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No. 2552703

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No. 2552721

I want to emotionally and physically destroy a man but I can't attract any enough to do that. Every time i drink I get this urge to flirt with a man enough to get him alone so I can be violent and horrible to him, but I don't think I'd ever let it happen because it's more likely I'd be the victim.

No. 2552731

I wanna be hot like how I see a moid to be hot. Like I wanna be hot enough so that those around me get the same feeling I have. But For men it's easy, have defined muscles and normal twards a bit chubby fat %. Idk how to get there but I wanna soo bad.

No. 2552733

>>2552721
why do you wanna do that in the first place? Asking cause it seems to be more like an urge rather than a desire. It's not very solid.

No. 2552743

>>2552733
No idea, I hate men but I'm horny for them I guess

No. 2552874

I've recently realized I never had a mentor like figure in my life, I'm the first born daughter (thankfully I never got parentified), I always haw to develop my interests on my own because nobody around me shared them, I skipped a grade in the middle of a school year and had to integrate the best I could… which is probably why I developed hyper independant tendencies, why would I depend on someone else now while nobody was there during my formative years? I wish I could help girls/young women so they could not feel the crushing isolation of being slightly weird and having no one else to relate to.

No. 2552888

>>2552874
Have you ever considered working with kids in some capacity? Volunteering at a youth homeless shelter or maybe a women's shelter? If you're outdoorsy you could look for volunteer work teaching kids about nature. There's lots of vulnerable young people out there who would cherish someone like you in their life.

No. 2552901

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ok so this is probably petty but… remember that rich girl pituca fantasy author i’ve ranted about here before?she always made it seem like she was living this dreamy, self-made author life, just vibing off her creativity and hustle.
anyway, she posted a tiktok last night and. idk. it hit weird. she straight up admitted she’s not living off her sales, said she now works full-time at her dad’s factory (not “consulting” like she used to claim) and just sounded… drained. like genuinely resigned and flat in a way she never does. no upbeat tone, no “i’m so grateful” . just pure burnout.
and here’s the part i feel kind of evil about: it felt good to hear it. like, relief. like finally, finally the illusion cracked. i knew it wasn’t sustainable. i knew it was smoke and mirrors and that her books weren’t paying the bills. and for a year people made me feel like a hater for pointing that out. i even started wondering if i was just bitter.

but now it’s like… oh. she was performing! "BEST SELLING LATAM AUTHOR" MY ASS

i know it sucks that she’s clearly struggling, and i don’t wish her harm or anything. but part of me is just glad to have my instincts confirmed. not everything is envy.

anyway. i hope she finds peace or whatever. but i’m sleeping a little easier tonight kek

No. 2553143

I really find my friend pathetic. She broke up with her boyfriend because she cheated with this guy (he only ate her out because he couldn’t get it up since he was drunk).
She tried getting with him after but the guy said that he wasn’t interested and just wanted to be friends after she begged him to come up to her place to have sex multiple times.
The new thing is that she has announced that she is over it now , but she keeps obsessing over him. Last night she went to this birthday party and I couldn’t go because I was sick.
The scrote escorted her back home since she was alone, she bolted to her place and apparently this was “Girlboss” of her since she ignored him kek, but when she reached home she called him and he didn’t answer. He then texted her asking what she wanted, the retard literally wrote:
>would you have had sex if I invited you up to my place?
And the scrote said “given the circumstances, no”. I can’t take her seriously anymore, she is not even dumb, so I don’t even understand why her mind goes into a gutter when dick is involved, she says that she likes him so much and that she hasn’t had sex for two months and has gone crazy. I bet you, this woman is going to beg the scelte on her knees one day.

No. 2553183

"Here's me in active heroin addiction VS now, 6 years sober!" and the male looked sexier before EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

No. 2553251

>>2553183
The wall is so powerful that not even heroin can compete.

No. 2553353

I wish I could experience pregnancy and giving birth without actually having to raise a kid for the rest of my life. It seems like the most intense, alien, humbling, painful, unique, beautiful experience in the world. I'm jealous of pregnant women. But I am not having kids.

No. 2553401

>>2553353
Same actually… but I've been pregnant and loved it. I loved having a big belly and people in public were always nice to me, baby kicks, I felt really genuinely beautiful. I even liked birth. The taking care of the baby after part though, yeah that is rough and the only reason I'm not leaping at another.

No. 2553407

>>2553401
NTA but That's super reassuring considering there is a lot of fearmongering about the side effects of pregnancy. I know you might not be an expert on the subject (and you don't have to be) but do you think side effects like possible blindness or teeth losing calcium is actually just a nutrient deficiency thus something you can combat during a pregnancy?

No. 2553492

>>2553407
>>2553407
I thought it was common knowledge that stuffs from nutrient deficiency. I dont think it even happens outside of third world countries. I mean think of how many moms you've known, how many are toothless and blind. But yeah most women will pretty much dodge any effects just with pre-natal. Even the cosmetic stuff is kind of overblown, I mentally prepared myself for a different body afterwards cause I almost thought stretch marks were a given, but none of it ended up happening. By 3 months post I looked the exact same as before. I dont doubt some women do get really unlucky, but generally online you're only going to hear about worst case scenarios.

No. 2553518

>>2553353
surrogacy?

No. 2553525

A friend of mine came back to our city only for today and I really don't want to ruin my plans just to see her before she goes to another city. Friends asked if I wanted to meet up with them at 10am, they must assume I won't work tomorrow because it's technically a holiday. I need to come up with something to not see them or they'll waste the very little free time I have. I don't even feel guilty for thinking this way even though I probably should.

No. 2553549

I feel so much extreme jealousy. And shame. I’m 22 years old and I’m chronically ill, so when I see pictures and posts on social media of all my old classmates and coworkers from my previous lifestyle who’ve been able to have normal, happy lives, who’ve been able to get married, who’ve been able to build careers, who’ve started having children…it really makes me want to do bad things. Just because I feel shitty about myself.

No. 2553552

>>2553518
Aside from the fact that surrogacy is the most ethically dystopian thing ever, I would be so traumatized growing a human child with my body for 9 months and then suddenly being separated from it forever, with no rights or access to it. I imagine it's traumatizing for the baby too even if they're too young to consciously remember it. No way

No. 2553555

>>2553353
I wish I could have a baby too nona. I feel an indescribably amount of jealousy for all the women I know in my personal life who’ve been able to create a human being the old fashioned way.

No. 2553567

I am so into this redneck

No. 2553720

>>2553353
To me it sounds like a nightmare

No. 2553748

>>2553549
Having children at 22 really isn’t something you should be jealous about

No. 2553750

>>2553748
ntayrt so i dont know if this is that nonas opinion but having kids is quite literally what keeps people alive kek, it gives normies a reason not to kill yourself. unless you’re the type of being whos life revolves around watching your favorite anime and collecting the limited edition funko pops. if thats your ideal livelihood as a grown adult, please do carry on and do not reproduce ever! lol. but on a more serious note, 22 years old is an adult. clearly she’s in a difficult spot and her ideal situation would be to be able to become a mom, it looks like

No. 2553756

>>2553750
22 year olds are generally poor and haven’t started their careers yet, don’t have life experience to the degree that a person in their late 20s would, and generally don’t make good parents as anyone who was raised by young parents will tell you when comparing their upbringing to their younger siblings’.
Also, if you don’t have the emotional breadth to see that there is more to life than either having babies or collecting anime figures (kek), that’s entirely on you. Most normal people at the very least want to get their career in order, travel and see a bit of the world before they settle down, nobody is out there avoiding having children because they want to watch anime. But you’d know that if you went outside.

No. 2553763

I feel obsessed with men with features similar to mine (say eyes, hair, complexion), but the weird part is that makes them look like my older brother, not that I think there's any correlation, it might actually just be some sort of veiled narcissism, like I feel like I deserve someone that looks as appealing as how I see myself, and my fear is it might actually be delusional, that I debased myself below my inherent worth, idk it's a conflicted feeling, and I know it's not exactly about these shallow appearances either
it's like when they say opposites attract, except I'm insecure enough to find comfort and validation in my own likeness

No. 2553764

>>2553756
anon, did you even read the post you’re responding to? it was written by a chronically ill nonnie who was just sharing her aspirations about what kind of life she would like to live, if she had the physical ability to, and how the other people in her life have had the privilege to be able to enjoy these things. that is literally the first three sentences. please, do work on your reading skills or your learning disability.
>if you don’t have the emotional breadth to see that there is more to life than either having babies or collecting anime figures (kek), that’s entirely on you
I know we have a lot of autistic users on this website but if you weren’t able to understand that was an obvious joke then i don’t know if you are emotionally intelligent enough to have a conversation about disabled women who want to be able to have their own children but cannot. it really sounds like you’re just being a little asshole because you want to be.

No. 2553765

>>2553756
>I’m 22 years old and I’m chronically ill. So when I see pictures on social media of all my old classmates and coworkers from my previous lifestyle who’ve been able to have normal, happy lives, who’ve been able to get married, who’ve been able to build careers
>Most 22 year olds are generally poor and haven’t started their careers yet
>Build their careers
I know you probably just saw the words “having children” and “22 years old” and just responded without actually reading the whole post but cmon kek, your eyes work better than that

No. 2553891

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I want a beautiful man who doesn't have sexual desires and we can just live together, gardening and raising animals and reading and travelling, no kids, no sex, no normie friends, and he's faithful to me and we grow old together and die together. We can hug and kiss, but we never have sexual desires, just adore each other's form in a pure way. I wish being in a loving relationship with a male was possible without sex.

No. 2553894

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I envy this woman so much it's not even funny. I too wish I was born in the capital of a influencial country, to a millionaire movie producer + singer couple, with a PR team to launch me into global activist stardom at 15. I don't have anything against her as a person, but the cult around her is fucking wild, and it's like an ultimate wet dream for my narc self. She has zero useful skills, she's not an expert on anything, and she's not even that good of a speaker, but I've read journalists calling her a literal prophet for fuck sake. Damn. I really wish I could "yass queen" her as much as the next person, but I just can't, I wish I were young and that famous too, and people loved me as crazily as everyone seems to love her. Luckily I'm aware I'm a narc. Whatever. I hope Israel doesn't vaporize her in the next 24 hours.

No. 2553900

About a year back I posted a twitter ss of someone I know irl in the tif thread, and then about 8 months back she killed herself. And I felt such intense guilt and I still feel like I'm a nasty horrible person for that, even though I'm sure she didn't see it. I stopped using lolcor for like 4ish months because of it and I almost went pro trans out of utter disgust at myself and self-reflection. She wasn't even a bad person in the slightest, she was extremely intelligent and passionate and I feel awful that I made fun of her in some way and basically shit talked her before her death

No. 2553914

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>>2553900
posting her or not posting her here doesn’t change the fact that she was transitioning and the statistics say they like to kill themselves a lot because gender identity is a social issue they can never change. she memed herself into committing suicide because she was unhappy with herself no matter what she did or what drugs she took. becoming pro trans is only going to make more women like her suicide from being upset they hate themselves as a woman and as aiden zippertits.

No. 2553918

>>2553900
im not an avid lc user but thats something ive noticed on here, people here are quick to insult and mock people who arent even necessarily bad people (and many will acknowledge that regarding certain cows). most of the insults are regarding appearance, this even happens to radfems whom people here even agree with. its good youre reflecting on yourself

No. 2553972

I never got penises on Omegle when I went there

No. 2553973

>>2553748
>>2553756
How about 27-28 years old?

No. 2553974

>>2553918
>>2553914
I'm glad it at least wasn't her appearance, and I only posted her once and cropped out the user, but I'm still revolted at how consumed I was by spite and just gross gossipy behaviour. If anyone I know found out about this they would hate me. I kept on/keep on worrying I indirectly caused her death in some way, idk. She was already pretty mentally ill and had some really awful huge scars all over her arms but she was not the attention-seeking type. It was just such a shock and it made me have this sick pit in my stomach and it feels like death keeps on following me since then aswell. It's true there's a huge problem on this site with needless hate and a lot of hatred of other women which I really have tried to avoid since then, but at the time I was using /snow/ as a sort of outlet so I wouldn't be tempted to talk shit in real life. I'm sure all of these makes me seem like a nasty person probably

No. 2553975

>>2553972
The chosen one

No. 2553977

>>2553974
Nta but it's not like you literally told her to kill herself, and she probably didn't even know it was posted. I don't get this mindset. Also it's typically the not attention-seeking types that do end up killing themselves, the troonism helped to exacerbate the self-harm no doubt.

No. 2554221

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I can't stop reading age gap yaoi fanfic, it's been a month and I want to be free

No. 2554799

>>2553894
Isn’t she like 12? Why are you beefing with a child?

No. 2554816

>>2553891
I want this but with a woman

No. 2554830

>>2554799
She’s actually 22

No. 2554832

>>2553891
And I wish I had 1000 bands right now.

No. 2555072

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I did it nonnies, i saw a ragebait post last month and instead of replying to it I reminded myself
>people are stupid and you cannot change them
And
>arguments online are pointless because no one changes their mind ever
And i closed out my lolcow threads, went walk outside, and found inner peace for a month.
And now came back for the milk.

No. 2555085

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>>2555072
That's great! Hope you enjoyed your break and enjoy the milk now that you're back.

No. 2555087

>>2553973
>>2553748
I see it as a difference between being 40ish when your child might leave you to be their own working person or being 50ish.
I known a diverse age-range of mothers who were that age when their children became adults and I can confidently say if you do drugs you'll probably die before seeing grandkids at either age but the 40 year olds have more energy to deal with family than 50+s

No. 2555135

is anyone else really fucking weird when alone in their room or is that just me. especially when listening to music, one time my mother walked in and i was mortified i don’t even know what the fuck i was doing

No. 2555139

I was very depressed earlier to the point where I was feeling utter despair over my life but then I cheered myself up by making mean remarks about random people and their crappy tastes in slop at the mall with my boyfriend. I guess being a negative, mean, and judgmental person makes me happy sometimes and I am not ashamed of that.

No. 2555144

>>2555135
I'm weird too, I do all of the shit that people do in tiktoks but like for real and not recording myself because it's seriously embarrassing, I mute sing and do a bunch of retarded hand gestures.

No. 2555145

>>2555144
Thank god I’m not alone I thought I was such a weirdo kekk

No. 2555149

>>2555087
I’m not following what you’re saying exactly but to contribute to the conversation, I find it kind of crazy how some people have children pretty much immediately after reaching adulthood. Obviously there are pros and cons (I’m biased and relate to the young parent nona, my parents were 22 when they had me funnily enough) but like disregarding the long-term logical reasoning and everything just emotional fulfilment-wise that seems … sad? to me and I don’t know why. Straight from teen to parent. But I don’t plan on having children at all so maybe it’s just my perspective.

No. 2555155

>>2553748
Hey OP here sorry for a late response, it’s just that I am jealous because I’d really like to offer the love I have to a child I’d grow inside of my body that I’d conceive with my amazing nigel who’d be the babies loving father. I do get it if you think I sound a little dumb, because at the end of the day it is just a fantasy. And a confession as to how it makes me feel like just a waste of space on this planet to not be able to enter this part of adulthood and the human experience.

No. 2555164

my motherhood instincts are raging and I'm not even in a stable place or stable relationship but my body really wants me to have a baby. I see little kids and infants and I end up fawning over them. I feel awful because I keep seeing tradwife moid propaganda on this site posted by obvious shills claiming that female fertility dries up in your 30s but I definitely have baby fever in my late twenties and I'm nowhere near ready. I am trying not to dissuade myself by saying it's not wrong to wait and that female fertility doesn't work that way. It does make me insecure that there are some women my age with lives, stable jobs or breadwinner partners and a kid or even multiple children, that my parents had me by my age, and then there's me. I feel like I'm stuck in my early twenties and I loathe it. Iwas fun in my mid twenties and now my immaturity is pestering me. I'm not going to have a child in my current state, but one day I'd really like to have a kid even in this world of suck…

No. 2555181

>>2555164
Maybe get fertility testing done, just for peace of mind and reassurance. Regardless of age, infertility is always a possibility so it's not an overreaction to fearmongering. Also I find that when there's something I really want in the future, the only thing that makes me feel better and more patient is to take concrete steps towards it, so it feels like I'll be ready when the day comes.

No. 2555273

>>2555181
I'm not making shit for money right now how am I supposed to afford that anon

No. 2555287

>>2555273
Can’t you do stuff like that for free at planned parenthood?

No. 2555300

>>2555135
I like jumping around like a moron. I am trying to stop.

No. 2555412

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>>2553748
the replies to this are so weird. 22 year olds are like kids to me kek maybe i'm getting old for lc

No. 2555413

>>2553748
People are so retarded about when to have children. By the time she’s late 20s you’ll be fine with it but then the “your eggs shrivel up after 25” crowd starts having a go. People are never happy no matter what, they just want to chastise and berate women.

No. 2555418

>>2553549
Whats stopping you from finding a moid, getting married and having kids? thats possibly the more achievable adn realistic goal one can have.

No. 2555438

>>2555412
No it's the newfags who are getting too young.

No. 2555439

>>2555164
Don't stress about it too much, when it comes to that stuff it usually hits you fast. Like when you meet the right person you'll know very quickly, get married after a year, then its on to having kids. That's what happened to me… also having kids after 30 is normal my sister had both hers after 30 and they seem really bright and normal. Honestly she might have had the right idea, cause once you have kids you are pretty much locked in. Get big vacations and life goals out of the way first…

No. 2555570

I was all horny talking to an american guy and it all went away when i found out he was asian. I dont even hate asian moids i think they are cute i was just thinking i was talking to a blond blue eyed true and honest amerifat and it destroyed my hot cowboy fantasy.

No. 2555590

>>2555570
Just make him put on a ten gallon hat and some chaps. Most burgers are all hat and no cattle anyway so he'll be as cowboy as the blond boys.

No. 2555592

>>2555570
Tell him your sexual fantasy is doing it with Rawhide Kobayashi

No. 2555851

On the topic of having children I am so sad. I got married at 26 but my husband is working towards his PhD and I can’t have kids until he gets a job. I would’ve loved to have a kid at 27. Now I have to wait until I’m 30 to have my first kid. Having kids in your 20s is better imo for timeline, you can have grandkids younger, faster recovery time with a younger body, able to keep up with your toddlers, better bounce back time for consecutive pregnancies, you’re able to look after them rather than rotting in a retirement home… my health problems also hit once I turned 28. I wish I wasn’t such a coward and just got knocked up on my wedding night.

I have nothing to show for my 20s either. I am poor and travelled only abroad once. I finished my schooling but my schooling doesn’t even matter because I’m going to be a homemaker at the end of the day.

No. 2555948

The more I read about Finland the more I want to move there.

No. 2555978

>>2555948
what about it makes you want to move there?

No. 2555988

>>2555851
Wtf health problems did you get at 28? That's really young… also when does he get a job and what job. Idk why people think your body breaks down at 30, you really shouldnt be having slow recovery times and having energy problems in your 30s…

No. 2555991

>>2555438
>Newfags are getting too young
Being 22 doesn’t make a user a newfag anon, it just means that they’re slightly younger than you
>>2555412
I feel like 18-24 year olds infantilizing themselves needs to come to an end. Maybe my parents were just hardasses but, the moment I graduated from high school they stopped treating me like a baby KEK

No. 2556000

>>2555988
Being 30 is still being young kek.

No. 2556003

>>2556000
Exactly, but for some reason newfag zoomers think as soon as you hit 30 years old, your health rapidly deteriorates.

No. 2556010

>>2556003
>as soon as you hit 30, your health rapidly deteriorates
Hey OP here, sorry if my post sounded like I was insulting older anons or something but thats not what I was saying at all. I’ll tag the post that started this discussion >>2553549
My post was not saying that I want to have a child right now because by the time you’re 30 your health deteriorates kek. My health has already deteriorated, and that is the whole reason why I can’t have a child. My confession post was confessing to the pain and jealousy I experience daily through the emptiness in my life, as a chronically ill woman. I do not understand how this has been misconstrued into insulting women who have children at older ages. I think being able to have a child at 30+ sounds wonderful, but my post is talking about how I would like to be able to just give birth to a child and hold it in my arms and kiss it and raise it in a loving environment. Sorry if this pissed some anons off…
>>2555412
I’ve been using lolcow for 7 years now nona. I don’t think wanting to have children before the age of 30 insinuates newfaggotry

No. 2556017

>>2556010
You're 22 and have been using LC for 7 years?

No. 2556023

>>2556017
Yes, I am lucky enough to have discovered lolcow because of Nika and Jaelle! kek

No. 2556032

>>2556023
am i retarded for watching onision for years but never actually keeping up with his thread despite using lolcow? lmao

No. 2556037

>>2556010
I dont think anyone was pissed off I was just genuinely confused wtf was going on that your health is deteriorated so young. Also what chronic condition did you get? It just popped out of nowhere?

No. 2556048

>>2556037
So not to blogpost and I’ll shut up about this after this post but I suffer from very aggressive seizures that come about once a month around the same time, I’ll have several seizures over the course of a few days and this has gone on since I was 17. It started on my 17th birthday, and I don’t suffer from epilepsy or any brain issues based off the EEG’s, CT scans, and MRI’s I’ve had. My body is just cursed kek! I am certainly incapable of supporting a pregnancy with the life I’ve lived over these last few years. I am hoping my life changes, but when I am off medication I become severely ill and when I am on medication it’s unsafe for me to conceive and carry a child, even if it makes me stop having seizures.

No. 2556068

>>2556010
>I don’t think wanting to have children before the age of 30 insinuates newfaggotry
i didn't say it did. did you meant to quote >>2556003?

No. 2556072

>>2556068
Yes I did kek I apologize nonny!

No. 2556136

>>2555988
It’s neurological and makes pregnancy very risky. I very much regret not trying to conceive before my body decided to break down at such a young age but it’s not my fault, I never knew I’d be dealing with a chronic illness. If I had known that, I definitely would’ve jumped the gun and got pregnant before 28. My plan at 26 was to wait for my husband to get a well paying job and then have kids at 30 but life throws you curve balls and things don’t go as planned.
>>2556048
Hey Nona I’m in the same boat as you and I just wanted to offer my sympathy to you. It’s hard not getting jealous at women who have it easy with their fertility and health. I probably would pass on my cursed genes to my kids which is selfish thoughbeit.
>>2556000
>>2556003
I’ve been on LC since 2016 at 19. Don’t ask me why I’m still here kek.

No. 2556270

>>2555412
I’m younger than anon by a little and I still find it kind of crazy. I would want to live life a little, I feel like I just left high school, and I’m not even childish for my age - but every early 20s person I know is … immature. Very. Scares me to imagine them as parents but hopefully they wouldn’t be doing too much damage so long as they are good enough parents once they’re older and can speak and get traumatised or resent them. I wonder if it’s a generational thing because before young adults seemed much more mature, idk. But my parents had me at 22, and I can literally remember them maturing in my memories which is creepy and disappointing because if I had the experiences I did when they were a decade older, god the amount they mellowed out… Still, some people are bad parents at any age, and some people can afford to have children young both financially and mentally, in those cases if they want and would enjoy raising children I get it. Not to be “eugenicist” or whatever but what I can’t stand is broke people my age churning out babies.

Doesn’t sound like it’s anon’s point though. I don’t know what chronic illness she has but it sounds like she wants kids at one point but believes she won’t be able to. That’s sad to me even as a semi anti-natalist kek
>>2555413
This is a strange idea for me because I thought it was common knowledge that having children in your early 20s (or teens) has a higher risk of miscarriage since early 20s women have lower luteal and pregnancy progesterone levels. They characterised it as a late ovarian adolescence period, but people act like it’s only men’s bodies that change after 18 for some reason, despite it being such an arbitrary number and not a biological one. Of course this isn’t everything but if you don’t have fertility issues it sounds like you’d have a healthier baby if you waited until at least 24ish, especially when you consider financial situation on top of that.

No. 2556401

I always bottle my emotions up and never truly share them with anyone else and it's breaking me. I break down in private and numb myself with drugs and then go to work and act like everything is normal. Lately I keep fantasizing about letting myself finally have a nervous breakdown and getting sent to the psych ward, just to have some time off of work. I've never actually been inpatient though and I'm sure it's nightmarish, so I continue privately spiraling and destroying myself.

No. 2556506

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I have been obsessed (limerent more like) with a 3dpd scrote for like 6 months at this point. I feel bad that I think about him so often, but I will literally never meet him in my life (he's completely decrepit today) and I only really fantasize chatting with him and bonding with him platonically, maybe some flirting. I'm actually starving for sexual tension and butterflies, but I'm too much of a wimp to invite it into my life with another man. I don't want to ruin my life and cheat but Im scared of even giving a playful glance. I literally think about him pretty much every night before I go to bed right next to my Nigel because its genuinely relaxing and instantly pts me to sleep.
I'm retarded because the root of the problem is that I'm scared I'll never be sexually "wild" again, and I'll never have butterflies and intense lust for a man ever again without feeling guilty and restrained about it.
My Nigel is genuinely good and is obsessed with me, he is miles above any man I've ever known. But for me, the nervous excitement between us hasn't been present for a long time and will never come back. And yet he's the only man I can imagine spending the rest of my life with. And I do want to do that. But I'll never feel my heart beating rapidly on a date or feel a rush of dopamine when he just so much as looks at me or feel so wet from just his touch that my underwear gets completely drenched in hot arousal. I really miss that and Im scared I'll never feel that again.

No. 2556517

>>2556401
You are yearning for comfort and compreension. Destroying yourself will not help it and the only one getting harmed is you, try something small, telling someone that you are sad, maybe talking about the situation without exactly saying you are sad? It's completely understandable to desire to break down so that everyone will see you are feeling horrible, however, there's a much easier way of achieving that: talking. What is the worse thing that can happen? You can either find someone that comforts you or simply discover that someone is not trustworthy, win-win situation.

No. 2556531

>>2556506
Nonnie, how do you know you are NEVER going to feel that with your nigel again? There's a hard truth to swallow, if you only feel the rush of adrenaline and butterflies in the stomach when you are with someone new or at the start of a relationship, you are never going to be with someone forever, or for more than 2~5 years. I also for a bit thought that i would never feel the rush of adrenaline with my nigel, even though he's really the perfect man for me, but i discovered that to have that rush of adrenaline back you just need to communicate. Are you feeling "bored" or something like that? Let him know. Maybe he's feeling the same. Maybe you guys need something new, a new fantasy, or simply you need that moment of sadness and insecurity of talking with him to remember that you are still attracted to him. Attraction often fluctuates and there will be times you are going to think that you are unable to feel attraction again, but something random he does will bring everything back. Don't destroy a perfectly healthy relationship for an ambiguous desire, that scrote is nothing more than the representation of what you desire that your nigel would be. What are you really desiring? What is lacking?

No. 2556588

>>2556531
First off, thanks for giving such a thoughtful and considerate reply, pretty unusual for an IB.
If you actually want an answer – We even have good sex but it doesn't really come from a place of "I wanna fuck you" so much as me satiating my horniness. Unless I'm drunk. It makes me feel pretty bored because he doesn't want to do the freak shit I like. It's not even that freaky, he's just extremely vanilla. I'd take it over a "daddy dom" (barf) any day, but I'm still not ecstatic.
I'm a little scared to admit it to him but to be brief, he's a little too clingy and handsy and it makes him look immature, hes insecure about his skinnyness and wears baggy clothes all the time (but when he accentuates his waist it looks amazing on him). The most abstract part is probably that he's also scared to be masculine, I think. Like I'm straight, I want a masculine guy, but it's not as simple as it is for men like "just put on some mascara and a skirt", I wouldn't know what exactly to tell him to do.

No. 2556612

Got into an online slap-fight but I really am so exhausted with the learned helplessness of a lot of women. For context this was on a video of a woman’s husband smashing her face into her birthday cake and in the background you can hear her friends and family start laughing. I responded to a comment addressing this and said that we are at a point in society where even if it’s a response to being uncomfortable it is still enabling male behaviour and needs to be called out. Of course I get a finger waving response saying women just can’t help it and that we’ve been conditioned to be this way and like yeah no shit but at what point are we going to take back our autonomy and stop allowing this behaviour? I’m not an idiot and know how to read a room and the context of this video was not a dangerous situation, a woman was humiliated and all of her loved ones just sat back and giggled to deal with their own tension rather than actually stick up for her. Yes laughing is a fear response and can be very useful but I am so tired of shitty, but not dangerous, behaviour from moids being laughed off just so other women can keep the peace.

No. 2556623

Sometimes I heavily consider reporting this illegal hispanic moid to ICE because he made my friends hate me and he’s a piece of shit but I won’t. I have gotten really close several times though.

No. 2556689

>>2556588
I'm happy i helped you even if a little bit.
To me it seems like you guys have many, many things that have been left unsaid, insecurities that he has, and both of you know so, but neither got the courage to speak about it. That kills a relationship. You don't know him, you probably don't know exactly what he wants and maybe you don't even know what he really likes, my nigel also was kind of vanilla before we met, i made him like everything freaky that he likes nowadays, there's hope. I think both of you should be secure about yourselves at least together. Discover what makes him insecure, what exactly is it that makes him not feel safe with the idea of being more masculine, maybe he feels so effeminate that it's humiliating to try being masculine. There's so, so many possibilities.
You need TRUE intimacy, there's no way your relationship will go on without that, you need to let him know that you need him to be vulnerable enough to let you know his deepest insecurities and fears. You too, you need to be vulnerable with him, and being vulnerable includes letting him know your true sexual desires and not being afraid to be yourself. If he loves you and you love him, then this will save your relationship. Keep it in mind: the only way to love is knowing who you love. If you don't know him, you don't love him.
You don't need to tell him what will make him more masculine, it's much better that you let him discover himself through his relationship with you, maybe you need to make his insecurities actually seem like something good, like the fact that he is skinny. My nigel is short, very short. We make this characteristic that could be an insecurity into a desirable trait, a charming trait that really does get me aroused. Once he is himself, you will find an arousal towards him that you didn't think you could ever feel. I feel like it's not about masculinity, but about his view of himself in relation to you, if that makes sense.
I would, though, be extremelly cautious with my words when telling him about the things that make him seem immature, maybe instead of telling him he seems immature, you could lead him to the opposite path by telling him that you like when he does "…" (something that does not make him seem immature or something that is the opposite of what he does). Telling him he seems immature is quite offensive and that can break his confidence.
Keep those things in mind and i think things can get better. Be patient with him and think about him with love, not with judgement, think about him the way you would like him to think about you. Things should get better, it may not be easy, but if you love eachother it should be possible.

No. 2556720

I can't stop obsessing about my previous coworkers and flatmates who wronged me. They were sabotaging and essentially poisoning me over the span of several months. God wants judgment, revenge to be up to him, but I don't feel like a good follower if I am constantly raging. I can forgive them but I can't deal with the damage and the fact that they're still out there thinking their ways are alright. I wish hell was a circus. Imagine being gaslit, sprayed with allergens, your room rearranged, stalked, overworked, humiliated by having to clean up drug paraphernalia, urine and feces on the regular at a restaurant, coworkers disappearing for hours on the toilet, being told off when I complain about joint pain from being overworked and then my supervisor lying that I was actually sabotaging them by working harder. This happening after experiencing 2 decades of extreme corruption involving physical abuse, drugging and money laundering (not on a large scale) pissed me off more. No support network AND then lowlife creatures from the pits of hell harassing me is a cherry on top. I have considered suicide but it is against my religion. It's like there is a huge glowing neon sign above my head reading in all caps CUCK THIS CUNT, and it attracts flies, ticks, leeches and fleas.

No. 2556725

I would actively disregard all of my moral principles if it meant guaranteed happiness. Like fuck you all, I just don't want to cry anymore.

No. 2556801

I love the smell of money. When I get tips at work I add them to my pile of money and every time I add to the pile I grab the whole bundle and just smell it.

No. 2556902

>>2555439
I hope so. I really do feel like it's counterintuitive to my leanings to say I want to be a mom one day. I consider myself very separatist, feminist, and I rebuke and find a lot of men awful, I've had awful experiences, I've been abused, I don't know why I would want a kid after all that. I spent years flip flopping on whether I want kids but then eventually decided in the last few I did, just haven't found the right person yet. Sometimes I'm afraid I never will.
If it happens it happens. If it doesn't it doesn't. Figure it's better and will happen if you don't spend your entire life seeking it. If it's meant to be, it'll happen.

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No. 2557073

I completely understand the feminist perspective for hating porn, but i have to admit that personally it's not the main reason why i hate it, although i keep it in mind. Aside from male porn actors looking like Joe Rogan from temu a lot of the time, for me, it's just so fucking cringe that it makes me want to avoid it, especially general porn involving two people fucking. It feels like i am sitting in a cyber cuckchair, i don't understand how anyone is supposed to get off to that kind of shit unless they are into being a cuck. I feel like i am witnessing something i shouldn't be seeing and all the dirty talk and theatrics makes me cringe so fucking hard. This feeling also extends to movies and tv shows, even though the sex scenes are always fake as hell so they tend not to feel as bad, but my god do i hate it when they try hard to make them as realistic as possible, just show two people in the bed after the deed is done, i don't need to see the actors dry humping each other in length. So whenever i hear men defending porn, i just hear them defending having a cuck fetish more than anything. I wouldn't be surprised that there is a strong correlation between cuckoldry and the rise of easily accessible porn.

No. 2557074

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>>2556801
You sound like you can do a mean money spread.

No. 2557175

>>2556136
Maybe you’re just weak and should never have kids? If your body is falling apart already you don’t have very good genes.(bait)

No. 2557429

>>2555851
I'm sorry nona I really hope you're able to have a kid one day. I'm sure you'll be a better mom at an older age than all those tacky 20 year old mormon wives who pop them out every year too. Best of luck

No. 2557444

>>2557073
Same lol. First time I saw porn I was already "older" and knew about the problems it brought, and I remember being so confused this is what males ruin their bedroom over and give their girlfriends and wives complexes to hell and back over?

No. 2557762

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I think I've come to terms with being an animal lover because growing up, I was never a fan of these "popular" animals, such as cats, dogs, rabbits, etc.
My main fixation was mostly on frogs, seals, and exotic animals. I rarely qualify myself as an animal lover because I didn't like the popular ones, but it made me realize that I've always had long periods of time doting and obsessing over certain animals and I tried to collect as many stuffies of said certain animal. I do love animals, its such a relief to say it out loud.

No. 2557801

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Even though I'm fairly sure that most of what's posted in the Vent and Unpopular Opinion Threads is pure fabrication, I like to read through them because they make me feel a lot better about myself and my own life.

No. 2557831

I find shipping fictional twins hot.
Yeah no shit, older nonnas can relate to me before the twittards came to fandom spaces and shat on them with proshipping shit (I learned what that meant last years and I'm 30) but yeah, I like to see twins fuck, every other incest flavour is weird to me but there's something about being born, being identical and being connected to all levels that scratches my brain right. Even better with doomed dynamics, but only in fictional settings like anime/comics/vidya, I don't watch stuff with irl actors, I find every live action/show with actors cringe because to me the fact that they're acting makes it incredibly cringe lol

No. 2557840

Goodbye nonnas
I had beef with some of you, banter with some of you
But im going to take my own life
Because Ill never be an immortal genius
I woykd say I hope you all do well but thats not the truth
I hope the world burns with me
Im not a good person
I hope i get attention before death but not after
After I just want to rest in peace, its all over for me
Thanks for the fun though

No. 2557852

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>>2557840
Mmkay, see you tomorrow!

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>>2557840
NONNA NO

No. 2557866

>>2557073
I dont know why people pretend its even necessary for jerking off either. Just use your imagination. Porn industry is completely upheld by npcs who cant visualize an apple in their head

>>2557831
I kind of hate the term pro-ship because it places incest on the same level of evil as pedo shit. Maybe I am coping but I feel like theres a gap there. Incest is hot if its two brothers of a similar age… anything else I feel a little weird

No. 2557867

>>2557860
Yeah exactly, just because I ship two hot people who are the same age and have some sort of bond places me on a different position than fat men destroying their dicks on loli porn, that's why fandoms needed to be more gatekept during covid times, fuck you zoomers, let me see those twins fuck.

No. 2557870

>>2557852
Haha, you are so finny
So so funny
God everyone just want to mock me and doesnt care for me
I need to die

No. 2557884

>>2557840
Anon, please don’t kill yourself. The thought of that makes me incredibly sad

No. 2557896

>>2557073
People who are addicted to porn are weak and monkey-brained chasing after their carnate desires. It's so strange, you're just a peeping Tom and a nonparticipate at that point, even worse 'cause the people you're perving on aren't physically in your presence. If they were to acknowledge porn watchers and be in the same room as them, they'd probably recoil in visceral disgust and perform poorly.



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