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No. 969847
Pour one and vent it all out.
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I’m so sad that Ollie died rip king
No. 969977
>>969969You're not wrong, thank you for the advice.
>>969972It isn't the first time, and chances are I'll do it again. Couldn't imagine being on the receiving end though
No. 970019
>>969992My last relationship I used to just sit there and not say a word while he'd scream for an hour. On more than one occasion I was desperate to pee mid scream session but I wasn't allowed to move. One sided shouting the whole time. I was always curious about whether one day a neighbour would finally call police to check on us. Never happened.
It escalated to actual violence twice. He was the kind to twist logic to make it ok. I so fucking lightly brushed off him as he was getting in my face one day and I was trying to escape feeling trapped… he turned that into me throwing the first punch??? Batshit. I reached the point where I wanted to run any time he started getting annoyed because I now knew he could just imagine that I fucking punched him and he could start beating on me with his version of events forever being that I hit him first. He's abusing someone else now. She has 4 kids, 2 of them are autistic. Wonder how they're dealing with all the screaming in their house now.
No. 970061
>>970043Listen to the other anon; take the train back to Tokyo and go to your embassy. If you try to take a flight out, security is probably going to detain you temporarily to figure out what happened. Most likely they’ll eventually let you go because you have the funds, but who knows if it will be 1 day or 90 days. (You’re going to be banned from re-entry for like 10 years, just fyi). Let your embassy help you out before that happens.
Top kek
nonnie. Are you finally heading home because it’s starting to get cold? Spill the details. Be careful not to look too disheveled while near civilization, that’s a red flag for the omawari-san to come chat with you by the way.
No. 970073
>>970060>>970061I know it seems like a joke but it's not. I am bipolar and I was manic when I traveled to Japan in May, it was so beautiful and I felt like I was alive again. I was supposed to stay for 20 days and I even had a flight back home but I got this idea of staying in a forest and isolating myself here for years or even possibly for the rest of my life. I bought a lot of books, a tent, a cheap Mamachari bike and I went deep in a forest where nobody goes into but the forest is not so far away from civilization for me to be hard to buy food. I ride the bike for around 1 hour and a half to get to the nearest store to buy food.
I have kept myself relatively clean. I've been using wet wipes a lot, I've been brushing my teeth and hair and I have been going to the coin public laundry every other month to clean my clothes. It's been getting very cold and I have gotten ill, I am very afraid of developing pneumonia because my back has been hurting for a couple of days and I've been coughing a lot. I will try to get my shit together today, go to the forest and get my stuff and go to the embassy today since it's early. I really hope they won't detain me or ban me for 5 years. I am embarrassed to tell them my story at the and I hope they will believe me.
No. 970075
>>970043Good luck anon, hopefully the embassy can help you. Perhaps you can say you first overstayed after you hit your head and got confused, and then were too ashamed afterwards, or maybe the embassy have a better idea
Please deliver updates to us when you are safe to do so as long as it's information that won't get you in trouble, I can't handle wondering about another mysterious
nonny that never filled us in for the rest of my life
No. 970076
>>970073Good god
nonny, best of luck!! I don’t have advice but I have questions like did your family think you were missing or did you contact them???
No. 970093
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im tired of seeing this ugly fucking thing from this ugly fucking game everywhere and people thirsting over it. why are you all nemu tier???
No. 970103
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>>970092It doesn't add up
>>970073>>970043You mean to tell me you survived for 6 months, without making any money, in the wilderness and buying food from konbini/mcdonalds/whatever? How? You'd go to McDonalds every other day to charge your phone? What about your family, why didn't they care to ask where you were? Where do you wash your hair or teeth if you were cleaning yourself with wet wipes? Do you travel 1+ hours everyday by bike just to take a shit in some public place or do you shit in the woods? Again, if you are that rich that you could live off of savings in the middle of a japanese forest, why aren't anyone looking for you - coworkers, family?
Bitch, what?
No. 970105
>>970093im [
tired] of seeing this [
UGLY FUCKING THING] from this ugly fucking game [everywhere] and people [
THIRSTING???] over it. why are you all [nemu tier]???
No. 970149
>>970126NAYRT but it
is very confusing how she got into Japan 6 months ago. They've been butthole tight about letting foreigners in, doesn't really matter what country or how much money you have. Like that other anon said, even people with residency status were restricted. It's not impossible to have gotten into the country but it would have been under extremely specific conditions that would be quite remarkable, and considering she said she was supposed to be there only for 20 days, that just sounds like basic tourism without a visa, and therefore doesn't really add up.
I do agree that it's not just possible but unfortunately common to be homeless though, lol.
No. 970168
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>>970165Even if they were kawaii?
No. 970244
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I have real problems and yet I'm sitting here, crying and sobbing about being lonely and useless. It feels like everyone is better than me at the things I do or even try to do, like there's no place for me anywhere. If I post about this on social media and someone were to reach out to me it would be even worse, I don't want anyone to know I'm this pathetic and stupid. I don't have close friends or even acquaintances to talk to. Most of the time I'm fine with it because I won't have to deal with any of the issues they might have, since the friends I used to have would talk about killing themselves frequently and it was very distressing. I just want someone to pity and comfort me whenever I begin to feel like this. I hope it ends soon
No. 970258
>>970253this is probably bad idea advice but depending on how long you have to pay for the auction, you could try to apply for a credit card. they give out basic Discover cards with like a $200 limit to basically anyone who at least has utility bills in their name and doesn't have any outstanding bad debt.
telling you this because i would go breserk if that happened to me. also if your partner has anything of value i'd say you're in the right to pawn it for cash, you can get it back when you get paid again or you can tell him to fucking deal with it. warning: fight
No. 970264
I have developed feelings at an inanimate object - my knife. Its always by my side, i grasp it in my pocket while walking the streets, i swirl, flip and turn it in my hand for hours when i'm alone, it soothes me. I have one or two real, trustworthy friends too, but it feels like no one understands me like my blade. I used to cut myself when i was younger, but this has nothing to do with it, this blade never hurts me on purpose. Btw pic related is not the type of knife i have, i'm just embarrassed to post an image of a type that i do have, because if someone criticized it, it would upset me immensely.
No. 970284
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>>970085>>970086>lefties are the original fascists are you guys retarded?
No. 970288
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I just don't know what the fuck is going on anymore.
No. 970304
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>>970302Anon you're so funny really that sounds like one of those wacky sims furniture descriptions
No. 970327
>>970288honestly
cute and as
>>970292 said trannies will reeee about it
>>970284yes they are, the board and especially /ot/ is infested with 80 IQ rw tardthots currently
No. 970351
>>970334That's awful but you're doing the right thing anon.
Imo continue to save everything that you can, including the videos, and start tipping off newspapers with your story. If they don't get back to you, instead hit up the scrappier social media "journalism" click bait sites. Eventually someone will bite and with enough attention on the story she will be fired.
It would be better if you can find a left wing paper because they will focus on the neglect and harm she is doing rather than the sexy angle.
No. 970356
>>970334Is there a way you could safely dump all of this info on the internet ( tiktok's userbase would love to destroy someone like her) or maybe send it her family to shame her?
As
>>970351 said, newspaper are a great tool. She deserves it and you are a good person for doing all of this research.
No. 970360
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My crush ignored me today when we were in a big group after being all over me on the weekend.
Made me feel so ugly and unwanted and useless. I feel like ghosting myself and everyone.
Just a mess nonnies.
No. 970362
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>>970348By getting some hobbies, friends, a career and building a life you like. Sounds dumb but that's really all you can do not to go crazy, especially when everyone around you is getting married, moving in together and other fun shit becausd they can combine finances
No. 970364
>>970360he's love bombing you, anon. This is part of the plan. He's going to circle around, prob this weekend, and love bomb you again. And you'll go for it because "oh he was so nice last weekend, maybe he was having a bad week etc". Men rely on women to make excuses for them.
When he contact you next, don't respond. I promise you he will all over you again for a few days then back to blanking you. It's a game men play, but if you ignore them it drives them fucking insane.
No. 970365
>>970362You had me up until that last part.
I vented here before about not having a great job but it’s all I can do rn making $8/hr. The realization that I’m poor and don’t have love is making me spiritually weak. I don’t really have friends, cuz they want someone whose more available and this job rarely gives me a day off for as little as they pay me so idk how that’ll work. I don’t have hobbies. I’m not good at a lot of stuff and after working 6am until 2pm all I want to do is lay down and do nothing until it’s time to take melatonin at 7pm so I can sleep by 9 and wake up at 4:30am to do it all over again. I don’t love my life and no one loves me. I’m just really tired. I’m really tired. I’m really tired.
I’m tired of feeling this way and tired of being lonely. It would be so much easier to just off myself than subject myself into a life I see no way of improving. Only issue is that I’m a pussy and also too lazy to put in the effort to either OD or to cut deeper than usual.
No. 970371
>>970367the end goal is you being available to him whenever he wants because you'll be thankful he's love bombing you again and not ignoring you. I promise you, every woman on this board has experienced this, it is 100% no reflection on you. You trusted him because why the fuck would you think he'd be playing games? He's the psycho.
And no, he wouldn't do this to someone he liked, but most moids are only capable of liking 0.1% of women, and it's the same group of women. He does think you're attractive, because he wouldn't try this stuff on someone he wasn't attracted to.
This of it this way, you shared the same weekend. WOuld you blank him? No? Why not? Exactly.
>>970369you are gullible. Lovebombing is not an elaborate plan it is something mostly men do to get sex on tap. He was showing her interest and turned it off next day. That is textbook lovebombing and you being sister-zoned doesn't prove otherwise.
No. 970377
>>970367other anon is right you are being lovebombed. delete him and ignore.
>>970372but he did show her interest
No. 970382
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>>970377I don't know really, he was a good looking older guy with a car and he seemed cool at the time, he would have conversations(well more arguments) with his sister and then interject and ask me and out other group of friends who was right and who was wrong and most of the time I would agree with him and he'd say "see she's smart"
when he'd drop us off, we'd leave and would hang out in one of our friend's house and he'd stay in the car and sometimes I wouldn't leave and I'd stay with him and ask him questions and try to talk to him cause he seemed stressed, he never trauma dumped on me but he was "very open" not just with me but with everyone
I don't know what his deal was, my friend said even though she was his sister dhe never understood him either
he was a deeply troubled person and he left home some time back, he's still alive but there's nothing about him online and its impossible to contact him, so I can't never ask him whether he liked me or not
No. 970391
>>970366You’d get tired of me lol. Everyone’s my friend until I’m distressed then they gossip about I’m a psycho
toxic bitch. Girls like me just aren’t meant for anyone platonic or otherwise.
No. 970404
>>970365A job from 6 am til 2 pm is my dream job ngl anon. I could self study and get my high school diploma, attend a good college and have a better job that’s less exhausting physically. Idk. Pasture is greener on the other side. Maybe try having different a schedule
.
No. 970428
>>970391then the common denominator is you. you sound miserable to be around and it's probably making you act like a shitty friend which is why you have none. i've known so many people like you.
go to therapy or get on medication, go to school, improve your life. no one will do it for you.
No. 970437
>>970428If it was that easy to go to therapy I could. But I got bills to pay and adding a fucking therapist would have me living off bread and jam for the rest of my days and I’m already basically living on canned soup and rice, eating once a day just to have spare cash to put into gas money.
And aside from that mental health care in the states a fuckin joke. I’m not going to spill my guts to some cunt only for them to go on Twitter and go “listen to what this skinny starving bitch had to say today”
No. 970479
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I'm feeling incredibly suicidal, incredibly hopeless right now. I've ruined close friendships and relationships since I was a kid with my spastic temperament and need to be right, as well as my need to be in control.
I can't stop hurting inside. I want this to end. I wish I were a different person. If I could get a lobotomy to fix it, I would. I'd just like to stop being a negative person, would love to love myself. I'd love to stop snapping at everyone that loves me, I'd love to stop being paranoid and I'd love to just stop being such a shitty person.
There's no way to fix it. NO WAY. No matter how many good days I have, no matter how many good moments there are, I will always find a way to ruin it.
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>>970496wtf? stop seeing her immediately. that sounds like she wants to make you miserable so she can get more money by treating you. i hope you find a better therapist, anon. also congrats on going sober and not using this enabling behavior to go back to drinking. i engaged in a lot of day drinking during lockdown but i stopped in may and only had two sips on two different social occasions over the past six months, but the urge comes back in waves. stay strong, sister.
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>>970514what about meowing ? i-is it allowed ?
No. 970557
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I'm about 6 episodes into Neon Genesis Evangelion and all three main women so far were introduced sexually. The opening also only has the female cast half naked. I wish I could skin scrotes alive for making things like this the norm.
Oh boy, I can't wait to see how Asuka will be introduced.
No. 970583
>>970557>>970557>Oh boy, I can't wait to see how Asuka will be introduced.oh noNitpicking, but Hikari, Maya's and Rei's introduction wasn't sexual (either the quick flash or gEt InTo ThE rObOt or Rei gets the hose again). The scene that you probably mean… Yeah. At least Rei's scene, as creepy as it is, gives a lot of information about her personality and issues (
and hints at her being a vessel for Gendo's Yui obsession – hell, it may suggest sexual abuse if you want to interpret it). Misato's scene? I have no fucking idea what that was supposed to achieve, it makes zero sense
and yes, I'm aware of the "she's trying to connect to Shinji with he sexuality, cause she is so broken she doesn't know any other way!!!" thing. She didn't try to fuck Ritsuko or her co-workers, which implies she has some boundaries and common sense. No fucking way I'll believe she's a pedo. I'm trying to treat the EoE kiss as an isolated, last ditch effort to force Shinji to not make her sacrifice herself all for nothing. Ritsuko didn't bother me, as it's harmless.
I love NGE and it has been important for me for half of my life (to a varying degree). It doesn't change the fact that there is a lot to criticize and that the series would be God tier if Haruhi Anno authored it instead.
No. 970586
>>970334how come I didn't see the original post? someone has it on hand?
I second
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>>970557>>970565b-b-but anno hates otakus and ackchyually it's a critique on the ackchyually ackchyually ackchyualllly
No. 970599
>>970594The only people that I know that are okay with it are boomers, children of parents with huve age gaps and men. The majority of women, unless really young, seem to be strongly against it.
It also depends on how old everyone is - 30s and 40s are okay due to life experience and already being independent but someone in their mid 20s and someone that's 19 sure as shit isn't
No. 970602
>>970599I don't know
nonny, I wouldn't want a 40 year old balding, stinky and most likely overweight scrote near me when I'm in my fresh 30's living my best life
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>>970598If you know Anno, you have to be aware that he is a big sweaty otaku himself. I mean, it shows in his every goddamn anime.
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I tried to take some progress pictures and I look so bad in them. I've been going to the gym for years now and do have some muscle but the pictures… fuck I look like a box with limbs. This can't be how other people see me? Depressing
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I thought I wasn’t addicted to socmed until I realized that not posting =/= no addiction. Despite having a 0 follower private account, I’m still spending ages scrolling and lurking on profiles. Usually people I really want to be or befriend so I don’t know if I can kick this habit. When my phone breaks down I might have to make myself buy a cheap flip phone to force myself away from apps.
No. 970702
>>970622Oh, that's very relatable, I had the same issue for a long time. It's hard to find a balance between actually finishing pieces and also studying and getting to a point where they are good. It's like you start this thing and you can picture it and it's fun, but then you take a step back after working on it for some hours or look at it the next day and something is horribly off or wrong and you lose all drive.
To fix it I stopped thinking about the art I make in terms of "big" and "small", I don't trust myself to not fuck up big illustrations or paintings, so I don't try to plan them out. I realized that I can't work on something for too long, so I will spend a few hours on a drawing or painting and if I feel like adding a background or more detail I will do so without much pressure. If it turns out good I'll be happy, if it's bad that's fine too, it didn't take much time anyway and I can always draw something else tomorrow.
I don't know if this would work for you too though, I've seen other people make the point of overcoming this by still finishing your piece. "Polishing a turd" so to say. What exactly are you struggling with? Is it the underlying fundamentals or rendering? It was the worst for me when I tried learning digital painting because it would take me a long time to paint and it would start looking good, but then after working on it for some days I'd notice that the face was all fucked or an arm was too long and I just didn't feel like fixing or finishing it. So my main problem wasn't just speed but also my bad anatomy
No. 970767
>>970594Kinda long but.. my experience with it. I dated someone 12 years older than me before. If you asked me during our first year of dating I'd be singing its praises. "he's so mature" If you asked me in our second year I'd be putting on a brave face and an act to cover up the cracks. If you asked me a year after that I'd cry to you about all the shit I unpacked since getting out of there. I was having a near nervous breakdown by the time we split. It had everything, every type of abuse and when I reacted to abuse I was called immature and moody. I believed that. I thought he was a saint for putting up with my moods.. he assaulted me, forced sex acts, belittled me, screamed, then silent treatment. I had nobody to compare him to. The power dynamic was just fucked. His main ongoing criticism of me was that I cried all the time therefore I'm immature or mentally ill or hormonal or whatever.. if someone treats you the way he did you'd fucking cry every day too. I hate that I ate up his shit about it all being on me. I was told I was essentially driving him to abuse me.
I was dumb and mainly because I was inexperienced, I was prey. My dad met him once, talked for 30 mins or so and never shuts up about how good he was for me. He has no clue what I went through and the act I had to keep up. For 2 years I had near constant swollen eyes from crying and then rushing to leave the house and act normal again. My body was screaming at me to stop and pay attention to the constant knot in my stomach. In the end he was talking about getting a mortgage together and then one week later he told me about his mistress and how he was moving in with her and all her kids instead. She was a young vulnerable mother whose man had just walked out on her so fresh prey.
I protected this guys image at the time so would anybody believe me if I told them the reality afterwards? I didn't even bother. Apart from therapists lol. Now I'm older myself.. I could use and manipulate the hell out of an 18 year old purely through my lived experience and knowing the mental gap that exists between those ages. But I fucking wouldn't. Screw men who think they're winning at life by playing games with young people. Anyone can do it. Any thirty something can run mental rings around a 20 year old. You're not smart, you're lacking something if you seek that out. They play the role of the 'wiser partner' but emotionally they're usually stunted to a point where no woman their age will stick around. They have to go young to find someone who has no clue what normal and healthy relationships look like yet. Bonus points if they come from a messed up background.
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I’ve been distant from my old friend group for quite some time due to different goals and opinions in life…..and the fact that they are also all ~non binary/gender queer~ and love to bring it up every conversation. They invited me over for “friendsgiving” and I accepted since I haven’t seen them in years but now I get a text saying that we should all go to the next city where some cafe is having a trans pride celebration. I already told them that I wasn’t doing anything that day but now I have to think of a way to cancel. I hate this shit so much.
No. 970841
>>970594one of my friends is 23 and dating a guy 20 years older than her and it creeps me tf out. she always talks about how sweet he is and how she wants to marry him and have kids. i wouldn't be surprised if he turns out to be massively
abusive (like outside of the fact that he's a pedo adjacent groomer preying on an inexperienced 23 year old) once they break up.
No. 970849
>>970837You do realise that bleeding isn't mandatory right? Not all virgins bleed in the first place so if he asks just point that out. No bleeding means the vagina is actually aroused and comfortable taking it anyway.
>>970838Just say you have diarrhoea. Nobody questions that.
No. 970863
>>970848i don't think he would've cared in the first place but the lie is way, way too deep to backtrack on now and it would definitely sour our trust
>>970849i bled a lot when i actually lost my virginity but to be fair i was not aroused at all, it was pretty much forced in. there was a lot of blood so i just assumed everyone bleeds?
No. 970879
>>9708696 years isn't that bad if you started dating when you were both out of college and living adult lives.
My bf is 4 years younger than me (we're both in our 20s) but I of course wouldn't have touched him back when he was still in high school, I'm not normally into super young dudes. He just aged very rapidly, I thought he was older than me at first.
>>970876Also this.
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Fuck i fuckin hate munchies but maybe im just a hypochondriac myself. I've had chronic physical health issues for 2 years now, i finally have a better gp after the previous one retired but wasted a year on that lazy piece of shit who didn't get my blood tested. My extreme vitamine d deficit is okay now but my jaw feels like its portruding forward more and more each day, it's clicking all the time, my ribcage hurts, i do not have a sense of gravity from being an assburger toe walking freak and dont even know how to stand up straight like a normal human being.
I dont know how to work on these issues alongside my working life so i guess i will just keep going to the office until the pain becomes unbearable and unfixable???
I fucking hate this. I just want someone to baby me. I finally understand disgusting ddlg bitches now. But I don't want a gross dom daddy, i want a nornal dad to take me to the gp and fucking stand up for me so i can get the treatment i need.
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I can't take it anymore there HAS to be something happening in the air or space or something that gives us all collective brain damage.
No. 970969
>>970933Thank you! I'm sorry that happened to you as well. I feel like another reason I can't let go is because I don't have many friends where I am now, just 2 male friends, they're ok, but I've typically been closer/more open in some ways with my girl friends. Where I'm moving to I have acquaintances who I can see myself becoming closer with but it's the uncertainty that fucks me up.
I started writing a letter like you said, but I'm so impulsive that I want to hand it to her when I'm done writing, which would ultimately solve nothing imo. (I live 2 minutes away from her so I wouldn't be going out of my way) Oh well, I'll probably just throw myself into working more and focus on selling all of my shit for the move. Focusing on the good times in our friendship just makes me want to cry rn.
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>>969847I'm visiting my mom who has apparently followed creepy ass Jeffrey marsh on instagram, it's so jarring suddenly hearing breathy man-voice talking about
valid enbies coming out of her phone.
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My brother has harped on for just two times about ethan becker but that is already enough for me. I’m annoyed that he likes him and his whatever content. I feel like I can’t even tell him to not bother with his videos because I see that often times things I say are brushed off. When he brought him up to me I told him, “I don’t like his videos,” to which he said “yea me neither but he has good advice,” but I don’t think so. I don’t even know how he can stand his videos, I have watched a few and they’re just too much, same with the titles, I don’t understand the appeal at all. The advice is lukewarm or nonexistent. I don’t know if he’s been discussed much in the art salt threads (I look at them occasionally), I don’t know if it’s the same deal with d’angelo where he would hint he lurks here so people refrained from talking about him. Ugh honestly they’re just both annoying channels and I never liked them. My unconscious synapses are twitching, I don’t even want to waste my conscious brain to analyze why I’m bothered, it’s just like background noise knowing that my brother is consuming obnoxious ass videos for muh art. Sperg over.
No. 971040
>>971031i'm not into art youtubers as much and idk what to comment about ethan becker. your rants is still legit anon, just that no one wants to sound vendetta-y in the thread if they just find the influencer annoying/cringey.
aaaand i agree, i got some new art people came to me and fangirled over ethan becker and I was just, meh. His humor doesn't click for me, I don't find his videos entertaining. The "fake roast" humor really just pissed me off more, idk but I find those kinds of rhetoric humor only works for those older millennials who still live inside their edgy 2000s Borat shows. Good for those who finds his advice "helpful", I suppose. Can just tell me to use perspective tool without 5000 layers of irony tbh.
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first time in a genuinely healthy relationship with a guy. i ended up taking his virginity which is suprising (didn't expect him to be a virgin & to have not have dated anyone before really). only problem is that i am very insecure about my body because ive lost a lot of weight (loose skin, stretch marks) and we're long distance.. i worry that he'll find a more attractive girl sooner or later because he enjoys meeting new people and going out to bars
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>>970957update:
>for about four months i meet a scrote, we bond, kiss, cuddle, sext, have actual sex, and text each other every single day about how we are doing>he never explains what we are and im too afraid to ask cause i like him so much>i finally ask today>"nonnie its not like that im sorry i lead you on. i dont see you romantically it was my fault if i made it feel that way. i should have made that clear earlier. i like you a lot as a friend">"thanks. no worries. just wanted to clear things up">stop replying and cry and cry for a few hours>he texted me some passive agressive shit cause i stopped responding and i am obviously never talking to him againi am stupid and i do stupid things and then get shocked when stupid happens. i hate men.
No. 971133
>>971129Also, since this is a vent thread, I'm gonna vent about all the stuff I hate about him
>He's a porn addictLiterally non-stop porn. If I went to sleep or left the room or take a shower or went outside he'd go straight to porn. I never really had a problem with porn until I starting living with him. He'd even be watching porn while I was taking care of our NEWBORN fresh from the hospital baby alone. I will never forget all the times I've walked in on him or looked through his phone and seen how often he was watching. I ended up being so paranoid. I couldn't even sleep unless he was sleeping because I knew what he'd get up to. Literally what kind of person watches porn while their partner is struggling to take care of a child alone in another room. I couldn't even focus on taking care of a babby because all I could think about is "what's he doing???" I'm disgusted. If not porn it's instagram models or youtube models. I used to be ""sex positive"" but now even seeing people talk about porn makes me cry. I had so much constant anxiety and sadness all day. It's better now, I think.
>He would look up naked pictures of my sister all the time and then lie if I asked him if he did it He said he thought there's nothing wrong with it. He's just curious.
>He's morbidly obese, drinks over a 6-pack of beer a day, AND is a smokerWhat a catch amiright
>He was always annoyed or negativeHe'd always be sighing at me or telling me I was doing stuff wrong. He complained about every single thing that I did or other people did.
Idk there's lots of other stuff, thanks for reading my vent if you've read this far. You can feel free to make fun of me for being dumb and having a child if you want, I deserve it. You can also make fun of my ex.
No. 971135
>>971129>Not to mention I now have saggy boobas and stretch marks so I'm disgusting. so you think every woman is disgusting just because of that? you really are juvenile and painfully 22.
>It's like there's this "brain fog" and I can barely even think about anything. My memory has gone to shit too.this is probably related to pregnancy, google pregnancy memory loss or forgetfulness. not sure how to fix this but it's not unheard of.
anyways, try and look if there are any clinics or organizations that offer counseling/advice to single moms and work from there. get your kid into daycare or whatever and get a job. i'm sure your mom won't get tired of you as long as you don't sit on your disgusting saggy stretchmarked (your words) ass all day and make an effort to not leech off of her. good luck, anon!
No. 971146
>>971135>so you think every woman is disgusting just because of that?Hm.. no actually, just me. Everyone else is fine and perfect just the way they are. I'm worried if I ever find another romantic/sexual partner they'll see my naked boobs and think they're gross and floppy.
>this is probably related to pregnancy, google pregnancy memory loss or forgetfulnessI think you're right. I was never really this way until after I gave birth. It's been almost two years though, I thought it should have went away
>get your kid into daycare or whatever and get a jobThis is hopefully my plan. I never went to college or anything (is it too late?) so I'd be fine with basic retail probably. This is a dumb question, but how do I get "motivated" to do stuff? I feel fine staying at my moms house and "leeching off her", but I know I should get a job, I'm just too.. comfortable being a "stay at home (single) mom"
Thank you anon for responding it's very kind of you.
>>971138I do like my kid, he's really cute. I feel like I love him because I'm supposed to love him. I see him as like a nephew or something. If I had given him up I'd be ostracized I believe.
No. 971149
>>971133I don't even know what to say other than yea I feel bad for you. He sounds like a total coomer/predator that was looking for a lonely 'barely' legal girl to fuck. Like the other anon I would have said maybe adoption or your mom taking care of the kid but it's been 3 years, 4 years from carrying so I'd assume you love them too much to just give away. Why the fuck was he looking up naked pics of your sister? Does she do porn content, did she show you her nudes in some messages or something? Is she even younger than you because christ that's disturbing. Maybe other anons can recommend good mom sites like mumsnet i think allows both ex-troon wives and mothers who are unhappy to vent. You should look into social security checks and food cards for your kid because my family used them. Colleges should be able to give you grants since you have 0? income and a 'dependent'
I am sorry anon, just know you really aren't the only 19-25 demographic that god fucked over by a gross older man.
No. 971153
>>971146>Hm.. no actually, just me. Everyone else is fine and perfect just the way they are. I'm worried if I ever find another romantic/sexual partner they'll see my naked boobs and think they're gross and floppy. they won't. you should probably take a break from dating for a while, focus on your kid and your career/education and then get back into dating when you got your first degree or a stable job. don't throw yourself at the next trashy guy just because you need validation. my mom is morbidly obese, has saggy boobs and stretchmarks all over but about 3 years after divorcing my dad she found a nice, loving guy who has been with her for almost 20 years now. you're only 22, it's not like your life is over. there's plenty of time for dating later in life. i think right now you need a break from being a gf/wife, focus on yourself/your kid and get your priorities in order. i saw your post about what a coomer your kid's dad was/is, and i think you should maybe print it out and put it somewhere you see it frequently, as a constant reminder that you'll never stoop so low again. get high af standards for the next man you let in your life. maybe even check out female dating strategy on reddit to see how you can weed out the trashy ones.
>I think you're right. I was never really this way until after I gave birth. It's been almost two years though, I thought it should have went awaymaybe it'll improve once you're no longer a full time mom and can 'train your brain'? but i'd check with a doctor or maybe some of those mom forums, maybe they know better.
>I never went to college or anything (is it too late?) never! i went back to school at 24 and started my bachelor's at 26. i'm 29 and in grad school now. there were people much older than me and they're just fine. it's never too late to start anything - if anything, it takes even more effort to get back on track! i used to be ashamed for having to get my high school certificate at age 24 but everyone i spoke to about it praised me because going back to school is hard when you're an adult. getting motivated is hard as fuck, but you can do a little every day. tell your mom you wanna get your degree, maybe sit down with her and look at programs. look at the courses they offer, ask her what she thinks is fitting/not fitting for you. show her that you wanna pitch in, do chores without being asked to, etc. i was unemployed for 2 1/2 years until i finally made the decision to go back to school and my relationship with my mom improved drastically just by me saying that i wanna go back to school, which motivated me even more. it was scary as hell but it paid off.
No. 971154
>>971149>Why the fuck was he looking up naked pics of your sister?When we were in the dating phase I found out she was an escort and had a page on an escort website. I thought I'd be "cool" by sharing that information with him. He became obsessed with finding the page just because he's """"curious""""". He ended up finding it like a year later and then would randomly look it up from time to time. She's older than me by ten years.
>social security checks and food cardsMy ex is claiming the $300 monthly child credit and is also getting food stamps by claiming our child as a dependent. Do you think it would be okay if I asked him to Venmo me that $300 monthly? That sounds like a good idea to me, I just don't want to contact him
>I am sorry anon, just know you really aren't the only 19-25 demographic that god fucked over by a gross older man.Thank you, that actually makes me feel better
No. 971161
>>971153>you should probably take a break from dating for a while. don't throw yourself at the next trashy guy just because you need validation. This is my plan. I'm so much happier being single right now than being with my ex.
>maybe even check out female dating strategy on reddit to see how you can weed out the trashy ones.I like that subreddit. Unfortunately I found it too late and I already had a child with my ex. There was something I read from there that's stuck with me for a while. A girl was talking about how she wanted so much for her partners to like her but she never stopped and thought if she actually liked THEM. And then I realized wow I don't even like my bf, the entire relationship I only ever wanted his attention and for him to like me. I never even knew about boundaries or standards or anything. But I know all of this now and I'll be perfectly fine dating in 10 years when I'm ready or find someone who's actually a good person.
>it's never too late to start anythingGenuinely thank you SO much for sharing your situation. It really helps a lot. I'm thinking about going back to school so thank you. It's very helpful to hear stuff like this.
No. 971162
>>971154since he already sounds like a piece of shit I would honestly try to go to your local SS office and tell them that you two have split and the child it's for/for you are not even getting its benefits. at the least you could tell them that the bank number/address is no longer your son's address because he is in your care not the bf's. since you two weren't married I'm assuming you wouldn't even need to make it a 'divorced' sort of situation where the father is entitled to it in some way but I could be wrong. in its current state I wouldn't trust him to actually send it over because there's nothing thats forcing him to. Hell, take the kid with you to SS if need be, or have some sort of proof like a break up message, food bought on your card as proof of you being his guardian.
They should side with you more regardless since you're the mother. Also, at least in my state grants don't need to be paid back if you qualify for them. There's tons of online classes if a degree is what you want or just a art/clay/fun class maybe 1-2 times a week to destress from your son. All the best anon.
No. 971170
>>971161>but she never stopped and thought if she actually liked THEM. And then I realized wow I don't even like my bfthis is exactly how i felt for many years with regular ass people in my life. until i found a pic on pinterest (of all places kek) that said 'stop trying to be liked by everyone, you don't even like everyone' and that made it click. now i just accept when someone doesn't like me and i don't go out of my way to gain their affection. most of the time, the people that dislike me are also people i don't like either!
>Genuinely thank you SO much for sharing your situation. It really helps a lot. I'm thinking about going back to school so thank you. It's very helpful to hear stuff like this.anytime, anon. i'm sure you can do it! good luck and take care of your saggy boobas and stretchmarks!
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>>971162Thank you, all of that helps a lot!
>>971163Thank you as well. And tbqh I'm not even sure what happened. He was telling me about how he was unhappy with me/our relationship for various reasons (oh I forgot to mention that two months ago I looked through his phone and saw he was texting an old coworker and wanted to meet up with her for coffee secretly. After I caught him he said he wouldn't do it. Every time I brought it up he got so mad and accused me of not trusting him. I brought it up a lot I guess). Anyways I was tired of being the only one "fighting for the relationship" or wanting to keep us together so I didn't really respond much in our conversation this time, this was also the time I realized "wow.. I hate this man." The next day I just took my son and drove to my mom's house and it's been a month and he hasn't contacted me at all. I regret not leaving sooner. I also regret leaving most of my stuff there. (I know this paragraph is a lot of word vomit and probs makes no sense, sorry) I think I ghosted him? Or he ghosted me? Not sure. If he wanted to see his son though he'd reach out.
>>971170>'stop trying to be liked by everyone, you don't even like everyone'This is a nice quote! I need to ingrain it into my head.
>good luck and take care of your saggy boobas and stretchmarks!I hate you! Jk I love you and that made me laugh irl. You've made my depression session so much better. <3
I should go to sleep now but THANK YOU ALL who have responded to me. It's very helpful and kind. If anyone else would like to share their thoughts on my vent posts please go ahead but I might not respond. Again, thank you so much anons for reading/responding to my vent.
Is this what it's like to have friends? I feel.. listened to and good. No. 971192
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Holy shit i think i fucked up my hand from masturbation and i stayed home from school for 2 days bc of the pain (i go to trade school and have to use my hands a lot). I really need a doctor's note but i'm too scared to get one bc what if they somehow figure out what happened. CRINGE
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today is my fucking birthday
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>>971296happy birthday nonna
No. 971381
>>971347>>971352I'm almost afraid to talk about it bcuz i know what you lassies are gonna say. "dump him!!"
kek anyways… He searched up "threesome" along with the description of myself and this lesbian coworker I was hanging out with after work. I came home after chilling with her at a bar and saw it in his browser in a tab, then I looked away to act like I didn't see it and turned back and it was gone. It took me a few weeks (maybe a couple of months) to address it because on one hand, it's "just porn" and I've searched up weird porn scenarios (including two guys eating out the same chick at the same time) too so I shouldn't necessarily be a hypocrite. On the other hand, it felt like "yo you want a threesome involving us specifically?" which we had both already said we weren't really interested in. To be fair and to give him some leniency, I was teasing him about hanging out with her while I was out at the bar and tipsy (shitty behavior on my behalf, I know). But I never even implied anything about a threesome or sex at all, just that she seemed interested in me, so why he got off to it? no clue.
anyways, he has time and time again tried to prove himself to me but of course, how the hell can you prove something like that? that you didn't actually want a threesome involving your gf and another chick that she mentioned? it's impossible. I believe him tho because he's a genuinely good guy, just did a head empty retarded pornsick male thing. maybe i'm overreacting because, again, I've looked up weird porn stuff too and still do.
No. 971385
>>971381>>971382Why did you feel the need to do this? I obviously deleted it because I wanted it gone and didn't feel right airing my relationship's dirty laundry. That's not cool, anon.
Please delete it if you can.
No. 971403
>>971400>(shitty behavior on my behalf, I know).So… saying it was shitty behavior wasn't acknowledging that what I did was shitty?
That is a totally
valid reason for you to be obsessed with the scenario enough to repost it.
No. 971422
It really kills me when other men compliment my appearance and my boyfriend rarely does. Every day I gush over his appearance because imo it's not just important to feel loved, it's fun feeling wanted, too. And yeah, I want him, so I want to make sure he knows that. Other people tell me I'm more attractive than him, other people tell him he's lucky for getting me based off of my appearance, but I straight up feel like everyone is lying who says that. He looks perfect to me and I feel so ugly in comparison. I wish I felt desired by him in a way that signaled that to me. He has sex with me every night because tbh I get anxious if we don't have sex. I feel disgusting if I don't have sex. I feel ugly. I feel worthless. I appreciate that he is willing to do that, but I wish he would compliment me more. The thing is, if I tell him that, I'll feel worse because I know he's just doing it because I asked him. he talks about how he really just cares about personality, but I'm really shallow and don't care. I want to feel desired and pursued.
No. 971437
>>971422You should not be in a relationship until you fix that deep insecurity
Also your bf sucks who doesn’t compliment their own partner especially since you must look pretty if random men are complimenting you.
No. 971545
>>971534It’s self-hatred, males are disgusted by their own self, so they hate the idea of seeing another male in general. You could say that they’re in a love-hate relationship with other males, they will drop everything to help a male, but they will feel disgusted the moment they have to touch a woman who was “tainted” by another dick that wasn’t theirs.
Then you have the other type of males who want to have a “whore” which is just another way for him “to touch” other dicks through a woman without being called gay because, again, they hate the idea of being close to other males because they know that since they’re males, they’re disgusting and tainted like they themselves.
No. 971610
>>971599Never, if he’s like that right now, he will be the same as he ages. My brother is basically like that, but instead of shutting himself in his room, he goes out to play sports all day.
Better leave everything dirty for a while, let everything smell like shit, specially if he invites some friends. He has to learn that he also has to clean after himself and that he can’t wait until he lives on his own to do so. You’re not a maid and you can’t let him think that you have to be the one who does everything in the house. Don’t be like me, now I have to do all of the housework because my stupid ass fucking idiotic older brother uses working as an excuse to not clean up.
No. 971650
>>971599 >Like does he think his shit is going to magically disappear or what?I laughed cause I've asked the same. I dated someone with a son of 12 who would drop every sweet wrapper wherever he happened to be, he left half finished drinks everywhere, spilled shit and didn't wipe it up or even tell anyone, left it to congeal like the dirty cups did too. Got to a point where he couldn't be trusted to flush the toilet after himself. The only time his dad ever got really vocal about him being old enough to know better was when he left a mess in the dads car. That's because I kept the house pretty clean but dads car was dads job to clean. He suddenly cared then.
12 is plenty old to know better. Someone with authority has to enforce it though. There has to just be a lack of that happening. I couldn't really enforce it as 'dads gf' I don't know if you'd need a parent to really step in or if you can do it. Kids can sense when you're in charge but also not quite in charge if you get what I mean. They take advantage when they can.
No. 971652
>>971447>>971505He does make an effort to make me happy in other areas. He definitely does care about my happiness. But he's clueless about this though he knows how much I value being perceived as attractive by my partner.
I just don't think one can negotiate desire. I had an ex who was pretty much only attracted to obese women. He knew I was attractive and pretty much like having me around his buddies because I socially boosted him, but I knew he wasn't sexually attracted to me. I wish I could fill a niche for a guy, but I'm too generic (blonde, white, thin with fit body, etc.) and I'm thinking maybe I need to try to fill a niche if I want to be attractive to my partner. I have tried figuring it out but he claims he doesn't care about physical types, he just likes personality.
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>>971650>dating a single dad>picking up after some moid's fat dirty spawnHow dire. I hope you stopped playing mommymaid.
No. 971706
I cannot handle the fact that my mom constantly talks negatively about the relationship between my boyfriend and me while having the worst marriage you could think of. She talks about my father with such pride which I can't understand because he is a fucking entiteld ugly, fatass, balding aloholic moid with anger issues. That's not even the point but just to get the message of how much of a horrible human being he is I will just try to summarize his personality. He does no chores but complains the most about the state of our place whilst also being the one who never cleans and wants the woman of our family to run after him and to clean up because we are ''women'' and its our obligation to do so. He is also extremly creepy and weird and took pictures ''secretly'' with his phone of me while we were at the beach when I was like 12 (I also of course noticed and confronted him about this but he told me that I looked 'funny' in my swimsuit). Another weird thing that happened was when I casually walked around the house in my loose, comfy pyjamas and he randomly asked me If I lost weight to which i answered 'no'. He then made a comment about how ''loose my pyjama bottoms are and that my ass must have gotten flatter''. It doesn't even end here because he is beating the shit out of me and used to destroy my clothes and items I cherished just because he was angry and couldn't control his emotions. The list of abuse and weird, creepy behaivor goes on but I think I got my point across. My mom isn't a saint either and literally ticks almost every single box off (minus the weird, creepy behaivor) just like him but she's a less severe case than him. The best thing about this is the relationship my parents have because it's almost nonexistant. She brags to be lucky to have found such a loving and 'mature men' when she was 16 and he was 21. I can't believe that this bitch got picked and groomed by this fucking dude back in the day? I told her that the age gap is kind of fucking weird but she denied it being weird and told me that 'men are not mature, while woman are' making her pick a much older dude when she was in her teens. I can't fucking believe it. They met at a party back in the day and he was 'obsessed with her', driving through the whole country just to see her even though she wanted nothing from him. What does a fucking grown ass men in his early 20's and a fucking 16 year old woman have in common that he wants her this bad? Another funfact is that he has this kind of facade he has built up, like going to her getting her flowers for her birthday and saying things like 'you should be grateful to be with me!!! other woman have it much worse you can be lucky to have found such a loyal, loving and respectful person like me!!', when this motherfucker cheats on her like fucking weekly or monthly with mid-tier escorts paying 100€+ per meeting with them. I only found out because I wanted to know the exact day I was missing from uni before the vacations and just typed in the beginning of the city just to find'[city] sex escort' and '[city] sex escort car & home service' in his browser history. Also what kind of fucking subhuman do you have to be to meet up with prostitutes at your family home or car? I am the only one that knows about this and I won't even be able to even tell her because they have been married since 30+ years and with him being her first everything I don't really think she would want to know this. Especially because they have finally realized their dream of buying a house and are in the middle of all of these burocreatic negotiations. I just wish she would fucking stop commenting about my boyfriend and me when she knows that I am finally in a happy, stable and healthy relationship.
No. 971725
>>971373When people start claiming to be different races too, it makes me happy. I used to want things to change, but now the circus is growing and is even funnier. A toast, to future clownery!
>>971361Why do people not connect with you? Not to get personal but are you a 'weird girl'/autist? Because then I get it, you probably will be an outsider. But I PROMISE that I found other autists with specific interests, and we were on a similar wavelength, so there are definitely other weird girls out there who would love to be your friend
No. 971825
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>>971422This is the redpillers relationship dream. Look up "dread game"
No. 971863
>>971856DISGUSTING. I'm so sorry you live with that. Here's how to make him move out.
>Drill a small space in the wall, in his room>Put a bowl of milk and something that will smell in the wall>you can also take a dump inside the wall and push it in like a letter in a letterbox>seal it with polyfilla and paint>waityou can also blast throat singing from your room or cardi b. Good luck queen, egotistical men are horrible
No. 971879
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I like those lemon wafer cookies, but hate how the filling makes my mouth feeling filmy afterwards. But I could seriously eat like two pounds of them in a sitting.
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>>971879I feel the same about these UFO thingys
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>>971882Man I never likes these as a kid but they're so good to me now.
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No. 971912
>>970327My left wing
>abolition of copyright>universal basic incomeMy right wing
>keep right to own weapons>keep right to self defense>keep legality of abortion up to a certain stage; limit commercial use of fetal corpses>prohibit transgender treatment to children>no vaccine mandates
>you think this is about pandering to menThis has nothing to do with men. Apparently the only politics you understand is internet subculture drama even though e-celebs are barely any representation of voters.
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Whatever we say bout scrotes is 100% right and they always agree, but act like we should accept their shitty behavior just because. I wish males had the IQ to understand irony.
No. 971923
>>971856You know what's funny i was listening to some ex-mgtow talk about how the majority of mgtows (at least the listeners in the podcast/YouTube community) are bitter, middle aged men who have revenge fantasies about single mothers and the stacies who rejected them in school.
You can read the comment sections yourself and it's just pure, distilled boomer. These are the same types of men who would constantly make "my ugly nagging wife" jokes back in the day, but now these women actually have the ability to leave them. Their new outlet is nodding their head to coachkingredpillgrindset talking about how women are crying miserably with our horrible selves for not settling for failedmale dick in our teens when we had the chance.
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get that shit off the home page u freak
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Thinking about garlic bread
No. 972028
>>971973I see what you’re saying and agree with
>>971976 for what it’s worth
No. 972045
>>972037Fuck your faggot brother and his birthday no one gives a shit about. Getting giddy over your own birthdays as grown man…embarrassing. Hopefully a waiter spits in his food or he gets food poisoning.
Anyway I hope you’re getting some form of support outside of him at least anon? My sister went through a miscarriage and it affected her like crazy
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Husband and I are going to adopt a cat soon, and now I'm realizing there's really no great place to put the shitbox.
Thankfully I was able to convince husband that picrel was worth the investment–especially since he's the one pushing us for a cat–but litter boxes still gross me the fuck out even though this thing is as clean as it gets. I grew up broke trailer trash so certain things are triggers for me because they remind me of people who had no business or space to keep animals. It's not the animal's fault but I'm not going to pretend I think this is cute.
I remember shit being stacked so high in some litter boxes like little shitcastles. Being subjected to staring at open, stinking, filthy boxes when visiting friends when I'd use their bathroom or be trying to hang in their living rooms. Some people even kept litter boxes in their fucking kitchens. Or walking through a home and gross litter granules sticking to the bottoms of my feet, sometimes nowhere near the boxes just because the carpet would track and trap these grains. Disgusting. I feel bad that our house isn't bigger so I could have a spare room to put this thing but options are limited.
I have three very small bathrooms.
>inb4 first world problem
They're incredibly small, think closets. My house has 'rooms' but the reality is it's no bigger than most 2-3 bedroom apartments. Can't fit it in the downstairs toilet room. It feels rude to put the box in the guest bathroom, but this is where I will most likely put it. I could place it in the master bath in a tiny space between the toilet and sink…I just think it's gross. Litter will escape that box and even with a mat I know I'm going to be pissed if I step out clean from the shower and right onto litter particles. I really don't want to look at the litterbox as I'm trying to clean myself either.
The rest of my house, except for the kitchen/living room which is automatically NO, is carpeted which is also a no go from me. Litter in carpet is nasty.
I wish I could install a pet door to the garage so I can put the box out there, but the second we accidentally leave the garage door open for a long period that cat would be gone.
I never worried having litter boxes growing up because my mom had houses where there was either a basement or some kind of spare non-carpeted room like a laundry room. I don't have either of those things.
Where do other people put their cat boxes anyway? Would I be fucked for putting it in the guest bathroom? Fuck I know I'm overthinking but it's driving me crazy.
No. 972052
>>972049my cats litter box is in my laundry/storage room.
you would not be fucked for putting it in a guest bathroom.
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Why am I so annoyed that my boyfriend dated a personal lolcow? It's more of a reflection of her being cringe but I can't help to think less of him that he would even bother with someone remotely like that
No. 972069
>>970837Hymens break for all kinds of reasons not related to penis in the vagina. It's possible for virgins to not bleed. That's some third worlder woo woo shit for a man to be pissed that his girlfriend didn't bleed while having sex for the first time. Besides, if your guy was deserving of a true trad then he wouldn't even entertain the idea of sex with you until some form of long term commitment was established. It's none of his business.
Fyi ladies: Always downplay how many sexual partners you've had and yes it's okay to lie to men about it. Nice guys won't ever ask you about your "body count" but it doesn't mean they don't secretly want to know regardless. They claim they're not judgmental but they absolutely are. They're psychologically wired to always be sizing themselves against the biological competition and can't bear knowing that you might have had a better sexual time with someone else, or for that matter may leave them for underperforming knowing better options out there. Instead of having some introspection as to why they're insecure, these men take it out on women and package the narrative as guarding virtue when reality it's about guarding their egos. Meanwhile no one gives a fuck how many women guys fuck and male virginity is seen as a weirdness instead of righteous. Weird, huh? Almost by design…
I've slept with many men, and yet I have a husband who is none the wiser. I told him I've only ever had a few boyfriends. He's very happy and we have a great sex life. He didn't die because he doesn't know, but men and pickmes want you to believe it's some kind of major trespass or breach of trust when it is literally so irrelevant irrelevant oppressive solely towards women.
Men don't need to know shit just to hold against you, don't give them that ammo. Play dumb.
No. 972072
>>972063I guess I worded it poorly, but he dated his ex-gf for a bit (10 months) 2 years ago and she turned out to be an awful person. After they broke up she trooned out, became a lesbian, self-diagnoses herself with a bajillion illnesses, and plays the
victim in every possible situation while being a NEET and siphoning off funds from whatever unfortunate soul she ends up dating. On top of that, she also spreads around that he raped and assaulted her, which I find kind of interesting because he showed me the emails she would send for a year asking to get back together lol. Actually crazy cunt, but I'm like how could you date someone like that for a decent amount of time and not feel ashamed of yourself? Ya feel? I chalk it up to being young and stupid, but it still bothers me
No. 972074
>>970739I'm bipolar and yes unfortunately unstable friendships and relationships are very common for people with bipolar. Ghosting can be a part of it, I know I've done it on several occasions. It also sounds like she could be going through a depressive episode (maybe
triggered by the parent's death) and usually you just get too tired and depressed to contact your friends/respond to texts.
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Fuck you that's not what GNC means, a woman who wears the same 2 cargo shorts and dad rock shirts will always be more GNC than troons engaging in mindless consumerism, stop lumping GNC people with the gender fandom.
No. 972143
>>972134I agree with you 100%, especially when the cow is literally at a normal weight.
However recently, I'm not sure in which thread, I saw a twitter cap of someone saying "don't go to lolcow they're very fatphobic over there it might
trigger you!!!" and I'm ashamed to say it but a part of me became a bit grateful for the anachans for keeping the twitter tards at bay. On the other hand, ed-twitter is alive and thriving so who's to say those anachans aren't twittertards themselves, their brains are usually fried so I'd expect no less from them.
No. 972156
>>972134i just want to be able to discuss my celebrity milk without anons bitching about ariana or billie for five seconds
it's been said before but i swear theyre twitterfags from the ed side, they sound about as unhinged
No. 972250
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>>972243>I feel like a fucking loser who will never amount to anything but I'm also hoping just getting away from my environment will help me get better.i'm sure once you're out of that environment, your 'vibe' will change as well and you can get a proper job. it's annoying but people just notice when something is off, especially in interviews. also if your family doesn't offer any support at all re: traumatic event you experienced, it's no wonder you need therapy and have anxiety attacks. trauma gets worse when you have no one to support you, regardless of how 'severe' the event was that caused the trauma. good luck, nonna!!
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Icky yuck yuck yuck
No. 972365
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>>972360
Thanks for getting it outta the way
No. 972383
>>972375>>972370>>972371Thank you girls. It's nice to get this out there. I don't date so this online relationship was my first.
>>972374He actually does go to the gym but it was really fucked up for him to say that to me while I was already vulnerable.
No. 972411
>>972410I replied to the wrong post
>>972402but I'm dumping him. What's got you so upset?
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>>972411Good, Know your worth anon.
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>>972411ignore the autist. anyway, good you are dumping it. congrats on not being a handmaiden,
nonnie! woooooooo.
just don't cam yourself naked for some moid again, ok?
No. 972429
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I feel so fucking horrible and nothing more than a fucking choice. I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for exactly 6 months and known each other for 6 years. We used to be best friends and when I was down and feeling really sad he would never comfort me, not even that but he just ghosted me when I was feeling fucking depressed. In the past we would have a lecture together and he would see that I was in this cataconic state where I wouldn't blink, move or talk at all for the entire time and you know what he did? He didn't even look at me, he just continued with the lecture as usual while I was sitting next to him about to burst in tears. When I was in this depressed mood he would literally not even look at me and just ignore my existence completly. This situation is something that happened often, its not that like he didn't knew how to comfort me its just that he didn't care. I obviously called him out for that and he insisted that he would comfort me next time but this never happened and this situation has happend not only once, not only twice but eight fucking times. He couldn't comfort a single time and always made the excuse of 'oh I don't know how to deal with his, I never had to do this, I don't know what you want me to do' when I told him that he could atleast try to show me that he would care and he always insisted that he would do it next time. Too bad that I fell in love with him and he is now doing the exact fucking same thing. I can't believe that this is fucking again happening. Nonnies, I know that I sound so fucking retarded but while in the relationship he really did comfort me when I was feeling down which is why I am asking myself why he fucking stopped doing it now? We had uni today and I had taken an exam. After taking the exam, I had a short break of like 20 mins where I went to see in his classroom. After I sat down next to him, no reaction I was like 'Hi?' and he was 'Oh, yeah Hi.' I wanted to talk to him and tried to start a conversation but he would only reply really dry and would be like 'Yeah' or 'Mhm, okay' while staring at his phone playing Clash of fucking Clans instead of talking to me. Great, at this point I was lowkey pissed but whatever the break was about to be over and I went inside for my next lecture. Timeskip to our next 10 min break: Normally he would have a really long day but some of his lectures were cancelled which is why I have asked him If he would want to come to my place (its also like 10 mins away from our uni) to spend time with me. He replied with 'No, I am sorry but I am busy, have lots of work to do and will hit the gym later and you know Friday isn't for hanging out' and I was just like 'Yeah, okay no problem!' and accepted it despite being sad because we only see each other like 2-3x a week only for a few hours. I was already not in good mood and was lowkey depressed because of the stress and anxiety about my future and exams etc. to add to his I am also a really depressed and anxious person which is also why I always start overthinking everything about my life, relationship and myself and again came to the conclusion that my life is absoluletly horrible. (TDLR: abused by entire life by my narc parents whom I still live with, no family or support system or real friends, basically loner and outcast). At this point I am suicidal, doubting my existance and about to cry and we have another break so I walk up to my group of uni acquiantances in hopes of my boyfriend finally wanting to talk to me. How unfortunate that his best friend is right there and the worst part is that everytime his mate is around him he basically ghosts me, like no cap ghosts me. I stood next silently scrolling through my phone while they were laughing and having fun talking about the gym and fitness stuff. My boyfriend actually asked one time If I was okay to which I replied with 'Mhm.' and thats the talk I had with him, no more than that. I stood there the entire 50 minute break in a cataconic state of mind, trying to think about something that won't make me cry and to distract myself with some cooking videos. The entire 50 minutes he did not look nor talk to me except this one fucking silly question which he didn't even bother to continue with. At this point I am so fucking mad that he is literally doing the same thing he used to do in the past: Which is seeing me in a depressed mood, noticing it and asking one silly question only to pretend for his conscience that he atleast tried to do something and not bothering with it anymore. Funny enough, once his mate walked away to his own lecture he instantly turned around and was trying to talk to me, like bitch fuck yourself why would you try to talk to me now? I was just like 'What do you want from me?' to which he replied with 'Oh, my god I am sorry' in this annoyed tone and way. I instantly walked away from him to my next lecture and while walking away I could just hear his annoyed exhalation sound he always makes when he is pissed. At this point I am fucking furious and boiling. But things don't even end here. After my lecture ended I went to the bus stop to finally drive home only to see my boyfriend and his incel gym rat mate next to him talking and laughing while also walking up to the same bus stop I was at, which is kind of weird because why would my boyfriend be here? It's the complete opposite of the direction his home is at so what would he want here? His bike was there but he doesn't usually put it there, mostly on days he knows he will drive into this direction like examaple meeting with me because the path is shorter this way. While I was walking to the bus that arrived, his incel gym rat friend did too, and my boyfriend screamed to him 'Yeah, bro see you in a minute!'. He also said to me 'Sweetheart, I am sorry but I will be late today as always, okay? lets talk later!'. I was so fucking mad you can't even believe it. I just walked off to the bus without saying anything to him because fuck this motherfucker. At first he declines to meet with me because of his 'busy scheudeule' and of how much work he has to do only to then say to his mate 'Yeah, see you in a minute'? Like you can meet with him but not with me? Suddenly your busy scheudeule isn't much of a problem huh? You could even fit him into your busy 'No-Hangingout-Friday-day' which you NEVER do for anyone except for him. I can't confirm If they are actually meeting with each other right now but it sure does sound like it. But also like why is your mate your first fucking choice? You know both of us the same amount of time so why am I as your girlfriend your fucking second of thrid choice? Suck his dick If you want him so fucking bad you stupid motherfucker.
No. 972470
>>972444Thanks nona. I used to cosplay and I knew her from cosplaying, and she's really into playing into the loli look sometimes. I left the hobby because it really messed with my body image issues and I realized that I actually
don't want to play into sick male fantasies and being uwu smol is disgusting and dumb as an adult.
>you know your worth and you know you're beautiful you shouldn't let your inner thoughts tell you otherwiseThank you. I'm trying to work on being kinder to myself. Even if not 100% body positive, I like the progress I've made in becoming stronger, and I want to continue to do right by my body even if I don't get to look like my ideal. I think the most fucked up thing is that the ideals I chase are all fads that appeal most to men, and I'm a lesbian, but it's hard getting out of my old mindset. I don't want men to look at me so I don't really know why I bother striving to look a certain way at the end of the day, my inner thoughts are stupid as fuck kek.
No. 972504
>>972429wish i could ask you why you're with this douchebag but imho i'm the same as you i've tolerated treatment like this before.
i wish the best for you and i hope you can turn your life around, starting by dumping this piece of shit who doesn't treat you right.
No. 972602
>>972511Be kind to yourself
nonnie. It's okay to not fit perfectly with most people. I can't speak for your relationship or family but take heart in having those opportunities. You don't have to be a pleaser, you just have to be you. And people that don't want to stick by you when you're being you don't deserve to be around you.
No. 972631
>>972622You have to get over it, they’re observing everyone in case someone goes full retard and tries to do something completely wrong or stupid, or in case someone does a wrong movement and ends up stuck or something like that.
If you were doing something wrong, they would approach you to correct you, so you can learn how to do an exercise properly without hurting yourself.
No. 972637
>>972622I totally get you anon, i couldn't concentrate if some muscular guys were watching me kek
>>972628Dangerously based
No. 972658
>>972645Anon, as someone who's youth was also swallowed up by depression and suicidal thoughts and did get to study in Japan, you're not missing much. It was alienating and difficult to connect with people because my self sabotage knew no bounds at the time. I was halfway across the globe with barely a support system. I had a small handful of friends I made who supported me through it all, but I live with massive regret over the year I spent there. I really had it all, and I blew it.
Japan and France won't be going anywhere anytime soon. It is never too late to start saving for a trip. I believe that you can find your way there, whether it's just for vacation, for work, or to go there for school. There's no use on dwelling in the past, but I think the future is yours to do whatever you want with.
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cp don't scroll
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CP BELOW
No. 972676
>>972655Thank you anon, you're kind. I don't know what I could do since I have no money or college education but I guess saving for travel is the first step.
>>972658I'm so sorry you had a bad experience anon, that sounds really rough. I actually did take a trip to Japan in 2019, it was the first time I ever left the country and even though I was broke and didn't even have enough money to eat one night, it was everything I dreamed of and the introvert in me loved that people don't really talk to each other like in the US (the people did give off a very lonely vibe though…). I know it's dumb but I even would love to live there for a year working a low wage job or in the JET program. There's no reason for a foreign country to want me as a worker though kek I have nothing to offer. I also really want to go Venice before it sinks so there's a time limit on that lol. Anyway, thank you for the kind words! I'll try my best to take it one day at a time.
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i logged into my old twitter account and my old online friends are so fucking stupid. they have such terrible gender brainrot, it's infuriating. i scroll for a minute and see three tweets about wanting someone's gender, feeling not gender enough or agreeing with some nonsensical gender fandom tiktok. it upsets me so much because these are all smart albeit mentally ill and terminally online women, but they have deluded themselves into thinking they're unwomen even though 99% of them are just lesbians with rich internal lives. i'm so tired. it's like watching people play with toxic chemicals and you're not allowed to tell them that it's a stupid thing to do because otherwise you're lit-choo-rall-ee a nazi. one of these days i'll have to delete my twitter account and move on for good, but right now i still feel attached to them, even though we talk maybe once a month.
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My parents are visiting and I just can't deal with them anymore. It's the second day and my mother already started a fight, suicide baiting (she never tried, she sadly never will) and playing the victim again. My mother is very similar to the mother in Sharp Objects (without being that rich and making me physically sick, but everything else is my mother) and my father is a doormat, so he never says anything and didn't divorce her. They stay at a hotel and I walked out on them and if I wouldn't need them for financial reasons at the moment, I would never have contact with them ever again. I just hate that I hate my parents, I wish I could have a normal, healthy relationship with them, but it's just not possible and I've lost every hope that they will ever get help to change their toxic behaviour. They've ruined my life and now I have to play babysitter and tour guide for them, putting up with their bullshit and I can't wait for Sunday when they finally leave.
And tomorrow my mother will act like nothing happend, it's the same thing over and over and over again, I'm just so tired of them.
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Oh wow. My brother (34) who went AWOL actually turned out to be doing perfectly fine. Again. And my mother was still dramatically panicking as if something could happen to him. Again. I'm so fucking sick of my attention-seeking brothers and mother who takes their bait every time. At this point one of them should actually die just so her stress can be worth something.
I was cursed the second I came into a world with three older brothers who refuse to mentally develop past age 15.
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I don't want to drive, or be on guard for glass ego scrotes or handmaiden brainwashed bitches, or listen to ppls loud noises, or use some retarded out of date horribly designed software at work, or kiss superiors asses, or come home and have to soothe egos same as at work, or be expected to take the responsibility and fall for everything that goes wrong yet get none of the credit, I'm so fucking sick of it all. No amount of trying to become more skilled or confident does anything. I've been poor and starving and I'd rather go back to that than do this for one more year. That living in a forest in Japan anon triggered me, I can't stop thinking about it. The only things I'd need to go out for is laundry and internet, but if I had a stream then not even that. If I had a wood stove and a few tools I could make it work. No running water, on demand electricity, or gas is no problem.
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>>972935I agree that it's not offensive but it sounds stupid kek. So many bland people saying they have "crackhead energy" because they did like, one semi spontaneous thing.
To be fair it isn't crackheads getting offended over these things, it's bored white liberals. Crackheads are too busy smoking crack to care
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How are my fellow anons stuck in the midwest? I recently downloaded tinder again and all the ugly normie white/ginger men are making me suicidal kek I'm too scared to make a post on /soc/
No. 973046
so I went to therapy today, and there are always a shitload of things that I want to talk to him about, but I forget to write them down and can't remember what they are when I'm actually there. that being said I did remember one of them when I was there today, and I was saying how I feel like I have a really masculine personality and a lot of masculine qualities, which makes dating hard as a straight woman because I feel like that's not what most men want. he started saying how a lot of men won't date very attractive women who look like supermodels because people who are really attractive have shitty personalities and are really entitled due to the fact that people treat them very well just for being good looking. I was kind of confused at first, because I was talking about my personality, which I clarified and he was just like "oh well there's a wide variety of men out there and most of them want different things".. like, okay. I thought I was pretty clear that I was talking about my personality first but he jumped straight to the conclusion that I was talking about my looks, and it fucking hurt. I mean I already knew I was a fugly ass bitch, I've come to accept that, but hearing someone else admit it still really hurts, especially when it's my therapist, unprompted. I also told him that's not even a consolation because it's like saying "I like you because you're ugly and therefor not full of yourself" or whatever and that it feels patronizing, and that if a man has a choice between a good looking woman who does have a good personality, and ugly with a good personality which on is he going to choose? I even told him those things and straight up can't even remember how he responded. I'm in such a bad fucking mood now, I'm in a worse mood now than I was before I went into therapy which has never happened before. I'm holding back tears and just kind of want to kms
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>>972691People need to be more open with it. Twitter and tumblr aren’t real places. Whack gender identities aren’t normal, plural systems aren’t real and self diagnosis is not
valid. Fake autism doesn’t give you the right to be an asshole.
Idc what you anons think about kf but this is p based. Trannies are constantly bragging about their totally real and not made up sexual escapades and how they’re so kinky and not vanilla because that’s lame and boring. That’s just shit coomers say. They become what they can’t fuck. Straight Women really are a jealous pregnancy or wedding fantasy away from now having a wife.
No. 973093
>>970284I thought the same. It's ok
nonnie, they won't be singing the same tune when their Nigel tells them they can't leave the house if they're showing off their ankles.
No. 973125
>>971314Clearly you need to talk to the guy that
>>971100 was fucking
No. 973147
>>971422I understand why you'd feel that way nona, you want him to compliment you out of his own will than because you told him to. But he might be thinking these things and just not saying them. Men are so bad at expressing how they feel, let alone thinking aloud the compliments they're giving you in their head.
Get some help, you sound like you have a really anxious attachment style and he's avoidant, but also I wouldn't hold back from telling him you want to be appreciated more verbally.
No. 973187
I truly hate being mentally ill. There is absolutely no positive aspect to it. It's incurable, people rightfully judge you for it because it makes you act like a freak who can't fit in or keep up and you make people's lives worse because of your condition, you're painfully aware of how much better your life could be, how much better you could be if you didn't have a sick brain. People truly don't have sympathy for mental illness, and this includes the "normie" mental illness that people seem to think is normalized and accepted, such as depression and anxiety. Displaying any symptom or behaving in any negative way that is inline with your illness will piss people off and they are not wrong to feel that way. And no matter how much they understand why the mentally ill behave the way they do, they can't not feel disturbed, upset, angry, and they will feel that way towards you the sick person because human brains aren't built to disassociate someones behaviour from their mental condition. If you act like pathetic freak, you will be thought of as one no matter the fact that you genuinely have something wrong with your brain that makes you this way. Plenty of people outwardly refuse to believe mental illness is a real illness and think of claiming it as such is a responsibility dodge. So not only do you have to deal with the internal pain of mental illness, you get treated like shit because of it too. There is no redeeming quality to being mentally ill.
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I'm so tired nonnies. There's been some major protests around my country regarding vaxx mandates for jobs now and people are fuming. There seems to be more and more people at these protests each time they happen.
I just never got it, you know? A vaccination seems so non-political to me, and a great benefit of modern medicine. I'm seeing a lot of people say they're not "anti-vax, just pro-choice" but even then that doesn't make sense to me, because if you had no issue with the vax to begin with then why are you protesting your ability to not have it done? And it's not like they don't have a choice, they do, it just means that employment would be unavailable in the interest of public health.
Anyway, the main reason I'm venting about this is because I'm tired of it all, I'm tired of people fighting a battle that seems so redundant, and I haven't been able to fly interstate to see my sister/BFF for over a year now. It makes me cry to think about, I really miss her and all I want is to be safe, healthy and happy. But there's just so much hate going on right now, and people only looking out for themselves and not for fellow peers around them.
No. 973282
>>973281Good to know I'm not alone. I mean most people in my circles seem to think the same as I do, but it's disheartening when you see such big hoards of people who genuinely buy into this meme.
I'm sorry about your mum, I hope you get to reunite with her soon <3
No. 973287
>>973278>>973281>>973282No shot or pill or mask will stop the elderly and sickly from dying, after a few months the shots are useless. Sorry anon you might as well just pray it'll have the same effect. If it isn't Rona it'll be pnemonia during the changing seasons.
>And it's not like they don't have a choice, they do, it just means that employment would be unavailable in the interest of public health. And it's not like women in islamic countries don't have a choice to wear niquabs, they do, it just means that they'll get raped and killed on the street in the interest of public morals.
No. 973299
>>973290>>973232Why do bad mothers always do this, my mom once attempted to throw away some of my rare old books(that I had bought my own savings btw) cause they were "dirty" and weren't even school related so they weren't even worth keeping
I had to get them out of the Garbage and clean them with disinfected, I keep my room locked at all times due to her
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How is this seen as progressive? Empowering? Feminist, even? Imagine further erasing women’s place in history and thinking you’re revolutionary, daring, or going against the “system”. Imagine telling this to a ten year old girl. To a 17 year old about to turn 18 who’s already been groomed by the internet. Everyone says the internet isn’t real life but for a lot of very young people, it is their real life and this is what they’re facing. Day of the rope when?
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>>973307There was once a man who unironically believed this(the farming aspect anyway) and he actually made his retarded ideas a reality
No. 973327
>>973307This is maximum copium. These e-whores are all mentally ill, hate themselves, and hate what they do. They know men have treated their kind even worse than regular women since
their beginning. Nothing has ever changed for them in history despite being tHe OldEsT pRoFeSsIoN. They want other women to go through what they chose to put themselves through to feel better, to feel equal.
Will never happen. Cope and seethe harder whore.
No. 973351
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>>973315i don't even know what to say
No. 973364
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I need to find a new job but I don't fucking want to. It's not that I don't want to work, but the fact that I will have to get another high stress shit paying job where I'll burn out within a few months maybe a year and the boss will whine what an oh so bad worker I am. I'm tired of this shit.
I can't get into the field I want yet because I'm self taught and need to practice more but until then it's going to be nothing but hell. I just want a job that won't make me want to kill myself.
No. 973367
>>973351is the most annoying facial expression to ever exist considered valuable knowledge now?
>>973356i'm surprised there's no real competitor to wikipedia yet
No. 973379
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>>973372Same boat, just a bit younger. No advice but here's a hug. Maybe the suffering will end one day, one way or another.
No. 973410
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Furiously writing a play about my asshole ex to get it finished proofed and ready to my satisfaction for a competition in July. I used to think theatre pieces about heartbreak were cringey but I can’t talk about this with my family and I feel like if I don’t get it all out and share it with someone I’m going to explode. Wish me luck nonas.
No. 973453
>>973288How can you say that? You want to take away people's employment and therefore food, health services (everything other than COVID), places of living because they won't take an experimental vaccine WHILE there are Pfizer employees whistleblowing about falsified data?
If transmission was the concern, you shouldn't treat unvaccinated people differently when the vaccine just lessens symptoms as opposed to neutralizing spread.
(The government doesn't actually have this right in many places in the world.)
No. 973465
I will never ever write posts on traditional forums. Sometimes I look up an older post from a year ago or even months ago, and then I spot a mistake, whether a typo or a grammar mistake and it makes me cringe. That's why imageboards are superior, whatever shit I write will get lost amongst millions of other anonymous voices, thoughts, and shitposts, while the forum ones will last for as long as the site exists and someone might read my stupid pseudointellectual musings that I regret posting.
>>973460I get a similar feeling just with being extremely horny during ovulation and then depressed right before the period kicks in. It makes it hard to focus. Fuck biology for making us go through this shit. It's not fair.
No. 973540
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>>973273Homestead vids are great, I watch them too. Another channel you may like is Exploring Alternatives! I still have to finish my degree and yadayada first but I'm also working towards homesteading.
No. 973800
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I dodged a bullet with this dude I was actually extremely into (in b4 all moids):
I broke off a 2 month “relationship” because he said some shit that didn’t sit right with me, and then when I brought it up to him he just minimized my feelings and then subtly dropped the fact that he thinks about killing himself sometimes after I told him it’s over.
Pathetic. I’m venting because even though it’s something I should expect dealing with men, I felt disappointed nonetheless. But otherwise I’m pretty pumped because I got ahead of that bastard before he could traumatize me.
No. 973853
>>973829I don't get why you're so
triggered, do you want women to pay attention to red flags or not?
No. 973863
>>973861Did you get positive reinforcement growing up? Just curious.
I'd give a bitch asspats if she needs them. Leaving scrote is a W every time.
No. 973875
>>973866Positive reinforcement is just giving a child praise and encouragement when they do something good
>>973800Good call, anon. Too many women ignore the early red flags.
No. 973893
>>973868ah yes, the only two options: call her a queen or make her feel like shit
you guys spend too much time on twitter. it's not that serious i just think it's cringy kek
>>973863my parents didn't say "yasss queen slay bitch" when I took my first steps, that must be the reason i ended up here
No. 973981
Im so done with the people, too autistic to totally bend with the normies but can act enough normal to be funtional, and i only want someone to love and to love me and share the life with, its all i ask for.
I can get female attention relatively easy but i get tired of normies bullshit and boring things pretty quickly (+ my own issues of beign "toxic" and "autistic")
Im not desesperate, im just kinda… dissapointed with people in general, i never expect too much yet i always get dissapointed, i hate people.
This world have a lot of good things to enjoy, but i feel totally alone and not having someone to enjoy this world with its a really miserable fate to experience, i hate people that romantize lonely when they havent felt truly lonely or that kind of cope mechanisms like "you dont need someone to make you feel complete" fucking retards, its not about that.
Im on my mid 20s and i have alredy face it that im going to die alone because all the people its trash and im just chasing an illusion, and its pretty frustrating because im not even asking for that much or anything that i couldnt offer, but fuck.
Yet im a hopeless fucking romantic loser and i will keep saving me for someone with a "pure heart" i will not let them win, i will not fall in the corruption and empty normie ways to relating with other normies.
I always feel like im doing the correct things and im proud of myself and my acts based on my values but yet everyday feels the same, empty, with so little hope, i feel like im just living a dream, that nothing its truly real and dosnt truly matter at all yet i cant stop caring about it, life is surely a joke, everyone its a fucking inept clown.
Love its surely the biggest treasure that someone can get, the only thing that i can feel real and that makes this time worth.
Why does the people have to be like this, i will just spend my days living this dream chasing another dream, being in love with someone that dosnt even exist while i get closer to my death knowing very well that even if i get succesful in any career, hobby, whatever, even if i won the lottery, even if get some friends or anything that people will consider succesful i will die without having truly enjoy one single year in my entire lifetime, but at least i lived and died trying to fight for my ideals and i have the peace that i did the correct, at least i had soul, i pretty hate you all.
No. 973989
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all I've ever wanted was to feel loved, truly loved, and to be able to love someone back. I don't fall in love with people often, and when I do, I always end up hurt somehow. I'm too autistic to get most guys to even feel attracted to me, I feel like most of them are just out to hurt me. I'm terrified of physical affection and sex unless I'm romantically attached to someone and nobody has the fucking patience for that. I feel like I'll be alone for the rest of my life, I can manage to be happy by myself but, I really just want to be held and kissed sometimes. I hate my fucking life I hate being so fucking lonely
No. 974008
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anyway, i just want you lovely nonnas to know that i hope you have a good day and i love you
No. 974023
>>973951You need to just calm down. You aren't in Yemen or Afghanistan. Turkey is well off compared to a lot of it's neighbors and has many tourists from around the world.
I'm from the Philippines, trust me you'll be OK.
No. 974032
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Sometimes I wish I was still religious so I could have a reason to not off myself after my parents die
No. 974043
>>974032I think you might have to find a new reason, religion helps but idk, if you don’t consider it helpful anymore, it won’t be the same.
You could try joining a shelter to help people or animals, it could make you gain some confidence or something.
No. 974069
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>>974035I was Catholic and suicide is a sin and would lead one straight to hell. Not that I was less suicidal, but that was the reason I wouldn't do it.
>>974043Thanks anon, I will think about it. I love my parents a lot and sometimes taking care of them and being with them (and of course, not devastating them with my death, especially during their older age) is my only driving force.
I have a fiance and siblings, but I honestly think they would get over it quick enough.
Sorry about the suicide ideation, but
I often think about going to the middle of the sea with a gun, and killing myself there. No corpse to clean up, no funeral costs, no need to know if it was suicide or a fishing trip accident, I'll be fish food so it's useful. No. 974075
>>974069It as only decided to be a mortal sin because early christians were
trigger happy when it comes to going to heaven asap lmfao. Anyway now church is backpedaling on the whole sin thing when it's a result of depression and mental illness in general
I absolutely don't think you should kill yourself, I just wanted to say that cause it's interesting
No. 974078
>>974032I am catholic and honestly that never helped me. I was about to off myself when I turned 24, just some months after my dog died of cancer, she was the only thing keeping me here. Didn't do it because my parents brought home 3 tiny kittens that someone abandoned without their mother and I had to take care of them because my parents wouldn't do it properly. 2 are still alive and that's my reason to live. I intend to go to veterinary school in the near future (covid messed it up) and leave neetdom forever.
Hope you find your reason to stay.
No. 974089
>>974075Thanks
nonnie, and I actually didn't know that! The church goes through a lot of changes, I reckon…
>>974078I guess I was just a kid very scared from hell and such, I stopped considering myself religious/catholic when I was 15, so I was still pretty young. I'm 28 now, for reference.
I am glad you are still here and have a good reason to stay, anon.
I know I shouldn't do it, and tbh some days I really feel great and that life has so many options and stuff to do, but sometimes, you know… It's just a slump. Like right now I have this giant lump in my throat and have been like this for a while, whilst having random bouts of tears just falling, like just crying without even moving my mouth. It's weird. I don't know if it's depression or some other random shit, but it became more prominent after the 25 y/o mark.
No. 974105
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I don't know if its the scrote trying to troll around the boards or some insufferable squizo anon but i highly doubt it as this been happening lately, it didn't use to be like this, but now i can't even post shit without some pussy trying to hijack my post for whatever reason, i could literally post anything and it would derail into some political autismo or retarded infight, there's always infighting on imageboards but its has been out of control lately and i'm sick of it, i'm so fucking sick of it. And i'm so sure there's going to be more than one autismo being obtuse about this post and pretending they haven't been acting like a squizo all this time. This place used to be fun, now no one can take a joke and everyone takes shit too seriously.
No. 974108
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I'm so fucking weird sometimes that I genuinely have started to think I have a serious problem. I'm not one to self diagnose but I really do question if I have Asperger's or autism or something besides ADHD that makes me as strange and insufferable as I am. I don't even know how to word it or explain it, I'm just awkward around people unless we're one-on-one and even then I sometimes still act cringe and embarrassing.
No. 974151
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I JUST WANT TO TALK WITH MY DISCORD FRIENDS WITHOUT THEIR GODDAMNED FRIENDS SCHIZO POSTING AND TALKING ABOUT THEIR DEPRESSION CONSTANTLY I WANT TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT ANIME NOT YOUR GODDAMNED EMOTIONAL ISSUES I DON'T KNOW YOU GO AWAY REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
No. 974152
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>>974148>>974128>>974135Are you samefagging? It was obviously a fanfic.
No. 974154
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my ex is a real piece of shit. he cheats on me for 8 years and i still feel it now. i guess im just mega retarded. that and/or hes just a fucking gross nasty faggot who will take any desperate whore on craigs and tinder. the only reason i stayed with that asshole was because we had kids and they needed some stability and not a faggotass father who never sat with them to teach them colors and words and basic things that parents do with children. but i got played.
No. 974209
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>sometimes visit threads on 4chan that talk about games targeted at women
>utter internalized misogyny and seething from presumably gays
I don't get how you can play games targeted at girls and spend so much time seething at girls.
>this game is implementing complex gameplay which isn't meant for women's tiny brains! They need to stop pretending women are their target audience!
Dude, 3 of my female friends managed to get 99% clearence in the last challenge event with the most difficult song in the game (it's a rhythm game).
Then there's the seething at yume fans and how all men are gay and would never look at the female main character (despite flirting with her in canon). Are these Aydens complaining or some form of weird gay men who browse 4chan and plax josei games?
No. 974254
>>973030shut up tranny
>>973058Exactly, if we could show other people that these stunning and brave freaks are pedo coomers they would stop virtue signaling about them. But most people don't believe that most boys over the age of 10 have already started consuming pornographic content on a daily basis.
No. 974271
>>974259no you're right. And the thing is, if you ask for people to compliment you, those compliments aren't earnestly nice. Like they may well be true nice things about you, but how can you know if it's that or if they're just saying it because you asked?
like i xan't imagine being pleased with yourseld after you browbeat your "friends" into showering you with compliments that aren't even for doing anything. That's so different from like posting your art or w/e and getting unasked for compliments for something real.
No. 974301
>>969847I met a guy I really liked two months ago but he's emotionally unavailable as a lot of the men I usually meet. I have racing thoughts all the time around relationships and it's hard for me to just "flow" and let things happen naturally. I get in my head a lot. He wants to take things slowly and it annoys him every time I want to push to the next step. The problem is why do I keep choosing men that are cold, distant and don't want "labels"? The worst part is that I was really trying this time to take things slowly and if I had a bad day where I wanted to isolate myself because of my insecurities and not make him umcofortable (thinking OK maybe he's right and I take things too quickly too) he still noticed and would push me to say what was wrong with me. I must had heard 5 times the "I need things to go slow, I think you're great but I don't like you or love you for a label yet" and "why would you want to be in a relationship with someone you JUST met two months ago"? He doesn't even notice how much it hurts me when he invalidates my feelings or judges me for how I feel. I'm trying to respect his times but he doesn't seem to understand mine.
Why am I such an idiot? Should I just let ir be? He separated pretty recently, the thing is that when we meet we always have an amazing time, but it's usually under his terms and when he can and we only fight over chat, it's all over chat. He talks to me every day like we're a couple too and it makes me confused, and makes me think we are something else. He has insinuated twice this week that if I would just relax "that things would go were I want" but that I'm pushing and making him uncomfortable. I've never been the hysterical one, so I hate feeling like I'm being labeled this way, I'm embarrassed. Please help anons.
No. 974303
>>974301I literally hate myself because of how much I overthink things, why can't I just do my own thing and not think about the other person at all. Why can't I be cold like the rest and not care about someone until later on? I still think he's not being very emotionally responsible because he talks to me a lot, mentions things that make me feel like we're on to something but I genuinely have no idea of how much I would need to "wait" to make things more official. He's also exclusive with me, we see each other like twice a week, he mentioned meeting his friend someday. I don't get what's the problem here, we are basically a couple already.
I just feel so dumb, sorry for the extra rant. I want to shut off my brain and never talk to people again, I opened myself up to meeting someone this year and it's been rejection after rejection.
No. 974306
>>974303Anona, I think this is too late to save. The dynamic has already been created of chaser and chased and hes leaning into it. Maybe it's the cynic in me, maybe I've seen this too much, but I'd say he enjoys it. He knows you want more and he likes shutting it down. For example;
>if I had a bad day where I wanted to isolate myself because of my insecurities and not make him umcofortable (thinking OK maybe he's right and I take things too quickly too) he still noticed and would push me to say what was wrong with me.He KNOWS you're upset about how slow things are going, but he pushes because he wants to hear it and push you away you again, while dangling that carrot in front of you. A good healthy man would be upfront about his timeline and not try push you into being a cool girl. You're denying your own feelings.
Nothing is worse imo than constantly denying, cutting short or sanitising your own feelings and putting yourself in a place of less power. Leave it be. Also, look into why anxious/avoidant attachment pairings are so common, and try catch this shit because you're just doing yourself harm.
No. 974321
>>973364Anon speaking from my own good experience, you ought to try. There are good and bad shit jobs. What's your field?
I had myself believing that every workplace just came with these shit factors, and my best hope is moving to a higher level where i'd be better paid for the same level of burnout.
Instead, my current coworkers are professional but friendly instead of cliquey and high schooly where you actually suffer in your role if you're not in the in gang. The manager is competent and realistic regarding expectations instead of a fucking absent buffoon, the location is in a city centre vs the middle of nowhere, and the company seems to care more about my wellbeing.
All this and my responsiilities are actually a bit shitter, but the job itself is 5x better because of these other factors, and I lament being lazy for those 6 months before leaving because that's 6 months I could've been not burnt out, felt accepted and respected. Like now I consider it a form of self harm due to neglect. Start applying anon, for your own sake.
No. 974364
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>>974301>distant and don't want "labels"? Run when you hear this shit. It's an admittance to wanting to waste your time and wring as much sex out of you before you get fed up and leave or get discarded for being rightfully "clingy" or "going too fast" (but
he's not going to fast for wanting to fuck, ever).
Two months is plenty of time for them to know if they are serious about you. In fact, most have made their mind up within one date. But the truth is men are not like us where we say "I'm not that into you, bye", they will never leave an opportunity to fuck and be validated by a woman on the table. Instead they will discard you mentally but keep you around, making you out to be the needy one if you don't assume his rules. You will be stressed and confused, a big sign that he is not legitimate. A good one will be pursuing
you, and you are telling
him what the pace will be.
My advice is to cut off and leave. He'll gaslight again, imply youre CrAZy for wanting to be official, make you out to have emotional issues, and maybe even blame love languages and his poor widdle attachment issues/fear of commitment. If you put aside your broken ego and affection for him, and deliver this bluntly while staying unbothered, you may even be rewarded with a bit of groveling and actual effort. Of course, don't accept it, that's your cue to giggle and block.
No. 974365
>>974343maybe something is messing up on my end or the nonna who replied to me deleted it, but i wanted to let you know i hear you, appreciate your sentiments, and hope that you can be healthy and strong again one day. i know the feel of having absolutely no appetite and it can kinda make you feel less human (especially with the way other people react to it—i think overeating is a more “accepted”/well known reaction to stress or other mental goings-ons, so when you have the opposite folks automatically think you’re being edgy or have anorexia and they get uncomfy. fucking sucks)
anyway best wishes and i will keep lifting, i’ve been a little lazy the past few days but today’s sets will be for you nonnita
No. 974379
i wish there was a thread purely for venting where anons wouldn't reply with advice. i just want to vent into the void.
>>972669this is the worst
terf meme ever. why is she dating someone who even looks at porn in the first place, and why would sex be in the missionary position with the man on top? gross. and "birthing children will appease the goddess"? wtf, gross.
No. 974390
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am i pregnant? AM I FUCKING PARANOID. I LEGIT FEEL THE PRE PERIOD PAIN, BREASTS AND SHITS HOWEVER WHY ISNT PERIOD COMING WTF HURRY.
THE CONDOM SLIPPED OFF THAT ONE TIME AND I CANT SLEEP PROPERLY SINCE
No. 974404
I find it disgusting how so many people try to say that there is no context ever where another person is responsible for another's suicide. That's such a pitiful moral copout and I question the motivation of the people who insist this. My friend's sister just committed suicide after her boyfriend (who was totally aware of her mental health struggles) cheated on her for months, dumped her, emptied their entire bank account (every dime in it was from her not him), took everything expensive that he wanted from the apartment while she was gone, flaunted the new girl on social media with snide captions about "upgrading", and blocked her number so she couldn't even confront him directly about it. All his friends are giving him ass pats, saying he can't blame himself, but like… yeah, he fucking should? It's absolutely his fault. Sure, she made the choice to kill herself, but he dumped a girl he knew was prone to suicidal ideation in a monsterous way. This isn't the same as someone being blamed for another person's suicide after dumping them in a normal non-sociopathic.
No. 974510
>>974365Thank you for your nice reply, I was afraid I was being too self-centered in the post so I deleted it.
Let's get fit together nona. Wish you the best, you can and will overcome your past unhealthy habits. You got this!
No. 974540
>>974404It's absolutely his fault, the fuck. How many times do you have to attack someone in so many hurtful ways? What a shitstain waste of oxygen.
His new gf too if she saw it all play out.
No. 974546
>>969847being fat sucks. i wish i wasn't fat, most of my problems would be nonexistent. i've never been in a relationship and my standards are so incredibly high for what i deliver. no one of my standards would even look into my direction.
i can't continue living my life like this, i need to change because i'd rather die than have to spend the rest of my life looking like i do now. so from now on i'm going to lose all this weight. i've spent too many years being fat and i really can't afford to continue being like this
No. 974590
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Seething so hard rn and I have nowhere else to vent, so bear with me nonnas. <3 Anyway, I fucking hate terminally online munchie retards that expect everyone to put a uwu content warning on everything. Like I'm talking about something and they're like Ummmm ackshually can you please censor the name of this specific obscure piece of media? I have CPTSD because someone who was an asshole to me one time liked it and now I literally have a panic attack everytime I even hear about it? Kill yourself or cope, retard, how the fuck do you even live outside of online spaces? CW food? On a fucking cooking video? Bitch do you complain about seeing food in the fucking grocery store? Girl tell me to put a content warning on anything ever again and I will go rabid on your hethey ass
No. 974730
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>>974706I get this when I'm at the really snotty phase of a cold. I consulted Dr Google. The way this guy describes it is exactly how it sounds with my cold, but I sometimes get a pain in at as well.
Some other sites said it was the same thing. On the same page as img was this
>Try equalizing the pressure in your ears by holding you nose and blowing. If you hear this noise, some condition is blocking the passage between the ear and sinus which should be clear and allow this pressure to equalize. I have this problem often and visited doctors who have not really been able to do much.Might as well try that and see if it goes and see a doc if it doesn't shift. Replying because it's got to be annoying af.
No. 974768
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Sent an email to about 11 japanese universities about an exchange program and only 3 answered back.
I don't mind the rejection, I just don't wanna be left in the dark, especially considering that my application deadline is Dec 1st (I told them it was this Tuesday just to be sure). Same thing with job applications, sometimes I get hopeful, only to be met with crickets.
Hopefully they'll answer by Tuesday.
No. 974770
>>974730ah
nonnie my beloved… thank you… i will try…
No. 974813
>>974803I’m right there with you
nonny. I had to go on meds because I couldn’t take it anymore. Now I don’t feel anything at all. My brain is fucked
No. 974822
my brothers grew up to be misogynist and racist. i haven't met them for years and i thought they would be mature because they went to university and worked, but instead they became bitter. i can't comprehend how they ended up like this. it's disgusting. i joined their party once and their friends kept making misogynistic, racist and antisemitic jokes, of course only because as a female i don't exist in the room, and there were no jewish or brown people there. i thought maybe they just have a dark sense of humor so i said some offensive jokes that poked fun at them. and guess fucking what, who was suddenly the victim? they can't handle the slightest fucking criticism towards themselves even when it's a drunken party joke, and they bro up "don't say that!", "nooo, it's not like that!" getting all sensitive, but when they keep saying n* and other shit all that fucking sensitivity goes out of the window! at least one of their friend's called out the too many holocaust jokes when i mentioned it but holy shit they are assholes. i asked my bf to pick me up from the party and he did and brought me some snacks, next time my brothers saw me they called him a simp behind his back. i am trying so hard not to "i believe i can change them" because i tried and it led to nothing. they get defensive and say it's just jokes. i am only getting frustrated if i hang out with them. i clean the house the most out of these assholes yet they had the audacity to get jealous when i got to stay in the best room. fuck you, you can not pretend to not know how to fold your own clothes your entire life despite larping as the biggest intellectual going off to uni, then get mad when i don't separate your shitty underwear correctly, how the hell am i supposed to even know what underpants you wear you disgusting idiot, i hope nobody will ever have to see them. you literally think all women exist just to be your slave and that them having personal choice is bad. you think women are hysterical when they get their rights taken away but get triggered when they don't throw themselves at you or beg to be your handmaiden
No. 974851
>>974152No I was the crossbow poster.
Living in a forest sounds great right now because prices are really rising, my wage isn't getting higher, and I might not be able to keep my job to begin with. I had friends go homeless multiple times before. I'll probably have to face the same situation, but their advice might not apply in some cases because they're guys.
No. 975002
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Sometimes I think of times as a little kid when I acted like a little shit towards my mom. Times when she was just trying to do something nice for me or to connect with me, it makes me makes me feel so bad.
No. 975041
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It's probably some twitter bullshit blown out of proportions ("sexual racism" sounds like something you'd see some insane troon claim on twitter), since neither me nor my friend could find further information about it but it still makes my head spin.
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-10225111/Stonewall-brands-lesbians-sexual-racists-raising-concerns-sex-transgender-women.html?fbclid=IwAR3Ujg8QzXGx6HWMzVfkzaE7BIoB01OIrQiOMNXI4qLKNcqD8sciHthp3hU No. 975053
>>974032>cats in front of lilliesThis drawing is itching me in the wrong way. Lillies are highly
toxic for cats, and you shouldn't ever have some in your household if you're a cat owner.
No. 975057
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I am barely 21 and I have a libido of a post-menopausal woman. I rarely, rarely feel aroused and even when I do, it barely lasts more than a minute. I only get horny about twice a year. It's not like I am asexual because I do desire sex but I just don't get horny. Even when I masturbate, I don't think about anything sexual, I think about normal things you get in your mind when you're listening to some boring lecture, like things I need to do or some show I've been watching, and then I nut and even after that I'm barely wet. I can't even remember the last time I actually got wet. I hate this so much, I feel so broken, I want to feel horny. I had a small horny phase as a teen when I had sex a few times with some old men but that's it. I even try to think of sexual thoughts but it does nothing. On top of this, I have vaginismus. It fucking sucks.
No. 975071
>>975066Thank you anon, I'm doing all good. I do think the experiences have left me with some baggage to sort but it's nothing too bad imo. Although, you may be right that this vaginismus is connected to it since, and this is a little inappropriate so I'll spoiler it but
I could insert more than two fingers in before now it hurts badly to even insert one and I wouldn't even mind that if I could experience arousal occasionally, it makes me feel bad I just cannot. The last I felt horny was when a man called me really hurtful things which is just fantastic. Maybe I should go to a doctor about this, I'm not too keen on therapy.
No. 975104
>>975099I'm sorry anon, I'm sure that diagnosis would have been a bit more helpful to you sooner in life. It's just nice to know that there is something going on that can be somewhat explained. I have severe anxiety from growing up with crazy, violent people. I spent most of my childhood/teen years telling myself I was no depressed, I was not anxious, things aren't that bad (despite being hit) and that anything bad happening to me was my own fault. It's left me feeling really beaten down, and terrified. I think that's the thing that holds me back the most from meeting people. I'm so scared. I'm just sick of being hurt, of being made to feel worthless and useless. I just want to be wanted. I hope we both make the connections we're looking for.
We are still young and we still have the chance to meet that life long friend.
No. 975125
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>>975053damn, knowledgeable about cats and flowers, marry me nona
No. 975161
>>975159My company has me on a year contract.
My only hope is if I can move up or into a different field.
No. 975169
Those days I'm feeling extremely anxious for no reason. Wtf. It happens to me from time to time then it fades away. Fucking weird.
>>975150damn that sucks
>>975125O-one day anon… but I don't know much about flowers, I only know about them through kot lenses
No. 975402
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having a panic attack atm
No. 975406
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>>975403very true i guess i am fine now, thank you anon
No. 975530
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I somehow distanced myself (because it was hard to remove myself completely) from what was enabling (and initially helped create) my mental "universe". I obviously couldn't stop the habit of maladaptive daydreaming but by distancing myself I could reduce it to certain times of the day and I felt a tinge better about real life. Only a little bit but it was something.
Nowadays I find myself going back to that old habit due to loneliness and these feelings about how real life will never ever satisfy me the way the world in my head does are creeping back and it only makes me more depressed. Why was I given this shit life with shit circumstances? It's gotten worse than before and I catch myself daydreaming/zoning out in the middle of every minuscule thing that could set it off and I don't even realize until I come back and I'm like "Huh? Why did I do that?".
I don't hate my world at all, in fact I love it so much and I would happily kill myself if I was guaranteed to live there forever but right now I just feel like I'm chasing my own tail. I'm getting no where with my life. The last 5 years have been wasted and filled with regrets and this is partly to blame.
No. 975543
>>975511No fucking way, haven't been there in a while but I didn't expect it to disappear
Also my high school fight video was uploaded there kek
No. 975546
>>975425There was a discussion on /pol/ about how to keep women from getting fat, including not letting her eat and openly masturbating to old pics when you were at a lower weight.
If you do ever lose weight I hope you dump him kek
No. 975578
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I got what I wanted but now I'm realizing it's not what I wanted. It's too late to turn back and I'm pretending it's not real. My anxiety has been insane the last few months and I want to curl up in a ball and die.
No. 975604
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my family doesn't like me and they never will. I'm sad because politics and the news are in my face. lonely because my friends and bf hated me and I made them fuck off. just listening to Bossa nova and wanting to do someone's nails. but not a man. it bothers me when nail channels use male inclusive language.
No. 975619
>>969847My dream job strung me along for 4 interviews before rejecting me
I was so stupid to let myself get excited and now I want to die. I keep getting ghosted and I'm about to graduate. If I don't find something by the time my loan payments kick in I'm ending it all
No. 975621
>>975614I'm sure she loves you just as much, if you have a good relationship it's naturally going to be a stronger bond between siblings than with friends.
That said I get irrationally jealous sometimes, even though I know my sis and I are bffs forever. She's getting married and I saw a comment from her fiance's sister like "can't wait for us to be sisters!" and omg I seethed at the realisation that I won't be her only sister.
No. 975673
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>>975633Thanks anon. I'm just so fucking tired of the run around with jobs I've done everything I was supposed to do- been working since I was legally able, went to community college before uni for STEM, kept a high gpas, networked and worked in research at my uni, worked with career services, talked to everyone I know about looking for work and for what? 100s of apps across the country and I can count the callbacks on my hands. I'm about to graduate, crawl back to my parent's house and work a $10 an hour job to maybe afford a beater car while the interest racks up on my loans. I get nothing but great feedback at work and interviews, it's like they think I have something lined up. Compliments used to make me feel good but now I just feel angry.
No. 975698
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I just recently started working at a small retail shop to make some money while also taking college online classes. I really like the job but today I had a Male customer that would not leave me alone. I was just clocking in and the guy looked a few years older than me and asked if I was new and I said yes. Then he kept asking my age, said that he couldn't tell if I was a teenager or not, and persistently asked for my number. I said no to him and that I don't give my number to strangers yet he still insisted and I was practically cornered and was just ignoring him at this point while I finished unpacking some products. When I started heading to the front desk he followed me and would not stop staring at me behind the counter while I assisted other customers. At that point the fight or flight signals went off in my brain and I started having a panic attack and rushed to the back of the store to the break room. I was extremely embarrassed and upset but thankfully the manager was very kind and understanding and said if he comes back just grab her or if it gets worse we'll have to get the police involved. After that I felt shit all day and now I can't stop thinking about how I could of handled the situation better.
No. 975795
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I'm starting to get grey hairs at the age of 19. How do I cope nonas?
No. 975924
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I've never been so irritated by a person in minor ways like I am by this one guy in my classes. He has the most high pitched, breathy annoying voice and sometimes on practices when some conversation is allowed, he won't fucking stop talking for 90 minutes in at a moderate volume, but because of the nature of his voice it overpowers everything else. It's like I have a mosquito buzzing in my ear and I can't get rid of it. He's constantly on the verge of a mental breakdown so when having a conversation he'll make insane jumps or try to get pity, and if he gets any criticism, he won't stop talking again trying to explain how it actually isn't fair to criticize him while holding back tears. I've never seen a person so weak, and I'm a fucking socially anxious crybaby.
Even in writing he manages to be annoying by saying the most outlandish shit or trying to be in charge of conversations only to start his pity-party "I d-did not mean it that way, why are you making alternative suggestions" act a minute later, he's always one step behind everyone mentally, and won't fucking shut up when he has nothing to contribute. He also "tfw no gf" posts from time to time as if anyone cares, and has been going after one chick who's visibly uncomfortable. I think when blackpillers say that women want beta bitches dead, they just mean specifically this one guy.
No. 976061
>>976041>Bi boyfriend into femboy shit>Demands pegging and being dommed>Crossdressing fetish>I support trans peopleYour next stop will be writing another bitter post on r/TransWidows,
nonnie. Run like hell, he's probably cheating on you with other degenerate discord troons as we speak and before you know it he'll be slapping you with his bloodied dilator.
No. 976063
>>976041>dating a pornsick scrote who's gonna troon out on you any daywhy are you doing this to yourself? dump him.
you deserve better.
No. 976068
I don't know why or how, but I've always had this thing where I would dream about a very cryptic thing, and when I woke up and go to check on it, it would turn out to be something real. I know I sound retarded, but hear me out.
Last night I had a weird dream where my abusive ex had a kid and moved next to where I live, which ended up in him confronting me about why we didnt have kids together (we didnt cause he's an asshole, and I was 17, but that's another history).
I don't know why, again, but when I woke up my gut told me to check his profile. Turns out he is having a kid with a girl younger than him, and they're expecting a girl.
I'm…
I don't know how to feel nonnies. That bastard is a rapist, a violent asshole, and he keeps getting away with it, and now he's gonna have a little girl that's gonna be vulnerable to him.
I'm feeling all weird, and I don't think I even know what to feel. In a part I'm relieved that it isn't me, but another part of me is furious, because it seems so fucking unfair.
That son of a bitch has been abusing girl after girl, and he's out there having kids like it's nothing. If I'm feeling anything right now, I'm feeling mad.
I always hoped he would end up in jail, or at least on his own, and now… this is so unfair
No. 976180
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For the past 4 years I've been hanging out with a group of friends from university. One of them is a dude that has been on twitter for the past 12 years and he's terminally online, tweeting like 20 times a day sometimes. I only found this out recently, and he doesn't know me and another friend casually stalk him on there. Keep in mind he didn't keep the fact that he has a twitter a secret, and it's easily findable.
He's an extremely open and approachable person and very easy to talk to, up until I found his account I would've considered him a close friend but now? Not so much. He also knows a million people in real life.
While stalking his twitter I noticed that all the "personal" confessions he told us, he just aired out on twitter too. All of the things that I thought made us close could just easily be found on his twitter. But we confided things to him that barely anyone knew.
Am I weird for finding this strange? I never hung out with a super public, popular and online person, but I feel like I was just yet another listener in his life and that's all. It seems like he treats everyone as his public or potential connection for a job, or any kind of opportunity. He's kind of a suck-up.
We haven't been close since the pandemic started, he completely checked out on our friend group so I don't have to worry about being friends with him, this thought has just been bothering me for a while now.
No. 976191
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What is wrong with me! Today I tried to focus on doing one task. I had to do one exercise for class, but instead of actually doing it or even thinking about it or anything I literally just sat there and let time pass by. It's always like this. I look at the words. I don't allow myself to process them. I stare into nothing for a while until I catch myself. I try to read it again, this time forcing myself to understand. I understand it. I have now read a few sentences of the text, not even attempted to put words of my own down or even fully read the questions. "Wow, that was some hard work right there! Time for a break" and then I take out my phone from where I put it so it'd be out of immediate reach and open and close the same three apps for half an hour. Why? It would be so much easier to simply do the task, but I don't want to and so I won't. It's not only that I don't "feel like" doing it, it's also that I've developed the mindset of "I can't have any free time during exam prep". Because free time is a waste, I could be studying instead and if I'm done too quickly I will get free time. But when I try to study this shit happens, what the fuck.
No. 976226
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Work was so terrible. I cried on the way back. At home I sat on the kitchen floor ugly crying and screaming like a baby. I'm sure fucked up in the head. I thought about quitting my job but I'm sure all work is just terrible and there is no way out for an idiot like me. I'm done crying and now I sleep.
>>976178 I'm with you anon
No. 976241
>>976226Thank you. You get your well deserved rest
nonny.
No. 976506
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My brother won't shut the fuck up about his cooking, even when it tastes and looks like shit and he's super slow at it, and won't bother to learn from our grandma.
"Food scientist"
>Knowledge from YouTube, constantly churns out low quality food because doesn't bother to work hard
>Relies on fads and pseudo intellectuals for nutrition
>Solitary cooks, any time someone is around he bosses them around so much that they leave
>Only knows how to cook from a recipe, can't make something with limited resources
>Pays out the ass for expensive ingredients he doesn't know how to use
>No idea how to grow anything more complicated then micro greens
>Unhealthy
>Will put his cum in your food if you don't treat him like God
>Constantly prattling on about what he cooks/his "knowledge"
>Weak grip, soft unblemished hands
>Has a mantrum if hasn't eaten in 5 hours
Babushka
>Knowledge came from experience and hard work
>Learned ages old nutrition from traditional cooking
>Forged strong connections in family via learning & teaching cooking
>Creative from years of improvisation due to limited resources
>Knows where best deals & prices never gets ripped off
>Self sustainable and knows how to grow own food & animals
>Herbal medicine, she only ever went to hospital for antibiotics
>Food scientist stole her recipes to succeed in food business
>Expects no praise, secure in her abilities and knowledge
>Supreme handgrip and tough calloused hands
>Survived a famine
No. 976516
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Last thread I talked about how I had a gut feeling my boyfriend was cheating on me based on pretty much no real evidence.
Found out I was right and that very day he was cheating on me
No. 976532
>>976516Wonder if some of my gut feelings over the course of 2 years have been spot on as well, like in your case yours were. It's so tiresome to have to doubt repeatedly.
I'm sorry he did that to you. Moids really have no idea of how much we know.
No. 976578
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>"Hey anon let's put the Christmas tree!! yaaaaayyy!!!"
>When i finally start decorating it, everyone leaves the room, so no one helps me
>There's almost no balls
>No music, so i'm just decorating the tree in total silence, my thoughts starting to get increasingly depressive
>Turn on the radio
>Only reggaeton because my country sucks
>Try to find a usb to play music in the aux
>Only usb left is broken beyond use
>Search for a blank CD
>Mom threw away all blank CDs for whatever reason
>Mosquitos are starting to bite me
>Mom and dad start fighting about my recently deceased grandpa
>"Good vibes"
>Go to my room and open lolcow because fuck it
>Cry while hearing a lofi Christmas playlist
I wasn't expecting anything and life still keeps disappointing me, classic
No. 976592
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>>976506Thought this was funny
No. 976618
File: 1637703087589.jpeg (125.35 KB, 800x800, iu-49.jpeg)
>>976608Get one of these for when you're getting your pic taken, if you put some dry shampoo in it it won't look as shiny and at least you'll look fine in the pic. I think there are human hair ones too (they're pretty pricy though). Idk how bad it is but if they're bangs they should grow out pretty soon, don't worry nonna ♥
No. 976635
>>976618that's such a clever idea, i will be on the lookout for one of these next time i go out
thank you anon for saving my driver's license picture <3
No. 976639
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>>976578Oh it seems everyone's back! and the tree is looking beautiful too, cool
>>976578I'm from Colombia, we live near a small lake so there's a lot of mosquitoes sometimes. My family usually starts decorating between November10/December3
No. 976643
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I’m so upset. I confessed my feelings after 3 years so he can just flat out reject me and I can move tf on!! For the past 3 years I’ve let this guy string me along while convincing myself I had feelings for him even though we barely text or see each other anymore. It’s obvious he was just using me for sex and I let him because literally every person at this point is just into me for my body. It doesn’t matter how long or how short I hold out the second we have sex that is all I’m good for. I’m never relationship material. I can’t explain it I feel like if you have a certain body type you are branded as nothing more than sexual fodder to be used and dumped. I tried to go on a networking date and I wore an oversized sweater and skinny jeans. My whole body was covered. But tell me why he STILL decided to try and make a move on me sexually. And get this because of my LEGS . Who is even looking at chicken legs and getting turned on!? This happens to me so much I can’t explain it. Anyway I thought this guy was different because he WAS at a point so I held out but it’s obvious I fell in love with the idea of him and not him. I never even knew this scrote! I’m just mad because 3 years ago he pursued ME. Ugh whatever bring the heartbreak on but make it quick and painless lol
No. 976647
>>976517He randomly confessed out of the blue this morning that he kissed some chick I've never heard of who he had an emotionally intense connection with after getting to know her for one fucking day. I probed and it turned out to be the exact day I was panicing on here about my suspicions.
>>976553>>976532>>976547I truly believe that women's intuition is a shockingly powerful force and this situation really reaffirmed that.
No. 976662
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random image because im a tard but,
how do I convince friend not to feel bad about breaking up with bf and him suicide baiting her? She feels guilty and blames herself, however he's such a piece of shit to her.
No. 976665
>>969973Coming on this cess-pool of
toxic bitter harpies isnt productive either.. [I'm talking to myself as well]. I spent a lot of time during my high school years obsessing over IG girls. Was very jealous over Cindy Kimberly and some other random Tumblr girls id see.. All of that energy was so useless and I should've just focused on sports or something.
No. 976701
File: 1637712146224.jpg (20.57 KB, 243x275, 1626715090991.jpg)
I told my aunt I have a huge crush on a guy and I just found out he has a gf and how I'm trying to get over it, and how I still have fantasies about them breaking up but I know I have to forget about him, and she told me to "go for it" if I want him and that I can't win my happiness if I won't try. Like, what the fuck aunt?
No. 976713
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Oh look it’s me
No. 976722
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i havent dated in so long i feel like i am past the point of being able to do it
if a convo falls flat i just stop talking and so does the other person so i just go "okay, no interest, i shouldn't waste my time"
except no one actually catches my interest
No. 976754
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There's a moid in our class who answers our professor rudely and speaks in a retarded way yet she doesn't even flinch. (He has an anime profile picture too) but the moment I ask a question in the most polite way, she acts all catty as if I've said something crude. Tf is wrong with her Jfc.
No. 976762
>>976740Pale poops are sometimes caused by a bile duct blockage or by a really high fat intake prior to the poops. Giardia causes almost white shits and lots of bloating, pain, and foul movements/flatulence.
It could also be gallstones. It’s no real diagnosis but there’s a lot of things it could be before colon cancer. Hopefully it’s something minor and can be fixed without much.
If you can, get your liver checked out. Fingers crossed nona
No. 976766
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I just watched a video where an obviously obese girl showed what she ate in a day and it seemed so obviously fake. She ate far healthier than me in the video and yet is twice my size. No hate on the girl but shes obviously lying.
What pisses me off is the amount of people buying her bullshit and backing it. Anyone who tried to point out the lie, even if they were being nice, was getting talked down to. Not to mention that these people have deluded themselves so bad that they believe their bullshit as a scientific fact.
No. 976781
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Please don't tax my package, please, pleaaasee.
No. 976800
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why can i only do my math coursework when i'm around other people that know i'm supposed to be doing it? if i'm on my own in my room and i need to do it i just fuck off all night instead its infuriating why am i like this
No. 976815
>>976806Tinfoil hat but I def think they're experimenting on ppl with subliminal messages. I'd look on Pinterest from time to time and finally decided to get an account, and then I couldn't stop checking it, it came out of nowhere and like I was possessed, the content wasn't even that good. I deleted my account bc it freaked me out. Now I search stuff occasionally and haven't gotten the urge.
Also another explanation could be extreme stress and self harm tendencies. I used to look at fucked up doujinshi when I was super depressed and hated myself.
No. 976822
>>976812Yeah, for me it started after some shock video was going super viral, which is why I only go on instagram like twice a month now
You know when you go on instagram and everyones fucking story has the same “warning” about some teenage boy who killed a dog on snapchat or something, it was one of those
>>976815Wtf this is weird because when I started using technology again pinterest was the site I used because it was less social and more curated
No. 976827
>>976822I second the theory of some kind of digital self harm. Sometimes when I am feeling suicidal I feel the urge to look at gory pictures of suicide, and I always regret it and feel worse afterwards.
Doing some technology cleanse always help, but you gotta solve the core of the problem or else it will come back.
No. 976892
22, feel useless in life and drifting, that I'm wandering aimlessly going nowhere, feel like I've been deprogrammed as a normally functioning human by life's stresses than before I was at Uni. Maybe it's just part of getting older, I don't know. It all started at University where I got really miserable, deaths in the family, waking up to the general horror of the world around you, etc. I became an alcoholic, just drinking in my room slamming down spirits, smoking, over that part of my life now. Struggled with relationships over the years because again, people are trash.
Anyway, presently, in my periods of NEETdom I've learned how to code and completed artwork just to stay busy. I am constantly trying to learn new things but it's just getting to the point now where I'm tired. I'm tired of not seeing results from everything I've been doing, I have done everything right, but for some reason it's difficult to get the simplest of jobs even though I've got a degree. Employers I've worked with just take the piss and there's not one place I've worked prior that didn't have a toxic work environment, I usually tell them to fuck off and stuff their job after a few months of working there. These are part time jobs that are just getting me by. Or temporary positions.
It doesn't help either that I hate living where I am, I live in England, specifically the NE, I have no friends, barely talk to my family. Nobody talks to me, I'm painfully alone but sometimes I enjoy being alone, but days like these I just feel defeated. I have been doing this since start of 2020. I hardly leave my room (with parents), I've got no money or savings. The only thing I have going for me are my looks and my intelligence, I have no idea if I'd even be here right now without having at least these going for me.
I guess I'm just lost in life without any idea, I have been carrying this pain for a while, but something in me soldiers on even though I feel like shit most days. I take it it's depression from stagnating, but I'm just tired of having to battle to get where I am, I can generally tolerate this but recently the fact that I have no friends is getting to me. It's hard to stop the mental torment and negativity that's going on in my mind. And maybe it's the long black hours from outside and my irregular sleeping pattern.
I've rambled on a bit now, but I'll finish on this: everyone around me is an asshole/idiot, I used to really care why people didn't like me, but now I don't. I've just become so jaded by assholes in general and used to think it was me and asked if I was doing something wrong for years. This imageboard is my only social contact, and maybe talking to people on an online game.
Sorry if this is incoherent, it was a stream of consciousness hehe
No. 976919
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>>976908Your post made me laugh so damn hard, "You shouldn't have stole that loaf of bread!"
No. 976940
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>>976919Thanks anon I think you found the way to fix this I am no longer angry and spammed the carb creature with these.
No. 976967
>>976702Maybe you could try and talk to her? I've been in the other side and I lost my bff, long time after she confessed me she was feeling irrationally jealous because she was insecure about keeping friends and that I
triggered something in her just because she felt inferior.
No. 976970
>>976947Did your father access it from his account or yours? It sucks either way, but if it's the former, you can restrict access and put passwords.
You could also create a password protected Tumblr blog.
No. 976973
>>976971Really? Are you sure? Maybe they changed it, cause I remember back in the day (2013) I had an ex kinda stalk my Tumblr (that I was legit using as a blog, posting about my day and shit) and I could password protect it and just gave out the password for like, literally two people. I'm pretty sure it was my main. But maybe I'm misremembering it lol
Either way, doing what you said of making it readable only for those who have an account, or making a side blog for the writing.
No. 977010
>>976766I know that some people have a lower TDEE due to endo or other issues, but I don't get when people that bloated to twice their size in the last two years saying anything about genetics. There are people who just got less active and put on some weight, but you cannot get
obese this fast unless you were gorging food.
No. 977100
>>977089This would be fun in a manga, but wow I'm stressed as hell. I spent the last two years on locked down, so maybe that's why everyone is talking to me? It's so crazy, I'm in my 20s and never had people this invested in me.
I just feel terrible because I feel like I'm not being honest. But physically telling someone why I don't want to date them is anxiety-inducing.
No. 977138
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My friend says i was only friends with him because I liked him so I was never really his friend, and now i think maybe he's right although i don't remember it like that
No. 977150
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>>977102You clearly do give a fuck. You can’t sit with us. Go back to your table, you’re slacking off when you should be validating some stunning brave gals instead. They will be very angry with you!
No. 977155
It's almost Christmas season and I can't handle the stupidity of my fucking parents. My brother is the stupid little autistic moid who is 12 and gets everything he wants shoved up his ass and grew up in completely different conditions than I did. When I was born I was an only child and my parents were poor because they first came to Germany for a better life. Of course I was not allowed to have everything and often had to deny myself my wishes because we had these money worries. Over the course of several years my parents finally managed to lead a reasonably good life, but my mentality about money and spending it still remains in my head despite all this. I still live with my parents and I'm currently in university so I often overhear conversations between my parents and my brother and I wish I could bang my head against the fucking wall when I hear what shit my brother wants again. He is a typical fucking tiktok zoomer consoomer who has nothing in his head and demands the smallest stupid shit he sees online and really insists on getting it. He's also a stupid mama's boy and a typical moid, which is why my mom always has to clean up after him and that's because he just can't get anything together. Several times a week my brother goes to my dad and wants something new ordered again, a good example of this are headphones and PS4 controllers. This fucking moid has absolute aggression problems and has to permanently kick or hit everything that is in a radius of 2 meters when he loses a Fortnite or Fifa match. Of course, this led to more than 7 cases where he broke or threw headphones or controllers on purpose each time, simply because he was aggressive at that moment and couldnt control himself. And in spite of all this, every time he comes crawling back like a little rat and crawls up my parents' asses who of course buy their beloved son everything new again. This cycle repeats itself all the fucking time, no matter what he destroys or beats up my parents will buy it for him every time. Just now I was in the living room and saw how my brother had sent my father a whole screen recording with his wish list. On the wish list you could see: a mouse and mouse pad, headphone holder, sound absorbing foam walls, an Amazon Alexa, new LED light chains, a new screen, a monitor holder (?) and endless other fucking unnecessary things. Most of the items he already owned once or even several times, as well as screens of which he had destroyed two whole ones and he just owns one, a completely working mouse and mouse pad, also LED chains he owns but the problem here is that this fucking autist in his untidy and dirty 4channer room has lost the remote control and is too lazy to look for it. Apart from the fact that he has an extremely small room and wants to clutter up this already cluttered and untidy room with more unnecessary stuff, so what do you need an extra headphone holder for when your whole room looks like a fucking landfill? I had then asked him what he needed all of it for, whereupon he started crying on no cap that I was so mean and would not let him fulfill his wishes. My parents have of course also started to insult with what a subhuman I would be that I would not allow him any Christmas gifts. My father then said that my brother would suffer if he didn't get any presents and that he couldn't allow that because otherwise he would be traumatized by it. Funnily enough, it's completely the other way around when I want or even need a thing, I'm labeled as spoiled when I'm really the cheapest living person in the whole household and reuse everything as often as I can and also only buy what I really think is necessary. Why do retarded men get everything they want? Why do moids get this special fucking treatment? I want to beat the shit out of this stupid little spoiled autistic moid.
No. 977256
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>>977155I've seen a few anons on here like this, maybe we should make a thread for it? My immigrant family moved and I was basically forgotten while they tried to become middle class. Then they had a boy and he's a spoiled brat who doesn't even flush the toilet, do his homework, and hits the women in the house. And yet he's still excused for everything and given everything, while I'm supposed to be eternally grateful for being fed and housed, and essentially being put under house arrest for my whole childhood because they didn't want me going to play with other kids. Suddenly they're surprised I'm autist tier socially awkward and had a breakdown in uni and dropped out. Oh? What did you fucking expect? I hope you can save up enough to move out anon, living with these types of people drains your fucking soul. Literally all I want is to be left alone and not be criticized, treated like a servant, and used as an emotional cum dumpster. When parents get old I'm not doing shit, let them die in their bed covered in piss and shit and vomit. Let their pwecious sons take care of them, since they invested so much in them.
No. 977274
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I don't want to go to Thanksgiving tomorrow. My eyes have been hurting me so I have to wear my ugly ass coke bottle glasses instead of contacts, my lips are fucked up and the medication hasn't arrived yet at the pharmacy, I fucked up my bangs, I fell and hurt my jaw. My reflection is cartoonishly bad. I want to show up in a mask
No. 977333
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Got my period for the first time in 3 years.
No. 977338
going to write this in greentext even though I'd prefer not to, just to make it more concise
>be me, work at place of work for over a year
>develop psuedo friendship with one of the managers
>she leaves in july to a different store
>not really close with anyone there anymore
>boss's wife (who used to work at a different store but no longer works at that chain anymore) is having a girl's night as they called it, a small get together
>they invite me for only god knows what reason
>I've never even been properly introduced to my boss's wife, I've just met her a few times
>they say it's just going to be sitting around drinking and smoking etc
>I'm very flattered they invite me but still don't want to go as I'm socially retarded, a bore at parties, extremely paranoid as well
>accept anyway because I don't want to seem rude
>they keep asking me again if I'm going, I keep saying yes, knowing I should say no, just because I don't know how to say no without sounding rude
>go to party
>it's very small, just 2 managers from my store, my boss's wife and a guy from the store she used to work at
>we all smoke a bunch of weed
>I've only smoked weed like 4 or 5 times, sometimes it doesn't do anything, sometimes it would just make me really lightheaded and dissociate
>get really high, feel like I'm asleep but also awake at the same time, dead but alive, can't think straight, convince myself I have a weed allergy and I'm dying or something, don't know if I should say anything, afraid to sound stupid because "I feel like I'm dying" is something high people say a lot
>feel ridiculous admitting this but it was probably one of the worst things I've ever experienced
>finally come down from high mostly, drive home after being there for like 5 hours
>managers who were there yesterday gonna be there today
>I feel rude because I barely talked the entire time, afraid it's gonna be awkward now or something or they'll think I was being rude
>still have no clue as to why I was even invited in the first place
damn why don't I have a spine, I should have just said no thanks from the get-go, I knew I didn't really want to go, I felt like it would be rude but I still feel rude somehow anyway
No. 977340
>>977334Sounds like she has abandonment issues. She knows that you will never leave her because you love her, or at least she would prefer to have her son never leave her, so she caters to him more.
My mom is Oedipus about it but she does everything she can to protect my brother no matter what and meanwhile I'm being fussed at every time I talk to her. After I moved out it was miles better.
No. 977433
>>977334My husbands mom is a straight up pedophile and very creepy. When I first met her she use to always amp out how hot she use to be and how she had a playboy body, then when I actually saw pics of her she was a complete butterface and a fridge, she was just obsessed with the fact she had big tits which weren't even THAT big, she was the same size as me even though she bashes my size (34DD)
here's some disturbing things she's said
>told my husband when he was 10 yrs old to marry a girl with big boobs and butt because she wanted her granddaughter to have big boobs and butt (I have a daughter on the way and this is one of the many many reasons why me and husband won't bring her around his mother)>told her daughter/husbands sister that she needed to watch her have sex for the first time because it was part of catholic culture>bashes her daughters boob size for being too small since she was developing, as if it was somehow in her control? also encourages her to get fat so she has bigger tits when her daughter has a ton of health issues>just weird obsession with womens bodies for some ungodly reason, if she's watching tv or something she will just randomly make disgusting comments on the womens bodies>keeps trying to talk about sex, told everyone about her hookup at a family dinner, asked daughters friend if she had sex with a woman because she came out as bisexual, and a number of other gross thingsI don't even know what you would call this complex, she has the mind of an incel with a hentai fetish
No. 977438
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I'm tired of being a woman. If I was born just 5 years later I'd definitely have trooned out when I was a teen.
Some guy chased me when I was returning from work. He cut me off, I honked, he brake checked me but my car has really good brakes so I never fall for it.
Then he drives behind me for another 2 and half kilometers. Meanwhile I'm using my turn signals etc because I'm not a fucking moron. When I get like 600 meters away from my house (by now we're already at the suburbs) I realize that he's following me and I slam on the gas pedal trying to make him lose me, being careful to not let him know where I live.
Keep in mind that I drive a Fiat 500 (small car, two doors), and this guy is in a fucking HUGE van. Unfortunately because of the adrenaline I didn't look enough to see which company it belonged to, but I doubt it would make a difference.
I know that he saw that I was a woman. I know that he saw that I was small. I know that he saw that I was alone.
Second time this has happened to me. Of course everyone says the same thing to me: don't honk at someone never ever ever even if your life depends on it.
It all makes me so mad. Men have it literally on easy mode. They don't walk around with targets on their backs because of things they can't control.
It honestly makes me suicidal.
I wish that I could never drive again and work from home forever.
I wish I wasn't a woman.
No. 977444
>>977334>she seems to favorite my brother no matter what, all his life, then vent to me about how her mother always chose and favorited her own brother.Literally my mom lol
>>977340>After I moved out it was miles better.Is your relationship okay now? I'm moving out soon and the really bitter part of me wants nothing to do with the family anymore but obviously a larger part of me doesn't absolutely hate her and I wonder if these feelings will calm down when I leave
No. 977470
>>977449Already told my parents, thank you nona.
>>977450Yeah I'm not in America but I wonder what could have happened if he had a gun instead…
>>977453Thank you so much for your concern.
I was feeling like shit but now I feel way better after your replies, thank you nonas. Love you all.
No. 977481
>>977462He's telling you he doesn't trust your relationship enough to be legally binding. It's fair for a woman to not want that this far into a relationship, because it's harder to escape if he turns out to be
abusive or fucked up and just waiting for her to be "locked in", but a man not being okay with it is just flat out selfish. He's saying he wants his privilege all to himself, and can't stand to give you even an inch of his mile.
No. 980408
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When fitness insta models "cosplay" like not trying to gatekeep cause I love hot girls & anime & cartoons but lazy shit like this feels like straight pandering. She's gorgeous yes but 3k+ likes on some crappy edit is bananas. Honey could definitely afford a real costume or someone better at photoshop but chose to Microsoft paint it herself
No. 1006762
I was with this guy for just for 6 months when I was a junior in high school. He had a bad family life and some issues and I felt sorry for him, I really felt like if he had the right tools he could turn his life around, and I just really liked him as a person. So I let him pretty much stay at my house all the time, would feed him, buy him anything. It was going really good, like every teenagers dream. We’d walk around the streets all night just talking and hanging out with friends. It was his birthday coming up so I bought him city morgue tickets because him and his friends liked them. Ex bf sends me this weird ass text the day before the concert saying he hates me, I’m manipulative, controlling toxic and all this other stuff. And it hurt so bad because I loved him so much and it seemed like it came out of no where, I wanted to talk to him about it but he just blocked me. I went to the concert anyway, heartbroken. Thinking he wouldn’t go anywhere after he wrote me the Bible 2 on how much he hates me. He shows up. Cool, we start moshing, and it gets hot, he takes off his shirt revealing all these hickies on him from another girl. I left the concert sobbing I still to this day don’t know what I did to make him do that. He tried messaging me saying he was sorry and that he missed me. I was too heartbroken to ever talk to him again. Then he went to jail so lmao karma sucks man