/ot/ - off-topic

Sometimes I still think about the waiter that served me at this restaurant years ago. I saw him and immediately thought he looked like an angel. My friends would probably laugh and not get it if they saw him but that’s what lolcow is for. I hope he is a good person and is doing well.

I'll start

A few years ago i went to a concert to see a pretty big post rock band with a friend. It was said friends favourite band but I wasn't in a great mood that day. We got to the gig and there was a bunch of people we knew so I instantly felt better that I didn't have to take the brunt of socialising that night. The music starts and I tell said friend i'm gonna hang nearer the back whilst he parties at the front.
Halfway through the set I go out for a cigarette because I'm really struggling to enjoy myself, the only other person out in the smoking area is this guy who is a doppleganger of my ex.
I sit nearby him in the small enclosure and ask if he's ok as the dude looks pretty spaced, we get to talking and end up having this long conversation for the rest of the concert about life and music, it was super interesting and really nice.
The music ends and every comes out, I lose him in the shuffle of our friend groups finding up and splitting off. I accept that it was a one time conversation and go home.
A couple days later I get a friend request, it's him! He didn't know my last name so i message him to ask how he found me, I have a fairly uncommon name so he said it wasn't hard to find the only person in my city with that name. We continue our conversations but he's quite patchy online, not replying for days then sending an essay. He made me a playlist of music which was very thoughtful and sweet, I was crushing hard on him but being wary of how much he looked like my ex. Eventually the conversation peters out, I was into tinder dating at the time and met my current boyfriend in this lul in conversation.
A couple months later he messages me apologising for ghosting, and offers to get a bus to my city so we could 'hang out'. Newly in a relationship i declined, but had he been a little quicker off the bat my life might have been quite different.

That guy at the gym who was really kind. I was already starting to look decent, I had an awesome diet and a decent routine of exercises. He was beautiful, with some pretty freckles all over his shoulders and back, grayish eyes, he was also taller than me.

I got to awkwardly ask him if he could help me, I kind of wish I could have been able to stay at that gym, but the membership got too expensive and I had to go to another gym, I wish I could have been able to have more confidence and talk to him properly. Being awkward sucks so much.

I had a super obsessive High School crush that lasted until the end of my Junior year. He was the first person to be legit kind to me but, was of course super popular and out of my league. It sounds so cliche but, we always ended up in the same classes and paired up by our teachers for assignments. I could never have a normal conversation with him because we had nothing in common. Despite that, he would still do small sweet gestures that kept me admiring him. For example, in our English class he'd offer to read my work out loud for me because he knew I had social anxiety, he'd forget his books and would always ask to share mine and would touch my hand while we were holding the book together, stuff like that. We only met once outside of school at a party and I managed to be relax around him and we had a fun time hanging out together.

At one point though, I just gave up and accept I never had a single chance with him and also started to believe he was messing with my emotions because by the end of Junior year he became really self aware of his looks and popularity, his personality started to change for the worse. It sucked because of course I had him in one of my classes Senior year and once again was paired up with him for assignments. I purposely distanced myself and ignored him. Looking back, I still can't tell if he just felt bad for me, maybe he did have mutual feelings at some point or was just toying with me.

Either way, I've felt "over" him for years but, I still see him show up in my dreams and I hate it. I have a partner who I am dedicated to but, I still think I subconsciously never got over this guy despite seeing how he looks today on social media, he looks like a giant asshole.

Nice thread pic.
When I was applying to college there was a really cute nerdy guy there too, I immediately thought "hey this place isn't so bad if there's cuties like this here", and guess what, once classes started, he was also a first year student with me. One day in class I picked a random spot in the back (the classroom was still half empty) and he comes by me and asks me if he can sit next to me!? I freaked out and thought he wanted me to move a bit so he can sit in the middle of the row, so I get up and he sits a few chairs away from me. Luckily a couple of girls came by so I moved next to him to clear a spot for them. The entire time I was sitting next to him I kept getting these intense pains in my heart from it beating too fast, as if someone was clutching it. I never felt like that before and I haven't felt like that ever since. He tried to talk to me a bit but I was beside myself and couldn't hold a conversation kek. I never sat next to him again although he always sat in the same row as me (it was always only us in that row) but on the opposite end. I never talked much with him, he is a super awkward type, he never talked to anyone. I wish I could have talked to him, but I'm also the super awkward type. He failed some of his classes so I never see him anymore, I really miss him. He was so perfect, like those soft shoujo manga boys with his fluffy hair. I really think he liked me but we were both too scared to do anything. I should probably get over my dumb fears to make sure I never regret something like this again, but I don't think I can.

I laughed hard at thread pic, great job OP. It hurts.

One that got away was a girl that left her number for me on a napkin at work. I've mentioned this on some other thread here, but this is the full story.

I was behind the counter at work, and she was far back in line bc we were busy. She had long blonde hair and big doe eyes, very femme, and I just kept looking at her and I thought she was looking at me too, but I wasn't sure. I was trying to be subtle, but clearly wasn't. I helped her and was a bit more stumbly than usual coz I was awkward and nervous, and I got to check her out as well. She enthusiastically asked, "do you want my number??" and I just stared at her, mouth open, and nodded, handed her a napkin and pen, and she waved and left. While closing, I guess my co-worker tossed the napkin I set off to the side by our speaker. I thought it was out of the way enough, but in hindsight, I should have just pocketed it. I hope she doesn't feel rejected. I still think about her literally all the time, but I haven't run into her since or seen her in the shop. My heart hurts now.

Once I was sat in a cafe with a friend whilst she was writing an essay, I was just killing time before work and scrolling on tinder. Matched with a cute guy, (glasses, curly hair, played in a band and illustrated) and got chatting to him. Left the cafe to go to work and as soon as I stepped out the door asking if I was just at that specific cafe. A little freaked out I asked why and he said he worked there and thought I looked like a customer who just left. I said it was me and it was laughed off. I really enjoyed our conversations he was very funny and sweet and encouraging of me and my creative endeavours.
I’d go back to the cafe every so often to hang out and would catch up with him. He was about 5 years older than me so I was kind of waiting for him to ask me out but it never happened and the conversation fizzled. I still see him around town, he started working at a bar I also hung out at a lot and always says hi to me.
I guess he wasn’t as into me as I was with him but I’ll always enjoy seeing him around and his Instagram stories

My high school crush was painfully out of my league. He was attractive, funny, and always surrounded by pretty girls. But for some reason he was also kind to me and would go out of his way to help me. When we talked, he would lean in really close like he wanted to kiss me. He remembered my name and would always talk to me or laugh at my jokes when everyone else ignored me.

Unfortunately my looks are femcel-tier and his girlfriend was a gigastacy so I could only like him from afar. But in another life I wish he could've been mine. I still dream about him every night.

There was a cute guy working at a hostel in Dresden and he looked sad when I was checking out to go to another city. If I were staying longer, I would have asked him to hang out.

>>593111
Is it sad that I tried to think whether I had a 'one that got away' story and I had none but I have lots of 'guy I wish I had never met' stories? lol

>>593254
Nah, cuz same here

I'm in love with my current guy, but about once every year I think about Harry the Server.

>looked like what Harry Potter wished he looked like
>dat jaw
>floofy but styled chestnut hair
>cuteass big ears that stick out
>tall, skinny but had strength from running/lifting all day
>glasses

He was very friendly and always deeply thankful whenever I restocked/cleaned the server station (I was a food runner in between room service shifts), which would cause my heart to flutter. He was the ideal server for a fine dining establishment, guests asked for him all the time.

I asked him once how he could do his job so well with so much confidence, and he said that he has severe anxiety and that he just fakes it. I told him that I also had anxiety and faked it… I saw a real smile from him then and I think we had a moment of budding friendship. Afterwards he'd come to the back sometimes to curse about people because I knew what was up.

I kept it as an innocent crush bc we were both in long-term relationships, but four years later I like to fantasize about bumping into him one day if we're both single. I tried to look him up on social media but it seems he doesn't keep up with it.

long story
at 14-15, i was getting treated for my ED. one time, the nurse who always took my blood pressure etc. told me if i knew a guy called "X" (turkish name idk if i should tell), who was appearantly from my school and was also getting treated there. i didn't know him, but even then, i started fantasizing about him for some reason.
btw he was at our school but i later learned that he was in the other campus that's significantly distant from mine. anyway, i found this out by excessive stalking. like going through our school website. they would list every single person's place in an exam and i had to look at all "X" named guys' social media.

one time, coincidentally, i saw him in the ED clinic. i actually didnt realize it was him until someone called his name. idk if this makes sense to americans here but we were at the same place while he was getting weighed (scale was in the hall, not in a room, there's not much privacy). the nurse said something like "oh she's from your school" and he shyly introduced himself. we talked for like 3 minutes at best and then he went back to a room to talk to his doctor.

this was 5 years ago and i still dream about him, occassionally check his instagram. never had a crush after that. god i hate being a hopeless romantic.

if you see this, cute ED guy, please hmu (also you're a scrote so you're not allowed here)

We slept together after a drunken party. Most handsome man I've ever met. I've never tried to see him again after he blocked me on FB, guess I didn't have an impact on him like he did on me. He studies in the uni next to mine and I sometimes hear about him.

I was on vacation with my parents, just walking on the sidewalk and suddenly a rose fell right before my feet. As I looked up there was a guy standing on a balcony, waving down to me. That's it. But to 15yo me that shit was of course super romantic. I can't even remember what he looked like, but what a sweet gesture to just do that for a random passerby, made my day.

>>593340
If he blocked you, you had to have some kind of impact on him though.

>>593349
I really don't know how to interpret it honestly, I've never asked a ONS as friends on FB but him. I learnt afterwards that he was friend with some guy I rejected before. I wonder what happened, if that guy influenced him, or if he sensed I wanted more, or if I was simply a bad lay.

When I was 16 I had a crush on some guy for 3 years because I forced myself to have one. I got really creepy and messaged him over the summer and when it got awkward I thanked him for talking to me. I literally just asked him about videogames but unsolicited messages to me are creepy so I felt bad. Then I blocked him then deleted my Facebook.

Some odd time during junior year him and his friends were walking past my car while I was crying. I put my seat super far back and continued to sit really still and cry because for some reason I thought he couldn't see me.

I still think about this every other day. I am inept.

I met this kid on tinder he is 18 and I’m 29. I didn’t wanna have sex with him but he kept begging so I was like sure why not. One thing I’ll say is he had some gorgeous green eyes. That whole experience was really cringe but that was the hottest guy I’ve ever fucked.

>>593421
I got out of a long term relationship at 29 and when I thought about maybe having some hook ups again I realised that after spending years with an older guy I was suddenly real attracted to guys of about 18/19. I couldn't go through with it though.

>>593432
Yeah when I go on tinder I always find the 18-23 year olds better looking than the guys my age who look 56 at 30

There's this guy at my uni that I really like and I've had a crush on him on and off for the last 4 years. I love listening to him ramble and I think he's so cute and interesting but I literally have no clue how he thinks about me.

I've never told him how I feel because I didnt want to make things awkward and ruin the friendship. Now we're both finished college and we're moving to different cities and I think I missed my chance to do anything about it.

>>593434
I'm 28 and it's the opposite in my area, all the tinder guys 30+ are hot as fuck, all the boys in their 20s look awkward and old for some reason. I vowed to wait until I was 30 to try again but then I met my cute boyfriend a year later (who's 35 kek)

When I was 13 I dated this asshole (my first bf) I learned that “all guys jerk off” and that they look at everyone And a whole bunch of other shit, he also tried coercing me into giving him a blowjob, I kinda regret dating at that age but oh well. I was desperate and hormonal, he left me on the night of a jr high dance only to dance with some other girl that night. A few people saw me crying when I got on the bus but nobody really said anything. The next day my friend gave me a flower and teddy bear. She said it was from a boy but he chose to remain anonymous, I kept asking and and asking finally it was some nerdy dude from my P.E. class. He was such a nerd like with the gawky glasses, taking his lunchbox to school, athletic shoes, etc. but he was so cute and nice. I actually talked to him, he’s lovely. Kinda fidgety and nervous but in a cute way, my heart gushes when I think about him to this day. I moved away during eighth grade and I haven’t seen him till recently I was hounding an old friend of friend of mine for his number and the. I asked for his instagram. He’s still so cute, he draws a lot, tbh they look sorta Chris-chanesque nevertheless he’s just perfect. He’s so innocent, he posts about how he loves his mom, how much he loves comics and Disney shows. He’s 20 and still sort of childish but that adds to the charm imo.
It hurts a part of me knowing that I’ll never have him, but I don’t deserve him. It just leaves me with this bittersweet feeling, like we could’ve been something way more, I also have a kid and I’m with the father of that kid so … the door is closed between us I think. But I hope he finds someone lovely, he’s going to a state university, so he should find an equally nerdy, cute girl. I’m way too normie and not as innocent.

When I was in highschool I was that awkward weeb nerd who always sat alone in the back of the classroom and was bullied. This hot dude with amazing green eyes just transferred in our class and the teachers had this brilliant idea of making him sit next to me since I was getting straight A's in the subjects he was weak at and wanted me to help him.
At some point I was badly drawing some weeb shit in my notebook, he glanced over and almost shouted
"whoa is that L from Death Note?" then proceeded to try to convince me to watch Bleach (this was 2006-2007). He was a closet weeb and we'd discuss anime in every recess and on the way back home since he lived nearby, the bullying stopped and I got a huge crush on him.
Sadly I had to move abroad and didn't even have the guts to tell him I liked him. We lost contact but I hope he became the successful DJ he wanted to be.

My old high school ex bf views my insta stories and I'm hoping he thinks I'm hot. He's a huge qt still

In my senior year of high school my mental health was awful, I was a big asshole, and presented in a way that suggested I was into women (bisexual, but I dressed masc back then). These freshmen joined our friend group that year and tbh I was kind of nasty to them sometimes, but one of them was nice to me and interested in my drawings. She was also my type (at the time).

I returned that year after graduating to see my friends and one told me she was "a big fan of mine" and she blushed, which I brushed off because I was still being an antisocial asshole. Turns out she's gay and I'm pretty sure I'm the biggest stupid idiot dumb ass to not notice she may have liked me.

>>594086
What's stopping you from getting him?

When I was 13 this guy entered my class because he had to repeat it (We're going to call him A), he liked and pursued me but we were friends and he introduced my friends and I to his group (they were a class above ours).
One night we are at a party and my best friend tells me that A, B and C want to kiss me. I was naive, never had kissed a guy or anything before and didn't know that I could have just declined? I just thought that I HAD to kiss one of them, and particularly, that I HAD to kiss A because everyone knew he liked me and was "rooting" for us.
So that's what I did, didn't enjoy it but neither despised it, it was just plain and boring; but, now I was seeing B, his (and now my) friend, with other eyes, I was really surprised because he was the most handsome and mature out of them and had a lot of girls pursuing him (and even an older, model ex-girlfriend, I literally felt, and was, a fla next to her)
We continue hanging out and I made out with A for a few times just because … ? but later cut everything off and B started to pursue me again but I always declined, even though I wanted to be with him, because I didn't want to be seen as a "slut" who had been with two friends and I don't know, I was just very insecure at the time.
B asked me out many times along the years but nothing happened and now my own group of friends and his have splitted after graduating high school. I don't use social media but I know he has a girlfriend. I normally wouldn't care about something like this, but I truly think he was a good guy, he was very respectful with the girls he had been with, even among his guy friends and took care of me and didn't left me alone the few times I got drunk, he even got in a fight with an older dude because he was harassing me one of those times. I'm aware that's just decency but I'm pretty sure he's the nicest guy I've known and being so handsome was a plus. I just randomly remembered all of this and it has me thinking "what could have been?" but guess everything happens for a reason? I just know I'll always have a sweet spot for him, he was a really good friend, anyways

>>593130
>"..intense pains in my heart from it beating too fast,.."
you might want to get that looked at

I had the worst crush on a friend of mine who also liked me back a lot.
The first kiss is one I will remember forever. I had been anticipating it for so long and it was so completely perfect. He was a talented, tender, respectful, thorough kisser.
I had no idea how long we were like that but after a while I noticed I felt really sick, so I opened my eyes and I had tunnel vision. I had to lay down right on the kitchen floor so I didn't pass out.
It's set my benchmark for kissing, i hope i can come close to that again.
Unfortunately I totally fucked the relationship, after we slept together I basically lost my mind to infatuation and kept harassing him after he told me that his head wasn't in a good enough place to continue seeing me. I feel awful about it tbh.

I'm in a great long-term relationship now but I often think of my first love. He was so smart, kind, and funny. He was also really well-adjusted too which was a new experience for me. I had only been close to shitty, angry, manipulative men at that point. My mental health issues were just too much for him and I don't blame him. I wish I just let him go when he wanted it. I made his life miserable being a sad crazy bitch. I was bad and looked him up a couple months ago and he was looking really good. It looks like he met a lot of his career/travel goals and he seems happy.

>autist teenage weeb
>almost no irl friends
>trying to deal with shitty traumatic childhood sexual abuse
>feel alienated from everyone
>arone.png
>meet other awkward teenage weeb online
>click immediately
>she lives in qt eurotrash country while I'm a burger
>talk over several years
>long late night discussions about animu and life and shit
>so happy when I talk to her uwu what is this feeling
>fall in love with her
>desperately want her to move to murica
>offer to marry her so she can move here to get better job
>don't mention how I feel even though it's probably obvious
>eventually becomes obvious she doesn't feel the same way and is probably straight
>eventually ghosts me
I still miss her though.

saw this beautiful girl at six flags like three years ago n i still think of her

>Walking omw home
>Tomboy girl and her dad walking on the sidewalk
>Don't wanna disturb family moment so decide to walk on the street
>I trip and fall because stupid shoes and didn't realise how high the sidewalk was
>She comes in rushing and helps me up
>Asks me if I'm okay while holding my hand
>I can't say words all I do is stare and say "sorry"
>She smiles and walks away with her dad

Fuck, I was so fluttered, I thought I was going to die. I keep thinking about her, and I remember her face so well.

hmmm not exactly "the one that got away" as the age gap was slightly too big and I don't think of it anymore but here goes:

>male nurse
>polish with slight accent
>big forehead and great, well-kept beard, looks a little like a greek philosopher
>extremely fit, exercises with kettle bells (stalked his social media, sry)
>cute tooth-gap
>loving care-taker, down-to-earth, humble, easy-going, aims to make people feel at ease, nothing he won't do for clients, goes above and beyond
>sometimes a chaotic, playful dork
>tries to live healthily
>talks about coffee
>we both drink coffee black
>did the coffee with butter fitness meme for a while lmao disgusting
>sweetheart
>I fall madly in love with him, never act on it, but it's there
>he starts dropping subtle hints about his partner who is also a nurse while still being absolutely wonderful
>I probably idealised him but that was still genuinely a good guy and a long and intense infatuation that left me with a happier heart instead of brokenness
>had a baby with his partner
>I respectfully keep my distance

It was just a month ago,but I was on vacation and I was approached by some guy who was staying there for a while due to work.He told me it was a boring place and that he couldn't find people to connect to as most were immature.

The second time we see each other he offered me a glass of wine so I went to talk to him and I honestly had a great time.We had common interests and he seemed woke(in a good way)

So after that I slowly started fucking up as I asked him for his FB end didn't add him/text him immediately.Then I got sick and when I met him a couple of times I was kinda weird and I apologised the second time.At the time my anxiety had gotten the best of me and I felt like shit daily and one time I had the chance to talk to him I acted like I didnt see him.And in general I felt like I couldn't approach him after all this shit.I even sperged about him in a couple of threads.

The last day before I left I saw him again and texted him on Messenger.I did't get a response and then I tried adding him as a friend as some people don't receive the texts from people they aren't friends with.I got my request denied since he probably thought I was a weirdo(I have a random pic on FB and not my name) and then sent a message explaining who I was.Didn't get a reply either.I decided to give up since I already made myself to seem like a weirdo.Also there's a tiny chance he hasn't seen my messages at all since Messenger has some "message request" thing hidden where spam messages go so he MAYBE hasn't checked it.But he propably found me weird(I am) and avoidant(I was) so he lost interest and I don't blame him if he willingly ignores me.

TL;DR I let an interesting brunette chad get away from me because I'm a massive sperg and have huge-ass insecurities

>>602006
Man, I fell in love with him only by description. Except for coffee thing, because I hate it

>>602006
this made me both sad and warm on the inside. Hope you're happy anon