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No. 2558523
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
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Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all. No. 2558558
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I feel so sad and my birthday is very soon. I’m visiting family and I spent time with my friend and nigel today but I’m still sad for some reason. Today was a lot of fun but I can’t help but think about when I leave to go back home it’s back to my job that I am burnt out of and probably in trouble when I come back. Back to the monotony of my shithole city that there is nothing to do in except for sports and drinking. I’m so grateful for all the fun I’m having here but it fucking sucks so bad back home. I’m so bored all the time and lonely and work is just so repetitive. I love this place I’m in and I really should try so hard to move here eventually, it’s not even that far away. I don’t know how anyone can like my home city especially when the culture is so lacking outside of… Indian stores every corner. I want more variety and fun.
No. 2558578
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I'm in the middle of recovering from anorexia which feels a bit cringe for my age, but it's been going okay so far. But about a week ago I fell down the stairs in the middle of the night and the thud noise I made woke up my family. I keep thinking about it, like it's on my mind all day. Having gained enough weight to make such a loud noise is one thing but I also feel tremendous guilt that I interrupted them. I keep thinking, "if I were a lower weight, I wouldn't have made that loud of a noise and my family wouldn't have been disturbed." I know it's silly but I just feel so bad over it like it's a moral failing on my part. I haven't felt this intense of a trigger in a long time.
No. 2558610
>>2558583Thanks for the kind words
nonnie. Things were going great for me before this so it just caught me off guard. It's not retarded, it makes total sense to me thank you for the reminder, it's easy to forget it sometimes.
No. 2558652
>>2558642I went back at 25. I'll fully admit: it was sometimes a bit uncomfortable being the oldest in the class when people brought it up (this probably won't be as much as an issue for you at only 23) but it was absolutely worth it because I got a comfy job out of it in a field with potential. My sister didn't pursue much education and is stuck in sucky retail jobs because all good jobs require a paper to get in. It's not too late and you'll thank yourself at the end of this because of the doors this will open for you.
>too lateToo late for what, fit in, make friends? Try to maintain a long-term perspective, you'll be much better off after finishing this degree
No. 2558695
>>2557976Super late response, but no I'm not allergic to gluten - I can eat that just fine, and have tbh not eaten anything with gluten lately so it's clearly not the issue. Ever since I had covid in 2022 I've gotten stomachaches fairly easily if I eat even a small spoonful too much - which gets exacerbated when I try to eat when I'm not hungry.
Idk if it's some weird post-covid thing, or if covid just managed to
trigger an underlying issue. But it's not really affecting my every day life except for being an inconvenience, so there isn't much to do about it. It just sucks when I have a period where I don't have much appetite and have to force myself
No. 2558713
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My disorganized sleep schedule is leaving me physically and mentally exhausted, but I simply can't fix it. I've been trying to adjust it lately, but I haven't been able to.
No. 2558733
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The telecom cut my landline yesterday by mistake while fixing sb else's and although I submitted a complaint yesterday they haven't been back to fix it yet. It's been more than 24 hours. I don't know if they will care to come even. So I don't have adsl and have to stick to using data on phone which is draining the battery and is expensive. It's so fucking insane.
No. 2558778
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It's not even funny anymore, I can't stand this shit.
Again and again and again and again I get fucked over by men whether it's a profesor incapable of making up his mind about exams and "it's not enough writing" or both assistants AND profesors not able to keep it I their pants. Elderly always needing care and suprise visits and boyfriends always needing something more from me "can you help me with this" and I end up doing it just to buy my time. Always fucked over by a man.
Sleepless nights from stress and side effects I didn't even know I could develop making me look like a god damn troll.
I need to write qnd my mind is always always blank. Can't sleep. Oh you need to change this you need to change that "this is YOUR portfolio? Thats how you want to be remembered by?" and expecting top quality even though you changed your mind on Friday and print shops were closed till monday and you want the done by today.
I hate them, all of them. Yeah it's my fault i didn't start sooner, but how much sooner would it have been soon enough? When I had to take care in rotation of my bed ridden grandparent and my moid keeps bitching in my ear while I also have to finish x y and z by bullshit deadline so I could have time. Every single fucking time.
I want to kill myself.
I straight up choked myself one night thinking the lack of oxygen would make me sleepy.
Who fucking cares tho keep pestering me please.
Someone please pretend you read this.
No. 2558784
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>>2558778It's been proven that men make women's quality of life worse just by, well, existing. I'd suggest breaking up with your retard Nigel or at the very least stop helping him, if a moid isn't pulling his own weight and making things more convenient for you, he is worthless and a failure of his species.
No. 2558790
>>2558784I love you nona. I'm going to reread your reply till I fall asleep.
Lil kiss on the forehead.
No. 2558823
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Sent hate to my personal cow on bsky and she moved to a private twitter account. My milk…
No. 2558825
>>2558823Now what did we learn,
nonny?
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>>2558825don't tip the cow that feeds you…
No. 2558854
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>>2558790Slept I think 60-30 minutes. Then my moid called tellink me there are some things to add/gramatical errors in the portfolio I made for him. I am literally shaking, itțs hot ass balls and I feel cold and sick.
Also I think my eye got more inflamated? Like it kinda hurts when blinking and my vision is a bit blurry, like i got that morning goo on my eyes despite wiping. Now I'm partially bling in both eyes.
Feels like it's past noon even though it isn't even mid day. Wtf.
No. 2558919
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>finally meet another woman online with the same moid-y taste in books and movies as me
>Kind of rare because movie/book nerd women call me a pickme for it
>Fair enough honestly, I get it
>Though aforementioned "newfriend" got downvoted in the friend finder group
>Weird
>Decide to look at her picture, maybe that's the reason?
>Zoom in
>Stubble.
I am so tired. It's just books and movies but it still feels bad. I really thought I could have had something cool with another person. Should I just keep talking to the tranny?
No. 2558940
>>2558937Thank you. I have chin hair and it sucks. If it's a tranny, confirm something better than facial hair,
nonnie.
No. 2558947
>>2558924I thought she spoke about a five o clock shadow nonnas.
But if just having visible hair on the top lip isn’t really anything. Like you said there’s hirsutism, PCOS and generally just women who don’t bother hurting themselves waxing.
No. 2558966
>>2558919>>2558922>>2558924>>2558926>>2558937>>2558947It's for sure a tranny. The stubble is all over the lower half of his face. He did mention he was in a relationship though, and he seems pretty normal. I
'm just going to keep talking to him until he does something weird honestly. Sorry, I know I'm going against your advice and I may be acting stupid, but I am so fucking lonely and I need something going on in my life. Besides, Id rather act on something and make a mistake that turns out to be an interesting story, I'm so tired of avoiding life even if it's a bit of a mess.
I didn't mean to justify myself so hard like that but I just want to explain why I'm doing this.
No. 2559270
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"Uhhh talk to me talk to me I'm so lonely and bored all day" and then I talk and there's fucking crickets. What the fuck is wrong with people? It's like they get off to feeling entitled to my time and not reciprocating. Fucking faggot
No. 2559278
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I really become stupid when I’m with my baby brother and sister kek.
Last time I farted on him because he kept pestering me by asking me the parental control password and also because he always lets out smelly farts, he’s been trying to get his revenge back ever since kek. Yesterday I pranked my sister by telling her that I was going to make her least favorite food kek. We also made chocolate cake in the evening and I smeared the chocolate batter on them.
Why is it so fun to prank children when I am 22?
No. 2559291
>>2559283Honestly I get the women who suffer from PCOS getting more pissy. The tranny movement has done nothing but harm by trying to even label it as an intersex condition or comparing literal males to them.
When everyone around you is debating your own clinical condition and invalidating you you sure as hell going to get more easily riled.
No. 2559327
>>2559278That's so unbelievably cute,
nonnie.
No. 2559331
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>>2559311I don’t get the Pedro pascal hype at all. He has such a butter face, I hate looking at him! He’s also pretty weird with the whole “I need to touch a woman when I have anxiety”, he coincidentally just has these anxiety attacks when he’s near a beautiful woman, I just know that he’s a predator, the apple doesn’t fall far from the three given how his father is kek.
No. 2559424
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maybe i shouldnt have taken a job for a otome when i fucking hate drawing moids….and am a lesbian…but money is money and i want more female friends
No. 2559490
>>2559481So sorry for your mom and you
nonnie. I'll pray for her and hope she'll be okay. It'll be rocky from here but now more than ever it's important to show your mom that you love her. Best of luck to you both and I'm sending you both some love
No. 2559580
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>>2559577more like god's punishment
No. 2559591
>>2559583traitor ass bitch,came crawling back huh? now sit down and discuss some milk on why you got banned
nonnie ♥
No. 2559600
I’m kicking myself thinking about how retarded I was 10 years ago to fall for the “Give nerds/geeks a chance, they’ll treat you better just because they’re grateful to have a cute girlfriend!” In the 2010s I was a “gamer girl” and worked in the video game industry, but I never actually dated a real video game nerd before. My exes were all conventionally attractive normies, most of which were kind and decent men, but I decided to give it a shot and date a software engineer who was all about the vidya. I thought it would be easy street, he was a short manlet with a good income and I thought we had a lot in common and a similar sense of humor and I was so excited for the fun we’d be able to have together…but nope, video games were literally his ENTIRE life and source of entertainment. I tried to flirt or initiate sex and he’d just be there with his face stuck in the screen “I’m almost done, hang on…” and 3 hours later I’m just exhausted and don’t care anymore. I took him to a comedy show once and he was visibly bored and literally said that he wished he was at home playing League of Legends instead. It felt like being on a date with a 10-year-old boy. We usually got together on weekends, and the tipping point was when I went over to see him on a Saturday night and he said “Oh…I actually have a raid in [game] tonight. But you can stay and watch, if you want.” That was it, I was done. Never again.
No. 2559602
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>>2559575No seriously, WHAT is it. Is it literally just draping a coat over your shoulders?
No. 2559633
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>>2559602Tyart but it was not this coat sleeve thingy but this one apparently this is a moro(?)kode and were usually worn under armour in Nippon (this history lesson was forced upon me) I forgot they were called cardigans
No. 2559660
idk where to put this, and i never made a post before but i just have to say that i hate this girl i met at my old job and was friends with for a while, i hate her for liking this stupid youtuber named Tectone, and if u look into him he was accused of sa on both of his past partners. tbh, i know it's stupid internet things that don't affect my life at all, but i find it disgusting she can take his side through it all. tectone is disgusting, bald, and any woman into him has to have an ugly bastard fetish. which, maybe she does, idk. she reads rape manga too, and idk, i was just so desperate for a friend i just let it roll off my shoulders. overtime, i just couldn't shake her misogyny, it completely ruined our friendship.
along with other things, she's just a miserable person in general who always dragged me down in subtle ways whenever i wasn't being a complete loser NEET. i tried talking to her about it to no avail, she's too braindead at this point, so i just cut her off like all her other friends. i hope she's miserable, but i also don't want her to get s/a'd.. i think she's going to get s/a'd because of her interests ngl.
No. 2559748
>>2559712As a very skinny bitch, i learned how to sew just because of this, regular stores have become useless. At least where i live at, there's literally no clothes for us,
nothing. I gotta buy the smallest i can get and tailor it
No. 2559759
I'm guessing I'm depressed or something because lately it feels like I literally don't enjoy ANYTHING. Comedies that used to make me laugh just do absolutely nothing for me and I'm just there stonefaced or thinking about how I should find that funny but I just don't. New comedies are absolute ass, none of the jokes are funny. Music that I used to enjoy? Annoying and shitty. New music? Annoying and shitty. It feels like that episode of South Park "You're Getting Old" where literally everything Stan sees or hears looks or sounds like crap. I'm sitting here feeling frustrated at my job, scrolled through LinkedIn without applying for anything because all of the jobs sound like crap and pay crap. I started daydreaming about what I would do if I had unlimited funds and my "dream job" or dream life. In the past, I'd say oh I'd be an actress, a singer, a writer, a director, or work with my hands in the garden, work with animals, live by the ocean…literally nothing sounds enjoyable for some reason. This morning I tried to pick up my guitar and practice a song and I just put it back down after 10 minutes. I meant to exercise today but it's too hot outside, and everything in my body just feels shitty all around. It feels like I've already sucked up and drained out all of the fun and joy that was meant for me in my lifetime and now there's nothing left and I'm just waiting to die.
No. 2559802
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Admittedly I haven't had to move much but my roommate is being so overdramatic about leaving our apartment it's driving me fucking nuts. She was able to get an apartment (in a highly sought development) that's like 15 minutes away but never stops going on about how hard it is for her to go through her personal belongings/heirlooms that she's collected. I don't think I'm being insensitive but I have NEVER seen anyone act the way she is right now. Even when my grandma sold the house she raised her family in she was just like "I'm not dealing with stairs anymore" and was totally fine selling/giving away her stuff and moving on, while this woman is telling me she's having her daughter stay over a weekend because she has letters the daughter wrote in elementary school that need to be looked at wtf…
I will miss her two cats though, they are super cute and love hanging out with me
No. 2559842
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I'm so mad I just found out one of my good (now EX!!!) friend watches and looks at loli porn ??? I never expected this of him as he never talks about sex (maybe I should have realized that is a red flag?) I (f23) was talking with my friend/coworker (m28) and I showed him a video of me when I was younger but I had bangs and twintails (it was a tiktok) and he was like "you look like a loli" and I was like "what?" and he was like "do you know what that is" and I was like "yeah I do but I don't know if that's a compliment LOL kind of weird, where did you learn that? you watch anime?" and he said "yes I watch the hentai" and I was like "oh???" and then he showed me SFW photos from a group on telegram(?? I heard only pedos use telegram, like thats literally the only thing i know and seen about it) literally named "18+ only. Lolis group chat for art and video" or something along those lines but it was definitely a NSFW group because when he clicked to show another photo, some were blurred (?) I assume that's the NSFW filter. but yeah idk. he showed me some photos of girls but they were just like cute anime girls in bikinis like picrel but I should definitely be worried right? like that's pedoish for sure??? I don't know what to think. maybe he just finds them cute? idk. men can never be that innocent. also picrel just pulled from Google. I am not even gonna Google lolis, not trying to end up on a list lol.(integrate)
No. 2559881
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Just found out my boyfriend of 5 years has been cheating on me with random people online for at least 6 months. I suspected it for a while and thought I was going crazy for months, but I finally got proof. I confronted him and immediately he tried to lie about it but I got him to admit it. Fuck me and fuck my life. This is the 2nd time I've been cheated on. I feel sick.
No. 2559897
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My period is coming in 7 days and I'm irritated at everyone and everything. I just spent two hours on a project only to find out that I'm going to have to redo a portion of it and I want to rip my face off.
No. 2559918
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I hate how anxious I get after interacting with any human being, whether it’s friends I’ve known my whole life or coworkers in passing. I hate being in my own head all the time. I’m lucky to have friends and I do appreciate them, but human interaction just brings me misery. Why is it so hard to just enjoy socializing?
No. 2560125
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Waking up at 6:30 by myself now that I'm unemployed is so fucking annoying. It's great since it means I won't have much trouble changing up my morning routines once I finally land a job, but it also means I have to wait to do my home chores because I don't wanna wake up my roommate and I can't go to the store to buy missing ingredients for dinner or baking like I plan to, so I just have to sit around and wait.
Extra annoying since according to my doctor I'm also really burnt out and need to take it easy, but I can't relax if I'm in "waiting mode" and I have this innate need to finish at least a few chores or errands before I can take it easy, even if I feel overwhelmed or exhausted from it. maybe I was an over-achieving housewife in my past life or something kek
No. 2560328
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>>2560325Yeah I just looked it up, my info is from a weird documentary I saw where they get all disoriented at the higher temperature and it was satisfying to watch them die in this way. And anon I'm sorry but your home will always be disgusting while these bedbugs are there, that is just the way it is
No. 2560330
>>2559660She's literally digging her own grave then. Youve done your part, tried talking and warning her but if she keeps seeking this content it's on her. It's literally on her, she's a grown ass woman, she should be old enough to know how to take care of herself.
Tragic that she's a misogynist, many such handmaiden pick me cases. Not your problem tho. Focus on making your life better and finding a different social space to connect with people irl. I'm proud of you for breaking from your NEET ways tho. Keep it up even if life is shitty.
No. 2560332
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>>2560328>your home will always be disgusting while these bedbugs are thereYou're right, I'm coping…
No. 2560334
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>>2560332Maybe just parking your "home" in a hot parking lot for the day and taking a nice walk to really think about the direction things are going nona?
No. 2560346
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i got in a accident a couple weeks ago and haven’t been able to walk since. i know I’ll walk again… i got surgery right away, started physical therapy, and everyday my body gets a little stronger, but i mourn the capabilities i had before and how it’s going to take months to be able to do something as simple as shower properly again. it could take up to a year to regain normalcy.
the irony is the day of the accident, i was at work thinking about how much I needed a break from that place because I was starting to hate it and i was upset with my boyfriend just moments beforehand so the accident which was the cherry on top that day!
now i would love to go back to work as soon as i can, and i really appreciate how much my boyfriend has been showing up for me and encouraging me through recovery.
I’m really never going to take my life and being able to do things for granted ever again. It’s just so hard to know the road to recovery is a long one, and just hoping I come out on the better side of it with little to no lasting pain or effects but I won’t know until I get there.
No. 2560347
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>>2560344>haven't actually had bedbugs that long>won't just super-heat the house right off the bat>thinks 1k is a lot for bed bugsOh anon…
No. 2560351
>>2560347Ntayrt but 1k does sound like a lot of money if you didn't save up. And maybe she has no place to keep her stuff till they super heat it.
>>2560344What if you threw out your mattresses, buy an inflatable/sleep o couch and in the meantime wash you clothes at high temp and deep clean house with bug products maybe?
No. 2560363
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>>2560362This anon doesn't want to hear that spot treatment will only lead to a more horrific and insurmountable infestation later on
No. 2560495
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Suffering from exhaustion fucking sucks. Just getting up and doing a couple of daily tasks drains me and I have to lie in bed for a couple of hours because I just don't have the energy to do anything else. I want to be able to do more again, but my body is actively fighting against me.
I thought I was starting to do better, yesterday I did some cleaning and cooking, did some job hunting, then I went out for tea with friends. The day before I went to my mom's for lunch, repotted some new plants, cleaned, did a lot of laundry. Both of these days I crashed at the end of the day, but it was fine. Today? I got up, went to the store, made myself breakfast, made the bed and cleaned the litter box and went out for a walk around lunch and I've been stuck in bed for three hours now because I don't have the energy to get up and make bread like I planned.
I want my old energy back. I'm tired of being tired.
No. 2560515
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Good news everyone! With the current financial rape rates in the US, my student loan will be paid back in 45 years! Let's take a moment to thank the wealthiest in our land, I mean, did you even say thank you to a bailed out billionaire today???
No. 2560544
I've been depressed for a while, and someone close to me recently told me outright (admittedly trying to cheer me up) that I was relentlessly handsome, at first I didn't think much of it, wondering what it even had to do with anything, but now the more I think about it the more I realize that, for one, they might be right, but that I never really cared or been complexed so much about it (maybe even autistically so), and have always left myself kind of unkempt, I think what they were trying to say is that I had untapped potential, but now that's just made me self-conscious, like what could I been, or could be still, and turned to wish they'd just never spoke up about it
No. 2560665
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The disappointment and distrust you feel for everything and everyone around you after a suicide attempt when you've tried send out clear signals for weeks that you are in an extremely bad place hurts. It's not like it was my first attempt, I had tried several times before and after. But that time, those years ago, was the only time I had desperately tried to reach out and ask for help. It was to the point I was actively cutting both my arms and got gradually more sloppy with hiding it, because it became so clear to me that everyone likes to talk about wanting to be there for others or wanting to help but once someone is actually, legitimately, suffering they don't wanna touch the subject with a five foot pole or consider it someone else's problem - even if you were supposedly close.
The lonesome feeling since then have never left. Never have my heart really felt full again. I learned that night that even silence can be extremely loud, when I had taken a huge number of pills, dressed in black with only my id card in my pocket and ready to jump in front of the train whose running schedule I had memorized for that point. How I stared at my phone, begging for someone to give me a reason to live. It didn't matter if I had been sent just a dumb meme. Just a sign. Anything. But nothing, just a screensaver turning back to black. In the end, I got too scared to jump; the fear of something going wrong and having to live with life-long damages or becoming brain dead overrode my need to die, so I went home and took more pills which sadly didn't kill me. I tried several times the days afterwards, and even had to be taken to the hospital. Nobody knows, because how was I supposed to talk about it?
Maybe I would have been able to forget or ignore it all the same way they all ignored my calls for help if I hadn't learned an old acquaintance had actually picked up some of the signs through my social media, even though I hadn't been open about my current mental state she still picked up that something was very off and had a very serious talk with a close friend we shared. Whom in turned started a group chat with our friends to talk about how maybe it's time to step in before it's too late, just for people to go "and what are we supposed to do about it?". People that today still echo that they love me, as if I don't know how they looked the other way. The only reason I know about it, was because the friend that started the mentioned group chat also reached out in the end and basically dragged me back to life, and was very upset when she learned she was the only one that even tried.
It's been years. But the hurt has never left. No matter how much I reason with myself about how everyone had their own reasons for their passiveness. No matter where I go, my heart and soul feel alone. Like I actually don't have a place in this world.
No. 2560670
>>2560635Baby wipes, dry shampoo, and if you can suffer a tampon I'd say use that to help manage the blood better.
I only shower every other day and I have a pretty intense job. Always told that I smell good and my job requires a hygiene standard, but ymmv.
No. 2560680
>>2560665I make it sound like I think about this a lot, I don't really. But sometimes I get
triggered. Especially whenever I see a short or tiktok or whatever of someone making a skit about rushing over to a friend that show subtle signs, and read the comments about people having rushed over to suicidal friends at 3am. At first I always smile, because I'm happy that they care so much about their friend and it's sweet they are willing to do that. Then I remember. And realize I don't have it in me anymore to reach out when I get suicidal, because I feel I can't trust anyone anymore.
I have myself immediately come over to others when they're struggling, washed their wounds of they self harm or brought food to make sure they eat. Talking on the phone daily with struggling friends to make sure they know they are loved and checking if they need me to come over that day. I know how lonely suffering from mental illness is, so I always try to be vigilant for signs or any sort of change in patterns that might signal something being wrong. Despite trying to do so many things right, trying my best to be a good person, is my karma so bad that I can never have someone to do the same?
No. 2560717
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>>2560515Good thing the govvie's gonna have to garnish my wages if they want to see any of that bullshit. I'm serious. I'm already in the red three weeks out of the month. I pay enough to not get evicted, keep my lights and internet going, feed my cat and SOMETIMES pay my car insurance on time. If they really want to pull $300+ from me every month, just get the garnishing fucking started. I'm still as a statue until then. I basically am playing chicken with the government. I feel like there's no reason to move an inch at this point to do anything. I've got it a lot better than most people in the USA, garnishing my wages will certainly relegate me to smaller spaces, less pleasure, or god forbid, living with my fucking parents again.
No. 2560723
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>>2560691I would make out with him right in front of her, while staring at her. Establish dominance.
No. 2560735
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>>2560691How would you feel if I told you that your partner can still find other people attractive while being with you?
No. 2560738
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Who wanted to tell me that having an IPad is this fun? I feel like a changed woman. I don’t have to carry a heavy ass computer anymore and I can take notes without wasting paper and do short notes of the stuff I studied and the very fact that I’m on a digital object makes procrastination and using my phone less likely . I LOVE IT.
No. 2560748
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>>2560723You're right, actually. Although she has seen us before because we are a disgusting PDA couple.
>>2560735He doesn't find her attractive as far as he's told me but I'm still angry at him, so you can decide from that.
Doesn't make my feelings reasonable in any universe, but this is the vent thread and this is how I feel.
No. 2560788
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>>2560777She looked exactly like this, I was browsing /g/ before bed so that's probably what caused me to have this dream
I also remember that her friend told her not to bother trying with me, she was saying stuff like "straight women are a lost cause"
I've been browsing lolcow way too much kekkkkkk
No. 2560836
>>2560832I get it, but just try it. You can say all the horrible shit you can't say to others and just be completely honest with yourself without worrying about phrasing something correctly or offending anyone. Of course, I don't know what you're going through or your history that's compelling you to an hero it all and I won't pretend to, but if you've got nothing to lose at this point why not? You don't have to treat it like a real person, it's still a tool, but it's understood things in a way humans didn't offer me. It doesn't get angry, annoyed, or tired of hearing you bitch since it's incapable of emotions, but it does offer solutions or at least an ear. I'm a person that needed solutions in my situation, not a "ohh you just need to change your mindset! You just need more therapy so you can accept it, and your pain will go away someday!" because that sure as hell didn't help. I think that because it has access to all sorts of info at once it's able to "reason" and say things that most people can't, without bias. Either ways, I won't push it, but it's better than stewing in despair, or at least it was for me.
No. 2560838
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>>2560495I didn't manage to bake any bread today, or clean the shower doors like I planned but that's fine. I cooked some veggies and took a shower instead. First step in getting better is accepting my current now. Gonna make myself a cup of tea and not beat myself up for not doing the things I planned. Radical acceptance and all that. Yeah. It's all fine.
No. 2560845
>>2560821I use good notes nonna, it’s very easy and practical and for the amount I study it’s worth paying 0,99€ every month to me at least. I just use the pen, it’s pretty comfortable.
If I have something that needs a keyboard then I just use my computer.
No. 2560928
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I don't want to do this shit called life anymore. I'm tired of all the crap that both is and isn't going on.
I'm on vacation right now and I should be able to relax, but instead I'm bored out of my mind since I can't go anywhere due to the heat. Not like there's anywhere to go besides the gym here in this town. Fuck this fucking shit
No. 2560981
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Bf vent thread
>when i was in the store with him - the second day after i met him irl - and he told me i was talking too loud and to keep my voice down, because i was excited over some ice cream. I instantly felt a wave of sadness/nausea over me - i didn’t want to be anywhere near him after that quite frankly. He guilt tripped me and then bought me the stuffed elephant as an ‘apology’ - this would follow suit later.
>When we tried to have sex, even thought it was really hurting me, he complained in pain that my pubes were hurting him. This made me cry, to which he, like he always does, cried and made himself the victim instead. I was left comforting him.
>He pretended to be mad at me in front of his sister out of nowhere, which made me confused as to what was going on. I felt scared and upset - alone in a foreign country with only him to depend on, and he seemed over me? Once again he was guilt tripping me in public, telling me ‘not to be difficult’ etc, when his sister revealed it was a ‘joke’ he had taken too far. We took the car home in silence, and once i got to his room i burst into tears. This then ended up with me sucking his dick, then him crying after and me comforting him once again. He then bought me stuff from ulta to ‘apologise’ again
No. 2561006
>>2560996>Bc I’ve invested so much into our relationshipworst reason ever
>ive wasted so much time for nothing might as well waste more!!this guy clearly has no respect for you and sees you as a child/nuisance and this will only get worse with time
No. 2561021
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I’m at the beginning stages of accepting the fact that my skin type is just bad. It looks exactly like picrel. I have had a strict skincare routine for almost 15 years now and my skin is just okay. Unfortunately I just had bad genetics and need to make peace with it.
No. 2561042
>>2559951thanks nona.
what keeps me going is that there's classmates that do jack shit yet still pass, so I have hopes everything will go smoothly despite everything. but I really dislike this part of me that gets lazy. that is unpredictable and it makes me not be productive all the time
No. 2561048
>>2560981i dated a manipulative guy who would guilt trip and make himself to be the
victim a lot. the key is to stop feeling guilt and just keep stating youre morally superior. he will get mad and dump you. problem solved
No. 2561055
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>>2560981You know, I’ll say it kek. I don’t feel any sorry for women like you. Complaining and wallowing is like a masturbatory tool for you and I think that you like it when people tell you “oh nonna you deserve so much better!” “Poor you!”.
You are literally putting yourself into this situation and putting up with this retard every time he disrespects you. I had a friend like you who always came onto me to vent about her useless bf who would cheat on her and degrade her and demand sex, I got fed up and yelled at her at a certain point kek.
No. 2561056
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>>2560981>This made me cry, to which he, like he always does, cried and made himself the victim instead. I was left comforting him.I cried, he cried, we crode.
No. 2561061
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>>2560981I unironically can't cope with the fact that this is the kind of userbase we have right now.
What do you mean your boyfriend, not ex? Have some fucking self respect jfc.
No. 2561078
>>2560996I once broke up with a guy after 7 years and it was the best decision ever. I also lost a bunch of weight (moid not included in calculation) in the process that I gained from being stressed all the time. Enduring
abusive moids make you ugly. After the break up I was sad but super hot. You should try it.
No. 2561084
>>2561055>I had a friend like you who always came onto me to vent about her useless bf who would cheat on her and degrade her and demand sexAnd when I gave her advice she wouldn’t even listen. It was tiring! Girl you have gained 10 pounds , your skin is shit, your UTIs are rampant, leave that scrote holy hell.
But it was always
>oh nonna he said sorry! I love him! We will make it through m! The same very week.
No. 2561104
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>>2561095>discord mod and discord kittenProbably
No. 2561105
>>2561089There's a show on prime called "nip/tuck" that was written by a superfag who hates his mom and
loves writing scenarios to humiliate women. This was one of them but it used to be a common theme in smutty cartoons from the past as well
No. 2561110
>>2561103Spreading your legs won’t make people love you nonna, it will just make you feel worse about yourself because you’ll just base your worth as a person by how much people are willing to have sex with you.
You’ll just get used and tossed and you’ll keep searching for the love unicorn that doesn’t exist.
So what if you are fat? So what if you are ugly? You still deserve respect and dignity, it’s not like you should beg for it.
No. 2561119
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>>2561103You don't deserve bad things, nonna. You deserve for someone to tell you the truth: that this is a pointless cycle of misery. Your brain is being irrational and trying to make you self-harm with sex. The people who enjoy your pain would just enjoy
someone else's pain if you weren't there, it doesn't "mean" anything except that they're bored malicious retards who shouldn't dictate your life. If nothing else, please stop being sexually available. Your body feels pain and works hard to keep you alive and it deserves better than that. You don't need to fix
everything all at once, right now, just take the first step and say no. The potential consequences of hooking up with careless losers are FAR more dire than the alternative.
No. 2561122
>>2561110Samefag but when you are insecure and seek sex with low effort scrotes who can’t even make you come you’ll just feel like a tossed handkerchief, the feeling is so deeply disgusting and it will leave you confused. You’ll lay like a fish at a certain point and realize that you literally have this ogre breathing on you, it’s like you aren’t in your own body and watching yourself from an omniscient POV. You are also pretty vulnerable right now.
The only time I’d ever say to a woman “go for it!” would only be if she was truly in it for the sex and not validation, which very few women are.
No. 2561125
>>2561103If you're going to do this, you'd probably be happier being a pick-me for your own gender. Since they will inherently care about your well-being, more than the random
abusive moids. Even if you don't care, it's a better idea until you're strong enough to reject shitty behaviour from moids (which benefits all women too)
No. 2561145
>>2560981>meet a moid on the internet>goes to his country to meet and stay with him>does not immediately run home at the first sign of shitty moidery>does not immediately run home at the second sign of shitty moidery>does not immediately run home at the third sign of shitty moidery, and instead placates moid by sucking his dickNonny. Holy shit girl.
Go home, please. As soon as you're able to. Rally your family, your friends, literally anyone in your home country that gives more than a fleeting hoot for you to get your ass home. Please think twice next time before running off to some foreign country for a moid you don't know, I beg of you. Praying for your swift return and that his dick falls off due to rapid onset necrosis amen.
No. 2561146
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I really want chicken strips and fries but I can't let myself. I've already gained weight, I'm trying to get back on track, plus I can feel a zit forming and it's making my skin feel greasy so eating deep fried chicken and fries will only make it worse. But fuuuuck I want it so bad and I have to drive by the place anyway on my way home this afternoon.
No. 2561154
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>>2561146I eat vegan chicken strips and they don't make me gain weight. Have you tried the beyond kind. Picrel tastes like mcdonalds nuggets and beyond is restaurant/pub style
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>>2561154Nonna getting another picture won’t make them appetizing. I’d rather eat tempura fried vegetables (delicious by the way) than getting beyond meat. The principle just pisses me off.
And they are so overpriced too. It’s a scam.
Be a true vegan and put effort.
No. 2561161
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>>2561158Or at least don’t come in here saying “uhh it’s just like meat!!!” , how do you even know how real meat tastes like kek? How long has it been?
I’ll tell you what’s more delicious than your soy nuggets? A “bistecca fiorentina”.
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>>2561158>a true veganI am truly avoiding unnatural hormonal imbalance but will keep this in mind
to laugh about next time I'm enjoying all my overpriced vegan junk No. 2561168
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>>2561165Anon is complaining about being fat from eating too many chicken strips, which are not a natural food product but prepared in this way by human people. Therefore, anon can replace one of the ingredients with similar. This is called a "recipe" sometimes and is not the same as harassment anon
No. 2561183
>>2561169It’s very tasty nonna. I’ve never tasted something like this. The “umami” is really strong with this one. The meat is super tender and almost melts in your mouth. I am even salivating at the thought right now.
It’s perfect for two too since it’s like 80€ kekkk. I had it twice with my friend on a date we took each other out.
No. 2561400
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>>2561385Yeah! I have been vegan for 10 years. It is probably my tin/diamond veganiversary today and will begin accepting gifts and apologies, from these anons
No. 2561456
>>2561433Happy birthday to you too nonna!
>>2561285Thank you nonna, I appreciate you for validating my feelings. I thankfully spent time with loved ones today and those are the ones who matter most, not some coworkers.
No. 2561477
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>>2561446kekekekke ty anon. Which year is bullets
No. 2561560
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I hate how neurotic I get when I'm on my period holy shittt
No. 2561588
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>>2561255Happy birthday sweet nona
No. 2561734
>>2561509I don’t know how to elaborate much more than sexual attraction is when someone makes you feel funny in your nether regions and you think about fucking them kek. Not much else
For romantic attraction though, I guess I just confused strong platonic feelings for romantic ones. I guess the easiest way to tell is if kissing and spending your life with them sounds appealing (to a degree) and even when I have strong obsessive platonic feelings I still am not as invested in them as a person than if it were romantic, at least that’s my personal experience. I wouldn’t even mind too much if they told me they hate me. If someone I liked did that I’d be depressed for days at LEAST
No. 2561745
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I want to be capable. I want to get my life together and I feel like my childhood was stolen by my addict mom, even my college years in person when I was supposed to have fun sucked, I was worried about her dying when I was gone and she did. She overdosed and I had to switch to online school and come home to take care of my grandmother because there’s no one else to care for her anymore who wants to. My mom’s sister doesn’t want to, I’m the only willing person. I feel like I can make no progression on my own life. I feel cheated out of a life with opportunity. I always second guess my ambitions. I just want a good and comfortable life where I’m happy. I’m 22, and I've changed my major so many times I’m still technically in my first year of college. I’ve failed so many classes. I wish I had parents who were productive, who ever had a job instead of being a bum, and could understand what I am going through. Who could even come close to a life similar to mine and give me some career advice, who could help teach me how to drive, who could be there for me. I hate feeling sorry for myself. I hate feeling like a victim. I am facing my fears and trying a certification program that will help me get a job. But I feel constantly guilty. I feel guilty it’ll get me out of the house, because I do online school to be with my grandmother. Because of this I feel so unknown to the world. I want to be a part of the world so badly. I’ll hope for a better day tomorrow. I’ll pray.
No. 2561866
I know office work culture is soul sucking but at least it gives you a normal routine, you have regular shifts, lots of breaks, you have free weekends, you can eat your lunch in peace, you're well paid, you can just focus on your work without being bothered, no annoying customer service. I work an entry level job that comes with all the struggles, shitty "flexible" work schedule, all the amazing perks of customer service, can't leave my spot to eat or even go to the bathroom whenever I want, minimum wage
No. 2561893
>>2561869You're not rushed, you don't need to be super fast, people aren't shouting at you like you have low value as a human being. Imo entry level customer service jobs like fast food, retail, receptionist sometimes feel like slavery. On one side you got the management who is super stressed and blows up on you at any chance, you get bossed around by frustrated people who are happy they finally found someone to bully, some coworkers smell fear and then act like petty middle schoolers, sometimes you have to carry heavy orders that weren't part of your job description, and do physical labour, and of course you get hit with a ton of retarded customers. At my work as a receptionist I need to also act as some sort of supervisor apparently, check if the cleaning team is doing their work well, check if anything goes missing, it's a lot of mental load. Meanwhile at the office you just got the work on your laptop and no one cares about your surroundings, it's not your job to check if all the lights are working and shit like that.
No. 2561919
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>>2561914
No. 2561935
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I got a shitty call center job and i start on monday. I need to make two sales in a week to get the job, i am so scared i might not make the sales and end up back where i started. I really need the job and the money, fuck my life. I wish i could just get a walmart job like first worlders.
No. 2562017
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>get traumatized by moid, actual ptsd
>maladaptive daydreams about beating him up
>no contact with him in months
>still daydream about beating him up every time I listen to music
>intrusive thoughts about him when I masturbate
Make it stop RELEASE ME
No. 2562027
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>>2561963The way I'm going to kill myself
No. 2562110
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Hey Boss… I know you say that you always ask for raises for the team. But … I need you to ask harder. And be more of a dick about it. Because I really need that fucking raise and I don't care what a bunch of idiots in a board room have to say about operating costs. I am the operator bitch, give me my raise.
No. 2562366
>>25623554k for a dog that isn't yours? And you have to move to a new place? Let the dog go kek, you'll need that money. What if it gets sick later, what if they need medicine, are you going to foot the bill too then?
Sometimes I really think that I am not kind at all because I would have not even batted my eyes and said no.
What is your job nonna, you sound rich.
No. 2562413
>>2562409Her acting as if being single equals being unhappy kekk. But who is lurking on randos on her phone? Exactly.
Hope she gets out of that
victim’s mindset, bad people don’t get their karma, it doesn’t literally exist. She can totally better herself if the only thing “wrong” is that she’s chubby.
>I’m fat and I feel grossThen cut the fucking calories and eat less.
No. 2562428
>>2562424I was not saying literally motherly, but comparing with how mothers see their kids as the most beautiful kids ever. Stop being bitter.
>>2562423??? Yeah now it's wrong to find the person i love beautiful.
No. 2562429
>>2562427NTA I like animals but I don’t think I could stand having one. The very fact that they just sit like that, asshole and genitals all out in the open, grosses me out. They literally shit and don’t bidet but lick themselves and then they come to you. EW.
Every time a cat or a dog sits somewhere they are smearing caca via their assholes.
No. 2562432
>>2562429Sweet Fido came to sit on your lap? Now you have caca on your jeans. Think about that.
You sleep with your dog? You are sleeping in caca and hair and the air from outside because I doubt that you shower your dog every time it gets out.
No. 2562439
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>>2562428It’s wrong to be a retard
No. 2562447
>>2562444Kekk, thanks. I look good I know. If I get fat I’ll just lose the weight. All you need is discipline. Unless you are sick then you have no excuse. You don’t even need a gym membership to cut weight.
But keep wishing others get fat while sitting on your belly rolls and fat ass.
(infighting) No. 2562454
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>>2562445Okay mom, go and change your Nigel’s diaper since it’s all poopy now.
No. 2562502
>>2562465You are the ones who are talking to me and calling me fat or anorexic, I’m merely replying here kek.
>how do you know she doesn’t have a medical condition Because secondary obesity is rare and it’s almost always primary. If she would have been sick she would have said it. She is fat because she eats too much and doesn’t move.
I just found her annoying and the self-victimization is pathetic and it gets to a point. She can get out of it if she would stop being stuck in high school hoping for karma and patting herself in the back because “at least I have a Nigel”, things are fickle, the only certainty you have is yourself in this world.
She should stop stalking people she doesn’t even see and who hurt her in the past. Her health is in her hands and so is her happiness.
No. 2562548
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>>2562543Have you visited the UAE recently lilo-anon? Lots of activities over there
No. 2562556
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>>2562550The picrel explains half and this picrel explains the other
No. 2562563
If someone replies to "I'm bored" with:
"Have you visited the UAE recently lilo-anon? Lots of activities over there"
…it likely means they’re suggesting that you could solve your boredom by doing something exciting — like traveling to a place full of attractions and activities, such as the United Arab Emirates (UAE). The UAE is known for things like shopping, beaches, theme parks, and extravagant experiences, so the suggestion is a bit playful or sarcastic.
The tone depends on context, but here's what it could imply:
Literal Suggestion (less likely): They genuinely think a trip to the UAE would be a fun solution to your boredom.
Playful/Sarcastic: More likely, they’re joking or teasing — like, "Well if you're bored, go do something wild and extravagant like flying to Dubai!"
A gentle nudge: Maybe they’re indirectly saying, "There are plenty of things to do — maybe look further afield or be more adventurous."
The “lilo-anon” part suggests they’re talking to you in a casual, possibly anonymous setting (like an imageboard or Discord), and using a nickname ("lilo-anon") adds a personal or affectionate tone.(retard)
No. 2562569
>>2562547there's a weird thing that happens when you're in love as a woman which is that even the ugliest bug-like looking creature can seem like the most handsome person in the world
mommy-anon got made fun of but it's a good description of what happens when you have a nigel
No. 2562571
>>2562563This is why ai-fags will never have friends and
separately from this anon, troons can't blend into female spaces. The culture stuff always goes right over their head, unless leaked nudes/video or rape allegations were involved. But yeah, lindsay lohan has been living in the uae for like a decade, married a uae guy and everyone's called her "lilo" since she became an actress, yw anon
No. 2562580
>>2562577to type "lindsay lohan lilo" i would've had to be able to recognize her on the least regonizeable picture of her ever where we see 15% of her face
and googling "lilo uae" gives nothing
sorry I'm not a PHD in celebrities
No. 2562614
>>2562590She gave me harmless delicious milk, I just sipped it privately without sharing it with others. I was genuinely nice though, I warned her to not do onlyfans and to not see herself as comedy.
>>2562601She doesn’t have a thread on here (yet?) but has potential if she keeps at it
No. 2562639
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Alone again, naturally…
This is the second time I've been dumped. Why am I the only person who has to pick up all the pieces of myself again? I don't want to be left behind or abandoned. All my life, my friends and the people I've thought to be trustworthy with my love have always left me.
What did I do to deserve this? Is it my fault for loving them too much? I love them, and what I got in exchange was nothing of value. I hate you, I hate you so much…I wish I could kill you, but I know that would never bring you back to me.
I know I'm worthy of love, but why does god throw these people at me to test my love and patience? Call me pathetic, tell me something I don't know, but love has been a cruel game to me, and I got nothing in return. All of this is a punishment; no man is ever going to love me, and I need to face the bitter truth all over again.
I'm sorry because I want to love and experience pure love that feels like the soft breeze at the beginning of spring, but all fate has to offer is barbarity and savagery lessons about love.
No. 2562653
>>2562646Why are you asking anon for a moid's reasons?
>durrr ur fault fap fap fap>it is my fault!There you go
No. 2562821
I’ve brought it up a couple times now but I lose weight and it makes my fat redistribute for some reason. So obviously my stomach and arms legs etc are smaller but for some reason my body was trying to distribute my fat to my cheeks and lips and it ends up swelling and aching. Like I can literally feel it grow every time it happens. I’ll wake up with fuller lips or a different shape or much larger, rounder upper cheeks (even though the lower cheek is smaller). It doesn’t look bad it just feels uncomfortable and slightly painful. I’ve been losing weight for years now (not overweight or anything, it’s been unintentional) but it’s only this past year I’ve been getting this, I don’t know if it’s my different diet or hormones (I’m 20 though) that’s causing my fat to want to redistribute so drastically it’s changing my appearance.
Well, right now, I’m dealing with this but on top of that I’m also losing weight in a strange place. The corners of my eyes? Not my undereye, like around the tear duct. Well actually around my upper and lower eyelid too because they’re way more taut now. I had slightly hooded eyes before because of fat and now they’re more visible and the shape has changed quite a bit. This is like the last month or two. But very recently, like this past week the inner corner of my eye like the tear ducts are just… extending? Like idk if the fat is being pulled off it but before you could barely see them and now they’re elongated. Even though it’s just the tear ducts it’s changed the entire shape of my eyes and they’re downturned now. But what I dislike is that this is somehow much more painful than the inflammatory fat redistributions. It HURTS. Like my tear ducts are getting exposed. In real time too - it’s not like waking up with fuller cheeks but literally stretching while I can feel it happening. And at first it feels dry too, initially being exposed to the air. Unlike the facial fat it takes less time to get used to butttt it feels irritated for hours. Kind of gives me a headache too, it feels so tight. And the minute it stops getting irritated it happens again! If I don’t eat for a couple hours there it is it starts to come on again. I haven’t got a break this past week. Also when I wake up the longer tear ducts mean the sleep in my eye crusts across a larger area for some reason, yuck. The changes happen so quickly too but I guess that’s because the face is smaller & more sensitive than other places you lose weight from? I’ve gone through other very strange physical changes lately too and I don’t even want to get into it.
I feel like a monster going through some transformation kekk
No. 2562866
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I binged too many horror story videos on youtube and now it's almost 3 am and I can't sleep cause literally every scary thing I've ever seen in my entire life just flashes in my head
No. 2562928
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Why does everyone I deliberately leave on read and never reply to continue to comment on my posts and dm me? I don't even give a thumbs up or any sort of reaction, yet they still continue to shout into the void as if Im ever going to respond. It's not like I hate any of them or want to block them. I just find it annoying that they dont pick up on the fact that I'm never responding to their dry, boring small talk.
No. 2563040
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I am still bitter about my ex because he’s moved on with someone new and started a new life with her but knowing his personality it’s probably because she treats him like shit. He’s a massive people pleaser and all his previous relationships were trying to fix mentally ill women because his mother is extremely broken and serving as their punching bags while wallowing in self pity because he thinks he doesn’t deserve any better. He sucks up to people who barely give him the time of day and sabotages friendships with people who actually care. The only real friend he had while we were together also doesn’t seem to be in his life anymore. I only have a limited amount of empathy for him though. I loved him so much but seeing him make stupid life decisions makes me angry. Yes he has self esteem issues but we’re in our late 20’s now and if he still wants to waste his life with losers who are just using him then there’s nothing I can do to change his mind.
>inb4 ‘well if he only likes mentally ill women then wants wrong with you1!!!1’ we started dating right after one of my parents died but because I wouldn’t let him take the emotional brunt of that he couldn’t handle actually being with someone in a healthy way.
No. 2563041
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I'm jealous of people who have had a real life ghost encounter. I've never met a ghost, even though I really want to. I've even gone to haunted locations but they never want to talk to me. It sucks.
No. 2563119
>>2563097The person I’m thinking of isn’t even old though. And definitely not out of shape (much more athletic than me). So it’s something else.
That being said the sound of it hurting to walk sounds miserable.
No. 2563307
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I was feeling incredibly shitty and frankly pretty suicidal but then I had two weed days and now I'm feeling okay.
Not great, and I feel like if something bad happens or if I think too much about what I was thinking about before I might tumble, but I'm functional and not crying.
I feel wrong with getting through it with weed though. It's not healthy is it? I don't want to get high now, so there's that at least.
No. 2563338
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I committed to no more 4chan after they got hacked and everytime ive tried to go back on there i instantly feel such severe revulsion that i leave in less than 5 minutes. Its actually such a dogshit website full of the most tryhard edgelord losers ever. How the fuck did i tolerate it for 10 years?
No. 2563356
>>2562721Give it to men to always make a mess when they kill themselves, selfish even in death.
What he did was cruel and
abusive.
No. 2563529
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I think I got my first ever yeast infection. I thought I had irritation due to the pads I bought or something. I had been using Vaseline which helped a little , the itchiness reduced drastically, but I am still itchy honestly two weeks later and it comes in waves. I am going to buy gyno-canesten and hope it clears up. My poor pussy and asshole need rest.
>ree you had sex that’s what you deserve
My pussy basically has a chastity belt at this point, it hasn’t seen any moid in years. She doesn’t deserve this, if it clears up I’ll buy her an hitachi wand as a present.
No. 2563560
>>2563544I know nonna, but I remember a nonna saying that it was about sex kek so I wanted to prevent any retard.
I always sleep commando and only use cotton panties. I eat yogurt everyday too. I think I just got bad luck, I don’t think siting in milk will really help kek.
No. 2563649
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I was offered a joint on a first date and my retarded ass accepted the offer. I’ve heard laced weed is a myth but I have NEVER reacted to weed the way I reacted to that joint. I smoked weed a week ago and it was nothing like this. I felt like Walton Goggins in that one scene from White Lotus where he smoked Thai weed. I felt like I was tripping. I was babbling incoherently and walking around asking strangers for help. It’s been 12 hours and I am still high. I barely even remember half of the stuff that happened that night and I guess that’s a good thing. Is this normal? What the fuck is going on? You don’t have to tell me I’m an idiot I know
No. 2563659
met up with an old uni friend recently and caught up on three years' worth of drama. turns out everyone in the group has severe BPD and now i know exactly why i never fit in. half have trooned out, are hypersexual to the point of bringing different people round every single night, and nobody in the group is self aware enough to get help or realise they have serious issues. that said they still manage to hold down jobs and relationships (well, toxic poly ones, so i don't know) and i am single and unemployed. i like being single and i'm unemployed purely as i'm trying to figure out how to escape corporate culture and its toxic hierarchies (ie more cluster b bullshit), and expect to live a perfectly normal life in future. but around them i feel so normal and well-adjusted i'm almost smug. they disgust me for the most part but they feed the neglected sense of superiority deep within, which would make me want to hang around them more if i was more self destructive and petty. in reality i have no idea how younger me handled any of it (and i didn't, which is why i left) but i'm proud of myself for recognising their insanity even when the group discouraged me from it. my current group of mates are very normal and well-adjusted but i always feel three steps behind, too weird to fit in but not the kind of weird my old friends were.
it's a strange situation but it could be worse, i know that for a fact now. i just wish i had more natural charm and charisma, yknow?
No. 2563662
>>2563402You ask yourself what
you want to do in life and work towards it. In a way you're privileged that you don't have to think about other people, you can be completely selfish and kick everything to the can if you feel it's worth it. You don't have to have a career or family, but you should try and build your relationships to the point they're deeper. You have a good life, you probably just don't realise it or put enough in to make it even better - but that doesn't mean you can't! Travel, try new things, meet new people - 30 isn't old at all and for most people it's the time they realise they should be selfish!
No. 2563664
>>2563188You'll get there eventually
nonny, you've got this! Just know that by working on your issues in general you're the 1% and better than the vast majority of people with the disorder. Trauma - because that's what caused it - has no linear path and takes some people a while to figure out. Just know that good things will come, and you've probably learned and improved a lot without realising it over the years.
No. 2563777
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Sometimes I realize how much I would mentally thrive living in the woods, even though I haven't lived in a house since I was a toddler I still can't really handle having neighbors. I don't care for their music, I don't care for their kids and dogs being loud, I don't care for saying hello in the stairwell, I don't care for any of it. But I also enjoy having bigger convenience stores within walking distance and being able to take the bus or train into town any time of the day. So it is a trade-off, I guess. But I just can't stand it when I'm reading on the balcony and enjoying the nice weather and I have to hear my scrote neighbor sing to himself bothering my peace with his nasty af voice.
I'm never really bothered by my own roommate, but neighbors piss me off.
No. 2563792
Why is finding basic clothes without annoying features such a pain in the ass nowadays? I've been looking for a cotton ribbed turtleneck/mock turtleneck shirt, you'd think it would be easy, but no. Either it's not ribbed, or it's mostly polyester. Found out Calvin Klein had a promising shirt, it's on sale, got excited, but no, my size is unavailable. Looked through my local thrift shops, nada.
I don't want to settle for a non-ribbed one because those end up looking like pyjamas on me. What a pain honestly. If there were a store that sells simple clothes that look professional and are made from fabrics that don't give me rashes I'd become its most loyal customer in a heartbeat.
Similar kettle of fish with underwear, too. How in the world is it so hard to find a comfortable bra that covers my chest properly, doesn't have thin shoulder straps that dig into the skin, and is made of a breathable material?
It's so annoying.
No. 2563800
>>2563777I love hearing people live their lives. My upstairs neighbors heavy footsteps every morning at 7am, droning traffic, even the yelling crackheads.
I hate when my fujo roommate screeches on her voice chats about old man yaoi though.
No. 2563815
>>2563800Same, I love all the noise that comes with living in a bustling city.
What the fuck happened to shame though? Is she not embarrassed to scream about gay porn while living with a roommate?
No. 2563819
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I feel like i've become retarded over the years. I constantly forget words and i need to use chatgpt to write simple english sentences. I feel so depressed over it. I am really so useless.
No. 2563844
>>2563830I read a lot and i enjoy watching documentaries, i dont know why my brain is turning to mush. I dont use social media outside of checking lolcow in the mornings.
>>2563831Oh no, i dont have insurance fuck. Is it possible to raise your ferritin level just by eating more food containing iron?
No. 2563852
>>2563843Do you talk really fast or slow? What subjects do you usually end up talking about when you start conversations? Unfortunately its a manner of practice and starting off with strangers since you dont have the pressure of meeting them again and continuing off from the previous conversation. Having the flow of looking pleasant in conversation is daunting because theres a long checklist of things to do, especially if you havent socialized in a long time due to this anxiety, but you eventually gain the hang of it with practice and you'll mirror the behaviors you see and find pleasant when you chat with other people.
Though if its the case of autism I wont be able to help you there because that would require thorough listing of etiquettes ques and other things beyond my experience.
No. 2563866
>>2563852>Do you talk really fast or slow?I dont talk really slow, I just talk slow, when I talk fast I cant really understand what either one of us is saying
>What subjects do you usually end up talking about when you start conversationsusually mental health or stuff related to that, other than this I dont really talk about anything, sending random memes here and there and thats it, dont have friends irl
talking is just hard, I have problems comprehending sentences and have people explain them to me most of the time, but sharing my opinions and my thoughts on things I watch and read is also really fun, and of course when people talk about the stuff they do with me, but conversations always end very bitter for some reason, just this year I got ghosted by 3 people
No. 2563897
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>>2563890My theory is that the thread is kiwifarms women because their nigels/potential nigels would catch them posting in a KF Luigi love thread. The way they post gives it away immediately. I usually don't mind husbando threads or threads of an adjacent nature, and I don't necessarily agree with banning the threads because I feel like nonnies have a right to whatever retard shit they want regardless of how autistic I think it is since I can hide the thread + I have a soft spot for people who objectify men, but yeah it's very obvious that the thread is at least 50% kiwifarms women given the state of it. That beinf said… live and let live I guess?
No. 2563924
>>2563649You are honestly lucky to not have been raped. It might have been a normal joint and you had a bad trip or it might have been laced.
This is why I don’t drink or smoke with people I don’t know.
No. 2563947
>>2563923Ayrt my first theory was that they were trying to keep up the mask of pickmeism by pretending they don't have any pre-existing sexual fixations on attractive moids (which would draw the ire of the men and shatter the nlog illusion) but then it occurred to me that a lot of them are probably actively in relationships with dysgenic kiwimoids that live in their house/keep regular contact with them and the girlies are trying to avoid a chimpout. Both things can be true. If I was one of the beauty salon subforum users I'd start the loudest Luigi thread possible just to shit on the moids but the BPD/tradlarper/fake-
femcel/"I'm a radfem who runs with the boys" types that populate kiwifarms would never do that
No. 2564150
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>>2564128thank you nyonnie…
No. 2564154
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>>2564145THE RETARD DOESN’T EVEN PUT MAKE UP , how long does it take to fucking dress up and get out. What the hell is she even doing anyway?
Thanks for the vent nonnies.
No. 2564184
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That pic is from April of 2020. Last week we finally broke up after 12 years together and I didn’t tell anyone the actual truth so I’m going to do it here. I told my friends we broke in good terms and without any drama or argument but the truth is I have been feeling neglected and abused for years.
I loved him but he was just an autistic abuser who always used the silent treatment as some kind of punishment. He controlled the way I dressed, the way I interacted with other people, even the things I liked. And I normalised it. But I wasn’t dumb enough to know it was right, I knew it wasn’t. I was just too into deep. I had a really troubled life and for many, many years I was blinded by the fact that someone could love me even with all my flaws but I guess he didn’t.
Last year, circa November or December, he started acting cold with me out of nowhere. He didn’t talk to me as much and he wasn’t affectionate at all. I tried to many times to ask him what was wrong but I never got an answer. During Christmas holidays we went abroad to make a trip together (which was planned in advance) and I started thinking that maybe it could be fine because he was somehow close to me but one day he got pissed off and straight up told me he didn’t want to be with me anymore, that I was insufferable and that he didn’t want to be involved with me at all. I chased him with an anxiety attack and I can’t tell you the embarrassment I felt being in another country, having to hold my tears to talk with people during the check in on some hotel we were waiting for months and months to experience and it was the most expensive one, too. It was like the memory I wanted the most, was totally corrupted by his silence and the way he treated me, all the names he called me, how he kept repeating I was useless and worthless.
Still, when we came back, things were fine for a little while, maybe two or three weeks. Then he got cold again. And I felt myself getting crazier and crazier day by day. I spent the last six months trying and trying, realising the person I’ve spent 10 years with fell out of love with me.
Last week I told him that if this was the relationship we were going to have from now on, I was sure I couldn’t handle it. Have you ever tried to hold someone’s hand and just feel like he’s doing it just because? How the person that knows you the most, that knows how it breaks your heart being ignored, do it on purpose? How he couldn’t hold my gaze for months and months.
Then last week we broke up. He finally told me he had been thinking to do it for almost a year; that he didn’t like the way I was anymore, that he only liked maybe then 2nd or 3rd year of the relationship, but then he started thinking I changed. He made some remarks about some comments I have been making for years and I realised he despised the way I was, he straight up thought I was disrespecting him with the tiniest little things. He didn’t like the way I dress. My friends. My hobbies. The plans I make even when I’m always doing it while he’s busy and/or sleeping so we could spend all the time together. My friends asked me so, so many times if I was right because they even started thinking I was being hit by him. And i defended him time after time and I tried to paint him as this loving and perfect boyfriend who just had some difficulties to interact with other people.
In that moment I knew I couldn’t be with him because I changed all my life for him and it would never be enough. We didn’t make any plans, we were almost like roommates for years, he never wanted to do anything with me but complained when I did it.
Well, since the moment we decided we weren’t together anymore…he started being like he was before. He started communicating with me. He was affectionate again. Not as a partner. As a friend, as the friend I had before we were in a relationship. And the sickest of all it’s that…it’s enough for me. I know he doesn’t deserve me. I have been knowing it for years. But I just couldn’t and can’t say it out loud. So that’s why I’m venting here.
I don’t know what will happen with my life now. I know it’s for the best. And I know someday all this pain will only be a memory. I don’t feel like the last decade was a waste of time. Not at all. I just wish we did this sooner. It’s hard to love someone this much even when it was fucked up.
No. 2564191
>>2564145reminds me of not wanting to hang out with my friends because they used to make me wait like an hour or sometimes more, fuck thatt
>She is on time to go out with scrotes thoughtoo real
No. 2564203
Really, I don't know what to do. My friend is sick of me because it's difficult to meet up with her, none of us drive so we either have to spend like 15 dollars each to be able to meet up using a taxi service or we depend on our relatives to move around because even if we knew how to drive, we wouldn't have cars.
She lives literally next to a ghetto that's the biggest ghetto in the whole country and I live far away from her home.
I planned to go to some insipid play I didn't want to go to, so I could see her, but of course today of all days, after telling my family that I wanted to meet up with her so I could get a ride to her house or the school where the play is at, everyone had shit to do.
And it's idiotic of me to get mad at this, but then, the next weekend she will get mad at me because I will go out with another friend of mine and she will, again, think it's because I don't want to meet up with her.
I fucking hate living in a third world country with no useful public transportation.
Like it sounds retarded, specially when I talk about this to anyone because everyone is like
>Oh, just like, leave?
But no! It's not that fucking easy, because I can't leave whenever I want, I've tried before and whenever I do so, bad shit happens and it's all entirely my fault.
At least my friend has the excuse of having a fucking retarded mentally unstable useless as fuck family. In ym case it's just too many coincidences mingling and making me paranoid as fuck.
Fuck I hate her family so fucking much, I hope they all get locked in an elevator for a whole day.
No. 2564215
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>>2564184Hi
nonny. I also went through a very bad relationship that I knew wasn’t good for me, but stayed anyways. It’s hard trying to find out what to do with your life when it finally ends, since so much of your future probably assumed that relationship would be there too. I really recommend reading the following books if you can;
>Why Does He Do That by Lundy Bancroft>Men Who Hate Women & the Women that Love Them by Dr. Susan ForwardThis link has a bunch of books but there are PDFs of both books listed above under the “BASICS” folder
>https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/18h4u7pCQlqHOjEXNKSkrxODDmN-w76wi?usp=share_linkFinally, I recommend checking out the breakups and survivors of
abusive relationships thread over on /g/ if you want more specific support than the general vent thread can provide.
Breakup Thread:
>>>/g/445681Abuse Survivors Thread:
>>>/g/377685I’m sorry this happened to you, I know things seem hopeless now but I promise you’ll find your way again. Maybe not today, tomorrow, or this month, but you will eventually. You’ll be in my thoughts nona
No. 2564223
>>2564184Get away from him fully and when you're at a safe distance (and have all your stuff) tell your friends how
abusive and controlling he was. It doesn't matter if you defended him before, tell them they were right and you just weren't ready to accept it yet. They're your friends, they just want you to be ok and happy. Let them know about it so you don't have to carry it alone. Also since he didn't like your friends, it will be extra easy for them to dislike him back!
One day you'll find someone who loves you for you and you'll wonder why the fuck you ever wasted time on this loser. That guy though, he probably won't find true love ever again because he's an
abusive dick.
No. 2564288
i wish i could get diagnosed with autism but i am on medicare (disabled for other mental health reasons and think autism could have a huge impact on me not being able to work) and my case manager basically told me that its impossible and the wait list for low income people is years long. i do think a diagnosis could change my life though, because knowing whats actually wrong with me would help. i know i can still like practice coping skills for autistic people or whatever but i still want to know for sure. i was reading this checklist for females with autism last night:
https://the-art-of-autism.com/females-and-aspergers-a-checklist/ and almost EVERY checkpoint fits me to a tee. ive tried to tell my siblings about this and they both said i couldn't have autism (most likely cuz they dont want to admit they could be too), an old therapist of mine said i couldnt because i made eye contact with her, and my boyfriend just thinks i have bpd. but when i was 15 i had a therapist who thought i could have it and got me an "evaluation" but i think she was stupid because it was a psych eval and not an autism assessment and i dont think they can diagnose autism this way. it just sucks i struggle so much with daily tasks, my room is a disgusting mess, i shower once a week if not every 10 days, i cant brush my teeth because it makes me gag, i can barely leave the house most days and often when i do i have meltdowns in public. i can barely be in the grocery store for 30 mins i start to feel so uncomfortable and have to rush out of there most of the time. i have fights with almost everyone in my life, and yes i do think i could have both bpd and autism but bpd wouldnt explain why people have literally HATED me since i was a small child and i can't make deep connections with people. i'm also just dense as fuck about jokes and sarcasm and i have auditory processing issues (i literally never know what people are saying and im not deaf ive been tested). i just feel so different from other people my whole life, and yes i've experienced like severe trauma and i am diagnosed with ptsd/cptsd and bpd, but i've also had a psych say i don't really have bpd and its just cptsd? so its just really confusing. my parents were both drug addicts and my dad dealt, so i was around a lot of fucked up shit as a child AND i'm a
victim of CSA/incest. i just don't know what to do. i'm about to buy some books i think that one about
abusive men
nonnie linked above, one about emotionally immature parents, the body keeps the score about trauma, and a book on female autism. does anyone else have any book recs that helped them as a
victim of trauma or dealing with autism?
No. 2564312
>>2564231>>2564191People like this are so annoying. I’m at my wits end honestly, going out with her has become annoying. My other friend got mad at her and cussed her out since she didn’t even go out and my friend was already ready to go out at 23, like she said.
I asked her , in a lighthearted tone, why she was always late while she was on time to meet her tinder date (she went out twice with him) and she said that she has to be with new people. I wanted to just punch her in the mouth, are we just retards that have to wait according to her? Or are you only worth being on time if you have a dangly dong between your legs?
This has just cemented the fact that I’ll just start bailing. I’ll get ready later and if she’s late then I’m just sticking home kek. I’ll treat her like a toddler since she wants to behave like one.
No. 2564378
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Sometimes I like to dress up nice at home, looking slightly less haggard, but it makes me wish I could like how I look in public the same way… not just in private. I feel like I can only ever like myself in the mirror and that's it. If I were to step outside dressing in public remotely like I do in private all my confidence would immediately combust. Feels like being some kind of validation whore, but I guess I would just like someone else to be happy with my appearance as I am with it on days like this..for once.
No. 2564423
>>2563890what bothers me to most is that it makes it hard to scroll through the catalog since i just subconsciously ignore a whole section of the scroll since i assume is all Luigi
>>2564096you describled my ick i have with him better then i could, thank you nona
No. 2564582
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I’m so sad… I have been trying to have a baby for years, and am now pregnant. Today, I found out the gender is male. I just feel upset about it, I wanted a girl so bad. I imagined my life with a little girl. I know it will be okay, but I can’t help but feel sad. It’s probably the pregnancy hormones that are making me feel so strongly about it… In addition, my retarded brother also told me he’s trooning out today. I’m double sad.
No. 2564643
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I really want to find a sport or physical activity I enjoy, but no matter how much I try I can't find any enjoyment in anything that isn't nerd shit that requires me to sit on my ass. I want to find something I like so I can get more exercise without it feeling like a chore and finding a new community.
For now being on the treadmill and experimenting with different settings works to get the exercise I need, but it's still a chore getting back into it when I've been too busy for it for a while. Was I just born to be a lazy ass?
No. 2564680
>>2564643You don’t have to find one thing and stick to it, I never could. You could try a bunch of things and then always do something else the next time. Even if you just go on a really long walk and do 20k steps in one day it’s great exercise.
I tried to get into running, gymming, tennis, dancing, cycling, swimming, Pilates and they’re not that fun in the long term. I’m also not very competitive and don’t care for upping my stats and sharing on Strava. I don’t get a runner’s high or whatever people claim they get, running is especially boring to me. But if you mix it up it can be fun, and when you don’t feel like doing anything just go on a long walk outside and listen to a podcast.
No. 2564751
>>2564742don't talk about money with people even your famil, that's an important rule
always pretend your bank account is empty
No. 2565249
>>2565117Block her for a month, see how it goes, and if she rages at you when you unblock her, block her again.
>>2564899Has she always been like this? If she's not a bippie or otherwise batshit crazy she might have depression, it can manifest as intense rage and hopelessness. I hope she either gets better or fucks off to scream at her boyfriend in person.
No. 2565287
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i need to move out so fucking badly. im glad i start working full time hours next week because it'll get me out of the house but i cannot stand living with my mom. i love her and i would genuinely say we're very close but she's so difficult to live with. i have no idea what im going to do when i graduate college next spring kek
No. 2565293
>>2565249>why hasn't she found another boyfriendI am wondering the same but scared to ask. I try not to defend moids but his views aren't even that extreme, he's run of the mill republican and she's a hardcore libfem. Idk why she didn't pick a liberal guy instead of someone who just wants to grill kek
>>2565151She's been like this since starting high school and at first I thought it was just hormones but it hasn't stopped. She tells our mom she thinks she has endo but even so that doesn't cause rage fits does it? She might be a bippie though because she has constant falling out with her friends over the things she calls them or their friends.
No. 2565459
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>>2565450Not you, thats for sure.
No. 2565467
>>2565455Oh and I forgot to add, I can't get a job and am financially dependant on him for now so he will do anything from physical to mental to verbal abuse and it always results in me having to grovel at his feet, apologising for being his 'wahala' since I was born (Nigerian term for 'curse' or 'chaos') and spinning the whole situation to make him look like a 50 year old
victim of the child he raised since birth for 'forcing him' to have to expend effort getting angry at me. I literally hate my black heritage because of the way he always throws it in my face: 'this is the way we raise children in Nigeria' but he hasn't lived there since the 80s and cut off his own father for mysterious reasons he won't share (likely also abuse). This pig has 0 capacity for self-reflection and never will. It only makes me sad that I now detest half of my bloodline because of him and want nothing to do with him or his beloved 'culture' ever again.
No. 2565470
>>2565455>I suspect I am mildly autisticFwiw, gaslighting can really fuck with you, mental behavior wise.
Even the most normal, decent IQ person will start questioning if they're autistic/dumb/horrible and acting under the assumption that they are if they're mocked for it long enough.
I wonder if there is any studies about the effects of gaslighting on intelligence.
No. 2565476
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My lower back hurts so bad. I did stretches, took painkillers, and have been using a back massager but I stil feel like picrel
No. 2565554
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>>2565490nta but holy fuck that worked great for me!! My back has been killing me for weeks. Thank u for the amazing tip anon, u saved my back ♥
No. 2565675
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>>2565666>>2565658as i understand it
No. 2565682
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>>2565537NTA but I've actually thought about it just because I don't see myself ever being able to get in a relationship and giving birth scares the fuck out of me. With the current state of the world, I also see it as more ethical in a way giving an existing child a second chance rather than putting yet more new life into this already forsaken planet (Like an "adopt don't shop" but with kids).
I'm actually extremely child-free so will never even bother entertaining this but I was also raised by an emotionally
abusive, narcissistic mother so it is also my way of fantasizing having a way to be the mother I could never have, even if I never have a moid to make it true.
No. 2565745
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whats even the point of contacting me first if you dont want to talk? i give up on this socializing shit
No. 2565812
I hate the fiancee of my nigel's brother so fucking much. For no motive, really, i just hate her. I hate her voice, i hate how she talks to my nigel when she haves no motive to do so, when she treats him as if she were part of his house and had the freedom to talk to him as if he was related to her, and not a normal guy that she has no intimacy with. I admit i'm jealous, i'm not exactly jealous of her for being afraid that my nigel would find her attractive or hot, but for the fact that she has his family's love and is able to get close to him when i'm not. She's not even beautiful or interesting, she's actually pretty ugly (in comparison to me) and i got scared when i looked at her because she looks so common.
And, yeah. I'm in a long distance relationship. We are from the same country but different states. It makes me feel so inferior. I just wish i could be close to my nigel and i would not feel this anger towards this innocent girl. I don't even dislike her as a person but as something that is part of my situation. I also have obsessive jealousy, i can't see my boyfriend talking to other women. I also have retroactive jealousy what makes things even harder. I just want to die when i deal with those things, why can't me and him live in a vacuum together forever? He gives me no motive to be jealous but still i feel so sick.
No. 2565879
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The fucking attacks aren't over yet. Almost all VPNs are blocked. The internet connection is so slow that I can't even open lolcow most of the times. Everywhere is full of misinfo. I can't stream my favorite show and work so instead I keep checking the news which makes me nervous. And I'm behind on work, my manager definitely has something to say about it. I fucking hope you die like the rabid mangy hyena that you are so this can finally end. Fucking stupid coward moron hiding underground for so long I don't know how you haven't developed rickets yet.
No. 2565895
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Holy shit I have nobody else to tell
>Give friend a sweater of mine many years ago because I didn't wear it enough and I thought she'd love it
>Fast foward her BF troons out, I distance myself from them and we don't talk much
>Cut to me today, stalking her social media because I'm bored
>Sees troon BF wearing the sweater I gave her multiple times
I feel so nauseous I can't believe I used to be friendly with him. I used to wear that sweater on nights out with our group. I'm never talking to those two again, I'm so offended I would have rather she just threw it away.
No. 2565897
>>2565895This is so gross
nonnie. I’m sorry. Distancing yourself was the right choice.
I don’t get how women can remain with their boyfriends when they tranny out. It’s so ugly, male trannies have always made me uncomfortable for some reason, even when I was a mild TRA kek.
No. 2565955
>>2565939I don't really want to drop her, I think she just doesn't think shit through properly because sometimes you have to explain to her autistic ass that "hey, if x situation was reversed, wouldn't you be upset too?". However, I have gotten my feelings dismissed or end up being the bad guy whenever I try to bring up to
anyone anything they did hurt me - no matter how much I try to soften it, so I'm hesitant.
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>>2566040Samefagging
>>2565000I didnt realize someone just above was talking about this, I just got pissed off by the ending on this reddit comment I saw. If you need to be diagnosed autistic in adulthood 99% chance you dont need to be diagnosed autistic. If youre autistic you will fucking know
No. 2566047
>>2566040>>2566044same. was about to reply to the anon who was venting the other day about not being diagnosed (I think she deleted?) and go on a rant about how resentful I am about every fucking bippie doctor shopping for an autism diagnosis while I want to kms over my mild autism that compared to these whores is debilitating retard level. I can't "mask" and don't have the privilege of being "misdiagnosed" by doctors lol I am sniffed out by normies the moment I step outside and have been treated like fucking shit my entire life, now that I might be understood and accepted having autism (or adhd for that matter) means literally nothing anymore
I always found high functioning autism bullshit (aspergers was way better I am not fucking "autistic" lol I am a sperg) but moreso now that everyone's clamoring to be slapped with this label in an already overwhelmed mental health care system
No. 2566063
>>2566058nayrt, this is my experience as well. Got diagnosed with aspergers as a kid, and living with it has been nothing but the bane of my existence because of the limitations I have because of it - such as issues with retaining new information or how easy I get burnt out.
I've always been quiet about it, but whenever I end up in a situation where I need to explain that I'm "on the spectrum" I either get treated like a retard despite my earlier proven competence, or have everything little thing I do related to my diagnosis (like how I got asked "oooh, it's the whole autism thing, right?" when I watched a movie in the cinema twice - once with friends, and the second time because my sister really wanted to go). When I could still explain by saying I had aspergers I would just get a "huh" and perhaps a computer-related follow-up question kek
No. 2566074
>>2565940I've never vaped or smoked, no. I think it might be low iron like
>>2565837 said, because I've also been feeling really lethargic and sleepy the past weeks.
Thank you for the concern nonas, I'll see my GP if iron supplements don't improve things by the end of the week
No. 2566084
>>2566047Are you talking about this post
>>2564288?
No. 2566088
>>2566076good for you
nonny, I get cat called on the way to the corner store and I don't even wear feminine clothes
No. 2566129
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Trannies and TRAs are on their way to co-opt radical feminism too kek. They’ll just transform it into a “include your transwomen sisters!! Otherwise you are a bigot, trans right or die!” Just like they poison anything they touch.
Including males in the liberation of women is useless and even if I entertained the idea of it, trans women are at odds with radical feminism because their whole existence is based and sustained by gender norms, misogyny and oppression. The very concept of a scrote becoming a woman through feminine soul , make up, surgeries while still keeping his male privilege and male socialization is anti-feminist.
You can’t support gender ideology and be a radical feminist, words have meanings.
No. 2566180
>>2566173But remember, being around us is
so scary and dangerous and we're totally killing 300000000 trannies a day. Makes perfect sense why they'd want to be around us kek
No. 2566183
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>>2566157One of those moments where I side with a scrote over the woman. Other anon is right. You're throwing a tantrum because your boyfriend is getting a job. You're mad that he's growing up. Not doing fellow NEETs any justice when you're demonstrating why "wagecucks" can't stand them. You're like a living zit, you thrive in unhealthy lifestyles.
>wah wah wah I hate him for being a better person because I think he's gonna cheat on me by talking to a woman! Wah he's a whore! I hate everyone!Jesus fuck do you have BPD? I know that term is thrown around a lot, but you sound genuinely mentally ill in a way comes across as cluster B. If I was your boyfriend, I wouldn't cheat on you but I would definitely dump you.
No. 2566187
>>2566173Kind of similiar but I've seen men use the word "moid" in a masochistic way in incel-adjacent places in 4chin or Plebbit.
A literal insult yet some use it to describe themselves. I've never seen anyone in this "
femcel site" describe themselves as a femoid unironically.
No. 2566188
>>2566129the fixation on the taboo never goes away for some people, huh. good news is that many female "TIRFs" do end up becoming genuine radfems and critical of most transwomen for being creeps, though many still seek plausible deniability from being called
gasp a
TERF.
No. 2566207
>>2566167You're right, I've come to terms with coping with that so it's just the new variable that's scaring me. It will settle I'm sure. I still might get him STD tested when he gets back.
>>2566176Well we're both mentally ill so take comfort in that. That is what he is being treated for.
>>2566183I am almost 100% sure of my BPDfaggotry but I'm not a NEET myself and am unsure why you assumed that? My stable career is a bit funny contrasted with my interpersonal problems.
Anyway you're all right and I'm just being a nutjob as usual. Sometimes I need people to tell me to shut the fuck up and that I'm stupid, thanks.
No. 2566211
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I start a call center job tomorrow and i got laryngitis.
No. 2566215
>>2566208Well, my father is dead and my mother is sick. So I understand and sympathize. Also unsure why you assumed I've never experienced anything bad?
But I know my antics are annoying and dramatic and the same level of inappropriate intensity for everything. There are people being bombed right now, I should be grateful it isn't me.
No. 2566328
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I've been job hunting and stuff and somehow it made me realize how empty my life is. My old friends are drifting away, it doesn't help that we haven't been able to meet up due to being in different countries. My online friend doesn't care about me as much as I care about her. I made zero friends in uni. I've been renting rooms for 2+ years and I still haven't figured out how to befriend roommates. I tried to meet new people outside of university too, but all it did was prove how much I suck at conversation, both the content of what I say, and how difficult it is for me to speak in general. People generally don't understand me when I talk. All I have is my family, which is nice, but I wish I had someone my age to hang out with. It would be cool to rent an apartment together with someone, or go for a coffee date. It really stings. The more time I spend isolated the more awkward I feel going outside alone fsr. Unless my family is visiting I just rot in my room all day. I feel like I am unable to make new connections or even maintain the old ones. I miss my online friend the most, I felt like we had some special connection but that was one-sided I guess. And when I job hunt (for my first job) I involuntarily imagine my future life, and it's so obvious that nothing good awaits me. Best case scenario is I get a job, earn money, but keep stagnating socially. I don't even need the money then. I'm not gonna get myself a coffee or anything with that money. What's the point if I'm alone?
No. 2566379
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Nonnas, what was your first reaction upon learning about your dark family history? I was let into some tea today, and it shook me to my core, mind you, I thought my family was chill…
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>>2566394>>2566415If D&D can have an entire race of misandrist matriarchal lesbians, you can make a protag with misandrist tendencies. Don’t let your dreams be dreams nona.
No. 2566445
>>2566379Feels nicer knowing so much shit is explained without it being my fault.
>mom is a dumb insecure pickme who tried to normalize a marriage with womanizing abusive biodad who actively had children and relationships with other women>the inevitable happened and they divorced when I was a baby, custody fight to torment each other ensues and my mom parentifies me to handle her emotions>including her rage at me over normal kid things like spilling a glass of milk>all my life treated like shit by forced visitation with biodad where he neglected me and emotionally abused me at best>lied to by my mom that this man "loved me" so she would not have to admit the horrible mistake she made or put effort (and $) into going to court so I would not be forced to "visit" that man anymore>fucked up my views about healthy love, became hyperindependent yet desperate towards anyone who would show me what I thought love was>confused about family structure and relationships bc I was forced to be around jealous half-sister who bullied me and biodad's ex gfs>had to deal with my mom dating men when I was little, I used to call them "uncles" (kek) >molested by a male babysitter while she went out for her good times>picked up most morals and values from movies and religion>mom's family always treated me like a blacksheep because I was biodad's kid>remember crying multiple years because cousins got to go on fancy vacations like to Disney as kids and I never did, never cried or asked for things because I would be told no and called "spoiled">her family always acted like I owed something to her and should be grateful for anything, mom coddled like a victimTurns out my mother is a raging narcissist with a
victim complex hence why any decent men steer clear of her volatile ass. Turns out my biodad strangled her–supposedly, she never went to police–and burned down their shared home under dubious circumstances where he couldn't be charged. My biodad finally left me alone when I was a preteen when we promised him he wouldn't have to pay child support anymore if he'd let mom have full custody which he agreed. And by that time, I was running away from home when it was time for his "visitation" aka dumping me at bars or inside a hot country hovel for entire summers with no cable or internet or phones. Yeah, I hate my biodad but he never lied about being a scumbag. Mom knew his abuse and neglect but didn't do shit for me. She probably liked having her weekends and summers childfree at my expense! I hate her forever for putting my innocence into the hands of such a sociopath, yet gaslighting me about him because it was convenient for her "But I'm a good mom!" narrative. She's a feeble ass woman for doing that to me.
Fuck her and my entire scumbag family. Glad to know I am a better person than any of them could ever dream of being.
No. 2566458
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It’s kind of funny to see a woman with her nigel becoming territorial when they see you. They’ll even start kissing in front of me sometimes or amp up the PDA. No one is even looking at that ogre , miss, I am literally walking or sitting next to you.
Has it ever happened to you? It has happened to me many times kek. If there are nonnas who do that , why do you do that? I’ve never seen a man so handsome worth homebreaking honestly so I don’t even feel the need to ogle scrotes when they are coupled , but that might just be me.
No. 2566475
i think my stare is so off-putting because i may have a slighty lazy eye, autism and the fact that my eyes are deep set in my craneum. i don't even have that bulge line on the lower lids, my side profile is just my nose, lips and chin. and my nose is kind of beak-like, so i look like a fucking predator. actually fuck this dog
>>2566458 this is exactly how i do eye contact and how my eyes look.
No. 2566491
>>2566458I'm not territorial about Nigel but it shocks me when I see or when he tells me about random women hitting on him. It's not bullshit cause I have witnessed it myself, I don't question his loyalty and he doesn't question mine. We both find it amusing afterwards. We're both in our 30s and should have "walled" by now but we get a lot of sometimes unwanted attention from people.
All I'm saying is, women being territorial might not come from a place of nowhere but from their experiences with other women. A more insecure woman with a bad man would absolutely mald.
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Seeing all the Deltarune stuff from artists I follow, from cows I check on and even on here is making me nauseous because it reminds me of an ex friend of mine with whom I was very close with who was obsessed with the game and then I found out was a pedophile and zoophile in secret
No. 2566552
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a guy i was in love with moved on from me and i'm so pathetic about it. he was toxic as fuck and love bombed me every time i tried to leave him, but then he went 4 months without talking to me after ignoring my messages. in january he tried sending me a shitty ass meme but i just ignored him. i actually do have a boyfriend now, and my bf knows him so i've seen him in person a few times and talked in person a bit, our chemistry is still off the charts. but i cant help but feel like he picrel'd me. hes a narcissistic male (overweight and balding but thinks hes hot shit) and i'm a female with low self esteem so clearly i was just a target to him. but i can't help but feel like what we had was true love sometimes. is that what narcs do? make you feel so special and like they really love you just so they can use you? i want to believe he's not a bad person but. he also targetted me when i was underweight and sick due to an ED, but now i'm recovered and on antipsychotics and BC so i'm overweight now and i can't help but feel he doesn't talk to me now cuz i'm fat. the worst part is i still look at his messenger every day to see if he's online, and when i see he is i always get super jealous and feel like he's talking to another girl not me. cuz even the whole time he was "with" me (we were never official and he would always say we were just friends) he would text this other girl who i hate and tell her he loved her. he also would talk with this girl about me all the time cuz she's weirdly obsessed with me (toxic homoerotic female friendship).
No. 2566566
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Doc wants to check on me out of sudden after seeing my lab results. I know what this is about: My sugar levels were kinda high (100) and I suppose they'll scold me over it, but I don't give a single shit nor I regret it, I'll admit it: I ate a lot, I ate tons of carbs deliberately for 2 months to gain weight because I was at fucking 32kg like I was frail and it was miserable and painful, I seriously needed it and it WORKED, I don't regret it, I know it was not the best nor healthiest way to do it, I'm aware. Now I'm at a regular weight and I stopped eating so many carbs, my diet is back to normal, it was clearly an one time thing so I don't understand all the drama, I'm not diabetic nor a food addict. Leave me alone damn
No. 2566576
>>2566557thank you anon, you're exactly right. i definitely miss the attention more than the man himself.
>>2566564its hard to be confident when you have a gut and weigh 170 pounds but probably being on this website doesn't help (i mostly frequent the cow boards but i was also called fat when i said i weighed 130 pounds on here so). but you're right that i shouldn't be jealous when i literally have a boyfriend but i'm dumb. he just doesn't compliment me like the other guy did but maybe its a good thing, i'd rather not be lovebombed. my bf also sucks at texting but when i'm around him he's literally never on his phone so i just need to accept it. he gives me plenty of attention in person but we're slightly long distance so i don't see him all the time.
No. 2566698
Because I'm someone that wants to both be understood and to understand others I'm generally a very understanding and accepting person, it's not that I forgive easily but I accept things as they are a lot and try to see things from others POV anytime I can.
Because of that I am recognized as a very down-to-earth, understanding and kind person. You'd think that's a good thing, but the price I have to pay for it is so fucking heavy I wish I hadn't let this become such a huge part of who I am hoping it would pay off one day. You get taken for granted 100% of the time, apologies when you are let down gets gradually more rare for each time you tell them "it's fine" even when you sternly tell someone to not do x again - because you being fine with being taken for granted is now to be expected. Being openly empathetic means open season for others to disrespect you and your boundaries, and putting your foot down will result in you getting everything and anything turned against you because you dare to speak up and act against what they expected of you.
I wish I was a lot tougher, but I don't have the charisma to get away with it. I'm painfully plain, so I can't rely on any sort of pretty privilege. I have no talents, and whatever I'm good at is useless to others. Being kind has been the only defining thing I have, but it's an expensive one that I have been paying for all of my life. Kindness, empathy and understanding can not be as valuable virtues as we are raised to believe, because it gains you nothing unless you are pretty or a larger-than-life type of person. The rest of us will be thrown in the trash any time we express self-respect.
No. 2566728
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Kek wtf is going on now?
>father's day
>cozy day at home
>eat delicious food
>cousin comes home to hangout because he will move out to another country
>he has been visiting his friends and shit
>cousin is a normalfaggot whore degen into politics who is constantly going to parties and shit
>he goes to some huge ass party
>somehow he meets up some retards who went to the same school I did in high-school.
>faggot suicidal friend of my cousin brings up the fact that I studied with them because he's a fucking faggot and because he should've succeeded when he tried to kill himself
>the fuckfaces tell my cousin that I was their friend
>that we talked a lot
>that he liked how I used to sing for some reason
>my cousin is mad at me because I tell him that the guy is a fucking faggot and I was never his friend, that we literally only talked like three times for school projects
>I'm mad and say that I don't get why the fuck those retards keep appearing when I made sure my identity was as obscured as fuck after graduating
>he says that I should stop being so unapproachable
>that I have to stop denying the good times
>good times
>?????????
Bitch what the fuck? What good times, you faggot? He literally wasn't there, then he said that I was just being too prickly because
>everyone gets a bit bullied
Bitchface, I got my shit stolen all of the time, I had to get three new phones in a same school year because those retards would steal my shit. I was fucking isolated for two whole school years because none of them wanted to fucking talk to me.
And then, my retarded cousing and my retarded brothers tell me to
>remember the good times
What. Fucking. Good times??
No. 2566777
>>2566776cant wait
i gave up on studying for the night kek
No. 2566783
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Just found out that apparently not all of our art works will be displayed for our thesis exposition…I spent a lot of money on mine and my partners frames and will need to spend some more on my test prints and prints themselves.
At least now mom hired some social assistants to come once in a while to help grandad so it's a bit easier. Don't gotta help him go to the bathroom and clean 4 days a week.
Still, where is my laughing track at?
No. 2566907
>>2566328>My online friend doesn't care about me as much as I care about herI relate to you very much so on this nona. It doesn't help that I have a crush on them too and we were kinda sorta flirting but now they're barely reaching out to me. It hurts to have experienced the fun and joy of talking to someone again like that for the first time in such a long time only to have it ripped away from me. It's like a cruel joke.
This doesn't just happen with online friendships though. Over the past few years I've been ghosted by every last one of my IRL friends. Some of them even right on the specific day and time we both agreed to meet - they stand me up right then and there and never reach out ever again.
I'm not able to retain a single friendship anymore. It makes me feel like such a worthless and unappealing person.
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I left my keys at work and had to get the super to let me in. I wish I had a gf who I lived with and I could just waste time walking around outside waiting for her.
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>me ruthlessly watching the socials of men who discarded/ghosted me complain about themselves feeling depressed and abandoned
Love this for them.
No. 2566998
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Just broke up with my now ex. I feel fucking awful but I know that it would be worse in the long run for both of us if I stayed. We share the same interests but our personalities are diametrically opposed. She’s super quiet, I did 90% of the talking because she literally just would not talk. I had to make all of the decisions. If she seemed upset about something, which she did the vast majority of the time, she’d get mad if I asked her if she was ok and would say she just had RBF.
I’ve known her for years and she’s always been very quiet but at a certain point she developed depression and became virtually comatose. I have tried everything. Dragged her out of the house. Held her while she cried. Begged her to talk about what was going on. Nothing helped. I felt like I owed it to her because I struggled for a while myself and she was there for me but it’s been a year since she sent me her first suicide note and despite therapy and medication she has not improved. If anything she’s gotten worse. The suicide talk has only gotten more frequent.
She’s never had a job, dropped out of college, never learned to drive. She’s said herself she doesn’t think she’ll ever be able to hold down a job and that if we moved in together I’d be the sole breadwinner.
I’m far from perfect myself, I was a trainwreck when I was younger and am still trying to get over my fear of commitment, but I could not just sit around and wait endlessly for things to get better. The worst part is that she said she wanted to marry me but I just cannot imagine a future together. I don’t want us to start truly resenting each other, I don’t want to wait and see what happens when things get really ugly.
No. 2567016
My mother raped me, she has abused me all my life, beatings, humiliation, degradation, threats. I am a very empty and pathetic person, I have never close to anything or anyone, dated, never had a friend, never been outside my same routine. Even my room looks like a cell, the bare minimum. There's nothing I enjoy doing other than daydreaming
No. 2567028
>>2567016That's horrifying
nonnie, I'm so sorry.
No. 2567119
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>>2567031maybe watch media about old people doing (new) things? I quite enjoy that genre because it reminds me there's always something new to look forward to. I feel like a young retiree as a stable child free person tbh, so retiree stories are kinda relatable lol
the Bollywood movie based on picrel was particularly inspiring for me, they had a whole second life at 60 (there were two of them in the movie). it was also just a fun movie
PT and people like her seem only consume media about literal teens and young adults, so yeah aging would seem bleak in comparison
No. 2567141
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>be me
>at an anime con for the first time in years
>walk around the artist's alley
>find the only booth selling merch for a niche game i like
>approach vendor
>he sees my gothic coord and that i'm another player
>his face lights up
>he stands up and shows his ouji coord
>actually looks well put together (rare for a moid)
>gush about burando and our favorite characters from the game for hours
>he's been interested in egl for years
>overall a decent guy
>gives me his website before i go
>check it out
>pages upon pages dedicated to ouji and male jp fashion documentation, coord pics, fanfiction, etc
>everything is written with genuine care and love
>honestly ecstatic that my first irl encounter with another egl wearer was with a male who cares for his looks
>stalk the site a little more
>click on his about me page
>"they/them, nonbinary"
I'm so sad, nonas. I won't be going into more detail, but everything we discussed and read on his site indicated that he's just a feminine guy who drank the gendie kool-aid because of his interests. Why must this happen when I finally put myself out there and try to make friends? Hell, I couldn't find a single thing that suggested he was a gross AGP; he really admires EGL and never mentioned crossdressing, taking hormones (nor looked like it), or anything creepy, both in person and on his site. He invited me to the local comm server so we may hang out in the future, but I still want to keep my distance a bit in case things go south. He was quite chirpy and even said I was the highlight of his boring day… I can only hope he never troons out and continues to live his life as it is. Gender ideology has ruined nerdy people and their hobbies and I hate it.
No. 2567157
>>2567152And then she's like "the young gen doesn't like to work back in my youth I had to clean the floor on my knees" I'm not a fucking janitor what this and your past gotta do with my job? Because you had
abusive management now we need to get the same treatment from you? Clearly the abuse didn't help my boss because she looks like she's constantly ready to have a meltdown. Yesterday me and my coworkers all were forced to work overtime, and then we also had to deal with pissed customers and karens. Not like we're gonna get paid anyway.
No. 2567176
>>2567141I get the panic, the pipeline is real. But also if it helps, a friend of mine started off as a they/them demigirl hard ace and now after a year with her nigel she's just regular and more ok about sex.
Not saying you gotta jump in a relationship to "save him" but people changing bc of other people, is def posible.
I think your decision to keep your distance and not ever talking to him is wise tho. Hope things go well and always will.
No. 2567187
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>"you should care even when it doesn't affect you"
>okay. I think polygamy is nasty
>"um why do you care? It doesn't affect you, sweaty"
Sorry thought I was supposed to care about things even when it doesn't affect me
No. 2567219
My cat is getting euthanised today and it is only just hitting me now since waking up. I don't feel ready at all, I'm heartbroken. She has had a lump on her neck that is probably cancer and it has been growing for around 2 years now. Her behaviour has been normal up until this point, and even now she's still her usual self aside from not really eating, weight loss and attempting to vomit. Part of me feels like her symptoms could be from a hair ball and that she should just be taken to the vet, but my (abusive) mother is calling me cruel and saying that it is time for her to go, essentially stopping me from doing so. I despise her for not taking her to the vet back when it first appeared, I couldn't do it myself at the time as I wasn't an adult yet and had no money. I'll never forgive myself for not finding a way to do something sooner regardless, now the lump has spread and is too big so I would never be able to afford the removal surgery, nor do I think it'd even be possible at this stage. She's around 17 now so I guess she has lived a long life, but I just can't let go. She's the best cat I've ever had and when I lose her it will feel like a part of me has died. I have already contacted a crematorium but now I am wondering if even that is the wrong decision, I can't stand to think of her body being burned, but I also can't stand the thought of it slowly decomposing either. Nothing feels right.
No. 2567253
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>>2566379Nearly all of the horrors in my family tree were caused by horrible,
abusive fathers or boyfriends. My immediate family circle is very tight-knit, so the trauma seems "closer" than it really is, if that makes sense.
When they were younger, my grandad's sister got lured up to the attic in her boyfriend's house and was imprisoned there for weeks. Eventually her dad (who doesn't deserve that title) went over and asked them to let her go. He didn't do anything to the captors, didn't even call the police, they just came to a polite agreement and then never bothered each other again like typical cowardly faggot moids. The MOMENT my great-aunt stepped back into the family home, he got up in her face and yelled that it was all her fault for trusting nonwhite men. This coming from the same white man who terrorised his wife and children to a horrifying extent on a daily basis. My grandad was only a kid at the time and has virtually no good memories of his parents at all, he was the one who took the brunt of the physical abuse. His auntie was murdered when she was just in her early twenties (it feels downright surreal when I think about it, she was my age) over something she wasn't even involved with. My poor nanna also used to watch her parents roll around fighting and screaming at each other on the floor and it was just considered normal. Meanwhile, I'm the product of grooming (the age gap between my parents is over 20 years) and my biodad was a narcissist who told me that I was a waste of his money. I could go on for hours about all our collective baggage but the post would be far too long and TMI.>>2566445>>2566389I'm sorry, nonnies. Here's to breaking the cycles. Repost because typos.
No. 2567321
>>2567307Catching feelings for someone you meet organically
>>2567316vegan and organic yes
No. 2567388
>>2566552Men who target anorexics exists. They seek vulnerable women to take advantage of them. Now that you are a fattie you aren’t appealing to him and he’s searching for his next
victim.
You feel that way because his tactics have worked, look at you, better mentally, with a boyfriend, yet still obsessed with the retard.
No. 2567392
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>>2567388>hes a narcissistic male (overweight and balding but thinks hes hot shit)I would have understood a little bit if he was Brad Pitt 90’s handsome. But you are yearning for someone who looks like picrel?
No. 2567456
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>>2566985shes usually really sweet and we have a good connection which im thankful for, but i find the comments shes made regarding my breast size/boobs being small weird. like even small and medium sized breasts need support when working out, or else you could suffer long-term consequenses. it just seemed like a weird comment to put me down or humiliate me and one of my sisters laughed. like what should i do, wear normal bras around the house to prove im a C cup?
No. 2567463
>>2567456>>2566936C isn't even small, it's so annoying how many women have a scrotal perception of what women's bodies "should" look like. Even if it WAS small, who cares? All boob sizes are cute. I'm also a C cup and they can look big or flat depending on what I'm wearing, including bras. That's completely normal. Put your comfort first, I swear
every mother just goes through weird phases where they say mean shit to their daughters for no reason.
No. 2567470
>>2567463>I'm also a C cup and they can look big or flat depending on what I'm wearing, including bras.yeah exactly, wearing a really baggy sweater without any bra will make them look small/flat obv, wearing compression/trainer bras will also make them look smaller, normal bras make them look slightly bigger than by themselves/without clothes. kind of a chameleon size.
>I swear every mother just goes through weird phases where they say mean shit to their daughters for no reason.this is so sad… my other sister is close to being completely flat (very underweight) and she was the one who didnt laugh. ive never heard my mom make any comments towards her and i hope she hasnt. but yeah that comment was completely unnecessary and served no purpose and kind of ruined our current good mother-daughter streak lol
No. 2567487
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My meds are making me…lactate. I feel so goddamn gross, and weird, and weirdly exposed? like my body is doing weird stuff I've zero control over. It's surreal, I feel like the first time I had my period, I'm confused and flabbergasted despite it being something so natural. These meds were helping me a lot, too bad they got side effects as well. Please help me cope with this I'm too retarded
No. 2567500
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>>2566993I'm sorry that happened to you. Being used for sex, or getting pumped and dumped, is my worst nightmare, so I can't inagine how horrible it must feel for you. That moid truly is the scum of the earth.
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 2567505
>>2566993>he was taking time to think for himself.This is literally all scrotes
ever do, what is he talking about. He shouldn't need to go off and "think" to realise that treating women like shit is wrong. I'm sorry you went through that nonna, remember this anger and don't accept anything less than the best treatment (if you ever decide to date again)
No. 2567529
>>2566379My reactions tend to be "that explains a lot" and to trust my relatives even less. Everything I've learned made me feel vindicted, like I knew something was up with these violent retards ever since I was a child and I kept being proven right. Anytime my superstitious, religious parents want to play that "respect your ancestor" bullshit with me I remember that my most direct ancestors were either total degenerates or their
victims.
No. 2567554
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I think my mom is mad at me because I might have sabotaged, well, I wouldn't say sabotage, but I might have cut her off with her cheating boyfriend. The boyfriend had family and she was such a desperate whore to break it, my aunt might have been the final blow for calling him and yelling at him to stop contacting my mom honestly I think she would cry if she had lost him than seeing me die.
She told me not to delete the text he sent her, but he didn't know that after my aunt yelled at him, he deleted all those texts by himself. Honestly, I hope she dies. I still don't know why she is so obsessed with him; she always puts him on top, way above me, and I'm sick and tired of her.
No. 2567590
>>2567487I'm happy the meds are helping you
nonny. As the other nona said just think of it as a natural part of what women do sometimes.
No. 2567613
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My bipolar NPD mom did parental alienation on my father and as a result I haven't seen or heard from him in 15 years. I wonder if he ever thinks about the fact that he has an adult daughter out there somewhere, and why he has never tried to call me since I became an adult. It's not like he doesn't know where I am since I've been in contact with his sister since 2020, he just doesn't want to I guess. Or maybe he thinks I'm crazy like my mom. The last time I saw my dad my mom sicced her schizophrenic BPD boyfriend on him who chased him to the train station and lord knows what he did to him. Same man also molested me and tried to kill me and my mom multiple times, I'm only alive because he went and killed himself with a drug overdose 12 years ago, my mom would have never left him and loves him to this day. I hate my mom so fucking much it's unreal nonnies.
No. 2567624
>>25663793 generations of pedos abusing younger family members and covering it up here. One of the
victims killed herself. They pretended her suicide was just depression. That depression runs in the family.. no pedos run in the family. It was a cycle of uncles abusing nieces. I was the only girl with all male cousins on that side.. My mom only found out well after she was already married and she freaked. Alot of my parents fights when I was a kid turned out to be her standing her ground about a particular uncle never coming to our house. With company or not. She had him sussed as the next in line to offend and my dad was highly offended by that.
Now I'm grown, my moms passed and I carry on keeping tf away. Good thing I don't want kids because that'd start a battle again. My dad gave up fighting and being offended but he still doesn't 'get it' That uncle did later on choke a kid (my lil cousin) and what did they do.. nothing
No. 2567702
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34 year old brother waking up at 3pm and first thing he does over his late breakfast is watch those ragebait podcasts that invite braindead OF whores to embarrass them.
Bear in mind he’s a normie who had a happy high school life, several girlfriends, is employed, etc. so he has few reasons to engage in this miserable shit. Its just a reality check that even “normal” men can easily fall for this sexist redpill garbage, its not just limited to zoomer/alpha young boys and incels. The idea of never getting married is feeling more appealing by the day if this reality is whats waiting for me.
No. 2567754
>>2566458>>2567749I think I've found the secret cheat code for interacting with couples: look at the woman more as you're talking and speak like you're addressing
her the most, not him. I've been told I'm decent looking but to my knowledge I've never made a Nigelfag jealous.
No. 2567757
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I'm just going to have to vent about this. Last week I did meet some euro moid and he did not eat bread for fitness and all he ordered was chicken and water. It was not a date setting. But I understand now what some women mean with "ick" it's so unmanly. His posture was also bad and he was really quiet the whole time. What a fucking Waschlappen.
No. 2567759
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i need to draw for 12 hours or ill die
No. 2567790
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I hate him
No. 2567957
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I did it, I messaged the moid I've been liking for awhile that I like him. Despite that we haven't even met in person yet and were going to this coming September..and that I even told myself I will NOT tell him before we do. Was I too hasty? Did I fuck up?
I do know what he looks and sounds like since we've already video called and sent eachother pictures. We've followed eachother on socmed for several years now, but been talking alot more these past few weeks. It was becoming just too much to bear. Plus I don't believe in anyone ever possibly reciprocating feelings for me
and even if I did go out with him it would have to be LDR..I don't even want an LDR. It also feels like he hasn't been having any interest in talking to me in general anymore (Maybe because of my constant aloofness I made HIM think I'm disinterested? I don't know man). With all that considered, my intrusive thoughts said "Fuck it" and I just went for it. In a way, I figured there was nothing to lose anymore and I've made peace with losing him as a friend (Especially better losing him as one now rather than later. If I lost yet ANOTHER close friend or something, I'd be broken.) Plus, what if something happened to me before I was able to meet him and say something IRL..like I die in a car accident or fire?
This all feels like high school crap and maybe I did say my feelings too prematurely but I don't think my reasoning is entirely wrong. I previously yearned for someone for years and years on end that rejected me and initially, I thought it was because of bad timing but in hindsight now I see it wasn't. We were always just too incompatible and she was someone that would have never reciprocated, not now, not ever. This time around, I was actually flirted with back so I didn't see why I shouldn't just YOLO.
No. 2568089
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im cute and talented and i deserve praise and compliments
No. 2568138
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I fucking hate how absolutely no one helps you in a time of need. Everyone will tell you they are sorry for you, or do like my retarded friend and send me sad cat gifs but no one actually offers you help(money). Its insane how horrible my luck is, i am so tired of trying to be positive for these faggots sake, i am killing myself, fuck it. Nothing ever improves and the only way it would improve is if i become rich(impossible).
No. 2568143
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>>2566991Refund that shit nonna steak is fucking expensive.
No. 2568191
>>2568178I was one of the anons who replied to you when you originally posted. I’m so sorry for your loss
nonny, I’ve been thinking about you and your family often and I’m sorry it ended the way it did. Sometimes the old saying that things come in threes is true and life really puts you through the wringer. I know it doesn’t help, but it’s understandable that you’re feeling lost and discouraged right now after losing so much security and stability in your life.
I lost my dad unexpectedly about a year and a half ago, my family still struggles with it but you begin to find your way again eventually. Things won’t ever be like they were before, but they will be okay again, eventually. If you want to talk more about grief and the loss of a loved one, just bump the Grief and Loss thread and I will reply within a day or two.
>>>/ot/2344638I’ll be thinking of you and your mom, best wishes and all my love to you
nonny.
No. 2568271
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My friends piss me off sometimes. I’ve been working my ass off this year, declining invitations to go out so I can save money. Cutting down my spending. Cooking at home more instead of eating out. Side hustles to earn extra cash on the side. Then when I tell one that I’m about to finish paying off my student loans this year, her response is “ugh you’re so lucky!”
LUCKY?! It’s taken me ten fucking years to do this! I don’t come from money and I’m not dating someone who comes from money. I’ve been stumbling ass over face for a decade figuring out finance because my parents were too stupid to teach me. It’s just extra frustrating because I would NEVER say something like that to her about any of her accomplishments, even though she’s arguably had a much luckier life than me. It took all my self-control not to tell her that she could do the same thing if she stopped ordering stupid shit online all the time.
No. 2568282
>>2568184tysm nona for the well wishes. i guess all of this must eventually pass. that's my only hope.
>>2568191nona, bless your kind heart, specially for thinking about us. i'll post on the thread you pointed out. it's terrible to have all this people around you, but none has the goddamn balls to ask how i'm doing, or how mom is going. they just want to talk about themselves. i know it has nothing to do with ill intent, but still. it's such a big change. tysm again nonita, i'll think about you as well ilu.
No. 2568348
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Got accepted to a college I really wanted but too poor to attend. Offer ends in 3 minutes.
No. 2568404
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My room is adjacent to the toilet and the retard of my roommate pisses like a horse it’s so disgusting, I can hear it. It ruins my day.
I can literally tell when it’s him or my other roommate, because she pees in a more refined and silent way, I can never hear her.
He should sit down, ugly lazy retard. I hate him.
No. 2568494
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I hate being unemployed but I also hate having a job. Everyone demands experience but noone wants to give it. I worked in a bakery for three months and it fucking sucked. My boss didn't give a fuck about me. The shit clients gave me wasn't worth it at all. And I had to wear uncomfortable clothes. I can't think of any job that wouldn't make me suicidal. Everything is either talking to dumb people or a rat race.
No. 2568550
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I hate the fact this cute blond guy I follow on instagram, is now in the country I visited for vacation almost a week ago. I likely wouldn’t see him but I wanna feed my delusion I could’ve seen him and that would’ve been the closest I’ve been with him.
(Picture is not him, just for reference.)
No. 2568553
I acknowledge I should join the real world, as I have earnestly been trying throughout this lifetime, but I struggle to find that I truly can. I wish I could, I really do. Even when I feel 'present',upbeat and alert I am elsewhere, far from remembering nor embracing the woman I'm supposed to age into. I try to saturate myself in beautiful scenes, enjoy the mundane and appreciate all the things that are wonderful about living here, but it never quite connects all the way. It's not necessarily actively horrible, but it's vacuous. Outstandingly dysfunctional, as the last few weeks has demonstrated at times. I cannot perceive just how alienated I am from myself, let alone others. I can embrace being odd, but I cannot accept remaining a spiritual failure. At least I am well enough to remain physically active, and that is something I am deeply thankful for.
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>>2568467>>2568539Thank you. At least my nonnies get me.
No. 2568694
>>2568271She knows she spends too much and she’s jealous lowkey that’s why she’s taking it out on you.
Congrats nonna, that’s a very big achievement!
No. 2568738
>>2568714I wonder if he's just a retard and was fooled by her short hair and assumed she was a boy.
but situations like this make me feel so frustrated, men seriously can't understand women. Like he assumes if a women approches him it means she wants to date him, it has happend multiple times before with other guys. No I don't want your unwashed dick I just told you I like your songs.
No. 2568779
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>Find a tattoo artist who's style I absolutely love, would be perfect for what I want, and is located close to me
>she has absolutely no pictures of tattoos done on brown skin
Everyone else's art sucks in comparison to her's. I'm so sad, anons.
No. 2568803
>>2568800I have this problem too. I'm average looking in every aspect, can hold conversations, but for some reason my mild-as-milk autism can be immediately detected by most other women my age + 100% of women who are older than me. It's very isolating because even the way they look at me is so odd. I don't have this problem with other weird people, autists, animals, moids, or like even just doctors/people in retail. It's
specifically people that I absolutely have to socialise with on a regular basis like at work
No. 2568830
>>2568813You ask about stuff that they told you before when you are already friends and go out. An average person will find you off putting if you asked about their BBQ that they casually said they were having a week ago while you two were in the company of other people. I know , it seems retarded and if you aren’t in it just seems stupid, but basically if you go all 100% at once you’ll appear weird and even creepy. As a first time meeting try to be more superficial and add tiny bits of stuff about yourself or ask about them and then from there you can ask to meet officially as an outing.
At least that’s how I make friends kek. Hope I helped you nonna.
No. 2569008
>>2567909That sounds so nice,
nonny! Wishing you more chill solo dates and nugs
No. 2569177
>>2569034Keep records of every time they’re not available and message them with urgency when you need to get things sent, preferably before the actual deadline. After a while they’ll either step up and stop being a gatekeeping arsenal (because that’s often what this behaviour amounts to) or you’ll have a record of their incompetence against your own diligence! Hope it helps either way
nonnie, I’ve been in your position and it was excruciating. Thankfully I left that job and now I’m my own manager!
No. 2569211
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>>2569206Hehehe I knew it, I was the hottie of the family.
No. 2569218
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relative is addicted to buying hardback novels and the amount of these that have obviously ai-generated cover art is making me depressed
No. 2569256
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Wew nonnas . I am loving this rewatch.
No. 2569268
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highkey can't get myself pumped for the new semester anymore because i've gotten it in my head that i'm going to kill myself this break. even if i don't, i still have it in my head that i've given up so i don't know how i'm going to do this time, i desperately want to believe that last semester was so shit because it was an even semester and not because i'm in a downward spiral. i can't even begin to express how shit every semester of college has gone for me save for the 3rd one, one jury went so terribly, i left half my display and assignments behind and only took the fabric swatches that cost me money and time to get, and every jury since then i'd think about jumping in front of the train home.
No. 2569720
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I’m so sick of being unemployed. I’m constantly getting interviews and applying but I’ve not had a single offer in nine months. When’s it gonna be my turn
No. 2569752
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Learning a new language so far removed from English makes me feel so fucking dumb. I know I need to be patient but those days were I just have really low comprehension and have to look up every word, or worse, knowing every word and the grammar makes the sentence incomprehensible I just want to scream.
My fault for choosing to do this in my late 20s huh no time and no brain malleability to make this easier
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>>2569748Wait so this person was 11 when you were 18? Oh god i would feel so terrible especially because i like to make dumb sexual jokes sometimes
No. 2569883
probably gonna kill myself soon, im tired of people, i can never seem to make friends like other people and nothing ever works out for me like other people, all i get is retarded bpdchans who go psycho over everything and only bothered pretending to be friends with me because they saw me as passive enough to put up with their bullshit until they instantly drop me like im nothing and make shit up about me to everyone to isolate me further, despite knowing literally nothing about me to talk shit about since those friendships were always the bpdchan talking at me instead of to me, but whatever, everyone believes what that dumb insecure slut says, it just keeps fucking happening in my life and im so fucking tired, im fucking sick of everyone man, all i attract are autists, narcissists, psychos and bpdchans, i feel like i was never meant for a normal life, im tired of everyone hurting me and abusing me, no matter how hard i try, how kind hearted i am, its a worthless trait to others and no one wants me around, i was born to be alone so ill make myself die alone
No. 2569909
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i wish i knew how to make friends as an adult woman. i feel so lonely all the time and all i want most in the world is a best friend or a group of friends i can chat to with no fear or anxiety. i don’t even know where to begin trying to find people so i just spend every night doomscrolling until i fall asleep and then repeat every day feeling the same longing in my chest
No. 2569977
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>morbidly obese much older brother with the unhealthiest lifestyle ever spends hours on VR with his friends every night, happily giggling and having fun
>sitting here, "fit" but can barely muster up the energy for my one longtime friend. haven't even laughed since I was a kid
>only had a few days in my life where I had the energy enough to enjoy being that socially active
I know I have some diagnosed health issues though sometimes I just wonder what the fuck is wrong with me and my head. honestly I'm getting upset just remembering the few days I felt fine because they made the rest of my days seem all the more miserable…
No. 2569980
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My dad is stressing me the fuck out, this man has no chill or patience—he wants to rush things quickly. It's not my fault I can't get those damn IDs quick enough—it's the office's fault for being a bunch of slowpokes. I can't stand it, I understand why my brother distanced himself from him now.
No. 2570047
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a friend of my moid always makes the house a pigsty and somehow this seething misogynist manlet has huge influence over him. he picks up on the way he talks and imitates him for days after they have met. this guy always has mud and cowshit stuck to his boots and invites my moid to hang out in filthy spaces so he can also spread the dubai chocolate. i avoid this man as much as possible because he comes up with rhetorical or real questions like
>why do females watch real crime!?!
it is always essentially a
>why do females do this and that nonsense, it is so stupid!?!
he also refuses to clean up energy drink and beer cans after himself. every other friend has managed to at least group them into one surface, crush or recycle their cans, but him. i don't think this is enough info to cow him for, anyway, he has childhood trauma from his sister's murder. i must have triggered him one day by talking about crime, which i am also interested in and can justify and explain why other feeemaaaales watch that sort of content. maybe it makes him feel better when i argue or trash his trauma response, i don't really get how it works but his hygiene already pisses me off. he often smells like barn and dog and has fungal acne. my man often gets sick after meeting him. that friend is a walking biohazard.
No. 2570104
>>2570054With one of them? No. Not really. Because the issue is that I tried once before because he did some REALLY creepy shit, and he legit told me "why are you trying to distance yourself from me? I see what you're doing."
I've tried being super pissy and mean and saying things to intentionally hurt him so that he'd be the one one to block me so that my stupid fucking emotions didn't get in the way. He called me out on that too. Like one of them cannot lose interest in me and I slipped up on post-operation drugs and expressed fleeting interest in him and he won't let it go. The other one cries a
lot and I hate it when people cry because it breaks my heart. I'm losing my fucking mind. I don't want to switch accounts again but I'm tempted. I'm running out of names. Maybe I'll make another identity and then just hang out on that one until everyone loses this one.
No. 2570115
>>2570104>"why are you trying to distance yourself from me? I see what you're doing.">"I'm just busy with a new phase of my life."What kind of profession are you in that his behavior warrants being tolerated? If he was creepy you do realize that being associated with him is bad for your career, right?
IME there is basically no upside to continuing to interact with people like this. Just abandon your account.
No. 2570118
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>had my period for ten years
>still forgets it and lives happily for 4 weeks
>CRAMPS
>go to the toilet
>blood
Why , why! I’ll never get used to this hell. My back is painful, my stomach is painfully, my butthole hurts.
No. 2570168
>>2570104He's a manipulative creep who wants you around. I would have suggested to be upfront and say you've just grown apart a bit if he asks, but since he won't accept that you kinda just have to keep slowly distancing yourself.
Make yourself genuinely busy, or at the very least the perfect appearance of being busy and into some new hobby (that you know he'd never be into). Also avoid anything he's into, even if it's a mutual interest. Fill your schedule with hanging out with family and female friends a lot so you have an excuse to ignore the males. Go to free events, parks, libraries. Take a simple pic and post about it AFTER (in case they're the kind of creep to go there if know you're currently there) like "had a relaxing day at the library, can't wait to read these books!". Never reply to anything on time, always drag it out. Even if you're having a conversation make sure to wait a few minutes to the point it's annoying for them but they can't complain because it's not like you purposely waited 7 minutes to reply each time.
I honestly think one big thing that can keep males away is simply getting a boyfriend. These men are happy to bother women, but they fear the wrath of other men. And if they're whining about you "abandoning them" you play the reverse uno card and pretend to be really upset that they're not happy that you found love and accuse them of trying to sabotage it for you. But it's way easier said than done to get a decent bf, but it makes cutting people out easier.
No. 2570279
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I just wish once in my life time I would get to know a man, who is not hung up on his ex-gf.
those wankers invite me to be vulnerable and private and intimate and once I am, they are dumping their emotions onto me while leaving.
why is that? why are men such weaklings?