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No. 1752526
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It pisses me off how hard it is to find a genuine connection. There’s this moid I know who on paper seems like he’d be perfect for me. We have a lot of shared interests like the same movies and bands, we have a similar sense of humor, and he’s extremely conventionally attractive. He’s very fit and works out a lot. He has been hitting on me for years and from what I’ve seen on his social media I’m apparently his type. But he is so fucking annoying. He has no real social skills and is just so fucking awkward. He’s desperate for everyone to like him and it’s so fucking obvious. He was a former fat kid who got hot but he never outgrew the inferiority complex. I don’t think he’s ever had a real relationship and is constantly flirting with other women for validation. Talking to him drives me crazy in a bad way. I don’t care about him specifically but it’s just so frustrating seeing how hard it is to find people you truly like and want to be with. If I really wanted to I could hit him and and have a boyfriend but Jesus I’d be miserable. I miss the moid I genuinely cared about.
No. 1752802
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I dont miss my ex boyfriend at all but whenever I think of the fact that some other bitch is knocking the stuffed animals off his bed at night and throwing them across the room with their musty feet I feel sick I tell you sick
No. 1752807
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I don't want to exist anymore
No. 1752830
>>1752484You can ask for the smaller size one I believe it’s for children (bleak as fuck) but
I had that one used on me after I had to have a pelvic and pap after being raped. The normal size one was too big and I cried so the doctor who was an Angel used the small one and it was a lot less painful. It’s never truly comfortable but there are ways to make it not awful. Having a female doctor is step one tbh.
No. 1753025
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Ever since I moved into my condo the moid upstairs has been making noise multiple times a day, usually some variety of banging on the floor, sometimes for hours. I guess he got a girlfriend because now he's randomly yelling at her during ALL hours of the day. I'm not kidding. He clearly doesn't have a job because I will hear this random yelling when I wake up, when I leave for work, when I come home, when I'm trying to sleep. I thought it would last too long but he's still chimping out multiple times a day and I am so fucking fed up. I can't report him to the management company because this building/area is a shithole and they won't care. Can't bother with my landlord because this is a private rental and she doesn't own his unit. I can't call the cops because it's not a proper domestic issue. Even if I do either of those things there's a good chance he'll figure out it was me who ratted him out and he'll try to kill me. I live alone and I have no real support system in my city, he could break into my home and kill me easily and I wouldn't even be found for a few weeks. It's not fucking fair. I work full time and barely make enough money to survive just so some crackhead can be of no use to anyone and use all of his spare time to ruin my life. It's so humiliating when I had my family over today I had to pray they'd keep their crackhead mouths shut for 30 fucking minutes because I don't need my parents knowing how bad my living situation is rn and worrying more about me. It seems like everywhere I move this shit happens. I have six months on my lease, I'm not going to try to break it because I don't want to move now, I have enough shit on my plate already. All I can do is wear earplugs 24/7 when I'm at home, wear over-ear headphones and have something playing on top of the earplugs because they don't do shit, and have the radio playing as background noise when I sleep so any random yelling has less of a chance of waking me up over night. This is torture. I'm anti-technology and I have to be hooked up to a bunch of machines just to live in my own home and I fucking hate it. All I'm thinking is how easy it would be to go up to his door with a jerry can and light his front door on fire trapping him and his crackhead girlfriend inside, problem solved, no one would even miss them. This is Canada so I would get like 3 years tops. I hope they get mega aids and fucking die painfully.
I hate being poor and I hate other poor people
No. 1753031
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I don’t know what to do. Tomorrow is my first 8 hours of standing shift at my new job. After about 3 hours of straight standing my feet want to fucking burn in flames and I have told back tears. My old job was an extremely toxic office job that made me borderline suicidal. Why do people have to stand for that long???? Why should anyone have to stand if it’s not busy/attending to a customer? I have good shoes and I take an huge ibuprofen horse pill but it’s seriously not enough and I can barely walk at the end of my 5-6 hour shifts. I can’t do 8.
No. 1753052
>>1753025>I can't call the cops because it's not a proper domestic issue. Exaggerate if you need to. You heard loud arguing, yelling, and banging and you are concerned about the safety of the persons living at the property. That fuck is relying on no one reporting his behavior because it isn't "serious" enough.
Send a message that the cops will be summoned if he so much as raises his voice above a mouse fart. He won't know who made the complaint.
No. 1753539
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WHY AM I STILL HAVING NIGHTMARES ABOUT BEING FORCED BACK INTO A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY EX, do I need fucking closure for how much he hurt me that bad?? It's been more than 3 FUCKING YEARS! I feel fucking pathetic and angry that I let myself get talked into giving him a chance give me my 9 months of life back FUCK
No. 1753693
When I saw an article about a woman killing her children and then herself, I first thought, what a psycho bitch. Then remembered there was most likely a scrote torturing all of them, and this was their only way out. There is no way a family with even 1 pedo in it survives without abuse. If the victims don't kill themselves, they're likely already watched and manipulated by people who are waiting for their children to abuse. It's the murder of moids own families, that's how diseased they are. If you have one predator in your family you know it's over. Gaslighting, lies, pinning people against each other, you end up a schizo, suspicious of everyone. I'm telling you anons if you have mysterious "autoimmune" and "psychosomatic" pains they are most likely caused by an abuser in your family drugging and hurting you. They not only rape, injure and torture but also give survivors life long addictions, where the victims don't even have an idea what the drug is that they are addicted to but are in active withdrawals, on the verge of dying. Utterly disgusting. Don't bring new life into this hell planet.
No. 1753794
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Sometimes I stumble upon incel/redpill threads on twitter and it’s just mind blowing the way these guys view women. A video of a moid Ukrainian psychologist was posted and he was explaining how Ukrainian wives who fled to Europe while their husbands stayed to fight, would not return to Ukraine because they had met and fallen in love with a European man and wanted to separate from their Ukrainian husbands lmao. Of course this is entirely the woman’s fault and means all females are bitches and whores, despite the fact that it takes two to tango and AS IF men wouldn’t do the exact same thing if they had the chance. I don’t commend cheating at all, I think it’s the scummiest thing you can do, but these men have it so twisted. They are all porn sick and sex obsessed, always talking about their fantasy harems and jerking off all day long, and yet women are the devil because god forbid, they had autonomy and found someone better ?
>This is exactly why bringing your "traditional wife" back home to the west leads her to transform into her exact opposite. Traditional women are "traditional" because they are kept in line by strict local social hierarchies that motivate them to maintain honesty and elegance.
What do they even want? Do they want to tie a woman to the radiator and keep her there forever?
I’ll admit I want a lifelong romance with a moid and I wound stay loyal to the one I love forever, but I have so little trust in men I think it’s a pipe dream at this point. They are just so often so selfish. Pic related is blowing my mind, do they want a woman to put him before herself, their kids?? This reminds me of when men troon out right after the wife has become pregnant or given birth. Such entitlement and narcissism, just because he’s no longer the main character. I cannot stand them.
No. 1753944
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>reading celebricows
>tfw you have a large block head
>tfw you have brown milk dud nipples
No. 1753947
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why the fuck do i get horny and my ibs flares up when i'm stressed?!
why couldn't i have white hairs like the other women?!
fml, fmbody
No. 1753956
>>1753918Definitely, I was classic case. Always complained to my mother about wanting to be a boy, and refused to wear any "girl clothing". I was like 8 and just had a lot of trouble fitting in with the other girls, I also had the perception that boys liked x girls like y, and because I didn't like y I couldn't be girl. As I got older obviously I grew out of that and realized girls like like whatever they want and femaninity is a male appeasing stereotype pushed onto women. Just because I don't wanna wear the costume doesn't mean I'm less of a woman. Thank God transing wasn't around when I was a kid, my parents are both super liberal and support transitioning children, they would have done it 100%. My mother even asked if I wanted to be a boy when I was 16 because I was still more of a tomboy, and that's when it started to get big. I'm pregnant now though and being pregnant and want to have the connection of mother and child, can't believe it could have been stripped away because of stupid societal expectations of "gender". I know some tifs though, honestly the one that wasn't on hrt seems fine, just goes by a new name, looks great, seems to be doing well. The other one who did, I don't want to be mean but does look significantly older. I don't know them well but their photos look a little rough. I hope they're doing OK. For some reason I really empathize and feel for tifs, I don't browse tif thread cause I can't get any schadenfreude off it.
No. 1753963
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can't stand how ugly i am right now. looking back on footage of me from even last year or a few months ago and i looked so much better. i look like garbage right now and i hate my hair but i don't have 3 dollars to spend biweekly to get it done (i.e straightened) anymore and my hair is too frizzy idk what to do with the waves it just doesn't go with my clothes. doing braids everyday isn't always the way to go. i know it's not really a big deal but looking the way i want really does have a huge effect on my morale and productivity etc. feel like pure shit x kek i'm trying not to care because it's more based and "authentic" or whatever that way but it's hard when i know i could look better in the direction i want if i just had the money for my hair. it's not about fitting in anywhere i really couldn't want or care about that any less and i look offputting and am disheveled either way. plus i'm depressed (cringe) and getting it straightened makes it more manageable and less likely to mat as much as my natural texture. i mean it's winter which means rain so it'll probably be a waste of money to do anything for the next like three months even if i had any to spend so whatever. i hate how much how my hair looks matters to me !!!!! ugh
No. 1753972
>>1753944I wrote the blockhead and nipples comments nona. I’m sorry if they hurt your feelings. I only meant to say them about Flo. Other ladies with blockheads and dark nipples are based.
>>1753969I’m looking forward to when AI replaces doctors entirely especially the male ones. It’s already been proven AI is better at diagnosing people and showing more sympathy towards them than humans.
No. 1753974
>>1753918Yes, since I have a memory (so four? Five years old? Up until like 9) I used to piss standing up even if it was obvious my anatomy didn’t allow for it, I used to fantasize about public machines you could step in and be instantly turned into a male, I was SO convinced I was eventually going to grow a penis and balls, I asked everyone to refer me by “Matt” (American ass name when I’m from Latin America lol). As a preteen I started seeing trans propaganda and figures “oh. So I’ll have to go through surgery, then? I mean, it seems like I fit this label. I don’t like using my female body for sex, can’t even orgasm, I’m always picturing myself as a man doing the fucking… Guess I’ll start shopping for testosterone and look into phalloplasty.”
Thank GOD (or not kek) that nonbinarism/autismgender/neopronouns/other kin started going trendy in tumblr and I realized how it was all just stereotypes and and “not like the other girls” rhetoric. I made the connection just in time.
But yeah, with my family being all pro-troon, I know I would’ve been transed. Turns out I just had trouble fitting in with most women because I was just not straight or happy to play into stereotypes, and hated my body because I had been abused; literally one of the most common female experiences. I wanted to run away from my body and embody the power men so get to have.
Anyway, those kinds of blogposts are welcome over /2X/ just so you know!
No. 1753991
>>1753981Come on,
nonnie, it's your chance to get an insect autist bf
No. 1753992
>>1753978I feel the same
nonnie, this site can get really bad when it comes to bodyshaming and it made me feel really bad at times. I remember reading the Onision threads religiously a few years ago and people were constantly nitpicking Lainey's appearance and calling her tits deflated pancakes, saggy etc. Like I know were discussing cows but that shit just contributes to stupid beauty standards in general. That's also just an example, a lot of the cow threads are like that and have always been.
No. 1753994
>>1753980you are back tracking like
>>1753978 said
No. 1754010
>>1753969>>1753794They expect a mother's love but also expect their wives to disregard motherly love to put them first. Some men can't handle not being the center of every woman's on their life's world.
>>1753969I had a couple good male doctors but after having a bad one I had the absolute same impression. I never went to him again because I was 100% certain I would be in danger under his care. I wish you could meet surgeons too, because the statistic for male surgeons operating on women is worse but I think the average is due to a few surgeons who absolutely hate women and have awful statistics for operating on them. I wish they'd come up with some way to moniter doctor's stats to see if their outcomes for women are in high disparity to their outcomes for men, so they weed out sexist docs. One can dream
No. 1754081
>>1754011Personally I would say “that’s creepy, don’t send me
I miss you messages” and then block him. But probably just blocking would be better, I invite arguments into my life sometimes.
No. 1754337
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>return to zomboid game after a year
>join the only active server that uses my language
>after a while realize it's all dudes, so I write in the most non-gendered way to not out myself as a girl, after a while stop giving fucks and talk on discord voice chat with some kid who also plays the game and some other chill dude
>the next day get into game and some dude who is not admin but got more privileges than other players starts going 'hey piece of cunt, show me your ass' & 'I'm going to fuck you' and following my character
why some dudes just can't be fucking normal
No. 1754380
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I am so over anything to do with social justice. I don’t want to do awareness. I don’t want to be part of solidarity. I ducking hate the arrogance of allies. I hate the idea of mutual aid. I hate tokenism. I hate the thought of being a diversity hire. I hate how I’m judged on the things I can’t control. I have being pressured into an point especially when you can’t argue it. I hate being told to “be kind”. I don’t want to hear anything about the right side of history. I hate hypocrites who yell at you in stuff they were even talking about ten seconds ago. I hate being placed into a box. I want a normal life. I want to be normal. I want to be perceived as normal. I want normal success. I have no desire for a revolution. I know I would die in a war. It’s not enough to block and delete. I need total silence.
No. 1754514
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I can’t stand the people in my cohort at university and I dread being around them. I can’t tolerate most people anymore actually, but I feel like I’m suffering for it. I don’t get much out of the company of my best friend or my boyfriend, except anxiety. I used to be better with people and I was happier. Now I feel ugly and threatened and irritated all the time. How do I change for the better? I just want to be alone with my dog forever but I’m forced to interact with the world and it makes me want to sleep and not wake up. What is wrong with me?
No. 1754564
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it's all in the past, but after the way that male treated me, i kind of wish i went in on him more. i shouldn't have softened my words. a curt "i don't care about you" would've said it all, because to be honest, i didn't even want his friendship at that point. fucking golem. get smote by the hammer of thor.
No. 1754679
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I just… fucking blocked his number.
We were together over a year but I just couldn't take it anymore. But anytime I tried to leave the nice way he'd emotionally manipulate me into staying. I know this isn't the thread for posting about worthless moids, but I have all kinds of stupid numb feels.
He's going to call me the immature one despite me being 12 years older. He flipped everything around and the last fucking straw was an argument over whether women prefer Dad bods or not. I said they don't and they lie to virtue signal and he invalidated me by saying I'm not like other girls, which was his go-to way to shut me down in our arguments, which were always initiated by him and constant. And he blamed his ADHD for everything. Like fuck off, find another sugar mama if you understand women so much.
But I just couldn't take it and I'm a coward, so I just BLOCKED HIM. Now I'm on my way back to femcelville fast because who the fuck else wants a 34 year old autist
No. 1754749
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seasonal depression is kicking my ass hard this year. i’m probably gonna have to end things with my 7yr long moidship (my mind is basically made up but i have to give him a chance to explain himself) because he has no aspirations for the future. i am losing myself in this relationship.
on a brighter note i have adopted two incredibly sweet red point cats, twin brothers, and they are helping me with this loneliness as i sort out my feelings within the dying throes of this relationship i’ve been involved in. i think i finally hit the acceptance part of grief today. i felt a little piece of myself come back when i started making my mind up today.
No. 1754755
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>>1754490Skip and Loafer. I watch it for this golden retriever boy.
No. 1754878
>>1754854Lol I used to go through the same thing and the actual advice I can give you is that you have to deal with it and stop caring. I don't care anymore if im left on read or ghosted and I don't really care to put in any effort if I'm having a personal DM with someone. Find hobbies that will give you fulfillment that you won't feel lonely. It can be anything, watching a movie, a TV series, art, painting, learning a new skill etc etc.
You can be alone but still be happy meanwhile you could be with people and feel lonely.
No. 1754906
>>1753816It's kinda crazy how society shits on female nurses and people made up that stereotype about the crazy or mean girls becoming nurses….when in REALITY it's the therapists who are crazy bitches.
I'm high school I knew this absolutely unhinged mean girl with extreme anger issues which she did not want to get help for and she would regularly go into emotional anger filled outbursts for no reason and abuse other female classmates, I also spoke a couple of times to her boyfriend and she went absolutely ballistic over that too and then picked me as a target. I even went to the principal for help and the principal told me something along the lines of that she acknowledges that her b3havior is bad. But she just doesn't know how to express herself and that I need to forgive her and get over it (funny thing is this same empathy was never given to me when i would act strange due to anxiety). She was also a Instagram influencer who was posting her self in her bra and showcasing her ass….while we were in high school. After high school ended I decided to look up what she is doing and she became a therapist.
Eitherway therapists are a scam and you can't tell me otherwise.
No. 1754911
>>1754887Nonna are you me? This is exactly how I feel. I am in a relationship and he says he wants kids, which is encouraging for the moment, but I fear things will change afterwards, especially when my body looks different and it’s harder to be intimate etc. I am terrified of looking after the children on my own, I know from my own mother just how difficult it would be. It’s so awful how society views and lambastes single moms. My mother was one and although she most definitely has her faults, the single mother part wasn’t one of them. I loathe the selfish fathers leaving moms behind much more.
It’s so easy for guys to agree to have children but it’s a whole different ordeal for women, and yet we get shamed for rejecting or prolonging it. It’s slowly driving me insane.
No. 1754934
>>1754925"Oh why would you hate the Irish!?"
Gypo uggo cunts. "Oh we've no royal family" so you'd think we'd do something with the tax revenue but we haven't free healthcare, bin man needs paid out of your pocket, many people aren't even connected to national sewage and have to pay the privilege to shit, pay for water usage and shitty roads and harmful laws to women and children cause of the shitty Catholic Church. Magdalene laundries! Let's celebrate national pride with mass graves for women and babies who we have cast out as sinners! Inbred fucks
No. 1755279
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I hate the part of the grief when I wonder what is my relative doing now before to have the images of them lying dead in the morgue return into my mind.
Is like "dead, anon. They're DEAD".
No. 1755377
>>1755361definitely, i don't think those anons mentioned boobs.
>>1755365i think i'm too used to being around scrotes who clean that i forgot the norm. i hate how it's the default for every woman to know how to clean but a large number of scrotes have the house skills of a toddler.
No. 1755504
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>>1755494I miss when every other post didn't sound like it was written by picrel
No. 1755588
>>1755586I hope so too but anytime I mention I need time I get guilt tripped to hell and back. I have so much anxiety with my mum. She was
abusive to me growing up because of her marriage ending, yet I've this weird loyalty/attachment issues that I take all the abuse so we can play loving happy families my step dad was such a stabilising and grounding factor for our family. He would cook family meals and always have actual personable time with me. My mum just treats me as a sounding board and if I have any individualistic thoughts she takes it as a sign of aggression and defiance. She's also really strict. I'm in my 30s I'm not allowed to go see my hometown friends when I'm down if it means I won't be sat in with her. I work shifts so I get random days off when most people are working. She locked me out when I went and saw my friend and wasn't home for 10pm. She doesn't like me smoke either when I'm down because she doesn't want her house to stink or her neighbours to see me out the back. So one of the things I do as a stress reliever I can't do. I do not sleep well at hers because my routine is constantly disrupted.
No. 1755614
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I miss my mom.
She's not dead but she's not there anymore, my parents got divorced when I was 9 at it was for the best, my dad is not violent, they just weren't compatible anymore. I went to live with my mom and while she was still single (for a year), we used to do a lot of things together, in particular one of our favourite activities was to go out a share a pizza and she would play games with me and everything else, we used to visit a lot of places and I was happy to be there with her. Then she got a partner who turned out to be an abuser piece of shit and it sucked the life out of her. In my teen years I felt so fucking lonely because she was busy dissociating from its (it's an object, not a person, talking about him) abuse and I felt bad about asking for the bare minimum of attention because she would snap at me for "not understading her needs" . I also had needs and that piece of shit made me clinically anxious, I'm barely functional and I'm in my late 20s.
It's been some years now that she's single again but she's recovering from all the violence, shouting and everything and I feel robbed of a mother-daughter relationship, because now she's older and I'm an adult with less time to spend with her. I have a job and relationship but I didn't have a teenager relationship with my mom, in fact I fell into two bad relationship before my current Nigel and they fucked me up even more because nobody was there to give me basic advice about how to avoid abusers. I wish we could share a pizza again , just me and her. I'm not mad at her in the slightest but violent moids, esp if they resist therapy, should be treated like dogs and put down so they don't cause harm. Fuck them.
No. 1755636
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I'm not obsessed with the idea of dating, but when men interact with me or try courting me in any way, they always tell me the following
>I'm looking for something casual
Why? Tell it to me straight anons, do I look like a hoe? Is it me? Why do I attract these type of men and no normal guys? I dress very nicely but nothing too crazy, what am I doing wrong? I feel like venting here because it's starting to affect me, I'm sick of being put into the "fuckzone" so casually I just want someone to not treat me like a sex doll. To be very honest I'm too young (early 20s) and inexperienced that's why I'm asking you guys before I get played, I don't want to admit it but I still don't understand how men work nor why are they assigning me these boxes so soon. I feel so disrespected
No. 1755659
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i'm like 95% sure i have melanoma but i can't do anything about it because i'm too poor to see a doctor and i've been too poor for like the past 3 years just watching this shit develop powerlessly. there's really nothing i can do is just sit there and i have no control over money so i can't even save up except for commute money that i barely even find at all. idk how to feel if i should cry i don't know. if i get treatment i don't want to lose my hair or whatever i know that's shallow but i've been growing it out for years. that's even if i somehow find a way to get treated at all in the first place. i'm disgusted with myself. i know it's not in my head anymore because even my mom whose instinct is to deny deny deny is worried about me but we literally cannot do anything. it hurts even more to see her powerless too and i don't know how to express to her that i don't think it's her fault that we don't have any money because it really isn't ( she is the reason we aren't homeless or in prison for all the debts we could have been in rn ) and i know she is doing the best she can for me. i'm scared and freaked out
No. 1755743
>>1755628>>1755676>>1755678i was really hesitant but this is the channel link. hopefully it can get taken down. (
https://youtube.com/@chetlehkarenusa991?si=TnrMphjy8r06k1pW)
No. 1755794
>>1755743There's a lot of travel channels with videos like "walking in Thai night market", "walk through Harajuku" etc. I used to watch them but then I realized that the cameraman would always linger on random women for too long, hold the camera at odd angles and walk behind women when on stairs, and the comments were always creeps talking about the women and not the travel or scenery. It's very insidious because when half-watching it passes as normal travel vlog crowd shots.
Recently I also found myself in one of these videos, in my swimsuit at a beach. The video doesn't have a lot of views and I'm only in it for a second but it still creeps me out… men shouldn't be allowed to have cameras
No. 1755804
>>1755794Nonna I'm very sorry for what happened to you. I hope someone punches that idiot to a pulp.
I also used to watch "walking through Kyoto/Tokyo/etc" videos because of how relaxing the walking atmosphere was (specially during rain) until I started noticing the camera man staring too much towards women. I hate men.
No. 1755868
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I'm on the max dose of my antidepressants which has worked ok for years and I've also recently started working out a few times a week, so why am I suddenly feeling depressed and unmotivated??? I have schoolwork to do but I feel literally nothing when I boot up my computer, when I look at my assignments that aren't even particularly complicated I want to cry, and then I have this uneasy feeling of anxiety sitting in my gut all day so I can't focus on anything while somehow at the same time feeling absolutely nothing. I enjoy uni, I love my classmates and I want to do my assignments but I can barely bring myself to all of a sudden.
No. 1755901
>>1755897ayrt, i can but i dont know how liberal the hosts are. im scared it would jeopardize my inclusion in the group.
i guess even from their pov i have a very good case since he is just "genderqueer" and not visibly identifying a transwoman in any way?
No. 1755928
>>1755873Cringe
>>1755856Cool and relatable
No. 1755936
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Hearing myself unintentionally do the "sweet" voice makes me want to pull my hair out.
No. 1755971
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I just want to be loved
Even my own parents don't give a fuck about me and chose their partners over me
No. 1755996
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New photos of my ex going on with his life have been popping up and it’s a gut punch every time seeing how smiley he is but then I compare them to photos from when he told me he was extremely miserable and the smiles are exactly the same. I hope he’s finally feeling the consequences of pushing away the people that actually care and ending up surrounded by people he doesn’t fucking like.
No. 1756002
>>1755994Idk what caused it tbh, my blood work is normal but I started balding at 20. My only theory is I was low on iron for too long and it
triggered early female pattern baldness. Some of my female relatives had it, but not until they were 55+. Just bad luck I guess. I don’t have a pretty face to fall back on either kek I’ve been told I look special needs without hair kekkkkk. Anyway so it could be much worse.
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trying to internalize that loneliness is the human condition. drawing like i have a deviantart in 2010, listening to music from my childhood. everything's gonna be alright.
No. 1756017
>>1756002Ntayrt but can't it grow back if it's due to a deficiency in a nutrient? I am also balding, vented about it before itt
>>1755336 but I suspect it may just be shitty genetics because my dad is bald too and I get most of his genetics from him. I started noticing my hair thinning four years ago but it's not until recently I'm starting to do something about it. In any case, I have to get a bloodwork done and talk about it with my family doctor for a possible dermatologist referral (if she'll even listen and take my concerns seriously).
No. 1756199
>>1755944Can relate
nonnie, I'm just a big ol bitch kek. Size 11 wide feet, 5'10" with a large frame and big head. I look absolutely massive next to petite-average sized women so most clothing fits on me awkwardly if I don't buy it from somewhere with tall options. The shoes part is the worst though, it's so hard to find anything that fits well, is cute, and sold in that size
No. 1756251
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I just can't shake the feeling that I could've made a different and "better" choice. he is the first person I have dated and I really liked him a lot for some reason when we decided to go out (and I still do) even though I literally could've pulled qt chadlite guys over him on at least a surface level because I am pretty darn cute (although honestly my childish autismo mannerisms and stunted socialization are probably off putting to those types of guys anyways) but even from the beginning I could tell that we would not last forever and my mind keeps wandering as of late. he is a skinny dorky guy and a bit dumb and clueless sometimes outside of his specific interests (adhd) and was horribly depressed before meeting me so I feel like an asshole for growing a bit weary of some of his behavior considering the fact that I relate to it was part of why we were drawn to each other in the first place. but I am getting tired of waiting on and hoping for him to improve and change. it's not like I have my shit together but he says he barely functions on the days that we aren't together and is generally a disorganized person. maybe I am asking for too much because it hasn't even been a year yet but I am getting fomo. I'm not really in a good position to be going around trying to date random people on top of other stuff anyways (haven't moved out yet). and I do care for his well being and like talking to him and hanging out and dont wish anything bad for him and I am fond of his quirky family and their dog and cat. he still likes me in my gross moments and has never tried to argue with me and doesn't mind my odd behavior but idk. I feel weird. I used to feel more special to him than I do now. he attributes a lot of things to his adhd. plus when we screw it's usually not that enjoyable for me and idk if it's a subconscious attraction/stress thing or the fact that I used to be on antidepressants for about 1.5 years and only went off them 4 months ago. I don't want to think about this and I definitely have been thinking about it too much lately. maybe I'm the weird one. I feel so guilty and embarrassed even thinking about it. kill me. I'm just going to play vidya and force myself to study.
No. 1756323
>>1756292>I've just started looking at feeder/feedee websites and watching shit like my 600 lb lifeI don't know how people can stomach looking at that shite. You can do it
nonnie.
No. 1756416
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>be me
>OCD, fixated on how much i hate my body, among other things
>generally low stress day today with not too many triggers
>let me check lolcow!
>random thread
>happens to be "unpopular opinions" thread
>happens to see "stretch marks are ugly"
>happens to have been hyperfixating on stretch marks for days and spend hours upon hours of my time researching how the FUCK to get rid of them even though they're barely visible and no one cares - but they're visible to me, and i care, and i feel fucking disgusting
nice
No. 1756419
>>1756368NTA but if your friend cut herself and told you she enjoyed it, would you help her cut herself? What if she was a crackhead who asked you for drug money? Would "she's an adult, it's her choice, she says she enjoys it, and she's going to do it anyways" stand as a justification for enabling her in those circumstances?
>>1756362 is correct that you shouldn't be worried that helping your friend exploit herself would count as "cheating", and that you should be more worried about why you're so willing to participate in this woman's exploitation of herself in the first place.
No. 1756530
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I'm so fucking upset.
I tried to intercept an expensive package that was being shipped to my abuser's address. I left him suddenly because he attacked me unprovoked, had to call police who ofc did nothing but stand around as I packed my shit for 40 minutes. Did I mention his place is a 4 hour drive away from where I am now?
Anyways, it was being delivered from DHL via USPS. The vendor couldn't help me and tracking said USPS hadn't received it. Called customer support who told me to check back when USPS receives it from DHL.
Just checked the tracking and MOTHERFUCKERS ALREADY DELIVERED IT EVEN THOUGH IT SAID IT WASN'T DUE FOR DELIVERY UNTIL THE 8TH AND IT HAD NOT UPDATED SINCE EARLY AFTERNOON! So it's with that fucking bastard.
I still have the apartment key and I may be lucky enough to find the mailbox key. If I don't find my package can I report him for stealing? Maybe precedent because I had already called the cops to the apartment the day I left packing, I want to ruin that fucker so god damn bad!!!
No. 1756579
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I love when someone constantly brags about their drug addiction and how much they spend on cocaine but you just KNOW that their supply is cut mostly with vit c powder and other filler that's ruining their sinuses and giving them chronic bronchitis but they're too fucking retarded to realize what everyone else already knows. Nobody is giving you cocaine they're giving you like the most laughable ratio imaginable and you're just larping to yourself with tiny teeny doses of Adderall and baby powder.
No. 1756964
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I've been in a relationship that's… not the best, for a while. I've been warming up to calling it the dreaded A-word but go back and forth between doubting myself and feeling sure. According to the definitions I read in books and PSAs, it counts. But it's hard to quantify an abstract sense that he's constantly rude to me, and I think my mind is scrambled from being together for so long. I instinctively cope with and forget the crazier things he says, so it's all kinda vague… But he fucked up when he got physically violent. I won't forget that, and there's no way for him to twist it in my mind into anything but horrendous.
I feel so ashamed of myself because I spent years being something of a pickme and I feel like I don't deserve any sympathy for getting myself into this. Like maybe it really is all my fault and what I deserve for throwing my life to a guy and letting it get this bad. I don't know, I was only a teenager when it all started. I just feel like I can't talk to anyone about this stuff because they'd just be like, "you're retarded, why did you let this happen? Why didn't you respond to the red flags?" I can't be honest because everyone will wonder why I didn't and don't just fucking leave, and I don't know.
Because I feel worn out and like I have nowhere else to go in life. Sunk cost fallacy. Still hanging onto old dreams. The nice moments. Just because it's different and requires a change. Because some part of me truly believes it's all my fault. Some combination of flawed reasons like that. Sometimes I think about being killed in a fit of rage, not as a genuine anxiety, but somehow as an almost comforting fantasy. I've been losing the energy to keep up the relationship but can't bring myself to cut it off either.
Today my boyfriend told me that he thinks I'm disrespectful and prideful. He wants me to give him space and think hard about my actions. I don't have the drive to feel maddened that he sees things in reverse, I'm just secretly glad. Maybe he'll go away without any effort on my part if I just do nothing to appease his demands.
No. 1757189
>>1757050I go to a catholic church and im not catholic (never have been). everyone is really nice to me even though many of them know that im not one of them, and they feed me for free and always act glad to see me as if im their old friend, even if we're just meeting for the first time. I honestly enjoy going and listening to their music calms me, it's like my weird guilty pleasure that i feel awkward telling people about. I think churches can be good communities even if you're not religious (obviously pick a nicer welcoming one and not like one of those insane ones where's its just some old moid screeching about damnation all day everyday, those are awful) the one I go to has non-religious activities like dinner and movies too.
bonus: no troons or troon loversI heard that having a 3rd space that isn't work/school or home is supposed to be really good for people in general, for me church works because it's like right outside my house and free. But just getting out and having a social group you regularly see with no pressure, in any context, really helps
No. 1757640
Why must a job I would really like have to be an hour away? It's so close yet so far and I can't justify wasting more hours on the road and gas money.
>>1757618Nta but from having a Pinterest account for years and just saving art, vidya stuff and photography alot of the times it's artistic nudity or just a pin flagged at random because Pinterest is shit, like that other anon said they don't do anything about pedos on the site.
No. 1757652
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I don't like One Piece and the live action and new twist made it fucking insufferable.
Everything will be fine if I could avoid it but it's fucking everywhere and even normies are talking about it because of the live action, STOP!!! HOLY FUCK STOP!!!!
People tell me to give it a go, to try to read it, the point is that I'm not interested in the slightest! I'm not interested in cyclic shit! I'm not interested in the "power of friendship" ! I'm not interested in fights! I'm not interested in stupid/ironic villains!!! Everything was fine until it became popular again and it flooded every con, every manga/anime awards and it eventually buries everything else! I also hate how tifs jumped on the bandwagon due to the tif in the live action and they sperg about Yamato being a man (everything I know about it is against my will) and try to pass it off as lgbt friendly.
I get it that people can like this, I get it, I really do, I myself like some things to an autistic degree but it's time to wrap it up and call it a good business move plus I also feel that most one piece fans don't even like it anymore but don't want to let it go due to the fear of them feeling that they have wasted time since they spent so much time reading/watching it that they want to get it to the end. Plus its fans are absolutely rabid and biased, I can like things and I can also point their flaws/talk shit, One Piece fans are cultish and don't you dare say that is mid/you don't like it. It's lazy anime 101 and I wish more fans admitted they watch it brainlessly instead of trying to pass it off as a narrative masterpiece, there's no way that a 100+ volume/1k+ episodes series maintains quality. Please wrap this shit up.
No. 1757750
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>>1757731She took a bunch of measurements, but I wasn't wearing the corset that day and she said she was just going to let out the top a little bit so the corset would fit under it smoothly. But she let it out by like an inch, and I feel like she didn't even use the measurements of how tall my torso was because the top now hangs too low. And I know she didn't use the measurements of how tall I am because the skirt drags on the floor.
I'm hoping I'm being overly critical about how long the bottom is, it will probably look much better once the petticoat comes in and I lace up the boots, but still, it's like four to five inches too long. I get the feeling that she had a pattern and then did almost zero adjustments.
But yeah, I'm going to have talk to her, I just feel like a bougie asshole for having so many complaints when she's a small business owner and I'm sure she's over worked.
No. 1757910
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I had an interview last week for a job that was supposed to be hiring from my school. It was literally just a handful of other students. This week I found out through the job board that they hired elsewhere. Why do I keep getting my hopes up
No. 1758022
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I somehow wormed my way into a group of normies. The only anime they know is Pokemon, the only video games they play are FIFA and Genshin Impact. When we hang out we go clubbing, or thrifting, or hiking. They invited an AGP tranny into the group and thought he was a gay guy, these people have never interacted with or heard of a TIM before!! The tranny didn't really stick around though because he was too internet-poisoned and autistic kek. It's refreshing to hang out with normies but at the same time I'm filled with anxiety the whole time because I'm faking an entire personality for them and if I really went "mask off" they'd think I'm a freak just like that TIM
No. 1758031
>>1758029>4chan users doing thr pronoun gameThey're really doing that now? It's been
years since I would go on 4chan. Wow.
No. 1758083
>>1757906Yes, it is, but it's usually much slower. I'm concerned about you
nonnie, mood swings that extreme can be a sign of a brain tumor or hormonal malfunction. Have you been to a physician lately?
No. 1758192
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I'm so annoyed that troons ruined so many things for me. Anime, anything "kawaii", vaporwave music, spaces for bisexual or lesbian women, tons of memes and in-jokes for terminally online dorks like me - I feel like there are so many things I enjoyed that are just completely shitty and ruined now because autistic men in dresses shoved their way in and claim it as their own. I started noticing this years ago when I tried posting in the GirlGamers subreddit to find other girls online to play games with without being bothered by shitty dudes, and it's completely overrun by transvestites. It feels like everything I ever I enjoyed in my dumb little internet space has been horned in on, it's absolutely infuriating. Even just now I saw a playlist called something like "Songs for Cute Anime Girls" and my brain immediately assumed it's gotta be a troon who made it- and yep, it was. It feels like lolcow is literally the only place left where we don't have to accept or pander to troons. Women truly can't have anything to ourselves.
No. 1758230
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I'm not gonna say who i was and you can call me a crybaby but i got a super rude reply yesterday by multiple nonnas unprompted and it actually hurt me because i came back home in a bad mood after being annoyed by a stupid moid coworker, some of you are worse than 4chan scrotes sometimes and to top it all off i just broke up with my nigel a few weeks ago, it has just been a rollercoaster of emotions lately for me.
No. 1758231
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I hate men so much. They’re all so evil.
No. 1758239
>>1758231>south Korean man attacking a woman because he assumed short hair = feministHoly shit, males are outrageously fucking stupid, even in countries that are supposed to be higher in IQ. Proof that intelligence tests don't seem to mean
shit for males.
No. 1758252
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I'm sick of this one tree in my yard that drops berries everywhere on pavement and makes a huge mess. I'm going to chop the whole thing down but I'm going to wait until the branches are bare.
No. 1758255
>>1756530Hope I'm not too late
nonny, but if you call back customer services and thoroughly explain everything, the company you purchased from may very likely be able to reship to the correct address for free. They're trained to expercise compassion in such cases, unless of course it's a very expensive thing.
No. 1758279
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>>1758230>I'm not gonna say who i was and you can call me a crybaby but i got a super rude reply yesterday by multiple nonnas unprompted and it actually hurt meIt IS pretty annoying when they just gang up on you in the same way. Like, not even the occasional person with a level-headed attitude, just a bunch of users unironically acting like hostile NPCs.
>because i came back home in a bad mood after being annoyed by a stupid moid coworkerShit, I've been there and it does suck so I feel you. Moid coworkers are always autistic at best, and shit-for-brains at worst.
>some of you are worse than 4chan scrotesUnpopular take, but it's true. Despite lolcow being full of female users who hate men, this place will ironically bring you back to the reality that men AND a lot out women out there suck donkey shit.
>sometimes and to top it all off i just broke up with my nigel a few weeks ago, it has just been a rollercoaster of emotions lately for meEven though it's been a while since I dated a moid, I still understand how you're feeling. Your heart feels all sensitive and fragile. You still think about him every day or every other day. You'll survive and forget about him eventually, but it's good to be honest with your own feelings. Sorry that it had to end so painfully though.
>>1758257Never let believe a random faggot when they wanna kick your vibe down. They're basically the schoolyard pricks that stroke their microdick egos to shitting all over other students, just online. In real life they probably wouldn't even have the guts to tell a tranny to gtfo of a women's restroom kek
No. 1758289
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Why was I so stupid as to let someone set me up on a date?
Why is it that women set up other women with men they wouldn’t touch with a twenty foot pole?
Oh but he’s soooo nice well then why didn’t you date him then, hypocrite. Oh yeah, because you have no interest in a fat 2/10 manlet. But I’m “shallow”.
Never let anyone set you up, nonnies. Attractive well rounded men are literally never just available like that.
No. 1758310
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>>1758293Thank you. This honestly warmed me up and washed away some bitterness I held in.
No. 1758318
A true worried vent incoming, my friend moved abroad, dropped out of school, has no job prospects and her mental health just keeps plummeting. Every once in a while she will say shit like "what if I just came back haha wouldn't that be crazy" and even with me always saying it's okay to come back, it must be difficult to have not only one but two language barriers with your doctors because she has to do all that in english yet no. She stays and just keeps getting worse and it feels awful to see, she left a stable, clean cut woman and is now just an all around unhealthy, depressed and regressed adult teenager. I'm just worried and I think I've whined about her millions of times here before but that was before she completely ghosted her school that she attended online due to living abroad, what the hell is the endgame? Why would you want to be a human pet in a country where you have no local friends, just two people from back home who you wouldn't even hang out with here, no language skills beyond english and native tongue, a nightmare.
No. 1758322
I was tackled and beaten by a man working on the ICU when I was waking up from my coma three years ago. Since then, my spine has never been the same. I had to relearn how to walk, I’ve been through years of physio and pain medication. He has faced no repercussions whereas I feel like I got a life sentence of chronic pain and disability.
I’ve been referred for spinal injections to numb the nerve pain in my leg, but they said they only do one round and that they’re temporary. So what’s the point? I am so frustrated. I feel so lonely.
At the same hospital, I was moved straight out of the ICU into the psych ward where I was raped by another patient while I was immobile from my injury. My attacker gave me covid and I was locked in isolation for over two weeks without access to a shower. They occasionally forgot to feed me. I was in there over Christmas and New Year and my family didn’t want to be in contact with me. I’m serious when I say that /ot/ was the only thing I had in the world at the time.
It’s been three years and a lot has changed but I still feel fundamentally alone. I still wish I had died instead of waking up from that coma. No psych treatment or medication has helped me.
I was so convinced that I dropped into another timeline, a different reality, every time I nearly died. The chances of me surviving three comas in three years is very very slim. I don’t understand why reality is shifting around me to keep me alive though. I’ve been reading about quantum immortality but I don’t fully understand it. Am I really being kept alive just to be in pain and relive a lifetime of trauma every time something slightly sets me off? What is my role?
Maybe I did die and this is hell. I lost everything after that first coma, my academic post, my PhD scholarship, my students, my savings. I don’t know how to move past my grief.
No. 1758324
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>>1758279Nonna i can't thank you enough for your reply it made me feel understood.
>>1758308Thank you i'm trying my best to stay calm amidst everything that is happening.
No. 1758339
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Raised earnestly by a damaged girl
She lost her & crafted my safe world
Stretched silk thin, a skinny minnie blanket
Gives me everything I reluctantly take it
No. 1758347
>>1758331Forgive me. It’s a very specific series of events that I am still struggling to process; it has devastated me and my life and continues to do so.
>>1758335Was this aimed at me? If so, I appreciate the offer but I don’t want to emotionally drain you,
nonnie. I just need to vent about it now and again.
No. 1758380
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>>1758347It was aimed at you. You can't drain me much, i keep death close as a friend as probably you do too. What doesn't kill us makes us stranger, so strange that an abyss forms between the rest of the world. There are still things to discover after discarding the past. New things forever and ever.
>>1758307Fuck you, janitor, learn to keep your ignorant mouth shut.
(ban evasion) No. 1758396
>>1758364That means an awful lot to me,
nonnie. Thank you very much for saying that.
>>1758380That’s quite relatable and weirdly profound, anon. Thank you for your insight. These experiences are isolating but I suppose equally they force us to be very self sufficient. I just wish it didn’t have to be so painful
No. 1758424
>>1754368I always attract people that feel like they have to compete against me for some fucking reason so everything I do or say has to be trumped by their own shit and if I am ever good at anything they get passive aggressive because they are incapable of seeing an otherwise depressed friend being happy for a few hours for once and I am over that shit.
Had an ages old friend that always got angry when I draw and post something somewhere or even innocently mention that I am drawing something when I just casually talk about my daily life that unfollowed me everywhere and stopped talking to me because she invited me to bluesky and followed me and therefor accidentally saw one of my artworks when I posted it. Anyway I don't give a shit anymore. Fuck her, fuck them. Had a male friend that pulled the same shit while whining all day about being unable to draw because lack of privileges or something.
Two other friends only befriended me to have someone that listen to their endless monologues about their boring daily lives and the many people they hate. One of them repeated the same stories up to 35 times (I counted after some point) because these people are simply addicted to self-presentation but never listen when I want to talk, never give a shit about what I have to say.
I don't know either why I attract such people or why you are attracting them. Maybe I come off as too introverted and lonely so they want to befriend me to have someone they consider more pathetic than themselves, no idea.
Well at least I am good at drawing. But I fucking hate how having a single talent will make "friends" hate you. Guess every should wallow in misery.
No. 1758448
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It really is such a solemn moment whenever the ASDBPD narc starts talking about having children when they absolutely are not fit to be a parent or even watch children in any capacity. It's like grimes and her stupid etsy wishlists while she relies on everyone else to raise her kids and leaves them in boxes. The prospect of someone who is like 50/50 chance likely to kill their own child in a fit of postpartum rage talking about having kids so they have more accessories for their narcissistic supply is bone chilling. I don't see it often luckily but when I do it makes me shudder because the last thing we need is more abused, used, and neglected children of unstable sociopathic narcs who think they're God's gift. Sincerely it's scary
No. 1758492
>>1758442I hate this so much like you don't see the fucking sun for half a year if you work. It's still night when you go to work and already night when you go home.
And then you hear smartasses say that people don't have enough vitamine D and should go out more often. Yeah if I was privileged enough to have no need for money I might do that.
No. 1758549
>>1758512It's ok anon, she's one family fallout from needing to suck dick to keep the roof over her head too.
At least you did it for funsies.
Hate it when losers get high and mighty because they suck just in a different way.
No. 1758553
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>>1758512You remind me of this tweet kek.
No. 1758562
>>1758512That is a really poor low,
nonnie. I’m hoping you’re able to grow.
No. 1758580
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Feeling like a total shit head idiot for using this site, terrified of someday being recognized, literally sick to my stomach with dread. I fucking hate myself. I may have literally ruined my life by being here. I honestly feel like I am the scum of the earth. Why didn't I just get a tumblr like a normal fucking person. I could have been happy. Anyways I think this is really it, really, for real this time. I guess all I can do now is try to accumulate good karma and hope for the best. I'm so sorry. It was not worth it. Bye nonnies.
No. 1758582
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>break up with bf because he projects that I was hitting up my exes and had been acting resentful towards me for weeks
>figure out it was mostly about the rent money he assured me I would not have to pay
>in exchange, I drove him everywhere, bought groceries, gave affirmations and surprise gifts, and basically made it so he never had to cook a meal or lift a finger domestically
>of course, it was never enough cause bitter scrotes gonna scrote
>truth is, I had a feeling I couldn't trust him in spite of his lovebombing and future faking so I always had one foot out the door
>he was just nasty towards me in the end, could tell he hated me
>move out after final fight
>had to call police
>take apartment key with me so I could come back later since he would not let me pack all my stuff
>said out loud that I would not come back so he would not suspect me returning
>huge emotional distress because ordeal caused me to scramble to find new living arrangements thanks to his insane ingrate ass
>come back 3 days later to try to get the rest of my stuff while he was away and return the key
>he moved his ex back in, because he had been projecting with his accusations and needed me out cause she would financially pickme for him
>he had been the one hitting up his ex the whole time
So….
>I scrubbed my asscrack with his tooth brush
>fished one of my old bras from the garbage he threw away, tucked it on her side of the bed so she would notice it
>left a note on their picture frame that said "LOL 'Keep her.'" in reference to him having said "Keep him" when he accused me of hitting up an ex
>pissed in his lube bottle and shook it up so it would blend
>debating if I want to send her screenshots of him lauding her abortion since he thinks she is "genetically defective," irresponsible, unfit, among other shitty things he said about her
I didn't do enough but knowing none of it was actually my fault does make me feel way better. If he truly hates her as much as he said (and lord knows he hates pretty much everyone), it makes me happy to know he's miserable out of financial necessity.
I hope he's such for the rest of his days.
No. 1758583
>>1758580what's wrong? I promise you
nonnie, no one is going to recognize you. Are you feeling guilty or paranoid over using this site? I know exactly that feeling, if you're still here please talk to me, maybe that'll calm you down?
No. 1758596
>>1758580Nonna I’ve recognized people posting here it’s only because they’ve posted or talked about something very specific somewhere else and then here. But that’s only happened like 4 times and it’s because I spend way too much time on here, if I didn’t decide to read 1 thread out of the tons on here I wouldn’t have ever noticed it. Anons don’t even believe me about it and for good reasons because of how many types an anon accuses another of being someone. If you don’t post about similar things or type in a very recognizable way somewhere else, you should be good. Even if you did post about similar things, you can still go and delete or edit those posts. I promise you most people will not remember it.
Tumblr would be worse for anonymity, there’s usernames attached and it could be archived by someone or ruthless webcrawlers and archive.org hates all farmers! What did you even post here to ruin your life?
No. 1758624
>>1758567Sorry but I know plenty women who choose to be in relationships they hate for housing rather than leave their shitshow relationships to go to a shelter or their parent's house.
Some of you live in a different reality.
No. 1758650
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envy is really evil. leave me alone. yes she is pretty and spoiled and taken care of. i work a shitty fast food job and pay half the rent to live with my abusive mother who tells me to kill myself if i do so much as spill a glass of water. college is stressful. therapy for all of this ptsd gets old. i hate my appearance. i hate the moments i beat myself up because i slack and burn out. and i hate the moments i slack and burn out. shes so much prettier. no worries. no mother to harm her. no financial stress. no job. explore create love. shes living my dream for a quarter of the trauma. but i love my doggy even if my mom threatens to take her from me. i love my boyfriend even if i only see him every 3 monthss. i love the world i love thati can grow and get better. but sometimes i wish i could afford to travel like her. afford all of these cute clothes and beauty treatments that might help me look more presentable. i wish i didnt have to work fast food. i wish sometimes i had friends.
but im older now. i have learned what envy offers me compared to gentle discipline. so i just will be patient. workout again. suck it up at my job that makes me want to shoot myself infront of the customers…and just keep trying for other income streams on the side. focus on school more. keep being.m mindful..avoiding my sick mother under this same damn roof. time goes really fast but i promise ill do more yoga and ballet and i promise ill sew and play guitar more and be in nature. sometimes there just isnt enough time. she has all of the time in the world, so easy to think. but i must accept where i am positioned relative to her. so i have to prioritize work and schoolcmake the best of it…then i am free to play with my hobbies and be active and do self care things i just need to manage my time. i wont be an amazing sewer or put out an album as soon as i wish but if im not realistic i will fall into the pit of envy. maybe it will take me 5000 years. nothing to prove anyway. ill just work on some beauty bullshit tips. yep.
i really must be patient it seems. world needs lots of love and good and so do i along with growth and it aint gonna happen by beating myself up or wasting my moments of free time with a bottle of envy! seems like a lot of work but its a big big journey and will fall into place. one day ill be mindful with ease and help animals or people without having to arrange time to do so volunteering one day ill have the time to even volunteer (i mean in situations where im not confronted by it of course) yes and ill avoid animal producs again without a second thought ill figure out the pretty hairstyles ill keeep positive and kind even if a tranny is near me and ill walkcmore and read more and ill always find time to sew and make music and improve and ill graduate soon and get a better job even if its fulltime ill have to suck it up or take a break or try to find a freelance gig unrealated to my degree like dogwalking and petsitting yeah maybe no benefits but its good paying without the shit hours and working under someone else. thats my backup plan. my backup plan for that is my degree.
blesseth be thy nonnies im making some real progres here off my meds. my mother tried to hit me today (her adult daughter) and i called her a cunt but rest assured i held my tongue all 5 days before this bipolar episode.
love.
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I could never make it outside of my humid sub tropical place, it started getting cold and I sound like I have TB what the fuck how are northern nonnies okay. Even my close relatives all sound like whooping cough babies the moment the air gets a bit dry
No. 1758837
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Last time I tried to vent about this I got banned for "racebait" on top of someone telling me to kms but I honestly don't care anymore, I want to vent.
I'm really tired of being Romani (="gypsy", I'm not Romanian or Romanianon, it's not the same thing). It was a lot more obvious when I was young, now I'm white-passing which is normal for kids with only one Romani parent like me, but I got bullied for it a lot when I was a kid.
It's really hard not to grow up having an inferiority complex and hating yourself when people allow themselves to tell you the most disgusting things to your face and you have zero role models and representation growing up. I thought these things would stop once people reach a certain age, but they don't. I can't even casually read the news or browse reddit because there's a chance someone there will say it's in my culture to steal and that I'm a subhuman.
Most of the things people say about Romani culture are straight up bullshit, a huge amount of Romanis are settled and trying to live like normal people and there's lots of different clans out there with completely different customs and religious beliefs. Most of them are not stealing or kidnapping children, many of them are just poor. My father is an engineer, but even he says he had to try twice as hard as anyone else to be taken seriously and people used to roast him for "getting the job so he could steal all the copper wires from work". Now that he's retired, he's used as an example of the workplace totally not being racist lmao.
I'm envious of people from Latin countries because there's no such stigma there (afaik) and I hate living in Central Europe. If I try to conform to the local culture here I'm "being whitewashed" and woke classmates will tell me to be proud of my heritage, but if I were to do that I'd get bullied for being an evil subhuman thief and scammer and people would follow me around stores because Romani people dress in a very recognizable way here.
I hate interacting with other people now and have barely any friends from childhood because at some point all of them said something disgusting and tried to take it back by saying "oh but I don't mean you, you're different". First they will say "ALL gypsies are x" and then "not you though". Wdym not me? You said all. I can't even go on Tinder dates anymore because I will have to vet the guy and a good number of them will go full mask off and then start backpedaling once they realize what's up.
I feel really lonely, aside from my dad there's nobody I can talk to and he is a depressed doomer who never has anything good to say except "that's just life". If I say anything to anyone else, they will get defensive and start denying everything or telling me I'm not really Romani because I look white. I sure was Romani back when I didn't.
No. 1758882
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>not a brittany containment thread
rude
No. 1758895
>>1758837I'm sorry nonna. It sounds horrible. Sadly your experience is far too common. Europeans are racist and they don't want to admit it. One of my friends feels isolated for similar reasons and it isn't easy at all since racism is so pervasive. I hope you can find and spend time with people who love you for who you are.
>>1758882I had a mutu on Tumblr from britanny. Dumbest woman I have ever encountered. Is it you? If yes, fuck you and terminally online ass and get out of my lolcow.
No. 1758897
My two best friends from completely unrelated friend groups both ghosted me this year after years of extremely close friendships. I feel so angry and awful about it even 7 months later I just fucking wish she'd tell me what I did or said wrong. I think it's genuine cruel behavior to not even take five minutes out of your day in 7 months to save me the mental anguish of wondering what the fuck I did wrong, even if she blocks me afterwards, I just wanna know. Whatever I did or said without realizing, this way of dealing with things is worse in any case. I know I'm not owed anything but people seriously need to stop complaining something upset them if they're not going to directly speak up about it so their friends can avoid that in the future. Ghosting makes you look like a disappointing, emotionally constipated, communication stunted overgrown child.
>>1758882How are you guys genuinely everywhere? This feels like seeing this fucking flag in the middle of a festival crowd in eastern europe
No. 1758899
>>1758895ayrt I wish, ausfag unfortunately.
dumbest ever in a fun way or? I hope her dumb french ass is doing okay
>>1758897lmao I just like the flag my bad nona, not a bretagnian or whatever they're called No. 1758900
I'm so tired of trannies' bullshit, they're so exhausting to be around. They're everywhere now, but I've got this TIF in my long-time friend group (trooned out 1.5 years ago, hasn't hopped on T, and is considering not doing so because she's scared of hair loss) who has the worst case of woe is me narcissism-anxiety I was ever forced to deal with. And I REALLY don't want to deal with it, but if you don't always respond to her shit with nothing but reassurance, two days later she'll be guilt tripping everybody over "always being ignored" and not being taken seriously. And that seriously pisses me off because those same people always ignored my cries for help when I was in a worse place, I guess because my problems are grounded in reality (financial issues, a shitty job) and that's harder to deal with than imaginary woo-woo crap, and because I care about not presenting myself as not neurotic. The TIF in question will go out of her way to make everything about herself. Complaining about work being hard? Well, you should be happy, cause she couldn't get a job for over a year, and you're making her feel bad! Talking about lazy or creepy coworkers? Actually, they may be struggling with anxiety like she is or something something evil capitalism. EVERYTHING is about her anxiety, her "dysphoria", those evil gays not being into her, and her parents not endlessly throwing money at her very important spendings (plushies, games, clothes). Jesus. I'm so tired of walking on eggshells around this person. She's inspired others to troon out too, but they have gone the she/they and 'any pronouns' route, which means they're still otherwise normal straight/bisexual women (+ 1 moid), except they get annoying about politics and you have to tell them they look soooo androgynous and heckin gender. Only 3 other people haven't done the same. The girl that's the most annoying about instagram infographics is also dating a TIM, keeps sharing her pregnancy test results, joking about not having any "lesbian babies" this time, that kinda shit. She's been dating him and the moid in question is a love-bombing porn addict with a double digit dating history.
I'm so tired of this. My friend group used to be normal. I hope they're all just going through a phase. I guess I'm too cowardly to leave them behind but I don't want to be alone and I sincerely believe that they can still go back.
No. 1758924
>>1758895>>1758898Thank you nonnies, I hope so too. I'm seriously considering moving to Canada or Australia or something because living in Europe isn't good for my mental health. I hate that I had to pay thousands of złoty for therapy because I thought I was evil, ugly and unlovable while the people who made me feel that way get to say the most out of pocket racist things completely unchecked.
They will clutch their pearls if someone says even one slightly
sus thing about the two black people in my country or refugees (completely
valid complaint and I'm not trying to start a race debate, I obviously don't support racism of any kind) but when it comes to Romanis it's all good and allowed because we're not people. Not one of them has stopped to think that maybe they actually did meet lots of good Romani people, they just didn't know because it's not something you want to tell everyone after hearing comments like that all the time. I at least used to lie and say my dad was Mexican kek, because that's exotic and sexy as opposed to gross.
No. 1758929
>>1758924as an ausfag I will say racially/ethnically/culturally where I'm from people will be 95% curious and accepting of your culture if not more. I'm not in a big city (any more) and most of us are so used to multiculturalism that you'd like, get a job and just start living. the COST of living etc. might be the stitch up but I genuinely would be suprised if anyone had anything negative to say about Romanis. maybe because we're so removed? idk.
shit was super fucked here during covid and is pretty fucky atm politically but seriously come to aus. we'd take you with open arms, at least in my hood. I'm so sorry it's gotten to the point you feel you gave to migrate, I wish you all the best beautiful nona.
No. 1758985
>>1758192for me one of the things I'm most bitter about is yume nikki
I get the most upset at how they steal everything related to being a sad weird girl. no, fuck you!
No. 1758992
>>1758582>>1758586>>1758962100% send the screenshots.
Just in general, even if shes evil she deserves to know that how this dude thinks of her.
No. 1759014
>>1759011My husband and I only have maybe 4 friends between us, we didnt want a big wedding so we just had immediate family (8 people) and had a backyard wedding.
It was nice, I would recommend
No. 1759024
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>>1759011chill? less people to invite.
me and my nigel's potential wedding would be the exact same and I see it as a huge relief and frankly I'm jealous.
but to answer your question, depends how autistic you are.
pic not rel, just think about it a lot
No. 1759029
How do I move on from being bitter and resentful about being excluded and scapegoated by my family? My parents were really abusive to me and not my sister, we were always treated drastically differently to the point where I don’t speak to most of my family anymore. When I was a teenager my friend group included two of my cousins and I was really close to one of them growing up. We grew apart as teenagers and she purposefully isolated me out of our friend group. She said that she had BPD but I think she’s also narcissistic, and she spread rumors about me to everyone we knew (including family members) and had a whole smear campaign going against me and I had no idea what was going on until afterwards. After she had successfully ruined all of my relationships and isolated me from everyone, I attempted suicide, which was partly because of her and partly because of other abuse and CSA I had experienced. Then I had to deal with my abusive parents during the next few years until I turned 18, without any friends or support system. Since she had even worked to turn the rest of our family against me I really didn’t have anyone. Some of my old friends even bullied me online during that time, and she never relented with the obsessive smear campaign. This all caused me to be suicidal throughout that time and self harmed and had an eating disorder. The most hurtful part of this situation is that one of my sisters basically replaced me in my friend group after I had been isolated out of it. She’s well aware of how I was treated, and watched the weird borderline/narcissistic manipulation and abuse, and she doesn’t seem to care. My abusive parents kicked me out as soon as I turned 18 (and several times before that) and I stopped speaking to them after that. Because of that I’ve only seen my sister twice over the years since then but she’s still best friends with my archenemy and the rest of them. She pointedly refers to our cousin as her sister to me, and talks about how much closer she is to her than she is to me. It feels like I shouldn’t care still, especially since they’re cousins, but it honestly hurts. It’s hard to put into words how extreme the bullying and smear campaign was, and I dealt with that on top of a ton of other types of abuse and trauma. I don’t even talk to my sister at the moment because she’s a drug addicted pickme, but she always sides with the cousin and our parents whenever I bring any of it up, and blames me for everything and mocks me for it. I know I sound pathetic and bitter. I’ve been isolated out of my entire family since I was a teenager and it’s actually been really hard to be alone all this time.
No. 1759036
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Can we just stop pretending that being the other woman is in any shape or form feminist? Whenever I hear a girl say "it's none of my business if they have a partner" and they try to shift the blame on the other person as they're "the one with the relationship", I feel so uncomfortable. Instead of exposing the moid that had the cheek to cheat on his gf or at least, you know, not giving him validation and enabling him, you should, maybe not hop on his dick. It's extremely concerning how I've heard excuses like it's none of my business from supposedly "feminist" women. It's top tier pick me behaviour. After all, from a selfish prespective, he's not going to treat them any better, as he's shown his actions have 0 consequences. I don't think women need to have responsibility on some moid's actions, however, I geniunely don't see how they can be attracted and involved with men like that either. I don't feel any safety around women like that, it's honestly trashy. I also feel the need to clarify that I'm not talking about cases were the partner is lying and the girl isn't made aware of the fact that he has a gf.
No. 1759043
>>1759038This is the same reason why older single women and "catladies"
trigger them so much. They genuinely can't comprehend this being fulfilling to women.
No. 1759048
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I eat tons of fiber and vegetables and drink kefir and kombucha yet the only thing that makes me shit is BLACK COFFEE!!!!!!!!!!!
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There's a line between asking questions to engage in a conversation and questioning everything someone does, and my co-worker is crossing the line hard. If he were asking my why I'm doing X and Y at work I'd be happy to explain, he's been here like three months and is still learning but all dude is questioning is my personal choices. Why did you cut your hair? Why are you wearing contacts today? Why didn't you go out on the weekend? Why don't you come by car? Why are you reading this book? Why not that? Why aren't you spending your break in the breakroom? Why do you keep a cat? Why not a dog? Why do you always drink the same tea? Why no coffee? I swear I'm just a month short of getting asked why I'm why I'm wiping with my left hand, he's worse than a four-year old in its Whywhywhywhywhy phase.
No. 1759060
>>1759036It's only feminist if they dump him and tell his gf/wife with receipts.
Honestly, why are you still buying the lie that 'other women' are willingly choosing to hurt nice, innocent women and not that moids aren't heavily manipulative and conniving?
It's never
>"I'm cheating with you on my lovely wife who raises our children, cooks my meals, put me through college, and pays half my way."It's always
>"MY PSYCHO BITCH WIFE IS A FUCKING LEECH CUNT WHO NEVER HELPS ME, DOESN'T FUCK ME, AND IS AN ABUSER. SHE IS A FUCKING MONSTER AND HERE ARE CHERRY-PICKED SCREENCAPS OF ARGUMENTS WHERE SHE IS REACTING TO MY ABUSE THAT PROVE IT ALL!!!! Oh yeah, totally gonna leave her for you babe just give me time to get my ducks in a row."Men are their own homewreckers always monkey branching to the next best opportunity. Quit believing women perpetuate their nature because they try this shit with modest women who don't even concern themselves with men.
No. 1759066
>>1759062You're saying that as if it's incompatible with what I'm saying.
Both can be true, and likely why a woman would have that attitude.
No. 1759070
>>1759060Nta but you need to live in the real world anon. There are a lot of people who get lied to, but there are also PLENTY who knowingly fuck and create relationships with people who are already in relationships. You guys need to stop acting like women are retards and none of us ever do anything that's wrong.
Also, OP said in the post that she wasn't talking about women who get lied to.
No. 1759075
>>1759070Literally no one said women are retarded.
Just that moids are the ones who are meant to uphold their own relationships, and that it's more likely that men are manipulative in order to exploit the other woman than it is more common to encounter female sociopaths.
>but OP wasn't talking about women who are lied toThat's…the majority of them and so it's worth bringing up since you apparently agree there is a "feminist" movement to encourage sociopathic behavior against women in committed relationships unprompted.
Men are shit.
No. 1759080
>>1759075You are when you act like women cannot ever make their own bad decisions and can't do anything willingly and we're just constantly being manipulated and don't know any better. Some people just do it because they don't care.
>you apparently agree there is a "feminist" movement to encourage sociopathic behavior against women in committed relationships unprompted. I don't actually, I didn't understand what anon meant by that.
No. 1759084
>>1759080Strawmanning will get you nowhere.
Why are you deflecting so much for men? It will never be a stranger's fault that he cheated on you.
Sorry she burned you sis, she wasn't right but that man wasn't shit.
No. 1759088
>>1759083>>1759084I've never been cheated on. It's not about "deflecting", we all know cheaters are the scum of the earth and men are trash.
>strangerHalf of the time, people don't even cheat with strangers. Also, integrate.
No. 1759093
>>1759084>she wasn't right but that man wasn't shit.Ntayrt, but if you acknowledge that the "other woman" wasn't right, wouldn't this mean you agree with intentional, female homewreckers not being innocent in this situation? It's not really about whether or not the male is a piece of shit,
we all know this. But the problem is that people don't want to acknowledge that actively choosing to participate with a man cheating is not good.
No. 1759095
>>1759036I feel like there's extremes on both sides where some people think any sort of abuse is all the woman's fault "because she didn't leave before it happened" and the other side that refuses to acknowledge some women are simply bad at choosing men
In my opinion, violence is never the woman's fault, the man cheating isn't the fault of his main partner, etc. But it's almost bizarre seeing how many moids are openly registered felons for horrendous things and such that are still able to get wives (usually white trash/ghetto couples) but it's definitely not the average situation the incels are coming out of the woodwork to blame women for
No. 1759096
>>1759093>you agree that homewreckers aren't innocent?Gee, almost like I never made the argument that they were and you're just seething that I hold men accountable to be the primary problem? Or that I don't have black and white thinking that someone could have been the agent of a bad choice heavily influenced by a man's lies and exploitation?
You're agreeing with the OP (who I was originally addressing) that people believe this is "feminism."
Quit defending men.
And yes, you are with this shit by saying
>but women too!Go on any male-dominated forum and watch a man opine about his ex cheating on him! Do you think those men are blaming the other men? FUCK NO! Wake up!
No. 1759097
>>1759096Even the term "homewrecker," which is typically used when referencing female cheaters, implies the cheating partner is the one responsible for destroying a man's life lmao.
Poor babu men!!!!
No. 1759099
>>1759098But your personal anecdotes don't address the fact that married men still cheat by going to strip clubs, hiring prostitutes, and downloading apps for hookups.
So no, men do not cheat with women that they personally know.
No. 1759102
>>1759099I emphasized "caught" for this reason, I am just throwing my 2 cents out there, yes strip clubs and prostitutes are mainly used by men. I looked up the study and they said men are likely to cheat with someone well known by them and the drug from CU was pretty verifiable IMO
Although while all sex work consumers are men, the average cheating moids isn't going to hire hookers. I think only 20% of men or so (?) Have ever been to a strip club, a lot less of that frequent it enough to cheat and I assume and even bigger minority sees prostitutes
No. 1759103
>>1759096>Gee, almost like I never made the argument that they were and you're just seething that I hold men accountable to be the primary problem?I'm not seething, I'm just confused on how so many women can ignore that other women who intentionally help garbage quality men cheat aren't very high quality people themselves. That's a strawman you're using.
>Or that I don't have black and white thinking that someone could have been the agent of a bad choice heavily influenced by a man's lies and exploitation?I used the word "intentionally". Women who help men cheat with no reason to other than just choosing to do so are not good people.
>You're agreeing with the OP (who I was originally addressing) that people believe this is "feminism."So your take on feminism is to let women help men screw over other women?
>Quit defending men.I'm not.
>And yes, you are with this shit by sayingYou sound like you have some growing up to do.
>>1759097>Even the term "homewrecker," which is typically used when referencing female cheaters, implies the cheating partner is the one responsible for destroying a man's life lmao"The other woman" takes too much words. I guess I'll start saying "cheating aid".
>Poor babu men!!!!So we're at the point where holding other women accountable is the same is defending men on everything? It seems that you keep ignoring the text were we don't think the males are good people in these situations either.
No. 1759109
>>1759102sources
https://www.denver7.com/lifestyle/men-more-likely-to-cheat-usually-with-friends-cu-boulder-study-shows#:~:text=About%2053.5%20percent%20of%20those,worker%20or%20long%2Dterm%20acquaintance.
>About 53.5 percent of those who have cheated said they were unfaithful with someone they knew well, such as a close friend. About a third cheated with someone who was somewhat well-known, such as a neighbor, co-worker or long-term acquaintance. Less than a quarter of responders – about 21 percent – said they cheated with a hookup.https://bakadesuyo.com/2011/04/are-highly-educated-men-more-likely-to-go-to/>20.68% of males and 4.22% of females reporting that they have been to a club in the last 12 months. No. 1759112
>>1759109>We asked men who they cheated with and they self-reported that it had been with a woman who they've known for years and had a connection with, as opposed to vile, filthy rando hookups and scummy sex workers because men would never. 18%-25% of Tinder profiles are married men who do not claim to be poly–not that they could be trusted to tell their partners even if they were.
You poor children…you will learn.
No. 1759133
>>1759114>>1759112I don't see how it's not believable or what you're even trying to accomplish? You got a study, multiple anecdotes that you claim aren't reliable because of anecdotes and then deny both because…?
Personally I've been cheated on twice, both of the men that cheated did it with "female friends" that I knew as well. The men I know that do go to strip clubs usually do it with their gf or are single and even as pointed out in the other study, strip clubs/prostitution aren't really being used by average men and the men that do use them are high earners. Idk why you're trying to convince us that cheating men are exclusively doing it with strippers or something as if most women haven't experienced men cheating with "friends"
No. 1759143
>>1759133In my experience, "I cheated with someone I know" is a lie and exaggeration men tell thinking it lessens the blow i.e. "A-at least I didn't cheat on you with a strange ho who probably had STDs," and to throw off some of your rage directed at them because some of your anger goes towards the other woman. It also makes them seem 'morally' right even when committing a wrong because at least they built a relationship with another woman instead of using one as a hole.
But guess what? Almost every "friend" woman men cheat with start as strangers…
Men are also cheating by using "friendship" apps like Bumble, fb dating, IG, etc.
Please stop buying their lies.
No. 1759154
>>1759129It's the slang I use, I'm black. What do you want me to call them, "sex workers"?
>>1759137I don't know, the combos always go like this
>A woman (sex worker, close friend, etc) fucked my man, she evil>No she ain't>But she knew me, that's evil>He brainwashed her to the max>B-but>No1currs>That's wrong>No it's notAnd so and so
No. 1759175
>>1759162Men are typically stupid and cheat with female friends which is why they get caught often, they don't even try to hide it either when they're getting weirdly close with a new woman which is why a lot of people out them
When women cheat it's very rarely with other men that know they're in a relationship, and even when that's the case men also disown friendships or try to out the other man if they know they were in a relationship
No. 1759181
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Are there ANY places on the internet that are for female gamers only? I am so sick and tired of these trannoid freaks swinging their uwu girldicks around and ruining all my hobbies. Every woman centered gaming space is filled with XY freaks demanding to be let in. I can't even enjoy small communities for stuff like decoden or knitting without seeing trannies. I can't take it anymore nonas, they ruin everything
No. 1759199
>>1759192Yes
>>1759181Unfortunately last time the internet had cool hobby spaces for girls was 2012 because then Tumblr came and it pushed gender ideology on everything
No. 1759205
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>>1759177I hope they pick Erza Miller. Would be hilarious
No. 1759210
>>1759192I've read scruffy bearded trannies talk about their cute girl cocks leaking ovulation fluid and how their cock bleeds during their period.
They talk awful and honestly anything we stay here has probably already been said, and more lol
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>>1759205Margot Robbie as Zelda
No. 1759234
>>1759222Nta but idk why people think it's impossible to hold the woman accountable too while also holding the man accountable. Yeah the man who cheated is definitely at wrong but women who knew or even worse - purposely target taken men aren't ~just as bad~ but they're definitely bad and should expect to get fought
Let's be honest now people nowadays are crazy, if I fucked another woman's bf I'd honestly be surprised if she didn't shoot me. Majority of relationship related murders are related to infidelity so either being a pawn in another woman's trauma or being a cheating moid yourself, yeah youre going to make someone flip and hurt you
No. 1759256
>>1759162No and I brought that up earlier and ofc it went unaddressed because the morality police itt know it's true.
I wish they'd go to some male forum and bitch about holding 'other men' ~le accountable~ too. Ugh.
No. 1759257
>>1759229Never denied that but since the moid is the main factor in all of it and the one who's supposed to be your partner, he's the one who should get the hands (or pee in his lube and buttcrack toothbrush).
>>1759234It's not necessary because "the second woman" essentially shoots herself in the knee getting involved with a trashy cheating moid. I just see it as a waste of energy when I can focus all my hatred and unhingedness on the ex-moid instead kek.
No. 1759269
>>1759213If we are going on recent live actions.
Link
> Neel Sethi or another brown actorZelda
> Lashana Lynch No. 1759299
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>>1759275I'm sorry you're having such an awful week anon! I hope the next one is better.
No. 1759300
>>1759286Yeah, this is the one thing docs have done, but it was normal. They also checked for internal bleeding because of the massive iron deficiency but didn't find anything either.
>I've been told that thyroid and hormonal issues could be a causeMaybe this. I never had anybody check anything hormonal. I am legit asexual too so not sure if it's related but my hormones seem to be fucked or lacking. ADHD and depressions are also caused by this, so maybe it could be related and something with the brain.
Thank you might check that! Not sure where but I will ask. I hope the docs don't ask me again what they are supposed to do because they almost always do that and I have no idea which hormones they should even check.
No. 1759324
>>1759289Not your friend and the course of action is to eliminate both from your life.
Who let the ghetto trash onto lolcow today?
No. 1759328
>>1759314Even if it was a group of friends and not a man and some bitch came up to us and started ignoring me and pretending I don't exist, I'd call her out on it. I don't see why you're out here defending this kind of sloppy behavior unless you do it yourself. And you call
me embarrassing for standing up for myself kek.
No. 1759346
>>1759313I've all those features naturally so ain't mad at it
>>1759328I bet if she found her man and her best friend fucking right on her bed and she would just shrug it off and walk away kek
No. 1759357
>>1759351Vibe check: How is her man coming off and behaving if women are approaching him to ignore his obvious gf right in front of them?
He sounds single lmao.
No. 1759386
>>1759274Consider taking twice the amount of vitamin B you need. It sounds like you are just not absorbing the nutrients you need and upping your vitamin B can be a shortcut to getting more.
Also, take a vitamin C tablet either with your iron pill, or whenever you have an iron heavy meal. It helps your body absorb the iron way better.
No. 1759399
>>1759362I'm sorry but I cannot buy you would act this apathetic, no one in such situation would
>>1759367Yeah, it seems people nowadays lack personality beyond relationships, genz specifically are very dry as a generation so it makes sense they're obsessed with bf/gf stuff instead of creating something interesting for once
No. 1759416
>>1759369Thank you anon.
>I know autistics people tend to identify with that as the idea of sexuality can seem really foreign and weirdYeah it might actually be related to autism now that I think about it. I am in my 30s but never felt any attraction towards anybody or horniness (at least nothin I would have noticed). I admit I have other issues that are related to this though, like I cannot touch people, it makes me cringe for some reason.
No. 1759421
>>1759373>and when the current zeitgeist is that your life is meaningless after 25 Is it? If anything I would say that life was over earlier in the past since people basically settled down with 20 and never changed anymore.
I agree that fulltime jobs kill the soul though. This is my issue. I don't want romances I want freedom. The thought of wasting the rest of my life away in boring companies doing boring things with people I hate is radicalizing me.
No. 1759424
>>1759386Didn't know that either. Will try.
I wish doctors would actually tell me about this, they are technically paid for this lol but guess google and anons are the better options nowadays.
No. 1759427
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I need help
Look. It's not that everything in my life is necessarily bad right now. But that's exactly why I'm afraid of things getting worse in the future. I just went through añ very important milestone in my life, something I've been searching for years came true. I've got a sweet partner. I've got my mom and I'm living okay, not perfect, but okay. But this is exactly why I'm now more than ever thinking about killing myself. I'm afraid of my mom dying, my partner not loving me anymore, everything turning to shit. I've been suicidal since 13. And I just can't stop shaking off the feeling that right now is the best moment to die if I want to feel fulfilled, comfortable, happy. That's it. This is the high of my life, or the one I thought was possible, and can't think of things getting better. What now? What now, seriously? How can I continue living? Do I just kill myself? What if everything dies and I'm miserable?
No. 1759438
>>1759274Idk I think some people are just skinny. My ex was clinically underweight when I first met him. Not because he wanted to, he was very ashamed of his body, but he’s just not a very food motivated person. I helped him put on some weight so he was within a normal bmi. I think it would theoretically be possible for him to gain some more muscle if he worked very hard, but he would have to eat what would be an incredibly large amount of food compared to his baseline. He is tall as fuck and has the tiniest bones, not full on marfan habitus, but you could just sorta tell he'd never get proper stronk like other guys. His doctor basically just told him some people be like that. He also did have an iron deficiency though, so you made me wonder whether there’s something I’m missing.
Idk whether you’ve tracked calories but skinny people will often over-estimate how many calories they eat, kinda the opposite problem to fatties. I don’t think you are necessarily unhealthy if you have always been this way and don’t feel hungry all the time/don’t have other health issues. There are benefits to having a bit extra fat, if you get become sick your body has some reserves to run on, but other than that as long as your body is functioning I don't think you're necessarily dangerously underweight just because you're an anomaly.
No. 1759441
I feel like I’m just passing time at this point. I’m in a 9+ relationship and he couldn’t care less about me, or my feelings, or everything else.
When we started going out we were pretty easy going, I never demanded too much, we used to do plans together and even when we weren’t that busy all the time, I felt like he enjoyed spending time with me. When we moved out together, we did less plans but we spent more time together.
Nowadays I feel bored with my life. We don’t go out on dates. We don’t make plans together. The only things we do together are HIS plans (when he wanted to do something because he needed to), or something that he was interested in. I wonder in which moment I assumed that was “normal”.
Every time I want to do something, I feel like I have to ask him in some type of way were I’m basically bribing him (I.e. if I want to go somewhere to eat, I have to invite him, I know it’s pathetic, I know I have to dump him).
Family gatherings are boring, I know, that’s why I only ask him to do it maybe twice or thrice a year. Still, he acts like a fucking child being forced to go to school or something.
I know what people will tell me and I know I deserve it. Mind you, it’s partially my fault. I should have grown a spine back then and cut ties with him before I basically let my life shared with him.
I want out, simple as that. But I know how much pain and trouble it will bring, because we share a house together and basically it’s having to start over all again.
At this point I’m seriously considering cheating on him. Not out of spite, I want to meet someone who appreciates me and loves me for who I am, even when I know I’m insecure and vulnerable most of the time. I’m going to start acting as if I’m single because, apart from sharing a bed, I feel like I don’t have a partner anymore.
No. 1759446
>>1759427You definitely shouldn't kill yourself now because that's like waiting in line for a roller coaster for three hours and then killing yourself once you get strapped in. Pointless and all that effort wasted.
When humans evolved the ability to think faster, we deleted a safety measure found in the brains of monkeys and greater apes that prevents these kinds of thoughts (such as suicide when it is not ideal). What you are describing sounds like either you have a chemical imbalance that needs to be corrected (depression or bipolar can cause these types of "false" panics), or that your brain has created ways of protecting you from trauma, and now that the trauma no longer exists, the "protections" have now become maladaptive.
I would recommend therapy first, perhaps EMDR because it has the ability to break such spiraling thought loops, or medication. If both of those are out of reach for some reason, you should start reading up on spiraling thought patterns to better educate yourself and get a a handheld game of tetris. Then, when these patterns start manifesting, stop what you're doing and start playing tetris. This can reprogram your brain and break established thought patterns.
No. 1759449
>>1759300Nonita, I experience basically everything you described (do you happen to have acne, btw?) and my thyroid is fine, but it turned out I have a hormonal disorder (low testosterone iirc, but it's been years since I got that test done).
Actually reading your posts gave me motivation to do something about my hormones, since I thought the only side effects were acne and extremely low libido, and I thought I could just live with that kek. Now I wonder how many of my health problems could be related to that (not that I experience anything too extreme, but still. It's generally lack of energy + constant sleepiness).
No. 1759468
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One of my cats ran away for the umpteenth time today. It's been five hours and she still hasn't come back. I feel like shit and I just really hope that she shows up later this evening. I'm just gonna eat a shit ton of comfort food and try not to think about her. I feel so bad.
No. 1759475
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so much for peaceful protests. fuck these scrotes.
No. 1759519
>>1759448I'm trying to find the article, as it's been a few years since I read it, but I'm having no luck at the moment. The basic understanding is that compared to other primates, the human brain can transfer signals around four times faster. But, in order to do this, the brain had to eliminate a bunch of redundancy channels that would normally double check thoughts and prevent "misfires", such as spiraling or auditory or visual hallucinations, from reaching their destination.
Other primates can certainly feel sad or distressed or emotional pain, but they don't seem to become stuck in the loop patterns that cause anxiety or schizophrenia as easily as we do, because their brains spend more time preventing it.
No. 1759527
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starting to think i shouldn't have gone to university. my cs degree apparently means nothing and it seems i'll have to work manual labor anyway (because nobody in the country wants to hire my autistic ass). life sucks and i'd go lay my head on the tracks if i wasn't such a coward
or i wish i'd gone for english and segued into grabbing a masters writing pseud shit like a few people i know. so many of my writing professors complimented my writing and asked me why tf was i going for cs instead of that. i know i'm not author material however and i have the creeping suspicion all the easy money lay in having a masters in writing or whatever. fuck my stupid ass
No. 1759536
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My mom is a weird paranoid person. I can't talk to her at all, she gets offended and paranoid about everything. Even if she is the one hurting me and I just point out the ways she hurts me, she somehow twists it and makes me feel super bad and evil and pretends she is the victim.
How can I deal with this?
No. 1759553
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It sucks being known/seen as a nice person. Ever since young I've been a good person, I'm always known as the loving, caring, compassionate, understanding and basically all good things I rarely get mad or talk rude to someone. Im known as the kind and innocent one in the group. But as I grow older and years pass by I easily get irritated and say hurtful things and because of it they would say that I changed and view me as a really bad person but if they do talk shit to me its nothing not a big deal at all. Its making me feel bad about myself like why….just why… Am I not allowed to show emotions and just be nice all the time like they expect me to? Its a constant torture for me, they're torturing me. Am I the wrong one? Am I toxic? Life hasn't been really good to me. Im just so tired too of being so nice to everyone that dont consider my feelings at all. They turned me the way I am right now.
No. 1759633
>>1759622If you're the Christmas temp anon from before it sounds like you really don't want the job. If you don't need it don't do it. Or take the interview and feel the vibe?
Good luck
No. 1759666
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He wanted to break up when he has been the first man to give me any sort of physical affection in years. He was a shitty boyfriend, very autistic and didn't understand emotional intimacy in the slightest but I was still able to guide him like he was my personal male servant. He took me out to restaurants, I'd ask him to kiss me, neck me, and even have sex with me and he always obliged to my requests. I was on an ecstasy of touch stimulus, I hadn't been touched in years and he was finally touching me in all of the places I craved to be touched in. But last week, we had a small argument and suddenly he wants to end things. And now I'm left feeling angry, touch-deprived and craving intimacy again. After so many years of being touch deprived I had a glimpse of what the good life was like being in a relationship again, finally. Now it's been taken away from me, again. Now I am left single and decaying alone…. again.
Never in my life have I wanted to kill myself more. I HATE being involuntarily celibate. I just want sex and love as permanent things I fucking hate how it always manages to be taken away from me and leave me before I can grasp it and hold onto it forever. Why am I cursed?
No. 1759667
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all the little bullshit things happening today:
>face is extremely dry and now under my eyes are red and flaky
>acne somehow popping up regardless
>put on a turtleneck and it makes me look like a linebacker
>insecurity about appearance overcome at the last minute to go to dispensary on work lunch break
>traffic insane because it's lunch hour
>finally get home, eat a bag of frozen peas with the 10 minutes I have left of lunch break
>brush cat
>see black flecks
>one of the flecks is bloody, others are clearly lint
>put a 3 month flea treatment on the cat at the end of august (28th)
>shouldn't have fleas until the 20somethingth of this month
>friend moving in soon
>friend also has cats
fuck. The bloody black thing could just be leftover caked blood from my cat scratching himself, it is colder out and my skin is also really itchy. He has no problem scratching himself until he bleeds (as do I) so I get it, but god, please, no fleas. I cannot do this again, please, god, fuck. Also:
>mouse stops moving intermittently on work laptop
>work is time sensitive and involves interactions with people
>have to bullshit everytime I'm on a call with someone while I wait for my mouse to start working again
>restarting computer doesn't work
FUCK
No. 1759671
>>1759633Yeah I am, since I haven't been rejected by the other 6 normal jobs I'm now a bit stressed that I'll end up in the awkward situation of starting this one and then having to quite a few days in or something once one of the other 6 get back to me.
Obviously I don't owe corporations anything but still it's a bit rude to do.
So now it has me rethinking everything yknow?
My end goal is permanent work, not a time limit on it.
I keep yoyoing from wanting to go to the interview just to see, possibly having to reject it later or not bothering in general to waste both mine and the managers time.
There is a slim chance that maybe they will keep me on if I'm a good worker but idk how the temp contract would convert if that's the case.
Kinda have decision paralysis now.
No. 1759673
>>1759666I’m sorry anon but please spoiler that,
triggering.
No. 1759705
>>1759487All the white racists I have seen so far are pro Netanjahu because they enjoy seeing brown people getting killed.
>>1759491Because humanity is fucking lost and let's face it, the vast majority are racist or supremacist shit that define their whole worldview as "us vs them" and cheer seeing people getting massacred. It doesn't matter which side they are on or what culture they belong to. Most people only fake being nice and will laugh at your death because they always hated you anyway no matter what you do.
No. 1759722
>>1759710This exactly but I am the new worker everytime. Assholes and unironical bullies and abusers (female) that can't do shit, don't do shit and use the job as some social ladder battle royal shit that means that they are treat you like subhuman trash if you are good at your work because they aren't and they are fat and psychotic so nobody likes them I guess.
I don't give a shit about coworkers on principle, I don't want to socialise, I don't want to know anything about others I just want to come, finish my work ASAP and do it right and then go home without speaking a single word but no, can't have that sadly. Every job seems to have these sociopaths and this is why I always quit after half a year.
No. 1759750
>>1759722> treat you like subhuman trash if you are good at your work because they aren't and they are fat and psychotic so nobody likes them I guess.lmao do we work together? It’s all so familiar. I’m usually nice n social at work but only when the few people I can tolerate are on the schedule. I want to just leave but it’s been years and I like the benefits. Tough choice.
May we both find enjoyable, well-paying jobs with a good work/life balance where we don’t have to pick up the slack for the losers, nona.
No. 1759786
>>1759765Not porn related but I sometimes get flashbacks to all the shit I have done as teen. Shit other people witnessed and shit I managed to hide and it's actually preventing me from ever becoming famous. Not that I would manage that lol but purely theoretically I am scared of becoming somewhat known if I ever draw a comic or something that could become a bit popular. I am afraid that at least one of the people there still hate me enough to make a twitter call out and reveal the horrors of my youth.
At least I never used facebook. The thought of having everything you ever said archived or screenshot by someone out there is scary.
No. 1759858
>>1759722>fatties ruining the social aspect of every job Why is it always this way? My suggestions in meetings to improve our process efficiency were treated as if they were open hostility. These types absolutely cannot handle the blunt honesty of autists
Im 34 still getting boolied by bossy fat women at work
No. 1759904
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My tumblr TERF discord group has gone full anti-TERF. Kinda a bummer. Like we came from radblr and constantly had out accounts deleted by offended trannies. And they got deep into crazy cow and cult stuff on radtwt. and over the years my mutuals got more and more annoyed by anything to do with GC and radfem stuff. I know there's cringe in those circles and I never denied it, but it was never on the same level as tranny stuff. But I felt like our discord was an oasis from the tranny loving internet nonsense. After a big fight, someone deleted the discord and restarted, introducing her FtMtFtM boyfriend. Now wishing death on any radfem/GC oriented persons, banning all exmuslim talk and stuff and just being hateful in general. I sometimes stay for the art stuff and job refs, but I feel like they ignore me. It's crazy because we were so tight in 2022, and now I barely know anyone or anything. It's crazy to feel sad over being pushed out of a place I used to like. I deleted my twitter and I hate visiting there for any reason.
I've been trying to find something else, like an IRL group to talk with but I feels o out of step with everyone. I feel like I have to create a false face just to interact with people. And I'm told this is normal and you will always have to lie with people, especially if you want anything. Tranny stuff will never go away, guess I have to go normie mode and just hope for the best. I have political stuff, and gender stuff and I hate having to bite my tongue around ugly deranged people.
No. 1759911
Anon from this post
>>1759765 I checked in on some of my old classmates on social media and found that every single one of them has trooned out, not kidding. I feel much better now knowing that they’re completely incompetent and no one will take anything they say seriously kek.
No. 1759923
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I fell for some really shitty bait just now and I already regret giving them that (you)
No. 1759933
>>1759904If you find another
terf discord please drop it here, I'm sick of the tranny shit too and hate how they are catered to in every single fucking server and ""straight"" dudes carrying on about "superior girl cock" over bio women. Makes me sick. You're a faggot. Grow up.
No. 1759994
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>>1759213MGK is gunning for the part kek
No. 1760010
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I'm so tired of being in debt, I want to focus on all the fun things I actually want to do already.
No. 1760056
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I think the handbanana episode of aqua teen is really funny. But I just got morally grandstanded by a moid who basically said I'm a hypocrite for laughing at a glove/dog hybrid raping a fictional misogynist because "nothing would ever justify rape" and now I'm "just as bad" as men who make jokes about raping women. It's is NO MAN'S reality that they have to worry about being raped by a goddamn dog but it's been my reality my entire life as a woman that I have to be constantly worried about being raped by a man because it's so fucking prevalent that every woman I know knows at least one other woman who has been raped or assaulted as well as likely experiencing both herself. I can't believe the fucking audacity. If I want to laugh at cartoon men being raped by a fucking dog I will laugh and I will not feel guilty about it, what a fucking ridiculous thing to say to a woman. My fucking God I hate moids.
No. 1760061
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>>1760056I do believe that men can be raped, but that's not gonna stop me from laughing at them still.
No. 1760064
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>>1760059>I dont like dogs>"omG you psYchOpath!"I don't like them, but do you see me slicing them open and being Ted Bundy for puppies? No. Move to the side, faggot.
No. 1760066
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>>1760045Thanks, it means a lot. The problem is that my ears are sensitive 24/7 and it feels like there's a constant noise rumbling behind me if it isn't being drowned out by shit like electricity, dogs barking, my older brother making noises to himself, etc. it's constant and I can't take it. If I leave the house there's the sounds of children screaming and laughing, there's the sounds of cars going by, sharp chirping of birds, etc. If I'm the slightest bit depressed or stressed all the noise will boost that shit to suicidal ideation and genuine moid level rage quickly. This is hell is never ending and I am genuinely pissed my father stopped me from ending it.
No. 1760093
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i just want to get a job that gives me more than 50 usd a month fuck. i wanted to try that OF chatter thing but they requiere you to uber doxx yourself for it and i can't risk it. I just want to afford a gym and a therapist while i work on commissions on the side.
No. 1760123
>>1760113Glad you guys brought it up because it reminded me of it and I had to rewatch kek. I used to love aquateen.
>>1760056He sounds like a little bitch who just wanted an excuse to vomit his self righteousness
No. 1760187
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i have a job but i desperately need a sugar daddy or mommy to buy me rolls for my silly autistic hyperfixiaton
No. 1760286
>>1760257I have that too what the fuck is up with this?
I totally lack the connection nowadays. Feelings aren't shared anymore, usually people (even friends) don't even listen and when they do there are only two sort of replies. 1. they come with something like "you call that x, now listen what I EXPERIENCED: [hour long talk about thing they already told me about]" to overtrump your stuff or 2. standard answers that show there is no genuine interest.
I would talk about personal interests but that won't get me any answers either. Seems like nobody is fan of anything, people watch a lot but stop caring the second they close the player and nobody reads anything either and the few that play games only play the same MMO/mobage for a decade and consider it a serious job instead of fun.
tl;dr I doing gain anything from convos anymore so talking feels like a chore nowadays
No. 1760343
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>>1760327I double your sentiment. Hope he rots.
No. 1760344
>>1760286It's weird, isn't it? I enjoy when people talk about what is going on in their lives and it can be fun for me to ask questions about things to learn more about how that person thinks or whatever. I guess it seems selfish because I never have much interesting stuff to talk about, but maybe I do it's just that no one ever asks.
The straightforward answer is that maybe I just need to spend more time alone, but I do have a lot of alone time already. And I remember a few years ago when I had very little friends and I would just work and then come home and repeat that cycle and it was probably one of the most miserable periods of my life. So I'm not sure what to do. What's been your approach to dealing with this predicament?
No. 1760367
>>1760344Yeah fulltime working kills me too, it might be part of the problem. Work all day and commute and such make me return at 5pm or so, for some jobs even later. It's already pitch black night by that time and I have to time anyway, daily chores, bureaucracy shit and then I am even supposed to buy food and cook. I usually don't and just go fetching fastfood or eat nothing at all and since I need 10h of sleep I go to sleep then, sometimes refuse to because I want to live so I watch an anime and only sleep 2-5h till I go to work again.
There is 0 time to even meet with friends even if I had the urge to socialize. We only meet once a month at night to either drink some beer outside and talk or sit in a hookah bar since now it's cold outside. Not like there was much else to do or enough time.
No. 1760570
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This is the best lip treatment I’ve ever tried but it’s $33 and I can’t buy a refill so I’d have to buy the entire thing again and it annoys me
No. 1760728
>>1760591you are already getting your wish; because there are so many more men than women, it's inevitable that large swaths of the population are unable to find a partner and the effects have started to hit. A lot of young people (both men and women) are also just disinterested in dating nowadays.
I don't think anybody in my family has/had that anti-girl attitude, thankfully, lots of people think it's abhorrent too. My parents had a girl (my sister, not me) and my aunt had a son in a normal way. He doesn't want a gf and instead uses his career to take care of her, which is nice especially since she doesn't have a husband. The situation in China is grim in many ways but remember there are kind and loving families too and we all hate the femicide people
No. 1761494
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My family is filled with narcissists and other dark triads who all chose to hate and terrorize me for some reason. I didn’t even know what scapegoating was until a few years ago so what they did to me made me hate myself. None of them seem to understand that they did anything wrong, because they’re incapable of self awareness and empathy. It’s not fair that I’ve been clinically depressed and suicidal since I was 13 because of those freaks, even now after learning about narcissistic abuse I’m still really fucked up from it. I wish I could move on and have a good life but I’m not sure how, and I genuinely want nothing more than to just kill myself and I would if I weren’t scared of failing an attempt
No. 1761790
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it's my birthday, and i just feel extremely bored and sad. maybe that's the essence of adulthood, i'm not really sure. i feel lost on everything.
No. 1761921
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>>1758580>>1758583>>1758591>>1758596>>1758600>>1758627Hi nonnies, thanks for the kind replies. They did ease my mind a little (I was actually crying when I wrote that kek) but for the sake of my sanity, I really am going to stop posting. I just wanted to say one more goodbye since you were all nice enough to respond to my cringe meltdown with positivity. Admin/Farmhands stay cool and remember we've never had no problems between us. FBI/CIA agents compiling my dox file, please have mercy on me when the time comes. Precious nonnies/nonnas/nonitas, thanks for all the laughs, and for posting me in the screencaps threads so many times. (They were all legitimately funny I promise.) Don't ever forget that Hall is the Blonde One. Goodbye.
No. 1761961
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i got laid off yesterday with a month of severance because my position is being outsourced to india. kind of ironic as i'm in hr. anyway - i can't stop crying because i've been so caught off guard by the timing and utter randomness of the situation. wasn't expecting them to hang me out to dry like this right before the holidays. oh well.
No. 1762034
>>1761961This isnt fair. I'm sorry,
nonnie. Companies do bs like this and want loyalty. you will find something better.
No. 1762047
>>1760777Unironically back to /a/ and /int/ because they're less racist and emotional than the incels and relationship drama queens here.
Also, I mainly post about anime and comics besides that and the threads for that are dead here and only ever active when there is some retarded infighting again. Sometimes making a post on fc too since it's more chill but it's so slow that you only need to check it once a month.
No. 1762067
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>>1760777Now I’m wondering how much time LC has left. I don’t want kiwifarms to be the only source for cow updates but it looks like we’re heading that way.
No. 1762107
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Glad I never had that self hatred incel brain rot kek Most men IRL are ugly so I don’t know why some anons insist on romanticizing them when the reality is that they’re not that cute. Also men and women only look like pigs when they’re death fats which is unfortunately a large population these days.
No. 1762115
>>1762063this post sounds fat as hell ngl
>>1762092Please seek therapy, i'm for real, this sounds like either OCD or anorexia
No. 1762125
>>1762080>>1762104Sounds like he knew how bad he fucked up and took a leave to seek 'therapy' so he could make it look like he addressed the issue and not be fired for harassment. Probably fulfilled some bullshit EAP-type program loophole so he wouldn't get canned.
The true loser here is the new mom and baby. All this taught the guy was to have better opsec and to not solicit his extramarital affairs at work.
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>>1762092Have you ever actually seen other humans? The majority of men are fat and balding which is way more piglike than the average woman who actually takes care of herself.
No. 1762149
>>1762107agree, I see beautiful women every day but cute moids once a month at most
>>1762134dominant bottom
No. 1762154
>>1761990>>1762034<3 thank you
>>1762094it was tech, so i guess heartless was kind of expected. thank you for commiserating <3
No. 1762275
>>1762228>>1762233Same I don't get it. My best friend is bigger and she gets around fine, I dont hear her eat or anything like this. Are they talking about morbidly obese people?
A lot of the people I've talked to irl that seem to really hate fat people have some insecurity over their looks, I think that plays a part
No. 1762285
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>oh look, the troon talk about women being pigs was actually just bait to bitch about fatties
I can't wait to read another 50 post infight about this beaten horse dead topic /s
No. 1762291
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>>1762284>I’m actually fit and athletichow convenient
No. 1762296
>>1762250It's all about how much physical activity you do. A fat person who walks in a walkable city and walks a lot are going to be my physically fit than the standard US person who sits and drives everywhere. A lot of death fats in particular also evade being bound to their beds if they work jobs that force them to be on their feet all day.
>>1762270Likewise assuming everyone who isn't an anachan is suddenly a fatty. Anachans are objectively more irritating than fattychans on this site.
No. 1762307
>>1762284You know that there are people that are skinny and bony naturally, right? i trynna eat its not my fault it gets consumed so fast
>>1762299you seem to care a lot
No. 1762319
>>1762311I don't think them being winded has to do with their obesity, but overall their inexperience and lack of fitness with hiking. I say that because obviously there are overweight people who participate in these activities no problem.
My normal weight friends can't all do physical activity like that either. Chances are if they romanticized hiking like taking it easy out in the woods, then they are gonna have a bad time. I've seen it happen.
Anyway, just reads as confirmation bias. Don't you have hiking buddies to ask if it's something you do often?
No. 1762357
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>plebbit thread depicting meme of women choosing between motherhood or corpo career, you know the drill
>cue faggy redditor top comment about wanting a sugar momma
>respond pointing out how sugaring men often doesn't work even if a woman is advantaged enough to have an income that provides because men neither keep up their looks nor commit to domestic duties or child rearing the majority of the time
>"W-w-well not me! I do all that stuff AND I still have to work! So takeover when?"
>mfw
Male plebbitors are such sanctimonious, lying children.
No. 1762369
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>>1762038>>1762092This is the same person who posted
>>>/ot/1759273in case anyone didn't realize. This is a mental issue at work.
No. 1762393
>>1762366You need to punish him for what he did and when you have any more big life events, don't invite him. If he reaches out all you have to say is that you guys are struggling, don't let him escape the issues of the broken family he left.
A poor father is like a bad ex: he reaches out to soothe his ego not because he cares.
No. 1762407
>>1762385It'll be okay anon.
I had a very traumatic and painful abortion at
24 weeks a decade ago, and it was a two-day procedure with overnight mini labor and to this day, and for what all it's worth, I still would have chosen it again.
I do believe the nurses at the time made it as unorthodox and as painful as possible to "teach me a lesson."
But, today abortions are much more professional and normalized. If you need more pain management you are within rights to demand more.
No. 1762457
>>1762393I should, but I'm weak and keep accepting breadcrumbs. He doesn't seem capable of reflecting over his own actions or being accountable, but I'm somewhat inclined to write a final fuck-off message or something and then just stop talking to him
I'm really a sucker and keep giving him chances and I have to stop
No. 1762493
>>1762422I think we all take for granted that everyone is professional and leaves their personal beliefs at the door when they put on a work uniform, but unfortunately, it's just not always the case.
Reminds me of the debacle about Walgreen's pharmacists denying women the sale of Plan B pills citing "religious beliefs" even though emergency contraceptives are not abortions…these people should have had the medical and pharmaceutical training to have known better but they did not care.
No. 1762670
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I don't know why men think is not wanting to deal with their male chauvinism is funny. We're not their property, tradwife, or bangmaid.
No. 1762674
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My childhood friend lost her job and made a post asking about Christmas charities for her kids.
I felt bad so I asked her to message me with her address and then I asked for her kid's wishlists. It's just that I know charities tend to be very generic with gifts and I know kids appreciate it when they receive stuff tailored for their interests.
The boy wants My Hero Academia (Denki) or just Demon Slayer stuff.
The little girl really loves Barbie and T Swift.
My friend made a polite comment making sure it wasn't too much since I just went through major shit myself.
Well…..well…….
I played it off and pretended I wouldn't have offered if I couldn't have but she's right.
I'm such a dumbass. Why do I do this to myself? Fucking idiot.
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No. 1762952
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i’m pissed and sad and vulnerable right now and it’s beyond my moid’s pay grade to give more than the bare minimum i guess.
i found out one of my two cats has roundworm today when they vomited up a writhing mass of the things, cue panic attack and a trip to tractor supply co in the meantime while i get a vet appointment scheduled. i spent the afternoon crying and researching how to help them while he complained of a headache (expecting me to take care of him all day!!!) and told me, quite seriously, that he thinks i have OCD because i worry too much about them. like my cats aren’t the only good and pure and un-backstabbing thing in my life. grrrrrrrrrrr
No. 1763013
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>>1752397i always get really nervous and sick having to interact with any male that isnt my boyfriend or online (because i have control over it). i have bad cptsd from my father and bad male experiences so i assume this is why but i do feel bad because i want to think maybe a small percentage of men are good, and i shouldnt assume poorly. my boyfriend feels so special to me and the worst he has done is yell at me once when his blood sugar was low and sat and hugged and apologized to me. im so lucky to have him.
but it is hard because my male coworker is so kind but he is older and has a less innocent face soi just get worried he is a bad sick man. but that may not even be true?! and today a man yelled at me for not pulling up at the gas station (despite multiple pumps being open…)
i just dont want them to flirt or yell or even talk to me. maybe if it is an old man who is sweet but my mind just thinks most men dont deserve my kindness because they probably raped someone or hit a woman or think about fucking kids. and yet im still nice to all of them because im scared theyll lash out. i wish men came with a tag that said naughty or nice.
No. 1763077
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i hate this shit. I can't get a boyfriend for the life of me, no one's interested in me, yet every random scrote got a beautiful gf, what the fuck. I feel so lonely
No. 1763208
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>>1763160Think I'm in a similar place, but not lesbian. Try running a bath first, listen to something chill. Later try talking on a suicide hotline. If the weather isn't shit, go for a walk. That's what I plan on doing tonight.
DON'T BOTHER WITH THE PARACETAMOL, YOU WILL DIE WEEKS LATER WITH LIVER DAMAGE. SLOW AND PAINFUL WAY TO GO AND YOU WILL BE ALIVE FOR EVERY MOMENT
No. 1763251
>>1763160Please don't anon. I don't mean to blog post but I'm going through an extremely painful abortion tomorrow and I'd rather be
unalive than have to sit there and have metal rods shoved inside of me and hear everything. If I can go through something like that and still want to be alive…somehow..so can you. If your parents wont accept you just play straight until you can get the f out of there. Rooting for you anon please don't do anything drastic.
No. 1763252
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I haven't vented here in a while but I feel like I have no where else to scream into the void.
I find it so hard to make genuine online friends. People will be nice to you on the surface and engage when you reply to them but will never seek you out or care about your thoughts on x or y unless you're a big account. I'm trying to not let it bother me, I should just focus on what makes me happy and whoever is interested will reach out, but I'm just kinda tired of enjoying my hobbies alone when gushing about stuff with someone else is such a great feeling.
I try to talk about things here too on /m/ but that board is really slow and its much harder to generate discussion. I can go on 4ch for certain stuff like manga but that moidfest shithole has so much casual misogyny it just isn't worth it when I'm talking to someone who thinks I'm a moid too.
I need to stop overthinking. I need to just do what I want to do and not care about others. But fuck, I just want someone to enjoy things with. I get so jealous seeing other people scream with their friends and act like I don't exist. Ugh I just need to stop caring, stop giving a shit, this is terminal online brain speaking.
No. 1763303
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I fell for my ex's lovebombing.
It hurts so much to admit but I just wanted so badly to believe his love and his talk about the future were real. I met his family and his brother. Even though I knew deep down something was off, he didn't act right, and the body language was hollow. Noticed he stopped doing things for me as he slowly withdrew and painted me bad in his mind. He got more short, gave me less grace during misunderstandings, and started accusing me of ill intentions.
I didn't even post pics of us on socials or say I was in a relationship…because I knew.
It's my fault. I've been played before. I am experienced enough to have known better, I just didn't listen to myself cause, what, I wanted the hope??? Stupid.
He discarded me in borderline fashion out of nowhere and brought his ex back in who he had cursed so badly before as my replacement.
According to my period tracker, my period is late. I took pricey prenatal vitamins while we were together…he said he wanted a baby with me. I ate healthier. I exercised. I organized his place. Didn't get knocked up then, but maybe it was the universe's way of there being a reason if this was coming regardless.
If my period doesn't come then abortion is on the table for me, again. Of course it's the right thing to do but it is very sad that once again, the plans I wanted were teased and then yanked away from me.
I hate it.
Men will never know the gravity of pain they inflict.
No. 1763317
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I've been coming to the realization that I probably have to break up with my girlfriend soon. She's perfect, sweet, and cares about me a lot. We're long-distance, though, and I'm not sure how much I can take anymore. Nothing has happened in the few years we've been together (which, we're poor students so I get it but also…), and I've completely tapped out.
No. 1763406
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>my dumbass narcissist mother slut shaming me and blaming me for my rape as if she doesn't constantly trauma dump about her third nasty divorce from my serial cheating, financially abusive stepfather
Take several seats, mother.
Evidently men can fuck you after 20 days or 20 years.
I could argue you're more retarded for staying married to a moid who threw you under the bus so many times before you even knew about the cheating. Zero fucking empathy for her own daughter! She claims she "doesn't know the reasons why" I want no contact with her for five years even though this shit RIGHT HERE was one of the things I cited.
Selective memory.
Too bad I wasn't born a male so she could have truly loved me, supported me, and have true empathy.
Horrific woman.
No. 1763417
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when it comes to looks, i've always wished i was a very tall, skinny, androgynous woman (or man). i think people like that are just so beautiful.
No. 1763456
>>1752397I hate how I can never be happy. I finally get employed and work isn't too bad but I'm still dissociating and struggling to not be anxious. I can barely handle change. I feel every fiber of my being wanting to self-sabotage anything good in my life and fall back into a depression spiral.
I'm trying so hard to do better in life and it never feels like enough. I get what I want and I'm still sitting here feeling so apprehensive about it all. Like when do I start living and enjoying myself like a normal person?
No. 1763492
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I absolutely cannot hold a conversation and it plagues me everyday, but it especially feels bad when I see people making fun of those who can't hold a conversation or say that people that have no friends are a "red flag". I just don't have anything to say and I'm painfully boring. As silly as it sounds, I get jealous when I see people irl and characters on TV conversating easily. People say being ugly is the worst but a lack of social skills is the true curse. It's a true hinderance in my life. It's not my fault I've been in isolation and wasn't allowed opportunities to develop social skills for a majority of my life!
No. 1763585
>>1763579samefag, I said this and then saw the post string you were responding to, and yup, this is the exact reason. Just look at this one kek,
>>>/ot/1763577 every time.
No. 1763590
>>1763568I wish I could date myself.
God tier partner.
No. 1763638
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>>1763568Lonely doesn't factor into it for me, I'm GNC and often read as lesbian anyway despite being woefully and chemically heterosexual.
All the women in my life tell me I'm so attractive and even today I got told "if I was a man, I'd totally be into you!" Like no you wouldn't Becky! You're picking up on my "mAsCuLiNe EnErGy" and it's why you think I'm attractive, actual men don't think like that, they're attracted to performative femininity and run for the hills when they catch a whiff of my straightforward personality.
So yeah I wish I was fucking lesbian really badly. Not only are women better partners and capable of actual emotion and giving equally to a relationship, you can share clothes and chores, get cats together without worrying if your neanderthal moid is secretly abusing them… not only all of this, but it's literally life on impossible difficulty to be GNC and straight. I even got read as lesbian when I had my hair really long.
The only men who are ever interested in me are too fucking weak to send back the wrong meal in a restaurant, wanting to be pegged types. Or else, worse, narcissistic closet cases. So yeah, lonely is happening regardless, society just really wants GNC women to be lesbian.
No. 1763686
>>1763675I mean, you've only got the rest of your lives for him to possibly fuck that up.
Hoping for the best outcome, truly.
No. 1763762
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I was reading the meta thread to laugh at the cyberpolice x fujo debacle and it turns out the antifujos posted animal gore on the thread they won over and began about a meme they didn't like, I'm in legit shock they think animal mutilation is fine
No. 1763767
>>1763686I don't really see him doing a huge personality change to the point of what was said.
>>1763699I agree, we were best friends for nearly a year online before I flew to meet him. Neither of us knew what the other looked like. It wasn't until 3 days into my trip did I realise I was in love with him and vice versa. Even on our worst days (which funny enough don't even come close to the worst days with my ex) he's still the best man I've ever known.
No. 1763795
>>1763788literally not true wtf the figure was posted AFTER the gore
>>1763330 posted 5 hours ago
>>1763375 posted 4 hours ago No. 1763798
>>1763784Uh oh he actually sperged about elizabeth and posted the hurt gazelle + shit figurine after someone called him a retard, my mistake
nonnie kekk
No. 1763878
>>1763670that's not true
nonnie, it's 20% reddit coomers and the 50% is granola guys. only the terminally online they/thems attract redditors. the normies one get hot scrotes it is comical
No. 1763886
>>1763861>you can walk outside and see a dead deer on the road.ew wtf no i dont know what white trash shithole you live in but i never see dead animals, i cant even see certain animals liker rats alive let alone dead.
>That’s not indecent or unnatural.it is if you arent a fucking psycho
>Some guy giving birth to meat out of his asshole? That’s not necessary. You watch a nature documentary on cable television, you see the predator/prey dynamic emerge and who loses. That’s likely why no one was sperging about the leopard grabbing the deer, because from what I can see it’s not egregiously gorey the way that the toilet photo is.a picture of a limp dead deer being carried by two leopards is miles worse than a low quality anime figurine of a guy squatting showing no genetilas what kind of drugs are you on
No. 1763894
I want to vent but not under these circumstances, please stop fighting
>>1763861The person who posted that figure spoilered it and called it "even worse" than the other picture of the other figure posted, it's like you didn't read the og post
No. 1763916
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>this thing is worse than a dead deer
holy shit how insane do you have to be to sperg about this thing and go cry to the mods to ban it when we have more sexual banners and THEN post a dead deer, which is miles worse and actual fucking gore. Literal psychopath behaviour. I would genuinely seek mental health if a stupid anime figurine was more traumatizing to me than someone using a real dead deer to make a shitty joke. Anons have gotten dogpilled for way less.
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>>1763900Anon…
Can we use this thread to vent normally now? This argument is old and I'm tired if both sides being talked about constantly
No. 1763935
>>1763927>shows no genitals He’s still partially naked shitting out bloody meat on the toilet
nonnie. The gazelle photo doesn’t even have any blood present, just animals?
No. 1763958
>>1763954kek it's okay
nonnie it's been very entertaining watching her journey. She really was up to something. Sorry for deleting.
No. 1763959
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>>1763947Don't fucking lie girl
No. 1763988
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>>1763947the moriah one is on the same level of ''nudity'' as the figurine. also there is literally cropped porn as banners.
>>1763953insane levels of newfaggotry
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After doing extensive research I came to the realization that my recurring migraines and eye pain along with dryness are all because of Tretinoin and have to stop using it. Bummer, because it made my skin look so good
No. 1764172
I feel really sad because I need to rehome my cat. She was one of the only solid things in my life but due to a longggg list of reasons (basically sudden financial, living situations ect) I need to do what's best for her and get her to a better home. I personally know the people who are taking her and I know they will love her to pieces and she's a perfect fit, but I can't help feeling incredibly guilty and like I'm just giving up. I know it's "just a cat" but she was my motivation for reaching goals, getting out of an awful living situation, coping with a long term engaged breakup, bettering myself, was one of the only solid things in my life, looking after myself better (because if I couldn't look after myself I couldn't give her proper care). She is the sweetest angel and I know she will make the new family so happy but I can't help but want to save my guilt and feelings and cancel the whole thing.
I feel so awful partly when I got her I was very much aware it's not a sudden decision, I'm the type who researches for years/months before getting a pet, I had plenty of savings for emergencies, so on. I was so sure I was prepared for anything but I wasn't.
No. 1764190
>>1764181a large part of me wants to and I'm going to ask I feel anxious though as I'm not sure she will let me. not sure as she's actually going to my ex fiancé's sister. When we broke up I had to block the entire family, not because I have an issue with his sister (she's absolutely lovely) but because I had an issue with his mother and I didn't want to give her some way to contact me. I also feel it would be really awkward and weird because of the whole ex relationship thing. Maybe I'd be able to get pictures or something at least. His sister is lovely though and I'm so thankful she was so eager to take her in. I unblocked her and told her and I was so anxious I would get an earful but she was so kind and understanding.
As for custody a huge part of me wishes but part of the reason I know she would better suit their home is she has two kids + more time at home, my cat is extremely social and wants a lot of attention, and while I'm usually not a kids person those kids are some of the most well behaved, sweetest kids I've ever met and I'd feel so awful taking her away from them. I'd also feel awful taking her away from his sister as well
No. 1764208
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just saw a white woman on twitter post about being abused by her male partner while pregnant with his child. a bunch of racist men flooded her comments insisting that he was black and laughing at her for getting what she "deserved" (he wasn't even black).
this is why "race loyalty" is a retarded game for women. men, as a collective, are evil pieces of shit who hold their own cuckold anxiety over any woman's life. no matter what, they love to victim blame. this sort of thing happens to brown, black and asian women whenever moids abuse them too. i wish i could fling every shitty male and idiotic pickme preaching allegiance to any race or group of men (whether it be under tradthotism, hotepery, religion, nationalism, etc) into space.
No. 1764299
>>17599442 days later I got a response that basically said ”I can’t help you, ask someone else, but thank you for reaching out”. I feel better having gotten a response at all tbh.
Still, I’m going to be working with them next week. I hope I die this weekend. I’m so ashamed being a whole ass adult getting mixed up in high school tier games of ”he said she said”. Can’t help but to think that I’m rotten and people don’t want to work with me because I’m the problem.
No. 1764323
>>1764154I'm so sorry this is happening to you anon.
My grandma was a dental hygienist so I was always fear mongered about my teeth growing up as well. Some things are just genetic unfortunately. For instance, I was diagnosed with periodontal disease after the hygienist noticed I had deep gum pockets on my molars. My mom has the same issue and her oral health is a nightmare at 70. I have great hygiene which staves away infection but the pockets will never go away unfortunately so it will be something I have to be on top of for the rest of my life or else.
Something about hitting 30 nosedived the quality of my teeth. They just started chipping and getting cavities after a life of having next to no issues up to that point. Suddenly I needed crowns on my molars and apparently I need fillings now too. I blame having been pregnant a few times in my life. Please start taking vitamins if you haven't, minerals are leeched from your teeth when your body lacks them due to pregnancy or other issues. If you drink carbonated waters or anything with citric acid stop those too even if they are sugar free. Carbonated water is still acidified like soda and will do the same damage to teeth. Tbh coffee is pretty shit for your teeth too as it's acidic as well.
Only other thing I could recommend further to help remineralize your teeth is prescription florinated toothpaste…but it's a marginal difference at best. Teeth are just poor craftsmanship.
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Put my phone on DND while retarded bf was blowing up my phone talking about something because he can't type a normal paragraph and has to send 50 messages. Forgot to turn it off and now I missed my alarms and I'm late for work.
No. 1764346
>>1764323really? even just fizzy water? I didn't know that. Thank you nona. I eat shit tons of acidic fruits like oranges so I bet that doesn't help… I'm going to ask my dentist about these things next week.
I'm so sorry about your gum disease, it sounds like an absolute nightmare for you and your mum. I actually do have the prescription toothpaste as of my appointment yesterday thankfully, but yes, teeth are nightmarishly designed and having infections is uniquely horrible. sending you the best of luck.
No. 1764383
>>1764366Hugs you through the screen
It's going to be ok nonna
No. 1764524
>>1764509Thanks for the reply anon. I logically know its tiny but i have been an anachan for a long time so sudden growth of a body part does freak me out more than it should. Theyre also kinda hard so definitely its breast tissue, not fat. I either have hormonsl issues or it idk just happened as i got older (23 now). I do wanna get the surgery, i code so i can work from home but idk if i can do anything without my parents noticing. Coolsculpting seems to only work for fat.
Anon if you dont mind me asking, how long did it take for you to recover? Since i already have small boobs, i feel like i can go without taking sick days. But idk if any doctor will perform on me since i am underweight and clearly not doing this for health reasons (i assume yours was pain related? G-cups sound like they would be really sensitive when you dont wear a sports bra. I hope you recovered well)
No. 1764534
>>1764503>Not in a tranny way just in a "i hate my body" WayTIFs cut them off for the same reasons.
>>1764524>anachanEven more like a TIF. They're women at the end of the day, like you and me. Same kinds of struggles.
No. 1764537
>>1764509I didn't know surgeons would take that much. I figured they placed limits on how low you could go, in order to minimize possible nerve and muscle damage.
When you first woke up after getting much removed, what was the sensation like? Did you feel unbalanced? I once cut all my hair off at once when it was below my butt, and my head felt so light and free.
No. 1764551
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I'm struggling with feelings of inadequacy right now. I just got rejected after my first in-person interview in years. Most interviews I've had have been virtual, so my plan for this one was to dress up more than usual and show that I took the interview very seriously. I looked damn good honestly.
To be fair I got gross and dumb vibes from the men I interviewed with but it still feels kinda bad being rejected by a bunch of sleazy petty frat boys. When I was answering their questions they would have times where they'd look at each other and smirk. I didn't say anything stupid so I don't know what the hell was their problem. Like jesus christ get a room if y'all wanna flirt/fuck. I asked them some technical questions and they had no idea what I was talking about. I just got a graduate degree and am very educated in the math/coding end of things which I thought would be a plus for IB. My question is how do so many dumbass moids end up in investment banking firms when they don't understand math or coding? They must hire each other just to continue the "culture", it was seriously like a frat party in there. No wonder the world is in its current state when these are the idiots running it.
No. 1764561
>>1764534Ye youre right i worded it weirdly. Im aware that tifs w 'gender dysphoria' are basically just women w body dysmorphia so i want the surgery they want.
i wrote that so people dont call me a tif and say " You are not a man even if u cut your tits". I know i still shouldnt hate my body but u know i feel like having this sudden growth made my anachanism worse since im scared my boobs are getting bigger because of my diet
No. 1764584
>>1764524I don't think you would qualify anon, your BMI has to be normal too (so if you are underweight you wouldn't) I had mine funded on the NHS (bong) because I have suffered with body dysmorphia, I hated them and I was so conscious and yes they didnt suit my frame and it was painful yes. My family all have big boobs even my cousins. My nan actually had a breast reduction that fell on the day I was born kek and with recovery, it is hard to say. I was actually lucky as I didnt have those drains that most women have. i remember the worst of the pain was nerve pain, which I had for about 2 years but not often at all. it was 2019 and feels ages away. my only problem is I do have scars which I am self conscious about BUT at least I don't feel self conscious on the outside which is the main thing
>>1764537When I first thought to have it, I actually found the reduction subreddit which is actually really helpful and some women were literally HUGE and it makes my amount removed look small.
No. 1764768
>>1764584Aw nona thanks for the long reply, its nice you got it covered. i definitely understand that breasts that big that dont fit your frame can be a huge pain especially during pms. I think i also wont get the drainage thing, i might find a doc that will perform surgery if i gain a couple kilos amd pass bmi 17 since i live in Turkey and doctors will probably perform as long as youre over bmi 17.
But yeah
>>1764585I hope my thoughts and body hatred change before i get the chance becuz i hate having to hide my body all the time w xxl size hoodies to cover my breasts.
No. 1765170
>>1765148My
urine has been dark and my skin is yellow-ish. I am gonna see someone next week.
No. 1765178
>>1765170We’re saying our prayers for you
nonnie, you deserve to be healthy and comfortable, I hope it’s easy to fix!
No. 1765363
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>>1765358I'm having a lighthearted and unserious exchange with that anon, not you. Please butt out of our moment.
No. 1765366
>>1765358So true
>>1765363I love you nona cutie
No. 1765408
>>1765377why is he already planning to have sex with you when you're not even official?
gross
No. 1765456
>>1765267Why the fuck did it? I think they're funding schools more than they used to too. I wish they'd stop pushing social agendas and just focus on the fucking abysmal math scores.
>>1765377Good luck
nonnie! I'm glad he's treating you well! Don't fall too head over heels, always be wary, but accept the green flags as they come. I hope he's the one
No. 1765479
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I am sure that a man has never had a crush on me. I wish I went both ways because women have expressed interest in me at least 3 times in my life, and I get leered at. But never men. Every single crush I ever had has friendzoned me or straight-up avoided me. It's not that I'm coming off too hard or anything, but once I seem to open up since I am quite introverted, I get pushed away. I've had guys who are considered traditionally unattractive or ugly friendzone me before I ever expressed any sort of feelings, usually they make it very clear that they never want to be anything more than friends or tell me not to develop crushes on them. Are men really this picky? I'm not fat, I have good skin, good hygiene, dress decently. I can't tell if I'm ugly or not,the only people who have ever told me I'm pretty or complemented are lesbians. What am I not getting? Am I too autistic or something? I think I hide it pretty well and come off as a quiet person. I feel that these experiences have damaged my self-esteem so much that I cannot try to pine for real people anymore because the fantasy stops as soon as it starts, I feel too ugly to think about myself being loved. My husbandos or fictional crushes are usually monsters because I cannot imagine a human male loving me. It feels bad because I feel like there is some psychology behind it that I am not grasping.
No. 1765531
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All three of the most catty/delusional men I can think of that always try to align themselves with women's business and pretend to be an authority on everything while trying to constantly deliver shady asf comebacks have ugly and below average sized dicks. You will never see a man with a nice dick getting involved in drama like that or caring about it. Its always the limp little noodles.
No. 1765563
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I'm in the process of trying to leave an abusive relationship (physical and verbal) and my friends have been so unsupportive that they're borderline siding with him. They're talking about it as a "both sides" issue where I'm supposed to be nicer and meet in the middle because he apologized, even though he was violent towards me. Or they're calling it drama and being all "ugh I hate fighting, work it out and don't fight anymore!"
And it sucks because I'm the one who's emotionally scarred by it and thus cries and goes in circles when trying to talk about it, making me look crazy, whereas he gets praised for being totally calm…
I blew off all my friends when they were trying to invite me to have fun earlier and I just feel so sick and disappointed with them. I don't have anyone in my life who understands and I feel like now I have to ditch all my friends too if I'm going to leave this relationship, leaving me left with nobody in my life.
No. 1765570
>>1765563Cut them off. And welcome to how people treat abuse and sexual assault
victims. They pretend they're supportive of
victims until they know someone who is one.