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No. 738693
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I don't even know where to begin, OP.
No. 738728
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>>738690My soulmate.
I also have assburguers and want to be social but my social anxiety and lack of understanding of social cues makes me a hot mess.
No. 739997
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it all started when i was born
No. 740048
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God never liked me and I’ve never been able to be normal because of it
No. 740086
I suck a little but refuse to change.
>impossible to get close to>socially lazy, hate maintaining friendships>selfishBasically I'm just a big loner, but also nice so some people are tricked and try to be my friend anyway. Sucks for them.
It makes me sad sometimes, but in general I've never been happier. At least I'm not destructive or mean.
>>739910>doesn't drink or smokeThis too. But it's good because it turns people off before I ghost em.
No. 740103
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>mean spoiled rich girl who did nothing to "earn" it other than marry a trust fund baby
>intense anxiety and paranoia
>depression
>OCD
>pathological liar
>fat
>alcohol problem
>destructively lazy
>probably have sociopathy and NPD- at the very least, close enough to raise the question
>"bigoted" toward certain groups
>vastly judgmental
>painfully socially awkward
I honestly DGAF about being "a good person" anymore. What makes someone "a good person" is so subjective and mentally draining. I don't feel good or happy when I try to be "a good person", it just doesn't come naturally. I'd rather just embrace my self-serving nature and only focus my energy on the things I need to improve that actually benefit me, like getting in good shape and being less lazy so I can accomplish my goals.
No. 740105
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Nothing. I’m awesome.
No. 740148
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>I don't lie very much but I omit the truth.
>Dont feel guilty about things I should
>Sometimes want to kick a child that is being annoying. Never ever have or would, of fucking course, but I fantasize about it when a baby is screaming.
>Find a lot of people disgusting, look down on people who are dirty, hoarders, or have a lot of sex (either gender)
>Always either too blunt or too passive with no in-between
>Too scared to say no to people whos feelings I shouldn't care about
>Little initiative, have to wait for someone to tell me to do something instead of doing it
>Spends just a little too much money on dumb shit
>Didnt adopt, bought from breeder
>Poor social skills in general
>Just enough will power to stay thin but not enough to get fit
>Eat way too much sugar
>Emotionally cheated on my ex boyfriend guilt-free.
>Think I want someone to do something but when they do it I get angry
>Internet stalk people from high school
>Gets unironically suicidal with a normal job
>Mood swings
>Secretive, best friend didn't know I was dating someone for a year and a half
>Used to catfish when I was 11-13
>Ghost men who get annoying or thirsty
>Maladaptive daydreaming
>Sympathy for those who are undeserving
>Dont always live by my principles (I eat diary even though I think it's wrong)
>Only helps others if it's not too difficult or will make me feel good
>Work so much at my passions I neglect friendships and stop talking to people. Will cancel plans because I dont want to pause working.
>Bad humor, not funny
>Says gay, retarded, faggot, and make edgy jokes
>Go on 4chan
>Compulsively watch gore and beheading videos even though I hate them
>Chameleon into whatever person Im talking to. Scared to be my authentic self, ie: talking to a SJW I will highlight the SJW parts of my personality.
>Dont call my parents enough even though our relationship is OK
>Havent read a physical book in over a year
>Would probably kill someone for 100 million dollars
>Gets excited when horrible world events happen because it's exciting (ie, earthquakes, hurricanes)
>Incredibly easily humiliated
No. 740249
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>does not answer messages, even from friends
>cant bring self to comfort people despite being internally pretty empathetic
>thinks showing emotion is gross and unpleasant
>extremely lazy and does nothing 24/7
>has artistic skill but, again, is too lazy and does not have the stamina to actually use it
>extremely judgmental of other people and cannot make friends due to this
>has a habit of repeating the same dumb, obvious statements over and over eg “wow, this is great! Wow, man, this is great! This is seriously great!”
>is a terrible driver and will probably wind up accidentally killing self or others due to this
No. 740273
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>spoiled
>avoidant
>dependent
>insecure
No. 740292
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I withdraw from life quite often and forget to stay in touch with family and friends
I have an addictive personality and abuse my adhd medication
I am really black and white in terms of thinking so I go hard on whatever I interested in and then get sick of it and don’t touch it for months (diets, foods, drugs, media, etc)
I have constant intrusive sexual thoughts and daydream about sex a lot
I am really socially inept at starting relationships with men and as a result have difficulty breaking the cycle of getting into shitty relationships and getting out
I can be both overly forgiving / a doormat and hypercritical and struggle finding the in betweens
No. 740347
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>>740329stop being a degenerate and seek help
No. 740355
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>>740342imagine actually defending that stance lmao
No. 740357
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a lot of things but i just recently realized i have to add emotionally abusive to the list. Also narcissist while we're at it. I want attention to be constantly on me and withdraw if it's not, come back like nothing happens, make it about me when they're clearly upset. I can't afford therapy, i don't think i shouldve tried getting into a relationship at all. i'm never getting in a relationship again after this, i don't want to suck anyone else's life out of them
No. 740493
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>severe trauma came with a shit ton of issues that I'm too scared to get diagnosed for
>blame everything on my disabilities and mental health issues because it's easier than to work on it
>dropped out at 15 because I told everybody I was going to od but did anyway a year later.. twice
>after years still haven't gotten my GED and lies to everyone that covid is booking up taking the test because I'm so mentally out of it that I can't even fucking add two numbers together
>extreme maladaptive daydreamer to the point where I sometimes forget that my friends in my imagination aren't real
>friends are worried about me but I never answer
>haven't gotten drivers license yet and probably won't for years because I'm too scared/lazy but blame it on a minor car accident from when I was a child so that people feel bad for me
>manipulative and will use somebody to get to where I want to want to if it means I won't get caught
>can't stop binging then starving then binging then starving then binging then star
>no valuable life experience because my entire life I've trained in the ~arts~ from birth to high school and job applications don't care about dance or musical theater
>will literally end my life if doing youtube doesn't work out because there's nothing left for me
>most likely a lesbian but too ashamed to come out for my reputation around family and friends
>will never tell my therapist about any of this
No. 740731
>>739542Basically same.
I fit a lot of quota for schizoid personality disorder, but I used to have a lot of interests and hobbies, so I guess it might be depression to some extent. That and being constantly tired.
No. 741324
>>740596I also still love Ariel Pink and generally never stop liking ~
problematic~ celebrities as long as they arent a pedo or rapist
No. 741463
>>741454Womp womp penis detected
As an actual factual vagina owner I don’t believe you. There is no way for a woman to pee in a cup EASIER than peeing in a toilet.
I’m laughing a bit imagining a woman really doing this. You’d have to be so self deprecating to really force yourself to go through all the pain of peeing in a cup, taking your pants
completely off, squatting like a china man over top of a plastic cup, only to dribble pee all over your hand, the outside of the cup and the floor. How could that be any easier than peeing in a toilet?
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>>741463are you retarded. i don't take my pants completely off, do you think i sleep in a onesie like you? pee gets nowhere on or around me? when i walk all the way to the bathroom in harsh lighting i can't go back to sleep and am up for the day even though its 4 am. im also laughing at you being worked up over pee in a cup it's such a silly topic
>>741464it truly embarrasses me in front of people and they always comment on it. i think this is actually a thing similar to dyslexia
No. 741473
>>741446anon I never thought I would admit this to anyone ever but I also pee in a cup sometimes. I have to get up and pee like 3x a night, sometimes more, so out of convenience and utter laziness I will pee in a cup.
I'm also a dumb bitch when it comes to math so yeah you are not alone
No. 741478
>>741472no i get up lmao. find cup, hover, pee. very quick process, maybe 15 seconds. then i sleep
>>741473im glad im not alone in this
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I fucking love male attention. I understand it’s bad but man I love peen. I like men starting to pay attention to me even though I know that they would to anything that breathes. I wish I had a dad. Scrotes are correct in that having no dad fucks you up
No. 741571
>>741553>>741567Same
Shitpost or male 'tism? Bet now!
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>>741567>>741571NTA but it's a copypasta you tards
No. 741624
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>>741594Anon, there's more than one type of intelligence. You might not have the highest logical-mathematical and spatial intelligence, but you might have for example, excellent linguistic intelligence
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Every time I become emotionally close to someone I inevitably end up getting fed up with them for one reason or another. I've been trying to keep everyone at somewhat of an emotional distance now because I know if I become too emotionally dependent on them they'll do something (that isn't their fault) and I will end up resenting them.
>>740105based
No. 744858
>>744801i don't think i have avpd (never heard of it) but i agree so hard on this comment. i have my own place, live alone, good job, my own car, pay all my own bills. but i still feel like an immature idiot so much of the time. i feel like i haven't done a lot of the normal adult things that people my age do, or i have done them and they just don't interest me. all of my close friends are online. i spend a lot of time playing video games. shit like that
also, i am the worst texter in the universe. i frequently pick up my phone, look at a text, think of a reply, then put it back down and utterly forget about it. then the person texts me again like "hello?" or we meet irl and they're like why did you leave me hanging, i thought i pissed you off or something? i have no idea what's wrong with me. my mind draws a huge blank when it comes to texting on the phone specifically. i'm so much better with phone calls but no one wants to do that anymore.
also i often have periods of a few days where i want to socialize with absolutely no one. i just close myself off entirely from friends or any social situation because i'm too tired
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>>744858>i'm so much better with phone calls but no one wants to do that anymoreThe pain is so real anon, I have the exact same shitty texting habits as you and I fucking hate it because I love my friends but I hate texting so goddamn much. I do not have the attention span to craft dozens of text messages back and forth for hours over the course of a day, I am sorry. Shit was so much easier when you could just call your friend at a reasonable time, have a fun conversation for however long it may last, and then go back to doing whatever the fuck you were doing. I also overanalyze and obsessively edit every single thing I write, no matter how brief, so when people text me something requiring more than a sentence in response it's like awesome thanks for the writing assignment mother fucker!! Plus it requires both your hands AND eyes so you can't even multitask. I can talk on the phone and draw, cook, fold laundry, but with texting you have to be looking at your fucking phone and tapping little buttons with your finger which ALSO sucks compared to the old days when you could just instant message people via typing on an actual KEYBOARD not a shit ass little phone screen!!! fuck I hate modern communication!!! fuck texting!!! shriek!!!!
No. 745483
>>745346I love you
nonny. You aren’t defined by your past, and you are very very strong for the way you are. Who cares if you drink a bit to cope with the pain? Maybe you’ll feel better joining a support group so you can talk to other survivors and not feel like you stick out, because you don’t! It’s unfortunately very common.
You are still a normal woman, you are still one of us and we love you.
No. 749921
>>740355>>740343>>740336lmao, keep seething you incel moralist hoes
>>740347>>740349define 'degenerate' you /pol/-ass bitches. miss me with that righteous shit. There's nothing wrong with fucking with teen scrotes, they're all a bunch of hormone-full libidinous sociopathic little fucks
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>>749921Replying to no less than five different posts.. 11 days late
No. 750014
>>749921>>740329Same anon, except I don’t break their hearts. I just let them take out their destructive sexual impulses on me as a form of mental selfharm, and then I leave. Some are worse than even “grown” men.
Yes I was bullied in school lol. IMHO it’s better this way because they’re cuter and don’t really try to do things to fuck with my life like older scrotes would do.