish. My family are "black" Irish meaning they have black hair, it's kinda funny that is a thing to note. A lot of Welsh have black hair too but there is no black Welsh I am sure. My Italian ancestry are all brown terroni. Pale and tall and light eyes mixed with short brown browniness, and I look like neither.
Despite being more Italian with everyone keeping their original surnames I got an anglicized Irish surname, and it kinda sucks. There is no trace of that culture in my family, and the name being changed doesn't reflect it either, I legally changed at already but I hated not feeling connected to who I was. Anyway an interesting fact is how common this surname was, hundreds of people in the small hometown in New England, makes me think they butchered a lot of surnames so people wouldn't seem like immigrants.
And watching Titanic is such a trip because everyone managing to be on different boats means I exist. One ancestor pooped over to Canada first, good job. And this is only on my mind because some Titanic tour submarine is missing.
So yeah that's it boring classic american ancestry story