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No. 764603
I saw anon venting in Medbay, that’s pretty sus
Previous thread:
>>755729 No. 764630
>>764627I know they exist but I have never seen a really ugly or average womam with a hotter bf and most of the time it only happens because the girl will accept
toxic behavior from him that prettier/more wealthy women wont
No. 764634
>>764631That’s just people being bitter because they can’t have a cute relationship, but if you have real friends that appreciate you and respect you, they will be happy for the things you’ve achieved, specially if that means having a nice and healthy relationship with a well adjusted man.
And if they’re shit and criticize you because you don’t look like you got a filter on your face 24/7, then they’re retarded and deserving of being alone forever.
No. 764644
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This obese cow and her balding MTF troon partner came to my work and we made small talk then she decided to bring up that she's a lesbian in all seriousness. It was obvious that her partner still had a penis and was the most masculine troon I've ever seen
I thought this brainwashing shit was only on twitter, now I'm worry about actual lesbians who get catfished by scrote troons and get cornered for wanting actual woman with a vagina
No. 764652
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I am very tempted put fake nails on right now, despite the fact I'm supposed to take a break due to the sad state of my natural nails
No. 764653
>>764649Asians wokesters are ready to be
victims now. They have been going after black people too for not being as passionate about them as for blm.
No. 764667
>>764649I’m so over this stupid shit.
It’s just the new event everyone’s picking to bitch about and act like a self righteous
victim.
It’s a contest between black people, the mentally ill, trannies and now I guess Asians and somehow trannies are the ones who are always feeling the most victimized
No. 764708
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Fuck depression for robbing me of the fun years of my life.
I missed out on going out, dating, keeping friends because I kept my locked in my room all the time.
I feel like I could have been so much further in life if I wasn't such a bitch and let things get so bad for me it ironically makes me depressed
No. 764722
>>764680Anon I'm also feeling unreasonably lonely. But I'm isolating myself by not logging into my MMO for 2nd day because there's changes and I have difficulty adjusting. I understand I'm in PMS and that always affects me super bad so I'm just trying to chill.
I'm cooking enough instant pot carnitas and bacon/beer pinto beans to last me for 2 weeks with rice/tortillas etc. I'll end up eating around 1:00am my time. The process of prepping and chopping and cooking soothes me and in the end I have food for days. It's like an economically healthy but physically unhealthy coping mechanism.
No. 764727
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So I spoonfed my boyfriend on what I wanted for an engagement ring and he still managed to screw up ordering it. I went with him to try on rings and we got as far as a draft at the jeweler's. The consultant gave us her card and said to contact her when ready. He needed to save money at the time so we waited. Later I gave him a list of the specs I wanted for the overall band. We even already had the center stone so arguably the hardest shopping part that men face was over. It was as simple as him dropping off the stone and following the list on one of his days off.
He bungled so badly.
First of all he never called in advance to make sure the same lady would be there that day. So he rolls into this store expecting them to know him from Joe and of course they have no idea who this man is lmao, and the lady isn't there. They try to help him. However it was like he completely forgot everything about me and what we did together while ring shopping. He forgot my ring size and forgot what I wanted on the band. This might have been forgivable due to nerves if I hadn't sent him the details list on his phone which had all of this info, including my ring size. When he finally did reference it, he completely misread what I had sent and for some reason thought that the pictures I sent of what I wanted was actually what I didn't want. Boyfriend, why would I have sent pictures of things I don't want? "Yeah, I thought that was weird too." /facepalm
He had sent me two panic texts asking me for the details but I was too busy at work to have seen them. I noticed a whole 25 minutes later but by the time I called him back it was too late. He had already submitted the order and drove home instead of giving me time to answer his questions or call.
I get that this is all very materialistic, but it was really hard to not be a little mad about his carelessness. Putting aside the fact that I'm a little hurt that he didn't retain any of this info. I think what annoys me is the hours of research and work I put into finding the stone I wanted and looking into a custom ring, and all he had to do was relay the details, add some personal touch, and pay yet he messed it up somehow.
His ego wouldn't let him say out loud how dumb he'd been and initially he tried to blame me for being confusing. Had he really been paying attention he wouldn't need the list anyway.
He moped all day because I was disappointed. I wasn't trying to make him feel bad on purpose, it was just frustrating at the moment. I think I remember him apologizing, but I can tell he's defensive and sensitive about it. At least that tells me he didn't do it on purpose.
It's not a gigantic deal because once we receive the mockup in a few weeks, we can send back for redo. It's just going to be a longer process now when it didn't have to be. I just wanted my ring after having the stone literally taunting me on my dresser for months. I'm impatient af now. I still love him, he's just retarded sometimes. At least he'll try to make it right.
No. 764729
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>tfw found out someone I hated got run off twitter
what a time to be alive.
No. 764739
>>764649People seem REALLY intent on making the killings solely about race rather than misogyny or a combination of both. Lots of calls to protect Asian Americans (all of them, not specifying women), some weird takes about it being sexist to speculate about them being sex trafficked (like that's an insult, and not a very real thing that often happens), blaming covid etc…
Obviously race is a major factor and you can't separate race and gender when it comes to men's racist sexual fetishes, but a psycho like that like would have killed whichever race of women he happened to be most attracted to. He specifically said it was sexually motivated, but as usual nobody wants to acknowledge the epidemic of violence against women for what it is.
No. 764750
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A woman (the cashier) complimented my pride pin today and instead of saying thanks, I got caught so offguard that I just raised my hand as in "goodbye" and left. Didn't even look at her face because I'm an autistic retard. God I want to fucking die, I can never go back there now.
No. 764764
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God I'm so happy I got a two bedroom apartment
My niece isn't doing to well and it seems like something has happened, and the fact that she doesn't have a lot of privacy doesn't make it a lot better:
- Her mom sometimes just goes straight into her (now teenage) kids rooms just to "hang out" or check out what they're doing without any warning
- When she visits my brother (she lives with the mom far up north while the rest of the family lives here in the capital), which she only does for a few days 2 or 3 times a year, she only has a small, though very cozy, area that is divided by a curtain
- My mom lives in a 1 bedroom apartment so while she can hog the living room it's still not quite the same
So she is most likely going to stay at my place during easter. I had a gut feeling that we would get a scenario like this ever since she was 12 (she's 17 now) which is actually one of the reasons to why I looked for an apartment with an extra room when I was looking for something new. I hope knowing that she can always stay at my place for a chance to be left alone without any requirement to come out and socialize more than she needs to for a few days will be what she needs to feel at least a little bit more at ease. She has to enter another type of hell though with my absolutely awful cooking.
No. 764774
>>764770I know, I know lol. I've just always lived alone so there haven't really been much of a need to make great food since it's just going to go down the grub hole anyway. It usually comes out decent but nothing special. I usually eat pretty healthy and rarely eat out or order home though.
I'm great at baking and making coffee or hot chocolate though
No. 764848
>>764844The fuck. I agree that
>even “decent” men are still menhowever you don't have to accept someone not taking your feelings seriously. My bf always listens to me and is not offended when I feel hurt by something he did (it doesn't happen that often). We talk like adults and work on each other and our issues.
No. 764902
>>764844It honestly seems that way. Even though he seems to be high empathy (not just with me, but with others as well) he still has this weird hang-up about being right that a lot of men do. I think they believe if they make a mistake it's some sort of direct attack on their character.
>>764848It's a weird disconnect because I believe he genuinely cares very much and takes my feelings seriously, but he also thinks he knows better than he does and has to have the last word. If it happens again I'll make sure we work on it.
No. 764928
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ive been such a piece of shit since quitting my job in mid February, i cook & clean & take care of our pets but i don't feel like im actually contributing to the household in any way. im finally supposed to see a therapist on monday & I HAVE TO start applying for jobs again that day too. i feel so fucking terrible about myself for not working but back when i did have a job i felt even worse because i was having breakdowns every other day & wasnt taking care of myself. its just such a shit, 2-step cycle of a.) hate myself for being a failure -> b.) become too miserable to make any meaningful progress towards anything -> repeat ad nauseam.
i half-want to just take any part time job that will have me just so that i wont feel like an unemployed mooching retard, but ive already worked a ton of entry-level cashier positions at companies that didnt give a shit about me & that environment does nothing to make me feel like any less of a failure. i got a degree in 2017 and have done fuckall with it besides earn minimum wage. i wish there was anything i was passionate about, because at least i could have a goal to work towards, a hope for the future, even if it was unrealistic i would have an answer when someone asks me "what do you want to do?"
No. 764948
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Why are white men over 29 so fucking UGLY?? (Nonwhite men aren’t winners either but at least they’re more likely to have hair)
They’re always balding, leathery ass faces, yellowing teeth, wearing a stupid fucking baseball cap to hide their lack of hair, big scraggly unkempt beards, dad boss, mediocre jobs
Maybe it’s my area too (lots of party people) but holy shit I’m just going to be a cougar.
No. 764951
>>764948I moved to the countryside a few years back and even the younger men here are mostly my height (5"4) and are quite often balding at 25 or have a slim build but with this belly fat that sticks out from their otherwise scrawny frame. Living in the city there was a better mix but there's something about rural areas. My dad comes from a different rural area in our (eu) country and it's the same there, absolute mutant looking men.
With covid creating 5km travel restrictions I just haven't seen an attractive man irl in the longest time. I see attractive women everyday though?
No. 764955
>>764948my dumbest "fear" when it comes to dating is falling for a guy who ends up balding.
it's shallow but god so many of them keep the little hair they have left for way too long. i don't want to try and convince myself that my balding bf is still sexy while he pretends his forehead isn't THAT big ye
No. 764967
>>764955I’m just going to assume any Caucasian (and possibly not, but again while men seem to bald the fastest and hardest) man I date will lose his hair eventually. But fuck can I have a few years with a dude with hair?
The city I live in is anything but rural but every guy I see looks like the Atlanta shooter.
No. 764978
>>764727>His ego wouldn't let him say out loud how dumb he'd been and initially he tried to blame me for being confusing.Ah, DARVO my old friend! This is an abuse tactic.
>I think what annoys me is the hours of research and work I put into finding the stone I wanted and looking into a custom ring, and all he had to do was relay the details, add some personal touch, and pay yet he messed it up somehow.This is so sad. Seriously. The man you're about to
marry can't even be assed to pay attention to the sort of ring you want and allowed you to take care of all the details on your own. He would've been fine with you getting something you didn't even like save for the fact you're willing to correct his mistakes. Then he attacked you for his own incompetence. Maybe this is a "small" issue in the scheme of things but that's kind of the point. A scrote who can't even get such a simple task right is going to be hopeless when it comes to larger events.
>At least he'll try to make it right.Yeah, at least there's that. Smh. The bar is in hell
nonny.
No. 764979
>>764727 >I get that this is all very materialistic, but it was really hard to not be a little mad about his carelessness.I dated, got engaged to and married a guy who was always fucking shit up and tbh I get this, I don't think it is a materialistic issue. When you're marrying someone you want to trust that they are competent and can be trusted. You want to rely on him and he's here messing up some shit that's really important to you, in the process he's sucking alot of the joy and romance out of this special moment. Your frustration is understandable.
My guy was like this, we were young (and married too young in retrospect) so I gave him alot of leeway when he fucked things up. Young adults mess up. The marriage lasted two years and then he moved back home with his parents and regressed into a single teen again lol. Wish I had payed more attention to the incompetence tbh lol. Maybe have a long engagment if he's like this, that way you can guage if he's improving at all with age and can get out if he's not. Don't rush to commit to this.
No. 764985
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I feel fucking useless. I'm a grad student during corona and I'm not coping. have spent the last two days feeling suicidal and emailing back and forth between school support and tutors trying to get special exemptions in place whilst I'm in a dark place. I'm not cut out for academia but I can't drop out because otherwise I will never manage to get into a psychology career and all I want is to help other people. I hate being so mentally weak and useless and I would just kill myself but I don't want to hurt my mum or my boyfriend. I just don't see any kind of positive future and I don't know how I'm going to live like this for 50 more years
No. 765088
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there's a girl in my drama group that's really fucking annoying. when i first met her and asked her name she said "actually, it's best to ask my name every time you talk to me because i have multiple personality disorder and i might be someone else." and i wasn't going to do that, obviously. shes a tranny, female to male. but also non-binary, i think. it's hard to keep up.
anyways, today she told the group during our weekly zoom call that now she goes by neo-pronouns. those being "fae", "faeself" or whatever. how do i not get shunned for choosing not to do this? they all have this same woke twitter ideology on gender/are trenders so i feel as though i'm going to get some stick for it. most other people were pretty supportive and tried to explain it to me but i'm still lost on how this is good for them.
do i just pretend that i am behind it and use the pronouns? i don't ever speak about how i feel about gender, and for the most part lie about what i think and use their trender speak when i'm around them to avoid suspicion and not have everyone hate me. i wish i didn't have to, though.
i can't leave the group because it is the only way i get out of the house/speak to real people while also getting to perform and do what i enjoy. the leaders of the group help me with other aspects of my life due to my debilitating bipolar disorder and agoraphobia so it would be stupid of me to give that up.
wtf do i do.
No. 765137
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I need this semester to finish already
No. 765161
>>765156Like the anon who went off on another anon for collecting plushies because it's "immature and autistic", then revealed in another thread that she's into magick and thinks other women are "doing it wrong!!1", lmao.
Ignore those tryhards, anon. No one likes them, anyway.
No. 765194
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>>765088Just do it, anon. There's a genderspecial at my workplace but I use her pronouns in public. It's not worth it, not to mention I just don't care enough to fight it and I basically treat the situation in my mind as if she's a little retard child who needs to pretend to be a princess so whatever. I'll eat the playdoh cupcake, metaphorically speaking.
I never ever bring it up on my own volition. I nod at whatever weird thing she brings up about her boob surgery, and use the pronouns. The hope that she'll look back on it in a decade and cringe at herself keeps me going.
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>>765137I feel you, anon, I feel you.
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im in so much mental pain right now I just want to finally slit my throat so I no longer have to feel the pain it feels so stressful having to be stuck with my thoughts right now I just want my head to be empty
No. 765210
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>>765199>insert something “witty” they saw on imgur >I’m into authentic, confident women (but will proceed to find and manipulate some pickme)>gratuitous hiking shot / boat shot >6’11 cus apparently that matters All. The. Same. In their ugly quicksilver T-shirts, hoodies, and of course the baseball
cap or snapback. Hair either buzzed or receded as fuck, looking 45 at 28. Kyle. Jeff. Chris. Scott. Ryan. Nick.
They’re just an endless blend of generic and mediocre, then they draw shit like this, I have to laugh.
No. 765213
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i ate all the fajitas
No. 765214
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I'm fucking lonely and I want to start a band!
No. 765215
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>>765214Come and jam with us pal
No. 765218
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Very pissed off. Story time:
Had a school girl crush on an employee at my older job. He was an older guy and super hot imo. Salt and pepper hair, funny, a "man's man". We flirted (very subtley) often. Never got physical though. At one point he even called me his work wife. We went on like this for a couple of years, I never made a move on him at all.
Turns the fuck out he was dating the cleaning lady the whole time. She was cute. Young hispanic lady with a "goth" vibe, dyed hair and piercings.
I'm just so fucking embarrassed he never ever tried to make it clear to me that he was dating someone else. I know I'm not really owed that, especially since we were "work spouses", which I get it… plus, I would have never put our friendship in jeopardy. But the chemistry was there. And we flirted all the time, he could've at least told me so I wouldn't fall over the guy. I don't work there anymore, but I was sneaking on his facebook a few days ago and found out.
God, out of spite I just want to send anonymous raunchy photos. I'm legit getting a thrill just thinking about it. What would it do for me? Well the revenge aspect is fun, plus him getting random inappropriate photos at a random time, he could be doing anything, like sitting with his gf. Plus I'd be turned on that he saw it but it could never be a thing. Plus he would most likely know it was me….. but I would be deleting the app immediately so he wouldn't be able to respond.
nonnies… should i do this evil thing for fun? it would be pure satisfaction, 100%
No. 765219
>>765203typically no I’m never okay but my dumbass self decided to take a nap and whenever I wake up from one I feel the absolute worst mentally and become very irritable, it feels like I woke up from the dead.
>>765207 lol irony anon because I just said I woke up from a nap but I agree sleeping just makes it so much better, I used to nap all the time because I was in a lot of mental anguish but now while it feels nice to get more sleep when I wake up I feel absolute rage, it’s like my mind hitting back into reality
No. 765224
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>>765194i'm surprised at how much that helps. i really appreciate your answer, anon! thank you
No. 765228
>>765218Why do you care about some random idiot so much? He is not worth worrying about. Your petty "revenge" will do nothing but make him feel better so he could brag to his friends that some "crazy bitch can't get over him". Wake up.
Do you have no one to distract you or to talk to?
If you really, really want to try having some kind of revenge, the best revenge you can do is get over it and become a better version of yourself. Appearance or personality wise - doesn't matter.
No. 765232
>>765228Thank you
nonny…. I guess I felt some sort of need to do that but… it would just fuel him, you're right.
Why do I care so much? Well, we were really close at work and talked every day, always showing each other cool things. But then when I left the company he never texted anymore, plus I felt betrayed because he didn't tell me that my other coworker/friend had colon cancer. I kind of wanted to confront him about everything at first, like a message like maybe "You know I had a crush on you right?" but then the angry side of me just wants to spam lewds and block him.
No. 765236
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I bought new shampoo because I grew tired of my old one. The new one's smell disappears after probably not even twelve hours. I feel robbed.
No. 765245
>>765231yeah, they're honestly just as insufferable as one would think.
you'd assume they'd at least be a good actor with how much time they spend LARPing but apparently not.
No. 765249
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No thoughts just want to fucking die
No. 765255
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I asked my dad to get soda when he went out and when he returned my mom ask why I didn't go out to get soda. I told her because dad got it, but she said I should double check the fridge. There was no soda, she yelled at me for five minutes, and made me go drive and get some. When I got back home with the soda she yelled again about personal responsibility and double checking. Later in the day my dad told me he actually got soda, but my mom maid him return it because "she should get it so she learns personal responsibility".
This is some emo angst shit, but she could have just told me she wanted me to learn responsibility instead of forcing me through her dumb mind game tests. Why couldn't she have just told me
No. 765281
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cutting is for teenagers but oh my god i want to cut i dont want to cut i want to cut i dont want to cut i want to cut i dont want to cut i want to cut i dont want to cut i want to cut i dont want to cut i want to cut i dont want to cut someone put me out of my misery worst night ever
No. 765283
>>765255calling that shes a narc.
>>765281same here. early twenties, used to cut in my early teens and stopped because i mostly did it for attention then and got what i wanted from it. now i just want the release and to see the blood.
just gotta remember that the pain after the initial rush is pretty shitty. it makes it hard to sleep, or move whatever body part you get & you might end up going too deep or getting an infection. dunno. doesn't feel worth it. try holding ice against your skin or drawing in red pen. helps for me sometimes.
No. 765356
>>765062>>764979>>764978>>764965Thanks for the backup anons, I appreciate it.
I just wanted to say that the way I type does tend to overdramatize matters, which is why I'm glad I can vent anonymously someplace. In reality my boyfriend wasn't mean to me or anything so I want to emphasize that. I was in my own head because I was frustrated at him.
Him trying to divert blame was a kneejerk cope because he was embarrassed and felt stupid. Not making excuses for him, but I've definitely done something similar before because my pride wouldn't immediately admit I'd been really dumb. It's childish for sure, but I've done it before and I know it didn't make me a monster all around. So I don't think it was malice, and him having tried to reach out to me during, and after emailing the jeweler to get the issue fixed would point that he didn't mean to disappoint me. Perhaps I overreacted. At the end of the day we will get a rendering of the ring before we agree to have it made, and for all I know maybe I'd still have changed something once I seen the drawing even if he had gotten everything perfect.
It really will be a nice ring. He hasn't objected to anything I've wanted for it and was happy to pay. I was the one who insisted to be so involved with the process because I wanted to be sure it was a ring I could truly love and would want to wear, so it's a bit unfair of me to act like he pushed the responsibility on me when by all accounts that's how I set the stage. I'm the one who took the lead, but I am really excited to know I'm getting exactly what I want.
No. 765393
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life sucks as a woman not just because of men but because if you aren’t a brainy, smart, extroverted woman who can do and understand math and have intelligent ideas and know how to lead you are absolutely fucked beyond all belief. i wouldn’t call myself jealous but extremely resentful towards women who can actually stand programming or engineering or becoming a doctor but when i want to pursue the arts im too “soft” and nothing will become of me which is honestly true but god it’s all so confusing and frustrating and I want to hop off a damn cliffe. it’s the expectation that women have to be the smart side-kick with all of the advantages but I can’t be that im not smart or capable at all and when I’m not that other women will just call me a dumb lazy useless bimbo or a nlog when I’m literally just not as smart or accomplished as you. help help help help
No. 765404
>>765393don't feel bad anon!! im also shit at math and ive accepted im not smart in many, many ways, even if im studious. don't feel less just bc youre not a STEM major or a programming prodigy, women don't "need" to be anything, sincerely. if men can get away with being useless fuckups as long as theyre "kind" or w/e then us women can get by not being the brightest, smartest, most accomplished.
some may call this a cope or w/e but honestly, i stand by the belief that women don't need to be this poster child of perfection to earn respect or love. you can be just as happy and feel accomplished by pursuing ""weaker"" or ""softer"" (by which fucking standards?) endeavors, not every woman needs to nor should they be this fierce leading lady girlboss whatfuckingever. its only nice if you actually wish to be it, if not then to me its just the same as being coerced by the patriarchy into being something you dont necesessarily want.
No. 765413
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This talk about art just made me realize how upset I am that I don't have enough time to draw. Well actually, I have plenty of time. I just procrastinate like fuck, and I don't like to draw unless I get all my responsibilities out of the way but like I said, I like to procrastinate so that's basically never. I guess I'm still technically a beginner, but it just makes me sad to think that I could be a lot better at art, but I never get shit done. In terms of my hobbies, I'm also trying to learn coding/programming, and 2 languages on top of this. I don't know what makes me think I can successfully do these things when I can't dedicate myself to drawing everyday.
No. 765434
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I need personal space. I go to work surrounded by people all day, and when I get home I have to stay in my bedroom in a crowded apartment. The only 'me' time I get is when my bf is at work until close, if he is closing. Otherwise no me time because he's there when I get home. Or else then after that, I can get alone time when everyone including him are asleep around 1am ish. My bed isn't big enough for both me and bf, I feel so smothered. He feels bad and whines when I get up in the middle of the night to go out to the living room to watch tv or something but jfc I need it. I pass it off as not wanting to be rude and wake him, but truthfully I want to be able to sprawl out and watch tv and snack without being disturbed. I haven't had good sleep as a consequence of this habit lately, but it's the only time of hour where I feel in control of my life. It's the only thing I get to do that's not starting at the office or my bedroom walls.
Can you blame me?
No. 765441
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>>765435thanks for answer. I'm bi so I've considered the gay thing but wouldn't I have known already? most lesbians seem to be so from stuff in the womb aka their genetics and tend to know early on, show signs etc, so I guess I am some kinda ace-leaning bi. I like women but it was never that obvious to me and neither were men. fuck thanks for your sweetness though. Yes all I can do is live day by day and see what unfolds really. I wonder if antidepressants fucked me up and made me asexual
No. 765457
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wish i could get over the creeping feeling that everyone is only entertaining me. i just want to feel like i'm not a bother to people i interact with, and that they don't all secretly hate me/aren't just using me to sate their own whims.
pic is from dungeon meshi.
No. 765501
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If white people and the west so bad because slavery, why is it only white people who no longer own slaves and only the west abolish slavery? Why POC continue to have slaves across the globe? Why do Asians complain about discrimination but stay silent about Xinjiang internment camps where Muslims are tortured, raped and killed? Why do we continue to demonize the west when the west has offered so much more than any other country would have. The west is not perfect but you were very lucky to be born by luck in to modern day western society.(racebait)
No. 765515
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Honestly? this is me
No. 765524
>>765501But all countries have women being trafficked, and kids working for cents, and sex trade and prostitution. So it's a humanity thing, even if yes, some countries are better to live in than others
Slavery just makes me fucking sad.
No. 765601
I cannot stand my piece of shit brother and the constant arguments his existence causes between my parents. 25+ years they've been together and the only conflicts they have are over him. He's an autistic bastard who is rude to everyone, refuses to clean up after himself, is extremely anti-social, ungrateful for EVERYTHING, just has a disgusting personality and attitude all around. I legitimately haven't spoken to him in 2 years despite living in the same house, because I can not engage with him without him angering me.
My mum and dad just had a huge argument because my dad is now fed up with his shit too, and is refusing to talk to him anymore as well. Cue my mum desperately defending him as ALWAYS, saying my dad is a horrible person for it and if he doesn't fix his relationship with my brother, my mum will divorce him. It's fucking sick to me how she always weaponizes their marriage in order to protect him. He has 0 friends and his sister and dad hate him, but noooo, we should be the bigger person and continue to put up with him because HEAVEN FORBID he learns to treat people well. Fuck him, I despise him, if my parents split up over him I will look my mum dead in the eyes and tell her this decision has made me resent him to the point that I wish he were dead, and I hope that fucking hurts her because she needs to wake the fuck up. Screaming that this 23 year old parasite is 'a CHILD', she's clearly deluded that he's still growing up and needs support to change but no, he is who he is and he is a sack of shit.
No. 765727
>>765720I've heard of people shaking someone to 'shake some sense into them' so that's sometimes a gray area depending on force, but he pulled your hair out of frustration?? Jesus anon that's not okay.
I've been in a similar place, trust your gut and get out. As sorry as they say they are, once that threshold is passed it tends to repeat no matter how much they promise otherwise.
No. 765834
>>764696I agree with you so much, anon. I’ve heard antis rebut the alcohol comparison with “just because one bad thing is legal doesn’t mean we should make ANOTHER bad thing legal!” but that is such smoothbrained argument.
First off, yes, if one group gets to enjoy their favorite “bad vice” with impunity than why should another randomly not get to? Secondly, I’ve yet to see anyone prove weed is actually “bad” in any way. Even gateway theory is a huge reach. No shit that anyone who is willing to try meth:heroine has also tried weed. Correlation isn’t causation. It’s just that peope who do hard drugs aren’t usually opposed to doing drugs so obviously they’ve done other drugs, including the most popular and widely available ones.
It’s a fantastic anti-nausea medicine. I accept it’s not for everyone, and some people react poorly to it and should know it’s not for them. But for many it has no ill effects and lots of benefits. It’s stupid for it to be outlawed. People who don’t like it can simply choose not to consume it.
(Sage because I admit I have raging aspergers over this topic.)
No. 765953
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Since I was a child I had always wanted to be tall, I think tall women look so beautiful and elegant. But it was never in the cards for me, considering my father was like 5'8 and my mother was 4'11.
tfw grew up to be a womanlet barely any taller than my mom
No. 765964
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>>765953>>765961Are you at least 5'0? I searched for celebs and models under 5'5" and found some! Devon Aoki is a good example, as well as Eva Longoria.
No. 765965
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>>765964Devon is 5'3 and Eva Longoria is 5'0
No. 765972
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Hi there!
Ehhh, I stopped talking to a guy that is a literal piece of shit, I didn't block him or anything I just suddenly stopped replying to his texts but today he texted me and I'm lost if I should text him back or ignore him for eternity. I just want him to be miserable and I'm thinking of replying now to give him hope and then ignore him again. I want him to suffer. Aaaaahhh I'm lost
No. 765988
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>>765968>>765965>>765964>>765961Aw, thank you for the support, nonnies! I'm only 5'1 and tbh being short has been an insecurity of mine since I realized I wasn't going to get any taller. Thank you for telling me about some petite celebs to look into!
No. 766083
>>766018>Gay men and het women tell me I'm pretty.Not to be rude but do they tell you that because you ask or randomly? Either way, they could be doing that out of pity.
When I was younger, I used to ask friends and cousins if I was fat (I was) and they always said no, I was fine. Plus there are so many girls and gay men telling people "omg you're so pretty (pleading emoji) whats ur routine??" i think they do this so ugly people stay ugly, aka dont try to improve themselves OR so they can feel good about themselves "i told an ugly girl she was pretty yay me"
No. 766087
>>766018I don't know what age you are but when I was younger I got random compliments from women and gays and I think it's just that society views young women as wanting that validation. Pretty or not the gays will flatter you if they like you
I wouldn't get too preoccupied with rating or categorising yourself.
No. 766093
>>766092Im sure they only come here to sperg about one thing. Like anal rectal guy did… Wait, maybe he has a new fascination and it's wombs
Dun dun dun..
No. 766125
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Thinking of all the good things my mother has done for me and all the good moments makes me incredibly upset, because the times where she acts normal are like glimpses of the mom I could have had (or that I did have, but only for a very small part of my childhood). I strongly suspect she is mentally ill (idc if it's armchairing, I was raised by her) and I hate how mental illness ruins potential. She's a great woman underneath it all, but are the abusive moments really worth it? I don't know. I know someday I might have to cut her off not just for myself but for my hypothetical future partner and kids, but idk if I can bring myself to do it. I did her nails and hung out with her yesterday and it was great despite all the moments where the anger (if that's what it could be called) slipped. I wish she could be that functional everyday. Anyway, now I'm crying while writing this.
No. 766142
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Had a dream I had sex with an incredibly attractive friend of mine, and all day I was reminded it’s been over a year since I had sex with someone and was in a romantic relationship. My usual action is to find someone new right away but I’ve been actively avoiding romance. I’m just super pissed my brain would do this to me and force me into feeling lonely and wanting that again, when I really don’t need that in my life right now. I was fine for ages but the month of March has been super hard on me thanks to my dumb brain craving romantic intimacy, that stupid bitch.
No. 766146
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Fuck this timeline and the upside down world we live in now, wanna do it like Rika and an hero until I find one that isn't insane
No. 766192
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>>766180You don't do any sports or physical activities, do you? If you want to get back in touch with you body you should.
No. 766329
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i feel deep shame/mortification and anxiety EVERY time after i've gone to a party or had any kind of social interaction. the anxiety is so bad that meeting people and socializing isn't even worth it to me anymore. it never gives me anything but bad memories, even when nothing bad happened. i feel like i'm unable to enjoy life even though i want to because i hate myself and will never feel good enough.
No. 766503
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I might need to block lolcow for some time now. Cause this trolling is beyond control, it spews all over multiple threads, and the discussion never ends. And you can tell it's the same anon by how they're an obvious newfag with the same writting and trolling style and pretentiousness. No wonder they love trolling /tv/ too, they got bored and now they're shitting this place up. Seriously, I'm tired. Goodbye bitches see you in a week or whatever.
No. 766544
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Yep I think we're being baited and raided today
No. 766569
>>766548>It's funny how you just can't iamgine that there are women with different ideasSays the anon who literally said, and I quote:
>durr talk to irl women>Women irl talk mostly about males, shopping and children (if they're older), they also love to gossip about other women. Their lives are male centered. Unless they're gay or bisexual and dating only womenFor god's sake.
No. 766572
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Sometimes I get this feeling that I'm never gonna be happy. As of now I literally hate every aspect of my life. My lack of a job, my lack of friendships and relationship, my personality as a whole, my tendency to avoid and procrastinate and my social awkwardness. And I have this feeling that this is always gonna be this way. I'm always gonna hate my job, whatever I'm gonna be working, I'm never gonna have friends or a relationship and I'm always gonna be alone. Sometimes it feels like self-hate is my only personality trait
No. 766579
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>>766548woman moment
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 766588
>>766548Alright, let's say you're a woman then. A pathetic, depressed woman posting nonsense on an anonymous imageboard and trying to browbeat other women. What should we all do? Commit suicide with you? Collab to write elaborate fanfics about female-only communes that would just get flagged as a misandrist terrorist groups and gunned down the moment they got any traction if we tried it IRL? Fuck off. It's one thing if that's just your personal belief and you don't want to have kids, but you've been at it all week, being abrasive, verbally abusing other women and somehow claiming you're on our side. This is weak, unfit male mentality. You may think it's female empowerment, but it's actually low-level forceful moid behavior. Your inner mind is literally two hamsters spinning on wheels to generate the words "why i get zero bitches ?" with a frowny face. IF you are a woman, congrats. You somehow managed to be as retarded as a fucking man. FtM Aidens must be seething with jealousy at you right now.
I'm kind of smug that not just one, but two breeding kink posts made it in before the lock, ngl. Exactly what you deserve to read when you link the thread to the other faggots in your retard monkey Discord server. Tiny-dicked worthless scrotes don't have genes worth passing on, so I guess the next best thing is to try and dissuade any woman they can reach from breeding. That way, they won't have to think about all the pussy they're missing out on. Yes, bitch more about disappearing grey matter as if your brain isn't smooth, creamy postmortem fucking maggot soup. As if your own grandmother, her mother and all the women before them haven't achieved more things in their lives both pre and post pregnancy than you ever will. They would all be ashamed of your silly ass.
To all lurking, seething moids: Your legacy dies with you. Truly the weakest sex.
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 766595
>>766586I feel like some people are expecting life to be amazing when restrictions are gone. Like I see people hyping up bars and resturaunts and hotels and all that opening and yeah it'll be great and family reunions will happen initially but I wonder if there will equally be a wave of people claiming to have depression as a result of normal life not being as exciting as they hyped it up to be?
My dad has been talking about boredom and depression to me since the start of this but he already lives alone in the middle of nowhere (his choice) and so hasn't made big lifestyle adjustments during this. I'm surprised that he's feeling it as much and I'm wondering what difference it'll actually make to him to have them lifted. He's already a lone widower who doesn't like to mix much. Generally interested to see where all the lockdown depression talk goes a year from now. If it'll linger or have that second wave like I said.
No. 766662
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Like I'm not arguing for HAES or anything stupid like that, but I put on about 30 lbs of covid weight putting me at borderline overweight territory and man people never shut up about it. I'm actively trying to lose the weight but people will see me eating a normal meal and feel the need to comment on it. I bought some chicken breasts to cook yesterday and my mom asked me why I'm "eating again". Bitch, people eat everyday. If this is what fat people go through all the time then it must get annoying. Yes yes, I know, "just lose weight, fatty!". I'm working on it and don't need to be shamed every second of every day.
No. 766694
>>766685Ugh! I'm so sorry this happened to you. My friend just got the call from a guy she dated over three weeks. They went out every day and he got her a bday gift and roses, etc. Suddenly he calls her up after a date and tells her he cant see a future with her, but it's not you– i t's me bs.
I dont know why men do this. they just cant tell the truth. it's wack. I'm sorry you are hurting so bad, anon. It will pass and you can rage talk about this loser to your friends
No. 766726
>>766588that anon is like
>makes elaborate fanfics about why women shouldn't be mothers>calls women breeders>expect people to take her seriously and go along with her delusionstypical schizo behaivor, glad she was banned, cause thank god for /ot/ mods it has been pretty chill today.
No. 766792
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managed to form a tenuous but budding relationship with someone in a discord server for a hobby of mine (i haven't had a friend since 2016 so the fact that we were starting to move on from just discussing the hobby to discussing us as people was big for me) only for them to leave the server. and they seem so uninterested in continuing to speak with me now.
i feel sad and doomed. i hate it when people leave me. i won't let this happen again.
No. 766818
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I know you guys are going to say “throw the whole man out” and I don’t want that but I literally just had the most autistic interaction with my boyfriend of 13 years.
>spend an hour and a half making Swedish meatballs in my fucked up retarded kitchen
>literally have to put my electric skillet on the floor to cook because I can’t put it on top of my toaster oven like usual since I’m using it to cook meatballs, can’t put it on counter or it will burn the paint off of it
>not even hungry because chronic snacked
>uh oh used the wrong recipe, tasted a little too sour-creamy, I know my bf likes these but hates sour cream, hope it’s edible because I know he’s really hungry
>tell him it’s ready, he’s in the middle of something
>he comes down ten min later by the time I’m mostly finished
>starts jokingly bitching his dinner isn’t on his plate
>WHERES MY FUKKN DINNER WHYS IT NOT ON MY PLATE
>SHUT UP ITD BE COLD IF I DID YOU TOOK FOREVER
>YOU SHUT UP!
>YOU STFU HERES YOUR FUCKING FOOD ASSHOLE
>OH BOY IT TASTES LIKE SHIT!
>FUCK YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP
>YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP
>YOU STFU OH IT TASTES LIKE SHIT? WELL FINE SORRY OKAY
>I take his plate and his fork out of his hand and scrape it back into the pan
>…
>silence
>…
>pick his plate back up
>Would you like some Swedish meatballs?
>…
>Would you like some dinner?
>…No
>he gets up and walks up stairs
>go upstairs and say to come eat dinner
>starts escalating into more STFUs
Holy fuck like goddamn it you guys
No. 766829
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>>766818What the fuck is this? You're both under the mental age of 15.
No. 766841
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Update that nobody asked for on >>703564:
My sister announced that she got knocked up sometime around when I made this post. I want absolutely nothing to do with her sudden string of extremely bad decisions and no longer share any common values with her and never had any in common with her bf? fiance? but am expected to be a doting aunt. fml!
No. 766904
>>766897How does that even work,
nonnie?
No. 766935
>>766931Because heaven forbid if we talk about misogyny as a whole where we would have to include white Karens as
victims too.
No. 766945
>>766923im an atheist and agree with you, also i cant fucking stand religion and hate them all, they are all as bad as eachother. i never say islams shit tho since its mostly non whites in it therefore 'racist' to criticize. (tho i dont think calling a girl wearing a headscarf a terrorist is the right way to go) though i just play along with people who say theyll pray for me when im sick or whatever. i recognize believing there must be a reason youre struggling and that your life will be righted soon gives people comfort and hope but it really is just so frustrating.
>>766920anon this is your sign, call him and break up with him right now. do you really wanna be doing this shit for the next months or years even? saying i love you back while thinking about how you dont wanna be together anymore? cmon anon, end your suffering and free yourself from human baggage you no longer want.
No. 766973
>>766961Scrotes literally murder women then try to play the
victim. The very least he could do at this point is admit he did it because he hates women.
Also about him claiming he did it out of revenge to the porn industry, yeah shooting up a few women at the bottom really showed the big guys at PornHub. They must be quaking.
No. 766990
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I can't post this anywhere else because I really don't want to get judged by my friends but recently it's been really eating at me so I just wanna whine about it into the void.
I'm almost 30 and still a virgin, haven't really been in a relationship at all due to my 20's being a disaster of depression, family issues and feeling so bad about dumping a guy I only dated for a week out of peer pressure that I just never really tried after. Also, my mom is very weird about relationships and I think because she had so many failed ones she obsesses about mine to the point where I've been uncomfortable to bring up anyone around her. But that's an entirely different can of worms.
The times I DO try to give in to my feelings and crush on someone I end up working myself into an anxiety attack because I'm apparently 12 and can't handle feelings. I just don't really know what to do anymore, I've grown used to doing things by myself (especially with covid happening) but after seeing all my friends starting to date and get married I realize that I'm lonely and I don't want to be like this anymore. I feel like a freak who doesn't know how to properly talk to the opposite (or even the same) sex without coming off incredibly awkward and the idea of having to break it to someone that I'm a virgin just sounds like a nightmare. The last time I told a guy he obsessed about that aspect alone and when I last told a friend they used it against me as a joke and it felt terrible.
tl;dr I just want to find someone that makes me happy but being an awkward 30 y/o virgin makes me feel like I've missed my chance
No. 767014
>>766533Luckily I don't owe them that much but fuck man, I really hate the government lmao.
At least I can hope to get the stimulus check soon to help pay tuition even though the dollar isn't going as far anymore and it won't help much, but any money is good money at this point.
No. 767015
>>766503Honestly since PULL went down, I can tell who moved from there to here.
It's such fucking tiny, insignificant, petty nitpicks or comments about weight or looks or the smallest little thing in their background.
I wish they'd all grow up and fuck off.
No. 767017
>>766588>Commit suicide with you?Antinatalist anons are wrong about one thing: there's no point talking to normies who know absolutely nothing about the philosophy, and bringing up suicide is the best proof they know nothing. It's just demagoguery. And the good old "a bloo bloo we can't separate from men, even in our private lives, because they would all rape and kill us!" is just intellectual dishonesty and cowardice and also a proof you haven't read a single separatist text and you haven't listened to a single woman living a separatist life. I've never been to a lolcow discord, you're retarded. Don't lump me in with some secretly lolicon-obsessed cunts with breeding and gore kinks. I'm not the one who wrote about gray matter disappearing. Do you retards even know that there's more than one antinatalist or separatist person here?
I can assure you I already achieved more than my mother and grandmother, especially grandmother who had no education and was locked at home with two kids and disrespected by her husband. I have a career path and a possibility to earn more money than they ever could, and I have my own place, unlike them when they were my age, and I didn't need a scrote for that. Unless you really believe that our biggest achievement is passing on our genes, something that literally every animal can do, something that retarded people can do. You sound like an essentialist, but I bet you would REEEEEEEE at some blackpilled, essentialist points like certain female behaviors being just reproductive strategy and women using men for resources. I wouldn't even call myself blackpilled, I just find it funny that people like you hate on essentialism and then use "not passing your genes and dying out" as a gotcha. Pathetic hypocrite.
No. 767022
>>766503A lot of new people don't know anything about imageboards and their culture, complaining how offended they are instead of letting it go and all of these stupid arguements and baits are tiring as hell.
In my opinion, the worst part is how shitted up streaming and video creators threads are, with nothing but milkless or decade old shit that no one cares about. Twitch thread is infested with PULLfags because they talk only about the people who had millions of milkless pages on PULL that were full of nothing but worthless milk, even looking at some WKs in many threads you can see that it's PULL all over again.
I used to love Artist Thread but now it's nothing but some idiots baiting and talking about a milkless guy who just draws an odd OC couple without any lewdness whatsoever and people waste hours arguing about it, when art community is full of stupid lolcows. They even dropped a milky fetishist (probably because the fetishist is a gender-chan) just to waste time talking about nothing.
On a good note… I am happy that Ninabells whiteknight keeps being proven wrong. I still don't understand why a person who commissioned her and got nothing in return keeps trying to WK her ass.
No. 767031
>>766992>I very rarely have to deal with "boytalk" at this age.See this is where my issue lies. I think because all my friends are currently having their own boytalks right now it's something I can't really escape and making this thought process worse. But you can't exactly ask them to not bring it up without coming off rude, right?
>>766998You're 100% right. My friends have been a lot better about it and apologized for bringing it up, but it definitely didn't help my overthinking the entire thing which I really just need to let go and instead put more work into self-love and confidence as you've said.
>>767005>this mindset needs to be put in the trash.You're totally right, it's a really ugly mindset to have and really doesn't help anything but make the anxiety of the situation worse.
Thank you guys for your insight, I was just having a rough night of negativity but I need to learn to turn it around and not hyperfocus on this as much.
>>767006Don't be lmao
0/10 experience, do not recommend
No. 767041
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I've been overworking with my freelance orders for two weeks and didn't notice somehow I ended up getting an eyelid infection and started treating it this weekend. My eye is so puffy but at least there is not bump anymore, but jesus it makes me want to scream because of how late I noticed everything.
I have slept only for two hours this time because of how much I panicked over it.
Anons… I just want a hug, a comfort movie and shower myself with chocolate. But do I even deserve it? I am so, so tired. I feel so weak because of how heavy my eyelid feels right now.
No. 767050
Anyone else have sexual episodes that last like a day or two, maybe 2 weeks max, and then you’re suddenly basically asexual the rest of the time? No sex drive, anything sexual is boring, sex-havers fuck off challenge, touching myself is like touching nothing, if you cum you are dumb, etc. I’m not exaggerating. Anything sexual is basically as appetising as sand to me 80% of the time.
Recently, when I was in a sexual phase, I started sexting with some guy. I was really into at it first, but he took too long to reply and now I’m just like “Too late, I’m asexual again, try again in 4 months to a year x”. I feel like just ghosting him, but once I’m horny again, it’ll be so much of a hassle to find someone who’s into the exact same kinks, but isn’t an obese 38 year old neckbeard or something. I’m kind of mad at myself. Why can’t I have a normal sexuality?
No. 767127
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I just can't why ask my opinion about something just to tell me right after "You don't know anything about it" if it doesn't match what you wanted to hear. Do you want me to start to say that everything you do is shit
No. 767138
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>>767000You're right, sorry I was a bit rude earlier. It just frustrates me that everything nice I find on etsy is based in uk.
I'm actually looking for gipsy skirts like these. But not the alliexpress ones, just a bit of quality so they won't rip after one time wearing.
I have a really nice black one from Spain wich is starting to tear (from wearing too much) wich I also want to replace but our shops only offer ugly flat straight polyester "long" skirts…
>>767004I was actually always scared of amazon because of it's high shipping cost and need for credit card but there is one in Holland now that I could check out (Belgium doesnt have one) although they offer a lot less than the uk one.
No. 767158
>>766818all I've got to say is
anon………
No. 767167
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humans are so unreliable and shitty, none of your lives matter
No. 767321
>>767313I have a tendancy to assume everyone is thinking I'm shit or hating on me/judging my looks. I try to practice that mantra of 'What other people think is none of my business' but it's hard. I'm getting better at just taking peoples words at face value though.
Weirdly enough..having anons on here put words in my mouth or freak out over innocent comments has helped. I don't want my internal issues to manifest into me flipping out at well meaning people. That only gives them a
valid reason to actually judge you lol
No. 767322
>>767313People are giving you positive attention and your mom is just being encouraging. Keep telling yourself it's not that deep cause it isn't.
And like what would you do about it even if you could know for certain that there was veiled negativity? Nothing sis. Just live your life.
No. 767434
my mom died 2 years ago and her distant friend is helping me now. she doesn't have her own kids. she was only supposed to help me find a job, but she started buying me food and expensive clothes and I feel so uncomfortable with it, I'm very grateful she helps me but I don't feel like I deserve the extra stuff, we don't know each other really well, and my current financial situation doesn't even allow me to return the favour. I already said a few times that I don't need new clothes but it didn't work. she's quite influential and she has many friends in various fields, like if you want to get to a doctor and normally you would have to wait a few weeks or even months for an appointment, she can get it faster for you, or if you need a job, or if you have some problems with the law etc. now I'm scared that if I ever say no to her she won't want to help me when I actually ask her for help, because this is what happened to a few people before me. of course, she wants me to wear the clothes she chose for me. today she took me to a hairdresser, I said I don't want to go but I was too much of a pussy to refuse. but then something pretty fucked up happened. the place that was supposed to hire me part time got locked down, and despite the fact that I haven't even started working there yet, the owner, who's her friend, gave me 2k in cash. I got 2k in cash for nothing. not a single day of work. I'm not even officially hired yet and they aren't sure if they will be able to actually hire new people when the lockdown ends. I don't know how to handle the whole situation. I don't have any friends here and I feel lonely and I'm just scared this woman will stop giving a shit about me once a say no to anything
No. 767468
>>767017ok but like
you want to make a commune of women who hate humanity so much that they won't reproduce anymore, not even to have more women, and you're actively fucking with their lives and bodies making them feel bad for something that is absolutely natural, then you pressure them to join because "blackpilled is the only way because feminism failed us"
sounds like a cult, no one is going to take you seriously. It's insane.
>you just love cockI'm a separatist myself, that dates women almost exclusively and would love to help other women. But I believe in educating our daughters into a better future, not exterminating the whole human race for some petty argument. Life is wonderful, this world is worth living in.
No. 767482
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got broken up with because i moved, got a job, and pandemic made us ldr. i feel so shit, he was trying to tell me how much he was struggling and i never got it and was depressed myself and neglected him. i still love him we were literally in preschool together anons. i really thought i’d be with him forever and took it for granted.
No. 767506
>>767494First of all, it's not normal. Second of all, if you feel uncomfortable and unloved as a result of his actions, why should 'normal' matter more than the fact of how you feel? Is your bf's role to fulfill the bare minimum of what's normal, or is he supposed to be a partner who cares about you and makes you happy?
Inexperience with relationships should not prevent you from setting boundaries. Have confidence in yourself and what you want, you know in your gut that you're not asking for much at all. You know you would happily do the same for him if he asked. You know he's denying you something that he should enjoy doing, that's completely natural in a relationship, and that doesn't cause him any inconvenience unless for some reason he doesn't enjoy affection with you- and that's a good enough reason to dump his ass.
No. 767515
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NOSTALGIC HS DRAMA SPERG.
When I was in high school ages ago, there was this girl who I had known since we were kids but we weren’t friends, we could maybe hang out but wouldn’t exchange xmas cards you know. She was very bad at acting like she wanted to just be there for you, she usually just wanted tea and i tested this with friends, making up something and seeing how fast some distorted stuff came back to me, it took only half a day. So tell me why at 26 years of age I realise that she made up this dude talking shit about me because this dude most likely liked me. She always had these convenient heroic tales of this dude talking shit about me on the bus she took home and how she defended me even if it was embarrassing for her.
Idky but It all just clicked, I always hated the guy after that, even though he had never been shitty to me, we had been in the school before and he was genuinely cool, but I avoided talking to him if I could and one time we had to sit next to each other on the bus AND HE EVEN TOLD ME HE HAD MOVED AND LIVED THERE FOR THE WHOLE YEAR. THIS BITCH NEVER EVEN TOOK THE BUS HOME WITH HIM. I wouldn’t have dated the dude anyways but we could have been friends or something, I even asked a friend about the bus thing and she told me the bitch always lied and that she never would have stood up for no one. Goddamit.
No. 767522
>>767515I forgot to add, I do know dudes can and will talk shit but looking back, it was such weird shit.
“He said anon’s shoes look stupid and make her look fat!” it was mostly about something about my hair, weight or shoes. Bitch, I looked dumb but not in a way a dumb dude like that would have cared and he was quiet as shit, he even transferred to night classes because he didn’t have that many friends. This is what coffee at 2am does to a mf, anons.
No. 767574
Watching make up tutorials and it’s late af, but I still want to try some of the tutorials. I kinda resigned myself over the years, that I was a person who didn’t bother with make up because it was unnecessary, but tbh it’s mainly because I have never been able todo it well. Honestly it’s a real skill to be able to put on make up effectively, like if I tried to contour my face I would just look dirty af, but these girls looks stunning.
I don’t know, I feel like if I start wanting to get into make up more, I’m just conforming to beauty standards and how society only views woman as pretty when they have make up on, but at the same time, I’m jealous when I see girls with pretty make up on. It’s this irritating internal push and pull with my thoughts on it. I want to be pretty, but I shouldn’t have to put on make up to see myself as pretty, but I also want to learn to use make up to be ‘societally pretty’ which is just feeding into beauty standard.
Ugh.
No. 767595
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We need to stop attributing being happy/content with looking good. I’m so tired of hearing from men and even sometimes women who say that people who don’t want to fucking dress up and slather on gay frog chemical makeup on their faces everyday for slave labor or school then there must be something psychologically wrong with them or if you complain about anything they take one glance at you for not being dressed up like a mangled Bratz doll and assume that, “Oh that’s why you’re so angry at other people! Because you’re ugly!”
>Women don’t need to be attractive to other men
Clearly I need to be attractive to other women because that’s also where the pressure lies as well. Let’s be honest, this shit isn’t solely men, it’s also a terrible phenomenon in female spaces. Performing female socialization or femininity is required to be in female spaces, you nearly have to like stereotypical feminine things because that’s the metric that people value your “womanhood” when you’re just, just. And this will be interpreted to me being a troon, being a scrote because no one has any sense of object permanence on the internet and that many issues can exist at once.
It gets exhausting having to put multiple faces up every day in order to make sure I’m not too aggressive for both sexes. If I’m aggressive and faceless, a deranged troon or male, if I’m aggressive and my face is in clear sight, the whole host of ignorant/life-draining comments await me.
No. 767610
got psychward'd over the weekend
they took my insulin pump, which I understand why, but they also refused to give me insulin more than twice per day, via injection, my blood sugar was over 300 the entire time I was there, and by day two I was already DKA, my eyes and mouth were dried out, I was peeing every ten minutes, I was so nauseous my entire abdomen hurt and my legs ached
At first I was trying to explain to them that my blood sugar needed to be tested if I felt sick and if my blood sugar was high, I need to be administered insulin, but they just kept telling me that's not how they treat diabetics there, we are following protocol
eventually I was literally begging for insulin because I was very literally dying, and they still refused, and so I started explaining to them if they find me unresponsive, I am in diabetic ketoacidosis, the following steps are seizure, coma, death, if they find my body unresponsive please get me to the emergency room and tell them this is DKA
They still refused, of course, it's against protocol, you only need two shots of insulin per day, go back to bed
I guess no one believed me because I was in the psych ward
when I got to call my mom, I told her what was going on, she called my gp, who was the doctor who initially ordered me to be sent to the ward to begin with, and my doctor said she was going to personally call the hospital immediately and told her to get me out of there immediately
they let me go early, my mom got me and took me to an emergency room at a different hospital so I could get fluids and treatment for DKA
honestly, I cannot say I feel better now than when I went in, this was easily the scariest thing that has ever happened to me
I can't believe a diabetic was literally begging for insulin in a hospital and was denied treatment
No. 767613
>>767600>I swear a lot of normies dress in yoga pants with hoodies and they are super happyThey definitely do, I personally can't relate to feeling pressure to perform femininity except in an indirect sense (like the media, advertising, scrote propaganda you see online etc). When it comes to regular every day interactions, I'd say plenty of girls are makeup free and dressed down so I feel comfortable doing the same. They aren't GNC or unusual in any way either, they're just normies with social lives and bfs etc.
I'm sure it depends on where you live and who you spend time with though. I'm in a pretty low socioeconomic area so nobody cares.
No. 767627
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>>767624I’m sorry, anon, I wish I knew how to cheer you up properly.
No. 767655
>>766949I’m drunk right now and having a moment of courage so I’m just going to come out and say it now. His name is Dom Zeglaitis/Durte Dom, he’s one of david dobriks friends and I think was a member of the “vlog squad”. He’s the one who caused the shitstorm around David dobrik so I feel mildly better about not coming forward.
Anyway I went to a party in 2016 and met Dom. We talked for a few minutes at the party. I only had a couple drinks but I guess they must’ve interacted with a medicine I was on or I got drugged because I started getting really lightheaded.
I was friends with the host of the party so I went into her room and passed out on her bed. I woke up a while later, I’m not really sure how much longer, and dom was raping me. I was in and out of consciousness but I was finally able to push him. It startled him and he got dressed and ran out.
I genuinely didn’t even remember it happening until about a week later and even then I wasn’t positive it wasn’t a dream. I’m sure now though it wasn’t because I got diagnosed with hpv shortly after and I was a virgin before. I’m positive it was this guy because we used to have mutual friends and I know for a fact Dom and Zane Hijazi were at this party. I genuinely wish dom nothing but the worst
No. 767659
>>767655I'm so sorry that the inbred looking puke assaulted you, I am not shocked that he rapes unconscious women at parties.
Hope you're doing better these days.
No. 767662
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>became adjusted to satisfyer pro for masturbation
>tfw trying to finger myself it feels like nothing in comparison and I can't get off
No. 767668
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This is disgusting. Reading this shit ruined my day.
https://boards.4channel.org/adv/thread/23816750 No. 767669
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My gym keeps locking the door whenever they reach the limit of people allowed inside.
I understand that the pandemic is still ongoing and all but they gave 0 notice and you can't make a reservation, it's totally random. It pisses me off so much because why the fuck am I paying a membership then? I can't come in at other hours due to work and transport and find it retarded that I'd have to call the owner to freeze/unfreez my membership. I'm tired as shit of working out at home with resistance bands and I don't have the room for a home gym. I know they don't owe me shit but
I've been going every day for the last 5 years and now they pull this crap.
I'm already mentally exhausted and this was my only way to unwind, there are no other gyms in town so now I have to keep playing roulette wheather I'll get in or not. Shit this is fucking stupid.
No. 767685
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My team at work have the collective memory of a fucking walnut. We'll have a meeting, then days later I'll say "Hey I'll go do X task now" and someone will be like "Did we agree on how to do X?" and I have to summon all the female socialization in my soul to type the nicest possible iteration of "Yes, during our most recent meeting" and repeat for them what we'd agreed on. Then they'll be like "Idk I just think we could do it (this other way)." Great, thanks, now we have to wait for the rest of the chat to put their two cents in about that before I can go on to do the task THE WAY WE FUCKING AGREED ON DAYS AGO OR ELSE IT WILL LOOK LIKE I'M NOT BEING A TEAM PLAYER. AAAAAAAAAAAAA
No. 767686
>>767685Maybe you or whoever is leading these meetings could, at the end, write in email what you all agreed on and send it to everyone? So you can just forward it to them or say to look it up
Sorry you have to deal with this crap
No. 767801
>>767790most of the places in africa that cut their little girls clits are islamicized cultures from arab invaders, your point?
>>767794africa is continent not a country you autistic faggot. youre doing a hard job convincing me to care about invaders getting killed in an already dysfunctional and politically tense land they decided to colonize because big galaxy brain. funny how all the muslim radicals blowing up shit in europe is not defended in the same way the retarded west europeans who go to africa to shit stuff up is
No. 767807
>>767767>>767786Thank you both, anons. It's really bad but I think with luck and lots of planning and saving I can get out, it's taking my family with me that feels impossible. But we can't know until we try.
I should have known this post would attract smoothbrain race baiting but I have nowhere else to vent without being judged, even when everything I say is true. There's so much "
toxic positivity" about South Africa, it's like we all have Stockholm syndrome. It's even taboo to say you're emigrating because the country is bad, you have to pretend you got some amazing job opportunity in the first world, but the truth is most people will move from real careers to bartending or brick laying gigs just to get out of here.
I realise I dropped the link about the cows starving, it's here in case that part didn't make sense
https://www.news24.com/news24/southafrica/news/350-dairy-cows-starved-to-death-at-r43m-state-funded-eastern-cape-farming-project-20210323Nobody will go to jail for this, nobody will even lose their jobs. This isn't even a big deal on social media . I feel like if this happened in the UK or America it would be worldwide news. Maybe that's naive.
I'm tired of living in a heartless, senseless place. I'm tired of being shocked at how low this government will go.
No. 767820
>>767747>>767807>>767811>>767815I like this guy's channel. He was born there and he has some great SA redpill videos. The things he and his family went through are pretty shocking. And sorry
>>767777 it's more complicated than "Nill Kiggers".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DutZFfJO7U No. 767834
>>767820I'm not trying to convince anyone, I'm just here to vent. Idk wtf "redpill SA" even means but I'm not watching some balding faggot debate an ANC PR woman in Beijing. My life is not a fun fact for rich fucks to debate across the world for likes and contrarian clout.
I don't care WHY the country is like this or even whose fault it is. Debating it is a fucking pseudo-academic hobby and it doesn't make a difference, fuck all the polfags arguing about why my life is hell in the same abstract way they argue about video games. The fact this guy got out but still makes content about why Eskom is fucked up is so pathetic, I just want to forget about this place.
No. 767855
>>767844I lost my mom a few years ago and it's been hard to get my head around her just not existing. It's such a mindfuck when you find yourself facing that alone. Similar to your fam, mine all found comfort in not just spirit talk and afterlife talk but in each other and in sharing those thoughts together. As her daughter and probably the person closest to her I resented feeling left out of the group grieving that happened. I
t's awkward when people want to talk at you about heaven and nothing else. It's like there are no back up comfort lines to replace it or be neutral. It's heaven talk or gtfo
No. 768016
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I'm so lonely anons.
I'm too tired to study, read or watch a movie. Tomorrow I get up, study, go to uni, get home, study more (or half ass it and procrastinate, than feel bad about it), Internet, sleep.
I'm just too tired and alone.
My mom's drunk for some reason, once in a while she just secretly chugs some hard liquor during the day and then vomits, speaks really weird and pretends nothing is happening, passes out. Why? Why doesn't she drink a wine glass while watching a movie like a normal person, what's the point of getting drunk during the day and being sick as fuck.
And I'm just hiding in my room, free time spent watching stupid stuff, no real close friends to talk about, no bf anymore, just tiredness. But can't even sleep properly.
No. 768022
Husband forgot my birthday, again. Birthdays are a huge deal for me, and not being able to celebrate with my friends for two years in a row because of covid is just devastating. He’s forgotten it before and vowed never to forget again, but did again this morning. I tried being nice, giving him time to wake up. I even asked him if he forgot something, didn’t seem to hear it and just carried on like nothing, I slammed my breakfast on the table and went into my room to cry. That’s when he remembered and apologized, and started listing reasons why he had forgotten, but I was too emotional to be empathetic towards him and told him to go to work and leave me alone.
It’s been a whole day and I’m still tearful, hurt and just very, very sad. He’s doing chores which he thinks might cheer me up, but honestly it’s making me even madder, why would I appreciate him doing the bare minimum of house work at his own house on my god damn birthday? I obviously feel like shit for feeling like a deranged lunatic over a calendar date, but I can’t help this. Everything else in my life is going to shit too and this is just the icing on the cake OH RIGHT THERE IS NO FUCKING CAKE.
I know I should go talk to him like an adult, but I fucking hate the fact that HE fucked up, HE hurt ME, and still I’M the one who has to go ”make it better” and probably end up listening to him explaining how his feelings are hurt and that there’s a darkness inside him that no one knows which started growing on the day his dad took him on a fishing trip 20 years ago. I’m just so fucking sad and lonely and so hurt. Sorry for being a pathetic retard and spamming the thread with this. Not sorry at husband, fuck you for being a neglectful dick, how hard is it to get a fucking calendar???
No. 768042
>>768022 > I was too emotional to be empathetic towards himYou don't owe him instant empathy, the fact that you were even thinking about owing him that so soon into realising his neglect of you is concerning. I know you then say at the end..fuck him, but you still weirdly assessed yourself for empathy there. Really says something about the dynamic. You're allowed to be angry when it's an ongoing issue and he hasn't shown any change.
>He’s doing chores which he thinks might cheer me upYou share a house, you already should share chores. It's not a special treat to win you over. It's normal everyday shit.
Omfg you deserve better. Could he not stop by a store on his way home from work and buy a cake? So he's already aware that you're upset…still didn't grab a cake?
No. 768043
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doesn’t it scare you that there is no point? we’re only here to exhaust lots and lots of energy just because, like honestly asking myself and others this is exhausting and fucking annoying but we don’t even care about the point or any meaning who cares about a meaning or point because there is none just use as much energy as possible and then your energy eventually dies off no one cares about existentialism just kill yourself or get over it we made life too complicated to give a damn if it means anything just stop thinking and keep going im im I’m Im I’m Im Good God I’m good
No. 768107
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Microsoft Word fucking crashed on my fucking shitty old laptop this evening and I lost more than four fucking pages of my fucking master's final thesis. Fuck this shit. Fuck this online school mode we're in. Fuck everything. It crashed like a minute after I hit the fucking save and yet the last save on the file was the one an hour before that. Fuck.
No. 768114
>>768109Yeah, I meant they ain't shit, as in, they are trash. I think on average women would be better off without men, but what about the women who value romance? I really want to share my life with a partner who loves and values me. In my case, to give up on that would be to give up on something important to me. Though to women who could take it or leave it, they should definitely not put in the effort looking for sifting through trash.
>>768111How am I coping, exactly?
No. 768127
>>768104yeah you're right i definitely brushed things off. mostly because i was hoping they would eventually change, ie with the second one it was a case of "well it's pretty early in the relationship, feelings need time to develop" and then 3 months down the line it was the same shit
>>768116people always say basically what you said, but the problem with me is once i become "colder" (or what is considered cold to me) toward a guy, all the "mushy" feelings i have toward him disappear. i can't destroy my natural instincts to be really caring and stuff because i'm just left feeling unhappy and like i'm not allowed to be myself. sadly men, and just people in general honestly, don't value those traits. it's funny because i know how to, and can be, a ginormous bitch, i just don't want to because ateotd i don't feel good about it.
No. 768136
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Started watching that demi documentary and had to pause and just come vent a bit. I have already seen comments about her way of talking about her dad dying and as someone who had the exact same situation, only difference being the date. Unless you had that happen to you, shut the fuck up. You don’t get a normal childhood, you try to act as normal and strong as you can even with people calling a cold cunt for cutting contact, it takes so much effort to stick to your guns. Then you don’t even get a date of death, you just get even more abnormal shit thrown at you and you haven’t even recovered from the earlier shit and now you aren’t even allowed to talk about it in a way that makes sense to you because it makes others uncomfortable. Your reality makes people uncomfortable and that trumps everything you else you built for yourself, they ask you to open up, expecting some inspiration porn and get shocked when stuff is complicated and ugly. At least I am not addicted to anything myself, I guess.
No. 768144
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I went to a pet store a couple days ago, and seeing those cats in glass boxes made me want to fucking cry. I know they don't stay in there all day, but they must keep them in those boxes for a long time, right? Idk why, but I can't quit thinking about it. I'm glad some were empty or missing a cat. I hope they went to homes where they get to roam freely
No. 768149
>>768127You don't have to go from one extreme to the other anon (being super sweet and attached to utterly dismissive and cold). As
>>768116, just live your life and have your own hobbies and friends that make you feel good outside of a man. Uphold your standards and boundaries and if a scrote breaks them, drop him. When you radiate self confidence and have a zero tolerance bullshit policy, it makes it really easy to see which men can keep up or not. Having had several rude awakenings in the past as well, I don't look at my current relationship as meaningless and disposable, but I do also understand that if he ever fucked up I could let go and not be a miserable wreck for months or years on end. I still enjoy the happy moments we share together and get butterflies sometimes, but they're just some of many happy moments in my life, not the be-all and end-all where everything else pales in comparison. It's less overwhelming but still plenty enjoyable and much healthier this way.
No. 768182
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I really fucking hate school and hope I blow up so I can make a couple mill and just live off dividends for the rest of my life cause this shit aint it
No. 768204
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>>768200it's true but what can I do
No. 768207
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>>768205god I hate falling for stupid egirls, I also fell for belle delphine and kittyxkum and
maybe micky moon a couple years agoI hate it cause I know they're photoshoped and they have filters with filters on top but god they make me feel so aroused and attracted to them, and I also compare myself to them cause I'm ugly, stupid and fat. Like look at this pic she's literally perfection, and I'm ugly and have a big nose and I'll never look like this / have a gf like this
No. 768212
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>>768207They're not only photoshopped, they usually had at least one plastic surgery. This chick had double eyelid surgery, rhinoplasty to make her nose thinner and some lip fillers. It's all fake anon.
No. 768218
>>768207Unpopular opinion but I feel like most people are not ugly. I know I'm simplifying things but if you lost weight and styled yourself better I think you'd feel better. Easier said than done, I know.
Even after all that, if you really wanted to, Photoshop is free (if you want it to be
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>>768213Latter. She got popular for making cutesy faces that were facial tracked to audios on tik tok.
No. 768224
>>767610anon are you okay now? i'm diabetic as well and went through something similar in the psychward, but it was that they were giving me too MUCH insulin, and when i refused to take 10 units for a meal i wasn't given, put me in the scarier side of inpatient for refusing meds. i fainted due to low blood sugar at one point before they were like o lmao oop.
hope you're doing better now, know that another suicidal diabetic idiot is thinking of u
No. 768239
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i’ve been feeling really off ever since i went outside into a moderately crowded area with my family and I was doubled-masked. not really scared, I just feel achy but not super ill and I still have my taste, not even sure it’s covid probably the thing my sister picked up when she said she had a sore throat. i just feel the ick so much I could barely do anything and tomorrow morning i have to go to some lame minimum wagie job interview and our printer is acting like such a stupid bitch and won’t print my nearly-empty, sad wimpy resume. been job hunting and going to interviews for shitty minimum wage jobs is more exhausting than the actual job seriously. really afraid I may never get a job and im 18. is there something wrong with me? i seriously think it’s because im black even though I live in a diverse area but it’s full of hispanics
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>>768239As far as getting a job goes it gets easier as you fill out your resume. Getting a job is the most difficult when you don't have applicable experience, but that just comes with time.
I can say with confidence that you will get a job, keeping in mind that the vast numbers of people that make up humanity are low skilled workers who are probably not as smart as you are (judging by the fact that you're posting on an imageboard).
I can't speak to your ethnicity factoring into getting work because I don't have much experience in regards to that, but I honestly believe that your character will probably be the deciding factor in whether or not you get hired. Nothing wrong with you anon, I think you're just experiencing the struggle of entering the workforce.
No. 768294
I think being pink pilled is freeing, but it’s also helped to ruin my life. I just had a really violent fantasy about hurting a man who pretends to care about me, and I thought it was empowering for a second, but then I realised it was just born out of pain, and fear of being hurt. I don’t really want to hurt them because I’m not cruel like them, so I’m still not winning anything. I’m just copying them and hoping something good will happen.
Mostly, I’m upset because I want a man to care about me as much as I’d care about him, but it’s impossible because they want to hurt us. They all get off on women’s pain to some degree, and our only real choice is to feed into that, let it happen and pretend we don’t see, all on different occasions.
Some of them act so sweet that you want to believe so badly that they’re good people, but they’re basically just animals born to cause misery. You can be the kindest person in the world to them, but the thought of you fearing them will still unlock something primal in their fetid souls. I know this entire generation was basically groomed to fetishise and/or ignore that, but that doesn’t change the fact that it’s existentially horrifying. The worst part is that they know this. They agree logically, they know it’s the truth, but it’s just how they are. The real reason they get upset when you point it out is because they can’t help it. It’s like being locked in a room with a dog that bites you hard, then cries when it sees you’re in pain and licks your wound, only to bite you again. You just want it to stop and be a good dog, you don’t want to attack it, you don’t want a fight, you just want peace and love, but it’ll never happen.
No. 768298
>>768294Extreme beliefs of any form are dangerous and harmful to your mental health and well being. Living in a box and seeing everything in black and white is not a good way to live. Even if it feels like “truth” in the moment, everything you encounter is going to line up with the belief because of confirmation bias. The same thing happens with any of the pills… red pill, black pill, etc.
Subscribing to one particular school of thought stops you from experiencing new things, and like you mentioned it usually comes from a place of fear. Surrounding yourself with stories of men hurting women, man hate in general, and other negativity in an echo chamber will lead you to only see those things in real life too. Personally I choose to see people as neutrally as possible until they prove themselves to be one way or another through their actions. You can keep yourself safe and distant without necessarily discounting or judging people from the getgo
No. 768325
>>768314I wish men could experience severe period pain for an entire week. Just once
sigh If only.
No. 768338
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Really feeling that lesbian loneliness tonight.
No. 768343
>>768331Are you seeing a therapist? It's imperative that you express those thoughts of death to someone willing to listen. You're not a coward, you are obviously concerned about the impact your death would have on others, which means you have empathy, and are a person who deserves help.
I understand what you mean when you say you don't see a point in living a life of sadness and loneliness. It makes sense to wish for a state where you could exist and not feel those things. The upside is that we have modern tools at our disposal to rebalance ourselves, like medication, therapy, and ECT.
A lot of people who haven't been depressed don't get our obsession with death, but it's really simple. If you are suffering, you wish for it to end. But mental illness is a disease that eats at you from the inside of your mind. That's why it's so important to have someone to talk to who will keep tabs on you. That's my suggestion. Love you anon.
No. 768344
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>>768338I hope you get a gf
or whatever you want anon!
No. 768346
>>768343No, I haven’t been seeing a therapist but I’ve been considering getting back to it. I think it would probably be a good idea. At the end of the day, I don’t want to die. I just really want to feel good again and I want to stop thinking about death.
Thank you for your kind and helpful words. You have no idea how much that helps me these days. Lots of love to you anon
No. 768350
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I have a mandatory meeting with my professor tomorrow about my project but I didn't even start to analyze any data or plan my project
>>768107That really sucks, sorry to hear about that anon.
No. 768374
>>768371Forgot to mention bf is a whiny ass clinger about this too. He wakes up from the door creak when I sneak–
yes, sneak–out of my bedroom while he's passed out around 10pm to go to the living room. He wakes up in a huff to check the time on his phone when I slunk back in at 3 or 4am. Almost like he's clocking me which is…irritating. Then the next morning he guilts me for "abandoning" him, which he says in a sweet whiny voice so I can't even get mad without seeming psychotic. He doesn't get it because he gets a fuck ton of alone time being that I work a day shift while he works a mid or a close. So in addition to sleeping in bed by himself for a few hours (a luxury I sorely miss and rarely get), he also gets a few hours during the day alone as well. Since roommate is also a day worker, bf doesn't even deal with the loud and obnoxious troll either. The only time I get to be "alone" is if bf works a closing shift and I can have the room to myself until he gets back at 10pm, but I still got to put up with the constant belching and coughing from the roommate who's favorite pastime is to crank up the living room tv to max volume. I can't even cook a meal in the kitchen in peace.
I'm really surprised I'm not more chronically stressed, and that lack of sleep is more of a voluntary decision than a side effect of being a hair away from a mental episode.
No. 768378
>>768372Maybe I take it too personally, I've been very emotional lately. It's pretty much anything. Sometimes idle banter, sometimes jokes or I go along with their idle banter. What hurt me most is I posted ideas for our vacation and no one responded.
I feel so sad but I feel like none of my friends care because I'm so unimportant.
No. 768427
>>764857I don't get that competition mentality people have about that at all, where they supposedly find "the one" they want to be with, but they take pride in this spiteful idea that they tried more people and dumped them? And like that's supposed to be a big "fuck you" to their partner?
I thought relationships were about finding someone you really actually want to be with. Not about getting a high score of how many people you hurt and leave behind and then gloat over your partner "losing" to you because they didn't do that to other people.
No. 768453
>>768444I don't see where the other Anon claimed that. They just pointed out your hypocrisy about the fact that you consider one tribe genociding another a non-issue when they're the same race but it's very important to you when the races are different. That just proves everything you say comes from a place of racial hatred and you don't actually care about human rights, and it would be refreshing if you just admitted it.
If you look at it neutrally, it's absolutely true that new people from the outside started flooding into the region after industrious homesteaders from the developed world settled it. It's also true that all violent crime is higher after those evil regimes aren't in power, so it's impossible to claim the "ruling class" is an excuse for the violence in the region. If that was true, violence would have gone down after their fall from power, not up.
No. 768456
>>768453Thank you anon, it gets tiring to have to tolerate such bullshit in fear I will be banned for "racebaiting"
>There is no history on this earth where african women willingly mixed with white men, lmao.There is denying the truth and there is full delusion and you are the second. They are willingly mixing with White men NOW, you think they didn't back then? Jesus Christ, the ignorance.
And I did not say all Bantus are the same, I said they genetically cluster. Slovakians are not the same as Ukrainians but they genetically cluster with each other.
>>768455(racebait) No. 768457
>>768455The word "diaspora" describes the kind of distinction that's relevant here. People that migrated to America to genocide natives are also ethnically and linguistically the same as the people who stayed behind on the other side of the ocean. But the people who migrated are diaspora.
Same goes for the Bantus in that region. They're invasive diaspora.
No. 768464
>>768458Those small linguistic groups that lived there before aren't the same as the people who came later just because they speak the same language or a language in the same group. That's the point.
It sounds like you're saying "the 100 people that came after speak the same language as the 1 person that was already living there, that means it was their homeland" and that doesn't make sense to me. Because the population in that region obviously exploded since the homesteaders came along, surely you're not denying that, in no small part due to people from elsewhere being attracted to the cities the homesteaders built. My neighbor speaks the same language as me too, that doesn't mean my home is their home.
No. 768492
>>768458An entire southern part of a continent is a pretty wide point of reference. There's independent countries the size of a single city. The population of the entire world when the first settlers sailed there in 1652 was half a billion so it's safe to say the vast majority was completely uninhabited. Even today it's not like human population occupies more than a tiny % of the landmass, there's enough room.
But people from surrounding regions WANTED to migrate as close as possible to the settler's cities. And the people that were closer first were in the way. There's a lot of greed in the world, and the eventual forcing of all those groups under the same flag is part of it. Hating big imperialist empires is fine but some of the stuff you write comes off like you hate civilian farmers just for existing, and somehow the people that decided to move right next to them attracted by the success of the agriculture are in the right.
No. 768530
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My mom has turned up the verbally and emotionally abusive up to eleven lately, I've been dissociating and feeling foggy quite alot the past few days due to some other issues and ended up messing a bank transfer, she screamed at me called me a waste of oxygen and retard that will never be loved or able to live in the "real world" for like, two hours straight, she has also been berating me constantly for not being able to get a job when our country is on a depression-era level economic crisis where people are straight up starving, on top of the classic making fun of my appearance and the things i enjoy.
I've been thinking about killing myself constantly when my brain isn't on autopilot, im not eating, i don't know what to do anymore, I don't have anywhere else to go or irl friends that can help me, my therapist is running out of vaguely positive things and coping mechanisms that don't work to tell me, this is not a thing that will pass soon, im stuck in this house until the forseeable future and honestly ending it sounds like a better option.
No. 768577
>>768567>Because between this and the lipton green tea its almost disrespectful how gross and unlike green tea from say ito-en they areLipton green tea is awful, it makes me gag. It doesn't even taste real it reminds me of the green tea flavoring in candy and stuff. I'm sorry you don't have any good tea
nonny.
No. 768676
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lol I want to push my neighbor down the stairs
A cat gave birth in her crawl space less than a week ago and she took the kittens out of the crawl space
I told her not to fuck with them, I called animal control and we set something up for tomorrow - the officer told me to tell her leave them in the crawl space and leave food out for mom so she can continue to nurse
But this fucking bitch is like “I took them out of the crawl space and tried to bottle feed them (WHY?) but I almost suffocated one (YOU STUPID BITCH)”
I am so angry lol why the fuck does this dumbass think she’s a better mom than the actual mom of the cats
I want to slap her
No. 768729
>>768703Imagine thinking you're "creative" for putting bullshit into paint while on the clock at your job where you mix paint.
Whatever entertains retarded children on TikTok I guess.
No. 768812
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anons i fucking hate being into tech
i had to sit there and listen to dudes defending stallman these days and they aways say the most vile shit about women no matter if its in a group for programming or just fucking LED setup help, there is no escape from the toxic culture that feeeemales bad
and to top it off i aways feel like i have to be one of the best (irl at least) because so many of them will see me failing in some way as evidence that women can't do it and be extra shitty to others in the future
i fucking hate this pressure and having to keep quiet about all the shit they say, it turns what should be fun hobbies into stressors
No. 768818
>>768812>feel like i have to be one of the best (irl at least) because so many of them will see me failing in some way as evidence that women can't do it I worked in a male-dominated field for a few years and this is part of why I left. It really beats you down after a while. There’s no being okay or “good” at your job, you have to be #1 genius problem solver or people treat you like a diversity hire. Mess up on one thing? Forget to do one minuscule step? Haha women dumb!
Exhausting.
No. 768895
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I just CAN'T TAKE any more uni work. I just want to give up this hell but I graduate in one month and it would shitty to waste 4 years of my life…
No. 768911
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There are so many brazen maleposters on here recently that I'm starting to wonder what the actual gender ratio is. Why can't men just stay on 4chan or one of the hundreds of other imageboards made just for them?
No. 768912
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Can't get my mind off killing myself recently. Like I know where my parents' gun is and I just don't see why not. Basically every time I've gotten an opportunity to have a better life I've screwed it, and it makes me scared to take any decisive action at all. I only have online acquaintances despite never moving from my hometown as well. Which is funny because I know the best thing to do when I feel like this is to talk to someone. But the last time I was honest about my mental health to someone (a few years ago) they said it was manipulative and I should keep it to myself. Idk I'm just decaying and the only time I feel like I can be honest is anonymously, idk what to do anymore in life other than go through the motions.
No. 768931
>>768929Nta, but the girl was probably drunk. I'm not saying it's her moms fault (she could have been drunk too, but if she wasn't then it was definitely shitty of the mom to leave her) It's not like she made that choice in her right mind.
>She's the one that waved them overThe op says it was the guys that waved her over
No. 768935
>>7688994chan is a complete shithole and the other spinoff chans aren't that much better. I used to frequent 420chan when I did drugs, which was fun for a while, before politics took a wrecking ball to the board culture.
The mods are actually fair here and pay attention, unlike a lot of other places. I'll gladly conform to this site's norms if I can continue to use it, because honestly I cannot continue to use 4chan as I believe it is poisonous to my mental health.
No. 768957
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>>768911men are historically obsessed with barging into women's spaces kek. it's basically this comic, but realized
No. 768962
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I can't believe I ruined my night in the stupidest most meaningless way possible but it was enough. I am so stupid I let a 10 year old in a game piss me off. I am not fit to live.
No. 768966
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I cried in my fucking economics lecture and I cried again at the fucking consultation god I wish I wasn’t a dumbass
No. 769027
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>>769009I won’t assume how old you are but trust me when I say it’s really, really fucking hard to make friends out of college.
Literally everyone just gets in a relationship and makes friends that way, or fulfills their need for companionship with their partner / kids, so single women have to go out and work harder and harder to find friends. Easier for me living in an urban area but I’m sure I’d be fucked otherwise, so if anything I’m trying to say that making friends as an adult is fucking unbelievably hard and it’s not a failing of yours.
No. 769034
>>768990I'm not here to put down age gaps necessarily, but if you aren't receiving the benefit of an older man being nice and spoiling you better than men in your own age group, then what's the point?
Older men need to be on their best fucking behavior if they're to be graced with younger women, not act like manchildren and expect you to play mind reading mommy.
It doesn't sound worth it.
No. 769074
>>769072Nta, but that is
one anon, and she didn't even say she wears it for herself
No. 769081
>>769079>>769072Must be the same anon cause you don't seem to sage. But not once did anon say "exactly, paying for yourself like any adult should is dumb, a man should pay me because I look good and older men are better than younger men" and the fact that you interpreted what
>>769072 said as ^ is a clear indicator you lack comprehension skills or that you're a butthurt younger scrote who's mad that you can't get women to go on dates with you cause you're broke.
No. 769100
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>mfw watching the two autistic incels in a discord I'm in having a slap fight over who's the bigger autistic incel.
Whoever said only women are drama are fucking delusional.
No. 769234
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want to cry so bad, on verge of tears
need attention badly
anyone
my problem is that i never get recognized for the things i do and it makes my dissociation really bad and makes me second guess myself like what if I'm just not even actually real? what if I'm a zombie, that would be cool though if I was but it's makes me kind of fucked in the head am I invisible = not real? excuse my dumbfuckery
No. 769239
>>769228I think saying that I like the job is all I can safely say without jeopardising myself more. All the stuff about being introverted can be taken badly, don't you think?
>>769229I'll be honest, I thought that unless your social skills was linked to your job performance it didn't matter so long as you're pleasant and communicative. What did they say to you?
No. 769242
>>769223Sorry you're going through that anon. I'm pretty friendly myself, but I find it hard to make friends and schmooze at work because I'm "intense" and look busy which apparently puts people off. And I'm maybe not as attractive as I used to be and don't care to fuss over it, which obviously not being pretty doesn't put me into people's good graces as a woman. I'm also expected to do more, and the tiniest mistake can be blown out of proportion no matter the countless fires I had already put out behind the scenes.
It sucks but cliques happen at work. Not that it will make you feel better, but you could be the nicest and most chill person who does their job well yet none of it matters unless leadership and coworkers don't think good on you. I know how you feel.
No. 769270
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I want to grab this fish, freeze it and slap the scrote that’s “learning” French in the same class in which I am, he’s such a fucking idiot, we’re supposed to learn how to say
>oh yeah, you’re right
When someone gives us their input on something regardless of what we think of the issue and this retard needs to keep on interjecting, trying to get the upper hand on fucking fictional dialogues, like, fuck off you loser asshole that will never get sent to any francophone country with your stupid ass stuttering and your stupid ass problematic scrote bullshit personality fucking asshole motherfucker bitch ass retard, just fuck off already and get that French and overall communications aren’t for you, you old motherfucking ugly useless old bastard!
No. 769274
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I fucking hate my life so much. I graduated last May and since then I haven't had any experience in my field, save for like one to two months of an internship that I promptly quit. My skills are gradually fading away, and I have no motivation to better them. I get rejected from jobs all the fucking time, and I do terribly in interviews. I know that my portfolio sucks and I need to practice doing SOMETHING but I just have NO motivation to. I need a new laptop in order to even practice, and my family/other things in life take up all of my time anyway. My days pass by in a blur, and every day is the exact same and there is no hope of it getting better. I have an interview for a job next week that I doubt that I will get, and I could've gotten a job that I interviewed for last week but the person who I would be working under wanted someone who "was like a friend" and she seemed rather bitchy so I declined. I know that was dumb of me but I stupidly thought that I could get other jobs out there but IDK now. The job market is SO fucking bad for entry level positions at the moment. I can't stand living with my fucking family, and I spend most of my day running errands, watching dumb videos, and talking to scrotes online. I'm a bonafide fucking failure and every night I go to bed I pray that I don't wake up the next day. The truth is that I don't wanna kill myself but I've always had huge obstacles to cross due to money and my family. Yeah I know I should just get any fucking job and move out. And I'm trying. I'm applying for jobs outside of my field too, but I want jobs in my field even though I'm not good at what I do and I have zero confidence in myself and my abilities. I think suicide is the best option tbh. It's the only way.
No. 769345
>>769274if you have some free time, maybe you can build up your resume and networking by volunteering? You can volunteer at a shelter (for animals or for
victims of abuse) or soup kitchen or some other non-profit organization that needs help with fundraisers, etc. That is the best way to build your resume because nowadays many companies demand 5+ years of experience yet they claim they want to hire new graduates. kek…
No. 769385
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I'm so fucking insecure about my height it's not even funny, and the fact that women can't be above 5'7 without being called a troon nowadays makes it ten times worse. I haven't been called it yet but I'm sort of waiting for it to happen, especially since I have a fairly wide face. I never expected myself to wish to go back to my teens/really early adulthood where people used to be scared of me simply because I'm a 5'11 woman
No. 769401
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I'm so fucking tired of not being skinny. I'm not even fat, 23-24 on bmi scale, I'm just a little bit pudgy from not moving as much as before the pandemic, but I'm too self-conscious to wear clothes that I like, because they show my fat upper arms and belly. But I keep seeing all those photoshopped glamorous model pics on Instagram with their stick arms and wasp waists and I start hating myself for not being like them. I just want to be super skinny and wear whatever, because when you are skinny, everything will look fashionable on you. And I can't even starve myself because I have an autoimmune disease I have to take pills for, and I'm not so retarded yet as to literally risk death for useless vanity
All I want is to wear dresses like pic related and not look fat, but I can't fucking stop eating less
No. 769413
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so bored and having nothing to do. my laptop barely has any space so I can’t re download the sims 4 and my external hard drive isn’t working and that was a complete waste of 60-70 dollars. I literally have nothing to do that can help me escape from this shitty world, fml
No. 769435
>>769404Not to derail but is getting pissed off at noises an adhd thing?
My suggestion may make you feel worse and may be obvious but have you tried engaging in something that you're historically passionate about? Usually when I'm scared that I won't enjoy it. But when I tried, my passion (films) made me think about something that isn't myself and how much I suck for the whole evening, then I planned to do it again, and soon enough actually looked forward to it.
No. 769437
>>769430I wish I had your view about food. Food is something I look forward to, as pathetic as that is. I love the textures, smells, and flavors. It takes so much willpower to not eat myself up to 600 pounds. I still walk away with tons of guilt knowing people in other walks of life don't have the same access to the yummy things that I do and here I am indulging in excess. Not to mention the consumption is tied to so many reward and feel good receptors in my brain. If I could adopt the food is fuel mentality I would just consume soylent green, but I'd go nuts.
Have you considered nutritional shakes? There's a lot of companies that make shakes now that are pretty good that come with complete nutritional profiles and calories.
No. 769439
>>769244Do you feel bitter about it? I would.
Yeah, I've thought about it these past few hours and I guess I'll try my best to be social, I just signed the lease to a new place not long ago, and I guess this is just going to turn into a shittier job that I'm actually unhappy about, and drain myself trying to please the egos of my coworkers. Funny how that works.
I'll make an action plan and start job searching soon.
No. 769449
>>769440People have said that to me and I totally understand why but trust me you don't, I'm not talking about "food is fuel it means nothing to me what I eat" mentality but rather "it is a daily struggle to eat enough to maintain mood, energy levels, and functioning". I'm an autist though so that's where it comes from.
>>769437Enjoying food isn't pathetic anon, that's normal healthy human behavior and we just live in an environment rich in engineered super-tasty foods that our reward pathways weren't prepared for.
I need to find a brand of shake without artificial sweetener because I can't stand the taste, but then that's a lot of sugar and I eat too much of that already. Really I need to get my shit together and figure out how to make my own.
>>769442I don't think this much of a privilege but I feel safer walking alone at night as a tall woman. It doesn't make me any less vulnerable but I'm somewhat less recognizable as female in the dark or from a distance. I can also walk faster lol.
No. 769495
>>769484Honey! Stab them out of your life and go enjoy your money and stop giving it to them.
And stop thinking you need a lot of people to be happy you probably need 1 or 2 but mostly yourself.
Fuck them and go give yourself a treat
No. 769502
>>769481Does your school have a disability services office? It's not necessarily an easy process and you'll probably need to have a doctor or therapist vouch for you, but my friend went through something similar and she was able to get some help in dealing with professors through that. Also see if your school allows for incomplete grades, which is when a professor agrees to assign a temporary grade of incomplete for the semester and you work out a timeframe for completing the coursework and receiving a real grade at some point after the semester is over (this is what my friend ended up doing).
Regardless you really have nothing to lose by being honest about your depression. The worst they can say is no, and frankly if they're going to think of you as a slacker for that they're probably going to do so regardless, but remember that most educators want to see their students succeed. I've known several people who were open about mental health with their professors and I don't think any of them got a bad response. Also you can tell them about your depression now and also start the disability services process which can help you later down the line if you don't get the response you're looking for at first.
No. 769508
>>769495>>769492I don’t know I am
toxic myself or else I wouldn’t be so desperate or get disappointed that the girl I gave shit doesn’t sit next to me and makes fun of me with her friend who she only talks with/actually likes.
I have no friends at all ever in my life I really can’t think of anyone I went out to do something except twice with two different girls i never saw again. and I don’t wanna make friends online because I have a hard time to control my walls of text due to the crazy crazy CRAZY ass crazy and I think I legit am a psycho who lost her brain cells so I can’t do online games either lol.
I’m fine alone and even the happiest but problem is I have classmates and they are pushy and there’s a girl who always wants me to buy her food. I can’t say no. I really feel sick. I am so poor I have to pay my mother’s rent that’s way too high, I have to pay for everything and I don’t have a driver’s license which I dearly want but can’t. But this is just a vent and a not reply but it’s subtle way to let you know I am a schizo that needs to khs. I’m a fucking damn schizo. Ofc I am this immature because I’ve been isolated since I were 10 in a locked up secure psychiatric clinic and my mom locked me up before i went there.
Btw another vent but I had a crush on the teacher and his way of acting made me feel it was mutual but wow. He’s married and he has a kid. I hate myself. How stupid and autistic could I have been? I talk too mych to him even if it was less than a handful of times. And then I work in retail and I get treated shit there too.
And then I come home and support two adult babies that’s my whore mother and 30 year old brother.
I really am gonna commit suicide with a glass shard before I turn fucking 25. Before I fucking turn 25. I am not willing to die as a 70 year old clown/cow.
No. 769572
>>769554I'm sorry you're going through this anon. You deserve help. I got help through hospitalization when I was severely depressed. Being able to talk to doctors who care about your wellbeing is a major deal. I think you should at least try to find a therapist you like who you can express your painful thoughts to.
And not to be presumptuous but I am sure somebody would feel your absence. When we're depressed it's really hard to see the positive impact we have on the world, so keep that in mind. I hope you have a good day anon, and remember you're not alone.
No. 769591
>>769546You literally pay tuition for disability services to exist and it's their job to help students, there's nothing humiliating about reaching out for help when you need it and trying to make the best of your situation.
You should still email your professor tonight too, and it's probably worth mentioning that you're also reaching out to disability services. I know it feels horrible but you're not alone in dealing with this kind of situation, I've seriously seen so many people go through it and they were all anxious about coming forward and asking for help too but it was worth it.
I'm graduated now but last semester one of the COVID adjustments that my school made was that you were allowed to drop a class up until like the last day of classes and only get a W (withdrawn) on your transcript, which doesn't affect GPA. This might be something worth looking into.
I'm glad I can help, like I said I've seen several friends go through things like this so I'm happy to be able to share advice.
No. 769646
File: 1616714917394.gif (4.04 MB, 250x186, tenor.gif)
>porn artist teases comic with women taking advantage of cute male sub charcter
>mfw the comic comes out but the "women" all have dicks
It was advertised as het but this ain't het DAMMIT. If you wanna appeal to troons fine but Christ at least label it correctly
No. 769696
>>769691I mean, attractive guys can feel attraction for an “ugly” woman, it’s mostly a matter of personality and being in the right place at the right time.
I’ve seen women that are not VS models with really cute and great guys that treats them like human beings, the usual story of how they met is mostly while studying for postgraduates or while working.
So it’s not even about meeting someone during high school, It’s just TPO.
No. 769702
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are there any programmers lurking lc? i'm going for cs and i see so many of my classmates with an honest passion for this shit (a lot of them like "theory", a lot of them are constantly reading up on white papers and such) and i'm…100% here just to have the fancy ~computer science major~ under my belt. like i'm planning to go into web dev and "specialize" in simple languages like python and java kek, not hard stuff like c++ (but c++ is what we program in for uni. ugh)
do i need to feel guilty? am i one of those "shitty programmers" that programming spaces on the web always complain about?
No. 769707
>>769704Thanks
I don't understand how the world works anymore
No. 769737
>>769702As long as you take web dev seriously, apply yourself into learning your languages of choice and don't skip steps you won't be a shitty professional, your classmates are just aiming for something completely different but not better or more serious than you. Shitty programming at least to me is more like refusing to learn the basics and brute forcing things in ways that may cause problems instead of optimizing.
I'm curious though, do you need a cs degree to go into web dev in the USA?
No. 769740
>>769702new grad CS major anon here
CS theory and practical software engineering skills are two different things. You could be an expert in algorithms and not know shit about making a website or even any coding language at all. It sounds like maybe your classmates are trying to go for graduate or PhD studies, or a math-heavy field like machine learning. But this is totally different than the skills required to build software, it's like pure math vs. structural engineering.
I wish I had a better understanding of this when I entered college. My CS undergrad program covered a lot of theory but I was really disappointed in how few courses covered more practical software engineering topics. The theory (and the math you'll probably have to do) is definitely very important - for example understanding algorithmic analysis is really important to avoid writing inefficient code. But exposure and experience with different languages, design patterns, frameworks, libraries, tools etc is what makes you actually able to make things. So long story short, I don't think you need to feel guilty.
A rule that's worth trying to follow even with trivial uni assignments: write your code like someone else you've never met has to read it and make sense of it 10 years from now (an actual extremely common real world situation). This means adding helpful comments, choosing sensical variable names, keeping your formatting neat and consistent. If you have repeated code, see if you can put it in a function. If you have a function that's really long, see if you can break it up. Don't worry too much about being perfect though, the only real way you can get better is through 1) writing your own code and 2) reading other people's and your degree will hopefully give you plenty of both.
Another tip: a huge part of software engineering is figuring out how to do shit that you don't immediately know how to do. So I would encourage any CS student to try and push themselves a little harder, try for a little bit longer, before they ask a friend or TA for help. Obviously asking for help is fine and you shouldn't be hesitant to do so, but there are certain invaluable skills you build from figuring shit out on your own - how to google things effectively and find good sources, how to parse documentation, what to try when you're debugging.
(sorry if these tips are obvious, they're based on what I saw other students struggle with especially in higher-level courses)
sorry for sperg I just have to share what I wish I knew going into CS undergrad. best of luck anon
No. 769743
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>went on date with a doctor scrote
>He spends less than 30 bucks on my meal
>asks me to go to his apartment and asks for a kiss. I declined.
>after the date he never texted me so I assumed he just wasnt into me and let it go
>i get a random text from him calling me a gold digger
Ahhhhhh i miss the days you could go on one date with a man and it wasnt expected that you'd fuck him or even date him. The first date was a chance for him to prove he is a good choice for you. Now it's just escorting but if I were to straight up ask for money for sex and cut out the middle man that would be an issue aswell. Libfems really fucked everything up.
No. 769745
>>769743Tinder was a mistake. I'm sorry
nonny, men really expect us to fuck them on first sight huh. What a disgusting piece of shit he and every other scrote is.
No. 769751
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>>769743>Ahhhhhh i miss the days you could go on one date with a man and it wasnt expected that you'd fuck him or even date him.Damn were you sucked into a time warp and ended up in FVTVREHELLFUCKAHOE2021? It’s a heterosexual custom in straights world to expect mating. Plus you’re already fucked from the start if you go on Tinder which is basically a casual sex simulator filled with the bottomless. I think that there is some truth in just getting a relationship in real life and shooting your shot because technology attracts the worse people
No. 769759
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Yes Eric, tell me how coal miners sell their bodies for STDs. Tell me more about how men are as opressed as women that sell their bodies. Fuck you piece of shit.
No. 769768
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one day I realized well that one day was yesterday but one day I realized that one day I have to get up go to work and keep working consistently my bones hurting my brain breaking yearning to break free from the confines of the world for $900+ dollars? you have to keep working and saving and working and saving and cumming and shitting and moaning and being angry and frustrated and being retarded a lot being confused feeling hungry feeling pain feeling not there feeling like you’re missing something feel too much of something never enough, saving and losing,so much highs and lows, never enough and sometimes too much. how is this sustainable for any living human being on this planet?
No. 769782
>>769737>do you need a cs degree to go into web dev in the USA?you don't (there's a web dev degree at my uni), i'm just too deep into cs to back out, and…i think it'd be easier to go from programming to coding.
plus, i don't necessarily hate my classes. i'm just ambivalent towards most of 'em.
>>769740this is helpful. thanks,
nonny No. 769794
>>769650Tbh I’m always disappointed when I see female artists do good female gaze type porn but a lot of them also try to appeal to troons at the same time. A lot of them are into women too so I don’t see why they’re so afraid to draw vaginas. Sometimes they’ll give female character alien penises and its like why?? Who would even like this???
There is just not enough pussy eating art goddammit.
No. 769797
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>>769740>>769702Anons how do you feel about working in tech as a woman? I'm also studying soft dev and I want to kms every time I read a shitty story like
>>769566 My studies are over in 2 months, then I'll have to get an internship and then a real job, and I'm fucking terrified. I tolerate men well enough, but when I think about my imminent future, it's grim. I know my experience doesn't have to necessarily be so bad and maybe I'll luck out and find a good team, but what are the odds
No. 769831
>>769797I've already said this plenty of times on this board but go for the boomers.
I'm terrified to think what working with younger men in tech would be like, I work at a large MNE and all my coworkers and supervisors are oldies. It's great. We have no relationship whatsoever, we just do our jobs and that's it. I know nothing about them and they know nothing about me. Zero small talk. Zero sexism.
Oh and try to avoid anyone from the UK and Commonwealth like
>>769566 said. Shit people, prone to mental illness. Just stay away from Anglos in general, you've seen what their countries are like.
No. 769858
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Really had enough of the fucking crazy people we get at my pharmacy. One lady really slapped a scrap piece of paper in front of me with some over the counter drug names on it, and demanded we run it as a prescription so her insurance could cover it. She was getting really angry and asking for my name and all this shit when I told her I couldn't process it as it wasn't a valid prescription. I tried humoring her and asking her the name of the prescribing physician and she said it was herself as she's currently in college studying to become on. When I asked for her NPI or DEA number so I could select the physician in the system she really had the gall to say "What is that? Here's my student ID instead.". I told her I could not process it and she walked off without saying anything.
Pretty sure she was high on something.
No. 769888
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>>764603I’ve recently found out that I have Ehlers Danlos syndrome , and I’m in constant pain. I have muscle weakness,and it hurts to lift things that are under 10lbs, no one believes me yet walking short distances leaves me with bruises all over my legs. I used to enjoy drawing, but I can barely hold a pencil some days.
I’ve been sheltered all my life, I have no friends no income and people around me do not believe me about my illness and some never even heard about it before or they'll mock me saying it's a 'bone disease' as if I'm faking it. I feel like I can’t do anything with my life and I hate myself,I have bad anxiety and so much things have happened to be in my past with creeps that I’m not comfortable going out or doing anything alone. I have no social media and I don’t interact with anyone but the same person for years, I’ve had a long distance partner for years and I know if I can’t step up and support myself it will be over, I’ve applied for benefits but because I’m young and finished high school they won’t accept me. What can I do? I just waste away everyday sitting on my bed, I’ve considered things that I don’t want to, but I don’t know what else to do.
No. 769900
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I was very close with my grandmother and her best guy friend, he would babysit me and my sister and was so much fun, he was always tanned and such a contrast to all the men in my life as a kid. Then my grandma moved abroad, didn't see them that much after that but once i visited, I couldn't see her best friend, this man I called an uncle. I was just told he wasn't feeling well, he needs to rest and I was too young to understand, I just figured he didn't want to see me anymore, because I was so shy. After my grandma passed still abroad, I found out he had hiv, shit broke my heart and still these uncle aged tanned gay men in loud shirts make me sad yet nostalgic. Wish they knew I am lesbian, I just find it funny somehow.
No. 769903
>>769797Honestly it's not a hellscape where you have to lick tranny boots all day and walk on eggshells regarding social issues. Like mentioned in
>>769566 A lot of the troons are mentally ill and unemployed freelancers and the ones in high positions are influential in the community, but you don't have to work with them. You might have to listen to their shitty speech at a conference but that's it. Most of the coworkers you deal with are normal people who might be slightly SJW-slanted but usually have a good head on their shoulders. Personally I've come across only one MTF and one FTM and I've been a developer for a decade.
Avoid male-run small companies like the plague though, they're infested with casual misogyny and guys there often behave like pigs. Prefer bigger companies.
No. 769909
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My eating disorder is getting worse and worse and I want to kill myself now that I've lost weight, and I think I look good in most stuff, better than I did before, until I realize that my rib cage is bigger than my hips, not even by much, but enough where it's obvious. No matter what I do, I won't be able to get rid of this. I just want to be small and dainty and instead I look like an awkward teen boy. I lost my tits for nothing.
No. 770008
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I hate coming home so much. During the day I'll see something intersating and fhen when I get home I remember that my dad isn't there anymore so I have no one to talk to.
My mother doesn't give a shit about a single thing I have to say so I snd up ignored 80% of the time and tbh I stopped bothering to talk at all. Wish I could move out but being a stupid broke bitch doesn't help.
No. 770011
>>769997I'm in the same boat as you. So far everyone I know is: married or in a serious relationship, has a career or at least good paying job, friends, car, their own place to live.
Meanwhile my 25yo ass can't even get a stable job or a car because I'm poor as shit already. Makes me wonder where I went wrong in life.
No. 770014
>>769997Relate. I’m currently in the process of accepting that my life is not going to follow the same path as most others and I need to do what I need to do to stay sane and take everything day by day. Picking up a hobby that I like and can improve at has helped. Someone will be mildly impressed one day. More than likely that person will be me and that’s fine, I’d like to be impressed by myself.
Also actively blocking comparisons. Like when you start thinking “but they’re married and I’m not, I hate myse-“ start saying “fuck that married asshole.”
It’s not always doable and it takes time but I find telling everyone in my head to fuck off helps.
No. 770065
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Thinking about my oneitis again. God I hate her. She hasn’t been the person I knew for a long time so why????
No. 770082
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i took the time to do something nice and useful for my class (basically sth that would make it a lot easier for all of us to study) and i got shrugged off as annoying. go fuck yourselves, good luck studying for exams without coming to me for five minutes asking for the material. at least someone here in competent enough to care about this course.
No. 770085
>>770082They don't deserve you
When tgey ask for the. Materials don't give it to them
No. 770097
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Does anyone feel like some of the conversations on here don't really make any sense? Like I feel like some anons are really reaching and take something in a way the OP 100% did not intend when they reply to shit. It will always be some mundane shit too.
>I don't like the color blue it doesn't suit my skin tone
>Oh so you think POC women aren't allowed to wear blue??? Wow racist-chan strikes again!
Do I have autism or does everyone else?
No. 770164
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It feels bad that I'm too lazy to give into the girly things that I enjoy. Like, makeup is almost incomprehensible to me, yet I really want to try it. Same with nails. I've spent over 200+ on polygel supplies but I have only done them once. I'm too lazy to decorate, don't want to spend money on cute supplies… I'm not not meant to be a cute girl and I guess I have to deal with that and be okay with that. I've spent so much money on cute y2k stuff and I can't be bothered to put it all together.
If you have your stuff together, wear makeup, have a cute "cottagecore" aesthetic or at least incorporate cute stuff in your wardrobe, put effort into jewelry and your hair… just know that I'm envious of you. Even if it's something like coordinating an outfit together… I'm just so lazy. I'm sure you look cute.
No. 770172
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>>769903Thanks
nonny! You've given me some hope.
No. 770191
>>770178Honestly, not to cape for him but he's otherwise not that bad. When pursuing him I did way too much but we've settled into a fair friendship. He likes to pay for shit when we go out, so over time we've become even.
It's just funny because it's so stupid. I'm likely not missing much with his male friends though, you're right. I'm tired of only having male friends (but it keeps happening for some reason?) and also lost all of my desire to date men.
No. 770218
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my life a major flop
the end
No. 770227
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>”omg do some sister bonding time”
kek do you really think she cares about any of that? all she’s interested in is getting a job, going back to school, always fucking sleeping and napping like holy shit get up and get a hobby or something? and move out. she would never let me drive her car when I finally get my license, never offer to take me to my interviews even though everyone is just happy to take her at the right moment even though she has a car, i have an ok relationship with my sister but it’s pretty clear she rather not include me anything and I don’t care anymore
can’t describe it but don’t dislike but goddamn I need some friends and to get away for a very long time I’ve seen you people too long but it’s so hard making friends
No. 770257
I cannot deal with whatever mystical creatures steal my fucking things. I don’t know if I’m joking or not anymore. I used to always swear that I had bought new sponges/had at least one to replace when I needed to, but every single time I went to change them, they’d be gone. So next time I’d go to the store, I’d buy a pack, store them, and have my new sponge. About a month or two later, same thing. This happened for like 2 years straight, and I just named the phenomenon “sponge goblins” that just stole my sponges. They stole a shoe once when I was in a road trip, hide my medicine, my car key disappeared in thin air when I dropped it IN MY CAR and I’ve still never found it. Shit like that, but the sponges were the most annoying and consistent thing. Today, I had my work ID which functions as a key, and I used it to fax something to my computer, and when I went back to my desk, I realized I forgot it at the fax machine. No big. Went back literally not even a minute or more than 10 feet from my desk, and my ID is absolutely no fucking where to be found. I’m so annoyed and freaking out and genuinely don’t know what else to call it, I feel absolutely insane. My coworker who watched me fax didn’t see anyone take it, and it is nowhere to be found. Am I crazy anons? I can’t believe this is happening rn.
No. 770273
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>>770257found one of those pesky creatures
No. 770278
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>>770277He's pathologically shy. That's why he and his friends are building a stalker shrine to you, yandere simulator style. It's the second best to befriending you!
No. 770292
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>>770278This…..makes me feel better kek I know I am nuts but this is at least a really cute and funny way to think of it. You made my day, thank you.
No. 770298
>>770293nta but you're not insane.
I pity your mother and sister for allowing
abusive behaviour and putting the blame on you. He's the adult and he fails to act like one. I hope you can move out or cut contact asap.
No. 770316
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Fuck my mother in law for sending us giant boxes of clutter my husband refuses to part with. He wouldn't even remember this shit existed if it didn't show up at our front door. And then he gets pissed at me for not showing the same enthusiasm he has over his grandma's beat up crochet napkin holders. I get that objects are very sentimental but holy shit we live in a two room apartment we don't have the room nor do I have the will to hang onto all this stuff that looks like it came from the average old woman's garage sale.
No. 770324
>>770097Absolutely. I just leave it be and assume they actively want to be angry and infight or, if it involves a cow, have an insatiable hate boner that prevents them from responding normally.
>>770302Literally this kek
No. 770364
>>770014>Like when you start thinking “but they’re married and I’m not, I hate myse-“ start saying “fuck that married asshole.” It’s not always doable and it takes time but I find telling everyone in my head to fuck off helps.
This is going to turn you into a worse person, not a better one.
No. 770394
>>765834Coming from a Seattle native. It definitely should just be legal everywhere already. However, I'm super addicted to the dissociative affects and it wasn't as big a deal until stores opened. It makes me binge eat, lack motivation and depressed over all. I stop for awhile then go back because withdrawal actually really sucks and because well….so does life sometimes.
I think just like booze, it is best used in moderation but as anon pointed out the addict is what makes it the problem.
No. 770456
>>770416There’s not much you can do beside trauma therapy anon. I know it’s hard to accept that you may never receive the justice you deserve…but it is no way to live allowing the monster to chip away at you every day for the rest of your life.
Farmers will be manifesting his prompt and painful death.
No. 770471
>>770469i wish, i may have to talk to my therapist about a prescription but i have no idea.
my anxiety isn't exactly panic attacks, i just over think and/or FEEL anxious all the time.
i'm drinking some sangria now and i feel a lil better anon chan!
No. 770489
>>770471That is how my anxiety is. I've had those sudden panic attacks come on too but very rarely. I was prescribed xanax like 10 years ago and somehow was able to keep a steady rx going. I don't use more or less than 90 1mg pills everyb6 months. Tbh though they are addictive and you definitely don't want to mix with alcohol or you'll end up in a functioning black out for hours and have your memory completely erased. In my late 20s I didn't realize it and had some wtf moments.
But overall I find it a godsend. Really helps me through some bad times, get sleep, just feel happier. Definitely I keep it under control and usually split the pill. A lot of doctors won't prescribe it now like this and I get super anxious whenever I have to get a refill like, this is the day they will cut me off. I've moved 1.5 hours away from my doctor but won't switch because I don't want the new doc to take it away. I honestly will freak out if that happens. Lol
No. 770534
>>770505Being by yourself is nice. I was a serial monogamist and ended a 6 year relationship last summer. While I was heartbroken and I still get sad sometimes, I have to say even I notice how much more stable I am. Even in things like not picking at my skin, fucking with my hair and having some type of psychological crisis every so often. I haven't been single since I was 15 and I'm 30 now. It's refreshing, I don't feel like I was ever truly myself in any of my relationships. I got engaged to my highschool sweetheart and I wish I did my growing up away from him.
Also if the sex with your bf sucks you'd probably have more fun solo lol. I miss sex but then I just get myself off and I'm good. I even turned down a couple of guys because I am literally enjoying my alone time without having to worry about anyone else. It's such a luxury. I'm hoping with knowing myself better I'm going to intuitively find my dream guy lol
No. 770536
>>770527I hope ur feeling more awake and less weird now anon
So I start two jobs tomorrow and I made this awesome fried fish dinner to celebrate and my boyfriend has gotten mad at me twice for trying to wake him up to eat…I just had drinks and ate the fries and put everything else away in the fridge/freezer. Am I a pussy or is this fucked up??
No. 770763
I can't imagine being happy anymore. I don't know what to do with my life or what to pursue and I'm very traumatized from CSA and extreme abuse, I know I will forever carry it on my shoulders, the burden of other people's evil inflicted upon me.
I think society is unfair and I'm critical over everything, so many things in society are fake or simply performative. But it seems that being analytical or critical will label you as hateful. I'm not hateful, my heart is full of love but I cannot stop my mind from seeing how fake everything is.
From the internet "communists" that only care about themselves and use this label to capitalize, to the performative and fake feminism, to how badly organized and unfair society is.
I can't imagine myself doing anything and being happy, because in any job or career I must censor my thoughts and beliefs otherwise I will end up being attacked by others, people are vengeful. Even if you bring valid criticism and tell the truth they're gonna come after you. The world is essentially built on narcissism and people in good positions are always narcissistic.
I'm very depressed, I honestly cannot imagine myself being happy in this society but my happiness is strictly dependent on society. On socialization, acceptance, a career etc.
At this point I want money but I'm not gonna completely quit my individuality for it or go against my values completely. I used to be a camgirl but I barely got naked and never did penetration, I sort of want to get money out of simps without doing very degrading things. I have a Twitch now but they have changed the way the site functions and it is hard to get observed as a very small streamer.
I want to make Youtube videos over things I'm interested in like MBTI, philosophy and knowledge, traveling. But I don't want an intetnet career, it's fake, immature and demanding. My dream is still to be a university professor but because of my past I might never be accepted in that position. Why did I get raped at 8 and why was I groomed on the internet and pursued into getting naked?
I loathe both men and women.
No. 770801
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I'm just way too stupid for this "living in a society" stuff.
I honestly feel I can't deal properly with getting a job and taking care of myself. Literally most things I just pass trough mediocrily and by sheer luck. I am stupid, socially retarded, I don't understand emotional inteligence very well but I'm probably retarded af there too, I am uncurably lazy, I procrastinate a lot, I can't find solutions to pratical day to day issues that come up (such as, one time, doors and keys), I am weak af, I am slow, I am extremely forgetful and I am terminally online + barelly any irl friends (this one is because I moved a lot as a kid and that messed me up socially, only good/close-ish friends I have are childhood friends I reencountered with recently).
I had the extreme misfortune of having really good grades in primary school with barely any study, wich means I accidentally tricked my parents into thinking I am very smart and having high expectations for me for the rest of my life.
I know LC hates bimbos and probably doesn't like housewives either, but I don't know how else I wouldn't just be constantly embarrassing myself and disapointing/annoying others (to clarify, I'm only talking about myself here obv, all of you non retarded queens deserve way better ofc). This is just something that comes up to my mind ocasionally when I'm feeling very down tho, I'll probably actually just die alone since I have no charm, no comedic skills and no social skills.
I'm being whiny af but this is something that sometimes comes up to my head and every once in a while I'll feel really down about it and I never have a chance to vent it (I don't like venting my stupid trash to my friends)
Sorry for verbal diahrrea.
No. 770856
File: 1616864701568.jpg (22.52 KB, 316x442, smug milo.jpg)
Pardon me, just taking a post to be smug.
>had really disappointing eggplant casserole at dim sum place
>decide to make it myself
>go to asian mart to pick chinese eggplants
>research how to de-bitter the eggplant
>research how to keep them from getting soggy in the sauce
>tell bf I'm making eggyplant
>"Ew I'll try but I won't like"
>you'll see
>at the stage of frying the eggplant before I stir fry into the sauce
>taunt bf to try a fried sliver before I even put the sauce on it
>he bites
>…
>he realizes it's fucking delicious and doesn't wanna admit it
>"i-it's only good cause you fried it!"
>yeah but eggplant parm is also fried in breadcrumbs and you admitted you didn't like that either
>he yields and admits that the eggy is buttery on the inside and crisp on the outside and has a good, sweet flavor
Booyah
No. 770881
>>770850I…sort of took revenge once…? I had a therapist who was very unprofessional and didn't keep the necessary boundaries. You don't have to think about anything drastic, she just shared details about her personal life (her divorce, how her ex-husband was a dickhead) and had
very specific ideas what I should do with my life (from the way I dressed to where I should work) and threw a tantrum if I disagreed on something. She also routinely took phonecalls (once she shouted and threatened a phone service provider guy because he 'fucked something up') and/or ate her lunch during my sessions. At one point she also tried to convince me that I'm lesbian, even though I'm not. After a while she kicked me out, saying that I'm a lazy client and I do not take enough effort and I should stop 'wasting her fucking time'. She blocked me on her phone and I could never reach her again. The breakup was really traumatic for me and I needed years to have a feeling of closure.
So one day I went on a public and popular 'question and answer' website and asked about other people's opinions about her. And lo and behold, the reviews kept flooding. One person wrote that she was more like a cultist then a therapist and that if her clients personally benefitted her in some way, she kept contact with them outside of therapy (which is forbidden). She also complains
about her clients
to her other clients (which is also a no-no). If you search her name in google, one of the first pages that comes up is this review. I mean, yeah, it was not my intention to ruin her reputation, I was just curious about other people's experiences but it definitely affected her career and I felt a little bit guilty about it. Sorry for the blogpost
No. 770882
>>770875NTA but this is very accurate. Pucca is the only one worth keeping tabs on.
IMO Old Tumblr art cows remain unmatched to this day. Twitterfags just keep rehashing the same arguments over and over.
No. 770887
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Living is so expensive. I'm staying with my parents so at least I don't have to pay bills (I only have to pay a flat $400 for rent each month, which is amazing because rent for a shitty little apartment goes for like $1k here) but
fuck. I don't feel like ranting about this. I wish that I was stupidly rich so I didn't have to worry about gas money and other crap.
No. 770912
>>770905I would pursue those goals for now, I know in the future we'll get back to moving abroad so please wait a little bit more
nonny!
No. 771009
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>>770962the thing is most moids rape and kill women in wars too. Pic unrelated I just forgot what thread we were arguing about the sanrio "im baby" shit now
No. 771010
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>>771009wrong picture kek
No. 771090
>>770875tbh I don't mind the art salt thread too much. It's basically what
>>770893 said, so the art salt thread is the only thing of its type I know of so that's were salty artists can drop random salt even if it's mega spergy.
Btw that thing about gendered proportion was actually anons making fun of people saying what you were saying.
You're darn right about the porn war tho. That whole spergfest was fucking awful, took way too long to get tagged as infighting.
No. 771114
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>nooo you can't call straight women "breeders"!
but that's literally what they are(bait)
No. 771115
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I wanna get a silk press (never had one before) but my hair is super short from shaving it, so I'd probably end up looking like someone's aunt. I'm really regretting cutting my hair now lol
No. 771138
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can EDtards or anachans mind shutting tf up? can’t believe someone made a thread about eating disorders that will turn into mindless unhinged body checking, terrible dieting advice and unleashed narcissism. no one cares that you fucking starve yourself and you’re overly obsessed with your body weight.
>i dont want to eat today guys it feels so rewarding not eating
eat a damn hamburger because no one cares that you want to look like bonehilda bitch, you will never be a model, you will never be perfect, you will never be better than anyone, no one really gives a shit about you (in a good way) so stop, please just stop. so tired of other mentally ill people while I’m also mentally ill lol
No. 771179
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>>771176Hang in there anon, it gets better. Just suffer through the pain, while after while it will go away. It may get worse before it gets better, but it will get better.
No. 771183
>>771138It would be a decent idea for a thread to commiserate over a mental illness if not for telling people to post their fucking stats. Good, supportive communities won't let you post numbers whether that's weight or calories and I think that's the only way you can avoid
triggering competitiveness and showing off from the more unpleasant ana chans.
No. 771192
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I suddenly lost my insurance after moving states and I got a terrible UTI earlier this week and had to spend $200 at the clinic to get antibiotics and they said if it didn't improve it probably spread to my kidneys and I need to go to the ER but I can't afford to and I'm so scared I don't know what to do
No. 771206
I'm here every few weeks to blow off steam instead of getting arrested for brutally murdering my boyfriend while he autistically hammers away at an instrument that he has never picked up and has zero intention of learning. For two hours, he will hits several notes that have no right being next to each other akin to a fucking cat walking across a piano. Music so fucking awful, only the patience of an autistic children's music teacher could possibly combat it. Imagine picking up any fucking instrument, and without even knowing where to put your hands, you're able to make it sound broken. I have no idea how neighbours haven't waited outside our door to kick our asses for it, I pity them. I often wish I were them, just so I could call by-law and have this unsatisfying dude shut up. Everything he musically touches, he ruins. If a silent room were his bare, white canvas, what he did to it was a mucousy shit for an hour. One day you ladies will read about me in one of two headlines;
Woman Pulled Over for Speeding While Driving Self to Hospital with Self-Induced Inner Ear Injury or,
Music Leads to Man's Sudden Pounding
No. 771328
>>771317If you don't want to do have a threesome, don't do it.
If you don't want to have a threesome with that girl specifically, don't do it.
It's that simple anon, don't overthink it. Tell your bf you don't want to do it and therefore aren't going to do it.
No. 771337
>>771317Truly don't understand how women are attracted to scrotes when they act and think like this ffs.
If you don't want that girl for your threesome then why the fuck would you go for it? This is YOUR thing not his. You want to experiment with a girl to fulfill yourself not to make your coomer happy.
Why are scrotes so selfish and entitled anons.
No. 771338
>>771317Have you told him, bluntly, that you don’t want to do it and you’re not attracted to her? No excuses like “I don’t know her well enough” “I don’t feel comfortable around her” “I don’t feel like it at the moment” just no.no.no? If you do that and he’s still pushing for it, then you need to gtfo.
Sorry to judge but I get the impression you haven’t been very firm with your rejections of the threesome, so if you’ve done this already then gtfo.
No. 771345
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>>769743>I miss the days when only the other person paid for me.Jesus Christ, I praise the Goddess for making me a lesbian every day, hetero women are pathetic, almost as pathetic as hetero men.
No. 771359
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I am so fucking annoyed of being a hermit in a small town because there’s no lgb community I want to be a part of here and I just want to find a fucking girlfriend without going on a shitty app. I don’t even think I’m that ugly so I know that in the right environment/community I would have an easier time finding people to date, but I feel like I’m in a wasteland of Midwestern straights and underage high school gays I want nothing to do with.
No. 771363
>>771345It's almost like males make more money on average than females, and that this was a deliberate structure to keep women as property.
But yeah no let's ignore that and play fake equality where the person who makes less should split things 50/50 because "m-muh sentiment".
No. 771370
>>771366…It was less than $30. Are you okay? Do you never treat any of your potential partners to anything unless they fuck you? Lmao.
For someone who loves girls, you sure seem bitter.
No. 771383
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>>771375>speaks in averages>then tries to make it about particulars>then goes back to speaking in averages and complains about "personal attacks"Uh-huh, yeah, sure. PSA, "lesbian" anon.
I'm not heterosexual, by the way, I just don't have my head up my ass. Also, gay men are nasty.
No. 771393
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>>771387Kek, seethe some more for us
No. 771466
>>771447I'm not into kpop but there's this group I "like" only because i find most of the girls attractive, no other reason, I don't even really follow them just check on them if there's new content because i find them hot.
When i think about it too much it makes me feel like guilty, like a filthy scrote.
Obviously it happens with other celebrities and women around me, it's only one example of my inner scroteness.
No. 771486
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Some random mentally ill woman started shouting at me 'You're so ugly!! You have nice hair but you're ugly. Trying to look good but failing at it! Who are you trying to impress? Ugly!!' at me and while I know she was a crazy person and couldn't even see my face properly because of my respirator, it… Kinda hurt. I was going to a date so I looked good I think but this was a shitty start to my day. I got kinda sad and feel shitty about it.
No. 771495
>>771486Amanda bynes is at it again eh?
Sorry though, that sucks. On the way to a date..Fuck. I get easily shaken up by stuff so I'd be heading back home after something like that lol. Hope your day isn't too thrown off by it.
No. 771496
>>771488i'm exactly the same as you, i feel bad for butting in, interrupting etc and when i do try to talk, i feel like i'm wasting everyone's time/being annoying. but this way, i've not made a single actual friend that actually roots for me, or cares about how i'm doing. because they have no incentive to, since they don't know anything about me. so be cautious anon, don't be so passive that people don't even know you're there and try to participate in conversations and be active. you've probably seen it yourself where people are willing to listen to that one person because they're so animated, and full of life. obviously, you can convert from a naturally passive person to a confident, take up the whole room, kind of person, but don't be afraid to voice something that happened to you, or disagree with sometimes. hope we both can get better at this.
No. 771499
i went outside to enjoy a day off and the nice weather and realized i look kinda ridiculous in a lot of summer-y clothes i own. my shorts don't fit right and the top i was wearing made it even more obvious (imo)
i'm also increasingly aware that my fashion tastes are often like a teenager's but not up to date with trends. i want to dress a bit more maturely when its cold but if i dress like an 18 year old in the summer, i wanna be more hip… brb ordering some clothes online.
>>771486i feel you anon. i had a schizo homeless man verbally sexually harrass me and while i knew he was just yelling shit at everyone it still made my day worse.
No. 771505
>>771495The date went very good and since she really couldn't see my face because of the respirator I was wearing, I know it was just something randomly mean on her mind. But those word are not a nice thing to hear, damn. I don't get what she found so ugly about me anyway.
>>771490yeah she sounds just like celebrity thread lolcow sperg lol
No. 771513
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My mom just randomly told me I look like shit, out of nowhere, even though we were on good terms, then said love you after what the fuck????
No. 771515
>>771508You can do 2x10 min butt exercises from YouTube (Pamela Reif is good) a day, with some rest days in between. Squats with heavy weights or kicking up with ankle weights is effective too and takes less time. Not sure if it'll make it bigger, but maybe more toned and round. It's also healthy to exercise a bit so no harm in trying. Butt takes some time to tone though.
But I'm sure you look great, considering he grabs your ass, it's probably okay.
No. 771524
>>771512But I love round booties…
the big as fuck ass trend needs to die tho
No. 771527
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>>771450Ok I came back to elaborate
I like safiya's and tyler's vids usually, and this was okay ish, but meh. Why should I care kek.
That said I find it annoying how they just got a new house in California and suddenly they're moving? Idk for me that's wasteful. But they're pretty wasteful people overall lol
And Safiya needs to SERIOUSLY stop painting her face the way she's doing it right now. It ages her soooo bad, she looks like she's pushing 40 with an alcohol addiction. Without makeup she looks very nice and youthful. Makeup culture was a mistake.
No. 771532
>>771527I always mean to post about Safiya but always feel like people are just gonna tell me to stop being stupid about it lol. I don't mind her content and I'll play it in the background for noise, but I really can't believe how much she spends on stuff, especially the 'mixing every X of Y thing together' videos, or when she buys shit clothing from wish or whatever. They've got the space for it and the few glimpses of their older home don't look hoarders level terrible, but it's just so much shit to have as a couple. Not my money or my home so not really my business to care but damn.
I was also so sure they wouldn't be moving since they moved into a pretty nice looking home, but I guess they could've also just been renting it. Didn't she say in her blog post she posted a while back that she wouldn't be moving?
No. 771533
>>771532but doesn't she give away the finished mixed products at the end of the videos? i know she did it for the lipsticks since they're actually useable.
i'm essentially the same as you though, i just play her videos when i'm super bored or doing something else.
No. 771546
>>771533Nta those things are not FDA approved so I wouldn't recommend getting them kek
>>771532She does have hoarder tendencies though, look up her closet in that video full of the sameish black clothes over and over again and the video where she organizes her entire makeup collection
No. 771550
>>771533True, but for the non-lipstick videos, I think it's still a lot of product for any one person to own (e.g. all the eyeshadow palettes still left over that she scraped from and all the candles left over).
>>771546I never watched the closet organization video but I'm watching the moving video now and there's a clip of her inside her closet and it really is ram packed with maybe 3 white things in a sea of black. Like damn, props for the dedication to never owning non-black clothing but lol. I wonder what she does with all the shit clothing from Wish after the videos, throw them out probably? But I would also think not since in one video she pulls out clothing and points out that Trisha owns it in pink (green shorts with fuzzy leg warmers attached I think) and says she was going to use them in a video but then didn't and then just had it.
No. 771555
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I'm not sure if this is a vent, I'm not even angry, just cringing. My female neighbour lives with her son and he's in his late 20s or maybe early 30s and I'm sure he's a 4chan poster, and I'm pretty sure he knows I was a poster in the past too, don't ask me how. I hope he will never try to talk to me irl or hit on me, his weird stares and smiles are creepy enough
the vent part: I really hate living in an apartment building because everyone can hear everything. my boomer neighbours think i'm talking to myself because I can be pretty loud when I play mmos. I'm too ashamed to practice guitar because everyone can hear my shitty attempts. I know I shouldn't give a fuck what others think but it's hard
No. 771598
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It really triggers me that two of my hardest courses this semester aren't open book. Like what the fuck.
No. 771601
>>771555i agree with the other anon, you sound paranoid. i promise that outside of paranoia delusions, people are not really paying
that much attention to you and if you haven't said "top kek" in front of that guy, he doesn't knwo you're a former channer.
No. 771611
>>771608The thing is, the OP never said they'd never buy things for their SO.
The anon extrapolated a single line about not wanting to have to fuck some scrote just because paid less than $30 for a meal into some bizarre "ugh women!! (lgb remix)" rant. It's weird, and almost gives incel vibes.
No. 771628
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How do you ward off the sunday sads, anons? Or maybe just general depression is what i have, but its worse on sunday?
I got up early, worked out, ate a salad, did some grocery shopping, dyed my roots, spent time w/ my nice bf and you know what? I still feel like shit
picrel is me posting this post
No. 771629
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>be me
>realize that a guy that I know and I have very similar taste
>we talk about stuff that we like, he recommends me a film that seems cool and I do the same
>we promise each other to exchange some art books
>friday evening I send him a message to tell him that I have downloaded the movie (I want to be friend with him but I'm a huge autist, I really don't usually reach to people first)
>we talk a little, I sperg but he seems to react ok. The conversation is a bit weird but still normal
>two days later, he sends me a message because he can't find a way to see the movie
>weird, it's a quite a popular movie but ok
>I send him a link to a torrent site, a streaming site and propose to even send him the damn file trough e-mail
>he reads it and never answer
>wtf do I do, we were suppose to exchange books later
>I'm now afraid that I way too enthusiastic about the conversation when he barely cared(I can never talk about the stuff that I love usually because it's too niche)
>mfw I never want to talk to men again
No. 771631
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This is more of a happy vent, but ah I did my nails today and they came out so fucking pretty! I usually do pretty long nail extensions, but today I just decided on some short almond ones and they're so dainty and cute. They have different designs on each hand. My actually hands look like shit due to excessive hand washing and rashes, but at least my nails are cute. I wanted to take pics of them, but there was a thunderstorm earlier and now it's night so there's no good lighting. Also, I've finally done all the shit I needed to do and have a bunch of free time to just paint and eat oranges and play sims and shit. It's spring so hopefully I will be able to sit outside and do some kind of plein-air painting. Life feels simple and nice right now
No. 771777
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dumb blogpost alert
>everyday has to see mom in pain
>sort of deathfat not my life as a 600 pound person but for her height severely obese
>suffers from daily inflammation and pain specifically from her back
>breathes so fucking loud and whines about being in physical pain everyday
>she’s obese
>in pain everyday
>weight literally crushing her down
>her wondering why she’s in pain
can she not connect the dots already? not only is my sperg-like misophonia constantly on radar because of her deathfat heaving and noises of being in pain it’s so annoying watching someone not fixing their obvious root problem and then get angry when the doctor is apparently “too militant” for them. guardian nonny wants a man in her 50s but she can’t even fix her life it’s honestly saddening and she always keeps saying she won’t make it and it’s exhausting like damn I don’t care for your self-pitying and that sounds really bad because it is but it’s becoming a tired record.
No. 771778
>>771777I have the exact same problem except I love my mom and I want to be very empathetic towards her. She's always in pain, always saying she won't make it. She's obese, has scoliosis and other stuff going on. Honestly I am very afraid of moving out of my house because I'm afraid she'll die.
I completely understand you. I'm happy there's someone else who has a similar situation, I don't feel alone anymore.
No. 771827
Fuck, sometimes I feel like grabbing my dad by his collar and just shake it and ask him why he treats my mom like shit. I noticed my mom's teeth were looking really rough and I found out they went to some "recommended" dentist (because they give job related discounts) and my mom BEGGED my dad not to take her there cause she said the place was super unfriendly and shitty. But no, he has to go there cause all of his job related friends went there (reputation > my mom's health). First, the dentists fucked up her unrelated teeth, she went there for 1 issue and they took out like 3 of her teeth, implanted 6, but only actually crowned 3 of them. She still has to go back to get the rest done and its been 3 years since she went back, it was done in another country. And the ones that they actually finished, she said the implants didn't feel right but the dentists miffed her and said no we did it right fuck off. And she told my dad she's been getting sores and her gums keep getting irritated, but I guess to him as long as her teeth aren't fucking rotten, it doesn't matter. God fuck him. Fuck Him and fuck the dentists that did her teeth. I feel like crying cause my mom can't get the care she needs cause money related issues and the fact that my dad is a total ass to her and doesn't even listen to her and totally ignores her when she actually has issues. It's one thing that we don't have money and can't get her the great care, and another when my dad pays for some shitty dentist cause muh reputation and doesn't listen to my mom when THERE WAS A DENTIST FOR THE SAME PRICE WHO SHE ACTUALLY LIKED AND DID A GOOD JOB! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I always wished she divorced him but like most abusive couples, he handles all the financials, never let her get a job, has like a lot of kids me included, and just overall fucked her life. She had a stable career and a nice future until he came in and married her. I hate him sometimes, but I can't totally I mean he is my dad and has done a lot for the family. But seriously wish I was aborted, I'm getting off topic, but I'm going for a vent and I'm super emotional right now. I've tried to ctb multiple times and wished I didn't fail the first time, the belt snapped the second, and I was too much of a pussy the third. I don't hate hate my life, just wish I was unalive/nonexistent. No one asked to be born. Humans are fucking up planet earth. Animals are endangered and species are disappearing. I hate humans. If there was a button that killed all humans simultaneously and instantly, I would press it no doubt.
No. 771836
I have pink eye and it sucks.
>>771555If you have an electric guitar you can just plug headphones into the amp.
>>771508I have a flat one too. It sucks how it's socially acceptable to body shame people with flat butts. The trend will soon pass though as the other anon said.
No. 771838
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>>771629here is the (saged) update that nobody ask for. To prevent the akwardness I tried reaching out one last time to tell him that I liked his movie, he saw it and still didn't answer. Now I look even more desperate. We were suppose to exchange books today, we are inevitably going to see each other, this is so akward. I should have listen to gus anon, my god I'm never talking to him again. Fuck it, the only time I want to be friend with a guy this shit happens
No. 771842
>>771833don't let yourself be dragged down by a jobless loser with mommy issues
you're not a bad person for not feeling affectionate, it's just your inner feeling telling you he's not worth it.
No. 771858
>>771828Damn
nonnie I'm judging too. He's pretty much a cradle robber.
No. 771881
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Ramadan will start in just a few weeks and since I'm working with a shit ton of Muslims I just know they'll all talk about it non stop and try to convince me to fast with them because I can't just tell them I'm a filthy heretic with minor health issues that makes fasting dangerous to begin with without things getting awkward. I want this to be over already. Living in Japan during last year's ramadan and eating pork in secret without shame was one of the best things in my life, I want to go back.
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>>771878This made me so mad. I’m sorry anon! God your bfs mum is a bitch!!! Can’t you speak to your bf about it? Does he know that she spoke to you like that?
No. 771957
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i was calmly and clearly reading out loud during zoom class and an obnoxious old loud-ass fucking scrote in my class unmuted himself like all useless tech-retarded scrotes his age do to sperg the fuck out (he's SO. LOUD! OH MY GOD) and interrupt the class bc he hadn't understood what i'd just read out loud. he halted the class for a good 3 minutes not because i'd even read the text wrong, he just hadn't understood something about it, and instead of raising his hand (he had his camera on, i didn't) or politely asking he interrupted me loudly and halted the class with his stupid fucking asinine question in the middle of my reading out loud. i fucking hate scrotes i wish i could tell him to shut up and go annoy his family or whatever.
i fucking hate old people in university. they're always the loudest most obnoxious fucking scrotes ever, and the worst part is they're even more entitled and stupid than zoomers or dumbass millenials. someone take grandpa home so he can annoy his own family.
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messy morning it’s so eventful. had to quickly clean up because the morons at y apartment complex put some “environmental” mechanism in the toilets to save water but you have to flush a lot more and waste even more water. broke the toilet and they are probably coming and i also had to wash the dishes 30 minutes before my online class and kept pacing back and forth. prepared my stuff for class and then everything went downhill, im in a gc and I was honestly so surprised when my classmates called me or messaged me to see what was wrong when I suddenly left because everything just suddenly stopped working. i feel like I don’t even deserve the attention because I barely make an effort to talk to people out of fear of socializing
No. 772077
>>764649I think people who do this genuinely aren't right in the head, attention seeking is one thing but that kind of manipulation is another. I don't have the words for it, but it gives me the same vibes as those parents that make their kid sick or crippled on purpose so they can get sympathy points, except people like this don't even have to do the legwork themselves. They just pretend they were the
victims of a killing during which they were sitting comfortably at home and grandstanding on the graves of the actual human beings that died, all so they can be the center of attention.
If a doctor tested everyone that makes statements like that I'm 100% sure they'd score a personality disorder diagnosis.
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child porn on the front page of /pt/
the internet was a mistake
No. 772090
>>771948Anon men are trash, even the ugly and boring ones will lie and cheat if you give them a chance, because they'll start thinking if they pulled you, they can pull better. Only go for hot and rich ones like
>>771952 said, literally.
No. 772165
>>772159I tried to stand my ground last night and told him that if he continues saying it that I'll actually breakup with him. He then just twisted it around to make it seem like I was giving him ultimatums and how that's
toxic and I'm just trying to punish him. Man, I just said it because I thought it would finally make him see I was serious about how I felt and he would stop.
No. 772167
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I have to be at work for a full shift and I feel like crap for some reason. Usually with small amounts of sleep I'm able to get by, but today is horrendous. My head is ringing, body aching, voice rasping, I can't focus, and I sound like a complete cur to be around. There's no one to sub for me, I'm closing with someone else. if I could faint and die on the spot or have anything that would get me out of here I would.
No. 772171
>>772152I had an ex who would always tell me that he was kicking me out of our place and ending things with me…every little argument quickly escalated to that and it was all just a repetitive performance. The absolute fucking drama lol. If you try and find a way to handle them better…they'll further escalate things to beat you in some emotional game they have going.
Both are just attempts at manipulation. That's all it is. Yours is just playing the
victim to try and cover it up better. Underneath that it's the same emotional abuse.
No. 772213
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>>772208
No. 772225
>>772217you sound like you're trying to be a
victim so bad. you must already know how people act on this website? it was a 2 word response and a meme.
No. 772231
>>772217>>772208I didn't quite read all, but from the sounds of it these people are probably shitty.
In my old age I've found the best way to get ahead, get what you want and keep away shit you don't want is to be super direct with people. Being cold to someone who you maybe hope to salvage some kind of relationship with whether working, friends or relationships just leaves the door open for them to use you or leave that person confused why you are acting that way. Sure if you put yourself out there and say how you feel the other person has the right to respond how they choose. If they respond negatively to your needs though, do you really want to work with that person anyway?? You might not get the reaction you want but it will save you a lot of time and effort in the long run to do what YOU want to do and find people who are on your same level. You gotta weed out the bad apples in life.
No. 772240
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I love when I come across a cow in the wild, suspect there must be a milk thread for them somewhere online, and turn out to be right.
No. 772247
>>772234kek
>They didn't have to read your post if they felt it was too long.yeah i know, thats why i didnt.
No. 772287
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WHAT. THE. FUCK. I'm fuming and so scared now. My roommate's dad, who's been living in our house for a while now (the house is separated top floor from bottom, me and my bf live on the first floor, roommate and his father live on the second.), tested positive for covid, and is ONLY TELLING US NOW, AFTER HAVING BEEN TESTED POSITIVE FOR SEVERAL FUCKING DAYS NOW, and of course, I have a HUGE work week ahead of me, every day until Sunday, 2pm to 10pm, mainly customer service, so, you know, I kinda need to know this! And the funniest part is I'm supposed to be getting my vaccine shot Sunday, and I will be visiting my family (who, aside from my little brother, thankfully have already gotten the vaccine but not like that really matters since there's still a risk.)
Fuck you, man. My roommate is getting tested tomorrow, and as long as he's safe, I'm going to assume my boyfriend and I are too, although I'll still try and get tested. The hopeful part is aside from being around my roommate, I never see his dad or interact really with, like, anything he's touched since he basically lives an entirely different place from me and my bf. I'm mostly just scared for my boyfriend because due to huge health problems he has, he's basically as at risk as someone in their 20s could be. And of course I start the work week tomorrow, so I won't know whether or not my roommate tested positive until after I've been around people.
No. 772310
I feel really awful because of my family right now. I have a family history of addiction - parents were addicts, and my brother who I have a tumultuous relationship with has been an addict for over 10 years. I myself fell into addiction and I was an addict for 7 years.
My brother, who is 7 years older than me (he is 32 right now), has been homeless off and on for several years. When I was 18, I allowed him to move in with me because he was going to be on the streets. That was 2 years of hell - we were both actively using, and all big brother-little sister boundaries were completely destroyed. He lived with me rent-free for two years, and never looked for work. He would bring my dad into my home (who I have a bad relationship with) and they would go into my brother's room and be doing meth, heroin, etc. My brother would supply me with drugs often. He would bring his girlfriend over every day and they would have loud arguments all the time. We fought all the time. He would steal my money. Eventually, I kicked him out because I couldn't put up with the disrespect and him mooching off of me anymore. He moved to another state with my mom. My mom, grandma, and brother all lived together for a few years.
After living there for about two years, he came back to my city. He was still in active addiction, and he was living with my dad in squalor. Eventually, they got kicked out for not paying rent. They both became homeless. February last year, my mom asked me if I could let my brother stay with me for one month before he moved back in with her in Arizona. I accepted. I was in the middle of a relapse, and the cycle of using with each other began again. In March, I began treatment. I got clean, and my brother was still using. COVID struck, and my brother wasn't able to transfer methadone clinics, so he used that as an excuse to stay with me until July. A lot of bad shit happened. He was completely disrespectful, he never showered, never cleaned up after himself, used in front of me. He would bring random people from the methadone clinic over without asking me. He would get super high and destroy the living room, which was really triggering for me when I was trying to stay sober. I had to call an ambulance for him multiple times when he was unresponsive or having asthma attacks due to being so high and his CNS shutting down. He would do whatever the fuck he wanted to do here with no care in the world if it made me uncomfortable. He clearly felt entitled to my home and whatever I had to offer. It felt like a repeat of what happened when he was living with me when I was 18, except this time I was actively trying to recover and I was beyond sick of this shit. I feel like this post isn't doing the situation justice - he has entitlement issues, and felt entitled to my home because he said he would "do the same for me if the roles were reversed." Altogether, he probably lived with me for about 2.5 - 3 years total, rent-free. And that is my own fault for not setting boundaries.
Before he left, him and my boyfriend got into a blowout screaming match about all of this. He moved out last July.
Fast forward to now. He got his stimulus check last week and booked a trip back to my city. Nothing has been done since last July to improve our relationship. He has taken no accountability and he has not apologized for anything. He told me he was visiting for a week and asked if he could stay with me for a few days. After everything that happened with him living with me, I don't feel comfortable with him in my home for any length of time, let alone overnight. I'm honestly confused about why he's coming to visit, because our relationship is kind of in shambles and nothing has been done to improve it.
Honestly, I'm not ready to see him and I feel really, really ambushed by this trip. He and my mother have asked me 5 times already if he can come stay with me, and I've said no. Each time they ask, the situation seems more dire. "The guy he's stealing with is stealing his money, can he please come stay with you? It'll only be for 2 days." I said no. Now it's "the guy has stolen literally all his money, please let him stay with you." I said no again. And now I know they are both talking about what a bad sister I am and how much I don't care about my family.
I do fucking care about my family. I'm trying to set a boundary. I don't want my brother in my house. It's not my fault he planned a whole trip without my knowledge and ambushed me by showing up and expecting to stay in my home. But now I'm feeling like I'm just a shitty sister who doesn't give a shit about him and can't even let him stay with me for 2 days while he's getting robbed.
I've been sober for one year tomorrow. I feel so broken about this. Why do I have to let him into my home to be a good sister? Why did he ambush me like this instead of securing safe housing for himself here? I'm just trying to set boundaries to keep myself sane and now I look like a monster to my family.
No. 772313
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currently bought probably 40+ dollars of non-essential art items for my personal joy and pleasure and not even sure if it’ll go through because I only had $48 left and currently have no job
I actually don’t regret it
I just hate when my parent gives me money for doing nothing I hope the place calls me or they actually hire me ffs
No. 772317
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>>772315Nta, but that's Nicki Minaj and I'm pretty sure it's extensions. For a while she was doing that with her hair. Nicki does have nice natural hair, though. Extensions/weave for this length is better anyway since you can take it out, I'm sure if this was her real hair it would be tiring to deal with it 24/7
No. 772356
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>>772310You got this. THEY are all absolute garbage for putting you in this situation again. And why the fuck isn't your mom taking care of him? You know it will just cause the same issues as before. You can help by pointing him to the nearest homeless shelter. Don't give in.
No. 772440
>don't go on 4chan and reddit, normal men don't think like that!
I've read this many times except women have no idea how many "normal" men post on image boards, the men they pass every day, men who have normal jobs, men in law school, men working at YMCA and then writing pedophilic posts on 4chan. It makes me paranoid, because there's no way to tell if a "normal" man does something fucked up behind your back. And the mentality "women aren't attractive past 25" is becoming more mainstream. I think men always thought like this, but now they're just more open about it. Once you see it there's no way to unsee it, same with becoming gender critical/radfem and noticing casual misogyny everywhere. I don't know how to cope with this, I wish I weren't physically attracted to men, I wouldn't feed myself with hope that one day I'm going to find some genuinely good and not pornsick man, who sees me and other women as actual people.
No. 772448
>>772432I'm definitely worried about that.
I'm staying strong, have not been responding to attempts to come over and bf is coming over to keep me safe if he shows up here.
No. 772473
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I'm noticing more and more bullshit celebrity stories making news again now that they're cranking out covid vaccines and people are less panicked. Noticeably so after the Oprah interview with the royals. I guess media has decided the little people can care about this sort of shit again without backlash.
Tbh I was enjoying that time of not having to see sound bites of rich narcissist problems.
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I have a pimple on my labia and it hurts like hell
No. 772500
>>772445Didn't think anyone would respond to my vent. They're in their 60s and my mom is a hardcore religious person so unless he dies first, they're prob never gonna separate. Not to mention I'm unemployed and my siblings are also not in the best financial place. (I'm hoping I get an interview soon for a job I really want, but haven't heard back from) Also, not that its an excuse, but my dad has undiagnosed mental issues and childhood trauma and honestly he's gotten a lot better than in the past and we're pretty proud of him. He still has a lot of issues, but we've come to just say oh there he goes again. But thanks for worrying and being concerned, really puts into perspective how much I've normalized his behavior cause its been so ingrained in my life. Thanks for caring
nonnie! My hope is one day I can earn enough money so that my mom can stay with me or have a place she can stay whenever she feels too overwhelmed by my dad cause she's the one who has to put up with all of his shit and has been for the past idk 40ish years. But I need to get a job first kek.