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No. 1834125
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my muzzie parents are forcing me to start learning how to pray pls help. I do believe in the existence of God in theory but I don't feel anything when doing certain movements or repeating foreign text so this all just feels incredibly boring to me.
No. 1834348
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I hate the “Women age like milk meme” not because it’s offensive, but because it’s WRONG! Most Men stop looking like humans once they reach 50. Older men bald, molt into orangutang bodies, earn Gordan Ramsey foreheads, and get gopher hole pores while women just age normally and get wrinkles.
I theorize this is because women are expected to be beautiful and perfect while men aren’t. Ugly subhuman men are normal while a woman who doesn’t look like a 14 year old animu girl is automatically an eyesore.
I thought of this because I saw this ad on youtube. I cannot find it but you guys probably have seen it too. I keep getting this ad with the ugliest male hominid I have ever seen. He is obese in the weirdest form, has scary teeth and his eyes are weird: I just can’t describe them.And he is just…In the ad talking about his product like it’s nothing. I don’t even know what the ad was about because his ugliness was so distracting. A woman would NEVER be able to get away with being half as ugly without becoming a meme.
Spoiler for Beluga Musk kek
No. 1834403
>>1834392Ew, that means they can get pube lice in it… crabs.
I always wondered why cartoons and stuff drew beards as this plush soft thing when they're more like steel wool. I just don't trust men, who eat and slurp like pigs, to truly keep that thing clean either. They probably have their own dead sperm cells in there.
No. 1834419
>>1834307It's hilarious how a lot of them think they are ultra alpha testosterone men if they have beards
>>1834320I'm single atm but I kid you not that beards will be a make or break in a relationship for me. Plus all men look the fucking same with that shitty dead squirrel covering half their face
>>1834392I'm really happy too, they're just so fucking ugly, it makes me irrationally mad.
Plus they give me contact dermatitis, I'll never forget when a guy rubbed his face on mine and ruined years of skincare , god I was fuming.
Not a fan and everyone can shit on kpop/kdramas all they want but at least the men there don't have those fugly things.
I can't remember who started this whole fucking beard trend years ago, but I just want it dead, moids literally look copy-pasted. I'd take zoomer broccoli /fuckboi hair over beards any day , it's just THAT bad.
No. 1834441
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>>1834419Who seriously started this beard trend? Hipsters? Soy manchildren? I need to post this image for my nonas because this is how I perceive them. Bearded men all look autistic and like their only hobby is video games.
No. 1834469
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>>1834456>like that kit whatshisname from gotI had to check and he looks normal to me? it's no gigachad chin but it looks fine imo.
>>1834466Reminds me of that study they did years ago where they found poop particles in beards of guys. Retch
No. 1834485
>>1834441I'm pretty sure hipsters popularized it, along with some of those gymbros, like Lazar Angelov.
that pic sums it up perfectly
>>1834445Having alopecia is grim and it even affects women, I really hope a cure is found in the future but we all know that wouldn't be profitable for big pharma
>>1834469wow he looks so young here, he looks ok to me
someone post that gigafaggot billionaire Dan Blizerain or w/e his name was, truly the epitome of GARBAGE
No. 1834496
>>1834466The fact I pulled reading this.
What the fuck? Why would they not shampoo it when they wash their hair? Are they not washing their face either??
No. 1834555
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ok nonnies it finally happened, my mom fat shamed me.
>my 3 older brothers and her are medically obese; I'm 23 bmi and my pant size is 6, I am dozens of pounds lighter than my mom whose half a foot shorter than me
>I have never commented on their bodies
>she frets and obsesses over feeding one of them because he "doesn't eat enough"
>whines about how I wear clothes for "fat people" (I wear lots of comfy sweaters)
it's like society's insane obsession with how girls and women look is starting to make her lash out at me. Shit. I thought I had at least her acceptance, yet it's like she's changed lately and has started making a lot more comments about my weight.
I just want to exist and not be needled at for it…
No. 1834570
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>>1834505>>1834553Why did y'all europeans do that to yourselves? i don't get it, maybe I'm too thirdie for this cause i can't understand the reasoning, maybe i need more context. Didn't it seem like an
HORRENDOUS idea to being with? like, did you guys went collectively "nah, we are too fine, let's bring some fucking chaos"? was it actual sabotage from your governments?
No. 1834573
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>>1834570Ikr? I see europeans complain so much about Pakistani and Muslim moids harassing and assaulting women, bossing around natives on how to dress, eat, and breathe, and taking jobs from actual Europeans…but why does Europe keep letting them in then?! KEK
No. 1834575
>>1834573there were muslim moids in germany who raped a girl and the judge said they wouldn't be punished because they are on their way to be perfectly integrated in german society…
we need stricter laws to keep them out and that includes rich expats who stay here for 10+ years and raise their kids here but never learn a single german sentence. same for handing out german passports like candy to anyone who has lived here for a few years.
No. 1834577
>>1834570>>1834573>>1834575see point
>>>/ot/1834472The interests of soulless capitalist corporations is exceptional growth no matter what, and well meaning liberal politicians who are easy to fool, essentially they get duped into accepting these migrants in the name of wanting to protect them or dealing with declining birth-rates, when it's actually just the rich needing a buyer marker and wanting mass exceptional growth
No. 1834586
>>1834581>retarded takesYeah no, I really DONT get it. I get that greedy companies will favor immigrant workers over native citizens because immigrants expect and accept less, but like with that German example, it's like European governments actually fucking
hate their own native citizens. Makes living in Europe ironically seem like hell despite being a bundle of 1st world countries.
No. 1834590
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I literally came in this thread to complain about how the few threads that I had left on Lolcow that weren't thoroughly pozzed with /pol/faggotry being intentionally edgy and offensive like they were 13, and of course this one is filled with retarded racebait AGAIN. I've been cutting down my Lolcow usage to only a couple of threads for the past years and even those are practically gone now. No fucking thread is safe from constant stream of intentional infighting, racism, homophobia, a weird variety of blackpill femcelism and other retardation that can only fester in 4chan and kiwifaggot migrants. I don't even know if they're getting banned anymore since I rarely see redtexts while forgetting to sage gets you redtexted in minutes.
No. 1834592
>>1834590> retarded racebait AGAINAre you referring to:
>>1834553 because if you are. it is deserved anyway
No. 1834597
>>1834590What's actually wrong with talking about these sorts of issues?
Ignoring the issues like this is how its gotten so bad already.
The people make the place, assimilation doesnt exist across such different cultures. Governments are aware of it but choose to ignore for cheap labor and fear to be seen as racist.
No. 1834598
>>1834577>>1834579Ngl i feel bad for you guys, this sounds like sabotage from all sides and you can't even complain without getting called intolerant. If the average person on my country was replaced by violent random moids that hate everyone i would think i'm living some kind of nightmare. I hope your situation gets better, if that's even possible at this point
>>1834581>>1834579I'm not the same anon as
>>1834573, you need to understand that our governments and cultures are vastly different, from an outsider non-european view it looks like an actual shishow, that's why i didn't get it at first
No. 1834602
>>1834546she moved there with her husband for geographic and economical reasons
>>1834553the way you phrased it is harsh but there are certain groups of people that patrol with knives and whatnot in the city she lives
>>1834570I don't want to dive into this, but it is not the will of the people but the higher ups
There are outsiders who come to build a better life and integrate within the community but sadly there are many more who don't.
No. 1834659
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>>1834611China literally stated that it's state-plan is to become authoritarian in the coming years and I can honestly envision most nations, not just in Europe but around the world devolving into nationalistic populist state cults like in the 19th and 20th century, nations like Turkmenistan, Syria or Nazi Germany, for as much as people shit on American, If the American Empire falls, this really is gonna be the reality of the world.
No. 1834763
>>1834560Idk, it's hard to tell. She called me fat a few days ago, keeps on commenting on everything I eat and saying I'll get fatter, that my body looks chunky, etc, alongside the general comments about how I'm wearing clothes for fat people to cover up how fat I've gotten.
Now that I think about I think it started around Thanksgiving? I had much more to eat than everyone else (I always indulge during the holidays IDGAF). My grandma had a good laugh about it but it's like my mom was embarrassed.
No. 1834795
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i want to preface this with: i love my husband, i'm an insufferable bitch and was fine being alone forever but i fell in love on accident. anyway, he DOES NOT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH COLD WEATHER SUCKS. FUCKER LIKES TO SHOVEL???? HA HAH SNOW IS FUN!!! I am torn between letting him do all of the heavy labor re: snow until he figure it out, or just being like ?????????? what the fuck is wrong with this MAN he literally got upset with me when i said "this is too cold to be walking around in, unless we have designated spots to warm up at every 15 minutes" HE GOT MAD i told him to go by himself and gave him a box of handwarmers. fuck that shit i was raised in this i'm not trying to have a FUN TIME IN -1 F
No. 1834809
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Randomly miss having a bf badly if only because I have no one to know how deeply connected I feel to dead musicians who haven't made hits since the 80s. Nobody gives a fuck. I have to whisper "I love them so much" in my head like a retard. Wtf
No. 1834825
Fuck my retarded little brother. Moids are knuckle dragging apes no matter the age. Ever since the wretched thing was born its been constantly poking and prodding and annoying me, then when of course I react like hitting him to make him piss off, he turns around and whines that I was the one who did it first akshully and especially as a kid it worked and it got me punished for being a "violent child". My parents even told me they wanted to disown me for it. Every time I asked for help every adult patronisingly said awww it's just what little brothers do, boys will be boys, it'll get better when you're older silly! Now we're older it's gotten worse cos he's had to make his tactics less obviously childish. Pitting our mother against me since she's made it clear he is the golden favourite child, so that I look even more like a crazy failure in her eyes when I say things against her more academically successful precious little sweetie darling. It's to the point where any time he gets into this idiotic almost trance like state of just targeting me I get so white hot angry. But if I show it, it feeds his shrivelled little excuse of his brain to do it more. Today he took it a step further and terrorised all our relatives at an NYE family get together with a water gun by hiding by the stairs then running away, and everyone was complaining about it. After someone dunked a drink on him he just got off scott free, and then he just started to target me. The third time or something I tried to take it off him but he got away, and the next time he did it I said if you keep doing it I'll have to take it off your ass. He said no, you're not even able to. He then did it on my buttocks and then squarely in my eye, and then basically let me take it cos he quickly took out the "magazine" out first. Leave me the fuck ALONE you grody little scrote, I fucking hope you die. I fucking hope you die. I fucking hope you die. I FUCKING HOPE YOU DIE.
No. 1834834
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>>1834825>when people tell you to just be okay with it because it's your siblingOr when they listen to your vent and accuse you of being jealous over your sibling. Like no, retards, I don't like my sibling because they've been obnoxious and got in my way since they fell out of momma. But seriously now, that sounds very frustrating and I'm sorry your little brother has aspergers with extra ass. If I were in that situation, I would flick him straight in his forehead the next time he intentionally crosses my boundaries and personal space. It seems "mean", but if you don't teach him how to fuck off when he needs to, someone much more cruel out there will.
No. 1834846
>>1834834>Or when they listen to your vent and accuse you of being jealous over your sibling. Like no, retards, I don't like my sibling because they've been obnoxious and got in my way since they fell out of momma.Ayrt, yes, all of this. I just want him to leave me alone but this behaviour seems so baked into him now because no adults stepped in when I alerted them of his bullshit as a kid.
>that sounds very frustrating Thank you, its validating to just hear someone say it
as corny as that sounds
>I'm sorry your little brother has aspergers with extra assHe's been getting diagnosed for adhd, and trying to hide it from me, but I wouldn't be surprised if its this too
>if you don't teach him how to fuck off when he needs to, someone much more cruel out there willHe doesn't seem to do this to anybody else, just to me. But honestly? I fucking hope he does it to someone even more bitter and cruel than me
and who is his size, because he likes the fact I am not who puts him in his little fucking place.
No. 1834875
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Why do I do this to myself? Why can’t I just spine the fuck up and just learn my lesson instead of taking the worst route possible? I’m gaining nothing but pain and memories I try to avoid. I wish I could just shut my brain down and go auto mode until I do what I need to do.
No. 1834992
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I truly hate end of the year holiday season. The beginning and the ending of the year are the absolute worst. I can't stop drowining in past trauma and bad things that happened, all i can think about is how all these things keep happening to me, and feel like nothing changed at all.
I can't help but feel like several years of my life were stolen from me. though i also feel like, after covid, everybody kinda feels like this, the feeling of just living the same year over and over again, but i have been feeling like this way before and it's just terrifying. My childhood is just a blur, so were my teen years, and after my suicide attempt it didn't become any better. It just feels like i'm extremely stunted at 19 when the attempt happened, but somehow i'm 25 now, and i can't cope with that.
The end of the year sending my anxiety through the roof, it makes me think about all that, and it's scary, out of nowhere i'm 25 and i have accomplished nothing. No education, no job, fat, fucking ugly, kissless virgin, lovesick for a guy that i lost my chance with due to my own dumbassery, my friends either leave me because i'm boring or the "friends" turn out to be backstabbing people that betray my trust over and over again.
I have spent the last week having a very bad breakdown and crying non-stop. I just wish i could be a normal person with passion, hobbies, friends, a loved one, a stable life.
It's just all so tiresome, and it only keeps getting worse.
I feel so disgusting.
No. 1835000
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>>1834996I will ~manifest~ with you
No. 1835044
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Was supposed to go to a New Years party and I got sick with fever, body pain and all that, right after getting done with my period. Fucking stoooop.
No. 1835050
>>1834998hope your kiddo feels better soon!
>>1835044hope you feel better soon too nonna!
No. 1835053
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Having an abusive mother fucks you for life. I am long gone from her clutches but I am never mentally free. I’ve gone places looking to make up for a lack of motherly love that I shouldn’t have gone even with a gun. My brother told me that her and my dad never leave the house. They don’t pick up the phone and no one except him has seen them in a year. He saw them 2 weeks ago and was floored at how thin she looks. Both her and my dad have had an orthorexic tinfoil agoraphobic existence for years but it’s escalated year on year. He says she looks close to death- would weigh maybe 100lbs at 5’9. I feel a mixture of sadness and anger. My dad’s shot too and my brother is a drug addict for near on 15 years.
No. 1835156
>>1835114There is nothing magical about killing yourself around a holiday.
It's a mess for strangers to have to clean up your body, and for your next of kin to deal with the emotional burn and logistics.
If you want revenge on the unsupportive people who brought you into this, then work to live better than they do. No one is coming for you.
No. 1835159
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I hate nye I HATE IT. Coming off benzo's so everything sounds loud as fuck plus can't sleep plus rebound anxiety. God life sucks sometimes.
>>1835151I'm sorry nonna. Do you have a fun party dress lying around or some stuff you can layer to look nice anyway? I'd confront them tomorrow or something, just say 'why didn't you guys tell me?'. Hope you have some fun anyway, if you can laugh and party with them you won't be worried about how you look. Hope you can whip something up ♥
No. 1835164
>>1835050Thank you nonna and happy new year to you. ❤️
Unfortunately I won't go, symptoms came back and it's pretty cold.
No. 1835166
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>sister and her husband stop by to pick up gifts
>comment about how quiet the house is
>go to their house on Christmas
>they all communicate entirely by yelling room to room, yell at the kids to clean up all their Christmas garbage, kids yell back up the stairs from the basement, they literally open the back door of the house and stand on the deck to yell to their neighbor instead of calling/texting them
No. 1835174
Last nye i got sick close to midnight, but i had fun up until that point. This year, i've got gastritis and can't even have a sip of alcohol, not a single bite of the buffet. If i'm sick next nye as well i will explode. Also this year was full of bad news, i really hope me being sick again isn't gonna jinx 2024 as well.
>>1834992Anon i'm sorry to hear how bad you feel. I hope the new year brings some positive changes for you!
No. 1835177
>>1834973girl, I'm 10 years older and I say this lovingly: you are young as fuck, don't make me come over there and slap you
you got all your 20s left to enjoy
and as the other nonna said your brain will finish maturing in your late 20s, I too had a massive shift mentally when I was around 27
You are young.
No. 1835203
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I'm so miserable I feel like I am going to collapse and physically fall apart. My throat is closing up on itself but I can't cry right now. I am palpably spiraling, I feel exactly the same as I did at my lowest only I'm not mutilating myself anymore but only because I'm being monitored. I'm failing everything and I don't have any motivation for anything anymore. I feel so ungrateful and worthless. My friend is coming to my city and it's somehow still not enough to make me feel better but in fact worse, because we've been looking forwards to hang out for months and months but I feel like shit and I really don't want to disappoint her with my state or worse, drag her down with me. I'm counting my blessings though and i really hope this isn't a bad omen that's foreshadowing how this next year is going to go. Speaking of which my delusions are getting worse and worse and I no longer have the power to do anything about them. I'm seeing and hearing things at an alarmingly frequent rate and I'm almost always paranoid to death, it's hard to figure out what's real and what isn't. I have a ton more "rituals" i have to do or else i feel like mine or my loved ones' lives are at risk. I know I'm being ridiculous but I just can't shake it off. At this point I just want to get everything over with.
Please, please let this next year be good to me and to the people i love. I really hope I'm not jinxing it by posting. If someone can pray for me I would really appreciate that.
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>>1835225Thank you so much anon, it really means a lot. have a blessed new year and I wish the same for you. and to every anon too ♥ I don't know how I would fare without this place, I'm really grateful. Love you anons, have a good one.
No. 1835389
>>1835174Thank you,
nonnie. I do hope too to be able to get something positive done this year. I also hope you will get treatment for your gastritis, and will be able to enjoy lots of yummy delicious things once again soon. Hope you have a great 2024 as well, nonna.
No. 1835395
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I feel so bloated I look like picrel today I'm like a buddha what the fug
No. 1835413
>>1835181hm, how did you find out? any weird initial symptoms?
also sorry
nonny. I can kind of relate. I had one day in my life I woke up feeling well - even the dark circles I had since I was a little girl were gone - and it genuinely haunts me because it made the rest of my life feel like a nightmare.
No. 1835617
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I was supposed to go to a little get together tonight but I woke up sick instead. I'm having some little pickles and cheese cubes by myself. Not the plans I wanted to have but it's not the worst thing in the world.
I hope you all have a good 2024.
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Indoors and bored on New Years/my birthday because there's no outdoor fireworks displays near me, just crowded nightclub stuff.
I'm going to eat chicken dippers with whiskey BBQ sauce, put on some true crime and try forget how much of a loser I am right now.
No. 1835792
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alone on new year's eve, again. I know my whole life will look like this. I'm unable to form connections with other people, it's really scary to think I will never have any family or friends. truly lonely people are fucked in this world. the only thing I can do is to save as much money as I can so at least I can pay someone to take care of me when I get too old to take care of myself. I'm still in my 20s and that's my main plan for life
No. 1835800
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Ayyyoooo my long disyance bf just sent me a meme that mace me really insecure because it seems vaguely like he's implying ti have the ssme weird kink that my ex had that I'm just not into. What do I do? I thought he was so perfrect but I should have known it was too goof to be true kms.
No. 1835839
>>1835817yep. flash flood warnings and shit
be safe ausfarmers it's kicking off
No. 1835849
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My dad died earlier this year and it really hit me as I was watching the ball drop in Times Square. I miss him a lot and I feel like I can’t talk about it or go to many people for support. In fact my moid has been especially shitty to me ever since my dad died, so it feels even worse that the one person I should be able to rely on I can’t. I’m so sad nonnies.
(I know I need to break up with him, I’m working on it but also I want him to have to pay for some of my bills for a little while longer.)
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>>1834441>Who seriously started this beard trend? Islamic societies and brain-rotten modern male leftists, compensating for their obesity and ugly faces.
No. 1835875
>>1835845https://time.com/6314541/overshoot-commission-calls-for-climate-geoengineering-research/they do this shit over my house lmao
everyone knows about the cloud seeding nobody wants to talk about it. kind of like the vaccine, you got people who know and those with their head in the sand.
it really is fucking shit up lmao
I have a few more sources just tapping some people for links atm, we're all super sus on the current as-we-speak storm, my net might go out again tonight boooo No. 1835883
My narcissist mother started an argument with me today because she saw that I wasn't wearing a christmas present she had given me which "hurt her feelings." I wish I could say this was an expensive and thoughtful thing, or an heirloom that she was so upset over. But no, it was over a cheap trinket she bought from Amazon when I don't even wear these kinds of trinkets. I didn't complain and I wasn't haughty, I just placed the trinket in my room. She also bought me pastel pink gator skin boots, and was equally irate when I gently told her they were not in my taste and to return it.
She swiped the trinket from my room and started to wear it. My crime was that I had not worn it. Then she yelled about how I had "no empathy and no social intelligence" to understand why she was so upset. Idk anons, I have bought presents some people did not like before and I have never made it their issue. She bemoaned how I didn't like anything she got me, but I pointed out some things I was using so at least I stopped that exaggeration early but it just fueled her aggravation at me. She proceeded to dig into me about other things…the trinket was just her reason to explode at me.
It was awful.
She started with guilting me for why I went no contact with her for three years. I told her it was due to her fighting like this and how personal she got. For instance, after comforting her during her third divorce, I went to her for emotional support when I was raped one night by a date who I thought I could trust. She blamed me for sleeping with someone "too early" and that she did not care about my "boy problems." When I brought this up during our fight, she accused me of making this up and went on to say that if I was really raped then I should have called police. And how I wasn't a real feminist because I would care more about how men have treated her and wouldn't be so mean to her. And that I better not post about our fight to social media (???). I called her a narcissist so she called me callous, ungrateful, and selfish and screeched about how I can't diagnose her.
I asked her why she was being this way to her own daughter which just resulted in the next topic change. Before I knew it, three hours had passed and her fight was no longer about the original trinket issue. It became about her disdain and resentment of me.
She didn't stop until I was in tears. I'm a grown woman anons…she treats me like a child. I was trying to get ready to hang out with my friends but she knows all my buttons to push. She whined about staying home by herself for NYE which made me think she made me cry and put me in a bad mood on purpose…I felt like shit the whole night, just like how she felt deep down.
At the end of it all, she barged into the bathroom to try to hug me and lovebomb me. "We both just needed to get it out."
I didn't hug her. I asked her to just stop and to please leave me along in the most defeated, non-confrontational tone possible.
She got pissed, "WELL, I tried to make amends but you're too immature anon! You win! Are you happy?!"
I can't say no to her.
Why am I so shocked that the same woman who cannot stand that I don't fawn over a christmas present she got me, or why I don't want to hug her after the disgusting things she said during a fight, wouldn't understand or care that I was raped? It makes perfect sense. I am not even a human to her.
No. 1835886
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Im making a bag in this round style, and for some reason the sewing is absolutely fucking me up and I can't get it right. I've made one of these before, i don't know what the issue is. I'm gonna try one more time, if it doesn't work I'm just saying fuck it and doing a square shape instead.
No. 1835888
>>1835792Kek at picrel dehumanizing moid propaganda.
>Have you ever kissed?>Have you ever touched genitals?Then
>Ever been fucked?>Has your anus ever been fucked?The real question is should you feel comfortable asking for this shit? Clown world.
No. 1835920
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As an ugly woman with nothing to offer to anyone or the world, it is in my best interest to sterilize myself. I’ve become too horny lately and I really really shouldn’t pass on these genes. What’s the point of having desires if I’m so fucking ugly?
No. 1835924
>>1835920would you get your tubes tied or a hysterectomy?
>>1835923kek this we're here for contrast
No. 1835984
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i got frozen pizzas and one came without the mozzarella cheese, i will be suing
No. 1836000
>>1835984Crying, shaking, and throwing up reading this. The world is so dark,
nonnie, praying you get justice.
No. 1836011
>>1835867Thank you
nonnie, yeah, sometimes I do get worried that there could be old mutuals out there who are still sitting on old photos of me to use them for motivation to starve. I know it sounds self important but it’s also not uncommon
No. 1836023
>>1836000thank you so much sweet
nonnie, your support means the world to me in these trying times
No. 1836027
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>>1835875I didn't even know this was considered a conspiracy. It's a real thing multiple governments are fairly open about doing or at least experimenting with. What's the tinfoil part? Is all bad weather being blamed on it or…? bad weather events happening after cloud seeding and the government is like "nah that wasn't us"? (I think I've seen something like that but it was vague in vidrel, not sure I got all the context as I'm not australian)
No. 1836030
I have no idea how to help my friend overcome her art/life crisis. The only thing she wants in life is to cosy up at home and do art, but she's not interested in it as a career, so she has a regular job to pay the bills. She's doing quite well in life. Her work leaves her with alright free time and weekends free, but the past year she's felt like she has no time at all because she needs a few hours of winding down after work to get in the mood to be creative. I feel her because I'm pretty similar, but I also know that if I really wanted to get creative I would use the time I had available to do so, which causes such a split between us because she feels like I don't properly understand her. Her biggest dream is to win the lottery so she never have to work a day in her life again and can just focus on her hobbies, and this past year it has really brought her down that this won't be a reality. She barely does art and when she does, she says she hates it. She had a two month holiday and got so anxious about not using her time efficiently that she barely got anything done at all, just sat around and played games and then complained to me at the end of her holiday that she hadn't gotten to be as creative as she wanted to be. It's so frustrating because we used to bounce off each other's creativity so easily, and now she can't stop getting in her head about this stuff and refuses to acknowledge that there might be other factors such as depression at play. Sometimes I even want to tell her right to her face that her dreams aren't unique to her alone. Everyone wishes they could win the lottery and sit around focusing on their hobbies, but that would cause such a rift in our relationship. I just want the old her back, but any attempt to support, inspire or talk to her just leads to another tirade of her being sad and upset about her life.
No. 1836031
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Im an idiot for reading this book. I have wasted such valuable time reading a novel that is “supposed to be way better than the show.”
Bitch, it reads like a quizilla fanfiction about ferard in 2005?! How did it get so popular? Its so painful to read, it makes me want to write a better book.
Also, how are you going to make your main character a book snob judging anyone he passes, when you… wrote that? Mocked Dan Brown to the moon and back but to he quite honest; he writes far better than you ever will! I hate CK has made so much money off of this. I hate it i hate I HATE IT.
No. 1836041
>>1835976It's funny because the same fugly men who whine about being lonely expect a beautiful woman who invests time, effort and money in her appearance to like them
growing up and seeing the double standards and reality of dating/men has been jawdropping for me.
A lot of women on this site say men are not worth it and I fully agree, the biggest majority of them really aren't.
No. 1836130
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I'm trying to get more visibility/donations for a local animal rescue (the only one in my country lol), but the first place I tried to seek help, the mods immediately went from nice to weird and standoffish when I said what country I'm from. I'm trying to ascribe this to fear of getting scammed rather than malice/pointless xenophobia, but if I wanted to rip off first worlders, there are probably a million easier, less conscience-wracking and more profitable ways than a community made to help stray animals.
I've sent in all the information they asked for to verify, so it's up to them, but the whole thing leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I'm kind of worried they're going to refuse to look at anything and just reject it because "umm? uhhh?? sorry we don't believe anyone in your country can even use a computer or the internet. must be a scam, fuck you and goodbye". I've met so many first worlders who genuinely think that way, it's insane. It makes it feel pointless to even bother, but I really want to help the cats and dogs housed there. I just want to do something for them before I leave this place (besides all the donations I've made myself). I kind of feel like if I had been from a poor Eastern European country instead, they would've acted differently, but oh well, lmao.
No. 1836146
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Shit like this makes me depressed. I've seen SO many women claiming to be "lesbians" and yet lusting after fictional men, dedicating entire blogs to them etc. It makes me think that real lesbians literally don't exist online. You will never see gay men doing this shit with female characters. Men don't fake being gay all the time
No. 1836150
>>1836146Real life men are so ugly, smelly, charmless and unkempt that some women who are either straight or bi are making up all sorts of ways to label themselves to explain why they're attracted to men but also not attracted to men
The fantasy of men is better than the reality of men
No. 1836157
>>1836153Stay strong, nonna.
You already have the strength of living by yourself, something I envy and I lack as I keep attaching myself to people because I can't be alone. I am sure this kind of strength alone can attract a partner if you can look around.
No. 1836344
>>1835849I'm so sorry for your loss,
nonnie. My ex-moid acted the exact same way when I found out my dad passed; completely emotionally unavailable, got angry at me for reaching out to my friends for emotional support, and jealous that I gave them more attention than I did to him. It feels like moments like these just really showcase that men aren't able to show empathy or support to anyone besides themselves.
You'll be okay,
nonnie. You'll get through this. It'll hurt but you'll get through this.
No. 1836390
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>>1832882 update: I met the girl he was trying to get with; she was high out of her mind but even then was smart enough to know he wasn’t shit. I had to spend nearly an hour trip-sitting her because he was too busy raving to come find us. While we were waiting for him she confided in me that she was already seeing two guys back home and that this guy is way too square by her usual standards. Then she ditched him 20mins out from midnight to go find her friends when he thought that she would be his new years kiss kek. Meanwhile I had multiple guys ask me for my number and I’m still texting a few of them post-festival. A Very Happy New Year indeed nonnies.
No. 1836411
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My room is a disgusting mess but I can't bring myself to clean it and I would feel so pathetic to ask for help. It's not like I can hire someone to clean it for me without my parents knowing, It's so bad I feel ashamed to bring my Nigel here, The floor is not visible and it smells like sweat and unwashed clothes. Everytime I go out somewhere a stranger will be near me I drown myself in deodorant and hope it will be enough to cover it up. Maybe if I take a pic of it the fake NEET femcel losercore aesthetic people will be able to romanticize my miserable existence.
No. 1836549
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Thinking about all the time i wasted daydreaming instead of doing stuff is making me insane. I know its better starting now than never, but i wasted so much time daydreaming about doing stuff instead of actually doing it because i was so anxious and scared of failure. It angers me that i went to a therapist since i was 10, but never once i got diagnoses ADHD until now. All those years i could have used drawing if i had the correct medication are gone, now i am a late bloomer at everything because of it. I hate it, and i hate myself.
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>little sister bullies tries to put me down almost everytime I speak to her, even when I'm just asking how her day went
>whatever, right?
>mom received a rice cooker around Christmas so I take a a good look at it so I can figure out how to use it (we never had one before)
>sister randomly starts calling me "an autistic dumbass" just for looking at the fucking rice cooker for like two seconds
>I politely tell her to buzz off and let me prepare some rice for my dinner
>she keeps insulting me over and over again like a fucking parrot about how stupid she thinks I am, even though she's the one who failed a math class and had to take summer school
>I tell her to fuck off
>she tattles to mom
>sister tries to make it seem like I'm the one who started the whole argument by being a bully
>moms sees through some of her BS and asks my sister to apologize
>sister just gives mom a dirty look before shoving her and goes to her room
>I text my sister a big lengthy text on why she's basically a brat for no reason and needs to quit her atitude and quit calling me dumb when she's the last person to be calling anyone dumb
>she runs and tattles to my mom again
>mom is almost crying on behalf of my sister about how I'm "ruining the family" and how she's "greatly disappointed" in me for hurting my "baby sister", and how I'm supposed to be the "bigger person"
>I confess to my mom that this is how my sister has been treating me almost every week or even day for the whole year
>my mom doesn't care and is more hurt by me sending that text than my sister treating and talking to everybody like a servant because my sister is "ONLY seventeen" and "doesn't know any better".
Even when we were kids, it was like this. She's the younger one, I'm the older one. She gets to bully, punch, bite, scratch, stalk, and poke me all she wants, but the minute I tell her to fuck off, I'm being immature somehow. Is this really how it's supposed to be for older siblings? Maybe I'm not a family person because I never liked this dynamic. Try as I might to be polite, I never liked my little sister.
No. 1836626
>>1836619God, thank you for seeing the bullshit in what happened. My mom's words honestly put me in a bad mood. My parents are so lenient with her, the only chore they make her do are the dishes when it's her turn, and even still my mom once asked me to tell her to clean the kitchen when my sister wasn't doing shit all Thanksgiving break. It really weirded me out that my mom would need my help with telling her my sister to just do her chores. I'm the older sibling, but my mom's the mom and is still apparently scared of my little sister? It's frustrating to watch because until I turned eighteen, my parents were on my ass about a lot of things. School, grades, chores, manners, even what I watched on television. My sister though? She's been allowed to act and do damn near everything and everyway she wanted when she turned fourteen. I don't get why my parents would just "give up" on being parents, you know? But based on my early years of life, I think it's that my parents just didn't really like me. I kind of went on a tangent, but I needed to vent it. Thank you anyway, nonna.
No. 1836642
>>1836512Samefag time.
>me and bf work at same job>he could split my shift with me and greatly help me out, he doesn’t have much hours this week anyways literally only a couple days and not much hours per shift>he’d still have like 4 days off not including our small vacation we’re going on more— days off >”waaah we won’t be together much that day”Dude we won’t be together that much that day anyways it’s a fucking full shift. Hope you can carry me when I’m limping and crying my brains out from the pain.
No. 1836837
I used to have 2 male friends that I was really close with, and I ended up losing them over some bad decisions I made relating to a loser moid. They were genuinely good people too, and truly just friends. I typically don't think men and women can be platonic friends, but they were more on the shy side, just kind of nerdy, quiet, polite. They had other female friends too, it's not like I was just the only woman of the group. And I would get along with their girlfriends just fine, I never got super close with them because if they broke up I didn't want it to be weird. But I had known these two guys forever and they were basically like siblings to me.
I had been dating a guy at the time who wasn't good to me, and that's where problems with my friends started. My boyfriend cheated on me and I stupidly took him back, on more than one occasion. He was very manipulative, would threaten suicide a lot, he was abusive in many different ways and my guy friends saw it immediately. They would always try to convince me to leave him and I was so stuck in my ways that I let it affect our friendship. That's what started to break us apart at first.
Then, when I finally did leave the cheating moid and was trying to move on in my life, I met a different moid who was just kind of like a breath of fresh air to me at the time. He was one of the most attractive men I had ever met, he was a semi successful musician, he lived such an exciting life and right away he was trying to make me a part of it. He was so flirty, and complimentary, he would take me to all of these parties and events. We started taking drugs together and I fully admit I just totally lost myself as a person. I did a complete 180 in terms of my personality for this man, I was partying all the time, I got really deeply depressed and was coping with pills, we got into a business together even and started making a ton of money together. It was such a wild situation and I became a really awful person and ended up completely pushing those 2 friends away. I irreparably damaged our friendship and did not treat them well at all, looking back now they were just trying their best to save me from myself. They cared about me more than just about anyone else ever has and I didn't deserve one bit of it towards the end.
It's been a few years now, I got away from the musician and got my life straightened back out. I've settled down in life a lot now, sober, happy for the first time in a long time. I'm in a stable relationship with a kind man who actually does love me, I have a house, a simple life, chickens, I love my job. But I think about my two former friends a lot and I miss them so much. I occasionally look at their social media to just get small updates here and there about how their lives are going, I hope they're happy. I wish I could reach out to them but I'm very conflicted about it for a few different reasons. Maybe it's best to leave the past in the past, maybe they don't want anything to do with me. Plus it might be weird for my current partner, me reaching out to two men from my past. Even though it is platonic, I'd feel weird if he had two women from his past he thought about and missed.
I just have a lot of regrets, these are two men that should have been like uncles to my future children. I lost genuine friendships over some brief thrill and I don't deserve to have them back.
No. 1836888
>>1836700>this is insane, what ever happened to respecting your elders? was she never taught this?NTA but I'm
>>1836691 and younger kids aren't taught to respect their elders at all anymore. Neither my sisters or their friends got the upbringing I and my peers got. I was taught to respect elders, know my rights
and responsibilities, be polite and have good manners. They were taught the rights part and not the responsibilities, not much else honestly.
It's like a switch flipped in parents' minds at a certain point in time and suddenly it became okay to be mouthy and rude because "sassy toddlers are so cute", "you don't have to hug relatives goodbye or say please or thank you because boundaries blah blah", "you don't owe anyone x, y or z", "it's okay if you're a bully at school because I'd rather my child be a bully than be bullied, not my problem". It turns them into entitled little brats who were never told no in their lives and think they're the main character. It's also wild what kinds of things they ask for at Christmas or their birthday. Dior lip oil, glow recipe, Van Cleef bracelets??? I don't care if "all your friends at school have it", you don't need an AHA serum. And of course my parents panic and call every Sephora in the neighborhood to get them what they want when I was given Bonne Bell and told it's all I'm getting until I'm 16.
No. 1836905
>>1836411I can relate with the messy room/apartment
nonnie. Are you depressive? I know because of my depression I went through so many mess-cleanup phases, but there was a point where it was so bad I was so miserable with myself.
I'm going through this again but it's nowhere as bad as it used to be (except the kitchen kek) but what helped me is starting small: every day, for 30-45 mins, I would clean a room. I would do this for as many days until the entire home was clean. Some days I'd spend 3-4 hours because I'd feel really motivated and proud that I am getting things done.
Today I planned for 2 hours of cleanup in the evening, I want to tidy up my whole place before end of week, it's been proven that clutter makes your mood even worse.
Start small
nonnie, get some trashbags and bins or boxes, sometimes I'd dump everything in a box (like clothes, to free the sofa) then I'd sort all later.
I know it's hard, but you can get through this. And always air out your room!
No. 1836941
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>>1836888> It's also wild what kinds of things they ask for at Christmas or their birthday. Dior lip oil, glow recipe, Van Cleef bracelets??? I don't care if "all your friends at school have it", you don't need an AHA serum.I saw a video about this! 12 year olds or younger wishlists for christmas and it was FILLED with shit like this, drunk elephant, retinol, aha serums, dior lip oil or other shit like this. TikTok needs to be banned or kids shouldnt get smartphones. I am shocked.
No. 1836948
>>1836947some really aren't and it's fucking insane to me
a lot of people who shouldn't have kids are having them so there's that too
I'd whoop my daughter's ass if she asked for things like those
No. 1836962
>>1836953this is not normal
just last week I saw a bunch of 12-13 yr old girls with full faces of makeup, false eyelash, acrylic long nails and ofc trashy attitude. I was disgusted. When I was 12 I still liked dolls and plushies
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>>1836960Call me a tard but this was my xmas wish at 13. I might've gotten a drug store lip gloss set thrown in there too. And an obligatory chocolate reindeer.
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>>1836989Poo-Chi, they made a Meow-Chi too.
No. 1837102
>>1837100At least he’s not making you look up directions for him the whole day, my husband used to do that delivering Amazon packages until I lost it on him.
He needs to listen to a podcast or music and call you on his 30 minute break only.
No. 1837142
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TAKE THE FUCKING PILLS GODDAMMIT YOU LITTLE GOBLIN THIS IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD STOP BITING ME
No. 1837185
>>1837176damn
nonnie that brought some tears to my eyes
No. 1837241
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>>1837235Same, sometimes. Some days are better than others, some weeks and months and years are better (or worse) than others. Unfortunately it’s not a straight line to recovery. But fwiw, even people that are overall happy with their lives are still not happy and motivated and liberated all the time.
No. 1837243
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It sucks to get dumped but I got dumped and the dude was really fucking rude about it even though it lasted for a year. Well, I hope it helps me move on quicker but I fucking hate myself for giving him a chance, falling in love with him, confessing my feelings and sleeping with him ughhh I really wish I could've avoided this. He wasn't even objectically hot either but he was so sweet to me at first and had his shit together. Fuck, I'm never doing this again.
No. 1837259
>>1836146guarantee that's a troon using a throwaway trying to feel like a
valid cissy lesbian
relevant vent - bg3 is a degenerate game for coomers and trooners.
it has full nudity sex scenes, you can fuck a druid that'll turn into a bear during sex if you agree and you can have foursomes really love it when a beloved IP gets rebooted to normalize modern degeneracy. maybe in the next game we can have a druid that shapeshifts into a loli /s
see also: baldur's gate - siege of dragonspear where a new writer came and added a random troon who tells you they're a troon and you can't even respond negatively to it like you can to 99% of conversations in that game.
No. 1837285
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I'm tired of always being the one to initiate things. Why? Why don't you ever bother? You really are bored of me, aren't you?
No. 1837503
>>1837486Don't worry
nonnie, it isn't about you. Men say shit and settle with women they don't even want to date because they can't stand being alone and not having a woman taking care of them like their mommy used to.
No. 1837576
>>1837558Is it just hair loss on the scalp, not arms or legs or anything?
Join the wig side
nonny it's easier. Vid related. I have nanobladed brows too (but a good artist is expensive)
No. 1837609
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It’s been 2 months and I still feel exactly the same. Mmm devastated with a side of absolute disbelief. I will never find another her. I want to get on a plane and fly the fuck away from my life.
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universe, god, mother earth, holy father, whichever one is real please grant me an autistic bestie i cannot stand this anymore. i’ll do rituals or whatever for it pleeease aghh im begging i need to experience sisterhood again
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>>1837661I used to hide away in a little spot and dote over my plush like they were pets. idk if people would even believe just how much everyone in the house kept away from each other for years. Small house with everyone avoiding each other and I didn't have a room to go to like they did. Then on the odd occasion when we'd company over my parents would put on an act of normality. I'd be scared to enter the same room everyone was in because 'stay tf away from me' was our usual norm. My parents would laugh off my nervousness as me being silly or only shy in front of visitors. Then lose their minds as soon as the visitors left for 'showing them up like that' Crazy memories of all the coverup or keeping up appearances bs
This monkey (that's also a puppet) was one of my faves. My cope monkey lol
No. 1837724
>>1835883My mom confessed that she was
triggered at me because she witnessed grandpa giving grandma gifts which she would say she didn't like, and she is angry at her mom for being ungrateful for them. Even though how that's not how I reacted or treated her gifts at all.
So, basically my mom was blaming me for something I didn't do and wasn't around for because I vaguely reminded her of a "traumatic" memory.
Not only that, but she is definitely remembering my grandpa with rose-colored glasses in those moments. He was not good at giving gifts like most old school misogynists not in tune to their wife's wants or needs.
My mom used to reject gifts from my stepdad all the time because they weren't to her taste or poorly thought out, but that's typical selective memory for a narc. Just like how she's selectively religious, one minute using her religion to shame my morals yet in the next throwing tantrums over materialism and making Christmas to be about gifts.
I wish she got me nothing because the best gift she could ever give anybody is some fucking peace. She stressed me so hard that I got my period a full week early.
I tried talking to friends but none of them cared. I would have their attention for three minutes before it became obvious they weren't listening and would get distracted with something else before I reached the point. I could hardly blame them because holidays are meant for cheer and fun so who wants to hear some sad woman talk about the sick shit her psycho mother said? My friends took pictures that I look swollen and demented in from my crying and forced happiness, one of my eyelids started to sag from how much I cried so I'm glad I got to look hideous next to them too. If there's one thing my horrific mother was right about, it's that I shouldn't even post about this on socials because no one gives a fuck. They might actually assume I had done something to merit such an overreaction from a parent.
Happy New Year!
No. 1837728
>>1837623My parents and I are to scared to directly tell this to her. She is a very sensitive person, when we say something that she will take as criticism she will over react a lot. One of my other sisters, who actualy has like a degree related to child psychlogiy tried speaking with her and eventually gave her the advice to go to a professional. But like I said she went a few times, but won't listen to the advice and now she doesn't go at all anymore. My other sister told her it's good to learn boundaries to kids, and tried to help her. But it truely seems like she does not care, she will take the advice random facebook moms give her instead. Who are all boys moms and say that her child will grow out of it. Like I actually read the posts she likes and follows. One of them was literally "if your child punches or hits you, just hug them". That's a confusing message to your child, reward them by hugging the when they hurt someone kek. My other sister literally had to explain to her that it's not abuse to make rules, and actually punish your child by placing them in time out kek.
>>1837632You don't sound like an alarmist. I'm also scared for the future, what will happen when a girl says no to him? He's so young and already doesn't respect his mother, I don't want to imagine what will happen when he grows bigger.
I know this is bad of me, but I already accepted that my nephews will become dangerous for girls. All I can do is that when he comes by at my home, to actually say no to him when he's doing something in inappropriate. They have been parenting him like this for years now, I don't think they will ever change.
Also I googled it, and it's not called soft parenting but gentle parenting. I'm sorry, but I have to vent more about there parenting. He is also an ipad baby, since he was a baby he was allowed on the phone because they said they had no other way to keep him quiet. My other little nephew is literraly 1 year old and is also looking at screens all the time. They put youtube kids on autoplay and do not look at the videos that are being shown. A lot of them are also in English instead of our native language. I know this is probably happening to most kids these days, but it's still fucked. I can only hope that my other sisters will be better parents.
No. 1837730
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i miss my boyfriend very much. i saw him just last night but now im back home again and wont see him for another three months and the loneliness is sometimes unbearable. i have no friends, nothing going for me. i take classes online and work with animals so i dont socialize. he attends uni on campus so maybe its why he doesnt feel this way really. i have my hobbies and im thinking of attending a class twice a week and maybe volunteering to get out of the house. i dont know if its a friend i want or some security within myself im afraid to confront? my dad also has cancer and its hard because im distant from him due to things he did to me in my childhood. but this is a cancer that has spread all over and soon he will die. he doesnt know that i know…i am scared to pick up the phone. im scared to face it all.
i just want him here again so he can hold me and kiss me and tell me things are okay! that im loved! then i can spring up again and feel hope and joy and love and do my best.
i know lolcow isnt the place…im not a teenager anymore. i should be past this. i should know how to handle the hurt. but it still makes things so grey, it feels painful, it feels terrifying. i want to be away from my mother, i want to live happily and work hard with him, but i cannot have these things. life does not allow me to, at least not right now. my happiest moments are with him. and i think i will keep trying to be positive and do things for myself while i am home, but those few days i get to see him i never want them to end. going home to myself and the little i have here does not provide me any warmth. but i know its unfair to seek out all of the negative.
i miss him. i am lonely and unhappy with myself lately. i dont want to speak to my father but i fear ill regret not doing so before he dies. i want to make friendships and maintain them and stick to goals. i want to feel like i am doing good things for myself. but some days, like today, it feels incredibly futile. i feel so worthless and confused that id rather cry and contemplate if living is worth it!
No. 1837731
>>1837632One thing I don't see OP mention is the father. If the male figure is still in the picture, what does he think about telling the boy no? If he even cares about his family at all? It would be interesting to study cases like anon's sister cause it's my theory that these women are so passive and enabling with their sons because they are trying to replace the love they did not get from their partners. They desperately try to get their son's approval to feel the validation and love that the male partner are not currently giving or did not give them in the past. Bet the sister's partner was
abusive too by the way she dismissed her son's violence when she felt no one was watching.
No. 1837738
>>1837558>The trannies who say their girl pills make them dumb are correct because spiro makes you dumb and foggy. Oh shit, really???
I take spiro for acne for over a year now and noticed lately that I am forgetful and not very sharp.
I was told the only side effect was increased pee. Wow.
No. 1837752
>>1837731You are right that I did not mention the father. My post was not to blame only my sister. It's because I see her the most often with the children, so I mention her the most. But the father is probably even worse, for like almost 2 years he was on leave for work because he is depressed. However my sister told me that instead of helping take care of the kids or the household he just games to relax. My sister still works 36 hours a week, while her husband works maybe 8 hours a week now? I know that right now he actually needs to start working full time again, because they keep getting less money since only the first few years get compensated for the fact that he keeps calling in sick because of his burnout. I don't think he is physical
abusive, but my sister once tried to convince me that I'm not a lesbian. She told me that she is not attracted to her husband at all, and only started dating him because he was the first guy who asked her out and he was funny. She doesn't like having sex with him, she even said that she was disgusted with his body, but she still married him because her dream was to become a mother. If she could she would become a tradwife, but it seems like her husband also would want to be a househusband if he had the choice and not work at all kek. I pity my sister, but also she has a tendency to be manipulative. Like I said, she wanted to convince me that it's normal to not be sexually attracted to your boyfriend because she really wants me to be straight and get kids. When she still lived with me at home, I was about 11 and she stormed into my room crying and begging me to believe in jesus again because otherwise I would go to hell. Sometimes she would twist the words of what my family would say to her. I have a difficult relationship with her, she is my sister so I want to support her. But I do think that mentally there is something wrong with her.
But you are right about the fact that her husband does not care enough about the family, and that she is probably in an unhappy relationship (if it's true about what she said, not being attracted to her husband).
No. 1837758
>>1837752I knew he wasn't shit cause if he were an involved parent you would have naturally talked about him raising his son. I know it's easy to blame your sister but he is also a major part of the problem if not the root cause.
I know your sister talks up the game like she settled for him, but they settled for each other. He hates her. Any man that makes his wife work and doesn't lift a finger at home in order to game all day, hates her. They aren't fucking because he is on the screen all day watching porn.
She's going to latch onto her son to feel any kind of love she ought to have received from that scrote. It's sick and sad.
No. 1837774
I've spent this new years at my mom's and she told me so much stuff about my past that I don't remember at all, and it kinda freaks me out. Like, i get forgetting shit from childhood, but i forgot some shit that is actually a traumatic event in my life that happened less than ten years ago, when i was a teen. How is that possible? I remember lots of other shit from that period, but not this, wtf. Memory is crazy.
I'm also pissed at her for being such a boymom, it's annoying, she keeps on bringing on how my brother is her copy, how male friendships are way superior, etc. There was lots of other shit and it was a weird ass experience overall, but whatever, glad to see her anyway
No. 1837777
>>1837772Would she even be okay with divorce given her convictions? She may not be comfortable abandoning the deadbeat even if he doesn't make things physically easier for her just because he fills some emotional role of being the husband and she is too fragile to be seen single.
The thing that could work is bringing around an available, better partner but unfortunately the dating pool of decent men interested in married women with kids who are looking to monkey branch is very shallow, unfortunately.
It's a shame how she cannot see that she is already single parenting alone anyway.
No. 1837816
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I've been planning to gift my bf something really cool since last year (his birthday is this month), but he's been so unresponsive and uncommunicative with me that I am honestly thinking to not even bother. But then I think about all the cool and full of effort gifts he gave me before…
Why can't you just act normal? You always act shitty when you're not home. It's fucking miserable.
No. 1837821
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I know it's not a big deal but… ok, here's the situation. I love snail mail and often send my friends postcards as well as letters. I always tell them there's no expectation for replies, since this is my hobby and I don't want to make them feel bad about getting a letter if there's strings attached to reply. But recently my friend who likes receiving my letters told me she's gotten a penpal in her target learning language and they're exchanging physical letters. I'm upset because even though I say it's okay not to reply to me or reply in a text instead of another letter, the fact that she's excited to mail a stranger something over me who has been sending mail for years sucks. I know she's doing it to practice her language but uhm. Hurts that she's excited about her penpal's letters enough to reply but not to me. Same ol' shit again; I care deeply about friends and go the extra mile, but I don't get the same efforts back. I've made peace with it. We all choose to live the way we want to and I want to keep expressing my love the way that's natural to me, but I can still be sad about reciprocity now and then. I've accepted that I'll always be the one giving more than taking.
I didn't make her feel bad or guilt her. What's the point? I reminded her that my mail comes with no strings attached and that she should have fun with her penpal. Why argue about something like this?
No. 1837842
>>1837821I relate to this.
I make a post every year about sending out holiday cards. Get tons of replies from friends who want them, but maybe only receive a couple back from said friends.
One of them is always begging online for money, gifts, and so on and acting like she'd appreciate any scrap of attention. She always makes posts about large gifts she is sent, but apparently my paltry cards and little gifts aren't mention-worthy. Tired of having my feelings hurt, so I am not doing it again.
No. 1837863
>>1837738Ayrt. Yes, for me and some others it’s the biggest side effect. I once took a shower in the dark because I was convinced the power was out, only to realize I had only hit the fan switch and didn’t even try the lights. My mom is on it too and one time we were doing errands and got in the car and we’re convinced the car was broken and not starting, but really we were just pressing the park button over and over again. I used to be extremely sharp, nowadays I frequently get confused to the point I have a rule of “if something seems stupid and doesn’t make any sense why it would be that way, think harder about it before making a move.” I do everything slower now because of that and my processing time is slow too.
The fact that trannies experience this and just conclude this is how stupid women actually are instead of thinking “maybe I am experiencing adverse medical side effects” really speaks to men’s perception of women.
No. 1837943
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I've been trying to eat fast food to not come off as rude when my friend wants to order takeout but i hate how uneasy i get when i have to eat it.
I try to ignore the fact that the stuff they use is of awful quality but oh my god i hate eating with my bare hands and i hate any format of food they have, i wish i could just get a drink without making it awkward.
I also struggle to finish anything and i hate wasting food.
No. 1837982
>>1837943What food are you eating? Fast food is expensive without coupons now so I'd rather get something from somewhere else, I could ramen or fresh kebabs or an order of Thai for the same amount. Some fast food chains do offer things like salads though, a drink and salad might be OK for you. If you have Wendy's near by they have their baked potato and chili, that's usually what I get and you don't need forks.
You could also eat nuggies with a fork.
No. 1837985
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Trannies are trying to horn in and gatekeep pickles. Over my dead body, bitch
No. 1837994
>>1837990you can just say suicide on this website nona
and get your vitamin D levels checked, always worth investigating if you have Seasonal Affective Disoder
No. 1837998
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wow this year started out horribly for me. i was throwing up for 24 hours and fucked up my sleeping schedule so now it's the 3rd and i haven't done anything and feel like fucking shit. i'm still trying to get my sleeping pattern fixed and i haven't even managed to shower yet. my anxiety is horrible and it feels like i fell into some kind of bipolar depression from getting sick. i'm suddenly sad about a million new things for no reason. i have ZERO motivation to do anything now, and i was so excited before to start fresh and i had a long list of resolutions and actual plans to make them happen. now it feels like i'm doomed and that the year is doomed for me and that i can never become better or improve myself.
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>>1838030The true stacy answer
No. 1838064
>>1838054>lifted truck with blue LEDsAt the exact height to blare their lights right into the rearview mirror. Every. Time. Wishing you all the safe journeys and commutes fellow driving nona!
Side vent, sorry. I hope every moid who doesn't haul with his truck a merry stay in hell. The increase of truck:car ratio on the road is why there's so many more pedestrian deaths than there used to be in my country and so much of it is down to scrotes driving huge ass cars (trucks and suvs) they don't need and lifting it up so the front is level with people's chests instead of their legs. It's a public health issue but god forbid we shame scrotes for anything ever I guess.
No. 1838097
>>1837558I feel this post so much
nonnie and it's happening to me too. I started noticing hairloss around 4 years ago but I didn't do anything about it until recently. Been on minoxidil and on iron/vitamin supplements to maybe fix it but I'm highly suspecting it's just genetic hairloss since my dad is also a bald faggot. Like you, I had thick hair but I started shedding so fucking much in 2023 and now I can literally see my scalp through the thin hair I have now. I'd hate to be on medications for the rest of my life so if what I'm doing now doesn't work then it truly is ogre. This truly fucking sucks. Life is so not fair.
No. 1838166
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>>1838002Why did he call you a hole. That's a mans anus baby.
No. 1838175
>>1838162This is such a facebook "ethical non monogamous" split dyed BPD post kek.
>I'D THINK HE WAS A HOLE TOOThe context is different.
No. 1838194
>>1838175Why are you so belligerent? I don't even know what the fuck you're talking about since I haven't been on fb for almost 5 years now. As for polyamory, it might be for some other people, it isn't for me.
>The context is different Really? And what's different?
No. 1838220
I hate men so much that I can only feel better when I see them getting hurt. I feel relief when I watch a video of a male dying. I feel satisfied when an “innocent” man has his life ruined by a false rape accusation. I don’t care if he didn’t do it. It is only fair that they have their lives ruined for petty reasons just like how they ruin women’s lives for dumb reasons. Thats all they have done: Ruin our lives. For most of human history and in some places today, women have been enslaved and prohibited from doing anything besides spawning the spawn of the narc moid. Moids can’t think of anything other than coom. It’s in their DNA. Male animals are like this too. Why would hominid males be any different? Male animals often die from over cooming because that is their entire existence. Women go through menopause and live several decades following, whilst men can coom forever because that is their purpose, and men are not happy with that fact. Men have lied to women that we are the inferior sex. They tell us that we are just a part of Adam’s rib. We are weaker, dumber, and more disposable. But none of this is true: Obviously. We are ahead of men in education. We live longer. We are more resistant to infections, we are kinder, and are mentally stronger. In times of hardship, women help others whilst men use such opportunities to rape. Women have empathy, whilst men only feign it. Men have used our empathy against us and gave us trannies. Again: they think of nothing but the coom.
The only area in which men are superior is in muscle strength, which, unfortunately for us, led to men believing they were superior in the days predating science. To this day they have yet to evolve. In a civil society, the man is like a hippo propelling shit, whilst the women is like a hummingbird. The fell of a tree sparks sadness, but not the death of a man. Trees bring air, beauty and life. Men bring death, destruction and tarnish the world with their ugly physique.
No. 1838226
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>>1838214Oh nonna,you stupid bitch. Verbal degradation is an action being performed by the moid. The moid verbally degrading you doesn't mean you're submitting. It just means the moid is verbally degrading you.
No. 1838230
>>1838226She won't get it nona, she thinks polyamory is heckin
valid…
No. 1838236
>>1838216She is. But she also said she wants to hear other people's thoughts, so that means she's open to changing her mind. To me, her post reads like she doesn't know whether she can trust her husband, and she might have her reasons, I'm just saying, in healthy relationship, you wou
shouldn't be concerned about how you're gonna be perceived by your parnter, especially not during sth as vulnerable and important to bonding as sex
No. 1838240
>>1838233Was probably a kiwifag and he had to backspace and change from "if I was buttfucking a man" to "if I was
pegging a man"
No. 1838336
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>>1838332
No. 1838380
>>1838375Happy birthday to you,
nonnie. I care
No. 1838413
>>1838314Kek, i love it when random lost souls come over here and get
triggered like this, the trash taking itself out.
No. 1838425
>>1838419Nona, do this!
>>1838422Or you could just send the texts to his mother before he has a chance to delete them.
No. 1838496
>>1838433I concur
nonny… I wanna sleep, cook, play games, take walks, enjoy life
No. 1838513
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Tell me how will I fall in love like that again?
No. 1838520
>>1838502I know the feeling. Are they also bpd enby freaks. I had a coworker who literally would be a shit person just out of the blue and blame it on her autism that magically manifested. She would also legitimately bully the manager who she diagnosed with autism for being too rigid.
Also why are all these people claiming autism. There's no way this high of an amount of people weren't diagnosed earlier.
No. 1838565
>>1838520YES. One of them claims BPD and I 100% believe that diagnosis. Threatens suicide on social media more than Erin Paintr. The worst bully in the entire workplace is this nonbinary moid who is also the biggest virtue signaler I've ever witnessed. I hope he doubles down on the nonbinary shit because he would look ugly as hell.
Enby moid ran off to gossip to me about how stupid autistic manager must be because she said she failed a class. They are so braindead they don't even notice the conflict between trying to come off as some enlightened, progressive activist while also bullying anyone who they perceive as socially or intellectually different. They will ever work anywhere but this job.
No. 1838584
>>1838581your vent is
valid. sorry
nonny, you're fucked. hopefully he gets rapid acting ass cancer and leaves you a juicy life insurance payment.
No. 1838604
>>1838581I started reading this mess and I said to myself "next she's going to say is that she also has a kid with this horrid moid", and
of course you do kek
No. 1838696
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There’s nothing wrong with my job or my relationship but I want to fly back to my home country. Fuck Australia honestly. Grenade my life and return to my mother land y/n?
No. 1838728
>>1838721Have you been there anon? It’s destitute in so many places. The clean green socialist image portrayed to the world is very different to the reality. Half a million New Zealanders (NZ pop’n 5 million) live in Australia.
“ Zealand children suffer material hardship and the country is at the bottom of the developed world for child poverty. A total of 606 New Zealanders have committed suicide in the past year alone. New Zealand has the worst level of homelessness in the OECD.”
https://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/ten-new-zealand-stats-you-wont-find-in-the-tourism-brochures No. 1838729
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Sorry in advance for the potential wall of text. I'm so sick of my country and town's cynical outlook on life and crabs in a bucket mentality. There is never any understanding for issues a person may be going through, just gossip and speculation and claims that they deserved it for one arbitrary reason or another. I grew up in that shitty environment and couldn't get out of it until I was in my 20s, I thought the whole world was like that. And to a degree it does, but the place I live in now is so different. People actually grow up in loving families and are given compassion and listened to, so no wonder everyone here is so outgoing and well adjusted. I'm actually so jealous. I wish I got listened to instead of told that everything wrong in my life is actually my fault for being stupid and not doing xyz right. Or that I'm just exaggerating cuz they went through the same thing and they're fine, so I must be lying. Or getting made fun of and laughed at for every little thing only to grow up and realize I was just a normal kid and nothing was wrong with me, everyone just needed a punching bag to let out their frustrations on and I was an easy target?
Some of the things I was picked on for were so trivial and dumb
>want a footstool to sit down on and a shoehorn to put my shoes on easier
>mom says in a mocking tone "oh does the princess want a foot massage as well, sitting on the floor and using your hands is not good enough?"
>won't let me buy one with my own pocket money for some reason, makes me sit on floor and tie my shoes instead
>have health issues often as kid, have to skip school for dialysis
>mom won't let me say what's wrong to class because "they will gossip"
>instead classmates accuse me of crying to mommy and staying home to get out of exams, gossip anyway
>teachers don't care and some of them say the same, wasn't even their class I was skipping
>have bad day and miss school bus because i was sick all night
>your own fault, you should have woken up earlier
>get bullied at school
>your own fault, probably something you did
>ask if we are having xyz for lunch, politely
>"well you're not getting it, your highness! we're having abc instead!"
>we were having xyz and mom just changed the meal to spite me, because I'm "spoiled"
>complain about any sickness, told I'm being a pussy and to get over it because I'm just seeking attention, by a doctor at the hospital. One ended up being kidney failure that they took months to diagnose because Dr was calling me a weak pussy in medicalese.
>complain about the negative environment, told to nut up and if I don't like it I should move somewhere else
>move somewhere else, now I'm a snobby bitch who thinks she's better than them and probably slept with someone to get out
>people act nosy and ask private questions, tell them off
>"oh you think you're sooo special and unique that people will talk about you! Who do you think you are? You're not important, nobody is talking about you!"
>if I hurt myself or get punched in class, other girls approach you and ask what happened, the "empathy" stops and they leave when they get the information and go to gossip with others
Every time I come back I regret it and want to leave. Nothing has changed. I hate that it affected me and turned me into a bitter, negative person who grey rocks everyone who tries to get close.
No. 1838737
>>1838729Forgot to add, it's ten times worse when you grow up as an adult woman. If you have fertility issues or your husband beats you, you should have done this or that, you deserved it, or you are actually an evil whore trying to besmirch that kind man's name for money. Cops won't care or will be bribed to be silent. If you have any career as a woman, if you have money you slept your way to the top. If you don't have money you slept your way to the job anyway. Everything is always your fault and you should have always known better. But also you're an evil cunt if you don't take care of your elderly parents who leave all inheritance to your brother because he's the man, and if you
do push for getting inheritance your family will stop talking to you because you're selfish and he needs it more because he's continuing the family name and not you. Female feticide is illegal but boymoms will still abort girl fetuses because their husband will leave them if they don't "give them" a son.
No. 1838759
>>1838752It's funny that you confirm it, but I was wondering if it was an Eastern European country.
I was born in an Eastern European country too, but the gossiping is the only thing I'm primarily familiar with.Leaving the country is the best thing you could have done, and you shouldn't have to go back to visit for familial reasons. Good riddance.
No. 1838785
>>1837243>so sweet to me at first and had his shit togetheryou're not the first to fall for that low bar we give men. Hopefully he's your last and you heal soon.
>>1837260If your man isn't much older than you, the likelihood of a fucked up kid isn't as bad as you may think if you actually look at the stats, most women had husbands 10 plus years older than them so obviously a kid at 35 is going to be a little messed up, it received 45 year old man sperm. Anecdotal but my aunt and her husband (2 years younger at least) had kids through ages 40-43 and it worked out fine from what I can tell a few years later. They very explicitly wanted to leave their 30s for themselves. Had 2 nice cars, traveled around, only settled because they actually felt it around 38-39. The kids are fine but she had some initial trouble conceiving. Second round wasn't much trouble
but she wound up with twin boys in trying for a girl the poor woman, at least she's a good mom>>1837276my only "real" kiss with a woman was a straight girl whom I found out was doing it at the bar to sleep with some dude into threesomes. feelsbadman.
I also have a deep rooted hatred of Katy Perry's I kissed a girl cause it came out right when I fully knew I loved women, the dramatic tween I was felt like an actual joke>>1837280>the years are 2010-2014>you're in high school>girls pretend "every girl is a little lesbian" to entice boys because it means they're up for threesomes (as if those happened in high school)>dudes know about shipping and that girls are horny for guys kissing too (cobra starship's I kissed a boy has just come out) so they will kiss at parties to show that they're not "one of the toxic boys" and entice some girlswhat a time
wtf were teenagers in the 2010s? no wonder half of us are freaks and gendies No. 1838816
>>1838804Oh this part is rich
>boss finally realizes I did fix the paperwork correctly in the building I said I did whereas before he accused me of "assuming" things were correct and not actually having been there>call to tell him to visit the other building and check that paperwork because that is what I did not know to check and what the client complained about this morning>he takes a picture of their entries, says they're fine, and leaves>I call boss back and tell him to go back since the date errors were on the prior page and not the one he took a pic of>the employees did not correct those entries and instead transcribed the old info to the new page with the right dates to make it seem correct which is what the client caught>boss concedes that I am correct and that I will be back tonight to make a footnote about the transcriptionsMotherfucker I saved YOU from being embarassed lmao. You were ready to leave because YOU assumed things were hunky dory! See how easy it is to be confused by these shitlords who should know better by now and are constantly doing the wrong things to make themselves look good? Oh, but don't discipline your little darlings, just blame me! LOL
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I'm in my mid twenties, why do I still sound like a retarded thirteen year old boy in recordings
No. 1839051
>>1839030Are you losing coolant?
Only reason why you'd need to do an engine teardown is if the engine block is cracked somewhere and that's where you're losing coolant.
It's either loss of coolant (usually hoses), bad radiator, failed pump, or failed thermostat.
No. 1839055
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my mom told me something yesterday that really pissed me off…anyway when she was pregnant with me (or a few years after she had me, I can't quite recall) she was told by a family friend that if she gave them $20k in cash – which she had – they could set her up with a nice house (kind of resembles picrel – it's a pretty brick bungalow). however, this house was next to her sister's house, and she didn't want it. for that reason alone. she put that $20k towards a trailer instead.
at first i was like "haha, dumb decision, you were young it's whatever" but then i went "well wait, my mom was 30-something when she had me. and she'd been all over the world twice." so she wasn't a young retard, she had good sense. then i start to research the area and it's like, okay: great infrastructure, one of the safest neighborhoods in the state now, GREAT school like five minutes away, my aunt tells me there were tons of kids there when i was a kid, etc. etc. the benefits just go on and on.
the trailer i grew up in is rat-infested now, surrounded by shitty neighbors who won't clean up (so even if we clean the rats just come back to visit sometimes), 30 minutes from the city, there is NO infrastructure down here, etc. etc. etc.
anyway i'm pissed. you selfish donkey. my aunt's a bitch yeah but you apparently still liked her at that point so why didn't you take that house?? our lives would be so much better. fucking idiot.
now that i'm thinking about it, she mentioned something about owning the land the trailer is sat on right now, and i guess that's cool and all but you haven't really done anything with it? it's just a lot of bullshit nowhere nothing space that's going to shit kek.
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Two of my friends met their absolutely lovely partners over tinder, so I figured I was gonna give it a try. BUT WHY DO I NOT MATCH WITH THE ONES THAT I'M REALLY INTO AND ONLY GET THE "hm, yeah kinda cute I guess?" THAT I HAVE SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT. Picrel is me when I pick up my phone and go "oh, right. You." when I see they wrote to me.
No. 1839250
>>1839235 >High-risk HPVs can cause several types of cancer. There are 12 high-risk HPV types: HPV 16, 18, 31, 33, 35, 39, 45, 51, 52, 56, 58, and 59 >Two of these, HPV 16 and HPV 18, are responsible for most HPV-related cancers.I had either 16 or 18 so the worst ones for cancer risk. I was automatically getting appointment letters every few months to keep going to follow up exams and keep an eye on it. Idk if the others are treated the same way as the main two. Every colposcopy pamphlet I got att seemed to only concentrate on those two strains and not really mention the rest.
Couple years later I was negative again
No. 1839254
>>1839233god i wish i had the kinda cute type when i still used tinder. i live in a big european capital so there's a fuck ton of tech bro expats here that just like every woman on the app. i just gave up because i got tired of scrolling through the ocean of likes from amirs and muhammads.
seconding
>>1839248 though, pick some of the cuter ones and go on dates.
No. 1839266
>>1839248That is not exaaactly the issue, it's like…the vibes?? I guess I get when they start writing. Maybe I'm judging them too fast, but I feel like I swiped on them too soon or made a judgement I'm not quite sure about
I'm trying to only swipe on guys based on the question "but…would I ACTUALLY respond?" and I broke it with the two latest ones, I'm a real serial ghoster because I still have some lingering tinder burnout I guess kek and I've also been kinda down over that I haven't gotten a match with the cute dorky asian guy that I had a lot in common with on his profile.
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i was excited to meet my friend that i haven't seen in a year and she fucking brings a troon along, simply because he lives in the same city and she wanted to meet him as well. i don't use social media much so i miss a lot of things and don't post about my life so i was excited to catch up with my friend. instead i had to listen to looney troon for hours and how he's the only girl at his IT job and that he's treated like a princess by his coworkers and has to do all the silly girl stuff like marketing in addition to his programmer job. then he took a selfie of us for his ig story and chose an angle in which i was barely visible. not like i wanted to be seen with this guy but can you make it anymore obvious? i'm so mad and i could barely talk to my friends about the stuff i wanted to tell her about because my friend decided that it was time to go when he said he had to leave now.
No. 1839329
>>1839322i had doubts about our friendship because she's a
militant vegan to the point that you can't even go to a restaurant without her vilifying the other guests who choose to eat meat. her constant complaining just took the fun out of everything so we didn't talk for a while but then we got back in touch and she seemed to have mellowed out a little. now this happened and i'm back to the doubting phase.
No. 1839334
>>1839314that's actually very insulting, a similar thing happened to me but not with a troon and it turned out my friend (no longer talking to her) was so anxious to see me after a year or so me having been kinda sick, so she was
triggered and needed an emotional support neet with her. Could there be a reason your friend didn't want to be alone with you or is she just a handmaiden who didn't think
No. 1839357
I don’t know why my best friend can’t be happy about me being in a long and healthy relationship. My boyfriend and I have been together for 10 years now. Since we started dating, my best friend always had something to say.
At first there just questions that I thought were out of curiosity but then I realised she was judging pretty hard everything that we did as a couple. She started questioning things about our way of dating that were pretty bizarre like how much we went to have dinner out or how much money he spent in my anniversary presents.
Then it got to the point were I couldn’t mention him without receiving a passive aggressive comment about how his feelings for me weren’t true and how selfish he was all the time. Of course it was all in her head, I never told her anything bad about him to her but she tried to twist my words to make it seem as if I was excusing him. For example, I could tell her that we planned to go to the cinema but we didn’t do it in the end because he was tired (when he was working 6 days per week, self employed, worked more than 10 hours everyday) and didn’t have a good day and she would start this rant about how he couldn’t EVER make an effort for me and bring me to the cinema either way because he just didn’t love me as much as I did love him.
Truth is we’re not perfect by any means but I truly see myself sharing my life with this person, I love him and he loves me unconditionally. We stayed together trough tick and thin and the worst part is he never complained about her, not once. He knows she’s a pretty difficult person but I feel terribly guilty every time she starts complaining about something that it isn’t real.
I tried to talk with her about it so many times, I told her how important he is to me and how I would like her to accept our relationship but she always tries to change the subject and dismisse it, telling me I’m a bit dramatic because I care too much.
Recently she started questioning about when we’ll be married. She, who never had a relationship that lasted for more than 9 months, thinks she would be married at this point and even trying to have kids. I told her I never want to have kids and I’m pretty sure my mind won’t ever change and again, she twisted what I said and started to attack me for being so “brain washed” (because of my partner) when actually never in my 34 years of life I said I want to be a mother.
Some mutual friends told me that she used to post in her secret social media account (to which I don’t have access btw) things about my relationship in a passive aggressive way and that everyone knew it was about me, but of course she denied everything.
If I’m logical, I know the answer is that she’s just jealous of me but it stills hurts either way. I truly wish she could be happy for once for me.
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i'm on my 1st semester of college and it's good but why does everybody have friends that invite them to hang out of college, all my friends are cool but no one has invited me to a third space and idk like all my friends from school have been invited from other people but i haven't, this sounds edgy but it really feels like i'm the only one from campus that doesn't get invited anywhere
No. 1839374
>>1839332thing is, i wouldn't have been this mad if it had been another woman but she just had to bring along a troon. i love meeting my friend's friends and i get along great with them 99% of the time, but moids are a no and troons even more so.
>>1839334she's definitely a bit of a handmaiden who thinks watching heartstoppers is activism kek. i don't think she has any issues meeting me alone because we hung out just the two of us pretty regularly in the past…
>>1839344i definitely would have objected had it not been a story post tbh. my friend and him both took pictures and he said he'd upload his later. when i was on my way home i got a notif that my friend had tagged me in a story, so i checked his account as well since she had tagged him. he only tagged her in it and i was half covered by his moid shoulders and hair.
>>1839371kek i did look visibly uncomfortable in one of the pics she took because the troon had leaned in close to me to fit in the frame.
thank you for your support, nonnas. i felt a bit crazy seething so much about this but i feel better now. i texted my friend now and told her that it was sad that we didn't get to talk properly and that i might be in town sometime next year if she's interested in getting coffee "just the two of us." she hasn't replied yet though.
No. 1839514
>>1837870ayrt: thank you for your wonderful reply nonacita, but I'm not sure if I'm kind, haha. Like you, I still feel resentful when I don't get the effort back that I give to friends. However, I have been working not to take my failed expectations out on people since they didn't ask for them. So I take these moments as (painful lbr) learning opportunities to dial down my enthusiasm and perhaps direct it to someone or something else. I 100% understand how you feel about being underappreciated and am sending hugs and good vibes to you. I wish you the same as well! We deserve the love we give!
I don't know if it will help you, but another sort of coping mechanism I have is to categorize friends into intimacy levels, e.g. a casual work friend, friends for going to museums, close friends, etc. Even though I may really be into the person and want to be close, they may not feel the same way. So I repeat to myself that not all people I meet have to be lifelong close friends and adjust boundaries accordingly. However, I still don't know how to get over feeling less liked and in general that I have never been anyone's favorite while I have had many one-sided best friends. It's selfish to say, but I wish I was someone's best friend for once. I don't know. Friendships are hard. I don't know how people are so nonchalant sometimes.
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I'm sick of my family being seen as these angels I guess, that are in this world to help everyone.
Why do we need to help people? Why can't we be selfish? Why is everyone always coming to us asking for help? Why is it that every time we need help, no one can helps us without conditions?
We're not a charity, we're not psychiatrists, we're not millionaires, we worked hard to get where we are, if we could do this, everyone else can do this, we're not perfect, we're not mentally stable either.
But why do we have to deal with the hard shit that everyone is dealing? why is everyone telling us their issues?
I want to be an autistic mess in peace, and that peace means my family only dealing with their own issues, not my family dealing with other people's issues.
I don't want to know about anyone's problems, it's enough with our own problems, I just want to solve them slowly, but everyone else is making us lose focus on ourselves.
Like, my family isn't perfect but Jesus Christ everyone else in the world has shitty families and at this point I don't even want to date anyone, specially considering how batshit are moids even if they're raised in nice homes, I don't want to have to deal with anymore neglectful parents, I don't want to have to deal with any shitty irresponsible cousins nor weird ass family dynamics.
I literally can't relate and it's tiresome as fuck, plus no one can relate to me either because at least my family loves me and we support each other, and that only makes people mad, it makes them want to poke holes and try to see some sort of abuse when it was never to the point of like, having to learn to cook at 9 or having to get a job at 15 because otherwise we would all die of hunger or some shit like that.
No. 1839645
>>1839617What did you do to get where you are?
Or are you talking about your parents and grandparents successes?
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>hang in there, it gets better i promise
No, it didn't. I should have ended it two decades ago.
No. 1839769
>>1839730anon, itll eat most of your budget but uber or get a cab to work. Dont make excuses. There was a point where I had to walk almost an hour to work but I was able to scrooge my money and save up for a car.
Make a facebook and look for women's groups and the ladies there will give you a ride too.
Stalk your neighbours and ask them if they can give you a lift.
Pls nona, its better to struggle now and not give up than losing money you couldve had with a little pain
No. 1839834
>>1839823thats the oldest trick in the book, I've known about several age liars like a 30 yr old woman with a BA pretending to be a self taugh teen. Also, men pretending to be women to bait simps.
Its super rare when this gets aired nowadays though but i remember in old days of DA people ratted out each other a lot and made for some fun drama.
No. 1839909
>>1839882IRL you can be confident, normal, and female. That's enough to throw most of them into a panic.
Express interest in their boyo hyperfixations, talk casually about how you've loved dinosaurs since you were a little girl, be nice when they ask if you're really agender nonbinary hyperspace-lesbian aligned queer because you owned a galaxy top in 2016. They're obsessive navel gazers with self-induced OCD and need to be shown that in real life nobody gives a shit about boi wear blue gorl wear pink. It takes a while, they like to delude themselves into thinking they've found a fellow queerio, but eventually they come round.
Oh, and treat them like you'd treat normal, awkward women. There's absolutely nothing masculine about them, so why pretend? You're talking to a flat-chested short-haired woman in a tacky shirt. That's all a normal person would see, they should get used to it.
No. 1839914
>>1839909Ntayrt but I like this advice, I’d really like to help TiFs, their whole existence makes me sad TBH. My question is how do you “treat someone like a woman”? I feel like their whole thing is not liking how gender roles in society put them in a box for being a woman, and our ideas of “masculinity” and “femininity” are both attributes existent in people regardless of gender (so they
can be masculine because masculine women exist and that’s fine).
No. 1839917
>>1839641Sorry you have a shit life, but it's the truth, I don't need to stop for everyone if no one is stopping for me.
I don't understand just why do you need me and anyone else to help the world 24/7, ask a huge ass company for help, they actually have the money and teams to help people, not me or my family.
>>1839645I have a career, I've been working with people I don't like, I've had to deal with people I'm sick of.
I don't get why is it that everyone seethe like the anon over you whenever someone has an almost happy home. Why can't I be proud of my family? Why do I have to act like I'm this martyr that never had a stable home and that had to work hard from the moment I was conceived in order to "deserve" what I have?
I don't get this, is it that everyone is just so used to seeing people miserable, that seeing a person with a regular life seems disgusting?
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Holy shit moids are so fucking retarded and socially inept. I got hit on by one of our friends last night and he tried to talk me into going home with him but I kept telling him that I'm too good for casual sex and that I only have sex when I'm in a relationship. He then proceeded to praise his skills (especially eating out) and how all the women he's slept with praise him for it. And then, after I told him again and again that I'm not fucking interested, he's like "Well fine, I know I'll get laid tonight anyway. I have my roster". KEK so pathetic omfg. He realy thought I'd think that I'm the one who's missing out. I'm sure I hurt his ego. Besides, he was in a relationship with one of my close friends and there's no way I'd touch him regardless of how pathetic he was.
No. 1840023
>>1839769this is good advice. there was a time period where I had to take lyfts to work, and it wasn't
so bad. then again, I would've had to pay for parking anyway, and I expect fees got higher over the past few years, then now people expect a higher percentage of tips despite the fact that they're getting more money at the same %
because the initial cost went up.Maybe take an Uber or whatever to your interview and then for the first week or two, but meanwhile sniff out a cool coworker who might be able to give you a ride most of the time. You'll want to pay them for the gas they're using to pick you up and maybe a little extra as a personalized "convenience fee" but depending on what kind of job it turns out to be/your schedule, you might be able to find someone who'd pick you up and be appreciative of a packed lunch/breakfast sandwich to eat on the way, etc. as compensation for their time. Use the barter system and play to your strengths.
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Sometimes I wonder if I'm really recovering. Just because I'm back on the wagon doesn't mean I don't occasionally lapse into habits I'm unlearning.
I wasn't dealt a decent hand in life with looks or smarts, so I have to accept the only thing I'm really good at is enduring and trying to find where I do belong in my utter mediocrity
why does it hurt so much when I have a few good days and then an awful meltdown? I should be kinder to myself since I was basically on the verge of death without meds.
But all I can think is how could I have been on meds a month and still hurt as much as I do? 2 weeks lowest dosage, 2 weeks higher dosage, 4 weeks this dosage, probably need higher.
The fact that I've basically accepted I have to be on anticonvulsants for the rest of my life to stop my brain from malfunctioning and live healthily fucking hurts. I didn't put myself in this predicament, it was years of trauma damaging me. I don't want to be damaged, or victimize myself, and I want to stop presenting or acting as damaged, yet I fundamentally accept I am broken. How I wish I could've had a healthy, neurotypical brain and a neurotypical childhood with parents, friends and partners who loved me, not this life I've lived.
No. 1840322
>>1840269Thank you nonna. I'm not too sure yet what the cause is because there's so many different factors (they drew my blood in the ER and didn't say anything after so I'm assuming everything looked normal), but the packet they sent me home with with foods to avoid mentions nuts, almonds being the worst and ngl I eat a lot of stuff containing them and use almond milk. My primary thought I might be magnesium deficient and recommended it (the almonds as a source). High oxalates in certain foods can contribute to stone formation, but if you have it with a calcium source it will go to the gut and not stick around in the kidneys. And citric acid helps stop them from forming in general. I have rosacea so I was avoiding a lot of citrus and dairy milk (cheese doesn't make flare up for whatever reason). I've immediately reintroduced dairy yogurt into my diet with plain low-fat greek yogurt and swapped the almond milk for flaxseed, which has low oxalates. And then I have lemon water with lunch. I'll know the exact cause next week when I have a follow-up at the urologist and they can analyze the stone.
It truly was the most painful experience ever. I've had bad period cramps where I've thrown up but this was even worse. Thankfully they prescribed me hardcore pain meds and Zofran so in the future if it happens again I'm prepared and don't have to suffer in the ER again!
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I know it's stupid to be upset that a doctor told me I do not have autism nor ADHD, but I was really hoping I'd finally get some meds that would help me study and get my life together.
No. 1840440
>>1840432SSRIs are poisonous but if you're actually ADHD or bipolar you may need stimulants or an anticonvulsant just to survive.
Depends on the severity.
No. 1840495
>>1840487Remember, if we all lived by your rules we'd be dying of dysentery and praying to various dieties hoping the floodplain has a good year.
The view that ,,pharmaceuticals = bad,, because they cause side-effects, of all things, is a stupid one. And you're encouraging people that aren't well to not take them.
No. 1840545
>>1840511Except it doesn't work.
Except to make people addicted and loose their money that is. The success rate of psychiatric drugs are abysmal and they cause more problems than they solve.
No. 1840579
>>1840555I never understood the argument that the word porn makes it sound consensual or whatever the reason was last time I read a back and forth about that. We all know it’s inherently an
abusive act but now those people think they’re the woke supremes by learning a new term and have to flex their super progressive terminology on anyone who uses the common term instead of focusing on the bigger picture. It’s such a nothing of an argument. And I understand that rage completely, talking to pro porn and pro sex work women is blackpilling.
No. 1840599
>>1840555When someone tries to create a new euphemism for something they are bad people. CP is CP.
OnlyFans puts a bit of power into women to create their own content but it's being abused constantly. Better than having to run through gross porn publishers but not by much. There's multiple stories of women getting trafficked to Eastern Europe to only end up in OnlyFans content houses. Some of them are even linked to Andrew Tate.
The only way to ethically consume porn is through hentai or fanfics.
No. 1840604
>>1840599> When someone tries to create a new euphemism for something they are bad people. CP is CPJfc the term “child sexual abuse material” started being used in clinical settings because it describes the abuse that was recorded. I’m a
victim of it and no one is a bad person for calling it either “child sexual abuse material” or “child porn”, both terms are fine, just fucking shut up.
No. 1840605
>>1840555I'm sorry that happened to you, and im also sorry those bitches you were talking to don't got no tact at all with
victims, they're too far invested into their own fucked up "sex work" world
>>1840579>I never understood the argument that the word porn makes it sound consensual or whatever the reasonThey think porn is a consensual decision inherently, instead of what it is: rape. That's why
No. 1840606
>>1840604Sorry I overstepped. I've just heard some moids online say phrases like "it's not actually pedophilia it's some other word because she's a teenager. I'm totally not a pedo guys". Like they are trying to lessen what they did.
I'm really sorry you were subjected to that and I didn't mean to insult you.
No. 1840614
>>1840545People who have bipolar disorder have micro seizures every time our brain switches from manic to depressive. Most people with severe enough mental illness cannot control it through natural means. It's quite literally that you're born that way (autism, adhd, mood and personality disorders are genetic in part) and/or develop it through trauma. I have basically accepted at this point that I'm going to be on Lamictal or an adjacent bipolar drug for the rest of my life. When I am off and I was for two years, I endanger myself. I put myself in exceptionally bad situations, resorted to dangerous coping mechanisms, and my body literally felt for 30 months like it was on autopilot mode.
I was doped up on SSRIs and other drugs from the time I was under 12 years old but I was too abused and ended up developing a mood and personality disorder. Thanks to my reckless nasty parents I will be forced into chemical co dependency for the rest of my life.
As much as I would like not to take meds, I have to and I wish people would realize it. Otherwise my brain is so active and overwrought it's on the verge of imploding.
No. 1840615
>>1840593I am not even american.
Getting addicted to be benzos, meth and antidepressants that have just as much efficacy as a placebo is not good just because you are doing it in Europe.
Its even been proved that anti-depresants don't do anything. Depression.
No. 1840619
>>1840579>>1840599Yeah I think you're both right that there's just this automatic view that porn is good and consensual, so saying cp just sexualizes that content. Porn at best is a neutral term, it just means erotic material of some kind. And that's the intent behind why it's made, because worthless moids are getting off to it. I don't mind the term csam being used but I think a lot of people aren't familiar with that term and trying to force others to use it just creates a lot of unnecessary misunderstanding.
To me, csam sounds vague and if I hadn't previously been exposed to that term it's something I could've easily overlooked if I had read it online or something. Whereas the term cp is familiar with everyone and can't be misunderstood.
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>>1840656I don't take SSRIs anymore. Turns out SSRIs in bipolar patients can induce mania. I was on a mood stabilizer and anti anxiety (alternative to benzos but not addictive) for the longest time till I went off thanks to financial reasons. Those did help. Now I'm back on a mood stabilizer alone and still upping dosage, but it's cleared my cloudy mind a lot. I no longer have crazy heart palpitations and a reduced desire to cut my wrists. Unfortunately in those two years I was off I had more traumatic things happen so it's not a cure all. I still have an adhd david lynch movie playing in my head what feels like 24/7, but it's not a horror picture.
On top of the substance dependency I was abused by family and later in life by men, can't keep friends worth shit, I generally consider myself to be a pretty fucked up bitch whose problems rub off on everyone. Fell from grace harder in the last two years so I have nothing left, lost my IRL friends, lost my job, my creativity, my motivation and my self worth. The only noteworthy thing was graduating college. I tried to kill myself so many times. My body is pretty impervious to dying. It always has been, I had an even stronger pattern of OD attempts in 2018-2019, an NDE, none of which killed me. no inpatient hospitalization, I suffered through them. All that's left plain and simple is in with the new out with the old, restart. Like I'm fucked up, and I have to take at least one medication for the rest of my life. As long as I can afford it, can keep a job in the future, and don't fall into dilapidation it's fine. But that is always a fear, especially without meds. I'm not one of those Kanye esque bipolars thinking I'm cured, I couldn't financially afford them for a few years and it was ruinous. I'd rather be in debt and happy than unmedicated and rotting.
Burgerland healthcare doesn't give a fuck about people like me and our struggles. what I need is a job with real, actual insurance coverage
No. 1840697
>>1840691if you were taking ssri's and they didn't immediately start
triggering mania (think bright saturated colours, immediate uplift in mood, increased urge to drink, spend and do things that elevate that mood) then you do not have bipolar, stop deluding yourself
you would not want anything like bipolar, it ruins lives, look up the worst things done in bipolar episodes on reddit or quora and you'll see why.
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2016 was the last good year
>2 years out of college and could afford a nice apartment with my 2 friends
>Republicans hadn't taken over
>The left hadn't gone bananas
>Economy was at a high after the recession
>I could afford to go to Europe
>Festivals weren't just an excuse for influencers to make "content"
>Tinder wasn't completely shit
>No Tiktok
>No pandemic
>People were nicer
I remember spending a sunny Saturday slipping in and out of bars playing Pokemon Go with my friends. I want to go back.
I still have you lolcow. I still have you.
No. 1840710
>>1840697I do actually have bipolar. I was diagnosed when I was 19-20… don't denounce what I've gone through like that, it's not the same for everyone. I was also hyper adjusted to being on SSRIs by the time I got off them, took some since childhood but when I realized how adversely they began affecting me I went off
No doctors told me they
triggered mania till my most recent. I had a BP type I friend who took them who didn't have an adverse reaction to them. It's person to person, but personally I hate SSRIs and think they either don't do much good or worsen it. Doesn't mean I don't have bipolar because I don't have a certain reaction smh. I was given markers for bipolar as a teen and never officially dx'd till adulthood. It's common. If my brain no longer feels like it's melting on lamictal either way
No. 1840756
>>1840748I'm not expert but with the happy chemicals isn't it
>Oxytocin- Love that thing. Go make kids>Dopamine - You ate, exercised or did something beneficial to the body. Feel good>Serotonin - Your moods out of whack. Let me bump you up to ok so you can do thingsSerotonin doesn't get you elated, just up to functional. When you're drained of that you can never get ok enough to do anything to push the rest.
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>>1840756>Serotonin doesn't get you elated, just up to functional. When you're drained of that you can never get ok enough to do anything to push the rest.It doesn't. Its been debunked already but they keep prescribing it anyways because psychiatrists are quacks.
If you take serotonin for depression i am sorry but you are eating placebos.
No. 1840776
>>1840765There are better sources which support this including metastudies but anybody willing to believe in the modern equivalent of medieval humour theory isn't going to be interested in hearing about it.
>>1840773>in reality you are a loser with a shit job posting on lolcow.farm>and that's realityYou need to read this back to yourself. Retard.
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I'm so jealous of Olivia Rodrigo it's actually sickening, she just seems to have all the fun in the world. Must be nice to be pretty, rich and popular with loving friends and family.
I know I sound underaged but sadly I'm not.
No. 1840814
>>18407921) You're not supposed to take anti-depressants forever, pharma companies and doctors will tell you this as their use becomes less effective over time.
2) Anti-depressants are not a magic wand that with one swish and a flick they'll get rid of all your problems in one-go, they are supposed to negate the effects a depressive episode has.
3) It's either an issue of a shit life, diet and exercise, an unaddressed medical issue or mental illness. Very few people have unconsoleable unipolar depression
As for depression being caused by low serotonin or a chemical imbalance, the bio processes are very complex, they are discovering treatments with schizophrenia recently that use different pathways other than the dopamine regulators to solve psychosis. THINK the extreme number of wires behind a TV. Very intricate wiring and tough to solve. Low serotonin can be one possible explanation for a small select group of people.
No. 1840827
>>1840824Don't do ECT, it's basically just seizures in the brain like what happens with epileptics (sense of euphoria after a seizure) and bipolar (how it
triggers the mood change from depressive v manic). Only offers temporary relief in some cases, can cause memory loss, your brain goes to it's normal-state eventually
No. 1840833
>>1840827I'm the anon that the anon you're replying to replied to, and it's all doctors and therapists try to sell me on these days. I finally found a therapist I could afford and she dropped me and told me therapy couldn't help me and to just do ECT. I said "I heard it has bad memory and cognition side effects though" and she said "not always!" Very reassuring. My psychiatrists have all told me there's nothing more I can try either. I wish I was born without these problems. The worst part is my parents assuring me that I will get better! The doctors don't know what they're talking about! You will come out of this! and get mad at me when I say that's unlikely since I've been this way since 14 years old. It's maddening to have to live with their blind optimism and not show how horrible I feel every day.
>>1840823>lose an organWhat? also idk if you're calling me a scrote but I'm a 24 y/o woman. That's just how unlucky I am.
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>>1840855There’s an alarming number of them on Quora too
I’ve searched questions about feminine hygiene products and there’s fucking trannies posting pictures of their crotches
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I WISH HE NEVER SENT ME A TEXT. I WAS FINE UNTIL HE SENT ME A TEXT NOW I'M HAVING DREAMS ABOUT HIM, NOW I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM I WAS FINE AND LIVING MY LIFE UNTIL HE SENT ME A MESSAGE.
No. 1840964
>>1840906idk maybe it was visceral fat, which is the unhealthiest kind of fat.
>>1840957is she pickme adjacent or is she just manipulative?
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I'm so sick of people using "vanilla" as an insult and pretending like you're lame if you're not into rough sex. I can't escape it irl and it looks like I can't escape it in fandoms either. One of my favourite characters was often made fun of for being "vanilla", and now his female fans do everything they can to prove that he's actually a "dom" and into some freaky shit and that he would love to dominate you etc. Fuck this pornified culture.
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Feeling the PMDD set in a few days into my luteal phase. I've been tracking for three years and have good awareness of it now, but I always hate that moment when I feel absolutely devastated and suicidal over a small issue and realize that this is going to be gnawing at my brain for the following week or two. It's crazy that I can be this aware of my feelings and yet still not be able to move past them or let them go. All I've learned is to keep going as normal and not lash out like a lunatic, so now my luteal phase is mostly me appearing fine while my brain has gone for a holiday in Silent Hill. I can't cry either because crying will cause head pressure which can trigger migraines. I feel like my body is just going on autopilot, saying and doing the right things while there's sirens and screams and ashes flying around in my head.
No. 1841254
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I'm dating the most mid fucking guy who makes a decent amount of money and treats me nice but he can't stop looking at coomer shit no much how many times I cry and ask. All I'm asking him to do is use fucking incognito and that's too much for him Jesus.
No. 1841284
>>1841273No, I’m 3 hours away from my family and I don’t feel like calling them as they’ll make things worse. Last time I told them I felt suicidal they implied I’d go to hell and said they were fed up of my phases.
The reason I’m upset is so stupid I don’t feel like disclosing it but it’s something to do with me feeling stagnant and having no control over my life. There’s nobody else I can talk to so I decided to go on this board. I already feel so ashamed about my attempt and at least here I’m anonymous.
No. 1841325
>>1841324like honest to god i have not wanted to just throttle someone in a while. her
victim mentality is annoying. so ironic that the rudest people who want everyone else to toughen up are often the most sensitive
No. 1841383
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When I was a kid, my dad dropped me off at a supercuts for a quick trim and gave me extra $30 cash to tip the hairdresser + to buy myself lunch later. the final price was $15 but my nervous self gave them the $30 as a TIP and to this day I’m still pissed off that they gladly accepted it without correcting me.
No. 1841425
Sobbing rn after a call with my mom, so I'll vent. It's so stupid but I'm so confused on where my emotions are. I live far away and generally don't like calls, or texts or generally talking to her. She's sweet and nice and not even passive aggressive any more. I have massive resentment towards her for staying with my dad after he cheated, and is generally a misogynistic man. Not physically or even name calling abusive, but constantly belittling her and (what set my crying off actually) I have never seem him show respect to her, not once. Her ideas and comments are dismissed out of hand, even if they're obviously valid. As a daughter I think that's a horrifically damaging environment to grow up in. I feel like I can't blame my dad for being dad because he's just shit, but for my mom to be so codependent that she enabled that behaviour? Or maybe it's because she's a safe target to direct my anger onto. Like I feel like she's either stupid to stay and think that situation is fine, or she didn't care how it would affect her two children (male and female, my brother dismisses her out of hand too now).
Anyway, I made myself a compromise because I'm so confused about how I feel towards her. I visit the family twice a year and am nice, talk to her during meals as she goes on about dad, nod along, keep conversation surface level and hug her goodbye when it's time to go.
But since I came back to my apartment she's texted every day when it used to be once a week, once every two weeks. And today I see she's phoned me. So I phone her back asking what is it? She's just phoning to catch up. Catch up with what? I was very curt with her because I DIDN'T want to fucking talk and once I hung up, not responding to her saying I love you I completely broke down. Nonas, why do I hate her so much? It's not like a logical thing, I feel it in my body and when I'm talking to her i'm actvely repressing rage. Now i'm sure after that call she's hurting too, probably not understanding why I was rude. I'm not even sure why. Like I know vaguely, but the amount of rage and upset coming from my body isn't proportional and definitely not reasonable to her actions. I was also worried she'd make a habit of calling/texting again daily which was an issue when I initially moved, but I don't know how the frequency managed to drop.
I feel so fucked up to be sobbing after a disinterested phone call with my mom but I think it just means the issues run deep. It's annoying me that I can't point out exactly why and it makes me feel like an irrational, hateful mess that constantly rejects and pushes away a loving mother. I don't know how to move past this. I don't know how I ever can.
No. 1841443
My first and only exboyfriend and I broke up one year ago. It was my initiative and after that we had almost no contact, we only called each other a couple of times (I didn't want to) and sent some happy birthday wishes. The night after we broke up I had to take an 8h nocturnal bus home because I was in his side of the country. It felt so good to be single again. On New Year's Eve he dm and wished me to have a great year, I answered as brief as I could. Three days ago, his lovely mother dm too. She wished me a happy year as well and we chatted for a bit in whatsapp, she's been battling with depression for a while. I still really like her and she has always liked me back, so I didn't mind to interact with her. An hour ago, his son, my exbf, sent me a picture of a food package I used to buy him that he had kept, no text. I really just want to ignore him because I can't stand him at all. I thought he would be mad about me talking with his mother but giving him the cold shoulder but apparently he must have thought that my friendliness towards her is an invitation to get in touch again. How can he be so fucking desperate? It's so obvious that I have been avoiding him. My life is so much better without him. I am going to block him, I don't give a shit. I was so fucking paranoid that he was in fact the one talking to me through his mother's phone. I just feel uncomfortable looking at whatsapp and seeing a new message in his chat. I wished he'd leave me alone forever.
No. 1841477
>>1841458Ayrt, no problem and I hope things work out. Idk maybe I've done too much yoga/mindfulness lately, but life becomes simpler once you radically try to accept that you can only ever control your own actions (to a degree). When it comes to other people you can assert boundaries, so for example telling your mother you will be limiting physical/phone contact with her, but you can not change who she is or how she behaves. I think if you can truly accept that, then it leaves room to still love and cherish her positive qualities.
My situation with my own mom is different from yours, but let's say she can be a little overbearing and she has a drinking problem. No matter how many times I tell her she doesn't need to do this or that for me, she won't listen, it's just how she is. It's frustrating, but at the end of the day she's a grown adult with her own agency. She's also a product of her own upbringing and genetics, so I can sort of empathize with how she turned out this way. It's not within my power to fix her, but I can still have an ok relationship with her if I accept who she is, and I do have the power to make decisions about my own life. I'm not saying it's easy cause we're only humans, I still get frustrated with her sometimes, but it can be a solace. I've applied this thinking to my romantic relationships as well. In the past I had a bf I tried to change in so many ways, it was sad and frustrating for both of us and in the end it didn't allow me to fully appreciate his good qualities. In my current relationship I don't assume responsibility for my bfs actions but take accountability for my own and I think it's worked out great. I hope that makes some sense anon.
No. 1841499
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I wish I would go back in time or lose the unpleasant memories somehow and be delusional in a way. Sometimes I think I should've ended it all at 14 just because I was too retarded and mentally ill to do something about my condition and I even dropped out of college because of that, but I made so many good memories after the age of 20.
I see my peers travelling, getting married or in long term relationships, with high salaries or getting their masters and I'm stuck restarting college (and going great so far) and in a shitty job that I'm desperate to get out from and generally just feeling behind in life and in a race against time. Heck, I'm crying every morning for the past month just because I'm fed up with my workplace, I just want to destroy the alarm in the morning. I'm also ashamed to finish college at 26, I feel like I lost the race in life already. At least I'm perceived as younger than I actually am and my retardation can be excused somehow I guess.
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I wish all self posters a very shut the fuck up and a bad day. I’m so tired of newfags.
No. 1841519
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>>1841461I think bullying has changed to be more concentrated and less spread out now. From my observations of the late 90s to now, like half of people used to be lightly bullied in their youth at one point or another by just a couple people. Now it's like the whole school gangs up on one or two people, on and offline.
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No. 1841616
>>1841607horizontal*
the sick is making me retarded
No. 1841748
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>>1840432AYRT and you're right, I mean, not really but you might as well be, cause not like I have any options so I might as well suck it up I guess. I really don't think my attention problems have anything related to entertainment but whatever. I kinda feel like going full anti-meds cause the ones I take are doing jack shit now and I guess there are no attention meds for people who aren't ADHD even if it is fucking their life, so all this shit is useless to me. The only reason I don't quit my antidepressant right now is cause I don't wanna vomit and feel like I'm getting electrocutated in the head, I'd even entertain going through that if I didn't have a cold at the moment. I just hate that I have no excuse to be the NEET failure I am, according to the doctors I am normal, all I have are minor mood problems, not even big super distressing horrible problems, just minor shit. And that really makes me think that is just another reason why I shouldn't be taking the meds I am taking. Like, why am I wasting money on meds that don't work to solve something that is just a small problem? It makes no sense.
I guess I will just cope by embracing my medically verified normalcy. Like, yeah I literally have no social life, but I'm normal, so shut up, don't nag me. Yeah, I cannot sleep and I can't pay attention to what people say and I frankly just hate everyone, but I am normal so how can you criticize my normal behaviour, can you not recognize normal behaviour when you see it, weirdo? Still I do not have much hope that my studying habits will improve, which is horrible because I wanted to become a filthy bureaucrat, I really can't think of another half way decent career to attempt in this third world shithole.
No. 1841801
>>1841774>For your hair:Rosemary water (homemade preferably), rosemary oil on your hair washing day, high quality shampoo and conditioners, no heat, get a silk bonnet for sleeping.
>For your scalp:Regular deep scalp massages to stimulate blood flow (especially while inverted for maximum blood flow stimulation), address any underlying issues like eczema, dandruff, excess oil/sebum, etc. No hats, especially tight fitting hats.
>For your body:Address any deficiencies, I'm no doctor but just compare your diet to what a normal diet should be. Don't eat meat? Probably low iron. Don't eat dairy? Probably need more calcium. Don't go outside enough? Vitamin D. You get the idea
And absolutely see your doctor, but these are just some things you can do in the meantime. All natural, no harsh chemicals needed. Sorry you're struggling nona but hair thinning and hair loss at your age is so reversible I promise
No. 1841843
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>>1841801Thank you nonna for the reassurance. I'm only in my mid-20s but I started noticing increased hair shedding/thinning as early as 5 years ago but didn't do anything about it. I'm already taking topical minoxidil and rosemary oil (picrel) in the meantime. Am also taking iron and vitamin supplements. What kind of hairbrush and high quality shampoo/conditioners would you recommend? I do notice that most of my shedding comes from washing and brushing my hair, so there's probably something I can do to mitigate it even if it's to delay the hairloss in the meantime. There was once a time when I hated washing my hair because of how thick and unmanageable it was plus taking a long as fuck time to dry, and I now really miss those days. I really am hoping it's reversible.
No. 1841862
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men are so privileged even when they larp as women. no real woman that looks as grotesque as Alex Consani would ever be able to walk for any major fashion houses, yet here he is.
>inb4 modeling isn’t about beauty
most runway models aren’t ugly, they’re just unique. this isn’t a unique in the face model, it’s a hideous beast.
No. 1841867
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>>1841862Oh my god, look at his Neanderthal cavescrote forehead ridge, that shit is insane. His body makes it so obvious that he is a male, it's just insane
No. 1841886
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>>1841871>but there's no way a troon would be able to be model womens clothes without being an ana chan and literally having their skeleton on displayWell…
No. 1841888
>>1841871there’s plenty of strong faced german/russian runway models who could pull off the androgynous look. This is the one safe space where women with “masculine” features don’t get clowned on. I don’t want to see them get replaced by troons
>>1841877he’s so extremely unfunny, he thinks using aave and being a nuisance on public transport is quirky and funny. He would have been cancelled so long ago if he was actually a woman.
No. 1841907
>>1841843I assumed you were like 20-30s just because you're posting here, definitely way too early to be concerned about permanent hairloss. A doctor will need to determine the exact root cause but like I said, try not to worry about it being permanent too much yet.
I have really bad dandruff so I can't speak too much on hair products since I use nizoral shampoo and then various tea tree oil conditioners, but those personally work well for me. And hairbrush wise I swear by the Wet brush, I use the original name brand one and it's a night and day difference for how much hair comes out. And definitely make sure to use a bonnet when you sleep because that will help with tangling and breakage, so you'll need to brush less in the morning.
I completely feel you on the hair loss situation. I'm 25 and mine started a few years ago due to untreated anemia. It's gotten better but it'll take me a long time to get back to my days of crying over how thick and unmanageable my hair was. If we had only known how lucky we were.
No. 1841913
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>>1841886Is this a giant vein?
No. 1841996
I’m Palestinian and I have family in Gaza, but I do not live there anymore. I barely managed to make it out, but I got out in 2019. My mom, dad, sisters, grandparents, and cousins still live in the Gaza Strip. I’ve lost 70 pounds since the start of October due to stress, I check in with my sisters as often as possible, but wifi is spotty there and we can go days without contact. I see videos online from the strip, and I keep looking at the bodies, just hoping that it’s nobody I cared about. I can barely sleep because I have constant nightmares of learning that my family is dead, I can barely eat too. I’m watching the place I grew up become a warzone. I’m watching celebrities call civilians terrorists and say that they deserve it. My youngest sister is 2, and my oldest sister is 12. What did they do to deserve this? Why do they have to suffer for a man’s war?
I’m not gonna pretend like Gaza was a perfect utopia before the war, because it wasn’t. My family was Christian and us girls got dirty looks for not wearing hijab, and I was harassed a lot by Muslim men. Muslim men were the main thing that caused me to leave my home, because I couldn’t deal with these gross scum treating me like I’m some kind of object to be sexualized just because I don’t cover. I couldn’t care less if Hamas gets bombed. But they aren’t bombing Hamas. They’re bombing my family. They’re bombing little kids who aren’t even old enough to understand what’s happening.
Sorry if this is too heavy for lolcow, but I hate talking about this with people online, because they instantly say some retard shit about Islamophobia or whatever, I hate Islam too. I just don’t want my family to die.
No. 1842117
>>1842077Same. It's a
valid life
nonny No. 1842142
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Female. Autist. Loser. Outsider. The archtypal nonny if you will.
Like a bolt from the blue, something suspiciously good floated my way and then it was gone in an instant. Alone again and seemingly despised by someone who once seemed to love me. I'm an oldfag now so it feels like it's over for me and I'm just going to have to dine out on those memories of that 2021-2022 summer for the rest of my loser life.
No. 1842194
Why am I (at least a 7.5-8/10 woman in her 20’s) pissing, shitting, puking and crying waiting for a text back from a short, overweight, middle-aged man???????? Women can’t win can they? Either men can’t give us orgasms which is shitty, or they do give us amazing orgasms, but then we fall in love due to the oxytocin overload. Situationships are just terrible all around, I wish “no strings attached” sex wasn’t promoted as liberating or feminist lmao. Women are always the ones who get hurt in these situations, either from feelings, pregnancy, being exploited or taken advantage of, etc.
No. 1842229
>>1842218Lmao. I think it’s little of column a, a little of column b. I actually did start liking him, before we even had sex, and he said he liked me. He’s fun to talk to or hang out with, and I’m physically attracted to him as well. He’s short and a bit overweight but his face is decent and he has nice hair and I’ve always had a thing for short men for some reason.
But also I think its also me seeking some sort of validation, because I can’t even remember if I liked him before I realized he liked me. Once I realized he liked me I definitely became more interested. So I probably only even became interested in him because of his interest in me.. And now somehow I’m the one who seems more interested in him and fucking falling in love with him like a moron, despite the fact that he was the one who was into me first.
And then it’s probably also an ego thing, like I can’t let this guy fuck me a few times and talk to me all sweetly and then leave ME. If anybody is going to leave or lose interest first it should be me
And lastly it’s a me being mentally ill thing because I get so obsessed with people so quickly and am terrified of them leaving or hating me or their feelings changing or whatever.
Also he was really good in bed and a generous lover so there’s that
No. 1842239
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>>1842232I
got banned for calling him the ugliest Asian man ever, which admittedly I should’ve just called him ugly af and left it at that.I love Asian dudes. I try not to be weird about it, but I’m puzzled cause there are so many hot ones and how did they find that ugly sewer rat out of all the buff Asians that audition they cast him??? I hate Marvel for having Scarlett Johansson and Lupita and Pom Klementoff and Zoe Saldana and hot ass women in their movies be sexy and save the day but then we see ugly ass Alien Cumberbath, Tom Huddleston, Robert Downey Jr(not that ugly but unremarkable), that rapist Jonathan Mayers and plain ass white bread Paul Rudd and mark rufaflo and it’s like wtf a)get hotter dudes b) give them sweaty, bloody shirtless scenes where they’re chained up in a space bunker or something c) marvel movies are shit anyways, but Simu Liu needs to wear a bag on his head isn’t he creepy af too? Anyways I come to realize post tangent that all movies are like this ugly ass wrinkly man with hot young lady
No. 1842241
>>1842194Honestly I get this, nona. I laugh out loud about this now, but when I was 28, I literally cried over a short, 40-year-old, just-starting-to-show-signs-of-balding, jewish dude with a nasal voice (that I used to MAKE FUN OF!) Which also made me feel worse ("how dare he! He should feel
lucky to be with me!")
Part of my attraction to him was because he's a successful person in a difficult industry and I liked his work before we went on a date. I wasn't expecting to feel actual 'feelings' for this person after we slept together, and I realized that I liked him more than he liked me and I literally cried over it and felt retarded. Oxytocin is a hell of a thing, as much as I wish that attachment wouldn't happen so easily for women after sleeping with someone, I hate to admit it's true.
Don't beat yourself up nona, you'll feel bad for a while but one day you'll look back and kinda laugh. There are younger hotter men waiting!
No. 1842255
>>1842233I’m not even sure if he’s not reciprocating or if I’m just insane. He has said things like “I like you “ “I always think about what you’re doing” “You’re always on my mind” And some days we text all day and it’s great but then the next day he’ll suddenly seem more cold or distant and idk if it’s me or just him being old or being a man or something else going on or if I’m just reading into his messages too much. There’s also a language barrier as English is his second language and his language is my third. So sometimes I get googling the cultural implications of phrases he says and Google tells me it could be somebody just being polite or it’s more of a term used in business and it has me like wtf. This culture is known for being more indirect and vague and shit and I’m just begging for directness and honesty lol
Then Thursday something apparently happened in his private life which stressed him out so Friday night when I sent a message he never replied and then Saturday he said he was feeling down so he didn’t want to talk and just wanted to be alone for a day and now today he still hasn’t sent me a message all day so since Wednesday I haven’t really gotten any crumbs of attention so I’m kinda spiraling and idk if it’s ME or seriously just the other thing in his personal life making him down.
>>1842241Thank you so much for making me feel less alone
No. 1842260
>>1842248Yeah the shitty thing is I like him and enjoy talking to him and want to do shit like cuddle. I wish it was just some purely sexual thing so that would be less complicated.
I should just cut it off early but I don’t want to, and now it’s too late so one of us or both of us will get hurt. I shouldn’t have started to begin with tbh. It’s too late to save my feelings now. Either way I’ll miss him, if I cut him off or if he cuts me off. I need the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind memory eraser.
Also he’s super flaky which stresses me out too. When we do meet it’s amazing but I constantly ask to meet up and he always gives vague excuses for why he can’t and while they’re probably
valid.. I feel like if you really wanted to meet up wouldn’t you make time?? I’m not used to ME being the one basically begging somebody for sex. Usually it’s dudes begging me for it. But maybe my expectations are too high. I’ve never had this type of “relationship” before and idk how much texting or meeting up is normal. We both are pretty busy with work too. Maybe I’m too used to girlfriending and I’m expecting too much communication and meeting up
No. 1842265
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Ever since my ex moid pointed out that my glasses give my face a super distorted look (picrel, not mine) I have not been able to stop thinking about it since. It's such a small detail I would never have noticed until he pointed out. Now I can't stop thinking how much uglier it makes me. And contacts never work for me so I guess I'll just be ugly forever because of my fucked up vision.
No. 1842266
>>1842255>>1842260You've caught the feels so you probably are acting a little bit insane, it happens. It's a very emotionally exhaustive place to be in, but it tends to happen in new relationships no matter what you do. The age difference between the two of you makes me think you guys have a very different baseline of experience in terms of relationships, which can create a power discrepancy. Also him being frequently flaky, hot/cold is not a good sign. Even if there are no bad intentions behind it, it shows a disregard for your feelings. My bf is an introvert and sometimes needs some alone time to recharge, but he's great at communicating that and he makes me feel taken care of the rest of the time. We will still message each other throughout the day. Idk how long the two of you have been seeing each other, but if it's been more than a couple of weeks he should care more about you. This is supposed to be the honeymoon stage of the relationship. Maybe it's just a bad time for him, but that's as good a reason as any for things not to work out.
Honestly this
>something apparently happened in his private life which stressed him out>I constantly ask to meet up and he always gives vague excuses for why he can'tmakes me feel like he could even be one of those scummy double life cheater types. It's
sus and imo better to error on the side of caution and end things
No. 1842271
>>1842142wtf
nonnie, are you me or something? I came here exactly to vent again about the exact same thing, and ended up seeing your vent. i'm too being somehwat despised by the only person that loved me, so i truly think i can just know how you are feeling right now. hell, i came here to vent about sitting and crying in the shower while thinking about the good stuff that happened in 2022 as well.
As someone going through it as well, i can't really say when or how we are going to get over it, but i just want you to know that you aren't alone,
nonnie, we are just normal people doing our best to try to live our lives with dignity, even when so much shit get thrown at us. i hope from the bottom of my heart you will be able to move on too. people like us deserve to be happy and have a nice and fulfilling life too.
Stay safe,
nonnie.
No. 1842276
>>1842271Nonny I love you. Thank you for your words and I’m sorry you are going through the same thing too. I know logically it’s unrealistic that I will grieve for that love forever but it sure feels like I will. I figure at least we had those moments, even if the feelings soured unilaterally for reasons unknown. Reasons I don’t really want to know since I’m trying to cope in peace with thoughts that I was special to someone once. Anyway
nonny I hope you find some kind of peace too and something good floats your way again.
No. 1842304
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>>1842276Yes,
nonnie, those things always end up going away, but it truly feels like our hearts are being ripped off of our chests so i wanted to embrace your feelings. Try to not torture yourself too much about it now, let the bad sting to go away so you can start facing and coming to terms with what happened, be gentle to yourself. I know it's easier said than done, but let's do our best to heal. I'm 100% sure you were special to not only them, but to a lot more people as well and you will still be special to someone else in the future too.
I love you too,
nonny. I hope one day you will come around telling about nice things that have been happenning to you. And thank you too! I even teared up reading your reply kek
Sending you the tightest hug.
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>>1842304my nonna. (also tearing up and sending you a tight hug)
No. 1842346
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>get broken up with
>feel like there is no point in even going on because i'm tired of thinking ive found someone who might love me for who I am and getting comfortable trusting someone only to have the rug pulled from underneath me and be forced to realise i'm unlovable
>also feel embarrassed because am i seriously feeling pseudo-suicidal because a scrote doesn't like me
No. 1842388
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My whole family has become obsessed with my lack of dating life and it makes me want to SCREAM!!!!
No. 1842395
>>1842382Same, my boomer parents have smartphones but 9 out of 10 times don't know how to use it. They ask me stuff they're too lazy to google.
They're literally overgrown old toddler that don't know anything about modern technology and the internet expect tiktok and youtube shorts.
And they always come with the excuse "We didn't had computers/Internet back then".
Home Computers and the Internet are a thing since the late 90s / early 00s.
I start to really despise them.
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>>1842428>>1842383>>1842411Father time gets everybody eventually.
No. 1842506
>>1842499Fuck I hope not. I think he hates women too much to even pretend to want to be one.
>>1842501We talk about social issues. I think it's pretty normal.
No. 1842530
>>1841361kek she is definitely a stereotypical narc. i genuinely hate her.
>>1841368> Last time we got in an argument she told me I was just like every boyfriend she'd ever hadmy mom has said similar things to me; specifically “happy wife, happy life” wrt to our living situation and i distinctly remember complaining to her once as a child that she treated me more like a husband than a kid. shit’s so weird and annoying
No. 1842590
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>Watching video about the oversexualization of women in music
>"Omg guyz I can't wait to introduce today's sponsor!!!"
>Sponsor is a thong company
>Presenter is super animated about looking "sexy"
Mfw also is there a good faceapp alternative?
No. 1842715
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>>1842669>sperged out with unnecessary trivia about a game series for a couple of minutes before I abruptly caught myself.Thats not what autism is. You absolutely sound like a poser.
No. 1842738
>>1841344I'm sorry, I think I'll try again tomorrow. Even after talking to several people I still feel terrible. I will run in front of a train at around 1PM CET.
I have no tangible reason to keep living other than the belief life will get better and that things will turn out fine regardless of what I have and will continue to endure. I have been in a perpetual state of waiting since I was a child, and every problem I hoped would pass (or I thought I could solve) has only worsened the older I got.
I don't have time to write an elaborate breakdown of all the terrible things that happened to me throughout my life but there are a few things that come to mind.
The intense bullying I endured from ages 6 to 18. My eldest brother turning out to be a pedophile, and nobody in my family believing me even after he admitted what he did. My attempts to stop being lonely and befriend other people only left me sexually harassed, picked up on relentlessly (people would often take pictures of me and film me because they found it funny), abandoned and generally worse off than I was before. I can only rely on online friends but they're not a good enough substitute. As soon as I log off they don't exist anymore, and even without that, they have no incentive to be decent because everyone online is easily replaceable, and I know I'm not special.
I'm just a shock absorber for others. I have no community.
I have been told countless times I need to hold on to life but each time I did, something even more vile happened to me and I'm running out of patience. It's no use persisting in a life as pointless as mine. All of this suffering was in vain because it only left me even more vulnerable. I know that if I survive or don't go through with my plan, life will come up with another situation to break me.
There's nothing the suicide hotlines nor my family can do. They can recite all the platitudes they want and it won't change a thing. You don't heal a wound by talking.
No. 1842863
>>1842753Probably already posted this but I was on 2 trains last year (within weeks of each other) that had to stop because further up the line someone had done that with the train ahead of us. Same line, same time of day, same thing of it not being our train but the track being out for the day while we're on it in the middle of rural nowhere. Got home 6 hours late the first time and I was like at least I'm home and I'm not that persons family tonight.
Second time there was a whole live twitter debate while we were still stuck there because enough people had been on the previous train too. They were like once.. rip poor soul, twice.. fuck this shit. Followed by lots of 'be glad you're not dead' responses. They think the second person took inspiration from news coverage about the first and so they gave the second one even more news coverage..?
No. 1842892
>>1842885Maybe do it in the dumb ass shit or vent thread? I'll definitely join you,
nonnie.
No. 1842898
>>1842730Did you learn about autism from tiktok or something? Because you seem all socialization issues are the same for autists. It is a spectrum so it's different for everyone - especially highfunctional ones, and because I absolutely hated my diagnosis from the moment I got it I started observing how other people acted and learned through both that and my own social failures ("hm, when x does y they get z reaction, but if I also do y I don't get the same, curious"), on top of maturing as an adult as well. I still struggle with reading people or figure out if they are being serious or not sometimes, but I learned to respond with an awkward half-smile or chuckle when I don't know what to do but I will ruminate over it for hours, sometimes days even. I also struggle with fitting in with other coworkers, but again - I am masking well enough and picked up enough skills to do small talk and just let the other person do the hard work in talking about their life. But if I misread someone as being as into something I like I can absolutely sperg out in the speed of light and completely lose my composure until I realize that I can't tell if they're actually interested or just humoring me and shut up in fear of having "outed" myself. But I guess you'd have believed me if I'd been into something you'd find more acceptable instead of something that is widely popular, like deep sea creatures or knitting?
God I can't believe I have to do the same fucking arguing on an anon board that I have to do irl kek
No. 1842914
>>1842874I've sought help countless times. I've talked to therapists, psychiatrists, friends, family, anything under the sun and even had antidepressants and benzodiazepines prescribed. I took action and I've been proactive in changing my life but it seems it was all to no avail. I'm old enough to post here but I do realize my posts sound immature and impulsive. You're one of the few posters who responded with empathy and I'm grateful for that.
Those other replies (even though they were crude, but these people are not here to enable me and rightfully so) are making me reconsider my decision.
>>1842913I'm not male or a troll, I was serious when I first posted my messages but I'm snapping back into reality.
>>1842911I won't do it. Sorry for being insufferable.
No. 1842921
>>1842914Ntayrt but dw nona, I know how it feels to be in your position. I understand these comments but what people don’t understand is when you believe you won’t be here tomorrow, you don’t care about how your decision affects others, I mean you don’t even believe you’ll exist to witness it. It’s hard not to sound immature when you’re going through things like this.
I’m glad you’ve snapped back to reality a bit. I hope you can reconsider. Spend a week however you want to, doing what you enjoy doing in life. Then decide. Don’t be impulsive. Staring death in the eyes and then realising you want to live after all is probably something a lot of people who were successful went through.
No. 1842981
>>1842914ayrt. sorry I thought you might be a minor. I'm in a massively deep pit myself, and I've hurt everything that was good in my life because of how I have coped with horrible recent traumas (fwiw coping through withdrawing from everything & everyone, not addiction or lashing out). I wanted to say more but thought you might not be in the mood to hear it. I contemplate suicide a lot. But there are things in life to try still. There are options. Platitudes do not help, I agree. But concrete help might. Problem-solving, yes, but also like small things you can use to bring the tiniest amount of joy into your life. Anything to get you to the next day or week.
I also think that sometimes realizing that every fucking freak on this earth is imperfect and half-assing it most of the time helps a lot.
I had to care for my elderly dog as she was dying. Alone. For months she had dementia and I tried all the treatments. I ended up having to put her to sleep. Before the appointment I tried to savor every tiny shred of beauty we had together. I devoted my whole existence to taking care of her. After her death, I wish I had treasured even more every second she was calm & sweet. idk how to translate that to your situation, but there is something somewhere that needs to be protected and cherished in yourself. Do that. Sorry if that is kind of platitude-like.
No. 1843159
>>1843150>i don’t even want anything fancy just a home, food, and to be comfortablei dunno but definitely get an internship or two while you're in there. if last year taught me anything it's that bachelor's don't mean shit anymore lol
>>1843129he doesn't want her there, for some reason. at first it was "i live too far away" and then it became "well i'm just going to come and visit you" whenever she brings it up. i only know this because she also loves to vent dump all her shit onto me
No. 1843191
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Growing up is so depressing. I wish I could still have the mindset I had as a teenager, the only thing 'holding me back' was school and after graduation I would go to India to drive a van and uwu find myself. I forgot I even had that idea, I'm so caught up in my stupid job and achieving enough to not be an embarrassment. Sucks you have to be rich to be a proper hippie. This is all sounding so embarrassing but I just miss that feeling.
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God it’s too painful. I can’t believe it ended this way. The way love turned to hate, but it didn’t for me. I still love you.
No. 1843374
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>>1843352Sorry anon, it’s confusing and a shock. Sometimes feels humiliating. I’m trying to forget about the whole thing for now and maybe try and process at a later date when I’m not so emotional. I hope things heal for you.
No. 1843407
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I seriously regret helping my neighbor.
She's been smoking weed and drinking like a retard even though her kids have been taken away from her and kept out of her custody because of it, she blames everyone else and "muh trauma" and i finally got sick of hearing "why won't da evil gubberment give me my kids back, they want me to die blah blah" even though they've told her "just stop smoking and drinking for 2 weeks and you'll get them back."
I've been supporting her and helping her since late 2021, i've gone out on a limb to be there for her and i've sacrificed a lot of my time and energy.
two days before christmas, she fell and fucked up her knee and hit her head, her autistic 9 year old son came to my house to ask me for help, i went and tried to talk to her - she was completely incoherent even after i'd spent about 7 minutes trying to ask and assess what was wrong with her, she was face down on the bed and i couldn't see visible injuries.
At this point she's let me down enough i was skeptical at the time if she was injured and had just said she'd concussed herself to avoid being reported for being drunk, she's lied to me before.
I ask her "have you drank or smoked anything?" she said she's drunk, she also had valium and oxycodone in her system when she fell. I had to cut the conversation short because her two kids, 9 and 3 were speeding up the street on their scooters, i had to sprint 200 metres to the end of the street because he was talking to a random teenage boy. I had the kids for about 2 hours, gave them water, offered snacks, played with them until my neighbours mum, aunt and family friend showed up, the 9 year old apparently called them on her phone, grandmother asked me what'd happened, i told her everything i'd been told and seen.
and now according to my neighbour, it's partially my fault that her kids have been taken away again.of course she's blaming anyone but herself.
i've been extremely depressed because of it. not because of my neighbour, it's because the kids are innocent in all of this. i feel so bad for them and i've gotten very attached to them both.
i know that her house isn't a good environment but these kids are going to have issues from being torn back and forth between houses with mentally unstable caregivers, and i've been so sick thinking about it that i've barely been eating or sleeping.my room is a mess. i don't want to do anything.
I've had to put away the christmas gifts i got for them because it makes me sad to look at them.
They're good kids, they deserve better, i've spent so much time trying to support my neighbour to do better so she can be a good mum and the kids can have a stable home but i can't make that happen. They're such wonderful and sweet boys, i hate this situation so much. it infuriates me that she's going to ruin her kids lives because she won't stop smoking fucking weed or drinking entire bottles of vodka. i fucking hate drug addicts who refuse to get better.
No. 1843437
>>1843430Anon they are joking or being edgy.
You're chronically online enough to know about lolcow but not enough yo know when someone is being edgy.
No. 1843460
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My cat likes to beg for extra food all the time. I try not to overfeed her, and try to space out her food out throughout the day. My mom decided that I'm starving her and will always give her more food regardless. My mom then tells me I'm munchausen by proxy-ing my cat. I tell her that's not correct, explain what MBP is, and tell my mom she thinks I'm controlling. I detest when my mom "learns" a new word off her brain dead streamers because always without fail they do not use the word correctly. I also despise how my mom likes to act like I'm terrible to my cat because I'm not overfeeding her. I'm miffed and want to scream.
No. 1843462
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My annoyance is twofold:
>one
>living with mom cause 32 year old failure of adult relationships
>came back home to discover my mom has been in my bedroom once again
>because she disconnected my vibrator that was charging
>she will always be the same ol narcissist never allowing me boundaries, space, nor privacy
>and then she wonders why I am an abuser magnet when intrusive bullshit is so normalized for me
>two
>alone, sad, horny
>simps and sneaky fucks galore
>but I hate them and it actually damages my confidence that they are so disgusting
>and it hurts my heart that I seem to attract so many bad options
>latest date
>seems like a normal guy so I invite him to an event where he is pleasant enough company
>later in he reveals dumb kook ideas that are dealbreakers
>"I don't know that the earth isn't flat."
>"I would want to have a ceremony but not legal marriage because I don't trust the gov't and I don't want my partner to take me for half."
"I don't trust doctors."
>"I want kids but not yet."
>of course he wants a third date because I am so put together and beautiful and gee maybe he could touch my bases too
I could've at least picked up a cute guy at the event to fuck instead of wasting time with this. He talked up being a provider at the beginning which is why I agreed to a second date because he seemed to have his shit together. I'm disappointed and feel so juvenile. All my friends are moving on with marriages and kids and I am so happy for them yet so sad because I cannot pretend those aren't things I want too. Here I am legally fending off the last bloodsucker I almost married and have nothing but heartache and debt to show for it.
I wish I were dead lately. No amount of distractions or volunteerism nor kindness is helping me forget what people do to me and WILL do to me if I don't have the strength anymore to fight them. I'm scared nonnas, most days I want to die cause I don't want to deal with people and their shit anymore.
No. 1843497
>>1843430Personally I'm being serious. I have watched the sons of my mom's acquaintances and other family members turn out so incredibly horrible while the daughters are normal, I'd never want a male. It's the same thing with me and my brother, despite the fact we were raised identically with lots of love and care. The huge emotional life-long pain these sons cause on their mothers is excruciating just to witness. My brother is the biggest problem in our family's life and he will be an insufferable, cruel leech on my poor parents until the day they die. My mom's best friend's son is so irresponsible that he's always in the hospital at the verge of death, putting his family in debt, for something he did that people told him not to, imagine the pain this causes his mother and the whole family. His sister is normal and thriving.
My mom is the most wonderful human being, and her brother is such an evil bastard that he would be
elder abusing my grandparents if my mom did not step in to keep him away.
It's not a joke and not a meme, having a son can fuck up not just your life but the lives of everyone around you.
Additionally, the best-case scenario is that he comes out "normal" and even normal men are porn-watching, misogynistic weirdos with little to no empathy for women past a surface-level mask to get what they want.
No. 1843521
>>1843513That's another thing. If your son is born or becomes mentally disabled he turns into an actual threat when he completes puberty. The strength of an adult, the sexual urges of an adult male, and no reasoning to tell them not to assault people. When they get mad, they can beat and kill their caretakers or parents.
On the flipside, if you have a girl with the same thing, the most you'll have to deal with is tantrums that can be controlled by men or larger women, and maybe some awkward humping issues. Not the same risk even with the same condition, it's nuts.
>t. mother cared for developmentally disabled adults No. 1843728
>>1843723Wow, I didn't expect to get a response to my vent but thank you so much for your kindness
nonnie. I've been crying for hours unable to do my work and it's causing me even more anxiety with the tasks piling up and I have an important meeting coming up in a few hours so I was desperate and had to vent it out. I'm really thankful for your reply and I mean it.
No. 1843737
>>1843728I'm very sorry to hear how much pain you're in,
nonnie. If venting helps let the pressure out, please use the vent thread as much as you want instead of hurting yourself. But I definitely think you can overcome your challenges even if they seem daunting and I'm sure they are. I don't know if you've experienced this, but in my life of dealing with anxiety I have 99% of the time found that my response to stressors was higher than it needed to be, and even though the process wasn't pleasant I always overcame. So you can, too! It may not be perfect, and there may be some consequences, but you WILL get through and it won't be as bad as your worst-case scenario. I sincerely wish for you to succeed and get through this, and I'll be sending good vibes into the universe in the meantime while you get through your meeting. IDK if it matters much, but you have someone rooting for you! I'll be cheering you on!
No. 1843746
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Hopefully I won't cry during the dentist from being so touch starved, I'm sorry to the women cleaning my teeth that have to deal with my pathetic ass.
No. 1843779
>>1843746dw
nonny dental hygienists have seen it all. they'll probably just be glad you're not afraid of them. sending you lots of love and support lovely nonna, you got this!
No. 1843913
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>>1843908>Learn to drawNo. My little stories are how I relax. I don't want to take on a frustrating and time consuming hobby just because men hate women and this fact permeates in every facet of our existence.
No. 1843923
>>1843860Is there any reason to not build a relationship with your brother's wife? If she invited you too, then it's my theory-if your mother is a narcissist like mine-that your absence would be spun around by your mother as if it were you who never enjoyed the celebrations and holidays and hence why you would not be there but she would be.
You should show up just to make subtle digs at your mom. Like if your mother seems impressed by something you should chime "I know, isn't brother's wife amazing to have put this all together for us? We never celebrated like this when we grew up and it's mom's FIRST TIME and she is so happy!"
You'll sound empathetic while your mom seethes at you revealing she didn't do shit, or watch her have a narc breakdown trying to recall all the times she actually did something celebratory adjacent for you kek.
But don't not go. It'll give her a chance to triangulate them against you. Don't think bro's wife is entirely in your corner if she knows about the shit your mom did yet still chooses to invite her..
No. 1843945
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Im tired of these narratives because they all feel like backhanded ways of shaming women still. They also assume that getting picked by a man is a compliment when the majority of the time it’s not.
No. 1843955
>>1843934>Women are just as damaging to actual real women as much as males dodoubt.jpg
>>1843948Also no. I don't owe you money and if you don't like people venting don't come to the vent thread.
No. 1843962
>>1843923>Is there any reason to not build a relationship with your brother's wife?I want to stay away from my whole family and am distancing myself from everyone slowly. She's actually one of the few people I like and the rest are people I tried to connect with but their personalities put me off. Not to sound like a moralfag but all they do is gossip about other people and I realized they also gossip about me and the other side of my family only complains and overall their negativity really tired me out and I don't feel like keeping appearances just to get my energy sucked out whenever I try to hang out with them anymore. I know that if I have a relationship with her or my bro I will have to talk to my family especially my parents in the future where I'm planning to cut off contact.
>subtle digs at your momI did this for a while, not exactly digs but I said straight that we never celebrate anything. So she knows already, I feel like going just to do that for people I'm also cutting contact with will be useless.
>still chooses to invite herI don't even hold it against her because I'm from a culture that puts parents above everything and caring for your child emotionally is not ever talked about. If you're lucky with the parent bingo you get it but boohoo if you're not lucky. On the same vein she has to act nice to her husband's parents no matter what or she'll get shunned. Thank you for your reply nonna, I would be convinced to go if there was anything to gain from it.
>>1843881Yeap I'm not going. Thanks for your reply too nonna.
No. 1845229
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I really hate going outside due to how ugly most places are(in the U.S. at least). It’s really hard to enjoy going outside when most of it is loud highways, Walmarts, parking lots and litter. It also always smells like gasoline, trash and cigarettes when i go out. I’d stop being hiki if everywhere looked more like this: