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No. 561114
Me
Old milk
>lost virginity at 15 to an emotionally abusive drug addict
>they broke up after about a year, she's was so embarrassed about the whole thing so she claimed to be a 'born again virgin' and just tells everyone she never had sex
>begins dating long time friend of hers, G, telling him too that she's a virgin, and proceeds to take his virginity.
>they break up. Try to remain friends but petty drama ensues.
>eventually tell him the truth about 6 months after the fact and it ruins they're friendship beyond repair. She blames him for it, telling him he's shutting for care if she was a virgin or not
>tries to get with his best friend, S, afterwards, almost getting him to almost take her to prom before Going puts his foot down and makes S stop being friends with her
>to get back at S for cancelling their prom date last minute leaving her without a date and a ride there, she decided to blackmail him for $5 that he owed her. Having go threw all of their past messages and screenshotting everything that would effectively ruin his friendship with G.
>kept said screen shots in her email for a year 'just in case'
Newest milk
>claimed to be a lesbian for approx. 3 years, during which she went full dyke. Cutting her hair off, stopped shaving, and wearing men's clothing
>gets new job, suddenly lusting after mediocre looking, man child incel, named J
>changes whole look to attract him, starts shaving and wearing makeup again
>gets invited to another co-workers Halloween party about a month after starting job. Attends, gets sloppy drunk and makes out with J on the bathroom floor, after he threw up ofc
>also at said party, threw up on the hosts carpet and porch
>starts seeing J after party. Takes his virginity about 2 weeks in
>J cheats on her and eventually leaves her for a stereotypical e girl. She pretends to be okay about the whole thing while frequently making petty, passive aggressive comments about him at work, both to him and to all their now mutual friends
>J is out right dickish to her, coworkers frequently take her side.
>After an he yelled at her for asking him to do his job at work she began having a hostile attitude towards him.
>he threatens to quit because of it, leading to Her to have major sperg out at work, yelling at him, essentially telling him he's a bitch if he quits over her and that if he was nice to her she would be nice to him
>neither get fired, for who knows why but continue to have very loud and public issues with one another
>they begin acting civilly again. She decides to message him telling him that she still has feeling for him and that he really did hurt her. Does this repeatedly until he has to block her online.
>she now sports a more e girlish aesthetic, she claims it's because she's always liked it but shes probably skin walking J's (now ex) gf
Recently
>reconnected with S, becomes fwb with him.
>constantly upset bc he will goes days without talking to her and with repeatedly flake on her. She frequently does the same towards him as well
>crying constantly bc 'nobody cares about her'
>starts self harming again
>blocked her parents on social media bc her mom wouldn't come over and watch a movie with her
>got an std from S bc despite knowing he is having sex with multiple people she can't be fucked to use protection.
>still friends with him
>constantly unadding him on social media to see if he notices. He does so she stays friends with him
>probably going to wind up having sex with him again
I do plan on going to therapy and seeking help once everything opens back up. I realize most of my behavior is fucked up
No. 561130
>>561125You can be aware that you're in the wrong but cover it up or defend yourself in a fake it till you make it way (to make naive people think you're right).
Or you can be aware that you're wrong in objective sense but right by your own standards (tho I think this goes a bit in cluster b territory).
No. 561132
>>561128If i'm making a long/"important" post, i quickly open up shrib.com which immediately makes a link to an auto-saving personal notepad for me to type it out and look at it. Maybe you could use that.
>>561130That's exactly it. It's the difference between a conman-type cow who relies on people not knowing any better and someone putting their hands up and admitting their faults in a take-it-or-leave-it manner. Neither are healthy, let's not kid ourselves, but you're very right
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>>561201>has a death fetish–read about a cow here getting off to radiation poisoning, ended up finding it hot tooI have my own fair share of trash fetishes but what the fuck lmao. Good summary, I respect your honesty and self-awareness.
No. 561367
>>561348I think you're less of a cow and more a of a..
victim? You don't sound cowish to me anon, just deeply troubled and in a rough situation. I hope you can recover and get on track. ❤
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>Part of the sad broken bbydoll Tumblr/IG community since before Nicole Dollanganger's prime
>Ironically enough, is blocked by Nicole for having directed Tumblr users to her thread years ago
>Mutuals with ND's orbiters
>Romanticized the shit out of her childhood abuse and poverty for years in due in part of being in the trauma blogs community – often overlaps with the sad bbydoll pale uwu cemeteries and emaciated girls side of Tumblr
>Was terrified of being posted when an anon wanted to make a trauma blogs general thread a while back
>Has kept up a tag for her creep ex that did a number on her years ago
>>>Was a classic BPDfag over him back in the day, still can be from time to time
>Relates too much to semi-cowish authors of traumaporn books such as My Dark Vanessa and Wasted
>Vents too often about ED, really should keep that shit on MPA or EDC
>Dropped out of college after only a year – would go back if she could do math to save her life and wasn't too proud to ask for a tutor
>Used to want to be a lawyer or at least a paralegal, now directionless and working the same retail job since she was 16
>Can not maintain friendships to save her life, most friends are really just close with her girlfriend and tolerate her
>Was much more likable before her granddad died a few months back, has now become a depressed shut-in who barely talks to her roommate/coworker or girlfriend
>Incredibly awkward when talking to people now, brain working faster than mouth and spitting out the wrong words
>Should really find another therapist after her previous one quit practicing ~1 month after her dad passed and only told her so with one more session left – was doing a lot better back then
>Probably should try meds, terrified to because her main problem is BPD and that apparently can't be medicated
>Been using this site for years, proud of having been the vendetta anon to post Erin despite having secretly having a popular agere blog
>Moved in March, too depressed to really unpack or put things away
>Still dresses kinda goth/emo despite turning 22 in a couple weeks
No. 561444
>>561436>listens to brokencyde unironicallyWorst offense itt.
Anon why
No. 561452
>>561318kek anon, this made me laugh out loud
Honestly guys being a cow is not that fun, hopelessly insecure cowtippers message you on your SM for even the most minor offenses telling you to kill yourself/get raped. Who cares if it's on an imageboard but it sucks getting it over SM.
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welcome to my trainweck of a life pls no bully
>dealing with an abusive, narcissistic mother through her entire childhood puts her in a defensive mood 24/7
>never ever talks with people and always ghosts their messages, will freak out if someone does the same to her
>thinks she's worthy of ignoring people but if they ignore her then they're a bunch of cunts
>is actually quite good at holding a conversation but talks too much garbage which weirds people out so she sticks to shutting the fuck up
>very fucking secretive with everything in her life
>might have a little victim complex (thanks mom)
>also might have a superiority complex (again, thanks mom)
>used to call herself god, godlike, boost her ego around and say how she's better than everyone
>someone once called her out on this and told her she's a piece of shit and no einstein 2.0
>proceeded to have a breakdown
>tfw insecure as fuck and refuses to say stuff like that anymore but still has a big ego
>hanging around in toxic places during her teen years made her identify as a fakeboi for 3-4 years
>will never confess it but it was one of the best times of her life
>really fucked up ideas and fetishes
>had a boyfriend who used to cut his name into her thighs and put cigarettes out on them
>she let him because she used to romanticize abuse and think it's uwu so cute uwu
>has also a lot of old self harm scars all over her body all thanks to running a traumacore account when she was around 15-17
>would actively cut herself open for some aesthetic pictures
>never forgot to tag those pictures with #broken #traumacore #depression #lanadelrey #follow4follow
>is very ashamed of her scars now
>used to think she has bpd and also had a "fp"
>would obsess over him and fight with his nasty friends
>this one friend of his was into incest and would constantly ask him to roleplay incest with her, insist to be his "sister"
>tfw she has bad childhood memories related to incest
>ended up fighting with her when she found out about her kink and made that incest bitch cry
>"fp" ended up leaving her because of the drama she caused
>got a girlfriend
>gf cheated on her
>is_life_worth_living.jpg
>smoked weed once and acted like she did heroin
>acts like she's all tough but she's just all bark no bite
>cannot even argue with anyone because it reminds her of her childhood
>hypocritical as fuck
>will bash on people for doing (X) thing but she will also do the same
>hateboner for all the people who have wronged her
>will constantly stalk them and check on their blogs for whatever reason she doesn't even know
>extremely creepy and stalkerish when she finds the perfect person to obsess over
>once stalked this one tumblr mutual for half a year, saved all their blog links on web.archive, kept an entire folder dedicated to things she found about them, saved all their selfies, even had a file with all their social media and other accounts, managed to find out where they work and where they exactly live
>hasn't ever talked to the said mutual and the obsession is now gone so she ended up deleting everything
>feels no shame or regret over that
>feels no shame or regret over anything she does
>insists that she's no weeb but she is
>used to bash on fujos during her fakeboi phase but is now one herself
>will immediately assume that someone is copying her/the way she talks or types all thanks to this one bitch who copied her entire personality once
>is now paranoid as fuck
>insists that she hates people who fake an ED and complain about being fat while not working on their weight but she's the complete same
>but for some reason thinks she's different than them
>tfw isn't even fat but is your good old ana-chan (thanks mom)
>now she barely has any social media, doesn't talk to anyone, has zero online or IRL friends, just spends the majority of her time reading yaoi and going on imageboards to bask in the great feeling of anonymity
No. 561518
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I'm so glad to have grown up on forums, habbo hotel and shitty imageboards instead of social media, like you wouldn't believe.
Old
>ditched all her friends and their friend's friends in middleschool after some of them went through her bag without permission and read her edgy notebook/ventbook, is DEEPLY AFFECTED by it
>spent more of her last two years in senior high school skipping school than attending it
>only to take the same 5-something busrides and listen to music everytime she skipped
>prude, can't be sexual without feeling like shit because her mother had a meltdown at her once for watching porn as a kid and exposed that to the whole family
>catfished every online contact when being asked for pictures, had an internet bf who ended up being a catfishing girl too
>had another online bf who grows up to be a milder racist edgelord with an incel mindset, dumped her and made fun of her & racist jokes on her cost after she confessed to catfishing "to scare her away", still clinged to him and revived contact with him again and again for 7 years
>~traumatic csa twama~ that's isn't actually rape or abuse, but doctors and nurses mishandeling her when she needed to have her pee medically removed because dumbass 6yo her thought it was a good idea to hold it in as long as possible several times over the span of a week for some reason - which is now all a funny joke to her family "how it took 5 people to hold her down" and probably just a giant joke in general
>only close encounters irl with men post-childhood ended in her kicking them in the balls and apologizing for days after it, her getting hugged out of nowhere and autistically freezing up & tearing up or her yelling that she likes pussy (literally) to persistent flirting strangers
>spent most of her life denying she's a lesbian
>only ever had any remotely intimate experiences with women and enjoyed it, is indifferent to male bodies and was never able to imagine herself as a man's wife without cringing, self-inserts into men with great gfs and more
>wannarexic throughout her teens, and - surprise, surprise - ends up with actual anorexic tendencies, hate for eating and an even worse feeling for her body than before
>made an ana websites with ~OC content~ and reviews of shitty recipes, tips and mono diets, then fully deleted it when it became too popular because she couldn't handle to get in contact with more than 2 people
>made a pathetic suicide attempt at 15, stole a pack of regular sleeping pills from her best friend's mom, grinded them with the end of an umbrella and put them into her bologna, immediately puked it out afterwards and secretly visited a doctor during her schooltime because she was scared shitless she caused longtime damage to her intestines after a night of heavy googling
>became vegetarian for 2 years in hopes it gains her the right to prepare her own food again, ends up getting fed by mommy anyway and gaining 30 pounds
>used to be an EpIc hAxXoR because she was so butthurt and petty about paypal making shit decisions with her account and keeping her money, that she kept making fake accounts and used real ones to bring those fake accs into heavy negative balances on Paypal's cost
>shaved her whole head because she got fed up with her real hair and wore badly maintained lace wigs and normal wigs for about a year
Newer
>talks to her cats 24/7 and barely any actual humans
>hugs her dress form when in need of physical affection
>owns dolls, "jokingly" calls them her children but talks to them when alone and gets anxious when someone else wants to hold and handle them
>25yo virgin, still to chicken to get close to anyone
>still gets nervous breakdowns over eating one tiny thing too much and over feeling full, despite realising, after it passed, how stupid that is
>took a whole day to make a track out of a recording of her mother screaming at her "to cope", ends up deleting it anyway out of shame
>stalks her old friends and manages to find some of them despite them deleting and changing their handles 2-3 times, yet still too chicken to get in contact again
>doesn't get a therapist because she's afraid to get forced into medication that makes her fat or makes her dependent on it, afraid of ending up with bad therapists and afraid of having to invite her mother into it
>constantly shits on tumblr, twitter and facebook users on imageboards
>visits all 3 websites occasionally herself
>hardcore ~experimental~ j-fashion weeb, even wears it to sleep and is probably too autistic to admit she looks like an overgrown clown in it
>watches rotting food videos to calm down
>can't go a day without whining about how much she wants to move out and away from her controlling family, is still too poor for it, only recently got a barely above minimum wage job and probably has debt entries that will hinder her from getting a flat anyway
>only leaves her room for work or when she feels fat
>makes horrid 2deep4u music and drawings
To be fair, I only rarely really judge the cows I follow for obvious reasons.
No. 561529
>>561502naruhina and sasusaku. i ship sasunaru
>>561330>>561452>>561506>>561518you guys are cool
No. 561531
>>561529cool is the least thing i'd call myself
more like: absolutely pathetic
sasunaru is the best i am glad people like you exist No. 561544
>>561502>>561529>>561531Definitely sasusaku, 2014 was truly the peak.
Also fucking sasunaru, I spent literally all of middle school and sophomore year of highschool on that ship. I would literally write paragraphs about how their love was true love on Tumblr. (I also had a ask blog on Tumblr with horrendous art.
No. 561567
finally a thread for me
>NEET and highschool dropout
>blames failure on mysterious mental health issues
>is actually a lazy spoiled brat who is comfortable leeching off her parents
>romanticizes trailer lifestyle because she doesn't want to find a stable job and because she knows she couldn't ever buy a house with her spending habits
>hardly has any friends because few can tolerate someone that egotistical and annoying
>showers the only friends she has with gifts to condition them to like her, still ends up ghosting them because durr she's so superior and better than everyone
>thinks she's the smartest person on the planet because she watched philosophy crash course
>proper art cow/ocfag à la holly brown, the difference being holly sometimes finishes her projects
>super condescending to other artfags despite her art being dogshit
>scoffs at furry artists, draws torture porn
>wastes all money on deviantart adoptables
>created accounts pretending to steal her own art for negative attention and validation that her art isn't complete trash
>thought she was akshually a man because she doesn't like taking selfies
>went from being an ugly fakeboi to an ugly femcel in record two months
>was mad @ parents for not letting her buy a binder, doesn't even have titties
>stalked a chadlite fuckboy because he was the the first guy that acknowledged her existence and she decided they were soulmates, also because he looked like her animu hasubando
>scammed two people for $30 to buy a birthday present for said fuckboy
>never gave the present, never tried to return the money
>snuck creep shots of him that she hasn't deleted to this day
>fuckboy inevitably ghosted her after realizing she's too embarrassing to fuck, she continued to pester him for a month and had a bunch of retarted mental breakdowns over a relationship that never existed
>doesn't admit she's straight despite never having relationships with girls and thirsting after fictional men
>skinwalks fuckboy by attempting to copy his interests, vernacular, first language and musical taste
>envies lesbians, skinwalks several to a lesser extent
>still obsessed with homestuck and undertale but will call you immature for liking anime
No. 561579
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>literally autistic
>obsessed with weebshit and 2d boys
>goes on rants for hours about how great japan is
>cried while reading japanese history textbook 10 times and read it aloud to her friends
>almost all her friends treat her like retarded child that needs to be protected and looked after 24/7
>only friends with other girls, no male friends
>only into short men, spergs about how gross tall men are all the time
>says she hates men, spergs out about men, openly states all girls should become lesbians, has a manlet fiancé anyway
>says misandrist shit to her fiancé but flips out if he reacts negatively
>doesn't initiate most outings with her friends
>still gets salty and passive-aggressive if she isn't invited every time
>unironically idenitified as being shotacon while she was 15 because ~it was cool~
>gets passive-aggressive when people don't work as fast as she does
>has been lying about knowing how to cook for 9 years, and that she eats a v healthy diet
>in reality doesn't know how to fry an egg and the reason she is not fat is that she never makes food, and only eats one takeout meal every day
>literally female version of angry worthless weeb gamer fedora tipping 4channer
>gets incredibly angry when people don't share her anime taste, can spend 10 hours arguing with people on /a/ or anitwitter
>banned on /a/ more times than she can count, on all her devices for being a sperg
>saved 12k for leg shortening surgery because ~5'8 girls can't be kawaii and Japanese uwu~
>screams out Japanese phrases randomly
>only gets along with elderly ladies at work, intentionally ignores and is being passive-aggressive towards anyone else
>keeps putting off wedding because she is afraid of her fiancé finding out her weird autistic stimming habits
>unironically obsessed with cats
>has bpd ex she only started dating because he was insanely good-looking
>even though she knew he is a giant fuck-up, she still went surprised pikachu when he started treatening suicide, killing animals, cutting himself in front of her, etc.
>still kinda thinks about him because he looked like a 10/10 2d guy
Man, I feel like a such a fucking sperg. Basically everyone itt suffered unimaginable traumas, or at least their behaviour is somewhat excusable. Meanwhile I'm just a piece of shit and lolcow with no excuses lol.
No. 561585
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This is so fucking funny, good job OP.
>NEET
>constantly overshares about everything in her life to strangers on the internet
>currently leeching off of her weeb boyfriend
>fatty-chan who believes in "muh genetics" meme and has the same mentality as Amberlynn Reid
>makes little to no fucking effort to find a job
>makes fun of cosplayers, youtubers, celebrities etc. when she looks like pic related
>won't make a fucking effort to style her hair or apply makeup and half the time is seen walking around with no bra on (yuck!)
>gets into online fights daily
>whinges about her living situation but doesn't take any steps to changing it
>is always right no matter what evidence she's presented with, obviously
>tries to appear intelligent when she's as dumb as a bag of rocks
>100% lurks here, hi aggressive-fatty-neet-chan!
No. 561596
>>561585>>561585I feel so attacked right now
I'm basically the same anon
>my weeb bf calls me Moo No. 561620
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>Depressed suburban white girl.
>"xD quirky" personality that's probably due to undiagnosed ADHD.
>Executive dysfunction due to probable undiagnosed ADHD. Can barely set up appointments or do her own taxes without a meltdown.
>Extreme resentment towards her parents for emotional abuse throughout childhood, still lives with them and happily takes their money at 24.
>Almost dropped out of college multiple times. Only reason she didn't was because her parents had enough money to keep her going.
>Art degree from a state school.
>Extremely strong opinions and reactions to literally almost everything. Keeps most to herself because she's afraid of being called out.
>Makes fun of consoomers despite being a huge consoomer herself.
>Writes fanfiction and draws fanart all the time. Current fanfic is longer than any paper she wrote in college.
>Technically did not graduate after 6 years of college due to a 1 credit class and is making it up this summer.
>Used to have absolute breakdowns when boys rejected her. Would pine over certain guys for months afterwards.
>Used male validation as a basis for her self esteem.
>Spent literal MONTHS heartbroken over a NEET guy who didn't shower.
>Spent an entire summer not showering and sleeping 17 hours a day when a guy left her for another girl.
>Despite having a new boyfriend, still has feelings for an ex who broke her heart twice and who is also a witch now.
>Cares about new boyfriend but is too afraid to admit that they don't have a future together.
>Despises having to bend over backwards for customers at her retail job but does it anyways because of overcompensation from trying to please parents in childhood.
>Simultaneously incredibly passive aggressive towards customers because everything bugs her.
>Talks about herself all the time; only way she can relate to people's problems is if she talks about her own experiences.
>Former Disney Girl™
>Extremely horny for random youtubers and 80's celebrities.
>Almost certain she's bi but has never done anything with a girl.
>Wants to get into the animation industry but has no idea how to form a portfolio, or any original ideas for that matter.
>Maladaptive daydreamer that spends a majority of her time imagining scenarios that will never happen.
>Typing all of this out at work because fuck it.
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>post yfw you're seeing yourself in all these posts
No. 561626
>nearly 25-year-old kissless virgin with no friends
>gained 90lbs, always fails diets, still blames it on muh ed from 9 years ago instead of nighly binge eating
>ages like Venus, nearly as bad hygiene, no sleep
>super lazy, still not finished university, lives at her parents, they pay for nearly everything
>self-diagnosed anxiety, depression, ocd and possibly autism
>whines about family (or other stuff) online but is too much of a chicken to confront them irl
>went from sjw fakeboi admirer to anti-sjw borderline racist pickme, to radfem, to nothing (or a bit of everything?) all while already above 20
>always copies others, even friends, no opinions of her own
>notorious liar
>constantly fights with people on the internet but takes it way too personally
>got banned from extremely niche discord, has rather popular tumblr account and all other people with that same interest hate her too (because she just can't shut up)
>shittalks things she secretly likes, e.g. kpop or weeb stuff despite being a fushoji herself, also massive yellow fever
>triggered by girls who are shorter, thinner, younger looking, with smaller tits than her
>hates neets because she's jealous that they have boyfriends and get to stay at home
>loves when she gets carded because obsessed with youth + can't stop talking about the ~5 times a man has hit on her, because that's at least some male attention
>posts on lc 24/7, made many threads, used to frequently samefag (while making the same esl mistakes) to try and get people to agree with her because she had no idea what an ip address is
Basically like an obnoxious teen boy with an idenity crisis in a bitter fat hag body. The only progress I made is to stop watching porn and no longer browsing 4chan and kf. And my only positive points are that I'm at least trying to get an education/job, plus me being so ugly stopped me from getting in relationships and getting hurt by men.
I'm one of those cows you just absolutely hate but also there's not much milk because nothing exciting happens in my life. Sometimes I'm paranoid that one day mods just decide to doxx me because I'm so doddamn annoying but the only thing you could find about me on social media is pictures from 3+ years ago in which old friends tagged me on facebook. I guess (or hope) that there's still much, much worse people on here lol
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>be me
>average looking with good skin, but knows how to put on makeup for own face and can dress own body properly
>17k followers on ig for my selfies and cosplays, it does make me feel validated and pretty
>also shitty fanfic writer, digital artist, and dancer but I know that’s not why ppl follow me
>secretly not secretly desperate for love and understanding
>went through a ~toxic~ breakup
>an ig orbiter picks up on this (through my many vague sadposts which I made to get attention) and reaches out to me
>my ig orbiter for years, he was always supportive and engaging with my posts and stories so I sorta got to know him
>handsome in the same way most Amerimutt men are, broad shoulders and straight nose, pretty hazel eye colour
>shit posture, sense of style, and hygiene though
>I end up crushing for him and sending him nudes because he was ~so nice and understanding~
>I used to browse r9k so I was aware but skeptical of the whole “soyboy feminist orbiters are just attempting to blend in with women to get laid” belief
>turns out to be all true
>he wasn’t fat or had a neckbeard, but
>he secretly a huge misogynist, thought women needed to be put in their place and that lesbians just needed “the right man”
>yet was also a cuckhold. I can’t make this shit up
>didn’t take long for the nice guy act to end
>bLoCkEd AnD deleeeted
>the orbiter who got away
>kinda heartbroken, resumes vague sadposting
Side milk:
>also highly anxious
>nearly failed uni a few times for my in-school panic attacks
>happens nearly every semester and I NEVER learn
No. 561677
>>561319Alright I'm not usually someone who shares their life online but for milk's sake I'll tell you how it happened
This friend is a co-host of a youtube channel centered on a certain hobbie. I watched this channel for a while, and they were my favorite commentator. As a background, something very personal happened in my life (a convoluted heartbreak) and that made me go a bit nuts quite frankly. Can't say I am the most mentally stable person.
Then, in their channel, they uploaded a video. I saw this person's appearance for the first time, and I felt something weird for them. Like, I wanted to know more about them, and I felt something else entirely that I wasn't sure what it was.
Turned out to be I had a big fucking crush on someone from youtube lol. And of course they didn't know me.
So, I searched them out, they had a link on their personal channel that gave me more links, and then one of those links gave me a full name. I came across many accounts. And soon enough I learned… quite a lot about them. Including their irl job. God, I was really fucking creepy lol.
I obsessed about them for a while. I have never, ever obsessed over anyone this hard in my life.
Then, I took it even further.
I contacted them on social media. Out of the blue. Just like that. They do receive a lot of random messages, but I took more steps.
In the span of some months, after some talking, we became friends. Then good friends. Then we got really personal. Then we got… very, very personal. I hope you understand what I'm implying.
In the end, now I we have become very close friends who appreciate each other a lot, and I know more about them than before, but in a healthy way. Youtubers are people too after all, and we happen to have a lot of things in common. They accepted me into their life because I genuinely care about them and what they have to say always. I'm not just a spectator, but someone part of their life, and for them I'm super grateful.
…Silver lining? We actually want to meet each other irl. And do stuff. They might visit me after covid shit is over.
No. 561683
>>561677samefag, but
tl;dr: creepy obsessive stalker convinces a youtuber to be friends and then get sexual together
No. 561687
>>561620I wish I could meet you anon, this is like I could’ve written it— minus the parents giving me money part kek
Also, great thread OP
No. 561752
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>mfw I start describing myself and realize that my shitty life isn't even shitty in an interesting way.
No. 561806
>>561714It's not milky to have a mental illness but a lot of cow behavior is extremely exacerbated by not being all there. A lot of my most milky moments were when I was extremely unwell.
Also you gotta set the stage a little when anonymously presenting yourself lol.
No. 561853
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>>561591let the milk flow (this is my first time telling this story, kind of therapeutic)
both my parents work, making it easy to assess their schedule. i could trace their phones so i was able to determine when they were on their way home. it allowed me to sneak him in and out, even if i wasn't there. i also had control over the security system and cameras so i was able to redirect them during entry/exit. my folks never came into my room and didn't question me bringing snacks and stuff in there since i did that anyway.
this goes without saying that it was (is) ~traumatic~ because i had been groomed so much that i did what i did. should have known better, and i largely choose to forget it happened because it's too disturbing in retrospect
No. 561889
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~Snowflake~
>depending on parents at age 32
>several skin deseases left untreated for yrs because too ashamed to see professional
>femcel
>takes twice as long for degree because no immediate gratification = no motivation to study
>ghosted therapist because upcoming topics tOo hAwD rAtHeR nOt cHaNgE aNyThInG
>flat looks like a hoarder's place
>sometimes smells like one, too because can't be fucked to take out trash and take care of mould
>fell madly in love and the guy even showed interest - refused him as she is unworthy of him because see above
>thinks of him everyday for yrs but instead of working on herself…
>sleeps in and surfs the internetz for at least 4 hrs/day
>obsessed with fat lolcows because WeLLL aT LeAsT aaaiii AM nOt fAt uwu
>all because of mUh MeNtAlS obviously, no trauma, just sooper vulnerable sensitive snowflake
No. 562178
>is a poorfag now, but if you dig far enough back, you'll find out she was born pretty middle class, and that her granddad was a small town tobacco industry richfag.
>it's easier to name relatives who don't have drug and alcohol problems.
>CSA survivor, but it happened so young, the only reason she knows is because her older brother could remember the same happening to him.
>dad literally necked himself.
>dropped out of high school.
>been on anti-depressants since she was 10.
>was one of the "smelly kids" in middle school because she'd go without showering for so long.
>lives like a hoarder, always has.
>made out with a 40 year old man at 19.
>can count how many times she's had sex on one hand.
>been in two relationships, they imploded because both sides were retarded. The fact that she is terrible at intimacy and affection probably doesn't help.
>busted for weed in early 20s, did a year probation.
>NEET
>partially wants to work, to have money coming in, but partially doesn't want to work because shitposting on the internet all day is more fun.
>has used actual emotionally manipulative behavior on people in fandoms who are almost ten years younger than her.
>stalked multiple personal cows, usually because something about them both pissed her off and made her jealous.
>probably partially contributed to at least one Discord fandom group shutting down.
>follows people for political shit on Twitter, but is half the time too afraid to speak up with them, feels appropriately guilty and cowardly.
>looks at cartoon porn and doesn't care who knows it.
>mental breakdown in 2019.
>became 70 pounds overweight for a while.
>miraculously hasn't become an alcoholic, not for lack of trying.
>lives with an alcoholic relative, who is a constant asshole and never pays bills like they should.
>no drivers license, can't drive worth a shit.
>older than she'd like to admit because of all this shit.
No. 562839
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>had a very cringy anti feminist reactionary phase not too long ago
>used to run a short-lived proana blog
>posted in a fujoshit community and drew bara traced from porn images
>sensitive as hell and gets triggered easily
>manipulated her ex boyfriend because she wanted to larp as a bad bitch to hide the fact that she's actually a loser with few friends
>shit social skills, awkward as hell around people which results in embarrassing moments all over
>unstable, yells like an autistic demon at her parents when triggered
>used to have really bad hygiene and showered rarely
>facetunes herself to the point of catfishing
Moo moo my sisters
No. 563442
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>deranged half-asian too autistic for r/hapas
>self-hating southeast asian who larps as east asian to be more attractive
>obsessed with race and talks about how much she hates white people despite being half white
>overshared TMI details about dating and having sex older men while a minor
>fucked over 40 different guys by her 18th birthday
>serial cheater
>posts nudes for free on reddit for easy validation
>brags about being hot and desirable but is actually a friendless loser irl
>had an edgelord redpilled phase
>used to eat rocks and sticks and garbage in middle school for attention
>rarely seen leaving the house she's going to hook up with some guy
>spends almost the entire day on the internet
No. 563716
>proana phase, lost 3kg and got bored
>totally faked her ed even though shes still obsessed with calories and starves herself when she even comes close to having a normal bmi
>still makes fun of people on the proana thread on /snow/
>has no personality, acts the same as the person she is currently hanging out with
>self hating half black
>had a "yeah im based and redpilled trad wife" phase
>lurks /r9k/ and /pol/
>4 diagnosed disorders, completely in denial over the fact that these rule her life
>currently trying to get a diagnosis for the fifth one
>is 100% certain that everyone in her life is a paid actor
>the people on the television talk to her sometimes
>sees everything as a sign
>has had meltdowns over the fact that someone installed a camera in her room and is currently watching her through her phone camera
>convinced that there is a secret site on the dark web where people make fun of other people, they found her while hacking webcams and she has become their lolcow because of all the retarded shit she does
>signed a petition against pornhub, was a porn addicted coomer when they were 12 and still is to this day
>made several friends and lost them all in the span of a month because she is to scared to talk to them
>still depressed about the fact that she only has 4 friends
>had a personal cow
>thought about making a snow thread, would never actually do it because shes so paranoid about posting anything online
>her phone breaks and she absolutely looses her shit, 100% convinced that this is a sign and starts praying for a solid 30 minutes for forgiveness and never looks at said cows account again
>has a friend who is a charicature of a "toxic" friend, expects everyone to bend over backwards for her but will refuse to help anybody else, sometimes even making fun of their problems
>"no you dont understand shes really nice she occasionally acts mean but shes a really good friend! im pretty sure im the problem here you guys shes really nice ok!!!"
>acts insanely similair to said friend, just doesnt say it out loud
>terf
>had dysphoria since she was 11
>wears binder every day
>addicted to caffeine and shopping, buys the most useless shit on impulse and is sure this new thing will fix all of her problems
>has done absolutely nothing during the the lockdown, except getting, no joke, nine 1s because she makes no assignments and doesnt attend class
>embarassingly long list of fetishes
>furry
>unironically likes cringy tumblr traumacore shit
>grew up extremely privelleged, has both parents and has no trauma whatsoever
>except that time she got molested but that totally doesnt count because it only happend twice and she barely remembers it
>obsessed with shit made for kids, constantly buys games that are made for literal toddlers and will play them for hours
>has no talent or hobbies because she drops any new interest instantly
>sometimes wants to be a lolcow so atleast someone can get enjoyment from her existence
>wants to be a trad housewaifu with 3 kids and a loving husband, knows this will never become a reality because all of her kids will turn out just as fucked as her
>to socially retarded to even post stuff on anonymous boards
shes so retarded lol
No. 563798
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i stayed with a man who psychologically tortured me, gaslit me with his ex girlfriend, accepted nudes from this ex girlfriend, and then, when it finally all fell apart, published a series of humiliating posts on facebook detailing all my mistakes (mistakes meaning crying and clinging to him when he said mean sutff eg stupid, annoying, not good enough) and also said that i was obsessed with and jealous of his ex girlfriend, for mentioning that i found it unacceptable that she sent him ass pics and pictures of them kissing from 2016.
ironically, his ex also started making her own posts about how im a crazy BPD abuser etc etc and sent me the following message on facebook before blocking me. (this was in response to an apology)
anyway, im a fuckin retard and i have never suffered so much in my life. i wish i had the courage to kill myself
No. 563819
>>563798I'm sorry anon, but don't kill yourself. Take the time to recover and learn from this mistake, the good part is you'll never have to suffer this emotional rollercoaster again and now he's some other bitch's problem.
Tbh this girl sounds like she's in denial about what a shitty guy he is.
>The way Josh treats you isn't normal for him.So she admits he treated you abhorrently but you're supposed to dismiss it because he treated her so well? Stupid bitch.
>physical violence like smashing your phone and calling the cops on you is what you get for him thinking you're being emotionally manipulative!Cope for a violent man, this woman is a pickme.
>When I was 15 I was violent too!See? They're a match made it heaven, let them massacre each other. Don't even believe her saying that they never argued and fought because I can guarantee that's 100% bullshit.
But anyways anon, you do need to leave these people and never look back. Block them if you have to.
No. 563878
>>563819Right?
This message is such an enormous telling on herself for me. I didn't realise it at the time but her perception of reality is really, really just… amazing.
No. 565590
>>565587The third quote in
>>565582is from my dad. I tried running my own instance of YaCy and building my own index, which unsurprisingly gives a lot of relevant results to my interests. Obvious bias as to how I'm steering the web crawler; but it's also shocking how much authority a search engine operator has and how much can be gamed. For example, if I tweaked the search engine to prefer older pages, I get stuff like documentation, but if I tweaked it to prefer new pages, I get magazines and mainstream news.
But it's really not great to run on my old toaster and I should get a proper server rack for it.
No. 565605
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>>565588How software looks is essentially the lowest on my list of priorities when it comes to stuff like memory usage and performance honestly. Before I could buy own pc components turning off Windows 7's Aero glass meant frame rate improvements, so my choices just look pragmatic. I'm not a fan of the flat color + easter egg colored icons + rounded rectangles look.
My shit is so basic I just put a wallpaper and set transparency.
No. 565621
>>565611Is KF bf really that nice anon? Every guy i've seen posting here sounds absolutely nuts lol.
Im glad you lucked out.
No. 565733
>>565635I assume she probably never found one that properly fit her hence not knowing her size
And if you say you know your size I assume you probably incorrectly sized yourself
No. 566582
>>566077Haha. The only reason I say closeted is I don’t know how to explore my feelings and have only dated men. I can’t decide whether I want to be her or fuck her, you know what I mean?
Already been there with weed, sometimes I smoke it but it makes me too anxious and paranoid, I end up thinking about my cat and crying hoping he’s happy and worrying about if he’s bored or stressed and I can’t tell. I’d rather just do stims and drink. No sex drive for like 3 years and I’m almost 30.
I’ll add more to keep contributing
>angry lefty >constantly justifies posting on lolcow while simultaneously thinking it’s really hurtful and harmful>addicted to celebrity drama>took a bunch of money out of a CD and am trying to sneakily replenish it>former bulimic>never contacts friends but always worries if they hate her for it >yells at birds>had an abortion and will never tell >has egotistical fantasies about being influential dogooder >would rather post on lolcow than make moms birthday card>squanders art degree and still has parents helping with loans No. 566815
>>566648It's feels very ironic when lefties hangs in there and laugh at cows just as much as us.
Like it's actually funny to me to see them trying to reconcile their views with the shit they're actually doing.
Love you lefty anons but you're real hypocrites that don't actually like their safe spaces and want to be catty bitches as much as anyone. Just admit it, you'll feel better.
No. 566884
>>566815I mean with the absolute state of the left I don't even identify with that side of politics at this point. I don't feel bad about what I post on this site honestly.
The most ironic thing about lolcow are all the radfem-types who put women as a whole on a pedestal yet trash women who don't fit into their agenda at the same time.
No. 567009
>>566996Bitch I'm
>>566989 and are u me
I wish the best for you
No. 567527
>>567443>currently laid off and considering new career paths. accepting all suggestions from anonsIt's a shame that your company didn't offer you the opportunity to switch to the ATO or reservations. At least it would have kept you in your industry unless you work for a certain airline that filed for bankruptcy recently.
I was gonna say how you seem attractive enough to make a killing working at a bar or some kind of hostess industry in the meantime, but covid lel. Sorry anon I got nothing, but good luck to you.
No. 567965
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>>be that quiet nerdy girl growing up
>>have a emo and scene phase in high school
>>things are ok for awhile, until they're not
>>father gets murdered when you are 17 by some dumb bitch after your parents separate
>>as an older teen you start to remember bits and pieces of being raped as a child
>>decide to move far away from it all
>>end up addicted to painkillers and dating an abusive man just before you leave
>>he follows you to your new city and makes sure you don't get clean
>>drop out of college because its impossible to go to school and stay high
>>scam thousands out of the government to afford your junkie lifestyle
>>steal from anyone and everyone when you have the opportunity
>>make your mom fund your heroin habit without her knowing
>>OD on xanax laced with fentanyl in public, wake up in the hospital many hours later
>>break in to your pill dealers apartment when they dont answer
>>they are asleep and you decide to steal their pills
>>they wake up when someone else knocks and you almost get caught
>>get arrested in a different incident along with a different drug dealer just as theyre handing the pills to you
>>"i-i dont have a doctor, i neeeed them!"
>>the cops actually decide to let you go with no charge and your money back
>>cue yourself going to buy more drugs as soon as they release you lol
>>steal a quarter from an ex dealer when hes fucked up and justify it to yourself by thinking he didnt need any more drugs anyway, he was out of his mind on benzoes
>>get into benzoes for a few months yourself
>>cue uncontrollable stealing from every store you go into
>>at one store, you try to walk out with your jacket so stuffed with clothes that they are just falling out
>>get caught, friend ends up paying for everything
>>dabble in other drugs, such as crack, coke, ghb
>>wipe out on your first time doing ghb and scare friend who desperately tries to wake you
>>she calls 911 & they place an oxygen mask on you to wake you up
>>proceed to try to make out with the emt as you think youre in a porno until you see their uniforms and slowly realize what happened…
>>i was CONFUSED ok?
>>scam banks by cashing old cheques
>>generally just be a shit
>>years go by like this, occasionally hopping from city to city but always coming back
its been a crazy few years for me, but thankfully im clean now! its been almost 2 years since i quit the "lifestyle" i had and the daily use of heroin. im not "sober" in the traditional sense but that was never my goal anyway. ill use coke or mdma for a night out a few times a year and i drink alcohol daily… like 2 beers a day. i dont regret anything, the scope of experiences ive had, the fun along the way, the lessons learned were worth it.
No. 567981
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old milk
>11 years old and became depressed/anxious
>became sucidal
>skipped most classes
>would have meltdown if i was forced to go to school
>realize i am bi
>over eat constantly because of mental illness
>mom doesnt care about me
>get very bad grades
>become obese
>get acne
>doesnt like showering
>only spends time playing stupid video games
new milk
>still very obese (221 lbs)
>still have acne but not as bad
>diagnosed with pcos
>her mom makes her feel awful everyday
>has plans how to move out but wont be able to until she finishes her education
>wants to starve herself to lose weight
>have an extreme dislike of people and thinks everyone has malicious intent
>maldaptive day dreams
>has had no gf or bf
>each time she was close to having one she was either used or rejected
>extremely lonley
>despite it all she's still trying to have a better life
No. 569038
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she looks like pic related
>Pretended to be retarded in middle school and was so universally mocked for it she had to switch schools
>In high school tried to be Normal, but people still talked about the insane behavior she did in middle school
>Extremely ugly (very bad bone structure) thought she could fix it by learning makeup, wasted lots of time and money trying to act like a stacy
>Senior year of high school had a crush on a freshman cheerleader girl who she sat next to in class. Creepy age gap (18 vs 14), however her crush was very nice to her and said she was the funniest person ever, waved to her from the school bus one time
>actually started thinking maybe she isn't a loser, like a loser
>Goes off to college, visits old HS friend. Friend's little sister turns out to be friends with old crush, who is also over to hang out
>"omg (Crush's name) it's been so long how are you?"
>crush deadass cannot remember who the hell she is, even after she tries to jog her memory
>wants to kill herself out of embarrassment
>Eventually loses contact with all old HS friends while simultaneously making no new friends in college, like actually zero. Now is about to graduate and never made a single friend. Only people she can talk to for fun are her parents
>Can't get interested in any mainstream shows, movies, or music, so cannot talk to people about anything
>Listens exclusively to vocaloid, nothing else. In fact, refuses to listen to anything else after a bad experience getting obsessed with a real singer in high school who turned out to be a very bad dude
>Can't tell anyone about music taste. Has to pretend she doesn't like any music.
>Thinks she's a genius, like actually, despite not being able to do chem and misreading almost every social cue thrown at her
>Has been told by random people her whole life she gives off weird vibes, but cannot figure out what is causing said vibes.
>despite being a huge weirdo herself, she hates other weirdos. Despises other weirdos. Will not interact with any weirdos. Looks down on everyone she meets and wonders why she has no friends.
No. 569058
>>569051I am so sorry, anon. Fuck that woman. I am dealing with the same thing as you, in some ways, I got molested as a child for some years by an older man with a good reputation in the neighbourhood and every man I've felt I've allowed to be close to me has been so similiar to him and also I leave them way too soon. It sucks feeling like I'll never have a healthy relationship.
Stay strong anon, ily
No. 569061
>>569051Oh god molested by sister gang is literal hell. Started when I was 8… I legitimately was terrified of intimacy with women after for so long, couldn't believe we were both gay, thought it was half my fault for ages…
She's dating somebody a lot like me now, too. It's rough out here, anon, but all we can really do is try to look past similarities between our abusers and partners- if it's of some comfort, people tend to be cut from the same cloth pretty often without actually being the same as each other- and look for someone who's just genuinely kind, loving and cares about our agency first and foremost. The thing that your abuser will always lack is the ability to truly give a shit about others' well being, so if you pick up someone who can, you should be ok, even if it's gross to think of passing similarities between them. Things like being taller or dark haired or having a certain type of nose are surface level, but really having a good heart is most important.
You have a heart too, so don't be afraid to listen to it and b gentle with yourself. It's easier to let kindness and intimacy in if you've primed yourself with a little love first… Even if you can't fully love yourself, cut yourself a break and try to understand the way you are more thoroughly. I had a lot of trouble with intimacy, feeling emotions, letting myself be open until I introspected for a long while, and now I've been loved for almost 5 years now and understand my own heart like the back of my hand. It really helps for both guiding your actions/thoughts on a good path and protecting you from people who want to exploit your hurt.
Sorry about the longpost, but I've been in those exact shoes before and, well… You're not a piece of shit, it's normal-ish, natural, and there are ways out into a better self image! Can't change the past, but the future is yours to make what you want… just give yourself the kindness you were denied and things will be better someday.
No. 569379
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Wew…here goes. I'm gonna try and keep it milky, not bio
>Ex-emo/scene girl turned goth
>Went through hardcore political extremist phases, starting with alt-right and going into fascism then Ted K eco-fascism
>Banned off twitter through multiple accounts, in the midst of people being doxxed left and right, joined comicsgate and a few other loser movements
>Got found out by abusive ex when he posted all the pages she liked on her social media
>Had to go dark for a year, delete everything
>Came back to join an edgy discord, got into feud with the mods and lost friends
>ducked out of using social media as a way to meet people, sticks with IRL friends now
>Still has edgy beliefs, but it's more terf and radfem now
No. 569405
>>569038Was gonna say you sound like someone I'd enjoy being pals with if we knew each other irl, but then read the last point.
Lack of weirdo solidarity is truly the only negative. Maybe the age gap thing, too.
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>is an autist
>her only "romantic" relationship was online
>total femcel
>fat and ugly
>hates other fat women
>hates the "fat acceptance" movement (aka landwhales making excuses to stay fat)
>secret terf
>Thinks JK Rowling is right and publicly supports her on twitter
>bosses everyone around
>super meticulous about how things should be done and if they aren't done that way throws a fit
>gets angry easily
>sees every argument like a court case or something she must win
>is super distrustful of others even of people she has known for years
>total bitch
>hates everyone around her
>big sister left so she is now in charge of the family business
>use to be a cutter
>use to be bulimic
>attempted suicide a few times (going to the ER three times)
>parents sent her to the most expensive schools ended up studying some shit degree
>2 years later the school stopped offering that shit degree due to low demand and low job opportunities
>she secretly hates her brother and wants him to leave as well
>brother is a schizo piece of shit cow himself
>will do what it takes to make someone's life a living hell
>super vengeful and petty, if someone crosses her she will never forgive them until the end of time
>total hypocrite at times
>use to have friends but they all left because she never even attempted to connect with them
No. 569807
>>561095>the typical overweight child in weird clothes who doesn't talk to anyone and gets bullied, with an alcoholic dad and doormat mom>social anxiety, no self esteem, depression yada yada>basically no life from puberty on, stopped going to school >developed an ED as a teen with periods of relapse until mid 20's and no one knows>met first boyfriend on the internet at 17, thought he was ugly but desperately clinged onto the relationship for about 5 years despite him being a cringey narcissistic edgelord and neoliberal>managed to get a life and some friends as an adult, a better boyfriend and started university>took an embarrassingly long time to finish university because mental health uwu, still has to write one last paper since last summer and hasn't even started, so the last year was a NEET lifestyle in disguise full of lies and still no master's>likes to shit on boyfriend over minor things and housework while being a lazy hypocritical fuck>developed a drug habit at 22 (mainly ampethamines) to make up for lack of teenage years and felt badass for it, started taking drugs again at 30 but less often and doesn't want to stop, hides it from anti-drug friend because coward>engaging in misogynistic cattiness with said friend which goes against personal beliefs>generally tends to hide stuff so now she can't make some of her friends meet because her lies could come out and everything could fall apart>constantly worried that some friends don't like her enough to hang out more so she sticks to the two friends she's not worried about despite wanting to get closer with the others (this has been going on for like 8 years with no improvement)>secretly despises her best friends for certain things which sometimes leads to passive aggressiveness or shit talking behind their backs>spends too much time online>was happy about the quarantine because now she could live in isolation without being questioned>sometimes doesn't leave the house for days>feels strong personal connection with twitter friends she barely knows and thinks about them a lot and is too scared to talk to them more, feels like a creep for it>ghosted a literal anonymous discord with online friends because muh anxiety and "they all secretly hate me", deeply regretted it>has strong opinions about things like politics and feminism but barely ever expresses them, even online because of being a paranoid mess>recently conflicted about transphobic thoughts and starting to sympathize with terf beliefs since the J K Rowling thing>buys games she never plays No. 571047
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>>563442Kek reminds me of pic related anon
>>567443I'd dump my mediocre bf for you. Mfw no pretty textbook mean girl to have a
toxic relationship with
No. 571065
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posting this here but she is definitely /pt/ material, what a fucking cow
>literally autistic
>really into art but no talent or progress ever
>falls in love with any man that treats her well, and manipulates the shit out of them
>been telling everyone that shes an innocent virgin girl when she had a full blown club thot phase while living overseas for a year
>'no, i never kissed anyone actually haha. i'm a virgin still. i never even been to a club or used any drug, guess i'm lame haha' are commonly heard lies from this cow, and those couldn't be further from the truth
>tells men that she is really socially awkward and has no friends, uses the autism diagnosis to back it up, makes them feel bad for her even though her social life is doing well and she can do just fine socially
>pretend shes really nice and friendly but will absolutely talk shit about you and be very mean
>cant change her snake ways even though she tried
>is the creator of inner circles and shit talking channels in all servers she joins
>people just think its a harmless interest in gossip because uwu shes so innocent and shes autistic guysss
>been getting into e-relationships online since 2013 and always stops talking to them after a year at most, but comes back to them after a few years just to get some attention and then leave them again
>maintained e-relationships while dating irl with dudes overseas that she didnt even tell her mum about
>talking about mum, holy shit, this bitch is spoiled as fuck
>never pays for anything because mum will always cover it up
>wouldn't have gotten anywhere without nepotism, including job, uni and the place she lives
What a snake, fuck her and her nasolabial folds
No. 571222
>>567443Damn you sound like the girl I wouldnt mind be bullied to. Bully me pls queen! call me a fat and ugly lesbian I dont mind! I'll give you my money! seriously you're like an IRL regina George.
/thrist
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>>571103holy shit im not alone
bless u anon, were both filthy liars
No. 571278
>>571277I skipped all of my exams and also went MIA suicidal mode while not replying to any of my professors. I got a few emails of them trying to assist me but I ignored them.
I am sure you are correct in that they would have let me retake them or reschedule but I cut off all communication with my school for months.
No. 571284
>>571278Sucks for you. If you put the minimum of effort you could have gone back. Actually tbh my parents wrote them some basic things and they let me back easy. Elite private schools generally like to pamper their students.
Also another thing is that Ivy Leagues dont' give out scholarships generally.Everyone is on financial aid only pretty much and its pretty generous. I lost some scholarships when I had to take time off of my university but they take scholarships away from your FA so it didn't really make a difference. Most elite universities with good FA are like this.
So many Americans think any random private school is an ivy league lmao. OT but at least my college never gets mistake for an Ivy. We're just the Harvard of the South lmao
No. 571287
>>571284I'm aware of this now. I wasted a huge opportunity as well. I was an international student and it was my only ticket to a better future out of my third world shithole country(I'm stuck here now).
Anyway. Don't fuck up your life like I did, anon. I could be making at least thrice what I make now and be living in some comfy, modern apartment.
No. 571319
>>571284>Harvard of the SouthSo I can think of 3 that people have said. Vanderbilt, Tulane, Rice
>>571287Was it Brown? If it actually was an Ivy League.
No. 571461
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>has clingy, overbearing mother
>father is extremely passive aggressive and she looks like the female version of him
>both of them divorced when she was nine
>skeletal (but skinny fat) but taller than average
>unfortunate facial features and a terribly placed birthmark
>obsessed with getting plastic surgery, wears a face of makeup even just to go to the grocery store
>was bullied in elementary school for being the weird girl, got picked on by both of her groups of friends, bullied another weird girl because she thought she was somehow superior
>wanted to rename her megatron bc she was obsessed with OG transformers, starscream was the ideal husbando
>created an art contest at school with the help of her friends because she knew she would win. she did
>became addicted to the internet at a young age, constantly browsed deviantart to make fun of terrible artists (that she was on the same level as)
>sent hate anons to mutuals on tumblr
>continues school, gets horrible grades simply because she does not care and refuses to do the work
>constantly lie and cheat on tests because teachers give her leniency bc of her ADHD
>has no friends, except for two younger girls obsessed with video games, still treats them like shit anyways
>spends any money she gets immediately on stupid shit, like corsets that she somehow will think makes her hotter (it won’t)
>owned a sans the skeleton body pillow and then gave it away to a friend because the game got too popular
>extreme contrarian, leftist in theory but hates any type of identity politics
> internalized misogynist and honestly isn’t even feeling bad for most of the women’s shitty relationships in this thread
>gained popularity in the true crime community on tumblr because she made fun of the hybristophiles despite being one herself
>this gave her an extreme femdom fetish for torturing evil men. just this year became obsessed with one of the worst men that walked the earth and couldn’t stop talking about how much he wanted to peg him
>listens to the same five songs on repeat and daydreams her alternate universe where she is famous for various reasons, usually in the past
>her husbando is a guy who died 20 years before she was born, an overweight drug addicted asshole. still in love with him anyways and collects anything about him
>autistically is writing a nonsensical novel right now with a guy who isn’t even interested in her
i’m a clown AMA
No. 571637
welcome to my circus yall
>csa victim, start cutting at 10 years old
>both parents use drugs, crazy and fight constantly
>dad weird as hell, accuses everyone else's dad of being a pedo
>turns out dad is the pedo
>tried to come out at 14, parents ban spending time with secret gf in response
>pretend to be a boy online for a month to flirt with girls she knows from school
>shit gets too real
>says that boy killed himself because at 14 that seemed like a good and easy solution
>police, parents, and school get involved, refuse to speak about it
>relationships strained with everyone afterwards, very disliked
>start doing drugs
>has sex with and then dates a boy she doesn't even like so her mom stops having breakdowns about her being gay
>drink cough syrup constantly, use psychedelics all the time, loves cocaine
>thinks she's got self inflicted brain damage now
>pine for girl who is obviously leading her on, get pimped out at 16 by her while super fucked up
>more upset about girl cutting off contact afterwards than anything else
>2 failed suicide attempts in 2 weeks, spend a month in a crisis center
>runs away from home but gets arrested in another state for it and sent to juvie, parents have to come get her
>mom cheats and parents divorce
>drops out of HS and gets GED instead, kicked out at 17
>become stripper as soon as possible to escape minimum wage hell
>no self esteem, customers comment on scars but keep cutting anyway
>estranged from entire family
>no regard for personal safety, gets drunk and walks around alone all night several times a week
>gets into arguments with total strangers in public often
>whines all the time about being a useless drug addict and whore to only friend, but makes zero effort to change
>spent like an entire decade high
>turn 24, decide to go to college since she can get free money for it now
>quit strip clubs and camming to serve in restaurants, become borderline alcoholic
>fail community college classes like public speaking twice because panic attacks when trying to talk about herself
>starts studying cs because friend suggested it and she wasn't doing shit anyway
>discover autistic interest in computer networks and security
>friendship with drugs over, now computer is best friend
>still retarded from abusing them though
>much older than classmates and nothing in common
>terrified of old camshows being discovered
>goes to therapy and takes meds for smorgasbord of trauma because again her only friend suggested it
>still day dreaming about dying
>still unsure if lesbian or bisexual
i'm still a clown, but a little bit less so than before
No. 571728
>traumatizing childhood that later leads to multiple mental illnesses
>overdiagnosed
>first tried to commit suicide at age 9
>started cutting age 11
>put on medications at a v young age that probably weren't made for kids
>problematic parents
>humorous but capable of being caustic father, workaholic, only around on and off again
>exceedingly overemotional bpdfag mother prone to horrible emotional, psychological, and physical abuse
>raised to feel inferior and retarded
>raised to believe emotion is bad while dealing with emotionally abusive family members
>parents always fighting
>compared to my younger sister constantly
>parents divorce in my early teens
>over money problems
>they're horribly irresponsible with money and in general
>bullied at school, abused at home
>dont really realize what's happening to me at all but i hate it
>mom has a stroke shortly after divorce is filed
>mom has multiple abusive psychopath boyfriends after divorce that steal from her and take advantage of her being near handicapped
>dont know what the fuck to do
>she becomes even more abusive as time goes on, maybe it's the brain damage
>instances where she falsely calls the cops on me and threatens to get me arrested multiple times for fights that she started
>publicly humiliates me by having cops pretend to "arrest me"
>tries to choke me
>when i'm almost legal i move out and i'm finally free of her after coming to my senses fully and realizing i cant take it anymore or ill end my own life
>move in with dad
>sister becomes self entitled as a result of her superiority complex formed by my familys preference for her
>shows downright sociopath behavior including starting fights with me for no reason
>dogging me to cut and harm myself
>is now a psychology major at a university
>funny how someone with almost no empathy is a psych major lmao
internet saga
>take to the internet
>get involved in multiple communities
>start off out on a weeb forum where it's cringey but nothing serious
>hospitalized three times when i was a minor, luckily not as an adult yet!
>discover tumblr around age 15
>become cow of high caliber when i piss off people in a weeb fandom by not being pc enough for them
>try to escape my main acct by using an rp account to rp my unpopular fav character
>end up in semi relationship with a fandom translator only to have her go nonbinary cringe on me
>end up with obsessive crush on german fakeboi
>get found there bc german fakeboi is in the rp community
>drama continues
>desperately try and escape drama only to end up entrenched back in it
>callout post is made
>am angry and resentful at that point
>find out what my frenemy's twitter is and start stalking her under a different alias
>she believes i'm a different person
>she finds out i'm me
>say i have her dox just to scare her
>fucking get blocked for good
>around this time start to theorize that i'm bipolar or bpd
>convince therapist to diagnose me
>find out it's indeed true and i am a mood disordered bpdfag
>start medications and think my quality of life will vastly be improved
irl shit in the meantime
>drop out of hs at 19 after shit math scores and getting behind in self paced school
>one year behind
>everyone i knew graduated a year prior
>fuck high school
>get ged
>work dead ended job for a year b4 attending community college
>attend community college, have almost no friends
>befriends stoners at work
>realize i am now in a love dodecohedron
>leads to more drama
>am used by an infidel asshole who lies about not having a gf
>have short lived relationship with coworker only to have him blueball me when we were about to have sex
>heartbroken, get rebound bf
>turned off sex but he begins to gaslight me and abuse me when i dont let him touch me
>say i want to wait to have sex and am faced with constantly being coerced into letting him finger me bc he's angry i wont fuck him and that i'm scared
>generally allow myself to be stomped on and further abused
>have more bad relationships
>give myself cigarette burns and more cuts from the pain of my relationships
>i have around 30 burns and cuts now
but it doesn't end there
>to escape tumblr, joins weeb forum
>become known troll on weeb forum after deciding that good faith debates with the alt right fags there won't do me any good
>get "in" with their equivalent of the spam and shitpost community
>become member of their discord servers
>things proceed in a mostly peaceful manner for around 1.5 years other than the occasional cow in the server
>drama ensues when me and three other users make a blog to roast users of the site
>get harassed by pedophile woman and her pedophile gf who are server users for calling them out
>one of the callouts i think was more than rightful
>they get me kicked from a server i was a member of for two years
>mods are fags and made one of them a mod
>she suicide baits mods and makes up false story abt going to a mental hospital to try and make me look bad
>meanwhile i'm mentally staggered dealing with irl shit
>cutting myself, burning myself, and trying to overdose constantly as a result of my mental instability
>nobody notices irl
>continue to deal with drama between me and pedo bitches
>end up deleting drama blog which'd started to become inactive to appease them
>it doesn't help
>they start threatening me
>other group of harassers possibly aided by them spread nudes i posted when drunk and photoshopped deepfakes of me
>mental health stoops lower and lower
>nobody does anything about it and everyone starts saying that i'm a piece of shit
>get to the lowest boiling point
>eventually pedos dox me and proceed to harass my family, school, workplace and my local police department
>luckily nothing comes of it, still i get exceedingly paranoid of wtf is to come
>contemplate quitting the internet
>end up cutting a slice in my fucking wrist that needs 4 stitches and lie to hospital about it since i have to go back to work the next day
>activity wanes and the site dies down
>eventually decide to implode accounts altogether 1 yr later bc i cant deal with it
>i was a member for 2 years on that fucking site with almost nothing dramatic happening and i got a worse retread of tumblr except with a dollop of having to deal with female pedophiles who everyone defended for some reason and actualized doxing
>and everyone shrugged it off
>admittedly i dramawhored, but no way did i deserve for things to escalate that far
>the drama has been a fucking lesson and a half
>also traumatizing
>overall now i prefer to lay low compared to how i used to be
>i dont miss having an obnoxious cow persona
>it got me nothing but shit
>festering in community college and have changed major twice with no sense of direction
>family refuses to fund me going to uni
>my sister drove me to have a mental breakdown and i end up moving out of my dads
>stuck with abuser mom currently
>closer to 25 than 20 and still a virgin after being traumatized by my abusive exes trying to initiate sex with me when i didnt want it
>corona has rekt my mental health and my last ditch effort to try and convince my parents to let me move the fuck out and go to the nearest uni
other embarrassing shit
>general daddy issues
>likes older men
>or troubled men
>liked men with dead girlfriends or abusive pasts
>wants to try and fix broken men or hope that their brokenness is somehow compatible with mine
>wanting to date an older guy who i know will probably treat me like shit half the time
>no resemblance of knowing what a healthy relationship is like at all
>journaled in middle school about how i wanted to murder my classmates in gruesome detail
>have since moved on from that but use writing about abusive situations as a coping mechanism to try and rationalize my abuse
>stained my middle school journals with self harm blood
>have moved onto healthier vent journals but draw really ugly ass vent art
>stanned male adult characters who are outright abusive misogynist freaks
>roleplayed as them
>written stories about them from their perspective
>wonder how i could be so vile
>stanned irl dude whos alleged to abuse his ex
>difficult to accept this
>feel like my perception is tainted
>still think he's handsome, looking at his face makes me fluster, and want to die
>have fantasized about him hurting me which makes me feel like i must be as fucking brain damaged as my bpdfag mother
>generally cringey tendency to crush on women and then move onto another woman to crush on
>too flustered to ever admit i like a woman with the fear she'll reject me
>my gaydar/bi-dar is garbage
>best friends with a tranny who is probably one of the few things that helped me when i was mentally woeful
>he means a lot to me
>i'm not gc so it doesn't bother me and he's a very good person who isnt defined by identity politics
>i withhold some of my controversial views from my friends and sometimes i feel ashamed that i do
>only because i dont want to make them uncomfortable or be shat upon for not being leftist enough, i'm plenty leftist, i just dont agree with some shit the left is spewing
>idk what else
No. 571744
>>569379>Banned off twitter through multiple accounts, picking fights with discord modsBless you anon. What did you do to get banned?
>>569405Same
>>569413No it isn't, fuck u
No. 571750
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Well I've been ruminating on it for a few weeks, might as well give it a go:
>ugly duckling child that turned into ugly goose adult out of general negligence of her body from not giving a fuck out of spite
>went through phase of annoying people for attention then wondered why everyone despised her and didn't want to be her friend
>molested and assaulted by males and abandoned by biological dad
>stepparent and mother imprinted terrible narcissistic/defensive traits that only in recent years she has become self-aware of via lots of ego injury
>even as adult can't stop blaming parents for general failure
>still angry as an adult for childhood shit like moving away and losing all friends just to be bullied and outcast in new school
>constantly feels misunderstood by people but it's her fault majority of the time
>deserves the outcome for being a fucking weirdo
>two degrees yet professionally unaccomplished and underpaid
>can't even live alone cause unable to meet costs of living combined with insurmountable debt
>bitter against anyone in better life situations or who she feels "didn't earn it"
>hypocritically gets hurt when worse-off friends have aforementioned mindset towards her
>desperate and pandering pickme from preteens to the age of 27
>burned multiple times by parasitic and abusive men yet nary changed ways despite knowing better
>multiple abortions and years of hormonal abuse on body because she self-harmed with risky sex and isn't sorry for it
>constantly fighting urges to cater to males out of loneliness but luckily bad body and bitter mentality acts as a male repellent >only the ugliest orbiters darken her doorstep who are then easily rejected and balls quashed yet she should probably be thankful for even their attention
>will die alone because she doesn't want an uggo low effort male even though she is uggo low effort female
>has female friends but weird undertone of competitiveness with all but maybe one or two >internalizes the comparative tones out of a future notion that one day she will be prettier than female rivals and have vengeance
>probably a high-functioning depressive personality but can't afford help and internal aversion from mother saying mental illness was for excuse makers
>sometimes judges people with illnesses as excuse makers even though she was just as hurt by those accusations herself
>most 'talents' are mimics if not blatant ripoffs of more talented persons
>spends inconceivable amount of time doing unproductive shit like arguing on the internet yet makes fun of others caught doing the same
>virtue signals for self-esteem but has the worst self-esteem of all
>wants a family but has little nurturing instinct for other babies as it is, would probably be as bad of a mother as her own was to her
>looks down on copes and escapisms in others but would totally drown herself in drug and alcohol benders if she could get away with it
>disgustingly finds most of her happiness in material things
>internally loves to be angry, loves drama, loves conflict, and loves problems even though she outwardly denies it
>chronically lazy and feels entitled to an easy life despite no one owing her shit
tl;dr I'm a hateful hypocrite with a vendetta against groups of people who I allowed to hurt me so my brain doesn't spend all its time hating myself. No, it doesn't work. Usually.
Repost for format.
No. 571751
>>571728Oh shit it's like looking into a distorted mirror showing what would happen if a father and shitty sister joined the party, down to the vent journals, helper syndrome fantasys, mother having a stroke resulting in brain damage making her behaviour worse(or blaming it on that) and the rping and writing as vile male characters.
Do you think going to uni would make your situation better? It sounds more like you really need to get away from your family as first priority.
No. 580485
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Most of my milk is old and just me being socially stupid, so here’s my dumb bitch old milk:
>unironically calls someone “waifu”
>is ugly but somehow has simps she never uses because moralfag
>still tries to convert them into actual functioning people
>pretended to be “uwu Bi” because no friends
>too straight for that gay shit
>always wanted to have group of girl friends
>joined a 18+ group with lesbian women
>managed to always deflect the horny people
>became admin i still wonder how
>was worst admin ever
>complete pushover because hated being in the middle of drama
>still loved watching the constant infighting and drama unfold
>somehow managed to avoid getting sucked into drama
>somehow managed to become friends with most of the involved parties
>toxic member somehow always simped for me
>still feels bad about it wtf girl I never asked for it, I actively told you I didn’t want you to do it wtf
After a few days of inactivity
>unironically joined “uwuowo” cute groups on discord
>unironically has an “uwu“ discord tag and pfp
>left those “uwuowo“ cute groups
>most of the people somehow thought I was a guy the majority of the time
>I still somehow got people simping for me
>still feels disgusted because of inexplicable hate for simps in general
I don’t know how, but I think it’s the genuine use of “uwu” emojis what makes people want to orbit others, so take notes everyone, use “uwu” emojis and squiggly symbols if you ever want some simps.
I honestly don’t understand how anyone can handle simps though, I instantly felt disgusted and did my best to make them stop trying to do anything for a stranger on the internet.
No. 580578
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>daddy issues
>went through a lolita phase at 17 and found 50+ year old guys hot
>fat since always
>would only masturbate to hentai until 3 years ago
>dropped out of 8th grade to go to cyber school
>cheated in said cyber school to graduate high school
>found my bf in lolcow
>went to college part time for 5 years and still never graduated
>15K in student loan debt
>still can't drive in mid 20s
>from 12-15 would spam artists to make request drawings on Deviant of my shitty OC's
>had over 600 images of said OC drawings
>used to yaoi RP and say "ugu" at the end of my sentences at 16
No. 582165
>>581593Neither actually, been together 3 years now. So a little late for that.
But he doesn't lurk and came one time, now here we are.
No. 582494
I’ve been super boring and unmilky for years now so here’s ages 17-21 lol
>>diagnosed bpdfag wannabe mia
>>daddy issues
>>gets kicked out at 17 for standing up to abusive father
>>latches on to any Mexican guy that will give her attention
>>first bf is abusive, ldr & cheats with his ex so as punishment, I make him fist his asshole on webcam (screenshots galore)
>>never show anyone the screenshots but tell people the story because I think it’s funny
>>force bf to move all over country for me only to end up dumping him for bf #2
>>bf #2 gets me into hard drugs, I become dealer
>>drugs potentiate mental illness, become incredibly unstable
>>begin to believe I have special powers and start doing crazy shit like putting my period blood into bf’s food for spiritual purposes
>>relationship crumbles due to both our instability
>>give him laxative to ruin his trip out of town
>>during break in relationship, contemplate cheating on him with a friend who begins to act strangely
>>get raped while on drugs by said guy friend. He suicide baits and fools me into forgiveness
>>commending retard era where I begin to date my rapist, bf #3
>>he ruins all of my friendships and relationship with family, actively begins isolating me. He threatens suicide and holds all of my items and pet hostage when I try to leave
>>a year of hell passes with him, I start to sneak out. I go to clubs and hookup with guys and girls
>>he finds out, acts like he still wants to continue our relationship while simultaneously projecting hatred on to me
>>I sign up for WWOOF and run away to a literal hippie commune ran by an older lesbian woman in the mountains of norcal where I trim marijuana and take care of goats
>>live there for several months, make friends from all over the globe and open myself up to spirituality
>>discover my passions, ditch bad people and bad habits, make encouraging new friends and live happily ever after
No. 582544
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More of a cow description than milk, but anyway…
>almost in her 30s
>spent her whole life as a neet femcel until 27
>still no bf
>still lives with parents, doesn’t cook, doesn’t clean, doesn’t pay for shit womanchild
>adult picky eater with a 10 year old’s palate, would starve before eating a basic salad
>bone thin with bloated fupa due to poor diet and no exercise. You’d think she has worms or something.
>discovered she can eat almonds!!!! Much health. This will finally be the thing to change her life forever!
>looks like female projared, kind of like chin-chan if she had eyebrows
>middle class parents paid for expensive art college tuition, failed any basic English requirement and anything involving reading and writing, several times
>no dyslexia, takes 20 minutes to read a single page anyways. Then feels too mentally exhausted to go on, but not enough to keep her from spending hours on reddit, and now lc
>graduated eventually but art still sucks, too lazy to improve
>bad at therapy. 2dumb, can’t articulate thoughts well enough to make any progress, can’t handle being told what she doesn’t want to hear, lies to avoid discomfort
>always wakes up late, could sleep the whole day, fuck self improvement
>doesn’t get the trans hate on this site. Just recently became more open minded towards the non-binaries because she watched some Dorian Electra music videos
No. 584526
>>584475>>584495This all seems particularly miserable
Keep going on that spiritual path tho, fake it and you might make it
No. 584555
>>584498bruh I'm fucking jealous of your life. Give me that Uber daddy and a nose job!
Everyone's fake anon, life's a bitch and you gotta fight to survive. You're owning it
No. 584641
>oldcow autist/recovering BPDfag in early 30s still doing the same shit and engaging in the same internet culture bullshit since middle school, classic internet/social media addict with arrested development and no attention span left due lifetime of internet abuse, on and off NEET who has achieved nothing in life
>moved to US at age 7 but still has problems with english language; can't speak native language correctly either, literally illiterate
>BS design related degree; has only worked dead end minimum wage jobs in her field; laid off from all of them, never achieved true financial independence
>physically, psychological and borderline sexually abused in childhood which no one every really talks about or acknowledges, manifesting in severe childhood hypochondria and later BPD
>3 major depressive episodes since early 20s one requiring hospitalization, finally sort of got over BPD in 2016-2018
>gets to live in rich dad's old apartment alone with no roommates rent free but lives in incel squalor due to muh depression and muh anxiety, kitchen is falling apart, holes in walls, roaches
>pothead since late 2017 who smokes weed everyday, managed to quit for 4 months then relapsed last week
>80+ year old Grandfather still works to save more money to leave her after he dies because of what a failure she clearly is
>autist who has never had any social metric value or more then 3 friends at a time, most "friendships" are short-term male orbiterships waiting for chance to try to bang
>mentalcel who is afraid of talking to men and hasn't been on a date since dec 2019 and hasn't been in relationship since 2018, cannot have sex with new person without being wasted
>lost virginity at age 20 to 40 y/o nasty fat myspace era hipster/scene dude who was also sleeping with a 15 year old at the time; ended up raping her and bunch of other scene girls (not dahvie vanity)
>flew to another country once to see a clearly mentally unstable model she met only once only before only to be blown off, still obsessed with him to this day and tries to cyberstalk him
>Dysfunctional on and off NEET lifestyle thats been going on for over 10+ years; has unlimited time to pursue any dream of goal but doesn't do anything for the last 6 months besides surf internet all day, do a little drawing and hatewatch other people living their best life
>allowed a heroin addicted drug dealer to move in her apt with his GF and slept on couch for 3 years while they lived in bedroom and trashed the place, dabbled in heroin with him
> face related body dysmorphia; obsessed with getting plastic surgery when she has no job or income
>on and off ex of almost 7 years wasted her and his time, is now almost 50 and has decided he wants to leave the city and live some david dubinsky trad farm lifestyle in the middle of rural colorado
>probably never going to have a family or kids at this point, unlikely to ever have a real career or good job
>dead end existence with no purpose or future, mentally asks God to take her out at least once a week, too afraid to actually an hero herself
>Father moved back to old country and throws 800 a month at cow to not have to take active role in failure daughter's life
>secretly signed up for SA account this month in desperate attempt to achieve financial independence/stop being incel, zero takers so far
No. 584652
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>>584596Example of before and after brow lift (I think hers was surgical though)
No. 584673
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old milk:
>was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression due to childhood medical trauma at 8, tried to commit suicide a few times/would cut almost every night.
>was put on meds
>developed ed around this time
>not much love/attention at all from emotionally absent cop father
>ungodly amount of self hatred
>left school beginning of 4th grade
>became a homeschooled socially awkward emo
>used to rp on google +
>couldn't even come into contact with anything relating to hospitals or medical related anything without going into a full blown anxiety attack that would cause dissociation that could last for hours
new milk
>diagnosed with a dissociative disorder after thinking said episodes were "normal"and that they were just "away with the fairies"
>started smoking weed
>thought their dealer was crushing on them; newsflash, he's just a friendly person
>thinks everyone either loves them or wants them dead, nothing in-between
>just started classes after years of not attending a real school, everyone already dislikes them/thinks they're clingy
>relapsing back into ed related habits ever since covid
>always "forgetting" to take medications and do physiotherapy for chronic illness (in reality is just a lazy sack of shit)
>hasn't felt "real" since late last year
>still collects old toys they grew up with due to lack of childhood/childhood trauma (barbies, bratz, any fashion doll)
No. 584678
>>571744Sorry, just saw this reply.
I got banned off multiple twitter accounts for having incredibly conflicting mutuals, for example radfem accounts and altright accounts. Last time I got banned was for retweeting a holocaust denying meme and a radfem account reported me and I got banned because I wouldn't delete the retweet. Another time was for pissing off a gamergate guy who got his personal army to go through my account and report everything.
The discord story is more interesting. Basically had a friend who invited me into her friends discord. I'd met the mod before IRL so I felt comfortable being myself, but I learned pretty quickly that they were in fact not being themselves, pretending to be men. (just the mod, not the friend who invited me in)
It was an edgy discord, and my extremist beliefs conflicted a lot with the mod and the mod's boyfriends beliefs, and we would constantly argue. They'd post memes they knew would piss me off, and eventually my partner joined the discord to argue w them too, and my friend who invited me in was way more on the mod's side than my side (the mod and her partner were very cultish and would ban everyone but me that would argue w her, only kept me around to keep things interesting).
I eventually left the discord, but then had a few people message me privately from the discord to tell me they were mad shittalking me and bringing up stuff from my private life (because friend who invited me in and mod knew me IRL). I lashed out at the friend who invited me in and basically told her I never wanted to talk to her again because she betrayed my trust, telling discord weirdos private life details (phone number etc). We had a massive blow out fight and now we don't talk at all, blocked each other on everything.
No. 599164
Not even getting into my childhood, bc it is is mess I do not remeber
Ana-saga (age 14)
>randomly see pro ana site, and get obsessed
>already underweight
>become very neurotic about food
>work out for hours
>obsessed with MPA and pro ana tumblr
>reactive eating causes me to be a bulimic
>being hungry causes bitchiness and lose all friends
>develop fears about contamination and ghosts
Loner-saga (age 16)
>Stop talking to people
>Insane levels of anxiety
>huge arguments with mom who tries to kill herself constantly
>move to dads place
>I have no friends
>Dad reads my journal about spicy political shit, we have fight and I have to move back home
>My mom tries to choke me bc she is upset, call the cops and she gets arrested
>also was fairly popular on alt right tumblr at some point and had orbiter who sent me amazon giftcards
Failed new start (18 to now)
>stop reading news
>move to first apartment, that gets filled with trash bc I was terrified of taking it out to the wrong dumpster
>finally make a new good female friend (still the only one)
>get a good sized inheritance, but be a retard about spending it, bc I was so broke before
>go on 6 vacations in 2 years
>have such degenerate sexual behavior it is recognizeable on lc
>only get crushes on foreign (mostly German) guys and obsess about them for hours everyday, even a year after
>oops broke and in debt, money run out
>seriously consider prostituting myself
Other garbage
>addicted to porn from age 9, sometimes spend hours masturbating
>snuff fetish bc everything else is boring
>can’t stop sperging out at my friends/random people, no wonder I cant get a second date
>stil have multiple male stalkers though
>too retarded to read instructions to book a therapist appointment
>getting drunk everyday I have money to stave off social anxiety
>thousands of matches on tinder, but I only can arrange dates when I’m super wasted
No. 600369
>>600363Finnanon, you're fucking annoying.
Sincerely, anon.
No. 600515
>>600437We were best friends for years after it and we still talk to each other occasionally.
What I did was very bad, but I honestly didn't plan for it to happen and we both had decided we wanted to do it whilst drunk. I was 13/14 and she was 15, I was extremely immature and just being dumb. Sorry for the shitty choice of words.
No. 600545
just an obvious narcissist with a fucked up childhood, nothing new. also kids experiment and do weird crap like that, its not rape
>>600287>>599164both of you need to get therapy and learn from your childhood. its fucking disturbing
No. 600683
>>600413Snuff fetish =/= wanting to see other people tortured/killed. You can also want to be the ”
victim”. Even then it’s degenerate tho
No. 600902
>>600789I used a vpn app that was meant for Netflix. The app was new and 4ch was slow to block all of its servers so I was able to use it for a good couple of months before they all got shut down.
>>600896Your humble beginnings and newer milk sound relatively harmless and just stupid kid behavior, but the obsession part in fresh milk is weird. Please seek help.
No. 607688
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>diagnosed with aspergers, demanded to have it changed to bpd for ages because of self-diagnosing denial
>used to browse pull where she became obsessed with spookycharms and obsessively mimicked her down to the makeup products she used
>lost virginity at 22 to a sugar daddy after her dad died, has some daddy issues and pretended to have a daddy kink so sugar daddy would keep giving her money, had sex with another older sugar daddy for money
>dresses like a wannabe influencer teenage thot despite being in her 20s
>can’t handle having money, spends it all on clothes and makeup like she’s a 15yo with no self-control
>lives with her mom bc can’t handle being independent, hates being alone, terrified her mom will die 24/7 and convinced she’ll die too when that day comes
>embarrassingly naïve and self-pitying womanchild who needs constant praise and validation from others
No. 607711
>>607705nothing in the post is even mildly tolerable, are you also a crazy-chan?
hope you get help though OP, granted that retardation can be cured.
No. 607741
>>607688I know of multiple BPDers who have self diagnosed themselves with autism in an attempt to get away from the stigma of BPD and have a more 'please pity me' type of disorder.
I think people generally have more empathy for those with autism compared to personalities disorders
No. 607763
>>607705aww thank you anon! this made me smile. i wish you the best! ♡
>>607725thank you anon! i’m working on it. wish you the best!
>>607732this is
valid. it was six years ago now, i was still a minor at the time. glad i grew out of it.
>>607741that’s interesting, i did not expect that. it really sucks that it’s so difficult for a lot of people to embrace their disorders because of all the stigma.
No. 663221
>>663050>>663188these are just sad, just like most of the posts in this thread. you guys should get help for your issues - being a
victim doesn't inherently make you a cow. it's not too late to change
No. 663585
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>art school dropout
>25 and can't drive
>lives at home with her mom
>eats absolute garbage fast food and doesn't work out
>can't hold down a job for more than 3 months without having an emotional breakdown and quitting
>mooches off rich autistic boyfriend who doesn't know any better
>created her own unhappiness but blames it all on muh depression
fuckin hate this bitch
No. 664119
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> definitely a bpd-chan, out of control
> sometimes i steal my familys shoes for my own personal use, no one ever finds out
> mooch off of my family, they pay for my food, my bills, my doctors appointments, etc
> when i really have to take a shit, sometimes i shit inside my parents room in spite
> always loud as fuck, never shut the hell up
> sometimes i bite people
> i often jump on people when im annoyed
> sometimes i chew on staircases and eat whatevers left of the rug
> dont do any chores
> i've pissed on my moms new couch before
> i lied about it
> sometimes when im scared i piss myself and make other people clean it up
> pic related
> pic is me
No. 665846
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>had potential in school, decided to waste her time shitposting on the internet instead.
>one of those annoying cunts who has to let people know she's ex-gifted, even on anonymous sites.
>had a shoplifting phase and got arrested for it in a very low budget clothing shop
>nearly died from alcohol poisoning twice before turning 18
>currently devoloping alcoholism, drinks warm vodka
>now facing zero job prospects outside her shitty part time work.
>probably procrastinating studying for the exam to get into university where she lives rn. I bet she has literally 2 weeks to learn 2 years of material and still hasn't started.
>wants to leave her parents house in her hometown more than anything, still can't be bothered to put in the work???
>probably has adhd but won't get checked out because she doesn't trust doctors
>thinking about applying to art school (lmao faggot), probably won't ever
>extremely vain and anachan, still manages to look like shit
>thinks if she doesn't look people in the eye they somehow won't be able to see her hideous face, like a child playing hide and seek thinks you can't see them if they can't see you kek
>afraid to even leave the house, needs a pound of makeup on if she ever does
>freak that wears full length jeans and a denim jacket in the summer
>who still cuts themselves in 2020
>shifts girls who are flirting with bisexuality to look cool to boys and don't even like her back, doesn't care
>afraid to have sex though, will probably die a virgin
>her parents are disappointed beyond belief with her, who can blame them
>has like 2 friends, who are sick of her bullshit and will probably end up dumping her (as they should)
>fantasises about commiting suicide everyday via a very violent method liking slitting her throat, definitely too much of a pussy to follow through with that
No. 665893
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>neet
>military wife, married at 18
>retard-tier ADHD, refuses to take meds because they make me feel weird
>crippling social anxiety
>no irl friends
>edgy as fuck, makes fun of well-adjusted people
>has a million piercings and dresses like 2003 hot topic exploded onto an industrial rave
>too scared and retarded to try to take the next step in life
>instead makes mediocre art, surfs the internet, and writes all day
No. 666004
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To think all of this happened in the past 5 years:
>used to start tumblr naruto drama by making hate-troll blogs with the shippingtards
>would catfish random guys for years just to get online game shit
>dropped a total of 6k on a gacha game using their money
>faked an entire funeral for these catfished men over the phone
>constantly made men rub their cum on their faces and hurt themselves because she wanted to feel something, felt nothing
>let a bunch of random men use her in a weird way (revenge porn/humiliation) because she was a repressed suicidal v*rgin
>the usual anafag and cutting combo
>became a camgirl
>paranoid 24/7 of being identified in public, so she constantly changes her clothes and hair into every possible style that exists including a tranny phase
>pretty sure a guy gave her a foot fetish
>said guy also gave her a thing for r*ssian men
>goes out her way to date cops, military men, alcoholics, etc the ones more likely to be abusive
>kinda wants to be abused, kinda wants to be murdered
>2 suicide failed attempts, 3 head shaves, and hoards stuffed toys to cope
>unironically plays with said stuffed toys
>writes fanfics about politicians and draws gay porn
>dedicated to becoming a spinster 4 life
No. 689872
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I am the girl in the pic eating spaghetti out of a bag. I only found out about the image a few months ago and apparently it's ALL over the internet. I'm still trying to process it, really. I have never told anyone else about this and nowhere else to say it, but I had to get it off my chest, and I couldn't think of anywhere else where people might understand a little more (I've been here only a few times before).
Thanks for reading.
No. 689876
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>>689872This one?! Story pls, bag why? Do you not own tupperware? No sauce? Was it room temp? Was this prepared just for a bagged lunch, or was it leftovers? Is this a normal meal for you or just something grabbed last minute because you had nothing else? If it was leftovers, was the original meal also just plain cooked spaghetti or did you make a sauce? Why store the spaghetti and sauce separately? If you could go back in time and relive this day, would you do it all again?
No. 689880
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>>689876The story is I had a friend who brought lunch to school everyday that she didn't eat because she had a cool older boyfriend that got her McDonalds every day. I was happy to eat her lunch. I don't know why it was plain spaghetti in a bag. Apparently it's somewhat common for Latino and Filipino people (I am neither) to put their food in bags like this. I never questioned why.
Would I do this again? Sure, maybe with spaghetti squash or something, but I couldn't carb overload like that anymore.
No. 689883
>>561095fun game: guess what threads anons are most active on based on their cow posts
>>666004for this anon I am guessing Shayna
No. 689902
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>>689891Yeah, it's pretty tormenting considering I don't think I've posted myself online. Oh well, the primary reaction to the picture seems to be "relatable LOL" which is as good as it gets for being an internet meme I guess. I've come to accept it as a karmic payback of sorts for having saved and shared thousands of candid random pictures of people turned into memes over the years.
No. 691482
>>691411yeah and honestly i dont care about his opinions, our relationship works practically. i live with him and have since march and we are both quiet people who just want to browse imageboards and play video games and get high. its nearly a perfect relationship. i get home before him and i look forward to seeing him every day. he is really a sweet person. buuut. he really wants kids and i dont. been together since octoberish 2019 and still in the honeymoon phase or something, i still am madly in love with him. we met on /soc/ just to have sex and i think he is hot as fuck. even though we browse /pol/ together and he probably hates me for not wanting kids (it makes me a broken woman in scrotes eyes) he is genuinely in love with me because he doesnt know what to do. i know i sound like a cow myself which is why i posted about it here. i have no idea if he is going to leave me or not. he may be a poltard full of hate but he is so sweet to me and cried all night when i finally said "ive been trying to convince myself that i want to have kids but honestly i really dont".
i guess my point is… its so odd sometimes being with a guy like that who hates so many people. he has never been cruel to me. it just proves to me that every man seriously just does want someone to love them. explains why guys on pol are so salty girls dont like them lol. dont know if im making sense but im like yeah the women haters on pol would always make an exception for a girl who seriously just loves them even if they arent perfect. i will be so gutted if he dumps me. sorry this is long.
No. 691485
>>691482>it just proves to me that every man seriously just does want someone to love them. explains why guys on pol are so salty girls dont like them lol.2019 isnt that long. If hes an
asshole to other people he will eventually start being an asshole to you. You are in the honey moon period. It took my a year to find out the scrote I was dating from 4chan was secretly taking nude photos of his own sister. Enjoy what you have for now but dont get too comfortable.
No. 691497
>>691489i was already pretty right leaning when we met but ever since /pol/ i did get sorta radicalized and started really thinking that i was gonna have kids with him. i love him so much, but i care too much about my appearance to be comfortable being pregnant multiple times. /pol/ also made me depressed at times, self hating being a woman, but i dont really go on it often anymore and all the woman haters are just salty they dont have a girl that loves them.
i really tried for about a year of our relationship to convince myself that i want kids. but i seriously just want to finish college and get a better job than the one i have now. i just want to get married and buy a nice house and work lol. and travel because ive never been outside of the us. i have my whole life ahead of me, if he leaves me i can find someone else but everything about him i love, im so comfortable with him, we have a quiet life together but he wants me to squeeze out a bunch of babies i dont want.
>>691491good question. i can ask him. i always am not afraid to openly ask him something. but yes im 22 and he is 37. i havent said it, but we both know if he leaves me he is gonna have a hard time finding a woman who is okay with his ideology, or a girl he can even openly be opinionated around. im basically a poltard too so we have a lot of interesting discussions.
he has told me many many times that i am beautiful (i have been insecure as fuck in the past, i am an anachan, gotten cosmetic surgery but nothing to augment rather just to remove scars and shit like that) and that i will always be beautiful and loved by him (ive asked before because of the whole "wall" thing etc etc) and especially when we talk about a possible break up i cry and say i will always love and respect him, and he says the same thing to me. he genuinely isnt manipulating me, we both have the same opinions (i know, that makes me a cow) and do the same things. we dont like going out and we dont like normie shit.
man his ex was ugly as fuck and a huge liberal, he knows im more than a step up from that girl. but you can see the woman hating coming out of me now, oops. i guess its born out of insecurity. really though, i am leagues ahead of her.
No. 691499
>>691493>People like you are perpetually stuck between having zero self esteem and being egotisticalhonestly, true. but i seriously havent met a single person who isnt the same way. its part of being human, we want to be the best so we convince ourselves we are, but then when we're reminded we are probably NOT the best we feel shame and insecurity.
you are a nasty bitch for saying i deserve him to break up with me though. maybe we deserve each other. i thought most users here hate pol ideology and here i am admitting to you that i hate many groups of people right alongside him.
No. 691503
>>691501im completely aware of how it all looks lol
ive used this site nonstop since about may 2018 and refrained from talking about him because i knew the backlash would be crazy.
all i can say is, hey, everyone is capable of someone being in love with them.
No. 691513
>>691501and honestly like 90% of the time even when i didnt browse lolcow for a while i have had our own little thread in my head. it would be crazy if we used social media and had an internet following. people would think we are just really autistic. but we dont want attention we just want to be left alone lol
>>691508i mean, look at the "men you would fuck" threads. ive been shocked over and over again that women find certain kinds of men attractive. i have been told before i have an odd taste in men. he has nice hair (esp since a lot of guys by then have very little hair kek), a nice face structure, clear skin, barely any body hair, he is athletic, lean but muscular build, pretty good in bed. only guy that has actually made me orgasm when for years i thought it would never happen. he is very sweet, texts me funny or nice things, buys me flowers a lot, takes care of me when im sick, buys me weed. our families get along too.
No. 691517
>>691510>geriatric /pol/acki laughed irl, actually funny as fuck lol
>You don't have female friends because they don't want to be around younot true, i am really quiet and take really good care of myself and am pretty good looking irl, in college ive had a couple girls hard pressed to be my bestie and i always shrug them off cause i know i couldnt be myself around them because id be "
problematic"
No. 691520
>>691514fuck, i knew i was really outing myself. ill refrain from talking about myself ever again on this site
horseshoe theory is real this site is just a feminist /pol/ nobody actually cares about challenging their own views you are all like the woman haters on /pol/ sigh
No. 691529
>>691522Racist-chan strikes again
>>>/g/162770 you were right earlier. You and your bf deserve each other. You're both bigoted outcasts who have deluded yourselves into believing you're better than everyone else kek. Fortunately, his ex got out just in time.
No. 691543
and stop armchairing me. i had a normal childhood, never had trauma or been abused. i dont have a personality disorder. ive been to therapy as a teen twice and im honestly just a functioning dysthymic and obviously am remembering now why i refrain from making friends. my relationship may make me a cow but you retarded cunts will never have the satisfaction of knowing anything else or seeing what we look like. i bet you would all just love to make a thread about my life and point and laugh.
>>691538 no. i can guarantee you would feel insecure around me lol
>>691539 ive hated other women since i was young. just like most women do. fuck this echo chamber NON "feminist" website. ugly cunts.
No. 691544
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>>691536bye bye daddy’s girl
No. 691592
>>691512It makes me happy to see farmers that are this close by.
To stay on topic:
>spent years in a /vg/ gen simping for muh 2D man despite being in a relationship >argued with anons over in incestuous gen between lorefagging>use 4chan lingo that's bled into irl conversation by accident>makes grown men uncomfortable after they compliment by autistic spergfest about shit they don't care about>spent chunk of adult years simping for the downtrodden man incel, despite seeing the underbelly of /r9k/>still simp for some of them, trying to find good where it's probably dead>mommy issues>offensive when unmedicated>probably too old to be hereI don't know how milky any of this is.
No. 691603
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>>691488>>691497I know I'm late to this but jesus I can't help myself
>i have really good judgement. Don't say shit like this if you're fucking dudes from /soc/, lmao.
>i seriously thought he was gonna kill me in the woods bianca devin style when we met irl Lmao
>his dog likes him so he must be a great personHitler was great with dogs, too. Did you already know that because he told you, by the way?
>i really will be heartbroken the first time in my life if he really would rather have kids with some old crusty bitch than date a youthful attractive thin girl who likes nearly everything he does. Lmao, you're ready to fight some "old crusty bitch" for some aged crusty scrote with expired cum who will surely give you autistic, maladjusted children after he strong-arms you into a pregnancy you don't really want.
>37 years oldHAHAHAHAHA HOLY FUCK. I thought he was 28 before getting to this part. I bet he's balding and smells like old milk too, lmao.
>man his ex was ugly as fuckWell, yeah, he's a 37 year old loser who sits at home playing video games. No woman would waste time with him unless they were severely mentally ill and/or had like zero other options. You're insisting you're thin and attractive, without a personality disorder, but you're somehow stuck fucking /soc/ incels pushing their 40s instead of like, sane, attractive, young men, so.
No. 691609
>>691588Seriously, imagine being close to your 40s and being a male 4channer, searching for pussy on /soc/.
The only thing worse than that is unironically dating someone like that.
Hilarious that they're /pol/tards, too. I imagine most of that crowd are like this. The only thing that'd make things even better is if one of them was a furry.
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>Complete NEET that never works
>Life entirely funded by orbiting submissive scrotes
>Buys likes because the pathetic desperation for attention is limitless
>Shoops hard
>Untreated narcissism and probably other cluster B mental illnesses
>Formerly obsessed with Felice Fawn and still would be if she didn’t go awol
>Edgelord with cringey hybristophilia tendencies
>Used to have a bigger online presence but now makes chaotic meme content only middle schoolers would laugh at for a non-existent audience
No. 692028
>>692024It'd be funnier if you posted your age.
>>691543You and every other person that's posted in this thread makes me wonder what cows you all shit on despite not being much different or in some cases worse than them.
No. 692223
>>692206he was 100% convinced i only liked him for money and thought it was a joke when i asked if we could spend time together without sex or any type of payment
it all worked out for the best though i guess, i'm still upset about it but even if he had liked me back it would not have been a healthy relationship
No. 694965
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>be me, mostly unremarkable
>have danger hair
>send a girl to the psych ward by sending physical anon mail through a paid letter writing service and other forum posts
>continue to fuck with her by signing her up for emails
>feel guilty about it for a little bit but shrug your shoulders and move on with your life
>actually panic a little maybe they know it was me
>realize you might actually have some serious mental problems that you aren't disclosing to your therapist and are shitposting about
>call into work sick just because for 3 days in a row
>continue to be a huge lying hypocrite about what websites I know about
>do next to nothing at work and bullshit your way through the rest of it
>cheat on every man you've been with
>become Karen when things don't go your way, but only over the phone because you're a pussy
>lie about all of the above constantly to anyone important
Clearly, I'm perfectly fine and there's nothing wrong with me. I should probably check myself into the mental hospital I put someone in when they leave and my vacation time rolls over. Hm.
No. 694971
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>addicted to xanax and adderall at 15, reminisces it publicly
>skinnyfat anachan
>used to selfpost on /mu/ and /soc/ until a tripfag stalked her and sent her CP to her boss
>cuts and posts online, always dirty deletes
>hate follows and adds people just to cap them and put it into folders
>stalks multiple people online
>made fiance delete all his exes and sex worker friends off his social media because of insecurity
>skinwalks cows when she gets too emotionally invested in their stories
>kinnie who kins griffith, asuka soryu, satoko from higurashi and other demented characters. always either a loli/defenseless victim or a psychopath/tsundere/yandere
>violent BPDfag
>used to try and fight people on tumblr and twitter by sending her address and telling people to "pull the fuck up"
>beefed with semi-famous tumblr users for clout, only got hate that drove them offline
>lesbian but only dates neckbeards out of comp het
>fakeboi that doesn't want to be but fears retaliation if she publicly "reverts" back to cis
>mommy kink
>sells nudes for weed and clothes, doesn't care about repercussions
>changes name every year or two to something weeb-y and retarded that no one is actually going to use
>goes on live crying often
>could have been a charming femme but gave up, looks like an haggard egirl reject at 23
No. 695330
>>695249Partly because I wanted to, partly because she used me for money and to cart her fat ass around. She's also a jobless mooch and cheater with zero self awareness. She's gotten through life by taking advantage of the kindness of others and has never once suffered any consequences.
I'm not some grand arbiter of justice, I'm just some crazy bitch with a vindictive streak who does way too many psychedelics so my brain is fried. Cest la vie.
No. 699795
Me up until today:
>starts secondary school, Weeb, thinks acting like an animé protagonist is cool.
>don't make eye contact with anyone. Act reserved bc animé mc. Make zero friends.
>cry non-stop because I don't have any friends because I act like an autistic anime protagonist.
>Randomly do animé voice impressions in public.
>cuts hair and becomes an ftm. Pretend to be an mtf "" trap"" online for attention.
>Guy likes me, reject him because I'm an immature ftm.
>become pickme ass anti feminist. Watch skeptic anti sjw YouTube channels. Claim to be pro trump in class, at school ( I still cringe)
>realise all that shits dumb as hell.
>start smoking and drinking at 15. Get black out drunk in front of my grandad and parents, grandad is worried but it blows overs because my parents don't give a fuck about what I do. Dad takes my bedroom door off the hinges.
>start taking anti depressants, drinking alcohol on my antidepressants. Fuck up my chances up with guy I like because I'm retarded.
>come out to my friend as a "" lesbian""to cope with my dumbass ftm feelings.
>guy who likes me gives me serious transgrrl vibes, confirms he has dysphoria uwu in a group chat.
>no friends some aquaintences, alcoholic at 17 parents don't give a shit.
>tell friend I'm not actually a lesbian. She invites me to go to Poland.
>maladaptive daydream about being a male even though I'm a gender critical feminist at this point.
>Have a crush on some dumb ass asian guy who's openly into futantari hentai.
>age 18, say fuck it and ask to kiss him. Obsess over this guy who doesn't give a shit about me, I pursue him, he never texts first and I have to ask him out.
>have no job. Mature slower than my peers.
Hope I can go to Poland tho ladies (after Covid) .
No. 700696
>>571728updated milk
>fully relapsed self harm habit after nearly a year of good behavior>self harmed on and off for nearly a week>stressmoking again>obsessions and hyperfixations have gotten deeper and more demented>keeps dreaming about either being abused to the point of suicide or her life ending in a dramatic and horrible death>extremely horny and wants to be fucked but is too taken aback by her fear of dating apps and men to actually get fucked by a low tier idiot on there>faps and cries a lot>desperately horny for irl problematic man she stans and fantasizes about him constantly>on new birth control that made small acne better and caused cysts to blossom>hormones are completely whacked and not making sense>is scared birth control has caused her to gain weight and wants to become anachan again>absolutely mortified at the state of her own physicality and how haggard her lifestyles made her look lately, knows that if she weren't so exhausted she'd look better>takes shit tier mirror selfies during hypomanic upswings as some sort of reassurance she isn't as ugly as she frets herself to be>or feels insanely powerful and narcissistic in makeup>compares pics of herself when she was 19 and 110 or less lbs to current pics and balks>too afraid to change medication drastically out of fear she'll attempt sudoku and won't wake up this time
>got kicked out of abuser mom's house and am back at dad's house>because of some completely random and unseen altercation involving narc mom trying to forcefully shoehorn herself into school life>last anon checked that bitch has never paid for a cent of schooling, not one cent>room keeps piling up shit and is full of random excess her father stuffed in there because he presumed she wasn't coming back, and her sister stole half her furniture for her uni townhome>tried to get rid of a bunch of belongings to appease the pigstye, it does not work>wants to throw out half her shit but has no idea where to begin>ignored by workaholic dad half the time or have to face his objective and unemotional takes on life while he insults life choices>psychopathic sister is back from uni and pretends like she never did anything wrong>barely talks to anyone because everyone else is working or she is too busy working>or is too scared to talk to people>scared for immunosuppressed irl friends and barely get to see them which deepens anger and self loathing
>still hates not being able to interact proper with other human beings except for the sake of glorifying the garbage holiday she's already tired of pedaling since july>fuck you, don't have a merry christmas, this year has been terribad
>working too many hours and is on the verge of dropping like a fly>spends off days unproductively sleeping and eating>hasn't registered for the new semester of classes thanks to exhaustion and is afraid there won't be any options left>has new coworker she fucking hates and is envious of because she got hired on as a manager despite having no experience in retail itself, just some shitty job at a family owned office, that's not retail hun>amateur manager is one year younger and extremely chipper and fake seeming>disgusting.jpg>feels bad for putting amateur down after learning her brother allegedly had cancer, but still doesn't like her>she doesn't really want to hate people but she forms preemptive opinions of people based on her intuitions because she's a dumb bitch bpdbipolarfag>main manager does not see potential in her after 3 years of hard work and continues to demean her for not being a good doormat and openly yapped and screamed at her on multiple occasions >having to hide from everyone except therapist self harm scars, keeps picking the scabs off>if that makes them scar worse, good
>wants to finish degree and escape to los angeles or new york to work in entertainment industry as a behind the scenes person>covid fucked that over>or she is doomed to become a starfucker if she can't make it and does go there once this is all done>has mental list of celebs she wants to fuck>doesn't care what she contracts if she does>wants to become a social climber just to prove she has power that everyone her entire life has taken away from her by using the rich to further her own agenda>has inheritance she's trying to use when she btfo's that she won't get till next year but is afraid of going full ingrid goes west except unsuccessfully and blowing it before she even loses her virginity>will just commit suicide if this happens
>doesn't know what the future holds or where she wants to go, what she wants to be fully>has a goal in mind that's vague and difficult, at least it's something>but at a place mentally where it's very hard to handle life at all and hates how she's wallowing in her own discomfort and pain>if she took the easy way out and focused on something shallow and vain she could become a tiktoker, youtuber, or ewhore, but she wants to slime her way up a different ladder>if all else fails she may become one of those thingsall in all still a mess
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>>695337you would love the current season, heres my updates:
>"quit" sex work but continued to post shooped lewds for attention; all got less than 1/4th avg likes>made secret blog to vent about identity and other dumb shit>reclaiming "femcel" >had a breakdown about instagram shadowbanning my ethot account>tweezed eyebrows and realized i made myself look like a pudgy trans version of sugarf4iry >i fucking cried for an hour>only eaten coffee and egg salad last two days>reeks of weed all the time now>shit on my partners dick during anal; never want to think about sex or my butt again>everyone in my house opened their presents from family, everyone notices i still have received nothing >actlikeitdoesnothurt.exe No. 702007
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Im not even sure if i am cow worthy but
>16-17 had a weird obsession with dom/sub shit
>massive weeb and tradthot thinks she is the shit and one of the boys
>massive hentai freak
>has a folder full of hentai with fucked up fetishes and kinks
>always dating the psychopaths and males who used me
>always asked for dick pics from men on discord whenever i wanted to "date" them
>had alot of unhealthy and toxic relationships
>massive LGBT phobe and racist would always make "jokes" about killing blacks etc.
>adored hitler for some odd reason
>raided servers full of anachans and even LGBT servers with gore pictures and racist captions
>never brushed my teeth or took a bath unless told so
>cried whenever i got called out but played it off like i didnt care
>thinks that her partner choking her and wanting to carve shit into her skin is somehow "healthy"
>brushed friends off for giving advice to leave abusive relationship
>is now mentally ill and suffers trauma
And all of this because my parent's never cared to monitor my behaviour online. Anyway i hate my younger self i really wanna punch her.
No. 702034
>>561095cow myself is just deliberately staying in an
abusive relationship for years against everyone’s advice
i’m a bad role model to my students
No. 732285
>>691536Internalised misogyny is such a pathetic thing to see in a young woman. Imagine hating your own sex, your sisters and even yourself that you stoop to such a low standard and romanticise, idealise and defend a scrote who is absolute garbage who brings nothing to the table and adds no value to your life. An undesirable. He will bring you trouble for sure and bring you down with him.
Other women are the only ones who will give a fuck about you in life, men won't. Another thing, the huge age gap between you and this scrote is a huge red flag, he wants power and control over you. You are 22, you know nothing. You think you do but you don't. You're incredibly naive and you'll find out the hard way which is a very tough path you will have to walk down to see for yourself what others with more sense were telling you. You're pathetically alone and dying to be loved and adored so you attach and cling to him desperately because you have no friends or other options. He will get tired of the codependency because since you don't have friends, you will be dumping everything onto him, using him as an emotional dumping ground something all scrotes hate and can't even deal with. Men can't even navigate the emotions of a relationship for chrissakes. He will get tired of you because he's most attracted to the novelty of it all. You are a novelty to him and the thing you got going for you most is your age that is all because let's face it, it's certainly not brains. He's with you because young women like you don't know much. He can't get women his age not only because he is a loser no smart attractive woman wants, but he doesn't want women his age because they know too much. They wouldn't take his shit. As I said though, he will tire of this thing with you because he'll be done with the conversations only a 22 year old can provide. With that massive age gap, there are two very different mindsets and maturity levels. But then again he does sound like he has an intellectual disability so perhaps you have more in common than I originally thought. I wonder how he talks about you on the boards he visits? He probably refers to you as 'free pussy,' his 'Dumb bitch cum receptacle,' laughing at and hating on you. I highly doubt he is respectful of you when he's talking about you to the other scrotes.
I would pity you, but you are insufferable and rotten inside. You're male identified, tainted and your mind is twisted.
You deserve what you get.
No. 732296
>>732287 Anon, i'm not even finished with this intellectually disabled bitch yet:
>>691488>i met other guys on 4chan and always had a bad feeling about them and they were always fucked up in some way.>i seriously thought he was gonna kill me in the woods bianca devin style when we met irl
>i have really good judgement. She just admitted he is fucked up because she initially got some serious murderer vibes off him and her experience with scrotes before tells her bad vibes correlate directly with them being seriously fucked up. Then she's telling us she's got "really good judgement"? Bitch is dumb as a box of rocks. How long before the mask this scrote wears slips? He's only doing enough and acting tolerable so she will become invested in him and by the sounds of it, she already is.
Her gut feeling was trying to tell her this is not a good idea but she overrode it and shut it down. She is retarded.
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I'm an sfm coomer. It's shameful. I need to kms
No. 738132
>>738128NTA but they're not all unhinged attention seekers, it's just that all of them will cape for said unhinged attention seekers when push comes to shove and throw any woman, even one who supports poor uguu trannies, under the bus.
I'm not radfem and even I can tell you that.
No. 738225
>>738156aw thank you for giving it to me!
>>738178could you say more?
No. 742869
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>sleeping pill addict
>no job
>no education
>freeloading off rich bf
>delusional lolita/liz lisa fashion cope
>sleeps as much as possible to avoid thinking
>sleeps to avoid explosive bouts of rage
>when forced to be awake, compelled to dress up for literally no reason other than delusional cope
>dresses to avoid explosive bouts of rage
>no hobbies other than 4000 step korean skincare routine
>no interests besides clothes
>no hope
>no dreams
>boring as shit
>in love with a pigeon
No. 746224
>>746197On paper you sound lucky but then given your mental state everything good only becomes a source of stress. I get it. I've been there and now that I've got very little on paper (deaths, abandoned by people, no supports to fall back on) I wish I'd somehow addressed my issues better/sooner. In a way being abandoned gave me a kick up the ass though. Tough way to learn.
Hope you get on top of things.
No. 746233
>>746231She's not my dog. She's my brother's and we all take care of her.
>>746224Thanks anon
No. 756480
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>mid 20s
> laundry list of mental health diagnoses, probably just retarded, age regression x10000, mentally stunted in early teens
> BPDchan with histrionic levels of suggestibility
> Squandered all opportunities education and work wise by becoming a barely functioning alcoholic in early 20s, settle for minimum wage jobs despite being overqualified
> House looks like an episode of hoarders: buried alive
> Suicide baiter, uses shitty mental health for attention
> smells like body odour
No. 861016
>>691536This post is still funny
I hope 22 anon broke up with her retarded 37 /pol/ack bf
>>861012This is more sad than cowish imo. You gotta lay off the porn anon, it can really rot your brain.
tbh Trannies and futas aren't comparable, especially since most trannies are ugly IRL No. 861027
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>snooty bpdfag who looks down on self-diagnosers
>cheated on ex gf with two men and one woman because she was convinced her ex judged her for not fucking enough men
>bisexual who hates and is jealous of other bi women for fucking more men than her
>sends piss videos and other degenerate shit to men she meets on 4chan to feel better about the above
>once let an unwashed man sit on her face 20 minutes after they met to feel better about the above
>it didn't work
>cuts neck, cuts the word "dyke" into her body, restricts eating and tells so-called best friends it's their fault for not validating her sexuality delusions
>jealous of the other cows itt for man-fucking related reasons
>overdoses when not getting enough attention
>unemployed, had to give up last job because muh bpd, went to dbt therapy and failed at it
>claims to want to improve life but still obsesses over ex, friends, sexuality issues and tries to trigger herself on purpose
No. 861068
>>861012>Hates men and thinks they're all either degenerates or control freaksNot a problem unless you think it extremely interferes in ability to function everyday in contact with them (not close contact just like as colleagues or as your boss).
>Has multiple dildosnon-issue
>reads hentai Not the best but if it's less fetishistic and normal content not the worst. Do try weaning yourself off it if you can.
>Hates troonsnon-issue
>reads futayou gotta put it down especially if you tie hating trans and it together, that is weird.
>Pretends to be a lesbian online to deal with cognitive dissonance of hating men and being high libido heteroWhy the usage of the term cognitive dissonance? Hating men for what you know they can be like and having a sex drive as a straight woman, wanting pleasant sexual experiences are not opposing ideas to hold. Pretending to be a lesbian is harmful when people are homophobic and think they only like women due to trauma or hate, etc. You should stop that, and it is bad (especially if you have a large following) but otherwise in the grand scheme of things there's so much other crap hurting lesbians you aren't their biggest problem.
>Took own virginity when young bc didn't want a man to get the satisfactionThis is based. Only having the reasoning of it being against men is limited thinking, though a logical reason when men are creepy about virginity. More women should feel comfortable using dildos and masturbating before considering having sex with a man because it's important we learn what we enjoy to be less easily manipulated.
>First time a man touched her was during physio therapy Once again non-issue. If this is about being a KHHV or something like that then that's not an issue either.
>Freezes up and dislikes physical contact even with family Also non-issue. Some people don't like touch for many reasons. I'm sorry if they don't understand.
No. 861342
>>861068>you gotta put it down especially if you tie hating trans and it together, that is weird. The "girls with dicks" trope is attractive, but I find irl trans disgusting. They're seperate concepts but similar enough that it bugs me. I don't read futa as a hate thing and I'm not attracted to irl trans.
>Why the usage of the term cognitive dissonance? Hating men for what you know they can be like and having a sex drive as a straight woman, wanting pleasant sexual experiences are not opposing ideas to hold. Pretending to be a lesbian is harmful when people are homophobic and think they only like women due to trauma or hate, etc. You should stop that, and it is bad (especially if you have a large following) but otherwise in the grand scheme of things there's so much other crap hurting lesbians you aren't their biggest problem.It's cognitive dissonance because I know I'll never have good and non risky sexual experiences with men. I wish I could just get rid of all sex drive because it's futile and causes me stress.
No. 1023855
>Assburger
>Semi-close with one coworker, uses him as her emotional support animal
>Has a crush on him even though he's fugly
>Gets upset at the slightest inconvenience, hyper-focuses on it until she finds something new to be mad about
>Victim mentality all her life, tries to stop but knows it'll never truly go away
>Junkie
>Knows no irl dealers so buys it off the internet
>Started talking like an idiot due to drug use, uses words wrong and can't write coherently anymore
>Tried to get clean, got bored after a week and started using again
>Way too strong opinions about everything, is a pick-me irl because she doesn't dare to say what she thinks half the time except if it's family
>Trve kvlt 'metalhead' when she was 12-13, only barely liked the music but took it way too seriously nonetheless
>Raging feminist, randomly starts man-hating any time someone brings it up
>Used to be so insecure about her (normal looking) nose she started saving for plastic surgery
>Friends with a troon, thinks it's retarded and disgusting but doesn't dare to say it to her face
>Cares way too much what moids think of her, knows it's retarded, doesn't know how to stop
>Still has terf bangs, will never grow them out because she's convinced styled hair makes her human blanket fort style acceptable
This used to be my favorite thread, let's revive it!
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>NEET
>kissless, handholdless virgin
>has been lying to her internet friends about her real name for years for some inexplicable reason
>has yellow fever, vehemently denies it
>hates bdsm, kink culture, and scrotes but masturbates to fanfiction about anime men beating and raping women
>unironic communist
>threatened to upload pictures of her cutting herself after getting into an argument on 4chan
No. 1024046
>>1024040ngl you don’t sound like a cow you just sound kinda sad
>>1023911holy shit kek. girlboss?
No. 1024075
>>1023911>>1023855Definitely cow material.
>>1024040Some of these aren't even your fault. I'm sorry people keep treating you like shit.
No. 1024099
>>666004Update because last year changed me
>Prolific toe sucker>Compulsively pulls pubes out>Developed pica for tissues somehow>Moves in with a bpd self proclaimed femcel out of impulse that she met off 4chan>Starts dating said femcel and gets a nose job with her>Cigarette and weed addiction because she thinks its cOol post 2 months surgery>Begins drawing futa yiff and other degeneracy for money to sustain her addictions>Open relationship because bpd gf begged for it>Foursomes with a het couple>The dude is an ex of hers, finds out and punches her in the face>Gets arrested, but gets bailed out by her>Gets married a week later in a courthouse out of impulse and thinking it will improve our relationship>Relationship quickly goes sour again>Immediate retarded regret hits>Wife sorta wants to troon out because she thinks her brick body is too manly despite being super short>Anon also starts to self id as ftm online for the clout>Anon creates emergency ftm donation link thats really just for maplestory gachas>Wife disapproves, but also does the exact same thing except its to buy some 3k designer cat>Wife somehow accidentally let the cat loose after 5 days>Get matching tramp stamp tattoos of an xfile alien smoking pot>Starts doing coke after meeting sister in law because she thinks shes fiona apple or some shitI'm trailer trash and a massive cow kek
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I wanna cow myself but then I realized I don't do… anything really. Besides being here. The milk has already run dry. I need to take some lessons from some of you
No. 1025476
>>1024045I have a tendency to fall in and out of relationships by causing cringey drama or getting involved with cringey drama. Like every community and space and group I'm in somehow gets horribly ravaged by drama and I end up somewhere in it no matter how hard I try and avoid it. The past few years has been better but I am scared at anytime that something bad will demolish my reputation because I have been very close to having my life ruined
Nowadays I'm more of a silent stalker type and hyper vigilant about what I post and who I talk to, have gotten more private and oriented around DM's or smaller groups. I'm sure something bad will happen because I tend to put my foot in my mouth and say retarded shit. end up in someone's drama. I used to be the manufacturer of drama and sometimes I still want to start shit, troll people, send false tips and "tea" about celebrities, but I often opt not to. I have a bunch of interconnected dots and dirt about celebrity blinds and anon gossip and I'd love to blow my top and admit who I think is behind each alleged blind, or at least one bombshell I think people would be interested in, I'm too scared of potential legal repercussions and nobody believing me
It's just my luck that my most boring years dramatically are also the years I want to kms and am fed up with my existence. I should be doing something more dramatic but all the while I'm scared if I do what I want to do that's cowlike or put forth my "exposes" that they will have no effect because people will say they're based on heresy and not truth
No. 1026007
>>1025575I wish I was a groupie kek
I did try and make myself a place in communities where I wasn't known for my face and got horribly mixed up with some nasty people. I didn't actually want to stir shit, I made what was initially parody and satire posts about the condition of the groups I was in and they were taken literally. Then I became too literal in retaliation. I have a gallows sense of humor, it doesn't fit with the current social mojo. Problem is I'm a dumb bitch who doesn't always know to shut up. It might benefit me one day? For now it's what's cowed.
The other thing is that I'm very prideful, no matter how hideous I think I look. I don't want tweak my face or body before my 40s or give into capital based patriarchal beauty standards that I know are going to change. I hate the idea of catering to moids. But I'm somewhat of a human meat puppet onto myself. I think my features are both bland and exaggeratedly ugly when they start moving. If I weren't so insecure about my looks I probably would've banked off them. If I had the willingness to sell myself I probably would have been a tiktoker or instawhore or something and even more of a cow onto myself, but the way I look on camera outside of selfies disgusts me
No. 1642091
gonna update mine
>"post-wall" bpdfag anachan, not diagnosed with autism but only because she refuses to be tested, thinks it would make her ugly/retarded
>bi, obsessed with ex friends, ex internet gf and women she went on 1 or 2 dates with 5+ years ago, often stalks their social media to use as motivation to not eat anything
>functionally asexual for about 2 years due to eating disorder with a weird gross body. showers sometimes only once a week, bleeds from any kind of vaginal penetration due to chronically dry ana pussy, bloats enough to look pregnant despite being <80lbs and shits mucus almost every day
>huge autistic self harm problem, hands covered in scabs from scratching, biting, marks on neck, throws self down the stairs when upset and whacks legs to the point where they're covered in bruises, sometimes in front of her family but often alone
>still overly concerned with being "pretty" despite nearing 30, always wondering if she's cuter than other women or more fuckable despite not fucking anyone in 2+ years due to eating disorder
>one of her few joys in life is shitposting on lolcur, mostly an irl social hermit too afraid to meet new people due to the above ongoing meltdown being set off by friendship breakdowns
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>middle class child w no trauma other than being ambiguously autistic and very homely
>addicted to internet by fourth grade
>peaked in middle school due to making friends for the first time
>moves to ghetto neighborhood on disgusting, humid hellhole island (Guam) and is too lazy to make friends
>decides to be weird loner because socializing is too much effort/too scary
>no hobbies other than gaming, looking at gore, and internet
>gets second chance at having a normal high school life
>too lazy to try and puts the smallest of effort in anything
>feels lonely even though she rebuffs all attempts at people trying to befriend her
>lost virginity at 17 to 26 year old who looks like uglier Ed Sheeran
>started sex work at 17 because she had no hobbies and not enough social skills to do fast food
>50 year old scrote (married btw) attempts to blackmail her despite being the one who paid a minor for sex
>lives with constant anxiety from blackmail instead of getting any help from adults
>finally starts getting therapy again
>therapist calls police and parents find out
>joined the army after high school despite hating being told what to do and being too autistic to socialize
>embarrasses herself several times until getting herself kicked out
>becomes obsessed over narcissist scrote from tinder
>gets too drunk and lets random moid give her a shitty ringworm looking tattoo in his living room despite knowing better
>starts doing sex work again
>wastes money on mid rhinoplasty after doing no research
>doesnt take up any meaningful hobbies during copevid, wastes tons of money on ugly dollskill crap and talking to literal pedophiles on tor
>developed hybristophilia due to spending unhealthy amounts of time on the internet
>constantly having intrusive thoughts of spree killers all day
>forms parasocial relationships with neckbeards on a internet drama discord instead of meeting people irl
>finally starts making friends after getting a chance to start over
>tries to cut tattoo off due to self loathing instead of spending time with family on the fourth of july and posts pictures on discord for attention
>impulsively leaves great job and new friend group and runs away across the state for a porn addict she met on discord two months ago
>has quit yet another job just because she got bored
>terminally online despite “quitting the internet” a hundred times due to being extremely addicted to edgy content, internet drama, and lolcows
I usually don’t overshare this much but I really need to quit the internet, it’s like crack to me at this point and its been ruining my life for too long.
Maybe the true cow all along was myself.
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>>1642241that was a stressing post
No. 1647921
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>at 7 pantomimed hanging herself in front room to see if anyone was watching her
>socially retarded homeschool kid trope
>met best friend online when she was 11, faked entire life to her because paranoid of strangers on the internet
>10 years later, stuck loving friend (platonically) under a weird alter ego and its too late to be honest
>obsessed and clingy with friends
>raised by encyclopedia dramatica, PULL, stamina rose and the farms
>anachan, schizochan, addict, diagnosed with a litany of diagnoses
>lost virginity blacked out in a 3-way with a married couple who were burnout whippet addicts
>tried and failed to sugar/escort due to social retardation and homosexuality
>wants to do opiates but is too socially retarded to find a connect
>had sex with a guy for some bunk coke
>wants a caretaker
>move in with codependent caretaker gf, promptly almost get trafficked because of own stupidity
>alcoholism intensifies, does not explain why to gf
>ruined relationship with codependent caretaker gf because of drunk/high outbursts and 5150s
>fringe conspiratard
>disavows the “edgy sad misunderstood mentally ill artist uwu” trope, secretly identifies with it
>makes shitty word salad art
>drinks at work
>fake nice to gendie coworkers
>goes off her meds because it feels more real and she likes the attention when she’s not doing well and she doesn’t want to get fat
>mommy issues, living under parents’ roof at 22
>complains about dilapidated state of house, does nothing to contribute
>little to no intention of getting clean and sober
reposted because i forgot some good milk
No. 1647930
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>>1647921>whippet addictsexplain? did they snort the dog's fur to get high or what
>makes shitty word salad art drawfag/musicfag/writerfag?
No. 1647937
>>1647930whippets are like the stuff in canned whipped cream or computer duster, the air or something, it gets you high for a second but it kills your brain cells. when this guy did them in front of me he seriously looked dead.
thank you for the whippet, love a good dog picture
>drawfag/musicfag/writerfag?drawfag and writerfag, i wish i could make music but i don't get it.
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Old Milk
>Internet addicted almost from the time family got internet, has spent most of her life online since
>Was literally an unwashed freak with mental problems throughout most of her schooling years, and had multiple emotional breakdowns throughout school, cried almost every day in HS
>Physically attacked bullies, even drew blood once and got a reputation for being an insane psycho
>Treated like a borderline retard in school because completely unable to focus on anything due to emotional/mental problems
>Desperate for friends, yet would only cling to people who treated her like shit, ran away from genuinely nice people because she figured they just pitied her
>Would Type Like This For Years And Didn't Stop Until At Least Some Point After Graduating HS
>Purposefully hung out with 4chan retards and even in creepy chatrooms as a teenager until early 20s for validation and attention
>Even met up with some irl, secretly wanted something bad to happen because she deserves it
>Somehow managed to graduate highschool in spite of crying every day and skipping most classes. Has done nothing with her life since
>Used to act overly apologetic and appeasing when trying to approach other women, just weirded them out
>Hung out with moids who sexually harassed her in order to not be alone
Current Milk
>Womanlet
>Socially isolated immature womanchild
>Room covered in anime garbage, plushies and trash from childhood. Looks like it belongs to a 12 year old
>Cries about not having any friends but ghosts literally everyone she comes into contact with
>Only ever gets approached by men, women instantly know she's a basket case
>Hoards clothing and keeps buying more but only ever wears leggings and oversized sweaters out because she looks ugly in everything
>Insecure but obsessed with appearance regardless
>Uses 'muh abusive dad'/'muh codependent mother', 'muh neglectful childhood', 'muh learned helplessness', as an excuse for being a failure
>Never went to college
>Still doing entry level menial labor in late 20s
>Virgin in her late 20s
>Sexually confused and afraid of intimacy in general, feels disassociated during any attempts at sexual intimacy with men, feels ashamed of attraction to women/feels that they deserve something better
>Gurofag, into weird BDSM shit. Goes through periods of hating sex and being disgusted by it and then periods of being ashamed of being an adult virgin. Probably going to die a virgin
>Plays weird degen hentai games and VNs
>Has cried in public multiple times & had messy emotional breakdowns at almost every job she's had
>Always wanted to be an artist, let other people's discouragements stop them from pursuing it
>Planned on committing suicide at 25 but pussied out
>Started drinking and isolating harder to deal with being a failure and the fact she's done nothing since she graduated since she planned on being dead by now
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>lost virginity to a literal rando on a houseparty while drunk at 16
>at 17 found some 23yo NEET loser on a gaming convention, decided to move him with him in order to not live with abusive mom
>be live-in prostitute basically to live at his parents house for free
>smoke weed constantly
>at 19 move out and immediately cheat on said "bf" with roommate
>get schizophrenic and post a lot online while high on LSD and other drugs, no education or real job just schizo retardation
>try posting incoherent writings and absolute shit sounding music online
>enjoy getting orbited by the most disfigured looking mouthbreathing incels
>at 22yo groom a 15yo boy for no reason and have sex with him on vacation
>even met his mom and claim to be 16
>commit credit card fraud in the thousands
>at 24yo finally snap out of it
>find a virgin 22yo boy whos Christian and with good values
>act tradthot ever since so I can once again move in with him and embrace life as a live-in-prostie again
No. 1648092
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don't even know where to start so i will go with her recent milk
>dark triad stacy larper assburger
>lies in groupchats about working in stem and travelling the world
>is actually a burnout druggie college dropout immigrant poorfag
>bipolar and various schizo traits sometimes
>doctors think it's migraines and she is hypochondriac
>only consistent friends are online, even there:
>get kicked out of autistic interest groups for ghosting
>shitposts about female separatism yet only hangs with moids
>even druggie female friends ghost her, she thinks it's because she hallucinates
>literally nobody tells her she hallucinates
>bi but can barely say hi to women without hyping herself up
>constantly depressed since dropping out after 4 years
>doesn't shower for days on end, gets acne, bacne and greasy hair, has bad posture, still thinks she is hot
>keeps getting emotionally or physically cheated on by boyfriends ever since the druggie one
>every guy seems to think she is into him, bad or not, she keeps talking to them
>wants to settle down and form a family since childhood but doesn't believe benevolent moids exist
>starts cheating instead of getting therapy and avoiding relationships with scrotes
>masochistic lifestyle, literally chews her cheeks constantly, refuses to hide stims
>is nearly 30, yet even teenage coworkers show no respect because she acts childish
>barely sleeps 5 hours a day then gets offended when people say she looks tired
>"a-at least i look young from never getting sunshine for most of my life!"
>can barely form a paragraph of thought, fails everything ever since, could barely pass the driving exam
>drops out of lower than bachelor level courses because muh mathematics made her cry
>works a minimum wage job where coworkers think she doesn't speak english nor understands it properly
>plays stupid to avoid more responsibility at said job and keep getting "retrained", wasting their time
>thinks it's an own towards the workplace, while every normie she talks to thinks she is embarrassing for working there
>forgets to eat vegetables for months on end, suddenly thinks she is dying of heart attacks and cancers and organ failures
>wanted to actually travel around in a car for years, is too lazy to save up for one, too materialistic to not hoard shit
No. 1648128
>>1648126You sound like a good but also very sensitive person unlike other cows itt, please know that you're worth being loved and try to limit the time you spend here.
The people you're talking to in here are either pedochan who fucked an underage boy, sexworkerchan who's probably too coked up to form sentences, "manhater" anon whose only friends are misogynistic incel men.
No. 1648146
>>1648128Thanks
nonnie, that's really sweet of you. I'm turning 20 in the fall so enough time for redemption, I still think I have cowish ways but it will be alright if I keep my head up.
Also >>1648059 kys for the good of society, absolutely vile. No. 1648204
>>1024040the failed russian despair novel protagonist is back
>attention grabbing attempts go too far>she really really wanted famous guys attention, and she starts feeling this impending sense of dread>she no longer wants his attention and aims to scrub her accounts and fandom even though she is still attracted to him>stumbles across rumors and tea that shed new light on his actions>turns heel on him>connecting dots where she's not supposed to and doing "research">article comes out implicating him as possibly being a mass sexual abuser without revealing his identity, but it sounds like celebrity>she feels guilty>wants to make a powerpoint with friends to expose him around the time he's promoting his next movie, ends up shelving it>it won't work>too terrified of the consequence>discovers that he has connections to lawyer who kills people and shady russian oligarch who also kills people>months later she sprains her ankle and is forced to be out of work for a week when she's already at rock bottom>ends up covered in self harm blood on the kitchen floor>while visualizing him as a hallucination telling her to slit her throat >if she died her body would've festered for days>her technology starts glitching including one night where a speaker randomly triggers in the house and starts playing a song telling her she's crazy>she snaps posting pseudo article on celeb receipting him for the things she thinks he's done… quietly >thinking nobody will see it>around original planned drop date for the initial powerpoint>he comments on current event sounding purposely obtuse>response is divisive>the internet explodes in outrage over his response>using similar talking points>nobody ever cites her "article" but she believes it's the catalyst point>his career tanks>celeb leaves entertainment industry cold turkey>she mentally folds and breaks for months and almost kills herself again >was it manifestation or was it something worse>meets people trying to find information on him suspecting maybe it wasn't a coincidence>she does>they're like her little research sisters>in the process, shes possibly targeted >talking to them and to a potential "source" or two confirms the validity of what she already knows>the lengths people will go to in order to remain famous>the little coalition of women she's a part of is publicly humiliated>threatened with doxing and falsely accused of things they didn't do>ad hominem to the extreme >including going insofar as to hack the groups teeny discord impersonating the mod and delete channels>infiltrate almost every one of their chats>turn other people against them using heresy and drama based on lies>creating harassment accounts to post photoshopped and out of context screenshots of deleted discord channels so they can't defend themselves>one of the "sources" turns out to be a two faced traitor>the entire time someone has been feeding information to the higher ups and they're not even sure who the higher ups are>likely elites, including actor, his fixers, his pr people, other celebs who are involved people, and attorneys>the group mentally breaks down>by the way, half of this list of individuals literally murders people>weirder things start happening >she continues to egg it on thinking someone will come out against celeb, or ruin his reputation, or he'll do something drastic if she continues screaming and writing on the internet wall>she's a media major, she knows how to generate buzz>pain causes her to spiral out and relapse hardcore in self harming>why does he have this halo of protection around him>why can't she fucking get anyone to listen>eerie things continue to occur in anon's life>some of which correlate to the content of her private logs, which should not be visible to anyone>harassed off multiple social platforms in an almost orchestrated manner similar to what happened during the first smear>and even gets creepy comments on imageboards>she swears up down and sideways that she's being watched>just can't prove it>nobody believes her no matter how hard she tries, nor when she approached it much more objectively and journalistically>when she removes her own troubles she now believes celebrity to be an abuser and a stalker who's probably killed someone>this man hates women>this man apparently has 90 alt accounts and lurks his own name constantly>he's extremely homophobic towards lesbian and bi women and has likely abused several ex girlfriends and is a revenge porn hoarder>he's probably been sexually abusing women since before anon was born>anon is young enough to be his daughter>he has a daughter>would he abuse his daughter like this>because she already has severe ptsd and other issues, she wants to take what's happening as erotomania, no. she witnessed several people around her get mentally railroaded>she doesn't believe all the things happening are coincidences>there is a tipping point>it's too many>everytime she finds someone they leave or end up harmed in some way>nobody wants to talk to an aborted attempt at an indie journalist>nobody wants to talk to mainstream ones either I mean look what happened to ronan farrow>she has had her issues since she was 19>she knows her mental health enough to be able to distinguish between psychosis and delusion and reality>so in this she gained some kind of a watcher>and that watcher may be the guy she was fawning over in the first place>she loathes him>she's afraid he's doing even worse now and she has to just sit back and watch false praise pour out>while this fucker is possibly in a cult and abusing women en masse>while this fucker may have edged her towards suicide>knowing he uses PR and bots and people don't know the things she knows>it ruined her life>was it worth it to do this to a survivor of abuse who was already hurting, mr super star?>anon is in therapy and trying to let this go>plagued by nightmares>insomnia>interrupted sleep>intrusive thoughts>legs and arms look like they were mauled by wolverines>crying and panic attacks>bodily aches>heart arrhythmia>worsened chronic ibs>her body and face are both so wasted by this, she was never pretty but now she looks heinous>she's afraid she will have an aneurism or a heart attack>it doesn't matter if she continued to challenge the abusive man>he deserves her vitriol>fuck it, it's not about her>she cared about and felt so guilted by the idea he'd harmed so many other women that she stood up there>screamed what nobody else wanted to hear>till it destroyed her from the inside out>waned off social media for two months yet lingering addiction to it, went back on reddit of all platforms>just got harassed recently >she only mentioned him a couple times when someone else did, not provocatively>and here it goes again>here it goes again>she still has hope for her future and recovery, its a long, hard road>she graduated college amid it and still has a chance>he didn't kill her>in all the times she wanted to die in life she never felt more like she wanted to die than with the idea the thing she put the most faith in would hurt her like this>that's her own fault>this showed she had passion, even if it was cowish>it went on for too long>there is still love and life in her>she should've been extending her efforts to actually improving her life >instead of channeling it into this smear that was never gonna work coming from a nobody>she wanted to be in the industry herself, she just wanted someone to listen to her>in all this she lost herself, and she's deeply wounded>if it's all true>if he's aware, she's afraid she will die one day>even after this is over and she's out of therapy>if she one day succeeds and is a happy, healthy woman again>and he's still alive>there is nothing she can do to stop someone else's money and power from potentially harming her later down the line>she is afraid he has her dox, knows what she looks like, has collateral, and nobody ever truly helped her in all this to confirm she wasn't crazy>she has to live with the uncertainty in a life knee deep in abuse and misogyny long before she encountered this worm>and the only way it'll stop is if someone actually does something>somebody stop him>nobody ever does>and if it's all a delusion or a manifestation gone wrong… >what a waste of worldly energy.>she was a cow, but she was a cow with a cause>fuck her life No. 1648253
>>1648218The saddest thing not even me I'm most concerned about, it's all the other girls who he's harmed directly and physically and the possible revenge porn
victims. My damage is minimal next to theirs. I want justice for them. I don't care just about me. I've followed celebrity abuse cases that aren't just his own, and I am very passionate about reformation and holding men accountable. It's wanting a safer world for those whove been targeted by violence. Because the majority of women who are targeted by men like him are already
victims.
he's got a culture of silence around him very similar to Jared Leto. Leto rapes girls, but has never had formal accusations. Yet everyone knows, who is into gossip at all, of his reputation, or they come by it. Leto also allegedly sticks his fans/bots on and harasses ex-members of his fandom. Last night I was reading about Jay Z's alleged mistress's death. This isn't just a Jim problem and it isn't just tinfoil nonsense. This goes around in whisper networks, but is the brutal truth nobody wants to speak about. There are literally women who end up dead or forever entrapped in silence. Just
knowing that existentially fucks someone up, and what's worse is the
idea you could end up dead or so tormented you kill yourself, when you're floating too close to the fire, even though you're not in the blaze
It would be no better time than now to break the levee. If I speak freely anymore it'll have the same result. And if I don't stop it's gonna give me a heart attack. My physical health is so awful and I can't afford to fully treat it. I'm in therapy, I even found a nice DBT book and have been scrawling down my intrusive thoughts on paper, but the effects of this will linger forever.
if I hadn't gone the selfish direction involving myself which I did in a misdirected rage, people would believe me. I hoped to reframe it more informationally. Too late.
I just wish he could realize for once in his life how much pain he causes, but that isn't my problem to bear. Six decades is too little too late for basic human decency. I always deep down wanted him to realize what he'd done wrong. Didn't want to hate him. At some points I was irrational, attention whoring, and crazy, but I was just coping with my situation and surroundings. I'm not perfect, I admit I'm not perfect, unlike the PR postured bitch, and that's why people hate to hear it coming from my mouth. Like I appreciated his work, but why did the artist have to be a fucking murderer. Why did this have to happen to me? I ask myself that all the time, and nobody ever brings me solace. In the end I have to bring myself solace when I'm sick as a dog after all this
No. 1648459
>>1648026It's not made up, though I'm not sure about the party girl part? Other people probably had different perceptions of me during that time, but "the sooper fun gal who is down 4 anything" is the person I strove to be, unfortunately. Like, I had no other goals. The absurdly idiotic stuff happened 10 - 12 years ago. I would have deserved to be on LC for many things. There is more. Thank fuck none of it ended up on social media.
However, I'm still a cow in that I work 2 jobs to support myself and a moid who can't hold a job down, and I am crushing hard on another man. I drink in secret with a NEET friend of mine about once a week at her place. I am not proud of any of this, kek. Not sure why I'm responding. Probably because I am retarded.
No. 1649163
>>1649001same and idgaf. not likely anyone would recognize it in
morocco anyway
No. 1650739
>absolutely NO social skills whatsoever since birth
>will never speak or look at anyone to the point of regularly being mistaken for having a mental disability
>can go weeks without speaking unless someone she knows personally (ie family member) directly asks her something
>hasn't had any friends since age 11. not even online friends.
>dropped out of school altogether at 12 due to bullying and stress, did schoolwork at home instead
>has school shooter-tier fantasies about her bullies
>never crushed on anyone irl, is exclusively attracted to fictional characters and a couple of celebrities at most
>pretends to be tough and aloof online but will cry if someone makes fun of something she likes
>sometimes will cry over literally nothing
>will also have panic attacks over nothing
>wants to kill herself just from interacting with strangers irl
>too retarded to go outside by herself, parents are perma tardranglers
>has vomited and fainted in public more than once, mostly vomiting
>always vomits in car and train rides especially, doesn't matter how slow or fast
>has pissed herself (and vomited) in school an endless amount of times, was once close to shitting herself
>has not seen a doctor since highschool
>has never seen a gyno at all
>has never seen a therapist, psychologist, or any specialist because her family doesn't believe in therapy etc.
>has the teeth of a methhead due to depression and genetics, too poor to fix it
>the one time she tries to get help the dentists didn't even want to deal with her anymore
>extreme digital hoarder and e-stalker
>will have millions of copies of the same photo (always of famous people, OCs, other people/characters in general, never herself) with slightly different tiny variations that no one except for her notices
>will stay up for days without sleeping and eating if a topic or person interests her enough, even if that same topic makes her depressed
>leaves about 400 tabs and 6 windows open 24/7 about her favorite person/topic until the computer crashes, reopens them all again, repeat
>cares more about her imagination than her own life to the point where she forgets to eat, clean herself, and get out of bed at all
>husbando and parents are the only reason she hasn't offed herself
>developed a huge spanking fetish due to child abuse
>still likes her parents despite that
>is a closet masochist in general but sometimes the reverse
>lives in a house where one half of the basic necessities (showers, sinks, toilets) don't even work properly
>occasionally gets a mouse or two roaming around (they're eventually caught tho, until another shows up a few years later)
>used to have cockroaches everywhere during childhood (although that eventually stopped completely)
>house rarely looks clean even when things are actually cleaned due to parents hoarding junk + too much furniture in smaller rooms
>cannot walk more than 2 steps in her own bedroom which is also partially a 4th closet for her parents
>regularly picks her skin until it bleeds, immediately picks at it again once it heals
>uncontrollable weird throat noises whenever she eats or drinks anything
>cannot go for a basic walk or run without getting tired easily despite being rail-thin
No. 1651689
>>561518you guys are just crying about being traumatized, i thought this would be a funny read
anyway i'm here to bring you some old fandom cringe i was part of. nowhere near as wild as anything else in this thread but at least it's a little lighter.
>has dozens of banned deviantart accounts>roleplays edgy 2deep4u mary sue oc's>roleplays several oc couples with other people>accidentally got into a relationship with one of them because he didn't understand it was just roleplaying and actually thought they were in love>too much of a people pleaser to tell him to fuck off so she roleplayed as his gf for two years (he broke up one day, trooned out shortly after)>both made cringy AMVs to emo music and uploaded those to youtube (if you find them feel free to post tbh, i'm not connected to any of those old online aliases)>landed on several hate/ bad-art-tumblr blogs for making very ugly sparkledog designs>sold very shitty adoptables for a dollar a piece, 10 characters per page, one upload a day>ended up on more hate blogs for that>made a catfish deviantart with purposefully ugly art to troll people, somehow ended up with a genuine small fanbase of preteens>left said account and broke a fans heart, they still posted jounrals years later saying they miss heralso:
>started drama by selfshipping with favorite naruto character>had public fights with other selfshippers over who said character REALLY loves>made such a stink about it, mutuals drew fanart to support the causecurrent "milk":
>still draws cringy oc art>browsing lolcow and typing up this garbage instead of working on my college assignments No. 1651906
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>>1648092>shitposts about female separatism yet only hangs with moidsIf it makes you feel any better me and one of my friends did the same thing, even though we both had boyfriends, but we'd pretend to be separatist lesbians with a daughter online, we even lied about aborting two of our pregnancies when we found out they were male, IDK why we did it, like I don't even hate men that much, I just thought it was funny and got a thrill of pretending and people believing what I said.
No. 1651918
>>1651906absolute KEK
nonny, you are insane, love u 2 bits
No. 1651939
>>1651906this is objectively funny
>>1651917stay mad retard
No. 1652003
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>bitter late 20's burnout
>got groomed by a 30 year old man as a young teen and knew what she was doing was wrong but enjoyed the attention
>writes off all women even if she pretends she is "totally over it" and would be open to female friends
>hates men but talks to them constantly because they are easy attention and she's a mental midget
>stayed with an ugly fat guy for years to feel control over her life
>became an alcoholic to cope with having to fuck said ugly fat guy
>became codependent on him and couldn't even get an oil change for her car without him
>complete womanchild with no sense of responsibility
>always the victim in all of her failed friendships and if other people don't like her they are just being mean
>pretends to be a lone wolf to cope with complete social inability
>dresses like she raided a Kmart dumpster and has the same haircut from 2007
>considers it a good week if she didn't drink and took consistent showers
>her only friend is her now ex bf and the men she is "using" for casual sex
>she will probably cry when they stop talking to her
No. 1652014
>>1652003Make new friends and try what
>>1648059 did, and find some young dude(not a minor) and try to have a stable life.
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>>1648253oh don't forget
>made what feels like 10,000 reddit alts to try and fight his propaganda on top of main account>deleted alts over and over when efforts to fight his propaganda with her own failed>he always wins>torn down over and over and over!>she sassed a ton of the bots and alts with snark>which only aggravated them>believes she has the identity one of his alts that is in use but is too cowardly to dm it>on the off chance it's not actually him, she doesn't want to confront it>she's back online but constantly trying to micromanage everything she says and says it sparsely>screencaps fucking everything that bothers, interests or susses her out>has address for his 26 million dollar brentwood house that's up for sale>thanks to the listing being public>not doxing if it's public hun>jim why is your house so ugly>frequently has nightmares about the eyes wide shut bathroom in picrel since viewing it
>swears she has a sixth sense and wants to secretly break into the house or "take a tour">lives nowhere near la and thinks she'll get killed if she leaves her post >so she won't ever do anything>to take a tour of a 26 million dollar house you'd have to pass an amex black card credit check who is she kidding>really wants to get a reading and visit the mirror bathroom in particular>the eyes wide shut bathroom screams the epicenter of evil
>can't tell mostly abusive family his name even though one member of her family now knows about the online harassment junket involving a celeb>family member is fine with her withholding his identity because it came out in an immature burst of emotion>and family member does not care deep down enough to pry>still in therapy and doing dbt but struggling to sleep more than ever>prays and wishes and burns candles during the witching hours to ward off the evil and help her pass out to curb the insomnia>is afraid she'll have a heart attack soonthis bathroom has haunted me for like two weeks now
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>>1651906Why did someone sent this to some radfem on twitter
No. 1655725
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>cringey tard rage moments in high school
>terrible fashion sense
>after years and years of wearing it, still can’t do makeup
>unmanageable jewfro despite no Jewish heritage
>every single memory I have is attached to a cringey thing I have done
>flashbacks of all these moments play in my head constantly giving me hand flicking tics
>obsessive and stalkerish tendencies
>in my thirties and obsessed with a celebrity
No. 1655727
>>1655726a minor league sportsperson
not a household name or anything
Unsure if it makes it worse
No. 1655794
>nearly 30 yo ex autistic stripper with vague career prospects
>child prodigy turned mentally unstable, avoidant, stunted, and emotionally retarded in adulthood
>autistic parents whos special interest was telling her that she is headed to hell unless she does what (they) God says
>edgy reddit athiest for a time once freedom was tasted
>zero discipline to finish projects despite obvious innate talent, inability to capitalize on said 'gift'
>depends financially on her nigel and has a melt down about it every 3 months, attempts to start a new career, gets discouraged, goes back to 'housewife' acceptance, rinse and repeat.
>has begun multiple different career paths to abandon each one. Currently in the longest stretch of 'success' by bringing in $600 a month.
>has strange underlying avoidance of speaking to other women despite craving a female friend, yet recognizes she spent early 20s only befriending men due to their low standards and near zero failure in forming said 'friendships'
>wears the same clothes from 5 to 10 years ago despite gaining weight and the clothes falling apart
>sleeps on the floor
>gets very interested in a hobby, goes very hard for about 3 months, abandons it. Rinse and repeat.
>bounces between being confident that having real friends is optional, and existential dispair about how socially inept she is. Cant let go of very high standards for other people if they were to become friends.
>extreme phone phobia, wont answer or return calls. Takes a week to muster strength enough to answer an email or text, not that they come much.
>probably giving herself lung cancer due to unsafe studio practices working with fine particulate, but hey at least she tries.
>3 cats, all cute.
>stereotypical male interests, good with hands and handiwork but cannot seem to command respect for it. Men will speak over her in favor of her nigel, so she shrinks down and gives up even if she knows she is right about something.
>main social outlet is pretending she is enrolled in college classes by watching lectures online.
>probably will move in with her mother if shit hits the fan with her nigel/finances, despite being nearly 30.
>continuously disappoints old aquaintances, and new, by not 'making it' yet in a field she was prophesied to excel in. Cant handle all the 'you should do x!' She gets from people and avoids them. She should be able to do those things, but, cant seem to.
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>>1655728my nona
>>1655765I figured it was OCD or anxiety or something not normal. I don’t believe in therapy and I worry if I ask my doctor for something for anxiety that the jig might be up with my years long opiate prescription. What a mess nonnies.
No. 1655837
>>1655826Kek, yeah I hated writing that and I hate people knowing I am good at
insert thing but my whole life I have been told I am supposed to turn that thing into work for God blah blah blah it really, really fucked me up. Like those autists that can redraw a city from looking at it one time. Def not that good, and not that particular thing, but I know now I am not special I just had a weird talent and never developed discipline to do anything with it so now I am comparable to those that actually worked hard to get skilled. This is probably the last time I am ever going to admit to being good at anything, because I know it comes across as stuck up. And of course, that is what I am told bt an anon when saying it. I hate talking about it irl and rarely, rarely do unless someone bugs me really hard. I did recieve a lot of recognition as a child on a national level. I live a pretty tame life now, but had a cult like fucked up upbringing that literally told me God was working through me. Really messed me up. Believe me or not, i dont really care, I still ended up scrolling on my phone like most everyone else.
No. 1655865
>>1655830The only therapy that can fix OCD is EMDR. It takes a lot of effort and time because you basically have to reprocess every main memory that causes you to spiral, but in the end you are actually fixed.
What are you taking opiates for, and do you source them legally? Because depending on that, will depend on how much your doctor cares. The most common prescription for OCD is Prozac.
But if you really want to be discrete, find an online psychiatrist who doesn't take insurance. You have to visit them once in person, and then every three months you have to have a zoom meeting, but they won't share your medical records and anything you get stays off your medical record. And since they don't check your other medical history, when they ask if you're taking any other medications, just lie.
No. 1655868
>>1655856You're ashamed that mentally ill people exist? That's not very cash money of you.
>>1655837Please
nonnie, I need the milk on you. What is your special talent?
No. 1655885
>>1655846>>1655868I can draw human faces with extreme realism and accuracy. Does not translate to digital, only by hand. I dont really practice, and I am face blind to an extent so idk. When I was little I wanted to be a human printer when I grew up kek. Was on my way to being a tatto artist that specialized in portraiture, I wanted to be the best in the country. But I couldnt handle the people and am socially awkward. My church made me illustrate books when I was a kid and I hated it but couldnt say no. Yeah, im one of those (high functioning to a point) autists that can not be a real adult now. If someone finds out I am good at drawing they start telling me all the ways I
could be successful, all the things I
should do, try to get a commission from me for pennies, then my soul shrivels up because it just isnt that easy, not for me and they wont pay me more than like a dollar an hour anyway when I try to talk price. Im a hermit now basically lol. I got flown to NY for my talent and several weird awards before turning 18, just general recognition I guess and the assumption that my life would just sort of play out into some sort of artistic success for God? Yeah, I needed more education, support, help navigating life and understanding how things work in the real world and never got it. After I turned 18 idk wtf I am/was doing. I decided in recent years I am only drawing for me, and learned to say no to people in that particular vein because it would send me into crisis mode. I actually refused to draw anything for like 5 years at one point even though I enjoy it.. I still owe drawings and paintings to several family members but I just never do them and avoid them, kek. I am trying though, I have moved on to other things that still is art related, which I do enjoy, but might be less stressful and more feasible making decent money at.
No. 1656244
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>>1655856I dunno anon, I don't like it either but I do think to some degree some of these could be made up or are half truths. I think anons just need some friends. Or therapy. Or both.
>>1655869I always remember an anon on here who posted a cute black cat in the cat love thread and its name was "cash money". Also reminds me of this old meme that I loved posting in 2014 KEK No. 1656348
>>1655885That is super cool. I hope you find the peace that you are missing. Possible career suggestion though if you're interested
You should go to festivals and fairs and draw people's faces. Put up a sign that says you're mute and partially dead and to please be patient and you'll be rolling in it while not having to make conversation.>>1656321My best friend is a therapist that specializes in OCD and you would be surprised at the number of people who have a treatable mental illness but they're not aware so they just suffer. If your thoughts circle endlessly around how you acted in every situation and how you hate yourself for it or you constantly think about all the bad or "cringy" things you've done even when everyone says the social interaction went fine, you should see a specialist about OCD. Those are pretty classic symptoms. Another symptom that most people don't realize is if you obsessively fear how your loved ones could be hurt or die and so constantly worry about how to prevent it. Especially if you make up little rituals to prevent it like clicking your teeth before going down stairs or breathing whenever you see a white car.
No. 1656391
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>>1656244noNNA ITS ME NO REALLY !!!!!!!!
C.R.E.A.M
but like, what if we really are friends in real life? No. 1658778
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>>1655865AYRT, I have heard of EMDR and it did sound promising, the only thing is finding a practitioner which is daunting but I know I just need to woman up. I broke my leg years ago and was prescribed the standard tramadol etc post surgery and then when I mentioned it remitted my depression (surprise surprise) to my psychiatrist at the time, he agreed it could work long term off label. He was right, but I am definitely scared to get off it if I ever needed to in the future and afraid the jig will be up one day and my current dr. won't prescribe it anymore (my old psychiatrist went to jail not long after kek).
No. 1658829
Inception milk
>sexual trauma with physical/emotional abuse beginning at very young age
>father was a schizo method head
>mother a legitimately lovely woman who was simply fearful and misguided
>years of spastic behavior throughout elementary
>mother divorces dad just before junior high
>close male relative begins sexual relationship at the age of 13
>relationship continues until age 22
>junior high/high school involves years of spergy, pick me behavior and emotional outbursts
>retarded level of absences, getting embarrassingly high/drunk on high school campus
>repeatedly getting into fights, acts out sexually with several loser scrotes but never actually engages in sex
>drops boyfriends as quickly as she gets them
>mocks and humiliates them afterwards totally he point she may actually end up murdered
>chronically lusting after one pathetic scrote for reasons unknown who toys with her for ages
>pathological lying, pickmeism out the ass and when she finally comes clean about the monster raping her and threatening her with death, no one believes her
>gets deathly ill during senior year
>comes back a month later severely behind on all studies
>in a state where "no child gets left behind" is treated as a joke
>has no friends, no one wants her around due to her insanity
>realizes this and drops out
>GED time
>gets temp job a long ways out of town with grandmother at 17
>grandmother tries to set her up with a fat incel who is nearly forty
>toys with incel for months before ghosting him
>even convinces him to try and run for president
>scrote gets committed and job ends
>another job in retail
>gets her shit together temporarily and works very hard, acquires store management at 20
>realizes store management is absolute hell
>panics and quits with workfriend to join a start up company
This is where the fun begins
>cue alcoholism saga
>drinking culture rampant throughout office
>is chased by several lonely scrotes
>toys with all of them
>ALL OF THEM
>engages in an affair with a scrote who tells her he's in an "open relationship"
>ends about as well as can be expected
>insane from alcohol addiction, goes off rails
>gets her first car wrecked three days after acquisition
>scrote she's having affair with is in the car
>kicks him out before moid relative can show up to assist with wreck, forcing scrote to walk back to office building
>moid relative eventually discovers affair
>flips the fuck out, breaks into her house and destroys all her personal belongings
>fucks off to the desert to kill himself or some shit
>affair scrote ghosts her and she loses her damn mind
>eventually moid relative contacts her and they formally end things
>clarity for our cow commences
>realizes she no longer has to live her life like she'll be murdered tomorrow
>starts contemplating the future in earnest, wants to be a vet tech
>eases up on drinking/insane pot use
>visits OB for first time as abusive male relative was paranoid about doctor visits
>learn she has HPV and early cervical cancer from his filthy ass
>loses her mind again
>walks out of job, gets vehicle repo and spirals into depression for three months until cancer resolves
>told she'll never have children as a result
Present Milk
>after cancer scare decides to restart life
>gets job as vet assistant
>enjoys work, still drinks but not nearly as heavily
>all but stops pot
>a couple months in decides to try a dating site, because what could go wrong?
>meets a man within 48 hours
>speak every day for three months
>Jesus arc
>becomes christian
>he drives several hours for one visit, with a much older woman who is apparently his tenant??
>confused but she seems like a person who is just a little broken, needs help
>empathy for woman
>decide to move several states away with man, want to get married
>woman starts acting erratically
>a few months in the woman is feeding them alcohol, behaving insanely and using emotional terrorism to keep us in check
>she loves the man so much she stays
>becomes pregnant after six months
>woman loses her fucking shit
>goes full on batshit
>cow starts finding creepy ass drawings woman made of herself pregnant with cow's baby
>man and cow are planning wedding, woman is self inserting to a frightening level
>nightly arguments and fights with woman
>cow learns she has high risk pregnancy due to previous cervical procedure
>panic fills her
>calls stepfather and asks him to visit temporarily during wedding planning
>he arrives and is appalled by what's going on
>cow convinces stepfather to take her out of situation
>one day when woman and her fiance leave for work, she splits
>leaving behind a note, her engagement ring and necklace gifted by man, stating she'll be in contact within two weeks bit is too terrified to stay any longer
>fucking legendary drama ensues
>does this two weeks before wedding date
>months pass while man is desperately trying to reconstruct relationship with cow, while the woman is still leeched onto him
>cow finally stands her ground and tells him she has to go
>takes fucking six months to remove the psycho
>learn shes opened several lines of credit in his name, convinces him to hand over a car, several possessions or she'll kill herself in said car
>splits soon after baby is born
>repeatedly harasses cow and man for money, threatening insane situations to report that never happened
>cow and man unite, tell her to fuck right off
>for two years after psycho woman harasses with packages, phone calls etc until police are involved
>during this time, cow learns she has a legit health condition that is debilitating
>gives up alcohol
>does her best to be a great mother for her daughter
>becoming a mother changes her entire attitude
>redemption arc?
>life is fairly quiet now
>she's still a mental basket case, but working hard to recover
>not so milky anymore
I'm so fucking glad I never engaged in social media otherwise my dumb ass would be all over this site.
No. 1659518
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this is all shit i did in middle school / high school before my brain was developed
>used to act like i listened to “real rap” and not that “mumble rap shit” because i listened to one kanye west album
>one day i brought a speaker on the bus to show i listen to “real rap” and my bus driver started screaming at me because the lyrics had swear words
>on the spectrum so i believed anything anyone told me
>spent my whole kiddie job paycheck on luxury perfumes that smelt like they were for 60 year olds despite being broke
>acted like i was oppressed for being a virgin
No. 1659570
>>561620Damn this was my old post and I’m glad I’m doing so much better. My shitty
abusive dad died and I have a cool job and a college degree and clear skin. Still heartbroken over a moid but at least I have more things going for me overall now.
No. 1663057
>>1663046I think I've seen you in the vent thread.
>I'd never be able to tell his wife because I still hope he comes backKekkk
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>be me, 15 y/o
>had toxic LDR with TIF for five years and became a shitty person to be around because of it
>Socially awkward because of it, she was all I had as a friend because family was kinda neglectful
>BPD made me cling onto anyone else when TIF and I would have our million breakups
>would constantly post pictures with other friends / post about how amazing they are to make gf jealous
>Would cry a lot in class and also be a little inappropriate with friends, making stupid sexual jokes that make me cringe now
>would post emo song lyrics any time me and gf had argument or weird bpd shit (we were both BPD) mostly so she could see it as usual
>would act like uwu smol bean wearing flower crowns to school and skipping to class (yes, skipping/galloping)
>put on fake piercings aka 2 craft pearls glued on my cheeks with eyelash glue, supposed to be dimple piercings
>when me and TIF had final break up I had a crush on this guy simply because I was socially awkward and mistook our humour as liking each other
>ended up dating
>he broke up with me because I was a BPD mess
>sent him a long paragraph about how shitty he was
>later on still posting passive-aggressive stuff on instagram hoping he would see it
>still bpd, liked new guy, but wanted to be actually healthy so I got help and shit
and idk my life has been normal from there. I'd have a thread on here I think. I was so retarded as a teen
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>me at 14-17
>friendless loser autist
>post on an online forum with equally retarded autists
>larp as a boy
>write homoerotic yaoi rp fanfiction on said forum
>posts still up years later and cannot be deleted
>develop crush on a guy I was DMing with, meet him irl
>mental health breakdown
>he thinks I'm crazy, tells me to get psychiatric help and cuts contact
>BPDchan all over his and other forum friend's DMs
>land in mental hospital
>learn nothing from this experience
No. 1663600
>be me, vain and obsessed with appearances and myself
>22, honestly average or maybe a little below average looking but with an inflated ego because moids want to fuck me (they’ll fuck anything with or without a heartbeat)
>obsessed with pretty people
>not just moids I wanna fuck, I have pictures saved of strikingly beautiful women like Adriana Lima and Brooke Shields also just cute actresses like Michelle Trachtenberg and Phoebe Cates etc. on my phone for “ fashion inspo,” these eomen could pull off wearing a sack, I just like looking at them!
>when I had instagram I would look at pretty people who I know irl and just ogle the pics they posted. I would check their old photos and I’d have to go back to their profiles to make sure I didn’t like an old post
>I think I am pretty sometimes and I will stare at myself for 15 minutes just “popping pimples and tweezing my eyebrows” is what I will tell my family when I am taking long in the restroom, I am actually just talking to myself and making faces and sometimes I’ll wash my face and feel even prettier than I am without makeup
>posted myself on truerateme
>ATL: posted myself on a /soc/ rating thread
>I go on starbyface, betaface, pictriev and pinkmirror like at least once a week (or more) just to see who I sort of resemble
>I am also into kibbe I just wanna categorize and understand my beauty
>I am so autistic and dumb and lack discretion I posted my weight on my close friends story and goal weight (wtf is wrong with me I think about this and cringe still)
>If I see a decorative mirror, a car mirror or even a reflective window I will get distracted by my reflection and stare at it so I have to avoid looking at it
>was hesitant to delete social media because I wanted to show off my ~beautiful~ mug I’m still honestly a little burnt I can’t now
>I keep getting full of myself cause people think I’m 16 but I am young still of course I could pass for a teen I was one not too long ago also this is nothing to even get full of yourself over, I feel like a cringe DDLG lanapilled cottagecore ethot when I catch myself thinking like this
>take long to do makeup and pick outfits before i go anywhere because I’m staring at myself for a long time
>went on tinder and I just liked people calling me hot and cute I didn’t even wanna really meet up or fuck or go on a date (but I did fuck around with this one guy cause he was gorgeous, he was like the prettiest man I’ve ever seen tbh I’d honestly have his babies cause he had pretty genes but alas he was a whore and 5’7” so not worthy to marry)
>Most people wouldn’t even take me as very like this, I don’t wear makeup most times and I dress really plain, when I do wear makeup it’s just filled in eyebrows and like mascara I am rather unremarkable looking maybe a little attractive idk where my ego comes from honestly I was bullied for my appearance too but I’ve also been told I look way too pretty
>sometimes I think I’m very ugly and I can’t look in the mirror otherwise it will put me in a bad mood and I can’t even try to wear makeup cause it’ll just feel like I look dirty
> I fish for compliments sometimes
>I have a very hollow existence, I don’t have a lot of friends I haven’t had a best friend since high school, I can’t connect deeply with anyone it seems
>I’m like
>sometimes I think I’m some sort of NPC because I just run out of things to talk about with people
>sometimes I think other people are NPCs
>I have tried to date people and after a certain point it’s exhausting because I just can’t connect if you know what I mean
>I have been trying to focus on things besides appearance but sometimes when I’m out in a nature walk I get distracted by a beautiful person
>sometimes I stay up late and think of what other people say about me
>dated ugly guys because I liked hearing I was pretty and could do better
No. 1663957
>>1663632Thank you anon, it’s reassuring, I don’t post myself anymore because it’s just also hard to categorize and understand beauty like how I wanted to do desperately, it also doesn’t matter and I’m trying to take things one day at a time and just enjoy myself, my goal is to not give af but it’ll take some work
>>1663626You think BPD? I always thought I was obsessed with that bs in an autistic way, I think a lot of people who circle those subreddits and looksmaxxing online spheres especially the moids are, I talked to my therapist about my internal struggles with appearance and obsession and he said I just seem to care a lot about what other people think which is normal.. I honestly hope it’s not BPD I mostly just don’t want a trendy tiktok mental illness kek
No. 1663986
>>1663957>trendy tiktok mental illnessit feels like every mental illness goes through a social media "trend" cycle unless it's something unfathomably obscure, bpd went through this on tumblr too
hell now it's even trendy to be autistic, back when I was misdiagnosed with it the 'tism just made you a fucking retard
No. 1664593
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Me, the skinny version of Amberlynn Reid
>24 year old virgin
>conventionally attractive and vain
>thinks she’s special
>actually really insecure
>obsessed with pretty things and pretty people
>never leaves her home
>just wants a true best friend
>has 4 friends
>still judges them
>has GAD but hasn’t gone to therapy for years
>gives up and cries way too much
>has browsed lc since she was 17
>consumes escapisms to an absurd degree
>daily 3 hour Pinterest scrolling sessions
>actually has some talents that she wastes
>hates men to an insane degree
>never interacts with men more than 10 minutes
>will die a virgin
No. 1664618
>>1664596Kek yeah I’m pretty but that might be way too generous to call ALR even if she got skinny. I meant that my personality sounds like her. Pretending you’re doing stuff and that you have friends when you don’t.
>>1664599Yeah I don’t think I’ll find it special tbh it’s just a complex affecting my vanity and ego
No. 1665430
>>1664646Fuck. I’ve been wondering that myself honestly cause lesbians always say I seem like a lesbian
>>1664813Kek I will take that as a compliment
No. 1665597
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>alternates between being a troon panderer and a fake "radfem"
>schizophrenic bippie wannarexic turboautist
>abusive, bordering on horrorcow-tier behaviour in relationships
>zero friends since elementary school
>lurked imageboards since elementary school, posted since middle school
>an older zoomer, has no idea how to interact with other zoomers, millenials and boomers alike. completely out of touch with pop culture
No. 1670203
>Friendless loser autist and terminally online
>Unironically uses incel-speak
>Still lives with parents
>Refuses therapy because she hates talking about herself because she's afraid of sounding whiny
>No real problems in life and had a solid middle-class second-gen immigrant upbringing and still throws herself a pity party daily
>Bullied in school at an early age which permanently stunted her social skills
>Unabashed narcissism, probably has severe AvPD
>Maladaptive daydreaming cope. Looks forward to bedtime every day so she can fully concentrate on her inner world which is plagiarized from a bunch of other series
>Inner world used to involve overly-sexualized Mary Sue self-inserts in different fictional universes interacting with favourite characters, now mostly involves multiple OCs interacting with each other in said universes (improvement?)
>Made up a dream boyfriend in her head she jacks off to in the body of her ideal fictional self who is a different race. Race-hating tendencies
>Has an entirely separate daydream where she is a successful Youtuber & blogger who makes content about society, culture, class, science… literally anything, and has a huge following because all of her content is intellectual & scientifically-sound
>In this cope, massive news organizations take notice of her content and frequently cite her work, people across the Internet respect her content and every penny she earns goes to charity because she wants to look woke
>Might actually be good looking if she put effort in
>Refuses to wear makeup because it's too expensive
>Began skincare regimen late
>Began eating healthy late
More
>Virgin at age 30, just too autistic to form genuine relationships or fall in love
>Wants more representation and normalization of loser virgin women in the mainstream due to being one
>As a late middle schooler/teen, lurked 4chan during the Habbo Hotel raids and was obsessed with /a/, /b/, /fa/ and /x/
>Before 4chan, in middle school, hung out on random forums and came into contact with mentally-ill adults. Started hanging out in self-harm cliques & began having suicidal ideation as a friendless child
>Fortunately didn't have a lasting effect on psyche due to narcissism and attention-whoring, moved on from those
>Read every single page on ED in high school like a true autist. Strong hatred of KYM since its inception
>Joined Tumblr during college and began hating 4chan
>Annoying woke leftist phase as a result, came out of it in middle age
>Began hanging out on reddit in college (during its early days when the jailbait subreddit was around), turned into a moid pleaser. Still have shades of that. Main subreddit of choice was TwoXChromosomes (wasn't so bad back then)
>Was a jobless loser with student loans throughout college and after it. Forced to get a job or get kicked out/married off, so found a really shitty one by lying about work experience
>Sucked at it and was laid off, became a jobless NEET. Forced to find another job
>Actually decent at the second job, but it involved social interactions and normies
>Started learning how to drive extremely late in life
>Lucked into a decent job during pandemic and even made a down payment on an apartment
>Despite this, is afraid to move out & wants to live with parents forever
>Still no friends and virginity still intact
>Fugly with bad skin and bad teeth so never takes any pictures
>Honestly thinks she has a shot at dating in spite of being friendless and ugly. Delusional enough to think the apps will work
>50/50 chance of falling for the first man who gives her any attention and being used for sex, or dying a virgin
Therapy can't fix this. Bitch needs SSRIs
No. 1840222
>Autistic woman still writing fanfiction about husbandos
>Stuck in the early 2000s, cannot move on from high school because had so much fun and misses that comfy atmosphere (Went to an artistic school and everyone was weird like her, sperging about anime all day)
>Agoraphobic, sometimes will starve instead of buying groceries and delivery isn't a thing where she lives
>Bi with a preference for women, doesn't know how to flirt with women, cries about it online, expects women to find her attractive like a shitty YA story
>Gave so much attention to an ex moid that now she's traumatized to the point she doesn't even introduce herself to moids (which is based but also socially stunting like how do you expect to find another job acting like that)
>Hypochondriac, very annoying about it but at least doesn't go around wasting doctor's time and resources like munchies
>Dresses like a scene kid, doesn't own normal clothes.
>Cutter when stressed. Body is full of scars where people don't usually look (side hips) because she can't find a good coping mechanism, resist therapy because she doesn't like to talk to strangers and expects her therapist to read her mind. Cut even for said moid, extremely shameful about it.
>Shittalks Shein and other consoomeristic, shit quality stuff but she's a fan of Vivienne Westwood who's known for her awful quality stuff
>Shits on Sephora girlies for being vain but froths at Duoyin and gyaru makeup
>Lurker, duh! Hi, cow!
>Secretely cheers at every tranny moid death by suicide because she thinks that the world is a better place without them, crypto terf, and despite troons being annoying and vocal online, she cannot help but feeling superior by only existing in comparision to them.
>Despite being almost 30, she still wishes to "grow up". You already grew the fuck up, cow.
>Didn't get he license, both for being afraid of driving and both for being lazy and can't be bothered to own, pay for and maintain a car, thinks that cars are scams.
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Wishing all of you best of luck this year, most of you cannot continue living like this. Personally I stopped cowing myself, the only cowish thing I might do in 2024 is becoming a drug addict because I took meth once, but fortunately I’m too lame and stupid for that, so I’m becoming the most rational and law-abiding citizen instead.
No. 1840492
>manipulative mom, emotionally unstable and abused-as-a-child dad
>drew pictures of her sister dying as a kid because i don't fucking know, she was significantly older and never around
>this has never been brought up and family pretends it never happened
>had physical outbursts as a kid towards other girls, decidedly "not like other girls" but in reality was an unstable gay girl with manipulative tendencies
>got suspended for pushing a girl up against a wall in third grade and threatening her to never make fun of her for being feminine
>pinched, hit, chased girls who made her feel stupid or weak
>stopped doing this around age 9, developed a porn addiction, never jacked off but watched violent rape porn and read doujins
>gave herself pneumonia to get off on being hospitalized
>obsessed with being sick, faked illnesses, kids knew she was faking but parents never suspected and missed school all the time
>bookworm and smart but refused to put effort into her classes
>developed a video game addiction, even when her devices got taken away she would find out where her parents put them, stay up, recharge and use them then clear all history/etc
>read homestuck, went on a minecraft server and met a singaporean girl who she roleplayed yaoi porn with on skype, then started e-dating her when they were 12
>joined discord servers, extremely manipulative and unstable, "faked" (read: play acted real thoughts but was self aware to know these emotions were stupid) depressive outbursts and suicidal ideation to prove she was suffering and ill
>lost every friend group she was in and routinely burned bridges for stupid shit, still hard to tell how much of this was her fault because she can barely remember it nowadays and how young she was in comparison to friends (read: 10-12 vs 15-18)
>learned e girlfriend fucked her dog and they broke up, but secretly was glad she finally got a taste of her own drama so she could be like people with actual problems
>faked genderfluidity online to be special
>developed an anal porn addiction and tried to imitate scenes, this ended in long term problems with fissures and bleeding that still continue today
>watched onision, leafyishere, pyrocynical; not like other girls turned into only befriending boys, not seeing self as a girl and feeling insecure about all remotely girly traits
>eventually realized internalized and societal misogyny and became guilt ridden for past behavior but didn't apply any of it to how she saw herself, still pretended she was boy lite
>joined tumblr as a 21p and dan and phil fan
>eventually became a fakeboi at 14 and followed niche tumblr drama in her circles like a religion. bragged about being mature for her age
>had plans to marry a 20 year old they met online for tax benefits and affordable college when she turned 18, this imploded a few months later over an argument about lil nas
>chronic anxiety attacks and depressive episodes that she still doesn't know if they were faked or real, faked stomach problems to miss school
>good student but a massive tool and self absorbed, didn't know how to let other people be a part of the relationship and steamrolled all her friends/used them to prove she was #actuallyill
>cut off hair, openly a lesbian but IDed as trans and had crushes on men that she wanted to be, fantasized about fucking men even though they repulsed her, long term issues with attraction from long term extreme porn use
>stopped watching porn when she went to therapy and developed a tumblr righteousness complex but still went on ao3 to read/write smut
>flirted with any male classmate who she wanted to be but was too pussy to get with any of them
>came out to parents at 15 and began testosterone at 16, as well as rounds of antidepressants
>befriended a nerdy guy in high school who obviously had problems with feminity and convinced him he was trans, he started to dress like a catgirl, she is still haunted by it
>eventually began exploring radfem stuff to debunk their claims and hateread but became a cryptofem anyway, stopped T, became even more depressed, began a weird cycle of taking shots every so often but doubling or tripling the dose to even it out
>hated self, became friends with a stoner guy with a misogyny fetish, smoked weed whenever she could, they tried to have a threesome with another friend but it was just too weird and after touching the guys penis felt like she was going to die and bailed
>got shady carts and 8ths and smoked full time, faked covid once to smoke daily for a week
>began compulsively lying about sex life to friends at school
>became full time stoner and upped antidepressants to balance out how shitty weed made her feel, stopped T completely, still a cryptofem and began to detransition to her friends, began browsing lolcow but felt awful for it
>lolcow made her realize how much of an autistic loser she was and had the "i dont want to grow up and become these people" thing, still super unaware about her behavioral problems
>desperate for a relationship, began dating a theyfab mlp fan who only ate junk food, had multiple hello kitty tattoos, was a chainsmoker but stopped smoking weed because she was psychotic. got her addicted to weed again and then dumped her
>hello kitty ex began dating misogyny fetish friend and they split off from her, now her only friend is the gay guy she convinced was trans
>returned to school with behavioral issues, smoked during the day, eventually had a "suicide attempt" with a razor in a school bathroom but was too pussy to actually kill herself, got caught
>got hospitalized and talked her way out of inpatient, said she was just acting irrationally because her meds ran out, snuck her carts into her bra and was stoned throughout her hospital stay
>sexted random men she met on discord to feel alive again, sent (barely) underage nudes while in her mental patient scrubs
>discharged from hospital, befriended girl she met on tumblr and fell in love with her, they talked and video chatted every day
>they developed feelings for each other, eventually met in person and spent days together in bed, tried to help each other sustain healthy eating habits, went out on walks and to clubs and talked out their problems with each other
>was fully honest with another girl for the first time in her life
>eventually had to transfer schools because she missed too much school, graduated on time but didn't make it into any of her dream schools for obvious reasons
>got into a uni that was in the city where the tumblr girl lived
>wakeupcall.mp4
>still outwardly trans to family because she doesn't know how to tell them she detransed and is still a depressed stoner disappointment but began to draw and read again, is now a neurology major
>got a job at a game store
>still browsing lolcow and still an autistic loser but making all As
>dating tumblr girl full time and it's the best thing that's happened in her life
>still a compulsive liar (was the whole reason she got her job) and cryptofem, still hates herself and relationship is emotional but still strong
>honesty is good, actually, and lying makes her feel awful
>turns out she really likes her school and is hopeful for her future
>has goals and doesn't use tumblr or discord anymore
im a dumbass and definitely a huge loser/manipulative but im really trying nonas. wish me luck and hoping the best for all you too. happy new yrs
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>abused by family friends and men in life
>pseudo substance abuser who's been on meds since she was 9
>has attempted to overdose suicide or relapse almost annually since she was 11
>cutter since age 12-13
>undiagnosed cluster b bipolar narc mom proclaims she's hated nona since she was toddler
>mom also almost let a dog kill her when she was an infant
>mom screams undiagnosed autist and only scrapes by in social situations thanks to her looks
>nona did not inherit moms looks and resembles her dad which makes mother hate nona more
>nona develops neurodivergencies and several mental disorders and spent her school years relentlessly harassed over them in addition to a really fat big boobed and ugly puberty
>but she was admittedly in desperate fucking need of anger management courses
>ends up in both real life and online drama since adolescence and is a cow who attracts other cows
>lapses into anachan behavior to cope and messes up system so badly she needs stimulant lax to live
>nona dropped out of highschool when mother almost let her die of an illness and she couldn't take another year
>nona waited too long to start college and move in with her father and should've done it years ago
>father is a nicer person but nona can't help but feel he uses her as an emotional surrogacy crutch
>nonas family is emotional incest personified
>nona estranged from sister when they have episodes where they beat one another and cannot reconcile
>sister resents nona for leaving her with mom and sister took brunt of abuse when nona left moms house
>she was still underage and bound by the divorce decree not like nona could save her
>sister drives nona into meltdown and nona cuts herself so badly she has an er visit
>father also acts like failed comedian and cant turn off the snark even in horrible situations
>father sows big daddy issues in her
>nona doesn't know what a healthy relationship is and has never been in one longer than six months in her late twenties
>nonas ex boyfriends and situationships were abusive rapey and prone to coercive consent
>vagina is fucked up by her assaults and was fucked up again years later
>bisexual with no gaydar and a struggle to approach women and ask them out
>once dated a woman online
>it did not end well
>tried hookup adjacent culture to try and heal sexual trauma and had it thwarted by covid
>nona developed some pretty psycho tendencies as a result of her twisted childhood and young adulthood
>fascinated by the sight of blood, it calms her for some sick reason
>also loves fire and setting things ablaze
>creepy obsession with cults, villains, dark arts, mysteries, occult and true crimeshit at different times in her life
>self victimizing bitch who weeps at failure
>barely gotten anywhere in life on account of of risk aversion induced by shitty failure filled childhood
>graduated college half a year ago (miraculously) and has sat around like a vegetable
>while in college completely avoided opportunities to intern or expand horizons
>she had multiple chances and blew them! blewwww them
>was so fixated in her online world she forgot she needed experience to land a job after college
>crap retail job all through college
>where she secretly resented a couple women she worked with
>drove a couple women to quit by purposely acting petty over the years
>also resents that older women at job infantalize her
>then makes no effort to act mature
>self imposed!
>spent a decade obsessing over anime and to an extent kpop that made her look like a pathetic nerd
>sorry to anyone who likes anime or kpop but the fandoms make her want to rope
>develop crazy hyperfixations since she was a kid that become tornadic and psychotic messes
>diagnosed with adhd and autist markers as kid and bipolar and bpd as adult
>has ptsd and strong reactions to fucking everything
>her verbose hands move on their own and never shut up
>it's new hyperfixation time!
>develops hyperfixation at beginning of covid that turns out to be disastrous and dangerous
>cowish behavior online pertaining to deranged hyperfixation has waned
>she went cray
>problem is ummm it still exists
>constantly looks at pictures of hyperfixation as an effort to bring about hatred, to no avail
>"why can i not get over this"
>has extremely lewd sex dreams or nightmares constantly and cannot control them
>dreams make her want to scream because they often involve degenerate kinks
>daddy kink, authority kink, non consensual bdsm, kidnapping, torture, monsters like vampires or demons
>and other disturbing explorations of internalized misogyny
>speaking of internalized misogyny, she really wants to support all women but often finds herself resenting pretty women or women in better straits than her
>she doesn't want to hate them but she's always seen herself as a fat ugly unconventional and frumpy heffer with no social skills
>why can't I be like the other girls
>social media addicted nutcase from 2020-2023
>goes on manic benders and alleged media hiatuses
>acting like selena gomez these days when she says shes going to take a break and then hops right back on
>has been off social media officially for a month contemplating returning all the time
>AT LEAST PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO NONA ONLINE!
>nona created and deleted tens of alt accounts out of paranoia
>nona finds herself enslaved to social media rather than enjoying it
>gets cancelled online and harassed for having mental episode
>quits medication upon losing insurance and hardly tries to get it back
>losing marbles in daily life
>starts having episodes of psychosis involving hyperfixation and shadow people
>manage to survive almost 2 years medicationless and conceals worse and worse episodes until they become tangible
>literally gives herself leg wounds that hurt when she walks begging someone to notice
>she's in pain and no one does for months
>she also frequently injures herself by pacing and dancing around the house and smashing into objects
>ooh pretty bruises
>starts creating unhinged audio recordings about her experiences, hyperfixation and addiction
>thinking she will die soon
>pukes in the shower a couple nights
>her legacy if she dies from the pain is spellled out in screams and jilted laughter
>everyone barely talks to nona anymore so she's broken and lonely
>self_imposed.jpg
>promises she's going to write her wannabe screenplay or novel and never finishes anything past concept stage
>like it's not a partially self induced exile since she has no idea how to contact and feels like she's bothering friends if she does
>friends don't check in on her either, shes a bad friend
>closest thing to a best friend moves to another state
>lose latest friend from college who met her during her most insane semester
>loses a friend because friend is a pickme and friend won't accept bipority or her sexual trauma
>other friend engaged and married to man she's iffy on and contemplates friendship with friend bc future husband sus
>misses out on friends wedding planning due to mental breakdowns when she initially was approached to be maid of honor
>screams
>have awkward moments involving friends husband and her before and after their wedding
>think he's a weirdo after that but don't have the audacité to tell friend
>leaves expensive leather jacket at friends house never getting it back
>sanity dwindles down to nothing
>have to admit to father and therapist and every single person who's left what shes gone through
>lose all real life friends
>online friends contact her less and less
>develops extreme aversion to men due to trauma and starts acting cowish at job
>autist behavior comes out and she can't look anyone in the eyes
>coworkers at job don't understand past when she finally admitted to them what she was going through
>lost fucking job
>tried to overdose several times and overdoses again, only ends up with a hangover that hinders her driving
>still has a habit of recording unhinged audio rants in phone voice memos then uploading them to google drive
>usually reiterating everything I've said the past while I've been recording them
>or whining and whinging about some topic or topics of the day
>nona obtains medication again but she's not on the wagon and won't be for a long time
>is stuck having to live with her father and beg him for handouts like shes 17 again
>literally wakes up everyday and tries to better herself but falls back into belief that shes worthless and has lost everything and wants to lie down and play victim
>carved angel number brands into her arms as a supplement to cutting
>it was supposed to be a stick and poke tat but she did it wrong
>like cunt you dragged yourself into this mess by being loud and annoying
>even if it isnt your fault then you still prolonged it far beyond where it needed to go
>you put yourself out there acting like a damn fool and think it's a-okay and won't affect you
>who do you think you're dealing with
>fears her cow y behavior online will come back to haunt her and she will be driven to suicide if it does
>can't say she doesn't deserve to be alone
>nobody wants to be around someone this insane and flaky
>but oh my god i am begging please someone LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME even if it's wrong LOVE ME
>ITS THE WORST BREAKDOWN I HAVE EVER HAD WONT SOMEONE LOVE ME
>no nona you have to pick yourself up and love yourself and be medicated proper before you deserve another chance
>don't you know this by now you dumbass
>been on this carousel before and afraid it will never stop
No. 1878211
>>1869005in what way,
nonny?
No. 1969111
>>1968589You're not a cow your life just sucks. Find an outdoors hobby
nonnie, friends will come with it along the way. I believe in you.
No. 1969323
>Friendless by own making, loneliness is a direct result of making myself boring enough to hide my tard tier interests and worldview
>Can't stop without sounding radical
>Stopped caring about using good English to seem less terminally online, just ended up looking retarded
>Learned 2 different alphabets for fun, hardly bothered with learning the corresponding languages
>On my way to learning a third right now
>Only 'friends' are my OC's, I daydream about their stupid antics more than is good for me. I probably spend more time thinking about them than my own life.
>Would rather die than get on tardbucks even though it's inevitable
>Regularly looks for jobs in other countries to escape my monotone life
>Goes to random cheap bar gigs to socialize
>Never made a single friend
>Still goes every few weeks
>Obsessed with the USSR, not a communist but keeps looking for loopholes to make it work
>Either clingy or unfriendly
>Chronic pothead
Old milk:
>Consoomer, every corner of my room still has a shrine of a former obsession
>Greasiest grossest teenager in the world, smelled like a yeast infection because for a while I decided changing my underwear daily wasn't necessary (kill me)
>Vargtard, I didn't even understand what he was saying I just liked his music
>Obsessed with a band every half year, scour the internet for every bootleg and picture ever, get bored, rinse and repeat
>Would try to get everyone I knew to listen to it
>Start using lcf at 13, used 'nta' for years on whatsapp thinking it meant 'not to add'
>Talk relentless shit about my personal cow, proceed to skinwalk her
>Boasted about dropping acid in high school to feel cool, no one cared
This is for the nonnie in the confession thread, idk if I'm a huge cow but if I'd documented it all maybe
No. 1969995
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>>561577> claims to be vegan but ate 3 slices of cheesecake today despite being severely lactose intolerant anywayBased
No. 1970385
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>showers once a week, if that, only washes face in the shower too so no skincare
>brushes teeth once a day
>self-proclaimed radfem but listens to classic rock and is in love with classic rock scrotes, the most misogynistic moids known to man
>sex obsessed virgin
>used r9k for a while when younger just to get attention because bored, backfired (obviously)
>no friends, can’t keep a friendship because won’t reply to texts and doesn’t care
>no bf ever yet constantly complains about being horny
>lets mould grow in room, will leave food out for weeks on end
>self contained munchie hypochondriac
>doesn't flush the toilet after peeing, leaves the door open and skids after taking a shit
>diet consists of processed food
>will literally do anything for scrote attention
>borderline narcissist but also hates self
No. 1970747
>>1969111i’m too fat and unathletic for outside hobbies unfortunately
>>1969357lol this means a lot to me actually