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No. 2572581
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2558523Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2572878
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i hate being a neet so bad but i dont actually want to do anything and never liked anything so i cant even pick a career to get out or something im going to kill myself i cant stand it anymore
i thought i was just being lazy when i started to feel like this as a teen and i remember thinking i would eventually come up with some career to pick and suddenly love working and studying but then the feeling of never wanting to do anything never left i feel so useless and stupid and retarded
i dont even want to go out ever not even to buy groceries and dont want to be seen at all i just started feeling like i cant go out at all and i cancelled a plan with friends but its not like they text me at all so fuck them ig its only worth texting me when they want to complain about random bullshit
also i fucked up a bread recipe yesterday everything sucks
No. 2572916
>>2572878i feel the same and people always say "just get an easy job" there are
literally no easy jobs near me theyre all fucking taken and the only jobs avaliable are the shittiest most desperate overworked positions you can imagine. i worked a job like that for 2 years and was suicidal literally everyday im not doing that shit ever again. its not even worth it because it pays like 12$ an hour too like what the fuck am i going to do with that lmao
No. 2572926
>>2572892With front counter type jobs, it's mainly face-to-face and phone interaction, keeping track of appointments, reporting to management and mail handling. Sometimes preparing invoices/processing payments.
Did such a job, will confirm much stress.
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>>2572889>>2572916op and tbh i did try to get a job and applied for stuff that didnt even ask for experience but i never get called, im guessing not announcing they're asking for experience doesnt actually mean they dont consider it. At this point, i think having zero experience plus no degrees just means im fucked forever
Either way i hate having to talk to people or having people talk to me so i cope by thinking i wouldnt have lasted long anyway
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>>2572938thanks for the advice anon but i dont think ill be able to try again for some time since im currently not feeling like going out at all so not really thinkg about the big adult thing to do
but it does makes sense i never got hired since i stuttered and couldnt look at the employers
No. 2572981
>>2572959I wish he was, but nope. He decided to lose his job instead. Thankfully his family is on my side and has helped me so much. It'd probably have gone off the deep end without their help
>>2572948Thankyou nonna. I just can't fathom why someone would hurt somebody that is carrying their child/children.. then he had the audacity to assume he'd still be apart of their birth. Nope
>>2572941You made me laugh nonna thankyou, he really is a disgusting piece of goat anus.
No. 2573013
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Being friends with someone who lacks any ounce of accountability is tiring. I am beginning to resent who I thought was a close friend. All the time people got mad at her are starting to make sense now and I’ve realized that she was always the one in the wrong. She’s way too possessive and if you don’t react in the way she wants to and support her then she gets offended and starts acting up as if you have attacked her.There’s no point arguing with her kek, I just gave up and said “yeah yeah, you are right, I understand”.
As much as she says she’s mature she doesn’t accept an opinion different from hers and will always try to make you change her mind.
I don’t give a rat’s ass about fucking men and getting “fucked” won’t resolve my “trauma with men” and you are no one to come up to me and tell me that I should resolve my issues with therapy, who the fuck do you think you are? Therapy doesn’t seem to work for you since it just enables you like a retard, your own therapist encouraged your own cheating kek.
I am not cheering up at the nth time you talk about begging the scrote who doesn’t want you for sex or bragging about going to bed with another woman’s man.
I think I’ll just keep her for now, but I’ll develop a closer relationship with other people and then ditch her slowly by slowly. I wish I never became friends with this retard, but she basically stalked me and followed my same route going home and made it seem accidental because she so badly wanted to be my friend (discovered it like a year later). Crazy bitch.
No. 2573015
>>2572981Yeah kill him nonna, say that it was post- partum or something kek.
If I ever became a law maker I would absolve pregnant women who kill their cheating partner. Your honor, he made her do it! She was in a vulnerable space and she was just protecting herself, she couldn’t discern right from wrong! She felt in danger!!!
No. 2573199
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Being in your 30's and having the reality of city expansions hit you like a truck is such a weird feeling. It's not like it's new to have forests I used to run around in, play faeries or have sword fights with friends in, cut down and turn into ugly houses. I learned to deal with it in my early 20's, and understand that whatever forest walks I may have access to now is only temporary unless I move out into the middle of nowhere. The scenic route you use for your daily jogs might be a row of ugly designed apartment buildings in a couple of years, you don't know. It hit me even harder when I drove by childhood friend's house, and realized the entire area had been bulldozed and turned into apartment blocks.
But the urbanization is also really felt when you go further out to the countryside, I visited the farm my close friend's husband's family have belonged to for a hundred years that they are now shutting down because they can't make enough money off the grounds to keep up with today's cost of living anymore. Because they haven't been able to make enough money to hire helpers they haven't had the time nor ability for the upkeep of the rest of the grounds that isn't only the farm itself. Having spent several summers there with them when we were in our early to mid-20's - partying, bathing in the lake, just enjoying summer in every way - it felt so sad seeing how it all was falling apart. The forest have trees that have toppled over during storms and just left there, bridges and piers are falling apart from tree rot, the rentals we used to have sleepovers in are now water damaged and not livable. It was all so sad to see, but even more so for my friend's husband who grew up there together with his brother.
It's weird to walk around the forest and remember how we would drunkenly stumble around there, taking everything for granted and feeling like we were going to be young forever. That this was what summers where all about. Now it's all in shambles, and we are never going to see it again. I know a university is going to take over the farm, they already have access to the lake and a couple of the still livable cottages for water research, and from what I understood it they are going to try to restore some of the cottages and rentals for their students so they can expand it to farmland research and studies. So at least it's not going to waste.
No. 2573205
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>>2573200Might I suggest you seek out female friends nona?
No. 2573208
>>2573203thank you anon i just really needed to get it off my chest somewhere.
>>2573205i have 3, 1 is just in very bad health and the other two we have clashing work schedules so it's rare to see each of them
No. 2573210
>>2573199that's depressing but life has to go on, people have to be housed, cities have to evolve
they've been destroying old houses and replacing parks with huge appartment complexes all over my city, it depresses me but it is what it is, thankfully they haven't touched to the forest yet
No. 2573218
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I don't understand what people want from me. They say that I am too closed-off and need to speak about my problems but then when I do speak about my problems or insecurities then it's just flipped as some sort of attack against them even when it's not, or because it's not what they wanted to hear, or because I dared to ask questions or maybe they misunderstood me. I'm too old for this. I lost so much of my childhood and teen years to mental illness and self harm and not receiving diagnosis or not getting the support I needed as a child and teen and now to this day, in my late 20s, nothing has changed. I don't feel like I can overcome my struggles. The only thing that even remotely works for me is just closing it off, not talking to anyone, and anonymously venting on here about various issues or regrets I have and then trying to pick myself up again time after time even though this is chipping away at my self-esteem and my anxiety is worse than ever. People beg me to talk and then when I do there's always something to criticize. I don't get it. I don't know what people want from me.
I don't like people very much and I just wish I could have my own small farm and be completely self-sustainable in the country, on my own, with just animals as my only company. I don't trust people's intentions or perceptions, and while I am not perfect and have a bad attitude sometimes, I'm aware of what's wrong with me. I wish people would stop asking me to open up and pull the "speak about your mental health" card when in reality they don't give a single fuck and will flip it on me as soon as it's an answer they dislike or personally don't want to hear. Please just leave me alone. I was always better on my own and with my cat as my only company. I wasn't built for this, I just want to be alone and mind my business because it's clear that it's the only thing that works and helps.
No. 2573224
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>>2573200>i refused to fuck Based
No. 2573232
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I'm going to scream and cry. I found what I'm assuming are mold mites on another piece of furniture, I had this problem before and I ended up throwing the unit away after it broke. This new shelf was fine for a year or two until now. They're tiny and harmless, you wouldn't notice them unless you were concentrating on finding them, but I still feel like it's forever tainted and unusable. I hate that I can't get rid of them, I would clean that old unit over and over again, cleaned everything on it too, did the whole routine you need to do when dealing with mold generally. It never worked, so I just feel doomed now. I wish I was somebody that didn't really care about bugs so I could just ignore it and get on with my life but I just can't let go of that feeling of dirty-ness.
No. 2573242
>>2573210Yeah, I'm not gonna deny that at all. That's why I've kind of shrugged it off when "my" forests have been cut down, it was inevitable anyway. I just feel weird about how temporary everything truly is, and the fact that a whole street of houses got plowed just to become apartment buildings kind of hit me in a place I couldn't quite describe. But going to the farm was really depressing in a different way, but that is sadly the way things are.
It causes so many mixed feelings, because as you say - life has to go on, people need space to live and small communities are too outdated by today's society to survive. But also the fact that all these smells, sights and sounds that have been so familiar to you through all these years can suddenly be gone and forgotten one day is just… sad. Like the mall I grew up close to used to be a farm when my mom was young, when the rest of her generation dies nobody will remember that. And once the mall death finally officially hits the once very popular mall, it will probably be torn down and turned into something else, and said mall will be forgotten once my generation dies. Life goes on.
No. 2573246
>>2573243spiders have been my greatest pest control. I had an outdoor plant completely covered in aphids. it was so nasty… and one day they were just gone. replaced by a couple spider webs.
thank you, ladies
No. 2573264
>>2572810I'm 21 and have only worked as a waitress. I feel like I'm justified in wanting it.
>>2572663No it's just like "damn if only timing was better"
No. 2573279
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>>2573243I actually allow spiders in my home, they usually just stick to the top corners of my place. They're fine as long as they aren't near my food/dishes, bed or seating area. I must have some lazy piece of shit spiders hanging around, I'll give them an ultimatum to start eating the mites or start paying rent kek. I definetly can't pick them up or handle them in anyway, though. It took me years to muster the courage to get a glass and piece of paper
and sometimes I still kill them because it's scaring me too much, I'm sorry I know I'm evil and going to hell.
>>2573246This is really cute, imagine if she liked your plant/garden and wanted to help you by giving you a hand.
No. 2573291
>>2573279the spiders who ate all those aphids changed my view of spiders for me, tbh. my garden plants house many webs so I know they are putting in work.
#I still kill one sorry if they get too close to my feet indoors but now I feel remorse and say a lil prayer kek#
No. 2573501
>>2573381I was just talking about this last night with my spouse. kekkk
Like it really needs to be socially acceptable. Too many men and handmaidens need to feel my fists.
No. 2573506
>>2573013Misery loves company kek, she's trying to pull you into the crab bucket from whence she came. Start grey rocking now and slowly stop contacting her online or over the phone. When she confronts you about it just spew some retarded therapyspeak slop at her and ignore her breakdowns. She's probably going to show up at your house at some point so be prepared for that.
>>2573182Been there, it's grim but you can climb out of it. In my case it was a combination of burnout, depression, stress, and a shitty situation. I spent a lot of time resting and that helped a lot, don't force yourself to do things because you're wasting your precious free time if you don't, or compare yourself to others who seem to have their lives together.
It takes time to get better. If all you can do on the weekends is lie in bed and stare at the ceiling, that's what you need to do. Let yourself be a miserable failure for a bit.
If you can't pinpoint why you're like this it's worth getting blood tests done. You'd be amazed at how badly a lack of vitamin D or iron can fuck you up.
No. 2573514
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I hate being poor. Everything about my life revolves around money, how to make money, how to save money. Its fucking hell. I cant do anything without thinking about how i can make money thorugh it. I recently picked up crochet and i had to drop it because i cannot get over the intrusive thoughts that tell me i am not allowed to have fun, that if i learn something i must monetize this. I am so fucking tired, my life is hell. I hate it, thinking about how my life would be if i wasnt born poor and in a shithole makes me want to cry, i would be achieving my dreams, working on my hobbies, having fun. I already handed out like 100 CVs and not a single place called me, except for a scammy call center that wanted me to work for free for a week and get two calls before hiring me. God i hate this country, i hate my life, i hate my family. I have so much resentment towards my parents because of being poorfags that shat me in a poor country, i dont think i will ever forgive them for that. I hate rich cunts like jill and shayna fucking up their one in a million opportunities at life to become whores and munchies. I hate them so fucking much.
No. 2573666
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I get depressed knowing that so much of my life is defined by me being born into poverty. Suffered bullying and abuse because I was a poor kid, had to skip out on several opportunities as a teen due to my family not being able to foot the bill (or even wanting me to go, lest I speak on my abuse), graduated university super late because I couldn't afford tuition fees, missed out on a good job because I had to take care of my dad…now I am still struggling to dig myself out of this hole my birth circumstances put me in. I get so frustrated and envious seeing people with easier, happier lives. I get frustrated and envious of deathfat troons with enabling parents who let them sit around all day and beg on ko-fi for gibs. Worst part about it is that my suffering isn't even unique, this is just the experience of millions. Billions maybe. You're born in a hole, you fall deeper, you see all the beauty beyond the lip of it but you can't fucking get out.
Fuck, I worry if I do get out, won't I just be escaping into another hole? What's the point of anything.
No. 2573739
>>2573250I was feeling crazy with the complacency going on before you showed up
nonnie. I can't stand seeing more and more of the Earth being swallowed up by humanity for reasons that are entirely frivolous. It's not like what's being built holds an iota of beauty or integrity. They aren't places to live, merely exist. Such awful, mental-illness inducing tract housing that'll undoubtedly fall apart within twenty years due to them being constructed out of flimsy, cheap garbage. Horrid.
No. 2573751
I've been wondering what the hell am I gonna tell my niece and nephew about my dad, they're now asking more about stuff like "nona, where is your dad?". My dad was a nasty alcoholic who made quite a bit money by being a charismatic and nasty businessman, he died in a pretty graphic way, pretty traumatising. I've never been close to my sister like that, mainly due to my dad and I think I just need to ask her at some birthday party or whatever thing I attend where I do see her, because I'm not gonna lie to the kids but I'm also not gonna say weird shit. They're still kinda little but it's also so wild to think that here I am thinking if it's okay to just say "Yeah my dad is dead and he wasn't a nice man" when i was knee deep in that awful shit with the said dad. They know he is dead but come on, there does come a point where no matter what my sister or their dad says, they're gonna ask aunt nona and i need to know what lore we're putting out there. Maybe I'll just do what my grandma did and once I'm done with my church confirmation, grown enough, here is the family gore and funny gossip. It's really not that deep but it's hilarious just how different our lives are, sometimes the kids will be loud and I'll say shit like "my dad would never have let me act this way lol" and they're asking me how so and I'll just stare straight ahead like "absolutely nothing, carry on babies"
No. 2573811
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>>2573514>I recently picked up crochet and i had to drop it because i cannot get over the intrusive thoughts that tell me i am not allowed to have fun, that if i learn something i must monetize this.I have an adjacent problem where I grew up poor, still am and people like my parents tell me to monetize my hobbies. They're my escape from my two jobs and being stressed out all the damn time from having to work this much to be able to afford rent and necessities. Like I GUESS yeah it could be good to make money from drawing or doing instrument tutoring but why the hell does the answer have to be do more work when you're already at your limit…the people who were born rich or had parents who helped them go to college without needing to work will never understand the exhaustion and defeat of being working class
No. 2573920
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I'm wondering if meeting my limerent object was a good idea. I somehow went for coffee with him and I feel kinda bad now. like it shouldn't have happened, I feel shame. I was very nervous. it was really overwhelming and now left me feeling nothing.
couldn't reply him most of the time due to me being overwhelmed and his words didn't help at all. he's a stoner philosophy student what did I expect. I feel the I ruined the moment not knowing what to say to him though it seems he didn't mind.
why I like him that much even. my eyes are teary because I crave for him like candy. but it won't have him be because he's out of my reach.
No. 2573930
>>2573811Thanks
nonny it's just so exhausting because i am always thinking about how i am going to afford materials in the future. I had to drop other hobbies before because they were too expensive to maintain. At least crotchet is super cheap, but still i cant get the brainworms out of my head.
No. 2573936
>>2573933kek
nonny no, the clothes is more expensive than the yarn
No. 2574020
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I made the mistake of dating an emotionally abusive closeted scrote as my first partner, and the second was a three month 'relationship' with this dumb, narcissistic lawyer who was only fun for dates because he could pay his way. In between that I've wasted too much time with the pondscum of the earth and few were even attractive. I feel relieved I didn't jump from relationship to relationship and avoided long term commitment with horrible men but now i'm cynical, burnt out and disgusted by all men. I no longer care about them, my attraction to hot guys fades quickly, and any small sign they'll be annoying makes me dump them. I've tried everything and still haven't found a single man who likes me for who I am, or even seems to enjoy my company in a deep way. I despise hetero dynamics and every time i date a guy (or even think about doing so) the weight of those shitty expectations: clean, cook, suck his dick, put up with his retarded hobbies, bears down on me and makes me want to vomit. I'm bi and have briefly dated women before but fucked it up out of insecurity and hesitancy, they were great women and we had chemistry! Is it even worth waiting for a man who might love me for who I am, or battling the tranny loving cesspit that lesbian dating is in my country, or should I just embrace the habit and become a nun???
No. 2574356
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I'm working night shifts at my job and living with my parents until I have saved enough to move out. For months now my dad has barged into my room while I was sleeping (and obviously so, lights and electronics off with a doorstop against my door) to scream at me for benign and random unreasonable things. Today it was to demand where his slippers are, thursday was to very aggressively claim I wasn't doing enough for my brother (20 years old btw) and he's being lazy because of me, he threw my shit around in my room that time too. It just goes on and on. I haven't been sleeping that much because I can't focus on sleeping anymore and I am afraid he's going to come in again, I'm exhausted. I thought about getting a lock on my door but it's a shitty literal piece of wood, I'd probably need it replaced entirely for a lock. It would also seriously piss him off, I'd rather save every penny and get out as fast as possible.
No. 2574365
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earlier today i made a comment essentially saying i would never want to be associated with someone that uses AI and/or relies on it in any way shape or form to my older millenial sister during a conversation. she lost her shit and asked "well what about me?? i use AI, does that apply to me too?" which left me so stunned i couldn't help but laugh uncontrollably at her. tbf she did mention using it before but at the time she downplayed it to the point i thought she was genuinely joking or at least meant that she used it once or twice and never again. i told her this and kind of apologized for assuming ig and she was still so defensive that the convo immediately turned into a pro vs anti AI debate. it was so bizarre, especially because when i said that i wasn't being malicious about it nor expected her to blow up at me over it. if anything i kind of thought she'd agree with me, so i wasn't even prepared enough to defend myself properly. still i was able to make my points and why i feel and think that way by basically saying:
>there's literally nothing revolutionary about AI. it's just a summarized version of all the skills, media, art, and humanity in machine/code form. we can do and have access to everything AI offers, therefore it's utterly useless. it's pure mockery
>it is bad for society on every level outside of just harming the planet. it literally commodifies humanity
>people who use AI often times use it even when doing something as simple as leaving a comment online and very clearly have their writings and vocabulary influenced because of it from my observation. i don't want to ever have to deal with someone that sounds so robotic it comes natural to them
>it literally exists out of extreme need for convenience aside from greed and selfishness, not to truly advance us as a society in a way that's meaningful. so why the fuck would i, someone who sacrificed so much to have the opportunities and education i have today, want to have someone that insists on being a lazy retard as a loved one?
her reasoning and arguments after were so bad i stopped laughing and just looked at her like picrel while listening to her and trying to understand. she said:
>"it's here and it's part of society now, there's nothing we can do about it except adapt to it and accept it! it's naive to think we can just shove it away and not use it/refuse to use it, it's too late for that. that's literally what matters now and what we should be focusing on instead."
>"i don't use AI to do everything for me, i just use it to help me with my skills and better convey myself so i can better do my tasks. it's like something that polishes it.. like having your own home and stuff but getting a cleaning lady to clean everything for you. it's like being in an english classroom again with how much i'm learning about what tone and voice to use as well as how to express myself in certain environments. it literally makes those processes and nuances so much easier for me to do and comprehend."
>"i was literally introduced to AI and encouraged to use it for my emails etc by my boss initially, so it's not like it's stigmatized anyway."
>"it's everywhere and most people use it one way or another, you can't just avoid the entire world!"
>"yes it's bad that people rely on it way too much, like those people that use it as a therapist or friend or a partner, but there's still ways to use AI ethically."
>"how can you tell the difference between someone's writing and AI writing? there isn't much difference and i don't think it even matters anyway."
>"people in third world countries use it and rely on them most likely because they have no choice but to, so are you saying fuck them too? that they're evil for using it? you know, you need to think bigger and more deeply outside of the western world to truly be aware of all the different reasons why someone would use AI instead of generalizing everyone."
i'm just at a loss. i have a tinfoil that AI will make it so humans' natural ability to further enrich their intelligence independently will become obsolete to the point even the children won't have said ability; basically a fucked up reverse natural selection situation. i don't think it'll make education less valued like most are saying but rather traditional and real education will become so unattainable it'll practically be a status symbol. i plan on teaching English etc overseas in different countries after college as a humanities fag, so this issue matters a lot to me. sis knows that and still decided to crash out. what makes this even more ridiculous is we're former third worlders ourselves. we literally fought like hell to be in burgerland and become citizens just for her to be a voluntary retard? i just don't get it. we're black women too and a lot of AI human videos online are of fake black women so kek what the fuck?
i thought about it more and realized she has this hidden animosity towards me for being the smart & consistent one in the family. in a few years i'll be the only one in my family to have a bachelor's & certificates while she secured a job at harvard through a job training program. i didn't notice the animosity at first because she's literally successful and gets spoiled at work, but what made it click for me was the conversation and her making these specific jokes here and there about how my future degree is actually hers "and will have a photoshoot with" once i get it and whatnot. i honestly don't know how to really feel about that. parents didn't put in much effort to support her through her college journey when she first attempted like they did with one of our brothers, so i understand she's still bitter and resentful about it, but i hate that it's directed at me too when i had nothing to do with it. it's not like parents supported me either, i just got lucky with fafsa etc.
i still think the conversation was such bullshit and deeply unnecessary as i'm firmly anti-AI and don't think i'll change my stance anytime soon even if it does get regulated or whatever. but a small part of me can't help but feel i'm probably wrong somewhere, or even entirely. what do you think nonas? am i being unreasonable? naive? i'm 21 while my sister is soon going to be 30, she undoubtedly has way more experience working & in adulthood while i'm just starting. maybe that's another barrier aside from our values etc? i don't know. either way she's so exhausting to deal and live with, it's literally something every other day and i honestly refuse to police myself even more than i already am just to not trigger her or whatever.
No. 2574390
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found out from secondhand word that my mom got divorced and lost her house and i feel terrible for her but i dont really know what to do. shes nearly 50 and is her own adult obviously and we've always had a really bad relationship where she chose her (now-ex) husband over me constantly to the point i just chose to live with my dad instead. but i dont know. i feel like i should do something
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>>2574430Hope it helps you nona!
No. 2574555
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I hate the summer season so fucking much. I've already had enough of ass crack under tit sweat, nasty shit. Feeling constantly tired and exhausted, plus being graced with swollen feet when it's hot outside.
No. 2574598
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I have no idea what to read next. I have 34 unread books in my shelf, but looking at them I only feel meh about all of them.
No. 2574752
>>2574739What was the opinion?
I run into this here a lot. I swear half the arguments on this site are just arguments over the definition of words. That probably applies to most discourse, actually. "Communist" is a major offender, as it has a huge range of definitions and reactions depending on who you ask.
No. 2574782
>>2574745Nah this one was real person but honestly I'm just chatting to the twitter robot for the first time (about India Willoughby lol) and in understands everything I say perfectly.
>>2574751I'll think of it next time kek
>>2574752It was a debate on pads being free in schools. I thought it was a good idea because unlike this guy I know that there are families who are lucky to pay energy bills and food and sometimes they don't have money for some other things. I said that there aren't just rich families and poor families who waste money on alcohol and cigarettes. That there is a third and very big sort of people who buy only imortant stuff and still don't have enough money for everything and so free pads are a good thing to help them. It's not a crazy expence, the goverment could use less modern art statues and get more pads for kids.
No. 2574792
>>2574739>>2574782I can get it if he's like lumping himself into the moron group because you wrote "you and morons" but I do get what you mean otherwise
Also idk why you expect a moid to have a reasonable take on girl's reproductive health because of course he's gonna hear "free pads" and hallucinate Katyusha blaring at full volume while saying something retarded kek
No. 2574920
>>2574124kek based nonna, we're a menace to the normies. i think it's kind of funny and weird how they can instantly tell and seethe about it, like most normies can't really process our existence, makes me wonder if autism is related to some missing link or something.
back on the topic of low empathy, i hate that low empathy on women most of the time it means not always wanting to hang out with the group or not showering a girlfriend in compliments and services after she got pumped and dumped by a moid you probably told her he was going to do that. or giving any logical advice to any relationship they have with a moid, they get offended if you tell them to dump moids despite seeing their mental health getting worse, like being empathetic to normies is encouraging their delusions and telling them yasss girl you're serving! eat that moid!!! instead of telling them they're not worth shit
No. 2574927
>>2574900
KF took a nosedive into retardation around 2018-2019 and never pulled back up. I blame all the press coverage it got as an 'alt-right message board' that lured in all the Stormfront and /pol/tards to the News and Happenings board, who quickly tainted the rest of the site because they're incredibly prolific posters who have no lives of their own outside of 'blacks, women, and jews bad' posting between microwaved hotpockets. Though now that I think about it, there's probably a small fed presence there too. It was always an edgy place, owing to its roots as a rebranding of the CWCki Forums/PVCC trolling boards, but it wasn't ever as bad as it is now. Half the shit I see on KF would've been mocked and laughed at when I was a member because it's obviously a bunch of tryhard internet tough guy faggot bullshit that has little or nothing to do with the actual purpose of the site, documenting and discussing weirdos online. Null decided to make KF this weird bastion of free speech to the exclusion of all else, and these were the people he attracted. I hardly see any reg dates earlier than 2019 anymore, which means that Null has been surrounding himself with these degenerate faceless NPCs for almost a decade now. It's not surprising that he now legitimately shares their views. It's only a matter of time before he starts to defend loli and other degenerate moid shit. Gazing into the abyss and all that, I guess.
No. 2574929
>>2574927>It's only a matter of time before he starts to defend loli and other degenerate moid shit. Gazing into the abyss and all that, I guess.I don't want to defend KF or anything but there actually is a sizable anti-loli userbase there going by some of the threads. That and Null hates anime because he tried to run an imageboard and it got spammed by lolifags.
He's more likely to turn into a tradcath going by the way the userbase behaves, I remember in 2020 or 2021 he was whining about no wife and no house of his own and was looking for someone to date kek
No. 2574932
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I feel like I'm retarded for wanting to start to vlog. Nothing that shows my face, obviously, but what's the point when my life is boring as shit and I live in the middle of fucking nowhere. I thought I'd use it to vent, but since I live in a small town, if one person finds out, everyone will, which is cringe.
No. 2574938
>>2574927I take Kiwi for what it is, information on lolcows. I do not take anything they say seriously unless it's directly documenting a lolcow. They hate all women (especially non-white women), so all their "
Terf" anti troon shit doesn't mean shit to me. Yeah, they'll say "based" things, but then you'll see some of them in another thread cheering because a black child/non-white child died in a shooting. Or going into every school shooting thread, with their dicklets hard about it being a non-white male, but it always is. Or they'll speard the "White women fuck dogs" shit despite them documenting who screws animals the most.The women they claim they want to create babies with they hate and bad mouth. While having their gay obession with black moid dicks/coal burning. They don't even seem to hate men who sleep with non-whites (like Null).
It's just so cartoonish, I bet they don't even look people in the eye in real life.
No. 2574940
>>2574932I love a vlog account called Hongsi where the creator just shows what she eats in the span of her days, she adds captions but never shows her face. She is hilarious, she is a new mom , she said that she was going on hiatus but she’s posting even more than before kek. I really like her.
You’ll find your audience nonna.
No. 2574954
>>2574948I just have a really bad and obsessive neuroses about it. I think I was traumatised by how I was treated when I was younger
I was a fat kid too. No matter how much I try to be logical about it my WORST fear ever is someone I meet now or on social media discovering a childhood/adolescence photo. That is more terrifying than anything in the world to me
No. 2574966
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>>2574929>That and Null hates anime because he tried to run an imageboard and it got spammed by lolifags.Pretty ironic since he's a former shotafag
No. 2574990
>>2574970I just look at other pretty people and most of them were cute as kids. Like even average and ugly people, everyone was cute as a kid because it’s easy to be but I wasn’t I was so gross looking it’s not even funny. I doubt I’d even be recognised as me. Most people look fairly similar their entire lives too. I used to be so jealous of other kids my age and I was beneath them and they treated me accordingly. It’s so awkward now that things are flipped but in my head I still have them as above me. I feel like I still need to regard them with that same respect. And I’m not different, I’m still that person. It’s not like I’ve changed just because I’m pretty now. I’ve had nightmares where some loser stalks me to find childhood photos and posts it somewhere and all the comments are “god she was an ugly kid”. I looked
horrible. Anyone that liked me now would think god if I knew her back then I wouldn’t even sit next to her. And kids did do that to me back then. It’s so embarrassing.
I know what you’re saying though. I know it’s ok to be an ugly teen and I wish I could view child/teenage me as just a poor kid who doesn’t need that scrutiny. I know I’m being illogical. I’m just really hung up on it and ultimately it makes me insecure. I think I’d have preferred if I was comfortably average steadily my whole life to this. And I think the best life is someone who’s only slightly above average so no one sees your looks as a spectacle and wants to discuss them. Like those fucking vindicta types. It’s not just them either, all people do it on the internet because people think they’re never going to read it. They let themselves express all their internal thoughts they would secretly be having all this time. So I know what people would think even if they don’t say it.
No. 2574997
>>2574990For me it was
>super cute as a child >fucking ugly as a teen >beautiful as a womanKek. I think you might have some type of OCD thoughts going on here nonna.
>it’s not like I’ve changed as a person Exactly , and if people judge you by merely how you look then they aren’t worth keeping close to in the first place. Have some grace for little you, she was also just a child.
No. 2575003
>>2574997I think for me it’s just like… people assume a lot? Most people look at a pretty person and think they’ve been that way their whole life. And when people discuss pretty privilege they’ll act like they must have always been treated nicely. I don’t think it’s “some” people or people I shouldn’t get close to, most people have these thoughts automatically and even if it wasn’t most the mere existence of people who would note the difference in adult me’s looks to younger me’s ugliness is enough to make me insecure.
also people project ideas onto you. so knowing you used to be ugly shatters that. it’s strange being doted on more now than when i was an actual child who needed that.
I kind of relate, until 4-5 I was also a very cute child, it made everything worse because I picked up in how different everyone treated me (peers, adults) I was very conscious of what kids were considered cute or not. It made me fixate on my looks before most people did. I ended up developing dysmorphia about my face and had an eating disorder that lasted like a decade from the age of 8. Until I finally lost the weight. I will never, ever forgive my mother for making me a fat kid. I HATE her for it.
>OCDyeah probably, since anons have told me that before for unrelated things
No. 2575017
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>>2574993>>2575006it won't let me be horny though
No. 2575054
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>>2575048there's a reason nobody actually seasoned actively uses it
No. 2575132
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I usually avoid media with romantic plots, mostly because they make me feel a bit sad that I'll never experience something like that - my only two adult relationships were abusive, and I was sort of pushed into them as well.
Though sometimes I allow myself to indulge in a romantic manga/manwha, and if I stumble upon one with unusually realistic and complex characters I sort of end up feeling that maybe… just maybe, I'll find someone one day that will accept me for who I am, despite my flaws and baggage. Someone that might find something in me to be proud of, despite how plain I look and what a clumsy failure I tend to be.
But once I'm done reading and wake up from that fantasy, I'm reminded of how unlovable I am. No matter my aspirations, how much I try to learn or try new things, I'll always be a failure that nobody gives a second glance. I crave for love and someone's touch so bad, but nobody will ever love me the way I need to be loved.
No. 2575202
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I can't stop doomscrolling about the US attack on Iran. I'm a bong-fag so I'm pretty sure it doesn't effect me yet but the uncertainty and fear make me feel addicted to all the updates. It's not so much the WW3 threats, it's the guarantee that this means us normal people will suffer.
No. 2575320
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Had a complete psychotic break from reality where I hallucinate a fake girlfriend who controlled my existence. She'd broken into my accounts and was sending me secret messages. I also got myself into a lot of consumer debt at this time. I'm now entering back into alcoholism and after a lifetime of celibacy entering into my slut era, possibly. I feel out of control and tired of living. Like there's no point or meaning to anything. I've lived long enough.
No. 2575326
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>>2574946Happy birthday nonna, I hope next year treats you with more kindness.
No. 2575457
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Is there even any point to writing screenplays anymore? Or fuck, even pursuing any profession in the industry anymore? I’m feeling blackpilled with the direction Hollywood is going, work is drying up, day player gigs are going to leads who are feeling desperate for work, nobody’s script is getting picked up and everything is written by committee, voiceover work is being replaced by AI. Short films and sketches are all TikTok vertical videos now. I’m tired and just want that dopamine rush back that I used to get when I felt like I was creating something great. It all feels pointless. I am a sad clown who wishes but to entertain (and make money)
No. 2575548
>>2575523Gonna revert to all of my bad habits actually. They're only bad because the people around me feel bad for me. I feel fine when doing them; that's why I did them. Not pro-anything or encouraging anyone to follow in my footsteps, I'm just tired of people trying to dictate how I cope with the absolute bullshit god throws at me. Dance clown, dance. If everyone else can drink alcohol and smoke, I'm going to
OD and puke because at least that temporary peace I feel is better than thinking about how I was molested or how the doctors think I'm making shit up until
they decide it's legitimate, or how medical malpractice ran amok and was discovered yet I received no compensation. This world fucking sucks and if I want to destroy my body for momentary peace, at least I'm not outwardly killing myself. Because that's
soooo bad. Man, fuck these people. They're only "supportive" because of the feel good points. They don't give a shit about my actual wellbeing.
>>2575537nta Kinda one of the reasons the whole
>if men didn't exist, the world wouldn't be so baddellusionary nonas make me side eye them. Like, shit, nobody is forcing us to uphold tiresome societal norms on this site, and yet people get dogpiled on for - surprise - not upholding tiresome societal norms.
No. 2575604
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>>2575600Nona is ovulating, everyone. It is a very special occasion on lc
No. 2575645
>>2575608Seconding
>>2575621Please share, or at least share in the skincare thread if that's a better place. I'm tired of the spots on my back and want to wear tanktops for once.
No. 2575654
>>2575621>>2575645Sure my darlings. I never gatekeep. I hope it also works for you!
>Cerave foaming cleanser I use it as a daily face wash for the morning and the night. Fragrance free and doesn’t leave your skin dry like a raising kek, does its job quite well.
>sunscreen 50+, I always buy the ones for children because it’s more strong. If you put makeup you can just use it as a primer too. Whenever I go out, even in winter. Mainly because it keeps your skin protected from sun damage and also because products tend to make your skin more sensitive.
>the ordinary AHA peelI use it once every two weeks now , it’s strong.
>the ordinary glycolic acidFor hyperpigmentation. I use it on my armpits too. Daily use. People also suggest vitamin C for clearing up dark spots, but it never worked for me.
>benzac cream gel 5% washableIt’s a benzoyl peroxide based cream that keeps my acne at bay. I use it daily every night. I used to use the 10% one but I can get away with the 5% now.
>Fissan baby creamIt’s usually used for babies when they have irritation. It’s soothing and calms down the skin.
It’s zinc based. I put five dots and just massage it until it absorbs. I use it during the night.
No. 2575656
>>2575654I forgot to add that I also use hyaluronic acid from the ordinary. I can’t attest how much it works.
The thing I can say about my regimen is that I can probably remove everything apart from the peroxide cream, I have changed toms of products but I have never strayed from my beloved benzac. Adding the other stuff was just the cherry on top.
No. 2575679
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It's my birthday in a few weeks and I have no idea what to do since I have no one to celebrate it with. It won't be my first lonely birthday, but I still feel a bit sad about it. I deserve something nice, I've been through enough.
No. 2575685
>>2575681It's literally just a way to excuse away male depravity and often blame his mother. But logically it makes zero sense. If that was true you'd get a gender swap each generation - men prey on girls, who grow up to prey on boys, who grow up to prey on girls, etc etc. But it's always women and girls who end up being
victims at the hands of men and boys.
No. 2575751
>>2575616You should try going on disability or welfare until you got a handle of your health and addiction. Living with him will only make you feel worse and you deserve better.
>>2575716kys
No. 2575759
>>2575674important lesson I learned to my own expense : never stop using it
you can try reducing to once every other day once your acne is under control
stopping completely resulted into a huge flare up for me kek
No. 2575815
>>2575736Johns are so fucking gross ew ew.
What are the details nonna? I don’t think I can really blame you , it’s not like you have clear vision to see the future. Better that you realized it now than later. I hope you didn’t catch anything though.
No. 2575892
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>person online made edits of basically everybody but a few characters from a series
>Edits that mind you are not that difficult to do if you're at least acquainted with photoediting tools
>I message them and thank them for them, no reply, maybe they're shy or whatever
>a few days later i ask if they're gonna continue doing the series or not
>"pay me"
>politely deny, still thank them for their previous work and tell them i'll do them myself
>quoting them, directly after that "yeah… I aint making ANY more stuff" completely fucking unprompted
>as if i'm trying to coax them into doing them (when that never was the intention, i was genuinely grateful to them because there's barely anyone making content in the first place)
Holy shit i hate moids, totally soulless beings incapable of any kind of love or gratitude.
they had this whole fake "i'm so humble look at how i'm helping you" complex too throughout the whole convo that troons often have, iykyk
No. 2575909
I have to kill myself and there is no other way out, i'm simply too lazy to live.
I don't have hobbies, media, or anything i truly like or adore, i don't like anything, i only have hatred and disgust for the things around me.
>inb4 just do something to change your situation anon
I can't because i simply don't want to. I'm 23 and i'm mentally 13 years old. Trying to socialize and do something with my life is torture to me, it doesn't matter what i try to get out of life because i can't integrate around normies and i simply don't care about the stuff they do and like and i can't just be a free autist because i was born without the ability to like anything, like literally. I wouldn't even call myself autistic, i'm just retarded, like actually almost braindead. I have been maladptive daydreaming since i was a child, but i wasn't dreaming of beautiful and talented, but of having a soul, it's like i was born psychologically incomplete. I'm so much uglier than most girls, ugly retarded face and smile, my hair keeps falling off but my body is extremely hairy, i'm properly because i have skin issues that never go away, my boobs arw saggy and uneven, but looking so dysgenic is not even the worst part, the worst part is that i was actually born retarded. I can never remember street names, i forget everything i learn and i'm the most boring retard i'm even bored of myself, i'm so boring and stupid that i ended up developing OCD from being a NEET, i can't even scroll on my phone without making it a problem. I wish my mom in her 30s never procreated with a scrote in his 50s, he passed me all of his retarded dysgenic traits, hell i even got cancer. I don't even care that much about the ugliness and how disgusting i am, but why am so retarded? Why? I barely qualify as a human. I hate going to university i stopped going i don't care anymore. I wish i was an autist who liked sonic or some shit instead of being so mentally crippled i start getting anxious, lost and angry if i'm not sedating myself with a screen. I wish all of my family hated me and my mother hated me as well so i could kill myself in peace, but if i die she's gonna kill herself too because she has no one.
No. 2575913
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>take shower
>put on underwear and light grey shorts
>30 minutes later bleed through my clothes out of nowhere
I miss when I could tell my period was coming with cramps and mood swings. I had a stomach ache last night but figured it was from the high temps
No. 2576143
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I hate how people have made a joke out of saying that someone is a narcissist and calling it a "red flag" if someone refers to another person as narcissistic and toxic because I have a parent with actual NPD who has destroyed my life. If it wasn't for communities for children of narcissistic parents and learning about what abuse is I would have killed myself at the age of puberty. The only reason I can semi-survive today is because of therapy and this knowledge. I honestly believe this backlash against people calling themselves victims of narcissistic abuse is a psyop led by abusers themselves to make their victims seem crazy and unreasonable, a typical DARVO tactic.
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My (ex) best friend wrote my mom today, saying that she's still thinking of me after over a decade of me ghosting her. Girl please just forget my loser ass and live your life, I'm begging you. You don't really want to know how miserable I actually am.
No. 2576221
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>>2576219Please
nonny let's revive
>>183298 No. 2576236
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The only emotions i feel anymore are jealousy and anger. I had to stop babysitting my cousin because it made me so jealous he was born with a silver spoon in his mouth meanwhile i spawned in a broken family in a neighbourhood that didnt even have pavement. I used to be such a sweet person and now i am disgusting and evil. I cant even lie to myself anymore, i know i will not amount to anything, i am poor, i have a shitty family, no one to support me if i fail. My life is over. I am so jealous of everyone else around me.
No. 2576284
>>2576258If you've had a bad start to life and have little of the supports that allow others to succeed, just surviving and finding your own way through a hostile world can be an accomplishment in its own right.
I wouldn't be at all surprised if you actually had a lot to be proud of but suffer from an unrealistically poor self image, you also may be measuring your success against people with far more advantages rather than assessing yourself compared to women with similar circumstances. Sorry, this is the best I can offer.
No. 2576293
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i always look unkempt no matter how hard i try to improve my appearance ill see myself in a mirror in public like "what the fuck is that shit" doesnt help my retardedly large boobs make me look like a walking fridge. i need to lose weight but ever since i took zoloft i gained like 20 lbs and i cant fucking lose it even when im actively restricting my diet god fuck being a short woman i hate how you have to eat like a mouse to not be a fucking blob midget
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>>2576262I know that was a typo but the idea of granny discourse makes me kek
No. 2576393
I wish I mattered to someone. I would give it my all. I want mutual love so badly. But at the same time, love has been synonymous with pain for me. Or at the very least, disappointment.
I try so hard. I really do. I know in heart it will never be enough. I workout, I eat healthy, I try so hard to research skincare and have a pretty decent regime without breaking the bank or having a shit ton of products. (A complicated routine has only done more harm than good, both overwhelming mentally and being too much for my skin)
But I will never be pretty or feminine enough. I sincerely feel so uncomfortable with makeup and the few times I've tried, I just felt worse. I have tried for years to grow my hair long, but it's so fine and dry and fucked up, I don't know why it is so difficult to manage.
I just get so sad. I try so hard, but I know it will never be enough. I'm not hot enough. I was once dumped because my boobs were too small.
I really do think there is something genuinely wrong with me. It is more than just insecurity. I don't know. I don't know what else to say, other than I really have tried. I feel lonely. I feel like I will never know what it's like to have a strong, lovely connection with someone. For the long haul.
I get jealous of Cows, because they can look so trashy and have the worst personalities, but they still have someone…idk
No. 2576417
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guess which retard relapsed into a ptsd episode again…yeah. i thought i was getting better after quiting the pills but i dont want to go back to the same moids that gave me postpartum pills..if i dont recall my shitty past i will fall into the same behaviors that let my abusers get away with it but if i dont forget them i get numb and vigilant all the time..fucking damned if you do and damned if you dont
No. 2576422
>>2576417I'm sorry nona, having PTSD is like living with a curse. You're not a retard in the slightest, it sounds like you're trying your best to work through your problems, and that's honestly all we
can do. You have a disorder and that disorder will occasionally exhibit symptoms. Don't beat yourself up about it.
No. 2576486
>>2576483
Yeah it probably made his bpd worse. There's a show called "the valley", you should watch it and observe "jax"
No. 2576493
>>2576488Ah the flattering and inaccurate kind of bpd. Also jax never called any of his skinny or "model-hot" gfs ugly or unattractive, just this woman from kentucky who he met on twitter bitd
>>2576491You could probably convince me that's true but a lot of people say they're made in a factory or share a singular demonic soul
No. 2576504
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why did that person delete all the posts i have no idea wtf you guys were talking about now
No. 2576580
>>2576560Incorrect, she's had multiple awful
boyfriends and have done sex work in the past
>>2576563She lets men treat her to the "yaoi" things she watches. Wouldn't surprise me if she one day troons out, though she's so far had no interest in the gendie crowd
No. 2576588
>>2576580>Incorrect, she's had multiple awfulboyfriends and have done sex work in the past
If yaoi keeps her away from scrotes then it's good thing
>She lets men treat her to the "yaoi" things she watches.What?
No. 2576595
>>2576588You quoted the part where it's mentioned she had multiple shitty boyfriends and did (or does, what do I know) sex work and you somehow think that means she's keeping away from scrotes?
>whatJust imagine the sex scenes in yaoi and what that could mean.
No. 2576778
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>see cutest emo boy of my life
>no actually its a tif
why has this happened multiple times now.
No. 2576794
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What did the rocket scientist say when he saw the other rocket scientist was stressed with his job?
Come on! It's not animation!
No. 2576804
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I cant find a job and it's driving me crazy. Again i got reject and again i dipped into my savings to binge fast food. Now i am depressed and my stomach hurts like hell. Why am i like this? why is it so hard to get a job in my country? i am completly useless. On top of that my need military aunt keeps telling me job opportunities are everywhere blah blah even thought i handed vcs fucking everything and i didnt get called. Fucking boomers i cant stand them, they think its still the 00s and you can walk onto any shop and get hired or make millions with a business on the internet. I hate them so much.
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there were 2 concerts i bought tickets to but couldn’t go to bc of personal reasons and funny enough both concerts ended early because of weather complications. so i’m glad i didn’t travel for them but also this global warming shit is getting real. i am starting to get more concerned
No. 2576918
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Listen, I'd be fine with becoming increasingly psychotic if it weren't for the brain fog impeding what limited capabilities I have to better my life and do things that make me happier. I have so many pleasant things planned this week for once that involve socialising with people who are mostly all unfamiliar to me. How am I supposed to pass myself off as being coherent, personable and charming? What horrible timing. I'll be okay, but this is bullshit.
No. 2576928
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Today I went to the dentist to get my braces removed. I thought everything was going fine, but when i went home i found that my canine teeth were rounder than before. I searched it up and apparently this is a really common thing that happens to females. They didn't even ask or inform me this was going to happen, i feel so disgusted. I was proud of my pointy teeth. I hate my new smile, it feels artificial and different from my original self. I want to crush my retainers and get teeth modifications now.
I don't know what i can do about this, my male orthodontist would probably just say it was part of the treatment to give me a "beautiful smile"
Nonnas, please be careful when getting teeth treatments.
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Im so irritated and jealous that im nagged and scrutinized by my mom and witnessing others im my extended family be supported by theirs. Im planning to visit a friend who lives the next state over and just laze around watching trashy reality tv and drink wine. My mom pretty much said i dont “spend enough time” with my daughter and i should bring her along and im too focused on drinking and thats “harmful to you child”
My daughter is 17 and currently taking an online math course to help prepare her for college this fall. She never asked to go and I doubt a 17 year old wants to sit around a house watching “real housewives”
Meanwhile my cousin whos my age is newly single again, and leaves her 14 year old while she travels to europe every couple of months to rave, get drunk and hookup. Aside from questioning how she pays for these trips, nobody questions her parenting skills. She shared some texts with me between her and my aunt, where she could proudly show her mom the progress of her back tattoo and how her mom encouraged her to date again. My mom once called my tattoo “wasting my money” and me and my sibling all hid our new relationships from her just to not get judged.
I have a bachelors, own my house, work full time and have been married for 10 years im not some neglectful drunk running from my responsibilities.
No. 2576951
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Kinda hard to exist and be normal sometimes when I remember my ex-abuser is out there with horrible pictures of me. Like I need this dude dead unironically.
No. 2576962
>>2576949It sounds like it's time to stop listening to your mother. It sounds like you are older and accomplished so why even do it? Realizing mine wasn't even as accomplished as me and I could tell her to pound sand without giving a fuck was very freeing.
>>2576952Manifesting this for anon
No. 2577039
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>>2577035as long as you're breathing there's still time
No. 2577148
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Me waiting my postal package with my dildo and vibrator.
No. 2577203
>>2577180Why do men do this? I have always been asked out by men , had nice dates where they even said that they had fun, only for them to either ghost me or become cold after a while. Like why even bother me at this point, leave me alone retard.
I honestly think that I look “easy” from the outside or something, but when I start speaking about what I do and my objectives they chicken out kek.
No. 2577211
>>2577208I like to use my imagination and don’t watch anything nonna, porn is gross to me (I like audios and sexting my c.ai character if I have to do long sessions though).
Oh my god I hear the sound of a truck. MY VIBRATOR AND DILDO!!
No. 2577219
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Alone at lunch in school, alone at work… some things never change
No. 2577258
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Something is up with me today. I've cried all day, barely slept last night, dizzy. I haven't got my period since January, I really hope this is it and it's my pms or something. I have a job interview TOMORROW.
No. 2577324
>>2577321>>2577270This is so fucking true. I know it's easier said than done but don't ever feel bad when they never will.
>>2577258Aw
nonnie I hope you feel better tomorrow
No. 2577392
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>Every morning at 3:30 am
>Retarded singing constant chirping WAKE UP IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP retard bird colony in the trees next to my home going fucking crazy
>Close windows and suffer in heat even though it's summer
>Birds so loud you can hear them THROUGH the closed window
>Bird shit all over the path outside my house
FUCK birds!
No. 2577409
I feel bad even saying this but I feel like my sister is asking a bit too much of me and her bridesmaids. She's getting married in a few months and is planning everything somewhat last minute, she's also had her bachelorette trip and bridal shower and will soon have the engagement party. Pretty much everything she's asked for in regards to her pre wedding celebrations she's gotten. She has a couple bridesmaids who she had to cut ties with for justifiable reasons. But she literally has friends that people would kill for, ones that have had her back and will always. She could ask them for anything and they'd make it happen, I'm envious of her strong friendships and I'm so happy she has them in her life. But she recently told me she wishes her bridesmaids were more active in her wedding group chat, and that they were more proactive in the planning process of her wedding. And I can't help thinking like what is it she's wanting? They're active in the chat when there's something to discuss, or when she's posting. They planned and paid for her bachelorette trip. We all planned and organized her bridal shower. And is it wrong of me to think the wedding planning is kind of up to her and her fiance? If she were to ask for something we'd do it, but if we're not sure what she needs how can we automatically know there's something to be done and what to do for it. All of her bridesmaids have full time jobs, a few have children, some are traveling, one is going through a divorce. I just don't know what else she wants from us, and if we're not doing enough I wish she'd just say that. It hurts because I feel like I used to be very apathetic and closed off with our relationship because of mental health issues and at the time I felt everything I said and did came out wrong, and she felt that way too because she would correct me or tell me I said something wrong. And over time I've been trying really hard to get out of that, and the past year I feel like I've done really well. I'm quick to message back, I say yes to plans, I listen to her fully and try to give advice, I don't vent to her as much as I used too, I don't turn down photos anymore, I make effort to be normal and communicative in social settings. But it's still not enough, and it feels unappreciated because now she'll take forever to message me back or straight up ignore things I say to her or post on her socials. Idk it just feels like nothing I do is ever enough for her.
No. 2577483
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Applied to four schools for my MA and have been formally rejected by two, waiting to hear back from one, and was fucked over by the other. I feel like a shit artist
No. 2577486
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>>2577477you're right nonna, i'll go shower and do some work
No. 2577513
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"I HATE MY LIFE I HATE EVERYTHING I HATE EVERYONE EVERYTHING SUCKS I JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND DIE"
>period comes the very next day
Like clockwork.
No. 2577552
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Trying to be a regular semi-successful adult after years of parental abuse and neglect and severe bullying fucking sucks. I know I have to keep trying but I am years behind others my age and I don't know how to behave like a human. I'm in therapy and on meds but I'm still retarded.
No. 2577578
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literally losing my mind that this is even news right now. the homophobia these people have is palpable. imagine a person being offended of the traditional rainbow flag back in the early 90's. now imagine that same person, who now identifies as trans, reacting the same exact way before placing an ugly flag in retaliation.
coming to terms with my sexuality has been and sometimes still does the hardest thing in my life. to be sexually attracted to other women and faced with so much trauma at the hands of other people because of it. to have to hide myself for so long and be in denial and watching other much braver souls coming out and finding love earlier while i may have to contend to the possibility that due to the extremely small pool, i might honestly end up dying alone after all. wtf do these people want? to just completely take down all rainbow flags, lesbian flags, hell even the fucking bi flags and just make ALL OF IT about troons?
No. 2577598
>>2577578Calm down, this is just a way to express unhappiness at Trump and his administration. Since most people can afford a cheap flag and most people can walk past a monument, they showed the gubmint who's boss by leaving flags there.
I really understand your frustration but so much of the pro-trans sentiment in the USA right now is a direct consequence of Trump being the man behind these trans laws. It's going to pass. It'll take longer than it otherwise would have, but it WILL pass.
>>2577579Have you tried interrupting them when they're talking? Or ignoring them completely out of the blue, like smiling and nodding then mid-sentence you pull out your phone and blank the scrotes completely? That's worked for me.
No. 2577616
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>>2577218It will arrive tomorrow but I am so sad. I was looking forward to it.
No. 2577635
>>2577634That’s why we should always donate money towards trans women living in precarious
abusive living conditions (their mothers told them to wash the dishes and clean up their rooms).
No. 2577681
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>>2577552Tis better to be a first rate version of yourself than a second rate version of someone else
No. 2577772
>>2577738i hear some people turn their smartphones into a dummyphone on purpose by deleting unnecessary apps. the biggest ones coming to mind being social media ones, like tiktok, youtube, instagram, xitter, facebook, that sort of shit. also deleting mobile game apps on it, ai chat bot apps, chat apps like discord, online shopping apps, some have even gone as far as not using music apps like spotify. the only apps to be left behind would be the very basic crap like email, phone/facetime/regular texting, calculator, gps, etc.
No. 2577783
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I have a family history of alcoholism and literally just stopped drinking almost every day a few months ago. But I got drunk again today, and I hate how much I love it. It feels like being in love, like everything makes sense again. I wish I could feel like this all the time. One of my friends even asked me seriously to stop drinking, as she'd even lost her own mother to complications of alcoholism. I feel like all my life I've been a complete fuck up and shit head. It's like, getting up in the morning I often wonder why I'm alive. What the point of anything is. I feel like I've had this life long melancholy, even as a little girl. I have so much to be happy about, so many blessings. But It's like my brain refuses to be happy, which just makes me feel even more like a piece of shit. It's like all the world is grey and distant from me, in spite of that.
No. 2577799
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>go on facebook
>see a picture of 2 of my friends from university who haven't contacted me in years still hanging out together
>feel bad like i'm some autist retard who can't keep friendships even though i don't have any negative feelings towards them and we never argued or fell out
>start tweaking a bit
>decide to message my other friend from uni for the first time in like 2 years on facebook
>pacing and panicking waiting for her to respond
Why am I like this. I didn't even fall out with any of these women and I got along with them just fine, I just sort of went off-grid for 2 years because of various personal issues. I feel so awkward messaging one of them almost like I'm asking permission to be her friend again. I hope she doesn't ignore my message. It used to be so easy for me to make and keep friends and now it feels so difficult and I hate myself for it.
No. 2577826
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>>2576426So it turns out they were building a nest in my brother's bedroom which is right next to the front door. My brother said he killed what he assumes to be the queen yesterday but they're still huddling around his room. Maybe none of this would be happening if this filthy worthless faggot knew a single thing about basic hygiene.
No. 2577891
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I am so tired of my depression manifesting itself in the most retarded and annoying ways. Today i woke up feeling incredibly sad because i dreamt about Adam West. I am not even a big fan of adam west i only know him from family guy and the fairy odd parents. Wtf did i dream about adam west and why does his death affect my brain so much i have depressing dreams about him. A week ago i was depressed over things like payphones and cyber cafes not existing anymore. It's like i cannot function without being in a perpetual state of depression and longing and it's so tiring.
No. 2577914
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I AM IN PAINNNN. Fuck endo.
No. 2577995
I hate ze junkies
I had to go to hospital ER and there were three addicts there trying to score pills. First one is an old blonde lady. She just laid around crying and screaming and they ignored her. Second one had to be strapped down because he was a moid and being violent. Seven cops and some knock out drugs later he drifted off to sleep. Third lady cut her foot on purpose for pills, they say no, she says ok fine but I have chemical burn on my face, they say no, she says ok I can't eat for days. They say wait. She disappears to the toilet for thirty mins, comes out eating a box of hot tamales and making animal noises. They admitted her in the end.
Nurses were cool, they prioritized man with broken back/lady with broken hip before me so they were being fair. But I started being nosey and all the nurses were pissed and talking about how common this was. I wasn't in pain or anything.
I looked it up online and apparently 16% of total ER cases are by people with "chronic pain" despite them being told NOT to go to ER because it can only be treated by a Doctor you see on the reg and ER will avoid giving you pain meds. Of those, 93% are on prescribed opiods. 93% is INSANEEEEE. So I dug a little deeper and found huge communities on tiktok made up of people that had been on methadone for 20+ years and that plan on being on it forever so they never have to go through withdrawal. It is also written into law that the ER HAS to treat withdrawals from drugs even if there's no chance of death by going through the withdrawals. Then I went into the chronic pain reddit communities and just wow lol. Even the communities dedicated to making fun of fakes was full of people with ACTUAL REAL chronic pain kek
I wish we had an ot thread about this shit because I genuinely don't think I could ever be a nurse and deal with this. My Doctor was so obviously pissed at the people in the ER. One guy was there because he picked a scab on his big diabetes leg. They literally gave him a band-aid in the waiting room and sent him home KEK no pills for youuuu
I recently met my first decade long prescription opiod user irl and I can honestly say she's one of the most selfish people I've ever met. She will literally let her children suffer and say "but I was in pain and needed my pill". She steals, she lies, she begs. And from what I've read this is just how they are. I'm told I should feel bad for them because of trauma, but I just don't?
No. 2578018
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I've tried to "do right" by "my" people (and that's meant more than one thing). I still try. I offer my thoughts and try to be supportive here and there, but I don't really think I'll ever fit in anywhere. I've read so much about humans, sex, race, societies, and I'm glad I have (I think I always will), but on a personal level, it's all amounted to 800 different ways and reasons I'll always be a weird fucking anomaly and people will always push all these ideas onto me that I never fucking asked for.
I would've been weird if I hadn't been born into the particular "tribe" I was, but being that just adds an extra layer of awkwardness. It's not even about "ugly", I've noticed women are trained to fixate on beauty standards even when they know better. I'm pretty enough. Just batshit insane.
No. 2578019
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>>2577585Someone tell me I'm not crazy but my roommate finally spoke with me and she's mad because I'm not "compassionate" enough to "be a friend" and look at photos of her & her family with her? And she called me a sad person because I don't want to "share" the experience of her going through her stuff? I don't really think I'm the weird one in this situation and this was really uncalled for, I'm just a roommate FFS
No. 2578071
>>2577615Not sure if this is bait, but I'm going to point out that this isn't what happened anyway. Marsha P Johnson was a drag queen and a homosexual man who never identified as trans. He arrived at Stonewall after the rioting had already started, and it was after Stormé DeLarverie, a butch lesbian, threw a punch at a cop who attacked her for trying to help someone up, and yelled "Why don't you do something?" to the crowd. Even this video admits as such, though they try to make it into a "mysterious butch lesbian".
TRAs need to stop lying.
No. 2578161
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my cat may have cancer and if he does i'll have to put him to sleep. it's not fair, he's not young but i thought we'd have so many more years together. he's declined so much in just a few days.
No. 2578173
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ugh im a retarded virgin and im not even ugly or anything just severely socially isolated and autistic. i just wanna get it over with but it needs to be like romantic and real love which im kinda scared men cant actually feel and ill only get to sorta-experience in fantasises of my fictional reverse-harem. why does this reality suck so much ASS
No. 2578177
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I'm a fucking paranoid idiot so I deleted all my socials like five months ago (it was only my discord and instagram, both which I barely used but still) and suddenly remembered the friend finder thread exists, so when I tried logging into my discord I remembered what I did. I know it's no big deal because I can just make a new account, it's just that now I don't wanna come across as a creep who made her account TODAY and sent someone a message that same day
No. 2578202
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The vent is directed on myself.
So, I had an issue with my breasts (that is, the left one), and I finally got my ass to the doctors yesterday.
The issues were the following: sometimes the breast feels itchy and hurts a bit (even though the pain is about 0.5/10 and it feels like it is on the skin level). I also have the same weird feeling in the upper arms (or, rarely, in the armpit) - some sort of discomfort and pain, although very mild.
The doctor did the ultrasound and found that there is a small benign tumor in the other breast, the right one. She told me that I need to have an ultrasound again in December and that the breast pain is normal.
But I dunno, I’m not sure it’s normal. The red spot is suspicious and I really really don’t like the other symptoms. So, naturally, I googled around, found out about inflammatory breast cancer - and that’s what I started to suspect.
The doctor told me to check the red spot with the dermatologist. I already have an appointment scheduled, so I’m covered in that regard. But I’m thinking of doing a mammogram and maybe an ultrasound in another place, and I also want to visit another doctor. Just to be sure.
I’m annoyed at myself because I flick between “you’re fine, you’re just making a fuss because you have hypochondria” and “you cannot trust the doctor, it’s definitely something serious and she missed it, you’re going to die from breast cancer”. It’s either one or another, and I’m either annoyed, scared, sad, or all three of them combined.
No. 2578227
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I got sick and i gained a bunch of weight FUCK. I was so close from being within a healthy BMI.
No. 2578276
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My brother came to visit after 20 years. Haid that after soo long he wanted to try seeing if a relationship is posible.
I was worried we wouldn't have anything in to talk about and be distant but he actually turned out to be pretty chill.
He seems interested in how my day went and my thesis.
Idk why I keep expecting something bad to happen. I feel like bc I've always had him on my mind ever since I wad little and I've always wanted to meet him that might blind me now onto detecting red flags. But at the same time I can't draw that conclusions over a few hours of convo.
Idk I'm just hoping I won't have my heart broken again by yet another man. Not that it's make it or break it but I really want this one thing yo be ok. I want one positive long lasting experience regarding men.
No. 2578304
>>2578301Why did you assume it's a septum kek
I can't smell dead skin because "cleaning daily" also means cleaning my piercings.
No. 2578340
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I want to work on some sort of confidence when it comes to how my face looks, but I genuinely can't bring myself to accept how it looks, let alone like it, especially my nose. I feel so incredibly unattractive no matter what I do. I cleared up my acne and started wearing makeup, yet I still feel hideous. I can't even bring myself to wear the things I enjoy because I feel like my face just ruins it all. I don't know if this is just me being retarded and looking at too much social media fashion shit or whatever, but even so, I don't want to turn heads or be a model; I just want to like myself and feel cute for once.
No. 2578341
>>2578297Get covid
>>2578304I mean if you wanted to smell metal as much as possible I would assume that getting a septum is the next best option.
No. 2578344
>>2578340Picrel really made me laugh nonna.
The fact that you have clear skin already puts you many steps ahead nonna. I would just suggest you to literally go out and look at the people around you. Most of us are average , not exceptional, not ugly, not breathing, just normal and that’s okay. You probably fall into that category too. Stop comparing yourself with the women you see on social media because it isn’t healthy.
Like you said, be clean, dress well, maybe get a new haircut to find your self confidence again. But you literally don’t need to change your whole face.
No. 2578368
Came back home after a job interview for a burger place and the interviewer decided to do a group interview. I was surrounded by students, I'm 31, so fucking embarassing. I decided to lie and say I wanna do part-time in August because I have a client with my freelancing business kek. Walked out and almost cried in public. Got home and I felt better but I thought I should still make myself cry to get my frsustration out and it worked but my sobs started making me laugh. I then started finding it hilarious that I was the only hag there surrounded by 18 year olds just started out. I feeling like such a fucking loser, a failure, to myself, to my family, to life, to God (if there's one); And to top it off the interviewer was like, would you be okay serving alcohol, is that okay in your religion? Assuming I'm a fucking muslim, always fucking happens to me. My heart started beating fast out of anger. Can't fucking stand this retarded country
No. 2578379
>>2578368you're not a loser or a failure, you're actively trying to better yourself and that alone puts you leagues above others in similar situations as you
i hope you don't beat yourself up too much and can begin seeing jobs like that as a stepping stone for a better future. you can fix things little by little
No. 2578523
I consider myself chronically online and pretty much on the internet all the time but one thing I've noticed is how I use the internet: I look up my interests, I open pinterest, see cute stuff, look up video essays or use it as a background noise while I do chores or work. This weekend I went out with friends and they stayed on the phone, keep in mind, I love looking up stuff so I didn't care about it much but I noticed that their phone time was always to reply to some comments/message, staying on discord threads always replying to other people and I wondered how they can do it. Always talking with someone, strangers, always texting, I couldn't fucking do it. I used my phone to take 4k videos so my battery quickly died, I chucked my phone in my bag with my power bank and rested on a bench looking at the sea, thinking about my stuff or just resting my head a little and I couldn't get my phone charged up fully again because they begged me to get some power from my personal powerbank.
So not only they don't have one (and using the phone that much should make them think), they begged me to get some charge for what? Texting people on discord? What the fuck?
i'm not that old, I'm a younger millennial so I grew up with internet and all the cool stuff, I grew up on forums and chatrooms so I know how addicting can get but I absolutely hate staying on my phone, to the point that I don't reply to text notification unless it's from my mother (my nigel was with me, no point in texting him) when I go out because I absolutely hate how having a phone gives access to people all the time but yeah, I don't want to sound like a old fart but seeing them always replying to texts, not even from friends, just to randos on discord made me so fucking sad, it's not funny, at that point why even going out? Why staying in the sun, cooking your hands with your phone because it gets balls hot, to reply to strangers while you are walking in a nice sea town? Why do you even care that much about strangers texting you? Why it's moids that do this? I was with girls, they were the ones looking stuff around, meanwhile the moids (their partners) acted like those annoyed parents that go "Yeah ok baby" while being on their phones. I gave them by power bank just to be nice and to avoid having pointless discussions on a nice relaxing day but when at the end of the day they didn't see shit , the girls were sharing pictures and I couldn't listen to my music on the way back I felt so empty. Social media needs to be eradicated.
No. 2578602
>>2578581I saw that reply,
nonnie. You're not wrong.
(Shit I'd just deleted before realising you deleted but fuck it, need to get it off my chest anyway)
He's fucked out here without a car for his new education. Invested into a shitty expensive car when I gave him money, now that had to be scrapped because repairs where insane. Didn't give him my PC, even when he asked if he could bring it home with him?? Like, what?? Completely forgot that I needed it for work, or simply didn't give a shit.
I'm so upset with myself, I know he's a fucking idiot that already got too much of my attention and love, but the way he can still make me feel like I deserved this or that this is the best I can hope for. Rationally, I know that's not true. I know he's a lazy, poor, barely conscious meat suit. Where the hell did my spine go for fucks sake, I swear I had one once— that's what fucks me up and makes me so damn mad at myself. It's weak.
No. 2578612
>>2578602i deleted it because it felt a bit too soon and you mentioned you felt like crying. i didn't say it to be mean though, i said it because
i think you deserve more and shouldn't give a moid who treats you poorly any shred of kindness in his time of need, especially since he can't do the same for you in your time of need.
No. 2578628
>>2578612On no
nonnie, don't worry, I understood perfectly. I do feel like crying, but I also know that this just isn't it. Sometimes it helps hearing it. I'll find that god damn spine again, I promise. Thank you for reminding me. I hope you have a great day/week and think of me when you're about to compromise. Don't! If I'd known, I would've rather walked the 8km to our supermarket FFS.
No. 2578679
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Finally, I love watching narc on narc violence KEK
You both deserve nothing less.
No. 2578686
>>2578682You don’t need to be
valid to be labeled an addiction. Cutting yourself is the same as drinking yourself to the point of liver failure or shooting up dope to the point of a heart attack.
This is a setback nonna, not everything is lost. You can start again.
No. 2578710
>trying to sleep from long two days of work with only 4 hours of rest between each
>rhinocerous geriatric mother gets back from her hair appointment
>doesn't remember her phone
>wakes me up to demand I call it while she looks for it
>huffs, puffs, stomps, slams, cusses bc heaven forbid a slight inconvenience that she caused for herself
>and no she doesn't even use that shitty phone
>two call attempts with no one answering her phone
>she demands I call again
>she notices I am calling her number
>"NO I WANT YOU TO CALL THE SALON!"
>K but you said to call your phone and how would I even know your salon or their number?? What's the name???
>she is getting more irate and agitated as her fartbrain tries to churn an answer
>she tries to swipe my phone to google meanwhile she is tech illiterate
>"I DON'T REMEMBER MY SALON NAME I AM BLANKING. UH, SALON 56?!!!!"
>I google it, does not exist
>"JUST GOOGLE SALONS NEAR ME!!!!"
>Oh you mean Salon 23?
>"YES!!!!!"
>she's frustrating and panicking for no god damned reason
>I call twice but salon has a full inbox and will not ring
>"FINE, GUESS I'LL HAVE TO FUCK DRIVE ALL THE WAY BACK THERE FUUUUUCK!!! I AM SO AFRAID SOMEONE WILL TAKE MY PHONE!!!"
>slamming, puffing, and making ruckus on her way out like the retired bitch has anything better to do than hurry home to watch more tv
>don't worry mother, no one will take your brick piece of shit phone from 2016 with screen burn and bloatware while you drive back
So, unironically, how do I start documenting her aggressive cognitive decline and giving this to her doctors? Cannot wait to put this old bitch on tranq meds.
>inb4 nonnas get offended bc their mothers are sweet and kind
Don't worry, bitch is insufferable and no one loves her because she is incapable of loving anyone but herself.
No. 2579050
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>take car in to get oil change
>mechanic looks at me like she knows it's already gonna be bad
>get told breaks are worn and fluid is corroded and needs to be replaced
>decide to finally fix some issues
>total is estimated to 600 plus possible 200 more for brake rotors
>half hour passes waiting with creepy older scrotes in lobby
>get called back up to front and see final estimate is now 811 dollars
>mfw
Seriously wtf is car maintenance prices these days. I know it's already a lot using chains but the past few scrote mechanics my mom has recommend and taken me to always either create new leaks or fuck something up. I just want to drive my car without problems reeeeeeeeeeeee
No. 2579074
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My mom wanted me to take her out to dinner tonight, an Italian place on a Wednesday during a thunderstorm. She wanted to eat at 4:30pm and was complaining in my ears about how hungry she was leading up to the time. Very annoying and childish behavior–can't just fix herself a light snack like an adult–but whatever. I recently got a 2nd degree sunburn so I have painful blisters and peeling skin on my face and body which makes me very self-conscious about doing anything right now except work which I am forced to do to pay my bills. But I agreed to take her. After I got out of the shower around 4:30, I noticed my horrendous, peely and three-toned face in the mirror and started to feel humiliated that I was going to have to sit in a restaurant this way. So I took some tweezers trying to peel off all the gross skin on my face. Five minutes later she comes blazing in, with her annoying ass attitude, what are you doing nooooow I'm hungryyyyyyyy. I gave her an old phrase she used to say to me all the time I was a child, "Good, get good and hungry." The obvious difference of course, being that I was a CHILD and dependent on her for food while she can feed herself. She exploded with rage and denied ever having said that to me lol, she can't handle that I remember her being a cruel piece of shit to.me. So next I explained I wasn't feeling comfortable going out with my skin being how it is so that's why I was taking longer in the bathroom. All she heard was that I didn't want to go out so she decides to torpedo the whole night and yells to me that she knew it and how she should have never asked me completely ignoring that I didn't say we wouldn't but implying that our dinnertime might be more around 5pm like NORMAL PEOPLE because I was trying to do some self-care. She was acting like someone had starved her all day and that I was some malicious ogre denying her right to food.
So she stormed out of the house to go get food for herself. Oh me? My food after I didn't eat a fucking thing all day unlike her? Entirely my problem to deal with.
Hate her stupid ass.
No. 2579110
>>2579095Being submissive doesn't work either. Eventually they find a way to demonize you and all the cooperative and nice things you did for them prior go out the window anyway. I'm very catering to her but it doesn't mean much when she wants to pick a fight while playing
victim. At least I don't have to sit across from her ungrateful ass and pay for her food at a restaurant.
No. 2579121
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>Burntout from first job, been 6 months now but tempted to go back to neet ways/ work at mall for a while>"You're in your room all day, we barely see you, everyone talks about it, what are you doing in there?" spiel but deny that everyone just goes on their phones and ignores each other/ me>Want to buy edibles to see how much less anxious it can help me be>Call Dad to tell him not to pick me up, starts yelling how he's already almost here and rushed out of the pool to get me>Still wait at least 5 minutes anyway and get yelled at bc "it's too hot and you ubering will cost too much money" when its my money so what is the problem for in the first place?>Phone breaks, buy a phone in panic but end up cancelling the order in time because the replacement shipped overnight >Stuck in house waiting for said replacement all morning/afternoon while my sisters go out shopping and get drinks like I wanted to for the past weekLeft behind and forgotten yet again. Inshallah the edible quest will resume tomorrow
>>2579050Picrel movie devastated me and reinforced my misandry, good taste anon
No. 2579122
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>need to access some financial data for a project >cant access the latest one so i use the year before; dont mention this when i turn in the project, which is my fault>get a horrible failing grade despite doing the project correctly otherwise because i used old data>email professor and tell her that i had to use the old data because i literally couldnt access the new one>well anon i had no trouble accessing it>doesnt change the horrible grade at allim seriously about to just withdrawl from this fucking retarded class
>>2579100men are just useless like this especially emotionally. it sucks
No. 2579134
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I have realized that I was lonely cause I befriended bunch of overgrown toddlers. That one was on me, I should have been more judgemental and less understanding.
No. 2579241
>>2579028a few years younger than you but i get it
nonnie. i waitress because i can’t find anything else with my bachelors and they all pay like shit, too. i’m the oldest waitress because i’m in my mid-20s, and despite this still being a “young age,” people that don’t get it treat you like an alien or mistake if you aren’t 22 with a career, or 27 making tons of money, etc. i find it sweet you laughed, just wish it wasn’t at yourself. the reality is, it’s just a job, and those are hard to find right now. a job doesn’t define your success or worthiness, it is literally a societal thing that has been made up. but we feel like shit because other members of our species judge us for it (often those members are privileged)
No. 2579252
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I’m really burnt out of my job because they won’t rotate my schedule no matter how much I plead but I’m a fucking job hopper so literally I hate every job I’ve ever had except for one. I’m literally just the beyond mentally fucked problem that will never find anything I don’t hate so I’ll be a piece of shit job hopping aimlessly forever. God just grant me a desk job please. Please.
No. 2579261
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I fear for people who can't tell when someone is either filtermaxxing or has gotten obvious surgery. My friend showed me a picture of a cosplayer she follows, saying "it's so unfair how beautiful she is, I wish I looked like her!" This woman had a Michael Jackson nose, a nonexistent V-shaped jaw which made her neck and shoulders look massive in comparison, and textureless skin. I tried telling my friend that no human has ever naturally looked like this but she thinks I'm just trying to make her feel better. And this is a common thing?? I'll admit that my autism makes it difficult to spot when people have had work done, but surely we can't be THIS blind as a collective. Don't they realise something is up just by going outside and seeing what people look like in real life?
No. 2579315
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Both my parents have cancer. I am choosing to not deal with it because I can’t. I feel so numb. I will try to hope for the best. I hope nothing bad happens and I enjoy my life while I can. Life is cruel but I will not let it defeat me. If something bad is happening is to you I hope it gets better for you anon(s).
No. 2579318
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because of my autism and general social isolation my whole life i have a very low need for socialization but sometimes it hits hard how alone i really am and i get so anxious about it and right now is one of those times. it hurts so bad and im scared of being alone forever and never really living; my whole existence being inside my room alone and thats it. ive always wondered when it would be my turn to live a real life and i still dont know when itll happen. it doesnt help my parent (yes singular) is really overprotective and we live in a low population town an hour away from any populated areas. it just feels so hopeless and i wish this feeling would go away already
No. 2579327
I know I'm too old to be caring about social politics like this but I'm really hurt that some mutuals still take pictures with and hang out with ex friends who treated me and Nigel like dogshit before they discarded us. We let these friends know what the ex friends had done to us, and I get that they don't want to bomb their social circle by taking sides, but it still hurts. The ex friends don't even have a squeaky clean reputation in our circles but everyone seems to tolerate them just because of their proliferation and presence in the community. "Clout" is too powerful of a word to say that's what these losers have, but let's say no one wants to get on their bad side due to the unhinged shit that they unleashed on us for example.
These ex friends stole from us, took advantage of us, and got a lot of free labor out of us. If I had a friend who told me a mutual did this to them, I don't think I could continue to be so familiar and friendly with that individual. What's that saying? "I took it personal because I would have never done it to you."
The sense of betrayal I feel is crushing. I know at the root of it, it's simply an alignment issue and we just need to make friends who have values like we do. Our values clearly don't always play out in our favor. A lot of assholes would blame us and say we should have had stronger boundaries and said no (Nigel is autistic and I am likely undiagnosed, we've got traumas and are perhaps naive for the fact). But that's not who we are, we're open and honest. I know that "direct" shocks and scares people but it's true. We put energy, care, and trust into our friendships. And heaven forbid when we are manipulated by "chosen family" that we'd like to believe what they say, until their actions show the contrary–and we're blamed for it.
Up is down.
Left is right.
Everything feels so fucking backwards. Sorry for the rambling.
No. 2579331
>>2577995Lmao to the lady with eating hot tamales and making animal noises. That shit makes me laugh - she tried out every excuse and they probably admitted her so she would stop presenting fake issues or exaggerating real ones. Lmao I can't stop thinking about this lady with a bleeding foot and a chemical burn on her face devouring hot tamales in the bathroom and making growling noises.
Your chat about opiate users and the ER made me think of a few things I've noticed that I find weird in regards to med-seeking people, hospitals, etc.
I speak to so many people over the phone that have some issue with refilling medications. Some of their stories seem far-fetched, but I try and give them the benefit of the doubt because healthcare workers can also suck. One lady called and told me that her doctor refused to write any further prescriptions for a benzo and then dropped her as a patient. It was not fun attempting to find a single emergency psychiatry program in the entire state, and it was not fun trying to reassure her that worst case scenario, the ER can help, but she will have to fight for it. If she was telling the truth, I hope her doctor loses his license. If she was lying, well… I wouldn't wish benzo withdrawal on my worst enemy.
There was a lady that got arrested by the DEA and as a result all of her patients had to be connected to new prescribers. I spoke to people that were taking 60 mg Oxycodone total throughout the day, every day, for the past 10 years. Most of her patients were people who were on opiates for more than three years. It was absolutely ridiculous, because there is no pain clinic worth their salt that's going to accept people that just got kicked from their pill mill and just keep giving them the same pills.
I imagine some doctors / prescribers straight up write scripts for opiates because, even if they know that a person is drug seeking, hearing a person say they've been addicted to prescription opiates for 10 years and they have been getting it legally from a prescriber… well, if you say no, will they just try and go to the streets?
Finally, the r/chronicillnessfaker sub is FILLED with people who probably are also fakers lol. It's very frustrating watching people point out someone's malingering and then go "I should know, I had the exact same procedure only worse and I had to get a pip boy installed in my aorta" like jesus fucking christ shut the fuck up
No. 2579338
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For so long I felt incredibly lonely because I never managed to “find my people” and I’m already an adult now. But I had an epiphany today. I already found my people. There’s a group of women who all share the same interests as me. They are all autistic. They all love weird fashion. But you know what all of these women have in common? NONE OF THEM IDENTIFY AS WOMEN.
It’s gotten so bad that I am genuinely considering a trans support group or something so that I can befriend everyone and slowly redpill them on the transgender-industrial complex. Shit is bleak.
No. 2579348
>>2579315I'm sorry to hear that, anon, even if I don't know you. Both parents to cancer? Jesus. That is completely brutal.
You sound very brave, which is admirable.
Always find a way to enjoy life, even when it beats you down. Keeping you in my prayers.
No. 2579352
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>when chat gpt gives you better analysis of life issues and empathy than therapists, friends, and anonymous support spaces combined
No. 2579366
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>>2579352If you knew anything about how generative AI works, then you'd realize that ChatGPT is an echo chamber for yourself. It 'learns' your thoughts, attitudes, and beliefs through frequent use, and then it uses them to create its answers. It's confirmation bias. You think that it gives you a better analysis of your life issues because you don't want to actually figure out your life issues, you just want something to repeat your own flawed analyses because you're more comfortable repeating the same mistakes than you are with confronting those mistakes and remedying them.
For example, if a bippie complains to ChatGPT about how she feels as though everyone in her life is out to get her, and how everyone abandons her, ChatGPT will tell her that she needs to find better friends, and how she's a
victim, it won't actually confront her about her negative thought processes.
You're degrading yourself and your spirit. It's pitiable.
No. 2579369
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Not meant to stir shit up or anything, whatever ban I get, I'll accept. Just want genuine advice. Is it bad/pointless to hope my longtime close friend will grow out of her Aiden phase? I don't necessarily hate transgenders or want them dead or anything, I'm ambivalent, but I just feel like it's probably some other internal issue. She has spoken before not feeling accepted and falling under beauty standards, I just feel like getting the shot or whatever will solve her problems. She's otherwise incredibly intelligent and self aware so I just don't fully get it. Should I just ignore it and let figure it out? Or is it possible to subtly talk her out of it somehow?
No. 2579377
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i just feel so bad. just wandering through life with no true path. never comfortable in any group. no place where i feel like i truly belong. the only thing that really makes me feel anything is my husbando, and even then i'm swamped with guilt because i feel like i don't do enough for him. i want to do more. i want to die knowing i accomplished something. it's an endless cycle of self-loathing
No. 2579405
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>>2579401Same nona. I suffer from chronic illness and want to end my life sometimes, but the only thing that keeps me alive is thinking about how much it would destroy my parents and the other people I love and who I know love me too. I guess all we can do is try to make each other laugh and make life more bearable kek
No. 2579425
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My sister's girlfriend is so so annoying and she's here allll the time. I'm gonna lose my freakin mind
No. 2579499
>>2579474>>2579482i went out and finally got diagnosed and medicated. the difference with and without medication is truly night and day. i actually became a bit resentful that my mother allowed me to live my entire life struggling like this when all it took was finding the right pill for my brain to work properly, kek.
as for the doctor thing
>>2579482 , you're definitely making the right choice by seeing a specialist instead of a regular doctor. it wasn't until i saw a specialist that my issues were actually taken seriously and testing was immediately scheduled. i hope it all works out for you.
No. 2579521
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>tfw all of my problems would be fixed with money
>born into a south american country with no chance of making enough money to fix all my issues
No. 2579526
>>2579522Redditors are the strangest type of pseudointellectuals I've seen. Someone can ask a joke question for laughs and then some retard slacking off at his office job irl will answer the question in 5 pages but then add something like
>Sooo the fact that you even thought of this question proves how dumb you are and how you don't have any ethics or morals or rationality and should be reported to the state policeIf you think it's so dumb then why answer the question, bro? Oh, yeah. Right.
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>>2579519>"why would people want to scam ME"?kek
Anyway the most retarded shit is when they fall for romance scams, I feel zero sympathy for them. It's pure arrogance on their part. Like yeah that hot young girl totally wants to meet up with a decrepit old man, she just needs some money to buy a plane ticket! If someone falls for that he deserves to be scammed.
No. 2579585
>>2579369Everything you said is kinda off so I can only assume you're a newfag. Why would you get banned in a vent thread for venting? Why do you act as if anons all hate trans people and want them dead? There's even threads for detrans nonas and anons constantly post about having lost dear friends and family to trans ideology or talk about what first made them peak because at least half the users were once at least casually pro-trans themselves.
It's not your job to save anyone else, even if they're your friend. Most trans people eventually detrans, but it's usually a very long painful road (can take over a decade) and you're often better off leaving them and letting them figure it out and then they'll have to come back to you. Basically like a drug addiction - you don't want to cheer them on or watch them get high and fucked up, but if they ever do make it out you can then be there for them again.
Genuine advice; go on youtube and look up videos by/interviews with detrans people (females in particular). It can answer a lot of your questions about why she ended up that way, and how she can eventually get out of that mindset. A lot of them are easy to keep on in background like a podcast.
No. 2579613
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I've been in a depressive episode for a while but I've made the choice to turn things around by fixing piece by piece every day. I'm tired of hating myself, and if I do something to be a little better than I was yesterday I think I can make a real change eventually.
Today I'm going to clean my room and do my skincare routine for the first time in a long time. I hope being in a clean space can help me feel a little better. I'm going to continue brushing my teeth because I started that back again yesterday.
After I get into the routine of doing basic grooming daily I'll start exercising again, maybe with something light like walking, or Ringfit Adventure.
I'm just tired of feeling like a loser and being so resentful over the happiness/success of others. I want my own happiness, too.
No. 2579668
>>2579585>Everything you said is kinda off so I can only assume you're a newfag.Honest to God I'm not, I was just weirdly nervous about making that post in general. I didn't expect an endless congaline of asspats or anything, obviously, but I was oddly paranoid of being labeled a pot stirring scrote or an undercover Aiden. I've seen fairly lukewarm posts about transgenders be met with quite a bit of anger, frankly.
>Why would you get banned in a vent thread for venting?Potentially misconstrued as baiting.
>Why do you act as if anons all hate trans people and want them dead? I don't legitimately think everyone on the site is like that (otherwise, why bother making that post to begin with lol?) but it is naive to believe that bringing it up in general won't be met with zero hostility here lol. Some threads are more chill than others. Regardless, I didn't want to go on plebbit just to immediately get called an ebil bigot either.
>Inb4 why are you befriending xemI thought she was just a tomboy, the gendie stuff came much later on (one day "came out" to me about it).
The other reason why I feel like she's looking into transitioning is as some kind of attempted escape from being a woman. An escape from the automatic discrimination that brings. I also believe it's because she grew up in an extremely religious, conservative household that obviously viewed women as subhuman. So perhaps in her mind it's better to "become" a man. Tbh I also feel like she is the way she is because she doesn't feel feminine/accepted as a woman easily, the "logical" answer is to transition instead of being GNC.
>It's not your job to save anyone else, even if they're your friend.I suppose. I just hate the idea of her being even more miserable with going through something that won't solve her actual problems and being ostracized by her family/being in the streets (her home life is a bit complicated). She does still mean a lot to me. But well, she's an adult in the end, I can only do so much.
>videos by/interviews with detrans people (females in particular).I'll look into it, though I'd appreciate any recommendations that look at it from a legitimate radfem angle and not just another pan handling grifter. I've already been reading both the detrans thread on /2X/ and /g/, which have been eye-opening.
Thanks for the actual advice though, I appreciate it, sincerely.
No. 2579676
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A lot of the things I've done these past few years have been out of sheer hatred of a former friend.
She was the type person who if you are friends with her you don't need any enemies, she is the type that can look you in the eyes and almost immediately know how to get under your skin so she can pretend to be your best friend while also bullying you. And I was her favorite victim. I stopped drawing and singing because she kept telling me that I suck and should just give up, she would make me feel ugly and unloved (despite being heavily overweight herself and struggling with dating), she would make you insecure in your relationship by hinting that they might be seeing others even if it wasn't true, she would escalate other people's petty dramas into giant fights for her own amusement, etc. She's definitely not BPD, just a regular asshole that wanted to be like Regina George.
I cut her off when she finally fucked me and another friend over for the last time, and because I started fact checking with others when she claimed there were rumors going around to keep me insecure and in line - just for it all to be lies from her. Because she always used to push me down and make me feel like shit, and the scars I still have from her bullying, I always push myself to be successful. I won't let her convince herself she knew what's best for me, like she used to tell me all the time, that I do better without her in my life. I got myself an education, career and a big apartment in a nice area. Now that I heard that she lost a shit ton of weight (understandable tbh, her mother died last year and I am sorry for her sake, nobody deserves to have lost both their parents before they even turn 30) so now I'm more keen than ever to get my ass into the gym to build muscle and tracking what I eat. It's dumb and silly that I do all this to prove something to someone I don't have any contact with, but at least I'm making choices that are good for me. Hell, it has even made even more picky when it comes to dating because I refuse to get involved with a scrote unless they are hot and have a good career too bad I still have her voice echoing things in my head that make me so insecure I end up fucking it all up over and over again, some people that get under your skin never truly leave
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>>2579787>I get sexualized for my bodyYou sure do. I was going to tell a personal anecdote but it's gross and you already know. This is why women with wide hips are mostly arm dancers
No. 2579827
>>2579787I am sorry nona, it really sucks. Especially since it's not much you can do about it, but I believe in your ability to develop a who gives a shit attitude! Who cares what anyone thinks, and men are chimps who would think sexually of you no matter how your body looked which is why their existence and opinions are of no value.
>a lot of clothing make me look fatAs someone that is also curvy and tall on top of it, I feel this so hard though. Clothes either show off your curves a bit too much for comfort, or you look twice your weight. Rarely any in between.
No. 2579936
>>2579787It really makes me feel dirty despite it not being my fault honestly. I don’t have big breasts but I have a big ass and when I put dresses or jeans it just sticks out no matter what I do. Even my friends have no qualms making comment about it. I’ve had scrotes make loud comments on it, take pictures without my knowledge , fondle me , it’s disgusting.
I’m much better now , but before I used to feel so ashamed.
No. 2579966
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At the moment I feel like picrel every day and once I finished work I just sit there not knowing what to do. I want to got to bed immediately but I know I could't sleep. I try to distract myself from the empty feeling with stupid little things and browling lolcor but I wonder when this will be over. I'm just so tired.
>>2579929I can relate so well to this nonna I wonder sometimes if us humans went to far and we're not made for the life we currently have. It's retarded to romanticize another life sure but I wish I could live on the country side and care for my animals and bake and make marmalade that I sell on the village market.
No. 2579986
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Finding a rental that isn't an actual shithouse is so difficult, landlords hardly get back when you ask to tour, and then when you actually find a place you like, the application fees are super expensive and there's a million things to sign only for it to go to somebody else. Rinse and repeat over and over
No. 2579999
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I just realized I’ve never had a best friend. I’m 18 and my family had moved 4 times. In high school I would just drift from clique to clique. I got along with them for the most part but I never connected with them on a deeper level. I rarely hung out with these people outside of school or hung out with any of the members one-on-one. A lot of the time they would go out partying without me and tell me about it later. I’ve known people who I considered my “best friend” until they mentioned having a “best friend” who was not me.
All the people I’ve actually managed to connect with on a deeper level live far away. With the vast majority of friend groups I’ve been in, something always prevented me from truly connecting with them. Turbonormies or theatre kid autists with absolutely no understanding of boundaries. Super PC to the point where I felt like I had to walk on eggshells all the time around them or very conservative. I don’t want to sound judgmental but it’s very hard to find a balance.
Even with the “weird kids”, I always felt like I was a different flavor of weird than them. I didn’t care about sports and Taylor Swift but I also didn’t care about cosplaying or Steven Universe. I was goth but I grew up in an era where all of the kids who would’ve been goth in the 90s were super into “queer” stuff instead. Nothing wrong with being gay but for them sharing a gender identity was the glue that bonded them together and by the time I got into high school I had already started to see through the cracks.
No. 2580072
>>2579997How long have you been on it?
If you give it a little awhile longer and it doesn't work, switch.
No. 2580082
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>>2579907Time for your bite at the apple, nonna.
No. 2580090
Nonas how do I unfuck my life.
I’m still technically in college (nothing special, just a local state school) and I can barely even do that. My GPA is in the 2s. I was having issues with money so I only took a few classes during the past fall semester and my parents helped pay those, which I feel extremely guilty for. I registered for some online classes for the past spring semester but they fell through because I had no money. Now it’s summer and I’m in limbo. I could always register to take more classes and pay them off later but the thought of going back to school makes my hands shake. My degree progress is almost done but I really just want to call it quits. I’ve been too scared to actually check what my registration status is and knowing me, I’ll only check until it’s too late. I feel like such a failure.
My major is useless (art), I lost my passion for it (severe depression), and even if I do graduate the whole AI “art” nonsense has really blackpilled me. What’s the point? I had a plan of just graduating, getting my shitty four year degree, and using that to get a government job but now I don’t know if I can even do that because of Trump cutting back on those jobs. I feel like I’ve done nothing worthwhile. I barely write, I barely draw, I never took on any internships because of poor mental health and self sabotage, I have no irl friends, and I can’t rely on my family. I feel like I’ve failed at my one purpose. When I turned 20, I gave myself five years to figure it out or else I would just do everyone a favor and off myself. I’ll turn 23 in a few months and it’s fucking with me. My shitty mental health is genuinely ruining my life and it’s partially my fault. I barely leave my room/the house unless I have to because of social anxiety/depression. I highly suspect I might have CPTSD. I have terrible coping mechanisms (cutting, disordered eating, isolating myself). I feel like a child but I should be better than that. I’m 22 now, and it feels like everyone else is moving on while I’m stuck in the past. If I was “normal” or at least better at pretending I was, I’d at least have my degree now. It feels like no matter what I do, I’m still stuck at 18 or 16 or 14 or whatever age I was when things started to get bad. I feel stuck and I hate it.
I’ve genuinely considered just dropping out and killing myself, but I’m too pussy to kill myself and a part of me hopes that it’ll get better. Also I don’t want to traumatize my family by having them find the body. I don’t even know why I bothered enrolling in college. I would genuinely not wish going through college and being mentally ill on anyone. I never got professional help because I can’t afford it. Some people can use their poor mental health as a reason to keep going, but I feel like I’m not strong enough to. I don’t power through and keep going, I just get stuck.
One good thing I’ve got going on is a part time minimum wage fast food job. It’s not bad at all, and it’s been one of the reasons why I haven’t killed myself yet. I don’t know if that makes me more pathetic or not, but it’s a good distraction. My natural people pleasing tendencies work wonders in customer service. All together I’ve got over $3,000 saved up, but I don’t even know what for. Whatever I do, it feels like I’m just wasting my time. I don’t know what to do.
No. 2580091
>>2579911Visible good security cameras, maybe a note in the window that says "if you can read this, smile! you're on camera!" don't get those shitty grainy footage cameras but one that actually works and get one with a remote mic so if it alerts you you can go on speaker going "yo we already called the police dumbass".
More secure locks too I guess, have a security alarm…
Leave a tv/radio on so it sounds like someone is home when you're not.
No. 2580094
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I really hate my wavy hair, I don't care about many people telling me they wish they had some texture in their hair and how beautiful it is. To me is a pain in the ass. It's not worth the effort of making it look good naturally, I checked this wavy hair subreddit where people post their hair and most of them would look better with straight/curly hair. Honestly I'm sure one of the reasons why I'm so hideous is because of my hair, not because is wavy but because I refuse to take care of it just to look like shit kek and also because no product seems to work for me.
No. 2580112
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>>2580094>>2580109samefag picrel for some reason
although the cherry kind smells better, I think the discontinued it. I tried a couple regular shampoos recently (including an expensive one from my mom) and they fucked my hair up
No. 2580131
>>2580094Your picture
triggered me, I used to brush my hair every morning because my self hating mother would either force me to ruin my curls or would catch me and do it herself until I became an adult. And nobody else around me had curly hair so everyone thought absolutely everyone HAD to brush their hair everyday. I looked like Hagrid for far too long despite knowing not brushing my hair would solve everything. Anyway, do you know if there are hairdressers specialized in wavy and curly hair in your area? Maybe they could help you and give you suggestions when it comes to products after seeing what your hair is like irl. One salon helped me a lot and also confirmed that I should have always followed my instinct and I should have always brushed my hair when showering.
No. 2580242
>>2580090If the degree progress is almost done….I'd still grind it out.
Sorry
No. 2580257
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Started new antidepressants.
I don't feel like just everything is complete bullshit anymore.
Now I also feel like everyone are complete bullshit.
But maybe I was thinking that the entire time and the meds just helped me take my mask off.
Either way, everyone and everything are complete bullshit.
No. 2580272
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i dropped out of college because i got depressed to the point of becoming suicidal and today the students who were in my year graduated while i'm stuck working a low-paying job saving up to pay for the remaining 2 semesters. the course is paid for by the government but if you drop out and come back you have to pay. i could get free education if i wasn't such a crybaby fucking retard at 16
also i had to get my wisdom tooth removed and now half my face is hurting and swollen. i can barely open my mouth and i look all lopsided. to top it off my period is late and my boobs hurt like a bitch. my nipples have been hard nonstop for like a week
i'm ugly stupid and in pain RRRRRAAAAAGHHHHH i want to rip my FUCKING SKIN OFF!!!!!!!!!
No. 2580279
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>constipated
>pmsing and sweating and sleeping like shit
>on antidepressants that made me gain a few pounds and now my breasts have stretch marks and i feel like shit overall
>feel fucking exhausted
>go to the shop to get some bread, milk and pepsi max. might as well get a few steps in and some fresh air, why not
>its an uphill walk so my fat ass is panting and sweating because i have like no energy thanks to pms and ssri weight gain
>enter the shop and say hi to bossman who usually says hi back
>gets fucking ignored kek
>fine fuck you ill get my things and go
>go to checkout
>some immigrant moid behind me who doesn't even speak english is trying to sort of lean over my shoulder and look and talk about the alcohol behind the checkout
>genuinely cannot understand him and he looks drunk already
>personal space is invaded and i start feeling a bit nervous because its loud as fuck in the shop and he is too close to me
>pay for my stuff and gtfo of there
>go home sweaty and exhausted as fuck
idk why i keep getting mugged off every time i enter this shop but it's almost laughable how every time i go in there i have some sort of crazy npc encounter. god i'm so tired
No. 2580326
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I hate ugly bitches. Imagine saying this about BROOKE SHIELDS when you look like a fucking horse. Women SUCK. They say this shit and then go worship the scrotum of Pedro pascal. We need to start bullying bitches and beating them up more.
No. 2580453
>>2580090Stop trying to guess the future. Do what your heart tells you to do. You say you want to die, so just fuck it, just do whatever you truly want to do and troll the shit out of life at this point. What's going to happen is that you'll feed your soul a little more joy everyday and suddenly because you're going on walks (forcing yourself), you got yourself a little temporary job (so you see people and you're not stuck in your mind 24/7), you'll suddenly out of nowhere find solutions to all your problems. And when I read you I can tell you have them, it's just buried and covered by all the low serotonin, the fear, the self-doubt, the trauma etc.. Take it one step at a time, you have time. You are young. Take one decision based on instinct this time not on what you think is "rational" and what you think could be the outcome, and then use that as fuel for your own personal happiness. Not for society, not for society's idea of success. Not for your parents. For you. For the version of you that was a child. You want to do art, just do art. Do it. Every single day. 1 hour a day, or 20 min to start. Treat you as a job itself. You can do it. You can do anything you put your mind into. And yes there is hope and you know that deep down.
No. 2580471
>>2580470Pretty privilege. When you are attractive you are automatically deemed better morally. This is amped up to the extreme when you are a woman.
What’s the first insult that gets thrown at a woman? “You ate ugly” kek.
No. 2580486
>>2580471Anon believes other anons are like this bc
>of intersexual competitiontho. So I don't understand that, since we mostly make fun of botched or dumb women here
>>2580476To moids maybe. Getting a bunch of plastic surgery doesn't make a person "attractive", which sounds crazy, I know
No. 2580525
>>2580423You could be right, sometimes I feel like maybe they might not like me because I can be really judgmental about stuff they say
like when they talk as loud as they possibly can about how much they love femboys and I get angry with them very,
very fast if I feel like I’m being patronized or spoken down to. I wish it was easier for me to be friendly with people. I want to stop being such an asshole but it’s hard because I harbor a lot of hatred and anger. I talk to a therapist about stuff like this when we meet, and my shrink is a really chill guy, but it’s just difficult for me to work through
No. 2580537
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what the fuck am I paying the electrical company for if they're turning the power off every other week for nine hours to do "maintenance"?
No. 2580645
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>>2580616You're supposed to insult the other eye colours and assert why your own is best itt. Not feel bad and go be a vent-fag anon
No. 2580716
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Thinking about joining a specific jp learning immersion discord to possibly some friends and maybe meet other people who are quite serious about learning but that would require redownloading discord and making a new account and I just remember how overwhelming it was being in servers the last time I tried it out. I'm also not one to reply to messages instantly/constantly. Its tough being someone who enjoys my own company a lot but also wants to befriend other people like me.
I'm fine learning "alone" for now but I think sometimes seeing other people's progress and discussing stuff would be nice. Idk.
No. 2580729
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I’m starting to think I might be developing paranoid schizophrenia. I was always moody but now I’m a complete wreck, just a walking bundle of nerves. Just two years ago I would wear these crazy goth outfits out in public, even to school, with no fear. People always told me they wish they had my confidence.
It started with paranoia surrounding my digital footprint. This was when I began thinking about college and graduated. I would obsessively delete my social media accounts and make new ones because I thought it would get rid of my digital footprint and everything remotely embarrassing I had ever posted. I’d make countless new emails and even phone numbers because I didn’t want anything traced back to me, no matter how innocuous. Then I became convinced my friend was secretly wiretapping me and recording our conversations. I started having minor hallucinations. Shadows moving through the hallways, smells that nobody else was able to smell, etc. I ended up getting sent to a psych ward and they prescribed me Seroquel. The hallucinations stopped but the paranoia remained and actually got worse. Even writing this is making me paranoid because I have this fear that somebody I know will somehow stumble upon this.
I stopped wearing all the clothes I liked because I was terrified of being harassed in public. I get extremely paranoid that everyone is secretly conspiring against me and random strangers I pass on the street are in on it. If someone so much as glances at me and doesn’t smile I immediately wonder if they know something about me that I don’t know they know. I change my appearance constantly out of fear that people will recognize me, even though I’m aware logically that no one knows who I am in the first place outside of a couple of people in my hometown I had beef with in high school (I don’t even live there anymore, but I’m visiting my hometown soon and I’m terrified). I get paranoid that all of my friends hate me even though they’ve done nothing that actually indicates they do. I always think that people in public are recording me or that they’re going to laugh at me or yell something at me. This has absolutely crippled me and I’m trying to just power through it but nothing seems to help and I’ve tried just about everything.
No. 2580738
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>want to join the airforce but dad doenst let me because he's scared i might get raped by moids(fair)
>want to be a commercial pilot but it's a rich's kids club and i am poor
>coding is overrun with grifters and autists and now it's useless thanks to AI
>tried to go to college for economics but didnt like how shitty my commie teachers were
>used to draw but hurt my hand and i dont have money for treatment so i have been unable to hold a pencil in months
>i am turning 25 soon and i dont know what to do with my life
I think there is nothing more painful than having your dreams crushed and living knowing you will never achieve them, the pain is too much. I have no idea what to do with my life, i dont have a supportive family either so i am fucked.
No. 2580770
>>2580746nta, but i can relate. I am almost 30 and it's only now that i am getting closer to having a career after just trying to do what my parents tell me to do for almost a decade and completely failing because i had undiagnosed adhd and autism that they wanted me to ignore, plus i wanted to either be a writer or an artist, a career path to poverty for most people. It seems life is truly only about sipping on a tall glass of copium and trying to ignore the fact that most of us will live lives filled with dissatisfaction and unachieved goals. Having your dream life truly is a privilege only the few have. I really can't say anything that could make you feel better tbh, but i know what worked for me is to stop telling the people around you about your plans. My dad wants me to start my career in the next couple of months and work at a government agency, but i want to get my bachelors so i can move back to my home country. He doesn't know this and he hasn't earned the right to anything i am doing because he is only rushing me along because he is ashamed to have a daughter still in school and working a shitty job that i honestly don't hate tbh, but he is embarrassed that i work there.
Also anon, what's really stopping you from applying to the airforce? Have you even looked at the requirements or spoken to a recruiter yet? In situations like this, you need to learn to become a good liar and stop allowing unsupportive people access to privileged information, even if such people are your own family. If you get in, what can your dad even do? It's too late, kek. If that doesn't work, i am sure there are some kind of airplane repair course you can take in community college. I always get advertisements for those courses.
No. 2580774
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I just want to scream whenever I see women crying about not having any friends.
Like you don't WANT friends, accept it.
I know you don't because my retard ass has been trying to befriend women left and right. I feel like an incel of friendships because I can't even have a fucking platonic friendship with anyone.
I'm not a lesbian. I don't want to touch you or control your fucking life. I just want someone to talk to every once in a while.
But then women have the NERVE to cry about how no one will be their friend?!?!?!
YOU LITERALLY WONT LET ANYONE BE YOUR FUCKING FRIEND YOU SHITHEAD!!!!!
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK ALL OF YOU! ALL OF YOU ARE LIKE WALKING ON FUCKING EGGSHELLS BECAUSE GOD FORBID I HAVE FEELINGS OR SAY SOMETHING VERBOTEN AND I GET SENT TO THE GULAG OF FRIENDLESS PEOPLE WHILE YOU WHINE ABOUT HOW ALONE YOU ARE!!!
FUCK OFF! DIE! DIE PAINFULLY!
No. 2580778
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>>2580774Are you coming on to strong? Friendship is a lot like building relationships in stardew valley
No. 2580783
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>>2580778And thats why nobody has any fucking friends!
>Are you coming on too strong?>Are you maybe scaring them off?>Did you talk about your feelings? Did you trauma dump? (I usually let them trauma dump on me, I enjoy it, but the minute I talk about my own baggage they ghost)I'm not getting on one knee and proposing to them! I'm not demanding shit out of them. This absolute psychotic tard meltdown is anonymous for a reason.
I just want someone to talk to while I go on walks! If that's too much for women to handle then fine, but I DONT want to hear them whine about not having friends, that's a THEM problem.
I wish women would understand the immense psychic damage they do to other women with their weird as shit indirect passive mind games. I understand it's a survival strategy because we live in a scrotesiety but holy shit I just want someone I can act like a human being around. I don't blow up peoples phones, I don't harass them via text, I know how personal boundaries work. But the SECOND I need someone I'm fucked.
Do you understand how that can drive someone insane? Especially when I hear women cry on here about being friendless neets even though I KNOW they are the exact type to abandon me when I need someone to talk to after happily listening them vent for months?
No. 2580787
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>26 in november
>topic of my age comes up at work
>i'm in office with a bunch of older adults (youngest after me is like 40) so they often say i look like a baby
>one woman looks visibly shocked when i tell her i'm 26 soon and goes "wtf you're THAT old?!"
>don't know why but i leave the interaction feeling insulted
i honestly don't think i look that young, i'm just very obviously sheltered and awkward. i mean it would be nice if i did really look youthful but my nasolabial folds are insanely deep. i remember this lady at the gas station staring at me and she was like "woops! thought you were way younger, but you're not, right?" it's dumb to get this tied up over my age but it sucks kek it sucks!
No. 2580805
I guess maybe I have no right to vent about this, but a relative has gotten completely obsessed with politics and this is now starting to lead to escalated fights with another relative. it almost feels compulsive because 9 times out of 10 that's just all that's talked about. I don't get it. I know the future isn't looking good but my relative's problems have little to do with politics whatsoever.
>>2580798I had them when I was fatter and people constantly pointed them out. it's like some of you live in a parallel reality where people are a lot less superficial than they actually are.
No. 2580814
>>2580798I was once watching the Bachelorette with a bunch of normies and the topic of a contestant’s looks came up. I observed something about how the length of his philtrum and placement of his eyebrows relative to his eyes contributed to the odd appearance he had when wearing glasses. People were really startled and after a moment realized I was right, then commented how I was very observant about people’s facial features.
My point in bringing this up is that things that might seem obvious to us, the average person isn’t going to notice or even put much thought into. Much less how they all play off one another and may accentuate or not our appearance.
No. 2580819
>>2580770Good luck your career
nonny.
>what's really stopping you from applying to the airforce?At least in my country you can only apply if you are under 23 years old. I have been thinking about becoming an air traffic controller even though it's one of the most stressful jobs in the world. At least the course is only 2 years so even if i fail i only lose 2 years of my miserable life.
No. 2580824
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I’m getting upset at imaginary arguments in my head because my older brother and I are currently ignoring each other after a dispute we had. In this mental argument I’m finally getting all the things I’ve held back about him for the last 15 years off my chest and in every single scenario it ends with him beating me up and its legit making my blood boil face go hot and tear up because I know thats exactly how it’d go in real life with his retarded fucking anger problems. I’m actually happy he isnt talking to me right now because for once I dont have to pretend to enjoy his one-sided egotistical “conversations”. He has completely ruined my development into adulthood and I dont know if I can ever be free from his shackles. A part of me wants him to try and provoke me so that I can explode and ruin our relationship forever by finally saying all the vile things I want to say while the other part of me doesnt want to end up with a bruised and bloody face. But I know my mother would definitely kick him out in that case so… is it a risk worth taking? Idk. We’ll see if he gets hostile again instead of quietly returning to normal.
No. 2580838
>>2580825Thanks
nonny i am not worried about the stress i am worried about being too retarded for it. But since it's a 2 year course i might as well try it. I think being 4B and kinda of a friendless loser might be helpful since i will never be stressed over nigel problems kek
No. 2580879
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>>2580826>>2580833ty nonnies… needed to hear that.
Being nice and understanding at my spergout is the best birthday present I could get on an anonymous ib…Usually when I vent anywhere I'm ghosted or told to kms
I'll try to hold onto hope.
No. 2580883
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everytime i think about getting a haircut i imagine i'll look like shit and feel bad and dont want to do it anymore even if i really need it because its been like 2 years and my hair is too long already and it looks like shit
i also hate how they try to talk to me and tbh i didnt really like my last haircut they used heat and fucked up my curls
No. 2580905
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>>2580899>I don't want friends>How do I tell people like you to leave me aloneI literally do not approach people who don't want friends.
No. 2580910
>>2580905oh, so you're reeeeing about people who join the friend finder threads and stuff like that?
I meant in real life. I can be friendly but that doesn't mean I want to be friends
No. 2580916
>>2580783Nonny I am here to help. This is part of your problem:
>I'm not demanding shit out of them.If you give your friendship for free people don't respect you
No. 2580922
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>>2580916So should I be a friend prostitute? No money no friendjob?
No. 2580926
>>2580774>don't want to touch you or control your fucking life. I just want someone to talk to every once in a while. Most women have moid friends, extended relatives, coworkers, and acquaintances for this.
They want more from female FRIENDS. A bestie, a girl squad, lifelong friendships into golden girl years. a support group. if not that, then professional connections, mentor/mentee, accountability buddy.
You are an acquaintance, that's why they cry about no friends
No. 2580955
>>2580953You were a retard for posting sensitive pictures of yourself, but you don’t deserve to die for it or feel tainted. Live your life and best forget it. It’s not like the people you meet know it.
I don’t know how you can remove it though, maybe if you contact the postal police or request the site to remove it by threating to sue since it’s pedopornographic material.
No. 2580957
>>2580953samefag sorry for using the word CSAM, I realize that's a slap in the face for real
victims when used in my situation.
No. 2580966
>>2580953if you were underaged and you know where it was posted you can report it and have it taken down since it's illegal content.
I'm sorry you hate yourself but you didn't do anything wrong. You were a kid and someone took advantage of your adolescent struggles when what you needed was a supportive person in your life who you could rely on to help you thrive and fight your inner demons.
You aren't tainted, that's just female socialization bullshit where men think a nude body is impure or whatever because moids jerk off to it even more than the dogs and tuna sandwiches they jerk it to.
Don't punish yourself when someone else does something wrong.
No. 2581015
>>2581003I think that’s really interesting actually. It doesn’t matter what form it’s in? Even something like a chicken sausage that is heavily seasoned grosses you out? Does this extend to things like broth or if a recipe uses a ham bone for seasoning?
I knew someone who didn’t have the exact same complex, but was unable to eat anything that resembled a body part. He couldn’t eat chicken wings or fried chicken off the bone, but was fine with tenders and nuggets as an example. I asked him about it and he had similar thoughts about the meat being on the animal and the violence the animal must have gone through before he ate it. He had moral OCD and apparently this was a manifestation of it, I wonder if you’re experiencing some sort of OCD response as well.
No. 2581065
>>2581003I think most people feel that way about a lot of meat! I eat normal meat, but offer me an eyeball and I'd fucking gag. Couldn't eat it if I wanted to, it's too gross! There's no real logical reason why I should be fine with one part and not the other.
I think it could be worth exploring it for you, plants are also living beings. They grow in literal shit that they suck nutrients from to build itself up. Plus, plants also "eat" dead animals so it's not like you can ever get around the circe of life. Are things like eggs and milk ok for you? They don't harm the animal. If so that's a good start.
No. 2581152
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Without getting into the specifics of the scenario, I fucking hate how fencesitting people try to "both sides" a situation where one group has been objectively shitty towards the other because it's simpler for fencesitters to keep their peace than draw a line in the sand towards unacceptable behavior while claiming to not be about drama.
Low key I hope fencesitters fall on their own swords with these platitudes one day. When they find themselves having been mistreated, taken advantage of, and abused yet have people teehee in their face about there being two sides to every coin. Sure thing, assholes.
No. 2581163
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I want a cat so bad. I've been wanting one for several years now. There's been several cats now that have showed up in my life wanting me to take them in, but each time unfortunately I couldn't because I wasn't in a good place to (Whether that be still living at home where my family hates cats and wouldn't allow me to have one, or just not having the money to take care of one). I even had a coworker who was giving away kittens and offered me two of them, but I still had to turn him down. They were brother and sister, and he didn't want to separate them, but I can't see myself being able to take care of one cat. Nevermind two.
Financially wise, I could probably swing it either now or next year but then there's still the problem in that I'm severely depressed. There's also no one I know to take care of my cat if I need to be away from home for whatever reason - My family is around but again, they hate cats, and they've got a dog with a very high prey drive. He would literally kill a cat if he's around one. Then on top of that I'm also allergic to cats. It's not too bad an allergy, but my brother's is so I can't say for certain it wouldn't get worse since I haven't lived around cats for an extended period of time before.
Some women get baby fever. I think I'm getting kitten fever. I just want a kitty to love, nonas.
No. 2581203
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>really like a composition
>wanna play it on piano
>glance at the sheet
There's a special place in hell for composers who (over)use one-handed tenths in their compositions.
No. 2581204
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Just got out of therapy and cried over how people treated me in the past. I wish I could get past it, process what happened, and move forward but it always feels like it’s there in the background.
It isn’t just my family but so many people I thought were safe to be around and who were suppose to care about me. It hurts that people can just do this stuff to you and go on to live a happy life, while I am stuck with the trauma they caused until I die.
No. 2581223
>>2581204So proud of you for going to therapy anon! It's tough and so frustrating to see people that hurt you go on with their lives while it feels like you never moved on like nothing while you are still dealing with the aftermath, but just the fact that you are getting help shows that you are moving forward towards the happiness you deserve and you should praise yourself for that.
I am going to be honest with you, the pain will never go away and the disappointment you've felt in those who failed you will take time to dissipate. But it will get easier, you learn to live with it and not let it dictate your life. It will be there, but with the tools therapy hopefully will help you learn and some time it will be more of a whimper rather than something that's always tugging in your mind.
Allow yourself to feel the hurt, but don't ever let it define you because you are stronger than that.
No. 2581240
>>2581069It's now past dinnertime and I'm panicking. I have half a chicken sandwich from yesterday that I need to eat before it goes bad, but I'm not hungry and I hate the stomachaches I get when I force something down. But I also know it's good for me to eat something
I have two fucking wolves inside of me, one knows what's good for my health and the other one is a whiny, anxious baby
No. 2581289
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Nonas….I think I finally inadvertently ended a friendship of 10 years due to politics…And I'm somewhat relieved and sad at the same time…
I had made a best friend while in college and we kept up with each other for more than 10 years. In college, we had similar viewpoints and political leanings (Progressive), we were both non-straight, we both liked anime, cartoons, movies, and sperging about our favorite topics. It was really great and we could talk for HOURS and HOURS about anything.
Fast forward 10 years and the world has changed. My viewpoints became more in the middle/right leaning, while her's was still in the left. (What I'm talking about is the massive shift on the left wing political views like accepting "trans children" and calling rioters "protesters" when BLM Riots happened.) It didn't help that she became interested in streaming and formed a discord server for her fans and other friends. So I joined for a few years and became well known.
So what happened? Well, apparently my bf didn't like ANYTHING RELATED TO THE REAL WORLD being talked about. You couldn't mention or make fun of any IRL lolcows like Elon Musk or Trump without a "red flag" coming up. Also she got offended by the term retard and not once told me to stop.
What really got me kicked from her discord is having sympathy for LA residents when rioters were throwing bricks through cars on freeways and feeling bad for legal immigrants. Apparently wanting illegal immigrants to leave the country was way too spicy of a take and upset some users.
She messaged me saying how her discord was a "safe space" and how me being a minority and a part of the LGBT means I need to have more sympathy! So I have to be hive minded and not mention anything to upset your little hug box?????
I stopped talking to her for 2 weeks now and I feel way better about it. I feel bad because I've been friends with her for so long but her going completely crazed liberal towards me was the stopping point. I fully accept that I can be an instigator and say retarded shit but man…It sucks that a long time friendship is over…
Has anyone else lost friends due to politics?
No. 2581294
>>2581289>Well, apparently my bf didn't like ANYTHING RELATED TO THE REAL WORLD being talked about. You couldn't mention or make fun of any IRL lolcows like Elon Musk or Trump without a "red flag" coming up. Also she got offended by the term retard and not once told me to stop. Yeah. I lost a friend I knew for 20 years over this. I was freaking out because family members were dying from Covid and my mother had come down with it, and I was watching her deteriorate. Naturally I went to my best friend for emotional support, since I helped her cope with her mom and dad divorcing and some other things, only to get hit with
>Covid isn't even that big of a deal. It's just an excuse for my maids to stop coming in to clean and I have to learn to use a vaccuum. I don't want to fuxking talk about Covid.Broke my heart. She became some gendie vtuber for stupid reasons, got uppity, and then ditched me after calling me a broke racial slur underhandedly. Absolutely heartbreaking to experience. Haven't spoken to her in 5 years about.
No. 2581345
>>2581163I could give you this one cat who hates other cats and dogs but simps hard for people. She is psychotic and severely retarded and needs to be kept indoors due to her obsession with fighting with other animals and running into the road. She's spayed and has all her shots so basically her main expenses would be cat food and litter. it sucks to cook and eat with her because she will steal food, but otherwise she is adorable and very loving.
Cats are pretty easy to care for. I've cared for a lot of animals and imo cats have less needs than say a hamster or a fish. Some of them are particular about their litter boxes and if they aren't the right kind of litter boxes or you don't scoop them enough they will shit outside of the box (more of a scrote cat problem imo). A sickly cat will likely need a special diet which could get really expensive, and of course cats near end of life get pricey due to illness.
If you're out of town there are companies that you can get a hold of who will visit your cat once a day, give them food, water, change their litter, and play with the cat for 30 min and send you pics (you can have them come more than once a day but it gets more expensive then). Usually it's about 30-35 bucks per visit for a cat since cats aren't needy like dogs are.
No. 2581348
>>2581294>She became some gendie vtuberBRO MY FRIEND BECAME A VTUBER AND CHANGED AS WELL! That's why she got a small fanbase and had a decent sized Discord group. After making her vtuber, she began identifying as Non-Binary and Trans at the same time….I swear Vtubing is a cancer! Anytime your friend tells you they wanna Vtube, STOP THEM. It's a curse!
Holy shit that's fucked up that your friend said that about Covoid…Look I didn't take Covoid seriously because I have a good immune system but being that dismissive towards your family actively going through a disease is unforgiveable. You're so much better off not talking to them anymore.
Sometimes its better to distance yourself from people who make you feel ignored. You did the right thing not speaking to her.
>>2579369In my experience with knowing people who are trans in any form, just leave them alone. Alot of trans people seek validation and end up getting it in online spaces like Reddit and end up becoming narcissistic and hard to talk to.
If she's like 20's, maybe she'll grow out of it but if she's 30+, let her go. If she starts to get obnoxious, leave.
No. 2581370
>>2581356nyart but I'm a leftist and I hate Trump as much as the next guy due to him being a severely retarded nepo baby but man you gotta admit that retard says some funny shit sometimes.
I just wish he had stuck to Pedowood instead of, you know, fucking America over with tariffs, letting his misogynist shittery get into law and starting shit in the middle east. Personally, I blame trannies for Trump getting a second term.
No. 2581421
>>2581377>>2581356I yearn for the early 2000s when people could just make fun of George Bush Jr., make newgrounds games about throwing shoes at the president and not take politics to heart. There was a genuine sense of humor when people made fun of the president…
I also find Trump funny. His true calling was just being a comedian…He's got some zingers.
>>2581365Its hilarious when Leftists wanted to defund the police and yet refused to pick up a gun to defend themselves. You could tell that Leftists are made up of rich fucks who live in safe communities.
>>2581370>Personally, I blame trannies for Trump getting a second term.Me too. If trans people started calling out utter creeps in their circle, nobody would've had a problem….
No. 2581554
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>lady bought 2k pc for their fat kid
>accidentally undo the purchase during the day bc stupid program
>call her to tell her she needs to pay again
>she doesn't show up
I'll be charged the 2k if this bitch doesn't show up and it's going to fuck me up financially for at least the next 3 years. I want to kms
No. 2581568
>>2581567And it would also point out how strangely enough it’s still males who commit atrocities aka
TW kek.
No. 2581650
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>>2577799Samefag and update. My friend messaged back and I was super happy about that, she seems happy to get back in touch with me too! What I didn't know is that she is having a baby soon. I'm very happy for her, but sometimes I forget we're all in our late 20s and stuff like having babies is very normal at that age kek. I don't want children myself but I kind of envy that sense of confidence and comfort she must feel to be pregnant and want a baby. I don't know if that makes any sense. I'm going to message her tomorrow and we'll talk some more.
Kind of hit me like a truck tho because I still feel like I'm a teenager mentally and other women around me have already got multiple kids meanwhile I'm eating mango and posting on lolcow and sometimes I can't even manage basic tasks. I still haven't decided if I'm just a bit sad or if this is just my unique way of living and there's nothing really wrong with it. I don't feel jealous of her necessarily but I do envy how some people can just hit huge milestones like that while it feels like I'm still working out the basics.
No. 2581655
>>2581646Idk, I think the only other option is to get fired, I think, and I need a job right now.
In the system right now, it looks like I gave it away for free, and the company only cares about the money, not what actually happened
No. 2581710
>>2581658>>2581667>>2581673It took me like 6 months to get this job, and it's slightly above min wage, that's how fucked the market is here in eastern Europe.
And yea, I'll have to look into it, but afaik the company insurance stuff is only for 2k+ sums, which this isn't, as it's like 1999,99€ or some shit. I'll have to ask my coworkers since they're there for like 6+ years
No. 2581751
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if my period doesn't start soon i'm going to be on the news
No. 2581757
>>2581739My tinfoil is that all of us are PMSing. I am due for my period any day and the last couple of days I've been having premenstrual depression.
Sending love to my synced sisters.
No. 2581775
>>2581739They seem to be a bit more autistic than usual, too. There's been a few times where I've made a joke and the reply isn't exactly mean but I can tell the other nona took it seriously
>>2581757KEK I'm also due to start my period soon so you might be right
No. 2581784
If the only option is conformity, life is not worth living. Either live to tick off a bucket list and leave the world with a sweet taste in your mouth, never giving into this all, or accomplish something great, that is meaningful to you. I probably have less than a decade before which one that applies to me is obvious. To me, a life of working a 9-5, getting married, having kids, raising them and growing old, is not appealing to me. That is not a mental illness. It’s not strange at all, since it’s the same life repeated 8 billion times, yet it’s treated as such.
No. 2581789
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my period is late, i'm in pain from my surgery, i just found out my job has been underpaying me the entire time i've been working there, i have no irl friends, i dropped out of college, i'm depressed and need to take expensive meds to function, my mother is disappointed in me, my father is a deadbeat piece of shit leeching off of us, we're broke, my hair is greying at 19, the craft i spent my whole life on doesn't bring me enjoyment anymore, me and my loved ones can die literally any second from an air strike, i hear explosions almost every day, sometimes they're far away and sometimes they're close enough to make walls and windows shake, i even hear something far away right now, sudden loud noises like speeding motorcycles or garbage trucks scare the shit out of me, people just keep dying and dying every single day and there's nothing i can do about it, i'm not going to kill myself because i'm lucky to be alive and there's still good things to life, i still have a chance to make things better but god is it hard. if someone responds to this i probably won't reply because i don't want to dwell on this
No. 2581840
when i was around 11 or 12 (around 10 years ago), i had this camp counselor who was inadvertently mean to me and made it pretty clear that she favored my friends over me, probably because i was one of the more “weird” and “awkward” kids in the group, whereas my friends were all “cool” and whatnot. it went so far as to her (the counselor) supposedly videoing me on snapchat while i tried singing (i was that 12 year old that thought i had a hidden singing talent) and sent it to her friends to make fun of me… i remember always feeling bad about myself througout the summer because i was one of the “quiet” kids who the Cool Older Girls didn’t like.
ANYWAY today i work part time at this high end, retail botique, and this old counselor of mine came in to shop, and she remembered me… much nicer than she was when i was 12. kept trying on bikinis and dresses, literally looked and seemed so embarrassed that none of the sizes fit her, and kept trying to laugh it off and explain to me how she got So Fat because she’s a mother now and needs all the large or xl sizes. i towered over her, i grew to be much taller and was just much thinner overall … made a huge mess trying to find any bikini that would fit her— tried on maybe 20 pairs kek. that’s what you get, mackenzie. fuck you you fatass retard. revenge for my 12 year old self. retribution. justice.
No. 2581870
>>2581854That's an extremely reasonable way to feel, she's full of shit if she's too tired to clean from 'taking you to work'???
Maybe if you didn't pay rent it would be worth it but you living there is maximum benefit for her and minimal benefit for you. Work towards moving out asap.
No. 2581886
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I'm temporarily living with my parents during the summer and their house is so fucking depressing. I'll definitely be cleaning up stuff for my mom but it just makes me so sad to see how bad the state of their house is.
No. 2582045
>>2581900When I go to my parents place I usually just clean up a dedicated spot to myself (bed, dresser, floor around it) and try to keep it as clean as possible. It's nice of you to clean your parents house, even when you know it's going to go back to the way it was in a week.
I know how it feels, anon. Hope your stay gets a little comfier soon.
No. 2582068
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i feel like i've been stuck in a time loop for an eternity at this point. everyday i say "i'm gonna get this done today/tomorrow for sure" and yet i proceed to spend another day rotting and scrolling away. i've had this to-do list since like march of last year but i've checked off maybe 1% of it. granted it's kinda long but i even tried to break everything down even the simplest things into small little steps so my retarded self doesn't get overwhelmed. i've tried pomodoros (can't even get myself to start the timer) and every other "productivity" method and it never works for no longer than an hour at most. i have so many shows i want to watch, manga i want to read, things i want to learn, study, and do too but i just can't get anything done. i do have passions and dreams but i don't/can't do anything with them. even when i try to indulge in my current hobbies i don't really feel joy or fun or plain boredom, just nothing. i can barely open my drawing app now when i used to draw small things daily a year ago, or open blender when i used to work on my models every day. i can't help but be resentful of all the people who are more successful and doing more than me because i know i could be as good as them too if i really tried but i can't, so i keep comparing myself to them. i've always thought i have some sort of adhd or depression since i was a teen but it was more like "hehe sometimes i'm sad and can't focus on stuff i'm so quirky" but now i think there might actually be something deeply wrong with me
i said 2025 was gonna be my year but half of it has already passed and i've done practically nothing of worth. this year has just been absolute shit for me so far. just a few months ago, as soon as the clock struck midnight and it was my birthday, i just started crying out of nowhere, there wasn't even anything that happened that'd make me cry but i just burst into tears all of a sudden and kept on going for an hour. it was so bizarre to me in the moment and still bizarre thinking back on it now. since then everyday has just been dull and i keep feeling an impending sense of doom or never ending fatigue. i can't remember to drink water and end up dehydrated for hours on end, can't get myself to take a shower or even get up to take a piss. all my days are spent laying in bed on my laptop or phone and daydreaming about a better life. my life has always been bleak since childhood but this might be the worst i've been. maybe i need to go out in the sun for a while? start doing drugs? give up on all my ambitions and kill myself? i want to improve myself but i'm not sure how to at this point
No. 2582076
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My older sister is a cunt and manipulative but since she’s well liked it’s hard to say anything to her. My younger sister is an attention whore and thrives on male attention so she can be difficult to be around too. She’s less of a cunt than our older sister for sure, but she has her moments. Sometimes they say mean things combined with my parents. Both about me and each other. I never make a big deal about anything though specifically because my mom currently has cancer. I resent my mom a lot for alot of things but if I say anything I will be the #1 cunt. There’s a giant mental breakdown waiting to happen though. I can feel it.
No. 2582094
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I have a thing for nerds unfortunately and all of my exes from 2014-2017 have since trooned out after I broke up with them. God help my soul
No. 2582130
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>>2582094I'm sorry to hear that nonna, as a fellow nerd lover they are nuking the guys and making them troon out at a rapid speed. May God protect us and our precious nerds from troons and the troon Koolaid
No. 2582215
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I'm starting to feel attracted to a moid that isn't my ex finally, and it's scary. I hate how attached I quickly became, maybe it's because it's been years since I felt like this towards someone. I'm trying to keep my feet on the ground, I'm not sure if it's gonna lead anywhere, but still happy that I'm letting myself getting a small crush. Maybe I can heal after all.
No. 2582220
>>2582094Same,
nonny. We are born just too late.
No. 2582280
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>>2582224ayrt It being
shit is purely my own perception. I'm mad for personal reasons, so if you aren't on my own poopshit wavelength, it doesn't look like that big of a deal. But I've been going through the rings of hell this month and I just want to keep some stuff sacred. I need time. But these individuals don't care. You're not supposed to care in that thread. Caring gets you banned. So I have to remain seething in my little self-made corner.
No. 2582304
I think my half-brother is one of the very few useful moids out there.
He's a self-made rich guy, and he uses it to help providing for our mother. He's always been willing to help financially, when I was struggling with money because there was some issues with my student loans for a while he hired me as a ghost employee at his company - I didn't have to do any actual work, I just continued as usual with my studies but without having to take too much from my savings (I was on the verge of crying when I finally was able to buy a latte from my favorite café again). He got temporarily fired from his position as CEO by the company directors during covid because he refused to fire anyone despite the temporary dip in business, they of course ended up asking him to come back a year later kek.
Despite being busy he always tries to set aside time for his kids, even as his ex-wife moved 5 hours away he makes sure to visit them every 3rd week, and whenever he's not there they voice chat and play video games together. While he doesn't understand his teenage daughter's drama and woes, he does his best to listen to her even if he as an adult thinks some of it is a bit silly. He's also a super simp for whoever he dates, he showers his now fiancée with love and attention, and would probably support her financially if she ever decided to quit her job. And she herself is probably the sweetest woman I've ever met, and she keeps his adhd side in check.
He's 13 years older than me, and since both our fathers are distant he's always kinda been more of a father figure than my actual one. So maybe it makes sense that I look up to him. He's faaaar from perfect, he's a moid after all, but because we come from a poor background and raised by a single mother he's probably doing his best to help out because he'll never forget how it was during those days when they had nothing but hard bread to eat for a couple of days before mom's payday (our small family's economy had stabilized a bit more by the time I was born). And seeing how much he simps and enjoys life without economic woes together with his fiancée while also taking care of those he loves makes me realize that it's that kind of relationship I want for myself.
No. 2582321
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final results
No. 2582393
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Some minutes ago, I was eating some strawberries with a bit of sugar as a small treat, dad, which is prediabetic and overweight, was trying to police me over eating sugar at all, as if I was eating a ton or something. I had to clock him about the way he eats two burgers at once, and barely tries to take care of himself at least for mom, now I feel bad because I know he's trying to protect me from getting addicted and turning like him and I was being kind of an asshole but like, I'm literally stick thin and barely eat any desserts or sugar, whatever I eat will never amount to the level he's at, I physically cannot eat that much even if I tried, I'm the last person he should be worrying about, and I really mean that
No. 2582416
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I realize now that if someone screws you over or is mean to you or whatever, sometimes it's better to just do the petty thing, especially if you won't have to deal with them later. It doesn't always make things worse, it can literally help you get over it. Get your lick back, move on and forget like shit never happened.
I would've been so much more hurt over something dumb if I had gone about things with this other person in the "morally fair" way, and I don't think it's worth it. Hell, nothing might even happen to them, but it felt good enough that I don't care. It's good to excise baggage.
No. 2582442
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>>2582397I understand how you feel, fellow ocd-haver. I promise you'll be alright. The goddess Elsie blessed those apples herself, you could never get sick from them.
No. 2582448
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I fucking hate being overweight and curvy (I've always been curvy, even before I gained weight) and almost exclusively liking "masculine" styles. I know I'd look way better if my style was feminine, but I can't stand it kek. Next life I want to be a flat, tall slim woman.
No. 2582454
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>>2582448Same. I lost weight hoping i would get a nice figure to dress in trendy masculine clothes but putting on an oversized tshirt makes me look like i gained all the weight back. I want stick legs and no boobs fucking please.
No. 2582539
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>>2582068You are presumably a NEET, right? Reading this reminded me of when I was a NEET after I graduated college and couldn't find work and just gave up. I had to-do lists and told myself I'd take steps to pull myself out of it, but nothing happened. Picrel nearly broke me when I read it because I just couldn't imagine a way out. Anyways, I realized I needed externally imposed structure and started working part time at a library, which was lowkey enough for me not to get overwhelmed, but just getting me out the house and talking to people immediately improved how miserable I was by a million percent. I retrospect, I was just super depressed and dealing with depression-typical inertia. But it is possible to get yourself unstuck. If you cannot do it yourself due to a lack of motivation or self discipline, that won't magically change. You have to find an external structure that will force you to break out of your loop. I know this is all easier said than done, but I believe in you anon. You don't want to live this way and you don't have to live this way.
No. 2582552
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Tired of ugly fat bitches who hate their lives and take it out on other people
No. 2582585
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Extra dumb vent sorry. As if there weren't 1001 reasons to hate the trans thing, I found a new one. I now feel weird about gendered historical clothing in a way that I didn't before moids starting skinwalking on main. I want to make my bf a chatelaine because they're cool and useful and he's weaving me a belt so I want to do something nice too. But chatelaines are historically a woman-only garment, down to where we get the name. Fifteen years ago I probably wouldn't have given a fuck and the not give a fuck will probably win out in the end, I'm just venting, but now I feel almost protective? Like no, you can't have this thing, it's meant for my people. But this is a dumb thing to get protective over. It's a clasp and chains with useful tools on the end and he would actually get use out of it by putting his embroidery kit on there. I hate that perverted strangers' degeneracy is affecting my relationship with someone I care about by making perfectly normal things feel wrong.
No. 2582592
>>2582580I've seen glazing posts of middle eastern men as "providers" and as a middle eastern woman I had to laugh. They really got gen z with the rhetoric that if you're not glazing muslims you're
problematic >>2582587She must not have dated one yet cause they end up showing their true colors sooner or later
No. 2582600
>>2582589you're the retard for entertaining this back and forth at all
he wanted fresh pics and lied and play stupid when you called him out.
No. 2582604
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>>2582585Oh nonna that is too fancy for a man. If he is a belt weaver (and happens to work with leather; or just buy a basic leather belt) there are tons of frog accessories for men where they can loop through little satchels, mugs, and other junk that attach to the belt.
No. 2582621
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>>2582604He's a tablet/thread weaver (like picrel) and embroiderer, so fancy and delicate is wanted. I really did put thought into this and it's what I want to make. The issue isn't the chatelaine itself, it's that perverted moids who aren't even involved in my relationship mucked up society and made something perfectly normal into something weird and I don't like feeling weird about a nonissue.
No. 2582632
>>2582621Oh that's awesome! My Nigel weaves with paracord and works with leather. I ask him to braid my hair kek. I'm sure there is a more "masculine" version of a chatelaine, viking grooming kits on a metal loop kind of remind me of it.
People can go pound sand about it, that's a really thoughtful gift!
No. 2582634
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>>2582626Stop infantilizing scrotes, retard. Indians are even scrawnier and shorter than Japanese men on average, it doesn't change anything and both still abuse women.
No. 2582637
>>2582632He weaves with paracord? That's so cool! Like the trim/bands you get with card weaving, or like hammocks and cloth?
>viking grooming kitsGod, I saw a Roman chatelaine with a ladies' grooming kit and I want to make one for myself. Historical people were geniuses for knowing that sometimes you just need to scrape under your nails without going home first.
No. 2582651
>>2582635It's not an issue of weakness, it's simple biology retard. You can work out x5 a week, lift daily etc. and a random teenager will still have the upper hand
go away bp idiots . Moids of all races are stronger than women because they're roided up, unless you're Rhea Ripley or obese you'll always have a harder time fighting a scrote.
No. 2582667
>>2582652Not even to do with physical strength alone, vbut didn't a group of female soccer players even lose 6-0 to a bunch of boys under 15? It feels like every year there's something to prove women are physically weaker than men on average, and it's not something that can be helped unless you have a gun/taser/etc. Just more reason women need our own spaces and sports.
It's also stupid for any women to pretend they're stronger than an entire race of moid just because their own moid counterparts beat them in war.
No. 2582677
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>>2582673You don't want to be STINKY nona
No. 2582679
>>2582658are you confusing a sex hormone with adrenaline? physical strength is a straightforward result of body mass (and indirectly height), wether it's fat or muscle actually makes little difference
the only actual use of steroid is that it might help you put on more weight
No. 2582695
>>2582687I fail to see how MENA women were relevant.
>>2582689I wish I weren’t a NEET and at college so this could actually apply to me. Sigh
No. 2582698
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>>2582691>>2582652Nonnie and her precious nippon moid that she beats every night
No. 2582708
>>2582691Keep ridiculing women for facing male violence and making men sound like harmless little babies, I'm sure that'll help everyone.
Next up, because the average brown scrote refugee or illegal immigrant is a fat or malnourished manlet probably wracked with disease who probably wouldn't last 15 seconds in his homeland's war, women don't need to worry about being sexually harassed or assaulted by them. If it happens to you, it means you were too weak. Class act.
No. 2582711
>>2582635>>2582626>>2582704Would you say this to someone like Junko Furuta? Or women raped by japanese men during war? Or the woman in SK who got attacked by a random guy for having short hair? Or all the
victims of the nth room incident?
No. 2582715
I can't tell if I'm legitimately just a hateful and mean person who is impossible to be around, or if the people in my life are henpecking me to death over nothing. I call someone vapid, and they say, "Anon, you can't judge people so harshly! Maybe you are missing context." I say the second season of a show has so many plot holes it's like Swiss cheese, and they reply, "But Anon, I liked it and I thought it made sense. Don't be so negative! Maybe you just didn't get it." I complain that the self-professed 'grammar Nazis' in our office litter their emails with comma splices and typos, and they go, "Well, I wouldn't judge them for that. Everyone makes mistakes!" Stuff like this happens all the fucking time. It's maddening and makes me more irritable. It's like you can't dislike anything or anyone ever. I don't want to be so afraid of offending anyone that I carefully police all my thoughts, opinions, and impressions, even over the most mundane and low-stakes things.
No. 2582800
>>2582765because he's a retard and some other stuff
>>2582782how old are you? im younger than 28, we've just been together since we were teenagers
No. 2582809
>>2582791Yes I meant that kekk.
>are you 16?I’m actually 22. It just seems crazy to marry in your 20s.
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I finally got a message from someone on tinder that seemed to respond to a few points in my profile. It wasn't uncommon a couple of years ago, but as time has gone on people have gotten more lazy so it's become a rare occurrence, so I got a bit excited.
Once I read it through I second time I realized MOTHERFUCKER HAD FUCKING CHATGPT-ED THE ENTIRE OPENING MESSAGE. What is even the POINT? FUCK DATING IN YOUR 30'S FUCKING SUCK
And no, "going out to meet someone" isn't exactly applicable in my country because it's kind of a weird thing to do here because talking to strangers isn't commonplace. You have to rely on dating apps or hope the guy your friends want to introduce you to isn't another fat absolute loser you have nothing in common with except for both being single.
No. 2582966
>>2582914I hate online dating. I used it and had about a 2 year relationship from it with a guy who lied about near enough everything and then gave me hpv lol. I had a few dates from it and they're all so fucking ick feeling and fake.
Imagine the first time you meet a guy and be expects instant attraction because he text you a few times and wants to get laid. You avoid awkward questions on the first meet cause you want to give a good impression so you dont get to know them the same way you would someone you met in person. It's unnatural. There's no build up to attraction it's like I can work with with this and end up disappointed probably or I dont want to work with this. Window shopping for humans is a soulless endeavour. It must be like how men feel when they pick up what whore to fuck at a brothel.
No. 2583000
>>2582966ayrt, yeah I think the expectation that you are supposed to feel an instant attraction and connection on the first date is retarded. Been ghosted by men I've had a great time with and a lot of laughs during the first date, so even when you seem to otherwise have chemistry it's not good enough. I've also a had a couple of instances where the guy at the end of the date goes mask off and tells me what his actual end goal was and that he can't do it because I'm "too sweet" and that he'd feel like an absolute monster doing it to me (insert eye roll).
Doesn't seem to be much better when you date women though, my friend is also struggling with explaining to her dates that she needs a few dates before she can truly feel anything since both sides tend to be on their best behavior at the start, which has led to a lot of upset women that wanted to take things further around the second date.
But idk how else to meet someone. Whenever I've been in situations where I meet new people I end up attracting the weirdos that are either waaaaay too into that I'm a tall woman, or get obsessive because I like stereotypical nerdy things. I don't think I need to even start describing how they typically look as well. These opportunities are rare, but almost every second time I have some lonely oddball basically humping my leg because they're still convinced women into comics and video games are a rarity. It feels safer when I do it through apps because at least I have some sort of control over who is allowed to take up my time.
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Hey nonas, it feels like a while. Not to reddit post but things finally happened and they weren't as bad as I thought.
>I'm done with my thesis, I turned it yesterday, 3 days before deadline. It's supposed to be 10000 words but the assistant said its good with 9100 words.
>I was stressed and sleeples till I turned it I bc I thought I wasn't gonna marry it, but I did so as a treat I got Hello Kitty Island Adventure delux edition off of G2A for somewhat cheap
>my brother finally came after 20 years of not see each other and we get along soo well. I like his company and it seems its reciprocal which I'm soo very happy about
>Broke up with my moid after 1 year and 4 months after I got pissed off over catching him in a big lie. He came to take his stuff and asked for a second chance and kept pushing it instead of taking to me like a human. Wanted an extra month to show me he can change but it would be actually a vreak cause he still want to talk and hang and not date others. Also pic rel. I said no I AM FREE
>I now am in the green with my bmi. I think by end of July I'll finally be 65kg.
It's good. Only this I feel bad about is that I didn't have time for grandad or to fully spend time with my brother (omg I have a brother) but it was good regardless, and we have 5 more days till he leaves again.
Life is livable
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>>2583002Same fag, I need to mention that these 2 drawings he made are from a collection of tiny illustrations I made for him. It's the exact same thing, text and all. He also gave me a wall rose off of someone's fence. It's such poor taste.
More happened but yeah, that's about it. It went down with a pathetic whimper and empty promises.
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everybody i know is always going on fun trips except me who hasnt even left the state since highschool. my family isnt even poor they just go off to other states and europe without me lol it makes me feel so unwanted and worthless. genuinely nothing good has happened to me in the 4 years ive been an "adult" i fucking hate being an adult so far! im lonely and have zero social opportunities now it fucking sucks
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Tumblr has becoming a cesspool, trannies I could block, but why am I getting literal porn on my ads. This shit is gross.
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watching my friend fraternize with someone who isn't a good person despite my vague warnings over the years, kek. can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved. you'll see eventually, just as everyone else did
No. 2583093
>>2583078I once reported a bunch of spammy porn blogs, and in response, they froze my account and demanded I give up a bunch of URLs/secondary blogs I had.
It's a completely shit site run by incompetent tards, and I'm glad both it and any URLs are worthless now, kek.
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>>2581654ayrt and I know what you mean! One of the cats I got really attached to was a white cat that my roommate had gotten and he was the sweetest cat I've ever seen in my life. He was just a giant lovebug that wanted to be cuddled and pet all the time. My roommate didn't want him anymore, especially after he chewed up her carpet, so she pretty much offered him to me but I couldn't take ownership of him either because I wasn't ready to. She ended up giving him back so I only hope he found a better home. I still miss him.
There was another time a cat gave birth to a kitten in my parents garage and they had me take it in my room to look after it. It was terrified so it just hid and cried under my bed all night long and I couldn't convince it to come out no matter what I did. We found its mother so we had to give it back to her, but parents were going to return the cat anyway because they really didn't want a cat in the house and again..don't like them.
I had all these different really close calls to getting a cat, but it was still never the right time or place. It's really frustrating and depressing, like the universe knows how much I've wanted a cat but is mocking me. One of these days I'm going to get one for real!
No. 2583145
>>2583114People who use AI for anything other than shitposting
or maybe horny roleplay are cringey and deluded. I have to smile and nod when my relatives show me the "art" they "created."
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how do i stop feeling depressed over being a 23 year old khhv? ive never even had a relationship either. well there was this guy online who lived a few states away but he wouldnt commit to meeting up irl so i kinda gave up on that. even trusting a guy enough to be just friends is terrifying. i dont think im ugly just extremely autistic and isolated in a small town my whole life. and the idea that all the guys that i could date at this point, even if they were younger or uglier than me, would have a ton of experience by now makes me depressed. i dont even know where to start
No. 2583192
>>2583178i know, some people's relationships do seem really parasitic and unhealthy. but when i hang out with my best friend (who has to have her nigel with her 24/7 for whatever reason) they seem so lovey and caring and i cant help but wish i could have that sort of thing with somebody too. the sad reality is pretty much everybody ever will always prioritize their romantic partner over you, and im tired of always being second-best to my friends; i want to be the most important non-blood-related person to somebody. and i cant help but feel like im wasting time and missing out every year that goes by with no experience…
>>2583181that worries me too. i dont know how to say this without it being a humblebrag but i also have a weirdly youthful face for my age and im scared that the only guys who will express interest in me will be weirdos who fetishize my naivety and youthfulness. its really disturbing to think about especially knowing that its not even uncommon for men to operate like that
>>2583169youre on an imageboard kek
No. 2583354
anyone else literally unable to take a decent photo no matter how hard they try?
this is going to sound ridiculously shallow and stupid (but i guess that’s what this board might be for?) but i’ve been getting immensely frustrated at the fact that pictures on my phone do not at all reflect what i see in the mirror… like, at all.
i know this is supposedly a phenomenon that MANY people experience, but i genuinely do not have a SINGLE photo w friends or even alone that i look ok in, to the point where i miss out on photos with friends or family because i run from the iphone camera since it ruins me. the camera distorts my features and body to an ungodly degree. and i’m decent, looking too— in the mirror i look attractive. i have never, not once, been ridiculed for my appearance, and have been told a good amount of times (by both women and moids, albeit the latter of whose opinions i don’t really value) that i am pretty. the other day one of my friends was complimenting my features and randomly said “honestly i think you’re my prettiest friend” … but photos destroy any of that EVERY TIME. i look like an ogre in all and refuse to take pictures because of it. i also see the way anons on here sometimes tear apart the looks of ugly women and moids based on mere pictures, and i always think i cannot imagine how ugly people would think i was if they only saw random pictures of me it’s so fucking ridiculous and small, but it’s also making me feel deeply conflicted over what i actually look like.
do you guys also experience this?
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God if you're out there please let me find adult women who play Valorant so I no longer have to endure pick me teenagers in the vc holy FUCK.
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>>2583366I use it while trying to revert my spine and it feels really good. The other part of the day, my spine becomes like picrel so I have to balance it out. LC is on my tummy and I feel great pleasure while visiting here
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>>2583390The farmers campaigning to have the the threads not only banned but
removed were funny to me. At least they got their way, sort of
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>>2583420Yeah but how long are these types of things really meant to last? People only really got into anime in the 80s (cool nonas) then it became popular and now it's ruined and gross. You just have to find a new thing, you didn't see 1940s nonas complaining there were no speakeasys
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Jfc it's 5am and my dogs are up and active. I can't take you out for walks until at least 8am without looking like a pyscho. I know the sun is rising but like chill. Also thanks for protecting and guarding my home. You only suck a little.
No. 2583475
>>2583420This is why I always stay away from
>anime watchers>manga readers>vtuber watchers>discord usersThey are either porn addicts, pedophiles or trannies.
No. 2583485
>>2580824Why not buy pepper spray/gel, a tazer, a blade, or some other form of self defense for if it happens?
Also
>I know my mother would definitely kick him out in that case you just said you always live with the fear that this moid will beat you to a pulp due to his chimp outs, why the fuck do you care? You should ask her about kicking him out anyways lol he clearly shouldn't be in you and/or your mom's vicinity if this is something you have to worry about. It's like being trapped in a zoo enclosure with a gorilla.
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>>2583422>People only really got into anime in the 80s (cool nonas) then it became popular and now it's ruined and gross.Even sadder, if you want to stick to oldschool anime all those communities are full of trannies. Anything to do with preservation of old media, like old movies or old anime or old videogames. All troons.
The only option is to go back to solitary enjoyment of things, fandom avoidance and rejection of all social media and communities for hobbies (which nowadays is just discord or reddit, fucking gross)
No. 2583526
>>2583450> You know if there was an actual little kid vtuber people would sexualize it too. (genuinely 0 shock if this has already happened)Already happened kek
9 year old Vtuber renoved REAL quick.
No. 2583640
>>2583628Didn't know this existed. Thanks for enlightening me
nonnie.
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Men are really so sinister. I was waiting for my train to go to Rome and there was this moidlet, he must have been 18-20. He had swimming trunks that were skin tight and you could see the imprint of his literal dick and balls bulging from the spandex. Must have been a pervert. So gross.
No. 2583652
Can't stand my dad recently even tho he did nothing to me. I can't stand being asked if I wanna eat, and to cook, he cooks for himself I cook for myself but it's like constant questions, sometimes when my eyes just opened in the morning "What are u going to eat/cook" I DONT KNOW. "Do you want lentils?" No! Constantly asking and it drives me insane. I also sometimes see him rolling his eyes at me. I don't know I wish I could live alone or with a woman I like. Or with a cat. I can't stand it. Makes me wonder if I'm cut off to be engaged to a man at this point. Let alone married. I'm at this age where most are but the thought of it sometimes is like yikes.I love having my own space, my own rules and not being asked questions 50 times a day. I like cooking for myself but the thought of cooking for a man would make me throw up, would he clean would he cook for me? If yes then sure i'd be fine but there's still going to be issues… I find men so emotionally retarded sometimes it's so tiring. Ive always wanted to be a single mom kek. Idk if i could handle the combo of a husband and a kid, that's like being the CEO of a multi million dollar company, you'll be in charge of everything. Not for me honey, I'm not doing that.. So either I find a good decent guy or I leave him, and hopefully I just build a huge friendship group to still have love in my life. That's the problem with us humans, we need social connection way too much or we feel dead inside. I wish we were different id stay away from people altogether.
No. 2583657
feels like anons reply to vents less these days. the last time i’ve gotten a reply has to be months ago.
>>2583355why does it make you feel guilty?
No. 2583663
recently became friends with a 23 year old via my job, and many other ppl in their 20s. i turned 27 this year. this 23 y/o, idk if she's out of touch or what but she perceives me as like 35 or something, like wholly from a different era. asking if im a millennial, if i remember 9/11, random slight things that are lowkey giving me an identity crisis. its strange because my whole life ive always been perceived as younger than my age, so its humbling as well.
but then the other day i met a 17 year year old who thought i was 20. so i don't know even what the fuck is going on. it's really disorienting, thinking about age in your late 20s. ive never had someone constantly drop comments about me being old or of a different generation. bruh literally when i mentioned clocks by coldplay she was like, wow you dropped that and it made me realize how old you are. what the fuck? she turns 24 this year too. its so fucking bizzare.
also not to mention she works alongside a 29 year old, to my knowledge never makes the same comments about her, whenever im around them both. fucking weird and honestly annoying and identity crisis inducing