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No. 1515170

groke edition
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No. 1515176

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groke bebe

No. 1515179

Ugliest Sylvanian family imo.

No. 1515180

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>>1515170
my father would hyperfocus on what he was reading or browsing, and so would my mother. growing up like this, getting randomly ignored hurt me and normalized this behaviour for myself. yet when i gave into this autismo experience they would get mad at me and call it rude. when i asked them why is it only rude when i do it and not when they, the answer was either straight up denial, or that because i am the child. i wish i was not brought up spergways as it hindered my social development so hard. people out there get offended when you randomly start ignoring them for a stupid mobile game or to pick up a spider to play with.

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No. 1515186

someone tried recording me on their phone at work yesterday, i told them they couldn’t do that but idk if they actually turned it off. i’m worried i’m going to end up on facebook as a karen just for doing my job, but i work in a medical facility so i’m thinking it was also straight illegal for them to do that? i fucking hate the braindead culture i live in rn, people don’t know how to act like humans anymore and i fucking hate dealing with them.

No. 1515200

Its so hard to donate or sell keep sakes from dead family. But at the same time it really is a weight off to slowly make my place what I truly want rather than half a dumpster bin of random things from my childhood.

No. 1515202

I love my friend but sometimes I really feel like our crazy tendencies bounce off one another in the worst way

Right now I want to tell her to calm down and what she's overreacting over isn't that serious but then she might turn it right back on me

I never have mentally healthy friends, if I do they dump me

No. 1515203

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why is it okay for everyone around me to be fucking reckless all the time but the second i show any emotion other than happiness or passivity im some sort of emotional time bomb. why cant i be the sad one for once, why cant someone comfort me for once.

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My ex was spotted out with a girl two weeks ago but same time his gay roommates boyfriend flew in for his birthday and his whole family was there including gay roommates sister who matched the vague description of this girl and she has boyfriend and occam’s razer says this is the obvious answer but I’m still freaking out and spiraling about how he has a new girlfriend even though he pulled the old ‘I need to be alone’ schtick with me

No. 1515212

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>>1515170
I had a whole-ass mental breakdown last night and feel dumb about it. I wish I didn’t overshare and constantly relive trauma nonnies

No. 1515221

i just realized the type of men i like is extinct

No. 1515228

dad won't stop drinking kek
i want to make him nice meals but cooking in the kitchen when he is drunk is a nightmare. i won't do it if i can avoid it

in other news i resume the job hunt tomorrow (mon). hope i can get something before commencement/graduation day which is in may that would be incredibly lit.

No. 1515242

spewed up my antibiotic even though I took it with food, ruining my stomach's microbiome for no reason and now I have 2 minute noodle stuck in my sinus reeeeeeeeeeeee

No. 1515244

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WHY do i repel my fave type of person… FUCK ME. i have too much anxiety to express myself freely. but i want you so bad and want to prove to you that i am capable and strong and have stood up for what is right. i am not a wuss. but you probably think i am, and boring, and mean. I DON'T KNOW! i don't know what you think with your party friends, artsy crew, beautifully adorned and dressed, cool room, enchanting travel location and musical hippie friends you amazing creature. i want to make arts with you, meet with your friends and bf, hang out in the parks and venues and just simply have a chat and a laugh but i am too awkward i guess. perhaps i can hide my anxiety by becoming an alcoholic…

No. 1515248

>>1515203
I love you nonny, sorry you are sad. All things come to pass, feel what you need to feel and be compassionate toward yourself. You are doing good at being a human, emotions are a blessing.

No. 1515286

>>1515242
still spewing! pray for this nona now amen

No. 1515290

>>1515286
Aw anon, I'll pray for you. If you get food down the wrong way again, try lying on your stomach with a pillow under your pelvis and coughing (if you feel well enough to do so).

No. 1515294

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I have been crying off and on again today. I just want a break goddammit. Please brain leave me alone. Stop overthinking things. Please for the love of god let me sleep.

No. 1515295

My headphones were charging all night, I just turned them on and they're at 40%. I'm going to scream

No. 1515319

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I swear to God, the way my 30yo sister tries to skinwalk me is just so creepy, it creeps me so much that i can't even write a lot about it without making my skin crawl.
I don't hold grudges, if she needs help or inspiration i would lend a hand but no, she goes on full weirdo with no self awareness.
I don't even know how to react anymore, talking doesn't work, blocking her from any social i own was the only thing i could do but i still have to see her and do small talk and it's always just so creepy please just stop, i hate this so much.

No. 1515324

>>1515319
I'm sorry nonnie, but skinwalking is such a weird phenomenon. Is she copying your appearance or also mannerism? Is she looking up to you?

No. 1515343

>>1515324
Nona! I'm not special but i always had a hard time relating to other people because my taste is not really popular, my sister would try to break my privacy to sneak into my things just to bully me for it but now it's just creepy.
When i added her on Discord she stalked the socials i linked and copied any of my interests without even being into them, it was bizarre at first but now it's not even funny anymore.
I hate it because she is some sort of (online) e-girl and i don't like how she uses my way of things at the same time, even if she did some weird stuff IRL as well.

She can't copy my IRL style because she looks very different and i'm more of a "fashion over comfort" person, but she fell into this "FFXIV Twitter OC" circle and she made this 3D character based on me (not joking, she said so herself) and …i don't know, it's like watching a weird person writing fanfics about you, it's not the worst but it makes you wish they would stop?

I really wish i could say that she's doing that because she likes me but that's not what is happening at all, i know i will sound mean for it but the fact that she is older enough than me makes me feel worse about this, when i actually need her help she never tries to be by my side, all she does is trying to drag my identity and turn it into some sort of "aesthetic" ugh…
I always try to encourage her to find her own interests tho, wish it could work.

No. 1515344

>>1515319
You remind me of when my little brother wouldn't want to eat the same flintstones vitamin as me. I'd troll him put mine back and grab the same one as him and make him scream.

No. 1515359

>>1515343
Are you autistic, nonna? Not trying to offend you, just really asking.

No. 1515360

>>1515359
what about anon's posts comes across autistic?

No. 1515361

>>1515344
That's actually cute.
>>1515359
It's all good, i actually had to go through those checks when i was a kid but it turned out that i don't have autism even if it seems kinda funny to me sometimes.

No. 1515367

>>1515360
I think that when she said that se always liked different things and had difficulties relating to others because of that it made me remember the experience of autistic people, also her sister skinwalk her makes it clear that she's a person that strikes people as unique and that's something that i relate to autistic people.

>>1515361
That's interesting! I think you are the reference of uniqueness that she haves and maybe she wants to be unique like you? You sister is very strange, definitely.

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It's Sunday, I got woken up at 4 am by a neighbour, after that, at 5 am the dog of the neighbour barked so I couldn't get back to sleep and since 9 am the woman next to me is screaming in her phone with her loud high pitched voice while slamming every door in her flat. Besides all that there is a constant low frequency humming noise everywhere in this flat and I haven't had a proper night rest in months. I know, I have to move, but I'm poor and no one will let me rent a flat. Guess I will leave this country and find a nice house in the woods somewhere else, I'm tired, just so tired and if it would be legal, I would kill my neighbours, no on would miss that pedo scrote or that hysterical Erdogan loving woman.

No. 1515378

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I found a thread about the girl in pic rel. She obsesses over this random old bus driver moid. And I'm the same fucking way. Weird sperg who never got male attention so I latch onto older men I can obsess over. My current one is a mid 50s loser dude, and I love how calm and comfortable he is. With me being in my late 20s he doesn't even notice that I'm not the prettiest, his male brain is just going awooga because I'm the youngest and skinniest he can get. He just invited me to move in with him for free and his house is nice.

No moid my age would be as nice to me as these old guys are, because I'm not special to them. I'm competing with every other young woman. But with the old scrotes, I'm only competing with 54 year old Patricias, so of course I'll win. I don't get "good morning babe" texts, I literally get those boomer pics with a picture of a teddy bear holding a glittery heart going "good morning sunshine" or something. I just don't care anymore this is the only way I can get a man who puts in effort and who wouldn't scoff at the thought of paying for my lunch. I feel like being unwanted by men for so long is literally turning me into a prostitute. The last scrote I was involved with, early 60s, started hinting at a FWB relationship where he pays me. AKA hoeing.

No. 1515379

>>1515367
Thank you for your words nonnie, she did admit to me that she feels like she doesn't have a personality and that she's boring once but that's not an excuse for copying everything about me and throwing anything else away, i could tell her i watched Spongebob the other night and the next day she would have a Spongebob icon while not even knowing Squidward exists, it's just weird.

No. 1515385

>>1515343
my sister has done very similar. she’s younger though. once she got married the skinwalking got a little better

No. 1515389

>>1515378
Imagine boasting about becoming a cheap personal hooker to an ugly expired man. You're disgusting and you're almost 30, at this rate you'll be seen the same as the old women you're making fun of in no time. The difference? Those old women are either married or happily single while you'll be left with multiple STDs and unfavorable memories of men only wanting to use you for your body. Even old men don't want to date you, they just want to take advantage of you and get a hooker experience for much cheaper.

No. 1515391

>>1515389
>boasting
I'm literally complaining that I can't get men my age. I didn't make fun of older women either, at all. I hate all of it. I have tried young men but their reaction to me is "meh". It's either this or I'm completely alone. Why are you being so aggressive towards me? I don't know what to do and I just want to have a close relationship like everyone else. I have autism and it's impossible. By the way young men only use you for your body too. Even if you can get a young guy, he's a future old pig as well. I hate my life and wish I looked prettier and had better social skills I'm not boasting are you crazy?

No. 1515392

>>1515389
>vent thread
> "boasting"
nona pls let her spill her beans, that's what this thread is for.

No. 1515394

>>1515378
Nonny you’re just sugaring which is being a prostitute with extra steps. Old men will happily let you live with them and buy you things and pay you allowance. You can probably get them to give you money forever but they don’t love you. You’re a shiny new toy and the most you can hope for is that you manipulate their dumb moid minds or do a powerful binding ritual and hook them on you forever, but still, none of that is love. It’s objectification, you’re being put on a pedestal and seen as an object, not as a human being. It seems fine for a while until one day you’re crying wondering why you feel so used and it’s because you’ve allowed yourself to be used for however long, under the guise of being the puppet master. No matter how powerful you feel over these gen x and boomer dudes, they have the upper hand and sooner or later you’ll wanna puke when you think about this period of your life.

No. 1515395

>>1515391
Samefag as >>1515394 but nonny young men just act weird and meh, normal young dudes are rarely effusive creatures, a lot of the effusive ones are actually the worst scrotes of all. You’re only gonna get those fake ass lovey dovey responses from men who wish they could be fucking a little girl and are happy to pretend you’re one. Men aren’t naturally effusive and honestly when they’re too effusive and there’s a significant age gap it’s one of the biggest red flags out there.

No. 1515398

>>1515389
miss ugly is going to have the mental breakdown of her life when she reaches her 30's and is viewed as a old Patricia (this is what she calls old women so those are her words not mine) because all moids universally view women over 30+ as old including the boomers she is going after.

Also those men are dating her because they don't have the access to the women they actually want (18-23), she will soon be one of those desperate women in those 30's who date 50 year olds who spend their time on the internet complaining how they have to date 30 year olds and how much they wished they could date a 20 year old and had the resources for it.

A tale as old as time, for some reason i got reminded of shoeonhead.

No. 1515399

>>1515378
you are mentally ill.

No. 1515404

>>1515398
Ugly-chan already has trouble getting those old men to commit to anything more than fuckbuddy-ism. The Patricia she's making fun of probably has more romantic choices than her and actually goes on dates with men she likes instead of anon who puts up with weirdos offering her a few bucks to fuck her.

No. 1515405

>>1515398
>those men are dating her because they don't have the access to the women they actually want (18-23)
But isn't that ALL men? Aren't nonnies Nigels only dating them because he can't get the young IG models he secretly looks at every day? Yes it's gross that I'm with these old guys but your young boyfriends favorite porn category is probably teen too. How are they different?! Like I said your men are just future old pigs too.

No. 1515407

>>1515405
I would break up with my Nigel if he decided he wanted to view rape on tape. It’s a dealbreaker in any relationship that I lay out right away, if they want porn, I’ll make them some or we can make some together. And I expect all nudes of ex’s to be deleted.

No. 1515408

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Is it wrong to continuously have sexual fantasies about a man who doesn’t like you

No. 1515412

>>1515405
NTA but normal men who date women their age or even older women when they can date younger women probably don't prefer teens but in your case, a 60 year old man fucking you just because you're 25 means he only wants you because you're young and he's more likely to be a teen chaser creep.
Not all men are pedos or teen chasers and thinking they're all pedos so you can make yourself feel better about catering to old pedos is retarded. You're just as disgusting as those old men.

No. 1515414

>>1515378
Thank you for your honesty. I will remember this post and others like it whenever I see some anon claim older men are superior, or that nonnies are nonces (or "intimidated by muh real men") for wanting to date handsome men our own age and/or with full heads of hair.

No. 1515415

>>1515407
your boyfriend probably watches porn every day

No. 1515416

>>1515404
ugly-chan also doesn't realize that the men she is fucking are the throwaway men who those Patricia's have divorced or dumped.
She cant even get the ACTUAL rich or famous old men (because then she would also have to compete) so she settles for sucking the dick of old, ugly middle class boomers while calling old women Patricia's to cope with the fact that she soon will be turning 30 kek.

No. 1515419

I hope my stalker in setting me free lives a prosperous life alone in the mountains, with no technology to obsess over, bored out of his skull, until he perishes from a new strain of syphilis. Fuck you, diseased cock

No. 1515420

Last night I started doing dishes at 11pm. It was one of those days where I had cleaned the kitchen that morning but it was disgusting again by night, you know. I went downstairs to prepare a midnight snack for bf & I, but I got distracted trying to clean. I knew it was gonna be on me to clean anyway the next day and I was tired of looking at the state.
We had dropped some shrooms and I had a bit of energy, so I thought why not clean up if it so fancies me? I was being responsible, productive, and making sure I had one less chore to do today. Plus…I didn't want to attract bugs.
Bf popped his head down the stairwell a few times acting agitated that I was cleaning and kept telling me to just do it tomorrow. I got the impression he felt shame because he knew I was cleaning by myself but he couldn't reconcile his guilt cause he knew he didn't want to help, not that I asked him to.

I was almost finished. The kitchen looked so much better. I was hesitant to go back upstairs cause I knew bf was pissy so maybe unconsciously at that point I did want to avoid him. Then bf stormed down the stairs and started splitting at me. He was furious at me cause apparently me doing dishes was my way of avoiding him upstairs and he had been waiting an hour for me to finish which made me inconsiderate and selfish. Bear in mind we spend all day, everyday, hanging out and doing shit together as it is.
I asked him why if he was feeling lonely, he didn't come watch tv or hang out downstairs while I cleaned?
He threw an even bigger tantrum cause me suggesting he join me downstairs or self-soothing by occupying himself (not to help me clean–but just to be around me if he felt abandoned) was me trying to "bend him to my will." He wanted me to watch him play a video game and was apparently really upset that I did not come back upstairs to do that.
It turned into a fight because he cannot accept that the way he thinks is unhinged. He projects his own selfishness and guilty feelings onto me as if I am a bad faith actor. Like why the fuck are you yelling at your woman cleaning your dishes and prepping your snack because she didn't watch your manbaby game? I like video games but I don't care that much so he could have started it and I wouldn't have given a fuck. I didn't yell or raise my voice back and yet he was yelling at me and acting so ridiculous. I really got him angry when I pointed out that he was upstairs sitting relaxed while I was downstairs doing shit so it made zero sense to be so mad at me–"NO ANON, I WAS STARING AT MY SCREEN WAITING FOR YOU FOR AN HOUR I WAS NOT RELAXED!" Then it cumulates to him threatening to kill himself, end the relationship, and me comforting him crying cause he just tries so hard for me but I always just want to do what I want. He brings up that he's ill and tired–ok bf, so that means you shouldn't be staying up so late to play a video game anyway and we should go to bed and you should definitely call your therapist/doctor like I have begging for weeks–NO, NOT LIKE THAT, I JUST GOTTA DO WHAT HE WANTS TO MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER!!!
After his fit was over, he tried to retcon his problem with me cleaning saying that it isn't "healthy" for me to clean at night cause I was high on shrooms and that I needed to drink water…
I. was. fine. there. was. nothing. wrong. with. me.
I think he has undiagnosed BPD, I love him but he acts worse than a teenager.

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Gave my number to someone for the first time in my life, no texts as of yet. I don't have high hopes, but I'm getting pissed. I really put myself out there to no avail. Nobody has ever loved me. The only person to ever crush on me was a fat kid in first grade, and again in high school when a weird kid apparently loved me, but only texted that to a girl after he left. I didn't like him, and knowing that he loved me during gym class when we went rock climbing means he probably stared up at my pussy. Also I was in a really bad place and was holding in my tears and I think he saw that.
Anyway why can't this boy fall in love with me? Do I need to start stifling tears in front of him or something? What makes a male fall in love with a girl? I will strangle him. No I won't. Yes I will.

No. 1515422

>>1515416
You completely misunderstood I wasn't mocking old women at all. I guess that's what set off your extreme aggression

No. 1515423

>>1515378
the uggo woman in the pic looks middle-aged and im guessing you are a prematurely aged uggo too.

Also i know you are baiting but its kinda funny that your talking about not having to compete with old women yet in the picrelated its literally a woman begging a man (who probably doesnt even know about her existence) to leave his wife for her….that looks like competing to me…well failed competing.

No. 1515424

>>1515378
I understand how some anons can be very decisive about things but i think they're being a bit too rough on you.
I myself find age gaps repelling and particularly hate old moids but i see that you're struggling with how you feel about your situation.
First of all, i think you need to have some good hold of yourself and not crave "male" attention or presence so much, i understand that you didn't get enough before but your happiness is not given only by the hands of a guy.
I will not deny that it's pretty obvious that old men don't want to date people like you for genuine romantic feelings and i will not deny that this happens with men around your age as well minus the extra effort but not every guy acts the same, maybe try to look into different environments.
I'm not saying that you should turn lesbian or something, but you definitely need to calibrate a bit the way you perceive your own happiness and romantic feelings.

No. 1515425

>>1515421
>What makes a male fall in love with a girl? I will strangle him. No I won't. Yes I will.
Dating is literally impossible.

No. 1515427

>>1515422
>set off your extreme aggression
we are on a imageboard, people are more amused by you in a bad way than being ''aggressive''. Trust me no one is threatened by you. You're safe. I guess when you turn 30 you can compete with 80 year old grandmas lmao.

No. 1515428

>>1515425
This boy seems so special to the point where I think he might actually be special. Like, a sped.

No. 1515433

>>1515422
Nta but I'm the first anon that replied to you and I'm 21 myself. You're disgustingly old to be acting like getting used by old men is something to share without a shame while calling other women old Patricias.
You're almost 30 yourself and it's obvious you're trying to cope with the fact that soon, no one will even want to use you because you have a shitty personality and a collection of mental illnesses that means any normal person will know to stay away from you.

No. 1515434

>>1515378
>me not understanding why some women want to opt out of being women.
>seeing shit like this.

Whore monkey biology at it again. Eugenics aint so bad after all.(terrible bait)

No. 1515436

>>1515421
You look like a character coming from a Natsuo Kirino's novel. The boy must not be in love with you, but be sure that i will always remember you with love and write characters like you. Maybe even have a platonic obsession with you. Are you happy? I do hope that you remember me forever, because now we have a connection for life.

No. 1515438

>>1515415
Having sex with a moid who isn’t pornsick is a unique experience and once you’ve had it you’ll always be able to tell if a man has had their mind poisoned by porn or if they’re pure.

No. 1515439

>>1515434
This is like %1 of women, it's the rare sighting of a femcel who can't get a relationship even with old shitty men. It shouldn't make you generalize women.

No. 1515440

>>1515378
I don't see what's the special effort about a sparkle glitter bear text or being asked to become a live-in roommate? Imo not worth the mediocre old dick or the embarassing judgement from strangers.

I know men 30 and below are losers and don't care as much anon but at least make sure there's more in it for you cause it sounds like the barest of minimums.

No. 1515441

>>1515434
>Whore monkey
Saying things like this about random anons here just means men will have an easier time coming here to call women all sorts of retarded whores and cockbrained sluts as long as they tack "i'm a blackpilled feminist btw" at the end of all their posts. I'm not expecting you to change anything, but don't act surprised lol.

No. 1515442

>>1515441
There's one newfag who pretends to be a "blackpill feminist" while shitting on every other anon using the the weirdest most misogynistic insults. I think she's been banned a few times already but she keeps coming back.

No. 1515444

>>1515424
Thank you nonnie for not yelling at me. The irony is I'm disgusted by age gaps too. I've seen age gap documentaries and feel so angry with these old men and I SEE how a lot of the women they choose are losers or vulnerable like me. Like one I saw she clearly had autism and needed a parental figure. Once in a while I feel extreme disgust and distance myself from the old guy and hate myself for being so desperate. This feels like a mistake I have to live through to learn from and I look forward to my 30s or 40s when I can finally think what the fuck have I done and move on with life in solitude.

>>1515430

I'm not saying being an older woman is bad I didn't mean it in a negative way. I meant that these old guys I'm with can't get the pretty confident older women, they can only get the frumpy chubby ones.

Anyway I'm out of this thread I was just trying to admit something I'm embarrassed by and bothers me so much. It started in my teens when boys at school would just make fun of me so I'd go online and these groomers would call me pretty. Now I'm back to it again because clearly I didn't learn. Again I know my situation is retarded but the truth is I just really want to be shown affection like anyone else and again I have autism so I have no idea how to go on about it.

No. 1515445

>>1515436
I don't know what this means

No. 1515446

>>1515436
based fellow natsuo kirino fan. grotesque?
Out has probs some of my favourite ever female characters, we need more unhinged women in fiction.

No. 1515447

>>1515408
Honestly i'm with you nona, but I can't tell it to anyone.
I think mine comes from the fact that I always had too many boring moids being fake and flirty with me so the idea of finding an attractive one that only wants to consume our flesh and nothing else is comforting.

No. 1515448

>>1515433
this whole situation reminds me of this ugly 35 year old woman i met online who was clinging on to her youth so bad and was defending age-gaps between old men-young women. Me and other people in that online group were discussing the bad things when it comes to age-gap relationships and she got so mad and butthurt and started calling all of us old bitches as a insult and then left. Then when i looked at her profile and she was extremely hideous and older than all of us (we were all teenagers meanwhile she was 35 and bragging about how young she is and complained about old women).

>>1515444
You dont have to backpedal we all know what you meant when you said you don't have to compete with ''50 year old patricia's''. Also who is to say you are not frumpy too.

No. 1515449

can we focus on hating moids instead of each other? it's exactly what they want
men created this problem, WE should be the sexual selectors. they've flipped the fucking script on us and they cannot get away with it any longer.
this nona may be butterface, some of the best people in the world are. her self worth has been eroded by moids, let's not perpetuate it. heal with me my sisters.

inb4 "troon hands typed this" I'm a 32yo radfem and I hate seeing this. you are all amazing. I'm sorry but you are

No. 1515451

>>1515445
That you have a secret obsessed friend that thinks you are cool and that we are connected transcendentally by our essences. You may as well be a insect woman.

>>1515446
Oh, Natsuo Kirino is almost like a mother to me. I'm obsessed to her to a level of feeling like crying with happiness when i see videos of her, Grotesque is very good, but i love how disgusting and unhinged the whole narrative of Out is, i'm also obsessed with Masako so i love Out, i think that the "plot twists" Natsuo does are wonderful, but in Grotesque they don't have the goreish disgusting nature that Out haves, with rape, death, dismemberment, all those things. Have you read The goddess chronicle? It made me own my painful essence as a woman (and an insect woman, of course).

No. 1515452

>>1515448
Yeah that's honestly the case modt of the time. Whenever I see a woman talk about hating older women, she's usually old herself. Young women don't hate older women, why would we? When I see a 50 year old woman, I think she's either pretty or cute for her age, I don't go thinking how I'm better than her in competition and could easily steal her man away because like… Why would I think of such disgusting shit?

No. 1515454

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so my relationship with sex is… a fucking mess. i was sexually abused as a child and again as a teenager. my experience with consensual sex is extremely limited. i only started being sexually active recently and even then im not /having sex/ in the traditional sense. i know i have no one to blame but myself for this but i put on this persona of being super sexual and open but when i get into a situation where i’m actually about to have sex i get scared. i’ve had this persona since i was a teenager. i mean, i like the idea of sex but i don’t like the act itself. i like fantasizing about sex but i don’t like actually having sex. it’s not my partner’s fault as i act as if i like everything happening but i can’t help but feel so lonely and sad when my cries and pushing away is taken as me liking it rather then wanting everything to stop. i want the sweet kind of love, i don’t want to be choked and slapped anymore. but that idea seems so foreign.

No. 1515456

>>1515451
Stop scaring me, I'm not in the right state of mind for this, I'm angry that this stupid male won't text me even though he probably has no friends in his life because he's too shy to do anything about anything. WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER TRYING, EACH DAY WORSE THAN THE LAST

No. 1515457

My mom fucking sperged out at me on the phone and now I'm crying and feeling like crap about myself. My crime? Daring to tell her I don't want to talk about family drama she's vented about to me a gallion times. She texted me sorry about that conversation I love you but honestly I don't forgive her. She's always fucking treating me like that I told her she should get a therapist to talk about this stuff instead of forcing me to hear it all the time but SHE'S allowed to tell me to get therapy. Miss had a fucking kid die and didn't even get therapy. She's a hypocritical witch. I hope she's crying right now too. ASSHOLE!!!!!

No. 1515459

Silly thing to be frustrated over but my bf and I were getting intimate, boat's sailing and it's getting all hot but then he starts being a retard, making jokes and weird sounds which stop being funny and turn me off after 2 minutes and now I'm just super frustrated and bummed out. Always happens when I lose the feeling of arousal so suddenly without orgasm. Stupid thing to be upset about but now I feel like a fuckin idiot.

No. 1515464

>>1515456
I'm not trying to scare you, i'm just saying that i find you very fascinanting, at least. Well, if you want help in such thing, i would tell you that you can just go and talk to the boy, instead of getting crazy because YOU can't talk to him and he may not talk to you. But uhm, i do think that you should stop obsessing over him and start focusing in a hobbie. If he doesn't like you enough, it's only going to hurt you even if you get into a relationship… but still, you have an admirer (me), and you should be happy! Nobody has ever loved you but i do love you, in a platonic way!

Are you happy? Can i have your email?

No. 1515466

>>1515451
>insect woman
nona I am fascinated, how do I know if I am an insect woman? my patronus is a praying mantis if that helps

also re: natsuo omg I fucking love her so much too!!!!!! I haven't read it but I'm gonna track it down asap. do you also enjoy Yoko Ogawa? her writing gives me a similar feeling. also Sayaka Murata is a goddess. each book gets more PALPABLE, you can almost taste the atmosphere. Life Ceremony is pure genius, especially the short story about the sentient curtain.
I could bookfag all day about japanese literature eeeeeee I love you based kirino-chan

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>>1515464
I tried talking to him, I think he's autistic and I have hobbies, go get hit by a train you weirdo

No. 1515475

>>1515290
thank you! it stopped about two hours ago, I ate a vegemite sanga and my mouth hurts but way better! thank you for your advice. how has your day been?
I have recurring sinus problems so I'll definitely use your trick. miserable day but venting with you guys is so cathartic, thank you for listening (and you nona for replying)
I hope you all have a great day/night, genuinely. love you guys, I'm fucken so gay for lolcow

No. 1515477

>>1515466
Nonna, i could write for hours about being an insect woman! Do you want to know? Can i have your email? I'm always so afraid of people who don't like Natsuo enough talking about her things, but you seem like someone who's genuine! It may seem like i'm a strange lady but i'm very cool and chill. I… swear.

Please, read it! I don't know any other authors because i'm afraid i'm going to find something not so good as Natsuo or the books don't have women as main characters (i'm only reading books with women as main characters now), but i do know Yoko makes thrillers and mysteries too! I had never seen Sayaka, though. Have you ever read anything by Kanae Minato? She's also genius, i even read something from her that was not a thriller and it was so beautiful, touching and revolting. Kanae Minato is not an insect woman, different from Natsuo Kirino. I love you too, japanese bookfag nonna!!!!

>>1515467
Well, we are still connected, though, so keep being angry! You are what you are and i still admire you. I would love to be hit by a train, by the way! But not now, now i have to take care of the person i love. You should be happy, as i said before.

No. 1515479

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when will my brain develop into whatever shape all normal people's brains have and i become depression free i feel like im too old to be suffering from couldnt get up from bed because i was too busy feeling miserable

No. 1515480

WHAT IS AN INSECT WOMAN

No. 1515493

>>1515477
you 100% can have my throwaway but like how lmao
should I post and delete? I trust most nonas but I know moids and troons lurk and post
we gotta keep japlitfagging I feel you girl, insect women has me absolutely interested. how are we insect women and how can we rise to insect level?
praying mantis are most based animal ever, the female urge in insect form

No. 1515495

I found one of the reasons of my anxiety but it doesn't make it better. Do I choose sugarless misery or sweet anxiety?

No. 1515499

>>1515493
Post it and delete! I'm pretty sure they are not going to see it and it's going to be a throwaway anyways, so it's okay? I can give you all insect woman info i have! Praying mantis are adorable, but have you seem anything about ants and bees? They are so based! Anything about insects is extremelly cool. I'm with the thread open so feel free to post the email.

No. 1515502

>>1515500
GOT IT, delete it nonny

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No. 1515506

>>1515502
>>1515499
got you girl, spam me with all the insect lore. my dream job was entomologist before I wanted to be a mortician so I think we will be fast friends
love you already insect lady, it's 3am here so I might not reply for a bit but ILY! send me whatever strikes your fancy I'm excited to read what you have to say konchū-chan! have a beautiful day

No. 1515519

My stupid cat took a shit in her litter box, decided to leave before taking a shit properly, decided to smear poop in my room and in the living room and while my mother and I were cleaning everything she peed on my parents' bed. I literally just took a shower right before that and I feel like going back in the bathtub for a second one jesus fucking christ.

No. 1515525

fuckk I ruined my favourite pokemon t shirt, I put it in the washing machinę with a pair of jeans and a hoodie and the t shirt came out with almost the entire print gone, it looks like it's been scratched off and the colors are so washed out it's way less visible than before, it looks like some old t shirt from the 90s fuckkkkkk I didn't know it could happen

No. 1515526

>>1515519
My cat did that too sometimes, he would get the zoomies while he was still shitting and jump out of the litter box with his poop flying around. I miss him

No. 1515528

>>1515519
double shower all day if it makes you feel better nona.
if it's any consolation (I keep meaning to fucking vent about this holy shit) when I moved back into my mum's her dementia-ridden dog pisses on EVERYTHING and shits EVERYWHERE and she gets home and says WHO DID THIS and screams in his old tiny face and I stg if she had've traiined that poor beautiful puppy or he had've been owned by anyone else he would have a great life. she feeds him shit food, 0 training, leaves him in a house next to a dog park and never walks him. his back leg is fucked and he can't jump anymore, his teeth are rotting out of his head and his nails are painfully long and theres nothing I can do. too poor to help, can't get him to sit still to trim his nails or brush his teeth. everything I try the next day he does it again. it's exhausting and miserable and I can see why I turned out like I did. this little pure soul is suffering from literal neglect and when you try and tell her she gets SO defensive. I almost feel like begging my brother to take him, he lives 6 hours away and has big dogs but he would be better off with them.
sorry for the rant nona I feel you. my nigel's cat is so traumatised by his sister (who originally got her) that when his retarded roommate berks out she leaves and doesn't come back for a whole day. some people don't deserve pets (not a dig at you, just the situation)
I hope you can get her feeling better and doing less bullshit, nobody deserves to wake up to that. the amount of piss-soaked shoes and socks I've thrown out and just gotten back in the shower about are myriad, you aren't alone.
I hope your day gets better. it will, I promise. manifesting that shit for you rn like the cringelord I am.

No. 1515536

I sent a selfie to a YOUNG guy and his response? A thumbs up and ghosting.

No. 1515537

>>1515454
Nona this is so normal and so common with women who have a history of abuse, down to the t. You’re not a freak. Ily

No. 1515545

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i'm so tired. i've been taking classes for two years now and barely passing them, just procrastinating everything until the last second and then going on adderall binges pulling allnighters to finish everything in the last 72 hours or so. i do this every single time. and i'm here in this situation again with two upcoming exams next week as well as two big papers i haven't even started yet due next sunday when the courses end. and i just can't do it anymore. i just can't study, i can't concentrate, i'm so tired and these subjects are honestly hard to understand in a way the previous ones haven't been. i know i only have myself to blame, i don't know how i ended up here yet again because EVERY TIME i finish my courses i go "oh thank god, i'm never putting myself through that shit again, i'm gonna study effectively now and not procrastinate this time". and then i do it all over again. and now i feel like i'm really at my limit, like idk if i'm actually going to make it this time. i just feel like i'm completely out of whatever juice enabled me to do this all the previous times. fuck

No. 1515548

My bf went on a shopping spree yesterday and bought a bunch of things casually: another macbook, 3 more casio watches, a lot of expensive clothes and he's also planning on buying another gaming laptop as well. I felt so fucking envious because I know I'm never going to be able to afford a macbook or even drop the amount of money he spent yesterday. When we go out we always split the bill and pay 50-50 but we've been having talks of moving in together and I'm dreading it because he wants a 'nice, big apartment' and the rent will probably take off 1/3 of my salary, whereas he would lose only 1/7 of his. He works in IT and I know he worked hard to get where he is but I cannot help but feel envious af

No. 1515557

>>1515545
Maybe it's ADHD? Anyway I was coincidentally put on beta blockers for migraines and it helped me to focus. After that I could set a 10 minute timer to look at 1 page and actually manage to internalise the message they were trying to convey. I could also conceptualise the amount of time I had before the exam and how realistic it actually was that I could cover the subject within that time. It was crazy going from what you're describing to actually knowing the contents of all the lectures and how it all fit together. Maybe try get something prescribed for anxiety.

No. 1515560

>>1515548
You really need to talk about financial expectations before you move in together. Before we moved in together, my now-husband and I sat down together an disclosed all of our bills and income. We devised a budget that feels fair to both of us. He makes a lot more than I do. He pays for rent, internet, and utilities, his own insurance and phone bill, and has our only car. I pay for groceries, my own insurance, my own phone, both of our toiletries, and gifts for holidays an birthdays for friends and family. We both set money aside in savings, and we both have a home furnishings budget that we spend on things for the household. We also each have money of our own to spend on things we want personally. He has more than I do, but it feels proportionate. This has worked for us, but it's not the only way to do it. A lot of couples put money into a shared account and use that for all shared expenses. What's important is that you both feel like you have a fair split that you can live with. You should both have roughly the same percent of your income left over at the end of each month.

No. 1515570

>>1515557
i do have adhd and take medication for it aswell as anxiety meds when i need to. it doesn't really help that much, although i don't take my adhd meds regularly and haven't ever really managed to yet because i don't like the side effects, so i guess that can factor in. i don't know what beta blockers are, i'll look into it though because that sounds nice. i'm kind of medically illiterate as you can tell kek. the thing i really feel is an issue is that i study from home and can't change it, i can't get classes in person or even in zoom, it's simply not available where i live atm. i feel like the one time i'm able to retain information is by lectures where i can ask questions and take notes. but i guess i should try to look for other solutions. just feel like the stress is taking a huge toll on me and it all feels so daunting rn.

No. 1515579

>>1515548
>50/50
Lmao why are women doing this to themselves

No. 1515587

>>1515548
Set a limit how much you're willing to pay for your "half" of the rent, if he wants a bigger better nicer appartment than twice the half (yours and his) pays for, he'll have to pay for the difference. Not sure why you're even going 50/50 when he's earning significantly more. He's presumably not working significantly harder or more hours in a week than you do.

No. 1515597

>>1515548
Wtf is the point of having a rich bf if you still have to live like you did when you were single?

No. 1515599

>>1515579
oh fuck off, you really cant win as a woman. If a woman choses the independent girlboss lifestyle she gets shit on by fds people like you but if she choses to rely on a man for money then she get shit on by so called ''radfems''.

No. 1515603

>>1515599
Nta but if a man can sit there and buy all this nice stuff for himself I front of your face knowing you could never afford it he doesn’t like you or care about you kek

No. 1515604

>>1515548
This is why you need to talk about your financial situation and set expectations/boundaries.

No. 1515616

>>1515579
I noticed men like this will go 50/50 with their gf they met when they were broke and then they get money and meet some narcissistic instagram baddie or e girl and give them all their money without even having to be asked

No. 1515618

>>1515603
seriously. my boyfriend doesnt have a job right now but last time he did all he wanted to do was buy stuff for me, this girls is legitimately wealthy like owns 3 macbooks and doesnt even think about her? he sounds way too self absorbed to be anyones boyfriend.

No. 1515621

>>1515618
stop living in delusional land. You and all the other fds ''baddies'' have never been around actual rich people and its shows. This is actually very normal behavior for rich people. They are every stingy when it comes to others and barely spend on others even if its a partner.
Even waiters talk about how their rich customers always leave them very low tips.

No. 1515623

>>1515621
Nta, did you just want to sperg about FDS? Anon's boyfriend should be helping her more and shouldn't let so many expenses fall on her when she makes so much less than him, that's that.

No. 1515626

>>1515621
Wealthy men aren’t stingy with women they actually like, I know because I’ve dated rich guys who never wanted to give me anything but then they get a woman they actually like and buy her all kinds of stupid shit and they don’t have to pay half on a 100 dollar meal. Stop being delusional.

No. 1515627

I have barely any friends and I feel like such a loser. Why am I so unlikeable?

No. 1515629

>>1515623
well too bad, she should find a sugar daddy then if she wants someone to pay her for the sole purpose of dating them.
>>1515626
>I’ve dated rich guys
im sure you have….lol.

No. 1515632

>>1515629
You’re a scrote or a woman who lets men play with her which is why you’re triggered by this conversation

No. 1515633

>>1515632
schizo-chan can there be one argument here that doesn't revolve around you accusing other anons of being scrotes?

No. 1515636

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I wish the scrote in ot would just fuck off to wash his foreskin or whatever, also debating on weather I should go do late night grocery shopping as there's gonna be busy days and a possible public transport strike coming up but I don't feel like going out to the cold, 1st world problems truly.

No. 1515637

>>1515633
On paper a man paying 50/50 for everything is fair and logical but this is not how scrotes think. If a guy has money and wants to pay 50/50 there is usually an ulterior motive.

No. 1515641

>>1515637
there was a anon in a different thread that got jumped at by all the anons because she said her man pays for her lifestyle, rent and everything else. Anons proceeded to attack her and claim that her partner will leave her one day and that this was against feminism bla bla bla.

But you accused me of being the scrote for saying if she wanted a partner who gives her money she would be a sugar baby and the original poster didn't even say she wants him to provide for her so i dont know why anons turned this into a 50/50.

What is she supposed to do? Be a mistress for a old rich scrote, because in the year 2023 only old scrotes are desperate enough to pay, then you are the same type of people who would also attack her for relying on a man for money.

No. 1515644

everyone here is a male

No. 1515647

>>1515629
>if she wants someone to pay her for the sole purpose of dating them.
Anon never said or even indicated that she was with him for money, so wtf are you sperging about? You seem like you read into the OP and the replies because you have some hateboner about FDS, which isn't even relevant to this.

No. 1515648

>>1515641
>should she be a mistress

No she should be single until she finds someone who isn’t using her for a come up. He doesn’t buy he anything or live with her so her life style isn’t going to change anyway. This relationship is not going to last anyway because as soon as his type comes around and he can afford her now he’s going to leave.

No. 1515655

>>1515621
what? im not an "fds baddie" my boyfriend is literally just my friend and life partner lmao, i will agree with you that rich people are stingy though because most of them are bad people.

No. 1515662

>>1515641
To be fair, anons here have and are allowed to have different opinions. That said I do think there's a difference between going 50/50 when your partner earns more than twice your income and having your entire lifestyle funded by a partner without securing a backup (plan) in case that money falls away. Not sure if that was the case with the anon you mentioned. Imo if an anon has a man who can fund her expensive lifestyle but still has a means to make a comfortable living, even if that means of sobering her lifestyle and expenses, in case it doesn't work out then she should definitely do that. Key is not being reliant on an outside source to put food on the table and have shelter if you can, you don't have to avoid making use of any coin that doesn't directly come from your own wallet.

I swear nuance is often lost around here.

No. 1515685

>>1515621
Okay and? No one likes dating stingy people anyways. If a moid has a fucktom of money and refuses to use it then what’s the fucking point? These retreats don’t just live below their means, they use money as a bargaining chip for literally EVERYTHING in life. They rarely see others as whole humans, just leeches who think spending $50 on a nice meal is some underhanded scheme to drain their wallet and not a nice way to spend time together kek.

No. 1515689

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I faced childhood neglect in favour of a disabled boy, but now it's disabled men that are coddled. My creativity and talents were overlooked due to a boy's disruptive attitude. But now they're men and women have to coddle men. I can't forgive them! I'm done with moids, and their stupid image boards. Fuck them.

No. 1515692

I was throwing away some stuff in the dumpster and this lady was standing in her storm door just staring from her unit. I stared back at her and she continued no expression. I toss more stuff look back and she's still staring. I drop what I'm holding and grin at her and wave super widely. She doesn't react no expression on her face but slowly steps backwards from the door and I don't see her again
It was so funny
People in this neighborhood love to stare like children of the corn but if you acknowledge them they won't acknowledge you back. Dementia maybe

No. 1515695

>>1515449
I agree, it's divide and conqor. They're ruining sisterhood.

No. 1515698

>>1515603
>Nta but if a man can sit there and buy all this nice stuff for himself I front of your face knowing you could never afford it he doesn’t like you or care about you kek
I got massive "he's an absolute piece of Shit" vibes from that post and I try very hard to be as non-judgemental and aloof as possible whenever I walk in here

No. 1515705

This is really stupid but I hate how pink pantheress' song w ice spice is getting taken over by moids. They shit on the song for being super girly and it irritates me that all the top comments are either men making fun of being girly or hidden disses to ice spice. The girls who actually enjoy this type of stuff are getting pushed to the side in favor of men who want to complain or don't take the song seriously. Some anons here say that men have this irrational hatred for things that are unapologetically "GIRLS ONLY. BOYS NOT ALLOWED" and I think maybe this is why they're trying to make their presence so big whenever a video mentioning this song pops up. The video and song are clearly not for moids so i guess that's why they're trying to take over her comment section to jam themselves into this.

No. 1515711

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Lmao hope bf enjoys his evening alone because he wanted to get super defensive and salty over me thinking his precious edgelord Corpse Husband is an attention whore like ALL gaming streamers who avatarfag are.
Maybe don't force me to watch cloutchaser videos trying to paint him sympathetically and get offended when I have a different opinion about it?

Imagine calling your girlfriend who takes care of your ass a "negative" person because she dissed your parasocial relationship with an emo munchie fatty bomblatty who doesn't even gaf that you exist!!!
Aren't I such a bad person for thinking internet personalities should have a thicker skin? According to my bf, that means I condone slander and doxxing.

No. 1515713

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I've realized my mother is just too mentally ill to sustain a relationship with. I wanted to believe I can just be low-contact, not no-contact, but now when I go stay at her place I see she has actually gotten more unhinged. I really see how narcissists get even crazier with old age. Probably because they're more desperate to cling onto their N-supply.

Maybe I could continue to just have a relationship with her over the phone, but first I have to move somewhere where she won't know my physical location and that is as far away from her as possible. She knows where my apartment is now and keeps trying to come over uninvited. She just did again and kept knocking repeatedly, not wanting to leave.

She does all of this just because she doesn't hear from me for two days. She's threatened to call the police before because of me not picking up on her obsessive unhinged calling, so I just called the police to warn them in advance. She's even gone as far to learn my previous roommate's phone number and try and contact me through her. If she can't get in contact, she also sends my stepdad after me. This madwoman is a complete fucking pest that will bother everyone around me if I try to get rid of her.

No. 1515716

>>1515711
CH has male fans???

No. 1515717

>>1515711
please anon, tell me you're barely allowed to post here because what type of middle school bullshit. you're right though.

No. 1515723

>>1515711
Your boyfriend sounds like a tif kek

No. 1515732

>>1515711
Holy shit he sounds so annoying.

No. 1515756

When I was 12 and younger, people knew me as kind of a callous and spadish person, they could be annoyed with it but there were at least no other expectations and I stayed true to myself. Then I tried being more diplomatic and accepting and I feel like it killed my authenticity. It didn't do me any good at all, people have wrong idea about me and I can see now how some of them get annoyed with me when I act like my old, more natural self. Idc though, I guess I'm just really tired of some people in my life. Of those who clearly have main character syndrome or use me like a toilet for their anxious thoughts and emotions for example. I know I'm naturally shitty at maintaining relationships and I probably can't be a real good friend but I seriously don't care anymore and not going to pretend I'm something I'm really not. Many things still seem stupid and meaningless to me, I don't really get people generally and I don't think I should try, I guess I never actually matured and will always feel like an alien.

No. 1515757

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>>1515711
Judging by your post I can tell he can't give you orgasms and would be more likely to lick the sweat off a male internet personality's scrotum than rub your feet. I think you should dispose of him and tell his mom and dad that it's because you found out he was having anal sex with pic related (attach picture). Then tell his parents to send this picture to their son without any words to see his reaction. Then block them both.

No. 1515763

So I’ve been with my bf 6 years and love him, he’s great, I won’t spurge about it in a vent thread but trust me when I say I’m lucky I found a good one.
So why has my brain got me crushing on a dude I’ve known in our scene who reeks of toxicity, not even conventionally attractive yet here I am thirsting.
Not seen this dude in a while but last I did me, my bf and a group of old college friends got together and got drunk, when we were all leaving he kissed me on the cheek and said let’s do drinks next time I’m in his city.
Well next week I am in his city and considering meeting up with him? I wouldn’t cheat on my bf because it’s a shitty thing to do and not worth ruining that relationship for this scrote but why do I feel like a fucking skank for wanting this guy to think I’m hot and cool.

No. 1515769

>>1515763
Nonna, you don't love your boyfriend. You don't truly love him, or else you would never feel like that towards another man, true love has a purity that supports itself, it's not about you forcing yourself to not feel that, but naturally not feeling that. I'm unable to feel attracted to another man because they are 1. disgusting 2. i'm only able to love one person. I'm not judging you, i'm telling you just to not be hard on yourself since you are not loving. I recommend you stay single until you find someone you truly love, do you want to live with such feelings forever?

No. 1515773

>>1515763
Why are you even considering that? Why are you more concerned with what some asshole thinks of you than your “good one” bf of 6 years? I don’t think you like your bf very much.

No. 1515776

>>1515763
>I wouldn’t cheat on my bf
Watch anon come back in a week like "Guys I made a mistake…"

No. 1515781

>>1515757
The face that made a thousand twitter femcoomers commit suicide

No. 1515784

>>1515781
a lot of them still deny this is him i find it so interesting

No. 1515790

>>1515763
Nonna, I recommend you to think what this guy has (or what you think he has or could give you) that your bf doesn't or what you might lack in your life in general. I know you said that you wouldn't cheat, but either way I think it's important to analyze such obsessions because it might show what changes you should make in your life. You might even simply lack spontaneity and excitement, and sometimes cheating or starting new relationships might seem like an easy solution but it's definitely not worth it, and if I were you, I'd be careful with that guy tbh, even if you feel like you have everything under control. If there's some dissatisfaction, it might affect you subconsciously. I hope it doesn't come off patronizing

No. 1515791

>>1515711
Holy shit, this was exactly like my ex just because I didn't agree with the opinions of his precious breadtubers, right down to accusing me of supporting doxxing, harassing, and slandering. No I just find them annoying and all the other internet streamer and YouTube personalities. I don't know what is it with moids who get so personally offended with this kind of thing. They're probably retarded enough to take parasocial relationships seriously.

No. 1515798

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I want to peak my mom because she's going hardcore TRA now and it's fucking retarded. I'm talking pro-changerooms, pro-sports, pro-draqueen-storytime, pro-this-never-happens. When she talks about it now I just let her, I argued my points to her a few times and she went from agreeing with me, to jokingly calling me a terf, to getting angry because she wants to agree with everything the left says but she clearly has not put enough thought into this issue to have any sort of argument in it's favor. When we were arguing about womens sports she said, I shit you not "I don't care, I don't play sports" and I was fucking appalled. My mom considers herself a feminist, and she's fucking 60 years old. Oh, and she thinks JKR is a terf(but still loves HP, I wonder what her twitter friends would think of that kek).

I know she doesn't really believe in it, it's the fact that she goes along with political peer pressure that really bothers me. Believe it or not she's a pretty intelligent person, I'm just so disappointed in her nonnies. At least I know my dad stays tight lipped on the issue because he 100% does not agree.

No. 1515803

trans inclusive radical feminists are so fucking retarded and annoying. what the fuck do you mean to liberate women we must abolish the sex binary & how the fuck are u gonna abolish .. sex?? is that even possible?? how is that even going to change moids & their terror on women?? fucking chronic fart sniffers. sometimes i wish i was as mad as them, it must be so fun up there. ignorance is bliss or whatever

No. 1515806

I'm so upset, I really hope I can get this huge ink stain off my collector's item… I can't buy a replacement because they don't exist on the secondary market.

No. 1515826

>bored and occasionally a bit lonely from being sick in bed for a few days
>wonder if I should start lightly socializing again with some friends I quietly distanced myself from previously out of distaste in their shitty behavior (all around just crappy egotistical people), just to kill time at least while I’m bored
>go look at their social media to gauge how I feel about messaging them again
>everyone in that group either posting weird puritanical religious stuff or disgusting furry/trans fetish/yellow fever/anime coomer shit
Jesus Christ, how did I ever put up with those people at all. Yeah, I’ll just be mildly bored for a few days during times my other friends are busy until I get better, wtf.

No. 1515849

I'm so sad because my boyfriend lost $350 of my money that was supposed to be for paying my apartment bills. My mom was biching at me to pay them and I gave him my card to take money from the ATM, since I can't go personally, I have a broken leg and 6 more weeks of non weight bearing.
This year sucks the most for me.

No. 1515854

i hate my drug dealer mom and her big fat stinkin ass like how are you a drug dealer and fat. cant wait to move out.

No. 1515855

>>1515849
he definitely didn't lose it.

No. 1515857

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>>1515803
Trans-inclusive radfems are the equivalent of this. The mental retardation, I swear.

No. 1515863


No. 1515884

I've had a tendency towards avoidance since I was a little kid and kind of assumed it would improve with age, but instead it keeps getting so much worse to the point that it's actually starting to ruin my life for real. Just in the past few weeks I completely fucked up several extremely important job/academic things and lost out on major opportunities because I'm a massive retard who avoids everything even remotely stressful and can't talk to people. My social life also disappeared for the same avoidant reasons (although admittedly it was barely existent to begin with), I have no friends and haven't talked to my family in forever either. And it feels stupid to even bitch about it since it's all objectively my own fault.

No. 1515899

I’ve been more than a week now since I had my biopsy taken for “c” and I still haven’t had a call back. I’m scared it was found positive and they’re testing to see the severity of it since it’s taking so long(doctor said it would take 5 to 7 days for a call back and I read not getting a quicker response means they have to do further testing.

Now I see a growth on my one of my tonsils and it’s enlarged. My throat looks infected and and I’m getting really scared, my neck has been feeling sore and stiff like I slept on it wrong. I haven’t taken care of my body my whole life and now I think I’m finally paying the consequences.

No. 1515926

>>1515806
bi carb soda and cold water, gentle toothbrush rubs.

No. 1515934

I found out my therapist, who I stopped seeing about a year and a half ago due to her illness, passed away from cancer recently. She never disclosed the nature of her illness to me but I looked up her name today and found her obituary and cause of death..

I'm crushed by this news because she was the best therapist I ever had. She was with me during one of the most difficult and traumatic moments in my life and genuinely cared for my well-being. I wish I could have told her how great of a therapist she was and how much of a positive force she was in my life. It just hurts. She didn't deserve to go out like this and I will really miss her..

No. 1515956

The vessels in my eyes burst sometimes because my diabetes and it freaks me out. I don’t feel tired anymore, I feel tired but I don’t feel attached to the feeling of tiredness. I just want to go to sleep

No. 1515957

>>1515855
I said the same, I was so pissed. Just gonna use the anger as fuel to build my money up and never deprive myself again of things I want and make me happy.

No. 1515967

I don't know how to put how I've been feeling into words. I guess the most simple way is "hopeless". I don't know where to go, what to do, or what my future will be.

No. 1516007

DICKS MAKE ME CRY!!! I HAVE DICKPHOBIA! I NEVER EVER WANT TO SEE A DICK!!!
I don't want to see them in person or in pictures, i need those kind of censors you see in doujins

No. 1516010

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I finally recognize and accept that I have ocd and that it's triggered by many things on the internet. How am I supposed to remain terminally online in these conditions?

No. 1516017

It has been such a long life, I think I need an eternal nap.

No. 1516020

seeking (formerly seeking arrangement) is the ultimate blackpill for women. I have never used the site seriously or as myself but off and on over the last ~8 years I have created fake accounts. I urge any woman that is curious about this shit to do the same to learn the truth. Yes I know the site does not represent aLl MeN but it's still extremely eye opening:

Men will not take "no" for an answer
Men will always try to get the last word
Men view most, if not all, women as disposable objects to stick their penis into
Men are all talk
Men are zero action
Men are extremely fragile
Men are illogical
Men are irrational

No. 1516022

I just want to cut my family members out of my life or see them maybe five times a year if that.

No. 1516023

Going to get blackout drunk all alone in my room because the female family member I have been force to take care of under the same roof 24/7 (despite not needing 24/7 care) thought she was secretly masturbating in front of me. Fuck that bitch and anyone who thinks I am the one who needs to take care of her. This time next year I will have my own life.

No. 1516035

Women and men are not the same and anyone who says they are, are ignorant idiots

No. 1516038

>>1516020
i know this is lc and men are trash but going to especially trashy sites to look at especially trashy men will naturally give you the worst of them so idk why you're surprised

No. 1516041

>>1516020
It's kind of obvious why the types of men who peruse SA would come off as more pushy and entitled, these are the moids who think they can buy women.

No. 1516043

>>1516038
>>1516041
>Yes I know the site does not represent aLl MeN but it's still extremely eye opening

No. 1516046

>>1516041
All men think they can somehow buy women

No. 1516047

How does everyone cope with the sheer amount of online misogyny? It feels like I can't enjoy anything anymore outfit of maybe Pinterest without being bombarded with sexist crap or people looking for any reason to shit on women

No. 1516048

>>1516046
Lol, many don't even "buy" us anymore. They just grift & gaslight until before you know it you're the primary breadwinner, homemaker, and emotional mommy supply for next to nothing in return.

No. 1516050

Can't sleep. Spent the past few hours scrolling back through old vent threads to find my posts to ruminate over. Relate?

No. 1516052

>>1516048
Yeah so anons shouldn't try to make other anons feel bad for seeing this first hand

No. 1516056

>>1516020
I went on a few nights vacation and got to stay in a nice resort and eat a ton of extremely expensive meals and got $3k cash from a guy off there. He wanted it to be a regular thing but even all the nice meals and cool things and $3k a month wasn’t enough to deal with (let alone fuck) this man. His O face is forever burned into my mind and I hate living with it. Not even once nonnas.

No. 1516058

>>1516052
I don't think anyone was trying to make you feel bad tbh, but I still stand by that there is nothing to gain from creating multiple accounts to waste time browsing to confirm what you already know. Feel the same way about nonnas here who choose to spend their free time on r9k.

No. 1516063

>>1516058
I'm not the OP which you erroneously took me for but I disagree that there is "nothing to gain" from her being on there. Having public social media gains you the same experience against your will (which is why I personally believe all women should either have private or no social media). It's just a way to see how men operate. Women should know and be up to date on this in order to not be taken advantage of.

No. 1516064

>>1516058
Time is not wasted if you learn something

No. 1516067

>>1516056
Sugar dating world is bizarre
>The fake check scammers
>The "ask for a face/body pic then ghost to make it look like your fault"
>"I'm not a sugar daddy but"
>"Allowance is 300 a week, I expect sex and constant texting"

No. 1516069

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My mom found my phone on the table with the ForeverAlone subreddit up. The thread that was open was something like "does anyone else think of everyone you meet as a potential partner out of desperation" I'm so humiliated. But at the same time, fuck her. She gave me shitty masculine genetics. She's probably gonna be thinking about what she found for days now. I know my mom cries about these things, she even told me she grieves that I never got to experience young carefree romance like she did. Fuck it all. I'm so tired.

No. 1516070

Posted this on the advice thread but it's barely active so reposting here. Pls no ban I need the advice cause Im socially retarded. I'm even paragraphing here kek

A friend I haven't talked to in years has messaged me today. We stopped talking after some fights in our earlier years of university. I'm not angry about what she did to me anymore, and from her contacting me after so long and from her tone I'm guessing she also is not holding grudges.

She says she wants to talk to me again (in my language it sounds like she wants to have casual conversations in the future rather than talking once to settle something). I would like to listen to her if she has something to say about our past, and to let her know I'm not angry or anything. However I don't want to be her friend anymore. I changed a lot and I'm sure she did too, but regardless of that I don't want our friendship to continue or form a new friendship, or even have awkward "how are you doing" conversations once in a while. I feel the same way with all the other friends in that circle and I don't talk to any of them anymore other than waving if I see them (I'm in the same neighbourhood as two of them).

So I'm conflicted on what to do. I don't want to meet up if she asks to do so. I don't really have anything to say to her myself other than showing that I don't have any grudges. I have no idea what her personality is like now (both of us were pretty immature back then). So what should I do? I don't know how I can tell someone that I just don't really want to talk to them to be honest. I think me ignoring her would get across a wrong message though. I don't want to sound like those "our paths are not aligned" tiktok therapists lol

No. 1516079

>>1516070
Honestly, you could just say you’re not interested in having a friendship with her like you used to have. I don’t see any issues with how you phrased it here personally. It’s better to be honest than to feel like you’re being rude, as it’ll prevent drama down the line.

No. 1516101

My mum phoned me and asked me if my sister and I were femcels. I could understand why she might have asked this in the past but I've been married for eight years and my sister is engaged. Maybe she's going senile or something.

No. 1516104

>>1516069
My parents think this about me as well. They are antisocial, depressed binge eaters, and thus I binge ate all my childhood and teenage life. Finally stopped but probably too late to fix the emotional stunting and damage from being the DUFF. It's funny that parents made us this way, yet don't understand why we're like this. It sucks that we'll never experience what so many people romanticize. I wish I could hug you, nona.

No. 1516107

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Just blocked a moid, clicking that block button felt so good I was so sick of his bullshit, good thing it only lasted a day or so, I'm quite fast to check retards. He got it coming yet was crying "but is not what it seems! Don't be unreasonable!" do you think I'm retarded, you dumbass? Stop annoying me, go fuck your ""countless"" hoes and leave me alone, DON'T FUCKING TRY ME

He was also interrupting me while I was drawing art of my husbando, I cannot forgive that shit

No. 1516110

why are you flipping the fed darius INTO OUR TEAM, TELL ME SINGED, WHY ARE YOU FLIPPING THE FED DARIUS IN OUR TEAM.
WHY?
HE LITERALLY HEALS OFF ALL OF US, AND YOU KEEP FUCKING FLIPPING HIM IN OUR TEAM, YOU DON'T EVEN ROOT HIM, YOU JUST FLIP HIM, THIS MUST BE A TROLL.

No. 1516124

>>1516101
Sounds like she heard the term, thinks it's the new word for women who speak out against men, and is using it as such. Do you and your sister discuss feminist topics in front of her?

No. 1516143


No. 1516149

My sister's abusive obese whale of a scrote husband just suffered a stroke. (Oh, who would've guessed?)
Five years straight missing opportunity after opportunity and throwing her youth away just to be with this ugly 90-year-old-grandma-sounding piece of shit it she isn't attracted to and doesn't even really love.
Destroying everything in her path and inside herself for this. Miserable, frustrated, broken, and now a revulsive shitwiper for life.
So, was it worth it, you dumb cunt? Was it worth it, you stupid, stupid, stupid fucking cunt?

No. 1516155

my bf isnt controlling whatsoever but man he gets fucking annoying whenever he lets out his inner father instinct in disapproval whenever i, an adult woman, crack a joke or post something concerning. yes its for the better but half the shit is so minor i am starting to feel more like his daughter than his girlfriend

No. 1516159

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I'm starting to despise my bf. When he studied full time I would make sure to cook dinner and make nice meals for him, even when I started work full time (10 hrs a day).

Now he's doing nothing, not studying or working (while I'm doing both) and only cooks meal prep for himself. He cooks all these nice, new recipes and I've started eating nothing or buying microwave meals because I don't have time. I don't mind this arrangement too much, but it upsets me that he never thought to return the favour, especially when he knows I'm busy basically 24/7. He lives by the "if you don't tell me to do (considerate/nice thing) how should I know to do it?" Whatever.

No. 1516162

>>1516107
based. I block every moid who hits on me. one I've known for 10+ years said something sideways to me. guess what? fucking BLOCKED.
moids get the wall (blocked) every time. you are better than any of them. rise above, focus on yourself.

moids ain't shit but hoes, and more shit.

No. 1516165

>>1516155
waited for his company all day and he scolds me over a retarded facebook post completely spoilt my fucking mood

No. 1516171

>>1516165
I'm sorry anon, sending love.

No. 1516172

>>1516159
Always dump the “if you didn’t tell me how could I know?!!11” types. There are better men out there.

No. 1516173

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Why am I such a fucking autist that I get borderline fired up whenever someone claims the FF7 Remake is better then the original? I'm not even that big of a fan of the original and think other games in the franchise are better, but the remake just pissed me off in how much it screams Tetsuya Nomura and his pissbaby writing that is afraid of letting characters die or suffer, and can't his fucking heartless out of anything he fucking does. What made FF7 so memorable is it's dark themes and, while it hits you over the head with it's message a lot, is good at painting a picture of how evil Shinra is with how they don't care about anyone living below the plates. In the remake they might just as well be McDonalds. The remake is pretty good (except for a couple of points) until the point where the plate falls, after that it's just Tetsuya Nomura's Kingdom Hearts nonsense.
Idk why the debate invokes so much childish hatred in me. Maybe I was just hoping for too much from the remake and the let down was just too massive for me to handle.

No. 1516187

>>1516173
I was cringing throughout the game because of all the harem anime scenes. O-oh no Cloud-senpai my GIANT MASSIVE HUGE WATERMELON BOOBS fell on you…

No. 1516193

>>1516187
Also one of the things I absolutely hate about that man's writing. Bitch can't write women to save his life. All of them are either manic pixie dream girl turned up to 11 or mother Theresa. Nothing inbetween.
Like I enjoy KH for what trash it is, it's my guilty pleasure, but I always fucking hated how the women had NO personality and were pretty much the same type of character (ok pretty much everyone are literally Kairi clones, but Sora's clones still got their own quirks that made them stand out). Like in Birth by Sleep they kept telling the player that Aqua is such a know-it-all and pretentious, but you never got to actually SEE any of that. FUCK that man aggravates me, he makes interesting art and character designs but that's about it.

No. 1516196

>>1516159
>"if you don't tell me to do (considerate/nice thing) how should I know to do it?"

This is a maturity issue where he dumps the mental load on you which traps you into being the one responsible for what should be his contribution to the partnership. You shouldn't have to point things out for an adult who should know better.

I have no real advice as–seriously–ALL men retreat to this tired ass excuse eventually when they don't want to feel guilt or shame. It's a copout and something they all say, mine literally told me this last night over dishes (tl;dr he bitches at me when I use the dishwasher, but he doesn't see why dishes left in the sink or after meals should be done promptly and not left up for me to do for days while he 'forgets' to do them). His solution was buying a chore sheet so he can keep his score and be accountable. Idk if that's something you wanna suggest but it all seems so childish. I just tell myself men are lazy and it is not a reflection on my value. It's helped to not take it personally.

No. 1516197

I'm so fucking tired of being an adult with acne. I'm convinced it's ruining my life and I feel so stupid because of it. I'm graduating this semester and haven't gotten a job and I'm convinced it's because of my acne. I get interviews and then I never get called back. It doesn't help I'm already an anxious wreck, but I look like I have chicken pox it's that bad. I wouldn't want to hire me either. I've changed my diet, I change my sheets once a week and my pillow case every other day, I've tried every fucking product under the sun. I've been on medications and prescription creams and nothing helps. I finally got on acutane and I'm terrified it's not going to do anything. It's only been two weeks so it's not like I should be seeing results anyway. Even if it clears up, this has completely destroyed my self esteem. I hate getting my picture taken, I won't go out, I just feel like a fucking freak. I don't see it getting better even if my skin clears up. But the worst thing about it is that I hate myself for being so upset about it. I'm letting my skin ruin my life, how pathetic is that? I had clear skin in high school, I would do anything to have had this problem in high school instead of now. Teenagers with acne is understandable, being in college with acne makes me feel disgusting

No. 1516199

>>1516159
If you were alone, at least you wouldn't have to clean up all of his mess too. Consider that. Then consider that it's super easy to get a new boyfriend, so you wouldn't even have to be alone for long if you didn't want to.

No. 1516200

>>1515884
maybe you should see a therapist, or you can talk to me for free

No. 1516201

>>1516197
It sounds like you've tried most things, but I just wanted to chime in to let you know that my adult acne was terrible until I found out that I'm allergic to milk. Not even dairy, just milk. I cut it completely out and my acne went down enough that daily chlorhexidine pads started working.

No. 1516204

>>1516197
I'm 28 and my acne is worse now than when I was a teen. I fucking hate it so much.

No. 1516206

>>1516197
It may sound silly but I had bad blind pimples every week until I was 25, started using dr bronners peppermint soap on my face and haven't had one since then

No. 1516207

>>1516201
nta, Same! Allergic to milk, sugar made my acne worse, and eggs would give me pimples.
>>1516197
I'm really sorry nonny. I've had horrible acne when I was a teen and it finally started clearing up now in my early twenties. I still have massive scarring. I feel you and I hope you feel better about your skin soon, and that it clears up

No. 1516212

>>1516197
Struggled with adult acne too.

I stopped short of accutane cause a spironolactone medication and some topical benzoyl peroxide keeps it maintained with barely any side effects. I still breakout right before my period and if I have the audacity to drink milk, but it's nothing like it was.
I remember being concerned that the Accutane wouldn't help me in the long run cause my acne is hormonal and genetic.

No. 1516214

My cat has been annoying me lately. He’ll cry a lot and will only stop crying until I let him sit on my lap. It’s cute sometimes and I enjoy a cuddly cat, but it’s super annoying hearing him cry when I have to do something else. Last night I was making dinner and cleaning up, and it took about 2 and half hours in total and that whole time he was crying at me, without break. He already got fed, had water and I would try to get him to play with his toys, but he really just wanted me to cuddle him. I think about maybe getting another cat so he can have a friend, but I’m not sure if that will work.

No. 1516237

I miss coming home and seeing her there. I really want to cry.

No. 1516248

>>1516197
Being in college with acne isn't that abnormal actually.. The idea that only teens (should) have acne and the term "adult acne" is kind of misleading in that sense. The type of acne teenagers mostly suffer from commonly lasts up to around 24 of age, not 18 or 20. Some dermatologists won't even see you for mild acne before 24.

No. 1516255

>>1516214
Getting a second cat helped my first cat stop crying from loneliness but the second cat ended up being such an annoying shithead that I have to put him in a baby proofed room sometimes to stop him from destroying my dann apartment.

No. 1516257

>>1516214
I can relate to this a lot. My cat's on my lap right now. I could here her screaming through the bathroom door earlier. She was fine before covid, but when I started being home all the time I guess she got used to be together 24/7.

No. 1516260

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Ngl I'm still fucking pissed about all the concerts I had lined up in between 2020 - early 2022 that were cancelled because of the rona. There were artists I've been fan for years and then BOOM all concert plans gone. Then things went "back to normal" but said artists have not toured in my area again because they are recording new music and and such so it means I have to wait AGAIN to get a chance to see them live and ugh it's been YEARS.

No. 1516279

>>1516196
They don’t all do that but you shouldn’t settle either way.

No. 1516283

>>1516197
My sister had bad adult acne AND never wore makeup but still got jobs fine and always easily rose to manager. Anons really gotta stop trying to blame everything but themselves.

No. 1516294

>>1516279
I can say with 100% confidence that the phrase "Well you should have told me/You should have asked/You should have said so!" will leave a man's lips aimed towards a woman at least once in his lifetime. It's what they are conditioned to do, women don't say this shit because we don't expect it of men or are taught to internalize or blame ourselves when shit isn't clean.

No. 1516308

>>1516294
if my boyfriend said this to me i would chimp out im sure he will one day but then he'll have to deal with me being crazy so hopefully that will teach him

No. 1516358

I feel like my work environment awakens the lowest instincts in me. I don't remember having that amount of bad thoughts about people at once. I hate the double standard in the way people are being treated, I hate petty, two faced people being fake nice to you and talking behind your back, I hate the meaningless bullshit smalltalks, I hate when sometimes your hard work means nothing if you're not good at playing social politics. Today at work I literally had thoughts like I hope those cunts get cancer and die and now I'm sitting in my room and thinking damn that's horrible of me to think like this. But this is what this work does to my brain. Jesus this is insane

No. 1516381

Aaah I messaged this girl from my old grad school cohort asking her where she works now. She posted a mirror selfie in the bathroom of what I assume is her workplace on her instagram story so I hope that wasn't weird… I wish I had more friends who lived around me so that was my desperate attempt at trying to connect with someone who I think I could be friends with. We didn't get to talk much when we were doing our program together, but I remember she had really cute style and we had similar interests. Her friends were very loud weebs though, so I tended to keep my distance but she seemed really interesting and nice… Well, I'm proud of myself for taking the initiative even if it was something stupid like that.

No. 1516404

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im a useless sack of shit, i cant do anything by myself, but i could never go home again because my stepdad is a sperg who was lowkey an abusive bully who chased me out of the house. i didnt stand a chance. i want to get rid of all my belongings and quietly disappear into nothingness. i hate being alive, everyday is existential torture

No. 1516425

>>1515548
If he liked you he'd cover everything he can since he's so rich and you're very clearly struggling.

No. 1516429

When I was younger, I never had any strong opinions on my dad. He was just there, existing. But that's exactly the problem. He's always been nice to us but now that I look back on it, it was all just so empty. He didn't want to spend money on us, he didn't wanna do fun things with us, he didn't actually care about anything we cared about. He divorced my mom about ten years ago and fucked off to the other side of the world to live his stupid little carefree life, free of any kind of responsibility. He still contacts me every now and then, just to catch up on things. But there's never anything to catch up on, he just talks about the same uninteresting bullshit every time because he doesn't actually care enough to ask me how I'm actually doing. It's depressing to think about how different my life could have been if I had a dad who genuinely cared about me

No. 1516432

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Trich is really getting me down watching this vid to feel better about my eyebrows

No. 1516438

>>1516432
I miss jenna marbles so much.

No. 1516439

the shayna thread discussing her potential prolapse is making me spiral because i have a mild one (only happens after a bowel movement) from trauma when i was raped and i know i should get medical attention but i can't afford it and i'm too ashamed to tell anyone so im just screaming into the void.

No. 1516442

>>1516439
that sounds awful, so sorry you're having to deal with that. maybe skip the shayna threads for a while?

No. 1516446

>>1516442
i think i'm going to have to until her surgery arc is over even though i love her threads. i can't take everyone speculating about it and saying how gross it is and being reminded of what happened to me and feeling like a disgusting freak.

No. 1516449

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>sick of old friend group partly because one girl in it is always throwing huge shitfits, crying, and passive aggressively implying that I’m somehow stealing her crush just by existing in his vicinity despite that I am not even single, starts really grating on my patience constantly dealing with her petty insults and inappropriate comments about how she believes he likes me
>make new friend group, everything going well, extremely relieved being in a healthy social environment again
>everyone in the group is married or dating someone already as well, so that bodes well
>guy with gf who is also in the group messages me in the middle of the night asking me to come see him
>what the fuck
So much for me thinking I had actually made nice new friends. I fucking hate normies. If people could all stop being hormone fueled animals thinking with their junk it would be great. I am so full of hatred and disappointment right now I’m close to giving up on human interactions entirely kek.

No. 1516459

>>1516446
That sounds smart, also while it hurts seeing that stuff being said, you know that there is a big difference between the whys and the hows with your cases. All the best to you, nona!

No. 1516466

CPS is fucking useless!!!

No. 1516469

>>1516020
I figured this out just using normal dating sites like tinder, ok Cupid and hinge. It totally changed my perspective on men and I don’t even treat them like adults anymore, I just treat them like annoying kids.

No. 1516478

I just want her back…

No. 1516534

>>1516439
Don't tell anyone. Find a lady doctor and communicate you don't want to disclose anything. It won't make a difference medically-wise.

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No. 1516539

I wish my aunt wouldn't ask if I'm done with school and what I want to do as a career I DON'T KNOW and I'm not even in school this semester. I hate myself why can't I ever get it figured out

No. 1516540

>>1516165
Nonny he is being controlling and manipulative. He’s purposefully trying to control who you are and squash out your sense of humor. It’s a common tactic moids use to break down women. It does a huge number on your self esteem. It’s more serious and worse than you think it is.

No. 1516543

>>1516197
I’m 28 and still suffer horrible acne. My adult acne started ramping up when I was around 23 and it’s just been a battle ever since. I have had acne since I was 11 years old. The only upside to having adult acne is that nobody bullies me for it.

No. 1516546

>>1516214
Give him to me nonna, our whiny sassy snuggle man lap kitty passed away a couple years ago and my Nigel and I are constantly saying how we wish we had another big snuggly lap cat.

No. 1516552

>>1516439
I prolapse my butthole sometimes when I have a big dump and strain too hard. I just push it back in. Happens a couple times a year, always scary in the moment but not a big deal.

No. 1516559

>>1516552
prolapse freaks me out so bad!! Ahhh ntaryt

No. 1516565

>>1516552
What the fuck

No. 1516578

I remember this one time years a male friend was talking to me how obsessed he was with this girl, how he needed to be with her so badly, he would do anything to get her attention, on and on and on, and eventually I asked how he knew this girl and he replied that he had just met her once at a party. I told him he was a psycho and all my friends told me I was being a dumbass and it's normal to get crushes. I'm still bitter about this for some reason.

No. 1516583

>>1516578
most relatable moid

No. 1516586

>>1516578
My immediate thought after reading all that was "God, he's just like me" kek.

No. 1516589

>>1516578
samefag but what also drove me insane is that he did this all the time with random women. And he would be like "she just has the look I need in my gf!!!" and always insist this girl was the one but obviously he would be rabidly obsessed with a different one the next week

No. 1516597

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my mom keeps pulling this shit whenever she does something wrong where she starts going crazy hitting herself and the instant you try to stop her she beats you up and accuses you of beating your own poor mother and cries. like wtf am i meant to just watch you beat yourself black blue and red so you can go to the police and accuse me there because i know she will. she's literally torn my hair out and cut me but when i restrain her by the forearms she says its mother battery kek. she's not fooling me she did this to my brother that she now infantilizes more than a decade prior. i know she's had a hard life where nobody truly believed her especially her victimhood but there's seriously no need to pull this shit to satiate your desire for it like no matter how many times i verbally repeat it she constantly tries to frame me like this. i know it's psychological and she does this in order to protect herself or to feel as though she is taking measures but its really getting to me. she really loves to make a scene but knowing so much about her i cant even truly get mad. she's also told me that i'm never going to amount to anything despite going to uni and i'm good for nothing even though i soak up all her horrifyingly traumatic shit she dumps on me constantly since i was a child, like i'm glad she has someone to let it out on but i'm getting tired of being her dummy. no matter how many times i try to do it right she always blows up on me and it hurts more that i can't even genuinely fault her. maybe it's selfish of me but like whatever i'm just venting. feelsbadman. physically and emotionally right now

No. 1516603

>>1516589
That’s how most young scrotes act towards women
>find one that looks like their favorite porn star or some shit
>become obsessed with the girl only because of the way she looks and doesn’t know anything about her
>the girl finally submits and he gets bored with the relationship
>rinse and repeat

No. 1516605

>>1516597
your mother is seriously abusive and you need to get away from her. it doesnt matter if she kills herself because you leave, nothing you did and nothing shes been through makes this okay and i really hope you can get the support you need to leave.

No. 1516607

>>1516578
Haha anon, I relate to you in this story. It's hard for me to believe someone can be genuinely obsessing over someone they barely know, I personally could experience it only when I was 11 and younger. Maybe my heart has shrivelled up

No. 1516609

how is it possible that I've been taking birth control and spironolactone for six months and my boobs have actually gotten smaller. My body is just a joke. I've seen troons that look more feminine.

No. 1516612

I would describe myself as highly conscientious. At my workplace I sometimes see carts placed in front of emergency exits or ladders being placed in unsafe ways and I feel like such a nerd for always pointing it out or moving things but jeez, I just really care about safety and rules have clearly been established by people with more time and wisdom than I have. Same with filth- there are huge dusty bunnies everywhere and tissues on the floor. Do people not realize there is a reason to being clean, sanitary, and safe? I feel like sometimes I'm such an alien because 50 of my coworkers can walk past the same piece of trash on the ground and I'm the only one to pick it up. Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong country or something because I cannot leave a space unless I leave it looking better than I discovered it. I sound like I'm bragging but really, I just wish at least 10% of the population was a bit more caring about their space.

No. 1516619

Wish my bf would stop fucking eating chips in the bed! I have told him so many times! It's gross and gets crumbs everywhere!!!!!

No. 1516623

>>1516619
crumple up a bunch of them and throw them on him while he is sleeping

No. 1516626

>>1516623
The problem with this is I also sleep in the bed, but maybe I should do this to his desk chair

No. 1516631

>>1516619
my bf has sprayed me with a water bottle for eating chips in bed and it made me stop, i think you're gona have to pull this trick out of the bag nona

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>>1516631
>my bf has sprayed me with a water bottle for eating chips in bed
Damn KEK

No. 1516636

>>1516609
You probably asked that rhetorically but in case you didn't: I might be a little off on the details because I'm not a doctor but as I understand it progesterone (a hormone in bc) decreases cell response to estrogen in your breasts. An increase in estrogen is what makes your breasts larger and tender when you get your period among other things; on the flipside less estrogen will make your breasts deflate a little.
Depends on the type of birth control you're on but some of them make your boobs shrink. I lost an inch in my bust when I got an IUD and this is what I found out when I looked up why that happened (some other bc I'd been on had the opposite effect so I was like wtf is going on).

No. 1516639

>>1516631
Guess the spray bottle I got for my cat will come in handy kek

No. 1516659

I tried to initiate sexting with a man after chatting for a couple of days and he rejected me, I'm so embarrassed.

No. 1516660

>>1516631
One time my bf sprayed me with water when we were having an argument. I chimped the fuck out, lunged at him and pulled him down to the ground while clawing and smacking and screeching.

No. 1516663

>>1516543
I fucking love that masks started being used in the west. They hide my hormonal acne so perfectly. I just wish it would hide my neck acne and ingrown hair bumps too.

No. 1516664

>>1516659
He is probably a loser or gay

No. 1516670

>>1516659
How’d he reject you?

No. 1516671

I've been feeling a little weird about my bf ever since we went to a party on Saturday.

My co-worker invited me and a bunch of other people over to her place for a game night; I didn't really want to go but I said yes to be nice. I asked if I could bring my bf and she said yes.

The thing is, he and I are both socially awkward. We've been together for nearly a year and mostly just spend time with each other, so this was my first time seeing him in a group setting. He tends to give people weird vibes (nothing crazy, he just comes across as very quiet, blunt and serious until he loosens up). So I was a little nervous about the party but figured it'd be fine.

Everything started out good until we got to the "game" part of the night. My bf loves games and gets very intense and competitive about them. As the night went on I could tell he was taking things way to seriously and was throwing off the vibe of the party. I tried to subtly hint that he needed to relax but he didn't realize he was being weird. Eventually I pulled him aside and told him he needed to chill, these people were strangers and are here for a casual fun time. He relented and acknowledged he wasn't meshing well with the others but would try to be better. The rest of the night mostly went smooth although I could tell the others thought he was strange. Eventually we left, agreeing we had fun despite everything. I felt weird but didn't think too hard on it.

The next morning he apologized and said he felt bad that he couldn't have been more charming and that he feels insecure about his struggle to socialize. I told him it was fine and not a big deal, and that I love him the way he is.

But the more I think about it, the more I realize I was kinda… embarrassed. A lot of my coworkers were at the party and I could tell they were judging him and me. Part of me doesn't care what they think but another part wishes he could have made a better impression. It's so frustrating because I try so hard to mask around people and he just, well, doesn't. I really do love him but ugh seeing how bad he is with other people has put a dent in my mind. I wish we hadn't gone to that stupid party.

No. 1516672

>>1516660
Why are so many anons getting treated like cats by their boyfriends lmao

No. 1516675

>>1516664
Sexting is so regarded though. How do you not cringe to death typing that shit.

No. 1516677

>>1516672
Petplay gone too far.

No. 1516678

>>1516670
>flirting
>he does the whole scrotey "about to go shower" thing
>say ok cool
>ask if i can get another picture of him
>"i can't, i'm undressed"
>say oh okay
>"i'm completely naked"
>say that's fine by me with a blushing emoji
>he starts going on about how he can't do that because i'm too young (i'm 26) and laughs at me

When I sent him a selfie he only replied with a thumbs up emoji. I should've taken the hint. But when a male brings up that he's naked, to me that's an obvious hint. Clearly he was just trying to bait me so he could get a confidence boost.

No. 1516680

>>1516678
how old is he?

No. 1516682

>>1516678
Is this a man you’ve fucked already or just an internet guy?

No. 1516684

>>1516680
He's 48 but before you yell at me I can't get young men they don't want me.

>>1516682
Internet guy, we were going to meet up and he still wants to meet up but he says we're friends and mostly talks to me like I'm his buddy or his 80 year old mother.

No. 1516686

what the actual fuck is with the influx of enbies and ftm troons in the metal gear fandom? I get they invest every fandom, but this one i dont get at all. i feel like most of them haven't even played the games beyond mgs3 and TPP, all they talk about is venom railing miller i am so sick of it. i dont even care if i sound like an nlog, they're just as bad as the military bros who don't even get the themes of the game i'm afraid if they remake 3 for real this time the fandom will become even more infested

No. 1516687

>>1516684
He probably feels like you’re desperate. He’s 48 so he’s probably used to being the directly sexual one and not women.

No. 1516688

>>1516684
Gross nonnie that’s the same age gap between me and my actual father, do better

No. 1516689

>>1516686
Greyfox and Raiden.

No. 1516690

>>1516684
Get rid of him he sounds retarded and probably has an ugly penis

No. 1516692

>>1516688
>>1516690
Women need to understand that sometimes being single is better than taking scraps

No. 1516694

>>1516689
alright raiden makes sense but please elaborate on grey fox

No. 1516696

>>1516694
Beyond the mask thing it really is more of Greyfox is a classic case of someone being repressed by the people around them so the gays and especially gendies end up flocking to those types of characters. It's more in the writing than the asthetics with him as opposed to Raiden who's a clear fairy.

No. 1516701

>>1516696
yeah that does make sense. their projection is delusional

No. 1516707

>>1516701
Quite so I doubt any would ever make a sacrifice like GF did to his Husbando Snake.

No. 1516717

>>1516688
>tfw i was 8 years old by the time my dad was 48
ntayrt btw it just made me think..(i always forget that most people my age (same as op) have dads younger than mine kek)

No. 1516736

>>1516707
based. i wish all the mgs nonnies could band together to form our own mgs community

No. 1516751

>>1516686
ive also noticed this. every time i search for content of my MGS fave i find troon fanart of him and i hate it so much kek. not going to name him but i feel like he is the archetypal male character fakebois always flock to and ive even seen people headcanon him as a mtf. absolutely horrifying

No. 1516756

I turned in 12 assignments today and I literally only have one more to go…give me the strength nonnies

No. 1516762

>>1516552
See a doctor before this turns into a major issue, you absolute r*tard(r*tard)

No. 1516764

>>1516672
Because 90% of the dumbasses here are wasting their lives in abusive relationships with no upside

No. 1516765

>>1516762
>r*tard
retard

No. 1516785

People don’t understand that in order to deal with men I have to play games with them. I’d love to be able to just be excited to talk to them, ask to hangout but I have to block scrotes, leave them on read and show no emotion because they don’t know how to accept nice behavior from me.

No. 1516788

>>1516717
My dad was 51 when I was 8 years old.

No. 1516806

my cousin said he would send me a book about nutrition and I was happy to get it until it turned out to be a vegan leaning diet book. im not becoming a vegan when my diet is already limited. trying to get rid of crap i dont need in my life but now i have a useless book on the way. he also sent me vegan omega 3 because im taking cod liver oil wtf.

No. 1516816

>bfs grandfather pass away
>come from two different background culturally
>he has a big big big family
>i have a small family
>family hold something against me apparently

aaaa, i hate funerals so much

No. 1516829

>>1516684
>>1516678
he's using you and probably is probably 'spinning' five other women and you are one of the less serious ones he's keeping around in case the 16yo he's actually going after cuts him off.

No. 1516835

>>1516684
>>1516678
BAHAHAHAH
Are you the same uglychan that boasted about fucking 50+ year old man and being offered money by old men? Even old men think you're ugly, only sending a thumbs up for your selfie is fucking sad, even if someone thought you weren't hot, they'd politely compliment you.

No. 1516849

I thought I could be single for life with no problem, but lately (24) I’ve finally really started craving to have someone to love on. The problem is I don’t think I’m the type of person suited for a relationship due to the following traits:
>very introverted and like to be alone most of the time, I don’t know if I’d want someone up in my space
>highly uncomfortable and even unable to be vulnerable. The thought of expressing or receiving honest feelings to an irl person makes me feel nauseous
>very narrow, specific type that is rare and of course never interested in me

But despite all of this I still have some sort of natural drive for affection that is kicking in and it’s painful to live with knowing I’m never going to be able to act on it. How do I even cope with this? Sometimes I imagine cuddling my unattainable crush and it’s nice but it’s not enough anymore. I think I’m sort of touch starved. Oh to not be a retard.

Additionally, my parents have been very respectful about not questioning why I’ve never dated or shown interest in anyone irl but I’m wondering when they’re finally going to ask what’s up since I pretend to be totally disinterested in the entire concept of romance. I don’t even know how I’m going to handle that conversation but I know they’re gonna get antsy about it eventually. Does anyone have experience dealing with that?

No. 1516872

I am going through a fucking style crisis right now and every store I shop at or walk inside I’m just like god everything is ugly. I’m so unimpressed with the cut of most dresses and tops and the prints and patterns. Not to mention being right smack dab between straight and plus size. I need new shoes too. I feel like this time last year I was really happy with my clothes and now I hate all of them again. Thrift has been shit lately too and that’s where I get most of my stuff.

No. 1516873

>>1516849
you sound exactly like me when i was 24. i knew since in was a young teenager that i was likely never going to have a relationship and it was easier on me anyway to never have one. eventually when i was 20 family stopped mentioning anything relationship-wise about or to me, to the point that they would say the only grandchildren they would get from me was rabbits kek. for about a year or two at 24, it was really bad, i was indeed 100% touch starved and there was this horrible pitting feeling of loneliness and some form of pain inside me that i couldn't even cry out, i would just thrash in my bed in frustration, unable to make it go away unless i slept. eventually it passed and, while still occasionally thinking i wanted a relationship, or at least friends to fill that "void" and get hugs from someone. i went back to mostly not caring to entirely not caring.
i believed being vulnerable was a weakness, and i would refuse to ever stoop so low anyway. long story short, when i was 30 i met someone who set something off in my mind and that i wanted to try and be in a relationship with. we had a shared interest in a unique topic, which i thought i would never find someone else who was, among other preferences, and that was what drew me to him at first. so i wanted to work on myself for the betterment of myself, and thus leading to the betterment of a lasting relationship with this particular man. I am still closed off, he has mentioned it to me that he can tell and it probably hurts him, but i am working on not being that way anymore still, and he knows and has seen my progress. if we ever break up, i will never be in another one. once is enough, and it truly is so much easier and better being alone. you only have to worry about yourself when you're alone. having to involve another human being in your life is work. however, i love him and actively choose and want to be with him, so i tolerate the annoyances that come with being in a relationship with someone for that.

so either you might fall in the way i did, years on end up meeting someone who makes you want to deal with another human, or you dont, and both are totally fine. how that drive and push for affection will last and affect you, i only know what i experienced, and that is i just powered through it for a while until my brain switched to "lol idc". maybe making friends will help? that was the theory i had but i never was able practice it. but it seems to make sense. otherwise, you got this, it hurts a lot i know but it won't kill you. focus on yourself and the type of person you want to be, your hobbies, etc. you'll get through it. your family loves you and if they are worth being family they will love you regardless of your relationship status.

No. 1516884

I had to take 1 sick day because of my exremely painful period, vomiting and diarrhea, back pain and leg pain and I still feel guilty and I'm scared they will fire me. I'm a schizo? I've been working for almost 2 years there and I only took some sick days 6 months ago when I had bacterial labyrinthitis and ended up in a hospital and taking antibiotics, unable to walk. I'm extremely scared of losing my job. I suffer with chronic pain for various reasons, and I got used to go to work with pain, also when I get a cold I always force myself to go to work, same with painful periods, but today is just too much. I'm still scared though

No. 1516885

>>1516872
Everything in irl shops is made of the shittiest fabric and either looks like 40 year old mother styles or its the cheapest forever21 teen shit. I'm so mad importing from uk, eu, and japan is expensive because I like their styles more.

No. 1516889

>>1516885
i just bought a ton of stuff off Mercari Japan because of that. i have luck finding items i like in thrift stores, but i have to sift through a lot of Shein and Princess Polly garbage beforehand. other than shoes and tights i don't remember the last time I bought something new in a store, i don't like the colors i hate the fabrics i hate the styles i see. most of my wardrobe is secondhand for this reason.

No. 1516897

>>1516889
Was the shipping a lot? Only bought off closetchild in a small haul but the shipping was killer.

No. 1516907

For me, the worst part of AI is the total demotivation to strive for anything, to do anything difficult or time consuming. It makes everything I was striving for feel like a waste of time. Like why dedicate a life to anything but consuming, anything I make will be assimilated and surpassed immediately.

No. 1516918

>>1516872
>>1516885

I feel this. I miss being able to buy shit in malls that actually looked good. Also ordering online never feels worth it for me, because most of the time it doesn't fit or look right, even with obsessively measuring myself and using size guides. So I always have to fork out the cash, plus shipping, and then fucking wait to receive it and then try it on for it to just not fit. Like I just wasted over a week of my time, and extra money just for the experience I'd have in a dressing room. I want to try something on IRL, damn it.

No. 1516922

>>1516907
i agree, tho i am hoping this will lead to more 'outsider art' instead of just following trends

No. 1516935

It's been a year since my gf and I broke up. I feel such a mixed emotions of regret, anger, and hurt but I feel guilt the most. I know the right thing to do is not hold so much anger and grudge towards her since she was right about me in the end and I shouldn't put so much blame on her for being the reason that our relationship failed. It was largely my fault and I know the right thing to do is to learn from this experience and move forward to realizing the best version of myself. I hope she'll find someone who will be perfect for her, and love her the way she deserves to be loved, in a way that I was unable show to her. I really hope she'll find happiness someday.

No. 1516948

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>>1516010
You're safe here, nonnie,

No. 1516954

>>1516717
Unfortunately the autismo genes were too strong and even though I was conceived from non rotten 22 year old cum, I’m still autistic lol

No. 1516955

>>1516762
I have seen doctors, they even witnessed it happen to me in a psych ward after they gave me booty juice which often causes prolapses. They screamed at me for being over dramatic lol even though I angrily showed them my fucked up butthole. Super abusive.

It is normal though if you have hEDS like I do. Same shit has always happened to my dad who gave me his defective genes. It’s not like porn prolapse it’s just a tiny one that can be sucked and tucked right back in

No. 1516956

does anyone else really struggle to relate to and form friendships with other women bc of just how retarded they act sometimes?? like so many of them are genuinely incapable of thinking for themselves and i just feel so alone bc of it

No. 1516957

>>1516956
feel the opposite way about moids. don't want to be friends with them anyway and i haven't ever been for those reasons. it's like they're a weird clueless hivemind of misconceptions if they haven't personally had the lived experience. like they're in a stubborn bubble all the time. can't deal with it at all and i hate how perverted they are IN the way that they are.

No. 1516958

>>1516957
i have no interest in male friendships so i don't bother with them. it's just really hard to fit in with other girls when i don't know how to pull off the fake niceness they expect from me

No. 1516960

My stupid scrote’s birthday is today but he is dealing with chronic tooth pain from impacted wisdom teeth. I was so ready to do everything and anything I could to help him. I was screamed at and told to fuck off multiple times. Then he’d come and sheepishly ask for help he had verbally abused me for even offering. No thanks from him at all.

I set him up with a teladoc appointment. He didn’t have to lift a finger besides answering the call. He had asked me to leave him alone during the video chat which I tried to do but when I realized he wasn’t asking for the med he needs and wasn’t being offered it I brought a whiteboard out and wrote that he needs to ask for gabapentin by name cause they think he’s drug seeking for opiates. And pointed at it. I just wanted to help! He’s not good with doctors appointments. Anyway they can’t prescribe gabapentin on teladoc sadly, he eventually asked. But after the appointment was over her just blew up on me saying I’m such a fucking bitch and how dare I bother him when he asked to be left alone. And I apologized - I was truly trying to act in his best interest but I realize I shouldn’t have. He proceeds to tell me I’m not fucking sorry and that I’m a dumb fucking bitch.

At this point I get a bit stern, since I’m the one who has made sure he got dental insurance and regular health insurance and have happily set up all his appointments for such things. I tell him he doesn’t get to tell me I’m not sorry when I very much am sorry but just wanted him to know my intentions were nothing but concern. He then reduced me to sobbing tears calling me misogynistic slurs and invalidating all my feelings and saying I’m a lying stupid cunt. As I’m sobbing he is making fake mocking crying noises. I say through tears “okay I’m going now” and he mockingly mimics that phrase.

That’s when I snapped and called him a hypocritical fucking scrote. I often BEG for him to do the simplest things for me when I’m breaking down, things like hug me and be there for me and pet my hair and say nice things, he refuses to do that when I ask and just screams at me and says he can’t be around me when I’m like that. But that’s literally a malicious breach of boundaries. I accept I shouldn’t have bothered him and should have respected his wishes to not be bothered while he was on the virtual doctors appt but I was worried he wouldn’t ask for the med he needs and was literally just concerned. He tried to come at me with “what if I bothered you during a teladoc appointment huh??? Kept bothering you like that!” And it’s like… that would make me feel loved that you cared so much about my health and were so invested in making sure I get what I need. And he often asked you to help me at doctors appointments and you refuse. So no, I don’t get it, and while I was sorry for breaching your trust, it wasn’t a malicious act and I’m also sorry.

No. 1516963

>>1516960
dump his ass

No. 1516964

>>1516956
Last time I was struggling to relate with some female coworkers it was because I didn’t play mobile games - that was mostly what they talked about once they found out they liked the same one (something with dragons). I often find if I played a few video games or liked a sport I could relate to more women but I don’t do either of those things. Which is kind of funny because I think of those as moid things but obviously they’re just popular things. Maybe I’m the one who can’t be related with!

No. 1516968

>>1516964
i wish there were women around me who liked games… it would at least give me a starting point. all the girls i used to be friends with only talk abt make-up and men and i just don't fit into the conversation at all…

No. 1516971

>>1516964
i feel the same way. i HATE video games well not all of them i like simple rpgmaker games and fran bow but it ends there. i especially hate online games and (male) gamers the value of the person in my eyes honestly lowers expinentially when someone mentions being one. and i am not in any way interested in sports least of all football/soccer which is one of the biggest topic of conversation in my country. i don't wear makeup either so i'm not very knowledgeable about the technical skills to give out advice, i've never been in a relationship or anything close so i don't have beef stories to tell either kek. i never even go out so i'm not averagely socialized, none of my interests align with "the norm" but i have a friend with the same core values as me so having shared interests matters very little, and it's fun to talk about them to eachother even if it's not something we are both knowledgeable in simple because it's enjoyable to listen to a friend and to learn more about a world "foreign" to you. hope you nonnies find someone like this too

No. 1516976

>>1516960
Jesus fucking christ what a horrible little sod. Just fucking leave him.

No. 1516982

>>1516960
he doesn't deserve you. leave him.
if you had a daughter would you want her boyfriend to treat her like that? or would you slit his throat and dump him at a new construction site? choose wisely.

No. 1516983

>>1516960
The only person you should apologise to is yourself for not having dumped him sooner. I hope he gets sepsis in his nasty fucking mouth and dies.

No. 1516984

>>1516960
>He proceeds to tell me I’m not fucking sorry and that I’m a dumb fucking bitch.

>At this point I get a bit stern


This has to be bait. It just has to be.

No. 1516986

>>1516764
Maybe it's because I'm that type of petty, but I don't think spraying someone with water for eating food in bed or whatever is abusive kek. It's more funny than anything imo.

No. 1517001

>>1516960
Breakup. Now. He doesn’t respect you at all and thinks you’re a pushover who won’t leave. Let him languish in his misery without you there to save his ass.

No. 1517004

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>>1516986
NTA but it sounds very annoying and kind of infantilizing imo. I dunno I'd start alogging hard at anyone who did that to me.

No. 1517011

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>4 year IRL relationship

>has folders of nudes from other women


>routinely flirts with and maintains romantic online contact with multiple women


>frequently has sexual conversations online with other women


>broke down in tears once and confessed to flirting with an teenage girl (ffs)


>jerks off to our friends pictures


>downloads ALL the data off my computer and wipes it so he can ‘go through it’


>infrequently struck me a few times with various tech objects


>continued flirtatious contact with his ex girlfriend the entire 4 years. i accept it eventually


>lose everyone’s respect


> group chat begged me to leave for a year. eventually they couldn’t cope with my handmaidenry, constant complaining about him even though i was choosing this horrible relationship.


>tried to hang himself and posted on twitter that it was my fault because i ‘scared away his new gf’


>left the group chat after being rightfully ostracised over choosing this relationships i


>gutted because i felt a strong bond with the women in that chat but towards the end they were clearly making fun of me


>i avoided responsibility and blamed other women instead of leaving him


>i buy us a house


>big mistake


>3 months after i buy the house. he brings another woman into it. tells me it’s over between us and that he is bringing her back and that i will accept it or he’ll become homeless or kill himself


>he threatens suicide, threatens to damage my belongings, threatens to squat in my house, threatens to sue me if i don’t allow her into my home.


>she’s apparently fine with all that for whatever reason


>they have hours of loud phone conversations 5-12pm every night in MY house while i cry myself to sleep, have to listen to them both mock me


>one night he comes into my room and cuddles me even though he’s supposedly ~in love~ with new gf


>i didn’t want him to leave so i begged him to end the affair like a spineless fucktard handmaiden (cringe)


>he moves out and i let the house out


>he adds himself to my previous group chat and tells them he never loved me, we were never in a relationship, and that i raped him. (they believe him kek)


>truth is that i was a very devoted and loving gf and did everything he asked of me


>still talks to this woman and composes international handwritten loveletters which she then posts online despite purporting to be in a new e-relationship


>i point out that he hasn’t changed


>’i never treated my other gfs like that, only you because i didn’t respect you’


i’m now medicated and receiving the correct help i need for my affliction and no longer have contact with him. it’s been 6 months since this 4 year pantomime ended and i still have nightmares about it.

i have so much anger. i’m angry that he’s still doing the same thing to other women. i’m angry that he refused to let me take him anywhere but went on constant trips with someone else. i’m angry that he keeps getting away with it. i’m angry.

No. 1517018

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>>1516963
>>1516976
>>1516983
>>1516982
>>1517001
I appreciate the support nonnies, it actually means a lot. An hour after I posted my vent, he came to me sobbing and hugging me saying that he can’t believe he treated me that way. I’d thought I’d heard silent sobbing in the room. He was still sobbing, said he thinks he’s going to die and that the pains causing him to hallucinate. I’ve known him for a decade and I’ve never seen him sob and scream in pain before. Not anything like this. And I’ve seen him hurt himself pretty bad. This is excruciating even to watch and listen to. I don’t actually think he’s trying to be manipulative cause he’s not a good actor at all and he couldn’t fake this kind of thing even if he tried.

I also know he has several fucked up wisdom teeth and I am worrying he could have a raging infection at this point. Poor man is rocking in the fetal position in tears, this is not like him, he’s not a crier. My hearts breaking and I can forgive him since I think the pain is so intense it could be breaking his mind. I called the ER and the nurse even said “severe tooth pain can bring the strongest dude down” so now I’m hoping to convince him to go to the ER. He’s considering it but also he hates hospitals and doesn’t have a lot of faith in doctors due to several misdiagnoses of random crap. Current plan is for him to just verbally abuse his shitty rich af family into giving him the money to get these removed in one fell swoop at an emergency oral surgeon. They’re loaded and abusive so they deserve it and I fully support that decision.

No. 1517019

>>1517011
when a moid threatens suicide, you should always let them do it, because it's always a good thing when a moid kills himself.

No. 1517020

>>1517019
i wish he had the guts

No. 1517022

>>1517018
nonna, he is going to give another excuse next time, just fucking dump his retarded ass and let him die of sepsis next time because he can't take care of himself.

>calls someone who verbally abused her several times poor man

>gives excuse after excuse even though admits he cant do anything for shit even when he is not injured

you deserve this treatment if you stay.
tbh you should help him to get better then leave his ass immediately but you won't, so enjoy caring for a broken moid that will call you a bitch everytime you try to help him for the rest of your life.

No. 1517024

just opened up to my friends and i feel sick. it feels so weird

No. 1517026

>>1517022
>tbh you should help him to get better
she really shouldn't

No. 1517027

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>>1517022
I’m a chronically ill NEET and I can’t even sustain a part time job so it’s like, he supports me doing a job he despises. I’d kms if I was forced to do that for the rest of my life. I try to cut him some slack, esp considering I’m not always an entirely reasonable person myself.

Idk maybe it’s just Stockholm syndrome at this point in some ways. But I do love him a lot, even if I could support myself I’d still want to be close to him, maybe just as friends and occasional FWB. Since I can’t support myself independently I’m forced to rely on someone and I kinda would be screwed without him. I love my mom and would love to live with her, unfortunately that would mean living with my extremely abusive father who is over a million times worse than my partner even on my partners absolute worst days. I can’t spend more than 8 hours around my father without a screaming match ensuing over his constant misogyny, flagrant boundary crossing, purposefully being grossly sexual and then playing dumb and acting like I’m the gross one for “taking it that way” , belittling comments multiple times a day and consistent negging. He’s also a shit head to my mother and I would probably be arrested for domestic violence if I had to move back in with him, I want to beat the shit out of my dad.

No. 1517028

>>1517026
by help him I mean force him to go to ER, pack his shit while he is at the hospital and the moment he steps home, dump his ass so he cant cry he is too sick to be dumped or try to manipulate her into staying.

No. 1517032

>>1517029
I think you’re replying to the wrong post nonnie my partner’s an asshole while in pain but he’s never cheated lol

No. 1517033

>>1517027
he doesn't love you at all, you're merely a convenience to him, his fleshlight live-in maid and he thinks he can shit on you and say whatever he wants because you are his doormat and rely on him to survive. you can do better than this, nonna.

No. 1517034

>>1517027
>chronically ill neet

so get a job.

No. 1517037

>>1517027
what the fuck? go home and beat up your dad, it's infinity times better than this.

No. 1517038

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>>1517034
All the jobs I’ve gotten wouldn’t have paid any bills even if I could have kept them. and I had mental breakdowns at them cause they refuse to accommodate my physical needs and get mad when I have to pee every hour. I had one job I could handle my whole life that I lost to corporate greed but still that was a weekend job and I only made $200 a week

>>1517033
Tbf he does pretty much all the chores and even takes over my chores when I’m bedbound which happens sometimes

No. 1517039

>develop a glasses fetish
>a year later have to wear glasses myself
i want my vision back, i am sure i fucked it thanks to being a hikki and i wish i could beat my 17yo self for being so retarded. Take care of your eyes nonnies.

No. 1517043

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>>1517037
Nonny for real if I thought that would fix the issues I have with my dad I’d do it. But it would just make them worse and he’d want me arrested for DV.

No. 1517045

>>1517043
I disagree. DV reports literally don't do anything anyway, you can't seriously be worried about that.

No. 1517047

>>1517043
just telling you from experience it's a great idea and it makes things better. but you have to really beat his ass.

No. 1517049

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>>1517045
Well the problem with that is also that my mom relies on him for financial support and would probably be screwed without him
And be mad at me for rocking the boat. She’d be mad at me for beating up an old man she claims to love and he’d still make every day living hell for all of us. My partner sucks occasionally but my dad is a raging shitbag boomer 24/7 and he comes after me to be shitty. At least if I leave my partner alone when he’s being a shitbag scrote, he doesn’t come after me. Meanwhile my dad would literally pick the lock on my doors while I was masturbating in my room. I feel far less safe around my father, and I know my father is violently pornsick.

No. 1517050

>>1517049
so your mom lives with an abusive bastard that she needs for money and this is the life you want for you as well? nonna??? im sure there is SOMETHING you can work with if you can sit on your ass on the computer all day

No. 1517052

>>1517049
wouldnt you be able to live with your mother if both of you got a job? she can get a regular job and you can get a part time job online (like those site reviewing things) im sure you can make this work out

No. 1517054

>>1517050
I did get a less abusive bastard and at least mine apologizes and does a lot to make my life good. I think if he had a job he didn’t hate and made more money he’d be far less volatile. He takes care of me and the house, not just pays the bills.

I did better than my mom for sure, she’s my fathers full time fucking maid. My dad has his dream job that he loves but refuses to do more than the bare minimum cause he has literally said my mom and I don’t deserve better than barely above poverty. He works barely 5 hours a week. If he worked 30-40 hours a week he’d be loaded. Meanwhile my partner works 40 hours a week doing soul sucking work and takes in overtime whenever he can cause he wants the best for me. He loves buying me gifts and doing special things for me. He just needs therapy to deal with his emotional shit, which now that he has insurance he is starting. Meanwhile my dads had insurance that covers full therapy for years and he flat out refuses to attempt it and says he’s fine.

No. 1517056

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>>1517052
She flat out refuses to leave him which is one reason I am a logging him constantly in my mind kek. My dream is he gets hit by a truck and it’s not his fault, he dies instantly, and we get a huge settlement of money from it to live on. He has like no life insurance to speak of.

No. 1517057

>>1517054
You are the same as your mother right now.

No. 1517058

>>1517056
>She flat out refuses to leave him which is one reason I am a logging him constantly in my mind
wow that's funny, I'm doing the same thing in my mind with your bf right now

No. 1517059

>>1517057
Maybe but my dad never ever bought us gifts or thought we deserved nice things, my partner at least buys me gifts and thinks I deserve nice things. My dad has told my mother he could’ve done better than her and my partner tells me I’m so far out of his league.

No. 1517060

>>1517058
Awh nonny I’d miss my bf, he’s really good to animals and wants to better himself. My dad on the other hand…

No. 1517061

>>1517059
he probably did nice things to your mother before you were born, people dont get full abusive out of nowhere, it starts with subtle disrespect, then someday you realize you're being treated like absolute dirt. your mother probably realizes that not complying and obeying would mean he would get physically abusive and probably eventually kill her. it's a sad situation.

No. 1517063

>>1517059
>>1517060
Look, I don't know whose ass you need to beat to free yourself from this low self-esteem hell but I encourage you to start with your dad. What if you just really conked him upside the head with a cast iron skillet or something? While he's not looking.

No. 1517064

>>1517061
Actually he was always awful to her literally from the start. I don’t understand why she stayed. He cheated on her and never even love bombed her to get her back. I get angry thinking about it too much cause of how she literally had a child with a man who called her ugly and mousey and cheated on her with her underage niece. And I’d have never had to deal with an abusive guy if she’d had protected me as a child and gotten me away from my father. At least I’m not having kids.

No. 1517065

>>1517059
Nonnie, you partner is clearly compensating for emotional pain he inflicts on you. Paradoxically, he becomes your main source of comfort in this way, even though he's the one who makes you feel bad in the first place. Otherwise, you wouldn't want to stay. Still, it's not good for you in overall, and I don't know what exact health problems you have, but I wouldn't be surprised if they're actually aggravated by the stress you're constantly undergoing in this relationships. I hope you'll choose your well-being eventually.

No. 1517067

>>1517064
> I don’t understand why she stayed.
>And I’d have never had to deal with an abusive guy if she’d had protected me as a child and gotten me away from my father.
She's brainwashed and has low self esteem just like you. If you want be better than her start by protecting yourself right now and get yourself away from the abusive guy you're with! (and after that –I'm not joking– please beat up your dad if you're physically capable of it)

No. 1517068

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>>1517064
Samefag but I gotta step back from this cause now I’m honestly angry at everyone in my life even my mom. She’s a coward for not leaving the man who constantly emotionally abused her child. I begged her to divorce him starting at age 3. They separated briefly and I loved living away from him, her brief new bf was so nice and fatherly to me. Then she got back with him and life was hell forever. She literally let this man bully and abuse a poor little girl and was too much of a pussy to leave. Your child constantly wishing you would divorce their father should have been the most reddest flag of the century. Your child begging and crying to not have to drive anywhere alone with their father should have sounded alarm bells. I never came back from a solo car ride with him without being in tears. I sometimes think that my mom wouldn’t have even left him if he’d had straight up sexually assaulted me.

No. 1517071

>>1517068
I told you he was the problem! Lay your dad out. I swear to god I'm not giving you bad advice. It's messy and completely worth it.

No. 1517072

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>>1517065
>>1517067
I just wish there was a way out man I have no fucking friends that aren’t struggling with poverty and have kids of their own and I so many damn issues physically and mentally I literally don’t have anywhere to go. I’ve had some scrotes offer me places to live in exchange for sex but that doesn’t seem healthy or safe either. I can’t even drive due to my disabilities. I have pets that are my children and that complicates shit even more than if I had human children. I think I’m just stuck fuck fuck fuck goddamn I’m taking my internet break for a month

No. 1517073

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Some days - like today - I genuinely feel braindead. I cannot focus on work, I don't process what people are saying to me, I gloss over text messages where someone is saying where to meet them and then I ask multiple times where we are meeting and come across as retarded. I have stupid impulses to have an Irish coffee at work or to binge eat chocolate or impulse shop or do drugs or something. I feel like my brain is shriveling up from the lack of stimulus and all I can do is cry. I just want to fucking feel something other than this brainfog and I'm afraid that I might have some sort of neurological disorder like Alzheimer's or Parkinsin's or some shit

No. 1517076

>>1517072
>>1517073

Matthew 24:12 And because lawlessness will be increased, the love of many will grow cold.

Read the Bible and seek Christ. You are in this position due to lawlessness.

No. 1517077

>>1517073
are you avoiding something?

No. 1517078

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This was a long time ago but I still think about it from time to time, I was talking about my trauma with a MtF (at the time I did support tif's/tim's) and I was pouring my heart out to him and crying, he then says to me that I should maybe forgive him for what he did to me as a child, I honestly thought he was going to support me and it shocked and angered me so much, he was a neet at the time and last I've heard of him he's been homeless twice, Good.

No. 1517079

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>>1517076
suck my fart out of my asshole

No. 1517080

>>1517077
No, I just find it incredibly difficult to be present and my mood is also really bad

No. 1517081

>>1517078
it is the most vile victim-blaming shit when we're expected to forgive our predators like it is a flaw to hope they get hit by a bus and die.

No. 1517088

>>1517078
Unrelated but nonny do you who's the artist of this art?

No. 1517107

>>1517088
countandra

No. 1517108

>>1516686
I fucking hate them so much

No. 1517111

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i'm looking at old pictures and videos of what used to be my best friends and i miss them so much it hurts. this is probably nostaglia speaking, but i feel like i'm never going to have a connection like i had with those two ever again. i don't think i could contact them because my head is messed up and i'm terrible with friendships and i always inevitably fuck things up somehow, and it's just better for me to be alone instead of eventually letting people down. it's been 4 years since the last time i've talked to them, i need to move on. they probably don't even think about me anymore.

No. 1517118

>>1517072
I can't explain it but i think I got a crush on you

No. 1517133

>>1516986
Perhaps, but 90% of the gigastacys here being in abusive relationships with ugly worthless and aloof men still holds true

No. 1517135

>>1517111
People think about the friends they were close with forever. They don’t forget. People reminisce on the happy times in their lives all the time, even if they’re not overly preoccupied with the past, they’ll think of it occasionally and look back with fondness, joy and love. Maybe instead of it being an all or nothing thing of if you can have what you had before or not, it can be a question of if you think it’d bring you happiness to see them and speak to them occasionally again.

No. 1517150

My pet bird died and I am fucking devastated. My cockatiel had a mass growing on his lower back but I was convinced it wasn't a tumor. A week ago the vet made a biopsy and couldn't tell me what it was. I went back yesterday to see another vet who agreed it probably wasn't a tumor and told me "so if the operation goes smoothly you'll take him back tomorrow night or if we need to keep him the night it will be an additional 100€. If that is ok with you we'll take him now". And I don't know why the fuck I agreed. The vet was under the impression I was taking him for a preop consultation but I was absolutely not planning on making him have surgery. I don't know how but I left him. I agreed mindlessly. He was terrified and alone. He was afraid of everyone except his cockatiel friend and he now he's fucking dead and I don't even know why I made him get this fucking surgery because he was entirely fine. Yes he had this mass but I am sure it was just an engorgement of the uropygial gland. Even the vet agreed it was probably nothing. He was only 3 years old and I left him to die for no fucking reason

No. 1517171

>>1517150
I'm so so sorry anon.

No. 1517173

It is impossible to find thinspo or fitspo who started at 60 kgs on the English-speaking Internet. Impossible! There are only gymtards "look me muscle me stronk" flexing their ugly meat (no offense, I find defined muscles on any person unattractive) and titanic-wide hips or 32 kg anachans rattling bones and hugging the heater. No average girls at all, only extremes.

No. 1517176

Idg why men who clearly don’t like me still hate being blocked
>never asked to hang out
>dry one word responses
>barely talk
>when I finally get bored and block them they make new accounts and phone numbers asking why they were blocked

Idgi if a man I’m not feeling blocked me I wouldn’t give a shit.

No. 1517195

I hate living in America. I'm so tired of gun violence, and I'm so tired of being worried for my family and friends. People have been killed doing mundane things like going to the movie theater or shopping. I hate it and I just want to leave.

No. 1517196

>>1517018
It's still inexcusable for him to rage like that. He clearly wants to be alone, so leave him alone to suffer. It's what he chose.
>>1517027
You just went from one abusive moid to another, you need to get a job and some introspective skills and realize you deserve way more than an abusive moid.
>>1517039
Shut up I've had glasses since kindergarten

No. 1517198

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Sometimes, I really want to go in on people and not care if I look mentally ill, but I'm too worried that all my good points will be dismissed because of how I presented them. I'd like to follow my instincts and absolutely schizo-sperg, but I don't want any of the repercussions that follow.

No. 1517207

>>1517198
If people don't respect you it doesn't matter how you stand up for yourself they will just want you to stfu

No. 1517208

>>1517176
You giving them attention feeds their ego. Once you block they realise you arent interested anymore and it angers them. Moids are like small children that expect to be given things without giving anything in return.

No. 1517221

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I have super thick 4c hair and if you even blink wrong at it, it gets all matted and tangled. This shit sucks.

No. 1517232

>>1517171
Thank you. I just feel horrible knowing he was probably really scared and confused. And now his friend is alone. I would give anything to get him back

No. 1517249

>>1517198
Me whenever I discuss hollywood from a critical perspective. I never even bring up anything irrational, but people are such idiots buying into the PR grift that they can't suspend their disbelief. they're an industry that partially still runs on coverups, money laundering and organized crime. Just like most higher crust industries in the world. I ain't saying people are drinking baby blood or anything, I'm coming forth with the completely rational explanation that it's full of abusers and dirty hands. This is how you protect pristine images

But no she's just a schizo! Don't listen to her! Go off and suck your celebrity crush's dicks!

No. 1517261

I wish I could shed my physicality away. My body is so…there. Physical. I am so tired of still having insane body image issues. I’ve been having them since I was 12, 13. I feel so old and it’s still there. I have shitty fat distribution; all my fat goes to my stomach, making me look pregnant. I’ve dropped to a BMI 17 and still had a pretty fat stomach. I went to the gym and it still didn’t go away. I am so tired of this body already. I am so tired of myself. Not one thing about me works out, so it does make sense that this wouldn’t, either. I’m shaped like a pregnant lizard. It’s just funny how it starts like this and then spirals into the most insane episodes ever.

No. 1517275

I’ve been off pretty much all social media since October and it’s improved my life drastically BUT if I want to talk/hang out with any of my friends I have to do it via instagram. I put it back on my phone yesterday to make it easier to make plans with someone but I caught myself scrolling, only for 30 sec – 1 min at a time but it was enough to make me feel disgusted and delete it again. Uuuugh I fucking hate that bloody app. Fuck it, if you hoes want to reach me you’ll have to send me a handwritten note tied to a messenger pigeon.

No. 1517277

>>1517275
Do your friends not have phone numbers kek

No. 1517279

I like my coworker as a person but lately her habits are slowly grating on me, like she always leaves food scraps in the sink, it's fucking disgusting, and she got so pissed off the one time I asked her not to do it, she also brings plastic containers for food and for some reason she pretends they are mine when she's done using them. She does that zoomer thing of putting phone conversations on loudspeakers (while talking loudly herself) yet gets annoyed when she hears my phone buzzing because she has misophonia. I'm so non confrontational that I don't dare to call her out on her hypocrisy while she no problem reproaching me stuff (which I admittedly am guilty of).

No. 1517295

>>1517261
I have this same issue. No tits, puffy stomach, and I've lost like 18 kg at this point. Whether I'm chubby or underweight I still have the same ugly body shape. On top of that I have skin issues. I hate going outside and seeing everyone just looking normal and not having to cover up their arms and their back and put on a ton of makeup on their face.

No. 1517304

>>1517277
I've exchanged numbers with lots of them but they'll usually just go back to texting on IG. So I've kind of given up

No. 1517330

sick of my friend sending me pics of her anime boy and trying to push the topic to him every time we talk. i hate said anime boy and hes very ugly and irrelevant and i told her multiple times that i hate him but she just uses me as her husbandofagging diary at this point. i have my own husbandos but i cant even talk about them in fear shell take the chance to talk about her own ugly smelly husbando. i wanna tell her off but i wont cause shes too sensitive and the only thing she has holding her to life right now is that anime boy. i wish she would just get attached to another character, any other character really, so i wouldnt have to hear about and be sent pictures of this ugly smelly fart

No. 1517331

>>1516751
Lmao if we're thinking the same character it doesn't help that he's canonically Jewish which is like a fly trap for them

No. 1517341

Y'know what? Even moids are getting boring. The same manhoes, same creeps, same games, same bullshit, same "traumas", same tricks, same personalities, is so damn boring. I hate the modern dating scene for a lot of reasons, but one of the things I hate most is the fact that is so…mundane. How are people so entertained by this stuff?

No. 1517359

I HATE HAVING A STUFFY NOSE, my nose and sinuses hurt so bad when will it end? Theres this awful feeling of pressure behind my nose and eyes

No. 1517379

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It's stupid but it still hurts how a person who comissioned a character sheet from me ended up using it only twice ( i follow them ) yet everytime they post some "drop your oc" replies they post some other random artworks made by their friends (i assume) that dont look as good and just have a tumblr artstyle. It's a dumb reason to be insecure about, especially because i got the money from it but whatever. Not like i asked for much anyway, 50€ for character ref sheet from 3 angles.

Ever since I've been less confident at my art to a point where a work on which i am working on for 3 weeks now looks like as if i just learned how to put shadows. Man, i am a stupid person. Why do i take this so personally? I can't even open commissions thinking my art is shit, despite me needing the money rn.

No. 1517381

I need a father figure who I can have sex with. Why is this impossible?

No. 1517382

>>1517379
Honestly, maybe they're afraid to keep reposting it because they commissioned it. I mean, maybe they're worried you would be upset or that they would obnoxious.

No. 1517427

I hate spending money so much, I wish I could die so I didn’t have to spend money.
Like I like the idea of shopping, buying stuff, gifting things to others and such. But I hate how it means having to spend money, I even daydream about having enough money to enjoy myself and even in my daydreams I end up feeling guilty because I just feel like I don’t deserve anything.
It’s just so fucked up that I have to throw 165 dollars in groceries weekly because who knows what. I’m not even buying anything crazy, just the basics and not too much, everything gets used that week, nothing goes to waste and then I have to spend 165 dollars again.
Make it stop! I can’t do this anymore!

No. 1517437

>>1517379
Open your commissions. I see the worst, most awful, zero talent having father fuckers opening their commissions, so you can definitely do it.

No. 1517447

>>1515763
We met up last night, had some drinks, chill time nothing happened.
A little infatuation is fine, I’m human and in control, all of you who were so scandalised that someone in a relationship could find someone else attractive need to grow up, it’s a vent thread not a confessional

No. 1517450

>>1517447
Damn, that other person called it. You are definitely going to cheat and then make excuses about it.

No. 1517453

My 10 year old kitty died today, she hadn't been well for awhile. I will miss her very much, she was a very lively girl before she got sick. I will forever love her, I hope her siblings won't miss her too much

No. 1517458

>>1517447
Why are you bored of your boyfriend?

No. 1517468

>>1517447
You bpd retards always ruining the vibe, how are you so reckless and sad?

No. 1517469

File: 1678224527009.jpg (610.63 KB, 1067x1007, 1634844180097.jpg)

>>1517261
>>1517295

https://library.lol/main/69247A4D9395B378195655D2F9FBA321

>>1517341
>modern dating scene
I would assume you're interacting with men you meet on dating apps or in bars/clubs. You're picking from the worst sample available.

>>1517359
Typical sinus infection symptoms. Bonus: sensitivity to light.
https://www.safrax.com/wp-content/uploads/Forbidden-Health-by-Andreas-Kalcker.pdf has something for this, but I haven't verified it yet. Read with not a grain but a handful of salt.

>>1517381
Modern diets have ruined men's testosterone levels.

>>1517427
For your current predicament, you can give thanks to central banks and feminists.
Central banks - because for a while now most countries have been off the gold standard (read: they can print money out of nothing). It's like a hidden tax. And feminists - because women entering the workforce effectively halved wages over time, despite rising worker productivity due to technological advancements. Your grandmothers and mothers were conned into it, and now we all suffer.

>>1517447
Any sane man would dump you for this. Your boyfriend would be devastated to know what you've been up to. Your current feelings are a disaster that has produced misogynists over time and space without fail. Men detest women like you and want nothing to do with them; nobody wants to raise bastard sons.
Women act like this and then wonder how they managed to end up alone, or with a man they don't like.

No. 1517471

>>1517469
Your post reeks

No. 1517473

File: 1678224860050.jpg (39.21 KB, 720x540, Tumblr_l_93971361251429.jpg)

>show someone something ive been working on for a while and have retried three times
>"well it's a good start"
>"oh, what can i improve on"
>silence
Was that just a nice way of saying it looked like shit

No. 1517474

>>1517469
Society collapsed because it stopped shaming men for masturbating.

No. 1517475

>>1517453
thoughts out to you and your kitty nonnerz

No. 1517476

I think I fucked up.

Back in December, I attended Christmas party at my workplace.

I work remote and I hardly know people in the company while most of them know each other and are chummy to each other while I just kind of hang out awkwardly around them. We were all drinking, though I did not get fully drunk, a bit buzzed at most.

Anyways I was friendly to a new coworker (who is male). I swear I did not flirt or show huge interest. We mostly talked about cooking and that is about it from what I can recall. Before he went home, he quickly said we should meet up and cook together at his apartment. Now my first fuckup was I said something along the lines of "uh okay" as he was leaving. It was simply out of awkwardness but I did not think much about it.

Anyways few weeks after, he messages me on linkedin, saying how he has not forgotten the "promise" I made and asked me for my private number. I dodged it back then because I was on a ski trip in another country so I told him I would be unreachable until I'm back home.

Now two months later he again asks me to meet up for a coffee. Again I don't really want to so I talk to my friends about the situation. They tell me that maybe he has no ulterior motives, that he is new in city and in company and maybe just wants a friend and since it is just a coffee, I should go and meet him.
I kind of accept and schedule a meeting him during weekday in a busy place.

But now I am feeling all sorts of anxious about it. I don't want him to think I am interested romantically. I usually do not have problems rejecting men but in the past I had several bad experiences when I rejected a man that was part of my "cycle" (friend, school or activity cycle) where they would get angry and spread rumors about me. Now I am afraid this one could get butthurt too and start shittalking me to work colleagues and I really do not want this to happen because my workplace is nice and I have good benefits and so on.

I have no idea what to do, feels like I am trapped.

No. 1517477

>>1517471
Don't worry, I'm an interloper. I'll stick around for at most another day or two, and leave you to yet again fumble in ignorance.

>>1517474
Sure. Add it to the list. Central banks, feminism, adultery, 'gay pride', mass immigration, mass apostasy, …

If our forefathers had continued to abide by God's laws given to them at Mount Sinai, none of this would have happened.

Oh, if only you knew how liberating God's law is. You might see it as a set of restrictions, but to live in it is extremely refreshing.

No. 1517481

A man on hinge told me he works in childcare and that’s a job he loves….time to abort mission and block him. I’m sure he’s a pedo because most men who chose to hang around kids are pedos so a man who is a teacher or day care worker and doesn’t seem indifferent or hates it is a red flag.

No. 1517483

File: 1678225680156.png (309.57 KB, 596x986, 1675916661404444.png)

>>1517476
Well, it's simple. You've already agreed to meet him. So do exactly that.

Act casual and be polite. If at the end of your date you are still not romantically interested in him, express your feelings clearly and without fear.

Women overthink things to an almost comedic level. From a place unrelated to this I know of a girl who was so afraid of rejecting a guy she had a full blown panic attack. When she admitted this to him, he said "oh, ok, well the dates were fun, bye".

No. 1517484

I just applied for a job and the confirmation email says I HAVE to download some shady app to my phone that I've never heard of to find out if I get scheduled for an interview. There was no indication while I was applying that I would have to download an app, and there's no way to contact the company directly. I'm going to throw a brick through the window when the store is closed tonight since it's not too far. I hope it hits whoever chose to use that shady fucking app for hiring.

No. 1517487

>>1517484
You can download an emulator on your PC that simulates a phone. Install it there.
What's the name of the app in question?

No. 1517490

>>1517483
>Women overthink things to an almost comedic level.
Considering how men are regularly known to react to rejection/friendzoning, not really. Even more so when anon has personal experience with exactly that.

No. 1517492

>>1517490
It's a godfag moid, ignore it.

No. 1517496

>>1517487
It's a poverty-wage fast food job. Why should I go to the effort of finding a secure emulator and figuring out how to use it when smashing their window will take 5 minutes and costs nothing?

No. 1517499

>>1517496
Yeah, don't do it then. I can relate nonnie, these fucken minimum wage companies are getting too audacious.

No. 1517501

>>1517484
god i hate having to download a fucking app for everything nowadays

No. 1517504

>>1517501
Nta but agree. Fred Meyer is always running really good sales that are digital-coupon-only through their app and seriously fuck them I’m not downloading a damn app, don’t put these damn signs all over the store if it’s not the fucking sale price without a coupon!!!!reeeee

No. 1517507

i'm autistic to the point where i think i need a fucking caretaker and i could not be more ashamed.

No. 1517508

>>1517496
I've been rejected for a minimum wage student job because I didn't pass an online personality test lmaoo fuck that shit

No. 1517511

>>1517508
me too. retail managers are all powertripping retards who get too much respect.

No. 1517514

>>1517508
I have tried my best to game them and I still never pass them. Since I don't have any manager experience I can't apply to be a manager anywhere but I'm also not enough of a lemming according to these tests to be a retail bee, so where do I belong? These tests in general are inaccurate and entirely self assessing too

No. 1517515

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this girl in my class is seriously such a cunt. every single time she makes it a point to mention that every asian looks the same and about a week or two she loudly called asia/ns rotten/filthy while she was sat behind me. i'm asian. we're in uni for god's sake leave your edgy jokes elsewhere cause i'm not laughing. just don't understand what's so funny about doing this kind of stuff and it hurts even more when others are laughing sometimes even the professors as well knowing i'm the only foreigner in the class and of that race as well. i don't talk to anybody either i don't know what i did so wrong for her to do this kek are you 15 just leave me alone this isn't high school. the last thing i expected was for this type of harassment to follow me here as well in the same way too

No. 1517516

I hate knowing that right now I'm just one medical emergency away from needing to go into debt or resort to sex work

No. 1517518

>>1517514
Apparently the main trick is to pick the most extreme answer available for every question. I just passed home depot's 72-question personality quiz. Can't wait to lick the unwashed ass of the retard who implemented it!

No. 1517526

File: 1678229657512.jpg (580.89 KB, 1080x1212, testosterone.jpg)

>>1517490
Any men who reacts as such is inherently low T and not worth pursuing. They basically self-filter. Read the attached image.

>>1517492
Never use that word combination again.

>>1517496
Never mind finding a 'secure' emulator, it's a bit more problematic getting the cursor working. If you can get past that using the tab and arrow keys, you're set.
As for it being a povery-wage job, I wonder why more women, who make up the majority of minimum wage workers, don't harbor resentment towards their corporate overlords.

>>1517507
You've got parasites in that enteric nervous system down there (your gut). Clear them out.

>>1517516
Relax, you have the safety net of women's shelters. Women make up ~5% of the homeless population.

>>1517525

Well, sure. But first I would have to make an account and post braindead globohomo rhetoric in various comment sections.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 1517528

I have already peaked but I still cannot get the fuck over my MtF troon ex. Please, someone tell me what the fuck is wrong with me. I know he's just as misogynistic, sexist, and disgusting as the rest but why do I still get hung up over this worthless loser

No. 1517529

This girl I work with turns into a little brat the second she has to interact with me, suddenly she has to argue with and contradict everything I say, I guess for fun? It gets me riled up and she knows it, and now I get the fun job of trying to relax and let the anger pass when all I wanna do is throw hands. I hope a bus hits her.

No. 1517530

>>1517526
kill yourself

No. 1517532

File: 1678230122151.jpeg (18.38 KB, 257x275, 1648618732890.jpeg)

God my boss is a so fucking inept stop being such an absolute wet wipe that you fail to manage people properly. you fucking moron, eat dirt

No. 1517535

>>1517528
Don’t worry, nonnie, maybe you got to spend some good times with him and that’s what your brain keeps thinking about. You’re just a good person if you can still think of that piece of shit as something that you can miss. But don’t fall for that trap, he’s already a moid to moid in a dress, he will never get better, specially if he wants to get a rot pocket, so maybe try going out with friends, or on your own, the more busy you are the less you will miss that pathetic waste of space and resources.

No. 1517536

>>1517507
there is no shame in getting the help you need. Having a caretaker doesn't make you less worth than other people

No. 1517538

>>1517526
clear your brain with a bullet. anyways,
>>1517536
thank you, i appreciate you saying that very much. i hope you have a wonderful rest of your day.

No. 1517554

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>>1517469
Kys and stream it so only one person watches you die.

No. 1517558

File: 1678232062105.jpg (132.66 KB, 1024x768, 1677670946069767.jpg)

I just wanna be good at drawing, god i hate everything i hate people, i hate life, i hate work i just want to be good enough to draw my disgusting fetishes so i have a reason to keep going. Why am i so fucking untalented?? everything i make looks like shit even if i read my loomis and draw everyday. fuck AI shills too for ruining art, hope the fuckers catch butt cancer

No. 1517579

>>1517558
If Loomis works for you then good, but don’t make it the center of your studies like the memes

No. 1517592

File: 1678235199910.gif (9.07 MB, 480x480, ezgif-3-ef2480fb4e.gif)

Came back home after a week visiting my gf and my best friend. Back to being lonely and depressed again. I love them so much, but they are too far, live in a country i hate (and they can't leave) and finding people like them near me is impossible. I want to marry my girlfriend so much, i want to live with her and have our quiet life together, but so far, with the way things are going on it's just won't ever happen. It's just not fair. Looking for ways to do it only proves to me that it won't happen. Wish i could just give up and live as usual, but i desperately need human touch and connection! And i'm too autistic to find someone else or even just some new friends. I can't afford therapy nor afford to marry in another country where it's still possible for us. So now i'm back to eating my feelings and whining on lolcor i guess.

No. 1517596

>>1517558
>i suck how do i improve
you just gotta draw mang aint deeper than that

No. 1517600

God exams stress me out so much. It doesn't matter how much I study, I'll always do poorly or do average at best. I'm hoping the rest of the class did just as badly as me since the grades are curved.

No. 1517605

Eating an egg always puts me in a good mood. Especially with super runny yolks. A soft boiled or short poached/fried sunny side up eggg is the best. So many vitamins, cheap, tastes so good even without seasonings, truly the greatest . The egg came first!

No. 1517608

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tired of people holding up marriage over my head as if I secretly desperately want that and am merely pretending to be disgusted by the prospect

No. 1517610

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>>1517579
yeah i am trying to both do studies and drawing for fun
>>1517596
i know you sperg, i was just venting because drawing is the only thing i enjoy out of life and i am not good enough yet to enjoy it to its fullest

No. 1517615

File: 1678237444134.jpg (335.52 KB, 1080x1455, GirlFuckYou.jpg)

MAJOR DOLL SPERGING AHEAD: This is probably an incredibly niche topic but FUCK THIS BITCH, seriously. As a kid I was so saddened when she took down her Fabulous Life of Bratz series. It's so WEIRD how she spent so much time having her sister design an entire website for her series, went through the trouble of taking pictures of the characters and editing them in photoshop, did voice-overs for the characters, edited the videos, etc. etc. So much time and effort went into this little Bratz doll youtube series. Not to mention her side channel and her Flickr account and how she competed in Bratz Next Top Model competitions. She said she had to take down ALL of her videos because her employer was sent goofy videos of Bratz dolls trying to solve a murder mystery made when she was a literal child? I'm sorry but how and in what way would that negatively affect your employment? And why would you have to take them down?
Doing a bit of digging around, I found a video where she replied to a comment a few months ago (I'm sure this was a year or so ago, so quite recent for a youtuber that had to DFE and leave youtube because of "harrassment") and she was arguing with and as far as I can recall, insulting someone who wanted the videos back up because they would watch them all the time as a child. Bitch what are you doing logging back into your Bratz doll murder mystery youtube channel? The fuck?
Doing more digging, you can find some videos made 10+ years ago by a fan of hers. She made some bitchy comments on that video, too.
Bottom line: Angela Parkes who Created the Fabulous Life of Bratz is a BPD bitch. Canadians: not even once.

No. 1517617

File: 1678237572457.jpg (69.79 KB, 458x664, flat,800x800,075,f.u2.jpg)

nobody cares aviut me

No. 1517623

File: 1678238413626.jpg (231.63 KB, 863x752, 38a.jpg)

Bf came home seeming super aggro and agitated in general cause he had to do a lot of driving today. He was also being a dick to me too but that isn't entirely unusual these days, I've learned to cope with petty.
Later while we were watching tv, he somehow breached the subject of how he almost got into a physical traffic altercation earlier.
Some guy had cut him off pulling out of a gas station and didn't use his signal. So bf took this opportunity to lay on his horn and act enraged. He said the confrontation escalated from just flipping each other off to him rolling down his window to tell the guy to meet him in the parking lot. The guy told him to fuck off so my bf, admitted while laughing, that he threatened to kill him!
Apparently people from other cars were watching, bf said someone attempted to follow him for a bit.

I can't fucking believe how casual he is about this. I can't believe he thought it was a good idea to tell me. People can be armed…he's lucky he guessed right about the guy cause it could have easily been another hothead with a gun!
The cherry on top is that he explained "it wasn't even about the guy, I just had negative and angry energy so I wanted a fight to feel release." WTAF.
I knew his road rage was bad but this unhinged cluster B shit can actually get himself manslaughtered.

No. 1517629

>>1517515
She sounds jealous. Hey, maybe her scrote cheated on her with an Asian and she has been bitter ever since? You can make up any story for these NPCs, really.

No. 1517634

>>1517623
I hope you never trigger him, nona. This is very telling.

No. 1517644

>>1517623
Break up with this violent moid. Tf. Road rage is always a telling sign of something worse.

No. 1517645

>>1517515
So sorry you had to deal with that. Asians deal with microagressions all the time. Asian hate is alive and well in burgerland. She sounds like a jealous bitch.

No. 1517649

>>1515798
How can any woman be pro sports and changing rooms?? Please peak her. There are dozens of incidents with tranny men hurting women.

No. 1517651

Idg why most guys are never looking for anything serious. I get it if they are rich or hot because they probably have tons of women wanting to fuck them but I don’t understand how ugly and poor guys are always scared to get in a relationship….like are women really having casual sex with these men enough for this to happen?I would think men like that would want to get in a serious relationship just because they can’t get pussy.

No. 1517652

>>1517651
they know they can't meet even minimum expectations

No. 1517653

>>1517652
Yeah but how do they expect to get sex? I mean if a woman is just going to get used for sex she could just find a hot fuck boy

No. 1517656

>>1517653
how did someone who was born yesterday even get here?

No. 1517657

>>1517656
Yeah I get how hot and rich guys expect casual sex but I don’t get how ugly and average men are getting casual sex. I would think they’d be super desperate for a gf.

No. 1517658

>>1517657
They probably prefer porn

No. 1517659

>>1517657
They usually have some poor woman they treat like a cumrag or they just lie kek. I’ve known scrotes who say they want casual but literally never do anything about it.

No. 1517664

My hair is growing out from extensions so it's time to re-do my braids. I'm so annoyed because I know it's going to take me a minimum of 3 days to do the whole process of washing, detangling, blowing out or stretching, prepping, and re-braiding my entire head. I'm gonna have to start this Friday and wear a hat till then.

No. 1517666

File: 1678242755475.png (259.8 KB, 492x330, 1574882406824.png)

i wanna make myself another bjd folklore doll. i want to make realistic bat dolls. i wanna make visual novels about victorian romance. i wanna make a terfy yume nikki fangame. BUT INSTEAD IVE GOT THINGS IM OBLIGATED TO FINISH THAT WONT BE FINISHED FOR ANOTHER YEAR. FUCK

No. 1517667

>>1517652
There are so many scrotes that are so terrified of failure they won’t even try nowadays. They want all the benefits but none of the work. It’s why they jump from woman to woman in search of “the one” because they expect literally everything to fall into place as soon as you’re official. They think all of the happy relationships around them somehow magically worked out and neither party had to lift a finger. A lot of them do actually want real connections IMO but are too cowardly to actually be vulnerable enough to achieve this and then project their insecurities out on women.

No. 1517669

I don't like one of the people in a group chat I'm in. They sound like a passive-aggressive asshole. Urgh. Will have to probably take note not to interact with them.

No. 1517678

>>1517666
I hope youre able to get some free time soon. Those things sound super cool and right up my alley, I love interesting bjds and historic visual novels. I wanna make a vn too but I also have a shit ton of school and work

No. 1517685

File: 1678244331405.jpg (73.65 KB, 500x500, jkr2.jpg)

>>1517666

>i wanna make a terfy yume nikki fangame.


You have my support. I would totally play something like this. Make sure it has a world full of JKR's face everywhere to make troons extra seethe.

No. 1517722

GASLIGHTING IS NOT THE SAME AS LYING
GASLIGHTING IS NOT THE SAME AS LYING
GASLIGHTING IS NOT THE SAME AS LYING
GASLIGHTING IS NOT THE SAME AS LYING
I'm so fucking tired of people using gaslighting when they mean lying. I want to gouge my eyes and ears out. Stop cheapening the psychological effects it can cause.

No. 1517761

I know to actually be successful in relationships as a woman you need to be a horrible person on the same level as a scrote and be heartless and intelligent enough to beat them at their own game but I don’t want to be mean and shitty to a person I want to be with but I know scrotes find reasonable women to be boring

No. 1517767

>>1517761
One of the reasons I decided to never deal with scrotes. You have to get down on their level and forget your humanity and warmth or you get fucked over. The whole deal disgusts me.

No. 1517774

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>>1517118
Nonny will you push me in my wheelchair when my illness is flaring and hug me when I have scary flashbacks?

No. 1517780

>>1515221
same here I want to scream

No. 1517785

>>1517767
The only women who can really handle scrotes are sociopaths and narcissistic women because they can be evil but they also really enjoy it. Men take being nice as weakness.

No. 1517800

IF A BUNCH OF AUTIST ON /v/ CAN MAKE A STUPID ASS GAME, WHY CAN'T WE.
LOLCOR VN

FUCK MOIDS BTW

No. 1517801

>>1517761
find a man who comes from a long line of men who submit and defer to their wives and mothers. they do exist but not enough to go around. the trick is also to find one whose mother isn't A Boymom (you know the type) and/or is not a faggot who can't stand up for his woman

No. 1517802

>>1517722
It's a psyop

No. 1517807

>>1517800
what game? kinda surprised /v/ hasnt made a fightan, 2ch did and it looks pretty fun.

No. 1517811

File: 1678253537797.jpeg (170.79 KB, 804x600, 90FA687F-96F1-4A2F-9E63-204D7C…)

I’ve been in intensive mental health treatment for a while and now I’m petrified of going back to my old stressful job once insurance inevitably decides they don’t want to cover me anymore. Reading this back, I’m such a spoiled brat because a) I’m lucky to have been able to afford the copay on the treatment on my own b) I’m lucky to have any insurance coverage at all c) I’m lucky to even have access to this kind of treatment for any amount of time d) I have a job waiting for me when I get out

…maybe recognizing that means the treatment is working. Anyway, fuck work I’m not done crying every day

No. 1517815

I'm about to start my first DnD game but I'm going to be so embarrased because my dumb ass can't do basic addition quickly, much less in front of others who are waiting on me, and I also can't fucking remember north, south, east, and west without having to picture the entire thing. Killing myself

No. 1517826

Any other anons who never wanted to grow up when they were kids? I already knew back then that being an adult would suck and was a total scam. Now I'm finally there, with bills and responsibilities and I was right, it sucks and I'm burnt out 24/7 but at least now I can buy myself the toys I wanted but never got as a kid. Not really sure if I like the trade off but it was unavoidable anyway. If you're a young adult, cherish the remaining freedom you have because the monotony of daily living will shackle you soon.

No. 1517841

>>1517826
Yep, at one point I even tried to stunt my growth. I think part of the reason was because everything in my life went to shit the moment puberty happened and didn't want to get sexually harassed more than usual, plus I didn't grow out of childish interests. pre-puberty felt like the last time I could be truly innocent so I wanted to maintain that. Other kids acted like I was a freak for wanting to still play with dolls instead of dating even though we were only 12-13, and I also hated how they constantly made sexual and vulgar jokes. These days I'm not concerned with the innocence part anymore but feeling exhausted everyday and not having time to do what I want, and of course money.

No. 1517842

people need to give toenail clippers more credit i just used them to get rid of my feet callouses

No. 1517847

>>1517815
Just keep your phone calculator open and if anyone mentions it say you just find it quicker sometimes so you prefer it. I’ve seen plenty of people in different groups use their phone calculator either constantly or for trickier numbers and it’s normal to hear people at table sometimes go “uhh so 76 minus 17 is… er….. it’s… okay, yeah.”

No. 1517849

>>1517842
just realized i posted on the wrong thread i am sorry for all the distresed nonnies that had to read that

No. 1517850

>>1517847
Good to know I'm not the only one on the struggle bus. My session zero was earlier and luckily the DM is a nice guy who didn't make a big deal about it at all. Looking forward to learning the game

No. 1517856

I really dont know if I want the apartment I was approved for. I loved the lay out but I'll lose my view, the nice walking neighborhood, and its slightly smaller with 100 more a month.

No. 1517863

>>1517849
what thread did you mean to post that in?

No. 1517876

I gained 15lbs in a month and I am 5lbs away from becoming overweight. Kill me now! It took me months to lose the 15lbs I just gained. Fuck man. My year is ruined.

No. 1517877

>>1517863
dumbass thread

No. 1517889

>>1517678
>>1517685
thank you nonnies, you are sweet. i will work hard and try to achieve my desires even if it kills me

No. 1517902

probably the worst way to comfort anyone is to tell them that whoever acted cruel towards them was "just jealous"… okay… like i can't think of any time in my life even in childhood that has made me feel better in any way if anything it just makes me feel worse. mot being snarky or passive aggressive i just don't understand how that is any way to make someone feel better, like whether or not they were envious they acted cruelly so what does that change? idk. i don't or barely ever experience schadenfreude and especially not from this

No. 1517903

>>1516835
Nta but I was just reading through this thread and that anon really wasn't bragging about that lol, I don't know why you're so mad over it but it's weird, and you're weird for thinking her vent was a boast.

No. 1517905

>>1517876
girl are we twins? Because same. Fuck this shit. I'm good at eating healthy, I'm not boozing, there's no reason for this. I don't even care fuck this I'm gonna do something fun.

No. 1517954

I'm so fucking annoyed at my job's constant "let's test every possible way to get job done" hassle. I just finished setting up a document that we're going to present to a client, same way we've always done it, but since my coworkers want to test ways to improve "readability" (since clients are lazy and don't want to read) they now want me to create several documents with slight tweaks in style and wording to see which one looks best. We discussed this for 3 hours in a meeting, even going as far as researching completely new online tools to see if we could set up a webpage instead of a document. I watched my coworker share her screen for 2 hours slowly clicking through and testing different functions, mumbling to herself, then discussing every possible "what if" there is available.

For fuck's sake. A simple document works. It's not our fault clients are lazy. It's their fucking job to read it, not our job to come up with some fancy, sparkly ways to "improve their attention span". It's their job! We have a contract! Have some fucking standards!

No. 1517996

We cannot buy water anymore, so now mom decided to boil tap water and I just don't have a good feeling about this. Our tap water is sometimes filled with a lot of minerals and random dust, I'm trying my best to not drink it because I know that shit has to be unhealthy, just checked and it actually has a bunch of dust, this is not okay we need to find another way before I dehydrate

No. 1518002

>>1517902
Most of the time it's so obviously bullshit. Yeah mom, the girls at school are totally jealous of my mustache, unibrow and raging autism. I'm definitely being bullied because they all so badly want to be an ugly, awkward poorfag.

No. 1518011

>>1517902
>>1518002
In high school they forced a girl who was bullying me and a few other girls on her instagram with screenshots calling us ugly to write personal apologies and she said she was just jealous of us… I wasn't dumb enough to believe that kek she bullied us because we were unfortunate looking and easy targets

No. 1518042

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I wish I could meet a guy into the same dumb fandom stuff as I am, making fanart, fanfics, fancomics, shipping, etc., doubly so if it's for my somewhat niche kiddie franchise fandom but I know that's borderline impossible and I think I'd feel bad to subject a guy to that sort of stuff and even worse if I'm just placated and he doesn't even care. I wish I were into women so that finding this type of person would be easier…

No. 1518044

I had really poor oral health growing up (because of neglect, mostly) and now I have pretty yellow and thin teeth because of it. They're otherwise healthy, but it's such a shot to my self esteem to look and the mirror and be confident in my appearance but have yellow teeth. They're crooked too but tbh I think the only cosmetic work I want to get done on my mouth is professional teeth whitening. I feel like I would be a whole new person.

No. 1518047

This recession is killing me, even though I'm a NEET and don't have to pay bills I still have to pay for food and jesus christ these prices are driving me insane. If I want to buy a cabbage I have to spend double the amount as 3 years ago, I should just beg my parents to let me have a vegetable garden in the backyard. All I have been eating is garlic pasta, potatoes if we have them or plain mexican rice. I just want some fried tofu rice with vegetables but it will cost me an arm and a leg. I applied to jobs but no one has responded, maybe I should just go dumpster diving.

No. 1518052

>>1517807
Not sure if it's /v/ or /vg/ but, I'm talking about Katawa Shoujo. I'm going to make my own game with Lolcor's help. Watch me.

No. 1518053

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men be the stupidest fucks on earth then get mad at you for not reading their minds and act like youre stupid for not getting what the vaguest description means. this stupid ass fucking man called me cause im home and asked me to send a pic of his medication. he has a fuck ton just put on top of each other. i ask the name of the medicine, the colour, the effects of it even cause some have it written on the front, he doesnt know anything. i read their names and he says one, i send pic, he calls back, hes mad that its not the one. all hes saying is "its there, its uh, its there! send the right one!" YOU DUMB FUCK cant even string a sentence together. then we find the one after i send a pic, and the worst part it was the only one in this colour and i asked before if it was this one!!!! i asked if its this colour and read the name!!!!! but this man is so stupid he doesnt even know the colour let alone the name of the medicine hes been having for days now. it really angers me that men are this fucking stupid and they have the chance to be women's bosses and order us around just because they are men. literally not a single braincell working and he has the guts to act like his description of the medicine being there must be enough for me to magically guess which one it is, and if its not then im stupid. how did these stupid genes even pass through natural selection?

No. 1518054

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>>1518052
>stupid ass game
Rin is my wife

No. 1518059

>>1518047
I feel you there. I don’t have to pay rent right now luckily ‘cause I’m bumming it at my sibling’s place and while I have a little job that helps me pay for food, they’re only giving me 8 hours a week. I’m eating basically the exact same you are and started crying in the grocery store a couple weeks ago because the prices are so damn high.

No. 1518061

Yet again I’m subtly blocked from doing the tasks that involve physical labor at my work because I’m a woman. Soon as I heard that it’d be added to the tasks we were doing I knew I’d have to stay on top of it. First they made a group chat to discuss the logistics of the task and “forgot” to add me, then they kept referring to the task as only done by the two other guys and I had to be like “uh we’re taking turns”, and just recently they’re now bypassing the group chat and one is private messaging the other who isn’t communicating to me he’s doing it, and has done it a few times in a row.

Like yes it’s a physical task and yes i probably do it slower than a man but they act like I’m fucking disabled. And I know its not very feminist of me but usually in this case I’d take the L and look the other way because who wants to do work that makes you sweat like a pig, but our usual tasks are so boring that yeah it would be nice. Now I’m going to have to come across as the bitch yet again just because I advocate for myself.

No. 1518062

>>1518052
>>1517800
I hope you're actually serious. if you are, make the thread on /m/.

No. 1518076

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Hate lost media communities and how a lot of it is just autistic manchildren trying to find shows for preschoolers
The other end of the spectrum is looking for actual gore (big example that people with no respect for anyone will look for: that newscaster who killed herself live on air) which is for edgy autistic manchildren
You go on the front page of the lost media wiki and you get hit with "Lost SpongeBob Armenian Dub" and "Footage of the Murder and Rape of Two Dozen Kids" right next to each other.

No. 1518079

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Only the worst women I know are making posts about International Women’s Day that are just selfie dumps kek. Two faced BPDchans who are constantly putting other women down for being fat and threatening to kill the selves when their scrotes don’t text back for 20 minutes. Embarrassing.

No. 1518080

>>1518076
My white whale is the "club penguin dance in real life" video that teen girl did wearing footy pajamas. She effectively deleted it from the internet. She's got to be rich or paid a company to do it for her. If I ever find it I'm going to download it

No. 1518081

>>1518076
kek, i agree with this. Lost media used to be more fun when it was less know, now that most of the big pieces have been found there is only trash left. The Saban sailor moon was really cool, but the meangirls ds game was obviously shit so i dont understand why everyone was hyper focused on that crap.

No. 1518089

>>1517515
Idk where you live so it might be different than the universities I’m used to attending but look into your university’s racism policies and start writing down the incidents, places and times, know which classes it happened in so the professors can potentially be witnesses if asked (focus on the ones where professors didn’t laugh) and if you have a case based on your university policies then report her sorry ass, probably to your dean. Most universities actually have a strict policy against racist harassment and you have a case for that she’s been targeting these comments around you specifically. Universities don’t want to end up on the news as supporting racists and she’ll probably end up being told that if she doesn’t STFU then her ass is grass.

No. 1518101

>>1518076
I like lost media shit when it's silent era movies or demo tapes a band can't even find, I don't care about fucking nickelodeon intermission breaks or imaginary cartoons, and like you said real death isn't "lost footage", we all know where its stored, it's just kept under tight locks so the public doesn't have access to it.

No. 1518103

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Last night I had a dream where I discovered that my bf was secretly a pornsick coomer (which he very much is not in real life) and it made me feel so disgusted with him. Even after waking up and realizing it was a dream I can't help but still feel a bit repulsed by him. Obviously it's not fair to him but I just can't shake it.

No. 1518104

MY CAT STEPPED ON MY EYESHADOW PALETTE with her shitty little paws, now I can't use the palette anymore reee

No. 1518123

>>1518103
It might make you feel better if you talk to him about it so you can laugh it off together. That's what I do when I have absurd but disturbing dreams about mine.

No. 1518126

I've been depressed all my life, like since i was a child, through the years i have had suicidal thoughts but the last two years I've been thinking about killing myself more and more, at that point this is a daily thought for me, i want to die

No. 1518140

>>1517018
Cool! I hope he dies, and I have no respect for you if you put up with this treatment under any circumstances. Enjoy your miserable life being a punching bag to a man child.

No. 1518159

the alex murdaugh case has completely blackpilled me. this video was what really drove it home for me. imagine you meet a man, marry him, and have children with him only for him to turn around and gun you and your child down like dogs. men are irredeemable and i want nothing to do with them. i'll happily be a husbandofag for the rest of my life.

No. 1518162

>>1518104
RIP to your makeup. Why was your cat crawling on your table/bed or vanity counter though?

No. 1518168

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I already hate playful bullying or whatever by pretty much every single person, but it's even worse when it's someone who's basically a stranger doing it to try to force some emotional closeness between us. Duh, of course I'm not going to give my best friend the stink eye for calling me a dumb weeb (not immediately anyway…), she's been my best friend for ten years and knows when I'm genuinely being a dumb weeb, but we've known each other for literally a week, why are you calling me stupid, why are you calling me a cunt or your bitch? Who the fuck raised you that you think it's okay to talk to someone else like this, and are you talking to them the same way you do to me? There hasn't been a person I've wanted to smack like I want to smack her in a long ass time, I feel like I'm going to pop a vein the next time I see her.

No. 1518170

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So I'm an ex-NEET and college dropout who works full time in retail and up until half a year ago I was dating an autist guy who had a lot of family wealth and didn't really have to "do" anything. We were together for nearly a decade and I think it really stunted me.

Now I'm in my late 20s and trying to casually date again bc I'm touch starved and bored and I just feel like such a loser compared to these dudes I'm seeing with lots of money, high-powered jobs, and I just can't relate to them. It makes me feel terrible about myself when they're asking me things like what I'm passionate about or what my best qualities are when I feel like I have nothing going for me. I know they're probably losers in their own right.

Of course they're still DTF cause they're men, but it's just so depressing. I'd like to think I could just have a casual fling but I'm just so worried they're wondering what's wrong with me- why I don't have a degree- why I'm broke- why I have no friends. I hate it.

No. 1518173

>>1517018
Tooth pain is severe but he’s still a fucking loser. There are no reasons he should be treating you like that. This isn’t normal levels of getting irritated with a long term partner, this is severe emotional abuse. He will ONLY get worse the kinder you treat him. Get away from him.

No. 1518174

>>1518168
Tell her off and be honest with her. She should know better. She should keep that sort of language with her other friends damn. I cringe whenever my friend has used "binch" or whatever with me.

No. 1518175

>the company I work in has a womens day themed seminar
>all speakers moids

Those seminars are pretentiously woke anyway (we had one for pride month, one for ukrainian refugees etc) but they arent even trying here.

No. 1518182

>>1518170
On the up side, your problems are fixable. No degree? If you look into it there's probably options for working adults too (say probably because it depends on where you live I guess). No friends? Start a new hobby, that's a great way to have a reason to meet new people and make new friends.

No. 1518188

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>construction going on on my street
>got those folks with the “stop/slow” flippy signs and walkie talkies on either side of my block
>driveway is coned off
>it’s fucking trash day today, wondering if they’ll be able to pick up my trash with this dumb shit happening
>hear knocking on door
>doggins activated, BARK BARK
>hate answering the door but I do it much to my dismay
>bring my dog with my cause usually she stops barking when she comes to greet them
>she just gets madder and starts barking super loud, lunging, growling at this moid donning a hard hat
>he’s trying to talk over her Hyper Voice attack and I can’t hear shit
>put her inside and apologize and ask him to repeat himself
>”Oh yeah anon just wanted to let you know we struck a gas pipe so there’s a gas leak and you gotta stay in your house”
>wtf.jpg
>nervously ask if my dog’s gonna die since I just opened my door
>”nah nah just… don’t come back out until we knock again”
>ohfuckohshit
>hypochondria activated
>close my bathroom window and turn HEPA filter on turbo
>take some Xanax
>my head hurts
>feel faint
>I’m gonna die or worse my pets are gonna die

Anyway I guess I’m gonna film the next interaction with this worker so if I or my pets die or get sick I can at least sue these incompetent fucks, how is the gas leak so bad I can’t leave my home and wtf kind gas is it!??! I was too frazzled and wanted to gtf inside so I didn’t think to ask in the moment wtf corporations are so negligent wtf

No. 1518189

I cant bring myself to read and i feel so ashamed for being such a brainlet. I have to finish brand new world and I have other four short books waiting for me

No. 1518195

I WANT TO ADOPT ANOTHER CAT
I should not

BUT I HAVE THIS URGE I WANT ANOTHER CAT
But I know I should not…

No. 1518197

Day 3 of my period and im so sick of it. I hate wearing pads and I can't use tampons/cups. I have a fitting later and I feel so dead I hope I'm better by then. I wish I could be bubbly and upbeat and witty, but god sometimes it's like my chest is being crushed but by what I have no idea. Will I ever stop feeling ashamed for existing? I hope so cause I've had glimpses of who and what I could be, and I like her, but shame cripples me everytime.

Vent done, have a good day anons

No. 1518202

>>1518195
How many do you have?

No. 1518207

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>>1518195
two are no more work than one and seven are no more work than six. if you're not living in a one bedroom apartment, and can afford vet bills, adopt away

No. 1518208

I hate days off because they give me time to remember how empty my life is. I have nothing.

No. 1518219

I just checked my period app cause I know it's coming soon but then
>period may come today
on women's day really kek
Problem is I'm already outside, here's hoping I don't start freebleeding on my walk

No. 1518223

>>1518208
Don't say that, nonny. You have us!

No. 1518234

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>>1518219
embrace it anon

No. 1518261

My entire life I have been infantilized and my knowledge or mental capacity have been denied. It feels like people turn everything against me. I had been struggling with mental illness since I was a kid and have attempted suicide 14 times. I posesses a pretty profound and indepth body of knowledge, however I have always struggled with words. I cannot memorize new words. It may sound narcissistic, but I have aquired all the information that could be aquired on a lot of subjects. Psychology, mythology, internet culture, history, religion. I try to express my knowledge but people constantly downplay my mental capacity and infantilize me. It is mentally damaging to be infantilized. Yea, I struggle with mental illness it would be nice if you could offer me some empathy. Also, I've never really been allowed to disagree with others.
My entire life I've been kept to another standard than others. I'm not allowed to have opinions, beliefs, my knowledge is constantly being denied, being endlessly harassed. If I disagree with people on one little thing they just place me in a false stereotype where they impose all these other fake beliefs that I do not hold and if I ttry to stand up for myself they continue in their assumptions.

Long story short. I've always been held to another standard. I cannot earn money from my work. People deny my knowledge or mental capacity and I'm never allowed to be disagreeable, despite me having a pretty normal system of values. It's objectifying and mentally damaging.

No. 1518264

>>1518219
You know your data from those app's
is all collected to be used against you in the USA right? I hope you are in europe.

No. 1518265

I am insanely physically attracted to my current bf but he’s just so.. boring. He’s an introvert and his favorite past-time is playing video-games and he’s also a bit internet addicted. He is very passionate when we have sex, but the rest of the time when we hang out he’s so boring kek. We’ve been dating for half a year and I feel like the honeymoon period ended after 4 months. We have good conversations sometimes but most of the time he just wants to do passive things like watch tv-series and if anything I’m more of a film person sobs. I love a good discussion after watching a movie together but talking to him is like pulling nails sometimes. If I wanna do an activity he’s usually happy to do it with me and he’s very good at sports and anything physical, but I just wish he had a bit more passion and initiative.

My ex bf was somewhere on the NARC/BPD spectrum and lied about everything, but altho our relationship was dysfunctional he also had these incredibly kind eyes and a way of looking at me as if I was the most precious thing in the world to him up until the very end. With current bf it feels like I’m just convenient. He says he’s just not very expressive. If I bring up something he does that bothers me he’ll remember it and change that behaviour, whereas my ex would have had a meltdown, so I know he cares about my feelings, but I also know there’s a limit to much how someone can change their core personality traits. I don’t have introvertism to this degree so it’s hard for me to understand him sometimes. Is this normal for introverts or is he just not that into me? Tbh I know in my heart we’re probably not that compatible and it sucks because he’s very handsome, reliable and easy going.

No. 1518266

>>1518261
You need to axe these people from your life immediately. Can't make money from your job???? You need to get into a nontoxic workplace and learn to vouch for yourself there.

No. 1518271

>>1518265
>My ex bf was somewhere on the NARC/BPD spectrum and lied about everything, but altho our relationship was dysfunctional he also had these incredibly kind eyes and a way of looking at me as if I was the most precious thing in the world to him up until the very end.

God, you sound retarded. You're the reason we need feminism.

No. 1518272

meaningless vent but i hate how my local library website logs you out after like five minutes of inactivity, i just want to be able to check the status of my hold without having to re-log in every time, how does it enhance security to have to log in over and over again within an hour on the same damn computer. why would i even care if someone had my library card number and pin. what are they going to do, return a book late.

No. 1518273

>>1518270
>>1518271
post this again bro its epic youre so smart and right. btw great job blending in with the femoids.(moid)

No. 1518274

>>1518062
I can make a general, something similar to /vg/'s AGDG. If anyone's down.

No. 1518277

>>1518266
this happens to me everywhere. No matter how hard I try to stand up for myself my value or knowledge are being denied and even if I put in a lot of effort or more effort than others my work goes completely ignored and unpaid. I've always been kept to a different standard. I do not have many work options left I'm struggling mentally, have no support, no friends and have placed in too much fucking effort into my work for nothing and now I'm exhuasted. My entire life people have not cared about my needs and I have been endlessly guilt tripped and not allowed to disagree or express even minimal negativity. Also, as I said previously my linguistic capacity is poor and I struggle to convey thoughts and ideas to people, despite me having a pretty solid body of knowledge that most people do not have. I have nobody in my life because everyone treats me the same…

Also, I'm constantly being insulted and undermined by people that are way dumber than me. Literally mentally abused by troglodites that posess half of the knowledge that I have.

My entire life it has been like this. My work is overlooked. People use my mental illness to infantilize me and they place me in a position where basically am regarded as not having knowledge or understanding and my actual body of knowledge is denied. Also, nobody helps me with anything. I have been tried to get people to help me but I'm just bound by a different standard. I have no support system so eventually I will kill myself but man was this little life I have lived exhausting.

No. 1518282

>>1518261
Roamanianon? Sorry you're going through it. I really think when you're older and have spent more time by yourself your life will be improved, you need to get yourself out of whatever living situation you're in now though it's not good for you.

No. 1518288

i'm convinced most ppl are sociopaths

No. 1518290

the nyc subway system has turned into such a fucking dump and i'm sick of it

No. 1518297

I'm in the library today and holy shit why are some people just incapable of being normal in public. This man smelled horrible, was making the most disgusting wet sounds while eating, coughed without covering his mouth, and sat close to me even though there was a ton of empty space.

No. 1518302

I can't fucking do it anymore. Am I really such an asshole for asking for a fucking price quote? And asking when I can get a touch-up? Never going to this guy again, it makes it even more awkward because it's somewhat of a family friend.

No. 1518321

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I'm a bad person, nonnies. This batshit insane girl I know with an annoying attention-seeking personality easily scored a kind Nigel, has a tight friend group and is super smart. I'm seething so much I'm so jealous of her. Many of her friends are my ex friends, she is always center of any conversation she is in, whenever I talk to her friends they always bring her up regardless if she is there or not. I'm not going to claim that she doesn't deserve these things because she does. She has been trough a lot and I know I should be happy for her

No. 1518340

I'm so sick of seeing women asking for relationship advice online that goes like
>My (26F) boyfriend (55M) who I have been dating for 10 years just slept with my sister (15F), and when I confronted him about it he kicked me down the stairs. He also won't let me have a job or go to school and threatens to kill me if I don't have sex with him upwards of 7 times a day. Is it okay to be annoyed with him because of this?

No. 1518353

>>1518340
I get you, but I'm also sick of seeing this same exact complaint you just posted every other day kek

No. 1518382

>>1516438
Same. Kind of crazy that someone so prolific can effectively retire from social media and their image isn’t tarnished in any way. I did think she’d come back once people lost interest in the George Floyd/supporting BLM performatively ended but i guess i was wrong.

No. 1518385

>>1518340
I wonder if this is helpful or harmful of the cause. Because my first instinct is annoyance at the woman and for the moid it’s like what do you expect of scum. I almost feel like I’ve gone full circle back to victim blaming when I see these posts. Not in the same way but i suppose it’s a similar sentiment.

No. 1518392

>>1518340
If it makes you feel better many stories like these on reddit are made up for karmafishing or as ragebait to create engagement. Not saying that situations like these doesn't happen but many internet stories are made up

No. 1518420

File: 1678309425618.gif (3.06 MB, 194x268, 1665941760186.gif)

YOU JUST MAD BECAUSE YOU CAN'T FUCK WITH ME AND YOU CAN'T FUCK ME, THAT'S IT FUKCER!!!!

No. 1518473

>>1517476
Well update on this.

When I agreed to meet him for a coffee he said "under one condition" I ask him what the condition is and he says it is a surprise. What the fuck? Told him I don't understand and to be clear, he said you "do not be afraid, you will see but trust me you will have fun winky wink". He just won't say what it is even though I am clearly saying "Look, I will just meet up for a coffee"

Okay this definitely isn't "friendly coworker with no ulterior motives" in my book so I tell that to my friends but according to them, I again am the one who is wrong. One friend accuses me that I must have seduced him, other friend pities him and tells me he deserves a date and that I should not take him seriously.

No fuck him, fuck my friends and everyone. I cancelled the date. He starts how he bought tickets to go bowling for the two of us boohoo. I didn't agree to go to fucking bowling nor on a fucking date for fucks sake.

I don't care anymore. Everyone is going to pity the poor moid. Oh he was so hopeful oh poor little thing, that cold bitch rejected him.

No. 1518475

>>1518473
What the fuck, I think your "friends" are the worst part of this story. Good on you for standing your ground.

No. 1518481

>>1518473
The worst part of this is the bowling

No. 1518493

My arms still hurt a lot after getting my veins poked and prodded by a nurse this morning.

No. 1518505

>>1518473
what the fuck are your friends thinking holy shit, you are surrounded by retards. you seduced him excuse me?

No. 1518524

>>1518505
Yeah, in my previous post I talked how I was a bit buzzed during company Christmas party but when I talked to him I only talked about cooking.

My friend said she thinks I must have been drunk and seduced him or given him false hopes because why else would the poor guy try to make me go on a date with him.

Keep in mind we used to go out together and she has seen me drunk. Even in my drunkest state I do not flirt with men, the "worst" I do is just blab too much.

So yeah, I hoped for advice and support from her but got shat on.

She was a vocal Johnny Depp supporter during trials, I should have taken a hint then.

No. 1518530

I hate everything. This whole world and humans suck ass so unbelievably much. I’ve carried this hate my whole life. I keep a strict façade of ”everything is fine” for everyone else except my nigel. I am sure the hate seeps through, sometimes more, sometimes less.
I am not a hateful person toward others, I am the compulsory kind, polite, thoughtful and self-sacrificing person. Maybe others experience the uncanny valley with me. ”She’s nice but there’s something wrong with her”, sensing the abysmal void inside.
I also hate myself so much for being such a spineless bitch. I guess I should direct it to all the shitty men whose doing this is. I’ve just been beaten up to be that subservient girl, whose fault everything is.
Today, my life is quite nice, but I can’t get anything done, I can’t improve myself. The hate both fuels and paralyzes me.
At the same time nothing is really wrong
but everything is also shit. I also feel like I am a waste of resources, I don’t deserve my life, because I can’t appreciate it enough.
I’m like a piece of meat that keeps on living. Well. If you read it all, thanks for joining my pity party, I hope you had a nicer day kek.

No. 1518532

>>1518493
oh that sucks, try to keep them warm

No. 1518533

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I have these weird white cuts (?) in the back of my mouth that have always been there and they fucking hurt. I can't find anything at all online about this. The closest thing I could find was Linea Alba but that's not really that similar to what I have ahhhhhhhhhhhh it's so annoying. I do this weird thing with my jaw to squish/massage them and it looks retarded. I don't want to go to the dentist because I'm almost positive there's nothing he can do about it. It would be nice if possible to stitch them up I guess. PS I fucking hate when you're trying to save a picture and it saves as webp, what the fuck.

No. 1518541

>>1518473
Your friends sound like they're jealous. You sound like you are a fully adult professional woman, why the fuck is this retard trying to play games with you. It's legitimately dangerous to agree to go somewhere with some asshole moid being cryptic on purpose. If he didn't listen when you told him you would meet for coffee and nothing else then it's his fucking fault. God.

No. 1518546

>>1517447
Damn nonnie people rlly went off on you huh, sounds like you went for drinks with a friend who you acknowledge is a moid but is hot and didn’t do the brain dead coomer thing? You’re already better than most men for that just be chill who cares

No. 1518551

I've feel like I've been slipping back into depression again and idk what to do about it. I don't feel good but if you asked me to list what was wrong I couldn't.

No. 1518553

>>1518274
we have a female dev general but its pretty dead. maybe a community project thread would be more fitting? anyway VN NONNI LET ME CONTRIBUTE!!!! (im good at cgs and bgs)

No. 1518576

>>1518162
She jumped on my table

No. 1518578

>>1517481
why would a man be a teacher or work at a daycare if he doesnt like kids? not that i think youre wrong for blocking him or anything because you need to protect yourself from men like that and i get just removing the possibility of something like that entirely, but if a man didnt like kids id think he would choose to go into a different field.

No. 1518603

>chatting with fugly moid
>small talk
>asks if i'm looking for a lover
>sure
>asks for a pic of me
>scroll through phone looking for a good pic
>get blocked before i even send the picture

Well that's a new record

No. 1518632

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Men are so TINY! If I'm 5'3" why are you only a few inches taller than me - in shoes too!

No. 1518637

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i'm seriously at my limit

i'm a brownoid whose parents are very strict, and because of that, i have to lie to them every time i hangout with my bf. and everytime i go back home i have to hold my tears back on the bus or cry because i know I'm gonna have to lie right when i enter the house when mom asks me if i ate and what did i eat and i tell her pizza from uni every time. and I feel so fucking disgusting and I feel evil

i fukcing hate thinking that my bf could possibly think that i can lie to him because i lie to my parents and i wish i was born to non-brown parents, i would've had life on easy mode

and most of all, i hate not being able to tell him that because i don't wanna sound naggy or i don't wanna imply that I wanna end the relationship because i'm struggling on my side because it's been only 4 months since we started dating. I tried to vent to my fren but I don't wanna be a burden or something and I just wanna kms

No. 1518644

I was very optimistic at the start of this year, something I have felt probably for the first time in my life, because I felt like I accomplished a lot in 2022 and I was excited at what 2023 will bring. But now that it's 3 months to the year and reality is starting to sink, with me not being able to fulfill my goals, I'm starting to get depressed. Plus the state of the economy right now and having a hard time finding a job after graduation is contributing to that disappointment. I'm also under a lot of stress due to my coursework and I probably bombed my recent midterm, even when I studied so much for it. Im feeling so demotivated and I just want a really long nap

No. 1518664

I have wonderful friends who support my passions/faith/interests but at home I can barely bring up the subject or I get a bunch of backlash about these things that they don't know the first thing about. They're niche hobbies and interests but I wish I could just be myself at home. I don't have anything to talk about anymore, I can't even dress the way I want to because I know it will cause a shitfit (it's pretty modest, not like I'm going out in stripper heels). With this economy moving out is far far away, I want it to be 2030 already and hopefully have my own place and just do what I want.

No. 1518674

>>1518140
>miserable life being a punching bag to a man child.
99.9% of users of this board

No. 1518692

File: 1678330355928.jpg (48.64 KB, 275x269, 0962.JPG)

>>1518674
speak for yourself, my man IS my punching bag and he likes it too

No. 1518695

>>1518692

Tranny spotted

No. 1518697

>>1515420
does everyone on here date retards

No. 1518700

>>1518697
Jesus. Sincerely hoping that was bait but it's already sad enough that I legitimately can't tell.

No. 1518705

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No. 1518707

God I am so sick and tired of troon shit every fucking where. Even my normie STEM professor during lecture had to make a comment that "yeah… JKR is kind of a terrible person"
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE NONNIES I AM FUCKING LOOSING IT

No. 1518709

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>>1518481
kek

Anyways, this part of The Little House on the Prairie (S1E2 "Country Girls") absolutely destroyed me last night.

No. 1518710

>>1518697
so many posts about peoples terrible boyfriends remind me of my brother i dont know how anons can stand to be around them i made my mom kick my brother out when i was a teenager because hes too bpd to live with

No. 1518717

>>1518710
i don't have any brothers but i imagine having a brother probably lets women see some sides of men that they try to keep hidden when first dating. I had a cousin around the same age as me, shared a bed with him once when staying the night and he tried to grope me assuming i was asleep, a different time it was my sister sharing and he did the same thing. Can't imagine living with a creepy moid around, glad your mom listened to you

No. 1518718

I still miss my ex everyday and I really wish things were different

No. 1518720

bpdfag here a man i used to talk to and sext a lot has gotten himself a gf. we stopped talking frequently before then because i was physically unwell and sex wasn't on the table basically. i wonder if this gf knows about his fetlife account where half the people he follows are tims and femboys, or that he's even into them at all

No. 1518725

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>>1518265
nonny, dating a cluster B person will alter your expectations for relationships for life. It’s literally a traumatic experience. The BPDlovedones subreddit is overly hyperbolic imo, but it’s also victims of BPD abuse venting so I get where they’re coming from. BPD people aren’t quite the monsters they act like they are, but there are absolutely grains of truth in what they say and express.

A normal relationship with someone without a cluster b disorder will never make you feel that crazy high high that you felt with the BPD ex. Ever. Normal non cluster b people, especially introverted ones, do not behave that way because they don’t have such strongly wavering emotional states. Your bf sounds like a really good catch, please don’t compare him to the way your person with BPD behaved while they were idolizing and lovebombing you, it’s just not a fair comparison in any way because the way your BPD ex treated you is literally why people become addicted to being in relationships with cluster Bs. They hook you with the ultimate fantasy high of the perfect relationship and literally make you addicted to them like a drug, and then they stop acting that way and you’re scrambling to get back that perfect person you’d found. You blame yourself and keep trying to get the perfect person back but it was all a carefully crafted facade, personally tailored to hook you. Cluster B people can create a false self that perfectly mirrors and/or meets any and all expectations about their target. They are experts at making you feel special and experts at selling themselves. But when the mask comes off they rarely put it back on much after that. Just enough to try to get you to stay. Mask off cluster b people are extremely volatile and empty.

No. 1518726

>>1518717
Yeah, he did eventually get his shit together but I'm never going to forget that time my older brother got drunk and straight up asked me if he could grope my boobs…
At least my little brother is nice, though he's still messy and too picky about eating leftovers.

No. 1518728

>>1518533
Tonsilliths / tonsil stones?

No. 1518736

>>1518265
Your current boyfriend might be lame but it’s not fair to compare him to your BPDchan ex. All of the positives in those relationships are just facades to get you hooked and will never last long. The highs from a dysfunctional relationship will never compare to real love IMO. It’ll come in a lot quieter but knock you off your feet when it’s real. Your current partner might not be right for you but don’t go looking for cluster bs to fill that role. Their methods are the fast food of love and intimacy. I grew up with that two facedness and seeing how hollow their actions were versus the grandiose speeches made me realize just how stupid all that posturing is. A man can give you all the smoldering looks and lip service in the world but it means nothing if he can’t back it up with consistent actions.

No. 1518752

>>1518728
No, although I do have tonsil stones sometimes and when I first discovered them I didn't know what the fuck they were and I yelled at my bf "THERE ARE LITTLE WHITE THINGS ALL OVER MY TONSILS WHAT THE FUCK" and when I poked one and it flew out with another one behind it I freaked the fuck out. Reminds me of how Kim K says she can smell when people have cavitites but she is most definitely smelling tonsil stones. Anyways the little cuts are inside my cheek like where the hinge of my jaw is right above my last molars. I would post pics but that's weird

No. 1518759

>>1518752
double post but I meant to say in between my back molars, above the bottom ones and below the top ones

No. 1518762

>>1518265
It could be my post, but my introverted bf is in the past now, just like bpd-ex. Not saying that you should dump yours of course, but I totally get you, nona. Other anons right tho, your ex was creating this beautiful illusion, and even if he genuinely felt that at the moment, it still didn't have any value. He might have had this strong feeling…so what? It wasn't enough to treat you with basic respect and actually care about you and your feelings. It might be hard and sad to realize, but all the loud words really didn't mean anything, it was all just empty. Leave it in the past, nona.

No. 1518778

>>1518726
fucking gross i hope you understand that i hope he dies for that. i wish my brother would get better he lives in a group home and is a hopeless alcoholic, im honestly just hoping he dies before im ready to get married and definitely before i have a child. i can never trust him after he tried to kiss my 11 year old friend when he was 19.

No. 1518801

~ 3 months back, i wrote a Google review for a school where a particular old and very disgusting scrote works after harassing me. What prompted me to write it was how bold about it. Like he owned the place, in front of a middle aged dumb bitch who said nothing. I just got a mail saying the review has reached 100 views kek. This is a unknown school. I hope some news outlet picked up on it or someone at the school bc they know who I'm talking about. I was just a sub for 1 day and this scrote jumped at the chance at harassing me. It's insane how teachers can be so rotten, and still have access to children.

No. 1518808

>>1518801
Thank you nonnie. I hope you feel really good about this (well, as good as you can, given the situation)

No. 1518815

you can just say you don't like working with me, it doesn't always have to be some excuse. "idk what it is i just lose motivation" ok so it's me, that's fine, just say that so i can stop hanging on lol

No. 1518817

>>1518265
maybe because you're used to people who are so intense, people who are more chilled and don't explode on your face seem more boring. your bf seems like a laid back and introverted person, perhaps a little autistic, but it's multitudes better than a psycho BPD retard. you need to learn how to appreciate a slower and calmer relationship or you will be bored and seek the thrill of a psychotic manipulative person forever.

the kind eyes and expressions were definitely a manipulation tactic, if he lied a lot and his BDP felt like he needed your approval even though he didn't love you, he pulled those to keep him on your graces. seems like you probably know it was typical BPD manipulative behavior and liked drinking the poison. not everything that shines is gold, nonna.

No. 1518825

>>1518264
Explain
Who needs to know the cycle of my period?

No. 1518830

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So i apparently get reddit update e-mails (I just never really bothered to turn notifications or newsletters off,) and this post popped right up in my e-mail as a "top post" I might like from the subreddit /r/mademesmile. Made me barf.

No. 1518834

>>1518825
if you miss periods and someone accuses you of traveling out of state to get an abortion in say texas you can be prosecuted and the data from your period app would be evidence

No. 1518839

>>1518830
Disgusting

>>1518219
I don't mean to pile on because this wasn't the point of your post but I'm sure those apps sell your information to advertising companies too who analyze your data to use it to sell bullshit to you and other women using targeted ads at the "right" times. Anyways I also hope you didn't end up freebleeding on your walk nonna, Happy Women's Day!

No. 1518841

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>>1518830
Took a look at this guy's post
Why do women do this to themselves

No. 1518852

so there's people who's job it is to arrange parties. of course it's got to be a moid with peter pan syndrome. i could make these events so much better and more popular but scrotes be scrotes because they gatekeep the industry so that they get to fuck insecure and upcoming artists easier. these events here don't even get proper promo so they end up the same 2-4 circles coming and going to their friends' shows and then the whole squad is pikachu face surprised that they earn fuckall and nobody else attends. i could do it so much better yet unfortunately i am not a tall, kind of handsome moid with a drug problem so unless my family is in the business i am shit out of luck, great.

No. 1518860

>>1518830
that plastic surgery is so bad

No. 1518870

>>1518841
I'm genuinely confused and creeped out. Is this what I think it is? Is the troon saying he wants to NURSE someone with his man boobs?? I'm scared

No. 1518871

>>1518852
kek this reminds me of every event in my hometown in Northern California

No. 1518877

>>1518234
KEK why did a man make that shirt
>>1518264
For better or worse, I'm not in the US
>>1518839
It's fine lol I guess it's better if more users know these things, but ads are really a non-issue for me - I have ad blocker everywhere where it's possible to have it, turned off personalized ads on my google account etc. This app is the only thing that works for me, it can be off by a couple of days but that's on my cycle, not the app, which btw, I didn't freebleed yesterday! Happy Women's day to you as well nona ♥

No. 1518878

>>1518265
You got some decent replies. Never thought about it from those perspectives.
I'll throw you a more practical take - he simply has a bunch of mental inertia. Next time you both have a day off, get up in the morning and play the following game:
Person A chooses a topic.
They set a timer to one minute, and person B has to talk about the topic for a minute.
You may pick the topics using an online term generator.
Alternate like this for a couple of rounds. It's like starting a lawnmower or something, you need to stimulate it, get it working. He'll probably be more expressive/talkative throughout the day.
You may notice a reset overnight. It may be a daily process that needs to be repeated every morning.

No. 1518880

>>1515415
Why do anons say shit like this?.

No. 1518881

>>1518830
He was so… normal looking. Jesus

No. 1518890

>>1518632
Manlets are so hot tho, go for it anon!

No. 1518899

>>1518632
I can’t stop laughing at this. 10/10 vent, nonnie.

No. 1518912

>>1518271
>>1518725
>>1518736
>>1518762
>>1518817
>>1518878
Thank you all for your takes anons, both the hateful and sympathetic ones. It means a lot to me, especially those of you who relate to having been close to a cluster B-person although I'm sorry you also went through that. I didn't mean to imply I wanna date another cluster B-person, but I feel like current bf is at the opposite end of an extreme. Surely there must be some sort of middle ground person between lovebombing and one word communication lol. Wanted to post on lolcow because I think some of you might give some insight into what it's like being very introverted.

>>1518878
I really like your practical advice, will give it a try!

No. 1518913

>>1518759
Idk sounds like your cheek is pressed against your teeth in your sleep and you may bite them.

No. 1518918

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I hate myself for not telling people (only women tbh, I dont tolerate male autism from the start) they're fucking weird and they should stop talking to me about stuff early on. I keep making friends and they show their weird sides to me, like this friend has a fetish and I thought she was only making jokes about it at first and I went along with it, but now it's all she ever brings up in any conversation we have. If I said something like "haha funny it's weird when ppl actually like it though" I could have shamed her into not speaking about it so much. I tolerated it being brought up at first because she's a little autistic and has few friends she can be herself/weird with, but I'm sick of her autistic fetish and stupid anime men that she keeps slapping this fetish on to being brought up every single time we talk. I can't say anything serious without her pushing the conversation to being really fucking weird again. And this isn't the first time it happened. I wish I didn't make jokes with her about this at first, I almost never learn that making jokes with or simply listening to someone about weird stuff always sticks around and they think I'm cool with it. Now if I tell her to stop she'll feel bad. But I fucking want to have normal conversations!!! I feel like I lost her because every time we talk she just has to one up herself in terms of out of pocket weird shit to say. Now I tell her when I disagree with something or when I think a person/act is weird and I laugh at it but she ignores me, probably because she's used to me never having been hateful outwardly. I feel like she's becoming more and more a woman-child? Ugh I hate it I wish I never let her be weird with me because we had proper conversations before she got taken over by this weird shit saying virus. I ask her her opinion on shit SHE brought up and radio silence - until she messages me about her retarded fetish again. It's like she loses braincells in my presence. I won't say what it is but the way she talks about this fetish is also becoming more and more misogynist, yes even when it's about anime men. I want to block her and just forget about it but she's too lonely for that to not hurt her severely. Why do I keep doing this to myself? I don't know how to draw the line between what I'm comfortable with talking about and what I'm disgusted by in friendships. It's my fault, I should've known anything ironic would become unironic with time.

No. 1518935

>>1518918
Kek ok i have to know what her stupid fetish is now

No. 1518939

>>1518725
>>1518736
>>1518762
>>1518817
Nayrt, but damn these posts hit me really hard really unexpectedly. My first ltr was a cluster b scrote and even though the relationship was horrible and traumatising with rampant physical violence and emotional manipulation, I had that same 'addiction' and for years after finally ending it I was doubting myself and feeling bad about my romanticised thoughts about how that person may have been my soulmate and all that bullshit. I've realised that this was just some advanced mindfuckery a couple years back but it still feels strangely comforting that other people have the exact same experience, even if I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

No. 1518951

I'm over you but apparently not?? I really genuinely thought my feelings dropped for you but they're still fucking there for some reason. I fucking hate that. I hate how much you played me at the end but I guess that's fair granted everything else.. but also she played me??? What the fuck even happened with that. I really feel betrayed and stepped on. Maybe I don't have "feelings" for you still but something else.. I don't know. We're you actually an asshole or were you ever genuine with me. Was I really just a game to you

No. 1518971

I've been in such a bad funk anons. I don't know how to articulate how I feel properly, but it's like it's hard for me to function on an emotional and physical level. I don't have any motivation, I can't focus on anything, I feel hopeless and miserable, and it's difficult for me to do anything and most days I just want to lay in bed. Idk if it's my anxiety getting the best of me or what.

No. 1518990

>>1518971
When was the last time you visited a doctor? Could be a physical health issue affecting your mental health!

No. 1518995

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I'm 24, I have no friends, I never had a romantic partner, I never had anyone show any romantic interest in me. I can't relate to anyone or anything. As much as I enjoy art and music it makes me realise how disconnected I am to humanity. Human relations play a huge part in art but how can I relate to that when I don't have any? As a teenager I at least hoped I would one day get to understand the human relations that my favourite songs are about. But now I'm an adult and I still don't. I haven't had a crush in over a decade. I haven't had a close friend in over a decade. I'm not even talking about over the top art that shows emotions in some grand manner. I mean just throw away lines in a movie or song where someone goes to town or gets a call from a friend

No. 1518999

My maternal grandma was just diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. I've been grieving all day, she's the coolest person I've ever met and now she's in the ICU, likely going to die in the hospital bed she's currently residing in. I want to tell her I love her but have no way of reaching her. She accepted me immediately upon me coming out as a lesbian and went to bat for me, she taught me a lot about my family & about my Indigenous bloodline (I wasn't raised in it, but she & to a lesser extent my mom was), and she opened my eyes to a lot of different cultures and experiences, and her sudden decline in health is really hard to accept, like I just got punched in the face. And the heart a few thousand times.
I feel so lost, I spent around a month with her slightly over a year ago, and she was so excited about the legalization of shrooms, and talked about how she'd love to have some with the rest of my family, including me.
I'm sorry for being mopey, nonnas, it's the first time I've (almost) lost someone close to me and I'm trying to cope the best I can.

No. 1519007

i just found out today that one of my email addresses was exposed in the eye4fraud databreach. i think i should be okay? the website i used which was linked to their database only had my email address - i never save any of my payment details when i shop online for this reason. but i've changed everything important i know is linked to that email and it's tedious as fuck trying to remember everything. i don't even know why i decided to check this morning; i needed to update my university password and for some reason i saw something that looked odd in my cloud so i decided to check have i been pwned and that's how i found out.

No. 1519042

>>1518524
if you're gonna keep these friends you just have to keep them at a distance and never vent about any poor moiderinos again. Although I can say now its not that hard to find women who would side with you, even normie girls who dont ally with any feminist movements would go "ya hes thirsty lol stay away".

You seem to have a fine posse of pickmes in your circle.

The same people who go "AWW JUST GIVE HIM A CHANCE" will call you a whore who leads men on for doing just that even though you had no interest but "gave him a chance". You can't win with them unless you just give free pussy to every man in the vicinity, like a proper cool girl.

No. 1519045

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A coordinate a small team of 3 people at work - all moids.

One of them smell do bad.
I don't get how can someone smell so bad like that.

It doesn't seem like he's dirty (I mean, he does not look greasy).
He's not fat.
It's not sweat smell, it's a really, REALLY strong musty scent.

It makes me nauseous.

Luck me and everyone else that everyone stays in a small room.

I put on two air humidifier with lavanda oils in my place, but when he comes here for some reason, it almost kills me.

Just passing the corridor of the room he stays, you can already smell it.

No. 1519052

>>1519045
It's probably his crotch.

No. 1519055

>>1519045
could it be his clothes? moids rarely know how to wash and dry their clothes properly, also kek at lavanda, did you mean lavender or am I being dumb?

No. 1519056

>>1519045
its his balls. In high school I had to sit next to one of those guys who didnt wash his ass or balls. I know cause one of the other boys asked me how I could stand it and I asked him why this guys smells like that and he said thats swamp ass and dirty balls smell, its similar in every guy.

No. 1519059

>>1519055
It must be the clothes. Everyone tells them to have a shower but nobody told them to wear clean clothes.

No. 1519061

This stupid moid cancelled our second date because he said his grandmother died and seems to have ghosted me. I'm so pissed.
He says he wants to have dinner with me 3 different times and found and followed me on Instagram. We're adults. If you don't want to see me again, just tell me instead of lying. We're adults.
Why lie and why follow me on Instagram if I have no posts and you have no intention of speaking to me ever again? I'm done.

No. 1519062

>>1519055

Yeah, its lavender.
Sometimes I put on vick vaporub under my nose too.

>>1519055
>>1519059
I also thought the same. But HOW can he not smell his own clothes? Does he not care?
It almost like he don't dry up his clothes and put them on wardrobe still semi wet.
He is on his 30s, how can he not know this?
Anyways… it's disgusting and I don't know what to do.

No. 1519066

>>1519061
flakiness is apparently common now for people across the board

No. 1519067

I wish elegant men existed. They are always some degree of trashy. And I don't even mean someone who is rich and snooty, but carries themselves elegantly, has standards for themselves, doesn't look at porn, is clean, humble, takes care of their body without being a fitnessbro. Why are they so rare?
Also, I am especially salty because I thought a met a man who'd I consider well put together and elegant, but I found his reddit account and it turns out he reposts porn almost every other day. Disgusting.

No. 1519071

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>>1519067
because elegance is something men can only pretend to have, their nature is to be a rapeape

>>1519062
>I also thought the same. But HOW can he not smell his own clothes? Does he not care? It almost like he don't dry up his clothes and put them on wardrobe still semi wet.

male logic is
>me dump clothes in washer to max fullness 1 time a month (so full theres no room for water to submerge and wash it but just get it wet)
>any detergent just gets dumped at the top of the pile in the machine, or even worse throws in a tide pod that just stays dry on an overstuffed pile of laundry
>when its done he leaves it in there for hours to get musty
>when he puts it in the dryer he doesnt bother checking if its damp anywhere but pulls it all out and leaves it in a pile for more must accumulation
>ape nose and general disregard for nice things makes him not give a fuck because he technically "did his laundry" and isnt to blame

No. 1519073

>>1519061
he's insecure and probably started thinking weird shit about how you're better than him or whatever it is these donut brains think nowadays. so instead of just telling you that this isn't a good time to be dating or whatever, he'd rather ghost you like a fucking coward and then stalk you so that he can see you dating a "chad" just so that he can continue to beat himself up and feel sorry for himself. block him immediately and move on with your life cause he's going to be on a perpetual spiral into inceldom if he keeps up.

No. 1519075

>>1519073
He's probably texting multiple women and one of those women are easier/prettier than OP. That's usually why people ghost you randomly, someone easier or better came and replaced you.

No. 1519078

>>1519061
you need to not be so emotionally attached to the outcome, especially this early on. leads to nothing good for you. block and move on

No. 1519086

I hope my stupid moid friend's balls shrink. The fucking audacity. He's posted a very ambigous boomer-looking meme about international women's day and I messaged him if he's not ashamed to post something like that. Then of course he blamed me for not being able to take a joke and that the meme could be read against men. Gaslighting.
I'm definitely not buying that he meant it that way knowing his love for manosphere content and him sending me stupid 'own the feminists'-clips and his sympathy for the worst kind of toxic masculinity men in his workspace. Nah he posted it to provoke and now he can't take the backlash. Fucking incel.

No. 1519087

Well I tried to kill myself again last night. It didn't go through because I tried to hang myself from the bathroom door by leaving forward, but my cat started putting her little beans under the door and it snapped me out of that retardation. I broke down and it's hard, but I need to go get help. Therapy has helped in the past, I just think it's time to consider medication again.

I wanna thank my baby or else moving forward wouldn't be possible. I love her so much. I'm really sorry and didn't know what I was thinking to leave anybody behind

No. 1519091

>>1519087
Love you nonny, thank you baby cat. Your cat loves you too.

No. 1519093

>>1518265
I can relate to your situation because I feel similar about my bf and we've been together for over 10 years. I feel bad when I'm bored but he is just so extremely introverted and in his own world all the time. The worst part is the lack of real conversations, I always feel like he's not interested in that so I tend to talk more to my/our friends. I sometimes wonder if we are just too different in that regard even though we've managed to get along for so long. It's the same with activities, when I suggest to do something like go for a walk or go eat something together, he's totally up to it but he rarely takes initiative and that makes me feel like he's happier on his own. It really frustrates me and I've told him multiple times but it doesn't really change.
I agree with the other nonnas that you should not compare him to your ex though.

No. 1519097

>>1519087
How wonderful that you have your sweet cat, I'm glad she made you change your mind. Wish you all the best with your healing, nonnie.

No. 1519100

>>1519073
Ily

>>1519078
I know. This is the first guy I was actually interested in for over a year, and I go on a decent amount of dates. I was excited that I met someone who I wanted to go on a second date with rather than agreeing to it in case something will develop. I usually never get attached this early on, but here I am.

No. 1519116

>>1519087
ah nonnie i teared up reading this, please give your kitty lots of hugs. I hope you can get the help you need and live happily with your cat

No. 1519145

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I've been waiting for such a long time to get a message back about the progress of my (supposed) new job. Its so depressing and I've been feeling so wired up for the past couple of weeks. I did sign some paperwork last Friday. But there another step…so many fucking steps. The next form I was supposed to sign was supposed to come early this week, it's Thurs today. So what's the holdup??? It's so crazy, I've been in contact with the recruiter and other teammembers for 2 months and I'm still not signed on. I'm almost starting to think that I'm just being fucked with for some reason. I'm too anxious and I can't wait. I can't take another day where I'm working now. The kicker is that my "supposed" start day will be the 29th. And at this point it doesn't seem likely that I'll be making that. I haven't even spoken with someone from hr? I haven't even received an official notice, just a lot of bureaucracy. When will this end??

No. 1519146

I hate my job it's become toxic I have said this but it pays well and money is everything I'm fucking tired

No. 1519147

So my little brother experienced his first heartbreak. He didn't do anything wrong, the girl was just mentally ill and wanted an abusive relationship and my brother is very kind and respectful. But my mom told him he might be too kind, and I thought, oh no please dont take her advice, stay a kind soul, dont get incel alpha male andrew tate pilled. We talked a bit today and thank god he says he would never treat a girl badly, and that breaking up was much better even though it hurts.

Mom stop trying to make my brother play mind games to get a girl wtf him being mature and respectful especially for his age is a GOOD THING.

No. 1519149

>>1519086
Doesn't sound like a friend at all. Trash the garbage

No. 1519154

I hate my current job so much. I never felt respected here. It took my 11 months, almost a fucking year being here to get a fucking uniform shirt. The won't even give me pants like those who came before me. My coworkers are all lazy butthole especially my "partner" whom I found out turned off her fucking answering machine so all of the voice mail is sent directly to my line. I'm so sick of all this. So fucking sick..

No. 1519159

I want more lesbian/bi women events that are not sexual/clubbing.
I hate clubbing, I hate loud music when it's not a concert, I hate alcohol (and drunk people, I don't want to deal with or molested by them and this happens way too often) and I hate that most lgb events are sex related. I know the very concept of being a lesbian or bi woman is rooted in SEXuality but I want more chill events, tea parties, classic balls, book reading, picnics, spa days, idk anything chill to be with my fellow sapphics.
But I also know those events will be flooded with "transbians" that will creep out the others.
Sighs….

No. 1519165

I am a 32 year old woman who lives alone and I am fucking sick of all the parents at work moaning about how fucking busy they are when they also talk about how their kids/partners all fucking chip in with the housework. I'm fucking exhausted at work and at home. There's no fucking cunts picking up after me while I'm at work. Everything stays stagnant then I come back after my 12 hour shifts and have 2 hours to fit in everything else god forbid I have to buy groceries or run errands. Fuck your kids no I don't want to always cover your fucking shifts and weekend ones get a new fucking job if your miss you fuck off

No. 1519171

>>1519149
Thank you. I just know he's an mra and he only pretends to understand issues women have with tras. He doesn't get the whole picture and he doesn't like feminists, I'm not stupid. I should really cut him off.

No. 1519177

Why do some men think they can be sexist as long as the woman/women in question are white? Like holy shit I’m not even white myself and I just wanna grab them and bash their skulls in. Especially because I don’t even know how to explain it doesn’t matter if the woman is white? It should be common sense

No. 1519189

I forgot my glasses at home. Work is so hard… I should have kept my fucking spare glasses in my bag!! T-T(T-T)

No. 1519190

I have rsv. My fever is gone but not the cough… it sucks!

No. 1519195

>>1519147
Love you nona. This messaging is so good for your brother and all young moids to hear.
I'll never forget how my dad had a talk with me when I got my first boyfriend telling me he's the only man I can really trust until I'm married. I thought it was lame at the time but it was so true.

No. 1519213

God, I wish I wasn't retarded.

No. 1519214

i wrote here a while back. long sotry short: i work in cybersecurity, its been 1 month, i suck at it and i also hate it. the people are nice, but i genuinely hate any type of engineering and knew it even in the early years of college.
i suck so bad that the 2 day work my mentor gave me lasted 2 weeks and is still not done.
i want to quit, but its been only a month. i know i work hard and get shit done. why is this job so hard? why did i cry all the time, AT work?

No. 1519219

>>1519177
White women are acceptable targets now for men to be the usual selves without any shame. It's annoying as hell and I'm also not white myself. Everytime I hear a man going "white women.." I know he is full of shit. Sad thing is to see a bunch of white women saying shit like this, like, wtf??? Why are you doing this you fucking retard?
Also that annoying "white het men.." argument. Yeah right, non white and gay men are totally safe and good for women, this shit is utterly stupid, when I want to criticize men, I'm talking about all of them, not just the white het ones, especially since my country has mostly mixed people, it's not just white men causing me problems being misogynistic, nor just straight ones. This is ridiculous. They take out the blame off other men and at the same time blame and separate women and make us see each other as enemies. I'm so tired of this stuff.

No. 1519225

What's up with gen z caring about ethics and the environment the wer toerags at my work go through single use plastic like motherfuckers because they're too lazy to wash glassware we work in a lab. I've asked them about this and they say corporations have to be the first to reduce waste and I was dumbfounded. When you're at work you are a corporation you stupid fuck. Read a fucking book, stop listening to audio books learn to fucking think. My god.

No. 1519228

>>1519214
This scares me because I'm planning to get into cybersecurity. I'm sorry nonna, I know how bad it feels to be out of your element. But it's only been a month, it sounds like you need more time to adjust?

No. 1519230

>>1519219
i see this a lot online about groomers, these people going "cis het white men are 90% of pedos and sex abusers" when i can show you 300 articles over the last six years from, say, Pakistan, about how males there raped yet another child/woman/corpse. they are giving a pass to degenerate non-whites because, why? americanized white guilt? some disgusting male in Mongolia is somehow a victim of old white men privilege in Oregon and that's why he can go ahead and kidnap and rape a woman? it's ok for a gay man in China to rape a 3yo boy and post photos on the internet because… white cis het men? It is insane that this thought process is prevalent online, and infecting young kids into thinking it.

No. 1519234

>>1519228
if you want it im sure you wont suck at it. i suck because i knew i didnt like engineering but jumped at the first job i got.
i hope you enjoy your future cybersecurity job nona. i dont think mine is about time, because i definitely shouldve been able to complete certain tasks. everything seems impossible.

No. 1519235

>>1519195
The nicest thing is that he said it himself unprompted, that he is going to keep being a good guy. So it wasn't like I had to him him a lecture(which doesnt work on 17 yeat old boys) I only validated his thoughts.

No. 1519241

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>>1519225
what retards. "it starts with you" isnt just a dumb corporate job motivational phrase. corporations don't do things because it's for the good of the planet or the people, they do it because it will make them money. cities don't just start outright banning plastic bags because ~`•°× they felt like it uwu ×°•`~

No. 1519259

>>1519241
God I hate that corporate memphis "art" style so much

No. 1519261

i can't say what exactly is happening for obvious reason, but my job is making me do something illegal for them regarding a new THC law. am i dumb for being sort of paranoid? chances are nothing will happen, but why is my boss making me orchestrate literally everything about it…..and tbh i wasn't even paranoid until they showed me the new flyers and their new advertising point is regarding that law, which is a flat-out lie. i just think that was a really bad move, they should have been silent about it…

No. 1519265

>>1519225
While there's truth to it that corporations have a bigger impact and are responsible for most pollution, it's still common sense to choose a lifestyle that is more environmental-friendly if you care about that stuff. using single use plastic is just lazy.
>>1519241
this, there has to be some push from society for governments and corporations to take action. Just like there are so many vegan products in grocery stores now because people started to eat plant-based diets, it created a demand so now they can make a profit.

No. 1519268

>>1519261
you're about to be thrown under the bus.

No. 1519269

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>mfw catching a ban on /cgl/ for making a tranny joke

Kek janny is definitely a tranny. Would make sense that it leaves up all the retarded coomer threads.

No. 1519271

>>1519261
you are being very smart to be paranoid. don't do illegal things your job asks you to do. tattle to a higher up who will squash the program if you can, before you become a fall-guy

No. 1519289

>>1519225
>wer toerags
?

No. 1519297

>>1519265
How about benefits for not having children

No. 1519299

>>1519225
Gen z loves to virtue signal. It's why the tranny shit is rampant, despite the evidence we have about why women are men should be separated in certain spaces. They think the poor twannies are oppressed and women should bow down to them.

No. 1519301

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6 hours in between the end of my last shift and the start of my next one from friday to saturday damn these motherfuckers must really hate me. 2 of those hours is commute and getting ready to leave or sleep. 1 of them would be cooking, eating, cleaning or buying groceries. that would realistically leave me with maximum of 3 hours of sleep, if i did not actually wake up 2 hours before my shift to have coffee, practice basic hygiene and eat a breakfast.

No. 1519306

>>1519265
>Just like there are so many vegan products in grocery stores now because people started to eat plant-based diets
Half of those products aren't truly vegan

No. 1519307

>>1519301
Are you sure that's legal? What kind of job is making you work those ridiculous hours?

No. 1519310

>>1519307
nta but yeah turn-around shifts are completely legal –inhumane lol, but legal. it's a big problem in food service with late closing times and early breakfasts time and in basically any 24-hour business like hospitals, hotels, security, etc.

No. 1519315

>>1519225
ehhhh I sort of get it I sort of don't. I used to have a shitty student job where we'd go through one massive , heavy roll of plastic bags (to pull over containers) every single day. They were so heavy I had trouble carrying them without help. Meanwhile I'm not supposed to use plastic sandwich bags on roll because one use plastic baaaaad even though one roll lasts me many months. When I had that realization it was kinda like.. what even is the fucking point..

No. 1519318

>>1519310
Well it's not where I am that's why I was asking. Hope anon's at least getting good money.

No. 1519319

>>1519318
It's not? i'm feeling very american right now lol. where is it illegal?

No. 1519328

>>1519307
i am not sure and it's a transitionary timetable so i'm only getting fucked for 2 days.
>>1519318
not really it's a big chain and minimum wage but it is what it is

No. 1519331

>>1519271
the problem is the highest of the high is who's making me do this LOL i'm screwed!!! i can probably feign ignorance though honestly if something happens. he's going down not me!!!

No. 1519332

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>>1519322
i just read up on it. that is extremely cool.

No. 1519336

>>1519269
All jannys and mods on every board of that site are either tranny themselves or tranny enablers.
Its basic knowledge

No. 1519337

Im feeling so vile, mean, jealous, envious, angry, resentful. I hate everything, everyone and myself. I feel sick. I feel drunk in negative emotions.

No. 1519338

>>1519331
what if you just let the project fail and feigned ignorance to your boss?

No. 1519357

i'm so fucking touch starved and lonely god fucking damnit i just want to be hugged, i can't even remember the last time someone hugged me.

No. 1519371

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>>1519269
All the mods on 4chan are trannies that larp on IRC, picrel

No. 1519372

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No. 1519374

>>1519357
How long since last intimate hug?

No. 1519384

My ex showed up to my house unannounced with a guy I do not know then ripped the internet modem out of the wall and collected the last of his shit.
He forgot to take the engagement ring back, but now I will lie and say he must have lost it when he got his stuff cause I want to sell it for $$$. Lord knows he doesn't deserve it. But anyways, now I gotta work on transferring utilities to my name since it wasn't good enough that I had been paying this fucker my half of everything and I don't need to risk another shut-off-a-shared-utility incident (I don't understand how this isn't illegal without prior notice, but whatever).

I hate him. He is bullying me and does shit like this to try to intimidate and scare me. Been this way since I dumped him.
Yet being an asshole is legal.
Being a misogynist is legal.
Everyone including my lawyer says there is nothing I can do cause his name is on the property too and I can't prove I need a restraining order because he is an obvious pussy so I have no basis.
Sure we are going to sell the property but this is a months-long process away and now my ex is bluffing with bullshit moves like this likely because he doesn't have the additional funds to pay his lawyer to file motions–so best to harass me cause I am doing the ONE THING I am legally allowed to do which is drag this process out.

The whole situation makes me want to do evil and unhinged shit back cause being an asshole isn't a crime, right?
This has happened my entire life.
I have always been cajoled and scolded to do the right thing and to always take the highground and be compliant with every demand while my so-called support lets assholes like my ex walk all over me. Except now it's not my parents just being lazy or fearing their reptuations, or a fair-weather friend not wanting to rock the boat for themselves, it's a fucking suit who I paid thousands of dollars to be my defender choosing to not help me with this 'domestic flavor' bc it would be a headache for him.

The only thought that keeps me at peace is that in spite of the shit my ex has done to me, in spite of having a system so stacked against women, that my ex still hasn't managed to destroy me.
I hope his pathetic, impotent candy ass sits on that and twists every fucking night and for the rest of his ridiculous life.

No. 1519390

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oh god I know it's so fucked up but I want to see a picture of Dolores O' Riordan in her coffin. I feel like I need to see it for some insane reason

No. 1519391

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I couldn't bring myself to feel good about Women's day, I'm just demoralized. The whole shit is being overshadowed by all these trannies and the march at my country is plagued with libfem ideology. At the same time I feel guilty because maybe I should just suck it up and March for all the feminicides in my country that the government is doing nothing about, but I don't wanna be associated with this backwards sexual liberation and those cringy "Trans women are women" signs. I wish that, at least for one day, libfems could just not lump all that woke ideology along with feminism.

No. 1519392

>>1519384
Good for you for staying strong, anon. If I were in your position I'd burn the house down and fake my death but then again I'm a crazy bitch which is why I don't date kek

No. 1519394

>>1519391
your picrel is mfw scroll past post after post saying "happy women's day ESPECIALLY to trans women!!!"

No. 1519511

>>1518079
Same, I have this pick me zoomer friend and she's been posting selfies on instagram in stupid sexy clothes and poses with the capture
>proud to show my feminine side on international woman's day!
Jesus Christ. She also likes to complain about moids sending her creepy dms but uses hashtags like #smallboobs, #widehips and stuff like that. Not to victim blame, I mean, what do you expect? What is the purpose of such hashtags except to attract moids for validation?
I hope she finds real feminism one day cause it really is just sad.
>>1519391
I refuse to go anywhere near these idiot fake feminists, it would make me so mad to be walking when these tra signs are being held up. Until there are radfem groups walking in my city I'll stick to donating money and stickering and peaking people.

No. 1519512

>>1519391
I posted TERF stuff on my social media on International women's day. Men are not women. If someone wants to unfollow, whatever, then that's on them. I will not be silenced.

No. 1519533

I regret so much giving up on apartment hunting. I already live in a apartment but I want to live closer to the city. I had so much work that I simply forgot to keep myself updated on the apartments I was applying for. I'm so pissed off. If I hadn't neglected keeping myself updated on apartments several months ago I would had a new apartment by now. Now I have to wait several months and maybe even years before getting some new offers and by that time I have already graduated or dropped out. I just wanted to live my dreams of studing and living in the big city

No. 1519557

Smashing one window wasn't enough. I had to smash every window in the store to feel better. Worth it.

No. 1519558

>>1515170
Nonnas I'm freaking out. I accidentally sent a friend request to a work crush. FUCK. I cancelled it immediately but I'm scared he saw it. I see him tomorrow. Should I just kms?

No. 1519571

>>1519558
youll be okay. maybe he did see it and got excited. you never know, maybe he likes you too or maybe he never thought about it because he didnt know you were interested. whatever happens good luck.

No. 1519575

>>1519558
do you have mutuals? you can play it off that it showed you as someone you may know and clicked it while scrolling

No. 1519588

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so today was worse than usual. i'm the bpd/eating disorder/autism unholy trinity (diagnosed with the first two, not autism but only because i refuse to be tested for it) and i had a 6-ish hour dissociative sort of self harming screaming crying meltdown that ended with me having to get stitches. my bmi went up to just under 15 after months of being spoop tier and i lost my shit about it. i feel so bad for my family who have to put up with me and i've been trying for a long time to seek some form of recovery with the help of the mental health professionals i see, but… it's been about 18 months of hell at this point and i start wondering if things can ever go back to being mostly peaceful and healthier. half the time i don't trust the professional people i see and think they don't think i have a problem or something. basically i don't know how to proceed when i wake up tomorrow, i have a therapy appointment with someone who was mad at me last time she saw me and she expects me to have some food with her when i'm pissed off at her still. i already lost all my friends because of this months ago. don't know if my long term goals (making friends again, building my career, study, dating) are all impossible. is there still hope? at least my family love me but idk if i deserve it sometimes.

No. 1519589

>>1519588
>i have a therapy appointment with someone who was mad at me last time she saw me and she expects me to have some food with her
elaborate

No. 1519592

>>1519394
>Happy women's day ESPECIALLY to men!!!"

No. 1519593

>>1519589
she's an occupational therapist i see for "meal support". she was mad because i was crying a lot and self harmed. i think she thinks i'm dangerous but i don't harm anyone besides myself.

No. 1519597

>>1519177
>>1519219
I truly believe it's just an excuse to shit on women. It's like they think putting "white" in front of the word "women" somehow cancels it out like a cheat code so they can get away with misogyny right in front of our faces, with the added bonus of getting girls to laugh along with it, too. It's twisted, I swear.

No. 1519600

There's this tranny in a discord server I'm in who keeps bragging about how he got "uwu sexually harassed" by moids over voice chat while playing his shooter games that only other moids would play. You can tell he feels so giddy because being sexually harassed by moids obviously validates his dumb woman larp. The way he plays up his "teehee I'm a gamer gurl don't hit on me silly boyz" makes me want to a log so bad. He doesn't even sound anything remotely close to a woman, just a gay male with a faggy voice.

No. 1519611

>>1519575
i was planning on doing this if he asks. now that i think about it, it would be flirtatious/weird if he confronted me friending and canceling the request. if it happened to me, i dont think id care enough to confront someone about it

No. 1519639

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I really wanna travel the world but the few female friends I have can’t/ don’t want to come. I tried solo travelling for the first time this year but I felt so lonely, and too anxious to go out of my comfort zone and go to certain attractions/ dine out by myself. It kind of just felt like ‘what’s the point’ and now I’m wondering if ‘solo travelling’ is just cope. It’s the perfect time in my life to travel, I have a flexible job and money saved, but I don’t want to do another trip alone if it’s gonna be like that. I tried going on a trip with people I wasn’t super close with (males) and it completely destroyed the friendship, I cut them off after. Other moids have expressed an interest in going on a trip, platonically, but I don’t like the idea of travelling with a man especially one I’m not dating. I feel like they put all the pressure on you to decide what to do and they need to eat so much food and constantly, it would basically be like travelling with a large child. Im not getting any younger though, I want to see the world :(

No. 1519654

>>1519593
NTA, but if your therapist is getting mad at you, they don't seem like a good match. You deserve better.

No. 1519656

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I can't find any figures of my husbando outside of one thats 500 bucks, which is insane since it's a popular series and i was able to find figures from the same franchise under 70 bucks for more obscure characters. what the hell.

No. 1519664

>>1519639
nooo traveling alone is so fun, I'm so sorry it feels lonely to you! I won't tell you to just get over loneliness because that's crazy but I hope you find a travel buddy so you can still explore. are you someone who would like ot travel in a group even if you're not friends? there are services for that.

No. 1519665

>>1519656
Does he have a different name in your region compared to US or have you looked it up with his Japanese name?

No. 1519669

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I just moved out of my childhood home for the very first time ever to a totally new state and the loneliness is honestly so crippling.
My family is what I would describe as toxic so I don't really miss them very much at all, but I miss my cats so much. My tiny studio apartment feels so empty. I've never lived without some pet in my life. I think about them everyday and feel some regret for leaving. I absolutely gained some peace of mind being away from my family, but I don't know if this trade was worth it to be completely honest.
God, I'd be so happy if my cats were here with me.

No. 1519672

>>1519593
Ok … Honestly your feeling make a lot of sense. It's very normal to get in contentious situations with therapists when you have a self-harm style problem like and ED and also interpersonal issues like bpd/autism. But getting better is more important than your ass being chapped someone was mean to you. You are there to follow their advice.
I've snapped back at therapists and always regretted it when I stuck with the program and discovered they had my best interest at heart.

No. 1519673

>>1519669
Is it possible to go get those cats, nonny?

No. 1519674

>>1519669
I did the exact same thing and never went back but I actually could have gone back and stolen some cats because they were outdoor-only plus I knew my parents' schedules forwards and backwards. However if there was abuse I think making a clean break is more important for you right now as sad as that is. When you leave a bad situation there are costs that aren't your fault.

No. 1519692

I want to kill myself. That's all. I'm tired of this never ending hell. Tired of being harassed by all sort of troglodytes.

No. 1519716

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>>1519692
Fuck those troglodytes

No. 1519724

my bf is complaining he has a headache and we don't have any painkillers so I offer to go to 7-eleven for him since it's the only thing open and he says no because it's like 3x the price there so now even though I attempted to help, even offered to buy it with my own money, he's just gonna mope around out of principle? he's so goddamn annoying sometimes.

No. 1519726

>>1519674
I'm both glad and sorry you can relate. It's absolutely freeing to get away from a toxic situation, but the choices we have to make for the sake of our own well-being can weigh so heavy. I hope you're doing better these days, nona.
>>1519673
Sadly not. Not only does my apartment not allow pets, but they're also technically family cats. I was the main caretaker of the both of them, but my parents and siblings are very attached to them anyway.
I'd also feel bad selfishly moving them from an environment they've lived in for their whole lives, especially the older one who is turning 18 this year.

No. 1519730

Romanticising summer is so completely neurotic and sheltered. Living in the subtropics is akin to living in the final circle of hell. Not even laying still will offer respite, hordes of people move to my city year after year "for the amazing weather" only to be inside with the air-conditioning blasting all day. Living here your lifelong does not even grant you acclimatisation, it is simply that hot. Doing literally anything is absolute torture. Why would you yearn for this cruel life sentence

No. 1519733

>>1519724
it's not your fault he has a headache just let it go. he rejected your help. if he's being dramatic about it even though you offered to help just ignore him.

No. 1519735

>>1519724
hate people like this. carry around pain killers, stomach meds, bandaids and at one work place all of them said no to it. they didnt believe in taking over the counter meds which is weird considering they were all on other prescriptions or birth control. either stop moping about your pain or take the meds people offer you!

No. 1519743

Watching you attempt to skin walk me is hilarious, considering your face is flatter than roadkill. Also you need to drop at least 100 lbs. keep drinking them diet teas sweaty, the mlm scam facebook groups told you they work!
You are fucking ugly! Stupid! And rotten to the core. I cant wait for your heart to give out and I attend your funeral. It will be a holiday to know one less piece of shit will cross my path.
I sing a mantra every time you irritate me. Die bitch die!

No. 1519768

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I feel so defeated. Somebody please feed me a cigarette.

No. 1519777

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an old friend of mine from school and i planned to go to a concert this year and its coming up after the weekend. i thought i could get a ride with him into the city but turns out he's working near the venue that day and will just have a short drive over, so all i've gotta do is bus/train/train/walk to the place, about a ninety minute trip. due to illness i can't walk long without limping and am susceptible to sickness but the arena is only a 15 minute walk from the station. cool. check the weather: 40mm downpour predicted at the time with 90% area coverage, aka yeah bitch you're getting soaked hobbling from the train amongst a throng of strangers at night right as the data is showing another covid wave hitting the locale. not to mention the train system has been hit by a ton of issues the last few days and i have little faith in it. adding that all up makes my skin prickle at the thought, but i haven't seen this friend in years! and there's no issues for him giving me a ride home. just need a ton of faith in the underfunded public transport and a bit of patience.

anyway i pulled out of the concert and feel like shit about it. that's all

No. 1519795

am applying for jobs. cscareers makes data analysis look easy for those of us with cs degrees so hopefully someone calls me back. will do 10 apps a day, break on weekends

also still friendless. wish i could find a game that would soothe the sting of loneliness

No. 1519799

>>1519672
Nta but the therapist shouldn't have snapped at her in the first place, that sounds unprofessional imo.

No. 1519803

>>1519799
yeah I thought that too and I called the mean therapist I had a big old bitch in my therapy journal and said if she snapped at me again I was gonna fucking leave because this shit was already stressful enough on top of my full time ass job but then I had to turn the journal in and she read it and didn't do it again lol (I was pretty embarrassed she read it, I didn't know they were gonna ask for that journal)

No. 1519813

>>1519803
and to be clear she snapped at me for not bringing enough food for group dinner which made sense from her end because she spent 10 hours with inpatient girls who were anorexic from 7am-5pm and then had dinner with us outpatient randoms at 5:30 for another damn hour and a half but I didn't know her work hours were crazy or why she was on edge at first, and I wasn't anorexic I had a different issue (which she didn't know because I was new) so her anger made no sense to me. Bottom line everyone was trying to do the best they could but we were clashing because everyone was fucking stressed.
In my experience all their advice worked when I followed what they said even if we clashed sometimes.

No. 1519815

>>1519639
>I feel like they put all the pressure on you to decide what to do and they need to eat so much food and constantly, it would basically be like travelling with a large child.
So accurate kek. I'm sorry, I really feel you. I hope you'll find a friend to travel with or that one of your friends can come with you soon. It sucks to miss out on this if it's something you'd really enjoy.

No. 1519816

I'm so fucking pissed off my husband invited a dear friend to come visit and she asked if she could bring her mtf friend, husband said yes of course without asking me
I'm so mad I just hate cooking for people I dislike I don't even know that transvestite maybe he's not the worst (doubt) but still cooking is kind of my love language and I'm so so mad I want to cook the worst meal ever but that's against my principles and also my husband and friend would eat it and that's not fair
I just want to play sick and order takeaway or something so I don't have to deal with this mess, but even allowing him in my home irks me
I hate trannies so much

No. 1519820

i hope he dies i hope he dies i hope he dies im so drunk and all i can keep thinking is he's trash and i hope he dies

No. 1519821

all anybody ever does it take take take take take from me, i have nothing left to fucking give

No. 1519823

From now on I just treat you like the retard you are. I already have lower standards for males for obvious reasons but there isn't even a minimum base to work from. You have an ape brain and an inflated ego and are incapable of acknowledging your toxic behaviour. If I hold you to even a lowered standard it only ends up being abusive and draining for me because you can't deal with backlash to your opinions and retarded jokes. So I'm done, I don't take you seriously anymore, I don't care about bettering you because you don't deserve it. It's so much better for me if I don't have to try anymore. What a waste of time it was to think you were just a little dumb but well-meaning and try to get you to understand things. Your actions show you're willfully ignorant and manipulative. In the end we were never on the same level because you lack the intellectual capacity and empathy for others.
It can only end up in a downward spiral for you if you don't have any female friends anymore caring about you not making a complete fool of yourself. You barely have any friends but you don't wonder why that is.
And I won't end the friendship, I'll just change it to a superficial level with less contact so I still get opportunities to make digs at you and mock you to give you a taste of your own medicine. Let's see how it feels to hear stupid fucking shit all the time. I absolutely see the difference between stupid men and women, I can deal with stupid women but stupid men just make me want to take revenge. God I'm so glad you're such an ugly loser that you don't get any women you pathetic ass manchild.

No. 1519832

>>1519816
You should definitely play sick and order the food instead. I also hate cooking for people I dislike. Even more, I hate washing their dishes.

No. 1519841

i got a long overdue ultrasound to see why my periods were so bad, they're not allowed to tell me what's wrong until next week, and i got a quick glance
white fuzzies all over the top of it, i'm no doctor but it seems like cysts of some kind. no wonder i get completely incapacitated for a week or more every month

No. 1519847

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>>1519841
one of my gynos used an ultrasound wand on me (which I'm not 100% sure but I think she did it for free and it should have cost like $700 because I'm american but yay for her if she was just being sneaky) and my ovaries looked like lotus-pods from the cysts. I have PCOS. it was very clearly a random circular pattern. so that's what ovarian cycsts look like if it's what you're worried about, it doesn't look fuzzy

No. 1519851

>>1519665
AYRT and no luckily the franchise doesn't get the western treatment during localization the only thing I can think of is since hes an unpopular character theres not a big demand for figures of him, sucks cos I can find the mc and all the team mates easily or relitively easy and at affordable options. Not much love for my man Ryuji.

No. 1519860

Made a Bumble BFF account and then ended up deleting it because I was too nervous to swipe on anyone.

No. 1519866

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i cant believe i got depressed from reading the AVGN's biography. He's such a cute sperg, and it makes me sad cute spergy men like that dont exist anymore. Also, it makes me sad to hear how fun and chaotic the world was in the 90's and 00's. From his college starting a gigantic snowball fight out of word of mouth to the dean expulsing him for a year because someone ratted him out and sent him a VHS compilation of all the shit they destroyed on the dorm. I just hate the 10's and onwards so much nonnies, i feel like i got robbed out of my teenage years and early adulthood. I just want to have fun stupid memories too…. I hate modernity, I hate how everyone has to have their phone at all times, i hate how you cant go 5 seconds without someone pulling up their phone to take a picture they are NEVER going to see again. I just want to make dumb VHS tapes and share them with close family, i wanna be part of a small forum dedicated to a game or niche without it having trannies ruinning the fun, I want to watch youtube without the retarded youtuber spending 5 minutes to tell me about today's sponsor I want to actually see an artists gallery instead of having to scroll thorough trash on their twitter timeline. Fuck everything, fuck the 10's and onwards, fuck my fellow zoomers you fun sucking assholes.

No. 1519887

>>1519823

Idk what's the context but I'm proud of you

No. 1519905

>>1519866
I thought I was the only one who got depressed watching James talk about his life. I resonate with your post, nonnie.
He once talked about how he used to scan the TV guide so he could record obscure movies. While finding shit on the internet is way more convenient he tailed about it with such joy. It must had made watching these movie feel way more special

No. 1519907

>>1519851
is this p5 ryuji? if so i feel your pain sister, we're starved

No. 1519908

>>1519847
Yeah, it looked like white fuzzballs were all over the top of my uterus, rather than gigantic pods. They looked fibrous in nature and I'm genetically guaranteed either fibroids, endo, or tumors so either way I kinda hope I have to get the whole thing cut out even if it means starting the hell on earth called menopause. I'm only 19 though so it's unlikely. I've had hot flashes before due to a severe Vitamin D deficiency that's since been dealt with, but I wouldn't be shocked if my reproductive health also contributed significantly.

No. 1519913

Frozen fruit starts from 2 euros minimum now, when is this recession over?

No. 1519917

>>1519913
Lucky. I can't find anything below 5 euros.

No. 1519951

>>1519917
Jesus, where do you live? Sorry about it nonna

No. 1519986

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I'm starting to feel annoyed by my boss. I hang out with her and two friends during lunchtime and it's becoming obnoxious. She has a degree on psychology, which I didn't really care about before, the problem is ever since we got closer she spends the whole day trying for us to "open up", tries to analyze every single fucking sentence we say and sends us "food for thought" videos daily. Is this normal? Is it normal to think about your traumas every single fucking day?
Telling her about my abandonment issues was really helpful, but now everyday she relates something to what I told her. I know she means good but it fucking sucks. If I wanted to face my fucked up head everyday I would talk to a therapist. She even tried to make one of my friends tell her about some abusive shit her ex did when she clearly didn't want to.
One thing that especially pissed me off was me complaining about the sexual dances in Steven Universe, and she asked me (she knows I'm a kissless virgin) how could I know what was sexual if I had never had sex. I swear she treats me like a retard sometimes.

No. 1519995

Parents stop talking about your child's poop so casually challenge (impossible). Next time I hear them talk about diapers I'll just say something about my menstrual cup, I don't care anymore.

No. 1520005

>>1519913
I can't take it anymore. Is it ever going to end? I can't imagine they'd lower the prices after seeing that people buy it anyways because they have to survive. I don't know that much about economics (and I believe that a lot of it is pseudo-science) but I just don't believe it will go anywhere near back to the prices we had before covid.

No. 1520027

>>1519820
>wakes up
>sees picture of guy I think is him who looks like he's dying
>victory.jpg
>wait wait wait
>realize it's not him
>cry

No. 1520031

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dear universe: please let the next job I get have a boss who speaks perfect english. i cannot handle my korean in laws any longer. i love them both but their english is atrocious. i’m losing my mind here, even when i speak korean i’m still misunderstood, it’s like they’re not even trying to understand me. i cannot break down concepts more than i already have. i cannot sit back and deal with rules changing on the fly based on whether or not they like the customer or not. i already live with them, i don’t need to deal with them at work too. one conversation with either of them and i’m fucking exhausted.

i. cannot. handle. it. anymore. i’ve been here three years. after this year i’m DONE. i want to like living again, i’m so tired of waking up every morning and wishing i was fucking dead. i’m tired of these fucking entitled customers. i’m tired of BEING TIRED. what about my happiness??? when will i finally get to live the life i want????

No. 1520041

>>1519907
Yes! I find so few fans who actually like him.

No. 1520049

>>1519913
i'm so done with this, all i think about dusk till dawn is money. fuck, money problems are the worst, it gets in the way of relaxation, relationships, everything. i 'm always irritated and testy.

No. 1520107

>forget my debit card after I've already shopped for an hour and picked out 5 bags of stuff
>ask the self checkout attendant if they can hold my bags while I run home for 10 minutes really fast
>he smiles YES OF COURSE it'll be in a cart waiting for you :)
>say thanks and run out
>come back 15 minutes later (turned out it was in my wallet the entire time but hidden in the seam)
>my stuff is gone
>ask where my shit is
>attendant says "Well usually people don't come back.. what did you have again?"
Why even fucking lie to me then wagie??? They already put away half my shit and made me list everything I had and they fished it out of the bins they had.
Honestly hope he has a terrible fucking day. I feel so betrayed. Faggot pencil necked faggot ginger wagie scrote. I was so fast too you know they started putting it away right after I left. Why even lie to me? FAG!!! Now I only have half the shit I needed

No. 1520121

>>1520031
>my korean in laws
Just divorce your husband and they’re gone for good

No. 1520130

>>1520107
Kek from the staffs perspective obviously it was easier to say OK than risking you blowing your top being told no.

No. 1520131

sometimes i like to go on r34 sites to find sexy art but it's amazing how clear the divide is between stuff made by men and by women. it makes me wonder if i will ever be able to have a healthy sexual relationship with a man or if the sexes are just too far apart.

No. 1520138

>>1520130
Or just say no so I can just not come back and have to play 20 questions guessing the shit I had when the weather is crap and that's why I was getting shit to begin with so I don't have to go back out in this crap now I will have to because I'm not good on the spot recounting everything I had by memory REEEE

No. 1520143

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>something important was suppose to be covered in class this friday
>I oversleep and miss that class and spend the whole day beating myself over it
>oh well at least it's weekend tomorrow and I get to chill
>wake up saturday and start chilling
>day is almost ending and I'm checking my calender
>turns out that today is actually friday and yesterday was thursday
>mfw I realise I still could had made it for that very important class if I hadn't mixed up the dates

No. 1520147

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REEEEEE fuck all the non-vegan/allergy/intolerance fags who keep buying up all the alternative milk since the pandemic. Keep to your inferior quick spoiling abuse juice and leave the good stuff for the deserving and needy! Or at least have the balls to go vegan reeee

No. 1520153

>>1520147
That photo kek

No. 1520159

Really sick of working with trannies. No you're not a chick with a dick. No you're not a lesbian. So you freaks get the concept of same sex attraction but gender is a construct? MF being a tranny is a social construct. Same sex = same sex genitals. No tranny in the world will ever have the opposite biological genitals to them it will never happen so no you're not a lesbian, no you're not a woman and bitch you're not even passing. Everyone is weirded out by you.

No. 1520161

I just want to have a baby. It’s all I’ve ever wanted and I feel like I’m running out of time. I’m trying to date at the moment and it’s so hard to reign in the psycho behaviour because if a guy doesn’t text me back on time I think ‘why the fuck are you denying me a child?!’ and I want to kill them. I know I could get a sperm donor etc but that’s a last resort, I’m 27, 28 in one fucking month, so surely I have some time at least to start a normie family?

No. 1520169

>>1520147
This was how my mother felt about gluten free flour (she has celiac disease). People really just buy up shit other people need. I know they don't mean to but damn it's annoying.

No. 1520174

>>1520169
My friend has been going on they're gluten intolerant but there's no tests there is for cealic disease so people are probably just doing a kourtney kardashian because it's trendy but fair play to kourntey caring about the food she eats prob why she looks the most normal out of her sisters

No. 1520189

>>1520131
Imo male and female sexuality are too far apart. Heterosexuality is a curse. Even after years in a relationship the sexual relationship is frustrating because of the differences in expectations. Men are weirdly obsessed with single body parts and fetishy, they also act like they die if they don't have sex or jerk off every day which is extremely off-putting to me.

No. 1520200

Another day, another romantic/sexual rejection.

No. 1520204

>>1520131
i really hate how prude men have become, i have to rely on kpop guys to get somewhat attractive outfit ideas to draw.

No. 1520218

I seriously miss the bunkers on cc. They were so fun and it was interesting to see everyone from lolcow in one place. I'm actually kind of wishing for a downtime just so we can have the bunkers again

No. 1520253

>>1520189
it puts me off to. they'll be like "i have needs". sure, you have needs. your needs are shelter, water, food, air, and sleep. those are your basic needs to survive.

No. 1520268

i'm finally going on medication for acne and i got my bloodwork done, but the soonest i can go back to my doctor is in a month… i'm so sick of this, i hate how i look so much and it's starting to leave scars on my face. i don't want to have to wait another month.

No. 1520269

>>1520218
bunker threads were cute and cozy in a way. it brought a lot of farmers together who don't typically interact. like i'm probably not talking with the people here for shayna most of the time but i got to present my calico critter clothes to the whole group right before the site was back up

No. 1520290

>>1520269
they were interesting but not that cozy except on the rare days that didn't have hours long infighting kek.

No. 1520293

>>1520268
Which meds? There was one my bff in hs took. Acutane(?) dried ger out completely, her lips cracked and all her skin looked so papery. After a few months her acne subsided.
Be careful! Drink plenty of water

No. 1520295

I hate phones. I hate instant communication. I hate how it's expected for you to respond to messages instantly or you're "ghosting". Why do I have to be available at all times? I wish sending letter was still a thing

No. 1520297

>>1520295
I'm right there with you. Why do I have to be on call 24/7? God forbid my phone goes dead and I don't charge it for a day or two (I'm a clock person so I can get by) people act like I spat in their face

No. 1520329

>>1520297
>>1520295
I just leave my phone for hours or days at a time or sometimes log in to whatever app, see that I have messages maybe even read them, see that they probably see I’m online and then just log back off until I’m ready to respond. Nothing bad has actually happened yet you should try it

No. 1520332

>>1520295
I am an advocate of chilling tf out when it comes to phone use/ availability. I deleted all my social media and limit my screentime. Instant gratification has ruined us as a society.

No. 1520356

>>1520332
I'm not a social media person either but I got Instagram because I was sick of normies looking at me like I have a third head for not having one. I hate it though

No. 1520402

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I'm hungover and I feel like I'm dying

No. 1520435

what is it about cooking that inspires everyone else to start fucking around in the kitchen? anyway i can’t tell if i got dish soap in this icing or if i’m imagining things but i’m about to flip

No. 1520440

I need this store to have a free shipping promo soon, wtf do you means $8 for shipping?

No. 1520445

How does one recover or make steps towards recovering from the kind of depression that makes you numb and not want to do anything but isolate, sleep and scroll? I've been like this for the last few years and it's crushing. I don't enjoy anything. I'm lonely and empty and I want to off myself every single day for wasting this much time doing nothing. I know I'm capable of things but I can't bring myself to get up in the morning.

No. 1520448

>>1520445
I',,m in a constant cycle of wallowing in pity and my own misery and sabotaging myself at every turn and I am aware of this but i can't stop?

No. 1520453

>>1520445
>>1520448
This was literally me until a few months ago. I wish I knew some exact actionable advice to give you, but I don't know exactly what it was that made me feel better. I think I noticed a difference once I stayed on top of taking supplements. I started taking Vitamin D every day, (most people don't get enough even when they do go outside), a multivitamin, and an amino acid called NAC, and I think they have helped a lot.

No. 1520468

>>1520445
>>1520448
Start slow, maybe by taking a walk every day. Find a hobby that gets you out of the house, and preferably around other people. Maybe find a free workout class of some kind near you. Slowly build or strengthen connections with other people. Maybe get a pet (a dog especially helps with getting outside). Make lists of things in your life that you’re grateful for, even if it’s bare-bones things like shelter, electricity, and running water. Eat healthy. Drink more water. Don’t look at depressing content if you’re scrolling.

No. 1520504

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>bought a bunch of stuff on mercari
>neokyo lists weight of items now but in beta
>first orders that come in have weight
yay
>the other twenty items no weight listed

pic related. curses. i wanted to estimate my shipping cost and now i can't. just gonna submit and let it be a surprise

No. 1520509

>>1520445
Anon, aside from what other anons said regarding health and all, I feel like this might be a matter of habit as well. I don't want to trivialize your problem, I've been the same honestly (only taking meds and looking after my health now in general, so don't feel miserable anymore), I just feel like it's simply really hard to start doing something when you're not used to it. It requires certain buildup, and then some time to adjust. It might be easier if you think about it this way, instead of expecting some big changes and constantly being disappointed by yourself. Start with little steps, pay attention to what you manage to do during the day (like taking a little walk, going to get groceries, cleaning, etc.) and praise yourself for it, write it down and make little plans for the next day.

No. 1520580

I know it's my fault that my cat got cancer and died. It's been 5 years and I still can't forgive myself. I grew up with him and he was the only creature I ever loved, I had nobody else but him, and I failed him. I will never get another pet.

No. 1520596

Was forced to eat mushrooms today because I didn't know they were on my Philly cheesesteak

No. 1520599

>>1520596
Mushrooms don't belong on a Philly cheesesteak so that's weird

No. 1520608

>>1520576
>anorexia microaggression
Are you super skinny or something?

No. 1520610

>>1520580
Anon, how could you give your cat cancer? Cancer really isn't someone's fault, it's just something that happens.

No. 1520630

I can't afford to pay rent this month. My rent cheque bounced back and I am anxiously awaiting the manager to knock on my door.
It hurts so bad but I don't know what else to do. Genuinely considering sex work because no where has hired me.

No. 1520632

I just got so fucking annoyed with my boyfriend and I have absolutely no idea why. He asked if I wanted to go to a bar with him, his sister, and his cousin. He was at his sister's house with his cousin and they were waiting for his sister to finished getting ready. I have no idea why but that last part annoyed the shit out of me. I hate driving seperately and meeting up with him it genuinely angers me and I DON'T KNOW WHY. Any time he asks me if I want to come along with him and other people and I have to drive myself there alone it pisses me off. I think it's because if my boyfriend and I are not alone together for a little bit before we go somewhere he ends up kind of annoying the shit out of me. Like why would I hang out with YOU, EMPHASIS YOU, if we're not going to hold hands or some shit? Like if we aren't going to kiss and hold hands then what's the fucking point. I think I might be pissed off because we only hung out together and cuddled once this week. I'm still fucking annoyed and pissed for no good reason and that annoys and pisses me the fuck off. Kind of insane but I wish he had done something stupid so I could have a reason to be mad at him but I have literally no reason to be so pissed off. Whatever.

No. 1520636

>>1520576
what is with old people. I was in line at a bakery and a lady said I clearly eat sweets a lot. I'm literally underweight and was buying donuts for my coworkers.

No. 1520644

My $200 coffee machine is broken because I unscrewed one part to clean it, then tried to screw it back on but the screws somehow don't fit back in. Not gonna fiddle with it anymore because the screws are about to strip. I feel dumb as hell right now.

No. 1520649

>>1520632
you should tell him that. he's probably dumb and doesn't realize how important that quality time together is to you. don't tell him while you're upset though, but you should tell him sooner rather than later donut doesn't get into a bigger problem

No. 1520652

>>1520027
im drunk again and I want him to die
die you fucking senile filthy stench and waste of air die for all you've done to me you pervert die for all the sins you've heaped on other girls

die die die

No. 1520654

Most people don’t give a shit about child abuse. I’ve been told to just kill myself when I express what living as an adult survivor is like. How much I have to stop myself from regressing, what my maladaptive coping mechanisms look like, etc. I remember I said you should take measures to not get easily caught by your children having sex, that it is in the category of flashing, one of the tamest ways pedophiles choose to abuse their victims. Like ffs, it is the same as when they let themselves be “caught” masturbating etc. And I just got dogpiled. Nobody fucking cares about survivors, and that extends to children and is why a lot of atrocities happen in the first place

No. 1520655

It's really fucking annoying how much caping troons get on social media. I don't remember this much virtue signaling for gays back when homophobia in the 2000s was the norm and saying faggot was socially acceptable. Even those dumbass memes of threatening violence towards transphobia is so fucking corny, oh my god. "respect muh trans homies prounouns or I'm gonna identify as a fucking problem" Bitch, shut the fuck up! You are a suburban white kid who gets a mental breakdown if someone so much as misgenders you

Makes me want to double down on my transphobia so hard but I have to restrain myself because I have better things to do than get into internet fights with idiots

No. 1520656

>>1520654
Samefagging to add that it’s a never ending hell, you grow up and are still demeaned on top of everything else you have to deal with, people infantalize you in a topic you know most about and they only think of when it rarely comes up. I just want out

No. 1520657

>>1520654
people's apathy fucking sucks and then when they are survivors they're often more concerned with how their experiences are compared to yours and trying to 1 up you

I've met survivors who aren't like this but the amount who'll say your experience doenst matter because it's not as severe as theirs and choosing to play oppression olympics is fucking staggering

why can't survivors just be compassionate to other survivors and people be compassionate to survivors of child abuse in general! have we not been through enough

No. 1520666

I feel like my mom vastly favors my older half brother over me. He is almost 40 and she babies him to an insane extent. He has shown so many signs of being dangerous and the government has custody over him throughout the week, but in the weekends he comes here. My mom cooks and buys him whatever food he wants and spends copious amounts of money indulging his expensive hobbies (including buying him insane graphics cards every few years)
She never once guilts him for this and she always behaves lovingly towards him.
Meanwhile my mom is literally only fucking nice to me when I look attractive lol. (Eg, I’m dressed up wearing makeup) I think that alone has fucked me up but she’s also more inclined to scream at me and call me slurs. I think I just need to separate from my family bc I feel like they will always value my half brother over me. My birth father is in my life but he is so passive and autistic he would never defend me in a situation like that. I just feel fucking alone and alienated

No. 1520694

WHY ON EARTH DID I WAKE UP EARLY EVENTHOUGH I SLEPT LATTTTTEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

No. 1520712

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I hope I don't mess this up, she's so cool and I want to get to know her plus vice versa. Early conversation is so, so tender and I'm worried I've taken too many risks here.
I want her to like me so badly. Looks like I haven't really changed when it comes to this sort of thing. If only my social and conversational skills were better.

No. 1520721

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>Mom is a tumblr addict who constantly posts about the ugly actor from riverdale and Zach and Cody (tumblr social experiment one)
>Being a mom who doesn’t know how to use the internet properly, she constantly baits trolls and posts about her personal life on her blog
>has anon haters who post random schizo shit
>no surprise I get dragged into this shit despite not doing anything
>look on her blog today because I mentioned to my friend that my mom doesn’t mind me being a fujoshi which surprised her and I mention she has a tumblr, already noticing a trend from the first minute of my scrolling on her page and look up my name/daughter
>shit ton of anons calling me a bitch in doll clothes who carries stuffed animals in public (I wear lolita, so usakumya)
>talk to my mom about how uncomfortable this makes me and that she should at least make her blog password protected
>noooo you shouldn’t let those haters get to yoooou
I’m happy I have a mom that’s supportive of my interests but Christ I wish she would get off tumblr and stopped posting like a 14 year old despite being in her 50s.

No. 1520727

>>1519908
a hysterectomy is not going to put you into menopause

No. 1520732

I was at a party last night and some guy grabbed me by the waist and dragged me all over the room to the dance floor. I repeatedly told him i didn’t want to dance but he had a vice grip on my arm and i had to rip through it to get back to my seat. It really hurt physically and emotionally. A woman would’ve never done this

No. 1520735

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I wish I had the kind of trauma response to sexual assault that made me completely put off by sex instead of the kind that made me relentlessly horny and hypersexual.

No. 1520739

>>1520732
im sorry anon someone should have stood up for you

No. 1520741

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I accidentally opened chrome on my phone in front of my sister and boyfriend and a video of Aella writhing around on a chair was open

No. 1520743

>>1520608
I think I might be? Maybe not by european standards but I’m 90 lbs

>>1520636
It made me feel so dumb for even trying to buy it. I go to that store a lot so the staff definitely knows my name and recognizes me when they see me, including the guy who did this, and yeah just because they know me doesn’t mean they’re gonna telepathically know that it would bother me to make a comment on what I’m eating but how hard is it to just ring me up, tell me how much I owe you, and say “have a good day”!! like come on sir please don’t make me try to get you fired

No. 1520754

I've been talking to Twitter and Tumblr users on discord and the like and they're fucking retarded. Unable to comprehend really basic things you say, not able to follow conversations unless you directly link them to the original post every time, I don't know how to describe it. You have to hold their hands through everything or they blank out. I was trying to tell someone how to paste a link on reddit and she didn't understand what I was saying. I shouldn't have to make a fucking image showing you how to copy and paste into a text field. These aren't zoomers I'm talking to either, these are adult women.

Talking to them can be so frustrating.

No. 1520755


No. 1520756

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I hate how wokies and troons always assume EVERYONE are just as terminally online as they are, and so should just magically know whatever twitter drama is going on right now on their end of the web or what phrases or choice of words are considered whistleblowing against whatever minority of choice this week. No explanation, no leeway for not knowing, you are a bigot for not reading their minds. I don't care enough about your precious fee-fees to read up on whatever isn't validating your existence today whenever I wake up.

No. 1520790

>>1520754
the oldest zoomers are already 25, so if they're older than that and cannot figure it out, how on earth did they manage to get that far not knowing, unless they literally grew up Amish

No. 1520795

>>1520509
>>1520468
Thanks for the replies. It's not a health thing, I understand it's mostly about habits and getting up and doing stuff. But that part is hard. I do the bare minimum I have to (shower, work, exercise, walk my dog) but everything outside of that feels not only impossible but it scares me? I want to build human connections and go out more. I really do. But everytime I think about signing up for yoga or an art class or dating app I just put it off indefinitely. I think I'll do it tomorrow or next week or when work becomes less busy and then I never do it.

No. 1520798

>>1520754
>I've been talking to Twitter and Tumblr users on discord and the like and they're fucking retarded.
well yeah, that's why they're twitter and tumblr users kek

No. 1520820

friend stopped talking to me abruptly when it got close to my birthday. how classy.

No. 1520833

>>1515170
can someone give me love advice? how do i stop being so mentally ill about this shit?
i have had a crush on an online for a while now but i've had trouble getting to spend time alone with him because i'm too shy, sometimes we do stuff together alone but then he does other stuff and i've been too shy to make a move.
yesterday this other girl who's been in a discord server we're in mutually joined a game of cards against humanity me, him and some friends played, and he seemed totally interested in her..
after that she started talking about her d&d sessions and he's a big d&d fan, and i saw they ended up staying together in the server's voice channel for a whopping 5 hours talking about god knows what.
she has a boyfriend so i wasn't that worried at first, but i'm stupid and obsessive and this has made my heart hurt a bit, because i really liked him and was hoping we were going somewhere slowly because we've been hanging out more and more. but he's never shown that much interest to someone nor even stayed up late in a vc channel like he did with her.
and even though she has someone i felt like there was something going and her having a boyfriend doesn't exclude the possibility that she'd take him away from me.
i feel so jealous and bothered and on the verge of crying because this happened, i just wanted to spend time with him without feeling jealous over other girls, just how do i stop making it hurt? how do i stop being so jealous? why can't i be happy by myself?

No. 1520841

>>1520666
Cursed trips, nonnie. But yeah just cut your mother and your dumbass half bro out of your life. Sounds like they are literally nothing to your life besides bullshit. The only reason to keep talking to family like that is if they’re giving you a significant amount of money, otherwise there’s no reason not to cut them out of your life.

No. 1520849

My coworker came up with an idea for the four of us to go to a restaurant/bar this weekend and I agreed, and she said that we can just add all our expenses and divide it by 4 and everyone have to pay an equal amount of money, and I disagreed to that. It's unfair and illogical, if someone let's say eats two meals and doesn't drink alcohol (I don't drink btw), why would that person pay more money just because someone else ate 3 meals and had 4 drinks? I think everyone should pay for themselves. She basically called me scrooge, but then kinda agreed to that (I hope). Still, she made me feel like there was something bad with me and I don't get it? She also said she wouldn't have a problem with spending a 'few extra dollars' on us, implying I'm a baddie because I don't want to do that for them. She earns more money than me plus she has a partner who shares her life expenses, she has more spare money than me, I earn less money and I'm alone thus I need to pay all my bills alone, I also have some medical expenses. But even if we were totally economically equal in everything, I would still think that in a group of coworkers going out, every person should pay for themselves. I wouldn't want someone to pay more than they ate just because I ate more than them, it wouldn't feel ok.

No. 1520875

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My bf keeps having nightmares, typically about me doing something humiliating to him or cheating. He tells me about these negative dreams like he is covertly asking me to apologize and then reassure that I won't do the things in his dreams.
It hurts me a lot that he has never had a positive dream about me since we have started dating, not to mention if I don't say the right combinations of words and reassurances he splits on me as if I have done something wrong.

This morning he woke me up and it was before 8am (super rare for him to not sleep in). He had made me some bacon, so I thought it would be a good morning. Turns out he likely just couldn't go back to sleep so he made breakfast, cause that's when he dumped his nightmare on me. In this dream I was hanging out with his friends and laughing with them while we ditched him at a hotel while I cheated with them. I have never met his friends IRL. So I laughed a little and asked him which friends these were? I reminded him I have never met a single one of his friends.
Well HOW DARE I think this very serious topic over my dream self and people whom I have never met could be remotely funny?! I replied saying obviously I don't find it funny but I feel pressured to apologize constantly for things I haven't actually done.
He shouted OH SO NOW YOU'RE MAKING THIS ABOUT YOU and now has stormed off to play rap music in the computer room to give me the silent treatment because I didn't display perfect empathy over these imaginary crimes.

No. 1520881

>>1520849
When you order in these situations in the future. Cut off the conversation by starting off your order to the waiter with as a, “heads up for convenience my bill will be separate.” If it’s at the beginning it sets an expectation she should have to keep in mind and might not call out, it will also give her no excuse if she claims she didn’t know you weren’t not splitting it. I’d after that she says something about being stingy act genuinely surprised at her entitlement and ask if it’s normal to speak so bluntly about other’s money as most would find it rude, and that you can help with the bill if it’s really such a large deal and you need help covering it (implying she’s fucking rude and poor) but that you didn’t realize such a small amount would make such an impact.”Be polite and light, but as long as she’s an equal fuck her. Think Regina Gorge. Rich people are the worst. They nickel and dime everything. Working class will use their last 5 to buy you a Popeyes sandwich with them. Rich people Venmo you for salad dressing

No. 1520885

>>1520875
Isn't it sort of suspicious he's regularly having dreams about you cheating without reason (as far as I got from your post)? Like who has that unless he's an anxious mess with confidence/trust issues or lying.

>give me the silent treatment

Anyway I was gonna call him a manchild until I read that. You really gonna put up with a guy who's punishing YOU because HE is having nightmares?

No. 1520888

>>1520885
He's borderline and is avoiding therapy. He seems to think he's good with medicating with Lexapro (which could be causing the excess nightmares). But you are right.
Had he showed this side of himself I would have never agreed to subsequent dates, it's a lot of work and walking on eggshells.

No. 1520890

>>1520888
NTA but I have a boyfriend w/bpd and he doesn’t act like that. He knows if he does I’ll leave. Please don’t let him use his mental health as an excuse to be a prick, anon. You deserve better. He can ask for support and reassurance in a health way. It’s not your job to babysit his emotions that’s codependent on his part and he needs to learn to self regulate.

No. 1520897

>>1520875
That kinda behavior is a massive red flag, it’s not healthy or normal. I’ve heard that cheaters often project their behavior on their spouses.

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>>1520888
Nonnas here roasted my ass for venting about by mean moid when he had a toothache even though he apologized for being a piece of shit. I had a BPD ex that acted like your current partner and I’ll take a scrote that chimps out when in pain over that agonizing BPD scrote shit ANY DAY. And he’s never gonna apologize to you over it. Your scrote better be a mega hung hottie for you to be dealing with this shit.

No. 1520911

>>1520905
NTA, are you really trying to say yours is somehow better for using other manipulation tactics

No. 1520914

>>1520453
It's NAC doing the work here, but (like every compound of any class out there) it's hit-or-miss depending on who you are.

No. 1520915

>>1520875
Oh my he has some problems. I'd suggest, as i always do to, try lucid dreaming techniques. Every time he has a dream like that he should stop and think "i've seen this pattern before, my girlfriend wouldn't cheat on me irl, this must be a dream" - Recognize the pattern and realize it's a dream which storyline he can change if he wants to. It takes some failed attempts but after a while he'll learn to control his bad dreams. It's something he has to want to change though and want to work on himself. Reding he doesn't want to go to therapy makes me think he won't want to work on it, but since it's something he can do internally and doesn't have to talk about it with somebody else, he could try it.

No. 1520916

>>1520875
he acts like me which is a problem bc i act like a princess

No. 1520921

>>1520833
Stop making it a crush and confess. You'll never be satisfied, questioning what he's up to, and feeling jealous over any other female he has conversations with. Ask if he's possibly interested and go from there; otherwise, just drop him so that way you won't be so conflicted and asking "what if?" Find a guy who will truly like and appreciate spending time with you.

No. 1520922

>>1520911
Yeah because I’m a jerk sometimes too and I don’t consider my apologies to be manipulations when I’m actually sorry.

No. 1520928

>>1520888
BPD? Any crybaby my fee fees my stroggles my intrusiver thoughts emotionally blackmailing scrote should be avoided like the plague

No. 1520929

>>1520790
nta, zoomers can be especially tech-illiterate. They don't know how to use computers because they grew up with smartphones and tablets and mainly used those. Imo gen x and millenials are generally better with computers.

No. 1520930

>>1520922
Keeping tabs on this delusional dumbass.

No. 1520931

I had my midterms and the school’s break started, but yesterday I felt like shit at work and I feel sick today. I don’t mind staying in bed and doing nothing but I’m not surprised my body gave up after the amount of work I had to do

No. 1520934

>>1520929
I took a college class related to online communication recently and I was shocked by how many students didn’t know what HTML was, how to make computer folders for saving files, or use anything in google/office 365 beyond their email accounts. It was bizarre

No. 1520936

>>1520934
They're so close to boomers it's hilarious

No. 1520939

>>1520934
I’ve sperged about this several times but I keep meeting zoomers who don’t even know what a text editor is/means

No. 1520945

>>1520936
>>1520939
It made me half tempted to think about becoming some kind of tech literacy tutor, and charge people to teach them how to use tech. I know librarians get stuck doing this stuff all the time because boomers only use computers at the library

No. 1520950

>>1520929
It's so annoying when new baby zoomies get hired at my work and the boomer boss assumes they can immediately do all the shit I can for way cheaper because "younger means more tech savvy!!" Then they pour milk into the coffee machine and ask me every day how to do very basic tasks. One didn't even know what text fonts are or how to use MS paint to remove a phone number from an image with a plain white background.

No. 1520951

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I bought an ab roller, and jesus christ I had not realized in how bad of a hape I am. Like I can't even do the basic exercises, I just collapse. I'm trying to do even a little bit though, even if I can't do the exercises properly.

No. 1520954

>>1520930
I’ll keep you posted if you’re serious, kek.

No. 1520955

>>1520950
>milk in the coffee machine
Your boss is a moron for hiring actual retards

No. 1520958

>>1520929
>>1520934
>>1520939
I had a private student and thought he was just retarded and a rare case, but now I see it's a common issue. Although one time that guy brought a book in Polish, thinking it was English, and I want to believe it really was just a rare case

No. 1520960

my bpd friend is so ridiculous she is now changing her name (ironically to a popular troon name) to be more "unique" because she has "trauma" from not being the only girl with her name in elementary school holy fuck grow up

No. 1520961

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>>1520955
Zoomers have Pluto in Sagittarius which explains why they are so confidently retarded. They’re only somewhat less insufferable than the boomers with their Pluto in Leo placements.

No. 1520966

>>1520961
actually believing this makes you just as retarded as zoomers, anon

No. 1520972

>>1520966
I agree, horoscopes are literally one of the stupidest things to believe in alongside flat earth. I don't even get how it has so many people who blindly believe in it
>because you happened to be born on this date you act THIS way!! the stars control fate!!

No. 1520977

>>1520961
Posts like these feel like I'm reading 10 languages at once.

No. 1520978

>>1520972
it's funny to ask horoscopefags what they think your sign is. they never guess correctly kek

No. 1520984

>>1520972
Horoscopes and natal chart interpretations are totally different things. Everytime someone is like LOL HOROSCOPES ARE DUMB it’s like yeah, horoscopes are dumb, and so are you for not realizing that most astrologyfags agree that horoscopes and Sun Sign only astrology takes are dumb. Maybe actually learn a tiny bit about the thing you think is soooo retarded before you decide it’s retarded when you don’t even know what the fuck you’re referring to.

No. 1520985

>>1520984
it's all retarded and an embarrassing pseudo science

No. 1520987

>>1520978
nta, I don't take it seriously but weirdly enough my natal chart is pretty accurate and people who are into that stuff always manage to guess my ascendant even though I don't try to cosplay this sign

No. 1520990

>>1520985
>shit moids say
>muh rationalism

It’s not pseudoscience, it’s a spiritual practice. Astrofags trying to say it’s scientific are also retarded.

No. 1520992

>>1520961
>gatorade in mercutio makes you retarded because… BECAUSE IT JUST DOES OKAY??

No. 1520996

>>1520992
The mercury in retrograde meme is just that, a meme. Spread mostly by TikTok zoomers (with Pluto in sag kek) who gained the most cursory knowledge of a subject and then decided to act like experts on it. But I’m done arguing with these scrote tier takes.

No. 1521000

>>1520987
i always thought MAYBE there could be something in birthcharts. because it's actual, definable information and it's different for everyone. but why would it be real? how? it COULD be, but it wouldn't make any sense. what/who created the astrological system for us to follow?

No. 1521004

>>1520987
>>1521000
neither my natal chart nor my horoscopes are accurate. literally none of it is.

No. 1521009

I can't get over having my sexual advances rejected. Did it happen to anyone else, can you tell me about it? I feel so alone and stupid.

No. 1521012

>>1520721
your mom is an actual queen

No. 1521013

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>>1520992
It's true, that's why the computers are fucked up today, it's definitely not a problem a person caused or an issue with the system, better not find a solution, damn planets are preventing this. Mercury must be in retrograde 365 days a year, definitely nothing to do with airheads making mistakes and continually downloading the same viruses. Just that silly Cancer in Venus always making us do the wrong thing. Moon did this. Technology is like a crystal with no soul. I have no free will. Maybe if I hold a quartz obelisk when I push the wrong buttons the right thing will happen. Yes I also broke this machine last week but that was because of the Saturn return, today it's because I pulled a reverse triple cup and you know what THAT means for a Libra like me! Choose kindness, don't judge, its not dyslexia, it's my Pieces rising. Maybe align your chakras before implying someone aligned with the plants ever makes a mistake. I fucking love my job and coworkers

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>>1521000
It’s spiritual, honestly recommend looking into weird CIA type unclassified shit and those kind of rabbit holes. The only problem with suggesting anyone research this stuff is that you have to filter through so much garbage and attempts to misdirect and feed you false information so you just disregard everything that is informative and meaningful. That’s why I hate being compared to flat earthers and satanic panic christfags and racebaiters and anti mask tards. Cause that’s what the elites (who use astrology extensively) want, for astrology to seem like some retarded shit, there’s constant attempts to make the mainstream view of astrology negative and “just some more dumb shit” when it’s not. Took me forever to finally open my mind and research and it was exhausting filtering out the absolute crazy bullshit half the time but it was worth it and I’m better for doing it.

No. 1521016

>>1521013
YWNBAW

No. 1521018

>>1521009
Happened to me once but it was because of the dude. Turned out that he was a virgin and too insecure to have sex. Another time I was rejected in a club when I was stupidly drunk and trying to flirt with a dude. He had a girlfriend. It was embarrassing but it was also my friend's fault for pushing me to do it like a retard.
Don't feel stupid, it's absolutely normal.

No. 1521019

FUCKING FUCK i fucked up and forgot to turn on the lamp for a couple of hours on the baby tomatoes and now they all look likey they are dying. Fucking fragile vegetable, it was just a couple of hours! i hope they make it. Anybody knows if they can get back into healthy shape if they look floppy?

No. 1521021

>>1521016
Yeah I know that's why I fix the mistakes the real women make. Maybe I should take testosterone

No. 1521023

>>1521021
>unhinged astrology hater admits he’s not a real woman

At least you’re being honest with us.

No. 1521025

>>1521016
Not believing in horoscopes doesn't mean you're male. Women aren't a hivemind. Stop trying to shut down the discussion by throwing out random accusations.

No. 1521026

>>1521023
Oh wow it's like I'm still at work with the hippie ig girls who whisper about how dykey and weird I am, is the phone broken again? It's okay I'm here to fix that, sorry we don't share a spiritually with you specifically

No. 1521028

>>1521025
It’s the aggression and frothing hatred, not the not buying astrology part. plus the anon already admitted to not being a real woman. Not all women believe in astrology but only a scrote would be that aggressively shitty about it.

No. 1521029

>>1521025
Idk anon Im starting to think I must be trans because I hate woo woo mumbo jumbo, I must not be in connection with my innate divine feminine moon energy. Can anyone recommend an essential oil for me so I can become more agreeable?

No. 1521031

>>1521028
>the anon already admitted to not being a real woman
…you do know what sarcasm is right? That anon was making a joke about being ftm because she doesn't believe in horoscopes. I'm starting to think that all anons on lolcow have some degree of autism

No. 1521032

>>1518524
Man ditch your friends, they sound like vapid assholes anyway

No. 1521034

>>1521031
Lol thank you. This is truly autist on autist violence, I'm not coming for your natal charts I'm just fed up

No. 1521038

>>1520990
It makes about as much sense as "blood types" do in Japan.

No. 1521039

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>>1521034
Sorry for sperging meanly anon I’m just also fed up with being made fun of by scrotes for my views and I was really mad to be made fun of on here too. Sorry toxic positivity girls who believed in astrology (and probably had no idea wtf they were doing anyway because only autists can really truly grasp astrology imo) were shitty to you and sorry for being shitty on top of it. And yes I’ve got the tism and needed lunch and probably need a nap

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>>1521039
>the tism

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>>1521038
NO it makes way more sense because there are so many more factors in your natal chart than there are regarding your blood type, literally nobody has the same natal chart as you do and tons of people have the same blood type. Fhsgdiaoshfhsjg do you realize how many placements are win your chart, the aspects they form, the degrees they’re at?? NOT THE SAME REEEEE NOT EVEN CLOSE I NEED A NAP

No. 1521045

Man, my bff keeps making these weird comments about how I've changed because I grew up frankly in poverty and now that I have money I'm sharing cute things I want to buy, like nice jewellery. Nothing outrageous, 100 euros tops. She's like "what happened to the nona who was happy with the simple ear studs?". Rinse and repeat with "luxury" food, nice clothes, branded coats etc etc. If it's something smart looking "that's so not you". She insinuates that my character has changed, for the worse, because I can buy things I can afford. And i'm a financially responsible person, I can definitely afford it.

She's not poor (always been average income) and buys herself stuff so it's not jealousy but when she says something the only response I can think of is fuck off you hater COW. On a deeper level I think it's really shitty of her and hurts me but I can't articulate why, even to myself. Why be so negative and bring down my choices? What the fuck does she want me to do?? Not that I would do it, but I don't even understand her motive.

No. 1521047

>>1521039
We are both autists being mocked for the same thing just in different ways from different types of people, lol

No. 1521048

>>1521045
She’s jealous because she thinks you’re going to surpass her and outshine her.

No. 1521050

My mother is still alive, I'm still poor, I have nightmares, I can't sleep for more than 4 hours at night, I'm depressed and I haven't been on holiday in over 10 years. Would be nice if things would get better sometime soon, this shit has been going on for way to long.

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No. 1521056

>>1520888
>He's borderline and is avoiding therapy
Well there's yer problem.

No. 1521062

>>1517610
Go take a life drawing class. Draw shit from life, not from books, not from computer screens. Train your artist's eye.

No. 1521070

I'm in college, and I live in a (themed) dorm building for creative and performing arts, so a lot of the people here have some interest in the arts, as do I. But, as you could figure from the 'performing arts' bit, it's got massive theatre kid energy—like tryhard, spicy straight 'they/them/ze/zir IM DEMIROMANTIC GREYSEXUAL' libfem nonsense. Last night they had this ridiculous activity where they went to 'ironically' watch porn and make commentary on it—which, to me, makes zero sense. Nobody normal watches porn 'ironically', and there's nothing insightful that could be said about exploitative straight porn that couldn't already be surmised that they need to hold this event every goddamned year. I'm sure if I said something I'd get told I'm being too stiff or somethingphobic, but no one can convince me that porn is anything less than abuse, and that there's nothing funny or progressive about watching women being objectified for the male gaze and as pitiful as it was, even the Luna and Lurch sextape was less funny and more horrifying. It's hard being radfem-adjacent or non-leftwing on campus.

No. 1521075

>>1521070
I've only seen funny porn clips of just the atrocious acting in dedicated ylyl threads on chans, if they're going out of their way to watch tons of porn in completion for that, then that's stupid

No. 1521095

>>1520790
They're older than that and have been in online spaces for a long time. I was stunned.

No. 1521097

>>1520954
Yes. Nonnas here need to wake THE FUCK UP to who (or what) they are dating instead of cargo culting everything into "he watches the p0rn!!!" / "he does not watches the p0rn!!!"

No. 1521098

>>1521075
Yeah no from what I understood it was just regular straight porn clips or whatever, nothing super 'ironic'. I get the sense that a lot of the really active residents (like the ones who go to every event organized by the dorm) were probably 'uncool' back in high school, and so they're making up for it by doing the 'edgiest' things they can come up with without realizing that it's cringe to most normies. I can say this with some certainty because I've spent enough time with theatre kids to know how they behave.

No. 1521112

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>>1521075
I saw cakefarts when I was 13 and didn’t realize it was porn and not just gross but hilarious comedy until a couple years ago. I literally didn’t even think that could have been filmed for erotic purposes, I thought the trailer trash lady, the tone, all of it, were clearly meant to be shock comedy. But alas, I didn’t understand just how disgusting men really were.

No. 1521114

I have not seen my family in 3 years and i can't see them right now because i got no money. I am so far away. Damn it.

No. 1521115

Showed up to retail job interview and the fucking manager never bothered to show up. Sat there like an idiot for almost an hour and then I told the cashier who called the manager when I arrived that I was done. Why does this happen to me so much? I've never even heard of this happening to anyone else. Is the entire world pranking me?

No. 1521117

>>1521115
This happens to my mom and me a lot. Especially my mother because she worked blue color manual labor her whole life. I wish I could offer you comfort, it's just fucked and managers never seem to care.

No. 1521119

>>1521045
you should start saying the same things she does when she shows something "that doesnt suit you" "that's too elegant for you" negging comments like this, it's going to make her realize what she is doing

either that or she's actually jealous so time to dump her

No. 1521121

>>1521098
Yeah theater kids tend to be so catty and dramatic, and want to make a spectacle of anything, even porn it seems

No. 1521123

>>1521070
This sounds like something some abused girl came up with and convinced everyone else it was really really funny, when in actuality its her coping with her trauma in the worst way possible. Avoid these fuckers, anon

No. 1521130

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I’m so pissed off rn, greentext because
>pick out online order for customer
>customer allowed substitutions on their order (it will specifically say if they don’t want substitutions)
>I subbed for items that weren’t in the store
>she calls back and starts screaming at me that she didn’t want subs
>letmespeaktoyourmanager.jpg
>he gives her store credit for a bad “in store experience”
>I’m the bad in store experience
I shouldn’t be so mad but tf? She ruined my day and got compensated for it

No. 1521131

I hate that I look more like my bigger nosed darker featured partially Jewish father and not my much more attractive mother. It's not even racebait, I just feel like the ugliest or blandest motherfucker because I'm the least white looking white in existence. I could probably fake being Hispanic or fully Jewish and get away with it. I don't look fucking white, at least if I pretended I wasn't fully white or fully Jewish then they'd call me "exotic", otherwise I'm just an ugly witch looking white woman

I want to work in the entertainment industry. Not even as talent, but I'm still going to be judged. Where all they value is blondes with blue eyes or force brunettes to go bottle blonde. I can't believe I've doomed myself down this path being as hideous as I am, it's only ugly moids and ugly blondes who succeed. Fuck my life, I'm going to be doomed to a life of being considered second rate because of features I literally can't control. Fuck this world and its heinous white supremacist ideals, and the fact that you have to be considered attractive to even get a personal assistant job. I've seen ugly people in hollywood and yet I still don't think I could land a job there.

No. 1521133

>>1521131
>I want to work in the entertainment industry
Why? Hollywood is a cesspool these days

No. 1521134

>>1521131
I have the same cursed witch face, but to be honest is the blonde bombshell aesthetic even a thing anymore? I always seen them get called basic on tiktok
I think if you have a white face with sharp features, you should go with dark hair and you could pass for some exotic Balkan girl. If you have a witch face and go with light hair, you can risk looking like Florence Welch (luv her music but her face is oof)

No. 1521137

>>1521134
>exotic Balkan girl
wtf did i just read

No. 1521138

>>1521134
I have no idea what people are talking about when they say strong features would look better with dark hair wouldn't you just get a severus snape effect? I feel like you just are repeating it because you hear others say it

No. 1521139

>>1521112
>cakefarts
Never heard of this before and at this point I'm too afraid to ask

No. 1521141

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>>1521133
I find the industry viscerally fascinating, and it's always been a cesspool. I have a penchant for gossip and studying scandals, and analyze how events could've been handled better or worse historically. It's very much an interest of mine that I'm passionate about, and aligns with my interests and pays a lot more than all of my other proposed job ideas. Problem is that I'm not a traditionally attractive or particularly submissive type of woman, and I tend to repel men with my aura, but I figured maybe if the scape has changed enough I could find myself a female boss or mentor. I am actually very passionate about what I want to do and I want to be a part of the industry, not because I'm a sociopath, but because it genuinely interests me, maybe that makes me a sociopath. I'm afraid it's also going to drive me to fucking kms

I'm probably less ugly than I think but I take into consideration how bad my dysmorphia is combined with not having pretty colored features or a pretty skintone, and then I think how ugly I must be. I look sort of similar to picrel and Olivia Cooke but I'm uglier, my face is rounder, and have a lighter skintone. I've seen people call Jenna pretty but I've also seen some nasty comments about the way she looks. I have a young looking and kind of resting bitch like face with dark features which I imagine must make me seem pretty ugly and unapproachable for the job I want to work. My personality won't ever match my face no matter how hard I try, and it'll make getting hired in an elitist (and to be frank a white supremacist) industry even harder because people will view me as deceptive.

No. 1521143

>>1521123
>Avoid these fuckers, anon
Ha, no kidding. Most of them are absolutely insufferable and like >>1521121 said they're overly sensitive, and way emotionally immature. Some of the residents are chill and reasonable, but too many of them are drunk off of Kool-Aid and make being 'gay' (i.e. spicy straight, if they're female) their entire identities. I mean, I'm not straight and I don't even think about my sexuality enough to find these jokes relatable or entertaining. Nothing can be a personality quirk anymore, it's because they're gay/lesbian/trans although admittedly I apparently give off lesbo vibes to my normal straight friends/relatives even kek

No. 1521147

>>1521137
this is phrasing I've heard in the us from people trying to guess where i was from. anything other than nordic or irish/uk features is exotic

No. 1521153

I need to just…lose weight. I thought I was alright, and I AM alright with going straight to the L and XL because honestly I eat whatever I want and still wear cute clothes without looking like a whale and turn out alright in photos, but the fact of the matter is that some of the clothes that are my dream clothes will ONLY look good when I'm thinner. Cute simple white dresses, clothes with sheer sleeves, mini dresses with a defined waist. Not possible when you're, for lack of a better word, chunky. I need to be smaller, just…smaller.

No. 1521156

>>1521134
My face is both kind of sharp and round, it's hard to explain. It's a mess of contradictions, that's why I feel like a witch. I'd say dark hair or red hair actually looks better, blonde clashes vastly with my features and skintone. I'm some kind of winter or autumn and our skintones notoriously look bad with blonde. My nose is just raised enough to where it unfortunately makes my lips and eyes look worse by comparison. My features are intense, I think I look very unwelcoming with the way they're set

If I ever earn enough money in the industry I will probably get a nosejob, because that's the feature I'm most self conscious about. Seems like everyone has nosejobs there anyway.

>>1521147
I would say the closest European phenotype I resemble besides Jewish is French, Russian or Germanic, I have dark hair, midtone skin, freckles, very dark (unfortunately straight shaped) brows, maybe "black Irish" other than having a red and blonde tint to my hair, I look like the swarthiest Europeans. My highest match on those celeb lookalike sites is usually old Hollywood actresses like Judy Garland or Natalie Wood rather than anyone current. I was clearly just born in the wrong era and traumatized too much into thinking I'm way uglier than I am, plus growing up in the era of Paris Hiltons and bad bed tans.

Ironically being the ugly nerd brunette never used to bother me when I was younger but now it makes me feel like a fucking goblin thanks to all the Margot Robbies and Sydney Sweeneys popping up

No. 1521158

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>>1521137
I live in a place with a lot of Romanian/Serbian/Albanian women, they’re visibly white, but they don’t look white American. You can tell just by looking at them.
>>1521138
If you have a strong feature like a hooked nose, you might as well fill in your brows and dye your hair dark, achieving a classic Mediterranean woman appearance, and not rock the man face Germanic woman stereotype.

No. 1521168

>>1521137
I'm balkan but I was born and raised in a north European country. People can always clock me as a foreigner even before hearing my name. I have dark eyes and hair and my facial features don't look stereotypical Scandinavian. There definitely are places in the world where being balkan is seeing as "exotic"

No. 1521177

>>1521158
>dyeing eyebrows
That's gonna be a no from me dawg

No. 1521181

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>>1521177
I have done gel and pencil on them before and it only makes them look more like sausages

>>1521158
I tried to dye my hair lighter again without bleach a few months ago and it only successfully took on the crown, so now I'm at this weird admixture of black and red that I'm too lazy to fix kek, I almost considered something like picrel if I planned to re dye it but I don't have a lot of money right now to fix my hair and I'm hopeless with bleach

I'm really just too tired to do anything right now. I might as well spend the last semester of college before I have to try and look professional and find a job after I graduate looking ugly I guess

No. 1521188

I wish my mother had known what was wrong with me when I was younger and would get blind rages and scream/hit myself when people were laughing too loudly near me while I was concentrating or would flip if I was talked to after a shower (the shock of the world was overwhelming).
It's not her fault, but she'd chastise me as selfish instead of a kid with possible brain issues that we could work on controlling. Although maybe knowing may not change anything because she's allowed to express frustration and I am not.
I'm having a short temper day today after a while of not having them and it brought back memories.

My mother is far better than most and I'm very lucky, but I've had to admit she's not perfect. This along with the constant criticism of every girl and woman we've ever known, from their bodies to their personalities, has contributed at least a bit to my adult problems.
It eats me up inside because my identity is so melded with her. She's been through so much and I love her.

No. 1521194

>>1521137
You could only possibly be surprised by that comment when you only categorize everyone by white, black and asian lol

No. 1521196

fucking hate poly people and their broken ass insecure conniving manipulative lifestyle for creeps and predators. I simply have to laugh when they complain "i hate it when I mention being poly and the first thing people say is oh i could never do that! bitch who asked!" you stupid stupid whores. people are doing this to you ON PURPOSE. it's like finding an excuse to mention a boyfriend when a moid is getting too friendly. it's how we say TAKE YOUR HERPES SORES ELSEWHERE WE ARE NOT INTERESTED IN A THREESOME WITH YOUR DISGUSTING OBESE BOYFRIEND. FUCK OFFFFFFFFF

No. 1521197

>>1521141
AYRT, if you're that obsessed with your looks and you're aiming to work BEHIND the scenes, who gives a flying fuck? They're looking for quick-thinking, capable, probably exploitative people to work for them. You get into Hollywood and the film industry by either nepotism, absolute drive to succeed, or ruthlessness. Uglier fucks than you have worked in the industry. Trust me, I've seen 'em. But stop obsessing with your looks and jumping to conclusions about an industry you aren't even in yet.

No. 1521198

I hooked up with a scrote when I was drunk whose a decade younger than me and I blocked him but he keeps coming back on new accounts.I blocked him again. He probably thinks I’m just being a bitch but I already know where this is going before it begins
>once I start trying to get close to him and be friendly he’s going to pull the “I’m sorry I’m not looking for anything serious” card which is going to piss me off because I’m not asking for relationship, I’m just being nice because I’m nice.
>if I show any kind of emotion he’s going to run to his friends and label me as the crazy old bitch
>when men are young they expect to get a stacy who loves them for who they are. Eventually he’s going to become bitter because the only woman giving him a chance is some below average 30 year old and he’s going to make it my problem.
>after all this drama plays out I won’t even be able to be mad because I’d be at fault for messing with someone so young

No. 1521203

>>1521197
Fair enough, anon. I guess I'm just very self critical and am not in the greatest place mentally. A tad worried about my prospects after graduation. I do think things will be easier once I have a foot in the door, and I'll probably get it. Ignoring my self hatred I feel like I do have the skills to succeed. Thank you for being honest

No. 1521220

My mom, knowing damn well I'm ugly, always has to comment when shes sees beautiful women/girls. She just called me downstairs, only to show me a Facebook pic of her former classmates daughter. "Look how beautiful she is!" She was fucking gorgeous, like 16 years old, looked like she could be a Tiktok star. Probably has a fucking fairytale dream of a life. Meanwhile, when I was her age, I was constantly mocked and laughed at.

Why does she have to rub it in my face how beautiful other women are? Does she think I'm blind? Is a pretty face really something to go OOOOOHH!! LOOOOOOK!!! at, unless you're a horny scrote? Seeing pretty teenagers gets to me the most because they get the princess treatment during those vulnerable teen years. I'm so bitter and sad, I constantly feel heartbroken over the fact that I'll never be pretty. I'm getting close to becoming a 30 year old virgin, unkissed too.

No. 1521225

Ugh. Gave some old scrote my number because he wanted me to text him on the spot and I was nervous. I blocked his number and I'm really glad you can't find anything about me if you reverse search it.

No. 1521233

>>1521225
I hate when males do that. I would get scared and nervous and I am a legitimate autist and couldn't find the courage to say no or walk away. I am too nice, too beta. I would give them my google voice number but the issue is you can't text from it on your phone, unless someone texts you through the number first. so if they ask me to text them or call them first I would freak out. and sometimes if they texted or called the number it wouldn't always direct to my phone. every time after these interactions would happen, i would refuse to go to the area where i encountered them for years just in case I saw them again.
one time the guy, probably in his late 40s/early 50s who was probably not mentally well, called me then made me call him to make sure I wasn't lying, and for months after he would leave voicemails on my google voice that were odd. and would just call and wait on the line until it automatically ended.
I finally managed to work up the courage to tell these people "I don't share my social media or number with strangers" . they get mad and go "b-but how would you get to know someone so that they aren't a stranger if you don't share" i say i dont socialize and walk away. idgaf anymore and it feels great.

No. 1521235

It's weird that I used to meet up with men from the internet so willy nilly but I often didn't even like them? I remember being on a date and this guy kept trying to kiss me and I didn't want to because he was ugly. But I went out with him several times. Once I invited two guys to the same place and they were confused but dealt with it. I really might be autistic

No. 1521251

>>1521038
Yeah, that’s what all of the envious beta minus blooded twerps say! Bow down before us alpha blood chadettes!

No. 1521270

>>1521004
and to think there are curries that use it as a way to determine suitable marriage partners

No. 1521275

>>1521251
Japanese blood type theory says that my AB negative blood ass is fucking psychotic and they would be right

No. 1521289

>>1521275
i thought there was no positive/negative for the theory because vast majority of people in Japan, near to 100%, have positive, so it would just be AB

No. 1521292

>>1521289
I thought AB negative was stereotyped as the evil bloodtype

No. 1521293

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Jesus christ I hate men so much! There's a male coworker who's been visibly interested in me for a few months, he also did some nice things for me, helping me at work, driving me to work and home even though I never asked him etc., he never tried to force himself on me because I'm a shut in autist but people noticed he liked me, my female coworker constantly talks to me about him being interested in me, he asked her if I have a boyfriend etc., she told me he's a good guy, bright, educated (studied engineering), helpful, she told me he would take care of me and I should give him a chance etc. Today I went out for a dinner with her and in a conversation about men paying prostitutes for sex she casually mentioned HE told her he once paid a prostitute for sex in the past. I felt sick immediately. I told her what I think about men who have sex for money and that it's a total deal breaker for me, I told her some stats about prostitution in general and that I don't believe that men who use prostitutes even see women as fully human beings. To my horror, she was surprised by my reaction, she told me I'm overreacting and that the fact he paid for sex once in his past doesn't mean he's a bad person. She also said she wouldn't mind if she found out that her now boyfriend had sex with a prostitute before she met him. I'm so fucking disgusted and disappointed right now, to think that for a moment I felt like he's different, because he was indeed more helpful and thoughtful towards other people, me included, than the majority of moids I met in our environment and at work. But no. I feel like crying now. Am I overreacting, really?? Please tell me something that will ground me. I'm scared I will die alone, every time I meet a moid who seems even slightly good, I end up finding something fucked up about him. At this point I feel like the only women I know who are in relationships are those who simply overlook something fucked up about their men, please end me

No. 1521295

People would rather talk to a messy bpd woman that is rude and treats people poorly but has drama than a nice woman that is kind but doesn't have drama. But they treat that bpd friend like a pet and sideshow as well so maybe they don't have it good. I'm jealous of them I wish I could be the star. I'm just boring on the sidelines and nobody care me

No. 1521300

>>1521295
Most people hate to admit this but they find messy and abusive people more exciting

No. 1521301

>>1521293
Your coworker is just another woman who's been socially pressured and brainwashed into thinking men paying for bodies is totally normal and OK. Your not overreacting, if you want to make a change, no matter how small, you have the opportunity to stand your ground here.

No. 1521305

She’s the most precious, most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen in my life and I would die for her

No. 1521309

>>1521302
why couldn't it have been posted in a place that isn't just full of disgustingly ugly men

No. 1521322

I am hosting my (friend) moid's cat.
Due to an untreated-mood-disorder/coke-induced psychosis episode, he flipped and ended up putting the Cat's life at risk.

He ended up in a skid row and took her.
He was gone to emergency treatment, which may last a couple of days. I am 80% sure he won't look for a proper treatment after that.

I know he LOVES the cat, but I don't want to give it back already because he's mentally unstable.

No. 1521325

>>1521301
Ah yes, she also told me our mutual friend has a boyfriend who also had sex with prostitutes in his past, and that she had some male friends who also did that. They're all so fucking casual about it and they look at me like I'm the crazy one. If they don't care about the morality of it at all, why aren't they at least concerned about those men giving STDs to their partners? That female friend of ours constantly suffers from intimate infections and she doesn't know why. You want to tell me it's not from fucking her dirty disgusting scrote who had sex with prostitutes in his past? Really the more I try to socialize with normie women, and I'm literally forcing myself to do it at this point, the more alienated I feel. I'm ending up flabbergasted and dreaming about going back to my basement and becoming a neet again. The only women who understand me are those I find online

No. 1521326

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I am hosting my (friend) moid's cat.
Due to an untreated-mood-disorder/coke-induced psychosis episode, he flipped and ended up putting the Cat's life at risk.

He ended up in a skid row and took her.
He was gone to emergency treatment, which may last a couple of days. I am 80% sure he won't look for a proper treatment after that.

I know he LOVES the cat, but I don't want to give it back already because he's mentally unstable.

No. 1521327

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I am hosting my (friend) moid's cat.
Due to an untreated-mood-disorder/coke-induced psychosis episode, he flipped and ended up putting the Cat's life at risk.

He ended up in a skid row and took her.
He was gone to emergency treatment, which may last a couple of days. I am 80% sure he won't look for a proper treatment after that.

I know he LOVES the cat, but I don't want to give it back already because he's mentally unstable.

No. 1521334


No. 1521345

When I was a young teenager I had a therapist ask me if I had ever considered getting tested for autism. I said no, and that I had no interest in pursuing a diagnosis. Now that I’m an adult I think I regret not taking her up on the offer. I feel very strongly that there is something different about me at my core and that it is only a matter of time before my close friends (bar one who I feel very similar to) figure it out and decide that I’m genuinely too weird to put up with. I generally find it really difficult to make friends with “normal” people (most of my good friends are autistic or have some kind of severe mental illness, and if neither are just very unusual people) and feel like I’m playing a character whenever I try and talk to them. I naturally have a very flat affect and I know it comes off as bored and “robotic” to most people, so I try to seem more enthusiastic but this has resulted in me coming off as quite intense. I feel like I’m playing a character a lot anyway, but most of the time it’s in a fun way where I feel like it’s all a big joke but no one seems to understand. I end up being misunderstood by a lot of people because things that are funny to me don’t usually have a reason for being funny beyond them sounding funny (I enjoy wordplay and sometimes particular combinations of words just sound very funny to me), so I say things I don’t actually mean without people realising I don’t mean them. I feel like most people can sense that there is something off about me, even people I pass on the street (I often get the urge to run away when I hear laughter in public because I think it is directed towards me), and I feel like people are staring at me or talking about me quite often. Obviously I find it quite difficult to trust people, and even though I do have close friends I don’t really feel the same draw towards socialising that most people seem to (I’m happy speaking to my “close” friends once or twice a month). I also have pretty bad sensory problems which I have been thinking of as misophonia for almost a decade (bad as in I could not eat dinner with my family as a child because the noises would make me start crying), but I’m wondering if its something more. Perhaps I am just genuinely a little weird and none of this is autism, but I often wonder what would happen if I approached a psychologist for an assessment. I worry that they would try to take issue with my interests (there are certain creative projects I feel I must complete over the course of my lifetime if I am to live in accordance with my nature & live life to its fullest, and I am also really interested in philosophy & have some particular metaphysical views that impact the way I view the world on a day to day basis), just because of how meaningful they are to me. It would hurt to have someone accuse them of being a symptom of something. This is probably all really incoherent and rambly but I have been thinking about a lot of this lately and I’m not sure what to do. Not sure if I’m really looking for advice, I just wanted to share some ways in which I’ve been feeling strange lately.

No. 1521353

>>1521139
That gross trashy lady looks at the camera like in that still and says “you know what I like the most? Cake farts” in what I always thought was a pseudo sultry voice. Then she sits bare assed on that chocolate cake and has the most insane farts ever into it while moaning. I saw it on Something Awful forums way back when.

No. 1521356

fucken nasty ass people never cleans the sink when they spit and blow their snot. bitch just leaves that nasty ass shit sitting in there.

No. 1521369

I don't like the idea of people saying it's "selfish" to comimit suicide and going, "imagine how badly their parents feel? Why didn't they think of everyone who loves them?"
As someone who is suicidal, all that runs through my brain, but im hurting as well, badly. My existence is just a drain on everyone else, I think everyday about how it'd make everyone feel, I often feel in the long run it'd be better for me not to here. It is selfish, but i also don't get why people think some people should sit and suffer or they can get through whatever it is. Mental stuff fucking sucks. I don't feel like i'm a good person worth much, I just feel like people who haven't been suicidal jump so quickly to the "think of others" type of thing. I don't know, i'm open to others opinions. I really don't feel good right now

No. 1521372

>>1521369
I guess my point is, I'm sure people who actually do it think of others. I know at this point my mother probably hates me or resents me. I know it'd hurt everyone but I don't feel I can climb out of what I'm in. I'm almost 30, no job ever. No relationships except for when I was in high school, no house, no money of my own, aniexty, fat, ugly. I don't know, I know i'm a huge burden on her, I know i'll be told
"You can do it nonnie, it's not that bad" No it really is. Im a alcholic, the other day my brother in so many words basically said, "it's getting old". I'm that loser who nobody wants around. I can't even see myself in my own minespace out of my house, I have no life skills. I feel so so badly about myself and I project that onto others online and this very website. I'm miserable and miserable to be around. I feel as if me being here benefits nobody. I thought I'd get out of this in high school, being shy, low selfesteemed but it got worse for me, until i'm 28 and a fucking hermit, with an ugly obese body, horrible skin, and mental issues. I cannot be loved. I don't know what to do, but i've done nothing

No. 1521377

>>1521372
This is gonna sound retarded but you should go on an extended camping trip.

No. 1521379

>>1521369
Nona, I agree that calling suicidal people selfish is horrible. It's an immense lack of empathy.

On the other hand, a depressive person is barely functional, and they do make wrong decisions - because they are ill.
To be suicidal, the several systems of our brain ought to be malfunctioning, even our body.
But how can I say that what you are feel is not real? Because it is real. But you can improve your condition with proper medical help and care.
I just wish you to know how much your life is precious and how much you deserve to live - not a life you are experimenting now, full of pain and suffering - but a healthy life.
You deserve to feel better and to live better, you deserve several second chances. A better condition of life.

I just wish with all my heart you can find the help you so much need, so the several collapsed systems in you brain function better and you feel better.
Pls nona, try a little more. I want you to be happy!

No. 1521385

>>1521379
Thats my thing, I even think it
>Oh wow so sad, look at how loved this person was
but now at this very mintue, I get it, when you get to that point it hurts to live, it genuinely hurts. I'm so isolated, I feel I do not know how to be a human. I look at people with lives, like "How do you do it? How do you work?"
I just feel so horrible and I know i've disappointed everyone. My mom told me, "I make everyone think it's their fault" and…I try so hard to keep it to myself. I don't ask for clothes, or money more then $15 or so. I cook, I clean, I do things for my family.
I just feel now i'm at a point where, it's now or never. No one gets the jail my brain is in, nobody gets how hard it is for me to go outside and be in this body, the dreams, how I can't even look at myself naked in the mirror, lord I sound pitiful.

No. 1521387

>>1521385
and it doesn't matter if they get it, because i'm a 28 year old woman with the emotional brain of a 19 year old (exactly where my life stopped) and a body thats fat, feels old. I used to be able to write and..now I can't even do that. I've declined so far.

No. 1521389

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I hate that my mom implies that I want to fuck every moid friend I have my moid friends are good people but they’re fucking ugly. Sorry not sorry. My friend group is pretty equal in terms of gender division too so it’s not like I’m the NLOG in a sea of scrotes either.

No. 1521392

>>1521372
>I cannot be loved
You don't have to be loved in order to have a fulfilling life. It's something I told myself and I started to believe it, my situation was pretty similar to yours, minus the alcoholism. I'm privileged because I have my own apartment, but it's only because I inherited it after my mother died, and she also hated me and threatened to kick me out, I was a depressed neet for years, no life skills either etc. My aunt helped me to find a job one year ago when I was 26. It's the first job in my life. I never had any relationships or friends and I will probably die alone but I also accepted that. I won't tell you it will be great for you, but I believe it can certainly get better than it currently is. At some point I also believed there's no other way for me but to off myself. I got lucky only because my mother died, I know it sounds horrible but it was only then I could make a progress, because I had to, or I would end up homeless and starve. There has to be someone or something in your life that can help you. Even if it's not a single person, maybe an institution? Please seek for help, seek for a job, find something you like to do. Even if you get a shitty job that won't satisfy you, you can still have your own world in your room and your hobbies, interests etc. I don't care if it sounds sad to normies, but I feel fulfilled within my own world, my spirituality, my passion for knowledge, my hobbies, books, contact with nature and animals. I learn languages on my own, I learn about philosophy. I almost feel content and I know I can get even better. The point is not to change yourself and turn yourself into something you're not, because you can't to that. Just learn how to work with what you have. Please focus on your survival and getting help and finding something you like, fuck relationships with other people, fuck love and fuck what they think about you.

No. 1521395

>>1521387
>because i'm a 28 year old woman with the emotional brain of a 19 year old
I relate to this nona, I'm in my mid twenties and I'm a couple months away from graduating college. I thought I was going to die last year and sometimes I still fear I'll die, but I'm not giving up on life. I never thought I'd see 21 or 25 either. I have faith in you to be able to turn it around, gradually. It may take time, but immaturity can be a strength. Maturity is a myth too. Unless someone's set or life and born into privilege, nobody really knows what they're doing. Trust me

No. 1521397

>>1521385
My biggest implication is that depression has multiples causes but is essentially a disease of the brain and it shows in several aspects, including lack of concentration, creativity, even the energy.
I am telling you because I've there. Back in 2018 I was sure that death was the only way. I stopped eating, grooming. I could not function and even it was all mental, I felt so much pain that my bones would hurt as well. It would take me HOURS or even a whole day to find the mental strength to go to the kitchen and get a glass of water.
I was in a state of so much pain, there is no words. But shit, I got better. My life of not a fairy tale (far from it) but I got rid of the suicidal thoughts.
I just mean you can live with more quality of life, and regain a good part of your intelligence and creativity with the correct medications.
I never fully recovered (specially my memory), and I will never be 100%, but you can live much better than you are now if you seek treatment. That I can asure you.

I just remember this immense pain, and how I got better, I just can't help but wish everyone has the same. I am sorry if an offended or made things worse, not the intention. I wish you well, truly.

No. 1521400

>>1521392
Second this anon’s words. It’s okay to be starting late in terms of adult things. One of the biggest things about breaking yourself out of the cycle is accepting where you’re at. A lot of this self flagellation about your place in life is going to keep you in this headspace indefinitely. Literally everyone has areas where they’re flailing and badly, and most people have gotten to where they are specifically because they’ve failed. Break the shame cycle, accept where you are, and pick one area to work on. Once you have a good base, pick another. Repeat until you’re in a better place.

No. 1521401

>>1521392
Despite all of that you sound like someone who has adjusted, I guess I cannot explain it all without basically telling my whole life. What you do is amazing, but I want to be loved. I want to..to be normal. Maybe I should be instutionlized, I don't know. I often do think of doing something to myself and it dos bring me a odd sense of comfort, but not to do anything.
I know this is retarded but just today I thought, "i want to die" and then I thought, "Well if I kill myself I'll go to hell" and thats a new fear, so now I just don't know. I'm so so happy you've found peace, but there's so much, my life isn't normal.
I have nothing to work with, I was always called ugly or stinky or picked at as a youth, then when I did get attention it was from scrotes who used me, then i retreated into my shell. Using reading/writing to escape my life, for years in high school I could'nt look at myself in the mirror period. I'd have to read while eating, brushing my teeth, every second of the day because I cannot deal with all the things I'd done with boys (when I was 16), I realized I've never truly been happy with myself.
I can't even properly talk about my childhood and point out things my mother did wrong, because I live with her, she's a single mother. Sometimes I just want to walk away. Leave my family behind, not because I don't want them around and don't love them, but because I know everyone hates me or pities me.
Nobody gets it, I constantly have dreams of my life and I was always depressed, alone. I only had 1 healthy relationship and I was fucking 14-15, I'm sorry for venting but I have nothing for me. I hate even being seen. I want to get out of this but hate how I am. I'm sick of feeling sorry for myself, but i always have. I keep thinking back and I've never had fucking peace. if I were to tell my mom all the things that lead to where I am, I'd feel retarded and she'd think i was blaming her.
I'm 28, who cares if you were bullied in school? Who cares about the shit you saw at home, or the things my mom said to me, or my own dad who abandoned me and abused my mom, the multiple men that abused my mom and my siblings and…I have so much inside. I just really wish I had someone.
And it's hard, like mentally it's so hard for me, I know I sound retarded and like a sob story, but I can't just do these things. Mentally there's a roadblock.

No. 1521404

>>1521345
Not sure if you want advice, but nonna, you are not a little strange, you very probably are autistic or have any other disorder, but you ARE different. Go look after your diagnosis, you are going to be much, much free. None of your likings are symptons, the way you deal with them may be a symptom but that doesn't mean that you are a fake person, since allistic people have their ways of dealing with their likings, and it's as it's because they are allistic. Nonna, i hope you are able to follow what makes you the happiest and are able to express yourself; remember, people are only able to understand and love you when you are being your full self, your natural way is the right way, and you should strive to be your way. If someone judges you, go after someone who will embrace you.

No. 1521405

I have such bad OCD and constantly worry I have hopeless levels of brain damage lately. Anytime I don't feel an emotion, I freak out, like maybe the emotional parts of my brain were damaged and I'm partially lobotomized or something. I live with this fear all the time. Every few years or so the fear swaps to something else, like cancer or fear of being stalked online, etc. I'll logically know it makes zero sense, but I cannot stop obsessing with it. I don't even care about the issue at this point, because it's been 2 years of painful obsession with this issue, but somehow my brain wont stop.

It's just because I'm horribly depressed and don't have anything to focus on. I wish I had an IRL friend to get a drink with and pour out my emotions to.

I'm so frustrated with other people lately. I just feel total hopelessness. I am also trying hard to get an office job, and I feel miserable just thinking about it. I'm so sick of everything. I miss doing my old hobbies but the loneliness kills my motivation basically. I feel like doing art or anything is pointless if I have no real person to show it to and receive feedback.

No. 1521406

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i've accepted a hard truth about an art-related hobby of mine: it doesn't really matter how good you are at it, in the end. people are human. they want to be with their friends and will always favor someone interesting over you. in fact them liking that person will make their inferior work superior to yours.

knowing what i know now, no longer can i cope. i've lost. those years of improvement were for nothing: this won't bring me friends.

No. 1521415

>>1521401
>but I want to be loved. I want to..to be normal.
Anon it can come to you with time, but it can't be your main goal if you want to survive and get out of this state. I understand that on an emotional level, but you have to think about YOU, not about the hypothetical people who can love you and the societal expectations of being "normal" and achieving certain things at a certain age. There are people who were drug addicts until their early 30s and never went to college and then went to college and found a job etc. Yes, some of them died, but others survived. It's really scary how long your life can actually be, logicially speaking, you still have so much time to use. I know years of suffering seem like eternity, but you're not even half way through. I don't believe anyone from your family can understand you so don't even think about venting to them, retarded parents will never ever admit to their fuck ups, even though your fuckery is mostly their responsibility. I deeply believe that if someone as hopeless and suicidal as me could get better at 26-27, you can do it too. Making the first step is the hardest part. I felt like there was literally no area of my life I had any influence on. I didn't even understand simple things like, what I put inside my body impacts how my body functions, how it feels and looks, because I wasn't even able to identify with my body, I was zooned out of this world 99% of the time and yet still in so much real, physical pain. Now I can do simple dumb things like, idk, feeding ducks and feel the rays of the sun on my skin, and I can identify it with feeling nice, and I'm content and that moment. Before that I felt nothing even remotely close to "nice" or "good" or "warm". My perception could be altered and yours can be too. I'm sorry I talk so much about myself when responding to you, but I just want to show you it's possible to change the way you feel about things even though it felt impossible once. Now at first it's just BASIC things, like being able to survive, pay for your bills, eat healthy, feel positive emotions and feel less suicidal. Then something else can come, like a fulfilling hobby. And then who knows, maybe you can get closer to the people you choose yourself (not your shitty family), get friends etc. Even if it comes to you or me in the next 5 years, or even later? So what? At least you're giving yourself the chance. If you won't do anything, or just die, you will lose the chance forever.

No. 1521417

Idk if this is off topic but does anyone have advice for learning to get over thing faster? It's like, something hurts me and i can't not obsess with it for 10x longer than most people seem to.

No. 1521423

>>1521415
this is very nice and it really makes me feel a little hope. I'm going to save this so I can read it and everyones responses, I won't pretend ill make it through but it's nice to know someone understands it and i'm not so alone even if you know 1% of whats going on. I'm so happy and proud of you nona, and any other nona who has been through this. I actually feel you understand. I wish you the best in everything

No. 1521426

>>1521415
and my family isn't "bad", but we aren't good, we are good people who..who imo have went down a long line of abuse and bullshit from people we love. I cannot explain it all but I do truly think that my family isn't that bad, even if we all are deeply flawed. I love my mom and my siblings, and I'll admit yes our dynamic is not good at all. There's no excuse for some of the shit that has happened to me and my siblings because our parents, and it's still hard for me to wrap my mind around that because my mother is a single mother and even if I genuinely don't think she's ever really liked me and we've never had that mother daughter bond, I do think she loves me. And I do feel sometimes with single mothers, they..they do things and then you can't say anytthing because it's only them who cares/cared for you. Then i have siblings who also get involved if we have spats, it's a whole thing but..yeah. Thank you so much for listening, even venting helps

No. 1521427

>>1521345
I promise your friends won’t abandon you for being too weird when they already know and like you m. I used to feel this way, always feeling like an impostor, a complete alien around everyone, the only person in life with no manual to life. I was certain everyone pitied me and would figure me out or already couldn’t wait to get rid of me. Last year I finally got my autism diagnosis and you know what? Not only did my close friends I told react with total support and happiness for me, but I realize more than ever that I am loved, I am liked, and fuck it, I’m even really cool. It’s given me the confidence to go out in the world and make dozens of new friends, understanding that okay, I AM weird, but don’t I deserve to be proud of who I am? So I started facing the world brimming with pride instead of shame and my life has really changed from it. Anyone who doesn’t treat you right is a dipshit, they have their own issues that cause them to be mean, and you can and should cut them off and move on. But the world is always filled with more people who will appreciate you and your uniqueness and humor. Maybe you’re autistic, and finding that out or acting in ways that help you cope with your particular struggles of social differences and sensory sensitivities can make a huge positive difference. But if you aren’t, either way you still deserve to eventually be able to change your outlook to one of defiant pride, that you deserve to exist in the world and go where you want and talk to people regardless of being different. I still get comments from people about how my expressions are flat or my emotions are hard to understand or my interests are so unusual and so on, but now I know that’s just how I am, I don’t want to change, I feel almost smug and happy about it, and the right people like me anyway. And if no one liked me now I’d think “so you’re too close minded to understand me” and feel pride again, I won’t ever feel ashamed again. I tell you all this because I hope you can one day feel similarly, anon. You deserve to move through the world comfortably like everyone else.

No. 1521431

>>1521423
I also wish you the best and I believe you can do it, you will do it in your time.

No. 1521433

I think I miscarried two nights ago. I was still really early in the pregnancy, it didn't feel real yet. My Nigel was super excited; I'm a worrier, so I always take longer to warm up to change. I had been feeling just ambivalent and uncomfortable with all the changes happening to my body. It made me think I would be a terrible mother.
Then last night there was a ton of pain. Horrific cramping waking me out of a dead sleep and the dreadful feeling that my body rejected this kid before I could accept it mentally. I've been so tired all I could think to do was try to fall asleep again. And I've been flooded with regret and longing all day today. There's spotting, but not enough to indicate that I'm really miscarrying yet. My boobs don't hurt as much and there's no morning sickness.
Why am I so fucking contrary what is wrong with my damn brain? It's like I can't want anything until I've already lost it. And I'm just stuck in limbo until I know more. I have an ultrasound next week, so I don't see the point in going to an ER to hang around a bunch of fucked up people for 12 hours. Also, that would mean that I actually know, which could be devastating.
So I am doing my favorite fear response of freezing. I feel like my life is frozen until I know, and I really don't want to know if it's bad. I'm supposed to go into work and there's. A deadline coming up for a big job and I don't give two fucks about it right now.
Fuck.

No. 1521439

>>1521326
Maybe you could just offer to hold her indefinitely under the guise that it would help him. It's a moid, so if you just phrase it like you're doing it for your concern of him (the moid), and he can still visit the cat and stuff of course, he might relinquish her to you. They eat that shit up, usually.

No. 1521440

I miss having snack bars, trail mix, and peanut based candy. Gave it up because I kept getting itchy bumps around my chin and painful large forehead bumps within a few hours of consuming them. My mom warned that nuts give acne but this never comes to a proper head. It hurts, itches, and looks so ugly. Finding nut free breakfast bars is hard. Either way it doesn't matter if its walnut, peanut, pecan, almond they all react. All I wanted to try were the new fancy butters like pecan but it would be a terrible idea.

No. 1521445

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I honestly feel really jealous of pretty girls and imagine they have cute bfs and tons of cute guys asking them out etc but then I see their husband or bf and he usually looks like shit and it makes me feel less fomo. So, maybe I’m not missing out on much being born ugly.

No. 1521448

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>>1521445
Samefag but this is her. I’d say she’s very conventionally attractive but she dates uglier men then me. Makes me feel better.

No. 1521450

so glad my mom reminded me that my dad isn't some poor old man he's basically your average retarded scrote and the only reason he's helping me out now is because he can't really get out of it/feels guilt for all the evil shit he's done

i don't feel as bad as i once did about him letting me room. it's the least he could do atp

No. 1521451

>>1521445
those women sacrifice their chance at an attractive partner for financial stability i feel, or maybe they simply hope an ugly male wouldn't cheat.

No. 1521457

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Guys I am so fucking hot, I am skinny have big tits, good hips to waist ratio, nice face, and really long thick hair, I am an international student in this white ass school, I am so fucking inept, have no social life, get no male attention…..I just don't get it, i am so fucking awkward, and freeze whenever someone tries to talk to me, I pretend I don't know English and never take out my AirPods because I am sooo scared of people. I am alll alone in a country, my rich parents keep giving me money so I have no incentive to work so I just sit at home when I don't have to go to college, my life is literally slipping away……. I know I am hotter than too many girls, is it because I am not white????? I thought getting hot will solve all my problems but it has done nothing…..

No. 1521461

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my friend crushes roaches in his apartment with his hands because EW GROSS HATE THEM SO MUCH. same but i'm more than glad to let the critter get away for a later, fairer battle where i don't need to actually touch the fucker

No. 1521462

>>1521457
choking on my fucking pasta trying not to laugh at this shit kekkkkkkk

No. 1521463

>>1521457
is this a joke?

No. 1521464

>>1521445
The dick long and girthy, he's financially stable, and he's eating on that cat like he's starving. I think she's fine. Not everyone bases their partners around something so trivial.

No. 1521467

>>1521457
I'm autistic thus very confused by this post

No. 1521468

>>1521464
? And how would you know any of that?

No. 1521469

>>1521464
>big dick
>eats pussy

None of that matters to me if he’s ugly.

No. 1521472

>>1521464
Imagine touching an ugly man lmaoooo

No. 1521475

>>1521468
Do you guys really feel the need to turn every pretty woman you know into some retarded damsel incapable of making her own uninformed decisions? Why else would she be with a man that looked like that? If you're aware that all men are terrible and void of a human soul why does it matter if a woman picks a man for some other form of stability as opposed for choosing him based upon age or looks

No. 1521479

>>1521475
Fuck are you talking about? I'm just confused as to why you act like you know that guy, his financial status, or what their sex life is like lmao. You literally don't know them.

No. 1521480

>>1521475
>stability
Based off her tiktoks she lives in America, comes from a loving Italian family who takes care of her and lives at home with her mom and grandma in a big house. She doesn’t need to fuck ugly scrotes for money, she most likely genuinely loves him. I don’t believe most women who date ugly men are using them.

No. 1521483

>>1521463
HOW IS IT CONFUSING…..IMAGINE BEING HOT WITH THE SELF ESTEEM OF AN UGLY FEMCEL FOID…..THATS ME……PLUS THEN U R IN UNFAMILIAR TERRITORY PLEASE UNDERSTAND.

No. 1521484

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i wish there was a way to wear this sort of stuff without looking like a mass shooter or a military larper. i just want to wear tactical gear in a stylish way

No. 1521485

>>1521479
I dont, I am just mature enough to humanize women and don't decide that they're retards incapable of making the right decisions for themselves from a single tiktok. Some of you sound so one-dimensional and just talk in circles on here about real people like theyre stupid or need to be saved or somehow lack some special archane knowledge you allegedly have when they are the ones that are happy while youre the one whinging on lolcow.

No. 1521486

Has anyone ever seen a handsome man with a really ugly woman? I almost hate women who date ugly scrotes because they basically let them perpetuate the cycle
>durr women see more than just looks, they see deeper! we're better than men!
Maybe they should stop because the male sex would never do something like this for you and they would never see you and appreciate you as a human being and they would never want to be in a relationship with you if they were attractive and you were ugly.

No. 1521487

>>1521485
I didn't even agree with the OP post, you literally just sound crazy making things up about that woman's relationship and arguing against things I never even said kek. I can't argue with crazy lolcow posters anymore.

No. 1521488

>>1521487
No you're just autistic as fuck because I made a flippant joke about this random man and you're mad about it lol

No. 1521489

>>1521464
there are plenty of hot men out there who will do all this kek. statistically there must be
also he literally literally resembles a pig. probably snorts like one too yuck

No. 1521490

>>1521484
I think it's really nice, go for it nona! I always had a soft spot for military style clothing but even moreso now that it reminds me of my husbando.

No. 1521497

>>1521485
The funny thing is the ugly scrotes with money would rarely date ugly women and wouldnt matter how good her pussy is, how good she cooks and how nice she is

No. 1521499

I've said it before and I'll say it again, farmers have a reading comprehension level of 0 but a combative level of 1000.

No. 1521503

I am constantly reminded that few of you know how to interact with or perceive real people

No. 1521504

>>1521503
>real people
most of them are npcs

No. 1521508

>>1521503
I don't understand the whole real/normal people shit, since they are the ones who always chat in a way that they don't react or give attention to what other people say, but insted talk things as if they are just waiting for the other person to end talking already. It's always like that, they never talk in a organized way where they care to react properly to what the other person says. And yeah, those are the normal people.

No. 1521512

>>1521483
How is your self esteem bad if you just said that you are super hot? You are just in the wrong places and isolating yourself, so you are unable to go where there's people WHO WOULD LIKE YOU. ALSO, YOU DON'T EVEN TALK TO PEOPLE. SILLY CRAZY DUMBY DUMB NONNA.

No. 1521518

I know it's a completely valid form of coping for someone with sexual abuse, especially someone with childhood sexual abuse, but I feel fucking disgusting for the way I age regress. It makes me feel even dirtier and wrong, even though I don't do it in a sexual way and am disgusted by people who do, I can't help but feel like I'm on a similar level when I read about freaks like Shay even though, as I said, that is a completely different thing entirely. I don't even do it to baby-tier like some people, I just find it "safer" to surround myself with childish things/media especially in times of extreme mental distress. I hate that sexualizing of doing this is even a thing because I feel that everyone looks at me like some pedobaiter when it's the exact opposite and I'm only like this BECAUSE of pedos.

No. 1521519

>>1517826
Me, nonna. I remember thinking that it must have been impossible to be a working adult and "whatever happens, at least i can kill myself".

No. 1521533

>>1521325
I'm glad you are standing your ground and sticking to your beliefs. Even if you're the odd one out in your group of coworkers, it doesn't mean you're crazy. They're practically NPCs. I love when other nonas don't settle for less. You absolutely shouldn't settle for a guy like that. That raises red flags for me and many others here, I'm sure. If anything, maybe you can prod him with questions about that/the topic of prostitution to see what the fuck is going on in his mind. If only to cement everything in your mind. You'll be alright, and I hope you may find other like-minded women around you as well.

No. 1521542

nobody's ever had empathy for me, my life is a fucking joke and this is what I get after all my hard work nothingness and harassment. My entire life others have refused to see my side

No. 1521580

>>1521533
You guys always say "settle for less" about normal people in normal relationships you know nothing about like most of you aren't in relationships with younger autistic men you met on the internet.

No. 1521587

>>1521580
I agree with you that anons think their shitty Discord boyfriends are what all moids are like but anon should not be settling for a scrote who fucks prostitutes.

No. 1521604

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Saw my ex in his friend’s IG story wearing a shirt I gave him while we were dating. He never wore it while we were together and it’s related to my niche job. I’m trying not to read into it but I wonder if he misses me.

No. 1521605

>>1521604
Don't message him.

No. 1521608

>>1521605
Naw I’ve already tried since the BU and gotten shot down. I’m not gonna bother him again.

No. 1521612

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My cats have horrible food anxiety because their previous owners died from Covid unexpectedly & as a result they starved for a few days before the shelter picked them up. Which is fine y'know, I simply measure their portions and feed them four times a day so they don't shovel their entire meals into their stomachs in five seconds like some deathfat and then puke it up afterwards because "meow meow tiny stomach I'm a kitty cat".
What isn't cool with me is that THESE CATS HAVE BEEN WAKING ME UP FOR TWO YEARS EVERY DAY AT 6AM WHEN FOR FUCKS SAKE THEIR BREAKFAST WILL HAPPEN AT 8 AS IT ALWAYS DOES.
ITS BEEN TWO YEARS. THEYVE NEVER GOTTEN FOOD AT 6, NEVER!!!
And they don't just meow or something nononono they start DESTROYING the entire flat if I don't get up and stare angrily at them. My tiny baby siam learned how to open doors and cabinets and empty them completely, while also eating any rubber band I keep in the kitchen drawers. We got baby safety locks but now she just jumps from my drawer on me while sleeping like a cannonball OVER AND OVER AGAIN. My whole stomach is one big bruise because of her.
My big baby ordinary cat keeps dramatically puking up tiny amounts of stomach acid into my shoes (we got it checked at the vet early on, she literally only does this because she gets so anxious about potentially starving that she panic-vomits).
The clean up just isn't worth not getting up at six and sitting in the living room angrily watching them. And they don't do ANY of that as long as I just sit there and look at them occasionally, I've started browsing this fucking website for an hour every morning because what the fuck else would I do at 6AM. I don't have to go to work till 10.
I love them but Jesus fucking christ on a bicycle, this is how I imagine it is to have kids one day.

No. 1521614

The reality of my major's employment prospect is hitting me like a truck and now if I can travel back in time by four years and do it all over again I would have chosen something more lucrative like engineering. Plus, I'm starting to think that I'm really shit at this major and don't find it all that interesting. Four years of hard work and all for nothing. My future is bleak

No. 1521617

Just realized it turned from 1am to 3am thanks to the time change. Fuck this I'm mad.

No. 1521641

I am miserably and debilitatingly horny and i feel like my brain is short circuiting. I've been lying in bed for hours with a nonstop montage of sex acts with the woman i'm crushing on running through my brain at 100mph and i get so lightheaded just from imagining i feel like i'm gonna pass out. I want to be fixed like a fucking cat or something this is actually torture.

No. 1521644

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>>1521614
What are you majoring in? You could try to get a master's degree in another field. Check to see what master's degree will take your degree. I knew a bio major who got accepted in a audiology doctorate program with no prior classes. Also there's a cow (former cow?) that had a art history degree and got into a masters program for speech lanuage pathology. If you don't/can't go down that route, check to see what jobs will take your degree. Otherwise do you have in mind what major you'd like to pursue instead? Maybe you could set up a meeting with that major's guidance counselor and just ask questions. I'm just spit balling some ideas down. I know the future looks bad at the moment but I encourage you to stay positive.

No. 1521650

The crows at work are walking in the snow and I want to make little snow boots for then because their feet are tiny and small

No. 1521652

>>1521614
I know it's circumstantial but a masters can make you specialised in an area and open up more jobs. There's always options!

No. 1521660

my boyfriend told me that he didnt want to date me because i have never had sex, and it has been eating away at me for months. he legitimately doesn't care about sex, i assume a rare find, but without going into details his words insinuated that me never having had it is some sort of baggage he didn't want to deal with. we've gone through a lot since he said it and i know he loves me, cares for me, respects me, but i keep playing that conversation over in my head and feel like, what if all this is a lie and he is just with me because he doesn't want me to be upset if he breaks up with me. i wish i had someone to talk to about this and i hate that i'm a dumb fucking autist with no friends to turn to.

No. 1521661

I really hate that I can never be my authentic self around anybody on the internet without a fear of being witch-hunted. Even if I find people who seem remotely more similar to me, they always have at least one thing they disagree with me on. Everybody has such extreme radicalized views and, in itself that’s okay (depending on what views obviously), but it makes it impossible to be friends with anybody. If you don’t completely conform to whatever x group thinks then you could be at best cut off or at worst doxxed. I miss when the internet was a place where people could gather and talk about their interests instead of constant arguing and politics. I just feel so alone and I feel unacceptable. My views don’t fit in entirely with any given group since I like to be independent but I feel like I’m walking on eggshells literally everywhere I go. These polarized mindsets are starting to leak into the real world, too, and it’s just sad. Do normal people just not exist anymore??

No. 1521662

>>1521660
Obviously he does want to date you if he’s still with you. Clearly this is really bothering you and it sounds like he’s manipulating you in some way. Whether you have had sex or not would not concern him if he loved you. This sounds way too much like he’s trying to play some kind of mind game with you.

No. 1521683

>>1521580
nta but it's possible to be against discord/4chan/etc moids and moids who have sex with prostitutes at the same time. not everyone is either on one side or the other.

No. 1521692

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>>1521461
Hey nonny? Fuck you for using a cute pic of a cartoon cat to accompany your nasty vent. And if you’re SEEING roaches in your home, there are hundreds of not thousands of them teeming in all the dark spots of your home. Call fucking pest control omg how do people just live with dangerous pests like roaches and rodents, CALL A PROFESSIONAL this is disgusting and also roaches are terrible for your respiratory health, and if you have pets it’s bad for them as well.

No. 1521693

>>1521612
Awwww nonny I feel bad for you and I also feel bad for your poor traumatized kitty cats. They love you. It’s not just food they want, they want your company too, that’s why they don’t destroy the place when you’re up to stare at them.

No. 1521695

>>1521580
>normal people in normal relationships
Ah yes the classic scrote fucking prostitutes and giving STDs, including potentially cancerous HPV strains, to their partners and seeing women as objects. The classic heterosexual dynamic.
>you know nothing about them uwu
I know they fuck prostitutes/defend men who fuck prostitutes and I know facts about prostitution. That's enough to judge them morally.
I would put every scrote who fucks prostitutes and every normie woman who defends and enables them and allows them to have relationships, including my retarded coworkers, into a lime pit kek

No. 1521698

I keep trying to establish some kind of friendship with this group but I should probably just stop. It's been over a year and nothing has changed. I'm always excluded from one thing or another. They are all in other groups together with more interesting people and they meet up without me all the time. I think I only try so much because no one else has approached me like that. They are nice to me but they still end up making me feel out of place. It might have been easier to be friends if I could be around more, but they always meet when I'm working or sleeping because their schedules are so different. Sometimes I'm able to join them a few times in a row and it feels great and then they'll start talking about someone they all know but I don't or some club that I'm not part of. It's hopeless and I think I'm starting to resent them but I need to remind myself that they don't owe me anything. They were kind enough to include me but they have no reason to keep talking to someone who's never around. We don't share many interests and I'm not fun to talk to, I always catch myself repeating the same pointless phrases. The person I'm mad at is me for not being able to fit in more and I'm only so focused on them specifically because I don't have anyone else who will talk to me. It would be best to find another group and find people that want to spend time with me but I don't know how. So I'll stay alone for now I guess, I don't want to make anyone feel bad or guilty just because I'm like this

No. 1521712

everyone's expectations make me so anxious. i used to not care but now i have to because it affects my livelihood if theyre unsatisfied by my performance. i have to not make a single mistake and get lucky a few times in the next one year or so if i want to live comfortably afterwards though even then i will have more problems i took onto myself when i wasted away my years in depression. im still depressed as hell and i wonder if ill get taken over by my depression and stop getting out of my bed once more, which will inevitably ruin my life for good this time. i feel like it's a ticking bomb and the only thing i have to do is neglect my responsibility, even one task, one time. im about to get my period and normally i become very emotional and cry a lot during this time but i feel like i dont have time even for that now. or the energy. also one of my friends has been treating me so shitty but i dont even have the mental capacity to fix that yet.

No. 1521714

Does no one understand timezones? It's not that I don't want to hang out in calls, it's just fucking 4am and I'm sleeping. They go to sleep around 10 or 11 pm themselves, why do they think I would be awake at 2am? And when I do join in because I woke up in the middle of the night or need to pull an allnighter it's "Oh, isn't it super late for you?". Fuck you, just say you don't want me there and stop asking if you already know

No. 1521720

I've been super fed up lately, unable to silence bad thoughts, hurt people I love and I'm close to killing myself. I cannot afford therapy so I have to opt for the free option which, last time I went through with it, it was more related to practicing exercises to minimize anxiety. Nothing else. Even using some of them in day to day situations is hard. I'm so fucking tired, I feel so worthless nonnas. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired of it all and I want to end it asap.

No. 1521723

I hate the bus, it's always late when I take it and nobody in my family believes me until they take the bus with me. I'm cursed.

No. 1521725

my bf doesn't have any idea what it's like to live in an actual PHYSICALLY abusive household. he got mental and emotional, to a point, but the trifecta makes you all fucked up.
trying to explain this, I tried to pull this song up (that came out as I was a teenager and my parents were finally going through the divorce they dragged me and my older brother through (trying to make us choose sides and shit, so fucked up)) and there's a VIDEO for this song I NEVER SAW I feel like I've been backhanded
1. this song means so much to me 2. this fucker never said he did a video 3. I could have USED THIS HELP YOU FUCK
tl;dr aspie mad her #1 artist does something normal

reeeeeeee

No. 1521727

I spent the entire day replacing my desk yesterday (including re-organising my items and moving other furniture to make it fit and asking someone to help me get it downstairs)
Only to realise I hate how it looks.
Went from a shabby half broken faux antique desk with soul to a black gaming desk that is too big for my room.
I'm half tempted to just retrieve my old desk that I took completely apart and attempt to fix it

No. 1521728

I'm experiencing pure lust for a moid I met online. I kept sexting with him for weeks, which is usually something I'm not comfortable with. I think about getting fucked by this moid constantly and it's preventing me to focus. He lives in a country next to mine, so nothing is going to happen anyway. Fucking hate it, I feel like such a degen. The moid is a degenerate too, kept asking for more. I decided to cut him off because it was too much, too fast. But I'm still extremely horny. Kill me.

No. 1521747

>>1515548
Samefag. Said bf and I have been wanting to play games and have been looking at options of either buying a gaming laptop or a console.
I got really excited bc he said I could choose the laptop and I could use it for office work as well (my workplace only provides desktop pcs) and he would pay half of it. I've been wanting to have a laptop for a while but wasn't sure if I should buy a regular one and play games via a cloud service or a gaming one with a dedicated gpu and was really happy that this will finally be resolved.

My boyfriend yesterday calls me over saying that he has a 'surprise' and a 'solution' to my problem. I got ridiculously excited and got myself hyped up for a potential gift laptop. I even considered that maybe he wants to give me one of his Macbooks because I don't understand why he has multiple ones in the first place. I go to his place and he has a Nintendo Switch with multiple games and a Steam Deck on the table and he starts explaining that I could buy a regular office laptop for myself while both of us could use the consoles for gaming. He thought it over and didn't think that sharing a laptop would have been a good idea.
I feel conflicted because I understand his logic and this arrangement seems to make sense and he's very nice to let me borrow the consoles that he bought for himself but I couldn't help but feel disappointed again because I didn't receive anything again. At the same time I wonder if I'm being a materialistic bitch and feel guilty/ashamed of myself

No. 1521759

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>>1521727
Brought everything back in and ordered some contact paper
I feel guilty for even thinking about throwing him away…

No. 1521760

>>1521747
Dunno, if your guy has money to spend and he spends plenty of it on himself regularly, it's not unreasonable to expect a nice gift sometimes. Especially if you've been in a relationship for a while. I assume you occasionally do nice things for him (within your budget) too.

If I understood it right you end up having to spend more money on a laptop than the originally solution proposed by him and that sucks, I'd be kinda pissed.

No. 1521761

>>1521759
That must have been annoying but fr an annoying piece of furniture is such an eyesore, hope you can fix the desk nona

No. 1521767

>>1521727
An antique desk sounds wonderful, anon, could you perhaps find a similar one to the one that you had?

No. 1521769

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I’m so sad anons. I found a dog that looks for a family and my husband said we should consider him but now he says the price is too high. I know we kind of have the money to get him, my husband just doesn’t want to make an unsmart decision without having a longterm project this year. So i got my hopes all hyped up and now I just want to cry.

No. 1521773

>>1521769
>we kind of have the money
I will have to side with your husband on this one, sorry nonny. You have to have your finances in order to take good care of an animal. I think it’s very responsible to wait until your situation is stable enough for a pet (like until he has a project on the lookout for work (?).

No. 1521774

>>1521773
Also sorry if I sounded mean, I know it must hurt to get your hopes up and not see them fulfilled

No. 1521777

>>1521769
Please adopt. There are many wonderful, loving dogs in the shelter. You'd be saving a life

No. 1521778

My period ruined my day AGAIN I wish I could turn that shit on and off…

No. 1521782

>>1521773
I know I also understand him. He might geg a project next week actually but he said he won’t even go for it then because he doesn’t know if it’s lasting. It’s supposed to be long term though. I just have to come to terms with it.

No. 1521784

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I'm sad and angry at myself. I can't stop myself from buying things. For the longest time I had absolutely no money and now that I have some, I'm terrible at controlling myself. I always buy things. They are nice things that I use but I feel like it's endless. I buy things to make myself happy. I'm buying the lifestyle of the person that I want to be but I'm not living the life. I have so many cute outfits but I always wear the same shit because I'm lazy but I want to look cute. What the heck is wrong with me?

No. 1521785

>>1521784
Nona I just read this and it’s like I wrote it myself. It’s 100% how I shop and the ideas behind it kek currently I’m in a bad state where I have several shopping carts open and s long long wishlist. I impulsively bought some silly shit from amazon japan the other night. I don’t think I grew up poor but I blame my parents for not giving me pocket money.

No. 1521790

>>1521784
Sadly relatable

No. 1521792

>>1521747
He’s using you as a place holder gf until he gets his finances and career stable. You are going to get dumped, be prepared.

No. 1521793

>>1521769
No sympathy for people who refuse to adopt just because they HAVE to have an 8 week old designer breed dog.

No. 1521794

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Why do I have to wait over 6 months to get a fucking therapist and if the one wouldn't work out, I would have to wait again for months. And if I'm lucky and have moved to another city by then, the waiting time will be for nothing. I can't afford paying for one myself but after having mental health issues since my early childhood it would be nice to finally have someone to just tell every bullshit thought without feeling guilty for bothering them because it's their job and maybe in the end work through some stuff. And again, money would solve that problem and again, I don't have money, I'm just so tired of living like this no, I won't kill myself, I fought too hard to end it now

No. 1521797

>>1521777
>>1521793
Fuck you adoption anons. We have an adopted dog already and he was an absolute pain in the ass and it took a lot of nerves to get him right. This dog needs a family too as he won’t be kept by the breeder. And I’m not a burger so animals are not killed here.

No. 1521800

>>1521792
He's emotionally codependent and told me multiple times that he's afraid of being abandoned, so I don't think so

No. 1521802

>>1521800
>emotionally codependent
Being emotionally codependent doesn’t mean he’s codependent on you particularly. When he has money he can attach himself to a woman he actually wants.

No. 1521806

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I had a dinner with two female colleagues and the owner of the restaurant was flirting a little bit with them and he basically didn't talk to me or even looked at me. I guess I'm ugly. I always thought I was more attractive than one of them, she has thin lips, a very round face and a double chin, I thought those traits weren't considered attractive. Maybe I'm being petty but he treated me like I didn't exist and it just felt uncomfortable seeing him giving them attention and not even acknowledge me. Maybe it's because they had make up and I didn't? Idk I never experienced that because I rarely go out, but I feel even worse about myself than before. I feel invisible at work, I have to feel invisible even at a damn table in a restaurant when the owner says nice things to the two women I came with but doesn't talk or even look at me while I sit right across the table. People used to tell me I'm pretty, but maybe I'm not anymore, maybe I already look old, maybe I don't seem approachable, I don't know. I just feel like shit, invisible like it has always been for the past 2 years. I don't feel like going out with them again

No. 1521807

>>1521806
You should definitely go out more.

No. 1521808

>>1521806
I can relate anon. I was always overlooked and usually my girlfriends got male attention. It gave me low self esteem for the longest time. We just have to realize that male attention is not desirable and not worth thinking bad about other women just because some horny ol dude. I’m sure you looked really pretty and cute!

No. 1521814

>>1521806
This is one of the reasons I don’t go out with friends. I am a average looking black woman so if I’m out with anyone white and skinny I’m going to get ignored. The only time I don’t get ignored is if the girl is fatter than me. I wish friends could understand this is a racial problem but in their head they probably just think they are prettier than me and I’m a loser kek

No. 1521819

>>1521728
How did you meet an online moid like this? I'm desperate for male attention and I miss the days when I sexted with my ex

No. 1521824

>>1521819
Nta but just go on tinder. Most of them are overly sexual.

No. 1521825

>>1521807
Why? To feel even more shitty?

No. 1521827

>>1521814
Well in my case we were all white, two of us are thin and the more chubby girl with double chin got attention, the other girl too but I didn't, like how am I not supposed to feel ugly kek. I even look for posts about similar experiences on the internet, and some guys reply that sometimes men don't approach the attractive girls and just go for those who seem easily approachable and easy going even if they're less attractive, sounds like a nice cope lol

No. 1521828

>>1515548
If a guy won't pay for you, he doesn't love you. Sorry sis. Before my boyfriend and I moved into together, he lived in a third-world country with shit wages and he still went out of his way to save up and buy me gifts and necessary things to improve my life. And he was well aware I made way more than him but he wanted to make me happy anyway (since at the time, I was stingy about getting myself anything). I don't think you should stay with your bf, he clearly sees you as the practice gf before he finds someone he wants to commit to.

No. 1521840

>>1521819
Nta but just go on tinder. Most of them are overly sexual.

No. 1521842

>>1521827
I think the problem with a lot of women is they can’t understand they won’t always be the center of attention. Sometimes a guy might like you and not your friend. I can only understand getting mad if your friend got more attention if you never got male attention but it’s so annoying having to hear women whine about the one time they didn’t get attention.

No. 1521843

>>1521842
Except I said I always feel invisible, including my work, it's not just about male-female contact, it was just another situation that fits the bill and makes me feel even worse about myself

No. 1521849

>>1521824
>>1521840
I don't wanna post my selfies tho…

No. 1521852

>>1521849
You really don’t even need to. Most of them are so desperate they will match with you anyway with no pictures.

No. 1521868

>>1521840
"just go on tinder"
leave this site, hellspawn. that's the worst advice you could give to a woman on a women's imageboard.
do NOT download tinder nona >>1521819 I repeat do NOT you will get murdered, raped or heartbroken. in that order.

No. 1521870

>>1521868
>you will get raped, murdered or heart broken

Unlikely if all you are looking for is sex. Anon said she wanted to sext guys and plenty of guys on tinder will sext with women and be ok with never meeting them.

No. 1521872

>>1521824
>>1521870
Not that anon but wrong. I've tried sexting or meeting up with about 20 men this week, no takers. I even sent selfies. NO TAKERS!

No. 1521873

>>1521870
okay scrote
also any woman worth anything wouldn't put herself up for unpaid auction for moids. disgustang
get some respect for yourself jfc

No. 1521874

>>1521819
It's another artist on twitter lol, yeah, I know

Honestly I wouldn't advise you dating apps, especially not tinder. At least this moid doesn't live in my city and can't stalk me irl. Also it seems that moids push you to meet you (to fuck you) on dating apps, which doesn't really build up the sexual tension. I'm sure you'll feel disappointed.

No. 1521880

>>1521873
I’m not a scrote but anon did say all she wanted was to sext. She didn’t say she wanted to meet them and get married.
>>1521872
Oh I’ve been on tinder and all I’m getting is tons of men trying to have sex and sext even though I don’t even want it. I’d like to have an actual conversation first but they go right into sex talk and I find sexting/dirty talk to be cringe.

No. 1521881

>>1521868
>You will get murdered, raped, or heartbroken

Some of you sound anxious

No. 1521882

>>1521806
Male attention is half arbitrary regardless of looks and half based on if they think they have a shot, part of why they talk about liking young girls (who they think are automatically more carefree and loose due to naivety) and blondes (they also associate blonde hair with being more fun loving and open, also a dumb idea). They definitely assume certain traits like hair and makeup mean someone is approachable. So yeah, they’re just going off stereotypes like them wearing makeup and you weren’t, maybe your body language too; it definitely has not much to do with your actual beauty compared to theirs.

No. 1521883

Writing this fake vent so these retards can stop infighting. I think there should always be at least 1 opressed group bare minimum

No. 1521884

>>1521880
Samefag and if you want guys to actually meet you do not message guys first. Only go for the guys who message you first, those are the ones who are dtf.

No. 1521888

>>1521884
>if you want guys to actually meet you do not message guys first. Only go for the guys who message you first, those are the ones who are dtf.
Oh so zero

No. 1521889

>>1521612
I have a cat who behaves similarly, very loud and destructive and my only solution was due to that I luckily have a two bedroom apartment. I completely babyproofed the other room so that she’s 100% safe in it and I shut her in at night and then wear earplugs to bed so she can’t wake me. She’s so badly behaved no matter what other solutions I desperately tried that I think she will need a gay baby jail for her whole life.

No. 1521890

>>1521883
That group should be dentists

No. 1521893

>>1521888
Oh damn I might have an easier time finding men who want to have sex on tinder because I’m attracted to anyone skinny, white and twink looking so my standards are pretty low. If you have higher standards you might have a harder time.

No. 1521899

>>1521893
I think you have a hormone imbalance girl I think any woman with this type is experiencing something wrong with their thyroid levels or some shit because why are you lusting after the weakest link gas station attendee

No. 1521901

>>1521612
Cats in nature hunt at dusk and dawn, so it's best to have their feeding times as close to that as possible. It's just their natural instinct driving them to look for food at that time. This is also why at dawn and dusk cats are the most active and will run around and make a mess - it's their hunting time. You can rederect this with play.
My rescue cat will also sometimes wake me up at 6am and demand food (did this just yesterday) even though I've never fed it at that time and never will. Just sometimes the instinct overrides the feeding habit/schedule I set up.

No. 1521905

>>1521899
Not really lust I just find them the least threatening and they usually are

No. 1521908

my asshole has been really itchy and weirdly kind of open for the past couple of days. i don't have a hand mirror and i couldn't get a good picture with my phone so idk what's up.

No. 1521916

>>1521908
S-shayna? Is that you?

No. 1521923

I smile when I am in an uncomfortable situation (like talking to a stranger) and moids always take it as a sign I am into them and start pestering, making it worse. I can't fucking control it, makes me wanna wear a head burka and sunglasses ffs.

No. 1521924

>>1521806
Stop caring about men who want to fuck your colleagues. Male attention is worthless.

>>1521905
Learn to love yourself and to masturbate. Men are men. They are all the same.

No. 1521931

>>1521923
Same, I also laugh when I shouldn't

No. 1521936

>>1521806
Get some self-respect. Moid attention isn't worth you having a friendship breakup over.

No. 1521937

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No. 1521939

>>1521931
This shit got me an F in Discipline in highschool once, the school Director thought I was laughing at her when she was chastising me for being late and holding up the entire bus on a trip. I was just being uncomfortable and I giggle when I'm uncomfortable…

No. 1521950

>>1521924
Yeah they are the same but it’s fun to cuddle up with a cute one now and then. Masturbating can’t make up for that.

No. 1521952

>>1521936
They aren't my friends and I could never truly bond with them because they constantly make excuses for shitty scrotes

No. 1521962

>>1521952
Nta you probably feel more like shit because your friends are pick mes who would love all the attention they are getting in front of your face and secretly judge you for not getting attention as well. I get where you’re coming from, sometimes being friends with pick mes can make the lack of male attention worse!

No. 1521966

you all need to hear this: do not put yourself up for the Pussy Auction that is tinder. next you will start an onlyfans or some shit.
you're worth more. being alone is beter than getting run through by a bunch of coomers.

No. 1521968

It's been six years, six fucking years and I'm still thinking about that one woman that I met.
I never felt anything like that, we looked at each other and we just knew.
I wish I could find her somehow. I'm gonna fucking pay for some ritual at this stage kek.
But seriously, all these years and I still think about her.

No. 1521969

>>1521966
I’ve been using tinder for a decade and I have no desire to start an onlyfans. I have moved on to OkCupid though because the men on tinder are really annoying.

No. 1521970

>>1521962
Damn you're probably right anon

No. 1521974

>>1521969
Damn, a decade? What's your main motivation to be using it for so long? I bet you have a lot of interesting stories.
(I hope I don't sound sarcastic, I'm genuinely interested, there's so much insight you must have after such a long time)

No. 1521977

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I live with my parents because there's nowhere else, no money, and I really do love them underneath everything but:
>Paranoia ingrained into me by parents, real fear of men came with experience and realizing the truth about them
>No car or transportation, no job
>Local park sucks, poor and drunk men walking around all day/sleeping in the park, loose pitbulls and soccer tards
>Only close "friends" are loser males I stick around to talk about games/tech with and get "human" interaction and free things
>2 female almost-friends not close enough to ask to hang out yet
>Stuck in house most of the time with sister's kids, toys everywhere,movies blasting, kid is 6 years old and doesn't know how to write ABC's, lets male kid get away with stuff
>Inflation raising prices of rent,houses, simple food, everything
>Discouraged from even walking a block away, encouraged to focus only on school
>Always asked why I don't go out with friends or have a social life, why I'm inside room all day
>Try to bring family together and do things "We're too tired" is the standard response
>Send mother "Black Sheep" definition because it fits how I've seen my situation for the past 5+ years
>"No one sees you that way ON PURPOSE honey" standard blaming me
Looking back at vents through the years and realizing shit in the little 3 months this year, I've really given up on us having any real connections ever. I've already made a layout on what I'd need to live in a car, best lowprice cars for travel, motels and places that let you shower, what weapons I can get legally, diners, exercise routines to get stronger, durable clothes, etc. Even if I never truly overcome fear I'm working towards at least having weekends away from everyone and everything alone by myself in my car. For now I have to keep getting my education, making connections with other women, women's groups, all-female/women's lands, build my self-confidence up even more. I've already stopped buying useless clutter and figurines and sold old clothes, wish me luck!

No. 1521993

>>1521936
They don't even sound like real friends honestly. Any time moids have tried to flirt with me or my friends we just ignore them and go back to what we're doing. Her friends ignoring her for some random scrote is cringe.

No. 1521996

>>1521974
I think I’ve learned a lot about men and how to irritate them. I definitely don’t know how to keep a man but I do know how to truly get under their skin. I used to use tinder because I’m anti social and I don’t leave the house but for women who do use tinder this is some advice I’d give…

>if he doesn’t text you first within 24 hours of your first date, block him. Even if he doesn’t like you 95% of the time he’s going to try to figure out a way to contact you because his ego has been bruised. Use Snapchat so that he knows he’s been blocked.

>never argue or show any kind of emotion. Eventually he’s going to get frustrated with you leaving him on read etc and he’s going to blow up and become emotional
>don’t get attached just from sex. Most men think once you have sex with them that’s their pass to start treating you like shit because they assume all women get attached from sex
>be prepared to block men and leave them at any moment. Never get attached.

No. 1522015

>>1521797
you're dumb as shit. hopefully the dog dies of a debilitating inbred disease.

No. 1522023

My mom surrendered her dog to the humane society before going on a trip and re-adopted the dog when she came back. Apparently she never got the dog spayed or vaccinated because she was pleasantly surprised to see that they did it upon surrender and it was free. Sometimes I feel guilty for not talking to her but then things like this remind me why

No. 1522025

>>1522023
Samefag to add she knew about boarding but thought it was too expensive

No. 1522027

My ID card is expired and now I need a new one and I need to get pictures for that and then I have to leave the house to go to the customer service to apply for said ID and then I have to wait until I can collect the ID and have to leave the house again and go to the customer service again. Why does it have to be so complicated, why can't I just do that stuff online and only leave the house to collect that stupid thing. At least I'm also getting my passport then and can finally travel overseas.

No. 1522030

>>1522025
hopefully the next time she does that the dog finds a home with better people

No. 1522091

>>1521797
You're right, a lot of people who are in no way fit to handle a problem dog from a shelter subscribe to that "oh poor shelter doggo i must help it it will love me forever" and then both them and the dog have a shitty life because they don't know how to manage animal's trauma, and surprise surprise, just adopting it won't magically make it a subservient, forever grateful pet. If you know for a fact you can't handle any potential behavioral issues that come with an animal with abandonment history it's the most responsible choice to buy a puppy from a legitimate breeder

No. 1522149

>>1521614
computer science?

No. 1522166

>>1521404
>>1521427
Thank you both so much. I freaked out after posting that and tried to delete it thinking that people would make fun of me, but your responses are so lovely that I’m now really glad I kept it up. I’m fortunate enough to have been able to find some friends that accept me for who I am, but I’m still deeply aware of the fact that most people think I’m a bit odd, which stresses me out sometimes. Even some of the people who do accept me for the way I am have said to my face that I seem autistic (some of them are also probably autistic too so it isn’t like they’re judging me, they’ve just pointed it out. )I don’t dislike myself — I generally really like who I am when I’m alone (I have a great time chatting to myself kek) — but when I have to interact with others I find myself realising that I struggle to interact with other people in the same way that most people do. I think I’ll look into a diagnosis at some point and try and get an answer. It would really ease my mind. My biggest barrier is that I still live with my parents (I’m in college, young adult) and I know that they would be very hostile to me doing this. I think I brought it up with my mother once when I was about 15 and she very clearly told me that there was no way I could possibly be autistic, that “everyone is a little bit autistic” and any traits I thought I had were things most people experienced without being on the spectrum. I might see if I can access a counsellor through my college who could point me in the right direction. But anyway — thank both of you so much again. Your replies honestly made me a bit emotional, I wasn’t expecting people to be so nice to me. I hope you both have a lovely day (or evening)!

No. 1522175

I dated a guy for a while but it didn't work out, he had certain red flags and I grew distant because of that, but I still tried to be friendly, he said I can always ask him for help etc. But at the same time he was whining about me not giving him any signs I actually cared for him blah blah (well maybe I would if he gave me more reasons to trust him, like not showing tendencies to aggression during sex etc.) A few weeks ago, right before my birthday, he told me not to sleep till 0:00 because he wanted to call me exactly at 0:00 to make wishes, I didn't plan on staying awake till 0:00 just so he could call me but I didn't sleep anyway and he indeed called me. Today is his birthday but he made a party yesterday, he didn't invite me, probably because he thought I wouldn't want to come anyway since he invited me for christmas to meet his friends last time and I rejected it because I didn't want to spend time with a bunch of LSD taking pot smoking people I never met before. So yesterday I didn't call him because I didn't want to call during their party and formally his birthday is today anyway. So I called him now (it's evening already) and he rejected my phonecall. I don't get it. Is he angry because I didn't call him at fucking 0:00 like he did with me, or what? Like seriously, what should I do? Try to text him and ask what's up? I feel like I did something bad even though I don't think I actually did? Is he angry because I didn't call him earlier? Idk.

No. 1522182

>>1522175
just stop communicating with him completely

No. 1522183

>>1522175
It seems like you aren’t really interested in him but you’re trying to force yourself

No. 1522184

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I get offended when people ask me about how my day went because I hate opening up and it's none of their business but also feel hurt when they don't because it makes me feel unimportant and ignored. Fuck me I guess

No. 1522187

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I wish I could wear the kind of clothes I like but I live in America and I don’t feel like being stared at and bothered all day

No. 1522188

>>1522184
When people ask you about your day they aren’t looking for a genuine response. They expect you to say “I’m doing great” and tell them something mundane like that you ate.

No. 1522190

>>1522183
I just wanted to be fair and make wish him happy birthday because he called me on my birthday, that's it. We work at the same place, although different departments, and we're definitely going to see each other tomorrow and I didn't want it to be awkward

No. 1522191

>>1522190
He wished you happy birthday because he likes you romantically or sexually, not to be friendly. Just lie and say you have a bf or you’ve discovered you’re a lesbian/asexual so he will leave you alone and not get you fired.

No. 1522192

>>1522187
if you're in an urban area people don't really care. you might get some stares but mostly compliments if there is any interaction in regards to your outfit. I don't know about less populated areas. probably like Germany where you get stared at and thought of as a weirdo.
my style is very varied and includes this, I grew up hiding in jeans and tshirts, hoodies, a couple years ago I started wearing whatever I wanted and I feel so much better about myself. my worry about being gawked at went away. in fact I look forward to the old ladies giving me compliments. i feel like a different person when I dressing what I like and what makes me feel good in the mirror. you can always try it out anon! if you like it, it doesn't matter about anyone else, you'll probably stop worried about being noticed pretty quickly i understand it's not for everyone though.

No. 1522195

>>1522192
The only place I’d feel comfortable dressing like that is japan because they really didn’t give a shit what I had on. I live in Ohio so I know I’d get fucked with.

No. 1522200

>>1522187
even in japan people don't wear that kind of clothes

No. 1522201

>>1522200
>even in japan people don't wear that kind of clothes

Yes they do. I’ve seen it with my own eyes.

No. 1522202

>>1522187
aside from the kink gear this looks pretty normie to me. A pretty shirt and skirt isnt out of the ordinary for girls to wear. I lived in an area where all the girls and women wore basic jeans and beige sweaters while I used to wear clothes like that and no one commented on it. So even though I dressed differently than others it didn't bring any attention to me since clothes like this uses basic clothing items, but coords them in a pseudo formal style. The only thing I can imagine that would bring attention is the kink gear (as I already mentioned) and the hairstyles.
Just wear what you like anon without worrying about what other people might say. If it can cheer you up I will say that the few occasions I got comments about my clothes it was compliments from other girls who said that they liked how girly and cute I looked

No. 1522204

>>1522201
maybe in tokyo but that's all

No. 1522206

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>>1522204
That’s where I was. There were a lot of girls wearing cute clothes like pic related.
>>1522202
I live in a majority African American area where wearing anything other than jeans and a tshirt or fashion nova will get you comments. People comment on my clothes all the time just because they aren’t tight. Plus there’s something about living in America where no one’s really dressed up so I feel less motivated to bother. Maybe one day if I get to move to Tokyo or something I’ll wear what I like.

No. 1522208

>>1522187
Fuck what people say, I've seen how Americans are usually dressed and it's dreadful, most people shouldn't even be making any sort of comments about anyone.

No. 1522209

>>1522206
There are girls who wear this stuff, of course, but it's not popular. Mostly jirai bitches wear stuff like >>1522187
And this >>1522206 is more normie stuff, they wear it but it depends on age, over 20 wear more mature clothes.

No. 1522214

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>>1522209
Not everyone wears it but I saw a lot of women wearing and it’s a lot to me because in America I see no one wearing it. Even clothes like pic related that would be considered basic in Tokyo would get me rude comments and stared at where I live. Like people saying I’m dressed old or I look like I’m going to church kek

No. 1522216

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>>1522208
Pretty much something hideous like this is what the average woman in my area would be wearing

No. 1522217

>>1522195
c'mon anonnie, step out your comfort zone. also Japan isn't some last bastion of expression of style. look at the history of punk. you just gotta stop caring if you wanna do anything you want to do.

No. 1522219

>>1522190
it's clear to me he still wants you in a sexual manner and is mad he's not getting the same attention he thinks you should be giving him. cut it off, be cordial but stop being friendly with him.

No. 1522221

>>1522208
when i started dressing in clothing that wasn't jeans and t-shirt, i would get comments every day asking where i was from or if i was an artist, because i was standing out.
the fucking "athleisure" cults have a chokehold on the country.

No. 1522238

>>1522187
i wear unmistakable j-fashion and i live in north africa. though i'm asian so i wonder if i get half a pass for that because i say this with the utmost honesty that i have actually gotten stopped to get complimented on my outfits irl, by girls of course. that's the best part about having the style. of course i get stares comments and even plain harassment but if you're going to choose to stray from the norm then you can't expect people not to stare. normies are cunts and they're going to be cunts to those who aren't perfectly like them. i know i'm basically saying to suck it up but it's really the way it is for anything "irregular" whether it's internal or external, and fashion is something you choose

No. 1522239

>>1522216
Most of the women in my area are fat boomers who wear clothes several sizes too small or wear bathing suits outside of the pool or river. American fashion is horrible, especially waterside boomer fashion.
Like I'm fat myself, but it's very hard to fuck up what you wear. Brightly colored leggings that show off curves and clothes too small are the two instant fails for me.
So, >>1522214 , those are very cute dresses! I'm sorry everyone's so cruel to you nonna.

No. 1522242

>>1522175
Anon, don't overthink it. His bd is today, you've called and it's obvious why, he could've called you later if he couldn't talk for some reason, and if he's pissed he's weird af. From what you told, he's pretty bad with boundaries (thinks he's more important to you than he actually is and should be) so he might've had certain expectations and he might be angry, but he has no good reason to be and it's not your problem. If you see him at work, just wish him belated bd and mention the failed call if you want. He didn't even do anything special to you on your birthday, I'd say it's even the opposite - why the fuck do you have to stay up late to wait for his call and why should his call be so important. The guy doesn't know his place.

No. 1522258

>>1520795
I feel like there have to be CBT books with exercises that might help to analyze feelings and thoughts preventing you from doing something new and probably overcome them too (for example, if you write down your expectations and fears and then actually try a thing and compare reality with those expectations)

No. 1522298

>>1522187
As long as you style yourself accordingly, I doubt anyone will give you trouble. I regularly wear jfashion when I go out, and I've only ever gotten complimented on it by other girls and women. No man ever approached me. I feel like dressing in this sort of girly style is "safe" and keeps you away from any harassment, as odd as that may sound. At the end of the day, people are going about their lives and are focused on themselves.

No. 1522301

My coworker a perfectly nice guy but he loudly plays sports/commentary on his phone at work, sometimes literally all shift, and it seriously makes me want to scream at him. I just want peace and quiet. Please. I fucking hate being hypersensitive to sounds that other people don’t seem to care about, it’s a special hell it’s especially triggering bc growing up if I ever complained about sounds I got yelled at for ‘being negative’ which, amazingly, didn’t help

No. 1522310

Women who date men 5+ years older than them but think it’s creepy to date men 5+ years younger genuinely confuse me. Like you would think you or another woman is a creepy pedophile but you don’t think your bf or husband is creepy?

No. 1522313

I keep having dreams lately where everyone hates me and wants me to suffer. I’ve never cut myself but in my dreams I’m doing it regularly and people will laugh and make fun of my cries for help or even try to help me harm myself. It’s come to the point where my family members in my dreams are telling me how worthless I am and I wake up wanting to kill myself. My meds don’t seem to be working like they use to. I use to take meds to keep nightmares away but the meds fucked with my waking life so bad I had to stop taking them. I know everyone I dream about doesn’t actually feel the way they tell me in my dreams but it’s like an inner demon is using exactly what I fear most to try to make me end my life. I am so tired of crying all the fucking time, the dreams turned nightmares are egging on my mental illness like woah.

No. 1522317

Not a day goes by that I don't think of my ex
I miss her
I miss what we had before
Wish I wasn't such a retarded bpdchan mess and screwed up everything

No. 1522319

>>1522310
i agree. my boyfriend is five years younger than myself, and see people online saying how weird that is, yet in the same breath talk about how they had a 30yo boyfriend at 19… complete lack of self awareness

No. 1522323

I hate having a bitter/jealous personality. Whenever I hear about other people's achievements or talents, I really want to feel excited for them like a normal person, but instead I just immediately start making selfish comparisons and feel a mix of resentment and self-loathing for not being good at anything or ever having achieved anything myself. I can't stand interacting with anyone because of this, I always end up feeling miserable and irritated around people even when they're friendly and haven't done anything wrong at all (because when someone is nice to me I just get reminded that I'm an asshole and then feel bitter and resentful about that kek).

No. 1522371

>>1522206
Jirai is so fucking boring? Always the same shape, colors, and details. The state of jfash.

No. 1522397

>>1522323
You are not alone, nonna. It's hard because it doesn't matter how things go; we always get out of the interaction feeling like shit.

I compare myself to everyone, and desire to be better than everyone, while at the same time finding myself superior than everyone. Everytime i see something that someone did, i only care about the fact that i'm better. Someone being better than me also doesn't make me sad because then i can use this person as a guide to get better. I don't even know if i truly feel bad about it, since i feel a constant euphoria from being so much better than everyone. I know rationally that i'm NOT better than everyone, not in a objective way. It's bad, though, that i don't have a core personality and my main goal is to be better than someone or make something better than the original version.

No. 1522406

>>1522187
In Brazil some people dress in a much, much different way (in a tropical, poor country) and still keep living normally and seemingly unbothered. I'm planning to make a more mori kei wardrobe and i live in Brazil, i don't believe it's so bad. You say America but i don't understand exactly where you are referring to, is it USA?

No. 1522409

>>1522371
I find it so uninspiring. The whole "crazy girl", "kinda yandere" thing about it seems so male-gazey. I hate that japan has gone from gyaru and lolita to that.

No. 1522420

>>1522406
America = United States to every country outside south america

No. 1522470

>>1522317
I'm feeling this too nonna. Fuck I wish I could go back in time.

No. 1522503

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My boomer father sperged about me joking about a shitty proposed state bill. He's the one who taught me that everything in life is a fucking joke, we even watched a comedy special together recently, and now he's getting offended I satirized a current political event.

Then he starts howling about fascism and nazis and how apathetic my generation is and blah blah blah. I'm pretty lefty but even that made me grind my teeth. so the neoliberal boomer who doesn't really care for socialized healthcare when his daughter is currently uninsured, unmedicated, and is suffering because of that, is sperging about nazis. How is it my fault that the world is in its shitty current state and that I try and lighten it up a bit?

My old man literally socialized me to joke about dark subjects. It doesn't mean I don't care about the oppressive reality of the issue. It's like he just wants something to rage at for no reason.

No. 1522533

I'm going to keep myself either via being fat or by my own hands if I don't get help. I need to talk to someone. I'm going fucking crazy. Wish me luck nonas. I have so much anxiety and rightful self hate towards myself but I have to start trying or I will die. It's almost been almost 10 years. I've gained so much weight my skin is horrible and I'm a shitty person but I can start today. I'm going to make some calls to see of I can get a therapist maybe even attempt SSI.

No. 1522538

just sent a dreaded email asking if im still in a project after i couldnt finish my work on time. im so nervous. if the leader ignores me i might die. i will throw up if i dont get a response soon. even if its a negative response i want to get it quick so i can stop feeling on the edge and start feeling sad about it.

No. 1522541

>>1522538
almost right after i wrote this i got the reply kek he was so fast and i didn't get kicked out. im so happy right now i should manifest by complaining on this thread more

No. 1522561

Sorry if this is the wrong thread for this. I looked through /g/ but didnt see anything too related. It's pretty much a vent but also me having a question about what happened to me because im confused about it.
If men basically lie to you, create a whole new persona, and fabricate their past to get into a relationship and have sex with you, what is that exactly? I've had that happen to me twice within the past 2 years and any memory of me doing anything physical with those people makes my skin crawl and I get really upset. Basically being told, "You wouldn't have been with me or done those things with me if i was honest".
I was lied to every single day by two men, one after the other, every day for a year each. They made me feel like I was deranged and crazy. I became so paranoid because I had a gut feeling I was being lied to in some way. I vividly remember feeling so panicked to the point where I told one of these guys, "I don't really feel like having sex for a while. I don't really feel well mentally". And he got so angry with me and said that was a necessity for him.
I was in a horrible, really fragile place when I met both of these guys. I was too open and obviously unwell mentally from prior trauma. And they took advantage of that.

No. 1522565

>>1522561
>said that was a necessity for him.
men are weak, they need to put dick into a hole just to function normally kek.
>I was in a horrible, really fragile place when I met both of these guys. I was too open and obviously unwell mentally from prior trauma. And they took advantage of that.
Sorry to hear that. I hope you heal youself mentally before jumping into relationship again. Make a good relationship with yourself a priority.

No. 1522566

I woke up with heart palpitations again, idk why do they keep happening lately

No. 1522568

>>1521977
Good luck anon.

No. 1522572

Kitten season again. I can't have another stray start popping out babies in my backyard, I really can't and there isn't a shelter in this state that isn't filled to the gills with abandoned animals. Hope they'll get the hint and move on when my brother stops fucking feeding the little bastards

No. 1522579

>>1522323
>>1522397
Vulnerable narcissism, it's more common than you think

No. 1522581

I’ll expose my retarded libfem tendencies but whatever. I fucked an old hookup for the first time in a year and he told me my legs looked thicker. Even though that coombrain was trying to compliment me and I know that I lost weight, I feel disheartened kek

No. 1522583

>>1522206
>there’s something about living in America where no one’s really dressed up
ayrt it's the same here where I live. You rarely see people where anything than ultra casual even at formal events. But I also have the benefits of living in a country where minding your own business ia the norm. Good luck nona! Hope you get the opportunity to dress how you like

No. 1522584

I turned 28 and wish people would stop commenting on my age.
I don't keep quiet about it because I'm embarrassed, I keep quiet about it because when I mention it, there's always gonna be someone shitting and pissing themselves over it.
>Oh my god I thought you were a teenager!
>But you look so young, I had no idea you were a crusty old crone haha ecks dee
>Wow you're how old?! That's so old!
>You better start having kids soon
>You're turning 30, how come you don't know how to do X?
>Doing Y, at your big age?

Please shut the fuck up I beg you. I am not old, being my age doesn't mean I am all-knowing and without fault, I don't have my life together because I'm a millennial and the economy is in shambles, being in your late 20s doesn't mean looking like the crypt keeper, I don't use botox, I look my age, and saying someone looks "so young" isn't the compliment you think it is. Stop making a big deal about it please. It's like whenever I reveal the number I get side-eyed for not being perfect and/or told I look less ugly and old than someone as old as me normally does. It's as backhanded of a compliment as "I can tell you used to be beautiful when you were younger".

No. 1522587

I am going to break the curse of all my female ancestors. I’m not going to have children. The abuse ends with me

No. 1522588

I’m so tired, I just want to sleep a lot already, I can’t wait to finish this semester so I can grab a whole week to just sleep, drink water, piss, eat soup and sleep. I haven’t even been able to daydream about my husbandos because I’m so tired I just end up falling asleep, and at work I’m so busy I can’t even think about them like at all. I just feel so tired, but I can’t tell my best friend because she then tells me that I shouldn’t have picked this career, and yeah, I don’t like it, but it was my only option, I just want to vent to her and get asspats, that’s it.

No. 1522591

>>1522584
I'm 24 but there a lot of 20-22 year olds in my social circle and they always call me old even though I'm only two years older than them I blame tiktok brainrot people have a really screwed up vision of how women of certain ages should look and act like

No. 1522592

>>1522572
If any shelter or organization within driving distance has a TNR (trap neuter release) program it might help you, though for some it would be necessary for you to trap and bring in the cats yourself for the spaying/neutering I believe.

No. 1522597

I really hate being straight and having to deal with scrotes. An old bf came back into my life after he ended things with me nearly 4 years ago because I wasn’t what he wanted and he found someone who was. He then got addicted to meth and his life went downhill. He’s clean now but has no friends so he came to me because he knows I’m fucking soft as fuck. I live in a different country now and I don’t mind being a support to him from a distance as a friend, but he wants to pretend nothing has changed and we still love each other. I do still love him, but I know he doesn’t love me and just wants a simp to make him feel wanted and I feel so pathetic for being that. When I try to talk to him about it and tell him I just want to be friends he makes me feel like I’m being needy and I’m embarrassed by that. I don’t want to ghost him because he is depressed and attempted suicide a couple of times before he reached out to me and as much as I think he’s a dick, I don’t want him to die. Ugh why am I such an idiot I hate myself for going along with this shit.

No. 1522598

I feel overwhelmed with uni. And I don't even have a parttime job or a social life like others do. Why can others uphold all those three things and be fine meanwhile I struggle with education alone? I wish I could function normally, I try really hard to keep up but I feel like I'm just stumbling through everything

No. 1522599

>>1522597
Anon his life isn't dependent on you and he's using you… He makes YOU feel like the needy one when he's the one who's bothering his ex for emotional support? That's very warped.

No. 1522601

nonnies…im at my work and i dont even wanna try anymore. i dont do my tasks and i even sound less enthusiastic talking on the phone. i dont even wanna try to improve my mood. i am on a 2 month contract since my performance during my internship wasnt great(not only my fault though) and i have about 2 weeks till the contract ends. i have been flirting with the idea of giving up for weeks now. i just know the reactions from my family will be bad cause i was finally supposedly on a good path and i want to give it up. and im in my late twenties, never had a proper job aside from working for the family business which i dont count and no particular experience and skills. this job would ensure me that i would always have work and get decent money but idc. idk sometimes i feel that aside from my unwillingness to learn and my shitty procrastination, i dont particularly feel welcome here. i especially dont like one of my co-workers who really reminds me of my father sometimes(she is a woman though). and due to some recent events, i feel there is a lack of clarity and communication(which i knew but now it's too much. i feel like i dont even have the right to ask)

but on the other hand, i actually know i havent tried enough so i dont have the right to complain about things. i know my behaviour isnt right on many aspects but im afraid to talk here. or there is simply not enough time for others. i general i hate the fact i have to settle being here because of family pressure and my uncertainty of what i want to do. i would drop everything in a second if i was sure that my next venture would be a successful one…but i have no clue what that venture would be. and if i did, i know for a fact i dont have the motivation and the attention span to make it work. i have failed to many projects and im "too old" to keep looking for things

aside from my uncertainty, i know that many people would be disappointed or even downright angry at me. i told me employer i wanna learn but i feel this is a lie because i have done shit and he is also barely here to begin with. i only feel like a burden. he needed a person to learn the job well but he is way less close to me than i wanted him to and i feel i waste his precious time. as i said, i could have tried more but i dont know how to deal with myself in the first place. im a walking self-sabotage. life has no meaning and i hang on to things like a few friends the thought of that a reckless action could make others feel worse .im too scared to try and kill myself and at this time i do know i'd hurt people if i did something. or if i survived but i was disabled forever. that would be worse for everyone

i feel like life is too complex sometimes. i just wanna pause and not worry about anything, that being,the past, the future, other people or having to take care of things. there's no shortage of things to stress over and worry about

i feel to ungrateful for tossing this opportunity like this…but i dont wanna be here. but im also afraid that i may regret it and want to leave the door open. but i dont know how to go with this. i just wanna be happy

No. 1522603

>>1522597
Please just fucking block him please

No. 1522609

>>1522599
I keep telling myself that his life isn’t dependent on me but I’m the type of person who takes on everyone else’s problems and he knows that about me. He is warped, and I wish I could just block him and forget he even existed. My life is really good now, I have a great career that gives me a comfortable life and he’s a loser who is still working shit jobs in his hometown and he has the audacity to make me feel like a wreck. I know in my head he isn’t good enough for me, but I just can’t bring myself to turn my back on him and I hate it. I’m actually offended that I’m letting him do this to me kek.

No. 1522616

>>1522598
Man did I write this. Im transitioning out of NEETdom so I've been focusing on just school but everyone around me works 30 hours a week, goes out and parties on the weekend and still has good grades. For fuck's sake why am I barely functional enough to go outside five days a week

No. 1522618

>>1522601
Don't give up!! You sound like you want to give up because it's daunting but don't!! It sucks you don't feel welcome there but you're not chained to the job, you can use the experience to move on to something else later. Don't make thinks more difficult for yourself, I've been there and it really fucking sucks.
>i feel like life is too complex sometimes. i just wanna pause and not worry about anything, that being,the past, the future, other people or having to take care of things. there's no shortage of things to stress over and worry about
I feel this a lot. Life truly is too complex. If you think about it, the way humans once started by just gathering their food and living in nature and that was it, I think we're not built to have this much complexity going on in our lives, and it sucks. But try not to make things more difficult for yourself by giving up now! If this sucks, it's only gonna suck even more later on.

No. 1522619

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>>1522175
>>1516960
The common denominator between these men is that they both have Sun in Pisces. They’re really prone to being crazy druggies (just look at Jillian).

No. 1522620

>>1522187
I hate people saying shit like this as if it applies to all Americans. Where I live you'll find literally every fashion subculture and we have a sizable Japanese community too and other immigrants who have their own style. I'm sorry you live in the middle of nowhere.

No. 1522624

>>1522619
WHAT THE FUCK ANON I'm >>1522175 and the guy has indeed sun in Pisces. I don't even believe that hard in astrology but this is a funny coincidence. He's not even that much of a druggie, not as much as his friends at least, but has some weird and crazy behaviors that even his friends aren't aware of for sure because they never were intimate with him. They all think he's a big softie and they probably think of me as the bad, cold one
Btw I just wanted to be fair and I sent him wishes via messenger, he didn't answer so whatever, I'm just gonna ignore him at work

No. 1522626

>>1522584
This happens to me a lot. I just take it as a compliment and move on. The only time I’ve been genuinely upset by someone thinking I looked like a teenager was the 16 year old boy who would aggressively hit on me at my previous place of employment. I figured he was in his 20s and flirted back a bit, then he eventually saw me ring up alcohol and was shocked and was all “wait, you’re 18??” Uhhh try adding 10 years to that dude… that’s when he was like oh I’m 16 and I thought you were younger than me, they’ve hired 14 and 15 year olds here before.

I vowed to never flirt with anyone again unless I know how old they are, cause I was disgusted.

No. 1522630

>>1522619
ah yes being born during a certain month makes you a druggie. you people are fucking retarded

No. 1522631

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I did something extremely careless that might have affected my future, then I panicked and decided to ignore it for some dumb reason. I'm trying to fix it now but I'm scared it's to late. I just want my life back on tracks but I always mess it up

No. 1522633

>>1522618
you say give up and im not even sure what you mean. give up my job? in general? i could let this job run its course but then what. i cant make excuses to my employer anymore, i know i wont try. i already havent. nothing stops me from behaving the same way esp since i dont like it here

i feel ungrateful since it's a decent working environment and it could be much worse but im just SO unsure…

No. 1522635

My ex raised the bar too high and now I fear I'll never find love again. Anytime I see a man my first instinct is to compare. "My ex was more handosome" "my ex made more money" "my ex was kinder" etc. Tinder is hell, every moid there is fucking ugly and the few normal looking ones end up being sex pests, I feel hopeless

No. 1522644

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Im so close to burning out, idk how to avoid it. I think I'm going to explode

No. 1522655

>>1522631
I relate to this. This is how I also cope. I actually think of picrel at times like that too.
Do you want to talk about it here nonnie? It might feel less overwhelming if you can first describe what went wrong, and then try to fix it a little later. One step at a time. Hope you're doing ok.

No. 1522656

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Wish it was possible to find cute underwear that is actually wearable. I feel like everything nice looking is always 99% polyester and has that seam that runs down the middle front which ends up riding up into my crotch and hurts my clitada. I'm fine wearing cotton grannypants the majority of the time but once in a while I wanna wear something a lil bit sexy. Help ???

No. 1522658

>>1522656
I bought underwear that was made of synthetic fabric and they made my coochie itch so baddd
High rises might be nice? Briefs? Clitada gave me a good kek on this fine Monday afternoon, cheers for that

No. 1522666

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I am having unwanted flashbacks to when I found out my ex fiancé cheated me on (many many times). I just woke up and I feel so upset. This happened years ago. I thought I got this out of my head. I wish I could just go back to sleep to reset my brain and forget about all of that.

No. 1522667

>>1522656
I have Dita Von Teese stuff in the full brief style that I basically don’t notice I’m wearing (which is what I want) and they look very cute.

No. 1522677

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No. 1522680

>>1522667
Thank you nona! Those look both cute and extremely comfortable. Seems like they are all synthetic, but then again they're the type of underwear you'll probably only be wearing for an occasion so I'm willing to compromise on that.

>>1522658
Haha, I'm glad I could help an anon kek



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