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No. 577270

Feel like shit? So does everyone in this thread. Vent to your heart’s content.

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No. 577274

This household makes me want to die so bad

I hate living here, I wish I could get my own place as soon as possible

No. 577275


No. 577277

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No. 577281


I feel the same, i'm stuck in an abusive household and can barely do anything despite being well into adulthood.
I am looking to get a job asap save my money and run away when i'm self sufficient enough.

No. 577282

I'm so fucking tired of not being able to eat enough. I know I would feel much better if I consistently ate enough every day, but trying to do so is so expensive and time consuming and effortful. I want to gain weight but it seems currently impossible when I struggle to get enough down to just feel okay. I miss food being an enjoyable part of life and I miss it being easy.

No. 577287

It sucks being ignored by someone you care about. I'm petty so I probably won't respond or send them messages for a while.

No. 577288

I hate summer so much. Pissed off wasps everywhere, too hot, humidity, no air conditioning, can't use laptop because it heats up my entire apartment, I get a new mole every time I go outside, my glasses get dirty and foggy due to sweating, underboob sweat, asscrack sweat, cooking is hell and cold water gets warm after 15 minutes outside

No. 577290

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My boyfriend always has dirty nails and i really don't know how to tell him i find it fucking disgusting. He's sent me mirror pics holding his phone where his dirty nails are visible and i make passing remarks like "clean those nails asap" and he says he will but when i visit him his nails are never groomed and have a line of black dirt.

It seems like such a silly nitpick but it really puts me off him and we've only been dating 6 months.

No. 577291

shouldn't matter how long you guys have been dating, he still needs to know how to groom himself and be a clean person. that's so nasty, my condolences anon lol

No. 577292

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Don't let this be you.

Get that mf to go get a manicure with you, or if you're from Covid timeline, doing each other's nails is fun too

No. 577293

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Had a zoom meetup with some friends yesterday, it went well and we talked about meeting up for a picnic this week.

>Took initiative to set it up this morning

>Six people in chat
>Only one girl has replied so far
>Not even a "can't make it" from others

I stg this is why they complain to me about never hanging out

No. 577296

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I fear for your vagina. Please don't let his disgusting paws on you unless you want a serious UTI or Yeast Infection.

No. 577303

I feel so fucking stupid posting this here but I need SOMEWHERE to say it.

I have severe ADHD and my current hyperfixation is something sorta embarassing, and a series my boyfriend already dislikes and he finally snapped at me over how much he hates it and how he's tired of me nonstop talking about it, and how he just can't relate to me anymore. I feel like this is the end

No. 577305

Dump him
Your interest doesn’t have a community you can interact with?

No. 577310

I wish I could get my aggression out in some healthy way. I broke a pair of scissors and cut my legs up like the fucking miserable hog I am just because. I don't even know why I do it. Its so fucking edgy and I wish I could talk to someone about it but no one has EVER taken me seriously about ANYTHING relating to my mental health. I went to a fucking psych ward at 16 and even they didn't take me fucking seriously. What the fuck do I have to do to get people to take me seriously?

No. 577315

I blocked this dude because I didn't enjoy talking to him even though he was cute looking but then he convinced me to unblock his number like last night, and I did and now he's fucking started again talking about a friends suicide that happened a decade ago that's still affecting him and how much weed he smokes and how much he wants to die and honestly I realize why I blocked him in the first place, ain't his fucking therapist. He's lucky he's cute.

No. 577316

I really want to text the guy I like even though I deleted him from everywhere like a month ago. Idk what I should do, I feel so stupid missing him knowing he doesn't really care about me lol.

No. 577317

was an idiot and ate food my body seems to hate cause i usually only got stomach problems from it. instead i got stomach pain, diarrhea, muscle pain, itchy blisters, and my throat was tight for hours. guess i really should avoid that food from now on fuck me.

No. 577318

Who do you want to take you seriously ? Family, mental health pros ? Also have you look into boxing or sports combat as a healthy coping mechanism, sounds like a dumb cope but it's actually super effective.

No. 577321

I'm ugly, fat and a woman. It's over

No. 577325

change your face(makeup/fillers) and lose weight, the world will be at your behest

No. 577330

Due to the GC subreddit being banned I had a look at all the women hate subreddits still up and I'm disgusted and upset. I mean I've always been upset about mistreatment of women, but this list of like…porn of women who are clearly hating it, rape, womens images being involuntarily put online for other scrotes to wank off to…including family! I understand being pornsick but it feels like a whole other level of lack of empathy. I saw a family pic of a mom and daughter in bikini pics at what looked like a pool party, posted with the request of wanking to them or something. If you were that mother, that sister unaware of your image being posted for sexual purposes…fuuuck.
And like, I hate that women are looked down on? For being more empathetic, symathetic, emotional…like that's the NORM, it's males that are emotionless psychos, and they're…what, proud of this because it's "badass"? How fucking stupid, and I'm even more stupid for having bought into that when I was younger. I hate that they control the narrative of what's desirable.
Anyway back to the reddit thing. Those subreddits are populated with damaged individuals who could actually see me outside, and look at me, and look at me through their messed up lens of just being a sex toy, and it makes me nauseous.

I'd hate all men but I vented about this to my male BFFs and they were very upset on my behalf and have always been kind empathetic people. If it weren't for them I'm sure I'd be KAM 2020.

No. 577332

AND ANOTHER THING totally unrelated, fuuuuuck the treatment of native americans. That should be some illegal bullshit man. And idk what that phenomenon is, but like whenever I mention it or hear about it people are like "apparently you can't use the phrase spirit animal because it's offensive" and it's like sure that's somewhat valid, but what about the systematic oppression of native americans? What about the fact that the native american women are disappearing in disproportionately huge numbers? You're just going to ignore that to bring up such a stupid point? Like why are you focusing on something so trivial? Fuck you.

No. 577333

disgusting that it's gone but of course it would happen, men's perversion and feefees matter far more than a real space for women or opinion against men, always.

No. 577340

It's so depressing. You literally have no place online where you could anonymously talk about gendercritical things, not only issues concerning trannies but also sex work, porn and general female problems. Companies and websites are dragging their feet deleting child porn, rape, abuse and anti-woman content but criticizing men deeper than the "kill all men lmao!!!" clapbacks, i.e. thoughts that could actually point out the unbalanced power structure, is strictly forbidden.

I seriously don't remember women being hated this much in the 00's, yeah there were degrading jokes and shit but the actual vitriol a lot of people feel towards them is medieval. I feel like the gap between genders has been widened a lot during the last few years and women are relentlessly being pushed into a smaller corner against the wall, some crack and start sucking tranny cock or join them out of social pressure. Almost all of my previously lesbian friends are now men or nonbinaries. It's so depressing that sometimes I just want to give up and isolate myself but I keep believing that it'll get better someday. More and more people wake up each time they cross another line.

No. 577347

You know what's frustrating? The fact that a lot of misogynistic men seem to have blinds on, and genuinely think that women are the worst. Why do they think there are so many pickmes/notlikeothergirls who will bend over backwards for men's approval? They see and read all this hate and they want to be different, they don't want to be hated and try to be everything men want. You don't see men do that. And they still don't see that, they genuinely think women are this evil superficial beings just because they wouldn't fuck the first guy that asks them, because promiscuity in women is still seen as bad while for men it's not, verginity as a man is shameful while for a woman is pure and preferred.
Also i agree, if it wasn't for my brothers i would hate men too.

No. 577349

I live in a mostly muslim country and although the new generation is better, a good chunk of guys still care about the hymen thing. For that reason, I never did penetrative masturbation.
Now I've been dating a guy for 1 year (we're both atheists luckily) and we'll start having sex soon. But I'm scared of how much it will bleed cuz one of my friends said she bled a lot (always thought it was a few drops or smt).
My bf is really cute and said a couple days prior to having sex, he can start fingering me so my hymen will either break or stretch - and I can be more comfortable during actual sex. But my repressed ass fetishized "dick in vagina first" for so long due to this stupid culture.
I feel so sexist for wanting proper "defloweration" because I would feel a lot better if I did the finger thing he offered. At least my bf doesn't call me a hypocrite for acting purity obsessed, he genuinely looked sad that I was this repressed.
ugh why does sex have to be this scary?

No. 577351

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It's crazy to me that men think feminism is this oppressive majority ruining their lives and controlling everything. First of all, the vast majority of men disagree with feminism or don't care at all. Maybe 99% of men will side with men. Then you have the massive number of pickmes and handmaids who are desperate for male approval, or simply cannot cope with the negativity when they have husbands and sons they want to believe in. Even aside from them, women are socialized to be agreeable and empathetic and put men first, so even many feminists will try to sugarcoat and soften it to protect male feelings. Feminists are a tiny minority and have had to fight for every right we've gotten, with men kicking and screaming the whole time. Misandrists are an even smaller group. No matter how you look at it, men always have the dominant majority of support.

But, who's surprised? See pic related, men always think our voices are much louder than they are because they want us to shut the fuck up.

No. 577356

He sounds like an asshole, especially if he knows you have ADHD.

No. 577357

Back when I was a huge pickme in my teens it was because I thought men were my sole protectors and I wanted to keep them happy so they would keep validating me as a Good Girl. By agreeing with any male-critical views I would be clumped in with the "crazy feminazis calling for the death of all men" and they'd abandon me on the spot for not being cool anymore. A mindset many women still sadly have. It's their coping mechanism to survive in a world that's made for men. It wasn't out of hatred of pride, even though it probably felt that way, it was simply out of fear. I'm sure a lot of the today's handmaidens are like this too, which is why I can't do nothing but feel sorry for them.

A lot of these same men who were edgy chauvinists back then are now woke male feminists. But all it takes is a few beers and their pig behavior comes out. They just got better at hiding it.

Thanks for sharing the image though, it's shocking how much women are still suppressed in academic settings even today. And pretty much everywhere, just like the deleting of the GC subs proved.

No. 577360

I was upset about being laid off from my job, but then I realized it's okay, I was working there for a little under 2 years, and my friends were right- you don't want to stay in a company for too long because the best way to get a raise is to move positions. I'm still job searching but it's good knowing that I'm basically guaranteed a raise in my next role.

What's really pissing me off is remembering that my entire department (minus one person who probably is the biggest loser in this situation) got laid off, too. I was the newest hire. Some of those people worked their entire careers at this company and they just laid them off with not just zero warning but with getting our hopes up about things looking up for the company. I get mad thinking about how shitty my coworkers were treated. I know it sounds stupid but our department really was like a family. It's just so unfair that I essentially won here (nice severance package, got to leave after 2 years without awkwardly having to beat around the bush about wanting a higher paying job, government sponsored PTO) and other people are left with a severance package that definitely isn't enough for the work they've put in, being treated like they're disposable by a company they've given their entire careers to, and let's be real, most jobs are going to find a reason to not hire someone in that awkward 55-65 age range.

Ok, I feel much better now. I've been holding that in for about a week.

No. 577364


(You’re not asking for advice but I felt complied to reply with my unsolicited advice.)
It sounds like when you’re finally ready for sex it won’t be scary or awful with your boyfriend, because he is considerate and sweet. Every girl bleeds different when their hymen breaks (I didn’t even bleed at all that I could tell). If you take penetrative sex/play nice and easy it will only hurt for less than 5 minutes.
If you need to, get used to fingering longer before having actual sex.
Remember our bodies sexual functions were evolved to feel good, no need to be afraid of what is natural.

No. 577371

Thank you so much, it's always nice to hear experience from other girls.
The 5 mins thing is also nice, and luckily my bf is also a virgin - and he kinda hinted that he thinks he might last around a minute when we first do it lol.
Again thanks anon, it means a lot.

No. 577376

To add my own unsolicited advice - the idea first time you'll have sex is supposed to be painful comes from dark ages of people who would just get to business, ignoring all foreplay. Not to mention every woman is built differently, with a different type of hymen, you can look it up. There's a very huge chance you'll feel no pain at all and there may be no bleeding too. Your bf seems like a total sweetheart, I'm happy for you to have your first sex experience with someone so mindful and caring. I'm sure it will be fine.

No. 577378

You can do outer foreplay too, if you don't want fingering. Get him to touch you until you're really really wet and it will reduce the pain to a minimum.

No. 577391

I still feel fairly traumatized about a breakup recently, I keep going back to the emails which are now buried in my spam folder. I'm trying to remind myself that cutting contact was ultimately the right move but all it does is make me upset at myself. It shows my replies when I never should have taken him off block. I never should have given in to society's narrative that women overreact to bad behavior from men, and given this irredeemable liar a chance to redeem himself. Because did he do so? No, he used the opportunity to jackhammer my self-esteem, harass me across multiple platforms, and gaslight me about what he did and said I was wrong in how I interpreted what he said. Then he attempted to paint a picture that he was the true victim from me having deleted him from my platforms, and I was the one with the issues since I said I wasn't going to give him another minute of my time until he proved himself by doing what he said he would do first. He never did, so the last few emails he spammed I left on read.
I hate his tone in these.
I hate how he didn't apologize and actually demanded that I was the one who needed to say sorry. The only thing he apologized for was "Sorry I didn't tell you I was uncomfortable by what you said," which is nothing but a backhanded way to blame me for what he did. The reason why I made him "uncomfortable" was because he pulled shit my exes did and I called him out for it. He had the audacity to play it off like he was joking, and that I should have known over text by the way he talks that he wouldn't have actually said that (of course he didn't say this at the time, just to gaslight me about it over email). Bullshit! Why do all abusive men demand women apologize to them? Are they such immature babies that they can't stand how their feefees hurt when there are consequences to the terrible things they do and say?

I can't stand that somewhere in the world sits this smug adult bastard living in his parent's house thinking women are the psychos and he's some kind of misunderstood king. I doubt many women stick around to fall for his bullshit–I only lasted a couple of months and it sounds like his exes think he's a dredge too. But still.

No. 577405

Reddit just banned r/banfemalehatesubs. A sub that advocated for the removal of actual fucking rape content and subs that were nothing but hatred and violence against women, like r/strugglefucking and so on. It's unbelievable. And yes, all the RedPill, MGTOW and violently misogynistic subs are still up. I could have kind of understood the excuses for the removal of GC but there is NO reason to ban this sub. Literally none. It was not even a month old and broke no rules.

Reddit isn't even trying to hide their blatant anti-woman agenda anymore.

No. 577407

Seriously? It's so blatant. I bet some of the site admins are gross scrotes who browse the anti-woman porn subs themselves. Reddit is on par with 4chan, probably even more of a shithole honestly.

No. 577411

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I've been doing therapy for years to fix the negative impact my chaotic, abusive family has had on me for so long but progress is slow. I work hard on myself. I did stationary DBT for a few weeks recently and applying it is hard right now and adjusting to the outside world without a safe haven. I hope it will get easier with time. I see my therapist and therapy group again and it fills me with shame what seemingly little progress I have to show for (as I am in a minor rut). I struggle with extreme feelings of shame and guilt and low self-esteem.
Really, I need to find ways to stop the negative spirals in my mind and look at the positives. I mean, it's good that there is a therapist and a group that looks out for me without coddling me, right? Either way, I need to apply DBT to this somehow, maybe fact-checking and check if I'm reliving old feelings or wrap my head around it somehow and find a way to build myself up instead of obsessing and putting myself down. I just want things to get better, more structured and to "suffer" less when it's not necessary

No. 577412

Something that's still annoying me after a break up a while back. If a man tells you he had an std in the past but he refuses to disclose which one… what std is he likely talking about?

I was already in over my head with some emotional abuse happening so I couldn't safely demand that he tell me. My thought was maybe it's an std that never truly goes away? We lived together for 3 years so he def wasn't taking hiv meds and he never had any warts or outbreaks in that time. I did test positive for one of the cancer causing strains of HPV.. and I had cervical cancer while we dated but I don't think they even test men for hpv? Also there's no 'treatment' for HPV (it's up to your own immune system to hopefully fight it off) and he clearly told me he got treatment for his mystery std.

Hate to say this because it makes me feel like an idiot but I had the exact same thing happen with a guy I dated years earlier
>Have you ever had an std?
>Yes I had one, one time and got it treated
>Oh ok which was it?
> I don't want to tell you
> Argument
> Total refusal to say
Anyone have any insight on why guys would disclose some truth and then clam up on actually naming it? I've since tested 'clean' apart from my whole cancer ordeal and I even tested negative for HPV after being retested post-cancer ordeal.

No. 577413

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>men get so triggered by women having an opinion that they have to ban communities with just a few 1000 members
>women complain
>omg, why are you so bothered by this?! Why can't you just let others live their lifes?! You sensitive bitches live in an echo chamber, my right to fap to teen corpses getting analy raped is real life!
It's funny and sad at the same time, what he said, "leave us alone" is all most feminists ever asked for. Please don't hurt us, don't harrass us, don't annoy us, don't meddle with our lifes and let us have our own spaces in peace. We're not asking them to do anything, just stop doing unneccessary shit that makes our lifes more difficult. But they don't understand this, because despite hating us so much they also feel entitled to us.

No. 577415

…there MUST be some information that isn't being given here. Though I went on yesterday and the subreddit seemed just fine, is there any way to spin it as a hate group? I think I won't be able to patron that site anymore.

No. 577418

I’m so sorry to hear about that anon. But now you have so many more opportunities! The same happened to me, but I was also working there for a little over a year and my department also had employees who’d been there since the 80s that got laid off after they told us they’d be reopening early july. It’s so shitty. I really hope you can find something that you like soon and wish you the best of luck job hunting! You got this

No. 577420

My guess would be either HPV or herpes, and yeah the men who tell you they were 'tested' to begin with are bullshitting about that as well. They don't test men for herpes or HPV unless it's specifically requested, men are just ignorant and think they've been panel tested for everything when they finally go in.
What likely happened is that they had a breakout ie. herpes on the lips, lumps on the dicks, and made a decision to go to a reproductive clinic to be tested for those specific symptoms. Oop-they find out they're positive for those stds, undergo a treatment, but then spread disinformation that they are 'cured' of it because they show no symptoms anymore. Their cope is that they're not contagious if they're not actively broken out, which is a falsehood and they know it. They know women have a tremendous and justified fear of HPV because of what it can do to us, and these days everyone knows that herpes is a lifelong, opportunistic virus that no one actually wants. HPV is also opportunistic and lifelong, even if not the cancerous strains.

Men have a vested interest in not disclosing their stds because if they were honest less women would make the decision to casually fuck them.

No. 577424

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I'm mourning my short relationship with this guy. Trying to reconcile the fact that we were fire and gasoline on most days but that we could also be really sweet and supportive together. He was a good kisser and lover and I'd like to think I am, too. He could be really cute. Some of the things that were hard to take were that he was extremely pushy and obtrusive and also heavily sexualised and rude and debasing often (which all has traumatic reasons for him but was hard to take). He also has ADHD and we just fought so much. And there was like no normalcy or stability at all. But I really just miss the good times. They really were good. He was there for me during a hard time and I appreciate that. It was worth it while it lasted

No. 577426

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My new sleeping meds fucked me up for last night and today. I get a stuffy nose (from most sleeping meds), can't breathe and can't sleep while being heavily tranquilized. Even now, half a day later, I'm still heavily tranquilized and trying to form thoughts and do urgent chores. Shit's fucking useless.

No. 577429

I hope you anons feel better

No. 577430

I’m proud of you for exiting before it got abusive, anon!

No. 577433

I feel like the longer you are away from him the more you'll see it for what it was. I know I romanticized my abusive relationship for a while after it ended but as time has gone on my eyes have really been opened. Here's to learning from our experiences I guess.

No. 577434

My cat died.
I haven't seen her in two years because i left the abusive house she was in. Mother's s/o beaten her up and she was too old to handle surgery.
Man. This year is weird.

No. 577441

I don't know whether to feel conforted by the amount of posts on here that mention abuse or whether to be horrified. I've shared my own experiences here as I have no other outlet but seeing how almost normal (or common) it is for young women to experience partner abuse or even abuse from parents.. it's alot.

No. 577445

Fuck anon, I'm so sorry. This makes me so upset to read. I can only hope she's up in kitty heaven, no longer in pain and freely jumping around like the young cat she once was. May kitty heaven bless her with her favorite treats, warm sun spots to nap in, and lots of love.

No. 577449

wtf is this shitty OP pic?

No. 577450

Honestly. It's disturbing.

No. 577454

being stalked by a semi-famous streamer, it scares the shit out of me. I know for a fact he lurks lolcow too.

No. 577458

Woah is he one of those streamers in twitch general?

No. 577460

nah I should have said actually he is washed out and banned on pretty much every platform at this point, he carries a toxic community with him everywhere he goes but is still semi-popular I suppose. He threatens me daily and I might have to get the police involved, again. for the 4th time lol.

No. 577462

Surely if he lurks he'll already know you're talking about him? C'mon tell us lol

No. 577463

I really would and want to but he does very malicious things in response. He will even post CP of myself, here, from when I was exploited as a child. I'd rather you not all see such horrid things.

No. 577464

Can’t you report him for possession of CP

No. 577466

Yikes! well that's understandable anon, keep going down the legal route

No. 577467

I have, but the system is very slow here. It was tied into my original complaint of harassment and stalking. If something comes out in a hopeful, eventual court case I'll be sure to let you all know here.

No. 577468

Good luck, hope he rots soon

No. 577470

Good luck anon, I'm really sorry you have to deal with this

No. 577472

He sounds like he needs the shit kicked out of him. I'm sorry you're going through this shit, I hope it gets better soon.

No. 577474

a lady was just so nice to me i genuinely want to cry so bad now

i love women so much i cannot describe this

No. 577476

I wish I could somehow find and get in touch with my exes ex. When I first started dating him he described her as crazy and unhinged 'probably bpd' he said. A couple of different times she sent him paragraphs worth of texts saying how abusive and manipulative he was and how he'd fucked her up. The pain sounded weirdly raw.

It took way too long for me to see him for who he was. It was hell being with him and he played the long game in luring me in and then switching. I want to meet that woman because nobody else could better understand what he put me through. I want to validate each other. Every one of his exes is labelled a 'frigid bpd bitch' as soon as he moves onto the next. Oh and his relationships tend to 'overlap' so I'm now wondering if those texts from her actually came at a time when he lied about them being broken up.

No. 577479

> luring me in and then switching

Don't forget that this does not have to be on purpose and from malicious intent. Especially these days Internet vs. rl can be a big difference without explicitly trying to lie and deceive.

No. 577484

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I wanted to sign up for a coding program to hopefully expand my current career and land a job that could bear to pay me over $20/hr after my bachelor's and master's degrees didn't help me much.
The cost for these programs is so oppressive and I can tell these people are predatory in the way they want to fast link my bank account and pull me into a two year commitment within 24 hours of sending their application invite. They're asking an amount per month that's basically a brand new car payment and while I could technically pay I could never suffer any emergencies. I couldn't call out sick from my job. I couldn't become unemployed, which is sketch as it is as I'm always a contract hire. I'd be so beholden to living from paycheck to paycheck at least during the program's duration and possibly long after if it fails to get me any better paid prospects. I wouldn't be able to ever spend on anything personal because I'd only have an extra $150 a month to spend on myself including food and personal hygiene products. That's not to mention the stress of working full time and then whatever demands this program would expect from me since they already encourage an extra 20 hours per week outside their virtual class times.
This advisor who's been trying to get me in this program talks about the financial risks so non-chalantly, "have you thought of a student loan through sallie mae?" Yeah uh gee, just what I need another fucking loan when I'm almost $50k in the hole from my old one. Literally can't afford any opportunities because of money.

I feel like an indentured servant. I have no support. I can't get help. Anytime anyone or anything promises to "help" me there's usually more of a benefit in it for them than what I stand to profit if I can at all.
I won't be able to save to afford a down payment on a house any time soon, so I'm stuck paying high rent on a shit property I don't own with the rate increasing every year. No man will ever help or support me because I'm not pretty and can't afford plastic surgery to make my body prettier, and the men I do get are all cheap bastards in the same financial crisis expecting me to help them pay for shit 50/50 with the added bonus of me having to perform unpaid domestic duties without their commitment like cleaning their spaces, cooking their meals, and putting up with their unhinged emotional bullshit because they can't be the men they wanted to be.
My parents are useless and immature themselves so I can't ask them for support. They have never gotten as far in life as I have especially at my age, and are swimming in their own debt problems despite making thrice what I do and got a pension. I can't even talk to my mom cause she's a psycho from her own trauma and acts fucked towards me to the point where trying to have a relationship with her is toxic.

Can't say I'll suicide cause I'm a coward and know I won't, but let's just say I wouldn't fucking care if I died tomorrow. I have little hope and my future is very bleak on it's current trajectory.
Maybe I should pop out some kids, become a drug addict, or do something criminal to land in jail cause it seems like help is really only extended towards people at rock bottom. Not people like me who are only at that pesky 'middling' bottom where we're told to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and to shut up and get back to our places. I'm so fucking sick of it.

No. 577486

My friend struggles with depression so she can get really bad at communicating. I get it. But I think I have reached my limit in what I am able to give without getting anything back.

No. 577489

Some context, this guy beat the shit out of me while his kid was in the next room, he did this right after we had signed a big lease together and moved to the oppposite end of our country where I had nobody. As soon as we went from casually renting to being stuck in a more serious lease he got physical and then forceful with sex. I went to a womens shelter eventually, I had to strip off and show injuries to police. He messaged me using his kid as a reason I should stay quiet.

No. 577491

I can't stand people who try to force their significant other into all their friendships. I'm now put in this shitty AF situation where I have to distance myself from one of my favorite people in the world because he insists on being a package deal with his girlfriend to an unhealthy extreme. To the point of literally trying to force all his female friends to be best friends with her.

Which I was totally open to, but it turns out she's actually pretty unpleasant to be friends with. She's sweet, but she is also incapable of rationalizing her emotions, taking adequate responsibility for anything she does wrong, has an intense victim complex, and oversteps boundaries to an extreme I've never dealt with in an adult friendship. She has made it adamantly clear that she feels personally victimized that myself and another girl in the group, who I have been best friends with for half my fucking life, aren't a best friend trio with her. She even went so far as to say she didn't want us to hang out without her and doesn't want us to have things we only tell each other and not her. This bitch is almost 30 and literally demanding to be included on equal footing in a 13 year long sister level friendship. Like WTF am I supposed to do with that?

And there's so many stories of conflict that arises from this shit. Anytime we need to fix shit with her, she's always 100% the victim and won't acknowledge any wrong doing. Her feelings are the end all be all. Doesn't matter if objectively you did nothing wrong, you still made her feel bad so you were wrong and should apologize profusely and bend over backwards to cater to her.

After 3 years of trying to work with this shit, I'm fucking done. It just sucks I have to step away from one of my best friends because he won't stop pushing his crazy girlfriend on me. I don't ubderstand it. I don't force people to be friends with my husband at all, let alone best friends, nor do I expect to be friends with his friends. As long as they respect hin and aren't jerks, I'm fine with them not being friends.

No. 577494

Oh my fucking god, I'm so sorry anon. I'm glad you got the hell out of there and went to the police.

No. 577497

Don’t pay to learn to code. Head over the freecodecamp if you want to learn web development. It starts at baby level, in case you have absolutely no knowledge. If you want to learn some other kind of programming there’s also a lot of free courses on coursera, or you could get a pluralsight subscription. Of course there’s always YouTube as well, but it’s hard to find quality stuff.

No. 577509

I don't really want to dox myself cause I posted about this to social media, but it was a specific program tailored for my type of field and not general web dev stuff. Appreciate the suggestion though anon, I will still look into it.

No. 577512

Yeah I don't like. It smells like scrote memes.

No. 577543

What the fuck? Kill that motherfucker. I’m so sorry anon.

No. 577545

Thank you so much!

No. 577548

To add onto what the other anon said, check out Udemy. They have a lot of courses on sale (usually on sale from 13 - 20 cad) and have a lot of niche courses you can take. If one of the courses aren't to your liking, you can get a refund as long as you ask for it within 30 days.
Good luck anon!! You got this.

No. 577559

Fuck periods. I constantly feel like i have to pee, my knees hurt, i don't feel cramp pain but it feels like my uterus has a nasty tingling bruise inside of it that i can't scratch. I wish i could grab my uterus and just squeeze it all out as if i was making orange juice. I feel so uncomfortable i want to cry.

Does anyone know any home remedies that make periods end faster?

Internet only says "oh just eat healthy, excercise and get sleep uwu" bitch i already do eat healthy and get enough sleep and i can't exactly go for a jog when my joints scream for me to let them jump out of my skin and feel like i have to take a jumbo shit and puke.

No. 577561

Damn, my big sister always accused me of humblebragging everytime I said that clothes my size barely exist, and kept telling me that we're the same size over and over again. And that I have no fashion sense whatsoever for wearing literally the only things I can find that are kinda ok on me. Then when I'm finally in a country where women are more or less my size she asks me to get her a shirt, to try it on so I'm sure it's the right size for her, and she tells me she'll pay for it.

Fast forward to today, I'm back in my country way earlier than planned, I give her the shirt, tells her she can pay me back anytime because she quit her job, and not only did she lose her shit because the shirt was too small for her, she was pissed that I didn't give it to her for free. What a fucking retard. She then claimed that I was lying and a greedy bitch for wanting my 30 euros back even though I don't have a job anymore thanks to corona-chan.

My other family members are sperging really hard over other small things that don't concern them too, I forgot how mentally ill everyone was but now I'm stuck with them until I get a new job. Thanks corona-chan for completely ruining my plans for the year and possibly my entire career plans and life!

No. 577565

Take ibuprofen, it eases the inflammatory effect period cramps are caused by and takes away the pain. Both in the uterine tissue and your limbs. And get a hot water bottle to hold against your stomach to help your muscles relax. Literally the only things that work for me, doesn't make the period shits go away or the constant need to take a piss but at least you're not in pain.

No. 577568


You're very correct, they are predatory.


obviously you do not need to learn all of these things to become a programmer, but their resources for learning programming are great. don't give up. it is a skill like any other, very frustrating to learn at first but achievable. I really recommend you pick an area and specialize in it. Webdev is oversaturated, but mobile development is hot and so is cybersecurity. good luck anon!!

No. 577569

i need to stop dumping my anxiety on people.
i think "oh, this doesn't concern them so i can whine and just let it out"…but that's not the case and people either end up stressed out on my behalf or exasperated that i can't be reasoned with.

i feel like a huge killjoy. not just for others but myself too. stress ruins so many things for me. i'm getting better but situations like the one i'm currently in prove that "better" isn't enough.

No. 577575


Thank you, anons.
I wish I could have done that. She obviously lied about how the cat gotten injuries, she even tried to twist it to other diseases etc but from what I've seen it was really obvious she got beaten up. That considering he also would always threaten to throw the cat out of the window etc.

I wish I could have beaten him up back, but it's not worth it at all. The important part is while I was around, the cat felt very nice and was treated properly. Mother said that cat even kept sleeping in my bed after I moved out. But I know my move out was and is worth it, because my mental health is good now, along with appearance and life quality. Living with them was hell on earth, because instead of a cat, I was the one who would get beaten up.

No. 577583

>passive aggressive friend messages me at noon to tell me "Have a good day at work!" as if I haven't been up since 5am and got here at 9am just because she saw me online since she has nothing better to do and probably just rolled our of bed herself due to not being gainfully employed rn and having all the time in the world to humblebrag to me about how much she exercised today as if she's got fuck all else on her schedule just go away and get a job holy fuck your face sucks

No. 577586

man, I'm really irresponsible and have zero willpower when it comes to work. I have a pretty simple distant job and I can't manage to work daily. So I earn much less than I could. I don't like this job, it's not horrible but it's repetitive af, nothing interesting about it at all, I don't learn anything new etc. I don't really have options at the moment, so… I just feel really pathetic that I can't make myself do something that I simply HAVE to do even if I don't want to. And I'm not even depressed or something, I'm taking my pills, I feel fine. So there's no excuse. I can't understand why money itself isn't enough for me to feel motivated, because I KNOW how I'd spend it.

No. 577596

I am so disappointed in myself. I can't stop spending money. I tell myself I'm going to save and be an adult and then the next day I end up spending 60 bucks. I have loans and car payments and grad school to save up for and yet I still make dumb impulse purchases. I've been so miserable lately that I chase any high I can get, and lately it seems to be buying things that I don't need.

No. 577599

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Guys, what should I do? I really want to go to another dentist since I feel like my current one just isn't it doing it and I feel like he has caused more damage than good in the most recent past but I just didn't realize it up until recent. So I'm looking fore new doctors and I'm just ugh so overwhelmed. The thing that kind of hesitates me to make an appointment at the dentist that I would like to go is the fact that my teeth are currently super tea stained and unpleasant to look at imo. So I'm debating if I should get a cleansing before going to the new one? I also fear what kind of damage I have because of my current doctor because I kind of feel like there has been serious issues that has been not taken serious and it f r e a k s the shit out of me. Maybe one of the reasons why I have the absolute worst health anxiety again. On the top of that I got a stiff jaw because of the emotional distress that causes bad teeth grinding and there so many more issues that I'm just feel like I'm once there I will get a breakdown on how bad things really are. What do I do????

No. 577604

If he threatens you daily please save those screenshots and show it rolling on your phone screen live so people don't say it's fake. Please, out these motherfuckers

No. 577607

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Last weekend I have spent 12 hours in scorching weather working during election. We were cramped in small room and there was no ac, it was a fucking nightmare especially since we had to wear masks and it was hard to breathe. I proposed to change shifts because it's not fucking fair that my group will have to work again in hot weather without breaks while the other one gets comfy morning hours and a long ass break before they have to come back for counting votes. Nope, fucking Karens didn't agree. And of course the spineless group leader didn't say shit. I hope that after finall voting I will never see those fuckwads again.

No. 577609

anon i lost my credit card for two weekd (was chillen in the trunk of my car) and lived off of tips from my weekend job for a bit, try locking your card/s away for a bit and just handling cash.

No. 577614

Other anon is right, keep yourself to cash only as much as possible is a great way to limit your spending. I have stupid monkey brain and I really have to do a bunch of things to try and make it more difficult for myself to spend money/trick myself into thinking I have less money than I actually do so I won't spend as much.

Does your bank have an autosave option? I have a % of my paycheck automatically taken out and moved into my savings whenever it's deposited so that money is as good as nonexistent to me. I also give myself a weekly cash allowance. The rules are that I can buy whatever the fuck I want with that money, but I'm only allowed to use the cash and can't take out anymore cash until the next week. No one is stopping me from going into my savings or digging a little into next week's allowance, but that's just where you have to build up discipline. Keeping myself to a set cash allowance that I can spend on anything helped me to stop splurging on cute clothes or other non-necessities because I need that money to buy groceries lol (also I definitely bargain with myself a lot).

I'm also very much a visual person, so being able to see how much money I had left in my wallet helps me keep track of my spending habits as opposed to swiping my card everywhere and then being nervous as fuck when I open my bank app, not knowing how much money I've randomly spent over the course of a week or so. This also means online shopping is pretty much forbidden for me. I'm not perfect and I do buy some things I don't need on occasion and break my weekly allowance rule every once in a while, but I'm a lot better at handling my money than I was before. Watching the amount of money in my savings account grow and seeing my loan payments get closer to zero is a different kind of high that I chased throughout this, and is a very fulfilling one. At least you recognize that you have a problem with spending money, which is better than a lot of other people. Baby steps anon, you can be debt free and financially responsible with money in the bank one day!

No. 577621

It's fine if your teeth are stained, the dentist won't mind at all, they see stuff like this on the regular and they won't judge you because of it. No need for any extra cleaning or bleaching, it's okay the way it is. Also my guess is that you don't have any extreme unfixable damage. Sure, your current dentist might be kind of shit at his job and he might have fucked up, but surely he couldn't have done anything irreparable because he surely was trained not to do catastrophic mistakes. It's your best bet if you find a new dentist now and fix any mistakes your previous dentist might have done right away; it's much easier to repair damage shortly after it's been done.

No. 577627

put yourself into the shoes of the dentist or a doctor. do patients need to hide symptoms to look better in front of their doctor?
it's normal to feel sensitive or even shame about teeth in front of the dentist but really, they don't care with countless patients and dentists go to the dentist, too, and have issues, too. everythingg you wrote sounds plausible. you can voice concerns about your previous dentist to them and say you wanted a second opinion. chances are a good dentist will be mad at a colleague that mistreated their patients if that was the case

No. 577629

the best you can do to look good in front of the dentist is go to the appointment and listen to their advice. bleaching sounds risky and not so healthy. it always looks good to take responsibility and you are doing that by switching dentists. even if it's uncomfortable, acting responsible is something to be proud of

No. 577631

Hang in there. karma is coming

No. 577633

Look out for yourself. There is no shame in having limits

No. 577634


This is very true and I really need to get my shit together and make an appointment. I need to know what is wrong with my teeth because even when I take care as much as possible, I still have so many issues and I'm sure there some things that ain't right but my old dentist refused to fix? Idk shit drives me crazy and I need to face the ugly truth and the new dentist needs to face my stained teeth lol

No. 577638

People get nervous when seeing the dentist but always remember that your dentists has several appointments per day and works almost every day. You think your teeth are in terrible condition but they probably aren't even the worst he'll see that day let alone week. Also, bleaching away your tooth stains isn't gonna change the overall state of your teeth all that much. Your dentist won't care either way.

No. 577651

Great news! I've reconnected with God recently, except to regularly wish for him to kill me off because I hate the life he gave me. I only tell my family about the reconnecting part though!

No. 577653

This dog outside won't stop fucking barking and I'm trying to sleep.

No. 577655

Retardedly jealous of privileged Europeans. Some artist I follow lives in Italy and was bragging about how beautiful it is right outside her house, showing pictures. It made me angry.

No. 577657

2 years ago to this date I met a man 15 years my senior and got drunk (and had taken benzos/edibles/maybe oxys idk beforehand) with him and had sex with him. I still think about it, and I feel absolutely disgusted by it but I also think it wasn’t rape or assault because I never said no so I feel like I don’t have any reason to feel disgusted. I self-harmed for the first time in half a year after I did that. I’ve never told anyone about this. I still think about it and it still makes me sick. Fuck.

No. 577659

samefag, i was reminded of this because instagram for some fucking reason still suggests him because I had him on my contacts list… 2 years ago

No. 577662

I'm worried sick I might have cancer. I'm seeing a doctor in a few hours but the anxiety destroying me. I wish I could just turn off my brain until then…

No. 577663

I'm just going to say it. Everyone in my ethnic group looks the exact same. I will walk past another girl down the street and think "me if I were 3 inches taller and with paler skin". So much so that bc I hate myself I am starting to think all girls in my ethnic group are ugly because they all resemble me in some way kek. Even though I'm sure they're objectively very pretty.

No. 577680

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mom died today. dont think its really settled in yet i just feel kinda numb. either way feels pretty shit.

No. 577683

Fuck, anon. Please take care of yourself.

No. 577687

unsurprising, but i feel for you anon. i hope the authorities stop him soon and you get some peace.

No. 577688

I'm so sorry, anon. I hope you'll be alright after it does.

No. 577690

I'm sorry, anon. I went through this a bit over a year ago. If you need someone to talk to, I'll listen.

No. 577696

Holy fuck I am really glad I am getting a divorce. I have been arguing with my soon to be ex about fucking Lolicon. I can't fucking believe it.

No. 577702

I'm so over my current friend group. Idk what happened but I just sorta woke up and I feel no connection to them. I think it's because none of them are able to have an in depth conversation about anything other than like anime or shitty netflix shows and it's boring. Idk how to proceed with this though.

No. 577707

Just do what any other person would do. Ghost them.

No. 577721

Truthfully you don't owe them shit. Dump the trash and feel free

No. 577725

>Dump the trash
>only flaw listed is not talking about stuff besides TV

No. 577738

what do you try to talk to them about anon

No. 577741

Maybe you could try to get into those shows? I know they're probably fucking boring, but you could try to analyze them and their subtext and try to elevate their discussions and maybe influence them to start having deeper discussions about stuff. What works for me is having several different friend groups, and being able to talk to my gf about deeper stuff.

No. 577742

Currently I hate every song on every playlist that I have and can't listen to a song for more than 10 seconds without skipping it. Even my all time favorites

I can't tell if i'm slipping back into depression or if i'm just fucking bored.

No. 577743

Found out today, I'll most likely be forced to move in a year or so. The guy who owns the land my place is on has always been pretty decent to us, honestly, but he says lately, he's hitting hard times financially, and crops aren't producing like they should. He says he doesn't want to sell, but he feels he will probably have to. At least he had the courtesy to tell us that he'll help us look for a lot to put our trailer on. Still, I'm fucking upset.

Worse though, is the fact that my asshole drunkard stepdad has been living with me, unfortunately, for years. And while talking about all this stuff today, he made it sound like he was going to move with us (us being me and my mom). That pissed me off and upset me more than the moving, I think. I've been dreaming of being free from this asshole for so long, and then we get told we'll probably have to leave, and he wants to come along with us. So I told him that he's gonna have to look for his own fucking place, he's not coming with us. Which led to a big argument where he pulled the same old "Why do you hate me?" shit (to which I always respond, "Because you drink"). It then further led to him listing all of my faults, as if somehow I don't know. Unlike him, I'm well aware of my fuckups, I've made bad choices, and I feel like I'm stuck in life as a result. Meanwhile, he's so far in denial and is such a fucking narc that when we have arguments about his drinking, almost daily, mind you, he still yammers about how he "doesn't understand".

Fuck me, I wish I could go back in time and reset my shit life.

No. 577790

telling myself "i dont care" but also me venting about it so maybe i do care a little. anyway i was kind of disappointed i didnt get the job and that i embarassed myself during the interview but thinking about it, im kind of glad i didnt get it even though i was hoping i would before i went in. i dont know if some of their comments were just to see my response to them or what but i really didnt know how to respond to "the guys in the team, they just talk a lot. they might say some things that offends you but thats just how they are" and "what i didnt like about previous employees is that they always leave me. like [name] left for maternity leave" like what am i supposed to say to that? and then he goes on to say it's a temp position until "my people comeback." how its a "full time" job but its never the full 8 hour day because everyone always "finishes early" but then youre expected to finish things within a time limit and beat your previous time each day. if you want the full 8 hours, go clean the place "sweep around". maybe THATS why the previous employees left, its not stated that its a temp position, being "full time" job is not even full time, and you do a totally unrelated job to the position if you want hours. the supervisor of the position didnt even make eye contact or asked anything, she didnt seem interested so i dont know what the point of her being there and "interviewing" me was. i failed the assessment they gave me so probably why i didnt get it lol.

No. 577792

My life has been in a state of limbo for the past 5 years and it's fucking me up. Nothing significant has happened or changed in my life. I've graduated from university but like… that's not really a CHANGE, just a moment. It's not like meeting someone and falling in love or traveling. At this point I want to be told I have cancer just to say I have something interesting going on. The days just flood into each other.

No. 577793

This sounds like hell, good thing you dodged this one anon.

I remember one time, an interview I got invited to was entirely about a thing that happened with the employee I'd be replacing and it was clearly a leadership issue. The people interviewing me agreed that it was, and that it couldn't be solved bc apparently a guy from higher up had a dumb idea that he forced the team to add to the product last minute. I kept being asked what I'd do in that situation and I kept reiterating "in the end it's a leadership issue and as a junior employee I'd just have to do my best to deliver what is asked but the timeline is nonsensical as you guys admitted so obv leadership needs to be the ones to address this, it's not on the junior when you spring something unrealistic on them that you admit is unrealistic". I did not get the job and I'm glad. Idk what answer they wanted to hear but they sounded insane.

No. 577807

my crippling, deep seated body image and self esteem issues have effectively obliterated my sex life which is fucking up my relationship.

for the first time in my life i'm with a dude who hates porn, finds me incredibly attractive, isn't into weird aggressive ass sex and prefers to have passionate, emotional sex, cares about whether i cum or not every time we have sex, loves going down on me whether he's going to get off or not, his dick is somehow perfectly curved to hit my G-spot even during missionary so i've had instances where i had multiple orgasms for like 8 minutes straight, etc etc etc literally everything you could ask for. and i'm so fucking imprisoned by my own insecurity that i can't enjoy any of it.

i literally avoid sex like the plague because all i can think about is how much i hate myself/how disgusting i am the entire time. and of course because of that he's feeling neglected and insecure because he thinks i'm not sexually attracted to him or he's bad at sex or whatever and its causing a strain in our relationship. if i was hot and confident i would be having the best sex of my life every single day rn. but instead i just can't seem to disconnect from the part of my brain that constantly berates me and insists on reminding me of how fucking ugly i am. feels bad man.

No. 577811

talk to a therapist

No. 577815

you are hot and confident, and your man knows it. they don't put forth real effort if they aren't invested like that. he seems level-headed, do you think it would help to let him know how you are feeling?

No. 577820

my family kept nagging me to apply and "get your foot in the door" so my parents seem disappointed i didnt get it but hah no stress for me.

who knows maybe they wanted to hear "speak up blabla something something" but i would have had a similar answered to yours.

oh yeah also the guy that complained about hating his temps were leaving also asked how long i could work for. i said as long as im needed but he wanted a specifics so i said a few years and then he went on about "you dont have any other plans on what you want to do?" like what the fuck, didnt like employees leaving but also a few years is apparently too long. i suppose i cant stay a few years for a temp position but i didnt know what the fuck he wanted. he was complaining about employees leaving so i gave an answer that would make it seem like i dont plan on leaving soon but whatever.

No. 577822

Sounds like he doesn't know what he wants at all. People like that are incredibly difficult to work for. No wonder his people kept leaving lol

No. 577831

i definitely am, it's just slow going so far and i'm having a particularly bad week

thank you anon seriously. im trying to remind myself that and change my inner narrative. and yeah he's super level headed so i've talked to him about it openly and he's been incredibly understanding. i can just tell that its starting to bring out insecurities in him. he believes what i'm saying but he also is starting to wonder if i find him attractive and i'm just being nice etc if that makes sense. and i feel super shitty that my dumpster fire of a mental state is affecting his self esteem too.

No. 577837

Nothing quite sadder than thinking the worst of your depression has passed, only to get hit with an even worse episode years later. I have no motivation to get through this knowing it will only happen again.

No. 577843

I have no idea how to talk to my dad, who is so emotionally closed off he verbally lashes out and has frequent moodswings where any little thing sets him off. Recently his mom had a stroke and he basically kicked me and my siblings out of the house for the day because he wanted to be alone. I don't want him to keep using my little brother as an emotional tissue, since my little brother has a massive savior complex that developed because of him, but I have no idea how to talk to someone who just wants you to sit and listen as they do nothing but go "woe is me". Then trail off into a tangent that involves them insulting everyone and anyone that has ever slighted them.

No. 577860

Anon this is me as well, wow. It was so hard getting up the first time i can't do it again, and knowing i'm going to spend my life like this drains every bit of hope and willingness to live that i have

No. 577869

Kek there's a lot of ghettos in Europe as well, and even if most people don't live in a shithole they don't necessarily live in a beautiful place, just some average boring neighborhood. I'm sure there are a lot of beautiful places in the US as well, but I agree, rich people bragging are the fucking worst.

No. 577886

thats a good idea i'll try that and make a video of it soon I think

No. 577917

I want a cute bf with long hair

No. 577922

me too anon.
>tfw no peter steele vampire prince bf
why live.

No. 577929

I was looking forward to meeting my grandmother for the first time in my life, but it looks like she will die soon as she came down with Covid and has very poor health.

No. 577930

Wow I have such a shit fucking luck today, directly starting from 1 am. Tf is all that for, what did I do?

No. 577936

sending you all my positive energy anon, hope you get it

No. 577969

My partner decided it's time to visit family and I can't stop them. I can't get across to my partner that choosing to go to the family home regardless of whether I come along is still exposing me to a huge risk of getting covid. I've read what the ventilator is like, I do not want to have this fucking disease at all. But the sister in law manipulated the situation as always and I can't stop my partner from going. I hate this shit.

No. 577972

This is gonna be so stupid but I really don't know what to do anons. I was raped almost a year ago and it has absolutely wrecked me. Like I have changed so much, so much and I miss my old self so much. I haven't enjoyed anything at all the past year, I haven't been happy. I haven't been doing anything I used to. All the friendships I had are lost. I feel like a corpse, just barely alive, going through the motions. I don't know how to move on and just fucking be normal again. Be a productive member of society or some shit. This was just a dumbass ramble, I just want to feel okay again like I used to. The fucking pandemic ensures that I'm always alone with my brain like, great.

No. 577975

my life fell apart after that happened to me too and I fixed it through weekly therapy. idk how feasible that is for you but if u can, find someone who specializes in PTSD treatment. i hit rock bottom and wasn’t even leaving my house, so weekly therapy became my “job” and I got my life back after a few months. some therapists are doing tele-visits over zoom so perhaps you can find one that way? and it doesn’t have to be weekly for u, it can always be once a month to start and get situated. perhaps in the mean time you can find a safe space to talk about what happened. is there anyone in your life that you could talk to? im so sorry you’re going through this anon. you will recover and get your life back!!

No. 577982

I'm so happy to know you're doing better anon. My shithole of a country is very behind on mental health awareness, but I've started my search for trauma specialists, it's so expensive that it leaves me feeling even worse than before. I just write my feelings in a journal and try to direct my focus on other things. Having no friend with me kinda makes it even harder but I won't give up anon, I hope I'll be able to get better soon! Thank you ♥

No. 577983

Um no no no, anon. You have to be assertive anday it out as a definitive boundary he is not allowed to cross .

No. 577985

Are the confirmed cases at the home he's visiting and is it a high risk area? Is there a reason why he can't quarantine himself for two weeks after visiting?

No. 577987

Yeah, definitely take this advice so his family starts calling you manipulative and he feels like he has to choose between you, an lolcow, and the people that raised and nurtured him for his entire life up until meeting you. That'll go well.

Strong woman, strong lines, boundaries, etc. Definitely do this.

>maybe ask yourself why he feels the need to go home and see his family so bad

>maybe consider people have better relationships with their families than you do
>maybe consider he loves his family and you making him choose between them or you is abusive lol

No. 577989

This is my train of thought too. Anon stands to look like a lunatic trying to isolate him from seeing his family, especially if there aren't active cases in the area.

He could still go to visit, he would just have to quarantine himself in a particular part of their home for the two weeks he comes back per the guidelines. I appreciate how anons here are careful but I do believe that some of the worry is a little much sometimes.

No. 577990

go to heavy metal concerts

No. 577991

I've been plagued by bed bugs and now I think one is on my clothes right now while I'm at work. My entire upper back is pretty much covered in hives right now and I can't see the fucker. I hate this. It's cold as fuck too so I can't even take off my sweater unless I want to freeze UGHHHH

No. 577992

welp time to light your shit on fire good luck anon thats gonna be a bitch to take care of

No. 577994

What if the roles were reversed and anon wanted to go see her family but her bf wouldn't allow it? Both people here have a right to be assertive.

No. 577999

Been dealing with this shit for months because my parents are a bunch of dumb fucks. Can't even get a fucking exterminator because of Covid. I did a bit of treatment with Cimexa in my room but my parents won't let me treat their room or clean up their hoarding mess even a little bit.

No. 578006

I know what it's like to be stuck living with dipshit parents, but you should try to move out asap. That shit is not good.

No. 578029


oh anon, I went through something so similar recently and it does occasionally burn me up inside when I think about what a disgusting freak he was and how he definitely walked away being like "WOMEN, amiright boys?" nasty ass attitude.

I only went on two dates with him so my impact isn't as intense but even THEN. I can only imagine how you're feeling. Good news is, he's going to be a gross loser forever and all the smugness in the world doesn't really hold a candle to you learning and growing from such a miserable experience.

Also, as much as it hurts to see yourself fall into unhealthy patterns, you did ultimately tell him to fuck off and closed that door. As hard as it is, I strongly suggest you stop reading those emails or delete them entirely. The guy I dated pulled that some gaslighting "You took it the wrong way shit" and I did the same thing, re-reading the texts and it just kept me in a shitty headspace.

Do what's right for you, anon. Just know that these dudes are super fucking common and so not worth getting riled up over (coming from someone that also struggles not getting riled up over shit men).

No. 578033

They'll never go away without treatment and that really sucks, but wherever you go, you're spreading them

No. 578053

I miss my bf so much it makes me want to vomit and cry. I wish I had a girl friend I could hang out with…

No. 578065

I hate being BPD and bisexual. I should probably just abstain from sex and relationships for the rest of my life.

No. 578067

The chances of you actually having BPD are like .0005%, but okay.

No. 578068

Wait, what? I have been diagnosed with BPD in two different countries kek

No. 578079

Nta but isn't BPD the one PD that people actually grow out of a lot of the time? Ten years after diagnosis many wouldnt meet the criteria again if restested.

No. 578081

Feeling like absolute shite, lost 35 lbs last year and was looking cute as hell and already gained about 20 of that back. Time to kick my ass back into shape.

No. 578084

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>Start a new job at a dental office in June
>Two weeks ago they furlough me and blame it on the practice losing money during the quarantine
>Doesn't make any sense that they'd hire someone after the quarantine knowing that they lost money but fine
>Manager is a haggard old bitch who never smiles
>My coworker mentioned her making comments about me but wouldn't say what they were
>They were supposed to call me and give me an estimated time frame how long I'll be gone but I haven't heard anything since
>Anytime I try to call to ask I get told "oh Manager is busy rn, she'll call you right back" and she never does

Like I already know that they don't want me back because they don't like me, but honestly the least you can fucking do is tell me that. Anyway, I think I'm going to keep harassing them with phone calls, emails, and messages. Like multiple times a day. They fucked me out of a job for seemingly no reason (no one has ever once told me if I've done anything wrong so I have no idea why the fuck they don't like me but whatever) and now I'm unemployed and have all this free time, I may as well try to make their lives a bit more difficult instead of quietly disappearing like they want me to do

No. 578086

I haven't heard that one before but it's possible, wouldn't surprise me. I probably only have 50% of the symptoms I had 10 years ago, but I think the core BPD self-hatred and weird way of thinking is still there, even if I don't engage in self-harm and cow behavior anymore. Anyway, it's a stupid PD.

No. 578087

Omg my coworker just told me they hired someone else, I'm fucking livid

No. 578096

I'm poor af, I don't think I'll be able to find boxing places in my budget. I just want anybody to take me seriously tbh. But I doubt raging online about it on an anonymous imageboard really helps with that lol.
I was honestly surprised at how poorly doctors approached my self harm issues. They never really did and that's the saddest part.

No. 578101

I know you haven't been there long, but can you at least get some unemployment money out of them? Sucks that they were so unprofessional though.

No. 578103

there's a tweet making fun of people who get upset when they're called rich. everyone replying seems to think anyone who makes more than them or can afford health insurance is rich. i promise people who make 40k a year aren't part of a scheme to keep everyone in poverty

No. 578105

My friend/former roommate is currently trying to adopt a dog so she put me down as a reference on one of her applications…the adoption agency is going to call me sometime this week and I feel bad because I honestly don't think she should have a dog.

She's extremely irresponsible and not very mature, plus she'll be starting grad school as well as working a job and I don't think she'll be able to handle a high-maintenance dog on top of that. I'm also not totally convinced she can afford one. But I'm scared to confess that to the adoption people because I don't want to be an asshole and be the reason they didn't give her a dog. I don't want to lie either though…fuck. I hate being in this situation.

No. 578106

Yes. It's also a bullshit diagnosis that is steeped in misogyny, period. BPD is the only personality disorder that within the past few decades has been proven to have a high success rate with treatment. It's also the only personality disorder that is overwhelming diagnosed in women. Do the math.

No. 578108

I would ask the agency to keep it discreet. I'm sure they've dealt with this kind of stuff all the time! Good luck.

No. 578109

I doubt that they'll tell her you told them that, just ask them not to just in case? But if she isn't responsible enough to have a dog then I think it's more right to tell them that

No. 578110

This is a really shitty situation to be in, but I would personally come out and tell the adoption people that she isn't fit for a dog. It's not a toy, it's a living being with needs. Why does she want a dog anyway? Maybe she can consider other pets that aren't as demanding as dogs are if she just wants companionship (but really, if she's going to be juggling grad school and a job already, she probably should just suck it up and not have one at all. Maybe get a plant or some shit).

No. 578113

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what the FUCK men are so stupid

some random slid into my dms complimenting my fucking feet. i jokingly was like i'm not gonna listen to your weird shit unless you pay me–in 10 minutes he bought me like 3 pairs of expensive ass jimmy choos and ferragamos, probably over 4k dropped. i didn't have to do shit and i'm still confused. but hey, nice shoes!

No. 578115

I smell scrote on this post.

No. 578116

idk how, i'm just in shock that coomers and footfags will drop thousands for a modicum of female attention. like i get we're in the era of onlyfans but that was a weirdly effortless transaction

No. 578117

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this did not happen

No. 578120

you underestimate foot fetishists

No. 578121

Do you have an onlyfans or something? How was he able to buy you these shoes? Were they on a public wishlist?

No. 578122

> he bought me like 3 pairs of expensive ass jimmy choos and ferragamos
I don't know what the fuck those even are but 4k in cash sounds better. I'd sell em.

No. 578123

please do not encourage this larping scrote. ignore it and it will go away.

No. 578124

The state of wattpad

No. 578125

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i would post proofs if i could but amazon doesn't show that the wishlist items were bought or tracking info. footfags are wild yo

i don't have an OF and i don't do sex work, i have a wholesome IG but that's it. he just told me to make the wishlist, and when i refreshed all of the items were gone (meaning someone ordered them)

No. 578129

I'm so sick and tired of trannies.and sjws

No. 578131

we all are

No. 578132

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I can't cope with the fact that life will always be painful and horrible. There's happy moments, like petting your purring cat or having a nice date with your SO but that cat will die one day and you and your SO will have fights and most likely break up one day. And you're getting older and older and one day you'll die as well. Do those few nice moments really make up for the excrutiating pain of losing someone close to you? Of feeling like a failure?

No. 578133

damn anon drop his instagram @. you better milk the fuck out of this guy.

No. 578134

TBH I was pretending to not know what jimmy choos are because I know any man posting that shit will expect us all to unanimously piss ourselves in excitement over…some fucking shoes

No. 578137

One of my former co-workers posts anywhere between 10-15 screenshots of wOkE twitter/IG posts about BLM and COVID, to his IG story, every day. Every single fucking day. He doesn't post anything else other than the occasional cooking video.

I don't even disagree with most of the posts, but I truly don't understand the mindset of someone that vocalizes their support of these movements to the point that it becomes the basis for their entire social media identity.

Like, I'm supposed to believe that you care this much about blacks and people who are at high risk for dying of the rona, yet you can't even be bothered to come up with your own unique spin on these talking points, and just keep re-posting the same shit over and over again?

No. 578140

you know it, i'm gonna tell him to give me money for a mani pedi next lmao. idk i've never done this kind of thing but funds are tight and i don't have to send nudes so w/e

No. 578144

Find shit that will be the least painful and horrible because we are all in this shithole ride of life unless you wanna jump of and end it early. What's worse, losing a pet after years of loving companionship? Or never having that companionship in the first place, so you never have to deal with saying goodbye one day? The same applies to partners too. Find the least shittiest/most tolerable things you want to deal with, because those happy moments are far and few between, and you can't control them. But you know what you can (mostly) control? The amount and type of shit you have to put up with, like your job, the people you surround yourself with, etc.

I don't mean to come off as aggressive or trying to fight you or force some positivity down your throat lol. Some days I really do want to end it and it doesn't seem worth it, but we're all dragging our feet through the mud to our graves together, so fuck it.

No. 578151

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Dealing with emotionally abusive siblings is pure hell, especially when you're forced to live together(thanks corona).
While this can happen for no reason, it's usually a problem when my older sister knows that I need her help. She turns nasty for no reason, and if I react accordingly my family acts as if I'm the crazy one. E.g. She offered to help me make something so that I could sell it on etsy, as my workplace shut down due to corona. While both of us were in a good mood and just joking around, I asked her a simple question about what stitch I should use on the project, as she's more experienced that me in crafts. She suddenly does a 180 and starts calling me a retard and goes to my mother to badmouth me.
Of course I was hurt, so I decided to stay quiet and leave to chill out in my room. Somehow that was a problem to my family, even though I cleaned up after myself and didn't do anything else. They decided that they should come into my room and berate me for "getting angry at them for no reason" by flinging personal insults at me.

So overall she instigates me by constantly berating me or straight up calling me names out of nowhere, but as soon as I snap back(not anything physical, just ask her to leave and tell her that she's being emotionally abusive), she threatens to call the police so that they'll take me away to be locked up in a mental hospital. She also knows that my dream job requires a thorough background check, meaning that mental hospital stays could possibly negatively impact my record. I used to cut when I was a teen, and she's still holding it over me by saying that "everyone is tired of you manipulating them, because we can't say a thing to you without worrying if you're going to cut or not", even though I haven't done it it years and I've never talked about it, as I'm ashamed of what I did to my body.

TLDR: I've pretty much had to block out my personal feelings and shut down, just so that I don't get put in the mental hospital. And if I do decide to say something back to her, my mother just tells me to ignore her, meanwhile she herself does nothing while I'm being verbally abused.

No. 578157

> Do those few nice moments really make up for the excrutiating pain of losing someone close to you?
I lost my mom a few years ago, I had only just reached adulthood and it's by far the most emotional pain I've experienced, tbh it actually made me appreciate how small most pain is in comparison to that.

No. 578172

oh boo fucking hoo they didn't like you so you're gonna go karen on their ass? maybe just find a new job and fuck off?

No. 578175


Thanks anons, at this point there's a good chance I'll just be honest. It's the right thing to do!


>why does she want a dog anyway?

She really loves dogs and her family dog just passed away a few months ago, plus she'll be living on her own for the first time and doesn't want to be lonely. I don't think she's really considered how difficult having a pet is when you don't have parents/family helping raise it, and she's convinced herself she can handle the responsibility. Kek it's funny you mention other pets/plants, the reason I'm nervous about her getting a dog is because when we lived together I witnessed her struggle to take care of a fish and some house plants. Both died fairly quickly…maybe she'll be different with a dog but that's a big maybe.

No. 578181

NTA but it sounds like you've never been on the opposite end of shitty bosses who won't take responsibility.
They should have been professional and informed her that they don't want her, instead of getting her hopes up. The manager is an adult, therefore she's expected to act like one. Anon is teaching her a lesson on how to be a successful grown up, as she's unable to fulfill her role as a manager. She's literally being paid to deal with situations like these.

No. 578189

okay but there are more important things in life than a shitty boss

No. 578190

Thank you for your reply, anon. I try to think like that too, some days it's harder than others.

Thanks for sharing. I'm really sorry about your mom, anon.

No. 578195

Sorry for shilling a youtube video, but this really helped me a lot. TL;DW: The world is pointless and dumb, and we didn't ask to be born, but that creates opportunity to do whatever the fuck you want. Grab life by the balls, anon!

No. 578201

i like that i can hide half my face from wearing face masks but i also hate it because i’m self conscious about my eyes.

No. 578204

Uh it means a lot when your lively hood is at stake, the fuck is your problem?

No. 578211

I was doing so good today with my calorie limit but I ended up overeating big time, I’m a bit disappointed in myself. I’ve lost 17 lbs so far, and honestly cannot see a difference yet - the only difference I can feel is my stamina while exercising. I’ve been plateauing a pound above my next goal weight for a couple weeks now and the frustration is unreal mannn. All I want is to be slim and toned and happy with the way I look by the time I return to work.

No. 578212

one of the guys on shift the same time as me usually is pretty good about getting things in our department done but ever since this new girl got hired he's consistently taken her side in every disagreement when it comes to reaching metrics set by management (it's at least once a week she fucks something up now) because he has an obvious crush on her. when will scrotes quit thinking with their dicks

No. 578215

I feel like i am tuned in another frequency from most people. I though that as i grew older that feeling would dissapear but i am already 18 and it just gets worse everyday.
I had friends but i can't remember anything from them, not a meaningfull conversation or fun moment, i just remember feeling numb and uncomfortable. I don't think i will ever be able to have a real friend i enjoy talking to.

No. 578216

Been trying really hard to lose weight and having some success.

But then I look at my stomach and see all the stretch marks I've got from being an idiot for years and feel extremely discouraged. They are DEEP too and I know they will never entirely go away.

No. 578220

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I fucking hate it here.

I remember reading the news story about Alec Smith and it made me sick to my stomach. Then it also made me unimaginably sad to think, what if my mom had to ration her insulin one day? What about the rest of them who probably already are? I fucking hate this shit. I really wish we could bring back the guillotine and publicly behead these people.

No. 578240

I got fucked out of a promotion today because of coronavirus. Basically it was planned to happen around April, but then we all went work from home so we thought it was delayed but now they say they aren't in a place to add a new role. I'm super angry and frustrated, I feel like they didn't take into account that they had basically offered this to some of us and then just went "Haha jk sorry". Fuck this whole illness.

No. 578241

90% of women have stretch marks anon

No. 578244

It's been 5 months and I still can't get over a car accident I got into with my friend and her cousins in the car. I was trying to park a large vehicle I never drove prior to that day and I did a shit job and scratched a park car. It was so humiliating and I feel so fucking stupid for it. What's worse is that they constantly mention the incident as a joke, but they don't realize that I actually torture myself thinking about it almost every day since.

No. 578283

I'm currently locked in a long distance online barely relationship and I just know if I cut him off I'd probably be a lot more motivated to lose weight and actually "glow up". I could meet some cute college boys, hoe around and make friends.

I also know for a fact that I'm not going to ghost him because I actually do care for him, as much as you can care for someone you have literally never met in person. Instead I am just here forcing myself to stay awake for some man with a massive amount of baggage, shitty internet and crying my eyes out about it. I will be awake well until 3 am waiting for him to message me, only for him not to call because his internet is so bad. On the off chance his internet does come back we will speak for a maximum of 10 minutes before he falls asleep on me.

No. 578287

any time I see anything sexual now I'm like, disgusted and horrified. and hate being touched.
nothing happened….I think I just hate sex 90% of the time. dumb smelly weird gross w/e
I feel like I'm broken

No. 578288

You don't need a reason to end a relationship. Just end it since it feel to make you sad vs being happy.

No. 578296

Hates porn, doesn't like anal and makes you cum? How lucky are you. He obviously loves you and being "hotter" won't make your self image issues go away. My best friend is the typical stacy always getting guys to hit on her and she thinks she's the ugliest girl in our school

No. 578299

So what you're saying is that you're objectively good looking, you have someone (who's not a creep and abusive) who likes you a lot and genuinely wants to make you feel good, but things aren't going well because you can't get your head out of your ass? And for some made-up reason you think you're ugly?

No. 578300

When I put on some weight, I hate the way my body feels, but I love the way my face looks. My face is naturally bony, so the extra weight makes it look rounder. I don't know whether to stay at this weight or lose it. I wish my face would stay the way it was after losing weight

No. 578302


You're just asexual, anon. The sex-repulsed kind.
More common than you think, you are not broken.

No. 578307

I just want a cute girlfriend that I can come home to. I've been feeling lonelier because of Corona and it's getting hard to not yearn for the loving touch of another human because of it. I hate America and it's lack of preparations for pandemics making my loneliness last longer.

No. 578311

Damn i want people to stop talking to me. Feels like all that happens when people talk to me is that i end up feeling even more insecure and depressed. Tt's taking a real toll on my mental health. Almost makes me wish my country was still on lockdown …

No. 578312

Ugh, same, we have a coworker that everybody hates (even the most fuckboy guys dislike her) because she snitches, she trash talks, she's manipulative, hypocritical and she's bad at doing what she's asked to do, she even cried once to the managers that she was doing aaaaaall the work while the rest of us do nothing (which is false). And yet there's one male coworker who defends her no matter what because he finds her hot.

No. 578313

It might have happened, but she is just leaving out vital information

No. 578316

Is it toxic if my SO only brings up problems they have with me as an "argument" after I brought up my problems with them?

No. 578318

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my sister sucks too. in a different way but I feel you.

No. 578325

Nta but it really isn't the worst thing that can happen, honestly op sounds kind of crazy with all of the assuming she's doing so who knows the full story

No. 578332

A bit, see if you two can talk about not bottling stuff up and talking in a safe manner without turning it into a stupid fight. Tons of people are passive aggressive like that, you're gonna run into this with others. You might need to do some heavier lifting at first to get him to feel safe to be more direct with you but it will come naturally in time unless hes a turboretard. Try reaching out first, dump if he refuses to grow over time. How long to wait is entirely up to you. How much time are you willing to invest?

No. 578335

No, but it's annoying and immature.

Let me tell you why I used to do it. I had things that bothered me here and there about my SO and his behaviour, nothing serious. However, it was my first serious relationship, and I never brought those things up first, because I was avoiding "conflict" (ie. talking it out) for the simple reason that it is uncomfortable. I was new to this serious relationship thing and didn't want to accept the tough parts, just the nice parts. So I bottled it all up, and naturally it all came bursting out every time my partner tried to talk about his concerns (like a normal person).

I learned since that a dose of disomfort is necessary to keep a relationship healthy and that talking about things should never be avoided. I hope your partner will too.

No. 578338

honestly… yeah i know. you're right anons i'm being a fucking idiot. the calls are coming from inside the house kek. smh

No. 578340

I'm so averse to sharing anything personal or deep about myself that I can't even do it anonymously on lolcow. I have a bunch of friends who hardly know me even though I know all about them and that's just fine with me, but I'm starting to worry about how long I can keep that up.

No. 578342

I had a friend call me out once and ask why they knew nothing about my life and I didn't even know how to respond. I'm not a secret ax murderer I just hate myself and my life and don't have any experiences or stories to share.

No. 578343

Holy shit, I think I need to delete all social media and stop watching vlog style youtube videos. I can't handle seeing other people happy it seems. It throws me into a panic and depression spell seeing people live their lives when I feel like I have nothing going on for me.

No. 578344

See, I also hate myself, but it's because of all of the experiences I've had. I feel like if I were to even start it would already be too much to handle, so why not just be that friend you can always turn to who never puts anything on you in return? I have the emotional capacity to handle being vented to by a bunch of different people, I really don't mind it. I just don't want to do it back.

No. 578345

I was supposed to have a call with my psychiatrist but he didn't call me at the agreed time. It's pretty much the norm for him to make me wait 20-30 minutes and he's even stood me up before, so I didn't worry too much and have been waiting patiently. Then I saw that he sent me an email complaining that I didn't pick up and he left me a voicemail to reschedule. There is no such voicemail in my call history. Did this motherfucker seriously just call the wrong number and blame me for it? And of course now he isn't replying to my email back.

This is the same guy who keeps mistaking which medication he has me on, what dose and for how long. I've had to correct him every single time we've had contact. What the hell is going on over there?

No. 578347

Samefag but it really upsets me to see so-called professionals be borderline incompetent at their job. I've been struggling to find work for over a year now because everyone wants >5 years of experience regardless of the kind of position, and here's a guy who is no doubt making bank yet can't even be bothered to have the correct file in front of him ever. Can't he hire me to be his secretary? At least then I'd be getting paid to correct his mistakes.

No. 578348

My parents are very openly making fun of me for getting very sick all alone at home for over a month, probably from covid, when they would have died in their own bed if it were them. And they wonder why I and most of my siblings find them unbearable and why we want to leave the family's home asap.

No. 578350

I’ve been watching true crime shows / reading about true crime since I was very young and I think it has deeply affected me over the years. I’m only noticing it has it now that I’m older. I read about the Junko Furata case and the hello kitty murder this week and it really got to me. I just can’t stop. Why are humans so fascinated by morbid stuff

No. 578351

>mom knows i have a self harm problem
>gets into a fight with her and she says "go hurt yourself since i have to hear about it from our entire family"

No. 578352

Yes, your relationship won't prosper if he thinks that's OK behavior and it's on him.

Had an ex like this, led to him being resentful due to buildup of his issues and me not expressing myself, which I used to do, because he'd absolutely blow up and I'd find myself adressing his problems and mine go ignored anyway.

Does he also act "off" if he has a problem with you he won't express? I fell for doing all the emotional labor and would try list off all the reasons why he might be mad in the hopes he'd nod at one. I'd ask if he was mad and he said he was only because I was asking if he was mad (to reveal a month down the line I HAD done something before that to annoy him). It was exhausting and futile. My verdict is dump, only because I'm bitter about wasted time and effort.

No. 578360

>Does he also act "off" if he has a problem with you he won't express?

Hmm not really no. But I had an ex that did exactly what you described. Inlcuding the "a month down the line" part.

No. 578361

that's probably because your relatives are dumb and don't understand it so they give her crap about it like she can stop you. it's just something she said in a heated moment but it sounds more about them than you.

No. 578364

just got a passive aggressive call from my project supervisor whilst i was halfway through purging my binge. this year has been miserable.

No. 578365

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I'm mid 20s and thinking about applying to a job for the first time in my life. I've had jobs, but I've gotten them through connections and never actually had to do a job interview.

The one I want to apply to is a part-time sales job in a very small shop. Thing is, I'm really socially anxious and awkward and visibly tattooed. But if I had a job like this, it would be a good way for me to get some social skills. But I might be too much of a pussy to apply.

No. 578367

Idk why people like Madison beer get so butt hurt that people think shes so pretty she must have plastic surgery. God, I hate attractive people. I HATE THEM.

No. 578391

I feel you. Sometimes it's good inspiration but it can definitely make you feel worse about your life

No. 578393

Do it anon! When I got my first ~*~real~*~ job in college, it was for a cashier position at a big retail chain. I remember my hands and voice being shaky for the first few days and being overwhelmed with nervousness, but you get over it eventually! My next job was still retail, but I worked as someone on the floor rather than as a cashier so it forced me to make different conversation and really think on the fly. I posted in the dumbass shit thread about how working retail has really helped my social skills, and I'd say I'm pretty damn good at getting along with new people in and out of work. It can definitely be nerve wracking, and any sort of sales/retail job kinda sucks at the end of the day, but I think you learn a lot of valuable and transferable skills. Good luck!

No. 578394

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It's funny because she's actually had a nose job, brow lift, and lip filler along with the usual botox. All completey unnecessary imo

No. 578397

Anon do it! I had terrible social skills before my first job and being forced to talk to people really helped me in that aspect. Also it sounds like a pretty good job. Good luck if you do apply!

No. 578415

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A customer at my job accused me of throwing a straw at her at the drive thru window a few days ago and now i'm paranoid they're gonna fire me even though i didnt do it and never had any incidents happen like this. It was such a crazy thing. and now i'm working at the same job but a different store and i'm worried they'll transfer me there even though it's further from my house. i dunno guys.. i'm freaked out. This is my primary job too.

No. 578417

I got a lot of social skills through a job where i was forced to sample perfume samples on for public surveys. It sucked and i worked commission, but it forced me to be more assertive.

No. 578418

I'm so sick of plain ass heterosexual people 'coming out' as non-binary and other bullshit snowflake identities like that and acting like someone 'misgendering' them is "SO oppressive uwu". Can't wait for this fad to die.

No. 578428

This meth/heroin addict I knew from high school is going to be shitting out a fourth child after only recently getting partial custody back from her parents for her other three cause she did a stint in rehab. Still no job, and the man who's knocked her up the past few times doesn't seem greatly employed either and has a kid of his own.

Nice to see they're getting massive welfare payouts so they can live cozy while they act like garbage parents and give their kids the bare minimum if that.
She captioned
>"If you don't have anything nice to say about this then delete urself!"
Yeah bitch, you gotta say that cause you know deep down that you're selfish and unfit so the truth people would wax would really fucking hurt you since you aren't about to step up in a meaningful way and you know it.
People like her deserve sterilization, sorry not sorry.

No. 578434

I doubt it, unless you have a record of customers complaining about you or have terrible management out to get you already. I had a customer at another job fling pants at me, then told someone else that I screamed at him. All supervisers did was ask me "did you do it?" and I said no, and they left me alone. I've even done stupid ass shit like accidentally marking down a sofa by like $300 on one of my first days at my first retail job and I just got told not to do it again. I find that more often than not employers are hesitant to fire people (don't want to pay out unemployment, don't want to risk firing you without a paper trail explanation, etc).

No. 578435

been baby sitting my nephew for a bit over a week now and even if I do not dislike him, I cannot fathom why on earth my sister would deal with this. It's always loud even if he is not fussy, he is actually a pretty easy kid but like, I actually have less respect for adults who genuinely put themselves in this situation. Not being able to sleep on their days off, having to deal with kid stuff everywhere and having to find their farmer sister to look after their kid because they must pop out another one. I am just disgusted by the concept whilst being okay with the kid itself in small aunty dosages, I am kinda reaching my boiling point though as I am having the worst period pain in a while and this lil sHIT refuses to let me sit still even for 10 minutes.

No. 578449

No. 578455

just did a shot of vodka and i'm gonna tell this bitch off lol wish me luck guys

No. 578463

You tell that bitch off

No. 578464

That time of the cycle where my vagina produces discharge like it's going out of style. Ugh.

No. 578480

Update I keep trying to call them to tell them off for being so rude and unprofessional but they keep putting me on hold lmao

Should I just drive my ass down there and bitch them out in person? I really don't want them to think they can just do shit like this

fuck you

No. 578483

Don't give them the ammunition for them to believe they made the right call in treating you like shit. Don't give them the opportunity to fancy themselves as the real victims of a disgruntled person. I think you should type up a professional letter of resignation and turn it in yourself in person. Don't thank them, tell them how disappointed you are that they chose to treat you very dismissively during a national crisis and that you don't appreciate having been treated like you didn't matter when your livelihood is just as important as theirs. Don't listen to their excuses and don't argue, exit after that with the quickness because these people don't give a fuck about you and it sounds like it would be a hellhole to work in anyway.
There will be other jobs, even if right now it seems bleak. What would be bleaker is working for people who would throw you under the bus during a pandemic.

No. 578484

I had to take the plane because of an emergency a week ago and now I have tinnitus. Or it's more like it got way worse. Anyway I'm so made, I used ear plugs during the whole flight and that shit still happened, and now that I'm with my family they won't stop yelling and watching TV as loudly as possible.

No. 578487

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I agreed to let my roommate's SO move in a while back because it would help w/ bills and rent and it's maybe the stupidest decision i've ever made. they sit around all day making messes that they don't clean up and just sperging up the whole place to the point where it's impossible to try and hold a convo with them that doesn't devolve into their preferred media, memes and inside jokes. And they're ALWAYS together, jesus christ. not being able to escape because of covid is making it even more unbearable.

learn from my mistake, ladies.

No. 578491

I disagree. If you do that you'll only get a milquetoast "I'm sorry you feel that way" response. I think you should you make them feel as uncomfortable as they made you feel. They already don't like you anyway so why should you care if you're being professional? Doing something like this during a crisis is so unclassy as hell and I think you should force them to confront it, just don't pussy out halfway lol

No. 578499

And so what if they do? If anon goes in there raving at them like a psycho they'll only feel smug for having sussed her out and maybe even call law enforcement. It's not about winning the who made whom uncomfortable battle (bc that office already won that and will get away with their fuckery), it's about showing a moral highground so they don't get to feel so proud about it. And anon ought to let every potential client know and write a review about how that office treated her. The only way to hurt businesses is to hurt their image and money. Anon will not hurt either if she goes in there guns blazing like an aggressor.

No. 578506

You sound like a BPDer that just got dumped lol

No. 578513

This whole saga is so fucking funny to me idk why

Anon-chan plz keep us updated

No. 578516

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It's one of those nights again, ladies. The shit that is getting me down is completely disproportional to how I feel about it.

I now get slightly pathetically sad and jealous of teen laughter when I hear teenage laughter outside my window. I see my only friends about every 6 months and I absolutely relish the time I spend with them, and these people get to experience that sort of feeling on a regular basis, if not daily.
Local pool's still closed, so I don't have the fucks to give to go to the gym and lose the quarantine pounds.
I fell hard for a friend who doesn't give two fucks about me, and I'm afraid from now on the zest of life is sucked dry - at least with how I am now.

I'm going to get off this hellsite to go camping for a week tomorrow, hoping to reset this cycle of NEET soon.

No. 578517

>been less than a month
grow up

No. 578520

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im so fucking ugly.

No. 578521

wtf are you doing anon, stop wasting your life on some fake intimacy bullshit. Leave the computer alone and go live your life. You only have so much time to spend on Earth. Don't waste it.

No. 578522

I moved across the country for a job that offered me employee housing just to have my money stolen and be sexually harassed in employee housing and have it pinned on me, in which the job promised me a lot of money, just to be paid 60 a week (it's out in the middle of nowhere and it takes 20 worth of gas to go to town to get groceries and every food place around is like 20 dollars for a sandwich) and meals weren't paid for. I was literally starving, on top of that I got little hours and constantly got cut during week days so I got this crazy idea to just work at another place during week days because they didn't have me work anyway but nope I was fired just to get fired from the 9-5 within 3 days simply for not being loud enough and being "too nice" (they didn't train me either)

I'm living in the woods right now in a shitty tent freezing my ass off every night because all the beds are booked at homeless shelters. Life is fucking great…

No. 578523

Does his name begin with a W and is he bipolar?
Either way sis it sounds like he ain't that invested in you. Duuuuump.

No. 578527

Jesus fucking christ, I hope things improve for you. Where are you roughly? Be careful, you're at a high risk of being raped. Try use all the available systems for homeless women to get off the streets, before your situation deteriorates more.

Really hoping your situation improves drastically.

No. 578534

Was the job a prison guard? Have you tried to contact other places that might help homeless women, this shit does not sound safe in the slightest. Even churches might help.

No. 578539

i'm 90% sure i was drugged and assaulted in college.

I can't remember anything from the night, even before taking the shots that put me into oblivion. It's literally a blank slate. I did not drink more than a few shots apparently, but did not pour them myself and drank something from a cup (according to others that saw me at the party). I've never blacked out from anything before or since this night.

As for the potential assault, I had pictures on my phone of a bathroom floor (the bathroom of the house the party was at). There was like 20 pictures of random angles of the floor. I leave the party at some point. I somehow make it home, a person found me bloody on the street and brought me home. A few people that lived with me took care of my injuries and listened what I had to say. I don't remember this. Apparently I was sobbing and said something about "no longer being a virgin" and saying things about being assaulted and touched. Talking about penises in vaginas. I didn't make sense to anyone, but they tried their best to calm me down. Those girls were my saviors that night, I will always owe them for patching me up and calming me down. I was incoherent and absolutely devastated.

I wake up the next morning with a swollen and bloody hand. I had a boxer's fracture, with broken knuckles. I go to the hospital and get casted, just lying when they asked how I got it. Told them I tripped. I don't remember feeling an vaginal pain in the days after, as the pain in my hand was immense. I did have bad leg pains though. I ask my friends at the party what happened, they say I just ghosted (I tended to do this sort of stuff when I drank, I am now completely sober because this experience has fucked up my trust in alcohol or being around it). My friends also denied that the guys hosting the party would ever drug me, as they were "good guys". I don't know these guys, before or after the incident. Can't speak for them. But I do know that night was a nightmare for me and I ended up hurt because of it. Perhaps by my own choices, but I just can't keep coping with the details when things don't add up.

All I know is I attend a frat party. Take about few shots with my friends and drink vodka fruit punch after. Disappear. End up in a bathroom and take dozens of weird pictures accidentally or intentionally. End up on the street, bloody and broken. I have no memory of the party or even getting there. I was mentally and physically fucked up for weeks. Still haven't had sex or want to. I have small sort of fear of it now and just don't engage in relationships. I don't know if I was assaulted or not. How would you anons cope with the situation? This is the first time I'm typing it out and still don't know how to deal with it in any meaningful way.

No. 578544

This is so awful anon, I'm sorry. People need to stay the fuck away from frat parties. It's a cesspit.

No. 578545

Associating with frat boys never goes well, I'm sorry for your experience anon. You're definitely not alone.

I remember feeling flattered because a ~vice-president~ of one targeted me in the graduate library, but my dumbass didn't realize what his intentions were. I entertained his carrot dick for way too long only to realize I wasn't "allowed" to ever post on social media about us hanging out, for example. He only ever invited me to one disgusting, dingy house party where a bunch of thots gave me death glares. I realized he considered me so beneath him that he was only using me for sexual kicks and who knows who else he might have been messing with simultaneously. He removed himself after I got into a serious relationship, but yeah. They're very opportunistic scumbags.

No. 578567

I have no sense of relationship object permanence. Why do I have to constantly be thinking about my friends and whether or not I can still confidently say I have them when I'm alone. If people knew how much time I spent obsessing about other people instead of doing things I enjoy alone they would think I was insane. But how am I supposed to be at peace when any relationship no matter how secure I might delude myself into thinking it is could fall apart at any moment. My friends could be thinking about how they're going to distance themselves from me right now. Any day could be the beginning of the end for me. And I know if I end up with no friends I won't be able to not kill myself.

No. 578568

I want to breakup with my boyfriend because I’m not in love with him.

Except we live together and he just lost his job because of COVID. I’m also scared he won’t be able to find another girlfriend and will be alone forever. He doesn’t deserve that. He’s a nice person. I just don’t want to be in a relationship anymore.

No. 578570

lol it's been five hours. RIP, anon.

No. 578573

I think that was dental office anon and I really hope she didn't…

No. 578576

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valerie solanas was right

No. 578583


No. 578585

Semi gender-crit stuff Why do women have to bend over backwards for trans people? Why do tras/mtfs only come after women? How come when it comes to feminism, everyone should fight for women, but not if it gets in the way of trans issues? Why are we pushed aside but men aren't? Why do we have to speak about trans-women when talking about issues that ONLY affect cis-women? Why do we have to call women things like womxn, womb-men, menstruators, birthers etc…? Why is it okay to reduce women to their bodily fuctions if its a tra/trans person doing it? Why does the fact that mtfs were born men mean their issues are more important than our issues? Why is it only women who get this treatment? How are we such a threat that people have to make it normal to bring down and incite violence against women? Will it ever be okay for women to push back against this?

I'm not even transphobic. I just have a huge issue with the erasure and shaming of women. I respect everyones decision to be who they want to be. I just can't understand why transforming yourself into a different gender has to come with so much misogyny. I don't understand why other women take it. I'm so tired of going on social media and seeing how normalized we've made such blatant hate of women. I can't get why tras and trans people have to hate women. Shouldn't it be the opposite?

No. 578587

relax dude, everyone on lolcow hates trannies

you can post what you want

No. 578588

not rly. we definitely have some tranny defenders here who always use the infamous "leave this site go back to your other site you fucking terf!". just look at the unpopular opinion thread

No. 578589

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>try to order customized art
>message seller
>we agree, ask her if there's a reserved listing I should purchase on her website
>no just pay for one of the customized listing
>was on mobile so I wasn't keeping track of which one I orig messaged her about
>bunch of em say customize this, MTO that, etc.
>pick one that says customized
>get message that it was the wrong wrong, I had picked the cheaper one
>now she's being slow to refund so I can repurchase and seems annoyed
I mean sorry lady but your website and wording is confusing I wasn't trying to scam you out of $10 honest this is why I asked which listing I should've bought specifically.

No. 578591

I know this site is filled to the brim with radfems.

Reading back the post, I guess seem kind of emotional and maybe a little unhinged. But I felt comfortable posting that cause I know a lot of anons here have similar opinions.

No. 578597

I lied to my family about booking a hotel to try and get work done. I came here to try and clear my mind and relax ,but it's not working. I can't stop crying.

No. 578599

It's petty and very first-world but I just want to play my competitive video games with the convenience of voice comms without incels spouting their manifestos about how I'm inferior and deserve to die by virtue of being a woman, or being sexually harassed by scrotes both of which have happened today, I capped the second one: https://streamable.com/o0hyno He was like this for the entire match, just a million miles a minute with this disgusting bullshit, with "I'm just joking! Don't get tilted!" sprinkled in intermittently for merely opening my mouth. I've never been flamed for poor gameplay, it's always just been pointless misogynistic bullshit.

That tranny deer on twitch is totally unhinged, but he's still kind of got a point.

Men ruin fucking everything. And they all stick up for each other too; four other people in a lobby and no one says a fucking word. Cowards.

No. 578602

I made that post recently about not understanding why y'all are so upset about the transgender movement in the unpopular opinions thread. Someone linked me an article that was really enlightening and opened my eyes to some serious issues with it, so I understand more now and am a bit more critical of it.

Regardless, I still don't hate trans people, nor am I against the movement as a whole. I think many are confused and being taken advantage of by doctors and activist who proclaim to want to help them. Others are just using it as an excuse to get attention because being trans is trendy right, now and typically gets you a lot of sympathy and victimhood points without having to actually do anything (these ones genuinely do suck, admittedly).

I think it's kind of ridiculous to go as far as to claim that the condition doesn't exist at all, and that it's just being used as an excuse to silence and attack women. I do, however, believe that the condition is nowhere near as common as we're being lead to believe, and that there should be more strictly defined guidelines as to what counts as transgender vs. "non-binary."

No. 578603

no one cares

No. 578604

Today my mum shit herself and it's because my MIL had been giving her prune juice and senna tablets when I explicitly told her not to do that. My mum isn't constipated, she has gastritis. I want covid to be over so they can both go back to pulling this bullshit in their own homes where I don't have to deal it.

No. 578608

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>your opinion doesn't exactly match the hivemind reeeeee go away!!!11

Gee, I can't possibly imagine why nobody outside of extremely niche, online communities that keep getting deleted due to scrote-tier levels of immaturity and butthurt takes any of you seriously.

No. 578610

LOL no I was talking about this bitch who owes me $250

Dental office lady has some demons tho

I got the money for what it's worth

No. 578612

no one cares

No. 578615

dudeeeee i stopped playing any video game with voice chat on because scrotes are a plague. it's not every match but it happens a least once a session. scrotes think they're sooooooooo fucking funny saying "tits or gtfo send nooodz". and that's the easy shit to deal with. there are men out there who throw games if i'm in VC because "girl on team we're fucked". fucking pathetic. gaming sucks and i barely do it anymore because why bother.

No. 578617

Sorry sissy are we triggering you?

No. 578618

You clearly do.

No. 578619

the sexual tension in these posts

No. 578620

the rock bottom i'm hitting so suddenly is astounding. lost BOTH of my jobs/income, one singular guy i like and tried talking to has disapeared again (9 fucking days. just checked the fuck out of our convo after going to bed one night lol. 9. days.) i'm making zero money, had good job interview this last monday, obviously with how flaky getting jobs is nowadays i have no clue if it was good enough or some other asshole will get the job i want and need so badly, they said they'd PROBABLY make their decision today and of fucking course i get no call no text (well, besides a wrong number text from fucking GREGG letting me know he's in the parking lot)

i'm losing it, my anxiety and misery is skyrocketing, i have nobody no idea what to do. i don't get why EVERYTHING has to come crashing down at once. me one week ago really was doing much better.

No. 578626

Sorry you're dealing with all that. I went through the same thing with losing my job when we first went on lock-down back in March. I think you're doing the right thing by continuing to look for work. Just try and keep doing something productive to try and move forward every day. Get out of the house as much as possible, too, even if it's just going for a drive. It really helps to clear your head when you're feeling anxious and bogged down by everything like you are.

No. 578638

massive mood this is my least favorite body thing that happens

No. 578647

Realizing that you've never been anyone's first choice and you've always been a side character in your own life is really something huh

No. 578650

i do not have a license nor car but i should truly walk more. i just end up feeling miserable and crying on my bed most nights lol

No. 578655

realistically, nobody is truly anyone's first choice. you are always your first choice.

No. 578658

My ambivalence is going to be the end of me. I don't have a solid stance on almost anything that doesn't involve blatant corruption, chronic abuse, unhealthy habits, etc…things where everyone involved is affected negatively pretty much no matter what. I don't really believe in "truth" for the most part. Almost everything is contextual. I have my own issues with specific groups, religious ideologies, etc, but even that's not enough to make me go against it entirely because I'm too aware of my own bias.

No. 578670

Same, it's really alienating feeling this way in the current climate when everyone is obsessed with moral absolutes. But I just don't see how one singular person can say that anything is objectively good/bad/the right thing to do/the wrong thing to do.

No. 578674

I am the same. It's part of why I can't do social media. I am chronic fence-sitter. Very little I'm willing to go on the record and soapbox for. And what few things I do have a strong opinion on are too controversial.

No. 578679

I know I'm a bit of a shit for enabling fast fashion at my age but I'm actually having a really good time shopping on Shein and the clothes I've gotten so far (with the exception of 2 bc they were too large) have been surprisingly decent quality and are definitely clothes I intend to hang onto for a few years until I can't anymore.
I like how I can order upwards of 20 things for under $100. I've already spent an embarrassing amount. Some of the clothes I purchased are quite thotty but idc cause they were like $8 and I get to feel sexy in my own way for a fucking minute after spending years in old lady floral dresses from Belk.

No. 578685

It's not any worse than whatever garbage they sell at the mall, it's probably the same thing just cheaper. I'm kind of interested myself.

No. 578688

Maybe I too can make videos being a lonely NEET like japanese women do, maybe it'll give me a sense of purpose, I'm so sad currently

No. 578692

the only thing i really can't with internet clothes buying is the sizing. i like being able to try something on before i pay for it. i used to thrift before covid but idk if my local stores are still open, at least one had a dressing room so i really liked thrifting there

No. 578704

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Asking for advice because I feel like I'm about to tread on some very thin ice.
>tl;dr closeted ex who I dated almost a decade ago keeps messaging me sexually while he's in a supposed relationship that he also bitches to me about, I want to tell the woman about what he's doing

My ex is likely more gay than bisexual as he claims. When we were together we never fucked once, he barely touched my pussy, and always demanded bjs. He admits that he carries on the same habits with his current. I believe he gets with women because modern women are more willing to provide (to prove how ~cool~ and ~progressive~ they are) than gay men, and the older woman he's been dating now for the past few years has been the perfect beard. She's the breadwinner in addition to possessing the only vehicle while being the only one capable to drive it, so he's co-dependent as fuck and I think he's too much of a dodgy chickenshit to attempt to live on his own. Since that would mean he'd have to tackle full responsibilities like full-time employment and couldn't manipulate someone else into paying his way. He has diagnosed mental issues (which in fairness are quite tragic) so maybe he feels he can't make it on his own but that's a mere footnote in the grand scheme of his antics. Bottom line is that he's being selfish and dishonest and I resent that.

He's a fucking leech in this relationship of his, and is at least using me to emotionally cheat on his long term girlfriend which social media says he is engaged to. They have each other as a couple in their profile pictures. He's fine to talk to normally but that's the thing, he hasn't been able to hold a normal conversation without it devolving into how fucking unhappy he is in that relationship, being suggestive towards me out of the blue (pic related), or flat out asking me for sexual attention like I'm a free camgirl the past three times. Holy shit we were just reminiscing about food tonight and all the sudden he drops how he wants to runaway and do kinks with me wtf. It started today because it was his birthday so he messaged me to tell me how his woman just made it so terrible for him and it was a shit birthday. I pull away and withdraw from him when he gets like this. However awhile back I made the mistake of believing him when he initially said his relationship was on the rocks. He sent me nudes so I sent him a nude back (foolishly believing he was ending things and me wanting the attention from an ex), then he ghosted me for a few days which is how I realized he played me and just wanted to see if I was still an option. This came a week before he announced a trip to his hometown with her in September. It doesn't sit well with me to have enabled a dude who wanted his cake and to eat it too. He's a sneaky fuck.

He claims they're both unhappy, but you know what? I don't really buy it. Whenever he brings their relationship up I encourage him to either talk it out or break up, but he's always got an excuse. Obviously his reason for staying is what she offers, and I struggle to believe that he tells her he cheats online or that he's so unhappy cause then why would she stick around for, unless she's a cuckquean? So I intend to let her know about this. I was gonna shoot her a message saying something along the lines of
>"Hi ____. We don't know each other but I'm a friend of _____. I wanted to let you know that the messages _____ has sent me recently have been sexually inappropriate. While your relationship is none of my business, I wanted to let you know because ____ claims he is very unhappy being with you. No matter how many times I encourage him to confront his relationship issues he seems to ignore my advice, as it seems a week or so later he's back in my inbox to complain about your relationship or act suggestive towards me. I do not morally agree with this behavior and I would consider it a form of cheating. While I told him to stop and withdraw when he does that behavior, it doesn't seem to be getting better, and I have no knowledge if he attempts to do this to other women on his social media. It is important that you should know in case you were not aware. You seem like a very happy couple otherwise, which is why it shocks me that he is behaving in this way behind closed doors, and behind your back if that's the case. If you are aware of this behavior and it's not a problem in your relationship, then disregard this message."

What do you think? Do you think I'll have to block them both?

No. 578707

I’m getting fat someone tell my fat ass to eat less fried garbage

No. 578717

It's fine if you dislike children but not being able to understand why people have and love them is really cringy, you aren't 14 anymore.

No. 578722

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Anyone else get suicidal thoughts right after waking up? I get them every time.

No. 578723

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I've been getting back into social media and honestly I'm so disgusted with myself. I should know better, that internet clout and friends are meaningless but I'm just so lonely and bored. I'm just waiting to see how long it can last before I get depressed and suicide my accounts because I'm not getting enough attention.

No. 578725

Do it, anon. I would definitely consider it cheating and she deserves to know.

No. 578727

Welcome to my world. I wish I could wake up and my mind just be blank. I specifically get thoughts about ex friends and crush and I can't get rid of them, which makes me legit feel homicidal over how much I hate those wastes of human beings. What these sociopaths did to me after many years of friendship was really fucked.

Any tips on keeping your mind blank or entertained during the morning as you wake up especially when you've got holidays?

No. 578730

What this anon says >>578655 plus tell those little bitches who don't even care about you in your life off. If they really don't even care about you you won't notice much difference without them and to make a partner or a close friend feel like this and not give a fuck is shitty, despite you always being your first choice in the end. That you are feeling like this in the first place is a sign you have been emotionally neglected, talking from experience.

No. 578731

For me it's only at night/when I'm tired.

No. 578739

I feel you anon. I get those obsessive kinda thoughts too. Sometimes for hours instead of sleeping. Always the same dumb thoughts over and over again. Almost like a circle.

No. 578740

>and suicide my accounts
Dramatic much?

No. 578742

Like clockwork. I fell into abusing adderall because I liked all nighters and getting to skip waking up

No. 578745

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My period flow atm is a lot heavier and the blood is thicker for some reason and it’s making me feel incredibly gross and icky. I mean my period always makes me feel gross even if I don’t really get cramps or feel queasy but all of a sudden it’s a lot heavier and it literally never is and I’m incredibly pissed off

No. 578746

How the fuck do people support Desmond Is Amazing and think it's cute and progressive? A 11-year old autistic (not saying this as an insult but actually confirmed autistic) kid hanging around adult men talking about doing drugs and one of them being a convicted murderer? His stage mom scripting all his interviews and getting pissed that he expressed not wanting to do this anymore. And everyone who doubts this as being a "cute dress up" sort of thing gets dismissed as being "right wing conservatives". Oh disliking child grooming is a conservative thing now? And honest to god people saying "well I made drug jokes as a child too!" like it's a normal and healthy thing every kid goes through? Fuck this, fuck all of it.

No. 578747

I love my family, I would take a bullet for my family, but more than anything I just want to get in my car and drive off somewhere far far away and never be found. I know realistically I would be miserable after a while, but I just have this strong feeling of wanting to be completely forgotten. I would love for everyone who has ever come across me to wake up tomorrow and just forget I ever existed.

No. 578750

I totally understand. Sometimes i fantasise about starting all over or going to a whole new town where nobody knows me and they’re meeting me for the first time, usually when I’m regretting or feeling embarrassed over things I did and said in the past and i’m cringing at how people close to me remember those moments lol. So then I wish I could erase everyone’s memories and impressions of me to make them view me in a way I want them to, without any of the cringey shit I’ve done. Just a blank slate basically.

No. 578753

yes same. I'm so embarrassed of who I used to be (just really socially awkward due to a lot pain and insecurity) and I just can't get over the interaction or lack there of people have had with me. I feel like I'm defined by the way others perceive me and I've tried to stop thinking this way but it's so hard. It would be nice to have a fresh start. It would be nice to go back to my earlier years knowing what I know now.

No. 578754

this is minor thing to get worked up about but…
I'm from Belgium where half speaks French and half speaks Dutch. I'm from the Dutch part and so sick and tired everyone assumes all of Belgium is French and knows how to speak it.
I get irrationally angry when I choose my country for a site and suddenly its all in French. no its not easier for us at all! English is so much closer to Dutch.
People I can forgive unless they continue trying to speak in French to please us while we've mentioned several times that English is easier.

tldr: getting irrationally angry about websites assuming my language

No. 578758

You can switch the preferred language in your browser settings. You can even set a specific order of importance, so if language 1 isn't available, the site is gonna try language 2. Put English on top and you'll have this issue less.

No. 578764

different anon but if this makes me a cringy child so be it, I genuinely don't get why someone would willingly have a child. not that I doubt mothers, I believe their love for their children is genuine, I just absolutely cannot comprehend it. I don't like taking care of anyone and children are not an exception.

No. 578768

I can't do anything right, I'm already really ugly and mentally slow and fail at simple tasks like opening doors, then I think I make a good friend but they insult me for not wanting to talk about if I masturbate. He accused me of being terrified of sex and not being an adult. Fine then call me a child for not wanting these kind of conversations Jesus christ
I'm so sick of being a useless person other people judge and dislike and I hate being alone so I do want to have a friend and even a partner at some point ffs

No. 578772

Sorry you're having troubles anon, that dude was just looking to get his rocks off by the looks of it, stop talking to him if you still are. I have zero friends too, but honestly I'm used to it. I like it this way. You seem kinda cute tho, ngl.

No. 578778

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My hands are gnarled little fists, making it painful to do ordinary tasks. I can crochet and knit like a beast but holding my phone in ANY WAY causes excruciating pain. The surgery isn't viable because I don't heal well and scar terribly, which might make the surgery detrimental.
I swear to god though, if a surgeon could cleanly remove my pinkies including the metacarpal bones, I could be freed from a lot of pain. But who knows? Maybe in ten years my pinkies will be the one-eyed leader of the blind and I'll have regretted ridding myself of them. My hands already look like a fucking crime so aesthetically I can't give a shit. I just wish phones had handles like a teapot. Also yes, I've bitched about this here already and I will again one day.

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