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No. 2149352
A thread for venting about difficult stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2133533Follow all the /ot/ board rules & don't reply to bait.
Don't come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
No. 2149509
>>2149456>>2149442i told him i wasn't ready to make things official yet but that i felt like we should agree to be exclusive and not have sex with other people. i had just wanted him to be a bit more like "yeah i think we should cause i cant imagine being with someone else" lol or maybe even want to be gf/bf cause im awesome but respect i wasnt ready
>>2149442i want to eventually be in a fully committed gf/bf situation but doing so after only like a month of knowing his seems so soon? like maybe the 3 month rule applies here but i fucked up and did things backwards by having sex. its not just a fuck and chuck, he comes hangs out with me, we watch a movie, cuddle, fuck, cuddle more, then he messages me the next day at like 6:30am when he wakes up. i guess i was just disappointed that it seems like he's into to me but when i tried to talk about his feelings about dating he came off like he wasnt that into me and that "he still had more to learn" before he'd even consider it. meanwhile im like sucking the soul of this dudes dick and reacting to his instagram reels indivually and playing stardew valley and it takes two with him. i guess im coming off as weirder than i thought. i do appreciate the brutal honestly yall, i need it.
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>>2149477>loads of terrible scrote stories >still tries to find date with a scrote i pity your types of women everyday, praying for you sweetheart
No. 2149515
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Are moids actually fucking retarded? There was this one i was talking to and he sent me a video of some woman with a fat ass running on a treadmill with see through pants, at least i think idk i didn't click on it. Anyway this faggot had the audacity to ask me if i liked it, no i fucking didn't, i am a heterosexual woman. That would be like if i sent you my yaoi porn stash and asked if you liked it. I didn't explicitly state my sexuality but most women are straight, and even if i weren't how fucking braindead would you have to be to come to the conclusion that i'd like that shit. Slowly distancing myself from him not just because of this as well.
No. 2149527
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when i was a teenager i wanted to be like that bitch zooey deschanel or however you spell it. i wanted to be that quirky girl nlog with the retro style that was oh so popular in the early 2010s when i was only a wee teen. back in like 2017 or so i was one of the first people (not to toot my own horn) that started bringing back the early 2000s, maybe i should bring back the early 2010s now that i am in my late 20s and manifest my quirky dreams of yonder??? this is not really a vent but i am just realising how easy it is for people to go through life not know a personal style, to still either be a trend setter or a slave to trends but never really have a style that is set in stone.
No. 2149541
>>2149526He’s a braindead coomer but I’m also a braindead coomer so theoretically it should be the perfect match, but I have the social skills not to send shit like that
>>2149532Trust me, I am
>>2149536Based, glad you humbled his ass
>>2149537What the fuck are you talking about
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>>2149570its only as real as the channel's audience wants it to be. this channel has thousands of people whiteknighting the recipes because americans eat like slop and they genuinely like what they're seeing in the videos. its fucking sad
No. 2149581
>>2149516It's perfectly fine, have a house, don't have to work, great spouse, I feel undeserving of it. Should be locked away in a monastery or something.
>>2149529Thank you, I appreciate it and I'm sorry you're going through something similar. I've at least learned to accept things as they've come, but maybe too well because i'm so complacent.
No. 2149667
>>2149553Nona Im so sorry to hear that your family abused you and betrayed you like that. No one should ever have to experience what youve been through. If possible please try to get a good therapist to help you process the trauma.
If you havent already, consider going no contact with your so called family, including anyone who enabled or excused the abuse or mocked you while visiting. If possible, any of them, at least the main perpetrator, should be committed, since they sound very mentally ill. There might be a way to accomplish that, not sure. One day, theyll be vulnerable elderly people, possibly with health issues. Maybe theyll be sent to a very
abusive old age home?
Your comment reminded me that theres an entire industry, promoted by dr phil called the "troubled teen industry". Without consent or knowledge of the
victim, and with consent and knowledge of the parent(s), complete strangers kidnap children and teens, usually at night. Theyre sent to horrific abuse camps, with cult/indoctrination tactics. One was hosted in Mexico, some in the Caribbean, with starvation, cages in the desert. This one girl was forced to bathe in infested waters and had maggots in her wounds, was unresponsive and wouldve died if her mom didnt come to her senses and rescue her, after multiple attempts to get her out. Of course her xy sibling supported sending her in the first place. On dr phil, the sickos then mock any natural negative reactions of the
victim, and probably get off on it. Danielle Bregoli aka Bhad Bhabie was sent to one of these places, and called out that moid POS dr phil on socials. More
victims are speaking out. This abuse needs to be brought to an end.
Theres a documentary done by Paris Hilton of all people who was sent to these camps, and a kiw ifarms thread exposing some of the scumbags behind the troubled teen industry.
Its truly terrifying what so many children and teens suffer. All because of mentally ill adults who have a punishment fetish, or who try to scapegoat away their own guilt onto their child.
No. 2149677
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have been sleeping like shit lately, it's so miserable. thinking about how many more nights like this i will have to endure in my life is depressing, i just want to be able to sleep like a normal person
No. 2149678
>>2149462Dont worry, you can lose the weight if you put your mind to it. Ive definitely had my ups and downs on the scale.
Idk your situation and not trying to be mean, but is it possible your bf is deliberately fattening you up? Moids sometimes do this either as a fetish. Or to make themselves the "hot and fit" one in the relationship as a power dynamic/control thing, so that they can leave the other person at anytime for someone else. Or get you addicted to certain foods, and have control over you that way.
Steak sounds good, but not sure what other kind of food he buys for you. Your health should be prioritized. You probably know this, but sugary, deep fried, or fast foods over time can cause heart disease, gallstones, and other potentially painful conditions.
Making meals at home is usually healthier and cheaper, while knowing what is in your food.
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I need to listen to my body more often, I've been trying and whenever I listen to my body I feel better, I should set some boundaries so I can feel even better, maybe someday I will stop hating myself so I can be better.
No. 2149924
My BF wants to visit his family again soon, which means his nephews will be there. His sister keeps shoving her newborn to me, even though I have long hair and the baby keeps want to tear it out. The whole program is sitting around the babies and them going "awwww" when it twitches on the floor or the older kid tries to destroy another piece of furniture. I don't enjoy a single second of it, but I also run out of things to talk about with his parents within a few hours, but he always wants to stay overnight and then they usually make him (us) stay at least until lunch.
I don't find any of the kids charming, the older one in a spoiled, obnoxious tyrant and the little one does nothing but barf. They think that spending time around these kids makes me want to have them sooner but for me it just makes me want to reconsider having even one, and his family will be included as little as possible. His sister is also completely mom-brained and since she can't have any more naturally, just wants to keep adopting more babies, even though her husband is a fucking parking clerk, they have debt and her older son is a nightmare already who keeps harassing women (almost pulled a random woman's hair in a diner and his family keeps justifying this as "just a healthy interest in girls").
No. 2149946
>>2149892I have the same hatred towards being perceived and recognized. Running into an old schoolmate or childhood friend is one of the biggest horrors for me, because something about them
knowing me makes me feel too intimate, I don't even want to think about there being people out there that are aware of my existence outside of my immediate family.
No. 2150042
I’m not sure where to post this, but I’ve tried many times to understand what’s going on with me and to talk about it with friends, family, and therapists. All I ever hear in response is that I should be happy to be this way. But I hate it. I’m too kind to people, to the point of sacrificing my own well-being. I become a complete doormat whenever I get the chance to be kind. Morally, what I do feels right, but I keep screwing myself over.
For example, in university, I’d always say I was fine with switching courses or making changes for others. And yes, I was fine, but it also made everything so much harder for me. Why do I keep doing that? These aren’t terrible decisions by themselves, but they make my life unnecessarily difficult, especially since I’m already struggling with premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), which I’ve mostly got under control. I’ll say yes to something and then end up with no time to work out, which makes me feel like crap for weeks. For some reason, if I don’t exercise, I become a shell of a person. It’s not about how I look; it just does wonders for my hormones or brain.
I’ve been told by my therapist that I’m highly sensitive and gifted, but I have no idea what to do with that information or if it even matters. They advised me to make my life more comfortable, but I only feel comfortable at home. I’m not my boss; I can’t change the fact that we have an open-plan office at work, which is awful. And I like going outside and seeing people, but I hate how noisy, angry, and competitive most people are at work. Should I stop doing what I love just to feel a bit better? It sounds so unfair. All of this feels unfair.
On one hand, I feel like I’m weird and not made for this world, but on the other, when I do share how I feel, people seem to want to help, but they don’t really know how. Apparently, I have to advocate for myself, but where am I supposed to find the energy to do that when I’m barely surviving? And to make things worse, men make everything even harder by being sex pests.
But yeah, I keep being nice, even when it hurts me. And it’s not like I’m always a pushover—in fact, I can be the opposite. But when something feels morally right, I just can’t say no, even if it’s at my own expense. Is this autism? I can’t even cross the street at 2 a.m. if the traffic light says stop, even when there are no cars. If I see people being unkind, it pisses me off to the next level.
I’ve seen multiple therapists for my depression, and they all say I’m fine, but I don’t think I am. I keep making my life miserable because I can’t stand being unkind or dealing with mean people. It’s exhausting. I’m so tired of seeing people and doing things. I can’t even be a NEET because social media drives me crazy. Most of the threads are hidden on my lolcow. Why am I so stubborn? It’s like I was born without any sense of self-preservation, except when it comes to others.
I feel like such a loser, like I shouldn’t have been born. I wish I could just get over these tiny things, but no, everything matters to me. Sometimes I feel like part of my brain didn’t fully develop, and I’m stuck being a child who cries and feels too much about everything.
Also, sugary food hurts my mouth. Not even my teeth, but my mouth itself. It feels like I bite my tongue. It goes away, but it’s just so weird and annoying. I can't enjoy most sugary food like birthday cakes.
No. 2150109
>>2149974Have you tried medication
nonnie?
No. 2150160
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I hate that I'm tall
I hate that I'm W I D E
I hate that I have big boobs so I look even wider
I thought I looked okay today until I stood in the elevator next to my girlfriends in uni and you could clearly see how fucking big I am and I hate it. I'm like one head taller than my peers. No wonder drunk troons mistake me for one of them. If I wasn't so obviously a woman I think most normal people would too. No matter how much I fix myself and look feminine I look like a gorilla the moment I stand next to a normal woman.
I hate that I had to inherit mom's height and dad's wide set bones. Why could it had been the other way around? Mom's beautiful frame and dad's manlet height? Fuck I hate myself so much and I hate that it's shit I can't do anything about even with surgery. I just have to learn to live with this shit.
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Was going to post something lengthy but it all comes down to this picture.
No. 2150167
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Life isn't worth living
No. 2150180
>>2150166Yeah I know I know, it just needs to happen a couple of times for it to turn into a primal fear kek I am literally a troonphobe
But I'm glad to talk to another tall
nonnie, idk how to deal with all the insecurity that comes with being a giant. Maybe I should put my lazy ass into gear and hit the gym more proper so I can look like a proper amazon instead of a doughy…piece of shit?
No. 2150296
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I haven't had mcdonalds in years and years and honestly I just want to order a cheeseburger and fries and a coke and maybe a vanilla cone, eat it all, cry my heart out, then pass out in bed. Without feeling greasy or fat or gross. I hate that I have such tremendous guilt around food.
No. 2150310
>>2150123>>2150119Psychiatric medication needs to be taken constantly. With most meds it takes around 1 month for you to start feeling the effects. It may take around 2-3 months to fully stabilize and for you to start feeling the full effect. What you're doing by taking it only during a small amount of time then quitting is akin to doing skincare twice a year and wondering why it doesn't improve your skin.
>>2150248Get fucked. You never reached rock bottom. You never reached a point where you would give all your limbs to be able to feel emotional stability or happiness or simply not feel fear all the time again. You never suffered from chemical imbalances in your brain. And if you reply to me with "ackshually I have clinical depreshun" I'll know you're nothing but a larper or are in so deep with your "toxinz" MLM shit that you can't understand that there is a whole world of science around you. Go pay hundreds of dollars for placebo teas, enemas and rocks you retard.
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>>2150296Get some extra guilt by getting a happy meal with those low quality cute sanrio toys, I enjoyed my guilt a lot, I only wanted to kill myself for a few minutes before the food started doing its thing.
No. 2150326
>>2150310what are you talking about, i hate blogposting but i’ve started taking ssris in high school, used to go to a therapist during that time and even got hospitalized once by accident. the ssris i took were lexipro and risperidone, they fucked my brain up and always made me feel spacey and light-headed because they probably do interfere with normal functions in the brain.
>>2150312hunger is physically proven, if you don’t eat you die or get malnourished. mental illness is the illness of the mind, something that can’t be physical and is purely intuitive and controlled by the brain. you can’t necessarily prove it, for all we know these people could have mysterious illnesses we will never know about because of this. psychiatrists just want your money and to gather info on you to get better at marketing to other patients
No. 2150332
>>2150326>what are you talking about, i hate blogposting but i’ve started taking ssris in high school, used to go to a therapist during that time and even got hospitalized once by accident. the ssris i took were lexipro and risperidone, they fucked my brain up and always made me feel spacey and light-headed because they probably do interfere with normal functions in the brain. Then you should have told your psych and tried different ones. There is no blood test to tell what chemicals will be better for you, you
have to stick to it and try. Again, you have never truly suffered from mental illness. You have never reached the point where a little bit of spaceyness is preferrable to wanting to commit suicide daily. Once again, go shove an amethyst geode up your ass.
No. 2150342
>>2150332why would i try the same poisons? the poisons just don’t plain work and neither do the psychiatrists and psychologists getting paid to emulate the support system you don’t have in your life, it feels unethical to me. also most female psychs and therapists are male-identified so they never get where you’re coming from
>boohoo victim mentality pity me you don’t suffer as much as meeeeeeverybody has had the passing thought of ending their lives when enduring struggles, suicidal ideation isn’t rare. i’ve been properly diagnosed by a legitimate psychologist and have done a psych test (how else would they put me on the meds? kek i guess they just give these poisons out for free, one of the most legalized drugs has to be ssris)
No. 2150463
>>2150320I want one of those toys so bad but I can't afford a fucking happy meal
Nta
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>>2150320The quality degradation is killing me. Picrel is from the happy meal toys released in 2000, now we’re stuck with felt cushions.
No. 2150509
>>2149667thank you so much for your reply nona, i really really appreciate it and im sorry im seeing it so late - i closed tab and tried to ignore since i was really embarrassed about posting my long vent lol. ive never had anyone validate me like that. usually when i try to talk about the troubled teen industry people just dont understand. unfortunately my family still controls me to this day, however my father did commit suicide shortly after i was released from my 2nd rehab (although i dont think it was totally because of what they did to me). i think he did feel incredibly bad though, since he was the one who advocated for me to be put into rehab for the 2nd time after i had been raped by a 26 year old man when i was 15. they did nothing to treat me for that during the 3 months i was at that rehab though, even though i tried to talk about it, so i was basically just stuck there in a new unsafe environment right after being assaulted. all they did was force me into the 12 step program, tell me to accept God, and punish us by making us carry around heavy boxes if just 1 kid in our group acted out. they even let the adult males at the rehab interact with the teens and i never wanted to die more until then because i was trapped there with males creeping on me. the rehab psychiatrist even told me during our first meeting, that my problems weren't real and any problems i did have were caused by myself. both of my parents were in therapy and on medication while they were abusing me too, and their decisions were backed up by their therapists and several other mental health practitioners. so unfortunately i will never trust any mental health practitioner or adjacent "expert" ever again after what i have seen and experienced. but thank you so much for your reply it really means a lot to me and kind of feels like a revelation, as nobody has ever really validated that i was abused and betrayed. it is rare that anybody takes me and what i say seriously, i mean i am still a mess but i know what i went through was wrong. love u nona….
No. 2150606
>>2150294I'm losing weight too
nonnie. Been very unhealthy and my doctor was disappointed that I gained so much kek. Let's do this together. GIVE ME 10 JUMPING JACKS RIGHT NOW!
No. 2150678
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Been crying my eyes out today and not really sure why. I feel like there's a pit in my chest and it just aches. At least my cat fell asleep next to me. Gonna watch last year's Love Island now.
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>Finally start moving on from my ex after almost 2 years
>Instagram will NOT stop telling me to follow him.
I don’t get it. I finally stop looking at his socials all the time and now every time I log in I have picrel as my top notification. I’ve never seen this type of notification before until about a month and a half ago. It recommends two people but he’s always one of them. It also gave me the classic “X is also in Instagram, follow them” last week. This is a new account that Ive never followed him on. I don’t look at his profile on here either. It’s literally been my top notification every time I log in for weeks.
No. 2150928
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My mom said she doesn't understand what she did wrong in order for me to "turn out like this". I'm constantly tired and sad, mopping around, doing nothing useful. I'm 21 years old but I never do chores and struggle a lot to take care of myself. I took two gap years and now I'm having the hardest time in college and barely passing my classes, I'll be lucky if I can make it until the end of the year without failing any classes. I want to study hard but I'm not cut for it, I'm very low energy.
For context, I have depression since I was in 4th grade (10 years old). I've tried therapy and medication but it doesn't do much for me, and I struggle taking pills due to multiple suicide attempts by OD'ing. To be honest, I don't know what's wrong with me either. I tried to apologize to her and to say I was just born this way, but she got mad and started yelling at me that I was only using her to vent and that I'm never home with her, and then said that I'm forcing myself to cry harder (I think she meant for pity, I guess. But I was not doing that.) I don't live on my own because I don't have a job (never had one), I live and spend most of the time at my grandparent’s house. I don't visit her a lot and she gets lonely.
At one point I said that I was really sad because I was running out of time to graduate and get a job, and that eventually everyone would get tired of me and I'd have to live on the streets. She said I was being ridiculous but that's how I feel, I don't know how they put up with me. I'm a piece of shit and deserve to be throw away because I'm such a useless woman-child and embarrassment. I know my mom and grandparents will die eventually, and then I'd need a job, so even if they don't throw me out, I'll be struggling on my own, eventually.
I'm not good at anything and don't do a lot, sometimes I draw fanart or write fanfic but I'm not comercially good so I can't make a living out of it. I can write mediocre code and could likely be a codemonkey.
Honestly I want to kill myself but do it right. I've been thinking of drugging myself and sleeping at the train rails and get smashed, pain free. It's a bit grotesque and not what I'd hope for, but that's the only thing I could do that would 100% work. I'm scared of ending up disabled or at a psych ward again, so I can't risk it a lot. I don't want finals week to come because I know I will get a 10% at best, so I need to kill myself before November rolls around.
Honestly I hope my family doesn't feel too bad if I die, I don't think I have brought them any joy or pride in the last 10 years. They might be sad, but eventually they'll realize I'm a waste and then be happy I'm gone.
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I wish everyone with a y chromosome would fucking explode I can't take it anymore. Every. Single. One. I need freedom. And I hate you dumbfucks that continue to date and marry men, we are never getting out of the trenches, you're cursing us all.
No. 2151057
>>2150830My bad
nonnie. I had an awful day and was not being reasonable. I forgot the God awful landscape that is adoption and fostering…I’m not judging you.
No. 2151062
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It's been 8 months since the break up and I'm still not over my ex. Can't wait for me to finally move on and then I'll promise myself to never get involved with another moid again because this has been hell. I've never been so depressed.
No. 2151079
>>2150928You sound like someone i would want to be friends with. We are both codemonkeys who like to draw and we are both wastes of oxygen. I hope you get better,
nonny.
No. 2151153
>>2151102>International adoption can also be sketchy because sometimes mothers are pushed to put their children up for adoption for unethical reasonsoh yeah, international adoption seems really gross and should not have a good reputation. there is a good book, called the child catchers, which explains how international adoption works. all of the industry basically snatches and trafficks kids from poor families while buying their children (and lying to them that they'll still be allowed to talk to them, and they'll come back for visits, and have a better life.)
one of the most sickening industries to ever exist, international adoption is run by generally private companies, you can pay the agency and have a baby/kid from abroad really quickly. domestic adoption in the USA has a long ass waiting period and all these CPS checks to figure out if youre a suitable parent who can be allowed to adopt. CPS isnt perfect at all and fucks up countless times, but the private international agencies dont have any kind of checking/waiting period at all. obviously buying a kid as fast as u want one is fucking sick and evil. russia banned international adoption cause of sexual abuse.
No. 2151219
>>2151208To be fair, we first met in person and just happened to live in different states. I do care about him distance aside. this disheartens me
He said he'd drive me FROM when I arrived but not TO back. Because he'll be too tired. Allegedly. If we even stick together that long, I'll see how he behaves next time I visit in October… but god I'm reminded. This is why I haven't dated anyone since pre pandemic. This is why. I should've just dated a girl. Men are annoying. There was this one girl I was into before I met him, but she turned out to be dating someone already. Fuck my life
No. 2151226
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Well, I did it. I contacted every psych clinic within 50km of my home. The shortest wait time was 6 months and the longest was 13 months to get an appt. This country is such a fucking joke. I've been trying to find a therapist for the last 3 weeks, and I've called and emailed everywhere and still there's no point. Over 30 clinics but still I have to wait at least 6 months before seeing anyone. This is why everyone calls this place a shithole and why everyone wants to gtfo. I hate it here.
No. 2151227
>>2151219jeez what an inconsiderate ass of a man kek. it's tiring for you to come all the way out to see him and fly back late at night, i think he can handle a bit of driving past his bedtime. i think long distance usually doesn't work out, even if you met in-person first. the reason it works is when people are willing to make sacrifices and deal with annoying things to actually be around each other despite the distance (or else it inevitably slowly turns into basically just e-dating, and if you want to actually talk to your partner a lot, you have to be ignoring real life and staring at your phone all day while longing for the memory of their touch…)
most people, especially moids, are not that considerate and do not like being inconvenienced. this can i guess be fine in relationships where you live 15 minutes away and it doesn't impact the quality/quantity of the time you spend together. the thing is that if your moid is too lazy and unwilling to do this, he eventually won't be willing to put in the effort to see you, bc as time passes people put less effort into relationships not more. unless you want to be the one putting in the effort/hassle of arranging to see him at his convenience all the time, i'd just dump your moid at this point if i were u.
No. 2151246
>>2151227I want to go to California so in the least I'll get a trip out of it and get to explore a place I haven't been to in years. The sad part is excluding the selfishness, he is an interesting man, he's talented, he's cool, but now I'm starting to see his hypocrisy in dubbing his father a narcissist when hes kinda one himself…
>>2151231It's not even a fucking video game… he's performing at an event and claims drumming will give him such burnout he needs to sleep…. like he can't drive 30 mins to take me back to LAX from OC? Sounds like it's just an excuse to get drunk and not drive. But hell, I've even driven drunk back from events or driven to other places. Why couldn't he have one of his friends drive me? Or his bandmembers? Doesn't make logical sense.
No. 2151258
>>215124630 minutes is a super short drive especially in the usa kek wtf and how does drumming make you too tired to drive? nona, if you'd get on an airplane for him without thinking, he would drive 30 minutes no issue if he was really excited to see you. pls get some self respect. sorry for blog but this strikes a chord for me because i had a relationship dissolve because the guy moved to fucking poland, and expected me to take the train like 8 hours nearly every weekend to come see him there. and when i told him he should come see me instead sometimes he always made up lame excuses about being busy or tired, even though i had more obligations than him where i live. i was studying/working full time and he was just working on his dissertation halfassedly, and i'd need no self respect to also inconvenience myself all the time bc he couldn't be bothered to do it. and ofc then he found a gf in poland. you arent even asking him to get on a train, its fucking 30 minutes by car. but what it means is youre not the priority in his life as a gf. if you stopped putting in your efforts he'd literally just be texting you when convenient a man loves a woman who will rush over to him, at his own convenience, but then he can put u back in his phone when hes done and do whatever he wants. im not saying hes cheating or projecting that hard, but im saying that he views you as someone coming in to his world at his convenience, not a shared part of your world as a couple that will last. but its hard to view ppl you mostly talk to online that way so yeah
No. 2151268
>>2151079Thanks
nonnie, I hope you get better too. If you have your contact up in the friend thread let me know and stay well.
No. 2151376
It truly is sad how many men have wasted my time. Truly evil and sad, the state of suitors. There is a small pool of genuine men, I am sure of it, but they are far and few inbetween. Many have addictions, many that are normalized today especially for men. They also follow herd mentality and heirarchies, and I am but a shy docile dimwit.
I want my parents to be happy and in peace that their daughter has a loving husband, but alas I am alone and they pressure me to find someone. I don't think this will end well. I don't even care about sex. What are the chances I'll find a normal, genuine man who isn't grossly overweight, doesn't smoke or drink copious amounts, isn't a gaming addict, WORKS, and doesn't cheat? Ha! Let alone even respects me.
My family will leave me a decent fortune someday. Maybe it's a blessing that these men haven't been made aware of that, and have shown their true colors early on.
No. 2151377
>>2150928>>2150945You're just 21, you can stop being a shotafag
I used to be a shotafag too and you can be better. Did you think you would be a millionaire before being 25? You're starting life, you're still in trial period.
No. 2151407
>>2151377No, I never expected to be a billionaire, but I did expect to be able to hold a minimum wage job or pass my college classes (which are "hard" but not rocket scient either)
I also have to live the rest of my life with the sequels of medication abuse, malnutrition, and several self-harm scars so I don't know. Also the mental scarring of physical and sexual abuse. It's too much to bear sometimes. If I weren't so useless maybe my parents could be proud of me and life would be worth living but right now all I am is a bottomless pit of undeserved money and attention.
No. 2151409
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there's a perfect name for my male oc i want to use but it's a common ftm name and i just associate it with trannies. fuck.
No. 2151505
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I got extremely drunk tonight and keep thinking about suicide. I think if I was 100% planning on committing suicide I'd do an enema beforehand due to being concerned about shitting myself. I know it sounds ridiculous but hey, there was a recorded event of a man on the way to the guillotine making sure to not walk throug h a puddle. People want dignity even in death, as muxh as possible. idk I'd also write them a letter letting them know i wasn't meant to be born anyway and didn't want to live out the rest of my years being a financial burden on them because of my mental problems. It's sad but I have more faith in the govenment putting an IV in my arm to give me the death drugs than I do for them to give me any (free) mental health help that doesn't take a decade+ and I'm too FUCKED UP to do a job fulltime god DAMNIT
No. 2151595
>>2151591I just upped my bipolar medication and yet I'm getting secondhand nervousness
Praying for you anonona
No. 2151786
>>2151764Is it possible that you need an emotional outlet, and it just happened to take the form of this obsession? Based on my experience from my time as a hikki, you’re probably very lonely and physically frustrated, at the very least (possibly, i don’t know if you’re a shut-in type or if you leave the house) either way, this might be a symptom, rather than the problem. Are you lacking something in life? Try to identify what you need and address it directly rather than your obsession. Either way, I wish you well,
nonny. I’ve also struggled with self harm and it can be very isolating.
No. 2151901
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just this
No. 2152102
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It's my ex's birthday and I just saw through a mutual friend's IG post that they're all out celebrating right now. All of our mutual friends are there, except for me, obviously. I know they are also his friends and it's his birthday but I feel so betrayed in a way that they are all smiles and partying away, while I'm an absolute mess after he broke up with me a little over two weeks ago. All our friends told me that I'll just have to get over it, that this is an "issue" between us (the breakup) and that I'll find someone else some day. That's it. I don't know if I'm being selfish right now but it feels like they are more his friends. It hurts and I feel so excluded and discarded for some reason.
No. 2152328
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Sometimes I wonder if I'm getting old. It feels like yesterday I was hip with the kids, but I see terribly retarded slang like "femboy" and "cunty" and "omg hes so aro ace" being used all over the place and I wonder if this is just what my parents felt when I would say dumb slang as a kid and I just feel like it's the worst retarded shit when it's happening to me.
I also now wonder how come immortals in fiction aren't ever so disgusted by modern morality that they no longer bother with trying to argue, but they're still very disgusted.
No. 2152335
>>2152328Yes that's what your slang sounded like to the adults at the time, it all sounds retarded when you're not part of it.
Honestly it always confused me why when kids hear an adult say their slang words back at them and they go "omg stop saying that, it's so embarrassing!!!", how do they never realize that is actually how the adults hear them when they say it too lol
No. 2152351
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Why the fuck are vasectomies not more common and advertised??
>it's reversible
>moid still gets hard
>moid can still cum
>worst risks is swelling after the procedure or infection if the moid is too retarded to clean himself (shouldn't have sex in the first place then)
Why do we have to take hormone changing pills with heavy effects or regularly insert very painful devices in ourselves when the moid option is this harmless? Wtf??
No. 2152414
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picrel is me making plans with others in my uni class over discord knowing full well I can already tell I'm gonna have a bad case of sunday blues tomorrow and not leave my apartment
It's not a group project or anything like that, we are just gonna go over what the lecturer talked about yesterday but these people are so chatty we won't really get anywhere anyway
No. 2152419
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My friend turned housemate just had to get a boyfriend who lives in another country but still rather close JUST as we moved together. His ass is always here despite the distance and worst thing is that I absolutely dislike him. He's ugly, annoying, kinda feels sleazy and I gag when I remember we share the bathroom. And no I'm not in love with her, I liked her ex bf. I'd been dreaming of living together with a friend for years and when I get the chance there goes a moid to ruin it. Even when he's not there she's clearly texting him all day or calling him for hours. I get it because we don't exactly bathe in male attention but of all individuals I am disappointed in her choice, plus I didn't want to gain a surprise roomate for days at a time. All my expectations towards finally living with someone I liked went down the toilet and it has me seething.
No. 2152596
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All of the people I know have their shit together, they have committed to a career or having children or both and I'm just taking whatever random job I can find and still feel like I'm in high school and I have no idea what I'm doing with my life and I hate myself for it
No. 2152677
>>2151940I'm already on the plane. I'm shaking nervous.
Really hope he doesn't try and assault me or anything. He says he respects my boundaries but I'm afraid he won't. I thought I trusted him. When he pulled that with the driving fiasco I just felt dehumanized. I'm not saying there can't be compromise and I want a man to worship me but god forbid.
Was this the wrong decision? Well screw me im already going. I'm a grown woman and I made this decision already. Partially because I wanted to go to dank ass California. We'll see how it goes. I'm actually leeching off my dads miles so I'm not paying in full for this.
I'm trying to overcome the fear and pain I've been through the past couple years by going to an unfamiliar place, that's why even if me and the BF doesn't work out I'm doing this. I need to get over my fear and leave home. If I live to regret it… I made that decision.
No. 2153033
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I need to vent and I need advice so any nonny nonny that wants to help I will be very grateful. I'm ESL so I'm going to try to explain as best as I can
I entered an online course for biology and they're making people that don't have social media like me to create a Facebook account, TikTok and Twitter because they want to have activities involving those. It's basically obligatory. They're using manipulation words like "it's for the greater good! And they're easy to make! Even old teachers have them! We respect your privacy!" When they don't understand that I don't want to give Facebook and TikTok my information. I paid for this course and they never said any of this shit before in the application process. I want to abandon this class now I don't want to do this. What should I do? I'm pretty sure there's no refunds and my actual career has nothing to do with biology anyway, I only took this for fun. It was a considerable amount of money though, like 90 usd.
No. 2153036
>>2153026I get it, but seriously you need to get more used to recognizing bait and just reporting it when you see it.
>>2153033Honestly this sounds retarded and I would just drop the course and lodge a complaint. Don't do shit that makes you uncomfortable, even if you already paid 90 dollars. The course sounds like it's fake bullshit.
No. 2153090
>>2149352That punishment is ridiculous. She killed one person and her handling of the body wasn't particularly grotesque. Someone needs to take a look into the judge to see if s/he has ties to pedos and wanted to avenge that scumbag.
Just let her do three years max and two years probation with mandatory counseling or some shit. It's not like he was anyone of value.
No. 2153120
>>21530331. they can't kick you out
2. you have the power since you paid. relax and enjoy your power. become hostile if they try to coerce you.
3. worst thing that can happen is 90 dollars down the drain. its only 90 dollars. who cares.
No. 2153193
>>2153130>>2153120>>2153037>>2153036>>2153144To be frank the course gives me so many red flags, today I messaged the official account about my concerns about my privacy and not wanting to make an account and then later when the first class started they main guy from the association basically was like, tackling each one of my concerns publicly (without mentioning my name, but) almost trying to manipulate me and whoever was watching into thinking it's unreasonable to not have social media accounts. I felt like he was trying to show me a lesson or whatever because I did mention in my private message that I'm not too old and I know how to make an account but I won't make it because I don't want to and he mentioned something about age, then he mentioned how having social media is the best way to show science and biology posts to people when basically I'm sure everyone watching was a nobody. That it's our duty to talk about the course in our social media and that some people may think they're just using them to promote the course but that promoting the course is necessary for the greater good. Etc etc.
Now the only problem is that my partner is going to get really mad at me for quitting because he always always insists on me quitting shit and not wasting money and always looking at the bright side when my red flag detector is setting off with these people.
No. 2153251
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Last night I dreamed that I had a girlfriend and she wanted to wear an outfit, but ended up making me wear it instead because she thought I looked cuter in it. It was so sweet, why can't my life be like this? I hate the real world so much
No. 2153312
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I'm drunk but thought this was too dark for the drunk thread idk i think i'm bisexual (for men) lowkey but sex with a man really does sound like the greatest form of disrespect. like the most dehumanizing act you can engage in without like, literally being killed and turned into cuts of meat lmao men are lowkey demons like don't get me wrong women can hurt you too but the times I was hurt by a woman was typically in service to a fucking moid or moid sensibilitiesl. But it still makes it feel like there's no safe space in this world, like everyone is secretly out to hurt and abuse you or use them for their own fucking BULLSHIT I unironically think sex in all It's forms is evil. I wish it wasn't the case but I genuinely think sex is evil, like money. It corrupts, consumes and controls. Maybe love in itself is a fucking lie and the same shit. don't get me wrong i'd love to be held and cared for and feel safe but it all feels like a fucking lie. i don't want you to touch my fucking PUSSY OKAY because the fact you want to is obviously a sign to me you want to fucking hurt me you fucking piece of SHIT I wish you would fucking die die die die die die die die holy shit why was i born period it was a fucking mistake AAAAAAAA earth really is hell already and sex is a part of it. literally demonic. actually what keeps the circle of hell in contiuation of this earth. i've literally lost 90% bodily sensation and feeling on my own because I just view any feeeling especially sexual as a way for other people to control and hurt you to the point that even touching myself completely alone feels like a failure and it's not like I can feel anytihng anyway as I've trained myself to be completely numb DUE to my distrust and disgust and shame to the point that even touching myself feels like some sick psyop i'm tricking myself into into being hurt again FUCK
No. 2153365
>>2149527“I’m a trendsetter, not a follower, much personal style, toot toot”….”maybe it’s time for me to stay trendsetting by being several years late to reviving the hipster trend”
Make it make sense, sis.
No. 2153366
>>2152922He seemed less undesirable when I first met him. Even up until the flight reservation thing. I was excited to see him. We first met in person months ago and I was very attracted to him back then.
Right now? I want to flee.
The only thing he hasn't done after trampling on my feelings is assault or rape me and I don't think he'll try that but I really don't feel safe right now.
California is so beautiful and full of potential and fun for my touristy ass… and here I am trapped with a local who wants me to be miserable. His dick is not big enough and he is not attractive enough to warrant the level of ego. I can see why his exes dumped him.
His mom is way nice, works a very cool job as one of her jobs and he was repeatedly rude to her tonight which made me even angrier. That's your mom you ungrateful shitlord. And damn I thought he was a momma's boy too! I guess you really can't learn a lot doing long distance huh? Once you see the reality in person it's run for the hills!
No. 2153371
>>2153369We've been dating for two months but yeah I probably should've dumped him a week ago, the problem is it was my first boyfriend in years and I really wanted to try and make it work and have at least one meetup
I guess I am an idiot for that
No. 2153372
>>2153366Not even trying to be mean anon, but I really hope this experience taught you something about LDR. There's a reason why all of us on here say "LDRs aren't real don't get in LDRs" whenever someone brings it up.
>>2153371Don't reply to that retard and you aren't an idiot. You just needed to learn a lesson, that's all. Everyone has to suffer from the learning curve, so don't get too down on yourself for it. It sucks but at least you learned something. I hope that you find yourself out of the situation soon. If you really need money to leave, contact your dad and tell him about what's happening and ask for help getting back home. He's already changed the flight once, so I'm sure he's familiar with how to do it again. In the future please avoid LDRs, they are literally nothing but suffering.
No. 2153375
>>2153372Thinking about it I'm a touchy feely person when it comes to intimacy so I also don't really understand why I found myself in an LDR. It only made the distance agonizing if I can't be with someone. Once I met him again it just didn't have the same spark knowing my opinion of him was changing.
I am bi and contemplated a girlfriend instead of a moid, but the girl I was into before I met LDR moid turned out to be taken and crushed my heart. I think I'd probably have better luck finding a girlfriend after dumping him if I'm willing to wade through the rough seas of local dating apps to avoid all the wannabe throple couples and fakebians or fakebi's. It'd be more worth it. I'm really tired of men, I've had a few flirt with me locally at my job including some more attractive than LDR moid but the older I get the more I realize that men who are actually capable of caring about women are slim slim pickings
No. 2153376
>>2153033Is it related to your final grade, or “basically” required through pressure tactics?
If it affects your grade, make burner accounts. If it’s merely participation pressure, just don’t do it.
No. 2153399
>>2153308>>2153372You. Are. Responsible. For. Managing. Your. Own.
Triggers.
Nobody called anyone an idiot but OP herself, I said “red flag” because the entire post is TL;DR greentext about you having zero empathy for your partner, attacking him for trying to be supportive with good advice to stop ruminating , after you havin zero regard for whether or not he was prepared to talk about your past traumas, expecting him to accommodate your emotions instead of regulating them yourself like an adult, have a panic attack about it and tell him to go away, then getting upset that he cares enough about you to experience real emotional fear for you during your mental health crisis, make no space and give no validation for HIS fear emotions, nitpick unimportant vocabulary words, continue being insensitive about his physical and psychological pain, patronizingly reject the reality that your mood disorder does not absolve you of responsibility for behaving with kindness and compassion even when you are struggling, bond with his mother over dysfunction in his family that puts him down, contemplate suicide because he doesn’t exist to accommodate childish outbursts, don’t even realize that you expect him to be perfect while you expect to get everything you want from him exactly how you want it, without any work or reciprocation on your part, generally seethe with contempt for your romantic partner while you have zero respect for the fact that’s he’s a human and not perfect, and none of these things you listed are
toxic or
abusive in any way, literally hate this man who is willing to wade through your BPD minefield
You are a whole relationship red billboard. The only fix for your problems is DBT. People don’t get to weopanize their disorders or use them to manipulate loved ones.
No. 2153475
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trying to teach myself that I'm not responsible for other people's mental health. People are rarely there for me in turn even when I'm at my lowest, so I shouldn't try so hard. But I also way too easily notice when someone is struggling and I can't leave them alone, so I periodically get emotionally burnt out because I spread myself so thin trying to be there for people and I don't want to anymore. But at the same time, the thought of someone being alone during harsh times is pure torture, I don't want anyone to feel as lonely as I do when my mental health is spiraling.
I'm feverish today, so I couldn't attend a study session today. The guy holding the study session is going through some stuff right now so he mostly needs it as a distraction, but it seems like others are ghosting and it takes absolutely everything from me to not call him on discord to check on him and do the study session from a distance because I know I will take hours and I will personally feel worse even if I'm technically just ticking some obligatory "good friend" checkbox by doing it.
No. 2153487
>>2153482Wrong anon I have no issue with the Jewish people just pointing out basic facts
zionists on the other hand can rot.
No. 2153532
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i wish i wasnt a bpdchan
No. 2153538
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>>2153532Eh, you won't be in a few years if you just start DBT and reading books to help yourself.
No. 2153542
My sister has always made poor choices about her relationship. She was with a scrote who made her excluded from our worlds for more than 8 years. She basically disappeared and only decided to talk to us when she needed money or something.
Then when he dumped her he met someone only one month before and she was a victim of domestic violence, even having to be arrested twice. Of course we tried to interfere but it meant nothing, they got back together like 4 or 5 times. It was around that time when I decided I couldn’t stand it anymore, I choose to put myself in first place because I had to go to therapy because of them being the toxic couple they were.
I only saw her thrice in those two years, when he didn’t know she was with us. Of course our relationship got so distant and bad because of that. When they broke up for good, I told her that I wished she met someone new but with time, again and again it was me trying to make her see her mistakes.
Two weeks later, she was in another relationship. One month and a half after, she told us she’s getting married to this man, who we don’t even know. I can’t deal with it anymore.
Since April we must have talked like 6 times, nothing more. Now she asked me to go to their wedding and I told her I won’t go, I don’t feel comfortable and I don’t even know her fiancé ffs! Not that I have any intention to, I just can’t deal with it.
I know she’s selfish, I know she’s dumb, I know victims of DV can’t see it how we see it but ffs, I tried time after time after time, I had to go to the police to pick her up, to the lawyers (whom I paid), even to the council to ask which were the consequences of her living with her past abuser in our house; I had to take medication to sleep, to be functional again, I had to go to work and then run to the hospital with an anxiety attack which left me thinking I was having a stroke. I implored her to be safe; to take care of herself, even with tears in my eyes, begging her just to put herself first.
And then she mets someone new who promises her the world in one month and she doesn’t see the damn red flags! All I hear her say is that she’s so sure of her decision and that people who can’t be happy for her just don’t care about her. I already told her that being against her marriage this soon doesn’t mean I don’t care about her or nor that I love her but all I got was an “ok”.
It’s so unfair and I don’t know why I keep trying to change things that are out of my control. She just doesn’t care. I tried and I tried. I paid for her therapy just to discover she used that money to go and make some wedding plans with a stranger. I just can’t.
No. 2153547
>>2153542DV
victims have to want to escape and do better for themselves, you can't do it for them. you're justified in setting boundaries and not going after her betrayal by using her money on another relationship rather than on therapy. she's been turned against you and may put that man before everything else again. it's like dealing with an addict. i'm very sorry anon you're in this horrible place.
No. 2153582
>>2151505I'm too FUCKED UP to do a job fulltime god DAMNIT
I know that feel. Even working part time receptionist was misery and I never got better at it. I quit most jobs after a few shifts. I can't do basic mental math I'm slow and I have bad social skills. I only am not suicidal because I'm so selfish a part of me thinks I deserve to be supported, good luck touching me I'm behind 1000 layers of cope. The only thing that makes me want to keep trying is the love for my family
No. 2153624
>>2153609Based.
>>2153600You could earn fucking millions of dollars, anon.
No. 2153704
>>2153609i did this 3 years ago and it worked. i put my brother in a cheap shitty party wig and made him take a mirror selfie in a dark room with his face covered, made it the pfp of a twitter account i built up for 2 months to look legit/interacted with other troons, increasingly sprinkled in tweets about my
abusive transphobic family stealing my wig and not letting me transition, my gfm got a lot of traction and i harassed my trans mutuals to boost it for mutual aid. honestly even a real woman could do it this way if you get a shitty wig and cover your non-male jawline with ur phone. u gotta pretend to be a tim and write it like “im a brown disabled lesbian transwoman and i can’t get a job for myself because my
abusive family prevents me from living my life and my mental health is ruined.” my last tweet was that my parents found out about me being my true self online and then i deleted the account after ppl saw it. i got 700 euros to buy gender affirming clothes and for medical transition and i bought a drawing tablet kek
No. 2153707
>>2153547>>2153570Thank you for your words, anons.
Right now she sent me a message in which she calls me narcissistic, she’s telling me that I’m acting like a spoiled teenager that doesn’t want her to get better. She told me that I’m acting like I can’t stand people being happy, that I always have to ruin it and that I should be grateful because it’s an important day to her and she made the favour of inviting me but I’m just rejecting because I’m salty.
She literally said that she’s not responsible of the stories I’m making up on my mind because of her past, that it’s not her problem. She cut all ties from now on (or it seems), she’s “truly disappointed” with my behaviour. Mind you, when I told her I wouldn’t be at her wedding, I wished her the best and I told her I hoped this time would work out. I guess she was expecting me there just for the money / gifts. I can’t find another explanation.
I wish it didn’t hurt me as much as it did. Normally I would write her back something trying to reason with her but right now I don’t ever want to talk again. Again, it’s all about her.
No. 2153826
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Conservative moids are so hypocritical and annoying. You say you're conservative, yet you've been clarting your girlfriend for 8+ years with no ring? You got your girlfriend pregnant before marrying her? You're addicted to diddling yourself to the most nasty porn out there? They piss, bitch and moan about women being hoes yet do nothing to incentivise being in a relationship! 'Trad' but are allergic to commitment (not that any sane woman would stick around anyway)! Can't even compete with women in the job market! Are less conscientious, less competent, less educated, and earn less than women in most fields! They can't even take ownership of their failures, they have to conjure up a conspiratorial reality where women are favoured by the school system! Sad!
No. 2153831
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>>2153826they say they want trad life but they love the progressive freedoms their moms had, and want you to work and pay half the rent and your own car payment. tradshit males are modernists in denial because they refuse to acknowledge a healthy "traditional" relationship would require "spoiling/simping for" a woman to some degree, including handing over finances for household use.
No. 2153898
God I feel so fucking alone.
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm just an option cause I'm convenient, I'm so tired of feeling like "the safe friend".
Last month one of my friends got really sick and had to be in the hospital for 2 weeks. I still don't know what kind of illness she had, I only learned it cause someone else posted about it on fb. She would always complain that I never want to hang out with her, but them got pissed of when I told he that it's because she always wants to drink, and go to bars, and clubs, and be out at fucking 4 in the morning and drunk, and I don't have the health psychologically nor physically to do it, and is not something that interests me the least. Hell, last time we were supposed to brunch with friends, and she asked if we could move to a sports bar, cause that's the only place that sells alcohol that early, fuck. Some other friend basically stopped talking to me because I told her that it's irresponsible to have sex without a condom with a guy you barely know. Like, what the fuck am I supposed to do. Am I supposed to coddle them and tell them everything they do is perfect? That I don't hate their misogynistic scrotes they have for boyfriends? I just work and keep working, and I convince myself is because I want to buy stuff; but the truth is that recently I feel like I'm only trying to feel the void, to stop thinking. I don't think about anything else when I'm working, and surely is hard to think about friends when you're only thinking about the next thing you want to buy.
But I don't have mo one to share the things I like, I have no one to accompany me to places, I have no one to tell them I feel sad, or to complain to about my coworkers. Everyone hypes up women friendship, but nobody tells you how hard it is, and how inevitable it's for it to eventually get ruined because some moid decided to get involved. I hate it I hate it I hate it. I don't get the girls that say they don't need friends cause they have a boyfriend, what a way to admit you don't have a personality that doesn't revolve around your man's dick. I'm so fucking tired of it, and I just want it to fucking end. If I'm supposed to not have friends, then I'd rather get used to it quickly instead of feeling like I'm a fucking failure at being a "girl's girl" because I can't keep quiet and not tell my friends I think their boyfriends are a bunch of fugly braindead scrotes. I fucking hate this.
No. 2153969
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>>2153193>>2153033More updates for those interested (idk of anyone is but yeah), I'm trying to withdraw from the course
>YesterdayThey insisted everyone has to have social media, even old people in the course have social media, having social media and doing activities there is of utter importance and will have an evaluation. Basically no social media = why am I even taking this course? And they were very passive aggressive with it on facebook livestream
>TodayNow they're saying they're trying to help me and giving me all the attention and facilities so I continue the course. Now they said that I can simply watch the Livestream on YouTube and send a screenshot to them that I actually did attend it, then I asked "but what about the stuff about sharing things on TikTok, Facebook, Twitter, you told me it was part of the evaluation" now they're like "no don't worry but we still recommend using Facebook and some activities will be done there"
What should I do? Should I watch on YouTube and continue with the course? Or should I drop it because they were passive aggressive and manipulative? I haven't been an angry customer towards them at all, I've been simply asking things about my concerns.
No. 2154124
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I had a small breakdown today after seeing a memory pop up on my social media.
It's been years since I cut her off, and it's so much for the better. The fact that I'm not the only one that still struggles with self-worth because of her, she was an expert manipulator that could get under your skin in no time and trust her. She could have been an irl Regina George if she had been able to hold back her jealousy and hatefulness towards others.
She is still one of the worst people I've ever met, and I should hate her. Sometimes I do. But while she was one of the most toxic people I've ever encountered she was also an absolutely amazing friend, which was why she could get away with being absolute shithead for so long. She knew exactly what you needed when you needed it. She could spontaneously show up outside your door with her and take you out on an adventure. You could call her in the middle of the night and just talk shit. I have met few people that has made me laugh as much as she did.
I miss her friendship so much. But I don't miss the selfish, jealous bully she was. She could have been so much better, but she leans so much into her narcissism. And from what I've heard through the grapevine, she still hasn't changed. And probably never will.
No. 2154131
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>>2154040There is a fallacy in academia where titled individuals deem that their education over and they close their minds forever. They decide to never have curiosity enough to conceptualize or surmise again, just dismiss and degrade. They cannot conceive a peasant can have any idea of what is causing such and such ailment/outcome, even if you have irrefutable evidence.
This is a big reason why we cannot blindly follow those who boldly say they're authorities at the forefront of science; many have actually turned their backs on that forefront and only gaze at their own narrow trail trudged through old ideas in old institutions.
Never forget that the first person to have visually witnessed bacteria with a homemade proto-microscope was dismissed as a lunatic by academics and died unrecognized for nearly 200 years before germ theory.
No. 2154285
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i hate how ugly i am. i wish i looked average at least. i hate my mom for marrying such an ugly guy with bad genes.
No. 2154342
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I hate that as soon as I’m stressed my digestion gets all fucked. I’m moving overseas in a few days and mentally it’s not fully registering but physically it’s killing me. My mind feels calm but I just left the last hangout with one of my best friends for awhile and my stomach is in so much pain. Fuck I wish I could just enjoy things without keeling over.
No. 2154358
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I'm living with my older sister and her family temporarily and it's so awkward because the two of us don't actually get along that well, we're complete opposites personality-wise so I feel like the family anxiety weirdo vs them all being constantly loud and normal. She used to get so mad at me for being an introverted dork but I know I can't change how I am.
No. 2154441
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I wish I didn't feel subhuman
No. 2154456
i was talking about this yesterday with my dad but i wonder sometimes if i'll ever find peace in my life. i'm a quiet person, not necessarily meek or a wallflower, just quiet. i'm not a big talker, and some people i just automatically don't vibe with and can tell there's something off about them, so avoid them whenever i can. truthfully all i want is freedom, peace and quiet, and to not have randoms bothering me or trying to meddle in my life. but for some strange reason i seem to attract toxic and negative people and i don't know what i'm doing to give off these signals. there's always some asshole buzzing around in the background of my life, a person who can't seem to accept that i don't want to be bothered and don't want to know them. mainly because i can already tell that there's something wrong with them: they have bad energy, things they say give off red flags, they're too aggressive, stuff like that. yet no matter how much i refuse to engage with them or keep my distance, they won't leave me the fuck alone. then of course when there's an inevitable confrontation and i tell them how much i hate them for annoying me, they act surprised that i dislike them. like bruh, you can't be this fucking dense, can you? what part of someone giving you simple answers to your obvious fishing gossipy comments didn't alert you to the fact you're not getting anything out of me? i've been doing a lot of introspecting lately and this is a consistent pattern i'm trying to tackle more consciously. i'm very open about the fact i'm private, and don't really like socializing, so i can only assume there's something i'm unconsciously doing which draws negative people to me.
No. 2154462
>>2154456I think it's just that you aren't much of a talker which is what
toxic people, people like narcs, want. I'm assuming you don't frequently speak out about your wants/needs/opinions very often which allows these people to capitalize on you, as people like that tend to think quiet=weak. Some people also cannot just take the hint.
No. 2154479
>>2154457ha, not as much as i should!
>>2154462>I'm assuming you don't frequently speak out about your wants/needs/opinions very often which allows these people to capitalize on youno you're right i don't and this is something i started thinking about after my dad and i were talking. i was raised in a dysfunctional home so i never really got a chance to express my opinions or wants since we had a raging narc taking up all the time and energy of the family. so i just learned to be invisible, as being invisible meant i was ignored, and if i was ignored i could do whatever i wanted. the only time my family ever noticed me was to complain about me not talking, but then when i would talk, they'd still complain so i just gave up eventually lol. it's something i need to work on.
No. 2154586
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lesson learnt I'm never touching a long distance relationship with a 20ft pole ever again
No. 2154632
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Neighbor won't stop playing the same shit over and over
No. 2154633
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The back of my legs and inner thighs are covered in painful, weeping, open sores. No matter what I do they won't heal. I am in constant pain and I've been bumping asprin back to back. It doesn't help that the dogs I have to live with are causing my skin to flare up so I have take a lot of allergy pills on top of that to stave off the feeling of my skin burning, flaking and getting itchy and bumpy. I've begun to fly into autistic rages in the isolation of my room if I hear my family's or the neighbors' dogs bark that I just start tearing at my scalp and crying and start punching walls. I can't even look at my mother or father because all I think is "hahah retard your family unironically prefers the novelty of a pet than your own comfort and quality of life! lololol" I'm in pain and I'm foggy headed, any pants or panties fuse with my skin if I wear them for more than five minutes due to the constant ooze of puss. I can't sleep because of the pain so I ended up staying up until I'm too exhausted to keep my eyes open. If I walk it hurts. If I sit it hurts. If I lay down it hurts. The asprin isn't working unless I take a whole bunch. I hate this, I feel like I'm genuinely going insane from the discomfort. I'm waiting back on a call to see if I have a bacterial infection caused by my eczema but even if I do have one, there's not much I can do unless the perscribed antibiotics are cheap but the doctor I talked with said if it is a bacterial infection I will need to be hospitalized for IV treatment but I don't know if I can even afford to do that both financially and that I have my semester starting soon. I hate this. I hate this so much.
No. 2154677
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I closed their fucking door and I’m going to keep doing it, I’m just no longer afraid anymore and I’m tired of being a doormat and a ~nice girl~ trying scurt around my anger and rage because when I rage it makes people scared for being reasonably angry. I’m tired of being nice and nobody listening, fuck you, can’t be an adult I won’t treat you like one. I can’t fucking stand males who are 12 in the brain but are 30+ years old. I’m tired of their disruptive energy in the environment, I’m tired of their smelliness and uncleanliness but they’re allowed here because um, males provide the bare minimum apparently. I’m finally going to be courageous and stand up for myself, I have nothing to lose. I hate shitty males, shitty male family members and shitty male family members you’re practically forced to live with because you’re a poorfag who made bad decisions so now I can’t even move but damn can’t a woman have a PEACEFUL and clean environment????
No. 2154771
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>>2154633I had something similar to you
nonnie, its very painful, embarrassing and mentally draining
The cheapest way i found was to get some rubbing alcohol to dry the wounds, decent anti-itch cream as needed and wearing shorts/underwear at home to avoid pants sticking and ripping the wounds open again, giving it time to dry out and heal.
It's annoying but you'll need to wash your sheets more than often, vacuum and sanitize everything you often touch in your room, and block the animals from entering.
It seems like we had the same thing, so hopefully this helps alleviate even some of the pain and i hope you start healing
nonnie.
No. 2154893
>>2154278was this meant for
>>2154040? and
>And stalking me around town is patheticyou're anon's sister?
No. 2155042
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I'm so fucking tired of my parents catering to my brother no matter what he fucking does. Growing up he was always the troublemaker and I was the one with the good grades, not doing stupid shit, saying please and thank you, yet he can be moody, not respond to their texts, complain about every little thing and still get what he wants.
We just had lunch and I just got up from the table after I've had enough of them shitting all over me and diregarding my feelings. My parents suggested that my brother should come over for dinner again tonight and that I(!!!) should make dinner for him and I and I was like..what the fuck do you mean? I'm not a maid? And then they tried to talk me into it because I'd be a "good sister", so I just got up and left while my mom yelled at me for being "dramatic". I'm so fucking tired. I initally planned on staying at their house for a couple more days but I'm leaving tomorrow.
No. 2155081
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I moved across states back in May and planned on going back home and getting the rest of my things in March but my dad sent me a text yesterday giving me until October or else he’s just going to pack everything into boxes and toss them. I don’t have the time off or money available to make the drive up there (30 hour drive) until next year and I have a couple of sex toys stashed in my closet that would be humiliating if he found them. I understand that my parents want to clean and redecorate the house but it kinda hurts like “You don’t have a place here anymore.” The closer we get to the election the more hostile he’s getting towards anyone who isn’t Team Trump so I don’t like to discuss politics with him but yesterday he went off on me, called me brainwashed, then sent that text a couple hours later so I can only assume that’s why he gave me that ultimatum.
No. 2155123
>>2154124You could be me writing this, about an old friend I had to cut off because of her raging bpd. When it was good, it was so, so good. Until it wasn't. Then, she was bullying other women constantly, flying into random rages, manipulating everyone, etc. I still miss her from time to time, even though it's been years since we've even talked, and she actively tried to ruin my life. Sorry you're going through this. You don't have to hate her, even though you feel like you should. Missing someone is normal. But you understand why your life is better without someone like that shitting it up.
No. 2155176
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I wonder how long it will take me to get out of this imprisoning life situation and the relief I will feel when it happens. Manifesting winning the lottery
No. 2155179
>>2155167It's scary how lawmakers had to pass a whole LAW to change a key feature in a whole industry because of male degeneracy
Even in hospitals, I was a bit shocked to see sometimes you could not hospitalize male or female patients, not because there are no beds left, but because the bed left would make it a male/female room and that cannot be allowed
Like male sexuality is literally a widescale societal problem at this point
just put fucking oestrogenes in the water for real or something, that'd solve so many problems
No. 2155193
>>2155167yeah i really wish it was a thing where i live too, sometimes i think i should just start dressing in nothing but oversized hoodies and maxi skirts and basically go burkha mode to avoid this and all other shit, but it's just so demoralizing to think that i can't wear a damn t-shirt and regular jeans without this kind of shit happening.
doesn't help that i've ben recovering from an
ana phase for the last year and i have been feeling, for the lack of better word, dysphoric about my hips and ass area because they've gotten so shapely after gaining weight and shit like this doesn't help at all.
No. 2155222
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I never realized how mentally weak and childlike the average adult is until I started seriously working and being forced to interact with around one hundred people almost every day. When I was a young child, I had the impression that most adults were fairly intelligent. God, how that perspective changed. The average person really seems to be borderline retarded. Is that just how it is in America? I miss being a NEET and not having to watch so many normies throw infantile tantrums and handle warranted rejections worse than an actual child.
No. 2155392
>>2155385Kek what, that’s because the straight nonas have a bunch of thirsting threads while we only have like… 1 and a half. Husbandoposting and fetishes you’re ashamed of is way more active.
That being said I agree - I just think that on /g/ it’s mostly fag/tranny moids, not straight moids kek
No. 2155431
My family is so rude, so unmannerly and so unpleasent that they make me cringe so hard. My grandma for example doesn't give a fuck about acknowledging others and come off as unnecessarily rude, SHE WHO raised me up so strictly to have good and refined manners, sheeee who forced me to act and chat like a little lady, she who called me marimacho for playing like a normal child. And it's not in a based way like "women don't have to be pleasent all the time", no, it's actually agressive with no purpose, just to hurt others. My cousin took up that rude attitude and now that its entering into adolescence is worse. Having a talk with them is impossible. They don't even greet properly at guests! here we kiss, we shake hands, we chat, we make the guests feel welcomed. And the amount of verbal diarrhea that comes from my grandad it's ashaming, dude can't keep a gross thought for himself and my grandma isn't shutting him anymore. She actually encourages him because she knows I don't like to hear obscenities that ain't ever funny. To think we used to drink whiskey watching futboll and talking about politics with him… And my dad tries to be nice on his own but has some bad habits like staring too much, and when he is around his wife he becomes rude like her. It's so bizarre how they behave. I, the misfit of the family, ended being more social and nice that them, the normal and succesful ones. I know I sound like an uppity bitch but they behave so nasty that Caligula would have blushed like Morrissey sang. I don't get it, it's something bad now to watch your manners, to recognize the other as a person with dignity and feels, to not expose yourself?
No. 2155521
>>2155486When I said "you can tell by their takes on thigns", it's more like trying to lower women's expectations for stuff in general or defend some scrote behaviour or whatever
I don't think thats moid brained thats just defending their cause you know what i mean
No. 2155547
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Using dating apps in your 30's be like
>cute face
>fat, hairy body
NEXT
>cute face
>nice body
>believes he can hide his male balding patterns with hats
NEXT
>cute
>nice body
>still has nice, luscious hair
>poly or "doesn't believe in monogamy"
NEXT
>cute
>nice body
>nice hair
>monogamous
>but has a kid
NEXT
>cute
>nice body
>nice hair
>monogamous
>no kids
>but has a shit job, no future aspirations
NEXT
>cute
>nice body
>nice hair
>monogamous
>no kids
>good job
>"male feminist" or clearly one euphoric moment away from trooning out
oh for fucks sake NEXT
No. 2155549
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Im going on so many dates with ugly moids just to feel like at least im trying to meet people. I dont care what anyone says. Men really hit the wall before 25 (most before 22). I try to date younger moids too but theyre harder to find, especially cute ones on dating sites. Plus if youre older, its pretty much a given that theyre only interested because they have an "older woman" kink. It doesn't feel fair. Can't i date a cute/prince like moid even just once? I know it's impossible to find a good looking one that isn't a narcissist man whore but it would be nice to actually like looking at a moid for once. Im so miserable because I feel like im letting young me down. She would have wanted a happier love life for me than this. It just doesn't feel possible. I dont want to date a fat, balding moid with a shit personality but it feels like thats what 99% of the dating market is. I feel like a stupid girl buying into the fantasy of a prince charming. But i also feel like that's what i deserve.
No. 2155555
>>2155549kek I'm the anon above you
nonnie, I get your frustration 100% but believe me it's better to be alone than have to deal with a moid below your standards. That is how you get into
toxic/
abusive situations like I did. Sometimes I feel like most decent moids that still got the looks got taken early and the rest of us are left with the scraps. I just want a good-looking moid that looks at me like I'm his whole world
No. 2155577
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>>2155547using dating apps as a lesbian be like
>cute face>obese or anachanNEXT
>cute face>nice body>"poly and partnered"/looking for a thirdNEXT
>cute face>nice body>monogamous >has kidsNEXT
>obvious bot accountNEXT
>cute face>nice body>monogamous >no kids>profile filled with flavor of the month political slogans NEXT
>cute face>nice body>monogamous >no kids>no political shit in bio>"they/them"NEXT
>cute face>nice body>monogamous >no kids>no political shit in bio>she/her or no pronouns>doesn't have a real job and isn't in college, bonus point if she can't drivethe punchline:
>meet The One>cute face>nice body>monogamous >no kids>no political shit in bio>she/her or no pronouns>isn't demanding>has a real career or goals>ghosts you after the first datei wish i could slut out for easy attention like hets ngl
No. 2155587
>>2155577more like every lesbian profile is
>fat>dangerhair>FREE PALESTINE!>join my queer art group!or
>gymfag>obsessed with sports>wears snapbacks in 2024>lowkey beats women>"femmes only"or
>chappel roan/pligiva rodrigo lesbian who's obviously straight or bi>sapphic picnics uwu>pastel aesthetic and works at an art or music store No. 2155605
>>2155593I honestly forget about any ugly moid the moment I swipe left on them because they aren't worth any iota of my attention span, my post is about the few cute ones that I actually take a brief moment to check more than one picture on. Should have specified but I didn't want to overexplain
>>2155601Scandinavia. We got a fair amount of moids with convenient looking faces, but with a whole list of "but…"s. Mainly male pattern baldness because of how fine typical scandinavian hair is, and the ones that aren't pretty are the ones that hit the gym to compensate so at least in my range I see a fair amount of guys with nice muscles but ugly chubster faces
No. 2155627
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>Talking to mom
>She asks a question so I proceed to look it up
>Start explaining to her the differences
>Does not acknowledge me is instead on her fucking phone
>"Oh were you saying something?"
Why the fuck do I bother? She's such an asshole. Probably wouldn't even believe me because y'know only Facebook/Telegram is fucking credible.
No. 2155629
People, especially my ex, complain that I don't open up a lot. If any of them would just do the simple act of actually asking me a question or two, it wouldn't be a problem. I have so much I want to share and talk about, but no one ever takes a moment to actually ask, why? Do they just expect me to start talking? I brought this up to my ex and he told me that he didn't feel the need to ask questions because "if it's important you would just tell me, right?". Well no, I want you to take an interest first. Then I'll share. I always ask questions and pay attention to what a person might want to say about their hobbies, feelings or work. I lead by example all the time, but no one gets it, probably because unlike me they don't really care either way, just like to stroke their little "you're so quiet lol" egos.
No. 2155675
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I just spent all day getting yelled at by customers for something that's not my fault, and another company completed fucked up something that I had no control over. The paperwork is a nightmare. I'm going back in tomorrow to start it all over. GOD I hate being the only receptionist. When people choose violence, they always take it out on me.
No. 2155816
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All my life I've always noted people with "goat eyes"– the kind of eyes that look kind of soul-less, it's really hard to describe. It's pretty rare and I've only ever met a couple people with them. I don't look at myself that often but I was going through old family photos from when I was in high school, and I realized, I think I have goat eyes. That's one of the reasons (of many) that my face is repulsive to people.
No. 2156094
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I'm so goddamn tired of the last few years every day on Lolcow being groundhog day. It's all on repeat. The same infights, the same arguments, containment threads for inflammatory topics never fucking work, they're possibly the worst solution to infighting because these people are so attention starved they just want to argue instead of discussing. Oldmin should've shut the site down like she threatened to but Shaymin, not wanting to lose her autistic womanchild community of Shaynafags, took over only to drop the ball completely and opened the doors to the new kind of cancerous userbase due to the utter lack of moderation.
I haven't read an interesting conversation in ages on this fucking site because everyone just wants to fling shit endlessly, every argument goes in neverending circles no matter which board the thread is in. I don't know if it's just because I've grown older and been around since 2015 but I'm constantly surrounded by literal teenagers or adults in arrested development with extreme black and white thinking laced with 2016-esque skeptic brainrot from watching SJW cringe compilations, baby's first critical thought with the same big brain arguments I've seen written out a million times in my life and oversensitive rightoid twitterfags accusing others of being oversensitive leftoid twitterfags. And if it's not them, it's just full on clinically depressed NEETs and scrotes mostly bitter about women having friends or something that makes them happy. Everyone keeps falling for the same bait, time after time. The same. fucking. bait. Why wouldn't they? Moderation is around only for around half a day. The manhate is a joke too, most anons aren't radfem or "blackpill" but reactionary NLOGs who take more pleasure in feeling superior over other women than observing the patriarchy and would 100% sell each other out if a sexy Nigel offered them his dick. The "gender critical" anons? They rarely even bother to mask their homophobia anymore, it's been so far normalized here there's no point in doing so. And yes, the homophobia includes lesbians. Ironically enough I feel like /w/, as cancerous as it is, is the last of the remnants of the old Lolcow.
Whenever I see the "cow yourself" thread bumped again just to witness another severely mentally ill BPD-chan listing out reasons why she should have her own thread here instead of being one of the anons posting, I realize just what kind of company I am in currently and wonder why I even come here just to be disappointed every single time. As a functional adult with a real adult job and an adult life and a nuanced outlook on the society due to years of actually interacting with it IRL, I can't even justify coming here with "it's a female imageboard" because I'm probably like 10 to 15 years older than the current userbase and end up wanting to punch a wall exposing myself to this retardation.
No. 2156115
>>2156106But i dont follow the lolcows i come here for ot/, g/, and m/. I want an imageboard for women. Period. I dont want to have kids and i dont want to get married i want to meet people through the internet and share funnay memes and smut
is that so much to ask
No. 2156130
>>2156106AYRT, it makes sense that most of the userbase is just unhinged nutcases stalking cows and spamming infighting in threads around the clock because they don't have to sit for 8 hours in an office out of their awake time and then go take care of necessities, but I wouldn't even be bothered if it was just autismos sperging if it wasn't the distinctive kind of /pol/faggotry or straight up misogyny thinly veiled as """feminism""". They should sperg about trains or lego sets instead or at least develop parasocial obsessions with cows instead of accelerationist concepts.
>>2156111Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if AI was used to help with moderation more in the future, IIRC the automatic child porn filters (like what admin put in place AFAIK) work very much like that because it's inhumane to make some untrained minimum wage worker be exposed to tons of child porn, mutilation and gore just to spare everyone else from seeing it.
>>2156113I think so too, thanks for contributing to the positivity on lolcow nonna
No. 2156163
>>2156131Sounds like limerence. What we experience during childhood greatly shapes us when we are adults and that time of our life is also extremely emotion-driven, when you are a teen everything is amplified, especially negative emotions like heartbreak.
The person you're thinking about does not exist anymore, they are a memory, you'll never have them back and you're thinking about them because you never had closure.
No. 2156198
>>2156192>>2156192Since I'm a student and sit a lot, I go to the gym three times a week for an hour and a half, although not during summer because it's too hot.
>Maybe your body just feels like it has to move or you have a lot of unreleased energy?It might be that though. Well at least it's not anything harmful or detrimental in my daily life, so I can't really complain.
No. 2156203
>>2156169Try implementing chocolate on the healthier choices. I like to mix my sugar free yogurt with a spoonful of nutella and it's bomb, or even putting some melted chocolate on my porridge or on top of my toast with sliced bananas.
It's not like you have to flat out cut everything, a good diet is one you can sustain long-term after all.
No. 2156226
>>2156218I was like you like 2 years ago
Got a boyfriend and realised I was just as lonely
Women get boyfriends for companionship and a sense of security ; men get girlfriends for sex, that's about it.
It sucks, cultivate friendships instead. Trust. You'll regret wasting your time on a boyfriend.
No. 2156292
>>2156226Yep, got a bf who I thought was into me because we had the same interests. Great! We'll have so much fun talking about stuff!
Turns out I might as well be talking to a wall. Either he goes "uh huh" while barely listening or contradicts everything I say and plays devil's advocate on purpose to piss me off. At least a wall doesn't fight me on the sky being blue when he's feeling antagonistic.
No. 2156314
I ended a near decade-long relationship last year and have spent some time healing. I'm in no rush to get into a relationship again, but at this point I'm not sure I could if I even wanted to because every moid on the planet is addicted to porn and no porn use is one of my non-negotiables.
On the bright side, I'm bi, so I have a larger dating pool to choose from, but:
1. I've only slept with three women and have only formally dated two, both of those were in the early 2010s so I'm out of practice and barely knew wtf I was doing to begin with.
2. Men are idiots and even when talking to a guy I REALLY like, flirting is effortless. When talking to a girl I really like, it's like I'm suddenly 13 again with my first crush and can't put one word in front of the other to string a coherent sentence together.
3. I fantasize about sex a LOT and even write smut, but have a low sex-drive IRL and very little sexual experience with fellow women. I worry I'll find an amazing girl but then we'll hook up and she'll think I'm lazy or a pillow princess or just a fucking idiot, idfk.
4. While I am a member of the LGBT community, I take issue with one of those letters, and most women (and men) I'd be interested in dating would be horrified to know I don't fully support the actions of the group that one letter represents.
So between not tolerating porn, being generally liberal-leaning with one little caveat re: the T in LGBT stuff, having a low IRL sex drive, and having no idea wtf I'm doing in bed with other women, I just feel like I'm doomed to either stay true to myself and die alone, settle for less, or hide a part of myself/my beliefs from someone I think is truly amazing lest they leave (or worse–leave, and tell everyone I'm a bigot) after finding out I don't blindly support sex work or men in dresses co-opting my identity.
Doomed to die alone with my cats. But honestly that sounds better than dying while married to a porn addicted scrote or a fellow feminist woman who thinks sex work and letting men into female spaces is empowering.
No. 2156343
>>2156314Every person is different and no woman is the same as the other, don’t think that you’re out of practice, because you don’t need practice to date someone. If it’s awkward the first times so be it, don’t preclude yourself of nice experiences just because you’re afraid.
And about the other thing, I found that most people in real life care little about the T, they support them passively , it’s more of a “yeah I’ll respect your pronouns, you’re a woman, ok next” , lesbian women and even bi women too. Just don’t go full on
TERF, maybe play dumb and ask questions to gauge how they are. If they’re raging TRAs you’ll get it and you’ll be able to distance yourself in time or maybe you’ll find your perfect terfy gf who knows.
No. 2156389
>>2156378In the biggest tl;dr way, treatment for BED isn't focused on your weight as much as trying to control your binges and self-image. The thing is, anyone who's spend a second online knows how much the internet hates fat women so trying to fix your self-image to even just a neutrality level is a constant battle. Any time I'm feeling a bit better about myself I manage to find something in the wild about how having fat/stretchmarks/loose skin/whatever is disgusting.
I'm personally in the very obese category and unfortunately I hate working out. I've tried plenty of times and no amount of making it a habit ever gave me a feeling of satisfaction afterwards. I wouldn't mind trying something more fun like an actual sport but once you're an adult those are either filled with people who've done it for 20 years already or it's sports I physically cannot do (nothing to do with weight, it's something I was born with).
As far as I'm aware there isn't much even offered beyond talk therapy when you have BED. There's no form of inpatient for it, and my country won't even give me ozempic or similar stuff despite plenty of people with BED saying it almost cures it. So I'm just kind of stuck trying to work through my demons on my own basically.
No. 2156409
>>2156343>>2156344>>2156360Really appreciate the encouragement and advice, nonnies. I have shared my views (gently) with some close friends and shown them some research and other evidence re: the way women and children are harmed by troon rhetoric, and they've taken it really well, with some even revealing that they're basically closeted terfs like me, so y'all are probably right. I'm just worried I guess. Girls are just so gorgeous and have an effect on me that even the most handsome man doesn't, and I worry I'll either say something retarded because like I said, flirting with men is effortless but talking to women I'm into turns me into a shy weirdo, or I'll manage to conduct myself like a normal person but then we'll get in the bedroom and they'll be like "WTF?" because it's been almost a decade since I went down on another woman.
Y'all are the best, ty for the reassurance. Maybe I'll be able to find a pretty (or androgynous, I'm into both tbh) girl who won't mind taking the lead in the bedroom and being patient while I figure out wtf I'm doing lmao.
No. 2156414
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I feel like I have a hundred different things I should be doing, but no idea what to prioritize so I just end up getting nothing done.
No. 2156450
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am i terrible at expressing myself in a cohesive, easy-to-follow manner that other people can understand or do an increasing number of nonnas suffer from poor reading comprehension? i suppose both could be true. it just seems like whenever someone responds to anything that i post half of the time they completely misunderstand whatever i was trying to say, even if it was simple, or they act outright aggressive.
No. 2156524
>>2156409>I worry I'll either say something retarded because like I said, flirting with men is effortless but talking to women I'm into turns me into a shy weirdoHonestly a shy person is cute to me, because it means that they do like me and find me attractive and most of the time with some patience they tend to open up and be more comfortable. So don’t worry too much.
I’m bi too and I can understand how flirting with women can be different than with men. I tend to be passive with men, I don’t like taking the first steps with men, because I don’t think they deserve it lol, but I’m much more straightforward with a woman and I like taking the first steps. I usually try to gauge if they’re bi or lesbian by complimenting them when I’m in real life, just to test the waters.
I’ve taken Ls many times since I tend to like the women who look more feminine and said women turned out to be straight most of the timers, but they were always good sports about it and never were weirded out. It’s not impossible and women aren’t these scary deities that you believe they are, you’re a woman too after all.
No. 2156589
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Broke up with my boyfriend. It's only been a few days and I miss him so much I feel sick. I'll meet him in a week or so once I've calmed down a little to talk everything out, exchange belongings etc, but for now I just can't get over the gaping hole in my life where he used to be. I loved him but we were totally incompatible emotionally + arguing a lot and it was making me stressed, resentful and bitter. I wish it didn't have to be like this.
No. 2156605
>>2156589Sorry to hear that nonna, I know it feels shitty right now but it's better than staying in a relationship with someone you're incompatible with. It'll take time, but you
will get over him eventually.
No. 2156882
>>2156462there were kfags who actually
moved to korea? all because they liked a boy band?
No. 2156971
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I was going to post in the general art thread but this is more of a vent so I am putting it here. I hate how I am in that “just okay” stage with my art. I have been stuck here for years ever since I went through burnout, and while I can render well I am basically an okay draftsman. I can’t illustrate or draw anything without heavy reference, to the point I basically can’t draw anything decent unless it’s just a copy of something else.
I’m fast, what I do make is pretty good, but it doesn’t mean I can make any art that I actually want to make. A bit cringe but I think I took an interest in art purely because I wanted to make fanart in middle school. Now I’m an adult and it still frustrates me that after so much time and effort I can make things but still can’t make the trashy fanart I have always wanted. It’s even worse because I ended up being able to render realistically very well, so I know I’m capable, but it’s like I took the wrong path to get where I wanted to. Ugh
No. 2157045
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My brother called me today. He asked if I've made any friends on campus and I could tell he was sad when I said "I don't feel the need to make any,". It probably sounds like I'm a child, but I'm 24. I'm going to try to join a club that's about my hobby or something… I feel so terrible because I know he only wants the best for me but I really am happy with my own company. I didn't even realize I had absolutely no one I could call a friend until he asked me today.
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My new neighbor is my age and very outgoing, bubbly, and knows how to talk so well. I am the polar opposite and I just might even have a touch of the tism. Any interaction between us is always painfully awkward especially when my parents are around to see it. I’m sure they wish I were more like her.
No. 2157095
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You know something I don't like about moids? Their absolute lack of integrity, I hate that the most about them and it personally pisses me off. They say one thing and do another, pretend to like a type of women but secretly want another, say they want to kill a group of people then get found fucking 5 of them at a trashy hotel. They fuck kids and animals, even sandwiches, as if there wasn't something on their mind telling them that's fucking gross, they routinely fuck people they hate or find repulsive, they cannot even respect their OWN bodies and dignity, they're the true hoes. Men NEVER stand on their beliefs if they got any to begin with they're cowards and never face the world with their actual opinions, just what's convenient like the rats they are. They don't got a "core" or something that stops them from going beyond the values they decided to uphold themselves, men are whores of mind, body and soul, easily swayed by temptation and impulse. Zero discipline, zero INTEGRITY, nothing a scrote says it's true because they're, as I already said, hoes of mind, body and soul.
Why are men so unashamed of being inhumane and coreless? Why would you flex the fact that there's something literally wrong with you, that you barely qualify as sentient and that your existence is detrimental and a tragedy for our species? Men routinely shame women for displaying benevolence, "doing the right thing" or simply standing on their values, because in a world dominated by sociopathic scrotes benevolence and mercy are not only shamed but openly discarded. These values were never a problem, it doesn't make you weak, it's only a problem because scrotes exist and disrupt the natural course of humanity with their filth.
No. 2157121
Like a little over a year or so ago I made it a priority to minimize looking at shit that upset me online. Stopped looking at any politics, avoided negative youtube drama type shit, stopped rage scrolling front of reddit, ect… I basically only look at a very curated reddit with 90% cat pics and lolcow. I love this site cause their arent many online spaces where I truly felt similar to the women on it. I have always felt strange and abnormal and struggled relating to other women. But here I didn't feel crazy anymore.
But also here's the thing. Lolcow is also depressing as hell. I hate seeing all the worse of humanity get posted here. I know im seeking it out but I can't help it when I'm here. It can be hard to avoid it, even in threads not related. I'm not blaming the site or anything but I feel like I'm too mentally unwell to see this shit constantly. I have grown up terminally online and had a shitty childhood so I'm already prone to depression. I really hate to leave but I feel like I have to. Honestly wish I could just get off the internet altogether and touch some fucking grass but it's hard when you've done it forever and are socially retarded. I'm just so sick of all the pedos, pickmes, coomers, porn, degens, trannies, ragebait, redpill shit,ect. I hate humans. But I really hate men. It honestly has kinda destroyed my mental health. Like I always knew bad men existed but I didn't really understand that even the "good" ones don't see you as fully human. I feel like only places like lolcow is where women can truly peak. The rest of the internet will gaslight you into accepting shit behavior or believing the good ones exist out there and are the majority.
Idk guess I'm just screaming out into the void. I wish I could just be normal.
No. 2157160
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>>2157006Thank you for the advice, you’re very kind. I know the answer to my problem is to continue drawing but it’s been hard to find the time recently. One day I hope to be able to do linework like picrel, but until then I’ll just keep practicing.
No. 2157201
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My own personal lolcow is a homewrecking friend of a friend. After finding out months ago she was having a boy and “crying for weeks” because she was certain it was going to be a girl; she gave birth the other day and it has to be the fugliest baby I’ve ever seen and I tried really hard not to think this and let my feelings about her cloud judgement but it’s undeniable. Poor moidchild lmao.
No. 2157227
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I hate grown ass adults who are picky eaters. Of course you don’t like anything I cook because you’ve fried your taste buds with all the sodium in fast food! If it’s not breaded or fried it’s disgusting apparently? I genuinely cannot imagine going through life not liking any type of fish, fruit, or vegetable. The thought of eating fast and frozen foods daily makes me nauseous.
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>>2157227hijacking your post: im friends with a moid who basically eats nothing but fried greasy slop, then he complains about having constant diarrhea. hes an autist with sensory problems but thats not an excuse to be so unhealthy imo, theres a thousand different ways to prepare vegetables, he could experiment and find a way to incorporate them into his diet. colon cancer speedrun.
No. 2157291
>>2157267I know people on this site hate on autistic people and shit, and I don't mind parents disciplining their kids if necessary, but it's deeply disturbing that your parents were so willing to
beat an
autistic young girl, that just off and fucked up I'm sorry
No. 2157297
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>>2157212lmaooo I've done this for the four or so years I've worked at my current job. Here's to one day finding a job that actually sounds better than the one we're at.
I am venting because my sweet little cat doesn't understand that I am working and I can't play with him all the time. Also, even if I could, he's so insatiable and bored(?) with the usual tricks. String? Doesn't give a fuck. Toys that make noise? Lame. One of those automatic rolling balls? Afraid of it. Same with the flopping fish toy. The little springs, I should get those again. But he gets sick of them quite quickly, like, not even 5 minutes and he's back to meowing at me. The laser is also waning in interestingness for him. And finally, the shadow game, and he is bored of that too. I'll even take things and put them under a sheet and wiggle them around and he'll attack them, but it seems like he's bored again. I just need to cycle in a new toy. But what? what does my boy want!?
No. 2157300
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Need to look into manifestation because I am at my fucking limit. This npd bpd misogynistic victim cosplaying bitch cant coast on simpering and asspats for this long without some form of consequences. Praying for her downfall isnt enough I need several Haitian shamans and deepweb hitmen. Karma I've seen what youve done for others.
No. 2157322
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I really hate living with my roommate but I live in a bad neighborhood and my parents who have key to the apartment have been physical in the past so I need someone to physically protect me
Not American and teasers/spray are even illegal where I live. Inb4 move I am poor and too retarded to shit out money
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I’ve been fighting the urge recently to make my ex moid’s life hell. Nothing illegal, just inconvenient and disconcerting on the receiving end. What I hate the most is feeling myself fall back into old patterns of behavior that are not healthy and harm others. But the only people I really harm have been men so I don’t feel bad enough to stop.
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mental illness is taking me in a brand new form. my metamorphosis into a fresh insane bitch is starting. I'm not ready. i vomited again tonight and coffee is the only this i consumed today. i hate this
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>major depressive disorder
>11 suicide attempts
>therapy doesn't work
>psych ward didn't work
>relationship doesn't help
>family bonds don't help
>hobbies don't help
>NEET who can't find a job
>can't drive
>medicated out the ass
>getting fat due to meds
No. 2157415
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I will confess for the past three years, I have been able to maintain my grades (all A's) because I have been cheating. I am lucky that last year was simply general education, however this semester I started the actual bulk of my classes. I was feeling so prepared, telling myself that I would finally stop my chronic procrastinating just to fall behind in the first week. Convinced myself to sit down and go through the material, realized I cannot remember anything the second I look away and it's just so hard to understand things. Now I am thinking what is the point, I am retarded and it was a mistake to think I could become good in school when I have failed at it since kindergarten.
What to do to get better? I looked it up, I don't think I can really change my lack of memory and difficulty with learning the most basic of things. Maybe, I could fix the procrastination once and for all by quitting all my distractions. Today in class, I tried very hard to focus on professor but as always without realizing I end up daydreaming.
No. 2157459
>>2157415I'd recommend finding one or two people that take the same classes and studying together with them. Sometimes they can explain things you don't get and vice versa. If you can't study together, just discussing things is also good. Talking about stuff you learn is the best way to make sure it stays in your mind. I would hear a lot of the best students from my classes discuss material directly after lectures or they'd meet friends from other departments and try to relay it to them despite them not knowing anything about the topics. If you really don't have anyone to yap to, it still helps to say things out loud without reading off a paper, kind of as if you were practicing a presentation or something.
I have the same issues with memory and understanding and I would always post here about how hopeless it felt to force myself to sit down and study for hours only to forget most of it and have to do even more of that tomorrow kek but in those last weeks before exams it was always easier to go over topics I had spent time summarizing during the semester than completely new stuff. You probably will remember some bits and pieces and that's a lot better than nothing. Using pomodoro timers of like 15–30 minutes studying with 3–5 minute breaks worked well for me because I also have time blindness and can't focus for indefinite amounts of time. If your material is very complicated, just take extra time, look up every word you don't get and read over sentences until they start to make sense. Uni is supposed to be like a full-time job, so you shouldn't feel bad or discouraged if it takes a while. I could also never follow professors for very long (unless it was the good ones that would give us short breaks every 20 minutes when attention spans end) but it helped a little to repeat what they were saying in my head. Many people told me to take notes, but figuring out what to write while the prof had already started a new sentence was impossible for me. If they share their weekly material before lectures, it's good to at least skim it so you'll have an idea of the parts you'd want to focus on most. Also ask around or google how others in your major/school study, sometimes they'll have more specific tips about ways to approach subjects or they'll know what profs like to prioritize in exams. Good luck, don't let it get you down so quickly. Everything is difficult at first but at the end of the day it's only words on paper and the grades won't matter to your employer.
No. 2157533
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Idk where to post this but I got CATFISHED by a moid on tinder I was actually nervous to see him because I thought it was gonna be a buff guy but when I saw him I was genuinely put off because I didn’t know he was that fat. I live in A pretty small town so I was like oh my God how come I haven’t seen this really handsome dude around but lo and behold that handsome dude didn’t even exist. I immediately looked up his profile and looked at the pictures again because I just couldn’t believe the levels of catfishing. He was looking up in the face pic to hide his double chin, he also put his arm in a pic of him holding something and the gym one I guess we was sucking in really hard or something or maybe it’s an old pic. Either way yeesh and it’s a shame because his arms were pretty buff and he did have a cute face, but the fatness of his body turned me off and he almost kissed me I was like I can’t believe I was nervous this dude is gross and owes me for gracing him with my fine presence.
I drew a thing of his pics on the left vs him on the right irl. Crazy how people can just lie like that like does he think he actually looks like his pics?
No. 2157548
>>2157533I clicked on this image thinking it would be from the photoshop thread on snow, oh god
nonnie this is so terrible.
>>2157533 No. 2157552
>>2157536I also hate talking to people I don't like because I have nothing to tell them or I know they just like gossiping. So I try not to talk too much to my coworkers and the ones I dislike the most are the ones who won't stop initiating conversations as soon as we have enough free time to take a short break. It feels like even more work to do, and my manager is the type who likes to come up with events that are sort of mandatory, like spending our lunch breaks picnicking in a park nearby or everyone going to the office at the same time even when some of us are supposed to work from home that day to socialize and I'm starting to consider looking for another job to avoid this, but I know it's similar or even worse in most companies.
I have a question though, were you like this as a kid too? Because I was, I got along with some of my classmates but didn't really care beyond that and was always treated like a weirdo for not giving a shit about befriending others, I thought something was wrong with me for liking reading books to pass time during recess instead of forcing myself to interact with racist kids calling me slurs as a result. I wish smartphones were a thing back then so I could ignore everyone even more efficiently.
No. 2157557
>>2157533Oh my god
nonnie I'm so sorry, at least this will be a funny story in a couple of weeks! It could be that the other pictures are pre-covid, lots of moids are in complete denial about how they let themselves go during the pandemic
No. 2157572
>>2157546It was the first time I went alone to him and by god I will not get molested by an old man while simultaneously having a sore throat.
>>2157551It's an outside job so I literally just walk opposite direction into the forest to do my shit in isolation and return on breaks to my car. If you're similarly schizo-y I would recommend surveying/environmental or other forestry jobs
>>2157552I was within normal rage of shyness with some friends all through school. More than shy it was bluntness and avoidance that was the problem. I was really into reading books, drawing and fantasy all the time though and spent all my time doing that too. I think at the time it was easier (less social interaction) to have acquaintances to avoid pity actions but I might of not liked any of them because I ghosted both primary school and hs school friends as soon as I graduated. They said to my face that I'd probably never talk to them again after graduation and I couldn't even be bothered to go there so predictions true, so Facade must not be able to hold up for multiple years I guess (they had each other I did not groom girls to be my defence and then abandoned them if anyone's worried).
I think you should just try and bore the social inviters. I have just told my supervisors that I like to be assigned tasks alone and I am always going to the same location on break that I beeline to so they don't come up to me or ask me to go other places consistently. Also immoral but if a man talks to me I always act like I can't hear the first few times so he gets frustrated and identifies a better target. Works.
No. 2157579
>>2157536You're not retarded. Offices in 2024 are full of landmines. Giving out info can easily result in uncontrollable gossip or people feeling like they're close enough to you to treat you like shit. I learned recently that Gen Z tends to avoid any socializing at work, which makes total sense. I had to learn it when i switched from a labor-intensive manual job (relaxed, genuine coworkers) to an office job (mix of highschool and daycare for adults) and got fucked over. Unless it's a very small company and the people are reasonable with their gossip, it's not worth it.
Edit: oh, you have an outside job. Point still stands, workplace culture is so hostile anyways that i wouldn't be surprised if even some outside jobs were like this now
No. 2157601
>>2157572>I think you should just try and bore the social inviters.I try to but some people think it's an invitation to start harassing me (or others like us) and it's pissing me off. You know, the type that sees a room where everyone's busy, focused on their tasks and says "oh wow it's soooo silent here! haha" and then pester the shit out of everyone? There's a guy like this in my team and he even gets offended when I eat lunch during lunch break, chew my food and don't answer his questions right away to avoid chocking on my food so he repeats the same questions over and over again. Sometimes he does that when I'm on the phone or in an online meeting. He also changed his days of telework so that I had to deal with his presence three days a week instead of two for a few months and I thought I was about to have a mental breakdown because he will not shut the fuck up but there's no way to tell him politely because he acts and looks like an autist so he doesn't get all the hints and complaints we already gave him. He never says anything interesting, his voice sounds awful, he's so loud that he prevents everyone from planning meetings with clients in out open space, and expresses himself like a corrupt politician too. My manager is less annoying than him somehow. I don't mind having small talk with other coworkers because they don't actively bother me as much but they also have their moments.
>I think at the time it was easier (less social interaction) to have acquaintances to avoid pity actions but I might of not liked any of them because I ghosted both primary school and hs school friends as soon as I graduated.I did that too. Not having a facebook or MSN account back then helped a lot. I kept up with my high school friends on a messaging app on my first smartphone after we graduated but it barely worked so I deleted the app and never looked back, and I know I didn't miss out on anything that way. I'm a grown adult with a few very close friends and in hindsight it made me realize that dumb teachers and adults treating kids who don't care for friendship with their classmates are beyond retarded. Forcing yourself to hang out with someone you have nothing in common with and you already see in class almost everyday just because you live in the same area and were born the same year isn't a necessity. Seeing that you and maybe other people had the same experience makes me feel less insane now.
No. 2157694
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A THIRD interview?!? FUCK fuckity FUCK
No. 2157740
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>Lost 13kgs
>Higher BMI but still in health range
>Thought I look slim from the front
>Saw a video of me that my friend took
>I still look wide as a fridge from the side
Why live?
FUCK THIS SHIT
No. 2157745
>>2157719The pay is pretty good, the process has just been taking weeks and now it’s down to just me and one other candidate. Can’t believe how competitive the market is rn.
>>2157728That’s true, earlier this year I was getting nothing but ghosting and rejection emails.
>>2157734I feel the same way. I’m pretty sure the US is headed for a recession regardless of who gets elected at this point.
No. 2157788
>>2157717Slipped as v is YO in my language and idk dummy, maybe I'm tired and
triggered somehow, maybe read and not meddle in my vents
No. 2157808
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I'm 10+ years younger than both my siblings, so even as an adult it's been hard to have a relationship with them even if I try and I know they love me. Mom got fairly abusive after both of them had moved out, which caused the relationship between us to be close to non-existent; she would compare me to them (among other emotionally abusive things I still have severe trauma from), despite the fact that I was still a kid and the age difference I was made to feel inferior and like a mistake compared to their successes so I felt like I didn't deserve their company, and I could overhear her around the corner trashtalking me to my siblings who didn't know me well enough to really comment on it. After I moved out she would call me and cuss me out for not having a relationship to my siblings or relying on them, which of course caused me to distance myself even more.
But after I hit my mid-20's I started gradually reaching out to my sister, I realized how much I needed the sisterly bond in my life and we have a decent relationship but we avoid talking about how we grew up. But last year or so I've been opening up more, testing the waters to see how she would react. Since I was so young when she and our brother lived at home I didn't see much of their side. She never really comments much on it, but I have noticed that she calls mom out more often - not exactly in my name, but she admitted a couple of days ago that when I opened up a little bit about mom's behavior she actually had enough of mom's hypocrisy and kinda cracked.
It feels great to finally be defended, and I'm so happy I have her. I want to reach out more to my brother, but he runs a couple of his own companies on top of having a family so it's hard to get in touch with him because he's always busy. But we do have a bit of a relationship and I feel like I can always rely on him if I need to. But not in the same way as I can rely on my sister.
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I’m moving out of the country today and had a massive sobbing fit over leaving my dog. I don’t really feel all too sad about anything else but I couldn’t look at her without crying. I’m going to miss her so much. She’s the sweetest dog ever and is so funny and has helped me heal so much. I wish I could take her but I can’t. I never understood why people would go hysterical over their dogs and now I do.
No. 2157889
>>2157740Well you're definitely healthier and probably feel better in general, eh? I'm proud of you for that.
I just got healthier by putting on a little over 25 lbs and being in a good weight range (I was not deliberately anachan, I was in an intensely stressful marriage, which I left last year). I feel stronger, my sunken face unsunk itself, and I know my arms and legs look better. HOWEVER, similar to your grievance, my boobs are still ABSOLUTELY MAN-TIER FLAT, like you'd think some of that 25 lbs would have gone THERE, but NOOOOOOOO God hates me
All that aside, your overall health is what matters most of all
No. 2157996
>>2157958>>2157956>>2157974It's a thirdie country and the police are corrupt as fuck, hell they probably engage in animal abuse themselves. Horrible place.
>>2157957Thanks
nonnie No. 2158018
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I hate how absolutely terrible I am at maths fell behind somewhere between grade 9 and 10 and didn't get anything at all from grade 11 onwards, with how big the city I live in is, I'd have thought there are some courses in community college, but seems like that's not a thing and at this point I'm half-way considering looking into getting a tutor, but I'm wondering just how useful it'd be if I can't tell her "This is what we learned in mathematics last week and I need to understand this by X because we will have a test then" lol. I know Khan academy exists but I'm not really a fan of learning stuff on a screen lol. Maybe I'll just get some workbooks for 9th graders lol.
No. 2158075
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I wish I had someone to have a matching pfp with, how do people make and keep lifelong friends I'm so sad.
No. 2158188
>>2158157It's okay
nonnie, I'm also the older failsister so I get you.
No. 2158213
>>2158015Ironically my daddy issues manifested themselves in the opposite way, I’ve always found older men disgusting, well in general the whole male sex, I see them as these beings devoid of empathy and who are just capable of just taking, taking without giving anything back. I’ve never trusted a man and I do think I’ll ever will date one despite being straight.
My bio father was a useless drunkard and my stepfather, who raised me from when I was little to when I was a teenager and who called me her daughter ended up cheating on my mom. I just got disillusioned all of a sudden.
No. 2158228
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Listening to my friends talk about their childhood and family life really blows me away. I'm 26 and have only recently realized how shitty, uneventful and overall pretty neglectful my childhood was in comparison to the people around me.
Multiple friends I've had from different social circles have talked about their parents opening a savings account since their birth so that their child has a good amount of savings by the time they'd leave home. I have never had anything like that and neither have my brothers. My parents were too busy beating the shit out of each other, drinking and smoking, and buying fast food. My mom never took me out to learn new hobbies and never taught me any sort of life lessons about being a girl or being a woman, and is overall a really narcissistic person who views people as something to boss around or take advantage of.
To hear people randomly drop bits of info that their parents were supportive, looked after their future, cared about them enough to put money aside for them for the future, etc. Is wild. It's really really wild to me and it actually makes me sad, to know that for some reason, I guess I wasn't "worthy" of the things that actually mattered as a child.
I don't even speak to my mother anymore unless I can't help it, and my dad died a few years back. To hear other women talk about their mothers and how they have good relationships, their mothers are smart or have nice hobbies or are just nice women in general, I get super jealous. I get so fucking jealous, because I know I will never have that, and that I've essentially grown from dirt with very little financial security and absolutely no headstart in life. People love to glorify the "struggle" but they don't realize how alienating and how embarrassing you feel when you come from that life and see others around you doing far better because their parents actually gave a fuck.
No. 2158421
I feel better seeing that all my bullies are fat and ugly now. Male ones are balding and with pubic hair beards, looking like 35 year old pedophiles. The female one got fat and looks like a 40 year old and married some balding scrote (we're still in our mid 20s). They bullied me for being ill and my school absence that was caused by that illness, they threw trash at me and spat on me (it's hard to find something more humiliating than someone spitting in your face), they wouldn't allow me to sit anywhere, they would throw my clothes on the floor and step on them, they would mock me when I was stuttering while trying to answer when a teacher asked me a question etc. If I got an A, they would start booing and saying I didn't deserve it because I was stupid, and if I got an F, they would be so happy about it and laughing at me. Every day looked like this. It was hell for me, I wanted to kill myself at 12-14 and sometimes I still have nightmares to this day. When I went to a different school, I had to learn that not everything people said to me was a mockery, which was hard after 3 years of constant treatment like this. I never believed ANYTHING nice that people said to me. I always thought they mocked me, like people in my school. Also the bullies called me ugly often. And now when I'm an adult, other people consider me beautiful, both men and women compliment me. I was once offered modeling but I refused because I was still extremely afraid of being perceived by others. I'm also thin and actually look my age or younger, not like a 40 year old, and I didn't even put special effort into taking care of my body, I had no physical activity, I didn't like to drink or smoke, no sun exposure because I always preffered spending my free time at home, and no junk food because my stomach gets upset very easily. And I know people who actually value what I say and what I do, not just my looks. It might be petty of me but knowing my bullies look like shit now makes me feel satisfied
No. 2158587
Wanted to just hang out outside my room for once, and let my guard down in my own home. Big mistake. Moid relative starts telling a story in front of others, about how his shitbox broke down. Poor him, he had to walk home in a safe (for men) neighborhood! How he tried to contact me for a ride, but I didnt answer. Maybe if he didnt constantly harass me everytime I go to the bathroom for years on end, admitting it was "revenge for not liking him" even though Im not rude, and harasses me when I go out via text (if I dont respond soon enough, other relatives interrogate me as to why. They literally ask me the minute he sent it). So I just needed a break, and dared to not check my phone THAT 1 TIME.
Told him he could have asked another relative to come by and pick him up, but hes like "no I wouldnt do that". So its ok to expect only me to drop everything, but not others? This was after he spent the few months before that taking the car I use just so he can get coffee/donuts, despite me wanting to use it to get my mind off grief. Even though he has 2 cars of his own.
This same male relative turns other relatives against me, attacking my character behind my back like a cowardly snake. I hate men.
No. 2158594
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WHY THE FUCK DOES MINECRAFT PORN EXIST
No. 2158633
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i really want to do the light eyebrows w/ dark hair look like mia goth, so much so that i already plucked my eyebrows to hell and am now considering getting a box of hair dye to lighten my eyebrows… i know my fiance is gonna fucking freak if i do this considering he has already expressed discheesement at the idea but…….
No. 2158686
When I was practicing piano lessons in elementary school, my older brother and sometimes dad interrupted me, constantly. Saying "play it faster", "youre playing it wrong", or talking about anything to get me to stop, even upsetting me to the point of crying. Eventually I quit piano, in part due to intense bullying at school and not being able to practice piano at home.
Why cant men just leave girls and women alone in peace, and mind their own business?
In preteen years, I said wanted to be a chef. Mom said no, because youll get fat. Such a crushing feeling that I remember to this day. I wasnt obese or anything but was a bit chubby due to shitty diet, because she thought fast food was fine for our health. Lost weight and now she says Im too skinny. I had extremely low self esteem, still sort of do.
Dream crushers, the lot of them.
No. 2158767
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i was exhausted from my work shift yesterday and i picked up an extra shift today because my roomate sis it was a good idea. it wasn't a good idea, i already feel horrible
No. 2158798
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i don’t want to be diagnosed as an aspie or autist but people in my life, even my own mom, have told me i act or behave autistically. someone at school even went behind my back to ask one of my best friends if i had autism. granted this was only during my pre-teen years, and while i did entertain the idea back then my mom drilled the mentality that having an official diagnosis of a mental illness of her daughter is going to reflect badly on her. not only that but i have this preconceived notion growing up that admitting that i am mentally ill will lead me to becoming ostracized further and is as good as social death. this is also exacerbated by my gender critical views during that same time frame, and seeing gendie and mental illness shit overlap a lot in tumblrite circles nailed the coffin for me on how i view autism. it didn’t help that most of the treatment procedures are expensive, and given my lower middle class background i can’t seek medical help anyway. i hate myself for thinking this way, but it’s so deeply ingrained into me i don’t think i will ever actually get myself diagnosed. maybe i will learn to make peace with the possibility of me having undiagnosed autism, and live life to the fullest even without treatment
No. 2158933
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The zoom link for my class returned an invalid meeting ID error so I can’t join class and will be marked absent today. The class is recorded live and streamed for remote students to watch. Technically I could go in person but it’s a three hour drive round trip so I just attend from home. I’m so annoyed right now
No. 2158945
>>2158936I emailed the professor within two minutes of class starting. But since she is in class I doubt she’ll see it until afterwards. She has a strict policy about always having a plan B so being unable to join the zoom meeting probably won’t be counted as a
valid excuse.
No. 2159034
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>>2158633Anon omg same. I need a switch up so bad, seeing the x trilogy for the first time this year kinda inspired me. If you go through with it I hope you love it.
No. 2159154
>>2159140>he >friendAnd there’s your problem. Imagine having a
male friend platonically neg you with your accomplishments and hobbies, that’s pretty sad.
No. 2159197
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I realized some days ago that almost every single problem I have in life, no matter how big or small it is, stems from commitment issues and now I don't know how to go on.
No. 2159299
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where do people go for uncensored gore these days? trying to find a pic of the moid who cut off his dad's head and it's all blurred. i can never find the uncensored shit anymore. RIP liveleak(not a vent)
No. 2159301
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>>2158783>get to the building to "meet with Larry at 1">there are like 18 other people in the lobby, whatthefuck.jpg>lead us into a conference room>they'd be interviewing us for 2 minutes at a time out of the room>the interviewers: the company's owner and 2 other hiring managers>they put on the Emoji Movie while we fill out paper applications and they call us one by one Well that was a waste of my fucking time doubt I will hear back
No. 2159307
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>>2159299First thing when I look it up. Fuck this gay earth
No. 2159375
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>tfw accidentally summoned infighters in 4 different threads just by being, retarded? stupid?
Idk what I did wrong but I'm sorry. I've gotten so many angry replies in the past day in the most random threads when my posts weren't offensive, weren't insulting or anything like that.
No. 2159394
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i was starting to get a little pissed by the second day kekkk
No. 2159507
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i dont know where to put this. anyway i made this during the outage
No. 2159514
Thank god it's back I got a ban on cc for no reason and I'm hungover, I needed this.
>>2159507Kek
nonnie I love it
No. 2159525
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>>2159518we can make new images nonna
No. 2159586
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i ask random men for dick pics, and i print them out and keep them in a little dick shrine with dick-shaped candles. when i light the candles, i imagine the dick i'm focusing on shrinking to nothing. i've been doing this for 3 years. one of the men had an accident that affected his dick, so i think it's working.(wrong thread)
No. 2159653
>>2159624He's clever too. Cats are usually only interested in catching something that moves, so by staying still he avoided getting the cat's attention.
>>2159650kek
No. 2159665
>>2159642Yeah they can cause respiratory issues if thrown at other animals though so that's why I was so worried lol
>>2159648aw thanks nonie
>>2159649yeh, males usually only live for max 10 yrs tho, so he's like old old.
>>2159650>>2159655Kek nony i just like to call him an old man because it makes him seem cuter idk. And his name is Lurch.
No. 2159736
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Getting permabanned daily for breathing, having to use malware-installing proxy websites if I want to post and being coaxed into using a scrote-owned cuck imageboard really humbled me kek. I want to be less of a cranky bitch on here from now on.
Long live lolcor! It's good to be home.
No. 2159743
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>>2159736dont insult cuckquin's board. Hes not into cucking he just host it because cuckfags lost their home, he's a nice gentleman with a heart of gold. Many funnies were had and many fights were fought in his land.
No. 2159758
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>>2159752So proud of you nona, we can keep this up, we're above the infighting
No. 2159760
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>>2159752why do you even want to infight me anon…
No. 2159763
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>>2159762Mueh heh heh heh heh
No. 2159796
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I work at big events as a waitress as a side gig and today's employer asked me to come in half an hour early. It's pretty normal to get asked to come fifteen minutes before the shift starts because you need to be shown where to put your bags and shit, but really? Half an hour??? Kill yourself
No. 2159936
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I missed you bitches so much. Please imagine me kissing every one of you on the forehead
>>2159775Whenever you start doubting your stance on Indian moids, please refer back to the news stories that fuck with you threads
>>2146125 No. 2160093
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I am extremely new to lolita so my opinion is null and void but i made the mistake of going on r/lolita. I don't know why I didn't stick to the river and lakes im used to i truly don't. Seeing grown old men (they are not trans they state that they are men) in these outfits are not sitting right with my spirit at all. At least when trans women do lolita they make an effort to look like women first and foremost. These are straight up men in lolita posing like little girls for an obvious kink and fetish. And people on reddit are taking them seriously and giving them advice and shit and not telling them to fuck off. WTF has Lolita become since I first heard about it in 2010!? I thought what made Lolita so based was that it was such a gatekept fashion. Why are you guys letting creepy old men into it. MAKE IT STOP.
No. 2160101
>>2160090Yeah they were real dvds, organized by "genre of woman" (barf barf barf)
The image of him opening up the folder and starting to slowly turn the pages is permanently burned into my eyeballs and I'm still nauseous over it
No. 2160120
>>2160097I see what you mean but this was a fat greasy old man it just I wanted to scream but I didnt want to bother the lolita threads with nonmilk.
>>2160102you'd be surprised but i've been here before.
No. 2160131
>>2160119Tbh I enjoyed my brief weird time on junkuchan, felt like a sleepover but in a dark basement with queans cucking just one room over
Personally glad to be back home kek
No. 2160175
I hate the reviewbrahfags please make it stop
>>2160032Jesus where do you nonas even find these autists
No. 2160194
>>2160175Most men don’t show their
abusive side at the beginning of a relationship. It’s common for them to wait until after marriage or the birth of a first child. The abuse often happen gradually.
>>2160183The more younger and more privileged you are, the easier it is to ignore how disgusting men can be.
No. 2160219
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I fought with my moid best friend last week. We were lying in bed and i started watching runawaysiren's new video about moids. He got triggered and started sperging about it, then asked me the bear or man in the woods question. I told him i would rather be killed by a bear than have even a slight chance of being raped by a scrote. He started malding hard after this, saying that only a miniscule amount of men commit crimes how not all men uwu yada yada. I told him i had terrible experiences with men, from being threatened with a knife to almost being sexually assaulted to being catcalled when i was 13. He told me those are only personal experiences and they dont matter. Faggot didnt even shred a tear when i told him all the shit i have been through thanks to men, he was more concerned about white knigthing his retarded rapist gender. Anyways, hes my only close friend and i do enjoy spending time with him so i let it go and forgot about it. A few days later he dms me on discord saying he needs to rethink our friend because, despite liking me as a friend he thinks my beliefs are toxic(he's offended). I decided to tell him he was a faggot and blocked him. You are trying to threaten me with ending our relationship you dumb faggot? when YOU are the one that didnt show sympathy when i was vulnerable to you. Dumb retard faggot our friendship is over, cry about it. GO find another woman who likes your balding cheap ass. I got a line of simps waiting for me who actually buy me shit and dont make me pay for everything. He's actually useful and can cook, unlike you. He's also rich and has green eyes unlike your ugly poop eyes and receeding hairline. I can and will replace you with something better. Retard. Who the fuck do you think you are to get on your high horse and threaten me to end our friendship if i dont stop hating moids. Men are unbelievable.
No. 2160227
>>2160219tbh you're an even bigger retard for remaining friends with that scrote even after his man vs bear and not all men sperging
>I got a line of simps waiting for me who actually buy me shit and dont make me pay for everything. He's actually useful and can cook, unlike you. He's also rich and has green eyesholy retard, kekkk why are farmers themselves such cows?
No. 2160235
>>2160219Your "beliefs" are
toxic? You were talking about your personal experience, how can the truth be
toxic? I hate him. Friendships ending sucks, but if your weird flex about simps lined up is in any way true, you're going to be totally fine without him.
No. 2160262
>>2160235>how can the truth be toxic?because it
triggers him
> but if your weird flex about simps lined up is in any way true, you're going to be totally fine without him.sorry for the autistic rant, he's actually jealous of that guy thats why i started rambling about him. I know it hurts him to know there are men who treat me better.
No. 2160268
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The sky is incredibly grey today my nonnies…
No. 2160325
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>>2160268Yet you, dear nona, still shine brightly against it.
No. 2160362
>>2160333Dw nonna, it's not true kek. Or like
>>2160346 said, the "simps lining up to buy you stuff" are just gonna be ugly shut-in autists and the "things they're willing to buy you" will be nothing but discord nitro. It's way more admirable to bag a cute normie you can actually date than a thousand autistic uggos online
No. 2160444
>>2160431Bros are not lying in bed together. You knew what was going on. That's also why you wrote about having a brand new simp, or more simps.
One of the funniest parts of female socialization is that line between self-delusion and euphemistic turns of phrase. All the fucking pretenses, even on an anonymous board. You knew he was a simp, you probably liked him too (but not enough to commit to or "pick" him) and then he showed his ass. It's fine. Stop telling us stories about "just wanting friends" and wishing you were born a moid because of hobbies. You know what's up, so does he, so do all of us here.
No. 2160456
>>2160444nta but, it’s not weird to hang out on my bed with friends, or just sleeping in the same bed even. i do with both my female and male friends. if they take that to mean it’s something more then that is their own idiocy. often i even make sure to tell my male friends i am
not interested in them, but i shouldn’t have to either.
No. 2160463
>>2160448This isn't a value judgment, I'm not even calling you an NLOG. I'm just saying you know what was happening, and what is happening, so be honest. You're enjoying being one of the few female fans of whatever hobbies you're into, and you like the special treatment that the moids give you. Making female friends is not only difficult if your hobbies are rarer, it doesn't come with the pseudo-princess treatment men offer, so you're reverse hareming it up. You sacrificed seeking out a real bond for this shit, these are the results, and it seems like you'll do it again. It's hard, unfortunate and somewhat understandable. Just don't act like you're this innocent hopeless flower who simply wanted to chat about her interest in painting model planes or some shit, but was so unlucky to be born female, and to this day you had no clue what that moid was there for, and why all those other moids are simping and cooking for you. I never want to read a woman type "I was lying with my male best friend in bed" in seriousness, it's too fucking ridiculous and you're a clown for that, "bitch" lmaooo
No. 2160473
>>2160469>y-you're a moidAnd now you're the same as the nonnies you complained about here
>>2160440. All I ask is that you stop lying to our faces. If you want to make female friends, put in more of an effort. Stop going to moids knowing full well that they're just there to simp and DGAF about you, and acting shocked when they moid out. This isn't Reddit, retard, we don't support women playing dumb.
No. 2160479
>>2160473i said you sounded like a moid, not that you are a moid, learn to read. You sound exactly like insecure teen boys who think all women into shit for men are ethots.
>If you want to make female friends, put in more of an effortyou say this but you sound insufferable and probably dont have a single friend irl. You have the exact same entitled attitude from my entitled moid ex-friend. You are trying to sound based and blackpilled but in the nd you just sound insecure and lack empathy, just like moids do.
No. 2160484
>>2160219>>2160444KEKKK agreed, she's such a retard.
>>2160229 pretending to be a "butch" to save face when you were just pretending to have male simps lining up for you? kek
>Dumb retard faggot our friendship is over, cry about it. GO find another woman who likes your balding cheap ass. This cope is hilarious considering he had more backbone than you to be the first to end the "friendship" and now you're here malding about being dumped by an ugly MRA baldy acting like
he's the one crying over
you. We need to cure autism, it's the ultimate pickme disorder
No. 2160486
>>2160479>You sound exactly like insecure teen boys who think all women into shit for men are ethots. For saying that you're settling for shitty male attention instead of looking for the actual women who like those hobbies? You really took "You're calling me an ethot!!!" out of everything I said, but I'm the one who should "learn to read"? Kek, if I thought they didn't exist and you only liked said hobbies for male attention, I'd tell you to keep doing what you're doing (which I suspect you'd prefer).
>you say this but you sound insufferable and probably dont have a single friend irl. You have the exact same entitled attitude from my entitled moid ex-friend. You are trying to sound based and blackpilled but in the nd you just sound insecure and lack empathy, just like moids do.Entitled to what? Now you're actually projecting because these are the kinds of men you willingly surround yourself with instead of women. Nothing I said lacked empathy, it's difficult and many women end up in the same bind, but it can be pushed through. I have female friends because I don't lie to them, or expect to be lied to. This is because they care about me, and I care about them. You enjoy lies, and that's why you're suffering. Next up, you'll probably say "Well, women are too much drama, anyway!".
No. 2160495
>>2160463nayrt this is insane. being a woman in a male dominated hobby doesn't get you princess treatment, either moids harass you or they don't give a fuck about whatever you have to say bc you're just a vag to them. either way the vast majority of males will not let you have any kind of serious, earnest discussion about the hobby itself.
your fantasies about women in male dominated fields being thots who get special treatment sounds like straight up incel shit.
No. 2160504
>>2160495I said "pseudo-princess treatment", not "princess treatment", because that's what it is. Read properly. They act nice because they want to fuck you. Not all will harass you, some will do as the anon claimed and do shit like cook for you. The OP knows this, and likes gathering what she calls "simps". Where are you getting "thot" from? A "thot" would just have sex with them, this is something different, it's not a fantasy, and it can be seen in multiple contexts and anecdotes (like with the OP herself).
Some of my hobbies are male-dominated. I don't bother trying to specifically make friends IRL on it once I know that. I either keep it to myself, see if existing friends have an interest or look online, and that's because I know what'll actually happen.
No. 2160511
>>2160486>For saying that you're settling for shitty male attention instead of looking for the actual women who like those hobbies?thats somethign you projected onto me. I dont seek male attention, scrotes give me their unwanted attention. I have tried finding women in the hobby through discord servers and forums but ofcs its all troons so i just started larping as a brazilian men to get friends without getting sexpested by scrotes. I cant pretend to be a scrote irl so i am stuck with unwanted scrote attention if i want to engage in my hobbies irl.
>Next up, you'll probably say "Well, women are too much drama, anyway!".can you stop projecting your retarded mysoginistic stereotypes onto me? i literally never said anything abd about women in my posts but you keep trying to push me as an nlog who hates women. The only time i called you a bitch is because you cant stop being a bitch to me and making retarded narratives about me and my life.
>>2160489its just one guy lel that guy and my ex friend are jealous of eachother so i was having fun comparing him to a less uselles, more rich guy.
>>2160491i am not dating moids
No. 2160514
>>2160448>>2160448>i get called an nlog if i say i have hobbies that are mostly popular with men, not even hinting they are better than hobbies popular with women, just stating a fact. But when i talk about said hobbies here they get called moidish. Out of curiosity what are your "hobbies" because I have a few "male" hobbies but am not a male worshipper like yourself. My job is male dominated but I don't understand your misogynistic logic. The concept of a hobby being "male" or "female" is demented. It's one thing to say a field or hobby is over or underrepresented, it's another to whine about not being able to find friends at all. You're being disingenuous.
>>2160487You're not using the pedofile fetish term "tomboy" (which is understandable) yet you're befriending men, declaring hobbies male only therefore you must only befriend males and calling yourself a term lesbians use exclusively to describe dating preferences. Make it make sense.
No. 2160520
>>2160511>i am not dating moidsso… we're expected to believe that moids are paying for everything and cooking for you yet you're not dating them?
>its just one guy lelso there was never a line of simps after all KEK. everyone who comes here to larp as a Stacy is so obviously virginal
No. 2160521
>>2160511>thats something you projected onto me>I got a line of simps waiting for me who actually buy me shit and dont make me pay for everything. He's actually useful and can cook, unlike you. He's also rich and has green eyes unlike your ugly poop eyes and receeding hairline. I can and will replace you with something better.Choose one and only one.
>i literally never said anything abd about women in my posts >You bitches also suckChoose one and only one.
You're using the word "projection" to deflect. It's not hard to ignore and avoid scrotes who obviously just want to fuck you, you just choose not to. You literally boasted about your line of simps and malded about women here. Enough, lmao, it's not misogyny, this is just how you're acting. "Retarded narrative" but it's all just shit you admitted to.
No. 2160524
>>2160514> what are your "hobbies"warhammer, building modelling kits, war thunder/ace combat.
> I have a few "male" hobbies but am not a male worshipper like yourself. My job is male dominated but I don't understand your misogynistic logic. The concept of a hobby being "male" or "female" is demented. It's one thing to say a field or hobby is over or underrepresented, it's another to whine about not being able to find friends at all. You're being disingenuous.i literally never said it was a male only hobby, cant none of you read? i said it was mostly popular with hobbies. I literally said the same thing you sai about your job, so i guess you are misogynistic too for claiming your job is mostly done by men
> declaring hobbies male only when did i say this? can you retards stop putting words in my mouth
No. 2160527
>>2160520calm down retard i never tried to larp as a stacy, i was just VENTING in the fucking VENT thread and started VENTING without thinking about what i was saying becaus ei am angry, because again, this is the vent thread.
>>2160521the ''you bitches'' was for you, retards. Who keep infighting with me instad of letting me vent in the fucking vent thread. You can snap at me, call me nlog moid worshipper and other shit but when i call you bitches for beign cunts to me unprovoked then suddently i am the misogynist? see how you are projecting hard onto me.
No. 2160535
>>2160527When did I call you NLOG and moid worshiper? Even in that case, have you noticed other anons aren't being called the same thing? Maybe there's something about your behavior.
>muh ventIt's a vent thread, not shoe0nhead diaries. Don't post nonsensical bullshit here and get mad when we say something, it's not that kind of website.
No. 2160560
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I hate having to spend time with my misogynistic dad. He always says the most double standard shit without even a hint of self awareness. While we were waiting for my half brother and his family at a restaurant my dad starting ranting about my half brother's fiance. He always yaps on about how my half brother shouldn't be with a single mom. That she's only with him because he provides for her kids and that if he didn't have any money or worked at McDonald's she wouldn't be with him. Oh but when I dated a guy who worked at a grocery store, my dad told me not to be with him because "he wouldn't be able to provide for you because he doesn't make enough" So which type of moid should we pick in your senile boomer head???
And that's not all. He kept going on about how "She's not a bad person she's just a bad choice. Single mom's are a bad choice." Which is sooooo fucking funny because he was a single dad when he dated my mom and my mom didn't have any children at the time. But in the mind of a retarded scrote, only single moms exist, not single dads. Probably why he felt so comfortable leaving my half brother with his mom even tho she was fucking schizo. He really expected a 10 year old boy to "make the choice of a man" and choose to be with him. lmaooo nice cope you just didn't want to deal with him and you left him so you could be with my mom and start another family. By his logic my mom should have seen him as a bad choice but knowing him he probably felt entitled to her love. After all I was conceived by deceit. My dad poked a hole in the condom after my mom told him she only wanted one child. I fucking despise him I really do. I'm actually glad my mom cheated on him. I would never cheat but scroted like my dad deserve everything bad that happens to them. If there's one thing you can pray about for me, nonnas, is for my dad to die. And yes I mean it. My life would be better off without him and I wouldn't miss him. I'm trying to move out eventually one day but it's so fucking hard. I hate being his daughter.
No. 2160563
>>2160524I know a woman who likes Warhammer 40k and follows the lore collecting the books and figurines, and my sister actually plays War Thunder, it's a rather popular gacha game that occasionally YouTubers promote like world of tanks and raid shadow legends. Wow what a world! I too like some games and media that males by numbers like more then women. I've even been accused of being a male here too like you by mentioning them and getting in depth about the Touhou games for example- yet it didn't force me to befriend and seek out men, funny that?
>so i guess you are misogynistic too for claiming your job is mostly done by menWhen I make a distinction between what you whine about as "male" dominated hobbies and real jobs its meaningful since discrimination is more important than your mindless moid dominated Warhammer shit. Having a lot of males in a fandom is not the same as being actively discriminated from pursuing education and employment, you're acting as if you're actually discriminated for liking warhammer, a fairly mainstream IP, albeit a bit old. You just want to befriend men, which is alright but don't pretend that liking warhammer has you doomed to moid purgatory. You can't complain about men then befriend them mindlessly in the same breath.
No. 2160598
>>2160581It is for PCOS. I’m not sure of the other ways outside of dieting. I’ve heard of supplements that may help but they never state where or how to get them. I just wanted my periods back honestly. I only recently got diagnosed so I’m not sure where to start.
>>2160579For sure, I’ve heard of how it can wreck women inside and out but it’s usually the estrogen ones that are the culprit right?
No. 2160611
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just enrolled in uni after a decade of neeting for shit and giggles
turns out being around teenagers and their cute couples all day is just making me feel depressed
after only one week I've lost all will to even show up
not like I've talked to anyone there anyway, or ever will
thanks for reading my blog
No. 2160619
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>>2160605i know you are anggy
nonny, the break from the farms was hard on everyone, but especially hard on spergs like you and me. You can keep projecting your insecurities onto me, posting pictures of women who did nothing bad to you to make fun of their appereance while claiming you are a feminist, I am going to keep larping as a brazilian man to talk about my hobbies online. mwah kissies goodnight
No. 2160624
>>2160619NTA but if multiple anons are telling you you're retarded, maybe just take the L and do some introspection, retardnona.
> I am going to keep larping as a brazilian man to talk about my hobbiesno more larping as a butch or a Stacy with a hundred simps? please introduce us to the whole DID system one day
No. 2160632
>>2160619Pro-tip: It's not projecting if others are just talking about things you've admitted to.
>I am going to keep larping as a brazilian man to talk about my hobbiesSo you are dropping the simp search? Ok good, don't do something stupid like reveal to them that you're female to try and get them to buy you things, and then come crying to us when things go south.
No. 2160640
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>>2160618*glycemic index, oops
>>2160598Please read my response to the other nonna. I really urge you to look at other ways to remedy pcos without bc. It can be done, nonna.
Dieting is not enough and you will actually make your symptoms worse if you're not eating enough. Look up "Tallene pcos" on youtube, she's a good place to start. She has a lot of self help videos for pcos. Pic related. As for vitamins, look into this website
https://birdandbe.com/collections/pcos-management they have a really nice vitamin pack that has all the vital supplements you need and it's fsa/hsa eligible. There are certain vitamins we have to take and a regular multi vitamin isn't enough. The most help I've received has been from other women with pcos online. Doctors don't give a fuck about us.
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why did i open the null thread
No. 2160648
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>>2160624Just don't reply to her anymore, nonna, she's not like other girls, and we're all like other girls, we're not cool like her, we like makeup and high heels, she likes Warhammer, soccer and politics, she needs to find men like her because she's so male brained, that she doesn't understand how a woman can like anything that isn't hair accessories and nail polish.
She knows she's too cool to socialize with silly little girls who don't understand the deep meaning of life and how we're the ones who are always tearing each other apart, because she knows that a woman's worst enemy is another woman, we're so catty that we have a whole image board dedicated to tearing each other apart nonna, don't you see? We're all literally the worst of the worst.
Cries and hugs my knees, I awooo because it's moonlight, I'm a wolf/fox hybrid, but you can't be a hybrid too because in the only hybrid in this roleplay, it's your turn now, anonancia.
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Finally I can vent! I was on public transit, relatively empty compared to how it can get on this route. Some moid gets my attention. He complimented my tattoos, which would've been fine if he left it there. Then he started saying something and I figured he was asking for directions, because I couldn't quite understand his accent, and he was gesturing at his phone. HE TOOK A PHOTO OF ME REEEEEE. It was edited too, with different lighting. I went "oh…." with a grimace and he asked if I wanted him to delete it, I said yes, but who knows if he actually did.
Then a few days later some woman is facetiming someone (the other persons screen was nearly black, but it was probably her moid, it's always their moid), she had no headphones so when she needed to hear him talk she'd put her phone up to her ear. But every time she did that her camera pointed right at me. So I started death-staring at the screen every time. God I fucking hate when the students all come back to the city.
No. 2160687
>>2160680thanks for understanding
nonny, i need to start using tone indicators. Sometimes i forget we have legit speds itt.
No. 2160692
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>>2160686Now
this is some anger.
No. 2160730
>>2160723Can you stop projecting?
>you're all spergs and autists REEEE!!!! you literally admitted you're such an autist your only friend is a balding misogynistic poorfag kek. And multiple anons made fun of your post, not just one
No. 2160740
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I can’t find the bechdel test so I’ll put this here
>mods getting ready to ban you when they decide to stop posting as a regular farmer in their favorite thread and turn on janny mode when they see your opinion that they disagree with
No. 2160744
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Sibling doesn’t care enough about her pet’s flea infestation that it’s spread to our other pets. I stepped in her room for 45 seconds and 4 fleas jumped on my leg.
She complains that no flea med works so I told her to start manually brushing out her pet alongside with some better meds to get them off quicker but she threw a tantrum.
I can’t do this anymore anons, I want the pet to be okay but I also don’t want to clean up after someone else’s mess because she’s too busy watching TikTok or traveling to brush out her pet once every few days. I feel so dirty and like the gross lice ridden kid in grade school but it feels like it’s not even my fault.
No. 2160778
>>2160760NTA but you're literally the autist, stop projecting onto others, sperg. Nobody took anything at face value, you just lied because you're an attention whore. Same reason you hang out with bald men who end up ghosting you for not being enough of a pickmeisha
>>2160753daily reminder that there's multiple anons here
No. 2160788
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i’m chilling because i don’t fuck scrotes and love women so muchhhh. how does it feel for you hetties knowing a scrote could never bring you your fav box of la croix but only a broken condom and lost dreams?(bait)
No. 2160820
>>2160219Jesus. Sorry you are being dogpiled on, anon. I hope that you will make a cool female friend that has the same interests as you. I definitely think it's better if that moid isn't in your life.
>>2160563>getting in depth about the Touhou games for exampleNona can I ask you how you met your female friends? I want to befriend girls into touhou that aren't troons, I just don't know where to find them since I don't want to use social media much. Actually I'm honestly really curious how every anon here met their best female friends?
No. 2160854
>>2160851Of course
nonnie, but it would probably be better to use the get it off your chest thread so you can really let loose and not have replies.
>>>/ot/1923084 No. 2160862
>>2160828How exactly?
>>2160829Maybe I should join them. I don't really like movies though.
No. 2160890
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>>2160886Omg, that's great! I'm so happy you could support each other through that
No. 2160894
>>2160820fandom spaces
triggered my longest friendships, been in there since I were a kid. I wasn’t even into enstars but I had a friend that was so I just kind of went to their spaces too kek, it’s so niche but so connected. hm… posting on social media and meeting others who have similar fashion tastes, actually a lot of it is finding people who have stuff in common with me, and then becoming mutuals or dming them (even women on reddit kek, usually in the cosier subs after spotting them and interacting with them for a while). honestly i’m internet popular kek, I know so many people. irl, some people just match your vibe, yk? again I approach people who share the same fashion interests or if I come across another lesbian or something. I like just chilling with people I meet (women in particular). and online if you’re socialising with people a lot it’s easy to find lots of female friends
tbh I don’t know why anons act like it’s so difficult No. 2160911
>>2160894>tbh I don’t know why anons act like it’s so difficultWell, from personal experience, when I was in junior high I went through such extreme bullying that I had to change to a school an hour and a half away from my home. I was being beaten, having my stuff stolen, rumours about me doing hard drugs. I was legitimately scared to go to school. That's carried with me, those are formative years socially. I'm not completely socially inept, but I am still completely afraid. It's hard not to get into my own head and convince myself other people hate me. I was abused at home as well, so I just came to the conclusion that it was me. That there is something inherently wrong and unlikable about me. It's a thought that haunts me, really. It makes me feel like I'm worth nothing and like I shouldn't exist. I've built at least one strong online friendship, but my fear keeps me from keeping regular contact with people I really enjoy. Frankly, I've grown up hating myself, and it's not something I've conquered yet.
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>>2160884Thanks nona! I attribute our success to the lack of men in our lives.
My preschool friend actually told her scrote that he wasn’t the most important relationship in her life it would always be her relationship with me kek No. 2160929
>>2160820I met her in uni, we clicked the second we talked to each other, a few minutes later she was already laying her head on my lap and I was playing with her hair while we talked about life.
As of now we talk daily and we meet up at least every weekend.
Such things don't just happen out of nowhere and it's honestly all about being lucky and spergy enough to get a friend who is going to listen to you even if she doesn't share all of the same hobbies with you, like my friend and I have completely different artstyles, completely different music tastes, completely different fashion styles and such, but we get along because we're mature and can listen to the other even of the stuff that's being talked about isn't a perfect match to what we like, and that's the issue with many retards that can't handle a real life conversation with others, not everything is going to be all about your special interests, you don't need to be like a clone of your best friend to consider her a best friend.
Honeslty, it's why I stopped talking to a girl I met in high-school, she would try to make me drop the stuff I liked because she particularly thought it was cringe at the time (now, ironically she has to live off that cringe thing) to thenpoint that she even told me to delete random games off my phone because it wasn't what she wanted me to like, she would try to always talk about her interests and such while ignoring whatever else I wanted to talk about or straight up making fun of the stuff I liked, it was utterly annoying and I'm glad I dropped her like a bag of explosives into the sea.
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The government approved a ban on disposable vapes (totally agree with) and any flavored vape juice (less agree with). I know I should and need to quit nicotine but ahhh I hate it being forced on me. I'll come out better but still ahhhh.
They should've banned cigarettes at the same time if they really cared but they make too much money out of the tobacco tax.
No. 2161083
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>mom's bf has been staring at my butt again
My sister complained about him being creepy at 15, that he always made weird noises, stared too long, made weird noises in the shower etc. However he does chores for my mom and has been with her for over 10 years and often helps us out, plus, he has a daughter of his own. But it's true- I can't brush it off, because I keep catching him staring at my ass when he thinks I'm not looking, and it makes me feel gross. My sister is in uni so doesn't have to deal with it now.
But then I just feel ungrateful for all the things he does for us, even if he is smug and preachy. Family wonder why I don't 'come down and hang out'. That's why. I miss it being just my mom and siblings.
But he makes my mom so happy. So I'll keep it to myself, and study, bide time until I can move out.
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how it feels knowing nobody understands you or is on your wavelength and only few esoteric beings understand what you’re saying
No. 2161113
>>2161093No worries
nonnie i get you, this just normal stuff that girls go through, but it’s still sad. I’m sorry you went through it too.
No. 2161315
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sigh, i learned a few weekends ago per my brother that my mom told him she tried to kill herself when she was about 14 via overdose and her dad (who was generally kind of a deadbeat/still not really ever present in our lives) felt horrible and comforted her over her attempt. on one hand, i gained some respect for him and feel bad about some dark edgy jokes or statements i'd made over the years that were unintentionally hurtful towards her. i only told muh nigel this and would never tell my family but, in spite of not wanting to make this about myself, i am pretty salty over my mom' reactions to me starving myself fairly underweight and cutting from 13 to 19. i got screamed at. i got a very strong negative emotional reaction that made me not want to ever leave my room again nor tell my mom anything about my feelings. my heart hurts that my mom ever wanted to end her life but i can't help but feel sullen over how she got comforted for that and i got in big trouble, shamed, guilted for my bad habits which i tried to hide from her in the first place. i want to keep my relationship with my parents positive so i won't ever confront her on it. but sometimes i get pretty upset that my mom didn't try to level with me when i was going through my issues. i just got yelled at and made to feel even worse. i'm super quiet around extended family because i think everyone thought i was a huge brat growing up. i cried a lot but it was because i felt uncomfortable and misunderstood. so many family pictures of parties where i'm crying and sad. now i realize all the adults must have written me off as a rotten child. i felt that way about myself. i knew i wasn't being treated fairly but couldn't figure out what was wrong. i got branded somehow. i was compared to the disliked women in my family openly to my face. i cried about it for years. it's not fair. my mom had it tough and her mother was a full blown narcissist and scapegoated my mom and her sister was the golden child. it wasn't right that i was unfairly treated as if i were some kind of unhinged brat. i never thought i was better than anyone but when i acted emotional or confused it was twisted into me being bad. i cried after my birthday party once and asked my parents if i was good. they said yeah but i am sure they don't remember. i have always second guessed myself. is it wrong that finding out this information about my mom has made me a little angry and bitter? i desperately wanted comfort over my depression, anxiety, eating disorder, and self harming and i only learned to harden myself, hide, and push others away. and not trust them. and it doesn't make me love my mom any less, and i'm sad she tried to end her life so young too. but, why did i get yelled at and ignored for my struggles? i didn't act unruly then enact those behaviors to get sympathy. i was treated by family and peers at school like i wasn't worth much and i wanted to hurt myself. no one knew what i was going through and i just kept to myself. i hated feeling othered. now i'm sure my family just got a kick out of assuming the worst of me, throughout my life. it's hard watching kids grow up too because i either see them getting branded too, or i'm jealous that they get the "you're amazing" treatment that i didn't get and are socialized normally. no wonder i avoid kids and don't want any of my own.
No. 2161337
>>2161286It's not normal to just get blocked out of nowhere, anon. Even I don't randomly block people and I'm
trigger happy for when it comes to blocking.
Usually people just ghost others unless needed and that's about it.
No. 2161367
>>2161362Time’s a-ticking
nonny, class is almost here! Only 30 minutes left to excavate that turd… 29… 28…. 27……….
No. 2161411
>>2161362Next time try drinking a cup of coffee at least 20 minutes earlier nonna. It always works for me.
Add more fiber and drink more water too. Try getting a stool for the toilet too.
No. 2161425
>>2161203I had a fucking COLLEAGUE ask me if I'm a virgin
wtf
No. 2161426
>>2161083im sorry to be that person but why dont you wear less revealing clothes?
not to blame his staring on you, he's a disgusting pig ofc, but you can't really do much about that so why not just wear extra loose clothes, a dressing gown on top of it
Autumn is coming so it'll keep you warm and comfy too
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>>2161428by "less revealing" i don't mean she wore things that were "revealing" in the first place, but even jeans can be considered "revealing" with how horny men get ; as long as the shape of your body is visible that can get them going
i mean she could wear something that makes it impossible to outline any shape of her body and maybe that'll spare her stares
i hate that i sound like a muslim telling her to wear a burqa right now but you know, i guess the muslims are kind of right to consider men will eye-fuck anything female-shaped, where they're wrong is they are blaming women for it
No. 2161461
>>2161447If men will eyefuck your butt I don't see how it's delusional to cover up so it's undistinguishable
You can keep seething about how men are pigs (they'll still be pigs) or you can walk around in ample clothings when your pervy step dad is around, it's your call
No. 2161464
>>2161431>>2161428>>2161447>>2161461the situation is like someone sakd "oh but a thief got inside my house, but i swear i locked my door!!" and i advised them to get a stronger door, and someone came around and said "uhhh.. excuse me??? are you blamind HER for being stolen??? her door was LOCKED so it's not her fault she was robbed."
well yeah whatever keep getting robbed i guess
(baiting/doubleposting) No. 2161469
>>2161466Clearly she doesn't want to be in conflict with her step father, I mean if yelling at him to get him to stop is an option, sure go for it ; why not do that AND wear a dressing gown, not like options are mutually exclusive.
Nonnie didn't seem like she wanted any conflict but I'm all for putting nasty moids in their place when it's possible.
No. 2161480
>>2161477>those anons gotta find some way she could be at fault for being perved onyeah, it's exactly what i said.
if someone robs your house, and you get advised to get a stronger front door, how is that person "blaming you"? it's just sound advice, i'm sorry
>Stop treating scrotes like they're some kind of dumb ape who can't help sexually assaulting women, they are perfectly capable of restraining themselves.no, they are dumb apes. they're not capable of restricting themselves. that's exactly where we disagree.
i'm not saying apes can't be tamed though, but i don't think going around thinking they can "just" restrict themselves is helpful ; they're just fucking apes
No. 2161500
>>2161495>dressing gown>uncomfortablywhatever i guess
> even if you're dressed like it's -50° outside, scrotes are still gonna scrotemy personal experience is i get catcalled and stared at less the more i'm more covered up, but maybe that's just me
No. 2161505
>>2161500and again that's not saying it's on me that i get catcalled when i'm less covered up, yes it sucks i can't wear cute clothes because that means pigs will assume it's for them, yes the scrotes are disgusting and disrespectful misogynistic pigs ; but that's just how it IS
you have to deal with what the world IS not what it should be
if you get something stolen, it's on the thief, your phone peeking out your pocket isn't you "asking for it" to be stolen, and the world would be great without thiefs, and i'd love not to have to mind my phone every second i'm outside, but in the meantime you better hide it better
No. 2161510
Seeing so much stuff about Gaza is making me insensitive or annoyed about it, like when you hear a joke over and over and it stops being funny/make sense. Shit down there has been happening since Israel was founded and people are saying stuff like "Stop the massacre!! This has been happening for decades!!" But they're the ones acting like they discovered this right now.
Every fucking thread online that gets big has a gofundme page for Gaza and it's getting annoying real quick. That stuff has been happening since before I was born, it's no news, more like normal and expected, it isnt shocking anymore. The more I grow up, the more I start being careful about what I stand for and where my money goes and I wouldnt give a cent to muslim countries nor israelis. They both can rot. I don't care, that money doesn't make a difference anyway, because even if they get out, where do they go? Why aren't nearby countries doing shit?
I don't even want to get political, but I feel that only money wont solve shit, they're gonna get bombed anyway and people can't support an entire country by gofundmes alone
No. 2161511
>>2161469The thing is that he will prey on her no matter what. It’s bs to tell a woman to cover up in order to not be sexualized, men sexualize ANYTHING, you could be covered from head to toe and it wouldn’t make a difference, especially if god forbid you have even a little bit of curves. Nonna should also be free to be comfortable in her own house.
Ugh this reminded me once again how much I hate men.
No. 2161512
>>2161510>I don't care, that money doesn't make a difference anyway, because even if they get out, where do they go? Why aren't nearby countries doing shit? More like because the people behind the gofundmes usually keep like 70% in their pockets
Don't ever give money to people pretending to do good, either give directly to a gazaoui that you personally know either don't give
Besides you already have your own shit to deal with
No. 2161513
>>2161511But like every nonna is acting like covering up doesn't make a flying difference?
Like, you're telling me a man's staring isn't going to be ANY different whether you're wearing skinny jeans than or an ample gown?
Isn't that a bit delusional?
No. 2161519
>>2161513It will make a difference, I’m not denying that, but I’m saying that if her stepfather is a perv, he’ll perv on her , it won’t stop.
Besides that, what was nonna even wearing, what is considered covering up? Should she only wear full baggy gowns and baggy sweaters?
No. 2161529
>>2161510The thing is that most of it is performative, you see these bunch of people who have flags in their bio, who repost and maybe protest in the safety of their countries.
Supporting Palestine is a good cause, I believe in it in the sense that no person should ever live in precarious conditions and at risk during war. But I also think that it has become a trend among youngsters rather than activism, look at how antisemitism is on the rise right now in fact.
The people who shout “free Palestine!” hardly care about other conflicts around the world. Just like any other trend it will pass without solving anything, we had BLM before, Ukraine after and now there’s Palestine. Give it another year and there’ll be something else to talk about.
The sad truth is that civilians can’t do jack shit for other countries, it’s all in the hands of the governments. What fuels all these wars is interest and money and as long as they exist we will never have peace.
Tim and Anne protesting at their school hardly does anything when their government fuels wars. Boycotting Starbucks hardly does anything when a fat portion of your tax money is invested to fuel wars. It’s the same as that US soldier who set himself on fire in order to protest, it didn’t do jack shit.
No. 2161535
>>2161528It's a
valid point, covering up could make a difference for some people, but the nonnies that say it isn't right have recht also, that you shouldn't have to creep around in your own home. I know you weren't meaning to say that it was right to have to creep around, just offering a solution, I appreciate the sentiment. I wish I could just be myself, being my comfy self isn't for the male gaze at all, I know you weren't implying that either, it's just sad to have to be aware of it.
He does stare even when I'm dressed normally, baggy clothes, covered up, so I'm really just biding time until I can move out. I miss hanging out with my mom.
I'm sorry such a discussion has become heated and misinterpreted, and am thankful to the people that listened, I can't tell anyone irl this, he makes my mom happy so I keep quiet, so I am thankful to have a place here.
The thing that confuses me the most is that he has a daughter he doesn't seem to creep on. I really thought men with daughters were innocent.
No. 2161554
>>2161535Nonna I hope you can move out soon enough, I’m sorry you’re in such a difficult place, it’s like you’re between a rock and a hard place because you do love your mom (although I still think that it’s the responsibility of the parent to not bring a creep around their child) on one side but on the other you also don’t feel safe and comfortable.
> The thing that confuses me the most is that he has a daughter he doesn't seem to creep on.That’s because she is his daughter, there are some men who do prey on their daughters too, but most of them don’t , but still prey on girls and women of the same age. It really doesn’t mean anything that he has a daughter.
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this is why I absolutely can’t read or stand nigelfags anymore, it’s like living outside of ignorance and being too enlightened of the male-female prison and there are women who actively want you to stay trapped in it, they want you to stay trapped being raped, abused, mistreated, seen as lesser than just so they can live a fucking delusional tale. there’s nothing about what i say that is “mental illness” because that’s typical of scrote detractors calling observations of reality mental illness, but i’m the scrote because i see the lies and illusions falling apart? every single feminist writer or those who have wrote about the male condition in a fictional/nonfictional way have pretty much agreed that women also help keep the patriarchy alive and some love to do it while letting you insidiously drown in it just so they can live their picket fence family psychosis, we’re in a new fucking era and not much people will be able to survive it because it’s a war on information and most people don’t give a shit about seeking beyond it and coming to their own conclusions, just what’s constantly spoonfed to them like baby food
No. 2161591
>>2160820>Jesus. Sorry you are being dogpiled on, anon. I hope that you will make a cool female friend that has the same interests as you. I definitely think it's better if that moid isn't in your life.Lol no they deserve to be "dogpilled", you're being far too forgiving. They used some strangely iffy language that some took umbridge with to like butch and seem to ignore the intricacies of the shit they claim to like lol. War thunder in particular is incredibly popular, since it's a gacha game. Another good point is males tend to sour interest in things with pornrot and horrific shit hence me squeamish from them mentioning "2hus". Some of us have tried to engage in a hobby and males have convinced us to never engage with them again. I can appreciate wanting female friends but you don't need external validation for a hobby period.
>>2160563Nona can I ask you how you met your female friends? I want to befriend girls into touhou that aren't troons, I just don't know where to find them since I don't want to use social media much.
I don't have friends who like touhou, I only said I like it. Ive played the games since I was a preteen, its not really a passing hobby of mine nor something I share with others much since its an insular singleplayer game after all. Males taint anything with women or girls in it so I'd rather not seek out moid validation for something I've appreciated most of my life. I said I have a friend who follows Warhammer and a sister who plays war thunder seeing as op said those things are nearly male exclusive, this isn't true. She did not really have much to say about this unsurprisingly other than she liked "2hus" too. I don't really need appeasement or validation from other people about a game series or something I like. I enjoy it as an insular thing since the community is tainted by male bullshit. I enjoy the writing, gameplay and music. I also don't call it 2hus or whatever the male worshipper op called it that male communities of pedofiles call it. I'm talking about the actual game, not the male idea of the game and their extended gross fandom.
>Actually I'm honestly really curious how every anon here met their best female friends?Uni and work, but my sister is my closest friend to me. I'm open to a friend who likes the touhou games who isn't a subhuman male. It's incredibly rare to find anyone who actually plays them and doesn't just gawk at the disgusting male vocal communities shit. To me their post arose a point of difference between a naive attention seeker (from men) and trend follower and someone who enjoys something out of genuine enjoyment and appreciation. While I find it alien to need to have a community of yes men to enjoy a hobby, I can understand wanting female friends. I'm not sure if this is more suitable in the friends finder thread.
No. 2161720
The internet brainrot that nearly every younger millennial and gen z person has is legitimately an issue. It’s so fucking weird that I’m technically more chronically online than even most gen zers, yet I am capable of speaking with my own and varying verbiage and having my own opinions and hobbies that don’t neatly fit into some core while they just are not, apparently. I’ve been trying so hard to make friends my age, and every time I meet someone I think I can click with we go to hang out and it’s them trying to farm me/us for content. Or they have TikTok level opinions that they express word for word in the same way, and when challenged or asked to elaborate they can’t or want to link you some video or Reddit post. And we can’t just hang out and be normal, it’s always gotta be “a vibe” and if it is, they will say nothing the whole time except about what a vibe this is, we’re in our cottage core era, hold up let me take a pic to send in 5 group chats and post on insta because we’re such girls’ girls living our brats girl summer, girlie pop! It’s always such mundane shit too. Were sitting on a park bench eating strawberries, not at the met. I’m all for romanticizing your life but somehow I don’t think this is that. God, I really wish I were exaggerating
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>>2161703brene brown has a book for women on it, i can't recall specifics but i think it was good!
No. 2161730
>>2161711Anything under the sun. Mistakes, feelings, bad thoughts, the fact that I'm struggling with imaginary monsters, anything in my mind bothers me. Engaging with my hobbies just act as a distraction from the feeling and the voices.
>>2161721Thanks nona, I'll give it a read.
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I feel like I'm going nuts. My wokebro willie brother has started going on dates with trans women and goes on tirades about how "cis wamen" never put out for him and and how they are frigid. He talks about how much easier it is to talk to guy dudes and trans women and how much chemistry he has with them. I think be might be gay or bi. I just need to get a job and move out. Some of the things he says about women is so abhorrent. The worst part is, I've been forced to spend so much of my life playing caretaker to an absolute narc golden child. I wish I focused on my career and future instead of being a damaged wreck when I should have been more productive. Pushing 40 with the typical ADHD shut-in resume with $20 in my bank account sucks. My brother on the other hand built a finance career and is easily on the path to 7 figures and is 8 years younger than me. I wish I weren't mentally ill, taking in all my family's anger and feelings and being paralyzed when I should have acted, reactive when I should have kept quiet and impulsive when I should have exercised restraint.
No. 2161895
>>2161845Well, he's definitely bi, if not fully gay, which is more likely. The reason he's going on tirades about hating women is that he was probably always gay, and internet brainrot has finally given him permission to be a fag, under the guise of dating trans "women." Sorry he's so annoying. He's probably already got multiple STDs.
Also you can't change the past, but you can alter your future. You should move out, even if you get a wagie job. It would be healthier for you than staying where you are. And get some distance between you and your brother. You said you were mentally ill in your post, but he seems far more mentally ill than you.
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so I totaled my mother's newly paid off car a few months back. was borrowing it to help a friend move, fell asleep at the wheel, woke up when a junker someone had parked on the street stopped it, with my foot jammed down on the accelerator like I was trying to die. I wasn't, then, but since I've been wondering if maybe I was supposed to; life's been shit and I'm nothing but a mutilated pile of broken promises and wasted potential anyway (point and laugh at the detransing expooner, everybody! if you're entertained its continued existence has some meaning!). yeah that was me asking Sanic if I should've died in April and the "answer" made me laugh for a lot longer than it should have at least insurance paid enough that she bought herself a nice new midsize SUV and only owes three grand on it but my god I have been nothing but pain and disappointment to the woman who raised me and I know going inpatient again won't fucking help - I really should have fucking died and I don't understand why I didn't. (The how is just "modern cars are designed to save lives", which was at least fatally disappointing to the last scrap of belief in fate I had! So some part of me successfully died, there's that at least!)