[ Rules ] [ ot / g / m ] [ pt / snow / w ] [ meta ] [ Server Status ]

/ot/ - off-topic

File(20 MB max)
Password (For post deletion)

The results are in! Click here to see the winners of the 2023 Lolcow Awards!

File: 1525988939010.jpg (112.35 KB, 1135x893, sad_shinji.jpg)

No. 248827

Last thread >>239880

Be sad here

No. 248830

File: 1525989579906.jpg (10.13 KB, 320x312, 30594222_1023667257784057_6588…)

Sometimes I am happy that I am not as ugly as say, a Slaton sister or Shaygnar or whatever, but then I remember I am just a few levels above. I hate PCOS and I hate society for making me believe I should be pretty above all else. I was such a happy kid.

No. 248832

I want to have real friends but I have no idea how to make those outside school. I kind of regret I didn't learn how to make and keep friends in a healthy way in my teens but fuck I can't really blame myself for being emotionally stunted.
At least I'm going to therapy now, so let's see if that helps.
Feeling lonely sucks ;_;

No. 248836

File: 1525992250363.jpg (66.79 KB, 500x602, tumblr_inline_p73dsfYoaA1stl91…)

I miss my ex-boyfriend even though we were absolute garbage to eachother.

No. 248838

I wish I weren't so autistically nervous around men. Doesn't matter the guy but cute men are especially troubling. Eye contact becomes a weird mix of look away, don't look away, and I don't know what to say to them when they try talking to me. I'm not good with being social in general but girls are generally easier for me to be comfortable around.

No. 248839

If he treated you like garbage and you guys didn't get along, then what's there to miss? The drama?

No. 248849

File: 1526005013673.jpg (30.69 KB, 1024x589, 0564e4a48f70097a56872203d28f64…)

I wish I could just buy a boyfriend.

I'd pay someone to pretend to be my bf just like an escort then take him to meet my parents and friends, take some pics together to prove my 'taken' status and never actually having to do anything.

I've never felt like having a relationship or cared about sex all that much, the reason I want a bf is because I care a lot about what people think and I'm just tired of being hit on and disrespected by men. Thinking about being with guys I know make me physically cringe tho, I'm not attracted to women either.

No. 248856

just make one up and buy yourself a fake engagement ring.

No. 248859

> because I care a lot about what people think
That's your problem, right there, anon. Fuck what other people think.

No. 248863

Some people were complaining that the Asian rapper Awkwafina acts "too black" which is "appropriation" even though she grew up in Queens and picked up her accent from where she lived. Meanwhile if black girls like Micky who grew up in the suburbs act ghetto it's totally fine. Sureee

No. 248916

Just wait for the virtual husbando revolution. Like Joi from BR2049, but Boi.

No. 248921

File: 1526057874869.jpg (605.07 KB, 969x1080, 1508891505069.jpg)

My ex was garbage and I miss them so much.
It's such a melancholic feeling, I have no clue why I want them at all, they ruined me.

It's sort of funny too, whenever they wont leave my head I just watch NGE.

No. 248944

I'm annoyed because my bf can't stick to a plan to save his life. We were supposed to have friends over at our place tomorrow for his birthday party. He asked me to bake a cake and everything, so I did and I invited our friends over just like we had planned. And then suddenly today he was just like "oh I'm gonna go visit my family I dont know when I'll be home."
And I'm just over her like, what? We're going to be having your birthday party and you don't know when youre coming? Why would you agree to a party and then not attend it? I don't get it.

No. 248947

That's annoying but if you enjoy the other people's company I say get lit and have a party.

No. 248954

tbf that's likely his family's fault and not his. families are really fucking annoying about birthdays and tend to plan stuff without telling you, but also insist you go. so even if he sucks at sticking to plans normally, there's likely a bit of that in there.

No. 248959

File: 1526071249706.gif (974.47 KB, 500x281, 1454669099371.gif)

My boyfriend's family's super disorganized and tend to just plan shit a few days before and make him go. For example, we were supposed to go to a con together with a bunch of my other friends and suddenly his family decides to go on a three-week trip to BC. I get that you might not have much choice when you're still living with them but it was real annoying to hear. I'm still going to enjoy my time with friends but uuuugh.

No. 248960

File: 1526071456351.png (480.37 KB, 507x430, 1503737917195.png)

I want to finally slowly start outing myself to my friends and family as lesbian and how I have loving gf and how precious she is to me, just like everyone does it.
Only worry is my mother who thinks having gay child is disgrace and failure as a mother. Like it would be starting a war with her and probably her side of family avoiding me, but I don't even really care I am not even close in any way with them, seeing them once a year.

No. 249032

I was angry when I wrote my original post but I've calmed down now and realize it's not such a big deal. We're going to just start the party without him but hold off on the cake until he gets home.
I guess I was more annoyed by the fact that this is a recurring problem with him, like for example he never wants to reserve anything or buy tickets beforehand for anything because he's always changing his plans on the go. Whereas I'm a bit of a control freak and prefer to make reservations whenever possible even when they're not required. Plus I always end up having to wait for him because he's always like "this'll take 5 minutes" and it'll always take like 45 minutes… he sometimes makes our friends wait too which I hate even more, like I start to feel embarrassed as if it's my fault… bleh.

No. 249152

NTA but how do you get over this? I'm constantly preoccupied with what others think about me and am always secretly hoping to receive some sort of approval.

No. 249155

My boyfriend told me he was excited to come home and spend time with me, only to like forget about it completely and ended up playing videogames with his mates all night (which I don't mind at all)
But I am starting to feel like I am the second option when it comes to most things, maybe I'm just a little autistic and overthinking.

No. 249158

Bf sounds like a dick. That’s not ok. It’s disrespectful of you and your time

No. 249176

File: 1526171326394.jpg (7.94 KB, 259x194, download.jpg)

Living with my bf is like living with a teenager when it comes to chores and domestic responsibilities. The only thing I can say for him is that he pays rent on time and does his own laundry sometimes without my asking–although the loads occupy the machines for days.
I can't rely on him to tidy, clean, or do anything else without a prompt. And sometimes even when I ask he half asses things.
It's always
>I forgot.
>I'll do it later.
>I did it already (no)
>It didn't look that bad to me
These sound like passive aggressive excuses teenagers make to get their parents to do their chores.

Today I woke up and the kitchen was absolutely skanky.
I fell asleep on the couch, but bf stayed up to play video games until at least 6am.
Did he use any of that time to do dishes or even put away condiments from dinner? N-O.
He left it knowing I would do it.
Uncapped condiment bottles, trash not taken out, unwashed cookware and utensils, unran dishwasher, filthy counters, filthy stovetop, unswept floor, part of the fridge that he broke off days ago still lying about, rotting leftovers bf said he'd eat, and the list goes on.

I'm a very clean person and bf knows this shit triggers me. Foolishly, I used to try cleaning everyday but it just caused me to have a mental breakdown cause the place would be pigged up by the next day anyway. So I try not to be a "nag"; letting the place go for a day or two but by a couple days of being cool I expect cleaning shit to be together. But no. Obviously this doesn't work out 9 times out of 10.
So I spent my entire morning cleaning before work.
To be clear–if I was some spoilt bitch who stayed at home and spent hubby's paychecky I might be okay with being his maid. However I work 40 hours, and would like to actually relax when I'm home but I digress…

I had to touch, handle, and smell such gross shit that I was cussing a storm while doing so all out of frustration. Bf heard me but didn't come into the kitchen until 1pm because he knew the state had pissed me off.

When he finally came in I had a loud, angry tone towards him. I told him to take out the trash and scrub the bin with bleach because it was nasty from him having put garbage in there (""""accidentally"""") without a liner and ignoring it.
He said "Well you don't have to yell."
He doesn't have to spend every waking moment at home playing video games!!
In fact, he could proactively help out by doing small tasks and chores so things don't buildup so badly in the first place!

I should have said that but all I could think to reply with was to not invalidate my feelings by policing my tone.
My mother would have HAD MY ASS if I so much as left a dish in the sink, and then have an attitude about her scolding me? I would have been dead where I stood.

I hate how he takes such a victim stance when I'm rightfully angry and he's too uncomfortable to admit he's wrong. He does the task but never apologizes for what this shit does to me mentally. Then he tries to butter me up and get touchy with me after but I get too disgusted because I know that's all manipulation.

I just hate it. Our relationship would be fine otherwise if he was motivated and not a slob with excuses.

No. 249177

My bf just broke up with me out of nowhere for something he knew about since we first started dating several months ago.

Feels angry, sad, bad. Wish I had someone to talk to but at the same time don't want to burden others with my problems.

Wish I could just go into a coma and wake up a year from now. Also wish I wouldn't place so much importance on romantic relationships.

No. 249178

Your boyfriend sounds like my ex-fiancé. Apparently I was the biggest nag because I found filth triggering and wasn't impressed that he emptied the bins once every 2 weeks. Either get him on board with pulling his weight or ditch him he sounds incredibly selfish and immature. You'll be stuck being his mother. For 2 years my ex was unemployed and sat all day while I was at work for 40 hours a week playing video games. Never once did I come home to a prepared meal or a tidy home. Most days he would go to his ma's for lunch and only return home when he knew I was in. At the weekends when I finally had free time he would arrange trips away camping with his mates 'for a break'. I dumped him in 2014 and he still hasn't got a decent job and lives at his parents. I doubt he is ever going to move out.

No. 249182

My boyfriend and his sister are very close, and honestly, when they are together they can be pretty mean. It's mostly his sister.

I guess sometimes our personalities don't match. She's incredibly outward and aggressive, and very self-centered. I'm very passive. There's a lot of little things that get between us. She can often be very harsh with me and it hurts my feelings, but I can't confront her about it because I'm afraid of her (she tends to be very confrontational and is not opposed to yelling at people and insulting them all in the name of "honesty". So I tend to talk about my feelings to my boyfriend, and he often isn't much help because he doesn't know how to talk about feelings. So usually I end up feeling stuck and alone. I don't want to bad-mouth his sister but I don't know what to do about it.

Today, I wasn't feeling well so I sent them a message that I was sorry I couldn't go out with them tonight, and that I just wanted to let them know I love them and care about them very much. They completely ignored my message and just went on talking. I felt pretty bad about it and said that to my boyfriend. He brushed me off and said that they are just not "emotionally receptive". Am I crazy that it's pretty rude to not say anything back to a person when they tell you they care about you? Or am I just blowing everything out of proportion?

I know this seems overblown, but there are a lot of little things every day like this that drive me crazy. I am currently organizing a first meeting with a therapist because I can't seem to regulate my emotions and I want to learn more positive coping mechanisms. They make me feel like a crazy person, to be perfectly honest, and are the main reason why I'm seeking a therapist.

I could feel my emotions rising after I talked to my bf and I got mad and was pretty passive aggressive about tonight. I feel bad for being passive aggressive, but I don't know how to apologize when I'm still upset. I want to tell my boyfriend I'm sorry, but I'm not sure how. I am currently just not touching my phone because I don't want to talk to him while I'm still mad. I am nervous they are talking badly about me behind my back right now and I don't know what to do.

No. 249183

Unfortunately, men (and just people in general) expect others to be their maids. It's not only just our boyfriends/fiances/husbands; lazy people will expect you to clean up after them, and will act like you are an insane, raging harpy because you spend every waking moment cleaning up their filth and have the audacity to ask them to lend a hand with it.

I really believe it's just that people who developed good cleaning habits and a strong sense of ethic will be exploited and manipulated by people who would willingly live in pig stys, if they were so allowed. Ever since I moved out at 18, I have been the "maid" of the house. My mother and father instilled in me the importance of cleanliness; not only for health and hygiene, but also if you keep things clean and well cared for, they will last longer and you will save money. So when I began living with people whose mothers cleaned up after them their whole lives (or just never bothered to make them do chores,) I ended up picking up all the slack.

It's physically and mentally exhausting to constantly pick up after the people around you, and receive not thanks but spite. I can't believe that my roommates would constantly complain about me having to move the chairs to sweep, or that I would take dirty dishes from around the house to clean them. I have given up on asking for help, even from my boyfriend. I feel so defeated.

I know this isn't helpful to either of you, but just know that you are not alone in your struggle. I have so much more empathy for my mom now.

No. 249192

Stepping back from the situation, I think I am honestly a little crazy. I think I'm emotionally unstable and I really don't want to be.

I just emailed the therapist I want to work with. I truly don't want to be such a crazy piece of garbage. I need to be better than this.

No. 249204

Fuck anon, I'm sorry you went through that nonsense. The part about him going camping with his mates for a "break" is the worst–like bitch, break from what you don't work! Lol.

Although mine acts eerily similar. Every moment he's not at work he's either plopped in front of the tv/phone with games, or he's out with his friends drinking, trivia, and/or karaoke.
I mean if I asked him to cancel his plans for time with me he would, but of course that still makes me look bad and controlling.

I just don't know what these men are trying to escape from exactly? I'd be more understanding if he worked a super demanding job, with long hours, and had a lot of extraneous responsibilities outside work.
But he's a bartender at a restaurant and sometimes doesn't work a full 40 a week. If he feels under pressure then I don't know where the fuck from that's so unusual from what I, or any other normal person, feels. Yet I still manage to not be messy as do most other people.

I think this anon >>249183 is on to something about lazy people always finding someone to low key manipulate.

Anyway, I know there's not really a lot of answers to my situation but it makes me feel better to know I'm not alone in all this. I thank you for the replies, I feel a bit less bad now.

No. 249213

I don't think you're crazy anon. Being someone who's extremely passive myself, I can understand why you're hurt by their actions.
I don't think it's fair for your boyfriend to not care about your feelings just because it's his sister.
There was no reason to ignore you and brush off your feelings because they're "not emotionally receptive". That's bullshit and you're not crazy for thinking that they were rude, because they were. It sounds like they just use that as an excuse because they're assholes who don't give a shit and don't want to change.
A therapist will be good, especially since you said you were feeling very alone. Hopefully they can help you with the problems you're facing, and I hope your boyfriend and his sister can realize that they hurt you and apologize. I'd keep pushing how you feel, because he needs to recognize that he either treats you with respect and acts like he gives a shit, or you should leave and find someone who won't make you feel alone.
Also, don't apologize. You're not the one who should.

No. 249219

Thanks for your response, anon. It feels better to have someone who understands.
He sent me a message saying he was sorry that he hurt my feelings and he feels terrible that I feel so sad sometimes, and asked what he could do to help me. He's generally sweet and tries to see my side of things. I think he's just a bit emotionally stupid.
I don't think his sister will apologize, though. She does stuff like be rude or hurtful to me often and she's never apologized. (Most of the girls in our friend group are like this, and it makes me feel very awkward.)

It's nice to know that someone else doesn't think I'm crazy. I honestly think that it's mostly his sister who I have the most problems with. She's so aggressive and competitive and she usually talks to me like she's talking down to me. I really want to be her friend, but it's been difficult.
Even one of my other friends has told me that she acts very strangely around me and my boyfriend; my friend said she noticed that every time my bf gave me attention, his sister would pull him away and try to get him to pay attention to her instead. It's a very weird thing and I don't understand how to deal with her.

Thanks for telling me I should keep pushing my feelings. It's really hard for me to think I deserve to be respected and treated like I matter by anyone.

I'm sorry, I know I'm rambling. This is why I'm seeking therapy, haha. There's so much going on in my head and it's hard to put together. Thanks again, anon.

No. 249222

Also, I'm sorry but I'm getting very stressed out talking about this, so I won't be responding after this post. Good luck to all of you anons. You are all good and you deserve to feel better.

No. 249237

I'm anon that dumped fiancé do not feel sad for me. I moved on and got a place for myself and met a man that lives by himself and knows how to clean. We've been dating over 3 years and it's honestly so refreshing to not resent your partner. He even makes me dinner and gives me massages when I'm stressed.

Don't settle for selfish people they'll just fuck up your head.

No. 249240

File: 1526213325327.jpg (44.41 KB, 500x638, 37f4266197dc914860f26528f7f228…)

Welp, stayed up all night watching weight loss youtube videos.

It got me browsing through my folders of old cell phone pictures I saved from 2014-2016.
I was 100 pounds lighter then. Super active, I ran and went to the gym regularly. I never ate because I was happy and not stressed. I had just spent the previous two years losing 80 pounds. Also finished my grad program and had a lot of hope, a lot of free time too.

A couple years and a soul-suckin', sedentary job later, mixed with some depression and anger, and I'm saying hello to the obesity train again. Toot toot.
I think I've lost a collective total of ~400 pounds throughout my life and I've rebounded every pound and then some.

The sad part is recalling how I thought of myself at the time when the old photos were taken. l remember thinking I was a fat sack of shit and being so self-conscious, when undeniably it was my peak. I was healthy. I had no logical reason to feel that negatively, and now I wish I could go back to that tomorrow. But I can't, it's too late and now any progress will take another series of years.
Yet it's getting to the point where I'm miserable, again, and hate how I look, again, and facing the choice of either losing weight or committing sudoku…again. There really isn't a choice unless I wanna say 'fuck everything' and wind up on My 600 Pound Life eventually.

I downloaded the myfitness app again, but I still hate myself. It all feels like a silly game that I play myself with.
Maybe I'd feel less lonely and hopeless if I had a solid support system. Or maybe a fellow fattie to talk to?

Bf acts indifferent about my weight because he loves me, but doesn't try to actively be sexual with me anymore unless he comes home plastered, which I refuse. And I mean, I feel gross naked regardless of the fluff he tells me.

My parents are both overweight since they've quit smoking cigs, but they're trying to get better too. They mean well, but they don't set good examples and they always downplay my feelings about my weight because they're christian and think that looks don't matter. Whilst society and life screams at my face that looks do matter.
At that–I'm the only one in the family that's ever lost a significant amount of weight so there's no advice they could give me. They actually believe in a lot of myths.

Friends (esp people who first knew me when I was thin after weight loss) have ghosted me these days. Mostly because I shut myself in the apartment when I'm not at work, and my no-life work schedule makes that easier to achieve. A friend of mine tried to make me feel better and told me how I'm such a nice person and great friend, because when she first met me I was "so pretty" that she thought I was mean and stuck up. It's well-intentioned, but I couldn't help but smirk at the backhanded implication that I was no longer pretty and thus she felt less threatened around me. Ouch.

Other times I get unsolicited advice or weird fad bullshit, "Hey anon, try these pills that make you shit to lose weight!" All I can do is meekly say t-thanks lest I look like an ungrateful, know it all fatty fatso.

I know how to lose weight and I know what to do.
I just hate myself too much. Maybe subconsciously I'm not convinced I'm worth it. Maybe I can't deal with stress and how my life's turned out career-wise so I binge eat to feel better.
I'm not sure.

No. 249241

Oh anon, I have been struggling with weight as well lately. I managed to lose weight around 2011 and stayed like this until 2015. After that, everything basically went to shit. I didn't gain toomuch, but it's noticeable and it makes me feel very, very bad about myself. I started trying to lose it but it's hard. All these years, I stopped eating when I was stressed, and now… I suddenly started eating because it helped me coping. Not good.

It's a shitty thing that your friend said. It's not good for you to stay in the apartment all day. It's also because your fridge and all your food is there too. I tend to overeat when I stay at home. I don't know how the weather conditions in your region are, but have you tried playing PoGo? It helped me shed weight and was a good and fun way to go out. I even met some people through it.

No. 249270

every depressed, decaying neet, suicidal/morbidly fat person on this site has a fricking boyfriend lmao. This is always a shock to me because i get a picture from their preceding description that they're someone nobody would have any desire for, or be willing to put up with. I can only conclude that these boyfriends, while not really loving you, are hanging around out of laziness and enable your self-destruction. If the cosy, long term loveless boyfriend went away, you think you'd kill yourself but probably you wouldn't you'd actually feel an incentive to lose weight, get fit and get a new boyfriend on a better basis.

No. 249282

On a rampage there, aren't ya?
You sound…jealous.

No. 249295

I hope that's a joke. I can't word it right but i'm just trying to say that these anons are being killed by kindness, but that kindness is really more like ?? I dunno? what is the point of the relationship between the fat anon and her partner who isn't attracted to her anymore? where can it go? Why did the other anon support her bf for two years while he wasn't working or doing any cleaning? I'm not jealous I'm completely bemused by the relationships described on this site that persist because people forget themselves.

>>249240 this anon's bf is too scared to dump her but she should dump him and realise she's got a life that's her responsibility and reward

No. 249302

I agree, you have horrible articulation.

Secondly, there's absolutely no reason to call or assume anon's relationship is "loveless."
You honed in on two sentences about anon's relationship out of that entire vent, and then made up a conspiracy about how guys are only around women to covertly destroy their persons. How does that make sense? And that's a whole lotta assumption regardless.
>What's there to a relationship if you don't have sex?
You're more entertaining than you think, anon. Maybe when you grow up you'll find the answers to these questions instead of being edgy on lolcow.

No. 249312

File: 1526229749338.jpg (9.62 KB, 275x264, 1523815636815.jpg)

My bf is Chinese-Canadian and my mom is flipping a tit because "they make terrible husbands" and "who knows what kind of diseases they may have". Somehow I'm not surprised, but it's 2018 and she defends Muslims all the fucking time yet says shit like this.

No. 249313

>what kind of diseases they may have
Like, STI's or hereditary diseases? Either way that's ridiculous.

Sorry for you, anon.

No. 249314

STIs, Hepatitis, that kind of thing apparently.

No. 249315

Hey dickface, I can tell you why I stayed with someone for 2 years while he was a lazy cunt. Because I had to keep on top of my job, be social with my friends and family. It's exhausting dealing with someone so selfish and lazy that sometimes it was easier to just get on with life than completely uproot all our foundations (we were engaged planning for a future, at one point we were obviously in love).

Perhaps if you didn't have such a toxic mindset you could get close to a person and figure out that normal people are empathetic and give others chances.

Are you also bemused I started dating someone not selfish, who has a high paying engineer job and cooks me dinner and cleans after himself? Guess since I'm not a piece of shit I was able to naturally move on and find someone better for me. I guess experiences are really important, hopefully you'll have at least one fling before you die alone.

No. 249317

File: 1526232853224.jpg (79.66 KB, 960x611, IMG_9485.JPG)

I used to be the smartest kid in my class, from elementary school all the way to high school and I have an IQ above 130. But that doesn't mean anything anymore, because I'm in fucking medschool and even though my dream is to become a child psychiatrist it's destroying my life.

I had to do my first year twice (which is common in my country, because that first year is hell on earth with only a 15% success rate) and it's like it's blasted my brains. Ever since, I've had an awful time focusing on things. I've been suffering from depression for now almost 3 years and it's driving me insane. I'm currently in my second 3rd year because I missed too many finals the first time. I got in a psych ward earlier this year and while it helped me not killing myself, it didn't do much more. I feel like a disgusting slug unable to study for more than 1 hour a day and it's stressing me the fuck out. Plus my dad says I'm going to be expelled if I cant study more (which is false, thank god my uni is not that harsh, but is still awful to hear everyday).
I work at the hospital 3 mornings per week. While my patients usually like me, I can never get along with my classmates and I don't know how to make friends. The only friends I have live 700 km away from me.

I don't know what to do anymore. It feels like my brain is nothing more than scrambled eggs and I feel like neither my psychiatrist and therapist understand how much pain I'm in. I don't want to end it? I just don't want to suffer anymore.

No. 249318

and now for something completely different, i have been extremely sick (lol, food poisoning on steroids it seems?) and this is the first day i had a "proper" meal without feeling like vomiting the entire apt. thanks canada for your shit healthcare system, i would love to see a dr without waiting for months.

No. 249319

The people who think of themselves as progressive are usually super closet racists.
Just remember, it's not her boyfriend, as much as she will try to tell you otherwise.

No. 249322

File: 1526235323646.gif (2.17 MB, 286x210, 1460034359616.gif)

It's gonna be ramadan soon. It sucks because while I'm north African and living in Europe, I never considered myself Muslim but everyone assume I am, so a lot of Muslims are going to ask me why I'm not fasting, or will yell at me if I don't fast, or even insult me or threaten me if I eat in public. It's going to be annoying at best, and since these assholes just dont know how to mind their own business and think asking very personal questions is polite and good small talk, they'll maybe try to ask me about things like if I'm not fasting because I'm on my period or if I have health problems, and if so, what those problems could be, etc. It'll be a pain in the ass because during that time I'll either work and I'll have to eat during breaks or I'll be on holidays and I'll want to go out with friends and maybe go to restaurants. I don't know if anyone here will be in that situation too, if so then complain with me, I feel like I'm the only one in that situation sometimes.

At work there are a lot of moderate Muslims who will fast, so I'm sure they will be awful at work because of the heat, the fatigue and the fact that they won't eat and drink all day long, so it'll be even worse than the previous years too, now that I think about it. I hope nobody will pass out because of their stupid behavior.

No. 249324

>says Canada's health system is shit

Do you realize which country you are right next to?

No. 249348

Anon I'm on my mobile but I just wanted to say thanks for being so understanding earlier.

Today is a better day, I was in quite a state last night.
So far I haven't logged any calories, cause I'm genuinely not that hungry, and took some vitamins.
I legit asked myself if I was actually hungry instead of eating just cause I'm used to it.

I'm gonna try to break my stress eating habit. I've decided that instead of heading to the drive thru to binge on fast food when I get time off my shift, I'm going to go to the nearby park. To read, walk, whatever.
I'm there right now but I'm contemplating it because it's 90 degrees today with high humidity lol. Either way it's better than stuffing my face like usual I guess.

I love cooking and I make a lot of Korean food. I'm going to have leftover pork wraps for dinner but keep it at a reasonable portion. It's sliced, braised pork belly that you wrap in a lettuce/sesame leaf and dunk in a chili garlic sauce. It's super delicious. Myfitness app actually has my calorie budget waaaaay higher than I expected, and I think I can best it and then some. So far so good.

I'd like to post again in another month. Maybe in the fitness thread next time around!

No. 249378

File: 1526254210623.gif (195.28 KB, 275x174, 1522555132315.gif)

Oh god, the guy I desperately want to fuck asked me to linger at the store he works and I feel like I was super awkward with him even though he was really nice. It's just such a weird situation for a number of factors.

No. 249393

ask him out anonnnnn. how often do you run into guys irl who you're that attracted to and are nice? i'd pounce on it. or at least throw him an innocent enough compliment and see how he reacts.

No. 249406

is still shit. even mexico has better healthcare system than these "first world" countries.

No. 249419

File: 1526266124769.jpg (598.08 KB, 948x1426, void.jpg)


i feel you. I'm in my 5th and final year of my clinical psychology PhD and I feel like its destroyed my personality and brain.

I'm a chronic, really really bad procrastinator. Like only start a project/task at the last possible second, do a adrenaline-fueled panic work marathon, and turn things in literally one minute before they're due. OR if I don't make the deadline I lie my ass off and get away with turning it in late. It's embarrassing and I hate myself for it.

Soooo, now I'm finishing up my dissertation and doing the exact same thing. I left everything til the last minute and I don't know how to do/write about some of the stats shit that I need to. I'm totally fucked. I need to defend if in the next month if I'm going to graduate on time…lol…

No. 249443

I wish you all the best anon, hopefully we can loose weight together! You can do it!

No. 249445

File: 1526292457689.jpg (85.99 KB, 500x705, tumblr_ofq3osImKa1vo6tbho1_500…)

Dumb rant but I'm conflicted and sad

So a couple years back this girl in our friendship group made it clear she had issues with me and didn't like me, some of our friends always believed it was out of jealousy because she tried to turn people against me over it

Fast forward a few years and I've made some really good friends through college and she is also friends with them so we talk it over and she apologises and we "resolve" it

However, she is really strange about it. She'll be really lovely to me but also it feels like she always has to one-up me at everything. If I make a joke, she'll have to say it but louder until someone laughs and says she's so funny. If I start dressing or doing my makeup and hair a certain way she'll do the exact same. Her hair is dyed the color that mine is naturally as well now. Hell, even on social media she seems to feel the need to outdo me because as soon as I took a profile picture in a pose that got a lot of compliments she deleted her old one, took a new one in the same pose except with a bunch of Snapchat filters to try and be more extra and then said we matched but she said it in a sort of smug way and it was weird.

I also know how she treats people behind closed doors as she is ever so lovely to this one guy she lives with in public but then messages him bullying him in private (he has shown me these messages and her usual tone of uwu is completely abandoned)

I want to believe that this time round we are friends and I do like her despite this weird copying thing because I assume it's an insecurity and we've had some pretty deep talks about that, but it is still a bit worrying because of the past. She says she's different now but then if we talk and we aren't around other friends of ours I feel like she avoids me.

I don't know how to take her copying me either, it's flattering that she finds my style and aesthetic and even my personality and humor nice but it's also really not fun when she has to parade it about like it's hers and use it for attention and validation

I like her and I think she is much better than she gives herself credit for and I want us to be friends but it reminds me of high school when this girl I knew then would go to even further efforts to copy me and it turned out she was using me so my worries about this are a bit magnified

I don't want to hurt or upset her but I don't want to make effort if the truth is she genuinely dislikes me and is just being kind to me for the sake of being polite

Why is America like this?

No. 249447

You're not crazy at all anon. Not being emotionally receptive doesn't justify being deliberately cruel to someone who's trying their best to be nice.

No. 249448

Had an amazing (from my side) two year relationship with the most understanding kindest most interesting person I've ever met. But I was lying about my age and several other things the whole time because I was underage when we'd met and wanted to get to know him desperately at first and then didn't want to break what we had or hurt him. Broke up later after he dropped out and got depressed and I didn't know how to support him well. Confessed after, he was extremely hurt but still said we could be friends but is understandably cold and uninterested. I feel really guilty about what I did to him, everyone before had broken his trust and I went on to do the same after he'd opened up to me. I was also very cruel and dismissive at time and made him insecure by rejecting him sexually or ignoring him at times and talking to lots of other guys, just thinking about it makes me cry. Now he's extremely closed off, not interested in relationships, says he won't trust anyone or talk about his feelings for a long long time. I don't know how to atone for what I've done. Even if he never talks to me again, I just want to make it right. I can't stand the thought of having been so awful to someone so gentle and kind.

No. 249449

I would look at it through the lens of her having insecurities.
Clearly she's jealous of you, anon. Now that doesn't mean she hates you, but in her mind she's telling herself she can't measure up to you and I'm sure that harbors some conflicting, sour feelings even though that's not your fault. I say that because if she hated you she wouldn't want to imitate you and be like you–but that part is just my tinfoil.

Don't beat yourself up or preoccupy your mind with her as if there's any way to fix what's going on in other peoples' heads.
Keep a healthy distance from her, but be friendly and cordial as being nice doesn't require much effort. Maybe over time she'll learn to trust you and treat you as less of a rival.
And if she doesn't? That's fine too. It would be no skin off your bones because you'd walk away with knowing you treated her nicely even if she chose not to accept your friendship.

One thing I wouldn't do is confront her about it directly, she may see that as aggression and get defensive. It could ruin the process is all I'm saying.

No. 249450


I've been trying to look at it that way too, and maybe this is from my own idiocy or insecurities but what I don't understand is why she'd be jealous of me- she's taller than me and I'm short and people think I'm really cute but I don't feel that pretty and I am incredibly awkward at times. Sorry if that is self-centered to wonder!

In the past, she decided within a week that she wanted the friends I was making to not like me, to me that definitely meant she disliked me. She got really funny about one friend being my friend and would get jealous about that so she'd do all she could to make that friend stay away from me.

I couldn't confront her on it, I want her to be happy, but it is frustrating when she has to bring any attention to her as soon as anyone in the room is listening to me or talking to me.

No. 249453

Just leave him the fuck alone, thats the best you can do

No. 249454

>but what I don't understand is why she'd be jealous of me
Maybe that's your own insecurities talking lol. Who knows, maybe you have a style, quality, or look that's admirable in her eyes?
But don't worry anon, I ask myself the same questions about some of the girls who were jealous of me too.

Jealousy is a really strange thing and it makes people do some harsh things. Maybe she felt like she would lose friends to you, so she did those mean things out of desperation.

Either way I know where you're coming from and these situations are always really frustrating and tricky to handle. I empathize.

No. 249455


Thank you anon I appreciate your advice, I'll try my best to not think of it but she's around so much and it happens so much that it's hard to avoid. Like, just let me speak and let my friends appreciate me without having to butt in or try and steal the limelight it's annoying, I'm just talking to them or joking with them!

No. 249459

Yeah, that's what I was thinking. The thing is that he always blames himself for shit like that and I wouldn't want him to feel like he's done anything wrong. Would leaving without saying anything be ok?

No. 249460

File: 1526299370372.jpg (181.14 KB, 1680x1050, fry_suspicious.jpg)

Low key I'm sad that my boyfriend's family is…frankly, scummy.
I was the only child and I don't have an extended family, so whoever I dated I always wanted to get along with their parents/siblings just so I could feel more connected.

Bf's lived with me ever since we first met yet I've never once met his mother.
His father died of Parkinson's at a young age. The father came from a distinguished family and never married his mother it's not a secret that he stuck his dick in her crazy and the pregnancy was accidental but she kept bf as a money ticket as she would with his sisters that she birthed from different men. The father's side of the family was completely estranged from my bf as a result.

The first year I was with bf, I was supposed to meet his mother during a holiday at her house. I drove 3 hours out there with bf in tow only for her to refuse us coming over last minute because she decided her son had said something to hurt her feelings about money she owed him. She ruined my holiday and it forced me to drive 3 hours back the same day in snow.
She's never once reached out to me even though she knows who I am on facebook. She's intellectually stunted, so if her son makes her feel inferior by just using long words, I unintentionally would too. She's extremely jealous of her own son and is upset that he's made more of himself. She especially dislikes how I have given him a great life and that he has a great relationship with my parents. My parents are almost like surrogates to him, really.

His sisters are kinda shit too.
One is a morbidly obese single mother of two on welfare. She's jealous of us and has made no effort to develop a relationship with me whatsoever. She gets on my nerves because she calls bf whenever she wants to stick her toddler in front of the camera and beg for our money.
She's an emotional manipulator and a person who makes shit decisions. I don't respect her at all.

The other is younger and definitely the smartest of the two. Smart in that I believe she's the only one besides bf to have graduated high school, and she's trying to escape her situation of poverty.
Her answer to the latter is traveling around the country to hook up with men she met online to date/live with them.
I give her a break on that because the truth is she's just trying to escape her circumstances in the only way she knows how.
What irritates me about her is that she tries to use us too. Bf told me yesterday that she had asked him to pick her up at our local airport (not to visit us, we are but the taxi service) and drive her to the train station so she could be en route to the man she's seeing. By that she meant I needed to drive her, it's my car, and hahahaha no.

None of his family ever visits. The rest of his family ignores him no matter how much he reaches out because they're neurotic recluses. Bf's always the one having to travel to see the sisters, and he uses my job perk to get a plane ticket to do so. There's just no effort on their part whatsoever. They don't even send him cards for his birthday or holidays.

It amazes me that he came from such shit people tbh. Makes me sad too though, they're no boon to my life either.

No. 249465

I feel you. My boyfriends father is an abusive shit who constantly screams and yells, and kicks their dog and used to beat his children etc. His siblings (3 brothers) are also extremely aggressive and shit people. Somehow my bf ended up gentle and sweet.

No. 249470

If you're in Paris you can come chill with me, anon. I have food and live close to a nice kosher bakery and a Serbian restaurant.

No. 249539

Sounds comfy. Funny you say that, I might actually go to Paris in a few weeks for my holidays but I'm not sure yet because of the SNCF strike. Don't worry, I'll eat as much as I want or need to even if that means getting stupid comments. It's starting tomorrow though, fuck.

No. 249572


I feel for you Anon. I also live in France and I'm ethnically Turkish raised by two atheist parents. Luckily I look European and have a basic "international" surname so nobody assumes I'm Muslim, but having grown in a place with many North Africans, aka "la téci", I know how they can be in regards to enforcing their Muslim social norms. Wishing you good luck!

No. 249605

Everything I fucking write in one way or another relies on the premise that brain in a vat/evil demon theory is true. I know it's a retarded braindead argument that shouldn't even be taken into consideration but I still can't help but start every point I make with "Ok, assuming the evil demon is real, let's consider this…".

I hope Descartes is burning in literal hell under the hands of a literal evil demon.

No. 249665

I've been having night time insomnia where I sleep initially for an hour but spend the rest of the night into mid morning hours wide awake. I usually have to take a 2-3 hour nap before work but sometimes no.

Weed is the only thing that helps, I have none right now, and that sucks.

No. 249787

Thanks anon. Because of my name and my looks I definitely look North African (though some people think I'm métisse because of my family name, which is weird because I don't look like one) but even my sisters get rude comments from gossipy Muslims and they look like they're White girls and have common first name for French girls, just less often. Good luck to you too, just in case.
>but having grown in a place with many North Africans, aka "la téci", I know how they can be in regards to enforcing their Muslim social norms
I bet some of them are the kind of guys who actually don't do anything they're supposed to as Muslims, the kind of guys who smoke, drink, party, insult everyone, etc. but they don't eat pork and fast for ramadan so they think it's all good and they feel like they can call women who don't fast whores.

No. 249865

Sorry I'm going to vent like a crazy bitch and you probably all going to think I'm an horrible person.

I feel like my life is falling apart. Again. I've been holding my shit together for almost a straight year but I feel like killing myself again.
I'm way too old to be back at school at my age. I feel inadequate and worse, I'm still a useless piece of shit. I feel bad at my internship because I suck at basically everything. I feel like a burden and it's getting to me so hard.

There's also my ex I'm still having feeling for. He clearly only continues to talk to me out of pity but I'm afraid of cutting it off and feeling even more lonely afterwards. It's been going on for years. He has a living gf. There's absolutely no hope of getting back together and yet I'm still thinking about it daily.
I have no clue what to do. I can't even keep myself from talking to him. I'm too afraid of blocking him and look like a moody bitch when I'll come begging back for him to talk to me in a week.
We live in different countries, we don't have much in common left. I have no idea why I'm so fixated on it and how to let go.
I wish he were dead, at least there would be some kind of closure and I feel terrible about it.
I wish I was dead. I wish I wasn't a fucking coward unable to stand asphyxia even though I'm an utter waste of space.

No. 249869

A bit of a weird rant, but I'm so fucking scared about going to my gyno, since it always hurts like hell. The second time I went I even bled afterwards and felt like peeing constantly (I'm still a virgin, so it's quite clear why the blood…)
I would stop going, but I also always get very sick when on my period, so i need the pill.
Since I've never had sex before I always thought that I might have vaginismus or some shit, but a couple days ago my mother told me that her friend stopped going to the same doc after just one visit because it hurt her too much. That friend is in her 40s and she's had 2 kids, so if even she's in pain, it's quite natural that i'm too.

However, today i got a letter from my gyno saying i haven't had my yearly exam yet. What doctor sends you a letter because of that?! I wanted to try and find a new one, but now it seems like i have to got to her one more time, I honestly feel like crying…

No. 249870

Dude, just because you got a letter doesn't mean you HAVE to go. Can't you get the pill from your primary doctor instead? You don't need a fucking vaginal exam to get the pill. Plus, I'm assuming you're young, you don't need to be checked every time.
And yeah, if it hurts, try going elsewhere,you shouldn't be bleeding afterwards, that's for sure.

No. 249885

>I'm way too old to be back at school at my age.

False. You are never too old to get more education. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.

I feel you on the rest of the stuff though.. I know it may be tough but just try to stop initiating convo with the guy. It's fine to respond if he texts you, but just don't ever message him and it should eventually fizzle out.

No. 249889

Yeah nothing obligates you to go Anon. They probably send letters to make sure they get clients coming and signing checks but it doesn't matter. Assuming you don't have any serious issues you could just start going to another gyno with no issue. It's not normal that a gyno would hurt you so much and also do vagina exams if there's no reason to…
Also your family doctor can give you a prescription for the pill usually (I'm in Europe and it's the case) so look into that. I've been on the pill two years and never saw a gyno (couldn't find any that receives new clients in my area, thanks doctor shortage lol) but no issue at all.

No. 249957

i've been on antidepresssants for nearly 2 weeks and so far the only change i feel is that i feel dizzy and confused a lot and i am so fucking hungry all the time. i feel like i NEED to eat constantly, even when i know i've already eaten so much that i feel sick, because i feel like i'm starving even when i know i'm not. i know gaining weight is going to make me feel even worse but falling back into bulimic habits is going to make me feel worthless too.
i really hate my life and who i am and i'm sick of just dealing with all of it and being told it'll work out soon. i'm sick of people telling me i'm getting better when i feel worse every day. when my ex broke up with me months ago he kept going on about how it was the best thing for me, and he said the same recently. i wish he would just be honest and say it was just for him, because all it's done for me is show the first person who's ever liked me - not me putting on an act for other people - doesn't want me messing up his life anymore
i really don't think i've actually been happy since i was about 10, i've been constantly unhappy since then and every attempt to fix it doesn't work because I'M the problem. people never like me, i can't do anything well enough to be in education or get a job, things only go well when i spend all my time pretending to be someone else and that just makes me feel more useless inside. i really just hate being alive

No. 249972

I just went to the doctor and found out I have Chlamydia. Idk how to feel about this. I knew my boyfriend's sexual past (lots of randoms, no condom) before I made the decision to have sex with him, so I can't exactly be mad at him for not telling me. I know I got it from him because my ex was a virgin and there's been no one else in between. I'm kind of upset, but idk.

No. 249975

how do you know he knew? and why didn't you ask him to get tested?

No. 249989

You aren’t too old to learn anon. Going back to school, voluntarily, as an adult is admirable as hell.
Internships sound hard as fuck, but I bet you’ll get better at it as you go along. It’s not an easy balancing act and you’ve got a lot on your plate. Try and cut yourself some slack, if you can.
You’re putting in all this effort to become more productive, more employable, more educated..those are all really great things to work on. There’s folks out here working on the most effective scam for gofundme, to be the sickest and most delicate little snowflake who ever did flake, or how long they can use meth daily and still pretend to function.
You’re on a great path and deserve to feel proud of it.

No. 249991

The shitty thing about finding the right antidepressant is that it takes a loooong time. They usually take a couple of months to regulate everything smoothly, since things are so chaotic, chemically speaking in the depressed brain.

It’s a bitch of a ride and I can’t say anything that will truly make it easier other than the end of the ride is fucking great.
It’s a lot like a real rollercoaster, the whole time you’re riding it it’s anxiety-ridden ups and screaming downs but when you get off you just feel intensely good and alive.

Finding the medication that works is exactly like getting off the rollercoaster.

Antidepressants themselves are getting a lot better too. (I’d be long dead without Effexor) and there’s so much more likelihood of getting better when there’s more than just Prozac.

You’ve been stuck on this shitty rollercoaster for way too long, but now that you’re finding the right medication the end is in sight. There’s like one big loop and hill left and you can get off the damn thing and enjoy the theme park.

No. 249993

He didn't know he had it. L I didn't ask him to get tested because I didn't want to kill the vibe we had before we really got deep into the relationship and also, I suppose I want as concerned as I should've been. This is definitely partially my fault, which is why I'm so confused about how to feel.

No. 249994

*Wasn't as concerned

No. 249996

There's a very (or so it seems) popular artist on tumblr that does really beautiful drawings, but as soon as I discovered them I realized they are basically copying Gekidan Inu Curry's style and now (even though I still like the art) I feel extremely disappointed. Specially considering the fact that a lot of artists say this person is their inspiration, and they look up to them. I'm not sure if people doesn't realize that the artist is mainly copying/mimicking Inu Curry's art, or if they just don't care. Maybe i'm just jealous, but I really wish somebody called the artist out. At least to hear what they can say in response, I'm not even saying they have to change their artstyle or anything. Makes me sad because the drawings are actually very pretty and detailed. I have to admit tho, the artstyle is not exacly THE SAME, but if you know some of GIC's works, you will notice the (very) obvious influence.
I feel a bit bitter and maybe i'm reaching too much, but idk.

No. 249997

Oh shit, sorry for the typos/bad english.

No. 249999

> I really wish somebody called the artist out.

but yet you didn't name the artist in your post? name and shame, anon.

No. 250002

Not the other anon but I’m pretty sure they’re talking about Tourniiquet

No. 250009

File: 1526437239950.jpg (167.14 KB, 1456x1074, Nj3oPPn.jpg)

I'm just gonna go real scatterbrain here 2:50am and can't sleep.

I really hate myself at times, I hate how shy and indecisive I am, how I constantly overthink and worry about others more than my own self , I don't expect it back in return but I feel like there has to be something really wrong with me confidence wise. It's gotten way worse now since I've finished uni and gotten a job.

I've become a shutin near enough again, just work sleep and waste time on netflix or games, I really need to make some friends but its hard to do that back from sqaure one again, it's not even like I can just head out and just join a group or ask people at work.

I hate how fucking shy I am, there is something wrong it might be depression , I dont want to die just disappear like, blink and i'm gone.

there are times I want to die but in a ironic sense to blow off steam.

Christ I'm too old to have these issues its really fucking pathetic , there people younger doing so much more than me. Its not even like I'm starting at 0 its more like -10, its tough even just to force myself up to being normal and a functioning person.

like why do I hate myself, why, I don't get it, I hate seeing my reflection I hate getting my photo taken , I don't feel like I'm there being happy its just a face I'm making , I know I'm not happy , does anyone else know or am I just a burden to them , something awkward to not point out.

I wish at times I could just scream and shout out all this negative shit from myself, as If it would purge myself and I could be ok again.

was i ever happy when I was younger or just ignorant.

>I think I just want to be wanted you know.

I'm scared that all the time I've wasted being this miserable depressed mess could of been fixed years ago and to acknowledge that would mean, I may have been able to be happier longer ago.

I sometimes feel like I'm silently drowning and have to pretend to be ok.

No. 250010

Yes, I was talking about Tourniiquet. Tbh I'm kinda happy that another anon noticed.
I don't know that much about her apart from her drawings, so I didn't think I should mention her, just in case lol. But maybe it was a bit too obvious, haha.

No. 250016

File: 1526443967683.jpg (69.97 KB, 489x648, 1526282415568.jpg)

>tfw love walking as exercise but my feet blister like a motherfuck

I walked a little over 3 miles with a friend today and could have done more if I wasn't in so much literal foot pain.
I've tried better shoes, bandaging, powders, etc.
Apparently some people are more blister prone.
I wonder if those tight runner shoes with the invisible toes would work better?? Idk.

No. 250017

>*individual toes

No. 250018

SO when it comes to work, I'm the only one who has not had a negative experience with our COO once we hired her on last year. However, she has been an incredibly negative energy towards the people the work above me or work with me. And it absolutely kills the work environment.

She'll over-schedule meetings with the person that oversees all of us so that she can't get her work done. She'll criticize the fact that my manager "took so long to get her GED" that allows her to do a certain type of testing for us since she got it (She's in her 40s, made a shit mistake in her teens for a man, and passed everything aside from math the first time around last year and really needed to build her confidence from literally missing it by one point… despite being here for 7+ years and knowing more than all of us… But after working with me more, she passed with a score that was 40+ points of what she got before)

What makes me pissed is that when we got new office equipment, she had told my manager that it would "go away" if she didn't get her GED.
She's also gotten on to people in my department for mingling with other departments and asking if it was "general or work-related chats" in the hallway.

Like, my saving-grace with her is that I have never been called out and have always gotten anything related to her back on time or before. It mainly sucks because I think she respects me because I make damn sure anything that relates to her gets done sooner than needed…. but my managers feel the brunt of her force. Which sucks. Because it's someone that's insecure of themselves becuse she acts just like a more formally educated version of my mother–someone that's ready to leap in on the fact that it's going well and it's all because them (despite the fact they've brpught down the entire company' morale)

But god bless my mom for giving me the ability to give our COO the answers she wants to hear because I have never made myself the victim in this when I should've been.

(I mean, feel free to ignore this. I know I'm lucky in avoiding it. I think my saving grace is the fact I have out-smarted our COO in the past so she doesn't foccus on me as much)

No. 250029

I'm back on the zolpidem train. Can't sleep without it but have to retake some during the night or I'm up at 3am with leg pain. It's worse than when I wasn't taking it and now it's going to be hell to stop.
Why do I do this to myself?

No. 250030

Same here anon. I miss the fun we had together, the talks and the intimacy. It was so great to be intimate with him, which brings me to the real problem here:

I'm so fucking horny all the time ffs but I'm too scared to act on it and actually have sex because I think I'm an ugly fuck and I would only embarrass myself. Fml I can't stop thinking about sex, I judge every guy I encounter whether I'd bang him or not. I'm a pathetic idiot. Also, I would have sex with my ex in a heartbeat. Unfortunately he's gone no contact. I feel sad.

No. 250036

do you have a decent vibrator and a dildo? it's not like the eliminate the need for actual sex but they certainly take the edge off of sexual frustration kek

No. 250071

Your boyfriend is just holding it in, trust me.

No. 250076

I hate how now almost every girl, every woman online is called a thot. I'd like to think that it's just raging teenagers that like to spout retarded memes but I get the impression that it also includes retarded adult men. I see a girl or a woman that are not even scantily dressed and not doing anything provocative (though if they were not it still shouldn't be an excuse) and a bunch of idiots calling them thots. Of course, if you ask them why they are calling the woman in question a thot, they just say you're triggered. I mean wtf?
The internet has truly rotten the brain of so many younger generations.

No. 250083

what do you take thot to mean, anon?

No. 250084

I agree. Also, always hating on "western women nowadays" on totally unrelated video. They're strawmaning so hard, it's either about a (white) women being too liberal/not treating men right or if it's an asian girl, a documentary about Africa, no matter what, always "these girls at least still have values, true women, not like…!"
Lately i watched a documentary about child brides and guess what, men in the comment section arguing that these kids at least aren't gonna end up as sluts, single moms, etc.

No. 250124

thot is by definition a woman considered to be sexually provocative or promiscuous or am I mistaken?

At first, I only saw thot being commonly used in the context of instagram thots or instathots, but now it's being used to describe any woman or girl regardless if they fit the definition.

> Lately i watched a documentary about child brides and guess what, men in the comment section arguing that these kids at least aren't gonna end up as sluts, single moms, etc.

That's so disgusting and yes, these sort of vile comments appear on completely unrelated videos, news comments section, random topics. There's going to be a guy starting an argument about evil women, bonus points for "evil white women" and then a bunch of dudes agreeing with him.

It's sickening how much hatred we get for just existing. It's obviously an important issue for such guys that we have the rights and liberties to dress how we want and ultimately live how we want if they have this need to protest against this even on completely unrelated videos, articles etc.

No. 250136

>sexually provocative or promiscuous
well, i'm not going to claim to be the expert but yeah i think the provocative is more important than the promiscuous. like, it doesn't mean slut. insta hos are presenting their body for attention and money without necessarily being sluts. Like, when black people use it means a trash lower class woman presenting herself as classy and desirable and not pulling it off, or otherwise some kind of similar deceit. when online white guys use it it's less about lower class but still the disingenuous coy thing- it means a woman using her the effect of her body/femaleness to get something, attention or money or status. with these guys use i don't think there needs to be promiscuity or even provocativeness because they reckon women presenting themselves as women anywhere there are men watching will be doing this unconsciously. Like 'gotis' is thottery. It has a little bit of succubus implication, like the insta hoes are acting as temptresses without being available and also trying to pass their work off as something glamourous. the thot is presumptuous

No. 250139


No. 250154

You might find this article interesting
>But the thot label is wielded to indicate class status as much as it refers to sexual activity. Thots are criticized based on sexual behavior, yes, but they’re more broadly identified via their consumption habits; this makes it possible to denounce them on sight even when their sexual histories remain private.
>The fantastical nightmare of the thot is a woman who pretends to be the type of valuable female commodity who rightfully earns male commitment—until the man discovers that she’s just a cheap imitation of a “good girl” who is good only for mindless sex, not relationships or respect.
>“To the elite girls, the girls on Instagram were sluts not necessarily because they were sleeping around but because of what they looked like or how they acted,”


No. 250184

I don't know how to enjoy things. I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing. I don't know what I'm supposed to enjoy. I don't know how much of what I do for "fun" is because I like it and how much is just because I feel like I should like it. Out of work I sit at home and try to relax but end up wasting hours doing nothing. I never feel rested. I know my bf is worrying but I try to suck it up and not make it more of a deal than it needs to be, I don't want to drag him down.

I keep trying so hard to make new friends without being too clingy but maybe I'm just beyond help. I haven't made a real new friend in years. All my co-workers are friends and go for drinks after work or lunch before late shifts, but I'm never asked along or I'm not told it's happening. They all say they really like me, and it's a very informal workplace, but that's it. I never see anyone out of work.

Nobody invites me anywhere, I have one friend I can ask out for lunch and anyone else will always bail on me. I value her dearly but I wish I had other people too.

If it wasn't for my lolita comm I literally wouldn't leave the house for non-work stuff more than once a month. I'm so scared of being depressed again.

No. 250419

File: 1526570555652.png (214.95 KB, 500x677, angery-angry-reacts-only-17109…)

I started a new job 2 weeks ago, am now in week 3 and holy shit the head accountant is a massive cunt. She acts all nice around others but stabs them in the back the second she can. She's also in good terms with the two bosses so she thinks she's the shit.

She told me how I'm NOT allowed to know less than the current intern, except she's been working there 3 months before me. So how??

My job is also different than hers, (the accountants) I'm in customer support and shipping. She admits she's not really familiar with my job but the cunt still tries to correct me and tell me what to do.

Today she "supervised" me and the intern while working (it was my first time actually doing work instead of learning the theory and watching). She kept talking to us (but mostly me, since I was working) in such a patronizing way. I literally felt like I was taking a fucking test instead of doing my job and god she kept constantly breathing down my neck, asking questions and making comments how wrong x is and how it would be better to do it her way (we have our own work system). It took us like 20 minutes to complete the transaction/task all because of her. Once she left for a break the intern and I did the task in less than 3 fucking minutes.

She also kept telling me how I don't have to memorize it all by heart, I have the instructions right there! Except she didn't allow me to use or look at them, despite never doing working in that transaction before. She also wants to quiz me tomorrow, but hey, I don't have to know the stuff by heart, only every tiny bit of information about it!

I actually find the job fun and my coworkers are all awesome and super friendly, hell even the bosses are chill and don't take stuff too serious. Except this fat cunt. I'm glad I found out that no one likes her and that they usually avoid her.

I'm still pissed as fuck about the whole thing today and can't believe I have to memorize that crap by tomorrow and what not. Jfc

No. 250430

Are you me from the past? I had almost the exact situation and position.
I don't know what to tell you, I quit three months and never looked back. Apparently the girl before me quit within one month (wonder why) and I was pushed into the job with stacks of leftover work but also with very little training from my boss and it was the busiest period.

She would tell me things like "don't hesitate to ask me anything, it's better that you ask me even hundreds of times if it will make things clear to you" and then the moment I would ask her something second time to just clarify (because there was no fucking training) then she would start rolling her eyes and making drama "Please don't do this to me, I can't explain things the second time, I can't do everything". She was sure to tell everyone how incompetent I was and I felt like a retard. I honestly thought I was a retard and I was lucky to land my second job thinking I would probably perform poorly but nope, I realized the problem wasn't in me, it was the ex boss.

So, however you perform, don't blame yourself. Do your best but in the meantime start looking for another job. You will hate your life if you continue working there. A terrible boss that breathes down your neck will make your life a living hell no matter how nice your coworkers are, and considering that she's best pals with the higher ups you can't do or complain. I was there, trust me.
Also, she called my parents and wanted to let them know how bad I was at work.
Good luck anon, just do your best and don't let her backstabbing get to you.

No. 250483

the true reason for these problems is that nowadays many men are useless because they have been allowed to become this way. Video games let them be boys forever and there is no conscription where they are taught how to be men. Their parents don't teach them anything useful either as they both need to work to finance the middle class lifestyle. Then junior thanks them by beeing unemployed and wasting their money on his toys and cannabis.

In China they call it the strawberry generation.

No. 250488

There's this one girl I used to be friends with a while back who made a drastic style change shortly after becoming friends with me, telling me I was her "inspiration" and "goals" and such.

At this point she's a fully blown skin walker. I don't claim my style to be completely original but there are my own personal signature elements which she went so far as to even buy the EXACT same copies of. She now pretends it was something original she didn't copy or "take inspiration from" me and started calling it her own unique style, bragging about it almost every day. She's diving me up the wall, not to mention her massive ego about how pretty and special and adored she is. If she was popular at all online she would be complete lolcow material.

I want to call her out on this but we have so many mutual friends and I don't want any drama. Am I supposed to just let her skinwalk as me? I know our mutuals must be able to see the poor imitation she's doing of me but I can't stand it.

No. 250495

My boyfriend broke up with me a month ago
>friends since hs/ he had a crush on me back then
>ive had a crush on him for a year b4 confessing
>we date for 4 months, he starts saying i love you first
>i fall in love with him too
>b4 the break up we hung out in his room and i find out hes not really interested in sex, which was sorta anti-climatic the way we've been flirting
>im a virgin so i dont rlly care about sex, im just in love w him
>a day goes by where he texts me "just know I love you" and "You're apart of me"
>next day he says he wants to go back to being friends bc he cant give me the relationship i want bc of his depression, wants me to find someone better
>dont want to be friend zoned so stop talking to him
>miss him and wanna talk so set up a date yesterday where we dye my hair purp in his bathroom like we always talked about

So we caught up and he admitted he dosen't love himself so he cant really love anyone else. He told me he actually dosen't really feel anything right now but he did say he enjoyed video games for the first time in awhile yesterday, which is all he does outside work. I told him I still had a crush on him and how unique and special he is, and that im not interested at all in anyone else

He told me i should move to cali because theres cooler guys there
He wants to move too, but he also said its not likely hell be moving anytime soon

So basically im in love w my ex/friend who's going through depression and i dont know how to help so im just gonna be a good friend w a crush on him

unrequited love is better than no love

No. 250511

I don't know how to dress for my body and it makes me feel like shit everytime I go out.

I used to be an ana chan and thought by being thin clothes would look great on me no matter what.

The thing is that I felt miserable and I want to move past that and finally learn to dress well and not put looks over health.

I only see thin girls outfits when I look on pinterest for inspo but I know that normal weight girls can look really good as well, I just don't know how…

How do you do it ?

No. 250518

Id be super patronizing.
>it’s soooo cute you copy me, like a little sister
>aw I’m honored you want to copy my style, hows it going trying to develop your own?
>I’d be worried stealing someone’s style, the original people always wear it better, you know?
>god look at this celebrity copying this other celebrity’s style. Can you imagine? Pathetic
Or just call it out nicely
>omg we match, haha that’s embarrassing. >did you buy the same item as me? Why?

No. 250519

I feel like I need to be more productive during the summer before I start my internship and do the things I never had the time to do during the school year but I have no idea what to do…

No. 250520

This is only good advice if you want to sound like the ultimate obnoxious special snowflake

Could you list specific examples? I've come across way too many people accusing others of skin walking when there's nothing that original about their style. Also, even if it is, who cares? As long as she's not showing creeper/stalker tendencies, enjoying "your" style and wearing it herself shouldn't bother you unless you're one of those annoying types who cares waaay too much about being ~unique~.

No. 250521

>my own personal signature elements which she went so far as to even buy the EXACT same copies of.

No. 250528

I don't want to 'out' myself by listing specific examples but if you look at this >>>/snow/227024 thread, it's eerily similar to my situation. She copies almost exact outfits of mine, posts with the same kind of speech style sometimes and as >>250521 pointed out she went as far as to buy MULTIPLE items that aren't popular/common fashion pieces to copy me. It all comes together in one big combination of skin walking. I've shown the images to other people and had them agree about what she's doing, I don't think I'm a special snowflake but there are some items/combinations that are personal and outside of style norms that I wear which she has purchased replicas of or worn together in the EXACT same way.

I would never make a big deal of being unique but having someone copy you entirely then make a big deal about how ORIGINAL and SPECIAL they are is just uncomfortable and annoying.

I don't want to directly call her out on it because she's likely to make huge drama out of it and not drop it for years. I've seen it happen with her.

No. 250530

File: 1526601027649.jpeg (146.26 KB, 625x1108, 5268453E-C685-4FF6-82F4-A3B43F…)

Unless you’re a basic bitch with no style, it’s really obvious if someone starts copying you as soon as you become friends, especially if they wear the exact same items of clothing.

Flashbacks to when Kim used to copy Paris

No. 250544

Today got confirmation from my grad advisor that I can't graduate on-time with the rest of my grad school cohort this summer. I'm the one idiot who couldn't get her shit together in time to finish her thesis. Everyone else could. I'm a fucking moron.

No. 250566

dw anon my friend who is an idiot took 5 extra years to graduate because he was blowing his thesis off.

No. 250570

Uhhh… NTA but metallic LV bags were one of the biggest high fashion trends in the early 2000's. This kind of shit is why people often roll their eyes at copying accusations. People hop onto trends, delude themselves into thinking their style is unique, then complain when others also hop on that trend.

No. 250574

File: 1526613914140.jpeg (65.99 KB, 500x500, E32709A2-45C4-49A9-A3E5-168816…)

Except Kim was explicitly copying Paris. It wasn’t just because it was a “trend” at the time. It’s because Paris wanted Kim to look like an accessory. There are countless examples, that was just one. In others she wore an identical dress but in a different color, or wore the same color are Paris’ accessories. If you think its just a coincidence or the two of them following trends (even though Paris was a trendsetter back then) then you just don’t know what you’re talking about.

No. 250583

I had a really difficult day today. I was feeling down on myself for the majority of the day; it came in waves in the morning, then when I was at work it hit me like a ton of bricks. Feelings of worthlessness, yadda yadda, the usual. I managed to work through some of it and go drinking at a friend's, but just now another friend just ripped me a new one for literally nothing? I was only being sympathetic towards them and they blew up on me. It hurt a lot, but there's no point telling them because they'll just shrug it off and tell me not to be so sensitive. I'm sick of feeling and of being around other people. I just want to be alone for a long time.

No. 250589

>It’s because Paris wanted Kim to look like an accessory
… Then how is this a valid exampe of Kim copying? It's Paris being weird.

No. 250590

I honestly feel like a lot of girls who call skin walker want that to be the case out of some weird sense of validation or fetish

No. 250609

File: 1526622478755.jpeg (1.5 MB, 2956x3000, 794FE099-222D-4301-A525-7891D4…)

I just mentioned flashbacks to when she copied her, I didn’t shit on her for it. It’s clearly cause Paris wanted her to. Kim was her “assistant” after all. The point is it’s really easy to tell when someone is copying someone else; with their permission/influence or not. Unless they’re a basic bitch.

No. 250621

File: 1526624335342.jpeg (253.79 KB, 1242x1446, B3223972-16FA-49AC-8A0A-43AB5E…)

I wasn’t feeling like myself today, especially when I was called in to cover a morning shift and the cakes I was in charged of, ended up getting banged in the car before they arrived to my job. I get yelled at by my boss, I go home feeling like shit. I wanted to play some games alone but someone invited me to join them instead, I couldn’t say no since i really did want to join him but because I was worried that my bad mood might catch on, I just remained silent. He gets worried, I try passing it off as nothing and find an excuse to leave. Kinda felt bad and told him that I lied and that I just wanted him to enjoy himself without me around. We exchanged messages but they just held the essence of stress in them. My replies ended up being rude and I apologize. I have such a bad habit of apologizing too and I guess I over apologized which got on to his final nerve.
Telling me that it just makes my apologies seem more insincere, i begin to feel even more bad and end up apologizing again until he just flat out says that we shouldn’t talk anymore. I didn’t want to ruin his night anymore and so I said that I agree with him. Deleted our conversation and app

Why do I always ruin good relationships?
I genuinely wish that I wasn’t like this and that I could magically stop saying sorry. I was hoping I wouldn’t fuck this up but lo behold, I did.

No. 250629

geez anon, I really feel you. The thought of ruining relationships is pretty much 99% of my social life so far, and losing a friend over something stupid and deleting everything feels like Hell.
I wish I could tell you that it's going to be okay and that he'll come back, but that's happened to me before too and they never do. People who hurt you for being sorry or being so unhappy that you want to leave so they'll be happier without you (aka textbook definition of depression) are so vile to be around sometimes. I'm sure they were very important to you, but speaking from experience those people can't even see what you're going through, much less be kind enough to give you space or help you when you need it (which sounds like right now).
What I can say, though, is that just because relationships fall apart, that doesn't mean it's your fault, nor that you should feel bad because of it. You need to take what you got from that relationship, be it a few moments of happiness or some life lessons or social lessons, and be grateful that you had something like that in the first place. I have as close to 0 friends as possible, but I can still look back at the times I had with the people I cared about and say that I have something. And, if you didn't have any of that, getting rid of them was your best option, imo. It's not like you yelled at them or cursed them out; they left you because of something stupid like being sorry. If so, fuck em. They're making you feel like shit over nothing. If not, be happy for what you had and use it later.
Also anon, don't be so hard on yourself. You and only you can be the person who cares about yourself. If you don't put in that effort to be happy, to accept who you are and brush off people being dicks or little mistakes that you make, then you can't expect others to do it for you. It's a hard lesson to learn, and I haven't quite convinced myself, but it's the truth. And it doesn't make you any less of a person just because you feel sorry for yourself, always remember that. Sorry this happened to you, anon.

No. 250630

You know how they say every bad decision will haunt you?
I thought this was dead and over with aside from the awful trauma it gave me, but about a little over a year ago, I was in a dark place and fallen into sex working, I only put up a couple ads on Backpage, and never touched it again after I got into rehab and shit.
I just got a text message today asking if I'm still working, and that they got my number from an escort site.

I'm.. honestly scared. I did a reverse search on my number and found nothing so I'm sure it's gotta be one of those more hidden sites that nabbed it but… I just feel so sick.

On top of it all, my PTSD is in full force lately. I was sexually assaulted by one of my utmost closest friends and am still dealing with /how/ to deal with that and I just feel so lost in my own horrible decisions.

No. 250637

hey, anon, getting sexually assaulted is not your fault, or because of a mistake on your behalf.

You went into REHAB. You're no longer in sex work! Those are two amazing decisions. You're getting over sexual assault and a breach of trust. Give yourself a break. You're chugging forwards. Be proud of yourself. This reminder of the past shouldn't scare you, it should make you realize how far you've come. You're not in that shit anymore! That's a huge achievement.

Fuck the person who sexually assaulted you. You didn't deserve that and you didn't cause it with "horrible decisions." You sound like you've come a long fucking way. Congratulations, anon. You're doing it. This is just a minor set back. Breathe, cry, focus on yourself, and regroup. Don't let this small reminder set you back. You've come too far for that. Be kind to yourself.

No. 250644

Geez anon, I really want to give you a big hug right now.

Yes, this person really did mean a lot to me.
But I really appreciate what you said. I don’t know who you are but you are a very wise and kind hearted person. Thank you and I’ll definitely remember that.

Also please don’t be sorry, in a sense, I did bring this upon myself sadly
But again, thank you

No. 250682

Mens feelings is currently a discussion in my country, and not the "men should learn to open up about their feelings" kind. Its the "has metoo gone to far? Does women in education and work emasculate men? Incels should be pitied and cared for" kind. Huge, national newspapers are talking about how women should bend over backwards and coddle men so their poor feefees aren't hurt. And I live in a very liberal country, so it is even crazier.

No. 250699

Men can start their own rights movement for all I care.
I just don't want people expecting me, a woman, to have to pick up after them emotionally. Shit, how ironic for women to be just as belligerent and unsupportive about that as many men have been against feminists. And men aren't even the oppressed minority.
Poor men!
What country though anon? I'm curious.

Unrelated vent: I'm sick of this fucking weather in May. It's been downpouring and overcast for the past three days and I'm trying to exercise outside more before work yet I can't. I have a stationary bike but tbh it's really fucking boring even with music or something on tv, and I feel like it's not as efficient. Outside is actually interesting and the scenery changes, not to mention I get some Vit D from the sun. Otherwise I'm cramped in buildings all day and night.

I'm really fucking frustrated with it. I don't know how else to make exercise fun if it's indoors.

No. 250700

I binged half a a pizza yesterday and woke up with a fucking throat ache, gotta love the acid reflux.
Why am I so dumb, I know I should stop that but I have no idea how to deal with anxiety besides eating and throwing tantrums.

No. 250701

File: 1526655710005.jpg (29.02 KB, 481x524, Chj9xqfW0AASQ5m.jpg)

Thanks anon, it seems you're right.
Looks like the cunt has ridiculous high standards or just wants to get rid of me.

We also had two girls working before me. One was an intern, worked for a full year there and after the internship they offered her to stay. She did, but after a month they fired her because she "didn't meet the standards". ??? They didn't have to offer her the job or anything and yet they pulled that shit.

Today she pulled me out of the office today and went with me to another co worker so she could supervise me while working. It felt like I had a pissed off dog that was about to bite me standing next to me.
I only worked with that coworker twice, and only once did we do that transaction because it was the only opportunity to show me, she can't pull the documents out of her ass. Cunt didn't like the way I worked in the transaction, and got irritated that I forgot the name of it (as if I couldn't look it up in the papers if I was seriously working) after the whole thing she said she'll talk to me later with the boss.

And that she did. She told him how "concerned" she is with my progress and I was basically told to pull my shit together next week or I'm fired. Like what the fuck? I'm NOT making mistakes, I'm just a bit slow because it's only been 3 weeks and it's all new to me.
My actual learning/trial period is 6 months, as it is stated in the contract, and they want to kick me out already. I'd understand if I was constantly fucking up the invoices/orders etc, but I'm not and I'm only on day two of actual work. So ????

I don't really care if I get fired, there are other jobs around but it sucks so much because I like working there but this one cunt keeps fucking me over and it hasn't been a full month yet.

No. 250707

I'm so fucking sick of looking younger than I really am. I'm 20 years old and 5"2 (which is tiny compared to everyone else in my country, I live in the Netherlands). I'm also really into colourful fashion which doesn't really help me. Sometimes I wear more mature clothes but still people look at me like I'm 16 years old and I never get taken seriously. I used to really like my height but I wish I was a few inches taller now.. It's a dilemma, really.

No. 250748

godamint those guys are fucking retarded. Get everything served on a silver plate and can't do any more than just cry and moan like little girls. If he has problems, he should visit a doctor and get his mind fixed. I really wish you best of luck and that he gets his shit together and you become a couple again. I really respect you for not abandonning him and I think you have a great personality if you chose to help him. I hope he understands this too and repays you one day. Good luck anon and stay strong

enjoy it, the older you get, the more you will wish you were young again.

No. 250772

I was just having a nice time joking around with my group chat, and then some random dude sperged to hell and back when someone told him that I'm female because
>uwu i respect women and i only joke like that with guys i was so offensive uwu im sorry
Like just… What the fuck. He dm'd me grovelling and I kept telling him that it wasn't a big deal, but it wouldn't get through his thick skull. I fucking hate being treat like I'm a different fucking species, whether that behavior is benevolent or hostile.

No. 250783

I’m sick of royal family and wedding shit. They aren’t important people, they don’t do anything interesting and its retarded to care about any aspect of their lives.

They’re just rich people. It’s bad enough people still bow to them and shit, why bother? The queen was dope in the war but she’s not magic or special.

No. 250805

Thank you so, so much for this. It sounds over emotional but I started tearing up in a good way. I’m going to try my hardest to stay afloat and not let these awful waves pull me under.

No. 250813

anon thank you, im trying to become stronger too so even if he never comes around Ill be in much a better place

as much as i wanna be his rock and support him i need more support in my life too

No. 250827

I fucking hate it when people say "it must be nice" in that shady way because you have a little bit of disposable income. Especially when their financial situation is actually within their control, but they'd rather be a bitter piece of shit than embrace the amazing opportunities presented to them.

No. 250842

Yeah, I had a friend like this I dropped. Always commenting on my purchases and stuff, hinting at how much I had (I was just budgeting to buy the stuff so it was extra annoying).
Ad people like this are always the worst with their money.

No. 250866

As someone who works in the medical field, the pressure they put on people for certain exams IS a way to make money. You don't need a pap often, especially if you are under 30, and even then it's only really necessary every 4 years or so. If you are on medications then it is important to do check ins and labs, but jfc if I had a nickel for every time I got pressured into doing something that really wasn't medically necessary, I wouldn't have to work. At my check ups, they still to this day pressure me about certain types of BC and when I was ~19 they manipulated me into getting the HPV vaccine when I was not comfortable with it.

Even labs will harass doctors to pester their patients do xyz labs again, when it's up to the doctor's discretion. Be careful with specialists, like GYNs, because they can take advantage of women who don't feel comfortable/are scared and just say yes because they don't know better.

Also, if you are in that much pain, find a new GYN and tell them about your experience. You should not be hurting that much or experiencing those kinds of symptoms after a check up.

No. 250867

Also to add, your primary care provider can prescribe BC. They only need you to get checked up on every few years if you are young. It is normal for places like that to send you letters about coming in, but you CAN say no. Honestly, I would tell your GP about your experience, ask for a referral for another place, and they should also be able to fill your BC while you transfer to another place.

No. 250893

My best friend might not be coming to my grandmother's funeral because her mom's birthday is the same day.

I'm trying to be chill, but she was my friend closest to her, helped with taking care of her, and was there with me the last time I saw her. It's not like she's one of the friends just coming to support me, she actually played a large role in my grandma's life. I don't see why she can't come and celebrate her mom's birthday during the evening.

No. 250898

I mean I can see why someone would rather celebrate a birthday than attend a funeral.
It's sad anon but some people really can't stand funerals. I'm one of them, no matter how close to the deceased they make me uncomfortable and never feel like they help me grieve.

Although maybe she should reach out to you in some other way since it sounds like you need some emotional support.

No. 251011

I know I already complained about that but I'm already sick of ramadan. I've had coworkers asking me if I fast or not, which is already personal enough. But then I had some of these coworkers say that's too bad I don't fast while complaining the entire day about how they're tired, hungry, thirsty, pissed off because they're hungry, etc. So, is fasting a good or a bad thing then? Make up your mind you fucking idiots.

I already expected it but it's more annoying now than when I started my job, which was in the middle of ramadan last year.

No. 251016

File: 1526769350983.jpg (270.57 KB, 1280x960, possum.jpg)

I miss when the mods did cute things… Like april fools day pranks and just interacting with us more in general. Part of me feels like the site has changed for the better (rules and rule enforcement, order, user base is a bit less cringe, etc.), but sometimes I still miss the way it used to be.

pic semi-related

No. 251095

File: 1526784765188.jpeg (7.95 KB, 168x299, images.jpeg)

I spent the last hour being giddy over what I thought was a good idea, only to realize I had completely misred the scenario.

I looked into one of those betting websites for losing weight.
Initially I thought it was like creating a kickstarter where friends and family donate money to my goal, and I only get the money if I fulfill that goal or lose it all if I don't make it.

Turns out that's not how it works. I could only create host games where other fatties join in the bet and depending who wins, splits that pool of betted money.

I'm really disappointed, I didn't catch that until my second read through because the person's page that I saw the website listed on didn't mention it was a competitive payout against others.

And based on reviews, the profit payout for most games is mediocre at best.
Lol, I thought I was being so clever!
My goal would have been 15% of my weight by fall, which is when I'm going to Japan. I was going to use that money to put into my savings.

I don't know whether to laugh at my naive retardation, or cry…

No. 251098

>creating a kickstarter where friends and family donate money to my goal, and I only get the money if I fulfill that goal or lose it all if I don't make it.
there definitely is things like this out there, have a look around. Look more generally than weight loss, just goals - but having said that if you can't find one,
>creating a kickstarter
is this against their terms or can't you just go straight ahead and make your page?

No. 251101

I'll keep looking but I'm running into websites with the same pool betting setups.

Personally I've never made a kickstarter before, suppose I could look into their TOS to see if that sort of thing is allowed.
It's just that the weight loss sites add…something like credibility? For instance, the website I was looking into had internal auditing where you submit a picture of yourself and one on your scale of the weigh in/out. Someone from the website reviews the submissions to make sure you're not bullshitting or cheating. Also none of that would be published for everyone to see.
I liked that because my number is pretty high, and I'm embarrassed for people to know it.

One could say I could just show a graph or something without numbers on the kickstarter, but again, I don't think that website would force me to weigh out. People could probably see that as a problem and donate less for the fact. Shit, if I didnt see someone's numbers I'd probably be skeptical too.
I just don't want it to come off as straight begging.

No. 251103

Not trying to be an asshole but why would anybody pay you anything just for losing weight? Strangers or family/friends?

No. 251109

Family and friends like I said, it wasn't going to be open for strangers because this is personal and I was just gonna share it on my fb. I'm sure strangers don't care about my weight loss, and would begrudge me money towards an international trip as a reward.

I mean I know you weren't trying to be offensive, but you're asking me who do I think I am for asking money for weight loss.
Meanwhile I see youtubers get donations for creating content like unboxing videos, makeup tutorials, cosplay supplies, and pretty much stuff they've been doing on their own dime up until they mustered the gall to ask for money.
And hell, some people give them money just because they ask.

Why not me too, you know? Shit, at least it's for betterment. People always threaten fatties about how we'll wind up costing taxpayers one way or the other, seems like I'm thrice a financial burden on society as a whole if I stay this way or worsen. I'm not even asking the public, just people who claim to care about me.

No. 251111

Where I live there are grants for losing weight. Not sure how you go about qualifying but look into that, you look some pounds and you can make some money maybe??

No. 251115

Youtubers at least provide entertainment.
Other people wanting money for doing nothing isn’t really a good justification or defense for asking money from people for doing even less. You eating fewer calories is even less entertaining than a product review.

What actual reason is there for anyone to pay you for losing weight? Other than ‘other people get money too’ and ‘it’s only my family and friends’

I’d tell my best friend or my mother to get fucked if they asked for fifty bucks because they lost 20 pounds they needed to lose anyway.

Youtubers offer a service, even if it’s one you don’t like. What gain does anyone get out of giving you their hard earned cash?

No. 251122

You really need to get over your entitlement.

No. 251124

File: 1526792422603.jpg (43.56 KB, 500x490, tumblr_inline_p8whrs08tR1uevdh…)

>bloated and with diarrhea for a week
>every meal is pain
>can't focus on work at all but don't want to call in sick and lose time at the doctors
>after a 9 days, finally have a good day where im not nauseous and dead

>immediately the day after

>bloated again, diarrhea
>period started early and now i'm back with the bad shits, bloating and nausea aaand now cramping pain
>mfw one more week of this

No. 251126

If she’s like, super obese she could make a few bucks doing a YouTube series about the “weight loss journey” bs but tbh it won’t get much attention unless she’s shockingly fat or really charismatic. (I’m guessing charisma is a no since she thinks her pals should pay her to eat a bit less)
How fat are you talking? Just regular American sized or over 300 pounds?

No. 251127

I'm not demanding anyone give me money though. Don't friends and family usually give money to causes for their loved ones, health conditions or drug addictions?
I don't get you, it's not entitlement for sure if I'm not acting like I'm owed money. I'm just asking.
Not 300 pounds obese, but probably half a person away from that.
Again, don't want to. This is personal and I don't think I'm ready to attach my identity to it.

Look at the reactions I got from you two. I don't want to deal with that hostility from people.

No. 251131

Youtubers aren’t demanding money either. You’ve not provided a single reason as to why anybody shouldn’t would give you money to eat less, and you’re clearly very sensitive to any criticism of this idea so I think you know it’s a pretty foolish and selfish one.

Nobody is going to want to give you their money to not be excessively fat, and it’s honestly bizarre to think that anybody would think it’s a good idea to even ask.

All you’ve done is say you don’t think youtubers should be paid and that you’re not forcing people to give you things. Do you really think that’s a good reason to do something?

More people would post your fundraiser to places like fatlogic and choosing beggars on reddit than donate to you for doing literally nothing.

No. 251132


But maybe it's not about "entertainment" and more like people wanting to support those who are trying to make better choices.
Not everything has to entertain you to be valid.

Imo if incentivizing people to lose weight works then it should be done. I had no idea until the anon mentioned upthread that some countries give grants to people who want to lose.
Maybe you should let those governments know how they're just giving out entitlements and what a terrible idea that is, since you have the answers apparently.

No. 251134

I honestly can’t comprehend having the gall to look my friends in the eye and say ‘hey, would you give me money if I don’t eat twice as much as I need everyday?’

Paying to send a relative to rehab is lifesaving medical treatment, you think wanting to lose weight is the same thing?

Asking people for things you have done absolutely nothing for is extremely entitled, and the fact that you can’t see that is disturbing. You need help not other people’s cash.

No. 251135

>Youtubers aren’t demanding money either.

The fuck they're not lmao.


I'd say that's a bit different than anon's one time bet with a goal in mind. Take off the rose colored glasses and stop acting like youtubers are different.

Oh and by the way–calm down nonnie. Take your Patreon hateboner back to the Jill thread.

No. 251136

The entertainment point is that they offer a good or service in exchange for money. Gofatme anon is offering nothing in exchange for money, and if the incentive of not suffering from obesity isn’t enough, money is a waste.

No. 251137

>losing weight isn't the same as lifesaving treatment

Well, it kind of is. That's what things like bariatric surgeries are for. So morbidly obese people don't die within the next few years. You seem awful assblasted for me just spitballing an idea.

Personally I'm glad I'm not related to you, you sound nasty.

No. 251138

We get it. You hate fat anon. Next.

No. 251139

Kind of like saying ‘I want to go to japannnnnn reeeeeeee! This is my holidaaaayyyy.

Especially when most people contributing are contributing to a dead cause. If anon was serious about losing weight they’d have started already. You wanna pay someone twenty bucks to say they want to lose 70pounds?

No. 251140

She’s not bariatric. She’s just selfish

No. 251142

>anon hasn't started losing weight

Don't act like that.
Why would I be looking at betting websites if I haven't already known I've been losing?
I don't get money if I don't drop.

For your info, I've been losing steadily. I just wanted to incentivize myself to stay on track. I know, horrible offense. I might as well rob a sweet old granny with a twinkie shaped like a gun.

No. 251143

I'd qualify for it if I could afford it. Actually.

No. 251144

None of this is reason to think anybody wants to give you free money for doing what you should have been doing already in order to not die fifteen years early.

No. 251145

You see harm in asking, which is why it's bizarre.
I gave other people donations to their gofundmes, I didn't have a chip on my shoulder about it like you seem to.

No. 251146

And you’re prioritising a holiday to japan over potentially life saving surgery, but anyone who thinks you shouldn’t ask your family and friends to pay is an evul fat shamer wahhh

The entitlement is astounding.

Should you also get free umbrellas from all the shops if you choose to go out without on in the rain?

No. 251147

Yeah the audacity really does amaze me. The audacity of anyone starting one for anything other than genuinely life saving medical shit is off the charts.
Why should anybody get free money for a holiday or for doing literally nothing? They aren’t kids and nobody needs a holiday, a photo shoot, a second car or the other shit people proudly beg money for.

You think it’s ridiculous that entertainers ask for payment but furiously defend asking for money for doing literally nothing but eating less. The fact that you’re not ashamed of that blows my fucking mind

No. 251149

Because my travel to Japan is a prize I won through my job and I need to use it by December.
Oh and, a bariatric surgery is oh, say more than a few thousand dollars when all I need for Japan is a fraction of that cost.
So no, I'm not going to miss a one time opportunity because you want me to have surgery first to prove something exactly.

I get your point, but I disagree with you. You can stop.

No. 251151

Yeah you’re really gonna love japan if you’re this upset over getting called out over a terrible idea and obesity. Japan is super welcoming of allllllll that noise.

Maybe when your friends and family laugh in your face you’ll realise how bad of an idea it actually is and stop acting like a victim because you got told it’s shitty to beg. Absolutely ridiculous.

No. 251153


My family would never act like hateful cunts to me as the way you're being. You're the only one who sounds like you have a bug in your ass. I'm done with you.

Oh and stop derailing. I'm sure nobody else cares about what you think is and isn't entitled.

No. 251154

File: 1526796436587.jpeg (67.12 KB, 992x749, 91E6B73A-7968-4EDC-AF81-BB2E29…)

No. 251156

nta, but you sound like a real cow (literally kek). maybe you should consider making a youtube series about your ~weight loss journey~ so we can make fun of you here.

No. 251157

>I’d tell my best friend or my mother to get fucked if they asked for fifty bucks because they lost 20 pounds they needed to lose anyway

I'd give my mom $50 if she quit smoking. You sound really mean, no wonder your friends and family wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire.

No. 251161

Seriously. I’d pay my dad $50 for every cigar he refrained from smoking. Not that he’d take it

No. 251162

Lmao nice. 10/10 insult gofatme-anon.

Who do you think I got those values from if not my family? Thought you were done with the big bully fat shamers?

No. 251163

The slaton sisters and amberlynn should give you a good idea.

No. 251165

They didn't do a very good job with you.
>everyone who disagrees with me is fat

Uh oh, I've seen this somewhere else not too long ago. 13 BMI chan, that you?

No. 251168

Dat reach.

The anon mentioned is the one who has said they are a candidate for bariatrics. One person isn’t everyone or screeching that people looked cute in holodomor pictures.

No. 251170

What is this word salad?

No. 251172

The anon called fat is the one who has already stated that they are large enough to be a bariatric patient.

That’s different to calling others fat, and different to spending three days saying that people who look like they existed during famine are the cutest, the way bmi13-anon did.

It’s a commendable length to reach. Well done.

No. 251173

Just because you can't understand something doesn't mean that it's word salad, fatty-chan.

No. 251174

Nah i did word it badly.

No. 251176

BMIchan is a ban evader and known to be relentlessly hostile. It's not a reach at all, though you seem to want to convince me otherwise.

It really didn't make sense. You need sleep, you're tired from acting like different anons.

No. 251177

I wasn't acting like a different anon and I'm not that ana freak, the only posts I've made to you are >>251173 and >>251156

No. 251178

Okay then gofatme. Let us know how many people rush to donate money to your worthy, worthy cause.

No. 251179

Openly hostile like calling people cunts for not supporting the idea of begging loved ones for a few grand to spend on a holiday?
There can only be one person who disagrees with their master genius plan.

No. 251181

File: 1526798436820.jpg (44.86 KB, 600x677, tumblr_mjkfjrIFyZ1s8r2c1o1_400…)

I hate my life, hate myself and see no prospect for things ever improving. I hate being poor and would have just gone into sex work if I had the looks for it. I keep applying for better jobs and keep getting rejected. I can't keep or make friends and the few I have are in such shitty positions themselves we can't hang out. My family doesn't like me. I've never had a good relationship and don't think it would be worthwhile to bother. I've got a suicide countdown of sorts, at which point I reexamine whether its worth doing or if I still somehow have delusions of things getting better. People with suicide countdowns should not get into relationships.

I'm about as irritated as I am sad. Fuck this. There.

No. 251182

You don't get to play the victim card after aggressively hounding someone for a difference in opinion until they show you a bit of aggression back.

No. 251185

>Point out gaping flaw in your argument,
>playing the victim

No wonder you think shameless begging is an excellent idea.

No. 251186

I'm watching a documentary series about women killers and it made me want the manhate thread back so bad.

Every last one of them is portrayed in a particularly negative way. The focus is always on the victims and how sad it was that they died, the viewer is encouraged to be outraged by their deaths at all times and nothing else. These women's motives are glossed over or have their importance completely disregarded, they're exposed solely for context. They're never given as a reason for the crime, just as an excuse for a psychopathic woman to kill someone with no remorse. Every single woman is portrayed as a calculating psychopath.

And actually, all of that is absolutely fine. That's absolutely the proper way to go about a crime documentary: making it clear at every turn that these people are in the wrong, that the consequences are devastating, that no amount of subjective suffering justifies murder.

That's never how documentaries about male murderers go. These are women who had regular lives, who were involved with one single instance of murder. Documentaries about male serial killers who did much worse things and openly enjoyed inflicting pain always find a way to make the viewer sympathize with the son of a bitch, or glamorize the whole thing. Or they treat the sob as a complex human being with complex emotions and thoughts, with real motives and desires, with things they believed in that drove them to murder, they're never shown in this pathetic one-dimensional characterization.
This is bullshit. Even murderers get treated as human beings as long as they're male.

No. 251187

The gaping flaw is that you got called a name after spending more than ten posts doing the exact same thing and being as shrewd?
I guess you win cause you say so.

No. 251188

Ted bundy has fan girls, women who snap and kill abusive spouses are portrayed like spiders.

No. 251189

The gaping flaw in trying to drag the Ana chan drama into me despite not being the only one who’s a bitch and by saying an obese person is fat.

Give it up and just go panhandle your holiday money already.

No. 251191

You were being pretty bitchy and that's why you were called that. Stop.

No. 251192

Jesus anon, I don't agree with asking people money for a holiday, but anon's idea sounded valid in her opinion so I'll respect. You can just disagree but you seem to have a huge hateboner for fat people and even seem jealous she gets to go to Japan. Calm down and eat a sandwich.

No. 251195

Yup, it's ridiculous. One of them killed her husband and said multiple times that it was in self-defense and he had a dark side to him, that he was obsessive, that he thought if he couldn't be with her nobody else could.

Not a single person even entertained the thought that maybe she was telling the truth. They just said over and over that the guy was so nice, such a gentleman, that he loved her so much, he cherished her yadda yadda. I'm pretty sure that if she were telling the truth about her husband's behavior, this man would still defend him and say he acted that way because he loved her and she should have appreciated it instead of rejecting him. Fuck men.

No. 251198

How can you miss the point that hard? I’m saying it’s retarded to accuse me of being the anorexic psycho, I don’t care who calls me a cunt.

No. 251199

Because you're fixated on a non-issue and being a bitch about it, just like psycho skelly. It's over, chill out.

No. 251205

I'm not any of those anons you were talking to before, but come on. At first I thought I misread, why would anybody who you know personally gift you money? That's so embarrassing and you'd risk damaging your friendship.
>And hell, some people give them money just because they ask.
>Why not me too, you know? Shit, at least it's for betterment.
Giving money because you asked them = begging. Have some dignity.
>I'm not even asking the public, just people who claim to care about me.
That sounds an awful lot like "If you really care about me, you better pay!"…

I'm not a very thin person myself, so I know that it's hard, but we are the ones who got ourselves fat, so we're also the ones who have to do something against it.
People who always managed to maintain their weight im the first place are the ones who should get rewards.

No. 251206

i usually see that it goes the opposite, in a still sexist way tho, asking why these loving feminine creatures could turn so evil and crap.

No. 251252

>People who always managed to maintain their weight im the first place are the ones who should get rewards.

But why tho.
Lol but seriously, thanks for at least not being a shit to me about it like the other psycho.

No. 251383

Not that anon, but
>Those other anons (which was totally just one triggered anachan!!1) are psychos for thinking that begging for money for doing virtually nothing is shitty >:T
You sound like such an unbelievably shitty person. I hope you don't lose any weight, you slovenly, disgusting pig.

No. 251394

It is sad to read what you wrote. Unfortunately there is no magic cure for situations like these and your only way to deal with this is to set clear goals for yourself and actively work towards achieving them. You either suceed in achieving them or you die trying. The most important thing is to always think positive about your future and lie to yourself that everything will work out in the end.

I hope you will find the strenght to get out of this loop. I think you should give it one last try before actually calling it quits for good.
Good luck and stay strong.

No. 251395

You know there's a difference between saying something like
>"Anon what you're doing is entitled and could wind up driving your friends away so this isn't a good idea."
>"Omg you entitled gofatme you aren't doing shit for people how fucking dare you."

Anyway, I'm about to go on my second walk for the day with a friend.
Have a good time talking more shit and behaving miserable on lolcow today just because of a stupid idea I didn't even act on and vented anonymously about.

No. 251400

File: 1526848437523.gif (73.88 KB, 200x150, olala.gif)

>You sound shitty btw I hope you don't lose weight you stranger I've fought with once on the internet! That ought ta teach ya!

No. 251431

File: 1526851791394.gif (436.13 KB, 500x362, JvRjPo9.gif)

I helped my BF move out to LA last week so he can start his life but I'm staying in our hometown so I can finish my degree. I'm love him a lot and I'm going to miss him but I'm really afraid of how we're going to navigate a LDR. Part of me has faith that we can make it through and part of me has no idea what's going to happen. I could possibly have a degree and graduate by this December but I'm still scared.

No. 251439

File: 1526852913151.jpeg (144.89 KB, 1440x1254, 6717AD1C-68EE-40DE-8C1E-0CEC2F…)

>Argues their shitty point for over ten hours
>Wow im soooooo not bothered by you guys

No. 251470

File: 1526856385763.gif (1.26 MB, 480x270, giphy (11).gif)

>posts this hours after the fighting has stopped

No. 251473

File: 1526856971378.jpg (42.53 KB, 431x415, 1402862626768.jpg)

>friends are currently feuding against each other
>one friend hangs out with me
>posts pictures to social media
>the other friend gets jealous and tries to one up other friend by offering to do something else with me

Their fighting makes me a little uncomfortable and I know I'm just the object in their feud, but it feels kinda nice to be fussed over low key.
I'm liking the attention.

No. 251477


>"pls pay my fat weeaboo ass to lose weight or else you don't care about me and hate me reeeeee"-anon

No. 251482

File: 1526858199306.gif (424.79 KB, 512x512, lol.gif)

No. 251507

Why do you think the only people calling you out on your bs are anachans? You're no better than the skelly who sperged about how everyone who disagreed with her was fat.

No. 251508

I'm not even her, just taking the piss out of you because for all you protest about that fatty being bothered, you seem as roasted.

Knock it off. For real.

No. 251520

I hope you're still in HS. You might like this now, but in the future the tables will probably turn. Be careful of people like this, anon. They don't actually care about you. It seems like you're aware of that at least.

No. 251530

No, I'm 26 and they're about a year or so older than me. Tbh I do think they're immature in their own ways, I'm playing it smart by not telling either of them anything too personal, keeping it civil.

I just like the attention is all. I usually don't get much from friends these days.
If they dropped me tomorrow it would be business as usual.

I think the one friend genuinely likes me though. She includes me in things without doing it just to piss the other friend off, and reaches out to me. The other one clearly is more of a suck up and a bit shady, that's the one who one-ups constantly and who I'm cautious about.

No. 251534

That’s a shorty position to be put in anon. You don’t have to pick a side and if they ask you to, tell ‘em to piss off.

No. 251551

It's 3.30am where I am and I have to get up at 7am for an exam tomorrow. It's one of my college finals. I'm awake because my stupid fucking brother has been banging on my wall all night and I'm an extremely light sleeper.

He does this all the time when I have an exam. He loves getting into fights and he's just waiting for me to text him or tell him off so he can wake the rest of the house too. He's such a cunt. I'm always quiet when I know someone is studying or sleeping but he's such a spoiled, manipulative little shit and he doesn't care about anyone but himself. I honestly hate him and I can't wait to excommunicate once I eventually move out.

No. 251557

Less than a year ago I spent a week crying about feeling the need to kill myself. My grades were in the shitter and I felt like I had no future. I just had some extremely unstable moods and behaviors in general.

Now I feel really great about my life and I feel rather at peace. My grades are less shitty now, and I've gotten a dream internship beyond my wildest imagination.

But since I'm an anxious person there's a feeling lurking at the back of my mind that something might not be right. Is it really possible for someone to change this much less than a year? I didn't take meds or go to therapy. I feel like people usually say recovering to this extent without any professional help is impossible.

No. 251559

File: 1526871336479.jpg (54.02 KB, 400x400, yakui.jpg)

I need to see a therapist but it's hard to get in contact with one. I live with my parents in a shitty satellite city with limited options and have tried looking into online counseling but I'm unsure about it. I used to see this family therapist in high school that I tried getting in contact with recently and he hasn't called me back. I feel like it's because he remembers what a dumb cunt I was and doesn't want to deal with me again. Part of me thinks I just need to stiff out my emotional problems but I'm really starting to think that it's impossible.

No. 251561

I'm so fucking angry. I found out about an incel who catfishes girls on tinder and then sets up dates with them. He shows up to those dates with a camera and makes fun of the girls and even calls them names. What the fuck there's nothing to be done against this guy?

No. 251566

File: 1526872229477.png (1.5 MB, 750x1334, rGkvamo.png)

MGOTW and incels are the scum of the earth. MGOTW isnt as bad… but they're more of a incel in progress, despite their denials.

I've heard a syndrome like this before, forgot it's name though. You deserve every bit of what you've earned. Work hard. Good luck anon!

Ouch, best wishes to you anon.

No. 251571

Most mgtows are incels tbh
One minute
next minute:
"Waaah women wont have sex with me after I opened the door, all women want chad cock"

I wouldnt even care but it's been contaminating a lot of youtube tbh, everything from the news, to cat videos, to just innocent videos, mgtows and incels have to turn everything into a gender war of how oppressed men are by western women, its always western women too, which I don't get because most western women aren't feminists, some are even MRAs but it shows you who they are when most western women can be carbon copies of what they want but god forbid a few bitches exist because that apparantly represents all women who live in a certain area

No. 251580

I believe you're talking about what they call imposter syndrome


and anxiety definitely plays into it. I've experienced it myself in the past couple years now that I've gotten my "shit together" yet I still have this horrid past full of mistakes and blunders. I try to just be thankful and stop doubting myself all the time. I'm sure you're doing great anon, just keep it up and good luck with your internship. You may consider therapy though if your anxiety and self doubt interferes with your daily life.

No. 251635

She said her grades were bad though, sounds more like something like bipolar.

No. 251642

I am miserable every single day and I wish I had a way out.

I remember the last time I felt happy. I was 15. I remember being happy at home with my mother. I remember going to the shops with her. I remember going on walks. I remember I was doing well in school, I remember I had friends, I remember being okay.
I guess it was when I was 16 when I started falling apart, and never really was able to put myself back together. The subsequent years are filled with so many terrible decisions, which hurt myself and disappointed those around me. And I guess the only reason I can blame for being unhappy is myself.

I think it was three years ago when I made the decision to really be better. I tried to be a better person. I cut out my toxic relationships. I stopped doing cigarettes, weed, even alcohol. I enrolled in college. I got to the root of my problems–from being a star student that never even stayed up late, to a chronic fuck up who could barely wake up in the morning. And I think I realized that I was depressed because I was suppressing the many years of abuse I encountered as a very young child at the hands of the family my dad remarried into. I pushed myself to be better. And I eventually did alright. From an objective standpoint, someone would see a person who is doing well in life.

But every day I feel horribly, terribly alone. I can't connect with anyone. I just feel so apart and so disconnected no matter how hard I try. Life feels like this weird, endless, dark hole; it feels like I'm falling backward into a bottomless pit with no way to stop it.

I realize that happiness is something you have to work at. It's not freely given. And I realize that, by the luck of my own birth, I have resources and opportunities that other people don't. So I exercise. I get enough sunlight. I have hobbies. I eat a plant based diet, I drink lots of water, I have cut out soda and I don't do drugs. I try to stay in contact with people. I push myself to go to school and to volunteer. I keep a diary. I try to fix my negative behavior patterns, I try to recognize when I'm being irrational, I think about how my actions affect others and how my thoughts affect my actions. I ask people for advice. I'm going to see a therapist for the first time in years next week.

But I'm not happy. And it's not even that I'm not happy, it's that I'm profoundly miserable. I hate waking up every single day. I hate that I'm a bad person, I hate how I look, I hate how stupid I am, I hate that I'm a self-centered asshole, I hate I haven't graduated from college yet, I hate that my family sees me as a disappointment, I hate that I can't be a good girlfriend, I hate that I'm a bad friend, and I hate that I constantly do the wrong thing. I hate that every single day I feel hopeless. I have not felt excited about anything in years. I am constantly afraid that the people I love hate me, that they are always talking about me behind my back. I get unreasonably jealous when it comes to my boyfriend and I can often be moody and sullen and emotional. It feels like no one ever does anything unless they can make sure I won't be there. And maybe they're right in doing that–maybe because I'm such an awful, boring, sad person they don't want me to come. But it still makes me feel so much more lonely.

I want to get out of this. I can't keep faking the idea that things are going to get better. I can't keep going when every day I feel worse and worse and I hate the future and I hate the past and I just don't want to go on anymore.

The last time I posted my thoughts about this I was told to sod off and that I was just a whiny, stupid girl. I'm sorry that I'm posting again. I understand that, by and large, there's no reason for me to be sad. I have a family, friends, a boyfriend, a roof over my head, I'm in school, ect. I have everything I need and I try so hard to recognize that and to be grateful for what I've been given. I try to be happy, to make the right decisions. But I can't be. I think there's something wrong with me. I keep making all these stupid decisions and feeling all these stupid sad things and I can't fix it and I don't want to keep trying anymore. I don't feel like it's ever going to get better.

I just want to say I doubt your old therapist isn't returning your calls for any personal reason. He may not be accepting patients at the time, or he may be looking to close his practice, or any number of reasons.

Have you looked at https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists for finding a therapist near you? I'm assuming you live in the US, so I'm sorry if this doesn't help you. Also, if you're not sure about how to go about talking to a therapist, here's this useful guide:


I wish you all the best.

Not to armchair, but I feel like her feeling better about her life after getting better grades and a good internship isn't a symptom of bipolar disorder. It sounds like anon is just struggling with anxiety or depression and is questioning if she deserves feeling better about her life, which I'm sure a lot of people can relate to. I think this anon >>251580 hits the nail on the head.

No. 251669

i'm pissed off with my adult ass upper middle class friends getting super immersed in communism for some reason

like it just started out as memes but now i can see they really just want to never get jobs and do their shitty hobbies all day so they always quote marx and shit to justify it. not even edgy enough to be real welfare queens and do drugs or w/e. just draining their parents income and playing pokemon and crying. i just know that under communism they wouldn't have the opportunity to be the hammy weebs they are, so why are they so obsessed with it ? I come from a low income background and everyone gets annoyed with capitalism now and then but they give me shit all the time for not being a commie

No. 251691

a while ago i found a term online that really explained how i've felt for years. i've seen a therapist before but haven't for a while, but i thought about going back to her to talk about it, but i'm kind of worried because i don't want to know i identify with a thing that gets laughed at or called too tumblr or whatever. i think i'd rather ignore it and stay feeling weird inside than have part of me be something so put down

No. 251702

Yeah I think that's part of it. One thing is that I did really well in high school, struggle in college, and am doing well in college again. I'm just surprised with the problems I've had I managed to recover relatively quickly.

Impostor syndrome sounds about right. Thanks for the luck!

I definitely don't have bipolar. I've never had a manic episode, just depression. I was worried me feeling good could be mania, but then I realized that people do a lot of impulsive things then.

No. 251716

>I am constantly afraid that the people I love hate me, that they are always talking about me behind my back. I get unreasonably jealous when it comes to my boyfriend and I can often be moody and sullen and emotianal.
I was abused too and have these feelings. Might be cptsd.

No. 251719

I was diagnosed with PTSD by a psychiatrist when I was a teen, but I've never heard of CPTSD. What is that?

I'm so sorry you went through it too, anon.

No. 251722

"you can get PTSD after one traumatic event like an accident, but you can’t get complex PTSD after one traumatic event. You can get complex PTSD after you’ve been in a traumatizing situation for a long time in which you had the feeling you could not escape. Such a situation can easily last months or years, and often these experiences change your personality. People with complex PTSD can have outbursts of anger, feel always sad, and have suicidal thoughts. Sometimes they can forget about the horrible event, or relive it. They often feel guilty, shameful, helpless and worthless. Those suffering complex PTSD can find it hard to trust others again, and issues with intimacy can arise."

No. 251728

God, NTA but I was also only diagnosed with regular PTSD and this explains so many of my long term issues as well. I deal with huge rage issues and push everyone away out of fear and paranoia.

I believe therapy or opening up to a loved one is the way to go with this sort of issue. My mother has helped me a lot so far, and I'm sure a good therapist could do the same. Good luck with therapy, >>251642 !

No. 251731

Reading this, I just kind of went.. "oh."

I was abused every weekend for many years of my life, starting when I was very young. This is all making things much more clear.

Is this an actual diagnosis in the DSM? As in, will my therapist be able to help me with it?

No. 251748

I hate how the guy I like keeps bringing up this girl (with this dumb ass name).

No. 251750

It's not official sadly, and I guess it would be harder to treat than regular ptsd but maybe you can find a therapist that knows about it.
I tried getting emdr therapy but it was too expensive so I stopped going, so I don't really know what helps.

No. 251757

Some unethical shrinks will use C-PTSD as shorthand for borderline, be aware. Unless you have a strong history of physical and/or sexual abuse, they don’t diagnose C-PTSD. Not where I am, anyhow.

No. 251762

CBT can still help, anon. So can spiritually based meditation, for me, anyhow.

No. 251768


I've always been wary of getting treatment for my mental health because of the fear of the borderline stigma. I just want to get help with my problems and be a better person, but I'm afraid of being turned away if I'm too much to handle.

I hope therapy will help because all my relationships, especially with myself, are in crisis right now and I don't know how to go forward without having a breakdown every day.

No. 251787

File: 1526926512922.gif (1.94 MB, 500x269, 2F3E97D1-9633-46F4-9171-4AFC95…)

I’m tired of being a fucking airhead with no reason to exist.
I have money and anything I could ask for but I’m tired of having an IQ equivalent to a pickle.

I don’t know where to start and I’m scared that I’ll sound even more stupid if I ask for help.

No. 251812

Just got to my room and I think someone slept in my bed. Immediately after entering I sensed that's something's wrong. The bed is made differently. I have quite unique way of making my bed so I can see it.
My pillow smells of some hair product I don't recognize.
Now I don't know if I'm being paranoid or my fucking roommate was hosting someone here. It infuriates me, and it's a special pet peeve of mine (I don't even accept my beloved cats in bed) but I can't really go "hey did you let someone sleep in my bed because it smells funny" also we are barely on talking terms, we're living together but we're like two strangers.
Why had gods punished me with an Erasmus roommate

No. 251818

This reminds me I once let a boy sleep (sleep only, no sex) in my housemates' double bed for a few hours with me before work (my room was single bed and she was on holiday)

Am I going to hell

No. 251832

My husband and I have had sex on my mother-in-law's bed.

Before I was with my husband, I hooked up with a youth minister and we fucked on the pool table in the rec room of his church.

You're fine.

No. 251834

Don't ask if someone did sleep. Just go up to them and tell them something like "Hey, if you ever have someone over and they want to sleep here, don't let them use my bed. Thanks." If they ask wtf you're talking about you can either confront them or tell them "oh you know I just thought it'd be good to set some rules straight".

Also Erasmus is a great thing you just were unlucky with the person.

No. 251846

File: 1526936147547.jpg (22.86 KB, 275x231, snakeicide.jpg)

>spent the last 3 years suffering from apd
>finally making progress on making acquaintances at work and school and become a progressive citizen
>family sees progress and pushes me to go out and experience the world
>end up being forced to stop by store to get my cat's food
>rushing too fast out the door
>bump into a 9/10 girl
>she says sorry and automatically starts chatting me up
>become friends with the stacy at the shitty retail store after 30 mins of her talking at me
>every friday i stop by from work for cat food
>she's always hanging around outside
>3 weeks past
>turns out we have the same interests mainly music and movies
>turns out she lives at the same block as me
>she's now a 10/10
>am i a lesbian?
>she tells me her bf works at the store
>damn, here comes another silent crush
>5 months pasts by and we're on best friend status
>late summer night
>walking down street bc insomnia and new pair of balls
>see her bf walking down the street into her apartment building
>clearly on something
>he dropped his wallet
>thinks about giving him his wallet until he's gone
>continue my walk
>suddenly stacy stops showing up at the store and stops texting me for a month
>too autistic to visit her
>just thinks she forgot about me
>a year later a body was found by our harbor
>she was shot
>mfw it was stacy
>mfw i didn't know for 2 years bc a dead prostitute isn't newsworthy
>mfw i could've possibly stopped her pimp but didn't
>mfw her pimp is not in the country anymore

No. 251860

Holy shit, this sounds too crazy to be true. Did you give the cops info about him?

No. 251876

uh well at least in a slightly different universe you experienced an epic love story with a happy ending

No. 251880

My MIL gets told all the time not to put pics of my husband or I on social media. She always agrees to this then just does it again not long after.

The last time she took a pic of us, she said "don't worry, I won't put it on Facebook". I thought to myself "I bet she's gonna put it on Instagram" and immediately felt guilty for doubting her.

Sure enough, she puts it on fucking Instagram.

No. 251885

I indeed did, including physical description and his name, sure enough his personal info was fake
Life's a bitch

No. 251888

my bf just dumped me
he's suicidal and depressed and hears voices and nothing i could do helped
i feel like someone just ripped my heart out and stomped on it
he didn't believe i loved him he said I'm just young and confused but god damn it I love him and it's not fair i'd give anything for him to be happy and i'd wait forever just to die in his arms

i can't even cry anymore i just feel empty

No. 251907

Roommate is nasty and should absolutely not be allowing anyone in your bed. That’s disgusting, make them clean your linens.
You can absolutely ask them if they felt entitled enough to give away your space and allow someone to use your things.


No. 252028

Thanks for the info. I can relate to your post a lot honestly. I've also recently made positive changes in my life and yet it still feels like I'm being slowly crushed.

Have you tried reading? When I feel dumb reading always seems to make me feel a little sharper.

No. 252035

The fact you’re scared to ask is why you’re probably a lil dumb. Smart people ask questions. Lots and lots of them. All of the time. They question everything and everyone around them. You can’t be afraid to ask when that’s the only way to know.

No. 252111

Getting tired of how popular woman hate is now, although i know it's always been around. Seems men talk about it and get a large amount of support for it due to the growing popularity of alternative politics. There's so many videos with millions of views talking about women in a really negative manner with comments that make me honestly scared for my future around these men. It just makes me so angry that I work my ass off to have got where I am in life and some pathetic manosphere on the internet, addicted to vidya and rubbing his small sick to tranny porn thinks I'm beneath him just because I'm a woman. Why are woman trashed and called roasties when i see them out having careers, getting degrees, and accomplishing so much? And I see so many men around me just not accomplishing anything, being fat slobs wasting most their life playing their video games and being on the internet, blaming the world for their problems.

No. 252112

…and women defending these little shits.

No. 252114

Jealousy, insecurity, and male narcissism. It's easier for men to laze around and trash women like the fucking bums they are instead of actually bettering themselves.

No. 252139

Was only talking to my bf recently and he mentioned hating how many YouTubers/streamers he once liked turned out to be alt-right, woman-hating assholes. I hate to sound like a Tumblrina but they're all straight, white men and I think it's a reaction to the rise of good, successful feminist movements. They look at things like #metoo or women's only events or steps towards equality in the workplace and they think "Weeeh but what about me? Feminism doesn't benefit meeee!"

So instead of looking into these movements and trying to understand them or where women are coming from, they push back. It's actually shocking how common it is to see men in support of banning abortion, pushing women out of the workplace, trying to make contraception less available, demanding boys be mollycoddled in the school system (because god forbid little girls are doing better!), men in support of human trafficking and becoming more religious and extremist in general. There's a huge amount of support for that kind of thing online and I feel like lolcow is the only place I feel comfortable anymore due to it being majority female. Even Facebook disgusts me with the amount of men who would have fit in well during the 1800s posting their shitty, toxic opinions with absolutely no fear of society turning on them (their full names, face, pictures of their kids and workplaces…all public).

I'm taking a course in Computer Science atm and the opinions of some of these men would actually make you sick tbh. That might be another post.

No. 252140

you make it sound illogical but even if it's horrible it is consistent that men would scorn women
>when i see them out having careers, getting degrees, and accomplishing so much
For most of history this was the life of a man, and now women are acting more like men, which to you is just "being more accomplished" because you have internalised patriarchy. There's a type of feminism that points out that these concepts of career, industry academia etc., were created by men for them to do what men like doing. Women with careers are buying in to the masculine structure. You might not agree but probably men seeing a bunch of women being really good at being men, isn't doing it for them

No. 252143

What careers are you talking about, anon? You choose your career. If you're in a job that you like, that's hardly "giving in to our patriarchal society". There are more careers out there than working in an office, you know. Anyway, what's the alternative to you? Staying home and popping out kids? Cleaning? Cooking? Just because women got stuck with those careers, doesn't mean they enjoy them. In fact, I think the fact that we're getting closer to an equal society and I don't know any stay-at-home moms is a good sign that that's not what women enjoy doing when offered the choice.

No. 252148

>just because women got stuck with those careers, doesn't mean they enjoy them.
i think this is the point of that branch of feminism (i forget what it's called). The idea is women do actually like and enjoy caring, nurturing, raising children and things like cooking, but have been tricked into hating these things because they don't make any money for capitalism. Like the idea is a society where these aren't things that people think are for losers.

No. 252149

I think I got a bad cold. I can't miss a day of my internship or I'll have to do them over and it's a pain to reschedule.
I can't think, I can't work, I just want to sleep.
I'll have to go beg my doctor to give me something and spend 50€ I don't have on it.
I feel like killing myself over it and it's so stupid.
I hope my doctor will at least give me some kind of pain medication so I can be high while I'm miserable.
I don't know how I'm going to take a month of this AND then have to do all the work at the end.
And then do another year.
I feel like giving up again and just go back to being a neet full time waiting 'till my bf don't want me anymore to kms.

No. 252150

Imagine being dumb enough to think that women actually enjoy cleaning toilets, getting up earlier so that her kids and husband get a breakfast and then having to wash their dirty undies on top of it…

No. 252151

wait till you actually have a kid, you'll open your eyes. Oh wait you're a careercel, it wont happen

No. 252156

What's a careercel? Why not use normal English words that are in the dictionary like career-oriented instead of using retarded /r9k/ lingo?

Oh wait, you're a brainlet and a robot.

Anyhow, I've personally been in a care giver/nurturer situations and I know that I really don't enjoy them and I also know that I'm not a special snowflake and that there are lots of other women like me that don't like it either.

Besides, all the moms that I know get treated like shit after a short time. It's truly an unthankful job when your husband and kids start taking you for granted and you don't get paid for all the time that you spend nor can you put it on a resume. If you're a stereotypical stay-at-home mom then you entirely depend on your husband and hope that he doesn't ditch you for a younger woman like it usually happens when men get in their mid-life crisis.

No. 252157

I agree with you, anon(s).

I love cooking for myself, but most mothers aren't cooking meals they want to eat nor getting appreciation every time they do it. It's just an expectation in most households.

Cleaning? I love me a clean home. But try picking up after a pig husband and a few brats everyday and it gets tiresome as hell. Another unappreciated daily task that gets swept under the rug because people assume since women silently do it, they must like it.

It's overall boring and tedious.

I'm pretty sure the reason why housewives don't share more of their grievances is because they don't want to be judged for sounding lazy or unmotherly. But it's true. Picking up after people and being their maid day in and out is fucking awful.

However let's not even pretend that women are only expected to be domestic these days. It takes two incomes to keep a household afloat because men no longer bring home a meaningful salary. In addition to being mommies and maids, they now have to work full time or part time too.
There was a study that found women who have a job and then come home to do chores are more likely to be depressed. Because who isn't depressed when they bust their ass at a job only to come home to kids and a messy house? That's UNPAID labor that women are just expected to do to prove how "nurturing" they are.

No. 252159

>you don't get paid for all the time that you spend nor can you put it on a resume
i'm surprised at the extent that you cannot even conceive what I'm talking about

No. 252163

Enlighten me then.

What happens when children or the husband or both don't reciprocate mother's affection? All that time, all that labor for nothing.

With work, you get experience that makes you more competitive in the job market. With work you get compensated in money. With housework, you get neither.

But I'm sure in your imaginary world traditional families are perfect and no such thing happens. Husbands are always faithful and children are always grateful and women love scrubbing the house clean day after day but the evil jews made stupid women think otherwise, right?

No. 252173

>wait till you actually have a kid, you'll open your eyes.
I highly doubt having kids will make someone suddenly enjoy changing nappies and doing thankless work for a lazy husband, you nutter.

This. I agree with everything you said.

No. 252175

>having children doesn't make money for capitalism

are you high? do you know how the economy works? please explain how all the countries with low birth rates (like japan) are royally fucked because of low birth rates.

having children is definitely contributing to the economy because they're fucking expensive. in the USA we get tax breaks for having them.

idk what "muh capitalism" even has to do with it, but you sound like a moron, a bitter moron.

No. 252177

i think you've misunderstood a big part of a lot of feminist ideas about capitalism? a pretty big part of capitalism is relying on unpaid labour at home done by women, who have to also raise children to contribute too. the nuclear family with a doting mother idea is pushed as the natural thing to do because in the long term it's the most successful under capitalism. many, many women have absolutely zero desire to spend their lives picking up after other people but once you've already decided to do what you're encouraged to do and pop out a couple of kids, they have to stick to what their life is for the foreseeable future and make the best of it

No. 252179

Maybe in some places Erasmus students are better, especially in countries that are popular and appealing so more people genuinely interested in an experience of exchange go there. In my dorm everyone hates them because they think they're in some American teenage movie - acting loud and obnoxious, shouting and singing in corridors, knocking on random doors at night, barging into the rooms, intoxicated 24/7. This isn't how real life is. They're here for a little while so they don't care. My uni handles them shittly and they have little to no classes, allowing them to do everything except studying. Dorm security can't speak English, they're useless. The only thing we can do is file a complaint but I'm not sure they even check those. God I hate them. Not like I hate individual humans, but this collective of wild Erasmus students. I was way more tolerant and always defended them until my floor suddenly became Erasmus floor this semester and they put this girl in my room. Now I know.
Whew, good to vent, bottled it up for a while

No. 252187

Damn they sound awful. I studied abroad (not on Erasmus though, out of Europe) and it was super fun because as you say, we had very few classes, and we were in a really nice and safe country so exploring and drinking at night was completely fine, but your situation sounds like a whole other bag of beans.

Maybe try to bring this to the international office at your uni. They should be in contact with the international office from their home uni(s), so if you and other students come forward with complaints about the group, they can relay them to their school which might in turn send them a warning (with possibly the threat of lowering credits or more). If no one ever complains then the next batch of erasmus will be just as bad because they'll have seen the cool party pictures and heard the wacky stories from their seniors and want to do the same, sadly.

No. 252188

It's not only Erasmus students, it's all foreign exchange students who have "Pass/Fail" classes. At my uni many are Americans, Mexicans and Colombians with money to blow on trips, drinking and taking instagram selfies of their #europevacay, and Master's students who don't do shit all year then panic when the time comes to write their Master's thesis. I went on a double diploma exchange programme (which meant that my grades would count and I had to take really difficult courses, but was otherwise treated as just another foreign student) and I couldn't do shit because I was too busy whereas Erasmus students partied and got drunk every night, then left during the exam week and would not stop posting those stupid #takemeback photos of all the fun they had and BAWWing on social media whilst we had to work our asses off yet everyone saw us as these dumb party kids.

No. 252194

>because they don't make any money for capitalism
LMAO WHAT? women's unpaid domestic labour is the foundation of capitalism LMAOOOOOOOO

No. 252202

> Getting tired of how popular woman hate is now

Exactly, it's everywhere now. I posted ITT a while back how thot and thotting are regularly used and applied to virtually every woman, and it's evidently a symptom of a wider and fiercer misogyny, at least online. Everything is a casus belli for a gender war. If a woman does something, it's clearly a sign that all women are like that. If a woman is a bad driver then all women are unfit to drive. If a woman complains about working, then all women have this suppressed desire to become homemakers. One false rape accusation is enough to discredit every rape accusation.

I never see the same amount of visceral hatred towards men when they do something, and even when someone (usually a woman) points out in an article about a guy that abuses his girlfriend or wife, or murders a woman, how men statistically are much more likely to commit such horrendous crimes, then there are numerous accounts that will defend men, saying how it's nothing like that, and that one man does not represent all men. Fair point, but the same apologetic stance doesn't seem to apply to women.

I don't engage in man hating threads and I've been on internet for a long time so I'm pretty much indifferent to misogyny in regular places which is why I noticed this alarming trend of women being insulted just for existing, calls for violence against women on unrelated videos, youtube channels, social media, news comments etc.

What's even more worrying is that it's seen as normal. We're accustomed to it.
If you as a girl don't laugh at such 'remarks' then you're a stuck up bitch. I've also seen other women both ironically and unironically throw the word thot at other women and men cheering. It's all so disgusting and vile.

No. 252204

Slightly off-topic but that reminds me of a guy from my university who went to Japan to study for a year and he wouldn't stop posting about him having fun, him eating in restaurants and McDonald all the time, partying and fucking a bunch of random guys on his tumblr. He bragged about Japanese colleges being way too easy for a genius like him before getting his grades, and it turned out that he failed his second semester. Despite the fact that college in Japan IS easier than the ones in our countries according to all the people I know who studied there. He's notoriously bad for showing off all the time and criticizing people who are at least as competent as him so I thought that was pretty funny.

All the Erasmus and foreign students I met during my classes where really serious about studying and had very good grades, but that didn't stop them from partying. But I can totally imagine others I don't know from my classes being there just for fun and thinking they're on holidays all year long. I wish I were rich enough to study abroad, fuck.

No. 252205

Guy i've been seeing for a month freaked out yesterday because I made a joke about the dress I forgot in his house looking great on him and started saying that's disrespectful and it ''would've earned me a blow'' if I were there.

I've really liked him previously but I honestly feel like him showing his true colours have made me lose everything that was previously there, I'm not sure if this is cold of me or it's justified.

No. 252206

File: 1527014841347.gif (2.79 MB, 700x394, giphy.gif)

>''would've earned me a blow'
that's not a red flag, that's a red curtain. Gtfo. What an insane thing to say to someone

No. 252207

Can we please have our man hate thread again? Are people just not making them or are the mods deleting them?

No. 252208

File: 1527014998189.jpg (62.06 KB, 800x800, red-flag-std_1.jpg)

I told him I want to stop seeing him and he started guilting me saying that it's concerning I would leave him ''THAT EASILY'' after the shit he said like uhhhhhhhhhh

No. 252209

Ew, men being uncomfortable with their masculinity is incredibly repulsive. I always interpret violent threat as testing the waters, if you let it slide maybe next time he can fake slap you., then slap you, then punch you, etc…

No. 252211

File: 1527015469468.gif (4.93 MB, 480x190, giphy (1).gif)

Anon, get out. That is the stupidest shit. Say sayonara to the crazy man. How are you even considering this? Block his number, peace out.

No. 252212

I'm scared he might show up at my house or do something else stalkery so i'm giving it a day like he said before peacing the fuck out

No. 252214

My guess is that the man hating thread is on auto-sage because it attracts unwarranted guests aka robots. tbh it's also annoying when you get other farmers that come in men's defense, even though the OP clearly states it's for anons to vent about their negative experience with men so it doesn't necessarily mean all men, but then you have to explain that to multiple anons that a) don't bother reading the OP, b) don't bother reading the thread or previous posts

So the man hating threads usually becomes a discourse between robots and farmers, where robots keep bringing up stale arguments and some farmers even try to rationalize with them and also a lot of repetitive posts in between "omg I can't believe you can be so mean to poor men!!1"

I'm not sure if I want the man hating thread back because of these reasons. If only people knew how to hide threads hmmm…

No. 252217

File: 1527017103044.jpg (12.88 KB, 269x269, w81A9dPd_400x400.jpg)

I just realized why everyone before me quit this job.

Our company basically consists of 3 salesmen (and one of them is the ceo), who travel often and then there's me. If all 3 of them decided to travel somewhere I'm left basically running the entire company - creating offers, writing down sales, communicating with the customers, transport organization, orders etc., the only thing I won't have to do is accounting.

Unless they pay me properly I'm out of there in a few months too

No. 252235

I'm bisexual (sigh maybe a closet lesbian) and I'm stuck in a hetero relationship. I want to break up but I'm afraid he'll kill himself (cause he's had several attempts lately) and he's my best friend.

I have never enjoyed sex with him. I thought it was cause I was depressed but now that I'm recovering I masturbate alone to girls.

I feel trapped. I've felt trapped for over a year.

No. 252267

Why do you assume she’s gonna end up with some gross slob and awful bratty kids? Maybe she’s smart enough to avoid the shit most of the women bitching about this stuff have avoided.

How is it not just as sexist to state that every single male is a lazy selfish piece of shot who can’t even use a tea towel as it is to say that women are nurturers who delight on cleaning everyone’s dirty socks.

No. 252292

>Maybe she’s smart enough to avoid the shit most of the women bitching about this stuff have avoided.
Yes, because people who cheat and act like slobs are open about it like that and take no measures whatsoever to conceal it and/or gaslight their partner into believing that it's actually their fault. Because once you're completely dependent on a guy for steady income and bound to him by a couple of kids you're not going to be afraid to rock the boat whatsoever.

Robot, swerve.

No. 252295

they will never cape for you no matter how much you lick their taint

No. 252299

With on-the-books work, you aren't the only one getting a cut. The government gets 15.3% of your salary, before income taxes. Your company is probably making something off your labor as well. Unless you like the job, I'd try to pay those institutions as little as I can.

Everyone should clean their own homes and cook their own meals anyway. Where the hell are you all finding men incapable of doing these basic chores anyway? Laundry, OK, but cooking and dish-washing are mostly male trades.

And I was coming in here to complain that no one had given me work in weeks and it was making me fear for my job.

Maybe we should swap.

No. 252324

You need to tell him the truth. It's not good for you to suffer to keep someone else happy.
This man needs genuine therapy if he's attempting suicide so often, and it's not on you to keep him from doing so. That's too much stress on anyone. You should definitely be supportive of him, but please don't put your desires aside to keep him 'ok'. You aren't the one to determine if he lives or dies, ultimately it's his decision. He really needs to seek a professional form of help, it's not OK for him to use you as 'life support'. There's a difference between being able to vent, and just using someone to try and 'feel better'. It's beyond just feelings, it's genuine mental illness, and no one can fix that for him, he needs to fix himself.

No. 252334

I mean, I know some people become gross after moving in together but surely people see each other’s homes and then live together before getting married.

It doesn’t seem likely that guys wait for ten years and then suddenly becomes a pig. You’d notice someone who doesn’t pick up after themselves or ever offer to help out while dating them.

Not totally related but imo whoever is home the most should take care of the house regardless of gender. Never ever 100% responsibility, I mean the weekly shit like vacuuming and dusting. Anyone who refuses to do much as pick up their dishes is a dick.

I understand that a lot of women are trapped in situations where they’re being taken advantage of. It’s just the false dichotomy of all men and all women. An all or nothing rule doesn’t work when you apply it to people.

I’m not saying aww poor widdle men are
all innocent protect them from the big mean feminists. I’m saying it’s false to claim every single member of any group share a single characteristic or behaviour. It’s not even about the gendered stuff so much as bad arguments.

No. 252342

what are we even fighting about now?

some women enjoy and make better housewives, some women enjoy being a career woman and prefer it over being a housewife, why people are so frickin stuck on screeching at women to become submissive, babymaking, housewives and not focus on their career or that makes them lonely bitter "Carrercels" is beyond me

especially with a world as overpopulated as ours, don't these same dipshits argue about how fucked our economy is.. while encouraging even more overpopulation then there already is just for the sake of tradition because for some reason, if women choose to become housewives or not, offends men if they don't

don't even get me started on the obsession with womens reproduction organs and thinking that if a woman doesn't marry and impregnate herself with the first guy she sees her eggs will turn into raisins, if women are happy with their career or housewife, let them be, who the fuck cares about if they wanna shoot out crotchspawns or not, there's 7 billion people in the world, even if half of women chose not to reproduce the human race still won't die out, if that's even what they're worried about but I doubt it, rather they're just arguing about women not all choosing to be submissive housewife fairies

No. 252349

A few years ago, some guy my boyfriend was friends with spread a rumor about me that screwed me over. When my boyfriend told me about this, I made it clear that he shouldn't be friends with this guy. It's not like we had a disagreement or I find him annoying, I think this guy really hurt me, and I feel like my request was reasonable.

It turns out today my boyfriend still visited him despite that. What the fuck…

No. 252373

What the fuck? That is so unacceptable. People who treat your SO like shit shouldn't be allowed in your life. This is "how not to be a shitty boyfriend/girlfriend 101".

No. 252399

Had a shit day at work
>starts off I forget my wallet at home, moving apartments so I could only find one pair of pants
>get dress coded
>"maybe the rest of the day won't be so bad"
>be waitress
>one woman drops her dessert, when I asked what it was she said apple pie, then I later ask again to confirm before getting her a new one
>it comes out, give it back, wait tables for a bit
>boss comes in and yells at me how it wasn't apple pie it was mud pie, and now we have to give her a new one
>"she said twice it was apple pie"
>boss doesnt listen
>one guy calls and order take out, when I asked him to clarify his order he hung up, called again, i assumed he hung up accidentally but when I told him we didnt serve a special he wanted he hung up rudely again
>get a flat tire going home

Someone please assure me I won't get fired, im super anxious ever since I left work the second I go back I'll get fired, I tried busting my ass throughout the day to makeup for it as well

No. 252400

Also I want to add, I live in a cut-throat type of area, ie tbe first time you fuck up you're sacked even if it was as little as coming in late once, I lost my last two jobs due to it being this cut-throat, while this job seemed to be in a more chill environment, im terrified they won't give me a second chance and I can't just keep going through jobs like used socks

No. 252445

File: 1527079584893.jpg (27.19 KB, 634x483, 28377537_10209986616655414_490…)

I moved in another country a month ago to work as au pair, officially for a year. My friends and family think I'm living the life, since I post a lot of travel pics on instagram, but the truth is that I'm feeling fucking miserable. The job is stressful, the pay is shitty, especially compared to the high prices of stuff here, the child I'm looking after is Satan's daughter herself and I'm far from the people who love me. I'm already making friends, but it's still that shallow level of friendship that doesn't make you feel actually loved. During the night I often dream of being at home, in my bed, then I open my eyes and see this room. Every day there's at least 5 minutes where I start sobbing like a baby. I scroll through my sister's profile and I start crying. My mom calls me on the phone, I see her name on the screen and start crying. I recall the last day before moving, the coffee with my best friend and the cake that my sister made, and I start crying. During the day I'm often feeling tired, don't talk much, and go to bed at 10 pm hating everything that made me do this choice. I spent a lot of money for this travel and I'm regretting every bit of it. It's been just a month but it seems like an eternity to me.
Now I'm stuck in this situation where if I go back home I won't be this stressed anymore and will have my friends and family back, but my hometown is also Bumfuckville itself, there's no jobs and no future. While if I stay here I might be able to find roommates and another job (since the % of me actually doing the au pair job for the entire year are extremely low) and also my miserableness might just be a phase of adjusting to a new place.
Anyone here has ever been through the same thing? Are my feelings normal and "just a phase" or should I be taking them more seriously?

No. 252461

Sounds like a very bad case of homesickness to me

No. 252463

Yep, emphasized by the lack of interaction with people my age (only in the weekend, not enough for me) and a pretty stressful job. I'll try to hang on for another month or two and decide if jump ship or not.

No. 252466

>boss comes in and yells at me how it wasn't apple pie it was mud pie, and now we have to give her a new one
>"she said twice it was apple pie"

I'm legitimately upset for you because unless she was just a retarded geriatric, that greedy bitch obv just wanted a comped dessert and threw your ass under the bus. People are scumbags.
Let me guess, she still ate the apple pie even though it's not what she wanted eh? Ugh.

No. 252493

That sucks Anon. I feel you. When moving abroad for a while, I went through the first phase of being super happy, loving the feeling of being a little jetlagged and finding everything fantastic even though it's not that different from home, then starting to be homesick and daydreaming about coming home every day. Then I started hanging out with people my age (and mostly from the same country) and I felt a lot happier and more carefree.

You probably have very little free time but maybe get back into a hobby you usually have at home, to get out of the "I hate this place" rut I'd spend days painting in my room and it helped me remember things can be fun even if I'm in a country I don't like.
Also I think it gets harder right after one month (so right where you are) because the novelty of being abroad has worn off? So maybe it will get a bit easier as time goes on.

Also I get what you mean about friendships being superficial. Like even though I fucking loved going out with my friends abroad, we're hardly in contact anymore. Hell, it was a bit awkward to meet up again with some of them back home lol. But even this shallow, just for fun friendship is better than nothing imo. Also I'd recommend meeting people from your own country if you can, or people in similar situations. There might be facebook communities like "Xians in (country)!", or "Au pairs in (country)". Could be nice to see you're not alone.

Sorry for rambling, not sure if this is even helpful. I wish you a lot of courage and good feelings though, stay strong!

No. 252502

my s.o has the tism I'm fairly certain of that. I've spent 5 years hoping that I could learn how to cope or that they would somehow adapt to life with a non-aspie individual. It doesn't improve. I find myself running short on patience and my options are to stay or leave. I know it's obvious but it's hard. I just wish that they weren't ~ different ~ so we could have the life we wanted together.

No. 252504

Went through something similar anon when I did my masters degree. Moved up North but I was the only person on government grants and could only afford the shittiest, most dirty horrible place to live with 30 other people (immigrants mostly who were noisy and aggressive all hours of the day). The room was tiny - just a bed and a chair. The tap water made me sick. It was constantly being broken into. Like being in prison. Had no friends or family nearby and everyone at uni was really snobby.

That was only a year too, but my mental and physical health really suffered that year - I had to go back on medication, my hair fell out in clumps and I got diagnosed with stress-related IBS which I still deal with. It wasn’t worth it for the mediocre degree I got (turns out I struggled to focus in an environment like that). I cried every single day, it was so stressful. Going home at the end knowing I would never have to go back was the most amazing feeling.

So anon, I would stick it out if you truly can cos a year is a short time in the grand scheme of things, but if you’re just doing it for appearance’s sake or because home is boring, then what’s the point? Seriously, it’s not worth your health or happiness, and there’s no reason you can’t do it later on in life if you regret going home. Everyone tells you these things are the time of your life and amazing opportunities, but only because it seems like the right thing to say.

Only you can know for sure whether you can tough it out but remember that life is long and you can always try again when the circumstances are better. Feel better soon anon x

No. 252511

Need to vent
I'm visiting for my Nephew's graduation from HS and since it's a special occasion, I put on makeup yet my parents immediately gripe about it, saying it takes too long and that it's not like there's going to be talent agents there
I only took 10 minutes to apply with very few products and I hardly ever wear makeup anyways. I told my father he's the one who's always pointing out how ugly or fat women are in public and that men say women shouldn't put on makeup and then complain they're ugly without it. Then my mother asks if I'm on my period just for that. Gah so annoying I just want to look cute today.

No. 252513

I'm just about fed up with this fandom server I moderate. One other mod doesn't do shit, and the other is sort of a pushover who doesn't like conflict and gets swayed easy with asspats so is always up to me to deal with the issues that goes on.
Tired of all the shitposting and spam that goes on in the main channels caused by a particular group of spergs. Usually I'm fine with shitposting since I would do it myself every once in a while but no these members are always posting the same overdone jokes/memes/seizure gifs every single day. Giving them warnings doesn't work since the other two useless mods always enable their behavior and spamming.

I feel bad the most for those members who do nothing wrong and just want to have discussions/fangirl over fandom stuff but these fucking spergs always ruin it with their nonsense.

Oh and just want to mention these spergs are in their late 20's . Yet act and write like 12 year olds with the "zomg so randumz XDDD" humor

I feel petty sometimes for getting worked up over it, but this server started as a pretty fun place to share headcanons/fanworks/ideas but is just been going downhill since this group joined that contribute absolutely nothing but nooo I'm the buzzkill I guess for wanting to keep things organized.

No. 252577

Absolutely disgusted by the farmers in the male self post thread.

No. 252580

you're a boring prude

No. 252582

Lmao sure, sorry that I prefer IRL healthy dick.

No. 252586

then why are you here?

No. 252589

I'm not on lolcow to get dick, wtf dude.

No. 252591

>Got myself a new computer after month of a shitty one.
>Try to buy a game, but paypal is fucked, try a bunch of time
>steam randomly block purchases for an undisclosed period of time
>buy my game on humblebundle
>can't redeem it, lol, steam also blocks this for gods knows how long.

Can I just kms now?

No. 252595

> Got myself a new computer after month of a shitty one.

Cool, can you share your specs?

Also, which game did you want to buy?

No. 252601

In my company we had about 10 people quit in the last 6 months. I still do not understand their motivations and I have a bad feeling about this all. I am a newbie myself so I have no idea how to find out more.

yeah, on instagram everyone has a perfect life…

No. 252620

Thanks anons. I noticed that when I stay at home I tend to feel like shit. Tonight I chilled in the garden with the house cats a little bit, while the sun was still up and felt instantly better. I think I need more friends and more time outside. I'm almost there though, I have three aupair friends near me (all of my nationality), when I'm with them I feel more like at home. Wouldn't mind foreign friends either though. If so many girls go for a year abroad, girls with closer families than mine, I might make it too. Fingers crossed!

No. 252644

I'm so damn angry at myself. I could have a very nice life, but still never feel happy.

My room is super nice, my family is lovely and I'm somewhat smart. As a child I was so happy, had many hobbies, friends, I was athletic and the best in my class.
I don't feel suicidal or even really depressed, but I can't remember the last time I was truly content.
My biggest problem is a kind of mentality that I've had for a few years already: Not now, tomorrow.

Just having to do something little like a phone call is enough to ruin my whole day.
I don't like going to classes, but I would be okay with it as long as I don't have to study for an exam or prepare a presentation, he annxiety because of this is enough to make me feel down for weeks.
Sometimes my dad making a 'mean' joke destroys my mood for the rest of the day.
Whenever I go to Uni I constantly compare myself to all the pretty and happy girls there, it feels as if my looks are the only thing i thought about for the last 10 years. But instead of doing something to improve myself, like going on a diet or even just doing little hygenic things like brushing my teeth I always think 'tomorrow'.
'Tomorrow I'm gonna study'. I wouldn't need to study a lot when I actually start or do something at all, I manage to get it done quite quickly, yet I still dread it so much every single time.
Or when some girls at Uni start talking to me I always think 'Not now, not this week, today I look ugly, I barely slept, I don't feel confident enough to talk more to them, next time I'll try my best.' But of course that never happens.

I'm wasting so much time. No idea what I'm waiting for. That I wake up tomorrow and magically feel all better? No idea…

No. 252645

Something I forgot: many anons on here mention being lonely and write 'My bf is my only friend!'. I wish I had at least one of that, either friends or a bf, but I only have my family. So what is gonna happen when I graduate and have to move out? That makes me so scared…

Also, sorry for the typos.

No. 252656

I'm having such a difficult time writing a personal statement for a course. I've worked before in sales and can sell a product or concept no bother, but when it comes to myself I can't. I'm trying to pursue a career in the biosciences industry and am finishing up my BSc and applying for a Msc. Why is this so hard?

No. 252666

I've suffered from depression for six years now. The level of depression I suffer is pretty extreme, at the worst I experienced extreme depersonalization and started hearing voices in my head. I've for the most part got it under control.

My mother insisted I tried hypnotherapy. I didn't think much of it and just humored her along, saying I'd give it a shot if she thought it would help. She paid for a session and we went. The problem is the session made me extremely angry. We were both present together during the first session and I felt uncomfortable and angry at being pushed to talk about my problems with my parent present…I don't mean to disparage my parent, but my mum has a certain attention seeking problem when it comes to anything medical. She started talking about my problems and how sick my brother was and how that is why this was happening, drinking up the attention as this turned into a 'poor her' moment. I put a stop to it and insisted they remained on topic. I went to the toilet half way through and she chimed in with 'oh he always does this when he is stressed' and laughed about it, I honestly just needed to go. There wasn't any hypnosis during the first visit.

I left feeling angry and drove home in a rage, smashing the steering wheel the entire trip. I rang her and told her I wouldn't go again and would insist on getting her money back. She got angry against me and started going on about how I refuse to get better or try.

I feel fucking stupid for even humoring her. I basically feel unironically triggered anytime I hear anyone mention a sick child because I remember the years of abuse I had to endure with her laughing and bringing to attention my 'autism' and my little brother's illness at social gatherings. One time my little brother burst into tears at a christmas party where mum was joking about how anorexic he was because he didn't eat much (due to the cocktail of drugs she pressured doctors to put him on, mind you, he was a normal kid and didn't at all have ADHD.). The whole family tried explaining it to her then and she didn't get it. I feel fucking stupid for putting myself in this situation.

No. 252673

File: 1527116906983.jpg (197.89 KB, 1305x1305, IMG_6220.JPG)

I don't know what the fuck is going on, but it seems like foundation squeeze tubes are going out of vogue and it's making me so pissed. I hate that pump shit, it's messy, cakes up, gets clogged, and inevitably makes me waste more product than the squeeze tubes. Even brands that I KNOW have squeeze tubes (etc. Nars, Mac) never seem to have them when I'm in the store. I'm just so over this pump trend D:

No. 252694

Yo depression and anxiety and shit like that don’t discriminate. Out-of-whack chemicals can’t be solved by having a good life otherwise and you don’t deserve a less nice life if your brain physically won’t allow you to make the chemicals you need to enjoy anything.

No. 252696

There’s a nest of European wasps somewhere between the shed and the front paddock. They’re such angry little fuckers and I can’t find the nest to poison it. They’re the worst wasps. Paper wasps at least make awesome and collectible nests.

No. 252732

Wow, I'm speechless. Do you ever vist her grave?

No. 252742

I left my job on short notice because I mentally could not handle it anymore. Everyone on management were pieces of shit.
I've been looking for a job all of May and FINALLY thought I was going forward with one until just now when they tell me they need to contact my past employer.

I just want to die. I know it's entirely my fault since I burnt that bridge but I didn't think they'd be contacted. I know for sure those assholes will tell them how much of a terrible employee I am or some bullshit. They lied to me throughout my employment there so I don't doubt they'd lie to my prospective employer.
Now it's back to job searching I guess. fml

No. 252746

Men online are becoming more and more retarded and I when I meet one IRL I have to make a conscious effort to separate him from all the autistic ranting I read online, I might have to back off from male internet spaces for a little while because it's polluting my brain.
And I'm soooo over reading shit like "men have preferences women have requirement".

No. 252752

I don't know how to talk to people. I get nervous at social gatherings and/or when I don't know people. And it gets worse when I fancy them. I get all nervous, stupid and awkward, I feel ridiculous and don't know what to talk about. How can I talk to the guy I secretly like without ruining everything in the first place? I hate my uptight personality so much.

No. 252753

You have to learn how to be comfortable with yourself and accept that even if you try your best to be agreeable and engaging some people might still not like you. I think what people like the most in other is being easy going, curious, open, and they love when you ask them a lot of question about their life, interest, work… People just love talking about themselves a lot. Just have some interesting stuff about you when they turn the questions around and you should have a smooth ride. Treat attractive people like regular people, they aren't special because they were born pretty. Treat people you fancy like regular people too, only cluster b type enjoy being put of a pedestal.

No. 252755

I'm confused as to why you would put them as a reference in the first place? If you leave a job on bad terms you're not supposed to tell a prospective employer about that job.

No. 252761

My ex used to take calls like that for his ex coworkers. They’d just give his number and he’d act all official. No one ever followed up to see if he was a manager. Idk if you could pull the same stunt?

No. 252771

My boyfriend’s sister called me fat in passing today after I was telling her I was trying to get more motivated to exercise more while I’m not in school.

I’m recovering from an eating disorder and I weigh at least 50 lbs less than she does.

No. 252781

I'm really angry at myself. I've always been really careful with my laptop but a few weeks ago I downloaded a program from a website that seemed fine and did a lot of research beforehand to see if it was safe to download and it all seemed good. A few days later this "Chromium" popped up in my programs and I couldn't uninstall it. Kind of just assumed it was something Google automatically installed and ignored it. Another few days pass and my anti virus detects a fucking Trojan. Searched online for ways to uninstall it and tried them all. Every fucking day I feel like I've finally gotten rid of it and then the fucker pops up in my programs again the next day. I'm just so fucking angry I did this to my laptop.

Is there a way I can successfully uninstall this without having to perform a factory reset? I would have asked in the advice thread but it hasn't been posted in for a long time.

No. 252783

Chromium is by Google, anon.

No. 252799

The amount of grown ass men wishing rape and death on a 9 year old girl is making me sick. Lil tay is just an annoying child, she is just a dumb 9 year old. Why would you wish a bbc porn career on a child? Or prostitution?

No. 252802

File: 1527160738738.jpg (110.45 KB, 1480x832, cat-ladies-fallon-tease_btrcde…)

This is probably not worthy of a vent but I ordered cat food and it all arrived well. The thing is that the delivery guy was really my type. Usually, the delivery guys are older men, balding and fat so I don't care about putting up an appearance, but this time I wasn't expecting a delivery this fast so I looked horrible. And just when I looked my worst, this handsome delivery dude, exactly my type, rings my bell. When I saw him through the door glass, I wanted to vomit.

I had stinky old sweatpants and a sweaty shirt from working out, my hair wasn't combed and I had my old librarian glasses on.

I bet he's laughing with his codelivery dude about a crazy stinky cat lady. Fuck.

But you should have seen him, he was exactly my type, he looked like Shaggy from Scooby-Doo just more handsome.

I started autistically screeching after I shut the door and he probably heard it too.

I don't know whether I should order cat food again and dress myself up for the next delivery hoping for the same delivery guy so I can prove that I'm not a crazy stinky cat lady and maybe ask for his number.

No. 252804

Yeah, you're right but apparently it's really easy to modify and considering I didn't install it myself, I can't uninstall it and my anti virus picked up on it being a Trojan, it's definitely not a legit version.

No. 252806

I don't know why people assume underweight people live on salads. I'm getting sick of people telling me to eat a cheese burger, bitch I have eaten cheese burgers everyday this week because I couldn't be fucked to cook. Eating a cheese burger doesn't make you fat. I told a girl at work I was going to mcdonalds and she gave me s look of shock. A quarter pounder combo is 870 calories I'm not going to ballon into a beach whale eating it a few times a week.

No. 252837

File: 1527172865450.gif (1.59 MB, 500x279, IbPGYG0.gif)

>I'm getting sick of people telling me to eat a cheese burger.
>I told a girl at work I was going to mcdonalds and she gave me s look of shock.
So… which one is it?

No. 252843

People telling you to "eat a cheese burger" is a common insult towards smaller people. But I just think that's retarded, eating cheese burgers has nothing to do with gaining weight. She looked shocked because she assumes I only eat kale or some shit and she even made a joke to another coworker who was sitting near by "look she's finally having a cheese burger!". It's not offensive to me, I could careless but it's dumb because people just don't seem understand calories or how they work.

No. 252844

>I don't know why people assume underweight people live on salads.

We don't. We assume you don't eat anything and that's typically on the nose, we just get shocked when you go to places like McDonald's since that's notoriously unhealthy food, and people like you always say or leave the impression that you want to be in toppest health.
People are shocked because you actually did it.

No. 252861

You're probably a teenager or in your early 20s. You won't be able to eat shit like that forever.

No. 252862

that's where you're wrong, kiddo.

No. 252865

I feel you anon, people think I'm on a perpetual diet when I actually eat a bit more than the average women my size and age. I also expect other anons to accuse you of being a humble-bragging ana-chan who looks like a spooky skeleton, but don't listen to them.

No. 252868

But clearly if you're underweight you have a calorie deficit akin to a diet and not like what the average person eats at all. Or else you'd be an average weight.

It's not that anyone thinks you're purposefully being a spoop, you're just in denial about overestimating calories you eat similar to how fatties are in denial about underestimating their calories but claiming they're naturally overweight.

No. 252871

I talked about it in other threads and it's complicated but short answer: I've always been the same weight while eating a lot once I stopped growing up so I don't think my current diet is comparable to the diet of someone who is actively trying to lose weight. I don't know about the OP though.

No. 252877

different and also bmi 21 anon here (inb4 ana-chan) but maybe she just has a fast metabolism? i think it's more common in men though, at work one of my managers eats like an absolute swine, we are talking about takeaway from nextdoor every break and then 3 packs of monster munch, and he is a spindly gangly 37 year old.

No. 252880

Dear skinny anons, I truly believe you (as much as I believe that the opposite exists: women who live very healthily and don't "deserve" being chubby at all, but can't help it).

But being skinny is THE beauty standard in nearly every society on this planet. So having a fast metabolism is something the vast majority (of women) would kill for. You're very, very lucky.
So can you really blame anybody for not being able to sympathize with your vent and not being able to feel sorry for you?
Being told to eat more, etc. is still a billion times better than being fat and all the problems and disadvantages that stem from it.

No. 252881

> women who live very healthily and don't "deserve" being chubby at all, but can't help it

Yupp, that's me.

I'm really jelly of girls with fast metabolism because I know one irl.

However, she desperately wants to put on weight and is taking all sorts of pills. I can't believe the amount of self hate she has for her body. I keep telling her that she is beautiful and that she should be happy that she doesn't need to watch her weight as many women do, but she just keeps saying that she feels unwomanly, unfeminine.

Her body is my goals and she says that for my body. I guess the grass is greener as people say. I hope she stops with the pills though.

No. 252887

>But being skinny is THE beauty standard in nearly every society on this planet.
Isn't it more like being thin/skinny is the beauty standard? Because as a skinny woman I've been told some weird shit about my appearance, like random family friends and relatives thinking I had an eating disorder or telling me to get surgery to get bigger breasts because I'm such a lost cause that I could be reimbursed for it by my health insurance (which is possible actually). People do make the difference between skinny and thin in my experience, kind of how people know there's a difference between being chubby and morbidly obese.

>Being told to eat more, etc. is still a billion times better than being fat and all the problems and disadvantages that stem from it.

If the problems that come with being fat is that people tell you to eat less and make other similar remarks and actions against you then it's the same problem in the first place.

>she desperately wants to put on weight and is taking all sorts of pills.
These pills seem suspicious as fuck. I hope for her they don't have really dangerous side effects or anything like that at the very least.

No. 252889

It doesn't matter what you eat. It doesn't matter if you 1200 calories worth of vegetables or 1200 calories worth of Burger King, you will lose weight. This is why so many normies fail at diets because they force themselves to eat salads etc and give up in a week.

No. 252957

>But being skinny is THE beauty standard in nearly every society on this planet.
>Isn't it more like being thin/skinny is the beauty standard?
Uhm yes, that's exactly what I said lol. But no, I get what you're trying to say. Think of it like this: let's say the ideal BMI is 18, that's not stick thin, but still model-tier. So, even if you have a BMI of 16, which is already dangerous, you're a lot less far away from the ideal than a women who has a BMI of 24 - which isn't even overweight.

Of course some peple will tell you that you look gross if you're too skinny. But the majority only voices some fake concerns like "Eat more!", whereas overweight people are much more likely to get bullied as children, have disadvantages while applying for jobs, having problems finding a partner, and so on. You can easily mask if youre a little to bony, but nothing can magic away extra pounds.

And let's be honest, would you rather have people telling you to eat a burger and some petty women being jealous or have people snicker behind you're back and call you a disgusting landwhale, etc. Just look at how it is on this site: even if it's totally unrelated, you're always immediately called a fatty.

I have a friend who also always got the ana comments, but now she loves her weight. She eats everything she wants, can enjoy her life, she fits into everything and many guys simply are really into very thin girls.
Whereas fat girls might fight all their life against their weight, always have to hold back, feel limited in what they can wear blah blah.
At least you can eat to your hearts content, imagine being unhappy with your body AND not being allowed to eat.

No. 253007

Personally I'd ghost him and never look back after a comment like that, but I have zero tolerance for even the suggestion of violence.

Hope you're doing okay anon.

No. 253053

File: 1527248768517.jpg (113.26 KB, 865x1300, 31752984-handsome-captain-sea-…)

Going to an event were there'll be a bunch of hot chads dressed like pic related. I'm desperate for a good dicking so wish me luck!

No. 253057

Over 2 months sober from weed and I'm so fucking bored. I decided to get all my shit ready so I can go to uni. I am 28 and working part time and all I want to do is blow my money on fillers and drugs. I'm so bored. Even after I complete a degree, then what? I crave a friend to hang out with that I can just do normal shit with but all the people that have been in my life are borderline psychos, 3 of which have taken money from me. All I do is save and clean the house and try to be not depressed or whinge around my boyfriend who is lovely but also ultra conservative. I just want a friend that is fun to chat to. I'm good at listening and I always shout people lunch or whatever, I try my best to look my best, I exercise and watch lots of movies/memes to relate to people. I'm just so fucking lonely and I want drugs or a friend that wont use me.

No. 253059

What do you even have a boyfriend for if he's not your best friend and not fun/lovely to be around with? Blows my mind.

No. 253062

We have fun together. Often during the week though, he likes his space, I meant more like another girl I could hang with and do things. My boyfriend likes different video games and movies to me and obviously doesn't give a shit about makeup and outfits ect. I have no issues with my boyfriend, I just want a friend.

No. 253086

>obviously doesn't give a shit about makeup and outfits ect

lol my bf does and other of my friend's bfs do.

No. 253098

fag nu-males

No. 253105

Okay good for you. I'm trying to vent okay? If I wear something nice or different my boyfriend will say, 'that's a lovely dress/shirt/whatever'
I have spoken to him about makeup before and he tries to listen, but he doesn't understand it and I'm not going to talk to him for an hour about cosmetics and skin care brands. He's not a dick, as I stated before, he's lovely. I just want a female friend that's all. My sisters are both married with kids and are busy with their lives and some of my other female friends have kids now too. The only ones that ever contact me usually want something or to borrow something.
Like I stated in my first post borderline types.

No. 253139

They probably suck each others dicks too.

No. 253140

>all I want to do is blow my money on fillers and drugs.
>all the people that have been in my life are borderline psychos
Huh, I wonder why you don't have friends… of course everyone else is the problem

No. 253217

File: 1527274141619.jpg (300.77 KB, 580x830, 1511173540967.jpg)

During the last two or so months I had been thinking about lewd stuff and love so much more than usual.
I don't know why it is happening but I can feel it poisoning my mind already. Like it's took a hit on my productivity and more.
I feel like my puberty is late or something because I never felt like this before. At least not so regularly.

No. 253243

Wait I meant more like being thin/average and NOT skinny, I don't know how I typed that lmfao. But you understood what I meant so whatever.
>So, even if you have a BMI of 16, which is already dangerous, you're a lot less far away from the ideal than a women who has a BMI of 24 - which isn't even overweight.
I think having a BMI of 24 is more common than 16. So some people will find a woman with a BMI of 16 harder to look at I think, if we're talking about this specific example. But that's just one example.
>And let's be honest, would you rather have people telling you to eat a burger and some petty women being jealous or have people snicker behind you're back and call you a disgusting landwhale, etc. Just look at how it is on this site: even if it's totally unrelated, you're always immediately called a fatty.
Both seem equally bad. Even though I'm skinny I don't fit in the standard of beauty at all for a bunch of reasons not related to weight and that I can't even potentially change so I've never had anyone be jealous of me and I used to be bullied as a kid too for these things because children are horrible. I think it'd be more accurate to take other criteria into account when talking about specific people so here I'm talking about myself as I can't speak of others but I really can't relate to anything you say about skinny women even though they do apply to SOME skinny women.
>Whereas fat girls might fight all their life against their weight, always have to hold back, feel limited in what they can wear blah blah.
That's just how you feel (general you here). Tell others to fuck off if you can, it's none of their business in the first place. Believe me it will feel good.

No. 253254

Four and a half years ago I had two excision surgeries to remove a breast cancer tumor. As a result that breast, which was already smaller, is now half the size of the other. It is a D cup with a deeply recessed crater of a scar while the other is a full F. I cannot find any bras that fit, so I go without. My clothes fit terribly. I have had to abandon half my wardrobe when before I used to design and make clothing. The heavier breast exacerbates my scoliosis and the existing disc and nerve problems in my neck and shoulder.

I could pursue breast reduction, but I am afraid of further surgeries. I had a bad post-op infection and hematoma after the second excision. I am also afraid of taking opioids after surgery. I had developed a hardcore addiction to them after being on them for over three years straight.

I have also been avoiding my follow up mammograms. I have only gone for one when I am supposed to go yearly.

My ovaries were removed as part of my treatment. The sudden loss of hormones has aged my body and altered my identity. There is an immense emptiness where my physical, intellectual, and emotional passions used to be. My pervading mood is Fuck It. Fuck It All.

Sometimes I hope the cancer comes back and kills me.

No. 253296

my boyfriend didn’t do anything for my birthday. It’s not like they’re a big thing for me, and I wasn’t expecting a big surprise, but so far he wished me happy birthday today… and that’s it. I know gifts aren’t everything, and I appreciate him a lot. I just feel really disappointed.

No. 253307

I'm quite capable of going without drugs, I just want them at the moment, because I am bored. The fillers have been a recent craving due to self esteem. I'm not a crazy druggy that ends friendships. I have friends, just not ones where we can hang out during the week. I didn't mean EVERYONE else was the problem, just the people that want to hang out more frequently tend to be types that use me in between their new relationships. As I mentioned before, 3 have used me for money. My first post was scattered and erratic because I wrote it on break at work, but I thought this was a vent thread.

No. 253308

Also you can partake in drug use and cosmetic fillers without being borderline. I said I want to spend my money on that, not I do

I save my money every pay and spend my days cleaning, the vent was implied that I want to do something fun for myself or I want a stable friend to hang out with on the days that I am not working, NOT including my boyfriend.

I already have hobbies like painting and I go running every 3 days.

No. 253334

Girl, you don't have to trip over yourself to defend a guy like that. Even if gifts aren't his thing, he should've done something homemade for you, or went out for a special event with you. Is this a recurring theme? and have you talked to him about it?

No. 253337

Anon I am so sorry you're going through these intensely painful times. I can't offer much more than random internet good vibes but I truly hope things get better for you.

No. 253358

>Also you can partake in drug use and cosmetic fillers without being borderline
Normal people don't crave those things. But I guess you think you're perfect.

No. 253376

I never said I was normal. It would be nice to have a female friend to smoke a joint with now and then. I also never claimed to be perfect, I was just stating that I am not borderline. I am self aware and like I said, none of my friendships have ended destructively, my older female friends and sisters have moved on with children and family duties. I'm not saying I'm perfect, I mentioned my exercise routine, and hobbies on top of my education to explain that I am not an unstable person and that the drugs are not a reflection of the person that I am. Maybe craving drugs to cure boredom is unhealthy, but I am definitely not borderline, nor am I perfect.

No. 253377

It's quite normal for people to want cosmetic fillers, it doesn't make you not normal. Drugs and alcohol are destructive if not in moderation, but wanting fillers is common. Especially for women this day and age. Get the stick out of your ass anon.

No. 253379

And the borderline psychos I am referring to are the ones that want to contact me. The friends that I actually want to spend time with have moved away or have kids now.
Just to clarify.

No. 253406

I smoke weed with my bestie when she comes into town and nobody would describe either of us as "borderline."
Although I can't speak on the matter of cosmetic fillers.

I think it's sad how you can't fathom that normal people smoke weed like how normal people like to indulge in alcohol, cigarettes, etc.

No. 253432

Maybe if you're really insecure and hate yourself it's normal, but I don't know why you want to be like that.

Enjoying getting drunk regularly isn't normal, and smoking cigarettes definitely isn't normal unless you want cancer.

No. 253485

File: 1527370550262.jpg (41.5 KB, 399x285, 1521472614178.jpg)

So tomorrow I'm going to have a hangout/date with the girl I like, I'm nervous as fuck lol. And of fucking course a pimple had to pop up on my face the day before.
Welp, I hope it goes well. She's gorgeous and I don't think I'm even in the same league

No. 253488

File: 1527370971105.jpg (45.95 KB, 499x400, IMG_20160701_091130.jpg)

So I just noticed that I got banned from crystal cafe, probably because I made a few posts criticizing prostitution. What a fucking joke.

No. 253491

It's because the trannies on that site can't handle anything remotely feminist.
I would've never noticed this myself, but when another anon pointed it out, them acting all "uwu I'm sooo girly and sensitive~" suddenly made sense…

No. 253493

How is CC that much of an sjw hugbox? Did it turn in to tumblrchan?

No. 253494

it started as tumblrchan tbh. all the girls there are uwu liberals, trannies or underaged/just 18.

No. 253506

How do I get over the fact that the people I know from high school are living their life, traveled a lot, treat themselves all the time and hang out with their friends all the time whereas I've always been too poor and was treated like shit by my family to do anything I always wanted to do so now as an adult I barely achieved my dreams or goals? It's not just jealousy because I'm just frustrated in general about my situation even though I'm trying to improve it by working and saving money, but seeing these spoiled kids on social media talking about their lives makes that frustration even worse.

CC had so much potential and it's such a slow and "uwu positivity" imageboard that I decided to stay here. You're not missing much from it.

No. 253613

File: 1527379809205.jpg (15.62 KB, 540x304, IMG_20180520_005724.jpg)

I've been sporadically posting there since around the 3rd month it was open, defended it occasionally while I admitted it had its fault but now I'm convinced it's a tumblr-tier hugbox.
Like really, ya gonna ban someone for stating that the CEO of backpage was willingly facilitating child prostitution? It's just the truth.
I could have been banned for something else, but I doubt it. That was the last interaction I had on there.
I'm pretty sure they wiped my entire post history too. I went back to the cute girls thread to grab a picture I posted and everything I contributed was deleted.
What a mess.

No. 253615

and how many "cute girl" threads does one place need?

No. 253617

i'm surprised there was no self-post thread tbh. (but then everyone would realize the whole site was trannies and men)

No. 253624

i think the "what's your opinion on guys dressing like girls?" thread's popularity gives it away lol

No. 253642

Currently pregnant (unplanned). Baby daddy tried to coerce me into abortion, then changed his mind and wanted to play happy families, then broke up with me and fucked his friend who he’s “always loved”. They’re together now. I’m not heartbroken, just bitter that I got involved as he was a shithead from the start. I hate that my self esteem was so low I let him fuck me over and on reflection, I didn’t even like him

Ex before him is saying he wants to try with me and raise the kid together. He probably treated me worse than BD in the way that he was more into actively hurting me than just neglecting me. He admits he was abusive but says he can change. He’s been great the past few weeks and I do love him but I just can’t. Like I get that he cares a lot and is willing to try but he has a low tolerance level and I don’t imagine he’d survive supporting me through pregnancy, let alone raising a kid

I’ll stop bitching about men here or I’ll never stop. They ain’t shit

Kill me now

No. 253644

you sound like a moron

No. 253647

this. i also think that she's going to end up back at her parents and they'll raise it.

No. 253654

In the nicest way possible–consider abortion if it's still a viable option. Please.

No. 253661


You probably should have got that abortion…

No. 253665

File: 1527389791183.jpeg (74.17 KB, 502x277, 1522166011552.jpeg)

What the fuck girl love yourself

No. 253666

i hate being on medication for my depression. i only take 2 (lexapro and remeron) and i've been slowly weaning myself off lexapro but i cant stop with remeron. instead of sleeping all the time i'm the opposite where i'll go days functioning on 3-4 hours of sleep because my insomnia is so bad. i've fallen asleep a few nights without it, but usually when i dont take it i panic because i'm afraid i'll get back into the cycle of being awake all the time (which may sound irrational but having gone 3 days with only about 2 hours of sleep, it is fucking awful). I knowwww i need to talk to my doctor but i really don't like talking about it during appointments other then the whole "yes i'm not suicidal yes i need a prescription refill". my university has free counseling and i feel like i need to go, but they're always so awkward and its so hard for me to open up about stuff. i've been trying stuff on my own like journaling but i just….want…to get off meds so bad and i feel like i'm becoming too dependent on them to fall asleep

No. 253675

i have to use remeron too, anon. i cant sleep and eat w/o it. idk ive accepted it

No. 253682

You sound like a bitch. It's a vent thread, not a judgmental cunt thread.

Anon, if it's not too late, an abortion is the best bet, you do not sound ready to have a child.

I suggest you take time to work on yourself and maybe get some counselling. The last thing you need to do is pursue a relationship. I know it sounds easier said than done, but I suggest you keep away from your exes. If it's too late for an abortion, look into being a surrogate for someone/adoption. You need to try and educate youself and going from relationship to relationship will stop your personal growth.

I hope it all works out in the end.

No. 253685

I struggled with this for years and I know some anons will roll their eyes, but forcing myself to wake up early helped my sleep pattern a load. If you can, try and get some cardio and sunlight, it helped my insomnia so much and the cardio was fucking awful but I started doing it every second day, and I started to notice sleep pattern changes by the second week. I weened myself of seroquel and it was hell, but I was almost back to normal the second month.

One more tip that has helped the actual quality of my sleep and I swear by this…drink about 450mls of water before bed. I don't wake up groggy the next day at all and actually feel refreshed from the sleep.

No. 253686

Not that Anon but thanks for replying kindly. It sounds like she's being kicked around, metaphorically speaking, by dumb guys and she needs to prioritize herself. Other Anons were pretty mean about it. YOU FIRST >>253642
These guys are massive time suck waste of time black holes, especially your most recent ex claiming he's in love with your best friend or some shit. He sounds like utter trash. Prioritize yourself and don't let this drama get any messier on your end

No. 253689

Anon already specified that they were insecure.

I disagree that fillers are not normal, as some people just get them as you would a haircut every few months or a new outfit ect. It's just a change in appearance. Getting loads of plastic surgery or fillers is questionable, but even then, there is people who just like to change their appearance, not even from insecurity,they just like the way it looks.

Also, the other anon said she smokes a joint when her best friend comes into town, not regularly like you stated.

Quit being a bitch. People are venting and instead of actually offering constructive criticism, you are just being on a high horse and being judgemental about everything.

No. 253692

>Also, the other anon said she smokes a joint when her best friend comes into town, not regularly like you stated.
I didn't state anything like that, smoking is always stupid

No. 253700

>He admits he was abusive but says he can change.
Dont"t get involved with that guy, they all say that but they all lie.

No. 253706

>smoking is always stupid

That's just like your opinion man.

No. 253728

No one gives a shit, your not her mom kek

No. 253730

Agreed. I have nothing against straight edge folks but what's with all the bitches on their high horses in here?

>smoking weed is stupid

>you sound dumb
>noone wants fillers unless they are insecure basket cases
>you are a moron

Offer some constructive criticism or fuck off. You people sound like Greg.

No. 253740

>Offer some constructive criticism or fuck off.
Nta, but we all learned that drugs are bad at school, there's nobody who doesn't know already.
So, how exactly should anybody offer constructive criticism towards an adult who knowingly ignores all that and still does this shit? What else could anybody say besides stating that doing it despite all the warnings is pretty dumb?

No. 253748


Maybe word it a little better?

>Geez anon, drugs aren't the answer, maybe try joining a social club to meet friends, do this, do that, try this.

Instead of

>drugs are bad you fucking idiot, you are not normal

The anon in question didn't even say that they were doing drugs. If you actually read the intial vent, they stated they had been sober for 2 months and wanted to act on these things.

Also, I think a lot of people are bias about the subject. Not every person becomes addicted to drugs, and drugs like weed and psychadelics are fine for some in small doses for recreational use.

The anon venting probably shouldn't do them as their vent implies that they have an addictive personality, but all the people here acting like sharing a joint with a friend once in a blue moon is destructive really sound ignorant and sheltered.

Do I believe mind altering drugs should be taken every day?

Should people prone to depression smoke weed or take drugs?
Probably not.

But to make the assumption that every person who smokes weed or god forbid gets cosmetic fillers is a crazy psycho who is not 'normal' is a generalization and very ignorant.

>we all learned that drugs are bad at school, there's noone here that doesn't know that already

Yeah, okay, yet there's a whole thread where farmers talk about their drug use and experiences, so maybe you shouldn't try and speak for everyone? Instead of shaming someone for something you have no idea about.

Sorry if I sound angry, just annoyed that people just type a flat out insult/judgement, without offering any advice or just being kind in general. Like that pregnant anon before, people were straight out nasty instead of just saying nothing at all or being helpful.

No. 253750

all drugs are bad lol. Guess they don't teach critical thinking at school anymore

No. 253751

Define bad.

No. 253752

we also learned that sex is bad. you realize that in school they teach you everything is bad not because it is, but because teenagers are idiots. that's why they tell you to never EVER do things with possible consequences.

No. 253753

File: 1527426190424.gif (1.31 MB, 400x298, mmmm.gif)

No. 253755

Some of the greatest musicians, artists and critical thinkers in history have taken drugs.

You have an obvious bias.

People take drugs for all different reasons. To expand their views, to enhance their experiences, to have fun, to feel more creative.

I respect those who do not want to take drugs, and I think that drugs are not for everyone, some people have control issues with substances.
Some people are negatively impacted by drugs, but you are generalizing drug users as a whole.

No. 253756

guys i think >>253750 is making fun of >>253740

No. 253757

Are anti depressants and anti psychotics bad too? Not trying to fight, just curious as you have stated that all drugs are bad and I'm interested to see where the cut off is.

No. 253758

Ahhhh I see what you mean. It's hard to understand the tone with just text.

No. 253759

>Yeah, okay, yet there's a whole thread where farmers talk about their drug use and experiences, so maybe you shouldn't try and speak for everyone? Instead of shaming someone for something you have no idea about.
Are you seriously trying to say that anons who buy and take drugs don't know that they're bad…? Of course they know and yet they do it, what more is there to say? They might try to tell themselves that it doesn't harm them or that weed isn't really a drug anyways, but initally all of them were warned - if not at school, at least the fact that all of these substances are illegal should be enough to stop them.
Also 'shaming' somebody who does drugs? Unless you grew up in a druggie household and started injecting at 12 I'm not gonna feel sorry for you.

>Sorry if I sound angry, just annoyed that people just type a flat out insult/judgement, without offering any advice or just being kind in general.

Quite hypocritical I must say… My inital post was written very calmly despite you being 'mean' to the anon above me and now you still act as if stating that kids get told drugs are bad = trying to speak for everyone. Not exactly 'kind' either…

But it doesn't matter anyways.
The only person I ever knew who smoked weed (no idea where you live that this is seen as something so normal and many do it…) got her whole life ruined because of it. So no matter how many try to tell me that it's harmless, it did enough damage to her.

No. 253760

OP. I'm smoking a joint while typing this, this went over a lot of your heads.

No. 253762

praise jesus

No. 253763

Moral of the story

No one gives a shit if drugs are bad or not, just stop being a catty holier than thou bitch kek

No. 253765

>one girl I know injected a whole marijuana once and it ruined her lifeeee

Lol are you like 12?

No. 253766

bro, do you know anything about how weed works? the person is totally at fault for letting that shit get out of hand. you sound super immature to be blaming weed and assuming that it's all bad/everyone is like your friend. kneejerk reactions like that are also a good indicator of your personality.

my mom smoked weed and was a piece of shit throughout my childhood and i had your line of thinking in you know, middle school. but guess what, it's cause she's shit, not the weed.

No. 253767

>we also learned that sex is bad.
Maybe they tell you that in the US, but not anywhere else…

>Some of the greatest musicians, artists and critical thinkers in history have taken drugs.
And some of the greatest musicians, artists and critical thinkers also died because of them.
>To expand their views, to enhance their experiences, to have fun, to feel more creative.
Is it so wrong to believe that one should be able have fun and enjoy life in general without having to rely on drugs? And of you need them to be creative then maybe you're not a good enough artist to begin with.

No. 253768

nta but you know that you need to be 18+ to use this site right?

No. 253769

I started smoking weed at 21/22. I was abused growing up. I went on antidepressants at 26 and came off them in Feb after a year on them and they fucked with my memory, focus and metabolism. I feel much better off of them.

I study pharmacology and tbh I'd much prefer to treat myself with a plant that we've evolved along side of with a system of receptors designed specifically for cannabis molecules. I was at a very low point in my early 20s and to be perfectly honest if I didn't start smoking weed I'd probably have done what a few in my family have.

I'm pretty sure my family are susceptible to depression and weed keeps me lifted and motivated. I've done shrooms and LSD. The LSD did nothing for me not sure if it was what I took, but I never felt the desire to try again. The shrooms sorted me out, I only do them like a couple of times a year if even and they always give me a clarity and opens me up to be more receptive.

Coke and meth I've tried. I hated both and the coke made me extremely angry, I never did anything on them but I told those I was around it was making me very angry. I just watched TV and smoked weed til it the effects went away. I'm not a big drinker since it usually depresses me.

A number of psychotics are used to treat mental illnesses. The man made drugs are standardised while human biochemistry is not. It's like finding a needle in a haystack at the moment if you want to treat yourself with antidepressants that's why several therapies are used along side. I've had a number of different therapies performed by a therapist, but I can't erase my past and that's what fucks me up. I understand it happened and I can't change it, but I can't change my innate reactions to things now since my abuse happened from ages 7-19. I reckon if i didn't smoke weed at 21/22 I would never have had the motivation to stick at employment and not give up on myself because I nearly have several times

No. 253770

serious question, how do you feel about opioid pain meds?

No. 253772

File: 1527427514383.jpeg (4.36 KB, 225x225, 2I4OIUF OOF.jpeg)

>I don't need to drink or take drugs to have fun! BecauseI'm high on life! :))

No. 253774

>Disliking drugs is so childish! You must be underage to be this dumb hehe

Alright, you do you, farmers.

No. 253775

You said 'we all know' and 'everyone' learns that drugs are bad at school. So yes, you are trying to speak for everyone despite a lot of others disagreeing with you.

No. 253777

You are literally leaving out the few posts that actually stated that they respect the choices of those who choose to not take drugs and be straigt edge.

Some people in this thread have actually said they have nothing against non drug users yet you seem to think everyone is against you because not everyone is agreeing with you that all drugs are bad and only terrible people take them.

Stay mad.

No. 253778


thanks anon. i do a little bit of cardio every day (bike to classes) but maybe upping the amount and getting more in the sun will help too. i will try the water and waking up early!

No. 253779

yet again missing the point. it wouldn't matter if it was drugs or fucking pizza, it's your attitude. you're acting like you've got it all figured out and are somehow better than everyone. and sticking your nose in other people's business as if we also didn't come to our own conclusions about it and need to be swayed in the right direction. moralfagging on anon is super pathetic, especially when you argue so hard like you think your opinion is important.

No. 253781

Trust me the water thing has been an absolute game changer. Try to drink more than 250mls but don't drink too fast or too much that you'll need to get up and pee in the middle of the night.

Good luck!

No. 253783

i knew anon wouldn't respond to this cause all she wanted to do was pat herself on the back for not liking illegal things. she probably thinks that cigs and alcohol are just fine too since they're legal!

No. 253788

They glossed over and ignored anything that didn't fit their agenda. To be honest, I actually think it was a child since >>253432 shows they hate drinking and cigarettes too.

I get what you mean though, my friend's mother in law is like that, drinks alcohol CONSTANTLY but wanted to kick him out of the house because she found a tiny nug of weed in his sock drawer. He wasn't even a regular smoker either.
She's the loud 'cool' mom who always has a glass of wine and tries to force you to drink and all her friends have ciggys but goes apeshit if she ever caught her son/family member with a joint.

No. 253803

>i knew anon wouldn't respond to this cause all she wanted to do was pat herself on the back for not liking illegal things.
Maybe I no longer felt like "fighting" against you since all you do is accuse me of being a child anyways? Or perhaps I simply don't have the time to spend all day on lc waiting for your responses.
>she probably thinks that cigs and alcohol are just fine too since they're legal!
Feel free to think whatever you want about what I might think.

No. 253806

Anon, but all you do is accuse others who take drugs,to be pieces of shit though? It doesn't feel nice to be generalised does it?

No. 253809

But they weren't fighting with you. They asked what was your opinion on pain medications.
I believe someone else asked for your opinion on anti depressants as well but you avoided that question too.

No. 253816

>Anon, but all you do is accuse others who take drugs,to be pieces of shit though?
No. These are my posts:
To summarize:
>I said everybody knows drugs are bad
>"Don't speak for others"
>You can't tell me that people who actively buy and take drugs aren't aware of their dangers. But they choose to ignore those and instead try to tell themselves that they do no harm - and that's stupid imo
>Then I gave the example of my friend ruining her life
>"Only a child would be dumb enough to believe that drugs are harmful"
I said it's stupid to do something despite it even being illegal - not that those people are 'pieces of shit'.

If medicaments are prescribed to you by your doctor because you're ill then you should obviously take them. There's a huge difference between this and smoking weed to simply have fun or feel more creative.
Also, I 'avoided' several posters because there were simply too many.

No. 253817

Most, if not all, addicts that I have come to know during my life have started with prescription pills. Your argument is void when prescription meds are 10x more dangerous and addictive than weed.

No. 253818

You keep saying that everybody knows that drugs are bad but there are literally people in the thread arguing that very point.

What's wrong with smoking it for fun? How is it stupid? You only give one example of a girl you knew who ruined her whole life apparently from smoking weed.

No. 253820

This. I knew a guy who was not a drug user whatsoever and had depression and anxiety attacks. He was prescribed meds BY A DOCTOR and he became hooked on them.

My brother also became hooked on painkillers after having a car accident which left him with a shattered hip.

But no anon is sooo right. You shouldn't smoke the devil's lettuce for fun but doctors are always correct, gobble up whatever medication they give you!!!

No. 253822

this was my exact point in bringing up opioids. they are so dangerous and addictive but drs hand them out like candies. the withdrawals can kill you ffs. but of course drs are always right.

No. 253824

Seriously, what do you want me to do?

No matter what I say, you won't change your opinion and seem to never stop, probably unless I convert to smoking as well.

I do take meds when I'm ill and so far nothing happened, so I'll continue to trust my doc, period. By that logic 90% of the the world's whole population would be addicted to meds.

How is me giving an example of my friend's life going to shit because of weed any less "legit" than that guy you know and your brother's getting ruined because of prescription meds?

I learned at school that even taking 'light' drugs like weed can damage your brain longtime - harder drugs are obviously way worse. And therefore I think it's wrong, irresponsible and dangerous to risk that happening just for fun or art.
Sorry, but I trust my former teacher more than girls on an anonymous board telling me that it's fine and harmless.

This will be my last post on this topic. So accuse me of being a dumb child, a coward for not responding to you, whatever you want.
Shouldn't you be glad that there's one person less who's buying your precious leaves, more for you instead.

No. 253827

Noone is trying to get you to convert. Noone cares that you don't smoke. I don't even smoke lol.

People are just commenting on your snotty attittude and that you think you are right. You keep saying that it's stupid and dangerous to take drugs when you have clearly never been around a responsible drug user. Instead you have been around ONE person who ruined their life with weed and you don't even explain how. You know absolutely nothing about the subject you keep bashing except the anti drug education in school. There is such thing as responsible drug use. Youjust don't know shit.

No. 253831

>i do take meds when i am sick and have never gotten addicted

You don't state which medications dumbass. Obviously shit like antibiotics don't count

>by your logic 90% of the world's whole population would be addicted to meds

Holy shit you are ignorant. No, that's not what the point was. They were saying that all the addicts they have ever met have STARTED on medication that was prescribed by a doctor because you said that drugs were fine if prescribed by a doctor. They didn't say ALL people who have ever existed get addicted and are still addicted to pain medication.

Honestly you argue like Onision. Are you a fan of his?

No. 253851

i'm falling back into all of the depressive habits i had when i was about 14 and i thought i'd left all of the self harm and eating problems back then. i've been increased help over the past few months but it doesn't matter how much help i'm getting, i feel so disgusted with myself all of the time. i knew being an adult wouldn't mean all of that stuff would stop or anything but i didn't think i'd be back to this way in my 20s. i feel so gross

No. 253974

Thanks but I already knew that

My parents died when I was young. I don’t have any close family

Too late for abortion at this point. I found out pretty close to the cut off point as I haven’t had periods for a long time due to birth control and didn’t really have any symptoms. Went to the consultation and booked/cancelled an abortion twice. I’m pro choice as hell but I couldn’t do it.

Thanks anon, I know you’re right and I’m starting the process for adoption. I want to do what I can to make the situation less shit for the kid. I guess I’m just whining because the way to fix my issues seems so much more complex. The situation has made me lose a lot of faith in people and I understand that I need to fix myself. Just going through a stage of depression I guess

No. 253984

I'm stressing now and I don't know what to do
I've been working every day at my job since we're so short staffed…we lost five people in a month and 3 more are trying to leave
My boyfriend is moving out of the house without me while I stay behind
And now his father just came up to me about his sister buying the house to rent it

He said something about her renting it to us but I don't think my boyfriend is going to go through with it
But if he doesn't and the house ends up getting sold I'm going to be homeless
So now on top of work stress I need to prepare for the worst and find something
I have horrible shitty credit so I don't think I will and I'm trying to not freak the fuck out

No. 253985

Found out my crush of several years likes someone else. Instantly was sick. Not even mad at him because if I was him I wouldn’t like me either. I’ve spent all day crying feeling ugly & worthless. I don’t live with anyone & I’m not close with my family & my friends that I can count all on one hand aren’t too fussed other than replying they are sorry for my feefees & ditching their phones to go do something better. I posted vaguely depressing shit on social media hoping someone would help make me feel better but everyone just ignores it because they are used to my 3edgy5u antics and just think it’s part of my persona… but it’s not (my own sister even watched my story and hasn’t asked me if I’m ok LOL). I actually want to die (10x more than usual this time) I should use this in a way to better myself, but you can’t polish a turd.

No. 254277

I can't believe we all have to apologize to our boss because of two or three people fucking up. We already explained to a higher up that we weren't involved but no we gotta apologize just so we can get it over with.

I hate it when people force others to apologize to them like, what would that even fucking do? Feed your ego? Screw you, all you're getting is an insincere and monotone "I'm sorry, we were wrong." from us.

No. 254279

Why is he still your bf if he doesn't care about leaving you homeless?

No. 254342

6 days of no contact with my ex and I want to talk to him so bad. I had to unfollow him on Twitter because seeing his tomato plant pictures made me think about him living a lovely stable life with his gf for years and that made me physically sick.
Wtf is wrong with me and why can't I stop thinking about him?

No. 254365

File: 1527537441557.jpg (14 KB, 600x488, 27657804_10211405839840991_406…)

The girl I like is ghosting me after we hung out the other day. Kinda hurts. Wondering what did I do wrong

No. 254442

I think my work crush quit or went back to his country I haven’t seen him at work in a month and I’m too scared to ask anyone about him. I feel like I wasted the year I had with him, we talked a lot and there was definitely a connection but I’m very unflirty so I never made a move, he did several times but I was stupid and didn’t realize on time. I’m really sad that I’ll probably never see him again.

No. 254479

I’m super angry with my job. I work full time and I know I should be thankful for that, but I’m tired of feeling like I do more work then I’m paid to do. I’m a graveyard shift, so everything the other shift doesn’t do I end up doing all by myself ontop of my own job.
So I do a lot more, get paid less. I’m always there to help out and cover shifts when the other graveyard can’t show up for their two nights! Two fucking nights they have to work. One time I got called in 2 in the morning cause they couldn’t finish their shift so I get punished for being a team player! My boss used my sick hours to cover the four hours I worked. Then this week he is making me take a day off so it counted balances the holiday paid I would get!

Well guess who calls in tonight! The other graveyard and he has the balls to call me to cover it! If I went in he would use my vacation hours to cover me coming in. Basically I would be working for free. He is all Butt hurt I said no! Acting like I never help! Why would I when he is doing illegal shit so he doesn’t have to pay me overtime or holiday pay?
I need a new job, I’m just so scared cause I have been graveyard for so long and have full time….

No. 254481

I haven't heard from him in over 2 weeks after our first date. I'm okay if he doesn't want to take it any further but some communication would be nice… it's going to be awkward seeing him again next year for school.

No. 254511

I've just realised how lame-ass the kinds of dudes I've been dating really are and I'm just like damn… what the fuck have I even been doing??

No. 254530

Still a month to go on my internship and it's utter shit. I'm not good at anything, it's a shitty startup and the founder want everything done HIS WAY. He is now trying to make me sell thing to my school and it's so fucking awkward.

I also have trouble losing weight. I feel like I look fat as fuck buy can't stop eating to console myself from feeling miserable.

I have a weird headache that feels better when I push on my temple or eyebrows. My GP don't know what it's about and it takes a fucking month to take an appointment to the neurologist. I just want to hurl my head at the wall.

Everything is shit.

No. 254532

That headache sounds like a tension headache. Probably exacerbated by the things you've mentioned above. I get them often in my current job (trying to jump ship but jobs are hard to come by where I live) because I work a very physical role and a lot of the work is left for me to do which I am not happy about. The headaches make it harder and completely wipe me out. I know it sounds really dumb, but try going for a facial massage if you can, or give yourself one. I oil my face up with a skin friendly oil and go to town. There are lots of videos on youtube that show good techniques, but I find that if I rub between my eyebrows quite firmly and up into my hairline, it slowly eases the pain away. Sometimes I wiggle that area side to side with firm pressure from my thumb, in mini circles too.

No. 254536

I want to be thin and beautiful but I also love food. I've had this 8 year struggle with my weight due to comfort eating, stress, yo-yo dieting, trying to starve myself, having a mother with an ED who tries to "help" me, not having any hobbies other than eating because they frustrate me and being unable to refuse food. I've been to doctors and counsellors briefly but honestly I just don't have the money for that. I don't know how to fix my problem. I'm terrified I'm going to be overweight and self conscious for the rest of my life. I'd love to lose weight before I go on holidays for the summer or before I start working but it seems impossible.

No. 254551

Fuck. Just flicked the bean to porn for the first time in a year or so and I feel odd. Somewhat guilty because of the absolute state of the industry, but mostly feel like a cuck or something. I'm just used to my imagination now and have proven to myself that I'm not missing out on anything. The orgasm was shit.

I'm not sure if this means my porn-free streak was a success or not.

No. 254584

File: 1527603078637.jpg (20.18 KB, 200x200, 1471412507541.jpg)

I get angry when I'm arguing with someone who says a strong opinion like it's fact, but later when their argument crumbles apart they act like they were just talking subjectively the entire time.
>"If x then necessarily y."
>"N-n-no I meant that I think x then y, not that everyone thinks that way or that it's always right. I mean t-that's just me!"

No, fucking just admit I have a point. People aren't stupid and can see through that transparent crud.

No. 254587

Anti-beard anon, is that you?

No. 254588

Are you admitting that's what the pro-beard anon did? Kek

No. 254589

one of my friends does this all. the. time. that or say we were actually agreeing the whole time (to backpedal) when we totally weren't.

No. 254591

That drives me nuts. It's like the most passive aggressive way to get someone to shut up.

No. 254592

File: 1527603543506.jpg (215.3 KB, 720x719, 8998342.jpg)

>miss my boyfriend while hanging with friend(s)
>miss my friend(s) while hanging with boyfriend
I'd start hanging out with them at the same time (they actually get along very well), but one of the friends is pretty flirty with me (he just likes teasing me a lot and calling me cute, it's kinda nice), and I know it wouldn't go down well with my boyfriend if he had to hear it.
Asking the friend to tone it down would be too awkward for my anxiety to allow. I don't know how to maneuver around this.

No. 254593

There's no way to get around that without communication of some kind, anon.

No. 254597

Actual beard anon here. I wasn't back pedalling, I agreed/disagreed on a few points with the anti beard anons I just explained that the reason I kept replying, was that I was called a white knight for men and I was trying to explain that I'm really not. Anyway, I've stopped sperging about beards now.

No. 254598

You're right. I just have no idea how to go about it. Telling my bf "Hey, before we meet up, this friend says flirty things sometimes, but he doesn't mean it, he has a girlfriend himself. Don't take it seriously, it's okay" will set off warning bells (he's already somewhat jealous and suspicious of this friend), and he might ask me to stop hanging out with him entirely or something because it makes him uncomfortable.

No. 254601

Got any other friends to hang out with? Maybe that's not a friendship you can share with your bf because of that, which is fine.

No. 254611

Just curious but what kind of stuff does he say? Is your bf really insecure, or they are legit worrying jokes. Also if he has a gf, why not go on a double date or invite them both to your place so your bf feels more comfortable? That way if you and your guy friend hang out he won't get upset.

No. 254626

Eh…It's a bit of both. He's naturally insecure and admits it, but I wouldn't really blame any guy if he bristled at some of the things the friend says. It basically just toes the line. For a tamer example, I called something cute and neat at one point, and he said something like "You're a cute NEET" (though I'm not even really a NEET). He also talks about my awkwardness being "adorable" a lot, and we sometimes talk about porn/sexual stuff (my bf actually does the last one with one of his female friends, but I'm pretty sure it's the one that'd worry him the most just because it's me).
A double date might be a good idea. I've never actually met his girlfriend, but I'll see if I can make things happen.

Yeah, I'll try to set things up with him and some other friends instead. Kind of a shame, since my bf liked this guy a lot initially. They'd make a good pair of friends.

No. 254647

No offence anon, and I'm trying not to judge your friend because I don't know him or the full situation, but your mate sounds a bit creepy. None of my male friends would say things like that, with the exception of one who later told me he used to have a massive crush.
I no longer trust this friend because he comes across as the type that is waiting for me to break up so he can collect the scraps. He seemed like a harmless jokey friend too and I thought i knew him, but he did/said all kinds of things that were red flags.

My other male friends know this kind of behaviour isn't right and would never call me 'cute' or talk about porn because they know I have a bf. Sex talk is fine, but I do think it's a bit inappropriate with someone who calls you cute as a joke or with your male friends.

Ask yourself, would you be cool with your bf hanging with his best friend she's joking that he's cute, and talking about porn together?
If not, then you can see what I mean.

Maybe your friend isn't a creep and I'm seeing things that aren't there, but if he's that important to you, perhaps he's the one you actually have chemistry with and he should be your boyfriend? If not, then you probably should talk to him about not talking that way when the boyfriend is around.

I am not jusging you, I often find it nice when a customer/random flirts with me or calls me cute. I even feel a bit guilty even though I woukd never cheat, sometimes I want to joke/flirt back. I wouldn't feel the same way if it was a friend though, I'd feel as if there is ulterior motives.

No. 254694


No. 254697

don't bring this to another thread. no one gives a shit that you want to fuck married men, but you'll be seen as a homewrecker.

No. 254711

I'm neither a slut nor an assblasted biddy who's so insecure about my bf cheating that I attack other women.

I've been happily together with my bf and been living with him for four years. Sorry poopsie <3

No. 254728


ffs anon, let it go. it's good to know that if your bf cheats on you, you wouldn't be upset at the woman. but would you get yourself checked for STDs? :^)

No. 254730

>but would you get yourself checked for STDs?
Lol yes I would you nitwit, now cut it out.

No. 254734

>brings an argument into another thread
>c-cut it out anon what are you doing??

No. 254736

Well you must be the anon who tried to tone police me in the other thread, otherwise I don't see how replying to a post venting about shitty board arguments is "bringing an argument" here.
You're the one who threw names first, and now you wanna act like you're hurting.

Knock it off if you care about it so much.

No. 254740

>tone police

lol triggered much?

No. 254747


No. 254779

Why do i get so annoyed at people knocking on my door or asking me questions they could have answered themselves or people staring at me? I'm not exaggerating, I've left shops and restaurants before and went to another one across town because of someone starring at mw before, I've ditched appointments due to people starring, and I try to make it known how much it pisses me off when people stare at me,or when i was joggging down my street last night there was a car that was going up and down my Street several times so i made it obvious and reached down my pocket and pretended to take a pic of their license and they left

No. 254783

You sound paranoid, anon. No one thinks you're that fucking special. This is some Spoony level ego.

No. 254790

Why do i get so annoyed at people knocking on my door or asking me questions they could have answered themselves or people staring at me? I'm not exaggerating, I've left shops and restaurants before and went to another one across town because of someone starring at mw before, I've ditched appointments due to people starring, and I try to make it known how much it pisses me off when people stare at me,or when i was joggging down my street last night there was a car that was going up and down my Street several times so i made it obvious and reached down my pocket and pretended to take a pic of their license and they left

No. 254839

My dental office did something shady.

So per my insurance I get a fluoride wash covered once a year.
I don't have cavities and my teeth aren't weak, but I do it just to get it and it makes me feel more secure. Why not do something if it's covered even if it's not super necessary?

Anyway these shady fucks apparently gave me a different fluoride. An application type instead of the wash.
And the motherfuckers keep sending me a bill for $45.
I'm pissed and don't want to pay it because it's a bait and switch. They went with a fluoride that they knew wasn't covered so they could bill my insurance and ME for more money. Assholes.

No. 254855

I don't think I'm special, it just extremely annoys me when people stare, it makes me self-conscious of anything I do

No. 254866

you clearly think you're special, you're claiming people cars circled the street just to stare at you.

No. 254868

what am I supposed to think when a car goes up and down the street several times then fucks off when I take a picture of their license plate?

the world isn't exactly a safe place anon, almost anyone would have been creeped out by that especially since it was night and I don't exactly live in a ~safe sheltered environment~ like you seem to do
I'd rather be "egotistical" than to get kidnapped, I'm guessing women who get suspicious when a big guy in a hoodie follows them around are also egotistical, or if someone buys self defense are they also egotistical? because apparently attacks don't exist

No. 254870

I used to feel like this too anon and always feel like people are staring. A lot of it was my self esteem and scared of being judged. As I got older it got easier. Having your phone or music to focus on makes it easier but other anon is right in saying worrying about cars circling you is paranoid.
I have no doubt you are self concious, so anon saying 'you think you are special' is a bit rude…it just seems like you are insecure is all. Try not to worry, people are so wrapped up in their own lives to actually pay attention to you.

No. 254872

That is concerning.

No. 254873

literally everything you said other than the car is paranoid. no one cares about you, get over yourself.

No. 254875

the rest of the shit anon mentioned sounds like she's nuts.

No. 254878

it annoys me when people stare, not that "i think im special and need to get over myself" or anything, I don't get why you think the only possible reason why someone would be annoyed by staring is because they think they're special, and it's not a feeling either since I've literally had friends point out people who were staring at me before
the car was concerning but mostly because I live in a place were attacks are common and I was taught to beware of things like that

No. 254880

walking out of a restaurant and leaving is an overreaction and totally not normal.

No. 254883

I think she was right to be scared about the car thing. It sounds shady.

It's human nature for people to stare. Sometimes it's imagined to be worse than it is due to poor self esteem, other times it's because of crazies. I remember once I was on the bus reading and some lady was glaring at the side of my head and almost stuck her face in my book. Another middle aged woman at the shops did the same thing because I'm pretty sure she thought I was trying to shoplift.

I'm not saying you are lying nor do I think you are crazy, these other anons are harsh, but people will stare and you need to learn to overcome this fear or it'll ruin your life.

No. 254885

if anon is walking the fuck out of restaurants because she thinks people give a fuck about her she's fucking nuts. end of story.

No. 254886

As a (naturally) skeleton tier skinny girl who wants to get thicc, I always find myself struggling to comprehend why anorexic people want to look like a bony skeleton. It is even worse when they try to compliment my body or call me "goals", I don't want to be like them.

I just can't understand it because "thicc" is so glorified, not the type of body they aspire for. It makes even less sense that they are literally killing themselves for it. I just look at pictures of anorexics and feel so confused about what is going on there.

No. 254888

She might be having a panic attack or feeling anxious or scared so she's removing herself from the situation?

Or maybe she's paranoid and it's irrational? Either way, telling her to quit thinking she's special or fucking nuts is cruel. She said before she lives in a dangerous neighbourhood.

Gosh, what with all the nasty pasties in here? Have some empathy for godsake!

No. 254890

>she thinks people give a fuck about her she's fucking nuts
I stated it was because staring annoys me… not because I think I'm a special snowflake or whatever, on the same page right? not because i think I'm special, it just annoys me? great

you're right it's not normal and overreaction but it makes me extremely uncomfortable and annoyed

I'm trying, it's just the unknown of what they think or what they do terrifies me

No. 254891

It’s called mental illness anon.

No. 254892

As someone who's recovered from anorexia, I can tell you it's not always to do with looking skinny. Some girls want to be slimmer and it gets out of hand. Others do it for control. I had a hectic shitty home life and had no control over what happened to me. Controlling my weight was like a game for me. It was MY thing. But yeah, anyway, it's not all about aesthetics.

No. 254894

When I was an ana chan I wanted to be skinny because I wanted to look sexless (no breast no hips). I was very uncomfortable with being a woman. it's not always purely about esthetic.

No. 254895

>dat humblebragging

Also, thicc IS in at the moment in mainstream media, but there is still plenty of pressure to be stick thin. Look at the Victoria secrets models and all the vogue girls…frail af.

And other anon is right, it's called mental illness. Obvious as fuck,

No. 254896

Stating the way her body is isn't humblebragging imo. Not everyone aspire to be a skelly.

No. 254897

I'm not saying they do, but she must be living under a rock to think skellys aren't still desired. Look at all the korean/jap shit and like stated before vogue and VS models.

No. 254899

anon wasn't saying that being tin wasn't in still, anon. she simply said she wants to be thicc but she can't.

No. 254901

Clearly Anon knows that being a skeletor is desired since she complained about people calling her goal and not understand why people want to be stick thin.

No. 254904

>i cant comprehend why people want to be thin
>I hate it when people say I'm goals

Everyone knows that anorexia is a thing and the different reasons why peeps do it. If she'd said 'I'm sick of being thin ect' her vent would have been more believable but she acts totally ignorant and naive on a disease that is extremely well known and goes on to say people call her goals.

No. 254905

Yeah but she also says that thicc people are desired…so which one is it?

No. 254908

Both. But thick bodies are more desired right now.

No. 254917

Agree to disagree, I swear it's only the 15 to 25 age demographic that care about this thicc bullshit.
She could try and eat a bunch more, but even then the whole thicc thing is retarded, it's like unrealistic kim k, nicki minaj waist training, surgery bodies. I'm all for skinny girls and bigger girls, and I'm not saying hourglass girls don't occur naturally, but all this thicc bullshit is over the top jessica rabbit looking grotesque in my opinion. Kim k has a disgusting ass. Why would anyone want that?
Being naturally slim is way healthier for that anon.

I mean, unless she's having side effects…then she should probably see a doctor.

No. 254918

Pretty much every trend is unrealistic for the average person, most women didn't managed look like Nicole Ritchie during the skeletor era.
I think most people look better with some fat and muscles on them, it's youthful and sexy but obviously that's just my opinion.

No. 254923

I'm basically over any trend that's about appealing to men at the core.

There's not a doubt in my mind that most people getting surgeries and doing ridiculous diet/exercise routines to be considered 'thicc' wouldn't be doing that if men didn't like it.
Say about ten years ago when anyone who wasn't on the lower end of average was considered fat.

No. 254937

I'm not bragging about exclusively anorexics calling me goals. Not regular people.

No. 254947

Boy it sure gets quiet around here when everyone is banned for fighting. Kek.

No. 254959

>have extremely sensitive male friend who makes heavily offensive jokes all the time
>makes a joke about running a child over
>ask him not to around me
>sperges about how he can joke about whatever he wants
>explain to him my little cousin died that way
>continues sperging
>absolute cunt in general

I'm so fucking done with this piece of shit, but he's a huge narcissist so I have to be subtle about it since there's no telling what he'll do.

No. 254963

My online friend who I've known for a few years now is getting awful pushy about video chatting.

I'm fine with text/IM chatting, but he wanted to cam call last week and that's annoying as fuck to me because then I have to do my appearance and sound/act like sun is coming out my ass. Otherwise he'd feel bad that I'm not in a good mood.
It's a huge pain because I work call center and I'm sick to death of talking constantly and being sweet on the phone. On my days off I just want to chill.
Meaning…I don't wanna fuck with people who think they're entitled to my god damn time! It's my time, every mcfuckin' second of it.

Anyway, he got me to jump through hoops to try to make this video call work. My laptop is from 2010 so its connection is shitty and literally most programs (like skype) are not supported anymore even with the newest updates. The browser versions don't work, not even discord. And the Facebook video calls kept dropping.
So after an hour of downloading/deleting/etc. I told him I was done and logged off.
After that I was busy catching up on chores, resting, and preparing for an irl friend to come visit.

Apparently he wanted to chat more and I promised this? I honestly don't recall, and I didn't see a notification from him on fb since so I figured we'd talk in a few more days like usual.
BUT I was mistaken. I saw a message from him today and it was ripping me for not coming back last week and trying to cam again.
I apologized, but low key I'm irritated.
>"It's almost like you don't want to talk to me."
Bingo dude. I wasn't in the mood, clearly.

I loathe how he thinks I did that maliciously and won't let it go even after I apologized. Because riding my ass over a miscommunication soooooooooooo makes me want to mess with video chat again and be friendly :^)

No. 254986

File: 1527642565205.jpg (61.36 KB, 639x644, 1476222279609.jpg)

I want to kms so bad.

My best friend of 9 years is so different now thanks to her piece of shit bf. We had a falling out last year and started talking again after about 4 months, and in that time she turned into a completely different person. Her bf lives with her now in a different city and every time I talk to her it feels like she's just turning into a female version of him. It's so shitty and I hate her bf for it. I hate absolutely everything about him and to see her act exactly like him hurts me so bad. She was the only real friend that I had.

Put my two weeks notice in at my new job. The women that I'm working with are so incredibly rude. I'm probably just a pussy, but I've cried after every single shift there so far. I'm debating on if I should actually finish my two weeks or just not show up for the rest. Everyone keeps saying that I should finish and that they'd be "so proud of me." But I'm having trouble even getting out of bed in the mornings to go. I feel pathetic knowing that it's hard for me to do something so simple and go to work like everyone else has to.

My bf's friends have also been driving me nuts lately. I know that they all don't like me very much, and I always feel bad whenever my bf tries to convince me that they do. Especially since it's so obvious that they don't. I feel like they don't just because I'm not into smoking weed (mainly because I can't get over the taste), but that's a pretty dumb reason lmao. There's this new girl in the "group" that has tried to hit on my bf with me present and I guess apparently no one likes her (based on the way they were talking about her) but yet she still gets invited to everything and I don't. I know why, but I'm still super bitter about it. I wish she would just gtfo and I just wish that they would all like me but whatever. There isn't much I can do in this situation.

Also school and student loans but I haven't even been accepted yet so idk yet with that stuff.

This all feels so stupid to be upset about but I've got no one to talk to except for my boyfriend. I'm so stressed out about everything that I've been getting sick almost everyday. Idk what to do anymore.

No. 254988

I know right. It makes me think it's the same people who keep sperging on every thread.

Seriously hate this kind of people. Sounds like he's of these edgy kids who make fun of everything/everyone and sulks when he becomes the butt of jokes.

Drop him, sis. It's not worth the stress if it's just an online friend. You can do better.

That sounds tough, anon. Can't you make some friends online? It may not be the same but can be of help. And tbh your bf's friends don't sound like good people to hang with at all, I don't think you're missing out a lot.

No. 254999

I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. I'm so happy that you had the courage to give your two weeks notice, though ! Ive been debating giving my two weeks notice but I always end up feeling guilty.
If you're interested in making new friends maybe try picking up an MMO? FFXIV has a great community. Otherwise there's the friend finding thread, too.
If your friend has been changing and neglecting you she isn't worth worrying about. Especially if it's painful to do so.

No. 255004

This site has intensified my body dysmorphia tenfold. Every time I come on here, I find a new flaw being picked apart on a cow and see the same flaw on myself. Before I started coming here I struggled, but now it’s so much worse.

I don’t even go out anymore and besides my 2 hour ocd morning makeup regimen, I can’t look in a mirror without having a panic attack, or crying. It’s ruining my life. I can’t walk outside my bedroom without a full face of makeup to hide my flaws (nasolabial folds, eye bags, ugly lips, saggy skin, now I’m convinced I’m developing jowls) I’m only 23.

I isolate myself and stopped taking pictures of myself, I don’t let others include my ugly face in pics either. I used to believe I was pretty hot because people always said I was, and I got hit on non-stop whenever I left the house, but people don’t comment on my looks much anymore and I’m hit on a lot less. Can’t figure out if it’s because I’m ugly and old looking now versus how I was at 20/21, or if it’s part of growing up.

Last week I spent 3 days in bed with every light off, every mirror covered, and cried while searching for cosmetic procedures. I now cry as I wake up and start my obsessive skincare and hair/makeup routine that I have no control over anymore and can’t stop myself from doing, even though I know I must look ridiculous being constantly excessively dolled up.

I need help but I’m too embarrassed to seek it.

No. 255006

And I mirror check constantly. I have to make sure my hair and makeup is “perfect” all day, I’ll even bring a bag of makeup and tools to fucking work or out and excuse myself to hide and fix myself. I get sucked into any reflective surface only to be disgusted with myself. I think everybody talks about how weird I look.

Sometimes I think about seriously harming myself, like pouring acid on my face or setting myself on fire or just cutting my face apart

No. 255011

Perspective: Maybe people aren't complimenting your looks as often because the opportunity doesn't arise, per se. I mean if you're isolating yourself and not being in many pictures, nobody can ever really comment. When you were more confident I bet you got out more and interacted with more people because you didn't feel like an ugly sack.
I would know.
For almost two years I shut myself in my apartment except to go to my job, gained 80 pounds, and even now I hate all pictures of myself and dread social gatherings.

A lot of the hate for how I look comes from within me. Other people are used to how I look or don't care, but that's really hard for me to accept because I'm so convinced I'm hopelessly fat and unlikable, and the negativity here is like an echo chamber for it.

No. 255021

I see what you’re saying, I tried to think of it that way but a big one was getting hit on at work. Customers don’t really do it anymore, and it used to be constant

No. 255027

I have BPD and BDD, no relatives within hundreds of miles, no friends, I don’t know if I want to be in my relationship anymore, I do camming shit that I hate to get by financially atm since it’s the only thing I can manage, and im ugly. Should I just kill myself? I’ve already been hospitalized and in therapy. Even if my life got better I’d have to live as a mentally ill person and live with my life trauma and I don’t want that. I’m so tired of trying to make life work when I’m so shit at it.

No. 255034

I have a diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder and I've had it for two years and it hasn't gotten better. I was seeing a psychologist (they were the ones to diagnose me) and they eventually told me I only wanted to be coddled and obviously didn't want to get better. Which is the cruelest thing I've heard come out of their mouth since I had seeked them out since I was tired of being anxious 24/7 and knew something was wrong with me. And I was seeing them once a week for about 6 months till they said this. They weren't giving me any coping mechanisms I hadn't already tried and I had told the psychiatrist that the coping mechanisms weren't helping as much anymore. The breathing techniques were helpful for when I head an anxiety attack and my chest would start aching but everything else was just. "Write down your feelings, keep telling yourself that you can do this when your anxiety tells you otherwise, set goals for yourself. When you get anxious try to imagine yourself somewhere you feel safe." And I was writing in a journal daily, setting goals for myself and trying to be all "yeah I got this" whenever my anxiety would cause me to doubt myself.

Since then I haven't gone back nor have I gone to see another mental health professional because I'm so scared I'm going to get treated like that again. I've also had bad experiences with my doctor, the meds they gave me for my anxiety increased it to where I felt full of nervous energy and I was sleeping 2hrs a night at most because I'd be high-key anxious all day and night. I had a really bad anxiety attack the fifth day of taking the meds due to external circumstances. And I called my doctor and told them I wanted off of them and explained why. They had me come in immediately and I went, still having my anxiety attack and they treated me like I had to be put into inpatient because I was crying so much and so anxious. This was after explaining that my anxiety was never this level till I started the meds. When I refused inpatient (which when they offered that as a solution, only FURTHERED my anxiety and I burst into a fresh round of tears and shaking.) They had another doctor come in and try to talk me into it and they were really pushy and tried to say I had issues with mental health professionals and I just was speechless because my doctor knew I was seeing my psychologist at that time and infact they were in contact because psychologists can't prescribe meds and they were working in unison to try and get my anxiety balanced.

So I have a major distrust of both doctors and mental health professionals due to my experiences and I'm so scared to reach out for help again. I have this guy I'm interested in rooting for me to go and I can't ever explain the deep well of dread I feel when it comes to even thinking about seeing another mental health professional. He tells me that I just have to go and I know he's right but if the kind of stuff that happened before happens again I feel like I'll break apart.

No. 255037

I get hit on when I'm

-Happy, calm
-Not worried about what's going on around me
-Not looking at everyone, just sorta existing and doing my thing

My natural state now is looking at everyone in the eye, being aware of my surroundings, not enjoying myself and just being serious. I don't get hit on (which is good because I don't want it) but when I forget myself and relax I start to get the creepers again

Being confident and happy is the biggest way to look good. And then being relaxed, friendly and uncritical is the easiest way to get guys to come up to you. you pointed out that your attitude has completely changed - in one year? I promise you that you look the same. The only thing different is the attitude.

Being self conscious is something I used to be too, which my sister mistook for vanity and would get annoyed when I would check my makeup in the mirror. I just wear waterproof/v sturdy makeup these days so I know it isn't budging.

Everyone is just concerned about themselves. Especially now, everyone is ultimate narcissist only interested in looking good. They are so interested in themselves they have no time to judge you. I have never ever looked at a person and thought they were ugly or something. Only bad thing is if someone is rude, like barging past people, talking loudly in your face. How they look is irrelevant

No. 255050

I can relate to this. One of my friends in high school laughed when I said my dog got hit by a car. Giant narc.

No. 255057

File: 1527661721269.jpg (36.54 KB, 539x412, catcatcat.jpg)

I feel trapped. My home life has been a mess ever since my parent got a divorce. I grew up in a conservative christian household, I am not a christian so it was very difficult in middle and highschool when i had zero freedom.
> My dad is verbally and mentally abusive.
He is a control freak and everything I do has to be his way or it would turn into a fight that would go on for hours, he would scream and tell me how worthless I was and how no one would ever love me and how bratty I was just because of stupid little mistakes any kid would make. sometimes it would be because i was listening to music or playing games he thought were satanic (pokemon, for example.)
my mom would never listen to me For years about wanting to not live with him anymore, I dreaded having to go to his house. I started going to therapy at some point because of all the trauma he had caused me, I was (and still am to an extent) extremely depressed and suicidal. He would ask my therapists about all the things i was telling her and when he found out i was talking to her about my dad he flipped out on me and pushed me into a wall. I called the police but there was no evidence so they did nothing to him. I finally started living with my mom full time but its not much better now. Ill get into that later.
My dad is now getting remaried somehow and i have to pretend like everything he did to me never happened. I think his wife is a very nice lady and i dont hate her or anything, its just irritating that he acts like nothing bad every happened, and i'm pretty sure he doesn't tell her about all the shit he did to me and my family beforehand.
> after living with my mom full time for a few years, I realize she isnt a very good person either.
shes not abusive like my dad was, but she barely acts like my mom. she is uninterested in anything I do, while she babies my brother and gives him anything he wants or needs. ive been having medical issues for years and years and she refuses to let me go to the doctor, she says its too expensive even thought we have insurance. it hinders me from working or doing a lot of activities and its frustrating because I cant afford anything on my own. the only food she buys is fast food for herself and my brother and lunch food for him. I completely feed myself and pay all of my gas and car bills. if i ask for any money for emergency things she screams at me and says how i just use her for money and act like her house is a hotel. I work 40 hours a week and go to school, wtf am I supposed to do?? she also shames me for everything that I do. I'm 20, and if i'm out later then 12 she flips out on me and treats me like scum. recently we got in this huge fight because I was sick one morning and she started screaming at me about being pregnant (which I am not) and she forced me to take a pregnancy test while she waited outside the restroom. she told me how dissapointed she would be if I was pregnant or how she would kick me out if I ever got an abortion. I'm stressed about this whole thing because i know she tells a bunch of my family members about things I do, like I tried ending my life and the next day the entire family was texting me about how ungodly of a thing that was to do.
> my brother is so fucking annoying i cannot handle living with him anymore.
he is babied by both of my parents, he is a total brat. he is loud and inconsiderate. all he does is play xbox, he screams at people playing games and blasts music and screeches along to it, usually starting around 8 am every day. I work a lot so i dont get to sleep in very much, but every day for the past month he has woken me up early with noise. every time I ask him to stop he threatens to hit me and screams at me that no one wants me around and that I should just leave if I want it to be quiet. he steals from me all the time, takes money from me, eats food that i buy with my own money, and no one holds him accountable for his shitty actions. He isn't gonna make it in the real world, hes a horrible person.
I wish I could just move out with my boyfriend but even working full time I cant afford it, and even if I did have the money I would be looked down upon by everyone in my family for doing so. i just want to get away from everyone and be with the one person who loves me, all my friends stopped talking to me or live far away now. I feel alone and worthless.

No. 255060

Goddamn I really wanna have a good girl/girl sexual experience for once. Since I live in a small conservative town I can't find any viable options for a quick fuck. It's genuinely upsetting me, honestly. I would make a tinder or something if I wasn't anxious.

No. 255090

Anon you are not worthless, you are incredible resilient and strong.
Your mother may be better than your father was but she still sounds like a very abusive parent. it sucks that you have to deal with all that shit. I hope you can manage to move out soon and feel secure to enough to stop trying to please your family.
Also, you own nothing to your dad. He's shit and you don't have to pretend he's not just to feed his ego.
Sending you internet hugs.

No. 255091

I want to have a cute butch gf but I have no idea how. My gaydar is completely broken, I don't know how to flirt and I'm kind of ashamed I'm 25 and never dated or had sex. Also, I don't know if I would really be anyone's type. Seems that people only found me attractive when I was in my depressive ana-chan phase or pretending to care when I worked in retails, which sucks.
Also my therapist just canceled today's session and I don't know what to do with my feelings until next week.

No. 255109

I'm in your same situation, but with tinder. It's not helping much as it's mostly couples looking for a "unicorn" or trannies. Should probably try with lesbian bars

No. 255129

>my therapist just canceled today's session
Just wanted to say I feel for you and completely understand how much this can fuck a person up.

Unrelated but I think therapists should face penalties for this.
Similar to how they bill patients for not canceling their appointments with 24-48hr notice.
Not only do I think that's bullshit, but they're also fucking around with people's mental states so there should be way more liability on their part.

Most of em don't cancel for emergencies anyway.
My "therapist" canceled my appointment via voicemail day of and I didn't catch the notification. I showed up, waited close to 3 hours for her to barge through the door with a giant bag of fast food in hand. I could tell she was embarrassed because she didn't expect me to be there and I knew then what she'd done. She just wanted a longer lunch break.
>missed the rescheduled appointment the next month and the bitch didn't hesitate to bill me
Part of the reason why I was seeing her was because I was suicidal from my job, missing a lot of hours, and not making much money as a result. I called to beg them to not charge and they were ruthless.
Apparently they mistreated other patients according to the horrible business reviews, but her office was one of the only ones I could find covered under insurance.

No. 255141

Fuck off, male

No. 255142

Maybe you have a humiliation fetish, that shit's cringe af.

No. 255143

You're doing wonders for the image of your species robot

No. 255144

Therapists and mental health workers can be straight up cruel, when I was a teen going to therapy I would vent about abuse from my parents, not only did she not submit it in but the word got around about it, I tried emailing her and begging her to please not tell them and instead of being understanding and keeping me safe… She forwards the email to my parents, I had to get chased by them until I left the house and was homeless for a few days, went to a mental ward because of a suicide attempt

When I saw her again she complained about me not trusting her and she asked why I wont talk to her and I said because I don't have a safe place to talk anymore and she told that to my parents too as well as accusing me of lying about getting molested as a child and trying to convince me it was a delusion despite never having delusions, I've had trouble ever going to therapy again after that to the point where when I went to other therapists all i can do is sit in the chair and stay silent

I desperately need therapy and it sucks there are no good therapists

No. 255145

For a long time I used to not care about being alone/single but I feel really lonely and pathetic lately. I even miss my shitty ex despite knowing he really messed me up mentally. Just recently I confessed to a guy who was really flirty with me, I'd known him for about 2 months, and he just said "oh, thank you" when I told him I liked him. I really do think he's a great person but maybe I'm just seeking validation that I'm loveable.

No. 255146

For a long time I used to not care about being alone/single but I feel really lonely and pathetic lately. I even miss my shitty ex despite knowing he really messed me up mentally. Just recently I confessed to a guy who was really flirty with me, I'd known him for about 2 months, and he just said "oh, thank you" when I told him I liked him. I really do think he's a great person but maybe I'm just seeking validation that I'm loveable.

No. 255148

You're not a man, you're a sheltered cuck.

No. 255149

Whos offended when men see it as sexual? No one was originally offended if men see it as sexual, but if you think any girl who dresses up as anime is just trying to be sexual then..,

No. 255151

Then why are you here

No. 255152

Probably right about lesbian bars. Just wish my hot butch friend would stop hitting on me if she’s so scared of getting attached to me romantically.

No. 255156

yea i bet a hot guy watches random cosplay videos then posts about how hot they are on lolcow

No. 255159

>I'm just telling you how virgin neckbeards really think.

Low quality male out.

No. 255174

I feel for you anon. I have similar quirks, like when I enter a place and get a bad or weird vibe sometimes it will spook me enough to leave and abandon whatever it was I was doing. It's definitely rooted in reality but there is an undeniable aspect of paranoia to it. I suggest you consult a mental health professional about it and see what they have to say.

No. 255192

>current monthly income is around 10k
>father is retiring, might get 2k per month, mother might retire or will lose job, might get 1.5k per month
>i'm making 4k per month, brother is a spoiled pos and mothers favourite so he's not paying for anything ever even though he works

All finances will basically become my worry because 2-3 people can't really live of off 3k per month. My parents also have no saving so once they die I'll have to pay for everything (funerals) myself. I wish I could move out and cut them off but my father doesn't deserve this and despite my mother being an abusive pos I just can't.
It sucks to know how much in life I already missed out just because my family couldn't afford it and now as an adult I still can't live my life because they'll depend on me until I'm like fucking 40. The fact that I had no real childhood, was neglected, abused and bullied until I got older just adds salt to the wound.

No. 255193

51% of American workers make less than $30,000 a year.

You make much more than most workers in America.

You have absolutely no clue how privileged you are, and how badly people live in America outside of your privileged little bubble.

There's tons of people living off 1200 and less a month in America, living paycheck-to-paycheck almost homeless, many of them do end up homeless. Your problems are bullshit.

No. 255195

Damn OP, I can't even say I could support my parents even if I wanted to because my wage barely supports my own ass.

I mean your brother is a piece of shit but damn. I'd kill someone to make $2k biweekly right now.

No. 255207

The car thing happened to me before, that's Top Creeper stuff

No. 255210

>no savings

What is their cost of living? Is this dollars or euro or something else? It sounds like for them they have money troubles. A lot of money can be sucked up by rent, healthcare and debt and considering nobody in their family has savings on monthly 10k it would suggest that is the case.

No. 255211


Spelling suggests UK, Canada or Australia. If Australia the cost of living is crazy high there, you can basically halve whatever sum you have in terms of actual worth of money.

If UK they're doing fine unless debt and rent/mortgage is slugging them. Dunno about Canada or Europe

No. 255216

If it's Canada then 4k isn't even that much. Yanks forget that Canadian doubloons don't go very far.

No. 255217

NAYRT but I don't trust therapists at all due to having a few in my personal life who regularly break patient confidentiality. My MIL talks about her patients as casual dinner conversation and doesn't even make an attempt to spare identifying details. Sometimes she'll straight up say exactly who she's talking about.

Literal example
>oh hey, our garbage man is one of my patients now. He's addicted to heroin and his children now live with his mother because he's afraid they'll be taken away due to his substance abuse.

Not even the worse example.

No. 255218

Similar thing happened to me, anon. I didn't suffer from abuse like you did, but I have severe depression with a possibly narcissistic alcoholic mother. My mom would ask the therapist on the phone what I'd say after some (maybe all? I don't know) sessions and tell the therapist that I'm lying, etc. Also would use the therapist as a threat if we fought, "I'll be sure to tell (therapist) about this!" Eventually my mom invited herself in the office with me and I was too afraid to object so I wouldn't talk about anything substantial/lie about how I've been feeling. I'm pretty sure the therapist believed my mom over me which is absolutely ridiculous.

No. 255221

I actually found out several years after seeing a therapist for a year that she discussed me with my old landlord and my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend. I wish I had written evidence because I'd sue the cunt

No. 255224

I'm so sorry that happened to you, anon. It's so fucking gross how people who are legally required to keep people's secrets think nothing of discussing them with others. Sadly, it's extremely difficult to prove so they typically get away with it.

No. 255225

Another try another rejection, this was my last time. Guess I'm just going to live my whole life alone or actually off myself this time.

No. 255232

I can’t wait to go back to school. Summer with my parents is near unbearable and my father is extremely condescending and a know it all, but claims I’m the one who acts that way. They still 100% see me like a child (I’m 28) and I can’t speak my mind or do anything they don’t approve of. It’ll upset my mother but I’m going to move in with my boyfriend when the semester starts and I’m not going to speak to them for a very long time. I’m tired of hiding in my “room” (a curtain hung up in a closed off porch with an old hospital bed to sleep on) to avoid interaction with them.

No. 255233

Jesus. There should still be something you can do, blatant HIPPA violation IIRC.

Are priests any better? Was going to confess, now I might just bottle everything up instead.

No. 255234

God damn do I hate shrinks.

When I was in the mental hospital, back in 2009, the guy in charge of my brain told me a story about how he was keeping his wife and daughter on antidepressants because they were traumatized by 9/11. I asked him if they were nearby when the towers fell. He said yes, they lived in Philadelphia at the time.

He was saying that I was schizophrenic, only reason I got out of there was because my health insurance refused to pay for more than 8 days of inpatient treatment. Thank the good lord for corporate greed. one of the guys I was in with was on so much shit he couldn't get out of bed. Really nice kid, pretty hair and eyes. Dude was in there for having ADHD and smoking weed with his mom, that was it.

No. 255239

File: 1527736528541.png (243.21 KB, 421x427, 76e585d12dacb16529330e1b4e505e…)

Work stuff has me really stressing out.
>tl;dr: How do you deal with someone who is constantly harassing you at work but because she's been there for so long (15+ years), it's "her word" vs "yours" as someone who has just passed their 90 days?

An old bitter lady is trying to get me fired from my job that I started which can lead to my future career, and refuses to give me direct feedback other than complain to the big boss behind my back about it. I decided to take action and talk to everyone else to see if I need feedback and they say I'm doing fine and I could just go a little faster (my boss says they can't fire me just because I'm "slow") but this lady is starting to make up shit to get me fired, some things are really ridiculous. I talked to my big boss yesterday and told me that he's only hearing this negative feedback from this lady only and that he'll disregard it if he doesn't hear anything from the others but told me I may want to quit while I still can or possibly transfer and I'm so baffled because I'm always on my feet, asking people if they need help or prepping them for their next activity while this old bitter lady sits behind a computer and disappears from time to time.

Like I understand if I was a shit employee with shit work ethic and always hid in the back on my phone but I'm always so exhausted after work by getting near to the point of overworking myself because she doesn't do her part of the job. No one wants to say anything against her because she's been there for 15 years and is so "sweet and nice" to everyone else. I've never cried at work before but I cried so hard in front of my boss and later in the bathroom, I ended up coming home from work with a huge headache last night and decided at 8 PM to just head to bed even though I just got home.

This isn't really fair. My boss said to hold off on getting human resources involved until he can settle the case but this has been on going for so long. She just does little petty things like constantly moving my belongings somewhere else like for example, I had a desk to put my things in and sit when I have downtime but she ended up moving my desk to the very back. She's telling me I'm inflexible in my job when I've been accepting their request to cover other locations. The list can go on. She's always pretty much set me up for failure since day 1 because she was supposed to be training me and never did. I relied on others who are in the same position to help me guide me through the first few weeks.

I think even if I do get it settled with HR, I may just transfer somewhere but I don't want to leave until it's my time to leave. I have no problem with anyone at work except for this lady and I understand that there are jobs where you don't get along with a person but it's always something new with her everyday. I don't want her to "win" by making her thinking complaining about it is how you solve your problems and by making me leave but I really don't know what to do. Maybe the people really don't like me there and are just being nice to me in my face. I really don't want to think that because I enjoy most of them there but I don't want to be miserable in my job. I finally get a job that isn't fast food, related to my career, and can give me a huge step ahead into graduate school and I already feel so repulsed by my career because of this lady. I know it's just temporary feelings but I'm just venting at this point. Sorry for the long spew.

I honestly just want to fast forward to the part of my life that I'm not working and focusing solely on school or hell, give me the career already so I can really start my life up.

No. 255250

Don't worry anon, I'm sure you're going to meet a wonderful person someday. I admire your courage.

I have the opposite problem, I actually want to be left alone. I hate rejecting people and seeing them hurt but guys won't get a clue. Trying to get rid from a flirt from my japanese class.

No. 255313

I'm from the Balkans, so Europe.
4k here is around 550 euros.

We aren't dirty poor but still struggling with basic necessities and can't really afford to have more than one meal per day. Could be worse, sure, but having an unstable job really isn't helping.

No. 255316

I hate to say it, but there isn't much you can do. Same thing happened to my bf and he was fired despite being a great employee. He wasn't even there for a year yet. Unfortunately it really is your word against theirs and they will always protect their own. I mean why do they still have her employed if she isn't much of a help? They'll always protect her first.

I'd recommend you write everything down and if you're brought to a meeting, produce your journal. You might also want to take your manager's advice and start applying for other jobs. If you get accepted into one, you can leave that hell.

No. 255317

>You have absolutely no clue how privileged you are, and how badly people live in America outside of your privileged little bubble.
>Your problems are bullshit.
Can people from tumblr please fucking leave? You're the one who doesn't understand life outside of the American bubble. Seriously this is so fucking rude and you come across as so uneducated. You could have asked her to clarity what her money was worth in her currency. Fucking yanks, this is why nobody outside of the US likes you.

No. 255325

I guess the summerfags are here. Between all the annoying
and this privilege shit, I wonder if a hellweek would be in order soon. They need to go hangout on cc or PULL, this is one of the only predominantly female sites that isn't full sjw and it should stay that way.

No. 255337


Not really, it's always the same jazz.

>Oh anon you're so sweet, kind and honest but I don't want a relationship now

>Proceeds to date a model tier guy two days later

Why can't they just say I'm ugly and it's because of that, fucking cowards.

No. 255340

I'm going back to school and was going to use the excess loan money for necessities next month.
My school decided to mess with my award that I already signed off on so that I'll have close to no excess money after tuition

I'm worried they won't let me borrow the max and I want to die because I was really counting on that for next month.

No. 255342

She will get away with it. The connection with my old landlord and my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend is ridiculous. My old landlord was a family friend of my ex-fiances family and I never knew my current boyfriend's ex-girlfriend even existed before she started emailing people about me.

They all work by doing freelance healing and therapy. The ex-girlfriend fucked off to Unst with some other man's baby and writes a mundane blog about her life. Feel like warning all her clients she's absolutely mental and will tell all your insecurities to anyone else to feel better about herself.

Funny how my experience of therapists is that they are all insecure cunts themselves. My old landlord is trying to be a spiritual healer too.

I can connect them all together and their fields of work, I just don't have the slander in writing. I'd love to sue them, my therapist was also dealing with my Stepmum at the time (I was in therapy because of her, my dad who is wealthy was paying for it all, so he'd be very interested to hear his family is being slandered I'm just dying for some evidence.)

No. 255347

>model tier guys

If you're a lesbian, they're probably straight and lying about being bi.

If you're a manon…

No. 255376

File: 1527782681007.png (225.12 KB, 534x566, 1461794540687.png)

I'm sending resumes left and right so I can find an internship for september or october and honestly, despite the fact that I'm more than qualified for these internships, I'm sure they'll all ignore me or straight say they're not interested before setting up an interview with me. I'm starting to think I'll never graduate even though I'm seeing people with absolutely shitty grades and work ethics with some of the best internships I've ever seen. Fuck I'm so jealous, I deserve to graduate and get a job in my field instead of the shitty retail job I have now, I have the grades for that, I wish people would give me a chance too.

No. 255383

Anon I feel you so hard. I've been at my current office job for over a year and have had a problem with this one woman in another department since I first started. I remember in my second week coworkers were coming up, warning me that she had been talking shit. At one point she had her boss call me and my manager into a meeting because she was accusing me of being a sloppy worker and losing paperwork. I'm lucky to have a manager who really values her workers because she came to my defense, not to mention the missing documents mysteriously appeared on her desk the next day kek. If your boss is telling you to look somewhere else you might want to, and the fact that he has an idea that she's full of it and refuses to do anything is a sign of a bad boss. It's not fair but it won't last forever, and hopefully karma catches up to her.

No. 255453

File: 1527830164864.jpg (202.85 KB, 900x1200, 08bd38ff-8032-4f2e-a2f1-cdd654…)

I miss having friends. I've cut contact with everyone because they all kind of.. suck? Whenever we would have plans, there would be more people than I expected (they would never tell me beforehand, just ask if I wanted to hang out) even though they know I'm anxious in big groups. This happened the last ~5 times I saw them. The people they would hang out with wouldn't know me, but I was never introduced and when I'd try to start a conversation, they wouldn't even bother to try to keep it going. The only thing my friends seem to talk about is people they know (that I don't) and things they've done (that I wasn't there for). I try and switch topics but it just ends up right back where it was. I'd say it was me, and I know it is to some extent, but I have a good relationship with all of my coworkers to the point I've had managers compliment me for being pleasant to work with. I just don't get how I can have better conversations with asshole coworkers than with people who claim to be my friends.
Is it too much to ask for a friend who actually pretends to enjoy my presence?

No. 255459

I remember I dropped my high school friends for more or less the same reason. It's frustrating when you hang out with people who ignore you.
>Whenever we would have plans, there would be more people than I expected (they would never tell me beforehand, just ask if I wanted to hang out) even though they know I'm anxious in big groups.
I love my current friends but they do that thing when we plan to hang out somewhere and they bring others with them without telling everyone. I find it annoying because even though most of the time it's not really a problem and they bring people we all get along with, sometimes we book seats for a small restaurant or for the cinema with our small group and surprise, there's not enough seats for everyone who tagged along later on. It's frustrating too.

No. 255463

God I fucking hate it when people do this.
>"Anon you wanna hang out on Saturday? I really want to see you!"
>"Sure! We haven't met in ages, I'm looking forward to it!"
>Saturday rolls around
>"I invited a few of my friends, you don't mind do you?"
>There's like 5 people I don't know and they just keep talking about their personal stuff together and don't even bother to acknowledge my presence, ignore all attempts at me trying to join the conversation
>You ultimately get bored and sneak off, nobody even notices
>Friend thanks everyone for a great evening on social media, tagging everyone present except you

Are these people just completely retarded at being socially conscious or is it just a power trip for them?

No. 255464

>sometimes we book seats for a small restaurant or for the cinema with our small group and surprise, there's not enough seats for everyone who tagged along later on.
People need to stop doing this, Jesus it's so annoying and frustrating because you've asked people if they want to come, booked the table for x amount of people and suddenly two hours beforehand everyone wants to invite themselves to butt in. I've been in a situation where we've booked a table for 7 and ended up with 15 people and a waitress being annoyed that we didn't inform about such a big group coming so they could arrange the service better. Or in another situation you're going out to eat with a small group of 3 so you don't bother to make a reservation, and out of the blue there are 6 people joining you so you don't fit in the small restaurant and have to figure out a plan B. I hate being in charge of arranging something like this because it ALWAYS ends up with at least 5 friends' friends begging to come along 20 minutes before we're going because your friend can't grow the balls to say No.

No. 255467


This sounds so annoying! I have a somehow opposite problem that my friends are unable to commit to any plans at all, and if they do, I'd be lucky if they even show up. They even told me that the reason they do this is because they're waiting for a better offer to come along. As in, they don't want to make any plans because they're afraid they'll miss out on some awesome party or event elsewhere, so they would rather risk end up doing nothing.

Luckily there's two others in my friend group who are annoyed by this as well, so we tend to hang out a lot while the others sit around waiting for something better to do.

No. 255470

>There's like 5 people I don't know and they just keep talking about their personal stuff together and don't even bother to acknowledge my presence, ignore all attempts at me trying to join the conversation
The absolute worse. The people I tried to befriend in high school were exactly like that and I stopped hanging out with them because it was just so awkward, even though they're the one who invited me to things. I don't even bother with people who pull that stuff.

I talked about small restaurants because of something that happened a few months ago and while I love my friends, I was so pissed at them and I guess I'm still not over it even though it's so silly in the end. Sorry if it's incoherent.

I asked two or three friends to go to a very small restaurant with me after work (for me since I was the only one working that day) and not only did they asked other friends beforehand before I agreed to it (because it's a VERY small restaurant), but once I booked for 6 people, one of the girls who said she wouldn't come because of some personal drama between her and someone else who wasn't even coming came after all, even though it was my friend who asked her to come and not even me!

It turned out that our reservation had been completely forgotten by the waitress so we didn't even have 6 seats side by side in the first place which wasn't that much of a problem since we went to a convoyer belt sushi restaurant, but we still couldn't stay because of the 7th person. Not only that but even though I told everyone it was a bit expensive beforehand, even the people who came because my friend asked them, they started bitching about the prices once we were in front of the restaurant. We ended up going to a shitty overpriced fast food joint instead, which was right next to my work place.

I told my friend who invites people without telling anyone to stop doing that politely because it ruined many of our outings when we couldn't plan how many we were. I think she understood because she only does that when she's the one who organize something now. You should probably talk about it to your friends next time you guys plan something, just in case they try to invite more people without asking anyone first.

No. 255481

File: 1527854612128.jpg (355.8 KB, 910x560, random uni.jpg)

I had an interview/exam at this university and at almost the end of it, when speaking to the dean (who was a part of the entrance committee), I mentioned the name of the town I come from. He then asked if I knew a particular teacher of the subject I want to study, and I said yeah, because that was actually my school teacher.
Welp, today my teacher emailed me saying the dean had contacted her. Apparently he wrote her a letter saying how exceptional the interview was and that he hopes I'll choose to attend this particular uni.

I'm so shocked idk what to say. I think the interview went great, too (I prepared very well), but idk if emailing-my-teacher-great lol. Even she was surprised, they don't know themselves well at all (just met at a conference), so him reaching out like this… makes me feel all kinds of ways

No. 255483

File: 1527857530713.gif (418.3 KB, 498x280, dying-inside-gif-6.gif)

I haven't been feeling too great the last half year but I try my best to hide it because no one likes depressed people…
And then I get frustrated because no one cares about me being sad…heh…

No. 255491

File: 1527861576660.jpg (44.18 KB, 400x400, 1526679096711.jpg)

I feel sick to my stomach about ever being able to afford a house in the new area I live in. Two major companies have announced they're moving here, prices have increased %25 in the three years since I've moved here already meaning it will increase more now. No doubt that will be an increase in property tax as well. Most townhomes even have already priced me out. Bf and me already pay a ridiculous rent to be where we are.

I could move back to my hometown, which is a cultural and financial shithole, but the problem with buying a cheaper house there is that the jobs pay less as well IF one can find a job. Hence the low costs.

I feel like I'll be forced to buy outside the limits and have over an hour commute if I do ever get there. But housing prices outside are no longer cheap either because everyone else is trying to do just that now.

Worst of all, my parents are being completely naive about this situation because they're fucking boomers who had great housing markets so they have no idea what I'm up against.

Just to give an idea…
Mom's first house she bought for $21k and sold for $66k. Her second house she bought for $65k and sold for $125k. The latter was actually a very nice cape cod house by a lake in my hometown.
All these houses had multiple bedrooms and a lot of square footage.
Here? A single bed townhouse is running at least $200k for about 1,000sq.
>inb4 major city anons say this is nothing
Oh I know, that's why I tried to stay far the fuck away from the major cities. I knew this area was getting a lot of tech influx but I had no idea things could go this much to shit in a matter of a couple of years.
I'm 26 but basically I have nothing saved for a substantial down payment. Mom says she may help me but in boomer language that probably means she'll loan me about $5k hah.

I feel so fucked and I have no mentor.

No. 255503

I hope you don't end up $100,000 in debt with a useless degree.

There's tons of guys who will let you live in their house for free if you have sex with them.

You can find tons of ads like this on craigslist, but also people just call it a relationship/marriage.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 255504

Not either of them, but what's your problem? Are you male or something?

No. 255507

Maybe Anon is not interested in being a hoe?

No. 255508

>There's tons of guys who will let you live in their house for free if you have sex with them.

I'm sure that'll go over great with my boyfriend lol.

No. 255518

My coworker showed up on his last day gave his key and left
Kind of left us in a shitty position because he knows we are super short staffed
He makes shitty decisions and I'm glad I never gave him legit sympathy
I hope he rots

No. 255521

100% sure it's an autistic robot. Those subhumans are so easy to spot.

No. 255527

>There's tons of guys who will let you live in their house for free if you have sex with them
that's considered coercion, you fucking freak.

spread your legs to get anything you could ever dream of you silly feeemales

No. 255535

File: 1527873451250.jpg (27.19 KB, 500x328, 13492822.jpg)

I have no idea why but currently the birds around my are loud af and therefore I had such a trouble in the past days to get a decent amount of sleep after 4 AM because all those shit birds make so much noise that I can't just ignore it when I sleep. And I'm a person that wakes up of most noises around me. I'm so fucking tired and because even on my days off I can't sleep long because of that and to add, it's currently super hot here so closing the windows is not an option because otherwise it's not possible to sleep because of the heat. Fuck that. I'm literally so tired.

No. 255539

File: 1527874068032.gif (1.52 MB, 400x224, 43b0fda514f44f06cf5944bb8850da…)

you know what you have to do, anon…

No. 255543

god, obvious bitter maleposting never fails to remind me that men are disgusting.

>every girl's a literal whore because i say so, so why don't you just be a whore, whore?!!1!1

fuck off. leave and go fap to some more cuck porn, you weirdo. if you're so obsessed with women sleeping with other men, you've obviously got exactly the right deep-seated issues and hate that makes a man prone to cuckery. disgusting.

No. 255548


I would never seriously kill or harm an animal but fuck, exactly that kind of stuff crosses my mind when I can't sleep lmao

No. 255562

Do you know what kinds of birds they are?

No. 255571


No, not really. They sound like the usual kind of Birds you have here in Germany I would say?

I just tried to understand why they are so loud and apparently it's because they defend their territory in the morning? What just confuses me, I live here in my place for a few years now and I never remember birds being so loud around this time of the year.

But it's really like the gather together in place and the same time and make all this - noise. Sometimes it#s like they are all in my bedroom ffs I just don't get it.

And when you manage to get a bit of sleep, you dream the most weirdest shit because you are not able to go back of having a nice calm sleep …

No. 255572

University is free where i live lol

No. 255577

I'm going through the exact bullshit right now. It's too hot to close my bedroom window, but there is a tree outside of it and a singing bird that loves to chirp at 4-5am EVERY DAY. They'll of course stop around 7am, giving me 30 mins more to 'sleep' before i have to get up for work.


No. 255578

File: 1527880241356.jpg (69.2 KB, 710x473, 11-gavin.w710.h473.jpg)

>best friend tells me they are going to visit me late summer because they miss me so much
>I become excited and start talking about the things we could do
>lately I discover that the reason of the trip is League of Legends finals in Madrid (wow twitter)
>Best friend is only coming for those days (going to be 3 in total)
>Event is fucking expensive and I don't have a job, although I am into the game (lowkey) and want to see Rekkles playing irl (who my friend also likes) but I don't have the money
>Friend has already planned the whole trip without me or what we could do despite of staying at my place and is going to the event with some friends I don't know (and has not invited me), had the audacity to ask me if my friend who plays for Movistar Riders could get them into the parties with players (didn't bother to ask if I would like to join and go party with the team and them).

It has made me so upset I'm going to say I won't be in the city for those days due to work or family stuff… and I thought they were my best friend.

No. 255582

Aw shoot. I have no idea what the birds might be then.
I was gonna say if you knew what type they were you could figure what their food supply is, why they're there, and how long for. Sometimes I manipulate the birds in my area that I don't want with different feed/fake feed/moving objects like pinwheels. You could try hanging shiny tinsel near the source because they get freaked out by moving objects.

Here in Murrica I get lovely songbirds and mimids.
Cardinals, mockingbirds, bluebirds, finches, doves, etc. But none are too loud.

The most annoying one we get is the catbird but usually he isn't attracted towards my place unless I put out fancy bird seed that has fruits and nuts.

No. 255584


Ah I see, that's actually a cool idea but the thing is that the area around my place has a crazy amount of trees. They are somewhere out there but idk in which tree is what kind of bird singing all morning. It's a lot of them.

>here are a few german birbs

No. 255616

I've had an only friend since high school and we used to hang out from time to time and everything seemed fine but then she got a boyfriend and pretty much cut me off. We still talk but when I ask her out she says that she's very busy all the time and then after a few days she'd mention how she's just went somewhere with her bf. It's so frustrating that I don't have any other friends and I'm kind of dependent on her, I wish I could just ignore her and move on but there's not so many people I can talk to.

I try making friends with people in my university and the ones I really like seem to like me back but they never invite me anywhere even though they often hang out together after class. I'm too scared to get annoying not to make them avoid me whatsoever. I also happen to have a crush on one of them and I know that she's bi but I almost wish she wasn't because I'll always be too scared to make a move. She's friendly with me in general but she brushes me off sometimes and I feel like if I made an attempt to get to know her better, she'd be even more annoyed. Idk, I try to be open and want to make new friends but it never goes anywhere and I have so much jealousy for the people I like because I feel unappreciated all the time.

No. 255636

are you me, anon?
My best friend got in a new relationship in march and i have not seen her irl since despite living 20 min away from each other. Before that, we used to met up sometimes 2 or 3 times a week. Like I know relationship>friendships but it makes me feel like my only role in her life was to pass time inbetween relationships and I'm honestly so upset.

Just now she left me on read for 9 days after i enquired how did an even she was stressed about go and when she finally did reply it was an essay gushing about her boyfriend. I truly am happy she found someone she likes who is also equally into her but also i can't help feeling neglected and used although it's probably selfish of me. The fact that i have 3 friends in total (out of which i only regularly see one) doesn't help much.

I wish i was better at making friends but i constantly assume I'm annoying and i don't have anything in common with the people i try to befriend at uni so it never goes anywhere.

No. 255637

What a fucking shitty friend.

No. 255639

File: 1527900551030.jpg (29.97 KB, 500x381, hwat.jpg)

I wish my bf could trust me to be right about some thing instead of being so insecure about his intelligence. Tbh he believes in some outright stupid things, and when I try to correct him he gets really defensive and doesn't even back down after I verify it on google.

>thought that feeding cooked rice to birds would make their guts explode and kill them
>cut his finger and complained about the bleeding not stopping, when I told him to run it over cold water he argued with me that it would make the bleeding worse due to "osmosis."
>once when we passed an airport late at night he thought the plane headlights that were lining up to land were the planets Venus and Mars…at 1am and that close to earth

He's 27. Sometimes I give it a pass because his grandmother raised him and she was kind of a delusional conspiracist towards the end of her life. Yet some of this is debunked with a bit of thought and common sense.

No. 255670

I feel like I'm failing everyone.

I'm 27 and haven't had a job because of how bad my anxiety is. People suggest factory work or something so I won't have to really interact with the public much. But here there is no factory work and I don't have a degree cause I didn't know what to go to college for and I didn't want to potentially waste money.

I have a really great guy interested in me and he's super smart and motivated. He likes me even though I am obviously messed up but he still worries that if I were to visit him I won't do anything, no work no cleaning and no cooking.

I worry about the same for myself. I want to be useful. I want to learn to cook but anytime I show interest my parent will laugh at me and tell me I'll basically mess it up. Then if I still insist on trying it they will write down what ingredients to get and yet somehow forget them when they take the list to the store. They have control over my food benefits ways always keep the card on them and won't let me go shopping on my own unless it's an emergency. The cleaning of course I would do. Work is currently out of the question but I am trying to get better about my anxiety.

I have been thinking I'm not good enough for this guy and I know I shouldn't think that way but it's becoming blatantly obvious. He deserves someone who is actually living their life and are smart and educated like he is.

No. 255681

File: 1527912190634.jpg (26.69 KB, 512x384, 03cff177b81d2f64959ffd24f43a1c…)

I feel like such a fucking fool anons. I just moved out on my own into this small studio apartment; it wasn't my first choice but I only chose it because they allowed pet(s). All my neighbors have dogs (big and small) and one has a few cats, so I thought since I'm pretty lonely I would adopt this senior cat whose been sitting in the local no kill shelter for a few years. I message the property management Monday and they responded earlier today, Friday. They told me that the landlord had actually banned pets earlier this year so I wouldn't be allowed to bring her home. I read back through my lease and it did say the landlord could deny pets but it just seems…unfair that my neighbors can have their dogs, who barking at 4 in the fucking morning, and I can't have a cat that only has maybe 5 more years left? I also feel a bit lied to considering if the landlord made that decision at the beginning of the year, why advertise and show off the place as "pet friendly" 5 months later? The one guy who was there when I was reading and signing everything kept telling me when I'm ready to adopt to just call them and give them the pet deposit? I want to email them back but I don't know what to say? It does say right in my lease that they can do that. idk this just sucks and I wish I would've known beforehand so I could've moved into the nicer apartment by the ocean.

No. 255683

go to the tenant board or whatever equivalent there is in your city and ask

No. 255684

if you have depression or anxiety and a doctor you could probably get the cat as an emotional support animal (which they cant deny housing)

No. 255686

almost the same thing happened me when I moved into my last apartment. It was pet friendly until I moved in and they changed it last minute because the last renters didn't take care of their dog and it ruined the carpet.
I moved my cat in anyways. He didn't claw the carpet or piss/shit everywhere and they were none the wiser. Unless you have constant inspections, I'd still move the cat in. If they do inspect, you'll get a notice so you can move the cat out or just lie and say you were watching it for the week for a friend.

No. 255697

Hate to say this because it's 20/20, but sometimes it's not worth it to ask and pay the fee even if they do approve.
As long as the pet isn't destructive aka a dog, it's none of their business.

No. 255704

I'm tired of how things are with my boyfriend, and talking hasn't worked, so I wrote a succinct little break-up message summing up my feelings, and two possible responses to what he might say back to me.
Now I'm actually itching to send it, but it seems too soon. I'm going to wait on it for at least two days, maybe sooner if we argue. I still love him, but I'm so tired of the way he's been making me feel, and there's no end in sight. It's gotten to the point where I'd rather just end things because the bad is overshadowing the good.

No. 255706

I had the same thing happening to me with owls. They would hide in the trees nearby and the just wouldn't shut up. I moved somewhere else so I don't have this problem anymore. Could they be owls too in your case? Do you use earplugs to sleep?

No. 255738

>post picture of my food at a sliiiightly fancy burger place on social media
>someone comments "admit it, this cost you €50 :p"
>I'm triggered
Is it weird that I just find it really rude and tacky?

No. 255739

It's a weird comment and I guess it's weird to be bothered by it, because I'm not even sure what they're trying to imply. It sounds passive aggressive but like, with what intent?

No. 255746

Forgot to put in a new a Nuvaring yesterday. I put in the new one 10 hours overdue but I was doing an extended wear (so I skipped the week without just let it in until I put the new one).
I found one source on the Internet saying that with the extended wear you're supposed to be good for 35 days (I was on 29th) but it was basically the only one information on the subject.

I had sex 24 hours ago. I don't want to take a morning after pills since I've been physically weak for a week and it will wreak avock on my body.

I'm basically crossing my fingers I'm not dropping an egg right now and fertilizing it with day old sperm.
I'm a worried mess.

No. 255747

Do you have a period app, anon? What part of your cycle are you at?

No. 255748

I think you're reading too much into it. Sounds like they're just teasing you because they think your burger looks fancy.

No. 255757

Thank you both of you! ;;

I'm coming to terms with the situation now. I have one more week before I meet up with my boss to discuss the situation, I'll still report it to HR even if there's an opportunity to transfer out. I want to stay because I have someone who is willing to write on their own accord a recommendation letter for my graduate program. So I'm hoping I can just bear a few more months until I get the letter and just leave.

The whole situation sucks because I asked those around me for feedback to see if they align with what she's saying but they don't because they just said to keep up the good work and be able to handle a bigger workload when we get slammed because we're picking up speed now at work.

To respond to the "why is she still there part?": She's one of those people who only do work when their manager is looking at her, she doesn't really take initiative in any other situation other than to look good in front of the boss.

No. 255766

Thank you for your responses they actually made me feel a little bit better. Unfortunately there is an inspection next week, and being here for less than a month I don't know if these are frequent things. I do have a professional diagnose for depression/anxiety/ptsd but stopped seeing my therapist a couple months ago; my dilemma is whether or not to email her explaining the situation but I'm afraid she'll deny me because I am no longer her patient or she won't believe that I still struggle with social anxiety.

No. 255775

Kind of a positive vent: I'm so incredibly grateful at the moment. I've been pushing myself in new ways and bettering myself as a person and I just feel so proud and accomplished. I've been a NEET loser for so long and I'm finally getting around to fixing myself up and trying to integrate into society. Each time I overcome my anxiety and extreme fear I just get more and more confident in my abilities. Fuck yeah to life.

No. 255798

File: 1527966841858.png (5.37 KB, 365x378, nerves.png)

i'm just overreacting right? this happened a few months ago but I recoil every time I remember it

>in library

>cute guy goes "hey" about 5x before i actually realize he's talking to me
>asks me if i know how to take a screenshot on a macbook
>i do it all the time so i say yes and walk up to him
>realise i dont even know what keys you press, i only remember it from muscle memory and have been doing it subconsciously
>ask to hold his computer to see if it triggers my memory
>"o-oh n-no i dont actually know how"
>he says "ok, thanks anyways"
>say "your welcome" in an unintentionally hostile voice and speedwalk away

im usually better at faking normalcy but i feel like i really fucked up

No. 255802

I'm so ridiculously horny that I masturbated after hearing The Weeknd verse in "or nah". I'm starting to feel compassion for Incels.

No. 255824

File: 1527972756187.jpg (68.49 KB, 664x960, 2.jpg)

I met my now-ex at the beginning of this week for the first time since our very recent breakup, and he said he'll think about giving us another try (not "officially" get back together asap, but see each other regularly/casually date again as a start). For now, we're not talking at all for a few weeks because he wants space, and so far it's only been 4 or 5 days but it's killing me. Talking to or seeing him always made me so happy, it felt like a drug, so it's a struggle. I keep thinking about how much I want to kiss him everywhere and stroke his hair and tell him I love him. Ughhhh.

The breakup was over me being overly clingy/needy last month, and I really realized that I can't do that to a bf even if my past ones were doormats and put up with overt negativity. We had zero issues besides that and it was very sudden, so I do genuinely feel like we have a chance of getting back together and working things out, especially since I'm planning on seeing a psychiatrist again soon and just generally will get busier with positive things. I just feel so guilty for fucking up my first healthy relationship with someone who means so much to me. I've been crying over it daily because even if I'm doing other things, I can't forgive myself or get him off my mind.

No. 255828

Have you considered drugging and raping men before, too?

When you reach that point you'll start feeling disgust again, trust me. Or you'll break the law.

No. 255829

File: 1527973726192.png (148.98 KB, 400x293, Zen44KrkyM8d5X7f4fOICUsGniMFdg…)

wow relatable

No. 255831

File: 1527975142822.jpeg (49.13 KB, 417x352, 9E96DE2A-51AF-4022-B9EA-392ECD…)

I might have fucked up, I got dermal fillers injected in my cheeks and they haven’t been absorbed yet its been 3 years I’m terrified I destroyed my face forever

No. 255839

wait what about his verse indicated it was rape/drugged? im confused

No. 255849

I thought you were talking about being so ridiculously horny that a song got you going, so you can empathize with incels who are essentially so horny they go insane.

So in reply I said that once you reach a similar point of entertaining the same compassionless, libido-driven actions (rape) as incels you will start feeling less empathetic.

Perhaps I misread your original post.

No. 255851

a lot of people would be happy about that. but if it's a huge problem, you can dissolve them.

No. 255876

im a new nurse, my young patient died in front of me and i still can’t shake it off

No. 255882

A part of me hates Pride month because at this point, it’s nothimg more that straight people from Tumblr scream about how ~*queer they are for 30 days (like Shoe, Kelly, or Lainey) instead of actual LGBT pride. Fuck, I’m not even apart of the LGBT community and I find these fuckers insufferable. I can’t even imagine how I feel if I actually was.

No. 255887

HELLO ACTUAL ME. holy shit. i got three syringes of juvederm in my cheeks (1.5 syringe in each cheek) almost two years ago and they haven't dissolved at all. AT ALL.

i didn't even really like the cat-woman look they gave me when i got them to begin with, but i was into looking like a plastic IG thot at the time so i kept them since they looked better than my flat cheeks in any case. i got lip fillers at the same time, and it was the same case with those - absolutely no natural dissolving happening. i went back every three months for botox re-ups and my NP was super surprised my body wasn't metabolizing the fillers but said it wasn't anything to be concerned about, i was lucky, etc.

i wound up not liking how my lips were looking at roughly the 1-year mark so i got them dissolved. biggest mistake i'd ever made. my lips were all loose and wrinkly and disgusting looking. i had lines around my lips that hadn't been there before i'd gotten the fillers and my lips FLAPPED. my injection lady repeated the usual, "oh don't worry, that's just natural aging that happened while you had the filler" - BULLSHIT, the outside of my mouth legit looked like a cat's asshole. i had to get some filler back just to not look incredibly aged at 21.

i don't want my cheek fillers anymore either, but after the lip incident, i'm incredibly scared to find out what my face would look like without them. i think part of my problem tho was that i just got wayyy too much filler. i could have gotten one syringe in my lips or even half a syringe, but i got 2.5, and i could have gotten 1-2 in my cheeks but i got 3. if you didn't go overboard and you want to get them dissolved someday, don't let my horror stories scare you anon. :')

godspeed my fellow slow metabolizer.

No. 255891

File: 1527998139052.png (793.17 KB, 740x405, 1503191604260.png)

I'm completely in love with a guy at my new job. I haven't had a real crush since high school.
I'm so fucking autistic that I drop spaghetti every time he even makes eye contact with me. He made an innocuous yet somewhat flattering comment to me and I could feel all my blood rush to my face, I was probably visibly blushing and now I'm worried that he knows I like him and might find me creepy.
On the other hand I feel like he's doing extra small things for me that I don't see him doing for anyone else and I don't know if that means he likes me back or if I'm looking too far into it.
I'm not going to bother making a move because I'm terrified of rejection and I don't want to make things any more weird between us. I enjoy his company. Plus I don't know if he has a girlfriend(I'll probably go home and cry if I find out that he does tbh)
Fuck this hurts so fucking much, I want to die. But at the same time I like it, I honestly didn't think I was still capable of feeling attraction.
At least this gives me a reason to get out of bed in the morning.

No. 255894

nta but kek tulla meme

No. 255895

File: 1527999515482.gif (125.16 KB, 500x365, nuuu.gif)

Fell in love with a straight girl again

No. 255906

I'm so sick of my shit. My friend has been having a major depressive episode for the past week. She's finally getting better and talking more. Today she told me that she wouldn't confine in me, and even though she explained why it hurt so much. She's afraid I'll leave if she does it, and I get the fear because I've been there. It still hurts though. I really thought we were closer than that. I tell her pretty much anything, and knowing that it's not the same hurts. It's sent me into my own little depressive episode. I hate this. I shouldn't get so upset over this, and I'm not gonna tell her or confront her about it; it would probably upset her way too much. I know I can't be forceful and pushy because that's not how you win someone's trust, I just wish it wasn't like this.

No. 255907

I can't tell if I'm being manipulated by the person I'm in love with.
We can't be together anyways. I don't really care about my own well being either, so it's not like it matters, but I can't tell if he's genuinely unaware of his own behaviors and I'm coddling him (because that's who I am as a person) or if he sees my softness and is preying on it.
I'm really hurt because I found out he's been messing around with another girl. But he's not mine so I shouldn't be jealous.

No. 255917

Sometimes I really wish I was into one of those culty fandoms like 1D or a generic kpop group as a teenager. I'm 18 now and I feel like I kinda missed that part of growing up, to chat with friends about boys from bands and stuff. It's directly linked with having few friends at all, I guess. I have tried various times to get into kpop but I truly, truly can't: I don't like the music and the fans scare me actually, ironically. So I'm left with a sense of emptiness due to this stupid feeling of having missed out. I can obsess over semi underground musicians and older actors all I want, but their fandoms will never be as lively as I see others being. And that really bothers me for some reason.

No. 255920

well what are you into then?

No. 255923

THinkimg about braking up with my
Bf he is lovely and sweet but I get very anxious every time I have to go see him and I end up feeling relieved every time I get back home (we only see each other on the weekends due to work) I feel like this is negatively affecting my mental health as my sleep has been affected and started abusing anti anxiety medication to be able to see him.

No. 255924

Oh, bands from the 90s, alt rock, generally old music. Nothing too obscure really, but it makes me miss being heavily into anime for example, because there were new series to look forward each season, while now I have nothing to look forward to. With kpop really blowing out of dimensions I can't help but notice girls my age really living the time of their lives obsessing over them plastic dolls while I'm kinda detached from nowadays trends. And at the same time it's like I'm just one of endless quirky ~indie girls~ without actually being cute and interesting. The point is, I wanted to be part of a big fangroup full of girls, even though knowing myself I wouldn't always have liked it. Now I'm too old and bitter to almost get brainwashed.

No. 255929

I feel you. As a teen my friends liked things with notoriously obsessive fanbases (Dr. Who, 1D, Homestuck, My Little Pony, etc.) and for the most part I could just never get into any of that and I felt left out despite not actually liking the subject of obsession. The bands I liked (classic/alt/stoner/indie rock mostly) tended to have smaller, less rabid fanbases and none of my irl friends ever wanted to talk about them as much as me.

Honestly I don't think you're missing out on much. I'm a fan of something right now with a culty fanbase (and I'm 20, for reference) and yeah it's kind of fun sperging with people online but it gets old fast if you don't have irl friends with the same interest to share the experience with.

From what it sounds like (based on your use of the words bitter, brainwashed, etc.) even if you did genuinely start enjoying something with a big fanbase and made a bunch of friends you'd probably still be uncomfortable/self-conscious about liking it and never be able to enjoy yourself fully. Just like whatever you like no matter how popular it is, fandom culture is fucking stupid anyway. I got sick of it real quick.

>I'm too old and bitter

No. 255930

>even if you did genuinely start enjoying something with a big fanbase and made a bunch of friends you'd probably still be uncomfortable/self-conscious about liking it and never be able to enjoy yourself fully.
Oof, exactly. To be honest, I'm just now getting kind of hyperfixated on a very huge cinematic universe, but I have no plan to get involved with its fandom because it is, of course, full of kids who tweet weird stuff to actors. But anyway, the point is that I have friends who like it, too, and it's way better to talk about it with people you already know. I think I may actually be done with fandoms and not let interests define my personality, wow

No. 255938

I wish I had friends who would bother to put as much care and effort into the friendship as I do
I'm sick of having them dump their emotional baggage out on me but in return whenever I try to talk about a problem I'm interrupted with "oh bUT I HAVE IT WORSE BECAUSE"
actually that's why I cut my two """"best friends"""" out of my life two days ago and now i feel so fucking empty. they lived the closest to me and now i have no one.. it kind of feels good but on the other hand now it's just too evident that i don't have any other irl friends. whenever we hung out at cons they would guilt me and make it impossible for me to form any other frienships.
I'm so fucking lonely

No. 255951

I had the most retarded conversation with a dude, and I'm still upset about it. He was absolutely convinced that women only wear makeup to attract a mate, saying that red lipstick mimick aroused pussy lips, blush makes you look like you're horny or just had an orgasm and mascara makes your eyes look bigger like child indicating fertility. (???)
I'm tired of males thinking every single thing women do revolve around them. Why is it so hard to accept that some women enjoy fucking around with their faces and playing with colors? I like to wear orange eyeshadow and bright teal liner in my waterline, I don't think it makes any man want to fuck me…

No. 255953

>mascara makes your eyes look bigger like child indicating fertility

Lmao how can men be so retarded and tone deaf holy shit.

No. 255957

>saying that red lipstick mimick aroused pussy lips, blush makes you look like you're horny or just had an orgasm and mascara makes your eyes look bigger like child indicating fertility.
jesus christ men are disgusting.

No. 255958


anon i think you talked to the dude who made this legendary post https://www.reddit.com/r/muacirclejerk/comments/6hnrda/dae_probably_an_incel/

the original poster was a male on MakeupAddiction, a place for women to discuss makeup. Everyone made fun of him and the mods deleted everything. But that muacirclejerk just copied and pasted what he originally said. I refuse to believe that there are multiple men who think like this

No. 255959

>Red lipstick imitates pussy lips
Uhhh. Has this guy ever seen a vagina before?lmfao
>blush imitates orgasm
I'll give him that kinda. Even then, I only wear it to look more alive, or does he think sex is the only activity to make cheeks red?
>eyes bigger and more child-like which indicates fertility
Well thats retarded, children arent fertile, I don't know why men always have to go out their to justify features they like as being fertile, next thing you know men will fight with each other over which hair colors indicate fertility

No. 255963

Holy shit anon, are you me? This seems to happen with most of my friendships as well. I’m reluctant to connect with people because of it. (Sorry that I’ve turned this around to make it about me. Just commiserating.)

No. 255973

Just silently cut out one of the most psychologically fucked up friends I ever had and am having a hard time not thinking about him. He's one of those extremely pretentious pseudointellectuals who thinks he knows everything, despite being a fucking moron, and I keep going over certain conversations we've had and wishing I had put him in his place more.

One of his favorite things to say is how women are just as violent and sexually aggressive as men, but they don't act on it due to lack of strength. I've told him before I disagree, but I regret not bringing up obvious examples like mass shootings to shut down his idiocy. He's also the champion of the oppression Olympics and the most narcissistic person I've ever been friends with. On the bright side dealing with him has made me far more selective when it comes to new friends, so there's that at least.

No. 255979

Oh, I'm a different anon. I was lurking the thread and was confused by your reply to OP's post.
but your explanation makes sense, you're prob right, thanks lol

No. 255980

i'm sorry about that anon. loneliness sucks so much, but it's better than being around toxic people. wish you the best.

No. 256036

File: 1528073324515.jpg (12.02 KB, 208x208, 1528013417516.jpg)

>friend G asks me to be bridesmaid
>ask her who else is in the party
>she mentions a psycho cunt who caused me trouble and is a shit person
>had to decline because I never want to see that crazy bitch again after the last bridal drama she caused in a different friend's wedding I was part of

I asked G why she's having her, and G said it was because she was "good at planning budget weddings."
Um, no. She's actually shit.
I didn't want to disrespect her choice to her face if she really thinks this bitch has a place in her life like that–but deep down–NO.
The bitch is a fucking lolcow in the local community and everyone walks on eggshells around her because the smallest criticism sends her into a narcissistic rage.
The last wedding I was in with her she was completely absentee the entire time. She didn't participate in planning, didn't help brainstorm any ideas, but then the controlling narc wanted to turn around last minute and be slavedriver towards us because she wanted to take all the credit for OUR work.
I planned the bridal shower venue all by myself (because G, the MoH couldn't do it), and that bitch's idea of contribution was bringing dollar store bridal scratchcards. This is after she ignored my repeated attempts to run the venue idea by her, and she had the audacity to criticize the food at it because she didn't like it even though that's what the bride liked.

Anyway, I fell out with her because one day she was giving our group chat hell when we were having fun shooting ideas around for the bachelorette party. She barged in and claimed none of us thought about the bride and our ideas weren't good. The fuck? When I called her out she said she visited the bride the most (because she was getting her hair colored by her for free and because she's unemployed and has the time to go see her). So therefore we were clueless and she just knew best, even though she did fuck all up to that point. She was annoying EVERYONE in the group and they were all PMing me to complain. So I told her to put up or shut up. She sperged at me then left the group and didn't go to the bachelorette party just to spite me. To punish me for having clapped back at her.

Not only that. NOT ONLY THAT–but she talked shit about G the entire time.
"I SHOULD BE THE MAID OF HONOR!" the crazy bitch would say. She thought G was absolutely incapable as a person.
At the time G was breaking up with her now-fiance and she wasn't able to focus on a wedding. She got kicked out of his house and she stayed in my apartment for awhile.
What did crazy bitch do for her? NOTHING!

For that alone, it confuses the fuck out of me as to why she wants her there.

UNLESS–and only unless–G is just using her (even though I don't think she's as good a planner as she claims).
And you know what? If she's willing to be fake just to use someone, that makes me question my friendship with her too.
What am I for, really? Who am I to her after what I did for her in her time of need?
Maybe it's best I'm not in the wedding, more money in my pocket and I don't have to deal with the nonsense.

I told her I'd attend the wedding and would be there for her if she needed help or wanted a second opinion. But I am not dealing with that psycho ever again. Never. I refuse.

I feel such strange emotions right now.
Frustrated because I don't know how she could invite such a shit person to be in one of her most intimate life events.
Relieved because I don't have to be in another damn bridal party.
Angry because I feel like she's a user and that maybe all that I ever was, was a tool to her.


No. 256060

lol girl were you talking to my ex? he used to say shit like this, especially the lip color thing. he was convinced girls wear pink lipstick and glosses to send signals to guys that that's what our pussies look like. especially the gloss since "it makes your lips look like a wet pussy". he was fucking gross and always thought he was right. i legit wonder if you actually talked to my ex lmaooo, we broke up very recently and he's a fuckboy so i'm certain he's looking literally everywhere for hookups.

No. 256065

>mascara makes your eyes look bigger like child indicating fertility.
So, in their eyes, looking like a child means looking fertile? Child = fertility?
If someone thinks that makes sense, they're probably a pedophile, lmao.

No. 256069

File: 1528081225763.png (456.09 KB, 543x399, firefox_2018-02-04_23-40-59.pn…)

I've been having friend issues for a long time and it's now just dawned on me how fucked my relationship with one of my "best friends" is and I hate it.

My friend, let's call her C, is a very emotionally stunted person with a very straight to the point attitude. But the thing is, every friendship for her has to be worth something monetary to her. If one of her friends falls out of use, she just doesnt talk to them anymore, or barely keeps the relationship. My stupid ass thinks that this could never happen to me, as we had bonded over multiple things and were already pretty stead fast even though we had known each other for only a year or two.

Until I started messing up plans and schedules during the first few months of 2018.
Big note: I am attending university, while she has a part time job. My university was around 2 hours away from where she lived and I had no car to make it there. The distance wasnt anything too bad, so I thought it could work.We both do convention artist alley stuff as a side job and we thought that if we ever started growing our convention business we could help each other and maybe even work together as a company.

Then came finals for me and more classwork and other university shit. I got overworked and stressed and started to forget some details in our convention planning. Stuff like paying her for the hotel fees on time or getting prints ready ahead of schedule. I was tired and not okay with the amount of work I had to finish on both ends. She took this as a sign of me slacking off and being a bitch.

Later on during a con she just stopped talking to me. We had planned our tables close to each other, so I wanted to come check her booth. But she just ignored me or talked to her other friends. I felt uneasy so I dm'd her on my phone. She said she was fed up with me and told me to never talk to her again. I was devastated.

We had done a lot of shit together and I felt like all that was just stuff she put up with to get closer with me. I was just a tool she used to help her get better at conventioning. Once I started staying from her guidelines I was no longer needed.

I hate this feeling I have. It feels like I've been used and thrown out like garbage. And I cried myself to sleep at least a few days after the con because I'm a weak bitch.

No. 256074

File: 1528082819556.png (61.86 KB, 244x216, 1504137521604.png)

>be part of a group chat owned by this guy (nickname starts with an M)
>don't spend much time with anyone there, but enjoy their company because I've known some of the members for years and they're funny (and there's one person there I really like, but am too anxious to approach outside of the group)
>one day, I find out that M secretly hates me for whatever reason and calls me a "stupid cunt" behind my back (I have never said or done anything even slightly negative to this person, and the person who told me insinuated that it's just because I'm a girl who never slid into his DMs)
>start to feel uncomfortable, unwelcome and weird whenever M is in group calls
>stay in the group for the few people I do actually feel some sort of friendship with
>mfw I'm hanging out with the somewhat friendly people and/or the person I like, then M and his girlfriend suddenly enter the call
>mfw they stay for hours and dominate any and all conversation, then go quiet whenever I say anything (I've noticed M especially ignores me if I even say "hi" to him when he joins, but greets everyone else)
>mfw they've probably shit-talked me before
>mfw I can't really do anything about it, as he owns the group and everyone else seems to like him
I kind of want to just message M once and for all, tell him I know he's openly shitted on me to others, ask him what his issue is with me, and try to hammer things out (assuming it's not what I'm thinking, ie that it was just because I'm a terrible, awful no-good femoid who wouldn't touch him). I don't really like being involved in passive aggressive Mean Girls bullshit, and I'm tired of feeling unwelcome when I just want to chill with friends, but he seems kind of unstable (by his own friend's admission) so I don't want to cause drama.
It'd actually be so nice to just cut the shit, decide none of this is worth it and start exclusively talking to the person I like, but I'm just too shy. Fuck.

No. 256082

I've been having baby fever something fierce for a while now. My fiance was on the fence but lately has been saying things like "if you want a baby, you need to go to the hospital to make sure you're healthy" after we were talking about my not wanting to go to the doctor. That got my hopes up but knowing we can't try yet made me sad instantly. We're both waiting until we're in a comfortable spot financially.

I also am worried because I'm 25 and don't want a baby in my 30s for plenty of reasons including the risk involved. I don't want to wait but know that rushing into anything would be devastating to everyone involved, including the baby.

I just want this baby fever to be over. I hate looking at videos of cute babies and shit. I just want to win the lottery.

No. 256087

Turned 24 today. My family had a get together at my parents and everyone was there. We opened presents and I read a card that my niece wrote about loving me and it just wrecked me, to the point where I almost started sobbing in front of everyone. I can't even fathom how depressing that must seem to them. They know I have emotional problems but to see it like that at my birthday party must've been hard for them.

No. 256093

>It'd actually be so nice to just cut the shit, decide none of this is worth it and start exclusively talking to the person I like, but I'm just too shy
But this is the best option, anon. Better than potentially triggering such a huge man baby. You can start by literally just sending a message like “so how was your day? :)” or something normal like that.

No. 256094

>I can't even fathom how depressing that must seem to THEM
>my birthday party must've been hard for THEM
Damn anon, but what about you? How were you feeling? Why did the loving letter made you cry?
It's good to care about others but you need to put your emotions first sometimes.

No. 256095

I'd first recommend talking to the guy you like outside of the chat. Build more of a friendship with him to start off with.

There's actually a lot of power in confronting someone respectfully. A lot of the time people only gossip because they don't realise the damage it's doing or because they're being allowed to get away with it by the people they're gossiping to. Wait for the right moment and just say something like

>Look, I know you've been talking about me behind my back. If you had a problem, you should have messaged me directly instead of doing that. To be honest, I feel really uncomfortable now.

Anyone decent will stand up for you and talk to you outside of the chat. Anyone who doesn't isn't even worth your time anyway. Men are like this, they're bitchy and petulant and it's just something you have to deal with if you befriend them. I can't guarantee this M guy will respond respectfully like a woman would because they're so immature. I can't even guarantee the others will even respond positively because they've been listening to this guy and did nothing about it (typical male behaviour tbh, they'll always put other men first. Always.) But it's worth a try since you've got nothing left to lose anyway.

I've gotten a lot of success from just messaging people and being like "You actually really hurt my feelings there" and I know it sounds really dorky but I think it shocks them because it's not the response they were expecting and a lot of the time they genuinely don't realise they were causing harm. But yeah, these were all emotionally mature women.

No. 256097

File: 1528092869422.jpg (19.38 KB, 400x400, IMG_20180520_005925.jpg)

It actually truly amazes me how good some men are at hiding major sides of their personality when you first get into a relationship. You could do all the important research beforehand and make positive observations, but still end up with Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde upon a minor lapse in judgment. I still think about the last guy I dated sometimes and through hindsight I can pinpoint some moments of foreshadowing, but sometimes it’s hard to tell what was normal banter and what deserved more attention. It’s like this bitch is a method actor and this is a role he’s playing. Some of these dusty ass males deserve a golden globe award for their stunning performances.

>inb4 some butthurt pick me calls me a femcel for having had relationships

No. 256106

>I got overworked and stressed and started to forget some details in our convention planning. Stuff like paying her for the hotel fees on time or getting prints ready ahead of schedule.
>I was just a tool she used to help her get better at conventioning. Once I started staying from her guidelines I was no longer needed.
>It feels like I've been used and thrown out like garbage.
Uhm, maybe she felt the exact way as well? That you only use her and then claim being stressed from Uni as a petty excuse?

No. 256110

Coincidentally, the guy actually DMed me. I'm talking to him now, so that's nice. You're right, confronting M will probably be a lost cause.

This is really good advice, anon, thank you! I'm not sure how well it'd go, I bet he'd just deny it to save face, and everyone else would be too scared to get involved, then he'd talk more shit the moment I leave. Maybe if I do go through with it, I'll wait until the friend who told me about his two-facedness is there, and if he doesn't back me up, I'll know to cut him off.

No. 256114

Maybe? Idk, I've seen a couple of her so called friends break off from her calling her toxic and stuff, but never thought too much about it until now. It may be my fault too, but whenever I communicated with her she would never talk back to me.

No. 256116

Some hide all their red flags at home and you don’t get to see them before it’s been months. It’s not your fault, and there is better out there.

Imo there’s thousands of undiagnosed cluster B men floating around because nobody is willing to diagnose a man, even a clearly histrionic one, with a personality disorder.

No. 256127

File: 1528102233473.png (96.34 KB, 903x780, VmhsZuT.png)

It makes me sad to see men trying to pass this sort of pseudo science as truth about women.

No. 256137

Even going by that logic, male sexuality is evil because it often encompasses rape, degradation, and control.

Also using that logic, if a Nice Guy™ used his resources (Betabux™) to support a manipulative gold digger, is he not rewarding her evil? Oh wait! He's the victim, though, while a woman can never be a victim manipulated by an abusive man's charms. Impossible.

The absolute state of redpill logic.

No. 256140

no it's alright, it's oddly reassuring to know someone else feels the same way. I'm honestly just kind of glad someone read my post.. and i feel with you

thank you. i guess that's true. it will only suck for a while, is what i tell myself

No. 256144

>Even going by that logic, male sexuality is evil because it often encompasses rape, degradation, and control.

Men don't reward such vileness with love and admiration as long as the man is good-looking enough.

>Also using that logic, if a Nice Guy™ used his resources (Betabux™) to support a manipulative gold digger, is he not rewarding her evil? Oh wait! He's the victim, though, while a woman can never be a victim manipulated by an abusive man's charms. Impossible.

Men are policed by other men, immoral men and cucks are shit on by other men for being immoral and cucky, they get thrown in jail or laughed at. The man being "abusive" doesn't matter when it comes to attraction. She is attracted to him regardless of how much of an asshole he is, because she responds to masculinity cues, and rewards him with love and admiration for it, regardless of the morality of the person. This imageboard has tons of girls talking about this phenomenon.

I'll take my ban.(the same beta that keeps ban evading to post on /ot/)

No. 256145

I am 90% sure my ex is keeping tabs on me by checking my social media. I think this because I asked for space before and when he kept messaging me, I posted on my IG something like "leave me alone" and within 20 minutes he was apologizing. I never gave him my Instagram and had even changed the name.

Plus he used to check up on people he knew before so it wouldn't surprise me. I talk about the new guy I'm interested in on my Twitter quite a bit because he makes me happy and I'm in love with the nerd. I'm worried the ex will bug/stalk him online if he's figures out who it is (I never mention him by name there.)

No. 256146

>It’s not your fault, and there is better out there.
Yeah, I know. I gtfo of there fast when he made his true colors obvious. It just still weirds me out when I think about it.

No. 256147

>Men are policed by other men, immoral men and cucks are shit on by other men for being immoral and cucky, they get thrown in jail or laughed at.
Is this why large gangs and organized crime exists, because violent behavior isn't encouraged by other men?

No. 256150

So where are all these Good Moral Men who are clearly the majority? Since immoral men don't represent men at all to you. The men in power, who got there through lack of empathy and machiavellianism? The police force, rife with internal corruption and abuse of women and others? Listen, buddy, I wish everyone in power was great too…but they aren't. We have some veneer of a good society to keep things from going completely savage, but far from the majority of people are moral.

>men are policed by other men

I've also experienced women having a giggle about women who date "bad boys." I have, myself, laughed at them. And developed women try harder to spot the holes in actual healthy masculinity vs. immoral selfish behaviour (see: the redflags talked about all the time by girls). You'll also have women in every man-hate conversation say "not all men" to keep the hate from getting too vitriolic.

My point still stands that both men and women are susceptible to the charms of attractive people. Generalizing based on bio-essentialism is always stupid anyway and benefits no one.

No. 256157

The point is that men are policed by society; by laws, the state, by courts - which were created by men. Men are often immoral, everyone recognizes that, which is why we police it. Men commit the crimes, and they're policed. I don't want criminals to be free because we don't want them to get away with being parasites on society, or hurting other people. Likewise, women's sexuality should be policed, becuase it is inherently amoral (note: not immoral, amoral), rewards parasitic behaviour like someone trying to get a criminal out of prison or banding behind a cartel leader. Women love the toxic masculinity and reward it too often (many studies about Machiavellian guys getting the most sex, bullies getting the most sex, etc pp.) so it should be policed. It doesn't mean women should be controlled at all times but parental supervision over which men young women especially date sounds good to me.

No. 256158

File: 1528113815675.png (99.99 KB, 600x476, 1514594898292.png)

>mfw I'm getting married in September.

No. 256159

I try my best to help my friends date good men. My 3 closest friends exclusively date horrible men and I seriously don't know what to do anymore. They're all good women and they know those men are terrible for them but they still date them and get burned. Then when I think they've learned they started dating a man much worse.
I'm lost. I try to help them but they ignore all the red flags and insist on dating those men.

No. 256160

See, I actually do agree with the core of what you're saying. I believe young women should be taught what kind of men are best to date (and vice versa) by their parents. And yes, especially young women, since they're the ones who often fall for the Bad Boys meme. Sadly most homes feature one or more abusive parents, which essentially helps train women (and young men) to search for that in relationships. This doesn't even have to be the same sex parent, girls with abusive mothers will also get used to abuse. Or will look to actively hate and use men for their own gain. And for abused young men the same will be true (immoral men and cucks, as you'd say). May be anecdotal, but my mother raised me by having MANY talks with me about avoiding abusive men and guess what? I never fucking fell for the bad boy shit, not even as a teen. Actually been teased for liking shy skinny sweet men kek.

So we agree on a similar policy being implemented, but believe it comes from different sources. I see this mess as a result of child abuse and you of biology.

>still not responding to my comments about male sexuality being equally amoral
Some men will fuck a hot chick even if she's done bad shit. She has complete control over having a child and raising it, especially if he pumps and dumps. I see this as equally as bad as women chasing Bad Chads.
>inb4 that's not rewarding
But she's still a shitty person who will do a bad job of raising a child (perhaps abusing it or letting it get molested), thus continuing the cycle of immorality in society.

On a side not, I also wager that most of the women lusting after evil men are either damaged (as those I mentioned earlier) or evil themselves. Not moral women.

So basically what I believe:
Good people, in general, need to stop fucking and procreating with bad people. And we need to raise children to be equally as picky with their partners.

No. 256163

I used to be that nerdy kid who locked my self on internet doing cringey shit.

I've made myself better, dropping from most online stuff and started living my life as some relatively normal person, made new friends and live independently. I am still working towards being a productive member of society and good emotional health. Not yet perfect but I can see myself getting better.

But now looking at these lolcows, It almost felt like being trainwrecks is actuall… fine. A lot of my friends on the internet turned out to still hold totally immature and delusional worldview. A lot are still obsessed with anime and fandom shit I don't really care that much anymore, but they seem to be happy for what they do. (Although most of them have obvious depression/mental issues)

They seem to get attention from other losers while I'm growing apart. Now I just felt weirdly sad that I couldn't save them, and ocassionally imagine what would've been if I'm still having that kind of fun. Although I am proud in what I've done so far though.

It's an extremely strange feeling which I don't know if any can relate

No. 256164

>many studies about Machiavellian guys getting the most sex
Did you ever consider the obvious possibility that it's because those are extremely manipulative and charming on the surface? Like, how do you expect women to always know when we're dealing with that type of man? We have to fucking read minds and be psychic?

No. 256165

I can relate, anon. Being pretty normie at this point (going to uni for fucking business soon, working full time currently, not watching anime much anymore, not going to conventions) makes me feel nostalgic for the days of being excited about introducing friends to a new series and taking part in fandom culture (shipping, fanart, fanfics, cosplay, etc.). Especially when I see people older than me even making money off of being in those communities. And yeah, I actually view lolcows (who aren't abusive) as a means of feeling that nostalgia and peeking in to how those communities are doing currently.

But perhaps it's a bit different since I still have weird hobbies like BJDs and drawing cartoons in my off time.

No. 256168


Well? Are your friends all abused little girls that can't think for themselves? Tell us your perspective

No. 256173


I definitely have 'weird' hobbies as well, I still like drawing stuff but my favourite style is departed from cartoony/fanart stuff into something more of my own. Also kinda into film cinematography and writing. But these don't define me as a person anymore.

I actually don't find it wrong to be into BJDs or stuff. It's just that I am not overly obsessed, or so hard-on on being 'quirky and different'. There's a difference between just watching a show and waging in the ship wars and writing shitty fics all days.

This is also to do with mindset of people on sites like tumblr towards the world. Especially with gender/sexualities. a lot of times it doesn't sound like something that matters in real life, and people are so damn obsessed with labels.

No. 256174

Clearly the other girls here can tell if the bad boys are bad boys. What if they just don't care, or what if their instincts just take over?

No. 256178

>bad boys
Y'all watch way too many teen soap operas.

No. 256179

I thought I was the one not talking to my ex but it looks like he hasn't been connected to hangouts in 4 days. Either he's dead or he's staying hidden in ordre not to talk to me.

Welp, this is hurtful. We haven't talked in almost two weeks and I know he won't even try to check in. Last time we talk, I initiated, he vented and didn't even ask about me.
It sucks, I wish I could just turn off the feelings.

No. 256181

>their instincts
gtfo male

No. 256185

I hate pride
I hate everything after G and maybe 10% of B in the LGBTIAVTQEEF alphabet soup
I hate straight people pretending to be lgbt for attention
I hate flamboyant homosexuals
I hate drag queens
I hate public sex and BDSM
I hate video games
I hate geminis
I fucking hate cancers
I hate summer
I'm starting to hate the word June because it reminds me of wig0nhead

kms fuck this month and fuck the """gay""" community. all those degenerate breeders who are faking it should be stoned and i'm homophobic @ all the gays who aren't me :^(

No. 256187

Hating things doesn't make you interesting

No. 256189

…I never said it did. This is a vent thread, I can be as hateful as I want.

No. 256190

you're not really venting if you just proclaim how much you hate everything.

No. 256191

I don't think you understand what venting is. Are you just triggered about my post or something? Why are you trying to start shit?

No. 256192

The second anon wasn't me, but if you don't want replies then don't vent on the internet maybe

No. 256194

No. 256195

idc about getting replies, but you guys are mad for dumb reasons

No. 256196

why are you so mad about people replying?

No. 256198

No. 256203

lol brainlet

No. 256206

File: 1528133696736.png (252.28 KB, 500x280, raw.png)

I fucked up. A few years ago I started talking to a guy online (we live in the same country but in different cities) and I fell for him. However we had never met and he didn't want to come see me and I couldn't go see him. I'd told him how I felt but he apparently didn't believe it (he says now). Anyway, because of this, one of my close friends kept telling me to drop him. I didn't want to drop him entirely because he's a good friend. I did try to get over him and it seems I succeeded. I tried dating another guy but it didn't work out. After that I gave up on men and relationships and I felt okay. I thought it'd be better if I focused on my studies and hobbies more.

At the beginning of this year he told me he was in love with me and my reaction was basically pic related. I spent a few months raging at him and basically rejecting him BUT then for some reason I decided to give this shit a chance and not reject him. We finally met and… I wasn't attracted to him. I'd seen pictures of him before so I knew he wasn't great looking but I thought maybe it would be different in real life. I should probably note that we're still friends and he treats me very well, puts up with my idiotic raging.

I can't get over the lack of attraction. My best friend says it can't be helped if there's no chemistry and I agree with her but at the same time I'm afraid I won't find a guy who puts up with me so much again. I've never had sex and I feel different from everyone I meet. I just want to do it so I wouldn't feel out of place. I could fuck him but the thought revolts me. I want to stop talking to him so I don't have to listen to his affection but I don't want to lose his friendship.

I go back and forth between complete apathy toward him and a sense of guilt which makes me want to give him a chance. Am I what incels cry about? Just dreaming of chad? I feel as if I'm missing something.

No. 256207

ugly men should kill themselves

No. 256208

lol I was very into some guy online but I ghosted him as soon as I saw his picture. Didn't even want to be friends with him anymore.

No. 256209


I do agree with >>256203, though

No. 256211

repeated exposure to his face can make him seem less repulsive or ugly.

No. 256212

Don't feel guilty for not being attracted to an ugly person. It doesn't make you a thot, and despite what incels would have you believe, there are plenty of men who do exactly the same thing in your situation. If you are able to see past a person's appearance and feel empathetic towards them, then you're not shallow and needn't feel guilty; you still can't force physical attraction where is none.

What WOULD warranty feeling guilty, would be having sex with the guy and leading him into thinking you feel certain way, when you know fill well that you really don't.

No. 256213


was this supposed to go on the unpopular opinion thread? seems more fitting. and yeah same i'm a lesbian but bisexuals can choke idgaf. i hate most of those things too. no breeders, lesbians only society WHEN

also fight me but rpdr used to be good before the fake bi chicks like jill got into it now its for fag hags only and i judge anyone who is super into it

No. 256215

Men wouldn't have a problem dropping you as a serious love interest if they didn't find you attractive, including your male friend.

Kinda sad how us women are so guilted into giving all men a chance even when it's unfair to ourselves and what we want.

No. 256217

Sadly, most of society expect women to put male needs before theirs, even if they're not cautiously aware of it.

No. 256218

People, especially the type of libtards who support "queer" degeneracy, feel more comfortable picking fights in the unpopular opinion thread and I don't want to argue about it rn.

>i'm a lesbian but bisexuals can choke idgaf

>no breeders, lesbians only society WHEN
>also fight me but rpdr used to be good before the fake bi chicks like jill got into it now its for fag hags only and i judge anyone who is super into it
me2 ♡

No. 256225

Why do men always jump through hoops to try to claim anything they like or don't like is because of fertility? Their obsession with fertility is oddly unsettling, especially due to the fact a lot of these men hate kids but next minute demand women to look like children but with huge hips, thighs and boobs because it somehow means theyre fertile, do they even actually enjoy married with kids life or use it to justify treating women badly?

As a woman with PCOS, it bothers me deeply due to the fact that I feel like because I'm not a ~fertility goddess~ I'm worthless no matter what I accomplish

No. 256227

It makes no fucking sense. Especially since the type of men who talk like that are generally the types who would run for the hills the second a woman brought up marriage or children to them because it's ~male slavery~ to settle down and have a family.

No. 256228


so I assume that you two would never talk about how short men don't make you feel "protected", right?

No. 256229

I fucking hate bitter poorfags who act like every person with money ever is responsible for their poverty. Especially when they act like no poor person is ever to blame for their lot in life. Fast food cashier who willingly pops out four kids before she's 30? Clearly there's nowhere in life where she went wrong and it's the fault of everyone who owns a Chanel bag.

No. 256230

I'm not the anons you're replying to.

We don't live in caves. Most of us live in first world countries where we don't need a physical barrier of protection between us and the world. Many of us live for years without men.
So no, on my dating questionnaires I've never thought "Gee, the height of this man correlates to my protection." That's fucking stupid.
I'm 5'3 and my bf is about 5'6. It's fine.

The only types of women who are concerned about "protection" are insecure Staceys who like their Chads to show off in bar fights, or autistics.

No. 256231

That's funny because it's usually the part time fast food workers with five kids who somehow afford the designer handbags.

No. 256234

I'm asian and I'm seriously disgusted by this new wave of asian fuccbois who try to pass as oppressed because they aren't fucking as many white girls as they want.

No. 256242

File: 1528143741181.png (954.17 KB, 1230x810, omg.png)

I think it's hilarious how some fat cringe compilers on youtube turn out to be such unattractive people themselves.
Like this girl.
>crooked teeth
>a weight problem herself
>neckbeard boyfriend
>"ironic" mukbang
If she were bitchy and pretending to be smol, she could be another Wig0nhead.

No. 256246

Yeah, it's retarded. Usually they use it to justify wanting to fuck teenagers, even though the healthiest kids come from women in their 20s and teenage mothers come with their own health issues in pregnancy.

No. 256297

I’m getting hella annoyed at seeing 3-year-old threads on /snow/ gettng necro’d with posts that look like they were made by bots. Nothing wen related to the cows or the threads in general, like first Audrey’s thread gets 5 generic posts within an hour after 2 years of being dead, now the mango thread pops up with an equally unrelated, unnecessary necro post. Literally what is the point?

No. 256299

yep, it's funny how men spent the past few years marking any girl as psycho if she wants kids,talking about how horrible kids are etc etc and out of nowhere you have an influx of men coming in demanding women to be fertility goddess housewives super moms and calling women "westernized useless roasties" if they choose not to have kids, or how they talk about how eggs are wasted or whatever, especially when it comes to women in overpopulated countries, like why the fuck do they care so much?

why would that matter? Idc for a guys height, even if I did, women caring about height is no match for how bothered men are if a woman isn't a fertility goddess ready to pop out millions of babies

No. 256307

Agreed. Her content was better with her voice and likeness completely removed.

No. 256332

hello me. i'm always told i'm "model pretty" too, and, like you, a lot of my compliments come from women rather than men. i'm not andro personally, but i do have very odd features that look out of place on a caucasian face - extremely large bug eyes, a heavy brow ridge that slopes into a non-existent nose bridge, high and flat cheekbones that exist almost exclusively in people with asian or indigenous blood, a very square german jaw, etc. kids used to tell me i looked like a tarsier. :') i'm an odd mismatch of features that look great individually, but don't blend together in a conventional way, so i totally understand the 'proportionate but weird' feelings. i used to take "model pretty" as a backhanded compliment as well - it actually made me so upset i'd sneak away to restrooms or other secluded places to cry after hearing it pretty much every time.

but now i'm fine with it. i haven't grown into my features or anything, but i've grown to accept my weird face to the point where it honestly makes me happy when people tell me i "look like a model" now, even if i know they're just trying to find a way to say i don't look like them but i'm not quite ugly. i get told i look like cara delevingne - well, normies usually say "that monkey looking girl with the eyebrows" or something similar - pretty much every other day. that made me realize that people like us - you, me, and cara - with our weird faces are actually pretty lucky. it's easy as hell to be born with a conventionally pretty face, it really is. it's easy to wear a bland face that blends into a crowd, but how many people like us exist? not many, or else we wouldn't be considered weird and unconventional by average people. we wouldn't be appreciated the way high fashion appreciates girls with odd faces if odd faces weren't rare commodities in a world that celebrates rare gems. weird is rare, and once you learn to appreciate being rare, life and loving yourself will be a hell of a lot easier.

No. 256338

This shit gets annoying, especially when it gets around to weight. “Oh but you’re so tinyyyyy you should modelllll’ bitch no.
1: 55kgs is heavy af for a model, and 2: oversized eyes and being reasonably slim don’t make anyone good at posing, or able to walk down a runway without looking like a newborn giraffe.

Like I get it, they like giving compliments but why do so many girls just straight up lie to be nice? Older women are notorious for it. It’s like okay Thanks Rhonda but can you just shut the fuck up and let me lament my pig nose?

No cheekbones or owl eyes make up for an upwards tilted schnoz.

The wasted eggs part gets to me. Like, even women with ten kids have hundreds of “wasted” eggs. It’s not like they’re saying their sperm is wasted every time they rub one out so why are women wasting their eggs by not being constantly pregnant?

No. 256339

I've never heard a woman say she wanted a tall guy to feel protected. I feel a lot of the time women want a taller/bigger guy because of their own self image issues. I don't think I would be confortable dating a guy who wore smaller pants than me.

No. 256341

>“Oh but you’re so tinyyyyy you should modelllll’
Same with height. Almost everyone in my life has suggested it at some point.

Like, yeah, I totally want to work in an unhealthy industry obsessed with superficial looks, drugs, and unattainable beauty. I want to devote all my time to learning how to look good for other people to consume me rather than working in my industry and contributing to the world via my intellect. I want to work miserable hours, in dehumanizing positions, for the chance of ending up in a magazine. I want to be paraded around like cattle alongside other women (many of whom are trafficked or brought over for the hope of citizenship in terrible conditions) judged and compared for our appearances. /s

The fashion industry has done such a good job of their “elite” image that everyone just assumes if you’re attractive, slim, and tall that it is your ultimate goal. Nah, I have other shit I want to do. And a much nicer lifestyle to live

No. 256349

File: 1528182045370.jpeg (7.06 KB, 258x195, omelette.jpeg)

It's 3am and I'm awake because I accidentally took a nap earlier. Now I'm having a craving.

A cheese, sausage, and onion omelette.
The grocery store is right across the street but idk I'd feel awful pathetic going just to make an omelette and then probably passing out around 5am. Maybe I should just stay on the couch and try to shut my eyes.

No. 256352

Not every modeling job is like that. There are several more low key ones. For example, my friend who is going to work in I-banking still found it worth her time to model, and she was only committed to work and diet for a few weeks. If it was pretty shitty I don't think she would do something like that.

No. 256359

I think I'm spiraling because into addiction again.
I can't sleep without zolpidem (Been upping the dosage to 1 to 1,5 pill a night), and I still wake up during the night at around 3-4 am. I then take 3-5 drop of Prazepam to go back to sleep.
I wake up feeling like shit with horrible pain in my legs and back. I think the pain is from the med or from tiredness since I don't have any medical issue.

Also, last thursday, my GP gave me some tramadol and now I've been taking one to two pills a day for the high and for lessening the pain after I wake up.

I have no idea what to do. I can't quit cold turkey, I'm doing an internship and have 25 days to go. I will probably run out of pills toward the end of that and have no idea if my GP will renew.

Am I fucked farmers? Should I just off myself before I crash again and fail the very last year of schooling I can do?

No. 256363

Anon as someone who's used benzos and known benzo addicts it does sound like you have significant tolerance.

You can't quit the benzos or z-drugs cold turkey so you need to withdraw slowly (tapering). Whether you want to do the taper guided by your GP (which is safer) or do it yourself is up to you.

I doubt your GP will be comfortable continuing to prescribe you all these drugs or upping the dosages, I don't know wear you live but in the UK benzos/z-drugs/opiates are only meant to be prescribed for short term use (usually 2-6 weeks). But they will help you taper the dose down.

You may be waking up with pain in the morning because as the z-drugs wear off your muscles start cramping as you enter into withdrawal.

Because Prazepam has a long half life it makes it easier to withdraw with, this is a useful benzo withdrawal guide that is very detailed https://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/index.htm and this is a link to a pdf version of the guide (I find it easier to read) http://www.btpinfo.org.uk/ws-public/uploads/97_Prof%20Ashton%20Manual.pdf

If you want any more info anon I'm happy to provide more resources. But again I want to repeat DO NOT quit cold turkey or taper too fast, my boyfriend tapered too fast years ago and ended up having a tonic-clonic seizure in a meeting in work and had to be taken to hospital to stop him from seizing.

No. 256371

I know it's not good but I've done it before. The problem is, I never stop if I just don't quit. I always end up taking one more.

Thank you for the advice though. I ended up having a meltdown this morning at my internship and one of the employee saw me. I told some bullshit about being tired and on antibiotics. Now I'm crying at home during my lunch break.

No. 256384

I'm always paranoid.

Like, I'm afraid mentally ill people are going to do awful things to me.

I'm also dissecting every little interaction I've had with people worrying I made them uncomfortable, even when it seems highly doubtful.

No. 256389

Do you want to quit anon? If so you will need more support if you have had a long term benzo/z-drug addiction. You will need help from your GP/addictions specialist etc.

And I remember being like that, when I was using benzos a lot I would freak out and cry in the bathroom at work in the morning.

You only have 25 days of your internship left, focus on completing that and then once thats out the way you can concentrate your efforts on beating your addiction.

No. 256391

I don't get it. Are you upset because men bring up fertility when they talk about what they like or are you upset that they like physical features related to fertility?

No. 256410

File: 1528201908697.jpg (20.4 KB, 570x479, 1511562306958.jpg)

Gonna quit my aupair job in three weeks at max because it's making me fucking miserable. The little girl is a spoiled unlikeable brat and the mom is a paranoid overprotective emotionally unstable woman who basically threatened to kill me because her daughter got a scratch from not listening to me and putting her feet out of the bike like a dumbass. I'm expected to clean the house AND watch out for Satan's spawn at the same time, with the girl trying to kill herself all the time, trying to eat colours when colouring, trying to jump off the window when brushing her teeth, trying to jump off the bridge or running towards the road when walking. Doesn't want to eat, dress up, clean, go to school, come back from school, go to sleep, ever. And if she misbehaves her mom blames me.
I will never work with children again. Even being a waitress is miles better than this shit

No. 256411

I don't really want to quit, you're right. I like the high even though I know it's wrecking me and I'm worse for it long term.
I've been good for almost a year, not taking anything but I was terrified at the start of my internship ans totally unable to sleep and asked my GP for the zolpidem.
My GP is totally unaware regarding addiction and giving me pills out reckelessly, I don't think he would be of any help.

No. 256415

Hi, I’m the anon you replied to. I deleted my original post because I was worried I would come across as shallow or be accused of humble bragging or something.
I felt weird reading your post because we sound similar lol. I’m also white and have a brow ridge, high flat (really broad) cheekbones, but with a tall nose. My eyes are a pretty shape but my nose height makes them look close set.
I’m sorry you’ve also had to deal with comments about how you look, but I’m happy you’ve learned to appreciate your features more.
Thank you a lot for your opinion/view on this. This topic is really hard to talk about for me and it’s not like there’s lots of other unique looking girls I can relate with. I’ve honestly never thought of it from that perspective and even though it’ll take getting used to Ill try thinking like that too.

vent : I just wish I could blend in more. I’ve started getting paranoid when I go out and it’s effecting my self esteem which is effecting my relationship. I wish if I was going to be weird looking it’d at least be the pretty type or land me a modeling gig or something instead of being a source of insecurity.

No. 256432

>"men are all evil and lack empathy. Common sexual desires for men are rape and degradation, most crimes are committed by men, men are inherently promiscuous and cannot be monogamous."
>sexually objectifies men on the regular
>constant and exclusive sexual fantasies about torturing/murdering men
>has made creepy and persistent advances on a guy who clearly wasn't into me before
>have known men who are better people than I am. closely.

Why am I like this? Is it projection?

At least I have not actually committed crimes.

No. 256436

I can understand, its very stressful starting an internship and yeah your GP was careless prescribing these medications to you for more than a few days.

If you have been taking the Prazepam and zolpidem for a significant amount of time your GP shouldn't cut you off cold turkey though because thats dangerous and if they try to do that please speak up.

Maybe you could speak to an addictions counsellor or something who isn't associated with your GP or get advice from like an addictions charity?

At your next appointment you could ask your GP about medications that would help you with your anxiety/insomnia that are less addictive? It sounds like therapy would be beneficial for you but if you aren't ready to quit some therapists won't accept you, but hopefully an addictions charity or similar would be able to point you in the right direction.

Hopefully once you finish your internship, your stress levels will drop and you will feel more comfortable with quitting.

No. 256438

Do it, anon. Au pairs have nothing to protect them but you don't have to stand for that kind of abuse. It sounds like hell. I quit early from my au pair job and spent the whatever I had in my pocket travelling the country and it was the best decision I made. Had to fake an illness and had no access to the internet so I really winged it but it was worth it. It went from being a nightmare job to the best holiday I've ever had. Highly recommend it.

No. 256450

i'm the same way anon. the true red pill is that your desires don't come from systematic oppression. degrading men does nothing to them as a class. idc about men LUL go wild

No. 256452

Kinda sounds like you have intrusive thoughts anon, do these thoughts disturb/distress you?

No. 256463

Definitely not intrusive, I get off to them. I've had intrusive thoughts in the past and can identify them.

It's just my morality that upsets me. I enjoy this state, but I don't want to be this way anymore for my sake and the sake of men I may date in the future. And every time I try to shake it, I then feel justified to think this way again by just reading some statistics or visiting /r9k/ or something.

I'm not sure if anxiety and paranoia about men caused my desire to hurt them, or if I'm just using it as an excuse to myself for these desires. Maybe I'm just sexually frustrated, or maybe fucking a guy will make it worse. Who knows.

I'm not even sure if I believe men oppress women (in the west) anymore. Sometimes I'm convinced, but mostly I see it as mutual toxic behavior.

If anything I see children as the most shit on by society. But that's a totally different discussion.

No. 256468


fuuuuucking same. except the part about being creepy to dudes who weren't into you, but i've done it to chicks tbh. what is your daily life like?

i do get thoughts like that but it's because i hardly talk to men. in my uni campus it's 90% women and gay men (its related to teaching). and i don't hang out outside my faculty tbh. so the only straight men i hang out with are the people who catcall me on the street and they fucking catcall here so fucking much dude, so fucking much and do so many creepy things, that i don't even like going outside anymore. i still do for my mental health, but god its a pain and its creepy as shit because its a third world country and girls get trafficked and shit all the time so if you start yelling me to jump into your van and chasing me around the park for a few blocks… i'm gonna freak the fuck out okay. leave me alone! and the other "male friend" i have is someone who molested me when i was 7. and because i'm a lesbian who only hangs with girls and fags, they just disgust me so fucking much and its easy because all my friends are like "yeah kill all men tbh" circlejerking.

i once made a comment like that to my sister and she freaked the fuck out and started going
>you can't hate men!! men are good!! isn't dad good?? isn't X? anon what the hell is wrong with you
oh you have no idea

No. 256472

I'm just so frustrated with my housing situation.

Three years ago my husband and I bought a small comfy home and I loved it so much. I spent a year decorating and organizing and then his parents just swoop in and ask us to house sit for them indefinitely. My husband convinced me, because we could make money renting out our house, but I fucking hate his parents house so goddamn much. It's pretty much been used as the family dumping ground for 30 years and every room is the same: full of outdated, worn out shit that no one's touched in at least 15 years. Two of the bedrooms are full-on inaccessible hoarder rooms. Even in the kitchen, I get two shelves for all of my food and everything else has to go on the counters because all of the other cabinets/pantry are for storage. It's a 10min drive to the closest grocery store, 25min to an actually good grocery store, and none of my friends will visit because I live in buttfuck nowhere.

On top of that, his parents still live here two months out of the year. I love them but they intimidate the shit out of me (also what masochist wants to live with their in-laws for that long?). It's basically just two months of constant panicking and trying to make it look like I'm not a fuck up. They tell me it's my house and I can do what I want but whenever I run things by them they just make me feel like I was wrong to even bring it up. Just last week I asked if my closest childhood friend could couch surf and they reacted like I was inviting a felon into their house. And I get the same shocked overreaction for everything, it makes me feel like just wanting to live normally is a personal offense to them. I wouldn't mind if it was just a few years of inconvenience but his parents don't even know when they'll move back permanently. I could be stuck here til I'm fucking 40 and just thinking about that makes me want to just kill myself already.

I snapped and vented a little to my husband the other day and he got super butthurt. Like, how can you not like living in a five bedroom house? Bitch, we could live at fucking Versailles and it wouldn't matter if I had to act like I didn't live there.

No. 256477

Well the fantasising about something bad isn't immoral, everyone has weird sexy thoughts at times and some people more than others.

I would say that if you do have anxiety/paranoia about men it does sound like it's related, like you're trying to exert power over them in your fantasies so that you don't need to feel anxious etc about them.

No. 256478

I haven't had regular, ongoing, nasty experiences with men as you have, luckily never been catcalled in my life. But I've known many shitty men and trusted some who then went on to joke about rape or say child abuse and shit is no big deal. And my own father was a useless criminal who abused my mother and I and preyed on teenage girls.

The thing that makes me pause is that I'm also close with good straight men (my stepfather who can't even bear to look at abuse of women/children in movies, my best friend who has almost too much compassion for me). But they do seem so few and far between that they may as well not exist, and I now feel as if I can't trust those two completely. Even if they would have given up the act if they had one by now.

Perhaps in your shoes I'd have acted on my thoughts by now (drugging+raping+disfiguring a guy), since I'd have no conscience built around men and it would satisfy me sexually as well (since I'm still attracted to men). But knowledge of the innocents walking among them (and the law) keeps me in check.

Or maybe I'm just a gross coward.

No. 256482

You should really have a serious sit down with your husband. That's some mariage breaking shit. Have you told him all of this? You're going to resent him like hell in a few years if he's not even aknowledging it's a sub-par situation for you.

No. 256486

They sound mental. I'm especially not surprised by this part
>Just last week I asked if my closest childhood friend could couch surf and they reacted like I was inviting a felon into their house.
Hoarders are weird about their house and possessions. The smallest piece of junk is like treasured gold to them, and any outsider will steal their treasure or wreck their shitty house.
Hate to say it but it's better to beg forgiveness than ask permission in a case like that. Nothing bad could have possibly happened with your childhood friend visiting anyway. That's something they didn't need to know if it's truly 'your house' too.

I know there doesn't seem to be a solution, but frankly their house isn't your responsibility. Is your name on the deed of the other house, or do you have any say in it?
As soon as you find out when those in-laws are coming back, I'd give your current occupants notice to leave so you can move back in to your own home.
If anything, those hoarders should have to deal with renting out their shitty house if they want someone occupying it. Although they'd never do it.
It's not fair that you can't enjoy your home.

Where the fuck are they that's so important that they're only at this dump for two months a year? Fuck them, they sound well-off enough that they can hire someone to be there.

No. 256491

I think after venting he tried to make some concessions but the larger problem is still out of his hands. But it's better than when we moved in. This time he asked if we should buy a new dresser instead of suggesting I just get rid of half my clothes.

They have dual citizenship and take care of grandparents overseas, which I understand, but fuck just sell your damn house if you're not gonna use it. And yeah, they're totally against hiring someone. Before we moved in, we'd have to stop by once a week to take care of things.
The other issue is my husband doesn't want to move back into our old house. He wants us to sell it so we can get something better when this housing bubble bursts. It sounds good if it's just a couple years, but that's implying we're in a bubble.

No. 256492

look at the statistics of women who have been killed by male partners and then men who have been killed by female partners

No. 256493

’m trying so hard to be social and friendly with my coworkers at my new job, but the more I try to make friends the more I feel like I’m the only considerate, responsible person left in my city.

>make plans to go to the river with 2 coworkers, Guy and Girl, who don’t love together an aren’t dating

>Girl decided we should all meet at the river at noon, but Guy’s car is in the shop so I offer to give him a ride
>agree the day before to come pick him up at noon, get his number so I can text him when I’m omw
>leave house for his house, text him when I leave my house and when I pull onto his street
>text Girl to tell her I’m omw to get Guy, she says she’s talking to him and will let him know I’m coming
>get to his house, knock on his door
>no response
>text him again, no response
>continue knocking and texting/calling for literally 30 minutes
>text Girl, tell her Guy is still asleep and I can’t raise him and I’m about to just leave
>”wtf? I’ve been texting him for the last hour” and she send me screens of him and her texting about the park the river is in
>are you fucking kidding me.jpg
>Guy suddenly opens the door, “oh sorry I just woke up, I had my headphones in sleeping”
>sure, just hurry up and get ready so we can go

I’m not pissy about missing our timeframe or having to wait, I’m pissy because I’m fuckin sick of people being so inconsiderate and outright lying to me when all I’m trying to do is have a fun day with my new coworkers.

No. 256514

Friend breaks up with bf, bf needs place to stay, friend asks me if her now ex can live with me as I was looking for a roommate anyways, I agree as he and I get along well as a favour to her, friend now doesn't talk to me and has talked behind my back that I "stole" her bf making me out to be some homewrecker despite her ex telling her exactly why he broke up with her and it had nothing to do with me. Yet, according to her stories, I "lured him in with my thin body". No bitch, you were a lazy fuck going nowhere in life, he fell out of love and had no desire to force his way through a life with you. Don't make up shit to make your ex look bad and take all the blame off yourself and put it on a person who had nothing to do with this.
She's a fat ugly cunt and always has been, if he was shallow enough to break up with her to get with someone "thin" or attractive (I don't think I'm that hot but I know I'm better looking than the 200lbs beast she is, also this is according to her) he would never have entered into the relationship to begin with. Also even if I were the hottest person in the world, why waste his time trying to get with A LESBIAN he knows he wouldn't be able to be with when he could have had any other girl and it still would have been an upgrade. Also why would A LESBIAN try to get with your bf? Also fuck this cunt for me having to explain to people that I wasn't lying about being a lesbian, she's just a delusional bitch or a crazy lier.
But, since this is anonymous, I will add this: he confessed he found her body repulsive. Her thighs were practically the size of his torso and you could see her cellulite like craters in her skin. He likes a girl to go on top but she was too fat to, not only too heavy but could support her weight. Her ass that she's so proud of is just wide and flat. She brags that she has a "black girl's ass" but honey, you've got an old lady office worker ass. Even being fat your ass is flatter than a ten year old boy's ass. Yes it's petty as fuck to call her out on her looks but this bitch has apparently been saying how he made a mistake to leave a "real sexy woman" to get with a boring woman who "fits society's ideals". Says the girl who'd be society's standard (minus the ugly face) if she lost about 70 pounds (she's Uber pale with blond hair and blue eyes) vs a freaking brown girl
Sorry for how long this is, I'm just so mad right now

No. 256528

Not that it's your fault anon, but you should have said no in 20/20. Taking in the ex of my friend would have been super awkward, even if I were lesbian and on good terms with that person. That's a recipe for bad juju.

>he confessed he found her body repulsive

Wah. He fucked her. He dated her.
What desperate cunt of a man stays with someone he's not attracted to? That's not her fault.

You know what I think is going on? I think he's low key attracted to you and is probably why your ex friend thinks you've seduced him since I'm sure he's telling her how gross she is compared to you.

Honestly I know you're mad, but it doesn't sound like you had a meaningful friendship with her based on how mean you're being over a guy.

No. 256529

What does height preference have to do with anything? We're not shitting on them for their preferences, we're shitting on them for linking everything they like to fertility even when it makes no fucking sense. Shit like eye and mouth size in now way indicates you're more or less fertile.

Like I said to anon above, it's their weird obsession with linking every preference they have to fertility even when they're in no way related.

No. 256533

I hate when men circle jerk over how much more stronger they are than us, how they could beat the shit out of 99% of women if they wanted too. It feels like they're fantasizing about it. It's so creepy.

No. 256536

They are fantasizing about it that's why they always say it whenever anyone hints a word about women's rights. That's all they can think about is beating women.

No. 256538

Kate Spade fucking killed herself and I'm really fucking upset about it

No. 256542

I hate how full of herself my best friend is. She makes a good amount of money (900$ or so per month) but she's living with her parents and she doesn't pay for anything, so her money's only to spend on her, i.e. make up, concerts, going to parties, etc. I see no problem with that, I understand that some people have it better than others, that's just how life goes.
Well, she doesn't see it that way. She's always complaining about how other people spends their money and claiming that she works sooo hard to make her money and pay her bills (nonsense, what bills? As I said, she doesn't contribute with any money in her house, which is a luck nowadays! Nor even gas or light). Also, she's the first one who jokes about doing nothing in her work, even posting it in social media. She's the most avaricious person I've known -she doesn't want to spend more than 7 bucks on a friend's birthday present, making us - the rest of friends- having to spend more, even when, for example, I make not even a third of her income, but she says she can't be selfish at all, that people is always thinking about money and she doesn't care about it that much. Well, because she doesn't actually have to spend it in important things!
It pisses me off because I know in her head she's the shit even when people have called her out because of this, when actually it makes her seem as a jerk and a joke.

No. 256543

dating someone with crippling anxiety is so draining. i've been dating my boyfriend for 8 months and i love him but sometimes it is so hard not to feel frustrated. he's the type to become bedridden, be vomiting and unable to eat for days, etc. when he's anxious and sometimes i feel like a caretaker. he gets that way over things like starting a new college course or doing a group project. once i stayed at his house for a week straight because his anxiety was so bad that he couldn't function.

i fully know its not his fault and i've never once considered breaking up with him over it. i'm just so upset recently. last night i tried talking to him about my own problems and he fell asleep during the conversation. it left me feeling really embarrassed that i had spilled out my emotions and apparently it was so boring that someone could fall asleep during it. meanwhile today i'm back to comforting him because of his anxiety.

i feel really alone because i pour a lot of energy into making sure he's okay but i feel like my own emotional pain will never be taken seriously.

No. 256544

That is extremely disrespectful to you, in my opinion, and I understand your frustration.

His anxiety isn't his fault, but just because he might suffer a lot, it doesn't make your problems any less valid. Even if you're just having a bad day and just want to complain a bit, he should pay equal attention and care to you as you to him.

If he doesn't care about your problems, that's his personality, not his anxiety.

No. 256545

I'm sure you don't want to hear this but consider if the relationship is worth it. Don't just think about the good moments and such, if a guy can't make the effort of just LISTENING to you, after all you did for him…Hm. I know it's not his fault to be this anxious but I've been with a boy who reminds me of your boyfriend for more than 5 years and I had to break up with him. I loved him, more than I've loved anyone and I know we could have been so happy and all but it was killing me. I always had to be the one being fine, strong for both of us and that was impossible.
It's not fair that you have to feel so alone being in a relationship with someone who's supossed to be suporting at least.

No. 256546

I'm not mad over the guy, I'm really mad at what she's doing. Honestly I wouldn't have taken him in if I'd known this would happen though I'm glad I saw her true colours that she'd backstab me and rage against me out of nowhere. Also the guy isn't into me, and I know he didn't tell her that he finds me attractive or anything about her body to her cause he hasn't talked to her since the breakup and in the breakup he didn't mention looks or anything. As for dating her he really liked her personality at the beginning and thought he could look past her looks but then she let herself get lazy in life and work and gave up a promising future so that's why the breakup happened.
And yeah, when I read what I said about her looks it was really harsh and out of line. After her raging against my looks to friends and acting like me being thin means anyone into me is some basic fuck who doesn't actually love me really hurt especially combined with her going on and on about what a goddess she is compared to me or anyone like me. Though what I said shouldn't have been said because girls with bigger bodies or flat assss aren't terrible, she's just the one who's terrible and by insulting her that way I basically insulted anyone else with that so I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings in my rant

No. 256555

File: 1528233654869.png (7.26 KB, 566x72, calories.png)

Today was supposed to be the first day of my diet and I was doing so well (only 500 calories between breakfast and lunch) all day. The moment I got home I was fucking starving and exhausted from college and I ate yogurt, banana and biscuits with milky tea before dinner. Doesn't sound like much but I know from experience that that's enough to ruin my weight loss.

I'm so angry at myself. Why can't I just survive off of 1k calories a day like it says I'm "supposed" to? Why does my stupid body fall asleep during class and make me crave sugary shit when I'm just trying to cut back a little? When I'm restricting, I feel like I'm going to faint and I become obsessed with getting that one thing I'm craving (even when I try to eat something healthy instead, it tastes bland and doesn't satisfy me) until I finally get it.

I fucking hate my body and I feel like I'm always going to be ugly and overweight. Just kill me.

No. 256560

Hey! One bad day is not enough to beat yourself up over. It’s one day.

Learn from this. If you can, remove the temptations from your home. Donate them, give them to a friend, throw them out if you have to. Then pack a small, low calorie snack for when you start feeling cravings in school.

Start your calorie restriction small. Consistent, slow weight loss is better than extreme restriction folllowed by binging. Give yourself manageable goals. If 1200 feels too small right now (the recommended minimum) maybe go halfway instead. Allow your body to adjust and wean itself off the sugary crap.

Besides that, are you sure 800 calories a day is healthy for you and your body type? That’s a 1000 calorie deficit daily. Only 500 calories in the morning will of course lead to you feeling deprived by the evening.

There are many many downsides to eating far too few calories

You should be eating 1200 a day. That’s still a 600 deficit, so you’ll see results… just slower. Weight loss is not a race, it’s a complete lifestyle change. You want to be healthy for as long as possible, right? You don’t want to binge anymore? You need to overhaul your way of thinking about dieting.

Sappy post incoming: You get one body. That body has to carry you around for your entire life. Your lifespan is dependent on how you treat your body. It is not an accessory, it is not an enemy. It is the one thing in this life which can bring you happiness or end you. Don’t fight it. Love it, be kind to it. Nourish it with the right foods, in the right amounts. Be grateful for your legs which carry you to beautiful places, be grateful for your arms which allow you to hug and be hugged. Be grateful for your stomach which takes what you put in and gives you energy, nourishment, and health. Your body is the most brilliant thing that exists, whether there is extra chub or not enough. Don’t punish your body. Love it. Take care of it. Feed it healthy food, move it so that it’ll stay flexible and strong. Thank your body for taking you to class, thank your body for carrying that brilliant brain all day (heads are pretty heavy, yo). So you indulged a little too much today. It’s one day. And if you treat your body right, there are so many more days to come. The important thing is that you care. You care about your body, you care what you consume. Just make sure that care is productive and healthy, not destructive and obsessive. Your body should be your best friend. Be kind to it. Be kind to yourself.

Good luck, anon. And remember, it’s just one day. Focus on tomorrow, and next month, next year, the next ten years. This is a long journey to health, one that will span your entire life. Embrace it. Give yourself long-term, healthy, and achievable goals.

No. 256577

Kate Spade killed herself apparently.

No. 256581

Holy Fuck. She had a preteen daughter. That’s so fucked up. Poor kid. Hope she gets help right now.

No. 256583

Serious question anon: Do you take any vitamins or supplements?
My calorie deficit is about 1.2k like the other anon mentioned, and sometimes I eat even lower than that if I'm not hungry. Before I started taking them I was a hungry obeast fuck like all the time.
It could be your body trying to make up for nutritional deficiencies by telling your brain it's hungry even when you're not.

Personally I skip breakfast (I know it's not feasible for everyone though). If I do have breakfast it's nuts or eggs for energy. I take my vitamins and wash it down with lots of water. I save my calorie budget for dinner and snacks because they fulfill me more. That way I don't feel as deprived in the night. I also make sure to walk minimum 2 miles a day.

So far I've lost about 10 pounds and I'm not struggling to do it everyday. Yeah the weight loss can be slow, but frankly so was my weight gain.
If you're curious about what supplements mine's
>a general multivitamin for women
>Vitamin D3 5000mg (I'm deficient from being fat and being inside a lot–but I taper because too much of this vit isn't good either)
>CoQ-10 100mg (heart and cardio)
>Biotin 5000mg (hair, nails)
>Vitamin B-1 100mg (carb metabolism)
>Magnesium 250mg (nerve, muscle, cardio)
>Vitamin B12 1000mg (energy and metabolism)
>Glucosamine Chondroitin 3000mg (lubricates joints so I don't hurt when I exercise)
Anyway I know taking vitamins isn't for everyone either but it works really well for me so far. I do feel different compared to just a month ago.

No. 256606

I feel you anon. People like her are jut crazy. A year ago one of my uni 'friends' gave away my number to her male friend she was fucking at the time. She told me they had been fuckbuddies for 2 years already and it was time for him to get a gf. So I start messaging the guy and we set up a date, it was nice, cool. All of a sudden girl goes full on psycho accusing me of doing things behind her back and trying to steal her man, making me look bad to our circle of friends. Your ex friend reminds me of her.

No. 256627

File: 1528254892303.jpg (48.15 KB, 800x533, h.jpg)

>have misophonia which makes me completely miserable
>wear noise-cancelling headphones (with music) for nearly the entire time i'm awake, probably for over 12 hours a day

I've been hearing 10-second bouts of ringing in my ears as well as throbbing in my ears. im scared im developing tinnitus. its likely ive already damaged my hearing. fuck

No. 256628

What sounds trigger you especially? Like is it so bad that you can't just wear the noise canceling headphones without music or?

No. 256629

I also have misphonia. It is worst when people are eating. The noise is horrible. It was worse when I was younger, to the point where I would have the urge to stab myself with the fork I was eating with. Taking anti-anxiety medication has helped me.

No. 256631

chewing, swallowing, coughing, throat-clearing, mouth sounds while talking (like, hearing the saliva), chewing, dish-washing (the banging sounds), hearing talking coming from other rooms, people talking with their mouth full

these sounds only bother me when specific people make them (usually people ive been exposed to for a very long period of time). the only time i can think where strangers triggered my miso was when there was this woman chewing with her mouth wide open like a pig at a restaurant

yeah, man. it has made me cry from rage. i havent had a single meal my family for like 6 years and i cant crry a conversation with my mom because i cant stand her voice or laugh. anti-anxiety meds never worked for me unfortunately

No. 256634

I feel like a child. I've been going to bar trivia for probably 3 years now with the same group of people almost every week. It’s such a normal part of my life that I never even really consciously have to think about if I’m gonna go or not that week. I just go like always.
I move 3 hours away in a few months. I wasn’t feeling particularly upset about this until I realized that means I’m giving up my bar trivia and my bar trivia friends. Next week will most likely be my last week. I can’t stop crying. I miss my trivia friends so much already. I know 3 hours isn’t that bad, but I have to adjust to not going every week.
It’s such a dumb thing to be upset about, but it’s the only thing I’m going to miss. I don’t know what I’m gonna do without it until I learn to adjust. I need routine and structure to function properly. Fuck. Fuck.

No. 256640

white guys and asian guys who date/fuck/marry black women absolutely repulse me. i don't care about black women dating their fellow blacks or even non-white hispanics or indians (the dot kind) or shit, but i actually feel a little sick whenever i see a white/asian dude wasting his time with a black.

i know i shouldn't even be bothered by it since black women - barring famous ones like beyonce, rhianna, lupita, serena, etc. - are universally considered the most unattractive females of any race and men are least likely to race-mix with them. especially asian men who legit think they're apes and barely date/fuck outside of their race for white girls, let alone niggers.

but even if it's just a white dude who hooks up with a black girl once, i can't help but find him disgusting and ruined. i'm not actually mad about it - i'm grateful he's removed himself from the dating pool and marked himself as an oil-driller so i don't waste my time, but i'm always confused and curious like… why you got a bestiality fetish, my dude? why would you fuck anything that has a 98% chance of having an std from the age 15 and on? and niggers stink, let's be honest. why would you do that to yourself? any self-respecting white woman worth her salt isn't going to be able to look past you going chimp hunting.

i don't know why it makes me so mad since it's not like i've even encountered it irl. none of my black female friends are into non-black men at all and i don't think i've ever seen an xM/BF couple outside of the media. the thought is just so nasty. i'm honestly not jealous, just grossed out.

like when prince harry married markle, i was just baffled. it made more sense when even normies were like, "he's clearly gay and she's his beard - they picked a vaguely black actress since she could play the role and would look good on the royal family's 'i've got a black friend' resume". but i was legit still baffled why anyone in their right mind would choose markle for anything - she's legit a 40 year old, ex-prostitute, divorced, C-list american nigger. she's obsessed with white dudes, so there was a whole string of them (presumably not gay ones) before harry, so it's insane to me that white guys actually enjoy black whores. white men, i don't know if you got the memo, but we left that behind in the plantation days.

i think what it really comes down to is that i'm sick of it being shoved in my face via movies/tv. spiderman? ofc peter parker has a mongrel nigger love interest. scandal? nigger lead with white men fawning over her, one of whom is the fucking president. remember when merlin turned guinevere into a full-on slave nigger and made her queen? lmao. that awful 'everything, everything' movie that bombed because no one relates to a nigger female lead and relatability is the only reason women care about romance movies at all? the black chick in vampire diaries having to kill all her black love interests and go through a string of white dudes. like, this doesn't happen irl… stop shoving it down my damn throat because it's actually causing racist thoughts i'd never had before.(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE)

No. 256644

Nice bait. :)

No. 256647

Imagine being this triggered over something so retarded

No. 256648

4/10 bait tbh, strong start but way too long. my eyes started glazing over by the second paragraph

No. 256649

bait? securing the existence of our white children is bait?

No. 256651