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No. 1638933
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>ask mom if she'd still love my brother if he was a pedophile rapist
>"yes, he'll always be my son"
Does a boymoms love even mean anything at that point? Yes, instincts and all, but I thought a big part of why she loved me is because I've always been good to her and other people. Certain family members, I don't love, because they're bad people. Yeah it's different when it's your child, but if you have somewhat of a brain and don't run on pure instincts, you should be capable of suppressing your love for a monster.
I asked her about that hypothetical scenario because my brother keeps scamming her, stealing, and treating her like shit. I feel like he could do anything, and she'd still run after him for a crumb of his attention. She always uses the excuse that he's a good guy deep down because he used to be nice… before puberty. Yet here she is, complaining that her own mom, my grandma, does the same. My mom is treated like an errand-running maid, and her brothers get treated like kings who can do no wrong.
I don't feel sorry for a lot of boymoms and women who keep going back to their abusers over and over. Hate to say it but part of them enjoys it. That, or they have worms in their brains.
No. 1638942
>>1638933I had to understand that my mother never loved me and that she always saw me as "competition". She loved my brother for some time but as he cut contact with her (for good reason), she is now focused on me, to get information about him, because I'm the only one still having contact with him. My brother is a great guy without any creepy behaviour, but I still don't understand why his wellbeing always was more important than mine. Might be that my mother is an aggressive narcissist, might be that she always wanted to be a man or might be that she just hates me for whatever reasons.
Best thing for you would be to tell your mother how you feel and if nothing changes, you can take the hard route and leave her alone with the love for your brother. My mother always complained about the stuff my grandparents did and then did worse to her own children, some people won't change and can't be saved.
No. 1638943
dad died a few days ago and i'm now frustrated over the insurance policy, inheritance – whatever. i wasn't stressed at all regarding money at first (because he was dead broke! i did not expect shit) but his sister recently messaged me about an insurance policy she "just found"…she needs his wallet for something. but his step-son (who he adopted shortly after leaving me and my mom – his og wife couldn't have kids, they split up after i was born but whatever) HAS to have the fucking wallet, because dad died down there. he takes his wallet with him everywhere. it's all so annoying.
they were also super anxious to get me out of his apartment where i am, probably so they could rifle through it for shit. i thought that was all kindness so i wouldn't be alone, but now i know the truth. i'm so curious about the insurance policy – does it exist? if it does, how much $$$ is on it? will my step brother split any of it with me, will he tell me it even exists, will they just pocket the cash after they get everything sorted out and leave me in the dust, etc. etc. etc…i hate feeling like this. i want to ask all these questions but my mom is like "let it go! let it go omg you can't do anything about it" and she's right! i feel terrible for wondering about money. but i'm also wondering why do they get to be awful and greedy and i can't even ask questions. this is all so annoying. i resent her for treating me like i'm a monster. i resent them for putting me through it. i resent dad for not taking care of this before he passed, he had time. he was told this would happen, probably (it is). he just said "my SON will handle it, he's a GREAT man" lol. it's fucked.
No. 1638947
>>1638900as someone with very visible scars on both arms (yes, I was that stupid) after cutting for nearly 20 years I can tell you that most people just don't care. You will get one person strangely looking at you out of 1.000, everyone else is just "scars, she did cut, don't care, nice legs". If your scars are your skin colour by now, live your life, please, you can't change it, there aren't any treatments that will undo the scars, but you can still be the calm and level-headed person everyone knows. When I meet new people, I won't show my scars for some weeks and after that, no one mentions them because I'm not like people would imagine a person that ever self-harmed. Your coworkers know you by now and there is really no reason to miss out on all the fun you could have.
No. 1638949
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>>1638933There are two sides to this, like my father's family disowned one of my cousins who ran over some guy with his bike(and he was a jerk and so I have no issue with that) but they also basically disowned my brother cause he was suffering from a drug addiction, there should be limits with in familial love but you can't completely cut out family members just for whatever wrongdoings cause they might end up in worse conditions.
No. 1638971
>>1638964To not mess up with the healing process, don't go out with fresh cuts in the sun and wear sunscreen on fresh scars. Yes, I sound annoying, but I wouldn't want you left with discoloured scars or cancer. Hope you and
>>1638900 are doing okay. And you are right, most people just don't care.
No. 1639041
>>1639032Because they're secretly desperate and have unrealistic standards, that's just the
real result of extreme mental illness and delusion
No. 1639094
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I watched this documentary called “Pervert Park” about a trailer park inhabited by entirely by sex offenders yesterday, and it just grossed me out so badly. Not for the obvious reasons eg being disgusted by their crimes, that goes without saying, and I enjoy hearing from twisted people to a certain extent just because it’s interesting to hear them explain their own distorted thought processes, but because of the extent to which these guys were all just Predators with a capital P who put their own sob stories front and center to manipulate people into feeling bad for them, and it fucking works on so many people and I hate it
Like, it seems they accept they did a bad thing and they can’t do it again, they might even say the words that it’s no one’s fault but their own, but deep down you can see they don’t really believe it and they 100% see themselves as victims and their actions as logical reactions to their awful childhoods and thus not really their fault, which is how like 95% of male abusers and predators function. If you read “Why Does He Do That”, the author even mentions that the vast majority of abusers he’s worked with have terrible childhood stories and they use them to manipulate
And the fact that anyone genuinely believes law enforcement posing as kids to ensnare predators is entrapment just blows my mind. YOU spoke inappropriately to who you thought was a minor, YOU chose not to immediately disengage, block and report upon mention of a child, and, most importantly, YOU decided to fucking meet up with who you thought was a child! You can’t be entrapped into making those particular depraved and illegal decisions! Fucking men!
(there was a woman there too who raped her 8 year old son, she’s depraved too, but lol one woman out of like 150 sexual predators sounds about right)
No. 1639096
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I think I'll have to come to terms with the fact that no man will ever be able to give me what I need. I just want a faithful and affectionate man to spend and build the rest of my life with but it's absolutely pointless in this generation and my age (late 20's). Most moids I've met/ befriended/ been in contact with are either coomers, can't even do the easiest tasks like taking care of themselves and their surroundings, have shitty morals, are edgelords in some way, have wacky political views and opinions, have attachment issues, are misogynistic, dishonest or a mix of all of them. The only man who has never disappointed me in my life is my dad. I'll just focus on working on a cushy life for myself, my pets, my family and helping others through my field of work.
No. 1639116
>>1639096Nona, I’m 29 and in the same boat. At least we have jobs and pets and good dads? It is kind of a hard pill to swallow, that there’s a really fucking high chance that the kind of man worth having more than likely does not exist or is already married by now
I almost feel like boomer and greatest generation men sucked less in a way because damn, at least they were expected to have some useful skills to bring to the table in order to find a wife. I’ve met so few millennial men who could do a single useful thing I couldn’t do myself and it’s honestly pathetic, like bitch you can’t even fix anything? You can’t give birth? You can’t outearn me? You can’t keep house for shit? Don’t even know how to change a tire? Literally what is the point then? Also I think they are/were less pornsick and often almost less misogynistic than the avg millennial man in some ways I think. Too bad older men are icky to me (jk I’m sure it’s a greener-grass thing and all men are useless to decent in the same unfavorable ratios)
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I feel like absolute death. I just want to leave somewhere but it 114 degrees outside and I don’t have any money. Everyday is the same and I’m wondering if I will ever leave this hell
No. 1639239
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Picrel is literally me except for the age and I can't cope with it, it's been like this for years, it prevents me from forming any kind of bonds with other human beings
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>>1639239here, made the lolcaur thinker
No. 1639318
>>1638900Hey, I understand how you feel nona. I chopped up my arms a couple weeks back because I'm afraid to break skin on my thighs and my entire body looks like shit. I still don't feel accustomed to peoples stares when they do, and it hurts like hell because men in particular are gross about it. but I can't not wear shorter clothes or I'll die of heatstroke. I finally came to the conclusion I valued my health over avoiding embarrassment
The worst part is if people don't know what it is, it somehow feels more insensitive. Like the old ladies who ask if the cat mauled you. But if I see someone with them out, as a fellow self harmer who regrets every second I've spent carving myself up, I'd say you're pretty fucking strong. I wish I could give you a hug.
No. 1639364
I was an awkward retard at the coffee shop today. I asked one of the baristas if I'm allowed to bring everyone freezer pops, and then forgot to ask the lead manager to actually check if it's okay. Oh well, gonna bring the box with me next time and offer to share if they're allowed to take them. It's one of those coffee places where they take your order outside so I worry if they're staying hydrated and cool enough
>>1639323>my recommendation just comes out as "ooga booga book gud pls read"idk I'd totally read a book if someone recommended it like that. You seem cool nona, I hope your next niche info dive goes well
No. 1639499
>>1639491gonna get shit on for this one but i would never date a male feminist again, ime they were all coomers, into bdsm (of course with him as the dom), subbed to a bunch of r/gonewild subreddits, etc.
lots of degrading acts done to me that have kind of traumatized me and left me feeling sexually broken, choked until passing out, slapping hard enough to bruise even on my face, etc. i
personally feel better off with a more conservative coomer hating moid. always respectful, has never laid a hand on me or said something cruel, encouraged me to finish college, vote, enthusiastically supportive that i want to be a career woman and likely not have kids. we're buying a house soon (but already lived together for years). you have to find one in the right "zone" where they're really desiring to support a woman and care for her + able to emotionally connect enough to no longer care about ree career women bad. it's extremely rare though as a lot of these moids think emotions are gay, i hope you find the right one nonita. i never want to date again, knowing the vast majority of males are porn addicted retards who's idea of getting off is basically just
abusive acts.
No. 1639508
>>1639499I don't think it's as unpopular of an idea, I've seen similiar sentiments in a lot of female spaces. I think in general as close to the ideal you can get is to find "normie" men, and in that I just mean they're very offline, and uninitiated into any cult or online movement, no matter which extreme. They usually still get like some whiff of like first and second gen feminist ideas, and in my country towards the end of the communist era a working, ambitious wife was very much idealized, and it somewhat stuck around culturally. The problem is, as you said, that a lot of them are stoic, have zero concept about what actual mental load it puts on women to be also the ideal working life while they also still expect her to be a homemaker, so it's hard to find one that was brought up in a household where he was raised "just right". The positive is that they're usually actually useful (as in have real life applicable skills) and are usually consistent with their retardedness.
Online edgelords and tradfags don't even deserve any words wasted on them, but online liberal men are almost all aggressive sex pests trying to get to women or have some weird degradation fetish they want to involve women in. The thing that ruins most men's minds isn't even the type of groupthink they identify with but just going online in the first place.
No. 1639512
>>1639491Nah a man ain't nice if he's getting hard by inflicting pain upon others. A lot of men lie about being feminists or supporting women's rights but they won't do anything beneficial to women. Actions speak louder than words. He IS NOT a good man.
>>1639499A lot of
abusive men call themselves feminists so women will let their guards down, I don't trust them either. I'm sure there are good men who support women's rights but they don't call themselves feminists because you can tell they support women just from the way they treat women alone.
No. 1639541
>>1639491I have experience on multiply men acting nice and repeating feminist talking points only to be revealed to be total assholes, one of them even raped me. They do that to get others, especially women to like and trust them. And once they get
abusive they know nobody will believe the
victim, "he would never do that!" At least the 4chan tradtard type of misogynist is easy to spot and avoid. If a moid enjoys women being abused and degraded, he does not view us as respectable humans. And he will very likely try to hurt you, if not by force, by getting consent by manipulation. Or maybe cheating or trying to go poly because "muh needs arent met."
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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah yes, nothing like discovering that the moid you were into is a coomer and follows barely clothed women and titty streamers on IG and Twitch. Just shoot me at this point. All men are garbage. At least my rose colored glasses are starting to wear off a bit.
No. 1639588
>>1639491Hooo boy
nonny I can relate. A moid I dated seemed great on the outside- until he suddenly choked me when we were having sex. He later on mentioned that he's into BDSM and that dude had all the equipment. I let him know that I'm not into pain and although he didn't force me to engage in any of this (well "just" the first time when he choked me), I should've seen something like this as a major red flag. A moid who's into BDSM and has all the stuff is a huge porn sick coom brain because why else would he be into this shit. I was so dumb to belive him when he said "it's not about inflicting pain but about exploring your senses" or some shit. Ugh.
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>>1639619You're not alone
nonny No. 1639624
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My friends and I played a couple rounds of "Who's most likely to" last night and the question "Who's most likely to end up alone with a bunch of cats" came up and everyone pointed at me. Alright, fuck you idiots who hop from relationship to relationship because they need constant validation but somehow act like they're above me. Funny how every person is 'the one' for you and then you break up after a couple of years and rinse and repeat. None of you know what love is since it's so easy for you to get into a new relationship just a few months after breaking up. "Omg nonny I love him/her!!!" - finds a new 'love' not even six months post breakup - "Omggg the love of my life!!". Seriously shove it.
No. 1639654
>>1639599Idk I have black eyes and I always get compliments about my eyes. It's more about the eyeshape than anything, whenever I see someone obsess over hair/eye color it's usually someone whos obese and very ugly but has blue eyes or something like
>>1639626 said. Coloring doesn't make someone ugly or pretty on its own unless you have dark skin and light coloring(hair and eyes) which is imo very unique and beautiful.
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>>1639619>>1639620>>1639619Can I suggest trying to go to a small course trade school or joining a club if you want to make friends and meet new people, If anyone ever asks why you never had many friends before, just say that you were busy with work and home life, and that usually gets people to stop asking questions
source: I met my now two best friends when I was at trade school for my year long long physiotherapy course, if your going for trade school option I suggest taking up something that you are familiar with but also is less time consuming(nothing more then six-eight months)
No. 1639680
>>1639599>>1639668As
>>1639640 stated, its just a matter of these features being far more rarer that people will of course fetishize and exotify them, also as
>>1639654 stated, that if you live in a population where these features are more common, then your more likely to think of it as a normal trait and not special, my father's family are not white but they are rather light-skinned and tall and people do fetishize them, I remember one instance when one of my cousins came who was aout 12 came over to the city I live and he's blonde haired and was green eyed and masses of people were literally following him and taking photos, there's also funny instances of scouts and modelling agents going to deep mountain communities in Pakistan to find ethnic group that have these features and getting shewed away cause these population are also very religious and conservative.
Its not a great existence either if they live in cities, many women form these communities will get kidnapped and forcefully married cause pakistani/indian muslim men fetishize them so much, but they don't dare in many cases either cause the men from these communities are very conservative and macho and will beat them half to death.
No. 1639684
>>1639681I mean what kind of life am I living that I have become afraid to talk about my problems? In a world where everyone talks about their problems, about being broke, mentally ill. Why am I not allowed to? It'd be nice if I actually had friends helping me or a boyfriend and if I were surrounded by people that have a similar level of intelligence. Instead even
normal people degrade me and have no empathy. I am already disempowered and people just drag me down more and more. I have never witnessed anyone being treated the way that I have.
No. 1639709
>>1639681I think none of this is your fault
nonnie. There's several factors that might contribute to your problem. Things like: people's desire to dominate others if they get any chance to do that, importance of the social status for them (woke bullshit is only a theatre on the internet) and (especially now) fixation on material things, ''to show themselves off''.
There may be other things, maybe you just appear to other people as easy target to bully just because of your body language. Maybe you're neurodivergent so you seem ''off'' to people. Maybe you're not conventionally attractive or on the contrary, too pretty which makes them jealous. All of these may make others want to discriminate you more.
Also, it is very understandable that you have the need to vent about your financial status. But I've noticed venting about any real problems to people is usually harmful for yourself. For one, you reveal your insecurities (and give ideas to people how they can hurt you) and for second it makes people feel uncomfortable. Maybe try to avoid talking about it with most of the people?
Either way, I'm very sorry nona. World shouldn't function like this.
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It’s the holiday and I’m so bored because I don’t have any friends and I can’t fucking study lol I don’t understand anything
No. 1639720
>>1639681What country do you live in, nona? People online will act woke for virtue points but they hate having to actually help other people. If you come at someone and complain about being poor, they will take that as you asking them for money, and they will become agressive.
People hate to see someone genuinely struggling, unless that person is a cute baby or a sexy woman. A part of us, as humans, is like hard-wired to want to shit on the weakest.
You shouldn't try to surround yourselves with friends at the moment. Take some time to focus on yourself, get some medication if it can improve your condition. Forget other people, they are stupid and only care about themselves.
Good luck, nona.
No. 1639722
>>1639709The thing is that on the internet or in real life people constantly complain about their issues. Being broke, not having enough money, usually people recieve help and compassion. My friends all assist one another like they call each other to one another's house or buy stuff for each other. In my case I've been broke, mentally ill and unwell most of my life and people have only asked me for things. Even my friends all know my situation and they ask me for money…
Nobody is willing to help me and I am actually a pretty intelligent and valuable person. I've been trying to get a boyfriend or to surround myself with like minded people but they reject and humiliate me. My whole life I've been put underneath others. Even underneath dumber and less valuable people. I still cannot figure out why I have been treated like this. Somehow, it feels like I am being collectively gaslit by the entire society and I have never seen anyone being treated the way that I have
No. 1639735
>>1639722 Okay, from what you say, it sounds very personal.
It sounds like these people made ''groups'' that exclude you. They don't want to let you in. And apparently, even if you put effort, you can't adjust. That adds to your problems, you're not only broke, but also feeling lonely. Sadly, people are awfully stupid, intolerant and cruel. It is like it is.
Do you have any chance of getting some kind of therapy?
No. 1639749
>>1639735No. I did therapy for 3 years and the therapist was decent. I poured in a lot of money and we are already poor. I don't really have a family and I am poor. The therapist just drains money out of me and he tells me things I already know. I read everything about DBT/CBT. My life doesn't get better I cannot advance socially. I cannot get friends. I'm never surrounded by like minded people. People constantly lie about me and push out all of my insecurities. I feel like I am gaslit on a global level. I need some form of stability which I cannot find. I wish that I had a boyfriend or more friends willing to help me or family. I'm incredibly bad at getting things out of people. I don't know how to get things out of people or present myself socially. I have severe social anxiety and it makes me come off childish. My life is from hell I'm in the same situation as I was when I was 12 years old. I am tired of being inferiorized, of being given scraps, of being rejected. Plus my whole life I've been put underneath dumber and less motivated people. I am being severely infantilized although I am a 24 year old woman. On Facebook I tried to interact with people I find smart or on the internet. People that are on a similar level of intelligence and they do this weird shit where they don't talk to me and then make jabs at me through their posts.
Infantilization is an extreme form of mental abuse and it doesn't apply to me. I am not mentally infantile. I matured early and know a lot of things I just come off childish due to mental illness I guess. But I cannot stand being infantilized. It feels like my entire reality is reshaped by other people.
At this point I don't know what to do but kill myself
No. 1639771
>>1639722 Ohh
nonnie, I can relate to so much things you say. Obviously I won't fully understand what you feel, but I think we may have a lot in common. I may not be poor, but I'm autistic. I'm also excluded from social life and always infantilized.
Don't kill yourself, you have many years to improve your situation. Everything changes all the time. You look like intelligent woman, I'm sure your future is much brighter than you think. Also, I'd totally want to be your friend, you're very bright which is rare.
What about your family? Do you have anyone left? Do they support you? How they are treating you?
Also, do you have any chance to get some free education?
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>>1639094You're 100% right about the self-victimization. I was reading a review of that documentary years ago which had a comment left by the brother of the sex offender shown on the film's poster. In it, he gives a detailed account of his brother's life and shows how he lied about the nature of his molestation charges, concealed his criminal record and fabricated a sad childhood in order to make himself seem sympathetic (it's a long comment so picrel is just an excerpt). Predators are sociopaths with no compunctions about lying and the makers of the documentary were so obsessed with being humane to literal child molesters that they were willing to go along with it.
No. 1639783
So many male singers sound whiny as hell and I can’t stand it. People are always criticising female singers who “can’t sing” but the majority of male singers don’t even sing, they whine.
>>1639680I once visited SEA with a girl with blonde curly hair and green eyes. She was treated like an A-list celebrity. Like you said people would follow her around, yell at/about her from across the street, take photos and ask other people to take photos of them with her. It was freaky and she felt extremely uncomfortable. I have red hair but dyed it dark brown before travelling, which turned out to be one of the better decisions I’ve made.
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>>1639783Tbf this sort of thing happens to black women in SEA countries as well. People from certain parts of the world just aren't used to anyone who looks "different", they always want to take photos and/or compliment them. I'm not going to say it's necessarily good, but it's more out of curiosity than malice.
No. 1639807
>>1639792It's weird, I assume you're saying these people dye their hair with henna just like my grandmother did because it's very easy to distinguish between someone who dyes their hair like this and has bright orange hair, and someone who naturally has red hair.
>>1639793>>1639783That seems like a very uncomfortable situation, I'm glad it never happened to me. But I also usually travel to very touristic places. The weirdest thing is when I'm abroad and people, either immigrants or tourists, who aren't from my ethnicity at all assume I'm from theirs but it's not comparable at all.
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>>1639807>it's very easy to distinguish between someone who dyes their hair like this and has bright orange hair, and someone who naturally has red hair.Dyes of all kinds are used and some really do look realistic, this is the only pic I can find but there's evey more variety that I have seen.
No. 1639840
>>1639508this. ime men who work actual respectable careers that make good money, have helpful skills (mainly building, fixing shit around the house and car maintenance) tend to lean right. though no matter the politics, finding a man who isn't emotionally retarded and doesn't hate mommy is rare.
>usually consistent with their retardednessmade me laugh, it's true. there's always going to be some type of idiocy (as long as it isn't watching porn, cheating, moid rage, NEETdom, those are always deal breakers).
>>1639512 this is why i hate male feminists. i dated one briefly and he was some kind of sex addict. i was glad to drop him. decent men are more likely to not be vocally super pro-womens rights, just generally respect the women in their lives. the male feminist does not really exist, the ones calling themselves that just use it as a strategy to get laid.
No. 1639858
>>1639792Where I visited it was trendy for young people to DIY bleach their hair which would turn it orange, so maybe I wouldn’t have stood out that much lol.
>>1639793It’s part curiosity, part catcalling turned up to eleven. There were cute kids who asked if she was a princess but many of the men were very aggressive and became even angrier if she ignored them. Fortunately we had adult men with us so the aggressive men at least kept a physical distance.
Our group was pretty diverse, with multiple white people, two East Asians and a black guy. All of us elicited curiosity but only the curly blonde girl got yelled at and pulled into group photos with random strangers.
>>1639807Yeah we were somewhere very rural with no tourism at all. Most of these people had never seen a non-local in real life before so it must have been like a bunch of aliens had landed in their village.
No. 1639875
>>1639499Probably not such a hot take, but personally I think the reason so many male feminists are like this is that the whole reason they even are a male "feminist" is that they're aware of how disgusting and misogynistic their sexual desires are and feel some level of guilt about it, but take up the mantle of being a supposed "feminist" as their way of alleviating their guilt over this. Feminist spaces have been fully infiltrated by these guys, allowing them to create and spread their own rhetoric about how the vile shit that makes them coom can
totally be enjoyed in a good feminist way. Men are socialized to comfortably be a lot more selfish than we're ever allowed to be, so generally they don't gaf about social movements at all unless there's directly something in it for them, hence the men who are supposedly "feminists" are the exact ones twisting it for their gain, while ironically plenty of the somewhat less vile men just don't care about women's issues because they see neither threat nor benefit
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>>1639858The issue with fetishization is really bad, already posted this, but in Pakistan, India and in the UK, women and girls who are from light-skinned ethnic groups often end up receiving extreme fetishization and are subject to planned kidnappings abductions against them by Pakistani men, the only reason these issues don't progress much is cause Gujjar, Pashtun and many Jatt tribal are quick to retaliate.
picrel is one part of a creepy Indian comments men were making for a fair-skinned young actresse
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>>1639875I feel like deep down many of these
abusive men have a reason be it guilt or something worse they became
abusive, and then they double down by overcompensating like you said. that's why I find it so hard to tell whether altruism is actually kind or not, coming from men.
>>1639738Tony Bennett just died. Someone check on Lady Gaga. No idea he was an accomplished painter. Unlike so many celebrities who dabble in the arts who paint ugly garbage (cough, cough, you know who you are) his work is beautiful.
>>1639716I'll try not to, I already vented in this thread about being an "ugly dark haired white". I find those features beautiful on other people, I'm most attracted to brunettes, just not myself.
No. 1639907
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I am getting the annoying non-stopping thoughs of wanting to be a man again, and i hate it so much. I hate being female, i am not an nlog and i dont hate women but i really, really dislike being female. I hate that ugly as fuck miguel from spiderverse becoming husbando of the year, now every moid is like ''see?? see?? woman want dominant angsty daddy to choke them to death'' the worst thing is that they are right, and there is nothing i can do about it, women are cursed with shit taste and i am always going to be lumped in with them. Whenever i play something with my male friends i am extremely anxious of playing bad and feeding into the stereotype of ''bad female gamer'' i hate it so much, i hate being female, i wish i was a moid and i could fail at games in peace and like my cute boys without being called a pedo for not being into old as fuck men that look like my dad or hulking roid monsters. I am tired of everyone thinking i am cute because i was cursed with a high pitched voice and short stature. I hate not being able to have meaningful relationships with males because they fall in love with me. I hate not being able to share my hobbies with most women. I hate not being able to relate to 99.9% of female characters. I fucking hate everything, i want to be a moid and i want to be allowed to be a disgusting piece of shit without feeling like i am failing my sex and i dont fit in.
No. 1639921
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Why do I have so many boob stretchmarks despite having small boobs? It's so unfair.
No. 1639928
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Saw this photo being shared by libfems from my country and people in the comments arguing whether this is anti trans or not lmao. I seriously feel like there’s no place on the internet for me without the dumbest arguments. Even scrolling though lolcow I keep seeing things like “what’s so bad about loli porn anyway?” or “conservative men aren’t so bad” and so much general womanhating, I’m sick and tired of it
No. 1639978
>>1639907you gotta get yourself out of the black and white thinking. and sometimes you gotta let people think whatever bullshit they want about you because there's not much that can be done. you CAN be yourself in peace, you need to let go of these obsessive thoughts. i'm extremely feminine and genuinely have never seen tomboyish women as "less than", i think it's great women can be any wide range of things (excluding troons of course) and most of my best friends throughout my life were tomboys.
…but i agree it sucks that it's hard to be friends with guys because they often turn into orbiters, there's not much we can do about that.
No. 1639997
>>1639978its hard not fitting in anywhere, i wish i had real friends.
>>1639985i know but i cant help it, all my friends are male, i just wish i was male so i didnt have these self-hating thoughs. I feel really bad when i hate women over their choice of husbandos or what media they like, but i cant help it, i feel like a complete outlier. It's petty and mean( i have never actually told someone their husbando/tastes are shit though, i keep it to myself) but god i hate it so bad, i hate 50 shades ever being a popular thing, i hate most shojo anime being
abusive shit, i have most popular husbandos being so ugly, i hate that women unironically like silver foxes, i hate shit like animal crossing/the sims being the most popular games played by females, i just hate it and its eating me inside. At least here i can freely vent about it. I just have to learn to cope with my self-hating, although i have felt like this since i was a child and i doubt its stopping anytime soon.
No. 1640003
>>1639907same feelings, honestly.
i've gone as far as to consider unironically trooning out because there are far more creepy males enjoying the same things as i do than there are women. it's either male, coomer male, old male or tranny (male), there are actual women but they're spread so thinly. the old males and the normal males seems to be the most peaceful of moids but they can also be creepy and misogynistic or they treat me like a handicapped retard because of my gender.
and i can't get another hobby, this one brings me the most joy, i'm not going to give it up despite what anyone says.
No. 1640004
>>1639997You really need to mind your own business, you care too much about men's opinions and what other women do, trooning out will hurt you, so cut it and live
your life and stop expecting the world to become what you want it to become, it ain't happening. Also stop having friendships with men, stop talking to moids deliberately, and start understanding the societal reasons why women as a whole do stuff you may not approve, they're humans like you and they also suffer from sexist complexes to variable degrees since the day they're born
No. 1640005
>>1639776OMG, I fucking knew he was full of it! He was the main one in particular that was just so openly manipulative with his crocodile tears and sad story, I can’t believe anyone fell for it in the first place. He just laid it on way too thick, didn’t ring believable to me that he’d be crying like that about something that happened 20 years ago after having been sober and in therapy for multiple years
thank god for this brother spitting facts publically, love it
No. 1640006
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>be traumatized and crazy woman who didn't used to be this way
>I was fucking dealing with it until a couple years ago, and dealing with it okay
>things come along to ruin my life and bring back my trauma, like I'm reduced to a 16 year old again
>now I'm just this delicate wilting flower
>fatigued when I wake up
>cry at least once a day
>if I don't then I have at least one panic attack or shortness of breath
>try and hide from everyone minus therapist that it's happening and deal with it in private
>nothing is working
>fucking exasperated
>I need meds I can't afford
>I want to go on a trip I can't afford to get away
>everyone keeps bantering life will get better who doesn't know the half of it and then wonder when they neglect me why I'm so sad
>I don't blame them for neglecting me because I've become insufferable to be around
>not recognizing myself
>who am I anymore
>sometimes think life would be vastly improved if I ghosted everyone full witness protection, fucked off and reinvented myself
>that's never going to happen
>nona stuck here forever
>when will it get better
No. 1640024
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I was recommended a Vogue article that basically detailed long hair being a trend in actresses over 55 and how that's somehow against the "rules" and totally punk rock because older people normally have short hair? I have never been so confused and grossed out by an article in a really long time. It almost gives off fetish vibes? The lady mentioned too many times how her dad would say that "a woman's hair length should be proportional to her hips" like that makes any fucking sense and thought it was funny her dad would make fun of her mom every time she came home from the salon just to mess with her. People teasing others for the sake of teasing literally makes me sick because the person is taking pleasure in someone else's pain or embarrassment and there's always a sort of power balance issue. Just the way she wrote the article gave off a very hip cool mom nlog vibes and mentioned men throughout. The very last part she had to bring in her boyfriends opinion like it fucking mattered. She tried to play off men making comments as them just being hur dur such kidders the men in our lives actually love whatever we do with our hair but also that haircut doesn't work on you sweetie it's like a nun trying to be a fashion model or some bullshit. It's terrible but I was so thoroughly disappointed and grossed out by her article I really hope she stops writing or is fired. Carrie Bradshaw wannabee.
No. 1640025
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i hate this fucking weather its been raining for like 2 hours ffs when will it STOP? MY ROOM KEEPS FLOODING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No. 1640029
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i long for this connection with a woman. just roleplaying weird BL things whenever and there's never any judgement between us
No. 1640032
>>1640031where did you find your rp partner
nonnie? i kinda wanna get into roleplaying kek
No. 1640072
Im really struggling to learn to crochet
and use the sewing machine. Being retarded makes having meaningful hobbies really hard. Being good at nothing is serious suifuel. Why even work if I have nothing Im passionate about or am good at? Its all so futile
>>1640006I feel the same way. The only time Im happy is when Im asleep
No. 1640079
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>be holed up isolated depressed ugly loser since forever
>always sad, used to not feeling any "highs" ever because no achievements, no romance, no validation, no friends, no fun activities
>randomly meet guy and develop first real crush at the age of 27
>brain rewires and lights up like crazy whenever he gives me attention
>first time feeling any strong feelings except sadness and anger in 10+ years
>days now completely depend on whether i hear from him or not
>brain desperately clinging on to this one precious little dopamine source
>starting to get extremely obsessive and clingy
>when i don't hear from him i become even more depressed than before and feel like killing myself and quitting my job and lashing out (but never do)
oh so this is what its like being all tee hee and actually getting male attention. i was better off alone.
No. 1640113
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Just got the news that my car was totaled over a fucking fender bender near EOB on a fucking Friday. I now have so much shit I have to do in such little time over the weekend or else I won't have a vehicle. I hate that I was almost getting my life back on track, but now I have to rely on my parents for paying this off. I'm so tired, I'm just spiraling in place.
No. 1640138
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I hate nihilists and I hate misanthropes. I hate anyone who is using the post-pandemic structure as an excuse to be a monster with no regard to other people at all and no care in the slightest about who they hurt or how badly they hurt them. None of this is an excuse to be a creep or a cunt, it's genuinely such pitiful, spineless, weak fucking behavior. So many people deserve the rug swept out from under them right now.
No. 1640146
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My AC has been out for two weeks and all management has done is give me some shitty temp unit that only cools down the kitchen area. It’s been 110-120 degrees F for a month now and my apartment is currently sitting at 92 . I’ve tried calling the city since the property management is breaking the law but instead I get passed around from department to department or I get an auto message saying their answering machine is full before it kicks me off the call. Seriously I’m about to lose my fucking mind here. Fuck these slumlords and fuck these useless city workers.
No. 1640149
>>1639907guess what, even if you were good at gaming, moids would still find something to shit on you about. you're good at video games? okay but you're fat. oh you're not fat? okay but you're bad at sports. wait, you're athletic? okay but you're a slut. oh you're a virgin? etc.
you will NEVER be perfect and there will always be a cliche that you unintentionally feed into, and that's fine. stop worrying about men's opinion of you.
No. 1640161
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>>1639907But you can't just decide to "be a man", that's not a thing that is possible. Your moid "friends" would never see you as one of them and only women would be the ones willing to play along with you to your face. There's no point in dwelling on a fantasy you can never achieve. Stop caring so much about what moids think too, their thoughts and opinions have literally no value lmao. They're all carbon copies of one another.
What hobbies do you have that you think other women aren't also into? Just curious.
>>1639997>i hate shit like animal crossing/the sims being the most popular games played by femalesKek I love those games and I grew up on fighting games, shooters, and racing games. I still play all sorts of stuff but those are fun games.
No. 1640198
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Concha Garcia Zaera, the Abuela del Paint, has died and I am legit sad about it. I hope she had a peaceful passing.
No. 1640230
>>1640222Maybe we're lost soul sisters or something. I feel like this story is sadly all too common with women I've met, many of whom have been through worse than me.
It's hard to have motivation when your life's been bulldozed unless you can sweat it out or push it down. You don't want to be a professional
victim, but you also just find it hard to live under the weight of your experience. On down days, get up in the morning bantering over what you want to do and half the time you can't even do it. People sense you're broken, and the bad ones see your life force as something they can suck out with a straw. So it makes you fear people. Does it ever really go away?
And then I wonder: am I the problem? Am I the real problem because I feel and think too much? Do I overwhelm them all? Is that why nobody sticks around? Is that why I want to crawl out of my skin and this life and into a new one, so I can elude the fact that my presence drains everyone, and pretend I was never that exhausting, stupid, hard to handle woman?
No. 1640256
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A discord gal pal left the server over a week ago with no explanation, sad times
No. 1640304
Sometimes I'm embarrassed about being poor and living in a country with shitty infrastructure, but then I see whiny first worlders and am so relieved I'm not like that. Like wahhh, oh no, you have to press buttons on machines in your temperature regulated home, the horror. They are always so snobby too, they judge you for using clotheslines to dry clothes, having unreliable water/electricity, not having AC, being dirty from hard work outside, etc. It's part of why "cottagecore" is so funny to me, half of them wouldn't know how to wash clothes by hand and actively judge/gawk at you for actually living the life they pretend to want. Why do so many first worlders fantasize about hard labor when they're so lazy? I don't get it lol, but then again maybe I would be annoying as fuck too with all that free time.
No. 1640388
>>1640373I'm sorry
nonny. I understand how you feel, I have celiac. You're not an idiot and it sucks to be the odd one out. I'll send out positive vibes that you don't get those nasty cystic acne or blister rash. I'd also give you a hug if I could.
No. 1640390
>>1639907I've had a single short phase that like social media would describe as "I don't know if I want to be with him or be him" for a really athletic and charismatic guy. But it certainly isn't true for being male in general. I surely don't want to go "boohoo, being a man is
hardddd", but they have plenty of mental problems that keep them from being happy even if they're on easy mode for being fit and they have like one single societal role to fulfill and even fail that.
You do realize women aren't a hivemind or single organism? I find plenty of esoteric female empowerment cope embarassing too, but I'm just a woman, I'm not
women, and you care too much about how retarded cumpeddlers see you, while these fuckers don't even see you as an individual. Or it's not even something they'd actually think and you're creating your own mental cell.
No. 1640455
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I've just felt so fugly these past few days. I even just started my period and usually when I'm PMSing I turn super beautiful but that didn't happen this time. I feel like the last drawing on picrel.
No. 1640502
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I am so sick of crying. I hope I'll get over him fast.
No. 1640546
I’m so fucking pissed at my mother, she’s not abusive but my god she’s such a boymom through and through, it makes me question why she didn’t abort me if she’s not gonna put even an iota of effort into pretending she loves me just as much as her beloved scrotie. I could be tearing up my body atom by atom and assemble it in every way she wanted me to, and it wouldn’t be enough. But my incel brother just is, that ungrateful piece of shit just exists, and she’s kissing the ground he walks on, I don’t get it. She’s said and done worse shit before, but ugh I don’t know why, this time it’s extra bad. I just want to punch her, I want to hurt her, I want to throw the truth in her face and make her feel the same insane anger and sadness I am feeling, I want to treat her just like my brother does; ignore her, antagonize her, disrespect her, crush her, but I can’t because I just know I’ll regret it, I’m too soft for that shit.
No. 1640569
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>>1640502Have a japaleno popper to cheer up
No. 1640600
>>1640595>>1640595I wish, but when it comes to buying something that's the only time my mother comes through without a fail.
Idk maybe I just want momma to stop treating me like a 2nd class citizen just because I'm female; maybe I want her to defend me when my brother starts getting all up in my business, like she defends him when I tell him to respect his own fucking mother, and maybe I want her to stop expecting me to be my brother's mommy maid once she's gone.
But I'm probably just ungrateful.
No. 1640605
>>1640600Also
>and maybe I want her to stop expecting me to be my brother's mommy maid once she's goneWhat does this even mean? Does she literally expect you to take care of a grown man after she dies? If this is a real concern of yours then you need to either talk to her directly or move out and cut them off.
No. 1640606
>>1640603I've been trying, but everytime I make him do something around the house or I'm trying to have a conversation, she appears out of thin air to baby him.
It's exhausting, and I can't fucking wait for my vacation to be over so I can fuck right off to where I came from.
No. 1640616
>>1640605Well yeah, she hasn't stated it explicitly, but he's pushing 40, unmarried, and he does not know how to do basic chores around the house, and since it looks like I'm not getting married either it's kind of expected I move back home.
I'm saving up to move to another country but money is thight, and I'm already paying for an apartment a city over bc I don't want to live at home. I kind of fucked myself over with that one, but living on my own is the only thing that keeps me sane.
No. 1640620
>>1640602Do you not have any brothers? I have two older brothers and I was treated like the slave and they were given everything. They were sent on trips to basketball camps, to different countries with their friends, and allowed to stay over at their friends houses, meanwhile I've never been on a class trip or had even left my our city. My brothers never had to do chores, but I was expected to complete all of them and run all of the errands, I had to iron my parents clothes and massage my father's feet. I was never given anything, not even privacy, my parents would literally destroy my things if I did something they disapproved of but my oldest brother punched holes in his wall and my parents just didn't care and had the holes patched up with no repercussions for my brother. I want even allowed to eat the left overs without being screamed at. And I was
still called a spoiled brat. Took until I was 27 years old for my dad to finally admit that he treated me different and I had never been a brat.
No. 1640621
>>1640618God you're stupid, can you read? I said she'll take care of it at her own pace you retard, she's
venting. Are you actually that fucking stupid that you think people aren't allowed to express their emotions unless they plan on doing something about right this second? Go the fuck away, loser.
No. 1640636
>>1640632What do you think I'm a toddler? You weren't born in the 1800s anon. "your time" is the same as my time, garaunteed. You grew up in a family full of women, you don't understand and you can't understand, so why do you need to have an opinion on it? Why can't you just understand that you
can't understand?
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>>1640628>he never wants to have kids because he doesn’t believe in “inflicting life onto others without their consent” that's based and he's correct though? it's really unfair to gamble with someone else's life. 4 months is not a long time though tbh. the bipolar thing, however, yeah, is pretty sucky and traumatizing.
No. 1640647
>>1640646Listen to this
nonny, 4 months is literally nothing
No. 1640655
>>1640636Ok now you’re just sobbing, yeah no one cares. I can see why mom doesn’t favoritize you
>>1640634I was born in 1973. Your time is not the same as my time kek
No. 1640669
>>1640655Imagine acting like this and being
50 oh my God you're fucking embarrassing.
No. 1640683
>>1640655Oh goodness me. Pushing fifty and doing the "kek ur so
triggered" act on a mongolian basket weaving forum. I'd expect someone half your age to have grown out of that by now.
No. 1640686
>>1640683And in the vent thread kek
>>1640684Speak for yourself, this place is a mess, I'm not going to be here in a year.
No. 1640689
>>1640676what in the world are you talking about? your take is the schizo one. genetics don't matter when you bring life into the world? there are material ramifications to many types of creatures that impact the world in very negative ways, first of all. there's a huge difference between a fly and a human. the issue is not just life existing in general necessarily, and the difference is that flies have no conscious ability to CHOOSE, against the better interest of their offspring. people do.
genetics absolutely do matter in that it's pretty selfish when you know the outlook for people born today are grim, and the odds are very different in different cases of people or animals and their respective genetics. it's not selfish for a fly to reproduce because it has no ability to consider selfishness, but a person does. and presumably anon has an interest in not being a shithead parent who doesn't consider the potential outcome for their child, so why would you disregard considering whether or not they have a shot a good life? your posts are insane.
No. 1640691
>>1640675Because they weren’t little Dennis the Menace wannabe’s
>>1640681Tell your therapist, kiddo.
>>1640683I wonder how you’ll feel as the average lifespan continues to go up. More and more people are living to be over 100. What you gonna do if a 70 year old comes in here telling you that you sound stupid?
>>1640678I first got on Lolcow back in 2016 lol so not super long!
(infighting) No. 1640714
>>1640697>Wahhh you’re not agreeing with me your attitude sucks! Ok
>>1640705>You’re the youngest female in a family of all females so you must be a man A lot of you don’t have very good deductive reasoning skills
>>1640702Too late
>>1640700And that’s why you leave.
No. 1640716
>>1640713Usually abandoning them forces them to realize their wrongs. Unless it doesn’t. Then you’re better off without them.
>>1640712>You’re a geriatric pickme even though you’re verbally anti-male You don’t know what pickme means, do you
No. 1640733
>>1640721You've been here for 7 years yet you couldnt learn to integritet….are you on some disability.
Either way high chance this is Blaine considering he loves role-playing as old women for some reason and he does always does this before he gets banned.
Tranny.
>>1640724If its not really a geriatric pickme then It's probably that tranny blaine.
No. 1640756
>>1640751Why would I resent something that I created kek that would just be a waste of time
>>1640754I don’t have a son though? Also there was no sperm donor I have a husband
No. 1640762
>>1640757>I doubt your daughter would have a positive reaction to you saying that you should cut an abusive parent offOk I’ll send it to her and ask. Will post when she gets off work and responds kek
>>1640760I know this is the vent thread and everything but your trauma is not universal…
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>>1640763shh anon, don't discourage her from facing the reality that her daughter is regretful that she is her parent. sounds like it might make her peak about herself and just be generally hilarious tbqh
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Who else waiting for the daughter to make a post
No. 1640797
>>1640776and parents aren't entitled to not being ditched in
abusive retirement homes when they start losing their minds and shitting themselves
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>>1640799As someone who's dealt with bipolar moid men I am also co-signing anon gets away from him
Whether or not you think you can fix him girls, just remember, you can't
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our team leader finished ealier and our manager also went home ealier because she's a lazy bitch so we were left alone, again. I work in logistics and we basically just sell iphones and simcards. Every day when you send a transport of phones or simcards you need to close it in the system and print special papers. so me and my friend were kinda bored and we wanted to fuck with our coworker who always loads the truck and gives the papers to the driver, and instead of 1 copy we printed 10 copies and I drew dicks on all of them except one. we were sure he would notice it because how can you not notice a dick drawing on a white piece of paper? I mean it wasn't big and the guy wears glasses but even he would notice that. afer loading the truck he came back and it looked like he didn't notice anything, he didn't laugh, didn't say anything etc. me and my friend were laughing for a bit but then we started worrying that he actually gave the paper with the dick on it to the driver. I don't know if he didn't say anything just to fuck with us or what. if the postal company actually gets the document with dick they can report it. I'm paranoid now because it's so retarded and I'm simultaneously terrified and amused by the thought of them sending a photo of the papers with a dick on it to us and our bitchy manager putting it on a board during our weekly meeting and asking who did this, I'm losing my fucking mind I don't want to be fired for one moment of child-like joy of putting a dick on a piece of important paper because I was bored and soul depraved after 8 hours of labor in a capitalist state. I hope they have a sense of humor
No. 1640826
>>1640817"
Toxic masculinity"
No. 1640847
>>1640817Selfishness
Immaturity
Lack of self-awareness
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Finally got the courage to put an end to the situasionship I was way too emotionally invested in last night just for his mother to end up in the ICU today and most likely will not make it. The timing couldn't be worse itfg
No. 1640916
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glad i don't have the desire to have children. interesting how moids i interact with just openly expose themselves for being lazy as fuck beyond their jobs. once they clock out it's about THEM, not their wife and kids. these are men who also think taking care of a family sounds more fulfilling than having a job where you have to answer to a boss who doesn't give a shit about you at the end of the day. also women in my life who have kids will go to me to complain about how their man won't help them beyond the bare minimum at most. i can't believe how many of my cousins had kids with men who don't seem enthused about children at all. it's like men are allergic to responsibility beyond being ordered around by a boss, and they love it because they get to complain 24/7. i'm just shocked how men want kids because they get away with putting no effort in. i'm forever grateful my dad spend as much time as possible with my brother and me, and if he wasn't working he was fixing shit for our house, designing and building stuff to make the house better. modern moids kick and scream if they're asked to load the dishwasher. i'm willing to clean and take care of a house because i would feel good about that responsibility, but i am never reproducing with these lazy moids.
No. 1640921
The 30 year old thread in /g/ is so weird
>uwaaa I’m not ready to dress conservatively>>1640916My coworker is in an all-male family (husband + sons) and the amount of shit she does for them is nuts. She ranted to me about having to call their doctors and dentists to set up their appointments because they won’t even do it themselves
No. 1640966
>>1640950Don't go back. If he thinks he can get away with that, he'll find other ways to probably take advantage of you that are way worse because no matter what, he gets what he wants in the end. He's disgusting, I pray he hasn't done it to someone before and won't get another chance after. You are worth more than what some stupid piece of shit forced on you. Don't go back.
>>1640940I'm so sorry about the outcome of that situation. Your friend should have not been jealous and hopefully learned down the line that her reaction was not appropriate. It still reads as a lot of unprocessed feelings going on. Have you ever really opened up to someone else you can trust about the situation? Has it affected intimacy or relationships at all? Could be projecting a bit myself, but had a similar situation and I was numb for years until I could finally talk about it. Wish you the best going forward.
No. 1640974
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I almost miss 00's cringey pick-up arists. Sure they were mysoginistic clowns, I've lurked our local scenes forums, but they were still largely focused on telling guys to self-improve, even if their psychoanalysis of "the female mind" was fucking ridiculous.
The new flavor of "internet autistic teenage boy and nerd entertainer" aka podcast bros completely threw out all the shit about becoming social, dressing well (even though they themselves dressed like clowns) and, like, at least touching grass to meet a woman, and they're just about telling little shitters how they're absolutely entitled to anything in the world and women should see that.
No. 1641032
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Not sure if a vent but I was just thinking how from around ages 15-23 I was so desperate to sleep with someone, I mean cuddle and all that shit, so touch starved but never did shit about it due to feeling fat and ugly as hell. I'm now in my 30s and the mere thought of having someone even sit on my bed disgusts me and the thought of cuddling in my bed or even kissing, fucking nasty. I think I somehow either broke my brain, gave up the delusions or am some sort of autistic or have ocd (that has been suspected, I do have my little things I need to do)
No. 1641054
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the fuck? why does youtube keep ahtoplaying when I have autoplay disabled? it didn't autoplay a few hours ago but when i opened the app jsut now it kept autoplaying. I went trough the settings and it's disabled there too so why? I use vanced which hasn't been supported in ages so it's not a new update or anything. I legit didn't have any problems a while ago so why NOW?? fuck I don't even get the point of autoplay no one fucking uses it so why do I have to suffer like this
No. 1641109
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At my highest weight I was 410 pounds, but in the past 3 years I lost 130 pounds and am now 280 pounds.
I hate scrotes so much, now they started giving me all sorts of attention, catcalling, and comments on my body when previously at my higher weight they used to leave me alone. Even though I'm still literally obese they now try to touch my butt, on the street I got called "milker mommy" and to "clap them thick cheeks"… Are men always this vulgar? Is it because I'm now "plump" and therefore attractive to rando coomers? (sorry for choosing a coomer-tier image but picrel is my body type)
I can't deal with it, every day I want to only wear a muumuu and hide all day because I hate being seen as a sex object (I was fat all my life so I never experienced it) and degraded like this
Every day I think I should just give up losing any more weight and resign myself to being super obese and go back to 400+ pounds to cope
No. 1641116
>>1641109What the fuck nona, same highest weight and I'm 110kg rn, still way too fat but working on it but I feel the same. My thing was weird though, maybe 50kg ago, scrotes would constantly fetishize me and send me gross shit, but now almost nothing. Now the slightly more normie scrotes are noticing me on the streets, bars and cafes and it's not the usual "fat whore" yells across the street or "you should lose weight, you fat bitch" in the tube from some suit. I am definitely still losing weight but I can't imagine wtf this will eventually be, I hope scrotes will notice how saggy I am getting and just leave me the fuck alone, but I'm sure there's some droopy skin chasers around as well, so buckle the fuck up nona I guess.
No. 1641144
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>I’m eating for two!
>the baby loooves it
Keep up that stupid ass talking and your baby won’t exist anymore you ugly loser
No. 1641146
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The thing I miss most about childhood is every day feeling endless. Reading once that the first 25 years will feel as long as the last 55, at least mathematically, allegedly, makes me despair.
No. 1641182
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>mfw the guy fucking me SCREAMS during climax
No. 1641188
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>be me
>spend a month with bf at his house with parents
>both of us are 24
>his parents are annoying people
>his mom is person who believes in magic, hoaxes, and drinks all day
>his dad lectures me about things and also tries to tell me why I'm wrong all the time.
>die inside everytime my bf wants to chat with them for hours
>bf and me get into a fight over misunderstanding.
>His mom says he will ghost me. We been dating for 3 years.
>his dad defends my bf behavior
>I'm fuming because they can't keep out of something doesn't involve them. And saying horrible stuff as attempt to make us make up.
>boyfriend is mad they got involved
>His dad says constantly that he thinks differently and built differently. I realize his dad is one of those people who look down on you for not having life experience or knowledge in something that he cares about.
>I tell anything about something and it turns into a lecture. Ex. I tell him about how my sister is clumsy and has hit her head on a car trunk due to not paying attention. It turns into how I should fix the car trunk because it should have latches.
>I'm happy that I'm leaving because I dont have to deal with his drunk mom or lecturing dad.
>I miss my boyfriend but his parents are just too much to deal with for a month straight.
No. 1641209
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cant even get in the mood to have sex because it just feels so wrong. why this happening to me, im mid 20s.
No. 1641211
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>>1641203That scene in Shameless where Jody is having an out of body experience fucking karen
No. 1641350
>>1641244anon i get you. my parents passed when i was a teen, grandparents died before i was born, other set of grandparents were
abusive so im no contact with them. the rest of the family became no contact to us once our parents were dead. There are so many little things in life I'll never have from it. I remember sitting watching some dad be so proud of his son for passing an exam and me realizing that wasn't a moment I'd get. They weren't there for graduation, if I get married, if I ever had a kid, can't invite them over to my place, no fun family text messages, going out to drink, reacting to stupid videos, nothing. we werent even well off so there arent a ton of "big" moments. my sister has said I seem so bitter sometimes but of fucking course I am. when other people get to lean on their parents and have so so many memories that I can never create. its like a deep numb void for things like mothers and fathers day. i just have myself along with people ive met. i wish so bad there would be a father or mother figure to replace them. so many people get to keep their parents all the way to 40 or 50 and they got to see everything in their life. idk what that will ever be like. i will never have that.
No. 1641409
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the lower-right side of my abdomen hurts god i really hope its not my appendix, im always getting these mysterious fucking abdominal pains and it scares me. i was reading about appendicitis and none of the symptoms line up but im still paranoid. save me
No. 1641412
>>1641410its possible… i dont have painful cramps but i do bleed a lot. every time i get those mysterious abdominal pains i also get sharp pains in my colon/lower intestine area (?) and they happen when im on my period as well
i dont know, my stomach is also kinda fucky, i might get a checkup but who knows if theyll be able to find whats wrong
No. 1641421
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I am a STEM nerd and am pretty sure I was publicly wrong about something and got berated for it. It made me realize I am very rarely wrong about something like that because I intensely study everything I bring up typically but I slipped up. I'm some sort of intellectual perfectionist where either I never slip up or I do and being wrong about one thing makes me feel like a complete dipshit but I'm not self unaware enough to ignore or hide when I realize I'm wrong. In summary I was wrong about something in public and now I hate myself. I envy people who are just wrong sometimes and go on with their day and ironically I probably seem really arrogant but I'm only so confident in what I say usually because of back checking myself so hard. Half the time I look arrogant and the other half indecisive because I don't want to say a wrong thing. I don't know for sure but I think me equating things oddly (being wrong once means I am stupid) might be due to me having OCD.
No. 1641442
>>1641422Oh no
nonnie is he going to be okay?
No. 1641485
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Fuck. I overshared and ranted to my friend who just asked "Are you fine?" poor girl was worried and now I made her worry even more. Ugh I'm a terrible friend. I deserve to die alone.
No. 1641521
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I honestly can't imagine trooning out. Not because I've never felt alienated from other women, but because you'd have to be a weak ass bitch to actually internalize the negative actions and behaviors of other people "b-because we share chromosomes" and start deluding yourself that the opposite sex is made up of normal, healthy, non-retarded people. It's even more ridiculous to be convinced that if you fuck up your hormones and lop off your tits, men will accept you and treat you like one of their own instead of just thinking "Oh, it's a defective woman". If a man woke up as a woman one day and had to live his life like that, do you know what he'd do? He wouldn't be trying to get a tube sausage made of arm flesh attached to his crotch because benis so important. He'd do coomer shit, and carry the fuck on with life. Probably become a giga feminist when faced with the worst aspects of female socialization. Like, grow some fucking dignity.
>"I hate this world and how women are/are socialized to be. I can't relate to other women at all. I'll try to be a man"
Liteally only the girliest, most femininely socialized little drone would self-harm over what other people do. Pickmes suck? Don't care, I'm not one of them, simple as.
When men troon out, it's to coom and become the gf they can't have. That, or they're just gay and want to be able to fuck straight men. Women trooning out because they're sad about society (tm) is the ultimate fucking joke of how cucked this sex class actually is. It's crazy that some women think it shows how different they are from other women instead of realizing it's a massive testament to how they were raised as women to be as pliant and self-blaming as possible. I want to say at least AAP types (especially fujo elements) are doing it to get off, but 90% of them also carry retarded delusions about women.
No. 1641583
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I crave decency. I just want to be decent and normal. Fuck.
No. 1641667
>>1641660No obviously he didn’t say he’s going to rape kids or tr00ns but that’s obviously why men go there. Apparently going with a male friend and coworkers joked that they’re going to “fuck around” and we also live in a country where a lot of scrotes go to Thailand for sex tourism.
Feels like my respect for him instantly went to 0 when I found out.
No. 1641701
>>1641700Oh my god I meant
SHITTING it out I’m not reposting this I’m too mad right now
No. 1641703
>>1641700based but:
>I’m still going to have to give birth too, nobody really has a choiceyou do, spinsters existed all the way throughout history.
No. 1641712
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repost from
>>>/ot/1641696 because idk where to post it and i guess i just want some input or anything on my post.
I feel so stupid, dumb, confused and scared. Last week a co worker asked if I would like to eat lunch in the weekend. As a retard i first thought he actually meant to ask if I normally eat lunch in the weekend. Then later I realised he meant to like invite me. I said yes and it was very fun, this Saturday we went to the Barbie movie and then he mentioned he really liked me and I just feel so fucking dumb because I had no idea this was supposed to be a date. In the end I just told him that I wasn't ready for a relationship and that I was sorry because I had no experience and didn't know this was supposed to be a date. He actually was super nice about it and now I feel bad even more. I'm confused because I just never expected someone to confess to me so I was unprepared and now I have 1000 scenario's running through my head. Should I have not rejected him to try it out? But I don't want to kiss or have sex, what if he expects those things. I don't even know if I like men or sex at all. His face is nice and talking with him is nice. But I don't want to see him naked or touch him. I just feel so stupid and scared because it feels like have led him on. Will I ever be ready to date, do I like men or women will I never like anyone at all? I didn't want him to say he liked me my life was fine before I knew people could feel this way about me and now I can't stop thinking and worrying about having to be in a relationship. It makes me want to cry so bad. Do straight women force themselves to like a man body?? Like do all straight women just pretend to not be discusted by penisses and male bodies and still have sex with them? My sister told me that I should maybe experiment and try out stuff with him because she confessed that she isn't even attraced to her husband and had to force herself to like his body and she was only attracted to his personality. Which just seems horrible. If I wasn't socially retarded would I have noticed that he felt romantic towards me and would I just have accepted without panicking as much and being a normal fucking human being? I have so many questions and worries right now, I want to dig a hole and never come out of it. I will see him again on Tuesday what do I even say to him? I'm to scared to text him too, I feel so bad because I don't have many friends and I finally thought to have made a friend.
No. 1641718
>>1641712Whoa, slow down sister. From what you said there, absolutely nothing you did was weird. That sounds like a total standard human interaction, you're just stressing because you were clueless about his intentions. Getting a confession does
not mean you have to accept, it is okay to not feel the same way. It would be one million times weirder to pretend you liked him to "try it out".
No. 1641725
>>1641710Can you stop minimodding shithead?Just don’t look at the post if it’s upsetting you
>>1641708>>1641709Mine and his families just both expect it from me and if I don’t follow through they’re both going to neglect me (including him, his family will find him another wife) and I’m sorry if this sounds faggy but I’d rather die being loved by them than live healthily while being despised by them.
No. 1641800
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>invite friends for a sleep over
>all of us are early 20s
>watch a movie
>play some uno
>play some vidya
>pretty fun so far
>things calm down after a while
>''so uh, what do you guys wanna do next?''
>everyone goes silent
>give an idea
>everyone seems uninterested in it
>oh no…
>they are running out of their zoomer adderal juices
>friend pulls out his phone and starts showing everyone shitty memes
>rest of the night is me forcing myself to laugh at the unfunniest shit i will ever see
>at that point its over, everyone will be on their phones for the rest of the day and will be too bored and overestimulated to do something fun again
I fucking hate modern friendships so fucking much. I am the only one who doesnt use a phone. I only use discord to DM friends and i dont use social media, so i dont understand what they find funny, i dont wanna look at my phone, i wanna do fun things. My teen years came and went like a fart in the wind because everyone in the 2010s was also glued to their phones. I dont have a single memory of my teen years because there was nothing fun to do and inviting friends over meant watching youtube and looking at memes. I am comming to the realization my 20s are going to be equally boring and there is nothing i can do about because the mobile phone overstimulation menace is here to stay. I fucking hate it, my mom talks to me for hours about all the fun things she used to with her friends, how she has vivid memories of her teen/young adult years being really fun. Meanwhile i can only remember my childhood, when sleepovers meant actually socializing because we only had brick phones with bejewelled. I hate it, i hate this modern timeline, i hate that i will never truly experience life and that i am 20yos and i barely have fun memories. I feel so depressed.
No. 1641825
>>1641700the only women who have nagged me about not wanting kids are two unhappy mothers who accidentally got pregnant. it just speaks volumes lol! they lie if you're honest about why and they feel angry that they had to become mothers while i haven't accidentally become pregnant because i didn't forget contraceptives exist. then other times they whine to me how the baby daddys dont help them, are distant, expect them to do everything. also have been told "i wish i knew what i wanted to do with my life like you do at your age". like no duh, you should have been smarter and planned your life out better! atp i just say i am waiting until marriage and i dont even care when/if i get married, it stops them from asking in the meantime.
JuSt eAt MaCAroNi. emotional eating is how you get fat. you're not eating for two adults you're eating for yourself and a fetus, only a couple hundred additional calories over time. can women stop telling us all to just be dumb?
No. 1641883
10 months ago I was really young and naive and moved 1,000 miles away from my family, to an unfamiliar area where I knew nobody, to start my career and make a good life for myself. I was so excited to have life experiences, and when I began my job I idolized my coworkers because they seemed so smart and put together, I wanted to be just like them. My team was a very close knit group of people so I wasn't offended when I wasn't immediately accepted into their posse, but still tried to be friendly. Then I found out that this group had a reputation around the office for being bullies, particularly my manager, and the workplace harassment only got worse over time. I went to HR and the program director (who hired me and was directly responsible for me), and neither of them helped me. My manager kept throwing work at me that was beyond the scope of my role, and I couldn't do it, she used that as an excuse to fire me. Once again, higher ups were aware this was happening but no one did anything. Now my joy and optimism about entering the world after isolating away from it for so many years is gone, and I'm just jaded and bitter.
No. 1641890
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I really hate how short women always make a huge deal out of how short uwu smoll bean petite and tiny they are (like Shoe0nhead). I have never known a short woman who didn't constantly infantilize herself for men and who didn't constantly point out "teehee I can barely reach this thing and look on the counter cause I am sooooooo short!" and then they act like they are insecure about it even tho they clearly are proud to be a fucking midget. Ok cool you are a dwarf, congrats.
No. 1641909
>>1641870>sis you still have sleepoversits not normal?
>maybe try preparing more board games and stuffsadly they are completly uninterested in anything harder than uno
No. 1641926
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Love when the computers at work fail when we have a long line of customers! Love it!
No. 1641940
>>1641890and then, those "short" women act superior towards tall women and give them shit all the time. It's nice that they can wear shoe size 36 and fit into triple zero, I still can crush them just falling down on them. I think it has a lot to do with what men think and most men seem to be frightend by taller women (over 1,70 most of the times) and these tiny uwu smoll cute women adept that, looking for a guy that can "protect" them, bla, bla, bla. While it has advantages being short, I guess many of those women that act like you describe are insecure and have this image in their mind of a moid being their rescuer from whatever.
>>1641904guess it has to do with where you are from and how the average height is, in my city many women around 1,55m act like nonna described.
No. 1641965
>>1641961I know they don’t I tried reaching out to one I was closest with but she didn’t respond
Also I have to get up in 4hrs hahaha I’m gonna kms
No. 1641972
>>1641946I've read so many horrible things about "tall" woman, I'm 1,75 myself, so average height, not even tall, but how disgusting some comments of women are is incredible and they wrote exactly the same things that the men wrote. That's also one thing that annoys me so much in the MtF thread. I had large feet growing up, had difficulties to find shoes that fit and look cute and now large feet are a sign that you are a man? I like my height, wouldn't mind to be taller, but I'm tired of the shit women get around me when they are not the cute, tiny girl a man can protect.
>>1641962Sure, it has a lot to do where you live and the social circle you are in. I've lived in a part of my country where the women are tall, mostly no problems there, but I also lived somewhere where the men are mostly shorter than 1,75m and they would look at you like you are some kind of freak. It's just my experience and it might have changed over the years as I mostly don't interact with unknown men these days.
No. 1641975
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>>1641946i agree about the skinny women complaining about something that is definitely universally attractive and praised especially, but despite what people say about short girls, it's not actually as desirable or well-liked in society as people claim. overall, the most universally attractive women seem to be 5'6 because that height enables your waist to look thinner because short women have far less space between the end of their ribcage and the top of their hips, so you have no real estate that's ribfree to create a particularly thin waist, unless you have a very very small ribcage and are short. i think the desirability of being short is massively overhyped. men do prey on shorter women though but that doesn't actually make it desirable. your proportions can also look janky really easily. i had the biggest body envy as a kid for pic related (5'9) because it looks so much more dignified and classic. men claim they want short women but in reality their dream women are always tall anyways. most short women don't really have great frames in reality. famous short women tend to, though. the likelihood of being a well proportioned short women is rare. taller women are usually better proportioned and long arms, long legs and good lengthed waists are more desirable. it's like when men claim they love blondes and they act as if an overall less attractive blonde is more attractive than a gorgeous brunette by virtue of her being blonde. in reality they're just not.
overall i think shorter women are not usually well dressed either because it's impossible to find jeans and pants that fit, and even pencil skirts look like shit, so the off the rack options are limited unless you're in japan or something of the sort. this contributes to the reality that shorter women are not universally desired when compared to women who are able to dress well and look nice. the only real worthwhile benefit to being short is that people are, imo, not as rude to you because you tend to be seen as less imposing.
No. 1641986
>>1641972>how disgusting some comments of women are is incredible and they wrote exactly the same things that the men wrote. i once read that our vaginas are supposedly more loose…like wew
in other places this specific type of misogyny can lead to huge problems, e.g. in korea an actress who serves as witness in a murder case for another actress was denied police protection because she's "too tall to get kidnapped and murdered"…
>Yoon Ji Oh shared that at the beginning of her investigation for late Jang Ja Yeon’s case, she expressed her fear of walking around outside even in broad daylight to which the police investigator asked, “How tall are you?”>She then revealed that when she said she was 173 centimeters tall, the investigator assured her that she didn’t have to worry since there was no record of kidnappings of women over 170 centimeters tall. The investigator continued to reassure her by adding, “It’s hard to mutilate bodies of women over 170 centimeters tall, it’s difficult to dispose of them, and it takes too long to cut the Achilles’ tendon and draw out the blood. On top of that, kidnapping a taller woman alone takes too much effort.”women are always looked down on by men but for shorter women they at least feel some pity
No. 1641994
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I lost a family member, I got a lot to do for my job and my extra gigs, I am so tired. I am so mentally wasted right now. I just want to lie down on the bed and cry and sleep, but I have to email and send a bunch of messages to clients. I wished I would just disappear right now, simply vanish.
No. 1642013
>>1641975>overall i think shorter women are not usually well dressed either because it's impossible to find jeans and pants that fitas a "tall" woman I can tell you, that it's a thing for many women. The fashion industry in Europe mostly works with a height of 1,65m, so everything above or below that won't be served well. Shirts are mostly too short, sleeves are too short, etc for tall women and you can easier shorten clothes than add some fabric too it.
And being tall doesn't mean you have the desired proportions. I always had too big feet, too large hips, a too big ribcage and if you look into celebrities outside from runway models the normal height among them seems to be around 1,65m, so below 5'6 mostly.
I think that women shouldn't bring each other down and if you don't have a shit personality your height just shouldn't matter.
>>1641986The vagina stuff I didn't hear before, how stupid men can be.
That Korean case is horrible, there is no problem kidnapping a skinny tall Korean woman, I guess I would have smashed one of the police officers. But yes, it's mostly expected that tall women can defend themselves, while tiny (and I mean tiny) women have to be protected.
No. 1642026
>>1642013>you can easier shorten clothes than add some fabric too it. kek this so much.
i can't even remember the last time i was able to buy a proper shirt or blouse, especially now that everything is some version of cropped.
but dresses are also impossible when the waist or underbust tapering is simply made for much shorter women.
No. 1642037
>>1642025Nta but because people are expected to adhere to social conventions and are considered rude when they don't. Not her fault those exist.
>>1642029>(in a goofy joking way)So you're still not being direct like anon said but sugar coating it to get away with it lmao
No. 1642040
>>1642028>Why wouldn't they have it just as hard?…because everybody gasses them up as gorgeous while ugly/fat people get bullied starting from earliest childhood…?
Yes everybody can be mentally ill but thin being seen as desirable by society is a fact. There's no way they can compare that to what others face.
And especially anons on here complaining about being "skinnyshamed" also always continue to go on rants about landwhales, so it shows pretty well just how superior they actually see themselves kek
No. 1642043
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>>1642037If you’re being goofy and your friends know you’re serious then congrats you have directly communicated. I’m sure she’s had to be seriously serious about it once or twice before they realized or she directly discussed it when them. And social norms are different everywhere and literally retarded who fucking cares.
No. 1642060
>>1642047I mean everyone has their own reasons to feel confident. I am 5’11
and the shortest person in my immediate family and I don't hate the shorties. I enjoy my bird’s eye view of the world. Being small or tall or whatever is cool.
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I have such an extreme phobia of pregnancy and babies that I'm having panic attacks just thinking about having sex, my moid is gonna spend our work vacation at my place and we've never been so long in close quarters and it seems unavoidable and it's making me freak out so badly, birth control does not seem like enough and he seems to be feeling unwanted and unnattractive because of this whole ordeal and even having some somewhat anachan tendencies because it's not like if i am virgin even though the only times i've had sex i was nearly blackout drunk.
I feel like i'm ruining a really good relationship and my boyfriends mental health because i can't just fucking put out like everyone else does.
No. 1642109
>>1642083It's double awful because i'm not a good candidate for sterilization, i have some genetic heart issues and it's not recommended i go under anesthesia, my mum had uterine myomas and even then her doctor vehemently denied doing surgery and she had to power through until menopause, getting sterilized seems like an impossible task.
>>1642094I tried getting both a copper IUD and keeping my hormonal birth control but my gyno shut me down, it feels exhausting dealing with it honestly, nobody even fucking takes me seriously or helps me feel more comfortable.
>>1642103I tried to keep like that but my boyfriend is starting to feel hurt and it's affecting his self esteem and mental health.
No. 1642125
>>1642114this is exactly my situation only with the roles reversed. i'm
>>1642090 and i've been ghosting my best friend for about 1 month because she's insufferable and controlling. I don't know how to explain it, but for those who know about sign shit, she is Cancer with a Pisces Ascendant and I am Gemini with an Aquarius Ascendant. my friend has extremely heavy energy and is not a light and casual person to be around. and she keeps trying to contact me even though i answer her dry. honestly I think your friend must be unbearable like mine and must have that same mental disorder of wanting to control and be friends with everyone. I think the only difference in our situation is that we are 20's
No. 1642157
>>1642152this is exactly my situation too!!! my friend has a good online presence and she has several internet friends and even so she continues to be extremely needy for no reason
>>1642150literally selection bias lol maybe your situation is like this but most normal people can get friends on college/work/online friends/hobbies/sports/through bf/gf friends even after school
No. 1642163
>>1642153just the fact that your body getting cut is the smallest damage is so fucking terrifying to me, everything about birth seems like out of a horror movie yet people continue to push it into your face as if it's completely normal or happy to suffer like that.
>>1642157you can't be for real, have you never heard of so many adults being lonely? they even make statistics and shit about it because it's such a gigantic problem.
i know that some people manage to find a partner in their workplace but genuine friends? no. and hardly anybody is still in sport clubs and stuff after college.
No. 1642239
I fucking hate taylor swift. her songs, her lyrics, her fashion, her inability to dance, her inability to sing, her libfeminism, her quirky relatable 2014 normie side of tumblr image, her fans, her late fake southern accent, her taste in men, her hair, her squinty eyes, everything about her is insufferable. she's the female version of harry styles and dan howell types, it's so fitting that she dated the former.
No. 1642379
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i'm out of wine and it's the only thing that helps me function even though i just drink a little throughout the day since i can't take the meds that would help me as they're technically illegal (they're anti-depressants but not legal in my country). very frustrated and my family treats me like shit for needing a little "unconventional" and "harmful" help despite the fact that i've gone through every conceivable avenue to assist me with no results or ability to even access other rarely used meds because drs don't want the liability. they abuse me continually like i'm someone who refuses treatment when i've gone thru 15 yrs of ineffective treatment and i'm so sick of it.
i'm tired of being so scared of my own family who treat me like i'm 14 due to this.
No. 1642390
>>1642361Referred to many through one like a virus
>>1642378All except the one I hang out with, funnily enough even if I tard wrangle that one she's the one I get along with the most and knew the longest (before online friendships)
I should just play dead for a month or something
No. 1642427
I stopped going on /g/ after seeing the state of people in the 30+ thread. Not even hiding it helped, it was just too, idk sad is too soft of a word. Rage-inducingly pathetic maybe.
It's wild how many insecure adults there are whining about not being able to do something or another because of their age, how it's all over for them, how they already look haggard and their looks are waning, their life is over, wearing this and doing that is inappropriate… it honestly sounds so exhausting to be that worried about other people's opinions. You don't need mommy's or anyone's permission to do things or wear things you like! You're grown!
If you've been on Earth for 25+ years and still haven't figured out that the only reason anyone ever insults older women is because they're a) male, or b) a woman who fell for the meme and now wants all the other women to be miserable like her because SHE had to do it so why don't YOU, you're beyond help. And all these insecure idiots will inevitably become bitter and say those exact things about other women (one good example is the Lori thread) which means I can make fun of them for being that pathetic and gullible.
I also find it quite interesting how it's simply accepted that men will have their own hobbies, interests and music tastes their whole life, wear the same band tee and cargo shorts from first grade until they drop dead and have the same haircut until they go bald, but women get the cops called on them, often by other women for wearing trendy clothes past a certain age. Like I'm sorry you got duped into getting a grandmother haircut because you think you're ugly and can only wear muumuus now but I'm different.
No. 1642449
>>1642443They're speaking on complexes and rationalising out the thinking. I'll be 33 and I cared more about being 30 at 29 thinking the 20s were some peak of humanity. Your 20s are a mess. You come out of your teens thinking you're full grown and start making retarded decisions you'll have to correct a few years later. You start taking more control of your lifestyle and a lot of people go to shit and wreck their bodies so when they're reaching their 30s they feel old and lethargic af. I was never a big drinker or foodie and I had a friend post a photo of us from highschool and a lot of people to me were like "omg anon hasn't aged a day" but I have. I'm in actual good physical shape and care far more about the nutrition in my good. I'm not just relying purely on youth and genetics to overcome terrible habits. I'm more flexible in my 30s. I hated wearing bikinis in my 20s, now I know I look great for my age. I doubted my fashion sense at 30 because there's very little media or representation for women our age that aren't some high flying professional that can afford all designer clothes or some dumpy mother figure.
You said you're 25+ and lecturing those over 30. What age age you, 26? Cope.
No. 1642470
>>1640950Never mind immediately dealt with after he told me he was cheating on his ex with me but it was "none of my business"
>>1640966thank you anyway Nona
No. 1642482
>>1642480Nta but yeah most people look the
e same from their mid (or even early 20s) to their 30s. My mom is 60 and has the same body she had at 30. Scrotes are also terrible at guessing women's ages lol
No. 1642486
>>1639323Oh this is so me, I watch so many documentaries and too long youtube videos on things and it's like I love taking the information in then when I go to describe it to someone else it's like "yeah that whole situation is just awful, um you should watch it if you want to learn more".
Like I know Nestle I bad, I read the full wikipedia page. I tell someone and they ask what they did and I'm like "yeah something with keeping water away from people that need it? And loads of other stuff". At this point it's acceptable to me to just whip out my phone to google it real quick to be reminded of the basic points because it's just shameful. I wonder what that's all about.
No. 1642487
>>1642480I meant when I was in my 20s, I wasn't as fit as I am now and felt uncomfortable in bikinis because I wasn't matching up with what I was seeing in the media. Now that I actually work my body and focus more on strength and flexibility I am in better shape than I was in my 20s, and in comparison to my friends who lament about aging I'm in better shape because I actively work on it. The last time I drank was at Christmas but I smoke weed and I'm aware smoking is bad so I do what I can to mitigate damage from that.
It's just about being self aware.
No. 1642550
>>1642471good for you but you're an exception. if you actually read that thread you'd see that plenty of our issues are caused by how people treat women once they're no longer in their 20s, and there's nothing we can do from stopping society to be that way.
I don't see any difference in my appearance compared to back then and my personality and interests haven't changed that much either, I also have a good degree now so it's not like i'm useless but nothing about that matters because i'm not married, don't have a baby and aren't young and fun anymore.
men and young girls call you aging and bitter, older women call you childish and entitled, it really feels as if nobody except other women your age like you anymore.
No. 1642581
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>>1642525this is me helping you close the laptop. get up and walk away from the computer.
No. 1642587
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The photo radar in my city is insane. When I went to pay my ticket from last month online I noticed they issued me another fucking ticket last week. I zone out and speed occasionally through an intersection but 95% of the time I go the limit. This shit is fucking retarded I'm too poor for this.
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>>1642427Anytime someone bumps those threads to say how they feel like their life is over because they'll be 30 soon, the replies always tell them they're being retarded (in a much nicer way than I'm paraphrasing)
No. 1642749
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My sis lost her dog recently and wants me to come over for emotional support but the problem is her and her husband are total slobs and the house is disgusting especially the bathroom. They were always slobs even before the dog passing.love my sis but I don’t think I can’t spend more than 2 hours bc the filth just makes me want to claw my eyes out.
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>>1642747ummm…. yeah i don't trust that guy at all nonners. something very very fishy there.
No. 1642781
>>1642755proud of you nona.
also it sounds like you're dating my brother, i unfortunately foresee this happening to him. when i visit my parents and he's around it feels like i am walking on eggshells. last year he could have gotten another DUI, slashed our parents' couch, and always bummed my vapes (which i didn't really mind). now he's obsessed with moids like joe rogan and anything about self improvement, always lecturing people and acting holier than thou, nagging everyone to stop drinking, smoking, and vaping.
>"anon did you know chicken is a protein?"…yes… i majored in biology and you don't even know what an amino acid is. stfu
No. 1642820
>>1642550I am the OP. Nobody is going up to you personally and saying you're aging and bitter. I'm 100% sure you're just reading posts online from men and young women who project their insecurities on your age group. Not once in my life have I seen someone in their 30s, and I have a sister that age, worry about being called aging and bitter. It's only and exclusively terminally online women who don't go outside and care far too much about other people's opinions. Normie 30-somethings have fun, wear things they like, travel and live their lives.
How can anyone even know you're older if you say you look the same you did years ago? Who says you're no longer young and fun? You are young. If you aren't fun now and your interests haven't changed much, then you've never been fun, so clearly that part's not related to age, so why worry?
And haven't you ever seen how people treat moms with kids? You worry so much about not being liked for being older and single but ignore everyone shitting on "mom bods", "mom pooches", "dumpy mom fashion" (in this very thread)?
You're just proving my point. Being older/ugly is not a crime outside of lolcow.farm, and only insecure people like you think it is.
No. 1642840
>>1642820>Nobody is going up to you personally and saying you're aging and bitter. I'm 100% sure you're just reading posts online from men and young women who project their insecurities on your age groupThe pressure to marry and have babies is real anon, believe it or not. It's people's favorite conversation topic around you, doesn't matter whether it's family, relatives or somebody at your workplace.
Plus the faces people make, the disinterest when they find out how old you are. And of course younger girls taking any chance to joke about you being already old, but is it really just a joke? or does it please them that they can uplift themselves by putting you down
No. 1642848
>>1642840Then lie about your age, those people are
toxic and will be
toxic no matter how old you were. If you were 23 and they were 22 they'd feel superior for being younger, it's just trashy bitches with brain worms who will get what's coming to them once they get older themselves.
No. 1642975
I try so fucking hard everyday and it never seems to be enough. And still I keep trying and trying and I never feel good enough and I doubt something will ever change. 16 years with depression and still counting. And I tried everything, from medication to therapy to meditation to different alternatives and my mind is always thinking about dying.
I’m so tired. So, so tired. Like, not mentally tired, it’s physical at this point. Everyday when I wake up I keep staring at the ceiling and thinking that I’d rather be dead.
I don’t see the point in living to be honest. Sometimes I try to keep myself interested in something, hobbies, music, reading but nothing’s permanent. Only this pain.
I used to think that I would be happy with friends, then I got them and nothing change. I got into a relationship and still, nothing. I thought about buying a house which I did. I got a job. A car. A family. Everything. But my mind is never satisfied.
Even when things go wrong and I know it won’t ever be like this, I’m “fine” because I still think someday I will kill myself. Then I feel bad because people love me and I know it but it gets worse from there because I realise I’m just living to not hurt them. Which is extremely tiring too.
And I can’t talk with this to anyone because the same pattern always repeats itself, my friends want me to go therapy, when I go there my therapist wants to give me medication and it kind of helps but these awful ideas remain, my family gets so worried I feel even worse, so I try, I try to feel better and I try to convince myself I’m fine, or that I could always be worse, and it works only for a little while.
But when I’m alone I can’t keep lying to myself.
No. 1642990
>>1642465Aren't you also making assumptions by thinking that everyone uses the same boards and cow threads
>the same women who dissect what other women wear all day long get stuck wearing muumuus is satisfying.>If you mock 27 year olds with mullets but end up getting a “”karen”” cut yourself that’s only divine justice>And all these insecure idiots will inevitably become bitter and say those exact things about other women (one good example is the Lori thread) My vent for today is I'm tired of anons like you believing every poster is the same.
No. 1643000
>>1642860Yes, what's unclear here? They'll be pissy and cry online that they're "old" now and can't do things because we live in a society, cause they used to look down on older women themselves.
Nobody I know who has a normal relationship with aging goes on self-pity tirades, because they never had thoughts like that in the first place. Do y'all hate your mothers and grandmas too for getting older?
No. 1643041
I went to grab a glass jar of sesame seeds and found out a bunch of bugs were inside, gross!
>>1643030Exercise might be helpful because it would strengthen and develop your muscles.
No. 1643118
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>>1643113Thanks for reaffirming, my mother tells me that the result of my tits looking like this is because I don't always wear a bra at home and I used to think it'd only affect me when I'm a lot older but maybe my boobs do actually look normal.
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paid my phone + internet bundle bill in full thinking shit was settled only to see that service is pretty damn finnicky actually. i'm looking into actual internet providers but it's all so damn stressful, i'm not getting that $200 back (paying for me and my mother). even if i send her phone back – she says she doesn't want her phone after all if it's fucking up, which is perfectly understandable – i won't get the bill payment back. or the service/activation fees. i'm tired
i want and need a fucking JOB it's insane how hard it is to find a job that isn't slave tier factory shit or customer service. i'm frugal as hell so i only need like ~40k a year to survive. that would get me a great apartment in my state (i live in one of the cheapest states in the usa). god why won't anyone hire me. to top it all off i'm moving back in with my mother who's like….twenty minutes from the city, and i cannot drive (i am 23 and i still cannot drive). if i could drive i'd feel a little better. but driving is so scary, i don't really want to die on the road…
i'm just tired. life is such trash. i don't feel like packing up all my shit but i only have the week to do so.
No. 1643120
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I will never get over my childhood cat dying and that's something I've come to terms with. She was my entire world. Ironically she looked like picrel, which is what I feel like when I think about her kek
No. 1643151
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oh nonnies im feeling very sad at this particular moment regarding the constant fusion of the internet and real world…i miss when they were two separate entities and both were enjoyable in their own right (granted this can just be due to my young age at the time…) i wish all of this wasnt imposed on us…i feel so happy when i only use the internet in limited quantities. i recently visited my boyfriend and did not use the internet outside of some reading and coursework and it was so lovely to be with nature and actually immerse myself back into my hobbies! and of course be with him! now i feel lonelier but that isn't what brings me to this point anyway…just part of why im using the internet again a bit more because i do not have friends where i live. i have to take my classes online for the next two years to get my degree…its really nice and flexible but sometimes i wish i could afford to move to a place near a campus so i wouldnt be forced to stare so much at a screen. im sure it wouldnt be that different taking in person classes though in regards to technology use lol. i want to read the book stolen focus ive heard lots of good things about it and it infuriates me to a degree to think that our focus and originality is being stripped from us due to a degree because of technology and how we are forced to interact with it and now we have to work hard (this is life i know) but work hard against reversing the effects of something most of us NEED for work and education…not optionally! i guess its just about finding balance. internet for work and people i need to have contact with…pirating books to read…maybe some fun stuff here and there…but needs to be balanced with the same amount of outdoor activities and being mindful like with eating or my hobbies and i should use more books for research rather than the internet…perhaps a useless vent but feeing inspired to do more self improvement minus the burn out
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>have niche interests
>literally not a single piece of media that fits my criteria
>ok gotta make it myself
>oh fuck, now i have extremely high expectations for myself
>my art isnt good enough yet
>i have never written a story and i probably suck ass at it
>there probably isnt even enough interest for the crap i like, which is why its non-existent
I envy men, they can have the most fucked up fetish/ special interest and there is probably a piece of media which intentionally or unintentionally fits their tastes.
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all customers should die
No. 1643266
>>1643256Your keikaku is really clever,
nonnie.
>Translator note: keikaku means plan No. 1643353
>>1643350I'm
>>1643347 and I'm a Sag.
No. 1643388
>>1643350I'm
>>1643343 and I'm an aquarius. It's an air sign and both aries and leo are fire signs. Fuck I also don't believe in this shit but by some strange coincidence the fuckers that get me going always turn out to be either leos or aries…
>>1643347I encountered a pisces man only once and he was manipulative as fuck. Everyone though he was that sad timid shy quied boy tm and when he wanted to get me it turned out he was a creepy weirdo manipulative predator
No. 1643437
>>1643378ayrt. men only want kids for the typical kodak moments and because it's a normie box to check on the "successful in life" list and men cannot think for themselves.
why would i go from being the chill gf who already puts up with enough BS to the angry mom and uptight wife (angry and uptight for an understandable reason, men do not fucking help. the only man i know that actually has ever genuinely helped his wife is my dad and i only realized this recently lmao). if moids don't complain about your natural body changes to having their goddamned baby, they won't help. if they do help, they will bitch about how hard it is for them. imo we don't win unless we bag one to buy a nice house and refuse to reproduce.
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Can someone explain what I did wrong here? I am red.
No. 1643558
>>1643223I know the pain anon
I going to shit my sexy fanart for the bridge on the river kwai and disney robin hood USA prohibition AU all over my art twitter! (when I'm good enough, that is…)
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I'm having the worst period cramps of my life and nothing is helping. Fuck this shit. I should've taken my own life last week.
No. 1643717
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Anyone else notice males nowadays have low as fuck/unhealthy libidos? Fapping to porn doesn't count as a healthy libido. Guys just don't want to be in relationships anymore, even if there is the promise of sex. Too much effort I guess? Or is it because the boys near me went to Catholic school and it fucked them up for life? Like do you not see that I am into you, you fucking retard? Where's the sex drive? I'm waiting to lose my virginity and each month I go through different levels of horniness and I'm waiting for someone to tongue fuck my pussy or stick his fingers inside of me or just show any interest of exploring my body. Imagine having a horny girl right in front of you exuding crazy pheromones and you just don't do anything. I will fucking rape you, I will mating press you and tease your big ass and thighs and I will lower myself on your face and force you to swallow every last drop of my gushing spring petals. You fucker, [CENSORED], you will let me ride your tree branch leg and pin your freakishly small hands aside and cum 40 times until we are both soaking wet. Then you will clean up after my mess with your tongue, and then some. Let me spank you, you bad boy that's what you get for having the libido of a fucking dead fish.
No. 1643723
>>1643717>my gushing spring petalsNever heard this euphemism before kek.
Sorry that you're surrounded by useless scrotes.
No. 1643725
>>1643723Yeah I just made it up, feel free to use it
>>1643721This enrages me. If I find out any of these useless boys are watching porn so help them, they will suffer the consequences and I don't mean just the balding
No. 1643734
>>1643717You’re amazing,
nonnie, I hope he stops being retarded so you can finally fuck him.
No. 1643754
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>>1643735Can we kill them after we rape some of them, like le based praying mantis
>>1643738Such a blackpill. Males are so useless. We live in the best time for forming relationships, patiently experimenting what kind of intimacy suits us, and they ruin it with porn consumption. Then they cry online about how le evil feminazis did this to them. No moid, you could be devouring pussy and feeling the soft flesh of a real woman but instead you want to abuse your extra appendage to rape videos until you drain all of the testosterone from your balls and become a soggy proto-humanoid flesh golem with irreversible mental issues.
No. 1643770
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>>1643757NTA but it's called we do a little joking, you wet blanket. If men can joke about rape on their imageboard, we can do the same. It's not even that serious, don't be such a cuck.
I don't want sex, give a fuck about your ex
I don't even want a text from y'all niggas
I'm rapin' you niggas
Look at this pic, look at what the fuck I gave to you niggas
Ain't feelin' these niggas
Niggas want my time, call me Clinton, I'm billin' these niggas
t. Nicki Minaj No. 1643776
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>>1643757I will rape his face with my pussy, if this scares you then gtfo
No. 1643796
>>1643783But I want the orgasms. No matter what you try to say to me, a moid will be getting raped.
>>1643788The real answer
No. 1643801
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HR never did anything about the anonymous report I submitted about my boss's behavior (years of favoritism, retaliation, sexual harassment) so I went onto a subreddit made for the company I work for and namedropped everything going on. HR was on it faster than maggots on a corpse and the entire department and leadership is aware and investigating now. They think it's this random moid that has recently gotten in trouble for stupid shit and wanted to go to HR. Sometimes innocent people burn in the fire but the chaos must go on until degenerates repent for their sins. I hope good things come from this.
No. 1643828
I hate being the child of a codependent mother and an alcoholic father. I've been having a bunch of difficult emotional revelations recently but don't feel like I have the energy to do anything about it. I'm such a passive doormat with no self-esteem and I'm wasting my time underachieving, but I'm so dang drained I feel like I can't do anything about it. My only comfort is knowing this will pass and I'll figure something out. Eventually.
>>1643801Weird q but how big is the HR department at your company? Do they have a dedicated employee relations person or is it a bunch of generalists? I love HR drama.
No. 1643841
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stop responding to obvious bait you spergs
No. 1643847
>>1643828I can relate anon but the product of a codependent mother and a narc stay at home father. Not to say we're the same but it's possible we had similar upbringings.
>Children who grow up with a narcissistic parent tend to suffer from at least some of the following as children and as adults: anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, self-doubt, self-blame, indecision, people-pleasing tendencies, difficulties with emotional intimacy, and codependent relationships.Sprinkle in some drug abuse for good measure.
No. 1643866
>>1643861i stand by this
nonnie, if those complaining haven't ever been in a relationship with a dead bedroom then stfu. we are not the same
No. 1643872
>>1643847ATA. Sounds like the outcomes are the same for narcissistic and alcoholic parents. Makes sense, since my understanding is that narcissists also zap everyone of their energy and make everyone answer for their own bullshit like an alcoholic does.
Have you made any progress? I feel like I've been going through cycles of realization > trying to fix my life > giving up for like ten years. lol
No. 1643950
>>1643935same, my country is very known for its piracy culture and it's even growing stronger kek
even government officials endorsed piracy as a viable alternative to buying stuff
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>>1643861Wishing you the best of luck.
No. 1644052
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I took this week off from work but so far it's been shit. The Thursday and Friday before, my boss made sure to extract every last drop of willpower to survive out of me "So I have a clean slate for when you're gone" fair enough to want stuff cleaned up, but I could have used a little help. Friday after work I spent time job hunting because I was so over her shit (goes much deeper than being overworked for two days). Saturday and Sunday I was so on edge still and spent them basically in survival mode. Monday and today have been awful. A friend and I were gonna go to a state park yesterday but she fucked it all up + her retarded dogs that I despise were coming along so I politely declined after she was over an hour and a half late. Period started. Today I have felt terrible and have been continually on edge and ready to cry at the slightest provocation. And it's extra hot outside so being out there is misery. I've been inside playing Tears of the Kingdom on and off for 4 days. Making Link run around in his cute little royal guard armor set. There's other stuff too but god damn. I am just so tired of it all.
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Kek I can't believe these loveless autists want to start a new thread. The lesbian thread moves at a snail's pace because it is exclusively for complaining about how oppressed they are the yumes and fujos. If they were capable of talking about their own interests instead of complaining about others' maybe they could actually fill up a thread
No. 1644103
>>1644098I work from home most days so it’s okay!
>>1644096kek I would but I’ve been banned in the past and don’t want a perma-one this time
No. 1644105
>>1644102Idk I think I'm average but maybe I lack self-awareness
I don't have any particular hideous features
No. 1644130
>>1644128>would staff provide that kind of thing?they'd just provide paper, not the other stuff like envelopes and stamps
i hope pens and notebooks are allowed there, in my previous hospital they weren't and it was fucking pain
>going to bring some of her favorite sweetscheck out the list of what's allowed to be brought as food to patients in that hospital, they might reject your stuff or simply throw it away or even eat themselves instead of giving it to your friend like they were supposed to (happens sometimes)
>buy her a plushievery good idea if, again, it's allowed there. been to 2 hospitals and they had different rules about that
No. 1644139
>>1644132probably because people could gouge their eyes out with pens/pencils but it only makes sense to prohibit them in a high guard ward and not a regular one where patients are actually capable of thinking for themselves and are not usually dangerous (+ they're heavily drugged), mental hospitals have different wards in them sorted by severity of the patients' behaviour (at least in my country, eastern europe btw)
and i was in 2 different hospitals but at the same degree of severity so yes, makes no sense why they'd be not allowed in one but freely allowed in the second.
>some of the regulations are so bizarrei agree, the psychiatric system doesn't even recognise their patients as human beings with rights. i hope your best friend will stay safe.
No. 1644169
>>1644139this is really helpful, thank you anon. i have no idea what severity of ward she's in but i'll definitely call ahead. hoping she will be in a low security ward but she was only admitted in the past few days so i expect they'll be extra cautious til they gage her behaviour.
>>1644142i've checked the google reviews and for some reason they only talk about how bad the parking is and how good the food is. at least they won't be feeding her gruel i guess
>>1644143tbh even if this is the case i'll shower her in soft hoodies and cute pj pants. she's going to feel cared about, whether the staff like it or not!!!
No. 1644172
Nonnas. I will end it all soon. I am 24 and I've tried everything in my fucking powers to improve my life to be around people that are like me. I am entirely alone. I have nothing in my life, no freedom, no living quality, no stability 99% of people reject me. I cannot get a boyfriend I am endlessly stuck with no living quality and I have nobody to talk to, nobody helps me. Nobody's ever done anything for me. My whole life I have been bullied and degraded by everyone my wants, needs and desires have never mattered even people that are exactly like me reject me. My life is from hell and I'm tired of what people put me through. I have nothing, no love, no respect no dignity, no friends, no stability. My whole life I've been placed underneath other people, people that are uglier and dumber. I'm tired I have no authority, freedom, no self esteem
No. 1644175
>>1644169you're welcome nona
>i expect they'll be extra cautious til they gage her behaviour.yes, if it's a hospital like the ones i've been in are they'll put her in a special room with more patients and more security (it'll be always watched by at least 1 person) before she can go in normal rooms. she'll stay in that special room for around a week depending on her condition and behaviour.
>for some reason they only talk about how bad the parking is and how good the food iseither they are heavily moderated (though google shouldn't really allow deleting reviews just because they say bad but honest stuff) or the hospital isn't popular
>i'll shower her in soft hoodies and cute pj pantstake the strings out first though, or they certainly won't be accepted
No. 1644177
>>1644173>>1644172>>1644172I have never witnessed anyone be rejected or isolated from struggling with depression/suicide/poverty and again I am a smart person I know a lot of things but no matter what I do I cannot gain friends, love, support stability and my whole life I've been put underneath people that are dumber than I am. I'm 24 already and I'm stuck in a room I've been trying to escape for 13 years and I have nothing and I gave up on the idea of acquiring love, friends, basic living quality because it is always the same endlessly no matter how hard I work how much effort I put in I am alone stuck in poverty watching people on social media go to parties, get married, live their life and I am a smart person. I wanted to leave something behind and live my life. Even on the internet I'm not surrounded by like minded people. I'm tired of being rejected. Of being infantilized of being told that my problems are not
valid. I am tired of being placed beneath people that are underneath me of being devalued. But I figured out this will be the rest of my life. I live in complete solitude. I tried really hard to make friends but everyone pushes me away. I haven't been hugged in a year. I've never felt what it is like to have love, freedom, respect, empathy to be surrounded by like. Minded people and my life will stay the same until I gather the courage to end it but recently I'm getting closer. I'm not living my fucking life and no matter how hard I try I'm not living it.
No. 1644207
>>1644191She comes in here a lot to suicide bait and whine about how horrible her life is, how nobody loves her even though she’s so smart and pretty and doesn’t deserve any of it. If this
>My whole life I've been placed underneath other people, people that are uglier and dumberand the entire woe is me schtick doesn’t tip you off that you’re dealing with someone with a narcissistic persecution complex, I don’t know what will.
No. 1644212
>>1643815They've had multiple reports over the years and never did shit. At the very least they will be extremely paranoid. They're already over reading certain words and phrases I used and saying "I can see this moid saying that, or that moid saying this!" "This happened with this moid!"
>>1643828There is one person for each location, and generalists for an entire area. It's a widespread company with many many locations
No. 1644226
>>1644222Thanks I've been bullied and harassed my whole life and I'm actually physically/mentally ill. Thanks for the empathy I appreciate it. I guess the ebegging trannies that dominate the online space and get wealthy off of simply existing don't have to get jobs but me a mentally ill and physically unwell woman has to get one. Thanks. A lot. Of ppl don't have jobs but a lot of them have generational wealth. Thanks for the empathy tho. It is so easy to be a wage cuck when your mind and body are crumbling apart. I've seen videos of homeless women that cannot maintain a retail job due to mental/physical illness and they recieve empathy. I guess I am not worthy. Also maintaining a normal life style on minimum wage while struggling with mental7lhysical health is hellish. Also jobs get paid like shit where I live. Thanks dipshit. I have a persecution complex yet I've been treated this way my whole life by people
No. Empathy/no sympathy. I'm on the verge of suicide and you're telling me to get a job
No. 1644231
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I think I don't want to be with my childhood friend anymore? Or am I just giving up on her? Or even, am I just overthinking since I don't have many current childhood friends? This rambling is long as fuck because of how I'm unsure. So, this friend's always been a little weird, she tried to become friends with me by kinda stalking me and she's into stuff I'm very not into like furry crap. But I looked past it and we became friends because turned out we have a similar hobby, music taste and home life struggles. Especially that last one, even though the struggles aren't as bad now there's still lasting effects and with her I have someone to talk to who doesn't judge me and understands, and I'm that for her too.
But now she's intensified on the interests I was looking past. Which she can do, but it means I don't know if I wanna keep being friends. Vague because trying not to be identifying. She likes creepy cute stuff like gore plus childish stuff, likes moid tier gore music with rape and scat lyrics, follows gore social media accounts, and wants a career that includes being physically violent. I love horror stuff too yet this particular combo of things is off to me. And when I've tried to talk to her about it she acts like it's just a quirky lil thing, she's just a lil insane teehee so I don't know how to actually talk about it. Like I don't want to tell her this combo of things is unsettling, because she'd take it as a quirky compliment and as me being a chicken. But, it could be a not serious thing, we still have all the things in common I mentioned and she's only as unhinged as me when we talk kek, not the discord moid type of unhinged that this new intensity in her interests kinda implies, and we've shared so much together. So I'm unsure about leaving her. I'm just keeping some distance for now, which isn't hard cos since I moved away our relationship is online only. But I don't know what to do.
Is it that I'd be giving up one of my longest standing friends, where we've helped each other with so much difficult personal shit, just because she likes some things I don't and I'm too weak to tolerate them? But yeah this combination of stuff she likes is off, so is it that me sticking around is the actual weak thing? Orrr am I just an overthinking dumbass. I don't know anymore.
No. 1644242
>>1644226nayrt unironically please go outside and volunteer somewhere. if true that
>Isolation and social rejection is the worst thing that could happen to a personthen you have other volunteers (fix isolation) and they don't usually reject help (fix social rejection).
No. 1644258
>>1644245She doesn't have tumblr, and isn't very active on twitter, I'm not sure what started this. Pointing to lockdown would be easy but not sure if it's that either. And don't worry she's not a stranger who started stalking me, she was my classmate and always followed me at break so I saw it as annoying and not dangerous
>>1644248Not even generic metalshit
I would know because I listen to that but degen porngrind, goregrind stuff. But again she'd take it as a compliment if I told her it's degen
No. 1644260
>>1644258introduce her to gorenoise/vomitnoise, it's better and you can't make out the lyrics
porngrind is shit and i don't get why any woman would listen to that
No. 1644265
>>1644260>can't make out the lyricsThanks for the rec, what's the point of the lyrics then though
>i don't get why any woman would listen to thatShe's kind of an nlog nonbinary type, another thing I've looked past because it's less off than the other stuff, but maybe that's why she's okay listening to songs about women being raped, still doesn't excuse it though especially because she's attracted to women herself
and so am I No. 1644272
>>1644260Ayrt again I looked up vomitnoise and the first thing I clicked had
scat in the title and the album cover is most likely a woman's necrotic feet with vomit or something in between is there any of this type of music that isn't about stupid fetishes and women being harmed istg
No. 1644276
>>1644265>what's the point of the lyrics then thoughfunny gurgle gurgle sounds
(and she could branch out to more noise afterwards which has actual female artists)
>maybe that's why she's okay listening to songs about women being rapedyes if she's libfem and is ok with oversexualisation because "empowerment"
>>1644272phyllomedusa i guess, it's about frogs. just frogs, like actual frogs, the hopping amphibians
search for gorenoise and not vomitnoise to get less degenerate stuff, they're essentially the same sounds but the first one is more used by less edgier people
No. 1644288
>>1644276Tbh don't know her political beliefs apart from supporting troons. I just hope she doesn't do any of that misogynistic shit in real life. Inb4 anyone says oh the media you consume doesn't always translate to real life, yeah it can, especially since she wants a particular job that includes being violent.
>search for gorenoise and not vomitnoise to get less degenerate stuffGotcha
>gorenoise just about literal frogsSlay
No. 1644304
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I have a feeling in my chest that nothing is ever going to work out for me and everyday i feel like giving up more and more.
All my summer was spent going from my house to work and then from work back to my house and I was so excited for summer to arrive because idk why I always think I'm going to have the best time ever just to be greatly disappointed. I feel like im wasting all my life on pointless things but somehow i cant stop doing those things. I cant think of a day this summer that I have enjoyed and I spend all nights wishing that I could just end everything already.
No. 1644311
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>>1644288also, phyllomedusa isn't just making gorenoise, but also various kinds of metal (sludge, doom) and harsh noise wall. but he's mostly known as that insane frog themed gorenoise artist
No. 1644322
>>1644320A literal niche that combines gore worship/fetish, military worship/fetish, and degenerate music, how convenient for her and yeah writing them out next to each other I'm not even surprised.
>>1644321Seconding this question
No. 1644344
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Pic rel, me fighting back the intense urge not to go full "Why do you even like me I'm so ugly I have cellulite and stretch marks my nose is crooked maybe you haven't seen it from its worst angle my nipples look kinda weird my tits are too far apart I'm not charming and I laugh like a donkey and I have no fucking eyelashes or eyebrows underneath this makeup surely I'm not what you actually want you're definitely probably secretly disgusted by me" when a man shows interest
No. 1644354
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>>1644338yeah like
>>1644347 said, it's just romanianon
No. 1644373
>>1644369yes
there are more pics in the personal cow thread.
No. 1644375
>>1644367they sound like poseur scum
>google translate russian and edgy metalfucking kek
i knew about nicole dollanganger and her "aesthetics" but from the way you were talking about them i honestly expected it to be lesser known artists and actual underground/extreme music, not this shit
No. 1644387
>>1644375>wants to join the armed forcesMy bad should've clarified she's already in it at a low level and wants to climb the ranks.
>>1644367>>1644380Thanks for the info anon, sounds like an account she already follows that posts sets of random "shocking" stuff like
someone's realistic prosthetic being ripped off or organs in a river. She reposted a non gory one, a girl in a metal shirt with a weapon and captioned it haha that's me. Strangely these accounts are also dime a dozen on places like Insta. Again I'm into horror stuff too, and you can make and like art for the sake of seeing how stupid you can be like goregrind music, whatever. But yeah with this specific combination of things my friend has going on, and the more I'm thinking about it and talking to nonas here the more antsy I'm getting?
No. 1644390
>>1644387i think it's just a phase for her, the only actually dangerous person to come out of these communities was vlad roslyakov (the kerch shooter) and it was in 2018 so she's very late to the party unless it's having a resurgence because of ethel cain the co-opting tranny.
>>1644386makes sense, people who are genuinely interested in that kind of stuff tend to share it normally, albeit in private communities of people who are also very invested.
No. 1644401
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took a shit and there was (bright red) blood in it life is full of miracles yayy yayyy hahahaa
No. 1644421
>>1644416It’d be one thing if she was a single mom because she was working hard and supporting her and her kid without the interference of
abusive moids but she’s a single mom who can’t even keep her daughter safe from
abusive scrotes. She’s just as bad if not worse than her own mother, it’s 2023, she could have found a way to abort the kid.
No. 1644590
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>>1644497i literally dont care, i love how white trash america is and i would kill to be part of it. It feels homely and warm, even in its stupid moments, whereas my country is cynical and cold. I think americans dont appreciate their country, even with its failures i would kill to have as many fun holidays to celebrate. My country has none, no halloween, no 4th of july, no thanksgiving hell, even christmas and news years are extremely boring once you turn into an adult. There is nothing to look forward through the year, there is nothing to do, we dont have great artists like leyendecker, frazetta, norman rockwell. We didnt go to the moon, we didnt invent jack shit, we dont have a giant industry of music/movies. My private high school was 5 classrooms and a concrete schoolyard with nothing to do. No lockers, we had to wear ugly uniforms, no library, no chemistry class. Like sports and dont like the two goverment mandated ones? too bad, cuz there is no baseball/american footbal/volleyball/running/basketball, if you dont like soccer/field hockey(gayest sport btw fucking hated being forced to pick up this shit) you cant do sports. I am so angry, i fucking wanted to play basketball/baseball as a kid because i was an americanboo and i fucking loved it in cartoons and there wasnt a single fucking place in my big ass city with several sports centers that had it. We have no ice rings, malls dont have fun shops like hottopic just boring mom clothes shops. No bowling alleys, no chuck e cheese, no arcades, no minigolf, no amusement parks, no national parks. You know what our parks have? nothing, absolutely fucking nothing some have old roundabouts i cant even get in because i keep being told i am too old. I am so fucking bored my mom complains that i never go anywhere. I live in the middle of a populated city surrounded by shops, it should be fun then? FUCK NO its boring as fuck there are like 5 mcdonalds and a bunch of clothing shops but nothing fun to do. I like to draw and not a single art shop in my big ass city, i repeat again i live in a big populated city not some shithole surrounded by cows, and not a single art shop has the amount of shit they have in the usa, you only get like basic school supplies and maybe if you get lucky they have copic markets that sell them for double the price. I cant even entertain myself with fucking hobbies because there isnt a single hobby shop fucking anywhere. I could go on forever on all the shit i missed on thanks to my dad being a massive faggot not willing to take risks for his only daughter even though we had some family there(which btw dont want to see us anymore because they think we are filthy spics and below them). I fucking hate this country, i wish i was born american.
No. 1644620
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>>1644614no, no. You dont get it, i wanna be raised as american. Sorry i know you mean well but i just dont think i could ever get over the fact i was so close to being born in the usa and wasnt. If i moved to the usa it would only make things worse, i would probably become bitter, specially since americans dont appreacite their culture and i am a big americanboo. Its very complex and i have been feeling like this since i was 8 and thats why i had to go see a therapist(never helped). If any amerinonny is reading, please appreciate your country beautiful things…
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>>1644495>>1644590>>1644605>see some anon complaining about life in a thtird world country and how they wish they were raised in america>"omg someone who understands me">they turn out to be in a country that's nowhere near as bad as mine, with far easier opportunities to get the fuck outLol. Lmao even.
No. 1644667
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>>1644657i learnt br*tish english, sorry
No. 1644671
>>1644620this actually did instill some appreciation in being a burger for me. i wish you grew up in burgerland too.
>>1644667oh i had no idea the br*tish used that word to mean something else!
No. 1644676
>>1644665where are you from? argentina is a mess, we live in constant fear of getting to venezuelan levels of inestability. We just had yet another important political figure murdering a woman and they will most than likely get away with it(again). We literally had like 5 murders of young girls that ended up destroying goverments. The biggest terrorist attack in the country was backed up by the coutry. It's an extremely corrupt and scary country. i dont think we have better opportunities to leave either, but if you are from a worse country i feel for you
nonny, hope yuo can get out of there
>>1644650no, no i dont get angry over americans complaining about their issues, i hope they eventually fix the problems like shootings/medical bills/college debt.
No. 1644696
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>>1644590Listen. My extended family is bonafide white trash. I visited them recently, and it's incredibly depressing. My cousin died from an opiate overdose just a few months ago. Multiple others are struggling with similar addictions. When the big factory closed in their home town, many people had to literally abandon their houses if they wanted to leave, because the real estate there was literally that worthless between the lack of jobs and residual pollution from the factory. Very few children live there, because most of the young people got the hell out before raising kids in that shitheap. The elderly and their NEET adult kids are pretty much the only people who remain. That's the reality of middle America; these were once the exact same towns that Norman Rockwell once depicted in his paintings.
My parents are one of the young couples who left, and I'm extremely grateful. Anon, if you were born in middle America (especially in Appalachia) you'd be a jobless heroin addict with nothing more than a high school education. The same would certainly be the case for me.
Also, just so you know, Americans didn't put men on the moon by themselves. They had a lot of help from Nazi war criminals, and they only did it as a show of strength to Russia during the Cold War.
>>1644620>i wanna be raised as americanNo you don't. It's a much better place to visit than it is to live in. We take on tens of thousands of dollars of debt for shitty educations and shitty healthcare. If you want to leave Argentina, move to literally any other anglophone country.
No. 1644704
>>1644697I'm calm, but thank you anon. I'll just keep it clean anyway.
>>1644698Kiss my ass
No. 1644717
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>>1644701looked it up, they are playing music near it? what the fuck, they should only play industrial with that atmosphere really, i bet the huge rusty metal sounds really nice when struck
No. 1644735
>>1644701Literally just drive through western Pennsylvania or northeastern Ohio, they're everywhere. Also, yeah, there's definitely something morbidly interesting about them when they're closed down and gutted like that. The nearby slag dumps and strip mines aren't as interesting to look at, though.
>>1644717Considering that these structures are full of the
toxic biprodcuts of steelmaking and were built with asbestos and lead… it's probably not a good idea to hit or disturb them. That's also why many of these defuct factories still stand; knocking them down would send a giant cloud of
toxic material into the air.
>>1644722No. People would often build houses right next to steel mills to be close to work, but when the mills closed, the houses were situated in a horrifically polluted area, which is to say nothing of how badly the structures themselves were contaminated after marinading in whatever shit the smokestacks spewed out. In its peak years, the particles from steelmaking would float through the air and stain everyone's white clothes and sheets brown.
After being abandoned, many houses rotted until someone came in and knocked them down years later.
No. 1644746
>>1644717can I come visit with you? I understand
>>1644696 anon's sentiment but I relate to the non-burgers who kinda yearn for this life.
vidrel got me super interested in middle americana ngl
I know this is sounding mega ignorant to burgers but I'm assuming like my country we all grew up kinda admiring yanks and yank-ness so I get what nonas mean
No. 1644753
>>1644746OT but holy shit, I love Watsky. Have you listened to his new album? I'm
>>1644696 btw
No. 1644755
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>be me having problems galore and not being able to solve them
>befriend seemingly nice gal who also has problems
>girly is literally living off her dead moms inheritance in fucking hawaii
>has money for a tesla
>living a great life
>other than having a bad stalker she tried to escape
>sends a shitton of scenic pictures
>learn she's skeptical of psychology
>she calls mental illness "natural reactions"
>yet complains about her scientologist uncle like she doesn't sound like an e-meter eater herself?
>"you know anon, you can just treat yourself and take trips and travel around the world"
>repeatedly inform her I'm poor and have to stay here at least through graduation and that my parents wouldn't offer to help me either
>unlike her I don't have a million dollar inheritance or some fuckshit
>start to realize this bitch is kind of dumb. but she means well. she is nice, so keep trying to give her chances to understand
>besides that there are other things I enjoy talking to her about, so maybe it won't get to me
>her views start to grate at me and get toxically positive
>"anon why are you so mooooody!"
>"anon you'll be fine! it's not that bad"
>"aNON youR LIFE ISNT THAT BAD"
>meanwhile anon has been dragged to hell and back mentally and literally cut herself and hawaii girl knows this but continuously downplays it
>her advice is shit and doesn't help me at all and all her "therapy" methods are some woo woo shit that will not work for an adhd girl who can't sit still and has a negative mindset, also I told her even though she rejects medication that I need mine back, and she's mad at me for that
>tell her if I don't get my medication back bipolar will devour my brain
>still clueless
>shelter myself off from her more and more when she's refusing to listen to any of my views on mental health and is extremely dense
>other women in groupchat I'm in with her even realize how fed up i am and secretly we all call her privileged and spoiled
>I fucking explode and she still refuses to listen
>block her
>don't look back
I'm probably the asshole but I can't fucking stand people who refuse to accept that mental illness is actually a thing and tries to treat us all as if our brains are the same. no two brains are the same. I don't like a lot of drugs but in my case, I do need chemical assistance for my bipolar when I can afford insurance again. which is ironic considering she was clearly traumatized in some way, but she blatantly ignored it. she's probably got some sort of undiagnosed autism but she rejects all medication and psychology/psychiatry so her woo woo ass is gonna keep alienating people
my problem is that I'm too self aware of my problems and I can't stand people who are "le positive" to an unnatural and nearly psychopathic level because I cannot sit in the middle of a fire like the dog in the comic and say "this is fine". I'm all for a mix of personality styles but I find fake sunny people gross
No. 1644760
>>1644746sure nona, once i save up i'll definitely go to the us to visit some abandoned factories for the sound and look. idk when it'll happen though and if it'll ever even happen
>we all grew up kinda admiring yanks and yank-nessyes, since their culture is practically everywhere
No. 1644765
>>1644755also does any anon know what the anti psychology woo woo belief is called? it sounds very much like scientology although I don't think it is. it's this idea that mental health is somehow unitarian and curable and completely disregards both nature and nurture lapse a person into mental conniption. I find this mindset incredibly delusional. even if my body is having a so called "reaction" it's gonna be emphasized by the fact that part of my disorders are genetic, and were egged on by a chokehold of trauma in childhood and later in adulthood. the crux of it is anti science and low empathy
thought I could educate her, but she's just a grade-a moron. she meant well but her actual way of handling things was so bumbling that she'd be fucked without her inheritance. her freshman in highschool vocabulary and sentence structure indicated how stunted she was. why the fuck did I not drop her earlier? she was grating at me for other reasons, like knowing jackshit about the things we were supposedly researching and mutually interested in, and just generally being asinine. god I feel like an ass for saying it because I cared about her, but with all due respect of you can't even humanize what your "friend" is going through then why are you her friend
No. 1644769
>>1644753ayrt ummm YES BABES he played here recently (for the first time in 9 years) and I missed it reeeee
new album is so so good?!?! I'm actually listening to vidrel as we speak. xinfinity is like THE perfect album imo. he's so talented, tiny poet boy goes so hard. what's your fave song/album? sorry to sperg I feel like I've met like two watsky fans in my entire life, criminally underrated.
No. 1644771
>>1644759She claimed she would "invite me to her guest house" but wouldn't pay for the ticket. She naively acted like I had free airline miles. My dad is a frequent flyer, but he has nowhere near the clout to afford a one way to Hawaii. And moreover I tried to be humble and not ask for it. I wanted to tell her to stop spamming me with pictures, I was secretly a little jealous, but it's like… she really had no concept of reality and was paranoid about her stalker, but she was simultaneously trying to sue the guy and claiming it would be fine. I don't blame her for wanting to get away from it, but also, there are cheaper places to go. If you can afford to slack off, barely have a job, live away from your remaining live shitty family, and travel to multiple states and countries, then you by all means are privileged. But she didn't care or acknowledge that and projected it onto everyone else.
There's really more to the behind the scenes framework of the story and how I met her, and I understand delusion is just copium for her, but it hurt the rest of us who were talking to her. We'd all gone through the wringer while she was kind of peripheral or her way of dealing with it was showering herself with luxuries she could afford that the rest of us could not. Then she'd wonder the rest of the group were anxious, relapsing, or hurting in anyway like a confused child. We loved her, but her naivety just drove everyone, particularly me, up the wall
No. 1644774
>>1644755>>1644765she sounds stupid as fuck except the anti-psychiatry part, that is based.
>part of my disorders are genetic, and were egged on by a chokehold of trauma in childhood and later in adulthoodyet how much of it is "genes" and how much is a pure trauma reaction? if you were to put another child in your place with the same trauma they would certainly come out "mentally ill" too.
No. 1644777
>>1644772I aspired to have her level of not giving a fuck-ness I admit, I was sort of in awe of it. She really was not a malicious person at all, just an airhead about ten feet up in the clouds
I did care about her but I honestly felt like if we couldn't connect on that level it'd be even worse if we hung out for long periods of time. Even being on the phone with her she just sounded super stoned 24/7
No. 1644783
>>1644773thank you dear nona, i certainly will and i will bring a nice recorder with me
there's a known abandoned factory in my area but it's sadly popular, so i'm bound to run into people who will certainly not understand why the fuck i'm banging on random metal, and the other abandoned factories are under guard so any sound would bring unwanted attention. sad
No. 1644784
>>1644774It's both. I know my mom for sure is likely cluster b/bipolar/neurodivergent if not all of those things and abused her kids. my dad had some kind of mental issue as well and is likely also adhd or autistic. I am terrified of turning out like mom. And while yes a lot of how I act is "reacting", a child who didn't have mentally ill parents with partially genetic disorders (cluster b and bipolar are at least partially genetic, as are things like adhd and autism) would fare better than me even under the same condition
My consensus is that people react differently. The problem with Hawaii girls mindset I had is that she didn't favor more than one woo woo treatment method, legitimately like she was brainwashed by something adjacent to Scientology. mood stabilizers and this one particular non addictive anti anxiety pill helped me when I still had them, sad I can not afford them rn. I am against SSRIs and benzos in many cases, they messed me and other people I've met up. I don't enjoy medication, but when my brain is giving itself seizures every time it flips manic or depressive, I would rather slow the decay. right now I just feel like I'm in a fugue and my brain is dying honestly, that's the part a lot of people don't understand. you don't want to spend your life a zombie
victim but you feel enslaved to it
No. 1644862
>>1644709Get over yourself you self hating argie. If you were from Brazil or Venezuela or even Mexico I’d get it but no you’re just all the worst aspects of a weeb but projected to a way less interesting country.
I’m the daughter of immigrants so I know first hand about the dumb life you fantasize about. Your parents would’ve got here been broke as fuck and probably would’ve committed sudoku at 8 since you’re so weak willed and stupid. You can keep autistically focusing on the possibility of being born here and continue to blame it for your personal failures for the rest of your pathetic existence but it won’t excuse the fact you’re miserable is all your fault. You choose to overlook all your shortcomings and blame something minuscule for all your misery.
If string theory was confirmed I bet the you in another universe born in America would be just as miserable and mad at her parents that she wasn’t born in Argentina. You being born somewhere else will not change the rotten personality that emerged from your parents’ genes.
I absolutely detest disgusting depressed fags like that project their misery as the base logic of the world. America isn’t better because you’re miserable in Argentina and no one thing change you will ever make you happy. You will never be happy. You are a nasty misanthropic miser who will never be able to pull your own head out of your ass.
No. 1644878
>>1644849You're so sweet
nonnie thank you for the pick-me-up. I'm not the nonna who posted the gif in the lyrics thread but I saw that and it reminded me of what happened and made me feel enough shame to cringepost about it. But I'm almost 100% sure that I sped that specific gif up at some point and posted it to the Discord. That whole experience was such a shitshow kek. I've popped into moovie nights once or twice and really enjoyed the vibe there! Maybe once I'm ready to try again I'll come hang ♥ Love u
No. 1644900
>>1644893Flexibility is important and the stretching will help you not feel so fatigued afterwards. I think it's really important to feel your blood circulating around you, it's how your body cleans the system your blood is the transport system. Just think when you're stretching and flexing you're doing a clean cycle for your body lol.
When you're brushing your teeth it's usually in front of the mirror, so twice a day you could fit in some stretching easily and start working on touching your toes. Hold the stretch as far as you can and breath deeply. You'll start feeling yourself improving and it'll become an easy habit. Good luck
No. 1644908
>>1644905I honestly don't know.
It might be that they're happy having sex? Or a sense I'm wasting my life reading porn?
It just makes me feel bad, but I keep going back.
No. 1645124
>>1645085i do that and my technique is working max 30 hours and only taking at most 2 classes per semester. A lot of it is recognizing your limits and if I feel like i'm hitting a breaking point i reduce my hours at work or take a break the next semester. i don't care how broke i get i refuse to overwork myself. i don't know how it'll be though if i have an internship or something where i'm forced to work 50 hrs like
>>1645099Everyone has their own limits don't feel bad about yourself the important part is you're still making progress regardless even if its not as much as someone else and you genuinely don't know what they're going through or if they're stressed as fuck. you are doing a great job
nonnie and you're not doing anything wrong just surviving in a way that works for you
No. 1645154
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I'm so mentally sick lately that everything is a 'trigger' to me. I feel so pathetic. I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I know I need to expose myself to more stimuli so that I can strengthen my tolerance to things, but I'm broke and can only afford to sit at home. Man…
No. 1645159
>>1644003ATA. You can do it, the sooner you get the hell out of there the better. My mindset improved so much after removing myself from my parents' bullshit and got me to the point I can start healing. The apartment people
want to hear from you, once you send that email it'll be so much easier getting the rest of the process going. Good luck!
>>1644330>I until recently believed the misery he projected onto everyone was in part my fault.>…realise he's intrinsically evilIt's fantastic you reached that point. This took me forever to realize, too. I used to feel so guilty about my own dad- I felt responsible for what he did, and pitied him for the fact he's such a pathetic baby. He could have had a great life with a family that was so ready to forgive and love him, but he rejected all of us and punished us for his own deficiencies. For decades. I don't love him, but I feel like a monster for not loving him lmao
>>1644410>>1644416What the fuck is your damage, you freaks? You think you know everything about someone's life based on a couple comments on an anon board?
>>1644678LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO
No. 1645231
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>>1645133>have good home lives, healthy upbringings and mental health etc. basically perfectly set up for success from birth on.The most successful people my age (mid 20s) all came from pretty much perfect homes. Then on the other hand, people like me who are losers, all come from bad homes and had unfortunate upbringings. Not making excuses though, I still do my best and I'm trying to get an education.
I know 2 siblings who come from a shitty home full of alcohol, unstability, violence. They're now both unemployed weed addicts. Everyone talks shit about them and how irresponsible they are. But I'm like… are you blind? You know how they grew up. They weren't taught shit, plus a bad home life just kills your motivation and drive to succeed.
No. 1645270
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My friends don't talk to me and never ask me to hang out.
My boyfriend ignores me when I talk and if I try hard enough, he would get mad.
My family never ask how I'm feeling, I'm the one who's always chasing them.
I thought nothing could be worse than the bullying I suffered for years. But this is it. The feeling of being invisible. Not noticeable. I feel like nothing because I leave no mark, people forget about me, I leave…Nothing.
It’s like that book, a monster calls. “And if no one sees you, the monster said, picking up its pace, too, are you really there at all?”
No. 1645339
i fake suicidebaited my friends over shoes early this morning and ik scared it’s going to come back to bite my ass.
so i was wardrobe assisting for my friends project that she was co directing. she got me the job and while i was sourcing i came across these great condition, dirt cheap, barely worn and rare doc martens that were just my size and the actors size. i posted them to the wardrobe gc and everyone agreed these were a holy grail item. privately me and my friend the co director, “marie”, agreed that i would be the ones to keep the docs since the other woman doing wardrobe was trying to imply that she would take them after the shoot.
this all happened a week before the shoot. i loved these shoes so much i wore them on and off before i was called to be on set on the last day. they fit perfectly and i expressed that so many times, as well as that i don’t usually favor docs but i loved these. and i’m sure marie and our mutual friend/her roommate “tai” saw me wearing them a few times as well.
the last set day was filled with a lot of tension towards me and my wardrobe supervisor from both directors and marie ended up taking the docs off set and putting them in her car without letting me know. at the end of the day i was going around asking like a crazy person where they were and after asking like 10 people at the location they were at she whispered she had them after 15 min of asking. uh ok cool
after the car ride home at her house i ask her if i can have them and she says she plans on giving them to her little sister. i thought this was a joke, and didn’t fight it because i had been up for like 16 hours working. so i let it go.
i brought it up periodically over the next two weeks and she keeps on insisting she’s giving them to her little sister that’s starting college, which i find so ridiculous and out of left field that i didn’t press the issue like i should’ve. i had/have other stuff going on and it seemed like a big joke. that is until she starts mentioning that tai tried on the shoes, is one shoe size smaller than me and they fit her perfectly, which tai agreed with, so i don’t need the shoes since they don’t fit me anyways so marie’s sister “alexis” deserves them. and other shit about how i’m an only child, how i wouldn’t understand sisterly love, etc etc, but mostly that they couldn’t have fit me so to just let it go. but every time i ask they go on and on with these excuses.
i also asked her if i could just pay for them to which she said she was apart of production and that technically she already paid for them (not true, she didn’t produce and it’s not her project).
a day ago she said she would consider giving me the docs as long as i “behaved” (forgot her exact phrasing) whatever the fuck that means. now starting to get pissed because i’m poor af and don’t really have a lot of nice things to myself, let alone sturdy shoes, and then later when she wants me to do some clothes organizing for wardrobe she hangs them over my head and says “if you’re not going to start sorting x just bring it to my house because i’m taking the docs as payment anyways”. this set me off because this is the same type of shit my mom does/did, withhold stuff and then actually take it away if i didn’t follow whatever arbitrary rules she has set in place.
well i’m pmsing and as it gets later in the night i get more resentful and get less sleep than i need and just start hyperfocusing on how dirt they’re doing me rn. like both of them are doing these weird power plays while they’re older than me and acting like teenagers. it’s never been like this but my circumstances and the current situation (being broke af because of untreated depression/adhd (entirely my fault btw), a recent 5 year friendship breakup, pmsing, being late on rent and living with moids bc i was too lazy and broke to look for other options) leave me feeling cunty and resentful.
i posted about 4 stories of my close friends and limited it to just them and went on create mode talking about how i want to kms and how it would be easy and how i’m happy to do it blah blah. i do have suicidal ideations but i would never go thru w it bc i’m pussy. but anyways. i also send them texts degrading myself calling myself an idiot slut/cunt/retard etc etc. and how i thought they were different etc. i am in a rough spot rn but i was dramatizing it, i’m not gonna kms anytime soon.
this happened from 3-9am, they started calling me and enlisted my roommate and ex friend to see if i was alright and asking me where i am and i said at work (true). i’m off now and on the train home and they know that i’m off and i feel so guilty and stupid. i’m not gonna pussy out, ik i took it too far and will immediately apologize but i feel so dumb and dramatic. i just want to go to sleep and i pray that i don’t get 5150ed. i want to sob so bad
No. 1645383
>>1645339>while i was sourcing i came across these>privately me and my friend the co director, “marie”, agreed that i would be the ones to keep the docs >marie ended up taking the docs off set and putting them in her car without letting me knowSo she stole them from you? This was frustrating to read. Why the fuck don't you be more direct?? They're your fucking shoes!!! You found them and the three of you agreed you would be taking them afterwards. You asked for them at the end of the night and she just said "no" and you left it at that? If I were dead-tired I would be even more likely to yell at her right then and there for pulling that shit. Did I understand correctly that YOUR friend, who got you hired, is the one who stole them from you? You MUST advocate for yourself and speak up in time,
before you spiral and embarrass yourself by lashing out. That's such an awful feeling. Sorry this happened nonna. I really want to know what the boots look like now lol. I just saw a random reddit post on a reseller's subreddit about a rare pair of Docs someone was trying to sell, would be crazy if they're the same ones you're referring to (they are not tho, surely).
No. 1645417
>>1645144calm down.
>>1645128wow, i hate your sister too.
No. 1645450
>>1645245Not to downplay your sisters BS but that could be for the best, if they do it on your day it’ll completely decenter celebrating you and your partners union. In the meantime nothing has happened so try not to stew on the worst cases, focus on you and your big day with your partner!
Are you having a big wedding? Have you found your dress yet? Are you exciting to be marrying the love of your life? Ah, I’m so happy for you nonita, congratulations!
No. 1645535
>>1645482The secret is that you were always the mask
Source: has flexible face with creepy dimples, also looks like an uncanny valley character
No. 1645573
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I'm so hurt and I just want the pain to go away. I'm so sad that I can't even listen to music anymore because anything will make me cry
No. 1645602
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I have literally no problems walking for seven hours straight without taking a single break except for the occasional red light, but if I bike 15 minutes I'm an invalid for the next three days. All I wanna do is to rush as fast as the wind but it's killing me.
No. 1645727
>>1645718i already have a small one, which is just "up the job hunt". been searching for things to apply for like crazy/prepping for an interview/etc. etc. things
interview prep in itself is tough though, i record myself and listen back and it sounds like i'm speaking nonsense kek.
No. 1645799
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you are a piece of shit and i have lost all my faith in you. i hate you. die
No. 1645932
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When the butthole cramp migrates to my pussy
No. 1646031
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I AM SHALLOW I DONT CARE!!! STOOOOP STOP FUCKING TELLING WOMEN NOT TO CARE ABOUT LOOKS I HAVE HAD ENOUGH NAGGING TO NOT BE SHALLOW I HAVE HAD E FUCKING NOUGH I AM TIRED WOMEN HAVE BEEN TOLD TO CHOOSE PRAGMATICALLY SINCE FOREVER IF SEX IS IMPORTANT IN A RELATIONSHIP THEN SO IS SEXUAL ATTRACTION IM TIRED OF AWKWARD SEX IM TIRED OF MY VAGINA BEING HERMENUTICALLY SEALED ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH ENOUGH
No. 1646135
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>be me, rummaging through grandpa's old shit in the basement
>find a wound badge
>it's a badge given to soldiers for wounds in battle
>it has 3 ranks, black, silver, and gold
>gold is very rare, given for getting seriously maimed or injured 5 or more times
>i give the dusty ass badge a little rub on my shirt
>it's fucking golden
>show it to all my militaria nerd friends bragging about owning a gold wound badge
>"mate, there's still black on it. it's a black badge. the paint just came off."
>"w-why does it look gold?"
>even the shitty black rank badges had high brass content
>mfw i made a fool of myself in front of the entire friend group by claiming i had a gold wound badge
at least nobody in my family got seriously wounded during the war.
No. 1646220
Turns out my bf who has been complaining he only gets part time hours at his garbage job, when he has a good degree that should be earning great money, has been turning down job offers this whole time, while his bum ass owes me $1000 going on a year now. he keeps talking about how I’m “better at working than him” (i’m not) and it’s rubbing me the wrong way, I feel like he’s looking at me as a sugar mama (I made 42k last year when I should be making at least 65k because I can’t get hired for a better job, which I’m working on). He turns down the offers because he’s “bad at working’” because of depression. He doesn’t comprehend I was abused as a child and depression is the least of the shit I have, but I work anyway because I want a good life and to not be poor.
He’s down to so little money that he’s begging me for grocery money or to eat my leftovers, but he won’t get his stupid ass a full time job. If he did he could easily afford life. His rent is half of what mine is! Last night I found out about his turning these offers down and chewed him out, and he walked out all pissy and threatening to cry. I’m getting angrier and angrier thinking about it. The kicker? He’s great at interviews! He’s personable and has a great strong voice and exudes confidence. I struggle like hell at interviews because I’m a soft spoken introvert and it’s kneecapping me, but here he is, getting job offers and TURNING THEM DOWN because, “bawwww I’m so depressed, I just can’t work as hard as you do, you’re so much better than me at everything.” I feel used. he has an excuse for everything. he works part time but has to cancel dates so he can clean his room, or apply to jobs. he works PART TIME but somehow wastes 8+ hours a day on god knows what and blames his ADHD for it. i'm tired of him using his diagnoses as an excuse to lounge on his ass. i have depression and cptsd but i get my shit done regardless and never use it as an excuse to be a wimp. god i'm so angry. yeah yeah "dump him" i know.
No. 1646228
>>1646220Just start doing the same shit back to him and see how he handles it.
> babe I need money for groceries> I can’t pay my rent this month, help me out?> I really need that 1k I leant you, I’m broke and need to pay this super important billSuffering together in a relationship is a two way street, if he wants you to bail him out without criticism or judgement he must demonstrate he would willingly and selflessly do the exact same when you’re in crisis.
He hasn’t done anything about his situation because it’s not a crisis for him, so start saying no. Tell him to ask his parents or siblings or friends and if he refuses and doesn’t, wonder why he thinks it’s ok to ask you and not them? This sounds like a good low stakes practice at boundaries and self advocacy so let him help you, say no. See what he does.
Obviously leave his ass, chances are he doesn’t even see you as a partner but more a piggy bank. No. 1646251
>>1646220What is his degree?
He sounds lazy and doesn't want to put in the effort beyond the bare minimum
No. 1646265
>>1646020Yes I'm a zoomer, what about it?
>>1646015Then just tell her you're busy, your grandma died again, you don't have time because you have to feed your goldfish, I'm sure there's a polite way to turn her down rather than continuing to resent her for approaching you.
No. 1646297
>>1645937I don't tell about my degenerate femdom fanfic writing hobby to my radfem friends. You don't have to share your sexual preferences with people.
>I'm not offended by my radfem buddies gagging at "cocksucking bihet women who are infected by semen" at all,jesus grow a spine
No. 1646306
>>1646220>he keeps talking about how I’m “better at working than him” Run, bitch!
>>1646286This is 90% of my issue with other people. I get along famously with almost everyone but muh mental health "advocates" who nag everyone to cater to their disease and don't take responsibility. They're actually re-stigmatizing mental illness kek
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>>1646313hej nona i send you positive vibes and healing thoughts. i hope you feel better soon
No. 1646356
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WHY do I keep looking up my ex when I know damn well I'm not going to see anything I want to see? He's not going to post a wall of text saying how miserable and depressed he is. Even if he felt that way, he wouldn't post that. So why do I keep fucking looking? Why do I do this to myself? I just saw something pretty much confirming he moved on and the past year of healing I did just crumbled away. I can't stop crying over a man who does not give a single shit about me and probably hasn't thought about me in months.
No. 1646362
Just happened.. I hope this is not too much but I’ll give a CW.
Been diagnosed with C-PTSD and PTSD for a few years now, and we are exploring DID. I’ve made big progress, I went from a shell of a person, someone who watched the world from behind myself. I didn’t fit in. They were all real people and I felt like a cartoon character. I’m now 30, no contact with my family. And it has been amazing. Every new trigger we find, I am now safe enough to look inside and place why this is happening.
I’ve never been in my body. Used to fall and slam into things cause my brain was always in fight or flight, and my self worth was destroyed.
But now I can tell people I need some time to calm down, or walk away if I need to. Therapy saved me. Suicidal since I was 7.. after being sexually assaulted by my older brothers at 6. It was a hell in that house. Leaving your daughter in the hands of brothers with HUGE age differences between us. They broke me down, which was easy since my mother didn’t want me after meeting me. Like a baby. Yes she said I was such an annoying baby and I would keep screaming and screaming. She was trying to downplay what happened to me when I first told her I have ptsd and do not want to do anything with my brothers again.
The usual; get over it, when I am mad at someone at work I have to keep working with them, your sickness is affecting all of us blah blah. You might be able to tell who was my second abuser. Disgusting mother.
Today however.. I had a good day, I know about my triggers well enough to be able to not walk around like a dissociative shell. Took a shower with my SO, as always, but I should add - showers and bathrooms are triggers - but I have managed to get past it mostly after getting our own house. But when in the shower.. I went to wash the lady parts, and this DISGUSTING feeling just washed over me. Strong enough to be a flashback, and I felt so… repulsive. Just from washing myself.
I hate it.. i don’t know where it came from.. which repressed memory did I accidentally wake up?
No. 1646558
>>1646440Yes not all of them but the radfem community is so shit right now I stopped calling myself radfem because its filled with incel tier lesbians/self hating heteros, tradwives, and other shit.
Nonnie says it's only outliers on /2x/ but I see it on tumblr, ovarit (then they get banned because who knew a site with a majority het population doesn't like being insulted) who then cry to youtube, and other spaces all the time.
No. 1646601
Anyone remembers when Nicki Minaj first came out/got big? I remember it because it was the first time a girl told me she was bisexual. I was in 7th grade and I was in a alternative school. I'm black and almost every school i went too was like majority black in a urban area. Very few white kids and most the kids I thought were just white, would often be Hispanic/Puerto Rican. We had a large India/Muslim population but it was majority black/hispanic. Anyway, so when this girl told me she was bisexual, I didn't care. Like it was so normal. I remember going to a bigger hs, and there were so many butch/tomboys who'd cross dress, some would hang with gangbangers (like this one Korean girl who dated every single feminine black bisexual/lesbian girl in the school it seemed like kek), or they hung with a bunch of feminine/popular girls. It was so normalize to be in class with a cross dressing girl, whose name was like, "Sierra".
We had very few openly gay dudes, but a lot of them were hispanic, the few black ones we had just hung with the girls.
It's very weird to me to think how, I'd go downtown and see adults making faces or talking shit about the butch/lesbian/bisexual girls from my school holding hands or just dressing how they dressed. Vs. so many of us just thinking it was normal from the jump. I didn't even grow up in a household where lesbian/gay shit was discussed/encouraged.
I often wonder if the butch/cross dressing girls were treated well at home, because in school it was pretty fucking normal to me, even the ones who hung out with Boys weren't treated poorly to my knowledge. I don't know why i'm thinking about this kek.
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I wish I was back in my early teens again. Happiest time of my life was when I was staying up until 12 watching shrek memes on my new laptop, playing games instead of doing homework every night, playing an instrument, actually having friends, watching new and exciting anime like AoT, reading marvel fanfics and yaoi like it was crack. Actually having a goal and purpose to succeed in the future like teachers kept telling me. 7 years later I'm friendless about to begin my 3rd semester of college, no car, $61 to my name, jobless, relying on parents for everything,getting my social interaction from playing video games while dodging any attempts at him "confessing" again. A vicious dog is treated better than me and given more chances then I ever would have had. I've groveled,lied, and cried to get the things I need unless I'm taken pity on by mom, endured almost 2 decades of verbal abuse to try and make my family love me, but I'll forever be the scapegoat who always fights with everyone and is the root of all evil. I have all the tools to learn from my room and work towards my better life but it's like sometimes I can feel every second pass while trying to get up, or hours pass wasted with one blink. I'm in the process of deleting things and distractions for the final time, at least now isn't all horrible.
Now as I'm typing this I'm cheered up a bit because a game I've wanted for months just popped up 75% on sale, that's lucky fate for me.