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Just tell the truth, it's safe here
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I made a hole new thread to tell you you are wrong. It's safe to bathe in bleach as long as you have enough water and don't use too much bleach.
I've been bathing in bleach for 5 years and Only do it when i'm really stinky, no issues ever. If you have a issue with it take it up with you and your god, I'm fine and super clean
i didn't do anything with tampons (I don't use them), but i told my story last confessions thread and was very judged.
Nothing wrong with bathing in bleach and nonnies would smell better if they did. Cry about it nonnies
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>>1476964>this is a no judgement zone
I noticed you didn't deny this >>1476953
so you shall be known as Bleach Bather the Bagpoop Smasher
because at least I admit my faults and i live on the wild side and Played
with poop in a bag, I wasn't in the best of minds. Bathing in bleach is amazing and benefitucal and i'm only mad at judgement for that because there's nothing wrong with it, just reasearch and do i tht right way. I smell great and everyine tells me that so, i don't care
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My mom isn't a bad person but we have a rocky relationship. I have a bad habit of picking fights with her by provoking her which usually ends up with both of us screaming and one of us crying. It's not that she was neglectful when I was growing up but we did have some communication issues and it was hard for me to open up about anything to her when I was a child and teenager. I still have some resentment over it which I know I shouldn't, and in my own twisted mind these fights is my way of coping with it. It's like I refuse to have a normal relationship with her since I couldn't have it growing up. I feel guilty for doing this. She really doesn't deserve it
I just clicked one with a pretty woman and she's in jail for fucking a minor and I just fucking started what the heck, was not expecting that shit. I love the ones where scrotes are like>I love rock climbing,swimming, poetry, i'm a muslim and I love cats>See their crime!>Literally killed someone
Or the more aggressive ones that you know the scrote did something horrible because it starts with, "I know people-" or something defensive.
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Yesterday I saw a taller goth girl she was so pretty and soft. I watched her from a distance but i thought she was very cool. The hoodie, the messy hair, the logo of indecipherable metal band, the platform docs…
Im a spicy straight and best, and I know this but for a minute my face was hot and I just kept thinking about us cuddling in a papa san listening to ambient metal and cats were happy and we are happy.
I didn't approach her but a part of me wish I did. Im always on the cusp of action but now i am older and I feel like a fool for considering the very possibility to try now.
Also, I didnt want to approach her because we all just wanna grab food and go home. Im sure she gets hit on constantly in public.
Anywho, if she happens to lurk here Im sorry for staring and I think youre lovely and youve inspired me to up my grocery shopping game….. just incase idk… ok.. bye..
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okay my last response, some of you nona's are DENSE, I use this, and only 1/4 (measured) in a BATHtub FULL OF WATER, i USE DOVE SOAP and I also scrub myself, I do not fucking stink or smell of bleach! You can barely smell it but you can see and smell the results, do the extra smell masking it gives people. I wish i said nothng
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huh, the water isn't hot enough for the bleach to explode, 1, and 2 you cannot smell it. I do not do it OFTEN, I do it once maybe twice a month to do a deep clean,I soak, I scrub and I clean off in the shower with my normal cloeaning things like, Dove soap or zest soap. I do not have brain damage, I just drank a lot of coffee and I'm jittery. PLus I'm annoyed I won't lie, because it's embrassing (the poop part but I still stand by, that I'm free minded and i'm creative and it's funny not something to hate on me for). I do not want nonas to think you can be all crazy with the bleach. NO measure it out, keep the water running and then put it in a bath of water. Or just don't do it.
I don't care I smell great and i've lived 28 years
im black and I do not wash my hair with bleach nor do I wash my hair everytime I shower. When I wash my hair I use the proper things, such as shampoo's conditioners and the like.
My mother used bleach, it's not enough to harm ME, I will not promote it anymore because that other nona's right, I do not want to cause harm to anynona, but i know how to do it and I do not do it a lot and I keep the water running
….no, of course it won’t explode. Vapors form when a substance is heated (like when you boil water and water vapor forms over the pot). You should not mix hot water and bleach as it forms chlorine gas that will harm your lungs.
Clorox does not recommend bathing in bleach btw https://www.clorox.com/learn/can-you-put-bleach-in-bath-water/
Nta but I'm in your corner nonnie
. Heavily diluted bleach baths are a pretty old way to deal with body acne. I used to do them like once every week or so in high school.
Hot water inactivates bleach, of course it won't explode. You're probably not hurting your skin but it still is pretty stupid to add bleach to your baths, although if you're playing with your shit you might need it..
Anyway all you need is soap/bodywash and a good exfoliating rag or brush.
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I’m too scared to lose my virginity to my boyfriend, to the point where he probably thinks I’m asexual, but I’m insanely horny for him and so desperate to see him naked that I was extremely tempted to “”accidentally”” walk in on him in the bathroom/shower when we were on vacation together. Only reason I didn’t do it was because I thought it would ruin the moment when we do have sex.
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my sister in law is a NEET drain on society. her mom nepotismed her into a job that she's managed to keep despite doing poorly at it and calling off for stupid reasons. she went from a blank resume to a supervisory position she has no reason to be in, which is why she does poorly. the moment she got money, she made sure everyone knew without offering to spend a dime on anyone else. she was essentially given a house by her mother, only to turn it into a hoarder wreck that required a professional cleaner within a few years. she's extremely obese because she's lazy with no self control and doesn't know how to cook more than microwave meals, so she orders delivery constantly. she also takes such poor care of herself that she's been told by her parents to get back in and take a second shower immediately after getting out of one. she's so filthy that we got bedbugs from her luggage on the opposite end of a family member's house we stayed in together for a single weekend. she's so prohibitively gross because of this that she only has internet friends, because it's actually difficult to be in her physical presence. despite her good job, she put herself into debt donating to video game streamers (like the wife of alfredo from achievement hunter lol) and was summarily bailed out by her mother.
she tried to kill herself recently by taking a couple bottles of pills, but pussied out and had her mother call 911. she was stomach pumped and has no lasting damage. between money and mommy, she kept her job, got bailed out of debt, and got her house professionally cleaned. she learned nothing and suffered no consequences. i wish she would have succeeded because she's a lost cause and 100% going to backslide and put herself right back into that same situation. it would have been quicker and less painless and less expensive for her poor mother if she'd just died. i hope next time, it's the first thing in her whole life she finds the commitment to see through to the end
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she is definitely a woman, born as and identifying as (unfortunately, she's an embarrassment to our gender). she donates to a lot of streamers, mostly achievement hunter, but that one's just the saddest. who simps for the wife of a D-teamer? my husband followed her on twitch back when they were younger and creeped her activity for a while because we were being shady tbh, so we saw stuff like her donating $500 in free subs for alfredo's wife lol. her mom confirmed that she was in what sounded like a shocking amount of debt. she doesn't leave the house (doesn't drive, never wanted to, can afford ubers aplenty though) and has no IRL friends so all her money goes to ubereats and streamers she has parasocial obsessions with. i know this stuff because she's a personal lolcow and i would have just put it in that thread, but admitting i hoped she successfully killed herself and hoping she succeeds when she inevitably tries it again is pretty fucking dark lol
she's on a lot of forms of social media, including twitch, and uses almost the same handle for everything, all the way back to her teenage email account. i've considered many times posting her @ on here or trolling her off her favorite corners of the internet, ngl. it'd be too easily traced back to me, though. if im still feeling bitter later, ill make a post in the personal lolcow thread so i stop shitting up this one, because boy is there a lot more, like how she bought rats (and later gerbils/hamsters/mice) because she's a huge, unironic emilie autumn fan and all that plague rat aesthetic bullshit. she didn't clean any of their cages because she's lazy as fuck, which you could smell from the front door of the apartment her dad let her live in (rent free) with him. they all died either from respiratory issues or because they got open sores that got infected because their cages were so filthy. the animal would die and she'd put a new animal in it without ever cleaning it. her dad kept giving her money for it at first because he thought they were cute, but trickled down (hence cheaper rodents) into stopping when he realized she just killed all of them. bitch is the filth lord of rodent hell.
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Looking at pictures of my husbandos helps me a lot, but I'm worried about the day I will actually try to kill myself. I just don't want to bother anyone, and I know that trying to kill myself would only make things more difficult. But I have the urge every single day, it has been like this for so long, I think one day I won't be able to handle this and will just kill myself somehow.
I don't know what to do, I'm not really depressed anyways, I can get out of the bed and whatnot, but I'm always a mess, I never do things right, I'm not trustworthy, I don't have money to go to some therapist and tbh, I don't even know if visiting a psychiatrist/psychologist would even be of help at all, like what am I supposed to get out of it? I can already talk online about my issues, what can a psychologist even do? If they were that great, then my cousin would have a job and my uncle wouldn't have had became an alcoholic or would've stopped being an alcoholic.
I just wish, every single day, that I wake up with cancer, or that I get a heart attack or a stroke in my sleep so I don't have to wake up again.
yeah, i dont even care for that kind of pet and i felt terrible for those poor rodents. i remember her showing me one with a big infected sore on its leg because she wanted pity because it was going to die and she'd be sad about it, when really she was playing it up because she was upset that her dad had drawn the line and wasn't buying her any more. she was like mid 20s, in case you mistake her attitude for as teenage as it sounds.>>1477291
definitely not. she's just the epitome of a NEET and a total female neckbeard. she tries to be quirky and different and NLOG by acting obstinate and difficult and oppositional. she's a fat, ugly wallflower that never got attention and refused to learn social skills to compensate, so she's permanently stuck in immature edgelord land and now can't figure out how to make social connections when there's nothing appealing about her. she has to have parasocial relationships with streamers because she's given up on being appealing to anyone.
I must be ovulating too because it makes me have really intrusive scroty tier thoughts I wouldn't usually have during the day like the lady cop smiled at me library and I imagined her taking me in the bathroom and strip searching me for no reason
I also have the urge to pull my eggs put and fry them but that's more cause of the frustration
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i worked in a callcenter for a dating site (popular but no, not tinder). in 3 months there multiple women called me to report abuse from moids on the site. one of my worst calls was a widow woman who was raped by a moid she met there. she had been single a long time, finally tried getting back to dating and went through that on her first and only date there.
my supervisor and coworkers were all moids and they did not give a shit about it. said i was too anxious and shit. anywho, i watched a youtube vid about serial killers in dating sites. and ofc they mentioned a moid from that site. i stopped it and had a panic attack. i hope that woman who called me is doing so much better. i hope she found someone. why is everything so shitty? cried again…
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This meme made me realize I've apparently never had an original experience in my life. 2000s girlies know the horrible cursed memories of being groomed by older men online while using the family computer!
When I'm ovulating I fantasize a lot about getting multiple creampies, sometimes from the same guy, sometimes from a bunch of guys.
I'm talking about hentai tier ridiculously huge creampies, but not to the point of inflation because that's gross.
And after some months ago I've noticed that when I'm ovulating I've been a lot into scaring the guy by telling him that I could get pregnant, but then getting surprised because he actually wants to stay with me.
It's such a retarded and specific fantasy, it's shitty how this could never happen with any irl moids.
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I cut my hair short because I want to be like Akane. I also started excercising because I want to be like Akane. Today I'll go out and look for fabric that matches the dress Akane wears in chapter 51 because I wanna sew a dress inspired by Akane.
The picture is about masturbating with a brush handle on a Skype call for some moid.
I never did it, but there has always been girls who got groomed by moids with videos of their supposedly private calls getting shared everywhere.
Ew that's even worse than what I was thinking.>>1477435
He baited you to look through his profile so he can show off he has a nice life and is already over you.
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If I had a Death Note I would shorten my life span to get shinigami eyes
Based ovulating anon. When I'm ovulating I like to imagine moids beaten and raped kek>>1477392
The virgin degrading creampie ovulating anon vs the chad moid beatings anon
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I want to go to grad school to find a husband
Not really edgy, no one considers moids edgy when they degrade women and do the same thing it's common place so much so that women use degrading language to describe themselves like creampie anon.
The intention isn't edginess I'm just being honest and moids suffering is something we should all venerate and come together as a positive experience to celebrate as a collective. I wouldn't go as far as a-logging over specific real moids but you get my drift.
Samefag, meant to quote >>1477540
but she deleted.
Yeah sorry, I wanted to add the last sentence to make clear that this wasn't in any way political like it maybe would be nowadays, we just thought it was funny. >>1477542
kek, that should have been put into PSAs back then, sounds like a good way to avoid disgusting groomers.
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enough time has passed for me to admit to myself i thought he was hot
Nta but i'm socially retarded, avoidant and
schizo yet i'm considered very attractive, shit just happens sometimes
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shitty screenshot (my app crashed sorry)
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Wish I couldn’t read
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Men getting scared/crying will never not be hot.
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I really, REALLY want to know how it's going for this anon. That stuff about dog years is mean and weird but she's really going for Heather's sloppy seconds lmao
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Your boo from another time line is mastering astral plane switching, congratz
I don't get horny when I ovulate. Actually I can't even tell when I'm ovulating, am I broken>>1477467
I thought the brush represented the concept of grooming or something, since grooming has two meanings. idk
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oh that one's my favorite. this one too. can i ask why you denied it for so long?
It's as 'deep' as you make of it actually. You don't speak for every person ever and value judgements on value judgements are retarded.
It's the same reason I don't agree with the anti 'nitpicking' rule here. Who decides what constitutes as nitpicking? Who decides what constitutes as 'deep'?. I understand the nitpicking rule though as a baseline level for post quality I but still don't agree with shit like some random determining what's 'deep' and 'not deep' and others to have to mindlessly follow suit of this.
I took a look at his manifest summary and thought he's more interesting than most moid mass spree killers that's for sure, because he has something more going on than just 'brown people bad'.
>Kaczynski argues that most people spend their time engaged in useless pursuits because of technological advances; he calls these "surrogate activities", wherein people strive toward artificial goals, including scientific work, consumption of entertainment, political activism and following sports teams
Which is salient sentiment and has a good point. I don't have much of an idea why he'd criticise scientific pursuits though, lel he was a mathematician but maybe it's elaborated more in his manifesto than this short summary. There was definitely a point here but then I kept reading.
>A significant portion of the document is dedicated to discussing left-wing politics, with Kaczynski attributing many of society's issues to leftists. He defines leftists as "mainly socialists, collectivists, 'politically correct' types, feminists, gay and disability activists, animal rights activists and the like". He believes that over-socialization and feelings of inferiority are primary drivers of leftism, and derides it as "one of the most widespread manifestations of the craziness of our world"
So he's just your run of the mill trad scrote cosplaying as ecofascist/eco anarchist/anarcho primitivist meme. Massively disappointed to see the summary of his overbloated 30k word scrote manifesto was yet again an excuse to shit on human rights especially that of women and somehow fucking animals. Who the fuck gets up in arms about animal rights? And him sperging about and coping/projecting about gay people and women gaining rights and recognizing animals as living sentiments beings claiming they feel inferior lel. Pathetic geriatric moid.
>He also criticizes conservatives, describing them as "fools who whine about the decay of traditional values, yet … enthusiastically support technological progress and economic growth", things he argues have led to this decay
His criticism of conservatives is far lopsided to his excessive hatred of women having a voice. His 'criticism' isn't even critical of conservatist ideology or anything related to conservatives lel, it's just "why don't you care about technology?" "won't someone think of the technology!", sperging. So the gist of it is he's a piece of shit typical attention seeking scrote sperging about technology and other people and animals who don't look like him/are unferserving in his superior moid opinion of gaining human rights.
TLDR; He's your run of the mill moid.
*Sentient beings, and autistic spelling mistakes fuck autocorrect>>1477942>>1478014>>1477970
Samefag but I'm disgusted in the amount of anons actually agreeing with this geriatric frumpy faced scrote. I'm curious if you are all downplaying and purposely being non critical of the actual weight of the words he's spewing and internalizing the shit because you 'feel inferior' like he claims you are like the gas lighting, projecting old moid that he is.
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Haters gonna hate but my ex bf cheated on me and left me for another woman.
She taunted me during the separation. I sent falsified screenshots of her calling someone a nigger to her nursing university and she got kicked out.
I still don’t feel like we are even.
I feel deep shame and regret knowing there's cp of thousands of women including myself out there. Shit makes you feel worthless for life. We were children. I hate scrotes so much.
And if a scrote knew he'd hate you more for doing it.
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Not hating at all this is brilliant anon.
>I sent falsified screenshots of her calling someone a nigger to her nursing university and she got kicked out.
Isn't there a meme about how girls who were bullies at school become roles/future jobs suitable for empathetic, caring people like becoming nurses, kek.
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I just turned 30 and I honestly don't feel any different from when I was 20, except I'm less mentally unstable and more confident and independent. I always feel sad when I see women freaking out about aging, I wish I could all tell them that it's okay.
i said SPILL >>1478089
what did you do to the bf?>>1478096
i only see anons saying both were at fault. the bf is worse in comparison though, the new girl wouldn't be around if it weren't for him
I don’t understand the outrage of accusations of bait. When shitty things happen to you and cause you immense suffering do you spineless jellies just bend over and take it? You never give people consequences for fucking you over? Don’t you guys know how to stand up for yourselves?
This was a personal
and devastating demolition of my life coordinated by two shitmunching losers. Their despicable actions cost me tens of thousands of dollars.
Never be a victim
. Always fight back.
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i had a mental breakdown and took a Christian moid’s virginity and now he wants to wife me and i don’t give a shit about him. this is rife with untreated mental illness.
>be me, nonna in college
>massive crush on tall handsome but dorky moid
>we are less than friends but more than acquaintances in the same class, work in same project groups, chat and play games together
>but he has a girlfriend
>also he is Christian and i am not
>throw in the towel, girl code + i don’t have a chance
>OBSESS OVER THIS FUCKING MAN FOR 3 YEARS WITHOUT SPEAKING TO HIM
>for context, and i only know: this is called “limerence” and is very common in people with complex post traumatic stress. it’s actually pretty interesting but it’s fucked up and not an excuse for what i did
>be creepy bitch; join servers i know he’s in under a different account but also find more he is in just by guessing
>check his messages in the servers and read every conversation he has on a near-daily basis
>feel a thrill when i catch him chatting in real-time and get to watch
>find and watch all of his accounts that are under the same name
>the yearning is so painful that i can feel if, physically; no appetite, no desire to do anything else, trouble focusing
>this is what they call “simping” in the biz
>anyway 3 years, have a trauma-related mental breakdown that ends up with me staying with family and taking temporary leave from my career
>still having an episode, so i fucking message him finally even though i know it’s a bad idea
>reel him in easy because stupid moid like pretty girl
>get him to admit how he always wanted to be with me instead even if it was wrong. how pretty i am, dumb pickme shit that i had been imagining for years
>we agree to meet again
>i got hotter after college
>he got fat and has a weird haircut
>eh, disappointing but i’ve craved this lay for so long
>find out he was a virgin at mid-twenties because Christian
>the mentally ill misandrist inside of me takes great pleasure in not only getting what i wanted from this man, but from taking the virginity that bible thumping moids like him care so much about
>go full manipulator
>the dick pretty good so i keep icing him out, then giving him breadcrumbs of attention, then fucking him and icing him out again
>he begins to annoy me more and more because he’s more of an autist than i thought and can’t hold a decent conversation for shit
>i mean if he was still attractive the autism would just be quirky right? that’s how moids think at least
>but he is so clingy, crude, unfunny, and the way he eats and behaves is so… male. i am also just too pretty and successful for him despite being a mentally ill bitch honestly
>he is so kind to me despite being annoying autist, keeps buying me little gifts and truly believes that once i receive help i will be wife material and his family will meet me
>coming out of my menty, sign up for mental health clinic
>no longer limerent, everything about this man except for his dick is repulsive to me
>going to use the clinic as the reason to cut this off after another week or so because i am a fucking coward
i have only been on the receiving end of abuse before in all of my intimate relationships so running away wasn’t difficult after i got tired of it, but this time i am the user/abuser and that’s new. i don’t feel remorse yet, but i know what i did was gross and continues to be gross because i am not being honest and cutting it clean immediately. I’m glad i only did this once before getting mental health treatment and also glad my years-long obsession is over. sucks that he got caught in the cross-fire. i plan to confess all of this to the people treating me so they know it’s gotten to a point where i am victimizing others and i get the help i need so i can stop being a crazy bitch
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i always have to run away either outside of the place or into the safest corner with my ears plugged to deafness when a gas cylinder is being switched or otherwise readjusted. it's actually my biggest fear and even phobia. last summer i had a panic attack because no matter how much i begged my dad to give up on trying to fix this small one we had at our dump of a house he wouldn't and it started spewing the pressure out with a loud noise i genuinely thought we were going to die. even worse when i was younger there used to be commercials where it said to be careful with the small ones as they had higher rates of exploding(?). even just seeing one makes me imagine something going wrong and getting flashes of people's exploded remains/mutilated faces thinking of how to react if i survived, like when i say a truck full of them i imagine it crashing or having other vehicles crash into it causing an explosion. i don't know. they freak me out beyond belief and beyond what should be normal.
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just that if I do it a certain way it's not dangerous
but it's not something they will recommend I do or endorse, just that there's a way to do it and the way I was doing it was
correct. It was a lot.
What do you use? I'm water only and I wash my hair once a week or every week and a half if I can get away with it.
I have a scalp scrubber, wooden comb, and boar bristle brush I use daily as my hair care routine.
My toliet was clogged, I put a plastic bag in the toliet so I could shit and it would'nt continue to clog the toilet. I took the plastic bag out, and tied it up. Out of curiousity and creativity, I touched the poop it was in a bag, it was still warm, i did not physically or mentally "touch" actual poop, just pop in a bag
, I poked it a bit like a stress ball, realized I was being retarded and I stopped.
Thats really it.
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I hope you are here talking about this over and over again until you melt in your bleach bath
Im very confused why I'm getting criticized for using the thread for what it is. I do understand being mocked or told i'm gross, but not, >Why are you confessing in the confessioning thread, I hope you melt in bleach
No self awareness at all.>realized I was being retarded and I stopped
You realized too late anon.
I always wanted to be taller in my case, first when I was a kid to fight off bullies who made fun of me and pushed and hit me for being very short, and then because I found out I was so short because of health issues. For some reason I was almost always surrounded by people way taller than I am, and in my late 20s I'm meeting more and more men and women around my height for some reason (which is actually worrying for men but whatever). Given how skinny I always was despite eating normally I wonder if retarded kids in middle and high school suspected me of being anorexic, given how retarded and rude they were.
>unless you really know how to dress for your height
True, I wear basic shirts or sweaters and the same pairs of jeans almost all the time, and since the one store where I could easily find my size for jeans closed down a few years ago and since my ass got a bit bigger I can't even find jeans anymore. I'm getting used to wearing more dresses now because I can find some basic but good looking ones at Uniqlo.
>wear heels which i hate
I have two pairs of shoes with heels that aren't too high, they're comfortable and look good but I still barely wear them. I mostly wear comfortable sneakers because it's way more convenient.
Lol, me too.
I still feel bad i once had a crush on my sisters boyfriend. But it was a short lived crush, also nobody knows about it, but i still feel bad.
And now this man i have been seeing for sex, cuddles and we are becoming close friends, has a friend that i have been crushing for a sometime. Mainly because, yeah i think he is hotter, but it's shit because he is his friend and i have to see him most of the time and also because the said friend has a wife and a child coming.
But i guess it's a somewhat a habit of mine because i crush easily.
Also i have been smoking weed with this guy i see, even tho i have had past problems with drugs and wrong kind of people. If my parents and siblings find out this and that i use anything - even weed and just occasionally, they will disown me.
Wtf is my problem.
Did you mean to tag this nonnie
I tagged the comment >>1477238
and my first sentence was commenting it since i found it also funny that some people here are 28. The rest of my post was just loser-ish confessions to this thread.
Also sorry about my english skills. It hasn't gotten any better, even after lurking this site for years.
Also deleting and editing this same post since i'm high.
This board is dead as hell don't lie>>1479406
I know, that's the point kek I'm just saying telling autismos to stop posting "out of embarrassment" is counterproductive, let the milk flow
Damn thats an interesting pastime>find an attractive woman >she’s been in jail longer than I’ve been alive
(which includes the smelly hands she left out here kek)
I live with multiple people I don't know who flushed it. >>1479613
I honestly do not get why everything I say in this thread is being picked apart to be so dramatic. I answered the question that was asked when I checked the thread. I'm not defending anything.
I'll laugh at poopchan and there's nothing you can do about it>>1479523
I didn't say she was a cow goddam, her antics are just entertaining to me
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Recently I dreamt that my husbando was voice acting for some movie or tv show or something like that, playing a sexy microwave, and his microwave self tried to seduce me while I was heating something up.
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I have a sixth sense and I'm pretty sure some of my thoughts accidentally doom the universe, but the problem is it never does any good
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Today was traumatizing. So i took two adderall today without eating anything to do my schoolwork and had a coffee from starbucks with it and I cannot describe how weird i felt for the next six hours. I was laser focused but if I wasnt doing school work I'd just stare off into space. I felt like I'd taken it wrong somehow. Anyway way later it's finally wearing off. so I get into the car and I had to fart. I didnt think anything of it and I sharted. First time I ever did that and SHOOK ME TO MY CORE. So I hurry up and jump out of my car to find a bathroom and the door shut behind me…and it locked. My keys were on the dashboard. There was no time to worry about that right now though I needed to get to the bathroom. I tied my hoodie around my waist and headed to the bathroom. Got to the walmart bathroom,absolutely emptied my bowls. Had to call a guy to come get my car unlocked. The unlock button wouldn't work,he couldn't push the little switch under the handle either so I basically had to take the little hook from him and use it to grab my car keys. He had to use a little inflatable pack to crack my car door and because of it my car door is permanently a little cracked like that. Can now hear really annoying whistling while driving. Got home and my stomach was cramping like my intestines were in knots so I said fuck it and popped 2 ibuprofen and took a shower. Felt a lot better until I got up to take my birth control and knocked pepsi all over the painting I was working on. Who the fuck did I piss off? And I know I cant tell anyone about this because they will 100% laugh at me. Worst part is I cant even be mad about it.
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I always thought Nemu was cute and I really liked her art style (when it didn’t involve her disgusting fetishes) I feel bad because she was obviously very porn sick.
Same. I enjoyed her fanart that would imitate the original source.
One thing that still irks me of her porn sick mind was the interacting with minors about stuff that we knew turned her on. The one time she tried explaining to a kid about vomit being normal while the kid wanted her to mark her art nsfw.
I think her being cute was part of the spectacle that made her a lolcow. Like, you wouldn’t expect this otherwise pretty cute girl to openly indulge in such foul fetishes. You expect behavior like that from people who are already outcasts for being ugly and autistic
Also I just realized I own those socks
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Reached a new low today. Wrote fanfiction about two real, existing men assfucking. I got super into it too. Reevaluating my whole retarded life right now. It's so fucking over me, each new kudo I get is like crack too, making me want to write more…
What job did you use your family's money to get, nonnie
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Weird, you must have a NEET doppelganger who angrily seethes here about her sister too.
Good luck nonnie
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I'm not into femdom but I find it so fucking funny to watch.
Then I certainly will! Thanks nonnie
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I am 28 and I fully relapsed on my 13-year-old anachan behavior because my mom said I am getting a double chin (it's fucking genetic) and my father said I would be a fine woman if I grew larger boobs.
Lost 5 kilos since the start of the year, not intending to stop for now.
I just think it's incredibly fucking embarassing at that age. Also hazardous for health or something. I feel like a dumbass teenager again.
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A few days ago I realized that my bf of at least 3 years strongly resembles, in both looks and personality, my favorite anime husbando from my teenage years and I probably subconsciously got together with him because of that
I just really wanted to get this off my chest because I have no one to tell and I don't know if this is considered anything insane.
I met my now fiance before finding radfem beliefs and FDS, before that I was a massive pickme doormat. I did a complete 180 and became more "bitchy" or demanding, basically I wasn't taking shit anymore and had the self respect to put my foot down. We both met when we were really young so we were not very mature honestly. He said hurtful things, I did crazy shit. We have both grown a lot and he is really happy with how I've changed and has even told me I've grown a lot for the better. He pays for almost everything now and tells me he loves taking care of me, I barely have to work. I just work to cover my pets expenses and groceries, he says I should focus on school. He gives me whatever I want, gives me a ton of affection and wants me to be everywhere with him. Tbh it sounds like trying to be a 50/50 pickme actually turned him off because he's a lot happier with me being "demanding" or wanting to be spoiled and whatever. His mom fucking adores me and calls me her daughter and her favourite which helps a lot too. I never expected our relationship to end up like this because I wasn't happy with him a couple years ago. Despite all this I will never fully trust men. I have spyware on his computer and will secretly take his phone while he's sleeping and look through it. I become closer to our friends than him so they have more loyalty to me and they do tell me things he does/say which have been harmless and wholesome so far, like they told me he was gonna propose lmao. I don't feel bad about this and I think every woman should do it. You hear too many stories of a woman thinking her man is perfect and he ends up being some porn watching degenerate.
Sometimes it makes me feel so anxious I want to break up with him but I might as well enjoy it while it lasts. He said I'm his bestfriend and he's mine, we really love eachother and are eachother's firsts. Like all the spying shit I do sounds exhausting but it takes 0 effort on my end and is naturally easy for me. It's just the "what ifs" and "what if he changes after the wedding" fears that wear me out. When lesbian nonnies pity hetties I accept that pity because it fucking blows being a straight woman, it's really a gamble. If this relationship ends I will be celibate. He's the only man I've ever been attracted to so it won't be hard, majority of moids are ugly anyways and if they're mildly attractive they have a repulsive personality. Thanks for reading nonnies
That's true it's nice he believes he has nothing to hide. Curbs the anxiety a bit
Yeah it is a quick download, 5 minutes isn't unreasonable. I am not sure if it's compatible with Mac. Best way to check is to go into the mac equivalent of window's defender or any antivirus programs you have and go into their exclusions to see if any strange files were allowed permission to exist on your computer without getting caught and disabled by the antivirus program.
This one? https://news.cision.com/chalmers/r/low-nutritional-quality-in-vegetarian-meat-substitutes,c3692345
I don't know if it's necessarily BAD for you, just harder to extract nutrition from / not as nutritious. Just like a salad leaf is not BAD for you, it just does not have so much nutritional value. You just have to watch what other stuff you eat, take supplements if needed etc. And if you et both meat and meat substitutes, I think you are fine - people these days eat way too much meat, which also causes health issues. And if you are full vegan, just make sure you eat supplements and nutritious vegetables.
Though I agree it is misleading advertising if the package says "rich in iron" or "better for you than meat" if those are not true. That should be dealt with.
anon no, cows were domesticated
, not made
. like chickens and every other domesticated animal they were bred for specific things and no longer resemble their wild ancestors. you know, like dogs and cats and other domesticated animals. pugs and scottish folds look and act absolutely nothing like wolves or wild cats. the only animal that can really truly become wild again is the pig. even cats can't become fully wild, especially breeds that rely on human companionship. did you just like, miss biology class that talks about domestication and gene manipulation of plants and animals?
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i really like paypal's pay in 4 option for purchases over $30. i can technically afford the things i get outright but spreading out repayments makes me feel a lot better, yes i know that's part of the psych in offering the option - get people spending more overall, just in a manageable way. helpful because i don't overspend regardless.
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I love getting piercings (have more than 10) and tomorrow I'm going to an appointment to get my clitoral hood pierced. I'm so excited.
I have a friend who only pays things in 4 way payments, but is constantly begging for money. I feel like people who cant be responsible to have the money to pay for something right away fall into shitty credit card debt or worse.
It's just smarter to hold off on paying for something if you dont have the money on hand for most material things.
I don't feel bad for him, I do hate how every scrote who harassed him irl acts smug or pretends that it's all) Bob,Barb and Chris's fault. Like only the "malicious" trolls actually hurt Chris. Not the ones bothering him, clearly he believed a lot of the silly fucking shit.
I believe Chris Chan would have fucked up his life and shared it on his own.
You can tell at one point he literally just accepted mostly everything. His life was just full of wacky situations and trolls. I also loathe the scrotes who'd fuck with Chris but then act smug about it or try to "teach" him a lesson. Like that fat girl who seemed to get off on breaking Chris down. It didn't teach him anything the dumb ass never learned.
He wasn't going to stop being a sex pest, man baby and he's mentally ill. They all just wanted to pick at someone below them.
Also, I notice this with scrotes. There was an obviously mentally ill man who was obsessed with sonic and hated Amy. All he did was run his stupid site, make stupid ciders. Mister Metakour found his youtube, a bunch of his fans started to write comments on his personal site. Hilter quotes etc. While Mister Metakour laughed and egged it on. I couldn't help but think how cruel it was.
Imagine being a Autist sharing your shit online and suddenly a bunch of scrotes are trying to make you the new Chris chan. Then if you believe their shit and fall for it, they will watch you ruin your life,pick on you and then when people go to far, wag their fingers. Like, "no stop fucking with MY retard".
Uhh you created this culture. Everyone who interacted with Chris to troll who created that "fuck with Chris " culture.
It's fucked up. Regardless of how shitty Chris is. Chris chan could be funny on his own.
>>1481277>I don’t know how to quit!
Just stop acting like a helpless victim
and stop doing it. You’re not a heroin addict at the mercy of deadly withdrawals, you’re choosing to do all this shit instead of literally anything else you could do with your time because it’s easy, low effort, and all you have to do is sit around being boring as you are now. Get dopamine from the entire wealth of other activities the world has to offer and stop feeding into your obsession by drawing braindead coomershit, get a life and some actually interesting hobbies instead of acting like a lazy retarded animal.
exactly how I am feeling about it. >>1481293
Okay, thanks for the wake up call.
who cares? some of you take lolcow too serious, it's not like it's connected to my real name and face>OMG they call me Blank-Chan on lolcow!! Im going to die
No you just move on and laugh at it eventually. Most "Chans" are only noticed when they are in certain threads or certain topics. They probably talk all over the site without being spotted.
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Eating a delicious slice of cake is more satisfying to me than sex
? What other politics nonnie
? Are you racist?
I feel similar, I feel like I'm 1 of 3 ancap adjacent anons here and seeing some anons claims about political issues got me
going out to touch grass in their honor lol but I hold no ill will for them. >>1481544
Dear lord, racism isn't a political position, it's all over the place some are just more overt than covert.
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this gif has single handedly ruined monster inc for me, now anytime I see anything related to Monster inc(especially with that big blue monster) i can't help but laugh. Sad
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It's a homemade remedy for yeast infeactions. >>1481682
Hopefully you used yogort with lactobacillus and no sugar
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My sister and I have been playing Pokemon since Gameboy color days. We'd always get the opposite versions on release and play and trade together. She likes to think that we always wanted the other version and has always been really happy about this, like it's part of our unique sister bond. The truth is I know her tastes and always knew which one she was going to pick so I'd pick the opposite one on purpose so she'll be happy. Even when we hated each other's guts in high school, I did this. I don't think I'll ever tell her. Just my little secret.
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hey anons. My dad molested me repeatedly when I was 5 (manipulated me into performing oral on him). My mom found out and decided to stay with him (she didn't think she'd be able to raise three kids on her own). I kept a distance from my dad, just kind of treated him like a vase or painting in my house, just kind of there. He never tried to do anything to me since (I have no idea if he hurt other girls, consumed CP, etc, he had a military job and was gone often. All I know is he never did anything to me). The significant part of this post, is that my brothers (one older, one younger) both don't know ANY of this (again, my mom thought in her retard brain that covering it up would be best for her family).
I am now 25, and my brothers are 23 and 28. Should I ever tell them? Maybe after my parents die? Would it be worth it? I am scared thinking of how much my brothers will dote on my elderly parents and how much I will be disgusted by them. I will just seem like a cold, horrible daughter, avoiding my parents while my brothers visit and tend to them. I remember when my grandma died; my dad was sobbing in the pews of that church, and as I sat next to him I just stared. My uncle (my dad's sister's husband, so not blood-related) was sitting in the pew behind us, and afterward he gently suggested that I go on a vacation with my dad or something. He thought I was just a fucking retard, and was trying to help me care about my "poor grieving dad". Fuck what do I do? My brothers really think my dad is a good dad. Maybe I'll leave a note when I die, but the thought of my little brother being haunted by this in his last days is incredibly grim. I love my brothers. Maybe I really have to take this to the grave.
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If you let them know tell them that your mother knew about it but never did anything regarding it. However be prepared that your siblings won't believe you at first and that they might be come angry too since they probably won't be able to reconcile deadbeat dad to lovewable dad
I don’t think there’s any good answer, honestly. I’m also a CSA victim
and it was revealed to the rest of my family when I told a doctor about it and they called child protective services on me and the person they sent did nothing but tell my whole family about it. It’s been tough since then. I got a bit of sympathy, but to be frank, after the little apology I got, my family was mostly concerned with the idea that I could move on and we could be normal again. There was a lot of drama about it, the perpetrator throwing huge fits and literally crying on the floor screaming “so no one will forgive me?!” making it all about him and it didn’t make me feel any better ultimately, just more awkward and angry. Although carrying such a bitter and painful secret is its own form of suffering, especially when everyone keeps trying to get you to act “kinder” or whatever. I only think telling my friends, albeit sort of vaguely, made me feel a bit better, like someone finally actually listened and cared and saw that I had been hurt.
Sometimes I feel like the fact that my family found out what happened means I ruined my family’s happiness permanently. But in the end, it wasn’t me: it was him. It was your dad’s actions that he chose that hurt you, and your mom’s choices to cover it up that hurt you, and if others find out and feel pain and anger, it’s also your parents’ fault, NOT yours.
I guess all I can say is either way it’s painful, but maybe one day you’ll know what the right answer for you is. I think if you’re really close with your brothers and are eventually talking about your relationship with your dad and why you’re not fond of him, maybe you will end up telling them. The loss of their respect for him can be replaced by their sympathy and love for you.
It shouldn’t be your burden to bear your whole life, though in some way it still will be no matter who knows, because the evils have already been committed, and you have already suffered through it. But no matter who you tell—your brothers or not—there should be people, at some point, who you can truly confide in and trust and feel real sympathy and love from. I think that everyone at least deserves for people they love, friends at least, to say “oh my god, I’m so sorry. That was wrong. What they did to you was wrong. The way your parents hurt you never should have happened to you. I’m so sorry. I love you.”
i hate my mother. she's not even a mother in my eyes, she's like a relative in a family you care about their welfare but in no way do i see this woman as a mother to me. im pretty sure im the unwanted child cause my brother is almost 10 years older than me and she babys the fuck out of him even though he's a complete fuck up. i try hard and do well in life and am one of the most successful people in my family, and she doesn't give a fuck at all about me. i asked my family for no money for my birthday, just a piece of household decor. could be cheap, used, new, big, or small. when they wanted more details i said could be anything, a photoframe, knick nack, mirror, art, etc. To pick something that moved them so it would remind me of them when I saw it. I gave them one month notice about what I wanted. Day finally shows up and everyone but my damn mom went out and got something for me. She didn't even get me a card. She just gave me $50 and said I should have just told her what I wanted.
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I believe in my heart of hearts, the day Tucker Carlson loses 25 pounds he will become a hero of the working class and vanguard revolutionary
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when I was younger I used to sit like L in the middle of math class in high school and when the teacher asked what I was doing I argued it helped with my thinking ability and everyone thought I was fucking weirdo.
Goddammit I wanna kill myself…
I haven't had a miscarriage, or if I did I didn't realize because I'm not actively trying for a baby. I also have PCOS so there's a chance I'm infertile. I think it's that mindset you have to be in.
For me, being prepared to have a child is going to be huge for me, mostly because I'll be in my early 30s. I hope the time I find out I'm pregnant, the pregnancy is complete and I won't have to postpone preparing to be a mother in the case of a miscarriage. Like, man, there's a possibility if I keep trying, I might have another miscarriage. I know a couple who's been trying for a baby for I think 3 years now and you can see in her eyes how upset she is she isn't a mother yet. I see many photos of her and her husband around everyone else's children. They could've had a 2 year old child right now, or a 1 year old, but they have nothing but themselves. It's devastating to think of, when I think about it I just hope that doesn't happen between me and my nigel.
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I'm not ashamed of it though
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I don't keep up with celebs so when anons in the celebricows started talking about Sam Smith I thought he was Will Smith's son(who I later found out is named Jayden not Sam) so I got really confused when anons started posting pictures of some white man
Good on you nonnie
, seriously. I hope your life's been good.
Nothing really happened yet, I bought a feminine wash, I'm drinking cranberry juice and I will probably try the yoghurt again>>1481808
Yes, it was unsweetened, natural yoghurt. I don't have a yeast infection but a UTI I think. Trying some home remedies first before going to the doctor
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It actually takes some time to build some muscle strength and after a point it doesn't hurt anymore, that's why asians can do it so casually
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I'll never say this to anyone irl besides the fact they won't get it… but I hold grudges like Chris chan. It's so embarrassing. There's so many people that have done me wrong and ill find a way to relate everything wrong with me back to them. I mull over these things on a daily basis and cant shake it. It's such a bad coping mechanism. I can't forget what they've done and unfortunately there's a piece of my new personality that in one way or another relates back to each one of them and what they did to me. If I had the balls to publicly post a comic book and make these people the villains I would. Good chance I'm also autistic but maybe this is a normal thing people experience. I feel gross .
She's doing it for children
He better be cute, full head of hair and not a dumb animefreak. Good luck!
I have a bit of this going on but mainly just with a couple of my exes. On the outside I appear to have pretty civil break ups and move on well. I don't badmouth people but the reality is I ruminate alot in private. It hits me at night. Sometimes pops up in my dreams. >If I'd never met you then the whole course of my life could've gone in a better direction.. > I wasted good years of my time on a lie >You came in, played nice for a while, screwed me over, gave me trust issues and just fucked off again without a care in the world. Meanwhile you're thriving.
I'm past the processing stage and can only see it as me torturing myself now. Its been too long to still be here. I grew up in a "if you have feelings then you're probably just being dramatic" type of household so I always went out of my way to deny when things affected me. Maybe if I'd just vented more att. Told people what actually went down.. then I might not be in this cycle of resentment. Its alot to be feeling after this much time has passed and I'm old enough that its fully on me to learn how to cope better.
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I’ve been going to this local pizza place so much that
1. They know me by name
2. I get discounts for how often I get pizza
Yes, I am a burger
I have my navel, both nipples, and tongue pierced. I had my nipples pierced twice, I took them out the first time because the piercer did a shit job and I wasn't great on caring for them either. Both times were probably among the worst pain I've ever experienced in my life.
Before you get them you need to know if your body at least tolerates piercings or if you're prone to keloids, if your skin reacts to certain jewelry that's also probably not a good sign. Also don't settle for just any piercer, find someone who takes training and APP certification very seriously. I was very impulsive and got nipple piercings right away, I'm just lucky my body handles piercings well in general. I have this stupid theory that if you're caucasian you're probably more susceptible to complications because your ancestors weren't punching holes in themselves all over kek.
I hope she costs you all of it so you actually have to physically work a day in your life lmao.
I confess that the rich are truly the scum of the earth.
Ignorance doesn't make her a shitty person worthy of her sisters distain. We have no idea what her beliefs are, but she's definitely a person with compassion based on anons post. I'm sure a lot of anons here at one point also thought trannies were uwu totally valid
until other women helped us to see otherwise.
I'm sorry about what you went through. As someone who didn't deal with that though I've always been aware men are the ones who are getting the better end of the stick with sex though. In terms of risk taken versus the rewards. Mostly that they've little risk to worry about.
We're the ones taking on more risk in sex. We're the ones who might get pregnant, the ones who are often left with the job of taking hormones to prevent that, the ones that might need plan b, that might need an abortion, that might go on to have a full pregnancy, childbirth or an ectopic pregnancy that can kill you. We're at higher risk of infections, stis can have more serious outcomes for us and then utis are a less serious but still annoying reality for alot of women after sex. We're waiting for our period to hit and praying it comes. The most likely man to sexually or physically assault a woman is generally a man you've already been intimate with who then feels ownership over you. On top we're less likely to even orgasm at the end of a session. Its men who need to worry about deserving sex. Every woman has a world of worry around sex that men will never fully get. Its not about beauty.
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I feel like Louis Theroux when these "on god I am so EVIL I'm evil maxxing I'm so freaking nihilistic and unresponsive" men talk to me. I play ignorant knowing those guys have big dicks. Give them that blank, but disconcerted expression.
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Update: I trolled a autistic moid on 4chan who is obsessed with his german femanon using google translator. I should feel bad about it but I don't.
Honestly though. It almost feels like men hate women more than ever despite women undeniably doing the most for them than they ever had in history. If you're a mom and dare leave your house without your husband men will bash the everloving shit out of you, give you dirty looks, etc because they assume you're a single mom. Any sort of presence on social media will lead to the entire comment section being spammed with hate by men. They will whine about "ruined" body, "ruined" vagina, and everything else. And for what? Doing the same as every other living species on the planet?
The anons who have the nerve to "act like pregnancy isn't a big deal" like oh sure just tell mothers they're not being as anxious during pregnancy I'm sure that will be so helpful. I'm also failing to see where "anons are acting like it's no big deal" as the baby thread is full of stories or emergency c sections, premature birth, vaginal tearing, etc.
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Holy fucking shit Tucker should grow a beard and stache.
You're right, and whenever someone tries to guiltrip you and say 'you hate other women durrrr muh sisterhood we can never criticize other women for anything because muh patriarchy durrr' you have to know it's just their lizard brain doing mental gymnastics. Humans are literally meat machines programmed to pass on their genes and most people never do any deep introspection and soul searching in order to break the programming, same with any social programming we're subjected to
Genuinely, if there was a button I could push in order to immedietely annihilate all life forms on this planet, I would. A world like this does not deserve to exist. It's not about personal happiness, me or you being perfectly happy in our lives wouldn't change shit, it wouldn't change the general picture. I wish I could just do it, and I don't think that makes me evil or edgy, it would be a mercy kill. People who want to actively perpetuate the existence of this world by creating more children are clinically insane to me.
>>1484264>People who want to actively perpetuate the existence of this world by creating more children are clinically insane to me.
and this is the thing. once you come to that conclusion for yourself, where do you go from there? i said i feel blackpilled bc i do, and im fully aware that since procreation is a biological impulse and also coded into societal norms it doesn't matter how i feel or what i think about it, bc people will keep on having children no matter what. so i just feel stuck with this ethical dilemma where theres no real viable solution. >>1484268
scrotes have such a disgusting mindset surrounding fatherhood. like genuinely in this day and age you'll hear men talking unironically about wanting to spread their genes. i wish theyd put some thought into it for once ffs, considering so many men cite broken homes as the source of their problems youd think theyd know better than to keep continuing the shitty cycle>>1484077
anon it's not like im going up to mothers and being cruel to them. just because I'm personally an antinatalist, i know better than to be horrible to women already presumably going through a lot. but calling me underaged just bc I dont want to support the traditional ideals of motherhood and childbirth is also just a bit silly. I wish we COULD have these discussions more irl without being dismissed as crazy nihilists who just hate humans and don't want people to be happy lol, that is the exact opposite of the case for a lot of people
There is a thread on /snow/ for personal lolcows, if you redact information you can share there without worry about someone tipping. The milk only gets spoiled when there's too many cooks, often the mistake is having someone else harvest 'gross' milk and that harvester will usually tip the cow.
Use codenames for them to reduce any potential negative attention and starve them while sharing their antics, it works best.
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No it's not. Nihilists don't value human suffering and to them life is meaningless, they're also against any form of spirituality. Some aninatalists can be nihilistic but wanting people to die out isn't nihilistic per say. Aninatalists see value in human existence and human suffering specifically, that's why they don't want to bring even more humans t
here. Antinatalism is older than nihilism and is not entirely disconnected from spirituality either. Early christian groups like gnostics, who believed that we live in a fucked up simulation designed to make us suffer, were antinatalists too.
There was a woman attacked, raped and killed in daylight in a park near my house a while back. At midday with people nearby. I was searching twitter for any leaks of the attackers name coz his identity was being withheld on the news. What I got instead was > We need to look out for women if we see signs of a struggle, not tell ourselves its probably a just couple arguing > Men: fuck that, look after yourself, its not my or any mans job to put ourselves in harms way. You really think men owe you..
Nobody ever specified that it was directed at men! or said to jump in. It was 2 women who investigated the sounds of a struggle but were too late. Half the tweets with this murdered womans name in them were men throwing shitfits about how men are forced to be heros and nobody ever thinks about them. wtf is wrong with them
That's all I can think about whenever I see this 'think of the men' shit
im shit at philosophy but i would say that's more existentialiasm or absurdism. nihilism argues it's pointless to seek meaning in life, other branches of philosophy have differing arguments >>1484387
hits the nail on the head that antinatalism isn't about 'wanting the world to die out' (not that the world would die out anyway, considering it was just fine for the tens of millions of years before humanity and will be just fine for the millions of years after we've left, too…), but is more concerned with reducing the amount of suffering in the world. reminds me of how pro-lifers get so caught up in preserving the lives of unborn children but do nothing to reduce the suffering of people who are already here
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I sometimes put on interviews with her on my phone to fall asleep to, I find her voice incredibly soothing
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taking my adhd meds at their prescribed doses makes me so horny it's unreal. this isn't fair i'm single and asocial
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>mom has insane horrific childhood trauma that forces her to completely isolate both of us for my entire childhood up to age 16
>live in the middle of nowhere, literally nothing within biking distance
>no family allowed
>not allowed to see other children outside of school
>wouldn't allow me to learn to drive
>didn't allow me to do sports or after school activities
>inexplicably, gave me unfettered internet access
>not allowed to own anything with a camera in it, fortunately
>absolute freak because my only influence is my mom and she's extremely fucked up from what happened to her
>got a real Lillee Jean and Laur attic-pigeon situation going on
>mom has thoroughly convinced me you have to be a militant atheist and tell everyone at school that you are, even though we're in an extremely small town in an extremely red state
>musicals are cool and not gay
>being gay is awesome and cool
>he's not abusive but he screams at us a lot
>treats my mom like shit
>eventually mom puts her foot down
>he's not allowed to yell at her anymore
>so obviously he yells at me
>tells me how stupid and careless and useless I am
>literally directly in her line of sight but she says she has no memory of it ever happening once
>it was daily
>literally there was a trackable cycle of his anger
>every time he does, she comes and comforts me and tells me she's the only person in the world who will ever love me this much and that she'll always be there for me and as long as she's alive, I'll never be alone and someone will love me
>makes me spend time alone with her husband because she doesn't want to
>doesn't care when we come home and I'm crying or hiding
>instructs me to call him "daddy" and says my first dad didn't care about me and didn't love me and that's why he left and never wants to see me
>won't allow me to call her "mom" or "mother," must call her "mommy"
>loneliness is absolutely magnified in my 20s
>dropped out to start working because she was always screaming about money, and it's my fault we're so poor because I've been type 1 diabetic since I was little
>start community college, just two classes
>mom screaming and panicking constantly about how broke we are
>give up on college, just keep working
>never had my own bank account, all of my paychecks go directly into her account
>tells me I didn't fight her hard enough for my own account so that means I don't actually want one, I'm just saying that I do because I want to hurt her
>getting sicker because I've had diabetes for over 20 years at this point, eventually the health complications are unavoidable
>feet numb and making it difficult to work since I'm stupid and only work manual labor jobs
>mom says I'm lying because I want to hurt her
>says "Oh no, oh it's fine, you don't fucking feel like working so I just have to go and get a second job. No that's fine, why should you ever have to do anything? I'll just let myself fall apart on a second job so you can sit at home all day."
>come to find out eventually when I can't hide it from my doctors anymore that I've developed diabetic neuropathy and blind patches in my eyes
>now she begs me to quit working
>not willing to because I know it's already my fault that our lives are all ruined
>she stops driving me
>I don't know how to drive because I'm stupid
>stepdad won't drive me
>no friends, obviously
>have to quit job
>mom also quits her job, I cannot figure out why
>panic, thinking we're going to be homeless at any moment
>two weeks in, ask mom how we're going to survive like this
>"Oh, daddy makes plenty of money, he can support both of us haha"
>I spent my entire childhood in fear and hating myself because it was all my fault you were always screaming about how destitute we are
>you would not allow me, in my 20s, to have my own bank account for the money I'm earning, I have never seen a cent that I've earned, I have no savings, I have no credit score
>you let me make my disease worse by telling me that I would destroy the family if I quit
>I have nothing
>I am worthless and useless
>I couldn't even fix you
>I gave you everything and it was worth absolutely nothing to you
>I sat and listened to you talk about how all the other kids would die on prom night and I would be going back to an empty school on Monday
>You told me all of my friends in fifth grade were getting raped at the sleepovers they had every weekend and how you were a better mom than all of theirs because you wouldn't let that happen to me
>I gave you everything I had to give and it was utterly worthless
>I gladly let you take everything from me because I thought someday I could make you better by giving you what you want, and I couldn't
>I gave you my happiness, my future, my health, everything, and you gobbled it up with ferocity and demanded more
>you demanded until there was nothing left
>and only then did you finally stop, when there was nothing left to consume
>when I had absolutely no hope left of an escape, you finally calm down
>now all I have to do is listen to your horrific stories and stories that I do not remember from my childhood where you're a hero and tell you everything you still wanna hear
I want to die. I have absolutely nothing. I am completely worthless. She literally told me the reason I was born was so that she could have someone love her unconditionally. All I exist for is her. I'm nothing without her and she made sure I know it. I am completely worthless if I can't make her happy, and I cannot. Nothing I did ever made her better. I listened to everything, I told her everything she wanted to hear, I gave her everything I had. Everything. I am nothing. I am absolutely nothing. I am nothing.
I was never supposed to have a life or be in love. My first kiss was with her. She always made me kiss her on the mouth, in front of kids as often as possible, that belonged to her and she wanted the world to know it. She always made a huge deal about other people not kissing their kids on the mouth. She said they must hate their children and be perversely assigning sexual meaning to kissing. She was always extremely possessive of me sexually. She made me watch softcore tranny porn for the first time shortly after I got diabetes, for some reason. When I was like 4 and under, she would dry my crotch by making me lay down in the floor of the living room splay-legged and she would use a blow dryer. She was extremely thorough. She says a doctor told her to do it to keep my vagina from growing together, but I've asked other women about that and no one knows what the fuck I'm talking about. She says when she was a kid, there was a girl whose vagina grew shut. I don't know how that would lead to a unrelated doctor 20 years later telling her to use a blow-dryer on a toddler's cooter. She also told my gyno when I was 16 that I "always had a meatier vagina."
I don't know, it really does feel like she thought I was an unfeeling object and that I should be happy to sacrifice everything for her
Obviously I'm not allowed to leave, when I was an alone weeaboo loser sack of shit middle schooler, I fantasized about visiting Japan, and she sobbed and clawed at me and begged me, "Pleeeeeease, don't leave meeeee!!!"
I want to kill myself. I hate all of my memories and their will never be good ones. I'm never gonna escape because I'm too poor and stupid. I am unbelievably stupid, I don't know fucking anything. It was hard to pay attention in school, and I had a B in English, so I wasn't allowed to take remedial math, which still doesn't make sense to me, but they said if you can do that well in English, then you can't possibly be this bad at math.
I just got dumber and dumber. And the sicker I got, it got harder and harder to resist her. You have to be grateful, she allows you to live with her. Well I paid her a lot of money, does that count for anything? I gave her literally everything I had to give, does that count for anything?
No, no it doesn't and no it isn't. Worthless. It is all worthless and you may not have done it. You are worthless because now you have nothing left to give. Your future is gone, your health is gone, you don't do cute little dances anymore, you have nothing to give her and are therefore worthless to the whole world, because the only person who even knows you exist is her and you have nothign of value to provide her anymore. Absolutely worthless. You do not need to exist at all anymore. I really wish I could just kill myself, I do not have anything to live for, I am too old for it to ever get better now. I wasted my entire life for absolutely nothing. I wasted everything. It was all useless and pointless. Absolutely worthless.
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By God I'm sorry you went though all that, my mother set up to me fail with her shitty upbringing but even she wasn't this bad
your story is really tragic but can you please explain >She made me watch softcore tranny porn for the first time shortly after I got diabetes
I dunno, writing it down actually does make it seem pretty fucked up.
Yeah, I do. I will most likely live with her until one of us dies. I've been trying for over 3 years to get SSDI, since my body is going rotten, but I was denied last time with one of the judging doctors literally saying, "She's only missing a couple of toes, she's otherwise completely healthy and needs to get back to work."
I am not. I am also going blind and have kidney damage and the numbness is only going to creep further up, but the judge sided with him over three other doctors who agreed that I needed aid.
So I give up. I'm a loser, so I give up. I don't even know if I care anymore really, I guess I do since I'm talking about it, but it also seems pointless to talk about really
I like that image a lot kek>>1485141
Anon, there's nothing wrong with trannies and you should get your child comfortable with all walks of life young so they don't grow up to be evil heinous christian bigots. You should sit your pre-pubescant child down, with her stepdad, to watch a completely normal movie where a man who chopped his penis off gets fucked in the ass by several men who still have penises. So that she can be normal and accept all walks of life, like a normal person. Totally well-adjusted. Not weird. Or if it is weird, weird is good and normal is bad. Now i have to spend the next 6 years saying "Weird is good!" because it's the only way I can think to combat the issue>>1485145
Tbh me being stupid is my fault. A lot of the other shit isn't, but I should have fought harder, I should have tried harder in school, I should have done a ton of shit different and it was stupid not to and I'm stupid for my lack of trying and inexperience.
Well, SSDI was supposed to be where you go when you're down to no other options, but it's pretty normal to get strung along for years, usually 3 years is how long it takes, so I've been told, but I'm over three years now and I don't know why they would care now if they didn't after I had toes amputated and got diagnosed bipolar, which I don't think I have, but none the less, I was diagnosed with it. My attorney says the judge broke the law by holding one doctor's opinion in higher regard than the majority, he said that's why they vote at all, there's not point in voting if the judge can just decide who to side with
So that's going to federal court now, I dunno what that's going to change though
diabetes is a vicious illness that affects every part of you. I know you know this but if you have diabetic neuropathy that means your a1c is probably incredibly high. High and low blood sugars make it hard to concentrate and it negatively affects brain function. I also did poorly in school and I'm also worse at math than my peers because my diabetes was so uncontrolled during my adolescence. I'm so sorry you've lived all of that horrible nightmare.
This might be a bad idea but in your case I do think it is absolutely justified to set up a gofundme. If anyone needed funds to move out and support themself it would be you. You can open a bank account without funds, you just need to find a bank that doesn't require a deposit to open an account.
There has to be something you can do to at least retain sight >>1485147
so she showed you tranny porn so you'd become progressive and see TIMs as real women, what the fuck
Have you thought of making a gofundme at least
Hey, true family kek. Yeah, you're right, during school I was extremely poorly controlled. Like real bad. I was really stressed, is my excuse.
I'm down to 6.5 now, which my doctor says is too low, but I know for a fact that isn't true. I think she mostly sees type 2s, this is a podunk country place. But anyway, it's 6.5 as of December. >>1485163
Yes absolutely, I can keep doing damage control. But the damage that's done is already done and my doctor says with as far as it's all gone, I'm going to keep deteriorating now even if I never fuck up again
I'm not gonna start a gofundme. Most of the people on there who really need it have cancer or Huntington's, I don't have it that bad. I dug my own hole, why should anyone help me out of it? Cuz I don't like my mommy? She lets me live in her garage for free and all I have to do is love her, what kind of ungrateful shitstain would I have to be to pretend like I need to get out so bad, I'll throw her under the bus? To tell everyone in the world my mom is holding me captive? It would probably literally kill her
I won't post about it again, I'm sorry, I just needed to talk about it
>>1485165>the world is better because we reproduced durr>create a problem and then create a solution and pat yourself on the back
Sounds like male logic lol. Besides, in some aspects the world is even worse than it was before, so whatever.
Natural doesn't equal good
You don't know the definition of nihilism, you don't know the history of antinatalism either.
I mean this is literally the first time I've ever had someone say that. I don't talk to anyone and I certainly don't ever bring this up when I do>>1485182
Yeah, maybe. I don't know, I don't think anyone would want to help me. Maybe I will. it makes me feel guilty, worse than the SSDI, but I guess if people willingly donated instead of having tax dollars taken for me, that would technically be less bad. Maybe I should.
Yeah, I got a free disability attorney, (they'll only take $6000 if I win), I have to be real with you though, I don't think it's helping. I've never even met her, I didn't even know her name until two minutes before the judge held the over-the-phone court case, which also feels like it didn't help, none of these people have ever seen me, like they don't even see that my hair is falling out and I'm underweight, which like, I feel like that would have helped my case for as tasteless as it would be
I also still have to do like all of the paperwork, like I have to try to convince each of my doctors to sign forms that say, "This person has limited capacity for work," and wow
do they ever not want to do that shit. My endocrinologist refused to speak to me about it, literally canceled my appointment while I was there in the lobby because of it, she said that there was a sudden family emergency, but she didn't leave the building the entire time I was sitting outside, which was like 45 minutes after that, and the lady behind the counter said, "Don't feel bad, she won't do it for the ones without legs either," which is. Not great. Do not live in the midwest, it is awful.
I believe all parents commit a postponed murder. The most disgusting thing is that basically all parents, even the good ones, think their children "owe" them something, when it's the other way around. They owe their children everything because they literally sacrificed those children for this world in order to let their parasitic genes to live a little longer and also to get better treatment in society which values parents more than childless people (especially women). Doctors will prioritize their lives over lives of childless people.
It's true that we will always be in a minority, but it still makes me happy to see there's more antinatalists than ever, not just atheists but also christian ones, men and women, including blackpilled feminists (where antinatalism is the natural logical conclusion anyway) like Black obsidian or Lisa Michele. People are slowly waking up.
As for breeders, some do it just out of instinct and they don't put much deep thought in it. They do it because it makes them feel happy, just like any other animal. But the worst are the ones who claim they want to have someone who "loves them unconditionally" or someone to "take care of them when they get old". It's not about "love", it's about authority and power, like most things in this world. Deep down those people feel like nobodies and they know the only being that could exist under their authority is a child. If you're a loser with shitty job or generational trauma, or even if you have a good job but you hate your boss, who could possibly be low enough in the hierarchy to obey you? Only a child, of course. Now you can be the god of their universe and dictate their lives. Ultimate power fantasy.
I'm glad you have a lawyer anon.>one of these people have ever seen me, like they don't even see that my hair is falling out and I'm underweight, which like, I feel like that would have helped my case for as tasteless as it would be
Take pictures of yourself documenting your physical condition and send them to your lawyer. Ask her if they can be entered into evidence. Even if not, they will still let her know how you look. Also, ask her for a zoom meeting? So you can see each other.
>I also still have to do like all of the paperwork, like I have to try to convince each of my doctors to sign forms that say, "This person has limited capacity for work," and wow do they ever not want to do that shit. My endocrinologist refused to speak to me about it, literally canceled my appointment while I was there in the lobby because of it
Wow, this is so shitty. Forgive me if you've already done this, but have you reached out to disability rights groups for help with this? This site has a list of disability resources by state: https://www.olmsteadrights.org/self-helptools/advocacy-resources/
>>1485220>Take pictures of yourself documenting your physical condition and send them to your lawyer. Ask her if they can be entered into evidence.
That would have been smart, yeah>ask her for a zoom meeting
That much I did do, but she's too busy, I don't actually get to talk to her normally, I've only spoken to her during the phone call hearing. Usually I talk to some extremely bored sounding "representative.">have you reached out to disability rights groups for help with this?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOD THEY TOLD ME I COULDN'T BECAUSE I WASN'T CALLED DISABLED YET WHAT THE FUCK???? DOES THIS MEAN I COULD HAVE BEEN GETTING THE BUS FOR DISABLED PEOPLE??????? JESUS FUCKIGN CHRIST WHAT THE FUCK WHY WONT ANYONE FUCKING TELL ME ANYTHING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA thank you anon
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I have no real desire for kids irl but sometimes when I'm having a particularly rough week especially at work I imagine I have to keep going for my (imaginary) kids. I even gave them names and personality, though I never imagine they age or anything like that. I just know I couldn't take care of them irl but I need something to feel grounded sometimes.
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same except mine isn't a twitter personality just a regular celeb. i keep crying over him every week, have frequent dreams about him, and create elaborate fantasies of being childhood friends to lovers then raising a family with him even though it realistically wouldn't work out. i looked too much into his personal life (or what i could find of it), his family, his background, where he lives, what car he drives, etc. and i ruined myself. yet i still want more. i won't ever be satisfied until i know what he smells like
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So in a bpd/period induced rage I blocked some of my most cherished friends because I found out they took a secret trip without me. They never bothered to mention it during our group hangouts or anything. They went somewhere I really wanted to go too because our last outing was some stupid place only one person of the group wanted to go to and everyone just agreed. Deep down I believe it’s because she’s the prettiest and skinniest girl in the group. The rest of our friends are a bunch of moids so it doesn’t help.
I’m extremely hurt by this and have cried about it a lot. I know it’s a stupid thing to get hung up on but this always happens to me. I introduce someone into my friend group new person takes over and I get shunned out.
I’m probably just a really shitty and petty person so me bringing in a replacement every time is just convenient for them.
I’m just so full of rage and sadness. I haven’t lashed out at anyone and have kept to myself but I’m hurting so much. My friends are like my family. They’re so important to me but maybe they never really regarded me that way at all.
If they were worried about financial stuff they could’ve been honest about the trip and taken photo to share in the group chat and I would’ve been so happy for them because they weren’t being secretive and they were having a great time. But they didn’t and I just want to bash my head against a wall and cry more.
>>1485793>The rest of our friends are a bunch of moids
Yeah, they’re not your friends. But I feel for you, nonnie
. My brothers wanted to take a “siblings camping trip” one summer. I was moving that year, but I waited until the summer was over, waiting for that trip. They went camping basically right after I moved and tried to keep it hidden from me (my mom told me about it)
That's me with that one makima defending nonnie
. I've seen her in various threads at least 4 times by now and her typing style is so obvious but I don't want to be obnoxious.
It's an lc nonnie
. What makes her funny is how seriously she takes the criticism, I rarely see someone get so offended for an anime character.
I get incorrectly recognized all the time too, but I've also incorrectly recognized an anon a few times so I guess that's what I get.
Anyway, I post about the same subjects all the time and I feel no shame about it. I try not to post too much about my personal life, so there's only so much I can say.
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Help, over the past week or so I've developed the craziest crush on Harry Styles. Wtf. I can't stop thinking about him and watching concert footage of his prancing and undulating.
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I used to think i wanted to marry my boyfriend. We've been together for 3 years now and this is my first real relationship but Im realizing things about him I think would lead to a divorce if we married. Things that I think I will grow out of really soon if he doesn't change. I was cooking piyaya,something we were excited about and had planned for. We had booze ready and everything and it'd be an excellent way to kick off the weekend but he was really emotional for some reason? He was watching my cook and started randomly talking about Jaltoid. He was telling me about how cute they were and how he used to be jealous of them because he didn't have a girlfriend but now he does and he's still jealous of them. He started complaining about how I…Dont watch him play video games? And stuff. I tried to be understanding at first but then he said "I guess I dont deserve s relationship like that because im not a good person". Im sorry? What? I got annoyed and told him "Sorry you ended up in a relationship like this one." And he was all mopey and didn't even really try to correct it, he only started saying "Its not like that" when I told him to gtfo of my face. He went to the bedroom and when I finished cooking I came in with the food to see him crying and moping about. What the fuck? He was fine like 30 minutes ago so wtf is wrong with him now. I try to tell him I'm not mad at him and he says "No, you hate me." Like a 13 year old girl! I was trying to make him feel better but literally nothing worked. He was just acting really pathetic. Jealous of an overweight, washed up 2010 youtube couple, crying cause you cant have perfect parasocial relationship. It made me angry. He wanted me to hug him to make him feel better and at that moment i refused. Instead of having a fun night of drinking and eating tasty amateur piyaya. Instead it was a night of comforting an adult man over something really stupid. What sucked the most was that he had the nerve to say I was bad at comforting him. I've always been FINE at comforting people. He is the one that sucks at comforting people. Whenever I talk about my mentally ill younger brother, who is a menace to anyone who isn't our mom he, a lot of the time, will just sit there and say nothing or get uncomfortable with me for crying. I've always been able to move past things pretty quick I would NEVER let a fixation on a parasocial relationship with a youtube couple ruin my fucking night. And he's been touchy and shit all day! I keep fantasizing about moving to japan and just living my life there, worry free til the end of my days. I wish I was rich. Being around him when hes like this is such a massive mood killer.
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my hatred for the gender/queer community has skyrocketed. cannot even bother to try and understand them anymore. i wish i could call them all retarded and ask them to die or explain to them why making more boxes is not a win against ~gender~, but it's as pointless as debating the bible with christfags. doesn't help that i'm autistic. i will lose my fucking temper
all i can do is picrel and try to suppress my immense sadness whenever someone cool troons out or adopts some weird pronoun label like "he/she"
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I noticed a lot of shit post accounts on Instagram are run by these very impassive guys who have bimbos with obviously edited photos, a suspiciously low follower:following ratio, and who always offer some sort of emotional support to the man. 100% catfishing - but these "based" super funny meme guys don't have a clue.
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nonna thats the dude from jet grind radio.
that honestly sounds like a disaster.
“Hey so I know we’re not dating and it’s not really my business considering we’re not gonna; but can you just stop jerkin it in your space time? If not, get tf outta here after 10 years of friendship buddy. Thanx”
All of the above or a mixture of the two. Most men into "blacked porn" usually fit these catagory.
I bet he goes on rants about "BBC" and "tyrone" with his homeboys, or how much he hates "Cucks" or every single thing he talks about leads to "Cucking". I don't make the rules but thats how it works.I assume "Blacked' porn is black man on woman (not a coomer so I do not know if that includes Bw on WW). Trust me, I've seen irl and online how the most racist anti-coomer white scrotes will bring up tyrone, his dick, and/or just obessed with black men.
It's all a form of racism and bisexuality though
i couldn't cope being the only one who doesn't identify as nonbinary or something else
I'm trying to make one reply to everyone so expect it to be messy.
We did have long term relationships with other people in 9 years, even if we clearly were into each other, but about one year and a half ago he moved back to our hometown after college and he got a job where I used to work. He basically moved in with me and I didn't mind having a cute and sweet boy around. Turns out he's not as sweet as I thought but there's no surprise, he's a man and they're all disgusting.
He's bisexual and a racist indeed, I wouldn't want to have a relationship with him now due to health concerns and I'm glad we never dated.
I'm going to ask him to pick up his stuff and cut contact forever.
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I don't even care anymore if I sound like a bitch but I hope that the guy who dumped me gets dumped by every woman he dates from now on. I know I shouldn't stoop to that level but I'm just gonna accept that I'm a vindictive bitch instead of trying to fool myself into thinking that acting mature is going to help me move on because it never has. I'm the happiest when those who wronged me got their shit handed to them.
Ok, Lets confess.
10 years ago I was sexually assaulted on set. It was a indie film that was shit, and I was brought on by someone I considered to be a mentor. I will not go into the assault, but it was traumatizing. Other men were in the room, but did nothing. We were in the desert shooting too, which made me feel more trapped in the situation. My mentor gaslight me and made me feel like I was the villan for speaking on it. I was only 20.
One of my friends I went to film school with called me last night and offered me a gig. It's a full feature and I would be his assistant in the sound dept.
This guy? This guy is my friend. Like, the kind of guy that would show up at an ER in a moment's notice, or stand by me in a fight. We have been close friends for almost as long as I've been back on the east coast. One time my apt door was open late at night and I called him terrified. Not only did he show up with a bat 2 minutes later, but after sweeping the place I asked if I could cuddle his cat on the couch at his place. Since then I've moved into a house with a guest bedroom he uses as he travels, and he's bonded with my bf too. "Anon, dare I say it, he's approved"
When he offered the gig he started with "(Anon) you hate all your normal jobs. Come work with me and I'll handle ANYONE who dares to disrespect you." He's worked with most of the crew before on different projects.
Is this my way back into the industry? Am I older and wiser with the chance to get my head back into the game?
Sometimes my lizard brain is firing off" OH NO IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN".But, I trust my dear friend. It's good money, and I do love filmmaking. I dont want to work a regular job, and I probably never will. I must trust myself, and trust the woman I've become.
I have dodged literal bullets, I have survived many years since the incident. I am, forgive the cliche, better- faster-stronger AND wiser. I get to make a shit ton of money helping mic female actors, and that's cool too. My friend is the head of sound dept and he said. "I need women working to look out for other women. Men can work other depts." and I really appreciate him.
Dare I say it, your girl is getting back into film!!!!!
Thank you for reading my novel.
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Dumb confession incoming:
I once added a Swedish guy on Skype, because I liked his art page and saw a pic of him and had a major crush on him, we chatted almost everyday. Though I was too much of a coward to turn on the camera when he did it, mostly because I was afraid he wasn’t gonna be attracted to me or be racist and on my birthday he said my name. I don’t remember much, but he wasn’t creepy and didn’t ask me for inappropriate stuff, just normal (art) conversations.
Fast forward we stopped talking as my pathetic self never turned on the camera (if we had one back then?) and him not being interested in me anymore, because I wasn’t really open like he was.
I became obsessed for the next 2-3 years as he was the only boy who gave me attention at the time (I know sad.)
He also draws/animates rule 34….
(Also he wasn’t that much older than me, I think he at least wasn’t turning 15 or 17 yet.)
And now that I see old and recent pictures of him, I don’t know how the fuck I was attracted to him. Kek
Tldr; I added a Swedish boy on Skype, who wasn’t even that cute (but I had bad taste and got a boy’s attention) but he wasn’t a creepy 18+/30 old adult, checked he was real. Sadly I wasn’t open enough for him to continue chatting and I was the only one who never showed my face.
I also made three online friends at the time on skype and one of them was my internet bestie, sadly we stopped talking one day, though we talked last year and she’s doing fine!
(Sorry for rambling!)
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I have this problem where he's not my "husbando" per se, but I do feel like he's genuinely the love of my life and in a different universe where he's real we're in a relationship and I wheel him around and his broken dick isn't a problem at all. I get a warm feeling in my chest any time I hear about the Kentucky Derby. I get a warm feeling in my chest when I hear "Kentucky" in passing. I even bought an old Kentucky Derby shirt off of ebay because the design looked quite a bit like his gay little hat symbol. I actually have a genuine crush on a fictional character. I wish he was real so fucking bad KEKKKK.
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I had no idea the Kentucky Derby factored into JJBA lore. This is extremely funny to me and I wish you both the greatest happiness.
in this case it could seriously ruin their reputation, used as blackmail, get someone in trouble with their job, friends, or family, and spread misinformation though, plus become eventually used for cp. just read >>1488413
and other posts in the thread
>>1488473>close ones could watch at any time
Maybe, just maybe, they should reconsider calling these people close ones if they can't just stop watching porn with edited faces?> how do you not understand how humiliating that is, fake or not?
Humiliating what? Sex? Sexual desire? Being sexually desired? Honestly, I don't understand. If you go out you will see people who had sex. If you go out you will probably see at least one unknown man who will get attracted to you. Yes, I am retarded. What is the difference between random jerking off on your normal photo made in public or found on social networks, and random jerking off on your face glued to a pornstar's body? >>1488475>job
Yes, no-name Jane will be scolded and fired because training new personnel is much cheaper than ignoring some random proofless video where humans do very human stuff.> friends, or family
Why would you use these words to describe people who don't trust you? Why would you call some retard, who believes everyone and everything on the Internet without a second thought, a friend? Do you want to keep in contact with nasty family members who won't listen to you? Good riddance. Normal people are degenerates, ffs.>eventually used for cp
Explain. Will they glue an adult's head to cp (owning and spreading one is already a fucking problem and illegal)? Or will they make cp from cp?
How can you not understand? Imagine if it was you being shown on video getting gangbanged by 10 BBCs.>but it's not actually me!!!
Sure looks like you. Everyone thinks it's you. And it's not just a neutral faced-you, you've been edited into moaning and making all kinds of expressions you're only comfortable doing with a partner you trust.
Deepfakes are categorized as non consensual pornography. Currently, legislature puts them in the same category as revenge porn. They combine the negative effects of porn(objectification, dehumanization, sexualization, commodification of female bodies) with innocent, non consenting victims
in order to hurt their reputation. They can't physically assault a woman in real life, but they can assault her image and degrade her digitally.
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I want it. Forgive me nonnies.
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This thing + Super Mutant = dream threesome
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i'm kind of jealous of husbandoposters. i don't have one but i'm currently smitten with a certain celebrimoid well not as famous nowadays and i've posted him THREE times already and i feel like i'm unbearably annoying. i'm so embarrassed. i've got no friends and there's no way for me to sperg anywhere i know of while this little obsession lasts so i'll just internalize it until it's gone
My jaw dropped reading this. He's fucking disgusting. Don't hate yourself nona, most women wouldn't expect a moid to be THAT monstrous, me included and I fucking hate men. I hope you have the energy to successfully ruin that scrotes life. Tell his family, friends, sue him and fucking murder him if possible
, but I guess seek legal counsel first.
Otherwise, retroviral therapy is very effective for HIV these days and there's expected to be an full cure in the next 5-10 years. I'm so sorry nona.
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I probably shouldn't talk about the site but discovered soyjak.party when they were raiding cc a few months ago. A nona linked them and said they were behind the raid. I visited the site out of curiosity and the entire catalog was utterly incomprehensible but the weird culture and retarded shitposting was strangely alluring to me and I lurked there for a while and started posting. The site is scrote heaven obviously, actual cp, gore, baby monkey torture and such is posted all too often and I've been losing brain cells every time I post but it's PURE, UNFILTERED, UNHINGED FUN. Raiding 4chan and altchans to steal GETs, shitposting, jackbox raiding, making OC, being anon's personal army, and soyduelling is the most fun I've had on the internet in years. I'm tired of sites where you must take everything seriously all the time and everything has to make sense. I fucking love the site, I love shitposting, I love soyjak.party. Millions must have fun.
that sounds so fucking pathetic, I'd die from cringe even considering doing that >>1489410
I know this is an anonymous imageboard but that's so tactless to ask nona. Don't you think she's got enough on her plate without considering this too?
To answer your question there's a 25% chance of passing on HIV to your unborn baby without medication and almost 0% chance with medication.
Please anons, don't start comparing autists and bpds again, is a pointless fight. The two can be flawed in their own ways but no one is inherently "evil" that's just a harmful narrative for both sides.
Shitting on the mentally ill won't fix the autism you were born with, and shitting on the autists will not fix the damage on your brain, and definitely normies hate you both so why fight against each other if y'all get treated with the same ignorance and indignity?
Is that true? That people see autistics and BPDs as soulles beings? In my head everyone saw autistcs as innocent, silly, wholesome people and BPD people as disgusting and born to be destructive. One time i was in this forum only for autistic people (compulsively looking for clues that prove that i am totally autistic, kek) and one person said that they don't know why autistics are sometimes wrongly diagnosed with BPD, since people with BPD are so promiscuous. That fucked me up for some time since i have been insecure about my sexuality/body as early is a started developing mature characteristics like breasts. It feels as if i'm filthy and there's no way to change it: since i have BPD. Then maybe being autistic would cure me?>>1489553
You made my laugh, nonna, but i feel like every being in the world finds me disgusting for having BPD, men or women. I don't care if it's an retarded moid in 4chan or a limp dick MRA saying that women with BPD are succubus or something like that, but the feeling that i have is that the whole world looks at me and think: this one is broken.>>1489531
But i lack empathy too, nonna. What if i'm able to be evil just like an autistic person would be, but i also lack any of the good things they have, like the capacity of seeing patterns easily and soothing themselves by… idk, rocking back and forth.
The whole silly innocent thing for autism only works for males because everyone panders to males no matter how disgusting and retarded they are, autistic women do not get the same treatment, especially because they learn from a young age they don't and learn how to mask it.
Developing early does not make you promiscuous, it's just scrotes labeling you because you happen to have boobs at a young age and they can't cope with genetics. Even if you are promiscuous now and you aren't regretting it (which if you just lay off the sex) as long as you aren't fucking ugly gross people, ruining relationships and giving std's who cares? Either way you look at it being autistic will not cure the way men have forced you to shame your own body.
People only find you disgusting if you act disgusting, plenty of BPD people are loved and respected and have plenty of friends. You have your disorder but you are not your disorder, you are not a stereotype.
>>1489637>autistic women do not get the same treatment
I feel like we do, but only at first and only from scrotes who want to fuck us. They might think we're cute and quirky at first (and I've seen tons of 4chan scrotes talk about wanting an autistic gf), and they might idealise the concept of a socially retarded, isolated gf who will feel grateful for any attention. But they all bail as soon as we show autistic behaviour that goes beyond hand-flapping/rocking.>>1489518
You should try to get a professional assessment (and talk to a female professional, preferably, because male doctors are likely to misdiagnose you based on sexist assumptions). I can't say if you're autistic or not, but keep in mind that the stereotypical male autist is extremely different to female autists. I used to think I was just defective in some way and couldn't be actually autistic because I wasn't a savant and learned how to interact with people pretty well by working hard on it.
If it makes you feel any better I was called evil/filthy/inhumane for fairly innocuous autistic behaviour growing up (dumb stuff like speaking too loudly due to not being able to hear myself, not playing nice with weird scrotes who harassed me/tried to neg me into fucking them, being too passionate about my weird interests). We're women, we'll always be condemned for what we are and do, because society wants to keep us self-hating and servile. If you dislike things about yourself you should give yourself time to work on them, but do it for yourself and your own happiness, not others.
Not sure why you care what people think so much when you can just not tell people you have BPD. I know it's popular now to tell everyone about your mental illness, but that's really something to keep to yourself unless you're very, very close with an individual.
You can improve your behavior if you are a BPDfag enough to the point where you don't appear BPD. I'm always going to be labelled melancholic by my partner and family, but that's the "worst" that I am now. Research DBT and practice it until it becomes second nature to you. That is where a lot of BPDfaggitas fail, they are too proud and think DBT is for babies and that they know better. Some also believe it's a terminal illness of sorts they'll never recover from. I don't hang around BPDfags for this reason, most that are loud about their illness don't really want to recover. There's always exceptions, but this is what I've noticed, and those types of BPDfaggitas may be why you are treating BPD the way you are, because you're exposed to the idea it's this sentence. But anyway, journal your behaviors or anger so you can compare your progress and monitor your feelings as they are in the present. I also would recommend sobriety if you notice that alcohol and/or drugs contribute to your behaviors (they almost always do in the case of BPDfags). You don't need to stay sober forever, but at least it will help you in the meantime. Psych meds can help too, but the goal is to use them so you can practice skills until you don't need the meds anymore.
Anyway, the point is that BPD isn't a sentence that will fuck up your whole life. You might be more prone to sadness and intense emotions, but if you can control them, that's good enough for most people around you.
Not to mention, men love BPDfags. Every guy I've been with was convinced they wanted to marry me/that I was their endgame. Not sure where you are getting your information from, men might say online they hate BPDfags, but they love us in my experience.
Nonna, would you believe that i have already tried; keep trying DBT? DBT IS a very good way to try recovering, we can be sure about that. The thing for me is that i used to have a fairly good relationship with the fact that i may have BPD or that i ATLEAST have symptons. However, that changed because i have this thing where i obsess over some collection of characteristics (sometimes coming from a character or an stereotipe) and i simply can't see any good characteristics in any other thing, if that makes sense. I obsessed over the chance of being autistic and now i can't see anything good in having BPD (it may seem dumb, but this shit literally takes over my life, i'm obsessed with hierarchy and use that to lead my life in some way), it makes extremelly hard to follow DBT because it seems like those coping mechanisms are not beautiful/superior. Even if that problem is ignored, there's also the simple fact that i FORGOT to follow DBT/can't make myself follow some things FOR SOME REASON (not even impulsivity related like not treat people badily, but sometimes i can't journal because i get overwhelmed with the idea of starting something, kek) that i truly don't know. Everything happens so fast and i have so many things to do and so many ideas and start so many things that i don't even remember DBT.
I believe one of the biggest problems is that BPD for me, unfortunately, has been more about my way of functioning other than behavior related. So my problems are more about feeling empty when i'm not obsessed, not having motivation for shit, forgetting things, all those things…
Also, if i were to have BPD, my symptons align more with the quiet BPD type, so no one really knows when i'm not having a jealously crisis, yeah.
And the fact that men love girls with BPD makes it even worse, it feels for me that autistic girls are a little bit less cursed by that, you know?>>1489699
Nah, nonna, i'm definitely NOT autistic. I think that's the worst thing, i know very well that i'm not autistic and even then i keep hoping and over-analyzing myself to see if i acted autistic in that specific moment. I'm so sorry they called you evil for such things, you are definitely right about us being condemned no matter what.>>1489637
I truly agree with you, nonna, but unfortunately this obsession doesn't care about any logical reasoning AND i have some trouble NOT seeing things as stereotypes, kek. I wish i could just believe what you say, but while i rationaly agree with everything you said, the dumb obsession keeps thinking that autism = purity, bpd = filthiness. Well…
>>1489770> why I don't fast during ramadan I start telling them I have my periods
and I do that every ramzan as well, its honestly fun as hell
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Over the course of my life I've listened to several 10h videos on YouTube to completion. Chirnos Perfect Math Class, Mikus version of Ievan Polkka and Fukkireta are the less embarassing ones. But then there's also de-de-death Dekomori desu and Yukkii Yukkii Yukkii. I didn't even do it for the challenge, I just thought it's catchy.
Sometimes I get stir crazy in my relationship too. Most of the time a walk at the park, or taking my self out on a date helps. I also visit out of town friends for a weekend sometimes.
It doesnt mean its automatically time to breakup…. We all appreciate alone time.
I've been with my boyfriend for 6 years (forever gf) but I also get extremely annoyed at my bf sometimes. I think it's just energies not matching and getting bored. It'll be ok nonnie
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While most of my desire to adopt a pet rodent of some kind is simply because they're sweet lil dudes, I also crave a kind of atonement for the hamsters/gerbils I had as a child who I Did Not Take Good Care Of. I know part of that is on my parents for putting the life of a living creature solely in the hands of a child who doesn't understand that responsibility, but I feel really guilty about it.
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I'm addicted to 4chan. Witnessing male mental illness and male suffering is intoxicating.
I'm wasting my life.
Holy shit, I want you to know how hard this made me snort kek.>>1489938>The only reason they are tolerating the date is because of how you turn them on
Yes lmao that's how dating works. Does he only want to go on dates with women who find him ugly and unpleasant to be around?
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What the fuck is happening
I mean, if she is consenting and willingly participating, I don't think it can be called marital rape.
Of course if he forces or coerces you, or straight-up does things when you say no or don't consent, then yes that is rape. That includes things like oral sex, I remember my ex ripping down my pants and going down with his mother in the next room and I was scream-whispering no no no. That is rape, I was not interested, not consenting, I couldn't easily get away, and it was humiliating. If you are going through things like that, that is rape. And don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
I think it would be good to talk to a therapist regardless about your feelings and experiences because this isn't a trivial subject. If you are or were being raped or having flashbacks to previous SA, you need support and help to either leave him or resolve the feelings you are having about sex.
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ngl I can't stop thinking about Jesus and I don't want it to turn into something sexual. I remember the various depictions of female saints in sculpture and how it looked like an almost sexual ecstasy. He's the only man capable of true love, all other men are scum, he's also unconditionally powerful. How can I love a normal man when he exists is beyond me. I'm horny but I can't lose my V card to someone who is corrupted and all human men are corrupted. How do I utilize my sexual energy without fucking human males and without fantasizing about profanities when masturbation doesn't help for long? Exercise?
I'm romantically attracted to men and women, but I'm really only sexually attracted to women. I've never even had sex before–not by lack of options, but purely because I've just never felt sexually attracted to another person irl enough to want to have sex with them. Also, the idea of ever being pregnant makes me actually want to send a bullet through my own skull. Mad respect to all mothers out there, but I just never want to be a parent. I don't think it's for me, and I just do not see myself being a mother, ever.
I'm pretty sure I'm somewhere on the ace spectrum, and while I'm in a relationship with a man right now, the idea of having sex with him actually makes me want to vomit. Not because I dislike him–quite the contrary. He's really sweet, even if he is a bit of an ass sometimes (He is often hyper liberal, and I am pretty moderate, which can sometimes cause… minor rifts). I just do not find the idea of having sex appealing. I mean, hell–to be honest, half of the time I question why I am even in a relationship right now to begin with. It is nice, having someone that cares, but I also just feel like he cares way more than I do, and I feel a bit guilty sometimes. I like him a lot, but I'm pretty sure he is in love with me, and I'm just not there… nor do I know if I'll ever be there. I just don't know if I am capable of ever truly being 'in love' with another human.
I have some wonderful news for you, permanently-online anon! Outside of Tiktok, Twitter and Tumblr, literally nobody cares about this. If you don't want to be a mother, so what? That's not a requirement. If you don't want to fuck your moid, don't! If you obsess over how far along on the liberal scale you are, which sexuality labels apply to you, and whether not wanting to be a human incubator makes you a twans boiiiiii, it's a sign you need to get off the internet for a while.
Good luck on your recovery from internet poisoning!
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I miss the bunkers.
i'm not >>1490481
but i feel bad for her after she got shat on here. Is this a judgment thread or for confessions? bc she seemed pretty genuine and i hope she resolves how she feels. It has to be hard to avoid being influenced by all the gender/sexuality stuff, not everyone can make a clean break with it. It's fuckin everywhere. getting offline would help tho, i guess i agree, and that anon at least gave her a plan for going forward vs. laughing at her
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My discharge smells sweet, like a bakery. It actually worries me, n-normal discharge is not supposed to smell so sweet, oh no
Am that anon, I mean that’s how I’d describe mine too? Not like sugary but maybe the same way you meant like a bakery. If I’m really wet it’s like if umami had a sweet version? I tried to taste it once when I was younger because I was horny and curious.
I guess it’s musky if women can have musk??? This sounds gay but if a man didn’t like it I’d say HE’S gay and doesn’t appreciate what a happy pussy smells like.
If you smell like actual fruity/floral sweet, I have no idea, have you been eating lots of fruit or sugar lately? If it’s not an offensive smell and you’re not in pain or emitting weird substances I think you’re fine.
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I am really loving this revelation that we’ve all got bakery pussies. Pastry pussies, if you will.
God I wish that was me
I'm so deprived of male attention tbh, I wouldn't mind receiving it from an MMO moid
dont let the "mormon faithful wife" persona take over you. there is nothing wrong with having male friends while having a bf especially online male friends. do you think most men would put a stop to a female friend online? >>1492030
me too. i wonder which MMO anon is talking about kek
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I do the same fucking thing. Adult life is so dull. I am crushing on a man right now who plucked me some berries. We literally met once. I was having a nervous breakdown, trying to distract myself by talking to a hottie. I blurted out that I am hungry, because I heard him ask if I am okay - I might have been hallucinating. Then he hung out with me for a few minutes and shared some funny stories after which we had hot eye contact. The kind you share right before a kiss. But I was too scared to go for it, thought it might have been inappropriate since we don't even know each other's names. Then I felt really hot in the head as if I had a fever, so I wanted to go back inside the building to drink water. There he gave me his number but is not texting back - I vaguely remember him being in a rehab program or/and working for them there. So now I'm obsessing over whether he is in recovery and hence not allowed to text me back, or if he thought I was one of the addicts and was just keeping an eye on me, while I hallucinated all the other things he said. In that case I am glad I was not kissing air, but oh well, hopefully he will text back and I can get clarification on this matter.
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is there a term for this phenomenon? cause I'm still in love with a guy I barely knew back when I was in high-school
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It's called being a seduction victim
, the romantic dreamer kind. I also had a huge crush on a guy in high school, whom my mom has asked to look out for me at the bus stop because there were creepy people there. He never hit on me, was friendly and just sat next to me so creeps would be scared off. Absolute anime moment of your senpai protecting you, really works the fantasies. Then I crushed on a handsome dude I only saw twice at the bus stop because I heard him talk on the phone to his baby mommy or whatever, and was wearing a nice uniform… Once you know your type you will know what works, for me it's the type that would be a good father for example, lmao, I saw it being referred to as the "rescuer" as well, which sounds sexist, but I am legit sick so had a lot of damsel in distress moments. This latest encounter was also romantic in nature like he took me on a little adventure and was handing me fruit lol but was also nice enough not to hit on me until I started flirting which I liked, it's respectful and comes off as genuine, or at least not trying to take advantage of someone who is mental, lol.
These small moments without actually knowing the guys actually make the fantasies go harder. As we would see our classmates or coworkers talk to others we don't usually vibe with, see them with women who are much different from us, realizing we are not their type, etc. with unknown men, these guiding turn-offs, unpleasant realities (does your work crush act kind of gross irl, would you two clearly never work out) are not present, so, we are not actually crazy for fantasizing, it is perfect for that.
t. seduction sperging
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Kek Puzzle Pirates… just make a “hot” avi (long, wavy hair) and hang out on the dock of Admiral Island and eventually someone will chat you up. Some (supposed) chick was hitting on me once. It’s kinda amusing/ridiculous since they all basically look the same.
But okey thanks I’ll try not to worry about my friend. I know it’s all rather harmless, but I also know if I were single I’d flirt back for fun kek
NTA but to add onto this with my own confession:
If cloning was possible and I could create another version of me in an instant I'd date myself for the rest of my life. I think I'm hot and I know myself better than anyone, plus I think we'd have a lot of fun togetherGod I'd want to fuck a clone of myself so bad. We could do everything that I'd never feel comfortable enough doing with a partner. Try all sorts of nasty shit and we wouldn't tell anyone. I have such a high sex drive too so my clone would be the same, and we would probably just fuck for hours
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I want to see Corey Feldman perform live while I’m on edibles for a good laugh
Trust your instincts, anon. The moids who say women are overreacting are assholes with zero empathy, the same guys who have been casually sexually harassing women their whole lives while claiming to be the good ones. And they always side with other moids instead of ANY woman because they won’t bother to imagine themselves in her place.
One of my relatives in my extended family who I unfortunately have to see every few years is literally a rapist, and he knows I know about his crime like everyone else, and when I saw him a few years ago he still gave a speech about how toxic
masculinity is a fake idea and women are imagining that men are bad for no reason and how Metoo is a sham.
Reporting the gym creep helps set a case for if he keeps doing this kind of thing to you, if it’s repeated documented incidents they’re more likely to intervene and possibly revoke his membership if he gets worse.
Remember that men do this type of “but I didn’t mean it, see that could have been totally innocuous” thing on purpose. They’re simultaneously callous enough to believe we don’t notice or will actually all believe their public gaslighting about it (see: my example above with the rapist’s speech), and so predatory they try to set up situations where they can get a kind of “b-but I didn’t do it” excuse to cover their asses. They just CONVIENTLY happen to ACCIDENTALLY be constantly doing extremely weird shit that no one with common sense and boundaries would do, that’s all, they swear! Every time (when it’s not a setting they feel anonymous enough to just go full throttle and not even bother to set up such an excuse, like when passing by on the street).
I eat most things that come out of my body. My snot, blood, those little things that come from the blackheads, pus from my pimples, and so many more things that i don't remember. I used to eat my dandruff, but i started feeling nauseous after, so i stopped. Totally not prideful about that, of course, but i simply can't stop doing it too. I love the texture of the snot in my mouth and i don't find any of those things disgusting because it's so so little. Often they are delicious, too. The snot, and the coagulated blood that comes from my pimples is very, very good. I'm not baiting, i really like eating those. However, i'm afraid my boyfriend is going to see that i do that and find me disgusting. I'm aware it may be disgusting for people, but i do that since i was little and i find no problem myself. You can tell me to stop, but i swear i'm trying. It's just so good and an habit that i have since i was a child, so it feels almost impossible to stop.
boogers are kind of tasty though, i stand by you anon.>>1492222
i'm kind of the same too. not with all bodily fluids, but just with some stuff. one of my cringiest memories is in school id sometimes absentmindedly scratch inside my ears and eat the earwax, and i suppose someone must have noticed me do it one time bc they started clowning on me for it behind my back (deserverdly tbh)
i dont defend my behaviour but at the same time what else are you meant to do??? wiping it on your clothes or a random surface would objetively be gross, and if you dont have a tissue to hand or something theres literally nowhere to put it… if you eat it youre at least getting rid of it in a way that wont leave a mess
I have been thinking about pica too, nonna. I used to eat phosphor after it was used (i'm not really sure how to word that), erasers and paper. But i suppose erasers and paper are normal for kids. You are not disgusting! I never undestood the big disgust with boogers.>>1492233
Kek, nonna, i believe that it's assumed that you are not going to scratch inside your ears. I also scratched inside my ears, but the earwax taste/smell is too much for me. Also, nowadays my earwax is all liquid and strange… You really found the taste to be good?>>1492234
I'll give my best, kek
its not very tasty no, usually its pretty bitter. im not super into eating it, but if theres nowhere else to dispose of it then yeah sometimes i still will.
and i had the same issue with watery earwax back then!!! i've been really prone to itchy ears since around puberty, and i used to get clear liquidy secretions coming out sometimes (not so much anymore though.) the thing is you cant really go at it and start cleaning out your ears with tissue etc in public, but theyd be so itchy and annoying that i'd have to scratch anyway and then deal with the leftover earwax with either tissue or eating and hoping noone noticed. lukcily these days the wax that comes out is a bit drier and easier to deal with
That's what i thought! The smell is extremelly bitter and also the taste, so it seems pretty uncomfortable to eat. You don't feel nauseous after or something like that? I have a lot of earwax, but i just end up using my clothing to dispose it, if it's the only surface i can use.
And i have a very, very similar problem now! How did your earwax stopped getting liquid? Mine is so annoying because it's very very itchy and never ends. It's also really good to scratch my ears so i just end up scratching until some red wax monster comes out or my nail is full of wax, eugh.
nah i don't feel nauseous, but then again im not regularly eating it, and it wouldnt be big enough quantities to make me feel sick anyway. & i don't quite know how it ended, but i know that now if i scratch my ears a lot (cause it feels good, as you say) it will secrete some of the clear stuff. i figured it was a sign I was scratching too much inside. also i try not to use in-ear earbuds anymore because it makes the problem worse, so maybe try that to see if it helps? nowadays my problem is that I'll get earwax stuck really deep inside and i can feel it lodged in there bc its itchy, but its really hard to get it out w/o using some kind of damaging implement. anyway sorry for the blog posting about earwax lol, i hope your watery earwax problem subsides anon >>1492257
oh man i know the struggle about allergies, im constantly having to blow my nose in public. & yeah tbf ive stopped caring so much about it, like in public these days I'll just wipe my finger on my coat or something (i don't see how id be able to flick it on the floor, like it's not the right texture.) im not out there eating my earwax in public anymore dw!!
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I'm trying to get over a breakup and I've been binging love tarot readings for the past weeks to help me deal with the situation. I know it's all bogus but it helps to hear optimistic words in moments when I feel down. I can't wait to not have feelings for or cry over this moid anymore.
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I don't know how unpopular of an opinion this is, but I feel like there's nothing wrong with cheating, whether in exams or in a video game etc as long as you don't get caught (getting caught means your cheat wasn't good enough). I feel like people just get mad that someone has an easier time than them at doing something.
I think it depends. There are times where not doing things the genuine way can actually be a personal hindrance and prevent yourself from actually acquiring any kind of skill or knowledge. Often times the risk associated with cheating is a very valid
reason not to do it. You can't really defend yourself from it because you can't blame people for being mad, especially in a situation like video games where a lot of the fun is getting to showcase your skills. Personally, i cheat on random homework that i want done fast but i am not about to cheat in an actual test.
thanks for the responses Nonas. Im glad I'm not the only one. >>1492113
you're right when you say it's mostly about the fantasies. I really am literally just projecting onto this stranger. Done it to a million different guys… I daydream about him saving me/treating me well and it's just dumb. Sometimes I actually get to know the guy and they're never who I wish they were. It's just my imagination. But I can't help but feed into these fantasies cuz it makes me feel good. That image