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No. 1332222
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I’m fine when I’m at work, but as soon as I get home I’m unhappy again. I guess that’s better than being depressed at work and dreading each shift, but it’s exhausting to work all day and then go home and be so frustrated with my surroundings.
No. 1332236
This threadpic is fucking infuriating, I can tolerate yaoi shit but fucking webtoon crap? gag.
>>1332227waiting, will you do it soon?
No. 1332324
>>1332227you fucking pussy
when are you going to start?
No. 1332330
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So this thread is just… dead? Begin your kpop spam nonnie… you scared??
No. 1333096
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Kek based. Thanks jannies
No. 1333124
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This is for the anon who put up the infinitely superior cat pic, this is for you..(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)
No. 1333129
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>>1333125>>1333125>>1333125no I have to do this, this is serious business
(mental disability ) No. 1333132
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No. 1333136
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It turned out that this guy I'm talking to knows about both LC and CC, and now I'm scared to vent about anything regarding him here in case he finds it. Why the fuck are moids allowed on the same internet as women? The same way there are gender segregated bathrooms, we also need gender segregated internet ffs
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No. 1333157
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golly nearly every thread is chaotic today
No. 1333158
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>>1333144>>1333153shut the fuck up you twitter fag and go back to wherever you came from and jerk off to underage shawn pics like you faggots do. weeb/otaku/fujo shit existed here way before you even found out about this site which im guessing is yesterday.
You anti-fujo spergs are always so insane and retarded, like the sperg in the locked thread who threatened to murder someone over yaoi, imagine being that insane.
No. 1333160
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I’m very nervous my boyfriend is going to psyche himself out and end our relationship. We started dating about 9 months ago while we were both in not so great places emotionally. Initially it started out as just a fling but it grew into being an official couple a few months later. We’ve agreed to take it slow but I’m afraid that he’s going to think that just because we don’t act like lovesick teenagers it means we shouldn’t be together. He said he’s had a lot of issues in the past with diving headfirst into codependency and losing himself in relationships. He has told me that he feels like he loves me but cannot bring himself to actually say ‘love’. I’m honestly not even all that bothered by this because I feel like his actions do line up with his feelings. The thing that bothers me is that I feel like he’s putting too much focus onto words instead of allowing himself to just feel his feelings. I’ve told him many times that I’ve been with guys who always said the right thing but couldn’t back them up and that I don’t feel like he’s this way but I don’t think he fully understands. I’ve told him I’m not going to settle with someone who will never articulate their feelings for me but also that I’m willing to work with him and take things as slow as he needs. I just hope he can believe in me.
No. 1333168
>>1333161its moid entitlement, demanding something be done as if he owns this place and then spamming when he doesnt get his way.
gay moid needs to go back to his echo-chamber because no one is here going to bow down to him no matter how much nugu kpop girls he spams or threatens others with bodily harm.
No. 1333178
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>mfw my sister visits and makes everything about her and talks over/looks down on me
No. 1333269
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I often have period of time where I'm too lazy to do anything.
I have it now, for more than week. What's the point of doing anything. I don't have motivation to do something and when I push myself, it's pure suffering.
I don't even have motivation to do things that I enjoy, even games. Nothing.
It's like feeling of mental numbness and lethargy. It feels depressive.
No. 1333289
Posting here too because i didnt realise there was a new thread.
>>1331790Oh my goodness. I dont think that was me! I believe this is my first time posting about this. Do you remember which thread? I dont know if it would benefit them but id love to talk to someone going through a similar struggle. Thank you for the well wishes nona!
>>1333286 <- same post on old thread
No. 1333334
>>1333315She probably just heard the words no empathy, googled it and has by now armchair diagnosed you as a covert narc or some shit like that. That's popular atm.
Tism fakers are weird though.. she fucked up for years by letting you think that. I posted about an ex friend lately who did the same. It takes 2 whole seconds to say 'suspected autism' instead of lying.
No. 1333409
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I wish social media never existed, I hate influencers, I hate microtrends, I hate being basically forced to use different apps and socials for shit like uni and work or even just staying in touch with friends, I hate fats fashion, I hate how performative everything is, I hate how all subcultures are pretty much dead now, I hate the digital age I hate it I hate it!!!
No. 1333531
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>have not spoken to my little brother in 4 years because I went no contact with my mother
>despite everything, i know she is using him as a spy and for god knows what reason she always gossips with a teenager
>i miss him, i miss talking, i wish i could play videogames or at least suggest a show to watch
>he misses me too but i know the moment mother will know he will always have to tell her everything and use as a toy to try using and scamming me
It hurts. I raised my little brothers and escaped this place.
No. 1333584
>>1333549I would need to wait at least 5 years
nonny. But i agree…
>>1333559>mfw im turning 22 in a weekOh dear. Thank you for a heads up. Goodluck to you!
No. 1333679
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I hate the fucking kju anon agenda (fuck them so much, I am not using that fucking letter. I'll use the phonetic spelling instead). These dumbasses really believe that no one should ever get sick or hurt. All of life's suffering was brought on by the elite. What's somewhat humorous is these asshats reporting these turd views keep on saying that everyone will be getting money back due to some made up legislation or something. Now if this was even remotely true, why the fuck are these people ebegging and doing sponsorships? It makes no sense. I also hate how kju anons use old tired memes like Pepe and unironically use the term normies. They so remind me of a 13 year old who is trying to act cool and edgy but looks super retarded instead. Don't even try to talk to them nicely. They are so batshit insane that if you question any of their beliefs, they go into heavy defense mode. They literally think they "won the argument" if you stop talking/get annoyed at them. They are a cancerous cult. Dumb part is you could expose how this was just a ruse and people would still stand with it because how dare the world not work the way they want. Fucking lemmings.
TLDR: dumbass rant against certain "conspiracy theory group". I want to play Lemmings now.
No. 1333701
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>>1333688i'm afraid this is what my friend is thinking about me. my only close friend… i'm never venting to a friend againp
No. 1333708
>>1333688Me too anon. I have many
toxic friends like this because im a good listener and apparently a pushover. We need to focus our energy on those who dont take without giving
No. 1333721
>>1333688blocked the number of a bitch like this recently, feels good
>>1333708been wondering why i attract these people so much and recently realized it's because im a good listener. what do? stop?
No. 1333726
>>1333714I'm sorry
nonnie, I wish we could too
same situation as in your nigel ignoring you, not having friends, or both?
No. 1333749
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I wish I could find a kewl kewl kewl person to chill with to hang with to do the kewl things with. pic unrelatedd
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>>1333738aw my poor nona, I hope the idiot who's ignoring you comes to his senses and that you are able to make some nice friends too
No. 1333758
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holy fuck i feel like shit, absolute trash. why do i keep getting myself into situations? why? why did i get myself into this when i knew it was going to hurt myself? there it is, i'm hurting so bad. this shit really hurts, i knew it was gonna hurt but i had no idea it was gonna hurt THIS MUCH. wtf.
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>>1333757good call honestly
No. 1333763
>>1333757ayrt I'm in sorta a similar scenario being in my early 20s only ever been with this one guy and lately he's been a drain on my mental health more than anything
maybe going the enlightened spinster route really is for the better, dealing with men is a burden
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>>1333688Man theres alot of anons that can relate kek been friends since middle school with a bpd chan that only used me as someone to push her weird fetish shit on. It sucks because I tried to reconcile recently and was forced out due to me correcting certain things she seethed about. I hate knowing that I had to grovel on my knees to even be considered a person while she spent most of our friendship shitting on me. Never befriend “smart tortured souls” anons, most of the time they sperg out the moment someone else doesn’t believe in their crazy viewpoints or doesnt whole heartedly agree to everything they say.
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>tfw your best friend is back with her worthless moid again and is now ignoring you bc you refused to lend her money
No. 1333801
>>13337011) ask how she's doing and spend time talking it over with her
2) alternate between bitching and talking about things you look forward to or are happy about or find funny
3) ????
4) friendship
Never venting can be as dull as only venting.
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My dad keeps slamming the door as obnoxiously loud as possible just to be annoying and im considering spraying bug spray EVERYWHERE because he hates the smell of it. Dont fuck with me bitch
No. 1333845
>>1333800I'm the anon you first replied to earlier and wow we have a lot in common, I'm currently an unemployed shut-in living with my mom who also doesn't connect with people often
I hope you are able to make even one genuine connection with someone along with get on disability, I relate to your situation a lot so if it helps at least you know there are others out there like you
No. 1333861
>>1333849same! thank you kind
nonnie, have a good night/day wherever you are!
No. 1333864
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On my second day of food poisoning. Shitty father (I won't call him dad anymore) didn't wear a mask, cleaned areas he touched and keeps blaming my mom for getting the whole house sick when she has had no symptoms at all. Maybe, just maybe I have a sore chest and can't breath in deep while you could is because I was laying down on my side and stomach for 24 hours exhausted? The fucking moid logic.
Instead of doing missed classwork I slept the first day, then wasted away surfing the net today. Only silver lining is I found 4 new amazing horny fics, 5 pics to add to my otp collection, and new character ideas for my video game that will release in 10,000 years. Yipee
No. 1333942
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I study in this cooking class and I'm the youngest person in it, since most people going to the general school are between mid twenties and late thirties, I'm 19 at the moment. The class takes all the morning, so we go for lunch on certain hours. I usually bring my own food, but yesterday I decided to go with some lady who was selling sandwiches. While I was waiting for my order to get out, a group of older men approached me and began to ask questions out of nowhere; they where from the mechanic class, which is many blocks away from mine, so I didn't know any of them. Once my sandwich was ready, I told them goodbye and went to see my group on the cafeteria.
Our group was the only one in the cafeteria. We talked for a while until it was time to return to our class. While we were accommodating the tables and chairs, the same group from the mechanic class approached me again, this time with a new guy. He looked at least twice my age and like a Discord mod stereotype; obese, greasy unkept hair, neckbeard, clothing with food stains, you get the idea. I tried to not mind it much, because I just needed to finish with the chairs and leave quickly, but one of the men tried to introduce him to me, telling me how I'm a little lady and the obese guy, who he called a gentleman, wants to talk to me, but he quickly pulled out his phone and began to play on it without saying anything. I was feeling uncomfortable, so I told them that I needed to leave, but the same guy kept telling me that I should give patience to the obese guy because he is shy. My classmates told me that I should stay and try to talk to him, but I refused because, again, we all needed to work, so we left. On our way to the classroom, my classmates were talking about how he seemed to like me, and how cute it would be for me to find love, while I was cringing in the inside.
Later on, the class was over and it was time to go home. I was outside the school and was waiting for my brother to pick me up. I sat down on some bench while trying to call my mom, until I noticed how the fat guy was staring at me from a different bench, not doing anything, just staring. Luckyly, my brother and mom came quickly to take me home.
Anons, am I overreacting by feeling disgusted by this guy? I don't want to talk to him, I don't want him to even look at me. I'm sorry if this is written messily, but tomorrow I go back to school and I'm actually middly scared.
No. 1333952
>>1333942What the fuck, this is so fucking creepy. What the hell is wrong with everyone at your school? jesus christ. I don't even know what advice to give you, sorry
nonny. Just know that you're completely justified in finding it extremely disgusting and scary (not just the fat old autistic guy, but the way the others act about it too). I can't think of any logical reason why they'd all try to set you up with him wtf
No. 1334000
>>1333942Run
nonnie you don't owe a pathetic scrote like that anything. You're young and they think impressionable so they are trying to take advantage of that fact. Everyone who's cheering on this retarded scenario with a lame scrote who can't be bother to put his best foot forward is only doing so because they're glad it's not them. If I were there with you
nonnie I'd tell those degenerate old men to fuck right off.
No. 1334012
>>1334007Why do you want more sex, isn't it enough with having had sex with him multiple times already? I would be content with just the memory and the feeling of not regretting not getting to fuck him tbh
>>1334004Can you get a restraining order or anything against him?
No. 1334032
>>1334019this. please take care
nonny.
No. 1334082
>>1333802>>1333810Give yourself more time. Six months doesn't sound like a very long time to me (especially if you were in a long term relationship), so hopefully you're not trying to push yourself move forward by force. Also since you attempted to be friends after the break up (and thus presumably were in contact), it sounds understandable to me that you're still reeling from it all. I also broke up with my gf a bit over six months ago, and while I don't want her back, I do sometimes remember the fun we had around this time last year and feel like shit. I think it's because now that I'm single, I don't have that one special person to chat and talk about mundane day-to-day life with, and I'm missing the secure and stable feeling of a relationship. Thankfully I have friends, but it's not quite the same thing. I've also been seeing this new woman I'm catching feelings for, but I'm insecure whether she'd like to be exclusive with me (I'd like to ask her F2F but she's out of town rn)… so now that I'm feeling insecure and pessimistic about this, I'm circling back to thinking about the stable feeling of happiness I had in my last relationship, if it makes sense. Dating is shit but I'm still holding out hope I can find a long term relationship with a woman who'd be as into me as I am into her lol
No. 1334106
>>1334057Ayrt and they do this to autistic women too, probably even moreso. After all we’re no better than him, we should know how he feels, we should have empathy etc. We’re expected to be their caretakers and to lift them up but ask for nothing in return, because that would be ableist.
I hope anon gets away from this guy and the people ganging up on her. Sexual harassment on behalf of someone else is still sexual harassment.
No. 1334139
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In a few months im gonna be going to a convention and cosplaying for the first time ever. Ive been looking through black characters to cosplay and stuff but like,goddamn. Black girl characters,like recent,semi popular ones are few and far between. Also why do people only ever seem to know how to make strong black somewhat masc black women. Im so tired. Overwatch especially pissed me off with this behaviour. So many cute,appealing designs but they acted like they were allergic to black women til they were ready to move on to overwatch 2 and when we finally did get a black character it was sojourn!!? Shes not cute at all. Her design is so bland and boring,her colors are washed out,her skin is the same tone as her clothes. I thought when they finally made a black character shed be cute spunky and fem but NO! Everytime we get a fucking butch chick or something. Trying to find a character to cosplay has made me realize that theres a lot of this kinda stuff. Like skullgirls has been around for ever,still adding characters to the roster but not a black chick in sight! Like,what the hell? Im glad that everyone's getting represented but jeez man everyone seems to think black guys are so interesting and fun to create characters of but i guess black women can just go kick rocks. Its so dumb i really shouldn't care so much.
No. 1334201
I'm not a lesbian but I don't want to live with a man, I'm a virgin and I don't have that much interest in real sex, I'm only in love with the idea of a man and I know irl men suck. I don't want to have kids either. But I'm scared of ending up alone and homeless, everyone around me is settling down and having relationships and friends, most of them will have kids in the future, all of this creates this safety net for you. I have none of these things, no one would take care of me if I got sick, no one would even visit me at the hospital, no one would call me. Past a certain age, doctors won't even care about me if I'm alone and childless. So many times I heard from doctors that I have to take care of myself because I'm still young and I have to have kids. When I'm no longer young and I still have no kids, they simply won't care that much. I'm really scared of dying alone. I don't know what would be the best option to live a life for someone like me. Becoming a nun? I don't know. I'm too autistic for normal life, everything is so hard for me; work, groceries, taking care of myself, remembering things, talking to people in a way that they can actually understand what I mean. Sometimes I'm jealous of the autists who have parents and they simply do everything for them, handling all the formalities. I wish I haven't been born honestly. Nothing good has ever happened to me
No. 1334225
>>1334201Ur not alone
nonnie, I'm in the same boat as u. I don't want a man but at the same time I wonder what will become of me when I'm old. But just remember there are plenty of old women who gave everything to kids and husbands and friends and yet in old age they're rotting away alone in nursing homes. Having kids is no guarantee you'll have someone around to care for u in old age. I'd say half my elderly patients always show up alone and I can never get in contact with their kids because they don't gaf about their parents anymore.
I'm just going to save up as much money as possible and make end of life plans with a lawyer in case I lose my mind. I'm just hiring a caregiver to take care of me in old age.
And as for having a moid, moids take so much from you in relationships it's not worth getting one if you don't need one. Moids usually bail when you get sick anyway and married women live shorter lives than unmarried ones so fuck it I'm staying single with cats.
No. 1334227
>>1334201The grass isn't greener tbh. I feel more 'home security' rn while single and paying my own mortgage than I did while living with partners. I'd to up and move to an area with very cheap house prices in order to pull this off but its been worth it. I've had 2 serious long term live-in relationships before. One ended so suddenly that he completely blindsided me and then left me to pay our shared lease alone. I didn't have it in me to try and legally chase him. I don't think it would've worked out much better if I had anyway. Then the guy after that had an affair and I was paying rent to live with a cheater because.. I was stuck in a lease with the guy and leases don't care what's going on in your relationship.
I've a friend with a one year old baby who has just been dumped and moved back in with her parents. She needed police to help her collect her things because hes not being civil with her. Thats the home security you get. Can be ripped out from under you at a moments notice.
No. 1334234
>>1334225“What about when you grow old?” Is the greatest scam question in history. Let’s ignore that your husband would (and should, naturally) die BEFORE you, men literally never do any sort of caretaking. All of the elderly couples I know, the man is a bedridden burden and the 90 year old woman has wipe his ass or pay for someone else to wipe his ass. Men’s hivemind rules means they will only go after women younger than themselves, so it’s guaranteed they will become dead meat when you actually need a helping hand. They’re also notorious for abandoning their wives when they get cancer or other serious/terminal illnesses. It’s a trick question. What will happen to you when you grow old? I don’t know, but I don’t expect a man to make my life even worse.
The only people I’ve seen support their aging mothers were daughters.
No. 1334241
>>1334234Unfortunately I agree with this post.
The best you can do is take care of your health so you will be healthy and mobile as long as possible.
With connections and dying alone idk. I guess it's good idea to get used to being alone so it won't hit you in old age, though people who are alone in old age tend to die faster and develop mental illnesses, it's really sad sight.
In past people lived in communites so dying alone without help wouldn't be a problem as it is now. Modern times truly fucked society and connections between people.
I sometimes watch korean videos and often see how eldery people live in villages often meet and spend time together, we would need something like that.
No. 1334246
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Today I was getting ready for work and I noticed my work jeans were totally worn out around the back. I swear to god if I've just been walking around with my underwear out forever I'll fucking kms, everyone here is fake as hell and they all have it out for me. Nobody has ever seen my underwear before so the thought of them seeing it against my will is actually fucking me up. Why didn't anyone tell me
No. 1334259
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>>1334234This. I've posted before, I've worked in hospice and other roles and the married women with kids often had the saddest, loneliest deaths. There is no guarantee even with a living husband that he will visit you at end of life beyond what his kids pressure him to do. The best ones were the ones who had close daughters and good friends they met through organizations or church etc.
A husband is absolutely no guarantee at being less lonely in old age. The best thing they can do for you is help your retirement financially and even that is a huge risk as if you go the housewife route you aren't putting anything into retirement and hoping he doesn't divorce you or cheat. If you are working and saving you will be safe, maintain your friendships (never too late to build them through hobby groups) and don't be afraid. Enjoy your youth on your terms.
No. 1334260
>>1334234 >“What about when you grow old?” Is the greatest scam questionAgree. It's used to put pressure on women to marry or procreate whether we truly want that or not. I don't want kids or a typical marriage set up. I might date but I want to keep my own home. I'm not going to spend the best/healthiest decades of my life pushed into mom and wife mode all because someday I hope someone will return one hundredth of that effort and care for me a lil in return. Its not fair on kids either to be born as some form of future security for you.
There's people who are paid to care for the elderly. Privately or otherwise. You can have nurses sent out if you get ill or you can be placed in a facility. There are state paid fallbacks even if you don't have savings to pay for it. I don't see that as the end of the world if it comes to that. And thats a big 'if'. My mom died in her 50s and my dad was useless when she got sick. Me and my siblings had full time jobs and lived a distance away. We could only do so much for her after all she did to care for us. She spent her life giving all her time to others and then died pretty quick.
No. 1334266
>>1334250I can't, I've been here too long and I need the health insurance. I'll just cope with this by becoming even more bitter and hateful
All you nonnas check the integrity of your pants regularly, I thought it couldn't happen to me since I'm not even thicc but it can happen to anyone who buys cheap stretchy jeans to work in. Learn from my mistakes
No. 1334282
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>>1334262It looks like this, but they're black jeans and the threads are black so I didn't notice anything until now. It's really nice of you to post a reply like this, I feel like my entire butt was basically out and I'm really embarrassed. Maybe they just came apart in the dryer and the holes weren't so bad when I was wearing them? Aughhh I hate the fact that other people can visually perceive me why
No. 1334299
>>1334018I know a guy with mental health issues who is getting real deep into spirituality lately and it's worrying but people can't say shit to him. He has a history with addiction, both alcohol and a mix of various drugs. Idek what he's diagnosed with on paper but he explained that years of substance abuse has just left him with perma-psychosis now even when hes clean.
The issue is, addicts are often told to use god or spirituality as a tool to help give them strength so hes in this awkward spot of being pushed towards that.. and also being someone with psychosis who gets delusions and loses touch with reality. I hate seeing it and being in this position where I can't say anything without it coming off as disrespectful to his beliefs. His family aren't doing anything. Hes looking into ayahuasca now and thinks it'll be the thing that fixes him.
No. 1334455
>>1334437we weren't planning out the wedding or anything but he made it clear he wants to eventually marry me, and we were supposed to move in together next summer
I'm never trusting men again
>>1334442no, my family doesn't care about me and I live with my mom but she'd just make fun of me and say "I told you so" since she's always hated him and she doesn't like me that much either
I don't have any friends, I've posted my info in the friend finder thread here to try and make some before he broke up with me but now I feel I'd be a burden on anyone who reaches out since I need support…
No. 1334494
>>1334474I never thought it would happen to me and suddenly it did, all the other nonas who choose to avoid men and remain single are saving themselves a lot of heartache
I'd feel bad messaging someone since for the next few weeks or maybe even month I'll probably be pretty down and too anhedonic for my hobbies and stuff until I start feeling better, but if you or any kind soul is willing to reach out anyways I posted my email in the friend finder thread with a kamikaze girls pic the other day
>>1334484we are each other's first relationship and even way before we started dating he would always mention how the only thing he wants is to find someone to marry and spend the rest of his life with, now he's done a 180 and wants to be alone
we would've moved in together already but I'm an unemployed uni student and he's also in school and not working full time, though maybe it's for the better we didn't if he was just going to freak out and dump me over nothing either way
No. 1334574
Recently moved from my home country to a different one for work and having trouble adjusting.
I'm from the capital where a lot of people come from neighboring countries to work. There's public transport, schools, kindergartens and so on obviously, but for the most part there aren't many families there due to high cost of living and lack of community.
My new city is the exact opposite and I really can't wait to move back. Everything here is family friendly, which is nice and all, but I'm getting really tired of dodging toddlers who run around with their parents just chatting and not looking after them, having to watch out for prams and screaming babies in cafés where I'm just going to relax, having to pretend I don't see the women publicly breastfeeding in the middle of a lunch restaurant so I don't accidentally make eye contact with them and seem like I'm staring, and trying to pass by groups of moms hogging entire sidewalks by walking next to each other and pushing massive decked out prams.
People here are also lacking in manners, they will stand in front of a makeup display and block it with their pram, many won't go outside to soothe their baby when it's crying loudly and will instead just pretend it's not happening. All libraries here are also child-friendly so I'm struggling to find a single space where I can exist in peace without families yowling, screeching and being a nuisance.
I can't say this out loud ever because people look at you like you're a monster if you so much as imply that you find screaming toddlers annoying.
No. 1334607
>>1334590you should watch it! very quirky cute and fun movie, it's one of my favorites
thank you I really appreciate you being so nice and reaching out, I'm just sulking and feeling awful right now but I'll definitely get back to you sometime today
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fujos on this website finding the worst thread pic imaginable for the vent thread every single week
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My mom came over and started to talk about how I should invite all of my friends over and have a nice birthday party. Yeah, my birthday is coming up, but I don't necessarily want to invite all of my friends over. There's only one friend I want to spend time with, and I'll make the best of my birthday with her.
No. 1334668
>>1334612>>1334632I can see both sides of how Disney mishandled this to make up for Aladdin. They should have waited till they had a full cast list at least to announce it and given the outcry from Aladdin time to die down instead of trying to get the world racist out of everyone’s mouths.
But I also don’t think She’ll do bad and I like that they still kept the red hair which is the important part to the original movie. She doesn’t deserve the toxicity or racism that should be directed at being critical of a large corporation for its manipulative PR spin.
No. 1334742
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Anons, I confess. I've been a pile of shit. I have a childhood best friend I realize I've been ghosting her.
I just noticed she tried calling me and just seeing her picture in my notifications made me terrified. After I didn't even respond to her many DMs…but I feel like I don't have anything to say anymore.
My 20s have been awful. A few conditions have crept up on me (I also learned I literally have had obstructive sleep apnea my entire life which has caused damage to my body) and I'm still struggling with getting treatment. I've probably spent dozens of hours trying to get my insurance sorted and I'm still not done.
The other day I was just trying to place a simple order and, holy shit…I couldn't speak the words right. I kept getting confused, stumbling. I felt a bit of my soul dying. I can barely speak. I haven't had a conversation in months with anyone, and basically can just say simple things. No. Yes. I want that. Etc.
I am now afraid of being vulnerable to my friend in the way of talking to her. Back then, I had less issues and at least was able to get by.
I had years of grade school, a young semi-functional body (I felt like shit after being out 10 minutes but I was still capable of talking), and was forced to socialize. Now it's like I'm just some sort of creature.
A few weeks ago I saw her at the store and I got away as fast as I could without running. I was so ashamed. I was ashamed of how terrible I must have looked and I narcissistically wanted to freeze our past friendship in time because being completely honest, it is the only time in my entire life I've ever felt happy to be around someone? And at home? All the countless sleepovers, the hiking trips, the parties of two, the silly stargazing and…yeah. I want to freeze it. I don't want to ruin it with who I am now.
I plan to send her a DM apologizing and saying that I just have been feeling terrible and I'm not really sure if I can be her friend anymore. I will keep myself from saying, "I am not the girl you fell in love with anymore, I am just a bitter, tired old woman now", even though that's what I really feel.
And I feel evil. I am evil, really.
All I think about lately is the idea of killing myself. I am so exhausted and I feel so broken and ruined. I can't even talk or connect to anyone anymore. What the fuck is wrong with me? I hate myself so much. But I can't end it. I don't want her to ever hear about it.
No. 1334747
>>1334740Have you had an experienced third party look at your resume? I looked at the resume of a friend who was struggling to find a job and it was terrible, but he didn’t realize it.
If you’re getting no interviews, the resume is the issue. If you’re getting lots of interviews but no offers, your interviewing skills are the issue.
Also consider that if your goal is terrible jobs you may be presenting yourself as overqualified.
No. 1334752
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i just realized i turned into a complete NPC. my life is boring and i have become boring. i have no hobbies or special interests, apart from listening to music and reading books once in a while. i used to be a huge weeb but now i couldn't care less about anime, manga or games. i can't pay attention to tv shows or movies. i even tried to study topics like feminism and philosophy and even programming but work is so tiring and consuming, so i gave up. all i do is endure work in a job i hate every everyday and call my bf at night. when he can't talk to me, i just lay on my bed feeling terribly bored and shitpost on lc until it's time to sleep. not even social media is fun anymore, instagram is specially despising. on weekends i do housework, drink alone and call my bf but it kinda sucks we're in a ldr. i don't even know when we'll be able to live together. i'm grateful for having all my needs met but it feels like something is missing.
No. 1334883
>>1334873Wow
nonnie, are you me? I have the same. You check cannabis withdrawal too, I get really sick when I don't smoke and was diagnosed with this too. Can't sleep or eat, I also have an ED tho but might provide clarity.
No. 1334885
>>1334786yeah to make things worse he hasn't blocked me or removed me from his friends list so I keep sitting there staring at his username hoping he'll message me again and decide he wants to try and work things out
I left off our last message asking if he'd want to talk later when he's in a better mood and obviously got no response so idk whether to consider it over or give him a day or two and see if he will talk to me again
it really sucks, I'm sure it's not your fault and that you're lovable - my theory is the people who do ghosting/sudden breakup stuff like this have no emotional intelligence or something
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>>1334787NTA but I've been told my loss of interest in hobbies is a symptom of depression before, I can see why because it's textbook like pic rel. But I honestly think that losing interest in my hobbies causes me to feel depressed rather than the other way around. Like I realize deep down I'm a boring person who just wants easy, passive pastimes like watching TV rather than hobbies that require skill and effort or interests that require focus and active learning. When I manage to get a proper hobby that I actually enjoy I'm thrilled, but it never lasts because I hit a wall with how much effort I'm willing to put in, then revert back to being lazy and boring.
This anon
>>1334752 does actually sound depressed though since she's lost interest in even shit like TV and social media.
No. 1334909
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sitting here paranoid as shit all because my stuff has been compromised nonstop this week, even with the security all in check. just this morning was my discord account- haven't even clicked on anything think im just unlucky LOL but now i just have this overwhelming feeling like someones out to get me, sure feels like it. what a silly reason
No. 1334936
>>1334929Drop the spell
nonnie.
No. 1334945
>>1334915he's been online all day too so he has time to talk to his other online friends but apparently can't be bothered to at least give me any clarity - his last message to me was "I don't want to do this anymore" while I was trying to talk it out with him why he is breaking up with me
>my problem is that when I develop feelings, I just want to be liked by that person so much that I become a bit of a people pleaser and put my needs asideI did this too for multiple friendships and this (now over) relationship and they always end up shit, going forward it'll probably save both of us lots of sadness if we stop doing this - people will definitely take advantage and become selfish
No. 1334979
>>1334912(is me from first post) WOWW anon i didn't even know what ARFID is and now i feel like i've been neglected and lied to my whole life because i'm pretty sure i've had this since i was a child and nobody's ever cared. it's making me wonder if that's the reason why i grew up to be so short, sickly and developed anorexia.
and don't worry love please sperg to your hearts content because i never see anyone talking about this either!! i've even been to the doctor several times for symptoms the same as thc withdrawals and told them i smoke A LOT and not once has it ever been mentioned to me. but i really hope that you're able to overcome the symptoms you're facing right now, it must be so shitty to deal with that and the flu at the same time. i'm wishing you all the best and thank you for sharing seriously!!! it makes me feel better knowing that other people are going through the same thing even though it fuckin sucks
No. 1335092
>>1335068I'm the exact same as you but instead of thinking I'm perceived as an arrogant dumbass I feel everyone sees me as an annoying cringe sperg
if nothing else maybe you could try joining one of the servers in the friend finder thread or add some people from there? I know making friends with other women irl can be super difficult/intimidating
No. 1335142
>>1335081I always dismiss her feelings during arguments and I always stubbornly defend my point of view to admit that I had been wrong. I cared more about being right and protecting my ego rather than being caring and loving towards her when she's clearly hurt and upset. This made her cut ties/breakup with me a couple of times over some arguments we had only for me to come back and ask her to give me another chance. A
toxic cycle. The final nail in the coffin that ended the relationship was when she asked me if I would stop loving her if she stopped losing weight. First I did not know how to answer, because I did not want to hurt her feelings, but somehow I let it out that "yes I would stop loving you" because of the "way you give up so easily". Then, I stubbornly defended my position, that the way she cut me off in the past was equal to this, that it was an incomptability of values if she disagreed with it. I now realize too late that the reasons she cut me off isn't even remotely equal to this. She cut me off because I had violated her boundaries, I would stop loving her simply because she would not do what I want. They are not the same. In retrospect, I did not actually think this way. I just wanted to make her feel that our relationship was only conditional. I wanted to hurt her in the same way she hurted me when I realized the love she felt for me was conditional the first time she cut ties with me. I was just blinded by petty revenge. The correct answer should have been that I should have supported her no matter what decisions she makes because I'm supposed to be her life partner.
Now, I'm just living the consequences of my actions. Hence, I feel an immense regret over everything. I know I am a shitty
toxic person. I know I dont deserve her. I have been feeling so much guilt over the way I hurt her, I think I'll have this guilt inside me forever. I didn't realize that she came to me about an insecurity and I ended up validating it. I'm the fucking worst. Before we cut ties for good, she said to me that she (understandably) doubted my feelings for her, because a truly caring person who loves her would never have let this happen. Maybe I am starting to believe her…
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I don't want her to come back, life had been so much better, I got more done and had more energy in that one week than in this entire year. I don't know how I'm going to welcome her without giving in to the impulse to jump out if the window or break out crying. Only 10 hours left, please kill me.
No. 1335169
>>1335155So the FBI came to my house because someone tipped off that I was a suspected terrorist cause I said something off the cuff about wanting to assassinate lil nas x, wanting to have a bigger attack than the mandalay bay shooting, wanting to outdo Saddam Hussein, and some other stuff about genocide.
>>1335156The reason why my friend deactivated and cut me off was because I told her about the big stack of papers all the agents who visited my house had on me - it was a stack of like 50 sheets that had all of my tweets, a bunch of my friends tweets (saying similar stuff), and pictures of me that they got from my account so I think that when I told her that they might’ve had some pictures of her posts too it scared her and made her go into hiding.
>>1335158I’m okay! I’m just really sad kek…it disappointed my husband really bad, it scared my friends, and it makes me look fucking legitimately insane being on an FBI watch list. Talking to y’all about it makes it a little easier kek.
Also I recorded the visit in case anyone would ever be interested in hearing it kek. It sounds like a bad screenplay.
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Sorry to interrupt your venting, nonas. Trying to bump disturbing imagery from the front page. Please be safe.
No. 1335200
>>1335147>>1335169why would you say insane shit like that online? are you autistic
call me a cunt I’m siding with the friend
No. 1335248
I'm so sick of my body locking me into being a useless NEET. It isn't even by choice, I just have batshit ridiculous probably psychomatic behaviors I have no damn control over. Like whenever I have something I need to do my brain goes dull and my body goes numb and suddenly it's 8 hours later and I haven't done a thing, and if I'm forced into doing it for some reason my body heats up and itches like crazy, I get shots of pain and numbness in random areas, my spine and teeth hurt real bad and I get a horrible migraine, all followed by a huge wave of exhaustion that knocks me out the second I sit down. Every single fucking time. Even something as simple as doing the dishes turns into a 12+ hour torturous ordeal and I hate it. I constantly think of shit like wanting to go outside or wanting to learn something new or getting something done but I physically can't do any of it. I can't prevent that dullness, I've tried everything. Alarms, signs, pain, you name it. If it's something like an alarm I just don't wake up to it, and if it's something like pain my body immediately goes into freakout mode, independently of my wants or needs. I don't know if I have the willpower equivalent to a 2kg grip strength or what, but I can't even manage getting angry at it. If anything takes even a little more energy than I'm used to expending I'm done for. I feel like an actual womanchild and as much as I want to say I'm pissed, I'm really just resigned to it. I'm stuck like this.
No. 1335309
>>1335083Ugh I relate to this, I love my sister and want to protect her but she seems determined to put herself into the most dangerous situations. Hope your sister stays safe
nonny I will pray for her
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>>1335271>>1335290I hate tinder but wtf is wrong with you
No. 1335329
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My desktop got "crashed" earlier this year and all of my 3d zbrush models got nuked. I was able to recover my pictures like fanart folders but god damn I was salty.
Fast forward now and I smell this smoke from my desktop. Just fuck my shit up, I don't fucking need this right now.
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This might be a dumb thing to vent about, by my newly bloomed passion for feminism is preventing me from enjoying some of the stuff I used to love. I was the biggest fan in the world of classic Simpsons and tonight I was trying to unwind by watching some and I just got frustrated with the way Marge and Lisa are treated. How come I used to think it was acceptable for men to squash all the hope and goodness out of the women in their lives? Marge deserves so much better, she's an amazing wife and mother and puts so much care into her appearance and household. And Lisa is so bright and talented and just wants a world where she can express herself and receive encouragement for it. Meanwhile Homer is a fat, angry blob who can't even stop fishing for one weekend to work on his marriage and Bart is a destructive fuckup who ruins everything his sister cares about just because he knows she can't do anything about it. Am I just a joyless crone now or what because I hate this
No. 1335339
>>1335330Yeah, I'd maybe just give it up. It's why I pretty much ignore all old sitcoms and probably just watch Bob's Burgers, the only similar-ish show I can think of.
Also, Bart ending up that way seems only natural because of his father's mistreatment of him, that's the only thing I'll give him.
No. 1335340
>>1335330>This might be a dumb thing to vent about, by my newly bloomed passion for feminism is preventing me from enjoying some of the stuff I used to love. Don't worry
nonnie this happens to all of us based pinkpilled women. You start noticing shit everywhere. Eventually, you either stop watching shit or you try to "disconnect" and deal with it. It's your choice, I mix and match sometimes because if I truly went full manhating
terf then there would be nothing left to watch for me, everything sucks after you open your eyes.
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If I do not get a boyfriend with big hairy tiddies soon I’m going to lose it
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>>1335368"Haha see the joke is that Meg is already having a hard time being abused by bullies at school and then she comes home and the abuse gets even worse! It's inescapable! She's a minor being mentally and physically abused by everyone! Seth MacFarlane is a comedy genius lmao, that's what that bitch Meg gets for being a teenage girl I'm not sexually attracted to lol"
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pixar's new protagonist seems…
No. 1335406
>>1335402little fag main character
or ftm child?
No. 1335426
>>1335409>>1335411Pedos trying to normalise this sort of body language as 'just a shy, nervous kid' and not a
victim of molestation.
No. 1335448
>>1335427See
>>1335426 its child molestation being normalized
No. 1335468
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>>1335451is all of this just because of
>>1334897? no one sperged out or even mentioned fatties until a few minutes ago, everyone's just grossed out by the drinks
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>>1335451I don't know
nonny, but I agree with you over the 'coping' part of shaming someone.
My husbands sister always judges me out loud by trying to make herself look superior everytime I drink with their family (and i don't go shit-faced drunk, i drink two glasses of wine or something and that's it). She always has to for some weird reason remind her family (with who she lives) that she doesn't drink and that drinking is so non-traditional and especially unfeminine, always tries telling me how i am making myself less of a woman for drinking alcohol. I always ask he what is her problem but she shuts up, excusing that she can't drink because of her 'fatty liver'. I am really tired of being judged for any small step I take, making me think she is just coping with the fact that she doesn't want to drink or whatever. I believe everyone can do whatever they want, its their choice and they will get the consequences of it, unless someone is some weird addict, now that is when I think it's fine to try pushing the person out of their habits.
No. 1335481
>>1335475I’m not talking about lolcow only
Last I checked there are subreddits like fatlogic etc. which are very popular, def more popular than shaming people who smoke and drink lmao don’t be intentionally obtuse
As someone who always asks for only one pump of syrup because I want to be able to still taste the coffee, I don’t judge my friend who gets 12 pumps of raspberry syrup and 10 pumps white chocolate (yes she really did this), she also consumes energy drinks and soda like crazy. I don’t give a fuck… meanwhile my other friend doesn’t have poor eating habits but smokes weed like a chimney. Don’t care about that choice either, people can do what they want and I don’t need to put them down to feel superior
No. 1335489
>>1335481>I don't judge Good judgement is a positive and useful thing that helps you and those around you live better and longer lives.
Throwing a shitfit is one thing, but not judging at all is dumb.
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>>1335486lolcow is not even extreme "the other way"
No. 1335595
>>1335589Ayrt same. I know there’s some nonnas who are still handmaidens but I’m glad it’s like 98%
terf here
No. 1335601
>>1335579nah, a lot of mean bitches sit here. Reading posts here is like swimming through shit. If being
toxic is what you all consider normal, then you're beyond help.
No. 1335606
>>1335602Samefag but that’s what I meant. There are nice nonnies and then there’s autist retards that should honestly be ignored because they’re just out for blood. That doesn’t mean it’s everyone here though because we obviously notice and point out the
toxic tards
No. 1335610
>>1335605I feel like anons were nicer years ago. Also I noticed that we have
toxic anons/anon posting around same time in different threads. It feels sometimes like there are anons that deliberately try to stir things up and leave.
No. 1335614
>>1335610No doubt we have trolls or male baiters now more than ever especially with lolcow being mentioned on YouTube or TikTok or something. Shaymin said she will open janny applications and she’s almost done with the new site, so hopefully we can have our boards feeling less
toxic and retarded after that, from like a hell week or something
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I spent 40 euros on minerals and one tiny ammonite, I'm not even a witch or some other furry I just thought they're pretty, they fascinate me because each one of them is different and I work in a field where I have to see hundreds of the same kinds of products every day and it makes me sick, also when I was a kid I was fascinated by everything that I could find in the ground and I wanted to be an archeologist or a geologist, but now I feel guilty and retarded, that's a lot of money and this shop has severely overpriced stones, I bought a rose quartz for 11 euros in a different city and the same stone of the same size costs 19 euros here. That's so dumb of me, I could've bought so much food for 40 euros, and this is not even jewelry, just a bunch of fucking agates and labradorites and one tiny geode and ammonite, what is wrong with me? I don't buy shit without any real purpose that often, but when it happens I'm initially happy for a moment because it's usually pretty stuff, and then I feel super guilty, especially if I buy something as overpriced as this shit
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I don't know what's wrong. It's a sense of dread and impending doom, I think.
I am more sociable than usual because I don't want to stay inside my head. Catching up with everyone, going for drinks and dancing, texting lots of people. I just want to keep my head full because it feels like if it's empty then I won't be able to ignore that great hungry maelstrom in my head, and I think it's going to pull me down and kill me. I don't think this body or face belongs to me, it's a corpse rotting over my consciousness, and I feel like I'm a changeling, my family belongs to another girl, and I feel I'll put them in danger if I stay with them. I see a hand on my shouler, see a crow swooping above my face when I'm indoors, and it sounds and feels like there are mice scratching at the insides of my skull. I can hear them, it's so weird. Things are crawling on me too. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I have to drink, or what I have to take, or how far I have to run to get away from the feeling. But even when I'm outside I think the people outside know what I've done- what have I done? I don't know. But I feel like I've been sentenced to hell and they're all watching me, knowing I'm an impure soul. I feel danger from strangers like this a lot, so I also dislike going outside sometimes. I don't know what to do anymore. Teen drinking is retarded but how else am I going to cope? If I open up people will think I'm unhinged and incapable. I'm so scared. I don't think anyone will read this. I just need to write it out.
No. 1335676
I want to find my ex and kill him i swear to God. Not only is he a piece of shit i've wasted 13 years of my life with (and these 13 years were all my teenager years and most of my twenties), but the fact that i was always so loyal to this piece of shit even when everything went to shit and we'd spend our days insulting each other… I'm so stupid. This sneaky shitsack wasn't as stupid as me and was talking to other girls behind my back, of course, he was already looking for another dumb bitch, was already flirting and even found a moron to be his girlfriend when we were still thinking about ourselves as a couple, despite the relationship having gone to hell. I was in this hell completely loyal like an idiot and i've ruined so many opportunities at my last job because of that, obviously i'm way prettier than him so almost every day at this last job i had men at my feet. It was the perfect job to find someone because there was a lot of clients everyday, and not useless moids, high value men with money. It was a very big society in a very touristic, chic area, and now that i'm single i don't work there anymore. I swear he needs a bullet in the head for that i'm so angry because now i'm isolated and don't meet anyone.
I remember there was this guy working with us sometimes, he would have me on the phone at work and ask me about my day, always so sweet before he even saw what i looked like. Then he saw me and i knew he was attracted because he would never stop calling at work after that. I was always so cold to this guy because of my ex and wanting to do the right thing because i have morals despite hating his guts. I regret it so much. One day i heard a coworker talking about this guy and how basically he was in the parking lot and this big motorcycle was going to fall on someone and he reacted so quickly, grabbed the person with one hand and the motorcycle with the other like it was nothing (and it was a big ass model, otherwise it wouldn't have been as impressive, some motorcycles are really light at least for a man to handle, but not this one). Honestly when i heard that something in my primal brain switched and i was like damn… he IS so hot and strong. He's jacked as hell, has his own company, his way of flirting with me was always just being incredibly sweet and respectful, never trying to brag about himself or trying to show off. One day he asked that we eat together at lunch, nothing too crazy because he knew i was in a relationship he just said let's do it as "work friends" and i declined. I should've ran away with him when i had the opportunity, ffs. Even if it would have ended up being just a good fuck and no serious relationship, i needed that.
NEVER AGAIN WILL I STOP MYSELF FOR A SCROTE. They don't deserve my morals, i will only act morally towards women.
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The fish n chips store burnt my entire order and forgot my dim sims
No. 1335699
>>1335676I have an ex where things got rocky but we were still together, still living together and even planning on where we'd move to after our lease was up. I wasn't the happiest att but I'm loyal. He went behind and back and started sweet talking some woman on facebook. Lined her up and kept me in the dark. Sat me down one day and told me, said I had til the end of the month to move because he rang our landlord to end the lease early. I was in too much of a panic over where I was going to move to (I don't have parents to move back in with temporarily) so I didn't even freak out at him because that stress consumed me more. He had his new girl to move in with.
Only wasted a handful of years on him but I'm still livid looking back at it. I can't imagine how much worse it must feel when you've 13 years invested in someone.
No. 1335704
>>1335692Aww,
nonnie, i haven't been sexually abused as a child and i don't think of you as a pedophile at all. I'm not weirded out by what you just said even though i can't relate to your trauma, i think it's perfectly coherent that you can have a physiological response of arousal at your own abuse. It's just a dissonnance between your mind and your body (the memory of your body experiencing "pleasure", and your mind knowing it was extremely traumatic abuse). And since the mind doesn't like dissonnance it tries to resolve it by making you believe that you actually enjoyed your abuse. Anytime there's dissonnance in our mind the brain tries to erase it but obviously the brain is like a computer program and as such it doesn't know how to healthily resolve it, it does what it can. You have to teach your brain how to process the dissonnance, we think of our brain as ourselves but really it quite isn't sometimes, and this is a good example. You are not your brain mechanisms, nonna.
>>1335699Yeah i feel for you too. Funny how incels say women always have a plan B to jump out of a relationship but in my opinion this is a man's thing. They know how hard it is to get women so they plan ahead like disloyal bitches, in fear of being alone. Women aren't like that at all because we know opportunities can arise quickly, since men are such dogs it's not difficult to find one. And we're just more loyal. But i swear, never again, i will never forget that lesson, and like you i don't think i will ever stop being livid at the thought of what happened, i want to end his life. No one will catch me being an idiot like that for a man again, it's me before those pieces of shit, now and forever.
No. 1335737
>>1335610>>1335601anon youre saying this while you are literally doing the same shit,
Maybe be the change you want to see.
No. 1335749
>>1335692I didn't go through csa but I had a relationship as an adult where the guy was coercive. He would make ultimatums that if I didn't indulge his (pretty out there) kinks then he'd kick me out on the spot with nowhere else to go. I've a couple memories of crying during these coerced acts and him acting annoyed at me because my tears ruined his fun. He was sick but didn't want to see tears because then he'd be hit with the reality of what hes doing. I was in survival mode att. He had a temper and I was stuck between being scared of him and being scared of being a young homeless woman at risk of worse. I didn't process how bad it was til I was out of there and no longer in survival mode or struggling with nerves all the time. He lives his life facing no consquences. I just want to move on without being accused of lying all because I couldn't act sooner.
I've still looked back on some of our sex life and felt like theres a degree of attraction to him that lingers to this day. I hate him but thats still there. Afaik its not that unusual. Rape
victims can end up roleplaying that scenario again, csa
victims can go down the daddy/ageplay rabbithole and abused women can still look back on their abuser and feel a twisted type of arousal. Rape crisis services talk about this sometimes. It's not something the average person might understand (god know scrotes love to misinterpret what it means) but its a thing. You're not a monster.
No. 1335811
>>1335790Nta but like I don’t know report overly aggressive posts for infighting then? I don’t know how someone can fix the experience for you. Don’t let
toxic and retarded posts get to you
No. 1335820
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>>1335757exact same feelings, word for word. the last time I gave myself fully to someone (he even admitted I may be out of his league), he guilt tripped me for anything he could find. We could have spent the day on a great outdoor date and everything was pleasant, as soon as hed call me that evening hed complain about something I did or didn't do. Something I didnt say or an expression I made or even why I'm not making enough eye contact. I'm so fucking sick of them, I am done with men unless they jump through emotional hoops for ME and strive to be MY idea of an ideal man down to body language and smiling on command. Faggots.
No. 1335916
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My work is so severely understaffed that corporate called and asked why we're under our allotted hours by 150+ this week, only to be told "Damn, that's wack" with no offer of assistance or support.
Any new person we hire only lasts like 3 weeks before they stop showing up even though they're paid higher than some of us started at in the same year.
No. 1335919
>>1335890I understand, anon. From what I know many women feel like femininity is a costume of sorts.
Personally I have always loved seeing cute, feminine things but struggled to incorporate them into my presentation because it just doesn't suit me. The way that I found works best is wearing some feminine items with a more masculine/baggy overall fit. Eg. Pairing a frilly or floral blouse with your suit. Dressing like a feminine man would be the best way to put it, I guess.
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why are trannies so fucking rude? i don't even typically alog about mtfs because i honestly dont care that much but i recently moved to a "queer" neighborhood and i like it because it is safe and mostly friendly but there are a ton of trannies and i've repeatedly had bad experiences with them. i like to smile or say good morning to people in the neighborhood while walking my dog because i dont know? its polite? but every time i have said it to a troon they have either just looked at me dead eyed and not said anything back or they will make a more subtle version of picrel like wtf? who reacts that way to someone just saying good morning in a friendly way? they always walk around with a huge chip on their shoulder too and it annoys me. we live in a beautiful tranquil neighborhood but their energy is always pissy and negative. i usually chock up troon behavior to them acting like moids but even the men in my neighborhood are friendly and will say hi or at least smile back. its the weirdest shit and its starting to really annoy me.
No. 1335949
>>1335943AYRT- medical field, but very open to the public. They pay you to take certification courses if you're competent enough to count to five and can read basic English.
The work isn't difficult, but it's hectic and needs a full staff to keep afloat. A good day one day does not mean you'll have a good day tomorrow.
Thankless job, too. If you've got a kink for emotional abuse, you'll do well here.
I just hope I can land an internship so I can leave.
No. 1335975
>>1335946>>1335947>>1335959i kind of had this in the back of my mind but thought i was being a bit narcissistic (and i also go out looking scrubby as hell typically so it seemed silly) but you nonnies are probably right. i can't imagine why else it would happen so consistently.
ive ignored it up until now but this morning a troon in hideous lularoe looking leggings and a scarf tied bret michaels style (probably to hide male pattern baldness) gave me the dirtiest look when i cheerfully said good morning and it has had me pissed off all day kek
>>1335945since moving here, the correlation between autism and mtfs has never been clearer. i believed it when i heard people talk about it and just based off of internet interactions but jesus. when you're around them the terminally online sperg energy is palpable.
No. 1335978
>>1335941Aside from being jealous of you they're obviously asocial male autists with few or no friends (that's why they were susceptible to trooning out in the first place) so they don't obey normal social norms like responding politely to a simple "good morning" from a stranger, and act rudely on purpose despite how bad it makes them look. They feel like they're somehow entitled to acting like that in public just because they don't like you.
If that sounds pretty childish, that's because it is. They never grew up and never will.
No. 1335981
>>1335597idk I just can't bring myself to block him, I had a sad dream last night where he messaged me again like we never broke up and was sending me silly cat pics like he usually does and joking around
I'm having trouble accepting that he'd do this to me since it came out of nowhere, things were going fine just a few days ago and now it's like he made me spend two years of my life on him to turn around and do this to me
No. 1336002
I recently made a drawing of an overweight character for a friend, which was in no way sexualized or even made her weight the main focus. Just a happy, round-faced woman in outdoor clothing, since I wanted to make a cute fall themed drawing with lots of leaves, pumpkins and knitting patterns around her. I put it on DeviantArt, didn't describe it or tag it even, and at the end of the day it had been added to a bunch of different collections full of fat woman fetish art and the like. I kept blocking them, but in the end it felt so nasty that I deleted the picture and told my friend why. She was uncomfortable too and agreed with the decision. Then I get a message from a scrote asking what happened to the drawing and why I blocked his friend who added it to his favourites. What the fuck, I hate the internet. Seems like a stupid thing to be upset about, but it really got to me today. Not gonna answer the scrote who messaged me, no matter how much I would love to call him and his friend complete and utter degenerate. Guess that's what I get for posting a picture on deviantart anyway.
No. 1336072
>>1336031For as long as I can remember my parents had slept in seperate rooms and barely talked to each other. Living seperate lives in the same house. We didn't have alot of money so splitting the house would've been a major issue. So they just stayed together. My dad worked, my mom did everything else and it was semi-peaceful but obviously kinda unsettling. I'd go to friends houses and see their parents interact and enjoy each others company. I didn't see that at home. But fair enough, that was their set up and there wasn't really screaming or drama either. As a kid I accepted it. I saw it and accepted it.
My mom got cancer at 50, breast. Had surgery, had treatment, I looked after during it. She beat it. It came back. By that stage I had a busy job. My dad was offered early retired so he took it and as usual just did the basic requirements to be civil but not quite a support or a real friend to her. She was in bed alot. He brought her meals. I spent as much time as I could with her once I knew she was close to dying. He didn't leave her but good god I wish he'd stop pretending he was a stand up husband who stuck by her. Their relationship ended 20 years earlier. Thats why it didn't matter if she lost a breast and went downhill in health. They were roommates the whole time anyway. He always did the bare minumum to keep up a facade of being a good husband. It already wasn't a normal marriage so yeah he stayed. Heres your prize dad. Well done to you.
No. 1336075
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Some days ago, I had a bad dream where water filled up in my phone's USB port. Fast forward to today, I forgot I had chocolate in my pocket and it melted with my phone inside and into the USB port. FML I managed to get most of it out and it charges fine. Hope it keeps working. Shit like this is one of my worst fears and it's a pain in the ass to move saved stuff out of the phone.
No. 1336078
>>1336052nona I can't I'm too weak, every time I go to block him I start crying and can't bring myself to do it
I'm not sure why he hasn't done it himself yet… it's giving me false hope making me think he'll talk to me one last time and give me some clarification
No. 1336089
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I have a job interview tomorrow morning, it's the first I've had in a long time. I'm very much underqualified for this position, but it's finally something better than my usual jobs (I've been wanting to break out of customer service hell for years and was fired from my last job, and I was so burnt out and sick of being yelled at my customers that I didn't even care.) It's for an awesome company and would finally be a decent income, BUT I just noticed they specify that they want someone local only. I live about an hour and a half drive away. Oh well, wish me luck nonas, if anything I can use it as a rehearsal for being extra confident for future interviews. Feel free to send me all of your boss bitch Stacy energies
No. 1336127
>>1336118I don't have social media and as of now the only place we have to contact each other is discord, which is where he won't block me
pretty sure if he does block it won't let him see our old messages so maybe he's sad and wants to read back through those or something? idk what his deal is
>>1336120wow that's horrible, I hope I never fall for another scrote ever again
No. 1336134
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>>1336127He needs to perish.
No. 1336183
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What's up with dresses sizes? I'm not anachan by any means, just normal thin, have no problem finding fitting pants, but finding a fitting elegant dress for a wedding party apparently it's impossible. My waist is 60cm and even a goddamn XXS size would be something like 66-68, which is just not good when I don't want it to loosely hang on me. Today I came across a beautiful dress but the smallest size was XS with a whole 72cm waist. There's no way models showing these dresses have much bigger waists than me some random basic woman. Is it all made small for them to show and then much baggier for sales?
Anyway anons I'm just so frustrated, thought it's going to be a quick buy and I can move on worrying about other things but it's been weeks, less and less time left and I have nothing to wear.
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I'm losing weight at my bottom but my upper body still stays wide and heavy fuck
No. 1336314
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Bump don't scroll, ugly illegal shit on here
No. 1336332
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I'll come back when the jannies take care of it and I feel bad for everyone else that saw it. Take care nonnas
No. 1336335
>>1336308Same, I want to erase it from my memory.
>>1336262I really do hope they do something about it.
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Sorry nonas for interrupting your thread. Trying to bump disturbing imagery from the front page. Please be safe.
No. 1336380
My mom is kind of a selfish bitch and I have no idea why she's like that. she drove to my house the other day to physically show me her smartphone because she couldn't figure out how to upload an image to social media, while she was here I noticed she was coughing, so I asked if she was sick. She smiled and said 'yeah, i think i got it from church'. I was like wtf mom, did you use the tests I gave you? 'oh no, they're made in China and I can't trust anything the chinese make'
she later went home and did the test after I told her to go do it, and she tested positive for covid, and earlier this week I ended up getting fucking sick for two days with a 100 degree fever and stayed at home for four days while it was happening. I tested several times during this time and came up negative, but this last, the very-last test I had, tested positive. Now I'm at home, pissed, possibly with my first time with this fucking flu, all because Mom wanted to post a cat picture that none of her friends are going to see because they're boomers who can't use facebook anyway.
and she's ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS, like everyone around her is just a toy. toy that get put away when they're dirty by someone else and she doesn't give a fuck. I don't think I'm like that, but maybe I am? either ways idk what to do now, i don't want to drive to the store to get new tests.
No. 1336387
>>1336380also fuck my dad, too. lazy asshole TOLD ME to go spend time with her when she came over and help her with her problem while he sat on the fucking couch, doing nothing himself. like, dad you fatass, you can get off the fucking couch and go help her yourself, its' not like you work anymore. you're not the one who will have to lose two weeks sick leave to isolate. you just sit in your fucking crumbling office chair held together by nails from krypton ordering me to do fucking everything for you to help your own wife. lazy fucking dickhead. I don't give a fuck if you're tired because now I'M FUCKING SICK and I could lose my JOB over this all because you wouldn't move your ass to look at a smartphone.
Fucking asshole!
I'm glad I don't live here anymore or this would be the end. I'm sorry I even have to come by and visit if I didn't want to feel like a piece of shit for cutting off my worthless parents.
No. 1336418
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I am browsing the BPD subreddit, and I see so much of myself when I read about their experiences with interpersonal relationships. Even reading other nona's experience with having BPDchan friends makes me wonder if I had treated my friends in the same way a BPDchan would. This is legit making me worried about myself…
No. 1336448
>>1336127samefag he fucking messaged me again… I finally stopped crying and was feeling a bit better and he wrote this whole long essay about how he's mentally ill and can't change and basically hasn't loved me for the past 6 months of our relationship
we had a mature discussion about it and whenever I try and ask more about what his mental illness is, what he's feeling, what made his mental illness worse, why won't he get help for it etc he dodges the question and gives evasive answers
and at the end of it all he gave me the whole "I still care about you I never wanted to hurt you let's still be friends" bs like yeah right dude I'm not retarded enough to believe that
men are insane there is something really broken with the y chromosome they are all defective and horrible
No. 1336487
>>1336479I will eventually, tomorrow he is supposed to send me a picture of artwork I gave him as a gift that I worked really hard on and am proud of (I'd be sad if I could never see it again), and he said he will talk more specifically about his mental illness and why he was pretending nothing was wrong those 6 months
I just want to hear that last bit of clarification from him before cutting all contact, I feel like he owes it to me after putting me through this
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>>1336492Actually you are right cause I’ve seen that too lol, somehow both are simultaneously true
Picrel Natalie Lee from love is blind who dated two objectively good looking white dudes (neither of which are my type but I’m sure girls would rate them at an 8, whereas she’s a 6 at most)
No. 1336506
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>>1336503Idk how/where to make a collage to put the pics of them together, so here’s one dude, not my type at all with the country aesthetic and you also might not be into him but objectively many women would be
And she is definitely not the only example of this, it’s a commonplace occurrence, if you don’t believe it show any dude an ugly Asian chick and he’ll prob tell you she’s hot lmao
No. 1336508
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>Talking to mom
>Mom is playing with phone
>Decides to watch a stupid vid she has seen a million times
>Ignores me while I'm speaking
Pisses me off so much. She would have a tantrum if I did this to her. I feel like a young teenager when she pulls this. She is such a hypocrite. Fuck.
No. 1336510
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>>1336506meh they look average, near the same level as the girl posted. i see couples like vid related way more tbh
No. 1336520
>>1336516i must be as retarded as the guy in
>>1336510 because i thought you were calling him hot kek
No. 1336529
Nonnies I am retarded but at least I'm learning.
>be me
>break up with bf a few weeks ago because he keeps ignoring my boundaries and keeps making me uncomfortable
>realize I miss him terribly and reconnect
>he tells me he still loves me but he thinks I might not be the right one for him
>decide I will change his mind
>we meet a few times after that, he fells me he loves me, I am beautiful, kisses me in public, gifts me a ring someone lost on the bus (i am a big fan of finding small lost items, so this isn't cringe btw) etc.
>I think we are together again
>FFW to yesterday
>I call him and have a normal chat with him
>plan to meet up in the following week
>randomly decide to ask him if we are a couple again just to be sure
>gives me a non-answer
>straight up ask him if he has tinder on his phone
>"yes, I thought it was obvious, I told you I wasn't sure I could be happy with you"
>mfw
This one is completely on me, but I am still fuming. Oh well! Not doing this ever again, idk what I was expecting to happen, really.
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I’ve had a headache all day, I think I’m dehydrated. I’ve been chugging water all day and taken a lot of pain medication and it still won’t go away.
No. 1336546
>>1336539I know you're right. I badly need some vacations, actually I'll get them when it's all over next week, but until then I have to pull through somehow. I feel like when everything is all right, in my life I rest a lot but also get very busy, I have such a great life, everything is in balance, but then something fucks up either internal like a lil bit of procrastination accumulates or something justified like physical issues, and then everything gets thrown out of whack but I've already committed to too much. It happens half a dozen times a year and I'm always flirting with shitty consequences and half the time I am not flirting with it I am not delivering on what I said I would work-wise, and it also fucks up the rest of my life because I stop sleeping, stop exercising, undereat or overeat, stop going out and just lay in bed for days sometimes. It's been happening for a long time and I don't even know how to better myself on that front. I always have my shit together and I suddenly don't for like two weeks and then I snap out of it and take responsibility for what happened. I can't seem to learn from those experiences.
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>>1336545Thanks so much for the tip, you can come over and play Mario kart with me whenever you want
No. 1336610
>>1336608*ftm
It's like saying men who wear cat anime ears and japanese uniforms are cringe and probably predators is responsible for mtfs. While women are often shamed for not being beautiful, it's not women doing the shaming that causes trooning. Scrotes are the ones who think fuckable = women which is why they say ugly women don't pass, it's how men evaluate us.
No. 1336679
>>1336668I think I know which posters you mean. best you can do is point out their hypocrisy or just ignore that shit. Many people attach and identify with whatever -isms to one-up each other and social grift like this anon mentioned
>>1336607instead of shaping a better culture on their own it’s sad but it’s just that way with humanity because we are retarded, some more than others kek. Honestly I just want to talk and shitpost anonymously with other women somewhere in peace without shit male-dominated board culture shaped by polfags and paedo coomers so I’ll gladly take the helicopter nonnies over that but yes they are annoying.
No. 1336700
>>1336688Because for anons like the one you replied to the cardinal sin of detransitioners and desisters is being not feminine, not transitioning in itself. They need to either become "real women" and suffer through the unrealistic expectations and being treated as a B-class citizen just like everyone else, basically stay in the crab bucket instead of attempting to get out be it via troonery or just presenting masculine, it doesn't make a difference since it's all the same level of betrayal to them. Instead of working together to liberate women and make transitioning a regressive, obsolete thing of the past they'd rather first make everyone conform and
then consider bargaining a better deal for women that ultimately benefits only them. They're not interested in the rights of the women who don't fit the stereotype because to them they're just freaks to take all their insecurity out on.
No. 1336748
>>1336688Mindset prone to transition as in believing in sexist bullshit. Yes people can hate you for thinking people say ew pants are for boys is correct.
>>1336700>that one you replied to doesn’t like GNC women reeCope. I am GNC but also understand that you have to accept a sexist belief as fact to transition (women GNC = not women because scrotes think fuckable = women), you are partially at fault if you see people espouse this belief and agree rather than saying that’s dumb an sexist.
No. 1336772
>>1336688>they do what you want and you still judge themNta but what? If someone champions misogyny, troons and then detroons but doesn’t acknowledge their wrongdoings and blames it on the people who disagreed with them, then they’re still shit and deserve to be judged.
Gender criticism isn’t some campaign to just make people detransition, nobody cares how you look while spreading dangerous ideology.
No. 1336783
>>1336603Truly. It’s all very:
> It’s not my fault I wanted to be called Deku and go by xe/xir pronouns, it’s societies fault for being anti-non-conformity. I’m not retarded, you can’t judge me for the things I say and do!Transitioning is conformity in many places (eg.fandom, younger activist spaces, etc), even sometimes motivated by the desire to stand out and be seen as special. It’s like saying you can’t judge tradthots for saying a womens place is in the home because moid run society pushes that belief is well. Like yeah, an oppressed class can judge members of their class for encouraging their oppression kek.
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I read about this womans suicide, someone close to her claimed she was simply bored of life. She was in her early 40s, experienced and accomplished so much in life, had begun losing interest in people and was simply done. It makes a lot of sense, and it's not sad. It's strange but kind of beautiful too.
This is not a baww I want to die post. I have some things I still want to do, but I feel it was my destiny to just pop by and see what's going on, learn some things, think and reflect, have a few conversations, then take myself out peacefully. Viewing life this way makes it bearable and even nice at times.
No. 1336817
>>1336748>>1336785Did you even read these posts? It's like you're projecting some severe bitterness to someone not deserving of it and proving the point in
>>1336649 to a T you absolute spergs
No. 1336880
>>1336870> you can’t judge me for being sexist noooo> you laugh at me for being an asshole? I bet your evil!Anon
>>1336785 was right. You sound sexist. This is what anons mean when they say you can detransition but it doesn’t mean you’re no longer entitled or retarded.
No. 1336885
>>1336860I just use all my time enjoying my hobbies like drawing or gaming. I play lots of retarded phone games to keep myself occupied, too. I have someone I write to weekly-ish that I met on the friend finder thread on /g/ on Discord. I mostly just try to keep myself busy so I don't wallow in my loneliness,
nonnie. But I really recommend checking out that thread if you haven't yet. I've talked to some cool anons, though only one has stuck around.
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I'm getting closer to my 30 but my life didn't changed a bit in these 10 years.
No matter how much I try nothing changes. My life stays the same and I can't stand it. I'm getting really desperate.
I suffer from social anxiety and the only thing I know is my room. I spend most of my time in my room.
I'm going insane. I'm tired and I want big change in my life. I want to go outside and have fun and be normal. But I can't relax outside, I'm scared like a prey. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to change.
My worst fear that I will not change and be like that forever becomes reality.
No. 1336890
>>1336584Going “oh god I bet they have pronouns in their bio” in current year is totally
valid when pronoun havers throw tantrums to try and get you fired nowadays and are helping dismantle womens rights and are helping men get put in womens prisons.
No. 1336897
>>1336895samefag idk if i quoted the right person kek
i mean you
>>1336584 No. 1336928
>>1336910Scrotes empathise with the rapist more often than the
victim.
No. 1337015
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I feel really anxious. I started a new job recently and I feel huge pressure to learn everything as quickly as posible and feel so ashamed when I make mistakes (which is often). My coworkers are nice and I’m happy I got the job but this anxiousness is killing be. Have some other stuff stressing me out as well. I feel like I’m too weak to handle normal stuff and that you shouldn’t get this anxious over normal life.
No. 1337062
>>1337038>>1337039wtf kind of dentist did you go to, they usually inject something in the gums to numb the pain before pulling and some might even break the tooth in pieces before pulling it out, depending on the type of procedure. and they didn't give you aftercare instructions either?
mine said you can rinse your mouth, you just have to let the saliva and blood drop out in a sink like by tilting your head kind of, rather than actually spitting. as for food stick with anything soft and mushy, no solids although you may have to wait some hours for the blood to slow down first. you can change the gauze too with another one if it has too much blood. also never ever use straws for about week or at least for a few days.
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>>1337067NTA but why not make rice porridge? You can make it plenty flavorful with chicken stock and seasonings, or maybe a fish version (since fish is really really soft). I personally struggled to chew even soft foods after I got my wisdom teeth out, so I had a diet of nothing but rice porridge for a week kek. You can add slightly less water and get a thicker porridge.
No. 1337147
>>1336529Yeah it would be better to give up just when he said he wasn't sure, but why did he proceed with all those gestures? So he would still have you as a convenient option? Nah he's weird, don't blame yourself
nonnie. No contact for some time and you'll realize you don't miss him anymore.
No. 1337245
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AHHHHHHH My streak of perfect quiz scores was ruined today because I misread one of the questions! WTF AHHHHHHHHHHH
No. 1337256
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I wish I could lose weight faster, it takes so long, I'm noticing the changes slowly happening but I just want to be skinny already, I want to wear pretty clothes and feel better wit myself, being skinny will make me happy, and it will surely make it easier for me to get a job, I'm beginning to think that no school wants to hire me or even accept me to finish my internships because I'm not attractive enough to them, maybe if I was skinny I would get more opportunities to get hired, because everyone would think I'm nice.
No. 1337259
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the moment my ex (we're still friends. kind-of) found out i wasn't available for a relationship (through means of manipulating me btw lol), he started giving me 2-3 word responses. to everything. unless it pertains to him or something he's interested in. and he wonders why i don't want to get back together with him? maybe it's because i was nothing to him unless it was to benefit him specifically? maybe because i was only an accessory in his life and nonessential when he couldn't show off?
i'm friends with him because we've just known eachother for so long. and i valued the friendship we had. right up until i guess i sort-of realized how uncaring he is. inb4 "it's a scrote what did you expect" yeah yeah i know. i'm just tired. and now i have to mourn a friendship that never actually existed. what a joke this has been. i won't let a man leave me with an egg on my face like this ever again.
No. 1337287
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I got picrel and any page I turn to it brings up awful memories. I bought it because I wanted to go over my memories and think deeply about the past but it all just makes me really sad or angry. Damn. It's hard to remember good times from when I was really young. I'm in a better position now but I'm upset that a lot of the stuff I remember is just shitty and depressing
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flea anon here.
…. flea anon here….
No. 1337396
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i had my first day of university today and i just went home and cried, i had a prof ask a question that i raised my hand for and she didnt call on me. then she cold called on me for the next question (even though i was obviously trying to participate??) and i just had to say i dont know. then she immediately asked me ANOTHER question and i again had to just be like…. i don't know. then she was like hahaha that was mean of my arent i such a jerk. like yes you are? what the fuck was that? there was no reading or anything i could have done to prepare for the questions, they were just random things you either knew or didn't. she didn't cold call on anyone else either. i feel so embarrassed and idk what the fucking point of that was other than to be an asshole. like i said it's not as if she assigned something that i could study to answer the questions. ironically she had this whole spiel before class about how if anyone was "disprivileged" and needed language changed to "ask her to correct other students if they couldn't carry the burden." meanwhile i have a learning disability and i've never felt dumber or more publicly embarrassed than i did then. so much for being inclusive of minorities kek.
No. 1337534
>>1337472Do you know why you failed? If you do, have someone pretend to be the examiner and give you a practice test. I get being frustrated but don't give up! I know you can do it,
nonny. ♥
No. 1337597
I absolutely fucking hate the tobacco tax here. I recently moved back home from a state with a much lower tobacco tax and now every time I go to get some smokes I get gouged by the government. Also, apparently I fucked up in ordering a textbook by not getting the proper digital access code so I'm out like 80 bucks. I need a smoke rn. OH RIGHT, I CAN'T AFFORD IT!!!
also
>>1337574That's a lot. Tbh it's only a problem if you do really dumb things while drunk or if you can't hold down a job or something. If she's a functional alcoholic maybe you like shouldn't try to get her to stop drinking. It might be covering up something way worse but if she's unable to function then there's no sense in not addressing it. Hope that makes sense.
No. 1337603
>>1337574I'd honestly cut her out. I wasted my time on an alcoholic friend for too long who didn't want to hear anything negative about bad habits. Hopefully your friend can gain some self awareness if she isn't a narc, but in my own experience alcoholics don't learn.
Really hope you push back on splitting bills too. Fuck that.
No. 1337624
>>1337609nta but no they’re not lmao
my mom is an alcoholic and while she’s not violent, she’ll do retarded shit like go on Facebook and start drama with people she last saw in the 80’s
also alcoholics constantly make bad choices, whether it’s going home with weird men, or getting behind the wheel. alcohol should be banned just like other drugs.
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I love the Kill Tony show but my god, these fucking retards don't know how to take a joke by a woman about anything to do with women's bodily functions. These dumbasses freeze up or literally say EWWWWW in a non-joking manner. It's so fucking retarded. Tony at least sometimes has a semblance of understanding. God damn, it is so embarrassing but these men are too retarded to ever see that.
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I hate how fat I’ve gotten I hate how I’m in the middle of a body recomposition I hate that I can’t tolerate a lower calorie deficit because I’m sensitive and binge and I hate that I can’t get rid of any of the fat in my midsection I hate that I have no waist I hate that I’m not even horrifically fat but I still feel like an absolute whale
No. 1337671
>>1337666Nonny what…
nonny where? I barely see any the boys discussion. I liked the show but hate all of the sex scenes other than the only normal-seeming one between Maeve and Butcher.
No. 1337694
>>1337654Fuck I remember those days in recovery. You’re honestly doing brilliantly to have gotten to this point. It will be worth it, one day you’ll be able to get through the day without even thinking about food and weight. Being thin is great and all but the psychological hell is so bad, I wouldn’t wish it on anybody.
Going through my own mini recovery after a relapse right now and I’m here with you.
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Does any other nonna have periods of time where it feels like you're nothing to people? Like it feels like the groups of people you hang out or chat with just kinda goes "ugh" whenever you say something? I suffer from some sort of social paranoia so I get this feeling from time to time and I can't what is imagination or what might be real, so I hope I'm not alone with feeling like this sometimes.
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my abusive ex’s friend group didn’t invite him to one of their huge weddings, and literally everyone was invited. i only noticed because i was still friends with one on facebook and i suddenly saw wedding party photos and he was nowhere in sight.
i left the friend group immediately upon dumping him because they somehow thought they could both be my friend and “accept” the fact that he abused me????
i have a completely different friend group now and i’m married, but to suddenly see a wedding photo on my facebook page and he’s not in the party, i had to check his tumblr which i hadn’t done in years. and OFC he was complaining on his blog about being “rejected by them” after “all he went through with accusations!” KEK
better yet, everyone got fat as fuck i guess??? feels good ladies.
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i hate the stupid excuses people make
>ummm i was only (insert high school age)
so was i… like i was not 35 with a fully developed frontal lobe either i made retarded immature mistakes too and yet i didnt ever think of treating people cruelly even if i was never bullied i wouldnt have because i think everyone is deserving of respect. simple as. the actual very least a human being can do if you cannot be kind is to not do anything at all. its really not like its some grand mature adult realization.
>actually i had a lot going on at home
and you never stopped to think maybe i did too yet i had to in order to cope with your actions and endure them on top of my whole life. not that it was your fault or responsibility
>omg you're holding a grudge against child
no im upset with an adult that was a child at the same time i was that traumatized me. like seriously unless people go through actual bullying they just think you're a wimp crybaby hysterical insane woman that just needs to get over it as if that shit doesnt fuck with you for life. like they cant even comprehend it they cant wrap their head around it so now you're the crazy one. again.
and you know what i dont even want them to apologize to me its fine i just hate to see them pretend they're woke born again saint angels because they finally realized that what they did was bad. like ok. and people believe them and celebrate their progress which yes is a good thing meanwhile im still picking up my pieces like a total loser i always was. idk. why couldnt i have been left alone? like it really wasnt worth all that effort
even today the bullying hasnt stopped post highschool and it continues to happen in my adult life i really dont understand what im doing wrong and why i cant be left alone when ive always just kept to myself and stayed quiet
maybe im self victimizing and i am aware that i need to get over it but i just physically cant even when i try. i feel guilty for even feeling this way now that i wrote all this out
No. 1338228
>>1338176I don't think my own bullying was so bad that it affects me today (I had other worse stuff happening att so idk) but when I look back on it its still annoying that by the time someones parents confronted the school and they were going to look into it, they essentially just said
> well those kids come from troubled households so you have to empathise with thatOh fuck off, I was getting abused at home and then getting shit at school too. I had no break from people giving me shit.
No. 1338236
>>1338209Our societies love and depend on hierarchies and there's a reason why they want the students in the classrooms to be groomed to quietly the eat shit given by their self-appointed superiors.
Bullying does not stop at the classroom. It's in your governments, financial institutions, relationships, and workplaces. School bullying was so mild compared that the playground physical assaults and juvenile mind games make me nostalgic.
>>1338213Their process is working as intended. They don't put all those hoops up to encourage headstrong, freethinkers like yourself to jump through. They are for the simps willing to do all that shit knowing that the job pays pennies because what they want are peasant slaves, not people.
No. 1338317
I'm realizing now how pathetic it actually is for people to seethe at others for being born wealthy or having other privileges. I feel like it's never the poorest or most marginalized people who are so embittered. It's always the middle class types in nice houses who just wish they had a little more.
Stop pitying yourself, everyone has their lot in life. You most likely have some privileges you're taking for granted, too, and it'd probably irritate you to hear someone try to hold them over your head. Why? Because that's erasing the bad things you go through, as well. It's one thing to want more for yourself, but do you genuinely believe there's anyone in this world who doesn't have any problems? Because that is a delusional fantasy world mindset, shut the fuck up. Also, no one is required to traumadump so you don't have to rage about not being as rich or as skinny or as pretty as them or whatever
Sometimes I do wish I had more in life, but I've never disliked anyone for being luckier or having more than me, because really, who are they, and what the fuck does their situation have to do with mine to justify that much comparison? Might as well compare a goat to a goldfish. Life's not a competition.
>>1338296You are using free time online (in what's likely an unrestricted/uncensored country so you don't have to hop VPNs) to have fun on an imageboard talking to other women. If you're in the USA, unless you're living in the ass end of the appalachians, no matter what, you are extremely privileged compared to most of the planet. I'm not mad at you, but understand that you're part of the rich, you're nuzzled up cozily in the armpit of The Man, so just chill out and stop the LARP nona.
I'm sure if I said things like "white privilege" and "fuck white people" now, it'd start a huge fight, even though the logic would be the same lol No. 1338334
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>>1338317Nta Ive been living off 100eur / month a huge chunk of my life and the only rich men I met were the most
abusive and insufferable people. If you date them they lock you in their cage (not literally obviously), degrade you, convince you are nothing with or without them and beat the shit out of you. If you are not dating one you find out that he is or was the worst father you could possibly imagine. What kind of bait is that? I am so tired of stupid infights in this thread. By the way you sound you really had it a lot better than I did and I don't chime in on other anons, trying to put 'uh akshually!!' and make their own problems small. We all have shitty lives, some of us have it worse, but insufferable people who start barking at others for no reason (you) are dumb. Let people vent.
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Yesterday, I bombed an interview so badly that I genuinely considered exiting the Teams window halfway through being asked yet another technical question I wasn't remotely prepared for.
I'm incredibly demoralised because: I applied and was rejected for one position with the company due to not having a particular type of experience, but they were so impressed with me that, they claimed, they made up a trainee type of role that would suit me perfectly they would love me to apply for, and they explicitly told me the interview questions would be the same. They already started pay and WFH negotiation and all but gave me a verbal job offer. But I had to reapply and wait longer. That was fine by me, if guaranteed a job, I was happy to wait and not have to deal with the stress of job hunting.
Then come the day of the interview, first thing in the morning my PC is having a replication of a catastrophic error I thought I fixed and I had to spend an hour making it work again, then in the Teams meeting I had a type of glitch that made it seem like I was an idiot that didn't know how to turn my camera on, and my microphone wasn't working properly, and I got incredibly flustered exiting and re-entering the meeting for five solid minutes while trying to casually adjust my settings as they stared at me and were like 'don't worry this isn't part of the interview ha ha ha.' Then they begin to pepper me with technical questions about how I would implement various types of (particular IT thing) and I was like 'uhhh well uhhhh it depends on x, y, and z' while sweating my balls off as they responded 'no, more generally lol, remember the other part of the question was (something i had forgotten).' The other questions, too, were nothing like the original set, and were way out of line for the admin position I was going for, which mind you is lower-paying than the initial job I applied for. I think on a good day I might have been able to attempt to answer the questions, however poorly-phrased, but I was so flustered from the tech issues, and I never recovered from that. Beyond that, the sheer surprise at the nature of the questions took me so aback that my brain literally stopped working, and I was just thinking over and over again 'this is but another situation you must but endure, nothing i say or do matters, if i don't say anything eventually they'll stop talking' while trying my best to ignore the thought and keep going with my awkward stammering about how I didn't really know the answers to half of their questions and also didn't understand the other half of them.
It ended with them saying they hoped to 'see me again to catch up' which was significantly less enthusiastic a send-off than last time, they all waved into the camera good-bye, I sperged and said 'bye' and hung up because my 'waving hand' was on my mouse already and I didn't want to lift it up to wave. Then later in the afternoon I wrote a cringe boomer mode thank you email and didn't get a reply as of this evening.
I guess there's still a chance, but I've already completely written it off for the sake of my sanity. I'm pissed off at myself for not preparing for the possibility, but I also know I really could never have expected it, not the least because they explicitly said that the questions would be the same. I'm mainly really peeved that I applied for the first job over two fucking months ago and got so cushy thinking I had one all lined up (by all but their VERBAL GUARANTEE) I didn't bother looking for anything else and was so glad I didn't have to sell my soul on LinkedIn or whatever. Fuck me, I'm just still so embarrassed about the entire thing.
No. 1338364
>>1338332I called you that because you obviously haven't spoken to many other poor people.
Also you can get out of Romania anytime.
No. 1338415
>>1338390>Y-You're making headcanons about people!You're coping so hard and creating headcanons about me because my experience doesn't match your beliefs. You're the one who needs to go outside and quit taking Twitterfag Americans as the "true poor", take a break anon
I'm not LARPing because I'm not claiming to be poor now, pretending it's an inherent badge of honor and self-pitying like a spoiled child without enough toys. I literally said I got out of a terrible situation, and I'm glad about it. If you were born at the level I had to put effort to get to, maybe you can't relate or understand what I'm saying, but that's exactly my point. We all have our own lot in life, people with similar backgrounds or are in positions I was once in generally agree, and those that don't still don't sound like the whiny retards I'm talking about
No. 1338429
>>1338414>the UK>not a rich countryAlso, I might be mistaken, but do you mean this guy?
https://www.thetimes.co.uk/article/how-one-of-the-uks-richest-men-was-murdered-by-his-partners-son-6nm9wvlnz>murdered by his partner's son>his partner's sonThis really doesn't look like working class rage, this is internal richfag conflict
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Holy shit I was cooking and my cat went to check it out and I didn't see her at all so I accidentally kicked her really strongly and she ran away after shaking from fear and she hid somewhere in the house, I don't know where
I'm so upset, I feel like crying
She's so old, I never meant to hurt and scare her like that holy fuck please come back
No. 1338462
>>1338287What movie did you end up watching?
And yeah that reminds me of someone I knew that always wanted me to do the communication. Some people are just emotionally or social unavailable.
>>1338285Take time to heal. In the end your decisions will be dealt with by you, so the only thing you can do is come to peace and discard those opinions from others until you can regulate the situation. Good luck.
No. 1338473
>>1338440kingly brother groping his daughter(!) while being broadcast live across the world+
deets please
No. 1338486
>>1338440That or he's just an
abusive, entitled cunt who went stabby because his mom's husband wouldn't buy him a new sports car, and he'll go on to project his rage on any innocent woman who feels bad for him or tries to give him a chance. Not a hero, I sleep
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Honestly I really hate myself sometime.
Ok, so, I've felt like living shit my entire life, lots of pain, etc., and I told myself that it was normal for people to tell me I look like I'm dying or ill all the time. That it's normal to have black, sunken pits for eyes even when my entire family doesn't have this issue. That it's normal to be so exhausted I literally am incapable of speaking or thinking on the fly. That it's normal to have maybe 2 days a year that I feel alive.
I kept on telling myself what everyone always told me; that feeling like shit is normal, that life is pain, all that shit.
Turned out I have a few different diseases as well as a deformity that lead to the pain all my life, and I just found out because I slacked a little bit on placing an appointment for one specialist that it might take HALF A YEAR to fully actualize. It took a span of YEARS to find this out because I just assumed I must feel bad naturally. I slacked because I again told myself, "nah, you're just a little dumbass that's just paranoid and anxious, there's no way that diagnosis was correct."
I am too old for this shit. I really hate myself. Yes, maybe it was unfair I am like this but past a certain point it's like the only person doing myself dirty is me.
No. 1338553
>>1338535oh anon don't hate yourself for that
I'm curious as to why you denied your own true feelings, but I can make a lot of assumptions as to why that are totally
valid… like being told that what you're worrying about is no big deal, etc etc.
How old are you? And what was the deformity/disease? Sorry, I'm really nosy. You don't need to answer. But I feel like you're being hard on yourself unnecessarily
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theres a obvious increase of moids here and its pissing me off, im happy the jannys are more active and theyre getting banned but it still feel meh when i check lolcow in my free time and i just find subhuman males baiting the anons, where are the anons in the past who would post yaoi so the moids would breakdown
Where my fellow fujo's at and how's your day been.
No. 1338689
>>1338648She says she wants to spend time with me but in reality Ignores me the majority of the time. Is terrible with time management and is terrible at keeping promises. For example if she told me she'd be there at 5pm she will always never make it. Every time it's because she has to clean something, her dog, or her job. It's always something. She has no regard for my time.Always uses humor to put distance between herself or a situation. Loves attention but never likes giving attention back. For example if she'd want to do something with me she would be dejected if I couldn't do it. However if it was the other way around she wouldn't care.
She also stifles her feelings and hates talking about her feelings but at work she won't shutup and is hyper focused on work to not think about her emotions so who knows?
honestly feel bad over her partner bc that partner has stayed with her for years and they're so patient. My friend is avoiding her partner rnow and it's month 3. I think she believes this person will wait for her. So selfish. I honestly don't even think they can understand feelings let alone love.
No. 1338714
The true takeaway from the story of Adam and Eve is to question what men say and do, as they are liars and meddlers, and also that evil itself has a male source, the devil/Satan. Also, Adam knew about the evil serpent and the apple, but never told eve. i don’t believe god is male, but if he is, this means human men are legitimately defective and inferior, because they have a MALE god that created everything that is good and pure and yet they still choose evil (violence, war, rape, child abuse, animal abuse, torture, killing women, etc). Women are inherently closer to god because we do not do these things to the extent that men have since we fell from grace. Women have to literally turn their backs on god and embrace the devil to be as evil as men are naturally. Notice how when women are evil it’s usually because they are trying to please men or it is due to men (women running brothels for men, women traumatized by men who then abuse their children, women who kidnap children for their pedophile husbands) this doesn’t mean that some women aren’t evil even without male intervention, but it’s few and far between for a reason. women create life like the creator does, men destroy life like Satan does. the end
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I’m so fucking tired of working in healthcare. Nobody gives a shit about you, even when you’re doing right by the patient. And fucking long COVID? Making shitbags have an even harder time making a coherent thought? I definitely signed my ass up for the shitbags coming out of the woodwork needing rehab to get back to their job. Gals, fuck this. Don’t go into healthcare. The short-staffing got even shorter, and we’re being squeezed harder For the same/less pay, and patients are taking it out on us. Fuuuuuuuuuuck thiiiiissss
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I think the pentagon or whatever confirmed they have some evidence of alien life but can’t because it’ll breach security. I’m so ready for the freaky looking alien husbandos to come down and make me a princess of their world or something I absolutely am tired of living on this asshole planet. Just attach the tubes to my brain, do experiments on me and wife me up already you stupid fucking aliens
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>>1338822kek need me a saiyan prince with a code lyoko forehead and a big ass fr
No. 1338845
>>1338835LMAO
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Today I called out of work 3 hours early. I already took a vacation last week but the entire time I was dealing with personal life stressors that came out of nowhere and as a result I feel extremely bitter
Just like "never go into healthcare" anon, never EVER get into non-profit work. You literally do nothing to help people truly, you just make them feel ashamed and embarrassed about asking for help because of how absolutely tedious and exhausting actually applying for help is
Has anyone ever applied for the "COVID-19 rent relief" program? Well I talk to people who have. The applicants will apply, assume that they're going to get 3 months worth of rent money, and then a few months later be told "sorry, we lost your paperwork, you're going to have to apply again" and then I talk to them and they're telling me they got evicted and now they're looking for homeless shelters
I hate this world
No. 1338868
>>1338553I guess it happened because I was young and it felt silly to think there was something wrong with me.
But then I had a day where I felt well and it was like the rest of my life had just been some nightmare. Wait. So it's not normal to feel like shit and fainting after being out for 5 minutes? WHAT?!
Also, won't go into details but after a year or two of making sure at doctors, it turned out to be a combo of issues related to my thyroid, lungs, skull + jaw (I can barely speak without experiencing a lot of pain + mispronouncing everything–which I thought was normal…turns out I need reconstructive surgery), and moderate-severe obstructive sleep apnea. It's hard to get specialists because it basically takes months for referrals to go through + my insurance, and the appointments. It will probably be upwards of a year before I can probably start getting real treatments or meds. Also, no, I can't really afford it under the table.
And I'm in my late 20s. That's why I am so frustrated. I wasted my youth feeling like shit, being bullied over the way I looked and acted, etc…and apparently things could have been better.
Now I'm pretty old, have almost 0 social skills because of the years of feeling too shitty to talk, and now knowing things could have been better and I squandered it hurts more than anything.
No. 1338995
I wish my boyfriend went to therapy. He's almost perfect, but he has a lot of anxiety, and I'm pretty sure he has OCD (he has rituals, he's pretty neurotic, he has trichotillomania, he has obsessive thoughts a lot, especially when things don't go as he planned which is often) and it can get really frustrating to deal with. I wish I could hug him whenever bit that will trigger his OCD. I wish he wouldn't ruminate every single interaction we have with strangers when we go out, or fear that he's being constantly judged. I wish he'd go for himself, bit yeah, for me as well, as egotistical as this sounds.
No. 1339039
>>1338995Similar position anon and I feel for you. I suspect my boyfriend also has some kind of OCD. He has extreme hypochondria among other things. It seems really hard to treat too since therapy and taking meds can be a
trigger in of itself. I hope things can turn around and he gets the help he needs for both of you
No. 1339084
>>1338888I'm not miss nonnita, but if you are out there based misandrist religious sect anon I'd love to hear what you have to say.
>>1338797>>1338727>>1338819>>1338843I love you all <3
No. 1339165
>>1339143He used to be cute before he hit his late 20s. The main things he has going for him is he's an adequate tard wrangler and
runs a daily tabletop game full of my husbandos just for me on top of having decent morals for a moid. Anything less and I would not be here dealing with someone who doesn't keep track of time.
>>1339150No need to say sorry nonna! I like him, I just get very annoyed when it's been an hour after he said he'd be done with the direct and he's still sat at his computer like a lazybones and doesn't respond when I say "Yo, I fixed the sink. I'm a magic motherfucker" for the third time in a row.
No. 1339190
>>1339152I'm so sorry, my dog passed from cancer too a few years back and it was one of the hardest things I've ever been through. It's not your fault
nonny.
No. 1339219
>>1339212i know some people who went to work in the west for literally nothing and get treated like shit. lot of women from my country end up being caretakers for western boomers, be available 24/7, end up being exploited for wage that won't allow you to survive in these countries. i talked with one woman who worked in germany and they treated her like trash and paid almost nothing.
minimum wage in my country is 490 eur/usd and i just hate how some of these people shit on me because i think 25$ is a lot (this amount can buy me a over a week of groceries)
No. 1339223
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10 years ago I was diagnosed with epilepsy; been taking pretty destructive meds ever since, eventually managed to go multiple years without any episode; finally last year's EEG came out clean and my neurologist decided I'm safe to go off meds and live normally. And then yesterday I had an episode. Feels like it's all fucked; I knew most of the people are never free from this but somehow believed I can be a lucky one. Guess not… I'm definitely not excited to going back to living with a constant fear of potentially passing out, hitting my head and dying at any random point. And the meds messed my mental health so much, I really believed I could finally have some stability if I'm free of them. Once again, I guess not. This sucks.
No. 1339241
>>1338995I have similar issues, anxiety, social and general, trich, not the worst OCD but then periods of increased anxiety set it off. Depression goes hand in hand with these things too. Ime as a woman dating men.. they have no problem giving you an ultimatum to get help or they'll be done. Sometimes it's been a blessing to have pressure applied and other times it's been hypocritical because they have their own issues they refuse to see a professional about. Seems they view it as a one way system.
Don't be afraid to put pressure on if it's genuinely affecting you. More women need to be able to do this. It'll otherwise ruin the relationship if not a whole string of relationships. Pressing the issue now is damage control for the future. He has to be made aware that managing this is essential to keeping a functional relationship.
No. 1339246
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I am so tired. I just want a hug, warm cocoa, and a comfy game.
I wanted to have a good day because I fell asleep crying and hysterical. I am literally sick and fighting my immune system for a whole year now, and the only doctor who helps (and temporarily, because he just throws pills at me without anything else) costs 25 euro per damn visit and 3 weeks of wait. I cried myself to sleep because of that.
>now i decided to talk about a certain hobby and how it ended up becoming extremely sexualized over time because of how popular it is now, despite me being an oldfag
>my other friend agrees
>i say that i don't want to talk about it anymore as i am extremely tired and already had a shit night and i am not feeling good mentally
>other friend chimes in and starts defending porn and women who abuse the 'sex sells' act
>i told my short opinion about sex work and whatever, saying i understand why you think its good, but i don't give a shit about your opinion, nor do i want to argue over anything
>he keeps arguing and going, and going
>me sitting here crying girl over my fast-to-make potatoes that i bought for 99 cents and it was the only food i will feed myself today even thought i paid 11 euro total in a store. thank you and fuck you inflation.
No. 1339281
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I wish I for once knew what it feels like when someone reciprocates my feelings. Don't think I'll ever get to know. No one ever did in the two decades that I've spent on this earth so far. I feel so unwanted.
No. 1339446
>>1339315>>1339286my neighbours once went to the netherlands to do some shitty job like food packing, they didn't have any contracts if I remember correctly. i firmly believe these caretakers usually don't have proper contracts from what i heard since they are usually paid only 1000 euros which is around 500 less than their minimum they are bound to pay due to law, so it's very plausible they are working illegally.
i still don't get how people from my country really allow to be exploited by people who always saw us as subhuman, wanted to take our land and now screws our country via EU.
No. 1339448
>>1339421I have no words of advice for you anon, I just wanted to say that you reminded me of how I feel about dating and getting into relationahips with males. I'm gonna vent about it.
I feel like I'm just not cut out for dating. I hate the getting to know each other stage where you have to be nice, probably nicer than you really are because then the moid will get scared off by your true personality. All the stupid little semi-formalities and shit. Except now they all expect you to be down with getting naked and giving head on, at most, the second date. The fuck. How is that even human. What part of that is civilized human interaction? It makes me think that every man on a dating app is a barely evolved primitive ape creature. Ooga booga NAKED FUCKING TIME NOW!! Like jesus christ. And good luck meeting men outside of dating apps. Good luck finding a man that isn't a totally worthless cunt just looking for a quick fuck, leading you on with their fake pre-relationship personality. Every single man is such a fucking flake. I have never even used dating apps or gone on a date using an app, but even still I can tell that the men around me are huge fucking unreliable flakes that panic with the slightest bit of pressure. I hate the dating game. I fucking hate it. I genuinely don't think I am fit to even try. I'm not self conscious about how I look. I'm not worried over not being good enough. What keeps me from trying is the fact that men tend to be uglier on average, have absolutely no fucking sense of style, no sense of personality, if he's a lefty that means about 99% of the time that he's down with trannies and might even want to fuck one, if he's a righty then, well, y'know. All that cringe shit. And all they want is sex. That is literally all they want. So I'm expected to trudge through the bowels of tinder to get with some useless man with no sense of dress or personality (and then be expected to, if we ever get into a relationship, pick out clothes for him to wear? Like a fucking child you have to dress before school? Fucking seriously?) who just wants to have sex? And then will fuck off once we have sex because they got what they needed?
I will never do it. I will never lower myself just to roll around in the shit and get nothing in return. I hope all men die swiftly.
No. 1339457
>>1339421i think a lot of people have sex before actually making it official with someone, but that doesn't mean you have to have sex on the first date. if you need to wait even months, tell them that. if they ghost you or react badly then they weren't worth your time anyway. also your moid friend sounds annoying lol.
good luck nona, men are shit and so many things reinforce their behavior, any criticism of it is painted as hysterical feminist BS. just know you don't have to settle for garbage.
No. 1339475
>>1339333Ahhhh not to make you nervous anon but Venlafaxine fucked me up. Have you talked to your doctor about trying a sedative or antihistamine? I know it sounds crazy but I got prescribed Hydroxyzine and that stuff rules. It's an antihistamine so the side effects are really low but it still makes me feel super chill. You never know, Venlafaxine could work well for you. But the moment you start having any bad effects immediately tell your doctor you want to taper off. Don't let them bully you into taking it any longer so that it "settles" or whatever. I swear doctors are paid to prescribe that bullshit and won't bring up less risky meds because they don't get a bonus from those.
All in all good luck with your panic disorder nonna, I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. I'm glad you're seeing a doctor about it, don't give up and I promise things will get better.
No. 1339481
>>1339469Samefag: for the anons who haven't dated before, do not I repeat do not entertain pornsick nude-pleading scrotes if you want a relationship. Any real relationship happens very slowly like the anon here
>>1339459If he's rushing things and pushing your boundaries, cease communication immediately. Too many men use "dating" as free prostitution. It will be hard to find genuine men among all the scum, but anyone moving fast or getting sexual early needs to be dropped immediately. Same as anyone lovebombing (if you don't know what this means, research videos on youtube about it because this is a serious tactic and can seem like "romance" to the uninitiated) and being a romantic prince to try and trick you into meeting. Look for people who talk to you like an equal, and take things very slow and respectfully.
No. 1339558
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Lolcow discords are full of paranoid schizo narcs that project back onto you when you drop actual truth bombs.
They’re too busy masturbating over their little basic bitch nerd harems to actually engage their frontal cortex’ when speaking to other, actual, women.
Instead, when they are intimidated by a superior female in any sense of the phrase, they lash out impotently, claiming that nonna is a TROON, of course!
How fascinating that so many maggots and worms silently (or not so silently as the discorders are hahahaha) are lurking in our rans, ready to writhe and screech TROON TRANNY at any GNC woman who doesn’t play by their rules!
Ignore the detritus, achieve greatness!
Ignore the traitors, behold the creators!
Trust yourself, nobody else. Don’t be influenced by peer pressure because that shit is fundamentally against chan culture.
Look at the evidence, think for yourself!
Don’t let some rainbow-haired tumblrite tell you what the fuck to do.
No. 1339641
y'all, idk what to do because this shits getting depressing. back when i was a teenager i dated some guy who later came out as MtF. We broke up shortly after the coming out because of other reasons (though, can't say I was excited about the transition as a straight woman either) and I moved onto another long term relationship. We split up amicably, though, so, at first, we would just chit chat and grab a coffee to catch up and whatnot. Anyway, fast forward six years and we no longer have anything in common nor have any mutual points of talking. He still makes the effort to reach out to me constantly and I typically just cold respond and don't say much and he gets the point. I've literally left this scrote on read for months and the minute I respond, he immediately responds back. Anyway, he was in a relationship but he's single now and still lives with his parents, no job, no car, chronically online, y'all know how this story goes. Anyway, he never lets up on the constant checking in despite the very clear lack of enthusiasm on my part. Pretty sure he might stalk me or just be constantly refreshing social media because as soon as i make a post with my location, hes asking me if i want to hang out (which i always make a dumb excuse for, and which is always met with quintonreviews level of guilt tripping, which I ignore).
Idk, I feel like I really valued what I had with him when we were young and he still identified as male, and that part in my life is still close to me, but god fucking damn this troon has not developed at all mentally past the age of 16 and it is frankly infuriating to see. Could go into a million and one more details but idk what to do about it. Might just keep giving the cold shoulder and keking about it with my current, much more functional, boyfriend. But at the same time it's really hard to bring myself to be mean to him. Eugh, but at this point he gives me the creeps. Literally asked me if i wanted to hang out within 5 minutes of making a post on social media (I post only once in a blue moon). Idk. Maybe people change as they age. Maybe I can separate this weird troony manchild from the much more normal teenager I knew.
No. 1339760
>>1339641For reals. I smell a coomer.
Anyway, about your ex friend. Yeah people change. He isnt that sweet boy from your school anymore. He is a porn sick freak who would probably hurt you if given the chance. He thinks that since you were friends as kids youre still friends now. Truth is, he wants a female friend the same way they all do. To try and feel accepted. If you hang with him you are only going to validate his "womanhood" in his head. If it were me i would just tell him "look, i was friends with the male you… i liked the male you… you are not the same person i was friends with then. You feel nothing like that person. I get nothing out of our interactions." Or something along those lines. Im sorry i dont have any deeper advice.. just try and picture him as the misogynistic pig he is. Men who troon out reduce womanhood to shallow and ficticious bullshit and he is no different. Tell him off, block him and stay safe
nonny! Good luck.
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>>1339873samefag but more reasons to dislike moderators everywhere you go, the jannies are barely present because they’re too busy talking shit with other people when they aren’t using their privileges and then hop back on to fulfill unearned quotas. I’m also pretty sure an LC mod is also a mod for the draw room that is supposed to be user-ran. You can never run away from this disease everywhere you go people want to control everything.
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>looking at hot anime guy art by an artist
Ok, nice
>R18 set
Spicy!
>a guy comes inside the other guy's…dick????
YOOOOOOOO TURN IT BACK
In the last 10 years of browsing fanart I haven't seen this shit and I saw some weird shit in the bad art threads.
No. 1340022
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I fucking hate when my coworker tries to guilt trip me for not doing overtime. I worked for 8 hours, I have the fucking right to go home. Especially that my shift leader didn't tell me the task HAS to be finished today, she didn't ask me to stay longer etc., so I have the fucking right to go home. If she told me we have to finish it today, I would probably stay, but otherwise I'm fucking off. I'm working 6 days this week and I'm going to work on foot and I'm tired. Yes I know I won't look as good in the eyes of my manager as the people who decided to stay, but I'm not doing anything wrong either. Stop looking at me like I'm an evil egoist
No. 1340099
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>>1340052Males cumming from nothing but a massage or ass cleaning proves that all the pressure for anal and BJs is simply about making you uncomfortable. Not because he needs it to cum.
No. 1340119
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Minstrelsy…
No. 1340127
Don't know what happened but I can feel myself turning into some hardened bitch. I used to hold out hope that I'd become "normal". That took up so much of my time. Just hoping and wishing that I'd become normal. That I'd finally feel like a real, normal person. Everyone else around me seemed to be a natural at being normal. They seemed so gifted at being a human. I was always scared to get too close to anyone. If I got close enough then they would surely see that I'm not really normal. That I'm not much of a person at all but rather just some shoddy patchwork of a human being trying to posture like I was truly a regular, normal person that enjoyed regular, normal person things like intimacy and friendship and going out and applying myself and challenging myself and being passionate about various topics. I was holding out hope that maybe I would end up caring about things that everyone around me seemed to care about. That I would develop the right reactions and responses to approproate topics. I would always sort of be on the fringes of whatever group I was in. I would spend a lot of time observing people. Is that how people stand? Is that how normal people act when they think no one is watching? Is that how normal people do XYZ? Etc. I would watch people and I would try my best to soak them up and to apply what I learned in social situations. People tend to like it when you agree with them, if you kind of repeat what they say but reword it in a way that sounds like you are offering something of substance. They like it when you pick up and implement the cadence of their voice into what you say. They like it when you model your facial expressions after theirs. I felt like a mirror for a while. Just some weirdo that mirrors others and has nothing new or unique to offer. I was not a person.
I wasn't a person and it was because I was trying so fucking hard to be like everyone around me. I'm not like everyone around me. I don't particularly like this new way of thinking I've developed but it sure as hell lets me sleep easier at night to view myself as a weirdo that doesn't belong in society so much as I belong a good distance away from it, just watching them get on. I know I'm a person. I'm a huge midwit. That's my curse, to be a huge, insufferable midwit. I can't help but feel like I'm just not really a person. I can't help but feel confused when people are worried about this or that or whatever. I don't get it. I don't get interpersonal relationships deeper than friendship. I just can't wrap my head around it. I don't understand. And when people come to me to complain about how their relationship is failing, I genuinely struggle to care. I struggle to care because to me the solution is simple. I struggle to care about a lot that I think I should care about. I struggle to give much of a fuck at all. I love people, I really, really do. But I love them in the way a zoologist loves animals. I'm ashamed to admit that. I really, really am. I'm ashamed to view the people around me as animals. I wish I didn't feel so fucking alien. Maybe then I could see them as the people that they are. I know that if anyone is the animal, it's me with my angry, love-devoid brain.
It's just hard to deal with. I know that nothing lasts forever. Not friendships, not relationships, not any job, not any interest, not anything. The only constant is myself. I'm the only one I will have, forever. I want to want to be involved with people. I really, really do. But I just can't shake the feeling of impermanence. When everyone leaves, only I will remain in my presence. I will only have myself. And I think maybe there's some sort of anxiety there keeping me from truly feeling integrated within society.
Oh well. What can you do.
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WOMEN IS PLURAL!!! When I see it being used as a singular noun it drives me up the fucking wall. "this women did X", "a women said y" STOPPPPP WITH THIS RETARDATION! I know it's petty but it straight up feels like mysoginy to me. No one says "a men did X", for some inscrutable reason. Fuck it drives me nuts.
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I hate trannies and their handmaidens so much. If I ever see a tranny IRL I will choose violence and transphobia
No. 1340217
>>1340215Me too,
nonny. I even got a tongue piercing just in case. Hope you find the love of your life to practice with soon.
No. 1340318
>>1340303NTA but that's also trannyhands. A tradthot anachan who says she has to starve herself to be attractive for her husband. She posted her hand once to prove she wasn't male but it only made others call her a tranny even more because her hands are bony and she had long fingernails. Since before she posted that hand pic she had been repeatedly told to stop replying to tranny accusations but she never listens, she just doubles down. And that led her to post nudes and now her face.
She says she's been here for years but I wonder how you can be an oldfag here and fail to avoid becoming a lolcow on this very site.
No. 1340345
>>1340339if it were him why wouldn't he post a "fuck u" with a timestamp like he did with his handpic? not like it even matters, trannies can pass with angles and such and look like unattractive women. very
trad and pro-life of "him" to smoke a fat joint while he calls raped girls "whores", i'm sure his alleged very trad fiance who is only into trad shit and refuses to have sex with "her" bc God, loves the low rent scrunchie look paired with a joint. like none of the narrative/styling/any of it makes any sense
No. 1340363
>>1340354I just caught you in a lie, you are dumb and retarded that during your spamming you posted one of your bans that showed you are also the ban-evader in leftcow. Why are you lying hm… and of course you will try to lie and deny this too.
>>1340355thanks farmhands
>>1340360i fucking knew they were tranny, im surprised other anons fell for it.
No. 1340376
>>1340366huh so you suddenly know who he is but only some hours ago you had no idea who this ''blaine'' person was, and having a picture like that from a server that is recently down hm…..
I cant wait for your post history to be exposed, rachelfag.
>Your autistic for calling out my lies, Ok? Don't care. But that doesn't mean that I'm responsibleWell why do you keep on lying then, you keep on lying youre not those posters and then when other anons show proof you are those posters then you just say ''um your autistic and im totally a normal female poster'' because you have no comeback for that, when you first got banned you also acted like you had no idea who blaine was but knowing that you are rachelfag now that means that was also another lie from you considering rachelfag and the other troons have known each other since the creation of that thread.
Can you be even more obvious.
>>1340369it doesnt have to be farmhands literally anons here who have been since you started spamming know you who you actually are and have seen your posts, what do you have to say for that.
>>1340372I agree it just brought a bunch of trannys and the cow rachel herself to this site.
(rachelfag, replying to self) No. 1340385
>>1340355Based farmhand
>>1340315Unbased tranny. When will he come to realize that he has the classic triad of Y chromosome pathology? Narcissism, sociopathy, and pedophilia.
No. 1340386
>>1340376But what proof has been shown? Also, I got the picture of Blaine’s ID from an archive of the thread. Somebody else posted the thread today I forgot where but I fucking guarantee if you look you will see it. So show me, what proof is there that I’ve been distributing child pornography and that you’re not just insinuating because everyone else is accusing me of somehow being a group of people? I might be posting stupid shit in Celebricows but actual cp is not something you can just pin on a random woman.
>>1340383NO I FUCKING DID NOT! SOMEBODY ELSE DID! Why the fuck and how the fuck am I being blamed for crimes committed by pedophiles? This doesn’t make any fucking sense where is any of the so-called “evidence” of ME posting legitimate child porn? This is literally mortifying I don’t understand how this is happening
No. 1340417
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>>1340414I cannot wait for this thread when you all decide to make it.
No. 1340455
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i just fucking made the most delicious fancy instant ramen with so much flavour my apartment literally smells so fucking good but i got too excited to taste the broth while it was fucking boiling hot and scorched my entire tongue and now it basically tastes like shit because every time i take a fuckign bite all i can feel is the pain on my tongue and im ready to fucking kill someone
No. 1340586
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I just quit my job anons, its risky but with the state that the company is in and the management I am bound to quit regardless. I couldn't help feeling regret because I did share 4 months with the company and my coworkers was sweet and kind.
However, I just feel like this job isn't for me, and the company had taken measures that probably will damage the company further into the future. Better leave now than later am i rite?
I didn't even do a good job there, I feel like others can do it better than me. I need to take a break because I was burnt out since guarduation, the future is fuzzy, I just hope I can find something that I love doing in the future soon.
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got covid last week for the first time and I still feel like utter shit. it's a struggle to even get the focus to type this out properly but people are acting as if i'm being dramatic or something. my taste buds and smell are completely gone and what little is left just smells weird and burnt so i'm barely even eating properly…and yet my bf's parents still expect me to go on vacation with them in like 4 days. they are fucking retarded, everyone is expecting me to just snap out of it and magically make myself better and it feels like i'm going insane.
i think they're just trying not to lose money from the flight but the truth is that i can't and didn't choose to get covid or be quite sick from it. i already feel like shit physically and now i have guilt weighing on me because i've essentially ruined their holiday simply because i don't want to go when i've just had an infectious illness and i constantly feel weak and dizzy. they even said to fake the pcr tests(!!) so that i could go. bitch, i don't WANT to go, i feel like shit and I don't want to subject other people to this virus either. why is that so hard to understand?!! why does no one want to listen to me?
No. 1340767
>>1340706Don't go on vacation, if you still have symptoms you're still sick. Some people have covid for weeks or even months.
You could make other people sick too, don't let them pressure you to go on vacation, just stay at home and rest. Good luck nona!
No. 1340796
>>1340773wow
nonny im sorry that happened, men are so nasty. nothing wrong with you freezing up or not reacting drastically in that situation, dont feel ashamed about that because i think we go into fight or flight mode when we are assaulted or hurt by a man. and people in general (regardless of the situation) often freeze up when that system is activated. ive only been groped by a stranger once but i spent like 10 minutes trying to ignore the fact that he was literally pushing his body up against mine bc i didnt know what to do!! the sad reality of this world is that these men wont go away. human garage will continue being produced. my little piece of advice is that there are hobbies out there that are very empowering and can give you a sense of control and confidence. for instance im starting jiu jitsu lessons and im so excited about that!! so yeah i know it sounds crazy but maybe try looking into MMA classes or something along those lines.
No. 1340888
>>1340414I’m not gonna lie I’m still waiting to see the post history. Especially if they were so confident to be like “we have all your posts” but then immediately delete the comments asking to see them was a little backwards kek. The chances of the actual
pedotroon being the poster is way higher than whoever that anorexic girl was.
No. 1340909
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i love my mom but i really don't feel like going down to her house (which is an area without internet service) and helping her with putting up these mouldings. gotten real comfy not working and just focusing on school so having to do that and come back and prep for my student meeting/all of my other courses is annoying
also amazon drivers (probably) took my package – a portable washing machine – to the wrong house. i hope they eat shit. i am obsessively refreshing the new package i have on the way in hopes of not missing it
No. 1341097
>>1341055My mom was good but died when I was barely an adult. My dad had a 'tough love, grow up fast' kind of upbringing himself so seemed to keep that energy with me too. He sold the house the moment my mom was dead and I had to start muh adult life with what felt like no parents. One gone, the other both physically and emotionally distant. Hard not to take it personally.
I think about it sometimes. Whats the point in raising a kid, getting through the sleepless nights, the harder parts like that and then acting disinterested once they're actually an adult. Don't you want to see what you've put out into the world or hear about how they turned out? Isn't that kinda the goal? He rarely makes contact and only talks about himself. He wasn't there when I could've done with a lil support to fall back on and isn't interested in hearing about the good times either. I don't get it.
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At this point women in America have 2 options if a male decides he wants to rape them:
1. Have his rape baby.
2. Go to prison.
No. 1341139
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I'm honestly kind of bitter that my younger siblings (in high school) are allowed to date when I wasn't when I was their age? my parents were really strict first-time parents when I was born and I blame most of my being socially maladjusted and emotionally unstable on not being allowed to have regular teenage experiences like going to parties or heading home with friends after school or getting a first taste of teenage dating etc. because of my ineptitude I feel like I haven't matured properly into adulthood and I resent that I spent my childhood alienated and overprotected. I'm angry that I'm so retarded
No. 1341219
>>1341137Honestly, I feel the same. I feel like all social media has been getting worse and worse as time goes on. I remember being able to just go online and just sperg about whatever and now everything is some "controversial" shit.
I swear it's gotten exponentially worse in the last year or two.
No. 1341246
There are time when I get so fucking exhausted of conversation. I get so tired of the rules of social interaction. You listen to what someone is saying. You reply back, ask questions, etc. They respond back. It goes on for a bit, then you go something like, "Well," and then finish your sentence and that's it. That's "conversation". It's fucking mind-numbing, just going along with whatever they fucking say and nodding your head and going "hmmm" jesus fucking christ, I'm sick of it.
What I really fucking hate is when someone brings up the same topic they've brought up again and again. I must be a fucking freak or something because I have excellent conversation memory. I rarely forget things people tell me. So there I'll be, having to listen to some shithead go on and on about the same boring, tired, agonizing topic they had already told me about. It annoys me when they tell me in the exact same way. I hate it. I'll endure it because I think I'm the weird one in those situations. But I refuse to offer any new replies. If you tell me the same shit over and over again, I'm going to use the same exact replies I've used the previous times you've told me. I endure it all but fuck it makes me so fucking irritated. I just struggle to endure conversation in general. The listening. The giving back. The listening. The giving back. It all happens too slowly for me. The time it takes for the both of us to process the other's words feels like a fucking eternity. I will almost start sweating if they tell me the same shit again, it's that fucking agonizing and stressful to me. My face will get hot if they're the sperg types that will drone on and on about some pointless topic. I just feel fucking stuck in an endless loop when that happens. It makes me want to rip my fucking skin off.
No. 1341263
>>1341246Sounds like you have to deal with a lot of conversational narcissists. They are retarded, it's not you.
I also know some people who tell the same stories over and over again, I always wonder where they got their brain damage from. One of them is a stoner, the others are boomers so maybe they're just getting old.
Hope you find more interesting people to talk to, and I can relate because having social anxiety societal conversation rules can be really tiring for me.
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don't fall for it nonnas.
No. 1341380
>>1341370nonna you already are fixing it. this is one of the stages of healing. You won’t be this angry forever but you do unfortunately have to feel the anger to work through it. Trauma numbs you at first - that’s totally normal. Getting flooded with fiery & righteous anger at what was done to you when you’re in a safer place to start working through it is totally normal too. It fucking sucks but honestly you’re doing so much better than you realise. It’s really impressive that you’re displaying this much emotional literacy while in the rage stage. You’re doing so good. You’re going to get through this. Please trust that it doesn’t last forever. You will process it and you truly will gain a sort of closure (as impossible as that seems right now) even if justice is never served. There’s peace on the other side of this, I promise.
Have you found any grounding techniques that work for you? for example 7/11 breathing is really useful for a lot of people when it just all gets too much & you need to return to the present. You breathe in through your nose for a count of seven and then out through your mouth for a count of eleven.
It’s going to be okay. You can do this.
No. 1341402
ok maybe this is total bs, but I think working with particular people changes my appearance. like physiognomy and shit–so I interned at this all female workplace last year, 9-5 corporate job, in a city known for its wealth/surrounded by designer shops. despite the stress I had there doing all the shit work/running around, and I think I genuinely looked better, like prettier. I'm looking back at pics of me from this job and my face looks prettier, slimmer, more youthful.
and now I have a job where I'm literally just a personal assistant for a man, and I feel like I look so ugly every day, like I can't even recognize my face because it looks so different, my cheeks are larger, my nose feels bigger.
I also know I lost a couple pounds at my 9-5 internship because of stress and barely eating, but I'm convinced its also because I worked with women who were genuinely beautiful and put effort into their appearance every day.
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Tired of my period, tired of bleeding like a pig, tired of endometriosis. It's over, pack your bags eggs. Late 20s are the new 60s. I'm manifesting it.
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I fucking hate it and get so pissed off when scrotes in trucks drive up fast behind me and get up my ass when I'm going above the speed limit. My city is partially rural, and there are tons of stupid, red-faced Good Ol' Boys in retardedly gigantic trucks slamming down the roads. Even when I can't see the driver, every time a huge truck flies up behind me and rides my ass it feels so imposing and inherently male, like a big, stupid violent man is trying to push me around or run me off the road.
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>>1341444i'm not joking, i got a magnetic sticker that says "PLEASE BE PATIENT STUDENT DRIVER" for this reason and it has been life changing
No. 1341479
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When I was a teenager my mom took me to see Watchmen because I thought it looked really cool. But she made us walk out like a third of the way through. I always thought it was because of the violence and have teased her about it over the years. Recently I became extremely pinkpilled and was talking to her about how violence against women is normalized, and she brought up Watchmen and said the reason she pulled me out of there was because of the scene where Silk Spectre is sexually assaulted. At the time I'd been hanging around some dark places online, and that scene didn't even register as problematic to me. It seemed totally natural in a violent hero type movie like that. When I think of my teenage self in that theater, numbly soaking up that degrading scene without realizing the evil in it, I feel so sad. I wish my mom would have talked to me about it afterwards and told me that sexual violence isn't a part of the female experience that you just have to accept. I forgot that scene was even in there. I'm sad nonas
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The way men will hyperfixate on and obsess over women and constantly try to drag anyone they possibly can into their special interest of hatred and dehumanization is so scary. It’s unending. Like they do not have the ability to be humane they just mimic empathy when it suits them and completely discard the mask when they think the “wrong people” aren’t watching.
No. 1341506
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>>1341464Fuuuuck I had a retarded boyfriend who did the same thing, he would get "oVeRwHeLmEd", and shut down and hide like a sniveling little weenie whenever I would talk rationally about my feelings or say anything that he PERCEIVED as being a criticism towards him. God, that makes me mad on your behalf. I'm so glad your cat is there for moral support, cats are the absolute fucking best. Cats > men, always and forever
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>>1341538I cast a spell of protection on you, nonna. You are safe. You are loved. You are strong. You are safe.
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I have so many ideas to write and draw, but once I sit down to work on them nothing comes out. Just staring at a blank page for now. Kill me, I have to finish requests.
No. 1341648
>>1341647I'm sorry
nonnie. You deserve to be treated better than that
No. 1341675
>>1341648Thanks
nonnie. I just feel angry I let him have access to my body, but he seemed like a good guy. He shared his experience with SA and asked for my consent even for stuff like putting his hand on my thigh so this porn thing just came out of nowhere. It's a shame cause I really liked him too.
>>1341660I already told him off as it was happening but I'm going to stop seeing him and if he asks why I'll rip him into pieces.
No. 1341690
>>1341647what the hell, at this point it sound insulting to him too, I'm so sorry
nonnie that you had to live this
No. 1341794
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>get home from work late
>immediately dive into making dinner before I even get out of my work clothes or take off my shoes
>no one thinks of prepping me dinner and I know if I stop I will lose the momentum
>made korean fried chicken; rice, twice-fried chicken, and gochujang sauce from scratch
>bf playing video games the entire time
>bf offers 'help' by asking me what I can tell him to do but it's too much mental load/time to manage a task for him on a step by step basis so I decline
>prep a fancy taste test plate for him bc I know he is finnicky
>he comments about the spiciness of the sauce and how it "overpowers" the chicken as if his ass has never had sauced fried chicken before
It hurt my feelings that he went on about the spice for a solid minute, because it honestly was no more spicy nor tasted any different than legit chicken served at korean restaurants. I was disappointed but I didn't immediately start yelling or acting nasty. He didn't like my tone when I sounded frustrated when I made myself a plate and said I'd just eat it myself. He asked about there being a different sauce to coat the chicken with, but I was annoyed at that point and while I looked in the fridge I couldn't think of anything so I sat down and said idk a few times before I started to eat. I couldn't even look at him.
Obviously he feels bad that he made me feel bad and his ego does not want to feel wrong, so what does he do? Did he cope and eat the chicken with the sauce on the side, or politely take some sauce and discretely throw it away? Nope! His logic dictates he must argue and make ME seem like the overreacting asshole, because I'm not entitled to expressions of my feelings if it makes him feel like a shit human being I guess. Suppose I was to react as a perky mommy bangmaid with a bump of coke in my ass and accept his critique of food he didn't help make and ignore that a component of the meal was labored over in vain. Two hours, fam. He argued with me in circles for two fucking hours.
I repeatedly warned him to just drop it because all I wanted to do was be in peace and enjoy my dinner, yet he yelled about having 'the last word' and repeatedly stoked arguments. He even pulled the reddit "YoUu sHouLd WAnT tO cOmMunIcaTe MoaRrrR!"
So you know what? I lost my goddamn mind at him.
Threw all of the (truthful) insecurities he has back in his face. How he was inadequate and was trying to bring me down to his level. How I wished anybody in the fucking world would care to prep me a thoughtful, complicated dinner that would take them time and effort to make just so I could reject and criticize it like an ungrateful shitlord! Oh man, can you imagine a man starting dinner immediately after work and sacrificing an hour of his free time to feed someone other than himself?! Fucking unheard of.
He started crying and prattled on about him being scared deep down that I would leave him and how he feels like he brings nothing to the relationship. I comforted him so I wouldn't be accused of being a cold harpy, but deep down I know that's so extremely manipulative. Like, if he feels he isn't making me happy then perhaps actually try? He gave me narcissist apologies i.e. "I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings," "I was just…" then went to bed.
Today he was asking me about an alternative sauce to coat the leftover chicken with for today's dinner. He mentioned making General Tso's from scratch, so I looked at him and said "Awesome idea, I can't wait to try it!" He immediately tried to excuse-make:
>B-but we don't have the ingredients!
Actually, I do. They are here.
>I-I don't have a recipe!
Look one up online.
>…Can I just wait until you get home?
Nope.
So he made the "sauce" by himself while I was at work.
It was more like a non-newtonian jelly. Inedible. His excuse was that the recipe didn't call out measurements, so he guessed instead of finding a different online recipe. He poured cornstarch powder directly into the sauce as a thickener, so even had the sauce not been solidified, there were globs of starch all inside it.
I looked in the trash and found a box of a tv dinner. So he prepared me this snot in the saucepan knowing damn well he wouldn't eat it, and made himself something else. Didn't even go to the convenience store a minute away to buy a premade barbecue sauce so I would have something to dip the plain chicken into. Nothing.
He didn't eat it.
I'm not allowed to say he's useless.
I'm only supposed to give him a gold star for his effort and shut up about it. I hate him.
No. 1341802
>>1341794the file name kek
anyway nona, this sounds like one of those reddit posts that get shared into infinity because the bf sounds like an actual retard. break up with him.
No. 1341812
>>1341811>Moids pretend to be useless retards over simple things so they can get out of doing theIt's called weaponized incompetence
nonnie. My father does this shit all the time
No. 1341823
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I genuinely want to die and I don’t want to be alive but at the same time I’m so afraid of a painful death. I’m not as old as the other users here but I am 80% sure my future is already decided and I don’t feel like I belong here or anywhere and it’s pointless just going further into it when I genuinely feel tired of it. I’m tired of these thoughts being suppressed or banned off of social media, thinking about death doesn’t mean you’re irrational or losing control, ignoring the reality that some people’s lives just never get better or feel fulfilled/appreciated is the most irrational part of human nature. I’m done with the hope and hypocrisy I am all here for the angst and uncomfortable emotions.
No. 1341856
>>1341837Well my entire life and the circumstances I was given. The main thing is that I feel like I’m stuck in the typical 20s phase where I feel like I’m perpetually stuck in mud and I can’t get out but I’m watching others being able to do so. The world is so unnecessarily hostile towards me that now I just can’t stand going outside and doing things anymore and I feel like I can’t trust certain female family members anymore about my feelings towards my male relatives and their existence in our space. No friends, no connections, no networks, no goals, my hobbies are slowly not giving me any satisfaction. I know the surface level issues is depression and energy levels affected by my own underlying health issues and lifestyle but it stresses me out that the main mantra surrounding me is constant individualism yet people always tell you in moments of crisis you can tell them anything but when the crisis actually comes everyone is suddenly conflict avoidant. I’m apart of a disconnected generation that’s unfortunately connected to way to many things at once, probably why my anxiety comes in severe waves. Therapy is insufferable because I know they all just excuse and gaslight female patients about their problems and suffering. I feel like I have no sense of control and the thoughts of death makes me feel like I have the ultimate decision with my entire life.
>>1341840I want to be invested with other people too but the increasing lack of trust and community makes it impossible. Most people lack morals or values, capacity to feel a full range of emotion, reliant on stimuli given by artificial things. I don’t want to get so drunk or get high in order to socialize and I don’t want to have sex with a million men to feel like I have completed some milestone, it’s ridiculous the way this world is going.
No. 1341867
>>1341838Unpopular opinion but being a picky eater as an adult is absolute cringe.
It's one thing if the food is unhygienic, rancid, or burnt–nobody would expect you to eat that. Or if there's a diet incompatibility like a vegetarian being pressured to consume meat. Sure, there's things adults would prefer
not eating but there is a way to politely taste someone's food that they put in effort to make while gracefully declining an entire plate's worth without picking apart that meal as if
you are not the one with the unusual tastebuds. Foods become mainstream because the populace at large likes them and you are the outlier.
No. 1341868
>>1341121Same, nona.
>tfw you're not autistic enough to get passionate into a hobby to make friends through them but also not normie enough to go out clubbing, drinking, and other normie activitiesI'm just going to patiently wait for someone to fall in love with.
No. 1341877
>>1341856I see, I remember having a similar philosophy when it came to ending my life. If only you could just inject yourself with a syringe that kills you quick and painlessly, right? But euthanasia is obviously only given out as a last resort to people with physical chronic and debilitating problems, not ones that are chronic and debilitating but ultimately mental. Knowing that you still want to be invested with other people is good though, that's always something to strive for in life. Even though your current social net and relationship with family is struggling I find that there's always opportunities in communities that you feel accepted in, even if said community is just a very small group of people, where you can form relationships that are meaningful. There are plenty of people out in the world who won't give up on you, even if everyone else in your life has moved on and been able to get out of the thick black tar of the typical 20s phase that doesn't negate that there isn't someone nearby who can lift you out of it. Are there really no irl friends or even acquaintances that you feel you can't just talk to and socialize with outside? I know that question sounds patronizing but as someone who gets inhumanly exhausted by having to maintain daily conversation and relationships with people, I often take long breaks from talking to just hole up inside my home or make very bare minimum conversations at work. It's healthy and nice to rejuvenate when you need to but having someone to just relax with and go explore some places around where you live is often very relaxing to the mind and gives similar positive effects that meditation gives. Or alternatively you could just go by yourself. I don't know if that tidbit of advice will really help you specifically, but it's something I've been doing ever since my late teens and it's helped a lot to just walk around places that comfort me like mostly empty parks or large antique stores. If you truly find that there is no one you can trust enough to express these feelings with irl, self contemplation in fresh environments can definitely help
No. 1341880
>>1341867its the worst. i have one friend who just doesn't want to try anything new, i always offer food to her to try and its just no. also because the fact that we can't share a meal together because she just doesn't want to eat…
i lowkey think it stems from her childhood, like her parents never cooked in the home, she basically grew up on snacks and shitty food. but i also think she might have an ed.
she always talks about how she wants to travel to europe, but i feel like it would be impossible for her cuz she literally does not try anything new
No. 1341883
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>>1341881You're right to feel angry
nonnie. What you're describing is a form of gaslighting called triangulation. She's only doing it because she thinks it gives her more power over you
No. 1341888
>>1341866Honestly, I should have. I just said "no, that's not okay" but it killed the mood enough that we did end up stopping half way through anyway a little while later.
>insultingI feel like I should be more insulted but honestly I'm not cause I know I'm sexy as all hell and it's his retard pornsick brain that's making him unable to come. Nothing to do with me being undesirable. What an actual piece of trash of a human being though. I feel almost sad for him.
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>>1341907I'm sorry
nonny, you learned the hard way. You are now delivered.
No. 1341995
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>>1341907PPers right again… again… again
No. 1342023
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I was buying these gummies and I assumed "not guilty" meant guilt-free as in sugar-free so no guilt about eating sweets, but it was because they were vegan kek. Fucking vegans, gelatin is good for you.
No. 1342169
>>1342117what niche weird taste
nonnie ?
No. 1342209
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>>1342198Check out chapter four of this book (gaslighting in the workplace) for other fun ideas!
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>>1342218Same I was having withdrawals from not having nonas to talk to.