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No. 2460876
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2449812Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2460883
>>2460784>>2460735Panick attack nonna
Go to the doctor to start benzos, to take only during panick attacks ; and maybe therapy
You really can't leave your job because you have panick attacks, because it's participating to the cycle. You need to have your body learn how to handle stress better. If you just isolate yourself in your own little bubble, it'll only get worse and soon you'll be panicking over literally nothing and be completely dysfunctional (I've seen it happen)
No. 2460892
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Just looked at a calendar to schedule when I will need to work and get everything done by for my classes and I may as well kms. I fucking hate that I agreed to this bullshit project in January, it’s not even going to be good and just a huge waste of time. And all the projects I actually want to work on will suffer because of it. God fucking dammit.
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I wish every smartphone would explode. They ruined the world
No. 2460912
>>2460904It is yeah, they usually only bring it up when you’re arguing with them kek
>>2460907I mean it’s a big part of lolcow? Also applies to G and M.
Also I don’t go on snow or pt a lot but the threshold for what milk is seems unreasonably high, although that’s probably a good thing, just like it’s a good thing that nobody is allowed to blogpost in those threads or we would end up like kiwi farms.
No. 2460924
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I don't know whats wrong with me but I fucking hate my uni friend. She barely even goes to class and always expects me to spoonfeed her information that she will never bother to ask the profs herself, and when she does come, I get so bored talking to her I try to zone out while she's having one of her 100 tangents. It wouldn't be even half as bad if she pulled her weight and didn't fuck up every single assignment we do together. She's not a bad person, just really fucking irresponsible and not suitable for me, but I feel like im stuck with her. Literally I find every single aspect of her personality bland and boring. She's starting to irrationally irritate me and I dont know how this is going to end. I'm scared I'm going to blow up in her face if i dont learn to draw boundaries.
And she takes forever to respond to texts when i ask her about important shit. Cherry on top.
No. 2460943
>>2459983Dad sounds like a control freak who would push for full custody if you give him the slightest reason to doubt your competency as a mother. Give him that and drop the kid and start over. You don't have to spend 20 years in prison for a choice you were groomed into as a child. Child support payments would be preferable to having to interact with a man who shit talks you every time you have to meet him and ruins your self esteem. Plus the kid feels the same way so let the moid machine have him. This will sting, but the woman your ex winds up settling with may have better self esteem and he might respect her more, which would be a better situation for your kid anyways. It can't get much worse than being juggled between two parents, one of whom despises the other.
>>2460047It's a nice idea but probably not right for her. She's got the right idea to branch out into ASMR. I fucking love ASMR when I'm in the mood, calms me down so much. The competition is high but the demand is there too.
>>2460180It is absolutely a midas touch thing and you are correct, the baking gods hate you. If your baking karma was good you could wing recipes, ingredient swap, and make layer cakes and eclairs on the first try.
>will they read this. welp No. 2461041
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I'm so deep deep in phone addiction. The only thing that can persistently distract me is work. I don't even post on or use any major social platforms, it's all boards, blogs, ytube and maybe reddit. I think I really made it worse by getting a hacked addless youtube that lets you watch shit nonstop or have it play in the background + having phone as my only gadget for years after my laptop died.
When I'm home and don't have anything urgent to do, it takes a frankly stupid amount of willpower to drop my idiotbox and do something else. I only have a couple of friends to spend time with but we are all 25 and over and have jobs. I need to find some active hobby or became a volunteer at an animal shelter or something because I don't have an incentive to drop the screen otherwise. Summer getting closer is also good, last year I would go on a long hikes with only a podcast on and most of my phone functionality blocked with one of those anti-distraction apps.
No. 2461313
I'm a terrible person and I'm jealous of all the good, hardworking people who try their best every day. I don't understand why am I like this, I noticed this problem from a young age. When I was in school I had very good grades however I was only doing the bare minimum, just doing my homework and studying like one hour the day before the test. Then I noticed that some other kids were the actual top performers, winning all sorts of competitions and achievements, and I remember being jealous as fuck because how can they actually be so hardworking and put so much effort in studying? Whenever I heard how many hours some of these kids were studying and how focused and motivated they were I was shocked cause I knew I could never have the patience and inner drive to do that. In a fucked up way I was super proud of myself for not having to study as much and still being able to ace all the tests, but deep down I was seething because I couldn't be hardworking and it's gonna bite me in the ass eventually. I knew that I was lazy, and the cracks appeared more and more as I got older. As expected, in the end I just turned into an unmotivated depressed adult who maybe had potential a long time ago, but now it's too late to fix all the bad habits I gained from years of procrastinating and lazing around. Now I even lost the ability to study properly and I feel dumbed down, as if my brain has rotten. I can't even last more than a month at a basic job. Meanwhile all those hardworking kids are now in med school, or they're studying computer science, while working part time.
No. 2461454
>>2461043i'm not, but i did have some changes when i first started taking my meds some 2 years ago so i get where you're coming from. and i fully get the built up blood feeling, it's so nasty and frustrating, like why can't you just come out???
>>2461104>>2461317i'm currently in the search for a new gyno, and i probably do need my hormones checked since both me and my mom suspect that i have some (likely mild) hormonal imbalance. in my case, i don't think it's endo or pcos (good luck to you, potential endo nona! i've heard doctors are shit about diagnosing it), it may be pmdd but my symptoms are pretty inconsistent from month to month which confuses me. my cycle has been punctual to a t for the past year or two, but i did have a period
(kek) where my cycle randomly went from ~26 days to 30-33 days and it fucked me up beyond belief (that was a few months after i started taking my meds, so likely cause?). this is just the first time it's been late in so long and i really don't wanna go back to that old long cycle because the stress of it almost broke me. thank you for your advice nonnas ♥
No. 2461507
>>2461369cream steeroids?
if youve been taking corticosteroids as pills then yeah you'll get a flare up when getting off, but creams aren't supposed to do that
also youre supposed to have a very heavy moisturizer on the side that you keep up all the time even when not using corticosteroids
No. 2461509
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It just feels like nothing good happens. It feels like those who are evil get away with everything, and those who are good suffer endlessly. It feels like people's hatred for evil is entirely performative and they'll always go and support those who are evil if they are their friends, family, lovers etc. I wish something, anything really, could finally happen to those who are evil. It's so easy for them to ruin our lives but so hard for us to do something about it. Everyone who's ever hurt me gets to go on with no issue but I'll be stuck suffering their consequences, it's really not fair.
No. 2461558
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>>2461509I know that feel. The world is unfair and bullies, psychopaths and narcissists win. The only thing good people can do is stay true to themselves, and keep doing good things not because they will result in a reward but because it's what they believe in. The only way solution would be to become evil yourself but if that goes against your core beliefs it's incredibly hard to change.
No. 2461600
>>2461358I’m so sorry to hear this
nonny. Please try to be gentle to yourself during grieving.
No. 2461637
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Look anon, my impression of your fat cat! Dieting is no fuuuuun, I wanna snack on something, but the stuff that is most fun to eat has most calories, I'm not just dieting, I'm also dieing, waahwahwah. Just, this isn't only an impression of a fat cat, it's my actual life right now, too, waahwahwah.
No. 2461667
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>Think "damn, I look cute today"
>Admire self in mirror like a narc
>Nice
>Take a selfie
>Look at the picture
>EVIL CRYPTID SEWER CREATURE STARES BACK
The unbreakable curse.
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>>2461693Thanks kind
nonnie No. 2461862
>have horrible headache that wont go away, due to toxic scrote roommate, and messed up sleep
>go to kitchen
>toxic scrote starts directly following me on the way
>shows me some unnecessary object (not food) that he bought that contradicts my worldview/ethical views, expecting me to fawn over it and praise him
>I gave a polite response, question if it is from animals or not, he confirms it is, I say, "oh.." and turn around
>pickme roommate says "Its (meaning my apparent negative response) because its from animal products"
>he then walks out
>pickme gets distant with me, ditches me, walks into other room and says the thing he bought looks nice
>he will probably act sad/hurt, and make me out to be mean, and we cant have that! even though he never wished me a happy birthday and he has anger issues, holds grudges for years
>now Im anticipating further ostracization for not kissing his butt while having a painful headache
No. 2461884
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Saw an African music video and all the hot girls surrounding the male singer were chubby. They had natural healthy bodies on the chubby side, it was actually so cute but damn does it hurt that that's seen as a niche weird thing here where skinny is the ideal. That's what it should be like, men should appreciate normal women and healthy and happy should be the ideal but it isn't.
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Tired and my muscles are sore but I still have work to do
No. 2461992
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>>2461980Wide angular people look better in selfies bc lens perspective and distortion. The closer something is, the softer and rounder it appears
No. 2462057
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I fucking hate myself for letting this feeling hit me once again.
Can’t sleep and my stomach hurts for some reason, but I’m feeling the “life is a race and I’m losing” thing even though I shouldn’t. For the record, I’m a second worlder, so maybe that’s why I feel like this. I kinda dread turning 26 in a month because I feel like I can’t get away with a lot of shit at this point and I feel inadequate because I didn’t check most things everyone has by this age (ridiculous I know). On the other hand, I find it neat because I never thought I’ll make it to 15, kek.
I hate that I lived and still live by others’ rules, I did things I hated most of this life and putting my dreams aside, hoping that after uni I will chase them but now I realize that it will be more impossible with each passing day. No one wants someone who wants to do acting and art related stuff after 25.
Can’t even find my place tbh, maybe the graveyard is my place after all, but I don’t want my parents to live their worst nightmare - burying their only child.
This summer I’m graduating uni and I hope I’ll live this bumfuck place asap, maybe that will change my view. And I find it ridiculous to feel that way since I have a baby face still and can get mistaken for someone in highschool still, so I can get away somehow, but seeing people my age and younger living their dreams while I’m stuck makes me wanna kms since it’s gonna be downhill from now on I fear.
Fuck, I should get a therapist kek.
Although, I should remember and be grateful that I achieved 2 things by now: a better relationship with my parents and my last suicide attempt was almost 7 years ago, maybe that’s something.
No. 2462094
>>2460488>>2459553 anon from last thread here. Nothing wrong with carefully weighing your options and their potential effectiveness vs. cost, both monetary and to quality of life. It's very easy to tell someone to do all the treatments available no matter what the cost when they're not the one paying for them and suffering the side effects. It's perfectly acceptable to say you're not willing to go through so much hassle for so little gain. Hair loss kind of puts us in an unwinnable position in that no matter what we do with it, someone who hasn't been through it always has a weirdly strong opinion on it.
And kek, I know exactly what you mean with thick-haired people looking us straight in the eye and complaining about how oh-so-awful it is to have thick hair. No doubt it can be a lot of work to care for and I bet it's very hot in the summer but… come on, now. Possibilities for thinning out thick hair and still have it look decent are near endless, but I'd love to see one of them try to work the kind of black magic we have to do to make our hair look even close to average thickness. They can get back to me once they've had to fill out their hairline and part with eyebrow pencil for a few years, lmao.
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>>2462197This is what all women who have peaked started out doing, but in naive loving way. I hope we are able to discuss troons less bc they are unable to infringe on women, their rights or spaces more than they already have, or that regresses due to social/peer pressure. Then everyone wins, most of all the troons
No. 2462201
>>2462173>>2462197I agree, I kind of reached “peak
terf”, not in the sense I no longer agree with them, I just don’t think it’s really as big of a problem as they make it out to be, and I see a lot of so called feminists starting to lean right because they’re so entrenched in the anti tranny stuff, and they even start to distrust anyone at all who’s gender non conforming or even gay.
No. 2462209
>>2461058>now I have stuff that I don't like nor use but I feel too guilty to refuse these "gifts" and I'm also moving out and don't need more stuffHonestly, you can trash the items if you don't
like or need them. If she didn't take the care to think about your interests and needs in gifting you something, you shouldn't be obligated to feel sentimental about keeping your friend's drawer trash.
No. 2462253
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I want a bf so badly. My life is so shallow. I just want to hug a cute guy while we watch a movie, or show him my shitty art while he praises me. I just want to have one good thing in my life, one thing that inspires me to wake up and try my best every morning. If i cant be a happy neet i want to at least be a happy normalfag. I am putting so much effort into things i dont give a fuck and i get absolutely nothing out of it. My life is so miserable right now. I get no time to focus on my hobbies anymore, my only friend got a job so we cant chat anymore, i spent most of my day rotting away doing something i hate, i have no future, i have no one that loves me. Just put me down already, my life is miserable
No. 2462323
>>2462201Original nonna here, they are a big problem nonna and thinking that they’re just “oh poor 1%” is stupid because laws are currently passed for them , laws that put women at risk. It just feels bleak to always hear tranny shit, that’s why I’m disengaging with it mainly because I’m not a burger/canadian/brit nonna, trannyism isn’t super strong here (although they do surgeries too kek, I watched one since I did an internship) , not because they aren’t a real problem.
I’ll still support feminism obviously, just like I did before, but I’ll put my energy on focusing even more on other topics, my local city has a shelter and help center for domestic abuse
victims, I think I’ll go there to volunteer or participate in seminars.
Don’t confuse my words thanks.
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I need to go to the doctor again but like half of the doctors I've been to are fucking retarded and don't know what they're doing. Sometimes I can't sleep all for days at a time, no I'n not on drugs/take stimulants, I just know they're going to prescribe me a megadose of some SSRI 1. I've already tried 2. Isn't proven to help with insomnia and 3. and say it's not a thing when I say that every antidepressant I've taken makes my jaw start moving uncontrollably. I swear to god if they try to push picrel on me I'm going to lose it. Once I didn't sleep at all for 3 days and they told me to sleep with socks and said I wasn't trying to sleep and was on my phone. I genuinely could have gotten a better remedy for my ailment from a witch doctor or a shaman.
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>>2462362Same. It actually stresses me out. I was in homeschooling co-ops and my peers were all so behind, particularly in math. It's a thing among homeschooling parents to refuse to teach their child anything beyond basic artihmetric. And those were the products of parents who actually put in enough effort put them in a co-op.
The "data" claiming homeschoolers outperform regular students is NOT true. It's not controlled for the sampled population. And in my experience, a smaller % of homeschoolers even attempted higher education and taking standardized tests compared to the local public schools.
There's essentially no regulation where I live to differentiate from someone giving their child a classical education perhaps with a tutor, those who just shove low quality Abeka booklets at their kids, and those who register their neglected kid as homeschooled just to avoid truancy and hide abuse. They actually want even less regulation.
Speaking of which, why the fuck is picrel cult still allowed in America? I know why, but wtf.
No. 2462418
>>2462409Technically you have to have the equivalent of an education degree in qualifications to homeschool but any ol' parent can claim that and then teach their children jack shit. The new trad homeschooling psyop is just a breeding ground for child abuse. The shit constantly parroted by homeschool shillers?
>The outside world is BAD>Education is WOKE and EVIL>Keep your kids always at home where it's SAFE Statistically, who's more likely to abuse the child? There is friendship and kindness in the world and not everyone is out to be your enemy. Homeschoolfags are two steps away from paranoid schizophrenia
No. 2462423
>>2460876I'm 20 years old, a student and trapped home with my parents and siblings. They forbid me from work or saving up my own money. I am financially dependant on them. They monitor my location 24/7 despite the fact we live in a walled off house in the middle of nowhere. I hate my life. My dad has spent the past few years being verbally and borderline physically
abusive to me. It started when I, having undiagnosed ADHD, struggled with university applications at 16. Instead of seeing that I was struggling with studies, my dad would bully and shame me. He would sit at the table with the family and bark out vaguely academic questions before turning to the family and insist that they join in and 'call me out for sounding like an idiot' when I tried to answer. Every single mealtime, for months. When I continued to struggle, he would yell at me demanding to know why I was lazy and 'deliberately choosing to fail' only for me to cry in frustration (not knowing that ADHD was the issue) and him beating me for crying. Eventually, I scraped by and got into the 3rd best uni in the country. My parents then proceeded to spend the past four years of my life torturing me over it. In their own words, they would 'remind me of it every day until I die' with the flimsy justification that I should 'learn from my mistakes.' As a result and having been pressured to isolate myself from any potential friends by my parents, I have hated every waking second of my current uni experience. Then, after 4 years, I finally got into the uni my parents wanted. For 4 years, they promised me the abuse would stop. That they would finally 'forgive me' for 'abusing them' by failing their expectations. Nonas, I'm sitting here in tears. Nothing has changed. They were happy for a week, then immediately started gaslighting me about everything that has happened: my dad pinning me to my bed in a chokehold while my mum filmed and threated to call the police on me, my mum standing at my
sister's graduation from The Uni and proclaiming how disappointing she was that it wasn't my own, locking me outside in the woods overnight, chipping at my self esteem and worth day after day, mocking my speech with 'retard' voices, etc. I brought it up once. Once. Yesterday, with the feeble hope that they might just apologise. Nope. My dad sat there and screamed at me, saying how dare I suggest they did any of that and how insulting it was to imply he was a liar. He kicked me out the housenow . His ultimatum to come home is to grovel at his and my mum's feet, knowing full well I have 0 options with no savings, no friends, no nothing. Otherwise he will take it that I'm 'choosing to leave the house of my own accord', no doubt so he can scold me for it later as if it was my own immature decison to leave. I've played this game before. I always give in. But I'm at my fucking limit now. I can't go back. I just can't. The way he spoke this time sent shivers down my spine, threatening that my younger brother would soon grow 'bigger and stronger and finally show me my place'(what the actual fuck?). I don't know what I'm doing in that house anymore except to play the role of punching bag. These people always make casually violent statements like that and then follow it up with 'don't you dare warp what we say, we still love you.' How is that love? How is any of this okay? I'm not ready to go back and let myself get gaslit for months on end again, not when freedom is this close. But to get a good job, I need to push through these last few months and gradute. I don't know what to do. For now, I'm just sleeping on campus and hoping for the best.
No. 2462441
>>2462431>30 year old hagOxymoron. That redpill shit is messing with your sense of reality nonna. Mid 30s is when women are in the prime of our lives and are usually at our healthiest. Men hate it and demonize women our age because we've existed just long enough to get wise to their bullshit and they know that they can't use the same tricks on us that they can with a naive girl fresh out of high school. They're frightened of based adult women because we know what we want and lack patience for their immature fuckboy games.
>I don’t deserve to exist unless I can have children otherwise I’m just a worthless dumb womanNo offense nonna, but please don't have kids until you've fixed this attitude. Do you really want your daughter to turn thirty and feel the way you do now? She deserves a mom who loves herself and lives her life to the fullest. More importantly, you deserve to be that woman who loves herself and lives her life to the fullest. Fuck redpill. It's intended to be a salve for subpar moids; it's literally not meant for you and you can do better.
No. 2462469
>>2462467I am literally sat behind this retard who smells like fucking sweat, old sweat, as if he’s been wearing the same sweater for a week back to back.
I also used to sweat a lot and smell too , but I changed my clothes or at least my undershirt everyday.
I hate smelly people that have no reason to smell, you have enough money to come into university and have an iPhone, clean yourself.
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>>2462469Of fucking course he’s drinking a monster drink, of fucking course.
No. 2462486
>>2461998>I'm all for the fact that radical feminism gets us to ask tough questionsYou don't sound like a farmer. You don't belong here.
No way the mossad agent found this thread. Obviously they're not talking about the amerifags thread you dumb fag what they're talking about happens all the time
No. 2462497
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i wish nonnies here would stop talking to moids on pedocord in the hopes of having a boyfriend or having the illusion of love and attention. bitches deserve better but they make the trap for themselves.
No. 2462498
>>2461998What
>>2462486 said. If u were an actual farmer u would know that lots of anons here aren't even anmerican and the behaviour I'm talking about happens on every board.
No. 2462514
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Why do they keep pushing back the VPN poll? Kek. I’m going to lowkey miss this website when the vpn ban comes, even though I hate most of the people here I’m truly clouded by nostalgia and the great pandemic years of shitposting, shit was so good it was never going to last. I’m gonna miss the nonnies who actually gave a shit to respond to me, I’m going to miss the nonnies who are aggro, I’m going to miss the nonnies who like to post animal pics during infights in attempts to cool it down, I’m going to miss /m/ and the cartoon spergs in /snow/, I’m even going to miss the horny degenerates in /g/ which I can admit can be extremely funny when you get past their creepiness, I’m going to even miss the personalityfags. I’m going to miss the bait, the infights, the user-created memes hall is the blond one, the corpse husband FBI tracking done by home based spergs figuring out what he truly looks like along with dream, the creepshow art stuff. I’m going to miss it. I miss the old lolye, straight from the ‘go lolye.. goodbye, even to the anons who I truly hated will all of my heart to the ones you could tell who were not entirely narcissistic pieces of shit.
No. 2462524
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friend of mine blocked me because i told her to stop insulting me to open the convo, she thinks she's a chav or a low-lifer and tries really hard to imitate their moids, despite growing up with her and knowing she's middle class. told her she will never be a chav and must be thankful for it, and now i'm blocked. but she always forgive her moid friends, even if they say her music is trash. i fucking hate being a woman.
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>>2462524I hate middle-class retards who pretend to be chavs. They're insufferable and classist.
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>>2462524>>2462532The fact someone out there
wants to be a chav/roadman is actually scary.
No. 2462562
>>2462557idk. it makes me kek but angry to know that she's always playing the same rude and harsh persona as chav/low lifer moids, but whenever i told her something like i just did, she probably seethes and cries like a baby, trying hard to not
trigger another identity crisis. they're always harder with their female friends too, i will never get this, most chav women know trying to be like moids to "earn" their respect doesn't go anywhere.
No. 2462570
I can't anymore, my mother has mentally abused me twice now, first because I took her medicine because I thought mine had finished and second time to respect her bottle of water and drink from another source, I had both mental breakdowns were I was crying and even injured myself by accident, I got insomnia too I cannot sleep.
She says she cannot handle a dumb bitch who acts like she is in a soap opera so that's why when she says something that hurts I cry in silence and don't respond, if she asks me if I am a dumb bitch worth nothing I tell her that yes I am.
She says she can't handle a retarded cunt anymore that I should leave the house and fend for myself because she can't handle me anymore being such a histrionic bitch with bpd I do everything to make her not mad, I don't make noises, I don't walk since it bothers her, I don't talk on the phone with other people since it bothers her, I don't take selfies anymore since she assumes I'm being a slut, I have dated only one person ghosted him after she told the whole family I was an easy prostitute. I do everything to appease her. How canI get rid of Histrionic Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder? I want her to be happy with me, none of my psychiatrics have diagnosed me with these things but she has been diagnosed with bpd and even being prone to murder but she says they are all lying on her.
How can I make her happy and get rid of these disorders I hate having them so much.
No. 2462581
>>2462570I have some news for you nonna and you're not going to like it but you do need to hear it, this is coming from someone who also has a very bad relationship with their mother.
Nothing you can do will please this woman. You could be on medication and work 60h a week and never date and be a perfect meek little mouse of a girl and she would still find a reason to pick at you. She picks at you because she hates herself and she hates you as an extension.
The only thing you can do is work on your health, get some form of money or income that will let you move out and live on your own/with a friend or another relative etc, and live your own life. You deserve to be happy and feel normal without living in fear of what your mentally unstable mother thinks of you. You are not a bad person and deserve to have good things.
No. 2462637
>>2462062> you just need to put yourself in a position for it to happen.Yeah shut up. People like you are so annoying with your fake positivity, someone would say “I’m so alone despite the fact that I’ve tried dating and it has always ended badly. It’s really hard to trust someone” and retards like you will come with your shitty advice
>you just have to put yourself out there!>it will come when you least expect it!When dating is just a matter of luck, that’s all. And I’ll add another fuck you since I’m particularly irritated.
No. 2462651
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>>2462645My heart pains for you nonna, hope your sweet boy is doing well in cat paradise. Take your time and let yourself be sad, the passing of a beloved pet always hurts. Even though this pain won't simply disappear, I'm praying for many good things to happen to you so your total happiness can be more than your sadness.
No. 2462658
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Cured my kidney infection, period is over, yet feeling the brain fog and fatigue again despite taking it easy lately. Thought I'd be able to jump back into productivity and exercise but I just feel like doing the bare minimum. I feel head sleepy but not body sleepy, and I have some priorities I'd like to complete. All I can think is maybe some sleep debt or low iron/vit d. It doesn't feel fair. How can people eat like shit and sleep so little and still function? I'm only in my 20's yet feel my body just gets more and more sensitive with age. Not as sharp, not as energetic, not as able to get a great deal of things done in a day. Used to be so inspired, have so many projects, write so beautifully! I just simply do not get it. My life is healthier now. I wonder if it is the mood stabilizer I am on, maybe having long term effects, but the dose is INCREDIBLY tiny. I feel like I am in purgatory.
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>>2462657KEK hear that nonas?
No. 2462668
>>2462645I’m sorry
nonnie. 19 years is such a good long life for a cat and I’m sure he loved you and his life with you. Be good to yourself these next few weeks/months.
No. 2462686
>>2462630Two years older than me, I was his second girlfriend so no. It didn’t work out in the end but all things considered I am thankful I had the experience.
>>2462637Kek it’s not fake positivity when you believe it anon. Being bitter towards others isn’t going to help you any more than just not trying at all.
No. 2462708
>>2462686I’m fed up with retards like you who come and think that you are somehow a pot of wisdom for having been with a decent Nigel or being with one currently. Dating is luck, that’s it. You are just an asshole when you go on and say
>uhh maybe you haven’t tried enough, put yourself out there.To someone who has tried already and who is simply venting.
I’ll add another fuck you too because you deserve it kek.
No. 2462711
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>>2462686>it’s not fake positivity when you believe it anonAnd I can also believe that tomorrow I’ll become a millionaire. As long as I truly , but truly believe it, it will happen right? Gee thanks.
No. 2462721
>>2462693And I can bet my eyebrow that he’s the ugly one out of the two.
Men open their mouth while having shit on their underwear, baldness, shitty low T bodies and try to diminish the esteem of their girlfriends to feel better about themselves.
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>>2462721>shitty low T bodies Because this is disgusting and disrespectful
No. 2462800
>>2462785I’ll take take a break from my usual hating and try to be reasonable.
>if there's a job there for me in three years I'll move to you" which is extremely frustrating and open endedBut that is a plan nonna, it’s just that you don’t like it. He can’t know if he’ll get the job and it’s stupid to promise things that he might not keep.
I’ve not understood if he’s studying or already working, but since you said that he’s in a fast track to a good job he’s most likely going to earn more than you, which yes sort of dictates what he’ll do, love doesn’t give you food and a roof over your head.
If there’s a job in your city he’ll take the offer, but realistically speaking if he doesn’t get the offer there but instead where he is why should he be the one moving and not you for example? Or even a middle ground somehow, to me it sounds like you want him to sacrifice everything while you sit in comfort.
If you wanted an easy and more hands on relationships you shouldn’t have been with someone in a different city for two whole years. You might have reached the end of the relationship, but it's only you who knows whether you love him still or not.
No. 2462803
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>>2462800I feel like if you loved him then waiting three years for him to see if he would get the job is reasonable. But I also think that you should actually sit down and think about
>waiting time>if he gets the job how are you two going to arrange living together.>the possibility of him not getting the job.>if you would be willing to move yourself and change university.Be proactive because it’s your future. If the cons outweigh the pros for you then you already have your answer.
But again , I’m just an internet stranger. Goodbye.
No. 2462807
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WHY CAN'T THIS STUPID FUCKING THESIS WRITE ITSELF I'M SO TIRED OF IT REEEEEEEEEEEEE
No. 2462810
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>>2462807You made me think about my mom who is making me write her shitty thesis when I have my own exams to do, it’s her master’s, guess who did her bachelor’s? Yes me.
If she could have given a proper deadline I would be okay, but she wants to do it on May, it’s easy to open your mouth when you simply copy and paste stuff and expect me to add footnotes, change the words , align etc.
It’s so annoying.
Oh she also broke up with her ex and is in somehow in a crisis (can’t even sleep) so she isn’t even being helpful in the first place. I hate how male centered she is, but I think she came to a realization, that’s why she’s not coping well and I’m trying to be there for her.
Sorry for overriding your vent nonna, but yes, thesis are a fucking nightmare.
No. 2462811
>>2462800Thanks nonna. That gave me a lot of insight. You're right, I'm not being very reasonable about this. I've spoken with him a lot about it and we've agreed to talk about it more in person when he comes to visit soon. I think I need to be more amenable to making sacrifices, and I'll keep that in mind next time we talk about it.
>>2462803Thanks for the advice here too. I definitely have more things to think about and talk to him about. The only tough thing would be changing universities because of my specialized program, but in this case I think I just need to find more ways I can feel more emotionally intimate with him without the physical closeness. I'll try and be more proactive and think more about my own future and how that fits with his.
No. 2462827
>>2462814She loves using the excuse that she’s an immigrant, but she’s literally lazy, that’s it. She has done all her exams by herself and studied books with very little problems.
I would have proofread her work and corrected it gladly , but that isn’t what she’s doing sigh. It was basically forced on me.
No. 2462844
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>>2462811Hope you can talk it out, relationships aren’t easy at all and these are the moments that make it or break it nonna. And as much as I would have liked to say
>Reee he doesn’t care about you! >He should move for you if he truly loves you!!It would have been funny but not useful. I’ll be back to my usual hating though.
No. 2462926
>>2462919Sweetie. You are deeply valued, and you deserve love, care, and warmth. Your feelings matter, and I see you, and I appreciate you for who you are. I admire your kindness, your strength and your beautiful heart, it's like a whole world lives inside you and it's breathtaking. If I could, I’d wrap you in the softest, most reassuring hug and remind you that you are worthy of all the love and nurturing you crave. You deserve to be cherished, to feel safe, and to receive the gentle care that makes your heart feel full. You are enough, just as you are.
No. 2462928
>>2462894This woman sabotaged you and saw to it that you were not paid for your time. It's none of her fucking business if you're being paid better than her. If a friend did this to me I'd be furious, but from what you are saying of her, I do not think she is your friend.
You should start distancing yourself from her and let her go. If she ever tries to ask about your pay again, say you don't know, you don't want to talk about it, or lie. Fuck her, I can't believe she cost you overtime like this. And she knows your situation as you are friends. That woman is not a friend, she is a crab in a bucket.
>>2462900Read back on the VPN Poll thread in /ot/. A lot of VPN anons have talked about this.
No. 2462959
>>2462958this
>>2462956You're just larping as a "
femcel" because it's cool.
No. 2462961
>>2462958>>2462959>gatekeeping femceldomi don't find it cool..? whatever lol i'm at loss of words
>>2462960true
No. 2462969
>>2462961No such thing as a
femcel and the fact that you think it exists says a lot.
What is with newfags who come up here calling themselves men hater when they literally aren’t?
There was the other one who hooked with his moid and she had to break into his house to pick her charger since he wasn’t answering her, she fucking cleaned up and made bread kek and she was talking about being low empathy and hating men.
No. 2462970
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tfw
>boyfriend of 5 years ghosts me
>other ex who I think is the love of my life has a new girlfriend and tells me constantly about how great she is and all the trips they take together
>being replaced
>Same guy is always extremely critical of who I date but won't date me himself
>can't let go of him because he's my oldest friend and I don't want to lose him
>everyone leaves me in the end despite what they say
>trying desperately not to end up bitter, lonely and reclusive like my mother
>can feel it happening anyway
>know there's something deeply wrong with me because why else would this keep happening
>I know I find it hard to open up to people irl because they'll treat me like a victim or patronize me and the thought of that makes me feel sick
>also fear I'm missing out on experiences but OCD so terrified to have experiences in case a freak accident etc happens and kills me, meaning all of the sadness was for nothing
sorry for my loser ramblings
No. 2462971
>>2462961>whatever lol i'm at loss of wordsKek ,
femcel nonna didn’t feel welcomed enough.
No. 2462986
>>2462969>No such thing as a femcel and the fact that you think it exists says a lot. didn't say it exists just replying to another anon but i think it's funny how you plaster intentions on my post while barely reading it (such as plastering i have any opinion on femceldom when i'm literally just replying to another post)
>What is with newfags who come up here calling themselves men hater when they literally aren’t? ok so you're in my head and you know everything that happens in my mind? kek
>There was the other one who hooked with his moid and she had to break into his house to pick her charger since he wasn’t answering her, she fucking cleaned up and made bread kek and she was talking about being low empathy and hating menok nice story? see you're doing it again
just an annoying useless post of someone who thinks theyre so special
No. 2462987
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>>2462986It’s as useless as your
>reee I hate men so much but I am so slutty and submissive So now what? We look at each other in the eyes?
No. 2462989
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Cant even kill their fathers yet thinking they hate men…
No. 2462991
>>2462987it's called a vent, it doesn't have to be useful
your reply to my vent was not helpful and self aggrandazing (trying to etablish yourself as male hate ceo or soemthing) therefore useless
No. 2462995
>>2462990yeah, words have a meaning, hate is a feeling of intense dislike
i feel intense dislike which doesn't always contradict my libido
what's your point?
No. 2463010
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>>2462995Hate is the closest thing to love? Is that what you wanted to hear? Again it’s kind of funny how quickly you got agitated when I simply said that you don’t hate men and there are other women like you and that’s okay.
But you took that as disrespect.
No. 2463021
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>>2463016Who would clean up the mess though? Exactly, you, so now you even have more work to do kek.
Joking aside, I think you should be able to sue a customer if they’re very rude to the point of causing disturbance.
No. 2463034
>>2462988No way you actually believe that
femcels exist… Are you Kaitlyn Tiffany or something? Kek
>>2463024>this ladyGo back.
No. 2463038
>>2463010>Hate is the closest thing to love? Is that what you wanted to hear? no youre putting words i havent said in my mouth again.. you do that a lot
>Again it’s kind of funny how quickly you got agitated when I simply said that you don’t hate menwhen i'm bored i like to see how far retards will take their retarded take, guess you went pretty far
(infighting) No. 2463060
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>>2463038>when i'm bored i like to see how far retards will take their retarded takesThis is literally you here nonna
>>2462961and here
>>2462991 and here
>>2462995Acting all defensive for no reason.
(reviving infights) No. 2463074
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I have been skipping math classes because of valid reasons(i swear) and i am super fucking behind everyone else. Holy fuck. Good thing about math is that there is basically no way to learn it wrong, so this weekend its going to be me, an entire box of gween tea, youtube and chatgpt against the world. I need to chat up to an entire month of classes, i am so fucking behind. Everything felt like an alien language today.
No. 2463092
>>2463065Nowadays the biggest red flags for me are
>watched anime>loves e-girls and gothsThey are always weird, always.
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>>2463090I’m not sure what’s happening but it’s getting weird
No. 2463111
>>2463082I don't even know him that well, but everything about him just screams red RED flag. Even the fact that he supported his friend into losing his virginity with a girl who was very drunk, sounded like she only barely consented in the story. It's just fucking annoying to see these people believe they're morally superior and pretending they care about character and integrity and principles when by all accounts they're terrible people who probably want to shoot minorities.
>>2463098Of course this guy is also a one piece fan kek
No. 2463141
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I sometimes find myself missing this guy I used to talk to from a certain imageboard even though he had seriously fucked up interests in porn/fetishes and was one of those closet "progressive feminist" weirdos + a whore. I joined clubs at school and started going on and engaging in my hobbies more since, but think it's because I only talk to one person now. Like, while I love having them as my friend, they're sometimes obviously not gonna be available all the time. I have to remember all that, and the fact that he saw me as disposal enough to not care about me leaving. But reminding myself I don't like him as a person once I further think about the rationality of it all, and that the thoughts come from a place of desperation or desire to belong is hard sometimes.
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caught up with my classmates from highschool. I knew this girl had died a year after graduation but because her family never disclosed the details, always asumed it had been a suicide or sth.
Well turns out this girl was always stressed because her parents would beat her for running out of pencils or notebooks too early because oh surprise, your child has to take notes and do homework (she only studied with us as a result of the headmistress taking her as her pet proyect because she wanted to run ofr major)they lived in a very small house (if you are Peruvian you'll know what I mean, the ones with the metal sheet roofs) in a poor part of the town. A year after graduation the house gets robbed while she was out buying groceries. She returns and starts freaking out, the neighbors call the police and she goes missing. A week later they find her: she had hung herself out of fear of facing her parents because the thieves had taken everything, including the money the parents saved inside the dressers and shit. We know this because she had a phone call with a close friend before she did this.
Rest in peace, and fuck that family for bringing a honest, hard-working child in this shitty country.
Picrel is the TYPE of poverty we're talking about, by the way
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I needed to take a break from what I was working on but now I don’t want to go back to it. Please someone bully me into being productive again
No. 2463222
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I had a day which was technically mundane, but it was very different from my usual routine and felt very strange.
>While I'm eating, a woman comes over and starts speaking to me in a hard tone
>I can't tell what she's saying because she has an extremely thick accent
>It sounds like she's passive-aggressively thanking me for not doing something, or she thinks I'm a wrongdoer?? That's just speculation though, I have no clue what she actually said
>She walks away as quickly as she arrived
>I notice her staring at me a few times as I finish my food, I'm not really concerned so I just ignore her
>Eventually she disappears
I will never know what she thinks I did. The miscellaneous weird things:
>SEVERAL people stopped on the street to ask me for directions or just have friendly interactions, which almost never happens
>There was staff on the tram actually doing their jobs (again, NEVER happens on my line)
>I found some dirt cheap earrings with the exact "dark iridescent" effect on them I've been looking for
>I found out a relatively successful local shop is closing down out of nowhere
>There were loads of police cars all over the place, even for my shitty area
>The city centre was just QUIET, it sounded empty even though it wasn't, I didn't like it
>I didn't see any dogs anywhere
>Most of the roads were empty and ready to cross on my way home
>I saw a couple more people staring at me after the strange woman did
Obviously those wouldn't be a big deal by themselves, but all together on the same day? It was a good day overall but it just seemed rather odd.
No. 2463231
Im actually breathing heavy from seething lol. Everytime I want to do anything outside my room, there he is! He WAS doing something else in his room, but no, now that Im going in another room, all of a sudden he follows me to whereever Im going.
He lurks around listening or watching me in the other room, "joking" about doing so. By his actions, he rubs it in my face that his pet is alive, laughing and playing, while mine are dead. He makes snide comments about not making noise when Im putting leftovers away, while he sits around doing nothing. He takes his time getting in the way, goes out of his way to walk near in my personal space near my butt, when he was going the opposite way. I cannot stand this moid.
I feel bad for thinking this, but he has me to the point where its like, why cant his crappy diet and exposure to harmful crap catch up with him to the point where he will leave me alone. I just want him to leave me alone.
No. 2463258
>>2463243I don’t know, for me it would be weird. I work in healthcare and I tend to have a persona at work, that isn’t the real me. Making friends with patients isn’t in my interest honestly kek.
Was she actually interested in you other than medically?
No. 2463328
i hate my cousin so much; in the last few months
> she threw me a massive "surprise" party when i specifically asked to be left the fuck alone because i was dealing with a stressful work situation. she brought all her stupid in laws over to my parents house and then i had to spend the whole day doing chores and getting scolded for not being cheerful/grateful enough for something i didn'task for. i was anemic and irritated and it ruined my birthday
> following that, her and her annoying husband tried to force me to call them every week, i tried putting up boundaries becuase i need rest but she'd call me at 8 or 9am on weekends, turn it into a giant video call with her annoying in laws. i just stopped picking up her calls
> i was still TRYING to have a relationship with her like an idiot and went to visit her house, which is in a very rural area. i had a same day train ticket but her and her husband refused to drive me back to the train station at night. i had to beg and threaten to walk through the fields before they did. they wanted to force me to stay over
> during that same visit she told me her husband had a car accident and it would have been my fault if something happened to him because i don't pick up the phone for her
> later that year they tried to invite me over specifically for multiple days, and i turned them down becuase fuck no. so they DROVE TO MY PARENTS HOUSE and tried to force a visit on me. i was having my period at the time and i have awful cramps, but i got scolded for being ungrateful after they went all that way to see me (when i specifically asked them not to), i got called a slut for being in my pjs (giant t shirt and shorts) around my brother in law and for having a leak when i was dragged out of bed against my will
> to try "cure" me of my phone shyness she literally called me so much i had a panic attack and thought her dad died which was awful, my brothers had to talk me down. she called me literally dozens of times over a few days. the phone thing was to do with my work situation and i'm largely over that, and have no issues with other people but seeing her phone number ringing me makes my stomach hurt to this day
> i ended up getting fired (and i wonder how much the stress she put on me on top of everything else contributed) i'm in tech and i've been looking for a job for a while now but i'm sure you nonas have seen what the market is like. she keeps trying to "help" and getting her (non tech) friends advice and now she's learning the language i work in which i wouldn't care about in normal circumstances but on top of everything else it feels like a slap in the face. i've had a lot of trouble getting myself to code ever since i got fired and she made an app in the laguage i use.
it feels so schizo to be upset about something like that and i normally wouldn't but i feel like i'm being stalked or bullied or something. However when i express this to people in real life they just talk about how sweet she seems etc. my own family enable and encourage her behaviour and it's not easy to move out or put distance between us especially now i'm uneployed. i blocked her the other day and i felt so guilty but when i think of how much she's tormented me (even if it's her own twisted way of making friends) i get so angry and upset
she was always a little selfish but ever since she got married she's been absolutely insufferable, i thought she would have had less time to bother me but now it feels like she's dedicated herself to making me miserable.
No. 2463498
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>become a night owl to avoid my dad
>suddenly he takes a week off of work
>stays up all night every night drinking
>loud as fuck so i'd have trouble sleeping anyway
No. 2463652
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There’s nothing I genuinely like and all the things I used to do with a bit of joy I stopped doing, I left drawing, I can’t watch any shows, I don’t like baking anymore and I have just enough energy to study and keep face if I go out with my friends. I don’t really care about anything , but at the same time I feel like I can’t do much else, can’t disappoint my mom. I just wished I could disappear forever because I’m just tired of everything. I just want to let go.
I don’t really have any reason to feel like this, I’m not poor, my mother loves me, I have friends, I entered med school, I’m somehow good looking, maybe I’m just ungrateful I don’t know. I can never be happy about anything.
No. 2463681
I hate petty people or people with one sided hate kek. I don't even consider them some flavours of bullies, I consider them retarded but oh boy if they're annoying.
By now, I'm and artist, I have my fair share of support, I can make some money here and there (not like a career - I don't want to live off my art because I'm not up for the stress but it's nice to get gigs sometimes) but when I started drawing, there were these two people, whom I didn't know at all, who used to be randomly mean at me and then when I went into art school, they started to be even more mean and nitpicking about useless shit and then I discovered that the "Alpha" of the group hated me randomly and the beta just followed, just because I was accepted into art school. Seems like a teen problema right? No, they were adults at the time and I was like uuuh, weird? And they're adults now, they left me alone but for years I had these two 20-something people that I didn't know shittalking me. I admit, I'm a bit childish and I use this story to lift my mood (because imagine being like this) but sometimes, when I have to make art related content, I wonder how retarded, like actually stunted, you have to be to put up shit like this.
I'm not famous at all, I don't even like attention, I want to do my stuff and if someone pays me that's good and two people followed my small accounts, sent the posts to my friends (they didn't reply, it's just weird to point out) and they were unnecessary angry about me for years well over their adult age because…I went to art school. Where they could also apply. Adults acting like kids are creepy as fuck, I was never mad about them because that didn't make sense to me, this kind of attitude got usually bullied out of you in middle school, I think that once you're over 18 and you apply teenage level of "bullying" to other adult people and your hate is totally one sided towards a single person, you have to be forced into some kind of rieducational program. We're not talking about cows or celebrities, these people that can't grow up choose a person and make them their imaginary, personal enemy out of some magical thinking and expect everyone else to also do that. They have some kind of mental illness but I believe that the moment you annoy other people for some made up hate you have to be considered insane, paranoid people in psych wards are less dangerous than that.
They were also two males, like…? Idk, I'm over thinking about it but maybe I'm an autist and trying to make sense about it, they could simply…apply too. Instead of annoying me for years. Why.
No. 2463703
>>2463693But if you need a reason
>collects archive fashion Fashion men are annoying as hell, they always have that superior conviction of having the best taste and they’re always so competitive when you’re with them, they want to be the woman kek. That or they’re bisexual.
There are definitely normal men who just dress well, but they never make it their whole personality, pick what your scrote is and gauge
No. 2463727
>>2463681Well first of all, they are males so you can’t expect much mental maturity from them to begin with. Males simply don’t have to grow up because society coddles them and they come to expect to be the main character in everyone else’s life too.
>Adults acting like kids are creepy as fuck, I was never mad about them because that didn't make sense to me, this kind of attitude got usually bullied out of you in middle schoolThe sad part is, after an initial drop in that behavior around college years, the numbers stay the same and those who stay behaving like petulant children get even worse as they age.
On one hand, there’s significantly less jealous pettiness in my life because I’m not a teenage girl and most people are normal adults. On the other, when I do run into a mental case like that, they make me regret it and read into everything as some sort of personal slight against them which they use to fuel their fits of rage and jealousy which are at this point much worse than anything I saw in high school. A few of them are genuinely mentally ill and undiagnosed, but the rest are just unhappy with their lives and taking it out on me who took risks and made effort to be where I am now.
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I can't help but feel bad, angry and annoyed when I see people talking about how feminine women are superior. I have nothing against them, love them. But reading comments of people saying how they are superior makes me feel bad even if I'm okay being slightly tomboyish. I would never change myself or pretend I'm feminine just so people like me better, but I can't help feeling inferior.
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Which one of you was this???
>Go into public toilet
>Another woman comes in
>Wait…is she whispering?
>Suddenly I can make out what she's saying
>"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you"
>She goes into the cubicle next to mine
>I just want to stress that we were alone in this bathroom and the actual public toilet building itself is down a dark little side street
>She leaves
>Makes a deeply angry sounding sigh as she does so
>Whatthefuck.jpeg
No. 2464030
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I hate how even pushing 30 I constantly feel like a timid child when interacting with people. I’ve managed to overcome a lot and get to a good place but I still stutter and blush and completely lose my train of thought when put on the spot. I was getting really good at socialising in my undergrad but it feels like Covid reset all that progress and my abusive dad dying put me right back at square one. I give off a super anxious energy and shitty people love it. They either try and butter me up so they can manipulate me or take whatever anger they have for themselves out on me because I’m an easy target. I have a lot of opinions, know what I want, and used to be super confident but not any more. My dad was an insane narcissist and I basically had to completely remove my personality in order to not set him off. Even though his dumb ass is dead it’s like my nervous system can’t tell who is a threat and who isn’t. I shut down so often because that’s was my first line of defence for so long but now it’s just keeping me from living the life I want to live.
No. 2464124
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I'd rather my co-worker not come into work at all than come and do fuck all
No. 2464137
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Lmao, I'm surrounded by idiots. I'd rather continue to be a loser NEET than live like the morons around me who seem to do shit just because and always live in competition with each other. So the other day my cousin came home talking about how she asked her boyfriend (with whom she has a baby with) about marriage. They've been on and off for years, lots of cheating and shit, and he straight-up told her he doesn't want to get married. She just said in a cheerful tone "Oh well, at least he's my boyfriend and the father of my kid!" I find this tragic. Imagine being with a fucking cheater, wanting marriage, and he still doesn't want you like that. And then she goes on and posts about how he is the best father in the world and shit lmfao. Also the girl he cheated on her with literally went to the fucking baby shower. And they acted like the girl was not there. I literally thought I was in a fucking TV show watching that shit unfold. I honestly don't know what's wrong with these people.
Also, after she shared this, a few days later (very suspicious. Very weird timing), her "best friend" finally got engaged… AFTER 8 YEARS. She has three kids with her nigel and had been bugging him to marry her for years. LMFAO. Also weird ass relationship, they were on the verge of breaking up, with her pregnant, and I remember my sister who is also close to that girl telling me "now that she's having a boy, they seem to be working things out". ???? Wtf. My sister too, tons of fucking red flags, her ex wanted to control her, moved in with him 4 fucking months into the relationship, being a fucking drunk piece of crap… result: he cheats on her and leaves her with a baby to raise on her own. Idk what's up with these women. Not to victim blame obviously but the fucking red flags were there all along. It makes me mad cause they deserve better but at the same time they're so fucking stupid. Like, they're intelligent women but can't see a certain type of nigel who I will not go into detail about as to not be hit with the retarded racebait red text, that they completely lose it. I hate this world, I hate stupid people so much.
No. 2464246
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I cant get over this scrote who doesnt like me back. He's so fucking cute and nice. I kept being told that i should get over him but how can i get over him when he's always so nice despite me being so schizo and weird towards him. I really wish he was cold and distant and not absolutely adorable fuuuck. Cute scrotes are so hard to find, most scrotes are annoying tryhard edgelords or have the personality of wet cardboard.
No. 2464252
>>2463653I'm in my 30s and I feel this so hard. It seems like anything "fun" or different is considered immature, everyone in my area is dressing in the same Sad Beige Minimalist™/ Quiet Luxury™ style because it's supposed to look mature and classy or something. Like god damn, what if I don't feel like wearing a white button down with jeans or a boring beige sweater with a pencil skirt?
Also I think "fashion" right now is just kinda fucked, I don't know if this is the effects of the pandemic or what. I'm currently shopping online and trying to find outfits for spring/summer because the brick and mortar stores around me don't have much, and holy cow everything feels fucking boring. Just a few years ago I used to see outfits I really liked or would be excited to try on, and now that I actually need an updated wardrobe, nothing feels worth spending money on and nothing "calls" to me anymore.
No. 2464275
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>>2464252>I think "fashion" right now is just kinda fuckedNtayrt but I agree as someone close to 30. I have been putting off buying clothes for so long now just because I hate most everything available and don’t have time to hunt thrift stores or resellers online. I use to love fashion and dressing up but everything has become so drab and boring in recent years. Picrel was found randomly and embodies the exact kind of look I loathe.
No. 2464286
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>>2464277I've decided that 95% of them are not serious for my own peace of mind
No. 2464327
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I'm going to college next year and after being denied any form of self expression (ultra poorfag + shitty parents) I want to start dressing as I'd like especially, but with the current fashion culture in the west I think I'm out of luck unless I want beige crap for $60 a piece or fast fashion from Temu that'll evaporate before I can even wear it and thrift stores on the west coast suck shit apparently so I might be out of luck there. I just want some cute dark/goth clothes for cheap, not even high fashion just stuff I can accessorize with. Was it really over before it could even start? I'll be stuck with hand me down graphic shirts and pajama pants five sizes too big for the rest of my youth won't I. Kms honestly.
No. 2464368
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Somebody bully me into pushing through and finishing work
No. 2464372
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my boyfriend leaves in two days and i wont see him again for 2-3 months. i cant stop crying instead of enjoying the moment. how can i be more positive and have more gratitude? a lot of my work is independent and i have no friends so it isnt easy to throw myself into something out of being forced to. i will look into more work and try to push myself to work on more hobbies outside of home/maybe find a friend, though i dont feel ready for that
No. 2464383
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>>2464368Water seeks its own level. Don’t let it be the same level as scrotes with skidmarked underwear, a 3+ score on the Norwood scale, and loli anime defending tweets. That’s where you’re heading if you don’t get back to it
nonny No. 2464387
I used to have a friend that was the "if you have friends like her, you don't need any enemies". She was the most fucking vile woman I think I've ever met, and I can't believe I allowed myself to be dragged around by her for almost ten years. I don't think I've known anyone so gleefully manipulative and jealous, I have yet to meet someone that can look someone in the eyes and almost immediately know how weasel underneath their skin and utilize their insecurities so she can look down on them. I have so many tales of her fucking people over, so many nasty fights in overlapping circles of friends where the escalations could be traced back to her "helping out", etc.
But the thing that kept you around, despite all her toxicity, she could be a fucking AMAZING friend just as well when she chose to. Her friendship wasn't completely
unconditional now that I think back to it, but it didn't really matter at the time. It's been years since I cut her out of my life, but I still don't think I've ever had deep talks about life with anyone else or laughed as much as I did with her. I miss those things about her. But sadly, from what I've heard she hasn't changed at all. She is probably is too narcisstic to accept that she is he issue whenever she loses entire friend circles again and again or have people going out of the way to avoid her. This is what kept me from reaching out when I heard her mom died and that her childhood cat died soon after, it breaks my heart that she at 29 now have lost both her parents (her dad died when she was 14). I hurt for her.
No. 2464408
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A girl at my Uni has been acting extremely weird towards me and I just don’t want to be around her. I’m not into the fake niceness and she’s so over the top it really turns me off. I can tell she’s a massive pick me and seems so perfect on the outside but there is something weird about her. I think she wanted to befriend me because she thought I had more leverage over the moids in our programme than I actually do. I’ve only interacted with her a handful of times but several times she just kept fishing for compliments from other people but comparing herself to me. I’d think it was just female socialisation but her obsessive need for male validation (she literally makes rounds every day and talks to each moid individually and compliments them on everything) makes me think otherwise. There’s so much tension when we’re around each other and I just try and ignore her but she’ll engage when we’re alone but completely ignore me when moids are around. Sometimes I’ll overhear her conversations with other women and they’re always either about some moid I think she’s involved with or talking about other people’s looks. First I have some narcissistic moid try and manipulate me and now whatever flavor of ClusterBee this girl is is draining my energy. I’ve been working on building up my emotional resilience but I’m still pretty sensitive to this sort of stuff. I have a lot of female friends and no problem with other pretty women, I can just tell something is going on with her that I don’t want to get involved with. I’m so ready to move on from this programme.
No. 2464412
>>2464409Ugh, imo they're objectively worse than the Luigifags. Their posts are always so performative too.
>KYAAAAAAA~ I can't help it, nooooo he's just too cuuuuuute!! I'm so sowwy I didn't choose to be so weeeeirdLike genuinely what the hell is their problem kek
No. 2464441
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>>2464439>What kind of panties are you wearing?I sounded like a creep kek
No. 2464468
>>2464459Do you think this is done out of ignorance or is it like the typical man's way of twisting things to try to get their way? It seems like a manipulation to me in an extremely male way. It's too insane that anyone would say someone with cysts on their ovaries is intersex. Having PCOS proves you are a woman because only women have ovaries.
>>2464439>>2464441This made me laugh so hard.
No. 2464477
>>2464463It's not bad but I think it's just because it's mine and I'm used to it.
>>2464439Usually full cotton. Synthetic ones did worsen the smell though I think because they made me sweat more.
>>2464446Gross I'm praying that isn't it but I will.
No. 2464575
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Dirty warez won't load…
No. 2464639
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i got coaxed into a hairdressing course and it was so embarrassing i think it is the devil's work. it makes me want to avoid hair salons and malls, because a perpetrator could be working there. why did i fall for this lure when i could have watched youtube tutorials and ask my friend to dye my hair? when i was a child, we had a salon on our street. it was not an ethical business because they got all their clients with gossip and sabotage. i forgot about this, because i was always happy to have had my hair done. it was rare, but felt good for a change. so, i thought, how fun would it be to learn this skill and join a salon with pretty people? but let me elaborate the level of manipulation that these stylists and salon owners do, so you steer clear of this profession. hairstyling is truly the profession of mean girls and manipulative psychopaths.
>having your hair messed with when you are asleep
i've got a thinning cut without my consent so they would laugh at this prank. i thought my hair was falling out because of sickness.
>unconsented, uninformed patch testing
this happened many years ago, a patch of my hair fell out after i fell ill at a party. a girl was doing a money piece but left.
>your teacher gets told you will become a hairdresser
naturally, your middle school teacher wants to help. they sat me behind people with different hairstyles, textures and colours.
>they introduce your hairdressing teacher in a dramatic and esoteric way
i was made to believe that this meeting will be very important or at least fascinating, which it was. i was blindfolded and lead into a room. there the teacher was working on a large beehive wig, before bridgerton came out. i never saw anything like that before in my life, it was amazing. somebody leading me there told me she was auditioning for a movie set.
>hairdressing teacher gets word of where you are going out on a date
i was asked by a girl on the way to the movie theater if i wanted my hair done. then, another girl asked if i wanted to model. this happened twice, they have an assignment. but i did not get it.
>facebook feed showing you vivid hair colors and braids even if you did not search for them or liked any hair pages
not only that but these hair models were usually in fetish gear or even working for onlyfans.
>when you sign up for the hairdressing course they withhold information from you, even if you already paid for the semester
not sending me emails about the 1st week, the course location, or the supplies. i asked the teachers and they acted clueless. turned out that another portion of the class got their introduction, school uniform, supply orders in, and sign-up sheets for clients done already, and were invited to parties where they could practice and socialize with professionals who have decades of experience.
>they sabotage you in getting clients from the mailing list, and are gaslighting you about your intelligence and abilities despite you wanting to learn
you are ostracized by teachers and a few students for not having clients, yet they sabotaged you from signing up, and when you have questions they ghost you. the few times they give you clients, those people are purposefully set up to embarrass you. people who don't even shower enough or properly, been told lies already to dislike you, change their mind hundreds of times, are farting and stinky.
>lying and being a fake friend gets you brownie points, nobody cares about your psychopathic behaviour if you are already the in-group
there was cringe fake drama, crying and even a fight between 2 girls. people with disabilities, like me, are accepted into the course so we can be a spectacle or a pet-project, and kept in the classroom for breadcrumbs. meanwhile we pay for the course, younger talent is getting free equipment and tutoring.
No. 2464687
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One of the best coworkers moved out of state and even though I'm happy that she's pursuing her nursing degree and getting a house, I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye in-person on her last day. I was upset about it, so I took it out on a male by being a stoic bitch to him. I even shoved the thermometer in his mouth when I did his vitals. He probably complained to my boss, but I don't give a shit. He was ugly, he was bald, he was a male, he was passive aggressive at the beginning of our interaction, and I needed something to take it out on.
No. 2464693
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when my dog dies, if my boyfriend leaves, when my mother dies, i will kill myself. i cannot imagine having to live without people to love and people who love me. i cant even enjoy the moment with them as is, knowing ill have to be without them for a few months again. i have too much free time with my job, maybe i need to wage just to feel less alone. i just love them so much. why am i so petrified of being alone forever when i am almost always alone? i love them. i would kill myself if it meant they could live on happily forever. i went a year without suicidal thoughts, wish they werent coming back and making me so emotionally immature. maybe having no friends or daily routine is getting to me. but sacrificing my nice albeit lonely job for shittier pay just to have a structured routine with people where i may feel even more alone due to not relating…well maybe im just glorifying that idea. maybe there is a way to deal with the daily loneliness. my heart hurts. i want to be with those i love everyday.
No. 2464695
>>2464693Wahhh what’s your job?
I’d suggest you pick a hobby or follow a course of zumba or cardio, it’s fun and takes time. Add more to your routine.
No. 2464750
Peaking has been one of the most isolating experiences of my life.
Being a crypto is kind of awful. Yes, I’m fighting from the inside. Yes, I’ve probably helped peak a few people. But seeing my own friends and community talk about beheading TERFs, light them on fire, murdering them, I think it’s having an effect on my psyche.
I can’t be honest. I play by all the social rules, and I use preferred pronouns, and I commit myself to the bit of trying to see these people as men, women, nonbinary. It’s not even like I want to invalidate them. My beliefs are as mild as can be. Declaring yourself as another gender does just about nothing to the realities you have experienced and inflict on others. I even think transitioning is fine, I think everyone should have bodily autonomy and can make whatever changes they want with informed consent. This is a belief my own friends would wish to brutally kill me over.
I’m tired, and I’m scared, and I try to consume things from different angles to “unpeak” because it’s just so draining. Yeah, I’ve listened to trans people, the trans women, you didn’t tell me which ones but I’ve listened to them like you asked. And I can’t undo perceiving reality.
Maybe someone right now is lurking and possibly interpreting this as me suffering from my own bigotry. I love my trans friends a lot and that’s why I spend so much time trying to understand the world from their perspective. And I think it all sounds really reasonable outside the context of transness, things like “I don’t want to be around someone who views my existence as a fetish” is very understandable for trans people too. But if it’s an AGP, I have to be forgiving. And it’s just pattern recognition, an observation that people of a certain sex are more likely to x, y, and z than the other sex. It feels like I could spend years trying to train it out of myself and never succeed.
It feels like I’m always waiting for a doomsday where I get witch-hunted by people I trust for my beliefs. You have no idea how much I wish I could let them go at times. I’m pretty spineless. It honest to god feels like you’re the only person in the class that saw 5+39+6=47 and you’re the only one that actually did the math and got 50 but everyone around you is saying if you got anything other than 47 you must be inherently evil and deserve to die. You can argue, you can count it all up, you can try see where they’re coming from, go real deep into maths theorem to try and solve it, but you’ll still get 50. And you can’t stop getting 50. You’re confused, and as someone who also once believed it was 47, you think it’s quite easy to understand how it’s 50, but everyone else treats this notion with aggression.
I’m so exhausted.
No. 2464774
>>2464639>girls soliciting for hair modelsthis happened because they needed a model for some photos for their assignment. this is one of our biggest assignments. but i was wondering that because i could not make it to their practice and photo shoot, they signed me up as not helpful. even though i had legitimate reasons for not going, like being out of the country on that date.
>the mailing list sabotageon the 2nd day, they told us again to sign up for clients, and passed a tablet around. i was waiting for it to be passed to me but they did not let me have it. a classmate came up to me and said "somebody said you already signed up" when i did not. the next day i was approached by the teacher and she asked me why didn't i sign up, so i told her because i could not get the tablet. she later told me classmate's name has the tablet now. so i looked around to find her but she was not in the classroom. i asked another girl where she went but she did not know. i walked out of the classroom to check the computer room and the front room. then that girl told me she can not give the tablet to me now because she is practicing front service work with it. okay. i waited until the end of the class for the tablet to be free. then the teacher told us she now has to turn it off because it is the end of the day. i did not react fast enough to get it, thought i would ask for it the next week. next week comes, she tells us it needs to be serviced… the girl who asked me if i signed up was not getting clients either but most everyone else was. she asked me if i could sign up yet? i told her they always have it and it's too busy so i could not, but i thought info would come in my emails. she said that she could not sign up yet either but that we can ask an older classmate for clients, and that she sent her some. then she said that she was lying and she did not send her any, but another girl was. i asked her, and she said she is sorry but she can not send any.
>insults to intelligencethere were often 2 teachers in the classroom, but throughout the whole year they switched them. one of them near the end of year was saying opposing things to what our main teacher has taught. also, there were many written tests where the answers were all judged subjectively.
>abusing people financiallypeople under a certain age here get to have 1 year free education, or reduced fees. there was a girl already practicing since a young age who immediately got a job after 1 year of free study completing her certificate.
No. 2464824
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>>2464276hmm…I don't know your friend group's exact dynamics, idk if you're actually autistic or socially akward either…
What I recomend is maybe do small hints that you like him.
Don't think of it as "a make it or break it" but more like testing the waters fucking around a little bit and finding out.
Small things like
>a slight bump shoulder to shoulder>a little teasing here and there>asking for small favurs (get him engaged)>sharing stuff with him (food? ideas? treats? )And most importantly
>he's not only your crush but a friend, so be kind and talk to one anotherI mention you testing him because it offers a bit of detatchment so maybe it's easier for you to cope with these intense feelings and also, pay attention to his response to them.
Because those can say a lot about where they stand.
Does he not get the hint you're flirting? He's prob a bit dense (we love us a himbo)
I wish you the best of luck nona and if I see a shooting star I'll make a wish with you in mind.
I used to be (and still am a bit) a nervous wreck when it comes to intense feelings and crushes, and I've stumbled a lot of times. But the only thing that kept me going is the thought that if I want it, I'll try everything possible so that at least I know I did it despite it all.
Aim high, you have nothing to lose but peace of mind.
No. 2464841
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>>2464840I'll keep trying, I hope they both can bring us joy next year
No. 2464957
>>2464750Once you peak you can’t outdo it, especially when you see how unreasonable and deluded they all are. Their vitriol is against women, they want them killed, raped (because I’ve seen those threats plenty of times), but they don’t hold the same level of violence against men, who are the ones actually killing them. Once you see transgenderism as the misogynistic movement it is you can’t unsee it.
I’m like you nonna, people can do what they want to do within reason, but this isn’t the case at all.
No. 2465087
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I absolutely despise my coddled and roid rage sperm donor of a father. Dumb fucking bitch has no job for 8 years and despite having all the time in the world he says home all day and does nothing but watch TV and stay on fb. Maybe once in a while he fixes something but not after taking him 3x as much as normal and batching about it in the meantime.
I can't even fucking clean the house bc he throws a fit and gets all pissy about it. God forbid I mention to him picking up the fucking vacuum cause then I get threatened with violence and get called "ungrateful" bc he has achievements and "its my job anyway, I do it better".
His disables MS ass will not die any faster. Its a geniuen miracle that you go with untreated MS for 30-40 years and you're not a vegetable.
I swear to god, moids can be soo fucking useless. I see this shit everywhere, even in previous boyfriends more or less. Their need for validation and cuddling and temper tantrums and constant financial support and the sudden inflated ego and bromance when around one another.
No. 2465109
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I'm going to fucking strangle that bitch ass moid (in Minecraft). I've had a four month long situationship with him, and he recently started whining all emo about me not taking him seriously and him not wanting to waste time on "meaningless connections" and how he wants to be serious and how he thinks I'M not interested. Due to his behavior I have only thought him as another fuckbuddy in my roster, but I could have done something serious with him if he proved he's worth it. We were supposed to see today to talk. It's 3pm and the bitch still has not messaged me. I am not going to ask him again, this whole "uwu I want something serious we are soulmates!!" shit was his idea, he brought it up. If he can't send me a simple text the message is received loud and clear. I'm fucking done.
No. 2465116
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Why the fuck vegan milk costs like a used car and Alpro is the only one sold here that also tastes good. I'm so tired of lactofags winning.
inb4 not a vegan, lactose intolerant + cow milk gives me acne in general
No. 2465154
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>>2465011it's not even racebait, have you seen toilets in middle east?
No. 2465158
>>2465144Nonny, I think it could be the other way around and some lingering serious gastro issue or other physical problem that affects your digestion is making your mental state worse.
t. mentalfag for whom that was the case
No. 2465172
>>2465154You don't even have to go to the Middle East, Easter European countries in undeveloped regions still have these. Either that or a yard toilet which is far worse.
I'd know…a pool I'd go to when visiting grandma had Turkish toilets. That and last one I've seen was in some trainstation going to visit said grandma. Horid stuff, especially if you miss the hole lmao.
No. 2465193
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i get really fucking annoyed when this geriatric scrote in my class interrupts me or other classmates when they're asking a question and he refuses to take the hint to not interjects when someone else is speaking. I cant really tell him to fuck off or throw a pencil at him, or lash out so I've resorted to hitting myself discretely or pinching in order to control my anger. picrel unrelated
No. 2465211
>>2465158Ayrt. Thank you for replying. May I ask for a brief run down of how you figured out it was gut-hurting-brain and not brain-hurting-gut? As I said, I had GI scopes a few years ago. This year I’ve been to urgent care twice and explained my symptoms. They expressed concern over the frequency of vomitting, but just gave me zofran and said to follow up with GP. I admit I haven’t done that because no insurance currently and in general doctor appts/procedures are hell for me, but I do want to eventually. I think I’m just stuck in a place where I’m running myself further into the ground because it’s so hard to get caught up with all of the important documents I need to do and appointments I need to make while I’m actively shitting and puking my guts out and then shrieking and flailing because of how overstimulated and uncomfortable I am.
>>2465181Thank you for replying, also. I’ve thrown up/had diarrhea when stressed since I was a little kid. And a lot of minor things are very stressful to me as an autist, try as I might to “mind over matter”. I’d love more research to be done on the link between autism and gi issues, like what neurochemical or metabolic processes are responsible.
No. 2465234
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i miss a call yesterday and miss 2 today and all of sudden this idiot assumes i'm mad and is desperately texting like i'm her husband of 7 years leaving her ass. sorry i didn't know i couldn't be busy and exhausted without your permission.
No. 2465243
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no work for two fridays in a row because the coworker i'm supposed to assist quit and my employer can't find anyone willing to replace her. i already work 4 days a week, 3 is too little, i'll get paid pennies for this month. fuck my stupid wagie life
No. 2465282
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my emergency apt was at 10:50 its now 12:04. i cant walk at all, and i had to park near by cause of my numb painful leg. im about to get a fucking parking ticket cause im still not being seen despite it being a long time. i dont blame them. our medical system is beyond fucked. i'm about to cry. i cannot afford a parking ticket, a taxi would have been 80$ going and 80$ back. i had to drive 40+ mins just to be seen by a doctor immediately.
No. 2465519
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The same motherfucker who spent the entire last class wetly coughing at a measurable rate of 1000dB every 1 minute is back and hacking up her goddamned lungs again. Just fucking go home you bastard. RELEASE ME FROM THIS HELL
No. 2465546
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>about to turn 30 soon and still struggling
If I didn’t have the support I do I’d probably kill myself tbh. I know 30 isn’t old but it makes me feel so rushed. I’m glad I don’t have kids at least and just have to worry about myself, but good god it’s still difficult.
No. 2465608
Stupid nonna in the country side that keeps complaining about my partner while being a stepmom: he hasn't written— no surprise, it's starting to settle in. We're simply not compatible. I'd like him as a friend, but I can't stand him as a partner. It's been raining for days my mood is fucked, but I'm meeting a friend tomorrow for an entire day of spa time. Sunday I'm going to mass bc my grandma asked me too, since it will be shown on TV. Why the fuck not.
I'm upset bc why wasn't I worth it? I know I'm too sensible in comparison to his ex, but why wasn't I fucking worth it? Live at my place, drive my car after I got him one— ego, so had to have a BMW just couldn't afford upkeep, straight up got a second car then so he could use my old one, uses my atm card bc too stupid to drive to the bank and get cash, and I'm sitting here feeling like "I wish he'd take me back and hold me and maybe take me on a date", but he wasn't overly interested in holding me much before so what would ever be different? "Well I don't have money to take you on a date."— why am i paying for your entire families birthday and christmas presents then?? Pay him money so he can keep his flat, but wasn't ever allowed to send him home. That'd me mean!! Fine, but where do I go if I need time and space? Sleep in my car while he's happy playing Minecraft and getting high? All the times he got alcohol when I told him not to.. then I'd get drunk again, everything would be my fault..
Not having a great time, but the fear of going back is just as great. I can't tolerate that anymore. So I am fucking sensible so what? That's how I am and why I worked in animal rescue since I was 14. That's why I help friends in shitty relationships. That's why I can care. I won't be told I'm not good enough bc of that. I'm not. I know I'm not a terrible person, not easy sure, but I'm not bad. I don't wish people harm, I'll give everyone everything to help. Some men won't even notice when they ruin your self esteem and turn around, accusing you of not being tougher.
I don't want to go back. I'd rather be alone.
No. 2465681
>>2465608Babe stand the fuck up, that’s a whole son atp
>I'm upset bc why wasn't I worth it?Be happy you weren’t??? Being worth it for a worm like that is an insult not a compliment, some of y’all will pick up a homeless meth head off the streets and cry your eyes out that he only likes you for the warm bed and free pussy. Like what do you even get out of it?
>Live at my place, drive my car after I got him one— ego, so had to have a BMW just couldn't afford upkeep, straight up got a second car then so he could use my old one, uses my atm card bc too stupid to drive to the bank and get cash>"Well I don't have money to take you on a date."— why am i paying for your entire families birthday and christmas presents then?? Pay him money so he can keep his flat, but wasn't ever allowed to send him home. That'd me mean!!>Sleep in my car while he's happy playing Minecraft and getting high? All the times he got alcohol when I told him not toI hope this is bait bc imagine being a wallet and doormat to a man like this willingly, it’s my worst nightmare. At some point it stops being pathetic and starts being so stupid that you deserve it.
No. 2465703
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Our future scientists, doctors and world leaders are currently saying "skibidi toilet" and look up to Andrew Tate
No. 2465708
>>2465193dont punish yourself when some old scrote walks all over yourself and or other women like that. speak up even if you have to do it politely. For someone his age, he knows better, he knows hes being rude, hes just doing it because he thinks he can get away with it.
I hate old scrotes so much, they dont get enough hate, but I hate moids in general.
No. 2465732
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i've been trying to interrupt my "i've got to kill myself" thoughts and change them into being "i've got to keep going" and i don't know if it's doing anything but i hope it'll make things better in the long run
No. 2465808
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this might be silly but. I don't want to be called a poseur. I'm really into rock and metal music right now but I feel anxious meeting new people with same likes as me because I don't want my special interest to be judged. I'm a perfeccionist and tend to overthink. I'm anxious that I don't know enough.
I always had the interest but didn't know how to get into it until last year. I still don't know much about the history and the essentials, though I 100% had listened to them all because of the music my parents played all the time. I'm a bit stupid and sometimes my interests get delayed until it's the right time, I'm not interested in something unless it really captivates me. the music inspires me, to improve my art and myself.
I don't go to concerts unless it's local bands. no money and no car, no friends either. and I'm scared strangers are going to hurt me.
I don't know why I feel like I should prove myself to people. I feel I had grown in a slower pace compared to my peers and I don't like it. I'm too naive. I don't want to be judged harshly for who I am.
No. 2465834
>>2465681Now here's the anger I havent felt in months. Thank you, I needed that. I'm done, won't go back, won't be grovelling and will put that energy into women instead.
You know so much up about abuse, help friends out, then it happens to yourself, lmao. Like, how? Why?
No. 2465974
>>2465608I don’t know how you nonnas manage to tolerate hobos, if I saw a parassite bum constantly using my things I’d just find him irritating kek, living rent free, driving my car and sitting on my stuff with a grin , he might even say “honey what’s for dinner?” Kek, it would
trigger me so bad.
No way I’m playing mommy for a grown man.
No. 2465990
>>2465987>My autistic brother who has shown incel tendencies bought a handgunWhy should a retard a gun? This is terrifying, can a pig buy a handgun in burger land too?
Keep yourself safe nonna and stay far away from him, don’t stay at home when he comes , for more than the day he’s scheduled to come.
No. 2466098
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I accidentally became newly acquainted with my roommates friend who TALKS. SO. MUCH. like she sends texts that are walls of essays and she's actually intelligent with the way she speaks and I love her but I'm avoidant and I get overwhelmed easily and honestly…? I'm a poser. I'm pretending to be on her level and know what she's talking about but I'm no where near. I hope she gets bored of me and ditches, please god…
No. 2466114
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I can't stand running into people I know when I'm out for a walk. This morning, I bumped into some high school classmates and relatives I can't stand. I just wanna go unnoticed.
No. 2466209
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i take a few college classes but i still feel the same as i did when i was a NEET, as to say it feels like im living in a time loop of the same day repeating over and over. i didnt even feel better when i had a job either. i think life is just incredibly boring and im depressed. and yes i have hobbies, i spend hours a day doing art and i have other less-dedicated hobbies i mess around with sometimes. i just dont like living i guess.
No. 2466218
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>>2466209i'm going through the same realization/ a similar scenario right now, too. i hope we both can find something that will give our lives meaning soon
No. 2466285
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>be me, 21 years old
>crippling BDD
>actively dodge mirrors and other reflective surfaces
>never had a job, never been in a relationship
>recoil from the aspect of getting close to anyone and actively push them away
>if I can, talk to absolutely no one and make sure I'm noticed as little as possible
>being in public for any reason is followed by feeling like the minotaur who escaped the labyrinth
>can't do something as simple as walking outside due to my fight or flight response upon seeing another person
>sequester myself to my cage to avoid being acknowledged
>life, consequently, is utterly mundane
>realized it's a preoccupation with my appearance only recently after grappling with this for years
>the main thing keeping me going now is plastic surgery
>stalling on going through with it because I'm deeply ashamed
I'm fucked.
No. 2466353
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i really want to go no-contact with my family. my immediate family is only 3 other people so it wouldn't be very hard. i also realized that i don't want kids. or a partner. i genuinely think i'd be my happiest if i lived alone and worked so that i could make a comfortable life solely for myself
No. 2466436
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You can't just keep doing shitty things, feel bad and say you're sorry then do it again. Improve bitch. I'll stick around because I'm a doormat with legs but come on the idea of feeling bad is so you don't do it again.
No. 2466473
>>2466447I guess you could see it as cute
But to me it's 1) arrogant 2) to add insult to the arrogance, the very fact she keeps wearing it wrong shows she has no idea what it's actually for therefore isn't that legitimate to claim that title ; like if she was actually a doctor she wouldn't do it, yknow?
Idk I like her but she does have that tendency to be a show off, probably so she can get more ads contracts
>>2466450 No. 2466522
>>2466519sorry, i should have said
more dead on saturdays
No. 2466530
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I completely lost myself over some guy who looks like picrel. And I don't really know how to forgive myself for it and I feel angry that I was mistreated by somebody so ugly and head over heels for somebody so ugly. Nonas who have gone through similar, how do you forgive yourselves for being so stupid? This is a vent but advice is welcome.
No. 2466537
>>2466353>i genuinely think i'd be my happiest if i lived alone and worked so that i could make a comfortable life solely for myselfI think about this too but imagine living next to my friends. I hope you can find your ideal home and live a cozy life,
nonnie.
No. 2466591
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4 days ago:
>go to a birthday gathering
>oredr food and payed my share
>70% of it get's eaten by 3 moids
>don't eat much
>moid and bf interrupt me constantly
>I'm tired
>Rant about eren yager
>oreder uber
>bf blows up unprovoked about me being annoying about eren (convo he didn't even participate in) in a very audable way
>"was I too harsh? Baby?"
3 days ago:
>talk to him about it
>"sometimes when you rant it looks like a temper tantrums of a 14 yr and I can't take you seriously"
>"not saying to not talk about your frustrations but watch your mouth"
>"you sound like a old communist man when you talk about politics it's annoying"
>"if you talk about your frustrations and I'm already frustrated about something, let's just say it doesn't mix well"
>oK what exactly should I change? "Idk"
>meanwhile him throwing a fit about roomates on a weakly and and lashes out
2 days ago:
>upset
>ask friends if i'm all that
>no
>talk about it with him
>fixed for now
yesturday:
>clean house
>no food
>deal with retard dad who keeps leaving a mess while i'm cleaning
>spoiled and violent manchild
>can't wait to move tf out
>rest of the day I don't answer to messages or interract with people, I want to be alone
>bf texts me at 3am that he misses me and he doesn't feel ok
>I wake up at 4 and text back
today:
>texts me about having poor sleep
>I respond and do other shit bc I'm busy today
>calls me an hour after last text
>claims i'm avoiding him and he misses me soo soo much
>pacify him
>promise i'll stop by
>I know he'll drag my time if I do and I'll eaither not make it in time for d&d or have no time left to finish school work
>have to pay penitence
Why are moids like this? And he's one of the good one mind you.
The way I'm describing and other situations sounds like a wifebeater to become…hope that doesn't happen
No. 2466625
>>2466594Walk me through this. Why and do the stories always end the same.
I've only heard of relationships where it escalates to violence and starts innocuous. I'm hoping he fixes his anger problems cause I don't let anything slide and I hold him accountable every time.
No. 2466632
very inane thing to cry about but i regret showing my friends my baby photos because they ooh'ed and aah'ed over it saying it was cute and then said i look nothing like it and that i'm really different, and that coupled with how often my mother compares me currently with my baby photos didn't help, all she ever says is that i was cuter, my hair was nicer, i was paler, my nose was tinier, and i know that nobody will ever look the way they did when they were children because sun exposure, baby's hair that's never exposed to the elements will be softer and nicer, and puberty that is very necessary but damn if some people turn out better than others, and even if i know it's stupid, i can't really logic my way out of feeling sad.
No. 2466636
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the past ~week has sucked both situationally and financially. first it starts off with, last week i needed to take my cat to the ER; ended up getting an ultrasound and turns out he has irritable bowl disease (or cancer lol the drs said it looks the same during the ultrasound but he's not even 3 yet so they feel confident that it's most likely the former). scheduled a followup appointment for this this past thursday but my normal hourish commute home from work turned into over 3 because accidents on accidents so i had to reschedule his appointment for today, which in a sense is serendipitous because last night i had to rush my bunny to the ER due to his eye being swollen shut and when i tried to warm compress the gunky off and his eye started opening, it was bulging, entirely milky, and started bleeding. turns out at least part of the problem is he has a huge ulcer in his eye as well as a corneal scratch. so the drs were like "you need to swap your cat's appointment for him tomorrow 100%" which i was able to luckily. still need to reschedule an appoint for my kittyson which will be sometime next week. so far i have spent near 2k in vet bills and it's expected to climb. outside of my pet woes, some asshole monday threw a rock amongst other shit at my car (dented it everso slightly) because he was driving like a retard and i refused to let him in front of me just because he felt entitled to it. i was scared he was gonna shoot me given another time months ago some dude flashed his gun for me because he was a fucking moron and doesn't know what zipper merging is. which leads me into yesterday morning i got into it with some bitch, by get into i mean we were screaming at each other from our cars, because again yet another retard who doesn't know wtf zipper merging is and assumes i'm trying to cut in front of her when, anyone with common sense and a basic understand of simple rules of the road, would know that it's to keep the flow of traffic moving. because news flash!! i couldn't even GET into the back of the left lane because traffic was so backed up i naturally had to drive up the merging lane anyway, and then once you're at the zipper point is when you're SUPPOSED to start to merge. i hate entitled city drivers who never use turn signals, always have shitty cars with tinted windows, drive like their wife is about to give birth but really they're selfish pieces of shit. i seriously wish death upon anyone who drives like this. mfs would rather die/kill than be displaced 5 seconds.
No. 2466701
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My life is too shit and I am too ill. I don't really care about any kind of rethoric. Really don't wanna speak to anyone feels like the entire world is trolling me. I have ended up being patronized by the dumbest people.
No. 2466736
>>2466734what should we do
take a break or keep pushing through
No. 2466774
>>2466771Don’t take much offense from it
nonny I’m on here with nothing to do either kek
No. 2466825
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I got called señora(old lady) again. What the fuck i am only 23. I hate looking so old and ugly for my age, i will never get to enjoy looking pretty and dating cute young guys because i was cursed with horrible genetics. It specially sucks because most women are drop dead gorgeous, so it hits even worse when you are the ugly ducking in a sea of beautiful women with perfect faces and bodies. What the fuck did i do in my last life to deserve this.
No. 2466854
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I just read a thread about someone headcanoning a fictional character as autistic and listing all the supposed "signs". It's clear as day that they didn't know a thing about actual autism, just vaguely referencing what they read from wikipedia.
At least make some decent research instead of watching tiktok posers
No. 2466899
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I finally decided to give up. I am dropping out of college and going back to NEETing. I tried it out and i failed, i learned my lesson. I am too autistic to make friends, too ugly to get a cute boyfriend, too retarded to keep up with my courses. I am a complete and utter waste of oxygen, and thats fine. I just want to spend the rest of my life doing things that i enjoy, without bothering anyone and without hurting myself. I am self aware enough to know that if i continue i am just going to live a miserable life, at best i can achieve getting a hideous bf and dead end wagey job. Most people would be happy with that, but i know i wont. So why even bother? if the odds are all against me it would be just unnatural to keep trying, masochistic even. I just want to dedicate my life to the one and only thing that brings happiness and meaning in my life. If thats selfish then so be it. I am tired of doing painful thing that drive me to suicide just to make my family happy. If they are going to bring a child into this shit world, they should sopport them even if they dont want a meaningless soulless wagey life. It is what it is. I am going to be selfish and happy from now on.
No. 2466923
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>>2466919i really don't care whether you think your parents are shitty or not.
let's say your parents had the same reasoning as you? "fuck being a wageslave, why should i try if my daughter can't fucking get her ass to college"? then you'll all be homeless. you're taking advantage of the fact that they like you too much to kick your ass our of the house or stop working themselves. and then you try to throw a pity party of "muh theyre so
abusive" when that really wasn't your first justification, you're just throwing at me all your excuses hoping one will work.
you are really entitled and you sound really stupid. besides, what will you do once they die? you'll be homeless or a whore, that's what you'll do.
stop making up excuses, own up to the fact that you are a leech who won't do her part because her parents are too nice to kick her out.
No. 2466926
>>2466923>why should i try if my daughter can't fucking get her ass to college"?because they fucking choose to bring me to life. I didnt choose being alive. I tried killing myself and it bothered them too so they neither want me happy or dead, just in constant suffering.
>what will you do once they die?kill myself finally
No. 2466940
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>>2466932I'm not that anon. I hope you can get away from him soon, neeting off your parents means you'll be around them for longer and you deserve better than that.
No. 2466943
>>2466629>>2466655>>2466663I mean, you're not wrong. No matter how much it dont like hearing it, it doesn't make it any less true.
Idk what to do in that regard though.
I know I'm stunted and it's embarrassing cause I'm in my early 20's.
I'm soo angry all the time and I'm ashamed to admit I was way more mature at 18 than now.
I gave up after a certain incident bc bad shit kept happening and no amout of level headedness and patience and keeping it in would help.
I'm hoping at least when I'm away from my parents it'll be a good push.
Thank you for your honesty and sorry for my cringe vent. I was really frustrated in the moment.
No. 2466944
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>>2466908I'm honestly sick of falling for the job pysop. I'm in the top 15% of earners, government takes half my money (I'm not too mad at this, strong social polices is how I went to college for free and am not currently eating grass for food) and I can't afford to buy my own place without having a wealthy moid husband. I'd like to retire from life and just draw and stuff but I have to get dolled up every Monday through Friday and very often Saturday to take MS Teams meetings from assholes I have no respect for, who don't care about my opinion and won't let me do the thing I was trained to do.
I really want to draw, I'm not good at it but I'd like to. Also music. I'd like to learn music.
No. 2466946
>>2466940I dont see my dad anymore, i live with my mom now.
>>2466938Thats a risk you gotta take when you have a child. If they wanted a normie stacy maybe they should have tried not to make me poor and ugly.
>they'd probably have been happier with a normal functional daughter who doesn't use her depression and suicide threats as an excuse to be a bum.too bad for them they have a daughter that actually wants to be happy and not be their slaves for the rest of her life. Why should i suffer for their selfish decisions? You annoying bootlickers always nag and nag but never give actual solutions.
No. 2466957
>>2466946Here's some advice: Stay in school. Make something of yourself for the tiny sliver of chance that you won't be miserable in a few years.
>I am too autistic to make friends, too ugly to get a cute boyfriend, too retarded to keep up with my courses.You only need to focus on one of these and that's your courses. You probably won't be too retarded for them if you give up on trying to meet cute with a moid and don't push yourself to make friends before you're ready. Instead of getting down that you didn't fulfill whatever weird expectations you had for yourself, work harder at the one thing that matters (getting a good education so you can do something with it and not be stuck with your family forever). If you keep at it, you have a chance of success. If you give up and NEET with your family you have a 100% chance of failure. Now go put on some music that you like and get on your homework; it's not going to do itself.
No. 2466959
>>2466954>if your life is miserable the solution is to actually work hard to improve ityou didnt even read my original vent because it was about how i tried to improve my life and failed.
>inb4 well just try more!!1!!1no retard my point is that i am fucking tired of suffering. I am not a masochist i dont like waking up every day with suicidal thoughts.
>>2466957But i dont want to work. I have no motivation to stay in college outside of doing it as a sacrifice for my family. I waste so much time studying for shit i dont give a shit about when before college i would spend it drawing or doing things that brought me happiness. I am suffering for absolutely no reason at all outside of doing it for a family that doesnt even like me. So why? why should i keep suffering. Its obvious life wont improve, even if i try. I having such a hard time i started self harming again. I just cannot take it anymore, i am not happy like this.
No. 2466965
>>2466959You need a work-life balance. If you complete one assignment, don't go straight into the next one. Take a break and go draw for 20-40 minutes before you tackle the next assignment. Again, this will be easier if you stop trying to use college as a social experience and use it as a tool to get a degree so you can be in a less miserable place.
Screw your family, do it for you. Even if you don't like it, do it for the you who will probably still be kicking around ten years from now. If you don't want to become a vegetable, act now. Get your shit together or you'll see worse places than the psych ward you've been to, trust me on that.
No. 2466967
>>2466956I'm not an artist (I wish I was though), I'm an office
nonnie. My spirit animal is the Meeting Frog. Cold, slimey, croaks some good words. No one listens to frogs. I don't do anything creative.
I'm doing better than most, I shouldn't complain but I'm still living in a shitbox with two roommates (one is cool) so I can afford to keep going.
I can't invest either, tax is too high (40% imagine what we could do with that money??) but they don't so I won't.
I'm sorry I'm high and way too spicy I thought when I was 2X my life would be better than this.
No. 2466976
>>2466974No but I'm curious. Are you parents
abusive?
No. 2466978
>>2466976My dad used to beat me and was verbally
abusive, my moms a schizo but not physically
abusive. My whole family is shit though.
No. 2466984
>>2466979she literally choose him wtf you have more sympathy for a piece of shit that decided to procreate with an
abusive scrote that someone that was unwillingly born into this shit
>>2466980I am regreting wasting time doing lame shit like studying for a shitty career that pays less than the salary of a wallmart employee instead of drawing. Must be nice living in a developed country, but its not my case.
No. 2466991
>>2466984Yeah, I 100% have more sympathy for your mother than you. Not only do you have to do deal with an
abusive scrote but also a waste of space leech of a daughter.
No. 2466994
>>2466993I don't know at all but I'm giving the benefit of the doubt to the mother considering
nonnie's weak fail-male moid-like mindset already.
No. 2466998
>>2466997tbh if my daughter was
nonnie I wouldn't care either.
No. 2467003
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I hate STEM I wish I picked cuneiform writing up or something
No. 2467032
>>2467005You obviously dont have a single real problem in your life, i can tell you are american or from another first world country and probably think the illegal inmigrants in your country who do the job no one else wants should be grateful for the opportunity of wageslaving in your country.
>>2467026What advice? kek is screeching about how i am a parasite because i dont want to keep suffering for my moms mistakes advice now? none of you can come up with a solution that doesnt involve me suffering for others.
No. 2467036
>>2467032>come up with a solution that doesnt involve me suffering for others.suffering ie working a comfy office job (while some people are breaking their backs for peanuts) and supporting yourself
nice idea of suffering
the advice is grow up and work with what you have instead of blaming everyone for your not even so miserable life
No. 2467041
>>2467040>I haven't a-logged once>Could always lay your legs over the train tracks and hope your government takes care of its invalids.aha sure
>You're only hurting yourself.yes by doing things that clearly make me want to kill myself instead of neeting, finally you get it!
No. 2467080
>>2467075because life's a grind and the grind doesn't get better because you're bedrotting, i can only get better if you try. we cant give you solutions because we dont know your specific situation.
even if you said "ill stay home and come up with a master plan to support myself" itd be better than saying "ill lay down and bedrot nutil my parents die". the main problem here is your mentality. im not saying your situation isnt difficult but your mentality isnt going to help
No. 2467105
>>2467096My only motivation was this scrote i have a crush on, but he doesnt like me and hes friends with an annoying tif that doesnt like me either. I have no other goal besides that. I thought college was going to fix me but it just made all the suicidal thoughts to come back at full force.
>>2467099I have a rope with a spliknot saved for that a moment. Like i said, i have tried to kill myself before. I actually tried college because i thought it was going to fix my life but it only made me realize how useless i am and how shallow life is.
No. 2467117
>>2467113Because
>>2466899 reads like a genderswapped r9k post.
No. 2467120
>>2467112Girlboss slay queen is a psy-op to keep industrious women from opening their own businesses so moids can do that instead
>>2467115You draw for yourself and then let people decide if they want to pay for it or not. The product idea is bc most people enjoy not struggling and worrying about money all the time, instead of always focusing on how they don't have enough of it
No. 2467149
>>2467140Moids dont own hidamari sketch, its done by a woman and its the comfiest anime on earth.
>>2467146if i was male i wouldnt have this problem, scrotes can get gfs no matter how hideous they are. I also never said ''no bf no work'' they are completly unrelated things.
No. 2467211
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God, I can't even go outside anymore.
No. 2467222
>>2466030>Why should the weight of it be on a woman though?Ayrt it's not on "a woman" but on loved ones who care about the person in question, which often includes at least one woman. I'm also not saying it's actually anyones "job" to fix someone else. What I'm saying is IF it's a person you care about such as a family member and IF you wanted to help them get out of inceldom or falling for an ideology you'd have to bring them back to reality… by actually literally bringing them to reality and pulling them away from the online incel spaces.
>>2466133>Being nice doesn't change their incel state anyway. Many of them were already treated decently, even outright spoiled sometimes, they just don't care.You have to judge on a case by case basis if it's worth it. People have left the KKK and stopped being neo-nazis before. Men without direction can cling onto any heinous shit because men in particular need to be told what to think and do. Plenty of people know a man who seemed decent and normal until he got into the wrong crowd, they weren't all spoiled from the get go, even though such cases exist too. It's possible to make some of them come back to sanity. It's not your job to even try, but if it's someone you actually care about you may want to.
No. 2467235
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>>2466961>>2466963>>2466973>>2467033>>2467043Kek the last time I said something like this anons got mad at me for "encouraging suicide in the vent thread" but now it's justified
No. 2467239
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>>2467236But I'm not a leech
No. 2467245
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They discontinued my favorite sweets in pretty much every big chain store in my country…
No. 2467249
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i think im lowkey traumatized by a reddit screencap i saw of a guy talking about how he was throatfucking his girlfriend (on top of her) and her dad walked in and made eye contact with his daughter getting fucked in the face i dont think ive ever got so much second-hand embarassment reading something in my life. holy fuck. i just pray it was some larp post for updoots.
No. 2467281
>>2466827Maybe I didn't word it well.
The argument wasn't about the character. At the party someone mentioned they wanna pick ATO up again cause they weren't caught up. And then me with them and another person started talking about characters in the show. He wasn't part of the conversation. I ranted about eren cause he's mad annoying.
The only thing that bothered me was him blowing up in a strangers car bc he was annoyed over a rant I had that he didn't even participate in where I was hungry, irritated and tired.
And then next day telling me things that are unnecesarry in fixing a potential issue with me like "watch your mouth" and "you sound like a 14 yr with a temper tantrum, but not always".
We don't really argue tbh, sometimes he has a buildup of frustrations and can be tipped. Usualy when he blows up and says shit it's the most out of pocket stuff so i don't take it seriously cause he doen't think before speaking. I usually see if he's fr the next day.
Sorry to ruin your fun, though it would be pretty funny if someone borkeup with their partner over eren.
Dreadfull character.
No. 2467284
>>2466701Who hurt you nona?
Why do you think the world is making fun of you?
No. 2467359
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>>2467039Girl look. You're clearly depressed and you have been for a very very very long time. Staying in that mysery can really warp you.
If possible go to a therapist asap.
I think some of the nonies here got really wriled up and said some very horrible things out of frustration and anger but the core message is, if you give up now and become a NEET you'll make your depression way way worse.
Isolation will accelerate your suffering. NEETing is a temporary solutin and the path of least resistence your brain is looking for as a dopamine fix. It's all synthetic. It's not permanet and not tangible.
It's true, you didn't ask to be here. Neither did I. At least once a day since the age of 10 I wanted to die, I wanted to dissapear into the earth becaue I didn't ask for this life. I also have an
abusive father but my mom never left him. The only thing that kept me from death is the curiosity that it can't get worse than this, and if it does, I wanna be here to see the drama, even I it happens to me. That and empathy.
I think what you need most is having love for life. It's a very shallow thing to say but, it's a muscle you have to train. If you die, they won't be there no more. The very real and solid posibility that you'll never draw, never eat, never smell the air, never witness the gossip.
Fuck your parents, living is painful, but you only get to walk long distances if ypur feet get calluses.
Maybe this career isn't what you wanna really do, it's ok to be fatigued. Our mental state always change. Some days you're really into it, some days you despise it (that's your queue for a break), most days it's neutral.
I wnat to see you well nona. Sticking up for yourself? For that little helpless girl in you? That's the most based thig for your sense of self. Get that little girl out of the shitter and show her and yourself the life you deserve.
I'm sorry your economy sucks, mine does too. Life is long and you never know if you'll move from there or not. I reccomend you do.
Love you nonna. I'll wish on a shooting star for the spark you need and light a candle for your wellbeing.
No. 2467379
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>>2467088hey nona, I wouldn't wanna leave you on seen especially in the middle of this fight.
I don't have extreme period pain or endo but I wish you luck anyway. I hope it goes smoothly and that the problem is manageable.
No. 2467396
The first time it happened I was laying in bed and it was dark. My bf entered the bedroom and I said, "Oh there you are." He said in a ver rude and snappy tone "Where else would I be?" I found his tone very rude and inappropriate. It felt unnecessarily cold. It made me really angry and tense like I was trapped in a cage. It was just like that time with my ex. It felt like my body was freezing on the outside and all I could do was stare straight ahead like a deer. Inside me something was burning sharply but it couldn’t come out. It hurt but I knew I couldn’t let it out. This has only happened to me once when I was 11 with my brother when he provoked me over and over again and we ended up in a fistfight. I’ve felt all of this many times in varying degrees, when my parents treated me unfairly, when I was bullied at school, or when my brother provoked me. I laid there, unable to think about anything else. I was really angry, and I knew that if I said something, I would def start crying. But if i stay silent, try to ignore it, everyone would just walk all over me. But if I say something, I would start crying, and then people would mock me. Like in school when I was getting bullied. After about 10 minutes while I laid there in the bed in the dark I made a decision and said something. I was angry, but I tried to express it appropriately by explaining how his words had come across to me. If ignoring it is a 1, screaming and yelling is an 8, and pushing or hitting (like when me and my brother were punching each other) is a 10, then I was maybe at a 3 or 4 on the showing anger scale. My tone was sharp and louder, and unfortunately I started crying. He immediately became defensive. That’s something that really bothers me. He always gets defensive, even in everyday situations. I find it completely absurd. If I say "Oh, you liked that" or "You did this and that" he responds with, "Only because you wanted me to" or "well you did xyz more". Like just admit it it is annoying. He said he didn’t really notice his tone, but wtf every sane person knows how to use their voice. Absurd. I told him that it’s not okay for him to speak to me like that. I don’t speak to him in that kind of shitty tone either. He apologized. Two weeks later it happened again. We were sitting on the couch, eating, and watching a movie. I was focused on my food, and he had placed the drinks somewhere I couldn’t see. I wanted to know where they were so I could get something to drink when I was done eating. I asked "Where did you put the drinks?" He replied "Is that really important right now?" in an unnecessarily harsh and annoyed tone. My first reaction this tone was to call him a petty diva. I felt tense afterward like the first time and kept thinking about how I should react while I ate my dinner. The first time I felt mostly angry but but this time I felt disappointed (and also angry). But I kept eating and didn’t turn towards him even once. I ate extra slowly while I was ruminating about wtf I should do now. When I finally finished the food I drank the last sip from my glass and immediately he was there to refill it. I just kept watching the movie and didn’t talk to him. I didn’t feel great about it because I didn’t know what else to do. I felt like my mother. She always ignored me when she was angry. Normally, I’m very affectionate with my bf and he is with me, so it felt unnatural to just sit there in silence, not hugging him while watching the movie. He moved closer and looked at me. I just asked if he had something to say to me. He apologized and I just said "Thank you." That’s all I remember.
Mentally I made a note of it. People say the first time is a coincidence, the second time is a tendency, the third time is a pattern. When he talks to me like that, in a way that is completely inappropriate for the situation, it feels like he’s talking to someone who is not important. It reminds me of my ex-boyfriend or my parents. That scares me and I don’t know how to deal with it. It makes me freeze up, but deep down I just want to run away as fast as I can because I can’t waste another seven years being treated badly. I know that he is not my ex or my parenty. They are different people. And apart from the thing is described, I haven't noticed anything annoying or unpleasant. But I worry about what might happen if this happens a third time. How should I react? I can’t just let that stuff slide. The third time is a pattern. It is his responsibility not to talk to me like that. I made that clear and I have no control over how he behaves. But it is my responsibility to call it out and punish it. The thing is that you have to follow through with it otherwise you won’t be taken seriously. Like with lenient parents whose kids turn out to be little shitheads. So what would be an appropriate consequence if it happens a third time? He already knows that I think his tone was inappropriate. By the third time, I also have to tell him in a cold tone so that he understands what he did wrong. My mother always says that you can only punish a dog at the moment he does something wrong. Otherwise, it gets confused and can’t connect the punishment to its behavior. So I cannot wait again and ruminate. So what would be a good and reasonable consequence? Three times is too many. By then, he should have learned that his behavior is not okay and should have worked on it. But if it happens a third time, then he hasn’t and doesn't think it's important. We were in his apartment. And of course, I can’t take away his phone or his computer because I’m not his parents, and we are both in our twenties so that would be ridiculous. The only thing I have is myself. So I could take myself away from him for a while. I could just say "I going home to my apartment for this evening."
That way, he will learn that his actions have consequences. His behavior disappointed me. And I don’t want to be treated like that.
No. 2467435
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Not feeling like myself. Wrote a suicide note which I’ve never done before because it never got this bad
No. 2467460
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There is someone I'm interested in but he recently broke up with his girlfriend and seems like he is still thinking about her alot. I don't want to be no runaround, but hopefully he hasn't found a Stacy to be with by the time I say something.
No. 2467464
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>>2467435Please dont kys. Your going to die one day anyway, so why rush it? At least wait and see how life turns out, enjoy playing your video games or reading books, or laughing at a funny video or watching the clouds rush through the sky. If life turns out good or bad, it’s ok because you will die when it’s time to die. I love all you farmers even though most of you are retarded and annoying, but i still love you and want to grow old with you on here.
No. 2467502
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>>2466899Nona, I hope you will think more carefully about your decision and how this will affect your future. These are silly reasons to drop out.
>too autistic to make friends and too ugly to get a cute boyfriendSo what? Are you in college just to have a social life or are you there to improve your chances to get a better job where you make more money, have more free time, be more independent, and be a more well-rounded person who has a better idea of the world? Despite it being shilled as that, college isn't playtime for anyone that's serious about actually getting something out of it. Don't become another sorority chick just there for sex, drugs, partying, and alcohol.
>too retarded to keep up with my coursesSurely you have resources that can help you with this? I fucked up my first year of college so bad from failing almost all my courses repeatedly that I was put on academic probation and almost kicked out of school. I just stopped going to classes completely and my depression got so bad I tried to kill myself. Took a gap year to work a wagie job in fast food and retake some of the classes I failed at a local community college. The classes at the community college were cheap enough for me to pay my way through them from my wagie bucks. My time there also helped me realize I didn't care about my major and that I wanted to do something else, so after coming back to my normal uni I ended up changing majors. I started putting my nose to the grindstone to get my academic standing back up until eventually I was in academic honors multiple semesters in a row. I worked really hard to recover and eventually things started looking up alot.
It was very difficult, but it worked out because I was determined, made use of tutoring or other campus resources wherever I could, and willing to work hard. I'm a huge retard, far from smart, but having those three things I believe was enough for me to make it. If I can do it, I'm sure you will be able to too. Don't slip back into NEETdom just because it's more comfortable. You need progress in your life.
No. 2467519
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i don't belong anywhere. anywhere! i feel so "other" all the time. i feel out of place with the few friends i have both offline and online. i don't even fit in with my own family. what kind of a life is this? why would God make social connection a basic human need and then make me this way?
No. 2467523
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>Traveling, stop at a Buccee’s to use the restroom and eat
>Large sign as you enter the restroom area
>NO MERCHANDISE BEYOND THIS POINT
>Man comes out of the restroom holding a chopped brisket sandwich
No. 2467560
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I'm such a neurotic pussy, and I guess I'm always going to be. I just want to be less fearful, make art and feel okay doing it alone. Do some undercover journalism or something. But I live at home, I'm scared and don't have tons of money. What am I afraid of? I wish I could go undercover in a strip club or something, taboo things and do that sort of journalism too, but it is too dangerous. I'm also too afraid to just travel and film around, I'm nervous of dangerous interactions. It just seems neat to maybe film the real world, interview real people…but I'm a fucking meek, shy homebody, petrified of the earth that i'll eventually be buried into!
No. 2467637
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I'm fucking sick of people constantly getting mad at me lately when I've done nothing wrong
No. 2467660
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i feel obligated to keep someone who has done nothing but make mean jabs to me for a decade now all because i think im horrible and deserve it. living elsewhere and making new friends made me realise just how terrible she is and how bad she makes me feel and yet here i am still doing things for her with 0 reciprocation and nasty comments about how i waited until after graduating uni to get my license and how i didnt have a job within 2 weeks of returning home. somebody fucking lobotomise me already
No. 2467669
>>2467656That's insane. Where I live, that's all the landlord's job.
Since it's a shit job anyways, and you think you will have to redo it, go to sleep right now. And maybe call in to work when you wake up, say you were vomiting all night. If you can't, then that's understandable, but I think you need a full night's rest and then some. You can talk with your landlord and see what needs to be done afterwards.
No. 2467691
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so lonely lately that ive been fixating on male celebrities like a loser
No. 2467757
>>2467519Maybe you're going through a major change and that makes you relate less with friends and family.
You'll get back that scial cyrcle nona don't worry, sometimes we need to shed.
No. 2467766
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She already left the company but I cannot stop ruminating over an ex-coworker who bullied me and created a separate chat group where she talked shit about me behind my back with 2 other coworkers. All this because I was depressed and was not social with her and her group. She also implied that I was autistic in front of everyone which might be true but still. I cannot stop stalking her on her socials and fantasizing about taking revenge. I think part of my obsession is because I envy some of her qualities, her confidence, her popularity and her social skills. Meanwhile I'm a depressed turd
No. 2467790
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I like some of her takes but this one was retarded. Never in the life of Hollywood sex and appeal wasn’t made center of everything, especially for women. All the sex scenes are portrayed through the lens of men, even women’s suffering (rape scenes, violence and horror movies in general) are just free porn for men.
I don’t need to see an awkward 10 minute scene of two actors fucking when it adds nothing to the plot in the first place.
No. 2467808
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>>2467790Idk much about mina, is she a conservative? I've seen lots of them celebrate shit like that one recent Carl Jr. ad (picrel) with "we are so back" "we can have sexy women in media again" etc. If she's not then this is sad.
No. 2467835
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Everybody is out to get you, everybody is out to sabotage you. The world is out to get you always. There is no one to truly trust and have loyalty in. Nobody is your friend, they are all vampires, bottom feeders, energy suckers. The “people” you’re experiencing are not real either, but they are just that - experiences like putting the VR goggles on.
No. 2467853
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>>2467847That doesn't even make sense, why should they go first because they have a baby? I would imagine you as one person would have less to buy than a family with a baby, and getting the baby through the line faster just implies everyone wants to get the baby out of the store as quickly as possible kek. I would have just acted like they didn't exist and carried on.
No. 2467881
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I never could have imagined a world where I wouldn't want to have cats on my lap at all times, but since taking in these two little weirdos, I now live in that world. I have never met such needy cats in all my life, such demanding cats, they are addicted to attention. I can't exist in their eye line without them immediately coming over to invade my personal space. The male is the worst, even if you try and make it impossible to sit in your lap, he will find a way. As I write this, even though my knees are up in an awkward position and I'm turned sideways on my chair, he is in my lap, crawling all over my arms and legs trying to get comfortable, knocking my phone every which way, bonking his retard face into my face. He is so AGGRESSIVELY cuddly, he will rub his face and his wet fucking nose as hard as he can all over your hands, your face, your neck and chest. I'll be begging him to give me some space and leave me alone, but his space just is my space in his mind. And he whines and cries like a human baby! He has everything he could ever want but if you heard him from outside you'd think he was literally dying. The girl isn't nearly as bad, but also very demanding, and is willing to put herself in precarious positions to obtain a lap. She has BPD or something, loves being held like a baby and will purr so loud but will attack your hand and attempt a full force bite if you approach her wrong for petting. And she's stupid old, she's missing some teeth, so she drools. I end up with puddles on my arms after she's been laying there a while. All of this really makes me appreciate my other cat, he is so well behaved, so simple, so sensible, so gentlemanly.
No. 2467914
>>2467881When male cat does this, scoopp him up in your arms and start giving him attention. Rub your face on his, use your hands to pet and pat him all over, squeeze him like you're hugging him. Be relentless with it. You need to fight fire with fire. Make your voice very excited and baby talk him, too. When you see him, immediately make an enthusiastic noise like you want to engage him. You should definitely go in on hugging him, cats are kind of adverse to it, but it's still affection.
Eventually he will tire of your constant attention and will start turning the other way when he sees you coming kek
No. 2467925
>>2467923Kekk I'd ask how budget is budget, because sometimes budget laptops are… too budget. I always try to get an on sale laptop with pretty good hardware. My current laptop is about to hit her first decade! She has a lot more problems than a brand new machine, but still kicking and more than enough to get the job done.
Anyways, hopefully reinstalling the driver works! Sorry for assuming you had a Lenovo, I've had to troubleshoot those fuckers for family before and my parting advice is always "don't get a lenovo next time".
No. 2467966
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I miss the person I was before my first and second suicide attempts (which occurred at 13 and 14 respectively).
Back before the 1st one, I had so much discipline, was juggling school, extracurriculars and was learning 2 foreign languages by myself and had genuine curiosity and hope, even despite being extremely shy, bullied at school and having a shit relationship with my parents.
After the second one and some other events throughout the years, I pretty much lost all hope and I became paranoid to some degree - thoughts of being hunted for sport, everyone is evil and no one cannot be trusted. I lost the love I had for drawing at that time too, and it’s still the most heartbreaking thing to me, this was the only thing that brought me joy genuinely.
Since then I have lived on autopilot so that I won’t inflict pain on my parents (we’re getting along now), but lately I’ve been feeling suicidal and I didn’t feel that for the past 4 years and idk how to feel about that.
Maybe my time really passed for a lot of things and there is nothing in store for me anymore. I lost all opportunities because I was too mentally ill for shit and have very low self esteem even to this day. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere too and I’m so paralyzed by making decisions, maybe the graveyard is calling me after all kek.
No. 2467972
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I told a woman her husband was cheating on her because I saw him admit to having a gf on the side. The wife told me she would look more into it, but part of me deep down knew that she wouldn't care.
Hopefully, what I did was right.
No. 2468053
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mfw i might be getting kicked out of my room because my alcoholic deadbeat father's retarded handmaiden enabler sister wants to bring their old demented mother to our house and have her sleep in my bed so my father can take care of her except he won't because he's too busy blasting tv on full volume and chugging beer and pissing and shitting everywhere (not an exaggeration) and throwing dirty laundry/utensils/alcohol bottles at my mother
also everyone at work thinks i don't need that many hours because i'm just a little kid living with my parents so it's not like i need the money that much. yeah sure
No. 2468087
>>2468025Is there anywhere else you can go, just for now? A friend's house, a shelter, anything? Unfortunately there's little you can do about these types of moids because the law doesn't give a fuck about
any type of abuse, but especially not mental/emotional, but at the very least you could maybe get a restraining order.
>What if he does this to another woman?Secure your own oxygen mask before you try to fix someone else's. Worrying over "what ifs" is going to do nothing except stress you out and paralyse you. I hope someone with more experience or knowledge about these situations can weigh in, but please put yourself first nonna.
No. 2468149
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My life is genuinely over, I wanna kms, but I’m also afraid to do it, don’t want to make my parents’ nightmare come true and I also don’t want to feel the pain while I hurt myself physically.
It’s no point, been mentally ill for decades and still continue to do so, atp it’s impossible to turn my life around. The coffin bed will be more comfier than any other bed I slept in while alive.
No. 2468151
>>2468141I'm not "enabling" her anon. I'm just not going to let the woman who basically raised me go with barely even any money for gas. Me giving her money isn't about helping my uncle, it's about helping her. I don't mind giving her money, I just don't like how her kids are.
>try to get her to see she can't keep covering themI've tried. She's simply a woman who feels that a mother has to be responsible for the children she beared (not completely wrong). It's fucked up but I know her. I won't chastise her.
No. 2468258
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I'm so retarded. I moved an extra £100 I had left over to my savings account the other day and since then I'm panicking because my current account is lower than it normally is by the end of the month. I have to literally tell myself and console myself that the £100 is still there it's just in my savings so it can generate interest. I was literally tempted to move it back into my current account again just to make the numbers look higher. I'm actually a retard because it literally does not matter either way. Why am I like this? I feel like micromanaging money and growing up as a poorfag has made me panic over stuff that isn't even a problem.
No. 2468259
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My mom is a doctor and she's so close to being a munchie by proxy. Ever since I moved in with her at age 15 she's been trying to get me sick one way or another. She's always making me do blood tests and MRIs so she can find something to scare me with. A few years ago she made me do a brain MRI for no reason other than to munch out and they actually found a tumour in my pituary gland. It's completely benign but to my mother it's not and it's going to kill me and make me gain 200 pounds. Because of her now I have to do a brain scan once a year for the rest of my life for a fucking benign tumour that 7% of the population has. Fuck my mom.
No. 2468264
>>2468261>Why can't they go on a creative breakKek this reminds me of when Gorillaz took a break for
7 years between phases 3 and 4
No. 2468288
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I have a headache and need to work on assignments but I agreed to have a phone call with a friend today. If it wasn’t for the fact I accidentally forgot to reply to her for a week because of work I would try to reschedule. I don’t want her to think I am blowing her off again though ughhh
No. 2468303
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I just took a sick day off from work and I got shit for it from my boss (even though I was very ill and I didn't want to make anyone else ill at work.) And now, the cat I've had since I was in middle school is very ill and I have to take her to the vet. I work six days a week and my only day off is Sunday. It is unavoidable that I will once again miss work. I'm taking my cat to the vet no matter what, but I hate getting shit for trying to do the right thing (not make my coworkers sick, taking care of my pet…) I'm a good worker, I work like a fucken dog and I'm fast and efficient. But all of that doesn't matter to corporate- I know that. As if I'm gonna let my cat suffer. Stupid, it's all so stupid…
No. 2468311
>>2468284I relate with you nonna, I don’t see relationships with men worthwhile and honestly now that I’m older (I’m 25) I do enjoy my free time. I am okay with not having kids.’
>You think most women marry because of love? They married because they have to."What a depressing way to live, being stuck with a person I don’t want is my biggest nightmare. I honestly never saw the “you’ll become an old wrinkly maiden who will be alone!!” As a threat, I’d rather be alone, have my own money to afford going to holidays , buying what I want and being at peace, rather than settle for the first bum.
No. 2468334
I hate that the more time passes, the more the people are become illiterate and retarded. I had to do a google form for work and even if the questions were straight forward, I had a lot of people asking me "Yes but what do you mean?" or "What does this mean?" when the questions were literally "If you had done [X] in the past couple of months please write it down, if you didn't skip this question."
or "If you have this document, please also send this document"
Like…can't people not read anymore? I'm almost 30, I'm not that old nor a zoomer, I had reading comprehension classes and teachers gave us little books to read and then write an essay about who did what in the book. I lose so much time because people read but don't assimilate information, in the case of the second question, the one about needing a second document if they have a specific one, people either asked me what should they send if they have a third, totally unrelated document or where could they find the second document, which is fucking stapled to the first one. Turn a page.
One time there was a test to pass in order to access a special platform and that test was a brief synthetized version of a document I sent and many people didn't pass it, one of them said "Yeah but where do I find the answers?"
"You have to read the slides"
"Read? All of them?"
It's so fucking absurd that the majority of these peoples are people that have good paying jobs and have mortgages and such, meanwhile to find a good job I had to do countless "microskill" meetings. Some of these can't fucking read a question and they get paid more than me, how do they survive in the wild out there.
No. 2468341
>>2467966did you have a psychotic episode or something that
triggered those attempts? or you were just really depressed?
>>2468149whats wrong with your life nona
No. 2468493
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>Make attempts to be friendly, talkative, and nice
>Smile a lot
>Still can't manage to befriend anyone
For the record I'm not an autist just shy. I will say that I'm getting better at talking to people but I'm only a little sad I still can't seem to successfully make friends.
No. 2468495
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My mother went on a psychotic rant with my fathers friend because he keeps cheating on her with prostitutes and now I know that i was inside the balls of a man with a micropenis. I was never meant to be born and I knew it but like, not only is my father a genetic dead end because of retardation, fat, annoying personality, ugly looks(I look like him), and overall childish demeanor.
He has a micro penis.
I came out of a mircopenis
I have to fucking kill myself. I hate my mother for not marrying that korean pastor before meeting my ugly broke dad. That stupid bitch ruined every single chance she has ever had to do the right thing and now I have to live like this for the rest of my life.
No. 2468496
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I've only woke up once in my life feeling alive and I truly wish I never did because it made the rest of my life seem like one nonstop nightmare. Sure, my body just felt so much better, even the way the sheets felt on my body felt so much more real but it was the way my mind felt so alive that has stuck with me…how I was just able to be present and talk to people for once and have fun. To feel ideas just spontaneously pop into my head and not them being buried beneath a miasma. Now that I'm getting up in the years I realize that it will never happen again and all I have is loathing that maybe…life could have been better.
No. 2468603
My favorite cousin has become a stereotypical boymom I hate her so much. She calls her daughter sassy and insists every other thing she does is somehow out of spite when she’s literally 4 years old. Also makes weirdass snippy little comments about her appearance and mannerisms already, like how the kid isn’t as blonde as she was as a kid, is balding, even called her a “hot mess girly pop” on one occasion. Meanwhile her son is a sweet angel who only ever has good intentions. He’s fucking annoying, probably has some sort of unaddressed ADHD, always screaming, on the verge of a meltdown, has been suspended from kindergarten twice, breaks literally everything (on purpose!) and somehow this is all so funny and cute. I feel so bad for the kids and so repulsed by her. It’s tricky reconciling this version of her with my childhood memories, she always stood up for me as a kid which was really hard in our extremely patriarchal culture, she introduced me to like actual feminist theory outside of watered down tumblr posts, now she’s exactly like the aunties we used to make fun of
No. 2468631
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I've been on Sertraline since January and the insomnia and crazy vivid dreams are getting to me. Last nights dream was the worst. I dreamt that I went abroad to visit my ex despite us breaking up 7ish years ago. In this dream he was kind and funny and defended me from something, but in reality he cheated on me and also pressured me into sex (which I now realize was not consensual). I feel disgusted because the dream ended with us having really good sex, then I woke up and it felt like I had a crush on him all over again. I've been feeling disgusted and confused all day because this man is scum and i havent even thought about him in years and yet today I was kind of wishing the dream was real just to feel what I felt in it. I hope my head will be clear again tomorrow. I hate these fucking pills.
No. 2468640
7 going on 8 days on period. Endometriosis. Pain. Can't afford new prescription for anti depressants. Can't sleep, lay awake thinking horrible suicidal thoughts, every mistake I've ever made, all the ways I'm a waste in this world. 25, no real job, no friends, never been to college. 24/7 caregiver to my mother, obese, bed bound, can't walk. Wash her, feed her, dress her, wipe her. Only money I make is from tutoring at home. Rarely go out on the town. Can't go out, mother might get out of bed and hurt herself (has happened before) or needs me. My brother is partner in his internet provider service company, won't help us, says I should get a real job, I'm a bum, a loser, practically a ghost. If I argue with my mother or express my sadness, she threatens to throw me out and rent my room to someone who could actually keep her good company. I should just kill myself
No. 2468678
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>>2468288I did the call and it was nice. We only talked for an hour and she was completely understanding about how busy I’ve been. We’re planning on having a longer call and talk more once I have more time in a month.
No. 2468684
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I’m broke, unemployed, retarded, friendless, and hopeless and the only relief I will get is from peaceful death into the inevitable void. I can’t wait until that peace arrives
No. 2468755
>>2468753clocky radfem^^^
moids had to be so perverted and AGP this is a real thing I need to consider now… reading those "clocky threads" I guess
No. 2468756
>>2468726We have medical marijuana in my state, so I go to my favorite dispensary. I like sativas for daytime and indicas for night and nap time. I usually just get vape carts tbh cause it’s cheaper than flower and all flower is smelly in some capacity if you’re burning it. The vape smell dissipates quickly. I used to chain smoke joints but it got too costly kek. If I had more money I’d smoke more than I do. Sometimes I hunblebrag about cutting back and barely smoking flower “for my health” but I’m a fucking liar, I’ve only cut back cause I’m
A Broke Bitch
>>2468746Samesies but sometimes I think of myself more like a Welcome to the NHK even though i unfortunately don’t live on my own, it’s cozy. I’m basically a hikkiNEET, I haven’t left the house other than to walk around the block (always at night cause fuck sun) in a couple weeks. My parents offer to take me to stores and I decline. I am diagnosed with agoraphobia though.
No. 2468770
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>>2468478Your whole problem is you can’t just be honest.
>I hate hearing all their love life drama and being expected to have good adviceThen don’t offer advice.
>I hate walking on eggshells and thinking so hard to make sure I say the right thingThen don’t do that.
>hate hearing people's stupid opinions and having to hold my tongueThen don’t hold your tongue.
If you don’t even enjoy spending time with anyone, then what’s the worst that could happen if you be honest about your feelings or opinions? You lose friends? You don’t even like having them in the first place. Go HAM already. Tell someone off. Refuse to coddle people. Either you’ll run everyone away or you’ll start attracting people who you don’t have to perform for. A win either way.
No. 2468774
>>2468761I cut him off before he could finish but basically I think he was going to say something along the lines of "too much makeup" - which I don't even actually wear, I don't even wear powders.
I think it's mostly bc I use fake eyelashes everyday but! that is because I was bitten by a dog as a child and I have a scar near my eye I'm obscenely insecure about.
He knows about the scar - he might not know I wear the eyelashes daily because of that, but yeah, I don't know how to get rid of the scar w/o dropping a couple thousands of dollars on it, so they'll stay on for now.
But even when I was younger and I didn't wear anything on my face, it was always boys who were absolute jerks and pointed out my scar constantly, girls were the nicest and I was lucky to always be pretty popular amongst girls. Then I got hot after puberty and those dynamics changed but I still have PTSD of being in late middle school and having the scar be pointed out my my best friend's bf at the time… sigh
I hate moids obligatory ending
No. 2468826
>>2468341I don’t think those were psychotic events. If I really think about it, my old therapist told me that depression can occur in kids as young as 7 after I told her I wrote at that age a comic script in which a fairy would sprinkle fairy dust on me and I will disappear and my parents would be happy in the end. So, most likely depression.
> whats wrong with your life nonaI samefagged in both posts. Retarded, I know, but I wanted to talk with someone. Well, I feel like my life’s over and I’m not 26 yet. I lived my entire life by the rules and it brought me nothing in the end and it’s too late to turn my life around at this point.
>be the best in school and don’t dare to get home with grades lower than 8>bow your head down and be careful what you say>think about the others>you have to have a family someday>go to uni and get a job in shit like IT (dropped out in 2nd year)>keep this job you’re working right now even though the pay is shit and makes you miserable>you have to be perfect in order to have good things in lifeAnd these are still creeping in the back of my mind, especially right now. I feel like I lost precious years doing nothing in the end and I feel like a retard trying to change my life right now. My peers who didn’t give a shit are living their dream lives and I envy them so much, they did that in their early 20’s and are living life to the fullest. Meanwhile, I’m trying to finish my 2nd uni while having this shit job.
No one wants a retard who wants to do art over the age of 25, I lost all chances of living my dream artistic life to be fair. Maybe I was onto something when I wanted to kms before the age of 15, should’ve done it back then, feel like I have lived for too long atp.
>>2468447I’m happy it works for you nonna, but I know for a fact that it would make my issues worse kek.
No. 2468835
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Up all night at the emergency vet, I have a presentation in 2 hours and I'm pretty sure I'm seeing spots. I have a red bull and manic energy. Lets do this.
No. 2468844
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I thought this guy was into me, it would have been the first time that an actually smart handsome and normal guy showed any interest in me, but he's suddenly acting all weird. I hate it, it feels like my fault even though it's not. It's so humiliating, trying to date in this modern era.
No. 2468845
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>>2468844Also I accidentally a project for one of my courses and I spent so long on it. I'm so cooked.
No. 2469018
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>why dont you vote conservative nonnie if you hate troons so much???
this is why.
>inb4 u dont make sense!!!!
its all a slippery slope. it always is.
No. 2469046
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i miss my fucking dog man
No. 2469085
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Watching foreign media and I've come to the realisation that I sound retarded as fuck. I want a nice accent. New Zealand is nice I want to sound like them.
No. 2469106
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I unfortunately did some late-night snooping on my ex and found out some crazy mixed news. Turns out that his current gf (who's very nice and deserves far better) is pregnant and they're expecting a baby. I don't know how far along she is obviously and that's none of my business and I hope that she has a safe pregnancy it's just a shame it has to be with him. However I also found out that he was still replying to Twitter e-girls stuff and still had his weird twitter porn account as of October 2024. I'm 90% sure that's his Twitter account considering he has a very unique name and he had an obsession with porn/egirls etc over a decade ago when we dated.
Moids actually don't change. Years ago he messaged me and another of his ex trying to talk to us so I informed the current gf just out of respect as I was cheated on by him and if I was her I'd want to know what he's up to. We had a nice convo about it and I wished her well and said she deserved better. I guess she didn't leave and now she's having his child. It's crazy. I cannot imagine living with a woman and then starting a family with her just to still have that fucking Twitter porn account open a few months prior. It's disgusting. It doesn't even make me feel any sort of way, I'm just concerned for her. He was a degenerate around a decade ago when we broke up and it seems he hasn't changed and I doubt he'll change even when the baby is involved. I wish she could have started a family with a man who actually cared about her, she seems genuinely sweet and listened to me all those years ago when I expressed concerns and told her about him having a pattern of being unfaithful. I'm just sad that this has happened to her.
No. 2469111
>>2464941> People already consider woman like me trans or intersex or "something weird".I really doubt this, I don't know where are you from, but in most places even if you're a hairy or masculine looking woman, they still consider you a woman. Only retards would think you're trans or intersex just because you have PCOS. I understand you though, I have PCOS too and on top of that I've never been into some things that are considered feminine, so troons saying they are basically the same as us can make you think. The thing is, as other nonna said, you have PCOS because you're a woman, because you have ovaries. You should understand that feminity-masculinity is an spectrum, you'd rarely meet someone who fully fits in one of those two boxes, and no, it doesn't make you less of a woman if you don't fit.
No. 2469137
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>>2469127And you still haven't filed a formal complaint with the department or university? Get on that, stop letting people walk all over you and ruin you. Put up a fight for once.
>>2469131Stop letting yourself be a doormat for other people, it's cringe and embarrassing. You're the one that's letting that happen, it's your fault and you're the only one that can change it.
No. 2469266
>>2469254>>2469046I used to be a dog-hatefag. I started volunteering at a shelter for the cats. Fine. I start dog walking because I used to train dogs in my teens and as a kid and the need was for more dog walkers.
Now I have a lot more compassion and empathy for dogs. They challenged a lot of my views on them. My favorite dogs are the ones who I can tell don't care about humans, but they will be nice/placid/neutral just so they can get what they want. They're unfortunately less attractive to people because they don't cuddle or love the way other dogs do. It's really wonderful of you to keep your dog and adjust your lifestyle to suit her - most dogs like that in a pound will probably die because they're not a friendly personality. But many dogs who aren't friendly can work in a home that works for them (i.e. no kids, sometimes the dog needs a doggy friend, etc.) I feel for dogs because humans fucked up their gene pool and behavior. Although it isn't their fault, sometimes you do need to protect yourself and walk away, though. I just appreciate dogs as an animal far more now and I'm glad I got to this point.
No. 2469288
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I have so much to do in the next two weeks and I’m already so tired. I need a break after this.
No. 2469331
>>2469285I'm the anon who made the original post. I feel mixed about it. The gf in question moved across the country for this guy and got a new job and moved in to settle down etc. She definitely didn't ask to be cheated on or to settle down with a pornsick moid but I did explain that this wasn't a new thing for him and that she deserves better.
She should have chose better, for sure. But to be honest, and I'm trying to be civil here: it's easy to sit and point and type away and criticize the actions of a person you've never spoke to and don't know personally. If you've spent a lot of time with someone and invested a lot of things into moving together and settling down, it's hard to just think black and white like that. I don't know what sort of abuse she is going through behind the scenes and chances are it's something similar to what he put me through all those years ago and it was rough. He was never physically
abusive but he absolutely had a way with words and knew how to manipulate a situation. I only managed to break up because I finally got sick of it and went to uni instead, she didn't have that option. I can only hope that she and the baby can get away from him at some point and live the good life they deserve.
>>2469246I hope so too. I was thinking about that earlier. If they have a girl she's not going to grow up well. The child will be very financially comfortable considering he comes from a pretty well-off family but that doesn't mean shit if the father is some pornsick scrote who replies to e-girl tweets and can't even respect the mother. Part of me was hoping a child would knock some sense into him and make him "man up" but honestly the chances of that happening are like 1% if that. He's had over a decade to sort himself out after we split up and he's still up to the same old shit as of 2024. It's pathetic.
No. 2469356
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my tummy hurts
No. 2469367
>>2469285Based and I agree completely. The pervasive
victim mentality that's so common in modern life is sick. No, I'm not going to feel sorry for some retard that causes all of their own problems.
No. 2469449
I want to kill God for targeting my life and cheating me out of a life like this. I want him to burn and rot
No. 2469499
>>2469475Oh well I want to
be a kitty in the backyard on a tiny little swing made specifically for it
No. 2469500
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I'm so annoyed that scrotes TO THIS DAY are still screeching about gamer gate. Shut the fuck up already literally nothing has changed.
No. 2469540
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I have an obsession with analyzing things, or trying to see/understand them from a logical perspective. I love doing it; it gives me pleasure to find patterns between different things, to understand the why behind certain things. My problem is that lately, I've taken it to the extreme, trying to rationalize things that are simply subjective. I feel like an idiot when I try to make logical sense of things or reduce them to simple laws or patterns, as I struggle to make even the simplest decisions or end up wasting a lot of time thinking about things that don't really matter.
No. 2469552
>>2469266That's so sweet anon. I'm glad you could come to appreciate dogs, they're animals that take so much abuse from people, often because of the stupidest reasons. I used to be scared of dogs myself until I got my current one.
Speaking of her, I'm sad because she's an old dog now but my pickme narc mother still refuses to let her in at night. Every single winter she has slept outside every night and I go outside to properly cover her up and make sure she isn't cold. But still it would be better if she were inside. She behaves so well too and most of the time she's clean but my autist mother has to sperg out if a well-behaved and clean dog sets foot inside the house she barely cleans up anyway. Luckily it's getting warmer.
No. 2469586
>>2469547Im sorry
nonnie, I hope you feel better soon and it passes. I know what you're going though, mine i close too.
No. 2469605
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>>2469547Sorry you’re going through that nona. Even if you know the cause it doesn’t make the feelings go away or hurt any less. I hope you get some relief soon, be kind to yourself until then.
No. 2469622
>>2469617>I don't know what to do to make them stop.You’re gonna have to take your meds,
nonnie.
No. 2469628
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>>2469617It's like I never left /x/
No. 2469636
>>2469629>unabashed retard Kek spot on with this observation tbh. But yeah
nonnie you’re just schizophrenic and horny, would bet a few bucks you’re probably ovulating too.
No. 2469644
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I feel like my experiences has made me feel more isolated and it honestly sucks. It's so hard to find people like me and share the same ideas and keep up in conversation so trying to find companionship is so hard. I feel really alone in the world, my brain isn't the same as other people and I don't like the same things other people like. I also have a big problem with being able to speak out so when all of my friends are easily able to talk about things that are bothering them I can barely even articulate the words when I want to talk about my problems.
No. 2469672
>>2469605ty
nonnie. It’s something you would think I’d be used to by now since it happens just about every month but it still blows big time
No. 2469753
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>Video on niche topic
>oh!!
>Person in the thumbnail has long hair but clearly isn’t female
>oh.
>click on video and the moid has a tranny flag as his backdrop
Sometimes I just want to DM small YouTuber moids like this and ask why they’re like this. Why can’t you just accept being male? Is it so you can be protected by TRAs while acting like a retard? Is it a fetish and you’re too pornsick to give it up? Were you groomed? I’ll never understand.
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Sperged the fuck out to my moid at home since I found out I've been getting ditched a lot while on-shift at work. It's remote (sortof IT, after-hours platform support), so people can hide up to a point. Found out the petty asshole they moved to my shift just bails halfway through and lies about doing the tasks he grabs. It's fucked us over before in an emergency, claiming he's working on something when he really isn't.
Last week he DMs me directly saying he doesn't have hardware to test shit, then lies in our all-company workspace saying he's testing said shit when there's an issue. I didn't call him on it but I ratted. It shouldn't bother me as much as it does, but he's done this before with admin tasks, and this fucker thought he was pushing a night shift guy out because he wouldn't stop taking work away from him. He thought getting to my shift was a ticket into the company full-time because it pushed a different guy back to night shift to backfill. Asshole claims tasks to do while I'm around, doesn't do them, then turns around asking for a bunch of help when he can't manage on his own, then just lately had the audacity to beg not to move off this shift to daytime "because we work well together." Yeah right, now I see what he means by that, I've been letting him slide and I've been cleanup crew. No fucking more, I'm done. Either shit changes or I leave.
Spaghetti-ass fucking story but god fuck, at least our management knows this guy's issues, none of this is new, my shift lead knows. My moid just feels terrible since he recommended me for this job and now I'm having a bad time. Told him it's not his fault, there's no way to predict someone he never met being a piece of shit. Fuck.
No. 2470098
I'm between jobs right now and my bank account has finally drifted into the negative. My dad offered to help with my credit card payments until I have money again, and I agreed. He made a big deal about me not using the card while he's paying for it, and I brought my card out of my wallet and offered to let him hold onto it. He said NO. I placed it on the table while we were talking, and it got left there. Fast forward to now, he never paid the March payment, and actively told me to NOT let my friend loan me money for it. I got charged the monthly fee plus an overdue payment fee AND an overdraft fee. Fine, whatever, fuck him.
I need to log into an account and I'm going through my cards in my wallet when I realize I don't have my credit card. I go to the kitchen to grab it, and it's GONE. Stepmom says dad took it, I go to ask him to give it to me, and he starts yelling at me, telling me that's not MY card anymore, it's HIS card. I ask him how the fuck is it his card if he's already missing payments and not putting shit on it. Now he's cussing me out and telling me I don't need my credit card and I'm not going to be spending money on it if he's paying it down. I told him HE HASN'T PAID SHIT ON IT, he's basically just stolen my fucking card from me. We're travelling together to see an ill and dying family member, and I eventually have to threaten to leave tonight without him in order for him to give me the card back. That's when he starts reaching over cabinets and digging between shelving because he HID IT ON PURPOSE. I have no idea why, other than keeping me from taking my card back from his wallet. I'm still so angry, my voice hurts from how much it was cracking. Of course he screamed at me to stop yelling at him and he's not helping me pay shit off because I'm ungrateful and retarded and good fucking luck.
I have no idea why he wanted my card. Can you charge past a credit card's limit? It's bothering me because we not only have to take my car since both of his have been broken down and he doesn't want to "waste" money to fix them, but he sold his parents' house and somehow blew the money in 5 years, all 100k+ of it. Of course I'm worried I overreacted now, but why the fuck would he steal and hide my card when he isn't paying anything on it? He asked me earlier if we could "pay in a few days" without the payment being late, but I don't know if he did that to make me think he was going to be responsible. He totally fucked me by not making the March payment like he said he would. I don't know what's going on. He even refused to help me for 5 months when I asked, telling me I would have to declare bankruptcy, before suddenly offering to help me pay my card one morning. I feel like I'm just being fucked with for fun at this point.
No. 2470119
>>2470113>>2470115No credit card fraud has been committed. No purchases have been made on the card for months. How are both of you going to assume I don't know what I'm doing and I don't know how to check my own card statements?
Stop coming to this thread just to shit on venting anons in order to feel superior.
No. 2470129
>>2470124>you don't know how to lock a cardOnce again assuming things about me. I know how to use my bank's online features, including how to lock a card. It did not need to be locked, and should not have been locked, so it wasn't locked.
>whether or not you can charge a card past its limitI don't know if you can charge a card past its limit because I have never taken it to the limit, and I have seen articles which say it may process the charge even if it takes your card over credit limit. Sorry for being good at not overspending, I guess?
>what credit card fraud isThis is an insane thing to take away from my initial post. Where did I ever say credit card fraud was committed or that I don't know what it is.
>or even where your credit card is physically located for days at a timeExpecting my card to still be on a table I placed it on, in my own home, is not a big ask.
>we're expected to know that you know how to check your card statementsYes. I expext people who own and use credit cards to know how to check their statements, as it is a basic function relating to credit cards. It is how I know no credit card fraud was committed, and why I didn't say "and on top of this all, my dad committed credit card fraud with my credit card!" Next time I will put a "no credit card fraud was committed using my credit card" disclaimer at the bottom of my vent post.
>you've told us that you don't know what you're doingNo, I said "I don't know what's going on" specifically in reference to my father's behavior. Which is what I was venting about. Further confirmed by my ending my post with "I feel like I'm just being fucked with for fun at this point." I am once again urging you to learn critical reading skills, they will help you to glean meaning from sentences and the way they relate to each other, preventing you from making embarrassing blunders like this again. If you like, I can perhaps point you to some sites which can help people build their reading comprehension skills. It's always a pleasure to assist anons in advancing their literacy.
>Tell them that you'd like to dispute the charges on itOnce again, there have been no charges on the card for months, as stated in the very post you are replying to! I feel bad for you, and so the advice I am offering to you is to study the five core components of reading comprehension. Have a good day and take care!
No. 2470138
>>2470129>I am once again urging you to learn critical reading skills, they will help you to glean meaning from sentences and the way they relate to each otherMy critical reading skills allowed me to glean that you don't know what you're doing. You don't have to actually come out and say it verbatim for me to realize that you don't know what you're doing because with everything you said, it's obvious.
Again, instead of sitting here and doing all this: call your bank; report that your credit card was out of your possession for some time; lock your card; and dispute any late charges based on the fraudulent activity that has occurred. Develop better spending habits and figure out a way to solve your own financial problems.
No. 2470142
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The 2.0 update is an april fools joke. It has to be. The farmhands can't possibly think that laggy atrocity is acceptable. It's all gonna stop tomorrow. It has to.
No. 2470260
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>>2470259If you go shopping unnecessarily I'll GET YOU
No. 2470344
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>>2470328Samefag but I literally hate the current userbase of unfunny muffin top warriors with the most self-centered and narcissistic personality traits I’ve ever seen, somehow exaggerated anonymously through a fucking computer screen. It’s the immediate annoyance and disgust I get from talking to the average woman irl outside of my own family, and it’s the uncanny element of grown woman with the mind of a perpetual teenager who peaked in high school or was a fucking retard who wanted to be the peaked so this is there time to finally do it in their mid 20s, 30s KEKKK. Blame the family unit that requires young females to be groomed into young maids who acquire adult responsibilities but don’t really grow the fuck up mentally or emotionally. There is something just so fucking grotesque in the current female spirit that tries to spread its disease to you and I don’t know if it’s the amount of dicks they’ve been fucking and the trash they consume. I also can’t stand arrogant moderation that hasn’t done fuck all anything but ruin the fun and enjoyment of the website and is glad it has happened because these are female tyrants you’re supposed to defend and support at all times. I cannot wait until the inevitable death of this website and the expelling of the viruses that are the trannyhands and the cabal of admins who can’t admit there’s more than one and also males on who help them on the team. I want them to fucking do a backflip and split into a woodchipper deadass. I want them to be time traveled to Chernobyl to be left there to be melted by the radiation. I hate mods, I hate this new userbase, I hate whores, I hate most women, I hate the retards who keep replying to me. I hate trannyfoiling, scrotefoiling, and tonepolicing because for forbid I call the
toxic Cluster B whores
toxic Cluster B whores who deserve to get bitch slapped by their ugly scrotes. They are befitting of the males they pretend to hate but marry, fuck and date, and I enjoy every last second of reading stories of these same fucktards who always fuck other random women over who get fucked over by males. Stupid fucking arrogant, pretentious, know-it-all, histrionic cunts. If my actual unadulterated hatred is seen as “autism” then so be it, I fucking hate everyone and I fucking hate the retards who report this shit because they literally shake like a zoomer with attack on titan backpack pins on their shirt trying to order McDonalds because I used no-no words. Fuck off
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>>2470344Unsettled to hear someone is holding a gun to your head and forcing you to use this website that you hate.
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some people are truly retarded and my patience ran out. i came home from work early because a client didn't want to receive an order as 'it wasn't the same as in the pictures' (not true). she bought 95 boxes of porcelain floor tiles and when she bought them online, they were listed as porcelain floor tiles gris, which is grey in spanish and when she received them, the package said porcelain floor tiles grey, because they come from europe, not neighboring spic countries and even though they were the same exact model, she argued that it wasn't because it said grey and not gris, kek. i explained to her that it means gris in british english so she opens google translate, it tells her that it's 'gray' and she proceeds to call me a fucking liar and a scammer, even after explaining that it's just american vs british english and she wouldn't understand. what in the actual fuck. i straight up told her that she was retarded and we left so i'm probably getting fired. my life was better as a neet, at least i didn't have to interact with primates
No. 2470542
>>2470488KEK I’m so sorry
nonnie but this made me feel better about my own dipshit client I’m dealing with at work today who is a genius compared to yours. Calling her a retard sounds worth getting fired imo. Fingers crossed for you.
No. 2470584
i turned 22 recently and that may say ridiculously young to some, but i feel this crushing amount of pressure to just get my shit together. i still live at home and all i'm doing is finishing my high school education because i was too mentally ill in my late teenage years. i'm just afraid i'll be too mentally ill to do anything in this life… i have barely experienced anything, my entire life has consisted of me being online and having online friends. i'm so tired of living this way, but i'm such a sperg i barely know how to navigate the real world, i can barely have a single interaction without my heart racing and stumbling over my words. i just want to be a functional person, and as i get older this becomes more and more urgent to me, but i'm terrified that i'll stay stagnant forever. maybe i'm romanticizing adult life but it feels humiliating to not live on my own with a full time job and paying my own bills. maybe i should just bite the bullet and make big risky changes, but i'm scared of big changes, but at this point i'm becoming even more scared of being a basement dweller for the rest of my days. i hate how i can still clearly remember what it was like to be 16 years old, i don't want to remember anymore, i'm not 16 anymore.
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I hate it when people tell me that I have way too high standards and that in order to be in a relationship I have to settle and loosen up my boundaries. I like handsome, respectful , loyal ,kind, collected, educated and goal driven men. I’m not asking for a blood diamond.
Anything I ask I can offer back, I don’t get why expecting the same from someone who is supposed to be by my side too much.
And if I don’t find someone who meets my standards? I’ll be alone, so be it, I’ll never feel guilty about my demands.
No. 2470634
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I have never been able to properly address why I always felt uncomfortable with hookup culture, but I’ve stumbled onto Emma Chamberlain’s YouTube and it really resonated with me.
It’s kind of refreshing to see someone relate to me who is my same age, I wish I could have a nice Prosecco or warm tea and chat with her.
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>>2470628i'm just quoting a meme dude leave me alone
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>>2470656I’ll send you the link nonna.
https://youtu.be/hDoQw5xU280 It was really a nice listen, I was doing exercises while I listened kek. I’ve been trying to stay less from my phone so I busy myself with reading, exercising and watching YouTube videos on my laptop.
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I want to stop desiring love. I want to die
No. 2470679
>>2470660I want to take the opportunity to open up a discussion with this bait.
Men of all races think about the penis of other men of other races, they think of it as a “weapon” that taints the woman, in their heads it isn’t women who are having mutual sexual with them, but it’s them conquering and domineering the woman with their penis. It’s kind of weird, especially for black men, who are in turn fetishized and hypermasculinized, see BBC, almost like horse stallions. Not that I give a fuck about them since my loyalty lies with black women kek, but it’s a fascinating phenomenon.
No. 2470835
>>2470744>I was literally browsing this site at 19 feeling like shit and I’m still the same miserable fuck 6-7 years laterThat's what you get by frying your brain by reading the spiteful drivel on here all day.
in all seriousness though, do you want to be 36 and penniless and without any job experience? look into any kind of volunteering opportunity that interests you and that you have the skills for. It's better than being home all day. you people act like it's the end of the world when you're 26 but there's people in there late '50s and '60s out there who lost all their money for some reason or another (It's usually related to becoming disabled and unable to pay your bills) and those people have far worse physical health than most of you. I mean I don't want to talk as if I am personally looking forward to aging I do not want to get to 40 myself, tbqh but watching the documentary where a former white collar man loses his job and he can't get any other like not even minimum wage work other than working part-time cleaning a church is pretty freaking depressing. It's the lost American dream with Lisa ling, btw. tons of working-class people in towns that don't have jobs for the college educated end up as forklift drivers and shit like that. unfortunately some of the only kind of work that pays enough where you can have a mortgage and not depend on like two to three roommates. but my neighbor was a forklift driver till he had a stroke like several years ago, before COVID and he can barely talk now. he has to go to physical therapy classes.