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No. 1387606
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I've relentlessly tried to contact my ex on many different platforms until she threatened legal action if I don't stop stalking her accounts, and now she is afraid I'll murder her or something.
I'm not even upset, angry, guilty or disgusted at myself. I just find the whole thing hilarious, actually. But deep down I do feel guilty and like a disgusting voyeur creep.
No. 1387747
>>1387562Of course there is abuse in a club devoted to worshipping men
>>1387428Embarrassing
No. 1387781
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i am an omegacoomer, my only motivation to exist is to sexualize men, currently learning coding and blender so i can make horny mods i will make my fallout 4 character have a fat ass
No. 1387800
>>1387798Samefag
That's me confessing I want to fuck that character, not trying to be creepy towards nona kek
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>>1387834Wait…is this the ex?
No. 1387894
>>1387890no its a reply to my stalker
this guy
>>1387606 No. 1388039
>>1387912I think you need to see a therapist
nonny, and stop posting in imageboards until you feel safe
No. 1388041
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I love being a NEET, i love that my only worry is which game i am going to play next and not which organ i am going to sell to pay my bills, and i feel pity for people that are socially designed to feel useless unless they are working for some millionaire and being part of a friend group. I feel no shame of being a parasite either and i am glad i can take people's hard earned money and waste it on steam games while i evade taxes whenever i decide to get some one time job to buy an expensive animu figure.
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I unironically find femcel meme type women very attractive and I also look like that, except I have blond hair instead of brown. Trying to manifest an unhinged gf like that wish me luck.
No. 1388137
>>1388073tfw no gf like this
why live
No. 1388178
>>1388164I've been in 2 relationships without PIV. I broke up with them for other reasons though. And now, I'm in a long-term relationship with a guy also without PIV, and he is amazing. Emotionally intelligent and resilient, caring, loving, generous in bed, responsible.
Just be upfront with not wanting PIV from the beginning, that you want the focus to be on your pleasure, and the dudes who are scared off by that will naturally be weeded out. Be stern. Dudes can't keep up the act when they know you won't relent.
No. 1388203
>>1388178Thing is I've been upfront. I've been frank about the fact that it isn't a 'maybe later we'll do it' situation. I tend to run into the issue way down the line when I already feel pretty secure. I guess I'm just fed up at having blame placed on me given I'm so upfront from the start.
Its nice to hear it's not impossible though. Maybe I need to view it like alot of things in a relationship. 2, 3 years later people can turn around and surprise you. The weeding out part isn't guaranteed ime but I might accept the risk. The last time it happened I was stuck in a lease I'd just re-signed with the guy and suddenly getting pressured out of nowhere. I at least have my own mortgage now. Never getting into that situation again.
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Couldn't stop thirsting after one of the exec at my company today kek. I rarely see him because we work in completely different departments, but we had a gathering today to say goodbye to a different long time coworker. His hair grew out and it was giving me Kenshi Yonezu vibes. We used to chat a bit more but there's a language barrier so not really. He's cute but he's also married and I've seen his wife and daughter before- they're fucking adorable. I've always thought of him as pretty nice, but another coworker who left who knew all the office gossip hinted at not having the best view of him. Never really got the gossip on that though lol.
No. 1388837
>>1388833The little angel thing is weird… but it absolutely is comforting to know no scrote has intimate knowledge of you. I'm a private person so I like not being the subject of gossip and not having any sort of reputation. Plus the security of knowing for sure you have no STDs, can't be pregnant, etc.
That said I have had sex, but it was over a decade ago so it doesn't feel relevant anymore.
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>>1388853Tfw when 2D is supposed to be the good looking one yet Murdoc mogs the fuck out of him in the Humanz cover art.
No. 1388988
>>1388985Here, another. Imagine seeing any man over 14 as
victims.
No. 1389023
>>1388997>Never said in comparison to menNTA, you literally said "it's more likely that a teen boy…" but "more" in comparison to whom?
Anyway if a teen boy is so likely to murder or overpower you i find it odd that you're advocating for more women to go after them so much
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>>1389138But remember women are just as ebil as men!!!
No. 1389174
>>1389148Ah I misremembered, it was an 8 year old girl, not a toddler and the boy was 14. Still extremely grim.
>>1389160Society can't keep going like this
No. 1389202
>>1389148My brother is this bad, this could have been me
my only serious injuries and terrifying moments were all at his or my fathers hands . I feel genuinely sick rn
Never have sons nonas. they're born to malfunction.
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>>1389023>>1389041>Anyway if a teen boy is so likely to murder or overpower you i find it odd that you're advocating for more women to go after them so muchdunno why you struggle so much to understand my point. Its retarded that women dont go after younger, better looking, non-balding men because of the stigma that it makes them ''predators'', even when they like legal fucking adults. The only reason why women go after ugly, balding, fat, old scrotes is because of the stigma, meanwhile men think they are entitled to 10/10 virgin 18yo wife at 40. Grandpafuckers are pathetic.
No. 1389319
>>1389305Yeah I’ve dated a number of younger moids
Never teens just early 20’s and while they’re a lot cuter asking for more commitment almost always freaks them out. Even when they’re really into it.
No. 1389353
>>1389305>Anything that ends in teen is too young for an adult to go after be serious.why? they are legal adults. Give me a
valid reason as to why a woman fucking 18/19 yos is predatory.
>>1389296oh god women who meme themselves into liking old, unwashed scrotes are the absolute worst. How did we develop such low standars? even men into mom bodies dont like fat unfit soccer moms, they like porn actresses who are in their 30's, sometimes i really hate women for having such shitty low self steem and shit standars.
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>>1389387>Why would you want to fuck an 18 or 19 year old boythey are attractive to me, i am into the ''pretty boy'' aesthetic and sadly men hit the wall pretty fast, i also prefeer virgins or guys who are more lively/have more free time since i am a freelancer and i got a bunch of free time, also i dont want anything serious and older moids often get too emotionally attached when i just want to watch movies and get a quick pump and dump. look at leo, he went from absolutely stunning to ugly fat man, jesas, men age like milk.
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Three or two years ago when my half-brother was visiting, he came into my room while I was playing something and told me how much he cared about me while on the verge of tears. He hugged me and I felt nothing. The only two thoughts I had were "I wanna get back to playing my game" and "I don't really know this guy, huh." I wish I could feel bad about this, but I don't.
No. 1389598
>>1389573>>1389549>>1389555>>1389568I can't be mad at both? Like if the moid cheated on you before you got pregnant what made you think that having a baby would make him act right? Why are you willing reproducing for someone who can't and won't provide for you and the baby? Roe V Wade fucked a lot of women up so I won't lump in women who live in states where it's not available the same way but still. At some point, bev sexually responsible so you don't have to drag yet another generation of children through the same
toxic cycles. Idc if it hurts your feelings anymore. Just tired of scrolling thru TikTok and seeing single moms complaining about their scrotes leaving them high and dry when 8/10 the writing is in the wall before you even got pregnant
No. 1389618
>>1389530No idea why you're getting shit for this
nonnie. Women are generally taught to accept the most deadbeat moid in the book and are brought up with fuck all self-esteem so it doesn't surprise me that they would be surprised by it. We need to raise girls with the knowledge of boundaries and self-worth. Obviously if the mom is in an
abusive situation then it's not the same thing at all but I know a lot of women who just keep on having kids with degenerates just because they can, and primarily because the state will cater to them and endorse this lifestyle of bringing kids into a financially disadvantaged and neglectful household.
I have never had empathy for single moms who keep on having children with scrotes who clearly don't care about them - yes the scrote is a piece of shit and does not deserve to even have children, but there is a limit and you should be responsible for this shit when you bring a child into this world. It is so selfish.
>>1389598>At some point, bev sexually responsible so you don't have to drag yet another generation of children through the same toxic cyclesThis hits so hard as someone who was born into this exact same environment where women just had children with men who didn't give a fuck and never will. No one addresses personal responsibility and just pretends like it doesn't exist - we all know that motherhood is mentally physically and financially taxing on women, double that when you don't even have a scrote to support you, so why the fuck are we still enabling it? They never stop complaining but also never stop shagging scrotes who disappear before the baby is even born. It has never made any sense to me.
>>1389612You can blame the men and also suggest that women take responsibility for themselves and assess whether they should be having a child with a man who is a piece of shit and if they can afford it or not. Stop skirting around the issue. I don't think you've seen what it's like in areas where women keep on having kids with scrotes because they're simply just bored and glorify the single mom lifestyle knowing they will get everything they need off the government. It absolutely happens and we should be teaching women not to go down this road and to actually have standards when it comes to men too. Men aren't gonna fucking listen to your please to uwu please look after your kids, they do not fucking care.
No. 1389627
>>1389618They're either single mothers who didn't use discernment when getting pregnant and carrying someone's baby for nine months or raised by those single mothers and don't understand the issue.
>This hits so hard as someone who was born into this exact same environment where women just had children with men who didn't give a fuck and never willYet I'm the bad guy for pointing it out. These scrotes can't hide how they feel about women for longer than ~4 months nowadays. They're blatantly more violent and sexist than their violent sexist daddies and grandaddies. Hell, half of them will say outright on the first fuck that they don't want kids. What makes you think they're lying?
>>1389621>This issue is hype culture pressuring women into thinking the only way to keep men around is raw sex and that being a slut is a good thingThis is why if I have a daughter I'm telling her if he doesn't want to have sex with a condom, he wants to have sex with someone else. That's a privilege for a committed relationship with a lot of trust between the two partners, not a one night stand/fuck buddy activity.
No. 1389629
>>1389618>Stop skirting around the issue.I'm not, I'm just saying it doesn't help to blame these women. Blame the scrotes, teach women how to vet better and have some damn standards for their relationships and life. The type of women you're talking about isn't bored, but disempowered. When you are taught your only value is sex + popping babies, that's what you're going to do. Nobody with healthy self-esteem does that shit.
>>1389621We have the retarded libfems to thank for that.
No. 1389660
>>1389654I'm not pulling shit out of my ass, I literally told you
>>1389634 . Not everyone who has sympathy for single moms is a single mom herself or raised by one.
No. 1389665
>>1389635It doesn't absolve them of responsibility, but if you grow up in a echo chamber where your only value is pleasing a man and having children, then you are very unlikely to deviate from that. Unless someone is very very strong of will, both women and men follow what they're societally programmed to do. Blaming them doesn't help, but teaching them and exposing them to different viewpoints does.
I get it, because sometimes I do get mad at them too. Especially because I have a strong personality. Why can't they be stronger and have some common sense? But then I realize they are a product of their upbringing and they need a little extra help from other women. Not blame.
No. 1389689
>>1389626That's why I said we should be educating and talking to girls about setting boundaries, the importance of consent and also becoming independent as a woman. I know I wasn't even taught any of this shit myself and it's just by chance that I managed to break the cycle and not have a kid by age 16 like most other girls on the estate I grew up with. I think all girls should have this opportunity to truly find themselves and become stable before they even consider children. I only said I don't have sympathy for women who carry on having kids with men who they already know for a fact do not care about them - I come from a place where this is extremely common and the children that are born from it are messed up from the start, to put it kindly.
I just think saying "blame the men" is fucking useless because we can blame men all they like and they aren't doing shit about it - they don't care, they don't have empathy because if they did they wouldn't put women in this situation in the first place. All they can do is pretend they're a struggling single dad who's baby-mom is a
toxic woman who won't let them see their kids and he gets unlimited awws and sympathy. I do not trust men to better themselves for women, they have never done this for us before and they're not gonna start any time soon - you can apply this to fatherhood, reproductive rights, prostitution, porn, anything at all. I hope you can see what i'm saying with this - yes of course they should be forced to pay child support and be responsible for their actions, there should be more in place to punish deadbeat dads who cba to wear a condom. But women also should be taught from the get-go that we are in control of our bodies, and we should not have to endure or entertain the way of the scrote because we never win. We literally never ever win and it's why I'm sick of seeing single motherhood praised as some sort of based survival story when in reality it is ruining many women's lives. I speak from experience.
No. 1389919
>>1389878Its' called skin picking disorder. There is help for it.
https://www.google.com/search?q=picking+scabs+disorderIf you already know this, and first attempts haven't worked, uh, maybe try again? Wishing you good luck.
No. 1389969
>>1389825killing yourself is not courageous it's pathetic and a sign of giving up, not freedom or escape. your pain is real and you should see if you can get help
nonny.
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I got my dog from craigslist because I'm poor whitetrash
I'm friends with the lady I got her from on facebook, and she posted her OF, and I kind of had to check it out, and tl;dr, I eventually found an old video on xvideos where if you look in the background, you can see my dog as a puppy in the hallway eating a crunch wrap supreme off the floor
No. 1390030
>>1390022she's an extremely precious jack russel terrier who has seen way too much
she's pure white except for a brown face-mask and this cute little spot above her tail that kind of matches it
man I don't know what to think, this poor dog
No. 1390042
>>1390037I mean there's nothing to suggest this lady was anything but good to her, she loves wearing clothes and getting her teeth brushed, she sits still for haircuts and stands still for baths and only barks at the garbage truck, but still, god damn man
thank you, anyway
No. 1390192
>>1389887The world is fucking backwards bro. I've seen ugly women in relationships with men who worship them (not saying this is a bad thing) but beautiful women I know struggle to find relationships with faithful men who don't make them insecure, ignore them constantly, etc
They'll claim it's personality but definitely not. The ugly women in referencing had okay or sometimes awful personalities. One of them shuts down and doesn't go anywhere because she gets "
triggered" by everything. One of the beautiful women I'm referencing went to an ivy league, owns a cooking business and is great at it and is pretty funny and still struggles to find men who act interested
No. 1390293
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I was the one who kickstarted the South Park discussion on the western BL board on fujochan /wes/. I also heavily contributed to almost turning that board into a South Park only board (until another anon made a separate South Park board, which I'm grateful for). I'm also the one who kickstarted the whole South Park discussion on the Psychology of Fandom Drama board.
Idk why I decided to latch on to South Park of all the things in the world… It legit happened out of nowhere too. I was familiar with the show and had seen some episodes but I just woke up on morning and thought "I should obsess over South Park" and it has only gone downhill from that and now I'm dragging everyone with me by sperging about it online I guess
No. 1390348
>>1390247I’m glad you’re doing reflection work nonna. Sometimes these behaviors are really truly coming from a place of pain and aren’t malicious but still destructive to the people you love. I’ve been there too and thought I was just sad and had certain bad traits but my instability and resistance to looking at myself made me
abusive even if I didn’t intend it. A lot of people are so drowned by their emotions they can’t see clearly and it’s scary when they finally start to. The fact that you’re willing to learn and change is very important and I hope the next relationship you create is much healthier.
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>>1390339Reading this post from start to finish was..quite an experience. Were laxatives or prune juice not effective or what?
No. 1390398
>>1390339yeah this happened to me one time when i was on new meds but I didn't wait that long before digging it out.
>>1390353it sounds like anon was far past the level of compaction where the vagina/perineum trick would work.
No. 1390404
>>1390213Women -usually- only feel bad about these things if the moid is using his ex as a way to neg or manipulate his current. When I was dating my ex I never cared about how his exes looked until he kept trying to bait me (calling her hot and kept talking about fucking her, when I showed apathy he basically simped as hard as he possibly could until he started straight insulting me in order for me to react and then played
victim when I was upset)
Either, fuck, I don't care if the guy I'm with has dated Victoria's secret models before me, if you're unable to date other women and be happy with their appearance you shouldn't be dating anyone at all
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>>1390339Not to hate, but why didn't you use an enema to make it easier? How dehydrated do you have to be to even get to this point? What's your fiber intake like?
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I want to break up my 6 year relationship (I’ve thought about doing it before)
I cheated on him emotionally which was fucking terrible but at the same time this tells me that im not happy with this relationship and I need to leave.
No. 1390635
>>1389353Based, I am currently with my bf who is younger
>I’m his first kiss>took his virginity tooI robbed all of his innocence and he is obsessed with me
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>>1390712reminds me of the way my mom acts wrt my father. you should read about placaters as they relate to gaslighting behaviour
No. 1390739
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I honestly don't think I will be sad or even care when my mother dies and part of me feels bad about that, for some reason, although I know I have (what I assume to be valid) reasons. She's not super old or anything but her health is shit purely from her own stupid decisions and choices, but I know that when the time comes I will have to put on an act of being distraught or else people will just call me the same names they did when I was living with her and tired of her abusive bs: cold, bitch, heartless, emotionless. I wish I could shout out to everyone, "I don't fucking care!" I wish I could. I still feel somehow horrible for even typing this, as if I should be sad when she dies, but honestly I just don't feel anything thinking about it. Whenever I think about my bf or my brothers or my cat dying, it almost brings me to tears though.
She was a shit mother to me and barely even made an effort to teach me anything about what it means to be a girl growing into a woman, she was more preoccupied with clothes or decorating the house or having a string of boyfriends to taxi her around everywhere. She would never say sorry or apologise for anything - sometimes even laughing in my face like it was a quirky silly joke even after seeing that I'm visibly upset or trying to stand up for myself. She would try to buy my forgiveness and did stupid misogynistic shit like hide my period pads from her new boyfriends, always make horrible comments towards other women and girls appearance, and also pick my teenage body apart by saying I was too thin or that my head was too big/my hair looked stupid/I shouldn't wear that because it looked stupid. Most of my body dysmorphia comes from her and the way she would shit talk herself and other women when I would be nearby. She visibly never listened to my interests or hobbies or personal struggles unless it could be used as gossip - nothing was private to her, I couldn't trust her with any secrets, the village knew my business. She prioritised this shitty new boyfriend over her own son after the boyfriend yelled at him in the street for no reason, she has no protection or defense instinct for her own children. She would make sure to humiliate me in public - If I would quietly stand my ground, she'd raise her voice to a level and tell me off just to show how much she had "won" the argument. My brothers were also treat like shit by her too, but it hurts ten times more when you are a daughter - your mother is supposed to be the ultimate inspiration and example of a cool, kind independent woman and my mother was none of that.
I have a civil and limited relationship with her now and thankfully I moved away, but I don't think I can ever get over or forgive her for the way she treat me. What's worse is that most people just dismiss it as "oh mother and daughter always bicker and catfight" like no she really fucked me up, why do most people not believe me? And after this, why do I still feel bad that I wouldn't care about her death? Sorry I guess this turned into a vent but the main point is that there is this massive hole where sympathy or love should be for my own mother and I think I just need to accept that and embrace it, I just don't know how considering everyone will make me look like the "evil bitch" again even though all I've ever done is try to stand up for myself. I have never even told anyone this before either.
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>>1390739i'm sorry nonna. i feel similarly about my parents. i've read therapists talk about this as "complicated grief"
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I went to a night club with some friends last week and spent most of the evening with a guy I’d met only a week or two ago. We talk a lot and really like each other but I feel a bit silly for letting him touch me as much as he did, and even more so for reciprocating. I didn’t have sex with him but I’d had a bit to drink and I know I probably would have if we were somewhere alone. We’re going on a coffee date this week and I’m a worried it’s going to be awkward now. I legitimately just feel a bit like a whore, I know that sounds ridiculous and like a complete overreaction kek but I am not usually the type to do stuff like this at all, particularly with men.
No. 1390852
>>1388086>I feel like a genuinely awful and judgemental person.Nah, you just have absolutely horrible self esteem. Sorry about whatever happened to you that you ended up that way.
>I'd fall out of attraction with them because they'd have so low standards they'd like someone like me.This is the part you need to work on if you ever decide to get help.
>At least I'm getting a cat soon so I'll get to physically touch a living creature without feeling awful about it.Make sure you get a friendly cat that likes being touched and handled. There is nothing like getting a cat for physical affection and it turns out to be one of those asshole cats who can't stand being pet or only likes being pet a little bit.
No. 1390862
>>1389148wtf? I cant believe how this article is written, taking this boys lies at face value and using the most passive language. Yeah, you're afraid of your father finding out your injured friend is here so you drag her inside the house instead of taking her home? No one hits people with a bat to stop them from screaming. And "When she finally stopped" aka "after he beat her to death."
He lured that girl into his house, tried to rape her, she screamed and got loud, he freaked out someone might hear, and beat her to death. christ, I am so mad at this. Why do people simp for killer moids. I will never understand.
No. 1390972
>>1390589You can do it, anon. I believe in you.
Start making plans even if you aren't ready to tell him yet. Just plan for a new life and see how that feels.
No. 1391277
I'm so sad about everything that I lost on my first laptop that I had from age ten to sixteen. So much fanfiction I wrote and ideas I had, so many screenshots of dress up games where I made my OCs, so many links I saved and can't find for the life of mine again, passwords to websites that I've completely forgotten, the text files I compiled about certain interests of mine because I thought the websites might get shut down in the future, which it even did… This is a first time confession for me, but I think it's even my own fault, because it happened exactly after I messed with something in the regedit files but at that point I didn't want to admit it to myself and others and just told everyone it just kinda happened, probably because I was downloading a game from somewhere; I turned my laptop off after changing something there, despite the warnings I read everywhere, and only got an endless, as in, left it on for 24+ hours and stil nothing happening, "setting up laptop" screen when I turned it on the next day. Then my father messed around a bit with it too, and now I can't turn it on at all, so now my sad, lonely laptop has been sitting in my closet for the past six years.
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There's a guy in my class who is so desperately into me it makes me laugh because he has no idea how little I care for him. I've never cared about what other people think of me but I just love the idea of being so out of someones league and watching him squirm and turn red when I show up in a fitted dress and makeup. He has kind of a cute face and sometimes I toy with the thought of domming him, and maybe I would if he wasn't aslo a massive racist and misogynist. So too bad A, keep jacking off to your fantasies of me.
No. 1391324
>>1391321>watching him squirm and turn red when I show up in a fitted dress and makeup>He has kind of a cute face and sometimes I toy with the thought of domming himSounds like you're kinda into him too, why don't you-
>maybe I would if he wasn't aslo a massive racist and misogynistNevermind, erase those thoughts from your brain immediately
No. 1391335
>>1391324It's like I almost feel bad for him for being so unpleasant to be around because I'm sure he could be a decent guy if it wasn't for the Y chromosome-induced retardation.
>>1391326Sorry for my ESL, I meant it more like how much I dislike him/how little respect I have for him. But also maybe I care because it's the first time I've gotten any attention in that way if that makes sense
No. 1391337
>>1391335Yeah he's a lost cause,
nonny. I'd advise you to get a crush on someone else ASAP and remember, you can always get a better moid to notice you.
No. 1391344
>>1391277as said,
>>1391322, it sounds like you and your dad fucked the computers ability to boot up. But the harddrive is probably still good and the data is still there. I would suggest you try to to boot it from a usb drive with like tails or ubuntu and see if that works, but you'd have done that already if you had any idea how to do that.
find a friend good with computers or take it to a shop and see if they can get the data off the harddrive.
I took my computer from college to the son of my mom's friend and to install a bigger harddrive and he ended up wiping the entire harddrive. I lost everything. I had so much fanfic saved. I still hate him.
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I have a pretty severe dyslexia that it takes more often then not five minutes or more to write down e.g. a reply or a post with what i think is proper grammar, context given when needed or correct spelling. But then i post it and immediately or soon after see what I did wrong. I have given up on deleting and fixing said post since there will always be something wrong. Sorry if you come across something that just illegible.
No. 1391389
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so unhappy with my life. i'm bad at all my hobbies and i have no friends. school is tough and i'm scared of how little i know. if i were at least having fun at my hobbies (d&d and art) i might not feel so bad but i can tell my current table wants me gone because i'm boring and i'm really shit at art. and it's been this way for so long. every time i try to get into something i fail and i suck and i end up alone while everyone else makes friends and has fun around me. i'm experiencing life through a window, always, and i can't tell anyone about it but anonymous people on the internet.
i know other people live way worse lives but i don't know. i just wish i had something to smile about. i wish i could wake up excited to face the day instead of just slogging through it, zoned out, hoping the next will be better.
No. 1391408
>>1391398I can relate to this too nonna. I didn't even sleep with a lot of men at all, but it was so detached and focused on the "hoe phase" that was popular at the time, I made myself do a lot of things I wasn't in to because Cool Girl. I hate how we were told that casual sex is empowering or some sort of grown up edgy thing to do. It is horrible, and men know that women hate it and they take advantage of it. I also feel a lot of disgust or strange almost naive feelings regarding sex. It really fucks you up, also the same with falling into kink culture as a girl. So many years wasted when it could have been focused on healthy sexual habits and knowing your own boundaries.
Idk if you experienced this too but I noticed that thanks to all of this stupid shit I would enter what I call "pleaser mode" during sexual encounters. It felt autonomous and that I would agree to anything just to appease the male or just to stop him from insulting me or acting like I wasn't good or kinky enough. It's very hard to undo all this but the fact that you are aware is a huge step in finding yourself again. I wish you the best of luck and for what it's worth know that I believe you can do it, you deserve to be happy.
No. 1391409
>>1391398>told myself it was ~empowering~ but it was all a liethis is why i can't publically admit i liked fleabag. so many people misunderstand. i think the underlying message of it was that sleeping around is not morally bad, but it leads to bad things for women.
casual sex - its empowering from a man's point of view. in their experience sex is hard to get, so it is empowering to them. not to slut shame. i believed from age 18 to 22 that non-committal situationships, sugardaddies, and "friends with "benefits" (scrotes are useless as friends) were something to seek out to be an independent and empowered woman in my sexuality. but truth to be told, i gotten attached to the wrong men because of the physical closeness, and dated men who pulled me down from my full potential because of that attachment. my confession is that i am a lot happier and more productive single, but i can't go without a relationship for long because i love cuddling too much.
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I think himbos are ugly
No. 1391655
>>1391626Sometimes I wish I was straight
not to actually like men but just to have more options for dating and be seen as more normal in society. The grass is greener I guess
No. 1391661
>>1391652why would you be flattered by a stalker?
if he flirted with you, k. whatever. but a stalker? girl, no
No. 1391679
>>1391398I went through the same thing and now believe I'm unlovable because of my body count. No man would ever love me if he knew I slept with more than two people.
A few were SA. The others were relationships. I keep the number to myself and sometimes I get "flashbacks" and I have to physically shake my head to not think about it. I often feel deep shame and regret about the things I did to try and fit in, when I knew I didn't enjoy any of it. I'm in therapy now, and my therapist often tells me that part of me isnt relevant (it's been around 8 years) but I struggle with deep seeded shame often, to the point of suicidal thoughts knowing I could never tell anyone about that time except my therapist. We all carry crosses and mine happens to be this and it fucking blows - I see online manosphere creators talk about ex-whores and body counts and I just feel disgusting every time. I know it's stupid to hold myself to that rhetoric but I feel worthless.
No. 1391720
>>1391398This is super interesting to me because I think the total opposite. I've only had sex with 1 person my whole life, my fiance, and sometimes I wonder if I missed out. I would
never end the relationship to go sleep around, I love him so so much and I think I found my soulmate, but I do wonder if maybe I could've learned some things if I had the chance to sleep around before I met him? This is probably tmi but I read all the time about how amazing being eaten out is, so I let my fiance do it one time (idk why but it always made me nervous, someone's face being down there) and it didn't really feel good at all. He also has only ever had sex with me so he didn't know exactly what to do, and since I'd never had it done before I didn't really know how I could guide him into making it better, since I don't really know if it would feel better if he was experienced or I just plain don't like it. Idk if that makes any sense but, basically I wonder if our lack of experiences made us miss out on some things
No. 1391766
>>1391743I get when you're having bouts of low self-esteem how a little bit of attention positive or negative can be flattering but without the respect of someone taking you at your word and facing you as a person you've basically become an inatimate object. When that extends to finding information about you that is not public, watching you through your webcam/phone, or any number of actual violations you are no longer a cute crush you are a
victim of a serious crime.
We all do a little bit of surface level stalking but there is just nothing flattering about knowing you are watched and an unwilling participant in someone else's power fantasy. I'd much rather have a guy tell me I'm hott and talk about mutual interests with me than just….watch me…
No. 1391828
>>1391720Nona you've got something rare and good and should treasure it but
>basically I wonder if our lack of experiences made us miss out on some thingsif you're really worried about that, nothing is stopping you from experimenting and gaining experience together you know. There's plenty of guides online for any sexual act if you need some assistance.
No. 1392033
>>1392022> Aesop, Fables 528 (from Chambry 118) (trans. Gibbs) (Greek fable C6th B.C.) :
"After he had created people, Zeus immediately implanted in them all the possible human character traits, but he forgot about Aiskhyne (Aeschyne, Shame). Since he didn't know how to get Aiskhyne (Shame) inside the human body, he ordered her to go in from behind. At first Aiskhyne protested, considering Zeus's request to be beneath her dignity. When Zeus kept insisting, she said, ‘All right, I will go in there, on the condition that if anything–or Eros (Carnal Love)–comes in there after me, I will leave immediately.’
As a result, people who engage in sodomy have no sense of shame."Here’s the passage. It’s worth noting she was the goddess who roamed with Nemsis the goddess of “righteous indignation aroused by the sight of wicked men receiving undeserved good fortune.” Nemsis also punished disrespect towards the gods.
No. 1392053
>>1391389I am you, anon. Except I don't have any hobbies, lol.
Can I offer some advice? Can you ask the DM or some other person in your d&d group for advice? Like "I don't my character is really as good as I'd like it be. Any advice on how to make it better?"
For art, try to get good at drawing one thing, just one. Like swords or grapes. Whatever. Goal for the next month is to try good looking swords. Not great, just good.
Sounds like you are in college? So maybe try some to see a counselor? Or get a tutor in a class you are struggling with?
Wishing the best for you.
No. 1392061
>>1391679You could just…lie. There is no reason to be honest. And SA's don't count.
>my therapist often tells me that part of me isnt relevant>but I struggle with deep seeded shame often, to the point of suicidal thoughts knowing I could never tell anyone about that time except my therapist. > but I feel worthless.If you have told your therapist about your shame, they are bad and you need a new one.
If you haven't, be honest, and tell them you need help working through this.
No. 1392065
>>1391398I never know what to say about this. As much as I was tempted to sleep around, I can't sleep with someone I'm not attracted to. That takes months for me to become attracted to a male, I don't find them appealing as they are. I'm 25 and have only been with 3 guys and all of them were in committed relationships with me and it had been at least 6 months of us knowing each other well before we had sex.
I was sexually abused as a child and I definitely sought out that dynamic with my 2nd boyfriend. I defintely would call that self harm. My first boyfriend, he was very anxious about sex, he had asperger's and was paranoid of pregnancy. I had vaginismus so that made it very difficult then, too.
My last boyfriend who I'm still with was the absolute best. We get into phases, we learn about what we like, and it's a lot of fun. Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like for me to sleep around, especially since I like cheap validation, but being with my boyfriend eventually made me realize I needed to look beyond that cheap validation I was looking for in having sex with my own boyfriend. I was affected by being abused as a little girl and I realize I'd have to radically redefine sex if I wanted to stop feeling desperate or unloved if we didn't have sex. I try to look at sex or nudity the way I experience it with my boyfriend, not in the way the media defines it. The portrayal of sex is just a fantasy, a filtered, airbrushed image like an instathot. We love porn, but hate nudity…I once heard that and it really stuck with me. Anyway. I still don't think I've totally moved on since I still sometimes get insecure over my appearance and whether I'm sexually attractive enough. But I'm learning and that's what is important.
No. 1392107
>>1392098I agree with you on the second part, but my experience is the total opposite. I prefer oral to actual sex most of the time, but I’ve also only ever slept with two different people who I’m assuming are good at it. I can imagine shitty oral to be vomit worthy.
>>1392101Did you reply to the wrong post?
No. 1392173
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>>1392131lesbians who don't prefer penetration exist too? It's not so black and white as either scrote microdick opinion or pickme. I do think for oral you have to be extra relaxed, more than normal, see general "Come as you are" book tips. It's more difficult to have an orgasm if you still have chores to do and other stuff that can be lingering in your mind. Doing chores for your gf/wife is the true foreplay.
No. 1392201
>>1392178what the hell are you talking about most lesb porn also involves penetration too.
Majority studies show that straight women do not orgasm during sex. And that piv orgasms for women are a small percentage.
No. 1392210
>>1392178You're jumping to conclusions, my statements were
>lesbians who don't prefer penetration exist too?>It's not so black and white as either scrote microdick opinion or pickme.>I do think for oral you have to be extra relaxed, more than normal, see general "Come as you are" book tips.You responded with shit about lesbian erotica and porn and still insist that anyone who would prefer oral is trying to placate scrotes. I didn't say that no lesbian likes penetration.
No. 1392249
>>1392237honestly you sound like a moid with your obssesion with ''big dicks and micropenises''
Newsflash lesbians dont like dick even if its a elongated worm because at the end of the day its still looks like a disgusting worm and penises are some of the most disgusting vile things i have seen and im straight. Men are generally some of the most hideous creatures.
No. 1392264
>>1392253i understand your point about micropenises, they are disgusting and you feel nothing.
But to make the claim that penetration is better than oral is wrong.
Most men use their dicks in a way that you are like a flashlight to them, so there is rarely any pleasure, even a guy with a big dick that you mention most of them just jackhammers into you until they are done.
No. 1392279
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>>1392273both suck, we all know who the real winner is.
No. 1392409
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>>1389432Fuck these other women nonna I agree with you and I feel the same way. Men are only attractive when they still look kind of healthy and fit and unfortunately they hit the wall at 25 nowadays. If men weren't cooming themselves into baldness by 23 and perfecting their soy face it wouldn't matter but here we are. I was looking for a picture similar to what I like and this is close enough, even if it does look a tad young.
No. 1392540
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I have realized I was been around so many shitty people during the most formative years of my life, including my mother, that red flags are just a different shade of rose to me.
No. 1392547
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>>1392409nta, but I have to accept that Yukio Mishima was right in his opinion that men should die young, rather then be allowed to grow old and ruin their legacy
No. 1392557
>>1389432Doesn't this scare the hell out of you? You will eventually be old. It will look crazy when you're 65 buying anime figures. Who would want to support this habit? Are you ridiculously attractive? If so then oh, if not how are you not terrified?
Men are so unreliable
You can't actually count on rich men for money, if you find one.
Men like that only want trophy wives, and even then they burn through them and hold money over their heads until they get new
victimI had a rich dad, i know how they are. I never want to mary for some assholes rules and money. Sugar daddies aren't all they're cracked up to be. They're entitled, overbearing demanding perfectioniss
No. 1392611
I don't brush my teeth before bed.
>>1392252Yes. I was hooking up with a guy that had an enormous penis. I couldn't relax or enjoy it because I was terrified he was going to hit my cervix the entire time. I also like rough sex that's impossible if there's a guarantee the guy will hit your cervix with a hard thrust. Needless to say that relationship didn't last long.
No. 1392814
>>1392612ahhh you're one of those people.
I bought a box of hair dye the other day and someone had obviously raided the other boxes for the gloves and shoved them all into the box I bought. thank you kind shoplift-chans
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About a year ago all of the instability and misery in my life was automatically fixed but the transition to stability was honestly one of the scariest things I’ve ever done.
No. 1393007
>>1393005cute nona haha! I feel the same tbh.
the one that totally makes sense to me is bioré nose strips, my buddy (rightly) thought they were too overpriced so would always put three or four boxes-worth into one and go through the cashier service instead of self-serve (cause self-serve weighs each item)
I grew up with a cop dad so I can never bring myself to, thank you for letting me live my best criminal dreams vicariously haha
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>>1393050i don't think the term "spinster" is bad nonna. if you read the odyssey, spinning lies was what penelope did because she was cunning. "metis" is greek for cunning, and was also athena's other name. spinning and deception are a women's craft, and an honourable one
No. 1393289
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I'm so ashamed nonnies. I bought a 50 pack of mini bags of haribo to give to trick or treaters tonight and I ate 44 of them last night in a daze. I don't even remember doing it. I can't get more sweets and my neighbors know I'm a recluse and don't leave the house so I can't even pretend I'm not home.
No. 1393319
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>on YT
>watch random video that has a Christian man
>he doesn't act moidlike at all, very humble and nice
>start to think to myself "In spite of my own experiences, maybe Christians aren't that bad at all"
>see some people in the comments say he's just a paid actor
>look him up
>he has "actor" in his bio, with no mention of God, faith, Christ, religion, etc on his account
>find his TikTok
>he's drinking, smoking, cursing and doing some cringe "white boy rapper" persona
Can't believe I was almost fooled. Why are actors that are actually degenerates IRL better PR for that religion than the actual people?
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>>1393319This happened to me lately but it wasn't a youtube vid.. it was a charming guy I met irl. Finding his socials crashed me back down to earth. Scrotes can act.
No. 1393374
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I am very superficial and judge people based on looks. I just can't stand when someone is greasy for their job (i.e youtubers)
No. 1393406
>>1393403I think anyone can look good with clean hair and clothes in the proper size
There's like maybe 5% people who are outliers due to genetic effects, but any sane person won't judge them.
I will gladly judge somebody "famous" on the way they present themselves, but irl I will judge demeanor and facial expressions.
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I fell for the BTS radfem interview post and it took until I got to the pic with Dworkin to realize it's fake
No. 1394355
>>1394332Based, same. And berets are great too.
I look like a walking caricature with my sailor stripes, beret and trench coat on top but coincidentally all 3 of these things happen to make me look hot so whatever, let's go.
This combined with my weird face and sperg accent gets me mistaken for a foreign tourist all the time but it occasionally lets me avoid street harassment so I don't mind, I think it would be scary if I lived in Paris though
No. 1394426
>>1394382You can share it with us nonna!
But also I'm sure if you share it with someone in your life and explain why is it so meaningful to you, that person would not think you're pathetic
No. 1394445
>>1394426okay, thank you anon. the first "parental figure" (in a broad way) that treated me with a lot of consideration and support was my russian professor, she gave me confidence and i crawled out of the bottomless pit i'd been in for like 10 years
i will forever be grateful, and i wish i could have given something back to her, but i'll try to be similarly helpful if someone younger clings to me someday.
No. 1394519
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i work at a stupid little call center that i'm too smart for and am obviously underpaid as hell. i do whatever i want as i work from home, but when someone tells me i'm doing so and so wrong, i just pretend that i'm a retard and say oopsie. they buy it. minimum effort for minimum pay. i have a degree, but my preferred workfield is overflowing with fresh graduates, so i stopped trying. it's become a game for me to see how far i can push it. it's not like i'm a bad employee or smth, i just refuse to get overworked or depressed because of a job. bite me
No. 1394533
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I got put on an academic break because mental health for a couple of months and it's such a big wake up call. When I sat down with a therapist all I talked about was school, school, school, grades, grades, grades. But now that I've been off campus, what hurts the most isn't wasting 2 years in college, it's that I miss my friends.
So while I'm going back to improve my grades, I am intentionally entering my messy/rebellious phase in my social life. I plan on serial dating, partying, and most importantly bonding with my friends. I put it off so many times because I felt too guilty about my grades to deserve enjoying things outside academia. But loneliness hurts so much. Of course I'll work to do better academically (I still want a comfy job to continue bonding with friends once i graduate). But I won't use it as an excuse to cut people off and be distant from friends.
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>>1394501you are an angel nonna. i'll think about it.
No. 1394572
Men are soooo sensitive… When they say shit like, “women are too sensitive/hysterical/whatever”, they’re projecting. So I was talking in my friend gc with my girl friend X, a male friend Y, about a dude Z. Said dude is a show off, class clown, and people think he’s very funny, but if he was a woman, they would all hate him. So I don’t really like him.
X was like, “oh that dude tries to cape for politics but he only cares about international shit”, (we are not Americans), and I was like “lol Y is going to suck him off”, which is a way to say that he is going to bootlick him because he worships that man idk why!
And I was right, because he then defended him and I said “Said so”, and Y said “Ok I’m not going to say anything” and I said “that’s better”. Other girl friend said that she thinks Z is funny, and Y said “be careful, (my name)’s going to say you’re sucking him off” and me and X started making fun of him like “Ohhh he’s so mad we said that he’s sucking him off”.
Well I was right, that man is ignoring me irl, ignoring me responding to his instagram stories, etc and I think that’s like… So stupid. I’m not apologizing either. Idc. Am I in the right here?
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A very close friend of mine may or may not be autistic. She's seeing a therapist to see if it's possible to get diagnosis, another friend of ours told me right after that and once she wasn't there anymore that she's obviously "neurodivergent" and I'm mixed between thinking "that would explain a lot!" and regretting even meeting her in the first place. I thought she was just awkward at first because she's not a normie and she's a tomboy just like me, and she's a foreigner so there's some kind of cultural gap between her and everyone else here which I can somewhat relate to. But she slowly but surely became an anxious mess and at some point she started becoming to obsessed with an MMO she skipped classes in uni, nearly had to redo all her semesters for her masters, and she's getting weirder and weirder nowadays. Like, you'll say something in a conversation with our group of friends and she'll repeat the same 5 short sentences and interjections instead of participating. She suspects that a family member of hers is a much bigger autist than her, and supposedly it can be hereditary somewhat. Interacting with her is awkward as fuck, I feel like I'm baby sitting her everytime. For example, she's so obsessed with fandoms you'd think it's her whole life, meanwhile I moved on from this because I finally have a life outside of that but she's making it her life despite hating it. She once cried hard because a girl from her guild in her MMO used a vaguely similar template as hers for a powerpoint presentation of her OC. I heard her complaining about JKR being a
terf irl, which feels surreal irl and in a conversation that's not in English, now I worry that she could potentially want to transition because she now fully admits she's only into 2D guys (which, good for her I guess but it's not in a "real men are trash" way but more in a "I'm not attracted to humans" way)
tldr; my friend is very likely to be an actual sperg in the medical sense of the term, and it's so obvious nowadays it's making me not want to interact with her anymore. I'm keeping this to myself irl of course.
>>1394519Good for you. I did just that in previous job at a call center too, and I'm starting to do this a little now at my current job because I'm 100% sure we're gonna lose our client and we're all overworked and underpaid so whatever. I'm leaving the office at 6pm everyday, fuck everything else.
No. 1394840
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>>1394572Not to cape for a moid but from your post alone I fail to see what's wrong with the guy exactly. Did he do something else besides just ignoring you ? Because I fail to see how some dude not wanting to spend time with you anymore is a big deal. People are allowed to feel embarrassed by your jokes, unless he's always saying degrading shit to you himself (or if Z does it and Y thinks it's cool), not talking to you isn't a huge dramatic overreaction. Why is him ignoring your Instagram messages so important that you need to write an entire separate sentence about it ? Just hang out with your other friend, move on etc etc
>>1394740Welcome to the world
nonnie. Here's a bonus item
No. 1395085
>>1395031The link between EDs and girls trooning out is well known, anons are perfectly aware. It was brought up constantly with regards to Ellen Page for example.
You can't blame anons for not being totally uwu empathetic and forgiving when TIFs act like discomfort with their bodies make them men considering it's an ubiquitous female experience and most of us absolutely understand what they go through.
No. 1395231
>>1395213He's definitely a weirdo, but like in
>>1395227 he's harmless, he just drinks way too much and self-sabotages. He was the first person I met who was autistic in the same way I am and was the first clue I should go get evaluated.
>>1395230You can be a straight kissless virgin without hating the other sex. Self-ID incels always hate women though.
No. 1395244
>>1395232I've met a few of them and they're always autistic and depressed, and often really charismatic. Some would probably not be incels if they noticed women were actually flirting with them, but they've just assumed it's not possible and accepted it too long ago to notice. They're always doughy though, even if they're thin.
That said, I've met some really psycho men who pretend to be this type, so I'm always wary if I get a whiff of incel bitching.
>>1395239Convert is an appropriate word for it. You can convert from one religion to another and you have to make the choice to do it. It doesn't imply lack of agency.
No. 1395254
>>1395241yeah its totally a psyop. Its not like women didn't have human rights like a hundred years ago and suffragettes were being brutally tortured by men or the men who were making propaganda against the suffragettes.
You are totally right womanhating started 10 years ago.
>>1395244have you ever spent time on incel forums, let me put it bluntly…they want to fuck children and only supermodels. They notice when a average woman is flirting with them, in fact they make posts complaining with disgust if a average woman flirts with them calling her names.
they were not converted they were always pieces of shit, they just found places to now air it out publicly instead of keeping it in.
Another thing is a incel-type man can still get along with women in real life but when he comes home he will still talk about how he wants to kill women and groom 14 year olds.
A incel-nerdy man acting normal just shows that he is better at hiding it.
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>>1395230>>1395231agreed completely, anyone who calls themselves an incel after that definition got stolen by literal terrorists is unashamedly a woman hater and most likely supports rape culture.
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>>1394494just exercise more girl, you will feel and look better. starving makes us depressed, forgetful, sleepy and sad. you might become vitamin deficient if continued for too long. if you go from a high to a low weight quickly from starving yourself you will get loose skin which will make you feel skinnyfat. then you have the chance of binging after restricting for too long which is not worth it. nothing better than lifting the weight off and revealing fresh new muscleees.
No. 1395288
>>1395250>>1395257Autism isn't as simple as just social retardation. Some of us have a harder time with sensory issues or rigid thinking, but are extroverts and can handle social situations well in limited amounts. It's less common to see that in male autists but it does sometimes happen. Blah blah it's a spectrum.
That said autists tend to cluster so maybe the "charismatic male autist" is only funny to other autists. It's not like I can become normal to check.
>>1395254>>1395270>>1395276Incel describes a man who has a sex drive but doesn't have sex. A man can be a by-definition incel without considering himself an incel or associating with incels. Any man who calls himself an incel is going to be one of the men you're talking about.
Nobody's disagreeing here that men who call themselves incels, even in secret, even in their own heads, are misogynists.
No. 1395541
>>1395490Men are shit but these women can't change their sexuality. You'll live,
nonny.
No. 1395729
>>1395687you find hetero women being horny gross if it involves yet its okay and hot when its a males dick inside each other….thats interesting.
Again can pickme staright/bi women who like yaoi and see women as competition stop calling themselves lesbians, you are ruining the community.
You are the same type of bitches who talk about how you are a gay man and how you suddenly like dick now when you troon out and become tifs.
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Oh my god he's so manly and sexy, I wanna smell his testosterone and suck on his dick and fondle his reads scribbled note on hand scrotlum
No. 1395902
>>1395826Nta but wym by "the straights"? Are you not?. There are plenty of women who share the same opinion as you.
My god these conversations reek of immaturity. Are you all still in high school? God forbid women like/dislike something and it always has to boil down to jealousy, insecurity or whatever. Ech. Straight women are going to lust over men because they are
heterosexual. That also doesn't mean that they'd hop on the first dick they see. It is what it is. Damn, just don't look at threads that you're not into. Acting like twitter snoflakes here.
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I think I'm becoming a little racist against my own ethnicity. I haven't find just one person from my ethnicity who wasn't an annoying gossip hen who would judge me for not eating halal meat. The number of times when I've been told I try too hard to act like a white person while growing up for liking Harry Potter or anime that aren't DBZ or One Piece or for liking music that isn't the exact same fucking shit they like. Meanwhile they're the ones who are so obsessed with their ethnicity and have such a huge complex over it that they fry their perfectly curly hair and glue it and their dandruffs with a shit ton of gel to make it straight and they pretend they're Arabs. They get surgery to make their noses straight and thin to look more European. No way in hell I'm marrying a guy in my ethnicity. Or even dating one.
No. 1396201
>>1396179I almost universally prefer watching female youtubers, when I realized I was always subconsciously choosing them over moids I felt proud of how much my misandry has progressed. I just don't want to hear men talking, I don't care about their opinions, and I don't find their energy pleasant.
Not that I think you're doing anything wrong, it sounds like you prefer women for the stuff that actually matters.
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I'm prepping for the New Dark Ages, and I keep it a secret from everyone. (1) I don't want them showing up at my house knowing I have supplies/food/water and (2) They will think I'm insane.
This is it, nonnies. Live it up now, because it's all ending soon.
No. 1396288
>>1396201Same nona. I especially like watching female YouTubers that are informative or philosophical on a certain topic. I just cannot stand to hear a moid mansplaining something I already know. Most gamer YouTubers I've come across with are either annoying men or pick-me women so it's hard to find good content. Unrelated but I also brought this up with a friend who is also supposedly a "misandrist" and avoids men but somehow I get called "
toxic" because "b-but it shouldn't matter what gender they are." And this is the same person who watches coomer dudebros like Vaush and hassan. Honestly she seems like such a libfem, and it's reflected in the views she spouts, like thinks sex work is work so it's no surprised she absorbed that bullshit from these gross breadtubers. Like fuck off bitch, you are not a real misandrist.
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god I wish I'd dated more women before ending up in a long term relationship with a moid
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My face when I fail my suicide attempt after being fully accepting of spending my last moments posting Tom Petty lyrics on lolcow.farm
And on top of it all; I’m still considered enough of a Normeo to not have to waste space in the crazyhouse! Win!
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i generally get along with men way better than women. i know that’s a huge sin to admit to on this site, no i’m not trad or a pickme or antifeminist.
No. 1396505
>>1396425i hope everything you ate was really delicious,
nonnie. don't feel bad at all.
No. 1396573
>>1395490I'm a husbandofag but I had to leave the thread when they were posting those figures with their cocks out, dicks are the most disgusting shit ever created.
Also I can't help but roll my eyes when I hear about a female acquaintance getting married to a male, and I get disappointed when I learn about a female artist who was married to a horrid dude like Frida Kahlo or Georgia O'Keeffe (Rosa Bonheur supremacy all the way).
No. 1396889
>>1396819You don't have to do anything about it (except not tell people). Love is a feeling, but more importantly, it's an action. It's picking up his favorite treat when you're at the store and he hasn't asked, it's him deep cleaning the house after a long day of work because he knows you've been stressed about it, it's actions like these but thousands of times each year. It builds mutual trust and admiration.
But don't tell him or anyone else, because people get really weird if they know you can't actually feel the emotion.
No. 1396943
>>1396889This. It means wanting to be better for the person you love. Acts and words of kindness…..You wouldn't want to hurt them for the world. Not taking them for granted and acknowledging the good they've done for you if they treat you right. I don't think you found the right guy yet and forcefully saying it everyday diminishes the meaning imo. I know my partner and I love each other very much but we definitely don't use those words lightly. Of course every couple is different but I personally would start to tune out "i love you" and not take it as seriously if it was mindlessly said on a daily basis.
I think the media depicts love as some grand, special feeling but it's more about feeling a strong bond and choosing to continue to love them. Just like people choose to cheat, love is partially a choice to keep being with that person if you wish to do so. The term love is elusive and you would know if you felt it. I would deeply examine your relationship as you seem to be settling or at least meh about it. Do you want to spend the rest of your life with him? Would you be okay being bound in marriage vows hypothetically?
No. 1397031
>>1396819I agree with
>>1396889 that love is an action but I do think that you should go to therapy and try and get in better touch with your emotions. It sounds like this expands much farther than just being with your partner.
No. 1397103
>>1396399>above all I'm still enough of a normeo not to waste space in the crazy housetrust me when I say you don't want to go there and they'll dope you up on shit that will worsen your mental health. mental hospitals are some of the dreariest nastiest places on earth
>>1396416Similar effects from repeated overdoses except I never actually went to the doctor. Had extremely bad depersonalization, dissociation and delusion episodes in 2020 that spiraled out. I've lost a hoard of memories. Get random migraines. Likely perma brain damage. Currently off medication.
Condolences to both of you, I hope you're able to overcome original overdose anon and I feel you other overdose anon. It's a long, tough road. I finally feel like I don't want to die but I instead just maladaptively deal with the pain through bad impulse control. So I could be either dead or covered in scars. Not sure what's worse.
No. 1397499
>>1396412Thank you for the kind words I actually do appreciate them a lot <3
>>1396416You’re 100% right, and normally I’m a huge proponent of not using pharmaceutical drugs like pills or even advil but you know how suicidal thoughts be kek. I’m sending you love and warmth
nonnie. Thank you for the words of wisdom.
>>1396436Not yet! Kek
>>1397103I am definitely very grateful that despite my aggressively suicidal and anorexic past I’ve never been forced into any kind of hospitalization, that would’ve been unnecessary and absolutely done more harm than good. I’m still however willing to put in the work to, hopefully, get a little bit better alongside my parents and my bf.
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I just ate breadsticks in the shower and no one could stop me nyeheheheh
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>>1397595nonnies this is not a joke the lights keep flickering I have angered God
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i always have my preview app arranged into a collage of selfies, pics of nigel, pics of my art, and whatever bonus self indulgent thing i'm into that week. might not be weird to look at these pics on their own once in a while, but this thing has become very curated and i look at it a lot. i would die if someone caught me staring at a fucking shrine to my own ego that i've made for myself
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I’m an ageing millennial having a crisis about it. I wish I could be thriving but nobody cares about you when you’re 33. I really hit an oil patch at 29 and have been skidding into existential despair about feeling old ever since. What gives nonnies, I am fairly well adjusted in other ways, don’t want children and am happily partnered.
No. 1397721
>>1397719just the default app for opening images on my mac. it's conducive to resizing and positioning a bunch of images so it's perfect for this neurotic habit kek
>>1397662i promise there's always someone irl who would want to help you if they knew about you and what you're going through, so your husbando can comfort you on behalf of them as well as himself
No. 1397736
>>1397714I dunno if this helps since I give bad advice but
I'm in the same boat as you. I just don't think about it, don't tell people my age cuz it' no ones business and just put the lotion on. I also feel happier going to the gym. Aaaah I don't wanna say just live a happy and healthy life but meh. What else can you do?
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>>1397736Thanks
nonny, it does help. At least not to feel alone with it. And I think you’re completely right, all you can do is put the lotion on and go to the gym while trying not to focus on your age. I have found the gym helps a lot for me too. Like a sense of achievement that is in my hands. I wish you all the best too nona.
No. 1397991
>>1397814It's a paranormal survival homebrew. We had plenty of fun when he rolled out weather for the week, but it fell flat when I asked him to run a loss scenario. (Game design sperg behind spoiler)
Losing is a normal part of this game so the loss scenarios are supposed to be mildly punishing and an inconvenience, but fun opportunities to advance the story or introduce new characters. Before asking him to run one I had run dozens and showed him my game logs, so I thought he understood. I had to explain to him that, in this game as much as the real world, being pulled into trees by a jaguar centaur without any explanation and then skipping narrative to the next morning feels rapey. I just never thought I'd have to explain that concept to a grown man before.
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>>1398454If we're from the same country we'll have to fight for the title, anon.
No. 1398663
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fujos are deranged no matter what but I do have a little bit of respect for oldschool fujos (anyone who was a fujo before 2010). They just seemed more… cultured? for a lack of better words I wanted to say intelligent but maybe that's a bit too mean towards modern fujos Many oldschool fujos had an interest in published books that was actually written by gay authors and was recognised for being well-written. They also would engage more with art made by gay artist and gay history. Even though the way they talked about history could come of very fetish-y they at least had an understanding of the seriousness of homophobia and oppression unlike modern fujos who just goes "and they where all gay pirates and did crimes together in a very kweer manner! be gays and do crimes! also smexy swordfights!".
I think many oldschool fujos actually liked art and litteratur in general and would seek it out and expand their horizons unlike modern fujos. Modern fujos seems to come in two flavours now either soft uwu a la that boyfriends webcomic or edgy a la killing stalking ]which doesn't even explore it's psychological themes in an interesting matter imoand the artstyle is fugly.
I think there is a lot of valid critique of fujos, and some invalid too but honestly I wouldn't mind being friends with an oldschool fujo. They seem interesting to hang out with and in general insightful when it comes to their BL and fanfiction. While I don't agree with with the "fujoism is feminist" mentality I can sort of see where it's coming from when interacting with oldschool fujos. I don't remember which board but I did see an anon on here say that old discussions between fujos could sometimes have academic feel to it. Unlike modern fujos who only watch cartoons and base their personalities around tumblr and tiktok memes.
Note:when I say that oldschool fujos come off as more "high brow" I only refer to non-anime fans fujo. For some reason anime fujos have always seemed disinterested in litteratur and art which is odd since many oldschool BL mangas can seem a bit "highbrow"
No. 1398668
>>1398663samefag just want to add I don't hate fujos I just think they seem to overestimate their importance. But fujo haters also seem to overestimate their own importance too.
I'm a fujo centrist I guess
I do like some BL and slash though but I'm not gonna call myself a fujo No. 1398687
>>1398683>" what about - insert any minority group here - " I didn't say that though? I admit I was really harsh in that post bur I clarified in
>>1398668 that I don't hate fujos.
I don't think fujoism is feminist but honestly I don't mind that people are fujos. Also nobody says SJW in 2022
No. 1398698
>>1398687Don't play dumb you know what she's talking about. Anons at fujochan always post shit like
>>1398663 to justify themselves and their tastes when its not even necessary, "le oppression and gay history and homophobia" c'mon is fucking yaoi, just watch your anime and move on
No. 1398702
>>1398687>I didn't say that thoughYes, you did. You said oldschool fujos were cultured because they consumed media made by actual gay people, implying that yaoi is some sort of activism.
>I don't hate fujos, I don't mind that people are fujosYou called them deranged and proceeded to write an essay complaining about them.
No. 1398706
>>1398663not a fujo
anymore but this is convoluted. topics you're interested in and things that turn you can overlap but they certainly don't have to and women don't owe anyone in depth research to justify being into yaoi. why are you worried about what fujos are or aren't interested in? if you're interested in gay history and art you should just look for communities about those topics.
No. 1398741
>>1398709Nonnie, as a post wannabe-anachan for a couple years and then a bulimic for a long time after that, you cannot live life in your own bubble because ED culture is so permeated within society. Even if anons refrained from that, you'll run into other ED content or anachans in real life sooner or later. I'm not saying "just be better lol" because recovery is a long and difficult process, but it is not worth living like this. My first wakeup call were my teeth starting to rot and my final door away from my ED brain was accepting that I look what I look like + getting actual life problems beyond that.
You are too young and (even in some way) beautiful to waste more of your years obsessing over something that doesn't even really matter. Does that mean become a slob and stop putting any effort into your appearance? No, but I think everyone would benefit from taking a step back to think rationally for just a second. I'm not skinny like I used to be anymore, but I'm still successful, have friends that love me, and women who think I'm hot. Not being thin isn't an aesthetical death sentence, and your health is more important.
Saged for being cringe and going off topic in /ot
No. 1398756
>>1398709Wishing the best for your recovery, but you really shouldn't expect this site to be a safe space in any capacity. An anonymous imageboard isn't the place where people are going to keep your possible trauma
triggers in mind. Also there has been a moid posting literal scat porn ffs, this site is never going to be totally safe to browse while eating.
kek I'm eating rn as I'm writing this No. 1398757
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>>1398663As an old-school fujo… who fucking cares about mih gay men writers? You remind me of that Japanese animator who posted a thread on twitter about how "muh fujoshi only want to see fantasy in BL and not us gay men" in broken English and then tried to imply a female director for some gay anime didn't give a shit when he came out to her during his job. He pretended to be discriminated against when he got picked based on his skills only and not his personal life to work and backpedaled hard when people said that he sounded like he was accusing his boss of workplace discrimination, and the way you mention specifically gay male authors reminds me of that shit.
No. 1398761
>>1398604Not a high stress job, but my boss was getting harder and harder to deal with since the company was failing due to his negligence and his ego wouldn't let him admit it had anything to with him or his poor attitude towards customers (the amount of damage control I had to do for him since summer ended was insane) so he started blaming everyone else to the point I felt I had to quit ASAP, which bruised his ego quite a bit so he's been harassing me with false allegations and refusing to pay out my last salary, so I recently got in touch with the union. I didn't want things to end this way, but I should have known better when it came to that sociopath. Luckily I have enough to proof to support that he's making shit up, and I'm super lucky that I live in a country that has a system that protects the employees over the business owners in cases like this.
>>1398629Yeah, nothing really hits the same way as cutting. The usual alternate methods haven't really done it for me (rubber bands leaves me feeling sick for some reason, and ice/cold water just leaves me wet and cold but still craving that razorblade) so the last couple of years I've managed to kick this addiction by just holding out until the worst cravings pass. Though my current situation has swallowed me whole to the point I have constant stomach aches, can barely eat or drink, I haven't gotten more than a couple of hours of sleep per night, and sprinkle some PMS on top of this cocktail of exhaustion and it's not really any surprise I turned back to cutting again.
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>>1398663>oldschool fujos were more culturedOh honey…
No. 1398784
>>1398663I'm what you probably would call an "oldschool fujo" (in my 30's, been into this for 20 years) and people like this still exist, but they're drowned out by a lot of the younger crowd that lean more towards being a deranged mix of a yume and fujo (i.e. Gaydens) obsessed with self insertion. Their kind will most likely grow out of it later and then assume being a cringe Deku kinnie is some quintessential fujo experience everyone goes through and will eventually grow out of their childish fujoshit once they get the right dick and learn to like Christian approved heterosexual material etc. As for the more cultured type, a lot of the danmei fujos (the Chinese BL novels) for example are pretty intelligent and have a better perspective than "hot smexey yaoiz!!!" because in order to enjoy their media they actually have to read real books with complex plots instead of just glancing over a few Tik Tok videos.
I mostly interact with fujos my own age and they would look at stuff like Boyfriends and think it's childish and patronizing, so I feel like I'm gazing into the abyss when I see fujos in their late teens/early 20's and their lunacy. But then I remember that this type has always existed, in 2008 the two teenage girls larping as irl Sebastian and Ciel had one of them become a fully normie heterosexual girl with no interest in BL at all treating the entire thing as an embarrassing phase and one of them remained a lesbian and eventually trooned out like most butches sadly tend to do in this day and age. I would say that it's more of a maturity thing than a generational thing because I've met highly intelligent and feminist zoomer fujos that would've fit right in in the 00's. BL has also gotten much better from what it used to be with a lot more depth and variation available, but these "be kweer do gay crimes" kids never even read any of it, they just ship characters from popular franchises often with their own headcanons far detached from the original source.
>>1398757To be fair he's not calling fujos le evil fetishizer scum like all the Not Like Other Aidens crowd, he's just saying that BL isn't meant for gay males because it's a female fantasy which is correct, not implying that it's a bad thing. I totally understand him being frustrated at not seeing any representation because I sure as hell don't consider yuri "lesbian media".
No. 1398803
>>1398798For real?
I'm amazed that people still use those smileys in the current year.
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Sometimes, I look at pictures of people and categorize them by fantasy races and/or occupations. Some people have a more "elven" look, while others have kind of a "succubus"/"incubus" look, and others have a "goblin" look to them. Some women look like tavern barmaids, some men look like blacksmiths or cave miners. Short, mousy people with big eyes and wide noses are often gnome engineer types to me. All groups are capable of being attractive btw. I don't even really play RPGs much, this just makes sense in my mind.
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I sniff my used pads before I change them - not in a sexual way, but I feel like my instinct is to just smell them to see if everything is normal. Also do the same with my underwear throughout the entire month, it's how I noticed changes in my ovulation and how it be ripe as hell when I ovulate. I'd like to think my ancestors did this to gather information about their menstrual cycle but maybe I'm just cringe and gross. I genuinely find it interesting though, and in a weird way it's helped me connect with my body a bit more as a woman, considering I wasn't educated on anything like that and used to hate female bodily functions.
No. 1399071
>>1399061kek
nonnie I do that too! It's like I can track my whole cycle by smell
No. 1399272
>>1399252finally someone who understands! i feel like one of the reasons of "personality is better than beauty" is because men here are abhorrent
>>1399264you serious belive that anyone critizing their own country is pakichan? did you iliterate self not read that im from south american?
>>1399253i like buzzcut because i feel its more masculine than those perm tiktok hair
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Ok so here's 2 confessions in a single post.
1st: I used to work at a cinema and at some point I was able to get posters for upcoming movies early. on 2001 I was tasked to receive the new posters and put them on the glass cases and I saw the poster for the first Raimi Spiderman movie and looking at the suit and the colors, I just didn liked how it looked, my first confession is that I'm a comic book nerd and I didn't liked the first nor second iterations of Spider-Man in the movies, they all felt really off in every way of what Spider-Man is in the comics (but J.K Simons as JJJ was God tier casting)
2nd: it's 2020, the pandemic was in full swing and while everyone hates being inside their house I'm loving it, and I remember that there's new Spider-Man movies that I should watch, I torrent homecoming and I plug in my PC to a projector I got last Christmas.
The movie begins and the first thing I see is that batman is now the vulture (WTF!) Shortly after the new Peter Parker shows up, I do like when Spider-Man looks more mature and is unapologetically hot for a man his late 20s but I find Tom Holland's casting charming and adorable.
This post is already long enough so I'll make a run down of the movie and my reaction to that.
>Homemade suit looks fine
>Regular suit looks fine
>Giant man cameo (WTF?!)
>Iron man has a thing for aunt may (lmao why?)
>The fat friend reminds me of gankee and he is funny (but I guess he is also the hobgoblin…?)
>peter making his own web at chemistry class is pretty genius
>Failed heist is a reference so specific that I feel special for noticing it right away
>gankee is the first person to know about Peter's powers and I'm okay with that
>"Aunt may" is too young and I really don't like how there's multiple men interested in her but I guess the iron man thing makes sense now
>Captain America is a war criminal (wait what?)
>Troy from community cameo (yay)
>Tom Hardy as shocker rocks
>the vulture looks great, the wings are a bit too big maybe
>Iron man made the Spider-Man suit (I should have noticed earlier but it just sucks that peter didn't made his own)
>Vulture kills shocker and then another henchman becomes the shocker (I guess it makes sense why he's venom now)
>Spider-Man has Siri inside his suit (why?!!!)
>Gankee explodes but he survives lol
>Spider-Man's suit has the classic 90s wings which is neat
>peter wants to drop from highschool (mood)
>The ferry scene was a bit too much, I guess to show his strength was okay
>Iron man's 4th cameo (Jesus Christ, stop it already)
>peter Montage
Lovely, even aunt may is acting all maternal and shit
>Vulture knows peter is Spider-Man
Neat
>Spider-Man vs shocker 2 still not as good as tom hardy
>Spider-Man gets trapped under a bunch of rubble and a heavy metal thung
For a moment i thought iron man was going to show up and help him out but instead the scene ends up being a shot for shot reference to 1966's Amazing Spider-Man #33 holy shit, that night I made a soyface so big my parents would be disappointed of their daughter
>final fight is okay
>Spider-Man saving the vulture is such a Spider-Man thing to do
>MJ is black now (not MJ again)
>the new iron spider sucks
>the vision gets mentioned (wtf?!)
>The end credits scene promises the Scorpion (classic)
My Second confession is that I love what the MCU has done with Spider-Man and I'll defend it until the end of time.
No. 1401107
>>1401082Were you drinking? Alcohol anxiety hangover is real.
Anyway I killed my sisters pet by crushing it when I was 4 years old. Of Mice & Men moment but in a little girl, I didn't know I could do that.
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>>1401100I wanna be you so bad anon. I'm such a dweeb and have literally never aspired to anything in life more than to fit in with the popular group of girls/women at school/work/etc.
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>>1401205sounds like the current beauty standard for men tbh
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>>1401226>>1401284both of you please go spend some time reflecting on your standards
No. 1401526
>>1401504You're truly a queen
>>1401494Ngl if this was my life I'd definitely be engaging in some form of whoring to get out. Or, lest drastically, a second job. You're prostituting yourself out for a place to stay, doesn't it bother you enough to go find another job or way to make money so you can put this behind you? Don't end up pregnant for that moid.
No. 1401607
>>1401515Because I'm obligated on still paying half of the last "roof over my head" from my ex until that situation is dissolved. Roommates would ask me for money, I cannot afford two rent payments on top of my bills.
And quite frankly, I'd still whore out to a moid because roommates fucking suck and I'm left being the maid with even more retarded rules of other humans to follow every time.
>>1401526I just got done with a several month stint of working two jobs for 60-70 hour weeks. When I got promoted to a salaried leadership position I took a break for sanity.
I know prostitution is a meme but I would still never do it. Not worth it to me professionally, not to mention the risk of violence, blackmail, and even stds if it becomes an irl thing.
At least I can count on the doughman to not mistreat me even if he is a lazy fatty.
No. 1401679
>>1401654Why even go off about roommates when I said I cannot afford a second rent anyway?
If you're going to force unsolicited advice at least try to understand the problem. Why assume I never had roommates before?
>roommates won't expect sex Literally had a roomie try to fuck me when drunk and had another set that dumped their sexual frustrations out on me.
>roommates won't expect you to be the maid and you will only be responsible for your spacesWish this were true in my experiences, but sadly, no. I wound up being the maid, not to mention I enjoy clean spaces and wound up cleaning common areas just so I could use them cause the roomies refused or just would not keep up.
>you won't have to provide emotional supportGods, I wish this were also true in my experience lol.
Working on the better moid game, but we'll see. I appreciate the support on that front.
No. 1401683
>>1401607i have a friend in a very similar situation. She owes money because of her
abusive ex who beat her up and now she's fighting to get some disability money from our goverment for her injuries that are sadly forever and she has trouble working because of it. She now lives with a moid who is much worse than yours so i guess you are lucky that he likes you… so you at least have some peace at home because these two are
toxic as hell together. It's tough to get back on your feet from this, i've been reading about it for two years now…. but you will make it someday so is she. My friend is planning the roommate escape with some nonbinaries she met at mental hospital kek, still better than a worthless moid.
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I still can't watch romances without blushing and covering my eyes when the protagonists are just about to kiss or, god forbid, are kissing. With bed scenes, even if just implied or actually bamboozling you, it's even worse. He touched her cheek and shoulder just now, and maybe more but probably not as this movie is like PG13, and then I couldn't take it anymore and slammed the laptop shut. I needed a few minutes until I could bring myself to open the laptop again and now I'm on lolcow because I'm procrastinating watching the movie. I'm also 23.
No. 1401903
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I honestly think that I could have prevented my sexual abuse/sexual assault, if only I could have listened to my natural instincts and even just tried to kick off or assert a boundary. I've been thinking about it for a while and I obviously don't mean to phrase this in a victim blaming way and I was not forced physically but I was persuaded and guilttripped into things, but I just do genuinely think it could have been prevented if I had more self-esteem, if I had a positive (or any) female role model in my life, or if I hadn't fallen victim to the NLOG-bdsm-pornsick pick me phase that has left me with so many issues regarding sex and the way I perceive myself to this day.
I don't even blame myself for what happened of course, it's not my fault regardless and it's not anyone elses fault if they face something similar, but if I had just really tuned in to my instincts that told me "physically and emotionally, you aren't enjoying this, the only thing you enjoy is the validation you get from him after he degrades you" I would have just ended things there and then and I would probably be in a much healthier spot today. The entire time my body and my subconscious was telling me that something was wrong, that it's not right or acceptable that he ignores you until you cave in to his sexual demands, and I did it anyway when realistically I could have had a chance to stop something.
In a certain way, I feel like I let my 16-18 year old self down, because there was a part of my brain that knew better and knew something was wrong, and even though I was pressured and abused, I chose to ignore it to prioritize the validation from a moid. I also purposely put myself in dangerous or uncomfortable sexual situations for no other reason than what I can describe as "pushing boundaries" or "growing up". I think I just felt like a child or a "prude" as they called me but I do genuinely wish I had stuck with my instincts and just enjoyed being a young girl - enjoying video games, writing and art, listening to music instead of constantly putting my mental and physical health at risk to impress scrotes who don't deserve to be on this planet anyway.
No. 1401911
>>1398624ewwww wtf??????
I'm never having sex
No. 1401929
>>1401903I am so sorry to hear of this, and can identify a whole lot. Especially about convincing yourself you were "pushing boundaries or growing up." I have issues with intimacy right now because of almost the exact same reasons. I feel like I traumatized myself, or, at best, enabled men in traumatizing me simply by never saying no to anything.
Pornsick society, fucked up family dynamics that reinforce misogyny, and the belief that we cannot trust our own instincts – wish it would all go away. It was not your fault, just wanna say that.
No. 1401946
>>1401903I don't know if this going to help, but, the entire world tells women not to listen to their instincts when it come to dangerous men. Everything and everyone tells women to ignore those red flags, to rationalize his bad behavior. It's not that you weren't strong enough, it's that you, as a teenager, didn't have enough life experience to recognize that societal message and push back against it.
>, but I just do genuinely think it could have been prevented if I had more self-esteem, if I had a positive (or any) female role model in my life, or if I hadn't fallen victim to the NLOG-bdsm-pornsick pick Women who have good self-esteem, positive role models and don't do bdsm also fall prey to shitty men. You may have avoid that guy or he may have just switched up tactics until he found one that worked.
No. 1401973
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>>1398569I think it’s super hot when you’re into the scrote but fucking disgusting when you don’t like them that much. Loved it when my ex looked like that but I remember an old situationship looking like picrel and I had to close my eyes every time after kek.
No. 1401985
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>>1398569>>1401973this is so fucking gross. men really are just life support systems for their balls
No. 1402534
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I think the guy with the glasses who keeps doing the "stuck in a dock hickory dickory" trend to be kinda attractive.
Like if he took off his glasses and grew out his hair he would look like a e-boy.
No. 1402547
>>1402542i meant if he grew his hair out or got rid of his glasses he would be cute. Im not the only one who thinks that, check the comments.
Its a shame he is a chav.
No. 1403061
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Seeing this sort of shit scares me, because I feel like conservatives will start to say "It starts with homosexuality, then evolves to transgenderism, so don't tolerate any of it".
No. 1403377
>>1403108Nona i swear we are the same person. I end up typing everything like an essay every single time i try to express an opinion in a nuanced way, like anything longer than 3 sentences.
I also can speak/write/read english pretty well BUT there are some things that i have just refused to learn for no reason.
- how to spell the word diarrhia
-randomly confusing the numbers 8 and 6. When someone ways 86 i have to think if it is 68 or 86 in my head.
-words like "acquire" that are used a lot but ones that i never actually learned the translation of. I swear i keep using it and i just hope it means what i think it means.
No. 1403385
>>1402532Based. The way some people waste food is unbelievable, i even think that about food i see in supermarket bins when they throw away oddly shaped but fine food.
I would do the same anon, as long as you wash it/peel it, legit no issue
No. 1403493
>>14031181. HRT fucks you up and worsens existing health conditions.
2. Those of us who don't live in progressive utopias are harmed by this and the other bullshit encouraged (not just existing on its own, but outright
encouraged) in the west being used to "prove" homophobes right and hamper gay rights on a global level. Maybe you're a first worlder (or just straight), and you don't care, since these things do not affect you. In that case, whatever you have to say on the topic of "harm" just isn't important, no offense.
No. 1403558
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My ex boyfriend had told me he loved me for the first time when he was in the middle of a panic attack. I still cry thinking about it cause I’m fucking retarded.
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>>1403564Same except i play the original sims. The newer ones don’t hit the same i like them robotic and stupid. And the ost is god tier
No. 1403865
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Pardon my edgy menhera teenager nonsense. I used to occasionally fake minor injuries by dressing an imaginary wound on my arm or leg, more rarely my face. I did this whenever I had some unrelated internal pain, sickness, or when I was in a really bad mental state. The body part and size of the bandage thingy varied depending on the intensity of my actual pain. I started doing it so people would cut me some slack since words mean absolutely nothing but a valid external sign of injury even if it's tiny is guaranteed to get you at least some peace. It flips a little switch in their brain. I had to keep it reasonable but I wished I could do it every day because it made my life easier.
I couldn't do it at school because it would have been too easy to figure out since they saw me often, and I hated it. I'm a depressed sperg and my "human impostor" feeling at the time was at its worst and I couldn't handle being seen without make-up because of it, I didn't want others to see my empty face and figure out that I'm not a real person. So when I got a stye in one of my eyes that prevented me from wearing makeup for a while it was quite dramatic. I didn't go to class until it was gone, and when I went outside during that time I patched it up and did the rest of my make-up as usual.
I stopped when I moved back to my parents since it's a small town where everyone knows each other. Anyway, I'm an adult now.
No. 1403876
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I husbandofagged so hard it broke me into normalcy. I got so fed up with only getting joy from a parasocial relationship that I became extremely depressed and completely averse to all fake relationships in my head. Im single again but honestly I’m doing a lot better allowing myself to be sad about it rather than make up fake scenarios. I also am forcing myself to do my hobbies again and I’m getting a lot more fulfillment out of that too.
No. 1404033
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I've never felt pressured by the patriarchy to look pretty. I like it when I look at my reflection and what I see is attractive as much as I like looking at other attractive women. Just satisfyingly fun
No. 1404212
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I hope the nonnas giving the scrote in that thread attention die early (and painlfully preferably)
No. 1404874
>>1404869I think it's worth a try
nonnie! i will probably use a herbal drug called kratom with a sweet recipe to disguise the bitter taste and make sure to associate the good effects with my presence and the abstinence with my absense
>>1404870Of course i will treat my bf nicely. I will be so dedicated to him, i have all sorts of plans to subtly seduce him
No. 1404883
>>1404878i understand your concern, but why do you think it wont work?
>>1404881I'm going to prison for not wanting my future bf to leave me?
>>1404882Im not a troll, im serious, i will try this plan on my future bf
No. 1404909
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I had a sex dream about this fucker last night
why
No. 1404958
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>>1404865I would've said something about this if it wasn't for the amount of certified male moments I've seen encouraged on male websites.
To all
triggered, fake-offended males and hapless pickmes lurking: Know that you are the direct cause of any lack of outrage toward posts like this. Clean your own house first, faggots
No. 1404966
>>1404950i have improved my social skills and i don't have self esteem problems anymore, but i still don't want 3DPD. i bet it feels real special being committed to one husbando for 11 years. i respect you,
nonnie..
No. 1404969
>>1404923Yeah. For the past year or so you'd have to walk on eggshells to not get labeled as a moid/bait/whatever. It's getting better at least but I also think farmers back then would take all moid/troll accusations seriously and didn't even bother reading what the accused anon said and just started attacking. now that most people here have been accused of being a moid at least once now people actually read. The things people would be accused of being a moid were ridiculous too like the anons who were convinced anons who had
abusive boyfriends were trolls acting out abuse fantasy's or the time anons ganged up on some anon who was again lolicon
No. 1404991
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if I ever date a celebrity scrote I want to have the opportunity to "justifiably" murder him and be photographed by the press drenched in his blood
No. 1405397
>>1405386If anything people don't shitpost enough, everything is so dull and serious. However I will say that
>>1405379 is kind of right, a lot of users who don't integrate and it feels like I'm reading the spit up of tumblr/twitter a lot of the time.
No. 1405740
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I want to use crystalcafe more because there's some interesting threads (even if they are slow) but I can't get over anons there posting (spoilered) photos of dead guys from some gay necro forum and calling them hot. Anons here may be petty and mean at times, but some cc anons come off as way more unbalanced.
No. 1405746
>>1405738I don't doubt there is some self-harm and self-loathing mixed up in it as well.
But it's crazy how moids have no sense of dangers and precautions at all.
No. 1405780
>>1405748I've a gay kinda-friend who has shown me how many married straight men are on grindr looking for hook ups the moment their wife is away for a trip. Can accomodate while wife is away! Very blatent. No attempt to dress it up or hide it. No conscience. I don't know who I hate more. 'Straight' men who do that or gay men who are jumping at the opportunity to fuck in some womans bed. My faith in both is fucked now having seen so much of that.
I was in hospital a few years ago. Got talking to a staff member who was a straight married male, father of young kids, he was from the same lil ass town my dad is from so we chatted about that. His home was back in that lil town and he traveled to the city for work. My gay friend visits me while I'm there and who do we come across on grindr looking to raw fuck young men. Face pics up and all.
No. 1405819
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THE TRUTH IS I WANT A BF I GREW UP BEING PROMISED A WHOLESOME FAIRYTALE ENDING BUT THEY'RE ALL FUCKING DISGUSTING COOMERS WHO HATE WOMEN AND IT MAKES ME WANNA ROPE
No. 1405831
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>>1405727Reading their own testimonies is what made me homophobic and I feel 0 guilt about it. I'm only homophobic towards men
No. 1405836
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>>1405727I can't stand them anymore too. I saw so many of them acting like they're oppressed because they're not allowed to donate blood in my country unless they've fully abstained from sex for a semester at least because "muh discrimination!!1!1", and then just a few tweets later or a few irl discussions later they admit that they're fucking other guys than their boyfriends on the side, their boyfriends are also doing this, they're both HIV positive but it's fiiiine because they take prep! They think fucking married men without the wives' knowledge is funny and a symbol of the fight against straight people's homophobia
I wish I were joking and when they hear news about domestic abuse and women being harrassed, raped or beaten up by male relatives or bf/husbands they joke about how "the straights aren't ok lol" or "and yet WE're called the degenerated smh". And they all call themselves feminists at the same time. Yeah I unfortunately know a bunch of gay guys and none of them are mentally healthy or even decent people. I'm so, so glad my latest gay coworker left my company a few months ago, he was a retarded drama queen who wouldn't stop yelling all the time. At my previous job one of them wouldn't shut the fuck up about his sex life, and bragged about making some old salaryman drink his piss in a gay bar, I wanted to throw my computer at him so bad.
The only same sex attracted people I know online and irl who aren't massive degenerates are lesbians and bi women. And even if they were degenerates they'd still be less terrible to be around than the average gay man.
No. 1405839
>>1405833Why do newfags always get mad and resort to
>b-but you're the newfag!Calm down with the iphone images then at least
No. 1405849
>>1405831Life is hard when you have dress up parties/orgies to attend and the other people there aren't saying the exact shit you want to hear. Someone please listen to this mans plight. Sure hes still getting laid but not by every last person there.
This shit is so on par with the whinging that trannies do. Here's your medical treatment, here's your acceptance, nobody is attacking you, sure take the treatment for free, someone else will pay and here are some protections so people can't be outright mean to you… oh even the nice people aren't being nice enough? And someone said they don't want to have sex with you… what a burden to carry. Its the same old shit in two different flavors
No. 1405856
>>1405839Btw
nonny if you're still reading this I apologize if I got hostile with you, it was just weird to be "identified" when I know it can't be me. Anyways my original post was pretty retarded and embarrassing itself so don't worry about it
No. 1405925
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>>1405903i think about ripping my skin way too often, i wish i could look like pic rel
No. 1405993
>>1403266kek thanks for the solidarity but I really meant imagining a scenario where I meet him irl so that scrotes I know personally can watch our relationship grow and seethe that I'm not available and taken by a superior person.
>>1403912I don't feel that strongly about having multiple ones if the person really has that much devotion to give but agree that it's wrong to use the term if it's just lust. Some people are basically casual fans and there are those like us, we are not the same.
No. 1406093
>>1405940Nona you would probably enjoy Oreos dipped in water. Everyone tells me it's gross but soggy cookies are better than dry and if you use water then you still have a clean glass of milk to drink with your cookies or if you are lactose intolerant you can't just still enjoy moist cookie
Also this is my confession, I dip cookies in water.
No. 1406271
>>1406093It's okay
nonny, I use soy orange juice instead of milk for my cereal. I'm shameless about it.
No. 1406641
even though i have a 3D husbando i've never paid for a single thing he's in (been pirating forever tbh) and don't even like about half the stuff he's in. i can never be one of those people who's like "oh i'll watch this garbage just for him" unless it's entertainingly garbage or just moderately bad, plus he's already rich as fuck. i like him as a person, (or i guess his persona because we all know celebs cannot be 100% honest) his looks and specific characters he's done but do not agree with all his decisions and admittedly i go back and forth in my head between eyerolling/wanting to (lightly) make fun of him, to disliking him for being money hungry, to obsessively loving him and getting annoyed if anyone else makes fun of him lol. and crying in bed because his characters aren't real. can't stand being like this tbh, it feels like I betrayed a part of myself. i could've stopped but if i don't have someone to obsess over i go insane.
also kind of dislike the idea that one has to support each and every little thing someone else does "or else you're not a trvuuue fan", I think it's a lot healthier to acknowledge that any famous person is flawed instead or else you're just setting yourself up for disappointment. there are moments, during certain moods, where i do kind of want to go full fangirl mode and get dangerously close to "uwu cinnamonroll"ing but refrain for this exact reason. plus out of embarrassment since this man is almost middle-aged. there were already a few times i saw other fans making a huge deal (in a bad way, like oh noooo how could he) out of more miniscule things he's done that weren't really shocking at all, but i guess from their POV didn't line up with the image they had of him idk.
No. 1406666
I am curious how common the phenomenon of denied wealth is. When I was a child, I had no idea how much wealth my parents had. My dad owns multiple houses, part of an apartment complex, and was a very high level manager of the largest oil refinery in the USA. I was partially aware of this, but it is so mindboggling to me as an adult because how I grew up was so scant. Growing up I was confused because my parents stressed how financially comfortable we were, yet the "poor" families at our church had so much more than we did. I thought poor people were more rich than our family in a weird way, I thought having money meant you had nothing. My dad would only buy cars 10-15 years old and he refused to get them fixed by a mechanic, he always bought the parts and tried to fix it himself. I was bought new clothes only a handful of times in my entire childhood and it was very selective - no tank tops, anything shorter than the knees, etc. Most of the time I just wore oversized, raggedy hand me downs. My dad only bought value brand stuff from the store and we only ate peanut butter sandwiches for lunch my entire childhood. We weren't allowed to watch TV, listen to the radio, go on the internet, etc. My dad's computers were 10 years old and we were allowed 20 minutes only on it if we were allowed to play old MS-DOS games on it as kids. We were only allowed to listen to Christian music and it was also 20-30 years old since "rock music" was considered evil. Obviously, we weren't allowed to have friends even from church, it was too dangerous since those kids had more freedoms than we did. Little things did slip in, like one of my brother's friends gave him his N64 when his friend got a newer console, but it wasn't supposed to happen. My dad made us play Tony Hawk Pro Skater on mute because of the "evil" music. I was so jealous of the kids at church who could go on the internet, make friends, watch TV, listen to music, their parents would buy them trading cards, etc. and I remember my mom would make them meals because they struggled financially or whatever. But I loved going over because I could look at yugioh! cards which were supposedly occult.
I just feel like dogshit because the only real benefit I reaped was going to college on my parents' dime and I know that's a great privilege. I personally feel like a normal childhood is worth the college debt, but I understand my view of that is still biased. I just wished I didn't have to hide listening to the radio or little things like that. I hated explaining to other kids how you couldn't really sneak much past my parents - they checked the modem to see which websites you went on if you tried to sneak that, when I was finally allowed a cellphone (a flip phone in 2014) at the age of 16, they monitored all my messages and calls, like, most kids have "dumb" parents imo in that they can sneak past technology but my dad only allowed in the house what he could control. All of our internet history was monitored when we were allowed that far later in my teenhood and if we tried to disable the trackers, it was programmed in such a way you could not access the internet. Plus, my dad could always check the modem. There's a lot of other crazy stuff my parents put us through, but they claimed time and time again it was normal and that they could do this since they were our parents. I dreamed time and time again of them dying in a fire or in a car crash because I just wanted to be free.
My point is, I feel so sick today because people look at me and tell me they can tell I come from money, but I don't own anything expensive, I shop of F21 and goodwill, I am religiously frugal even though I am trying to stop because I realize it's something pushed on me by my parents, and I'm like…yeah, you don't understand. There was other abuse that went on as well. But I'm just talking about how I feel totally ripped from the world. I wish I went to school and had friends I could see every day. I know I should be happy I'm okay now, but I always feel disconnected. I make money now and I feel unable to move on from how I was raised.
No. 1406783
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When I was 19 I almost joined a cosplay burlesque show and I thank god every day I didn't
No. 1406786
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I'm an average weight. Not quite athletic but I go to the gym 2-3 times a week for some semblance of muscle tone and cardio health. I go hiking often and eat moderately healthy. My mom on the other hand is quite obese. My last ex, after meeting her, started to express mild concerns about my future weight and health. He would say things that implied I had a potential genetic destiny and that I might need to work harder than others to avoid obesity. He was never mean about it nor did he ever make me feel bad about my current weight or fitness. He did, however, accidentally instill a very real fear that I would somehow fall into the same food addicted sedentary life as my mother and slowly become her. Now I'm dating someone who is even more health conscious than my ex and he's going to meet my mom very soon. I'm terrified that after seeing her he'll fear for my future appearance. Both of his parents in their older age are both quite fit and he himself is exceptionally athletic. I already have fears of aging and from too much exposure to 4chan incels I have an ongoing fear that every man is looking to upgrade their girlfriend once they hit the proverbial wall. I feel like he'll view my mother as a window into what the future me will be. I have been eating extra healthy around him and going to the gym more frequently to remind him that I am a health oriented person so when he sees my mom he feels that she is a very separate entity from me. I feel really guilty about this because I love my mother deeply and I don't like the thought of her being judged. Her appearance could be shocking, though, because she has pretty bad lipedema (pic rel)
No. 1406795
>>1406725I've been posting here since 2015, it is unlikely I will stop anytime soon
>>1406751It's not bullshit
>>1406736How is this remotely related to that? Serious question. By I make money, I just mean I make around minimum wage in my area. My entire point is that I wasn't aware of the difference between poor and upper middle class because my experience as an upper middle class kid was so strangely deprived. I was merely curious if anyone else had a weird childhood like that.
No. 1406798
>>1406666I don't know why people are being so weird about this post, it sounds like you had a shitty, somewhat
abusive upbringing. Just because you have money doesn't mean that you should be grateful for the shit they put you through. That being said, I think you misunderstand what wealth and privilege are. Where you buy your clothing or how frugal you are doesn't matter- people can tell you come from money because you have a safety net. That is just something that will always permeate rich kids. It's not a bad thing, though, it's a blessing. You went to college on their dime and there are probably dozens of little things you don't even consciously realize you do because you know you will always have a backup in case things go wrong.
No. 1406879
>>1406666I didn't know that there was a name for it. After my grandmother died I spent a few years with very little money for food. It happened because my parent's marriage was a train wreck. My mum was a violent alcoholic and my dad avoided being at home. He inherited wealth from his parents and had his own businesses. We lived in a huge house that had been beautifully renovated to how my mother wanted it when they were first married. The problem was that he was in complete denial over how bad my mum was. To be fair to him this was partially my grandmother's fault because she refused to acknowledge that my mum was mentally and needed help. Any money he gave her she spent on alcohol which left me to feed myself and take care of my sister with the money he gave me. If I asked him for more money he would tell me that my mum had money or that I could phone him and ask for more if I needed it. If I phoned him during the week, I would get through to his secretary who would pass on a message and then he would never phone me back.
I lived like this for four years until he walked in on me trying to fight off my mum so she couldn't beat my sister. The shock of seeing her try to hurt me broke his delusion. He finally realised that I was always injured and covered in bruises because she had been getting drunk and kicking the shit out of me and he finally understood why I was always asking for extra money.
>>1406798Is it better to grow up in rich family being abused and neglected or is it better to grow up in a poor family being loved and cared for? I have benefited from my parent's wealth, my dad paid for both my sister and me to go to university, he bought my first motorbike and he helped me buy my house. Does this make up for what happened? I'm not sure. Both my sister and I dropped out of university, we both have psychological issues and she lives with me because we're still co-dependent on each other.
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I've fallen for the parasocial relationship trap and crushing hard on a popular streamer, I am fully aware that he is an opportunistic asshole behind the scenes and I shouldn't be attracted to him but average looking scrotes with an unearned amount of confidence are kind of my thing for some odd reason. I'm so embarrassed for being like this at my age to the point I recently unsubscribed to everything related to him. I'm probably just tired of my irl dating life because moids here are so boring and I find it harder and harder to find someone I'm genuinely attracted to or vibe with so idealizing someone across the ocean that doesn't even know I exist is easier.
No. 1406906
>>1406809How is it like that? I never even knew what luxury brands were until I cut contact with my parents. They never bought anything remotely luxurious and they were openly disdainful of that stuff. Everything they bought was 5 years old at least and usually from a reseller. The most expensive stuff they bought for themselves was like Costco basic jeans and t shirts. "Going out to eat" was at McDonald's and our vacations consisted of camping at $10 a day campsites for a weekend. What "rich" experiences do you believe I had aside from attending college? The main reason I have come to these conclusions is because my significant other and the ones I surround myself with did in fact grow up impoverished and yet they had far more experiences than I did growing up. Their parents owned BMWs before the 2008 market collapse, etc. but no one would call them rich.
>>1406798I've been told it's because of my appearance. Not sure what that means exactly since it's not like I own anything expensive. I don't have any jobs related to my dad's industry and I work for a small 5-9 employee family owned company very far away in a small town. I think I act standoffish and cold because I am not used to human contact and maybe that makes me appear snooty. I am sure I do have a safety net if I wanted to reconnect, but I didn't even detail the actual fucked up stuff they did to me, so I'm not really interested. Honestly, I'm uninterested in gaining their wealth. I never enjoyed it as a kid so I guess there is no reason to enjoy it now.
>>1406879My dad did give me a 20 year old car for free as my first car in addition to my college education. I have a 25k inheritance alone from one of my grandmas, but it's just being saved for a house down payment. 2 of my 4 other siblings still live with my parents because imo they're pretty fucked from how my parents raised all of us. They're pretty much incapable of living alone.
No. 1406937
>>1406906Anon it really sounds like people perceive you as wealthy because you don't come across as flashy and if you'v told anyone that your parents payed for your college then usually people think that makes you rich. I read your original post and your childhood very clearly was not normal in the least and def seems
abusive. The anons who simply brushed you off and tried to invalidate you seemed to have only focused on the details about your parents having money and paying for your college are jealous that they weren't afforded that luxury. But for you I know that those anons seem to ignore is that it all came at the price of yours and siblings childhood and adult lives/wellbeing. Hope you and your brothers/sisters can get better, godspeed anon.
No. 1407090
>>1405379I’ve seen the “I respect trans ppl and I don’t feel like arguing about it right now” or respecting themby pronouns in the wild in /ot/
> “they did this” is that two people? Ugh it annoys me and confuses me, even the r tards in the Twitter hate who thought Nikita Dragun should be in a woman’s prison because he’s a tiny manlet with bolted on tits what are they even doing on this site?
No. 1407138
>>1407131have a good trip
nonny!
No. 1407151
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>>1407131Enjoy your trip and this cat
No. 1407860
>>1406786>I'm an average weight.….so in other words, you're verging on fat?
This is sad to me, I always wondered what guy's reaction to meeting some of the currently "curvy" girls around me's moms would be like, but not surprising. Take it as the waking up call it is, keep up what you're doing and get yourself together, and dump him. You'll attract better quality guys along with looking and feeling better.
No. 1407890
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>>1407875Fun fact about crabs, you can get them on your eyelashes. Although every case I've read about was men. They're the ones who usually don't wash their hands all day and rub their eyes.
No. 1407933
>>1407860Scrote alert.
>>1406786Why the fuck would you stay in a relationship with someone who is so vain that they judge the appearance of woman who brought you onto this earth? And then project that onto you? Is moid validation that important to you? Besides, morbid obesity is a disease. It's an addiction like any else.
No. 1407949
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So I broke a glass door and I told my family it was an accidental hand slip, but it was actually in a fit of tard rage meltdown. To be fair, it was actually an accident, I didn't know it was gonna break at all (I thought it was like a car glass) and I kicked it. Tbh it was an wake up call, I've never felt more ogre like. I need to control my anger issues.
No. 1408007
>>1407945ntayrt but my mom is fat (170ish lbs more or less) because of thyroid issues and i've never gotten judged based on what she looks like despite witnessing me not eating as healthy or being as active as I could.
It only takes being slightly below what the average weight is.
No. 1408211
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Whenever I see memes about terrible group project partners I always feel super guilty because I was a garbage partner cause I was extremely depressed and living in a super abusive home, sorry people I went to college with!
No. 1408278
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I confess, I like watching the big bang theory. Its dumb and takes no brain cells to watch and I fancy jim parsons
No. 1408295
>>1408278That's ok, nona. We all have guity pleasures that we should be free to enj-
>I fancy jim parsonsJesus Christ, just rope already if you're feeling that low.
No. 1408297
>>1408211same but I wasn't depressed nor living in an
abusive home, I was just super dumb
No. 1408305
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i think i still don't fully understand how kissing works? growing up i would watch lots of those stupid 'kissing tutorial' video's on youtube. they really helped me a lot, but i'm still a bit unsure about it all.
No. 1408379
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I've been media stalking this guy I went on a few dates with right before I met my now bf. Never really thought about him until now that I've been long distance with my bf for a while. I'm probably just horny but I keep fascinating about that stupid scrote. I just have an obsession with really tall slightly older men. Wouldn't dream of cheating or actually dating them long term. I'm very happy with my relationship, I think I just miss that first few dates energy/ being lusted after by my physical type. I can't tell my friends because I know they've been taught to ignore the fact that women don't act on fleeting hormones like men do. I am a fairly recovered bpdfag but I've kept up a healthy 4+ year relationship so I think I'm on the right track most of the time. Forgive me I have sinned and crave moid attention nonnas
No. 1408427
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I love how hot my laptop gets because it warms my hand up so nicely while I scroll on my little sites. I think it's getting cooked a bit actually because the skin is a bit darker on my warm hand than on my other, normal freezing hand. But it doesn't matter because it feels so nice and toasty and that overrides anything else. Don't talk to me about it being bad for my health because I can't hear you.
No. 1408485
>>1406786he is a piece of shit, and he will hold your mother's appearance over your head for the rest of your relationship the moment you deviate. don't even think about having kids, because he'll be showing you bounce back 5 month programs the moment you come home (a lot of women have incurred permanent damages from trying to exercise too early due to their scrote husbands not understanding the healing process) so rest assured he will be on your case forever.
also, you allegedly love your mother but you would allow a male to pit you two against each other? not saying her being obese is good, sounds unfortunate, but jesus this is incredibly disgusting for anybody to vocalize. would you ever do this to him? doubt.
No. 1408554
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It’s been like two years since I’ve realized how truly evil every man is, not just “a lot of them,” and I was doing very well for a long time and was happy about finding people I could relate with in radical feminism. the last few months, though, every day I wake up to some worse news. every atrocity committed by a man has kind of built up on me like pieces of hay and they never fall off, I just keep getting more and more blackpilled after every woman I see hurt for no reason by a soulless and ugly moid. I’m ashamed that I am so sad when I was doing so well, but I can’t just turn off my empathy. do I need to meet radfems irl so I can truly connect with someone? does it get better or am I going to have a silly solanas moment? AAAAAAAA
No. 1409056
File: 1668447345935.png (136.81 KB, 300x298, jw.png)
>>1408592why racebait? there was a thread where some nonnies were calling brown man ugly and it didnt get marked as a racebait… im just saying the truth they are ugly
No. 1409070
>>1406786Idk anon, I get it that your ex wasn't explicitly rude, and he did choose his words carefully, but why would he say something like that at all? First of all, it's not really nice that he brought attention to your mom's weight imo. Was he genuinely concerned about HER health as well? It's kind of judgy. Plus, like the other anon said, it does sound pretty shallow and also I'd say weirdly controlling. I don't think it's even possible to become _obese_ with your lifestyle, so what's the point in getting worried about that when everything's fine and you don't lie on a couch all day covered in cheetos dust. And even if you do put on some weight because of metabolism slowing down or something, so what? You may or may not do something about it, it's your choice. Would he dump you? He didn't instill this fear of yours accidentally, because he himself was obviously worried about the way you'll look in the future, and wanted to make sure you actually will "work harder". And surely you could see that and it did make you anxious. So now you're worried even about this new guy. Please don't. No one's worth it. I don't think a loving and considerate person would say something like that and make you feel bad about the way your mom looks or the way you allegedly might look in the future.
No. 1409098
File: 1668452789641.jpg (23.24 KB, 500x367, 1584423468241.jpg)
>>1407949You should get a stress ball or something, damn. I know how you feel though I did something similar before. Felt like an animal
No. 1409168
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Everyday I wish I lived in a reality where alternative rock bands with pretty boy frontmen were still a thing so I could experience the ecstasy you see in concert recordings from the 90s I'm pretty sure it would be a religious experience
No. 1409191
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>>1409168On the other hand, this way you save yourself the heartbreak of how fleeting their attractiveness is. Just look at poor MCR/Gerald nonnies.
No. 1409209
>>1409168I've been thinking this myself for years now.
>>1409191I saw Damon Albarn live at a Gorillaz show recently and he was very attractive still. He was on drugs though lol
No. 1409454
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I am stealthy getting my fiancé to look and possibly act more like markiplier. I convinced him to grow out his hair and encouraged him to switch to wearing contacts when he brought it up. I put on every single on of Markiplier's videos for us to watch together whenever he uploads in hopes that maybe he will subconsciously adapt some of his mannerisms (he's the only youtuber we really watch). If I could convince him to rp as Markiplier in bed I would but i'm not unhinged enough to actually tell him about this so I just let it stay a fantasy for the most part.
No. 1409476
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I am trying to become a vtuber because i am lonely and need someone to talk to
No. 1409554
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I like to pretend to be a femcel online, it started because I have body dysmorphia but now I just do it for fun.
No. 1409757
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I get crushes on people I find on the internet. I find random websites which require login and I'll stalk their profile and posts for a while and get to know them, their opinions, what they like, basically as much as their personality I can gauge from their posts as possible and I write it down in a txt. When I have everything written down I like to visualize how I imagine they look irl. this is too shameful and embarrassing to leave unspoilered - I imagine myself in romantic scenarios with them, like going on dates, listening to what I imagine would be their favourite music, etc. I almost never interact with these people because I'm afraid they'll know I stalk their posts and will delete them or block me. Usually they've revealed their voice or part of their face/a body part like a hand, arm or something and that makes it easier to imagine them. My crush right now is a guy who posts song covers and has a genuinely good singing voice. He's really funny too and likes cats and has a similar music taste as me. I know that this is weird and I'm ashamed of it. Please anynonny tell me I'm not alone in doing this.
No. 1409785
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>>1409378>I'm the ariasposterme too now since I've saved so many of these gems, thank you for your service
No. 1409864
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>>1409757i do the exact same thing. but honestly im not really interested in being in relationships with them, just from afar
however i do fantasize just the same, i cant help it kekjust this year i stalked some random girl i tracked down from a youtube cideo uploaded in 2008, and then i found her livejournal from looking up part of her name which led me to her myspace and lastly, her tumblr which i still have multiple tabs open of, her new instagram youtube and facebook.
im really happy she's still weird. i even still have bookmarks of girls i stalked before in case i want to revisit.
i like to learn as much as possible about a person and i make it a mission to and a daily challenge. i like to see how much i can find and how many they left of themselves on the internet to stay forever, how people change and develop tastes and pinpointing exactly when that happens, learning about their interests, enjoying them myself, archiving them…
i never have any real romantic intent nor ever any malicious intent, often times i dont even really care about the person emotionally but more as a character. i just find it fun. sometimes i discover cool things i would have never found myself or come to realizations i also wouldnt have thought of myself.
i also stalked some random older guy from my school this same way when i was in middle school and it was my most fun year i've ever lived to be honest. obviously that's different because it extended to real life in a real space, but i still found it fun to find what he's left when he was younger etc.
No. 1409906
File: 1668516162812.jpg (33.88 KB, 564x564, carrie.jpg)
>>1409264Thanks nonna. I've been obsessed with female rage lately, I wish more women would let themselves be consumed by it.
No. 1409934
>>1409587Yeah. Any incel I've ever met was either a moid who quite literally expected women to show up at his doorstep, wanted models and ignored homely women that would message him, or antisocial tards who think they don't have a girlfriend because women are evil and not because they haven't talked to a female who wasn't a 12 yr old with an anime picture for the past months
This is all not including the "incels" I knew who ended up having relationships anyway and just wanted to circlejerk about how hard it is to cheat
No. 1409936
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>>1409912Stop saging this isn’t pt you blubberibg fucking retard
(male/tranny) No. 1409940
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>>1409936I sage practically all my posts and will keep doing it.
(stop responding to xy posters or bait) No. 1410601
>>1410498didn't find out he was weird until after he seduced me
>>1410560he was actually pretty clean. even his dick
No. 1410900
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guy i thought was cute once takes the same morning bus as me. seems to be a med student because where he dropped off was in front of a med university, but im not sure because people from my uni also drop off at that stop to get to another point of entry… that street is also translates to something to the sense of Knowledge Street due to most unis being located there…. guess i'll just wait and find out. anyway he didn't notice me both times thank god and i'm not planning to ever talk to him either. i just like to watch and know things just to know them.
No. 1411091
>>1411090Denmark, Norway and Sweden aren't islands.
Vikings pillaged because they were scrotes.
No. 1411151
File: 1668613521254.jpg (200.32 KB, 1052x1041, 6df8ce7032.jpg)
I have penis envy but it’s for the male metabolism.
No. 1411846
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I like to look at 70's/80's/90's yearbook photos and fantasize about dating some of the guys, or i sometimes use their likeness for drawing. I wish men werent so ugly when i was a teen and now, i specially like nerdy guys and they peaked in the 80's and late 70's.
No. 1411985
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>>1411864I agree mostly kek. I only have a nostril ring and navel piercing now for this reason, I think there is a limit before you just end up looking scruffy if you're not a goth or anything. I used to have more when I was 18 and looked crusty as hell, I also look at anyone with lots of piercings especially facial ones and I just know they don't scrub their face properly because most of the time they don't and they're always smokers too.
My bf's sister has piercings like picrel except she's got like 4 more around her mouth - yet strangely no piercings anywhere else - and I just get physically repulsed by her. She's not even alternative or goth or anything so it just looks so jarring and inconsistent, and some of the piercings have fucked up her teeth and she just looks really stinky kek - from a certain distance it also just looks like she has a lot of warts around her mouth or something. No idea why people get so many in one certain spot - it looks way better if you balance them around your face or body instead.
No. 1412078
File: 1668696229922.jpg (Spoiler Image,488.22 KB, 2000x2000, [21-11-07] 1457426264029995013…)
I downloaded tfiddlers art to study it and i think its slowly turning me into a furfag
No. 1412091
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I want to confess that i hate fat people. I sometimes get reels or fitness posts suggested of “fat”(I’m exaggerating) people giving tips. Example this girl saying if you do this work out you burn 400 csls in 30 minutes and shows her results at the end. I’m thinking, then why are you still so fat? You have to see her behind. I know it’s straight up mean but… i also don’t care.
There is also a video of a girl showing her “normal” body snd how she is considered obese in korea. She is fat. And the people in the comments are only praising her and obviously the comments are limited kek
No. 1412099
>>1412091you're clearly experiencing a eating disorder, i used to be like this and i used to feel so angry with any other type of body that wouldn't fit my standards.
please, seek help, from the bottom of my heart i wish you well, i promise you there's happiness on the other side (i'm saying this as someone who used to be 70lbs and almost died of heart failure).
the hate you feel its just you projecting your hatred for yourself on others, be aware of this because this behavior will only hurt yourself more and more.
wish you the best, nonna
No. 1412140
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I tuck in my 2 plushies before I leave for work. I get very upset if it's cold and I don't tuck them in, I think it's cruel leave them out in the cold. At night, I only sleep holding one (the other has tears in the fabric and I keep forgetting to sew her up) and the other one sleeps on the pillow next to my head and I tuck her into a separate blanket so she isn't cold.
In the summer time I leave them sleeping on my pillow without a blanket because then they would be too hot.
No. 1412394
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I kind of want to buy this because it looks like it would just be comfy. I don't think anyone would believe me if I told them I bought it for comfort as opposed to being a lonely bitch (I am fine being single I swear kek).
No. 1412401
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>>1412394I feel u anon. I want one of these to sleep with because it looks comfy.
No. 1412498
>>1412091I notice the "hate" that men and women have for fat people almost ALWAYS is the most targeted and vicious against FAT WOMEN. I can think of very few times where I've seen a person go on a rant about fat "people" and it not end up being mostly about fat women.
There's a trend in thos. Especially when men have ZERO excuse to even be fat. I don't see fat men getting the same random targeted hate that fat women get. I'm going to get screamed at but think about it.
No. 1412582
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I am incredibly physically attracted to my bf, but sometimes when we lie in bed cuddling after sex with the lights off so it's a bit dark, he looks strikingly similar to Lenin. I'm not sure how I feel about it.
No. 1412633
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>>1412582Young Stalin, though. Liquidate me.
No. 1412674
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>>1412091She looks good to me. Especially in America. I have two coworkers who are an actual fire hazard in how fat they are so they are resigned to not trying to leave until everyone else is gone if the building is burning because they would block the stairwell.
No. 1412679
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>>1412633He had noticeable pox scars since he was a child and images from the past of political figures were often retouched to make them more physically appealing. He never looked like what you posted.
No. 1412696
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It's almost 5 PM! Time for me to put on "real" clothes to greet my nigel when he gets home, so I can pretend I wasn't just laying around all day in sweatpants like a useless fucking gremlin shitposting on lolcow all day. *~SHOWTIME!~*
No. 1412720
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>>1412696literally me in a few years, unless he wants to have kids.
No. 1413188
For growing up poor white trash and having zero talent, I'm a massive snob. Or maybe it's a consequence of growing up poor, when I get my hands on good ingredients for once or good stuff in general I flip my shit if someone wants to ruin it. Just because you have nuked your tongue with high sugar, high salt, and cheap hot sauce or literally add peanut butter to every meal (including pasta) doesn't mean you get to ruin my heirloom tomatoes. I don't think I'm a particularly good cook though. I also shit on a lot of books, art or music even though my own taste is questionable, I'd be a bad writer, only do shitty art for fun in private and I'm a failed musician. I guess that is my only talent, being a hater. Inspection, compliance, due diligence and audits are my jam.
No. 1413215
>>1413188I feel this in my soul
nonnie. ♥
Grew up missing meals and being poor as shit. I’ve been cooking so much rich delicious food with fresh ingredients. Feels bad but I tried to eat my mothers food at the holidays last year and it was just all butter, sugar, and salt. It honestly shocked me because I used to love it so much as a child on the few times we got to have a real holiday dinner, but it honestly difficult to eat.
No. 1413250
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There's this disgusting taste I can't rid of. No one else knows, or can relate to this in real life, so I'll post here.
Currently I'm working and I thought of having some Vinesauce videos in the background. It has been sometime since I watched Vinny, so it's a good excuse to start getting into him again. I had a crush on him at some point, and still thought that he was kind of cute. So, I'm kind of half watching, half listening as I do my work. Then autoplay begins his MRE pizza video and I just happen to glance at it. Not only did Vinny get an unfortunate haircut, but I came to the realization that he looks similar to my cheating ex boyfriend. They have a similar lower face, with the same lips, same nose, and nostril shape. Any sort of crush I had left rotted away when I noticed that and now I feel really…ugh. What the fuck. I used to REALLY like vinesauce and even now when I'm not even into him, and I'm over my ex, this happens. I just wanted to laugh man.
No. 1413280
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>>1413188>>1413215my nonnies! I feel this as well, especially since I've discovered cooking as a hobby, I'm no expert but it saddens me to know how much I've missed out as a kid/teen when my mum used to cook for us because it was all pre-packaged junk food, only with a few fresh veggies thrown here and there bc she admitted to be "too lazy for it". I was super fat as a kid, but even then my mum did not change her habit of how to cook. Everything was loaded with salt, fat and sugar. Now when I cook I get so excited about trying new recipe, spices and ingredients, it makes me genuinely happy.
No. 1413401
>>1413215>>1413280Original snob cook anon, I made truffle risotto and pastas once, with good fresh ingredients, but people have wanted to add peanut butter, cheap hot sauce, heaps of butter, or a jar of sweet sour sauce. I honestly felt offended and like I was dining with uncultured swines (bit dramatic maybe). At first I didn't even realize how bad my family's and other people's cooking was, but having the freedom to try my own recipes, having access to more spices and ingredients has been a joy. It's just jarring how unhealthily and processed they eat and even if they get a relatively expensive dish in front of their noses they will still want to add weird stuff to it like peanut butter to pastas. And good dishes don't even have to be expensive or too labor intensive to make. I just can't go back to the cooking potatoes, pasta rice and adding a mystery jar of sauce with lots of sugar, salt and butter to compensate, with a random can of vegetables which don't make sense to add, a black charred protein, no coordination style of cooking or eat any of that.
No. 1413464
husbandofagging derailed my life, kind of.
i was in a bad place anyway and this was exacerbated by some weird shit that was happening around me, basically i had started uni and went to great efforts in trying to be a normie with no interests in anything that other people hadn't heard of, went partying all the time, tried to be social, but a few months in i was exhausted by it. i stopped going to class and completely upturned my sleeping schedule, so i slept all day and was awake all night. i'd stay in my dorms during break telling myself i'd catch up on missed classes but instead i just continued to do fuck all and went probably 8 weeks without speaking to a single other person. my room was full of garbage, i lost 10 kilos because all i ate was vending machine snacks.
instead of doing anything useful my life was consumed by a particular otome game. i won't name it because it's bad, but i'd be surprised if anyone here would have heard of it, since it's an old untranslated game that was never popular and was poorly recieved when it came out. but i was fixated with one of the love interests. this game had very little bonus content or anything and it was hard to find and download anyway but i went trawling through chinese pirate sites to find a working link to anything related to it. mostly i just read through this guy's route constantly. i would read through the whole thing about once a week, and in between reread my favorite scenes, often rereading them multiple times a day. i could probably recite the lines of this route off the top of my head even now. when i was away from the computer on the rare times i went grocery shopping, my mind would be totally occupied with this b-tier character from a d-tier otome game. when i went to sleep i'd always be thinking up cute or erotic scenarios featuring him. i also became obsessed with his voice actor and repeatedly watched any cast events i could, over and over, again sometimes the same one multiple times in a day. my hard drive is full of rambling essays i wrote about the game and the character. even then i knew the game was badly written but this didn't seem to dampen my obsession at all, the essays were full of criticisms and takedowns of parts i didn't like. this phase lasted around 6 months.
anyway i ended up dropping out of uni and was a neet for 2 years. i'm not a neet any more, but my social abilities never recovered. thinking back on this era of my life makes me both cringe and severely doubt my sanity, and ever since i've always been extremely cautious about starting anything ambitious in case i lose it like this again.
i've never had the courage to revisit the game itself. i feel like it would genuinely cause damage to my mental health to remember too much from that period. funny thing is i never even finished the game, i only played like half the routes.
No. 1413713
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Anon with the Lenin bf here. I just remembered, I once told my ex bf he looked a little bit like Steve Buscemi (he kind of did) and I- I don't know how I thought that conversation would go over but all I can say is my intentions were noble. This is why having a bf who looks like Lenin is so hard. The three year old inside me wants to tell him, but I've already broken one man's heart.
No. 1414160
>>1414146if you’re a woman please don’t (trannies not included)
I’ve been there many times and I’m genuinely so glad I didn’t succeed and I was able to find happiness. it will come to you