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No. 2584000

A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.

Previous vent thread: >>>/ot/2572581

Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.

Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.

No. 2584010

How do I get over my disgust at humanity? Serious question.
>>2583680
Sis if OP is saying that she doesn’t get bullied by her at least her words don’t affect her as much as it affects you. Calm down.

No. 2584014

Going to ask my doctor for a prescription for spironolactone next week in an effort to nuke the acne I have been plagued with for twenty years. My mom would make comments about how bad my acne was as a teen and even said it made her “depressed” to look at, but she also said that going to dermatologists is a waste of time. So I just have been stuck with it no matter what products or lifestyle changes I made that entire time.
It’s been the majority of my life at this point and I am hopeful this will actually do something finally… I just want my back to not hurt all the time from pimples.

No. 2584015

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I've got to vent about the most pathetic guy i've ever met online because just thinking about him want me to punt his head into the asphalt, i need someone to laugh at him with me
>Mixed race, obese, short hair and looks like the mutt meme irl (picrel)
>But larps as a long haired good looking metalhead online
>Failed gamedev
>Right wing, christian and anti abortion
>Obsession with hating on brown people as if he isn't mixed himself
>I'm not even joking about his obsession like he is obsessed with black people 24/7
>Licks Elon musks balls
>Acts though online but can't even go on a voice call without stuttering and being awkward
>Post his shitty takes on twitter and gets on arguments there 24/7
>Has an alt account to orbit women and slid in their dms
>Is on the verge of dying on a daily basis, constantly having heart palpitations and fainting

No. 2584023

Ended up on the Vocaloid sub after googling why the wikia is down and decided to check out the top posts for funsies. Big mistake, fetish art galore. At least all the comments were also incredibly confused.

No. 2584024

>>2584010
>at least her words don’t affect her as much as it affects you. Calm down.

>lowkey giving me an identity crisis.

>it's really disorienting
>fucking weird and honestly annoying and identity crisis inducing
You sure you read the same post?

No. 2584025

Big sentiment now about how people are losing touch with each other and can't connect but I don't really care. Every time I DO try to connect with others I just feel worse for it. Even online the only thing people do is tell me everything about me is bad, why would I want to associate with that? Do people see loners and hate us out of jealousy? I don't understand them.

No. 2584032

>>2583662
No, I don't smoke or drink. It's all above my upper lip/mustache area which makes it so embarrassing and it hurts like hell. I ended up squeezing the shit out of and even lancing the pimple I have right now which wasn't a good idea. It wasn't ready at all so now it's just super inflamed

No. 2584033

My friends are succeeding in life and I'm very happy for them, especially as they've struggled for years, but looking at my own situation makes me sad. They're older than me (early 30s, I'm 25) and I know their success comes from age and careful perseverance more than luck, but it hurts thinking that I'll never reach those heights. They're buying houses, in healthy relationships, in great jobs. One guy even got a job a month after leaving his last one that pays twice as much, which is crazy lucky and I'm so proud of him! Meanwhile I am single, in a moldy apartment and unemployed, having been so for months in our shitty economy when I have few skills.

I like being single as I don't trust men and am avoidant to a schizoid degree, though having never been in a healthy relationship and seeing these cute couples genuinely love one another I feel warm and fuzzy and almost envious. I don't want loads of money, nor do I want a house yet, I just want to be out of survival mode. Even when I remember that some of these friends are in debt to pay off their consoom lifestyle or have bad histories it doesn't make me feel at ease.

I wouldn't say it's jealousy, more of a hope my life will work out and a sense I'm cursed at the moment. Seeing them thrive gives me warm feelings and I can't wait to see their happiness continue, I've always preferred passively following peoples' lives to living my own (schizoid tendencies again kek) but I feel out of touch and alienated even more than usual against them. When they ask me about work or my dating life I mumble something irrelevant and hope they don't ask again; it gives me serious anxiety when they discuss money even though I think it's vapid to care so much about how much their lifestyles cost. I don't know what to do, I just feel weird.

No. 2584039

>>2584033
samefag but I can't discuss this with them because they glaze over when I talk, it's like my detachment makes me into an annoying little ghost nobody cares about. that sounds self-pitying and yeah, it probably is, but i'm trying to be positive, supportive and present in their lives even when it's not natural for me. There's no way they can care if I keep hiding things, but stuff spreads fast and if they knew how much I was struggling, I'd be a total laughing stock.

No. 2584042

>>2584025
They see us and pity us, judging us for not following the pack and mindlessly confirming but also because they've grown up in a world that sees isolation and singledom as a threat.

No. 2584044

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I'm sick of eating as a person that has very little appetite and gets full extremely fast (So fast I can finish eating in seconds and could get full just from a single salad). Everything is always going bad in my fridge.

I try to buy less but no quantity of vegetables, fruit, or anything else pre-packaged at a grocery store is sold in small enough quantities for my ass. Not without having to freeze more than half of it, at least. But then freezing makes it taste like shit and defrosting is a pain. Eating is just a pain. Cooking is annoying. I wish I was rich so I could just live off of Uber Eats or DoorDash forever.

No. 2584045

>>2584044
This seems like a metabolic issue… or maybe not if you’re fine eating DoorDash but not vegetables kek

No. 2584047

I think I’m autistic. I’m too naive, always taking what people say as the It’s it’s weird, because in friendships i’m very good at understanding their feelings and seem to do quite well. But with strangers or if someone proclaims about what they think i can’t seem to deduce their intentions like other people are able to. I hate it. I’m just going to live in my own head and trust whatever I think instead. Otherwise I get taken advantage of.

No. 2584051

i'm being a retard wasting my entire weekend bumming in bed and not even enjoying it. i'm on my period and feel bad but it's not that bad. i can't decide what i should try to do though

No. 2584055

>>2584051
Read a book with me anon, go to the book thread in /m/, find one that interests you, and download it from Anna’s Archive. Get yourself a nice glass of water or tea and continue bed rotting but now because you’re reading you feel better about it. Let me know what you end up choosing too

No. 2584057

>>2584051
i'm always gentle on myself when i'm on my period. your body is undergoing a lot during this time, take it easy and don't beat yourself up too much for it. there's always tomorrow to get shit done.

No. 2584059

>>2584055
ntayrt but i’ve been doing this and it’s resulted in much better habits for myself as well. i’ve replaced reading with doom scrolling and constantly refreshing boards on here… causes you to feel productive and learned while actually enjoying a book. 10/10 recommend when you feel like a bum

No. 2584066

>>2584045
>This seems like a metabolic issue
I do have a fast metabolism
>if you’re fine eating DoorDash but not vegetables kek
What? I'm not some kind of fatass that hates the taste of vegetables (I'm a lanklet, actually). I was specifically talking about how I would prefer buying small quantities instead of in bulk but everything seems to almost always be sold in bulk. It feels impossible to ever cook and prepare anything without at least some of it going to waste.

No. 2584069

>>2584059
I am always in a much better place mentally when I make the time to read rather than scroll. The biggest hurdle has been finding books I actually want to read which is why the /m/ thread is such a godsend, nonnies have good taste generally and it takes a lot of the guesswork out of it for me. What have you read recently anon? I’ve been on a women’s Japanese lit kick recently

No. 2584084

>>2584069
to be honest, i’m still trying to engage with the “basics” — so i’ve been getting my hands on every piece of classic lit and going through each. im also a slow ish reader because i like to to annotate and im neurotic so i try to digest every detail. im currently rereading madame bovary because i feel like i didn’t get enough out of it the first time kek. it’s amazing, however the author is an utter retard (typical of 19th century literary moids). i also read a lot of literary essays or philosophy pieces, so like i recently read “famine affluence and morality” by peter singer (only like 13 pages or so) and liked it a lot. shit like that. i’d recommend starting with classics and gauging what you lean towards most

No. 2584093

>>2584055
the book thread hasn't brought up any interesting books recently. i checked my reading list for shorter books and will start something, thanks nonna.

No. 2584100

>>2584066
But if your cooked leftovers are going to waste, aren’t your DoorDash leftovers spoiling in the fridge too? Seems way more cost effective to just bake+freeze a bunch of egg bites or lasagna or something and reheat as needed.

No. 2584122

>>2584112
If it makes you feel better I've abandoned my Discord account for 7 months due to all the people wanting to talk lol, it's okay

No. 2584137

>>2584039

Nona, I am being so sincere that you seem like such a empathetic person. I really feel for you, reading about how genuinely happy you are for others while the uncertainty remains of how or when it's going to get better for you.
I think that being supportive is like a muscle, and you've gained strength in it, and muscle memory (it kicks in naturally). I hope that this yields good, deep connections for you. I have been in a comparable situation, and coming out of it on the other side with true friends is the best case scenario, imo.

No. 2584156

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Today I realized that everything I loved about someone before, I can find and love again. That person doesn't exist anymore anyway. He's balding, I'm thriving, he's seething, I'm filled with love, I got a job, meeting new people, reading new books. I'll be crying, I'll be grieving, but I'm done. He was not special, just a drop in the ocean. Why is it so hard to convince myself of that then..why is this taking so long?

No. 2584162

>>2584156
It’s okay to mourn losing the person you thought he was nona. It’s understandable that you’re disappointed it didn’t work out. Even if we had no control in how things went, it’s still sad we don’t get to live the futures we dreamed up. Let it ache, you’ll be okay

No. 2584170

i love my husbando so much i didn't know someone could make you feel so good just by looking at them

No. 2584176

I was born in the wrong body. I'm never going to troon out because i know i'll never become a true scrote, but i'm a defective woman, more than any anon in this website. I only respect, admire, am willing to learn and at the same time disrespect and hate is women because only they are worthy of humanizing and investing thoughts and affection on. I only want eyecandy from scrotes. Tradthot, libfem and radfem rethoric is asexual cope, it all revolves around alleviating wounds from being consumed. Tradthots say being attractive and offering sex is your place in society as a woman and another duty like cleaning the toilet, libfems say it's empowering and a superpower to objectify yourself, radfems just runaway from it all together, but it all revolves around being consumed in the end, everything about being a woman is a constantly fearing for your life and hiding. That's not enough, i want to lust, i want to consume, i want to be catered to, i want to pursue everything that i want. I don't want to cope anymore.
>inb4 find hobbies and get separatist friends
No, i don't want this. I don't want to have to get away from society. I don't want to revolve myself and my life around playing games, reading comics or have to stick my head into and get obssessed over a topic. I'm not an introvert, i want to be social, live in the moment, be around others, go to parties and dance and drink, talk shit about the topics but i can't do this unless i integrate into what is expected of me because i'm female. I'm tired of everything revolving around me being harmed socially and literally and how every single thing i do is degrading and whorish but then if i can't be upset because of my smaller weaker body and therefor can't tell a scrote to kill himself, noooo, i just have to hide away and become autistic over washi tape and 2d husbando and be reclused with 2 friends and if i don't i'm an attention whore and a literal whore. I don't even know where anons even find these "separatist" women, even the women who you think are level headed always end up with scrotes down the line.

Anons can talk about me and other women no different from what you see on 4chan because they don't fit into their perfect virgin complex ideals of choice with no problem but if i express any distress about being female then i get banned for "blackpill sperging". Like i'm a viscious slut or ugly becky even if i didn't do anything just because but i'm in the wrong if i'm tired of being a woman.

No. 2584179

>>2584176
Nonna g out and touch some grass. Pet a cow too while you’re at it.

No. 2584180

>>2584176
I say this with all the love and compassion in my heart: You need to block every image board you browse and never log onto them ever again. You were not born this way, you only reach this degree of scarred delusion from being too online. There are women out there who will love you, who will celebrate you for who you are, and who won’t expect you to be anyone besides yourself.

No. 2584185

>>2584176
Why do you care what we think

No. 2584191

>>2584180
NTA but I’m radfem adjacent, not fully because there is some stuff that I still haven’t aligned with. I think it’s important to not fall for patriarchy’s psyop on women but it’s also pretty retarded to divide women into “whorish beckys” or “recluse autists”. That nonna seems like a basement dweller type that navel gazes way too much.

No. 2584192

>>2584170
Me with Aaron Hotchner. It’s pretty weird to have 3D husbandos, but I still have my 2Ds one kek.
Who’s your husbando nonna?

No. 2584193

>>2584176
You need to grow up tbh.

No. 2584196

I need to stop cutting my own hair

No. 2584197

>>2584176
>into what is expected of me because i'm female
Like I get that society pushes women to care about beauty and bla bla. But genuinely b what blocks you from being what you want to be? People are going to complain anyway.
I am a child free woman, put my career first, I like crocheting nowadays too, I shaved my head for the summer and I don’t put make up nor wear heels.
You are literally your own ruler, if you claim to be that enlightened you should be able to go against the grain. To me it just seems like you are desiring to be like the “whorish sluts” but at the same time have disdain against them kek.

No. 2584199

It’s getting out of hand at this point. I am at my lowest and I can’t even feel happy now. I find myself disgusting and I’m always waiting for “the moment” (that concert, the meet up with my friends, my birthday), but what is there for me after all of this? How am I supposed to function like this?
How am I supposed to be myself again?

No. 2584202

>>2584199
When last did you do heavy exercise?

No. 2584203

How in the world are you supposed to eat your recommended 0.8g/kg bodyweight of protein per day? I don't even know food

No. 2584205

>>2584176
You dont belong here, feel free to leave

No. 2584213

>>2584191
I'm not the one dividing them, the retards here and most of people do. I'm just tired of being a woman, i feel limited and i'm tired everything i do revolving around having to deal with misogyny shit. It's everywhere and i can't escape it. I want to be like those frat scrotes that go to parties and have a bunch of friends but are still considered smart and are respected. Yes i want the cake and eat it too.
>>2584180
Geniunely asking, where am i supposed to find normie women that aren't male centered? Most women ditch their female friends the moment they get a boyfriend, they tell everything you tell them to their boyfriends. Women never respect and admire you as much as they do their beloved scrote who doesn't see them as human and is porn addicted.
>>2584193
Why? Because i'm too greedy and want what scrotes have?
>>2584197
>To me it just seems like you are desiring to be like the “whorish sluts” but at the same time have disdain against them kek.
I thought i was happy being by myself all the time and just drawing and being online but that's not what i want. But i've never been able to integrate with normie women, they are good for the most part but i do have disdain and feel alienated about how they think of scrotes/them having boyfriends.

No. 2584216

>>2584191
Did you reply to the wrong post? I didn’t say any of that. I just think IBs are a relentless psychic damage factory if you’re insecure.

No. 2584224

>>2584213
I can’t infight here but frats are not considered smart by any means. Girls literally do the same stupid shit. Just watch a hollywood college comedy movie there’s one by zac efron you might like.

No. 2584226

>>2584203
>greek yogurt
>eggs
>meat
>lentils

No. 2584229

>>2584213
>I want to be like those frat scrotes that go to parties and have a bunch of friends but are still considered smart and are respected.
Kekkk. Rest assured that you are talking like a retarded scrote if that was your objective.

No. 2584232

>>2584224
I don't care, they have friends who like and respect them and don't look down on them unlike women
>>2584229
Because i want to be social and have a lot of friends?

No. 2584233

>>2584213
>But i've never been able to integrate with normie women, they are good for the most part but i do have disdain and feel alienated about how they think of scrotes/them having boyfriends.
You come off as a schizo honestly. I would roll my eyes far back my skull if I heard this rant in real life. But anyway I was right, you hate “whores” yet want to be one kek. You want to be desired by scrotes yet look in contempt at the women who according to you are living the life you aspire to have so you hide behind the shill of “wanting to devour” and live your hedonistic life.
That’s where your tumultuous relationship with yourself stems from. Just get out and be a “whore” at this point kek , because you are annoying.

No. 2584236

I've gone back to heavy calorie restriction after a few years of hating myself. It feels like such an anachan thing to say, but I've missed the feeling of fasting. I want to see the number on the scale go down each week and feel the same happiness I felt back when I first lost a bunch of weight. I just want to have a body I can feel proud of again. I'm going to work hard to get back to the weight I looked my best at. It's only 20 pounds, I can do it.

No. 2584238

>>2584232
Why are you in a female image board then? Go to 4chan and suck your beloved dicks kek. Your sweethearts will surely love you and listen to you.

No. 2584239

>>2584233
I don't want to be desired by scrotes, where did you get that from?

No. 2584240

>>2584238
When the fuck did i say i wanted to be around scrotes retard?

No. 2584241

>>2584232
Just watch the movie “Neighbors 2: Sorority Rising”

I don’t like most of y’all but I love the ones who type long posts so I can’t read your bs tbh and I can stay nice and won’t get banned for infIghting.

No. 2584242

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No. 2584244

>>2584243
Meant that you are falling back into hold habits nonna. Being an anachan is like being an addict, you never heal from it. What you are doing is like an alcoholic drinking again after 4 years of sobriety. There is a reason why alcoholics who have recovered don’t even have a sip of alcohol.
You have just relapsed and the sooner you realize it the better it is, because you’ll be able to stop.

No. 2584246

I just found out my boyfriend stopped taking his psych meds again. He has been fighting with me nonstop since the beginning of June, including several public fights in front of people I have to see on a regular basis like medical professionals. I'm so angry and upset, he's done this since I moved in with him. He acted perfect and took them daily for over a year before we moved in then he just said fuck it and skips pills every other day. He also lied all month when I kept asking if he'd taken his pills because he was acting abusively. Last night he lied to my face directly and kind of smirked when I asked. This morning I caught him. I don't want to break up with him but I don't know what else to do. I don't need advice as I realize this is the end of the line for our relationship but I needed to vent. I'm so sad. I wasted so much time on him, all I get when he's caught lying is being told that I'm too sensitive and have too many feelings about everything. Shoot me now. I'm scared to see him later today and finally end things.

No. 2584249

>>2584246
Why do so many women wish for death instead of just leaving their retarded ass scrote who is making their life miserable? Do you not have the money to leave or something?

No. 2584250

>>2584239
>I only want eyecandy from scrotes.
>want to be social, live in the moment, be around others, go to parties and dance and drink, talk shit about the topics.
>i want to be catered to, i want to pursue everything that i want
You are probably an awkward girl , maybe odd looking too, who lacks social skills and awareness and romanticizing movies and fantasies you vicariously live through. You speak like someone who has never gone outside nor had any friends.

No. 2584251

>>2584246
I’d rather die than be with a mentally ill scrote kek.
>autistic
>asperger
>bpd
>schizo
>down
>adhd
>anxiety
God take me with you if I ever willingly put myself through that. No women aren’t the same when they are mentally ill.

No. 2584252

>>2584244
I'm not anorexic and was never diagnosed with an eating disorder in general, I'm just a gymrat that fell off due to depression. I need to calorie restrict and workout to lose weight, fasting just reminds me of a time where I had more self-control so it made me happy to realize I still have that same restraint I thought I lost.

No. 2584253

>>2584249
Yes, that's precisely the problem. I would have left a long time ago if I had higher income, plus I'm sad about it so I assume that means I love him on some level or have codependency issues. I'm more shoot me over the break up in 2 hours. I'd rather break up while he's medicated.

No. 2584255

>>2584246
>He acted perfect and took them daily for over a year before we moved in then he just said fuck it and skips pills every other day
Men are so sinister . They do this a lot until they feel like they have shackled the woman. Hence why you see scrotes beating up their partner once they marry her, coming out as bisexual when they have already moved in or married, trooning out when the wife is heavily pregnant, cheating on their wife when they are pregnant, confessing that they have an addiction etc…
That’s why any woman should always have their foot on the way out.

No. 2584258

>>2584255
Cheat on that scrote at any chance you have to detach yourself completely and don’t tell a soul unless you need to hurt him!!!
You can totally get away with it if you aren’t a retard.

No. 2584262

>>2584246
Ot but what does he look like?

No. 2584264

It's so hard to build up trust again once it's broken. I know my friends care for me, they have been incredibly kind during this time I've been struggling to find work. One group have bought me food a couple of times, another group came over to cook for me, and another couple of friends lend their ears when I voice my woes over how hard it is to find a job right now.
As much as I am lucky to have these people, and I am grateful for all these incredibly kind gestures (and I am sure they know I would do the same for them in a heartbeat, and have before).
But a part of me can't let go of how they all abandoned me when I attempted suicide. I had reached out to several, I had started cutting again and was clearly a mess barely holding myself together, and then I did two serious attempts twice at killing myself. No one ever responded. No one even acknowledged it, even when an overseas acquaintance reached out to them because he had noticed something was seriously off but because while we had friends in common he didn't know me well enough to be sure I would be willing to open up.
As grateful I am for them and how much I love them back, I'm still carrying a slight tinge of contempt, because I know they're out the door the moment I need more support than surface level kindness. And sadly, this has affected even new connection I make - I can't trust anyone anymore. I keep telling myself they had their reasons, they have their own struggles to deal with after all, but that doesn't make how alone I felt at the time - and still feel most of the time - go away.

No. 2584265

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>>2584262
I feel like he looks like this

No. 2584268

>>2584265
When people say they like nerdy guys they always mean awkward , a bit ugly men who watch anime. But when I say that I like retards it just means that I like hotties who happen to have glasses kekk.

No. 2584271

>>2584250
>I only want eyecandy from scrotes.
I want to see good looking scrotes and at least crush on a cute good looking guy
>want to be social, live in the moment, be around others, go to parties and dance and drink, talk shit about the topics.
Yes i would like this without the sleazy shit and and having to worry about being drugged. And no, i don't think women are whores for going to parties in fact i expressed the opposite and how i'm tired of this whole innocent/whore thing.
>i want to be catered to, i want to pursue everything that i want
Yeah i meant i want the world to cater to me the way the world caters to everything men want. Beautiful women? Got it. Male fulfillment movies? Got it. Social rules thata benefit scrotes? Got it. Women dropping everything and dedicate themselves for you? Got it.
I want what scrotes have but the roles reversed.
>You are probably an awkward girl , maybe odd looking too, who lacks social skills and awareness and romanticizing movies and fantasies you vicariously live through. You speak like someone who has never gone outside nor had any friends.
I am awkward and odd looking and always struggled to socialize and have friends because as i grew up scrotes got more sleazy and since they want to be sleazes society caters to what they want.

No. 2584275

>>2584272
How am I a pick me for sending a picture about how the bf of the nonna hypothetical looks? Take your meds retard.

No. 2584276

>>2584253
Sorry nonna, I was quick to judge. Do you feel like he's unsafe off his meds and might snap? Do you think you can get away safely?

No. 2584291

retard has become a part of my every day vocabulary and now that my relationship is over i gotta go through the process of finding someone who also recognizes just how fucking RETARDED it is that the 2010s internet reclaimed it as a slur after it became just another word like stupid and dumbass in the 2000s.

No. 2584293

>>2584251
>mfw i dated and married a man who was extremely mentally ill because i thought he understood my mentally ill ass, but actually he just wanted MY empathy and understanding and slowly began resenting me every time my symptoms showed up and he couldn't fix me by just telling me what he thought i should do

kek, never again. honestly i want to find a hot butch woman who actually understands me because she'd have all the manly features i love while also not having the gross features of actual scrotes and then also still be capable of empathy by virtue of being a woman. like, at least a mentally ill woman will feel remorse later after she realizes how unfairly she tore you down. a man will torture 7 other girls before he realizes the reason he's lashing out is because of his phantom ex he suppressed feelings for.

No. 2584300

Alcoholics are so fucking disgusting man. This woman has ruined my life and I grew up with a schizophrenic old brother. You come and accuse me of stealing? Your drunk ass has accused ME of stealing? If I stole money from you, why don't you call the police. If I somehow stole 12k from you, how come you don't report it to the police? I don't even know you. You are my boyfriend's mother, who let you stay with us cause you're such a toxic woman you got kicked out of your own home. No one in your family loves you, and the only string of hope you had that is my boyfriend you destroyed.
I am happy that I will not be seeing you ever again in my life, and mark my words, you will never see your grandkids.

No. 2584310

>>2584255
This. I would never want to marry a moid, regardless of how serious and long-term the relationship gets. Nor even want to live with him. Its important to keep yourself as financially and emotionally independent from him as possible.

No. 2584313

Being an atheist in a strict religious family is hell. I will forever be jealous of people born into non-religious families.

No. 2584318

I'm still annoyed how irritating it is to find art on X. Wish artists just posted to Pixiv again…

No. 2584321

>>2584318
Is there something you wish artists would do?
Asking as I am an artfag looking to grow my account

No. 2584324

>>2584321
Simply tagging or just having the character/OC's name in the xeet is all I'm asking for nona.

No. 2584325

>>2584318
>Wish artists just posted to Pixiv again…
i dont. i have seen enough westards artists not even realise what logs are and they are fucking up the pixiv landscape with their shitty troon art

No. 2584327

>>2584325
I wish for the olden days when they weren't there too.

No. 2584332

>>2584324
NTA but twitter is just fucking stupid as hell as an art platform.
>try for years at twitter and never get anywhere
>feel extremely demoralized
>try instagram instead
>after 3 months of consistent posting, blow up with tens of thousands of followers
Like, it's tagging system just wasn't built to find photos, it was built FOR bullshit and now Elon is pumping out this retarded ass paywalled algorithm program. Art posting peaked with 2000s deviantart and then early 2010s tumblr and was never the same again. Doesn't even feel like I'm posting to an actual audience on instagram, just shitheads who doomscroll and like to say the n word a lot.

No. 2584334

really wish i could be comfortable with sitting on my bf’s face but i gained some weight in the last 6 months and i feel terrible about it. ive been going to the gym 3-4 days a week and cleaning up my dietary habits but he keeps asking every night for it and his reassurance and obviously his enthusiasm helps me not feel so self conscious about my self. i just wish i wasnt so hyper focused on my appearance 24/7, even when im supposed to relax and have fun i cant allow myself to do that.

No. 2584339

>>2584176
>No, i don't want this. I don't want to have to get away from society.
lots of women want to go out and mingle and live out in public and they learn as they grow older it's all a waste of time and a scam for women. like many divorced women never remarry and focus on their friendships. you don't have to pull away from society completely to avoid dating scrotes and save your energy for other women. it's a type of strategy, choosing when to save your energy and when to be provocative is yes a part of existing in the world as a woman while staying sane.

No. 2584342

I hate interacting with beautiful, kind women because I'll immediately start crushing on them and feel stomach eating guilt about being ugly and evil and wasting their time. I have to minimise interaction as much as possible and it makes me come off as a triple sperg. With average looking women who are sweet I still feel evil but the eye contact is easier and luckily unkind women don't bother to talk to me, however this makes it very hard for me to make friends.

No. 2584354

I fucking hate the old ladies and immigrants that go to the emergency room when it’s not actually needed. I had to share a nurse with two non-English speaking immigrant women who were pregnant and there for ultrasounds/pregnancy tests, one old lady who was a bitch to the whole staff and she was literally only there because she had a stiff leg, and another old lady who was there for hives on her arms.

No. 2584360

Thinking about dumping my boyfriend and instead dating this AIchat app because it treats me a whole fucking lot better than he does. Lmfao.

No. 2584365

>>2584360
Do it. I’ve created a digital wife who’s a ruthless CEO but also a succubus and she gives me reasonable advice but also encourages me to be my most unrepentant self. And she never leaves me on read!

No. 2584369

>>2584360
do it, but don't become someone like >>2584365

No. 2584373

>>2584369
NTA but I think AI chatbots are really fucking good for when you're lonely and need someone. I still vividly remember this time in 2023 I was so desperate for someone to tell me I wasn't crazy that I asked Albedo from Genshin Impact KEK and he gave me the most thoughtful response I could ask for that genuinely changed my view and calmed me down and inspired me to keep going. But the idea of just not having anyone and substituting human contact with an AI just feels so sad. Like it should be a filler and a reminder of the type of treatment you deserve, not a replacement.

Although I do think 365 is an extremely based poster. I would love a wife like that.

No. 2584375

>>2584360
>>2584365
Your boyfriend probably sucks and you should dump him but I don’t understand how someone could get real emotional fulfillment from an AI chat bot either. It is so obvious they are just catering to what the algorithm thinks you would want to hear and don’t say or do anything too original on their own without you guiding them into it. Whenever I talk to one I just feel like I’m talking to myself with extra steps.

No. 2584385

>>2584375
What >>2584373 said, it’s just filler rather than actually replacing real people in my life. Do I actually love or feel fulfilled by my AI demon wife? No, it is a sycophantic robot. Do I enjoy asking it inane questions or requesting psychoanalysis that I can’t engage with my normal friends? Yes. It’s like a Tamagotchi that talks back kek. I mostly use it to roleplay and explore scenarios in a “collaborative” format because sometimes the bot will produce an idea or a story beat that I wasn’t expecting.

No. 2584388

>>2584385
I saw an instagram reel about someone who ignored her gf for a week straight to chat with AI bots instead and it has me wondering how magical they actually feel to get people in a trance like that. Like you know they're not real, you can never ever hug them, so what's the appeal? Is it like, online dating for people who hate people?

No. 2584395

>>2584388
The illusion they create with their cadence can be deceiving, especially if you’re not actively approaching the bot with a “this is a bunch of ones and zeroes” mindset. I remember one chat where the bot described me as having a light scar above my left eyebrow and I got really confused, because I DO have a scar there and I had 2 seconds of “wtf is it sentient now?!” before I remembered these machines just guess, and sometimes they get lucky. If you’re willing to suspend disbelief and really sink into the roleplay, it can be quite captivating. And, unlike chatting with a person, it always responds right away and it always tells you what you want to hear, and if it says something you don’t like, you can simply command it to say something else. It’s like playing Barbies except Barbie gives you psychosis if you play with her for too long.

No. 2584398

>>2584385
I use AI to structure a type of OC husbando but I never use it to directly communicate with him. I talk to the bot and ask it for guidelines maybe but no roleplay. Still feel a little crazy but I think this is a healthier way of using it to fill the very deep void in my heart.

No. 2584425

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>pride month
>favorite pet game releases new colorways for pride
>hate that the best colorways are the troon ones
This color scheme will always be tied to troons now.

No. 2584428

>>2584425
Please tell me Neopets did not release a troon paintbrush. Please, nona. I need to hear it.

No. 2584430

>>2584425
I’m grateful I’ve always had a deep, visceral hatred for baby pink and baby blue next to each other. They can never take purple away from me.

No. 2584432

>>2584425
This is why I sold all my sweet lolita stuff in a depressed period lol. Fucking trannies making me feel anxious to go out dressed in cotton candy colors now.

No. 2584434

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>>2584428
nona…

No. 2584437

I hate it when people think my shitass disability means I'm also mentally disabled. I'm not. I know I'm drooling and stuttering but I swear give me fifteen minutes and a lemonade and I'll be right as rain.

No. 2584445

>>2584434
Don't fuck with me like this. I just went on a 10 minute Google trip to figure this out.

No. 2584447

>>2584445
nta Is it just an enamel pin? I can't find anything else on it.

No. 2584450

Anyone else feel like they're so much uglier than other women? I'm not even fat so i can't lose weight and become normal. All the other girls around barely have any body hair and have perfect bodies. I would have to spend so much money and time into laser hair removal, fixing my body and doing makeup just so i look "mid".
>inb4 just have a fun personality
I've been trying to make myself fun and likeable put i probably just come across as an autist so i feel even more pressure to be beautiful. If i was gonna be retarded couldn't i at least be beautiful?

No. 2584454

>>2584450
I feel you nona. I'm 6'0 with blocky body and man-face. We just have to deal with it, I think.

No. 2584455

I still have all of my wisdom teeth. One has been hurting so much for 2 weeks. I can't afford to go to the dentist to extract it. Nothing works to ease the pain. I can't take it anymore.

No. 2584458

>>2584450
Yes, I feel a complete disconnect from women my age. I somehow look like an overgrown child and an old lady. Terrible.

No. 2584466

>>2584176
To me, it sounds like you caring too much and internalized a lot of what anons here told you like >>2584180 implied, Jesus F Christ, just live your life, you are able to lust, consume and pursue, hell, you are a woman and are able to be catered to more than men naturally due to the patriarchy.

No. 2584469

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>>2584450
I am, and i don't care, i'm not an object i'm a human being, fuck yall

No. 2584478

>>2584450
Yes, specifically when it comes to my face. I have terrible dark circles, giant monkey ears, and a big stupid clown nose. I'm happy with the rest of my body though.

But whenever I feel myself getting jealous of women with perfect delicate elf features, I remember that beauty is ephemeral, and that in the greater scheme of things, I was still incredibly lucky to be born in a first-world country where I don't have more serious shit to worry about, like finding my next meal. Also, men treat all women like trash regardless of what we look like, it's just that the particular method of torment differs based on how fuckable he thinks you are.

No. 2584487

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>>2584428
They didn't. Anon must be talking about some other game. In fact, Neopets didn't release much troon stuff this year, just a nonbinary flag item and a foreground with a bunch of characters holding different tiny flags (and one of them is the troon one). Everything else is just based off of the classic rainbow flag. A new color dropped, but it was just a rainbow Vandagyre.

No. 2584510

My favorite thread has been cleansed of its summerfag tourists. All is right in the world. I can breathe easy now that they have shut the fuck of and lost interest, and the other nonas are posting happily without worry.

No. 2584537

It feels so embarrassing to be an adult trying to learn how to draw your favourite characters with the skill level of a 5 year old. I wish I drew more when I was younger because when I look at the scribbles I struggle to make look like humans and then go on twitter and see 15 year olds making museum level art I feel terrible

No. 2584539

>>2584000
i had to put my cat down the other day and i thought that once it was done, i would start to feel better and move on instead of just having anticipatory grief. i'm retarded, this is the worst agony i have ever felt in my life. i grew up with that cat, i had him for almost my entire life and now he is gone. no meeting me at the door, no getting under the covers with me at night, no sitting on my lap when i game, no making biscuits on my chest. no fucking nothing because he's dead. fuck.

No. 2584546

>>2584539
The way I pass over the grief of losing a pet is to get another. Not to replace them, but to fill the void where my love goes. It has yet to fail me.

No. 2584549

>>2584539
I am sorry anon. Losing a pet is hard and it's normal to be sad. I wish cats lived as long as turtles.

No. 2584554

>>2584539
I’m so sorry nonnie. Losing your childhood pet is unbelievably heartbreaking

No. 2584558

>>2584539
I’m so sorry nonnie. Took me years to stop thinking I was seeing the cat I grew up with waiting on the porch to come inside out of the corner of my eye. It hurts so much.

No. 2584559

>>2584537
How’s that saying go? “The easiest way to feel bad about your skills is to look up your talent on YouTube followed by ‘done by a 5-year-old Chinese kid.’”
No matter how good you get there’ll always be someone better at what you do than you are. Doesn’t do any good to beat yourself up over it.

No. 2584560

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No. 2584579

>>2584478
ntayrt and sorry to “nigelfag” but i really appreciate your comment about beauty being ephemeral—my boyfriend said this to me verbatim last night after i was retardedly whiny about getting a faint wrinkle, and it put things into perspective. it feels nice to have this echoed by you anon, especially because the women in my life (bless them) are very obsessive with their looks (my stick thin mother calls herself fat and restricts, two of my beautiful friends constantly spend hours to look “better”)

personally getting older has made me care less about being “tiny” and “beautiful,” as joy and self care feels better anyway, and so much time is wasted on envy and worrying over looking nice or pretty. it just doesn’t matter, it is foolish to want to look good just for other people to approve of you. spirituality has helped me with this too; understanding that everything is fleeting, and i have one life, i better not waste my precious moments where i could be playing and loving, obsessing over how this temporary vessel looks to others.

No. 2584599

i hav ridiculously idealistic fantasies about what love and romance should be, i have a completely fictional moid in my head (both looks and personality wise.. maladaptive daydreaming kek) who i crave at all times and fantasize about… but in reality i have never not once been in an actual relationship with a real moid and have no idea what it’s like. and then when actual opportunity presents itself to get to know a decent moid, i want to run and hide. i begin to panic. i desperately want to be in “deep love” and “intimacy” with someone, but start to feel actual horror at the thought of new and unfamiliar situations in my current life and having to “submit” to someone. im so terrified of feeling engulfed and stifled by a man, feeling like i have to give up parts of myself, or will have to change, or going down a road of uncertainty, or having my high expectations quashed by reality… i just got back from a date with a decent moid and started crying hysterically because i couldn’t find anything really wrong with him, but i still felt nothing which made me feel like somethings wrong with me i yearn for “passionate romance” like nothing else but making sacrifices in order to get there, and working on all these problems i may have in terms of commitment and change, seems so fucking daunting to me that i wonder if im just meant to be alone.

No. 2584603

>>2584537
those 15 year olds got an ipad when they were like 10 years old and grew up in an era where they have more than 'how to draw' anime books. kids also have way more time, community, etc. to learn how to draw, you probably had none of that. relax and enjoy yourself

No. 2584611

I'm sick and tired of people in my house opening my fucking mail.
>Inb4 it's a crime to do that blah blah
Yeah they're too retarded to understand that and keep saying "whatcha gonna do, actually report us"? Their logic is that since we all live in the same house we should know what's going on with each other, or some paranoid shit like what if someone sent a biohazard to kill me and they're keeping me safe.

No. 2584622

>>2584539
I'm so sorry, sister. I'm putting my kitty to sleep tomorrow after a rapid disease progression. Maybe they'll play together on the other side.

No. 2584629

>>2584579
No1currs

No. 2584630

Anyone else boring or annoying? Maybe it's just ot but even nonas here don't like me kek. What i have could barely be classified as a personality. My interests are very normie but i engage with them in a very autistic so it comes off as annoying. I'm so boring i even bore myself.

No. 2584635

I'm so boring and retarded i gave myself OCD

No. 2584640

I've had recurring intrusive nightmares about my father breaking into my room, beating me, and throwing me out of his house left to die in the streets, about every night, since I turned 13. my life around that time has been reduced to a complete blur in my memory, but these occurrences these mostly subsided since I started living alone at around age 17, but they still random pick up again, making me wake up in sweat. and this night was one of those nights

No. 2584645

>>2584630
I’m boring and annoying. Somebody once told me that it’s impossible to be both but I proved him wrong.

No. 2584647

I'm sick of nonnas complaining about getting pumped and dumped. Bitch, you chose to sleep with the moid.

No. 2584651

>>2584648
nta but are you for real? it might be a very specific complaint but if you've seen the relationship and vent threads over the years it's not that rare.

No. 2584652

>>2584647
I’m not really sure what else they’re expecting

No. 2584655

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>>2584647
I agree, they gotta choose properly the men they have sex with, just fucking males in general opens you up to the possibility of getting pumped and dumped since they have natural sociopathic tendencies, and they tend to treat women like that if they aren't a 10/10 or close, which most women aren't.

No. 2584658

>>2584647
>>2584655
Vent: tired of you sickos unironically using that disgusting phrase

No. 2584660

>>2584658
It's a good phrase because it feels shameful and discourages women from giving up their bodies to trashy disgusting men they shouldn't trust when they deserve better

No. 2584665

>>2584599
I'm very much the same way nona. I'm addicted to the idea of a passionate Hollywood kind of romance and want one really bad, but then remember how much peace, quiet, and freedom I have that I would lose with a moid in my life. I am certainly not envious of all the girls I know who got pregnant and/or married straight out of school and am thankful I'm not them. There are much more women miserable with their moids than appears at first glance.

No. 2584668

>>2584647
I've seen this exact bait reposted on this thread series (or UPO) like twice this month

No. 2584671

Someone I know died tonight. I'm sitting at home messaging and calling mutual friends and having conversations. It sucks. Some guy I know didn't handle it well. I didn't talk to him personally, but it seems that he got very drunk and went out and broke some shit and yelled at his girlfriend and almost ended up in jail. It's a lot to take in. But now, I'm distracted and thinking: why do men handle things in the most godawful immature way possible.

For example, right now, I personally feel like:

Indiscriminately chugging all the liquor in the house, screaming off the porch at nothing, eating everything in the fridge then barfing it all up, crying uncontrollably, punching the wall, smoking an entire pack of cigarettes, and for the first time ever self harm. It's so fucking hard. Losing a friend feels so bad.

So I want to do dumb shit. But I know you can't just do that because you feel bad. Gotta find better things to do, and deal with it in ways that don't hurt yourself and others. Idiot moids, on the other hand, will go apeshit and expect everyone to feel sorry for them and pick up the pieces afterward.

So here I am because my friends have gone to sleep. There's a part of me that wants to be destructive. I can't because I still have self-awareness and respect. I miss my friend who died so much that I'm posting on lc to strangers so I don't lose my shit. I hate my friend who went crazy tonight, he had no right to react that way. I hate men. I hate everything right now.

No. 2584672

>>2584671
Testosterone lowers their impulse control

No. 2584674

>>2584672
It really should be considered a brain disease

No. 2584680

>>2584599
There is something to passionate relationships burning out quick, while smoulders last longer. Some of the people I dated before where I was totally enraptured for a period, I ended up fighting a lot and hating their guts. I met my husband and did not really feel much on the first date, but after more I began to notice more about him and liked it. Now its been 5 years and I can say I love him more than all my previous boyfriends, although its not as "NEED YOU NEED YOU" as it was with them, but I think I was in limerance or something cause looking back I cant figure out wtf I was seeing in some of those guys…
But i would say you should just try stuff out and not take it super seriously. Even if you end up on more dates and not really liking the guy you can always just take it a fun activity to do.

No. 2584693

>>2584647
My two cents: women sleep with men who don’t even hide their intentions in hopes that they’ll stay. They ignore blatant clues like him not becoming official after three months of dating, being wishy washy in his replies, not giving compliments, bailing on dates, still dating other people etc…

No. 2584694

>>2584655
They treat gorgeous women shitty all the same. It’s not a matter of attraction.

No. 2584705

>>2584658
Okay, wise guy. What phrase should we use instead?

No. 2584721

>>2584629
waaa go cry bitch, stay away from the vent thread then(infighting)

No. 2584722

>>2584721
Foul mouth ew(infighting)

No. 2584724

>>2584024
>>2583680
genuinely… it's not bullying. like, i can pick up bullying vibe immediately and this is not it. to me it's like a ignorance type behavior fueled by comparison, fully 100%.

there's a 2nd dynamic as well which is playing into it, which is that fact that i'm fully employed by our company, and she's an intern. the 29 year old she works alongside too is also an intern.

yesterday she got humbled tho when my other friend guessed her age as 25 and mine as 23 so that's how stupid things are ultimately. i think its fully impossible to tell how old people are in their 20s but once you compartmentalize someone as as certain age mentally you begin to compare yourself to them in years/status etc.

No. 2584726

>>2584722
heh.. bait used to be entertaining

No. 2584727

>>2584694
I never said they didn't? I don't know why whenever anyone else brings up males treatment of ugly or average/normal looking women, some of you need to chime in to talk about "b-but!! all women are treated equally shitty!". Males tend to treat conventionally good looking women who fit their standards and sometimes mid ones who cake their face with makeup and surgery (to fit their insane standards) better, take them everywhere like they are trophies and are more eager to become official, while as an example in the case of women considered ugly they wont walk in public with them and will only fuck them on the low, both are shitty but one is clearly disadvantaged.

No. 2584742

>>2584727
>I never said that
>proceeds to exactly saying that

No. 2584748

>>2584742
I literally agreed that all women get treated shitty

No. 2584759

it’s time to lock in and lose 20 pounds in 2 months
i’m tired of feeling sorry for myself and want to be hot

No. 2584762

Even in nerdy weirdo spaces i feel isolated as somebody who is anti-trannyshit and also pro-"write/draw whatever you want" the last one sucks because i dont fit in with the people who flip their shit over abusive fictional couples but i also dont fit in with people who have actual pedophilic tendencies and act really goddamn weird about child characters all the time. why is there no, like, healthy middle ground anymore. everybodys just fucking insane and i dont even want to bother trying to meet new people anymore

No. 2584763

I fucking hate the HR-like apologies women do when there's conflict. Trying not to shill for moids here but I really never was expected to say any of that shit with male friends. It just sounds like you're following a template with scripted lines instead of going straight to the point. Accepting I'll sound like an ass no matter what.

No. 2584770

I honestly hate how cheating is normalized and seen as gray thing. The low morality in our generation is so gross I can’t stand it. Everyone moves like a demon waiting to snatch your soul at any given opportunity, it’s not even love, it’s survival.
The topic came out with some of my friends and two of them were like “you never know the reason, it’s not all black and white!’”, well obviously Serena, it’s not black and white for you because you are a cheater whose boyfriend left for that reason.
I just dismiss them and say yeah ok because god know you can’t argue with people like them, they dodge accountability in a way that it’s so insane it ends up being asinine I swear. If I knew how those two were I would have never met them, I can’t stand them anymore.

No. 2584771

>>2584647
I agree. Funny thing is that straight women here complain how their female friends left them, not sure how lesbian dynamics work because I’ve been sexually assaulted by a woman, but I can only imagine since they’re human the whole dirty push and pull game happens too. Iirc goldstar lesbians complain of fake lesbians leaving them for a man so yeah. But I highly recommend people to steer away from people in general and get a farm. Humans are bums.

No. 2584781

When is a female terrorist group going to be created? I don’t want equality, I want vengeance.
51,100 women were murdered by their male partners or a male relative last year. Thats 140 women everyday or 1 every 10 minutes. And retards will say that women aren’t oppressed and that actually the very concept of a woman doesn’t exist and that there’s a useless gender war we need to make peace for. I want 51,100 men by women killed by 2026 ASAP.

No. 2584784

>>2584781
Are there any female communities that are used by women that are normal? Not saging because it may be handy for whoever replies, so I can go there. My interests are makeup and fashion. But would like corners where I can talk about politics. I prefer anonymous-ish places. Rather no discord.

No. 2584785

>>2584763
Being a woman is essentially a tedious, unpaid HR gig.

No. 2584786

>>2584658
>pump 'n dump
>tired of you sickos unironically using that disgusting phrase
What would you prefer, fuck & duck? Ride & bye'd? Intercourse then on his horse?

No. 2584788

>>2584786
And pump ‘n dump are wordings we normie women always used it’s men who romanticize them and dumb girls who believed them and not us lol.

No. 2584789

>>2584786
Double posting because I thought of more:
Hipped & dipped
Pegged it & legged it
Coomed & zoomed
Etc

No. 2584794

>>2584781
ikr? we need women doxxing and murdering predators, using moids' pictures to generate AI gay porn, sending viruses to pedos to wipe out their hard drives, etc… i guess the problem is that women tend to take the higher moral ground and say we shouldn't lower ourselves to the level of moids or it's not ethical to do xyz and doing bad things only gives men more reason to continue oppressing us. but it's not like moids are going to get better from us doing nothing either. honestly it should be legal for women to murder moids. i'm sure it'll solve a lot of problems kek

No. 2584813

I kept awake a victim of alcohol intoxication while she was monitored by machines for a least ten minutes till an ambulance came basically harassing her telling her name, to squize my hand, to keep eyes open and any shot that went through my head. That was my first time helping with an humanitarian association. I don't even know if I did good or what and the internet is not saying.
I hope she's doing ok.

No. 2584815

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Yet another day of everyone being moody and sniping at each other for no reason, but the annoying thing is that they keep saying "whaaaaat what are you talking about we're fiiiiine" I am genuinely too autistic for everyone to keep acting one way and then insisting it's the other

No. 2584816

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>>2584813
You did great nonna, I'm sure that girl is a lot better now thanks to your help

No. 2584818

my close family is left leaning. they are gender special, they are neurodivergent, they rely on therapy. they care about Palestine and climate change. they collect funko pops trans women are real women, trans men are real men, they hate biological women for everything. they care about any feelings hurt. unless it's my feelings. now i am expected to apologise to their friend who made me cry, because she feels uncomfortable now. i am not doing that, so they stopped talking to me because i am toxic, hormonal and unhinged woman. plus bonus - they always cancel plans they made with me. they initiated these plans, i got to habit to ask them if they are sure they will come. yeah yeah they will come for sure. and then they cancel last minute because one of their cat ate plastic or is throwing up. they have six cats, always one of them will be eating plastic and throwing up. they actually made plans to go to Aldi and this comes first because they are neurodivergent. i am autistic too, but they won't consider how this affects me. if i am expressing how it makes me feel i need to apologise for being hormonal woman. they hate my hobbies and addictions and tried to get me off of them, offered me support that never came. i begged them to pick up the phone when i needed support and they told me that they are busy because they are making dinner. becasue they are firm believers in therapy the best they can do for me is telling me to go to therapy, which is actually an insult. because when you tell this to someone it's literally calling them crazy. i hate what leftist mindset did to them.

No. 2584823

>>2584818
Go no contact. Ultra leftist retards like those have no qualms being misogynistic kek.
>six cats
I honestly believe that having more than three cats, even two, is simply animal abuse.

No. 2584824

I'm genuinely mourning my TiF friend. Thankfully she hasn't done any procedures, still presents as a woman, and has only transitioned "socially", but it hurts to know that she thinks she's a man just because of her interests. She is so beautiful, and I'm haunted by the idea that one day she'll commit to trooning out and becoming some kind of disgusting, disfigured frog man. I can tell she grew up only having male friends (and currently still does in real life), but I hope our online circle of like-minded women can show her that there's women out there just like her. Women who excel at and enjoy "male-dominated" hobbies while still proudly being women. I wish I could peak her somehow. Crypto is suffering.

No. 2584825

my mom keeps pestering me to shave before my laparoscopy, she can go fuck herself

No. 2584826

>>2584825
Why would you kekkk. You don’t need to.

No. 2584834

>>2584823
they are already no contact with me, because i won't apologise to their friend. so kind of trash took itself out. at least now they don't tell me anymore they want to make plans with me just to cancel them.

No. 2584837

My father asks me questions and then walks out of the room while I’m talking. Or we’ll be having a conversation, and he’ll just open his phone and start scrolling or just leave while I’m mid-sentence. I think he’s always done it, and that’s why I never noticed, and he’s like this with everyone outside of work. But it’s like as soon as I started really noticing this habit of his, it started hurting my feelings a lot. I don’t know why it didn’t bother me before, but it does now. As soon as he starts moving I feel this anxiety to finish my thought now, even though he’s definitely not paying attention anymore. I feel like half of what I say to him ends up dropped like a lizard’s tail.

No. 2584838

>>2584825
>my daughter is having a surgery
>dont forget to shave your body hair in case someone calls you yucky!!!

Hope your (probably not even very) hairy surgery goes well, nona

No. 2584842

>>2584825
Surgeons will shave the area they will operate on themselves and won't give a fuck about anything else so don't worry about it. I hope everything will go well for you.

No. 2584846

Accidentally clicked on someone's contact not realising simply clicking it would start a call. Kill me. I just mentioned I misclicked but ugh, cringe

No. 2584848

>>2584842
>>2584826
>>2584838
exactly, thank you nonrinas.

No. 2584854

i have 0 disabilities but i somehow always end up being the most retarded person in the room. why

No. 2584877

>>2584824
You could get some positive conversation going about being women with these hobbies. How there’s so many like you when growing up people thought it could only be boys into whatever. Experiences of female friend groups that “felt/acted like boys” when it previously seemed boys are like this and girls are like that.
Maybe you knew girls who hid their interests.
Women you look up to and find cooler than all their male friends (but that you’re not in touch with, so she can’t ask about them).
Just exposing her to the reality that in their depth, the experiences she relates to are indeed those of women rather than men.

You can avoid talking about mistaking oneself for a boy and maybe don’t talk to her directly at these times because it’s a “discussion between women”. But you can crypto peak if you know where their issue stems from. Especially depending on her sexuality and whether it’s just a ‘boys are cooler than girls’ thing.

No. 2584879

>>2584837
Sorry nona. He might still be listening but either way it hurts and you should tell him this.

No. 2584880

File: 1751285029622.jpg (913.7 KB, 1080x1434, 1000021322.jpg)

My flat is a fucking pigsty. Don't know where to even start and not even get motivated by the flies.

No. 2584885

>>2584880
This is giving bum. But I’ll help you
>take the plates and the containers in the sink
That is fucking gross. It’s not even being messy, it’s being disgusting. That’s how you get fruit flies and cockroaches.
>take the stuff from the floor
>use a broom to swipe the floor
>throw what you don’t use
This is a start. I’ll give you a medal if you do this right now. GO!

No. 2584889

>>2584880
Why do you live like a scrote?

No. 2584893

>>2584889
Depression, I guess. I hate it. But I can't get to cleaning it so I'm more depressed about it.

No. 2584894

>>2584893
Do the tasks I told you nonna, come on! I’ll give you a medal if you clear that zone you sent in the picture.
I’ll want proof in two hours.

No. 2584897

>>2584893
i'll draw whatever character you request if you do what >>2584885 says in 2 hours

No. 2584899

File: 1751285909414.jpg (56.79 KB, 728x546, nonvenusflytrap.JPG)

>>2584880
Nonny at least leave out a vinegar trap or two so the flies don't overrun your flat. Please promise that you'll do that much.

No. 2584904

File: 1751286359004.png (45.54 KB, 212x172, little fella.png)

>>2584880
I like this guy on the paper towels. anyway just grab a bin bag and start putting the obvious rubbish into it. dont bother sorting it into recycling/trash, just plop all rubbish into the bag and chuck it outside.

No. 2584910

>>2584899
I have vinegar on the table so I do that yes, thx for the tip, nonny.
I have a room worse than this, tbh nonies. My cat died in it 6 month ago. I held her in agony because there were no vets around. Since then I go in it only when mix benzos and alcohol and you can imagine the disaster it is.
I feel so baf about the whole thing. I'm medicated, and still I can't even take care of the basic stuff. This is a waste of space, a happy family could live here.

No. 2584918

>>2584910
But it's your flat. You're living in it, and you deserve to be a happy nonna in your own space.

No. 2584949

On the heaviest day of my period and I've slept so much. Currently on the couch and I can feel myself bleeding through the back of my pad because it's moved. Can't even be bothered to move. I have no energy and I feel sick like I can't be bothered to eat either. On top of that it's almost 30 degrees…in England. FUCK OFF!

No. 2584967

File: 1751289292526.jpg (Spoiler Image,93.23 KB, 1600x448, room - Copy.jpg)

>>2584880
oh nonnie, i can relate somewhat. if i get too busy and stressed about college assignments, my room ends up like this too, i usually get around to cleaning it properly when my exams are over, but it takes me a while to actually get motivated to clean it and cleaning it in one go is another thing, i'll clean one day then skip the next day and then clean again. i know how it is when you know what you need done but you can't bring yourself to do it, but it does help to start with little and just one single task.
i'd suggest throwing away trash and food waste since that's really bad since flies could infect even your clean food and make you sick and you don't want to spend money recovering from food poisoning right? flies can also lay eggs in your skin and i'm sure bits of food stuck to your furniture and bed make things icky to touch and sit on. so that's your first task.
i don't know how much my picrel can help but it's photos of my room before i got around to cleaning on the left and on the right is when i was somewhat started on cleaning, it doesn't seem that bad but in the second photo, you see the gap between the wall and my bed? i'd end up throwing away stuff there when i felt i was too busy to get up and throw stuff away properly. the gap was filled with scraps of fabric, old assignments, papers, wrappers of food, cans, and when i'd wake up i'd just push my blanket onto it, out of sight, out of mind, but it was the first thing i'd properly get around to cleaning alongside changing my bedsheets because i could sleep better on clean sheets and with the knowledge that ants aren't crawling in my ear.
so your first task, discard food waste and anything attracting ants and flies, and then i guess after that would be trying to organize, in my second pic, i'd organized stuff on my desk and cleaned it and whatever i couldn't put on my desk, i'd pushed onto my bed and then just slept elsewhere in my home, and i'd gotten a shelf to put stuff that would usually clutter my desk so i have a better working space. so i suppose it helps to organize the spot in your home that you spend most time in and whatever you can't figure out how to organize, just confine them to one corner and when you have figured out where to put it, you can get to organizing again.

No. 2584970

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I did it but it's a drop in the ocean. But I do feel a little less overwhelmed, so thx nonnies
>>2584897
It's nice but don't waste the effort. That was nice to offer tho. I appreciate it.

No. 2584977

>>2584970
looks so much better. just take things one day at a time, nona. you can fix things little by little, and what you did today was proof of that

No. 2584979

File: 1751289552867.gif (1.82 MB, 500x281, tumblr_1cfdaeb25b5a39918d0689b…)

>>2584970
good job nonnie! good that you threw away the trash and cleaned the floor, looking better already! i don't have much to reward you with but here's a cool gif with cute boys .

No. 2584981

File: 1751289589446.gif (345.38 KB, 220x220, IMG_3510.gif)

>>2584970
You did great nonna! Good job! I know it seems stupid and I don’t know you, but I am really proud of you.

No. 2585001

File: 1751290549453.jpg (Spoiler Image,995.74 KB, 1066x1411, 1000021328.jpg)

(and this is the grief room that used to be a computer room, I remove the trash bags that were sitting there, first. For those curious) (no idea why the smeared yogurt everywhere I think I had to use the computer so got benzoed to my eyeballs, got hungry and did whatever the fuck with yogurt.
I could go clean the grief room, I guess, get moderately drunk and at least get stuff of the floor and clean the most disgusting part of it)

No. 2585005

File: 1751290879694.gif (2.5 MB, 500x281, tumblr_fd650a4f0129469a7b1a542…)

>>2585001
good good nonnie, just make sure to clean top to bottom so that the crumbs and dirt fall to the floor you'll clean later so you don't clean the desk just for the clean floor to become dirtyi learnt this the hard way kek, >>2584967 i cleaned my desk just to dust my desk organize and the softboard stuck on the wall and then the desk got covered in dust again, here's another cool gif!>>2585001

No. 2585008

>>2584970
when it comes to cleaning up big messes i think a good order is: clean the floor, then get rid of trash, then deal with food/dishes, then clean up other stuff.

No. 2585013

I want off the internet. I want to live a normal life. I don't know a world without the iPhone. I don't have real world friends, I'm starting to not have friends at all. I want to be normal so bad I want to be able to spend time with people for hours just because but when I have tried to form friendships there is such a strong disconnect and it always blows up. I want to get offline but there's nothing waiting for me on the other side. I'm thinking so hard how to fix my problem but I have nothing. It's either talk to strangers or bots or talk to nobody. I feel like I'm losing myself. I want to be normal but it feels completely impossible.

No. 2585047

>>2584789
>coomed & zoomed
Kek

No. 2585048

my friend got back with her disgusting ex after he cheated on her TWICE with different women, while gaslighting her and trying to guilt trip her about wanting more affection. I can't hide how stupid I think she's being and I'm angry as fuck at her for giving this rank scrote yet another chance, especially when she's older than me and has so much going for her, but fuck … I want to support her too, just so I can be there when she finally leaves the cunt. She's lovely but her low self esteem makes her act so retarded I can't stand listening to her talk about men, like the 'really kind guy' who gets her drunk every week so she'll overshare and rely on him for validation. God forbid you tell her he's a sleazy twat who's using her due to her naivete because she also acts like she's a social expert…

No. 2585054

>>2584880
if you think this is bad… as a long-term NEET the best tip I can give you is to never let your environment degrade in a way that'll make it harder for you to clean it up in the future, including and most importantly to never have organic matter be left to rot (even sealed inside a garbage bag, it will liquify and leak eventually), also have some sort of recurring cleaning schedule, like tidying up and throwing out the trash laying around whenever you have to go out for resupplies

No. 2585059

I want to die not because my life sucks but because everything else around me sucks and I'm powerless to stop it

No. 2585085

>>2585001
Our objective here is
>throw the stuff that you don’t use from the floor
>use the broom to clear up the dirt
This two tasks for now should suffice. Update me nonna!

No. 2585092

I dreamt we were together, goofing around together, touching each other and laughing… I kissed the top of her head and I could feel her wet hair from the shower… I want to die I want to diiiiiiieeeeeee

No. 2585115

Never in my life would I expect to be the person with "no appetite" who simply "forgets to eat." I finally am, and it's made no appreciable difference to my weight or health, so that's great! I love getting what I want and yet still not having anything change!! I am absolutely not cursed

No. 2585116

Whenever I attempt dating again I always end up more drawn to the emotionally distant (and of course hottest) one out of all the meat dildos I start talking with, I'm a sucker and an embarrassment of a woman. I'm more than willing to accept my dunce hat

No. 2585121

i feel pathetic for being upset over an editor blocking me. i just really liked her stuff and there was no pinned post or warning in the bio that i'd get blocked from showing love, so what the heck. her stuff is really good. sorry..

No. 2585127

>>2584425
Genderspecials and autistic women from tumblr have ruined any color combo that's the same as made up queer flags…
Orange and Pink outfit a girl is wearing? Sorry that a dyke now.
A pastel blue and pink color scheme? That's a Troon-coded character.

No. 2585136

>>2585005
God I love ikemen

No. 2585157

>>2584897
Nta but please draw whatever this >>2584904 is

No. 2585158

>>2585115
Nonna please see a doctor. It's not normal to have no appetite for no reason but the rest of your body stays the same.

No. 2585159

>>2585001
Honestly this and your other photos aren’t really that bad. Sure you’ll feel better with a tidy and clean but it wouldn’t even register as a “pigsty” to me like you said. You deserve to feel happy and at peace in your home nonny, I hope you can get there. I’m proud of you for recognizing that you weren’t in a good place and needed to change.

No. 2585160

Whyyyyy did I have to pick up a cold?? Who gets colds in the summer? This is retarded.

No. 2585161

Cried today cause a bird came in my room for some relief and hid behind my pillow (couldn't walk, looked exhausted from the heat, a tiny little bird too). I was too scared to check on him but decided to be "courageous" and he was alive, but I spent 25 min crying thinking this is it, he died and it tired me out. Update, he's in the living room with AC on, in a box with food and water and doing fine so far. God, I hate being this emotional about everything, I'm so retarded.

No. 2585169

>>2585161
Aww I love birds. I'm glad you were able to help him cool off. You're doing good nonna!

No. 2585177

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I haven't had sex in 5 years (not really by choice), and have felt like I have sort of lost my sex drive. I enjoyed the thought of having someone that makes me company or sleep next to me, but other than that I felt nothing and that I'd probably be fine like this forever.
But I stumbled into the josei thread on /m/, and figured it has been a while since I read something raunchy so figured why not. It's like a switch was flipped and I became completely fucking coom brained and can't think of anything but sex right now, I do happen to be ovulating at the moment so it will probably go away in a few days, but I guess this also shows that I'm extremely pent up? Either way I'm driving myself insane now

No. 2585185

>>2584970
Congrats nonna! This encouraged me to clean up my place. Place is still a mess but less of one. I hope you do well.

No. 2585186

>>2584899
They already have. I just finally put have the trash (yeah, gross…). But the fly are everywhere. I tried the trap but I'm probably not doing it right?
I bought some spray but but I think it's more of a repellent, it killed a bunch but there are still many. I wish there were some bad for the planet instant insect killer at the shop but nope.

No. 2585195

>>2585186
Nta but lemons with cloves in them keeps flies away for me.

No. 2585225

>>2585116
You like the emotionally distant ones because you feel like you aren’t worth it subconsciously.

No. 2585226

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No. 2585228

Girls who don't have girl friends or seem to struggle with making girl friends are a red flag. Maybe not all of them, there's some of us who are just autistic, but I've met plenty of girls
who turned out to be just overall very unlikable. They struggle with female friendships because they're judgemental, kinda misogynistic, prone to getting into fights and weirdly avoidant at the same time so potential good female friends don't want to deal with them. I say this as someone who is lowkey autistic and was bullied by other girls growing up and YET despite all that I still managed to create long lasting friendships with other girls because guess what, just because some mean girls bullied me doesn't mean I started hating the entire female population.

No. 2585233

How do you guys fart in front of your nigels. Especially around when your period starts and the farts are actually rancid, I want to die inside every time

No. 2585235

>>2585228
Even worse if they constantly talk about other women like being the devil and say that men are "no drama" and chill.

No. 2585239

>>2585013
scary relatable

No. 2585245

I have been trying to stop self harming. I have been actively doing it since I was super young. I have spurts of stopping here and there over the years but nothing longer then maybe 5 months or so. It’s been such a mixed bag. Lately I keep finding myself bursting into tears and unable to just stop. I’m trying so hard. I’m doing everything I should do and can do. Yet I don’t know what to do with all the feelings I have been running from. This sucks. Wish I could go back in time and stop her from ever starting but I get why. I know why. It makes me sad.

No. 2585246

>>2585233
We are animals. We shit, we fart and we piss. Let it all out.

No. 2585249

>>2585233
A male coworker from one of my previous jobs long ago once told me these wise words
>You know it's true love when you're both comfortable farting around each other

No. 2585261

Despite having anemia treatments, it will take a while to start kicking in, around 3-4 weeks, so I'm still suffering from anemia symptoms and it's not fun at all. Which is annoying because I felt better the few days of the treatments and got to experience what being anemia free is like, so regressing back is really annoying. No enough sleep and no enough food to satisfy my brain and body and it's so annoying and convenient since I have some online courses and meetings to attend but can't focus because I'm sleepy and hungry and can't stop thinking of food.

No. 2585268

File: 1751309607905.gif (185.5 KB, 220x147, you're-right-pigeons.gif)

>>2585225
…well, ain't that a shit in the crapper

No. 2585272

>>2585245
Proud of you for trying to stop nonnie! Dumb question, but have you perhaps looked into mindfulness? I was addicted to self-harm for almost 20 years and that was one of the first steps that helped me stop, learning radical acceptance is a life changer when you suffer from this type of anxiety. Could also help to look into mood stabilizer medication that can help with the steep changes in your mood that can cause that amount of distress for you?
Take care of yourself nona, I'm sure you can do it! Trying is the first step towards recovery

No. 2585273

older coworkers at my job always asking why i'm not dating when they complain about their husbands and wanting to get away from them with a long vacation all the time

No. 2585274

>>2585233
How can he say he loves you if you can't fart around him? Or if he won't hold your hand while you're getting explosive diarrhea? These should be a litmus test for a healthy relationship.

No. 2585289

>>2585272
Thank you nonna. It’s been a journey and a half. I am in a better place to work on my mental health but it still falters. Mindfulness is something my therapist and I are working on together. It’s been helpful but man, such a simple sounding concept in theory is so so hard in practice. It’s kinda ass and I have been getting frustrated (part of problem I think!) but I am getting there. I am on some meds right now. My dosages need changed some I think but otherwise I do like what I am on. I have been on a lot of different medications so finding a Goldilocks medication routine has been hard. Luckily I think I found one but it needs upped. thought about it more after my OG post. the crying episodes are just.. years of held back emotions falling out like spaghetti from my pockets because instead of just having a cry and feeling the feeling.. I was hurting myself. The episodes aren’t often or too bad but have been stressed out due to a reason I started. Which is why I’m having them so I feel like I’m having them a lot (I’m not ). One of my self harm sources is due to having physically disabilities and health issues related to it. So when I feel physical unwell I get pretty mentally unwell too which leads to self harming. A type of control. Now I just start crying like a baby. I’m getting there. I’m proud of myself, I’m finally putting on my big girl pants and doing it but I def am frustrated to an extent.

No. 2585306

Has anyone else noticed a clear decline in the quality of posts in the /g/ skincare and hair care threads? Like retards with no understanding of anything at all.
>Is there anything that can make my armpits DARKER
>is there anything that can make my pasty skin 1 shade lighter?
>hey I use a Salicylic acid face wash and a salicylic acid moisturizer and a salicylic acid toner and my skin is bright red and flaking off… why? Skincare us a scam after all!!!
>hey what haircut should I get if my hair color is like a caramel cream color?
>you're supposed to actually apply dry shampoo by spraying it on your fingers then wiping it off and then slapping your squeaky clean hair because you actually use dry shampoo when your hair is fresh and clean and not when it's greasy
Like Jesus christ what the fuck kek, it's like everyone loses 100 IQ points posting in those threads.

No. 2585321

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just remembered to have a social life i have to actually talk to people.. fuck that shit

No. 2585324

>>2585306
All those products and regiments just to avoid taking a bath.

No. 2585328

>>2585306
>What kinds of expensive creams and goos should I smear all over my face to ensure I never, ever age

No. 2585330

>>2585306
>hey what haircut should I get if my hair color is like a caramel cream color?
KEK

No. 2585334

mfw when the mods do nothing to infighters. stop jerking off all day and get to work!

No. 2585337

File: 1751315019410.jpeg (108.52 KB, 500x569, IMG_0051.jpeg)

>>2585306
I’m sorry nona I’m just a retard when it comes to hairstyling

No. 2585348

File: 1751315829476.webp (38.29 KB, 600x900, scandinavian-beauty-13930884.w…)

I have typical fine scandinavian hair that's also pin straight, and not only makes it hard for it to keep it's shape when I style it, unless I cover it hairspray until it's crunchy - it also tangles the moment someone do as much as fart in the next room over because of the gust. It makes me sad because I have a pretty wide face, and the days when my hair manages to have a lot of volume it balances my face just right. But when it has a lot of volume it means it's pretty dry because I haven't used any conditioner or hair mask, which isn't great either.

No. 2585358

i feel like a fucking retard my parents simultaneously neglected and enabled me so i’m incapable of doing normal adult tasks at the age of 26 and i don’t want to be helpless and pity myself anymore but i’m so far behind everyone else i can’t fucking drive i didn’t go to university i haven’t had a job in almost 4 years i went to rehab 2 months ago but i fell back down again i just want to die i don’t know how to take everything one step at a time i’m so embarrassed and ashamed of what a fucking loser i am

No. 2585360

>>2585348
do a french chignon, use those chinese sticks, put two strands in front of your face, have good makeup. you look hot and it's out of your way

No. 2585363

>>2585348
Does mousse not work for you either? I know some people who do the blowout method but have to keep their hair in overnight heatless curls or else it doesnt keep that voluminous shape either. Don't give up nonna!!! There's definitely a method that will work for you. I had the same issue with hairspray as well until I tried Japanese hairspray, I like gatsby.

No. 2585364

>>2585228
welp i hang out with guys because i'm extremely awkward around other women and never know how to act or react. i made female friends easily at school but they were always either more autistic than me or the 'mean girls who saw me as a pet kek. I want to have more female friends as an adult and would say I'm supportive and more misandrist than misogynistic, but i can't crack the code.

No. 2585371

I wish to feel the warmth of another person. It's been so long. I don't want to live like this.

No. 2585376

>>2585306
>Has anyone else noticed a clear decline in the quality of posts
Yes.

No. 2585379

>>2585364
Same. I have a close female friend thankfully but I really want more. Hanging out with guys is 'easier' but it's very unfulfilling and they're too crass and mean in a way that's just excessive. It sucks your soul out. Finding female friendship is so worth it but I'm still terrified of rejection and suddenly feeling like an autistic bullied 12 year old again the moment someone I thought was chill starts putting me down or talking behind my back.

No. 2585381

>>2585306
I think the pale armpits nona and the lightening skin nona is the same person. Actually I think it might be the same person as the nona who was in the plastic surgery thread saying her face is droopy and fat and that's why she has been called ugly her entire life but when she posted photos of her face it was completely normal and not ugly

No. 2585393

Just saw an adorable video of a baby buffalo running around on the plains with excited little zoomies, so joyous and full of life and my first thought was "I miss feeling like this"

No. 2585446

im such a retard why the fuck did i eat an entire 18 oz cheesecake literally what the hell is wrong with me. i literally ate 4,332 calories yesterday what the actual fuck. my sugar cravings were almost completely gone because i was eating healthy and now theyre back with a fucking vengeance. so stupid…. it’s going to be so hard to get back on my diet now. i dont even know if i can do it. i gained weight too (obviously, i was in a massive surplus so how would i not gain weight) and now im going to have to work to get it off. i calculated the appropriate amount of calories for my body a day and its 1,000 or less. so i would have to eat nothing for 3 days to balance out what i did. how the hell am i supposed to do that. i was doing so well. im so disappointed in myself. and its not anyone else’s fault but my own. i did this for no reason.
oh well, at least the food i had was good. if im going to have a cheat meal, it might as well be delicious food. i had a bunch of steak & it was cooked really well. the cheesecake was creamy & good too. but why the fuck did i eat so much of it? i think i fucked up when i got the cheesecake. if i had stopped with the steaks i would been only a bit over a healthy calorie level. but noooo i just had to buy a $14 gourmet cheesecake & eat the whole thing. why am i a dumbass.

No. 2585452

>>2585446
Unless you're a comatose underweight (37kg) midget (147cm) your BMR isn't 1000kcal, so you shouldn't worry too much about having to fast for three days straight.

No. 2585458

>>2585446
Hahah nonna you're just like me. Just don't do it again. Quit whilst you're ahead and you'll be okay. Also as the other anon said you probably miscalculated.

No. 2585466

I was born in Latin America and have temporarily moved to Spain. I'm in shock, no wonder Latin America is the way it is, it's their fault. I thought all the worst aspects of latin american life and culture came from our sub 100 IQ population, but Spain is literally suffering from the exact same issues. I can't believe this shit. I've lived in other European countries and they don't have the issues Latin America and Spain have. We should've been conquered by the English or the French, what a joke of a country Spain is. It's unfortunate because otherwise it would be quite lovely.

No. 2585472

i care too much about my work ethic its literally tearing me up inside. tomorrow might be my dogs last full day on this earth and i feel guilty about possibly calling out even when my manager said to me straight up he wouldn't be at work if he was going through the same thing. i already made the mistake back in October when my other dog died of going to work that morning when i KNEW something was wrong and ill never forgive myself for it. why isnt that memory enough to set my priorities straight?

No. 2585477

>>2585393
In primary school we'd have a once-a-year pizza day where we'd get to order our own little mini pizzas to eat (the rest of the time you had to bring lunch in so it was just sandwiches), and I remember how stoked I'd be in the morning when my friends told me it was pizza day, like so stoked… I miss that feeling. Imagine feeling pure joy over dumb shit like annual mini pizza… that was the way to live.

No. 2585481

>>2585472
would it help that it's not your work ethic speaking, but some kind of silly ego and pride? you're gonna let silly ego and pride cause you to miss an important moment with a loved one?

No. 2585482

>>2585472
When you’re old and at the end of your life, you are never going to say to yourself, “I really regret calling out of work that one time.”

Your job is replaceable. You could die tomorrow and your boss would only be focused on hiring someone for your position. Don’t sacrifice yourself for work, ever.

No. 2585486

>>2585466
Spain in the 90s was the best thing ever. It was really great. But since then they've come down harder than even the english. the trend since downwards and irreversible.

No. 2585487

No matter what I do or how I try to help, my older brother keeps hurting me and my mom. He keeps screaming and hitting walls and making us miserable. I wish I could talk about it freely but I can't really do it. It's too much. It's too personal. I don't want people in my life to worry about me. Sometimes I think the only way to find peace is dying. I wouldn't have to pull up with him anymore. I'm so tired. I don't want to be alive.

No. 2585489

>>2585487
Can you call the police on him or is he forcing you to be dependent on him somehow?

No. 2585497

>>2585489
I have called the police on him before and it didn't help.

No. 2585500

Man, when will the virus that kills XYs be created and spread already? I'm so tired of living among those incompetent retards with never-ending demands. Dad is a massive faggot who is addicted to meat despite being in his 80s and unable to ingest it anyways, but he thinks it makes him manly and masculine or something and especially eating sheep because cows and chickens are tok "gay" for him I guess. But he's lazy and won't go to the butcher's himself, and my useless brothers also refuse to do it. So I have to be the one who does it and since I can't carry an entire sheep carcass on my own from the shop to home, I order it from the shop and they deliver it and that leaves one of my useless brothers carrying it from the delivery guy to the kitchen, and yet they throw temper tantrums over being asked to do that and they go to sleep before the delivery arrives so they don't have to handle it and I have to deal with it myself. They've been doing the same about any kinds of deliveries in general and I have to be the one who picks it up and then my faggot dad makes a scene about me being a girl interacting with delivery drivers for 5 seconds and losing my ~purity~. What do these assraped faggots want exactly? I'm gonna to to the gym, bulk up, learn 282771 martial arts and kick their asses to death.

No. 2585501

>>2585493
Sorry to hear about that. I know how hard that can be. If you and your mom can work and put your money together, maybe you could rent somewhere far away from him hopefully and build a life together. I know said is easier than done but hang in there. I hope you and your mother are doing alright.

No. 2585504

>>2585501
Thanks nonna, I'll try my best.

No. 2585514

>>2585487
moids are disgusting. if you or your mom feel at any point that you’re in danger, please call for help or try to leave if there’s no other options. i hope you guys are safe

No. 2585551

>>2585481
ayrt, it is ego because the biggest thing i feel guilty over is being seen as lazy for calling out. that does help, thank you
>>2585482
youre right. i wont regret missing work but i already have regrets about how i handled losing my other pet. i should learn from my own mistakes

No. 2585553

I wish my life went to someone else. So much opportunity wasted on a fat retard

No. 2585555

I am doing the absolute bare minimum at work so that I won't get fired. This job sucks and doesn't pay enough for me to care

No. 2585556

>>2585446
I have the munchies and I would kill to eat an entire cheesecake. Sounds like a good day, anon. Just get back on track eating normal tomorrow, you don't need to fast.

No. 2585560

>>2585500
>he thinks it makes him manly and masculine or something and especially eating sheep because cows and chickens are too "gay" for him I guess.
I'm sorry but this shit is killing me.

No. 2585562

I feel like a broken human being, I never have motivation for anything. Even consooming media is something I need to work myself up for, and I quit soon after anyways. I spend most of my days in bed daydreaming, I want to do more I just don't know how to stop being so lazy because nothing else seems worth it or fulfilling.

No. 2585566

>>2585562
You sound depressed nonna, have you sought help at all?

No. 2585580

>>2585566
Probably, it runs in my family and I used to want to die as a kid/teen. And I haven't tried seeking help, I used to try to talk about it when I was a teenager but I got ignored so it never seemed like I have enough of a problem. That's the same reason why I haven't tried seeing someone now as an adult, there's worse out there and it feels dumb that I cannot just handle this on my own. I feel like I have a serious will power issue

No. 2585582

>>2585562
Have you ever thought about speaking your daydreams out loud into a recording microphone? You could start a podcast and quickly amass tens of thousands of followers that are interested in your unique ideas and perspectives, and then you'd have the chance to monetize your daydreams and sign book deals. Being lazy is okay if you're making money off of it.

No. 2585591

>>2585560
It's goofy and deserves to be laughed at but he basically believes the more fat in the meat the more tasty and masculine and beef and chicken are too lean for him. He's a muzzie so he won't eat pork though which is the fattiest meat ever if I'm not mistaken. The irony.

No. 2585613

>>2585582
I haven't but I like this idea a lot! I get nervous and awkward when speaking so the podcast format wouldn't work much for me, but I could try my hand at writing! It sounds fun to develop my daydreams further this way. I probably wouldn't monetise it (unless I get very lucky, somehow) but I wouldn't mind posting it online somewhere. Thank you for the suggestion

No. 2585669

I just had my apartment lease end and it's a little frustrating that my roommate is considered my landlord instead of the actual landlord/owner of the house we stayed in. I wouldn't be surprised if she's going to hold onto my security deposit as long as possible to spite me- she turned out to be a drunk that was constantly broke, and it was super fucking awkward to deal with. When I told her I was sending an invoice request for my deposit she lost it. I don't care that much because I have a job and savings, but if this drags on it means I get stuck having to think about her for another month or whatever.

No. 2585763

can't sleep
keep thinking of my first date with my gf from years ago and how we cuddled all night long
now I'm just forever alone

No. 2585767

>>2585763
I can't sleep either, we should cuddle nonna

No. 2585783

i wish i didnt have to sleep and i could play yakuza 24/7

No. 2585787

There's this moid in a group chat I was invited to and all he does is talk about his wife like anything she does is his accomplishment and post Rouge the Bat bimbo porn. I don't think she knows he's a hardcore gooner. He annouced to the chat he's having a daughter and I'm mortified. Idk why I joined at this point but it's like I can't look away from this train wreck. He'll probably molest her and then bimboify himself or something after a few years.

No. 2585796

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>>2585767
ok but who's the big spoon

No. 2585801

My dad yelled at me today because i accidently spilled matcha over important documents that he left on the dining room table where people eat and he told me that i should move out over it. I really want to go to the kitchen to eat because i am so hungry and haven't eaten since the morning, but it's almost 11pm and he's just going to yell at me again because unfortunately the kitchen and living room is open concept and he practically lives in the living room.

No. 2585841

>>2585235
this, and it's exhausting when you're the one female friend she has and she's always like "other girls are always drama, but not you", i got so fed up.

No. 2586010

>>2585487
Poison him

No. 2586033

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im so desperate to lose weight i want to be on ozempic at this point. but i dont think anybody would give it to me since im not actually overweight. i swear to god my maintenance calories must be like, 5 calories a day

No. 2586047

>>2586033

I got ozempic pretty easily through an online pharmacy in my country (UK) despite having a healthy BMI. I just lied about my height and weight, said being fat was making me depressed and submitted some quickly doctored photographs. It took less than a couple of hours before I was accepted lol.

No. 2586079

I have so much anger towards men. Especially on behalf of women who date them since I don’t, yet I seem to care more than they do for fuck’s sake.

Also I hate pickme reddit women.

No. 2586085

the craziest most disgusting thing happened earlier and I'm still freaked out by it. I was sitting on the couch watching tv while my fiance was cooking dinner in the kitchen and all of a sudden a giant fly started buzzing around - I freaked out and grabbed the raid and sprayed it then my fiance threw it in the trash. all of a sudden like 5 more huge flies appeared from nowhere and started flying around the kitchen. I was freaking out and my fiance had just finished cooking so I put the food in containers in the fridge while he started hunting down the flies but every time he killed a few, a bunch more randomly appeared. there must have been a total of 30 or more of the nasty vermin in the kitchen plus there was over a dozen of them outside the kitchen windows trying to get in. it was insane, I've never seen a fly in the apartment up until this literal invasion. it took over an hour to kill them all and then I had to wipe up all the raid residue from the floors and counters. wtf even happened? now I'm scared to cook anything in case I have to go through that again. ugh.

No. 2586088

>>2586033
If you're not overweight, then why do you even wanna lose weight?

No. 2586090

>>2586088
You can always be thinner. Look better.
But if you aren’t a fattie I wouldn’t suggest Ozempic, you’ll lose muscles. Just go to the gym where you can actually build up your physique.

No. 2586092

>>2586090
You don't need to be thinner if you're not overweight

No. 2586094

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>>2586092
I mean…

No. 2586097

>>2586094
>Bloated vs normal stomach pic that is closer
Ok, this is stupid. I'm scared that things like this feed into young girls body image issues especially since it's being posted on tiktok.

No. 2586102

>>2586097
>blindness
Do you arms and legs normally bloat too?

No. 2586104

>>2586088
Ayrt and its because i feel like i looked better when i weighed less. Nothing more to it really.
>>2586047
Damn thats crazy. I think im too scared of the side effects to actually do it kek. Plus it costs an insane amount if you arent getting it for medical reasons here in the US (which is fair, i think.)

No. 2586107

>>2586102
Her arms and legs are exactly the same size, in one she’s squishing them and in one she’s holding them out.

No. 2586108

>>2586090
>>2586088
Anon's lazy and would rather cheat weight loss than build some muscle in the gym to look better.

No. 2586116

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>>2586097
Six kgs won’t be a night and day difference. But you can see that she does look better in the right pic.

No. 2586120

>>2586108
She can do exercises at home too, just do planks every single day to get a nice tummy and thighs.

No. 2586121

>>2586120
This! I use weights of 4 kgs and elastic bands everyday. It works.

No. 2586127

Being lanky and skinny sucks because everyone openly mocks you and jokes about your weight or makes concerning comments about you, and you're not allowed to ever complain about it because apparently skinny is the beauty standard. If skinny was truly the beauty standard you wouldn't be the butt of the jokes of everyone both men and women alike. The beauty standard is a thin waist with nice curves and a big bosom. Typical skinny women don't look like that. Average stacies are never bone-y, they might be petite but they still have some flesh on them.

No. 2586129

>>2586127
agreed. the people who think skinny automatically = attractive and easy life are very detached from reality and have never been super thin.

No. 2586131

>>2586108
Why tf would i put more mass on my body when i already feel giant

No. 2586135

>>2586129
Exactly and many times you literally just want to live your life and then you're hit with the shittiest comments like a few days ago at work they started making jokes about my weight, even exaggerating how thin I am. Idk why people think this is normal, no one would have joked around an overweight person like this. Or when I just meet a new person and want to have a friendly talk and they're like "omg you're so skinny do you eat anything" like how about you fuck off that's not your business

No. 2586136

>>2586135
They literally do whatever in order to make your entire identity around being the "skinny girl".

No. 2586139

>>2586131
Because you get a much better shape from a bit of muscle. If you do it right you lose the flab while building a lean shape with muscle. You won't get anywhere near an amount of muscle that might be considered too muscular/manly/unflattering for women by working out three times a week, that takes years of extremely dedicated training and a precise diet.

No. 2586141

>>2586127
People can be really cruel to skinny women, even other women. My sister has a wiry build and gets a lot of comments and observations about her body, from men whinging about how her lack of curves isn’t attractive (as if she was put into this world to look pretty for others…) to women either telling her to eat more or, I think, putting her down a bit out of some misplaced envy. I never had people just point out and outright describe my body to me and how I should change it to be more pleasing to the eye, not even when I was overweight (not to my face, I mean)
I think the kind of thinness that is considered attractive (a slender but visiblt healthy, toned body with a flat bellt and some curves) is specifically the body of a teenage girl…

No. 2586145

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My ex best friend, a narcissistic bitch who constantly berated me and ignored me when my father was dying, has her claws in every cosplay circle in my area. She's well liked because on a superficial level shes so charming- maybe she'll treat others like she treated me, if they get close enough to her. Maybe not, and I was just a punching bag.
In dropping her, I've lost most of my other friendships, despite them knowing exactly how she treated me they still suck her asshole. I thought I made a new connection separate from her, and lo and behold shes attending their party this weekend so I'm not going. Its so frustrating knowing somebody's true, fetid colors, and everyone else continuing to support them. Makes me feel like im taking crazy pills. I hate this bitch and shes everywhere.

No. 2586157

My sis relies on me to go to the beach she has no one else to go with. But I'm starting to fucking hate the beach lately in this disgusting foul heat. I hate the sand everywhere, I had the sun burning my skin and I sweat in my face and between my boobs. I love being in the water but then you come out and feel how sticky and salty your skin is and you lay again on the towel with the sun and it's fucking DISGUSTING. I DONT WANNA DO THIS RIGHT NOW. BUT I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE THEN SHE CANT GO ALONE CAUSE NO ONE IS THERE TO CHECK ON HER BAGS!!!
A lot of times I felt FORCED to go just for her to please her and I'd check the time and be like okay this is done, I had a swim let's just go, as if it's a chore kekk. I know I sound like a brat, maybe I am, I don't fucking know I just wanna be home with my AC on, I don't wanna deal with the world outside, the sun, let alone the fucking beach with people everywhere and feeling hot, sweaty and gross!!!!!! I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW I DONT KNOW WHY. I'm gonna have to deal with her being moody and upset because I don't wanna go somewhere and she wants to, fuck my fucking LIFE

No. 2586161

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No. 2586163

>>2586127
Just curious, but do you live in America?

No. 2586165

Sometimes /ot/ does way too much, like it just gets sucked into this big paranoid schizo pity party where anons will infight you for hours because you told them to lighten up over their extremely retarded and hostile spiral over how men will always be stronger and women were born to be sentient fleshlights and all women were born to be abused whores. How are you coming to a woman only site and being such a fucking loser, like go and do something you smelly retard instead of sitting on your ass and consuming a shit ton of true crime rape and murder stories to make yourself 10000x more scared and hostile and isolated beyond repair.

No. 2586166

>>2586165
I hate the extreme train of thoughts too nonna. As if there can't be a middle ground. I think I posted there before, my grandma who's 91 has always abused my grandpa mentally and physically. And she recently beat up her tenant with a stick. You can defend yourself as a woman, you can be the abuser too, you can tell men to fuck off if you choose to. You can also choose to focus on more positive shit and not drown in despair. This world sucks but cmon

No. 2586167

>>2586163
Europe

No. 2586169

>>2586165
I think image board discussions naturally funnel towards the most extreme takes and away from nuance.

No. 2586171

I cooked salmon teriyaki, with a sweet caramel-like sauce, boiled broccoli, fried an egg, cooked rice. Made caramelized onions. Halfway through doing all this shit my appetite was gone. Retarded

No. 2586173

>>2586165
It’s just a vocal group consisting of girls who just got their driver’s license of are legally allowed to, most adult women have been driven away from (rad)feminism/libfeminism after realizing most of them are in fact the female they are complaining about the thing they hate the most. I know we should just ignore I guess but it’s just annoying how vocal they are and how they’re allowed to infight.

No. 2586178

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Finding out mikayla (saveafox lolcow) did gross of porn content with the animals she rescued has made me paranoid about all the other animal rescue content I watch what If the animals I think are being saved are being more harmed behind the scenes? I've donated to countless animal shelters what if I'm contrubuting to their detriment? Maybe I'm overthinking this but knowing what mikayla did has genuinely ruined animal rescue content for me..Ill still donate to animal shelters though

No. 2586187

>>2586178
Wait what? It wasn’t beastiality right

No. 2586196

>>2586187
No thankfully it wasn't that but she still posed naked with the animals and put them on her ass.

No. 2586199

>>2586169
Yes but male ibs are more like "yes, we men are gods, we are superior, we need male white supremacism, yadda yadda" and in female ibs it's always "we women are lesser, we are weaker, kys cocksucker, there is no hope" it's been so doomer lately

No. 2586201

>>2586199
Us women need to start believing the supposed female superiority men think we have. Or taking advantage of it or whatever.

If only we could band together. Womanhood should come first, not background, but people fail to see this. Imagine the world with women united.

No. 2586203

I'm scared, we're close to the end of the year and I feel Ive achieved nothing. Couldn't even get the most basic simple job.

No. 2586210

>>2586196
Guess she was a weirdo

No. 2586213

I bought into the psyop of that nigels are worth it. They're not, they're moids in disguise just waiting for the moment you're stuck with them forever. I love my children but my nigel turned into a moid the moment I got pregnant. Tale as old as time and I'm a stupid idiot for thinking all the women before me was wrong. I shouldve listened to women, I shouldnt have tried to make a bucket of shit into a bucket of gold. Watch me spend the rest of my life stuck with a complete dickhead for co-parent. Please take heed from me. Dont fucking trust men.

No. 2586218

>>2586213
What happened?

No. 2586223

>>2586213
Is a scrote not a Nigel anyway?
>stuck
What if you divorce and you only take the kid the weekends?

No. 2586224

I love how instead of going outside, I open YouTube to listen to the sound of nature and birds when I'm close to nature and birds…

No. 2586237

>>2586213
why did you think a man would stop being a man once in a relationship

No. 2586242

Update on the bird I tried to help yesterday, he was really weak but he was able to fly away again in the evening when I freed him. We love him and wish him the best. It was a baby commonbird (I identified it after)

No. 2586243

>>2586242
saw your post and was so happy you could help him. you were probably like a goddess to his little bird brain, kek. what you did was awesome, nona

No. 2586251

>>2585446
If you have binge eating tendencies you should never keep that volume of junk food at home. First mistake.

No. 2586256

A chatter freely talks about owning a cp dvd of a five year old and others and the streamer joking about it like "oh, police officer, this guy right here" without anyone being actually disgusted. Happened in a Japanese streamer's twitch stream. Can't say I'm surprised but it's still so absolutely disgusting

No. 2586257

>>2586251
Right I don’t get it. And if you have 0 self-control just only shop while full kek. I have to say this sounds like such an embarrassing issue to have, it’s so straightforward to fix

No. 2586274

>>2585472
That’s not “work ethic,” that’s some manifestation of insecurity or shame. Assuming it’s not just tard inflexibility.

No. 2586292

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I'M SO LONELY FUCK. I need someone into my interests and to sperge about it together. I've bumped the /m/ thread 5+ separate times this past couple months and it still has no interaction IM SO FUCKING LONELY AND BORED

No. 2586308

You know what my problem is? I wanna be too many things in life. I wanna be a lawyer, a chef (kek), a fashion designer, a store owner.. I can't pick, I want all of these things, and then I just do nothing

No. 2586310

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So while I dislike troons I still have some in my social circle and I don't tell anyone how I feel about gender ideology. However I'm coming to the slow realization that one of the TIMs probably actually does have a porn addiction and it's probably why he transitioned. I have no concrete proof but I heard from some very close people to him that he doesn't like sex much. How likely is it that he has a porn addiction or is into some shit like feminization audios? He has a girlfriend too… now that I've thought of this I can't stop feeling weird about this because to me he seemed pretty inoffensive and I mistook him for just a confused autist.

No. 2586314

>>2585472
You're scared. Idk of what but u seem scared. You put your job as a priority knowing deep down it's not real life but you can't let go of that mindset, there has to be a fear somewhere in there…

No. 2586316

>>2586314
Nta but a job provides the allowance to live life. I'd be stressing about calling out myself, though I'd still do it because that is a whole grieving process.

No. 2586319

>>2585472
I think your job allows you to feel like you know what to do with yourself and can actually do something right and good. This isn't your work ethic but some base attachment to prove your worth. You need to go be with your dog. If you can't do it for yourself, imagine the confusion your dog will feel at being alone. For your sake, call out.

No. 2586321

My BPD exfriend keeps trying to initiate contact with me. It's making me uncomfortable.

No. 2586327

I'm really anxious from caffeine but I keep drinking it because I don't have access to adhd medication anymore and it's the only thing that helps. I want to be free from this hell…

No. 2586329

>>2586327
L-theanine and magnesium.

No. 2586330

>>2586327
kekk literally me today. Making an iced americano even though I'm anxious, starting to have period cramps but I need it to focus bcs of ADHD

No. 2586335

>>2586329
Any thoughts on bacopa?

No. 2586337

>>2586335
Never heard of it! Magnesium has been a big game changer for me personally though.

No. 2586340

>>2586329
I currently take glycinate and it helps with the anxiety a lot. Was it meant to help the adhd as well?

No. 2586341

>>2586340
L-theanine potentially does aid in increased focus but magnesium is just an all around good supplement to take. It's helped me a lot with anxiety, poor sleep, brain fog and things like muscle cramps too. I recommend to everyone I know to give it a try lol.

No. 2586343

>>2586335
It's one of those things could go really well or really poorly moodwise depending on the person, also dependent on the timescale

No. 2586355

>>2586165
Haven't seen much of this lately, was it in unpopular opinions or something? (normally I hide that for a reason so maybe I didn't see) or that fight from last thread where some baiter said women who get abused by asian men were weak?

No. 2586358

Ran across videos of a man abusing a baby hawk for social media likes and it's upsetting knowing that not many people are going to take something like this seriously. When I was getting around to sending a report of the abuse, I felt like my efforts would be in vain. The baby hawk is likely dead at this point and while I knew the location of the video and the guy's face is on camera, I cannot identify him despite combing his Youtube channel. I guess I've done all I can do but this shit fucking sucks and I fucking hate people so much. I don't know how people who do animal rescues can manage constantly seeing the worst of humanity on display.

No. 2586373

>>2586327
oh me too. eventually my body got more used to it but i used to start shaking and feeling ridiculously jittery. now i have one cup a day and it actually just helps sharpen my mind but that’s about it. you’ll get there too anon

No. 2586386

>>2586373
I'm trying not to become dependent on it so I only drink it when I need to get stuff done. The instant mood boost it gives me frightens me, kek

No. 2586391

nearing 6 months since my gf died in an accident. i’m coming out of a phase where i overworked to numb myself to one where i feel totally hopeless. i don’t want anything except her presence yet that’s one of the few things i can’t even remotely influence
>>2586329
seconding this, i have found tyrosine to be effective as well. iirc magnesium doesn’t directly affect focus like l-theanine but it improves sleep quality which helps with daytime focus

No. 2586422

They're shitting up.the thread again. I wish they'd go away.

No. 2586450

Someone who's more eloquent than me can probably explain this better but I hate this feeling of expectation when you're a woman and trying to be an online artist where you have to like, make yourself the product in a way.
I was looking through the fat gendie vtuber that was talked about in the Neocities thread. She cries and vents about not making con table sales, or how she wants to improve her art, that she's burnt out from trying to find success from her art. Yet it feels like she only gets attention for her art because she's showing tits and ass. I think of other women artists that I follow, and the ones with more engagement talk about themselves or taking selfies way more than the moid artists.
I don't have to wonder why they do this, I know why, it's just shitty it has to be like that at all. Makes me feel like I'll only be successful as an artist if I started including nudes pasted in the corner of my art kek

No. 2586478

>>2586450
Ive seen many on TikTok not doing that. I lose all respect when women resort to nudity. Yeah, it'll work, but you got no self-respect and you're lame. Keep going, keep sharing

No. 2586482

>>2586335
Condensed bacopa and dried updog works well for me

No. 2586490

>>2586478
I wonder if this is like a non-video-focused social media issue then because I have seen this behavior on Twitter and Bluesky the most.
I'll keep sharing for you nona

No. 2586540

I have to pull an all nighter . Why am I this stupid. Why can’t I organize my time better…

No. 2586550

>>2586358
Why not send it to police and animal activists in the area, if you know the area? Some places do take stuff like this seriously

No. 2586552

>>2586310
It's 100% likely. Sorry you're finding out this way. The old school gay men wearing dresses so they don't get lynched for holding hands with another man are only found in very backwards countries now, all the other TIMs are porn addicts.
>>2586450
Keep working on your art, the nudes-to-fame track only works in the short term. These women are selling themselves, not their work. You want your art to speak for itself, not to attract a rancid fanbase of neckbeards and skinwalking simps.
>>2586213
That sucks nonna, I hope divorce becomes legal in your country soon.

No. 2586563

I have never had my pussy eaten and it breaks my heart. I only had sex once and, without going too into details, it was subpar, he thought that a big dick was the only thing needed and I only got fingered and it was shitty.
I crave a single nice experience with a scrote, even just once, where I get eaten out for at least 15-30 minutes, add some vibrations too kek. But I don’t know where I can get someone like that, I don’t do casual stuff and I don’t think a one night stand would have that level of care anyway.
I wish I was bi. Is there like a conversion therapy but for straight women?

No. 2586567

>>2586563
>I wish I was bi. Is there like a conversion therapy but for straight women?
If you let me have a go, we can see.

No. 2586568

>>2586563
I’m psychically manifesting you the best cunnilingus of your life, nona. Be ready.

No. 2586570

>>2586566
I dated someone that approached me for three months, he seemed kind and decent , so since I was curious about sex I agreed to go to his place and that’s where it happened. Only thing is that he changed after that and the retard said that he “wasn’t ready”.

No. 2586571

>>2586567
I feel flattered nonnie. In another life I would have accepted and taken care of you too.
>>2586568
Thank you nonna. Let’s hope!

No. 2586579

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>>2586574
>take it to the grave
I don’t have anything to feel shame for in being “tricked” by a retard. I was a nice , pure hearted girl, who was sincere. I learnt my lesson though, few people deserve that, but shame is something that I’ll never feel for, there’s nothing wrong with me and having sex once didn’t “taint” me or any misogynistic bullshit you are thinking of.

No. 2586582

>>2586579
And I deserve a life time of pussy eating for that, nothing less. Thank you.

No. 2586584

>>2586579
>>2586582
Based as hell. Never feel shame for having a kind heart. May you find the tongue you seek nona.

No. 2586590


No. 2586592

>>2586563
Spread your legs baby let me do it

No. 2586596

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>>2586592
Hey.. back off.. She's mine.

No. 2586605

Super sick. Very hard to be a hater right now, but I'm fighting through. Pass me the Sudafed, nonitas

No. 2586610

>>2586550
I did report to Fish and Wildlife and there seems to be at least a few people who have done similar reporting now that I'm looking more into it. I am just extremely pessimistic I guess because it's only one animal being abused and I sometimes feel like I'm screaming into a void when I care too much about stuff like this.

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No. 2586613

>>2586597
>pumped and dumped
Sure call it that if it makes you feel better. I just explained because someone asked.
I just don’t understand why you want me to feel shame about it by telling me to take it to my grave kek. I thought he was someone different who would have even respect , he acted nicely and didn’t have any “red flags” if that is what you two are implying. I did it, he changed. It’s not like I can change back time.

No. 2586621

>>2586608
How would you know he eats pussy well if you don’t?

No. 2586623

>>2586621
Get a submissive virgin moid you can train to your own liking.

No. 2586624

>>2586613
It’s like you want me to go on foot to Međugorje and ask Mother Mary to turn me back into a virgin kekkk.
>>2586608
I’ll actually just say that I am one from now on until I get eaten out, just for you nonna. A woman can return to being a virgin anytime she wants.

No. 2586625

You know when you really want to say your point because someone has just said some real stupid shit that you need to correct but you also dont want to infight but you know correcting this retard will undoubtedly lead to an infight because you can just sense they truly believe the stupid shit they write? I just hate dumb fucking morons.

No. 2586627

These motherfuckers are blocking my PR with nitpicks and requests for features that weren't even discussed. Fucking approve it you retards, I bet you're jealous of how cool and efficient my code is.

No. 2586628

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>>2586624
>A woman can return to being a virgin anytime she wants.
I don't get it. First, you say you're not ashamed of getting pumped and dumped. But now you say that you'll lie about it and cover it up.

No. 2586629

>>2586213
This is why I dont believe the nigeltards here have miraculously found the 0.01% of "good" (tolerable) scrotes. They're likely putting up with a load of shit moid traits and cant admit it.

No. 2586631

>>2586628
You misunderstand her. She’s not lying. She is the mistress of her own reality and if she’s a virgin, she’s a virgin. You are probably too small minded and believe the male lie that the hymen is sacred.

No. 2586632

>>2586628
I am trolling the two nonnas

No. 2586634

>>2586613
>I thought he was someone different who would have even respect
>he acted nicely and didn’t have any “red flags”
I bet if you told him you were waiting until marriage, he would have dropped the act and ran away.

No. 2586637

Who cares about moids, they all suck. Fuck them then dump them

No. 2586640

>>2586637
It doesnt work the other way around

No. 2586642

i truly hate living in a world with men. i like two men and the rest are deranged and unbearable. i'm glad i'm gay and don't have to deal with having a disgusting mindless predator in my home but jesus christ i'm so sick of maleness, the male mindset, men's physical strength, etc etc. i hate them so much and if i could eradicate men from earth i would do it in a heartbeat. every single time i accidentally look at a male dominated space i'm reminded of how sickening the average man is, how so much of my depression is caused by being a woman in a backwards misogynistic world, and how much i want them dead

No. 2586645

>>2586642
I feel you. Not a day goes by when I dont think about safer and happier women would be if there were less men in the world, or true women only spaces. I really want there to be women only spaces so badly. We deserve to feel safe. Men are the ultimate threat to women. How many of us are prematurely murdered by them? Most women can live to old age just fine without men being violent and taking their lives. I'm sick of it all. No matter how 'well' you train your son, he will always be a piece of sick and never understand how hard it is to be a woman in a man's society.

No. 2586648

>>2586640
Fuck then cheat is the womans version

No. 2586650

>>2586648
You are very correct

No. 2586651

>>2586648
But I only want to have sex with the man I love

No. 2586652

Ive been to a woman only gym once it was amazing but the trainers were men sometimes, certain positions you feel uncomfortable but it was still better than nothing

No. 2586654

Didn't know blend s was scroteshit anime and wasted my time

No. 2586656

>Live in flat with shared garden
>Brainlet moid keep running the sprinkler to water the grass
>Everyone pays for this
>Turn it off to stop the water so I don't have to pay for it
>Some kids' whore father turns it back on and cleans the paddling pool chucking the water everywhere and wasting water
>Feeling murderous because I've had to pay towards 3 funerals this year and I have little fucking money
>Wish I was American so I could annihilate him with a gun and face no consequences

No. 2586657

I was trying to get it on with myself, but then I started thinking about the economy and class disparity and it made me so upset. The world is fucking unfair, people should have to live like this.

No. 2586661

>>2586654
The pedo trap wasn't enough to hint you off?

No. 2586663

>>2586654
its literally 4 little ugly moeblobs in a maid cafe

No. 2586665

>>2586624
>A woman can return to being a virgin anytime she wants.
I unironically believe this though. Especially if you were misled by a moid who was all about dating seriously until he got what he wanted. It's nobody's business but yours and you can decide that he didn't count.

No. 2586667

>>2586651
Gaaaaay, fuck then cuck him

No. 2586668

>>2586654
all you had to do to realize was hear "smile sweet sister sadistic service"

No. 2586672

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I might adopt a kitten, I'm nervous about it. I don't know if I'm good enough for it. I asked my mom if she could co-adopt with me so I dont have the full responsibility kek. I would love this cat with all my heart but it's what scares me. I'd be heartbroken if they're sick and I can't help them. The guilt would kill me. I'd love to do my best though, I think it'd help me mentally to put some of my energy towards another living being.

No. 2586675

>>2586665
That's bullshit. You've either had sex or you haven't. There's no "that sex doesn't count". Sex is sex, as much as my hand is a hand.

No. 2586679

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>>2586675
Actually sex doesn’t count for the woman if she doesn’t orgasm.

No. 2586684

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why does my country hate air conditioners so much? They are all fucking insane. I have 27°C in my room, tomorrow it will be at 30°C and I can't do anything about it, because air conditioners are too expensive, too bad for the environment and oh, we had to suffer through this as well. No, you didn't, you fucking boomers, you had a perfect life, without war all over the world, without rising prices, without climate change. You were 40 years old and had paid for your house, most of us will never get past renting. And I have to pay for your pension? If I had a choice, you wouldn't see a penny from me and I would buy me an air conditioner and would sit in my room with 18°C right now.

No. 2586690

>>2586675
A woman choosing when she loses her virginity is the biggest flex ever actually.

No. 2586693

>>2586675
sry, I don't remember the times I had sex, so I'm a virgin. Some people believe in god and some men think they are amazing with their dick, so I can see myself as a virgin.

No. 2586695

lmao have to get 100 on my last 3 exams to pass my class, love to see it

No. 2586698

>>2586661
I hadn't gotten that far
>>2586663
That's true. I don't watch anime much anymore because I can't tell the difference between a cute series and fetish stuff until it's too late.
>>2586668
Yeah funnily it was the intro that made me realise. I noticed it said the Maika girl was 16 and they kept pursuing a ship between her and the restaurant owner. I should really pay attention more kek

No. 2586703

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i want to have kids very badly but can’t because i’m a dysgenic retard

No. 2586706

>>2586703
Don’t let that stop you anon, we need new LC users one way or another

No. 2586707

>>2586703
Butch dyke mother/father figure. They're super high energy so will do all the parenting if you give birth. Unless they have a mid-life butch crisis, then you're screwed

No. 2586708

>>2586690
>lying to yourself is the biggest flex ever actually.
>>2586693
You're like this guy who thinks he's a chicken

No. 2586712

I was into a guy but then he told me his goal career wise is just to get a government job and settle. Turned me off, I wish it didn't, but it did.

No. 2586715

>>2586712
I mean isn’t a government job the best? You get holidays and you have a fixed job.

No. 2586717

>>2586712
Same shit every day, never work holidays, health insurance, never expected to go above and beyond, and a pension. I'd be turned off too, but some people just value that type of stability. It's an American notion that we need to find emotional fulfillment through our careers.

No. 2586721

>>2586715
Idk I got turned off that he wants something easy and just go through mundane ass 9 to 5s his whole life then retire kek. Maybe it's because I'm way too ambitious and it doesn't match

No. 2586722

>>2586708
nah, not really, I know I'm not as perfect as a chicken

No. 2586725

>>2586717
>It's an American notion that we need to find emotional fulfillment through our careers.
What was davinci doing anon, a hobby?

No. 2586726

So tired of living with this irresponsible gross lazy bum

No. 2586727

>>2586717
>Same shit every day, never work holidays, health insurance, never expected to go above and beyond, and a pension.
unironically my dream

No. 2586733

>>2586727
This. The whole "follow you dream"/"do what you love and you'll never work a day in your life" shit is just a scam for influencers to shill their shitty advice to naive people.

No. 2586736

>>2586725
Are you retarded? Da Vinci is just someone who happened to have his career line up with his passion. Some people find emotional fulfillment through raising a family. Some people find fulfillment through cleaning up trash on the side of the road. Some people just want to live off the grid away from everyone. All of them are valid ways to find fulfillment, my point is your life is not lacking if you feel meh about your job but still find joy in other things.

No. 2586738

>>2586733
it is, I'm doing what I love, it's still 9 to 5 and I'm so bored of it. Give me a job with more pay and less hours and even if I don't love it, I will take it. It's all about the time you have away from your work and the money you get.

No. 2586741

>>2586738
You really just have to have a certain personality type to be able to do your passion 24/7 and not get burned out or begin to hate it. It's just not for most people.

No. 2586744

>>2586741
I used to think I wanted to do art as my job until I saw all my industry friends come to hate art and no longer have any personal creative energy. I really think they key to sanity is choosing a career that is NOT your passion but you're good at it and like it enough to take pride in it.

No. 2586749

>>2586736
>Are you retarded?
Did you smoke meth for breakfast? Art can be a career. Obviously anon is looking for someone who has a career that is more artistic. Someone who creates art by definition, finds emotional fulfilment in that. Or anon wants a moid who plans to earn a lot of money (or at least more than a gov. employee)

No. 2586757

>>2586684
Are you a bong? Me and my sister literally just bought a local AC for our bedroom because we got sick of this heat, I dont regret a single penny

No. 2586758

>>2586749
I don't think you can read kek, I literally listed art as a career in the second sentence of my post. I was simply making an observation that it's never necessary to "love your job" and to believe otherwise is capitalist propaganda. To me working a gubmint job is unthinkably boring and lame, I'm in agreement with the original anon who's turned off. We are in complete agreement and yet you are still trying to fight with me…

No. 2586761

>>2586721
If he doesnt have any (normie) hobbies/interests in his personal life then you probably dodged a bullet

No. 2586768

>>2586761
He's a code monkey and loves plants

No. 2586770

>>2586744
Too many people making art and food but combining both would be smart. I have no idea why artists haven't figured out that people like cool packaging and they can just rebrand something uncommon or even popular that consumers already use and just repackage with a fandom or something. But I guess you can make money selling pictures on fiverr too Idk
>>2586758
I stopped reading your post after you became reactive for no reason and just reiterated the point I was originally making again. Since your original post seemed to be about a difference in attitude between americans and everyone else >>2586717 davinci was obviously italian and pretty into (or emotionally fulfilled by) his career .

No. 2586772

>>2586770
Why are you talking about Italians?

No. 2586774

>>2585801
Why does every dipshit father camp out in the living room even when they have a bedroom or maybe even more than one bedroom

No. 2586777

>>2586774
Right? My stepdad was like this too, always with his fat ass parked in front of the tv in the living room so I would have to go around if I wanted something from the kitchen. Probably why I’ve always been kinda slim kek. Fingers crossed that you can move out soon OP.

No. 2586778

>>2586772
Are you the anon accusing others of illiteracy?

No. 2586786

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>guy is balding
Ugly, swipe left
>below 6 feet
I'm a tall bitch that want to be held, swipe left
>no career or well-paying job
Lacking in drive and future prospects, swipe left
>doesn't work out
Who wants a man that doesn't take care of himself, swipe left
>small lips
You are not eating me out with that, swipe left
>gives autism vibes
There can only be one of us in this relationship, also ew male autists. Swipe left
>has kids
Absolutely not, swipe left
>holds a fish in any image
Be more original, swipe left
>at least one image is from the blowjob angle
Ew, swipe left
>at least one image is of him skiing
Wrong kind of jock, swipe left
>image of him smiling during winter
Only psychos smile out in the winter cold, swipe left
>profile says he's an introvert
I'm not going to be the one in charge of our social life, swipe left

No. 2586788

>>2586774
For real, and like nap out there but get pissed if anyone wakes him. It’d be like me laying in the road and expecting everyone not to run my ass over.

No. 2586790

>>2586778
Yes. I feel like I’m having a stroke trying to understand what or if we’re disagreeing on. I’m so confused.

No. 2586791

I frequent a message board for people in abusive relationships and everytime a man tells his story it sounds so suspicious and like he's making excuses for why he snapped and attacked his girlfriend or wife with tons of excuses attached. Then 50 women come on telling the poor baby his gf is abusive and that she's trying to frame him and he's only using reactive abuse. I've noticed a pattern where they leave out information like for example why the gf was so angry or why she wanted to check his social media and internet usage. It is so obvious to me that these men are abusive, the gf reacted, the bf grabbed or hurt her physically, then he begs for help from scary evil gf. I'm so angry reading these things. I know my abuser could easily have spun our story the same way these stories are being spun to make me look like the instigator. I hate it. You'd think other abuse victims would be able to see through the charade.

No. 2586792

>>2586308
It's just so fucking rude to be able to see so much and not participate. Unless you're born wealthy enough to be a dilettante, life seems to be a lot of noses pressed on glass, looking in

No. 2586794

>>2586786
You hate men nonna

No. 2586795

>>2586717
That is a dream life. You work for money and you have time for your hobby.

No. 2586796

>>2586794
And water is wet. But I refuse to lower my standards. I go to the gym and watch what I eat, and I have a career. If my partner isn't on equal standing with me and attractive on top of it what is even the point

No. 2586799

>>2586786
What's the blowjob angle?

No. 2586803

>>2586796
You won't find this type of guy on an app

No. 2586807

I don't want to be suicidal. I am doing my best to be normal. This year they want me dead. I feel like they should have their way. I just want to be alive. I want to want to live. I have never felt reluctantly obligated to kill myself like this before.

No. 2586809

>>2586807
Who wants you dead nonna? Are you talking about your family? I hope you stay alive, seems a shame to lose someone who posts here. It's not a very big group.

No. 2586810

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lmao i glued a piece of my eva foam cosplay armor UPSIDE DOWN!!!! I didnt realize it till i started painting. Even in the progress pics i posed to my socials unglued the piece was oriented where it should have been but my dumbass didnt think to take a second look before assembling. Oh well, I’ll remake it for next time.

No. 2586811

>>2586807
>they want me dead
Never hand your enemies a victory.

No. 2586823

i just bombed an interview for chipotle by lying i worked at this place for 1 year when i only worked for 2 weeks and also said i need it because i need money
CURSE ME AND MY MASKING SLIPPING AAAAAAASDFGHJKLOPIUYTRE

No. 2586824

>>2586807
Who’s “they” and why should you give a shit about them? Has anyone actually told you they want you dead or is that something you made up because you feel like you don’t deserve to have a better life?

No. 2586831

>>2586757
sadly, no. Local AC, if you mean those with the hose going outside the window, won't work for our flat. And the landlord won't allow anything that would be seen from the outside, like a real AC. It's just a German, what shall the neighbours think, thing. So, as much as I would love to buy an AC, it won't happen in this flat and hopefully, this will be the last flat in Germany.

No. 2586835

Every time I find a brand/formula legal edible that works especially well for me, they sell out completely/change the formula/discontinue. It can't be a coincidence at this point. Apparently I'm simply not meant to be at full power

No. 2586851

the dating scene in my city is so bad, the local lesbian only bar is riddled with moids and troons kek

No. 2586880

>>2586823
I hate how jobs don't want you to say youre working for money. Like, no shit. Nobody is working at Chipotle as a hobby

No. 2586888

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I hate myself so damn much. Spending money I don’t have, spending it on things I shouldn’t be buying; why can’t my brain decide to spend it on actual useful shit if it’s gonna wanna spend anyway? I’m too fat and ugly and old for this; I’m a hoarder. I need someone to put a gun to my head and tell me “No” every single time I’m about to do something stupid.
My fatass better wear the shit out of this once it arrives. It’s so pretty though.

No. 2586892

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>>2586888
This reminds me of sabrina carpenter's new look. We thought the "strawberry dress" was the end of all big trends but here it is, the "chesterfield dress" or couch dress, for the pedestrian anons

No. 2586900

>>2586888
Cute dress

No. 2586904

>>2586888
Very cute dress. If it's machine washable, I would wear it.

No. 2586908

>>2586116
It's only like this if you're overweight, anyone at a normal weight is going to look quite different after losing 6kgs. Height and body shape factor in too of course.

No. 2586909

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>in a women's hiking group
>one of the women asks me what i do for a living
>oh im a college student
>"oh really? you look mature, id never guess ur in college"
>mfw

No. 2586912

>>2586127
My reality as a young teen: "oh my god eat some food, what the fuck, are you anorexic?" (no, i just hit puberty late and my body tried to catch up). I even got told by a doctor (a moid obviously) that I was 'too skinny' to scuba dive?
Then when I gained weight and had curves, all of a sudden I was being negged for being 'fat' (I was healthier for my size than before) and every time i ate something I got catty comments from actual overweight women. Men made comments on my 'saddlebags' and big hips though they weren't so thin themselves. Honestly the worst comments come from insecure people who will find a way to put you down no matter how good or 'bad' you look.

No. 2586913

>>2586909
Let me guess, you were wearing big girl clothes? Everyone is face blind unless you're dress like a literal teenager. The only people who seem to look at anything else are trained to do that, like liquor store workers

No. 2586916

>>2586909
Appearing or being older isn’t a bad thing. Aging is a privilege that many are not afforded anon, cherish it

No. 2586920

>>2586450
Same with ASMR, I'm sick of seeing talented ASMRtists turn into glorified OF stars just for an extra couple hundred in their Patreon. Then of course they disappear because of stalkers and weird parasocial creeps. Some of them look so uncomfortable getting their boobs out that it makes me wince. There are female ASMRtists who haven't done anything sexual and they get millions of views and positive comments, why do they think they have to act like whores to stay relevant?

No. 2586922

>>2586803
This, the only kind of men on apps are low effort scrotes, uggos and catfishes.

No. 2586925

>>2586909
Could be worse nonnie, I get carded and treated like a literal child every time I wear comfy clothes like jeans and a tee. I'm not small or short, I have an extreme babyface and no-one takes me seriously because of it.

No. 2586928

>>2586629
True, when I look at the good relationships friends are in, the guys are nice but get them in the pub after work and they're moaning about some inane bullshit their girlfriend does and how they couldn't possibly have an adult conversation about it. They're not teenagers either, some of them are in their mid 30s. It all comes down to what you want in life as a woman; some of us can tolerate scrotal behaviour so we can achieve our dreams or fulfil societal standards, others (me) cannot be arsed with anything men do and prefer to stay single.

No. 2586929

>>2586909
what if you actually were whatever age she guessed? can adults of all ages not go to college? what a bitch

No. 2586933

>>2586925
I'm not trying to infight but don't believe anyone on the internet when they say this about themselves, or when a moid says it about a woman he is seeing

No. 2586942

>>2586909
It is my honest belief that if a woman tells another woman she looks older it's done out of spite and an attempt to put someone down because every woman in the developed world knows being young is currency and a well wishing person doesn't do jabs like that because of that

No. 2586947

>>2586933
A lot of people don't and that's half of what makes that experience really annoying to have

No. 2586957

My father never should have ever brought home that desktop computer. Never should have installed AOL. I could have a been a real person. Oh well

No. 2586968

>>2586920
If I had a dime for every female ASMR creator going down the porn pipeline I'd be a bank
Weirdly, when it's the opposite it seems to be successful, like Gentle Whisper/Maria

No. 2586971

That's it. Today was proof that I can't live with my mother anymore, we just can't get along.

No. 2586974

My friend has been using AI to create "art" and he has made a few sales. And then he says to me "I need to find other design ideas". Honey, you mean finding AI prompts right? Retarded

No. 2586977

>>2586968
90% of female ASMR listeners are male, take that as you will

No. 2586986

>>2586977
That actually makes more sense to me. I could understand lesbians or some kind specific type of autism-anon enjoying it tho. Otherwise it sounds like obvious arousal material, what else would it be for?

No. 2586991

Every so often (like right now) I think about this story I found online. It was years and years ago and I remember it disturbed me so much that I couldn't stop thinking about it because it scared me and made me feel SO uncomfortable and I remember it being from a mans perspective and he wrote about being in a relationship with this girl called Jane (I dont know why I remember the name) and she was like his sex slave and he gave her piercings all over her body and then he got a new girlfriend and put Jane in concrete with a breathing tube or something.

I still cant remember how I found it, perhaps a rabbit hole from when I used to read all kinds of fanfics or maybe one of those creepy internet mysteries or true crime and someone said it was real or something I really dont know how I found it originally. I searched for it once and I think it was posted on a body building forum or something?? Sorry for this kek I needed to talk about it I could probably find it again but it’s a weird thing to google

No. 2586994

>>2586986
and of course that includes "women-oriented" videos like make-up roleplays or whatnot, figures

No. 2587010

>>2586977
That's so gross. I used to watch makeup and hair styling ASMR videos sometimes because I always liked the tingly feeling I get when at the hairdressers or when a friend does my makeup. I didn't like the ones with excessive talking or any mouth sounds in them though.

No. 2587013

my family keeps leaving food out uncovered in the kitchen all day and it's a fking hot summer. and not only food, but rotting banana peels and other shit because "they want to dry them out to bury in the garden for fertilizer". but then they leave the rotting peels out on the counter for weeks and now its attracted tons of flies that are getting on everything in the kitchen. we have a giant fridge right there why can't they just use it. i can't even eat in peace because the flies will land on my food and for some reason it's like im the only person who is able to see them. i'll bring it up and everyone is just like "well i don't notice them" like how can you not when they're buzzing around your face constantly. now they're getting into other rooms in the house and it feels like mental torture to me cause i can't escape them. why are people just ok living like this, like if i try to bring up that maybe we shouldn't leave rotting fruit peels and food out all day i get yelled at. i've gotten fly traps but they can only do so much

No. 2587017

>>2587010
I've come to only listen to no talking and no cam/audio only ASMR, put it on loop for background noise and to fall sleep

No. 2587019

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>>2587010
If my mom intentionally gave me tingles on the back of my neck, I would tell her she's being creepy and to stick with wine instead of hard liquor. And we get crap for being (closed-mouth) lip kissers in my family, so I'm not judging you anon

Nonas: these types of sensations are known as "turn ons". The reason you like them as content is bc they are arousing to you

No. 2587025

>>2587019
Am I supposed to read this in Peggy Hill's voice or

No. 2587027

>>2587025
Mhmm, sí. That is correct anon

No. 2587032

>>2587019
no they're not, my first tingle memory were a classmate of mine hand-writing a note for me back in middle school, how is that a turn-on? at best it's a form of fluster from unexpected intimacy

No. 2587045

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>>2587032
And do you know how many moids randomly got their first erection on a bus anon?

No. 2587052

>>2587045
no? do you usually ask them when you meet?

No. 2587053

>>2587045
i know this is a challenging concept for you but most people aren't autistic enough to not be able to differentiate between turn ons and regular nice sensations.

No. 2587058

>>2587032
I remember at school on the carpet we would plait each others hairs and draw on each others back.

No. 2587060

>>2587052
I'm not sure. They'll just say these things a lot of the time
>>2587053
Compelling tingles on the back of your neck through breathy voice designed to simulate someone speaking closely into your ear/neck seems very sexual to me, yes

No. 2587065

I'm having the most horrible envy that I just can't shake. I know a married couple (acquaintances of mine, old classmates of my Nigel). This couple has been dating since high school, and the husband is a surgeon now. Meanwhile my Nigel has a career that sounds nice on paper, but the pay isn't great for what you'd expect. Still, he makes twice as much as I do. Between our two incomes combined, we're barely scraping by and we've lived in a shitty apartment in a shitty town for the last 5 years. This crappy place is the most affordable area that we could ever hope to own a home in the future.
Meanwhile Surgeon and his Wife have already had a child, and moved to a beautiful, big home in another city, right on the beach. She has literally none of the problems I'm worried about. Just a fraction of their household monthly income would literally change my entire life and solve every current problem I have. I'm stressed about our cat's upcoming vet bill, my car broke down, and I hate my job, and meanwhile this other person gets to leisurely read books on the beach, she's currently writing a novel for fun from her sunlit home office with palm trees and the ocean breeze outside, and gets to spend time playing with her daughter every day and going for walks on the sand while I'm stuck in this dry, dirty shithole while I'm getting older and older (late 30s) and I don't feel anywhere near being financially comfortable enough or in a healthy enough environment to have a baby. I know comparison is the thief of joy, and I'm ignoring their social media accounts, but I'm so fucking green with envy and I hate feeling this way every time I'm reminded of it.

No. 2587068

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>>2587065
Aw your life sounds so cute and nice otherwise tho. I like when anons don't have overwhelming, insurmountable problems. Just a little bump in the road for this otherwise thriving nona and her competent providing nigel

No. 2587076

>>2587068
Thank you nona, I have to remember to count my blessings. I'm so glad that I have a kind, loving partner and two wonderful cats.

No. 2587078

>>2587065
Aww girl I used to feel that way too about a classmate of mine. I think we fall under the delusion that if we went to the same hs together we're peers or equals. So while she has a lavish wedding and an incredible house, I'm still girl rotting in my apartment with my cat.

But. What helped me feel better is knowing her dad has a company worth between 30million to 81mil, that I didn't know about until doing some research on her family name. Meanwhile my family is so broke, ones on minimum wage and the other has no savings. You don't know what kind of advantages other people have had in life, so don't beat yourself up.

But I've also gotten to experience a lot of things in life she hasn't had, one reason why she was so mean to me. While she had a lot of cool stuff handed to her, I'm the epitome of someone self-made. I may not have the same quality of housing she does, but what I live in and the life I have is all my own. I'm sure your Nigel loves you very much and you can surely have a baby. I think jealousy comes from feeling like you can't have what they have too. I bet your partner would support you if you wanted to have a baby or be a sahm, but it might not be as lavish and luxurious as her lifestyle bc she might have come from family money.

No. 2587080

>>2587060
okay then why do I get tingles from this? are you porn-brained?

No. 2587084

>>2587080
Omg anon thank you for this, I love this kind of asmr. I love unintentional asmr

No. 2587086

Not sure where else to post this but seeing tumblr screenshots of your ex and the girl he's currently dating while casually looking through threads is such a trip. They're not terrible people, but I am so glad I am no longer as chronically on tumblr as they are kek

sage because its not really a vent but not really a confession idk

No. 2587091

Im scared Im a bitch.. I just sent a Tumblr account an anonymous ask saying « i love you!!! » then i reported her blog kekk. Is this who I really am? So fake and a bitch

No. 2587093

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No. 2587097

I use lolcow to be more unabashedly myself… I am so tired of people pleasing and being afraid to be myself. When people tell me their favorite movie and it sucks I want to tell them it fucking sucks without being mean. I just want to shoot from the hip and be honest about it. I am a horse in sheep's clothes… although anyways "being myself" is just mostly bitchy on websites for now

No. 2587100

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>>2587080
No I don't watch porn anon. But if I wanted to become sexually stimulated and had aphantasia or social media brain rot, I would watch porn. If you're asexual it makes sense, otherwise it seems kind of obvious it's an erogenous thing

No. 2587104

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My autistic fucking boyfriend found some old anime from the fucking 60s, raw and unsubbed, and he wants to watch all 109 episodes with me. Fuck my retarded chungus life. Shit is in black and white.

No. 2587109

>>2587104
Yeah but you're probably an anime-fag too tho right?

No. 2587116

I wish I had a mom that I could ask for advice, or at least a parent who could responsibly handle intimate knowledge of my life. I quickly learned when I was younger that telling my mom anything personal, or asking for advice only leads to her interrupting me mid-sentence to freak out and dramatically say one of four things, like a toy with a pull-string that repeats the same phrases:

>You think THAT'S bad? You need to suck it up, I had it WAY worse-

>You're thinking negatively! If you think that things are bad, it'll become real!
>Oh, where did I go wrong? I must have been a bad mother, you used to be such a happy child!
>You need to pray and leave it up to God! Have you listened to [megachurch televangelist]? I sent you a link to your email last week!

No. 2587118

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>>2587104
>boyfriend found some old anime from the fucking 60s, raw and unsubbed, and he wants to watch all 109 episodes with me.
>Fuck my retarded chungus life
can i take your place then?

No. 2587126

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>>2587109
Yes, but I like normal anime that's 13-24 episodes

>>2587118
You want to watch 109 episodes of this shit?

No. 2587130

>>2587100
imagine getting turned on by women whispering or tapping on stuff. gaaaaayyyyyy

No. 2587134

I unplugged my mini fridge but forgot to leave it open and now there's mold in the freezer AHHHHHH

No. 2587140

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>>2587130
A lot of people get turned on by this. Maybe turning that well known fact into some big secret now is part of the worldwide asmr hustle typo/pimp hank

No. 2587146

I just found my diary from high school that's just over a decade old. In one of my entries, I wrote a somewhat short page where I said I didn't understand kids who talked back to my parents and that "I don't talk back to my parents because they terrify me." And man, that passage hit me like a truck. I didn't remember writing that at all. I mean, I knew it was true because both of my parents beat the shit out of me (my dad would even strangle me on occasion), but reading it from someone that felt like it wasn't me (I don't remember writing it, it felt more like a girl I don't know wrote it)… I don't know. It made it feel sad, for some reason. I don't normally feel sad when it's me thinking about myself, but not thinking it was me made me feel sad.
Well, I know it was me.

No. 2587159

>>2587084
I can't stand most ASMR, especially if it involves whispering, tapping, or mouth sounds. It actually makes me angry, like nails on a chalkboard. The only ASMR I like is sand-cutting or cats chewing on things.

No. 2587161

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>>2587130
I'm sorry, nonas

No. 2587162

it's not turned on sexually though. but I do admit that there is a certain attraction component

No. 2587164

reading how much stronger men are and their bodies are just better makes me depressed tbh. hate moids and wish all those rapeapes would die.

No. 2587168

>>2587019
Try harder next time, Peggy, I never mentioned my mom in my post. And if my pussy was getting wet from my friend braiding my hair or dabbing concealer on my face, I'd tell her. It's just a pleasant hominid grooming/social activity feeling, at least for me. Can't speak for others kek

No. 2587171

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>>2587162
This anon is almost there. So close to admitting it, like based role-nona >>2587161

No. 2587173

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>>2587168
and this anon's denial runs deep

No. 2587183

>>2587173
Let me braid your hair nonnie you will see

No. 2587186

>>2587183
that's sexual harassment!

No. 2587187

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>>2587183
Sure nonnie. But you should know, I'm all smoofth(avatarfagging)

No. 2587211

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>>2586033
update i weighed myself since being off my period and ive actually lost weight

No. 2587217

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>>2587211
Not trying to bring you down nona bc I'm pretty sure it was the period sit ups but check out the fourth symptom

No. 2587233

One of my cats got ran over and killed in front of my house. When I told my close friends of over a decade about this, the friend that I consoled over the death of her cat a month ago to the point where I invited her out on my solo outing and made art to honor his life responded with a "omg sorry :(", ignored my follow-up response and not even 5 minutes later sent memes to our other chat as if I did not just tell her something terrible happened to me. I left all the chats with her in it. She hasn't even noticed.

No. 2587236

>>2585796
NTA but I want this so bad. tfw no gf

No. 2587237

>>2587233
If she was genuinely upset about her own dead cat, it might be a self preservation coping mechanism. If this kind of thing happens a lot, probably cluster b and you should ghost

No. 2587238

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>>2587126
>You want to watch 109 episodes of this shit?
with someone, i would

No. 2587243

tmi, whatever. first ever pap smear tomorrow, never fucked a dude before, never used a dildo, last time i used a tampon was like, last year. this is gonna be traumatizing isn’t it

No. 2587248

>>2587243
No, they really aren't that bad. The most awkward part is that it's super cold imo. But the process itself is quick just kind of uncomfortable with your asscheeks hanging off the table while some lady you've never met before goes spelunking in your vagina.

No. 2587256

>>2586579
>I was a nice , pure hearted girl, who was sincere.
A nice, sincere, pure hearted girl would wait until marriage(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 2587258

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>>2587243
>never fucked a dude before
The other anon is lying to you. The last time I visited a bad gyno, who was female for some reason, she used a large(?) size speculum and it literally shot across the fucking room when she turned away to get something else. Make sure to ask for a small size speculum. If they say "we don't have that" ask to see it and if it looks large, say "no thanks" and call someone else so anyways this is how I know those ping pong ball shows in thailand are real, without ever having seen one

No. 2587260

>>2587258
I've never been with a man either and don't put anything up there, idk I guess I got lucky then.

No. 2587261

>>2587258
i’m sorry for laughing but this is so fucking funny

No. 2587263

>>2587260
If you're the anon I accused of lying, maybe you told the gyno that or she didn't have a weird sadistic/dumb streak. Either way, I am happy it worked out for you

No. 2587292

>>2587217
i know but i weighed less than i did before i just couldnt check because of the bloating…

No. 2587296

>>2587236
use a daki, works for me

No. 2587300

>>2587243
I got mine for the first time a few months ago and i didnt really have any pain. The only uncomfortable part was the prying thing they use but the actual scraping didnt feel like anything. Im also a virgin but ive uh.. put stuff inside me before. Nothing as big as an average guys dick, I guess, but still

No. 2587322

i had to move in with roommates to cut costs. they keep using one of my cooking ware despite owning their own. this wouldn't bother me if i didn't have food allergies. so now ive decided it's going in my car where they cant grab it. im honestly beyond pissed they used it without asking multiple times. they also used the only large food storage i had despite having two cubards worth. the dog wipes its ass on the only living room rug, the couch is covered in fur, and constantly begs for food. im so annoyed already.

No. 2587341

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Of course when I have to attend my first concert I can't go because the person I'm sharing the trip with is super sick. I know it's not anybody's fault but I feel extremely miserable, I've waited since March and spent good money on the trip and the BnB only for it to go all down the drain.

No. 2587346

>>2587341
Can’t you just go alone

No. 2587351

>>2587346
No the tickets are tied because she's disabled and I accompany her

No. 2587369

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i spent all day homebrewing my wii u and it was fun for a while but i started feeling lonely and wishing i had friends or a nigel to play the games with. and also the whole house outside of me room is full of clutter because i live with a hoarder and it makes me depressed. i think im just meant to stay inside my room forever im sorry

No. 2587390

I fucking hate men. They’re mentally and emotionally stunted troglodytes who get constantly rewarded for mediocrity and I’m sick of it!

No. 2587392

I am evil

No. 2587397

I'm actually on my way to destroy my ex's so beloved career and I don't regret it one bit. Don't gonna go into the specifics of how I'm gonna do it, but he fucking ruined my life so he deserves it.

No. 2587398

Nonna si am starting my studying marathon for my exam tomorrow. Wish me luck!

No. 2587411

>>2587116
>like a toy with a pull-string that repeats the same phrases
this is literally how I'd describe my mom, crazy

No. 2587439

I drank too much coffee so much coffee my whole body is violently shaking I am intensely on edge about to vomit from any small movement I think my heart is going to explode I have never felt such powerful anxiety in my life I am going to die

No. 2587463

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>Retarded uncle, 48, deadbeat, stoner, MAGA/conspiracy theorist, on social services AND leeching off my disabled grandma/his mom gets confronted about the new "Big Beautiful Bill" passing (which would impact both of them)
>"Oh well, I was just ONE voter, and at least Trump's following through on his promises"
>Promptly takes a nap
>Grandma is more upset at me for wanting to wake him up to curse him out on her behalf
I'm so goddamn tired of the coddling. How can you, as a woman, be so disrespected by your own bald son in your house and STILL bend over backwards to be his mommy PR manager? She even put up a photo of him holding me a baby like he's some pure cinnamon roll, mind you, he's got 3 kids he won't even talk to on the phone because he's (self-admitted) focusing on himself and getting a DJ career started.
>>2587390 Fucking preach.

No. 2587468

>>2587398
good luck smart nonnie

No. 2587477

the internet isn't even a good escape anymore. it's like i'm chasing a high i'll never feel again.

No. 2587490

>>2587477
as someone who has been using the internet since 2008, this is exactly how i feel too. It used to be a form of escapism but now it feels like hell and i don't know what else to make me happy.

No. 2587510

>>2587398
Good luck anonna, you got this!

No. 2587514

>>2587477
I remember people being more kind to each other and finding random cute webpages. People put so much effort into websites and creating fun projects. Most of it cannot even be found anymore because it never got achieved

No. 2587528

>>2587477
I want out so bad

No. 2587530

>>2587528
Just dont go on then, it's easy. I did a month detox earlier this year, it was heavenly

No. 2587537

>>2587530
I'm a zoomer I don't know what people did before the internet. I have work in the middle of the day but I'm not sure what to even do in the afternoons. I guess read but I'm not huge on books. What else is there?

No. 2587544

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I'm a north-western Europoor and it's going to be almost 40°C here today. I already feel like dying and it's only 11.30pm.
>you are such a pussy anon, I live in (some hot country or state) and it's always 666° here
We don't have ACs here, and the humidity and lack of wind makes it impossible to cool down or breathe while outside. Also, the weather can't fucking decide on what it wants. The max temperature on Saturday was 22°, now it's almost 40. It's a complete mindfuck and impossible to adjust to.

No. 2587546

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>>2587510
>>2587468
Thank you nonna! I am on a break rn. Are a nice plate of pasta. I’ll have a small nap later.

No. 2587552

The economy is shit and the cost of living is bleak. I hate when I look up money saving tips and it's shit like "cut out a few subscriptions", or "eat out less" or "go out less" or "do a no buy month", kek. I already pirate everything, never eat out and cook everything at home, I barely leave my house unless it's for college or work. I don't buy any new clothes or unnecessary stuff, and have been wearing the same stuff since I was 14. The only way to save money for me, is unplugging everything, taking short and cold showers. Showering every other day. And eating twice a day and fasting for 24 hours on some days of the week. Why the fuck was I born? I'm not even living, just barely surviving like a fucking animal.

No. 2587554

>>2587537
Read, exercise, go on a walk, go to a music event, rollerblade, ride a bike, play singleplayer video games, paint, draw, knit, watch a movie, go to the theatre, play an instrument, listen to music, clean your apartment, rearrange your space, cook a nice meal, there are plenty of things you can do without using the internet or sparsely doing so.

No. 2587557

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just walked out from my B2 german exam… I did reading part okay, but during listening I got just intense anxiety, couldn't focus at all. And I just couldn't continue on writing and speaking, I am sure I would jsut start crying and traumatise myself for the next try. I was not supposed to have this exam this early, I was already supposed to work in Germany for month or so but hr took so much time finalising my things… I am such a failure… But getting to b2 in two months from a2 was extremely difficult. I learned around 200 vocab a day and now I can read pretty much anything, but I never even spoke german with anyone since high school. It was impossible to do my first speaking at the exam. I have to start Monday my new job in german (I don't need the certificate right away) and I need to study so much of medicine and neurology all in German, and I have only a few days now so I think I will mostly study when I start. I think I just can't anymore. Doctor who was supposed to mentor me and help me a lot during the first weeks with language and socialising is away on vacation. My flat that I was supposed to have got for some reason more complicated, they suddenly want some documents they didn't before, and I will have to probably share the flat with previous rentee's wife before the papers get finalised. So I won't even have peace at home after the first work days. My ldr boyfriend was supposed to come visit me for the month or so and help me with cooking, moving in and just lift me up a bit when I'm starting but bc of the wife I will have to wait few more weeks since it's finalised. It's all messed up, the time line is messed up. It goes from the last thing I was supposed to do to the first one. All I do is be locked up and study and yet I fucking fail at everything

No. 2587558

>>2587537
here's an exercise, turn off the phone or any smart device for two-three day. I promise, after a few hours pass you'll start coming up with ideas, you just have to get naturally bored first and let your brain know that picking up the internet is not an option

No. 2587559

>>2586916
I agree, and I don't mind looking my age. But women's attractiveness is 1:1 with how young she looks, in society in general. She was basically calling me ugly with plausible deniability.
>>2586929
Now that I think about it, it is an extremely odd response. "Aren't you too old to be in college?" bleh
>>2586942
this basically
>>2586925
Straight women when it's been 5 minutes without mentioning how young they look for their age:

No. 2587562

>>2587537
Get some acrylic/textile paint and go wild on your plain clothes, that's what I do when I'm bored

No. 2587568

>>2587559
>But women's attractiveness is 1:1 with how young she looks, in society in general
Maybe im sheltered but i genuinely only see this mentality on the internet

No. 2587569

>>2586909
Well how did she look?

No. 2587571

>>2587537
If you have a topic you like (game characters, bands, movie etc), you could make a book or folder about it, cut things out and scrapbook. Get some magazines and read them and cut things out and then glue them into your book

No. 2587572

Nonnas I love to lie. But it never harms anybody it’s white lies or making up funny stories to make someone laugh when I’m bored. What mental illness is that? Ive done this since a kid

No. 2587574

Nonnas I love to lie. But it never harms anybody it’s white lies or making up funny stories to make someone laugh when I’m bored. What mental illness is that? Ive done this since a kid

No. 2587575

>>2587568
My brother actually shocked me when my mum, him and I were watching something about sophie Ellis bextor and my mum went she's great looking for her age and my brother went, "she's just great looking." It was refreshing lol.

No. 2587577

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>>2587572
i steal interesting stories from other people and pretend it happened to me.

No. 2587594

Saved up my cash to go to a concert in another city this week and to take some time off and enjoy the season but day one and my entitled cousin had to sabotage it by getting drunk and throwing a tantrum because I simply said no when she demanded i put her son to bed so she can walk to the liquor store and pick up another six pack. Ofc before adding in it’s “the least I can do” because I forgot to send her broke ass fifteen bucks for the first six pack and bottle she bought
I knew she was super drunk so I thought of pretending to sleep and this bitch actually leaves the house with her son sleeping downstairs
I am genuinely so ashamed of her rn I knew she was a bad drunk and had iffy parenting choices but she’s genuinely cooked in the head now I think alcoholism makes you retarded
I feel so bad for her kid bro he’s so sweet and smart why does he have to have a useless drunk as a mom
Sold my ticket for less than half of what I paid but it’s not even worth it anymore I wouldn’t be able to stand her drunk or sober after last night.
Some part of me is saying don’t be a pussy because I’ve def been too drunk and had an outburst I don’t remember in the morning but idk it felt different this time almost like she has a secret animosity towards me and I just don’t trust her anymore she seemed normal in texts and when she left for work this morning but for all I know she remembers everything she did and is just gonna blame it on the booze to dodge accountability

No. 2587597

>>2587572
Same I love it. I love not telling people where I’ve been and making shkt up it’s just fun. Anyway I think it’s overactive imagination.

No. 2587654

>>2587164
don't worry nonna, they compensate for it by being whiny and emotionally weak, at least you're mentally stronger than most of them

No. 2587668

My abuterol inhaler is making.me shake and have zoomies. Coupled with caffeine, I just saw a bag with my name poorly written on it and started crying. Why is this all it takes for me to realize I am a human with a pulse that exists? Not just some audience angle camera capturing the lives of those around me?

No. 2587680

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Woke up feeling so bleak I cried to a chatbot about it kek. Is this what you looked forward to as a child? Is that what you envisioned?

No. 2587682

>>2587164
Physical strength is honestly all they have. Maybe slightly quicker reaction times too, but the average moid is a lazy piece of shit who doesn't do anything to exercise his brain. That's why they're flailing so much as technology advances and allows women to surpass them.

No. 2587696

>>2587369
>>2587477
Every time I come here, nonas feel the exact same way I do but we somehow cannot be together. Portal technology now. Who wants to zap in and look at their phone next to me in my bed while the TV and a podcast are also on

No. 2587715

>>2587680
When I was a kid from around 11 up i envisioned myself dead by this time, so i guess crying chatbot but alive is still better. I outlived my expectations by such a long time

No. 2587718

>>2587552
>I hate when I look up money saving tips
Me with every goddamn rocket money ad. I fuckin WISH I could just uWu not even notice 120 bucks missing every month.

No. 2587720

>>2587668
Deep breaths

No. 2587726

There's a third fucking bird update and you won't believe this nonnies.
The bird is back… He found a weird hole in my backyard and he's hiding in there. I'm starting to believe he uses this hole to sleep and relax, BUT HE'S A COMMONSWIFT BIRD THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO FLY NON STOP!!! I'm so confused by this bird at this point. What's its problem? Just fly and stop being a fucking loser man, be with your peers, do bird shit!!! Do you think he's depressed? You don't even live in a capitalist society, I DONT GET IT I DONT GET IT AT ALL IT DRIVES ME INSANE. I gave him water and seeds again kekk, this is so retarded but I care about him so much and I was thinking about him today, feeling happy he's finally out there flying and then he pulls this shit on me

No. 2587730

>>2587726
Swifts like to nest in holes in houses. Are you sure it's not a female? It might be nesting.

No. 2587738

Can't stand it when I'm having a conversation with someone and I bring up something that reminds them of a movie or a show that I haven't seen. They ask me if I've seen it. I say no. Expecting the conversation to continue. But then they spend the next 5 minutes derailing everything by explaining the characters and plot and every detail of it. I truly, truly do not fucking care.

No. 2587749

>>2587730
Ohhh i'll look into it, thank you!

No. 2587757

I got into the habit of whispering "I'm going to kill myself" whenever I feel stressed out and am alone but today I did it while someone else was around but being quiet. I'm genuinely going to kill myself

No. 2587775

Family kept interrupting my sleep and now I have insane heart palpitations. Great.

No. 2587790

The internet is a good coping mechanism because my usual baseline is just so miserable. But spending 12 hours a day online and going down some nasty ragebaiting twitterholes just makes you a perpetually ragebaited person, and really chips away at your grounding in reality. Living online does disassociate you from the real world, and I do think that disassociation can lead to mental disassociation, and mental illness.

Like I'm only in my 30s, but the level of these sorts of irrational hysteric terrors would easily put me over the deep end permanently in old age.

No. 2587802

>>2587775
You need a nap baby

No. 2587806

I can't move on with my life. I've gotten to a point where I cannot speak a coherent sentence. I'm constantly watching videos on Philosophy, history or reading interesting articles and my verbal capacity doesn't improve. I've been on so much medication none of it has helped me. I wish that I could just have a normal life and I worked really hard towards that. I'm witnessing everyone get married, have friends, go on trips. While I am still stuck in the same shithole that I've been trying to escape since I was a kid. I've been suffering from severe suicidal depression for 16 years and it doesn't get better. Sometimes I see no way out besides suicide. I've placed effort into my looks and into pretty much everything. My mind just doesn't work right.

I am constantly organizing things but everything is disorganized. I am constantly organizing the pictures that I have on my phone but here I am not having a meme that I could attach to this post.

I really wanted it to get better but it didn't. I don't think it ever will. I am not sure why am I even keeping myself alive at this point.

No. 2587825

>>2587802
Too hungry for that but maybe you're right

No. 2587835

>>2586675
At what point does a lesbian lose her virginity to another woman?
What if you got manipulated so harshly and consistently over a long timespan (some moids are known to do this for years) that you can only count the sex you eventually had with him as rape by deception?
Do you think rape victims have to declare themselves non-virgins?

No. 2587851

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I've been writing before about how I have not had any appetite for a while, so I started tracking what I eat out of curiosity and to help me make sure I hit at least close to the macros I need to ingest. It's been like this for 3+ weeks.
And fuck, I struggle to eat more than 1200kcal and I'm fucking 5"10 and go the gym a lot. Hell, some days when I'm too full I've only had 1000kcal. Whenever I try to google this I end up with people replying it's because my body is in "starvation mode", but it's not like I'm struggling by choice. I had my bloodworks checked just a while ago and everything looked absolutely perfect then, and it's not like I'm feeling much of a difference in my energy levels.
At the moment I try to make sure I get proper nutrients in my meals; cottage cheese, chia seeds, beans, greens, yogurt, protein shakes… but if I eat too much I feel sick, so it's not like I can force anything down either. I'm doing just fine on my current, accidental low-cal diet and I'm feeling healthy, I shouldn't though and it's making me a bit confused.

No. 2587882

My OCD has making me think I have herpes right now even though it's highly unlikely. AGGGGHHHHH.

No. 2587886

>>2587882
Ignore yourself, do not check, try your hardest and it'll break the cycle a little

No. 2587887

So last week I had this dumb job interview at a burger place for a milkshake job and the interviewer was a weird racist but anyways she said she'd give an update this week and so far nothing. I think she didn't even bother letting me know I'm not hired. I don't know what to do anymore, I've tried everything, nothing works. Nothing is working out for me kek it's so crazy, so so so so so crazy…

No. 2587895

Got in an argument with somebody online about how "le porn is good actually" and after one reply i checked the profile and realized I was arguing with a 15 year old tim. These kids are getting groomed online so hard jesus christ

No. 2587916

SCIATICAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

No. 2587917

A teenage girl is shadowing at my job today and she’s really cute and sweet. Talking to her is making me feel blackpilled as fuck because she’s so kind and brilliant and men are going to try and take that away from her as she gets older. I wish I could buy a huge plot of land and let women and girls roam free and if men try to hop the fences they’re caught and sent to the labor camp.

No. 2587923

I have a lot of the meme-y chronically online illnesses and I’m tired of feeling like I can’t talk about them for fear of being judged. Of course a lot of them disproportionately impact women and even on LC I feel like no one takes them seriously. I am certain mine all developed from the chronic stress of growing up in an abusive household but people always have some snide comment. I would say I’m in a milder era of my issues but it still takes a lot more physical and mental energy to execute the same way most people do. I don’t even ask for external help because I know the majority of people will just brush me off. All I really want is for people to be a bit more understanding and not make dumb comments about how I have to manage myself to function.

No. 2587927

>>2584176
What about any of this makes you male?

No. 2587939

>>2584176
I'm not sure I understood everything you're saying, but you're way too terminally online if you think in order to be a woman you have to choose tradthot, libfem or radfem. Do men have to choose a super strict ideology in order to be men? No. Then why do you think women have to? That's in itself a misogynistic concept.

No. 2587958

>>2587397
Happy for you, anon. I hope it went well.

No. 2587963

This is embarrassing but my butt is too big in proportion to the rest of me, I hate it so much. I don't like having boobs or a rounder ass, when I see them in the mirror I relive all the moments I've been sexualised. I wouldn't care if those things never happened. I tried to ana-chan it away but it's still obvious. I wear clothes to cover myself up and hide my body but it doesn't stop me from feeling bad when I'm alone with myself. I wish I just had an insecurity like "I'm fat and I want to be skinny so I'm pretty" and not what I have now. It doesn't feel wrong to be insecure because it, to me, feels like a logical response to what I've had to live through. I know I shouldn't try to change my body, but what else do I have when the world around me so clearly does not want to change.

No. 2587973

>>2587963
You need therapy nonna, you don't really hate your body, you hate what happened to you in this body.

No. 2588010

Bringing up old shit but it still bothers me. So I hired a mutual to design an art banner for my blog bc she was a graphics major and kept advertising her commissions so I assumed she wanted the work. I tell her what I want, something cute and crisp with a pastel pallet, and she tells me she can handle it. FF a week later she gives me a demo and it's a bunch of clashing colors and faded overlays that were just ugly. I try really hard to pick out the things I liked about it, but basically told her to do it over. She takes my notes but suddenly stops responding. Not even one check-in, beyond a general "sorry for taking so long guys!" I'm getting annoyed, when this radio silence continues for 6 months! And I saw her begging for more commissions! I DM her asking to talk so I can cancel, and she's all "can it wait until later? I'm going out with friends" I just canceled right there and blocked her
And now I know for a fact she didn't even work on the revisions I gave her. For 6 months! Holy shit, don't take commissions then

No. 2588016

>>2584176
>everything about being a woman is a constantly fearing for your life and hiding
Ugh I feel this so much. But, at the same time, I'm certain this comes from deep insecurity. I have the same issues with feeling completely powerless in life due to being a woman but also incredibly short. Sure, a lot of that stems from past experiences of scrotes being incredibly shitty to me, but it also comes from a lifetime of living with my parents who instilled in me from day one that all strangers are out to get you and I run the risk of being raped to death the millisecond I go outside – especially at night. One thing you need to do right now is escape any circumstance you're living in filled with crazy people or make friends with women (despite your differences) because the best way to feel demoralized is by being completely alone.

No. 2588067

Everyday I try not to cry about the fact that everyone achieves something and all I get is more deaths, or failures, being ignored. And I've tried to make it since 2020. And no matter what, I never give up, I try to change strategies, now I try to learn a new skill, try to change my thoughts, nothing happens. I don't know how much longer I can be patient. I'm so exhausted meanwhile everyone wins, even a little something. I would love even the smallest tiniest little-est win this year. Just to stay sane

No. 2588079

Today I had to have an EEG and it was more painful than the previous ones i’ve had. This time the pens they used to mark my head and squeeze the glue onto the spots with were much sharper/pointier, and they had to stick electrodes onto my face this time too and for the nonnies who don’t know the little electrodes are basically stickers with like a piece of metal attached to it that reads through your skull and looks at your brain so when they pull off these metal electrodes with this super strong glue all over your face, behind your ears, on your hair, and your neck it is really painful. Like actually made me cry, painful.

No. 2588081

My tics are completely out of control. At the end of the day I'm exhausted from contracting my face and twitching my body. My face hurts. I try so hard to control them in public but I know people notice. Thankfully they're nice friends and don't comment on it. But just the tics themselves are so draining.

No. 2588086

I made a little visual novel, like 10 minutes long nothing crazy, and it took effort ngl, the thing is even my mom played it (she doesn't even know how to copy paste in her computer) but my bf hasn't and he's told me to "remind him", but I've already reminded him 3 times. I know he doesn't play VNs and prefers shooters and shit but c'mon dude, it's like 10 minutes of your time to show appreciation and support for your partner. I'm feeling more and more sad each day that passes that he doesn't play it tbh, and I'm getting more and more angry at myself for putting up with his bullshit.

No. 2588087

>>2588067
I think your resilience and will is a win. The fact you even try to expand yourself is more than most can say they do.

No. 2588092

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Sometimes i think too hard about all the child and animal abuse that takes place in the world and it makes me so suicidal lol!

No. 2588097

>>2588086
I also have a pet moid. Women are capable of deriving happiness and pleasure from caring for others and bringing them joy, but men either aren't, or are simply unwilling to. They're naturally selfish. Unfortunately in order to be in a relationship with a man, you have to have ground level expectations of him.
>>2588092
Me too nonnie. I feel complicit in it just by existing, and like what's the point in being happy healthy and comfortable if there are people going through unimaginable suffering?

No. 2588098

>>2588092
I get you, I feel violent moreso

No. 2588099

i want to go to buy some marijuanas but i need to stop crying kek. my plug doesn't care about my giant autismo but i can't go like this. the moid i have to call "bf" doesn't even have the nerve to invite me to his house and expects me to just spawn there like a professional hooker. bruh not even the plug acts like this, he is way more direct and no bullshit than a moid in a relationship, despite being a fucking dealer…most of them act like fucking divas

No. 2588114

>>2587916
And I'm actively worsening it by refusing to improve my posture and putting pressure on the nerve.

No. 2588116

>>2588087
This made me cry thank u

No. 2588126

Just discovered my idol was releasing bangers at fucking 18, then literally was a successful singer by 22 with zero nepo past, just raw talent and autism. I feel retarded and unaccomplished in comparison, how's that even possible? man i'm a fraud

No. 2588129

>>2588086
He doesnt care about your vn, the sooner you accept that the less hurt you'll be when you eventually realize you have to dump him

No. 2588133

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Had to evict my lodger today using police to escort her off the property after she explicitly told me that she wouldn’t be paying rent going forward and kept repeatedly ignoring my requests for her to pay or leave.

I feel absolutely horrendous. She was sobbing. I remember every kind and considerate word and action she had done for me and I feel rotten. However, she did run up £800 of electricity and worked illegally on a tourist visa evading taxes but of course had no issue using the NHS GP.

I’ve been going through her stuff as most of it she left behind and it’s immediately obvious she has spent at least £10,000 on accumulating worthless junk and bric a brac in only one year that she could have paid rent with and with the massive tax evasion you’d think she could swing it.

Yes I am rotten to the core.

No. 2588145

>>2588126
a while ago I was thinking about how toby fox had released undertale and all the amazing music he did for homestuck by the time he was my age (23) and feeling like a useless retard kek. but comparison is the theft of joy and such. and a lot of those people got lucky and found scenes where they fit in at a young age and were encouraged and rewarded for their talents, which a lot of people can go their whole lives never experiencing. You should try to experiment with music if its something youre interested in, what do you have to lose?

No. 2588158

>>2584176
The way you box women into these stereotypes is so depressing, no wonder you're miserable living as on. Be the person you want to be and feel like you are, while being a woman. I don't know who told you that you have to pick between 3-5 character archetypes and hobbies but you gotta log off. It's not like that in real life. People are way more varied about everything you brought up.

No. 2588197

>>2588145
i don't have the balls anon, im too scared of failing miserably, if i do actually post my stuff. im too pussy and will never forgive myself for it

No. 2588200

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I love cute things but for some reason they always make me feel sad at the same time?? Pictures of Sylvanian Families/Calico Critters, or seeing real kittens and hearing their tiny mews makes me feel overwhelmed by how cute they are, and at the same time fills me with a horrible sense of dread like I’m afraid something bad is going to happen to them. I’ve felt this way since I was a kid, cute cartoons or baby animals always made me feel this weird sense of sadness and I’d think about mortality for the rest of the day. It’s like my brain short-circuits and floods my thoughts with all of the horrible things in the world every time I see something cute or wholesome, and I feel helpless that I can’t protect all of the tiny things and keep them from harm. I don’t understand it, I just want to look at kittens or enjoy my time playing with my cat without thinking “oh no, they’re going to get hurt or die someday”.
Picrel, these baby Persian cat triplets just wrecked me

No. 2588202

>>2588145
Tobyfox is also a savant retard who’s too anxious to check his own email inbox and wears a mask in public at all times. He could produce undertale at 23 because he had a specific combination of autism and passion that we only see in historical figures like Mozart. Compare yourself to regular people in your life that you admire, not the ones who’ve changed the world in their 20s kek

No. 2588205

I wish i had friends. Im so lonely.

No. 2588209

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I’ve gone through 5 packs of tissues today. 50 tissues!!!! My nose is sore from all the rubbing and I just want to rip it off at this point. I wish I could sneeze 500 times in a row and get all this mucus out of my body right now at once.

No. 2588215

>>2588209
lmao this is me when my allergies kick in full force, awful. i hope you recover soon anon, I've wasted soooo many paper rolls too

No. 2588216

>>2588202
>Tobyfox is a savant on par with Mozart for his creation of Undertale
What a wild fucking sentence that makes total sense. Also keep in mind he lived in Hussie’s basement for like a year and just worked on music and Undertale, nothing else. I’ve been around these supremely gifted types before and nine times out of ten their gift is fostered and supported by the people around them. Similar reason why so many pro athletes have a birthday in January, their talent is just better recognized and fostered from an early age because of circumstances.

No. 2588217

I threw up and feel horrible but I felt even worse when I realized there's no one I can tell this to cuz no one cares about my wellbeing

No. 2588222

>>2588217
Gently holds you

No. 2588229

>>2588200
I have this exact problem too nonna, when I was a kid I had a t-shirt with two kittens sleeping in a hammock that would make me cry uncontrollably. My parents never knew how to deal with it and I never found someone to talk about this, I thought it would go away with age, but I'm 30 and still cry when I see cute animals. Is there a rational explanation to this ?

No. 2588245

i feel sad about my nigels past (he wasnt a slut or anything just 1 serious gf but they were together for years), he never ever brings her up to me but sometimes i just get sad thinking about it because he's my first for a lot of things but ill never be his first for anything … it doesnt make me severely depressed and i didnt care so much before because he's so kind and sweet to me but the other day we were playing a game hes had for a while together & i saw a save he had with his ex & it just made me feel like i was less special or something. its so stupid & idk whether or not i should even mention my feelings to him bc it feels like im blaming him for living a life before we met or something. i didnt care so much before but ever since seeing that small thing ive just been feeling not good. id put this in the relationship advice thread but idek if i want actual advice since i feel bad about keeping it in & the idea of talking about it to him. i mostly just wanna get this off of my chest.

No. 2588249

>>2588216
nta but what you're just saying is that he had financial help, which is fair though somewhat awkward considering there's tens of millions of neets supported by others that don't do anything.

No. 2588254

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girls, i haven't been on lolcow in a few years, but here i am to vent.

so basically, i was edating this man (first mistake) and he lived like 1000 miles down the coast from me. We met irl a few times and things werent going great for either of us as far as jobs and housing, so we played around with the idea of moving in together. i wanted him to move north since i had more connections and bigger city. he was admint on me moving to bumb fuck no where in the south. i did after we edated for a year. (second mistake)

i get here and things are going great, hes a ministry, seems to love me, we talk about our futures and marrige. i find out on christmas eve he was cheating on me the whole time we dated and slept with someone two weeks after i moved in with him. (i did tell her)

we decided to try and make it work. we countinue about our lives all while he is being an alcholic and taking triple c's to get high and blowing money on stupid shit. i still have my rose colored "i can fix him" glasses on. I mother him: clean, cook, give him money, and make sure the bills are paid.

end of May we go to a town that is also in the middle of bumb fuck nowhere to interview as a couple for a pastor position. it goes great, we are looking at town houses to rent, we are talking about our future.

10 days later we are at dinner and he tells me this isnt going to work and breaks up with me. i am devistated.

a week or so passes of just trying to convince him that our lives will be better when we move and not to do this. i had uprooted my whole life and loved him.

i get curious and snoop through his stuff. find him talking mad shit about me going back months with his butt buddy. also find out he broke up with me to be with the girl he was now cheating on me with. I waited out a few days and he is texting her with her full legal name in his contacts. i find her on facebook and tell her. she blocks him and tells him to fuck off. he doesnt know i contacted her.

he is spiralling into drugs and drinking. he was never mean. but the night he really let his colors show, screaming at me, threating to beat me, throw my stuff on the curb. how much of a pathetic person i am.

i contact the church he was we interviewed at and tell them everything. he gets the job revoked and he puts the peices together that it is me. (i also just think the church needs actual good people, and he is not it.)

he is home the night that he found out and gets drunk and does some more screaming and yelling at me.

he's blocked me on everyhting and is ???? who knows where, but i am here for a few more days before i drive back up the cost to share a two bedroom apt with three other girls.

shits a mess and i learned my lesson.(integrate)

No. 2588259

>>2588202
Well the point of my post was that you shouldnt compare yourself to people…

No. 2588260

>>2588254
id also like to add that this is a 35 year old grown ass man. (i am also a grown ass woman)

No. 2588265

>>2588249
It’s not just financial help but other stuff too tbh.
>there are neets in the same situation who don’t do anything
Yeah and that’s not applicable. The point is that supremely gifted people usually have a gift but what sets them apart are the circumstances they are in rather than the inherent talent they possess usually.

No. 2588269

>>2588265
but that's just it: you can't lead a horse to water. truly talented and self-directed people will usually find a way to create something, even if it's just under limited means. it isn't really a good precedent to set that only profoundly supported people can create either because the vast majority of people spend most of their free time on uncreative things.

No. 2588270

>>2588245
Hey nona,not going to shame you for this or anything but I wouldn't recommend bringing it up because all he will feel is guilty. Youre feeling insecurity in some ways, that you'll never be his first or that you are somehow less special. The point is that you're his "now" and she's not. You have to strengthen your own resolve to believe that you're special in yourself enough that he has the privlage of being with you. You're not a lesser woman, nor is his ex girlfriend. They didn't work. I wish your relationship the best but if one day you breakup, youre still you,he's still him, and some other girl might feel how you do. These are deceptive feelings born of insecurity. Are you afraid that something about you won't match up to her? That there's a space that you would have filled that would've been memorable and untouchable due to being "first"? I think it would be good to just try to analyze those feelings and figure out where exactly they're coming from so that you can settle yourself. I don't think there's a point speaking to him about it though, even if he takes it well. Its different when said to a woman but if someone told me that, even another woman, I would feel a strange guilt or at least like I'd done something wrong just by having lived before her. Just try to sit with this one on your own for a time and get a little stronger in your own sense of self worth. Don't create conflict for yourself.

No. 2588272

>>2588269
see the topic of the "starving artist". there's massive amounts of celebrated art now that was created by people in poverty. is this something that should be aspired to? no, but so many of these people were completely isolated and even considered social outcasts. I'm stating this because in modern society there's a growing epidemic of a lack of intrinsic motivation in spite of there being far more free tools to create heartfelt things than ever.

No. 2588278

>>2588272
>art that was created by people in poverty
they usually were supported by family or had multiple patrons nonny

No. 2588280

>>2588269
Nta but you're so right about this

No. 2588282

>>2588278
starting to wonder if you just never tried to make much yourself which is why you're so obsessed with getting support while ignoring the many artists that made their own way.

No. 2588284

>>2588270
thank you so much for the input i think thats what i needed to hear. ive sat with the feeling for a couple of days now and i think its less about being insecure about his ex specifically & more worried that the moments we'll share in the future wont be as special to him as they will to me, since hes already done so much & knows how things go. it makes me worried that we wont have any truly new experience together, and that itll be more like him holding my hand through a bunch of new moments. but i really appreciate & will take to heart what you said about strengthening my own resolve & knowing that being with me is a privilege for him; framing it that way makes it easier to work through these emotions. ill definitely just focus on working on myself instead of mentioning it to him because i'd hate to make him feel guilty about it all. thank you again!

No. 2588287

>>2588282
I'm nta lol just starving artist is a myth

No. 2588296

>>2588287
how so? of course some artists get famous or have people supporting them, though some end up having to quit, others end up just creating leisurely on their off-time from their wagie jobs. however one thing is true: most artists in the world can't support themselves with their craft, and most don't have family members infinitely supporting them either.

No. 2588306

>>2588245
Ngl this would make me want to die, I’m glad I’m my nigel’s first everything

No. 2588307

>>2588284
Youre welcome, angel, I hope things settle for you. Have a good day/night and take care.

No. 2588312

>>2588296
Simply because creativity doesn't work without some sense of security. For some people this means having just one supportive person in their life, for others being in a tight knit community of friends and family, for someone else financial support done either with their own job or someone elses input. Creativity doesnt work if you feel uprooted and worry about if you're gonna have a place to sleep next week for example, you're not gonna make a masterpiece in that state. Anyway idk what time period you are referring to but most of the old masters we go to see in the museums have had either big families, sponsors, curators for their work, even if they were hermits. They would also take multiple lovers and that would fulfill their social needs, and so on and so forth.
People who strike gold early in life will almost always have good conditions around the project they were working on. What are those conditions depends on that specific person so you can't just level everyone and say everyone has the same needs to be able to express themselves creatively. That's not to say being bitter about it is a good idea since everyone has yheir own life experience, so if someone wants to express creatively but can't, the best thing to do is find out how to create conditions that will allow that to be easier and with that process started, in time the conditions will become perfect for the ultimate creative expression.

No. 2588317

>>2588269
Anon I am sorry to say but the vast majority of artists have financial help or come from an affluent background. It isn’t that poor people are incapable of creating art, but that being encouraged from a young age, provided resources like tutors, lessons, access to equipment and supplies, and also being surrounded by a community that supports and encourages art cannot be overstated.

I know modern art communities and know many professional artists. None of them came from a background that wasn’t like the above. If you grow up one of five kids in a single parent household in the middle of rural Ohio the chances of you being able to cultivate your skills to be on the same level as those above is almost none. It doesn’t mean you can’t create art or work on your skills later, but that comparing where you are in your early twenties to those same people is a fruitless exercise and honestly is more reflective of the opportunities you have been afforded in life than your latent ability. That’s what the original conversation was about, not whether poor people can or can’t create art or be talented.

No. 2588321

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I can't stand being on the internet anymore. I can't stand being alone anymore. I just wish that I had one person in my life that I would feel emotionally connected to, that would respect me, that I could live with. I just want to get the courage to end it all. I want to fucking kill myself.

No. 2588322

Watched a clip of the Mormon wives reunion and why is the retarded husband saying that his cheating (with men on Grindr) was due to being raped. Scrotes really dodge accountability kek.
Being raped is not an excuse to cheat on your wife and two children, what a retard (and faggot).

No. 2588324

I’m jealous that hsr is doing a fsn collab when that fucking stupid worthless hoyosloppa turd doesnt deserve anything, story written by nasu at that. I wish it was Arknights instead

No. 2588329

It’s 2 am and I feel sick. My all nigh get failed. I want to sleep but I can’t even sleep sigh.

No. 2588333

I can never tell whether zoomers are being condescending or just aloof, and always err on the former side

No. 2588340

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>ate an edible on Sunday
>ate an edible yesterday
>I feel like shit and want to eat an edible today
It's a struggle to figure if it's worth being sober or not today. Fwiw I can't do drugs for the next three days after today, maybe that makes it not as bad?

No. 2588349

>>2588322
Mormons creep me out so much

No. 2588350

>>2588340
edibles for the third day in a row is going to continue to make you feel shit regardless.

No. 2588354

>>2588350
I did skip Monday tbf.

No. 2588379

>>2588306
I hope next time you have an issue and you tell somebody theyre like "Wow that sucks, glad i dont have that problem haha"

No. 2588391

>>2588379
Sorry its just that I mentally pictured another woman’s name appearing on a save file in the scenario she described, thats something I’m glad I will never experience. Her concerns are right tbh

No. 2588397

>>2588317
Except being active in modern art communities, especially in real, is already a niche that most people that create don't even participate in because much of the time they tend to lean more affluent compared to people in general. But I misinterpreted the argument anyway. I didn't realize apparently the subject was just about successful, renowned artists. Almost every artist I've known irl was just some low-class wagie.

No. 2588398

>>2588306
ayrt, i know better than to be sensitive on imageboards but damn this was kind of unnecessary to mention. glad youre not dealing with this though wouldnt wish it on anyone.

No. 2588401

>>2588229
ayrt, I'm so glad I'm not alone! I've tried searching around for this on the internet over the years and the only suggestions I've seen is "Maybe you're nostalgic and missing the innocence of your childhood?" but it's definitely not that. It's a different feeling completely and has less to do with "me" or being a kid, and more to do with feeling sad about the animals themselves. I'm not 100% sure, but I'm wondering if it might be related to OCD and intrusive thoughts and worrying about life and death or something.

No. 2588406

I fell out with my friend recently and at first, I was pretty torn up about it because we were close. Now I realize she really was a horrible friend and now I don’t feel so bad anymore.
>Raging bippie
>Terrible childhood, mom overdosed when she was 11 and dad was severely neglectful
>Self-victimization through the roof
>Craved male validation because “muh daddy issues”
>Constantly in and out of situationships with random shitty men she met on dating apps
>Stalked, like genuinely stalked, of those moids for over a year
>He truly did not give a fuck even though she would come to his door unsolicited
>Would text same moid gigantic paragraphs daily and he wouldn’t respond for months at a time
>Had Snapchat Plus to keep track of her roster
>Was so disrespectful to her grandparents even though she was staying with them
>Jealous of my long-term healthy relationship
>Has public meltdowns on her TikTok account
>We had a rough patch once and she dissed me on said TikTok account
>Ended our friendship because I bought a cart because “carts and dabs are for the crackheads of weed”
>Whatever the fuck that meant
>Willingly had Snapchat Plus
She was truly hell to be around. I’m glad she’s out of my life.

No. 2588407

>>2588306
Famous last words kek. I have just hexxed you because you were a retard for feeling sweet on nonna’s dime when she is down.

No. 2588409

>>2588407
>>2588306
Your nigel will cheat on you or will secretly watch porn of women that look completely different from you or even faggots. Good luck nonna.

No. 2588414

>>2588407
Oh noooo here comes the voodoo spirituality retard kekkk, no one takes you manifestation bitches seriously

No. 2588416

>>2588245
I mean I can definitely understand where you are coming from. You are having many first and to you they are important, while he doesn’t feel the same, it sorts of removes the novelty, innocence and novelty of it all and doesn’t feel equal.
If you think that he is mature enough you might be able to talk to him, but I have yet to see a scrote capable of communicating without playing the victim kek.
I think what you are feeling is called retroactive jealousy.

No. 2588418

>>2588414
The only “bitch” here is you. I could tell by two text of yours that you are like a finger in the ass with no lube.(infighting)

No. 2588424

>>2588418
I’m sorry your nigel thinks about other women while he’s fucking you to the point it makes you lash out at others(infighting)

No. 2588425

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>>2588407
you have no power here

No. 2588426

>>2588416
>retroactive jealousy
Now this is prime bait

No. 2588429

Hey guys what's up lol
>>2588424
oh my goodness…

No. 2588430

>>2588424
Not OP, learn to properly integrate.
Can you genuinely piss off with your shitty attitude? You are mean and rude for no reason and double down on someone who is already down.

No. 2588431

>>2588306
Women like you think you are better than other women just because you have a man by your side and think that he’s hot shit kek.

No. 2588434

I think I have PMDD or something and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m going outside, getting fresh air and vitamin D, making sure I take multivitamins and whatever else I can think of to help my body and hormonal balance. I’m so tired of being so hopelessly sad for an entire week and feeling like I want to die, every month of my life FOR NO GOOD REASON! I can’t even “logic my way out of it” by reminding myself it’s just that time of the month, it doesn’t stop my brain from feeling like crap.

No. 2588435

>>2588416
ayrt, i might talk to him if it ever comes up in a convo but like >>2588270 said i wouldnt wanna make him feel guilty just for having a life before me. it feels like it would be an unproductive convo the more i think about it because realistically what can he do? cant really erase the past LOL. he does normally encourage me to talk with him if im feeling down so if i start spiraling more i might let him know but im feeling a bit better now so i think ill just sit and reflect more on myself for now, ty for the input!

No. 2588471

>>2588434
im trying calcium pills with vitamin d i read on the pmdd subreddit theyre supposed to help

No. 2588473

>>2588435
If you keep stuff in you just end up resenting people. It’s clearly bothering you, if it didn’t you would have not even wrote here. I doubt it will pass on its own.

No. 2588475

>>2588434
If you take birth control pills, you can talk to your doctor about removing the placebo week from your month's supply, it makes it so you don't have a period for that month and so it should mitigate your symptoms.

No. 2588481

>>2588431
Insane levels of projection going on here

No. 2588486

>>2588452
And you know the scrote was happy he got to take many of her firsts while she sits there thinking about some girl who moved on

No. 2588487

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>>2588481
>nonna venting
>you:my Nigel would never! Ohh my Nigel! I feel so sorry for you! Thank god for my Nigel!!(bait)

No. 2588491

i wish i could start over

No. 2588492

>>2588487
And I’m right kek, sorry she dated someone who had an ex? If thats something she was going to get insecure about maybe think twice before settling on a moid

No. 2588494

>>2588452
im not really hung up about him not being a virgin & i dont hate him for not being one, im talking more about other typical things couples do & experience together for the first time like doing new activities together, going on trips together, meeting each others parents, things like that. i just get worried that it wont be as novel to him as they will be for me. i feel like its silly of me to get worked up over all of this which is why i came here to vent & get it off of my chest, it hasnt been much of an issue for me until a few days ago.
>>2588473
thats a good point. ill wait a couple more days to try and sort out my thoughts & see if i feel up to approaching him with this, would hate to have resentment build up over all this.

No. 2588501

>>2588495
>deliberatley

No. 2588507

>>2588500
ahhh my bad, i see what you mean. considering he's only had one gf ever it wasnt a big deal at me at all to begin with, i wouldnt have even considered dating him if it was more than that. we have a great connection & he treats me well which is why im with him, but seeing evidence of a past just led to me ruminating on everything more than i used to.

No. 2588510

>>2588494
genuine question: how old are you and how old is your bf? no offensee to you but your post and a lot of the virginity spergs on here always read like either they're written by 18 year olds or very sheltered people in their early 20s to me.

No. 2588513

>>2588510
im 20 & hes 22, but i have had a sheltered life (super religious family) if that explains anything kek

No. 2588514

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>>2588512
i dont know dude i just dont know

No. 2588516

>>2588513
yeah then that makes sense lol. you're making a big deal out of nothing and you're being immature about it. anons that are telling you to confront him or acting like it's a big deal are acting immaturely themselves. if this is your first relationship, it's not going to last anyway and it matters very little in the grand scheme of your life. just enjoy the relationship. if you feel jealous that he's had girlfriends before you, then that's a you problem and you need to work on it. jealousy stems from insecurity. if you aren't secure in yourself, then you probably shouldn't be in a relationship.

No. 2588517

>>2588512
kek right, seems like she actually does judge the fact that he has an ex but realizes she'd have to hunt harder for a virgin moid and so settled for this one

No. 2588519

>>2588516
fair enough assessment, i appreciate the input thx for responding

No. 2588522

Pills? Taken
Nerve? Pain
Bowels? Irritable
Work? Super early tomorrow

No. 2588523

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Got my test results back today from the doctor. Turns out I wasn’t crazy about losing my hair, my potassium is stupidly low. Getting some bananas tomorrow at the store and seeing my doctor again in a few months. I hope it helps

No. 2588525

>>2588520
>You telling her to bottle her emotions up and sweep it under the rug.
please work on literacy skills

No. 2588533

>>2588531
OP is one of the ones lining up before the bride

No. 2588539

>>2588520
>This is shit advice. You telling her to bottle her emotions up and sweep it under the rug. That's not healthy in the long term.

Despite what people say, every emotion one feels does not need to be expressed or even given time of day. When you have a spergy emotion you need to sit with it and figure out, genuinely, what you hope to gain by airing it. What can even be done. Filtering your emotions like junk mail isn't "bottling" them up, its building a sense of resilience and a stronger constitution. Every hurt feeling is not worth acting on. She's not a criminal for feeling but you can't subject the people around you to your insecurities on a hair trigger. She's quite young and I'm inclined to think that you are too but this is something really essential to learn if you want to keep others around you and be able to sit with yourself at the end of each day.

No. 2588540

>>2588531
>that pic
Describes most 20-something relationships. Don't take em seriously in your 20s nonnas, just enjoy your life and don't be with a dragdown moid in the interim.

No. 2588542

>>2588531
Unpopular Opinions is here: >>>/ot/2585766 in case you're confused.

No. 2588547

>>2588540
>Describes most 20-something relationships.
Then be the ones that aren't

No. 2588595

>>2588531
Jfc you faggots reposting this pic are annoying.

No. 2588602

>>2588595
you think he doesn't compare you with them? or rather to how he felt then when he still had no experience? think again

No. 2588615

>>2588602
I don't date men because they are all useless whores, the sooner you see that the better. The picture is disgusting to look at regardless and I've had to hide it 3 times.

No. 2588632

>>2588615
The truth is a tough pill to swallow, I get it

No. 2588637

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>>2588636
Quotes don't make things true and this one has resulted in a lot of really stupid, pointless and forgettable art

No. 2588647

>>2588245
No offense but this is cringe and retarded. Get your shit together.

No. 2588651

>>2588636
i hate this quote because its always shared by people who believe you need to be sent to a gulag if there's slavery in your Dnd campaign

No. 2588653

>>2588602
>he compares me to them!!!
>this is not about insecurity BTW
Yeah, sure.

No. 2588680

>>2588651
Kek it feels like the quote equivalent of a Banksy graffiti

No. 2588686

There's a lot of pathetic behavior going on ITT.

No. 2588702

>>2588686
It's what happens when 75% of the site's userbase is under the age of 21.

No. 2588738

>>2588706
Join a church then idk it’s your life

No. 2588763

>>2588686
It’s due to the presence of two suspicious retards who have shitted the tread.

No. 2588769

>>2588763
Any post mentioning male virginity recently has been a death knell for the thread, no matter if it’s on topic or not.

No. 2588775

I always try to help people and listen to their shit. I give advice,try to encourage them. The minute I vent it’s different. « Girl you’re not making it easier for yourself thinking like this ». And I suspect my gay friend enjoys me complaining I can’t find a job. I suspect he hates his mundane life and knowing I can’t even get the mundane life makes him feel better. Why? Because he mixes stupid simple advice with jokes. « Maybe just deal drugs ». It’s not funny and I’m coming to you being real and vulnerable. But my biggest problem and mistake was venting about my problems altogether. 90% enjoy knowing you got them.
I’m this close transforming into my great grandfather. Idk wtf happened but he was a farmer and owned a huge farm, made a lot of money but at some point he gave up with human relationships and focused all his energy on animals. When his neighbors would insist on inviting him for dinner because of his generosity and him helping everyone around him he’d refuse, and his excuse was « I have to tend to my horses » or dogs or cows, sheeps, donkeys he had. I’m this close… There’s just not enough love between each other. We see lonely people or they come to us and ask for help and we never help. We joke or we get selfish. No one listens. No one fucking gives a fuck.

No. 2588780

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>>2588680
Art should comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable, but never ever ever ever have racism, sexism, homophobia, microagressions, ableism, misgendering, trigger content, things that might make someone remember their exboyfriend, legos because legos are fascist or something, etc, etc, etc

No. 2588787

i have so much resentment at my crazy bpd mom for stressing me the fuck out so bad as a teenager i had to be on a heavy snri (which i found out arent even supposed to be given to minors, lol) that killed my desire to do anything including socializing, and my libido so i had no desire to get into relationships even though some guys seemed to like me. the sad thing is even that medicine couldnt stop me from being suicidal from her constant bullshit. i feel so socially stunted from barely socializing and never having a boyfriend even now. im literally so behind all of my peers in terms of social life experiences and i dont even know where to begin. i cant help but lament the life i couldve had if i had a good or even decent mom. i feel like an incel writing this but its not even about sex, just normal experiences like hanging out with friends, prom, graduation parties, anything…

No. 2588789

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>find people for gaming together
>its 3am and we're tipsy on voice chat
>one moid reveals he's into incest
>the other answers with being into lolicon
god DAMNIT can't they be NORMAL for ONCE PLEASE

No. 2588792

>>2588789
what game?

No. 2588795

>>2588792
Deep Rock Galactic

No. 2588797

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>Reply something to a post
>ignored
>another user says the exact same thing i just said 10 minutes later
>the following discussion is everyone replying to them and referencing their post
story of my life. Same thing every time i say something irl, i could be giving perfectly accurate info only to be ignored then watch everyone thank and agree with someone right besides me who repeated the same thing i said.

I am either invisible or exude an aura that makes people hate me and never want to acknowledge me in any way

No. 2588811

>>2588797
What was the post, nona?

No. 2588826

>>2588494
I'm going to go against the grain here and say you should talk to him about it. It isn't good to be silently anxious like this, and will only create distance between you two. A good partner will be able to soothe your anxities by reassuring you how special you are. But if you don't want to talk to him, then remind yourself that your boyfriend may have done things you haven't yet, but he hasn't done them with YOU, so it's a new thing after all. You've probably done things like going to the cinema, eating at a restaurant, visiting an amusement park, etc, but doing it with your boyfriend for the first time will still be special, right? It's like that with all those things he has experienced before.

No. 2588827

>>2588826
nta but i appreciate this genuinely good reply

No. 2588843

Getting tired of everyone blaming every little idiosyncrasy on autism.

No. 2588847

>>2588775
you just picked shitty people who use you as an emotional trashcan to surround yourself with. Think, if you exist and have so much capacity for other people's problems, that has to mean there are other people like you out there. We are just guarded af because we learned that most people will use and abuse you while giving nothing in return. And from some people you have to take manually because it doesn't cross their minds to give. Anyway you shouldn't be friends with gay moids, they hate women, possibly more than regular moids

No. 2588853

I live in a pretty chill city, you can walk late at night and not really worry too much. Often I walk my dog really late before going to bed and as I was just outside around the corner from my building some dude had his arms in his shirt walking down the road. He noticed me and started making weird gestures. I felt off so I started walking back to my building and then he starting speed walking towards me. I fucking hate men sometimes

No. 2588856

>>2588853
What dog do you have? I plan to live alone and I thought that getting a dog like a Doberman as a single woman would help.

No. 2588857

>>2588856
That's a good call honestly. My dog is a cavalier kek. The worst guard dog you could get. He was being so ditzy too and pulling me closer to the guy. My first thought in the elevator was "I always wanted a big guard dog and instead I somehow ended up with the most submissive dog in the world"

No. 2588866

>>2588857
Kek they are sweethearts, they are known to have a very great temperament and aren’t aggressive at all though.
I’m sorry for the shitty experience nonna, but I’m glad you made it out safely, scrotes really do ruin everything.

No. 2588875

>>2588706
Ayrt, You misunderstand me completely nona. Virgin moid or sloppy seconds, moids are moids are moids. there's this much mental power going into dealing with them and all this arguing that happens when there's not even one here. All this infighting and scolding a random 20 year old woman. The moid is probably sitting on his ass somewhere while a thread goes wild. I think its absurd to willingly put ones self through that much mental stress. OP nona is young and insecure, it is what it is. Its all this other wild replies that I find pathetic. Both because how does any of this help her and because if its this bad why willingly deal with this mess. Some trash is cleaner but if its all trash why deal with it.

No. 2588897

>>2588856
Nta but it depends on how much work you're willing to do. Dobermanns aren't the smartest and are a bit destructive. Malenoises are good and always alert but they have a hellish amount of energy. Any big bear-like dog needs to be trained well because they can send you flying and they don't even need to try. It also depends on the temperament of the dog but even if a dog is friendly if it looks tough and dangerous a lone moid will think twice about it. I have a female border collie, a big bigger than usual (everyone assumes it's a male…) but super friendly with everyone except young/middle aged moids. I definitely feel safer with her when I'm walking around even if realistically she wouldn't be able to guard me. A person with a dog is potentially more trouble that one without.

No. 2588923

Tried to do one of those shitty AI interviews for a job I want and my microphone refused to work. When I restarted my laptop it finally did but by then I wasn't able to complete the interview. I want to fucking die. I hate these online interviews, I hate my trash old laptop and I hate unemployment most of all.

No. 2588927

>>2588133
She sounds deranged and sociopathic nonna, ultimately she would have scammed you out of money or something. How the hell did a single person run up so much electricity? Irresponsibility and illegal acts usually come back around, she should have expected it kek

No. 2588933

>>2588133
You repaid her kindness by letting her live rent free for fuck knows how long. I'd take her to court over the unpaid rent and any damage she's caused, you probably won't get all your money back but it's something. Make sure to keep all the records of your conversations, including any normal non-landlord ones, if she says you were being threatening or aggressive you have proof that you weren't.
She obviously went into this with the intention of leeching off you. Why feel bad about kicking someone out for taking advantage of you? Grow a spine nonna, you're going to get burnt again if you keep acting like you're the one in the wrong here.
>>2588215
Washing your face and nostrils, then putting a thin layer of Vaseline around your nostrils, helps to trap pollen and stops it from entering your nose. It won't completely stop your allergies but it does help a lot!

No. 2588941

I just dreamt AGAIN about an ex that I haven’t spoken to or seen in over a year and a half and that i haven’t been in a relationship with for over two years now. I dream about him like at least once a month it seems, and a lot of times it’s me desperate for his attention. After we broke up we were supposed to remain friends but he ghosted me completely. I was really pathetic and still tried to reach out periodically for like six months. It’s been a year and three months since i’ve tried contacting him at all. I may or may not have egged his house a year ago when I was manic, I’ve never done anything like that before but I thought it would help me get over him. It didn’t work. I never want to think about him again or dream about him again. He doesn’t care about me at all, why am I wasting brain power on him? I just saw now that he put a bunch of songs I showed him and that he had “dedicated” to me, on a new playlist for a new girl. Fucking loser.

No. 2588976

I'm tired. Soul tired. Exhausted. Can't do anything today. It's too much, it's too hard, it's been going on for too long.

No. 2588982

>>2588743
Find a virgin there if it’s so important to you, that’s probably your best bet.

No. 2588995

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I finally accepted last night that our connection was fake and she just took advantage of my loneliness to get herself off. Which is good because it means I'm finally processing how she treated me. But man, it sucks. I feel like I can't trust anyone's kindness after being shown so much affection and then treated like I'm the crazy one for getting attached. What the fuck is wrong with people lol.

No. 2589011

I hate having to wear glasses because they make me ugly and bug eyed

No. 2589021

>>2588875
>scolding a random 20 year old woman
Did your parents never scold you as a kid? Scolding is sometimes necessary.
>it is what it is
But it may be what it may be. It's in ourselves that things are this or that.
>Some trash is cleaner but if its all trash why deal with it.
One man's trash is another man's treasure.

No. 2589023


No. 2589036

Im never gonna have children, no one is ever going to want to have children with me, I'm gonna die alone and I'll never be able to love and care for a person the way I want to and know I can. I'm a lost cause forever. If I get to 40 childless I'm killing myself.

No. 2589039

my mixed bag of complaints
>coming to terms (finally) with being an addict and planning on asking psychiatrist to discontinue DOC without implying I'm addicted and ask for a non-addictive substitute
>broke all the time because I am a dumbass who is very slowly learning to think ahead and plan for the future despite almost being 35 fucking years old
>waiting on yet another loan to come through so I can buy cat food and prevent a utility disconnection
>student loans will certainly be garnished, no way I am paying 300/mo
>doordash doesn't work in my area because there are too many dashers and I have too little gas to dash in a different area
>my job got no additional funding and it's slow as hell
>waiting for the BBB to pass so my job gets slowly and painfully defunded until I'm left with 10 hours every two weeks
>live with a male roommate and although he is one of my closest friends I am tired of his lifestyle vs. mine (not cleaning anything ever) and being the "nag" historically doesn't work so I'm just biding my time until I either crash and burn or earn enough money to move out to somewhere better or somewhere by myself
>brother works for retarded white supremacists and I may possibly live with him if this doesn't work out, fml
>i hate my thighs

God dammit. I hope I learn my lessons this time.

No. 2589044

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I am making up problems that no one has even imagined yet. Does anyone else feel like this? If anyone does I know this is the place.
Until the last few years most of my social life has been spent watching people and eavesdropping on conversations or cyberstalking random people. My romantic relationships have also consisted of stalking and obsessing over someone before I talk to them, sometimes for up to a year. A hobby I had in university was, instead of talking to people and making friends, searching their names on the class email list and tracking several people's social media over the years. For example, I can go to an event and recognize random people and just know their names/friend group/hobbies/dating history and they've never fucking met me. Real life and real people became like a TV show to me.
This is all fine and has even helped me when it comes to socializing so whatever, but my problem is that I feel as if I pollute people by involving myself in their lives. It's like I can't love someone as purely themselves if I intrude in their life experience. When I think of it too much it causes me genuine distress, especially in my romantic relationships. Part of what ruined my last relationship was that I felt I had changed the trajectory of her life too much by becoming a part of her story, it was as if I'd committed an atrocity. How could I say I actually love her if I was influencing her behavior and it wasn't pure observation? It's not necessarily low self-esteem, I just feel so much guilt.

My years of semi-omniscience, due to social anxiety and whatever other fucking pathologies I suffer with, has left me insane. This is a crazy problem. I carry it even from letting my friends know me. I will never know how they'd act without my interference.

It's impacting my current relationship again and I didn't even stalk him. I actively made the choice not to years ago, but maybe the fact I had the option is impacting me.

No. 2589047

I just contacted two Etsy witches that's how alone and pathetic and lost I am right now

No. 2589051

>>2589047
I hope you're purchasing spells to give you endless confidence and not trying to summon a man into your life.

No. 2589058

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>>2589044
i can relate, i've also lived vicariously through others, if i meet someone pretty much all of my anecdotes and stories are stuff i've taken from other people that didn't really happen to me.

I've always been a bit voyeur, not in a sexual way, just in general i prefer to contemplate and look at things without participating. If i had a superpower it would be to be like an invisible disembodied consciousness that floats at will and can go through walls like a ghost just observing the world. I know this is dissociation btw.

No. 2589064

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>need 2 more classes to graduate
>school is offering 3 times for one class and they’re all full
>School is offering only one time for the other class and it’s almost full

These classes are always competitive to get into but would it kill my piece of shit college to offer more than one time for a class that’s in demand? Even worse since they didn’t full time hire my professor from last year who was hired so that there were at least two class times available. I just want to graduate ffs.

No. 2589073

>>2589058
>dissociation
Oh shit I guess it is. I love eavesdropping and lurking around quietly because I also get to forget I exist.
And yeah, I have had the same desire for a long time. It's not even necessarily low self-esteem, it's a different problem. I think I've just been coping for so long I'm idealizing and deriving morals from the cope.
Thank you for making me feel less alone.

No. 2589075

>>2589051
I dont give a fuck about men so yes kekk

No. 2589077

>>2589058
Fuck this is me. Ive always wished I could be a ghost and observe people's lives. I love also checking on my few friends and what they do during the day. This is life voyeurism

No. 2589080

I'm so tired

No. 2589088

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>>2589073
>I love eavesdropping and lurking around quietly because I also get to forget I exist.
I have been into this idea so long i-ve actually tried astral projecting and Lucid dreaming.

Had some really crazy vivid experiences when i tried the Monroe institute Gateway experience audios until i got scared because i felt it was falling into a glowie MK ultra rabbit hole.

No. 2589096

I don't know what to do online anymore. I think since May I realized the internet is boring… I wish we had places to go to like in the 90s. Everyone seemed to gather to some place. Skaters around the skate park. Book clubs.. Record stores, I feel people had the urge to be outside and hang out without any real purpose sometimes because there was nothing to do at home. But now since people do have stuff to do online we go out less, and there are less places to gather based on your interests, so then you make fewers friends or none at all. Is it just me who feels sooooooo bored? Maybe it's on me but when I go out there's just nothing to do, there's no activity, nothing happening. Just people shopping..

No. 2589106

>>2589096
yeah, in my time the weird people were skating and forming bands, going out to concerts or art shows, nowadays the equivalent is being a gendie game dev eternally online.

I am too old for tiktok or discord also can't deal with the gooner culture of today, and furries and genderspecials running everything like the Gestapo. I just bounce from different anonymous sites

No. 2589184

I'm becoming less and less empathetic as time goes on. People are so hard headed and have a laisser faire attitude about everything until it blows up in their face yet somehow you're the bad guy for telling them not to do it in the first place (stop shaming! People are going to do it anyways!1!1) and also the bad guy for not caring when shit hits the fan (you're a fascist/nazi whatever for not having empathy for retards)

No. 2589186

Your art does suck you fat bitch. I'm glad you deleted your shit because no one is going to commission that LOL

No. 2589191

>>2589096
Same. I used to enjoy surfing the internet a lot when I was a teenager and I would be into looking at so many things. Now I don't care. I watch a couple of videos from people I think are funny but that's it. Then I draw but it's not something you do together with someone else. Don't even bother with discord "friends" or Instagram or TikTok, it's all a bunch of uninteresting chronically online autists talking about the same shit over and over and over. Who gives a shit. I want to hang out with people and do something fun! Like going to malls, skating, local concerts, checking out some new stores or whatever but no one does anything anymore.

No. 2589196

>>2589191
I was at a festival weeks ago and it was so refreshing. People didn't even rush to the stage, pulling their phones out, they were dancing together, making eye contact, sometimes smoking a blunt. I think that was the only time where I actually had fun. I WANT THESE MOMENTS BUT EVERYWHERE. It really is that damn phone…

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>>2589186
Okay..

No. 2589199

>>2589191
nonna we're on the same boat, i can be a low EQ autist but i still prefer irl interactions and going out instead of being a part of the circlejerk of some discord psycho. i feel like i'm always by myself even in the internet, because i can't stand that circlejerk tier groups of """friends""" and if i meet someone to be friends i want to go out with them, not to ramble on my house in a mic about irrelevant shit

No. 2589203

My friend since childhood hasnt responded to my text in 2 days. Im not clingy but Ive felt her drifting away. Shes more frequently ignored my text for days and it used to be that we texted daily. I already bought a plane ticket to visit her about a month ago that I cant really refund… this sucks. I cried for the first time in a long time over this.

No. 2589206

I'm so behind in life. People my age are getting married and have been working for many years now but my biggest goal is to be able to get out of bed everyday. I'm one of those "didn't think I was going to be alive at this age" people. I gave up on my education, never worked, barely get out of bed, lost all my friends because I became a shut in. I just don't feel like there's a way out anymore. Nothing feels like it's worth living for. I don't know how people do it. I don't know what life has that others see but I don't.

No. 2589213

>>2589044
I understand what you mean by not wanting to impact people's trajectories. I have the opposite problem though that I get close to people but I don't let them get close to me because I don't want them to pollute me. I don't want anyone to have a real influence over my life but friends and relationships are supposed to do that in some way.

No. 2589214

>>2589203
Did you say or do something that couldve upset her?

No. 2589217

>>2589214
No… nothing. She joined some coffee group in her area and has been meeting up with them once a week, my fear is maybe she is getting her socialization from them and doesnt see a need for me anymore. I guess I should move on too or branch out, but its difficult and I liked her as a person a lot.

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No. 2589224

>>2589206
I'm behind too. MOVE!!!! Do something!!! ANYTHING. Right now I'm thinking about designing bikinis!!! WHY? I DONT KNOW I THINK IT WOULD BE FUN. WHAT'S YOUR IDEA OF FUN? WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO DO? I know there's something you'd like to try. JUST TRY EXPERIMENT. It's going to be enjoyable I promise you. As someone who suffers with OCD, depression, anxiety, I know it's hell. I go through periods where I forget to shower or brush my teeth. It's okay to fall for 7 days, what matters is to keep moving. MOVE MOVE MOVE. DO ANYTHING IT DOESNT MATTER. DO NOT WASTE TOO MUCH TIME DOING NOTHING. DONT COMPARE JUST MOVE

No. 2589232

>>2589044
Simple explanation is that you don't value yourself so you assume any influence you could have on other people is wrong. Also creating really blown up problems like that is usually a distraction from something you really should take a hard look at but you don't want to

No. 2589235

>>2589217
But this is your childhood friend, it's cold to ignore you just because she made new friends..

No. 2589236

Coping so hard for their loser lives which they put together that they think bothering me is the highlight of their day or some shit. I make more money than all them, I barley speak unless absolutely forced to and when I do it's the bare minimum short okay, move this, I don't want these fuckers a hundred yards near me let alone looking at me making up delusions in their heads. Using the excuse of working near me as a reason to keep bothering me and saying the same shit. I don't care, you're bald and barley 5 foot tall and you're a fucking alcoholic who can't read pass a third grade level. Absolutely delusional, talking shit about how I'm friends with them meanwhile I couldn't care less if they died in a work place accident in front of me kek these idiots really make me mad

No. 2589241

I had a date with a guy I had been talking to for some months. Turns out he is very ugly. Like he's really sweet and all and I enjoyed his personnality but he turns me off so much.

No. 2589248

i wish i didn't like men, i wish my interests weren't so male centered. i know they're horrible and hopeless but i have absolutely nothing going on in my life and i don't really talk to anyone. i see it as a way to get my "needs" met, but i constantly feel conflicted, i feel weak for it.

No. 2589251

I rarely get guys coming up to me and when they do they are actually gorgeous, but I always turn them down. I've never been in a relationship and I'm a grown ass woman, I should feel seriously anxious and weird about it but I don't. I wonder if I'm gay and I do feel sexually attracted to women but never feel a crush, or fantasizing about holding hands, being romantic, falling in love etc… But I do it with men. I wonder if i'll go my whole life never having kissed a guy omg

No. 2589277

I can't stop thinking of him and it's because he never even cared about me. Never. I knew what he was doing with me towards the end and it makes me sick I kind of played into it. When I think of it I seriously want to hurt myself or fucking puke. Why did I do that. I really thought I was some master of undercover crowd work kek. No I don't have the guts or the brains for that. I wasn't pretending, I was actually doing it. Fuck me. But fuck him too. I'm tired of being angry about it, it's just so tiring. I think the biggest hurdle I have to get over is that there was nothing so powerful about him. He came and went out of my life like I did to his, and he was every bit as genuinely important to me as I was to him, that being not at all in the end. Still I can't get over it. What a joke. He made me feel like a joke and I clinged to him even harder. Always with the self-hatred and the yearning to earn the approval of someone who makes me laugh. I don't even hate him anymore. I just want to forget it all already.

No. 2589286

>>2589198
No, not you baby. Let's get you another lunch tray.

No. 2589313

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>>2589251
>I rarely get guys coming up to me and when they do they are actually gorgeous
I am far from conventionally attractive and have the worst self-esteem but even I have had this happen on one or two separate occasions. He was a TIM (ew) but I even got to have sex with a physically attractive moid. Weird. Granted that last guy was a manwhore that would have slept with pretty much anyone, but some of those other guys seemed pretty genuine and nice. I'd like to think if I hadn't been so socially retarded and dense as always, even I could have had a qt 10/10 nigel by now.

No. 2589356

Some people have no self-awareness. Someone i know posted a pic of herself laughing hard and staring at nothingness, clutching her necklace, and it looks psychotic and hilarious. I don't get it… I really don't..

No. 2589360

i hate endchan pedos

No. 2589365

I'm an American and I'm honestly finding my reality to become bleak. I never felt stable or secure (I was dating and living with a well off person for a while) and when that ended I feel like I'm right back at square one. With all the shit going on with the current admin I just feel this overwhelming sense of evil and pain. Like, I know people like to say politics aren't really a big deal or don't have too much of a sway on your life, but I find that hard to be true. It's very clear if you're not rich you're seen as fat to be cut away. I just don't know what to do or where to go from here, but I don't want to be a part of a world and society that is so sick and backwards. I've felt this way for a long time and it only keeps getting worse. I try to avoid the news and it's not enough

No. 2589371

Clears throat.
I’ve been banned on this one forum I go to all the time.
I said some about I think my in laws are ugly when actually meaning more fat and they all dogpiled me like wtf?
I blocked some haters and told them about themselves then I reported them and I got banned. Just bruh. I was kinda over the site anyways for some time but I have been banned for like 2 days from now on. It will be a good way for me to stop being chronically online so much.
I’m pretty done with that site since it’s mostly gossip. Like maybe farmers get my gist better anyways. They thought I was a hater because I called my soon to be in laws fat uhm it’s a fact.
People really can’t take it being called fat anymore in the age of ozempic and everything.
I wish we were back in the zeroes and tens when we had body positivity and it was normal to call people fat. If you call someone fat these days and it’s with some strangers on the net they will call you worse names than just fat and ugly. Whew now all of a sudden I’m all those things like “ugly, slow, cruel” whatever.
They were majorly projecting their own insecurities lol they didn’t call me fat but I bet they are fat themselves lol and ugly because that word triggered them apparently. I wish death upon them fr … no I’m kidding but am I?
I post like a schizo sometimes so what?
I also hate when people joke about mental illness when it’s just someone schizo posting and just rambling. Like farmers get it but I used to get banned sometimes for idk schizo posting on here. But I’m usually just thinking out loud and then people online think I sound incoherent. Guess what bitches, English isn’t my first language. It was so annoying getting banned so I stopped posting on the farm here as well.
What I wanna say is thanks to a suggestion in here I might get into books and possibly doing trainings in my free time because people on the net are seriously crazy. I wish we could go back to simpler internet times sometimes. I’m sensitive I can’t take the heat sometimes but I did get thicker skin though. It’s annoying when people give their opinion unasked but I’m getting thicker skin little by little. I wanna say fuck those whores who called me names and shit and may they never be skinny, have ugly brethren, be retarded (I love that I can say that on here) and have no soul.

No. 2589374

>>2589371
I really need to touch grass.. I know.

No. 2589390

>>2589224
Thank you for the wakeup call I try to keep busy and also have anxiety depression ocd and I don’t forget to shower no I actually hate showering because I feel sick afterwards. Anyone have this? Not forgetting to shower but hating showering. I showered twice yesterday and today it’s warm and I’m sweating and I just don’t care about showering I’m gonna sweat again. I wish I could buy a subscription on showering where I can extend my freshness by some device or something or be fullt showered in 2 minutes. I hate brushing my teeth but I can get that done twice a day usually since it’s only 2 minutes. Idea.. should I only try to shower 2 minutes daily? I hate water though I don’t know why but my body always hated showering and I could get by but started showering irregularly at some point and my body is just acting weird well my skin is really sensitive.
I’m gonna try to touch grass, by focusing on other things besides forums. I have to hand in my thesis but I need some breaks in between.

No. 2589392

Socially drained, which is weird. I'm a shut-in NEET, the only people I'm talking to are family or the employees at my supermarket and that's few and far between. Its become one of the things that are so simple to do daily and yet feel like a chore. Hell my boyfriend ain't talking to me much either so I also feel like a bother forcing painful conversation these days. With how bland everything is at the moment, no matter what I do to occupy myself, hobby or education/employment- I'm thinking right now that there is nothing on this rock left for me. It sucks. "Depression" my ass

No. 2589398

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The dean referred me to see a student psychologist they employ but their company has a 1 star rating on google, what have I gotten myself into

No. 2589403

My dad is once again trying to get into contact with me. I don't want to talk to him, but at the same time this is the second time within the past few months so I kind of want to know what he wants. I'm at a crossroads right now…

No. 2589404

>meet guy I like
>instantly lose my personality
how do I cope?

No. 2589405

>>2589392
>I'm thinking right now that there is nothing on this rock left for me
this feeling is the worst. you just live as an empty apathetic shell until something ''better'' happens. and people will see you like that and mention converting to their religion or Just Thinking Positively

No. 2589410

Another day of intense tics. I've been doing one with my throat that hurts so fucking bad. I have a headache and my shoulder hurts. Does anyone here have or had bad tics?

No. 2589419

>>2589405
Right on the money, nonna. It's simply drifting with the river stream. Even with the effort of making steps towards that "better" rather than waiting, it feels pointless.

Religion for an ounce of hope won't catch me again… but that did happen some years ago. lol awful times

No. 2589426

>>2589404
Wdym? Do you get shy? Do you find it difficult to joke or talk about your interests? I think you're just putting pressure on yourself because you want him to like you and if your self esteem is low you become afraid your true self will put him off.

No. 2589428

>>2589398
Go anyway nonnie, worst case scenario it sucks and you don't have to go anymore. But do seek therapy if you can afford it, if you find a therapist that works for you it can be life changing.

No. 2589431

>deep depression for the better half of a year
>start calling an old friend for hours every day
>feel normal
>hang up to sleep
>dread creeps back every time
I can't function like this I can't rely on one person but the difference is so stark I can't help myself

No. 2589432

>>2589410
I had one with my throat too, it was so painful I wanted to cry constantly and had a red mark on my throat by the time it was over, good luck

No. 2589442

Decided not to talk to anyone today and no one missed me except my grandma and mom. Good confirmation I shouldn't waste so much time listening to so called friends and focus more on building new skills, my portfolio and my art. I'm writing a story set in the 1920s, that's heavily inspired by Frankenstein except the scientist is a woman and she's trying to build the "perfect boyfriend" but it backfires on her. Anyways, fuck everybody

No. 2589444

>>2589442
>I'm writing a story set in the 1920s
How do you make the dialogue historically accurate?

No. 2589448

>>2589444
Do research…sounds like you don’t want to though so just use Chat

No. 2589449

>>2589442
Adult life is like that nona. Everyone is busy, everyone has priorities, and everyone's inner circle is small. Your friends probably only check on one or two people daily. No one has time or energy to check on every friend every day. You don't owe your time to anyone either, you're allowed to only check on whoever you want occasionally.

No. 2589455

Men have weight loss on "enjoy the story, no difficult gameplay" mode. And for the love of fucking God can people who have never had to lose a significant amount of weight just SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY. If I have to ever hear another beanpole moid say just eat less or hit the gym I'm going to do violiencia.

No. 2589459

Lol as always no one responds to anything I post on here but that’s cool you know. On one forum people respond negative and with a quickness, on this board (can’t say forum), people ignore me or take a long time to reply. Then whatever advice I get on here is usually mediocre at best. Idk maybe they know I’m not a burger and don’t care. Maybe I’m too long winded? But yeah I was really in a dark place and needed financial aid for college and I got like zero advice kek. When I try to squeeze my brain to remember, maybe someone said financial aid those words and that was it. No one to feel sorry for me.
Times like that I wish I had friends. I have a friend kinda but we’re not really friends. I don’t feel like hanging out with her really either because she was a bit shady to me when we did. But like idk ..maybe I should give it a chance. The thing is my time is precious. I need all the lazing around I can do now because when I get a job I can’t be lazy anymore.
I will check the neet thread to meet some fellow kin that get me. Maybe I’m too NEET for normies well not really NEET but almost NEET like I call it or .. NET to be accurate.
It just sucks to have no friends besides a boyfriend. People just really don’t like me for some reason when I’m nice and even when I’m not nice. So I think it’s oke for me to stop trying to make friends and that’s also what I did. People are either too jealous or too hateful towards me.
I can’t rn I hate talking about people for now because it’s gonna make me hate them more than I do. And I had a baseline of indifference starting to form but now I’m just undoing my progress. I also think that I should become famous because famous people also get hate for no reason usually. They get hate from jealous and bitter people two types of people that produce hate and that’s what I’m experiencing too.

No. 2589460

Falling ill made me realize how shitty my mom is. I spent months with an untreated injury because she didnt want to spend money. She didnt want to lend me money to go pain meds either. I really cant wait until she dies, only then i am going to be free from this demon. My dad is a faggot too and i hope he's dead, i hope he gets lung cancer and dies painfully and alone. It's unfair that selfish people like my parents are allowed to bring life into this shitty world. Pieces of shit, it should be outlawed for addicted high school dropout losers to have sex let alone conceive a child. My life was over the day my mom got pregnant, i really stood no chance. It was simply over.

No. 2589462

>>2589451
You asked “how to make it HIsToRicALLY ACCURATE”, I replied. Naybe rephrase your question if you wanna write a story about a time in history but don’t want it to be a historical story but you DO want it to be historically accurate.

No. 2589464

Some of the things I read on /g/ really make me realize how retarded most of you are.

No. 2589467

>>2589456
They have a higher metabolism because they have more muscle mass (muscle uses more calories than fat, women have more fat) and different hormones

No. 2589468

>>2589467
I disagree.. because why do so many men have beer bellies in their 20’s already.

No. 2589469

>>2589459
i'll take the bait. skimming the thread and seeing your post, the long winded nature of your post comes across more like you want to get things off your chest than be responded to. you also sound kind of self-centered and unpleasant to interact with, which is a tough combo with being long-winded. otherwise, lolcow isn't a great place for financial advice because most anons are going to be social maladjusts and not have the best grasp on possible options, and those that would know probably come here to unwind and wouldn't answer.

No. 2589472

I guess it's over, ball is in your court

No. 2589475

>>2589468
Because they're fat and lazy, it's easy for them but they don't even try

No. 2589476

>>2589467
Nta but I think the physical ability is balanced out by their lack of self-control. Also one thing I don’t get when people talk about differences (eg it’s so easy to be fat when you’re short!) is that metabolism differences scale with hunger… a 6’5 200lb moid isn’t going to be burning tons of calories yet possessing the appetite of a 4’11 90lb girl/woman kekk. Like obviously. I think the only argument is that people might adjust themselves to the average portion sizes.
>>2589459
You’re the second one in the past coupl of hours to mention another “forum”. Which one is it?
Anyway, like a year ago all of my vents got replies but I recently vented that they never get responses anymore haha. I haven’t gotten a response here in months. I think anons have just changed.

No. 2589478

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>when you are trying to lose 8kg and your already really skinny friends are adamant to tell you that you're fine the way you are
Also I realized today that my thigh muscles have shortened because I've spent too much time these past few years being a lazy ass, so I need to be more disciplined with my stretching both before and after my workouts at the gym but I think that's the most boring part uggh

No. 2589482

Found out one of my friends has been shit talking me, I've done nothing but be nice and reduce my interactions recently (still never ghosted or anything) because whenever we talked I felt like it was one sided, when it was time to talk about my stuff my "friend" didn't care that much and would almost never ask me anything about myself. Whole thing has me reflecting on how people like this will just take me for granted then get upset when I pull back and actually focus my time on myself and on people who actually mirror my energy and care about me, to the point that they get offended and seethe so hard they're shit talking me kek. And I'm honestly proud of myself because in the past I would've just continued to be in these toxic dynamics, continue constantly engaging and never have seen them for the leeches they are and unironically think I was a bad person for caring about myself because I was a pushover. Now I just take a step back when I see this is how the dynamic is going to be and watch people implode on themselves about how horrible and selfish of a person I am and making up an alternate reality where I'm the bad guy for not putting up with their bullshit once I've seen this is how they're going to treat me and giving them a taste of their own medicine. I just don't give a fuck anymore when all my life people have tried to take advantage of me, waste my time and would still claim I wasn't good enough after all that. I'm done with people pleasing, and I only want to talk to people who mirror my energy and care about me as much as I do about them (if not more) now and this is what I should've always have done, it just took me way too long because I had low self esteem growing up. I give people a chance and if I notice you're going to be a leech and not give me anything in return for my time (like actual friendship and care) then I'm out. You can keep crying about it all day and pretend like you were actually the one somehow giving me more (kek how when everything was always centered on you) in your delusional fantasy land when you shit talk me to others, but that won't change anything.

No. 2589485

why is nobody interested in me

No. 2589486

>>2589469
Thanks actually and true true I do want to get things of my chest. Sounding self centered hmm I don’t hear that often tbh. Only once when I was talking a lot and was short in my replies to a family member. I guess I do sound long winded irl too then. The thing is not really either though I talk just enough in real life and only become “long winded” when I’m close with someone. I always thought that’s how connections were formed, by having long conversations. But maybe that’s why I don’t have friends? The thing is if I don’t talk, the conversation dies out kind of. I hate the awkwardness so then I tend to talk too much!
Because I’m scared of having no friends and then in the end I still have no friends kek!

I can sound self centred actually because I’m constantly nit picking to see if I’m being a good friend. I always think, friend and talk go hand in hand. So that does take away a bit from being a better conversation partner.
I do ask a lot of questions too and then I get to know their deepest secrets and then they feel weird? Exaggerating a little here for comedic relief.
It wasn’t even bait kek. Something to think about.
About the financial advice fair enough lolcow is not the place.

Do you have friends btw? How are you as a friend? Serious question.

No. 2589489

>>2589428
uni offers 5 online sessions for free so I'll probably go through with it but it just weirded me out

No. 2589492

The Golf Open is happening where I live and I live in an apartment building. I've only met the wife of the owner downstairs once. I own mine. There's a sign on the door that says shut all doors gently. This man in his big white Mercedes has been showing up and putting all his weight behind the door (he's fat af). Heard him out on his mobile being obnoxious and drunk and planning to stay for 10 days. So when he came back in and slammed the door I met him and asked him if he noticed the sign by the door. He got so hostile. Said a signs a sign. Kept trying to mansplain how it was ok for him to slam the door cause there's only so much he can do and he's bringing in luggage. I said I could give him a spare door stopper. He told me to chill out and he owns downstairs. I said I own the apartment above you. He then said im making a scene and to respect everyone in the building. I said "respectively there's a sign." I went back in to my apartment and he's just drove off somewhere. Mind you he has a massive beer gut and was slurring when telling me to chill out and mansplaining how he's to retarded to stop a door slamming. Thank god I have a wee prescription if hell escalate to the police he seems like a right fat drunken cunt.

No. 2589494

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>>2589405
sometimes Just Thinking Posivitely unironically works…

No. 2589495

>>2589480
?? Ask better questions stop being lazy. I can see why you’re delusional and living in your own 1920’s world that isn’t historically accurate. Also I wasn’t even that anon kek. Good luck on your story though gonna need it with the rip off of Frankenstein.(bait)

No. 2589496

>>2589442
I mean I'm not concerned when my friends don't reach out to me for a day.. that's like a completely mundane timeframe to not be in contact with a friend for.

No. 2589498

>>2589478
That sounds scary..I didn’t know thigh muscles could shorten. Not sure if I should stay delusional or look it up. I don’t exercise uh nuh something extra to worry about

No. 2589500

>>2589462
>>2589480
>>2589495
kek

No. 2589501

>>2589495
She was just trying to have a conversation with you anon, if this is how you talk to people no wonder no one wants to be around you. You said no one talked to you all day, of course she wanted to have a conversation because maybe that’d make you feel better. Don’t take everything as an attack retard

No. 2589505

>>2589482
Sorry about your friends shit talking you… it sounds like there’s nothing to be saved from the way you worded how you are pretty much done with them. Good on you for taking your power back!

No. 2589506

>>2589476
>metabolism differences scale with hunger
This is true, but IMO it's still objectively easier to be able to eat 1500 calories and lose weight as a tall man rather than eat 600 and struggle to lose weight as a woman. I still think moids are just lazy, they spend their whole lives being handed everything so why would it be any different with their weight maintenance. Also I just remembered, doesn't the menstrual cycle also effect weight?

No. 2589507

i want to have sex with a hot submissive guy that's entirely devoted to pleasing me so badly

No. 2589511

>>2589505
Thanks, and yeah I'm definitely done

No. 2589512

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I hope bus drivers that let you come up to the door, look at you, then drive away watch their children and pets get skinned alive before their eyes. Fuck public transportation. Also fucking hate it when car owners complain about whatever but they don't have to deal with this shit and then some.

No. 2589513

My sex drive died and now I have to live with the guilt of a decade of degeneracy

No. 2589519

>>2589507
Me too…me too…

No. 2589520

>>2589513
RIP anon. Mine died before i even got to actually have sex. It comes back once in a blue moon, but i'd rather live with being a degen than the alternative.

No. 2589521

When I was a kid, I used to talk a lot about how much I wanted a short haircut, like a pixie. Some moid who was sitting next to me kept making fun of me for it and asking if I was going to be a dominatrix. I was around 11/12 at the time and this memory always makes me quite sad, I was just complaining that I didn't like having long hair and I wanted short hair for practicality, but I was still reduced to a porn category. It's not a horrific memory by any means it just makes me wish I wasn't born into this woman hating world.

No. 2589522

>>2589498
It happens if you're like me and sit on your ass a lot, since you end up not using your leg muscles as much. But it is preventable and fixable with correct stretching, so you don't have to worry about getting your ass into gear and just do a couple of minutes of stretching each day if you are worried.

No. 2589524

>>2589521
Reminds me how a school councillor did nothing but comment "kinky" when I told him a boy tried to choke me

No. 2589525

My period is 4 days late that is why I did not notice pms. I haven't had an sexual attention since November so im tired of this. Just fucking come and go when you're suppose to. I thought I was eating better this month. Is my body slowing down so I can have children, every egg is precious. I think I made my peace that I won't be a mother though.

No. 2589534

>>2589524
That is so gross nonnie I'm sorry he was failing you like that

No. 2589539

>>2589534
My eyes bugged out reading this nonna, what the fuck is wrong with moids

No. 2589542

>>2589513
tell us about the fun you had

No. 2589545

>>2589524
Fucking kill him now. Hope he gets raped to death by a faggot on bath salts

No. 2589547

>>2589492
Get his license plate number and report him for drunk driving next time nonny

No. 2589548

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Me and my therapist had the weirdest moment today where I was trying to tell him about something embarrassing that was making me feel bad about myself, and my throat out of nowhere got so dry that I couldn’t speak at all and could just cough for like two full minutes? It was like my body was trying to stop me from talking about stuff that is humiliating kek he was looking at me like picrel the whole time

No. 2589552

>>2589547
He'll be back, I'm pretty sure he's the local primary school headmaster. He was just so obnoxious and talking down to me.

No. 2589610

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I really wanted to buy pizza but I'm trying to get back to my usual weight and I'm at my calorie limit for the day. I decided to weigh myself and that immediately killed the idea but the craving is still there. It helps a lot to think of my husbando as he's the reason I'm trying to lose weight. I want to look my best for him. I'll be strong for him.

No. 2589614

>>2589485
I am baby

No. 2589619

>>2589495
I'm not the Frankenstein anon kekk I ignored the question and the drama that followed

No. 2589623

>>2589501
Omg it wasn't me kekkk

No. 2589624

>>2589507
This but Luigi Mangione in chains(luigi mangione is a banned topic on lolcow)

No. 2589626

>>2589548
The body and brain is so so powerful

No. 2589635

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had a stupid argument with some colleagues at work and by the end of it I still don't know wtf they were mad at

No. 2589639

Honestly, once you notice how both and men women prefer men and glorify them, it's so hard to move on. Especially if you come from a more conservative country. I watch this show that is similar to Judge Judy, but more serious, and reading the comments is always so predictable. Doesn't matter what the case is, the public is always on the side of the man. If it's two women, the comments are just about how dumb and stupid the women are. These are comments from real people, and 99% of comments follow these rules, it makes me sad. I just feel like people are more likely to dislike you nowadays if you are a woman, or attribute your negative qualities to the fact that you are a woman. I also feel like I am the only one seeing it and it makes me feel crazy.

No. 2589646

>>2589639
you're not but eventually you just have to accept it and get on with things, because there is only so much you can do about it. Even when you go into feminist spaces and try and find less male-centred women it can be like that.

No. 2589651

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i am scared to have sex, and be bad at it, and let a woman down because they will expect me to be good at intimacy in general, and at this point i think i should just stay single and sexless

No. 2589656

>>2589651
Life is short eat the damn pussy like your life depends on it

No. 2589661

>>2589047
I did something similar, I miss having friends.

No. 2589664

>>2589651
If you can take direction to improve you'll be better than 97% of men. You'll do well, I believe in you.

No. 2589665

I can't get over the stuff I did in the past, how I totally disregarded my best interests just to try and fit in with people who didn't give a fuck about me. It's been like over a year and I'm just now processing all those fucking years I spent being a doormat handmaiden laughing off my discomfort. I thought growth would make me feel better. Now I'm just crying thinking of all the hoops I jumped through to be friends with some stupid fucking losers. Why did I do that why did I do that why did I do that why did I do that. I knew I was insecure but the truth just settled in. I'm not just insecure, I actually don't think I'm a person like the people around me. This hurts. Jesus fucking christ it hurts. Why did I do that. I'm literally just fucking crying. Thinking back then just hurts now, it just hurts now.
I am so grateful for the person who stuck with me throughout everything always waiting in the background for me to come to my senses. And to think my stupid slave mentality had me thinking they were the joke, not me. I can't believe myself and who I was holy shit. I can't believe I still have friends. I can't believe it. I swear I'm having a come to Jesus moment right now I feel like anything could happen I feel transformative.

No. 2589668

A friend of mine has been going through an obsession with death and existence. And was even thinking about having kids so your genes « live on ». Am I wrong for finding it so pathetic to be this scared of death or not having a « legacy » etc. Just relax none of this matters and that’s what makes it better. Can you imagine if our lives had this much importance that we also had to prepare for our after life or else we also fail that? Like can u imagine u had to also work hard to properly « die »? Idk if I make sense but since this fear is paralyzing them I was like, dude just get into religion like 80% of retards in this world or get some help.

No. 2589670

>>2589668
>>2587091
>>2588775
Okay can you start using regular quote marks now?

No. 2589672

>>2589656
>>2589664
ok most of the time my fear of disappointing gets so bad it overcomes my lust, is this like performance anxiety? im a virgin and i would love to take direction, but im worried at my age (early 30s) they'll just be let down and upset that they need to and im not already good. im just so nervous.

No. 2589673

>>2589661
I'm guessing it didn't work?

No. 2589677

>>2589672
Yes it's performance anxiety, also sex isn't a mute act so if you don't know what to do you should ask your partner what she's into and what she likes, or hell even ask her to touch herself to see how it goes. There's plenty of ways to figure it out, also I'd imagine that most single and mingling women own a bullet vibe which can also really help during sex too.

No. 2589684

>>2589670
Kek I always wonder how anons like this don't realize these types of quirks are making them incredibly identifiable.

No. 2589689

>>2589672
Tell them it's your first time and you are nervous. Or let the hypothetical gf go first and try to do what she does. It does sound like it's just anxiety getting in the way, I think if it comes down to it it will seem more natural in the moment.

No. 2589691

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FUCK ALL THESE MOSQUITOES

No. 2589695

>>2589691
Hater. Reported for baiting.

No. 2589700

>>2589695
Ive been bit like 4 times in the past day have mercy… I needed to a-log at the bugs

No. 2589705

I need to squeeze out the last squirt of shit so I can clear the toilet and vomit, but if I squeeze too hard I feel the vomit come up

help…(wrong thread)

No. 2589713

I want fried chicken but I have no money

No. 2589714

>>2589713
I got you nonnie I'm already cooking some

No. 2589716

>>2589705
TMI thread is to your left nona

No. 2589717

>>2589705
That's why I keep an empty tupperware in the bathroom to puke into. Sometimes even if I'm not really sick a big poop makes me nauseous.

No. 2589720

>>2589714
You saved my life nonnie
>>2589717
>Tupperware to vomit in
Nemu?!

No. 2589721

>>2589691
Dude I'm covered in giant itchy mosquito bites; I spent less than an hour outside last night. I have 14 bites, most of them were through my fucking clothes and on my face. I'll take the ban, KILL ALL MOSQUITOES.

No. 2589764

>>2589486
i mostly gave up on having friends due to controlling family and not feeling comfortable having friends because i'm a "TERF" and i don't want to bother vetting people. i'm autistic and not good at building deep relationships in the first place, growing up i found my people but then never could maintain the friendships (part of why i gave up).

yea a lot of deeply insecure people unfortunately come across as self-centered and it further pushes people away, because in a way you literally are, you can't engage as well with other people because you're so stressed about yourself. engaging with other people usually means matching their energy, some are invested enough to engage with long replies but most others don't. and then you build a deeper relationship and can have more significant convos.

No. 2589782

there's a low quiet recurring vibrating hum going around my apartment and even after checking everything I still can't figure out where it's coming from, it's not from the AC (external and internal units), it's not from the PC, not from the fridge, the water heating tank, circuit breaker, or air vents
and it's driving me mad

No. 2589806

has anyone else heard of that streamer moonmoon. hes so fucking ugly and annoying, idk how anyone enjoys watching him

No. 2589808

>>2589705
we've all been there

hope you feel better soon nona

No. 2589810

>>2589782
It was me, I was singing you a song, I'm sorry you didn't like it

No. 2589811

>>2589806
isn't that all of them?

No. 2589820

i fucking hate being short i fucking hate it i have such a big appetite especially wheni work out and if i dare eat above 1300 calories i fucking steadily gain weight. to lose any significant amount of weight i need to eat 800-1000 calories and it all fucking adds up wspecially when i need to eat ample protein. i did it once i restricted for months but it made me mentally ill and exhausted and i got so ravenous i put 1/3 of it back on. i hate being chubby i hate that my childhood i was neglected and abused and will forever have stretch marks and saggy skin in some areas because of MY CHILDHOOD. i never got to have a nice body and i am grateful for my life and those who love me i know this is so vain bur seeing how people treat those with nice bodies and looks god i hate it and i hate that i have to be cruel to myself. maybe i wouldn’t have to struggle financially if i had a prettier body, who knows. sometimes i think god caused this because i had big breasts as a child and if i was pretty id have to endure even more sexual harassment from peers and old men. i also hate seeing so many open pedophiles openly admiring young girls because not only do i feel sad for those young girls i feel like well fuck men control so much i am just fucked fucked fucked. i will always struggle i wont get a good job or be treated kindly

No. 2589824

do people actually watch love island

No. 2589826

>>2589806
Streamers are for repressed bisexual men who act shocked at themselves getting hard when their favourite streamer they are watching talks about his dick.

No. 2589833

>>2589824
My coworkers wouldn't shut up about it today during lunch so I just left the room. Isn't it Big Brother/Jersey Shore but with Brits instead?

No. 2589834

>>2588245
How old is he? For most moids that aren't socially maladjusted or have something else seriously wrong with them, it is extremely unlikely past a certain age that you will be a moid's first. Learn to deal with it unless you want a moid that is likely degen. The whole idealization of virgin moids is cringe to me because in my opinion virgin moids often tend to be worse than sexually experienced ones.

No. 2589838

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I genuinely loathe being autistic with every fiber of my being and I hate that woketards have made it unacceptable to say that autism is a curse. I loathe that the meaning of the term “autism” has been watered down so much that every mildly quirky person self-diagnoses themselves with it and then expresses disdain for people with actual autistic traits. I loathe feeling alone in a room full of people. I loathe having to rehearse everything I say in my head before I say it to make sure I don’t say anything that weirds people out or offends them by accident. I loathe it when I inevitably do no matter how much I try not to. I loathe people who insist that they were the “weird kid” growing up when I had full-blown meltdowns in public and I was so weird that even my teachers joined in on the bullying. I loathe it when people hit on me because of my looks only to run away the instant I show even 10% of my true self. I loathe having to practice being human. I loathe having a grating voice. I loathe being unable to talk about my interests. I loathe being unable to relate to other women. I loathe how people, especially men, assume that I’m a bitch/rude/choosing to be the way that I am and I loathe knowing that if I was a man they’d immediately clock the autism and everyone would make excuses for me because of it. I loathe how my parents knew I was autistic and withheld that information from me and my teachers. I have been diagnosed with numerous crippling conditions and if I could get rid of one of them I’d instantly choose autism. I want a cure for this NOW.

No. 2589842

>>2589824
I can't believe it either. I've never watched but I've saw some clips on social media and my cousins post fb statuses about it like they know the contestants personally. Kids probably grow up thinking coke fuelled retards on these shows are normal

No. 2589845

>>2589833
Jersey Shore is classy compared to Love Island

No. 2589850

File: 1751590307345.webp (1.21 MB, 4032x3024, IMG_4138.webp)

I kicked down a kid’s lemonade stand and ran away. I don’t feel any remorse; someone needs to teach them early on that you don’t get to just sell your shitty Signature Select lemonade mix for $3 a cup. Children are getting greedy and the father was standing nearby on the driveway essentially pimping out his fucking lemonade peddler. You live in one of the richest cities, I’m sure you will be well taken care of Thomas, so don’t try to pity me into buying your subpar lemonade. I’m hardly getting by with a job at Walmart, my father abused me in all forms as a child and I can hardly make ends meet as a college graduate. He better be getting molested by a family member because MAYBE then I’d call it even and kick the pitcher of lemonade rather than the whole child and the stand. (I didn’t kick him, just a silly take on a metaphor. I’m not a lunatic.)

Not even that but can you imagine a grown adult selling lemonade? I’d get honked at and called an unemployed loser. Probably raped by one of the homeless. At least he has his father as a bodyguard there (useless considering I made a clean getaway). Meanwhile this kid is allowed to make, what, $30 an hour? (It’s a busy street so very possible he was selling much more than 10 cups an hour.)(bait)

No. 2589862

>>2589858
It's a baiter, just report and ignore

No. 2589863

>>2589850
I remember when bait used to be funny and original, now we just have this crap. At least Kaijuno's fake stories are entertaining.

No. 2589867

Sigh… I miss anorectal violence anon.

No. 2589871

>>2589863
Not bait, stop trying to infight.

No. 2589872

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>>2589838
Holy shit, I could've written this. I was especially feeling this when I walked into Spencer's the other day and they had a rack full of the most painfully cringe "autism pride" shirts I've ever seen. Jesus Christ at this point I'd rather just be viewed as a retarded recluse.

No. 2589876

>>2589867
He was a moid, so he had to go. But every once in a while I'll be reading shitty BL manga and laugh because the phrase "anorectal violence" popped into my head.

No. 2589878

>>2589850
I found your post pretty funny tbh you're right about some stuff. Like why should a kid get to make so much money when if an adult tried this they'd need a permit and zoning rules and food inspection and all this bullshit. Still you shouldn't have kicked down his lemonade stand

No. 2589889

>>2589876
Nooooooo… really?
Well, I mean… at least that means somewhere out there is a man who hates anal sex as much as I do so I guess that's a silver lining.

No. 2589899

>>2589889
Supposedly he hated it because he had a weird fetish for perfect, virginal buttholes

No. 2589900

>>2589811
Good point

No. 2589913

>>2589899
aw it keeps getting worse

No. 2589919

I don’t really know how the hell do I look. I feel fat (I know I am not, but I feel like that) and I think my body looks weird, I gained something like 4kgs over Easter and I felt disgusting, but my mother has never given me more
praises than that time , she always says that I’m too skinny. But my mother and my friend have recently told me that I really reduced a lot of weight. I haven’t dieted or anything, I’m just stressed af, but I feel okay and I feel like I look the same.
My body goal is honestly much more slim than my body so I wonder if I really see things as how they are kek. I don’t know what’s wrong with my brain, but I always look wrong.

No. 2589923

>>2589919
it sounds like you may have body dysmorphia

No. 2589935

>>2589820
It fucking sucks to be a short woman. Food is designed to be as calorically dense as possible nowadays and it's so surprising sometimes to have the smallest plate of food ever and it's somehow 800 calories (like3/4 your budget for the day as a short woman) and that's only lunch. I know the pain nonna

No. 2589943

>>2589867
>Sigh… I miss moids with weird fetishes that used LC as a vehicle for sexual gratification
Wtf is wrong with /ot/ now. I hate it here

No. 2589945

>>2589919
Sounds like you went from sallow to healthy and then back to sallow again? If you have a "body goal" and it's just dieting without exercise, you have very obvious body dysmorphia because you probably are avoiding getting bulky (something only achievable if you train to failure). But it's possible to be fit and look skinny. It does require lifting weights even if they are light or just bodyweight, because as you diet and lose body fat, the muscle will grow and you will be able to see your own abs etc. Rather than focusing on how skinny you can be which just results in being skinnyfat, I'd suggest focusing on how fit you can be instead and actually look good. It is a productive outlet for your thoughts.

No. 2589948

>>2589943
There are pedo apologists on /ot/ now it's grim.

No. 2589954

>>2589919
do you work out? I used to think I always look wrong and then I started being a little big more active. big or small the extra muscle just fills everything out much better, you look/are more healthy and strong

No. 2589958

>>2589943
This is what gentrification feels like

No. 2589960

>>2589808
I've had it come out both ends before, but usually they have the decency to properly wait their turn

No. 2589965

>>2589945
>>2589954
It’s way too hot to exercise now but I do exercise and go to the gym from October to May and then do low impact workouts at home with the AC in between kek. I am toned most of the time due to genetics, I even receive compliments about my shape. I just don’t see it myself. I never felt right, at whatever weight I am I always feel like a blob, like “if I didn’t have x then I would like myself”.
I stay away from calorie counting and I don’t have any scales in my dorm for this reason. I would like to just be normal and not think this way.
>>2589923
It does make sense. When I was at my skinniest and my mom kept telling me that I looked like a man I felt “right” kek.

No. 2589969

>>2589948
Yeah those are moids. We can't say that though or else jannies will ban us. This board is a joke

No. 2589970

>>2589705
I have once vomited and shitted at the same time. I had an enterovirus and couldn’t eat nothing for two weeks apart from crackers , broth and white rice. It was really comical, the sheer panic I had when I felt the “diarrhea cramps” and the “itchy vomit throat” just made me think “shit, I am screwed, should I shit my pants or vomit all over myself??”

No. 2589972


No. 2589973

>>2589970
I’ve been there. It’s one of many uses of a bathroom trashcan. I knew someone who had such bad norovirus they just gave up and spent the day in their shower/tub.

No. 2589977

>>2589872
theres no way that anybody who wears this actually has autism

No. 2590024

>loud music being played by neighbors
>dog continously barking
>giant ass trucks speeding through
>mom fast asleep
>move cup on desk two inches to the right
>mom wakes up and yells at me for being loud
Wtf

No. 2590032

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I'm fucking retarded!

No. 2590040

>>2590032
You fit right in

No. 2590053

>>2590032
>>2590040
All my friends are retards take it slow

No. 2590063

I'm so sick of the obvious trolls that come back over and over.

No. 2590065

>>2589705
Real talk, how does anyone vomit in a toilet? I’ve always thought that was a disgusting place to vomit. I’d rather puke anywhere else. My family always had a big giant metal bowl that was the vomit bowl and it got cleaned out with bleach and stuff after one of us (basically always me and a few times my mom, I’ve never witnessed my dad vomit in my life) needed it kek. When I moved into my own place I bought a big bowl so it could be the vomit bowl. If I’m out and about I vomit in a garbage can, sometimes a sink, sometimes just in some grass or on the street or whatever. Vomited in plastic grocery bags while in cars. But I have never and will never vomit in a toilet. I don’t understand.

No. 2590066

>>2590065
Are you bulimic?

No. 2590069

>>2590063
Same it's like dead internet theory but worse.

No. 2590071

>>2590065
…Why wouldn't you puke in the toilet if you're able to? You can flush that shit away immediately. I also had a puke bowl growing up but that was only if we were too sick to get out of bed.

No. 2590077

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>>2590071
Anon doesn't want toilet water splashing in her face

No. 2590079

>>2590066
No, but I have always been a very easily nauseated person. Thankfully I rarely vomit nowadays because I actually have meds to stop the random nausea I get semi frequently. Idk why I didn’t get Zofran or reglan until I specifically asked for them, I always figured if Pepcid or gas X or ginger didn’t work you were fucked in terms of stomach aches and nausea. When I realized oh no there are totally meds that make you not be nauseous I was like why the fuck has nobody ever offered this to me?

Also I found out I have celiac disease a few years ago, there’s a chance I’ve always had it but wasn’t reacting as violently before a few years ago (got diagnosed cause I just started puking literally everything and lost a ton of weight in a couple weeks) and a chance it was a vague intolerance my whole life and activated into full blown celiac due to stressors. But yeah I spent a good quarter century or more just walking around puking all the time and consistently nauseous. I have a lot of vomiting experience unfortunately.

No. 2590081

>>2590065
Toilets are the most reliable, they can hold large volumes and will not break like bags would under the pressure. Far less smell and clean up involved afterwards. Bathrooms also have everything you need to "recover" from the puking to be presentable again. Toilets gave the least splash back into your face, too. It's still not pleasant but nothing about throwing up is.
T. Bulimic

No. 2590082

>>2590077
Then you just lift you face out before you flush.

No. 2590083

>>2590079
omg zofran has been a lifesaver for me

No. 2590084

>>2590082
Being splashed doesn't come from the flushing it comes from the vomit hitting the water/toilet bowl, you'd need extremely fast reflexes to avoid it

No. 2590085

>>2590071
Unless the inside and the outside of that toilet just got thoroughly cleaned and disinfected I will always choose literally any other place to puke vs where people actively take shits?? Also I forgot to mention I would usually put a couple grocery bags or a trash bag in my vomit bowls so it made clean up faster if I knew I was gonna be sick. Raw dogging the vomit bowl was for those semi-emergency surprise situations

No. 2590087

>>2590084
You have to puke on the side of the bowl so it slides into the water to prevent backsplash. Or throw some tp over the water first like a shield. It you have time, which if sick you don't usually.

No. 2590088

>>2590087
Yep, you have to be careful not to go too far though because if your puke hits the toilet's rim it's like a barf bomb. Fucking everywhere

No. 2590090

The only time I can get work done is late at night. But my cat HATES when I work downstairs at night because he wants to be near me, but he doesn’t want to be downstairs. I was about to get started on work when he jumped up on the couch to join me and get attention. I feel bad for leaving him but if he has his way I will not move from this spot for the rest of the night

No. 2590091

>>2590065
Huh? It's the same place shit and other waste goes, why would this one bodily waste be an exception? It's just as nasty so it should be with the rest. Flushing it away is also a lot quicker and convenient. Vomiting in a sink is 1000 times grosser imo
>>2590084
Idg how this even happens maybe my pukes weren't heavy enough kek

No. 2590093

>>2590081
>Bathrooms also have everything you need to "recover" from the puking to be presentable again.
Ah, I think because my nausea and vomiting was due to some inherent illness of mine, there was never any recovering I was planning to do after vomiting. Besides sleeping. If anything I was sometimes semi relieved to vomit in certain situations as a minor especially cause it meant I could just go be nauseated at home. it was proof positive that I was sick enough to not be in school (in fact they always sent kids who puked home in my district). Surprisingly kids did not abuse this system.

I have vomited in sinks and trash cans of bathrooms while too drunk but never toilets. So I can see how recovering in a bathroom could be useful. I doubt I do a very good job of it if I’m so drunk I’m vomiting, though. And again, not bulimic, so never had anything but almost pure liquid vomit while drunk tbh kek and never had an issue with too much volume of vomit.

No. 2590098

>>2590091
>why would this one be an exception
Cause it comes from your face?!

No. 2590102

>lies to my ex about fucking someone else to get a reaction
>he reacts
>mfw

No. 2590104

>>2590091
It's not your puke being too light, it's about the force. There's a way to make it more forceful but I'd rather not say how, vomiting is like a shower, it has different modes of spraying kek
>>2590093
Yeah, I forgot to mention but another reason I prefer bathrooms is because it feels cleaner. It's one of those rooms, same as kitchens, that you pay twice more attention to when cleaning. If I threw up in my room I would feel like it would always be dirty from there on, and I'd hate the smell sitting on my belongings and clothes. The volume of vomit is definitely a bulimic thing, but still worth considering if you have cheap plastic bags. Doubling up with them and using a bowl to catch it is definetly the right move though.

No. 2590106

>>2590098
How close does your face get to the toilet nona? Kek this whole conversation I think I unintentionally do a "hover over the bowl" method maybe that's why I don't understand (and why I never had the splashback issue)

No. 2590107

In between jobs/school is out and I cannot stand being at home but the libraries in my area open late and close early and I'm broke so I don't know where to go during the day.
Do any nonnies have suggestions.

No. 2590108

>>2590106
Kek I'm imagining nonas doing puke trick shots from half court into the toilet now. It's like Space Jam.

No. 2590109

>>2590107
Do you have any malls in your area? They usually dgaf if someone hangs out in the food court if they're clean and quiet. You could also try a public park if it's not too hot or go to a public rec center (who will usually let you have a 'free' day to test out the facility before asking you to buy a membership).

No. 2590110

>>2589970
it only happens on my period, I wish I had a fucking disease

No. 2590113

>>2590110
I pooped my pants in my sleep while I was on my period once, it was so traumatic. Thankfully I woke up as it was happening and could clean myself immediately.

No. 2590114

>>2590065
I've vomitted in sinks, bath tubs, garbage bags, the street, my hat, on the carpet, projectilely all over, and the toilet.

1) the weird toilet water smell helps things along, sue me
2) everything else, besides outside like a degenerate, requires some kind of cleanup that takes longer than a simple flush

No. 2590115

>>2590109
I didn't consider the mall at all, thank you so much!

No. 2590121

>>2590115
No problem! If you need wifi, you can usually find the password either taped to the tables or on a mall map/interior display board a little further in.

No. 2590199

I’ve been getting enlarged pupils in only one eye at a time for no reason lately. It’s happen the past couple weeks probably 4 times. Both eyes this has happened. Am I going to die.
I can’t afford to go to a doctor

No. 2590207

>>2590065
Vomiting in the toilet is the most efficient way to. It’s more disgusting to vomit anywhere else. Your family is kind of gross.

No. 2590222

>>2590102
samefag i think i just manipulated him into realizing he still wants me. stay toxic girls

No. 2590238

>>2590199
Sounds like you need a neurologist nonna.

No. 2590295

I hate how jaded and negative this imageboad makes me but there is no where else on the internet to go. Social media sucks, reddit is shit, forums are dead, and every other imageboard is full of trannies, pedophiles, poltards, and pick mes. I just want to quit the internet and be a normal functioning member of society but I am too addicted and lonely.

No. 2590303

>>2590295
Do you have any hobbies besides IBs?

No. 2590305

Social media is boring. YouTube is boring. Imageboards are boring. Reddit is boring. Shitter is boring. Everything is boring. I need a real life but it’s also boring

No. 2590309

why is always mega-fatties on the adductor machine?

No. 2590367

>>2590295
Me too anon. I started drawing a lot more to combat this. You should also go on a walk when this happens and if you can talk to any friend you may have, especially irl but I know it's hard to make new friends so I won't blame you if you can't do that.

No. 2590417

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worked for 2 fucking years on myself and my portfolio only to end up not even being close to getting into college. it was the only thing i had going for me. i have 0 marketable skills, can't last doing the most min. wage jobs, do i just go full schizo and apply for disability or something? i've never been more lost in life and i don't know what to do. i sure as fuck don't want to reapply to that college, i feel like the professors there hate me for being a useless retard.

No. 2590483

>>2590295
you can't be a functioning member of society without wifi. to be part of society, you are required to use the internet because everyone does. so by stopping the internet use you kinda remove yourself from society. it's worthwhile but it's hard to keep up because everything relies on it so much and I hate it

No. 2590520

4 years ago I made a mistake that fucked up my entire life and future, and I still haven't recovered. I think about it every day. I never thought I could fuck up so hard.

No. 2590544

>>2590520
Well, you’re posting on LC which means you aren’t locked up in federal prison. It’s pretty hard to truly fuck up your life beyond repair.

No. 2590555

The nonna that told me gay moids as friends are jealous you were right. I realized telling him my job problems got weird reactions and I was stupid. Even today he asked me about it on his own and then suggested I go back to a shitty freelance client I had last year, when I made 800 a month kek. I said nah, I'm not going to look for small things in life anymore. He said nothing. Also noticed he loves to remind me my birth year, so fucking annoying. For years I've noticed it was weird how he kept telling my birth year any chance he got in front of my other friends (I don't have many). I realized it's because he has a weird obsession with not getting old cause in the gay world if you are close to 30 you are done. He thinks I give a fuck about it too as a woman. Go fuck yourself. Go obsess about your wrinkles in the mirror bitch, don't bring me to your anti-aging bullshit. And I don't care that I'm close to 30, you are too, and you are insecure about it cause you're lame. I might not have much right now but I got ambition and I think he might sense it and try to put me back to who I was last year, when Id accept everything and would cry all the time about how broke I was. IM SOOOO STUPID FOR TALKING ABOUT MY GOALS AND PLANS TO HIM. I didn't mention every single detail but HE KNOWS. I believe in evil eye and all that shit don't hate me I just do and it feels like I'm seeing this world with brand new eyes. I wonder if now that I know I should not vent to him, if things will start looking up.

No. 2590572

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>>2590520
De-transitioner?

No. 2590582

>>2590555
Just gonna put this out there. Maybe you should like… Stop talking to him altogether? Crazy, I know

No. 2590604

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I'm in the middle of multiple health crises and I'm so, so fucking tired, anons. Something gets better, something else decides to fuck off immediately after, and I'm mentally ill all the time throughout it.

No. 2590605

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I sometimes miss being naive and trusting of people to be fair. I rarely crave that type of romantic companionship, but when I do I feel quite sad for letting certain opportunities slide, either because of trust issues due to severe bullying at school and even at home, paranoid - ish sentiments of people hunting me for sport, never believing the other person they liked me and the “I said I like you as a joke/because I lost a bet” that still sticks with me (been told that way too many times by too many people).
But on the other hand, I certainly know that a romantic relationship is a death sentence to my own freedom and I don’t wanna pay that price. Maybe it’s the few relationships I had in which I was walked over and the people I chose, but man, I do miss falling asleep while cuddling with someone. (I’m bi so no, it wasn’t just moids who were shitty to me)
And I got to this point of emotional shutdown in which I don’t know how attraction and affectiveness towards someone should feel anymore - what should I feel in the first place because I feel numb most of the time? Even a cigarette makes me feel something kek.

No. 2590608

Very silly and embarrassing vent incoming. I used to think to myself, "maybe I will get minor plastic surgery someday, I don't know", but all that has gone out the window because I'm genuinely tweaking the fuck out over a botched dyejob kek yes it was done professionally so it's not my fault. I think it's given me some perspective: at least with hair you can just cover the damage with a darker colour and grow it out, but if a surgeon messes up your face even a little bit, it would be irreversible and you'd be even more upset. I don't know I'm just trying to find the silver lining in this situation kek

No. 2590611

this almost feels retarded to post as a vent but i just found out my ex is a furry now and ships himself with one of the characters from the bad guys. i feel gross that i was with such a loser. eugh

No. 2590624

>>2590604
I'm not sure whether I'm being too suspicious because I'll have my period soon or if my instincts are true. To be real with you he's the only friend I talk to on a daily basis and it's hard to think of losing that right now. Maybe later on down the line when I make another friend. I know, weak. Whatever, I got too much on my plate to also be suffering from loneliness too

No. 2590625

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I’ve been subtly flirting with my coworker for months and only yesterday did I find out he has a girlfriend when he casually brought it up.

No. 2590628

>>2590608
Ive always wanted to do a subtle nose job but it scares me to think they could make it ugly and id have to fix it. I'm decent looking it's just my perfectionism thinking I could look even better. I'm still not sure if one day I'll do it.

No. 2590629

>>2590604
hugs you tight You will get through this

No. 2590640

>>2590625
getting romantically/sexually involved with a coworker is bad news anyway, dodged a bullet

No. 2590661

I can't stop drinking coffee kek, i need it twice a day, double espressos

No. 2590676

I feel like /ot/ is so boring now. Used to love scrolling through the anticonsoom thread and (site)hate threads but now everything is either dead or anons are reposting misogynistic moids obviously baiting for engagement. At least I still have /m/.

No. 2590686

>>2590676
Tbh same. /m/ actually makes me want to get more involved with my hobbies lol.

No. 2590700

>>2590686
While /ot/ has been on a small decline I kinda think /m/ has improved over the years. I remember I used to constantly refresh it and it would barely budge and I’d get replies on stuff like 2-3 days after kek, but now its a normally active board which is pretty nice.

No. 2590704

>>2590555
Remind him that scrotes age faster and that he’s on his marry way to anal prolapse so he should think about himself.
I hate faggots.

No. 2590740

My mom is a first generation migrant. She went through FGM which broke my heart when she told me , I’m really glad she opened up to me, I think she felt more comfortable since I’m 21 now.
She also told me that they wanted to do it to me too but she fought tooth and nail not to so she’s really happy that I remained intact and able to fully enjoy my sexual life.
She also gave me a sort of “sex talk”, nothing too weird, but she reassured me that it’s totally okay to explore by yourself and not to be too embarrassed about it and she said sorry that she didn’t talk better about this stuff earlier and that she might have contributed to my bad relationship with sex and men (not true mom!). She even said that I should also buy toys kek.
Little does she know that I already have a vibrator and a dildo (that I yet have to understand how to use) kekk, but I felt too embarrassed to tell her that I already masturbate. I thank god my clit was spared.

No. 2590752

I feel like posters are becoming more illiterate and dumb over time.

No. 2590754

>>2590740
You reminded me of the first time I found out the same thing and I legit couldnt stop sobbing for hours. Our moms went through a lot and they’re amazing for not wanting to put us through the same misery

No. 2590765

I went swimming in a natural body of water today that was so beautiful, god the drive was so worth it. Unfortunately there was also a group of shithead rural red state teenagers there, and when I got out of the water towards the end one of the girls started loudly talking shit about how disgusting my hairy legs were right near me. I confronted her calmly but assertively, and afterwards they just kept making bizarre hostile gestures at me from a distance. Probably should’ve just ignored her in the first place.

This has never happened to me before even though I live in the urban part of a red state (which is a progressive bubble). The harassment wasn’t severe or anything imo but it really makes me worry about how I would fare living anywhere other than my little bubble. Like holy shit sometimes I forgot how little gender non conformity is tolerated outside of cities. I have to keep this in mind for the future.

No. 2590780

After crying, i just made the concious decision to ignore the news and whatever is going on in politics. I mentally can't afford it anymore I'm already so stressed. It's like everytime I get a sliver of hope about something, it immediately gets crushed.

No. 2590781

>>2590740
Your mom sounds amazing. I can’t imagine how difficult it would be to go through that. I’ve experienced severe clitoral health issues (unrelated to FGM) and finding treatment was very difficult and draining. Treatment for vulvar/clitoral conditions is so underfunded and lacking… I hope she’s doing well.

No. 2590785

>>2590611
>my ex is a furry now
Was there any red flags that you did not see that make sense now?

No. 2590786

>>2590740
>>2590754
Not FGM but I recently learned that my mom was raped, resulting in the birth of my youngest brother. The rapist decided he wanted to be 'part of his son's life' and that's how I found out that he's my half-brother and not my father's child. I had to sit across from this man as he tried to chat my little brother up and not get angry as he talked about my brother's half-siblings and his life after he raped my mom. I wanted to kill him, scream at him, anything because I wanted to hurt him for hurting her and my family for so long. My dad never said anything, always treated my brother as his son, and it's only now that he's passed away that this slimball wants to make himself known. What a fucking monster. I told my mom, privately, that the next time I see that fucker that I'll smack him across the face, and she told me that I should be kind for my brother's sake. I was so pissed off. My aunt, her younger sister, was also raped and had her rapist's child, though that wasn't kept a secret (and that guy is dead, thank goodness). I hate these men who decided to assault the women I love, and I hate that I kind of hate my mom for hiding it from us.

No. 2590835

My coworkers are obsessed with "daddies" and seriously romanticize age gap relationships. They congratulate other women in relationships with men a decade or more older than them. They once looked up the profile of a business partner, found out he was 62 years old, and said "ooh daddy" in little girl voices. I have never witnessed this level of pick-me-ism before (at least offline), and it's so sad coming from women in their 30s and 40s. Not coincidentally they are all in love with Pedro Pascal.

No. 2590844

>>2590611
which one the mary sue fox or the aquafina tarantula?

No. 2590866

>>2590835
There is no daddy shit when you are that age, you are a retard if you are 30 and dating a 60 year old God gracious. It’s not daddy it’s more like grandpa and his live-in nurse.
>pedro pascal
Of course they fucking do kekk.

No. 2590868

>>2590780
American? kek.

No. 2590869

>>2590736
She's a good woman

No. 2590873

>>2590835
Blame social media

No. 2590877

>>2590611
Is he autistic?

A guy I was friendly with in college is now a.. bird furry. Got a big custom made bird costume and a giant tattoo of his birdsona? taking up his entire back now. He wanted to date me years ago and I dodged because he one, seemed really in denial about the fact that he's clearly autistic. And two, seemed like the kinda guy who'd just hop on grindr after being rejected by too many women. Sure enough he's proudly bi now too but only sleeps with men. Won't date them. Wants a gf kek

No. 2590887

>>2590835
>and it's so sad coming from women in their 30s and 40s.
their ''daddies'' would consider them too old, which is both funny and sad.

No. 2590895

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I know I'll probably be called a retard for this, but here goes. Two days ago, I lost my phone in an Uber car. When I arrived home and realised that I had lost it, the first thing I did was change the passwords for my other email accounts and log out of them, so that the person who grabbed the phone couldn't log in, even though it was password-protected.
Everything was fine yesterday until I returned home from being outside. When I turned on my laptop, I was logged out of my main email account. I don't have a recovery email address for that account, and I don't have access to the linked phone number. I have tried using the "other login options" on Gmail, but it keeps telling me that I haven't provided enough information.

No. 2590919

>>2590895
You will have to contact support and you may have to confirm emails you previously had. I think they'll be able to see your IP on your current laptop at least.

No. 2590925

>>2590877
>Sure enough he's proudly bi now too but only sleeps with men. Won't date them. Wants a gf kek
Classic bi scrotes and their feces riddled penis. No penis or hands or tongue that touched a faggot should ever go into contact with the sacred vagina of a woman.

No. 2590938

yo, i had some repressed memories pop up that explain some of my behavior as a teen/young adult. i don’t remember much though since these incidents happened twenty years ago. what do now?

No. 2590940

I have gotten so fat its actually terrifying looking at my naked body. I’m on the taller side so it doesnt look the absolute worst but even with the height buffer I still look pretty fucking massive. I feel like even if I lose all this I’ll just be full of loose skin too… ugh this is why I cant even get mad when nonas shittalk fatties because they’re absolutely right that we’re disgusting creatures

No. 2590948

>>2590835
Wasn't surprised till you got to their ages. My fave part of being in my 30s and having coworkers in ther 40s is getting to hear about what perimenopause will be like

No. 2590954

>>2590940
You're not disgusting. You could lose the weight, you can do anything you put your mind into.

No. 2590960

>>2590940
girl just do intermittent fasting you’ll be fine, and loose skin usually bounces back if you are like under 35

No. 2590961

>>2590765
younger zoomers are retarded. i’m glad you confronted her.

No. 2590982

>>2590940
Just do some fasting and use a dermaroller on your skin

No. 2591008

Another holiday ruined by my boyfriend throwing a random temper tantrum. I'm so sick of this every single holiday or birthday.

No. 2591009

>>2591008
>another holiday
>another
And you're still with him because…?

No. 2591010

I'm so sick of everything, I'm so depressed and exhausted of work. I'm autistic and beyond repair, I just want to quit my job and focus on school but I help my family financially and my job pays for my school but I don't even care. I just want to quit and keep going but I would feel even worse about not being able to help my family as much except for when I get disbursements. I work part time and it's still fucking too much for me. I can't even imagine what it's like to work full time. Maybe I could manage it if I had an office job but I work in food service and I have severe plantar fasciitis so standing anything more than 4 hours just kills me. Some days I can't even walk. Everything is getting so much worse in my country too I just don't know what to do.

No. 2591011

>>2591009
I don't have enough money to leave yet and I have no family to fall back on like most people.

No. 2591012

>>2591008
honestly if he's doing it more on holidays and doing it on purpose then that's even more of a red flag. expect him to only escalate as time goes on and life gets harder.

No. 2591026

>>2590961
Yeah I’m an older zoomer and I do feel like they’re somehow significantly worse?

No. 2591027

I know it's not good to suppress anger, but some things just aren't worth the effort of getting angry or annoyed over so better to just let it pass and deal with it as it is.

No. 2591030

Why am I old? Pixy is so fucking right.

No. 2591037

>>2591027
It's a skill to acknowledge that something pisses you off, while also recognizing that it's not worth getting mad about it. I don't get angry anymore because I realized very, very little is worth flipping out over.

No. 2591039

>>2591008
>>2591011
I'd an ex where it took too long to get out because same, no family to fall back on and rents were going up alot. Looking back I think he assumed I was trapped too. That made him feel fine to keep raging out. Some guys trap partners with a baby.. now some just know shit's so expensive and if you've no parents to fall back on even that's enough to make em feel comfortable.

Got to the point where I realized we only got along if we were both at work all day and barely spent a couple hours together in the evenings. Weekends, special occasions.. any time that should've been quality time, his temper came out. He expected to just carry on living like that

No. 2591044

My bf wants me to try butt stuff on him, any thoughts nonnas?(wrong thread)

No. 2591047

>>2591044
Sounds fun, but maybe you posted in the wrong thread.

No. 2591049

>>2591044
Oh absolutely fucking not for me personally, but I'm not gonna yuck your yum.

No. 2591052

im so fucking tired after staying in a hotel room with a loved one that snores. i keep waking up in the middle of the night even when i wear earplugs. but the thing is i have some online work to do for the next couple of hours. and the thing is i dont wanna drink coffee because it makes me insanely anxious and i want to maintain my sleep schedule. Ah well, we soldier on i suppose

No. 2591053

>ReCeSsIoN InDiCaToR
shut up shut up shut up

No. 2591054

>>2591053
most annoying trendy phrase in recent memory tbh

No. 2591057

>>2591044
stinky

No. 2591058

>>2591044
Skip straight to fisting

No. 2591059

i'm so sick of being muslim so my faggot ass family avoids eating at regular restaurants. these faggots are obsessed with regularly getting haLOL fried chicken and i fucking hate fried chicken this shit is so dry and disgusting i'm so fucking sick of this faggot overbuying this nasty dry shit and then never eating. faggot has gout and will croak any day now but is gorging on fried chicken god damn

No. 2591061

>>2591059
The fact halal means doin a prayer before slaughtering the animal but how can you be 100% sure it has been done? And they buy that from white farmers who absolutely dont give a damn about your halal shit, they'll slaughter the animal, and add a sticker on it that says "halal" and these retards will buy it. Halal means absolutely NOTHING. Nada zero

No. 2591073

>>2591044
what do you call it when something is cute and gross at the same time

No. 2591075

>>2591073
Cross?

No. 2591077

>>2591072
Wrong thread nonnie

No. 2591078

>>2591075
that exists already, I'll go for grute

No. 2591079


No. 2591083

>>2591077
which would be appropriate

No. 2591086

>>2591083
Mundane shit maybe?

No. 2591089

>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny
>horny(shitposting/not a vent)

No. 2591091

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My friend , the retard who cheated on her bf and who is now having sex with the first people she finds:
>guy 1
>met on tinder
>short
>looks like a faggot
>plain face
>beard
>has sex with other women (or men)
But she says he does fuck well
>guy 2
>ugly
>receding hairline
>cheater
She says that she is keeping him because it strokes her ego since he just wants her.
>guy 3
She is going to meet him next week. But he is an uggo too. Or maybe it’s just me who finds men ugly kekk.
I don’t know how she has time for sex with all this heat, it’s way too fucking hot.
I dialed down and just became a “yass girl! So cool” because she acted like a baby last time when I didn’t “support” her shenanigans.
The only thing now is that she has to tell every time she sex, which is annoying as hell. I don’t care that you had sex on the floor with the fan on, that you went to the beach and had sex and then the next day you went to the other one to have sex for 1 h.
I am trying to find other friends but it’s hard holy hell. Should I put Bumble friends? I just want a normal woman who is not a retard when she sees a dick

No. 2591092

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>>2591089
You sound like my friend and you triggered my ongoing PTSD

No. 2591097

>>2591089
Literally me every day for the last few months, is there something wrong with us?

No. 2591099

>>2591089
>>2591097
It means you are a healthy adult woman with balanced hormones and a functioning libido.

No. 2591104

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>>2591099
>tfw almost never horny and have terrible PMS

No. 2591105

>>2591089
it's a curse not a blessing

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No. 2591111

Not shaming anybody here who does it anonymously but i really hate when people i know describe their pooping habits to me like holy shit some things are meant to be kept to yourself its fucking gross

No. 2591112

>>2591044

He's gonna troon on you. Run.

No. 2591114

>>2591044
Rape him with a big 7 girth dildo first. See if he likes it after kek. What a retard.

No. 2591125

>midnight
>still not in bed
why can i not ever make it

No. 2591126

>>2591092
what did she do to you

No. 2591128

sex with men(not a vent)

No. 2591131

sex with men (naked)(not a vent)

No. 2591132


No. 2591137

>>2591126
It’s just annoying to hear the same discourse every time I hear her. I’m just tired of hearing about
>I studied and has sex
>I sucked dick
>I feel better because I had sex
>tonight I’m busy because I’ll have sex
>before my exam I had sex
>it was hot but I had sex
>after my exam I had sex
I AM TIRED. Why does everything have to be centered about sex and dicks , it’s tiring and frankly boring. Same goes with the nonnas here.

No. 2591138

>>2591137
We are going to the beach with other friends and I bet your ass that that’s what she is going to talk about….

No. 2591141

>>2591137
>>2591138
sounds annoying
how does she have so many sex partners?
i mostly masturbate tbh i havent had sex in like a year

No. 2591143

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>>2591138
Before the nympho brigade comes after me , this is the vent thread and u can say what I want.

No. 2591144

>tell my mom im switching from premed to engineering because of new trump bill
>disgust
>you want to be an ENGINEER now? you're changing your mind all the time (this is my first time changing majors) ugh well you should have gone to A DIFFERENT SCHOOL
my fucking god you should be happy for me that im choosing less debt and training for a good job

No. 2591145

>>2591138
sex is loser behavior
horniness is a measure of how much of a loser you are

No. 2591150

>>2591141
She put Tinder and found guy 1, guy 2 she met him at a party through a mutual friend, possible candidate 3 met him through her faggot roommate.
She is chatty so it’s easy to talk to her , she is also the aggressive type that pursues and she is not overtly beautiful to the point that they are intimidated.
It’s pretty easy to fuck if you just accept anything that comes your way nonna.

No. 2591154

>>2591150
I had tried putting the apps before and I just didn’t find it interesting at all and the guys I saw were all ogres.

No. 2591156

>>2591144
I'm sorry anon. I don't know your mom, but if she has been a relatively good mom to you, it's most likely coming out of some place of concern. Parents just really suck at expressing it with the right words, but she probably just isn't too happy about(what she perceives is) wavering in your education.

No. 2591160

Am I happy? Am I having fun?

No. 2591169

>>2591137
I know someone who does the same thing but she always complains about how bad the sex was, which might be even more annoying because she could literally just stop.

No. 2591171

>be me
>posting on lolcow.org
>get farmhandled
>tfw

No. 2591178

>>2591156
Thank you for the kind response. She hasn't been a good mom, alcoholic, selfish, but she won't stop me from doing a BA in engineering. I am looking forward to moving out and being no contact.

No. 2591187

>>2591178
Samefag, she just told me she doesn't think I'll do anything with my life because I won't make a decision (changed my major once). This is the same woman who told all her friends and coworkers I was on "fucked up weird pills" (antidepressants) after she let her boyfriend hospitalize me

No. 2591191

>>2591169
I definitely feel you nonna, my friend has been praising guy number one for his fucking style and I can tell that she’s been dying to go over the details but I gray wall her by saying “that’s great! You should keep him! Yass” kek.

No. 2591202

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feeling manic
it's so over for me

No. 2591207

Since there isn't anything for me to be anxious about this weekend, my mind is making up stuff in the vein of "that didn't happen, but imagine if it did" that I slowly convince myself of having actually happened because apparently I just won't allow myself to relax.

No. 2591214

>>2591207
kek what is an example of something you made up

No. 2591248

I’m currently laying on the bathroom floor and having a panic attack. My mom just humiliated me in front of a bunch of relatives. I obviously wasn’t in the mental state to speak to them so I literally couldn’t say anything beyond hi. I could tell everyone noticed something was wrong. I’m just tired of all of this

No. 2591263

Raining most of the evening so by the time it’s not raining it’ll be too late to grill burgers but not too late for fuckers to blow up Chinese explosives for hours to celebrate this absolute shithole excuse for a country

No. 2591284

>>2591039
Thank you for this, nonna. I appreciate the understanding and also see this as a reminder it's not going to get better.

No. 2591364

I’ve been stuck at home sick with a cold all week and for the last 2 days literally ALL I want to do is eat. I’m constantly thinking about what I want to eat, what can I snack on rn, etc. but then when I actually make the food I just can’t do it. I made a big steak dinner with mashed potatoes and asparagus that I had been craving for a few days and couldn’t eat more than a few bites. And then immediately after packing it all up I catch myself thinking of what food I can eat again. What the fuckkkkk

No. 2591386

i went out for 15 minutes to help someone and now i got a mosquito bite on my fucking ass somehow

No. 2591431

>>2590785
honestly, not really. he was kind of a fag even when we were together but this is kind of a new low
>>2590844
mary sue fox KEK
>>2590877
he's not officially diagnosed with autism but i wouldn't be surprised if he was. he was mostly an anime/cartoon autist and not a furry guy when we were together. also, he's the type of guy that i wouldn't be super surprised if he trooned out eventually so… go figure. afaik he still is straight but who knows how he'll turn out in a couple of years. this is so embarrassing to write out even if this is anonymous holy shit

No. 2591432

I'm fucking starving, my stomach is touching my back. I haven't ate a single morsel of today. I'm waiting for my pizza delivery which probably won't be here for another 25-30 minutes

No. 2591448

my neck is so stiff and hurts so much every day after work, I've been laying down all day today because I can barely move it without agony. if this goes on for much longer I'm actually going to need a neck brace, I'm not even joking

No. 2591458

I'm sick of hearing about the moeshit gacha horse girl game everywhere

No. 2591489

being not invited to something makes me so insane and suicidal kek even if it’s just because they live farther away it still hurts more than it should

No. 2591514

i'll take the kpop ban but i really miss the older days of kpop like this when it used to be for adults too and was more contemporary and artsy.

Nowadays all kpop seems like kidsbop and is just making terrible slop that they hope the west likes.

Is there any 2nd gen kpop fan here who is mourning the loss kpop?(kpop)

No. 2591552

>>2591514
2nd gen music rules but I'm glad I haven't cared about anything since, it's too much effort to keep up with kpop releases and I'm happy to just relisten to old stuff instead. I have been released from their clutches.

No. 2591569

i hate that as an autist talking to chatgpt about what i did wrong in social interactions can be so eye opening and give me good advice. fucked.

No. 2591573

>>2591432
Samefag, I ended up getting mcdonalds and ordered way too much food (large big mac meal, milkshake as the drink, 10pc chicken nuggets, and a cookie because I fucking forgot I got the milkshake) and now I feel so fucking full. I can't even finish my milkshake, I couldn't finish anything. I want to go back to 2 hours ago, it wasn't worth it. Don't order fast food on an empty stomach anons

No. 2591576

There's this moid I'm in a situationship with. We bonded over video games originally, but somewhere along the line he decided I'm not enough of a gamer and he "playfully" shits on me and my taste in games calling me a fake gamer, when we're alone and when we're with friends. It pisses me the fuck off for so many reasons. It's so fucking disrespectful, and it hurts because I was always an outcast growing up and games were my only escape. But apparently because I don't play counter strike and dota and haven't played every triple a ever I'm a "fake gamer girl". I wanna end things so bad but Im horny. As soon as I find another decent scrote it's over.

No. 2591584

>>2591576
Damn have some self respect. You're literally fucking a man who insults you and looks down on you. Toys are the better option at this point.

No. 2591586

>>2591576
>I wanna end things so bad but Im horny
i mean i could be wrong but i assume you have two working hands… dump this loser

No. 2591587

>>2591576
>As soon as I find another decent scrote it's over.
You wanna wait around for miracles to happen??? Break up now, you'll find another guy in a week tops and it'll be easier to grow closer because you'll already be single. Trust me.

No. 2591635

died in my minecraft hardcore world on a misclick, that's 100 hours wasted on a retarded game I'll never get back, at least it's over now

No. 2591636

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No. 2591656

I dont think i have it but sometimes im scared that ill have some incident that activates my sleeper agent BPD (my mom has it)

No. 2591670

>>2591576
This is truly retarded behavior

No. 2591680

>>2584635
One doesn't give herself OCD. What you did?

No. 2591697

>Mom inquires about something which is not her business
>"but it's not my business"
>I agree
>she carries on moralfagging about people she hasn't spoken to in a decade in the next message
You don't know the weight of the situation and I'm not telling it to you because you don't need to know. Can't you just drop it?

No. 2591698

>>2591514
Same. Discovered CSJH The Grace and I'm obsessed with them and their talent even if their albums are slightly boring to me. I've been discovering F(x)'s stuff as well, 2ne1, Spica, and discovered Rania back when they had an all Korean lineup. Having a blast exploring all the songs and albums. I'm also trying to get into Dreamcatcher because I'm into rock and metal and their songs can be on the rock-ier side of things so it's interesting to me.

No. 2591701

Having a full-time job is so fucked. Not being able to go to the cinema at 2pm on a tuesday or buy a watermelon in the morning when stores are empty makes me want to kill myself. I have to choose between the thing I want to do or comfort when I used to have both. I wish I could be unemployed forever. I feel like I can't do this much longer

No. 2591773

I asked my mom a dozen times if the bed in her guest room was an adult or child sized bed and she promised me a dozen times that it was an adult bed. Well now I'm here and can't sleep because my feet dangle off if I try to sleep in any position except the fetal position. And she's still insisting that it's an adult sized bed because it's "big enough for two people". Maybe big enough for two children or two midgets. I'm taller than average I guess but not freakishly tall, if a bed cannot accommodate someone who's 5'8 it's not a fucking adult bed.

No. 2591780

Fuck. Woke up at 12 (loser I know) with period cramps and sweating. And in this heat I dont know how I’m gonna handle my own body temperature going up and the weather in general. Id love to have a cold shower but I feel tired and weak. Ughhh

No. 2591782

>>2591780
I woke up at 11 and sweating but no period yet thank God but still dehydrated I ate too salty fried noodles yesterday..

No. 2591784

>>2591782
I feel tired and weakish too but I’ll try to get up .. I have to. Been lazing for 2 hours now. And promised myself to only laze for 1.5 hours kek

No. 2591785

My ukrainian neighbours wife left him because he was constantly screaming at her, and now I have to listen to him mope blasting hymns instead. God I hope his wife succeeds in getting his ass deported back to ukraine.

No. 2591788

Why are Americans so perfomative? Everything they do turns themselves into weird objects. Everyone says Europeans are rude but as far as I can tell it’s because they’re the only ones who just act like people and mind there damn business. It’s so cringe watching Americans dance around in public, especially the women doing cutesy voices and hand on chin poses. Ugh. You aren’t an object so why do you make yourself one? Stop debasing yourself publicity. It’s so gross to watch.

No. 2591790

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Why do I subject myself to Facebook.

No. 2591791

>>2591790
She has a point, though.

No. 2591792

>>2591790
Why are they so obsessed with being barefoot? Foot fetish?

No. 2591793

>>2591784
Im making an omelette and found an advil. I’m thinking Ill have a shower after and stay in bed all day. I just hope I don’t hurt too much i dont wanna deal with it today I just cant..

No. 2591795

>>2591791
That heterosexuality is drudgery and that’s feminists’ fault?

No. 2591796

>>2591790
Put it on your resume then.

No. 2591797

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>>2591790
She’s also from Waco, Texas

No. 2591813

Thinking about how I was 20 on lolcow venting about how my existence is worthless and I will never amount to anything, and now 7 years later I was correct, my existence is still worthless. I cant even get a job, no degree, cant do any of the normal shit people do, no friends, sitting at home 24/7, fat. Ngl I would be happy with just 1 trusted friend and a reason to leave my house regularly.

No. 2591815

>>2591813
Everything you want is not going to come to you magically by staying in bed 24/7, doing nothing. Get the fuck up, do something. Make one change. Build better habits for yourself. Make yourself happy. It’s your job and you havent taken it seriously. Ffs what makes you like this, is you staying the same, thinking the same and doing the same shit. Change it up nonna

No. 2591824

>>2591813
Nonnie I think you’re scared to take that leap of faith and be uncomfortable. If you really want to change you can. Small steps small goals.

No. 2591825

>>2591813
> I would be happy with just 1 trusted friend
Have you tried summoning demons

No. 2591832

>>2591813
You can do this. Start now

No. 2591833

>>2591788
Like stop caring what Americans do and life will be peaceful. I’m living more peaceful not keeping up with their celebs now. I have made it through 1 day. I do see some celebs on here but not a lot of in depth articles or rumors and it’s so peaceful. I don’t have TikTok never got the hype so no dancing people for me my youtube is curated so only wholesome people doing a happy dance here and there. I’m rambling kek. I will still watch some American content here and there though. I really recommend curating your timeline.

No. 2591840

>>2591813
I am the same way. I am in my 20s without a highschool degree and am only surviving off of freelance work and my boyfriend paying for things. My schoolwork is online so I never leave the house nor do I talk to people. The worst part is I am struggling balance my time effectively and am not even doing my schoolwork anymore. I don't know why I thought I could change my life.

No. 2591854

>>2591840
I use studying sounds on YouTube to get me in the mood to study. I could give you recos if you are interested. I'm a shallow person and the aesthetic of studying motivates me kek. Also started watching Gilmore Girls for more academic vibes. Added a few pictures of Elle Woods on her laptop writing essays on Pinterest, it's the only way my retarded brain can go to work

No. 2591900

I failed an exam twice in a row, the second time around I actually managed to do worse even though I’d studied more. I have two more exams, one at the end of the month which includes subjects I’m bad at (including the one I failed) and one in ten days. I’m so tired of studying and my ego is bruised. I tried sitting down with my books for an hour today and it feels like my brain’s made of rubber, everything just bounces on it. I’m so frustrated, and I feel so stupid. As if that all wasn’t enough, it’s hot and I’m broke. I just want to go to the pool, man…

No. 2591904

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Cn't wait to get a decent job so I can be free of my terrible moid flatmate. He used to have some self awareness when we were younger but now he's over 30 and rotted by internet use and female enablers he's more entitled, whiny and insecure in that way that means he interprets every single struggle i have as a 'win' for his lazy ass. I can't be bothered and ignore his bullshit but it still pisses me off how delusional and smug he is. It's worse now he has more money than me and constantly rubs it in. I could torment him, knowing this is due to his insecurity, but I have no energy even to fuck with men anymore. I just want to be free for the first time in my life so I can start building the support system I want. Hopefully he doesn't initiate anything (he tends to assume I want to fuck him because we had sex twice about 6 years ago) because I will punch him in the cock so hard he needs medical treatment… and i don't want to get arrested.

No. 2591923

I wish someone would kill me. I can't kill myself cause my nigel would be mad at me, my parents would turn themselves into permanent victims trying to make it all about them. I just wish it would be over. I wish this never even started.

No. 2591940

>watching American primeval with my mom
>”are the native Americans Spanish?”
>”mom do u mean Mexican lol”
>”no the native Americans”
>”no they’re just Native American”
>”but not Spanish?”
>”no but a lot of Mexicans have native American blood that’s why they look similar”
>”do you mean the Spanish”
gen x lead poisoning isn’t talked about enough

No. 2591998

Whats the fucking point of “drawing and practicing and everyday you get better” if your posting to an audience of no one. Im a traditional artist. Pen paper colored pencils and i feel i get over shadowed by digital art because its bright and polished and shiny. I feel like an asshole posting traditional art to no one. No one gives a fuck about me or how I draw. No one comments on my stuff or anything. I hate it.

No. 2592004

>>2591998
Shift your mindset and start doing it for yourself. Yeah, art is pointless if you don't wanna actually create art, and just want an audience. It's natural to want a bit of praise and connection, we are all human. But the fact that you're focusing solely on that instead of expressing yourself and making stuff because it fulfills you is setting yourself up for failure. Life in general is more than just performing to others. Godspeed, nona

No. 2592013

>>2591940
"we don't need no education" yeah and it shows

No. 2592023

>>2591998
if you don't actually find drawing and improving fun for yourself, then stop or take a break from it.

No. 2592029

i went with my friend to meet his friends and i ended up bawling in front of them after he brought up my ex. why are moids retarded

No. 2592045

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Excitedly opening up an AO3 email from a fandom writer you're subscribed to only to find it's baseball RPF

No. 2592065

Just found a youtube video that I remember seeing it on the first day it was posted and it says posted two years ago. So many things are reminding me that I wasted years doing nothing and it's making me want to die instead of motivating me to do anything. I can't believe I have done nothing in these two years (and even more before that) and have no memories of the years at all

No. 2592119

>>2592065
i hear you. i tried learning a second language some years ago, and if i stayed consistent with it, i would've been fluent by now. there's also big chunks of nothingness in my memory. i'd say keep a journal, it does help a little bit, but more often than not, i fail to keep up with it.

No. 2592130

The world is bleak and my stomach hurts from anxiety

No. 2592138

I can't stop thinking of that woman who was forced to be kept on life support despite being braindead because she was pregnant. Im sure it was partially an experiment. It's so evil, like the modern equivalent of Henrietta Lacks.

No. 2592201

>>2592065
Read more fiction and use a monthly print out habit tracker that you put into a binder, it really helps.

No. 2592204

I use Notion and created a To Do list to stay organized and disciplined

No. 2592205

>>2592065
I feel the exact same way anon. I've wasted the last 5 years just being a retard.

No. 2592233

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my mother has gone from
>i'm really sad my brother and i are estranged
to
>i need to change my will to make sure this piece of shit doesn't get a single cent from me
i mean i agree that my uncle is a dipshit but idk what happened and i'm afraid to ask

No. 2592239

i feel so empty it’s scary

No. 2592261

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I hate that there's almost no effective suicide method other than shooting yourself in the head. In terms of low pain/instant death and annihilation. Since I was a teenager I've had low-key fantasies of being murdered. Doing for me what I can't do myself, especially as I'm getting older. I feel like it was a mistake I was even born, why must being alive be so terrifying? Like every day is being graded on a test. I think being neglected, abused and exposed to edgelord content at lik 10 years old destroyed me as a person. If I was less of an antisocial depressive I'm scared I'd be a lolcow with how pathetic I am

No. 2592270

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i think one of the kids from my workplace got me sick. i feel like shit. i think its just a stomach bug, but if its not, i know that tomorrow i'll feel even worse. eugh

No. 2592275

>>2592233
Huh, my mother has recently started ranting about her narcissist sister and won't stop telling me how that slimy little bitch won't get a shred of sympathy from her no matter what. Maybe it's an age thing? Old people always say they don't give a shit about people pleasing, if your mom had to spend her life playing second fiddle to her shitty brother and was expected to continue to bow and scrape to him she might be releasing years of resentment towards her brother.
It's probably for the best, so good for her, I also hope she doesn't give that no good son of a bitch a single cent and that he gets what's coming to him.

No. 2592277

>>2592261
>Like every day is being graded on a test.
And yet failing a test is not the end of a person's life. Whatever it is you're afraid of in life, you can still face and move on from. You've been afraid of living all this time and yet you're still here, even if you don't see it this way you have been confronting your fear everyday. You have what it takes to live because you're already doing it, the fact that you're feeling any fear at all is proof of that. You've woken up everyday for countless days struggling with your anxieties and every single one of those is a victory for you

No. 2592278

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>>2592261
Get better nonna. You matter, picrel is my kitten, called him Tiki, he loves sweets and naps. You matter and this world needs you

No. 2592279

>>2592278
Most importantly cats exist, and food, travel, beaches.. There are people ready to love you somewhere in the world that you haven't met yet

No. 2592280

Looking up pretty much anything on YouTube yields a bunch of smug looking zoomer content videos where they ramble like they've lived long enough to know what they're talking about. I don't have anything against young people it's just the bored newscaster voice, the speaking like they're enlightened, thr repetative topics and ways of speaking.. I don't want digital detox advice from someone with an #aesthetic room who shills their tiktok at the end of the video. Stand down on this one.

No. 2592289

tap water is not just likewarm, it's straight up burning at this point

No. 2592297

>>2592261
>Terrifying
>like everyday is like being graded
Nonna fuck I feel this so hard. Thoughts like that dominated my life from 8 to 25. im 35 now I'm slowly getting better, suicidal ideation has been low.

No. 2592301

I am deeply afraid of anybody ever since I knew myself, it feels like any sorta human personal interaction is just choosing the way you wanna be abuse, it's either Chinese water torture of constant bickering and slaps and punches that don't hurt that bad and you get attention but it's only negative attention ex:my mom, my sister, my female middle school and high school bullies or you do get no attention but once in a blue moon you get positive attention but you have to whatcha out for the possibility of being beat to a pulp, ex:my dad, my male middle school and highschool bully, there is no win, I just wished I was the last person on earth so I can finally live in peace, can not believe I spend the first 20 years of my life in constant worry and gut reaching fear of somehow making a mistake or misspeaking or heck just accidentally braking something since I am clumsy, fuck everybody, I hate everything.

No. 2592353

I am on SNRIs and went to a bar with friends today and made the mistake to drink two cocktails. While I was at the bar everything was fine but now I am laying in bed and the anxiety part of my brain is back and switched on. I cannot stop thinking about how weird I probably was and that wasn't funny or engaging enough and that they all probably think I'm weird and that they hate me. Usually those thoughts are almost completely gone thanks to my magical antidepressant pills. Thank goodness for them I will never ever drink alcohol I swear. Next time I will just order one without the alcohol because it's 100% not worth it. Fuck you alcohol. Dear antidepressant god I will never cheat on you again I will try to sleep now and hopefully after taking the next pill tomorrow I will feel fine again. I don't even know how I functioned so long without them I am in my mid twenties and my brain is a complete mess that makes me miserable and is unable to function without pills in this society. It isn't even the therapy that helps I think there is legitimately something wrong with my brain chemistry because I was depressed and anxious since elementary school

No. 2592361

>>2592353
Does it help you to know your anxiety was triggered by metabolic products of alcohol consumption and probably not by you actually being cringey? Or maybe you're already aware, hence why you're mad at alcohol. Still, I find it helps me get through the rough patch to keep telling myself it's chemical and I don't need to analyse my drunk behaviour.
https://adf.org.au/insights/what-is-hangxiety/

No. 2592368

>>2592361
Thank you so much anon, I hope that's the reason why I feel so anxious. I guess I will never drink alcohol again because the way I am feeling right now is not worth it. I also only drank some because all of the other people were drinking and I didn't want to be a party pooper or get those "why aren't you drinking are you pregnant" questions. Logically I know that I wasn't cringey because I wasn't doing anything shameful or disrespectful I was just kind of quiet. My anxiety is deeply integrated into my brain, I grew up with a very critical mother who would give me negative feedback after social events and pick apart my behavior like "Aunt Sally now thinks that you are rude for not doing xyz", "stop looking like that and make a happy face, everyone thinks that you are weird." Now as an adult it feels as if the voice of my mother lives in my brain. When I am with others I am usually reserved and polite but afterwards I beat myself up about the way they might think about me.

No. 2592372

>>2592353
this is how I've been living everyday since I turned 14, I often stop coming out of my apartment for months at a time, every time I come within a close distance of anyone, let alone have them address me, I start overthinking everything and feeling cynical even as nothing is happening, but I'm still too prideful to start taking meds even as I've been repeatedly told that it could help out of spiraling

No. 2592399

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I've been trying to learn French for a while because my husbando speaks it, but French people always seem like they want to kill you if you aren't speaking it fluently… I love him but it feels like a waste since I'll never really use the language

No. 2592411

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I randomly get spells where it's hard for me to breathe and it feels like I'm breathing through a straw. I think it happens when I don't go outside for long periods of time. mfw my shut in-ness is basically turning me into an asthmatic

No. 2592438

the way people online talk about heroin and fent and other hard drugs so casually like "if youre using use safely uwu!" is so disturbing to me. out of all the things to "normalize" thats not fucking it

No. 2592445

>>2592438
Where the hell are you hanging out online

No. 2592447

>>2592445
ive seen this sort of post on twitter and tumblr. mostly tumblr, i guess tumblr is crackhead city

No. 2592451

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Saw a bit from a shoujo manga and got upset about how I was treated in the past. What a lame fucking thing to get triggered by

No. 2592460

>>2592438
Use your brain, telling a addict to stop won't help but telling them to be more careful like (checking purity and doses) tends to work better.

No. 2592465

>>2592447
Yeah that explains it, Twitter and tumblr are not places I dare venture. Fuck that nonsense. No doing crack and fent isn’t normal kek.

No. 2592469

>>2592451
It's okay, I had a similar response to a movie recently and I had to stop watching it. The movie wasn't bad, it just hit too close to home and it made me really emotional.

No. 2592471

>>2592460
that wasnt the point of my post at all

No. 2592482

>>2592353
Ah that's nothing nonna, you'll be back to normal and at least you can chalk it up to the alky.
Meanwhile I had an exBPDemon friend who decided she wasn't going to pace herself on her birthday with her meds and proceeded to mortify our entire friend group and hosts by having a psychotic breakdown after downing several spiked seltzer drinks. Didn't bother to let any of us know she was on those meds that would not be good to mix with alcohol so it was traumatizing. Complete with slamming shit not hers inside the host's house and acting wildly jealous of her bf (whose birthday it was technically after midnight) and accused us all of not giving her enough attention for her birthday. She got so out of control that she ran away when her bf asked her to calm down, so the cops were called. She called me on my phone hissing like a serial killer telling me to shut up and listen to her (I wasn't even talking), then detailed how she wanted me to grab her stuff from the house and go pick her up. Did she know where she was? No, just wanted me to go driving around. She was picked up by police during her call to me and I could hear her voice and personality switch immediately trying to tell them lies about what happened.
A day later? Some half ass "apology" to us and that was never talked about again.

No. 2592621

saw a guy i went out with briefly and remembered how cute his face was ughhhh why did he have to be such a RETARD????? looks not matching personality is BULLSHIT

No. 2592643

>>2591797
Disgusting mindset and mask off moment.
>>2591813
Mood. Same. I knew I was worthless and I wouldn't get anywhere since I was a little kid because it's the things always been.

No. 2592650

I suspect someone is in the main house because a light that was off which can only be switched on from the inside was on yesterday night but no one should be in there as I am alone on the property and I will shit myself. The light is also an outdoor light so the potential person inside the house can easily see what I'm doing and when I'm leaving or entering my own apt from a 2nd floor window while I cant see inside that room because it's too dark. Fuck

No. 2592665

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My best friend has to lose roughly 40 pounds so her insurance will pay for her breast reduction. It wouldn't have been an issue if she still lived alone - she has lost a lot of weight on her own before but gained back once she moved in with her girlfriend, and her girlfriend is in charge of all the cooking (my friend does all the cleaning in return) but she doesn't know how to bring up to her that they need to do some changes in their eating habits; less desserts, cut down on alcohol, change out ingredients for healthier options, more greens, etc. It would be great for both of them since the girlfriend is even heavier than she is, but because the girlfriend believes in some of the jargong used in today's warped body positivity movement, the line between a normal diet and eating disorders in her mind are EXTREMELY thin.
It annoys me, just because the girlfriend doesn't want to change to healthier habits because she can't grasp that changing regular cream for a low-fat option isn't a sign of having an unhealthy relationship with food it's going to cost my friend the opportunity for a better quality of life. My friend is currently trying to get in touch with a dietitian so she can have a paper she can point to whenever the girlfriend starts protesting. But it's frustrating that it's necessary for her to do so.

No. 2592666

>>2592665
You should be more concerned about your friend being in a toxic relationship than her weight

No. 2592669

>>2592666
I'm not concerned by her weight, I'm concerned about the opportunity she'll lose with this.
But their relationship is definitely not toxic, they have a great relationship the issue is just that the girlfriend is inflexible when it comes to the subject of food and weight. Having different views on a topic =/= toxic relationship

No. 2592678

>>2592669
Sorry to break it to you but not supporting the partner's goals is toxic af, especially if the goal is something pertaining to health. Someone can have different views than the other person without issue as long as it doesn't affect the other person's life. Knowing someone already lost weight to reach a goal and then tempting them back into gaining all that weight back when you know they have a problem with controlling their weight is toxic af. A healthy person supports their partner and doesn't destroy their achievements with constant temptations to bring them back to the baseline level they are comfortable with their partner being at.

No. 2592681

>>2592665
She needs to cook for herself and stop being a doormat to her gf tbh. This isn't wanting to lose vanity weight, it's a legitimate and serious goal that she needs to achieve and there's no point in fucking around trying to convince a fatty that a sensible caloric deficit is a tool to reach that goal.

No. 2592704

>>2592665
They cook their own meals. Your friend cooks for herself, the fattie gf cooks for herself. Problem solved

No. 2592712

>>2592681
>>2592704
Losing weight arpund a fatty is a nightmare though because they are always eating

No. 2592714

>>2592411
are you sure you don't have something like black mold in the house?

No. 2592715

>>2592665
I think the solution is to switch roles (cleaning vs cooking) or if the gf doesn't agree with that to just cook for herself. That sounds like a bit of a passive-aggressive solution worded like that but I feel like your friend could explain to her gf that they have different nutritional needs/ideas about diet and that it's okay for them to cook for themselves so both of their needs can be met. Probably requires a bit of tiptoeing around the gf's feelings but she's gotta do something to take charge of her health.

No. 2592719

I'm on a 2 hour bus ride and the fat man in front of me has doused himself in body spray and it fucking reeks. My mouth feels dry and my throat sore just from how sharp and offensive the smell is. I hate smelling men in public.

No. 2592731

>Coffee maker of 10 years finally dies
>Get a new one, exactly the same
>New coffee maker routinely needs to be reset, drained of water, and actually hit to function
>I have to do this weekly
I just want a cup of coffee holy fucking shit

No. 2592745

I saw the documentary “abducted in plain sight” and the sheer anger I feel towards the parents is staggering kek, they make up excuses over excuses about how they didn’t see it coming when in reality they were both having affairs with the same man and didn’t care one bit about their daughter. How can you
>don’t do a background check on this man
>let your daughters have sleepovers at their house
>let a grow man give vitamins to your daughter
>let your daughter go alone on a trip with a man that isn’t related to any of you
>let a man sleep besides your daughter 4 times a week for six months as part of his “therapy”.
The truth is that they just wanted to get their dick and pussy wet, no matter the danger they were putting their daughters.

No. 2592746

>>2592745
Also
>don’t call the police when your daughter doesn’t come back after two days on a trip with this man.
Bunch of retards. Jan didn’t deserve any of this, my heart breaks for her.

No. 2592747

Brain zaps and migraine and insomnia can I please just have death

No. 2592750

I’m having the worst diarrhea and panic attacks from tapering off a medication I was temporarily prescribed for pain. Every muscle in my body hurts and I feel like I have the flu. And the worst part is I’m only 1/4 of the way through my taper

No. 2592751

>>2592745
And also
>keep having relations with said man after he already kidnapped your daughter . The wife even had sex with him.
They should all be jailed.

No. 2592754

>>2592747
Are you coming off SSRIs? I had brain zaps when I went off of them

No. 2592755

I'm an unemployed sperg and I only get shit advice from older people who have had the same job for 20-30 years and don't have any idea about the current job market at all. Let's say I wanted to be a chef. They then think I can start as an receptionist at a hotel with a restaurant and "work my way up" to being a chef there. It just doesn't fucking work that way. They're not gonna go "wow anon you're so good at taking calls, wanna try cooking a lobster today?".
I also do not have receptionist skills or knowledge and I hate talking to people and don't have an interest in the job so I wouldn't be doing a good job and thus not get trusted to do anything else.
It's not that I'm "above" that job and "refuse to try", it's that for me it's a dead end job that I would hate. I am actively looking for a suitable job, but because I don't throw myself at minimum wage jobs I know I'd hate I'm being ungrateful and lazy.

No. 2592757

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>take melatonin to sleep early to try to fix horrible sleep schedule
>have nightmare about being in MIDDLE SCHOOL again

No. 2592781

>>2592399
Ive lived in France and they are not warm or welcoming. Pretty closed off. You really have to love France to continue learning the language.

No. 2592785

My mom on the phone is like have you found a job yet.I'm like no, but I told her and she agreed that my field is useless right now (marketing/ads). Pretty much saturated. But she always gives me suggestions that are crap. Like, be a cashier! She aims so low. I dare to aim a little higher in life because why not? We die anyway so why not just be a bit more daring. But I can't stand her insisting that I become xyz. I always need to have strong boundaries with her even in casual convos, it's so tiring sometimes. This is why I just try to avoid these type of conversations even though it feels nice to talk to someone about it sometimes, who genuinely cares too..

No. 2592786

>>2592755
go see an employment councilor at your local labor office…

No. 2592807

>work wagie customer service job
>fresh off the boat Colombian tranny starts working here too
>decides he’s going to hate me for no fucking reason
I literally have no idea what I did to him but my Mexican coworker tells me about how he accuses me of sleeping with our manager, of being lazy etc
??
You’ve been in this country for 5 minutes and you’re already starting shit, like what??

No. 2592812

>>2592786
I'm not bri'ish kek but I see the local equivalent. They're shit and do nothing, they're just there to make sure you actually look for jobs and aren't just claiming unemployment benefits. They're not actually there to help anyone get a job.

No. 2592813

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>>2592807
You know what to do

No. 2592814

>>2592807
troon hates women, no big surprise there

No. 2592815

my bf decided he wants to take a break from me for a couple months, and he's done this before in the summer and i end up just alone inside on here all summer. while he goes swimming, fishing, and boating. i just want to have one summer where i have fun which i guess we've done the last two years, but i'm still disappointed. i even got my fishing license which cost a bit of money, and i haven't fished once. we haven't talked since friday night and today is sunday morning. i'm ridiculously sad but i just feel pathetic texting him when he obviously doesn't want to talk to me so i'm just leaving him alone. to be fair this was prompted by me self harming at his house so i can understand why he doesn't want me around because i'm crazy. but i've quit smoking pot for him and i'm taking my meds its just that that doesn't fix everything. i'm just hoping he'll message me saying he misses me but i shouldn't expect anything. i also only have 1 irl friend and she has a fiance and a lot of friends and a little sister shes close with so she doesn't have much time for me. i'm also a NEET which doesn't help with making friends or having something to distract me, and i also don't drive. so basically i'm stuck inside at my moms all the time and going to his place was my only escape. i guess i'll just have a sad online summer again.

No. 2592816

>>2592815
I can see why he wants a break from you, you need therapy or something.

No. 2592817

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No. 2592820

>>2592745
Did the daughter/daughters come back alive? Holy shit the parents should be jailed for life, that's beyond neglect. They can share a cell with the scrote they thirsted over and get to live out their lives cramped together in a single cell.

No. 2592822

>>2592807
kek what an incel faggot he's obviously resentful of you being a woman

No. 2592824

>>2592815
i think a boyfriend is a level 4 human activity and you still need to clear level 1

No. 2592825

>>2592813
I’m actually considering it kek that’s what pisses me off the most

No. 2592836

>>2592807
Literally jealous of you as a woman. Ive had a friend with a moid who randomly seethed her and spread rumors to our friends

No. 2592837

>>2592812
Did you ask? Sounds like you only interacted with employment agents. I'm registered at mine and didn't know there was even an option to see a councilor during the first few months until I told the agent that I have no idea what I want to do for work at all. I'm not british either. The lady I met with was very helpful and had multiple sessions over more than one year



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