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No. 993458
You’re in danger.
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I think that if you're posting here, you're supposed to have big problems, but mine isn't the biggest. I'm just scared that, soon, it will become one.
About two years ago when I was 16, I began to hallucinate for the first time. I chalked it up to lack of sleep, but I had a terrible home and school life, and a lot of pressure on me too. I could smell bad smells in my nose, hear sighing and whispering, and it looked like there were spiders on the walls, I could feel them all over my body too. I thought people knew all my thoughts and often felt that something inanimate was alive, and, in a way, watching me evilly.
It receded a little, and as I had less pressure on me, and got accustomed to it, I began to take it less seriously. It's weird, but I know it's not real.
Then, recently, it 'flared up' again, and objects are once again looking like people in the corner of my eye. I think people are following me sometimes. I have been feeling watched and as if random things are messages made for me. The breathing walls and spiders are back, and it wasn't scary.
Then, a couple of weeks ago, it became really bad. It went from 'ah, it's not real' to total loss of logic and lucidity. Every time I saw people I thought they saw the evil in me and wanted me dead. I thought they were trying to taunt me as retribution for my evil, everywhere these pretend humans (demons) were seeing through me and wishing me harm and humiliation. They wanted to eat me, or so I thought, and I could hear noises behind me that weren't there, and I thought it was part of the 'taunting' that I was supposed to face. I tried to say it's not real but my blood was electrified by primal adrenaline. There was an extreme sense of guilt, danger and impending doom.
When I got home, I could barely move, and had to pilot my body like some machine. I was frozen for a long time, and then incredibly exhausted, sapped of energy. All I wanted to do was sleep.
What am I supposed to do? I thought if I looked after my body and didn't managed stress that this wouldn't progress, it would go away. And the incident was two weeks ago, so it isn't really frequent, it's just the first time it has happened, where I became entirely delusional. I thought it wouldn't get worse, and it's been two weeks. Am I going to be ok? I fear it will happen again, but also I'm scared I'm being hysterical about it. It seems to be getting worse, as I hit a low that day and I'm not sure what I should do.
No. 993662
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American recipes be like:
it was a cold rainy day when my grandma passed away.. I always loved her warm apple pie.. [insert rest of life story]
RECIPE:
1 pie crust
2 1/4 cup pie filling
>assemble
>MMMHH just like grandma used to make!!!
No. 993689
Idk if it's just the usual premenstrual antsiness and discontentedness but I've started feeling bored at this new workplace where I've been for 3 months and the 'honeymoon phase' is starting to go away.
Also I just realized that the fact that I'm obsessed with my coworkers and stalking them online is not due to them being special or anything like that, it's just me dealing with my crippling loneliness that I've been in complete denial about in a completely unhealthy way
>>993662anon this had me in hysterics
No. 993803
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>>993784Unfortunately men don't work like that, saying you're upset is just a nag to them. Next time he abandons you just start chatting with whatever guys are there and have fun. I guarantee he'll suddenly act concerned about leaving you lonely and bored.
No. 993811
>>993803Yeah, I did that in our hang-out yesterday until I got exhausted of hanging out with near-strangers, but I think I should keep having fun in future ones. I'll just pretend he doesn't exist
>>993806Lol, but I can clearly see him. anything I say to express my discomfort just sets him off
No. 993816
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>>993806As if there's something wrong with either of those things.
Cheating is what's bad.
And you're bad. You're a keeper and enforcer of a shit homophobic system.
No. 993832
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>>993822Suck gay cocks in hell
No. 993845
>>993831Life is for living, not achieving, in a way all is good now.
However, you need to be the master of your time. The most precious resource there is.
Everyone is vying for your time, choose carefully who you give it to and under what conditions.
You also need to be the sole master of your mind, which can be very difficult when everyone wants to implant their own ideas there and has an easy way to do it.
Honestly? Fuck the phone. It gives so many people and interest groups a shortcut into your mind. That power is not symmetric in the slightest. Do not trust them.
>it's like it isn't even mine to begin withIt's not unless you fight for it.
The only right anyone ever has, is the right they are able and willing to fight for and defend.
No. 993856
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I distanced myself from all of my friends and today I recalled some things we did together in the past and it conjured up no emotion. I feel like I'm genuinely broken and unable to connect with people
No. 993866
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I had yet another dream of my old best friend who I miss a lot. In the dream we became friends once again and I remember how nice it felt just simply being able to message her whenever. Then for some reason I ghosted her again over nothing but added her back shortly after, and she said something like "it would be nice if you wouldn't leave me for once". It broke my heart.
Our friendship ended because I cowardly ghosted her, because I felt like we were growing apart and I couldn't handle it, but also because I was jealous of her boyfriend. I didn't like him and I didn't like him being around us, I selfishly wanted it to be just us two. Maybe I felt romantic feelings for her, maybe I didn't, I don't know. I miss my best friend a lot but she doesn't deserve me, she deserves better. I've matured since then but I still feel guilty over what I did and I'm too afraid to message her again. My feelings for her are very strong and I'm not sure how strong hers are for me so I'm afraid of coming across as a creep. Still, it would be nice if every dream of her wouldn't break my heart again. She's always in my dreams. She lives in my head and heart literally rent free.
No. 993873
>>993642Legitimately you're going to have to go to the doctor, psychiatrist, somewhere to get started on handling it before it becomes full blown. Maybe it can be pinpointed as to why it flares up. You'll need to be medicated temporarily at the least, which is fucking terrifying, but so is hallucinating and fearing all that's around you. That could eventually fuck you up worse.
Don't be afraid to reach out. If you have a trusted friend or family member who could help you get it situated, as well, it mitigates some of that fear.
Please please take care of yourself and I hope you get real answers.
No. 993876
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Ive been sick these past few days. My sister came to visit my brother and I but for unrelated reason. Somehow, she has the nerve to tell me to go out into the winter cold while she can obviously tell Im sick to take out the trash. She thinks she's helping but in all honesty if she wanted to really help two struggling and constantly busy uni students she'd do it by going ahead and taking it out herself and stop coming over to hassle us everytime she needs an ego trip.
No. 993927
>>993884Proud of you,
nonnie. This is very mature, especially to take all that one simultaneously. Someday you'll be so far from this dude and so at peace you'll forget he ever existed.
No. 993938
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Feeling really lonely nonnas. I went through a lot of trouble to set up a christmas card exchange for some online friends. I was just getting ready to mail my cards today when I read in an unrelated chat two of them are moving this week, so their addresses are going to change, and the other one never even bothered to send me a card back.
I guess none of them cared about receiving a christmas card. I was the only one excited about this. I bought supplies too, since I was hoping to surprise them with letters, and now I don't have anyone to write to anymore.
No. 993964
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>>993938I would kill 10,000 men for your Christmas card
No. 993980
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Had a 4.0 GPA my entire time in college and took a chemistry class. Had a perfect grade in the class despite my concerns, passed every quiz with flying colors. Take the final, miss half the questions which I don't even know how I failed, grade down to a B. I just lost my fucking 4.0 GPA and I don't know what to do. I feel like such a disappointment that I was literally a "perfect" student and now I'm not anymore. I grew up with extreme strictness on my grades so fucking up like this hurts so bad. I know that I still have a great GPA because it's just one class, but it feels like I massively fucked up what I had going for me. I was always told if I wasn't a perfect student I'd fail in life, never have a career, those thoughts just repeat in my head. I feel like no job will ever want me once I graduate because I wasn't perfect. It's so irrational I know people with 2.0-3.0 GPAs get hired and I'm far above that right now I'm just fucking angry and disappointed with myself and want to die.
No. 993995
>>993980You most likely will never be perfect and the further you go in your studies, the more your grades will be affected. Life after high school is hard because not everyone go this far, because you have to make choices for yourself and because you move on your own. But this is what makes it worth it, nobody wants a perfect employee , but one that could adapt to the hardships of college, which is what you're doing.
Being a gifted kid is never easy and i'm just a stranger on the internet bu i'm proud of you for going this far
No. 994036
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I'm stuck in a NEET bubble of my very own making. Since I've graduated high school this year, the only thing I've ever really wanted was to move abroad. I applied for so many jobs to save up for plane tickets, living expenses, etc. However, I either got rejected the majority of the time due to the fact I haven't been vaxxed, or gotten a QR code. On the weekend I make barely 20 dollars for nannying two kids, which is enough for me to spend on the bar I go to right after I collect the money. The rest of the time I'm a maid for my mom, which I don't mind, but, y'know. I want to feel like an adult, and have structure to my life, and I can't create it myself.
Basically thanks to COVID and, subsequently, the vaxx, I have no means to make a living for myself, or go to school again, but also, I don't even want to stay in this country. Making money here, for me, was just a means to save for overseas, but now not even the first step to being where I want is available to me.
I can't explain my situation to anyone (they'll tell me to just get vaxxed and get over myself), and it makes me feel straight up ashamed and embarrassed to talk about my life with friends and certain family members - "What do you do?" feels like someone is trying to deliberately psychologically torture me. I feel like I don't have a purpose to accomplish anything. I feel like such shit.
Someone slap me in the face?
No. 994053
>>994036If you’re Canadian, you could save up and drive to America where the border is less occupied, these places do exist. If you can’t fly, drive, if you can’t drive, walk. In the meantime, you could learn to code, learn a practical skill like plumbing and electrics (just patience and the internet and some tools needed), or cleaning, so you could independently go to people’s houses to help, instead of joining a company where a vax is required, or you could translate stuff online if you speak other languages. It’s important that you advertise yourself and have a car, or at least are able to drive.
Also, religious and ‘neurodivergent’ exemptions exist. Do you get panic attacks from needles? Are you Muslim? Have you reacted negatively to a dose before? Get creative. I am not against all vaccines, but mandates are a bunch of bullshit and the goalposts have been moving as the public gets lied to and gaslighted. Censorship has increased and the government has stopped representing the people. Stand your ground. I’m with you as a post high school semi neet and i know there are options. Is uni prohibited to the unvaccinated where you are?
No. 994056
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And here i am, doing 4 essays at once for a career i don't give a single fuck, a career i was forced to take because my parents won't accept me for who i am and my actual talents, a career that won't get me out of this shithole and that only works as a placebo for my family so they can ignore i'm chronically depressed. They think that if i go to college my depression will go away, but every time i open a fucking word file i feel like a such a failure, so inadequate, it's also December already and all this bs is killing my Christmas mood. I want to kms so much nonnas, i wish someone in this gay earth valued me for who i am and stop ignoring my input, it has been YEARS since someone in my family actually asked me what I want for my life, i'm a human being with thoughts not just some machine, i feel so alone, and every time i pray to God no one answers.
No. 994060
>>994036>>994036I disagree with your vaccine opinion but have you checked out
https://jablessjobs.work/? This could be helpful. Good luck, anon.
No. 994064
>>993985That would definitely be up to you long term if you feel that medication helps. Even temporary hospitalisation could help, if that's what you meant by only being medicated for about two weeks, and sometimes therapy can aid in the paranoia/delusions depending on where they stem from. Starting with a therapist could be a good first step so that way you can discuss it with a professional who can help you find out what's up and then can give you a variety of options.
Medication worked for me short term, yet after a few months I usually started getting more side effects and it affected my mentality greatly, sometimes worse than where I started since a few doctors insisted that I would need it for the rest of my life. It just made me suicidal since it just didn't feel like me anymore since the drugs were technically changing brain chemistry. I'm schizoaffective/obsessive compulsive so I went through the whole catalogue from benzodiazepines, antidepressants, antipsychotics, etc. Yet once I could tell I could handle the paranoia/delusions and the anxiety it caused by myself or the situation passed, it no longer felt necessary. A good therapist did the most. I also qualified for a fantastic hypnotherapist and that weirdly worked out a few complexes, as well.
So hopefully as long as you can get these thoughts out to someone and find some order in all of this, you'll know yourself better and pick the right option for you. The sooner you start the process, the sooner it might get solved. Best of luck.
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God, there's this fucking asshole singing and literally screaming right now and I can hear him from here while he sings along to his stupid-ass christian music, I can't stand it anymore this shit should be illegal, what makes him think that everyone wants to hear him and his nightmarishly loud music?
No. 994078
>>994053I'm not in Canada, but I haven't thought of self-learning a trade through YT. You don't have to get vaccinated to go to uni where I live, and likely I'll go next year to a trade school. I'm glad you understand my concerns. I was actually about to get it done with until my dad got thyroid cancer a month after his shot.
>>994065Huh, somehow it didn't occur to me to search for things like this. Thanks for understanding, it's appreciated, really.
No. 994088
>>994064Huh, I didn’t consider hypnotherapy, that’s interesting. And if a good therapist is enough I would rather avoid medication. I guess it would be a better idea to get help seeing as it has already progressed to something more, but seeing someone similar talk about it honestly and casually helps, I would never tell anyone but my immediate family about this. Plus, with so many people my age being like ‘adhd/depression/tics/pan/demigirl’ i felt paranoid about being like them.
And I know it’s not anything to celebrate, but you’re obsessive compulsive and schizo affective too?? Wtf I think this is how astrologyfags feel when them see someone of the same sign.
No. 994089
>>993964Thanks
nonny. I wish I could send you a card instead
No. 994097
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>>993938I would kill 20,000 men for your Christmas card
No. 994114
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My mom is being passive aggressive towards me for… being sick. I caught a really bad cold a couple days ago, and it's the sickest I've been in like two years. Luckily it's not Covid or strep, but it's still pretty bad. I can't stop coughing, my tonsils are swollen, my voice is gone, and my chest hurts. My mom is angry because her birthday is a week from today and she thinks she's going to be sick on her birthday because of me.
Meanwhile, a few weeks ago she asked me to write a vignette about my favorite memories of her for her birthday. I've had to restructure it into a poem because I honestly don't remember more than brief snippets of happy memories with her. It feels like the happy memories are being drowned out by negative ones, which are so much more vivid in my mind. I feel bad, because I know we've done fun things over the years, but they're just not what I remember. I remember very little of our trip to Disneyworld, for instance, but I vividly remember the time she threatened to punish me for crying at a school conference. I don't remember catching my first fish, but I remember how she ruined my graduation over me giving a slice of cake to my dad, who she's divorced from. I don't remember the first time I rode a horse with her, but I remember slaving away on a drawing to give her for her birthday only for her to hate it and insult it. Am I just a fundamentally negative person who remembers sad things more prominently? Am I just at a stage in my life where I'm particularly resentful of her? I don't know.
I guess it's just very hard to write a nice, pithy vignette about someone while they're demeaning you for being sick.
No. 994119
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My ex boyfriend let his best friend steal my favorite stuffed bunny that I sewed myself and gave to his his girlfriend. It's been years and it still makes me depressed. I'm not with him anymore but it just boggles my mind how others can be so careless with my close personal treasures. This isn't my bunny btw it's just an image i found but it looks similar
No. 994207
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>>993938Please don't let that get you down anon, they don't deserve the time and love it took to make those cards anyway. If I could draw I would make you a digital Christmas card, but I can't so please accept this cow pic instead.
No. 994223
>>994088Wow, what are the odds?! It seemed familiar to what I dealt with so I felt the need to respond to you. I still get the "seeing people out of the corner of my eye" thing but it's typically nothing.
But yes! Literally talking to someone who doesn't really judge solved like 50% of it, the rest felt like will power and pretty much self assurance. It does suck, since as you said, it seems like everyone has some weird stuff going on. But you deserve to get better just as much as they do.
Definitely see if insurance can set you up at a decent clinic, read as many reviews on psychs and stuff too since it'll make a huge difference. After an intake, it might be partially or completely covered depending on the situation. Try to avoid the drug pushing type too, they're the most annoying lol.
No. 994225
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The ''cast to TV'' button is taking over and it makes me so paranoid. It's on YouTube now and even lots of porn sites. I hate knowing I'm like two accidental clicks away from streaming what I'm watching onto my family's devices.
No. 994238
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i had a party the other night and my friends bf was drunk and cuddling me on the couch, it was really nice, i had a crush on him way before they even got together so i was trying to relish the moment but at the same time i didn’t want to make my friend feel bad or jealous (even though he was cuddling me and i was literally just sitting there). i value our friendship way more than this scrote. but in that moment i didn’t want to move or get up, it’s been 2 years since ive cuddled with or kissed anyone. im so touch starved and lonely. i just want a cute boy to hold me i want to feel something
No. 994274
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Yo this hair dye is a fucking lie! I used to neutralize yellow tones on my already lightened hair and all it did was turn it a few shades darker, like a dark ash blonde instead of the “ice platinum blonde” it promised.
Fuck L’Oreal
No. 994278
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>>994274try and get some clarifying shampoo bby, toners can be gotten out with some elbow grease. sorry that happened though, that's bullshit
De Lorenzo has an amazing silver shampoo, it's super potent but will get you white/silver pretty much instantly
No. 994326
I've been talking to a guy and when he first brought up visiting me, I said sure, in the future, and he instantly bought tickets even though we didn't really discuss the details. I was praying the COVID regulations would lead to flights being canceled and me being able to think things over again, now I just feel pressured. He also just assumed he could stay with my family, I told him to book a hotel, but they couldn't give him a room for the last night and he wants to stay with me instead of moving hotels, my parents obviously do not like the idea (which is fair, this is their house). The thing is that this connection has been the best thing that happened to me lately and yet all I feel is anxiety and dread now, when all I enjoyed was how low pressure this situation was. My parents are pretty conservative too, so I'll have to listen to them preach about me staying with him in the hotel room too, why didn't I move out already, I'm so tired of being judged.
No. 994337
>>994225When I was a
kpopfag I accidentally pressed it whilst watching a girl group dance, and it streamed to my brother's TV and he freaked the fuck out and thought "Chinese were hacking him" kek
No. 994387
>>994376What a fucking nightmare. I once completely stopped going to the nearest little shop from my flat because the cashier remembered what I bought and small talked about it.
It's dumb social anxiety but fuck I hated it so much, it almost made me sick.
No. 994405
>>994334I know the feeling. I hope you find a friend,
nonny.
>>994371Proud of you for cutting off ROGD-chan, instead of getting sucked in.
No. 994411
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I feel like there's nothing for me to do.I don't have many interests and I do the same things daily.I have few irl friends who have no time.My few internet friends are busy with their lives too.I know that it would be helpful if I made new friends but I feel I'm too boring and sad not to be annoying so it would be fruitless and it's a thought loop that goes around over and over
No. 994424
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All I want for Christmas is for Mariah Carrey to FINALLY be cancelled so that I never have to hear that godawful song she refuses to let die anymore. I can't even understand how she got to be what she is now, she isn't relevant at all, she only has one or two songs that anyone knows, and IDK but it's just fucked to me that she made an entire career out of pretending to not be white and everyone goes along with it.
Seriously, I have never met anyone who is not sick of her or that tacky ass Xmas song. She has a McDonald's commercial with it now & she lip synchs it horribly while eyefucking herself in the camera lens. She isn't nearly as talented as she thinks, the bulk of her "good" songs are just good production. How is it that she can keep dragging that tired ass song that nobody even likes out every year?
No. 994439
>>994436She
was, she's been pretty stale for a while now.
No. 994448
>>994442>The fact that men argue about the issues of male contraception but don’t realise the hell the pill/coil/implant puts women through makes me furiousliterally the only reason we don't have male bc is because men don't want to admit they're too pussy to handle a few uncomfortable side effects- which for them is worse than having to just jizz in a woman without a condom. Why
would they care? They already have it the easiest when it comes to reproduction.
No. 994453
>>994442>>994448me again, one more thing- we as a society should maybe stop saying "men can't/don't realize/understand/accept X/Y/Z!!" when it comes to women's issues because they absolutely DO realize. They DO get it- that's why when a woman stands up for herself or tries to hold a man accountable for his shit, the
victim blaming & infantilization of the woman always begins.
They are fully aware of how they treat us & pretending to be dumb, emotional, helpless little boys is literally part of their grooming tactic. Men know women care more in general for other people so they manipulate that to brainwash women into passively making excuses for men like this that implies they're all functional retards who need to be pitied and helped along instead of just predators working a system. If men were all really that emotional and retarded, it wouldn't be so impossible to fight the patriarchy.
No. 994456
>>994431it's not a one drop rule to call yourself biracial when you ARE biracial, dumb fuck
idc if there's only one or more "one drop rule" sperg, the fact that you don't even use the terminology correctly just expounds the retardation all over the board
No. 994469
>>994448This kinda reminded me of the fact that in the US, women’s essentials like pads/tampons/birth control are
still counted as “luxury” items, therefore are taxed. Yet stuff like male condoms/razors are not, like????
I know the tax is small, but it builds up, and to call something like mensuration a ‘luxury’ to have and to pay extra for astounds me, especially now when people today are trying to be “progressive”
No. 994481
>>994462^^ this. I know society has always been against women, but even today, when it’s so in your face, people don’t call it out.
Women get hit harder when they do something “wrong” online, compared to the guys who get away Scott free with pedophilia. Even movements like the MeToo gets a negative stigma because “well the girl could be lying”. I like my guy friends and all, but I can’t tell you how many times they’ve talked negatively about the movement as if it’s an attack on them
No. 994482
>>994477This. She's white passing and her father left when she was 3, she was raised in Long Island by her white mother. White privilege. Find me one fully nonwhite artist from her era that can still prance around like her and push her ancient songs.
>>994480looooooooooooooooool, k.
No. 994486
>>994481Pretty much the only way to fight the patriarchy is for women to band together and help each other- but I mean with like REAL issues. Example: you & 3 women you know are stuck living with an
abusive moid bc you can't make enough money as him to live alone? All 3 of you pool together and get a place!
No. 994487
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>>994474he's not actually
mariah herself thought so too until she took a dna test
both of His parents are black, his mom is Venezuelan
so yes mariah carey is biracial
No. 994495
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>>994487his american dad
n pls shutup about her white privlage, she grew up in segregated ass long island - shit's literally a sundown town depending once you leave the black side and Maraih LIVED on the white side
No. 994499
>>994494her retarded ass stans, who else?
I'll also say this, Mariah Carey's white fans fucking hate the fact that she's half black and wish she was full white. I hate going on their boards/twitter spaces/fan congregation
No. 994507
>>994502How would she be traumatized for being biracial if "others think she's white", & she lives in a white segregated upper class neighborhood?
Aside from that, everyone get bullied, grow the fuck up and get over it. It's not like she ever had to live in a shithole bc she was biracial.
No. 994529
>>994506Stop trying to talk for the whole race retard. Your ass was the one who brought up her race and said she wasn't black at all. My ass posted proof of her black dad And his black parents and you still wanna call her a quadroon. She is biracial, has always said that she is biracial ie. she has never "one drop rule"d herself as black - her mom is fucking white and Mariah knows that she, herself, doesn't look like the stereotypical mixed girl. But, it's still her heritage and her fucking life, why the fuck shouldn't she allowed to talk about it?? Cuz monoracial people had it rougher??? Fuck off, girlie, it's not a goddamn competition!!
at this point, we might as well talk about lightskin privelage and desirability politics, see you on lsa
No. 994534
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>>994529>privelagehehe you’re esl
>see you on lsalearn2integrate plz
No. 994538
>>994531sorryyy if I think yall are one fucking person who repeatingly brings up the one drop rule and misuses it cuz that was the original nona whomst i was replying to thnx
also, dont ever have mixed kids - they are so whinyyy about the racism they face! don't they know monoracial people have it worse?!? white privilage lol
No. 994541
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>>994534im just a simple retard who cant spell, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
No. 994566
>>994562just report & move on
>>994558Pretty sure I already know the answer, but did you say anything to her or anyone at the office about it?
No. 994573
>>994558 >grimaced at it and used 3 different speculumsI don't know how to word this nicely but was she having trouble 'accessing' things?
I've read of anons with vaginismus or just exam anxiety having a horrible time because they tense up, then the gyno rather than going gentle just powers through or acts annoyed by it.
No. 994574
>>994573She asked if I knew I had a "deep vagina" and asked if it were really my first exam. She also pointed out a vein on my labia and seemed freaked out by it and asked if I knew it was there.
>>994572My planned parenthood was dirty and blared The Fresh Prince of Belair every time I went in. I live in Michigan
No. 994584
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>>994334I relate heavily. Many such cases. I think half the problem is no one reads anymore. Just regurgitates hot takes from Twitter without any thought toward material analysis. Libfem shit is essentially PR for the porn industry and sexist gender theory and identity politic queer theory bull fucking shit.
No. 994620
>>994584I wouldn't listen to the words of a fat subhumans academic, they are by nature reactionaries and will lead you astray
blessed are the fit for they shall inherit the earth
No. 994627
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I legit don't know what I'm doing wrong in dating. Everything is going very good and suddenly the guy just kinda dips out. One day he brings me gifts, sends me hearts and messages 3 times a day and the next it's one word replies.
I don't mess shit up AFAIK, I still act the same, message the same way. Can't identify what goes wrong. I'm definitely not ugly and I'm not too awkward. We get to the touching/kissing phase and they lose interest. Do they get scared of commitment? What happens? Or do they find someone else? Do I say something wrong?? Am I too cold? Who the fuck knows.
I'm just so fucking sick of this. I never know what to expect, I try to lower my expectations but they still disappoint. What I hate the most is the pre-ghosting phase we get into, replies become slow and dragged out and it's so boring and frustrating. I always match their tempo of replies so the convos get so slow. I always get tingles when I get a notification and get disappointed it's not them. Then I realize they lost interest and just stop writing them too.
Honestly I'm too tired for this. I wish I could read minds and just not bother with these fuck boys who just wanna keep girls around in their orbit.
No. 994675
>>994460The pill made me suicidal and stunted my sexual development when I took it as a teenager. In the future, I think it's going to be one of those things we look back on and wonder how on earth anyone thought it was a good idea like radium water and over the counter cocaine.
>>994517I know it's different for everyone but I prefer my male gyno, though I have had some great female gynos. I had a horrible experience with a female gyno who insulted me when I was in too much pain to get an exam for my pain. She thought I was exaggerating my endo and what turned out to be vaginismus because I "wasn't letting" her do the exam. She told me to go back on birth control even after I told her about my experience. My male gyno referred me to a pelvic floor therapist and never dismissed me or creeped me out. In a way, I think because he has never experienced it before he treats it very clinically. There wasn't a feeling of how I "should be" but just the physical facts. I felt like I was treated in the same way as if I had gone into a doctor for torn shoulder. If any of you have endo, check out Nancy's Nook, there are tons of reviews of gyno clinics and surgeons.
No. 994687
>>994278>>994288Thanks nonnas, I still have some clarifying shampoo left and one of them has viniger known to remove dyes and toners so I’ll probably use that.
>>994287Not all box dyes are truly awful if you know your color shade, just this one.
No. 994737
>>994729Because this is the way things are designed now. If an individual can support themselves, they can stand up for themselves. Vulnerable people can always be manipulated, hence why nobody can afford to move out of their parent's house or get out of some middle class asshole's $800/mo spare room with a list of house rules you have to follow.
Today is your birthday? I'm sorry you're down, but I wanna wish you a happy birthday anyway bc I hope you get a sweet surprise today that turns it all around and makes you smile. Wish I knew how to do the site-allowed heart emoji but I don't, so (heart) for you!
No. 994743
>>994659Degrees are just a job ticket now, I'm a STEMfag and I regret not doing something like marketing or communications. I'd make the same shit pay in some office without as many grey hairs from stress.
Pretty much everyone is fucked, no matter the degree.
No. 994746
>>994715nayrt but if you choose philosophy as a major while aware there are really few places to fill as a professor you're likely not studying to get a job, which means you're privileged, whereas with STEM you can ascend socially and make money.
the idea humanities are reserved to people who don't have to work, or are a pastime for the rich and powerful only, actually dates back to antiquity (look up "otium").
No. 994748
>>994743People with communications degrees say the same thing, lol. I think the problem is that the jobs that people go for based on pay/stability might not be jobs they're exactly suited for which makes it harder for them than others.
Why aren't aptitude/job placement tests a thing anymore??
No. 994752
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Anyone ever look in the mirror and can’t believe that you’re in your body? Sometimes i get those episodes randomly out of no where
No. 994773
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I WANT TO DATE, I WANT TO HAVE A CUTE FLIRT WITH SOMEONE, I WANT TO GET MARRIED AAAAHHH but online dating sucks, don't know how to go out and meet new people, and my friend's single friends are either not my type or not my kind of people at all. I'm so goddamn ready to settle down but I don't want to be (nor come off as) desperate either.
No. 994777
>>994756I have an older brother who is extremely narcissistic and
abusive so I try to avoid him, and I had an older sister but she died too. You're right, it only gets harder. The 40 hour work week was designed with men with families at home in mind, not people like us. I hope that you're doing alright right now, anon. I hope you have someone right now who loves you.
>>994760>>994764>>994769If there's this many of us, there should totally be a thread for it. Nobody understands what it's like to lose a parent until it happens. The forced independence changes you. The lack of definitive emotional support changes your worldview. It makes it really easy to tell who gets coddled by their parents and who doesn't.
No. 994779
>>994746>you're likely not studying to get a jobPlenty of people are memed into the belief that any liberal arts degree can get them a job. People do it explicitly because it is so accessible.
STEM grads do not trend from poor backgrounds, sorry to burst your bubble.
STEM is majority male, white, and privileged.
No. 994782
>>994748>Why aren't aptitude/job placement tests a thing anymore?That would require someone who actually knew things about the job to be involved in the hiring process, which they don't want to do.
>>994751Damn, I guess it's just shit for everyone. At this point I think most job postings are just data farms and there are very few real jobs behind them.
I make less now doing cancer research than I did waiting tables in high school.
No. 994791
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>>994773Read a bit of /r/breakingmom, that should fend off the yearning for a good while
No. 994794
>>994777I've never thought about the 40 hour work week but maybe that's why I've always felt suffocated with full time, my siblings, trying to finish school. When we lived together I cleaned, did trash, pet cleaning, laundry, groceries, coupons, homework, work, and a little of my own hobbies. I used to cry in the shower after work from the stress and finally got a break when we all split up. Now we will probably move back in together due to jobs here not hiring full time. I'm not looking forward to it as much as I love my siblings because they've all got some problems. You're right about the coddled by parents bit too since one of my friends can basically fuck off at any job or quit whenever he wants because he has his parents home and somewhat money to land on. There's no place to go but debt if an issue in income or bills happens without family/financially stable family.
No. 994796
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Was peacefully lurking on one forum today and stumbled upon an idiot, who decided to enlighten everyone with his off-topic opinion about how men are no drama and bear no grudges, whereas women are more vengeful and vindictive. He concluded it after comparing the way moids interact with each other on 4choid and the way women interact with each other on Guru gossip and the like. This fuck can't realize that the only reason for that is anonymity, on every male dominated gossip(y) forum they behave so obnoxiously autistic (especially with their doxxing power-trip obsession) that most gg women can hardly compete. I know that's a wrong place to say this lol but, how tf women can possibly be more vindictive than men anyway? We are generally more compassionate and merciful, whereas they are crueler. Pretty tired of male hot takes on gender anyway. They all should shut the fuck up already and stop ruining my internet experience.
No. 994813
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A series of minivents:
#1 I'm PMS-ing and despite the fact that the previous month I did not have the usual suicidal thoughts, now they are back again. Cried during work. Feeling worthless and lonely.
#2 Can't stand my mother's lack of boundaries. She nonchalantly asks things like how much money I have in my bank account or if I merely take my phone in my hand she starts asking away if I'm about to text someone, and if yes, who is it? Is it a ~guy~? ~Are we dating?~ And she's trying to push me to date people I barely know or never met. If I mention a male coworker I exchanged LITERALLY 2 WORDS with, she tells me to invite him to go somewhere with me on the weekend. I cannot.
#3 I suspect that this is also due to premenstrual insanity but I cannot switch off my thoughts about the person I could have become if I made different choices in life and take more risks and get out of my comfort zone.
Person I could have become? Mature, independent, intelligent, active, warm and social.
Person I am? Dependent on others (a literal womanchild), avoidant and lazy, doesn't even read anymore or does anything that requires effort, just mindlessly browses in her free time, cut off all of her friends and literally has noone because of her fear of emotional intimacy.
I ruined my own life. I have only myself to blame.
#4 I'm fucking freezing even though I'm huddled in a blanket, just had a hot shower and set the heating to 24 celsius
No. 994829
>>994813I feel you, nona. In all of the points but especially the mom one. They obviously know what scrotes are like so why not let us be single in peace. Mine keeps accusing me of being lesbian but I wish I was kek
I hope your hot shower warmed you up a little and you’ll feel better soon!
No. 994832
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these antidepressants are kicking my ass. the nausea is unreal, I just want to eat.
No. 994931
>>994891some of the hobby boards are fine and i also use it for trading and getting free stuff in games.
>>994894didn't realize that was out on mobile now since i used to have issues with ad blocking apps not working. thanks, anon.
No. 994994
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Fuckckckc I have to finish these last missing assignments but I really don't want to record myself speaking in fucking German. Plus it's already past 1.am but I promised myself I would turn them in by the end of today (yesterday now). I need someone to come hold me at gunpoint and make sure I actually start doing shit instead of wasting all my time doing nothing. How do I turn myself around and get my shit together instead of getting overwhelmed by stress and giving up again?
No. 995010
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My 6 year old brother really likes Yotsuba so I ordered him the first volume for Christmas, but someone stole my package from the mailroom. I’m so pissed. Why would someone do that!!! Luckily there’s a manga shop nearby that has it in stock but ugh people suck
No. 995017
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I don't want to work. I don't want to study. I don't want to go to university. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to leave the house.
No. 995038
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>>995010Buy a big envelope, stuff some of your shit or soggy food wrapped up inside so it looks full, write a fake name and address, then leave it there for them to take. There will be justice for your brother.
No. 995040
>>993662This reminds me of my nonna's tiramisu. People seem to think italians are all amazing chefs and nonnas spend hours labouring over perfect food, and while some of the food she makes is great her tiramisu is:
store brand coffee, store brand cream, and store brand biscuits, all drowned in alcohol and coffee
She makes it pretty much every time there's a family event and everyone has a reluctant tiny piece of it which they all very slowly gulp down. Italians can and a lot of the time are very fucking cheap.
No. 995062
>>995030>seething that you're not meSorry,
nonnie. I chewed up and spat out all the other good ones.
No. 995088
>>994125ayrt and I'm sorry for the late reply
nonny, I would really like to do this if the offer is still open! I'm not sure how to go about contacting you though.
>>994097>>994207Thank you kind nonas… I feel a lot better now. And the cow is so cute!
No. 995118
>>993458I get so annoyed at one of my friends for no logical reason. I've known her for years and she's an incredibly sweet person, she has never done anything to wrong me, but years ago I was told by her other friend that she had a crush on me, with screenshots and everything. And ever since then, I just don't like talking to her, I hate being seen that way, I hate it when my friends develop crushes on me, especially because her friend was trying to force me to date her because "she needed someone to take care of her", and she wanted me to move to her country so I could do that which made me feel sick. I'm not gonna get into a relationship to be someone's babysitter, and I don't even like girls.
I know that this isn't her fault, she has never told me she has a crush on me herself, and it would be logical to assume that she's no longer crushing on me, but the way she talks to me, the way she acts towards me, it just reminds me of the way I acted towards people I had unrequited crushes on.
I've tried talking less to her and I'm still trying to, since she doesn't have a lot of topics to talk about either, but I feel bad thinking that I could be unintentionally hurting her feelings.
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>>995122I'll eat it with u anon
No. 995141
>>995010This made me seethe wtf
You're a very good sister though
nonnie No. 995158
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>>995030>>995089If it makes you feel any better I'm an autistic NEET with a supportive husband, he loves, makes me food, buys me whatever I want(but I don't ask for much other then vidya and books) and pleasures me
I'd probably kill myself If I didn't have him
No. 995184
>>995158Same exact situation here
nonnieWe are blessed
No. 995186
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>>995158>>995173>>995174Well I mostly wake up at my own time, It could either be 6:30 or 10:00 AM, by the time I have woken up he's usually made breakfast, always an Omelette with usually some juice
I spend most of the day on my Laptop, browsing forums, binging movies and tv series, usually from the 2000's and from different countries
I feed myself on the leftover's in the fridge which I reheat in the microwave, when my husband comes home first thing he does is take a shower and takes an hour rest
after that he makes one of his dishes, usually with big portions and can feed me for about 4 days(I don't eat much food anyways)
we usually talk and watch a film I've already watched and I usually lay right next to him the whole time
as for my husband I don't think he cares much, I think he's with me cause he feels he has to be out of obligation and he can't comprise him beliefs
were both odd people who can't find our place in the world and so we ended up together and we like it that way, Its splendid isolation but with a companion
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>>995204LUCY WE JUST TOOK THIS WAY TOO FAST
YOU KNOW THAT SOME GOOD THINGS IN LIFE JUST AREN'T MEANT TO LAST
WE'LL GO OUT SEPARATE WAYS, IT MAY HURT IN TIME
I THINK WE'LL BE JUST FINE
OHHH LUCY LUCY LUCY!!!!!!!
LUCY
No. 995216
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>>995207Kek. That's hilarious. I'm not even mad.
No. 995360
>>995308Personally, I am insane at home but also I think that I must seem like a freak even to people that don't know me at all, so there's that.
I remember right after I finished high school I stalked some of my former classmates on the internet and I actually found the tumblr blogs of quite a few of them. It was all black and white, depression, effy stonem, self hatred, the kind of thing that was popular back then. And they were all the normiest of all normies. That was definitely an interesting experience.
No. 995371
>>995158I was living that same life years ago but
>I'd probably kill myself If I didn't have himSame. He left one day and that was my reaction. I was depending on this guy as my everything thinking a split was near impossible. We were married. 'I'd kill myself without you' is never an okay way to feel in a relationship. That's the kind of thing you need to get help for now and not when or if the worst comes to be and you two split. No joke I've been on wards with women who all thought that a scrote leaving equals.. okay my life is over now. You can't live like that.
No. 995372
I don't want to do anything, I can't get myself to start. There are two things I'm supposed to be doing, studying and a present that needs some time and care to be assembled. And I can't do any of it, they both have the same deadline but the studying is somewhat more important. And yet it's like this pressing thought in the back of mind, I have to do the present! And I end up floating in a weird state of nothing, I can't decide what to do. I feel pressured by both so I end up doing nothing. Is that normal? Am I actually just lazy and really bad at prioritising? I feel like you should be able to do one thing and then work a bit on the other, but for some reason it makes my brain stop working. Like when I have an appointment and I have two hours left before it starts. I could potentially use that time to do anything productive, but the thought of having to get ready and leaving the house and getting there and doing whatever feels so overwhelming, I end up locked into place and can only do very simple tasks like cleaning or browsing the internet. And after an appointment like that it's almost a weird rush that I need to relax from and even if it's over in the afternoon, I will spend all the time I have until I go to bed just doing nothing. It's like I can only do one thing per day, I don't get it. I feel so useless and stupid because of it, like is this as much as I can handle with my stupid little peabrain? Why do I have no self-discipline? Feels like my mother was right after all, she used to scream at me so often for being lazy and needing her to shout at me so I get started on chores. I get most easy tasks done after a while (like having to hype myself up for 40 min to take the trash out), but as soon as I realize that it will be boring or harder than doing nothing I just give up. I hope it can all be over soon. I feel locked in my head, how can other people just get up and do things? Is it this hard for everyone and I just don't know because I don't have any friends to talk to?
No. 995384
>>995382Give him to me,
nonnie. My sex drive is less than zero.
No. 995385
>>995382>the mealReady-made stir-fry sauce + noodles
>the cleaningWashes a dish
No. 995390
>>995382I was about to say the same as
>>995384 but then scrotes with 'low libidos' are often just guys who prefer to wack it to crazy porn and then deny it it til the end of time. You could offer them any type of sex on a plate and they'd say no because their energy is going into that. Shit thing is you can never tell what's truly going on when a guy is claiming low libido
No. 995395
>>995384If you own a scrote with a higher libido, I would gladly make a trade
>>995390Nah, most of the times he complies but he feels… robotic during the act. I asked him if ever felt attraced to men, which he denies, because I wonder if he's a closet gay.
No. 995402
>>995399 >Not all men This made me kek
None of us know the reason but why stick around while not matched in that way? I've been left over my low libido, even when I was giving plenty of 'just for your sake' bjs. Not even mad. It was a poor match.
No. 995404
>>995402>This made me kek Because it's true? Telling someone her bf is not attracted to her because he has a lower sex drive than her is spiteful.
As you said we don't know the reason, and there's perfectly benign ones.
No. 995411
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Being a TERF, I do use internets to keep up to date with trannies and their latest ridiculousness, but sometimes I need to step away to calm the fuck down.
I just went to my usual knit/crochet site, Ravelry, and saw this in the HOT RIGHT NOW category.
Can't even get away from this shit when trying to avoid their pronouns, fake dicks, mutilated tits, etc. ON A KNITTING SITE.
Extra irritated because I've got a web funeral in 15 minutes and wanted to get into a calm frame of mind.
No. 995412
>>995402We're not in a serious relationship, but we get along pretty well, and we both enjoy the erotic tension between my high demands and his faint indifference. It can get annoying tho. But it's not easy to find a scrote that I can get along with, so I enjoy what is to be enjoyed in the meantime.
>>995404I think women here are so used to pornsick 4chon/reddit scrotes they date that they tend to forget that other kind of males exist.
No. 995416
>>995409> which I have been quite successful in recentlyHow?
t. Friendless loser
No. 995422
>>995412I was in a somewhat similar boat and it resulted in a lot of guilt om my end. We both had a high libido but I was aroused by very specific things whereas he was not. I thought my standards were too high or that I was simply perverted by pornography and other influences in media. My boyfriend insisted otherwise, however, and was consistently supportive of my sexuality and how it is healthy. He has always been respectful of and patient with me regarding our intimacy. As our relationship progressed and he became more and more comfortable around me, we became more compatible sexually as well. I kept communicating my needs and I actually ended up allowing him to further explore his sexuality as well. He realised he really enjoys what I like as well, and now it comes naturally to him to engage sexually in a way that meets my needs perfectly. We have incredible sex now, but it is all thanks to the pure love we feel for each other, alongside respect, patience, clear communication and sufficient comfort to be awkward. Sometimes things simply didn't work out, and that was fine. We tried again another moment if the time was right, and usually we saw progress. Sex really is mainly about having a connection and making it stronger, nothing more. I believe that all of those extra frivolities (turn ons) simply come naturally once you have a strong foundation. For context, the things I liked were: praise and verbal teasing. He was a bit awkward at first because he wasn't used to it, but now that we're more aligned and close, it comes naturally to him and he genuinely enjoys it. I feel like his entire personality has actually changed somewhat, in a positive way. He is way more comfortable around me and we're simply really aligned. We match so well but it only keeps getting better due to experiencing more together. So have faith and remain peaceful!
No. 995428
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what a piss ass day
>can't sleep until 2 hours before i was going to play with a friend
>wake up and text that i'm ready but they've left the computer
>fall asleep within 20 minutes
>miss my gym appointment 5 hours later because suddenly i could fucking sleep
>wake up feeling gross and sweaty
>partner's work event cancelled because of rain
>no archery, no shooting, no golf, so nobody wants to come anymore
>i fucking took off a day for that
>manager is being a dick because i'm too slow
>fuck him, if he wants to work with my lack of sleep and back pain i wish i could give it to him instead
>still finish earlier and then have to help out even slower teammates
>still raining so i'd uber home but i'm out of data
>walk for 40 minutes in the heavy rain
>ass is itching
>i got a yeastie
>scrub myself extra clean because i feel super disgusting
>skin dries out from too much showergel
>found out my mother or brother went through my stuff
>weird itchy back pain still present
i just want to tear my skin off nonnies
No. 995430
>>995416This is going to sound bizarre and nonsensical to a lot of anons, but I unironically think it is related to manifestation and maturity. I haven't been doing anything different in particular, I've just been focused on myself and becoming more confident. I've been respecting myself and others, curating my style, attending events and participating in activities I like. Through all of this I feel like I've been attracting more healthy people. Girls at events or social media, who live in my neighborhood, have been reaching out to me. I responded to them positively and openly, since that is how I truly feel, and in turn I've been able to develop healthy, normal friendships with girls nearby. I also believe this is how I've been able to attract a boyfriend. I was like you just a few months ago. I was an extreme shut-in and had suffered from terrible depression for a few years. But I had been making steady progress regardless and I feel it has skyrocketed this year. I believe in you, anon!!
No. 995432
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I'm so fucking sick of acid reflux, it seems like a seasonal thing or something, because it goes away for like 4 months and then comes back again, unfortunately this time before Christmas which is extra shitty. I pop a omeprazol when i need it which helps a lot, but my main problem is that i eat too much without realizing, i don't know how to be mindful of my portions, i'm not fat, i'm actually skinny and that's why i'm not used to mind how much i eat. I'm also kinda dehydrated because every time i drink water acid reflux comes back immediately, i wish i could afford to eat more healthy too, i love vegetables they never give me problems but they're too pricey were i live
No. 995434
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I caught my bf masturbating to a gym picture of his friend that she sent him. He then had sex with me doing the pose she was in on the picture. I did not fully process what the fuck was going on but I am sure he was thinking of fucking her while using me as a placeholder. I feel so sick and angry now, I cried and almost threw up.
No. 995435
>>995432Wait i just called my doctor, apparently there's
is something like "seasonal reflux", but mostly affects people that suffer from allergies, and i do suffer from a lot of allergies, lmao that explains a lot. That also explains why bananas of all things
triggered it the most, bananas are connected to latex allergies, i fucking hate bananas
No. 995438
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>>995371Okay but I have no body else, I could probably go back to work but I don't wanna, I'd rather die then go out in the world
I just hate the world and the stupid people that inhabit it
I feel peace in the solitude. I feel free but I also wanna be taken care off, which is what my husband provides me
No. 995439
>>995432I used take omeprazol for a stomach acid, after a while my stomach acid kinda stopped and I developed ibs. My dad started taking omeprazol for an ulcer, he has to take it to prevent the risk of the ulcer turning cancerous I think. He now has crazy bad ibs symptoms. That's only 2 people but I swear it fucked us both up. Years later I'm ok again but if I take one antacid say at xmas I get an upset stomach the next day. I hate trying to address one issue and getting another. It's like taking antibiotics for a uti and getting trush form them.
Is your 'lower stomach' ok after taking them?
No. 995440
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>>995434Here’s some Starbucks and Britney to give you the wake up call. Fucking dump him. There’s so many men out there who are total dickheads. Give yourself the gift of self respect this Christmas nonna, he ain’t worth the tears.
No. 995454
>>995444Oh yes how liberating, being an adult woman who retreats from the world and is completely dependent on a man
imagine being this much of a pick-me
No. 995455
>>995445OT but this happened to me but not with a scrote, i was at the dentist and said dentist in question was very shitty and downright
abusive, they treated me very badly and kinda mentally scarred me but i couldn't defend myself because i was so shocked and dazed (by anesthesia) that i couldn't fight back, it was like i was trapped in my own mind while she was trowing insults at me, i was only 13yo. Sometimes i daydream on finding that bitch and sucker punching her, because i know for a fact i wasn't her first nor last
victim No. 995457
>>995422I'm glad things turned out for the better for both of you. Good relationships need work from both parts. i'm glad you both made it.
>>995418Do you have BPD or something ? Your reactions are weird. You could simply have answered "yeah why? i'm hungry." to shut him down and go with your day.
No. 995466
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I'm feeling triggered by the all pick me talking. I didn't get picked and didn't even get dick. I'm going to vent my pick me ways all the way to jaunary and nobody can't stop me.
No. 995467
>>995438I've just seen how bad it is when the 'he'll be my everything forever' plan falls through. I know where you're at right now though.
I got dumped, had a whole crisis and I'm ok again. I was a hopeless case when I was with my ex. In the long run it ending and me having no choice but to pick myself up was the best thing to happen. I never thought I'd say that but it was.
No. 995482
>>995476I have been a comfy NEET during first lockdown, using covid restrictions as an excuse for why I didn't get a job and move out. It's a great feeling, but let's be honest, you can't afford to be a NEET forever if you aren't crazy rich. If you have to be dependant on someone, you know they will leave in a way or another someday, and you will be helpless, alone and miserable.
Disdain for NEETS is called maturity.
No. 995486
>>995472oh shit, didn't realize that my post
>>995465 was unclear. I also think it's cringe and pathetic
No. 995490
>>995482>>995484to be a neet you have to rely on someone for financial aid, either your parents, a sibling or your partner
I think If a woman has to be a NEET why not rely on her husband, exploit the patriarchal system and claim to be "housewife" who does jack shit housework
No. 995497
where i live, the wife is unironically expected and encouraged even to be a 'neet', so to say, and the man the main breadearner and women are really fighting to not let this be the standard so it just feels a little odd kek
>>995491thanks anonymous, very cringe
No. 995516
>>995510The white kids I know aren't raised to be housemaids and mini moms from childhood so yeah times like this I do wish I was white
No need to take everything offensively or see it as bait I don’t mind cooking or cleaning in the general sense
No. 995519
>>995516nta but I think its less about being white and more about western culture, cause I've rarely even seen black american kids help out around the house like I've had too
Western anons really don't understand how horrible non-western cultures can be towards women and girls
No. 995526
>>995523see point here
>>995519 even the most low trash culture in the western world doesn't compare to the level of misogyny outside the west, especially in the muslim world
No. 995572
>>995555As long as you don't have thoughts about ending your life if he ever walks out on you. That's the important thing that anon highlighted. Nobody should be leaning on a scrote as their live or die thing.
It's less about right now and more about how the loss of it would affect you. Life throws changes at us. If you lose your job you'll usually be ok after a while, you find another, if you go through a break up you'll usually get there too. Whearas anons earlier were saying they'd want to die without their husband.
No. 995590
>>995566>How is it not different?The result is the same. Work for an employer and I get my needs met through being given a wage. Be a housewife to my husband and I get my needs met by him giving me money or buying things for me. Both involve exchanging labour for something that I need.
Someone women prefer working, some women prefer being a housewife/NEET/whatever. It's not about one being better than the other.
>>995572>Whearas anons earlier were saying they'd want to die without their husband.Fair enough. I'm not in that situation. I have qualifications that would enable me to go back to a decent wage if I needed to.
No. 995597
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My favorite energy drink changed their recipe and it tastes like utter shit now. Several people on their SNS noticed it too and I also wrote them a mail, but they don't plan to change it back.
I don't get it,they already have a bazillion flavors, why not just make a now one instead of changing the original?
Just to torture their fans? Rockstar was the only energy drink I actually enjoyed,so why??? Just WHY
No. 995635
>>995606There's already a relentless fighter who spams their twitter for months straight now under different names whenever he gets blocked, but even he can't seem to make Rockstar/Pepsi reconsider.
>>995609I (along with others from my European country) noticed it in November, when it was on sale on my local market too. I just posted about it now because I'm craving it terribly. But from what I read, people in the US already had the change in October. And it's true,they really ramped up the advertising and sales offers since then.
I they flop further.
No. 995645
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I know I am sabotaging myself but I geniunely cannot imagine a woman being into me or finding me pretty or attractive or pleasant in any way enough to pursue something with me. I tried dating apps (because it's the only way I can find women into women where I am) and I just felt bad I was so unlikable compared to the women on it, how could one chose my ugly ass over the much more extroverted, cuter and sweeter girls? It was unsuccessful and I got ghosted plenty then gave up. I want to feel desired but even the thought of a girl actually wanting me is literally impossible, incomprehensible to me. It's not like I haven't tried to improve myself, I have, but this feeling remains the same. No woman would want to be with me in any romantic or sexual capacity, and I would feel like an ugly, creepy beast if I tried to 'make moves' on someone when all I would feel in my heart would be that she'd rather be with someone better than me and that I'm being a weird, unappealing creepo.
/pathetic rant over
No. 995660
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Today marks a month since my 22yo cat left me. It hurts a lot, I can't even explain how much.
I wish I could go back in time and spend one more day with her, hug and kiss her.
No. 995674
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>>995666You can also buy mechanics paper towels if no newspaper. They are designed in a way that doesn't leave particles behind and are super sturdy. Plus they make amazing oil blotting paper
No. 995686
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>>995664I swear by this glass cleaner
No. 995691
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I can't believe I'm 26 years old. I can't believe I lost my early 20s to tragedy and mental illness. I feel like I've been in a daze for the past 6 years, just going through the motions. This shit happened so quickly. I can remember my 20th birthday so clearly, I was so excited and hopeful for the future. Time is a fuck.
No. 995703
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>>995691>>995691for me its 28 in two days, honestly after uni, time has flew by so quick and this whole coronavirus shit just made it easier for the days to meld together.
No. 995705
>>995700I get you, I don’t understand the need to write shit in which a woman needs to get raped or some sort of “hurr durr man has sex with pretty woman look” like, fuck off, it’s redundant at this point, it stopped being groundbreaking when Netflix got popular enough to shit a bunch of retarded series every week.
I just want someone to tell me why do I need to see two crusty retards fucking at the very beginning of a series, tell me, what’s the purpose? To show that the guy has sex? Or that the girl is hot? Because that’s honestly unnecessary.
I think I’m so sick of this hypersexualization pandemic, that I’ve become a prude, or maybe I’m just normal and everyone is taking crazy pills, because this is a whole new level of retardation.
No. 995711
>>995703So true! I'll be 29 in 2 months and while I don't mind the aging per se, I feel like I completely wasted 2 years, which makes me sad. Like I'm almost 30 and 2 years just went down the drain, I was literally a NEET when I wanted to be working, studying or traveling.
I hope we all can get our shit together soon and make the best out of our late 20s and 30s!
No. 995762
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I had a breakdown yesterday and I still felt like utter shit this morning. I've been trying to get rid of the feelings of sadness and anger within me with healthy distractions but nothing fucking worked. I caved and cut up my arm. Nothing is deep and I wear long sleeves to work so I'm sure I'll be fine at work at least, but I hate that it came to this. I feel pathetic.
No. 995848
>>995409Samefag, the attention seriously seems to keep multiplying. I was just at an event with primarily girls, aside from approximately four men, of which one was clearly gay. Just when there was a break to socialise, one of the guys caught me off guard and started hitting on me. I wanted to talk to the girls, particularly since they looked really kind, but I still haven't mastered the art of rejection. It was really frustrating again, though. Maybe it is something about being so uninterested or secure in a relationship it attracts romantic interest, or maybe it isn't, but either way it is horribly annoying. I dislike complaining, especially about something as essentially positive as this. However, this just has something so frustrating and unpleasant. I don't know what it is exactly nor how to put it into words. It isn't as though I want to be an undesirable blob. I don't mind men finding me attractive or interesting. But being hit on and approached and chased so much isn't something I want more of. Does anybody understand what I mean or can they relate?
No. 995864
>>995848I'm single, been staying single by choice to fully get over a bad relationship I was in before. Recently I hit the point where I think I could be receptive to dating again. I'm not chasing it but I've taken enough time off to 'heal' already. Even after deciding that lately, couple of different men have approached me and I still went into my usual 'just pretend I don't see or hear them' mode lol
It's hard to not just feel like you're being preyed upon, that and men just love to aim above their own league. It can be insulting at times.
No. 995900
>>995880>>995859I never thought I was, but as I said in a response above, I've been transforming a lot as a person and think I am attractive to other people from what I have been told and am experiencing (and kind of beginning to feel myself, even if it is difficult).
>>995864Indeed, often a bad or untrustworthy character shines through just a few benign, flirtatious comments. To me it also feels like time is being taken away from actually valuable relationships I could be developing. I already have a boyfriend, I don't want more romantic involvement in my life. It is just a waste of time…
>>99588018
No. 995923
>>99591433 isn't old to begin with, but still mature, which I respect. I read in a screenshot from an incel-esque forum how a moid encouraged his ilk to hit on women out of their league, especially since these men tend to be unattractive, low-life individuals (supposedly), because he believed it would be insulting to the woman's ego. So, I don't enjoy giving these men the satisfaction of actually insulting me or affecting my disposition. It also just doesn't really insult me, it rather irks me a little. Even if the man was handsome and respectable, I already have a boyfriend. I really don't care, I just don't want to spend time on flirting and dating and more men right now… Anyway, that is just my experience. At least I am not entirely alone with these opinions.
No. 995961
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Give back my uwu marriage fantasy complete with ever exciting sex and feeling kinda understood, nonnies. I wasn't done with it, it still had some heartfluttering moments and good fapping in it.
No. 995996
>>995914“young 33”
lol, cope especially when anon said she’s 18
No. 996008
I'm applying to universities and struggling a lot with it internally. I come from an abusive, poor household. Despite this I always performed exceptionally at school. I was diagnosed to be highly intelligent and advanced a year. However, I suffered from a burn out in high school and became extremely depressed. I was absent for the majority of the year and overall struggled a lot to simply live. Meanwhile, my situation at home didn't change. I managed to graduate eventually, but with extremely poor grades due to my absence and mental state. Now I am applying to universities that would usually have equated immediate offers but no longer do due to my horrible final grades. It is just such a blow to the face every single time I work on my application. I didn't ask to be abused, I didn't ask for family members to die, I didn't ask to live in poverty, I didn't ask to live this way. I did my best despite all of that but still chances that would be so healthy and befitting to me are stripped from me due to these extenuating circumstances. How is it fair that an intelligent girl is not allowed to go to a university at her level simply because her mother abused her so she could barely muster the energy to take care of herself as a fifteen year old? I feel so abandoned and it seems as if nobody understands. I try to explain it to them but they just don't seem to listen. I feel like I am being punished for things that are already so painful to me. I have to deal with C-PTSD every day alongside the fact that I cannot pursue the dreams I have always had for the same reasons. I just don't know what to do, don't know what to think about. I honestly am beginning to consider writing that my mother was abusive in my applications so that maybe finally somebody will take me seriously. I just feel like nobody listens. Nobody ever takes me seriously when I talk about what I have to endure at home. I still feel guilt well up whenever I talk about how my mother treats me. I just know what I am capable of, I have so much to prove it. But the only things they look at are grades from when I just couldn't take it anymore. I also experienced sexual assault that year and I think everything combined was the tipping point. Please help. How can I still make a strong application that reflects my true abilities? I don't want to sound conceited, but I know I deserve to go to an ivy league school. I know what I can do and so does everybody else around me. I work hard and persevere, I deserve an honest chance and judgement based on my true abilities. Please help!!
No. 996025
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My male ex came out as trans I feel like vomiting is this normal
No. 996035
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my dad's smug behavior is kind of…annoying me
i'm majoring in compsci, right? i got an a, a few b's, and one c. all he can focus on is the fact that these b's could've been a's, and the c could've been higher too. and he does it all in such a smug, haughty, rude way, it pisses me off.
he'll go "oh well u know i graduated magna cum laude" or whatever
and i'm like, mentally going, "okay that's nice dad but you realize you majored in sociology right? i've never scored below an 'a' in a writing course or my few psych classes i had to take for gen ed, i would like to see you try to code a compiler or something then get back to me"
No. 996037
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>>996025You need to celebrate, he's an ex! CLINK CLINK BITCH
No. 996105
>>996083imagine being such a raging pick me on lolcow of all places
if your precious young scrotes, who will all bald and age like milk before 30 anyway, are so naturally attracted to you and your youth, why are you so worried about what 30 year olds are doing? Aren't you supposed to be the better option? So why aren't you being picked kek
No. 996108
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>>996095I mean what’s the point of role playing games if not to self insert. Sorry your friend is annoying but leave aorzea out of this. It’s one of the few mmos that attempts to cater to women.
No. 996110
>>995996I wouldn't go near a 20 year old. I just don't want to date men… who have sons who are already past 20… y'know lol
The exact thing I want is a man my age. That was my whole post. Imagine what you want. You're letting some stream off kek
No. 996137
Posting here to not derail another thread with my porn rant.
God I hate porn. All women ever done is try to satisfy his wants and they just push the dopamine goalpost further. Even if you alter your body to their liking, spend hours of your life removing your bush and get that BBL, develop those sexual pickme skills, the sex will still be empty, performative, and you will not cum.
Fuck it, I wish I could develop and genuinely enjoy violent and gross perversions to make them uncomfortable, to refuse to fuck men unless they perform oral, get asphyxiated, get slapped around, make them drink your piss (still not as bad as cum). Make them learn to like it and they would pretend they do just to cope. Act like they enjoy drinking piss so he's Not Like Other Boys. I'd expect all that without a relationship. But I'm not that simple, and I don't have that power.
It's ironic because the less they'd watch porn the more men would desire and enjoy fucking regular women without the performances. Without having to pretend they're fucking someone else or demanding to fuck a colon. Hell, most of the guys who do no nut november end up curing their ED. But the irl skinner box is just too good.
I'm not sucking any dick, I'm not getting any more razor burn, I'm not doing colon sex, I'm not letting any man hit me without filing a police report after. I hope all porn addicts isolate themselves and die alone rather than inflict their bullshit on any more women. I fucking want to cum too. I've got a working pussy and I've yet to find a man with a properly working brain/dick.
No. 996150
>>996138>rip, i can already tell how she looks>why didn’t you get picked lol this is convincing me that women have no incentive to get rid of the
toxic competition between us and the hypocrisy that a woman who wants to be desired is a “pick-me” but to anons if she isn’t she “must be ugly”
make it make sense
No. 996152
>>996150They read the og post that said one thing and then they just made up stuff that wasn't in the post and sperged. None of that dicussion was even based in reality
Why start drama about being nice to autist anon? They wanted drama, stop giving it
No. 996154
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>>996042here i drew you a pretty picture, sperg-chan
No. 996172
>>996163no, but you seem awfully upset by my taking the piss out of zoomers yourself. curious!
anyway, calling people ugly is your retard award for calling someone else old. what did you expect to happen, OP to smile and say thank you?
No. 996431
>>996046Kek you’re right older women aren’t entitled to young men, it’s actually almost the opposite. I was staying with friends a few weekends ago and their 24yo moid roommate came home at 8am absolutely buzzing that he’d nailed a 33yo woman who he knew from his gym. Most girls I know would be sheepish about sleeping with someone nearby a decade older than them, but he wouldn’t shut up about her age and how stoked he was that he bagged a fit older woman.
Sorry that your college crush has a thing for milfs
nonnie, maybe if you start working out taking good care of yourself today you can pull young studs when you’re in your 30’s.
No. 996438
>>996431Lmfao she admitted to it:
>>996109>he cheated on me with my 55 year old mcdonalds manager so yesFucking hilarious, so her bf is a dirty cheater scum yet it's the women who "are not entitled" and should stay away. Delulu, down to thinking that a 33 years old is in the same group age. Good for the 55 years old woman fucking younger men like that!
I can only hope that OP gets pinkpilled by lolcow sooner or later. Unless she is baiting, of course
No. 996473
>>996008I'm so sorry you had to go through that, It's horrible feeling like you couldn't reach your full potential because of factors outside your control. If you have any kind of tutor or pastoral support at your school please contact them. If you have a teacher you like and trust enough to be open with, talk to them about it; they will know your track record of good grades and could write a good recommendation. Some universities do take extenuating circumstances into account, but it would have to be done through the right channels. Putting it into your application without any evidence will seem unprofessional. If your grades aren't close to the right level, I admit it is unlikely that this will work, but it's absolutely worth trying.
My advice would be to apply to a less prestigious university, and perform as well as you possibly can. It seems like being out of your home situation will make studying a lot easier again, and you'll be able to prove your academic ability. The university might also have resources for therapy and other support; mine offers free therapy and has support groups, so this could be helpful for you. Considering your circumstances, it might actually be nice to temporarily have the lowered pressure of an easier course until you move on. Once you have built up a good foundation of academic work and have worked through some of your issues, you can see if you can transfer to a different university. You can also look into doing a year abroad at a different, more prestigious university, or wait until the end of the course to do a masters elsewhere. You will likely have a personal tutor or pastoral support of some kind to discuss all of this with, but make sure you build up a good amount of high quality work first. Try to build a good relationship with some of your lecturers by being polite, asking intelligent questions, and getting good grades, so that they will vouch for you when you apply to other courses. Obviously, whichever uni you do apply for, they accept people who sound like they really want to be there, so don't let them know your plan beforehand.
I hope things improve for you, and best wishes for your applications.
No. 996497
>>996042>>996046this is the kind of person that will be having mental breakdowns when she hits 30 and develops a plastic surgery addiction. also lmao no woman over 30 wants your toddler boys, I don't even understand where you came up with that
>>996154underappreciated post
No. 996532
>>996523then you're retarded and shouldn't have a pet? leave your banana bread uncovered but don't blame animals when they eat it.
>>996514he sounds like a loser. who gets angry at a cat over
their own laziness?
No. 996572
>>996497I'm the anon who inadvertently started that off by saying you can be "young in some ways" at 33. You can though. The guy I like right now is what I'd describe as the same. 33 and no major baggage or signs of bad habits catching up with his health. Hairline intact, energetic and not weighed down by bitterness over ex wives and custody battles. Ive dated that mess before. I was free and uncomplicated and suddenly I was constantly working around his complications with no appreciation for how my life then became complicated in ways I'm not feeling. Especially if that's taken for granted and one-sided. Thirty somethings just have majorly varying levels of baggage and even health. And then scrotes 15 years your senior still want to nab you up after their second divorce. Men aiming younger just never stops. The gap never seems to want to close..
Tbh if anything comes to be with my age-matched crush I'll be delighted. I just hope my elder-chan heart can cope.
No. 996593
>>996514>>996523He should be happy he got a warning not to leave his food near hungry animals. What if the cat ate something poisonous? I assume banana bread isn't
toxic for cats to eat, I have no idea since I have neither.
>>996532This. It's like that one game about a dad trying to stop a baby from committing accidental sudoku. Your pet's goal is to inhale whatever food you leave in it's reach. Your goal is to not let it kek
No. 996630
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>>996046>mfw 30 years old and currently a 20 year old cutesicle with a giant dick and won't leave me alone until I smoke weed and fuck him>I'm engaged and he knows thisI try not to brag around here but holy shit you are either a moid or a pickme who doesn't know how good life fucking gets in your 30s–granted you worked to have something to offer and got your shit together. You're a fucking cuck.
No. 996644
>>996635I agree, I think it's gross that owners are just ok with letting them jump all over the place and sit their anuses on their counters and dirty shit/piss/litter caked paws. The thought of my dogs jumping on my tables and counters is so hilarious and absurd, to me. Imagine being so trained by an animal you just let it do whatever it likes and blame yourself when it goes on the counter and eats your food. It shouldn't think it's allowed up there. Toxo is definitely a thing because this makes no sense to me.
I decided no dogs are allowed in my bed or on my couches and life is way better for me. I'm the human and they are the animals they are lucky they aren't sleeping in a kennel
No. 996652
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>>996046>>996630>>996071This has been posted before but it makes more sense for women to date younger men, than for men to date younger women.
>men maturing later is bullshit>it is only prevalent now because we excuse and put up with manchild behavior>men in their early 20s are stronger>they have healthy sex drives and a peepee that works>they look their best at this age>women live longer than men on average>a younger man will probably not die before you>if they want to be the provider, they have longer time to do it during your companionship>they still have a zest for life and some goals>younger men are not yet bitter from divorce>by taking the younger hotties while they still have potential we may train a generation of men to be of value, instead of squandering their life away on weed, videogames and porn>older women can teach younger men how to be better lovers for their future female partners No. 996663
>>996659I think I’ve misunderstood you. I assumed “at my work” was a coworker of yours, but I realise now he’s a person coming into the store? That makes it a lot more complicated. If I where you i would nag my superiors to protect me and ban him and if I saw him again I’d give him a vicious verbal flogging, but I am a psycho with anger issues, so…
You’ve taken the right steps. I wouldn’t blame you at all if you wanted to leave because men are psycho and unpredictable.
No. 996696
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>>996616
Pls Mr Cia man, get some coffee your bait is shit
No. 996728
>>996713They perpetuate the same fucking discrimination and exclusion that men have always done. Why radfems fucking come here to begin with? This place is just shit and I’m allowed to vent about it.
>>996723You will never be Regina George, you’re a histrionic witch that wants to feel better than other women. You have no intention of destroying the division between other women, you’re just another dumb pig-brained heterosexual woman. There is no difference between you and a berry-picking tribalist, disgusting fuck
No. 996745
>>996730>YOU MUST BE A TRANNY YOU MUST BE A TRANNY Whatever the fuck you want to make me, because I know I’m not a tranny and never will be. I don’t have a problem with women being
toxic to each other online my problem is that you all are just deliberately dishonest and hypocritical about it. You are not better than scrotes, their cruelty is only brute and sloppy while female cruelty can be subtle but deadly to every kind of woman on the planet. Engaging in deception, lies, and doublespeak, can’t even tell if the cause of this is genuine retardation/ignorance or intentional gaslighting when this is brought up. You are shit of the highest order pretending like you don’t know what I’m talking about because your constant imageboard scrolling has damaged your brain. Kill yourself
No. 996753
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>>996745>You are not better than scrotes, their cruelty is only brute and sloppy while female cruelty can be subtle but deadly>kill yourself>hypocrites This is why you don’t have any friends.
No. 996770
>>996712Anons say some of the sweetest shit to me on here when I share long ass posts about my past. I return that energy to others. For the most part you get back what you give out. If you don't reee at people they don't reee back.
Vent is extra weird these last few days. It's not the normal vibe. But then you definitely arent the normal vibe either.
No. 996775
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>>996766>>996768Thomas simply isn't just a train, he is a tank engine! I feel protective over him as I am britbong and he should be respected by being called his proper title!
No. 996786
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>>996769the envy is palpable. sadly for him, he will never be liked, much less loved by anyone, his shit-stained, yeasty balls will never comfortably fit in a skirt, and he'll never know what it's like to experience a full and sane range of healthy human emotions
>>996764apparently that name is based on one of the original books, so we're right to call him that
No. 996793
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I have no idea why random, nobody channels keep showing up on my fyp, but this is a prime example of why I don’t believe in polyamory. It’s just a gross, subhuman, moid fetish and women participate because they’re groomed and manipulated into it.
No. 996795
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>>996775I have to keep calling him Thomas the Tank, I'm sorry anon. It's just better.
No. 996796
>>996786No
nonny, none of the books call him Thomas the train. He is Thomas the Tank engine. You Americans dumbed it down as usual. Just like with Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone instead of Philosophers stone. So you don't have a right to call him that. Address him by his real title.
No. 996800
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>>996758I know you're the same tranny from the unpopular opinion thread
>>996752Get the fuck off this website
No. 996829
I’m upset and I hope my brother stops doing this but yesterday and today he has been trying to wake me up while I’m sleeping. I know that sounds inconsequential, but it’s so annoying. Yesterday he kept talking to me in the morning, shaking me and shining my flashlight in my face. He’s persistent so he kept doing this at every moment I was close to falling back into sleep (I was so tired I couldn’t move though it’s not like I woke up). I know some nonnas must know the feeling, but the feeling of having your sleep fucked with feels like absolute torture. It’s partly my fault because I sleep in the couch and sleep late, but I really don’t know how he can even feel ok to see me asleep and just decide to fuck with me. Whenever he sleeps I respect it! Anyways today in the morning he was talking to me about what he found in the supermarket coupons and I was like ok.. I fucking hate the brain scramble of being woken up so my brain is all on high alert and then confused as I try to decipher what he’s trying to tell me. I know this makes him sound autismo, he’s not, I just think he has a disregard for things that bother me, and he knows this bothers me and thinks I should get over myself.
Im just hoping these two days are anomalies because back when I used to go to high school I had a messed up sleep schedule and I would nap when I came back from school. I guess this made him upset because he, 8 times out of 10, would try to wake me up. Shake me, prod me, hit me with pillows, hit the pillow I was laying my head on, shine the phone flashlight in my face, pull me off the couch. The one where he would hit the pillow I was laying my head on was always the worst and would make me jolt up. I’m glad it’s in the past, and the only reason why I think of it is because that awful awful feeling of complete exhaustion and brain melt is something I don’t want to feel again. I think I’m gonna just wake up early (he’s only up early because he stays up until morning) and have a consistent sleep schedule because this super bothers me.
Also extra vent but I like to take pictures of bugs I see right. My mom tells me about a spider web she saw outside with rain droplets in it and I was like awesome I’m gonna take a pic, can I take it with the dlsr? He fucking gets mad at me saying I don’t know how to use the camera and that I think I know everything and so on. I got really upset because my dad wanted me to use the dslr because he liked my animal and bug pictures and I really appreciated that offer. When I got up really mad he just called me “una tarada.” Ugh I still fucking seeeeethe about it because I know when I get around for asking for the dslr again it’s gonna be whole mess. Reeeee
No. 996859
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I used to sometimes enjoy browsing a few different 4chan boards, but it's completely ruined for me now. Years ago before I got pinkpilled I somehow was able to ignore the rampant mysogyny or laugh it off (sad, I know). But nowadays every time I see woman hate or coomer shit on there it only infuriates and pinkpills me more.
I was reading a thread about JK Rowling and her GC tweets, and it was so telling to me that despite trannies being universally mocked on 4chan, pretty much all of the posts were vicious and hateful towards Rowling. They will always hate women more than they hate trannies. Just like I'm pretty sure that, although they hate a lot of groups, they're always going to hate women the most out of all of them.
Idk it just fills me with disgust to realize how many years I spent on there amongst all that vitriol directed at me. It disgusts me even more to think of all the people, young girls included, who are still brainwashing themselves into mysogyny on sites like 4chan today.
No. 996866
>>996767nta but it was an anon who made spergy walls of text about how much she hated the site, how she was glad it was shutting down and was totes leaving but still kept coming back anyway and still kept responding to everyone even days later.
although the current sperg ITT doesn't sound like her, seems like an ambrose drama refugee tbh with all the talk about "bigots"
No. 996922
>>996911They're straight up unlikable, not just because they're
problematic but because they're turbo retards on top of that. Even then Takumi is "
problematic" in a realistic way so it's understandable if people hate him for that, and I feel like that's the point of the character to begin with. Now, the real hot take is that Nana is as retarded as Hachiko. I know I'm right, don't even argue with me.
No. 996939
>>996911Speaking of nana I wish Ai Yazawa would just spoil the rest of the plot in text instead of going "I'm gonna finish it~" for 12 years. I've been waiting since 2011
Or have her publisher hire some people to finish the rest of the drawings. Don't big mangaka tend to outsource a lot of the artwork anyway?
No. 996969
>>996927There's a difference between just having a fear of abandonment and trying and failing to manage it and straight up sucking every single bishonen dick you find, including a 15 years old' little boy's dick and an
abusive married man's dick. Reira needs to stop being a stupid bitch and needs to start seeing a psychiatrist right now.
No. 996973
>>996939same but also with Clamp and X/1999
>>996970it absolutely always was thomas the tank engine
No. 997016
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>>997000Goddamn it, Clamp. I'm worried that they dgaf about finishing X, just like Clover (though maybe this one wasn't popular enough and that's why it got dropped by a publisher? Genuinely don't remember). They love to start 3 series at the same time, hiatus 2 and barely finish one. Fuuuck. Goddamn, all I want us a quality Tokyo Babylon anime to lead us into X/1999 revival (new anime with canon ending, manga rerelease and the 3 volumes finally getting published).
I love reading the few posts speculating on the real ending of X/1999. I wonder if those fanatics are getting it right, at least partially.
Was X translated into your language, Nona? Curious about a sentence in picrel which makes zero sense to me. I think it got mangled in translation, or I don't have a galaxy brain big enough
No. 997019
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>>997016Karen managed to make some sense out of whatever Fuuma bullshitted
>>997014another Polish Nona, always wanted a Polish topic but the other anons didn't seem interested. I could make it I guess if there is a need
No. 997046
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I have my first real appointment with a therapist this week. It'll be my first time seeking therapy outside one counselor session at college and the short initial consultation. I started to develop some anxiety few years ago that usually isn't too severe and depression that comes and goes and i'd consider myself successful by most people's standards so I felt guilty trying to go through public health service to get one. Plus it'd probably take way too long and be a real fight that I just couldn't be bothered with, i can afford it every month or so which is probably all i'd need. Now i'm kinda nervous though bc only realised after shilling out a load of money that the therapist didn't have any reviews on the website i hired from and couldn't find anything about her by googling her name despite claiming to be very experienced so i'm a bit apprehensive. Idk if it'd be appropriate to ask for more reassurance on that.
No. 997047
why did everyone around me growing up have to bully me for my looks from when i was a little kid. why did it happen so much, why did i have to deal with so many comments about the colour of my skin, about my lips looking like actual shit, about being the ugliest person in class. from kids at school, from my own family. why was i constantly made to feel ugly growing up. i was just some sad kid already dealing with my family being shitheads in other ways. why did my mother rub my skin while i bathed until it hurt and say it was to get the "dirt" off when it was just my skin colour. no matter how much effort i put into my appearance now it feels like it won't ever be enough. i know the solution is probably to try to recondition myself to not value my appearance so much or the appearance of others. and to not inherently think of myself as "ugly" all the time, but it'll take so long. i'm gonna be this sad for so long.
why did i have to deal with all of that?? why did they all have to act that way to me, i didn't do shit to any of them. i was just existing. why can't i just accept my face, why can't i stop thinking about it. i was looking at old pictures of myself from my early teen years and it broke me down because i look like an almost totally different person but i still feel the same. my first instinct looking at any of those pics is thinking about how ugly i was but i hate that i'm so harsh on myself, i was just living. i hate posts people make where they show pictures of themselves as kids and them now and call it a massive glow up because they were just being kids, they weren't caring about how they looked. i hate this attitude and that i secretly have it too, i try hard to remove myself from it but it's so instinctual
No. 997061
>>996712 damn,
nonny, just bc no one likes you doesn't mean we all hate each other
No. 997064
>>996726What in the actual fuck anon, that's so sad. It sounds like your anorexia
triggered her majorly. It's said she's a grown ass adult and is still healing from her own wounds. My mom isn't anorexic so I don't know anything about what you're going through, but she talks shit about her appearance and her weight when she's perfectly healthy and she looks extremely young for her age. It saddens me so much because that screwed with how I viewed myself growing up, but I'm determined to heal from it (I too, became anorexic in college). It makes me so sad thinking about my mom who is 60 and she still doesn't think she's beautiful or healthy. I am so sorry for your situation. I hope we both are able to heal our self image so we're not in our elderly age hating ourselves.
No. 997068
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I hate the holidays so much, getting stronger with each passing year. I like seeing my grandma, and that's about it. But I wish I could visit her any other time.
I am not christian, so I don't give two fucks about its religious meanings, we have to travel to another state and it's just not pleasant (especially if it's air travel cause I am scared to death of planes), the weather is always too fucking hot, these holiday's parties are too noisy and I always get a massive headache, my mom always get beyond stressed and take it all out on me because I am usually the one that has to stay the longer with her, I am usually used as a makeshift maid because I am the youngest one around, the food is eehh, I can't drink to alleviate things and I usually get like one present which I don't mind being something simple and I don't wanna be ungrateful or anything, it's just that the stress is not worth it at all. I remember wanting to cry multiple times in 2019 and I was honestly so relieved when we didn't have to travel for 2020. I honestly still wish it was like that, it was so peaceful just doing a quick video conference for a day and just fucking off to my room.
I can't wait for the day I'll live in another country and just do some video calls, and celebrate it peacefully with my partner.
No. 997076
>>997062Yeah, lots of fatties have this weird thing about constantly telling healthy weight people that they need to gain weight.
Is your weight stable now? If it is, and is within the healthy range, then things are fine. If you're still dropping that could be an issue.
No. 997078
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Help me I can't stop seething. We have this tradition at out work place, before every christmas there's this "lottery", we draw names and every person gets someone to whom they give a gift. I have a huge crush on my coworker and I wanted so bad to pick his name. I'm very shy and I barely talk to people, so I imagined it would've been a great opportunity to talk to him, to do somethig nice for him, to see him smile. But I didn't pick his name, so I was like please, at least don't give him to someone I don't like. And this fucking two-faced woman I hate got him. Out of all fucking people (there's like 20 of us) SHE had to be the one to pick his name. What the FUCK. WHY. I'm so sad and jealous right now. She already has a boyfriend and I don't see her as some kind of competition, but it doesn't fucking matter. Why her out of ALL people. Fucking 1 to 20 odds. It's like the universe wanted to deliberately piss me off. I'm so angry I want to cry. She's gonna buy him some fucking Rick and Morty themed socks and I will have to watch him wear this shit. FUCK ME
No. 997083
>>997078Buy him Pickle Rick socks and give them to him with some pretence. Someone gifted them to you and you can't wear them because you're allergic. Ask him whether he wants to eat cucumber salad with you, you made too much for yourself.
There, you only need to do it now.
No. 997084
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It's insane to me that the individual who drove me to cut and overdose tonight is enjoying the night with her boyfriend in the other room. I really hope this works or does something just so I can ruin her night too!
No. 997088
>>997086not according to the law
nonny!
No. 997093
>>997089Saint jon's wort, daily capsules
>>997091Read the post anon, she was asking what I called "woowoo shit" myself kek
No. 997124
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I have such scrote-y interests that it makes me feel so isolated because i can't talk to the other women around me. I hate talking to men about my interests they literally just exist to make me feel superior but I love talking to women. Even my major in University is a total sausage party.
No. 997128
I feel so unprepared for my exam tomorrow. I couldn't focus on studying because I had to pull some all nighters for an exam two weeks ago and it took so much energy out of me, I couldn't get myself to do it again for this one. I can't even read the material for it, I can't understand the words, I have to read them so often and remind myself to think but it's useless, I can't make sense of it. I tried doing one of the exercises but just started to cry, I have no idea how to even begin solving it. I know it's all my fault for slacking so much during lecture time and I feel so fucking stupid because of it. There will be three more chances to correct a grade or at least pass but everyone knows that the first exam is the easiest out of them. I feel like I'm wasting my only chance to get it done since I'm so fucking dumb and won't make it on the other tries. It feels so hopeless, I tried studying the entire day but my mind just wanders off after about 30 minutes and then it's impossible to get back on track. Time also goes by so quickly, I have no fucking idea what happened to the rest of the day. I woke up early and was busy until 2pm, then nothing. Now it's 3am and I'm starting to get tired. I'll just sleep. I know there's still a possibility that the exam goes at least okay, but I'd rather not show than spend five hours in that hall just to hand in absolute shit and cry on the drive home. I'll probably still go just to try it, I just wish everyone stopped talking about the next exams as if they were completely impossible, it's really as if I'm wasting my only chance right now by being too dense to get any info my fucking head
No. 997133
>>997132aaww
nonny I'm sorry, although it may be "rare" to find women who are openly interested on these topics irl you can definitely find them online. If you want irl female friends maybe you can go meet women who are majoring in history or politics in your campus? I know they're out there most likely also feeling like you and wanting to connect with more women with similar interests.
No. 997135
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Everything feels so impossibly hard right now and I don’t know how to get out. I felt like blowing my brains out at math homework. People call me immature for my age but I feel too young and unprepared for all this responsibility.
No. 997139
>>997047I'm so sorry
nonnie, you never deserved any of that
No. 997254
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feeling the
>tfw no friends
thing hard today. also i didn't fail the class i was worried about failing; our report was in fact graded independently of our project. that being said my gpa is now a 3.2 instead of a 3.4, but i suspect it will rise again next semester as uni is still online & i have a bio course (i've never done badly with bio) and a few mandated writing courses for cs majors. booyah
No. 997257
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>>997255i don't really want to join any clubs; i tried joining clubs in highschool/freshman year and always always ended up in the background.
this is self-pitying i know, but i often think i'm just missing that "something" which allows people to connect with other people. e.g. even in circles composed of outcasts, i'm outcasted.
i go through cycles where i'm fine with it – because no matter what, i end up alone, and there's no point in getting tearful over something i am already so familiar with – but something happens to
trigger me and i feel depressed all over again. if it weren't for my parents, i'd just have nobody.
pardon the essay nonnies, but i'm feeling majorly bummed out rn
No. 997266
>>997257I can sympathize
nonnie, what do you mean by something
trigger you and you become depressed all over again. What stops you from joining club activity or just hobby-based connection with others, did something happen?
No. 997278
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what's the point of existing if i didn't even remotely win the genetic lottery like this
No. 997283
>>993458I dislike my boomer parents. The internet has completely colonized their minds. They sit for hours and hours swallowing thousands of Facebook videos on loud volumes. They take their phones with them to the bathroom. They fall asleep and their phones are still on. They don’t do anything…except sit on their phones, and they see nothing wrong with this. I’ve tried pointing out the issue again and again but they laugh and smile about it and it
triggers me, like them losing themselves is a matter of laughter. I’m just angry at them now.
No. 997311
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Christ I’m really hating my job and general life situation right now. I felt so lucky when I first got it because it kind of fell in my lap straight out of college, but the longer I stay there the more I realise why they were so desperate they’d hire a graduate on for key work.
It’s in local government in my hometown so everyone there is either a commuter from the nearest city or a bitter 20+ year veteran who curses you out any time you dare and suggest that they do their job. It doesn’t help that I’m moved back in with my parents, but since I went to boarding school I have no friends back home, and even if I did I’d never see them because I’m working all the time and we live in the middle of nowhere.
I’m gonna take Christmas break to cool off, but I can’t see myself being here much longer. The key teams I work with are comprised of bitter veterans and I have no interest in taking on their shit habits and bad attitudes. I gave myself a year minimum (it was originally 18 months but even my own supervisor told me to get out while I could kek) and it’s been six months already, so I’m gonna start seriously looking in April. Just sick of living in bumfuck Egypt working with old hags who huff and puff about how much they hate the boss and how they work harder than anyone else there. The only other person I work with who is under 25 is moving back to the city in February and hopefully I won’t be far behind.
No. 997355
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i've had slight cramps since yesterday but my period isn't due until monday reeeee
No. 997357
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A guy asked me if I got inspiration for my hairstyle from anime. If I knew I wouldn't look like a jackass I would shave it off
No. 997363
I'm so constipated my right hip hurts tf
>>997357Kek this happened to me too, but they compared me with a a character i like so
No. 997445
>>997357>>997363kek,what haircut did both of you have ?
>>997427shit, anon, I'm glad you are still with us. Could you afford to see a therapist ? It would be an absolutely normal procedure after having to go through something like this
No. 997484
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My mom told me to kill myself recently,
she was outraged three days back, she snapped at me "You always say you want to die, but you never even try to kill yourself anymore, why don't you do it already"
She's the main reason I have been doing so horribly. I learned to ignore her a long time ago and I don't really feel anything anymore when she says those things, but that remark really hurt me
No. 997487
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HOW CAN I HAVE FATTY LIVER AT BMI 18 WTFFF
No. 997496
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if everything pans out im going on vacation tomorrow for like 4 days. Its my first vacation in years and my first one ever with my sister. We dont really like the holidays because our mom passed when we were young so it just never felt the same. We planned on going on vacation in november for thanksgiving but the prices were so high that we decided to do it as a christmas present to ourselves. Unfortunately fucking Omicron variant came through like the tomb raider and im fucking terrified that maybe i caught it.I barely leave my house except to go to work and maybe to a restaurant but i've been indoors for the most part and i wear a mask as soon as i step outside. But my sister has been bringing her bf over again even though he had covid over the summer. im so scared that i might have it. I dont know why it couldjust be my anxiety fucking with me but i have back pain that started last night (upper back) and it only hurts when i put a bra on so its probably my period boobs coming in. Also my nose stings on and off (but it usually comes on after i smoke a blunt lol) But what if its fucking not!? My sister works with kids and we all know how kids are usually the main culprits of spreading shit lmao. I also feel like a dick for going on vacation when the variant is kicking so many people's asses but i didn't know it was going to get this bad again. UGH like everyone else got to go on vacation guilt free why tf am i being so guilt ridden. Im just gonna double mask the whole trip and stay away from people as much as humanly possible. I really hope i nor my sister have it or get it. I really dont want to have it or to infect someone else with it. Did any other of you ladies book a vacation during this week and are regretting it/not? how tf do i rid myself of the guilt that im killing millions of old ladies lmao.
No. 997508
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my sister died in september like a month after i graduated and moved out to a bigger city. I had to take bereavement like two weeks after i started my new job to go visit my family where they live. they visited me for thanksgiving and it was a great time. i miss them a lot esp now but i don’t want to visit again for christmas. I have Friday and Monday off so I could but my bf’s parents are coming to town and I haven’t seen them in a whole year, and they’ve been inviting me to stuff and wanting to see me all year. They are so nice and I love them a lot too, but I feel sooooooooooooo bad telling my family that I basically don’t want to be with them because I am worn out and want to see my boyfriends family. It tears me to bits because I love my parents a lot too and I hate making excuses. They always understand but I still feel bad especially NOW. I wish this kind of stuff was easier.
No. 997512
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Kibbe is shit and the online community is even more shit. Until recently I would go on the subreddit for drama and because no one knows what they are talking about, but I think it gave me body image issues.
No. 997527
>>997496Just get tested
nonnie. I don't know how you feel about the vaccine but take it if you feel like that'd make you safer.
No. 997530
>>997522I'm a loser and I have my problems and I admit that, I blame myself on a lot of but my mother is just a narc
She made me her personal therapist(and later her driver) since I was a kid, when I just wanted to stop and be alone to deal with my own issues, she made me out to be personal enemy
for her everything I do is some nefarious scheme to embarrass her
I don't blame her for me being a NEET, but I do blame her for ruining my self confidence and emotionally abusing me and physically abusing me when I was younger, besides I'm leaving and am going to get a job
No. 997549
>>997278From my fried brain, I see her as big. If you have an hourglass figure and a curvy, small waist, with body dysphoria, nothing is enough. You don't even see yourself as curvy. I get obsessed with being fap material as
>>997306 advises against, and that's really good advice. The only way to heal is to consume content beyond aesthetics and pretty girls. Pretty girls are fun to look at and it's a nice fantasy to imagine yourself as perceiving you the way you view those girls. But it's unproductive. Find other fulfilling interests and hobbies. You don't need to give up on aesthetics entirely, but you need to stop pumping that content in your brain. I am still planning on getting aesthetic surgeries and all that, but I don't let it consume my brain. There's so many other interesting hobbies to get into. The other thing to remember is pretty people are severely overrated and overrepresented because of social media. Don't allow them to dominate your mind just because they dominate society.
No. 997555
>>997535Oh fuck anon I dont know your country but if you're burger or maybe canada look for a food bank nearby. If you or a friend is going to college look into the schools food bank/pantry where they'll just need an ID scan or form filled out. Your friend could pick you up some stuff if it's the ID not form one. They even have period supplies, house cleaners, bags, soap, snack type items. Please look into your options I was close to your situation a few weeks ago. You don't have to be homeless just to receive food security.
I also just want to vent: god I want other women as friends in my area not just online so we can actually do stuff in person. I'm tired of people saying "just make friends" when I refuse to have anymore scrote friends which usually fall into my interests and I refuse any lgbcluster fuck women who sperg about fandoms too much and live in some sort of terminally online safe space for troonery. I just want other women who like more than make up and centering their lives around men or are going to pretend to be so queer just because I date women. I refuse any friendship where I ever have to walk on eggshells about enby/troon stuff again because I'm very glad I cut everyone out of my life like that.
No. 997579
>>997569>the meme that skinny women don't get sick???
What kind of retarded reading is that? The issue is that it's a disease that mostly affects obese people (according to google >90% are fatties).
No. 997632
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>>997627That sucks so much. I'm sorry anon, to you and to the tree. A national park near me was recently raped by a new rich subdivision so I feel your paid.
No. 997672
>>997408I decided to go to Japan with a working holiday visa, I wanted to look for a job once I already arrived because it multiplies your chances of getting interviews by a lot, but two or three weeks after I arrived the first covid cases in the country were found. Or rather, Japan let like 500 infected people on a cruise just go back home from the boat to their home by using public transport. As soon as I started getting interviews for full time English teaching jobs I got too sick for way too long, so I just kept my part time job as a teacher of my first language and went back home. It's an opportunity I'll never have again so I'm still mad to this day. I wanted to go there because finding a job in my own country was nearly impossible and I wanted to improve my Japanese: just as an example, finding a shitty part time retail job in my country took me like 4 or 5 years, but getting a comfy part time teaching job took me two weeks of me just scrolling Craiglist. I'm saving money in case I can go back there or find other destinations, friends keep telling me that Canada and Ireland could get me good opportunities but not with the pandemic.
Look for countries where you can get working holiday visas or where you could do some kind of working program for young people. No idea what's the equivalent of a VIE in other countries but this could be a good opportunity especially if you study in science or engineering.
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I'm PMSing and so dehydrated I look possessed help
No. 997800
>>997795So far, the main financial deal that I want outlined in our pre-nup is that debt is tied to the individual (if that is possible). This is in the event if either of us dies that the other will not be responsible for any potential debt the other accrues. I have been debt-free my whole life and he has student debt, which I am willing to help pay off, but I do not personally want to be tied to it. I struggled with that for a while because I felt like a bad partner to not want to be tied to the debt of my partner even though it's for a just reason. He isn't a floozy with money by any means.
I just get frightened by the prospect of him cheating and then what if he makes more than me so he logically gets to keep the house? Dumb scenarios like that play in my head even though he's never shown himself to be disloyal. I suffer from the syndrome of believing if I'm not licking his ass 100% of the time that I deserve to get cheated on. It has seriously impeded me being able to enjoy my alone time as I feel guilty for even wanting that. He likes spending all his time with me, and I feel like I should be amazed a guy is happy just being with me. My other two exes cheated on me but I didn't care about them the way I do this guy. It still affects you even if you didn't really get hurt. Sorry for trauma dumping. This is the vent thread.
No. 997814
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My desk chair broke. I paid £60 for it many years ago. It's only a Chinese made clone of a Herman Miller but it's been comfortable and reliable. Now I just had to pay double the price for a replacement of a similar quality.
No. 997879
>>997872I was forced by security into giving my name and DOB but at least they didn’t take a picture of me lol. I’ve tried to be reasonable and explained my situation to the waiters and manager but they dgaf and basically told me they just wanted their money.
Who would I complain to? I’m the one who didn’t pay
No. 998051
i’m a mentally ill NEET who lives at home with my parents. i struggle with severe anxiety and agoraphobia and even though i have a versatile degree from a really prestigious uni i’ve been doing nothing with it because i’m so crippled by my anxiety.
anyway, i feel a lot of shame about still living with my parents and not working when they both do, so i work my ass off to try to be a productive part of the household. i do basically all of the household chores, i clean often, i take care of all the animals. i cook dinner from scratch for them every night even though i rarely even eat it myself bc my appetite is pretty small in the evening. every day they come home from work to a hot meal, clean home, dishes done etc. i also do basically anything they need (shopping for gifts, returning things they buy online, financial planning help, researching companies so we can minimize our bills, errand runs, tech support, you name it.) the only thing i don’t do is their laundry.
last night my parents seemed pissy and distant. today, my dad and i took the dogs for a walk and he told me he felt like i don’t respect their household because our new dog is struggling to be house trained (we’ve had him two weeks) and because i forgot to take out the trash. he said they discussed giving me more “chores” that i’m responsible for. then he said it was just because they were in a bad mood though and they don’t feel that way today. even if that’s true, i find myself being so hurt by the fact that they even thought that. not angry, just hurt. i keep thinking about it and it’s putting me on the verge of tears.
i try so hard to show i don’t take their patience with me/letting me live here for granted. i also know my mental illness makes me less efficient at things and that the average person could probably do what i do in a couple of hours and still work full time easily but it takes a lot out of me and i’m exhausted all the time. i just feel so taken for granted i guess. i feel like they don’t see all that i do and how tiring it can be. as it stands, they get to come home and just eat and relax. even today i cooked dinner, mealprepped for the weekend, and made a breakfast pastry and desserts just to be nice and my mom made a snide remark about how she had to clean the stove even though i had done all the dishes from cooking and just hadn’t gotten to the stove. i don’t know. maybe i’m overreacting and maybe they’re right. it just hurts to be basically told you’re not doing enough at all even when you’re putting all your effort into doing the most you can. i feel completely depressed and hopeless and like a total loser.
No. 998110
>>998024I feel you nona, and I've tried many more times to kill myself than you, pretty sure I've got memory loss and brain damage from it. My body hurts all the time as a result of my degrading job, I wish it could just contract something bad or i end up dropping dead in a freak accident. I wish I could say there was a reason to go on living and sometimes I claim there is but I tend to end up in the same old hopeless spot time and again. I realize my reason to live and what I want and aspire is likely too far out of my reaches these days. I was stupidly wistful for thinking I could ever have something as impossible and as stupid as what I wanted. Nowadays I really fluctuate on and off about wanting to kms but I haven't tried to OD on pills for a few months. Just know there's someone else out there like you.
Hoping and praying if we don't find something to live for we instead find our closure and our bodies won't save us the next time it happens. You're probably a better person than me tbh
No. 998111
>>997607I drive everybody everywhere and always pick up the groceries, take my mother to the hospital, drop off and pick up my sister from school
I'm basically the family's driver but I am planning on leaving all right
No. 998163
>>998051Sorry,
nonnie, but they resent you. You can maintain a clean house for them all you want but the fact you are not working pisses them off. You could work part-time and it still might not be good enough but it'd get them off your back even a bit.
They work all day and come home to their kid spooked out of her mind. They don't care if they played a role in how you grew up, leading you to a neet lifestyle. All they care about is you getting a job and possibly moving out. That way when you do move out, they can move on to bitching about something else you do they don't like. You have a uni degree but have done nothing with it? Did they pay for your schooling? Can you even land a job rn with said degree?
> i also know my mental illness makes me less efficient at things and that the average person could probably do what i do in a couple of hours and still work full time easily but it takes a lot out of me and i’m exhausted all the time.real shit,
nonnie…Everyone working has to get up and go to everyday shit, regardless of how exhausted they are. From grocery shopping after a tiring shift to cooking dinner for themselves and for others. Everyone is tired. Everyone.
>>998137I don't think you are entitled, nonette.
I relate
>Be me>17 years old>Visit Aunt up north for 5 days>She isn't a poor fag like my mom so there is food in the house>Eat when hungry>Food was so cash>Go home>Mom hasn't gone grocery shopping in over a week>Yes I was gone 5 days but before that, the food was dwindling>Look in the fridge and find some stale lunch meat and condiments>"Hey mom, can we go grocery shopping?">"Sorry Spergette. I don't want to go and I can't afford it anyway."No foodbank or anything just general laziness and the house was messy once I got back. Hope you get that food, nonette!
>>998143To be fair, it's hard to afford any place these days without having a roommate if a foreveralone type.
>>998149The cat liked you. Your friend was just being a hag.
No. 998164
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Screw Instagram
No. 998174
>>998051I feel very similar to you.
I work a job but only because my mother got it for me. I'm not agoraphobic but I have major social anxiety and cant go anywhere unknown without someone that I know around. I would essentially be a neet if I hadn't gotten a job through my mom. I understand that it's hard taking care of a household but literally no one else pitches in, and my slob of a stepdad will bitch about the house being dirty yet do nothing to clean it. His fatass will even make more trash bc hes somehow physically incapable of putting garbage away in a trashcan.
I've been gaslit by his lardass tons of times about "not being an adult" and "not taking responsibility" hes literally forced me to clean the whole house with my siblings ON MY DAYS OFF. So I get no time to relax. My mom will parrot the whole bullshit of the house needing to be cleaned, the pets being taken care of, etc. When he and my sister are there day in day out doing shit. It's so damn unfair. Especially since I already feel like shit at work, and come home to more stressing shit so I can feel like shit at home. Then get bitched at about responsibilities when I work a full time ass job and help pay bills.
No. 998178
>>998163Rip
nonnie, there's no dinner for tonight. I'm gonna go to my gmas house early tomorrow instead so I can give her a Christmas gift and also be fed copious amounts of food until I explode. alas, it'll only be for one day but I'll be so happy.
No. 998179
>>998178Ayart
Ah, that greentext story was from years ago. The point still stands, not once were you being entitled. Eat and be merry tomorrow, Nonette. You deserve it!
No. 998195
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Does anyone else feel happy or excited we're almost at 100 vent threads? we should have a celebratory special 100th vent thread with a cool anniversary pic as the OP or something
No. 998231
>>998212I never understand people like you who can't be alone and instead get themselves into
abusive or
toxic relationships. You are whole, you are enough, you won't die even if you spend the next 30 years alone.
No. 998238
>>998051The anons bashing you probably have no idea what they're talking about. Obviously you "work" somehow by doing things for them. But they still resent you and no matter what you do for them they'll never appreciate it so it's useless. Perhaps you could at least try to get a part-time job, or something that allows you to work from home at least.
I know it's difficult anon, you could say I'm in a similar situation. Yeah everone is tired, everyone despises work, everyone can have mental illnesses, but some people are better at coping than others. I tried "ignoring" my mental illnesses and needs for a long time and had a serious breakdown which led me to NEETdom. Now I try to make some money with drawing and that at least gives me some dignity, but I wouldn't be able to hold down a normal job and my parents hate me still.
No. 998246
>>998051I'm an (ex?) Agoraphobic, tbh I feel it never fully goes away but you manage it better over time if you push yourself the right amount. When I was 16 to 19 I was living the same life. I did all the housework, meals and laundry. No school, no work, totally housebound fora few years. My mom was also home all the time but physically sick and disabled. We had an OK time. When my dad decided to take early retirement I knew life at home was about to get real uncomfortable for me. He has grumpy old man syndrome, is very particular about everything, extra sensitive to other people's noise. Just generally overbearing and hard to live with. His house though.
Tbh it was a blessing in disguise. It was the sudden motivation for me to get out at only 19 which.. I'm still surprised I turned shit around so fast. It lit a fire under my ass. If life at home is too cosy then where's your motivation to work towards change? Agoraphobia is all about avoidance. Being too accommodating of it is where you get held back. The times in my life where people (bfs too) enabled me too much.. it did me no favors in the long run. Only sets you back when people around you avoid the bigger issues and make it feel too comfy to stay as you are.
No. 998252
>>998238>some people are better at coping than othersYou mean some people are forced to cope because they don't have the luxury of parents who are willing to support them.
NEETs have plenty of excuses and justifications for their supposed inability to work but I'm sure they would manage to suck it up if the alternative was living on the streets.
No. 998260
>>998252An overlooked option for neets who are quite genuinely disabled by a mental illness is to at least apply to live in whatever their countries housing option for disabled adults is. Disabled people don't just live with parents most of the time. Use those supports as a stepping stone if you have that option in your country. But only treat it as a stepping stone if you can.
I've seen people do it, they move out first, learn to manage their disability money and bills, grow up fast, start feeling more capable and then eventually they get sick of living on the bare minimum so it pushes them and they get a job. You don't ways have to get a job first, sometimes you can work backwards like that and for stuff like agoraphobia I've seen it work out. Getting on disability sometimes hooks you up with programmes and social workers who help you search for jobs you can manage, part time jobs at first that wont affect your housing. It eases you into work and pays off in the end when you become productive. All sorts of help can be out there and you might not know because you're not registered as needing it if you don't apply. Neets fall through the gap when parents foot the bill and you're just never registered as needing forms of assistance to get on track.
No. 998279
>>998252No, not everyone can manage to "suck it up". Some people are severely mentally ill, some people have physical ailments. Just because you manage (or have the means) to suck it up doesn't mean that everyone can. There are tons of mentally ill homeless people who can't get a job because they can't hold one and simply have no place to go. NEETs are lucky that they have at least a roof over their head, but op anon did say that she tries to give back by doing house chores and cooking and basically caring for her parents, which honestly sounds pretty acceptable to me. Better than being a neckbeard who plays videogames all day for sure.
>>998260That's a good idea but depending on shere she lives it may not be so easy to apply and get disability money.
No. 998309
>>998279I did say
>if you have that option in your countryI meant it in a more general way though, not aimed at purely the one anon above. Plenty of anons living the same way are likely to live in places where they absolutely have these services and aren't using them. There's whole systems in place to get people out of their situation and living independantly.
Fully grown adults who are already out of home can have nervous breakdowns and rely on the same services to not become homeless. Women leaving controlling relationships with destroyed confidence and bad nerves etc. It's usually not a matter of 'if my parents don't give me a roof I'm automatically homeless' Some neets are too comfy lumping everything on their parents and not on services. I'm not saying any of that to have a go, it's kinder to encourage someone to seek help than it is to excuse them staying stagnant.
Ime you won't get better staying in the same place, with the same people who created this dynamic in the first place. I'm an ex neet too so I know that headspace all too well, total stubborn avoidance of the real issue was my thing for a couple years. Now when I'm even dating people I warn them to never make a phone call on my behalf, go up to a cashier on my behalf, deal with a stressful errand I don't like, do anything where it's ultimately not in my best interest to have them enable muh still lurking anxiety problem.
No. 998368
>>998316I mean, anxiety, depression and phobias can be crippling and can even affect people physically, lead to addictions, disorders and breakdowns etc. thought I guess it's not as bad if she did get into uni and get a degree… but maybe it got bad later? We can't know.
Anon definitely needs to actively try to improve her mental health, but honestly I think that generally offering to care for parents or relatives for a while (and they agree with it) while one is having troubles isn't so bad. I don't know if it's a thing in the US but in Europe that happens often, mainly because help is hard to get and it's not easy to move out even after saving up years of salary. Though anon's problem is that her parents don't seem to want her there.
No. 998377
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It's christmas next week and I'm not looking forward to it because of the whole ass family fight going on and I'm def not interested to see my brother or my batshit crazy aunt. I just want to be the week after christmas, fuck that shit. Kind of envy people who got the rona and will spend xmas in quarantine kek.
Also this
>>998329 No. 998395
>>998368 > I think that generally offering to care for parents or relatives for a while (and they agree with it) while one is having troubles isn't so bad.Nta but the thing is they're dealing with agoraphobia and that works differently. The longer you're allowed to 'give in' to the desire to hide away, the harder it is to get back out there. I've been dealing with it since early puberty. So 20 years. I live alone and I manage but a few years back we had a random week of bad snow so a week of not exposing myself to the outdoors, it had me feeling like I did when I was a teen again. Exposure really is the key. It's the opposite of care to let an agoraphobic person stay home with no need to leave. Even if you mean well, that's killing them with kindness.
You use exposure and increase the distance (or the crowd size) until your comfort zone expands to a somewhat normal or liveable range again. Then you keep that up because a week at home can half rob you of some progress you already made. Every week or month that passes not challanging agorophobia.. it's a shame because you're not even standing still, you're going one step back from the loss of exposure. That's the trap.
People are prob sick of all the neet talk at this point but that's just my experience with managing agoraphobia.
No. 998408
I tried making friends, thinking that I must take initiative to find interesting, or like-minded people, only to be reminded that I despise human interaction. I hate it, I hate having to put on an act to pass, I hate feeling detached and off-ish because I have to “pass”, and I hate feeling like an idiot playing a game they don’t understand. I hate how people can seem so genuine but they’re just engaging in social niceties; how the fuck can I be able to tell the difference? They speak in the same tones and in the same ways, keep talking about how we should see this film or grab this coffee, and then I empty out my weekend only to find out they’re being…nice. They’re not being real. Why would you call me your “friend”? Or have me wait hours for you so we could go home together because I’m thinking, oh, I’ll just sit here doing nothing because I want to spend some time with my friend? Only to realize that I’m prolly a weirdo acquaintance. I normally wouldn’t care, except that I can’t tell the difference when one is being sincere and when is not, and I hate it. And I don’t want to talk to be friends with people, I think, anymore, if I have to constantly guess at what they mean.
No. 998441
Foreword: someone off-mention the Whole yoai thing, so if the same nonnie is reading this, this is not directed towards you, just scrotes with too much time on their hands.
Yoai/boy's love keeps getting misinterpreted, and I'm sick of it. Every time the same goddamn points are brought up, I get so frustrated.
>Oh but yoai terrible because it sexualizes gay/bi men
And all this lesbian porn and male-aimed Yuri isn’t? Hell, they seem way more gross and creepy than half the yoai I've seen.
>But I know a gay friend who was harassed by mean Fujoes who wanted him to kiss his boyfriend in front of them.
Those incidents are a dime a dozen compared to the copious amounts of full on sexual harassment lesbians and bi women get daily. Please shut up. (And yes I’m aware of the whole yoai paddle bullshit, don’t care)
>But they keep stealing our precious platonic bromances from us
Yet there’s so much media containing deep male friendships while girl and boy friendships never becoming a romance are almost as rare as getting struck by lightning. Hell, maybe the reason why there’s so many gay ships is like, maybe there’s a drought of actual positive representation that isn’t just stupid gay stereotypes or freaking burying the gays tragedies. Ever thought of that? Now, at times since rabid shipping can evolve into full on harassment, but speaking as someone who writes and reads the occasional gay romance, shamethem. They are stupid.
>but what about all those yucky topics that shown up in yoai?
Believe it or not, it’s literally fiction. Sure, I don’t like the more extreme non-con shit you sometimes see in some stories, but I can reassure you there is plenty of boy’s love manga and fiction that isn’t literal love rape. Seriously, go ask some actual sane Fujos what stuff they recommend. They do exist.
Seriously, I hate how asinine these frequent arguments are when actual gay and bi men don’t even give a shit. It’s squares back to insecure straight dudes scared of women exploring their sexual interests, like yea know, human beings that don’t exist to be someone’s object.
And lastly, let women enjoy gay shit for fuck sake. She doesn’t have to become a UBER GAY PORN FAPPER just to enjoy yoai. If a lot of guys can enjoy yuri and lesbian shit without turning into cringe turbo coomers, then the same can happen to women. You can debate me and say the whole genre disgusts you but I don't have the time or energy to engage today.
No. 998502
>>998374Anons parents don't sound
abusive. Cope and seethe. neets really can't take any responsibility for their own actions.
No. 998542
just woke up to see all the discussion about my original post, just want to thank all the nonnies for their feedback because it has actually been really helpful to me. sorry in advance if i blog a bit here, i don't have many friends and don't talk to anyone really about these issues so it feels good to get some of it off my chest.
>>998131>If you were kicked out n the street or had that coming you would get over all anxiety and agoraphobia in the world if your only two options are working or being homeless.you're completely right, and i don't take offense to it. it makes me feel encouraged. i have fallen into a routine that has left me very stagnant and i need to snap out of it.
>>998238i do wfh as well, i forgot to mention that. i do a lot of side jobs selling things online to make money that i'm saving up to move out eventually. just slow going unfortunately.
>>998250>>998366i don't know if i'd say they're "
abusive" but my mom is an alcoholic narc and my dad is a severe codependent. he in particular relies on me a lot for his emotional wellbeing. what's weird is he talks about never wanting me to leave (prob bc of the codependent nature) but they'll randomly start expressing resentment/hinting i'm not doing enough. there's a lot of mixed messages and it gets confusing. they want me here but only if i'm meeting every expectation and am in the mood they like. i guess that'd be easy if i didn't struggle with depression so much. keeping up that mask can be very hard for me.
>>998324>>998368i have struggled with addiction for the past few years. even while maintaining at uni i nearly OD'd from pills laced with fentanyl, was binge drinking hard liquor nightly and was perpetually hung over. just this month i have gone completely cold turkey sober and i feel great. i think my alcoholism was aiding my stagnancy a lot.
>>998309i live in the US so unfortunately our resources kind of suck but i definitely hear you.
>Ime you won't get better staying in the same place, with the same people who created this dynamic in the first place. I'm an ex neet too so I know that headspace all too well, total stubborn avoidance of the real issue was my thing for a couple years. Now when I'm even dating people I warn them to never make a phone call on my behalf, go up to a cashier on my behalf, deal with a stressful errand I don't like, do anything where it's ultimately not in my best interest to have them enable muh still lurking anxiety problem.this was super motivating to me, thank you. i think because my dad is codependent he shelters me from things like phone calls, errands, etc like you mentioned because it keeps me here. i need to start taking accountability for my own independence even if it's scary… ty for sharing/responding to me.
>>998395your post is really encouraging too anon i appreciate it a lot. i know you're right. i need to force myself to go do things or i'm just perpetuating the cycle. it's hard but i feel motivated to do it. i definitely need to get a job for exposure therapy. i'm scared of it but hell, it's better than dealing with this and getting nowhere.
just a question (since you seem to have mostly overcome your agoraphobia), do you ever have times where it becomes overwhelming even when you're consistent about being around people? when i was in uni i nearly failed because i had a horrible "episode?" i guess where even though i had been doing it every day, i suddenly couldn't walk out of my front door to go to class. it was bizarre, like there was a literal physical barrier. i have a lot of experience with the anxiety, but had never felt it that strong. my saving grace was literally covid making classes online when i was in the midst of it so i was able to attend lectures again. just wanting to pick your brain because i want to know if theres a good way to overcome those moments for when i do get a job. i don't want to fuck things up or be like this anymore.
No. 998552
>>998518you clearly don't mingle in the real world. Seethe. No one is telling neetnonna she has to break her fucking back out there, just if she ever finds herself exhausted and overwhelmed in life, most everyone else is in the same boat. Bosses suck, people suck, just know that others out there are trying to make the best of it, never take it personally if someone you come across is a dick.
How the fuck is it an issue to point out that most everyone is tired and overwhelmed?
>>998542 appears to be more than capable of creating positive change for herself.
No. 998589
I know some anons on here may have gone through something similar but it's really hard to kind of reconcile my current self with my past one. I was completely demented as a teen, I did a lot of stupid things, like, I was drinking my own piss for no reason other than the old man who I thought loved me and I him thought it was hot. I was sending him videos of me peeing, like, fuck's sake. I was cutting myself for another older guys attention. That's only scratching the surface. And the thing is, I've grown a little now and I've definitely tamed A LOT. I completely refrain from sex, I think it's too early and I am still a little 'fragile' and like, I've got a good hold on myself. I'm in medschool being a complete normie. But like, it feels so unreal. I feel fake and weird, like how would my friends think if they knew? How would my future partners think? I also feel so disconnected from that time of my life. Can anyone else relate? I'm happy that I've gotten so much better but sometimes I still feel like some derangedness might bubble up to the surface and it makes me scared. Tell me I'm making sense lol
No. 998633
>>998589I relate, kind of. It's not your fault. You were just young and wanted attention and validation. The disgusting old scrotes who took advantage of that are to blame. Plus when you're associated mentally, you don't really think about the reality of the things you're doing.
Unless you're tempted to start doing weird shit, I think the thought of it "bubbling up" again might be more related to you being afraid of going back into that mental state again, not an actual desire to start doing whacko crap again.
Feel better soon & good luck with medschool. Try to channel any disgust at the scrotes who wanted you to cam. You were so young, young people do stupid shit.
No. 998638
>>998408>They speak in the same tones and in the same ways, keep talking about how we should see this film or grab this coffee, and then I empty out my weekend only to find out they’re being…nice. If this doesn't sting, anon. Jesus christ I hate this so much, just had a breakdown about it a few days ago. A lot of my "friends" are exactly like this.
>Aww anon, I miss you so much! You know what, we should totally hit it up and go grab a coffee/come over to my place to spend the evening! We're going to have a great time!>Me, being the tard who doesn't realize they're just being nice, emptying my schedule for them and later asking about if they're up for anything next week>Oh dang anon, all of my evenings are booked and I'm seeing some friends during the weekend. Next time, okay?>Repeat ad nauseamWhen do I learn not to get excited that someone actually wants to meet me? It's especially hurtful when they try to pull that "Oh you know the pandemic and stuff" to avoid seeing me but at the same time meet up with other people all the time.
No. 998674
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i'm a lesbian and i get so jealous of men sometimes. not necessarily because they're men, but because i often see the ugliest, dullest motherfuckers with the prettiest women. just bothers me as an ugly woman that they have such confidence.
No. 998707
>>998633Yeah, you're definitely right. I'm pretty paranoid about going back to that sort of behavior so much so that s I avoid dating and everything to do with it to make sure I don't set myself off. I just feel like me today is such a huge constrast from past-me that it starts to feel like I'm not sure which one is the actual me. I guess as time goes on, I'll work through these feelings. Thank you for listening
nonny, good luck with your life as well.
No. 998724
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My boyfriend just left to spend the holidays and a good chunk of next year with his father, which is in another city. I am sad he's not here and I am sad that I'll have to travel to another state as well soon, just wanted to be with him for the holidays.
I also have a headache and stomachache that are pretty bad aagh
No. 998737
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My shitty laptop wont let me edit any videos. How am I supposed to get familiar with the software when shit keeps heating up and asking to force quit? I wish I could go back in time and tell my younger self to not buy this dumb overpriced meme laptop.
No. 998745
Hey nonnies, I’m
>>970739 / the girl that got ghosted by her ex friend. She told me texted me that she sees me in a different light after what happened during the falling out, and that while she is a resentful person she is happier to be away from the
toxic friendship group we once had. No bullshit I don’t consider myself
toxic for telling her how mentally ill she was after she stole a piece of equipment from my male friend and acted like it was reparations (that’s why we fell out) but obviously she means the friend group as a whole. She also was mad about how I talked to the police and called her a bootlicker while a friend of a friend being a suspected MURDERER and how she was totally against the police but she wanted the police to defend her stealing this $500 object. Won’t say what it is bc doxing but yea.
It’s kind of weird I was having a lot of anxiety stomach pains thinking about everything that happened and it magically disappeared after she texted me. I can’t fucking wait to move from this hell city and start over.
No. 998766
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Why is this channel being recommended to me all of a sudden? I've never even watched his videos but now every time I open up youtube I see one being recommended. Fuck off reee
No. 998854
>>998842um actually that's misandrist and
problematic sweaty. Women want us poor men bad and they are just as likely to be sexual predators. Only feminazis and hysterical mothers think otherwise. I know this is true because reddit told me
No. 998914
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>me realizing tyler the creator used to be in odd future
>odd future is known for their scrotey misogynistic and homophobic song lyrics often about rape and cannibalism
>even though this was in the past still was able to have a prolific career along with the retarded thing 2 and 3 frank ocean and earl sweatshirt
>be azealia banks
>talk shit about sacred cow trannies and male fags
>career and existence is turned into a meme
seems very random and dumb to vent about but I just realized that
No. 998976
>>998969You are correct lol i liked tyler creator more as a person back then as bad as it sounds because he was funny and promoted going outside, getting off the computer, he didnt drink or smoke weed, etc.
is he actually gay (confirmed) now? when a friend of mine started to be a fan of him thats when i noticed his switch in popularity and new fanbase, etc. also i got tired of him because things felt more performative but i saw him in concert which was fun. Its funny though how by the time i saw him I was hardly a fan anymore also I have some kind of a hipster complex or something so once I noticed the zoomer-like fans and how my friend (who had no idea about him before) started asking if hes dating jaden smith or something because hes gay and her friends believed they are together. (I am not proud of myself its just how i am kek)
No. 999006
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>>998992Noooooo nona I'm so sorry. Was it one of those big ones or was it like the tiny german roaches? I hate those mfers. It's winter here so I'm not seeing any for a while but as soon as summer rolls around I will see them like once a week
No. 999016
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I used to have a huge problem with sex dysphoria when I was a child. I've reached peace with being female and having a female body now but it was a really shitty time in my life where it always felt like I would never fit in being an autistic female attracted to women. I confessed this to my sister (I used to identify as a trans guy to her) and at first she was really accepting and even peaked. But she always makes fun of me and says I think I'm "not like other girls" and I'm "sexist" if I do something as simple as pick a dark blue phone case instead of a pink one like hers. I have nothing against women who are feminine or whatever, I just hate how I'm forced to be. It's like she thinks because I detransitioned, I was supposed to magically become a feminine woman instead of accept being a masculine woman. It's so retarded, and I hate how people conflate sexism with a personal distaste for femininity. Sexism is hate and prejudice against women, not fucking make up and the color pink. Shit like this is why my tween self wanted to be a boy
No. 999025
>>999024I'm praying for you
nonny! I've also been having issues with vaginal infections, it's truly hell
especially when you think the symptoms are going and they come back stronger than ever No. 999047
>>999043the girl that abused me turned everyone against me and nobody believed she was abusing me and she made people believe I was the one abusing her. It made me develop psychosis and I believed for 4-6 months that I was evil because my already low self esteem dropped down even more to the point where I believed I was evil and manipulative when I'm actually unable to manipulate or hurt others not even on a normal level to get ahead in life. I'm always targeted by sociopaths/psychopaths. I was severely abused as a child which made me develop very low self esteem so I think they smell me immediately. I'm also very receptive to other's beliefs or references and such or their opinions about me. How do I learn to impose boundaries and make people see me for my real value? I grew up in a very
abusive environment and absolutely all my friends until now have been
abusive, I swear. I just don't want to approach humans anymore. I think I'm developing agoraphobia
No. 999048
>>999006It was an american cockroach, and idk if that's considered big but it was a full grown one and that's
already pretty huge for me. I slept in another room the whole night. Hoping for a more roach-free future the both of us!
No. 999051
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>>995088ntayrt but I would also love a christmas card if it's still on the table. I'd send you one back too
lolcows.r.us@protonmail.com
No. 999053
>>999046We took a walk to clear my mind and he said something like "remember when we met? I liked you more when you didn't talk" and he said it was a joke but it really hurt me and a told him but he just said that he needed to go and that I was
toxic and called me that. And thank you, nonna. I really appreciate it
>>999050I will talk to someone thank you. And yes, I think is time to break up. Thank you.
No. 999185
>>999074This
>>999076You people never learn
No. 999188
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CP thread in OT idk how to report it without opening it… here’s a possum to bless the front page in case there’s more being posted throughout the site
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Desperately trying so hard not to alog and sperg right now but holy shit some of you really need to get your ass best maybe that’s just the only way, violence is the only way yes that’s exactly what I’m saying
No. 999368
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>>999097Marilyn Monroe had a great style though, her photo albums are a pleasure to look at for that reason. I'm not even talking about her glitzy outfits, but casual ones. A small part of the charm is that a white shirt and jeans look great on her. Her outfits were genuinely good though and she rightfully is a fashion icon.
I understand that for that reason it's "basic" to love her style instead of Nana Rapeblossom's, some obscure Japanese blogger's or whatever altcow's that is making the rounds on Instagram.
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I hate it when anons reply to like, 5 different posts at a time like we were all waiting for them to share their opinions or something
No. 999384
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>>999345>>999350I'm moving from a city with sidewalks, restaurants and little shops to a suburb: no sidewalks, shops are side of the road things at least 10 minutes away only accessible by car, 2 houses away from a highway because they want to possibly retire in the next 2 years. The only plus is a small gardened area, maybe my mind will change but them being gone for most of the day will help. If I can find an online job/ wfh that's not a scam, that would be the greatest help I could get.
I just don't understand how even my older and younger sisters tell me I'm acting like a spoiled brat, bc no one listened to what I explicitly and repeatedly told them a week ago: that I wanted to buy my first drink by myself to celebrate the milestone of turning 21. Instead I got a screaming lecture on how I'm not focused on important things and will become an alcoholic. I have NEVER threatened to stab anyone, bullied anyone, made bomb threats, smashed my daughter's cake and pulled a knife on her for crying, snuck out at night, skipped school, hung out smoking weed in a hotel room full of guys, sold my laptop for money, tried to kill myself over a boyfriend like other people did in my city. But I'm the daughter who gets yelled at, told I'm being disrespectful and dramatic by defending myself from my dad's verbal abuse. And none will ever know except anons who read my vents. I can only tell literal strangers instead of shitty therapists they try to force on me for "acting crazy". Literally while I was typing this most, if not all of my sewing material was thrown away, but if I say or do anything my room will be destroyed.
No. 999387
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>>999368I realize I gave a pretty boring example… this tumblr has a pretty wide selection of her outfits:
https://marilynmonroefashion.tumblr.com/I understand her style isn't for everyone (and wouldn't look good on many people), but I could never side-eye anyone for looking up to her
No. 999393
>>999371ty
nonny it was pissing me off kek
No. 999423
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>>999387Thanks for posting she is so beautiful
No. 999433
>>999417You still have to choose your pieces (taking your body shape into consideration), accessorize, match shoes and bags, wear clothes accentuating your body etc. Check out the blog if you want. The sweaters and shorts, as well as what's now seen as vintage dresses, Marilyn's glamours outfits… all of them are timeless and iconic.
>I don't really see how wearing mostly one-pieces (aka require no/little styling) and boring basic tops and bottoms = great styleIt doesn't matter how many clothes you put on yourself — what matters if it looks good.
No. 999560
>>993458I love my grandma and most the time taking care of her is not as bad as my grandpa was but man I cannot stand when she has a BM accident. I know she can't control it I just am someone who pukes easily so everytime I gotta get her cleaned up from that I WILL puke at some point.
Like today I'm getting her bed cleaned while she's on the commode and go to clean her up. Well she cant tell if she is going or not so she stands up, I wipe & then a log falls right into my gloved hands. That was it this time, immediately puked in the sink. So now not only do I gotta clean her up & get her changed & clean the toilet & floor but now I got a nasty ass sink to clean too ugggggh.
No. 999647
>>999569AHHHHH ANON CONGRATULATIONS
it’s only up from here
No. 999666
Just did my Christmas shopping for my failson uncle. I put it off for so long because I didn’t know what to get him, not because I don’t know him well but because he literally has nothing going on. He’s nearly 50 and has no wife, no kids, no long-term relationship, no pets, no homeownership, and no hobbies. All my moms brothers and uncles are failures to some level but he really takes the cake. Imagine Comic Book Guy from the Simpsons but if he was also really into the rave scene. His Facebook is exclusively photos from 10+ years of him and friends off the shits at raves, posing with women who the older I get the more I suspect were sex workers. He smoked something at my cousins wedding that turned him into a lunatic, and we had to drive him back to where he was staying with my grandparents, from which he disappeared in the middle of the night and didn’t show up again until 10am the next morning. He can’t drive, has a shit menial call centre job and absolutely no ambition to elevate himself, and yet he’s still got a scrote sense of superiority. About 10 years ago my dad offered him a short-term stay on our farm so he could teach him to drive the paddock car and eventually help him get his license, and he turned up his nose at him and said he “prefers to fly” (he actually has to take e bus for 5 hours every time he visits his parents kek). He’s also just a weirdo dick in general. My sister had a big birthday party a few years ago, and he stormed the DJ booth to play trance music that not a single person wanted to listen to. He also pulled me aside to make sure my (early 20’s) friend didn’t think he (mid 40’s) was following her around all night, bc he’d “seen her around” before in the city and didn’t want her thinking he was stalking her or some shit. Just shows were his mind is at when that’s the first thing he thinks to make sure of kek.
I just genuinely don’t know how men can cope with being such huge failures. It’s especially frustrating that my grandparents give him a pass and coddle him for being a failure to launch when they kicked my mother out at 15 and made her drop out and get a job to support herself for basically no reason.
No. 999670
>>999669I can’t even fucking sell it because NO ONE FUCKING SHOPS THERE
Maybe I’ll just buy some lotions and shit to donate to a womens shelter idk, couldve really fucking used that money though
No. 999678
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I felt so depressed lately that I dyed my blonde hair to black, straight up black box dye with no color filler in between. I’m 30 and hated how older I looked with it and was just tired of trying to get the “godly platinum white hair” while killing my natural Mexican hair with bleach and hair color remover.
I’ve been platinum blonde in the past with the help of professionals but I’m broke so I’ll just wait to get a permanent day job to afford it all again. It’ll probably fade to navy blue like before (this ain’t the first time I’ve done this) and I’m cool with that ‘cause I won’t be dying it for awhile. Picrel isn’t me
No. 999723
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>>999678Good for you. I've always adored black hair and found bleaching/blonde worship to be the most overrated aspect of women's beauty. It's so annoying having sisters say their fried hair is so "luxurious" when it doesn't suit their skin tone and bleaching is so much more damaging. I wouldn't recommend box dye at all but it's too late now kek.
No. 999882
>>999854What do you mean?
>>999871Then why are you here?
No. 999924
>>999895KEK now I read her post singing
>>999866>sage because this post is also stupidYes, it is extremely stupid
No. 999925
>>999384Please realize that you are not going to get raped or qssaulted or something by moving in with strangers. Especially because you do not have to live with men.
Check Facebook marketplace and Craigslist for roommate wanted ads that have "WOMEN ONLY" or "looking for female roommate" in the title and something along the lines of "about us: we are 2 females…blabla" or something indicating the poster is a female. If it's a man it's usually pretty clear because there's sexual undertones in it.
Women posting these ads are not men pretending to be women, and you will not be hurt in these situations.
Even then, you can ask for a timestamp from them when you reach out or ask to have a phone call or FaceTime or meet up or anything to calm yourself.
Secondly, please recognize that what you are doing is a sunk cost fallacy. You are allowing your fear of the unknown to outweigh the known. The unknown in this situation being moving out, the known being what will happen if you stay living with your parents.
I'm going to tell you straight: you are being a retard to act as if staying with your parents is the "safe" choice. It is not.
Too often, we forget to evaluate the costs of the "safe" and "known" option. I want you to seriously consider what your life will be like in 5 years if you stay living with your parents.
Well… firstly, you will move to the suburb, and then you will be trapped. Then, your parents will retire. That means they will be home more to harass you. And if you're struggling to have a job, they will treat you like their little servant. Sounds pretty miserable and like you'd be even more suicidal.
Now let's weigh the cons of leaving: you have to be around strangers, you might be financially unstable.
Let's consider the pros: you won't be abused by your parents anymore, you won't be trapped in the suburb, you will have independence and not have to fear your shit being messed with ever again.
Trust me when I say, moving out is WAY easier than your parents will make it seem. This is coming from someone whose
abusive parents gaslit them into believing they would never be able to afford living on their own.
You need to get out
nonnie because this will destroy you. You will never be able to know how relieving and good it feels to be free of the burden of living with parents like that until you finally escape.
How much money do you have saved up? When does your family move to the suburb?
Are you in America? If so, does your state have anything like food stamps or medicare or literally anything like that?
No. 999927
I've been completely selfless when it comes to my relationship with my husband. It's partly my fault for marrying such a man, but basically I have been the driver of all things handy and domestic while juggling my own career. He doesn't care about manning up and stepping up, we have talked and argued about this countless times. Basically if I don't do things then nothing gets done. Thank goodness he refuses to see a doctor because he hasn't gotten me pregnant yet but I imagine killing myself if I threw a baby into this dynamic.
I do so much in the way of acts of service. Cleaning up after his messes and clutter without demanding his praises, cooking him delicious food most friends envy yet he rejects, taking his criticisms during chores while he sits on his ass, listening to his same work tirades which he never does anything about, putting up with settling for watching tv and going to bed at 8pm everyday because he's boring, etc.
I don't neglect him. I am very sweet to him and fuck him so that every malecentric need of his is met. Because I care a lot. He gets everything from me on demand and yet I always feel like I lose out.
A couple nights ago we had a party at our house. It took me my entire two days off but I cleaned our entire house by myself, bought all groceries for it by myself, did all the prep and cooking by myself, and then did most of the guest entertaining while husband made a drunk idiot out of himself. He contributed very little even with my nagging.
Well after he drunkenly crashed upstairs to bed early after the guests went home, I revved up a conversation with a guy I've known online for over a decade. I was angry and just needed someone validating and familiar. I didn't want to bitch to my friends. He let me vent about my day. He lives an ocean away and I will never meet him irl so I feel fine telling him whatever. Maybe I was just turned on by his levity and the genuine attention he paid to me. He flattered me with compliments, and even though I knew where it was going I did not care. I just wanted my body appreciated and to feel desired, with aggressive male energy I never get from my husband. We had a type of emotional and sexual closeness before I met my husband, so he got flirtacious and reminiscent. The conversation was turning sexual and I was starting to feel up my tits before I noticed my husband had snuck down the stairs to eavsdrop and confronted me angrily about my "cheating." He blew up at me. I apologized and told him I did something impulsive, selfish, and stupid based on my feelings, but that there was no chance of anything going further since this was strictly someone online that I would block immediately. The interrogation lasted all night and he's been ribbing me ever since. He told me that indeed the situation would have escalated into me "masturbating," which apparently is the highest of hells.
He flops back and forth between forgiving me, fucking me, but then reopening the subject to victim more. Despite how I am trying to make it up to him, he's been treating me like I dragged a man physically into our home and fucked him on our bed, and he has told me there is no difference between that and what I did. He asks me "no win" questions so no matter how I answer he cuts my response down to extrapolate something negative from it. He repeatedly says how he cannot trust me anymore.
I know I fucked up, but it feels more like a punishment and not someone truly grieving about a trespass. It's like he's gotta convince me that what I've done is somehow net worse than how he's been treating me on almost a daily basis. If I knew he was gonna treat me like getting some internet attention was the same as sucking some guy's dick or meeting up to fuck, then maybe I ought to have done so for all the trouble and hassle this little mistake has given me. It's such a man thing to blow up at their girlfriends and wives about their use of the internet for what boils down to porn purposes and equating it to betrayal. I would have been called psychotic had I called out my ex when I found the same paid camgirl sites in his browsing history, or when he'd have days out around town with one of his girl "friends" who happened to blow into town.
I told my husband about some of his behavior that might have tempted me to stray, but of course he denied it and now it's clear I will have to keep a written score.
I feel so vengeful. Why did I bother with all this effort and everything I ever did for him if he was just gonna take this moment of weakness and use it as a weapon against me indefinitely.
He says he'll work on it but I don't know if this will be worth dealing with his suspicion. I wish my company would fucking promote me already so I could afford to live on my own in case this doesn't work out so I won't become homeless for the second time in my life.
No. 999939
>>999927Your husband sounds like a lazy piece of shit.
>I wish my company would fucking promote me already so I could afford to live on my own in case this doesn't work out so I won't become homeless for the second time in my life.You already know your relationship is miserable, and you already see the breakup coming.
If I were you, I'd tidy up my job resume and send out applications to jobs that pay more with a nice cover letter sucking the dick of the company to maximize my chances.
And if I were you, I'd do this until I could land a job that paid more so I could get out of this situation.
No. 1000033
>>999828I like this idea but I think it is more of a date night than a surprise present, I'd rather go with him to pick something. I added some gloves to the order since he mentioned being cold.
I finished my (online) gift shopping. One little cousin gets a Godzilla shirt. Another gets a Hisoka plush because she has trash taste. And another gets a Warrior cats book she has been wanting. All the adults are getting homemade coffee cake. My coworkers are getting donuts.
No. 1000131
>>995453if it stays the same or gets worse i'm going to dump him. i am focusing on myself in the meantime, getting healthier, prettier, sociable, smarter, busier.
he is the best bf aside from this coomer shit. he hasn't done it before at all. him liking hentai was a red flag though, warning other nonnies.
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See some "nb" scrote who likes to dress feminine posting from my town about feeling weird about going to a women/non-binary only climbing gym night event. And how uncomfortable and offended he was with the phrasing. Fuck off god, I wanna message him so bad saying piss off its not meant for you.
Fucking women always have to give a inch for them to take a mile. Can't have shit to ourselves and have to sound inclusive as well.
No. 1000194
>>1000167Sending you love
nonny ♥
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>>999723Thank you for the encouragement, anon <3 and I understand the aversion to box dyes but it was the only thing I could afford at this time (or so I thought). Those Revlon box dyes got expensive when last year, one could get two of them for $4 but the price increased to $8.
Now I look like an anime girl kek
No. 1000260
>>1000243i really don't buy that liking redheads is eurocentric, the human eye is naturally pleased looking at bright colors, it's way deeper and more ancient than colonialism. that's why we like flowers and butterflies and parrots, though the eurocentrism on top of all that plays a part also, even if it's not the cause of people liking colorful hair.
but on a personal taste level i agree blondes as we see them everyday are way overrated. the blonde women i know are eh and for the fake ones the hair almost always doesn't match their undertones.
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>>999723This post makes me feel better about my natural black hair kek. I've been dying it a light brown for about 6 years now, but have only just decided a few weeks ago that I won't go out to re-dye it again. I realized that I'm just tired of redyeing my hair every 3 months to keep the color up, so I'm just going to grow out my hair and enjoy the black.
I also have a friend who has naturally light/ashy brown hair and I think the color is absolutely beautiful and it's my ideal color, but he dyes his hair black kek while I dyed my hair to try to achieve his natural color kek. Grass is always greener on the other side I guess.
No. 1000282
>>1000218>>1000238Thanks for the responses and advice, after reading
>>1000229 's comment I decided to check my wardrobe more thoroughly and turns out she had crawled her way through a gap in the bottom of the wardrobe and was hiding there! I feel so relieved that she didn't get out.
No. 1000359
>>1000357he will talk to you fake being a woman and pretend he is understanding of women issues then he will open up about his true beliefs and link you hundreds of articles about how women cheat in relationships, are attracted to dark triad men, are attracted to
abusive men and can only orgasm with a wealthy partner
No. 1000381
>>1000341A study about Tinder usage in Belgium by Timmermans and Courtois (2018) found that 21.87% (95% CI: 18.66, 25.07) of female users, but only 9.33% (6.48, 12.18) of male users used Tinder to engage in casual sexual relationships, i.e. 2.34 times (1.67, 3.29) as likely as men (source of these figures, also replicated below). These sex differences are likely in truth even more extreme because women are known to lie and downplay their partner counts, especially when it comes to short-term dating and sluttiness. As expected, women engage less frequently in one-night stands because that's particularly damning to their reputation, but also contradicts their choosy nature as predicted by Bateman's principle.
Similarly, a 2018 study by Rosenfeld based on the How Couples Meet and Stay Together dataset (HCMST), found that among individuals who actively date and were currently single, i.e. people who live an active, uncommitted dating life, heterosexual men met an average of 2.4 partners for dating or sex in the past 12 months whereas that figure was 5.1 partners for women.
[20:19]
Cohen and Shotland (1996) computed correlations between when people thought sex should start and when they actually began having sex. For the men, the correlation was not significant (r = .19), which implies they had no say, whereas for women the correlation was very high (r = .88). Moreover, women rarely initiate, and hence get to choose. Hence it is likely that women cause this pattern somewhat more than men.
[20:19]
This finding is strong evidence of Briffault's law which states that women have a surprising amount of power in any given relationship. The fact that women get to choose results from the principle of least interest. The party with the least interest gets to decide on nearly all conditions of a contract as the party with more interest has fewer alternative options that are as valuable to them and hence more likely makes compromises. As men are more attracted to women and are more sexually active, this means women always have much more options to choose from than men. This is a main cause of hypergamy as making compromises means dating down, which in turn implies that women date up.
this is what he sent me just now
No. 1000409
>>1000381>These sex differences are likely in truth even more extreme because women are known to lie and downplay their partner counts, especially when it comes to short-term dating and sluttiness.Why do men project so much, kek? Whores. Anyway, please post his face anon, I want to see something.
The least he deserves is for his face to be known on a small women's imageboard. That way, we know exactly who to avoid, even if he doesn't do the same catfish schtick in the future. Incels like to use multiple tactics
No. 1000436
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>>1000366This. Idgaf if it's the 'official' discord, that shit is not lolcow, not anon, not shit.
>>1000356Second hand shitty flattery shouldn't make you want to know more about this faggot. If you all are that easily swooned then no wonder the relationship thread is a mess.
No. 1000441
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>>1000426Women on /r9k/ are the biggest bottomfeeders in the entire female population on earth. Even fat bitches on 600lb life with husbands who wash their ass have more dignity and finesse than a dumb bitch constantly browsing r9k. Even female ISIS members have more to be proud of. If you're on 4chan, it should be to derail via trolling and severely piss off scroties, or to spam cock and ball torture in porn threads. "Fembots" go to hell
No. 1000451
>>1000442The lolcow movie nights have much more pleasant anons and honestly had some great conversations there. But I know if anyone starts posting discords it would go to shit. The best nonnies stay anon, the worst are always doing the most annoying aspects of namefagging
>>1000445Yeah I was on 4chan in 2008, when everyone was l33t libertarian and the only political threads were about legalizing it and later on Ron Paul, You Laugh You Lose was actually funny, /b/ was truly random, would troll cat abusers, My Name Is John copypasta, and not infested with pages of porn. Even when r9k was new there were "ask a girl anything" threads and were quite tame, it was just a version of /b/ with longer posts aiming for discussion. Any serious woman sperging would have been met with LMAO VIRGIN and they actually put faggots in their place. I always laugh when these faggots think they're edgy when their website of choice is now basically a CIA observed basket of retards, /pol/ really fucked the whole site and should not have been added.
No. 1000459
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>>1000454NTA, but I agree. I hoped it was trolling but if there's anyone actually talking to males on here, please know they are preying on low self esteem BPD chans and think you're retarded. Never send pics or even entertain males, and assume any male posting on here or any chan looks like pic related
No. 1000461
>>1000457At least wait until she answers the questions to shit on her? Maybe she has yet to answer because she's not even here right now? Maybe she's running errands? Who knows?
>>1000459KEK, what is this? Is this an /fa/ meetup?
No. 1000464
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>>1000461That's /pol/, this is /fa/
No. 1000489
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Found out from my ex fiance that he and his current partner are trying for a kid, and while I don't want to have children ever or even date men anymore, it kind of made me feel like I'm behind everyone and everything. Like he's trying for a kid and has money and I'm scraping by to survive, probably too mentally ill to even be in a relationship. Idk I feel so stupid and childish for not acomplishing anything in life.
I know I shouldn't compare myself to anyone but man… can something in my life go right for once? Please?
No. 1000498
>>1000454>>1000461No sympathy for anyone retarded and lonely enough to entertain a scrote you met off lolcow who was pretending to be a woman. I'm sure that anon shared everything about her life and if she did get a picture of the scrote, he'd spam her nudes everywhere.
>>1000471I agree with you. Those girls are tired and boring. And probably don't have people to talk to IRL so they use /ot/ /g/ and the discord instead. This isn't directed to the anons who quietly just use /g/ and /ot/. I'm talking about the ones who like to feel morally superior for it. You're not lol.
No. 1000526
are all men narcissist and lack any emotional depth? i just talked with my boyfriend about how seeing too much scary shit online at the ripe age of 10 kinda fucked me up, which is why i think porn should be regulated, and it is overall not a good thing to have it. another thing i admitted is having had psychosis once. he did not know how to react, seemed disappointed that i'm not a perfect human on a pedestal with 0 traumas, faults and "negative" opinions. his "best" friends are people he only sees once a week and people he knows from work. he always talks about how great they are because of doing this and doing that. i am also an active person, i work two jobs and i have many hobbies, yet i am not so great now because he has also seen my "bad side". scrotes really think women are just perfect pretty little creatures who should always take care of them, but when we need some support or want a deep discussion of real life issues, we are asking for too much. too dramatic, too hurt, too sad. get a fucking grip. those people you think are so fucking perfect only appear that way because you are not actually close to ANY of them. you just don't see it up front because they are being strategic about it.