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No. 1132232

Let it all out.
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No. 1132236

My neighbours could be an example for 'how not to raise kids' or something. I'm woken up every day in the morning by their little girl screaming (literally screaming) and crying and sometimes the parents chime in too, forming an infernal choir. I usually can't make out any words but today I heard the mother say to the kid that she's going to give her a heart attack if she's continuing to behave the way she does. And both of the parents are educated people with degrees

No. 1132243

After years of being an austistic, depressed hikki, i finally crave human interaction, but I don't know how to approach the people I like, I'm too awkward and mentally ill, I always fear somebody will notice there's something wrong with me, I feel hopeless, something makes me think I'm too fucked up after all the shit I went through and that I don't deserve to be loved, even tho I'm completely harmless. It seems so easy for other anons to make friends/get boyfriends yet I can't even interact with my classmates. I don't fear loneliness, I'm just massively bored of being alone, yet the world and its people scare me profoundly, I feel conflicted. I wish I could feel human warmth without instantly running away

No. 1132246

I don’t care about people that are apathetic anymore, it doesn’t matter if they say things to make themselves seem sympathetic, if they don’t actually do anything to better their situation then it means nothing to me. I’ll momentarily feel pity, but I have to detach myself since investing concern in someone who can’t reciprocate is just draining.

No. 1132247

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It's so funny how my mom keeps saying "we never really speak anymore" yeah maybe because I can't tell you shit without you either posting it on Facebook or immediately telling my brothers?
I think my mom is pretty dumb but also strangely calculating…whenever I would stand up for myself or speak up and defend myself against her narcissist rages or ignorance I would immediately either get laughed at, or posted about on Facebook.
This woman was in her 40s literally making facebook statuses about me such as "A certain daughter doesn't learn to appreciate what she has…" all because I told her that I'd like my bedroom decorated a different way to how she wants it to be. It was always either her way or nothing, so even to this day I still struggle with asserting boundaries or saying no, and I'm also pretty sure I have undiagnosed aspergers that everyone just dismissed as me either being lazy or bitchy because I frequently get over stimulated by stuff that most people would be able to manage.

I still speak to my mom out of convenience but mostly the fear that she will paint me as some sort of villainous hag daughter again just for daring to cut ties with her. My brothers even know what she's like but there were so many times where they'd just ignore my struggles as "mother daughter fighting" when they knew I was suffering because I could never meet her standards of an obsessively feminine clean daughter who never spoke back and was basically a doormat. Most people also just know her as a simple but kind woman but she's not like that at all, she has carefully crafted that image of an abused single mom as a means to constantly fucking play the victim. I have never heard her ever say sorry to me after doing something wrong, not once. She would either laugh at me or just pretend it never happened. If I dared to stand up for myself in public by replying to her in a quiet tone so no one could hear us argue, she would purposely raise her voice louder than necessary and snap at me so that others could definitely hear. She also tells me that one day I will look exactly like her when I'm old - obese and unhealthy. Nice try bitch, that will never happen.
I'm not stubborn, I'm not going to look like her, I can and always say sorry when I'm wrong, I treat others with kindness even though I'm not perfect, I will never be anything like my mom and it angers her to see me prove her wrong.

No. 1132249

I'm so sick of this shitty world and how it's run. I'm so fucking angry all the time because shit that should make sense doesn't. The people who run our countries don't give a shit about anything but money and it's making me crazy. I feel like I'm going to lose it and do something fucking drastic one day, because things aren't getting better, and someone needs to force it to get better. Politicians need to be culled.

No. 1132259

fuck you, you are abusive and manipulative, and posting cat pics or talking about your horse doesn't make you any more "uwu innocent". we still see through you, you make everyone uncomfortable

No. 1132263

>>1132243
Look at it this way, if you look weird or socially awkward by putting yourself out there, you are not automatically going to get rejected. Give people a chance to be kind to you.
Not everyone will be nice, and it can hurt, but there are many many people out there (myself included) who know the signs of social awkwardness and are willing to give someone a chance because they're probably just out of practice socializing.
Everyone had some social rustiness coming out of lockdown so you'll be surprised how many people will agree if you just say "yeah I've forgotten how to be around people".

No. 1132269

Fuck I just slipped and fell down the fucking stairs and it really fucking hurt. Why did no one react?? Did they not see/hear? I literally said OUCH

No. 1132271

I hope all poor people in first world countries collectively commit suicide. I was always so nice to them and showered them with gifts for years. But they have never once given me anything back. Not with kindness not with gifts. They choose their family over me of course. I get it. But still, had I befriended richer people, or even just normal ones, I’d gave gotten gifts.
So as of today, I will no longer befriend poor people as they have too much on their mind to even wish me a happy bday.

No. 1132272

>>1132271
Equating gift-giving to poor people with befriending them is kind of weird..

No. 1132275

>>1132271
Anon if someone cared they'd have bought you a gift, even a tiny one if that's all they could afford. While I agree poor people cna sometime be entitled and assume they dont have to give anything back, your friends should've celebrated your birthday and it's so shitty they didnt.
>>1132272
I think anons friends didn't get her a birthday gift and that's what she's talking about. Although it's not a fair comparison, your friends should at least give you happy birthday wishes even if they can't afford a gift

No. 1132276

>>1132275
Oh kek that makes more sense, sorry if that's the case. It read to me like anon was gifting random poor people she wasn't already friends with.

No. 1132278

>>1132275
I had to remind them that it was my bday. They’re so low people who live off government assistance as much as possible and I have physical disabilities and I try to be independent and nice as possible and this is how i get repaid? To remind my shit friends that it’s my day? I feel so guilty I hate my family my brother helped me with a bill (though I gave my brother who’s a poorfag as well too much money in the first place)
>>1132272
I thought you should befriend anyone regardless of their economic background so long they’re nice to you, but I’m no longer doing that. It seems just like with scrotes you should have the highest standards ever even for friends. Actually fuck my life. Only my mom and brother gave me bday wishes. God. Now I have to work full time today too. From afternoon til night. What a life.

No. 1132280

I went to an intake at the psychologist today and it was fine until this fucking psychiatrist came in. She kept cutting me off and straight up told me 'time's up, the conversation is finished anon'. Stupid fucking bitch. Do you even want to help people? I think slitting my throat would be a better solution for my mental health issues than go there ever again. Bunch of fucking assholes, only in it for the money.

No. 1132287

>>1132280
I'm sorry, Nonny, she sounds awful. But please release your anger and focus getting better.

No. 1132299

>>1132280
Sucks but that's how most health care systems are. You get X amount of time and not a second more, bureaucracy and money are more important than the human.

No. 1132304

I'm tired of feeling I'll never find "my person". I guess it's hard not to think inwardly, I'm working on it in therapy. I'm doing what I can to focus more on myself, eating healthy, going to the gym most days, reading, sleeping better… but it feels empty without being able to share my day with someone

No. 1132306

Seeing my friends still believe in trans ideology is so annoying. They're spewing misogyny and I can't call them out without being labelled transphobic and being equated with a nazi even though I just don't want dicks in women's changing rooms and for mentally ill kids to not be sterilized and have cut up bodies before they've even gotten to grown up

No. 1132308

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PMS is kicking my ass as per usual, but I’ve been napping a lot this week so now I can’t sleep either. Work is killing me and I’ve got a bunch of big calls to make soon with my career and a city move and I hate having to make decisions when I’m like this. I think I might even have PDD with how badly it affects me. I just wish I could put every decision and responsibility on hold until next week so I can deal with it when I’m sane.

No. 1132313

>>1132271
This is such a weird take anon lol

No. 1132317

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>tfw moid begs me to piss on him and spit in his mouth

KEK moids are fucking disgusting but I am absolutely going to take this chance and piss on him.

No. 1132318

>>1132278
Happy birthday anon. I wish I could send you a gift. From now on, don't pay for anything for your friends and don't give them gifts, those kinds of stuff make you attract retards who will leech off of you. I've seen it happen where some people's friends would literally make them buy shit, pay for their stuff and all while they never paid back. Those people are worthless and don't give them your time or money again. Happy borthday.

No. 1132329

The lady at the fuel company was giving me such attitude.

No. 1132346

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I lost the few friends I had when I moved and now I’m friendless and alone on my birthday.

No. 1132347

>>1132346
Happy birthday, anon.

No. 1132357

>>1132347
Thank you anon, you’re sweet

No. 1132358

>>1132346
Happy birthday! What's ur fave cake?

No. 1132367

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>>1132346
Aw I'm sorry nonna. I hope you'll still be able to have a good day today. Take yourself out on a walk or a small shopping trip if it's nice out! Treat yourself to some cake or your favorite food! Happy birthday!

No. 1132375

hyenas have matriarchy and females rule the pack

No. 1132378

jammed my finger in the door so hard that i passed out. a little chunk of flesh was actually torn out. i feel so retarded and have no one else to tell this to, thank fuck i'm alone in the house rn this is so embarassing. also waking up after that felt so awful and weird, for a moment it felt as if something is pulling me down and i could taste static.
just because i wanted to turn off the light in the bathroom after i slammed the door shut behind me.

No. 1132383

I used to think I had some form of autism or BPD because I would act out in meltdowns. Turns out I was was simply being mistreated and manipulated by somebody else just to get me to strip naked. Those years wasted doing bad things to myself because he didn't think my body was good enough so he'd put down even during sex. Thats time I will never get back. The years that were supposed to be my prime were spent on men dragging my self worth and self esteem to the ground. Now I don't trust any man who says he wants me. It's all lies. They just want a turn to further waste my time. Find an issue and move on with their lives as if I was never my own person to begin with. I always feel like I am a transaction to a person, I grew avoidant of all forms of relationships. I used to want friends, but when I made friends I was still pressured to do things that made me uncomfortable. Ive even grown to become more paranoid of anybody trying to reach out to me. Not because I think they miss me, but the thought of them crawling back into my life terrifies me. Im older now, I have let all my baggage settle in a comfortable spot in my brain. When it collected dust I learned to understand that I acted out from fear, not out of being crazy. There was too many men in my life saying they wanted to be friends and then coerced me into being more. Then get upset I dont act like a proper girlfriend. I feel like I am ruined forever, it doesnt feel like it can't get better because men aren't going to suddenly be better either. It's not like I am that nice to begin with so I can't rag on others too much.

No. 1132392

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All I wanted to do was eat chinese BBQ last night. I had a shit day at work and was craving squid so bad. One of my spouse and my mutual work people shows up to join us and we're like okay, fine. Then she drops a bomb on us that she's coming out as a lesbian and leaving her husband.
The entire dinner is filled with her crying about how she is gay and she needs support. I've only met this woman through work 2 times max. What the fuck is wrong with people? I just wanted to eat my squid, not be a therapist for the night. If you're gonna drop a bomb of news on people, do it people you are closer to. It was so awkward for everyone.

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>>1132347
>>1132358
>>1132367
Tysm nonnies! I’ll do my best to have a good birthday for you!
My favorite cake is the mont blanc, it’s delicious and super sweet

No. 1132395

>>1132378
Ouch!! I hope you're feeling better now. Please disinfect and rest, nonnie. That shit is scary to happen when you're alone.

No. 1132396

>>1132392
leon is such a hottie

sorry about your weird squid-ruining acquaintance

No. 1132401

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>>1132396
Thank you! And he is. I'm off today, so I might replay RE4 for the 100th time. I love that game so much. (Especially his sexy Mafia outfit)

No. 1132403

Male friend who I haven't talked to in a while actually reached out to me yesterday and asked if I was going to be moving to 'x' city. I said no and asked him why he asked and he went on to complain about how he's moving to that city for his girlfriend's job and he's worried because he doesn't know anyone there. I don't get why he went out of his way to vent to me about this when we haven't had a substantial conversation in years, but I tried to genuinely give advice and tell him it'd be okay since I moved to my current city completely by myself and was able to make friends (and he's more social than I am, I think). Then he just didn't respond lol. I don't know why but that exchange rubs me the wrong way. It's like he just wanted to complain and didn't care about what I had to say even though I was trying to be a good friend and connect with him despite us not talking about "real" shit for years. Whatever.

Also, he's literally moving to the city with his girlfriend? It's not like he's going to be completely alone.

No. 1132405

>>1132403
This is so stupid. Women do this all the time and survive, it just shows how when the tables are turned, men become scared about their security and get worried about that, as anyone would.

No. 1132414

>>1132395
thanks, your reply actually made me feel better. i did clean it under running water, im not ready to feel the burn from the disinfectant

No. 1132419

I don't watch mukbang shit but sometimes youtube suggests me these compilations, so I took a look and by god why the fuck would anyone wanna watch a scrote stuff their face? I actually kinda get women doing mukbangs, I know how they got started too, and I know some people watch that for fetish stuff and some mukbangers lean into that but like…when the fuck have men been shamed for overeating? It kinda makes sense for a woman to go fully unhinged, eat a lot of shit and make some money, especially the korean women but why the fuck is this ugly ass moid doing that and why are you cheering? Oh wow a scrote ate a lot pizza, what a soft little hungwy uwu ball, shut the fuck up, women can do whatever the fuck. Eat all that garbage if you wanna, get heart disease but I am not gonna shame you, unless you're a scrote.

No. 1132427

I can no longer watch age restricted videos on YouTube unless I verify my age by UPLOADING MY GOD DAMN IDENTITY CARD
FUCK YOU GOOGLE

No. 1132431

I wish the fucking company that owns my apartment complex would get woken up at 7-9am on their days off due to gardeners and painters banging on the wall or rooftop with ladders but they wont because theyre rich cunts while im in this smaller unit where any space i move to wont escape the noise. I just want to go back to living in my own home. I hate this economy its so badly inflated.

No. 1132432

>>1132419
I hate this scrote so much. I've seen gorgeous or cute women doing Mukbang with no views while this ugly mummy scrote has 1 mil subs. The world is truly unfair.

No. 1132455

>>1132247
I'm so sorry nonnie, I can relate somehow, thankfully my mother has never been outright nasty to me but I had my share of passive-aggressive comments and emotional blackmail. Having her as a living example is sure way you will NEVER end up like her. I'm so proud of you for being a better person.

Unrelated but my job is killing me. I got temporarily promoted to a higher position that was technically available for me and I could be considered qualified for, but I never wanted it myself. I knew the amount of pressure and how unrewarding it can be. Things happened and here I am! I can't even vent to my colleagues about how badly I'm taking it. All I get is how ungrateful I am, what a good experience this is and how I should not let this opportunity pass. What good are the experiences and money (the pay isn't even that good) when I wake up early in the morning from all the stress? Fuck I want to quit so bad.

No. 1132460

>>1132427
I have an extension to bypass age restriction, you need tampermonkey browser extension and a script to unlock youtube videos but I don't know where I got the script but if you google it you'll find it for sure

No. 1132468

>>1132427
I covered everything but my DOB and it accepted it.

No. 1132480

I hate that I'm not my boyfriends type. I'm tall, blonde, slim and busty. I felt really good about that before him. But his type is short chubby latinas with dark hair and saggy tits specifically. I know from his porn habits. I'm way out of his league and he knows it, he says I'm hot all the time, but I'm still not his ''type''.

I've literally thought about leaving him because of it. I was my exes ''type'' and I didn't even care when I saw his porn history because they were all similar to me.

No. 1132487

>>1132480
You sound attractive, why waste your good looks on a guy who's out of your league and on top of that doesn't even appreceite it. Surely you can get someone better?

No. 1132488

Got woken up by a mosquito at 4am. Couldn't kill it but it's no biggie cuz I just covered myself with the duvet and tried to fall back asleep since I still had two and a half hours before i had to get up. I'd left a small gap in the sheets for breathing room, and this motherfucks flies through the gap and shoots RIGHT UP MY FUCKING NOSTRIL. I got jolted awake and haven't been able to get any sleep since, and also probably have a mosquito lodged in my brain now.

No. 1132492

>>1132432
why would anyone even want to watch him? he looks so gross.

No. 1132495

>>1132480
You sound like a bitch pick me who is judging other women for no reason.

No. 1132496

"Ew, why do you like this thing that I don't like?"
Fuck off, you stupid little asshole, that's why.

No. 1132501

>>1132487
It just sucks that you can't truly know your mans preferences until you see his porn.

>>1132495
What are you talking about? Because I wrote ''chubby'' and ''saggy tits''? Nothing wrong with those it's just not me. I feel like he finds them way more feminine than me. I work hard to stay fit and slim and now he's got me feeling like some masc twink compared to these women.

No. 1132502

>>1132488
I hope you're lying, I hate this so much- I wish it was spoiled lmao

No. 1132503

>>1132480
don't busty girls have saggy tits…? in any case, leave the coomer.

No. 1132504

>>1132480
You sound hot, get a better bf nonnie and one that doesn't watch porn

No. 1132507

>>1132346
Happy birthday nonny! I hope you can still have a good day and lots of hugs from your canadian nona here. Birthdays can be hard but we'll always be here to support you and chill out with!!

No. 1132523

>>1132427
Yet they won't ever do the same for porn sites, I hate this planet lol

No. 1132559

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I'm struggling so much with uni. I only just recently got diagnosed with moderately severe ADHD and have yet to get meds (should be a few days thankfully). No one in my family has been to uni, but fortunately I have my boyfriend and his mother helping me with understanding the system. I've been out of school for 5 years. I've already missed a big assignment because I got my dates mixed up. I'm positive I have dyscalculia and one of my courses has me doing math, I genuinely cannot understand any of it, it's literally like white noise. I'm trying so hard to be able to have a life when I'm an adult-adult.

Fuck, does it get better? I feel so fucking stupid. I used to do so well in school.

No. 1132569

There was a shooting in a NYC Brooklyn subway i used to frequent with my friend years ago. We both moved out of nyc a while back, but this shit is terrifying. My worst fear is to be trapped in a subway station with a gun toting man. Why are man so fucking violent? like this mother fucking threw tear gas into a car filled with people before shooting. I haven't seen if anyone died, but a lot were shot in the leg. it's so scary. like god damn. i'm so glad i moved out of NYC, but what happened to my city? i'm so devastated by this. I really hope the people who were hurt get help and heal…

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People with autism are nine times more likely to die from suicide than those without autism. People with autism die at an average age of 54

No. 1132584

>>1132579
Get out my head Noni or take a hug.

No. 1132586

>>1132569
I read it was just a smoke bomb and not tear gas. No fatalities yet and I think 3 critically injured but in stable condition.

No. 1132587

>>1132569
>I really hope the people who were hurt get help and heal…
Same… Saw this earlier today and it's fucked… I try to buzz out the news around the big cities in the US because it's always about negativity but this was really shitty.

No. 1132591

>>1132480
>I don't care if my man watches porn as long as I can relate the women he's objectifying to myself
Lol, imagine allowing a man using other women like commodities and then being shocked when he starts to make you feel like one too.
You're insecure and you need self-respect, what you're doing is cope.

And speaking from experience, men do not give a fuck how hot or not women are if their prerogative is to get their rocks off. I've seen men cheat with the complete opposites of their partners just because they were new and different which made them interesting toys in the scrote's eyes. It's not about his "type" so much that he's taking you for granted and is bored enough with your relationship that he'd rather fantasize about someone else. Your looks are being wasted on him, move on.

No. 1132606

This guy makes me feel so depressed. I wish I had never met him. Looking at pics of myslef before I used to look so happy and healthy, I did shit that I liked, I laughed, ate good food, slept like a baby. Not an ounche of depression inside of me. The weird thing is that I know he doesn't like me, yet I still text him and meet him. I hate men fr. I wish he'd die or something. Whyyyy the fuck did I ever decide to not stay single anymore? I feel so fucking paralyzed, I cant evenmake myslef a bowl of pasta, and I used to cook intricate recepies that took hours to complete, meal prep, and al that shit. I don't even exercise anymore and I havent played guitar in so long. Men are time wasters SINGLE NONNAS DONT FUCKING MEET MEN, STAY SINGLE FOREVER. I'm slowly getting back to becoming myself again, I'm so happy I took pictures of myself so I can look forward to becoming her again

No. 1132609

My medical treatment of 6 months isn't going well despite my doctor claiming that all is good. I got a second opinion and it confirms what the first doctor said, so why do I feel myself getting worse and worse. I can see what's happening to my body and it really isn't going in the right direction. I feel so lost.

No. 1132637

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the hospital that let me go into DKA and refused me insulin for two days has nearly killed two other diabetics in the exact same way in less than 10 months
I reported it to the health department and the bureau of investigation, and they did nothing, they said nothing was wrong. at least one other diabetic did the same thing and was told the same thing.
I tried to hire a lawyer because I'm a terrified fucking shut-in with kidney and eye damage now because of what they did to me and I'm fucking furious, and the lawyer said I have no case, they can get away with that as long as they aren't doing it to every single patient who comes in, and they aren't injecting insulin into someone who isn't diabetic, sooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOO

No. 1132641

My mother was never a good mother, but the things she did last year topped it all. I haven't talked to her in over 3 months now, just wrote one or two e-mails. She thought we would be visiting around Easter and we would have, but my brother is still so damn angry at her, that I really fear he would do something stupid and I'm just tired of all the drama surrounding everything my mother is involved in. So I wrote her an e-mail that I'm to busy to take days off (that's actually the truth) and since then I didn't hear back from her and I fear that she is creating even more damage than she already did. I'm just so done with this childish behaviour and that I always had to be the grown-up in my family and I wish that she would have done what she always said, that she would have killed herself years ago. And also, I feel bad for thinking this way and every time I think she might try and change she just creates another reason for my to distance myself further. I'm very jealous of people that have a good relationship with their mother (and father) and I feel she has stolen years of my life and is still doing it. Think I finally need therapy to get through this, but I'm afraid I will have to deal with a therapist that will tell me to forgive her and tell me bullshit like "but it's your mother". There isn't any option to forgive her, except she would apologise and go to therapy for the next 5 years.

No. 1132657

It really pisses me off how unsafe the world is for solo female travelers. I’m in a place where I could go explore exotic countries by myself if I wanted to, but traveling alone as a woman is painting a massive target on your back. Even with relatively safe, “touristy” countries I don’t feel like I’d have the same ability to enjoy them as a man would.(I don’t want to go with a group or with a partner, I want to go places by myself.)

No. 1132665

>>1132637
That's horrifying anon. My sister is a type 1 diabetic and shit like this scares me. One time she had a bad experience at a hospital (I don't think it was as bad as what you experienced, I don't remember exactly what happened). I guess the least you could do is try to warn other diabetics about them. The fact that the health department and the lawyer won't help you is beyond fucked.

No. 1132669

>>1132657
I used to have a customer who traveled to Dubai and other unsafe for women countries a lot for work. i told him i wish i could see it but i'm a woman and he literally couldnt get it. Men live life on easy mode

No. 1132670

>>1132637
try another attorney, anon. if there are reported cases and this violates typical protocol, i don't see how you couldn't have one. that's insane. sometimes practices are particularly focused on certain types of hospital cases so they don't care to take on your case. i've also dealt with a lot of attorneys that are just straight up fucking selfish assholes that don't care too, especially in tort law, so. try again with other attorneys and just see. what shithole state do you live in that is saying this is acceptable??

No. 1132722

>>1132669
Exactly! Like, I hate men who brag about their solo travels and how ~adventurous~ they are. Not only is it a huge privilege to be able to afford it, it’s also something you can only really do if you’re a man. You’re “adventurous” because of massive privilege, not because you’re brave.

No. 1132731

>>1132657
I feel you. I've made peace with the fact that I never will. I'd really like to have a close female friend I could travel to safe countries with though…

No. 1132732

>>1132669
A Russian foreign woman in my country got raped today, my country is a very unsafe country for women and it's absolutely disgusting how any foreign woman either gets raped, killed or scammed in one way or another unless they visit a very well developed country.

No. 1132734

>>1132657
i get so anxious whenever youtube recommends me those videos of girls traveling to some really shithole places alone
recently i came across a korean girl who exclusively travels afghanistan etc…that's such a bad idea
as a child i was obsessed with egypt and thankfully could go with my parents but i would never dare to go anymore unless i have a man accompanying me
it's sad but i'm not willing to risk anything

No. 1132735

Found out my younger sister is a cutter and she all but admitted she got it from me (I was a cutter in my teen years and relapsed recently) I feel like the worst kind of piece of shit right now

No. 1132740

>>1132657
I'm happy that I would always have my brother at my side to travel with me (though we don't have money for it), but I understand you. We have this unspoken agreement that if someone asks intruding questions, he isn't my brother, he is my boyfriend, because without that story some men would never leave you alone. I sometimes thought about just packing a bag and leaving, but I just, can't, because it's dangerous to be travelling alone as a woman, even if I'm not afraid, I'm just not stupid enough to take any risk. And it's so damn sad, we could be travelling, having a good time, meeting other alone travelling women, etc, but no, we can't go alone.

>>1132735
don't feel like shit, I've been a cutter myself for over 18 years and yes, I might have influenced people, but if someone starts, there is something wrong and they have problems to deal with. If your relationship is a good one with your sister, buy something nice to eat, sit down with her and talk to her in a calm way and find the reason why she even started. Maybe you both can move on from there and get away from self harming.

No. 1132750

therapy is bullshit, how the fuck do people ever open up to therapists? you’re paying someone with a bachelor’s degree to tell you to change your behavior and to get over your trauma. it’s just “have you tried exercising?” but they charge you eighty bucks.

No. 1132757

>>1132670
>>1132665
god, thank you for the validation, honestly I need it
it's Illinois, btw, and surprisingly not even Chicago

No. 1132766

>>1132735
I hope you two are able to somehow bond over it. Me and my sister no longer get along and i can barely stomach being around her. Even if you don't want to confront her, treat her gently. You've been there too. It's not your fault. Were either of you neglected or abused growing up, if you don't mind me asking? If so, then really don't blame yourself.

My sister and I both had garbage parents and we reacted to our trauma differently. We were also treated differently.

No. 1132767

Moids love to post that graph from ok cupid about men of all ages being only attracted to women in their early 20s, but irl they're so shit at telling age it's actually funny. They can only judge women on the internet who actually post their age. Men irl think I'm like 7-8 years younger than my actual age and I get hit on by 19 year olds, but I'm not the only one; at my job there are like 3 other women that our male coworkers assumed were much younger than their actual age, and these women don't even wear make up, something they could "cheat" with. Actually, men are the ones who often look older than their age, but not in a good way. I've seen 21 year olds with recedig hairlines, tired bloated faces, shapeless bodies etc. I wonder if those "redpill" men were attracted to a girl and assumed she's like 19-21 but then they found out she's like 27, would they suddenly stop being attracted to her, or would they stop pursuing her, because she's simply not young enough? I remember some anon here once said that she looks like a highschooler and got hit on by men who were around her real age, but the moment they found out her age, they stopped showing interest? Is male attraction really an on/off thing? Or maybe they still considered her attractive but bailed out simply because they assumed she won't be so easy to control and maintain because she's not as young as they thought?

No. 1132772

>>1132766
What ways did you each react, out of curiosity?

No. 1132777

>>1132767
Lmao I'm 25 and get mistaken as a young teen, it's retarded because imo I don't look like a teen at all. It's just because people expect you to shrivel up and dress boring once you reach a certain age.

No. 1132779

>>1132767
Lol I got carded at CVS the other day and this pimply-faced teenager was absolutely astounded that I’m 30. I really think it’s because Hollywood has 25 year olds playing teenagers and women in their 30s playing women in their 40s and 50s.

No. 1132780

succesion shiv is making me feel like a moid her hips and ass are insane i wanna bury my face in there and not come out

No. 1132788

>>1132767
You're right that men are shit at being able to tell ages but the reason why they want young women is because they are easier to manipulate. A woman their age would be far less likely to put up with their nonsense, hence why they get turned off.

No. 1132793

doubleposting; being jealous of vtubers is retarded i know but i am so envious. they make so much money and for what? whenever one of them gets doxxed and they're shown to be an ugly bastard it makes me feel better

No. 1132796

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all i fucking want is a best friend who is equally catty and willing to literally just talk about people and gossip non-stop, idc, I love doing it. The hatred of gossip is the hatred of the only power women have had, and nobody can tell me otherwise.

fuck i want a best friend in GENERAL, I haven't had one in 8 years since senior year of high school and i miss it, i miss it so much.

No. 1132797

>>1132757
>Illinois
I hope it's not near the northwest suburbs… not diabetic but my dad is. Hospitals around us are already sketch. Hope things work out for you nonnie.

No. 1132798

>>1132772
I'm a lot more emotionally impulsive and she tends to bottle her emotion up until it explodes in a violent way. I was constantly in and out of therapy and our parents neglected to put her in it. We were both abused but my mother hated me for being the abnormal retard child in her eyes. But I left her house in my late teens after she almost killed me, and my sister had to stay there. She became the main receipient of her abuse

At the time I didn't realize that I was probably being selfish. Later she ended up living with me and my dad when she got fed up. About a year into us three living in the house we started having abnormal and brutish fights where we would end up injuring one another over the dumbest fucking shit. I occasionally have one night of pacifism with her, but all these years later we can't easily forgive another. She once triggered me into cutting using a tactic our mom used to use when she abused us. It hurts to think about

No. 1132800

>>1132796
I fucking love gossip but i always made sure not to gossip about my actual friends, best of both worlds

No. 1132815

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why is killing paedophiles illegal. I am so tired.

No. 1132817

>>1132798
nta, but damn, I'm so sorry for you, I've got such a mother and she always would make my brother and me fight over stupid things. She didn't expect us to grow tighter and resenting her.
I think the problem is your mother, not you, not your sister, your mother planted that bullshit in your behaviour and now you have to unfold it and find a way to lead a better life. Did you ever talk to your sister about the abuse your mother put you through and maybe you both could go to therapy. Hope you are getting better soon and none of you will need to self harm ever again.
And one last thing, you weren't selfish, you tried to save yourself, you were young, you shouldn't have to think about the well being of your sister, that's something a normal mother would do.

No. 1132826

I spent the past ~4 years never watching anime and forcing myself to read ~literature~ and watch ~films~ because I thought I was too good for animu and mangoes and let fucking boring online moids influence me and make me feel insecure about liking it. I actually ended up really like cinema and it turned into a fully developed interest so I don't regret it, plus I did read a lot of good books, but now that I have a bf and am starting to make friends, they ALL like weebshit and I feel really other and boring compared to them. I like them and I'm enjoying the anime I've started getting into but I really wish I had someone to talk about old depressing movies with sometimes, just to make me feel less weird. I had a couple coworkers with the same taste in movies but they got new jobs. Crazy how I feel like the weirdo being a cinephile since anime is so mainstream now lol.

No. 1132861

men ruin everything. i hate them so much. i dont want one to look at me or touch me ever again bc it genuinely makes me feel so disgusted

No. 1132885

I have no sympathy for rich people who went broke. You were making a shit ton of money and you didn't think to save any of it? That's your fault. So many people would have loved to have enough money to live decently. People who were always poor get my sympathy so much more than those who had a lot and squandered it all.
I'm looking at you, scrote male athletes. You had all the resources to have an emergency fund, save, invest. I hope they live the rest of their lives with mad regret.

No. 1132893

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Never in a million years did I think I'd ever be a pearl-clutching, "Think of the children!!" critic when it comes to sexuality in the media. But holy fuck, I am so sick of the pornification of mainstream media and just…everything. 'Euphoria' cast a fucking porn star as a recurring character because the director saw her in a porn parody of the show.
High school girls are now getting blown-up, pornstar-looking lip fillers, dressing up as little girls, talking in squeaky anime baby voices and doing ahegao hentai faces for boys on social media. I'm just so tired of it all.

No. 1132897

my ex has been trying like hell to get back together with me, always trying to have sex with me, moving into my complex, when we broke up i couldnt make him leave without him threatening to kill himself, made me promise to tell him if i ever fuck anybody else, its a whole thing, he's fully obsessed with me..he logged me out of my snapchat, so he was checking my snapchat, and since his profile was still in my phone from olden gays i decided to be petty and open his snapchat. and bitch i found a video of him sucking dick this past saturday
i am bursting waiting for the oppurtunity to leverage this information but don't want to create a bad situation so im keeping it to myself but he was fully sucking a man's cock (doing a fuckton of cocaine on probation i might add u could literally see the plate in the vid) and idk who that man was if it was one of our coworkers or what….
im in the lengthy process of getting tf away from him (getting a new apartment as soon as possible) and this shit just sent me for a loop…i actually broke up w him bc i caught him on grindr a few times (not just grindr but its one of the places) but he swore up and down hes not into dudes he kept telling all these lies 'i was just messing with them!' as if being gay was the issue and not taking advantage of me & lying & cheating on me lol. ive actually been celibate & he in all his desperation and obsession with me & all his faux straight cis machismo is out here in his twink era. it is killing me that i cant tell anyone

No. 1132898

>>1132897
LOL at me mistyping 'olden days' as 'olden gays' the freud of it all

No. 1132901

>>1132898
>>1132897
Oh my god this is wild and also perfect typo anon, kek.

No. 1132902

>>1132817
Insofar as I'm aware she doesn't go to therapy and I'd had therapy and meds forced on me for years until adulthood. But my original therapists was a gaslighter which I now realized blamed me for my own problems. The one I've had since highschool aka my current has helped actualize my abuse, but she's never tried to take my family under her wing.

Or rather, the few times she tried she found my mother and father to be insufferably narcissistic. The few family sessions were a disastrous trashfire and reminded me why my parents divorced in the first place. She said my sister has a lot of repressed trauma but sister moved out of state and obviously doenst still see her.

I'm off meds right now, not doing well, self harming and feeling incredibly suicidal again. I don't know how much longer I can last. It hurts that I have nobody in my family to confide in at all.

No. 1132907

>>1132796
Goddamn, same. I miss having a best friend to be a catty bitch with. If we lived in the same city I'd invite you over for coffee or wine and we could just sit and be catty and gossip every week. Love it.

No. 1132908

>>1132796
I had a friend like that and lost her. I miss her dearly. Hope you find a likeminded person to talk smack with nona, they're the best

No. 1132919

>>1132908
Me too Anon and I miss nothing more.

No. 1132929

I plan on killing myself this weekend. Just want to say…thank you to this site. I've been so incredibly isolated in my life, and I've been glad to connect with the likeminded anons on here and to feel like I somewhat belong somewhere in the world. Thanks again. I hope the best for Lolcow, and good luck anons.

No. 1132933

>>1132929
I really wish you didn’t but I am not gonna insult you by acting like I know what you’re going through. Love you, nona, hope we helped you feel better even slightly.

No. 1132942

I feel like my constant feelings of inferiority stem from my mother. Both me and my brother are fucked up, and she abused us both pretty bad. Every single morning, without fail, began with her ranting at us about how we're horrible narcissistic pieces of shit and how "no other mother has to deal with such horrible children". The ranting would literally go on for half an hour. If we tried to do anything, anything at all, she'd go on a hysterical rant about how we fuck everything up and make more work for her. So my entire childhood I spent in front of the TV and computer, and all her insults kind of just became background noise. At school I was a notoriously naughty child and a bit of a sadistic bully, because the scolding I got there were just so inconsequential to what I got at home. I developed a sort of learned helplessness, sort of like the Ludovico technique from a clockwork orange, where I had a strange aversion to any exertion and just wanted to sit on the computer and fuck around all day.

At my birthday one year she went on about the family dog dying, the one she overfed into a chonker, she gleefully and sadistically went into full detail about how the dog choked on its own vomit and died by the front door, it was a lynchian horror moment. She adopts sickly dogs from the shelter to waffle on about how uwu hard she has it looking after such retarded doggos. She made out me and my brother were retarded sickly kids, incapable of anything, got us loaded on a cocktail of drugs, barely fed us, insulted us every day. The only thing that was expected of us was intelligence. Her fantasy was having sickly children that were uwu helpless, but also had to be super geniuses that would one day be working as engineers and scientists or some cerebral narcissistic bullshit.

No. 1132949

>>1132657
Traveling full time is my dream. I used to read books and listen to podcasts about it. All of those books and podcasts are made by men and it's painfully obvious. They'd always give advice like 'travel to third world countries because it's cheaper'

Also in the same book he also suggested going to this website that I don't remember the name of where you can meet people who are willing to let you sleep on their couches for free which just seems like a really stupid idea.

No. 1132951

How am I supposed to take joy in life when I fucking hate myself. I feel self conscious all the time, there's always a voice in my head telling me how awful I am. I can't take it anymore, I wish I had never been born.

No. 1132956

I'm so sick of seeing horrible news and feeling negative all the time. Life is boring and pointless. The world is a scary, lonely and cold place.

No. 1132962

I wish I could leave my job without having to find another one. I'm tired. Every time I start getting comfortable, something goes wrong. My boss treats me like shit and is constantly putting me down, can't even wear a mask to work anymore because he dislikes it and will comment on it until I'm uncomfortable. if my co-worker messes up, I get blamed for it. If he doesn't spend time training me properly, I get blamed for it - but I can't ask questions without them judging me for not knowing.
I hate how happy I was to find this job only for it to turn out like this.

No. 1132969

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>>1132956
I think about this a lot.

Which also makes me think about this quote a lot from Bojack Horseman:
“The universe is a cruel, uncaring void. The key to being happy isn't a search for meaning. It's to just keep yourself busy with unimportant nonsense, and eventually, you'll be dead!”
- Mr. Peanutbutter

No. 1132970

so many animu obsessed troons are also loli pedomaps, its ridiculous how many fall into this mold.
browsed twitter and found a group of these cp sharing fuckers who argue that maps aren't abusers and they're being oppressed, and they're all troons.
under one of the illegal images i was reporting, pedo was sperging about how "women don't have to work for their womenhood, so we're more women than them blah blah." truly hope some of these fuckers get sent off to jail. they were even talking about meeting up with children too, for christ's sake.

No. 1132973

wellbutrin is making me so horny and i hate it. i feel like a degenerate

No. 1132976

>>1132962
i am so sorry, anon! I just left my job because my boss was abusive and now i'm scrambling to find another. i truly hope your next job works out. Sending positive vibes.

No. 1132978

>>1132970
Troon degens are real and out there. It's why hand maidens and people defending this shit piss me off so much. They wanna go after JKR when literal pedos are planning to groom children. Makes me sick

No. 1132980

I stupidly did camming and now every day I think about suicide knowing I will never be able to get those videos off the internet and if I ever get a good job I know I'll probably be fired in a humiliating affair when they find out. I know it's only a matter of time and it's killing me. Plus I'll never be able to have a normal relationship again since who would want to be with a girl who did that. I seriously can't keep living with this hanging over my head, there's no point to anything I do because I made a stupid fucking mistake and now I can never take it back.

No. 1132981

>>1132657
I knew a guy who answered a random craigs list to go camping with a dude who was feeling lonely and wanted a friend. A total stranger. He told me it was a ton of fun and my wife was like 'yeah, cuz you're a man. women cant do that.' and even after we explained it, he didn't it. Men have no self awareness.

No. 1132983

>>1132978
imagine all the time and energy they spent obsessing over JKR was instead used to report these types of proud predators to authorities…
but also too, so many “allies” and handmaidens are too scared to call out degen behavior in fear of getting called transphobic cus it genuinely happens all the time. worst case ive seen was probably this one person getting called transphobic for calling out a troon that had a sexual/romantic online “relationship” with a 13 year old. its fucking depressing seeing what things are becoming.

No. 1132987

>>1132980
Don’t kill yourself nonnie. Things like camming are becoming more and more commonplace and I think a lot more people than you think would be understanding if they knew what circumstances led you to do it. If it comes up with future employers, tell them “this is something I did in the past, I’m doing my best to move on from it,” or something along those lines. If they’re decent people (and if you’re good at your job), they won’t care. If they’re not, then fuck em, there will be other jobs and other opportunities.
Just don’t try to go into teaching or public office or anything like that.

No. 1132991

>>1132980
Samefag but same applies to relationships. If they don’t want to be with you because of a legal, victimless thing you did in the past, they’re not someone you want to be with anyway. Fuck em.

No. 1132992

I hate how my only achievement I have in life is completing uni. Everything else is bleak, I have no friends, no consistent projects, no redeeming hobbies or skills but at least I can still laugh at my own jokes

No. 1132994

>>1132980
me too anon I did the same thing like we have the same story and it's normal to feel this paranoid but believe me the odds of anyone finding the videos unless you become famous are very small. There are millions of those videos, nobody will find them. I promise that you are just being paranoid. Change your look up a bit in order to feel better, just change your hair color and style. Also, in the eventuality anyone finds out which is very unlikely unless you become famous or a public figure and even in that case half of people don't care because a lot of people are woke and the other half is actually people that are empathetic and understand if you talk to them. Believe me that you deserve to be loved and that if you keep a normal job absolutely nobody will find out! Your life is not over and in a sense you are a victim because this thing shouldn't be accessible to 18 year old girls that are confused about their life. I have videos like that from when I was 18 too and I was visibly unwell in them, I was high as fuck on benzos and suicidal but some scrotes keep posting them on the internet and in the eventuality anyone finds out I will speak the truth, that I was a groomed 18 year old girl in a super bad situation. Even if your story is not as dramatic as mine in a way you're still a victim to it. You deserve everything good in life and to be loved. Only someone like some right winger would judge or persecute you for it, the vast majority of population understands it and accepts it and even radfems have a lot of empathy towards girls that ended up in the industry since they understand how abusive it is.

No. 1132998

>>1132665
NTA, but not necessarily the lawyers fault. In some areas doctors and dentists are practically untouchable legally. Nevermind if they can find a reason to victim blame or hide behind "mistakes are human" and the hectic hospital environment. I feel like it's easier to sue insurance at this point. Even if you can do it yourself partially or get a professsor or colleague to help you for free, there's often jackshit you can do.

No. 1132999

>>1132994
>>1132987
Thank you, it's been about 3 years and no one has found them so far (that I know of), I'm just trying to take it day by day. I just feel so stupid for doing that, yeah I was in a bad situation but no one forced me, I voluntarily fucked up my own life and I have to live with that forever. But I guess at least what I did was harmless, I didn't hurt anyone else and it wasn't illegal. So things could always be worse I suppose.

No. 1133012

>>1132999
you don't have to be trafficked in order to become a victim of the sex industry as a woman, you didn't fuck up your life. We live in a very fucked up world for women, where sex work is promoted towards women and we can make accounts on porn sites at 18 which basically at 18 you are still a child or adolescent in your mentality. If the age of taking part in sex work would be raised to 25 half of the girls that do it wouldn't end up doing it because between 18-25 the biggest changes in your value system occur.

No. 1133014

>>1133012
samefag but I literally believe that if the age was raised to 25 years old not even girls like Belle Delphine would have ended up in SW

No. 1133022

>>1132999
I feel you, nonnie. I did that sort of stuff when I was under 18 and it has made me very paranoid of someone finding it out. Looking back, I can see how absolutely mentally disturbed I was, it's surprising no one noticed. I'm here with you. I feel so worthless sometimes, like my current self is just a facade, and the people who respect me would spit on me if they found out. It doesn't help that I live in a muslim country. But same as you, it's been many years and no one has found out. It just sucks that once it is out there, you cannot take it back. I relate to you, nonnie. Wish you the best of luck. Just accepting it and moving on with hopefully some lessons, that's all we can hope for. Take care!

No. 1133031

>>1133012
i agree that that age range is when a person goes through the most change however you cant simply say that a number limit will stop those people from doing it. those people are mentally damaged in a bad way (and yes you can be mentally damaged in a good way). its like telling a greedy person "only take the right amount" and they will ask well what about for next week or if they really humble down they say what about for tomorrow. more or less they get thrown into the mix regardless of limitation

No. 1133032

>>1132973
Damn it I wanted Wellbutrin so bad after my friend told me how it made her lose weight. Instead I just have Citalopram for my depression which made me fat and killed my sex drive, boo

No. 1133036

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Porn is literally good you fucking weirdos

No. 1133037

Never had an ED although I've always put too much pressure on being under X amount of weight and crucifying myself if I went above it.
Also have a very odd relationship with food because my parents would hit me if I didn't eat enough as a child and now I get autist anger if someone insists I eat more or serves me more food than I asked. As an adult, food and eating is so difficult due to my chronic stress and anxiety, that I just hate it at this point.
What does this all mean

No. 1133039

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>>1132247
that sucks so much, having to put up with her out of fear. it is so angering when they play the victim but even as a child you can see, she has a choice in the situation, but refuses to see it. my mother does the same sometimes, and used to complain to me as if she was the child. it always made me feel icky, and recently learned that is called emotional incest. did your mother do this child parentification thing? i can relate to having been her barbie, being dressed by her because reputation was so important.

i actually came to this thread to vent about her being weird again. i think my mother is anorexic and is comparing herself to everyone around her, including me.
>she never eats, or only a handful
>complains about headaches and being cold
"whaaat do you think this iiiis froooom?"
>i ask her if she ate, tell her maybe do that, and to put on a sweater
"ooOoh maaaybe i shouuuld doooo thaaaat. i only ate breakfast, oh-oh"
>anon, this clothing is too small for me, do you want it?
she asks me, while knowing i am bigger than her
>wanna go out to eat today anon?
she asks me, while knowing i am trying to lose weight and save money
>wants to take pictures with me only when i am looking my worst, messy hair and puffy cheeks, real just woke up look
>buys sweets she eats 2 pieces of
>leaves the rest for us
>when i ask her to go to the gym together, she always already went
>puts clothes that could sell in the donation pile
"oh, i could sell this, but, i don't want to bother"
>tries on her old clothes
"anon, come see, i used to wear this when i was your age"
i am a healthy weight but she makes me feel obese with this shit. and when i was underweight, she was always so scared i'm anorexic. what the hell is this mother doing. i am actually triggered and thinking of going ottermode and posting flexing pictures to make her seethe.

No. 1133040

>>1133036
You’re in the wrong place, newfag.

No. 1133041

>>1133036
>reposting hasan
kys

No. 1133045

>>1133040
Its a shitpost retard

No. 1133047

>>1132956
Avoid news anon. I dont watch the news channel or read anything about the news anymore. Ignorance is bliss

No. 1133048

>>1133036
Wow he’s such a champion for women and feminism everywhere

No. 1133049

>>1133045
Yeah, it is a pretty shit post. And not fit for the vent thread.

No. 1133050

Who the FUCK am I to be judging cows just because I'm ~self-aware~ while I can't get my shit together for so many years? Who the fuck am I to judge a cows choices(unless they harm someone) when mine are shitty too?

No. 1133057

It’s the middle of the night, I woke up feeling like total shit and rushed to the bathroom where I promptly threw up followed by diarrhea. Ahhhhhhh. At least I made it to the toilet. I think it’s over now and I’m starting to feel a little better but I have a ton of things I need to do tomorrow (well, today) and I just wanted to get good sleep. Why god why…..

No. 1133065

>>1133032
you could try talking to your psychiatrist about switching, maybe? bring up the bad side effects and what not
but seriously, this pill gives a really strange level of horny.. it doesn’t feel natural at all and it’s kinda exhausting/frightening

No. 1133068

>>1133057
This happens to me sometimes. Did you drink alcohol or eat like shit the day before? If not then maybe you have a lil bug. Usually I go back to sleep and wake up feeling fine. The puking gives a sort of endorphin affect afterwards I think? Then it’s just a complete release.

No. 1133085

>>1133050
You're a farmer.

No. 1133086

>>1133037
Sounds like your parents were fucking assholes

No. 1133089

I'm so tired of this waiting what the fuck. Anons WHY has it been almost 3 weeks since I made opened a new bank account in this new country and they have not sent me my actual card yet? Is this normal? It's driving me crazy because there's so much I need to get done but I can't because I have to wait for them to send me this shit in the mail. Why is it like this? Where I'm from it takes a week tops for you to go to the bank and pick up your card. But here everyone tells me "oh it's normal anon, that's just how it is" even though I thought something went wrong because they sent me a letter with the pin within a week, but now here I am weeks later still waiting for the actual card and other info. I keep thinking I should email the bank to ask them about this but every time I ask a different person here they just tell me that that's how long it takes

No. 1133093

>>1133089
Write to them anyway, you have nothing to lose. Or better yet call to inquire about the status of your card.

No. 1133098

>>1133089
Call them. Is this an Eastern European country by any chance?

No. 1133108

>>1133089
What did they tell you, when would it arrive?

No. 1133110

how the fuck do i make friends for real i hang out with many people but what even counts as a friendship the fuck, i want to hang out and comment on each others shit and create stuff together fuuuck maybe they think i am too serious

No. 1133113

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I'm most likely reading way too much into it, but the fact that incels claim women prefer to fuck dogs instead of "true nice guys" makes me read the comic in a very uncomfortable way.
This guy's comics haven't been funny in a long time anyway, but I have a hard time reading this punchline in any other way.

No. 1133114

>>1133093
Yeah I'm thinking I should just do that. Calling is better than sending an email because they would probably take days to answer that
>>1133098
Western Europe technically
>>1133108
When they confirmed that my account was successfully opened all it said was that I would receive my card and pin "in the coming days" by mail

No. 1133118

I'm losing my goddamn fucking mind. I'm eating as much as I possibly can without throwing up or being in pain, I get anywhere from 900 to 1600kcal a day, depending on how good my day is. I try to get enough protein and enough nutrients, I laze around a lot especially after the surgery. Yet I dropped another 2kg in 4 fucking days. End me. Or don't, I just don't want this anymore. I worked hard to become slightly overweight, which sounds weird, but see it was with good reason ffs. I lost over 20% of my bodyweight in 3-4 months. Everyday I'm not in the hospital or doing tests or something, I feel like I'm not moving towards the solution. I understand that everyone is tired of my shit. I can't work or do anything fun, my job is eating now and trying not to turn spoopy. At this rate I'll be underweight by next week.

No. 1133132

>>1133118
Can you get ahold of mass gainer protein drinks? That should have enough calories if you use it to supplement. It takes your body a considerable amount of effort to heal from some things, anon. You have to give it time.

No. 1133140

>>1133132
I'm already using those and the surgery didn't take away the problem which is causing my issues, was just exploratory because the tumor they saw on the scans couldn't be felt through the intestinal walls. I legit feel like I'm not absorbing anything and I'm deficient in all fat soluble vitamins. my stool looks radioactive with how bright yellow it is, despite eating mainly protein and carbs atm and barely any fat

No. 1133143

>>1133140
Then you have a pretty good reason to complain because there's no way that you don't feel terrible. Are they going to take care of the tumor or just let it sit pretty in there and make you malnourished?

No. 1133148

>>1133143
They planned the follow up MRI at the end of the month and I had to complain to get it to happen faster. It went from getting an emergency surgery to the scrote not being able to feel the tumor so just sewing me back up and sending me home the same day. With the MRI it should be clearer where exactly it is so it can be located and resected. I'm not completely blocked off, so like that's great, but that doesn't mean you can just wait forever with this shit. They didn't even give me detailed instructions for diet or whatever, or drinks to help, I'm just diy'ing it for now. I hate having such disgusting issues.

No. 1133152

>>1133148
Can you call the office and have them follow up? Stress the point that you didn't receive after-care instructions and that BMs are that color when you talk to the nurse. You can report them to insurance if they're being negligent.

No. 1133154

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>>1132232
One more Webp file and I snap!

No. 1133158

>>1133152
I messaged the surgeon directly on MyChart, he said at least they're going to do the MRI sooner. I did get after-care instructions, the generic ones for laparoscopic surgery. I asked the gastroenterologist several times for clear instructions on diet and what the fuck I can do to bridge this period, but she just gets annoyed. She just says "no raw vegetables or nuts" ok thanks but that doesn't solve the problem? When I tried to call the surgical policlinic, they just tell me to fuck off unless I have a high fever basically. Yeah if it keeps going like this, I'll talk to insurance. I get that they still have a backlog from the pandemic and I should feel lucky that I even got that emergency surgery, so many other people with cancer had to wait way longer than I did. That still doesn't exactly make me feel better because it's my life.

No. 1133168

>>1133152
samefag okay still no clear answer, but they did just call me that I can come by on Friday

No. 1133175

>>1133089
Well I just got an email from the bank saying they sent the card but my address was wrong so now the card has already been sent back and destroyed and I need to go in to talk to them about fixing my address then they can send me a new one so FUCK ME I guess

No. 1133176

I stepped out the house for five minutes and in those five minutes missed my amazon shipment. I am seething

No. 1133184

>>1133168
That's something at least. Probably nuts, seeds, anything like berries with little bits that might create issues with diverticulum. Raw vegetables make the digestive system have to work a lot harder, so they probably want you to avoid things that could cause a lot of gas or make a lot of work. Make sure they know about the poop. If you have to, take a picture. Note your calorie intake, what you're doing to increase it. Bring up the weight loss and any other problems. Write everything down in a little notepad, maybe even keep a food diary over the next few days. Ask them about the vitamins. You've gotta be your own advocate here. Fuck her impatient ass for being annoyed. She's being paid.

No. 1133201

>>1133184
I have a poop photo album on my phone at this point so wil bring that up, again. I've been logging nearly everything I ingest since 2011, when I first ended up at the ER for gut related problems and deficiencies. My parents were useless and clueless about their own shitty diet. I have a treasure trove of data really and managed to do well for a while by process of elimination. Dairy and meat were already nonos causing lots of pain, so I feel extremely restricted since I eat mainly wholefood plantbased. But now my body is just going way more haywire than I've ever experienced before and the intussuception+tumor are new. I'm taking omega 3, vitamin D3 (prescription), vitamin K and drinking 100ml carrot juice everyday for beta carotene. They honestly have no excuse.

No. 1133204

I'm seriously considering going back to college and have talked to about it with some people close to me(dad, bf etc) and its so weird how nonchalant/uncaring they seem about it despite being the same people who tell me how smart I am and should go back. It's almost like the dont actually want me to.

Like when they talk about it they hype it up but when I do everything is questioned or brushed off and seem not supportive.

No. 1133206

It's so sad to me how the grass is always greener on the other side, and how hard this world makes it for women to have confidence. I joined an online group of women off anon for the first time in a reaaaaally long time recently (thankfully it is a super small group for discussing a hobby that's hard for someone male bodied to get into so the group is actually all women.) Something I notice more and more each day is how many of the women there are so willing to disparage their own looks because they aren't the same height as someone else, because they have different hair, because of their nose shape or whatever. Everyone who has their own face for an icon or has posted pictures of herself has looked nice and they all have their own amazing unique attributes, but wish they could look like each other. I don't even love myself, so I get it, but I wish they could love themselves anyway because they deserve to. They are so kind and funny and smart, like even if they weren't already attractive there's so much more to life than looks anyway.

No. 1133208

I want to wear more skirts and dresses but apparently being fat means 90% of my options are the ugliest fucking patterns I've seen in my life.
I just want some neutral colors, is that too much to ask for?

No. 1133210

i have come to the conclusion that my boyfriend's mother is insane.
she has a tracking app on his phone, cameras inside their house (that she says she covers when i am over but who knows) and a bell on his bedroom door so she can hear when we go in and out of the room. also she has her bedroom door open so she can see when you walk by. once i got up to use the bathroom in the middle of the night and i didn't pull the handle all the way down on the toilet so it made a weird noise, and the next morning she confronted me about it and said i was up plunging the toilet because i clogged (even though i fucking wasn't and i didn't clog the stupid toilet, im just retarded. and she didn't believe me. it's so fucking stupid. she also nitpicks everything i do like how i eat my fucking yogurt and she has done this several times as if there isn't worse things in the world to be worrying about. of course she hides this all from my boyfriend and only says shit when he's not there, but at least he has been trying to get her to stop.

No. 1133213

I hate this shitty world that's been built. We've built a world that makes living as difficult as possible. As much red tape and arbitrary bullshit as a bureaucrat can manage to shove into any process to make it as in-human as possible. We could all be living prosperous, healthy lives, but instead people go into debt for broken limbs and avoid going to dentists because somehow the health of other human beings isn't as important as lining the pockets of individuals. Money is made up and valueless, I'm sick of everyone just putting up with this shit. When is there going to be a real revolution? Why were those Q anon losers angry about their choice not being elected instead of being angry about the fact that they are denied any respect or dignity by their own country or the world? People's priorities are all twisted and that's how governments prefer it, the more we fight amongst ourselves the easier it is for them to manipulate the economy in their favor. We have road blocks in everyone's way, you can't get education, you can't get health care, you can't get a good home unless you're extremely lucky, or already wealthy. People would rather step on and over each other than help each other, when helping each other would be easier and make a better world overall. People act like caring for each other and wanting everyone to be healthy and happy is some kind of weak, utopian ideal, instead of it being the fucking reality of the situation. That kind of world is 100% possible, but we can't have it because of a handful of mostly men who control everything and none of us have the guts to do anything about it. No one wants to organize anything, no one wants to put in effort for another person, everyone wants to be lazy and "comfortable" in their shit shacks and pretend that "this is just the way things work" instead of realizing that their life is shit, and they will die as miserably as they lived, while a few dozen people live as long as they can in fucking golden houses.

No. 1133215

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>>1133213
Will you marry me?

No. 1133216

>>1133208
If only there was some kind of a solution for this problem

No. 1133217

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>>1133215
Absolutely

No. 1133223

>>1133210
Does your bf know his mother is insane? Is he aware that he’s been/is being abused? This is so interesting.

No. 1133227

>>1133089
>>1133175
Samefag I'm still very upset about this but what annoys me the most is that this is pretty much my fault because if I had used my brain for 3 seconds I could've anticipated the address thing. But whatever at least I can hopefully have the card number now because they sent it, even if it might take a while for a new card

No. 1133234

>>1133039
Hi nonna, now that I'm thinking of it yeah she definitely did do a lot of that stuff to me although I'm not familiar with child parentification. I don't think she did it for that reason tbh but considering I was the only daughter I think she just wanted me to be exactly like her. She definitely dictated how I dressed and to her anger I was and always have been very much a tomboy most of the time. I remember her dressing me in stupid white trousers and very frilly feminine tops, uncomfortable sandals while on vacation, it was all very dolled up meanwhile my step brother was just allowed t-shirts and shorts. Looking back I was never afforded the comfort ability of just wearing some shorts and a shirt and enjoying my time on holiday, or just enjoying being comfortable in general. I missed out on a lot of natural childhood activities and getting dirty/messy because she taught me that my appearance and appearing like a fashionable girl was more important.
When I hit puberty she didn't teach me a single thing about the important bits: you know, consent and how various female things are normal and healthy etc. I was made to shave my armpits as soon as they grew, she had my nice long hair cut into this weird layered style because her hair was also layered, she would constantly make small remarks about my weight e.g oh you're so skinny it looks like you have a lollipop head.
Even to this day she still makes remarks about how I wear my hair in a middle parting- she says I suit it better in a side part, like it even fucking matters. It's just a lifetime of small little quips and comments that have also left me with low self esteem and because of her being a shit female role model I ended up being sunk into the internet and being absent of any intelligent female figure in my life.

In regards to your mom nonna I think all of what she's doing is very intentional. Just reading that sounds like she knows what she's doing and she places an uncomfortably high value in being skinny, as well as picking at your self esteem by constantly dropping in little hints at stuff even though you've already told her not to. My mom would do something similar where she would constantly pick at her own body - "oh I'm so fat, I have no hips my breasts are too big my stomach is too fat" directly in front of a young teenage me knowing I'd pick up on those insecurities and now I'm convinced I have no hips and I'm built like a fridge kek. Moms like ours never really do this shit by accident, everything is calculated and has some sort of directed bite behind it towards us even if they want to put on the happy mother facade for other people. Unfortunately the only way to escape it is to move out, which is unfortunately becoming harder and harder to do these days.

No. 1133236

>>1133223
he realizes that she is overbearing… but since he is an only child and his mother tends to talk shit about how other parents raised their children, he doesn't understand the extent that it goes. i have tried to gently explain how it's too much, without offending him since it's his own mother but when he confronts her, she doesn't tend to tell the whole truth. the thing is he is super responsible and does not smoke or do drugs which is rare if you are in university, but she doesn't trust me and often relates me to his crazy ex girlfriend which she constantly brings up in front of me. he has told her to stop doing that as we both hate it and feel disrespected but she doesn't fucking get it. i don't blame him for not understanding the situation completely, because he will notice when she does something like that and tell her to basically fuck off. but it is so constant and she never stops talking or nitpicking about other peoples lives that i think it's hard to see it's not normal

No. 1133253

I want to kill myself. I never had anything in my life but misfortune and suffering I don't even want to die. I've wanted to live more than anyone else and always fought against my circumstances but I just can't anymore. I have literally nothing in my life and no satisfaction and it's impossible for me to get to a point in my life where I will be at least a little bit content with life. I hate circumstances. I hate life. Having to work sucks out my soul and the timeline we are living in is hellish

No. 1133256

>>1133253
if you're at this point, you'd might as well go into debt and enjoy yourself tbh
if you don't have kids, honestly, what's the worst that could happen? you already wanna kill yourself, you can't feel any worse, can you? buy some stupid shit and have a good time while it lasts, that would be better than never enjoying anything at all

No. 1133264

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Knowing that the vast majority of my lifetime's suffering may have been potentially (and probably) down to undiagnosed autism is making me really upset.
On one hand, I am grateful to finally find out in my mid-20s that yes autism is just as common in women and we deserve to get support even if we don't fit the mold of raging porn-addicted moid autists. I've yet to speak to a doctor about this, but I want to make a solid case and not just have my thoughts or questions shrugged off like they have been all my life aka "hurhur you're just depressed is it your menstrual cycle are you on birth control maybe its just your personality" literally kill yourself.
On the other hand, I'm so so fucking angry for feeling like this is just "who I am" as one doctor once told me - in regards to not feeling emotions for months throughout my teens and then suddenly having serious mental breakdowns, to having a lifetime of sensory sensitivities and feeling overstimulated when other people seem chilled out, to CONSTANTLY feeling alienated or that I will never "fit in" because my brain overanalyzes, overthinks and makes me over-emotional compared to other people who can seemingly handle everyday tasks with ease. Having alone time and being in my room playing games or creating story scenarios was heaven on earth for me - at the time I felt like a fucking weirdo, but now I understand it.

Ever since I was old enough to realise and mimic social hierarchies and how girls "have it different", I have felt like a fucking loser who just wasn't on the same wavelength - I hung around with popular girls to mimic and try and feel empowered and like I was hot shit, and it didn't work. I hung around with nerdy boys/boys in general and I constantly felt like I was out of the loop especially in regards to how sexual they were and how open they were about sex. I didn't even fucking understand, feel anything, and genuinely feared sex until my current bf - before that I'd just do it because it was expected of me which led me into some disgusting "kinky" and downright non-consent situations. I wish I could go back and redo that, I wish I could tell myself it's okay to not fit into friend groups, that I should wait until I'm comfortable to have sex and boyfriends, and that it's okay to not understand any of this shit because chances are I'm on the spectrum. There were no "girls on the spectrum" even back in the late 2000s, you just didn't hear of that shit so you were either an outgoing girl who always had boyfriends and had sex at an early age, or you were just deemed a weirdo like me.

Literally the ONLY time I managed to convince myself I might be normal was in university when I mimicked so hard and essentially forced myself to become this "bad bitch" persona (yes cringe I know). It was the only time I could get shit done and even then I would have some sort of sperg burnout and have regular meltdowns especially over the sexual abuse from my previous relationship.
And you know what, maybe getting diagnosed wouldn't have changed anything, but at least someone would have heard me and understood that something was wrong with me that wasn't just "being a teen girl/being on your period/being depressed because boyfriend". Maybe having a concrete name to my struggles would have helped me embrace and become comfortable with my retarded self, or find communities with other women and girls like me.

I have spent so long trying to cover up how I really feel, trying to cover up how fucking impossible it feels for me to do basic things like drive a car or even go to the store sometimes without feeling overstimulated or overloaded with emotions and complex thoughts. I haven't even touched the car in almost 2 years because I know that I will panic, get overstimulated by the ongoings of a busy town, and just fucking do something stupid that I can't afford to fix. The worst thing is people in my family knew about some of my sensory weird shit, my strange behaviour and mental health, the way I seemed naïve to social scenarios, and they did NOTHING. I am absolutely willing to bet that if I was a boy instead, they would have either tried to get me diagnosed for something or even got me to a doctors in the first place. No, nothing, I was left to internalise all of this shit and it has made me the most anxious introspective person ever - not literally I guess, but every day is another day of endlessly complex thoughts and feeling like yet again, I'm looking from the outside and cringing at every social interaction I make and inevitably fail at unless It's extremely rehearsed and scripted in my head beforehand. Fuck this.

No. 1133273

>>1133256
I cannot. They only give you money if you are employed and Im not employed.

No. 1133274

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It’s so frustrating and embarrassing that I have to ask for crumbs on a stupid fucking assignment for class.

>i have nothing else to do pls let me do this


When I need a good grade so I can pass. I absolutely hate being a woman, everyone expects you to be outward and friendly like damn I’m gonna be honest with you I’m legit too physically tired from possible chronic fatigue and anemia I legit can’t advocate for myself sometimes. It’s all so tiresome yes I know whine, whine, whine that’s all I do, I’m not likeable but how many times am I gonna experience deja vu of being excluded from things?

No. 1133275

>>1133256
based nonners, good point. enjoy as much shit as possible this world is hellbent in taking things from people

No. 1133276

I never got rewarded for my work or for my knowledge or for anything that I have ever done. I just see others rewarded for doing less than me. I'm never liked or loved and everything in my life has literally been hellish, my circumstances. I cannot imagine myself living a life of frustration where I cannot even express myself. I cannot even fully express the real extent on my thoughts. I wish I had money so that I could go to therapy and improve and just relax for once but I'm too broken to even work or secure resources to get help. It's just a never ending cycle of agony and I never chose it, it chose me. I hope to get saved. I literally want a scrote to save me.

No. 1133278

>>1133253
what other anon said enjoy as much shit as possible. i’m not going to tell you a lie that things get better because you will never know until it happens, people’s lives are bad but they usually get worse out of things of their control. i’m not saying you should take your life because you said you want to live but if it really gets to that point, i don’t blame you. rest easy or embrace the absurdism, ily anon please stay safe take care of yourself don’t do stupid shit

No. 1133279

>>1133276
>I literally want a scrote to save me

sigh, me too anon, me too

No. 1133283

>>1133275
I think they've thought this out the banks because if you have a history of mental health issues and stuff like that and are a NEET which I currently am they won't give it to you.

>>1133275
if I say I want to get things from others people will consider me a narc but the world never gave me anything. Life is fucking unfair and we are continously exploiting one another.

I wish I could get money from scrotes and moids but I don't wanna do sex work and although I am beautiful I'm very bad at getting scrotes to give me.money since I'm not someone ideologized. Scrotes will only give you money if you are a walking stereotype of the woman they idealized but my thinking system is very nuanced and complex. I cannot do the internet grift, it's as soul sucking as a normal job and you can only do it if you are a brainlet, you have to fit.into this really strict niche and pander to a very specific audience. I.cannot.do that.

>>1133278
thanks. I want to get a YouTube channel but I come across as a retard I cannot.even fully express my thoughts. I want to talk to doomer people and just tell the entire world how circumstances literally make up your life and successful people were given the circumstances to succeed. My life is so fucking frustrating.

No. 1133289

I wish I could be a happy npc who goes along with the sjw claptrap but I just can't get into it, especially after a decade of conservatism. I probably could've had a diversity commissar job or something too.

No. 1133294

I got my earlobes repierced and the retarded moid got them asymmetric. Idk what to do now, I think getting them repierced would be retarded and that not many people would notice but I'm annoyed.

No. 1133300

I go on one day without binging/start eating normal meals and I wake up in the middle to devour the whole fucking banana hand. There were like 6 maybe even 7 bananas. I woke up to a damn murder scene on the counter with peels everywhere. Why am I like this?

No. 1133303

>>1133300
>banana hand
im sorry anon but this is adorable, what language do you speak where you call it a banana hand (burgerfags call it a banana bunch)

No. 1133304

it is so fucking laughable to me that men think they're stoic masters who can handle their frustrations in a noble way. ive never met a man who could handle even minor problems without chimping the fuck out. they cause their own issues by not paying attention and its like they cant possibly understand how they are the source of their own problems. yes, you idiot, your blanket is all fucked up because YOU didnt pay attention and now YOU are so frustrated you want to cry and rage because YOU werent careful. they are always looking to blame someone else, usually the nearest woman. and then they turn around and pat themselves on the back for what great organizers and good men they are. delusional retards.

No. 1133305

These emergency alerts are pissing me the fuck off!!!

No. 1133317

>>1133283
you should go for it, there’s absolutely nothing to lose do you see the types of people getting tons of views on youtube nowadays kek? you can use it as an outlet to vent about your issues or try to relate to others, there are lots of people out there who will probably want to hear what you say

No. 1133319

I've gotten so fat over the last two years from depression, I'm trying to do the same easy exercise routines I did before the pandemic and I'm fucking winded. I almost feel like I gained too much and it's hopeless and can't turn back

No. 1133325

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>>1133303
i am esl so i googled it. i don't think we have a name for it in my language

No. 1133326

>>1133319
Slow and steady wins the race! Go at your own pace. You can do it anon, I believe in you.

No. 1133327

> Women don't feel safe walking the streets in daylight after a series of events: God stop making a big deal out of nothing.

> Gays don't feel safe meeting up with strangers of off Grindr: omg the whole country has to change and now. We must unite! We don't want trans people to start gettng attacked next. I mean someone please think of the potential risk to trans people.


I'm already fed up of overhearing this shit. My day can't end quick enough.

No. 1133328

>>1133317
I can't because I did camming and people will find out the videos and harass me and I kind of hate the internet and it's full of sociopaths and if you are in a bad situation people will literally prey on you if you end up being on the internet plus you have to be a brainlet that fits in an ideological niche and panders to get anything out of it plus I have non conventional.opinions. There's truly no escape for me, I just don't have anything in my life, love, respect, a creative outlet, money. There is nothing and I've never had nothing and my life has always been hellish and everytime I try to do something it backfires on me

No. 1133329

>>1133327
Men think everything bad is worse when it happens to men.

No. 1133330

>>1133300
Reminds me of a ChubbyEmu video, the music started playing in my head, hyperkalemia meaning high potassium presence in blood tututu
>>1133256
>>1133275
>>1133278
It makes me happy that there are so many based nonnies.
>>1133304
I realized how high my pain tolerance is compared to scrotes recently. They absolutely whine way way more than women and usually are the cause of their own problems. Women end up in the hospital despite all efforts not to, meanwhile scrotes go twice in one month because they cannot put down the bottle. Though they will blame everyone and everything, but not their obvious bad habits. I hate that whiny scrotes with bad habits take up hospital beds, while also pretending to be stoic masterminds.

No. 1133332

>>1133317
samefag but you literally have to be narc to make it these days and I cannot be like that. If you aren't one people will exploit you

No. 1133334

I hope my dream scrote saves me and treats me like a princess at this point.

No. 1133335

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>>1133326
Thank you nonnie, I won't give up

No. 1133337

I rarely post on social media anymore but sometimes when I want to post something positive I'm paranoid that it comes off as a narcissistic brag and I cringe.
Like I know true friends would be happy for me or at least humor me if they thought it was ott, I just don't like giving possible frenemies ammo. Sometimes anons here will post something someone said talking positively about their life (granted it isn't a gross exaggeration or total bullshit) and talk negatively about them for it. I think to myself, gee, I wonder how many people are secretly as harsh towards me and want to see me fail? I'm not a cow but I also know I'm not everyone's cuppa. I pick up that vibe. I feel like even though I've never done anything blatantly wrong to many people they want to use that one little thing as the straw to break the camel's back to talk their shit. It frankly happened to me in school. I was bullied and when I retaliated against my bully, others bought the bully's sudden victim story and used it as an excuse to shit on me for having been mean or whatever even though I never did anything to them personally–same people later discarded the bully when the bully wasn't useful to torment me anymore. Ditto when something good would happen and they acted jealous, cause how could someone like me have possibly achieved or deserved it? I'm not bitching about the principle of being liked by everyone cause idgaf, it just bothers me that everything is a constant spin towards negative for some people. Like I can admit that sometimes shitty people can do something good so why can't regular people just gas themselves up if it's not hurting anybody?

No. 1133339

>>1133327
The way society treats women going through disgusting unacceptable shit as almost our "rite of passage" of girlhood/womanhood is pure evil. I've been told I'm overreacting because I feel uncomfortable walking to the gym when it's still dark in the early morning or during the evening - again, because I'm a woman.
Yet I bet if I was a troon and told people I'm scared of doing xyz they would fawn over me as if I'm some delicate oppressed piece of fragile porcelain. It's fucked up. Women are expected to face sex-based violence and oppression head on and just get over it like it's nothing but trannies can force their way through ANY space they want and everyone has to applaud them for being brave. Misogyny plain and simple.

No. 1133363

I wish whoever at Disney decided to shut down Club Penguin Rewritten a very painful suicide.

No. 1133373

>>1133363
My blood is boiling right now nonnie

No. 1133375

>>1133319
don't give up nonnie! you are doing amazing just doing the exercises, don't push yourself too hard! i'm proud of you!

No. 1133379

>>1133319
You can do it! I lost 60lbs in less than a year. The beginning is the hardest. Focus on cutting sugar beverages and drink lots of water. Make sure you’re getting your vitamins and if you can try taking a walk or two every day. The steps help. Don’t give up. The first month or two I felt the same and now I’m the fit friend. You can do it!

No. 1133382

>>1133373
Disney is FUCKING STUPID and they KNOW IT. They ruined Club Penguin with their vile Disney touch, shut the game down, remade it as a disgusting soulless 3d cashgrab app, and then when dedicated fans revived Club Penguin as it was before Disney destroyed it they shit their pants in jealousy.

No. 1133383

saw a news story about a woman from my country (australia) who flew to america to support johnny depp. all i could think was that she is a stupid bitch. an absolute dumb shit. no man alive would support her half as much in anything, especially not johnny depp. women who support johnny depp are brain dead and i have no problem admitting that i think i’m better than them

No. 1133395

>>1133319
I was a true fatass a year ago, lost 60kg just by eating every 3-4h and not eating any junk, good luck nona, you can do it!

No. 1133404

I just failed the most important exam of my life. I won't graduate with the rest of my class. I'm not done with my Master. I just want out. I knew I was going to fail. I knew it. I haven't been able to eat for the past 24 hours because I knew the fuck up was coming. I can't stop crying. I'm such a fucking idiot. I don't want to redo it I just want to be fucking done. Please God give me the lowest passing grade please please I don't deserve it but please….

No. 1133407

>>1133404
It sounds like you haven’t got the result yet? Unless you can submit some mitigating circumstances evidence after the fact (some institutions are good with stuff like that, especially now!) then it’s largely out of your control til you get the grade back. If you can speak to someone like a tutor, great. If not, you can either worry yourself sick or try to focus on the present moment and take care of yourself one step at a time. Don’t beat yourself up. It’s been a shitty couple of years and we all fail sometimes. I know it’s easier said than done but try be kind to yourself, connect with a friend or professional, and when you’re ready start thinking about practically what happens next. I hope you pass or that you can resit the exam if you need to. It’s okay to finish the race at a different time to other people. Get yourself your favourite snack and see if you can eat, it sounds like you need and deserve it. I’m partial to an iced latte in times like this.

No. 1133417

I started my period a few days early which is fine but now I'm cramping at work and it's making me feel so nauseous. The cramps aren't even that bad either, I feel like such a baby that my body is reacting this way.

No. 1133440

>>1133325
Kek that file name is perfect anon

No. 1133446

>>1133417
I'm the opposite, my period is irregular, and it's supposed to come in 2 days and now I'm stressing if it's going to come at all

No. 1133448

>>1132569
>>1132586
around 29 people were injured..

No. 1133462

>>1133446
It'll come anon! Manifesting it for you (if that's what you want).

No. 1133473

I used to be a poorfag before I got my high-paying career and I still have frugal poorfag mentality. I bought an older home that needs (mostly foundation) repairs after a decade of neglected maintenance but I can’t help but freak out over every single thing. I don’t have debt and I absolutely can afford the repairs - if not all at once, then over the next 3-5 years. I don’t have kids, I don’t have any burning desire to travel, my 401K contribution is maxed, I keep enough saved to buy a new car if mine dies. There’s nothing else for me to spend my money on, and I think that putting money into this house probably qualifies as a responsible financial decision. It’s my dream home except for the state it’s located in, but I’m still probably not going to stay here for more than 3 years just based on my career trajectory. So there’s just a million factors that make me ambivalent towards it and every day there’s a new crack in or on this house that just makes my anxiety skyrocket. Every paycheck I get is twice as much money as I ever had in my first 25 years alive and still I feel like spending money is bad and makes me a bad person.

I don’t have this anxiety when it comes to my cat btw. I spend like $500 a month on my cat for his health issues. I got this career for my cat. I would empty my savings for him in a heartbeat and I wouldn’t give a fuck what anyone thought of it. But for literally anything else if I have to spend more than $200 at once I feel like I’m going to hurl.

No. 1133475

>>1133473
Just practice being in the moment. And well done for making it this far! You are wealthy and you did it yourself, you should feel proud.

No. 1133476

My eyeballs legit feel fried from sitting in front of the computer all day long

No. 1133483

>>1133476
Me too anon. If you have to look at screens for work, consider eye drops and looking away every now and then (every 20 or so minutes would be ideal) for a few seconds. Also use blue light remover apps or dimmerers if you stare at screens at night or in the dark.

No. 1133486

>>1133473
I know what you mean nonnie. Think of your home repairs as an investment. If and when you sell the house, you can ask for a higher amount if you repaired everything than if you were selling it with repairs needed.

Keep up your current habits though. Don't force yourself to spend money for the sake of spending money. Do things you really want to do, appreciate, or that would increase your quality of life. If you can't think of anything consider putting that money into a brokerage or some other investment account instead.

No. 1133487

>>1133473
damn what did you major in, that sounds awesome anon
i think you'll have an easier time spending as time passes and you're more used to being wealthy

No. 1133498

>>1133473
Take care of the repairs because they will get worse and end up much more costly.

No. 1133502

>>1133327
The biggest association i have with sexism is the fact guys can go to a party, get black out drunk and have a penis in sharpie on their head. Women have to hover over their drinks and plan for ABC scenarios, while having a knife or taser in case a man attacks them.

It stopped me from attending a lot of events i would have otherwise gone to because life is literally more dangerous for women.Even simple shit.

No. 1133506

>>1133487
I got my degree in physics but pivoted to software engineering for my career. I’m catching up on a lot of lost time because I was a depressed NEET for four years after I graduated. Those years are part of why there’s a voice in the back of my head that says I should feel bad for spending money on idfk. Brand-name toilet paper. Let alone tens of thousands of dollars on foundation repair.

No. 1133516

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The prog discord server I'm in found my vent posts on this website and kicked me out, they think it's 4chan feeling quite sad there was one person there I liked, she posted Chris Squire everyday and the love for Chris Squire was cute and admirable
Kind of funny, I guess it means one of them browses this site and pretends it's 4chan even though the UI looks a lot different from 4chan (imo)
That's what they get though for giving themselves eating disorders over 70's prog musicians that shit is more embarrassing than
>21 and on 4chan
Imagine being 21 and trans
Does this mean I have to like, change my Discord handle and pfp? Do you think people are that vendetta obsessed?

No. 1133521

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>>1133516
mfw they will probably see this too, cant have shit in detroit

No. 1133527

>>1133516
How did they know it's you from an anonymous image board?

No. 1133530

I got dermal fillers for my tear troughs and never had a bad reaction before this time back in Feb. Suddenly I have awful fucking pain and have had it for almost 1.5 weeks now. My doctor played around but they've been dissolving multiple times and I still have pain. I have no idea what's wrong with my face, but no doctor here will do a CT scan yet. I keep getting asked at doctor's oh how much did you pay for that? Seemed like it was a bad idea. IDFC right now I'm in pain and I'm trying to figure out why. Maybe the fillers aren't the cause if you fuckers would help me figure out another potential reason. I hate my life.

No. 1133531

I'm trying to "put myself out there" and do things I like, but I find I just have pensioner tastes. Every thing I try there's just a bunch of old people around. They're cool but I feel like I'm too young to be semi retired lmao

But it's like, these are the things I like so what else can I do?

No. 1133536

>>1133527
I guess the subject was niche enough, what makes me wonder is whether or not this imageboard has become too mainstream to normies who for some reason think it's 4chan. Maybe the Tumblr account that posts screenshots is partly to blame. Maybe I should reserve sperging for CC or something. Is Lainchan good?

No. 1133541

>>1133530
Where is it painful exactly? And have you been experiencing vision problems since the injection by any chance?

No. 1133543

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>>1133541
Not too many vision problems. It hurts to focus on stuff because of the pain sometimes. The last injection to dissolve hurt so bad I was seeing black floaters after it, but they went away. I've had 3 different eye exams so I guess everything is okay there. Also I've had the pain since 1.5 months I typed that incorrectly. All the pain is near the sinuses, oribtal area, or my temples. Granted it has become better since dissolving, but I'm afraid I now have chronic pain because of this last treatment. They think it's related to the COVID booster. ERs won't do shit for me. I have an ENT appointment next month, so maybe I'll get a CT scan through them? I'm so over it and depressed.

No. 1133551

This week I had finally the courage to make the call to the doctor. Said doctor is currently on vacation because it's school holidays, makes a call to another nearby doctor, is there but will be also on vacation for the next two weeks, so appointment would be by the end of this month. The replacement doctor offices are in another town or are full so no appointment currently possible. Checking other doctors and they are also on vacation. So I guess I will have to sit and wait until the holidays are over and everybody is back in order to get shit checked that had me worried and I hate it.

No. 1133569

My dad overheard me venting to my sister on the phone about my abusive neglected childhood and blah blah blah, the reason i vent about it is because it was eating at me for months now i feel absolutely guilty and unsure of what happened to this day and question my identity because of those years and this old fart told came up to me accusing me of being a victim.. i literally never complained to anyone or hurt anyone and i hate how his words are affecting me right now

No. 1133580

how the fuck am i supposed to get a job if i’m taking 15 credits?? why does my brother, who didnt go to college, thinks he knows more about it than i do????
i refuse to burn myself out fuck you

No. 1133587

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No. 1133606

I have pinworms. Already wet dusted and disinfected all surfaces, vaccuumed and mopped, changed my sheets, lysoled my life, throwing my used clothes directly in the washer, took some of that OTC pinworm medicine, ate a spoonful of garlic, and I'm still hating my life. You don't know pain til you find worms the width of a hair in your butt and vagina. Please wash your hands carefully before you touch your mouth. I'm a clean freak that washes my hands multiple times a day and uses a nail brush yet I still got pinworms. The urgent care doc seemed weirded out and kept asking if I hang out with kids. I felt bad about myself. Guess I am just a dirty hoe

No. 1133642

>>1133068
AYRT, I hadn't been drinking or eaten anything out of the ordinary for me. I fell right back asleep and woke up feeling totally normal so I have no idea what it was but whatever, I won't complain.

No. 1133647

I don't think I'll ever find a place where I feel like I belong. I'm always out of place whether it's irl or even online. I genuinely feel like an alien.

No. 1133664

>>1133647
where can aliens like us find each other? maybe many people feel like aliens but they try to blend in and they look like they belong to others.

No. 1133694

just found out my bfs reddit account and saw his posting history where he pretends he's not in a relationship (we've been dating for 3 years now), talks about how he doesn't want to get married (he's told me he wants to marry me) and basically acts like he's single. I'm going to confront him later today and break up but I'm so hurt right now.

I feel like every guy I meet is a fucking douchebag. They're all assholes or cheaters. I purposely go after very different guys every time (your stereotypical gym bro to super shy guys to guys that are huge nerds literally everything in between) and EVERY SINGLE TIME they are either complete and utter assholes, we're talking about extreme sexism or physically abusive/controlling, OR they're cheating scumbags. Off the top of my head there was maybe 1 ex I could say that didn't fit into those categories but we broke it off because we were in different stages in our lives. I don't even want to bother meeting guys on OLD, because half the time they're pretending to be single but have gfs that they're hiding from.

Part of me thinks it has to be my fault, finding these trash dudes because I'm the common factor but I swear, I go to therapy, I talk to my girl friends, I'm proactive about shit and I vet. Am I really just that unlucky? Are most guys really just THAT awful? I must be missing something here.

No. 1133700

>>1133647
From one space alien to another, I promise you will find a place where you feel like you belong. It just might take a little while, please be patient anon.

No. 1133704

>>1133694
That sucks and I hope you leave him. But don't mention knowing his reddit account just break up with him when u can nonny. otherwise he'll get rid of it and lowers chance other women can find it. Do your friends have good boyfriends or give good dating advice?

No. 1133709

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I'm a retard who always has a billion fucking tabs open and always keeps them by restoring previous session after I turn on the computer and open the browser, but today my computer was being weird and kept turning off and after waiting a bit and turning it back on it's staying on, but imagine the despair I felt when I didn't have the option to restore previous session. I know I'm a dumbass for keeping like a 100+ tabs open all the time but some of the tabs had stuff I really wanted to go back to.

No. 1133711

>>1133473
invest in the house, it's where your cat lives. give that kitty a home with a good foundation!

No. 1133713

>>1133709
Can't you just like, check your browser history?

No. 1133715

>>1133704
im 100% going to leave him. I've been cheated on before and I know the signs and I'm never letting something like that happen again. But yeah good advice, I'm not gunna bring up the reddit account. But then he's going to wonder why I want to break up out of no where…

One of my friends is married, and they're an adorable couple. Another friend of mine just recently broke it off with her ex but he was garbage and abusive. All my other friends are either just recently dating or single. Their advice is great, but I have trouble with it some times because I'm a huge gamer and none of them play any video games, so they don't understand the whole 'gaming date' thing and think it's a waste of time. Maybe it's because I usually only go for guys who also game? That's like, the only common thing between all the guys I've dated lol

No. 1133716

>>1133473
I'm proud of you anon

No. 1133726

>>1133713
Lol that's what I normally do. I use Firefox and under history there's usually the option to restore previous session, but this time there wasn't. I could restore some of them by looking at the recent history but most of the tabs I want back are ones I haven't looked at in a bit, so it's not feasible. Anyway I've already accepted my fate, this isn't the first time something like this has happened kek, I always go through the cycle of amassing a retarded amount of tabs and then suddenly not being able to restore them so I start anew.

No. 1133735

>>1133709
idk if firefox has an equivalent but chrome has an extension called Session Buddy that saves tabs plus has options to back them up

No. 1133751

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Depression. That is all

No. 1133759

i'm going to make something of myself and i wont have to ask my family for anything ever again

No. 1133761

Why do children make everything so fucking sticky? Why are their hands always dirty and gross? I swear no surface is safe from them, I can't do this anymore. Nothing is worse than unexpectedly touching something that ends up being sticky. Makes me want to crawl out of my skin.

No. 1133765

So sick of looking for a job and getting no calls back. If it wasn't for my dad helping me, I'd be homeless.

No. 1133767

I'm dating a guy I really like and he is into me a lot too. Sex is amazing, we cuddle and talk a lot. But when I come home I get sad and even cry sometimes because it's just too good to be true

Intimacy is scary

No. 1133788

I hate whenever your period is ending and there is brown discharge. Mine always starts brown, turns red, then ends brown. It just makes me feel gross like im wiping nasty shit off my cooch.

No. 1133794

>>1133767
Be brave and lucid anon, don’t let your fear sabotage!
>>1133788
I’m the opposite. I get so alarmed when it comes out bright red like I ruptured something and hemorrhaging lol

No. 1133796

dunno if i'm kanye type crazy or just certain that i can achieve anything i want

No. 1133797

>>1133788
This is so crazy I am literally dealing with this today and was thinking the exact same thing

No. 1133808

>>1133788
Same, this shit is annoying. It just feels like extra days to your period.

No. 1133822

Holy shit it's warm enough outside now that I can't wear a jacket, but despite having lived for almost 24 years I always forget what the fuck I'm supposed to do with my hands when I'm walking outside and can't put my hands in my jacket pocket?? I feel like a fucking npc just walking around with my hands out. I was initially planning to walk for half an hour and cut it short and went back inside because walking with my arms out like that is excruciating. I forget how I adjusted to it last spring.

No. 1133827

>>1133822
A potential tip, go on one of those walking tour youtube videos where someone goes through a city, you can study what other people do with their hands. That said, maybe just use your phone or swing your arms in a casual way.

No. 1133829

I wish I had friends. Friends that are excited to talk to me. Friends that are excited to go out. Friends that think of me. Friends that I don't feel a burden to.

No. 1133830

>>1133822
Pants pockets

No. 1133836

The npc arm thing reminds me of the fact that I used to have a big tumor and whenever I walked, I felt better when having a hand over it even if it was psychological. No tumor anymore, scars yes, but what the fuck do I do with my hand now? I've managed to hold onto my bag but I always keep finding it over the goddamn scar now, looks like I'm one of those pregnant ladies who constantly touch their bump

No. 1133873

>>1133065
either buy an assortment of those clit suction things (i like my basic bitch rose toy) or find a scrote with matching sex drive / stamina

No. 1133882

I am so tired of having to pretend as if I care about "woke" shit at work. an AGP came to my work today wearing a tight sports bra and leggings showing his buldge and I had to service him only to find out he was a speaker at a professional speaking event we were having. it makes me so mad that trannys can get away with stuff like this. If a woman wore that type of outfit to a professional event she would immediately be removed. and of course all my co workers thought he was so brave and used she/her pronouns. Literally a hulking 6'4 muscular man with a cock buldge in women's workout clothing. I can't believe I had to talk to this freak as if he was a woman. I sort of had a feeling one of my co workers was secretly a terf but after today I don't know anymore.

No. 1133894

I wish there was someone close to my age at my job. I’m the youngest. It’s not even a couple of years difference either, for some it’s decades. One woman has a kid that is the same age as me. One is married with a house and a kid in elementary school. They’re just in different stages of life, and normies too. I can’t relate to them at all and it’s awkward. One even told me she doesn’t really know how to speak to people younger than her. I don’t really go anywhere outside of work so I wish I could just make friends where it’s most convenient.

No. 1133897

>>1133873
u see, i WOULD get the rose but my clit has like zero feeling at this point

No. 1133905

>>1133897
Not if I bite it

No. 1133906

>>1133905
Nta, but I actually gasped when I read this kek

No. 1133907

>>1133715
What types of games do all of the guys you have dated play?
My ex was a cheating asshole too and similar to your situation, had sort of a “double life” online that excluded me. I found out on through an MMORPG we played together (I “followed” him one day and caught him) and a TikTok account (that I didn’t know he had and found through some searching).
I avoid all scrotes that play video games. It seems to be a common red flag for other issues. Which sucks, because I like horror and puzzle games (think RE and Clocktower). Gaming scrotes are usually big misogynists and narcissists. Often pornsick too, since there seems to be some sort of triad between porn, anime, and games.

No. 1133912

>>1133606
why did you go to urgent care? in my country over the counter medication is readily available

No. 1133916

What does it mean if you almost always feel (need to feel?) like you can't stand someone before you begin to truly like them?

No. 1133918

There's a cat my new neighbor owns but lets roam free every single day. I ordered chipotle but the guy accidentally delivered to the neighbor next door. the cat was almost climbing into my bag by the time i got to it. I'm extremely allergic to cats. i dunno if i should leave a note or what , but this shit is infuriating.. keep your cat indoors

No. 1133924

>>1133907
It’s the being shut in and socially disconnected. It’s harder to find but you need the shy socially repressed ones. They exist. They just aren’t going to be in places you can talk to them and they come with their own set of challenges.

No. 1133927

>>1133918
Unwanted animals in your presence are annoying. Have you ever talked to your neighbor face to face?

No. 1133937

>>1133897
it's matching scrote then (sorry nonny)

No. 1133942

I get very effected by bad news, crime, etc. Couple that with being depressed today and it feels like I am deflating. Hopefully working helps instead. There's also my bro who cheers me up but I simultaneously feel sick at the thought of anything happening to him. I'll try to replace it with gratitude that he's ok.

No. 1133944

I swear to god, my mom always has something to bitch about. Like shut the fuck up for once. Even my dad complains that she talks too goddamn much and how her mouth is always blabbering about stupid shit.

No. 1133948

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>Tfw floss too hard and hurt my gums

No. 1133949

>>1133948
Samefag, nvm it wasn't blood. Just my chapstick.

No. 1133957

my mom wonders why i dont let her see me when i dress up nice but every time she sees me dressing in more than just pajamas or jeans and a t-shirt she insults me. one time that really sticks out to me is she said i looked like a prostitute and she was embarrassed to be seen in public with me when i was 15 for wearing plain black pantyhose with a mid-length skirt, literally not provocative in the slightest. she will without fail tell me my shoes are the "ugliest shoes she's ever seen in her entire life" literally every single shoe i wear that isn't plain black sneakers.

AND SHE FUCKING WONDERS WHY I HATE MYSELF AND THINK IM UGLY LOL

No. 1133959

Oh thank god my fucking idiot dad stopped putting up a fight and I can call the bedbug guys back. I'm so fucked for my expenses next month because I'm going to a con too so the cost of the extermination on top of con expenses… ugh. I can afford it all but it just digs into the cushion I like to set for myself. I wanted to buy stocks next month too because Amazon is having a stock split!!!

No. 1133963

>>1133959
I hope you can find some relief soon bedbug nonna. I'm glad that your dad is being more cooperative. I was struggling with bedbugs too, but I've almost completely gotten rid of them.
I patiently await the day you can tell us that you finally wiped out the bed bugs, and I hope you can buy your stocks!

No. 1133968

FUCK Why didn't I get more ricotta when I was at the store!

No. 1133972

>>1133963
Thank you so much nonna. I was crying and suicidal a couple of months ago out of frustration of dealing with them and my uncooperative dad, but things have cooled off and now it's just a slow and bumpy uphill ride… but at least it's going uphill!

I bitch so much about my bedbug problem here kek. Bedbugs are awful and I really wouldn't wish them on anyone (and it was taking a toll on my social life too because I was afraid of seeing friends or even being near them out of fear of passing them onto them), but it makes me feel a little bit better when I see other nonas here with the same problem. I hope all of us suffering with bedbugs may finally find peace one day, but for now it makes me happy to have someone understand the awful struggle it is.

Maybe I will use some extra cash I have stashed away to treat myself to one or two shares of a stock kek

No. 1133973

I can't believe I may have replied to literal pedophiles on here with kindness and advice or they may have replied to me. Just kill yourselves. Especially the superiority complex pedo in the confessions thread whos concern was more how stupid pedos (not evil or cruel) ruin their own lives rather than the children who they molest and rape. They tell on themselves so easily. Ruined my day.

No. 1133974

>>1133973
It might not help you, but remember that a lot of anons here say shit just to troll or make other anons upset. That anon themselves said that this is not the first time they've posted that. Ask yourself why someone would be so eager to repeatedly tell others about that kind of stuff if they weren't looking for attention.
There are plenty of awful people on this site so I'm not saying that everything that is said here is fake, but take everything with a grain of salt and don't let anyone here control how you feel. I know it sucks to know you may have interacted with them though, I'm sorry anon.

No. 1133981

relationships of any kind, even friendships, seem to bring out the worst in me, i'm perfectly nice until someone gets close with me which is almost the exact opposite of how things are supposed to work. it really sucks because i want closeness with others, as most people do, but i guess i don't mesh well with anyone… i can't blame it entirely on the types of people i get involved with either because the nicer someone is to me the shittier i am towards them, i hate it but i can't stop even when i know i love and respect them. maybe i only like the idea of close friendships and romantic relationships but when it actually happens i realize i've made a mistake? is this a sign of autism or am i just a shit human being?

No. 1133982

>>1133905
this fucking site, i swear to god

No. 1133983

>>1133972
I might have german roaches after roughly 5 months still. I have boric acid along various walls, paste bait, diatomaceous earth, spray killer on the baseboards, sticky traps, shower less, got rid of my whole trash can, only make a small bag of trash daily to take out immediately, vacuuming weekly, all water drains have a filter stopper so they cant get out of the drain if thats where they are, dishes go immediately in the washer, windows are never opened since ive put tape on any gaping holes, and 0 food is left out. i hate this shit i think it came from my neighbors who randomly left. Never in my life have i had roaches even when living with my hoarder mother where the animals pissed on everything. I feel so gross if i tell anyone about it but….i feel ive done everything but move. The idiot free bug guys couldnt figure out where mine were even coming from. I wanna go back to having a real trash can without fear of ever seeing one in my room again. I am so sorry for you bedbug anons.

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Idk where else to talk about this embarrassing shit so it goes here, I’m a closeted ex muslim, and yesterday our HR was giving free small wine bottles for easter, and they gave me one too since i’m 21, so I had my first drink ever that night. It didn’t taste good because ofc it was shitty cheap wine, but made me realize i can prooobably get away with secretly drinking so i will probably start experimenting around because i enjoyed the giddy feeling. Maybe wine moms were right after all, had the best sleep of this year so far.

No. 1133993

>>1133987
Like all commercials say, drink responsibly!

No. 1133994

that moment when it really truly hits you that you inherited your abusive scrote father's rage issues and now you act the exact same as him. but at least i'll never take it out on women or children!

No. 1133996

>>1133987
happy for you nonna, be safe

No. 1134000

>>1133987
Enjoy anon, be safe. Find a cocktail you really like and enjoy a single good quality one every now and then. Always nice

No. 1134032

>>1133927
I brought his cat back to him once and he says he likes to let it out and roam. I thought he was joking, but this poor cat has already followed me home twice and sat under my car before. I can try to put a note on his door, but i dont know what else to do.

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I made the mistake of looking up the history of cabbage patch kids and now I’m too scared to sleep…

No. 1134049

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No. 1134050

>>1134048
just because you saw it doesn’t me we have to anon

No. 1134051

>>1134048
>>1134049
I'm floored that these ugly pieces of shit were ever popular. Why don't western people have a good grip on cuteness???

No. 1134054

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>>1134051
see you later nerd

No. 1134059

>>1134049
honestly, i love these progeria patch babies way more than the regular ones

No. 1134063

>>1134048
She looks just like them, she birthed them herself.

No. 1134113

>>1134051
They come from the 80s (or the 70s? but they were popular in the 80s) look at all american toys and cartoons from the 80s they were ugly as fuck

No. 1134114

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She's so dumb it's actually kind of depressing. She literally undoes the work I do with how retarded she is. She can't even put away dishes properly.

No. 1134117

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Haha! Yes! I love only having joy in my brain at night and subsequently ruining my schedule.

No. 1134137

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Why do badger her to let you go raw instead of wearing a condom?
Why do you whine on reddit about not getting some when you spend all day ignoring your gf and jerking to porn instead?
Why do you cry about how women are bitches and should have no rights bc they won't date your jobless loser ass that spends all day jerking to porn in your parents basement?

No. 1134139

>>1134137
Why are y'all having sex with women if you don't wanna be a dad and you oppose abortion in the first place

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No. 1134142

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i am not suicidal or anything, but like, i don’t think life is worth this much struggle. Like sre you telling me i was supposed to work everyday for… this? Why? I don’t mind staying alive but it is not worth this much trouble. I really wish euthanisia was legal around here sometimes.

I feel like this reason is why I’m leaning towards minimalism, esp the extreme kind. Like I don’t wanna own anything, I wanna work little and own little. Whatever that was supposed to mean

No. 1134151

I really hate spending money. It physically hurts. I had to force myself today to buy some bras and the whole time I felt like puking. I have no idea why I am like this.

No. 1134156

>>1134151
ugh, same. i just bought my oldest friend a birthday gift and it hurt. i do feel good about getting her something cute though. i hope your new bras are comfy nonnie. OT but if they are underwire bras, bending the wire outwards so it's more convex was a game-changer for me. vidrel explains it, go to 00:15

No. 1134157

>>1134142
Yeah humans fucked themselves. Like Why did it have to advance to the point where we work to live without actually living?

No. 1134158

I want to learn how to manipulate men into simping for me and getting me things. I'm beautiful and my body is super nice but when I deal with scrotes they end up taking advantage of me or simply I say something they dislike and they fuck off. Is there a way to learn being manipulative? I guess you have to fit into a stereotype they like and not do or say anything that might go against it

No. 1134163

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>>1134158
Read the art of seduction, sounds like a PUA book but it's actually very interesting and useful for career, confidence, and political gains and applies to a woman's perspective too

One of the primary lessons is picking your target: you waste time picking stingy losers. Some are just a no go. When they walk away from you because of what you said it's actually good, you weed these useless ones out

No. 1134165

>>1134158
tbh you should abuse this through social media. become a youtuber or streamer or something and have simps throw money at you

No. 1134167

>>1134151
Felt. I bought a pack of underwear after getting bullied on here for only owning 4 and it may not have been a dent in my wallet but it was a dent in my heart. Spending money for things other absolute absolute necessary is tough.

No. 1134168

i honestly don’t know why my mother loves me, no one else does. she loves me in a way i cannot explain, and i feel both incredibly grateful and incredibly guilty of the fact she is my mother. i feel like i deserve a crackhead who screams at me and beats me up for the stupidest shit, not this libran saint who believes in me even when the rest of the family calls me names, tells me i am not related to them because of my “dark” personality, just so many cruel things. i even told god i don’t deserve my mom. sometimes i wonder if we are nothing alike or are people just full of shit? i have so much anger and fear inside of me, i have dark dreams of monsters tearing people apart, myself as a tiger, riding fire breathing black dragons, and i even dreamed of myself traveling to the underworld. my mother is the total opposite of me. i just feel so ugly and worthless next to her, because she loves me unconditionally and i am like the little minotaur bastard freak. i wish i was a better daughter and that she could be proud of me. i wish i loved myself as much as she loves me. my own father despised me the day i was born. i hope god loves me just as much because i have no one else.

No. 1134170

>>1134168
of course she loves you, you're her kid. the only kind of unconditional love a person gets is from their mother, if they're lucky. consider yourself lucky and if you haven't already, you probably have, ask her for advice and help. it seems like there's a lot more going on than just anger issues.

No. 1134175

>>1134142
seems pretty bullshit that depending on where you live there has to be a perfect time to buy a home or car-house to live without the burden of forever rent. if you never get ahead of the current bills and living expenses…there's essentially no way to get out of the rut of living to work just to not be homeless. i was thinking why the hell can i never be like these content creators? these small cute store owners on insta selling stuff on etsy where everything sells out within an hour? oh yeah, cause all my money goes to bills and my leftover money for food. im always working or looking for new work when the current one cuts my hours because they hired too many people who all need 20-40 hours. theres no one to help me financially so i better never fall behind. i know theres a few people who really stuck it out for their store, youtube, streaming, skits to make them profit but im pretty damn sure a lot of them had loving parents with a free room to crash in while they got things rolling. it makes me a bit bitter that younger me didnt get my shit together when my parents were alive..

No. 1134177

>>1134165
I cannot, I mean I did for a while but they only gave me money because I appeared to have the same beliefs as them. The moment where I showed signs or rationality or sentinent thinking and said something that slightly pissed them off they fucked off. Radfem theory actually made me unable to manipulate because it made me realize women have to bend their beleifs around men's beliefs and not show any sign of free thinking. I'm also mentally ill but I've seen uglier mentally ill women get a lot of simps. I'm just really bad at pandering I guess.

>>1134163
Once I got a Japanese simp to give me 10,000 dollars for nothing. We were in a MBTI discord and he was an INTP obsessed with INTPs and I started talking w him told him I was an INTP and started LARPING and exaggerating my own personality characteristics and then I sent him pictures of me and he thought I was super cute and his dream waifu for being an INTP and he gave me a lot of money for telling him I had financial issues. Then I got annoyed and dropped the act and told him that I believe MBTI is bullshit and he literally stopped talking with me. Similarly, one guy who dropped thousands on my stream and was a woketard. I told him I am against sex work and he fucked off Lmao. I swear all men are like this. Or maybe I got bad simps? Maybe a good simp just simps no matter what I say.

No. 1134179

>>1134163
samefag but this is useful. thanks!!!!

No. 1134201

it's really fucking weird that "teen" is a porn genre and no one bats an eye. it's so disgusting

No. 1134210

>>1134163
>tfw you have a few of those qualities
guess I will just die alone and unloved yes I know I should work on weeding them out, but actually I've been trying and it's hard at to stop being insecure

No. 1134218

I want to create my own ideological system and system if beliefs and have men adhere to it and try to impress me by being completely alligned with my beliefs. I'm tired of women putting in all the work. Women having to bend their beleifs around the beliefs of scrotes. Women have to seduce. Women literally do everything while men do jack shit. Moids don't deserve anything. Not even you putting in effort to seduce them. They like playing mind games. Moids should just be good puppies and provide to the queen bee.

No. 1134220

how does DBT work?

No. 1134229

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Tomorrow will be two days left to write my research paper. Last assignment for the year and I'm still just gonna keep putting it off until I'm panicking, huh

No. 1134232

>>1134229
write one sentence now at least

No. 1134233

>>1134048
That’s a lot of Shayna merch

No. 1134239

>>1134229
I have so much trouble writing essays. Spitball some sentences, even disjointed phrases, in your notes so you have something to work with later.
>>1134218
I support your desire to be a cult leader

No. 1134253

I am planing my wedding, but i just wanna have that over. I never had a „dream” to have a princessss wedding + i am an introvert so its hard for me to imagine to be in the center of attention the whole party..and its a lot of money eh.

No. 1134256

>>1134151
I feel u nonna, i need to get some stuff too and i alredy feel bad about spending the money

No. 1134260

>>1134218
Can I help you make propaganda? I got several ideas already.

No. 1134262

I'm 5 days away from the deadline to submit my final thesis work. I'm basically done with it, I've thrown this thing together under 2 weeks and I feel so bad about how it came out, but I'm also completely out of steam and don't know if I have enough mental power to rewrite or even correct it in any major ways. I'm sometimes even considering just not submitting it and just leaving it for Autumn, but honestly I probably wouldn't spend that much time improving it even then. But getting a D or C just hurts my pride.

No. 1134265

>>1134229
Spend your non panicking time to think of an extension excuse. It's much easier than when it's 3 hours to deadline and you're actually trying to get it done.

No. 1134266

>>1134201
Really, when you spend more than a second thinking about it… I don't even want to. The freshly 18 shit. It's fucking disgusting, I really cannot believe it.

No. 1134286

>>1134260
Okay what ideas? My perfect political system is based around combining features of both communism and capitalism and it bans prostitution. It's supposed to make living on planet earth ideal.

No. 1134294

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Realizing my art is sometimes reminiscent of Holly Brown's is making me want to kermit

No. 1134310

>>1134294
Holly Brown's art would be fine if she wasn't insufferable about it. I wouldn't worry, anon.

No. 1134347

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I think she's gotten bored/tired of me. I knew it would happen, I just didn't think it would be so quickly. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted, back to the regular routine I guess.

No. 1134372

>>1134201
the fetishization of teen girls is why i lied about my age online and to strangers until i actually turned 20. it's so scary

No. 1134382

>>1134294

speaking of her, sometimes I go back and reread her threads like they're novels sometimes. It was really fun when they were active, it kinda sucks that the milk ran dry but I guess that's a good thing in the end. Times were simpler back then too, so that also adds onto why I miss them

No. 1134385

>>1134201
There are so many sites that advertise their content as being “jail bait” or “barely legal” and the mass population still refuses to admit that porn is actually dangerous for many reasons.

No. 1134392

my ex bf has been harassing me for months. he started dating me while i was underage and he was in his mid 20s. very dumb on my part. i finally managed to cut him off and block him everywhere but he keeps making new accounts, threatening to share my personal details or pictures and so on. i have no idea what to do. we don't live in the same country rn so he can't personally stalk me but i'm still scared of the possibilities he has. i can't simply be on good terms with him, he only wants to date and the thought of talking to him makes me feel gross. i feel terrorized everyday and i feel bad for letting a man do this to me.

No. 1134406

there's a guy at work who is just my type physically, and he keeps flirting with me, but anytime I try to drop hints or even directly ask him to go hang out with me, he's like "ahh sorry I'm busy." We've only hung out once after work and then he bailed pretty early. So then I took that as a sign to give up and to act disinterested, but he still talks to me at work and acts flirty. The mixed signals are making me insane.

No. 1134409

>>1134406
Mixed signals are a no sis. Maybe he has a gf, maybe he's bored enough at work to flirt with available women in the vicinity with no plans beyond that, maybe he likes the attention, doesn't really matter but if he was genuinely interested he'd make it happen and it sounds like you're giving him plenty of opportunities.

No. 1134410

Stopped talking to a friend for a while and started talking to him again and met up with him last night. At that point, I remembered why I had stopped talking to him in the first place, but it was too late. It was a colossal waste of time. He is "nice" but extremely fucking "simple" and absolutely horrible at keeping up conversation. I was nervous and didn't know what to do and suggested we go out to dinner, even though I am trying really hard to save money because I'm poor. I even told him that but we still split the bill in half and I was so full I couldn't even eat the food…so I just wasted a good amount of money. It was fucking shit and awful. Never again. I regret every second of it and hate myself for wasting all that money on some score, and I am so angry at him.

No. 1134412

>>1134410
scrote, not "score"

No. 1134416

>>1134406
I agree with >>1134409 anon, he's either hiding something (like an addiction) or has emotional problems. I say ditch

No. 1134430

>>1134167
omg the underwear nonnie? you got some extras finally? i hope you like them! (And they definitely fall under necessities imo)

No. 1134437

>>1134406
What kind of work do you do? If it’s like an actual office job it could be he’s just wary of getting involved with coworkers, which makes sense.

No. 1134438

>>1134430
Yes kek, thank you nonner. I bought some and not gonna lie, the feeling of new underwear is nice and relaxing, they fit good, I feel brand new. My previous 4 were nearly a decade old and I have decided to throw them out.

No. 1134440

The fucking fact that I found 0 pEER SUPPORT when I had cancer, that wasn't riddled with gatekeeping and word policing my scrotes or handmaidens but every other mentally ill mess can seem to have all kinds of cute little groups online. I've never been this fucking angry and no one will fucking get it.

No. 1134444

Supervisor told me to relax today and then read my paper again tomorrow with a clear head. I almost instantly replied "if you don't want to help, just say that instead of this passive-agressive bullshit". Then I considered just blocking her. She's right that I'm overly stressed, but she has been almost zero help.

No. 1134449

I knit myself a beautiful handkerchief to wear in my hair, and when I posted it on instagram it got a huge response from my friends. People liked it because it's fucking pretty. But now one of my friends that would not shut up about it is knitting her own- in the exact same pattern as mine. I designed mine while on a walk and was kinda open with why I made certain design decisions to my close friends, and her fat ass is copying each one down to the detail. Now, I know I didn't invent the idea of a hair scarf obviously, but I wrote the pattern for it and in less than 7 hours she made an identical dupe. It isn't hard exactly to create a knit dupe if you understand how stitches work, like I could technically go and do that to something from a TV show but I wouldn't! Because it's wrong, and even the large designers create knitwear by hiring an actual artist, so why would I copy her? Just seems wrong. I'm not gonna say anything because it's just too petty, but I am so hurt it makes me want to never share anything again. Reminds me of middle school when someone would copy my exact painting or someshit, even if the painting was of my OWN house or pets. The only good thing is this girl and I look like we're polar opposites, she has short blue hair and is really fat and wears heavy makeup. I kinda look like a kid's show depiction of a librarian, so the identical headdress is gonna look entirely different on us. But I am so mad. So annoyed. Plus I'm already making a second one, how many people are gonna mistakingly think I'm copying HER? Like who even looks at the timeframe in which things are posted? Jesus.

No. 1134455

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I’m 5’8 and 220 pounds and I fluctuate between feeling like the fattest person on earth & just feeling a little chubby & I genuinely can’t tell what reality is. I definitely need to lose some weight but I also just want to get over my body dysmorphia so I can just have an accurate view of myself.
It feels like everyone who is a little bigger uses heavy filters and angles and portrays themselves to look much thinner online and it annoys the shit out of me because it makes it absolutely impossible to actually see what people my size look like. I know a girl who is like 5’0 and heavier/a similar weight to me, I’ve seen her irl recently and know she’s wider than me, but based on the pictures she posts online I’d guess she was much smaller than me. I’m trying to stop comparing myself to other people in general but that’s hard to do when you don’t have a solid sense of what you look like. I live in a pretty small town and don’t go out much so most of the people I see are online and online it seems like when bigger women post themselves it’s either A. they have extra weight but are able to hide it with angles and filters or B. they have a lot of extra weight and can’t hide it with angles and filters so you can either see it through the angles/filters or the person doesn’t bother with those things.
Since I personally don’t use all the angles or filters or take/post pictures of myself much, I’m comparing how I look in the mirror to that stuff & likening myself more to the women in the B category, who are probably closer to 300+ pounds, which isn’t accurate to what I look like. Idk, I know I need to just change my lifestyle and lose weight and I’m trying to make steps without being too hard on myself & relapsing into bulimia. Vent over, anticipating someone calling me a fattychan and telling me to just lose weight or something but I hope you ladies will understand that I know and I’m working on it.

No. 1134456

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>>1133709
That's why you gotta pin them, nona. I've permanently lost some tabs that way, too. You can still lose them while pinned, too (like if you open a new non-ingocnito window and then close the one with the pinned tabs), but I've only had it happen due to my own stupidity instead of technical malfunction.

No. 1134457

>>1134449
You're acting as if that thingie is part of your identity. Get a grip.

No. 1134458

>>1134440
No I'm not done, why the fuck was it okay to tell me I can't say "women" or "periods" or tell men in those groups to stop talking over the sick women in there, so I had to deal with it all alone. Yet these fucking little depression retards can have their groups, as if I wasn't depressed too, but surprisingly I didn't have the time to go cry about that alone it groups like that. Yeah what's stopping me joining some retard group now? Unfiltered bitterness, anger and martyrdom. Everytime someone gets actually sick or is chronically sick, they never fucking think that maybe there's also psychological shit as well, oh wow some people aren't just fucked in the head but bodily also! I used to be mentally ill only and trust me, that shit was so much easier than this shit, it doesn't even matter if my head feels ok, wtf is the point, body is fucked.

No. 1134459

>>1134457
This is exactly what I needed to hear, thank you.

No. 1134460

>>1133916
Last time I talked about this on here, I got called something like "an actual BPD-chan for once" kek

No. 1134462

>>1134455
Adding to my vent because I’m staring at pictures of people who are supposedly my size on Google… My body isn’t distributed the same as most of these people though… I hate it. I’m going for a walk.

No. 1134470

>>1134449
I'm really sorry anon. If she tries to share or sell the pattern I would probably say something to her. You don't have to call her out publicly, but it wouldn't hurt to (kindly) ask for credit or for her to not distribute the pattern. You can of course just leave it alone and not address it. Either way, knitting is hard (I can only crochet kek) so I know it must hurt to see someone completely copy your work. It was wrong of her to do that without even acknowledging you, even if she wrote her own pattern.

No. 1134478

>>1134449
This is kind of primary school level of drama but at the same I get you tbh

No. 1134482

>>1134437
it's an office setting (don't want to be too specific lol) and I do feel like he just flirts for attention. He even did cringy stuff in front of our boss like saying my first name with his last name out loud (like if we were married)…I will say I'm a foreigner here and I think he just flirts with me as a joke and thinks it's ok because I'm "different." Other than that he seems like a charming guy and has actual hobbies, but maybe I'm just lonely lol

No. 1134488

>>1134458
I’m fucking fuming thinking about this. You’ve a right to be angry. It’s infuriating seeing how pervasive the erasure of female spaces is and how it always impacts the women who need help the most.

No. 1134491

>>1134455
imo the best way is to just not compare yourself with anyone else and go off BMI. Like you said, angles and filters and even how people carry their weight varies a ton and can be misleading. Also if you live in a place with a high rate of obesity, comparing yourself to people around you can make your perception wonky. Ultimately it’s your body and you’ll still suffer the consequences of having too much fat even if everyone around you is just as fat.
I looked up a BMI chart for you and at 220 lbs you are obese, not overweight, so I wouldn’t call it “a little chubby.” Aim for 120-160 lbs. Good luck!

No. 1134494

A fucking cop just showed up and I'm being summoned to appear before the county for ditching jury duty and now I feel like a dummy for trying to be all beyond the law and shit. I'm fucking dumb.

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No. 1134498

>>1134497
kek exactly

No. 1134513

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Spent three full days working on the lineart for a very detailed character for a friend who has been begging and encouraging me to draw this complicated character ever since she deemed me good enough to draw them. Mind you, I mainly do lineart and rarely put color to my art. Her standards are high considering she's a professional artist who makes a living from it, but I figured she like any decent person would appreciate the gesture. Finished the picture and sent it to her, hoping at least she'd appreciate the nice surprise.

"Cool, but are you going to add a background and color it?"

I'm annoyed.

No. 1134550

>>1133959
A little update- they will be able to come next week! It's as costly as I expected, but after paying for it and my credit card bill this month, I'll still have $1k to my name until I get paid at the end of this month so I'm in a much better financial spot that I expected to be! Fingers crossed!

>>1133983
I am so fucking sorry nonna, I really am. I'm hoping for the day you might move or when those bastard roaches are finally obliterated from your apartment. We have roaches too but the entire building has been infested since we moved in 20+ years ago. Hell, roaches are just an accepted part of my city lol. There's no hope for me kek. I cope by telling myself that they're disgusting but at least they don't bite (or I don't think they do??)

No. 1134556

A scrote just old me 'I though you were fucking weird at first but now that I know you better you're alright'. What the fuck man why is that even neccesary? I don't like you either, I think you're an insensitive piece of shit who wants to make others miserable because you are.

No. 1134562

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I'm tired I really do want to kill myself. I don't even believe in work anymore, no matter what I will do I will end up giving more than I take. Even in my relationships with people I give more than I take. I just want to take for once, to be appreciated for once. My life has been so hellish and all my efforts have been futile. My work always underpaid my efforts always gone ignored. There's no point in giving anything to the world when you get nothing back but suffering. Yet, I cannot opress others. I cannot use them for my own gain. The world and society is based around manipulation, you need to develop the skills of manipulation.

My entire childhood I have seen my parents wither away, be mistreated, work with little results, be humiliated by a sick system. Had to watch my own mother fall ill to her death at such an early age. Had to live having nothing while pretending my life is not miserable and full of misfortune in order to make others that have more than me not feel bad. I am not even allowed to be depressed because if I am others will harass me, they will demonize me. I didn't get to live my childhood, my entire body is filled with anxiety and with the traumas of my ancestors. I carry all the extreme traumas of my ancestors. Life is nothing but suffering for me and I wanted to live more than anyone else yet life itself is forcing me to choose suicide over living because the liberation of death is better than what life has to offer me.

No. 1134563

>>1134562
I want to die until 30 but I want to leave something of value behind. A book, some art. I want to live something and maybe someone somewhere will truly relate and understand my life and maybe my own suffering will make them feel like they are less alone in this life. I am tired of being an object. I am tired of being fake in other to make others comfortable. I just want to be myself and speak my true feelings and mind. I reject the social facade.

No. 1134579

>>1134513
Ugh, rude. WHy is she feedbacking if you're just gifting it to her? So sorry anon, I'm sure it was beautiful.

No. 1134599

>>1134458
>Yet these fucking little depression retards can have their groups, as if I wasn't depressed too, but surprisingly I didn't have the time to go cry about that alone it groups like that.
You are barking at the wrong tree, also mental illness groups aren't supposed to be about whining.

No. 1134613

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I'm still very far off from having kids but having children has been one of my life dreams and it genuinely breaks my heart that I won't be able to have any of my own. I'm too afraid that I will pass down mental illness issues from other women in my family. I know that it's nature vs nurture, but it still feels too risky considering the things that I have been through.

No. 1134630

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How could I get revenge without doing anything too illegal or destructive? My ex continues to make my life miserable. He makes demands for me to drive him places and mail him things he forgets when he travels. When I finally stood up for myself and said no, he started screaming and crying. I had to scream back at him to shut the fuck up. It's like dealing with a toddler.

When I broke up with this asshole, which was two years ago, he asked if we could go to the park to talk. I agreed, and while we were there he said, "I think we should breakup." I didn't get it at all. I had already broken up with him but for some fucking reason HE had to be the one to do it? I guess his bruised ego couldn't take it so he had to pretend he was the one ending the relationship, not me. Only a male could be this idiotic and delusional.

I want to get away from him. I'm moving to a new city in the summer for a new job, and he doesn't know anything about it. My hope is that I can block his number once I move and completely ghost him permanently.

At the same time, I want to get revenge. He's made my life hell. Karma might get him eventually, and karma will probably get me too if I act out revenge, but all I want to do is ruin his fucking day, not his life. But if I get revenge, then I'll probably end up tangling our lives together even more, which would suck in the long run.

No. 1134633

I'm working crazy hours this week and I'm pmsing and everything has got on top of me regarding housework so even though I worked 11 fucking hours today I left "early" and I just hope it doesn't bite me in the ass regarding my work day tomorrow. Wish I was off for Easter and my only reprise at work is the radio and all day the radio hosts were talking about the extra long weekend and I just want to cry

No. 1134636

>>1134633
Oh yeah and I left an hour early to get a head start on the fucking laundry! And all the other shit I put off because I'm tired and pmsing and just not feeling it tbh

No. 1134638

>>1134630
Order him those religious booklets you can get for free, just sign him up. Most orgs have shit you can order booklets and info shit from, I always see youtubers getting shit like that sent to their po boxes, like a gazillion bumper stickers that say god is the real goat or some shit.

No. 1134649

>>1134630
>When I finally stood up for myself and said no, he started screaming and crying. I had to scream back at him to shut the fuck up.
I don't get it, why are you even with him? Can't you just refuse to meet him, not open your door for him?

No. 1134661

I hate removing contacts why can't I just put them in and then get on with the rest of my life

No. 1134675

>>1134661
I'm not advising this at all but I have a friend who literally keeps her contacts in 24/7 and rarely takes them out. I have no idea why the fuck she does this but she's been doing this for years and hasn't really suffered any consequences (yet).

No. 1134694

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Today at work a vile little scrap of a moid tried asking me out for drinks today. I'm in a managerial position and always make sure to talk to everyone and take everyone's opinions and needs seriously. I hate how some scrotes believe that the tiniest bit of attention means they can break professional boundaries like this. I thought he was just a nice friendly coworker but nooo hes a little fucking creepo piece of shit. How fucking dare he speak to me never speak to me again Kev. Disgusting. Fuck you.

No. 1134695

>>1134675
Not your friend but I do the same thing and I've never had a problem. Plus I buy those monthly kinds you can sleep in which helps. Big contact just wants us to spend money on solution

No. 1134697

>>1133912
Because there can be some medications the doctor can give you instead of OTC depending on where you live and I was going to respect the doctor's advice over the internet

No. 1134698

>>1134695
Sorry but have you gotten your eyes checked lately? I had a classmate who kept hers in 247 and she ended up with millions of micro cuts or something, can’t wear them anymore even if she was feeling fine.

No. 1134706

>>1134675
She sounds based and fearless

No. 1134707

>>1134694
i'm sorry that happened. Women being in higher positions is always a massive double standard with how moid employees act. i hope he dies kek

No. 1134717

I learned I'm pregnant today and got my first appointment for an abortion scheduled, but the earliest/only they had is also going to be the second day of my new job. The clinic is also 2 hours away. Then I'll have to go back to get the actual abortion, and I'm going to have to already be eating up my fucking PTO. I hate this I hate this. I feel horrible and sad and pathetic and alone

No. 1134718

When i was younger i was dumber and i got posted on 4chan. No they werent nudes or anything, they were just selfies during my quirky phase that would make any male autist wish i was his gf. I had a couple of stalkers who then gave out my number, my pictures, information, and location. To this day even after 6 years, i still get bugged ocasionally. Ive since then changed numbers, location, and have nearly zero social media presence. I messed up not too long ago and i gave out my real first name and pictures of my face to somebody online i thought i could trust. He turned out to be a really unstable male and i since then blocked him. Im afraid he will find a way to find me again because he got attached to me, but i dont know if he cared enough to find a way to reach out somehow again. Its not fun living with paranoia. Why do men cling onto women they never met like they can use their existence agaisnt them? Like oh sure im the only woman in the world so you must keep tabs on me for years to come! Going as far as selling my outdated information amongst other men is honestly so weird in a creepy way. Im tired of feeling like i have to be careful or wonder what is going behind the scenes. Im losing it.

No. 1134729

>>1134638
I might actually do this but idk if it's potent enough. He grew up Catholic and actually believes that women are "seductresses" who tempt men into sex. I didn't find out about this until after I broke up with him, but I wish I had known it before we ever had sex.

This is a good idea though, I might try something similar.

>>1134649
Because over and over I thought I was doing the "right" thing by being accommodating and gentle. My mom is the same way with my dad and it's been ingrained in my behavior. The one time I stood my ground and said no, he freaked out.

I know it's my fault for being a pushover, and it's also selfish on my part because I'm lonely and like having someone around to talk to. But Jesus Christ, he is not worth it. At this point I'd rather be alone than put up with this.

I'm holding out hope that when I move I can turn over a new leaf.

No. 1134736

I feel overwhelmed at work. It doesn’t pay enough for how many responsibilities it has, but this is a career I wanted to go into and for now, this job is just a stepping stone to get the experience to go somewhere better.
Everyone is always doubting me and saying “you got to really want this job”. There’s one girl that’s training me that is a neurotic asshole and treats everything as “her way or the highway”. She docked points from my evaluation for not knowing where a program was and asking the location, ON HER MESSY COMPUTER. She has little faith in my tasks and demands to double-check everything I do. The other trainers don’t do this and have let me mostly work alone now. I’m glad that piece of shit is leaving this job soon, but not soon enough.
With all the stress and constant questioning I sometimes feel like a fraud. I have a degree for this field, I know I have the potential. I can’t imagine doing anything else for a career. But it’s just a lot. Honestly it has to do with this company too, but I need to work here to get experience. It doesn’t help that this is a male-dominated field either, and you have to keep up the appearance of being and acting tough, but I’m 5’3” 100lbs and don’t have a lot of strength (trying to work on it but there’s only so much you can match to male strength and I hate that). I’m tired of pushing through and just wish I could be happy.

No. 1134742

>>1133907
we play a lot of MMO's and MOBAs. Personally I'm playing wow right now and on my down time league of legends. Every.Single.One of my boyfriends has played both wow and either league of legends or dota. I know for a lot of girls gaming scrotes are redflags but I've dated a ton of different guys and I have a really hard time dating guys who don't game because it's one of my biggest hobbies. I think theres' a big difference between vegging out and spending 90 percent of your time gaming, vs your free time esp if you do it with your gf. Hence why the mmo's and mobas are great (especially if you're in a similar rank).

That being said… your ex hiding you from gaming is a huge red flag holy shit. I would instantly break up with a guy if he played any games and didn't try to include me, because that's such an obvious sign for me.

No. 1134752

>>1134562
I feel the same way…I have dreams and goals, but they seem so untouchable because I was held back so much in life. It will take me years to maybe get to the place I want to be in life, and in the meantime I will be suffering. I push and push everyday, thinking “there’s the light at the end of the tunnel”, but the distance grows farther and farther. I can only hold out hope so much, when nothing goes right. I have no friends. I don’t have my own home. Nobody cares about me. Living with the trauma of abuse is hard because it affects how I talk to people, and it has made me repressed in many ways. I’m so behind and I can’t catch up. I don’t want to die thinking that I accomplished absolutely nothing and didn’t get my “happy ending”. To survive abuse just to die, that sounds tragic. But it’s getting harder to live every day and sometimes the thought of it all stopping seems like that would be okay. To have relief. To rest and have no more responsibility.

No. 1134762

>>1134742
League moids are so awful on average

No. 1134767

>>1134742
We played the same MMO together, but I was often busy with university classes, so I couldn’t always be online. We used to play frequently together, but I guess he got bored of waiting for me to log on and decided to join a guild so he would have others to play with and talk to. That’s when the problem started. I suspected his guild “buddies” were a little too close to him. Once day, I didn’t tell him I was online and I teleported to his character, where I caught him flirting and role playing with multiple people. That’s when the can of worms opened and I started seeing flirty discord convos with that guild group. Everyone thought he didn’t have a girlfriend and when I was around, everyone thought I was some “side piece”. There was only 1 asshole member that knew I was his girlfriend because my ex would vent about me to them, and they didn’t care and still continued flirting (they were “poly” so they didn’t care about relationship statuses). Then when I did a username search, I found a TikTok account where my ex was boasting he was single.
LoL does seem to be very common. I avoid scrotes that are invested in FFXIV now. I liked the game and story, but it just brings me pain now because of my stupid ex.

No. 1134783

>>1134717
a womb of ones own pdf

No. 1134795

>>1134717
I'm really sorry. What shit luck. I hope it all goes ok so you can get back to feeling alright.

No. 1134798

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>>1134455

I feel ya nona, i'm in a similar situation at 5'8 190 lbs (I started at 260 though) and it really is difficult to tell. No clue what your body type is, but I rarely see people with mine online (legitimately curvy with long torso but large arms) and people with my stats seem to either look pretty alright or chubby as hell.

I think bone structure and muscle composition has a lot to do with it honestly. Someone with a small frame who never exercises is going to look far worse than someone naturally broad who lifts on a regular basis. My only advice is to avoid bulimia relapses at all cost (thats how i ended up getting so fucking fat), work on being kinder to yourself, eat a healthy high protein diet with a reasonable calorie deficit (like -500~750 calories not some retarded anachan shit), and start doing some light exercise you enjoy.

I'll stop sperging now but i wish you the best in your efforts and want you to know you're not alone

No. 1134816

>>1134698
You need to get an eye exam yearly to even keep getting contacts and they always say I'm fine

No. 1134849

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I'm so weak and dumb, my home is not the ideal place and I've got some problems with family (could be worse) yet it still doesn't kick me to study hard to go live by myself as soon as I can. I'm not ambitious career wise. I wish I was disciplined in high school so college would've been a breeze, I'm just lost about the next step.

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I hate normies I hate normies I can't cope anymore. I want to have friends or at least some colleagues at work but I'm tired of explaining the same things over and over again like why I have problems with certain things because of my autism or why I'm afraid of something, and then receiving the same criticisms and stupid questions and then being finished with "why don't you change this job if you don't like to be around people so much?" Like jesus fucking christ Becky I need money I need to work like everyone else even though it's much harder for me because going outside every day and trying to act "normal" is hell. people are everywhere and I don't have the qualifications to work from home, I would have to buy a new pc because my old one is basically dead and like 10 years old and I'm scared to spend money on something I don't even know will pay off. I'm trying so so hard to be nice and to understand them and their ignorance and I'm telling myself they're not bad, just ignorant, but I'm so tired. Today I literally said to one of my coworkers to either read something about my disorder, if she actually wants to know things, or to stop asking the same questions over and over again and she said something like "You have so many disorders haha". I know she's a very playful person and she wanted to make a joke or something but her previous criticisms and questions were serious. I was in a fairly good mood this morning but when the second shift came and there was even more noise and fuss than before and I had to deal with the people who usually ask me dumb stuff, I started to feel horrible and angry and I definitely seemed like an asshole because I stopped talking or looking at others and when I'm overstimulated I have a hard time controling my facial expressions so I know I looked really pissed off. I feel so neurotic because I can go from 0 to 10 in terms of bad mood in the span of like 2 minutes, I go from "ok I can manage this, this is not that bad" to "I fucking hate everyone, die die die!". I was so pissed off today I didn't even finish my task and I left a mess on my desk, which I rarely do, and I just walked out. God give me strenght to survive tomorrow

No. 1134868

>>1134853
Anon, when you work from home the company sends you a work computer to use. You genuinely don’t sound stable enough to have a job working with people, your coworker’s right.

No. 1134878

>>1134868
I wouldn't even know where and how to start with working at home, like there's no such job offers here where I live, except small part time jobs that wouldn't even allow me to pay my rent

No. 1134879

>>1134853
I'm no 'normie' by any means but sorry nona you sound entitled as fuck. It's not ANYONE'S job to read about YOUR disorders. They might have questions here and there but to expect them to fully understand you and read about you is so egotistical of you. Lots of people go to work with the absolute worst depression/anxiety/w.e issues but don't force others to warp their live and work balance around them and their issues. You sound like you have a lot of growing up to do because you come off as unstable and selfish.

Also >>1134868 is right, jobs always give you everything you need if you work remotely. I work remotely myself and I have my main computer and my work's laptop that I use for my dev stuff. Even my mouse is technically works'. You sound like you're just making excuses for yourself to cope tbh. Not trying to be mean but that's what you come off as.

No. 1134882

>>1134853
Those normies are right

No. 1134892

>>1134879
But I'm not the one who initiates contact though? I can stay on the background and not talk to anyone but there's a few people who try to "open" me up, I take the bait, I try to talk, and they're like "why don't look people in the eye when they talk to you, that's rude" even though I said a few times this is a problem for me. Like just leave me alone if my behavior is not "social" enough for you. Don't try to be my friend and then constantly criticize every of my quirks even though I have no control over them.

No. 1134894

>>1134882
Ok normie

No. 1134902

>>1134892
honestly I've been through the same thing except it was a different mannerism. In those cases I'd usually just write off those people as assholes and just be cordial. It happens, every single job you're gunna run into those kind of people. It sucks ass but there isn't much we can do. If you've really just tried to explain and they're being rude about it, just accept that you've done your part and they're just assholes.

No. 1134921

I think anon has the right to vent about her circumstances, some of you guys do really look pathetic defending normie's unnecessarily rude behaviors towards struggling people. Normies wouldn't spit on you if you was on fire, cut it out

No. 1134932

>>1134879
Also, if I tried to be friends with someone and I knew they struggle with certain disorder, be it mental or physical, I would try to gain some knowledge from credible sources, to understand them better and because I wouldn't want to say something that may hurt them? Of course, I wouldn't be able to understand them fully, but I would at least TRY and show what I'm trying. And if they were too hard for me to handle I wouldn't try to pursue them and irritate them with my ignorant remarks. Like how is this weird? You claim you're not a normie yet your post comes off as very ignorant, I don't understand your stance at all.

No. 1134935

I see you autists are back at it agian with the low empathy and none existent self control

No. 1134937

I love normies, and being mean to spergs

No. 1134940

>>1134935
>normie makes fun of autistic person's poor motoric skills
>autist vents about it
>a bloo bloo why are autists so low on empathy? ;_;

No. 1134950

>>1134940
are we reading the same shit here?
nobody made fun of her motorskills

this is the autistic poor reading comprehension in effect

No. 1134954

I reached the point of tiredness where I can't remember at all what I thought about before I got interrupted even though that's a "skill" I semi-consciously practiced because it happened so often it started to bother me, I hate being sick, end me already.

No. 1134957

Anons thought I was being ridiculous many threads ago when I theorized an ex-friend was skinwalking me. Over the last 2 years she's done about a dozen instances of it, which I can elaborate on, but I already did once. I gave her the benefit of the doubt because people were convinced I was overreacting. We have no contact beyond following each other on ig since 2020, but we were "best friends" back in 2013. Anyway I'm sticking to my guns, that woman is a creepy skinwalker.
>I posted a pic of me standing next to my black 1990 toyota pickup last week.
>The following day, she posts a black box of text that reads "Reminder to self: Comparison is the thief of joy."
>Two days ago, she posts "goodbye honda, time to embrace the truck life". I felt weird about that bc I could guess what was coming.
>Sure enough, she posted her new black toyota tacoma today.
I feel crazy. I'm crazy, right? She's confirmed bpd, which is why our friendship imploded back in the day. I can't help but feel like she's still "fp"-ing me from a distance, even after all this time.

No. 1134961

>>1134950
I'm OP, I just gave you an example of the shit I had to deal with
Also answers this >>1134932

No. 1134967

>>1134937
>>1134935
>>1134950
You will never be normal, you lurk imageboards, stop trying to fit in between people that don't want you

No. 1134969

>>1134961
girlsperg, you need to actually type out what happened in that instance because absolutely nothing in your original ventpost even suggested of that happening

No. 1134973

>>1134630
Do you live in the us? If so, I could try to get you set up with having jehovah's witness letters mailed to his house. We have a Hispanic jehovah's witness send us letters every now and then bc the people who lived in the house before us were Hispanic. I could try sending a letter out in spanish claiming the family moved to his address.

No. 1134977

>>1134961
Ignore them. The cluster b’s think they’re over reactive emotions are empathy and mock autistic people because we can struggle socially without shitting in our exes bed while having an “episode”.

No. 1134979

My dads side of the family is all so emotionally fucked and unwilling to ever face problems, I'm no exception. The family is full of secrets, skeletons, pedos, autists, suicide attempts, addiction. Some of the most backwards people because it's all hushed up and denied as if that makes shit go away. Everything negative is ignored and left unresolved. If you bring it up you'll only regret it.

It was a perfect situation for abuse to be covered up and to stay that way. I'm almost waiting for people to die just to take a weight off my shoulders and give me freedom to talk and accept reality.

No. 1134981

>>1134967
you'd be surprised, autsit!

No. 1134988

>>1134977
NTA but depp literally said he wanted to kill and fuck ambers burnt corpse but autistic whore is still making fun of her for having a digestive accident instead, kek. Autists are a mystery to me.

No. 1134989

>>1134977
autistic projection to feel better about oneselves sense of being!
We can't ALL be bpdfags girlies

No. 1134991

This is a moid right?, if not, go take your meds please

No. 1134995

>>1134977
yikes way to assume to cope. No one mocked them for being autistic. Also disgusting for you to use that sexist tripe depp is spewing as an insult. Smells like a scrote tbh.

No. 1134998

>>1134991
Same person who was around yesterday. Lots of spelling mistakes and repetitive posts.

No. 1135001

>>1134995
Autists really can't understand social cues. Imagine thinking it's ok to defend a man who fantasized about raping a woman's corpse while crying about how normies bullying you are mean in the literal same sentence.

No. 1135004

>>1134969
Ok sorry. Now explain to me what's the point of trying to make friends with someone who you know isn't "normal" but being willfully ignorant about their condition. Would it be ok for me to try to befriend a person on a wheelchair and be like "dude why can't you just stand up"? Would you say to the person on a wheelchair they're entitled because they criticized such behavior?
>>1134998
I'm ESL and a phoneposter and I usually post in a hurry. Not a scrote though

No. 1135011

>>1135004
why do I get the feeling autist OP isn't explaining the situation fully? They didn't even mention that the 'normies' were apparently making fun of her motor skills until several posts later so…

No. 1135018

>>1135004
Nta but i was talking about >>1134981, they seem deranged and obsessed, they have typos on their posts too

No. 1135019

>>1135004
NTA but I have anxiety and have friends who have psychological conditions but none of us expect every person we interact with to be as knowledgeable about our disorders as a psychiatry major. You're entitled and strangers don't owe you anything.
Do you research every person's health issues and always think three times before making any sort of comment about someone? Do you not know most "normies" have some sort of mental or personal problems? Do you try your best to fix every problem those strangers have? If not, don't expect the same. You're not special and you never will be.

No. 1135021

>>1135019
People at her work have been asking anon the same questions about her condition over and over, they're being deliberately obtuse at this point

No. 1135022

>>1134695
>>1134706
AYRT and I have contacts but wearing them freaks me out. I obsessively wash my hands when dealing with them and something about them just fires up my paranoia kek. It helps that I actually like how I look with glasses so I prefer them over contacts.

No. 1135027

>>1135021
Are you samefagging again like you did at >>1134940 and talked about yourself in third person point of view?

No. 1135033

>>1135027
You can read her post again i'm just pointing out things she said, also not everyone who isn't at your side is OP's samefagging

No. 1135035

>>1135027
I'm not samefagging, don't accuse me of samefagging because someone else pointed out something you missed.

No. 1135040

I regret my minimalist phase where I sold my big LPS kitty bobble head ughhh it was so cute on my desk I feel stupid for caring about money over a keepsake

No. 1135042

>>1135035
She never mentioned people mocking motor skills but you somehow knew that was the issue even though what she complained about was how people made fun of how many psychological problems anon overshared to people.

No. 1135043

>>1135021
im the original anon to called them entitled and honestly I agree 100% with >>1135019 like I have a feeling they arent asking nona the same questions over and over, and regardless like dealing with people like this is a normal part of any job, you're going to have assholes and you're going to have to deal with it. It's insanely entitled to expect people to behave differently around you when so so so many people are dealing with so many fucked up things on their own lol

No. 1135044

I miss when celebricows was less insane. Wtf is going on over there. I just wanted some celeb milk

No. 1135047

I hate easter because my mom died at easter time. It's now the first easter since I finally cut my dad off. I hate this time of year. I hate how isolated I am but I also hate the man who abused my mother only to then cry when she was gone.

No. 1135048

>>1135044
that ugly star wars moid sperg is so ridiculous, actually entertaining. she's been on for hours

No. 1135049

>>1135044
John Boyega paid someone to praise him in the celebricows thread and that anon won't stop. We're in hell.

No. 1135054

>>1135043
Even if its something normal is still annoying, i'm not saying she should beat their asses every time they ask questions but to expect her to not get tired of it is insane too

No. 1135058

>>1135054
totally valid to be annoyed, go for it. However… Talking about wishing they'd die, saying shit like >>1134977 calling everyone else a normie and expecting them to change THEIR behavior for YOUR benefit… You're gunna get called out. 99% of the nonas here are going through things, be it mental health issues, physical, financial, relationships etc… None of us are expecting our coworkers to have to learn our shit and be different for it. It's an unfortunate part of reality.

No. 1135059

>>1135019
I certainly don't ask the same question over and over again if I know the person has a problem with something. If I know they're lactose intolerant I won't ask why they don't drink milk. Are you being deliberately obtuse at this point?
Don't give me the "all normal people are secretly mentally ill!" If anything, they're narcissistic or bpd, and even if they're depressed, depression is still not on the same level as something like autism, which is both developmental and neurological disorder. Someone like me had to struggle literally since my birth, I remember having the exact same problems in kindergarden and my family treating me like a freak. I also had other medical problems (like many kids with autism do), that I still suffer from today, like muscle pains and gastrointestinal symptoms, I also experienced seizures. Everything was always bad, from important things like bonding with my family (or rather lack of it), to stupid shit like not being able to eat on my own. I wasn't even able to enjoy simple things other kids enjoyed like riding a bike or playing football because my coordination was too poor, kids were able to dress themselves, take a bath, tie their own shoelaces etc. much ealier than me. My mother treated me like a failure and wished I haven't been born and I had to wait years to actually get a diagnosis and for someone to tell me it wasn't my fault.

No. 1135063

I'm reflecting upon my time at art school and wishing I could go back in time and call some of my professors "massive faggots". The sheer arrogance that some male artists, especially when they're in positions of authority, can have just pisses me off. My experiences back then are probably one reason why I distanced myself from any art communities to this day.

No. 1135064

>>1135059
all normal people do usually have issues. You're acting like you're the only one who's experienced the same level of issues as many other people. There are people out there who've dealt with severe CSA, to suicides in families, to extreme poverty, while having many other mental and physical issues almost identical to you. No one is discrediting how much it sucks to be born and raised with autism but the fact you're sitting there and acting like it's so much harder than everything else and everyone has it so much easier is disgusting and completely invalidating. Even you saying "hurr depression isn't even in the same level" like fuck off with that, holy shit. The entitlement is real.

No. 1135068

I am starting to resent my bf because I don’t know if what i feel is real anymore or not. He gaslights me without noticing about the smallest things, it’s always my bpd for him and criticism is annoying and inconvenient all the time. He smokes weed 24/7 is a leftist and local patriot of his stupid fucking part of the city which i hate and never want to be part of, all of his friends are mostly losers who have no job and also smoke weed 24/7. He just failed his exam and if he fails again he will basically have 3 years down the drain while draining my energy in hopes that he will make it for a „better future“ for us both. Man I’m 25 and have never in my life dated a normal man with an actual income or good job and it makes me want to die. I’m just realising this. I have wasted my time again I guess but WHO KNOWS i bet tomorrow i will not feel this emotional and everything will feel „alright“ again.

No. 1135070

>>1135064
I also experienced CSA, I was poor as a kid and had suicidal thoughts since I was 10. Was diagnosed with depression and put on meds when I was 12. Nowhere I said I'm the ONLY one, I know there are other people like me. But they're not the majority and stop acting like they are. They're also not among my coworkers. I know enough about them to know they had non abusive parents, financial stability and no developmental issues. That alone already puts them above me in terms of mental damage. I'm not entitled for pointing out THEIR ignorance.

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my period is making me so fuckin bloated kill me

No. 1135074

>>1135070
I'm trying my best not to be rude, but look at the things you're saying:
>That alone already puts them above me in terms of mental damage.
Do you see how awful what you said is? Life isn't the pain olympics. You honestly will never know 100% about their personal details like that because I highly doubt you're their best friend. Everyone experiences life differently, and some people might not understand you just as much you won't understand them, no matter how much one or the other tries to teach. You're sitting there saying about all the awful things that have happened to your life and think you're the only one suffering them. Sorry to burst your bubble, but the majority of people are dealing with issues in their life. Just because not all of us go on tumblr etc to post about it as a measurement of our identity does not mean we aren't dealing with things.

No. 1135078

>>1135059
Bpd autism and narcissism aren't that different and you and the other autistics are proving this right. You autists mocked any anon that didn't praise you, like narcs do, and even accused other anons of being bpds who shit in their bf's beds while you're ironically the ones who sounds like they have a bpd just by insulting women in such a vile way because they triggered you into a mental breakdown. You're all the same, whether you like it or not and autism isn't some special starchild disorder. You're not special, never have been, never will be.
I'd rather be friends with a bpd aware they have a mental illness than a autismo who feels entitled to all the attention because they're socially retarded.

No. 1135082

>>1135070
NTA but people don't usually bring up abusive parents at work if they have them kek. Not really the time or place to be trauma dumping, ya know?

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>>1135068
Get some standards

No. 1135085

i have to sell my guitar to pay my rent.. feels fucking bad

No. 1135087

Made a bumble bff account yesterday to meet new people and hopefully make some friends (a friend?) but it seems every other profile is either some she/her lgbtg+ ally badge libfem, some she/they “queer” woman, a poly sex worker, or a literal troon hon. I’m not even asking for much, just one or two common interests and similar age. Am I doing too much?

No. 1135091

>>1135068
>i bet tomorrow i will not feel this emotional and everything will feel „alright“ again.
Anon, just because you can convince yourself to rationalize away his shitty behavior/loser lifestyle and pretend it's not so bad, doesn't mean this cycle won't continue forever as your repressed self recognizes how toxic and draining this relationship is for you. Really think about what you're "gaining" from this guy and understand that you're going to be so much happier and healthier without him
>Man I’m 25 and have never in my life dated a normal man
Yeah, that's a lot of us unfortunately. I'm 30 and it's never been the case. You come to realize the average man is selfish, physically and/or emotionally abusive and incapable of a mutually satisfying relationship. I promise there's so much to the world and your life outside of romantic relationships though. I'm happier than I've ever been on my own. Give yourself a chance to really de-center romance as the be-all end-all in the way that men have always done.

No. 1135092

>>1135074
Ok, according to studies between 12 and 18% of girls experience CSA. What's the probability that every one of the 7 coworkers who show willfull ignorance towards me experienced CSA and I have no right to call them out for being ignorant?
>majority of people have issues
No shit. Except something like autism or CSA or PTSD is not on the same level as neurotypical person experiencing a minor inconvenience. A person who's able to have friends and a job without having panic attacks and without the need to constantly medicate themselves in order not to kill themselves are obviously in a better shape than those who do.
>>1135078
Yes I know bpds stick to other bpds. Just don't have children please

No. 1135094

>>1135085
Damn that sucks anon. The struggle is real…
>>1135087
Those apps are just like that…you’re better off looking in group for a hobby or interest you really enjoy.

No. 1135100

>>1135092
There’s no point arguing with Bpdchans. They lack self awareness to empathize with us autistics. They will always be the biggest victims.

No. 1135102

>>1135092
honestly, youre the one whose sounding borderline at this point

No. 1135106

>>1135092
Wait hold up, are you saying your coworkers know about your CSA? Why would you even tell them about it? Autism, I guess, but next time you can just say "I have these traits (or quirks as you called them) because they developed when I was young". If you didn't and you're you're expecting them to read into your behavior and somehow know that you show signs of being a victim of CSA, then that's just unrealistic.

No. 1135108

>>1135102
Keep projecting like you didn’t attack the disabled person trying to vent. Kek

No. 1135110

>>1135106
Double posting, I think I read that wrong. My bad anon looks like I'm the autistic one kek

No. 1135111

>>1135092
I was giving you some cases but you have absolutely 0 idea about the suffering of other people. Again, YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE dealing with those issues. You aren't special for having those experiences, so so many people have them but WHY the fuck would they bring it up to you, especially during work?

Every time you post, all you do is post about how shitty your life is. It's all about you you you, vs 'the normies' who '''haven't been through the trauma that I have (insert long story about how traumatic your life was)'''. How can you be so blind to see how ignorant and selfish you are? You keep framing yourself as a victim of society and it's kind of sad to see. I'm also not neurotypical fyi, also went through severe abuse from my family and relationships, and also on medications, but I'm not constantly framing my trauma as a means of special treatment from the world. The world doesn't owe me shit. You cannot control the people in your life, you can only control your own actions. If they're going to be ignorant to you, you just have to accept it and move on. It just sounds like you have 0 empathy towards anyone because you're constantly stuck in this loop of victimizing yourself and you could be so much better than this tbh.

No. 1135112

You can't cure or treat autism, big difference to depression or most mental illnesses, autism fucks you up since birth and you can't do nothing about it, at least you can "treat" most mental cases, as most people don't have schizophrenia-tier symptoms to begin with, assuming some of your co-workers to be ranging sociopaths with c-ptsd is hella stupid

No. 1135115

>>1135111
Noni this is the vent thread. Let her vent. You’re not her therapist. Call yours.

No. 1135117

>>1135102
Sorry, I'm cluster A, not B, and I will take my actual diagnosis over your internet diagnosis.

No. 1135118

>>1135112
It’s literally mentally ill assholes victimizing themselves to assume everyone else is the asshole. That’s why they assume autists are fucked up because they are.

No. 1135124

Autists genuinely think co-workers who don't traumadump at work have perfect lives

No. 1135128

>>1135112
You can learn to manage it though. At least a little. Even if you have an aversion to or can't afford therapy, you can look up resources to help reduce some of the anger and anxiety. That is, if it's something you want to work on.

No. 1135135

>>1135124
No cluster bs just don’t know how to shut the fuck up and leave us alone and think not caring about your special brokenness is a hate crime.

No. 1135138

>>1135108
hate to say this, but just because anon uses imageboards doesn't mean she has autism OR borderline personality disorder

No. 1135139

I love it when I come to the vent thread and it's pure autistic chaos on all ends.

And anyway, this morning I was so stressed out I had to buy a box of cancer sticks to stop shaking im

No. 1135140

Kiss and make up soon. You’re all mentally ill and annoying to neurotypical stacy like me.

No. 1135142

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>>1135118
"Mentally ill assholes" "victimize" themselves because usually they've been the victims of normie abuse since school. Wait, will you now tell me that EVERYONE was severely bullied at school and kids have no right to hate their bullies? Because we don't know the suffering of the bully and there's actually no difference between the bullied and the bully (even though the one is clearly abused by the other?) Jesus at this point you just sound like a larping centrist

No. 1135143

>>1135135
since when the fuck do borderlines give a fuck about autists??

No. 1135147

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>>1135142
>normie abuse
I’m laughing at you but I also kind of relate

No. 1135148

>>1135115
Yeah i just don't see the problem, anon has a condition and, as most people don't know how to handle it, it can be pretty isolating and stressful. She should be free to vent about those feelings, also anon is assuming OP is the only one that doesn't like "normies" on a imageboard of all places

No. 1135151

>>1135142
Noni I was severely abused. I was bullied. It’s not an excuse. Grow up. You’re an adult.

No. 1135152

we need to do something about the autists cuz my goddd r they annoyin

No. 1135154

>>1135151

I think most of us on here got deep issues from our childhood. Either abuse from our parents or our classmates pushed us to seek out like minded individuals online since no one irl liked or understood us. So it's hilarious when someone acts like they're either much worse or much better off than the majority of us posting here.

You may not have autism or BPD,but you surely ain't a well adjusted normie.

No. 1135158

>>1135151
It's not an excuse for what, exactly? For pointing out how neurotypical people ask the same questions over and over again despite the fact they know you're autistic? Again, explain.

No. 1135159

>>1135143
Nta but there's autists who are diagnosed with borderline too. You can have both.

No. 1135160

>>1135154
literally this, 10000%

No. 1135161

>>1135138
Topkek

No. 1135164

>>1135159
I would even say that autistic traits play a big part in inability to cope and poor trauma resilience, which in turn make one more predisposed to developing personality disorders

No. 1135168

>>1135158
asking the same questions over and over again is an autist trait, maybe your co-worker has the tism like you

No. 1135170


No. 1135173

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Hey, that scrote who told you something that hurt you yesterday? Don't you dare vent about him. You don't know him, you don't know if he was sexually abused by his father and had to be medicated for life to maintain his C-PTSD. Everyone has problems. You're not special. Stop being so bpd. Remember, everybody hurts, and everybody cries.

No. 1135180

>>1135168
I guess you have no arguments then. I accept your concession.

No. 1135181

I was bullied by normies cause of my cptsd-induced hallucinations

My sister was bullied by normies cause she's autistic and won't make eye contact

We are all in this, i don't understand why you guys are fighting, you have a lot more in common than you think
>>1135173
kek amazing

No. 1135183

>>1135142
I root for you to go full sperg and punch some normalfags, fuck it go crazy.

No. 1135184

>>1134233
big fat unrelenting kek

No. 1135185

>>1135181
probably because some nonas wanna claim their life is just THAT MUCH WORSE than others and it pisses people off when people say that shit

No. 1135186

>>1135173
Noni. Not all people with bpd are bpdchans. I was referring specifically to the one screeching at the poor girl trying to vent. Calm down. Not everyone posting is me.

No. 1135188

>>1135185
I never claimed my life was worse than the lives of posters here, no need to take this personally. I'm talking about normies who are ignorant and about bullies. Can I at least complain about bullies? Where do you draw the line? Bullies could have shit life too.

No. 1135189

>>1135173
oh so there's a scrote in this story now?
>>1135180
do you even realize how retarded this post is kek anyways im being genuine, repeating questions that others have answered multiple times is a sign of autism kek

No. 1135190

>>1135100
Bpdchans won't get bullied and be thought of as weird retards. They also don't shill corpse raping men like depp while shitting on abused women like Amber just because of obvious autist malebrain.

No. 1135191

>>1135186
I'm actually making fun of the anon who claims you can't call out anyone on their behavior because you never know how much they suffered in life, I'm not making fun of the autist venting anon

No. 1135192

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why do we keep talking about normies and bullying and c-ptsd (what is this?) and mental illness? don’t your brains explode trying to talk about this or are you all trolling each other? kek

No. 1135194

normies
boolies
beepeedees

No. 1135195

>>1135190
No one defended Depp. Two people can be awful. You’re projecting.

No. 1135196

>>1135173
>scrote who told you something that hurt you yesterday? Don't you dare vent about him. You don't know him, you don't know if he was sexually abused by his father
This is ot from what you're referencing here but there was a series of killings in my area this week. They guy who did it was caught and there's rumours circulating today about him killing these (random) men because he was potentially sexually abused as a kid… so everyone calms down a lil upon hearing that. Imagine killing a bunch of innocent strangers and people rushing to defend you because of some loose rumour of you having trauma. Yeah you and like half of all women my guy. Male trauma gets taken more seriously even when it's not proven, it's not known, it'd not from a good source and it's some word of mouth story that could very well be made up. Still gets taken more seriously.

No. 1135198

>>1135173
This post has me in stitches but I don't think that was the point other anon(s) tried to get across. It's less "don't complain about anyone ever", and more "don't assume people that appear normal at work have never gone through shit", I think.

No. 1135199

>>1135194
am a simple woman, what do these words mean?

No. 1135201

>>1135143
Autists will always blame women for their retarded problems and BPD is the modern-day female hysteria so it makes sense anon thinks every evil person is a hysteric woman out to get her.

No. 1135203

>>1135199
i dont know!!!
can't you see that im autistic, you normie bitch!!!

No. 1135204

>>1135191
never said you can't call out shitty behavior. Go read what I said, I specifically called out them acting like what issues they have are some how worse and thus makes them special, and that others need to abide by their reality. Everyone is always allowed to vent but and call out shitty behavior, bpd autism or normie. The difference is acting like some how what you have is worse than others. OP was saying they have it so much worse, and then claimed their coworkers were normies, when they have no idea their coworkers don't trauma dump on them. Absolutely in no way did I say 'you can't vent about someone treating you like shit.'

>>1135198
This is LITERALLY what I was saying. Thank you.

No. 1135205

>>1135196
If it's random ppl it's not based, but if it was pedos then it would be. Idk why these people always take it out on randos, go start killing some pedos and molesters

No. 1135206

>>1135195
That anon was literally defending a man who wants to kill and rape a woman's corpse while humiliating his victim and I'm the one whose projecting? Kek. You should've been bullied way harder you pickme autist. You literally think a woman shitting in bad makes her bad like a man who fantasized about killing and burning the said woman? Autists really do have scrotebrains.

No. 1135208

Is this autistic anon the same person who was complaining in a previous vent thread about how horrible their friends are for asking "how are you"…

No. 1135209

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Stay chimping, nonnies. Xoxo

No. 1135210

>>1135206
Man shades of things not black and white don’t enter your visor. Have fun.

No. 1135211

>>1135203
calm down, you're acting like an actual retard (ironic)

No. 1135212

>>1135203
kekkk anon my sides

No. 1135215

>>1135168
>asking the same questions over and over again is an autist trait, maybe your co-worker has the tism like you
Inb4 autist-chan was actually the one who has been bullying her non-diagnosed autistic coworker because the coworker doesn't mask and acts like a sperg with her since she feels comfortable.

No. 1135219

i don't know how i'm going to afford living in a few months. i'm living off student loans and have no family help anymore. i do school full time + an internship and have no time for a job. rent in my city is expensive everywhere. i can't afford therapy/important doctors appointments i need to go to unless i wanna end up with a feeding tube. it all feels so bleak right now.

No. 1135220

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everyday, my autists have low to no empathy reasonings get proven more and more as true

No. 1135222

>>1135198
If they went through some actual shit they wouldn't say insensitive things to someone who's in visible distress. Among these normies I have only one coworker who's been through some shit (childhood with toxic mom, then the mom got sick and she had to take care of her and then the mom died, so part of her life is similar to mine), and guess what, she never asked me any of those retarded insensitive questions others did, she also admitted she can't understand my symptoms, but that's literally this one person, everyone else is ignorant. I prefer the people who don't talk to me at all of those who try to get the autist to open up just to traumatize them even further.
>>1135204
I can clearly judge the damage someone carries from the info they provided me and their overall behavior. I know who's on medication and who isn't. I know who has good family and who doesn't. And the people who had good lives usually make the most insensitive comments. I wonder why. Maybe because they're normies who don't know shit about life?

No. 1135223

Tinfoil: autism-chan and boyegafag are the same poster

No. 1135227

>>1135173
>if she actually wants to know things, or to stop asking the same questions over and over again and she said something like "You have so many disorders haha". I know she's a very playful person and she wanted to make a joke or something but her previous criticisms and questions were serious.
You talked about two women, one becky and one the one above in your original post >>1134853
No men. Your changing your plot because it's clear you're just a retard who keeps shitting on women and accusing them of having bee pee dee and not being special and sweetie enough like you. >>1134853

No. 1135228

>>1135220
It’s okay. You burned the empathy out of me.

No. 1135230

>>1135220
you're trying way too hard to prove a point, why are you so obsessed with autists? both mentally ill people and autists have negative traits that are generally unbearable to normies, what's the point of this infighting?

No. 1135231

>>1135223
Most believable tinfoil sitewide.

No. 1135232

>>1135219
See if you’d be qualified for EBT and housing. Your college will provide you with contacts.

No. 1135234

>>1135230
The truth. Love all you babies infighting dumbasses or not.

No. 1135235

>>1135205
He's a 20 year old and his targets were all middle aged men which people are half sympathising with now based on the rumours. I mean if all people who've been molested by men later went on killing sprees of just random men to cope… we'd be running low on male population in no time.

>Men: it's soo much harder to come out about sexual abuse as a man

>People reacting to stories of male sexual abuse: I totally believe you and of course it's understandable if you felt the need to kill unrelated people to cope

No. 1135236

>>1135219
Do you have ways to reduce sensory input or coping strategies?

No. 1135238

>>1135232
i'm graduating next month so i don't think that'll apply to me unfortunately

No. 1135239

>>1135227
Why does it matter if I mentioned men in my original post? Although I also have experiences with retarded normie men. I just work with women mostly. But it doesn't matter, the rule about "don't assume others didn't suffer just as much as you!" applies to everyone, regardless of sex. I used the scrote as an example to demonstrate how ridiculous your arguments sound to me.

No. 1135241

>>1135239
low to no empathy

No. 1135243

>>1135222
no you clearly cannot judge shit. You're talking about how you have autism, and yet have the social and emotional intelligence to be able to decipher if someone has been thru issues? You do realize that people take trauma and act on it differently right? Not everyone is like that one girl that's going to tell you their life story or shit they're going through.

No. 1135245

>>1135238
If your income is low then you’re likely qualified anon. You don’t have to be a full time student. They just want you to have some kind of job, even part time.

No. 1135247

I kind of hate that I have no female friends online. It's strange because all of the friends I made irl are female.

No. 1135248

>>1135235
If it was a raped girl who killed random men, no one would've been defended her aside from a small group of women online. Take that in, it's seen as natural for a girl or woman to get raped but the same thing happening to a man somehow makes it ok for him to kill countless random men, not even his rapists.

No. 1135251

>>1135239
I think your argument is still valid, i don't know why anon is pretending most normies aren't outright rude towards disabled people without necessarily suffering from anything horrible themselves, that's kinda the point, cause they're normies

No. 1135252

>>1135243
Again, where do you draw the line? When are autists justified to shit on normies for saying insensitive shit? After all, that normie could've been hypothetically sexually abused by their dad or something, and the fact that they have friends, relationship, stable job and don't need any medication to function doesn't mean they're in a better shape than the autist, who needs medication, has no friends, no family and struggles to perform daily tasks?

No. 1135253

>>1135251
Thank you. I really feel like anon is trying to play devil's advocate at this point

No. 1135254

>>1135239
You're a scrotebrain and always will blame women even though the scrotes will see you below themselves too, no matter what. Take your meds and stop thinking every woman is a beepeedee chan. Kek. Dumbass thinking her retarded ass could switch the story around to act like a man bullied her when she's been attacking every woman herself.

No. 1135255

>>1135253
not playing devil's advocate. Just think anyone trying to claim their life is worse than others and thus makes them normies is bullshit victimizing mentality. Never said they couldn't vent, just said that type of mentality is toxic. Ya'll jumping this like it's me shitting on them for complaining or being autistic when that was never the case.

No. 1135257

>>1135254
Yeah, I was actually bullied at school by boys mostly, girls just ignored me and talked behind my back. Now I work with women and I have only one male coworker, I don't socialize outside of work so when it comes to my current experiences, it's kinda obvious I vent about women? What's the thing you don't get?

No. 1135260

you guys sound so fucking retarded when you use the word normie kek sounds like another form of nlog-ism tbh

however, i identify as normie! yes, i have psychological issues that are honestly quite blantant towards others, but i still consider myself a regular girl and you guys cant stop me!

No. 1135262

>>1135255
You're right, anon. Autist-chan changed her story each time someone pointed out a flaw and even tho her original post and her other posts are all about her screaming at normal women, she's acting like she got bullied by a man and that's what she was venting about.
Her original vent didn't even have one male coworker, it's about how her female coworkers are trying their best to give her advices and how she screeches back at them for daring so.

No. 1135267

>>1135260
you go normie-chan! to infinity and beyond!!!

No. 1135268

>>1135257
So you're accepting that this post >>1135173 is a lie you made up because the people that you were complaining about are actually women and you only acted like they were men when anons pointed out your misogyny and aversion to accusing women of having hysteria?

No. 1135270

>>1135260
Not them but are you making a joke? Being normalfag is a good thing. Also just because people aren’t having meltdowns at work doesn’t mean they aren’t mentally ill.

No. 1135271

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>>1135267
YEEEEAAAAHHHH!!!

No. 1135272

>>1135254
>>1135268
Hold on, she cannot vent about someone just cause they're female? that makes no sense
>>1135260
"normies" are not going to accept you just cause you bullied another schizo at an imageboard
>however, i identify as normie!
>i still consider myself a regular girl and you guys cant stop me!
top kek, you will never be normal

No. 1135276

>>1135222
There are people who go through shit and still act insensitively. Like I get where you're coming from, it's very annoying and frustrating when you're losing your shit and a coworker just looks at you and expects you to get it together asap, but there is definitely overlap at times. You sound a lot like me from a few years ago!

>>1135268
I think that was just making fun of other anons in the vent thread. Like a "if I can't complain about my coworkers, you can't complain about a scrote" response.

this is my first foray into infighting, I'm having fun kek

No. 1135277

>>1135262
I had literally one coworker giving me advices (the one with a dead mom I mentioned). The others just make retarded remarks, so I vent about THEM, I don't vent about good things, retard. Is asking me why I don't make eye contact an advice? Is telling me how rude it is of me to zoom out in the middle of a conversation an advice, even though I'm not even aware in the moment of dissociation? Is telling me to fire myself when they noticed I was crying in the bathroom a good advice even though they know I can't find a different job now? Is telling me how clumsy I am every time I drop something an advice? I'm interested in your answer.
What would be the point of mentioning the one male coworker in my OP when he doesn't even talk to me besides "hi"?

No. 1135279

>>1135272
Go back to your containment thread. That autistic pickme lied about how she had been bullied by a guy originally when her vent post is only about her getting autistic rage because two women tried to understand what was wrong with her and how they could understand her better. She's also been screeching at any women here and saying they have BPD, which is the new name for hysteria, aka a woman who's crazy because she's a woman.

No. 1135280

>>1135260
Much like being ugly, being a normie is something that is dictated by outside perception rather than waking up and deciding to be a normie. Sorry to rain on your parade.

No. 1135282

>>1135280
That anon who said autists had low empathy was right, huh.

No. 1135283

imagine if cunt normies would just not comment on ottists being awkward and not making eye contact, then the vent thread wouldn't be a heaping load of monkey shit. fuck you normans and loudmouths

No. 1135284

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I bought a satifyer pro and I completely regret. I literally get off once a week and would rarely use it anyways. I don't really know how to use it and when I tried to use it I felt a whole lot of nothing. I am so dumb.

No. 1135285

>>1135277
your co-workers are major assholes, jesus christ
>>1135279
Containment thread? what are you talking about?
>pickme
>if you vent about any woman ever, you are male-aligned

No. 1135286

>>1135260
you are on an imageboard. learn the history. maybe you do not belong here lol

No. 1135287

>>1135283
>fuck you normans
Best post so far

No. 1135288


No. 1135289

>>1135283
Imagine if autistic tardlets wouldn't have mental breakdowns in random threads whenever they saw an opinion they disagree with.

No. 1135290

>>1135289
>you can't complain about normies in a vent thread!

No. 1135291

>>1135284
Was it really expensive?

No. 1135292

>>1135289
Man you got tilted didn’t you? Tell me all about what those mean disabled people did to you?

No. 1135295

>>1135292
I had an autistic girl harass me and try to touch me even though I told her to stop. Had an autistic guy literally show me violent videos of rape. I don't like autists, never will. No one does irl either.

No. 1135296

>>1135293
Let it all out Noni. Vent your heart out.

No. 1135298

>>1135289
You will never be a normie

No. 1135299

>>1135295
>No one does irl either
Yes we know normie, I would prefer if you just leave us alone instead of baiting with "friendship"

No. 1135303

>>1135299
i thought normies didn't go on imageboards tho?

No. 1135305

>>1135303
we are mocking you dumbass

No. 1135306

>>1135305
so does that make me bpd then?

No. 1135308

>>1135295
I’m sorry those things happened to you but non autistic people do those things too. You’re really projecting.

No. 1135309

>>1135305
You're mentally ill and that anon wasn't even me. You can't even keep your arguments straight. I'm a normie and should be feel bad because I literally got harassed by two mentally ill retards?

No. 1135313

i had an abortion a while ago and i cant stop thinking about it. i've told my close friends that it happened, but i've never talked to anyone about it in depth. i hate myself for letting it happen and i know i am objectively a bad person for doing it. i'm consumed with guilt whenever i think about it. i had to go through it alone, locked in the bathroom for 6 hours, because my partner had threatened to stab me and kill himself a few days earlier. i had awful morning sickness, and hadn't been able to keep food down for over a week. i even threw up the painkillers the doctor had given me so the whole process was agonising, like the worst period cramps i'd ever had multiplied by a thousand. i bled through my clothes so i had to wash them in the bathtub whilst sobbing and bleeding and vomiting everywhere. i still remember the feeling of everything falling out of me. it was horrific. i've never seen so much blood and gore in my life. my body kept trying to throw up even though there was nothing left. i feel like i deserved how violent it was for letting it happen in the first place.

No. 1135317

>>1135308
autists never wanna admit to the bullshit that they commit, it's always "oh allistic people do it too!" with you guys even when it's proven that autists do it more kek

No. 1135318

>>1135303
I never said that.

No. 1135320

>>1135313
anon i am so sorry i really do not know how to word a reply. this is so awful. you need to get away from your partner, i know probably easier said than done but can't you stay with family or friends? you are not an awful person at all. please get help and support anon, i really don't know what else to say i feel bad.

No. 1135322

>>1135313
I know it won't help, anon but it's the mother's choice to give birth and mother children. Even foxes have the ability to abort on their own and abortion has always been a common practice, women have always been doing this and terminating pregnancies isn't a bad thing especially when it's better for your own wellbeing.
How would the baby's life be if she got born into a life with a suicidal mentally ill father? Would it be better for him to kill the baby and have the baby experience all of those gore instead of what you did? You got through all of that pain not only for yourself but for the "baby" and probably saved her from a bad life. You're a mother who made the right choice, although it's seen socially unacceptable because the idea of women being able to stop men from trapping them is seen as evil and scary. That's why abortion is seen as such a big crime.

No. 1135327

>>1135313
Oh anon…you aren't a bad person. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that alone, that sounds horrific. You didn't deserve that pain, and you still don't. Seconding what >>1135320 said, you need to get away from your partner if you haven't already.

No. 1135331

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>>1135309
I would utilize anyone who sexually harasses people, autistic or not. That has nothing to do with my vent though, I will shit on insensitive normies for being insensitive and no amount of "a bloo bloo but they may have a secret c-ptsd vietnam war veteran flashbacks every time they make a remark about your behavior" will change that.

No. 1135332

>>1135309
>normie
>participates in a 2 hours-long argument on a imageboard

No. 1135334

>>1135223
I'm a believer

No. 1135337

>>1135331
>a bloo bloo but they may have a secret c-ptsd vietnam war veteran flashbacks every time they make a remark about your behavior
kek

No. 1135343

>>1135313
I live in a country where abortion only came in here a handful of years ago. I always heard men insisting that if we brought it here women would be getting them all the time.. repeat customers because it's just that easy. It's sickening how removed some people are from the reality of what women experience around pregnancy loss whether it's through miscarriage or abortion. We kind of get that miscarriage must include pain but we downplay abortion because empathy runs short with some people if a woman makes a choice in the matter.

I hope you got away from the guy, a clean break from him was needed and men will use babies to make sure women cant get that.

No. 1135359

i've relapsed back into having suicidal thoughts. it's not even because i'm sad anymore, it's just because i am so fed up with life and i would rather be done with it already. i'm tired of it all, the cycle of working and chores and how boring it all is, nothing excites me anymore. at least i did some of the things i wanted to do already because i don't have any ambition left in me.

No. 1135369

>>1135332
I'm not saying I'm a normie autismo, that anon accused me of being one when I told her I literally got harassed by two retards.

No. 1135387

>>1135320
>>1135327
thank you for your kind words, i'm not with him anymore but you're right that i should get support

>>1135322
this really did help. i've not spoken to anyone about it before so this means a lot. thank you.

>>1135343
absolutely. i really resent the way that it is portrayed as either completely evil or completely benign. obviously it's not evil and i believe it should be available to everyone, but pretending its completely harmless and easy doesn't help anyone.

No. 1135404

>>1135260
You're right normalfag sounds way better

No. 1135424

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Just got catcalled while drinking from a water fountain, love that I can’t even take care of my basic human needs without being sexualized publicly. Love feeling self conscious because I was “sucking that water”

No. 1135426

>>1135424
Drink that water, replenish your thirst, hydrate your body and organs. baby, you know how much i love that dihydrogen monoxide, you and it are more precious to me than beer and porn

No. 1135444

Moved out of abusive parents' place but they still talk to me, help me a little financially and know where I live. Just had someone listen to recordings of my mother and told me to utilize domestic violence/abuse resources. It literally took me all this time to fully comprehend and understand how abusive and controlling my mother is and I'm in my late 20's…and I've been spiraling downward until recently…something snapped and I decided to take action. I've been calling a ton of domestic abuse resources and a couple of places are trying to set me up with appropriate therapists, been telling select people the truth. My parents still don't know what I'm doing and think that everything is fine. I just want to escape. I just started utilizing food pantries…but I keep on binge eating tons of sugar like crazy (my friend got me a ton of big cookies for my birthday and I ate them all) and beforehand I stupidly bought and binged on a bunch of shit but I'm not gonna do it anymore. It's difficult though because I am so addicted to sugar. I've been binging consistently for several months now and I've been gradually gaining weight and I'm disgusting and full of acne so it sucks but whatever. I am going to try and get a second job on the weekend at a local restaurant or do GrubHub or DoorDash or whatever. I am scared that I will never be able to escape my parents but I have to. I need a restraining order or something. I have the option to go teach English in Hong Kong in August but I don't know if I should quit my new job to do that. I don't make much money here…I mean I make an OK amount but I live in a HCOL area so it's not much. Not sure what to do. So exhausted but trying not to give up this time like I have so many times before.

No. 1135476

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i'll really be alone for fucking ever. fat, ugly, keep overeating, all i do is work, i have no idea how to meet people. i wish i could be in a loving relationship with someone but men either ignore me or hate me. i'm only 30 but it's so fucking sad. i can't believe i never found anyone and this is just my life now. i hate how there's just no person close to me that i can rely on. i'm all by myself.

No. 1135495

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My best friend lost her virginity to her assistant manager (stupid service job) when he invited her over so she could do molly for the first time. The next day he dropped a bomb on her that he has a girlfriend but they’re in an open relationship and she wouldn’t mind that they hooked up. After my friend told me all this I told her how fucked up it was that he hid the fact that he had a girlfriend until AFTER they hooked up. And also how fucked up it was that he hooked up with her after giving her a drug she’s never done before. She got really upset with me and said that I was implying that she got sexually assaulted when she actually really wanted to hook up with him anyway, she’s mostly just upset that he has a gf and didn’t tell her. I probably shouldn’t have said anymore but I said that he was probably lying about being in an open relationship and that she should try to find out who his gf is and ask her herself. I feel retarded that I couldn’t just keep my mouth shut. I was trying to be supportive but I just ended up reeeeeeeing about how all moids do is lie and they’re all sexpests when she didn’t need to hear all that right at that moment. She hasn’t spoken to me since and this was a few weeks ago. I don’t know how to reach out to her … I feel like I need to apologize but I also feel like everything I said was correct.

No. 1135505

>>1135476
you can find someone at any age, don't close yourself.

No. 1135509

>>1135495
Everything you say is correct, indeed. It also sounds like she values fucking that guy more than your friendship. Ignore her and move on.

No. 1135515

>>1135495
maybe you can apologize for hurting her and explain you said the wrong thing at the wrong time because you were angry at him in retaliation for hiding it from her, doesn't mean you revoke your opinions just provides an explanation, emphasizing that you're mad as her friend that he did that because you care for her. aka you're sorry that your anger overtook your judgment of how to comfort her. (but the anger exists because you care)

No. 1135527

>>1135495
She's emotionally invested in a fucking loser. Sucks but if it's her decision to stop talking to you because reality hurts that much, then she's gonna have nothing but problems with this guy and is asking to be strung along. She'll eventually learn, whether it takes her a month or a decade.

No. 1135528

A really creepy looking guy wouldn’t stop staring at me when I was at the DMV. When I leaving he was also sitting in his vehicle next to mine with the windows down, so he watched when I was leaving too. Luckily he didn’t follow me but I hope I never see him again

No. 1135535

>>1135495
when someone tells you they got played, they don't want you to painstakingly detail how much worse they were played and violated than they even realized. don't want you to elaborately narrate their humiliation and ensure they fully understand how thoroughly they were humiliated. it's called dignity. he left her with some by lying to her, you didn't.

No. 1135541

>>1135535
>He's the one that pumped and dumped her but anon spilling the truth is the one that ruined her dignity

Moid defence squad needs to take a day off around here

No. 1135542

I just found out a guy I dated in highschool is going by a female name and is using they/them pronouns and FUCK. This is the second time this year that a guy I was close to in high school trooned out. It just makes me feel fucking icky and gross. I know these men for who they are, I’ve seen them say and do vile things to women, which is why I am no longer close to them. Now, as fully grown men, they get to just go by a girl’s name and different pronouns and I’m supposed to “welcome them to womanhood” with open arms? Fuck off. I feel like I’m going crazy. I know it’s not about me at all but I just feel like crying.

No. 1135557

>>1135541
I am not defending him. I am explaining why her friend does not want to be around her anymore. learn to read.

No. 1135575

>>1135542
> I know these men for who they are, I’ve seen them say and do vile things to women
This is why these misogynistic moids start going by they/them. It’s so that they can continue openly saying vile things to women, but in a “woke” and “acceptable” way. They think they’re “just one of the girls” now and that they can’t be criticized anymore. In clown world, they’re apparently absolved from their behavior because they’re “totally-not-male-even-though-they-look-the-same-just-with-dyed-hair”!
I think the they/them and she/they moids are just as bad if not worse than the fully trooned ones. At least you can spot and avoid a tranny, like a walking red flag. But the they/thems change absolutely nothing about themselves but still have the same male entitlement.
I remember seeing a Facebook post by a they/them/she mood actually defending “Lia” Thomas. Ofcourse you would enjoy seeing women getting beaten up in sports, you fat piece of shit.

No. 1135585

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>>1135505
all men in their 20s are fuckboys, all men above 35 are ugly and look like the wendler (german cringe celebrity, picrel). i never got to date around or anything, so now i'm 30 and absolutely inexperienced instead of reaching the being confident and at peace with myself/my sexuality stage. i'm such a fucking loser, it's embarrassing and i can never tell anyone.

No. 1135592

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I want to dress in a million skirts and frilly blouses and live like that, but it is often so uncomfy for me
And it is really rare to find a natural fabric clothes that would fit and I am not even fat I have fucking stupid ribcage and fucking stupid shoulders
Also it’s expensive and I am technically unemployed and I have nowhere to go really in those clothes

No. 1135595

>>1135592
Learn to sew anon. You have all the time in the world.

No. 1135596

>>1135291
It was around $50. Too much for a cooming device I will never use.

No. 1135599

My feet are cold

No. 1135602

>>1135595
Actually I thought about it, previously I have made a couple of pieces (they kinda sucked, because weak skills and low experience, but hey, I have completed something)
So hmmm maybe I will push it further

No. 1135604

>>1135599
If you have a bathtub, fill it with warm water to warm them up. If you have a small bucket, fill it with warm water and soak your feet. Otherwise warm up some socks in the dryer than wear them. Wear fluffy slipper socks. Or if you have boots with sheepskin, wear without socks and move around to warm up.

No. 1135609

I hate wearing a uniform. It’s part of the career and it’s partially for safety, but I hate it. I don’t get to dress up how I want to anymore, and clothing was a way I could express myself. I can at least wear earrings and necklaces, but it doesn’t feel like enough. I hate wearing these stupid stiff baggy uniforms that are ill-fitting because they were made for boxy ass male bodies. I don’t have the energy to dress up on weekends since I’m so tired and would rather wear sweats after a whole week of heavy rough polyester.

No. 1135610

i think i either have autism or i truly had a shitty childhood because a coworker asked for me to take a shift for her bf because he needed to go to some entry job interview (but now that i think about it this sunday most things are going to be closed in my country so..?) anyway im genuinely afraid of telling her no cause i fear i might come out as selfish or something as they are immigrant so any chance to have a better job is for the best BUT its a 14 hour shift that i would have to take next to my original one, god i hate feeling this guilty whenever i think about me first and not knowing if im being an asshole or not

No. 1135611

>>1135609
I feel you. I started doing crazy stuff with my hair like putting it up in super high ponys with big bows and I would wear matching clip on earrings. They would let me wear sweaters too if they were small so I would try and match sweaters as well. I also tried to make my uniform as cute as possible kek. I actually wore pants from a different restaurant because they fit nicer and had pockets and my boss kept telling me not to but I never listened.

No. 1135617

>post actual milk in celebricows
>thread dies
>anons start sperging about non milk
>thread lights up

what has my child become

No. 1135618

>>1135610
how on earth is this indictive of autism or a bad childhood? this is a normal thought pattern. that is a lot of work.

No. 1135623

>>1134921
kek cringiest post ive read, you really have this boogeyman in your imagination

No. 1135625

>>1135610
What >>1135618 said, that's a totally normal way to feel. Also, it's illegal for you to work that shift I'm pretty sure with your other shift next to it. Is it even legal to have someone work 14 hours? Don't take that shift, anon. Maybe she should ask someone else, or call in sick. It isn't your responsibility to make other people's lives easier. You need to take care of yourself and it isn't selfish to put yourself first. It's literally your life nona.

No. 1135654

>>1135610
Literally say No. It's not your responsibility and it's not your fault you can't do your own shift + 14 hours more of his after that, you can't reasonably expect that of someone. Where I am it's not even legal to work more than 13 hours at once.

No. 1135661

Why do people argue with vents? Makes no sense. Anyway, I want to kill myself. Too many medical issues that have no cures and I'll struggle with them forever. I pay hundreds of dollars to be told to take ibuprofen and deal with it. Not to mention the mental illnesses that I stopped taking meds for because they didn't do anything. I'm like a husk of a person.

No. 1135667

>>1135661
Because people can disagree? So you're saying that you want to kill yourself but any anons that are going to tell you not to will be arguing with you too, does that mean we should all agree and cheer you on so you don't take your meds for your obvious mental illnesses and end up killing yourself?

No. 1135668

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i'm not ready for this test on monday at all
i have a d in a class that should've been an easy a (i am hoping i can somehow get it up to a b but i'm not confident)
i have a million things to do right now but it's 1:30 am on a friday and i am drinking some nice tea, reading manga, and thinking on my unsteady future instead.

when i wake up i swear i'll be productive for real (i am always so so SO productive in the moments before my demise) but right now i just want to zone out and relax.

also hoping my mum doesn't make a big deal about us not being able to do anything for easter (i have a test i need to study for, references for an essay to do, and i gotta cook up Something for a group project by 8:30 pm today. sisters we are so exhausted

No. 1135670

>>1135495
be up front about it with her, maybe? tell her "you're my friend and i love you so that's why i got so spergy – i didn't mean to shame you and i'm really sorry if i did" or something like that. good friends are hard to come by, so don't lose her over some fucking scrote

No. 1135673

I’m watching great pottery throw down season 4 and I thought someone (not rose) was a troon but then got some spoilers and I’m so goddamn mad ahhhhh

No. 1135674

>>1135661
It makes even less sense to post a vent and expect no responses or only positive responses. Just get a diary instead of posting it publicly where people will want to give their 2c.

No. 1135675

>>1135661
I know this isn’t advice thread but if it’s that bad then just smoke a fuck ton of weed or get a Xanax hookup. I’m not being an asshole. Take the pain away for a bit which may lead to death or not. Just don’t be stupid because there’s no god and there is always someone dumber than you

TLDR nothing matters and there’s ways to feel pleasure which is ultimately what leads to happiness

No. 1135681

I don't want to get together with men anymore because they're pushy, and this is somehow supposed to be charming. I'm not asexual or anything like that, but I'm incredibly sensitive when my sexual limits are pushed. Also having retarded porn humor around me like a guy told "you must like getting choked" after I said I almost choked on something. Let me be a fucking prude, I don't know why I should open my mind to shit I know I never want to be done to me, but zero men respect boundaries. I'm not surprised young girl troon out en masse.

No. 1135684

>>1135681
That comment he made is disgusting nonita, who even thinks that is appropriate? porn is a disease. I'm sorry you deal with that, scrotes are gross to the core

No. 1135685

>>1135681
>Joked about chocking during sex.
It's over. Men simply aren't worth it any more jfc. What a world when we start thinking being against getting hit or hurt by your partner during sex is being a prude. I'm sorry anon.

No. 1135688

>>1135681
>Being chocked is considered normal and easy to joke about.
Women have less and less reason to have sex with moids. All the risk for us yet no one cares, it's all about the coomers. Reminds me of the horror stories of men spring it on women during sex without asking since it's so normalised.

No. 1135694

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>>1135688
I'm sure anons already know this, but reminder to run if a man chokes you and never let one attempt it, even if you're a pickme convinced it's kinky. It's seriously dangerous.

No. 1135711

>>1135681
Men are so garbage. Who says that!?

No. 1135772

>>1135681
That’s wildly inappropriate and gross. I would given him the most disgusted look and asked him exactly why he felt invited to make such literal verbal harassment at a woman.

No. 1135803

>>1135694
Lol as an adult I used to choke my mom regularly who abused me as a child and I felt great. When she started to emotionally abuse me harder as a young adult I just snapped and decided to beat her like her son and exhusband did. I recommend all daughters and even sons to strike back like that.(bait)

No. 1135807

>>1135803
No one asked tranny. Neck yourself.

No. 1135809

>>1135803
>recommending sons to beat their mothers who are already beaten by their husbands
Kys scrote.

No. 1135811

>>1135803
Kill yourself

No. 1135812

>>1135803
Stream your suicide if you want female attention

No. 1135815

>>1135807
>>1135809
>>1135809
>>1135811
>>1135812
My mom also sexually molested me but she’s in denial of it. I’m so thankful I got rid of her, if I didn’t I’d end up in prison. She always asked me how I would be able to choke her and I never even wondered at that point how she was able to choke a helpless 14 year old. Because I was ridden of guilt.
Also, my replies are from broken whore mothers who hurt their daughters, idc lol.

No. 1135817

>>1135815
I got rid of her = I got out of the abusive cycle. I never killed her as much as I wanted to. Especially when she encouraged me to commit suicide, I mean who does that to a teen?

No. 1135820

>>1135809
What’s the difference if a daughter does it? I always hated it as a child even tho both my bro and mom abused me when my brother would beat my mom. But I stopped having any empathy for her when I’ve realized mothers are actually the worst for radical feminism, because they have taken the dick and are the biggest pick mes. I proudly am unmarried and have no kids and never will have any.

No. 1135821

>>1135313
Murdering your child is a pretty good reason to feel bad.

No. 1135823

so it's just bait, got it.

No. 1135824

>>1135823
Nah, it’s real. But this is something an abusive mother would say because in their heads a mom is sacred and perfect and does so much. I wonder if that’s why a lot of them feel they can shit on their helpless young daughters, since they can’t lash out on their based abusers lol.

No. 1135836

>>1135824
NTA but your mom probably wishes she had aborted you.
>>1135820
Your larp is shit. Stop.

No. 1135838

>>1135836
I hope your daughter gets more vengeful than me, abuser.

No. 1135839

>>1135836
for half an hour no one replied yet your autist ass had to

No. 1135886

So fucking dumb but I thought I got along well enough with my coworkers then today I come in and everyone has bunny ears on for Easter and no one told me the plan and the one lady I'm kinda friends with asked me after I came in if I wanted her to go out and get me a pair too and it's just like……. no. I would wear them if you had bothered to think of me in the first place. Just feeling left out, unappreciated, shitty

No. 1135896

>>1135886
wow, im sorry nonna, youre right to be upset

No. 1135899

I swear to god my entire family is being indoctrinated into the trans cult. Where just 2-3 years ago everyone had a healthy suspicion about the legitimacy men pretending to be women, now they act like it's no big deal and even ""correctly gender"" the male troons they see on TV. These are OLD PEOPLE. 60+!!! Is it really true that anything can become normal if you're exposed to it long enough? I hate this shit so much. I expect my younger family members to be stupid about it because they grew up drinking the koolaid, but this is just insane. I feel like a crazy person because I'm the only one who seems to care about how fucked up and wrong it is.

No. 1135904

>>1135899
Transphobia is not cool anon. Being on the same ideological ground as the nazis on /pol/ should worry you.

No. 1135905

>>1135904
Oh my fucking god please say youre baiting

No. 1135906

>>1135904
What the fuck did you just say to that anon?

No. 1135916

>>1135905
>>1135906
>>1135907
No I am serious. This is the "are we the baddies" moment for you. Please consider it.

>>1135912

First time I post in this thread.

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>>1135904
WHOAH this troon goon says I'm NoT CoOL

Guess what Hitler also drank water and had a pet dog, sometimes took dumps, and believed the sky was up. Why are you on the same ideological grounds as the king of Nazis?

No. 1135919

>>1135917
Ideologies about sex and gender are not the same as drinking water or having a dog. I clearly said "being on the same ideological ground", not doing some things they do.

No. 1135920

>>1135904
Someone doesn't know where they are kek

No. 1135924

>>1135919
transphobia is cool and /pol/ loves trannies because 'look men are even better at being women than women gottem' plus many polfags are trannies themselves.

No. 1135925

>>1135919
>Ideologies about sex and gender

Great, now go to /pol/ and ask them what their views on women and women's rights are. Then come back here to check if it's a mirror image as you say.

No. 1135926

>>1135904
end yourself

No. 1135928

>>1135904
I'll bet $10,000 you spend at least 2 hours on Twitter a day. Do better and stop caping for men in dresses

No. 1135929

>>1135916
How the fuck am I the baddie when a man in a dress is trying to barge into my spaces, anon you gotta go back

No. 1135931

>>1135924
Nazis can't be trannies anon. Also I am pretty sure they don't love them, they just also hate women and love seeing us fight with the trannies. Transphobia literally serves their interests.

>>1135925
Well, the part about the relation of sex and gender is exactly the same, /pol/acks are just super trad when it comes to gender roles.

>>1135926
I probably will at some point.

>>1135928
What's wrong with Twitter?

>>1135929
Transpeople can be both male or female and they are really oppressed members of society, you are just creating a boogeyman to be mad at.(adorable)

No. 1135932

>>1135924
>transphobia is cool and /pol/ loves trannies because 'look men are even better at being women than women gottem' plus many polfags are trannies themselves.
This. Also most 4channers are fags who like dicks so they worship troons since doing so allows them to larp as straight rightie trad men while sucking faggot cock.

No. 1135933

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>>1135931
>What's wrong with Twitter?
>they are really oppressed members of society

No. 1135934

>>1135932
Very homophobic post.

No. 1135935

>>1135931
there are plenty of detrans women here who will tell you troons are bs
>>1135934
KEK

No. 1135936

Seeing people younger than me makes me feel Bad

Which is funny because the person that triggered this post is just ONE year younger than me but is so much…..just far along

How do I stop this

No. 1135937

>>1135899
Sometimes older people are weirdly ok with troonism because it affirms gender stereotypes they were brought up with. My mother is hardcore conservative and was outwardly homophobic when I was a kid, the only reason she is less so now is because she had a huge falling out with my cousin who came out as lesbian. They were really close before that, and eventually my mother realized she was the one in wrong, but she really didn't accept it easily. But when this guy she went to school with growing up trooned out she accepted it instantly because "he always acted like a girl" so it made sense to her.

No. 1135939

>>1135934
I'm not homophobic, you faggot. I just hate aids ridden fags! They're the reason aids killed so many innocent people and fags continue to shit on women and now even try to barge in women's spaces just to get off sexually.

No. 1135940

>>1135939
Still very homophobic. Also why would homosexual men get off to women? Don't they like men?

No. 1135941

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>>1135931
>the part about the relation of sex and gender is exactly the same

We believe men aren't women and that the vast majority who say they are, get off sexually to wearing dresses and going into women's spaces. "Gender euphoria boners". We believe you can't put on a dress and then dictate what feminism is.

/pol/ users who hate trannies do so because their only concern is fuckability, and usually laugh at the women who lose medals to them. They think it's based but just don't want to look at them. Their /lgbt/ board has hundreds of them and confirmed groomers there as well as on discord.

No. 1135942

>>1135932
4channers troon fags righties trad I have a poisoned cyber soul worn from all the crackling horrors along this line of things

No. 1135943

>>1135940
They get off to thinking they look better than women and that they can steal other girl's straight boyfriends.

No. 1135944

>>1135935
Detrans woman here reporting for duty lol. I wish someone had questioned wtf I was doing, challenged my views. A healthy amount of discussion would've been welcome but theres too much tiptoeing around it now because 'it's soo valid' to be a tran.

No. 1135945

>>1135941
tbf, /lgbt/ and /pol/ are pretty dam different boards.

No. 1135946

>>1135931
Hast thou been in gynecological cancer groups where trannies barged in to feel included? Peaked me real good, you handmaiden.

No. 1135947

>>1135945
>acting like /pol/ isnt filled with fags but rather randomly happen to praise troons just because they have dicks
>they also can't go a few hours without talking about dicks and making weird black cock jokes
>totally different from the gays of 4chan amirite

No. 1135948

>>1135935
>>1135944
Detrans people do not somehow invalidate trans people.

No. 1135950

>>1135946
I seriously doubt that happened. And if it did, one crazy person does not somehow translates to everyone being like that.

>>1135943
You are really talking about homosexuals in a very negative light.

No. 1135951

>>1135948
Post your hand, troonie. Even your hand can't pass as female so that should ne enough to invalidate you

No. 1135953

>>1135947
/pol/ literally claps for muslims executing gays.

No. 1135954

>>1135950
Ah, the narcissistic prayer. It did and it does, it happens even in pregnancy groups which you would notice if you cared about women kek get well soon

No. 1135955

>>1135954
Transmen can get pregnant.

No. 1135956

>>1135955
Because they are actually women

No. 1135957

>>1135955
Yeah, they're women. I am talking mtf and you know it.

No. 1135958

>>1135950
NTA why are you caping so hard for these people? Are they paying your taxes? Are they paying for your internet bill? Are gays paying off your debts? Are they paying for your bundles? Are they paying for your bills? Are they delivering groceries for you at 2 AM? Are they buying pads for you at 3 AM when you get surprise periods? Are they paying for your food? Are they doing your laundry? Are they handling these gas prices?

No. 1135959

>>1135953
>talking about wanting to fuck troons and how black cocks are superior 24/7 doesn't mean you're gay alas you act like you hate fags
>not like all homophobic leaning men in politics end up being caught in gay orgies
I don't hate homosexuals. Lesbians and bi women are normal people while fags are deranged and shouldn't be praised. Why are you acting like aids ridden fags are the only homosexuals that exist? Quite lesbophobic of you, but then again handmaidens love to ignore lesbians while literally worshipping gay men.

No. 1135960

Why the fuck do I even keep trying to date men, or anyone for that matter… the longer I dated my ex the less he was willing to talk when problems appeared. Now I'm going for someone else who seems to be a bit like that too. He's a bit angry at me rn. I've already apologized but he just keeps being mostly silent in dms. Yesterday he noticed I communicated with my ex a bit (we're still friends but I've 100% not getting back with him and this new guy should know it), and send me a message about it. Later today he tweeted something like "I wonder how the cashier at that one sports shop is doing"
Doesn't that sound like he got jealous and is now trying his absolute best to try to make me feel jealous or something. We're not even dating yet. I also did a favour to him and he didn't thank me, and I'm sick right now and he didn't say "I hope you get well soon". Even my ex had the common courtesy to say something like that. Fuck

No. 1135961

>>1135957
Well that comes back to my post about the cancer group, some crazies do not invalidate the whole group.

>>1135958
I have friends that are trans, gay, bi, nonbinary, etc. And they are lovely people. The transphobia, homophobia and nonbinaryphobia I have seen here so far is quite extreme.

No. 1135962

>>1135959
I am not worshiping gay men, I am simply stating that they are normal people and not sexual deviants. Also AIDS is easily treatable these days.

No. 1135963

>>1135960
Massive ego on that fella.

No. 1135968

>>1135961
>they/them friends
kek ok then

No. 1135969

>>1135961
I'm sure you think misgendering someone is up there with actual assault.
If you don't like it here, leave.

>>1135962
>AIDS is easily treatable
It's still a fatal disease and requires lifestyle changes. Your samefagging is obvious. Twitter misses you

No. 1135970

>>1135961
go back to twitter themlet

No. 1135971

>>1135968
What's wrong with wanting to be called what you feel like?

>>1135969
I am not samefagging. Also misgendering is literally verbal assault.

>>1135970
Later.

No. 1135972

>>1135955
because FtMs are actually women???lol

No. 1135973

>>1135962
>aids is treatable
Umm no. They drugs aren't accessible in every country and even then, people have to use them forever because it's not a cure but a symptomatic treatment which means anytime they can't take the drug, their hiv will develop to aids.
You're a faghag and it's clear, you have fags, trannies and pickmes as friends but weirdly no lesbians just like all faghags. You're the homophobic one because you're going so hard to defend scrotes that invade lesbian spaces just for their fetish. Do you know how many trannies are larping as lesbians and invading countless online and irl lesbian spaces until all that's talked about is dicks?

No. 1135974

>>1135971
I feel like I am black on the inside, I have always identified with african american culture, would you entertain my delusion?

No. 1135975

>misgendering is verbal assault

No. 1135976

>>1135961
>nonbinaryphobia
Kek

No. 1135977

>>1135961
You have the entirety of mainstream internet to agree with you but you just have to come here and defend trannies in the one place women are openly allowed to express negative opinions of them, huh. Transwomen will never be women and transmen will never be men no matter how many people you bully or brainwash into agreeing with you. Go back to twitter or wherever you came from.

No. 1135978

>>1135975
I guarentee this anon has never considered a man calling a woman 'ugly,' 'bitch,' or 'whore' as "literally verbal assault"
4/1 is my favorite day of the year!

No. 1135979

>>1135971
>misgendering is literally verbal assault.
Reading this sentence felt like assault kek

No. 1135982


No. 1135983

>>1135948
Stop just parroting 'invalidating' over and over. I mean on paper (on file) I'm trans myself because I went through the hassle of getting diagnosed with GID by both a psych and then a specialized gender therapist and going through the process only to then stop. The underlying feelings are real and I know that as much as any tran or ex tran but tbh how you choose to deal with those feelings is what I would argue we need to be more open minded about. Transition is pushed as this cure all for anyone with a niggling feeling about gender and that's becoming a whole problem in itself at this point.

No. 1135984

>>1135962
AIDS is not easily treatable. It's a virus for which there is no cure. Symptoms can only be managed. It was a bioweapon made by the CIA to depopulate Africa.

No. 1135986

>>1135975
>>1135976
brb, I'm going to go do some more verbal assault by misgendering asap

No. 1135988

>>1135976
when white people and privileged fucks want to feel oppressed so bad

No. 1135989

>>1135983
This is how I feel about it too. Why are we not treating body dysphoria like this too then? Those people can be suicidal too because they think their bodies are not what they want.

No. 1135991

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since the questions thread reached its limit, nonnas there is such a thing as non-femcel glasses? i have pic related but i don't like them anymore after seeing a picture of various convicted and famous femcels. i feel like maybe its the bangs but letting them grow isn't an option because i have a very ugly scar on my forehead

No. 1135995

>>1135963
Any advice for my situation tho?

No. 1135997

>>1135991
Rimless glasses.

No. 1135999

>>1135995
He's already being so dramatic when you guys are not even officially dating, I don't know if I would want to continue seeing him, if I were you. But this is also because my preference is a very, very chill relationship. What did you apologize to him for?

No. 1136000

>>1135991
Glasses and bangs have nothing to do with femcels. However looking like you have never slept or showered in ten years and spending your time on 4chan… That's what those girls had in common

No. 1136004

>>1135999
I accidentally kept waking him up when I tried to call him a few times. I noticed he was online on a certain website so I thought he was awake and it was ok to call. If I were him I would've put my phone on silent but then again he sometimes gets calls from work to come substitute someone on a short notice

No. 1136006

>>1135960
Put an end to whatever you two have going on, take pleasure in being the one to end it and cut him off so that he can't bitch you out after. He's too petty to deal with.

No. 1136009

>>1136006
That's a bit easier said than done. I honestly wish I could go back in time to when things were still fun with him

No. 1136012

>>1136009
How long did the fun last? I mean you're not even dating and the fun phase came and went already. Why would you not run a mile from this?

No. 1136025

>>1136012
A month and a half. I'm really bad at completely cutting contact with someone I care about tho

No. 1136063

>>1136047
The first thing is to stop doing FWB. Very rarely does it ever benefit women at all, and even if you're in one with another woman chances are she will be just as sleazy as the one you experienced. You say you're looking for love but signing up for FWB? Those things are completely opposite, sorry but you will never find love with a FWB situation because the entire point of that is to be casual and no strings attached. This isnt even a bad thing that you're putting in effort of course - but the type of people you involve yourself with simply don't care about any of that, they just want to fuck and go and that's the simple reality of it. Strongly suggest you stop doing this and instead work on yourself and look for people who are interested in longer term and more committed relationships, and don't think that you can fix or change the people who you get into FWB with. You can't, it's a simple incompatibility and the sooner you cut them off the better.

Unless you enjoy FWB of course, although I doubt it considering you said you want love. Fucking people who won't even consider you a partner or won't even entertain your romantic/sexual fantasies is not the way to find it.

No. 1136077

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I am sat in the park to calm myself down instead of having an autistic monkey meltdown in my house, and my day has been almost ruined by the hideous sight of a moid on a bicycle wearing jeans, dress shoes and a formal shirt with a peaky blinders cap. Who the fuck do you think you are on your little fag bicycle? Who the fuck cycles in tight jeans and a dress shirt? This isn't Surrey bitch go put on some trainers and a tracksuit and ride a bmx like the real men around here do. God it infuriated me, there is one thing I hate more than moids in tight jeans and its moids in tight jeans on a gay little bicycle. Fuck off.

No. 1136079

>>1136077
KEK nonnie I love you

No. 1136097

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>>1136077
kek nonnie I feel this! You are totally right and everyone who disagrees is shit

No. 1136108

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Sometimes I regret being cringe on here.

No. 1136135

>>1132232
Nothing gets me more infuriated that having to look at the hideous faces on the social media pages of the girls I went to high school with. All homophobic, conservative, hypocritical whores. Karma did me so well. I now go to a prestigious university, they go to state colleges and are flunking out of their fucking courses. I lost a good amount of weight while the girls who fat-shamed me got fat - and I hope you STAY FAT! The outside matches the inside beautifully. They can all burn in hell for I care. I'm living life and having fun and I see them complain about how miserable their lives are. It's just beautiful. And for their nasty homophobia, I think it would be so funny if they all died of AIDS, oh the irony. Anywho that's my vent :D(:D)

No. 1136140

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There's this coworker I desperately want to fuck.
I didn't even care about his existence until my friend told me he was her crush. So I started noticing he's attractive, but still didn't really care, until I had a certain dream. And then another dream. Now I'm attracted to him.
I told my friend about this because I felt bad about lusting after her crush, but she told me to go for it. But he's a fuckboy and a LVM. Still… I'm horny for him. I want this to stop already, but it's hard when I see him everyday.
For years I thought I was "demisexual" but now that I'm turning 26 soon I find myself wanting to fuck guys just because they're hot, even when I don't like them or would never want to be in a serious relationship with them. Seriously wtf.

No. 1136141

>>1136077
anon, i love you kek. I hope the rest of your day goes well, aside from the fags

No. 1136143

I'm so fucking mad right now. No one cares about anyone but themselves and forgets everything that doesn't have to do with them directly. You really can't depend on anyone and every time I'm in a situation where I have to it goes badly because of this. Just say outright you're not going to help or do something. If my sister wasn't gone right now I'd have punched her already. I'm so mad, you ask someone to do one thing and they don't do it and don't even tell you and instead just wait for whatever happens when you find out. Fuck I hate people like that so much I hope they all die from trusting the wrong people

No. 1136171

>>1132232
>naturally wake up a little early
>good mood, good energy, feeling productive
>get up with plans to make a cute breakfast, do some chores, enjoy being a domestic little bitch
>surprise, dog is having poopy butt troubles

im going back to bed

No. 1136181

I hate when people try to argue an objective fact about yourself (hair color, eye color, spelling of my name). I think I know better than you. Let's go into the sunlight and tell me my hair is brown again, maybe the cones in your eyes have autism

No. 1136182

>friend and I moving out of a house we both shared together
>me frantically packing and organising
>friend plays vidya all day
>friend also completely stops doing chores
I'm seriously about to just take my shit and leave the rest for her to figure out without me

No. 1136187

>>1136181
>Let's go into the sunlight and tell me my hair is brown again, maybe the cones in your eyes have autism
Anon I'm laughing so hard, I also really feel this

No. 1136194

Ugh I was behind in my washing so wore my favourite pair of leggings to work that I wear under ppe and I've somehow still managed to put a hole in them. These jeggings were such a staple of my wardrobe I miss her already. I don't have any free time to go shopping for clothes until next, I'm going to do an ozzy Osborne and buy 50 pairs of the same pair of jeans so this never happens again

No. 1136200

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I do not know if I am bi or straight up a lesbian. I've always defended girls since elementary, fighting boys, then I would play games like Habbo and Imvu and explicitly only edate girls and when I was a erotic doujin reader, I would look for Yuri, or just imagine myself as the guy making the girl feel good. I still think about this one tomboy girl who helped me when I fell 3 years ago, that was the first time I really wanted to pursue dating a woman, and I never had that feeling again.
Maybe I just really care for women and nothing more?

No. 1136214

I want to go to therapy, but damn is it really hard in the South. There’s not that many options, I’m guessing because no one around here believes in mental health. But the ones that do exist are all “faith-based”. It took me long enough to break away from Christian religion because of the guilt, and I would rather not hear some therapist telling me my problems are due to “a lack in faith” and not because I have PTSD. Damn I just want to talk to someone about my trauma and recent suicidal ideations, but I can’t even find therapist in my area that would be qualified. And I refuse to talk to a male therapist because it’s always awkward.

No. 1136221

>>1136181
This reminds me of when I had to get my ID done for the very first time. Don't know what it's like in other countries, but in mine they write your height and eye color on it too. The conversation with the lady doing my ID went about as following:
>What's your eye color?
>Gray
>It looks blue from here
>It's gray though
>I'll write blue, okay? The room here is pretty dark.
>But it's gray
>Okay, so I have written blue-gray now! :)
Then we went on to my height
>How tall are you?
>168cm
>Let's meassure you on the wall
>anon is about to take her shoes off
>Oh you can leave them on
>But I'm wearing heels
>That's fine, we'll meassure you like that
>anon gets her height meassured with heels
>You're 174cm!
>But I'm wearing heels
>Don't mind it :)
Never in my life have I felt so listened to, but also not at all listened to at the same time.

No. 1136222

>>1136221
god that's insufferable

No. 1136224

Went out for lunch with a friend and a walk to enjoy the spring weather, and doing that while living in a european city right feels…weird. The cities in my country aren't that different from Ukraine's, so I can't help but imagine it all turning upside down the way it's happening now over there. I look at building and imagined what they would look like as rubble, how the parks would be ruined from tanks and bombs, the streets empty or filled with bodies etc etc. I don't think Russia will attack my country (even if they're throwing a fit over us contemplating joining NATO), but there is an underlying concern and the generational fear of the big bad Russ that has been ingrained in our minds for generations is really making itself reminded.

No. 1136239

My dog just suddenly yelped and started acting weird dragging his leg, so I called the vet and he has spinal disk injury. He's going in for surgery tomorrow but might be paralyzed in his hind legs for the rest of his life. I can't stand to think about a lively and happy dog losing the ability to play and run around. There's a chance for complete recovery but I can only think about the bad scenarios now.

No. 1136242

>>1136239
I'm so sorry anon, I hope everything works out for your pal and he's able to completely recover. Let us know how it goes.

No. 1136248

>>1136242
Thank you, anon. Hopefully it'll work out. Or I'll just have to do my best to adjust.

No. 1136256

>>1136221
Nonny pretty much the same happened to me. My eyes are also grey and the woman who was putting down my info was bordering starting an argument over what colour my eye were. She also put me down 7cm shorter than I actually am as well.

No. 1136259

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it’s good that my boyfriend lives in a different country because i genuinely want to stab him to death

No. 1136262

Wtf nonnas today was a nice day so I went on a walk with my bf in nature, then when we're walking we see this fat guy in the distance and he's completely naked. Why?? Is it a fetish?? It was a hot day but there's nowhere to swim and no beaches near us. I did not want to see that. Parents walk with their children often around there. Need eye bleach.
I rarely go outside and the first time I do in weeks I have to see that. Just my luck.

No. 1136266

>>1136259
why do you want to stab him? ldrs aren't real.

No. 1136282

>>1136262
That's so vile, you should've called police nonemergency on his ass. I reported a guy for pissing in a public park with kids around the other day (the park has a bathroom). Men are a blight on our society

No. 1136284

>>1136200
If you're questioning between bi or lesbian, it's clear you've established that you have same sex attraction. To really figure out if you're bisexual or not, you have to go back and examine your opposite sex attraction. How do you really feel about moids?

No. 1136285

>>1136262
Should have phoned the police he's either mental, intoxicated to the point of madness or a pervert. My step brother tackled a man fondling himself while watching kids. He brought him to the police station. B

No. 1136291

Got my period early fuck. On the upside that means I probably won't have my period anymore by thursday which is convenient.

No. 1136310

I miss my mom.

No. 1136313

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Both of my roommates are autistic moids and they just cannot function with daily household tasks. They never put dishes in the dishwasher or at least rinse them off before leaving them in the sink so the crud dries and gets hard to scrub off. They're more than willing to help- but I have to ask them to do the task which means I'm still carrying the mental load of the housework, and they're just going to do it wrong anyway so I have to step in.

An example of the ways in which they are just useless: The other day one roommate wanted to know where the trash bags are (we've been living here for a year and they've always been in the same place) I was busy working so I called into the kitchen that they were underneath the sink in a floral reuseable shopping bag. He just opened the cabinet door and stared for 5 minutes so I had to come over and point to it, and even then he rifled through the bag which also contains some plastic shopping bags and was like "it's not here" ITS UNDER THE PLASTIC BAGS IDIOT. In the end I ended up changing the trash bag because he just walked off and shut the door to his room.

My second roommate is at least more competent but is always volunteering for only the easy tasks like putting away clean dishes. I even tried to come up with a system where I post tasks on the fridge with sticky notes like they're fucking video game quests and after doing one or two they just ignored them.

I've tried quietly going on strike to see if they would notice, but since they never clean up after themselves anyway it just gets to a point where I cave and tidy up because it's too gross.

It all boils down to one major gripe: they were never instilled with the virtue of cleaning up after yourself immediately after you finish whatever you were doing. Like they've just been pampered their entire lives and had their mothers clean up after them. I just can't imagine that, even in preschool I was taught that everyone does their share by cleaning up.

No. 1136314

The gypsys are back in the town I live, they have parked their caravans on a small greenery. God I hate gypsys they are literally scum and should be exterminated like insects

No. 1136318

>>1136314
Based. I fucking hate pikeys.

No. 1136321

I had surgery and it was supposed to line up with my period but my period ended early. Yay right? But now I haven't pooped in five days because the pain meds cause constipation. I really could've used those period poops right now. Please God let me poop, I finally dropped one tiny nugget this morn. I've eaten way more than that worth of food but that was all that came out. I wish for poop please my belly is so round and full of all the delicious dishes I wasn't allowed to eat before surgery. I would like them to leave now please. Please evacuate the building. Help

No. 1136326

>>1136318
I hate them. They were worse when my mum was young, when they were around you knew you had to bring your kids toys inside or they would be stolen by the gypos

No. 1136328

Why do people love to talk so much!! I don't care about your family or why you came into my store! Don't talk to me, get your shit and get out! And stop letting your child run around and touch our fragile products! I wasn't even supposed to work today but unfortunately I have a munchie enby coworker who always has "emergencies". So sick of this week where I only get one day off thanks to Easter.

No. 1136332

>>1136314
As a burger I never understood the racism towards gypsies. Then when I was visiting Europe I had my first interaction with one: she asked if she could eat the gelato I just bought, I said no, and she then smacked it out of my hands and splattered it across the ground. Whyyyyyyyyy???

No. 1136333

>>1136332
Everyone in Europe hates them, and if they don't they have obviously never encountered them. Unless you are Irish, a lot of them come from Ireland.

No. 1136336

>>1136314
I remember as a kid there was two phases where gypsies camped out nearb, burglaries shot up an insane amount each time.

Then the council built actual houses for them nearby. Fucking nice houses. Again burglaries shot up. Then they… burnt down their own houses and left again. Never understood that part.

No. 1136337

>>1136328
god why are munchie enby coworkers such a universal experience lmao

No. 1136338

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I have to wait about two weeks until I know if I have cancer or not and I hate it. This will be hellish two weeks bc I'm ridden with panic attacks at this point and idk how to think clearly. I have a hard time concertinaing because my mind constantly wonders if I'm sick or nah, and if yes, how much time is left for me and so on.

No. 1136349

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Forgot to bring my eyedrops with me and my eyes feel like the driest, deadest deserts of the Sahara aaaaah

No. 1136356


No. 1136393

A while ago I posted about how this girl friendship bombed me (if that’s a term, kek) then completely ignored me unless she needed something. Today, after ignoring me for a pretty good while, she texted me. I had that dopamine rush for a minute thinking she might want to hang out but she just needed something. Told her I’m not available and I can’t help, and she came across as a bit….bitchy? Why is it so hard to make friends? Like I’m in the period of my life where it should be easy, but it’s incredibly hard. I exert effort! I take my time with people! They seem to like me, but that’s it. It’s surface level. Even when we hang out one time, I realize they’ll never do it again.

I’m not ungrateful; I was worse before, and the socialization on this site got me through some shitty times. I’m Doing Stuff now, not rotting in bed as much as I used to, but the last time I hung out with a friend was last year. And they weren’t really a friend. I just want people, community, any fucking thing. I’m usually cool with it but recently I’ve been craving going out and having fun and realizing my time is passing without doing anything with anyone and I just wish it wasn’t so.

No. 1136399

>want to buy merch
>shipping costs almost as much as both items
>literally 1 shirt and a basic poster

Come the fuck on. I'm not spending 50€ on that, half of it being just on shipping. What's even more annoying is that it's from eu to eu country.

No. 1136400

I was laying on my side sobbing and some tears got in my ear and now I have an ear ache

No. 1136406

>>1136313
GIRL you really let yourself become a maid to not one but 2 fucking scrotes. And they aren't even in a relationship with you kek
Stop giving in to their willful helplessness and keep on a strike until their lazy asses start learning for themselves. You complain about them being helpless and pampered? Then stop feeding into it and toss them to the hungry wolves. Disgusting moids are annoying but a women (One browses LC at that!) who sits back and becomes a pushover for one is even lesser.

No. 1136407

>>1136393
I understand how you feel. I love being alone but I wanted to get out more and go to bars recently. I have acquaintances in the next town over, but they're always hanging out and never invite me. If I asked them what they were up to I'm sure they would extend an invite but I want to be invited because people were thinking of me.
Sometimes I wish I could move to a new place and start over.

No. 1136413

>>1136393
This is so crazy but what I did was pretend to be Christian and join a very small church nearby. There were some younger women and older women who love organizing social outings and I started getting invited out left and right. Fun things, too! Going to a huge arcade, bowling, swimming, craft nights…

No. 1136415

it irks me sooo fucking bad how one of these scrotes who used to be on kids react joked about lia marie johnson being "in her crackhead era" when her name was brought up in this vid, especially since she allegedly got groomed into doing hard drugs by a dude who was way older than her… imagine knowing this and still cracking up about it?

what the actual fuck is wrong with scrotes.

No. 1136420

>>1136407
nta but same. people suggest to make online friends, join online groups, but it's not the same. it feels so disconnected. you're not going out with those people. and because i can't look at them face to face and am only reading text, i don't know how they actually feel or what they really think.

No. 1136422

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It's been almost 20 years and nothing is getting better. I just lost the will to kill myself but got indifferent instead. In fact so much, that I don't have any serious drive to change anymore, wether it's disappearing or getting better, except for occasional anger that vanishes after an hour or so. I don't know. Deep down I'm still that depressed kid. I don't think this will ever change unless I pump my head with pills and become dependent on them. I wouldn't even care about any of that if "doing nothing" wouldn't imply I keep burdening others. I'm just so tired, I don't wan't to die, I just want to sleep forever.

No. 1136453

Air bnb season has truly begone with some country folk having a loud drug party two lots over and they're treating the fucking parking area as an extension of their nightly rate. They're lucky I'm exhausted and don't have to be up early tomorrow for work or I'd phone the police

No. 1136485

I wish weebs would keep their greasy fucking pedo autism away from renfairs.

No. 1136496

>>1136485
>everyone's in historical costume!!
>which is basically cosplay
>which means I can wear my fursuit
>which means my nonbinary partner can wear their bdsm gear (a corset is a corset)

And that's how renfaire went to shit

No. 1136500

a streamer that i wanna be like (/jealous of) is playing my main game and all the scrotes are going crazy for her. i feel like a loser bc i doubt i would be fawned over by them like she’s is if the roles were reversed.. yes feeling like this is very immature but this game is all i have going for me so l0l
i just can’t help but feel like an absolute bum

No. 1136501

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that feel when you know you could theoretically get the man of your dreams because others stated you're attractive enough and you know he thinks fairly good of you as a person but you're literally too autistic to talk to him and even after working for a year at the same place you're still unable to hold a conversation with him, and every day you have to watch something you can't have and as the days pass by you watch him slowly slipping away, you're wasting your time and your life and you know you're going to die alone, kissless loveless sexless virgin

No. 1136502

>>1136501
Just go near him and smile, you don't have to say anything, just smile and stand next to him and maybe he'll get it

No. 1136503

>>1136502
I literally can't smile to people anon, I don't know how to fake it to look normal, like something has to be really funny to me in order to smile, also despite people of both sexes giving me hints I'm attractive I have a huge body dysmorphia and I always feel deformed and I feel ugly when I smile, can't explain it better

No. 1136506

>>1136496
There were several sellers this year who just had shitty anime prints and stuffies. I’ve also seen a dramatic increase in the number or comic book bros the past few years. Can’t there be one thing that these freaks don’t ruin? I’ll probably stop going at all now.

No. 1136508

>>1136077
Ew sportswear…

No. 1136520

>>1136503
Ugh autists really do it to themselves

No. 1136522

>>1136501
Nonnie I know how you feel. I’m too autistic to comfortably converse with men I’m attracted to unless we were already friends in the first place but then I get so nervous talking to attractive men that the only men I can be friends with are ones I’m not attracted to lol. I’m not too concerned about being in a relationship though but it sounds like you really like this guy so maybe try thinking of it as exposure therapy. Like do small things a little at a time until you feel comfortable talking to him. Even if you fuck it up or are awkward, I think it’d be worth a try then just watching him eventually date someone else. I also totally get if you’d rather just suffer and watch from afar though. Sometimes it’s just not worth the stress. We can be wizards together.

No. 1136525

>>1136503
Jenn? You're straight now?

No. 1136526

>>1136503
Nta but are you (wrongly) associating smiling as exlusively an expression of humour and nothing else maybe and that's what's keeping you from smiling in non-funny situations? Maybe try practicing smiling in the mirror or something, you'd probably benefit from being a little more expressive.

No. 1136528

I'm afraid I won't wake up tomorrow. I often feel this way and I have a hard time sleeping because of it.

No. 1136529

>>1136528
Let's trade places

No. 1136530

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>>1136077
>tfw the only men I'm attracted to are the faggy looking ones

No. 1136531

>>1136530
same ;;

No. 1136542

>>1136530
That's okay. it just sucks men dont embrace looking feminine and are instead pressured/encouraged to troon out.

No. 1136545

>>1136522
I tried many times nona. He's a funny guy and he likes to banter with everyone and I see how easy it is for everyone to talk to him which makes it even harder for me. He says something playful to me and I literally have a black hole in my brain and nothing comes to my mind, like how to respond to him, I only get ideas for the response minutes after that situation kek. Even today, I prepared in my head what I wanted to say to him, something he asked me about yesterday but I didn't have the info. And despite preparation and literally repeating a few times what I wanted to say, I still fucked it up, even the tone of my voice was all over the place, I really have a hard time keeping my voice normal, especially when I want to share something with someone I like, I also stuttered and repeated myself a few times and of course my voice was too quiet because he politely asked if I can repeat myself. At this point I was cringing so hard I wanted to escape as fast as possible. It's never natural like with other people, I either randomly say something weird to him, like info dump him - and even if he responds, I don't know what to do after that - or he tries to banter with me like he does with others and I fail at playing along and my only responses are uhh yeah and mhmm lmao
>>1136526
I really don't understand how can you express something you don't feel, like I have to feel good in order to smile, how can you smile when you feel stressed out?

No. 1136549

>>1135284
I bought a new one after my old one died, and the new one came broken/dead. My bad for shopping on Amazon I guess. Depressing, how will I fap on medication now?

No. 1136577

>>1136545
I feel for you. It sounds like you're overthinking your interactions with him, which causes you to mess up because you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself (I'm exactly the same way pretty much lol). But I think you have nothing left to lose in this situation except to keep trying! It sounds like he's a nice guy if he keeps talking to you despite you being more shy around him. Maybe the end goal doesn't necessarily have to be dating him, but I think even practicing conversing with a guy you're attracted to can be good experience. I also wonder if it's a personality thing. In general I find it hard to talk to really friendly, charismatic guys (even if I want to talk to them) because our personalities are so different, whereas more introverted guys were easier for me to talk to. Back when I used to talk to men at least…

No. 1136590

>>1136577
yeah you're right, I should use it as practice. And it's true that he's very nice, he's not only cheerful, witty and smart but way more considerate of others than other men I've seen, you don't have to ask him for stuff, he just figures it out for himself without the need for you to tell him, helps others etc. I'm trying not to think of him like he's the only one out there but it's hard when other men just pale in comparison
I have the same thing with introverted guys anon. And maybe that makes me a hypocrite but I really wouldn't want to be with someone like this. I just want someone who's different than me, definitely not another autist, and I feel like that would keep me more grounded and stopped me from staying in my own world constantly. I would really want someone who's like
>hey anon it's sunny outside let's go for a walk, let's do X activity
and not someone who's grumpy and wants to read and play video games all day like me.

No. 1136602

I hate it when I get asked what my pronouns are. I am a woman, I look like a woman ,talk like a woman, and behave like a woman. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK MY PRONOUNS ARE!?

No. 1136603

>>1136590
>hey anon it's sunny outside let's go for a walk, let's do X activity
My god I fucking need that from anyone at all

No. 1136604

now that i've pushed past 30, i have to deal with insufferable "spinster" friends. if they wanted off the moid train, great, but that's not the case. i've been telling them since our early twenties: you can sell yourself short either by dating down uggo losers who will be too secretly self-hating to ever provide a solid lasting relationship (they did), or by virtue of being an all-too-easy random whore, senselessly moving from frustrating fling to frustrating fling (they did too). the only real "wall" is what you decide to make of yourself. they've made their beds, and now i'm forced to sit with them.

No. 1136605

>>1136590
manic pixie dream boys don't exist, unfortunately.

I've learned that sunny happy people really only tolerate other sunny happy people. They can be polite with others, but ultimately they want more of the same.

No. 1136607

>>1136602
Simply look them straight in the eyes and say “I am a woman”. That sentence holds amazing power.

No. 1136609

>>1136607
Most recently I replied with "haha, what do you think?"

I am a Slav immigrant in a very PC country so I play the card of "I am a stupid Slav, idk how to be PC" to stay sane.

But like holy fuck it is SO annoying. And I feel like it is happening more and more lately. It makes me so angry.

No. 1136610

>>1136393
I'd be your friend and go out with you if I could nonna

No. 1136612

>>1136413
Nta but I would do this if the church near me was better honestly

No. 1136614

>>1136605
So… the kino normie bf and autist gf trope never happens irl?

No. 1136615

>>1136614
I wanna say no because men tend to be selfish and don't want to invest time into "fixing" the neet/autistic/depressed grill, the way women do.

No. 1136619

>>1136615
There are men who are in to “fixing” aka molding seemingly vulnerable woman into a fembot of his liking. Bold of them to assume that all autistic women are pliable though.

No. 1136620

why it is so hard to find girlfriends to smoke weed and chill with them. i'm tired, always having to beg to somebody to finally hang out. i get i'm boring and a sperg, but i'd be happy by just one hour of being out of my fucking house. the option left is hang out with moids/simps but i don't want to feel like i owe them something, because they nearly always do it for sex.

No. 1136621

it is so hard to find female friends. i just want a female friend i can say retard around and not have her threaten to cancel me

No. 1136622

>>1136614
>>1136615
Basically, this. The couple might exist, but the dynamic is usually both sitting on the couch in the dark vegetating, rather than the bf encouraging the gf to go outside.

No. 1136623

I hate myself… no genuinely

No. 1136625

>>1136620
Cuz most don’t actually want female friendships no matter how much they tweet about girls supporting girls online. They prefer hanging out with moids and simps.

No. 1136626

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>>1136620
I'll smoke with you. Lets go hang out by the ruins on the beach

No. 1136635

>>1135931
>Nazis can't be trannies
There's now way you've ever been an alive person walking this earth

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No. 1136645

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>>1135931
damn, shut up!!

No. 1136653

>>1135931
>Nazis can't be trannies anon
a lot of them are
>Also I am pretty sure they don't love them
trust me, they do lmao, specially the closet gay/mysoginistic ones

No. 1136654

>>1136621
I could be her

No. 1136655

>>1136621
discord tag now, I'll add you

No. 1136656

>>1135931
YWNBAW

No. 1136658

>>1135931
>you are just creating a boogeyman to be mad at.
tranny

No. 1136659

>>1135916
>This is the "are we the baddies" moment for you. Please consider it.
>First time I post in this thread.
MALE

No. 1136660

>>1135904
Transphobia is super cool actually, I love being transphobic ♥

No. 1136663

>>1136221
The last time i got my passport renewed, i was asked if i wanted to update some info and had the almost exact eye convo but afterwards the man said it was stated as grey somewhere already. So that was a waste of good 10 minutes.

No. 1136668

>>1136590
Good luck, nona! Even if it doesn't work out with this guy, I think just getting that experience of talking to him will make you feel more comfortable for the next guy. Sometimes it's also a matter of time and place and if you find it really difficult to talk to this guy it could also just be that the circumstances just aren't right for you to feel comfortable and that's okay.

Unrelated but I am a grumpy shut-in who would prefer another grumpy shut-in, but that brings its own whole set of problems since two incredibly introverted people aren't likely to cross paths. It's a struggle for all of us out here.

No. 1136671

>>1135916
penile post

No. 1136676

I’m so tired of being the emotional support retard of the whole family, I love my family a lot, they’re important to me and I’m seriously grateful for all that they’ve done for me, like not kicking me out of the house when I failed in college and let me study another career.
But this shit is tiresome, I always have to make my parents make up when they fight and I’m just tired, it has been like this since I discovered that my father has been constantly cheating on my mother, like, just divorce, I’m already old enough to understand, it would be honestly better at this point than having to listen to my mom dealing with my dad’s tantrums because I guess he feels like everything went wrong economically.
And while it has gone wrong, it’s like, bitch, this is nobody’s fault, if you want to blame someone, maybe blame the ghetto ass bitches you were fucking around who voted for a shitty communist party, when you should’ve focused on earning more money so you can do all the things you like to do.
I don’t want to lose contact with them, but I seriously want to move out, I want to have my own apartment in another country and live with my best friend so we can take care of a cute dog while I work at some fancy academy with amazing pay and she does her art stuff that she can sell for the price she deserves to sell it.
I seriously don’t want to get married, I don’t even want to have kids, it’s too tiresome, I’ve been taking care of a bunch of grown ass kids already, I don’t need that responsibility, specially if that means having to give birth to one and make sure that the moid I married doesn’t go full retard.
Seriously, men should get castrated the moment they get married, that will surely make them stop wanting to look for excitement and shit, like, what is more exciting than having a family that loves you? Is fucking someone younger than you really that amazing? Because I seriously don’t see it, I don’t understand.
Sometimes I just want to not wake up because it’s exhausting having to have responsibilities, I wish I was a neet who spends the day playing shitty Chinese videogames, cooming to anime shit and talking like a retard with other retards about retarded shit. I want to be a fucking ignorant who is a selfish bitch as well, only doing whatever because pettiness and wasting my life away.
I’ve spent years telling my parents to go to a fucking therapist because I’m just existing and not a psychiatrist, but of course my dad doesn’t want to, but if we told him that it’s okay for him to go fuck ghetto bitches then I guess he would be okay with it.
Also, I’m sick of my father’s side of the family too, they only keep asking for money because they want to spend their doing ghetto parties and going to the beach. Like what? You’re around 4 married fuckers, you and your spouses can just save money like responsible adults and help each other out.
My cousins too, they’re 3 sisters around the same ages, all graduated with jobs, maybe ask for help to your family of 8 fuckers with money for tacky parties and shitty cars? Do you think they could help? With their plots of lands and slaughter houses? I don’t know, I wonder!
Like, whenever my father’s side of the family asks for money he gets unhinged, I swear he is a bpd-chan, it’s getting really tiresome.
Sometimes I wish I could just die because this cycle keeps going on and there’s always something fucking everything up that doesn’t lets us get any savings so we can have a decent life. If I died, then it would be less money to spend, whatever is used on me can be sent to my cousin’s children or to my uncles shitty parties at the beach. Everyone would pretend to be sad for a while and then everything would be great because my brother already has a job and supports himself, he could even just travel to Africa and give some money to my parents whenever, but I would need to die for that.
I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow, I’ve been repeating this basically mantra for months, maybe a year already, I don’t want to wake up, I just want to stop bothering everyone with my existence.
And my family keeps thinking that me telling the men of the family to create onlyfans is a joke, but I’m being serious, they want money? Well, get ready to crush mice and bugs for some good cash, you don’t want to do it? Well SUCK IT UP AND SHUT THE FUCK UP STOP GETTING MAD OVER EVERYTHING YOU FUCKING PUSSY
Jesus fuck I’m so tired already.

No. 1136680

I'm terrified of dying but I have no other choice. I am terrified more of surviving the fall than dying. I hope that my death will be quick and that I will finally find peace from the suffering I have endured.

No. 1136685

Even with all the body positivity talk, I feel like beauty standards have never been as hard to meet as it's now

No. 1136686

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>find another female tenor in youtube
hell yeah!
>video is from 2013, check her newest videos
>she trooned out
>"genderfluid"
HELL NAH!!!!!

I don't know how but lowkey knew this would happen, poor girl

No. 1136687

I just want a normal comfy life with a cute boyfie my age who actually cares about me and we struggle together and do cute things together and have fun. I hate scrotes so much for sucking so bad that even this tiny pathetic dream is completely crushed reeeeeee

No. 1136688

Women and men going on twitter talking about “IF MY DAUGHTER DID SEX WORK ID DISOWN HER” shouldnt breathe.
Crazy how people consume porn but hate sex workers so much they disown them but of course sons are coddled even if theyre rapists.

No. 1136694

>>1136688
they're basically admitting that they'd victim blame their daughter instead of owning up to the fact they failed at parenting. those people shouldn't have kids.

No. 1136697

>>1136694
Yep, easier to blame their kids rather than admit they were shit parents. I mean if my daughter was gonna whore out I'd at least be supportive and concerned about her welfare. It's not like being negative would improve the situation. Why do they have kids when they hate having to be responsible?

No. 1136704

>>1136687
I could've written this. I want a cute guy my age and we would mature into good humans together and learn and growand have fun. Yet this is asking for too much.

No. 1136715

>>1136704
Literally go into IKEA and cry that I’ll never be saving up my pennies with my boyfriend planning how we will decorate our first apartment together.

No. 1136725

>""friends"" keep adding me to group chats with ex in
>known that I'm not on good terms with him because he cheated on me
>call them out on it
>"We just didn't think hehe"
Annoying fuckers, am I in the minority of being considerate of not putting people I know are on bad terms in a space together?

No. 1136728

>>1136688
My uncle got mad I worked at HOOTERS even though he brought his kids and wife there kek. Like if hooters is bad why you treating it like a fun family restaurant?

No. 1136741

im counting calories and i want so badly to order a big pizza.. i just want to be content with eating vegetables

No. 1136755

I was just randomly walking my dog and some guy called me a bitch. I’m so fucking sick of men, looking at me, harassing me, trying to talk to me and just fucking existing. I was having such a good day and that really upset me.

No. 1136767

>>1136755
>making moids mad just by existing

nice

No. 1136769

Trying to make irl friends and met one through a women's group at my college. We're the same age, live 10 min away from each other, are at same stage of life, etc. The only thing is she's a huge "Disney adult" and a big western animation nerd in general. Honestly, I'm ok with that since it comes with the territory, but it's the fact that she keeps constantly telling me that I should intern at disney. Like.. I'm 30. I don't want to "intern" anywhere let alone in the hell that is western animation industry. Maybe if I was a starry eyed 21 y/o again, I would consider selling my soul like that. The thing is she knows I just bagged an amazing paying job in my dream field too. Idk if I'll ever tell her that I hate Disney and don't watch cartoons or tv shows. Who knows, maybe she'll judge me when she finds out I only like anime men content kek

No. 1136782

>>1136728
Cause he knows it ain't a "fun family restaurant" and he's there to gawk at women and receive their attention. It wasn't supposed to be you anon, you're not like those other objectified sluts he fantasizes about, right?

No. 1136793

>>1136741
Evil loopholes were created with the introduction of the cauliflower crust.

No. 1136797

I was reading Tuna's thread and saw she stole Pumpkin (her cat) from the street even though it was probably someone's cat. I didn't want to blogpost there but I lost my cat last year and we think someone stole and took him in or sold him (he was so pretty, fuzzy, completely white with green eyes). I feel emotional just thinking about it, he was the sweetest and I love him so much. I really hope some nice people took him in. I miss him, he was so sweet. He's chipped so if he was dead it'd probably be reported by now. My other cat seems much better off being alone though, she's just a princess and likes to get all the attention lol. Grateful to have her still ♥

No. 1136799

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>one shot at life
>mentally ill
thanks god. it's my brain but i can't even use it the way i want to half the time and i lack the funds and mental strength to see a doctor. love that for me

No. 1136803

I think my friend is kind of going through it right now and I'm not really sure what to do or how to feel. We talked again tonight and everything just felt so… off. Most of the time she was complaining about things or talking about existential stuff, which is fine but it seemed more like she was talking just to get her thoughts out and that it didn't really matter what I said to her. There were a lot of times where I'd talk and she'd interrupt me to correct me or go off on a tangent and a lot of things I said she would just blatantly disagree with, which again is fine but made it hard for me to keep the conversation going. There were gaps in the conversation and usually we'd fill them by me asking her something about her life or her bringing something up and again (just like the last few times we've talked) she didn't really seem that interested about what was going on in my life. I guess she never said it explicitly but when we were talking that's the impression I was getting. I feel kind of hurt and I think she just might be depressed or feeling hurt by other things going on in her life. I want to be there for her, but the way that she's acting makes me just not want to spend time with her anymore. The overall vibe was so… negative and I've had conversations with other friends with mental health issues and it didn't feel like that. Like she was vaguely annoyed or pissed off at me the whole time.

No. 1136809

Piper from oitnb got so much hate for no reason. I know this is fucking retarded but she grew up with her parent's loveless marriage, always had to be the 'nice girl' and love seemed to be replaced by money. I'm probably just projecting but the Piper hate annoys me. She can be really annoying but she went through enough, even if it's not nearly as much as the other characters. Fuck, I need to rewatch that show and cry at nearly every episode kek

No. 1136810

I’m totally isolated and alone. I vented about something to my boyfriend and his dumbass told his mom and she probably spread it around. I hate my life . This is the moment I’ve realized that I have no sanctuary. I am alone in it all and I wanna break up with him

No. 1136813

>>1136810
I was texting and I was so mad I was crying there was emotion and vitriol and everything in it and he’s just not respecting that this stupid as Scrote I can’t believe I got him a new $1000 +controller I’m so ducking stupid I wanna dir

No. 1136830

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my room mate is a retarded bitch

No. 1136831

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kinda feel uber mega jealous that my friend lost her virginity and im sitting here never having a boyfriend or romantic interest besides old freaks on the internet and online friend turned undercover pedo.
idk, it’s probably cuz I don’t put myself out there (cuz scared of men) and the fact that I have terrible social anxiety. even when guys are explicitly into me they’re either really really bad at socializing or they’re awesome but I burn the bud before it grows into a real relationship. i did this with a coworker recently and it hurts me so bad cause he was so fucking cute, we were into the same things, and he was so charismatic but i held myself back bcuz of our small age gap.

i just want to get peen and eaten out, man.

No. 1136836

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i was playing valorant while drunk and i bought a 25$ skin and now that i’m sobering up I’m regretting it that was such a stupid purchase. Oh well. at least now i can miss my shots in style

No. 1136850

>>1136831
You're really the only one in your way of being disappointed by how underwhelming it is the first time

No. 1136867

So, I haven't gotten slapped in the face by my mom in a few good months because now I know how to deal with her but today she was angry at something and raised her hand at me, I flinched so bad and started crying, turns out she wasn't gonna hit me, she was reaching out to grab something behind me. Humiliating. Ever since I've moved back in with her, it's been weird.

No. 1136871

>>1136867
Nonita, youve been abused. I hope for your recovery

No. 1136872

>>1136867
Nonny I promise you if you smack her back she will never do it again.

No. 1136881

i started sweating and feeling nauseous and i started getting worried i might be sick but then i remembered i get motion sickness from youtube videos sometimes if they are filmed like walking around. i havent done it in a long time and completely forgot like an idiot

WHY am i like this WHY is every function in my body flawed

No. 1136886

>>1136871
More than myself, I want her to get better and I've tried to help. It was embarrassing just bawling like that at my grown age.
>>1136872
Are you kidding me?

No. 1136895

>>1136872
Are you the beat your mom anon from the other day kek

No. 1136898

>>1136895
Yes it's the tranny frkm yesterday, he also screeched at everyone and called them bad moms after people shit on him.

No. 1136899

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Last night my boyfriend and I broke up. It was mutual for the most part (he said it wouldn't be fair to me to keep it going when I wasn't happy but I wanted to try and make it work but eventually agreed because our paths were so different currently).
My heart hurts so bad and I can't stop crying. We're still going to stay friends but it just doesn't feel the same. I feel pathetic.

No. 1136900

>>1136899
Sorry anon, that's tough. On the positive side, now you've created room in your life for someone who does make you happy (if that's what you want)

No. 1136901

>>1136899
rooting for you, nona. it’ll hurt for a bit, but just remember that things will eventually get better. be kind to yourself until then

No. 1136928

It's a nice day so I want to go outside but it's a Saturday so the likelihood of being harassed and followed is too high reeeee I'd be outside almost every other day if other people weren't an issue

No. 1136971

Why the fuck are fanfic writers writing incel headcanons and shit. First it started with the dady shit, then the chocking shit, now fetishising men who hate women and see us as inferior and write online how are rights should be taken, the age of consent should be lowered, and rapes what we deserve. I fucking hate it. Where did these young womens self esteem go? Is this the next retarded form of being rebellious? These fuckers will ree about bigotry and misgendering and abelism, then turn around and be like 'Uwu incel bf aesthetic'. Internet brainrot has ruined an entire generation reeee.

No. 1136972

I just hate being at home so much (at my mother's place). I came here to spend Easter together but it's such a sacrifice. At home, I work on my business that I plan to launch, I watch tv shows, play games. There's nothing to do here. In the past when I came up with ideas of having a business because I really hated working at my then workplace, my mother quickly shot it down saying that it's too difficult for me, it's a lot of work that I'm too lazy for and it's also complicated to do the taxes for it. At the end of these rants she becomes really worked up and angry so I pretended to scrap the idea. I also can't talk about gaming, because my mother thinks video games are the things of the Devil and everyone who plays them should be ashamed of themselves. She also always thought that the tv shows I watch are stupid, so I cannot bring those up either. I just can't be myself here. We discuss the war, complain about politics and that's it. I sometimes feel like she wants to know what I do every day, but I don't want to tell her and give her ammunition to potentially use it against me

No. 1136975

>>1136971
I have no hope for zoomers. The Internet brainrot is real.

No. 1136982

>>1136697
Why would you be supportive of your daughter being a whore? You are already a bad parent if she became one at all. Up until that point, you weren’t better than those disowning twitter people.

No. 1136990

I want out of my fandom circle. I love these fuckers so much but I’ve never stuck around more than a year for any book/manga/anime/show fandom and I’m getting bored, not of them but the material. I’m ready to either take a break or move onto newer obsession. I didn’t expect to actually befriend any of them especially not through my shit grade art? I was a mini fan of their analysis essays and edits and I’m kind of sad I’m going to ghost them all, I met some really cool artists from this group too.

No. 1136993

>>1136990
Stay in touch with them but without participating in the fandom. Ghosting for the reason you stated would be sad. Although I did that long ago and I couldn't stand my ex friends anymore at some point but it has more to do with them becoming turbo sjw handmaidens.

No. 1137043

Suggesting that people shouldn't paint all Chinese as godless commie dogeaters and that not all of them support their government and I somehow get called a China shill. This shit annoys me because I'm East Asian and I have a ton of Chinese friends, some who are the most fervent anti-Chinese government people I know. It gets old dealing with the same racist bullshit and this isn't the first time I got criticized for suggesting others not to make blanket judgments.

No. 1137049

>>1136971
Is… this this how fanfic is now? I used to be pretty into fanfiction as a teenager and it was a lot of fun for the most part. It makes me sad to think this is what girls at that age now are reading.

No. 1137066

It's insane that strange women who have known me for 5-10 seconds are more empathetic and offer more help when things go south than a man I've known for a year and apparently is trying to seduce me.

No. 1137079

posting here but it’s more abt the events surrounding a vent - things have been awful at my work lately. we’re switching all of our old systems and processes (I work in data analysis at a huge company) and the expectations have dramatically increased while the pay has not. they took away our wfh because of the sensitivity of the data we handle, but all other departments who use the same data and access it with the same frequency work remotely. our new supervisor was hired on because he’s a friend of the VP and he’s fully remote. because of all the new training, the VP announced all PTO requests would b automatically denied (did not specify for how long). this was not great as I was supposed to walk in my sister’s place at her college graduation ceremony because she passed away in September and it’s in two weeks. I sent an email to my supervisor and the VP first thing this Monday after reading the email but didn’t hear back all this week. nobody has told me and things just keep getting more and more stressful in the office as communication has completely broken down despite the fact the leadership is the one who is defining all these changes. I have already had to send multiple emails to upper management who have scheduled meetings at times people on the team aren’t in office or are away because they don’t know what our schedules are since most of them have never met us face to face (since they all wfh).

anyways, I vented all this to my bf who recently got a much better well paying job and he told me that I could quit and he would take care of us. I told him while I appreciated that very very much, I’d rather go home and live with my parents if it came down to it. The confused face he made when I said that made me lol internally.

No. 1137125

i've only ever fainted from when i get blood drawn, but i've fainted twice this year. i have no idea why, but they both happened when negative confrontations were occurring between me and this girl i was seeing. i broke it off with her two weeks ago because i was tired of her hurting me, and the last straw was when she pushed my sexual boundaries and got mad at me when i addressed it with her.

the first time i fainted was when she was scolding me for getting upset about something she did that anyone would be upset about, and my vision just started going and i felt weak and had to sit down. the second time happened last night, outside a bar. my friends let me know she was here and tried shielding me from her because we all knew she would pull something to hurt my feelings. she's a terribly vindictive person. i start fainting and i asked my friends if we could sit down at a table before i fall over. they were consoling me until i felt better, then my friends see her roommate holding her back from approaching me. she was fighting against him and eventually made her way toward me and in front of my group of friends including people i just met, she touches my shoulder as she's passing me and says "HI [name]" in a rude, mocking way. i just sat there and didn't move. i felt incredibly embarrassed because i'm never one to let my emotions show but i started panicking and just stared in silence while everyone is reassuring me that she continues to prove herself to be insane and pathetic. she did continue to make an ass of herself by running around the street acting super drunk and stumbling. i gave her the benefit of the doubt when i started realizing the entire city hates her but i had to learn the hard way

i don't know why confrontation with her makes me faint? this literally has never happened before. i guess just anxiety and being scared of her, but that seems pretty dramatic of my body kek. thinking about her just fills me with dread, and for the past three nights i've been waking up at 5 am in a panic. everyone thinks she is an actual demon/has one attached to her but that's a whole different story

No. 1137182

i dont wanna go, im so nervous and scared, i hate being like this but i hate the world more aaaaaaa
i dont wanna go i dont wanna go

No. 1137188

My cousin cut off contact with her mom and is upset with me because I saw her mom/my aunt recently. I understand why my cousin cut her off, she is completely overbearing and judgmental with her children. She wants them to achieve everything possible, wants them to constantly hustle, and will openly dislike their children's partners if they think they aren't good enough. My relationship with her doesn't come with those same expectations and she's always been a source of support for me. I love my cousin though and don't want to betray her while she works out some things. Especially because I have seen first hand how awful she can be. I hope everything settles soon.

No. 1137206

It's a children's holiday in my country today. A lovely spring celebration everyone loved as a kid. Went to see a friend today, she has an adorable little girl who unfortunately suffers from health problems. They didn't even know the holiday was today, the child is sick again. She's staying home and learning to use scissors. I'm so sad I didn't at least bring some bells and twigs to bring the holiday to her. She recently had surgery and I hoped things would have improved.

No. 1137209

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Women who unironically call themselves "bimbo" "slut" etc and believe they're somehow "reclaiming" those words to mean something empowering make me want to slam my head into a wall. Men aren't thinking about how empowered you are when he calls you a bimbo.
Picrel a girl asked for fashion advice and described her style as "bimbo". When someone else responded that the term had negative connotations op stated that the term had been "reclaimed".

No. 1137212

>>1137125
samefag. she just messaged me on ig (i blocked her number and softblocked her on all social media like 5 hours ago so shes literally just stalking my social media to see what i'm doing). she asked why i was weird when she said hi to me (because it was so fucking undeniably passive aggressive and mean). she had no information that i was "being weird" bc she said it and walked away, we never made eye contact. she asked why i soft blocked her again. i soft blocked her the first time bc she made out with my roommate, who was dating HER roommate/my best friend.

No. 1137223

>>1136831
How old are you? I lost mine at 28. It's not a big deal either way.

No. 1137225

I am becoming anxious to leave my apartment.

No. 1137232

>>1137225
What's the reason?

No. 1137233

I don't want friends because I don't want anyone to be closer than necessary to me, but seeing people having fun online with their friend groups makes me sad and envious sometimes. I don't have much to say, so conversations die out quickly and it's always obvious that the person I'm talking to would rather be around someone else. Everyone already has someone they are close too, irl or online, there's no room for me anywhere

No. 1137234

I think I'm starting to develop depression, just in time for my therapy sessions to run out lmao
Nothing really keeps my interest, I take some things more personal than I should, I have no energy, the only reason I really go out is to upkeep my social relationships. I don't wanna go to work. I just wanna lie in my bed and not do anything. My mom is on top of it starting to get frustrated with me not inviting her over to eat dinner at my new place, which I understand since she helped a lot during my move.

No. 1137237

>>1137232
I don't know. I googled about Agoraphobia but it seems that is not it because I am not scared of unplanned situations/not having a way out, or anything like that. I think I just don't want to be seen. I feel awful about myself and so I am embarrased to be among people. So the mere thought of going out in day time gives me physical feelings of anxiety. I went to the store just now to buy milk and stuff and it was physically painful. I was never like this before.

No. 1137245

I keep facing so many obstacles every time I try to do something for myself or to improve my life, and it doesn't help that people around me will just say that it's a test from God and that I need to keep praying to him because he will grant my wishes. Why can't things just go the way they're supposed to go without me encountering a problem every step of the way? Why do I have to keep praying to God for things not to go wrong when they already are? Why does your supposed God want people to pray to him every second of every day for every single thing or else they will suffer?

No. 1137246

>>1137237
Social anxiety?

No. 1137248

>>1137246
I guess. Didn't use to have it so its odd and worrisome.

No. 1137255

>>1137237
Nonnie I used to be like this too, what helped me was really thinking 'Are people going to really notice or remember me today?' Like try to remember everyone you saw when you went to the store last Tuesday, you probably don't unless they really did something to make themselves known, and even then, does remembering them really affect you that much? Everyone else is also flooded with thoughts about what people are thinking of them, but they all share these thoughts and they're thinking about themselves the whole time.

No. 1137260

>>1137255
Thanks Nonna. The "logical" part of my brain knows this, but I guess the lizard brain is being insane. It does help to get a dose of sanity from someone else, though. So thanks a lot!

No. 1137263

I want to kill myself but I want to leave something behind but I also want to get to experience a couple of things before I kill myself so I need to find simps and moids to trick into giving me loads of money. Im just bad at putting up a facade or maintaining a niche im highly unlikeable

No. 1137264

>>1137263
How much money do you need? You could just rob a bank or come up with a pyramid scheme or something.

No. 1137280

>>1137263
are you cute?? there’s tons of unlikeable (but cute) girls draining scrote paychecks on twitch. i plan to do the same since i have really neotenous features

No. 1137285

I wish I could stream but I'm literally too autistic to put myself in front of the camera or even talk to people

No. 1137287

>>1137263
Same, but I would definitely give up at some point and stop talking to them, and from what I've seen paypigs demand attention 24/7

No. 1137292

I've broken up with my boyfriend and currently am facing extremely dark feelings basically due to my entire life falling apart and lifelong mental illness, trauma etc. coming back with a vengeance. I don't regret the break-up because it was inevitable (TLDR I've been kept around for convenience by a manchild who didn't want to improve himself for me, but immediately does for a chick on a dating app that swiped left on him), I cannot stand my loneliness, though. I've been craving a close female friendship throughout the relationship, but it didn't happen since I have trouble meeting people. Now I want to kill myself, since it doesn't feel like my life will ever be worthwhile. I have a perspective of working a hellish job just to come back to an empty room… I can't stand this much loneliness.
I cannot even think about meeting new people because I feel unworthy. I have an extremely low self-esteem. I read books about social relationships and get reminded how unattractive it is to be insecure and unhappy. I agree. But at the same time, I don't know how I am supposed to get better without human relationships, of which I feel unworthy To make matters worse, I don't really get on well with most people ('normies'), I wish I had female autists as friends or a way of meeting them. All of this just reminds me how much I'm not fit for human contact and makes me feel even more suicidal.
Does anyone know how to get out of this loop?
I've tried therapy thrice, it hasn't really helped…

No. 1137293

>>1137280
Im super cute with baby like features but scrotes hate me because of my personality and I am not stupid. Men resent me for some reason and only try to humiliate me or take advantage of my depressing situation. I'm cuter than most girls but it doesn't help with making money on the internet. I'm pretty but cannot keep a persona or a niche up and they end up hating me for showing nuanced beliefs and a personality or they approach me trying to take advantage of me for being in a clearly horrible situation. Men prey on weakness. The girls I've seen drain scrote pockets are actually kind of ugly but sometimes with big tits on display but they are willing to pander really hard or their personality is already like that

No. 1137297

>>1137293
like being on the internet ends up in me getting harassed or having people take out their anger on me or using me as a scapegoat, never in scrotes draining their paychecks on me but I'm also in a horrible situation. Idk scrotes make no sense to me.

No. 1137300

I need to make money off scrotes because I want to go to Japan before I kill myself but I don't want to pander to them or do sexual stuff. Sometimes I imagine killing myself on livestream and that 10 scrotes will use my suicide to make YouTube content and get recognition, views and money off my suicide when nobody helped me while I was alive. Can you imagine? You never had money or recognition for anything in your life and then people make money off your suicide when you couldn't get people to listen to you or give you anything while you are alive even in DEATH you are objectified and nothing is given to you but constantly taken away from you. Just like an object. I'm tired of giving and not receiving.

No. 1137304

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>>1137300
Why are so many nonnies suicidal lately go outside and eat some cheese

No. 1137305

>>1137300
in the best way possible, you should seek therapy. hang in there nona

No. 1137311

BUMP I FUCKING HATE MOIDS WHY DO YOU POST THIS SHIT

No. 1137314

>>1137304
Either scrotes larping or underage BPD-chan e-girls seeking for attention. Just ignore them.

No. 1137323

>>1137314
i think she was talking about some freak posting cp(?) here

No. 1137325

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Speaking of suicidal, it sounds fucked but I miss the days when I was dramatic and felt suicidal over say, a romantic relationship or some sort of internal conflict that could have been resolved with some time and effort.

I'm 25 now and I feel like killing myself because I am a council estate britbong who is witnessing the slow demise of this country and no one wants to do anything about it, no protests or anything at all minus whine on Facebook and then judge other people for not wanting to work 45-50 hours a week. This time it isn't some sort of internal conflict, I cant simply talk about this with someone and then suddenly be able to afford my gas bill or be able to even scrape up some savings. I can't fix it and this country is bleeding me dry - I honestly don't see the point in trying, but I have to regardless or my only option is ending my life. I want things to be better, I want my older relatives to stop expecting me to come on holidays and buy shit all the time or god forbid buy a house when no one in my generation can even fucking do that unless they were born into a family with enough money. In 10-15 years I will see the parent I have left, die with nothing to her name but living in a small, poor rural village. I'm not blaming her for that, but it fucking sucks. I don't want to end up this way, I want to work hard and one day I want to give back to rural poor communities in terms of job opportunities, charity or just assistance with food or a community centre. But it feels like the rising costs of everything are slowly crushing me and I can't do anything to get it off.

I often fantasize about dying, but the only reason I hesitate to do so is because I don't want my cat to wonder why I left him.

No. 1137330

>>1137323
nta but no, that post about anons being suicidal was posted before the cp. She's right, there have been a lot of I'm gonna kms posts lately.

No. 1137334

>>1137314
I don't think its scrotes, I think it is legit teenagers. I am fucking 32 now and it is cringe to see this type of attention seeking but I remember feeling this way in my teens. They will grow out of it.

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Bump

No. 1137358

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Struggling to feel like I should bother even trying to get my license if I don't pass my road test at the end of this month. On one hand I feel so discouraged, I feel like I'm not getting better, I feel like I'm regressing with every lesson, and I don't even need my license to survive in my city! So why bother! But on the other hand I'm sick of myself always quitting so easily. I give up hobbies and new skills so quickly all the time, and I'm sick of it. Anyway I'm currently in the valley of despair if we're going by the dunning-kruger effect chart. I want to beat myself up I'm so tired of myself in so many ways lol

No. 1137359


No. 1137362

>>1137223
almost 20, i can kinda accept still having my virginity but still never having a serious boyfriend feels terrible

No. 1137372

>>1137362
THere is so much fucking time ahead of you. Dont worry about it. I promise.

No. 1137375

>>1137362
Girl you're only 19. How many people have actual serious relationships before 20? Very few. You shouldn't even be focusing on serious relationships in your teens anyway, focus on developing yourself and finding your way in life and relationships will naturally come.

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>>1137359
Damn, I’m sorry anon…

No. 1137392

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Why am I procastinating talking to people I really like about topics I'm excited about?? What kind of brain damage is this?? What the fuck is your problem? Fuxking get it together retard

No. 1137403

I'm >>1119751 from a few days ago, and the couple of responses I got somehow made me feel a bit inspired to at least start figuring out the hiearchy and magic system in the story I've been brewing in my mind, and do some story boarding for my own sake even if it would just be stick figures just to see if it would work the way I'm imagining it. just for fun.
Met up with the group for lunch today and the one that mentioned to me that she wants to have these little "creativity meets" brought up her idea of them again and asked when we'll finally get around to it, and as we were discussing dates I reminded them that I only have my writing and descriptions to show, and while I have worked out and written down a clear storyline I won't have anything like art to show since unlike them I'm not an artist but I would love to use these meetings to discuss ideas and help each other out with figuring out our stories as well.
They swore up and down that they didn't mean to be pushy, and I believe that it came for a genuinely helpful place, but everyone started to push me to rehash the entire thing into a book instead since any artist worth their salt rather do their own stories than connect with anyone else and if I can't draw anyway I should just stick to writing even when I explained that I felt this story wouldn't do well in book form and writing and planning out a script for a comic or a book are two completely different beasts. But sadly I got overvoiced by them repeatedly telling me to write a book instead, and I'm not gonna lie - at the end I got a bit defensive because I felt kinda ganged up on. Luckily the first friend put a stop on the topic and put our focus back on date and place, and I didn't give it much more thought after that, I was just happy that the subject was dropped so we could continue having a nice lunch.
But now several hours later I suddenly can't stop thinking about it all and feel hurt, like all the drive I had suddenly evaporated. I feel so childish over feeling this way, it's most likely just lingering underlying annoyance from the situation together with me having my period soon and being really tired and I will have most likely forgotten all about it tomorrow morning or at least feel better enough to feel stupid to have vented about it here.

No. 1137411

I've recently had a few suicide attempts, now one of my cats died after I picked it up.
I'm planning on killing myself again.

No. 1137452

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why do all my friends have such shit taste in men, this isn't even abot looks because they actually tend to run rather cute, i'm talking about their bfs being absolute pieces of shit in 9/10 cases

No. 1137456

>>1137392
fuck, i'm the same, I procrastinate stuff I'm actually excited about

No. 1137457

>>1137452
Tbf to your friends most men are shit

No. 1137462

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Holy fuck I hate holidays and the family dinners that come with them. Like every year, my lack of a relationship became the latest topic for my family members to talk about and as always, it ended with me calling them out and creating a weird atmosphere again. "Kek nonny, you'll never find someone if you don't lower your standards a bit". People would have much better relationships if they actually raised their standards. Pardon me for being unrealistic and expecting a man to pick up after himself and wash his ass and ohhh wanting to have financial independence is sooo not romantic. Apparently relationships are about being absolutely dependent on each other in every aspect or else it means I'm not devoted to my partner. And how dare I think about the consequences of breakups and divorces! I'm sure THAT must be my problem. Oh yeah, because that worked out so great for all of you, you dysfunctional fucks. I'm sure your brothel-visiting-moids, who pride themselves on being such good fathers, love you just as much as you do. It's always "just a joke" when they shit on me but when I open my mouth, I'm being rude. I wish I could just expose all the shitty moids in my family but then everyone would blame me for disturbing the family peace. Fuck it, next time I'm just gonna tell them I have to work before I waste my time with this shit again.

No. 1137470

when i was 6 years old i was alone with another boy in my class and he coerced me into showing him my underwear, then my bare privates. i was afraid of what he would do to me if i said no. i pretty much immediately told my friends (i.e. other 6 year-olds) what happened, and it's not that they didn't believe me, but they told me it was my fault because it wasn't him who removed my clothing. i took it off myself, after all, so i was in the wrong, too. obviously this made me shut up about the whole thing and i didnt breathe a word of it to anyone else until years and years later when, obviously, there was nothing to be done about it.
reflecting on it now as an adult, i cant help but wonder… was their blaming me just "little kid logic" that other people sadly never grow out of? or does this indicate that misogyny and victim blaming take root at an early age? i don't come from anywhere extremely, notably sexist, all this happened in milquetoast america. it just makes me sad, i guess.
i wonder what happened to that kid. he was always bullying people and getting written up, and last i heard he'd been kicked out of school for good. hopefully he's dead or in prison, because if you get started on sexual offenses that early then there's really no hope for you.

No. 1137471

I cant keep a job because of hearing problems and now I’ll have to resort to “sex work” on top of my 800 disability bucks so I can buy vegetables freshly. I’m gonna do phone stuff because fuck having sex with men lol. I will likely commit suicide at 30.

No. 1137475

>>1137304
Psyop to make all the based women off themselves

No. 1137477

>>1137471
I worked data entry for years and half my team was deaf. The remote jobs are hard to find but if you work in-office well, most places will let you transition to it. Good luck

No. 1137478

>>1137471
Nonnie I know it feels like you don’t have any other options, but have you thought about learning a skill or trade that you can do from home or with minimal in-person interaction? Computer science or data entry, something like that?

No. 1137484

Life hard. Too hard.

No. 1137486

>>1137304
they're all "I'm gonna do this and that and THEN kms" suicidal too like wtf not to gatekeep but if you wanna kill yourself you can literally do it right now, you don't have to finish college and go on your europe vacation first kek

No. 1137494

>>1136182
Do it.

No. 1137496

>>1136221
It's mind boggling people like this have such easy jobs and still manage to fuck shit up so badly. Sorry you had to go through that

No. 1137498

>>1137486
>>1137304
Jeez let people vent. Where can you shitpost about wanting to an hero about stupid shit or just because you have a shit day if not here.

No. 1137499

>>1136310
Me too, nonnie.

No. 1137503

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You know what? I'm more or less done with visiting my home country. I'm treated like a petulant teen at 30 because my parents don't seem to get that when i'm not in their house I live independently. For example last time, my mother fucking tried to advise that if nobody's home and I want to leave, I should lock the door with the keys I have. Woooow really? I mean…what do they think I do in my every day life? How do I navigate? How do I pay the bills, maintain employment? Do they think someone else is managing every aspect of my life when they're not around? And I've tried to bring it up and question exactly this and their only response is "Uhhhh I was just saying anon!". It's like this for everything, they want to fully manage everything I do. I mention I want a haircut? They'll call around without telling me and tell me they've booked something, of course I'll be driven there and need to call as soon as I'm done so I can be picked up, and if I say I'll walk back, pff nah, they're waiting outside until they see me. And of course I'm going to be annoyed by this patronising shit, and just the act of establishing boundaries (eg in the previous example I reminded them I said I'd walk back and I'd do just that) has me labelled as typical moody anon.

I'll attend special events my brother has and wants me there for, I don't think I'll even go for christmas, after 4 years of travelling back and being pissed off for a week straight it's not worth it anymore, there's no benefit for me and I could easily and happily use that flight money to go somewhere actually nice.

Funnily enough I've extended an open invitation and directly invited my mother over after she said her other holiday plans for spring fell through. Oh of course she'd love to come but uhhh not for a long time. I've realised they just don't want to, they want to be in their environment where they have control over everything and can keep their eyes closed to the fact that I'm an independent adult. That's what I think and it's damn sad.

No. 1137507

I ate cold fried chicken and now I feel sick, not worth it

No. 1137508

I have this gay scrote coworker who was really nice to me when he joined but turned out to be manipulative and lazy. Now I hate getting shifts with him and I'm annoyed every time he asks me to do something, and he still tries to be buddy buddy with me but I want him to leave me alone so bad. Also he sometimes does a weird back pat and I really want to punch him the next time he tries omg.

No. 1137514

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>an immigrant who still can't find a job
>turned into an art content creator
>can't get YouTube/Twitch/etc revenue anymore, PayPal is locked because of my home countrys sanctions
>no freelance money for 3 months now because of that
>extremely overwhelmed and exhausted with all of the upcoming projects as I've always been the only person working on everything
>started being treated like shit by almost everyone irl because suddenly having a nationality means being a person who supports the war
>almost got attacked by a man outside all because he knew I'm from "that country"
>my own health keeps getting worse
>I have not seen my sick guardians for years, first it's because of COVID now because of the fucking war
>their health keeps getting worse ever since I left
>haven't found an actually meaningful friendship over the past five years, all I do is drown in my yumejoshi works
>I feel extremely ungrateful because all I want to is cry all day and sleep for days, my partner is worried about me but I keep being that retard who never wants to open up with their problems as I am used to taking care of everyone and hiding all of my pain, bottling it up and then bursting all of my negative feelings in a corner alone, until I somehow get back to normal, because I feel ashamed whenever anyone worries about me
I'm tired. I can't take it anymore. Why am I such a piece of shit.

No. 1137548

I just found a video of myself that I made a year ago. I did this to check my body shape because I was exercising regulary. That was before I gained weight.
My god, my body looked perfect. Why was I so hard on myself back then? Everything was fine with my body. I am so angry now, I have gained weight this year and I cannot lose it. But I swear, I'll lose weight. I'll get my perfect body back.

No. 1137558

>>1137514
Nona, this is pretty heavy stuff you're going through. You are not a brat. Also your "friends" acting like this is incredibly shitty and seems to be empty virtue signalling for the sake of virtue signalling. Please don't give up and try again, maybe you can use your partner's paypal? I hope this gets fixed soon.

No. 1137566

I have bad timing. I can't relate to people without seeming like I am one-upping or butting in. My support is never good or relatable. My anecdotes suck. My family dislikes me. I'm annoying. I hope I die in my sleep tonight

No. 1137578

My friends loves shitty woke tv shows like ofmd but then tries to turn around and roast another friend for liking Steven Universe. The call is coming from inside the house

No. 1137588

two coworkers who aren't fat are going on diets what the fuck is wrong with the world? they're both older women too

No. 1137589

Nonitas I've been ignoring this guy's flirting for so so long but tonight I got kind of tipsy and he said I looked good and should send pics more often and my dumb drunk ass fucking replied with a nice thing 'thank you that's really sweet!' or something. I should've just told him off because I know he doesn't take relationships seriously and aaaarghhh, I hate feeding his massive ego but I like actually chilling together and talking to him. I think he just sees me as a piece of meat, scrotes who don't take love seriously, fuck you. Man I'd be happy to be a permavirgin, I'd rather live a chill life on my own on top of a hill or some shit than screw around with retarded moids who just see you as fucktoys. Older nonabushka's, are older men more mature or do they always stay retarded cheating assholes? Do nice men even exist?

No. 1137594

>>1137589
Nah, they are not mature
Anyway, that's nothing wrong with your reply, you just was polite, it's up on him if he would think something more of it

No. 1137597

Why is my value in society based on my looks but as soon as I finish pregnancy my body is ruined

No. 1137600

>>1137594
He will lol, he has enough good parts but he's super arrogant, thinks he can get any girl. Not me! I don't like him, we don't belong together so I'm not going to do anything with him.

No. 1137614

I have food poisoning and I cant bring myself to eat anything. Its a waterfall of puke and shitting. Fuck that calamari. Got me fucked up.

No. 1137621

I wish complimenting women was a frequent and normal act among women. It's sad when people say "She was so pretty" and "I loved her [feature]" only after a woman has done changes in her physical appearance. I keep thinking that she probably wouldn't have let insecurity get the best of her if she had heard these words more frequently. Also, if women complimented women more, women wouldn't swoon over every man that compliments her. That move is so bare minimum, and men shouldn't be a primary source of validation.

No. 1137634

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Now that I have reached the old, wise and mature age of 21 I felt it to be necessary to read up on pension and nonnies, I'm not going to die of old age, it's going to be of starvation because what I'll earn will put me into the legal definition of poverty and now I'm feeling existential dread.

No. 1137651

I don't know what to do with my life. i had a plan, went to college to get a specific degree, and now that i have the job i thought i wanted, i hate it. it used to be a passion, but all i can think of is how stressed i am. i don't know who i am or what to think.
The job is stressful and it doesn't pay enough. i tell myself to stick it out so i can get the experience to move to another job, in my desired location, that's easier and has better pay, (the field is competitive even with a degree and the only chance i got is experience over academics) but this job is killing me. just when i thought i was getting the hang of it, it gets worse.
But if i choose to quit, or even fail the probation period/get fired, i have no idea what i would do for a living. i have no passion or interest in anything at all. well, nothing that could actually turn into a well-paying career without being freelance and taking a lot of effort.
All i know is that i want money, to move out of my parents, and to be happy. i'm almost thinking of giving up and just getting any job that will pay, that isn't as stressful (current job is lots of tasks with some on-call shifts). but for some reason it kind of sucks to not be doing something "important" as a job. i hate how much effort you have to do in life just to survive and live under a roof with food.

No. 1137655

I just ate a big piece of chocolate and I'm regretting it

No. 1137657

I'll have to spend the rest of my life being forced to go to a place (job) where I'm alone and unhappy, which makes me self-conscious of how useless I'm. I hate it here so much. I just wish I could run away to a beautiful forest and never see anyone again.

No. 1137660

>>1137621
>I wish complimenting women was a frequent and normal act among women
…It is

No. 1137663

I hate people and coworkers that just, don't give you a chance. I recently heard about a "girl's night out" that included my coworkers, and I had no idea about it. Then I overheard them wanting to get dinner together. I was right there, but they were whispering to each other about it thinking that I wouldn't hear (or maybe they knew I would overhear, that would be rude…). Again, not inviting me.
I know I'm the "new one" and these people have known each other for years, but it's like they don't even want to get to know me. I'm polite when they do talk to me, and yet, it's not enough. I don't get it. I can be fun too if I actually got the opportunity.

No. 1137664

>>1137486
You aren't referring for my post, but what the fuck is wrong with you? It's so fucking stupid. You talk like suicide is easy when it's anything but. Moreover, nobody should be making the decision without a clear head. Let them vent in peace.

No. 1137669

>>1137503
These types of ppl either have control issues or they're completely clueless about how to express their love and do nagging. It works to flip it back on them, comment on obvious shit to them until they stop.

No. 1137676

Dunno if this should be in the advice thread but anons how do you deal with the fact that one day you'll lose your loved ones one way or another? I try not to think about it and make the most of it while they're here but it's fucking hard and it's killing me inside fr

No. 1137690

>>1137503
this feels annoying in the moment but it's just a typical parent thing. a lot of people's parents do that to them. it's natural. like imagine if when you became an adult you had to stop acting like your mom was your mom, couldn't speak to her from the perspective of she's your mom and you want her to be around you in the way that a mother is. it would be really hard and feel wrong. well she can't pretend like you're not her child, she will always see you through that lens and act accordingly. cherish your parents nona. don't stop seeing them over something so natural and mundane. I know this is the vent thread sorry.

No. 1137698

>>1137660
More than the opposite though? Can you confidently say that women in general think good things and compliment other women more than they nitpick or criticize them?

No. 1137699

>>1137663
you have to wait until there is a new new girl and also one of the other women leaves. then you are part of the good old days and the new new girl is the odd one out

No. 1137709

Coming to terms with the fact that I might have schizophrenia, or if it’s just a bipolar disorder. I have had 4 different hallucinations throughout my childhood up to my teens whenever I was under a lot of stress. I haven’t had any after I started taking antidepressants for 3 years, up until a few months ago when I weaned off of them cause I thought I don’t need them anymore. Now I’m back to my incredibly depressed and suicidal self, under high stress, and now I’m becoming delusional again. I keep imagining someone might come up and stab me or shoot me on the street, I hear soft background noise as people having a conversation, and I keep thinking my ex boyfriend is gonna stalk me and kill me. It doesn’t help that he actually does call me or text me on different phone numbers sometimes, and that I ran into someone he was close friends with years ago and who I haven’t seen in a long time just after I started considering him ever stalking me. Now I’m dogsitting for my friend at her house and I feel paranoid that someone will break in. On good days I feel like I am the god of my own universe, which is known to be a sign of schizophrenia, but I can’t distinguish if it is genuinely me being schizo or if it’s just my spirituality coming through when I feel happy. I also have very disorganized thoughts to the point where I considered maybe I just have adhd. I honestly don’t think i can type anymore because i can feel a panic attack coming. I just had to get this off my chest before i find a therapist.

No. 1137718

>>1137699
kek makes sense. one of them is actually quitting soon, so maybe there will be an "in"

No. 1137722

>>1137709
This could be a severe form of anxiety too anon

No. 1137724

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I'm so fucking stupid. I literally have water for brains, apparently. I missed such an easy deadline. In years I finally had a good chance of leaving neetdom, and working for probably my favorite museum, but I blew it because I didn't double check the deadline date. Of a fucking email, not even an interview. I just had to be a functioning human being and send the fucking email on time. Maybe I wouldn't be picked for the job but at least it wouldn't be because I am an idiot with attention problems. I hate myself. I hate myself sp much. I can only pray they need a tardy imbecile because she speaks japanese and english, so they overlook my lateness. That would be my only chance. I just want to have a job.

No. 1137741

>>1137724
Either A) lie about not having internet or B) Call them and tell the truth about how you misread the date of deadline and you admit to your mistake and how you hope it doesn't affect you chances as you have heard great things about them and how much interest you have in this job that you wont make this mistake again when given the chance.

No. 1137745

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>>1137741
Thank you, anon. I actually sent an email like 5 hours after the deadline, because I wouldn't forgive myself if I didn't at least try. I sad in the email that I was really sorry I was sending it late, and that if I still had a chance I would appreciate it a lot. Something like that, to be fair, I wasn't thinking straight. I thought about writing something like "I had personal problems" or something of the like, but I thought going the "pity me" route wouldn't be very professional so I just apologized. I don't even know. I had almost two days to do it, I was by far the worst candidate in the first online group interview, so I think they'll ignore it. It's Easter tomorrow after all. All I can hope is for an Easter miracle. Maybe if I delude myself hard enough it will hurt less.

No. 1137783

>>1137780
Anon I’m so sorry… I believe in you

No. 1137796

>>1137780
Not trying to be a dick but if you're going to go down that route you'd probably be better off stripping and camming than living with a scrote who might dump you or knock you up

No. 1137801

>>1137698
nta but honestly? yes i can
but i’m also just basing that on my experiences

No. 1137834

Can't complain to my friend about men anymore. She read this book about how misandry is damaging to feminism so whenever I say things now like "ugh I'm tired when men use me for emotional labor" or "god, that's classic male behavior" she always has to correct me and say "well women do that too!" before listing some time in literal high school or college that some girl was a bitch to her. Like I'm sorry that happened, but just let me complain about men. She's not even attracted to men so I don't really get why she cares so much if I shit on them.

No. 1137843

My friend posted about a grant for gender affirming surgery for transmen of colour. She's been pulling away from friends for about a year now because she's been "going through a really rough time" and has recently gone through a break up with a long term gf. She's a butch lesbian of colour and fits the bill. I'm scared she's going to trans out and 41%. I want to give her support but if it what I think it is she's making a big mistake and I don't want to just let her make it. Idk how to approach it if it happens.

No. 1137854

>>1137834
>She's not even attracted to men
If she's not dating men or sleeping with them then she's missing out on alot of the firsthand fuckery they put women through. If I'd never had to navigate dating men or having sex with them then I might be able to just about keep my blinders on with the.. well not all men talk. Nothing wakes you up quicker than dating a nice, popular and friendly guy (who everyone loves) and finding out what even nice seeming popular guys are like behind closed doors or in bed.

No. 1137870

Does anyone know what happened to lute anon? Did she get her lute?

No. 1137875

I was just ranting out loud about how stupid men are in general because they go out and hurt themselves for no reason, and my super religious mother got all upset at me and starting yelling at me for saying so. The fuck? Apparently I’m “sinning” by saying that men are pathetic.

No. 1137883

>>1137875
Don't talk about it next to her. I knew a woman who dated a married man, made him break his family and literally ruined his life in the dude's eyes because she couldn't give him a child and he now couldn't see his own child. The said woman still defended any man and if I dared to have standards, she'd say in a whore. Fast-forward he dies, he leaves all of his money and stuff to his child and ex-wife and the pickme ends up homeless.

No. 1137892

>>1137883
You’re right, it’s something to not talk about around her and I’ll just have be wiser about what I say in her presence. It’s just so sad when women are pickme’s for men—it doesn’t even help them in the end.

No. 1137894

>>1137875
I don't get the women in my life who constantly go up to bat for men. It's most of them. Do you think they're standing up for you when one of their friends or members talks shit that is definitely worse about women? I want to shake them!

No. 1137898

My mother is crying and I know if I dare to ask anything I'll get shit thrown in my face and it'll somehow be my fault. Best guess right now is that I haven't said happy easter because I fucking forgot

No. 1137902

>>1137883
>the pickme ends up homeless
Good

No. 1137905

>>1137508
Kek I love how fags are still so misogynistic, the way they manipulate and use and browbeat women into doing labour for them.

No. 1137909

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I stopped being friends with someone I knew for years because they left a relationship and suddenly starting being an egotistical retard. This friend dumped her boyfriend and lost weight (not bad at all, good for her) but unfortunately then decided to fuck our other friend over by talking to the same guy she was already talking to, and then had sex with him. Now, I dont support entertaining moids in general because they all suck, but there is a girl code here - maybe this is just me but I have never even thought of getting romantically or sexually involved with someone my friend hads just dated or slept with. It's weird, it's really weird, and this weirdo didn't even apologise or try and talk it out. She laughed at the other friend and then completely blanked us from there onwards, then almost a year later decided to pop up again and say "Hi" to her like nothing happened.
I feel bad because I was happy for her becoming independent, but it's like she completely went off the other end and started fucking people over all because she had lost weight and started getting more attention from men. She never stopped to think about how our friend might have felt, but I question if she's always been like this really and was just friends with us out of convenience.

Now she's already engaged to a moid and pregnant with his child, but she even admitted that she can't do a water birth or something like that because "that sounds nice but my fiance wouldn't want to do that". Bitch I'm sorry I didn't realise it was your fiance pushing the baby out of his asshole, why the fuck do you care what he thinks if not for the fact you're dependent on him? Why should he even get a say what happens in the birthing room when he has no fucking part in it beyond ideally being the most supportive father he could be? This bong-eyed narcissist moid gets absolutely no say in how you birth this child because it's not HIM going through that, it's YOU.

They're also that couple that find it necessary to post about their relationship all the time - I don't usually mind this when it's obviously important stuff, but this dude seems like a fucking narcissist to the point where HE wants the birth to go a certain way. God I fucking hate moids, I also hate women who betray and ignore their friends for moids. Nothing good ever comes of it and I wish they would realise this sooner.

No. 1137912

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I just impulsively bought an acoustice guitar even though I have time and time again proved to myself andothers how utterly inept at learning music I am. I'm supposed to be saving money.

Nonnies how I will never make it out of wageslavery.

Also my girlfriend earns significantly less than me, and when I buy stuff she gets mad even though we have seperate finances and I already pay for most dinners etc put.

No. 1137919

>>1137909
He's right though. Unassisted water birth can be very dangerous for both the mother and child. Also there's a girlcode but if they weren't dating, it's not that serious. If you're friends with a lot of women, any random guy that comes along will be one of their crushes and if the dude is into you instead of them, the same woman will end your friendship. So if they're willing to fuck you over because of a man who's not even into them, why can't you fuck them over for a man who's into you?

No. 1137920

>>1137919
But nowhere does it say she wants unassisted waterbirth

No. 1137923

>>1137920
Most waterbirths are unassisted. It's kind of a luxury to have them in a hospital and I've never heard of any woman having one in a hospital because of that.
I've been in her place where I liked a guy my friend liked and my friend told me he'd have married her if I hadn't come along, when the guy was literally not interested in her. And still cut me off after she made me turn him down. If you're willing to cut off a friend because a man preferred her over you, which literally isn't your friend's fault, then you're the one tucking over a woman for a man. I'd sympathize more if the girl was dating with the guy and then what the friend did would've been very wrong but the situation is different.

No. 1137925

>>1137909
just ghost her already

No. 1137931

>>1137919
the scrote won't give a fuck or care if it's dangerous or not, he just seems like he doesn't want one because it doesn't suit his weird controlling childbirth scenario. we know scrotes are like this, husband stitches exist and you give the average scrote way too much credit by assuming they even know anything about the pros and cons of different methods of birth

>>1137919
not incredibly serious but still a shitty thing to do considering she didn't care to even to talk about it either

No. 1137959

>>1137923
Nta but I doubt farmers would recommend dangerous or home births to their friends. When I hear “water birth”, I immediately picture it in a hospital. Apparently most hospitals where I live have the facilities for it, so they’re quite accessible and reportedly safe for standard, low risk pregnancies. In America: “A water birth in a hospital setting may cost the same as a vaginal birth. In many cases, most or part of a hospital birth is covered by your health insurance.” that doesn’t sound too luxury to me? Your “he’s right though” seems unnecessarily antagonistic when his reasoning was unclear and the average shotgun wedding groom isn’t exactly knowledgeable about pregnancy or birth.

No. 1137970

>>1137923
Ayrt I've only ever heard of assisted waterbirths at hospitals and private clinics but I realize not everyone's health care system or cultural practices around birthgiving are the same. Hence my comment tho. Still stand by my opinion that there's no reason to assume anon meant unassisted waterbirth when she didn't mention that or where she's from.

No. 1137971

>>1137959
>I doubt farmers would recommend dangerous or home births
Nta and I have no dog in this fight, but a lot of farmers are stupid or don't trust hospitals. Idk why you think something like that wouldn't happen.

No. 1137976

>>1137909

If they weren't seriously committed to one another why does the other friend care? Sure, it's a little weird to fuck someone that was hunching on your friend but a violation of girlcode? Not too sure. Not like they had kids or a messy breakup or anything that attaches them to one another.

But yeah, she's now pregnant by a loose scrote… Sucks for her lmao

No. 1137981

>>1136972
Also I've only noticed it now but the family is so orally fixated it's ridiculous. All we talk about is cooking and eating. What will we eat for dinner? And for breakfast tomorrow? And for lunch? Omg we ate all of the cake, we have to bake another one or else we'll have no dessert!! 'This was so many calories' says my mother after finishing lunch. 'Oh God we really shouldn't eat desserts it's so unhealthy' she says after finishing her cake, then starts baking another one. In the background, baking shows are constantly on. I just cannot believe how I didn't develop an eating disorder. It's all honestly beyond annoying.

No. 1137986

>>1137981
People who are always fussing about calories and food but always eating are so exhausting to be around! Like either you watch your god damn calories or you enjoy your food, why are you making such a big production of this!

No. 1137993

>>1137971
Hm, I guess I just meant posters like op, to me seem normal and well intentioned. lmao

No. 1138009

>>1137970
I know they're offered at birth centers, but have typically seen it more with Nurse Midwife assisted homebirths in the little inflatable tubs. If pregnancy is low risk, that would be far more optimal than the hospital setting, especially with how disgustingly medicalized moids have made birthing. Sceduling a c-section in so that it better suits your OBs schedule is bullshit. Worse yet, having a vaginal birth where they promote a birthing position that goes against gravity and results in worse tearing.

No. 1138018

>>1138009
This, too many women get judgy when even animals have an instinct to hide in a safe and comfortable place to give birth. If she feels comfortable on her bed progressing labor naturally, and goes to get help if she needs it, who cares. Every women I know who's had a baby had a bad experience with the medical staff, one was particularly horrible as the Superbowl was coming and he wanted to GTFO and was mentally absent. He ended up inducing her, stressing out the mom and baby, both their heart rates went through the roof, he used all sorts of contraptions to expedite and ended up slicing her cervix so badly she almost bled out and had to have a transfusion. If you go to a hospital your input is dead last in importance, they will try to make you lay down when all you want to do is pace around.

No. 1138020

Jfc, I've been trying to sign out of Youtube for 5 minutes now. I sign out, remove my account, exit from the app, open the app again and it STILL SHOWS ME SIGNED IN. What the absolute fuck

No. 1138026

I hate how you can't have any Harry Potter related discussion without it ending with some fight about shipping. I don't give a fuuuuck about shiiiipping ughhhhhh

No. 1138028

>>1138020
Google's influence. If you're signed into a Google account it will automatically sign you into YouTube.

No. 1138033

>>1138018
I just want women to have safe birthing procedures and healthy babies without doctors stepping in with unnecessary nonsense. America continues to trend terribly in maternal death rates.

No. 1138054

I fucking hate holidays because I still live with family and can't afford a place of my own. I hate having to stay in my room to ensure no conflict happens and I can't go anywhere because I live in bumfucknowhere and everything's closed. The weather is shit too. Haven't felt this shitty in a long time.

No. 1138068

I AM VERY UPSET BECAUSE I GOT HIGH AND I WANTED A SALTY AS FUCK SLIMJIM BUT THEY DIDNT HAVE SO I HAD TO SETTLE FOR REAL CANADIAN NON SALT, ACTUAL MEAT JERKY STEAK. WTH!!!

No. 1138071

>>1137503
It's like you're describing my mother, nona. I'm treated like a goddamn baby in my late twenties.
>Don't forget to eat soup!
>Don't forget to eat veggies and fruit!
>How's your tummy, are you pooping regularly?
>Did you have breakfast?
>Did you have lunch?
>What did you have for lunch?
>Where are you going? Why?
I miss my parents but I'm so sick of being infantilized.

No. 1138077

>>1137621
It's normal.
Mean Girls has poisoned your brain

No. 1138079

>>1137621
I'm not the most feminine so I have it in my head that compliments could end up being seen as creepy coming from me. I might be overthinking it.

No. 1138081

>>1137621
>I wish complimenting women was a frequent and normal act among women
Normal women compliment and reassure other women. Only very insecure mentally ill pickmes would hurt other women's self esteem irl. I've had a lot of beautiful women compliment me but the ones that pointed out my flaws were always the same girls to bend over for any man and think any woman aside from them is a whore or super shallow.

No. 1138085

>>1138077
This. I'm in a pretty large circle of girls and compliments are like, an everyday occurence that I don't even think much about it giving and recieving them kek

No. 1138090

anti fujo spergs/baiters need to stop shitting up threads with their moral crusades. like instead of posting about heterosexual ships they like, in say the harry potter thread ,for example, they need to shit on gay ships and accuse everyone of porn addiction. it’s just annoying. if you don’t make an effort to post about straight ships then they won’t be talked about. it’s not fujoshis fault that we’re more passionate about our ships and are more willing to discuss them and post fan art and you can’t berate us into giving a fuck about straight ships if we’re not interested in them(bait)

No. 1138093

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Am I okay and reacting normally to abuse and patriarchy or am I crazy? I would love the opportunity to react in self defense. Last time a man tried to kill me I ran and called the police but I regret my decision and wish I lawfully killed him. I want the 90% rate~ of murder and rapes being committed by men to plummet from women killing men. Is this an okay feeling to have? I feel like they do not see us as people and I no longer see them as people, either. I would never even think of fighting or hurting a woman.

No. 1138094

So I have a (female) friend for a long time, we both live in an Asian country. She’s married, has basic English conversation skills and can’t speak the local language at all.
I’m also ESL, can speak pretty fluently in English and I can also communicate in the local language. (I’m business level)

I have, on numerous occasions tried to gently encourage her to learn at least one of these languages properly because it will help improve her quality of life. I myself have experienced how social life got easier once I became more fluent, it was such a serotonin boost and helped improve my mental health as well because I could make connections and friends.

Needless to say, she is a full time homemaker and her husband takes care of her. He’s actually a good husband, a good provider, doesn’t drink and as far as we know doesn’t cheat.. But, she needs a translator for making basic appointments, can’t go to a hairdresser, can’t order a non dairy drink at Starbucks, she struggled with the healthcare in this country because she couldn’t navigate her way around the list of hospitals and the services they offer. Her husband pays for the translation services. She mostly stays at home, alone, with close to no friends (except me) and unsurprisingly she’s depressed most of the time. The more depressed she gets, the more she loses hope that she will ever learn a language. She doesn’t make any effort because of the comfort zone and lack of motivation.

The other day we went out for a dinner together together with her husband and I started to nonchalantly talk about how it’s important to me that I can make medical, financial, academic and important life changing decisions myself and being independent is very important to me and that I wouldn’t want to be dependent on my husband forever. They both went silent and the husband was visibly annoyed by my speech.
Men really don’t want us to independent and ambitious, even the best of them don’t want to accept the fact that we are human beings with actual feelings and dreams. I hope she can find her way path in life but realistically speaking I don’t expect her to achieve much as long as she’s in her comfort zone.

No. 1138096

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>>1137621
One time I tried complimenting a cashier's makeup and costume and she just looked at me and down at my stuff without saying anything, so my autistic brain thought she didn't hear me.. so I said it louder and she still didn't say anything.

It's easier complimenting people I already know for me… I'm too nervous to do it to a stranger again kek

No. 1138107

>>1138093
Its always a fantasy of mine to just start ripping out peoples eyes and face if they were attacking me. I'm not a moid though so I would never do it unless I was truly in danger and there was no other option. You can always imagine how you would have reacted in the situation later but when you're in it it's terrifying and unexpected so you will just react how you do in the moment.
It's better you got away though because it could of turned south real quick. Unless you really have a weapon that can end someone's life instantly and know how to use it it's better just to get away.

Not to mention legal troubles and all that shit you'd have to deal with, that's worse to think about than murder.

No. 1138111

>>1138096
kek i tried complimenting a woman on the street once by saying i liked her dress but i guess because i'm very monotone and it was late out she just looked frightened and told me it was 5:45 pm and then hurried off. i think delivery has a lot to do with how a compliment is received

No. 1138113

>>1138096
I'm so awkward that my own lack of confidence is the one thing holding me back from giving compiliments. I'll think about it but then I'll picture them somehow taking it badly so I play it safe.

What's in the pic?

No. 1138118

>>1138111
> just looked frightened and told me it was 5:45 pm and then hurried off.
That's hilarious. She sounds like a sperg. I think your culture might have a lot to do with it too. In some cultures it's more acceptable to stare or even talk with strangers like they're your friends while other cultures might find it weird.

No. 1138127

>>1138096
Tbf she may just have been awkward herself. Not everyone knows how to handle receiving compliments.

No. 1138138

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>>1138113
>What's in the pic?
The infamous "no talk 2 me im angy" kitten, just in another pose.

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i hate my life, man.
i’m stuck in an abusive household with two grown children as my fucking parents. my poor siblings. i get gaslight constantly because my dad is on dialysis every other day and can’t do shit and my mom is a bipolar freak who accused him of cheating (he’s almost completely bedbound) and told me growing up that i, the firstborn daughter, am the reason she wants to kill herself. i used to be the only kid that would stand up to her. nobody does anymore.
i’m an adult now and i feel like such a failure. they have sapped every ounce of strength from me. i can’t even respond negatively towards their behavior without my mom having an absolute tard meltdown and taking it out on my sick dad. everything in my life is decided based on their retarded whims for the day because they financially control me. i’m not young and crazy anymore. i don’t like fighting. all my feelings and motivation shut down. my boyfriend was yelling at me, begging me to do anything but continue to wallow quietly, talk to them face to face and explain how i feel. but i don’t think i can nonas. i haven’t felt this kind of self disgust with my cowardice and feeling broken because of my abuse since i tried to anhero freshman year of high school

No. 1138150

It's not normal that one little thing can send me into a downwards self-hating spiral is it? I just dropped one of my plants I grew from seed and it's all shit now and all I can do is repeat I fucking hate myself in my head while the broken leaves flash before my eyes. The added stress of uni courses not working out is probably not helping but god I feel like such a fucking loser/failure everytime something small like this sends me over the edge I fucking hate this shit. I hate my head.

No. 1138152

My dog had his spinal surgery and is safe home now, fortunately there were zero complications. Now I can just hope that as much of his mobility can return. Even if he can just walk short distances, I'll be a very happy woman.

No. 1138154

They need to come up with a more convenient cure for eye floaters soon because I can't stand it anymore. There are some now but they are too complicated and expensive.

No. 1138156

>>1138152
I'm glad your dog's surgery went well! I'm sure he must be a lot happier now and in less pain.

No. 1138159

Not sure if this is the right thread for it but I've been working really hard on making a painting of one of my friend's dolls that she loves. I showed it to her and all she said was "thank you, that's neat". Give it to me straight nonnas am I a little bitch for wanting it to be praised more? I wanted her to be very happier over it, idk, I don't know if me wishing for that is unreasonable

No. 1138163

>>1138159
Was it a good painting? Maybe she just didn't like it that much? Or maybe your friend just isn't the over-exaggerating type and more sober in general?

No. 1138165

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So as I'm applying to music schools I have to send them a video recording of me playing and I've been struggling with this for way too long now. Today I spent the entire day recording and it feels like nothing came out good at all. So now I have no choice but to send a recording I hate and I feel like I absolutely suck at playing and will never be good enough. Part of me wants to keep trying even harder every day but another part of me just wants to give up on this stupid dream.

No. 1138169

>>1138163
I showed it to my other friends before her and they said it looked pretty and praised it, I think it looks quite nice, I don't know, I feel like an attention whore for wanting more praise on it and for her to like it more but idk how to not feel this way

No. 1138214

I'm active on an eating disorder support forum and I'm fucking tired of overweight women coming in larping anorexia instead of going on a fucking diet like normal people. It's not even BED, they all want to be dainty anorexics. It's like 60% of the forum is just tess hollidays and tunas, what the fuck

No. 1138268

Lately scrotes (one ex, scrotes on TV, reddit…) have been making me feel so shitty about my small chest that I wonder if I should get implants later in life… I guess I'll never do it, also boobs get bigger after children, but my confidence is seriously lowering. And I'm not even that flat, I have Bs while being very skinny… I guess I should gain some weight first. Hate that they're getting under my skin.

No. 1138272

>>1138268
skinny + boobs (any size) is a very nice bodytype anon. Boobs of any size look great when you're skinny. Everything looks great when you're skinny. You probably look lovely.

No. 1138283

>>1138268
It’s a dumb fight, if you get implants, then every moid in the world will get mad at you because
>hurr durr yur fake and I liked you smol boobs after oll
If you’re worried about men not wanting to fuck you, remember they have a fetish for everyone.

No. 1138287

You know you're fucking angry when you can't even post what you were going to post without getting banned for a-logging

No. 1138295

>>1138268
You already have boobs, B cups aren't small when you're skinny but today's beauty standards mean any natural boob is too small.
>>1138283
Men can't tell you had plastic surgery. They only shit on it the same reason they shit on natural woman, to neg them and feel like they can control their looks.
>>1138287
Don't drag shit to other threads.

No. 1138297

>>1138054
Sorta same. I have to stay in my room, locked, and avoid everyone, otherwise something might happen. I hate holidays because there’s the expectation to “spend time together”. I can’t even report domestic abuse or violence because I will have nowhere else to go. No friends to stay with and even extended family hate each other and live out of state. I’m trying to save my money to be able to get a car and then my own place, but it sucks being stuck and behind in life because abusive parents. Also live in the middle of nowhere. Sometimes I consider dating a moid just so I could move in with them.

No. 1138298

Never thought I'd be feeling so homesick and lonely, but I guess the grass is always greener

No. 1138303

Just spent half of my day commuting + doing an exam that I have a 5% chance of passing, lot a lot of money because of homeless guys and one of them basically harassed me, I was scared he wasn't going to leave me alone but thank god he did. I hate it here, I wish I could move.

No. 1138319

I literally spent almost 2 entire days without looking at screens but my eyes still hurt

No. 1138324

>>1138321
Not American and using eyedrops regularly. It's just eyestrain but I expected the pain to go away when I'm, well, not straining my eyes

No. 1138326

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Why am i so fucking retarded/lazy/fat and unable to keep up an exercise routine? I love exercise, I love lifting weights and walking and I love how well it makes me sleep and how I just feel "right" after doing it. But I just cannot keep up consistency with it to save my life and it's fucking me up. I know that I am lazy, but I wonder if something else is going on or maybe I just put going to the gym on a pedestal and I'm making it more of a big deal than it needs to be.
But holy shit it's almost summer and I'm still significantly overweight, I still have flabby bits everywhere and I look and feel like shit. I will meal prep/organise/gym for like a week and then just drop it. I wondered if it was my autism making me unable to adapt this new part of a routine - but I've noticed that every hobby I get I drop within like 2 weeks maximum. If I start drawing again, I'll get bored within a week. If I play a game I'm bored of it within 2 weeks. If I go to the gym I just…stop going after a week, rinse and repeat this with literally anything in my life. I must be fucking retarded, or just lazy, but I'm trying and I know that I am doing something bad - I just want to be healthier physically and mentally but it feels like a huge task for me.
No doubt the gym is stressful because I have to look in the mirror and thanks to my body dysmorphia from being a fat cunt, all I see is a 5ft frumpy flabby fridge body with fat in places there shouldn't be. I can't even use this as an excuse though, I need to stop relying on checking my form in mirrors so much. It is an exhausting mental task to even look at myself most days because of how I let my body deteriorate, I cannot let it put me off doing the one thing to fix it. I wish I could reset my brain and just power through the next 6 months and get back down to like 50kg (not an anachan for my height I just do not have the body shape for being heavy or curvy).

What's even worse is that there's such a small window for my calorie intake before I just end up gaining weight that I have already fucked up my appetite and how I interpret food - it's all monitoring calories 90% of the time until my PMS hits and then I cave in and go on a salt-fuelled hormonal rage. People on forums still keep telling me to "bulk" even though I'm already fucking fat and they just don't get it - I physically cannot handle bulking especially as I have next to no muscle on me in the first place so my appetite is shot. They think every woman is some 5'5-5'6 former sports girl who can just afford to experiment with bulking or eating lots of food, so trying to find advice for actual short women is almost fucking impossible. Then I get told that eating 1500 cal a day is for "toddlers" bitch I'm sorry I didn't ask to be of this stature, I'm not going to gorge myself on food and drain my bank account for a "Bulk" when I can't even fucking keep up a routine yet. I HATE THEM

No. 1138328

Couple days ago I wanted to wear shorter trousers but havent shaved in forever. I didn't have alot of time so sat on the edge of the bath and used a lil water and conditioner to shave without it being a full on dry shave… why did I think that would work? I managed to get one of the worst shaving cuts Ive ever seen and the flow of blood from it was ridiculous. Horror movie scene as blood flowed down the drain. Instant regret. Never shaving again. Not even with good planning. Even when I do it right and prepare there's just spots like near my ankles that are impossible to navigate without some nick happening. I don't want to give a shit about this anymore.

Sitting in bed just now I finally managed to forget my ankle situation, went to go change position and sit crossed legged and fuuuck it's raw and I resent that I ever gave a fuck about retarded leg hair rules.

No. 1138332

>>1138328
Release yourself from those chains nona, men don’t have to put up with any of that shit, why should we?

No. 1138335

>>1134117
lol same

No. 1138345

>>1137478
>>1137477
I know what my options are but I just want to be a cook because I’m in culinary school for some reason. I thought it would be easy since I failed a real STEM education constantly because of hearing problems and lack of motivation. Now even brainlet work is something I fail at. I’m at lost and want to die. I’m useless.

No. 1138350

>>1138326
FUCKING SAME. I relate so hard to not being able to keep up with things we even enjoy - exercising, games, DIY projects/crafts, books, etc. I also get bored after a week or 2. I honestly wonder if I have ADHD but I don't have insurance to see someone. I wish we could be accountabilibuddies to call each other and guilt each other into working out, lol

No. 1138351

>>1138295
I was going to talk about moid-related criminality on my country, I'm not that anon

No. 1138356

I’m actually crying rn. I seriously think I’m developing some sort of paranoia because of guys. Like I genuinely think I have androphobia I just got out of an anxiety attack because some dude from uni randomly talked to me and I’ve been suspicious about his reasons and all. I was raised in a very strict household and my dad was unhinged and abusive and he would ask me why random guys on the street would look at me and if it’s because I knew them. And then later in life a lot happened and I ended up living with my relatives and now my aunt is like my mom and she’s hyper vigilant and super anxious. She makes a horror story out of everything. She taught me to be afraid of literally everything. I feel like all of these factors accumulated have now manifested itself in me like that in adulthood. Idk if it’s ptsd or not but its so exhausting cause im already struggling with 2 other conditions that make this one even worse. I feel like soon I won’t be able to leave the house even. I hate scrotes sm.

No. 1138365

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I am trapped on this stupid website in a hell of my own making

No. 1138369

i made the mistake of not running full speed when this girl i dated told me she loves my eyes because they remind her of her dads..i was collecting red flags. she's proceeding to try to ruin my life and reputation

No. 1138370

>>1138365
tasty ramen

No. 1138377

>>1138356
I'm so sorry anon

No. 1138380

>>1138369
I met a guy a few months ago and when I looked into his eyes I was reminded of my moms…and she's been dead for ten years. I'm very glad I didn't tell him that lol. That is some shit you have to filter.

Sorry about the crazy you're dealing with.

No. 1138382

>>1138328
kek i remember reading about people using bodywash and that supposedly working for shaving, but when i tried it, i got the worst folliculitis on my legs.

No. 1138383

Was spectator of a “if you don’t support trans women in sports you’re transphobic” conversation today and at one point they agreed that women who lose to trans women just aren’t good enough, and “too bad”
It took a great deal of willpower to not respond to that, but I’d like to keep my job, so I stayed silent.

No. 1138384

>>1133606
Day 5 of pinworm infestation: they come out of the dryer on my clothes alive, despite washing them with hot water and drying on high heat. I have to wash and change my underwear multiple times a day. I feel like they are in my sinuses. I have no appetite. The medicine was supposed to kill them by day 3 but they are still everywhere. I took another dose. I am going to only wipe myself with paper towels and toilet paper until this is over. I have to clean for hours a day. I constantly think of suicide. I ordered edible diatomaceous earth to eat. I am drinking tumeric shots. I eat carrots. Not religious but I just asked God for help. I think I was cursed. Maybe a demon.

No. 1138395

>>1138380
I'm sorry about ur mom nonnie!

This girl said it when we were about to have sex, which made me bust into laughter and she didn't know why. She was quite retarded. I said "we're literally making out right now, do you not think that's weird?" She said no, then proceeded to say it many times over the short time period we were seeing each other.

No. 1138399

>>1138384
Wormwood tea is great for those faggots, godspeed you pinworm anon

No. 1138402

>>1138384
i don't know if it would help, but for the clothes washing, there's strong sanitizer detergent available, stuff that's supposed to kill diseases. could work on the worms if they're still somehow managing to come out the dryer alive. if you're already using that, then idk. good luck nona

No. 1138403

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Shittiest Easter I've ever experience

No. 1138404

>>1138382
The problem I tend to have is that I need to sit in hot as fuck water for a while to get rid of goosbumps. I'm such a goosebumpy fucker that it's dangerous. I'll lift my leg out of the hot water for 5 seconds and I'm all bumps again so next thing I know I'm slicing through em.

No. 1138406


No. 1138411

My whole life I've always been very skinny, but recently I lost tons of weight due to hyperthyroidism + worsening depression. i don't and never have had an eating disorder.
I used to love lurking the pro-ana scumbags thread, but can't anymore bc i start crying bc i look like some of them. i'm getting help though. one day i'll return to the threads

No. 1138414

>>1138411
I wish you a speedy recovery, nona.

No. 1138421

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I'm cringing at thinking of my old twitter account before I deleted it last September and how I was basically a closet terf but didn't want to admit it to myself because I was surrounded by trannies and fake-commie people online and in my friend groups. I'm so glad I deleted the twitter because now I don't have to witness my cringe handmaiden shit anymore but ugh I feel sick thinking about it - the way I just shrugged off the importance of female-only spaces, the way I even said shit like "terfs dont realise feminism can benefit men too" like bitch were you smoking crack, you ARE the terf, you always have been just fucking accept it. It's like that scene in Interstellar when he looks in the past, except it's just me screaming at myself to just accept that I always have been and always will be a proud terf at heart.
This is honestly the only time I've ever felt safely concrete and proud of my political and feminist beliefs, it's like everything just clicked together and I feel comfortable in what I believe in with no pressure to think what everyone else thinks. How unfortunate (or fortunate for trannies) that we're silenced almost everywhere because women can't have opinions that benefit them.

No. 1138423

i absolutely hate scrotes and i dont think theres a single one on this planet that can change that
i hate them i hate them i hate them I HATE THEM

No. 1138427

ughhhhh i was NOT supposed to be on-call today. someone else is supposed to be lead today, but i just got a call from my supervisor. already stressed as hell and i thought i was finally getting a break today. i want to strangle someone ughhhhhh. screw this

No. 1138433

>>1138421
no lie, this shit has been pushing me to a more conservative way of thinking on these topics over time.
i’m genuinely so sick of troons forcing their way into everything and we just have to sit there and take it

No. 1138436

I am sad/angry. I think I am doomed to live and die alone because I don't like sex. Yet sex is what all men prioritise. I want a cute, nice, funny man who is into similar things I am, who wants to share a life and support each other through it. But I will never have it because all men care about is banging all the time. Then everything else. Fucking hell.

No. 1138437

>>1138421
A bit OT but I recently reported some scrote tranny harassing a Terf and his account actually got suspended or deleted. I'm happy to see that twitter doesn't only silence TERFs.

No. 1138439

>>1138421
Before I peaked, I was in a "women's" and gender studies class with a tra professor and for some reason he had us all write a paragraph or two about what most threatened the LGBT movement (or something similar) and I wrote that TERFs were the big menace and brought up how JK is a big meanie TERF oh my fucking god it was so embarrassing kek good thing I know better now but damn I'll never live down my tra phase as long as I live. Ugh.

No. 1138445

>>1138433
ntayrt, I've always been a radical leftist/ancom/whatever and it's not like I'm turning more conservative, but I definitely feel more and more alienated from the left as time goes by because two of the things that are most important to me, women's liberation and veganism, are apparently too much for your average leftist.
It feels so shitty realising that I went from seeing feminism finally be taken seriously to "actually women are the oppressive class and you're all privileged karens" in what? not even 10 years? if I think about it too much it makes me want to cry lol
we're truly politically homeless, fuck

No. 1138452

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I put my pillow in the sun this morning and forgot it was out there until after the rain started falling and now it's wet.
>>1138436
Felt. At this rate I'm just gonna start an all female commune.

No. 1138455

>>1138452
Let me know when I can move in Nona.

No. 1138456

>>1138445
alienated from the left is a better way to put it, yeah. it’s just really strange to see myself agreeing with certain conservative talking points nowadays. what the hell happened

No. 1138457

>>1138452
I have 3 pillows, you can take one of mine.

No. 1138487

I DESPERATELY NEED TO GET FUCKED AHHHHHH

No. 1138491

nicotine, thc, caffeine…all at once. I NEED TO STOP.

No. 1138499

>>1138427
ffs. when i got there, in under an hour mind you, ON A HOLIDAY, I get told to just go back home because I was "late", and they're going to "talk to me on Monday". I was not supposed to be on shift, but I got up there anyways as fast as I could, and apparently that was not enough, and now I'm going to get yelled at on Monday and I have to just nod through it. They can go to hell.

No. 1138501

>>1138452
rolled-up towel makes a good pillow, rip nona

No. 1138502

My boyfriend went from a sweet and calm guy who loved making and getting treats with me to a fitness junkie who will scold himself loudly for having an extra piece of chocolate or complain that he's feeling fat and need to work out more. If we make anything nice for dinner he will not manage to eat it without talking about how many hours it will take him to burn it off. I miss my slightly chubby and chill boyfriend. Ironically I have lost all attraction to him because he's turned into such a restricted and crude person. A six pack doesn't matter when it comes with such a dry and cold personality. Fuck.

No. 1138516

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>>1138342
>SJWs go on and on about “respectability politics”, but the truth is that non-black people absolutely love it when black people are disgusting and trashy. It feeds their superiority complex. they want us to be the designated clown race,
>Look at reality TV, TikTok and the popularity of disgusting "humans" like Peaches. Look at ghetto burger culture in general with the rampant misogyny and violence. If the horrendous freakshows we see in the media are allowed to exist in the public eye with gross white kids and businessmen promoting them everywhere
Fucking exactly. On some level, I don't think I'll ever stop being annoyed at burgers pushing this shit so hard, and then saying you must have "internalized racism" if you don't like it. Who the fuck wants to be represented by retarded, violent trash at every turn? Why is that considered cool and normal? Name a single other group with their tongue so deeply nestled up the ass of people who've deliberately psyop'd them that they'll invest in their own self-destruction/sabotage and say you're the problem if you don't think it's good
I can write fucking schizo essays on this subject, it's so aggravating. I hate this bizarre fake woke shit where if you don't support moids in abusing and impregnating women and children, poor/no education, ass implants/hypersexual pickmeism, gang violence, shitty fast food, etc you're in the wrong. I'm not even a little sorry for avoiding black moids like the plague. I hate the antichrist, I hate obesity, I hate the redlining/lead paint/manufactured crack epidemic (it really shows in some people to this day, I swear to god), I hate America and its racial tensions/categorization system for forcibly associating me with a culture I have no relation to, I hate American media, I hate Twitter, I hate BLM, I hate seed oils, I hate the fucking goblins in office
(posting this here because I felt bad killing the vibe of the dumbass shit thread but I need to vent kek)

No. 1138527

>>1138487
just call up your best-dickin' scrote

No. 1138537

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anyone else just straight up having a shitty Easter rn? i cant even get out of bed and all i ate today was just water and thats it

No. 1138546

>>1138502
Let us know how the break up goes.

No. 1138547

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No. 1138570

An obesetard uggo moid with a man bun tried sliding into my Twitter DMs today. He knows my husband. LMAO.

No. 1138572

I'm feeling scared, anxious and hopeless

No. 1138578

We live to pay for our existence. What a pointless, stupid fucking life HAHAHA

No. 1138620

Benzo and opiate withdrawal, woo fucking hoo. It's my own fault, I just want to complain. If I could just sleep for one second.

No. 1138621

A woman at my work approached me to tell me that someone in another department "has a little crush" on me, thinks I'm pretty, is always watching me, etc…and then I find out it's literally a slimy ass middle aged man? The fuck? I feel disgusting and so appalled that she would remotely consider painting this in a positive light, she even encouraged him to talk to me and ask me if I have a bf (she KNOWS I do?!) I'm 26 and look a bit younger, plus I'm 99% sure this man took an interest in me the moment I wore lolita to work for an event. I feel like betrayed and pimped out and to make matters worse the few male coworkers I trust told me he's not the kind of guy who would back off if I tell him I have a bf, and that I would be safest if I don't engage with him. Why am I expected to just be ok with this???!!! In a female dominated workplace no less!!

No. 1138639

>>1138621
Eww Nona you need to shame the fuck out of him

No. 1138642

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I know a really retarded couple in a super toxic relationship. They hate each other, and honestly i don't care what they do usually, but today the scrote messaged me to tell me they were buying chickens.

This made me crazy angry and I don't know why. I think it's the fact Chickens are so hard to rehome and they're doing it for the cottagecore larp. What is going to happen when they break up? Where do these chickens go? They've never even kept a houseplant alive, and now they're planning on starting to grow all their own food and keep chickens overnight. They went to buy wood today to "build the coop themselves" even though they've never build anything before, and I've told them today to slow down but they won't listen. They're not going to care for these chickens when the winter comes.

I've told him outright he is already complaining she is unclean, so how will they keep a coop clean if they can't keep themselves clean? Can someone give me advice here? Maybe someone that has cared for chickens?

No. 1138667

>>1138642
Call some animal protective services or the police. A lot of places its illegal to have backyard chickens without permission.

No. 1138670

>>1138537
Mine was marginal although I'd have rather stayed in bed. Traveled down and up mountains which always screws up my head. Ended up sleeping at my grandparents for 3/4 of the time because of traveling. It didn't really matter because my mother and grandmother had to talk about king trump and how he'll save us from damnation schizo bullshit. The only good part was the food. I got to eat prime rib and it was cooked perfectly. Otherwise giant bust.

No. 1138679

I just want lgtb friends that didnt drank the liberal queer koolaid and are normal and mostly sane people who aren't just their tastes in porn & pronouns. The lesbian loneless doesn't hit as hard for me as the lack of community. If you look at my post history it would look as i hate all the other letters but i don't, i just hate what they collectively represent/what queer studies made them be. And watch people reject their own individualism and personality to become a part of the queer hivemind destroys me. And when it happens to lesbians is even worse. Is so so sad what modernity did to us, and don't mistake me i don't want to go back to the AIDS crisis or something but i think that modernity hitted the LGBT community and their members especially hard. Most members of the queer hivemind are dead in life and barely are persons anymore. In fact i don't think there is a community at all, and even if i'm a lesbian i don't considered myself a part of it because at this point is just a marketing term and idk i don't want to be apart of a giant and unpaid marketing strategy

No. 1138681

>>1138679
I feel the same way honestly, where are all the gay people that aren’t rainbow-haired squealing degenerates?

No. 1138707

>>1138679
My coworker said she was lesbian then i find out shes into some moid in new york and likes trannies or nb guys to peg and fulfill their dom woman fantasy or fucked up kinks. She thinks she's so feminist and gay despite fucking men or fucking them in the ass for their pleasure alone while fueling their delusions of 'womanhood'. At work she dresses like a cheap goth. So much for finding another lesbian in my town to feel community with. The new age feminism that caters to men while including them is such crap. I don't identify with anything gay anymore because i don't want to be associated with these freaks.

No. 1138783

I had lentils and rice for dinner and my stomach is now yelling so loudly it woke up my cat

No. 1138821

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I'm one of those people who can't go to the gym on an empty stomach but I always have absolutely no appetite until like 3pm. I fucking hate it. I hate how whenever I look up "quick protein breakfast" it's a massive fucking mason jar full of soggy vomit-textured overnight oats and like 500 calories. Bitch fuck your overnight oats, I have the stomach the size of a moid's brain (small, annoying and prone to being retarded) despite being a fat fuck, all I want in the morning is something light and some coffee so I can just not die at the gym.
I've order a protein shaker and some strawberry protein powder but it's not even going to arrive in time for my gym session so I've had to force myself to eat like 30g of porridge. I feel like an anachan but the truth is my stomach doesn't even register hunger until way later in the day and I'm trying to learn my body's natural cues to eat when I'm actually hungry instead of binging all day because some woman in a ponytail on instagram said it was "totally normal and valid xox" to wolf down 600 calories of porridge in the morning. fuck you, "nutritionist"

No. 1138832

Beginning to think “female hysteria” isn’t just a bunch of scrote bullshit. I’m a 24 year old virgin (25 in a few months and my status isn’t going to change) and while personally I know non-romantic partnership hookups aren’t for me…. getting dicked down would take away some of my stress. It sounds absolutely retarded but my whole vaginal system tells me otherwise. Whoever is my first is going to be real lucky because I am one horny bitch that needs a lot of sexual release.

No. 1138834

>>1138821
why don't you just go with the generic choice of like fruit and yogurt nonna, either buy those little cups of yogurt or get a big tub and measure it out to your liking, and add some strawberries or whatever fruit you're into

No. 1138837

>>1138821
Just eat protein yoghurt or pudding and stop whinging, also not having proper hunger cues is fucked up but you can fix it by eating often enough.

No. 1138845

I'm sick of constantly sabotaging romantic relationships but I just can't trust anyone. I've been burned way too many times and I just don't have the energy.

No. 1138852

my anti-depressant makes me so fucking horny to the point where i cant fix it myself.. but i’m a shut-in virgin so i have to sit here and suffer

No. 1138855

im so upset because i posted screenshots of terribly rude things this girl i was seeing texted me on a private account, and my friend (who is playing both sides but was remaining neutral and understood my hurt) showed her. i texted her if she did it three days ago, no response. it's 6 AM right now and i can't sleep because of it and just texted her if she could please tell me why she did it

No. 1138858


No. 1138860

>>1138858
we’ll get through this, nona

No. 1138873

Like lmao gee. It must be nice to have MONEY and just think your friends not really poor she just has to ~apply~ herself and think ~positively~ like oh my god. Shut the fuck up. Please shut the fuck up. You told me you got a huge bonus the other week at your and I got paid $300 two days ago. Please shut up.

No. 1138877

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>>1136077
i feel this so much. in my city i am seeing more and more faggots riding electric scooters, the one that look like children's toys. it just drives me up the wall i actually feel sick to my stomach when i see them. do they think they look cool ? especially when they are wearing a suit or formal wear of sorts, or not even, just expensive looking outfits. sickening faggotry.
barely related but one time i was watching a celebrity variety game TV show, already i am upset because i dont like celebrities ( idk why i kept watching, i think it was an at the time new show/concept so i wanted to see ). then comes a fat apple shaped male, fat up top with really skinny legs, a singer known for love songs. he goes to greet the host and he gives him a giddy non hand clasp bro-hug, WTF ? not even the worst thing, the worst offender i just cannot forget ( and this is real i am seriously not exaggerating ): while hugging he raised one of his legs up like a little girl. WTFFFFF!!!!!! i was borderline traumatized. stop this disgusting madness. i watched this three years ago i think, and i havent been able to forget. i brought this up during dinner and my brother looked at me like i was crazy. i know im not.

No. 1138902

>>1138832
Just do yourself a favor and get a man who has experienced. I lost my p in v virginity to a guy who swore up and down he was going to dICK me down good. 6 DIFFERENT TIMES we attempted to have sex and he kept getting soft (he’s 25 btw) and finally admitted he was a virgin. No shock since he didn’t know what the fuck he was doing, couldn’t find a clit with Google maps, and as soon as he entered me he JACK HAMMERED like they do in bad porn. Like no build up. Just straight in. Couldn’t make me cum ONCE. AND he couldn’t stay hard for fucking 5 minutes. Now I’m bitter and have no interest in sex because one scrote ruined the whole thing for me. I waited until I was 32 to have sex and I got THAT. I should kill myself honestly.

No. 1138904

>>1136077
You sound like you need a break to smoke a fag kek

No. 1138906

I bought an ipad mini and it went from an 80% battery to 50% while locked overnight and i don't know if it's normal and ipads really have that shit battery or if i need to have it fixed or if i should just return it before my amazon 14 days are up

No. 1138908

Really wish I could at least get a, "shit, my bad for ruining your bath" whenever my bf interrupts me so he can have one out of four 30-45 minutes wet shit sessions that I can hear through the door in every part of this apartment. The excessive shitting that makes leaving the apartment and ordeal and that disrupts his sleep but he won't go get it looked at or fixed. Cool but I am the bitch for being frustrated when this happens. Excellent excellent excellent

No. 1138909

>>1138908
Dump his dumpy ass.

No. 1138910

>>1138877
There was a pilot project in my city a few years ago for these scooters and it was hell. People that ride these are fucking dangerous. They'd also leave them everywhere on the sidewalks and often in the bike lane. I'd sometimes see a pile of them. I am so glad the project was cancelled after that summer. People are already retarted enough when they ride those bike you can rent, imagine a fucking scooter.

No. 1138917

>>1136622
Wrong. Im autistic and my normie bf encourages me to go outside.

No. 1138919

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waaaa I just wanted to dress up and look pretty but I brutally pierced my index finger while trying to open new mascara tube with a thread picker then gave myself severe burn on my thumb with curling iron and the skins peeling off. I’m so useless I wish I had the gall to just Kermit.

No. 1138920

>>1138908
Why are you with him?

No. 1138931

>>1138908
he has ibs, like most men, because he probably eats like shit. Before your bath tell him the bathroom isn't available for an hour, lock the door, and he'll have to drive somewhere to shit. Then enforce it. You can train a man using the same resources you would on a puppy.

No. 1138937

I can't believe i procrastinated all my homework for a fucking week and now I've just today to finish like 5 essays, Tbh I don't even like this degree my parents quite literally bullied me into pursuing this career and I don't think they understand that I don't give a single fuck

No. 1138951

>>1138908
>The excessive shitting that makes leaving the apartment and ordeal

What the fuck?

No. 1138953

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Will getting a clitoral stimulation toy make me happier? I got money off commissions and I want to spent on something that would be actually useful, instead of getting some merch. My life's been full of nothing but 4 walls and gloom for 6 months now. Nothing makes me happy other than my obsession with comics. Everything feels like a chore.

No. 1138958

>>1138931
Yep. I suspect a gluten intolerance, but he knows that I'm wrong. He claims it is a result of taking Excedrin every single day for recurrant headaches caused by… taking Excedrin every day. I wish I was born a lesbian

No. 1138959

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my bpd bf broke up with me yesterday. i’m in agony because i’m deeply in love with him but also relieved because what the fuck was i doing getting into a relationship with a severely mentally ill man

No. 1138962

>>1138958
honey why are you putting up with this? I'm genuinely asking. Being ill is part of life and he can't control it, but he can control his response to it. If you had an illness that made your bf uncomfortable in his own home, would you ignore it or go to a Doctor? I've lived with men with ibs before and how tolerable it is is truly about how they handle the condition. Taking fibre pills helps A LOT but if he's not willing to do the bare minimum of taking a couple pills a day for your comfort, he truly gives no shit about you.

No. 1138964

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that’s it, nonnies. my cat has died at age 17. had her for 11 years.

No. 1138965

>>1138953
It's good and easy to orgasm. But I havent been using mine because Im worried that I'll lose sensitivity, wonder if that could happeb

No. 1138967

>>1138959
Currently my BPD is breaking up with me (AVPD-chan), it's really killing me tbh. I can't talk to anyone but him and now he's dumping me. It's so hard to let go, it makes me cry erryday.

No. 1138969

>>1138962
I mean he does give a ton of shit, it seems, just not for her, kek.

No. 1138971

>>1138964
I’m sorry to hear this nonita, i’m sure she loved you very much. It’s always hard losing a beloved pet.

No. 1138972

>>1138953
cumming produces good brain chemicals but you can get desensitized to it over time, I see a lot of hikkikos talk about how they spend all their time jacking it and have experienced having a much lower libido because of it

No. 1138974

>>1138967
sending love from another avpd freak, its horrible, let yourself cry now but remember the pain doesn't last forever

No. 1138980

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>>1138964
im so sorry nonnie, losing a pet you've had for that long is the worst feeling. I'm sure she loved you lots

No. 1138981

>>1138967
it’s extremely painful because we clicked perfectly and he is the first man i have ever loved, but he decided that commitment was a burden to him and he wanted to be free while we were getting serious. i’ll probably be thinking about him for the rest of my life. goddamn, it hurts
sending love to you, avpd-chan

No. 1138989

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Took me a lot of strength today not to go feral on the moid my best friend has been seeing since late December. I asked him "what" they are and he hits me with the "I'm currently questioning monogamy but yeah I'm just enjoying the time right now"… yeah I'm sure you are, you fucking prick, meanwhile she's desperately waiting for him to ask her to be his girlfriend. I hate seeing her put herself through this because all her ex boyfriends destroyed her self esteem. She will literally plan her day around this stupid moid and for what? Ugh

No. 1138993

>>1138989
And he felt totally comfortable saying this to you? I hate men.

No. 1139005

>>1138989
If my best friend's moid had told me this I would've kicked him in the balls so hard he would've been spitting out his own pubes. I wonder if he said that because he thought you were coming onto him and wanted to subtly let you know you (blech) "had a chance"?

No. 1139008

>>1138993
Yes with a dumb smile as well. I tried telling her to break it off before it's too late but well, she already has feelings for him so my advice falls on deaf ears.

No. 1139009

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Ugh nonnies I have become too hostile and too embarrassed around talking to men I don't even know. The new manager at the gym called me out (or just basically stated, didn't even tell me off) that I need to put shoes on when deadlifting - he is totally right and it's my fault for doing it in just my socks as I am in a public gym and it's a health and safety thing but my cheapskate ass was putting it off.
I know he's not even wrong in saying that, but I still vividly imagined caving his head in with a barbell because I just assumed he was lecturing me - I'm used to random men coming up to me and doing that. Now I'm just replaying the conversation over and over in my head because I'm fucking retarded and should have just bought some canvas shoes to avoid this conversation, I get so embarrassed over literally any conversation with men nowadays and I even said "sorry" he just said "don't worry about it at all and have a good day" and I still interpreted it as a lecture. What is wrong with me!!!!!

No. 1139017

>>1138411
the doctor i was referred to doesn't have any availabilities until june 30th. i'm literally downing HIGH calorie protein shakes every morning and afternoon, nuts and seeds, crackers, fruit, yogurt, meats, peanut butter, yogurt, carbs, LARGE portions of everything, anything i can get my hands on. and i STILL weigh fucking 80 pounds now. EIGHTY. i'm 5'5. i usually wear big clothes bc that's my style so many people don't know that i look like this, they'd def assume i'm an ana-chan, but it's basically summer where i live and love wearing wife beaters. i'm never going to wear shorts and show my legs because that's where it's most obvious. it's honestly scary and worrying to look at. i hate how i make all my friends worried. we're all very open with each other but this is a little too far so i try not to talk about it even though it makes me cry daily. i hate looking like this so much i feel so embarrassed and ashamed. i'm trying my best and do everything i can to not look at my naked body.

No. 1139024

>>1139005
Unfortunately I did not kick him in the balls but I did let him now how much horseshit he was talking about "nOt BeLieViNg iN mOnOgAmY" because he wants to get his dick wet without responsibilities. I (thankfully) don't think he wanted to make a move on me, since I'm her best friend and everyone knows what I think of men, especially ones like him, but he most likely doesn't have the balls to tell her what he told me, so he keeps being vague and stringing her along when she asks him. That's why she asked me to ask him about the status of their "relationship".

No. 1139030

I am not going to take responsibility for and baby sit a grown ass fucking woman who refuses to be a functioning member of society. Why am I expected to take all of this on??? Is she not even trying?? Why is this my responsibility??? She's never done a thing for me in my fucking life, I can't believe she expects me to do everything for her. You're a fucking 40 something year old woman just figure out your shit instead of leaning on me like I'm some precious amazing angel who can't be shaken when you know I struggle daily. Sometimes I can't even muster the energy to feed myself and you want me to help "cure" you?? Even with the intensity of issues I still manage to work a job and have a community around me. This is fucking sad.

No. 1139032

>>1139024
He's smart. He told you so you'd tell her and end up being the bad guy. He's stringing her along and if she accuses him of doing so, he'll just say "well I already told anon I have other women around!"
Be wary.

No. 1139044

I hate that troons where I live can get their surgeries for free when women that had a masectomy due to breast cancer have to pay out of pocket for breast implants.
In the last three years, taxpayers have paid 17 millions dollars toward these surgeries, the three years before that was 7,8 millions. It angers me that I have to indirectly pay for these people.

No. 1139046

I don't think I'm in a mental state where I should be in a relationship right now. It's unfair towards my partner, who shouldn't suffer because of me.

IT'S SO HARD TO GO THROUGH WITH IT THOUGH!!!

No. 1139050

>>1138679
If it makes you feel better I am lesbian but no one knows unless they ask and am pretty normie, not really into the LGBT community. I think we do exist we're just mostly still in the closet unfortunately

No. 1139057

>>1139044
What are you gonna do about it?(bait)

No. 1139093

>>1138855
That is not your friend, and I am sorry she betrayed your trust. Depending on the severity of how rude the girl you were seeing was and the reasoning your friend gives for revealing your posts to the girl who hurt you, I would heavily consider cutting the mutual friend off.

No. 1139110

I remember pretty much all of my dreams every night, which is fun and all, but once in a while I get those really weird and disturbing sex dreams and then I wish to never dream of anything again.

No. 1139146

I've been thinking about how I could probably make some money with a "study with me" youtube channel, because it seems pretty easy to just film yourself studying and then premiere hours of that on youtube, and maybe if I really got into it that could motivate me to care about this stupid degree, but I already know that I would somehow find a way to get lazy plus building a community of people who would use my videos to study seems like a lot of maintenance. I know it probably isn't because the ones I've seen were just people talking to each other in the chat but I'm looking for reasons to justify my laziness

No. 1139150

>>1139146
I use to do my homework on an old cam site it wasn't just for sex lol, I can't even remember the site but you could basically host yourself and then people could join. So many people use to talk to me when I did my homework and it kept me in a routine. This was back before people could give money to streamers you could probably make money on twitch just doing that.

No. 1139169

How does one stop "planning" and start "doing"? How do you overcome weak discipline? I feel like I'm being held back but surely I have something I can do within my own power

No. 1139178

Friend: you can vent but you can’t talk negatively.

HOW?! In THE. fuuuUUUUCK do you do that?

No. 1139180

>>1139169
Idk what exactly you’re planning, since it does a make difference. I have the same issue, i think imagining the outcome and the sense of accomplishment of “doing” motivates me a lot. I just start visualizing how it will be and how it will positively affect me and i’ll get to “doing”

No. 1139181

Over halfway through that Charlie Sheen documentary that a nona linked yesterday and I cannot believe how much men are allowed to get away with.

No. 1139189

>>1139169
This is one tip I can give you: Don't tell anyone of your plans before doing them. It helps

No. 1139190

I took a week off in like March and didn't tell my family so I could truly relax and past two weeks I've been doing overtime and I'm so tired and I agreed since I'll have 4 days off I'd go stay but they've already tied me into agreeing to go to this event and I'm just so tired. I'm also on my period. I have so mant chores I've put off and realistically ill only really start into them on my time off and now my true free time is getting eaten up by others. I only ever want a partner when I want someone else to do housework but I have lived with two men so far and know that doesn't happen. So I suffer and solider on but I'm mad

No. 1139193

Be honest with me. I’m 33, im pretty sexually inexperienced, not a virgin but only had sex once. (It was bad) is there still a chance for me for find someone before im fucking 40?

Lmao. Like I’m crying. I want to experience love while im young. And it feels like my clock is ticking down to where I’ll be unable to find someone. Dating apps are a sham and filled with bots or people trying to get a green card or neck beards. My job is physically exhausting so I don’t go out after work, not that I could stay out late because I work a 6am shift. Doesn’t leave me a big window. I don’t go to bars and there’s nothing here to meet people at. The nearest city is 2 hours away. All that’s around here is farms and a dying mall. Idk where I’m supposed to meet and find someone to date. I’m lonely and miserable.

No. 1139199

being betrayed by a really close friend is the shittiest fucking feeling

No. 1139210

>>1138821
Eat a banana, yogurt, a boiled egg, a toast with whatever you want on it? Literally any of those or a combo. Your brain is moid level retarded, too, if this is an issue you can't solve in 2 seconds, damn.

No. 1139213

>>1138906
Did it DL/instal a major update overnight?

No. 1139215

>>1138953
No. I bought a womanizer a few months ago, and while it is good at what it does, I am as miserale as ever.

Good orgasms tho.

No. 1139223

>>1139193
Yes, there is hope. Try OK cupid (Apps ARE a sham), and go do something on weekends. Meet friends of friends; etc. Good luck. As cringe as it sounds, it happens when you least expect.

No. 1139251

>>1138919
tnd is that you???

No. 1139253

>>1139199
How/Why would someone do that to their bff? I'd really like to understand it.

No. 1139257

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I have enough I'm never satisfied with my shit. I want to delete everything and start fresh again, but at what cost and what's the point if I'm disorganized?

No. 1139262

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Jfc can't things work out for once?! Just when I think that things have calmed down, stupid shit keeps piling on top again. Life is a scam.

No. 1139264

>>1139093
in the texts she called me a whore. i told her she was being immature, i wasnt going to play these games, and asked for her to not be rude to me in public which she is doing, or be rude to me at all because it's hurtful and inflammatory. she said have fun with life, i never liked you, etc. I said that's cool, I liked you and I enjoyed the time we spent together. she said she didn't, then to go cope. she posted about never liking me to her 160k followers. she didn't name me which is fine i guess, but it was 100% for me to see and hurt my feelings.
so yeah, what friend would not stand up for me?

No. 1139269

Did some snooping on my crush (not even snooping, he didn't hide his likes so anyone can see) He's pornsick and I guess I now have to stop imagining he's something special. I hate ass obsessed scrotes in particular and he fuuuu…

No. 1139287

I just want to vent my absolute fucking disgust and hatred for men of all fucking races and sexualities because I can't do it anywhere else. Every single corner of the internet is absolutely riddled with misogyny it's absolutely impossible to escape it I was just recommended a video of a woman on YouTube being slapped on the train by a moid for being rowdy and the comments section was just filled with men bragging about how they would love to beat women and how they need to be put in their place etc. Then I go to datalounge which was a stupid choice on my part, and there was an article about a woman who was murdered then stuffed in her suitcase and one of the first comments was "I wonder what she did to deserve this" unironically. Just straight up blaming women for being murdered on a fag site no less where they bitch about homophobia every fucking day. I'm really starting to become misandrist and I don't know what to do about it.

No. 1139290

I WANT TO TALK SO SOMEONE!! Why doesn't anyone respond? I really mean nothing to anyone.

No. 1139295

>>1139287
>I'm really starting to become misandrist and I don't know what to do about it
That's not a bad thing tbh. Men have actively made our lives miserable since the beginning. Fuck em.

No. 1139296

>>1139290
I'll talk to you nonny

No. 1139297

Hate apartment life so much, hate being surrounded by all these uncivilized neighbours. Damn people just don't know how to live with others and respect the rules. I wish I have my own house but it's unlikely anytime soon and probably I won't have one in the future with this economic state. It's so frustrating because I'm not the only one who deal with similar problems, we don't deserve this.

No. 1139300

>>1139287
I'm with you anon. My patience with moids has run out completely. I can't understand how women are so willing to put up with them. It's not worth my peace just to be "picked" or liked by moids.

No. 1139302

>>1138953
Not really. I posted up thread about regretting buying one. with the same pic too.>>1135284
Still haven't used it tbh. I will figure it out when i am home alone.

No. 1139306

>>1138384
How long do they survive on their own? Maybe you could put your infected clothes in a trash bag for a month (like people do with bed bugs?) and buy some plain white underwear and use bleach to wash them? So sorry for you pinworm anon it sounds like hell.

No. 1139329

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Fuck restaurants that put bullshit garnishes on your food without mentioning it in the menu listing. Half of my sandwich is soaked and soggy with pickle juice. The pickle isn't even good anymore because the heat from the food made it mushy. I was looking forward to takeout all day and this is what I get. Some of the pickle juice soaked the fries too.

No. 1139332

I'm trying to find the strength to break up with my girlfriend.

We've been long distance for a while but she's supposed to be moving in with me in about a year. Lately I've been dreading that inevitability. She wants to visit me now that we're both graduated and living on our own, but the idea of her being here for an extended period of time, even just a week or two, is filling me with so much dread. Last time I was able to visit her, I wasn't excited at all, it just wasn't fun. It wasn't the same. I don't know where she ends and I begin; all of our friends and hobbies are the same, I can't do anything without her getting into it as well. I know it's good for couples to be into the same stuff and have mutual friends, but I feel so claustrophobic. I have nothing of my own.

I can't do this anymore. But we've been together for 3+ years.

Nonas please me your strength to figure out how the fuck to do this, I haven't had to break up with somebody in so long.

No. 1139333

>>1139329
Pickle fries sound yummy. I hope you get a better sandwich next time nonna. Maybe just ask for no pickles.

No. 1139345

>>1139332
just remember that you're doing right by her by breaking up as soon as possible so she won't make moves and choices she can't change in anticipation of living with you

No. 1139356

I just cried at the doctor's office. Noting has been going my way all week and today felt like the last straw when i sold an item on mercari but suddenly couldnt find the item irl to ship it, so i had to cancel and refund the buyer. I felt so awful. i really dont know how it can get worse, but shit has been bad, nonnies

No. 1139360

I am so incredibly ashamed of being an ugly stupid kissless virgin that remembering I was diddled when I was 10 by a teenager makes me feel better. At least I had SOME sort of intimate contact with another person.

No. 1139377

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Maybe vent thread isn't the 100% correct place for my vent but my god life is so fucked up right now. I have been dealing with a lot of health problems for a few years, I've seen my friends thrice during the pandemic because I have to be careful and so on. Naturally I had to drop out of school and can't get a normal ass job because I am risk group and in pain most of the time, I know so many people still do it all because they gotta and they are so much better than I am. I'm at a point where there is really nothing that could make me look forward to keeping up, I am angry, lonely, in pain and downright ashamed of myself, I am so fucking old already and have wasted so many years being sick. People around me never ask me health or doctor related questions because I know they know I don't have any good news, they don't know how to respond and so on, I get that but I just want someone to fucking talk to me like I was fragile, hurt and cared about and not this cold, tired and useless cunt I have become. Just one fucking hug would've been fine, I'm not even suicidal in the traditional sense, I just cannot see the point in being this burden for much longer, especially when there's such a high chance of me receiving even worse medical news soon. It feels like twilight zone, I just want someone to talk to me softly for fucks sake, pretend I have the right to be here still and that I am not just a fucking flesh vessel meant to suffer just for the hell of it, maybe I can still become something and I'm not a complete failure?

No. 1139391

I feel like people are just waiting for me to kill myself and bitch, me too the fuck

No. 1139392

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No. 1139419

>>1139332
anon listen to me. i was in the same exact position. do you have friends to lean on for support and advice pre and post breakup? that helped me the most.
here's what i did, which might be shitty if this person wasn't bad to you but my person was. i mentally exited the relationship while letting it continue so by the time i left, i didn't hurt and i was okay with being seen as the bad guy.
i made the mistake of taking tiny steps to distance myself instead of ripping the bandaid off, i regret that so much. write down a list of incompatibilities to ensure you're dong the right thing, explain that you both don't want the same thing as each other which isn't fair to either party, how it'll be better in the grand scheme of things (which isn't a lie), and that you hope she can find someone that can meet her needs. trust your emotions are leading you to the right outcome

No. 1139440

>guy friend asks me what my life ambitions are
>"idk, marrying my girlfriend and having children with her"
>"that doesn't count as a life goal!! you braindead tradewife"
you fucking asked motherfucker

No. 1139459

>>1132994
>that I was a groomed 18 year old girl in a super bad situation.
I was a groomed 28 year old girl as well

No. 1139544

>>1139459
Age means nothing when it comes to this, we can do stupid things in our lowest points of life. You’re worthy of love. And if the circumstances were different and we knew each other i would’ve loved to be your friend despite your “mistake” you can do this, tbh i know how you feel, wish I could give you a hug

No. 1139555

I’m in so much pain, wish i had someone to talk to

No. 1139586

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My mom isn't a bad person I think, she's nice to me and can be pretty sweet. But I just can't deny I don't really like her that much. I loved my dad way more and he was outright abusive, but at least he was very blunt and upfront with it.
Some stuff I dislike about my mom:
>Always victimizing herself even when she thinks she isn't
>Does the whole "pretending to be fine" while visibly being upset or hurt (I hate people who lie like this)
>Talks to me about shit that I literally don't care about (car crashes and shit other people say that I have no interest in)
>A tickling bomb waiting to burst
>Too religious
>Her way of raising me emotionally fucked me up even more than my dad who was literally an abuser lmao
>Made me obese growing up (to feel better about herself maybe, she's also obese af)
>Can't accept help, infantilizes me
>Either tries too hard to appeal to my friends or throws a massive tantrum when she doesn't like one of them (has ruined my friendships for better or worse)
>Idk I have some sympathy for her because she's not bad but she's very cringe
>Tells me to -never lose contact with my cousins and uncles/aunts- because they are "such good people" even though I outright find them obnoxious
>I can't move out atm but I will eventually before and I plan to go as far away from everyone in this town as I can, then she says shit like "I will never see you again!!!" And starts getting fake emotional if you get me. It's annoying as fuck
>The good things she does not always compensates the emotionally stunted shit she pulls out

Yep pic related is going to be me when she dies. I give 0 fucks

No. 1139587

>>1139555
Talk to me nonni

No. 1142046

>>1139586
This whole website is full of mentally ill fuckers who probably live in clinics/assisted living spaces. They would rather want to push you off a roof than keeping you in there, whether it’s your “abusive” mom’s house or a clinic, you ungrateful retard.



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