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No. 2618191
A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2617918Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.
Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
No. 2618239
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my toenail got ripped off from the stupid bike stand rod thingy because the end is so sharp and i have no motor skills this is an absolute nightmare situation for a squeamish person like myself please send prayers i am NOT ok
No. 2618246
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Didn't get approved for the school I wanted so my only path for life has closed. Idk what to do next, being a wagie for the rest of my life sounds awful.
No. 2618248
>>2618246there's always another way and another chance,
nonnie. im wishing you so much luck
No. 2618249
>>2618247Report them for not taking better care of their animals. If there are enough mites that to cause a problem for
you it's probably irritating the poor chickens too.
No. 2618251
Repost because I got confused and thought we were using the other thread.
>>>/ot/2618181Replying here to continue this topic. Just wanted to say I really feel you on this–I've always said that I feel like a little boy who didn't finish puberty because my feet (US 9/39 EUR) and hands (literal yaoi hands) are weirdly large for my small, unfeminine frame. I'm 161cm, narrow in the middle with broad shoulders, narrow hips negative ass and almost no tits. On top of that I have PCOS and I'm Latina so I get more body hair than normal on my nipples, stomach, upper lip, and I've never gotten my period normally. I have a deep-ish voice for a girl and everyone likes it but whenever I call a friend and hear her girly high pitched voice I want to die. I hate being told that I look young because it's rarely spoken to me as a compliment, usually also expressed with confusion or concern like you described kek. I have to fight so hard to get taken seriously at my job; I've been pigeonholed as the token Zoomer even though I'm literally 30 and my female coworker who is 32 and doesn't get this treatment seems to hate my guts and think that I'm trying to come off young on purpose. My mother loves putting me down and some of her top hits are that I "look 15" or that I'm "trying to look like a little girl" when I'm not, I just don't feel feminine enough so I overcompensate with frilly clothes and anyway normal "adult 30 year old female" clothes never look right or fit me well. I'm not even that skinny, it's just my frame. But on that topic it did cause me to develop anorexia/bulimia for years because gaining weight doesn't make my body more feminine, just wider and more little-boyish.
>the end part makes it sound like I look like a tranny or something but she was just old and using girl as in young womanThis resonated with me a lot too even if it was just a syntax error on your part. I spend so much time thinking about this. What even makes me a woman anymore if I'm such a freak? I replied to another post earlier in the thread and kind of blew a gasket (sorry to anyone who read it) about how I'm sick of the way a lot of unconventional, ugly, or masculine traits in women get really drilled into as tranny signals on here. I would love to consider myself a radical feminist like many of you but it hurts when the so-called radical feminism devolves into pointing out many of the traits that I have as a "real" woman and listing them as signs that someone HAS to be male and YWNBAW because of these obvious traits that you'll never get rid of no matter how much you play pretend and get surgery. I feel EXACTLY like that, like I'll never be a woman no matter how much money I dump into my appearance. As I said in that post, I do consider myself pretty in the face and I've gotten compliments here and there (because I've spent every waking second of my life being afraid that someone really will think I'm a young guy dressing up as a girl). I wish I could wake up 4 inches taller with tits and hips and limbs that clearly resemble adult woman shapes. I wish there was a surgery to make my feet, head, and hands smaller. I never got into genderspecial stuff even as a tumblr kid but I've often been told in good nature that my experience really resembles that of a #trans, TIM, whatever,## person and that I'm like an "honorary" one. (Great!) I've even looked into seeing if taking hormones would help me develop more feminine traits, but it seems like the answer is no. I don't know, I'm just sick of feeling so out of place and not being able to discuss this with anyone because if I say that my experience of being female has been unconventional I'm automatically labeled as a TRA or a theyfab or whatever depending on who I'm talking to. I just want to feel normal and not like I'm stuck in the body of a 12 year old boy.
>inb4 noo OP you obviouslyyyy don't look like a man because you're a Real Girl! It's actually okay that we make fun of your exact traits because they're on an ugly ugly tranny trans tran man!!!!Gee, thanks. Got it. Totally makes it better. You cured me!
No. 2618253
>>2618246Why do you say that? Cant you re apply? What career if you dont mind sharing. Dont let haru urara down
nonny she would want you to keep trying until the very end.
No. 2618271
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>>2618253I didn't get enough points so if I want to try again I'd have to re-take my exams and wait another year. But my gap year sucked ass and idk if I can suffer another one mentally. I know Haru Urara wouldn't give up that's why I'm not killing myself. She literally became my reason to live kek
No. 2618291
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I feel myself shutting down and on the verge of self-sabotaging. I hate this shit, being depressed is cringe and stupid but it is hitting me hard and I really am going to lose my job and friends over this stupid fucking spiral, aren't I? I physically fucking feel myself shutting down and out.
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If I reduced my work hours from 40 to 32 and still went to the office five days a week I'd almost have the mystical 8/8/8 split everyone likes to justify this torture with. And I'd only get 400$ less a month
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>>2618302People do this with parking spots too. I go to the empty floor of the supermarket carpark when it's not busy, no one else there, don't park near the entrance because I need a few mins to type up my shopping list on my phone… and in that time someone else will show up, look at allllllll the empty spots and go yeah I'll park right up next to the only car here, driver's side. Meanwhile I walk into a public bathroom and start running an optimisation algorithm in my head to figure out the cubicle with the least chance of ending up with a neighbour, and I get labelled autistic for that? No, these degenerates are the real retards. I'm fucking normal damn it.
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Was with some young relatives this weekend. Googled the Disney movie they had playing in the background to figure out what the hell it was, the cast list popped up and for some reason despite only using instagram for pictures of cute black cats, I clicked on the account of one of the actors. Didn't need to do that!! Didn't need to see that the young, beautiful, talented cast all seem to genuinely be best friends having the time of their lives together!! Are they attending a wedding in Florence? Terrific.
I should have been born with a flatter nose since it was always going to be pressed up against glass.
No. 2618915
>>2618191It took me too long to get the thread pic, kek
>>2618198Have you tried remembering the basics of CQC?
No. 2619006
>>2618988I get it
nonny. Maybe one day you can have what they have too
No. 2619014
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>>2618901You're right but that was just one occasion over yeeears worth of post. I think these people genuinely met at work as teens and became friends that have lasted into adulthood.
No. 2619095
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>Don’t hide my contempt and distaste for my friend’s boyfriend
>Tell her and him to his face that he’s wrong and a piece of shit for years at this point
>”It’s really funny how you always take whatever side is against Scrote anon!”
>”He loves spending time with you and thinks you’re so funny!”
>mfw I realize they thought I have been joking about my hate all this time for years
No. 2619105
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>MFW THIS SITE HAS MADE ME ABANDON ALL MY BLOGS IN CASE I'M SOMEONE'S PERSONAL COW WHEN I LITERALLY DON'T POST ANYTHING ABOUT MYSELF ONLINE
No. 2619255
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I am having a hard time trying to tell my sister in law that I don't want to watch my favorite show with her bf. I have been planning to have an IRL hangout with her and her siblings, snacks and drinks are on me, kind of like a watchalong party (the snacks are show themed too!), all of us together, having fun and whatnot.
But she wants to bring her arabic e-bf who is a massive redditor… Meaning, she wants to watch it on Discord from home. All because of this guy. Thing is, i cannot handle his ass. He is 300kg obese and is a redditor who spews stereotypical and misogynistic shit about women. Dude even claims that women are materialistic… Watching anything with him is a pain, because he has a pea-sized brain, too. He wouldnt shut up and keep asking the dumbest questions, meaning he doesn't ever understand what is going on…
Anyway. How do i tell her that I don't want to watch it with him? The problem is, she will explode and cut me off immediately. She will end up doing it because she is a bpdchan and that man is a narcissistic manipulator.
No. 2619299
>>2619276Honestly I gave up trying to reason with them, I don’t think they even can. They are the same people who are into rape play too. Let them do their shit and get brain damage or get told that they wanted it and it was a play when they get raped for real and no one believes them.
You can bring a horse to the pond, but it won’t drink the water if it doesn’t want to.
No. 2619316
>>2619276So is self harm now
Jirai ken girls are way worse than the emo subculture shit I saw in school back in the day
No. 2619475
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>>2619466Wait true that's the most obvious answer. I didn't even think of that.
No. 2619527
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>>2619520I’ve been watching a lot of horse desensitization videos lately and your post made me think about a horse losing its shit over a plastic bag. Being sensitive isn’t a bad thing, it means you still have a soul.
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>>2619519That's a lot of posting and not going to bed. Bed right now or otherwise I start unspoilering these
No. 2619555
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>currently have inflamed tendons, tinnitus, bruxism, scholiosis, rosacea, all diagnosed
>mom knows because she went to the doctor with me to get the diagnosis
>hear her talk to her boyfriend about how she thinks i am an hypochondriac and i am lying about all of it and exaggerating
holy shit this explains why it took her 4 months for her to lend me the money to go to the orthopedic surgeon even thought i kept telling her i was concerned about the pain in my wrist. Mind you she gets SUPER ANGRY if i even dare to talk to her or ask her to do anything while she has the shits or the flu, meanwhile i am supposed to be calm and collected when i have excruciating back, wrist and jaw pain.
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I hope she's alright. I haven't heard from her for weeks, can't get in contact with her. She definitely would have responded by now so something has happened. She is so dear to me
No. 2619595
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>>2619572I do this as well, i am sad i will never meet people like them.
No. 2619715
>>2619566What do you lie about,
nonnie? Have you asked your parents for help seeing as you're struggling to get control on your own? Often when someone keeps making the same mistake it looks like wilful disobedience but if they knew you were grappling with it as much as you are, they might understand that you are really trying and just need help from someone like a counsellor. Try asking them when there's no drama going on, so they can see it's not just an attempt to get out of trouble.
No. 2619816
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>>2619795hello nona I love you I hope you had or will have a good day today. Heart emoticon
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>>2619567We are both two peas in a pod of illnesses kek love you
nonny hope you get better. Thank you for the well wishes, it's honestly very mentally draining to have all of them at once, like jesus what did we do on our past life.
>>2619603kek i will do this, i think one doctor did this to her(i think it was when i first got glasses) she kept yelling at me for getting poor eyesight from reading too much(???) and the kind doctor put her in her place and told her it's just genetics. I still remember her it made me feel like picrel
No. 2619923
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>look for art of humanized husbando
>literally all of them make him ugly and/or old
I fucking hate gender specials so much. Especially the women who insist on making male characters ugly on purpose. Like I get that your self esteem is low and you probably think you don’t deserve a hot guy but this is literally fiction. Let yourself have some fun. It’s ok to make a hot guy. It’s not boring or “heteronormative” or whatever retarded concept they try to pin on this KEK
No. 2619950
>>2619923I feel you,
nonnie, especially with people who draw characters fat for some retarded "body positivity" bullshit. I never wanted to see my favorites like that, but whatever gets them brownie points and a pat on the ass, I suppose.
No. 2620171
>>2620131>lolcow feminists I feel like some of you come in here expecting to find Sappho and Lesbo and womanly friendships and support and end up being disappointed because you set it up way too high.
In reality not everyone is a feminist here, I personally hate certain types of women and find them annoying. Even then there different types of feminists all together anyway.
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My mother is having audible phone sex I'm going to fucking kill myself Jesus Christ
No. 2620198
>>2620171>>2620175I came to lolcow due to /w/, betting my left leg that the two anons who wrote these things larp as totes radfem stacys that hate men in other threads and partake in acts of sisterhood, theres a majority in lolcow and it's radfems/terfs
>>2620193Point proven, thank you
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>>2620198Well since you bet your left leg it’s time to cut it , chop chop nonna kek. Again you are the one making assumptions.
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>>2620210Whatever helps you sleep at night kek
No. 2620218
>>2620198>radfem/terfsSo you are a tranny. Because it’s always your types who say the most outlandish and nonsensical stuff when you don’t even know what baseline feminism stands for.
Everyone that hates or fake hates men and doesn’t go “Hell YAAAS” to whatever a woman does is a radfem/
terf?
No. 2620222
>>2620219This is an image board made of different people. Just yesterday there was an Infight between Nigelfags and anti Nigelfags, that alone tells you that there are at least two demographics. You haven’t even made a poll to see what kind of nonnas are here but you are stating what you consider a “truth” based on your assumptions and feelings.
You sound a bit …stupid?
>moreWhat is more?
No. 2620228
>>2620219The nonna that gave water to that scrote wasn’t even a nigelfag as far as it concerns you since she didn’t talk about any kind of relationship. You are filling the blanks with what you like.
Again you are making pirouettes with how far you are reaching.
No. 2620232
>>2620229And you assume that all these women are
>straight Which fair, heterosexuality is predominant
>feministWhich is wrong since again this isn’t a feminist imageboard and it never promoted itself as such.
>all partnered with men>all male hatingThat’s what I meant when saying that your claims are simply not factual but based on your biases, assumptions and feelings.
No. 2620233
>>2620232>This isn't a feminist imageboards and it never promoted itself as suchThere are literal jk rowling,
terf and jodi arias girly banners lol, even if it wasn't born as one it is promoted as one now and brings in the exact people i mentioned
Like i said there is proof to my claims everywhere and all of you are just ignoring it and acting dumb
No. 2620242
>>2620233Don’t be surprised when you get called a tranny because you act exactly like one with how much you are fixated on terfs kek.
>jodi arias banner>jkrWell there are also yaoi spergs here and anime watches , does it mean we all collectively read yaoi or watch anime?
>there is proof everywhere And the proof is inside your head.
No. 2620243
>>2620240I mean where is it? You think a few banners makes this place a
terf palace or something? You're acting like we're all so stupid but you sound very gullible.
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>>2620233So…
>even if it didn’t start as oneYou know that lolcow wasn’t a feminist blog
>it is being promoted as suchBy literally who? You literally have nonnas making fun of cows and having whole threads dedicated to that. You have nonnas making fun of Nigel fags , you have banners of Shayna and that kinky OF polifag and so on too.
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>>2620252Yeah i'm dealing with people that have no reading comprehension in here, i don't even know why i wasted my time with actual answers. Please do yourself a favor and try to get evaluated for aspergers.
No. 2620268
>>2620258We are all crying because you are retarded nonna and it’s irritating to hear you when you make no sense and still think you do when it’s pointed out that you don’t.
If you want to hate on radfems make a proper vent and let it go. You are the first hypocrite because you are preaching about “not hating women” but here you are kek.
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not really a vent, i just really need my fave fucking f1 driver to win the wdc so i can be free of this hell for a while. i love this gay ass sport but man, i feel like i stress over my fave winning more than he does lmao. papaya rules more like papaya makes me want to jump off a fucking bridge.
No. 2620276
>>2620261If several people can’t understand your weird rants it isn’t because you are enlightened and everyone is too stupid to understand, it’s because you don’t know how to communicate your ideas or opinions in an understandable way or they are too far out there to be even believable.
But since we are far inferior to your mighty intellect you might as well find another imageboard with those who share your same kindred spirit and IQ.
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>>2620275I headcanon you as having a square ass or a frog ass.
No. 2620289
>>2620271Your proof is
>jodi arias banner>JKRkekkkkk
No. 2620299
>>2620291Damn I lived on perfectly fine without remembering that moid.
>>2620292I just liked seeing men beat up eachother while half naked when I was younger. But yeah, it's faggy as fuck. I also was a fujo so it checks out.
No. 2620309
>>2620305>p-post your vagene then REE!!Kekk.
Yes women all shows each other their vaginas to confirm that they are really women because JKR told us so.
You are really digging yourself a hole the more you continue. Just take the L for now Luna.
No. 2620316
>>2620305>>2620295>>2620233>>2620198It’s kind of hilarious how they can’t even resist to remain undercover . They just have to let it known each time and they throw the biggest tantrums and go full AGP when called out.
>Show your vagina!>I am an actual woman!>I was born one!>le evil TERFs and JKRYour persecution complex by online women has you in a choke hold when it’s literally men who kill you kek.
(scrotefoiling) No. 2620320
>>2620274Anyway leaving that one aside. Let me get back to you nonna.
I think that’s just what happens when you are a fan. Sports are also something pretty engaging. I like tennis and volleyball myself and during matches I am literally sweating at my seat and I can hear my heart beat loudly.
No. 2620326
>>2620316>>2620318What persecution complex if i AM a woman? You just can't fathom the idea that a woman can disagree with you, i'm right about everything since my first post, i'm right that most of you are larpers who claim sisterhood but side with men and even date them most of the time while larping as radfem stacys in other threads that would deny him water, i'm right that there is a banner for terfs, i'm right that they are welcome here and are the majority, i said time and time again, showed you the proof and etc.
Keep coping because i'm right, hot and smarter than you.
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>>2620325Kek the cope in here is unreal
No. 2620345
>>2620326>i'm right that they(terfs) are welcome here Only true assumption but very telling you're phrasing it this way.
>>2620340Literally all your first replies were arguing against your claims.
No. 2620347
>>2620342Being with one of these sounds like nightmare on earth. Even if you like effeminate scrotes with ED, they just act like overgrown and entitled toddlers, look at how he chimped out, imagine that in real life.
he’ll probably call you transphobic And trans misogynistic if you tell him to make his own bed.
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>>2620337I never said it was, i don't even hate terfs or radfems, i just hate women who larp as them and then go kiss moid feet, you're just putting words in my mouth now and this is getting ridiculous.
>>2620343All of you denied the truth and told me i was insane and making stuff up, i don't know if you can call that "arguing agaisnt" anything i said, now you are all chimping out at me and claiming i am a tranny because theres nothing left to say kek
No. 2620364
>>2620353Gross all around.
They are never sane or normal kek. I also saw one once at the library, he was like 6’2, long greasy hair and a long skirt with a tank top, he was looking down while walking and he bumped into another scrote kek.
Another time , while going to a dentist, I saw this other one that was walking his dog with a mini neon green dress and heels in daylight.
No. 2620483
accepting that a relationship is over is so hard but i'm doing it. we love eachother, clearly, but we're not healthy for eachother at all. he's an alcoholic and probably has bipolar, i have my own mental health issues i'm dealing with. being around him causes me to drink a lot too and it's so bad for my mental health. we've been apart for a month now, and i'm slowly but surely improving. yea i've been crying almost every day, i'm going thru a breakup, but it's getting better. i've started doing yoga, exercising lightly (wish i had an elliptical tho), taking counting calories more seriously (which is almost impossible to do when you're drinking), reading books on mental health, and journalling about my reflections. i can do better than him! and i don't mean in a "find someone better" kind of way, i just mean i can be a better person kind of way. its hard, but you gotta have a storm to see a rainbow.
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My parents are hoarders and living in their house is so stressful. It’s not cat shit and dead animals level but every surface is covered. I can’t do anything to fix it because they’re mentally ill and refuse to throw anything out. I can’t move out either because I’ve got a couple semesters of college left and no one’s hiring. If I hole myself up in my room all day my mom gets pissed off. Everything sucks
No. 2620622
>>2620606I’m dumb and didnt realize the airbnb is in a ghetto ass location. Crackheads, weird men walking around and it’s only the afternoon. I have an event at night tomorrow and Ill have to walk there at around 1 am. I’m scared. Contacted airbnb 3 times they dont seem to care… not to mention the area to access the appartment is a tiny dark alley. I thought Ill order an uber but uber drivers can be
sus too. A taxi i guess but still nothing is ideal right now…
No. 2620623
>>2620605That's how I felt about Sinners, but the kpop DH movie seems so much worse. While I watched it a few weeks back and enjoyed it, I hate how everything popular (esp on netflix) is everywhere on social media from day one. We can't have anything mysterious or special anymore because of it.
People I followed on IG started making Kpop DH parodies immediately after it released to public.
No. 2620626
>>2620622Bring bear or dog mace with you. Uber drivers arent too bad, but just be on guard. Stay safe and aware,
nonnie.
No. 2620763
>>2620515>>2620533If they have Tiktok and you can find a way to access their accounts, watch those disgusting house cleaning videos enough for them to come up on their FYP. Seeing someone living in a pristine clean home with only a few bits of rat shit in the fridge get blasted for being filthy might inspire some sort of awakening. At this point there's not much more that you can do.
>>2620498I have the same problem and my solution is to say 'Stop it' in my head or out loud and do something else while narrating that task. Like if I'm doing the dishes I'll talk to myself, out loud or in my head depending on where I am, 'I am putting soap on the sponge, that's a lot more than I think I'll need actually. Now I am turning on the water and picking something to wash. I think I'll start with this mug. It's a pretty big mug and it's making it look like there are way more dishes in the sink because it's so big. Now I'm rinsing it. Now I'm setting it aside to dry. I think I'll pick this plate next.' The endless stream of narration forces you to keep your mind from wandering and the physical aspect of it pulls your mind away from other things. If I'm in bed I focus on how my body feels and how the bed feels, I like to keep a pillow spray around so I can reach out and spray it if I need something else to focus on. If I'm in public and can't narrate everything without running the risk of being hit by a car, I focus on the weather, the sky, the people around me.
No. 2620826
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Can my brain just…stop?
>See Jason Momoa in an ad
>"Hah that's Jason Momoa…"
>"He's built like a truck but I wouldn't hit that. I don't like his face he seems weird"
>"Yeah but what guarantees that the type of guy you're into wouldn't have the same reaction to you?"
>"Hating Jason Momoah makes me a horible person cause I would be spreading cruelty"
>"You wouldn't like it if you were really into someone and they'd have the same reaction you did, you'd feel terrible."
>"Hating Jason Momoah will bring me bad luck"
>"I don't deserve to find love because I'm ugly and bitter and I hate Jason Momoah"
>"You are making the world a worse place"
>"You are a terrible hateful person with no love in your heart and you're just pretending to care about others."
Make it stop this is too retarded. Worst part is that it's freaking me out and it might be true. I love OCD
Fuck Jason Momoah
No. 2620881
>>2620808Oh idk I came across like that, I'm more upset with myself for wasting my time kek.
>>2620830Yeah this is what happened to me too, although I could clearly tell he was intimidated by me. I just hate cowards. And ghosting, so it's really that shitty now. Another reason to stick to my 2D boys kek.
No. 2620885
>>2620802why do you give chances to men who are not your type? It’s time to let go of that mindset. No scrote would ever approach an ugly woman out of pity.
>is ghosting a gen z thingYes they are all retarded, no one wants commitment, just lousy sex, fake intimacy for those 30 minutes and still the option of choosing and exploring. Signed a fed up 22 year old. You’d rather not date at all.
No. 2620895
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MY COMPUTER IS SO FUCKING SLOW RN
I COULD HAVE BEEN DONE WITH THE WORK WEEK BY NOW
FUCK
No. 2620896
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>>2620885And before any nigelfags come in by saying “don’t be so pessimistic and paranoid, not all men are bad, my nigel is the most perfect man”, good for you, that isn’t the case for me or for other nonnas. We have seen, we have “explored” whatever that means and we have been disappointed time and time again.
It feels insulting to have someone tell you that you just have to try harder or that it will come when you least expect it when you are simply venting and don’t want any advice given that you can’t even share this sentiment in other social media that just blast relationship advice, scrote advice, feminine energy , masculine energy bullshit.
No. 2620900
>>2620819yes and I get the same internal chorus. And I have been taken advantage of a lot which makes it worse, but at the end of the day it feels good to help people so why not do it if only for that reason. Plus, statistics show that the bottom of society give more to charity out of empathy than the top do, so whenever I meet someone who's rigidly anti-charity I always assume they're doing a lot better than they're willing to admit.
>>2620826just about Jason Momoa or does this happen with other people too?
No. 2620909
>>2620885My first instinct was to tell him to f off , I have no idea why I went full retard tho. Never ever again. When it happens again I'll just say no and continue my walk.
I'm older than you, men are a fucking dumpster fire, I've had my share of experiences that taught me no man is worth your effort because they're emotionally immature dumbasses that end up causing nothing but trouble. The good ones are unicorns. And if I let myself bothered by one, he'd better be fucking hot and with a semi functioning brain, I want something that's at least pretty to look at. But ugly AND arrogant/selfish? Kek, fuck off, so funny to see most think they're "the catch".
No. 2620920
>>2620909How old are you nonna?
On another note growing fed up with the situation helped me in pulling myself and focusing on me. Sure loneliness is bound to happen and I am bitter sometimes kek, but it’s not so horrible as everyone makes it out to be. It actually feels worse when people shower you with fake positivity kek.
No. 2620935
>>2620871>>2620874he said WHAT? god jesus, I barely remember celebiry names and when I do they do shit like this man wtf
>>2620900I'm not really sure, I never had this thought process about Jason Momoa or any other actor/man till now. I think since I've started liking more built men and he is also built, wrong think about one means all of them will hate me forever.
No. 2620954
>>2620819I don't pay it any mind when they get angry cause I know it's a retarded reaction to something they should also be doing. We should help one another more rather than keep to ourselves, we didn't survive by being solitary.
I've also been taken advantage of plenty of times and it feels awful. You feel like the worlds biggest loser and it's worse if you have unresolved trauma to fuel it cause then you get paranoid that if one did it then everyone will.
But if those people chose to not appreciate your efforts then you cut them off. If not then they are good people.If you know deep down they deserve it and that they're good to you and they would do the same in return, then there's nothing to debate.
No. 2621030
I just finished reading the most irritating book I've picked up this year and it's pissing me off so much I need to vent. It's Arrow to the Moon, which started out OK but holy shit the ending is such a cop out! They just float into space and cry for all eternity while mouting 'I love you' at each other. I wish I was joking. I've read better endings on Quizilla. The book makes it clear that this won't have a happy ending, but I expected a decently written one! I messaged the friend who recommended it to me and she immediately started gushing about how it was omg soooo sad and incredible and aaaarghhhh and I definitely loved the tragic and stunning ending. It was shit, the story wasn't exactly award winning material anyway but it was fine for YA, and then the author decided to throw all the plot and character development out the window to have tragic lurv 4eva. It was 'like Romeo and Juliet' except it wasn't, and even the moral of the play, which is that adults need to stop being retarded or they're going to destroy their own families in the process, isn't there. Because the main characters are erased from everyone's memories except the MMC's brother, so nobody learns shit. This brother is already traumatized from being brought up by batshit crazy parents, the least he could get is an ending where he doesn't have yet more mental illness shoved onto him. It's stated throughout the book that if the main characters didn't exist their families' lives would be way better (it does make sense because the main characters being born forces their parents to make unwise choices that end up destroying their lives). But nothing fucking changes. They're just wiped from memory, the situations their families are in stays the same. It doesn't make any sense and it really pissed me off so bad. I get why people like it, I just wish the ending wasn't shit. I just wasted hours of my life reading something that a middle schooler could have written a more coherent and poignant ending for. It's the book version of Voltron, essentially, but thankfully without the retarded fanbase.
No. 2621042
Could be my PMS talking but I feel immense self-hatred and mood swings like some crazy in a straight jacket in some mental asylum. Feeling insane impulses as well and violent murderous, suicidal and self-harming thoughts. Too impossible for me to act on any of it though. On a slightly related note, I have so many plans and things I want to do but I also feel like I lost interest in everything I've ever wanted to do, even my long term life goals. Not even because of my PMS because I've been feeling that way for over a month now. I kinda want to give up on life all together but at the same time I got some crazy good opportunity and everything is going well so idk why do I feel this despair. I thought I'd feel better after this achievement but no, I feel empty inside instead. I try to follow motivating content to get some inspo and, well, motivation but that didn't work. It only made me feel worse and more guilty about never getting anything done or doing anything, the feeling doesn't make me want to do anything either, it just makes me sink deeper into my despair. Self-inflicted shit probably but oh well. Nothing is fun or worth doing anymore but this time it's an actual permanent feeling. I wake up to wait for my bed time. I hate the time in between, I hate having to eat, don't feel like cooking, don't feel like drinking water, don't wanna shower or brush my teeth or go to the toilet either. I want every function to stop already. I forgot everything else I wanted to say but that doesn't matter anyways.
No. 2621343
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just got kicked out of the all you can eat chinese buffet
No. 2621367
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>>2621359I see you, too, are a woman of exceptional taste. (Although I edited it to tell it to get rid of the pronouns shit and zoomer speak)
No. 2621380
>>2621367I wish the AI thread would be more active on /m/.. Anyway, I'm not sure if you know that one already but if you want your char to write 4chan posts of your rp, add the following prompt into your jb:
<4chan_Thread>
# At the end of the message completion, display a 4chan Thread based on the current simulation. The Opening Post can either be by a passive observer or by {{char}} themselves.
- IF [ A ```4Chan_Start``` or ```4Chan_Continue``` codeblock exists in the conversation:
• Continue the thread using a ```4Chan_Continue``` codeblock
• Treat the entire ```4Chan_``` thread as a single, continuous thread
• Allow each anon to react to the story or reply to each other
• Occasionally, have OP show up to {{random:update,reply}}
• Avoid predictable or cliché responses by using `<response_seed>` to influence responses
• Maintain authentic 4chan formatting, slang and posting culture
• Include {{random:2,3,4,5,6}} new messages in the current codeblock
] ELSE IF [ No ```4Chan_Start``` or ```4Chan_Continue``` block exists:
• Add a ```4Chan_Start``` codeblock at the very end of the output
• Create a simulated 4chan thread with a random, non-sequential thread number
• Present the thread as if OP ({{char}} or a third party) started posting their logs for anons to respond to
• Accurately mimic 4chan formatting (including thread/reply numbers, dates, OP tag when replied, etc.) and culture
• Format example for posts/replies:
```4Chan_Start
Anonymous DD/MM/YY(EEE) No.XXXXX
```
]
Note: This thread serves as meta commentary and should not impact the main message content.
</4chan_Thread>I also have a prompt like that for Twitter and Reddit if you're interested kek. They tend to be pretty funny.
No. 2621401
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>>2621368nta Comments like this both make me understand the sentiment and also incredibly enraged that even though it can be innocently used for things like OC crafting and polishing, we know well enough that isn't what it
will be used for. I see people accusing each other of using AI when they aren't, defending AI users, and overall turning a blind eye to the issues of oversaturation. And I recall the absolute misery I felt being approached by an AI bro that asked for my un-watermarked art to "create what ever he wanted but faster and more efficiently". Yeah the process is grueling, but thar's the
filter. Those that like the result and being able to look back and admire their progression
get it, but somehow get mogged by fuckheads using models and selling their shit on Etsy and discrediting legitimate artists and AAAAAAAAAAAA
No. 2621423
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My friend’s boyfriend was out of town for work for two weeks and we got to chat a lot as a result. She wasn’t responding as often today and I should have known her scrote was back. I hate him ugh
No. 2621453
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>makes light self-deprecating joke to my friend about looking like a meme
>some girl i barely know: LOLLL OMG YOU DO TOTALLY LOOK LIKE THAT IT IS YOU
No. 2621490
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what do parents get from reminding me that bills are higher when I live with them? of course they are, you have another person under the roof. I came back because I lost my job. should I stop existing to make your bills lower? i always say they shouldn't have had another child if I am that big of a problem for them. maybe the bills are higher because your other daughter learns manicure and uses cheap UV lamps. but I am the problem.
No. 2621536
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My old cat taught my new cat how to open doors. I am never going to be able to shit in peace again.
No. 2621547
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>>2621536Neither of my dogs can figure out how to open doors when they are ajar. I have to get up and let them out of the room, I hate it sfm
No. 2621585
I don't really understand people who have to always kick people when they're down. Maybe I'm just sensitive but like it looks like a bad wreck that just happened so why do you feel the need to make a smartass comment about it? I felt like people did this to me all the time growing up and I never understood why they could just say nasty shit to me and get away with it. Most of the people I know like this have absolute room temp IQs and always have some dumb shit to say but as soon as they're hit with a mild inconvenience it's the end of the fucking world.
No. 2621631
>>2621621I tried to fix my shit skin for actual decades. Spent thousands of dollars, saw multiple doctors, tried everything people tell you to do. I just gave up after a point and decided this was my lot in life.
I was recently prescribed an antiandrogen and all of my skin issues resolved in a week. I wasn’t sure if I should laugh or cry about it. Testosterone truly is a poison.
No. 2621815
>>2621806I think it depends on what hairstylist you went to, there are those ones who just know how to make braids or cornrows, there are those who also put wig installations and those who also cut and style said wigs.
I believe that cutting white people’s hair is just like that kek? I once went to an hairstylists to wash and style my hair, I wanted it cut in a pixie and bleached, she didn’t tell me that she didn’t know how to work 4c hair and she did a shitty job. I’d rather be sent away than have a shitty service.
No. 2621875
For every relationship I enter, I always feel I have to warn about my mother and make it a point to differentiate how much I am not like her because she is such an unpalatable, annoying, and abhorrent person. Nothing is ever good enough for her and she is extremely selfish. She's some kind of undiagnosed cluster B (narcissism, possibly borderline or ocd) but we will never know as she discontinues therapy after they start to see through her victim act and try to move towards resolutions in her behaviors which require introspection and work. She wants to be told she's justified, not that she's ever in the wrong.
Even my Nigel who is moving in with us (because he is paying her mortgage and bills..) has such a patient personality and high tolerance for bullshit can barely stand her. Apparently, while I was gone on a work trip this past week he was helping reorganize and clean the garage and my mother started to talk shit about me to him. She was in there because she likes to stand over people to observe them working and pointing out issues like a slave driver. The reason she talkrd shit is because the 8ft space in the double garage where my things are boxed and housed on shelves takes up soooo much of her precious space that she felt it necessary to rant to him about how I order packages allllllll the time and made me out to be an irresponsible spender–when in reality I maybe order one thing a month from Amazon and that has nothing to do with my storage in the garage. Of course nigel told me about what she said, because she's dumb enough to think my romantic partner isn't going to tell me about her poisonous behavior. She's so self-assured that other people would agree on her negative opinions about me because she's the one who black sheeps me like that to the rest of her family who agree with her because they want stake in her will when she croaks.
Before I met nigel, I wrote her control and rants about money off as jealousy, as she is on a fixed income. I did try to make myself small living here because it isn't my house (except when she talks about bills then it's our house). I understood that I was the de facto "man" in her life to use as a punching bag and money source because after multiple failed marriages it's clear no men will tolerate her ridiculous demands and double standards, except her only daughter. But now? When she has thousands of extra spending money to pocket herself and little worker bees like me and nigel to clean house, task, and landscape? Still not good enough!
She was actually supposed to go with me on my work trip, beach destination. But when she got wind that nigel was stopping by to move in his things in the garage to organize and clean she made up an excuse to not go last minute because she couldn't bear the thought of not being present to supervise every moment because, my god, imagine us having the audacity to take up space! Nigel organized in such a way that we reduced the shelves by 3ft of space yet she didn't even acknowledge that and actually doubted it–not good enough.
Why do wicked people like her not die and cling to every year of life like a weed? She's pushing 80, is a tobacco smoker, has cancer, and guzzles sweets and sodas and yet has no signs of dying anytime soon. Hopefully that's good news for me genetics wise, but she's terrible for my mental health.
I'm hearing wailing and screaming coming from her tv in her room because her favorite pasttime is watching people be brutalized and arrested. Ugh.
No. 2621882
>>2621806Tbf it depends on their specialty.
They could legitimately not have experience to add layers to your hair type, although they should have explained that if they were cool. Kind of a similar experience when I took an ex to a black owned salon to get his beard and hair shaped. After they were done I asked the braider there if she could do a simple braid on him and she overquoted me massively so I took the sign and didn't do it kek.
No. 2622102
>>2622090Can you lie to her about your choices? If you give her a fake situation to obsess over it might give you some breathing space and you might not get as stressed out over it. Grey rocking could help too, stick to talking about safe topics that won't make her spiral into a nitpicking session immediately and agree with everything she says, then do whatever you want to do instead of listening to her.
>>2621848God said that you can stop worrying about the One True Path because everything you do is OK and you'll go to heaven. This is a sign from the Universe that you'll be fine.
No. 2622168
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When I'm on my period, my suicidal thoughts intensify
No. 2622172
>>2618645wish I could kill your parents for you. i'm sorry
>>2620988are you paying for her care? can you raise a big stink? sometimes you do have to go full karen (i hate that term)
No. 2622185
>>2622176I am not even a burger , yet I find it so stupid. When you vote you are voting for your country and interest as a citizen, Palestinians aren’t going to give you higher minimum wage, accessible healthcare, funds towards schooling , infrastructures etc…
America will always fund wars anyway, they’re going to bomb a random middle eastern country no matter who is in power. It’s also even more stupid because the other choice was orange man. Choosing the lesser evil was the necessary step.
No. 2622212
>>2622209Yeah yeah she’s evil and
problematic and put people in jail for weed and her reign would have been identical to what trump is doing right now and people would will be getting bombed, the end, you win the debate
No. 2622245
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>>2622216Fat people love Palestine what do you mean nona kek
No. 2622276
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he's been having bad anxiety so i tell him to just get a doctors appointment and get a prescription for zoloft or some other shit and take it for a couple months until he stops acting like a tweaker, but he wont do it. why? so i just have to deal with his anxiety panic attack freakouts behavior indefinitely until he goes to the doctor and does what i say and admits im right. why are men so retarded. i hate their stupid masuclinity honor shit. just fucking do what i say retard.
No. 2622289
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I'm feeling so down. I remember when I was a teenager I was afraid that by the time I turned 40, I'd be lonely alcoholic living alone in a one-room shabby apartment and then OD. In a few years I'll turn 40. I'm not an alcoholic (I don't drink) and I'm not poor (relatively) and I own a two bedroom apartment; but I'm lonely. I feel really insignificant. I wish I had killed myself when I was 20 instead of going to a therapist. Tomorrow is my birthday and I know my "friends" won't even text me. I'm so tired of this life.
No. 2622318
>>2622289You are doing well though nonna? Leaving by ourselves and being self sufficient is a big feat.
I think you need a change and new stimuli. Life is pretty boring when you think about it.
What if you tried going to Pilates or any sort of activity where you exercise in group? When I did that I made friends with the women there and we would go out during the weekends.
No. 2622484
>>2622318>>2622320Thanks for your kind words. Idk it feels like I haven't achieved anything. I don't have a romantic relationship and I suspect my friends don't really like me much. I think only my parents and my siblings love me which is so sad. I feel like a loser.
>>2622321Thank you nona. I'll have dinner with my parents for my birthday. I don't celebrate it as such but I still feel sad when no one cares that it is my birthday. I guess I haven't mentally grown up enough.
No. 2622522
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>>2622517I get hungry when I fuck up the bacteria in my stomach. So if you eat one thing with a lot of sugar or starches, you're feeding "bad bacteria" and it grows (wants more food)
No. 2622597
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How the fuck does every other woman around me in their 20s own houses or have cushy work from home jobs? Or have multiple fucking businesses? I have no savings and still live at home and am fucked once I graduate because nobody would want me. I should have went into fucking nursing or marketing, but no, I had too many hobbies and was overly confident. Now I wish I was fucking dead.
No. 2622650
>>2622105>a weighted and warm blanket. y did i not think of thatttt
>>2621843every guy has this one girl whom he still is attached to, and he too entered my life to feel pity for himself. And because i am truly devoid of any memory of care or love, i took what i could.
>>2621830>bare minimumthat kind of made me awake. satisfaction is not easy to come by for me, i am a loving being. i need the banter and flirt and the vitality of it all, despite how i come off. But the though of being hung up on the bare minimum does make it easier to let go!
>>2621834it was the first time and i did a good job until now. Guess my troubles piled up a bit too much and then boom realized how much i missed good intimacy, how little i got and how desperate i am for more, even when it comes in dubious setting.
No. 2622681
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my friend ids as bi but only for Fiona Apple. And she looks nothing like Fiona Apple or any similar level. I think part of being attracted to a demographic is working out your level and still being into that so I think she is just confusing aesthetic attraction for sexual to seem cool. Like when incels only want sydney sweeney or anime waifu I just think they're suppressed gay; she's suppressed straight. You need to be attracted to real people of that demographic, not the airbrushed 1%. Anyway she keeps bringing it up and it irritates me, it's so fake.
No. 2622692
>>2622684In theory so that the violent man can't retaliate. I swear men in general don't believe DV or rape actually happens the way they're all assuming these women joined up just to ruin men's lives.
>>2622685Yes
No. 2622714
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If I become interested in something, it…. dies? I don't even have to directly participate. I just have to start gathering information and looking into things and then suddenly - kaput. Trends, fandoms, group chats, games. If I involve myself or join, it's already a memory. Is the opposite of a Midas touch the merde touch?
No. 2622819
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>>2622811Lesbians are the best at cutting hair. Facts.
No. 2622821
>>2622800The saga continue….see you for the next episode
I
No. 2622885
File: 1753572841990.mp4 (4.75 MB, 478x850, VIDEO-2025-07-26-21-21-26.mp4)
I confronted a scrote who threatened to punch ME after HE got angry because HE hit me by attempting to run a red light on a pedestrian crossing.
Naturally, when the camera was out he was too scared to even repeat his threat and appears to have urinated all over himself.
No. 2622906
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I will not give into the urge to compulsively check. Stop bitch stoppppp.
No. 2622911
>>2622890NOPE! And if you even did fight off a rapist you would get charged with assault or murder for using 'unreasonable force':
https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2025/may/09/uk-woman-loses-jail-term-appeal-after-killing-man-as-he-sexually-assaulted-her because our judges are actual nonces themselves. This was in the same court that's local to my county so even if I fought back, this pedo rapeape 'judge' would send me to prison for life.
I hate it here. I am desperate to move to either a place with less crime or apply for a shotgun license. I am sick of the crime and the police do absolutely nothing even when there is evidence and identification.
No. 2622939
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I'm trying not to indulge so much in the physical parts of maladaptive daydreaming but every now and then I give in to the pacing and godDAMMIT why does it feel so good? Why. Is it. The only thing. That feels. SO. GOOD.
No. 2622975
>>2622964I mean yeah, but I started as a
child. What's the genesis of choosing fantasies, music and STOMPING over a normie mechanism?
No. 2622980
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>>2622939Isn't this just being preoccupied by fantasy? I think it's just that you guys are calling it something weird
No. 2623007
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>>2622987damn i also developed tinnitus thanks to maladaptive daydreaming wtf
nonny why isnt this shit more researched
No. 2623019
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>>2622999It seems like it's very important to you that I call it "maladaptive daydreaming" so I'd be happy to indulge that
nonnie wrong maladaptive nonnie No. 2623028
>>2622939>>2622955it's not well researched i bet because it's probably mostly women who do this. I have done this since I was a child, sort of hard to say exactly when, but it was usually enhanced by media that I get very invested in and boredom. I think one of the reasons I developed it was due to living in a very controlling household. I didn't get many opportunities to hang out with peers (outside school, experienced minor bullying and honestly didn't help my parents solution was to physically fight back, so it made school even more stressful/not a good place to be, but I digress) and what time I did get was usually heavily monitored, until college. Then, in college it first got way, way worse to the point I was an insomnaic and would just pace, daydreaming and listening to music because I was too socially retarded at that point. It took a long time to stop doing it chronically and I would say I'm somewhat well adjusted now, though I sometimes go through periods where it surges again.
No. 2623052
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I am so tired of my stupid scrote therapist friend telling me i need to read books to deal with my anxiety and that i should change my mindset. What the fuck is changing my mindset going to do about my health problems, my monetary problems, my family problems? he called me crying once to vent and you know what his problem was? that he cannot cry and struggles with procastination lmfao. God i wish i had those problems. He's a good friend and the only person that genuinely cares about me but it pisses me off that he thinks my problems are so non consequential that i can fix them by reading a cringe book about pseudo science. All therapists are grifters.
No. 2623099
>>2623052nona changing your mindset and treating your anxiety will help you better deal with those things
i fought it because it seems like silly bullshit but it actually helps if you let it
look up acceptance and commitment therapy (ACT)
No. 2623192
>>2623115Well the fake men still have male bodies, (designed with male anatomy and all, or are real living men with real bodies just in photosets) and I'm not turned on by women
>>2623131Oh I didn't know that. My bad kek I took it literally
No. 2623259
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>>2623258>everything I don't like is a mental illnessKek so true nona
No. 2623392
File: 1753602907174.gif (2.43 MB, 398x498, cat-say-bleh.gif)
There's a construction site next my apartment. I was looking out of the window and there was this worker bending down doing work with his whole ass out. I want to throw up.
No. 2623397
>>2623392Here in my place too nonna. They are redoing the stadium and I’m going crazy, it will last until the 30th of August. At least I’m going back home on the 10th kek.
>doing work with his whole ass outKekkkk
No. 2623497
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Why do I always have the urge to do LITERALLY EVERYTHING BUT the things I actually need to do? Someone fix my retarded ass brain and feelings.
No. 2623567
>>2623532i know that's obvious and i sound retarded saying that but cutting yourself won't prevent you from losing your scholarship, if anything it's doing the opposite
you need to be kinder to yourself. so what if you lose your scholarship, you live with your mom right? you'll bounce back. just do your best nona you can do it (but not if you continue with the self hating behaviour)
No. 2623627
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>>2618191Sick of my big sister going on about how she's totally autistic when she's self-diagnosed and shits on actual mentally ill people when they show symptoms. She's "queer" too and loves to act like she's too fragile to get a job. I don't have one either but at least I keep applying to places. How can two people who are so close be so different?
No. 2623638
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I fucking hate my sister's mess. I hate it, I hate it. Empty shampoo bottles everywhere, lotion here and there, bobby pins, hair ties, random brushes, makeup mess, hair dye stains. I really can't stand it. I hate "high maintenance" women who only care about making themsleves look good/clean, and that's as far as they go. Messy rooms, clothes laying everywhere around, hair clips, clogged shower drain, etc. This is the third time in my damn life I have to deal with a woman like this, I hate it.
No. 2623696
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I usually have insomnia in the summer and it's been brutal. I have tried lavender tea, every OTC drugstore stuff that claims to induce sleep as well as double and triple doses of melatonin. My bf used to suffer from it as well and he gave me some of his leftover benzos and it's the only thing that works but I am a zombie the next day with massive brain fog doing stupid shit like pouring olive oil into my coffee instead of milk. I have also started having hormonal symptoms like hot flashes. Summer should end already ffs
No. 2623699
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>>2623693that's funny because the guy behind the most prevalent BSD is considered to be the king of schizos
next time call him a RedHat shill and mumble something about corpokernel or something
No. 2623835
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>>2623811>pale olive and blondeMuted ocean colors maybe?
No. 2623841
>>2623239she offered me gamalate b6. I really suspect I have anxiety but I haven't been diagnosed because they brush it off. when I'm overwhelmed or stressed I can't think properly and there's no way to calm myself, it's worse when I must do something and I can't function properly.
right now I take paracetamol praying it maybe can calm me a little.
No. 2623867
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>want a large female friend group
>make no effort to talk to anyone
I know it’s my own fault but I crave in-person female friends so bad but it’s so hard to do and even harder now that I’m 30. REEEEEE
No. 2623893
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>>2623672No. What you SHOULD'VE done was stuff him in a springlock suit before
triggering the mechanisms.
No. 2623989
File: 1753639820961.png (1.33 MB, 1920x1080, autistic stare of disapproval.…)
I am tired, nonas. Ever since I graduated and started to reintegrate into broader society away from my specialty I have learned just how much people hate scientists, and how much I hate them back. I will politely attempt to correct somebody in regular conversation when they start trying to sell me on outlandish, often harmful misinformation, such as alternative medicine and pop science nonsense (particularly of the medical variety). I have tried very hard not to do this, but I consider it a moral obligation to combat these things, especially in our current sociopolitical climate. Every time, with no exception, they look at me with pure, unbridled aggression in their eyes, or suddenly become arrogant and condescending.
The worst of these cases always center AI. I have had so many people pulling up their little LLMs in conversation, smugly looking me in the eyes as their digital best friend spouts unsubstantiated claim after unsubstantiated claim, proudly showing me how they outsource their critical thinking to a clanker. Any time I try to explain to them the differences between credible sources and slop, or convey to them how empirical evidence works, they will default to "um, yeah, in your opinion". It only ever gets worse if I attempt to convey the information without resorting to an excess of confidence or implications of finality, as I have learned to admit the limitations of myself and others in the name of integrity.
I suppose what I am trying to say here is that I can feel myself growing more and more inclined to avoid interacting with the everyman altogether, as no matter how polite and enjoyable our conversation is, it's always only a matter of time before they say something that makes me deeply uncomfortable with living in the same reality as them. Contrary to appearances, I actually do not enjoy or want to feel smug or superior to these people. In fact, the way they are is genuinely enough to upset me, and this is an undesirable consequence, as I nonetheless strive for an amicable relationship with the world around me.
Does anybody know how I can solve this? Thank you.
No. 2624014
>>2624006I really am trying to, but I just cannot internalise this. I have always been incredibly wary of cultivating anything even remotely resembling an unfounded ego, or becoming one of those reddit atheist-adjacent misanthropes. I instinctively give people the benefit of the doubt, because the alternative has always brought me to what others have described as "biblical levels of misanthropy", not in the sense as something shaming, but in reference to the sheer amount of harm it does to my emotional wellbeing.
I do not want to see people as better and worse. I just want people to be better on the whole.
No. 2624055
>>2624044Thank you for the considerate words, nona. I am not sure if I would call this optimism as much as some childish, deep-set refusal to accept a stagnant world in which everybody is insanely and proudly ignorant. I factually understand that most people are, frankly, incredibly dim, but some irrational, emotional part of me thinks that this can't be inherent. Perhaps it's the decline of education as a virtue, the reactionary direction in which our society has headed, or any of the myriad other factors at play here that I could blame for this.
The one thing that has come close to helping me so far has been thinking of them with compassion. They are ill-equipped to protect themseleves from swindlers and bad actors who are smarter than them, and their own lives are made doubtlessly worse by it. Suffice to say, this viewpoint still bugs me as arrogant, and I actually struggle to practice it when I get heated in the moment, but at least it helps me keep the negative emotions and feelings of betrayal at bay.
No. 2624056
>>2624034No one will ever tell you to your face that you look fat and that losing weight is a good idea, take it with a grain of salt nonna. The fact that you already want to lose weight is great, be on your journey on your own and take it step by step to reach your goals. Have feasible goals and a healthy plan that is sustainable.
They’ll tell you “you look amazing now!” when you’ll lose the extra kgs anyway kek.
No. 2624064
>>2624058Your mom is one thing though kek, it also depends on what kind of mother you have. Mine never told me anything about my appearance but tried to help me silently kek, she would give me bigger options, take me to ice cream more often, bring me snacks, etc.
Not related to the topic but I was a smelly teen back then and I remember that she would always buy me different types of deodorant and always perfume, even the expensive ones they sold at Sephora, I thought it was very nice of her but she told me a year ago that she did it because I had a strong odor and that she was glad I stopped smelling once that phase finished kekk.
But friends and acquaintances won’t tell you.
No. 2624141
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My mum always thinks I'm lying to her (usually about the most random stuff I'd have no REASON to lie about) and I genuinely have no idea where this distrust came from. I've never given her a reason to believe this. She's quite a paranoid person in general so I try not to take it personally, but it's hard not to when she treats me like a criminal for no reason
No. 2624143
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I tried being a normie and making friends through an irl hobby but all it did is cement in my mind that males do not see us as equal, there is no overlapping venn diagram where instead of Male and Female we are just Human. Even when I tried to distance myself from the males being in the periphery of boyfriends of my female friends, incidental acquaintances and even total strangers they would act so disgusting that I am hard pressed to understand how women say stuff like they get along better with men. I am a gormless social retard and I would still much rather hang out with autistic women because they know I am a cognizant entity and not on the same level of intellect as a dog. I understand why women say things like that, and I don't wish anyone to have to go through uncomfortable experiences with men to come to this conclusion, but it seriously actually is all men.
It's true btw, when men think you're just "one of the guys" or mistake your aloofness for agreement they will expose themselves for the vile retards that they are. Hearing 30 year old men still making "hurr durr if women want equal treatment then I should be allowed to hit them" jokes in 2025 somehow made me even more of a misanthrope than I was before.
No. 2624175
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i got the thing i wanted but now im in a depressive episode and i want it all to burn down i just dont care anymore…god why is my depression timing so bad
No. 2624187
>>2624141She kind of sounds schizo but in a genuine way. I'd ask her
>"what evidence do you have to support your assumptions?"because when I have done it to my own mother it stops her in her tracks and then it's prime time to diffuse the tension
No. 2624205
>>2624056Thank you nonna! I've been wanting to lose 10kg for a while now and already know what I need to do to make sustainable life changes, just haven't really done it seriously because of lack of time and mental energy to keep up with it until now.
And you are right, and I know very well that it's pretty much an expected response, I guess it's because I usually go around it differently when someone says they're looking into losing weight (ask them questions on their plans for how to reach their goals - partly to make sure they're not jumping on bullshit trend diets like eating only strawberries for a week or whatever, "hey, I'm also looking into developing healthier food habits, wanna make meal plans together?", "I have a membership at x gym, join it and we can help each other figure out some of the machines", etc.).
No. 2624221
>>2624204The most I can see being allowed is drawings and those old "tasteful" nudes magazines that they sold in bookstores before internet porn being a thing. The truth is that no one NEEDS porn, especially not hardcore porn, it's actively detrimental to society and yet everyone's caping so hard for it.
>>2624212Men are such huge fucking retards. Our ancestors didn't have porn and they didn't kill themselves enmasse. Not to idealize the past too much but modern men are so weak. "Wahhhh if I can't jerk it 10 times a day to my favorite double penetration anal bbw porn star I'm going to kill myself". Some people have real problems Jesus christ
No. 2624323
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Why does my face look so damn long when my hair is down?!???? I took some pictures with my friends and the ones where my hair is down look stupid…I look like I got the biggest forehead, a huge chin and a long as hell nose. Hair pulled up? I look normal. Doesn't even make sense.
No. 2624399
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>>2624323Just get a shoulder length haircut with chin length/face-framing layers. It always looks really cute on heart-shaped faces. It honestly looks even better than on women who don't have this face shape, that's why everyone went insane for "the rachel" cut in the 90s
No. 2624446
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i am painting a dream i had last night and have a deep desire to buy a vape. i haven't vaped in like 2 years. i should not. i might. i probably won't, unless i do. i'd regret it. unless it was like a really good flavor. but they're never really good flavors, they all suck. one thing i definitely won't be doing is drinking because i've convinced myself i'm allergic and thats the end of it. its the good ending. speaking of good endings, something catastrophic is going to happen soon
No. 2624472
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>>2624446Get clove cigarettes instead. You'll look cool and goth, plus artists like to smoke
No. 2624481
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One of my childhood friends got dumped by her moid last autumn. He was her first relationship and they had been fooling around on/off since she was 15. Bitch was complaining about him to me and our other friend for 15 years. She always refused to stand up for herself or cut him off for good when he repeatedly showed his true colours. She was even venting and saying she didn't want to be with him for the past 2-3 years. I am so tired of her constant sperging about their love and "perfect relationship". Whenever she messages me or wants to talk it is about him or because she got triggered by his posts on social media, and she refuses to remove his profiles or block him. This woman has weekly breakdowns because of some shitty instagram reel her ex moid liked or he switched his profile picture after 4 years. I hope she will start listening to her friends and her therapist and move on from this obese ugly moid who treated her like shit soon but it's looking bleak.
No. 2624541
>>2624481i knew a girl just like this and she also had a habit of making everyone else take care of her every time we got drunk bc she couldnt control herself and would get ANGRY at people trying to keep her under control. messy, infantilized and chronically self-absorbed is a killer combo, i doubt this is the last stop on the crazy train.
being raised rich and incredibly sheltered is something i notice a lot in this type of girl but i don't necessarily think it's the sole cause.
No. 2624554
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>>2624525Djarums actually have way more tar than regular cigarettes so you are killing yourself faster. There are herbal cigarettes with no tobacco or rat poison but they smell like burning leaves and you are still plugging your lungs up with shit.
No. 2624562
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>>2624525Art-fags have been smoking clove and herbal cigarettes since forever. I think you should go for it, they're not addictive and vapes are gross and unpleasant in all ways. At least you'll enjoy the clove cig. It's like having a piece of sugar-free diet cake or just having a real slice, at least it's real and satisfying
No. 2624620
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Ive always been attention-averse even as a child, but as an adult ive come to find that i actually crave attention and validation so badly. Maybe because i was deprived of it as a kid? Honest to god, my main motivation to be good at what i do creatively is for validation and attention from others. I want it so bad. Its pathetic. I shouldnt care, and most of the time i dont even think of it, but sometimes i get into these moods where the idea of people adoring what i do, copying me, and leaving nice comments makes me want to drool. I really want to be seen.
No. 2624723
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>>2624568I know of a little anon who loves the smell of cigarettes unfortunately. More reason to quit
No. 2624910
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>>2624896That is not always true
No. 2625059
>>2624188>The government doesn't owe you complete unfettered accessadult-content model: I will upload porn!
porn watchers : I will look at porn!
Government : I don't think so!
Why does Daddy government think it can regulate consensual internet exchanges between grown adults?
No. 2625069
>>2625062>illegal drugsThey affect society, because drugged up people can't control their actions.
>brothelsI don't care about those, they're another place of work, adults can work in them if they want to.
>polyamoryI don't care about that, why does the government think it can regulate consensual relationships between adults?
(derail) No. 2625082
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I am about to find if i am deaf or not in a few hours, wish me luck nonnies. I am so scared. My friend and i decided to celebrate regardless and we are watching the new south park and eating nachos after, so i got something positive to look forward.
No. 2625085
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>>2625082Good idea anon. It's good to get a measurement of where you started so we can assess the improvements. Good luck and godspeed
No. 2625086
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I have massive amounts of anxiety over things I can do nothing about, I'm losing my mind. I feel like it'd be better to die within 10 years rather than to live to see the future
No. 2625088
File: 1753674017363.gif (1.53 MB, 480x480, 2526528_ac07c.gif)
>>2625086>anxietyPerhaps it is demons?
No. 2625131
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I am so sick of walking on eggshells around everyone. I've become a bit of an asshole, but that's because I'm so tired. Every person in my life is interconnected to the other in some way, and I care about each one deeply. Right now everyone hates each other. Every day I get to play roulette on who's going to hit me up to shittalk someone else, and I'll put on a mask and pretend to agree with them. The one time I got fed up and lost my temper, I got turned into "the bad guy" unanimously. I can't cut even 1 person off because of how intertwined my friends, family, and work are. I've started getting stoned more often to shut my brain off and cope, but I can't rely on this long term. I hope that everyone can sort themselves out by the end of the year.
No. 2625267
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Intrasexual competition between women is crazy, because why does it bother you that I don’t have sex and refrain from engaging with men all together?
I have taken a break from dating after the nth disappointing experience, I’m fine alone and I like doing my own thing, I can definitely say that I no longer feel the need to find “love” and I can cope with the feeling of longing and whatnot.
But my friends have been insisting that I put myself out there, that I need a good dicking and what not. According to them having sex with random scrotes will get me in tune with my body and help me overcome my traumas about men. It’s very weird and kind of dismissive and condescending.
No. 2625371
>>2625280My parents kept getting angry at me. I don't want to be around them any more.
>>2625328I guess you could say that.
No. 2625385
I have been living off my savings for 3 months now, I have enough to survive 1,5 more months then I'm absolutely down to zero. All of this because the unemployment centre is taking forever to process my case so I can finally get benefits/insurance paid out because everyone are on vacation on top of a lack of valid payment slips and contracts from a shady company I was briefly hired at during covid out of desperation (I quit three years ago and the lack of valid papers is still causing a shitload of trouble for me) makign it harder for them to register everything properly, and looking for a job during summer time is an absolute shit fest if you expect any immediate responses.
But somehow my friends just can't grasp the concept of zero income. We are in our 30's, they should have developed enough understanding of what it means even if they haven't experienced it themselves. But no, they just can't grasp that I can't join them in going out on expensive restaurants or going out clubbing even if they pay for some of it. I'm happy for the offers and that they invite me along, but what gets to me is how flabbergasted they get when I explain for the twenty-oompth time explain I'm living off my savings, and that I'll gladly get back into some of our old habits the moment I have some cash in my savings again. One carefully asked me how much I have left in my savings account TWO DAYS AGO when she saw I was being frustrated with another month of seeing a huge chunk going to my savings just to survive, yet she messaged me today about a singles night event trying to badger me to come along. Just how fucking hard is it for people to understand???? Hell, even a friend that have struggled with low income during periods of her life visited earlier this month and stayed for longer than expected, and despite knowing my situation she never offered to help with paying for the food I cooked for both of us, never helped out with cleaning, etc.
No. 2625542
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>be mentally ill
>living with parents as an adult
>need to get GED
>working towards getting GED to get a job and move out
>mother keeps telling me to take my time and take year-long mental health breaks
>essentially encouraging me to stretch out my high school studies as much as possible for no fucking reason
>keeps sending me adverts for job
>"omg yes nona that'd be a great job for you, go apply teehee"
>apply to not make her sad
>get rejected every time because of fucking course they're not gonna take someone with no education whatsoever
>feel like shit because of it
>mother still somehow doesn't understand why I'm trying to get my GED asap
>thinks I'm sheltered and don't know how the world works
>thinks I need to take my sweet-ass time to get a basic education but apparently getting a job right away is fine
She's a fucking retard but she put a roof over my head and feeds me so I stfu and keep sending those applications, no matter how much I die inside every time. Since I'm studying I'm lowkey scared that the shit I keep throwing at the wall will eventually stick and I'll have a job while still needing to study at the same time. Can't sepukku because mommy will cry. Fml
No. 2625653
>>2625532I sure hope so
>>2625539Alright, I'll give it a shot. Thank you
No. 2625714
File: 1753719200796.jpg (4.69 KB, 214x235, 1000023026.jpg)
>doing prep for dinner so I can quick assemble before leaving for work tonight
>putting away dry pots and dishes from our meal yesterday
>cannot find my nice crank cheese grater that mom has stuffed away somewhere
>as she often does due to ocd and her inability to tolerate my things anywhere outside her nonsense designated spaces for them
>had to resort to manual grating but get through my task before I jump on a work meeting
>mom emerges from her sleeping quarters at 11am to prepare a meal for herself
>ask her casually if she knows where my cheese grater is because I couldn't find it anywhere this morning
>immediately gets huffy because I dare ask her a question, fumbles for that piece of shit manual grater
>correct her that no, not that one but my nice new one
>she starts yelling at me about how she's gotta drop everything to help me because all I do is "bitch"
>???I don't even need the grater anymore I was just asking if you knew where it was so I can know for next time???
>she's slamming cupboards, thrashing open drawers, accusing me of never helping and bitching
>she finally finds it and pulls it out from under her pile of junk which of course I would not have noticed
>she gets passive aggressive and accuses me of not having looked and demands I put it away someplace else so I will know where it is next time cause I never help her put shit away
>(except for those piles of pots and dishes I put away this morning)
>tell her no it's fine I just wanted to know where it was
>still acting pissy and angry at me for no fucking reason
This is why you are alone and friendless mom…
No. 2625729
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Being condescended to with straight up false information is maddening
No. 2625774
>>2624188Based take
>>26248933 hours is nothing and doesn't even qualify as ghosting, he's definitely overreacting if he's upset over that.
No. 2625858
>>2625851nta I've seen it. Hair pulling, being slapped, degredation, being
pissed on, honestly it's tiring to see it. I understand her desire to alog all too well.
No. 2625873
>>2625858Im the op and the thing that bothers me the most is the strangulation, because how much of a pathetic attention whore do you have to be to consentually let a man give you
literal brain damage? And ive noticed a lot of these girls arent even sexual assault
victims (so there could be some retarded "im coping" excuse, i guess), but they
wish they were? Like how is this level of brainrot even real?
No. 2625889
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How do you come to terms with being a useless retard who does retarded things?
No. 2625896
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>>2625889I like the way the disembodied brain is following him around to abuse him
No. 2625927
>>2625831I've been a rape fetishist, I think it's about not wanting to deal with the guilt that comes with having sexual urges as a woman. If you're being raped it's not your fault, plus you're passive and I always liked not having to do anything. Plus what
>>2625842 said, and the manly aspect of "I take what I want"
(I'm cured now but I just remember when I used to like it)
No. 2626118
>>2626099Can you provide the link you use nonna? Because the ones I use are all down and SLUM also says libgen is down. Only libgen+ is up which is worse than AA.
>>2626111Thank you nonna I'll try it.
No. 2626186
>>2625930nah
nonnie I hope they die too, and soon. I hate piece of shit alcoholic parents, they always seem to be so angry at how they fucked up their own lives and just take it out on their kid. I hope your mom stands up for herself one day and pops the fuck off on your geriatric grandparents and one of them strokes out and the other strokes out from witnessing said first stroke-out
No. 2626190
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I have such a complicated relationship with my older autistic brother. I want to have a good relationship with him but I am also autistic and it doesn't seem like we have much of anything in common. Sure, we both like video games but he only plays the same 3 video games over, over, over and over. He watches the same 3 movies over and over. The other problem is, he's also kind of an incel. He gets into Vtubers and mommy dommy shit even though if he actually tried he might honestly find someone. He also sometimes treats my mother like shit and she just lets him because she doesn't see him that often, and she completely coddles this nearly 30 year old man. I definitely think my mom is some flavor of boymom.
No. 2626308
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I hate my new boss. Some random rich "digital nomad" type with zero leadership skills. I seriously can't believe that they hired them. It's extra depressing because I'm now looking for another job and wondering how in the world idiots like that get a job while I send out dozens of applications and get no traction.
No. 2626353
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>>2626199I didn't expect to get such a thoughtful reply thank you anon. My dreams aren't delusional but they feel unrealistic for someone in her mid 30s because I'm not a bright eyed 20something anymore with endless career options and energy, I'll never escape the lower class income bracket to have the time/money necessary for fulfilling them. It's pretty mundane stuff like getting a car, travelling, learning an instrument.
I hope you'll see this reply because believe it or not solo gamedev is actually one of my big dreams too, can you share how you made it a reality? Some days I feel like I can't even comprehend basic RPGmaker code, I just feel so stupid. There's no trick to motivating yourself to do something, I know that I just need the drive to get off my ass, but can I ask how you keep motivated to work on your games? Working full time in a soulcrushing job makes it seem like an unreachable reality because I'm always exhausted from other daily tasks. I'm really happy you were able to achieve that for yourself because making and marketing your own game seems difficult, you're honestly an inspiration to noobs like me.
>>2626298Do you have any tips for setting attainable goals? I definitely get discouraged easily not seeing tangible progress and it makes me want to bedrot away from doing anything whatsoever.
No. 2626370
>>2626319It’s short acting and my anxiety tends to be sporadic but bad. Like getting near panic attacks if I have to present or go to an interview. I got prescribed Zoloft before but didn’t want to take it due to the side affects and I didn’t want to get on SSRIs
>>2626336I’m sorry to hear about that nona. What was your experience with taking them? Hearing about what it can do to people is scary. I just thought I’d be responsible when taking it and I really only wanted it for a very short term take it when you need it kind of way.
No. 2626374
>>2626353(different anon obviously)
I'm 36 and feel like I'm just reaching my prime now. Some people peak in their 20s and that's fine but it doesn't need to be everyone. I started "making it" in my 20s and then had a huge setback that cost my my whole late 20s and early 30s but the last 2 years have been great. I got a well-paying job, a really lovely partner and started investing into a future I had never conceptualized before. I'm still chasing my goals but I forgive myself more for not meeting my imaginary deadlines and find a lot of new things I enjoy more than I thought I would when I was locked into what I thought I wanted from life. I know this isn't advice but if what you need is more time and the focus to work on your goal then you can try to find ways to make that work and start from there. As a creative I think it's important that you make stuff and don't stop. Make shitty stuff, make half-finished stuff, take notes and inspiration from everywhere, just make things and you'll keep evolving
No. 2626430
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right-wing men are such huge fucking losers. they'll shit all over women, even '''their own''' women (lol), then whinge endlessly about muh birth rate, why are women overwhelmingly liberal waaaaaaah. I would say these ethnat freaks are motivated entirely by the desire to own and dominate women from their own communities under a pathetic fig leaf of 'love', but really they seek to own and punish all women regardless of origin, then do some ad-hoc rationalisation for their ape rage based on half-baked readings of nietzsche. spending 5 minutes around these faggots is enough to pinkpill any woman with at least two neurons knocking around in her head.
No. 2626452
>>2626353samefag as
>>2626298. anon i wish i could give you a definite, deeply profound and intellectual answer that elucidates how to feel content and worthwhile everyday, but i still struggle with this myself. i’m 22 and feel lost frequently. but as for setting attainable goals everyday, ive been taking baby steps and it’s been helping. one way to begin is by “learning yourself” and what’s important to you — as hackneyed as that sounds. what do you care a great deal about? what are you passionate about? what ideas, acts, habits etc can bring you joy on a consistent basis? whatever answers you come up with, engage with that. engage consistently in whatever work or hobbies that fulfill you, in increments. explore whatever it is that you’ve found interest in. from there on out, you’ll develop a routine naturally (at least, this is what worked for me). i apologize if this sounds ridiculously repetitive and shallow, because i KNOW so many depressed neets on here have heard time and time again “omg just do things u love and go outside!” but….. to an extent, developing healthy habits and a stable routine with shit you love
works. (excluding severely depressed and/or mentally ill). also, if you have access to initiating close relationships….. yeah, that too. maintaining or developing meaningful and healthy relationships with individuals (ie friends or family) who can feed off of you, match your energy, stimulate your intellect >>> solitude. you deserve that. you deserve to feel fulfillment and connection. the hardest part is starting, searching, and then staying consistent with it.
again, i’m sorry if this sounds ridiculously stupid and trivial, but i am a firm believer that stability in goals and routine can have amazing payoff
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MFW the guy I have a crush on flirts with my coworker
No. 2626611
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Of COURSE they want to complain about something else posted in the thread that they don't like. But nooo they're silent when that other absolutely mind numbingly irritating shit is being spammed nonstop. I want to counterspam with less low quality things to satisfy my own pettiness, but I can't because I am busy with my own personal affairs. (dodging being locked in the fucking crazy house again)
"Be the change you want to see" but it's so much fucking work it's not even possible. None of this is necessary. I know I'm a rabid, foaming at the mouth retard with a glitch in my fucking programming that led me to care about something so trivial. I'm the only one who gives a shit I bet. Wouldn't be the first time. It's always like this. My hangups are profoundly retarded and even I know this.
I guess I found an escape in that thread. It's like the nonas that posted before had taste and were funny. But their skinwalkers that replaced them are playing pretend with all the wrong toys, so rather than funny and exciting, it's tiresome and retarded. I'm not creative either, so I can only either watch the train wreck or kick rocks at it from afar.
All this to say I am a bitter prude who has used up the paid service hours of my "friends" (read as: wranglers who are on the clock) and am looking for another haunt or whatever and I damned this place with my presence. Still deluded by the whole "you can make a difference by being a leader" brainwash from eons ago and thinking I can do someone a service by acting out. Fucking retarded ass bitch. God I fucking hate myself. Why am I even using the internet when I hate homosapiens.
No. 2626618
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I miss my old game consoles a lot. I wish my family wasn't so pawn crazy growing up. I've lost so many things that I cherished because they just never went back for them. I know I can buy them again now, but it's just not the same. I wish I could say "I've owned this SNES for XX years!" and pop in that Aladdin game I adored for old times sake. They took that away from me
No. 2626650
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>>2626629>>2626620Am I really that transparent? Have I really complained that much? I thought it has only been twice, maybe three times in passing. Am I recognizable? Am I the only one? I should leave these farms and rethink my life. Jesus Christ I am a lost fucking cause. >>2626630I'm still deplorable shitfucker to hate that someone else is having fun in a way that I can't join in on. Even without context of the others brought up, I felt a sense of synergy as an audience member. I am clueless about all of it, so I don't know why it bothers me so much. They're having fun. Everyone is. I'm not and I can't even be subtle about it.Shit fuck I'm sorry. I will restrict myself to the threads that I'm not a pest in.
Sorely am I missing the days where my meds made my too apathetic to give a fuck. What the hell happened to me to make me care that much dear god. No. 2626767
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>tfw trying to fucking masturbate and the climax literally feels like nothing and nothing is throbbing afterwards
>room starts to smell like fucking disgusting weed at 1am of all places and times because of the vents
have I been cursed or something. this must be what hell truly is like, not fire and brimstone but on earth with a bunch of fucking 3dpd and greed. can’t even get a few minutes of bliss, all weed smokers need to fucking die or get a grip
No. 2626807
>>2626806Fuck I meant smek
>>2626801Stop buying that icky smelly brokie weed so it can stop stinking up the place, peeeyewww
No. 2626830
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I wish my older step brother was someone I could've looked up to. But he's just an angry incel neet loser. It's not completely his fault because my dad did a shitty job raising him by himself. It would've been nice to have a role model growing up. But I have to be a role model for my younger siblings and I have to figure things out all by myself
No. 2626834
>>2626830I have a loser older brother as well (as mean as that is too say), but considering his terrible history I can't fault him entirely for it either.
Still, it's kind of painful I never related to having a "cool protective older brother", he never fitted the bill…
No. 2626836
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>main recurring topic in bi threads is nonnas venting about being lonely and unable to find a gf
>idea to reduce loneliness suggested, one not even all about dating
>"no no i can't do that because i hate the losers on this site, you're all too chronically online, young, skinny, fat and neurotic"
bi thread is a mess, feels like anons enjoy shooting themselves in the foot. maybe some of the less crazy lesanons have a point when they say there's a noticeable lack of effort to pursue same sex connections
No. 2626872
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>>2626846I'm not sure if I approve but you could just do it subliminally via reaction images.
>>2626855are the outings to places that are relatively fun for you or no? I'm too low energy to go much anywhere but there's some places that are still fun to go with people.
No. 2626883
>>2626836As a bi woman I don’t see the B as a whole monolith, even more so than other sexualities, there is such a big divide that there isn’t any sort of allyship. I don’t feel like I belong, I don’t relate to bi scrotes and the amount of bi women that I relate to is smaller than the majority.
Majority of bisexual women just have idealized versions of women in their heads, they’ll tell you how they long for same sex relationships without pursuing them at all , tell you that they love all women yet have specific types of men they like.
It’s like they don’t “love”women, their heart isn’t in it, they use them as a sort of transitional plan in between while they pursue scrotes. They’ll entertain you for a bit but they don’t see anything long-term.
Another pet peeve of mine is us approaching same sex dynamics in the same way you do with heterosexual relationships, aka they still expect the same treatment from women that they receive from straight men, which results to less effort and wanting to be strictly pursued, it’s like they want a female man kek. I don’t know if you can call it misogyny or something.
At least that’s been my experience (dated two bi women).
No. 2627031
>>2627020This isn't the typical muh bf vent so I'll keep going. I'm a former high class escort. This demon of a client decided that I was gonna be his girlfriend. Offered to replace all my escorting income in exchange for partnership/marriage. Sure, he was really sweet so I gave it a shot. 6 months later, I'm pretty much housebound. Curtains closed, depressed as shit, being fed Adderall daily to keep a smile on my face. Barely allowed to communicate with friends and family. I have my curlers in and try doing my makeup daily despite the mascara running down my face. All he wants me to do is look hot, meet his friends and family, be seen in public with him, then back to isolate myself in the house. He gets mad if I'm dry during sex. I once snuck some lube up there before sex and he noticed and got upset. He's got a tracker on me. He's extremely charming and charismastic, everyone loves him. Dude has like 20 fake IDs. My hairs falling out, dark circles, acne, pretty much bedbound from emotional exhaustion. So yeah anyway
No. 2627059
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>>2627055The trades. Or you can go into restaurant work, which is
abusive and doesn’t pay well and
still isn’t as mind numbingly awful as staring at a screen.
No. 2627066
>>2627059No jeweler on the list?
I don't think it's correct
No. 2627076
>>2627066Okay then go be a jeweler damn. Tf? Jewelry isn’t a trade in the sense that you go to school for it and earn a license to practice it.
>>2627071Women actually excel at welding because they’re smaller and can fit into cramped spaces. The work environment is a drawback though unless you can find a woman owned company to work for.
No. 2627096
>>2627091To some women it's extremely worth it. But okay, go back to your office job if the thought of a female carpenter upsets you.
>>2627094Shianne Fox is an Onlyfans model and not an actual career tradeswoman.
No. 2627123
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>whenever anyone in our group complains about how much the dating scene absolutely sucks
>lesbian friend: "have you guys, like, tried going out more? Going to meetups, meet new people at parties, stuff like that?"
>whenever any of us give her the same advice when she complains about dating
>"UUUHM, you are acting like you can just set me free in a park like a dog to befriend other gays??? It doesn't work like that!"
I know it comes from a different place when she complains, since on paper it should technically be easier for the rest of us to find someone (if 99% of all moids weren't balding, pathetic losers) and it's already hard it is to find a community as a lesbian. There is just so much irony to her response and how pissed she gets
No. 2627284
>>2626353>can I ask how you keep motivated to work on your games?It's less about motivation and more about keeping up momentum. I have a to-do list in a google doc that automatically opens whenever I open my browser, so it's easy to see it and think about what to work on next. I break all my tasks down into tiny bullet points, a single feature will be broken down into a bunch where I write out all the logic in plain English and paste tutorial links if needed, so that it's easy to remember how I was going to make it work and get started. I try really hard to get something done every day, and I purposefully organise my list to alternate between super easy, quick tasks (like exporting an asset I already finished) and some bigger ones, so on days I'm very tired I only do the quick and easy tasks. I also do tasks I find tedious (like debugging a big feature) and once that's done I get to do a task I like more (usually art) as a reward. Some days I really don't feel like working on my game, but finishing an easy task feels nice and usually makes me want to tackle bigger ones too.
To an extent sharing my games online and seeing people like them does give me some motivation, but that's a double-edged sword because it's easy to start feeling down when you don't get any sales/comments/reviews for a while. So I try not to worry too much about it and focus on feeling like I'm always learning something new.
I've been doing this for a few years now so it got easier, but when I first started out I made visual novels that didn't require any code so that I could just get used to working on something every day, exporting assets in the correct format, understanding how to break down tasks etc. Confidence is a big part of sticking to a project, and publishing even a short, shitty VN or text game that gets a single comment would give you some confidence because you'll go through some of the motions of finishing a project already.
I hope you'll work more on your game
nonnie! It's so hard to start and stick to it, but it feels easier once you build the habit and it really is fun.
No. 2627624
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>>2627620Don't tell me what I can't do, nona
No. 2627627
>>2627574Oh, that is very far if you don't have a bike. I hope you have fun. Your siblings will probably stop being as annoyed once they're there. It's nice that you care about your grandma at least.
>>2627620What are people expected to do on the job then… I genuinely don't understand why we do this to ourselves
No. 2627659
I've come to realize my mom is emotionally immature and that I might have been emotionally neglected. She doesn't listen to me but will dump everything she has on her mind on me. I saw her today and before had told her in text messages that I'm having some health issues, she never asked about that in text nor in person (I couldn't be fucked to elaborate and this text will tell why). She just talked and talked about her own stuff, sure I get that she has a lot on her mind but when does she not, it's always something about her work, home, my dad, my brother.. She never asks how I am in person. I barely said anything to her today like I never really do anymore and she doesn't seem to notice that I barely talk, let alone about my own life. I utter only short responses to her ramblings. In texts she might ask me if everything's ok real quick if she hasn't heard from me in a while but a positive response from me will result in "ok." and a negative response will result in dismissal or her trying to one up my negative situation whatever it may be. "Well things aren't well over here either" and then go on to tell me about it without asking me to elaborate on my issues. It's really disappointing, hurtful even, to notice this pattern, to notice that my own mother doesn't or cannot hear me. As I've gotten older I've noticed how immature she is, it bothers me because I feel like I need to be taking care of her, I need to be her emotional support, I feel like I need to protect her from the world that keeps on getting crazier and crazier. Meanwhile I'm left on my own, I can't talk to her about anything, I can't even ask for help anymore because I'll just get crabbily interrogated and dismissed. She even dismissed my pmdd as something I should just pay no mind to when I was going through one of the worst episodes in a while. We do have a good relationship, we don't fight, but it's all just surface level, there's no connection there really.
No. 2627697
>>2627682No, I am a poorfag and Cps don't take the kids away easily here, I know because I was being investigated under them at some point and just had mandatory therapy. I'm just afraid about the social repercussions of my family suspecting it was me since they just think my sis is a spoiled brat and I'm an ungrateful daughter that just doesn't help my mom enough and I really need their financial support atm.
>>2627691I pretended to be a neighbor complaining about the shouting at night, I received a CPS letter today and didn't give it to her or open it either, I'm wondering what to do. (I'm not american, I'm translating the terms so how it works might be different)
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I almost don't know whether to put this here or stupid questions but I don't want to just be told to get over it, but I don't understand how people enjoy spending time with most people. Like, the only people who don't fill my heart at first with dread to hang out with is my partner and my best friend. Even seeing or talking with family or just good friends initially makes me uneasy as hell. I usually end up enjoying it and it's not a big deal but I hate the spike in anxiety and nervousness about meeting up ahead of time.
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>>2627802Do everything one thing at a time. I split the chores up by days. Get the worst done first, that's the bathroom cleaning for me, and save the easiest for days off work (laundry is what I'd recommend here, you basically just sit and watch TV until the washer is done). If you have nowhere to be you could probably skip a day or two of showering if you're feeling to tired from it. Best of luck
nonnie it'll be over soon
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i had a dream i had a big friend group and realized if i lose the 2 friends i have, getting new ones will be impossible, i havent even hanged out with them in so long i dont even know if we still have anything in common, being their friend was so hard already, it took me like 2 years to realize we actually had things in common and we dont even text or anything now, i was practically friendless until i met them and now they've both met new people and im just not doing anything with my life and i think they will both move on, i messaged one of them like a week ago and there was no reply at all im such a loser
No. 2627843
>>2627809thanks
nonnie i'll try to not have a mental breakdown i got this
No. 2627872
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>>2627837>If you valued the connection you would've probably kept in touch with them, no?fuck off anon i try to talk to them and they wont reply or give short answers and keep on not replying or ever messaging me first, thats why i mentioned them moving on instead of me not being able to maintain the friendship, i was able to do that when they would fucking talk to me
your analysis is so dogshit of course i value the connection they're my FRIENDS why would you even reply to me to say something so retarded omfg
No. 2627896
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>>2627894Sounds rough nona
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>>2627915I cannot take out my prolific money until 8pm how the FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO GET MY FUCKING FROSTY FROM WENDYS?
No. 2627999
>>2626875this is the worst and is the only thing that tricks me. Is this what men talk about when they're talking about post-nut clarity? but they don't even have a reason to hate women.
>>2627522If it helps nobody loved me as a child and nobody does now. Have you tried grieving and using grief support therapy to grieve the parents you didn't have?
>>2627652they wouldn't care because they don't value them either
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whenever i order regular pants they are too short and tall pants are too tall. i’m 5’9. kinda tall but not quite. fml.
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the nerve of my mom to pretend like she is a good cook when she couldnt make broccoli taste good without cheese sauce, couldnt make mac and cheese edible without ketchup, and thinks parsley is an equivalent substitute for cooked spinach because she has the palate of a child. she marvels now that i actually enjoy cooking because i would never let her teach me, bitch its because you've never had a fresh vegetable in your life and think the only type of cheese is kraft american singles
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>>2628482Is there a reliable place to watch these free and internationally? I enjoy the earlier seasons
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My ex is always at the top of my Messenger ‘suggested contacts’ even though we haven’t spoken in 3 years. I don’t look at his profile or our messages.
No. 2628668
i’ve recently managed to almost completely give up my longstanding habit of maladaptive daydreaming— during periods when i have free time, if i feel stressed/anxious/angry etc, when im procrastinating, etc, i just stopped entirely, and the payoff has been amazing. my mind is much more at ease, im able to sleep better, i dont feel nearly as anxious or emotionally erratic, i can focus better, and i no longer feel “addicted” to the fleeting hits of dopamine that maladaptive daydreaming supplied… but i also feel like ive lost a part of myself to an extent. even though my mind has slowed down in a healthy way, ive replaced daydreaming with more mind-numbing activity like lurking on lc or binging a show and as stupid as it sounds, it makes me wonder if i’m getting “dumber” as we speak i also think the fact that im no longer as anxious or always “in my own head” as much feels unnatural— like as if stress and putting constant pressure on myself is my default state that i need to return to… or else i’d be losing my “true self” and my “unique personality.” yes im aware this is absolutely pathetic and i should just accept happiness for what it is. i also have ocd so that probably plays into this somehow kek
No. 2628761
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I've gone almost all my life without it but decided to try wearing natural make-up and it's been…weird. for example when I look up from what I was doing I noticed a few people just starting at my face on multiple occasions, none even looked away when I noticed them. there was an open-mouthed kid doing it too. I guess the make-up makes me look more freakish or something…I thought it just makes me look a little more put together? and yeah, I know "nobody cares" but I'm used to completely invisibility, I've never even been bugged by a guy my entire life, so being blatantly stared at is unusual for me. I was hoping some make-up would help my nonexistent confidence…guess that's not how it works, is it? oh well. at least I tried.
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I want to change my style so bad. I want to shave my head off and be like Jenny Shimizu, grunge and just cool. It’s calling me. I’ll do it.
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I hate being bad at math. I am applying for my dream job next year and i am scared i might not pass the entry exams because of how retarded i am. Pretty much everything i want to do requires math and i have always been bad at it. It makes me so anxious, it feels i will never achieve anything because i was born stupid. It's a very scary realization to think about.
No. 2628950
>>2628947Thanks
nonny, i mostly struggle a lot with mental math. I feel like even if i pratice it might be too late to get good enough at it. The job i want to apply to requires you to be quick at making mental calculations and that scares me.
No. 2629096
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>>2629052Glare at him until he leaves assert your dominance and if that doesn't work throw some overnight ones at his face.
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>>2626807People in my area don't understand this, possibly because it's all poop weed in the area. Every time I fucking smoke pot at home it smells like poop. It stinks up everything.
>>2628482Intervention has a lot of controversy around it as a show to "help" people, but it certainly helped me observe my own behaviors and keep in mind the behaviors of others. I've had an easier time spotting alcoholics and opiate users than before. I've never used opiates but because I use drugs pretty often, Intervention was one of those shows I'd watch as a "cope" for my complex feelings regarding my own drug use. Well, not really complex, more like "I should stop doing these drugs vs. I like drugs yay". "As long as I don't wind up homeless or stealing shit from my friends/family I can justify my bad behavior".
>>2628658ty
nonnie, NAYRT but I definitely need to read this.
>>2628668I have OCD as well, and after going on Prozac I have to 'force' myself to daydream, rather than it coming to me almost on impulse and at any point where my mind is free to wander. It was kind of shitty at first, I felt like I was lost without the ability to automatically insert myself into fantasy, but over time it's easier to control and access when I actually want to. Good luck
nonnie.
No. 2629205
>>2629173I'm doing the same as you. Deleting everything. It's best to get away from it all as society continues to go down the shitter. Social media is like a kind of poison for the mind.
I have a """infamous""" online reputation in a fandom for my politically incorrect trolling and sperg outs, and things are so shit and boring lately people have already moved on in a matter of days. I literally outed myself even in here on the cow yourself thread and I'm still not milky enough for anyone to really give a shit. Even while being quite retarded on here as well. The conclusion to be made? Nobody is probably even thinking about you. The people you trolled and are worried about doxxing you will move on to the next thing and forget you even exist. You will be fine.
No. 2629354
>>2629328Also relatable.
>Can't even talk to anyone without being accused of trauma dumping or trying to use them in some wayYou need to vent, it's therapeutic and helps you process your traumas and organize your thoughts, but subjects like these are way too heavy. This is gay faggotry but if you can try finding a therapist that vibes with you. I recommend a woman who touches on your wounds in a way that doesn't make you defensive or scared. Others aren't necessarily bad, they just do things in a way that doesn't work for you.
inb4 therapy is a scam No. 2629382
>>2629354Thanks Nona. I stopped sharing anything with people years ago because of that and other reasons. I'd have to hire a carer atp. And sure, some people will do things in ways that don't work for me, but I am talking about a random moid that will spawn out of nowehere and meet with you just to rape you or assault you or torture you psychologically for months just to move on with their life, while you stay alone with all this. Just because you were trying to connect with someone, and happened to be an easy target. And I did years of therapy. Kept hearing the same stuff about journalling and writing people letters you were not supposed to send. Talking about trauma for 1h a week and then living that week or two in isolation made things worse sometimes. Like you had your wound opened and left to bleed in silence for days after that so that you can be reopened again next session. Some therapists even made me feel like I was a burden to them coming with my problems. Like, sorry I was born into this fuck ass evil family and went into the world thinking other people can't be as fucked up. So it didn't help to seek help, and I am really tired atp.
Sometimes I envy lolcows for being dumb enough and having enablers and funds in their life to keep on living without care in the world doing stupid shit and even earning off of it. I couldn't pull that off just like I can't seem to pull off a regular life without wanting to fucking die.
No. 2629395
>>2629390They don’t approach anymore. Back when I moved here during my first year of college I would go out and at least 3 men tried to speak to me, now they just stare and hope to find you on a dating app. I look the same too, so it it isn’t me.
The uggo 40 year olds still do it though kek.
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I cant wait until its sundown so I can put my earbuds in and immerse into my husbando's game. Tired of this fucking retarded family that never changes.
No. 2629468
>>2629455That is about jobs , college and other opportunities retard.
Approaching a scrote who doesn’t show interest is setting yourself up , if he liked you that much he would have approached and if he didn’t he’s just a passive scrote who will take anything you do for granted and will put no effort later on.
No. 2629498
>>2629489Or, maybe,
most men are cheating losers and a woman initiating a conversation has literally zero bearing on the quality of man? Its not like a quality man instantly loses his stats if a woman says hi to him at a book store kek
No. 2629543
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>>2629390>>2629395They still approach, but only while recording you
No. 2629601
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I attempted to kill myself earlier in the morning, and before it, I texted all my friends, including one of my really close ones, just to tell him I loved him and appreciated everything he did for me. I woke up on the fucking street and once I got back to my house to charge my phone, he texted “I get it but u don’t have to say it every time we text” and that was so funny that I don’t want to kill myself. Imagine if I wasn’t useless and it worked and that was the last message. It’s objectively not funny, but I cannot stop laughing. Kek
No. 2629610
>>2628950Practice in your head! That's how I got good at mental math, especially with coins and change. For 47-38, I know easily that 47-40=7 so I can subtract 2 in the original problem and know that 47-38=9. If $20 in payment was handed to me for a purchase where the total is $14.67, I know right away I'm I'm gonna give $5 back in dollars since 20-15 = 5, so I only worry about the change (0.67). 100-67 = 33 cents, so their total change is $5.33. My explanation might suck but building muscle memory daily in a way that makes sense to you is how you get better.
>>2628976Khan Academy an online tool that offers free match courses from Kindergarten to College math, it's free and helped me through school!
No. 2629672
>>2629263Honestly, I probably do need to fix my sleep hygiene and meditate more or something. I have a lot of social anxiety despite living relatively normally, but once I'm in bed everything I did wrong in a day has nothing barring its entry into my mind and that's usually the start of it.
>>2629301Ugh, what age did it start for you? It's only gotten really bad like this in my mid-20s…
>>2629306Not sure if I'd say it's exactly the same. It's more like minor issues snowball into perceived life-ruining choices and I start hating myself so much I feel like I can't live. And then in the morning when it's light out I realize it was a literal nothing burger.
No. 2629680
>>2629677>>2629675Thanks for the advice nonnies. I'll try journalling.
I know it's in my head but I sometimes get really bad physical anxiety over these things to the point I feel like I've chugged caffeine and can't sleep again.
No. 2629692
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my singular earbud i've been living on for the past 2 months just stopped working
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I feel like suicide is the only option for me these days
No. 2629967
>>2629961Kek hell no. If that happened, he would have a legal and ethical right to know why he is being moved. And even if my name is anonymous he would 100% know it's me. I'm not in the mood for him or his friends and rich family to go after me and threaten me with litigation out of the blue. Maybe I'm paranoid but that's what they always do.
Also, no authority would give a fuck about cocsa that happened decades ago. He was under the age of criminal responsibility and hence was doli incapax.
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>>2629866Completely relate to you nona, and I feel like so often you only see the opposite talked about (people who can process audio but have trouble with reading). It's the worst at work. "Let's just hop on a quick call" I promise you that will not be helpful. I was literally dropped as a baby, please just let me read the brief kek.
Good luck nona, I know it doesn't change anything but I commiserate with you. Everything should be written and captioned always.
No. 2630023
>>2629994Are you retarded? Kek the
victim blaming too. Why would I willingly go into thousands of dollars of debt? Also they literally would not do anything, but you go and try to convince someone it matters.
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currently mourning the loss of realizing my best friend has basically been using using me our entire friendship (we even lived together) and of course my moid can't fucking understand why i'm upset because they're incapable of forming deep platonic friendships
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Don’t like the way disabled people dominate public spaces and make them unbearable for everyone else. Couldn’t complete my grocery shop because of a screaming downie. I know they’re excited about shopping but it’s Sainsbury’s not Disneyland PLEASE shut the fuck up for one second so I can remember which yoghurt to buy
No. 2630091
>>2630023Don't worry that wasn't me nonna (I was
>>2629961 and didn't see you'd replied)
I think it's fair if you don't want to report it. Personally I think it's worth enquiring about what protections you can get if you did hypothetically go through the report process, but also I completely get if you would rather just try to forget. I hope your classes go well for you.