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No. 747017

Previous thread >>>/ot/738184

We all have stress in our lives, let's talk about it.

>As an added note, don't infight ITT. It's one thing to comment on an anon's post, but it's another to try and start infighting with an anon by replying with a snarky response (ex. "what did you expect to happen anon?") "that doesn't happen"


>just let anon vent, if you want to be a nitpicky bitch head over to /pt/ or /snow/. no1currs about your shitty input.

No. 747031

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i fucking love playing toontown and wizard101 and minecraft and club penguin and etc etc etc but i'm literally a god damn adult. i just wanna find someone in the dating world but i'm too scared to open up and eventually have them see me look retarded while playing a fucking kids mmo and ask them to play with me.. that would be so cute

this is such a stupid problem but i'm too mentally ill to be confident in my stupid fixations.

No. 747035

I just really need to get this off my chest and anonymously it's easier but like… I'm still kind of holding myself accountable.
And I feel so fucking stupid for writing this in the first place but fuck it.

For the past year and a half I've noticed that, whenever I'm drinking my anxiety is killing me soon after.
I'm not a regular but definitely a social drinker (and besides uni and without covid I'm a bartender).
I've started taking anti depressives a couple months ago and my live improved like A LOT. (Yay for progress ngl I really am starting to get along with and like myself again)
However the panic attacks and anxiety still come whenever I'm drinking. Easy solution - Just don't fucking drink. Yeah still here I am testing my fucking limits. I've had 4 beers on Sunday and had to call in sick for my internship on Monday because my anxiety was off the fucking charts. But who's a stupid fucking bitch? ME! Friend asked for a nice day of drinks and Animal Crossing, I say ok. Get anxious the entire fucking day before even starting to drink. DID I STILL DO IT?! YES!!! WOW AMAZING ME! SO SMART!
But for real… I've had 3 light drinks. already called in sick again because I'm a fucking piece of shit who can't do shit hurrraaaah. My friends are asleep rn. I'm trying tonstay calm and writing this definitely helps… but I think this is the last straw… I know I've said it before that's why I'm so fucking pissed at me but I just don't want to drink anymore… I hope I can tell my friend about it tomorrow. I just don't want this anymore. I feel like shit. 3 fucking drinks?! AFTER I'VE TOLD MYSELF I SHOULDN'T. I guess I deserve to feel this way because I'm so damn stupid. Saying no is not too hard. People out here are actually addicted and here I am crying on anonymous message board because "Ohhh funny bubbly drink makes anxiety go brrrr"

Fuck this. And honestly a big "fuck you" to myself.

But I really hope that this is it.
I don't want to feel like this again. It's not worth it…
It doesn't even taste that good.
Why am I giving into this weird ass peer pressure no one but myself is putting me under?
Ok I've rambled enough but this did kind of help.

I will put in my headphones.
Maybe smoke a cigarette or best case I can roll a Joint with stuff left in my grinder.
I don't want to disturb anyone around me with my stupid whining.
Thank you for letting me vent
I won't reread this so sorry for sucking at basic English. I'm just done and disappointed in myself

No. 747037

>>747031
I'm sure you'll find someone who will share your interest in these games. I have no experience in any except Minecraft and if the others are anything like, they're this type of experience people don't even know how much they'll like until they try. So as long as another person stays open minded, you have nothing to worry about. And if they're not open minded, why waste time on them?
Keep enjoying things you enjoy and don't be embarrassed anon!

No. 747040

>>>/ot/747022
took so long writing my screed about texting anxiety that the thread locked…its tldr but suffice it to say that I wish to god emails and phonecalls were still all people used. It's not ok for people to knock on your door without warning and expect you to start chatting unless you're very close friends and even then it depends - and it shouldn't be considered normal to text someone and expect them to be ready to chat with you even if you know they read it. I see so much shit about "left on read" and I cant believe people tolerate something that anxiety inducing in their lives. I dont use anything with read markers out of necessity because it would drive me absolutely batshit.

No. 747049

Definetly sperged about this in the previous vent thread, but seeing how much some men hate women scares me. And seeing how normalized misogyny is makes me anxious

No. 747074

>>747031
You have god tier taste anon, I love toontown especially

No. 747080

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Twitter really is a hellsite. I just found a bunch of tweets from "kink" accounts where teenagers are openly admitting they're minors and even telling legal adults to not interact with them. Think I'll just stay on my timeline next time.

No. 747083

>>747040
I went and read your post, and you're not alone, anon. I ranted about it as well in the 'what's wrong with you' thread a few days ago. Texting is by far the single worst method of communication, and I hate people that push for it so hard over basic phone conversations. Instant messaging was at least tied to a PC so people didn't expect you to be available 24/7. I've probably destroyed my reputation as a nice person because I'm so shit at texting. God I wish I could live for just one year in the 90's, even if it meant dying afterwards, kek. I hate this century so much.

No. 747084

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>>747031
My partner and I started playing neopets again last fall (hadnt since I was like 8) and I just like making demented little meercas. Its really funny actually because longtime players have so many items (well into the hundreds of thousands if not millions) and neopoints (billions…maybe 11% interest compounded daily was a bad idea?) that you can just collect the daily free stuff to earn money, then just chill and watch the thriftshop/dump for cool stuff. It took me about 3 months to save up the 2 million neopoints for the lab ray (daily chance of randomly changing per species and/or color) and even without it people leave cool pets in the pound pretty often just cause they're goofing around spending their billions. The main caveat is that since flash died in Dec most games dont work but they were hardly ever the point. The site is a little broken overall atm cause of the flash thing but its slowly getting better, although the redesigned pages are ugly new webdesign and the old webhtml pages are much nicer. You have to use the jellyneo dailies doer to play basically but it's quite fun and silly…just dont expect anything to make sense really…or to work…theres been so many things piled on over the years it's an incredibly hot mess so you see new weird shit every day. And theres also a ton of history and cool stuff like some pets that have grandfathered-in old designs from literal 1999 that have been unobtainable since 2001 - but if you're incredibly lucky they still come up on the pound very rarely (the way the pound works is basically a giant bingo ball that spits out random pets that could be incredibly old, and possibly worth thousands of irl dollars like a UC Darigan Draik - although the name is also important since no one wants their cool pet to be named Kyles_Kool_Dragan3738 and you cant change the names lol). I've basically replaced reading dumb shit over my breakfast with neopets stuff and it's a much more pleasant morning…

In looking through the userpages of people who are actively playing, just from seeing their names cause they left stuff at the thrift shop or by putting a niceish pet up for adoption and searching its name later to see who adopted it, a fair portion of the players are actually men surprisingly. Although a lot of them have lame overdressed pets like Cool Killer Evil Draik (tm) they seem way more chill than idk shootergame or moba or mmo playing men, and to be clear I'm a former and probably future moba/mmo player. It's just not pleasant to be around people when they're playing competitive rage inducing games tbh and that's definitely true of myself too when I'm playing mobas especially.

No. 747089

I am having a especially bad day mood wise (because nothing bad really happened) and even when I try to cheer myself up watching something cute/funny, immediately after laughing I feel like crying because my brain feels like it doesn't deserve that happy moment. What the fuck.

No. 747090

vent thats been living in my head for years but i wish i went to college in california. i visited san jose before and it felt like coming home. i get so depressed during the winter and living on a coast that i could visit most of the year sounds like a dream. also legal weed kek. i just hate where i currently am and feel bad for wasting most of my young adulthood here.

No. 747095

>>746928
Little scrotes are ruined beyond repair

No. 747097

>>747080
I will never forgive our society for making teenage girls think that being beaten and pissed on is hot. Those accounts are disturbing, many of them are into ~cnc~ also known as re-acting literal rape. I even stumbled across some incest ones but its their kink!!!1! so of course it's okay and not fucked up

No. 747106

>>747083
I used to be so tempted to set some boomer ass automatic text response like "Hey there, I'm takin' a nap right now!! zZzZz talk to you soon!! THIS MESSAGE SENT AUTOMATICALLY BY PHONESITTER" and just always leave it on so people would fucking stop.

I dont have to deal with it very much anymore thank god…as a spaz I'm very fortunate to be working through a personal LLC since people dont try to text faceless companies and if they do idgaf. And the best idea I've ever had was pretending to be a nonexistent employee of my own LLC for any human interactions I do need to have. I'm aware it sounds unhinged but it's amazingly freeing, I literally dont even give a fuck because I'm not even me I'm Janet Frushkowski in customer service or whoever the fuck I feel like saying I am. Cannot more highly recommend becoming a corporation if at all possible.

No. 747107

>>747080
A couple of years ago I remember my old friends had "kink" accounts (I don't know if NSFW accounts were as popular as they are nowadays) while we were minors. They said it was okay because we were almost legal age but it creeped me the fuck out. Mind you one of them was so naive and I had to literally yell at her to because she wanted to keep talking to this guy trying to groom her. Most of the community nowadays looks to be mostly minors still and it makes me so fucking sick, I bet you that so many scrotes dm these accounts daily.

No. 747108

>>747080
>>747097
i report every single one of those accounts i see, along with anyone who interacts with them and i suggest you guys do the same. they'll be pissed about it now but grateful in the future when it prevents them from being assaulted or killed by some groomer

No. 747110

>>747084
I have a confession… Years ago when I was a dumb ESL kid and there werent real filters for bad words on neopets, I got convinced by my friends brother that kike and coalburner are cool slang words for the cool kids. I had no idea theyre slurs. So I had a bunch of neopets named stuff like xoxoK1keLovexoxo, K00l_Coal_Burner and AngelKikeStar. I wish I were joking. I got banned eventually and I could not figure out why. I hate moids.

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>>747110
the single funniest fucking thing i have read in three years anon pls omg

No. 747122

>>747037
>>747074
thank you anons, i hope in the future i can find a cutie who'll play my stupid kid games with me and have fun! since we're on the topic of grooming and this is a vent thread, i vow to never play some of these games with a man ever again due to the two times i tried to exchange contacts with them. i was underage both times and these grown men tried so hard to get me to send nudes or dox me just because i was a naive kid trying to play A KIDS GAME and just wanted a friend. once i turned of age one of them kept trying to contact me to the point where he still tries to make accounts to dm me on different platforms to this day. thank god he recently stopped but i'm scared it might happen again. male gamers are terrifying scum. funny enough every single woman i met while playing these games would tell me that they couldn't contact me due to our age difference and unfriended me RESPECTFULLY SO. anyway where my qt gamer gf at

>>747084
anon that's cool as fuck, i remember playing neopets when i was younger but i never knew there was so much history to it until recently. i love watching videos on random neopets facts, stories, or glitches. maybe i should get back into it..

No. 747124

>>747107
not to sound like a boomer but it's terrifying how kids on the internet these days seem to not care about their safety at all

No. 747128

>>747108
>>747097
Op here, I did report some of them but they grossed me out so much I honestly didn't want to go on anymore of those pages lol. I just wish twitter would allow you to describe what you're reporting. I don't even judge them for having "kinks" (except for the rape and incest stuff, obviously) because that's literally what I was searching for, but for god's sake keep it off the internet. Nobody needs to know that, you're a child and really you shouldn't be consuming that content anyway. So many of those kids are probably getting groomed or talking to grown ass adults pretending to be underage and it makes me sick.

No. 747137

i would rather gnaw my arm off like a coyote caught in a bear trap than be open and vulnerable with people. why do i have to tell my friends all of my problems and all the bad shit that's happened to me to strengthen our relationship or whatever. why is it such a big deal that i don't want to tell them my fucking business.

No. 747140

>>747110
god anon you just brought back a weird memory of mine lol, i was 7 and became obsessed with alyson stoner after watching camp rock for the first time and tried to set up neopets accounts named shit among the lines of "alysonstonerfan" and poor little me was so confused when the accounts were automatically frozen right after i finished making them
i didn't understand it until i found out what a stoner was like 5 or 6 years after that

No. 747156

>>747124
Kids never care about safety. They don't always understand why they shouldn't be doing those things. That is the parent's job. It's not the kid's fault that mommy hands them an iPad and leaves them alone with it all day.

No. 747163

I think I may have gotten another UTI days after I thought I recovered from one. And If I do, I think I got it the same way as last time too. What is wrong with me. I might actually have to go to a doctor just to get some pussy pills, and I really don't want to. Why can't uti medication be like monistat where I can just buy it at the store

No. 747171

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Twitter was always toxic but now the men who work in professional fandom industries are discovering they can bait the toxic tumblr queers and otaku with their posts

I hate having to share a website with these people to get media news

No. 747188

i feel more than worthless right now…………… i talked to this guy online for FOUR months and he didnt want to meet me despite seeming obsessed with me. it's like there was this inner struggle. turns out he was a 4channer misogynist pos. i only found out after he dumped me….. yes he, i always believed his excuses as to why he didnt want to meet me, i still cant wrap my head around and it astounds me how someone can be so so good at deceiving, i mean he was really good, he knew exactly what to say, he shapeshifted perfectly into the kind of man i want without me ever saying it ,,, its extremely scary and i hope everyone stays safe out there……..the most backwards part out of all of this, is that he put virginity etc in a pedestal, which i was and he knew, yet, even HE, a bottom of the barrel scrote that thinks virginity is this magnifictent thing didnt want to do anything with me……………… i know i should be glad of dodging a bullet,,,,,,,,,,,,,,but it makes me feel like theres something very wrong with me,,,,,i mean, apart from the obvious naivete. I wish every farmer on this site would kick the shit out of me so very badly.

I mean, at least he now realizes virginity doesn't make a woman special ……………………. but i just feel horrible having been the one that made him realize it because i really really really liked him, and he made it seem like he did too…. maybe he was a volcel………….

No. 747203

>>747188
ngl you sound like a bpd chan.

No. 747204

>>747188
samefag but ok my reasoning, all of his actions according to you were horrendous and disgusting but he was noble and men should aspire to that.

and in response to a 4 month correspondence, you feel worthless, you feel astounded you were dumped (lul) and you want to be verbally abused by anons because of it like damn girl get it together

No. 747205

Fundamentally I think there should be separate internets for under-18 and over-18 and the twain should never meet. I cant believe parents just let their kids freely be online really if I think about - if you asked people if they'd let their kids wander around a city or even in a mall alone talking to random people, they would say no way. But they'll just let their kids on twitter and shit? And even the potential of meeting predators notwithstanding, I got fucked up enough by seeing so much porn & hentai and I wasnt even that young, I was like 14 or older and I still wish I hadnt ever seen that shit but its unavoidable on the public internet.

And I dont want any kids on my internet either. I had a brain blast the other day that we're living in the true endless summer right now - the kids have been out of school in a lot of places since last march. I thought the internet had gone to shit because people were cooped up and cranky, but no. It's tens of millions of idle little hands. Please to god joe biden, get the zoomers back in school. I cant take it much longer.

I mean to put it simply, it's fundamentally never going to be possible to prevent your kids from seeing bad shit on the open internet, and therefore under-18s should only be able to access a curated censored-for-kids internet, like yputube kids. Internet jr.

Like why are they allowed on twitter at all?? Its like if we let children just roam the fucking streets, and there aren't even cops to keep them out of the red light district. Kids will go wherever they can and especially places they're "not supposed to go" if the door is wide open. It's just absolutely insane to me if I think about it. People give their kids a device where if they write in certain words even by accident they see porn, hentai, furry sex, all kinds of shit, sometimes even if they're just searching for pokemon or whatever the fuck coomers are ruining. It cant possibly stay this way for long before people realize how insane it is. It just cant.

No. 747208

is it wrong for me to be angry at my male best friend?

i was doing class assignments and was so fucking frustrated and he just kept talking in this stupid fucking baby voice like 'ohh i am sure you will do it soon <3 its okay uwu dont worry i am sure u will be done soon fighting sweetheart ~' kind of shit in this fucking annoying high pitched voice and i got so fucking annoyed of his constant baby voice fucking talk that i couldnt take it anymore and just quit the discord call
i told him that its my fault for being such a crybaby and being frustrated and joined in few minutes later and he was doing the same shit again and i fucking lost it and told him to fucking stop with that baby talk and babying behaivor shit and told him beforehand on multiple occacions that he should stop that
i hoped he would now shut the fuck up but he continued to tell me that 'omg uwu i am so sorry that i am distracting' and i was already feeling bad because i am in a bad mood and he keeps irritating me
told him that its okay and its my fault and he continued to text me like 5 words being like ,omg uwu its not ur fault okay'
while in that previous call he told me that he still wants to continue talking to me because he likes it and its okay if i am frustrated
but couldnt even bother to text me anymore after that and just said 'yeah i am a burden have fun tho with your assignment'
and i just lost it and texted him a huge fucking 'XD' out of fucking mockery purposes
he then continued to text me shit like ,omg why this XD' and ,what have i done anon??'
i just told him then that he should guess and his fucking response made me so fucking mad
literally just texted me let me quote him
'ahhh i am so sorry for always being a retard'
???????? like what the fuck why dont u apologize for the shit and try to atleast make it seem like u care for me and stop with the shit but no instead of doing that u have to play the fucking victim role making me feel like shit and apologizing for you after u have fuckign annoyed and irrited me the whole fucking time after i had told you to stop it numerous times

No. 747221

>>747205
i agree with you. i've been online since i was 4 or 5 and there's so much shit i wish i could unsee

No. 747223

>>747208
If someone talked to me like that I wouldve blocked and deleted after like 2 lines. Or in a longer relationship i would have not talked to them for at least a week so they learn a fuckin lesson about being an unfunny fucking memebitch even after people ask you to stop. Literally zero tolerance for people who "do memes" irl or on voice, I will stonefaced stare at them or as I call it antilaugh and if they do it again I walk away/hang up. Kudos on hanging up the first time but stick to your guns, just tell him "you're not retarded tyler you're just kinda unfunny" and block for a week. At least. if he tries to get anyone to 3rd party for him just tell them youll unblock him in a couple days lol. Childish shit gets you a timeout.

No. 747227

>>747205
I think millenials were the last generation that had a semi normal childhood. These zoomers be freaks.

No. 747241

>>747220
Lol my partner has told me about this happening to her almost word for word. I mean what are you supposed to do just let them turn in a fucking bad essay? hopefully they're just stressed, but you can test them by after a couple weeks or so asking them to do the same for a paper you wrote (if you do papers or otherwise make one up and write it lol). I think it would show her that you respect her and dont think you're smarter or w/e, two heads are just better than one and two equal people can spot each others different kinds of mistakes. But if they go pissy and make a bunch of retarded salty edits on yours, then you know they are just thinskinned as heck and will never take suggestions well.

No. 747242

I'm currently having a huge near breakdown because I have an interview tomorrow with an arcade I love, it's not the best place, but it means I'll be getting away from a job that I NEED to get away from – I currently work at Starbucks, and I have an ED that's getting worse and worse and being around so much food and sugary drinks that I have basically free access to all day has been really hard for me, and even brought back my binging and purging when I was several months clean from it. Like, I need out. The only downside mainly is that if I work there, my boyfriend (who I live with), and roommate get a huge disadvantage because housemates, and family members cannot play the arcade games that give ticket rewards; and they really like those. Other than that, aside from me most likely having to wear a wig every time I go in due to them not allowing colored hair, it seems like a really nice fit for me. My boyfriend is going to sit down and discuss it with me later on tonight but I'm so full of anxiety over it. I feel so fucking guilty, man. I don't want to tear away something they like. There's also just me feeling super guilty over leaving my current job because I've gotten on decent terms with coworkers, and we've lost a few people. The guilt is basically taking me over and it's taking a lot from me not to just start crying over it.

No. 747248

>>747227
I'm a young millennial (27) and I know it fucked me up a lot in serious ways, and I dont think when I was young things were nearly so bad as they are now with "SFW" coomer shit basically all over every google search. I'm just shocked every time. The other day I was trying to remember the name of the girl pokemon trainer in fire red/leaf green (turns out its fucking leaf lol) and there was so much nasty coomer shit there. Truly horrifying.

I think it will eventually get better, they had to make YouTube Kids cause it was so bad on there and people were banning YouTube from their house etc, and I think the same will happen to more sites. And obviously teens won't want to stay on Twitter Kids but if you make "cool teens only" type sites it could work. Then it'll be on parents to make sure their kids aren't on the adult internet, just like it's on parents to supervise their kids physically. Of course then you have to keep predators out of Internet Jr, but if you need like a school id or something to be on it, it would be doable or at least infinitely easier than it is now.

No. 747255

>>747205
They also need to make their separate internet less addictive. I wasted so much time online as a kid and teenager and I truly didn't understand the repercussions until I was college-aged. It shouldn't be normal for kids and teens to have internet and gaming as their only hobby/passtime.

No. 747257

>>747221
Back in the day it was blue waffle… but nowadays it's way worse I feel.
Jesus christ I saw a comic where women were factory farmed like animals. And it's not like you can avoid it bc there's always depraved trolls. Only highly vetted forums feel safe anymore. Honestly think I got ptsd from all that shock content growing up.

No. 747263

>>747242
Adding on, it's frustrating too because I might be stuck on food service there too, although I think it'd be different for me, however a friend pointed out I'd be dealing with drunk people most likely as there is a bar connected to the arcade, and I'm a recovering alcoholic as well, and also a woman who will be dealing with drunk men so that'll be a treat.

My current job pays nicely too, it's just fucking hard, it's destroying me so much. This (current job) is my first real one too. I have no idea what the fuck I should do.

No. 747269

>>747208
Lmao what the fuck is wrong with your monkey? I’d think he’s a degenerate who’s trying to imitate those agere girls.

No. 747307

i haven't done shit for my classes all day so i sit down to do some stuff and nausea hits me. i know its the fucking monthly disaster come to fuc kme in the ass

No. 747313

>>747263
Holy shit anon, this job opportunity is a chance to make significant progress on your ED recovery. Who gives a fuck about your boyfriend's game tickets???? You matter the most. Go to that interview and own it

No. 747316

I really wish this giant manbaby would go sleep in his own fucking room instead of roosting on the living room couch every fucking night so that no one else in the apartment can dare but tiptoe if they want to utilize the kitchen, never mind asking to have the living room for an evening.

I hate his selfish ass.
To think this fucker put up a stink about me taking the master bedroom when we first moved in when he didn't need the closet space or private bathroom. I would have strangled him had I opted for the small room with no bathroom if this fucker was going to pull this bullshit anyway. Evidently he never needed the bigger room because he never intended to actually sleep in his own space. There's nothing wrong with the room, or his bed, he just doesn't want to sleep in there because he treats the apartment like his personal dominion. I resent this grown ass man so fucking much.

No. 747319

I thought getting a job would make me feel better than being unemployed, but it feels about the same since my job gives me no purpose in life. I already finished my degree so I'm not sure what to work towards in life anymore.

No. 747327

>>747316
Lmao anon, this was me like 3 years ago when I had roommates. I worked late and would come home at odd hours, and one of my roommates just loooved sleeping on the couch for some reason (instead of her perfectly nice bed).

Lay down the law, anon. Everyone has to be considerate of shared spaces when they live with people, and that includes not hogging the living room. If he wants to sleep out there, don’t tiptoe around. Make normal noise and he can suck it if that’s a problem.

No. 747331

>>747327
Thanks for commiserating. It's awful because he legitimately is too old to be behaving like this.

He'd been staying home extra lately because his job won't let him come back yet due to a coworker needing to test for covid, and then pending his own test results. Which just goes to show he doesn't give a fuck about covid either for his lingering in communal spaces and not isolating, but I digress.
It snowed pretty bad here last week so I had a couple days where I had to work from home. When I do this I'm on my laptop in my kitchen because I don't have office space. In addition to hogging the living room, he also blasts the television at full volume at all hours. Midday I had a meeting but didn't want The Sopranos blasting in the background. He was napping of course with the remote in his hand. I woke him up and asked him if he could turn the tv volume down because I had a meeting. He immediately got up and grumbled, grouched, and cussed while adjusting the volume and then stomping off to the bathroom to take a grumpy shit. He's a piece of shit.

No. 747333

>>747316
>can't dare but tiptoe
anon grow a spine, you're enabling this manbaby bullshit. try unloading the dishwasher or cooking with loud music on while he's asleep on the couch and see how long that lasts

No. 747336

>>747333
He throws tantrums anon, he's an entitled ass man and this is what he will die being. Confronting him at every turn only serves to upset me because of how he lashes out, I just pick my battles and hope he drops dead in the meantime until my lease expires in a few months from now.

No. 747341

>>747336
sorry you're stuck in a lease, I've been there, but allowing a grown man's tantrums to dictate your behavior in your own damn home is still not the move. He only acts this way because he knows you'd rather avoid conflict than call him on his shit

No. 747348

>>747336
Do you have other roommates anon?

I know it seems easier to avoid confrontation sometimes, but you’re clearly in the right. My old roommate completely stopped the annoying couch sleeping when I made it clear that I wasn’t going to be extra quiet for her. You don’t have to be mean, just make sure he understands how it is when you live in a shared space.

No. 747352

>>747341
Anon it has been consistently tried before, he's not gonna change. The fuck is older than me and believes he somehow contributes more around here when he doesn't, and uses this belief to talk down to me and domineer with his aggression no matter how politely or forwardly the law is laid out. There's just nothing to gain by making the remaining months here more miserable by trying to prove a point to an old bastard who doesn't respect me or gives a shit.

No. 747356

>>747352
whether he changes or not, the problem is that you are changing your OWN behavior to accommodate him. would you even care that he was sleeping on the couch if you could otherwise go about your business as usual? probably not. and you could do that, you're just too conflict-averse. again, grow a spine, sorry. are your other roommates not also annoyed by this manbaby?

No. 747359

I was just recently diagnosed with autism and I'm going through therapy, so I have to think back to my childhood while the abuse was happening. I just realized about 20 minutes ago that a lot of my friends from that time were actually bullying me. They would pretend to be my friend and I'd take them at face value. I trusted a girl so much that I told her some details about my abuse, she then proceeded to hold it over my head and threaten to tell everyone for the rest of the year. A boy cornered me into the shallow end of the pool and started insulting me, I was laughing because I thought he was just kidding. I don't know why but I'm just sitting here crying. Fuck fuck fuck.

No. 747361

>>747359
Sorry you're hurting anon. Sounds like you are doing the work to take care of yourself and know yourself better. I can relate to some of what you said, young kids can be mean as fuck

No. 747362

I am super pissed and angry at the world today. gonna list off a few things that made me upset

>tried to make buns twice, both doughs failed

>retarded zoom meetings all day
>retard roommate started cooking while I was in the middle of baking (who in the fuck does that) and then puts the salt and pepper shakers down on my floured dough workspace
>bf being a colossal dumbass all day, in the way and just saying the wrong things
>stuttering retard coworker can't get his sentences out (literally starts his sentences and changed courses midway. "I– well– th–that– it's just that– well maybe–" SPEAKING YOU FUCKING IDIOT. Think about what you're gonna say before you say it.
>died plenty of times replaying Little Nightmares 2.
>infighting here with some retards
>fighting on tiktok
>chronic anxiety

I'm angry. I have to take metformin for hormone purposes but I'm worried the dose I took yesterday gave me this anger. I hope not, as I'm supposed to be taking 2000mg a day and I only took 500mg.

No. 747363

>>747356
Anon if wanting a bit of peace because I can't change some dude who hasn't changed habit despite numerous confrontations makes me some spineless doormat, then fine. Jfc just let me vent.

No. 747364

>>747362
Samefag, trying to hold it together and not cry. I have no reason to feel this way, this annoyed. Just a deep feeling of rage in my gut. Maybe I'll masturbate

No. 747367

>>747363
Sorry, he does sound annoying af. hope your next living situation is better

No. 747368

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my youtube channel is almost at one thousand subscribers and i know thats not a lot but i feel really happy, which i haven't felt for a while. i recently got a few comments of people telling me they were excited that i was going to get the community tab and that they couldn't wait to comment on my posts and it made me almost cry. it's so stupid but i've felt so alone for a while so even if it isn't "real" it means a lot that random people would even comment that on my channel. at the same time i get so anxious about the attention and i feel like i want to disappear again, even if it isn't that big. why am i so anxious about this it's so stupid its just a youtube channel GAHHHH.

No. 747374

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>>747031
i play all of those religiously except for minecraft and i have had many boyfriends that don't have small penises while they have been fully aware i play these games, you can do it too queen!! ive even converted some of them into playing with me frequently

No. 747375

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>every morning for work I have to drive on a dangerous highway
>for an hour
>pass at least one pretty moderate accident every day
>today it was three cars careened off the road
>the other day it was a bad collision that made me late for work by almost an hour
>fatalities every month
And yet dumbfucks still want to push the speed limit past 80mph while I go 70 in a 65. I hate these people so much.

No. 747378

>>747084
wait my old accounts that I haven't touched in years have numerous "unconverted" pets, are you telling me that they could be possibly worth thousands in USD??

No. 747384

>>747031
omg I was obsessed with w101, I was like nine when it came out and fixated on it for almost a decade. I only stopped playing because all of my online friends slowly stopped playing and it made me sad to look at all the grayed out names on my friends list. I'd probably still play it now if I had anyone to play with, but it's a little too expensive for me to try and get any of my friends into it, I feel like I can only justify the price with the absurd amount of time I would spend playing it and I can't really expect that of them lol
I still play Minecraft though! I have a server with my friends and it's actually pretty cheap considering we split the cost. There's been a bit of a Minecraft revival going on the past couple of years, my super normie coworkers and friends haven't given me any weird looks or anything for mentioning it. I think more people would like it if they tried playing with friends instead of on their own, so you might still find someone!
I used to be so high ranked for pvp on w101, I wish it wasn't so cringe cause I'm still proud of it. Some of my fondest memories of my childhood were from people backing out of ranked matches when they saw they'd be fighting me. Felt great.

No. 747385

>>747368
I for one am happy for you and your success just made me smile.
I hope you can handle your anxiety.
Keep it up! Enjoy and have fun!

No. 747393

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>>747378
Kek. Nonnie's gonna get rich.
Man, I wish I still had my login infos from back then.

No. 747395

>>747368
Congratulations anon! I hope your channel keeps growing. What kind of videos do you make?

No. 747398

my bf told me my breath was bad in the nicest way possible, he wasn’t trying to hurt me but i immediately started tearing up and crying out of embarrassment. i had even found it weird earlier in the day that he wasn’t really kissing me at all. i brush two times a day and floss religiously but recently i’ve started new medication for my depression ( which is actually helping me a lot for once) but one of the side effects is lack of appetite. so my mouth being gross must have something to do with the fact that i don’t eat a lot. it’s hard to get food down and yes i’m planning on mentioning it to my doctor later. can anyone give me advice on how to improve this? should i just start forcing myself to eat and drinking gallons of water a day? i’m mortified. i had no idea it was bad :(

No. 747401

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>>747084
You've inspired me to play again too anon. Can't wait to play this as an adult, it was only available between 3 and 4am where I live and I couldn't stay up as a kid.

No. 747407

>>747398
Clean the tongue and use mouthwash after flossing.
Could be your mouth drying up? Drinking enough can help in that case.
Def mention it to your doctor!
It's embarrassing, but you're not alone. Lots of people have bad breath, but you seem like you are going to deal with it and fix it, which is great!
I hope it works out!


I often lick the back of my hand and breath on it to know what my breath smells like and sometimes I'm very disgusted, that motivates me to brush and floss more often.
I stopped breathing through my mouth and started drinking more water and things got better.
I forget to brush my teeth or sometimes I just am too "lazy", the more I think back at it I think I was and am depressed :(
I am too anxious, afraid and ashamed to tell anyone or ask for help or even contact a doctor
Hope it's okay that I post my blog in the reply, sorry if it's not! I kind of feel like it's not, but I need to let it out!

No. 747411

Whyyyy is my brain so broken wtfff
I suddenly forgot my phone's pin. I've typed it in a gazillion times a day for years. Today I put in a new sd card and the phone asked me to type in the pin to format it, and I blanked. I locked the screen thinking I'll just type it in from muscle memory like I always do and pay attention to memorize the numbers I type, but muscle memory failed me suddenly too. Now I'm locked out of my phone, waiting ever longer to try typing in the pin again… fuck

No. 747412

>>747398
Seconding getting a tongue scraper! For whatever reason tongue hygiene really isn’t brought up much even in dental offices but it made a huge difference for me when I ended up in a similar position lol. You don’t need the super harsh metal ones, Orabrush or a similar plastic one is fine. Scrape until there’s hardly any white gunk coming up. Then use a nonalcoholic mouthwash with xylitol to help keep your mouth producing enough saliva to prevent dry mouth, which can also cause bad breath (TheraBreath is a good one). This fixed my issues and hopefully it’ll help you as well. You can also get some xylitol lozenges or xylitol-based toothpaste if you want to be extra safe. Oh, and make sure your toothpaste is free of SLS (Sodium laureth sulfate). It’s essentially a detergent that can be irritating and further cause dry mouth.

No. 747413

>>747398
Maybe drink peppermint tea? I would hope that would help.

No. 747414

>>747227
I think you're more right than you think. Another thread linked this article about how the latest trend on Tiktok is "vanilla shaming" which is basically kids making fun of people who don't have "kinks" which most of the time consist of choking, knifeplay, slapping etc. I'm an oldfag and never, ever have I seen shit like that online before. Maybe within underground kink communities but never mainstream. https://i-d.vice.com/en_uk/article/88aey4/tiktok-vanilla-shaming-rough-sex-kinkshaming

>For Fiona MacKenzie, founder of campaign group We Can’t Consent To This — a group formed in response to the increasing violence exhibited against women during sex — the trend is worrying. “Young people are being told that everyone is doing this,” she says. The social pressure means that women in their teens and twenties now are being told that not enjoying being slapped or choked is abnormal. “It’s a default expectation now.”


I mean I was watching hentai clips online when I was in middle school and thought it was exciting but that's like masturbating to an underwear catalogue compared to how young girls are groomed into thinking there's something wrong with them if they don't like to be slapped or spat on. The article was linked to a Reddit thread in which a young woman was complaining about her hookups legitimately thinking that women like to be choked and believe asking for consent is a turnoff so they just grabbed her throat during sex. Like what the fuck? I'm so glad I didn't grow up during this time.

No. 747420

I feel so overwhelmed with everything in life but also feel like I’m being a pathetic coward and overreacting.
I’ve just started uni after working for shitty retail jobs for several years and I’m so terrified I’m too stupid to pass and will be in debt with nothing to show for it.
The only thing keeping me going is my mother but I feel I’m just a constant source of disappointment for her.

No. 747421

Why is sincerity talked about like it's a flaw? Why is it not appreciated? What the fuck do you want from me?

No. 747428

>>747421
Who says that? What do they say? Not doubting it, just want to know the context.
It might be backlash for the
>I'm not a bitch, I'm just honest
kinds of people, or those fake-soft girls who secretly talk shit behind anyone's back, but I don't really know what you mean.

No. 747429

My job is feeling so overwhelming, or maybe I'm too sensitive but after work I just feel like crying and I have no energy to do anything. Im the youngest where I work and everything is a mess, they don't know technology and make it more frustrating when they cant do simple things like update their calendars. I know the digital divide is a real thing but you'd think by this time having to work from home they would have tried a bit more to understand tech since they have to use it for their job. Lockdown is making it worse since all I get to do is sit and stare at a screen for hours then when I finish work I can look at a smaller screen for more hours. I just hate it, I know everyone is going through this as well but that doesn't help when everyone tells me that.

The job would be a lot better if I didn't have to work from home (I hope, I mean I started during lockdown so I've never worked with the team in person before). At least I could walk to and from work every day and get exercise and fresh air. Now I just wake up 30 mins before I start and walk a few steps to my computer screen. Im so sick of this life, there isn't anything to look forward to or think positively about.

No. 747431

>>747208
He was bullying you. Are you stupid?

No. 747432

>>747428
No not that, or maybe they do but I see it equaled to naive, stupid, childish, plain retarded really. I mean I get it but I don't believe we're bad people.

No. 747436

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I just want a nice, cozy life where I don't have to kms with work to be able to afford rent and food. But even that seems to be out of reach.

I'm trying to get into programming and shit since I enjoy it but I feel like a retard whenever I hear people talking about their experiences IRL. I think I'm too autistic to work in a team or shit.
I also like manual jobs but companies seem to rather hire guys for that even if they seem weaker so eh, fuck that too I guess.

No. 747438

>>747421
ironycels are taking over the world

No. 747441

>>747208
You're not in the wrong, but you're autistic for putting up with that retarded shit to begin with.
I'd spam him with things he doesn't like in return until he gets the hint, or start asking "Why are you acting like that? Is that your fetish or something?" point-blank.

No. 747548

Tiring having no friends to talk to..
It’s extremely hard to connect with anyone nowadays online. Just full of anxiety for me most times. I resorted to twitter to vent but now one cares in this day in age. Honestly it’s like I’m talking to a brick wall and bringing me here venting anonymously..

No. 747557

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>>747378
It totally depends on the species and colors that you have, but the plainest UC pets are worth like $20 minimum I think. The most valuable are usually Darigan or Faerie but theres a fair number of other rareish ones worth $100+. But to sell them you'll have to lurk and post on some like Neopets black market forums or some shit and try to sniff out what they're worth so you dont get swindled or w/e. Seems pretty fun to meet the neopets underworld lol. And also make sure your password is strong before you post cause there really be neopets hackers in this day and age.

Btw if you have any UC meercas I would die and pay to have one…I've been tempted to try to get one but most UC pets people sell are from hacked accounts so I dont wanna support that. Or also a UC Chia or Peophin for my partner.

>>747401
Asfjsj 16 levels?? nice… idk yeah i realized I actually saw so little of the site as a kid, I had one red ixi and just played Gadsgadsgame for hours (only game avatar I ever got, and i earned it again on my new acct before flash died lol). I wish I'd tried harder to explore or looked up stuff though, like I remember being frustrated because my pets kept getting wrecked by Clown Chia in the battledome no matter what I did, because I had no idea about the pirate academy or that there were weapons and stuff lol. And to be fair to me, even looking it up as an adult it's still pretty confusing and weird how that stuff works…

No. 747585

>>747407
>>747412
wow you are so nice, thank you so much for your advice and i’ll definitely be using these methods. i’ll try the tongue scraper too; i brush my tongue but a proper tool for that could be better. thank you again!!!!!

No. 747597

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I fucking hate scrotes. They absolutely disgust me. How can a group of people think they are entitled to women way out of their league and think they can treat them like shit? It's mind blowing how disgusting, ugly, psychopathic, weird, perverted scrotes treated me in the past and when I gtfo of there they try to message me as if I'll ever talk to them again. How can one think of themselves so highly expecting me, not even on the same level as ugly manlets, to run back to them like they mean something to me? I gave up on the scrote species a while back, I'm so glad I finally came to my senses to realise that no misogynistic incel would ever be good enough for me. I often think about stabbing each and every one of the pieces of shit to death with a blunt knife so I can watch them slowly suffer. There is genuinely no space for these fuckers in the world, they are pretty much vermin.

No. 747616

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>>747557
I prefer being able to dress the pets up over them having the unconverted artwork. The only UCs I like enough to make the lack of customization worth it are the royalgirl Cybunny and the plush Ixi. I don't care for the rest.

Btw if you want a dress-up game that uses all the actual artwork and items from Neopets, go check out https://impress.openneo.net/

No. 747662

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I'm lonely

No. 747706

>>747378
Neocodex is one of those websites where you can sell them. I used to hang out there for their cheatprograms when I still played. (They have like autobuyer programs and shit that gets you avatars and such) Younger me is slightly envious of your numerous UC pets.

No. 747725

I'm so fucking sleepy but my brain is going apeshit, bro I'm not trying roleplay a cute love story in my head rn. I hate this…
>>747662
Me 2

No. 747745

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>>747662
Public roleplayers were a mistake and they need to get their internet privileges removed.

No. 747804

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Damn, I was starting to have the warm feelies for that dude and he has to bring up some coomer shit.
This is why we can't have nice things.

No. 747807

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Yesterday at work I caught this girl at work talking shit about me in 4k. This dumbass sent a message on wattsapp and guess who sent it to? lol she probably wanted to send it to my other co worker (we kinda have similar names) But this dumb bitch sent that text to me, she said a bunch of shit about me how I am crazy and what not. I asked her if she sent me this text and she practically shat herself and said she was "hacked" she started sobbing and saying it wasnt her and what not. Now my petty ass will do her best to make this bitches' life a living hell, talk shit get hit, bitch.

No. 747811

>>747807
she’s gonna suffer that self own for the rest of her life with or without your help kek

No. 747813

>>747811
kek oh definetely! She keeps apologizing and saying how bad she feels and I just continue rubbing it in every possible chance I get. But I am a petty bitch so I'll find other ways to drag her.

No. 747818

I work in a school and for some reason I could access all sorts of websites on the school network and on my work computer. Not 4chan but social media and this website. Now today all of a sudden those websites are blocked! What am I going to do when I'm bored at work.

No. 747829

>>747818
kek, aren't you afraid about the IT guys having a laugh at your lc shitposts?

No. 747843

>>747725
same, but sad story, bad thoughts

No. 747847

>>747818
kek, I had this happen to me. I was playing epicmafia and one day it was banned for "games" despite being unblocked before that. They know what youre doing nonnie.

No. 747872

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my life seems like it’s spiraling out of control but it’s not, it’s been the same way for many years. sometimes i think it’s best to ignore and keep the volatility inside of you because am I really that petty about something childish? something like I don’t get enough attention? i feel left out of many things? im not owed any of those experiences at all, im just like the many who will get washed into shores of nothingness, and I can’t fight this fate anymore. I keep trying to, my mind literally feels like it’s being lifted out of my fucking body when I feel threatened or scared. why can’t I just come to conclusion that I am that person among other people who will never receive happiness or attention? why can’t my child-like idealism just go away already? none of the things I want will ever happen in a lifetime, and I’m not asking for the stars and the moon. it’s going to be a pitiful, sad, and restless life for me and I don’t know how I can cope with it

No. 747881

I'm so fucking sick of this pandemic, I miss my friends I haven't seen in a year, I miss seeing my coworkers, I miss going to events, I miss traveling. It's been a year and it feels like it's never going to end. The vaccinations will take forever to hand out and even then reopening everything won't happen overnight. I'm so depressed and I don't know how I'm going to be rehabilitated into normal life once it happens since this goddamn lockdown has done a number on my mental health and social skills. Fuck I hate this I can't take it anymore.

No. 747894

>>747881
Lol normies

No. 747897

>>747894
At least once people return to normal life you NEET leeches are the ones who will continue living depressed and lonely until your grave. Enjoy your brief moment of superiority because you will never get to relive it.

No. 747901

>>747881
Same, overall I enjoy time alone and I'm often drained and stressed in regualr life, but this isolation after a full year now starts becoming unbearable. At the end of 2020 my mental health finally deteriorated to the point of having to seek mental health, now I'm just feeling dead inside. My employer will not let us back to the office before we're all vaccinated for sure and this doesnt seem to be happening this year and i'm just so, so tired. Not like age as a number matters because life is no different at 29 and 31 at all but the thought i'm wasting the last years of my 20s rotting at home is just awful.

No. 747903

I have had it up to here with 95% of e-beggers. It's almost always like "u-uwu I'm a smol 24 yr old nonbinary bean and I'm living with my abusers (read: loving parents who I mooch off of but won't use they/it pronouns for me) and need 2000 dollars to move out and get surgery or I'll literally die" and then hundreds of suckers send them money which they proceed to spend on anime merch and hideous clothes to show off on tik tok.

No. 747908

>>747897
ntayrt but damn girl you need to chill, I know life is hard right now even for the neets (stuff takes longer to deliver prices of products are spiking) I share your sentiment and I really wish I could just do my every day tasks without having to wear a mask or be not be self concious every time i fricking cough in public. its awful but we must keep going.

No. 747909

>>747903
this is why i only donate to people online if they have an emergency with their pets or something, almost everything else is a scam

No. 747934

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My mom is saying she wants to take me to a popular beach in our state, and I really don't want to go cause I don't want to catch fucking covid and I also live in a southern state so I have a sneaking suspicion it's going to be kinda crowded. I need to make up some bullshit excuse but I feel bad for it even though I shouldn't. I'm gonna tell her I have an infection (I do) and I don't wanna risk it getting worse from sea water or something, even though she wants to go in 2 weeks

It would be nice to collect some seashells or something though. I've literally never been to the beach before, I just wish she would've chose a better time

No. 747935

i hate having short hair fuck!!! if i hadn't destroyed my hair with bleach a couple years ago i could have hair down to my waist right now. i feel so ugly all the time

No. 747957

>>747934
> I'm gonna tell her I have an infection (I do) and I don't wanna risk it getting worse from sea water
Don’t! Most people think infections get better if you go to the beach so she might counter with that.
Maybe say that you have a terrible headache or that you got diarrhea and haven’t been able to get out of the bathroom because of it.

No. 747987

>>747957
Damn. Thank you for looking out anon!

No. 748024

I vented a few months ago about how my dad tried to convince me to get into an arranged marriage with one of his young coworkers so his coworkers could get citizen ship. I obviously said no and was offended because this was the second time he's dared to ask me to do this, except this time he was saying how the man would pay 50 grand and kept trying to vouch for his character. I don't trust any scrote and I don't believe in easy money, on top of not wanting to be legally liable for this man. My dad says he's just trying to look out for us (in regards to my finances, and to just help this dude out) but I still found it extremely disrespectful.

I was talking to him about stocks and other money shit and he had to bring it up again and I told him I don't trust that I would ever see a dime of it and he says "well what if I get him to pay first?" No! Still no! Then I explained that I also view marriage as something sacred and precious, something to be treasured, and something that I want to share one day with a future partner that I will trust and want to spend the rest of my life with. Maybe I've watched too many romance movies, who the fuck cares, I just view marriage as something sacred and want to keep it that way. Then my dad says "oh this is just because you're white on the inside" (we're Asian and I was born and raised in America) like fuck off! I don't care! I don't care that the man is desperate, I don't care that it's easy money! I don't trust people I don't personally know, I know you have a bad judgement of character, and I want to keep my marriage for someone that I love! So fucking annoying. He thinks he's trying to help me out financially but the one and only thing he needs to do to make sure I'm financially set for my future is giving me the apartment (which I'm set to inherit anyway)!!!

No. 748071

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I’m in a rut and no matter what I do I can’t get out. Getting up early isn’t helping. Cleaning my space isn’t helping. Journaling isn’t helping. I literally cannot write or draw or create anymore and I spend hours on my phone wasting my life.

No. 748080

My 15 year old niece thinks she's trans and wants to transition. When she was in her late childhood she started liking masculine hobbies like gaming and listening to rap and whatever, so I think that's where she started to think she's trans. Like.. seeing as tom boys don't exist (since every girl who likes masculine hobbies starts to believe they're trans), I think that happened to her too. But I'm torn because I know her immediate family don't support her, and I'm the only one in her family that does. I really would love to 'warn' her but I know that won't be taken kindly and teenagers never listen etc etc.

No. 748084

I'm 30 and I'm giving up on dating. The last bf I had was my age and he was so gross and hairy. I'm not attracted to the scrotes my age but they still have the retardness of men a decade younger but without the looks. I can't do super young men either, because they havent realized they have no chance of getting a rich hot 17-24 year old who will take care of them for life. I'm just gonna focus on getting to my goal weight and saving money.

No. 748095

Bitch you weren't ever anorexic. You only lost weight "fast" because you were on adderal for a couple months. And despite losing weight, you were still overweight. I'm so sick of you trying to "relate" to me. If anything you have binge eating disorder considering you gained 90 pounds once you were taken off the meds.

No. 748099

>>748095
You all have disordered relationships with food, definitely more common ground than you realize.

No. 748100

Why are men so fucking weird? Took bf out for his birthday to his favorite pub for a meal and a beer. Afterwards I stopped for quick things at the grocer while he waited in the car. I get back in the car, it's 45 minutes home, and two minutes after I pull out of the grocer parking lot he decides he needs to urgently pee.
Okay fine, told him I was taking him to a fast food restaurant along the way. He suggested his parent's house. Not to pee and visit them. He wanted to piss on their lawn????????????
So, to be clear, instead of just going into the restaurant to pee, he wanted me to drive all the way to his parent's house just to pee on their lawn and leave.
Idiot.

No. 748103

>>748100
Well… huh. Idk what to say to this one anon

No. 748109

>>748084
I’ve finally accepted the fact that it’s really all down to luck. You either find a unicorn (non garbage male) or you stay single / pick a moid

No. 748113

i made the decision to stop taking my antidepressant after being on various ones for the past….. 7-ish years. a smart person would have made an appt with their doctor, but i'm just kind of going cold turkey because i can't get an appt in the evenings/on the weekend around here and i'm flush with work

anyway i'm getting crazy withdrawal symptoms, itching all over, hot flashes, diarrhea… like a new symptom every day piling on.
hopefully this won't last too long pls pray for me

No. 748117

>>748100
Are you dating a teenage boy who's just had his first beer?

No. 748118

i wish i wasn't so over sensitive about people being rude to me, i'm self-aware enough to know i shouldn't give a fuck but i always mull every little negative thing that happens to me over. i was getting out of an elevator for a dr appointment today and turned left, realized i went the wrong way so crossed back the other way and passed this soccer mom who was waiting for the elevator (didn't even bump into her or do anything remotely rude) and she just goes "EXCUSE YOU." and starts getting in the elevator. i'm just like ?????? oh should i have said excuse me? i said "oh my bad i'm sorry" and she just ignores me and scoffs and mutters "wow" as I'm walking away. like jesus lady what do you want me to do, bow before you and beg for forgiveness for being in your way for half a second, both of us masked? was it that much of an inconvenience to make a comment? i just could never picture myself doing that to a stranger even if they were actually rude. i genuinely don't understand how people like that work, does she really think scolding an adult like a child on manners comes across as anything other than condescending? idk i know she's a waste to be thinking over and probably is one of those people who is so used to projecting their own issues onto anyone in their vicinity, you really can only treat miserable people with kindness and ignore/ forget about them but it just gets to me any time it happens, my brain can't help itself. i just rethink what i could have said differently to get her to react in a kinder way and will overthink to where i wonder if i really WAS the rude one, albiet unintentionally. being so unsocialized from covid is not making it any better when this kind of dumb shit happens lol

No. 748119

>man I met two years ago has been trying to talk to me
>have since realized I'm mainly gay since cutting him off
Feels bad since I made the first move, he's a good dude on paper (intelligent, in STEM, trying to better himself, also introverted), and I think he really does like me. He even continued to pursue me back when I was a serious pizzaface, unbelievable for a man.

I didn't have relations with him (or any man, I just liked chasing ones that looked like my father so I could recreate the rejection) so it's not a super complicated thing, but eh. I'm incapable of friendship so continuing to ghost him is tempting. Talking to him may also have to involve coming out if he makes another move, which is always a gamble with straight men even if he seems like a nice dude.

Sucks!

>>748100
This is hilarious. Are you dating a sim?

No. 748128

>>748113
Anon antidepressents are not something you can stop cold turkey since most of them can really fuck up your brain chemistry and can even heighten your chances to have an aneurysm or stroke

No. 748144

I want to travel one day even if it's only to one country but I'm a poorfag and have been one since I was a kid. All my money goes to bills, family, food etc. and sure I could save up but that money would be better spent on going back to school or stuff that actually matters. I'm so jealous of rich trust fund kids. It's a meme that money doesn't buy you happiness. Fuck you I'd be pretty fucking happy chilling under the sun in Tahiti.

No. 748145

I'm just so heartbroken that my mum is a victim of rape. Tonight was the second time she went through the story to me. She only told me a few years ago. I had forgotten a lot of the details about it - probably because it's just such a hard thing to imagine your mother going through.
It sickens me that this man - a coworker - who she never liked much (intuition probably), but nevertheless obviously trusted destroyed her for life when she was alone and vulnerable.
My dad was a witness to the aftermath of it all as he came quickly after she managed to call him for help. But he became increasingly ill with cancer after all this and my mum was just under so much stress at the time I don't think she had it in her to deal with pressing charges. Times were different back then as well. She does regret not doing so.
It's absolutely vile that he got away with it. It amazes me to think she worked at the same place for soo many years with her actual rapist not far away. I don't know how she managed to.
I know it's a cliché to say so but my mother is the strongest person I know. She's been through so much.

No. 748159

>>748144
"Money doesn't buy you happiness" is literally bullshit, richer people just say it to make poorer people feel bad for them. Richer people have access to therapy, vacations, a ton don't have to even work because of generational wealth. Why the fuck do I care if they kill themselves, they had the entire world's resources to use to get better while I couldn't even get therapy or medication at the worst moment in my life.

No. 748166

>>748080
My sister went through similar stages and came out as trans in college. I didn't really talk to her because I wouldn't have been able to keep my gendercrit in my pockets but my mom I think was gently gendercritical and it really didn't go well. Their friends/trans people they know will be quick to label you a terf if you say stuff that is recognizable to them as gendercritical.

My sister took T injections for a little while but I think stopped after college since she wasnt around a group of trans people anymore, so she didn't have to "prove she was trans" if you know what I mean. She still uses a male name and I think he/him because she has a ftm boigirlfriend, but idgaf really since I dont live near her or anything and she's not ruining her health with T.

So I would try the tactic of supporting them super hard in "being a man" to the extent that means using a male name and dressing male or w/e, but also say they shouldn't take hormones because we dont know the health effects, or you can look up the effects and stuff to tell her. Basically if you're like her super strong supporter in "being male" like offer to go places with her dressed male etc so she's comfortable, buy male clothes with/for her, you'll be able to advise against hormones while still being trusted as her ally. And I feel like of people dont get started on the hormone train then their identity naturally continues to evolve, but if they start medical transition/their friends are all trans, then it's hard for them to back down (you see trans people attacking detrans constantly accusing them of being terfs pretending to be detrans etc, and also when reddit briefly deleted r/detrans due to tranny whims before they had to put it back cause normal people saw that that was insane).

No. 748168

I guess I have to go to my mother's place again even though it's tiny,I can't believe the water pipes at my place still don't have any goddamn water,it's been 4 days (why was it so fucking cold in Texas last week? goddamn it,meanwhile my dad is having the time of his life in a third world country laughing at me.

No. 748177

>>747597
I really hope this isn't bait from a troll because I agree

No. 748179

>>747903
Can someone tell me who is donating to these people? It seems like the only ones who care to retweet are artists and sex workers, with a majority of them just being jobless.
>>748024
Have you seen 90 Day Fiance? The majority of men who seek out foreign brides are textbook abusers. This is exactly who your dad shouldn't be trying to sell you off to, but then again your culture is probably very patriarchal so his judgment is likely very skewed compared to what I think is acceptable behavior from a man.

No. 748193

>>748166
Thanks for the insight anon, good advice. It's probably best to continue supporting her through liking masculine things, and addressing her as a man around her and her friends and family. But yeah, I'll definitely try to act as if I'm against hormone injections for health reasons, and nothing else. It's the best way of getting her to avoid them anyways.

No. 748203

>>748159
Thank you anon I've always felt like a psycho for not caring about rich people struggling. Fuck 'em they have access to all the best therapists and medial care in the world while there are people with mental health and physical health problems barely scraping by.

No. 748218

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I've had to go to an endocrinologist my entire life for diabetes and diabetes related accessories, and ever since these fucking children all started coming out as trans, I can't get a god damn endo to take my god damn fucking hormone imbalances seriously and I just fucking want to commit die
all my fucking leg hair just fell the fuck out one day, and my endo told me I was wearing my fucking pants too tight
the right side of my thyroid is visibly swollen with a fucking very feelable lump on it and I can't get a fucking referral for a fucking ultrasound
I lost fuckign 40 fucking pounds in a fucking month and he told me, "Well, you were 130 pounds," like yeah cunt, I know, I'm a big fat fuck, so don't fucking help me
fuck these fucking kids, fuck the doctors, fuck the media, end my fucking suffering right the fuck now or actually fucking help me
well at least I don't have to fucking shave anymore, that's real fucking nice, at least there's that
fuck everything
fucking kill me
I do not want to live like this and there's no other options, I have been through every endocrinologist in the tri-county area, there are not fucking many, in case you wondered

No. 748273

>>748179
I've seen bits of it here and there but it's too cringey for me to watch kek. I'm a lesbian anyway and my dad knows this so he just says "you'll only have to be married for like two years and that's it!" but I don't give a fuck. My dad's less traditional than my mom in the sense of 'women need to stay where they belong', probably because I'm an only child and having your daughter be strong and not take shit gives him better peace of mind than being a meek idiot who gets taken advantage of all the time. An extra 50 grand would be nice, but I'm doing decently financially (parents don't make me pay rent, I have a decent amount set aside for emergencies, and have no debt) so I'm not desperate enough to fall for a scrote's dumb tricks. My dad says he's a super nice dude who's around my age but my dad is truly fucking awful at reading people until it's too late.

No. 748278

My mother despises me. She hates the woman i have become. She wants me to be independent yet still wants to take me by the hand and have a close look at everything i do. She dreads i call out her boyfriend's abusive atitudes towards me. And she hates i am not a skinny white cute college graduate at 23. She says i am not starting uo my life yet today i invited her to go see a college i want to go to and do something i am good at.

But on the way a huge argument broke and it all was because i told her i didnt like an atitude her boyfriend had with me. She gets so worked up when i talk about him negatively. And she thinks she isnt responsible for him thus she shouldnt tell him to not do bad things or to respect me. To her eyes i am not worthy of anyone's respect because i am a mentally ill person.

Things she said
"You cant count with me to help you, im a busy woman, learn to sort things along"
"Yes i know i hurt you but i dont care i dont feel remorse"
"You are a huge shame, you make me ashamed"

I still love my mother but. Since she started dating that man she has become so hurtful. She thinks that if you belittle and hurt someone you are making them a strong person. She wants me to talk about how i feel yet she gets terribly angry when i do. I always ask her if she is okay and how she is feeling, she says she is okay, but later she says "you never bother to know how I feel"

I feel like she treats me with less and less empathy as i grow older. I feel like i talk to a different person as days go by. The feeling of despair and desolation i feel, physically hurts. My only family that is my mother and my brother, think i should be locked up, that i have problems.

I dont know, Im really feeling like i am at the end of the road. I cant do this anymore. I know i have to live for me but the fact that guy has alienated my mom and my brother from me; the fact that the only way to keep things happy is if i accept to be treated like garbage by him… this sucks.

No. 748288

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I posted about my aunt here >>724973 and here >>727052 and yesterday I also posted about my mom's elderly friend and her manbaby son >>746457 Today she told me that her son is planning to move to a different city for good because of his new chick and now I will have to take care of her and she actually said "You will move in with me and we can rent out your apartment to someone". And I'm like? Excuse me? No way. She also told me "You probably won't find a job anyway". I can't find a job now and I feel like certain people want to use it against me. My aunt also wants to rent out my apartment and is pressuring me into moving in with my grandmother (who's almost 90 and isn't very communicative) so I can take care of her. I really feel like, because of my current situation, they try to babysit me and use me as a free senior care assistant. I have my own health problems, both physical and mental, and I'm not fit to be a caregiver 24h per week. I feel so trapped I want to cry. God, I just want to find a job. Otherwise they will never leave me alone. It hurts me that no one ever tries to give me any emotional support, they only try to use me. I'm sorry for blogposting this much but there's nobody I can talk to about it and I have no money for therapy

No. 748289

>>748203
i feel you sis. this is going way off the original post but i have a friend who has insane wealth because she was born into it. and while i know it wasn't her choice, and she can still have problems, all she does is complain. she makes it really hard to empathize with her because of that.

like girl how am i living a more fulfilling life with less to complain about with 1/1,000,000th of your resources??? if everything sucks then pick up, buy a villa in another country and try to make life not suck there damn

No. 748294

I'm so tired of men. I wish I were a lesbian. I know lesbian relationships are toxic but at least there are more cute/average looking girls to pick from. I could go on a date without having to worry about being murdered or raped.

No. 748296

>>748294
I don’t even give a fuck about sexuality anymore, all I want is soul bonding with a true misandrist volcel woman. We live happily ever after.

No. 748297

I found out today one of my friends hasn't liked me for a while over stupid fucking drawings. We both draw and post in the same Discord servers (the root of all drama). I guess she's upset I get more attention than her but that's not even true. She literally gets more attention than I do. I have no idea what she is mad about. We don't even draw the same things anyway. I do basic bitch drawings of flowers and animals and she's draws cool stylized art and cartoon fanart. I don't even know why she was competing with me to begin with. I'm just doing this for fun. I'm not her competition. I'm her friend. It just sucks because I woke up to screenshots from a mutual friend where she was saying all this stuff about me trying to upstage her. We're in our 30s. We are too old to be acting like this. I'm not trying to salvage anything, but I am sad because I thought we really were friends. This is so fucking stupid.

No. 748304

>>748297
I would say it's fine to be a little jealous over your friend's talents since I think it's unavoidable, but the fact that she felt the need to vent to a mutual friend that you got more attention than her… what the fuck lol. She sounds like someone who's still in her teens, not in her 30s. I hope you'll find a better friend anon.

No. 748307

I hate being ugly. I'm so tired of it and being the ugly lame asian girl, like yeah sorry I don't look like the kpop girls!I will soon though, saving up for a nose job and double-eyelid job

No. 748310

>>748307
Not trying to dissuade you since it's ultimately your choice, but remember the kpop celebrities you see are being held to tremendous and unrealistic beauty standards same as you are. That doesn't make you ugly. Learning to love yourself can be extremely difficult and take time, but you can get there. Never feel pressured to save up for cosmetic surgery to look like someone who could potentially be a result of smoke and mirrors. Plastic surgery might be the easier route short-term, but it can also come with a heap of problems down the road.

No. 748315

>>748307
Underage cringe

No. 748319

I think my weird level 10 crackhead neighbor killed someone (dead body wheeled out of his apt earlier, medical examiner was here, and police are questioning where he is). Now I can't sleep and I'm scared I will run into him soon, he's extremely confrontational.

I'm thinking surely he won't come back to the scene of the crime.. But he's a mentally ill drug addict I doubt he will be thinking straight.

Before anyone says anything, I already have plans to move.

No. 748334

first person i’ve ever made out with and he might’ve given me oral herpes. life is cruel

No. 748335

>>748334
most of the population has them because they're impossible to track, don't worry too much.

No. 748339

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This sounds so annoying but I feel so alone since realizing I'm gay and I just want a space where nobody talks about men or anything to do with men in general but most lesbian spaces on the internet have people talking about their sexual experiences with men or dicks and it's just so tiring. I don't hate bisexuals at all but even on fucking lolcow the thread is full of people arguing between bisexuals and lesbians and it's like fuck. I just want a space to look at and communicate in not involving men for once and be happy. I wish I wasn't ashamed to come out in real life and just find someone to talk to about it.

No. 748340

>>748335
thanks. i’m not going to jump to conclusions yet but my lips look weird, gonna get tested regardless

No. 748341

>>748334
something like 80% of adults have oral herpes and most of them picked it up as kids and don't even know b/c it's not included in a standard STI panel. don't freak out

No. 748342

>>748341
do i tell people if i have it then? is it something people get rejected over? wouldn’t that be lying by omission or s/t, even if it’s common? sorry for all the questions but i can’t help but panic a bit, i’ve never dated anyone

No. 748352

>>748342
it's okay anon. I don't feel obligated to disclose it, and I've never had a partner bring it up to me either, even though statistically most of them probably had it. I have had people tell me that they have genital herpes, though. But obviously don't make out with someone if you're like actively having an outbreak – which for most people only happens if they're sick or highly stressed (they're called "cold sores" for a reason)

No. 748364

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I'm so sad right now, anons.

I went to my SO cause I wanted to have sex and he was high (a friend came over) so he started blabbing to me. The subject ended up on threesomes (his friend was having troubles with this) and tbf in the begining of the relationship I did say that eventually it will happen with us since I have experience and I miss it sometimes, but I told him it was a touchy thing since my last relationship ended terribly because of this… so I need time. My SO then talked about maybe bringing someone home for us one day. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything. Was he hinting at me?? This isn't the first time he's brought it up, while I almost never do.

One of my fears is that he's staying with me in the hope that we'll have a threesome. He assured me that I'm the only one in his eyes, so it'll be difficult to find somebody if we ever do it. We didn't end up fucking since he was too high, but now that kind of hurt my feelings.

I want to talk to him about this but he's baked right now so I'm just having a slow panic attack that I haven't felt since my ex. I'm going to try and sleep now

No. 748365

>>748364
If you aren't comfortable with him bringing up threesomes then you should express that anon. You're allowed to change your mind about things and a good boyfriend will respect that. I hope you'll be okay.

No. 748366

>>748364
Honestly if my bf told me he tried, liked, and missed a sex act that I really want to try, I'd have to hold myself back from bringing it up, especially when under the influence. That being said it's reasonable to change your mind about things, or be uncertain. Definitely should talk to him once he's normal, maybe draw a more definite boundary that YOU should be the one to initiate because you're the one who had a miserable experience in the past (assuming you haven't drawn that boundary already). Good luck!

No. 748371

>>748365
>>748366
Yeah I understand that it would be very exciting to look forward to, I'm trying to be fair since he's a sweet guy and I know he'd never intend to hurt me.
Thank you so much for your kind words, anons. I feel a little better now, and with clearer minds tomorrow I hope I can express my needs
>also I should probably get some therapy to deal with the mental scars from my ex tbh

No. 748372

>>748364
lol I think he was just trying to be cool in front of his friend. men cant resist trying to live coomer fantasies like threesomes, and around other men they have to always outcoomer each other, god knows why. It's like improv, they have to always say yeah man I would totally, cause if they're like "eh sounds awkward" they feel like they're admitting they're not a manhammer sexmaster or smth, and the moidversation gets awkward cause menfriends must never ever call each others' sexmastery into question. It's so fucking rich. They only got the one damn penis and it probably ain't any kinda ron johnson johnson either. It's just their stupid porn sick bucket list of sexmaster things to do so they can brag to their man friends about it. Cares about his stupid manrep more than you = dealbreaker imo but do you

No. 748377

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so i have had migraines for about 2 years. At the beginning they were maybe 3 or 2 times a week.But now for about 1 month they are agonizing and happen almost every day.I decided to go to an neurologist to figure this shit out(i was more scared because my dad also recently have had an attack from brain aneurysm,he had surgery and all so he's better now).So i go to the doctor,tell him that i have migraines and i show him where my head hurts and he says that migraines don't hurt like that. So i tell him well i not a doctor and i hope he would help me.He starts asking me all bunch of stuff like if i have a drivers license and i said no because i experience head spinning form the migraines. he tells me that i should get one and that my head isn't spinning.The doctor asks me now if i have a job and i tell him that because of the pandemic it's hard to get one.He then says that if I work, the migraines will pass and i reply to him that my dad had a job and still nearly died from brain aneurysm. Im still in a traumatic shock and i want to kms from all of this. he implied that i lied about my illness but that don't make my migraines go away. If the doctors won't help me then who will?

No. 748378

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Beings like this send me death threats even though I didn't even interact with their blogs kek

No. 748379

I'm anemic again and I feel so lightheaded. Can't afford to go to the doctor nd can't afford to buy a lot of meat or lots of iron rich foods (I have beans and oats and canned oysters though). Event hough I am anemic because of my nutrition I can't fix it as fast as I hope to. I have supplements and they're the only ones that work for me, but my store doesn't sell them. Having to order them online is so expensive too. I just want the dizziness and headaches to go away, I just want to go to sleep without my feet and hands numbing up. Just really wanna sleep

No. 748380

>>748377
please go to a different doctor anon, what you're experiencing isn't normal and that doctor sounds like a old idiot. It might help to try and find a doctor closer to the city, or a younger doctor. Hope you get better soon

No. 748381

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Sometimes I'm tempted to make a blog documenting all the people that invade narcissistic abuse survivor spaces. I'm tired of these shitty people literally going into areas and tags designed for survivors and victims to connect with one another and to form a community just to flying monkey for narcissists and invalidate and gaslight us.

No. 748383

>>748378
Lmao I had a bunch of woke teenagers dogpile on me for saying biological women should have their own spaces separate from men identifying as women on a mobile game of all things today. Had a lot of women privately dm me to say thanks because they were too nervous to speak against the trans cult witch hunting me but goddamn it’s so fucking embarrassing when women turn on their own sex.

No. 748391

>>748377
My sister and myself both have/had chronic migraines. I would reccomend, depending on where you live, ingesting weed (costly), giving yourself tension massages (cheap), and if you can afford it, getting botox injections in your forehead (expensive). I started smoking weed in 2010 and I havent gotten a migraine since.
I understand anon that none of the shit I said will be helpful depending on who you are and how much $ you have. My sister was just in a similar place getting referrals to clinics for two years before she said fuck it, and developed a weed habit over her Advil habit. This is all very dirtbag now that I am reading it over, recommending weed kek, but I just wanted to offer a relatable opinion.

No. 748410

>>748379
How much are your iron supplements anon?

No. 748417

>>748377
>He then says that if I work, the migraines will pass
Lmao what the fuck, clear sign he doesn't know anything. Please see a different doctor anon, and as soon as you can; I know it must be draining but your migraines really are extreme. Also even primary care physician should be able to prescribe you stronger painkillers, thought it's not a solution to your problem long-term of course. Do you have any kind of hormonal contraception? This is a very common cause for migraines.

No. 748424

>>748377
Get a 2nd opinion from another doctor. There's rotten apples everywhere, even in the medical field and unfortunately you got one.

No. 748435

I really need to get this off my chest.

I digitally self harm a lot, probably because irl I was being physically self harmed by my dad and otherwise ignored but for a while when I was 17-18 I would go on 4chan threads where people would constantly bully me over a multitude of things, probably the worst being my cat who had died a day before my 18th birthday (they knew this because I had vented to my friends in a public discord and they constantly stalked it to bully other girls who were involved in it including myself) . Despite now being 20 this suddenly is fucking with my mental health again whenever I think back to it despite not doing it for a while, I guess it’s possibly because a girl who went through a similar thing to me who was one of my friends is having suicidal thoughts as of late and rarely wants to speak to me these days.

I would talk to a therapist about this but…covid.

No. 748453

I weigh 60kg on 167cm and I have no idea how to dress myself. Any piece of clothing looks awful on me. To make matters worse, my last pair of jeans finally ripped. I am now a woman without pants. I made the resolution to not buy any new clothes before I lost weight but this is it. I admit defeat.

No. 748461

I just randomly remembered this time when I was about to have sex with a guy and when I undressed and he saw how big my lips are down there, he made a remark that 'it looks like you have a penis'. I was hurt but had sex with him regardless

No. 748468

>>748453
60kg on 167 isn't even close overweight or anything though?

No. 748500

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>>748379
Please go to a food bank. Hang in there, nonnie
>>748435
I really encourage you to go to therapy, a lot of places are doing video chats or phone calls. Even if you don't want to commit to it now, it's still good to get on a wait-list. Cheering for you!
>>748461
I'm sorry that happened to you, anon, and hope you have the confidence now to kick garbage like that to the curb. Fwiw there are of plenty of men who don't care about that stuff and like big lips too

No. 748502

>>748468
Yeah I’m neither overweight nor skinny, just a weird unfortunate looking body shape

No. 748528

>>748461
if anything like that ever happens again tell the guy his dick is ugly

No. 748536

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I’m so tired of how acceptable it is for scrotes to prioritize video games over their girlfriends, or over anything in their lives really, and if she’s not happy with that she’s “le crazy jealous grill obsessed with le poor man”. Sorry I don’t enjoy being a fleshlight

I (too) nicely asked my bf if he can stop interrupting me with jokes/references of games I don’t even know when I’m trying to tell him something serious, and he got mad and started completely ignoring me.

Told him to grow up and now he’s blocked because fuck that. It’s been happening for two years already. Almost no hanging out, no calling, no plans or anything because he’s busy with call of duty, final fantasy, or playing something with his Discord server. Only get any acknowledgement at all when he’s horny or for a few seconds in between switching games.
I knew gamer dudes were bad, but Jesus Christ

No. 748539

>>748536
It's time to let that one go, nonnie. OR you can prove that he needs you and his life would suck without you.
>I (too) nicely asked my bf if he can stop interrupting me with jokes/references of games I don’t even know when I’m trying to tell him something serious, and he got mad and started completely ignoring me.
kek, not to "my NIGEL" but my bf would never ever do this. And I've had to ask him to stop doing this exact thing around my friends because tbh my friends are too retarded to get his references. He understood and was nice about it.

I get too entirely serious. Learn to fight back. Keep a tight leash on him. It doesn't even need to be the usual "social dynamic" of your relationship but at least let him know when you are serious, you are serious. If he doesn't take you seriously, he doesn't respect you. If he doesn't respect you, you don't need him.

No. 748554

>>748461
Agree with >>748528 It's hard to think on the spot when someone hits you with such an unexpected comment but honestly just give them the exact same shit back. Easiest way to get the point across to a scrote.

My ex used to grow a beard to hide his double chin, he admitted that to me early on and said he hated his bare face. But he one day he commented that when I lay back I get one.. again he told me this right before sex!? The man looked up at me mid-oral to tell me about my chins. I didn't hold back the next time he trimmed back his beard and it showed his actual face shape. He got the message. After that he turned into one of those guys where I'd complain about my monthly bloating and he'd say that he's the one with a constant bloat so don't sweat it, that or he'd call it cute. The sudden turn around once he realised I'd give back the same energy he gave. If you build me up I'll flatter you when you feel insecure too. If you point out my flaws I'm certainly not comforting you about yours.

No. 748566

I feel emotionally volatile and unstable. I just wish someone could help me feel better. Emotional neglect is no fucking joke. I want to lash out. I hate having to pretend to be stable all the time. Internally I'm fucked as hell. I want to relate to others so fucking badly. I want comfort and to be emotionally vulnerable but I've been shamed for it every time. I just want someone to be emotionally vulnerable with. I feel suffocated by how unempathetic people are. I hate having to pretend to not care. I hate how I feel I am talking to brick walls all the time. Even venting here does not help. I crave and fear emotional vulnerability. It seems impossible. I want to hide all day but I have so many things to do. I feel if I get on pills I'll become soulless. I already feel soulless because of how I have to control how I feel. This is very hard to do all the time. I hate how patronizing people are. I feel on the outside looking in. No one can help me. I have no one I can turn to. I feel blind, starved, hungry, suffocated, wild. I feel so cold. I feel disconnected.

No. 748581

>>748566
This sucks anon, but it's also a very complicated topic. It's hard to find people who would understand you; but even once you find them you need to invest time, build real trust and place for emotional vunerability for everyone included. It's extremely rare thing to have that doesn't happen just organically. You need a therapist that would listen to you vent and help you manage your emotions - but without pills, just within your own mental capabilities. You can't rely on other people to be willing to do it for you for free.

No. 748594

I have lost all attraction to scrotes and I'm sad. Even the cute ones who are really young and look sweet, wanted to do deranged shit like act out rape scenes from porn on me. Im going to take a break from men for like a year and see if my attraction comes back.

No. 748633

I have learned to cope with the abuse from my narcissistic mother, and I am so glad it's been almost two years since I went gray rock. Yesterday, I was recalling the events leading up to me having to go gray rock and I started getting the worst heart palpitations! I thought it would be a good "get this off my chest because it was such a ridiculous moment" but the panic that set in was so uncomfortable, it was like I was still getting those hourly threats from her. Trauma is a bitch, I'm glad it's over. One thing for sure, I want my family members to stop using the aging of my grandparents and my uncle dying of cancer as a means to try to make me set things aside and reconcile with my mother because "anything can happen, especially with covid". Ugh, I guess the heart palpitations were not just out of nowhere.

No. 748645

Fuck covid for making everyone stay home I haven't had a long lazy use-all-my-toys fap session in almost a year

No. 748655

It's depressing to watch talent shows once you know how they operate, sometimes I fall into that "best the voice auditions" rabbit hole on youtube and there's so many people with AMAZING voices that have their grand moment being recognized on tv, probably thinking that they've finally made it; only for the tv network to milk them until it's no longer interesting, which is max few months later, and completely abandon. They all deserve so much better.

No. 748663

>>748536
Men like this have grown up just playing video games in all their spare time by default. To them asking them not to play games is like asking them not to eat. I'm saying this as someone who fell into this kind of habit around middle school due to runescape and then WoW then league then dota. I did see it as a problem and did things like forcing myself to read for an hour or cook before I started playing a game. But I didn't have all gamer friends like gamermen tend to, and in that situation it's much much harder to quit or reduce game hours because theyll always be asking you to play with them.

I hardly play games that much anymore but that's really only because dota got bad and no new games are worth a drop of shit. But anyway, if you want to change his habits you need to get him to do things with you by default rather than with his game friends. You could find a game that you would be ok playing (ideally not one he currently plays as he might feel you're invading his mangamespace) and then ask him to ply it with you, he'll have to make the decision of playing a game with you or being like "nuh uh I like my man friends better than you" and if that happens you can write him off I guess lol. Good transitional games here are asking him to play DS games like mario kart or pokemon with you (my partner and I nuzlocke and battle after every gym, loser has ro give winner one party member. it's a chill time)

Once you get him in the habit of playing games with you for a little while, you can shift him away from video games slowly and gradually, like by asking him to play a card game first (I suggest net runner, it's a 2 player card game that comes with all cards in the box so theres no collecting you just buy the one thing. Pretty fun but even if you dont like cardganes the card art etc is good). Then maybe you can get him to go out to do "games" like archery/batting cages/arcades or go to Dave busters or whatever, and hopefully he'll fall into the habit of doing stuff with you and in general doing stuff other than nonstop gaming.

It's a long hard road to curing game brain…only worth it for an otherwise perfect partner.

No. 748676

>>748663
Having a bf is so much like being a mom who has to instil good behaviours in her soon

No. 748679

this is a stupid vent
but i want a girl online to play games with me and get on discord with me… itd be cool if we were attracted to each other too in a flirty fun online way. i want this so bad and it kills me, i can find men so fucking easily and i literally don't want to interact with them.. even though im butch and outwardly bold its so hard to find actual gay women!! or even just flirty companions. sorry anons thanks for listening

No. 748686

>>748676
This, even my cat shits in his box by himself.

No. 748691

>>748686
Exactly. I'm not teaching a grown man to do shit. His mom and dad shouldve did that. The only advice given for men like this should be block and ghost

No. 748711

I have zero luck when it comes to ordering fast food and now I remember why I always pack a lunch for work.
>attempted to go to McDonald's
>picked the slowest drive thru lane so I'm stuck behind five cars that got there after me
>they forgot to give me sauce I ordered with my nuggets
>I asked for a no ice coke, but got a flat, cough-syrup tasting coke with a single ice cube that I wound up dumping out

>had to get gas for my car so decide to go to Sheetz and get lunch there while I'm at it

>order a steak quesarito
>open up the wrapper and it's gigantic
>no way they stuffed it with that much steak
>they didn't
>put rice and beans in it when I specifically said not to and that's why it looks so ridiculous

I don't know how people can stand paying this much for shitty food on the regular. Are there actually people out there who are satisfied with this shit all the time?

No. 748715

>>748711
I always take good back if something is wrong, get my money back or I ask for exactly what I want.

No. 748718

My annoying woke white (non-Jewish) coworker won't shut up about anti semitism. I don't know how to get it to her that I don't care about the issue and want her to change the subject. She also literally thinks Trump is a Neo-Nazi. I'm going to start implying that her anti-capitalism is anti-Semitic kek.

No. 748720

>>748500
That's a good idea. I'll see if I can or if I have to apply to go. There's one in my area but it's a little far.
>>748410
25mg of Active Iron, but I take it x2 a day.

No. 748726

>>748711
This all sounds so american, it's wild

No. 748728

>>748715
I would want to but unfortunately time isn't on my side in these situations when it's for a work lunch. In the case of the burrito I didn't unwrap and inspect it until I got back to the office cafeteria, and I'm way too lazy to go all the way back at that point.

No. 748730

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No. 748732

>>748730
It wasn't even a dig, I just don't know anyone here who would go to the same lenghts over some mcdonalds

No. 748741

>>748732
The Sheetz ought to have been the giveaway, smartypants.

No. 748754

>>748741
Nta but wtf is a Sheetz. I'm American and I've never heard of that in my life

No. 748765

>>748754
It's like Buc-ee's or Wawa. A mega convenience store that also makes food and often doubles as a gas station

No. 748771

>>748754
Not OP but I'm deducting from her post that it's a regional chain where one can purchase gas and go inside to order food.

No. 748780

>>748691
>>748676
Like I said it's not worth it unless you really really like him otherwise. It's literally as much work as getting them to quit smoking if not more so. I mean, if you want them to spend more time with you and you like the transitional games etc I mentioned, then it's more like these are some things that they can tear themselves away from the videogamefriends for. It's not even that they dont like spending time with you, it's more that they dont wanna say to their gamerfriends "I'm gonna go chill with my gf" cause theyll get called lame and whipped or whatever. But if they get to say "I'm gonna play pokemon with my gf" or "gf wants to go to Dave and busters" they love that cause it makes them seem cool. Its as much about identity and insecurity around their friends as it is about the game itself…now if they're autistically playing 1player games alone all day that's more like a heroin addict thing. And either way it means they're immature as shit.

No. 748813

>>748711
I swear to god fast food places have all gotten much shittier from gradual cost cutting over time and especially in the last couple years. I might just be old now ofc but I swear it's real. At this point I just get a $1 pack of mixed nuts from cvs and eat it resentfully.

No. 748818

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>>748718
So my coworker sent this text to me. I can't tell if this is a genuine or backhanded apology. Honestly I just want her to stop sperging about race.

I think I should say this:

Thanks for the apology! You do say a lot of things that make me uncomfortable but I guess you don't mean to. Hoe you can avoid doing so in the future.

No. 748822

>>748113
Anon that's incredibly dangerous. I can understand not wanting to see a doctor but you should taper off of the meds as slowly as you can, never ever quit cold turkey.

No. 748825

>>748818
What were the books or topic? Then I can better deduce the situation.

No. 748853

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My woke coworker was talking about this book, which is apparently a book about extremists and ppl like Alex Jones. I don't have a lot of love for those groups but I think it's dumb for her to label people like Jones and Trump as neo-Nazis. I don't like conspiracy theorists but I still get very annoyed at people who need to bring up how white people/conservatives are bad at every occasion like she does. (And I'm not white nor conservative) They're dumbassess who love to screech at you for making the ok sign and liking milk.

I also think she is such a hypocrite because a lot of leftists have perpetuated anti-Semitic ideas but she gives them a pass. There are also groups like a lot of Black Nationalists who spew very anti-Semitic stuff and white anti-racists give them a pass. Also she doesn't seem to understand as a leftist that a lot (but definitely) not all of these extremists are poor/alienated and that drives them to their views.

As you can tell I really dislike her but I just want to keep work chill but I can't stop losing my cool. At this point I just never want to hear about Trump again because there are so many other things to worry about.

No. 748854

>>748818
Your response sounds incredibly aggressive lol, kudos on having huge balls but I dont think that's gonna go over well if your goal is peace here…you could maybe cut them off at the knees with something like "Its really stressful for me to hear about political subjects at work because of whatever [can say your parents used to fight about politics or whatever idk] so I might have to leave the room for my own health. It's not you it's just that I cant handle that stress on top of work stress." idk though since I've never worked in an office and I dont have compunctions about bullshitting.

No. 748863

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>>748854

Anon’s draft did sound extremely aggressive but yours sounds like it was written by a 19th-century maiden who swoons if she ever has to hear words that startle her sickly heart.

No. 748864

>>748718
Just tell her that political subjects make you uncomfortable and distracted when you work. You appreciate the courtesy to not bring it up and accept the apology.

If it continues, go to HR.

No. 748868

>>748818
>Hoe, you can avoid doing so in the future!
It's not what you meant but kek

No. 748869

>>748818
I would avoid her and avoid talking about politics altogether. Be careful around her in case you have a target on your back. Stereotypical woke idiots have gotten more bold about firing or ostracizing people that don't toe the line.

>>748853
I would ignore her, but try hard to hide your dislike of it. Just react like if a coworker was showing you a book about 18th century toilets, entertain her bullshit but don't feel the need to say anything. You don't want to become the designated racist on your team because of a misunderstanding.

No. 748872

Just want to vent about my own mental health. I have been diagnosed with very mild autism since I was a kid, and usually it doesn't seem to affect my life that much. At least not in totally noticeable ways. The only time I am made aware of it to the point where I can't pretend it doesn't exist is when I feel myself slipping into hyperfixation. I'm getting that way now with a specific youtube channel. I'm trying not to hyperfixate but I can't help it, I'm so obsessed. I know it'll only last a few weeks to a few months, but for right now I just can't get enough. There is nothing outwardly wrong with bingeing an entire youtube channel and mentally sperging out about how much I admire the hosts. It just makes me feel icky because I know it's my autism causing it.

No. 748874

>>748853

I want to know what Ronson thinks about Epstein's "suicide". Maybe he can do a faux naif interview with the prison guards for his next book.

No. 748875

>>748863
lol I'm aware, like I said I dont work in an office, in my field i rarely work in the same place twice so idgaf about coming off as fragile or w/e cause I'm never seeing these people again, as long as I dont get in trouble with mgmt. It could probably be phrased in a way that hints that you're just bullshitting her. I think it's fair to fight woker-than-thou with more-stressed-than-thou if you dont care about their opinion either way, and I dont know why you would cause they seem insufferable.

No. 748882

Thanks for the feedback. Here's my new apology:

>Thanks for the apology. I think you like to bring up some interesting topics at work but it does make me uncomfortable. Hope that helps!


She's also the same coworker I complained about a few weeks ago who wants to convert to Islam

>>748869
I'm not white and I'm going to milk it for all I can. I know it doesn't always protect you but it might look bad if a white coworker and a bunch of white staff tried to gang up on me over race. My strategy is to out-woke them all. We also work in the same room so I can't avoid her. We are also roommates lmao.

>>748868
lmao my p key is broken

>>748854
I'm a sperg and really aggressive sometimes. I need to calm down but I am annoyed over how some ppl get off sniffing their own farts and expect others to kiss the ground they walk on because of it

No. 748890

>>748882
Out-woking someone never works and they will find things to cancel you for if you jilt them or they simply don't like you. No, not even if you're a POC, there's always someone more oppressed than you they can pretend to care about.

No. 748934

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I'm so tired of being scared of my ex. He wouldn't stop trying to spam me with different accounts asking me why I blocked him when I did told me he wasn't attracted to me, tried raping me in my sleep because he "saw it in a porn," told his mom i was a whore, and whenever i wanted to hang out he would find excuses to make me leave.. but when I walked away he would invite me out as friends but try sleep with me and that he was so sorry for everything, once again. Why can't he just leave me alone? I know he only stopped because he doesn't have enough emails to make more accounts and I'm scared. He works at several different grocery stores near me (switching hours) so I'm paranoid about grocery shopping and literally drive to the farthest one just so that I don't see him. The fact that he knows my address and my apartment number is scary. If he waited by the front door someone could easily let him in thinking he lives there and he could walk up. Sorry if it seems like I'm over exaggerating, he's a pornsick freak who doesn't know boundaries and had no problem trying to choke me so I'm just scared.

No. 748936

>>748741
Well okay then, I expect you to now know where I am just based on me talking about going to ärrä, nonnie

No. 748939

>>748934
>tried raping me in my sleep
>trying to choke me

Girl wtf, threaten to get a restraining order if he keeps trying to contact you. Or tell on him. I had a scrote friend that would not stop sending me emails from burner accounts until I found his sister on Twitter and literally outed him as a creep to his entire family.

No. 748946

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I'm too old to fall in love with a streamer but here we fucking are. I equal parts want to sperg out about about how cute and funny she is, but I also don't want anyone else to lay eyes on her (extremely retarded I know because she's popular). And I won't be able to handle any criticism, she's perfect even if she's a male/tranny sympathizer twitterfag. FML

No. 748948

>>748934
Anon, if he tries again I'd advise you to pull yourself up by your panties and threaten that scumbag with legal action or the police. He needs to know that you're not a bitch to mess with

No. 748961

>>748890
Hmmm that's often true. I should call myself genderqueer too for extra woke points. But i will just wait and see.

No. 748964

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I hate that I never even got to be naive and daydream about true love and fairytale romance even as a kid. I saw too many disgusting men growing up and still do, I’ve never believed in romance or even fallen in love and now I’m too old and have seen too much to do so. I’m super jealous of my friends who can still convince themselves it’s possible.
Fujoshit and shoujo is the only way I can enjoy romance as a concept because if I allow myself to take part in my own fantasies my self hatred will take over and I literally won’t be able to picture it.

No. 748995

Is anyone else the "fallback" friend for hanging out and doing shit, but when it comes to pictures and social media the same friends who fall back on you ignore you in those contexts?
I feel like my friends are constantly cloutchasing on the socials and completely ignore me in that space, but if they want someone to go do something with or show up for a birthday, then that's when they pick me because the people they cloutchase can't or won't do it.

Is it right to be annoyed and hate them for this? I feel super used and faked out. They really amped up doing this since a couple of years ago when I gained weight and stopped routinely posting in socials. Maybe they thought I would be a clout hit until I proved otherwise.

No. 748998

>>748995
I'm probably that friend. I haven't been in anyone else's photos in so long yet they've taken them with others in the same room. Guess I'm ugly.

No. 749002

>>748964
I can relate. Disillusionment sucks. But honestly I had that phase, even when I was a shoujotard kid believing in True Love, relationships were always painful and disappointing. It was all cope telling myself that love is supposed to be a difficult painful thing in which the ones toughing it out will be rewarded with happily ever after. Kinda fucked me up. I actually regret spending so much time with my head in the clouds instead of developing other parts of myself.

No. 749014

>>748995
I used to be the friend that would take photos of my friends but wasn't invited to be in them. One of my friends even called me the DUFF but I was one of the only people to show up to her birthday parties kek. I said fuck it and blocked when it started to fade into real life and she made me sleep on the couch while everyone else could sleep in her bed when she threw a big party and people actually came.

No. 749017

>>748995
If that's really what's happening; cut off and move on. Those aren't friends. Make room in your life for new connections.

No. 749020

>>749014
>>748995
Man why the fuck would you put up with this.

No. 749026

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>>748964
I wouldn't feel too jealous anon. I know you're venting but those friends who are deluding themselves are just going to get stuck in unequal, unfulfilling and likely abusive relationships because they're obsessed with the romantic dream (lie). They'll either be miserable the rest of their lives or come out of the haze in a few years regretting that they wasted their time on ungrateful scrotes. I did that, and I wish all the time that I hadn't spent over a decade of my life and youth being used by terrible men. Having had that dream and actually believing it, only to have it violently shattered several times over was pretty miserable. I still catch myself hoping now and then, that men might not be so bad, but they are. You see other women with the exact same stories everywhere and realize it's just reality, as you say. There are some good guys out there but they're such a small minority it's better not to make love a focus at all. I would've preferred to never have had those dreams in the first place so I could've avoided sacrificing a large part of my life to shitty partners. I was only left with pain and disappointment. Better to have been smart to men's tactics from the start so I could've focused on myself. If you are dealing with self hatred then I hope you'll work on finding fulfillment in other areas of your life so you can properly enjoy the world. Because even if you were to find a decent guy, no one else can convince you of your worth if you don't believe it yourself. We all deserve to feel whole on our own.

No. 749027

>>749020
I had a shit ton of insecurities and I'm probably autistic or something. Now I have friends that actually care for me but I had to work hard on myself to actually find good people and not just let anybody into my life. The girl that did that to me is alone from what I've heard around the grapevine because she did it to other people too so it's funny. Now that I'm looking back it's kind of pathetic because I let her say and do so much shit to me and I didn't say anything because I was desperate for somebody to take me in.

No. 749032

>>749020
Had so many shit friends throughout my life that I honestly don't know what's normal anymore.
Especially now since we're all adults, I feel particularly insane because it's like I know I should expect some distance and exclusion, but to what degree and do they give other friends preferential treatment? And is that okay to an extent or not okay?
Idk.

No. 749035

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>>748663
>>748780
Thanks, I do play some stuff, it's how we met (used to be a hardcore Tekken player, but grew out of it)
I’ve just changed since then and want to do different things, preferably less screen-dependent. Although they are inevitable right now because we're long distance, but we’ve met before.. We were gonna move in together but covid happened. I think it's helped me to rethink if I really want to.
In person, even though he still gets distracted with online games, its like an hour max and at least he's a sweetheart and always makes it up to me later. Plus the sex is great. Sometimes I wonder if I got reverse-catfished lol

When it comes to games his attention span tends to be bad. By the time I’ve learned about the basics of one game, he’ll move on and start obsessing over a boomer shooter with his Discord server or something. And so on.
I’m pretty consistent with a couple of games, including ESO and Stardew Valley, but he’s never in the mood for those despite having been obsessed with them for over a year.

Picrel, summary of what happened today. He's green and I'm pink. My grammar kinda sucks, not a native speaker.
I'm not even into any of those things he keeps referencing so it was one sided and annoying.
This is the same man that had enough money to help me not starve for some days (can’t work due to covid, poor household), but chose to preorder Cyberpunk instead, even though he talked shit about it. But in person he's the complete opposite.

>>748676
Holy shit yes. I'm bi and really starting to question whether being with men is worth getting the "straight treatment" (not standing out where I live)

>>748539
I have, and it worked… at first. I'm stupid and over time he realized that as long as he apologizes I keep giving him chances.

No. 749040

>>749035
anon he sounds like such a faggot. "oh boo hoo you're mean to me for calling me out for my awful behavior wahhh!!" go tell him to cry more. if you have to make a document of his awful behavior then he definitely doesn't deserve a second chance. i wish i could just say dump him but if you're in a bad situation just stay low. hope everything goes well, i'm sorry.

No. 749042

I keep seeing that clip of the girl saying "if women were made out of glass there would be way less abortions" and I can't take it. What? What does that even mean? Like, yeah I guess there would be less abortions cause the glass women would be dying from the sheer weight of carrying a child. Why did she even pick glass? If we were made out of clay would she still be saying there would be less abortions? Would pottery people support abortions? It doesn't even matter, we're not made of glass, we're humans

No. 749047

>>749035
>long distance
>game addict
>man child

What exactly do you even get out of this?

No. 749049

>>749042
My understanding of the analogy is that she's suggesting if women were made of glass, an abortion would be so physically taxing that she might crack or shatter. And then subsequent abortions would cause even more damage.

No. 749051

>>749042
Maybe she's a retard and thinks as soon as a man spunks in a woman a fully formed baby immediately appears in her abdomen and if a woman is glass you would see this miracle.

No. 749052

>>749035
Block him and don't look back. From personal experience, "nerdy" men are the worst. Unless you can keep up with their gaming addiction, it never works. They also tend to be obnoxiously competitive and ruin any fun you could have gaming with them.

No. 749061

>>749042
Shes saying we would be able to see our beautiful fetus in our cum oven and appreciate the gift that god has given us

No. 749065

>>749042
Glass woman wouldn't be carrying babies to term and birthing their watermelon heads out of grape-sized vaginal holes, either.

Stupid fucking cunt.

No. 749071

>>749042
Lmao brain damage. Hell no, glass women would sooner throw themselves down the stairs.

No. 749077

>>749042
If more women were gay there'd be less abortion too but that's the thing with making up weird hypotheticals…that's all they are. Made up wishful thinking to suit your own made up ideals.

No. 749084

>>749042
I would freak out if I suddenly woke up and was made of glass, looking at your own organs doing their jobs 24/7 must be insane, I would kill myself tbh.
Maybe that’s why humanity isn’t made of glass or something see-through.

No. 749119

>>749065
Exactly. If women were made of glass an abortion would be far safer than carrying a pregnancy to term, which would surely result in cracking (death?).

Why am I even trying to get into this weird mindset.

No. 749130

no idea what this glass woman video is but aren't they probably just mean seethrough as one anon said, not literal glass…the implication being if women could see the fetus they wouldn't abort it. Which is retarded because most abortions happen when the fetus is invisibly small or if notit's not, it looks like a weird tadpole alien chicken thing….pretty sure more people would be disgusted and want to abort it cause it looks like a writing maggot than the reverse.

No. 749133

>>749042
If women were glass absolutely nobody would fuck
What sicko has a fetish for visible innards?

No. 749137

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Not the original anon who talked about it, but I just wanted to drop the video for context. I guess she really did mean if people were transparent…

No. 749151

>>749137
Op anon here, I've only ever seen the first part and….this shit still doesn't make any sense. Even if women could see their own baby, we can't so it doesn't matter. Women are fully aware that they have babies inside them whether or not we can see them. Quite frankly, I'm glad we are not glass people so women who get abortions do not feel compelled to make a decision that could possibly mess up her and her childs life

Idk why I'm taking this so seriously, but like, it's just so stupid

No. 749154

>>749042
Would the uterus be made of glass too? We'd still have to see through that to see the baby but then it wouldn't stretch so I guess we'd just die.

Plus the uterus is under the intestines and behind the bladder so we'd have to be significantly pregnant for the baby to push the organs out of the way and make itself visible.

No. 749157

>>749137
>witnessing the life growing inside you makes it harder for a woman to kill their own child

I don't think this is correct. I'm looking this girl dead in the face and I'm still willing to throat punch her.

No. 749158

I'm meeting my new therapist tomorrow and I'm extremely nervous about it, I live in a super conservative country and I'm really hoping I can talk to her honestly about sexuality and identity issues without judgment. Just worried she'll try to throw the Bible at me when I talk about being gay.

No. 749163

>>749137
She's still a stupid retarded cunt.

Most women who could see their own uterus wouldn't even notice a difference in the first few weeks since conception. The majority of abortions happen in the first trimester before the zygote can even develop into a fetus and be visible to the naked eye, and even then it wouldn't gain noticeable size immediately until the end of the first trimester.

If women could still see through their bodies, maybe more would be shocked and horrified at how keeping a fully grown fetus in our bodies squashes our other organs. Oh, and are we still see-through during childbirth? So we get to see the part where the baby pushes our bones apart and can crack our tailbones, give us perineal tears so our vagina and asshole meet, and how the baby shits itself with meconium prior to birth? All those fun tidbits are gonna endear childbirth to everyone, hm.

I hate this bitch.

No. 749165

>>749133
>>749137
The state of tradthots. Being able to see my guts would be kinda cool. But watching a fucking growth slowly turning in a xenomorph pushing all my organs out of place and destroying my spine and bones would make me want to abort it even if I got pregnant on purpose. Speaking like a bitch who's never seen the inside of a pregnant body.

No. 749169

File: 1614294680541.gif (1.78 MB, 500x625, 1614231009185.gif)

i think the guy at the hospital's gift shop across the street thought i was homeless or something. it's around 5pm, i walked over (because once again: this place is only a five minute walk away) to pick up some snacks and he was all "you're loading up on treats huh?" and i was like, "yeah". then he asked if i wanted my receipt and i retardedly said "yes, please" like i have to be overly polite to moids. then he gave me my bag and i left. i'm so fucking embarrassed

No. 749181

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>>749157
>>749137
>witnessing the life growing inside you makes it harder for a woman to kill their own child

My country's government is convinced of this, there are fetuses on billboards EVERYWHERE in the ENTIRE COUNTRY. No matter where you go, you have countless of these. I'm fully aware how babies look like and it's exactly what I don't want to have inside of me, so thanks for a reminder to do an abortion ASAP if necessary.

No. 749188

>>749181
Do people who adopt this technique think women have never seen a baby?

And genuinely not trying to bait but babies are only recognisable to people who have been around a specific baby a lot. They all have the same squished little fudge face until they grow into their features and start to look distinguishable from other children. I think if I was gonna get an abortion, seeing the millionth picture of a baby that I don't know from adam would make no difference.

Like that baby on the left? Could be an aborted fetus. Could be Pixyteri. Could be Adam Driver. Nobody fucking knows.

No. 749189

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I don't think I actually have a personality
I'm not sure that I'm a real person

No. 749190

>>749169
What about this interaction was strange to you?

No. 749193

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>>749042
If the point was "you could see the baby uwu" then dude that would do the exact opposite for me. If I was having an unwanted pregnancy and could actually SEE this thing floating around in my uterus, I would just freak out more and want it out faster

No. 749198

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No. 749201

>>749188
>babies are only recognisable to people who have been around a specific baby a lot.
This, and only after growing up a tiny bit, fresh out of womb they mostly look the same to everyone really. And in the womb? Forget it. I have no idea why people would care about these identical few weeks/months old fetuses more than fully developed women forced to carry them.

No. 749203

>>749201
nta and no1cur, but I worked at a preschool for years and the only kids I could remember the names of were the black ones because there was only four of them and they all had different hair styles
babies look larval for years after being born imo

No. 749209

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>>749193
Here's a fun game: Human or dolphin?

No. 749213

>>749188
>And genuinely not trying to bait but babies are only recognisable to people who have been around a specific baby a lot.

Also helps to be trauma-bonded to it by having birthed it, and then have primordial hormonal and chemical attachments to it.

No. 749218

>>749181
I hope your country gets out of the medieval age soon

No. 749220

>>749213
yo but what about those cases where like, nurses accidentally swap babies in the nursery, and no one notices until the baby gets brown hair or something
I dunno if I even buy instinct thing, you know

No. 749225

>>749218
I had to look it up to be sure. Btw dolphin embryo is cuter than human

>>749209
So do I and majority of women here…

No. 749226

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No. 749227

>>749220
Oh yeah I agree, I guess that was more for the new moms who've had baby at home for a few weeks and insist theirs is special. It's really just their emotional attachment and hormones dictating a lot of their 'but this baby is different!' rationale.

No. 749247

I wish some anons would actually have reading comprehension, they always focus on the dumbest of shit when someone makes a post.

No. 749260

>>749226
One actually needs preservation

No. 749263

>>749247
If
>nasolabial folds
gets a banner then
>reading comprehension
needs a banner too

No. 749273

Holy fuck the spam calls are insane today. All of a sudden we're getting calls every 15 minutes to my home phone (which is a landline that my parents insist on keeping for some fucking reason), all from spoofed numbers where the number is exactly the same except for the last 4 digits. They're all the same spam call too UGHH

No. 749277

>>749264
Do you have BPD or what. You're in a pit of self loathing while putting him on a mile high pedestal there. IME, it never does anything to do the "sorry it's all my fault I'm such a bad person" routine, it usually just makes the other person even more uncomfortable at best, at worst they'll use it against you. You should focus on yourself for a bit.

No. 749278

>>749264
I understand your need to apologize when you see all of these faults in yourself, you went on for so long about how amazing he is and how bad you are, but please go back and read the very beginning of your post to yourself again.
You've said that he made you insecure comparing you to other women and was withdrawing. That would make most of the people feel like they're too needy when actually they have just regular intimacy needs that are not met, and the insecurity would push you to make up negative scenarios in your head.
While you definitely have your own issues you'll probably need to work out at some point, he's not some amazing person that did no wrong to you. If you really need to apologize for full closure, then go on, but think about it again, will you not regret it later, realizing he was making your pre-existing issues worse? Is it really that necessary?
in the end you'll do what you feel like, there's no real definitely good or definitely bad choice there, but you really should look into therapy to start living normal, healthy life one day, just for yourself, not anyone else.

No. 749280

>>749273
donotcall.gov

doesn't get rid of all of them but after about a month they will drastically decrease

No. 749304

I had this vague memory of enjoying a particular mussel dish from a chinese buffet when I was a kid. Turns out they just use a particular type of mussel in a black bean sauce.
I purchased the mussels and recreated the recipe with proper ingredients. It tastes exactly like how I remember. This fucking rocks. I'm so happy.

No. 749322

>>749304
Wholesome, I love it

No. 749325

>>749304
that's awesome anon, i love anything with black bean sauce

No. 749355

The topic of the Middle East and feminism came up in my class and people were critiquing western feminists for trying to impose their ideals onto middle eastern women (ie the hijab issue)- but then they started bringing up terfs as an example of white/western feminism… like ok, what? Is transgenderism/gender ideology not also a western invention? These traditional middle eastern/Islamic societies have very strict gender roles, which is why they make women wear hijabs in the first place. Why would the women there care about transgenders. God I’m so annoyed and obv I couldn’t say anything because I’d be ostracized. I hope this doesn’t violate the rules, I’m more so venting about my dumb classmates rather than troons

No. 749356

I thought Depop would be the way to go with selling my clothes but it feels borderline impossible, maybe I’m using the tagging system wrong or something ? I’m lucky if any of my pieces get 1 like, which is insane to me. I’ve only sold one thing over the past couple weeks of posting stuff, and my clothes are cheap and photographed nicely.
It’s not as if the things I’m selling are that undesirable because I post the clothes for sale at the same time on eBay and I’ve sold like 6 things in that time for the same price. I’m just bitter because I thought depop was mainly people my age and my clothes would sell super fast…
Do I have to exclusively post ugly charity shop jumpers for £50 to get any interest?
If anyone has depop tips I would love them, should I put a million unrelated tags to boost my clothes or what lol?

No. 749359

>>749356
>Do I have to exclusively post ugly charity shop jumpers for £50 to get any interest?
kek honestly yeah you might. if you sell things more easily on ebay it may be that your items simply appeal to a different audience than depop users

No. 749396

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My nexplanon implant is making me break out so bad, I haven't got my period in 45+ days, and I feel like I'm going crazy. I got it because my boyfriend refused to use condoms extremely abusive relationship and I couldn't leave because of covid until now so I had to get it because the pill made my skin break out when I was younger and I didn't want the IUD. I feel idiotic now because I honestly don't ever want to have sex with men again but I'm stuck with this rod in my arm. I can't go back and be like "haha jk take it out" because I went through SO much with the hell of the healing process already and I'm already here but I just want everything to be normal again wtf. skincarefags i need you more than ever

No. 749403

Druggie anons ITT please reassure me that my friend is safe doing shrooms and acid. I literally have no qualms about his marijuana usage. Yet every time he tells me about how much fun he had tripping on acid, my heart breaks a little. No idea why, maybe it just worries me. EIther way I wanna slowly convince him to stop using them.

No. 749404

>>749403
yeah they're fine
nothing wrong with quitting, of course

No. 749409

>>749403
anon don't worry, acid and shrooms are as safe as weed if they aren't laced with anything. as long as he didn't try to jump out of a window or anything he's fine, but honestly that's extremely rare and most people doing that probably are disposed to schizophrenia. it's not really bad unless he's doing it like 3 times a month because hppd is real or trying to drive while under the influence.

t. psychedelicfag

No. 749414

I’m extremely lonely and it’s making me do desperate things.

No. 749416

I had a really, really bad night at work where basically due to me we all got out 30 minutes later than we should've, and you could tell everyone was really annoyed at me, and I just came home to find out my boyfriend has to call the doctor tomorrow because it seems like he may be having major heart problems (he had a heart attack once, years ago, and was declared dead for a couple seconds so his heart is already weak,) and that my pet rabbit can barely walk because the apparent arthritis she's had is worsened to the point where her butt is swollen and red and awful because she can't move properly when she uses her litter box.

It's been a while since I've sobbed this hard and felt this scared.

No. 749420

>>749416
Hey anon, here to tell you everything will be better. That's a promise.

Every coworker, at some point, has done some stupid shit that causes the whole team to be affected. Ask any one of your team members this. Your boyfriend will be okay. We don't know this for sure but just believe that he will. As for your bunny, I know that it hurts and it's sad. I'm sure you did your best to take care of her. Is there medication she can take?

No. 749427

it's so weird that the people who are the most vocal about me getting exercise and losing weight exert the most effort to feed me junk. and despite my medical condition that help me gain weight faster, they never really put even an ounce of dedication to know more about it, they think i'm like this because i'm a pig or the likes.

well, i'm numb to their criticisms anyways, i faced more horrible insults and opinions from them when i was a kid, from my skin tone, intelligence and more.

being seen and told that i'm a "whale". which i'm not, is nothing.

No. 749428

File: 1614318334167.gif (1.02 MB, 640x420, enditall.gif)

A woman just started arguing with me (on social media) about acidity. After I explained to her how acids work, she called me uneducated and then posted, "Source?"

I am literally a chemist.

No. 749430

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>>749428
Instances like that always make me laugh. Then their next excuse is "well, does that really make you an expert?" Anyway, that reminds me of this interaction kek.

No. 749431

>>749430
fucking kek. I let her know I was a chemist and she seems to have disappeared. Perhaps this means victory. I hope she understands what pKa means now so she make the transition from being a confident retard to an unconfident retard.

No. 749444

>>749359
>>749356
Speaking as someone who sells ugly jumpers etc, depop just doesn't have many users. People basically push traffic to their depop stores via their insta/twit and then people follow the depop stores of people they follow elsewhere. Also being a "depop seller" is cool so theres way too many sellers vs buyers.

Use Ebay for anything with a reasonably good brand people might search for, or etsy for anything plausibly vintage. Aside from that, I also know some old ladies who sell a lot of stuff they get from thrift stores locally on facebook marketplace, so that could work for more basic stuff that doesn't have so much value from brand, as well as particularly for athleisure type clothes and sportswear (ie normie garb). Thats if you have fb anyway, I've never done it cause i dont want to meet the local people where i live at all (midwest, scary ass crackers here) but you'd save the shipping I guess. Poshmark also works for that sorta stuff but I dont think they have that in the uk.

Cant help you with depop tags much but on Ebay, tag with brand and size and color but dont bother with anything else, keep titles short, readable and sane and your listings will look much better than 95% of others since so many are allcaps word salad. As far as depop, all I can say is that counterintuitively, the same item priced higher can sell faster because people are looking for "a nice dress" and that means they want to buy a dress worth $50, $70 or whatever, and since they're just looking for dresses generally, they dont know that the dress you put up for $20 is actually worth $100, they think it's worth $20, and they dont want to buy "a cheap $20 dress^. Try just doubling your depop prices and see what happens, you might be surprised. In comparison, on Ebay, people are looking for a specific brand usually, and they have an idea of what that brand costs and are more likely to know what's a good deal on a nice dress vs what's a cheap dress. And dont worry about likes/favorites much, people who go on depop and like things are mostly not the same people who go on depop and buy things (what I mean tbh is likers ain't got no money. kids etc).

Biggest tip of all is free shipping on everything. Just estimate your shipping and add it to your price. Trust me on this one…people would much rather pay $50 for a $50 dress with free shipping, than buy a $40 dress and pay $50 after shipping. With free ship people feel like they're getting more value cause the item is "worth $50" if you know what I mean.

Please do ask any other questions if you have them and I'll answer them at some point tomorrow probably.

No. 749459

I'm 25 and fiancé is 26. We've been together for 6 years and we've never wanted kids. Last year I went for my first pap smear and gynaecological checkup (late I know) and said gynae mentioned I seem fertile and my eggs look good.

A month later and fucking boom, the only thing I think about is babies. I dream babies or birth nearly every night, kids have become cute instead of annoying and I can't stop thinking about being pregnant. Its like she subconsciously set off my biological clock. Its especially bad when I'm ovulating, and I'm disappointed when I get my period even though we're not trying.

I spoke to my bf about it and luckily he's been thinking about kids too, but he wants to wait like 3 years. I know that's rational because I'm not working right now, I'm doing a Masters and getting a small stipend and we aren't earning a shit load of money. Also we live on the other side of the country from family and we don't have that support. But my brain and ovaries don't care, I WANT BABY. It's fucking ridiculous and I hate it.

I know you don't shrivel up and become barren at 30, but damn I feel like this is a good age to have your first. Plus somehow I think having kids when working will be more difficult than when studying, although I'll probably pursue a PhD instead of going back into the workforce after I've graduated. Either way I'm sick of baby fever. And somehow I feel it's probably going to get worse.

No. 749493

I can't focus, I can't do anything.
I am way too anxious and I can't do anything.
Whenever I start working on something, I get the urge to give up.
I suck, it's terrible, I used to do at least something.
I don't know what's wrong other than the intense amount of failures that have lead me up to this point, it sucks to fail, my soul is worn and destroyed.
I never used to be one to give up, have my spirits really fainted?
Is this it? I hope I'm just temporarily depressed.
I can't live like this.

Feels good to let it out!

No. 749494

>>749416
Keep it strong in there, stay strong for those around you!
Don't give up on a failure, be it small or big!
Cling your fist and try your best!

No. 749510

"Everyone find a partner!"

That is the worst sentence a teacher could say in class and I still feel awful about all of the times I couldn't find a partner because everyone was always already paired up or wasn't included in a group and was left out.

No. 749511

>>749459
What changed your bfs stance on kids?

No. 749513

>>749510
"Can we work alone?" and "Excuse me. I don't have a partner" never got easier to say either. I feel you, anon.

No. 749544

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What do I do with my life?

Love being a mom to my two kids. But I’m spread thin.

My kids dad is a stay at home NEET who constantly cheats behind my back, can’t afford daycare so I keep letting him live with us bc he good dad to the kids but it fr kills me.

I work long stupid hours overnight at a job that I’m starting to hate. I have zero energy or time for my hobbies like baking or painting.

I’m overwhelmed with guilt that I’m tired with my kids and that I’m not spending enough time with them. I have no family near by to help.

I’m always helping out friends who end up taking advantage of my kindness. I’m the subject of gossip constantly at work even tho literally talk to nobody.

I struggle with ADD/Bipolar disorder and I can’t focus on anything and even though I am working towards longtime goals it feels as though it’s futile.

I want to kill myself so bad but I can’t until I have a nest egg for my children so they aren’t destitute.

Also struggling with the fact that I’m secretly a lesbian but even if I wanted to date again no woman would want someone with kids who has their ex living with them.

I feel like I’m going to be stuck in this cage for the next ten years as my children are literally babies. Feels bad.

No. 749552

>>749544
I don’t mean to offend when I say this. when a young person with no kids vents on here that they want to improve their life I’ll tell them to not post on image boards. You have 2 kids, you have a lot less time than others, so start with not posting on imageboards. Since they’re not in daycare perhaps paint with them, and bake with them. Try to multitask.

Instead of the time that you waste on imageboards, make them for your hobby’s.

And get meds for the adhd, and a better job that requires less hours. And perhaps a girlfriend.

No. 749554

>>749552
I second this. Posting on imageboards as a mom isn’t an issue if your kids are at school or visiting their father/staying the night somewhere and you have time to waste but it seems really, really sad to spend time on imageboards for any other reason as a parent.

No. 749566

>>749554
I’m literally at work lol. Desk night job. Why so judgey about parents using image boards? I don’t use my phone when I’m home.

No. 749575

>>749544
I hate that thing where men can constantly cheat on the kids mom, rarely contribute financially and can stress the other parent out like this.. but still be labelled as 'a good dad to the kids'. He's not. The kids won't stay unaware forever and that shit can greatly affect their own relationship dynamics as adults. Cheating dads are not good fathers.

Not having a go at you personally, I just see that being said alot and it bugs me that we feed into their delusion of somehow still being good men. Treating the mom like shit will always heavily bleed into the kids lives too. No matter how much moms try to protect them from the harsh facts of who dad really is.

I know alot of people living decent lives now with 'blended families' their first baby dad was useless but with time they found someone new and created a well working family unit. Hopefully you can find that someday

No. 749579

>>749566
>desk night job
Oh wait it’s the OP
You haven’t even replied to my post/the first reply yet were quick to defend yourself about le free time. It’s classic, I used to do that too when I used to post a lot on image board. Get a different job and either communicate with that guy or get a new girlfriend. And if you slack off on your desk job do stuff that have anything to do with your hobby’s, like digital painting. Maybe turn your hobby’s into a side hustle too? Or work from home if you rather want to shitpost. COVID-19 is a blessing for that.

And maybe move near family (if if that’s an option) so they can sometimes watch for the kids/interact with their family. Perhaps since they’re stuck and isolated with two broken parents that decided to have kids maybe you should introduce them to other kids so their parents can look out for them sometimes as well? Do a favor back of course.

Do it before your kids hate you.

No. 749581

>>749575
This. Letting your husband cheat on you but stay because he's there sets a horrible standard for your kids to follow. You'll probably find less people gossiping about you too. You can leave your husband and he's still obligated to be a father, wouldn't his family still help with the kids?

No. 749594

>>749544
I don’t want to dogpile you because I know it sucks to feel trapped but…you’re never trapped. Kick the dude out, move closer to family, get a job where you can work normal human hours so you can see your kids and work on your hobbies. I know it can be paralyzing to be stuck in a bad situation, but you are able to get yourself out of it.

No. 749601

>>749554
By that logic she shouldn't use social media or the internet at all. It's so dumb, do you know how many old people are on the internet? I've seen 50 year olds even.

No. 749606

>>749579
He cheats on her, what is there to "communicate" aside from telling him to gtfo? What awful, reddit-tier advice. You must be male.

No. 749615

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I wonder if there's a place where the disproportion between levels of attractiveness of women and men is as big as in slavic countries. Holy shit, what a nightmare. I won't even mention their fucked up approach to religion and politics. Honestly I wish I had a western bf but western men fetishize us and we are perceived as "easy" wife material because we're "poor and not ruined by feminism" except local men claim we're already "ruined by western feminism" and they call us whores who sell themselves to arabs and western men (even though the wast majority of local women date local men only). I think I will never date anyone, it seems too stressful. Local scrotes are ugly and mean but I wouldn't know which outsiders are to be trusted either

No. 749619

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I'm panicking so badly. I have NO IDEA what to do with my life or how to save my ass right now. Like, none. At all.

I have no education except high school and am socially awkward, live in the middle of nowhere and am mentally ill.

I thought I'd try to learn how to code, I love it and think it's fun but with my current job I really can't put in like 3+ hours into studying and honestly I have NO IDEA what to specialize in. It all sounds the same and and every job description, even for the same job, is different.

On top of that I have a shit homelife, a parent that's a womanchild and a brother that's a selfish pos on top of being a manchild + his dog that I have to take care of since he's too aggressive to be rehomed or put in a shelter because they'd put him down.

Am too poor to afford to study and to quit my job. I feel like I should know the answer and what to do but I just don't see it.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't fucking know

No. 749620

>>749615
I think it's almost everywhere like this but yea, in our countries it seems to be painfully obvious.

No. 749621

>>749615
В такие моменты жаль, что я не лесбуха.

No. 749623

>>749619
You're looking into a right direction anon! 3h of learning to code daily should be enough to land you a paid internship after half a year / a year max, and it's only gonna get better from there. Hope some more coding aware anons could help you with what to focus on as a beginner.

No. 749628

>>749615
Can't you date westerners for money and green card though, I always thought that Russian and Ukrainian girls treat west men like an entrance to US/Europe. Those men are stupid enough to believe that a girl that barely speaks English loves them for their soul or they just ignore the red flags to get a 'trad slav waifu' and in the end get scammed

No. 749630

>>749628
It's such a humiliating concept for any east european woman that knows her value though.

No. 749635

I just need someone to talk to. One little thing and everything comes pouring down on me. Again and again, I still haven't managed to break this pattern. The more it happens, the less I know what to do. I hate feeling so helpless and clouded, it's so visceral.

No. 749638

>>749619
Most coders will tell you- it’s more important to understand code and how it interacts than to memorize it all. However much Reddit wants to sperg it is, it isn’t a language and your brain doesn’t treat it as one. Of course you need some knowledge memorized to get your foot in the door, but it’s much better to learn the logic and problem solving behind it than just lines and lines of code. Also IMO python is the most useful to learn

No. 749656

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I feel like I am falling from the sky at a million miles per second only to impact the ground sooner or later. My boyfriend is great, we have similar world views, hobbies, we can talk about a lot of stuff, our fights are not toxic. But still, I managed to find a way to ruin it.
Everything in the last year crumbled down I had lost long term friends, apartment, and my animals now I am in my parent's basement, in school, and sit in my room all day to either game or cry. My boyfriend doesn't know I cry daily for the last few months. He already feels bad he can't help me and make me feel better.

How do I even bring up my self worth? How do I stop being overly emotional or ruining this one good thing I have going for me?

someone shoot me now please before I hit the ground

No. 749659

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i've just talked to my grandmother for 18 fucking minutes it was insane. the only things she talks about are my dad, what he did that day, etc, and how useless my mother is. she's old, like 85, so she will probably die soon and that's what's keeping me from cutting contact. but it's fucking insane. when i try to tell her anything, like make a suggestion to stop trying to tell me how to live my life, she gets upset and tells me she's old and i must respect her. aah

also i hate my binge eating disorder. i know not one ed is better than any other but sometimes i wish i was anorexic lol

No. 749661

>>749628
Not all women have to date or marry certain men in order to get ahead in life… there are plenty of ways to migrate to whatever country you want to as long as you can prove you're a skilled worker. Plenty of countries that provide academic scholarships often covering both the uni fees and the living expenses if you want to study abroad. Many ways to stay in those countries permanently too after you get your degree. And so on and so on. I could go on. Also, not every East European woman is even interested in going abroad and marrying a foreigner. In those cases, you pretty much have as much luck finding a decent guy as you would winning the lottery.

No. 749669

Found out my dad is having an affair cheating on my low functioning mentally ill mother. They've been together since they had me, around 20 years, despite my mother's strong character and excessive aggression. I remember she would kick him out of the house and have irrational aggressive bursts out of jealousy. She had a psychotic attack around 5 years ago and this changed her greatly, she has severe agoraphobia, doesnt shower nor brushes her hair unless we tell her to, and also has become a very passive woman, she doesn't really care about anything but my well being and only want my company, the meds she takes only help her sleeping and her anxiety, but she has become a whole different person.
I want to hate my dad for cheating on my mom but also, I don't know if this outweights the good things because he also takes care of her and he pays for her meds and helps me pay our rent.
I am afraid of him leaving us though, but thats mostly my irrational fear. He promised he will support me while I'm in college and I trust him.

No. 749673

>>749669
Cheating is one thing but cheating on someone with jealousy issues is on another level. Think about that.

No. 749674

>>749544
Fuck. Kill all men

No. 749677

I try to deny it but every now and then I realize how I’m not happy around my friends at all. I stayed with them cause my other friends had left, and I don’t notice how exhausting it is to be with them until I talk to my old friends. They were fun, outgoing “normies” who weren’t so stuck in their internet bubble and actually listened and cared for you somewhat. All these friends rn seem like to have built their personality around Twitter and tiktok, even though they’re at an age where they should leave that shit behind. They’re so judgmental of everything and let the internet dictate what’s great and problematic. Get a fucking personality. This obsession with individuality is so ironic cause they all end up looking and speaking the same.

No. 749683

>>749669
I'd give a bit more slack in this kind of situation. Yeah it's super shitty that he's cheating on her, but he probably couldn't bring up separation without your mom going off the deep end again and who knows how badly.
It sounds like he does care about you guys since he's still supporting you both, but clearly he's not getting his needs met which even I can't blame him for. I don't even know if I'd have romantic or sexual feelings for a jealous scrote who didn't hygiene unless I told him to, then wait on him hand and foot. But I would feel obligation towards my child and marriage of 20 years.

Can you have a talk with him? Like tell him what you've seen and see if he admits to it. Be honest about your fears and how terrified it makes you.

No. 749684

File: 1614353856144.png (1.52 MB, 1498x830, 1607018831433.png)

>live 9 years completely fine without having any friends, never truly feel lonely
>have one(1) dream about a perfect day hanging out with "old friends" after a school reuninion where everything feels perfectly right, who mostly don't even exist in the real world and were partly characters of stories I'm reading, completely made up and one person I actually knew irl but only was semi-close with
>wake up
>suddenly start desperately craving friends for days

No. 749686

I'm so fucking disappointed and angry I can't think of anything else. I've been looking for a place to live for 4 years now because I really want to live independently but my area is incredibly difficult to find a place to rent in. So I finally got lucky and got an offer directly from a vague acquaintance who is a landlord. I was overjoyed, started packing up my shit and shopping for furniture since the deal was pretty much settled aside from signing the paperwork.
So what do you know, the absolute scrote asshole out of nowhere decides to call my mother a whore before completely ghosting me. Seriously everything was fine and we only talked about practical shit concerning the apartment before, and now this. I was so fucking happy about finally finding a place and now I just want to lie in bed and wallow in self pity. What the fuck.

No. 749693

>befriend good looking male
>get a crush on him
Every single time. I'm taken ffs

No. 749706

>>749638
Seconding this, it doesn't matter at all what language you learn to code in, they all work quite similarly just differently organized. Python is by far the easiest and most clear language that's actually used, so start with that. I took an intro CS course in college (my university has shall we say a very good CS department) and it was python, my partner's dad is a CS professor and uses python exclusively.

I feel the need to be this emphatic because reddiitards will seize any opportunity to be like "oh PYTHON? It's so INEFFICIENT" when who fuckong cares about a couple seconds of processing time or whatever the fuck. It's so so much more clear and straightforward than any other common language it's not even close.

I was talking to a friend of mine on the subway one time about learning python and this random fuckin junior MBA lookon dude butts in with "oh PYTHON? you should learn Java, everyone uses java in ""the industry""." My professor worked for Microsoft from 1990 to 2005 and is probably a fuckin hundred millionaire, and he described java as ^retarded crackhead spaghetti" (real quote). Redditors and autismo programmerlords have zero, I repeat zero, fuckong clue.

Look at it this way: a skilled carpenter can make a chair out of any wood with any tools available. Someone who gets trained in using the latest hitech bandsaw machine can only make planks no matter how "skilled" they are. If you understand the concepts and how to solve problems computationally in a general sense, you can learn any language easily for any specific use.

Jobs "say" they have language experience requirements, and they do for people who autistically "learn the language" but dont actually understand anything about CS. If you actually know how to program, you can walk in and be like "oh java/perl/whatever? Yeah shouldn't be any trouble, I'll brush up" and it's fine. My partners dad literally grew up in a place without computers and learned CS by writing out assembly code (old timey GOTO 8 ADD 7 code) on paper and following the code himself to make sure the results were right.

Disregard any "code training" programs and take CS courses at a local college, if you can. It's like med tech school vs medical school (if all the other med techs were retarded moids) in the sense that narrow "coders" have little prospect for career advancement and get fucked if their language falls put of use, while CS-competent programmers can move between languages, companies and fields easily. And there are so so few people broadly competent in CS that it's incredibly easy to move into management since you're one of the few people who can translate what the company wants done into simple subproblems for the code monkeys to solve and optimize. It's still a very maledominated field so you have to build up an absolute wall of confident immunity from programmer pieces of shit nebbing about language. Learn python, learn CS, then picking up languages and coding is easy, even trivial. The hard part is phrasing problems computationally, not the coding. You will leave autismo coders in the dust. You will bury them.

No. 749723

I'm in a lower level class and the prof wants us to write a really short research paper that offers a new perspective in response to a really specific question. It's hard because I'm realizing that there's not a lot of available research on the case study I've chosen, what I have found isn't entirely relevant to the specifications the prof outlined, and the only hypothesis that could work for this assignment has (fucking obviously) already been written about by one researcher. It's too late to change course on my case study so I might have to accept that I'm just going to write a redundant paper. I don't know what the prof is expecting, most of the people in this class are in their first or second year of school, I doubt they're going to add something new to the body of literature we're looking at.

No. 749727

>>749686
anon i feel for you, moving out is really fucking hard and it sucks that you were led on about something like that :( maybe your vague acquaintance was doing this to try and get close to you but when he realized it was a no-go he pulled this stunt? idk, i know looking for explanations is futile tho.

i hope you can move out soon!!! best wishes to you

No. 749729

WHAT THE FUCK ARE REDDITORS DOING HERE

No. 749748

>>749729
Lmao deadass, they in every thread. Walls of text and an annoying accent.

No. 749755

>>749748
>an annoying accent.
…anon?

No. 749756

>>749747
You do seem annoying though

No. 749762

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I fucking hate when I stop working and being productive for one day because then it means I have a hard time getting back into the groove of things AAGGGGHGHHHA

No. 749763

>>749755
I dunno what other word to use. Distinct style of speech like like how twitterfags stand out.

No. 749765

File: 1614359917394.jpeg (35.39 KB, 552x471, 1614266967743.jpeg)

>>749729
I hate that typing style, specifically when there's no punctuation. It reads so fucking strange. Just use a period or comma instead of starting a new paragraph for every sentence

No. 749766

>>749747
>GAD
I had this and I worked customer service and was in grad school. Just get something part time so he can't say anything anymore, having your own money does wonders for anxiety anyway.

No. 749768

>>749763
You have the twitterfag accent though

No. 749769

>>749763
Oh I see what you mean lmao. I've just never seen accent used that way so I was confused

No. 749770

>>749747
There are millions of people with more than GAD and they still have jobs and function normally. Lazy bitch.

No. 749773

>>749747
>I have a legitimate diagnosis of GAD
People with GAD can generally work some sort of job. It's a pretty common diagnosis.

I work with it. I don't get out much apart from work but I keep a job down and have coworkers who share the same diagnosis. Don't choose the neet life or you'll only regress and get stuck there with this as a handy excuse.

No. 749777

>>749768
Okrrr hunty

No. 749779

>>749706
do you have any tips for studying programming? i took a few courses that used c++ but i'm still at toy program level (and taking a class on circuits at the moment, so not a lot of programming)

No. 749783

>>749706
also is assembly code deathly important to gaining this "higher understanding" you're talking about? because i literally struggled to get a low, low b in that class (and exited knowing very little)

No. 749788


No. 749794

>>749773

I'm actually trying to find meds and therapy that work for me because of how bad my anxiety attacks get and the frequency at which I have them is shitty and really fucking inconvient. I didn't say I didn't want to work but I guess I worded that poorly. I want to get a bit of a hold on my mental state because it feels like it's slipping.

No. 749798

I hate my annoying white coworker/roommate and will probably rant about her for the rest of the year

>When first meeting me, she asked me why I didn't have a Southern accent (I am from the South, but I'm Asian and grew up in an area where most didn't have one)

>Obnoxious Marxist who is obsessed with anti-capitalism and idpol
>Thinks that math education is useless, but literally thought that more black people were shot by the police than whites (not the relative amount but the total amount)
>Hates religious people but has thought about converting to Islam
>Constantly drunk after work
>Accused her then-roommate from Colombia for not being brown enough to experience oppression but then accused him of being a bad person when he decided to move out
>Only hangs out with white men, including her 40-year-old trucker ex-boyfriend
>Got upset at me when I told her I wouldn't tell her the game I was playing because I said she wouldn't know what it was
>Thinks most people are "insufferable"

I don't think any of these things are so bad on their own but all of these traits together are too much.

No. 749827

>>749798
Roommate-chan!

No. 749844

I'm kind of angry and disappointed at myself for letting so many losers and assholes fuck/date me. The worst part is they probably think I was super in love with then based on my outbursts when in reality I was just subconsciously repulsed that I had 0 self respect.

No. 749849

>>749844
Or you could have just been mad that the sorry ingrates had no gratitude that you gave them the time of day, only to throw it back in your face for the chance to do the rejecting knowing they'd have so few opportunities to actually pull those power moves.

That's just me, anyway. I hate that they felt they had power over me.

No. 749872

>>749798
>Got upset at me when I told her I wouldn't tell her the game I was playing because I said she wouldn't know what it was
Now I'm really curious what it was because it must be incredibly special

No. 749876

>>749872
I'm playing SMT Strange Journey. I just didn't feel like saying it because it's a rather niche game, the name is long, and I feel like it would only invite weird looks or an awkward "Oh" as a response. My roommate passive aggressively told me "I don't want to know anymore" after I said it.

>>749827
Nah, not really. I'm the same anon as >>748853 >>748718

I live with her but she rarely spends time outside of her room. (Though she did use the kitchen last night to make some vomit-looking waste of chicken and that was really unpleasant) My issues are mostly with her at work because she makes me want to sperg out but I don't want to be fired/cancelled.

No. 749881

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I'm trying to stop masturbating for atleast a couple of months, but I'm so fucking horny it's distracting. I tried to read fanfic to quench my thirst so I can fucking work but it just made it worse. I'm not even a week into my "celibacy" or whatever this would be called. Lord give me the strenech

No. 749882

>>749881
>*stregnth
God how did I fuck that word up

No. 749883

What's that with stranger men whispering stuff at me? I went for groceries and counted the prices again to make sure I've got enough money with me, so I stood in place. A man comes up, leans to me, tells me "I'm prettier than you". I was confused and looked at him, he said "You heard me just right" and goes away. First of all… no bitch u ugly. And second…… what??????????? Why would a middle-aged man even care whether he's pretty??? And prettier than someone of the opposite sex half his age at that???? This isn't the first time it happened either, some weeks ago when I went for groceries too, and packed stuff into my bag, some old man just looked at me and said "I bet you can't even cook" unprompted. I grew up in a traditional household and probably cooked more meals last month than you in your entire lifetime you old fuck, leave me alone what's your problem wtf

No. 749885

>>749883
Lol are you autistic? He was flirting with you in a sarcastic way.

No. 749886

>>749883
He's trying to neg you.
Men are disgusting.

No. 749891

>>749885
Nta, but even if he was flirting, that was still weird as fuck and he shouldn't have invaded her personal space like that (In a fucking pandemic), and why would he just walk away like that after "flirting"? That's not how men flirt. Weird that you're trying to call op "autistic" over a strange old man.

No. 749892

>>749885
>He was flirting with you
that'some weird-ass flirting

No. 749895

>>749891
That is how some men flirt. They try to neg you to get you to chase them and decrease your self esteem.

No. 749899

>>749881
Masturbation is not inherently bad. Why are you trying to stop it?

No. 749900

>>749883
Sounds like something a jealous troon would do

No. 749904


No. 749905

>>749904
She's operating on coomer brain. Cut her some slack, anon!

No. 749908

>>749899
I didn't say it was? I want to stop masturbating because of productivity, I feel like my coochie has become less sensitive, I want to break masturbating "habits" to improve my experience, and because I want to stop watching porn. I don't wanna be too detailed about my issues but that's the main gist of it I guess. I hope when I eventually come back to it I can explore my sexuality in better ways and try new things, if that make sense. I just need to turn my horny button off right now.
>>749904
Anon?

No. 749910

>>749883
If both happened while buying groceries it could be that mid-covid men are desperate for any avenue to talk to women… the grocery store is now where you get this shit. Oh joy

The last time I was chatted up, the guy weirdly 'negged' on a woman who had passed by us. I'm guessing he did it because she was heavily made up and I'm the opposite. Like I should be flattered he hates her look because that builds me up?? I looked at him like I didn't know what he was talking about. I'm not trashing some strange woman with you. I don't care how opposite our looks are. Let her walk down the street and keep your shitty thoughts to yourself. Charming, made me wonder if PUA are teaching that now

No. 749923

>>749908
Oh I completely understand you! I'm in the same position. I've stopped watching porn because masturbating too much is ruining my life and also because I saw something horrible unwillingly while searching for porn. I recommend this method
https://easypeasymethod.org/index.html

>>749899
Yeah, it's not inherently bad in healthy doses and exploring your body is good, but at some point masturbation can become a serious addiction alongside porn usage

No. 749940

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I want to buzzcut my hair so baad. Half my hair is sunbleacheched to shit which makes it hard to brush unless I put a bunch of product in it and I'm very sure that doing makes mt face greasy. I just want to restart the whole thing. The only things stopping me is having a weird head shape and the fact that it'll look awkward when it grows a certain length.

No. 749941

>>749940
DO IT! I did it once and I loved it!

No. 749943

>>749940
What's your face shape?

No. 749947

>>749940
Do it! I've shaved my hair twice, and even though I'm growing it out now, I don't regret it. The experience of rubbing a freshly shaved head is like nothing else. I feel like a shaved head can look good on a lot of face shapes. My face is literally a chubby circle and I still liked it.
>>749923
Thank you for the rec anon! I don't really have a method other than "don't do it", so I do appreciate having a lil guidebook

No. 749949

>>749940
I buzzed mine a few times when I was younger, like early twenties. You might get the odd unanted comment (from rude/curious scrotes) but it's freeing and fun to touch a fresh shave and be like.. wait is that really my head?

No. 749950

>>749943
The best i can describe it is that it's a sort of a squareish oval. My hair's way too so I'm it won't go down it'll just grow out at a certain length if my past style with bangs was any indication.

No. 749961

>>749940
dooooo eeeeeet maybe u will love it so much u never wanna grow it out lol. I’m still in love with my buzzcut after like 9 years of rocking it

No. 749970

>>749882
It's okay anon take your time

No. 749988

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Now my coworker/roommate is blowing up my phone because apparently people have been telling her I've been saying weird things to her. And she feels like things I say to her are hurtful.

Like I guess I was acting bitchy but I don't get why someone's reaction is to beg someone to talk to you about it? Like sorry I hurt your feelings but you can ignore it like an adult or get the hint that I don't want you to sperg about Trump and Neo-Nazis at work.

No. 750000

I used to be a real people pleaser and really extroverted and all that and now I genuinely hate everyone.
Family, friends, clients, acquiantences, you name it. I wish everyone would shut the hell up for like a week. I had dealing with little problems for people and I am genuinely annoyed by their banter and their venting. I truly just want to be alone and recharge for a week.

No. 750002

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i want pringles

No. 750004

>>749970
Fuck I was wondering what I did wrong lmao. Sorry *strength I may have misspelled this a couple times trying to post this lmao

No. 750007

>>749988
>micro aggressions
I knew she was an SJW before I read the post

No. 750010

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>>750007
I know. The weird thing is that she is white and I'm not lmao. I pointed this out and she at least took it back lmao. But way to try to bust out the big guns to get one on me.

This is way too much. I have never gotten this level of craziness before from a coworker. Is this normal? I don't get why she doesn't get the hint I don't really want to talk with her right now.

No. 750011

>>750002
What flavor?

No. 750013

File: 1614375835542.jpg (15.98 KB, 100x292, screamin dill.jpg)

>>750002
me too, I miss them every day

No. 750019

>>750011
I want either the bbq flavor or the sour cream and onion ones. Bbq is superior though. I could also go for some doritos (especially with nacho toppings on them? oh my god)

No. 750022

>>750019
Sour cream and onion supremacy imo. I can also get down with the original ones. Also, walking tacos with Doritos do fuck. You're absolutely right. I've been meaning to try it with the spicy nacho ones.

No. 750025

>>750022
>Also, walking tacos with Doritos do fuck.
Lmaooo anon I've never heard someone use fuck like that in my life

"Man….these chips fuck!"

No. 750033

>>750025
Nta but that is the funniest way to use fuck imo, but only as a treat

No. 750042

File: 1614377652223.jpg (514.2 KB, 2622x1281, virginvschad.jpg)

What started off as a small spot this afternoon, has turned my chin into the fucking chad meme. The spot has gotten so big that it's wider than my mouth, is starting to push my bottom lip into my mouth and has extended the length of my chin by hanging off of it. I've tried spot cream and squeezing it, which managed to seep out a tiny bit of liquid, but no way near enough. I want to stab myself with a craft knife so bad just to empty it

>pic related is unironically what I look like

No. 750045

I hate when I ask a scrote a question and they reply with "affirmative". Idk why

No. 750046

>>750042
Anon, maybe you should see a doctor or dermatologist or something? That does not sound like a regular pimple or even a boil, wtf. Don't mess with it anymore, you're gonna make it worse

No. 750047

File: 1614378047375.png (117.26 KB, 264x275, 1606365206276.png)

I feel like the queen of dumb bitch. All of my assignments happened to fall on this weekend and I literally did not realize this until now. My essay for religion is due Sunday and I am half a page in after 4 hours of trying to decipher what the fuck I even need to write about and it needs to be at least 5 pages long. I've just never had to do an essay with this much complexity before and I am screaming internally. I am so fucked. Those other assignments are pretty important too and do take a second to complete so I still have to take time to work on those as well. I need to take my exam by Sunday, I need to read that new chapter for biology and do the homework and quiz by at least Tuesday morning but that shit takes so long, I have to finish my dance portfolio by Sunday but we just watched a concert yesterday and now I have to write an essay about that by Sunday too. I just spent way too much time being depressed and moping and now that I feel better I just got bitch slapped by my classes.

No. 750049

>>750046
I've been thinking about it, but because this has only happened in the span of like 7 hours, I don't want to go too soon/for no reason. I'm going to wait and see if it'll go away by itself overnight, but if it isn't gone by Monday I'll probably go. I'm never sick so I've never actually gone to the doctor before f

No. 750051

>>750049
Depending on where you live, you might be able to do an online doctors appointment if it's still there next week.

No. 750058

>>749779
>>749783
No, knowing assembly or w/e doesnt matter at all. By a deeper understanding I meant that you can phrase things in a way that a computer can understand, actually at a level that doesnt have anything to do with "code" per se, but breaking down any given problem into computable chunks (similar to order of operations in math equations kinda) and if you can do that then putting it in any language is easy. Like if you can say "well idk about java/whatever but I can do that in python" it's fine. I mentioned assembly to point out that it doesnt matter how old or weird or w/e the language you learn in is, so might as well pick the easiest and clearest. Sorry for the textwall earlier I just get heated about redditor "programmers".

No. 750064

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I went out shopping with my mom to get a few things and I decided to go into mens section to just check it out and I felt so happy. I have such a sudden urge to wear mens clothing even though I've been extremely feminine for most of my life. They're so comfy and cool and just overall nice. My mom noticed that I got some mens boxers and asked if I was going butch and I felt embarrassed because I felt too old for this shit and also weirdly felt scared of losing my femininity. This sounds like such a fakeboi rant but I love being a woman and would never change who I am, I would rather die than give that up. I wish I could talk to someone about this in real life without them automatically asking if I'm trans especially because I cut my hair short recently. I know I should just wear what I want and say fuck whoever but my anxiety is being so stupid.

No. 750085

my boyfriend has been really condescending towards me lately and i feel like he doesn't even like me anymore. finally brought it up today and he pretty much said "sorry you feel that way but you're actually the one not putting in enough effort". like… okay? what the fuck am i supposed to do with that? i told him i was sick of having to beg my partners for attention and he responded with "do you even like me?" like dude i'm in love with you but you couldn't give less of a shit about me and i'm trying to tell you that. i can't believe i walked into this conversation thinking he would try to be better and instead he just tells me it's my fault. like literally wtf am i supposed to do now

No. 750087

>>750085
He knows. You dont need to tell him. Just break up with him and ghost he will come crawling back.

No. 750092

>>750085
So let's get this straight:

You took the gumption to try to talk about his behavior towards you and how it makes you feel disliked, and yet instead of staying on subject, he turns it around on you and asks if you even like him.

Does it sound like he's concerned about having hurt you anon, or is the MO to not look like the bad guy because he knows what you feel is the truth? Think about it.

No. 750094

>>749628
NTA but no self-respecting woman will do that unless she has to.
I had to because I lived alone with my mom and we were poor, and there was no way for me to emigrate because you need to prove you have money to support yourself for most European visas. I also didn't have any education because, well, we were too poor for it. I met a guy and he offered to move me into his apartment and I accepted because I loved him, wanted to be together forever and he said we'd help my mom too.

It was horrible, everyone in my ex's family hated me, his friends mocked me every day and he was extremely demeaning to my culture despite being a male feminist woketard in public. No money for my mom either, we were too poor because I wasn't allowed to work and he was a cashier in a supermarket.
I genuinely loved him, thought he'd be a good guy and not like the local men. Nope, I ended up dumping him when I couldn't take it anymore and his whole family descended upon me for daring to break their baby boy's heart. Worked my ass off to be able to stay in the country and while everyone thought I dumped him when I got citizenship, I didn't.

I feel really bad for women who are so put down in life they have to resort to this in order to survive. The fact is, you are hated more than the rapist who goes to Thailand to buy underage prostitutes if you do this.

No. 750097

>>750085
Seriously anon, it’s better to break your own heart rather than let a scrote break it for you. If he can’t act like an adult and treat you with respect, leave him.

No. 750100

>>750085
>>750087
This anon is right, people freak out if you walk out and ghost even for a couple hours and they hopefully do some self reflection about how they've been acting. He could just be pissy cranky from work or w/e which isn't a big deal if he's self aware enough to notice it and apologize when you point it out, but a lot of men cant admit that they're ever anything but cool-headed logicians.

No. 750123

The older I get, the more I realise I might be bi, I seriously love girls lmao, but they intimidate me so much, I want to kiss and spend my life with a women, even adopt kids or something, and I never get these feelings with men.
I just don't really have any sexual feeling towards them as much as I do with men, (which is already like a 2/10)
Something about me, I can be mean with them, tell them off no problem and not budge, but with women I can't even look into their eyes without being scared lol.
I'm not sure if this is being bisexual or just that I really cherish and want to protect them from evilness of the world.
I've gotten into physical fights in HS defending girls from annoying scrotes lol.

No. 750154

>>750123
Anon do not waste time pondering. Start dating women! Relish the heart pumping excitement lol It won’t be all rainbow and unicorns but damn did it change my whole perspective about relationships.

No. 750156

>>750154
In what way did it change?

No. 750170

My boyfriend has been in the fucking bathroom for an hour and I want to take off my contacts and sleep. Why do men take such long shits? No wonder they get fucking hemorrhoids so often.

No. 750174

>>750170
Hes watching porn

No. 750178

>>750170
>>750174
plottwist: hes watching mindless youtube videos

first anon who posted do you hear any sound coming from the bathroom? he's probably playing on his phone regardless

No. 750184

>>750170
Maybe he is wiping

No. 750216

>>750174
a lot of guys spend a long time pushing logs out of their bung holes. hes probably fucking around of yt or reddit, chill

but speaking of chill, i fucking hate italian americans and kale

No. 750225

I hate being gay. I have a hard enough time meeting other lesbians, much less lesbians that I'm actually compatible with. So fucking sick of this cycle.

I wish I could just be a straight woman and be happy with whatever loser scrote shows me basic human decency.

No. 750231

>>750225
>basic human decency

If you were a striaght woman waiting on that youd be in the same boat as you are in now. Most scrotes treat women like shit and women have to brain wash themselves into thinking their bf is a nigel, "omg my bf does.t rape me in my sleep and he helps me clean the snow off my car. He so so sweet and caring". Its so pathetic seeing straight women have to dig for reasons to like they bf.

No. 750248

>>750231

You're right, so I think I'm going to change my wish. I'd like to be a straight man.

No. 750269

>>750248
i wish i could be a straight man too, anon. i'm mostly attracted to femmes and the dating pool in my area is shit so it sucks. it's mostly unicorn hunters and their scrotes and it makes me want to scream.

No. 750271

I am so nostalgic for 2017-2018

No. 750276

>>750271
damn, what'd you have going on?

No. 750283

>>747017
>>750010

Absolutely not normal. Certifiably extra, making a tit-for-tat complaint at you like this. Proceed with caution, but don't let her get away with being Becky Bonkers like this either!

No. 750292

My dad killed himself a few days before Christmas. I don’t have much to say other than I’m in a lot of pain, and in desperate need of human connection. Please respond with your favorite memes. I love you all.

No. 750293

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>>750292
Here's a dark meme for a dark occasion

No. 750294

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>>750292
I'm sorry for your loss, anon. I wish you a smooth grieving process and I hope you find peace.

No. 750295

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>>750292
it's not a meme, but this gif feels very fun
I'm sorry this is happening to you

No. 750296

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No. 750299

Finally realised how shitty my 2 male friends are. Whenever I talk to either of them about something they’ll reply with nothing more than ‘I see’ before taking over the whole conversation to talk about their stuff. I’m really fed up with them and won’t engage in any further contact. Fuck scrotes.

No. 750318

>>750295
Is this an actual human person? This is like a sleep paralysis demon. Her limbs are so gangly and thin, like a gibbon or something.

No. 750321

>>750318
kek i think it's just a sped up gif of allison harvard

No. 750328

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>>750276
pain and neetdom. i was actually social and got so much done in my life, suddenly I reach adulthood and fucking 2020 happens. i also gained like 40 lbs. isolation + no friends make jane a sad girl.

No. 750331

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>>750292
I'm very sorry anon, I hope you will feel better as soon as you can.

No. 750332

>>750331
I dropped my phone on my face immediately after posting this, it hurt a lot but was worth it.

No. 750333

>ask ex bf not to bring things over because >he is has bedbugs
>he agrees and doesnt
>suddenly throws a fit because i said no to >something and wants to bring them RIGHT away
>agree because he was going to through them out
>leave them out on balcony because paranoid
>now waking up in bites
i cannot tell if i got it from my new job or from him but now im freaking out and upset and don't know what to do. im burning this place down

No. 750340

My mom punched me yesterday and dismantled my already broken glasses I had trouble to to fix the morning before.This is the second time this has happen, first time when I was 16 over a dispute.This time was because I confused what food to give my baby sisters.My younger sisters witnessed both incidents.i wish I could move out,I know I’m absent minded and I fuck up a lot but over this?Now I have a cut near my eye and it hurts to cry.I can’t take this,I wish I knew how to leave.I feel so stuck.

No. 750341

>>750333
dump him, he doesn't respect your boundaries

No. 750342

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>>750292
I am so sorry, I lost my dad to cancer so in a lot of ways i know how deep and traumatic and sometimes weird grief can get. i hope other anons memes gave you a lil bit of relief and a break from having to process what you're processing, which i know for a fact is a lot. sending u love and healing and dumbass shit

No. 750343

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No. 750345

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No. 750348

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>>750340
lemme give u a virtual hug anon. I used to get beat up by my parents too, had to go to school with swollen lips and shit.

No. 750352

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I don't know if my accent when I speak English got way worse or my hearing got more attuned to it now that I'm listening to more English music again, but GOD is it embarrassing speaking in English. I grew up bilingual, so I already have a slight accent in both, my parents language and in my country's language, which is bad enough, but when speaking English it's just this annoying, irrecognizable amassment Of Ugly that's almost impossible to understand I feel like. "Speaking a foreign language is amazing in itself already, you probably don't care when you hear someone talk with an accent either yadayadayada" I know, I heard it all already, I don't care, I just want to be able to blare along to shitty emo songs from 2009 and feel embarrassed of my song choice again and not of my pronunciation. Such a stupid vent, I know, but I don't get how it got so bad, really.

No. 750353

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Why are men? I was at the shopping mall yesterday and I was walking pretty fast and suddenly a wild scrote emerges and stands right in front of me, despite me trying to walk past him. And the "conversation" goes like this
him: do you need any help?
me: no, why?
him: you look like you're looking for something smiles like a creep
me: no I'm not, sorry
him: muttering to himself that smile…
I was wearing a face shield so he coulde see I'm smiling nervously and I often do it when I'm confused or scared. Him muttering to himself about my smile creeped me the fuck out. I tried to walk away again and he stopped me for the last time and once again, said that if I was looking for "something" he could help me and then I walked away. I went to a nearest shop and stayed there for a while because I was afraid he will follow me. Am I paranoid? Random guys who just tried to score were never that persistent in trying to stop me from walking away with their entire bodies, and this one was also much taller than me so I felt physically intimidated. Dude was creepy and even if he was physicallly attractive I would still be creeped out by his behavior and I would assume he's a fuckboy (or a trafficker)

No. 750358


No. 750369

Weight gain makes me seriously go crazy trying to overcompensate for it, it's fucking ridiculous. Like, I gain 5kg and instead of eating less and exercising like a sane person, I get a new new haircut, fake nails, eyelash tinting, clothes, jewelry, makeup, perfume, etc, anything to instantly boost my self esteem with no effort. It's so pathetic and I'm scared to look at my bank account with the amount of shit I've bought this week.

Honestly rly looking forward to my deliveries though kek, I got some nice stuff and I actually forked out for decent quality for once.

No. 750379

>>750353
>Am I paranoid?
No, you were rightfully scared. If he gives off creepy vibes, there's very likely something wrong with him.
Scrotes from the same ethnicity as me did this shit all the time until I just outright started to be rude, nonresponsive or annoyed from the beginning

No. 750392

>>750353
You were wearing a faceshield for fuck’s sake.

No. 750401

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Covid makes me so anxious. I wish everything would return to normal already, my country announced a 3 week lockdown but experts are now saying that's not enough. What makes me even saltier is that we had a pretty normal summer but then the cases started spiking up again in autumn and now we've been back to this hell for almost half a year I'm applying for jobs over the summer and I'm shitting myself if the positions I'm applying to get cancelled. Inb4 ree normie can't handle this like the chad NEETs, it's not about that.

No. 750425

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No. 750433

>>750401
Where you're from? We just got new 3 week restrictions and it's too little too late imo, but agreed. It's wild how all and all normal summer was, I even went swimming out in a mostly empty lake and now I shudder at the thought. I just wanna go back to school and ride the subway, the smelly awful subway again.

No. 750439

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>>750292
I love you anon, try to cheer up, okay?

No. 750449

My life is not the greatest right now. I'm trying to fix it but I just wanted to vent.

>Get upset because if boyfriend isn't working he is playing videogames for hours.

>Keep telling him that he has to look for jobs on his own and apply because he works nights. He absolutely hates it but doesn't actively try to change the situation.
>We haven't had sex in three weeks despite me initiating and us both being 21. I am a fatty chan trying to lose weight so I don't blame him but I wish he was honest with me about it. He says he's attracted to me but his actions say otherwise.
>Gained nearly 80 lbs in 2 years from depression. I am determined to not get morbidly obese however and am making an effort to eat better.
>Have severe OCD and social anxiety, I get depressed because of it and then I eat and eat and eat.
>Severe OCD, social anxiety and GAD make me feel like a terrible scary person all the time. I have harm, sexual and contamination obsessions, really great mix.
>Have hated myself ever since I was a child. Was molested at 4 and lived in a household where domestic violence was commonplace, saw it regularly compared to my siblings. Dad was and still is alcoholic and mom regularly called me retarded, still love her but she took her abuse out on me. I need to move on but can't.
>Still live at home and no passions to pursue in school.
>Just want to be happy/okay and am failing miserably. I have so much to be grateful for but I'm stuck feeling bad for myself.

I wish I could kill myself without scarring anyone for life. I still have people who love me. Everyone seems like they've just moved on, they are okay my siblings are okay, my dad is okay, my mom is okay and I'm the one who was dealt the short end of the stick and turned out mentally ill. Also, I genuinely love my boyfriend despite his flaws, I have plenty of my own as listed. I just need to be grateful I had a better life than a lot of people. Sorry for the disjointed post. I'll be okay eventually, I have to be otherwise what's the alternative?

No. 750455

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>>750292
I don't know what to say anon. I wish I could hug you.

No. 750457

>>750353
Honestly I would take my chances and just beat the living fuck out of these kinds of scrotes so bad it traumatizes them to never approach a human ever again.

No. 750461

It’s hard to talk about this anywhere because my coworkers don’t “get” what it’s like to be in a family with alcoholics. I live with my parents and my dad seems to be getting pretty fed up with my lifestyle. I’m late twenties and single, he’s been an alcoholic pretty much all my life so I grew up watching this guy act like an asshole to my mom and sister. I work full-time and keep to myself, go to the gym and don’t do anything like drinking or dating. Lately if we argue (which is usually me defending my mom because she never stands up for herself) he starts making gross, sexual oriented comments like “you must be on the rag” and “you’re unfuckable”.

It’s annoying as fuck that all things considered my life is okay with the exception of my own dad harassing me. My mom constantly wants to follow me if I go anywhere because of her learned helplessness and can’t do anything else besides acting like my dad’s maid. No shit I want to die alone.

No. 750464

>>750461
Anon, this sounds like hell, you really should considering moving. It's not your responsibility to stand up to defend your mom, it's hers. If you decide to stay, be sure to establish strong boundaries and tell your dad that his comments make you uncomfortable and he should stop

No. 750465

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No. 750470

>>750461
I'm so sorry for all that bullshit, anon. I lived with a raging alcoholic dad for 21 years and I don't think people who haven't gone through that would ever get it, just like I wouldn't get having an alcoholic mom. I hope you get out,I really do and I hope your dad fucking dies a horrible, lonely death like he deserves to. Know that there's anons who get you, don't give up, it's gonna get better once he's gone or you get the hell away.

No. 750471

>>750449
Anon I've been in almost exact place you're in. Your dead weight inattentive bf is pulling you down more than you think. Focus on losing weight no matter what. Fuck everyone else.

No. 750481

>>750392
>>750353
My first thought was that it has to do with the face shield? At least where I am that's very rare compared to masks. In that case it's relatively rare to see a woman's lower face in public, and then you're the only woman with a visible face around…men being retarded, it might subconsciously strike them the same as if you were in the mall topless. This is an extreme case of cumbrain but it could be true.

I hadnt thought about this but you know how autistic people supposedly watch people's lips when they speak, instead of their eyes? A lot of creepy men are like halfway autistic so face coverings probably primally scare them. you could have just been one of the few people with visible lips he saw to creep on.

>>750457
I've been thinking about carrying an egg around in a protected pocket. "You have three seconds to get away from me or you're gonna get the egg."

No. 750489

>>750481
OP here, in my country it's not rare to see people wearing faceshields so I never thought it would make me seem more "approachable" or something

No. 750502

Started crying at the dinner table again kek it's because I'm so stressed about everything 24/7 also I should really apply for jobs but I keep wasting time on lolcow

No. 750509

it makes me so angry that i worked TWELVE YEARS straight paying taxes, funding medicare we'll never see, always making 'too much' to qualify for state health insurance (after turning 26), never filed for any benefits, did my best to be a productive adult etc

then covid fucking happens and i'm already out of the tiny amount of unemployment benefits i qualified for. i'm living with my parents for the first time since i was 18 and still blowing through my savings to make car/phone/insurance/life payments. the little amount of savings i had to move out again.

at least student loans are on hold until october! fuck i feel even worse for the anons who were in the workforce for the 2010 crash and COVID, at least i was in college during that fallout

No. 750541

>>747128
>>747097
>our society for making teenage girls think that being beaten and pissed on is hot
Society didn't do anything, those teenage girls with kink accounts are degenerates, they are wholly responsible for the way they are, no one else is to blame.
>>747108
Just feel normal disgust and move on, why are you trying to change them?

No. 750545

>>750541
you wanna know how I can tell you're a teenager

No. 750548

>>750545
Do tell

No. 750550

>>750509
wait so are you still paying full price for health insurance while unemployed? If you dont presently have any income you can get the maximum subsidy on a marketplace health plan if not literal Medicaid. The only hiccup is that you might have too low an income for marketplace subsidies (theyll say you're supposed to apply for Medicaid) but then you have too much in assets to get Medicaid (I think that can be a thing). Since you said you've burned through your savings though I cant see any reason you wouldn't qualify for either subsidies or Medicaid, other than if you made a ton of money in the 2020 tax year before losing your job, but if it was from covid that was probably pretty early in the year I'd assume. My taxable yearly income is about 20k after deductions and I pay $80 out of a $270 marketplace silver health care monthly premium with the rest subsidized (plan has $0 deductible, $0 copays for most things, $350 flat for ER visit which isn't terrible, it's a good plan overall), I do live in a usually-blue state though.

It's also not a problem if you get on subsidies and then do get a job, if your income ends up too high at the end of the year for your subsidy level theyll just take the difference out of your income tax refund. Not exactly sure with Medicaid but pretty sure you just declare yourself not poor anymore and you dont have to pay anything back as long as you were poor the whole time you were on Medicaid. So many people are paying way more than they have to for health insurance and not claiming benefits they are entitled to. It's a stressful aggravating process to go through, Medicaid more so than subsidies but both really, but there are people in most areas to help you out with forms etc if you look up health care application help in your town/city/state. Dont feel bad at all about using the appliction help even if you dont feel like you're the most deserving, they're usually paid by hospitals to help people bring in those federal dollars if they are entitled to them (so they can pay the hospital).

No. 750568

>>750509
Tiny amount of unemployment benefits? Didn't Americans get a $400 WEEKLY unemployment boost?

No. 750578

>>750568
>Didn't Americans get a $400 WEEKLY
lmfao what?
We didn't even get that second stimulus, where did you hear that?
Americans getting money? lmfao, that's unheard of

No. 750582

I hope the next stroke kills my stepdad, and then someday I can have some kind of repaired relationship with my mom
I hate him so fucking much, my god, I hate him so much
Why do women marry the rankest pieces of shit
Who would marry such a whiny man?
Of all the shit he does, somehow, the whining is what I hate the fucking most
all men throw and hit, but my god, the fucking whining, it is unique to him

No. 750584

>>750582
I'm doing a raindance for your stepdad to be killed by his next stroke anon

No. 750587

>>750568
It's been $300 extra on top of unemployment per week since December which will expire on March 14th. Right now they're trying to pass a third COVID relief bill that involves a third stimulus check, $400 extra per week on top of unemployment until August, and a child credit. But it's currently being held up right now because leaders are taking the opportunity to shit their pants about $15/hr minimum wage, which a)Won't make employers wants to hire more people during a pandemic, and b)Would only be beneficial for bumfuck nowherians because $15/hr still isn't a living wage in most places.

To be clear: There was a $600 per week bonus that lasted March thru July of 2020. I know this because a bunch of lazy self-employed friends bought lots of frivilous toys on this income and even my bartender ex bought himself a brand new car with it while his bar was shut down. Gross fucking overpay IMO, because it was on top of the unemployment normally received. They were making over $20/hr to sit at home safe and sound.

No. 750589

>>750568
>Didn't Americans get a $400 WEEKLY unemployment boost?
We did???

No. 750606

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>>750568
>>750589
>>where did you hear that
From my American friend who's unemployed and financially better off than she was pre-Covid. Also, I read the news.

The first unemployment extension was $600/week. The second relief bill had a $300 unemployment boost and the next one is supposed to have $400/week. It's a much bigger part of the relief bill than the stimulus checks everyone is focused on.
https://oui.doleta.gov/unemploy/extenben.asp
https://www.dol.gov/newsroom/releases/eta/eta20200404

No. 750607

i checked an old tumblr mutual's blog to see what is she up to now, found one of my old selfies from my now deleted account reblogged, opened the post and found that a porn blog reblogged it too. i'm so disgusted. is there still a point in asking tumblr to delete those photos, considering that they're years old?

No. 750609

>>750606
This is definitely not something that everyone is/was getting

No. 750611

>>750608
Yeah, I never said that. Why would you expect everyone to get unemployment benefits. The anon I replied to specifically mentioned they got unemployment benefits.

No. 750612

>>750611
Oh well, that clearly was not enough for anon's insurance and debt payments. It's understandable that those benefits may be "tiny" in comparison to what she has to pay for.

No. 750614

I don't want to live anymore. Everything is pointless anyways.

No. 750615

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It’s funny how even in today’s society there’s the underlying belief that without a man, women are lost.

What will you do when your old? Who will take care of you when you’re sick?

And of course:

Have fun being a miserable old cat woman!!!

The miserable old women I know are all widowers or divorcees. Betrayed by their husbands through infidelity or eating and drinking in excess until they died. I’d be bitter too if I spent the majority of my life taking care of something that could only care for me as an extension of themselves.

Any pickme bitch in the western world who would set aside her career or education for a man who will inevitably leave her, hurt her, or die before her needs to wise up. Not that raising a family is bad, but having no stake in yourself is idiotic. They mock young single mothers but I never hear them talk about older women who get left behind once their husband, who has nothing in common with them anymore, leaves for a women he met at work.

Anyway, I’ll conclude this with a resounding MEN ARE TRASH

No. 750616

>>750587
I'm >>750606 and I accidentally scrolled past your reply before hitting send. Checks out with what I heard. And yeah, the $15 or bust national minimum wage debate is ridiculous.

No. 750620

>>750615
>who will take care of you when you're sick

Most men wont even take care of their gf when shes on her period or has a cold

No. 750623

>>750614
samesies, sister.

No. 750624

>>750614
I wish I and all the other women who feel this way could form each others safety network. Though I could be projecting since my issues are stemming from so much loneliness.

No. 750644

>>750615
I have a coworker who's in a management position who treats my other coworkers like shit depending on whether or not the fuckboy who's been dragging her along is with her or not that day. It's pathetic and sad to look at, and she's a few years older than me so I'm surprised she hasn't wised up to it yet. Another coworker says she probably settles because she really wants a family, but all I want to do is grab her by the shoulders and scream PLEASE LOVE YOURSELF!!!! At the same time, I can only feel so sorry for her, because a lot of my coworkers around me are strong women who have told her to cut him off but she refuses to. I've literally heard my boss ranting about this girl facetiming with him all day when the previous day she was upset because of some stupid fuckboy shit he did. To let a man control your emotions like this, to have to deal with your shitty attitude for the day because of how shit your man decided to treat you, it's pathetic.

I paid my price for messing around with fuckboys in my early 20s and it was a good lesson learned. I have an older coworker who sometimes goes out on dates but she's very much a "I'd rather be single than wipe a man's ass" kind of woman and I love that. I love and admire strong women and there's nothing more beautiful than a woman who refuses to settle because she knows her worth. I love it when men have to resort to petty insults because they fear her and know she would put them in their place in the fucking garbage. Men act like they won't be the ones lost without a woman to guide his stupid ass.

No. 750646

>>750582
Sending killing vibes to your stepdad and loving vibes to you and your mom, anon.

No. 750648

>>750550 Thank you for the helpful and thoughtful reply, I hope anyone else in similar circumstances reads this. No, I was uninsured after losing my salaried job/benefits, had a gap for a few months, got on state healthcare (basically medicaid). The issue is they are now sending me appeal notices because due to the fact that I'm not receiving unemployment as I have exhausted it, they assume I'm employed. I've only been on it for four months, which thankfully was enough time to get my yearly, IUD, and a UTI taken care of without charge.

The issue is I did 'make' over 20k last year after deductions–75% of it unemployment. I'm in a career field that is almost non existent right now due to COVID (wedding planning/catering/think of any job around that.) Again thank you, I'm appealing the cut off. I'll be fine even if they do cut me off as it never paid for medications anyway which are more than doctor visits per quarter. Just needed to vent

No. 750649

>>750568
ah yes, the $1200/mo pre-tax vs the 2,900 post tax I made prior to covid, great tradeoff! I love losing a job I love to make 1/4 the money

No. 750652

>male friend who i've known for years since elementary school gets into a serious relationship
>me: really happy for him and feel more comfortable around him because i know he has 0 romantic interest in me so i can be myself better without being worried
(he confessed to me a few times over the years but we always just ended up being friends luckily)
>he: becomes more distant because he has a gf, moves to a different country, stops responding to your sparse messages

:,) but i was so happy for him and finally felt genuinely free in interacting with him…

No. 750661

I'm so disgusted right now. When I came home last night and took my shower, I just left my clothes on a pile on the floor. But when I woke up this morning to brush my teeth, the pair of underwear I had on the day before were laying out in the open on the counter.

It's not an accident either because this is the second time its has happened. Who the fuck keeps doing this. Who is digging through my piles of dirty clothes looking for my underwear?

I live at home with my parents and two brothers. I don't even know who to tell or what to do.

No. 750664

>>750661
Definitely one or both of your brothers. Male siblings are creepy bastards most of the time. How old are they if you don't mind me asking anon?

No. 750666

>>750661
Anon, I've been in this situation before (not with a sibling though) and what I did was just confront the person. You should do the same, but if you don't think they'll stop or don't know who is doing it, try putting a hidden camera in your room and threatening them with the footage. I'm sorry you have to go through this, please stay strong because they will prey on your weaknesses.

No. 750667

>>750661
>>750664
definitely ur brothers…I hope to god they're younger than you. If so just like do the same thing again with your clothes but hide something in the pile that will make noise if disturbed - like an open jar of marbles/ball bearings placed so it'll spill if someone goes through your clothes. Then you can catch the culprit. I dont have younger brothers but they all seem to worship older siblings, you just have to make it clear that shit is creepy and not ok. If it's an older brother or any adult brother teally…idk tell your parents so they can go through his computer, cause that shit is sus.

I'm such a damn boomer actually, you could just put your phone in the pile on record, or possibly look for some kind of record-on-motion spycam app.

No. 750672

I hate that it's kind of memey when your friend is a drug addict. I dated one and everyone does make a lot of allowances for their behaviour but my vent is this. I was physically and emotionally tormented/abused by this dude and like it's just not a big deal cause he is a "junkie" even tho he has a very good STEM job so he's well off enough to function but ultimately like he's going to die. He's super depressed. He's extremely paranoid. Very unstable and aggressive. I've told like 3 people some of what he put me thru cause I know I'm going to seem like a clown getting clowned by a mess like that, it's just very annoying. Drugs are only as cool as the people taking them I need all the unfunny, unintelligent, insecure dimwits to all back off.

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>>750615
that's because it's a fucking scam. of course men will make fun of women and call them old cat ladies, men don't want to be alone. if they keep saying that shit to young girls, it'll scare them. when in reality, like you said, most women who i know are depressed or miserable are divorcees. all the single older women in my life are so so happy. one of them is a producer living her life working on movies and shows, being able to do whatever she wants because she's free. my aunt fostered 5 cats recently because why not? and she's the happiest woman i know, she dates on the side but won't ever cuff anybody because she's living her own life. i'm so glad i'm family and friends with a ton of single women in my life because i've had such insecurities about this for so long, but they've just straight up been like who fucking cares? just live your life.

that's why men make fun of older women or tell young women that it's pathetic to be a "cat lady", they're terrified of being alone and having to do things themselves. if no bang maid when me 50, how will me live????? it's so sad to see these women work their asses off just for the men to cheat on somebody 40 years younger or just fucking die because they're too stupid to care about their health. of course people can marry who they like, but it's pathetic that men make fun of women who would prefer to be single, not want kids, or not get married at an age like 20. personally i would love to go all out and adopt like 10 ferrets and take care of them, how the hell would i do that with a grown toddler beside me? if i'm gonna be a ferret mama i gotta be the best

No. 750728

>>750678
>>750615

Never forget that married men live longer than single men, but single women live longer than married women. Marriage is only worth it for women if you're head over heels in love and you've found yourself someone who makes you incredibly happy, settling will only drain you.

>>750620
And they're statistically more likely than women to leave you when you're terminally ill, disabled or battling long-term sickness.

No. 750734

>>750607
I'd do it. Took some days, but whenever I messaged support they responded to me, and so far it always seemed to be a human too.

No. 750746

I have high blood pressure and always get super angry at dumb little things for way too much time, but no one knows that because I cannot show my anger since it is inappropriate to do so.
That's why I just implode and my health gets worse and worse every year. I hate other people so fucking much and I love it when others are doing worse than me or I get revenge on people who wronged me in super petty ways because that is the only time I am truly happy and feel like a war goddess.
I wish I could just not give a fuck not feel shame and have the courage to throw things around or scream at others.

No. 750760

>>750746
Sounds like you need a very active sport to use that anger constructively instead of it hurting your health. Think about it. There is nothing wrong with the way you are if you use it to your advantage.

No. 750779

I hate people who yell at video games. My roommate does this and scares the shit out of me every time because it comes out of nowhere like goddamn lower your fuckin voice I don't care if you died in the game I'm in the middle of something.
I never want to be with someone who shouts at video games because having a roommate who does it bad enough.
Fuck gamers though, honestly.

No. 750796

i’m so annoyed that me and my bf don’t live together like… i just want to be with him but he’s too busy TO CALL ME AAAAA why am i so clingy, i can’t handle not being with him

No. 750824

I was very drunk and decided to look at my bf's phone…
Turns out he's been lying to me about going to events and badmouthing me to a female friend (and most likely his other friends too) to the point of them thinking I don't want to let him meet them. First thing she jokes about when he's canceling an event (I didn't even know about) is that I didn't want him to go. What the fuck. I never forbid him to go meet his friends, I was always happy he was social. I was angry at him one time he decided to cancel our first weekend in a month to go get drunk with friends instead the evening before we were supposed to go, I was already packed and everything. That's it.

I told him I saw that. And that I never bad mouthed him to anyone. Never lied to him. Didn't even think of doing that.

He shouted at me.
He wanted to throw me out at 1 am because I went through his phone.

I feel sick…

No. 750827

idk the last time i've been this angry. i've known this guy since middle school (i'll call him N), we got closer in college. he's beloved in our city, and people gas him up all the time. turns out he's a serial rapist. i think it's always happened when drunk. about a month ago, my friend, after being ruthlessly cyberbullied for dating an abusive fucktard who was murdered, spent the night at N's house with a few other people after drinking. you can imagine what happened to her. so people hear about him being a rapist and dissociate. it's 1) heartbreaking to me bc i loved him as a friend and trusted him and feel so duped 2) heartbreaking to me bc i love her and she's already going through so much that could be a post of its own, and 3) because, like abusers always do when caught, moved to a different state.
that all angered me and we thought he truly did not know the extent of what he was doing because he was super drunk and somethings had grey areas. he felt so bad he left social media and stopped talking to people. but i found he has another twitter where he just shitposts. theyre all disgusting and indicitive that he felt no remorse bc he was making jokes about being manipulative and gaslighting and passing it off as normal twitter humor.
i feel like i shouldn't implicate myself, but no one is doing anything other than not talking to him (but a few people i know are). everyone just quietly let him leave the city. i understand that its not my place to decide anything in regards to him but it's the place of the girls he raped. but god it makes me so fucking mad

No. 750830

I work at a restaurant. I don't use a "customer service voice," nor do I talk like 2 octaves higher in order to appear sweet, like a lot of people do. I just … am myself. I just try to be casual and not stress myself out too much. I do tend to fake laugh at jokes and make my own corny jokes to make the time pass better. So I'd say I have a moderately good attitude. Anyway, lots of customers like to say, "You're so unique and different! You're like … Flo from Progressive! or Lady Gaga! Kinda quirky!" Seriously, anons, I get called quirky by middle-aged moms and boomer dudes at least a couple times a month for a year now and all I do is take orders and serve food and try to be reasonably polite. Is this what the world has come to? If you don't act and talk like a completely soulless automaton you're "quirky" now? And what's with people comparing me to Flo from Progressive or Lady Gaga? Are those what "default quirky women" are like to middle-class normies? They know NOTHING about me. Absolutely nothing! What is wrong with people!!

No. 750832

>>750824
You boyfriend is an asshole with issues. Sure you shouldn't have gone through his phone but he was literally avoiding the topic you questioned him about and wanted to throw you out. You clearly aren't a priority to him when he decides to get drunk with friends instead of going on an already planned event with you. You should distance yourself from him, a partner that bathmouthes their supposed loved one behind their back is not someone you want to spend your life with.

No. 750837

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Soooo my roommate might be a douchebag. I live with him and my boyfriend, and we've never talked about the women he'd bring home because we didn't want to pry, but now there's something happening that looks a little sketch and I don't know how to bring it up with roommate.

Usually he'd bring them home and have wine with them, then go for a walk. Recently, there's one girl that he's brought home often in particular, Rachel, who seems to be one he's trying to relationship with. She comes home with him every weekend and play board games in the living room, take walks, and eat takeout together, for hours. She is giggly and whiny, obviously crushing on him, and roommate replies in the same way. Rachel would sleep in the living room if she stayed over. My boyfriend and I were happy that young love was obviously blooming.

A week or so ago, he brought home a woman we've never seen before. He had a few drinks with her and then took her to his room to fuck. This seemed normal, we thought. Rachel and him probably aren't exclusive or anything yet, or even in a relationship so roommate is free to bonk whoever. The woman stayed the night in his room.

Yesterday, he brought home the same woman. Almost immediately they went to fuck. She stayed over again. It's night now, he'd brought Rachel home and they're currently laughing downstairs about something while eating takeout.

I feel so bad for Rachel. Am I just being fucking autistic? You don't fuck somebody and immediately pretend you're in a qt lovey thing with somebody else a few hours later, right? I really hope he's transparent with her but I don't think that's happening.

No. 750848

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>qt boy finally worked up the nerve to ask me for my number the other day
>was riding on a super happy high up until recently
>sensing waning interest and small trace amounts of contempt/judgement on my side and his
Seems like we're hitting a wall… I've been trying to liven the conversation but it's hard since his English isn't 100%. Maybe there's some miscommunication, or maybe I'm reading too much into things…

No. 750857

The fandom pedo discourse has been getting more and more crazy recently and I'm just so fucking sick of it because 90% of the time when they call someone a pedophile they mean they shipped a bunch of vaguely aged anime teens no real person would give a shit about instead of someone who actually abused children IRL. I hate that "proshippers" have to make up all this stupid unnecessary shit about coping mechanisms and whatever when they should just avoid it completely and ship whatever they like. I doubt a bunch of young adult women will be brainwashed by fan creations into roaming the streets creeping on kids when men still commit like 99% of all statutory rape cases and them masturbating to lolis is lightyears from some 25-year old fujo wanting to see MHA characters kissing and they shouldn't even be included in the same debate. Scrotes will always have ulterior motives.

It's so fucking tiring, don't people have more important things to be so invested in

No. 750860

>>750837
Are you actually friends with your roommate? If you're even close with him on any sort of friendship level, just freakin' ask him what's up with all that.
But … if he's just Some Guy you don't hang out with much, just shares space and helps pay the rent, maybe stay out of it? He could be a cheater, but he could be "poly" or something? (Nah, on second thought, he's probably a scumbag but nothing you say or do can change that, just let it unfold, I guess)
If you're friends with Rachel at all, definitely say something to her. But it doesn't seem like you are. You might just have to sit this one out and let it implode.

No. 750862

>>750837
If it was me anon, I'd mention the other woman in front of Rachel. It's Saturday night have some fun.

No. 750871

ugh cant fucking write cant fucking finish this paper… i hate uni i hate deadlines i hate failure i hate it all hahahha :(

No. 750874

>>750832
I'm sorry I went through his phone, apologised about this to him, but I'm kinda glad I did… At least I know. He wouldn't find anything bad on my phone. He's been told he can do so anytime, I have genuinely nothing to hide.

It's so sad, I really like him and even though I've felt like it won't work between us, we have had so much fun together. So many memories. Met our families, traveled together. He's educated, looks good and is a hard worker. Tries to be nice to me a lot, a gentleman. But then he just does a really shitty thing and plays stupid, pretending he doesn't understand what's wrong.

But he always did this, play cold and mean when I had a problem. Always defensive. Turn it on me. Pick one random thing from what I said and shout about it (how dare I say that to him), then ignore me for hours. Than suddenly he's very apologetic, loving and understanding.

He also forced me to have sex a few times and than acted like he didn't know I wasn't into it so I had to comfort him. Tries to go without condom against my will - those things are just unforgivable. And badmouthing me to his friends is just so shitty… Now I don't ever want to meet them and I have a few people thinking I'm a bitch without them ever meeting me. And I caught him flirting with a girl over text in the first 6 months of our relationship.

Sad thing is, I don't have many close friends. I feel like I'm really lonely and it's all my fault. Maybe I have a difficult personality. Feel like I'm the bad one in this relationship. And I'll never be in a good relationship because I ruin everything. My last relationship was very abusive, I got told this frequently by my ex and it just stuck to my mind since then.

I love talking to someone on a daily basis, do nice things for them, wish them good night, good luck and so on.

Now that it's pandemic, I can't even go out and meet new people…

Sorry for long blog.

No. 750888

>>750862
I’ve had to do this. Similar situation only it was my friend’s roommate and I was over a lot.
Literally just walked into the kitchen to get a beer, stopped to chat, “oh, anyway, so what was the name of the brunette you’ve been bringing home again? And the other girl last Wednesday?”

The chaos was…..chef’s kiss

No. 750893

>>750824
>>750874
Your posts are freaking me out a bit because that describes my situation with an ex down to the same details. Your boyfriend is an abusive rapist and you need to get the fuck out of there ASAP before it gets any worse. You are not the bad person in the relationship - objectively, how? Maybe you really do have a difficult personality (it’s possible), but that doesn’t mean you don’t deserve basic respect from the person who is supposed to cherish you. Get your head around that idea and make an exit plan.

Also, when my ex was spreading false shit about me, what creeped me out most was wondering his motives for that. Like you, I was really chill about his friends - had been cheated on before but didn’t want that to taint my future relationships. Even let him hang out with an old crush, yet he still told everyone I was so controlling and wouldn’t let him have friends. Why would someone be so eager to widely spread the lie that you’re abusive? I decided to leave because I didn’t want to find out. That shit is really suspicious.

No. 750894

>>750874
He is an abuser.
He not only gaslights and manipulates you but also tries to do things against your will not only sexually but also when trying to talk about problems. You should get out of that relationship you clearly deserve someone better, it is not worth it to endure this any longer. B R E A K U P! This is your sign to do something. Get yourself out of there! You are not a bad person he is!
I get that you are afraid of being lonely but it is 100% better to be lonely for a short time than getting abused for a long time. You deserve to be with a person who listens to you, doesn't manipulate you and that respects you and your boundaries. Those qualities are crucial if you want to have a happy and long relationship. I am sure that you are a great person and that you can easily find a better boyfriend.
Also focus on yourself and your wellbeing.

No. 750899

I want to kill Chris Watts. That's it. I actually cannot believed I watched that netflix documentary. I cannot stop crying.
Ban me for alogging, but jesus christ.

No. 750910

>>750899
Can you believe there are some nlogs sending him love letters, disgusting

No. 750918

>>750910
It's so disgusting, wtf. I was so dishearten when they made us listen to those calls of women victim blaming her.

No. 750923

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>>750860
>>750862
I consider him a friend or at least I'm trying to be.. I've had contentious relationships with roommates before and I don't want to bring that kind of energy here again since it's actually the first time I've had good roommates after 5-6 rentals.

When my boyfriend gets home, I think we'll apologize for "not realizing" and teasingly ask roommate if Rachel is his date. Then if they say yes, I'll casually say that yay, the search is over so he won't be bringing strange women here anymore?? Please tell me if this is a bad idea. Maybe I should get drunk before I do this so I have an excuse to be candid

>>750888
I really really really want to do this but I don't want chaos in my house. I wish you were my friend so you can just leave the house without any consequences lol

No. 750925

so, I had a panic attack at work last week. one of my coworkers first responses was that I need to stop taking my medication and just get off meds altogether. I took one thing, which was Zoloft. since going to the doctor, they switched me to a low dose of Venraflaxine which has seemed to be working really well for me. my boss offered I take a week off to adjust and just get some space, so I did. now several of my coworkers are acting strange around me, and one of them said maybe I should find a new job if my OCD and anxiety makes things "too hard". I love my job, and I've been working with animals for almost 4-5 years now. my personal life was the issue, and a bad day at work was just the breaking point. now I just feel like everyone is gonna look at me like I'm some "freak that needs medication" or like I can't handle my job, when in fact my boss always tells me how great I'm doing and how much she likes having me there. I'm upset, my feelings are hurt, and I'm not sure how to move forward when everyone else is at work on Monday. what do I say? what do I do? I want to bring up the hurtful comments, but I don't want to get my co-workers in trouble. but I also don't want to bottle it up, and have things come back on me somehow, since I'm feeling like everyone has an issue with me. I love my job, I love the dogs, and things used to be so chill, and now they're just.. not. I just feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

No. 750931

former ana-chan about to relapse aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

No. 750959

I'm sad, defeated and blaming others.
I already am disappointed in myself and hate myself enough.
IT IS NOT MY FAULT!
I TRIED MY BEST AND I'M SORRY IT'S NOT GOOD ENOUGH!
I HAVE FEELINGS TOO! YOU MAKE IT BETTER!

No. 750964

>>750925
I had a panic attack in work years ago and the vibe I got off coworkers was never the same again. I feel like I got labelled as either hysterical or faking it. As much as everyone talks about their anxiety online.. Irl you often get stand offish responses once you've displayed a full on anxiety attack.
People get uncomfortable for whatever reason.

No. 750965

>>750931
Relapsing is always a bitch and I’ve never found anything someone else says to be helpful. Ever. You’re the only one who can convince yourself to not go down that road. If you do, a lot of us are here, ready to listen.

>>750959
I don’t know your situation but I’m sure that you’ve done your best! And you’ve tried hard! Also, what is this ”blaming others”? Is it something that you actually recognise that you do but do anyways, or is it a self-shaming kinda thing when you shame yourself for standing up for yourself?

No. 750970

just found out that a 22 year old groomed billie eilish when she was 15 and would worry her sick because he would drink and drive. i know it's not my relationship but i was in a similar relationship when i was 15 with a person the same age and i felt so fucking grossed out remembering all the worrying i did for him too, i fucking hate scrotes. 15-17 is still a fucking child what the fuck is wrong with these men projecting their retardation onto literal children. i feel so sick.

No. 750984

>>750923
Samefag, update for anyone who cares:
Turns they're "just friends," when she went upstairs to go to the bathroom, I asked him pointblank if he's trying to romance her and he was like no

God I was so stressed out about this. I'm so glad it isn't anything worrisome

No. 750993

>>750984
I still wouldn't believe him

No. 750994

I want to die

No. 750998

>>750994
I'm sorry

No. 750999

>>750998
It's okay I forgive you

No. 751005

I'm pissed off at a friend of mine. She had been in the hospital for 2 days and the day she got discharged wanted to go with our friend group out of town to go bar hopping. I had called and told her I didnt think it was a good idea & if it'd be best for her to stay in and rest. She had copped an attitude with me & said she would ride with another friend instead of me and hung up. She called back like 5min later asking "so are you going out with us?" With all this attitude, so I had said no that I'd go out in our hometown instead. She starts going off about how I'm trying to control her, how she has a right to make her own decisions, and that I'm overstepping boundaries. At that point I was pissed off and hung up on her. She starts texting me about how fucked up it is for mr to 'force an ultimatum' bc I'd said I wasnt going.

I tried to explain that no, it wasn't an ultimatum, it was because of the tension between us and getting drunk together could make it worse. She responds about how I'm gaslighting her & says she isnt going to go now. I'd only said back "go out, & have fun. I am staying in town" which she replied "no you literally ruined my whole night. I'm not going to have fun no matter what. So congrats you got what you wanted."
I muted her texts & she calls like 20min later asking if we could meet up & hash it out. We meet and she goes on to say she was defensive but wasn't accusing me of manipulation, its just how she felt even though she literally did accuse me of shit. Then asks about if theres anything more going on that I'm upset about bc I was clearly still mad. Like no bitch, I'm mad about you accusing me of being this shit head when I was trying to be a good friend. After things were 'squashed' I said I still didn't want to go out with all of them but said for her to go. Which she starts on about "no I'm just gonna go home and I dont want to go if you don't." Our other friends had already booked the hotel so I said I'd go. She was saying how she didnt want to twist my arm but she was. If I didnt go she wouldn't and our other 2 friends would be stuck footing the bill. She had commented about the music playing in my car once we were already in the other city saying "oh thats a specific vibe" bc I was listening to rock music. I'll never voice my concerns to her again, I cant believe she just went out to attack my character like that because I was saying something she didn't like.

No. 751015

>>749356
>>749444
small update, a couple days ago I met up with a business acquaintance who does promotion/marketing for depop sellers, so I asked if he had any general tips for new people. He said that the main thing is getting to be a "featured seller", which is based on both having a fast response time to anyone who messages you (under 24 hours on average, response itself doesnt matter so you can just say "no sorry" real fast to kooks and creeps), as well as doing a certain volume of sales (unknown number and I really haven't any idea what it could be). I'd noticed that you can sometimes find nice stuff for way cheap on depop, so I'm guessing people do that to get quick sales and happy customers so they can get featured. Being featured basically means you show up way way higher in depop's searches and categories, so once you do get featured, then you can start selling ugly charity jumpers for $50. Even outside of getting featured though, I wouldn't be surprised if your items start getting shown to more users once you have at least a few successful sales/good ratings or w/e, basically just to prove you aren't a scammer or smth. So just try putting up a couple things dirt cheap for quick sale, it's almost like verification that you do exist and will send the stuff. Theres always people sorting low to high so stuff that's like $5 will always get looked at, especially stuff that people actually wear out & need more of asap like running wear. I know a lot of moms and old ladies who lowkey rake in cash reselling thriftstore lululemon and PINK as a side hustle lol.

No. 751016

I'm so sick of my friends friend. Anytime we play this specific mmo she always finds something negative to fixate on and forces us to change what we're doing or she'll think I dislike her and beg my friend to ditch me and only play with her. It's so annoying and honestly quite hurtful. And like I can't even express being hurt by this or disapproval because boohoo she has bpd and apperently can't help it and I'm supposed to be considerate to that. Like I really don't give a fuck. I didn't know that meant she had a pass to make me feel like shit by excluding me from shit because suddenly she's convinced I don't like her and she needs my friend solely around her to feel better. Like I can't even voice chat with said friend while playing because she doesn't like to vc and we're being bullies if we do it without her. I'm so done with it, if they ask me to play again I'm just gonna say that I'm not going to anymore and that'll probably make me lose my friendship with my friend but at this point I hardly feel like we are friends considering how controlling this girl is.

No. 751017

I want to kill every male in a Hawaiian print shirt. I don't care.

No. 751029

>>750893
>>750894
So we did break up in the morning… He was nasty, twisting every word I said, lied a lot and admitted he's lying, saying those are painless small lies, attack me that I looked into his phone, made me apologise over and over for that. Said he 'misunderstood me' and thought I didn't want him to be with his friends (what the fuck, how?). Said he didn't talk to any friends about me. But he did talk to the host girl about me and maybe to other friends to.
Said he breaks up with me, I said I break up with him too.

Honestly it all fucking hurts. We spent the yesterday with his family, chatting, visiting his grandma. Such a nice day. It was a 2 year relationship.

But in the end I feel like I didn't loose that much… I loved him a lot. But he was so nasty about a lot of things. He has no hobbies, doesn't want to be active with me, nothing. Just lay down and watch YouTube aftrt work. He's a law student so he always twists every argument we have and seems like he has no issue lying because 'his lies are harmless'. I want to work abroad (doctor) but he can't because law is local, so we probably wouldn't work in future. And wanting to throw me out at 1 am is fucking cold.

Now he's in my messages apologising for badmouthing me to his friends but I don't think it's to reconcile or get back together, just to stroke his ego about how he's such an adult.

I feel like absolute shit but at least I have my family to be there for me.

No. 751031

>>751017
Can I know why?

No. 751039

>>751029
Good for you anon! I am so proud that you did this! You deserve so much better! Focus on yourself right now and stay in contact with your family they will be there to help you. Also it is awesome that you want to become a doctor, I hope that all of your dreams will come true and that you will have a lot of fun when going abroad.

Block him and ignore his messages he is just trying to love bomb you or manipulate you further.
You will live your best life without him!

No. 751046

>>751039
I really want to thank you anon, this makes me feel better.

No. 751071

I NEED HELP

I SWEAR TO GOD. I watched lovely peaches videos where she abuses the puppy with perfume and I am really anxious and scared right now. Can someone please get rid of her by sending her to a psychiatric hospital?

No. 751098

I hate how my interest in people goes 100-0 (more like 50-0 to be honest). We'll start talking and maybe even share some things, and then I forget to answer messages for a few days because shitposting on anon boards or editing a meme in my free time was more interesting, oops.

No. 751101

>>751005
Oh my god, you're both such difficult people creating problems out of thin air. You two must be bored to death to start such a non-drama.

No. 751103

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Tbh I don't know how can anyone keep calm anymore when the world around is literally collapsing. And covid is just a tiny part of it. Even as a child I felt like some shit is coming and I probably won't live past my 30s and there's no point in making "big plans" for the future. But since I started reading more about near term human extinction and the shit that electromagnetic events do to our nervous systems I'm like eternally done with everything. I won't post about it in tinfoil thread because it's not tinfoil unless you don't believe in global warming and electromagnetic events on the sun and shit

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zDaJtkHxrJw
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yivlyAtzRHo
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=B_zfMyzXqfI

https://m.facebook.com/groups/196445907621709?group_view_referrer=search
https://m.facebook.com/Near-Term-Human-Extinction-Evidence-Group-170787913129107/

No. 751106

>>751071
Lovelypeaches should be put down instead of the dog

No. 751108

>>751103
I like to stay ignorant.

No. 751109

>>751103
I’m pretty sure even politicians, silicon valley, and scientists know the world won’t last for very long. Isn’t that why rich tech/engineering gurus keep pushing for Mars or space exploration so they can save themselves from the inevitable guillotine?

No. 751125

>>751103
>it’s not tinfoil!!!!!
>cites a facebook group as proof
okay anon

No. 751127

>>751125
They only post scientific news lmao

No. 751132

>>751071
She's in jail right now if it makes you feel better

No. 751137

>>751103
that third video is scaring me shitless

No. 751164

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I've been so traumatized about hearing so much about nasolabial folds on lc, I bought what basically is a torture instrument : just straight up applying needles to your face.
I love the shitpost on /ot but rely should stay out of /pt and /snow.

No. 751166

>>751164
Aren't these good for scarring too though? I thought about buying one for my skin texture, but tbh it might be better to get it done by a professional

No. 751167

>>751137
I really want to watch for the fun of it but i'm worried i'll actually believe lol

>>751109
It's gonna take GENERATIONS before anyone even gets close to do any real planning of making Mars habitable, it's poinless to even think anyone is having any serious plans for it now. Elon Musk is a clown that loves attention and everyone else is just exploring it for the sake of exploring, no one is running away from Earth. World will not last long, but "not last long" still may mean hundreds of years, which sure, is nothing when it comes to the universe, but is long enough for an average human to still not give a fuck about it.
IMHO the real serious shit will only start happening to next generation or the one after it, when climate change will become unbearable enough, mass migration will ruin what we consider now first world countries.

No. 751170

>>751166
There's supposed to be good for wrinkles and scarring, yes. No idea how painful it will be, tho. It was on a big sale for like 10€ so I figured I'd just puncture my face and see what happens.

No. 751172

ngl i'm jealous of girls with no tits

No. 751174

>>751167
Mars is a big stretch but they're building underground bunkers.
Changes on the sun and in electromagnetic fields are what cause the climate changes and other shit and it happens faster than mainstream media are telling us. God I hope that the death from that nova will be fast enough

No. 751179

>>751172
Me too. I'm saving for breast reduction but until then I'm getting myself some chest binders.

No. 751181

>>751174
TBH you don't even have to look at mainstream media because the gravity of climate change is more and more visible every year. If people refuse to recognize what drastic temperature changes and never-seen-before weather occurences of this year really mean, they're insane. I'm trying to not think too much about it because it's really depressing as there's nothing we can do without stopping big companies from exploiting earth, and they'll never stop what gives them money. I keep hearing about rich people building bunkers all my life tbh, but it's not gonna do them any good really if the world outside is fucked, a few miserable borrowed years underground at best. Fingers crossed for our generation to die before reall bad time comes.

No. 751185

>>751172
Same. All the clothes that I’d like to wear only look good on women with small breasts…
Idk what top heavy women should wear…

No. 751188

What are good books about climate change and how to combat it?

No. 751192

No more weed I gotta stop for a bit. Yesterday I decided to wake and bake, the high was nice, wasn't paranoid or anything but I did nothing for the rest of the day. Usually I just get high before bed but yesterday being a huge waste made me really think about what I "get" from using it. It's not as fun as I remember it being in college, I'm always doing it alone in my parents house now, and i used it less in the past. I think about the life I want for myself after covid is "over" and I don't think it can happen if I'm getting straight stoned 5 days a week

No. 751193

>>751188
IDK about book - also I feel like books are a medium that will get outdated fast - but there's a pretty cool entry-level info youtube channel I've found recently

No. 751194

>>751185
Anything with a cleavage I have to put at least a safety pin in or I'll look like a street walker with my tits out. And if my boobs do fit, then you can be sure the waist is loose as fuck. So fucking annoying.

No. 751200

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This is tmi but, I took a small nap after a shower last night, and I just fucking realized I got a little period blood on my favorite light purple bath robe. I was laying on my stomach so it must have been from when I stood up to get dressed. I really did not mean to fall asleep, I just was trying to let my coochie dry before I put on underwear ughhhh. I'm lucky it's not that much, I would kms if I ruined my robe

No. 751205

Ok doomers

All this nattering about "the whole WORLD is gonna COLLAPSE so theres no point in even TRYING" is a massive floppy cope to justify not doing what youd like or as well as youd like in your life. At best it's that, at worst its conspiratard crap pushed by people who sell dumb shit to dumbass preppers. I believe that you "feel like the world is gonna end" because people have been feeling that for literally 2000 years except it used to be for christian reasons. Compared to any other period in history we are in a time of unprecedented peace, equality, and prosperity. There are huge problems and inequality issues too but dont be a whiny redditor cynic.

35 years ago the US and the USSR were literally pointing nuclear missiles at each other and having standoffs with the potential to end the world. Multiple times a nuclear exchange was averted solely due to the unimaginable coolheadedness of Russian nuclear submarine commanders. Multiple times this happened. And you think the world is in danger now? hahahHha shut the fuxk up.

Yeah climate change is a big problem, and basically every nation is on the same page with solving it, aside from US republicans, Australians (the worst people on earth), and Russia. Most non-oil big corps and even the us military understand the climate change is a threat. Even Texans just learned a big fat white lesson. Before any doomers reply to this, I should say that unless you are a literal professor of specifically atmospheric science, I know more about it than you do, so dont cite some fucking youtubers at me lmao. Literally all of the technical barriers to solving most global issues have been overcome, there just isn't the political will yet in the aforementioned idiot countries. A couple more Texas blizzards will take care of that, and then we can all blockade Australia until they grow up.

Sorry you'll have to live through your boring old age instead of an exciting apocalypse.

No. 751208

>>751205
>Australians (the worst people on earth)
Didn't read this whole post so maybe I missed something, but wtf did Australians do

No. 751213

>>751200
Coldest water u can get baby

No. 751214

>>751205
>Multiple times a nuclear exchange was averted solely due to the unimaginable coolheadedness of Russian nuclear submarine commanders.
Any examples of that? Interesting

No. 751215

>>751205
Ok, you saw some posts about climate change and typed all that in your big brain moment, but you know what would actually slap? If you read what you're responding to. No one was a doomer about it and no one said it's no point in even trying; and comparing climate change gaining speed to political situation from the past will definitely make you seem smart but it's not comparable. Every country talks like they're on the same page but barely anyone actually does all the things they promise, and main offenders like what you've listed except less of Australia (where is it even coming from??) and more of China and Saudi Arabia will not stop no matter how many blizzards happen in Texas, such a naive take.

No. 751219

>>751205
Are the aussies really that lazy with climate change policies? It's weird that they keep having fires every year and I don't know if they're doing something to prevent/minimize them but I've read they want to make Sydney sustainable by next decade.
Still, countries and industries aren't doing the bare minimum and so many experts are conffirming we are on our last moments to change the direction we are going, and others are straight up saying it's too late.
I don't believe in near term human extinction but it's pretty obvious life on earth is going to be more and more miserable as time goes on. Personally I'm very concerned by natural disasters, they're going to be more often, extended and harder than ever before and the effects on the local economies and just the people's wellbeings are depressing.

No. 751237

>>751103
Sorry but this is crackpot theory, and the reason why I even bother saying anything about this is because I feel it's a distraction away from tangible issues that could actually touch us all by 2030.

No. 751242

>>751237
How's the climate change a "distraction" and what can be worse than that and socio-economic and political changes caused by it?

No. 751243

>>751215
>If you read what you're responding to. No one was a doomer about it and no one said it's no point in even trying
Nta but the op did say
>I probably won't live past my 30s and there's no point in making "big plans" for the future. >>751103

No. 751251

>>751242
>climate change
It doesn't pay to be intellectually dishonest when anyone can scroll up and click on the videos referred to.
OP didn't cite climate change videos, she posted cataclysmic pole shift hypothesis, magnetic reversals, and earth crust shifts. All theories that can either be debunked OR–at best–will not happen or will gradually shift over millions of years and are literally irrelevant to thousands of generations of humans.
Certainly nothing to merit alarmist tripe statements like
>"Even as a child I felt like some shit is coming and I probably won't live past my 30s and there's no point in making "big plans" for the future."
Come. the. fuck. on.

If you want me to go I can, but you'll be completely eviscerated and you only serve to waste my time when even light google searching would give you actual answers to REAL issues.
Or you can go on believing "Suspicious0bservers" on youtube has all the answers and isn't just trying to bank off the platform.

No. 751256

>>751251
Not that anon, but please sis, tell me all your knowledge
eviscerate me

No. 751257

Usually I don't speak about it because there is no right answer, and it is a redundant topic.
But today I'm pissed. I am angry beyond my normal, sad, pussy normal self.
Fuck my classmates, my teachers and my parents. Sometimes also fuck my psychologist. I don't even understand what she wants to gide me to. One day my mother is a saint who suffered a lot so every bad move she made was justified, and my dad abused me. And the next day my dad is a poor father who just wants to see me again.
Ah, yes, school. My friends "moved on" from be and befriended some of the jerks who harrassed me.
I hate the "every bully has their own dark past". They didn't and they don't care about me. Why should I care about them?
Natural selection almost gets me and now I'm whining about myself everyday while they enjoy life.
I'm legit scared when someone gets just a little "not nice" because I'm afraid it will spiral into abuse or something and I know I still don't know how to fight back.
I can't even wish them the worse because I know they will live happy just as if nothing happened.
End of my rant, thanks for this thread.

No. 751261

>>751256
I know right? Clearly the answer here is to donate to Adapt30's patreon, listen to his podcasts, and be sure to pick up your 92 serving food supply by visiting http://www.foodwithadapt2030.com, on sale for a limited time only. So hurry!

No. 751265

I always have to listen to my boyfriend rambling about his problems about uni etc non stop but when I try to talk about my problems he says "You are thinking too much." "You should not be thinking about those things." It just frustrates me. He had a lot of important exams the last two weeks and we could not see each other that often so I tried to be as supportive and happy as possible for him. But in reality I am thinking about killing myself. I feel lonely even tho my family surrounds me and I hate everything and do not see a point in doing anything so I just lay in bed and sleep as much as I can apart from working to avoid thinking about it. I hate myself so fucking much and I just want to disappear. I got diagnosed by my doctor with recurrent depressive disorder and tried to get a therapist appointment but my fucking health insurance makes it so hard to get an appointment. They want me to submit a thousand dumb papers and it takes hours to get someone on the phone for further information. I once almost lost my temper and broke down on the phone. Fuck those people for making i so hard to get help.

No. 751267

>>751208
>>751215
George Bush's USA and Australia were the only, let me repeat ONLY countries not to join the Kyoto climate accords. Australia continues to do beyond retarded shit like destroy the great barrier reef with coal mine dumpings.

The Chinese government is a lot of things but they aren't stupid. Already they are the world's largest producer of solar panels. Saudi Arabia doesnt burn the oil, they just extract it, and oil will remain needed for plastics and chemicals for a long time, so they can keep doing that, we just won't be burning it. Petrochemical products bring additional issues of course but they dont contribute to climate change like burning oil & gas.

>>751214
happened during the cuban missile crisis that I know of for sure but I cant remember what the other times were so you'll have to google, and I'd bet a bunch more terrifying incidents happened that we wont even know about till the CIA declassified all cold war stuff.

>>751219
>experts are conffirming we are on our last moments to change the direction we are going
then cite one. a lot of people call themselves experts who are, to put it gently, not experts. If you see someone who calls themself a "climate scientist" on twitter but doesnt say they are a professor or what they study specifically, you are looking at a liar. Time doesnt "run out" cause it's not a bomb, of course the consequences are worse the later you act, but theres no "deadline". When you hear people talk about a "climate deadline" the subtext is always "deadline to avoid a predicted warming of more than 4C" or some such which may well be true and is a valid call to action, but shock journalists run with IMMINENT DEADLINE or the world will BURN to get clicks.

Natural disasters are a more reasonable concern though and you are right to be worried. I would say though, humans are really resilient. The 2004 India tsunami killed 227,000 people, we're only 17 years on from that, and even destruction that horrifying has left scars and memories but normal life returns. The Black Death killed as many as 2/3rds of people in Europe in the 1300s, and 100 years after that the population was still less than half of before the plague, and standards of living had fallen dramatically. You can read accounts of medieval people lamenting how villages and whole cities were deserted or fallen into decay and desperate poverty. But by the 1500s, European people were thriving and achieved standards of living not seen since roman times. And with modern medicine theres no natural disaster that would come close to causing that level of death, except really unpredictable events like meteor strikes.

Before anyone accuses me of anything, I take buses and trains exclusively except for the occasional uber, i havent flown in a plane since I was 13, >99% of my closet is thrifted, and unless you literally invented solar pabels or smth, my job is probably greener than yours. I won't take shit from people who say they're concerned about climate but wont walk the walk.

No. 751272

>16&Pregnant is back on MTV!

Why? Did we really need a new generation of child-moms who think they are ready to be raising kids because they saw a different child-mom with rich parents get through it on tv?
This shit should be illegal and morally repugnant. Not because teens are having sex, but because they actually think they can be parents. Too bad a show about teens who aborted would just result in them being harassed, assaulted, and murdered because that would be way more insightful and actually shows what intelligent girls do when they find themselves prego.

No. 751280

>>750857
>I doubt a bunch of young adult women will be brainwashed by fan creations into roaming the streets creeping on kids when men still commit like 99% of all statutory rape cases and them masturbating to lolis is lightyears from some 25-year old fujo wanting to see MHA characters kissing

thiiiiis

No. 751281

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When I hung out with my friends the other day, a married-friend was giving one of our single friends really bad dating advice. Single friend got burnt pretty badly by some asshole scrote who I never liked. She's clearly anxious about ever getting close to another guy again and she may even have some lingering oneitis. The scrote kept her on the hook for almost two years. He fucking strung her along and had sex with her multiple times without ever offering to be in a relationship with her due to conflicting "religious values," and yet jumped into a relationship with a woman who had money and clout the second he saw opportunity. He blocked my friend and avoided her, she was so heartbroken. It's awful, like truly despicable shit. Every now and then he tries to pop back into her life "to check on her" when he doesn't give a fuck about her! He only cares to know that he still lives rent-free in her head because it boosts his ego. And the worst part is she does still think about him and it's true, even though she puts on a front that she's over him. I hate that fucker so much.

Anyways, the married friend is giving her bad dating advice like I said. It's advice suitable for a man, but not suitable for a woman who's vulnerable and who would be a target for predatory men: "Put yourself out there! Some guys just need to be approached!" Nah sis, if guys really want you and are interested, they will approach you. A man will take a woman's advances just for the opportunity to feel wanted and to have sex, not because he actually appreciates her forwardness and wants an actual relationship with her. And it seems like for the rare case of a guy being genuinely too introverted to make first moves, that he would be a hassle in relationships for lack of decision-making and a backbone, and that he primarily fears rejection which makes him a cowardly beta.
I followed her advice when I was single and not only got burnt once, but twice. It wasn't until I laid down my standards in plain vernacular did my current bf come into the picture to step up to my level and give me what I wanted Build-a-Bastard style. Men know rather immediately who they want. It doesn't pay to simp for men.

No. 751286

I hate how YouTube keeps removing my damn comments and I didn't write any swear words on them.so it's okay for someone to reply nasty remarks with curse words but I can't even reply back?fuck YouTube honestly

No. 751287

>>751267
Thank you anon, I admire how smart you are, wish we could be friends

No. 751321

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It drives me nuts that I only get two days off and one has to be devoted to doing nothing or socializing, and the other devoted to cleaning up from the prev week and preparing for the upcoming.
Sure, I could neglect both days and do nothing but that just makes my life more hard and depressing so why choose that? I could switch it up and do cleaning/prep on the first day off instead of the second, but it really doesn't make a difference imo.

I'm more predictable than a sim.

Unrelated sidenote: I confided to my bf my feelings about my weight last night. I realized I let my weight get super out of hand, and he reassured me that he would love me no matter my weight which I guess is true considering I'm an obeast right now but anyways I thought that was sweet and it made me feel better. I'm going to try really hard because I know I can look better and I want to stay healthy for our relationship. It's just nice to get that kind of support, we're gonna start eating better too.

No. 751326

i wanna get into posting more of my dumbass art on twitter but every english-speaking account i follow is peak pearl-clutching 24/7 over the most asinine bs it kind of puts me off. artists on twitter are like a cult now, it makes me just not wanna engage them at all, and it's not even worth the possibility of making bank from comissions someday bc they put SO much emphasis on whether youre trans or black/brown or have a million bullshit diagnoses that make it IMPOSSIBLE to get a real job and not live off of comissions, i just wanna post my art without prostituting my private life+identity for your sadistic viewing pleasure, for god's sake!

also its been talked about in the artist salt thread but im also afraid of getting "cancelled"/having life ruining accusations thrown against me by a horde of retarded 15 year olds for liking the wrong ship or daring to be an adult engaged in fandom or whatever. "don't engage anon" yeah, i don't, but these sadistic morons make blocklists for anyone following an account theyve arbitrarily decided they hate for drawing porn or w/e, so even if i keep to myself theres still an off chance following an artist i like who gets griefed by the puritan mob gets me blacklisted by proxy.

god i fucking hate these sjw tards and how they've taken over pretty much every mainstream corner of the internet. i hate having to second guess myself on the dumbest shit, like this.

No. 751335

Threw out my journal. Can't be fucking bothered with it anymore. I don't think journalling is healthy. I think it's a load of shit. I never understand how to write to myself for reflection. I'm also nervous some cunt is going to read it like my step ma did years ago and then tried to kill my pets (cba talking about that) Everytime I start a diary to vent into I end up doing something cringe like setting it on fire in a bathroom or throwing it off a cliff etc.

I hate keeping a diary. I hate making sure all my thoughts are written. there's too fucking many and then when I'm talking about one thing another thing relevant pops up but then that's a whole fucking story. And it's like, why am I writing myself a story about what happened. I fucking know what happened and it made me angry. Whenever I do read back over my diary it's cringe and full of me lying saying I'm going to be better do this, do that and I don't. It's so fucking pointless. Anyway. So I threw out another one. I was keeping that one from the start of the fist lockdown in March 2019, but I just don't fucking care.

Want to know what was in my diary?!?! I had a secret affair with my ex from Feb - August after we broke up because he broke my nose, attacked me frequently when he was coked out, told my parents I'm a drug addict (I am not but it is still embarrassing) always let his friends humiliate me because he was the joke of their group and not to blow smoke up my own ass but none of his uneducated dumb fuck friends has ever met a girl like me before. Everyone one of them tried it on and I rejected them. So that's what I was venting about and who fucking cares!!!!!!!

No. 751342

>>751326
I feel this so hard. I'm terrified a misunderstanding on Twitter will affect my career prospects, so I almost never post there despite it being one of the better platforms for self-promotion.

I miss Tumblr.

No. 751346

>>751326
There's a japanese artist I follow who posts one drawing a day and nothing else, no commentary, no replies to followers, not even little snippets of their life, doesn't follow anybody and they are quite successful. They only draw fanart, so maybe that's why they managed to get such a following, but their behavior is pretty based imo. I don't think you need to be openly political to be active as an artist, only post about art and maybe keep a private account to follow "controversial" people.

No. 751348

I did absolutely nothing this weekend and it didn't even feel good. On Saturday I had plans to hang out, but they were postponed to the point that we couldn't really do anything significant. Pretty fucking annoyed that they didn't just give me the heads up so I could plan something else. Then today again, nothing interesting.

Sometimes I'll enjoy gaming, eating like shit and being a dumbass for the weekend. But this one was just kind of empty to the point I was wanting to go back to work by mid-Sunday. What a waste.

And same as that other poster, I'm getting fucking fat.

No. 751349

>>751326
I don't think it really is that hard, I'm following many artists on twitter and literally never seen any of them have any kind of controversy attached to them; just knowing what may be a touchy subject and focusing on art, not discourse, really should be enough. It's not THAT easy to get cancelled actually.

No. 751362

>>751326
I feel you. I recently made a completely new twitter account for the purpose of posting fanart, not commissions, so not sure if it'll help you. But my plan is to play a dumb European from some backwards conservative country (actually true) who doesn't understand English well and only interacts with others on very basic level. Durr what do you mean I should put my pronouns in the bio, what is this pronouns? My name is Anon nice to meet you friend let's be friends.
>>751346
Basically this. I already follow a bunch of Japanese artists and I don't care what they talk about in the few text posts they make, I'm there for the juicy art. The few western posts I notice that mention sjw topics or politics get flagged as not interesting and I'm hoping the twitter algorithm will do it's job eventually.

No. 751378

I'm unable to communicate with my boyfriend and I'm going crazy from it.

No. 751387

I have a womb. I lost my virginity at 16 and have been practicing safe sex ever since. I am 30. Men don't have a womb. They should have an easier time managing to not have a family. So why am I being harsh putting on my dating bio "I managed not have kids yet, so I don't want you to either" lol

No. 751388

>Trying to come to terms with the fact that I was emotionally neglected as a child
>Feel stupid and immature for worrying about my mommy hurting my feelings when I was a kid, feel guilty for having feelings
>Literally a sign of childhood emotional neglect
>fuck

No. 751389

>>751326
>i hate having to second guess myself on the dumbest shit, like this.
This fucking summed up my feelings exactly. I'm scared of RTing or liking anything that could even remotely, vaguely be considered problematic because I feel like there are people keeping an eye out. The ones canceling artists are obsessed and stalk people relentlessly, they search your tweets and likes from years ago to find something questionable. I'm even afraid that I'll be canceled over not including pronouns in my bio and "normalizing it for trans people", just the most inane shit gets you fried if some unhinged fuck fixates on you.

>>751362
>But my plan is to play a dumb European from some backwards conservative country (actually true) who doesn't understand English well and only interacts with others on very basic level.
I've actually been contemplating on doing this exact thing. I'm also from a bumfuck European country so I can always fall back to my incomprehensible native language and pretend I don't speak English or understand western fandom politics at all. However whenever Japanese artists do it they - honest to god - start receiving replies in google translated Japanese from Americans trying to educate them on fandom discourse. You really had to take that extra step instead of going outside and touching the grass?

No. 751392

I don't wanna go to the town square ever again! Every time I go, if I stand still for 2 minutes, someone comes by and tries to swindle me! Fuck off!!!

No. 751395

Noooooooooooooo my fav cousin is a fakeboi. I know she's always had issues feeling feminine and suffers with PCOS (she's 6'0 and can already grow a beard) but this isn't the way to go. Already talking about lopping off her tits too. I had been trying to tell her that she should try losing some weight before giving up on treating her PCOS since she's overweight as well but was having no luck getting through to her. Her mom is frantic over the whole situation and wants me to try and talk her out of continuing to take testosterone.

No. 751397

How do i stop oversharing

No. 751405

>>751397
try writing down your thoughts in a place unavailable for others, you'll express yourself without having anyone exposed to it.

No. 751408

>>751397
I decided to start hoarding info about myself and thought about it like money. I would only spend if necessary. Sounds dumb but it would make me think before oversharing anything.

No. 751420

Really fucking annoyed with one of my friends. The more I spent time with her the more i realize what a habitual liar she is. She’s so damn unreliable and dishonest as a friend. Always ignoring you, leaving you and acting dumb when you need her to back you up or support you. I’ve never seen someone so self-absorbed. Only there for the fun and good times, or when she needs a free therapist. This is what I get for always being such a damn people pleaser. And when I stand up for myself I’m seen as this mean person all of the sudden cause it’s uncharacteristic of me to not coddle everyone. Don’t be doormats like me ladies.

No. 751426

>>751101
I know its some head ass shit but I gotta bitch about it somewhere & I'm not gonna bitch to irl friends about it

No. 751430

Vented a lot today, not currently in a good mental state. I've been sort of starving myself for the past 2 or 3 months. Basically been living off of one meal a day or sometimes like a snack or sandwich. I just have no appetite. I'm so fucking depressed. Cooked myself dinner and tried to eat it but spat it out. Couldn't swallow a bite. Felt like I was going to be sick earlier from hunger pains, but I just binned my dinner. I have no motivation. I get aches a lot. There's a cut on my foot that still hasn't fully healed from last year, I don't think I'm eating enough and my period is a week late, because I don't think I ate enough calories this month to sustain one. I'm not even doing it for vanity or to be skinny, I just have 0 motivation to eat. Even going to the supermarkets lately I just go in, grab the same staples and leave, it feels like a chore. Maybe it's cause it's the first time I've been single. On top of that living alone has just been so lonely lately. Maybe also all the lockdowns. I'm probably damaging myself a lot doing this but idk.

No. 751431

I've been a filthy neet for almost two years, my apartment is filled with trash and dust and I clean it like once in a few months. some time ago I started showing cold-like symptoms, but despite treatment they didn't go away, I started having cough attacks, respiratory issues, my voice got raspy, I would wake up at night with tears streaming down my cheeks and my nose dripping etc. I noticed that those symptoms basically dissaperead every time I went outside and the moment I went back home they started to appear again so I assumed I had dust mite allergy. there's also the constant brain fog and exhaustion that doesn't leave me once I'm outside. I started having problems with breathing while wearing a mask. I can sleep 8 hours but wake up tired. I'm afraid I basically gave myself asthma and and I hate myself for it, I know it's all my fault, and the worst thing is that I still feel too tired and depressed to clean anything. I wish I could just leave this place and live in a motel for a while or something so I could regain some strenght and work on my fucking apartment. I hate myself so much

No. 751433

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I hate it whenever you are 100% sure of something and someone just has to butt in with 100% wrong info, so it all ends up with you watching as idiots google something you already told them. Then they'll explain it to you and you try to understand that it's great that people want and know how to double check but my god bitch. It's always shit like:
A: what language is this surname?
B: it's finnish
C: no I think it's swedish or norwegian, maybe even german
B: no, I am fucking sure it's finnish, source I am finnish
A & C: let's google and explain it later to B-anon!!

No. 751438

>>751430
Please anon get that cut looked at, it all sounds very rough for you and I hope you'll get better eventually anon.

No. 751448

>>751431
Can you try doing small tasks? Pick up a piece of trash as you’re passing, take a few seconds to wipe the dust off something. Or work on one small area at a time. I know it seems impossible but you can do it. You deserve to be comfortable in your own home.

No. 751451

>>751431
I have sometimes let my apartment slip into a horrible state and I know it's a lot, but what if you try to do what I did during shit times? Drink and eat something, then set an alarm 5 from now. During those 5 minutes, you clean up whatever you can, you can't do dishes in 5 minutes, nor can you clean up a full room but you can throw a few wrappers in the bin, you can tie close a bin liner, or maybe you can wash that one plate. After those 5 minutes, you realise you did all that in 5 minutes, it wasn't too overwhelming and you can do it again whenever you feel like it, it's okay anon.

No. 751452

>>751431
Just get up and clean? Like, it's not hard?

No. 751454

>>751452
Nta It clearly is for many people once they get unwell enough, don't be a fucking asshole, anon.

No. 751457

>>751335
I'm similar, I dont have any urge to write things down unless I'm fucking pissed. I just have a google docs folder that I make rage documents in when i know it's too dumb to post. Better than a physical journal imo because if you only wrote in it when pissed you'll hate the fuckin thing and ever opening it will just piss you off again. A google doc you can just open a new one and start fresh without retriggering yourself, then close it or delete it and it's out of sight put of mind. and also you can password protect it. Plus when you have enough entries in your rage diary you can do a wordcloud on it and see what actually pisses you off the most lol.

No. 751460

>>751457
I'm going to do this anon, thanks lol

No. 751472

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Why do I feel so ashamed of being gay? Like I keep randomly crying because of it. My sexuality is so sexualized and I feel ashamed, I've always been leered at in public just for being a woman but I want to hold another woman's hand and kiss her and be free without anybody either being weirded out or turned on and it freaks me out. My friends can kiss their partners in public and nobody says anything but when it's two women everybody suddenly has an opinion. I hate this feeling, but GOD do I wanna be in love. anyway thanks for listening to this rant i hate scrotes.

No. 751474

>>751451
>>751431
I've had this happen from too much stuff, between school stuff, work stuff, crap I bought, etc to the point where it was getting legit cramped. It had also gotten generally dusty to the point where if I tried to clean up for more than 5 minutes I would have a sneezing fit and be an allergic drippynosed mess for two days (sensitive to dust) so I kinda just avoided it. What worked for me was I started making myself throw out just one object/bag it for donation whenever I was doing something with a small wait like microwaving tea/coffee, queuing for dota/wow bgs, downloading something, etc. and over time it gets dealt with.

But anon your health consequences sound more serious than sneezing, you'll get better when its dealt with but you should soon just for quality of living. If you can afford it consider hiring a cleaning service, if you're embarrassed just say your brother lived here for a couple months and wrecked the place. They really dont care and won't ask questions. I know youd feel the fool paying for it, but it's normal, lots of people hire cleaners just cause it actually is significant time & suffering to keep up with it every day. Marilyn monroe apparently would eat fried chicken in bed, push the bones and dirty plates down by her feet under the blankets, sleep like that, and just leave it for cleaners to find and deal with…and I've seen plenty of parents hauling bag after bag of literal food trash and garbage out of their kids college apartment at end of year. It's really really normal. I feel like humans in nature would just like make camp somewhere and leave their cro magnon trash around wherever until it got too gross and then just move elsewhere until nature reclaimed it.

Above all else just keep in mind the maximum cost of getting it dealt with literally right now is probably not more than $300 or smth for cleaning, less if it's just trashing stuff and not steam cleaning or w/e, which really isn't much to get your life back. You could probably even do installment payments if you say you let your brother stay and he wrecked it and you need it done now but dont have the cash. And keep in mind, anyone in the cleaning business has probably seen way worse than your messiness, they've probably cleaned up after people who literally died and rotted. You might be embarrassed but they legit won't think about it at all.

If you cant afford cleaners you absolutely have to just move somewhere else when your lease is up and leave it behind, you'll probably lose your security deposit for the cleaning but they usually try to fuck you anyway. Even if you have to live in a motel or even shelter for a while, you absolutely have to just give yourself a fresh start at almost any cost.

No. 751482

>>751431
You better be careful kinda sounds like mold exposure

No. 751490

>>751472
Anon, I feel you. Scrotes are assholes and deserve to perish for objectifying lesbians.
Please, never feel ashamed about your sexuality. Giving love to another human is a beautiful thing and you deserve to experience that and live it in public with your girlfriend or wife. You deserve to live your sexuality freely without being paranoid of other people. It is not you who should feel ashamed it is the scrotes making the nasty comments. The truth is that the only person who should have an opinion about your relationships is you and your girlfriend or wife. I truly wish for you to be free and without worries in the future. May your relationship bloom.

No. 751496

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I absolutely hate being at home because of my autistic brother. I don't love him and being near him makes me feel sheer hate and anger for how useless, manipulative, and fear-mongering he is without actually doing anything. I hate that I have to be home everyday and deal with these negative feelings that have been draining my life and my soul, I'm pretty sure I have anhedonia because what's the point of enjoying anything when you're always anxious for your life? I am uncomfortable and anxious around him and so is my other female sibling, and my mother will keep enabling him for the "PRESHUSH LITLE BOY HE IS" when he's almost fucking 30, and that he can't do anything wrong because he can't help it. I keep telling to my therapist that he will probably kill us if he had the opportunity because me and my sister do not want him in our lives. Putting him into another living situation is in the works but it will not happen under next year, the patience I sincerely don't have. I've gone through excrutiating moments, and he does nothing but exist, but it's the things he done and the POTENTIAL that he does have to kill me, my sister, my family is what I'm constantly worried about. I am not mentally alright, I have to suppress my feelings to accommodate male comfort. My pain and suffering will never be recognized by other anons because it isn't a typical break-up story or about something dumb, I can no longer see why to keep living and I know this is an imageboard but if I'm gone by any chance, I just wanted to vent feelings that no one will ever understand or do anything about.

No. 751503

>>751496
wait, did he say he wanted to kill you and your siblings anon ? Is he violent with you ?

No. 751505

>>751472
Agree. As a soft tomboy I also have a huge useless lesbian complex as in I feel like if I make a move or express being interested in women it's taken as a predatory act and I'm branded as a literal rapist for being attracted to other women. Thanks all the shuwu tier bihets screeching about how butch lesbians are all disgusting scrote emulators and potential rapists because they wear a snapback. Not a day goes by without wishing I was attracted to men and thus could be "normal".

No. 751507

>>751505
>blaming random hypothetical bi women for the fact that you despise yourself as a mega cope
get therapy babes x

No. 751508

>>751507
I didn't wanna say it, but I really don't feel like it's bi women's fault that homophobic people have that "lesbians are predatory!" idea tbh

No. 751514

One of my colleges offices is so new it doesn't appear on google maps or any of the school maps, physical and digital. The office is super important though and I needed to send my papers in person to them so I had to spend half an hour just driving and walking around campus to find a single building. Even the kids had no idea were it was and google map gave the wrong location.
The place isn't new new it's A YEAR OLD

No. 751520

>>751505

I feel like that is mostly in your head. Women arent likely to be intimidated by other women, at most homophobes are offended for being mistaken for a lesbian themselves.

No. 751524

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>>751490
>>751505
Thank you, anons, I know I should probably go to therapy to work on this but now that I think about it.. that's just life. Men are always going to be disgusting and predatory, the best thing for me right now is to find a therapist who understands that. The last one I had was an underlining homophobe so maybe that added to my stress. I just want to give love my future relationship without worrying but that's just how every woman in this world fucking feels so fuck it, I just I'll just become a hermit with someone else.
>giving love to another human is a beautiful thing and you deserve to experience that and live it in public with your girlfriend or wife
i'm already emotional so this made me tear up, thank you <3

No. 751526

>>751514
Be the hero you didn't have and mark it on Google maps. Someone has to.. I did that for a certain location and about 6 months later I got a notification that it had been viewed 50,000 times. It made me feel good.

No. 751550

Skincare makes me break out. I'm fucking 24 years old and whenever I put anything on my face I get large pimples all over again. Moisturiser makes me break out especially. WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO I just want my skin to not be dry and flaky???

No. 751552

>>751550
Maybe you could try more natural products? Like aloe vera gel and stuff

No. 751553

>>751550
Use the face wash from the brand simple and aveeno moisturizer. Those worked for me and I have sensitive skin.

No. 751556

>>751550
Sorry I don’t have specific answers but I found r/skincareaddiction really helpful.

No. 751563

Wedding culture is fucking atrocious. I joined these stupid Facebook groups hoping it would motivate me to plan my wedding but it ended up doing the exact opposite. It makes me physically sick to see the money people are spending on one day of their lives. These aren’t rich people either. They are forcing themselves into debt to meet an impossible expectation forced on them by media and Big McBusiness, and their families who are motivated by the same thing. Don’t come at me with that “well maybe it makes them happy!” bullshit. These people consistently lament about how stressed they are from planning and are on the “brink” of “giving up”. Or they cry about how bystanders forced into their wedding parties “aren’t excited” or helping them with the planning. How fucking morbid. You’re signing a legal contract with another person so you have access to each other’s benefits and have some kind of stake in possessions when they inevitably die or leave you for someone else. It’s not that deep

No. 751566

>>751563
If I had a boyfriend and we were ready to get married I would totally use lockdown as an excuse just to get married at city hall and have a small reception somewhere.

For what people spend on their weddings, it all goes by in such a blur. I have never remembered how tables were decorated or how the room looked, or the flowers etc etc when I've been a guest at a wedding. I can understand if you're a church person and wanting to specifically have your wedding at a nice church, but the worry about the reception and omg the flowers and the table and the favours etc etc just seems like a lot of effort for nothing.

No. 751570

>>751553
I’d just like to second that aveeno worked for me also. Why is that I wonder.

No. 751571

>>751570
For some reason it doesnt burn like most other moisturizers.

No. 751579

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everyday i lose more of my grip on reality. anyways i’ve known i was a lesbian since i was 16 but i’m 23 and have never been with a woman. at this point i’m just scared lol but my god i want a monogamous irl relationship with a woman so badly it’s not even funny

No. 751592

>>751563
My big brother and his wife were exactly like this. It was really hard to stomach because my parents and I are the opposite and we had to put on a supportive face for his sake. They did everything just as you described, including driving themselves into debt and actively pressuring the people around them to help pay for their exorbitant wedding expenses. Maybe it sounds too intense or whatever but I agree that the pompousness of wedding culture and the expectation to wholeheartedly participate in it is sickening somehow.

No. 751596

think my husband is gearing up to come out as trans after being nonbinary for a few years

fuck this gay earth ladies, just wanted a normal ass marriage n relaxing life

i can tolerate nonbinary bc hes still pretty normal but if he wants to start taking estrogen i don't think i can handle it

No. 751597

>>751596
Tone it down with reddit spacing but what makes you suspect he is gonna troon out besides the they bs?

No. 751599

>>751596
What do you think got him into being a tranny?

No. 751601

>>751596
That's your husband so I assume you can be 100% honest with him. Just go full nuclear and say that you can't fucking change your gender. He is either suffering from a mental break or he is starting to fetishize himself as a woman. In both incidences he needs called out. Until this moment have you ever felt like your husband was actually a woman in a man's body? Absolutely mental what the democrat election campaign of 2015 unleased on to the world, fucking trannies everywhere. Before that election the tranny down my street was still referred to as a transvestite lol

No. 751605

I have anxiety and have struggled with extreme nail biting since I have memory. I'm used to having my fingers in pain, bleeding and having a length of three milimeters for nails, but this last week I've been able to stop biting them, magically, as I've tried many times in the past.
They're growing, but I'm still struggling a lot, I was watching tv and somehow ended up biting one of them. I'm sad :(

No. 751606

>>751397
I like keeping secrets, so I think about details about myself like this. You wanna know my favorite color? Aw shucks babe, not gonna tell you, my secret alone hehehe

No. 751609

>>751451
Just wanna second this, it's my favorite way of convincing myself to get stuff done. Sometimes it feels like a game which convinces me to do more as a "challenge" to myself.

No. 751611

>>751605
It's just one, you're still doing amazing. I have similar issue and have yet to manage it as well as you just did, it's inspiring. Don't let one stumble forget all that progress

No. 751618

So I'm in a mh support group, all women and one guy. This guy has been in the mix for a few years now and is a total creep. I feel like such a fucking idiot because I defended him when imo others were being unfair (bc he wore red laces and dr martens he's a full blown nazi, etc). But over the years he's gotten worse. Pretty much from the off he's complained about his wife. Insinuating that she was overdosing him on purpose, which turned out to be nothing. Annoyed that his wife isn't fulfilling her carer obligations to make him a cup of tea every hour, yet he drives a fucking car ffs. IF YOU CAN DRIVE A CAR YOU CAN BOIL A KETTLE DIPSHIT. He has spoken numerous times about there being a lack of intimacy in the bedroom and it's way tmi but I can't say anything because anything goes in these groups. He has asked out 2 other women in the group, whilst being MARRIED w 3 KIDS and it makes it super fucking awkward…

Anyway, he was going through it and I messaged him basically giving him tough love advice or whatever, and he responded pretty well to it. More back and fourths ensue, bc tbh I was a little concerned he was gonna off himself, then he says out the blue, to paraphrase "i'd break lockdown rules for you uwu" and I shut that down super quick but i'm still kinda grossed out by it. Like it's super not that big of a deal, but i'm 25 and he's 45, married and has kids. It's just made me feel uncomfy, like I was hugging him as a friend and he saw it differently and ewwww. AND bc he has aspergers i feel like a total dick for feeling icky. I'm pretty prudish and a lil immature in that area so i know i'm being silly, just wanted to put this out there, in some capacity. I just want him to leave so i can still go, it's ruined what is meant to be a place for me to go meet people that struggle in a similar way. Sigh…

No. 751620

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>>751611
thanks so much nonnie, I might cry. Good luck and sending you strength

No. 751629

I don't think I'm ever going to feel better until I'm dying
I don't understand why I only feel any relief when I'm in pain

No. 751673

my husband is insistent on having cake & doing "something special" for my birthday no matter how many times ive spelled out to him that i just want to be stay home & be depressed IN PEACE. no one in my family can understand how i could not like my birthday so they always insist on doing something. if its supposed to be "my day" why do i always spend it pretending to have fun & be happy for others so that they dont feel bad that im not enjoying myself at their ~celebration~ that i didnt even want to have in the 1st place? im fucking depressed but i gotta spend the whole night making sure i dont bum anyone out. celebrate your own damn birthdays but for once maybe actually listen to me & leave me alone on mine.

No. 751676

Just lost a bunch of files on a hard drive, including personal photos, and old art that I'd saved from all over the internet. At least the rest of my files were saved, but this still sucks. I guess this is what i get for not autistically backing my shit up.

No. 751699

>>751676
Try using Recuva anon to recover the lost files

No. 751705

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Back again to vent about how my dad grabbed my throat tonight, same asshole from this post >>743513.

Today he made himself a big breakfast where he didn't do the dishes and left them in the sink, but gave himself brownie points because he cleaned his own cake tins from the night before and cleaned out my wok I was going to clean today after I got done with cleaning the rest of the apartment. So he left the dishes in the sink for me or my bf to pick up.
Trash was overfilled and stinkin' but again, he left it like that because he expected me or bf to take it out tonight. He rarely takes out trash and pitches a fit when we don't.
My dad camped out in the living room all day shirtless and watching mafia movies. He didn't do shit today–scratch that, he hogged MY laundry machines all day doing his backed up loads of laundry so I couldn't get mine done today.
I made myself lunch and left a plate and baking dish in the sink because hey–it will all be mine and bf's mess to clean up later anyway like usual. What did he care?

I was trying to get cleaning for my bedroom and bathroom done because I go back to work tomorrow. My bf was at work and couldn't help me. I was frustrated and sweating not only because of all the bullshit I was cleaning up after, but because my dad wanted the patio door left open and it reached 80 degrees in the apartment! He didn't care because he was loafing shirtless on the couch watching movies, and had no consideration for me. I was so fucking miserable, but tried to tolerate it as best I could because I knew I couldn't say anything to his shitty ass.

Towards the end of the night I emerged from my room to ask, yes with an annoyed tone in my voice, if he had finally shut the patio door because it was really hot. He grouched back that he had, and angrily tried to tone police me about my "attitude." Of course things escalated because I didn't take his shit just because I un-sweetly asked if the fucking door was shut. Invariably he calls me "little girl" and barks "Who do you think you're talking to?!" which I responded his full name and to not start with me. I adjusted the thermostat to cool the apartment down and then I walked away to my room.
He followed me to my bedroom entrance. The mafia movies must got his fat ass thinking he's Tony Soprano. He puffed up his chest and aggressively pressed his body into mine. He told me to "go to my room!!!!" He got in my face. Started going off on me about how I "never do shit around here" and how dare I talk to him like how I had. He was so close to my face while he shouted at me that he was spitting in my face every time he opened his gob. He thought he could intimidate me. I'm 5'3 and he's about 5'10ish. His ass isn't scary and if anything he just makes me angry because he's got this loud/might makes right attitude.

Anyway I tolerated a few minutes of this fucker pushing his body into mine and getting my face spat at, before I shoved him away. Well, he didn't take kindly to being shoved.
He grabbed for me. He bruised my arm, and in the middle of all his grabbing and my keeping him at length hand movements, he put his right hand to my throat which looked like an attempt to choke me. He must have quickly realized how fucked up that was. He kept his hand there for a split second before pulling it away.
That motherfucker almost choked me just because I asked him if a door was shut and gave him ~attitude~ about it. I asked if he seriously just put his hand on my throat? He didn't answer that, just yelled about how I shoved him and then bitched again about the place being unclean. It took everything in my power to not start punching and beating his ass when he was grappling me, my adrenaline was high. I controlled myself, if only for the fact that I know I can't allow abusers to victimize themselves. Just imagine had I walloped him in the face. He already thought he was a victim for being shoved off my body. He's a violent scrote loser.

He pulled this shit because my bf wasn't home to stick up for me. I was alone. He did this on purpose, he wouldn't have dared if my bf was here.
Anyway, the fight wasn't over because he kept verbally going after me. He went in the kitchen to scream about my baking dish and plate in the sink and to point out his big-boy points for having done a couple of dishes. So I took his gross bowl filled with swamp water and all the breakfast utensils he used that morning and dumped it out in front of him. I repeatedly called him a bastard and a son of a bitch. I pointed out how me and my bf do the cleaning and all he could do was lie that I actually don't and what my bf does he wasn't "impressed" by. He said I was a "mean and nasty woman"–like gee, I wonder why I'm not sweet to him?
To top it all off, he said the reason why he left the patio door open all day is because the kitchen stunk. Why? Because the trash hadn't been taken out.
So instead of doing something like, taking the trash out, he was going to wait for my bf to do it tonight like usual. Lazy fucker. He just used it as ammo against me to prove how I don't do nothing around here. To prove why the kitchen was gross despite the fact that I just the other day wiped down all the counters, cleaned and wiped out the fridge and freezer, and was going to do my nightly dish duty after I got done cleaning the fucking bedroom and bathroom.

I don't even know what to say about this bastard. He asked me when I was moving out, as if he doesn't need my half of rent money to make end's meet. As if he wasn't the one couch surfing for free with friends after my mom kicked him out and he couldn't afford a place by himself. The fucking audacity.
Anyway, he thinks I didn't tell anyone what happened so he's acting like nothing happened. I told my boyfriend, my friends, and my dad's brother and sister about what he did. My dad is pretending everything is okay. When his brother called him to talk, he didn't bring it up and just shot the shit like nothing was wrong.
He's fucked. I hate him. My arm fucking hurts.

No. 751710

>>751705
Anon please move out as soon as you can. Its only going to get worse from here.

No. 751712

>>751705
if you have marks, you can tell the police
or you can at least threaten with that if he starts again

No. 751729

>>751705
Get the fuck out of there anon, holy shit. What an aggressive POS you shouldn't be anywhere near, how dare he treat you like that. He's an indulgent asshole who doesn't deserve a family.

Please get out of there and stay safe.

No. 751740

I need to get a car but I can't drive stick to save my life. I looked up automatic cars and fuck are they expensive, and if not expensive then ugly as shit and huge.

Why the fuck can't I be normal and learn how to drive a normal fucking car.

No. 751741

>>751740
Manual is easy once you figure out the biting point. The hardest thing is probably just remembering your biting point but after a while it just becomes second nature. My first car never had a rev counter, basically anything over like 5mph put it in second, once the spped gets close to 20mph wack it to third. 4th gear basically takes you up to about 45mph and then there's 5th for like motorways or cruising.

No. 751745

>>751741
It's been 5 years and it's still an issue. I'm just so fucking tired of it.

No. 751752

>>751745
>>751740
idk where you live, but in my country 99% of people drive automatic. It's not some unaffordable luxury, it's the norm. Are you sure they're actually overpriced, or is it just that manuals are extra cheap because nobody wants them? Honestly you need to just save up and get a car you can drive comfortably, they're such a vital part of everyday life that you can't be struggling and stressing over it for years.

No. 751753

>>751752

3rd world coutry

No. 751754

>>751752
I'm from Easter Europe and yes, they're overpriced. You can get an okay stick for less than 2k€, maybe less (used, obviously), most automatic cars are 3-4k€ +. Might not seem much but for a poorfag that works for less than minimum wage it's a lot.

No. 751757

My roommate and her boyfriend fight a lot. She's very toxic and treats him like shit. My girlfriend and I are his friends.

She literally ignores me when I say hi to her. I thought that maybe it was just an autist thing. But I overheard her on the phone saying, "I hate living with his friends" and some nasty shit about my girlfriend. I'm so fucking pissed rn. She's the one who never cleans or anything. And she made a big deal about giving my dog a bath. I didn't ask her to. My dog didn't even need a bath.

I've tried being nice for the sake of living peacefully, but I'm at the end of my rope. My girlfriend told me that apparently she doesn't like me because I'm fit and she's a miserable, fat autist. Oh, and she's nonbinary too and overheard me bitching about troons forcing themselves into lesbian spaces.

No. 751761

>>751596
Therw are two kinds of trooning. At the root of one sort is a desire to do something men aren't "allowed" to do, combined with not having the courage to just do it. This could be something harmless like wearing earrings or necklaces, or just having basic self care standards really…a lot of men would rather "become a woman" than be seen as an effeminate man. And the fact that you instantly get a ton of defenders when you call yourself trans adds to this.

Since you know him, do you feel like there might be anything he's sort of trooning out in order to do? Like what "woman things" does he have the most interest in. If for example it was painting his nails, you could say you like guys with painted nails and more men should do it. If he feels accepted doing the thing he likes as a man then he won't need to troon to do it. For example I have a friend whose stepdad is pretty normal but just really likes wearing classic beige pantyhose, so he just does all the time fully as a man and doesnt care if people see, and that's a little weird but it's better than trooning out to do it.

The other kind of trooning is straight up coom disease. The differential diagnosis here is whether he seems to have picked up his troon behaviors wholesale from coomtroon twitter (coom disease) or if he actually has his own "woman things" he doesnt want to do as a man (cowardly gnc male).

No. 751762

>>751753
>>751754
Fair enough, I generally think it's worth spending more if it's something you use constantly like a car, but if you really can't afford it maybe you can invest in driving lessons instead? Having someone who really knows what they're doing with you could help a lot.

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>>751579
this post hits a bit too close to home, hope we will get a gf and proper help one of this day anon, good luck !

No. 751773

I just want to kill myself. I can't even afford to treat my mental health and got denied for insurance. My friend who makes more on unemployment checks each month somehow qualifies for free health care but I don't lol. It's so unfair. Like I'm just contemplating moving back in with my abusive mom, going part time and applying for insurance again even though obviously living with an abusive person isn't going to help me. I hate myself so much for making my family think I'm not actually mentally ill, I'm actually an immature terrible lazy freeloader who just needs a job. I could've been on neetbux with all my issues and also got insurance when I turned 18. Instead I let my family shame me and now I'm fucking nearly 25, working a minimum wage full time job and about to kill myself because I can't seem to make anything more of myself.

No. 751776

I can't eat at all when I'm stressed or anxious. It's so fucking annoying. I can be stressed before an oral exam and I can't even smell food without getting nauseous and start gagging, I have absolutely no appetite. I know I need to eat and I'm always getting weak and dizzy, but I just almost barf with every meal. I can be hungry but everything smells and tastes disgusting and I need to force myself to chew and swallow.

I already look like anachan, and I hate it, I want to build muscle and fat so I won't be out of breath just by going up the stairs. And people accuse me of being anorexic or doing extreme diets.

And when I stop eating 3 days before an exam, I'm absolutely giving myself a disadvantage. My brain gets foggy and I can't study properly.

I also get like this with other stressful events (mainly relationship stress). I just stop wanting to eat.

I hate it so much but don't know how to help it. I'm gonna ask my doctor to recommend something but she's so useless I hope she'll help.

No. 751797

>>751740
What is that you don't get about driving manual cars? Have you tried more than one? Automatic sucks, you have less control, I don't get how people would prefer that, concept of majority of the country driving automatic is bizarre to me.

No. 751803

>>751507
>>751508
I wish I could find that reddit thread with like 2000 replies where a bunch of bihet women and straight men were branding butch lesbians as gross and predatory and how they're all FTMs in the making and actually pedophiles because "they want to look like 12-year old boys since they dress like Justin Bieber". It was both eye-opening and heartbreaking to learn that people actually think this shit.

No. 751805

>>751803
I really hope you realize reddit (and the internet in general) is not an accurate depiction of people irl.

No. 751806

>>751803
>bihet women and straight men
how can you be so sure there were no bi men or gay men or even lesbians among all those 2000 replies though? unfortunately hatred of gnc women and particularly gnc lesbians exists in every sex/sexuality demographic

No. 751809

>>751805
Pray tell, where does one find "trustworthy" statements then? Reddit is a normie tier platform where a lot of people can write their honest opinions anonymously. I'm not going to start a shit-flinging infight because it always goes to the amazingly retarded "well maybe butches should just be less predatory then, hmmm?" and "actually butches have male privilege!!" places with people unintentionally proving the point to a T.

>>751806
You're right, there are lesbians and gay men that have this mindset as well. But having been in LGB spaces for a very long time it's always been the "I'll make out with my hot female friend while drunk but won't commit" type of performative bihet women with the biggest chip on their shoulder regarding GNC women. I don't know why that is or the psychology behind it but that's my personal experience. And I'm not talking about simply finding them not attractive because that's valid, I'm talking about going on tirades about how they're all abusive rapists.

No. 751815

>>751550
Hi! start making a list of alll the products that made you break out ( the ones you can remember) then search the product name in cosdna.com and try to narrow down in the ingredient list the ones that could be the problem for you.

No. 751820

>>751803
Sounds to me like a bunch of men trying to trash talk butch women because they are afraid of the competition and the butch women looking better

No. 751823

Ugh, mtf are shilling on my local reddit a new website explaining "myths" about transexuality.
Looks like this is reaching us europeans now. I feel done.

No. 751825

>>751809
>"I'll make out with my hot female friend while drunk but won't commit" type of performative bihet women
Those are literally straight women. Homophobic straight women, lmao.
I'm so tired of people going on about "bihets" when they literally just mean "straight women desperate to impress their boyfriends", piss off. Shoe0nHead was born straight and will be until the fucking day she dies, stop calling her "bi" and including her and her entire archetype in the community just so you have a free pass to dunk on bisexual women.

No. 751832

>>751825
>I'm so tired of people going on about "bihets" when they literally just mean "straight women desperate to impress their boyfriends", piss off.
That's literally what bihets are. That's why they're called bihets. This is like saying "I'm so tired of people calling women who only date other women lesbians, that's so wrong", bihet isn't synonymous with bisexual.

No. 751833

>>751832
"Bihets" just describes bisexual women in relationships with men. That's how I've seen it used 99% of the time.

No. 751858

>>751832
>>751833
huh, I swear when I was hearing “bihet” in Tumblr Discourse it was about anyone not gay/lesbian/“single-gender attracted”. guess the discourse has mutated the word further?

No. 751886

I'm watching an old (really old) sitcom and the only people discussing it online are 20 yo he/hims. Stop posting about these old men being uwu very gender reeeeeeeee

No. 751894

>>751833
>>751858
Tbh I've always heard bihet used in a "derogatory" way.

That other anon is right though, women who pretend to like women for their boyfriends simply aren't bisexual.

No. 751900

>>751894
Me too anon, I’ve been called a bihet for dating men in the past despite currently being in a relationship with another woman.

No. 751907

Young men these days are bigger clout chasers than women. I've seen so many more men age 18-34 talking about getting hot girls or rich girls to stunt on their friends than women.

No. 751941

I was told to take some medication for a abscess I have on my tooth before I schedule a root canal, but I wasn't able to get it on the day I had my appointment. I have no fucking idea if I'll be able to get it now. I'm so upset because I probably won't be able to get the root canal without taking the medication beforehand and it's not even my fault. I'll try to call the cvs and see if they have it now, but the cvs I was supposed to get the medication at is literally like an hour and a half away

No. 751945

>>751894
The only times I've seen the term "bihet" used is to refer to the straight women who are like totally bisexual but only date men, would never touch a pussy and have full-time hetero privilege yet still claim to have a say in LGB issues.

>>751941
What kind of a medication? I've never heard of having to take meds for a dental abscess requiring a root canal since it wouldn't work on it anyway. I've had a severe one myself and the doctor explained that the only working treatment is the mechanical work, i.e. the root canal treatment.

No. 751949

>>751945
The dentist just told me that they're giving me antibiotics and that I can pick it up at the place next door. I've had this abscess for a couple months so maybe that's why I was told to take antibiotics, idk. I know it was dumb of me to not ask for a prescription or even what they were giving me, but I didn't think about it. I thought I was just gonna be able to get the medication and dip. I also might have a heart issue heavy emphasis on might and that could be why.

No. 751955

>>751949
Antibiotics generally don't work on dental infections. If you have an abscess that means your tooth doesn't have functional blood flow anymore so the antibiotics will never reach the site of infection, the only time they're sometimes used is when the infection has spread elsewhere in your body and even then removing the cause i.e. the dental abscess by getting a root canal will fix them as well. However I guess you could just call your dentist and ask about how you can pick up your medication.

No. 751960

>>751346
click_burgundy, perhaps?

No. 751967

Everytime my mother visits she always leaves me with tons of junk food. I feel bad about throwing food away, but my freezer is always filled to the brim and even though she knows that for more than 10 years she always brings more and more junk food and ready meals for us.
She doesn't fucking listen to people and just does whatever she wants, another's needs and wants are irrelevant. When what she wants hinders us, she doesn't give a singular fuck, whether we ask her please or tell her to fuck off. She is the kind of bitch that starts vaccuming your room when you are in a zoom meeting.

Like, I know she is trying to be nice buying us food, but fuck off with that shit. The food sucks (shitty processed food that gives me the shits) and half of it goes to trash because it's not accepted at the food bank.

I'm going to leave a notice at the building's door to see if any neighbour wants to take some food.

No. 751972

Why does coffee give me such bad gastritis I'm so fucking mad. I want to be able to wake up in the mornings and drink a cup of joe and actually feel like a fucking human person instead of a zombie. WHY THIS

No. 751994

I’m the adult autist taking classes at the ghetto college.
A balding man threw a lighter at me. And he didn’t get any consequences. One of the teachers said I am sure that she has patience for me too.

I am not white nor black. Like the teachers/students are. So I can’t report it to anyone and get him expelled even though he is aggressive to even the teachers. Students never liked me. I am weak. I understand now what it means to be an outcast. I want to stay home and kill myself.

I wasn’t supposed to discuss race, but to hell. Let me vent. We need to acknowledge it.

Being part of a minority’s minority means that you are seen as the lowest of low.

I hate myself. I hate being a woman. I hate being alive. I hate being me. I told my mom what happened, and she said we can’t do anything. And it’s true. I can’t. I am trying my hardest to not suicide. Just take me god. Save me from my misery. amen

No. 752004

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4chan is being outrun with redditors and their autism, and I already see some obvious underage lolcow users and their shitty-tier memes. I know this is the most autistic post I've made but holy fuck. I'm not ready for change.

No. 752009

>>752004
it's slowly been happening over the past few months, i've noticed it too. it's happening on pretty much every thread on /snow/ (though some are so much worse than others) and a few in /pt/. it's so depressing tbh, these bitches just aren't funny

No. 752014

>>752004
Sorry for adding paragraphs into my post. I was the college autist adult thingy, I used to make posts without paragraphs break ins. I was just rambling and-

Ok I admit I’ve quit 4chan and lurk more on reddit.

No. 752015

>>752004
>>752009

Not to blame everything on le evil boogeymen scrotes, but I believe we have a lot of male larpers on here now. They came with the vtuber thread from /jp/ and never left.

No. 752017

I let this up and coming rapper in my city eat my ass and I'm ashamed, i regret it but at the same time I'm kind of hoping he blows up so i have a cool groupie story to tell. It's retarded but it was the weirdest sexual experience I had. He'd recognized me the ONE time we met at a high school football game and he was flirting heavily. We talked for two days and he told me he wanted to eat me out. It's dumb and i'm dumb, but I said yes. He ate me out but then started licking my ass and no lie he put his nose between my ass crack sniffing for what felt like 5 minutes.
The sex wasn't good though, i mean the oral was but not the rimming and his dick was skinny asf and ashy. He's been texting me and I've been ignoring him.

No. 752019

>>752017
and yes i'm going to get tested and yes I know i'm stupid.

No. 752028

>>752017
Hahahaha wtf. Congrats anon, hope he goes big so you have a nice story to dunk on unsuspecting young people when you’re old

No. 752029

>>752015
it's def a mix of scrotes and teenage twitfag girls from stan twitter, and depending on the thread, it's SO easy to tell which is which. i feel like there's a ton of retarded scrotes on the onision thread from the other farms and twitter in /pt/, and any thread about egirls/twitter famous women in /snow/ is the opposite. the typing style for both make it so easy to find them out too - the teenage girls use shitty twitter lingo/typing and the m*les just type like absolute dipshit assholes all of the time, kek.

No. 752034

just bonked the fuck out of my head on the low ceiling in my bedroom because i had to stand on the bed to get something off the top of my wardrobe because i'm a 5'2 womanlet. i've already got enough brain damage as it is why must i suffer more!!! also the thing i was trying to get was my fake sanrio amiibo cards that i bought like 3 years ago from ebay this shit is so embarrassing

No. 752065

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>>752034
Lol I found this oddly endearing, take care of your head and enjoy your counterfeit stationary queen

No. 752092

i think about someone who used to be a childhood friend sometimes and i get mad

at one point we were really close, would talk for hours online. i was a really lonely kid and she was my closest friend & i had fun with her, irl and online.
she just got… worse and worse at replying, itd take weeks for her to reply. i tried to keep things up, shoot a message her way, because of course i didnt want to lose my friend. the thing is i dont even mind about being slow at replying or whatever cause i do it too, but i sure as hell dont keep someone hanging for weeks (without apologising or something at least.)
if it were just about her losing interest then thats fine too but i really think she's just kind of… shit. i think she's forgetful and anxious and has some weird image of things in her head in which somehow she cant talk to me anymore. she's 'friends' with my bf too (in quotation marks cause she's so difficult to hold a conversation with that she hardly counts as a friend) so i know that she is around and sometimes talking to people, and she even mentions me surprisingly often.
its all so stupid. she really hurt me. id still talk to her and become friends if she wanted but it still hurts if i let myself think about it. i could still have that friend to talk with, play games with, maybe talk about feminism with (she seems to have some radfem views now which i think is cool), whatever else.

to be perfectly honest i know that we probably cant be friends anymore because i am perhaps too different now and its just way too frustrating to deal with talking to her. still makes me a bit sad though. theres a small chance shes reading here so if she is: j you really hurt my feelings but if you want to play something with me casually, just message me. it would be nice to talk to you again.

vent over, that was a lot

No. 752093

>>752092
maybe she likes you and is taking psychic damage every time yall talk

No. 752094

>>752092
is she like that with everyone or just with you ?

No. 752099

>>752093
honestly yeah maybe. she did apparently have a crush on me a long time ago (i thought i might have liked her too but looking back i think i was definitely just lonely and projecting. who knows, it was confusing.)
but she has a bf now who is a lot older than her and the age gap makes me a bit uncomfortable to be honest.

>>752093
she is like that when talking to my bf at least, she used to have lots of online friends and still seems to so who knows if its like that for everyone or not

No. 752100

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People constantly ask if I'm underage. I'm 26 but others often assume I'm 15-17. I have no idea how to dress and stylize myself and I feel like no one will take me seriously no matter what I do. My face is some dumb mix of androgyny and neoteny and my hair is shit due to hormonal issues and no matter what I do with it it often looks greasy and unkept. I never learned how to apply make up. Thus I'm stuck in the dirty highschool tomboy mode forever. People never address me as "miss" but immedietely go by "you" even if they're complete strangers. Women treat me like a baby. My therapist told me we can't see each other anymore because I evoke maternal feelings in her and she's taking my case too personally. I'm invisible to adult men, which is confusing, because when I was 12-15 they were often creeping on me, even though I also looked younger than my actual age back then, so maybe I was only being hit on by legit pedos? I don't know. The only time males "notice" me now is when high school aged boys scream or mutter vulgar sexual things in my direction. I'm 26 and I'm too afraid to walk past a group of fucking teenagers because I'm afraid of bullying and sexual harassment. I'm mentally stuck in middle school when I got bullied severely. I never dated anyone and men scare me, even men my own age, because to me everyone just seems so much more mature than me. There was a time when I thought looking younger is cool but you can only use it to your adventage if you're very pretty and well-kept, otherwise you will be stuck in the eternity of no-one-ever-takes-you-seriously-and-adult-men-don't-even-notice-you limbo. I'm so afraid of getting old because once I hit my 40s I bet I will look so weird that everyone will stop noticing me, even women. I will die a virgin. I know that my problem is not just my looks and the feeling like I'm always lost in social situations definitely adds to the impression I give, but I have no idea how to change it

No. 752101

I googled my name out of boredom, and a state pet memorial site populated—it turns out that the rabbit I left with my ex boyfriend passed away within the year I moved out. He was 4 years old, which is only half the expected lifespan on the low end. So infuriating and depressing, poor thing. I feel guilty even though it wasn’t my fault, nor technically my rabbit to take even though I cared for him. Rest In Peace, little buddy.

No. 752103

>>752099
whoops meant to reply to >>752094 as well sorry anon

No. 752104

>>752099
I think you shoud ask her in a very direct way why she is not answering and if she still wants to be friends with you.
My bet is that she has some really bad anxiety and is going through a difficult time but this might be me projecting. To be honest your post was a hard read because I act exactly like your friend and I use to think that it could be very clearly interpreted as me being mentally ill but now you made me realize that I never been clear about that ( so maybe your friend is in a similar situation)…
Sorry for venting, I really hope that you can be friends with her again. If she is talking about you it's probably because she truly likes you. Please go talk to her and give her an ultimatum.

No. 752110

>>752104
you are right, i know. like ive spoken to her fairly recently and it was perfectly cordial but the conversation died after about 2 responses.
as for mental health problems, i mean this in the nicest way possible but she does have some issues. i hope she's worked on them and is doing ok in that regard, i know i definitely struggle with my mental health and its tempting even for me to not respond. so i kinda know what its like. i guess i know that the logical thing to do is to talk to her about it like you suggested, but the main part of my brain is definitely saying 'no dont do it you already got over the friendship ending and the hurt it caused, why even bother putting in the effort and possibly getting hurt'

thanks for responding anyway, i really appreciate it. and i hope youre doing okay as well anon

No. 752113

>>752110
Oh I see, then maybe you could try to do a pause and see how she reacts then.
Wishing you the best anon, I hope it will work out in the end!

No. 752121

I am empty I am empty I am empty anons I can't create anything I feel like I will never create something that I like aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I want to die

No. 752125

>>752121
you need to take a pause anon !

No. 752126

I'm such an airhead. Like really dumb. I'm so ashamed of my intelligence.

No. 752131

>>752121
Okay you need to calm down, second you need to stop and look at the stuff you made already. Every creative person goes through some mental block, this will pass and you shall continue to create whatever it is you create. Go outside take a walk, clear your head. Also take a shower after your walk and you will feel a bit better, hang in there anon!

No. 752132

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I’m so fucking annoyed. The comic I wanted to translate got put behind a paywall. I’m not mad that the writer wants to get paid for their work— on the contrary I’m pissed at myself for taking so long to screenshot the chapters that eventually I lost my chance. I am far from skilled enough to do this professionally, I don’t want to gain anything personally by translating this, and would respectfully reject any monetary offers for doing it. I wasn’t even deadset on posting the translations anywhere. But I did hope that if this series got popular with help from someone out there translating it, the author would be happy, she’d get more acclaim for her artwork that’s already very good, and more lesbians who like comics in the world would have 1 more good GL comic not written by a fucking scrote that’s actually pretty damn solid. I’m just fucking pissed I have 10x less chapters to work with now. I feel like I’ve lost my motivation. I guess I could reach out to the girls who do BL scanlations but why the fuck would they give me coins (the currency used to buy chapters) ugh fuck my life.

No. 752143

>>752121
build your visual library and inspiration anon, also don’t force yourself to make a masterpiece and just make stuff for fun during your driest creative moments

No. 752153

I think I finally got a former coworker to fuck off when I AGAIN told him his behavior inappropriate and how pushy he is was making me uncomfortable despite me blocking him everywhere. This time he called me (first time this happened, probably still had my number from when we still worked together just a couple of months ago), and he at first didn't listen when I told him that I was uncomfortable and kept asking me how my day was. When I straight out said I just want to be left alone and immediately hung up he texted me and said he never meant to scare me and will leave me alone from now on. He better hold that promise.

This happened a couple of days ago but I still feel discomfort over the situation. I've managed to attract more people like this and creeps the last couple of years for some reason… at least all of them have been harmless (from what I know of them, none of them have been complete strangers) so it's not like I've ever felt any fear, been more annoyed than anything.

However I think this might have been the straw that finally broke the camel's back, not because he harassed me or anything (he was one of the more "innocent" cases) and I usually just shrug shit like this off and joke about it but I just caught myself crying because I feel so alone with having to deal with another weirdo, I don't know where to turn to get the emotional support I feel I need. I just want a hug and feel protected.

No. 752158

I use the computers at the library and there was an old asian moid watching sexualized videos of little boys in front of me. I had to stop myself from making a scene I was that angry, I told the librarian and walked out.

I came back today and asked if he was banned (I don't want to be in an environment around that shit) and she said "no, but we sorted it out". Like wtf, how do pedos just get away with this shit? No wonder they're so audacious.

No. 752162

>>752132
Anon, maybe try contacting the writer themselves? Perhaps you could even do a test-translation of the screenshots you have on hand, then send them to the writer to show you're serious! I hope everything goes well, I'm sure it was a nice comic.

No. 752169

i'm abusing caffeine, xanax, ashwagandha and more caffeine, and i don't understand why. i woke up well-rested, was feeling great, then i took a cup of coffee that for some weird reason derailed my whole day and turned into a game of counteracting stimulants with depressants and vice versa.
it's like some days i feel allergic to caffeine and some days it makes me feel great, but today whatever lead to this disgusting cocktail made me feel so heavily aggressive and like i was having a concussion and once again threw an entire day in the trash.
i really wish i could know what to do, i approach most issues rationally and calmly, but this one is bringing serious desperation. i understand that if i gave up caffeine or any related substance i would stop having my body work against me on random days, but i literally wouldn't feel like myself if i 100% boycotted it. it's just something mysterious i need to hack yet again.

>>751972
lol hello friend

No. 752173

There's a small speck of white in my iris, it doesn't hurt unless I blink and only my eyelid hurts
It feels like I have an eyelash stuck, fuck fuck fuck I don't want to go to the er or anything, I'm poor as fuck

No. 752174

>>752173
Could you go to an optician and have them look at it? They usually know more than doctors when it comes to eyes anyway

No. 752181

>>752158
You must have the patience of a saint anon I would’ve made a scene. I feel like maybe you should try to make it clear that type of behavior should not be taken lightly because eugh who would want that type of shit in a library

No. 752202

Retarded vent but the guy I’m seeing already has a 3ds xl but wants a 2ds just cause he likes how they look. I have a 2ds that i haven’t played in probably 4 years but I got it signed by a voice actor that I really liked as a teen so it has… sentimental value even though I don’t play video games/watch anime anymore. He just texted me that one of his friends has 3 2ds and she’s giving one to him. he already has a 3ds, why does she have 3 2ds’s, and I’m being so irrational but my first thoughts are just like, sorry I can’t be her lmfao. I’m a cute “normie” and I’m getting jealous of some girl he probably plays league with that I’ve never seen and owns 3 2ds’s…. the grass literally is always greener. I just don’t think it’s a coincidence that he texted me that after I told him I was gonna text him back when I was on my work break cause his unemployed ass was suicide baiting while I was getting ready for work!!

No. 752207

I just started shit in one of my groupchats for one of my college classes and feel like a piece of shit now. I’ve been feeling numb for a couple of months now and this is the first time I have felt an emotion of rage so strong, where I almost had heart palpitations and almost vomited, in years. There’s a large part of me that feels like I was very inconsiderate. Part of me feels like these people were being such fucking dumbasses. It was about a test, and I got the highest grade, and there was some people complaining the test was impossible. Have I become a monster?? I was so happy I did well.
There was one complaint that sent me into rabid chimp mode and I won’t go into it but I swear it was such a basic and simple question (question from the test) that i couldn’t believe that they were just complaining about everything. So many retarded excuses. They only had one complaint they were in the right to make, but everything else made so rabid I have no damn idea why. I apologized “if I had come off rude” and some girl responded “you did” with colon parenthesis.

Again I feel like a bitter and mean person but the dumbassery was so dense and thick. I hope no one from there reads here. If they are, JUST FUCKING STUDY CARAVAGGIO’S PAINTINGS ITS NOT SO FUCKING HARD TO LEARN CARAVAGGIO AND CARRACCI WE LITERALLY WENT OVER TWO ARTISTS FOR HALF THE SEMESTER AND THE QUESTION LITERALLY ASKED TO COMPARE TWO CARAVAGGIO PAINTINGS WE COVERED IN CLASS 20 MINUTES EACH AND TO EXPLAIN HIS STYLE. please why does this get me so heated

No. 752209

>>752203
just shut up, why did you even say anything? if they're dumb, you won't change their mind

No. 752210

>>752202
Why are you dating a guy who is suicide baiting you? Honestly.

No. 752216

I went into the city to look at some doujins. Store has a sign outside saying they'll open at 3pm because of covid, so I wait around outside, walk in circles, etc. to pass the time. Once inside, there's a small sign on the elevator saying they've closed their floor with the doujins for women and to go to their other location (which I didn't have time for). Why not just put a sign outside the store so people don't have to wait like idiots for nothing?
What makes me even madder is that the whole building for doujins for men with 2 or 3 floors of 18+ shit opens in the AM.

No. 752219

>>752174
Ty, I was so about to but I said fuck it and jabbed a fingernail into my eye to scrape it off. It's out. I feel fine now– I'm going to use eye drops now

No. 752222

>>752210
Because I have issues.
Jk it’s because I had a crush on him for 2 years and also though he was out of my league cause he was friends with all the frat guys/played lacrosse but once I was finally pretty/normal I decided to go for it and it turns out he’s a depressed league player who wants to drop out of college… if he’s gonna move home in the next few months anyway I want to stay with him until he does cause unfortunately i was friends with his roomates before I was seeing him & they’re kinda my only friends in the area right now due to the pandemic

No. 752223

>>752202
Lmao wish I was 14 in 2012 again so I could relate to this dumb shit

No. 752225

Once in a while, I'll think about an old online friend. Damn I was a cringe kid back then, she deserved a better friend than me. I miss you, Apple.

No. 752226

>>752207
This is why I don't really post in college group chats like that, unless I'm having a hard time myself. If you're getting good grades while others are struggling, don't say shit. Don't point anything out, don't tell them they just need to study. Let them vent their frustration about how much they hate the class/teacher and be glad you can't relate. That's what the chat is for, and you don't gain shit from arguing with frustrated people.
If you do speak up, or they know you did well, like 70% of them will literally seethe about it and try to send you bad vibes in hopes that you'll fail next time, lmao. Not worth it.

No. 752227

>>752223
Anon I literally know it’s retarded lol that’s why I’m venting on lolcow about it

No. 752231

>>752207
Honestly, it is no surprise that they all hate you. Good for you that you did well on the test but you seem like a super arrogant person with a holier than thou attitude. When everyone did bad on the test you should say something like "Oh wow, that sucks!" or maybe offer to study together or something. No one wants to hear you bragging about your grades or "how easy it was". If that is the only thing you can contribute to the conversation you should just shut it.

No. 752259

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I'm never gonna get a gf or bf and it's my fault for being a zoomer raised on the internet (literally) that doesn't know how to talk to people. I might as well be a volcel

No. 752276

My dog has an injury on his leg and it's making him restless. It's midnight and he won't sleep. I tried playing with him, massaging him, putting out a clean pillow and blanket for him to sleep on, but he will only sit upright and constantly move around, not lay down and sleep. He won't let me massage him properly, but maybe there is a massage for sitting up dogs? Anyway, what should I do? Advice for soothing your dog so they can get through the night with an injury on their leg? Thank you <3

No. 752277

>>752276
OMFG I scootched over in bed to grab my phone and make this post and BOOM he occupies the vacancy I left and falls asleep like a baby haha. Advice is still welcome, but it seems he was just becoming claustrophobic as a tiny dog on a queen sized bed

No. 752278

>>752277

I lay down again after the last post and he stands up, whyy TT I'll move to the edge of the bed, I'll sleep on the floor! Anything so he can sleep

No. 752279

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Is it normal to feel so detached from a good 90% of mainstream media? I’ve fallen out of Pokémon (the cutesy style is wearing me thin and shin megami tensei has reshaped my standards for mon collecting series), too broke to afford WOW(tried the trial, fall out of it), I despise the triple aaa industry for all it’s bullshit, can’t bring myself to watch most mainstream anime and cartoons besides a few exceptions (literally half the cartoons and anime I watch are obscure as fuck), I would rather be run over by truck-kun than watch a single drama live action show with fandoms that spam gifs of pretty celebrities all day and I can’t get on broad with most popular novels because I hate reading things now. It sucks how picky I am with the stuff I consume and the only thing that brings me joy is writing random ideas in google keep which will never see the light of day because of crippling self doubt. Also if I written any of them, they end up looking like weird prose script hybrids cuz writing “said” so many times would drive me postal.

If only there was good gothic urban fantasy series with non-straight brown or back lead I would have been sold…

No. 752284

you know?

No. 752302

>>752279
I hope one day you'll write a proper story of your ideas anon! I'm a little picky about the media I consume too so I ended up writing what I liked even though I'm a shitty writer (I'll think of some lines in the middle of doing something but the second I go to actually write them… it's shit) and published it as anon under original works in AO3. Publishing under anon makes me feel safer since no one can connect my shitty drivel to myself, and maybe someone will be inspired to write works with the same stuff you like after you show them how good of an idea it is!! totally strokes my undeserved ego when commenters ask if I have an AO3 account or other socials so they can follow me because they surprisingly like the garbage I write lmfao

No. 752322

>>752207
anon I understand frustration with some things like this, but there is a time and a place and you should've remained silently smug.
Congratulations on getting the highest score! Rather than angry at others, you should be proud of yourself.

It seems like you need to look into some help for your emotions though. For you to feel numb for months then inconsolably furious over something so small, enough to start mass shit in a group chat of classmates is not normal. It can be frustrating to be surrounded by people you think don't try at all, but your initial reaction was very strong

No. 752327

>>752279
i think it is normal to feel this way, nonny. i'm not gonna pretend i don't have normie interests (inb4 notlikeothergurlzz) but i agree with you; so much of mainstream media today is flat out unbearable, though i think it's always been this way for as long as tv and movies and the internet has existed. niche communities and obscure shows/fandoms tend to be way more enjoyable bc they're less plagued by undesirable people, they're often better written/coordinated or stray away from more "marketable" (see also: bland/boring/trendy/watered down) themes and tropes.

No. 752338

>>752279
write a vn anon, you don't have to use dialogue tags

No. 752339

Lately, my boyfriend keeps having trouble getting hard and staying up. Today, he was laying on top of me and when he felt that I was wet told me that he didn’t think his dick will work today. It’s whatever, but what makes me the most upset is that he could still get me off other ways. But he never does.

No. 752344

>>752339
Well ask him to eat you out then, goddamit why does his dead dick mean no wap allowed

No. 752345

>>752339
He's probably pornsick.
>>752344
If you have to ask the relationship's already doomed.

No. 752347

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I'm stupid and signed up for an art contest when i should study for some tests and I have no idea what the fuck I should do for the contest, but the prize money is really tempting. I only have until friday to give the piece and I don't eve know why I said fuck it i'll sign up right now instead of giving it up. I'm so stressed and I added more stress willingly why am I so fucking stupid and I can't pull out of the contest because I dragged two other girls in it because it's a collaborative art piece and then I will be submitting an individual work later because we are allowed 3 entries

No. 752352

>>752226
>>752231
>>752322
By the way thank you anon for the congrats but don’t mention it.

What I did was irredeemable but I don’t think I’ll be saying “o wow that sucks” when they blow up the groupchat complaining this doable test was “impossible” and that their teacher is “gaslighting” them. I do not understand how a question basic to this class is “impossible,” something “the book nor teacher talked about,” and is something to complain about when you are being falsely (or not) accused of cheating. Don’t admit to not listening to the lectures and cry about it when 9/20 people got A’s.

They can fight against a false accusation but don’t actively plan to get this teacher fired when you can’t even fucking do something a troglodyte can do. It doesn’t matter in the end and I know I’m being an arrogant holier than thou piece of shit. I don’t think I was smug, but maybe I was. I’ll seek help for being insufferable, as going temporarily blind from internal anger is not normal.

No. 752354

>>752125
Yes I did that! thank you anon for taking time to reply to me
>>752131
Thank you for your words anon, I went outside after writing that and calmed down and felt much better. Thank you for your words!
>>752143
Thank you for your advice! I started using pinterest lately to get some inspiration, but I got lazy and stopped. I'll go back to finding images that make me feel a certain way, and I will try to make things for fun or just to practice next time. Thank you!

No. 752357

>>752279
I sympathize anon. I used to enjoy anime, dramas, certain movie genres, novels, sitcoms, etc., now everything seems so rehashed and boring. I feel like I’ve grown out of everything. Sucks.

No. 752359

my memory has gone from “hahah i keep forgetting things” to qualifying as a disability, i have fucked up almost every task i’ve been handed for the past month and i’ve not been able to focus on anything i enjoy for a year. i’ll walk into a room and immediately forget what my purpose was. sometimes i take a moment to look around and rerealize where i am and what i’m doing. i looked at my email earlier and i managed to apply for the wrong internship positions despite spending 15+ minutes on each application. how the fuck did i not notice that?

No. 752366

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I'm jealous of my best male friend. He got a boyfriend and I'm constantly pissed off and thinking bad things about his new partner even though this dude is kind to me and shit and I try my best to be friendly back, but I can't. I see my best friend as a big brother, he's always been extremely sweet and caring to me and supported me and is the only company I have, maybe the only good male company I ever had, but I feel like I treated him as a boyfriend rather than a friend and that makes me feel gross and retarded. Now I'm constantly grumpy and feeling nauseous over the though that I maybe had fallen for him out of my loneliness.

No. 752381

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I want to make friends with other women around age 30 who like to play online multiplayer games (LoL, Genshin, Splatoon etc). Not that I have anything against anyone younger, it would just be nice to be friends online with someone my age for once. I'm having trouble finding places to connect with others bc I'm not so knowledgeable with social media. Any advice or recommendations anons?

No. 752385

>>752381
Me too in theory but god damn i must be cursed because in my exp (LoL, Wow, OW) these bitches pickme and flaky af too. Maybe try joining a discord or subreddit.

No. 752386

Me and a girl became fast friends a while ago to the point she considers me a best friend. She shares pretty much everything about her life to me and I semi do the same. Well, she wants to make a career on social media which is fine but it's like I dont exist in her life at all. I know part of it is because I basically have no social media but it still bothers me she messes around with random people on platforms while I'm some secret confiding friend. It seems to be a reaccuring thing that people befriend me to be their shoulder to cry on and either slowly ignore my messages or only message again when they get sad. No one ever mentions I'm their friend when normally I'm happy to show off the friends I have. No one asks me how my day is or responds back when things go down hill. I probably put too much feeling into this friendship and need to back off but it is just painful to have no recognition or reciprocation of caring. I stood behind all these people when their life was in the gutter but they were hardly there for me, didnt acknowledge me, and left or only came back for free therapy. I dont think I'm asking for much to have my own problems acknowledged or just a thanks for being there. I feel so angry and sad to really come to terms that I only have my roommate possibly as a friend. At least we both talk and aren't ashamed or something of the other.

No. 752396

>>752385
That's my exact experience too for what little I've had. I just want a chill friend to play games with while we just enjoy each other's company. Be bad at games together and maybe learn new things about it together to git gud. I don't want to babysit.

No. 752397

>>752352
I feel ur pain anon, I never joined any group chats for my classes because I would have exploded. People will be complaining to me about some test that I did fine on and what do they expect to hear other than "idk i just studied until I knew it well, maybe try that" and they get all mad…a lot of people have basically gone full "making me do work is torture and oppression" but they still want to get the A. But they won't do anything for it. And like what, you really think this professor, this actual PhD with a career and real shit to do, is out to get you, a random college student? Its so self important. I ranted about people literally spending whole study sessions just jawing about random shit in the last vent thread so I wont do it again. My only advice is go full loner in ur classes although people will stare daggers… fuck em though.

No. 752398

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My mother keeps throwing away my stuff and then when I confront her she either tells me she didn't do it or that I gave her the green light, even when I know for a fact I would never in my life do such a thing.
I've lost countless of valuable(sentimental and practical) items because of it.
Now I'd understand if I was a hoarder, but this time it was literally a couple of laminate floor panels that were in our storage that I bought with my own money. I was planning on using them once I had the time to replace the scrached ones in my room.
I used to think I was crazy because I didn't remember doing it and wanted to believe her, but after a while I realised that it's just not something I would do.

No. 752402

>>752398
my partners mom did this, if she was pissed at her she would just throw away random stuff of hers (well not random, she went for things she knew she cared about) and deny ever doing it. Even nice watches & jewelry. She wasnt even pawning it or w/e cause she didn't need the money. Its deranged spiteful behavior, stemming from jealousy that you're happier and more in charge of your life than they are, so they cant hold back their jealous urge to fuck up your life. Hide anything you want to keep and get out asap.

No. 752418

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I was looking at my music library and it made me realize I’ve been depressed or some shit for almost 15 years now. It’s as if I never stopped being that small person and she was dormant inside of me waiting for something in my life to change, and force me to change with it. I don’t know what I’m waiting for at this point. I feel embarrassed by this realization, I don’t take myself as an outwardly emotionally negative person. I don’t even think I’m actually depressed right now. I could be mistaken. It could be feelings of insignificance from that time coming back to me just to fuck with me or some shit. Nice to know the songs I can easily recall listening to daily at the start of my downfall are still pretty good though KEK

No. 752419

>>752398
My mom used to do this to me all the time, and I will forever be resentful. Like other anon said, it's deranged. My mom's a control freak that refuses to see a therapist. Even when I moved, I had to ban her from visiting me for a while because she start rearranging everything and throwing things away as if it was her home.
>>752402
Sorry about you partner's mom too. Feels like shit not to have your own property safe in your own home. Feels like shit not to have your mother respect you and destroy things you value.

No. 752421

>>752402
>>752419
Thanks for making me feel less alone.
The thing is, it doesn't seem like she's doing it out of malice. It's more about her wanting things her way and not seeing me as someone whose opinions and thoughts she should respect, if that makes sense?
Sadly I am stuck with her for the next 3 and a half years due to uni, but my sister did the exact same thing you're recommending as soon as she was able to, and she shares the same sentiment as you.
I will feel guilty about leaving her on her own and pretty much cutting contact, but at the same time I've tried talking to her about it but she acts like a child whenever I do.+ we have nothing in common. Shit is exhausting.

No. 752422

>>752381
Try joining discord servers for the things you enjoy? I've found a lot of friends from various servers. Just lurk for a bit to get a grasp of the general vibe of the server and join the conversation. You might have to dig around for good ones but keeping an open mind helps a lot.

No. 752430

Oh boy can I just say I dislike my mom in law? Here is her worthless son, threatening to beat me up because I dared to ask for a payment off of something he took from me. She is acting like I am the problem for continuing the argument and that this is a regular disagreement between people,not a known scumbag who beats the shit out of his girls threatening yet another girl. I see why his ex girlfriend fucking hates their family now. I see why she says they enable his woman beating and misogynistic ways because their nonchalant, indifferent attitude to all of this like "oh he's just him" is disturbing af. I know if I'll make a fuss they'll probably kick me out since they'll see me as the one starting drama and I need to save up money before I move so I feel powerless. I really don't know if i should just defend myself anyways idk I fucking hate pickme bitches

No. 752431

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aaaaa kill me. I had my blood taken for the fifth time this month, and after that I started to feel dizzy and nauseous which never ever happened before, a male and a female nurse took me back to the room because I was as white as a wall and I started mumbling some dumb shit, and I puked there and then I lied there for like 40 minutes. after I felt better they gave me beanut butter chocolate because my sugar was low and they were so nice and concerned but I can't stop cringing because of the hot male nurse who had to see me in a state like this. He also helped me to unzip my jacket before the tests because the zipper got stuck on fabric and I was struggling with it like a loser. And I looked like shit today anyway. I saw this guy once when I had a MRI scan and I didn't know he also does blood tests so I didn't expect to see him there. I don't interact with human males a lot and when I do it's only shit like this. I have some other tests to do but now I'm scared I will encounter this hot male nurse again. I'm so ashamed nonnies whyyyyy

No. 752432

>>752421
>it doesn't seem like she's doing it out of malice. It's more about her wanting things her way and not seeing me as someone whose opinions and thoughts she should respect
That's exactly like my mom. The motivation may not be bad, but the result is.
Listen, this may affect your future relationships, if you accept that there is love without respect, like your mom is teaching you. There isn't. Remember this.

No. 752434

>>752421
Is there any way you can minimise her behaviour? Like you mentioned she threw out the laminate floor panels, which wouldn’t have been possible if they were on the floor. I hope it doesn’t sound like I’m blaming you because I’m not, but from her perspective maybe she threw them out because they were just sitting around in storage. Which is stupid and wasteful, but her thoughts might have been “anon will never fix her floor, what’s the point in keeping these around?”. Not just a practical thing too - maybe there was some resentment there that you hadn't done it.

Of course everyone values different things and she does sound controlling, so the problem is probably not fixable if she won’t engage with you. But maybe there are some ways of thinking from her pov so you can avoid some of it happening.

No. 752437

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I really hate my extensive family back in the country and I'm afraid I heard my mother and sister talking about bringing my half older brother in I don't want that. I could still live with my father for a while but he's freacky on the religion I will go insane either way.

Can't wait to save and leave but time is needed for that

No. 752438

>>752428
Oh my poor anon!! Well firstly, you can get pregnancy tests off Amazon or at the dollar store, they're the same ones they use in clinics. How long before it happened did you get the implant? If it was a few days then try a test, if it was a few weeks, try a test just to set your mind at ease. I can see why you're worried but that sounds like normal adjustment to a hormonal contraception, especially if you've never had it before.
Also remember the anxiety you feel is probably made worse by both the trauma and the hormones. If you go to the doctor they might be able to refer you to a counsellor as well as take a test, if you can't do that, you should be able to find local stuff by googling. You shouldn't have to go through this alone.

No. 752439

>>752431
Anon, it's fine. Nurses deal with worse shit than someone fainting and puking, believe me. He's probably forgot about it now, plus when it was happening, he was probably more concerned for you than grossed out! Though, I am sorry that happened to you. It happens to me too. Hope you feel better soon and know you don't have to feel ashamed about what happened.

No. 752440

>>752431
hah, reminds me of how when I was like 14 I had to fake that my anesthesia went off sooner than it actually did because a hot nurse asked me a question and I didn't know how to respond lol
Just know that as medical practitioners they've seen much worse. I hope that whatever is causing you to have your blood taken 5 times in a month will soon pass.

>>752432
It's funny that you'd say that. I'm usually never one to take shit from people, but even though my mother hasn't been there for me in the past I feel like I'm indebted to her. I'll try to sit down with her later today and explain that her doing it and then lying about it is making me distrust her. What she does with that information is up to her I guess.

>>752434
>I hope it doesn’t sound like I’m blaming you
yeah don't worry about this, I'm interested to know why she does it so any speculation could help.
Also I had talked to her about using them, and the storage(that she does not even use) is quite big, so it wasn't even an issue about not having enough space.
>maybe there was some resentment there that you hadn't done it.
I reckon it's this(but in a weird and unnecessary way), as she did the same with clothes that I was planning on giving away right before 'rona started. Guess from now on I just need to guard my things and clearly state that I do not want her to tamper with them, even if she sees no purpose in them being around. I already keep my belongings in my room or said storage, so it's a bit baffling either way.

No. 752447

>>752398
>>752402

My mom used to do this to me too but she still thinks I don't know and I don't talk to her enough anymore to bring it up. I remember so vividly that my grandparents had just gotten me a Gameboy for my Birthday with a Kirby game, had it maybe about a week until one day I went to school and never saw it again. I remembered I had left it by my bed when I went to school but obviously it wasn't there later and my Mom got super pissed off at me for losing it. I didn't lose it, she took it while I was away and pawned it off to get herself some booze. Only had the sense to realize that after some time of her pulling the same shit into my teen years. She told me I fucked up so much I always just believed I deserved to have my things lost/stolen. I have a slight hoarding problem now too cause of this.

I'm sorry you and yours have dealt with this as well anons, I'd hug you if I could.

No. 752454

Thank fuck for lolcow because it's annoying that other online women are always so aware of and worried about men seeing what we write and really think; they don't give a fuck about our feelings so why do we still act like pick-me's when we're anonymous? Some male seeking you out as confirmation bias for his shitty incel worldview isn't an excuse to be a pathetic doormat.

No. 752457

>>752447
God, the fact that she got angry at you after doing such a thing is downright evil.
>Only had the sense to realize that after some time of her pulling the same shit into my teen years.
I think the mental toll of having my actual memories dismissed is the one that fucked me up the most. Having my belongings thrown away hurts, but doubting my own actions(even ones that have been recorded) is something that I wouldn't wish on anyone. Sometimes I just get glimpses of her doing fucked up things and my mind instantly tries to shut them down because I've been 'programmed' to simply ignore and forget any unsatisfactory events.

No. 752478

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Im always getting roped in these abusive relationship lites with men where they treat me like their girlfriend theyre abusing despite NEVER having sex with them and NEVER me engaging in anything romantic with them. Even if my personal romantic life is without that toxicity it cant help creeping up on me by males who are on the friendship or acquaintanceship level. How fucking parasitic and demented do you have to be to force that energy on a woman that you dont even "know" in that sense? how can one this invasive and inappropiately boundary violating?

No. 752481

>>752478
*how can one be

No. 752505

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My old roommate tried to guilt trip me for moving out because then he wouldn't be able to pay for his student loans with the added rent and utility costs. This FAT FUCKING FAGGOT who is extremely wasteful is trying to make me feel bad when he regularly throws money at

>multiple twitch streamer subs

>doordash/delivery twice a day most days
>buys expensive music equipment every month, one time near $1000
>groceries, which he would end up throwing away at least 50% of the food because it spoiled
>dogecoin, AMD, and GME after the retarded reddit pumps so he definitely lost money
>expensive beer and drugs
>$3k computer rig
>manga sets and signed books that cost hundreds of dollars
>brand new records which he has never touched
>AAA and flavor of the month indie games

I should add he was leasing the apartment months before I moved in, a 2 BEDROOM APARTMENT WHICH HE COULD OBVIOUSLY AFFORD, he didn't plan on having a roommate. WHAT THE FUCK

He makes more than average as a software dev so he has no excuse to act like he's gonna be poor. It makes me so mad because I make less than him and have always been frugal, he doesn't even budget his money he's admitted he just buys whatever the fuck he feels like in the moment. Oh and he also doesn't have healthcare, doesn't maintain his car, doesn't go to the gym, he doesn't even spend money on things that would improve his life.

No. 752522

>>752505
Fuck moids, he’ll obviously be fine, just throw all of the shit you said here in his face next time he tries to uwu guilt trip you. Still annoying though, sorry anon.

No. 752524

>>752505
Lol he doesnt care about the money, best case scenario is he likes having you around for company but dowsnt have the maturity to admit he likes having a roommate vs being alone (men have to believe they're stoic selfreliant ascetics even when it's the furthest thing from true).

Alternatively, it's that plus he likes you being there for horny reasons. Either way he's basically telling you he's sad and lonely without you there, but he's got a baby brain so somehow he has to make it your fault hes sad after you left, cause it couldn't possibly be that he's not a stoically solitary man.

Men all think if they were put in solitary in jail they'd meditate perfectly like the buddha while writing a genius novel. Most would be clawing at the walls and screaming within a day.

No. 752529

>>752478
Non-girlfriend girl friends get this the worst because men dont want to "complicate" their relationship with their actual partner by being open and honest with them. So they unload their issues on someone else until that person cuts them off. And they aren't gonna tell a male friend anything that makes them seem emotional. It's kind of testing the waters to see how their issues will be reacted to.

If you want to cause chaos, secretly message or leave a note for their SO/parents/best male friend that this person shared some stuff with you that makes you think hes going through a hard time, and that you think they really need support from people close to them (but of course dont share the stuff he actually told you). Basically "can someone who's job it actually is please deal with this man's big sad." Theyll all probably think he came out as gay/trans or confided a drug problem lel.

No. 752530

File: 1614698267650.png (1.94 MB, 1242x1091, 300F9621-022E-4743-BCA5-6868BD…)

hello it’s me again i’m desperate to drop out of university. they’ve cancelled all of our last minute dissertation meetings and feedback but still refuse to give us ANY leeway on our dissertations because of the ‘integrity of our degrees’ yet they did it last year when things were arguably not as bad as they are now. i just really have to laugh and by laugh i mean try not to kill myself

No. 752545

>>752524
I'd actually believe if he cared about the money because clearly anon is his rent buffer so he can spend frivolously each month.
Men act like they're being neglected if they don't get to spend money buying toys every month.

t. someone with a friend whose husband is like this

No. 752550

File: 1614699898059.jpg (155.16 KB, 828x651, iba9WNj.jpg)

>Be me
>Very tired and sad
>Have to go to online classes
>I_can't_deal_with_this.jpg
>Decide to take a break and a short nap
>Not exactly better, still feel sad
>Try to be positive
>Get in the class
>Mfw class starts with video showing death of cute little animals

Why did I woke up?

No. 752566

I’m such a useless and horrible daughter

No. 752569

so fucking sick of wearing a mask everywhere, i hate hiding my face under it. i hate that i can't read people's expressions.

No. 752571

>>752569
Is this the autismo experience

No. 752572

>>752569
I hate it too. It keeps slipping on and off my face and makes breathing difficult, every time I get to remove it I enjoy the fresh air on my face and I miss the times I didn't have to wear that fucking thing everywhere. This pandemic can't be over soon enough.

No. 752573

>>752569
My vent is related, one of my more expensive masks fits my face better when it's upside down but it has a print on it so people can tell it's upside down. Retarded ass face.

No. 752575

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why did i watch that shayna video knowing im about to eat

No. 752578

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>>752575
Oh shit poop video dropped?

No. 752581

>>752578
It's deleted now anon lmao. It got taken down fast as hell. Idk if anyone took screenshots, but it was just Shayna fucking her ass and then pulling it out to reveal shit packed around the head of the dildo.

I don't even care about Shayna's threads, but that shit is going to scar me for LIFE!

No. 752583

>>752581
Maybe I am best off not seeing that, I just wanted to see it to believe it I guess. So sorry you had to see it, anon

No. 752593

my fuckin country just decided to start using the sputnik vaccine.
i kinda wanna die rn but the vaccine will probably kill me anyways once i become eligible. someone send help please

No. 752611

I'm about to slap a weeb in my art server. They have been sperging day and night about Japanese artists
"Look! So superior! Look! They have 600 dollar merch! Buy it! I did! lol. Gaaaaiz my Paper came! FROM JAPAAAAN! It's so much better than our paper! Oh mai gawd! Look! This artist did a sketch! They're from JAPAAAAN" I can hear the rabid fangirl screeching from here.
On further review the artist they are losing their shit over isn't even that good. They just draw low detail fandom chibis.
But on further notice, the weeb is borderline tracing from the artist they are losing their shit over and I'm like "Put them out of their misery and just ban them already."

No. 752612

>>752593
Just don't take it

No. 752630

>>752522
I dropped him completely when I moved, don't plan to speak to him ever again, waste of time tbh

>>752524
yeah he is emotionally stunted just like you described, almost all the men I've met are like that. I really can't deal with it so I'm not going to have guy relationships beyond acquaintances. it's way too much work doing all the heavy lifting trying to decipher their emotions.

No. 752633

>be my dad
>asks for help
>starts yelling and calling me a piece of shit because I didn’t drop everything and come to him right away
>ok.jpeg

I hope you continue to wallow in your misery, pathetic scrote. You always manage to bother me when I’m working and get mad when I can’t drop everything for you.

No. 752634

some people think that autism doesn't need to be cured but I disagree. why do we want to live in a world full of stunted and essentially useless, screaming tard people? I dated an aspie for 5 years and part of the reason it went on so long was because I was guilted for "leaving" him when he needed support. I am not some retards mother and I gave up trying to be a saint because no one else wanted to deal with a screaming useless helpless tard.

No. 752653

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I'm visiting my mom and she notes I'm too skinny. So she gives me a 4 pc nugget box. I happily ate my nugs. As the final piece is in my mouth she does a drive by comment "This is why you're getting fat"
I'm 46 kg

No. 752657

>>752653
>she notes I'm too skinny
>"This is why you're getting fat"
?????? Fuck that bitch! Keep eating whatever you want anon. She's just being mean

No. 752658

>>752657
Samefag, sorry, I shouldn't call your mom a bitch lmao. My point still stand though

No. 752659

>>752658
Same anon, no you're right. She is a bitch. But she's my bitchy mom. I will always love her but the shit she says

No. 752665

>>752653
>ur too skinny
>ur getting fat
kek what is she crazy? Was she just joking?

No. 752669

I stopped using birth control after 3-ish years of continual use. I feel an intense urge to be with another woman and genuinely want to leave my husband. The thought of having sex with him disgusts me right now. The last few days everything he does bothers me and I want to get away from him. Has our relationship subsisted because of birth control?

No. 752670

>>752665
For context my mom is Asian. I don't know if that explains anything but it's common for asian moms to comment on weight like this

No. 752702

>>752653
Kek, it was a shit test. You were supposed to take her remark about being too skinny as a compliment and have declined the food because being thin is better in her eyes than being average.
Glad I wasn't raised by asians obsessed about weight.

No. 752714

>>752634
The thing is that aspies still need to learn emotional maturity. I've known aspies who are capable of being like "I'm in pissmode rn so sorry if I crab, you can just leave until I calm down if you want" and that's fine. But people act like helping people learn maturity and self awareness is condescending and not "taking them seriously" - but its much more respectful to treat them as an adult capable of learning to handle their emotions, rather than as an unfixable permachild who everyone else is required to just endure happily.

No. 752719

>>752669
Since birth control makes your body think its pregnant, it makes sense that it would make you seek companionship for protection (since pregnancy = physical vulnerability). Now that you're not fauxpregnant though, there'll be a period like drug withdrawal where your body has to get pack to producing it's own estrogen (while you're on bc your natural production shuts down to an extent). So you're possibly just kn estrogen withdrawal and hormone imbalances always do all kinds of weird stuff, but if it lasts longer than a couple months then it's probably your "real" feeling (ie your feeling at your natural baseline hormone levels). Imo women are meant to only tolerate shitty men when absolutely necessary for survival and estrogen is like free oxycontin to cope.

No. 752782

>>749706
anon i love you and you're a queen

No. 752806

>>749706
While I agree with your sentiment the reality is that most easy-access industry jobs utilize either java, C languages or in case of web development javascript and its associated frameworks, in my experience Python is more for open source things and hobby projects. There's a difference in wanting to make a career in programming and simply learning to code, Python is a very easy access, dependable language but if you really want to get a paying job (the main motivator for most people asking how to learn to code) then Java is, no matter anyone's opinion on it, a very safe bet. It has a ton of resources available and works as a good springboard to OOP languages, and most of the commercial software you would be working with is written in Java or C++.

No. 752835

>>747040
>>747083
I'm a random person that just read your complaints on modern day texting. I just wanted to let you know that on Android 11, the latest version of Android, there is an option to turn these features off.

I never thought about this function in detail before until this thread. And now I just turned mine off haha. Why shouldn't I have the option to do so in all the apps I use? Now I'm gonna check if I can turn it off in messenger too.

If you're in the market for a new phone, I'm using the Pixel 4a and I really like it. Hope this helps you out :)

No. 752850

>>747083
>>747040
God… emails, texting, literally anything is better than phone calls. I don't want to have people slithering in my ears uninvited, fuck off

No. 752855

>>749706
What I gather from this as a useless humanities sperg is that python is basically Latin.

No. 752859

I'm so goddamn annoyed I want to break my TV.
What is up with people defending minors in every situation? Especially when the minor in question is closer to 20 than 10.
I just read about that one kid lying about his age to James Charles and there are a bunch of people saying

>"He's a minor you can't blame him!! James is an adult it's his responsibility!!!"


Now I don't know if JC really didn't know but my point is that there are people who actually think being catfished and lied to over the internet is the catfished person's fault.

This rant is not completely about that either. It seems kids can do just about anything these days. Send death threats, dox innocent people, steal art and fucking catfish people etc. and face NO consequences because "they're a minor uwu"

I don't know about you guys but I remember doing something dumb in my teens and getting told "you should know better"

Yes there is some shit that teens are too dumb to understand, but that doesn't mean adults around them should just forgive and forget everything and let them keep being little shit heads.

I'm just tired. I should probably delete Twitter and tumblr.

No. 752860

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>>752855
same but then I tried to find a chronological view of the different programming language and now I'm lost kek

No. 752868

>>752850
Phonecalls get to the point quicker than texting does.

No. 752870

>>752855
Except more useful lmao

No. 752873

My mum is losing her mind, I'm so scared it's Alzheimer's. I cannot bring myself to put her in a home, but I'm only 25 and I barely just entered Uni.

No. 752875

>>752859
Strong agree. I'm sick and tired of people defending minors like they were clueless toddlers and allowing them to exhibit heinous behavior with zero consequences. No Riley, at 16 you should fucking realize that actions have consequences and lying about shit can get you in trouble, especially when you're doing it to intentionally ruin a person's reputation or traumatize them via targeted harassment. This is the shit you learn in elementary school. You can get a driver's license at that age for crying out loud, it's high time to learn to take some motherfucking responsibility.

I guess I could give them the benefit of the doubt and say they're dumb kids but then you get all these 19-21 year olds still trying to pass themselves as "minors" because they're clinging on to their Peter Pan syndrome. And then you get these actual fucking adults who want to fix some trauma from their past by whiteknighting these monsters with the "They're just children!" argument. A 16-year old is not a fucking child anymore and even if it was a literal 14-year old sending death threats they should learn to know better. You wouldn't overlook them burning ants with a magnifying glass, why would you give them a pass on this?

No. 752878

>>752868
You haven't met my co-workers. They'll chew off my ear for 30 minutes and won't let me get a word in until I forgot what I wanted to say. Plus, they're incapable of differentiating between relevant and irrelevant information and I can't strg+f their verbal nonsense to find the important bits afterwards.

Voice messages are the worst of both worlds.

No. 752879

My 42 year old male cousin is dating a 22 year old girl and my 34 year old female cousin is dating a 55 year old scrote. It makes me fucking furious for some reason.

No. 752882

>>752859
I feel like if it's an actual crime, then minors are held accountable. It's not like no minor has ever not been charged with theft, assault, or murder.

And yet, any celebrity that sends nudes and indecency to randoms on platforms where minors can create accounts are fucking morons. Why would you send nudes as someone with celeb status, even to non-minors who you didn't fucking know? Aside from that, too many predators have used the "but they lied/didn't tell me their age!!!" excuses, when visual cues and other hints pointed to the fact that they were talking to a minors but wanted to be in plausible deniability.

I don't feel sorry for idiots and they certainly don't deserve to be roped into the same group of people who are actively victimized who did nothing wrong.

No. 752884

>>752877
The 22 year old is creepy but assuming the 34 year old has her life together, I don't see what's wrong with her dating someone in their 50s as long as she understands she'll be a caretaker to a geriatric by the time she's his age now.

No. 752885

>>752878
>Voice messages are the worst of both worlds.
I could go on a nuclear rant about how fucking MUCH I hate people who only send voice messages but I'll keep it simple. Fuck you, fuck you for assuming I'm 24/7 either wearing headphones, located in a place where I can listen to it and overall assuming I want to hear your stupid shit for 50 seconds instead of glancing through a text in 0.5. You need to burn in hell if you send voice messages, that's just how it is.

No. 752886

>>752875
AYRT thank you! It feels like I'm taking crazy pills seeing all these people defending minors when they do something wrong.
And the 20 year olds who want to pretend they should be considered minors are the fucking worst. I can't imagine the level of delusion one has to have to think like that.

No. 752888

>>752879
I hate that it validates the scrotes who think they age like fine wine. You really don't. It's just that the average woman is socialized to be nice/non-judgmental, little do they know the ugly old scrotes will treat you even worse than young attractive men in their prime.

No. 752893

>>752875
> clueless toddlers
They should be treated like this imo, 30 minutes screen time a day to watch YouTube kids. No twitter, no chance of being targeted for being a minor. I imagine they’d decide to grow up pretty quickly.

No. 752898

>>752893
Absolutely. If they want to be teeny widdle children who can't be blamed for being a borderline sociopath online they should be treated as such. No social media for toddlers, it's for your own good.

No. 752902

>>752884
>she'll be a caretaker to a geriatric by the time she's his age now.
That alone makes it gross and they already look weird together. I think that a 20 year age gap is always distasteful
My cousin has a 6 year old daughter from her previous relationship with a guy who was also older than her, god knows how long will that current affair last

No. 752908

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>>752879
Men are gross. Can’t imagine dating someone young enough to be my kid when even 3 years younger feels weird.

No. 752909

>>752879
gross. if my male family members ever pull anything like this i won't associate with them anymore

No. 752911

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If there's maskless people lets be real, its always men at the lab tomorrow, I am gonna fucking cry or fight, I am already fucking ill, why the fuck do you gotta come to the hospital without a mask? I am already on the edge due to last 5 or so bloodwork vibes being so off, my veins being shitty and just being in so much pain as it is that it's just a great moment to nearly faint. This whole fucking mask shit just adds to my nightmare.

No. 752925

>>752806
All of what you said is true. However, I think in a practical sense, if you're learning a language for the first time, it's much easier to stick with it when you start with something clear like Pyyhon. Like when you're still learning basic operations, basic data structures like arrays/strings etc, having it all work as clearly and understandably as possible is so so important. The first time you learn a language, you're really learning two things at once - CS fundamentals, and the language itself. And in that sense the language should be as easy as possible, because once you understand how to do things in Python, translating that understanding into Java if you need to is way easier than if you were trying to grasp up the concept as well as the weird shit of java/c. With learning programming, especially independently, the hardest part by far is just sticking with it, so imo you should make it as easy on yourself as possible. Plus if you know python you'll have the confidence that you can learn to code stuff successfully, and if you do take a class in java it's way easier if you can ask questions like "so in python I would do this, what's the equivalent in java?" and stuff like that.

>>752855
Having taken Latin through highschool it's actually kind of the reverse. Latin has an extremely large number of specific suffixes and forms for both nouns and verbs that allow you to be really really specific with a single word - for example "ambulabunturne" means "will they be walked?" which is sort of more like how in java/C you can be really specific about how you want the computer to do things with a very small amount of code - whereas Python is more general, closer to Spanish compared to Latin, in the sense that you can usually say the same thing but in more words, but it's a lot faster to become passably competent in (I should have taken Spanish in HS cause I still cant read Latin other than the occasional word lol)

Chronologically this kind of makes sense too, python is newer than a lot of other common languages and dropped/simplified a lot of stuff for ease of use, just as languages derived from Latin dropped a lot of more complicated specific constructions because they just didn't matter that often and were hard to remember all of.

No. 752930

>>752885
>>752878
>>752850
As the original ranter I'd like to add that I cant comprehend the suffering of having to receive voice messages. I just want to email…but if I send an email longer than 3 sentences, people dont even seem to read it and they just respond to the last sentence. And forget trying to ask someone multiple questions in one email…

>>752835
ty I actually will probably, my galaxy s8 as far as I can tell still has only simple texting (whenever someone likes a text or w/e I get a basic text from them that says "Liked <'my whole text'>" lol) but it sucks for other reasons, mainly that push notifications just dont fucking work reliably on most samsung galaxy s6+ phones somehow. Have heard oood things about the pixel! Basically that it works normally and is functional and moddable, and that's above par somehow these days…

No. 752947

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>go to café Im a regular at
>barista remembers me
>asks if 2% milk is ok for my latte
>I say yeah and in the most retarded attempt at a joke ever say "I just take whatever milk they give me"
>she laughs really hard
>but it was more like a "you're fucking retarded" kind of laugh
>now I'm afraid it sounded sexual or something
>embarrassed to go back

No. 752950

Kind of irritated because, my grandfather is getting a house of ours renovated (slow as fuck), and he had me go over this morning at the ass crack of dawn to "sort" through his menagerie of tools because he claimed he couldn't find anything.

After we got back home, he went out to lunch and then mysteriously came back with a plaque of his from his job that he claimed he found in the bin, and I realized that he had probably, more than likely, gone behind my back and rifled through all that useless, old, crusty shit I tossed and messed up everything I worked on all morning. I mean, some of this shit were things like faded paint swatches from the Home Depot, and some In n Out receipts from ten years ago that you can barely read anyway, molding away in piles in the house. I mean why have me go over there and waste my time if you are just going to go take it back inside anyway?

I know I shouldn't get upset, but I hate working with him or doing things for him because he's mean and anal retentive about literally everything. He won't throw away anything that he thinks belongs to him, but he will throw out our things with no hesitation. Seriously, I hate my retarded family and their copious mental issues. Can I live around some somewhat well adjusted humans for once kek.

No. 752953

i've not learned anything this semester
i feel fucking bad

No. 752958

>>752947
Go back
You probably made her shitty job a little better that day, even if she was laughing at you and not with you

No. 752960

I’m so bitter about the audacity of brands like Burberry charging out the ass for pants that are 70% or more polyester. It’s a disgusting fabric for tasteless people. It cannot be worth $60 let alone over $600.

No. 752969

I'm sick of tiktoks that normalize prostitution and shit on "swerfs"

No. 752978

>>752969
Im trying to tell myself it's just stupid kids online and no adult thinks that way in real life, but stupid kids online eventually grow up to be adults who DO think that way in real life, and that worries me.

No. 752983

>>752969
Why'd you put swerf in quotes?

No. 752985

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my roommate and her entire family are literally autistic and i just took home a rescue cat and they keep telling me to surrender him or send him to live on a farm because he might lash out at her two cats
if i put up with her two cats she can put up with mine when all he does is sleep anyways
plus she's retarded and opened the door for a random drug addict and was about to let him in literally putting us both at risk

No. 752987

>>752983
nta but swerfs don't exclude sex workers from feminism so swerf is a retarded term

No. 752988

>>752978
i've already given up in hoping this is just a shitty phase, becuz look at the shit-storm of a climate we're currently in… we're doomed.

No. 752990

I've been trying to keep everything together and trudge thru it all but I'm so frayed at the edges. I've been fantasizing about just getting in my car and just driving away from everything for a bit.
I think I'm going to do it.

Probably buy some LSD & go camping somewhere in new mexico and trip for a bit. Get a refresher on my life. I'm only worried about friends/family thinking I've lost my mind just randomly dipping out of state on my own. But ah well, I think it'll be something good for me in the long run.

No. 752998

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gay nsfw twitter so dark. The stuff I read there will never leave my brain. I can't do this shit anymore. How did I even get over there

No. 753002

>>752998
care to share

No. 753008

>>753002
>Bring me that warm stink tunnel
>Come saturate daddy in some HOT big BUTT!
>Make that finger tip smell a little funny
>When you come home let me smell that 8 hour shift between yo cheeks
>Y’all flaunting that doodoo hole like MEN!
and worst of all
>Gimme doodoo hole on fleek!
It may not be that bad to some other anons here, but it was fucking horrific to me. It's not even the anal part that bothers me, cause fuck it I like ass stuff too, but the descriptions of it. Why does it have to be rank ass?

No. 753010

>>752978
Some of them will grow up an hopefully educate themselves. I used to be all sex work positive and wanted to find myself a sugar daddy back in my teens but when I hit my 20s and started to actually read about it and gained some critical thinking skills I changed my mind. And I know a few people IRL who've done the same.

No. 753011

I'm sad and I want to talk to someone but I know it's a very bad idea so here I am trying to distract myself. Can't believe I'm propagating this myself. Forget the past, kill it if you have to.

No. 753013

>>753008
Growing up with yaoi gives such a idealistic view of what gay ppl and relationships are. I got into furry and I am slowly becoming more and more homophobic from sharing spaces with gay men. It's fucking disgusting.

No. 753020

>>753011
Imagine you already talked with them and are now facing the consequences and/or bad feelings.

No. 753021

My boyfriend's dad is schizophrenic and it's so sad and frustrating. It's sad to see him so stressed about politics. He's always threatening to start drinking and doing drugs. He doesn't have a job because he's too socially inappropriate. I wish he'd become healthy so everyone could get along. I don't know how my bf puts up with him and I'm a little worried that one day he might start acting like him or something… Do any anons have similar experiences?

No. 753027

Online sellers who break their own return policies and seem to hang onto the buyer's money, and only return it after a dispute is opened and impending, should be charged an interest fee that is rewarded to the buyer for however long they voluntarily held onto the money after acknowledging the return.

I returned the fucking item the same day I got it. I'm not a free fucking loan lender, bitch.

No. 753031

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>>753020
Well. There's an extremely small chance that things go well but more likely is the person will ignore the message. The first is pure fantasy. It's been years and I would end up crying. Thank you. Please enjoy this dog.

No. 753088

This is a dumb complaint but I've had my OG Hitachi wand since I was 18-20ish. It's like 5+ years old at least and yesterday it finally broke. I'm so sad. It gave me more orgasms than all of my partners combined. RIP Hitachi wand… I want to buy a new one but wondering if they even make them in the same quality anymore.

No. 753089

>>753088
Do they still make them at all?

No. 753095

when theres drawn lesbain nsfw and you can tell they referenced male pandering porn cause the 2 girls are looking at the camera for no reason other then the fact that they do that in porn. it bothers the shit out of me.

No. 753111

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I keep getting sick, my health is a mess right now. How did I develop yet another infection in just two days? What the fuck? I can’t stop coughing and throwing up phlegm around, but I don’t feel anything else anyways, the worst thing I get was yesterday a mild headache because my fatass ordered a cinnamon roll thinking “whatever, if I die, I want to at least have this” I’m not even the kind of person that orders food just because.
Am I just spiraling into some sort of depressive state? I’ve been trying to workout and everything, but here am I right now, sick again with some fucking annoying ass motherfucking flu.
I’m also extremely paranoid over getting COVID and being again a waste of money to my family, I don’t want to get hospitalized, I think that will just kill me.

No. 753112

>>752983
It’s a retarded term invented by middle class women who think their choice to sell snapshots of their asshole is the same thing as women being coerced or financially trapped in prostitution.
They ignore that prostituted women have extremely short lifespan predictions, are regularly subjected to violence, rape, and disease, and almost all prostituted women would leave if they could. They don’t care that prostituted women are most likely to be murdered and the murderer get away with it for choosing ‘disposable’ victims.
Instead of recognising that little girls are prostituted, they pretend it’s empowering and sexy fun that women freely choose and love doing, and that it’s normal and healthy for men to purchase access to poor women’s bodies.

They frame feminism as hating prostituted women for not supporting their ignorant ideas that claim being prostituted is fun and orgasms all day long.

No. 753114

>>753013
Tbf it's not because they're gay, it's because they're men. Men are degenerate cumbrains no matter what sexuality but at least gay ones aren't a threat to women. I mean them oversharing about anal sex is disgusting but I'd rather hear about that than be harassed by a straight guy who thinks he has a chance with me because I smiled at him once.

No. 753119

>>753114
Death to all moids including faggots

No. 753131

>>752885
I'm with you nonnie I fucking hate them so much. I understand if it's something long or difficult to explain over text but I know someone who sends them to say "okay" or a longass voice message where 99% of the content is "so…ummm…so…where was I? Oh right…ummm…"

No. 753132

>meet handsome man
>he's unattainable because I'm in a relationship/he's not interested/he's literally gay
>"Can I have that"
Why do I keep getting crushes with this pattern. Why, brain, why.

No. 753148

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Why does no one love me

No. 753152

>>753095
Male gaze is the norm unfortunately. I've even seen female artists draw that way, it's nasty. It actually made me think I was asexual instead of gay for a while because I found most porn (even ""lesbian"" porn) unappealing.

No. 753183

>>752879
I see women unashamedly admitting that they prefer men that are much older than them. They say it's because of maturity and some other mumbo jumbo but let's be honest they do it either because a) probably has more money and b) because they think that way he won't look for anything younger which is of course false. I've seen plenty of old men "upgrade" for a younger woman even if their current wife/gf is already 10 years or more younger and looks so much better than him. But it's exactly this type of thinking and acting that perpetuates the myth that makes men bold and demanding when they look like shit even at 30, let alone 50 something. And as someone who got unsolicited nudes from old men, I vomit a little whenever I see a young woman dating a wrinkly scrote. How can they put themselves through that hell? No amount of money is worth it.
>>753181
The problem is that lots of women are handmaidens and have no problems forcing other women to lower their standards. Besides, I don't think it's possible to change nature. I've stopped believing in socializing and blank slates. The majority of men will never change and neither will women simping for them.

No. 753196

>>753183
I also think a lot of girls hate their male peer group we had to go to school with these cunts lol, so they think an older man is going to be more refined. Is it not the same type of deal when young guys want an older woman to show him the ropes. It's so dumb

No. 753197

>>753196
They should either invent time travel or just find men from different countries

No. 753215

I'm a lesbian that's been in the closet for a decade and counting because the people I live with want to kill all gays and it's so exhausting pretending I care whatever pity party the trendy twitter queers are having this week. the number of fakebois I've had screech at me how misogyny isn't real and that I need to respect how hard it is for queer people who are straight makes me want to live under a rock. one of the fakebois has parents who pay for private college and hrt and is just a precious sheltered baby boy who is here to inform me homophobia is over and now all the bigots are actually focused on killing the asexuals and hentai sexuals. Fucking insanity. Thank god I realized I'm just a repressed butch and not manically deluding myself into "maybe people will stop treating me like shit if I go on testosterone and fixate on my appearance". fuck.

No. 753245

>>753197
It's sad that women would rather suck old crusty cock than be single. We are a pathetic gender and I dont even blame men for taking advantage at this point lol

No. 753256

>>753245
Pick-mes are pathetic and need help, but I'm still going to 100% blame men.

No. 753263

>>747017
Lately I've been feeling like I'm too old for a good romantic meet up. Like I remember being young and meeting a cute guy at a library an asking them out, or liking someone for months and finally being able to talk to them. Having butterflies the whole time, thinking about them everyday. Even if it didn't last after that I just feel so defeated by the whole online dating thing and jaded from past relationships, I can't get into it. I'm 30 and far from old but I feel that I'll never get those butterflies and anticipation again, I don't even know where I would meet someone.

Doesn't help I just had a really romantic dream about a celebrity I really like, that's a bummer.

No. 753265

>>753245
God, I agree!! I do not understand why are women doing this? A woman that I know willingly surronds herself with nazi-kuns, later then spent a year finding a kid from muslim to e-date with while always mentioning how trad and right wing she is while leeching off parents in a basement.

She kept getting cucked by men hard, last time a man literally left her on asile because he lied to her that he wanted to marry her, but that still didnt stop her from whining that her whole life should be resolved around having a partner. What a retard.

No. 753268

I hate my dumbass messed up brain that seems to think that things were better in the past no matter what the circumstances were. No, self, life was not better when you were an underage annorexic teenager being groomed by 30 year old men. Somehow the idea that I had my ‘whole life ahead of me’ trumps the shitty situations I was in? I have no idea how to break this cycle of ‘what if’ cause seriously I probably would turn out exactly the same or worse.

No. 753280

I'm 30 and my friend is 24. Shes marrying a 35 year old and moving to Canada. I already know this isnt going to work out but I know women and I know how we act with criticism towards our bf so I'm not going to say anything.

No. 753282

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I just want to stop chewing my fucking mouth, please god let me have this one thing before my face is completely wrecked. This is such a stupid problem to have. Anons please pray for me.

No. 753284

>>753280
> Shes marrying a 35 year old and moving to Canada.
This is not going to end well. What if he abuses her? Does she have a person there to fallback on in case things go south? I'm terrified for her and I don't even know her. Maybe tell her parents?

No. 753285

>>753284
Her parents know and hes already showing signs of being controlling and jealous of her beauty/youth but I'm not gonna say anything becuz I'll be the bad guy

No. 753286

“I can save him! He just needs to be prepared and cooked a good meal!”

No you can’t. Give up because it’s not going to happen, men should be put to work in labor camps

No. 753287

>>753285
>showing signs of being controlling and jealous of her beauty/youth
What are they?

No. 753288

>>753286
Last sentence made me cackle, that sure escalated fast.

No. 753290

>>753285
> Her parents know
And they won't do anything about it? I mean, she is grown up but that's such a dumb decision. They should really talk her out of it. Jesus. I'm wary of men that I think I know let alone some rando I've met over the internet.

No. 753291

>>753287
She told me when he gets drunk hes more paranoid of other men around her

No. 753292

>>753290
Well they met in Mexico so it not like hes some random guy she met online. Shes not even attracted to him physically she just wants the married grown up life.

No. 753294

>>753282
ive been doing this too anon and raging about it and I think it's linked to anxiety. take a bubble bath and smoke a joint, we're in this together bitch

No. 753295

>>753292
your friend is a retard and beyond help. Block her

No. 753296

>>753295
>friend is retarded

If I stopped being friends with women because they were retarded with men I'd have no friends

No. 753298

>>752386
You should bring this up to your new friend. Either she doesn't even realise and she'll try to make you feel better or you'll learn that she doesn't care that much.
It's hard to fully include friends that don't have social media when you do to be fair

No. 753306

>>753294
Yeah it's definitely anxiety, which is the dominant emotion in my life right now. Thank you for the kind words, solidarity.

No. 753314

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>>753089
I don't think so, anon. How am I supposed to coom now?

No. 753335

I hate it when I reach out to my professors with a specific question and they either never reply to my email or take like 2 days to get back to me. I know that they're busy but it's still really frustrating, especially when I'm taking my work seriously, rigoursly engaging with the course material and paying full tuition costs for remote learning.

No. 753343

>>753314
get a satisfyer, they are better than wands anyways

No. 753352

>>753335
I understand your pain anon. I'll painstakingly type out my question, trying to ask clearly but also not be too wordy for their sake. Then the professor's response is always something like
"Yes thats fine"
not even fully answering my question lol. It's the academic equivalent of "k". It would be really funny if it weren't frustrating sometimes.
But anyway it's worse with remote learning. I know they have to adjust too but sometimes it's like they don't put any effort

No. 753362

>>753285
I'm not surprised about the parent thing, tbh whenever I see women in bad relationships I'm not that far off in assuming it's because they saw their own parents flounder in their own messed up relationships. Parents who would approve of this have some arrested instincts. Disordered parents raise disordered children unless they take big steps to live for a different example than how they were raised so their children don't grow up normalizing bullshit while not knowing what to look for. Are you sure your friend just wants to play house, and isn't running away from something else?

OP, the most you can do is be an open ear for her. Lord knows she's going to need it. Don't volunteer your opinion until she explicitly asks for it, and even then she may be sore if you don't say to her that her wasted time can be salvaged somehow. Hope for the best, but expect the worst. In due time she will realize her error and hopefully it won't be too late.

No. 753365

>>753335
Lmao this is me but with my managers at work.

They're terrible at sending documents and I'm supposed to be someone in charge of document release and control. They wanted me to publish documents today and I need two versions of them in order to do it. Today they only gave me the word versions and not the pdf versions, but even then the issue dates on the word documents appeared wrong. So I asked them about the missing pdfs and if the issue dates showing on the word docs were correct. Of course one manager doesn't fucking understand the simple question I'm asking, and treats me like a retard who doesn't know where the documents are located even though I said they were missing from where they are supposed to be! The other manager gets what I'm saying and sends me the pdfs, but doesn't answer my fucking question about the issue dates appearing incorrectly so now I have to pester again.

Like can they really not be assed to read the entire THREE SENTENCES I send them over Teams? Fucking retards.

No. 753387

>>753352
Exactly this. They really need to make themselves more available to students now that we don't have the opportunity chat in person. I can't even drop in on my prof's office hours because you have to schedule an appointment by email a day in advance and she never got back to me lmao. It's inconvenient because she only holds office hours once a week.

No disrespect to the TAs but I'm reluctant to bring my questions on the course material to them, sometimes they'll respond with "I actually haven't read that [assigned text which is central to this project] but it sounds like you're on track". I'm trying to do my best here, please work with me.

>>753365
It's incredible how people in positions of power can have such abysmal reading comprehension skills.

No. 753391

>>753365
>>753387
Honestly anons, we should feel good about our own skills and effort in the long run, because we have a real leg up in this case if our own current superiors can't manage reading comprehension. (Btw I try to be nice and assume they're busy but it's extremely over the top with how bad it is consistently)

No. 753396

Everytime I go on straight Male tinder 8 out of 10 women are cute or attractive. When I'm on straight woman tinder 9 put of 10 dudes are ugly and the rest are "hmmm he might be cute irl maybe this is a bad angle", on top of that you get all these bizarre sex related messages that seem like they're just trolling. I want off this ride.

No. 753397

>>753396
same, but more like 30 ugly guys, followed by a cute but complete tool posing like a gay pornstar

No. 753401

>>753396
couple fat older dudes, 30 more ugly guys, seemingly cute normal guy with a toxic description (incel vibes), 10 stoner dudes. I just gave up with online dating.

No. 753411

>>753396
Normal people don't do online dating anyway, regardless of their attractiveness. I don't believe you can find a quality person online, regardless of sex. I'm trying to learn how to talk to normies in real life, preferably those with no social media presence

No. 753432

>>753362
You're one of the good people I hear about.

No. 753454

i just worked 3 days in a row and need to deep clean my whole room, its gotten really bad, but my waterlogged brain wants me to watch youtube all day instead.
contemplating taking adderall (prescribed but it triggers my bfrb) to get started on everything
any nonnies got advice for kicking your ass into gear?

No. 753479

>>753411
nta but think you're right. Personally never tried online dating because it's obviously for hookups and full of weirdos. Maybe others don't for the same reasons, and that's who we need to find. I hope there are still a good number of actual not-online normies out there who aren't boomers. I'm afraid the numbers are dwindling but then I don't get out much in this pandemic

No. 753495

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My fiancé's spoiled, 40 year old ex wife keeps harassing us about money. Unfortunately he is still on their old lease and has to pay until it's expired this summer even though he lives with me. Otherwise he'd just block her. I blocked her because she pulled some psycho shit with me including cracking into my phone conversations with him and getting mad at me that he would rant to me about her. They didn't have any assets together. She's just salty that now she might be forced to actually take care of herself like a fucking adult. Her entitlement is relentless and I'm sick of her shit.

So this motherforking bitch gets half her rent paid so she can have an entire place all to herself (a luxury I have never been able to have in my adult life). Yet she has the audacity to harass us about paying for her cats and utilities. Shocked pikachu, but mayhaps she's figuring out that she's been a mooch for 40 years on this fucking planet and that her grocery clerk paycheck doesn't actually stretch far. She also refuses to take on more clients for her side gig because she's lazy and doesn't want to try to rope anyone to taxi her around since she can't drive either. I don't feel sorry for her, she's just a princess who's used to being waited on and it makes me angry. I'd feel differently if she ever worked hard for anything and tried to do stuff to better herself, but no.

1. Why should we pay for her utilities when neither of us live there and use them?
2. If she can't afford food for the cats then she needs to just surrender them or find a foster home until she can take them back. Pets are privileges, not necessities. Of course she has no friends so she can't even ask someone to house them temporarily.

She's extra unhinged lately because the married man who she has fucked around with claims to have gotten a promotion at work and now barely attempts to fuck her late at night on weekends anymore. She won't harp him for financial support because he'd probably tell her to piss off. She had to have an abortion recently because she just assumed her medical condition would act like birth control, cause she's an irresponsible dumbass. And because of the money it cost her to get an abortion, she used it to guilt us because she suddenly was short her half of rent and claimed she didn't have anything to eat.

But it's not enough that she begs us for money, she's gotta be fucking mean about it. She's gotta bite his head off when he reminds her that it isn't really his responsibility anymore to take care of her cats and buy her food because she needed an abortion because her married fuck buddy would have noped out. He'd give her money anyway because he's sensitive and is a good person, but she's fucking nasty the minute someone doesn't cater and lays down a boundary with her. I can't wait until that fucking lease is gone and then we can disappear and block her. It makes me so fucking sick that she's coasted by in life this far with so little effort yet acts oppressed when reality finally knocks. I want to be mean to her so badly but that won't solve anything.

No. 753497

>>753495
Two words, my friend: restraining order. That'll shut her up real quick.

No. 753521

>>753495
That’s a lot of baggage.

Make sure your fiancé is following the provisions outlined in his divorce decree. Otherwise it’s contempt of court.

No. 753527

>>753365
Are you the technical writer anon from the previous threads kek

No. 753534

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This is exactly why I never tell my family that I’m sick when I get sick, I usually just let it be, take some pills or drink some teas and I’m great again.
This time I got a pneumonia that has been quite fucking persistent and won’t leave already, so my aunt took me to the radiologist because it was better if I got some X rays done.
One of my uncles, a doctor, sees this and says I got pneumonia, okay, I can treat it at home, it’s not a big deal.
But then my aunt gets all stressed out, getting a doctor to come home to test whether I have Covid or not and we don’t have an oximeter because, who the hell had one before the pandemic?
So my aunt is asking everyone and everywhere for an oximeter.
It’s never such a big deal! I get a test result or x rays and it’s always something mild and treatable!
I absolutely despise how my brother won’t do anything, anything without getting all mad for no reason when I have to do a bunch of shot for him even while sick.
This is fucking annoying, I don’t want to die choked with my own mucus but I wouldn’t mind dying.

No. 753558

>make a completely sincere post
>no aggression whatsoever
>not even replying to anyone
>maybe looks weird or ignorant at worst
>get banned for 'bait' anyway

No. 753561

>>753558
was this about the mixed guys lol

No. 753563

>>753527
Nah I work in quality control. I applied for technical writer positions but couldn't stand against the competition around here since those people had internships and such.

No. 753565

>>753561
no. not even gonna bother saying what it was, it's embarrassing looking back at it. I should've deleted it.

No. 753572

Not really a vent, but IDK where else to post it.

I'm pretty certain my mum is lying about her chronic illness, or at least she believes she's in chronic pain but actually is fabricating it. She's had this mysterious disease that causes facial pain for the last decade, it's gone from being a toothache to a misfiring nerve in the mouth to a misfiring nerve in the brain. It's been several surgeries now, multiple on the brain (according to her) and every time it just doesn't treat it, this time it's "the gauze left in the brain after the last brain surgery is rubbing against the nerve". IDK, I've never talked to her doctor or seen the paperwork, I just know she's flying to and from the capitol for surgeries and each one is failing to do the job. This is combined with multiple people telling me that she lied about having a cancer diagnosis in the 90s for a long time. And when my little brother was growing up, he was placed on ADHD medication on heavy doses to the point where he was malnourished (due to how suppressed his appetite was) with a BMI of 14 (I also grew up with iron deficiencies due to only being fed shredded wheat, muesli bars and bread because "that's all we can afford") , her response to this was to parade him around gatherings and christmas parties like a freakshow for attention (he would come home crying every time). She would point out how you could see his heart beating through his shirt and laugh (it was always done from a "poor single mommy" angle, many people probably thought she was being a piece of shit but no one said anything).

My older sister thinks I'm a reprehensible monster for thinking such a thing. But maybe, MAYBE, because she's selected an illness that can only be diagnosed based on subjective pain, she's managed to munchauser her way through. I've caught her a few times, spying on her from the doorstep as she goes about chores, I seen her notice me in the reflection in the window (not realizing I had already seen her) and instantly seen her grasping her head and making noises like she's in pain.

She is extremely thirsty for attention and sympathy and loves to spiel on non-stop about her expensive treatments. The hundreds of hours she would go on and on about acupuncture when it was just a tooth thing (spending hundreds a month while barely feeding us) is burned into my brain. As soon as she got hold on heavy pain medication she just started spieling on about how tired she was all the time and how the "room spins like I'm in the matrix I'm in that much pain", it's all classic munchie hyperbole and attention seeking behavior.

Could it indeed be possible she's bullshitted her way into actual brain surgery?

No. 753581

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Dumbass guy in my group chat says that twinks and (presumably) butch lesbians must be non-binary. Wtf is up with this shit.

No. 753587

my roommate is still being rude about my rescue cat but he slept with me last night and I love him so much

No. 753593

>>753581
>Pegee man
Tranny fetish guaranteed

No. 753603

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I don't think I'm in love or attracted to my bf anymore

No. 753615

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Bf wants me to pick him up half way tonight at his parent's house because his battery light is on in his car and he's afraid to drive it all the way home from his job. It's like 35 minutes out from me.

Nothing can emphasize how much I really, really, really don't feel like doing this. Late at night.
Ugh.
God he spent money replacing the battery earlier and now it might be a different problem. But like…why did he waste money on a new battery before getting the problem diagnosed? Men are retarded and it's upsetting.

No. 753618

My dad's in the hospital and there might be something seriously wrong but we're not sure yet, they're still doing tests and even the doctors don't really know what's going on. I know I didn't actually magic him into the hospital by being resentful of my shitty childhood but that's how it feels. He's an asshole but I don't want him to die. Or be in pain. He's such a fucking asshole and we don't have a great relationship, but he's an asshole because he's mentally ill and I hate that he's scared and in pain and I really don't want him to die yet. It's not a good time for him to be in the hospital with fucking covid and everything. Like the hospital here was overcrowded and shitty before covid, there's no way he's being treated kindly. And I just hate it because he's an asshole but he's also a scared old man who had a sad childhood and I keep worrying about the nurses being short with him and it breaks my heart. I don't even know if he has a bed yet like last I heard they still had him sitting in the ER. I don't think he's comfortable. My brother is handling it right now and I don't want to pester him constantly for updates but it's driving me crazy not knowing what's going on.

No. 753623

My depression is so bad and I feel suicidal (I’m not going to hurt myself, just more like what’s the point of being alive) and I keep crying for no reason. I want to tell my boyfriend but I don’t want to burden him and make him worry and my friends are all too busy to care. I hate this damn pandemic

No. 753625

>>753603
It happens. People grow up and grow apart. Let it be a time to feel excited about a new chapter.

No. 753628

coworker said he rather die of covid than get the vaccine. i sure do hope he gets it and dies. disgusting ass fucker has been reusing his dispoable mask for the past 3 months, not covering his nose, and if not that then he just has it on his chin. god i hate working with this fucker.

No. 753715

i'm not sure what I'm going through right now, I feel very manic,I feel like headbutting the wall and beating the shit out of somebody. I hate that I feel like a scrote right now, like that's some real dumb shit a scrote would do. But I don't trust anyone right now, I feel like clawing my skin off

No. 753726

i want to kill myself when i remember i fucked up such a good job because i was going through shit. my uneducated ass would be making $24 an hour working from home right now. i need to go back to school.

No. 753739

I keep trying to log into my amazon account but I can't remember the password for the fucking life of me. Pls stop taking me to the password assistance page, I've change my password like 5 times this year. god, this is what happens when I try to spice up my password and don't write it down

No. 753745

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Long post, sorry.

Anons, advice would be really appreciated. I'm having friend group woes. Gonna try not to make it longer than it needs to be.

A couple weeks ago, I was a little frustrated at my DnD group (also my friend group) for doing a session during spring vacation, since I wanted to get away for that week (my country's quarantine is lax). I was a little passive-aggressive, but basically they exploded in my face and relayed everything to me via 1 person (first friend I made here). I didn't even think it was a big deal that I was a little upset about doing it during vacation, but whatever. Along the lines of "I wanted to do something else in this time, but I guess we'll have the session, so..".

The pissed me off and sent me into a crying session. My biggest fear and I guess pain point is that I'm afraid of being abandoned and unloved because that's usually the way it goes (this is a new friend group, prior to that I was basically alone). The fact that the rest of the group relayed their anger at me via that 1 person also made me incredibly upset because I felt like everyone talked being my back about this.

Then, long story short, I wrote a letter to my friend about how much this hurt me. I do better when I take time to process things. SHE wrote me back that basically I am manipulative because I make everyone pity me and I am an attention hog because of this. I DISAGREE. Like, if I have no spine to stand up for myself, or sometimes can't handle my depressive/anxiety thoughts and leave, THAT IS NOT ME BEING MANIPULATIVE. That is me removing myself from the situation to not cause stress on my friends. When my friend got sick, I drove her to the hospital and took care of everything, staying up until midnight and THEN going back to the hospital the next day. I constantly show my affection and appreciation for everyone and this is what they say?

I can't say that I don't sometimes manipulate people, but 1. everyone does to a degree, and 2. if I do something to my own detriment, that is NOT manipulation. If I have to leave a party because my depressive episode is coming, that is NOT manipulative. Am I not wrong?

But basically… I'm pathetic. Even though they said all of this stuff, I still want to be friends with them. We have a lot of common interests, and they're all cool people. I can't say I want to be alone again. If I must, I must, but is this not salvageable? And why must I always be the one to make amends? Why does nobody ever try to cozy up to me, and compromise?

That friend said that we 'can be friends', but how can you be friends with a person who you called selfish, manipulative, and self-centered? What kind of a friend even is that?

I feel stabbed in the heart, deeply. And no one in that friend group even cares. It sucks to be abandoned again. I always freely give myself to others, and I know that's bad, but I always hope that it would result in love, friendship. I feel gaslit and like maybe I am a horrible person. Maybe. But fuck, if I try not to be, then doesn't that already count for something?

Then basically

No. 753750

People who police my use of the word “retard” are so fucking annoying. Just because I don’t have downs or cerebral palsy or obvious autism doesn’t mean I’m not a retard. Come talk to me when you are bullied for a disability yourself as well—until then I don’t want to be lectured by some normie who probably would have joined in with kids that teased/bullied me for being slow/stupid. But it’s not just normies, in the fucking adhd subreddit you can’t say that word without auto removal…ffs that subreddit is full of fakers and dumb neurotypicals who think adhd is the cause of their mediocrity anyways. Just let me use the fucking word and stop assuming I’m some ableist because I don’t have a pegleg or a wheelchair.

No. 753752

>>753750
ok retard

No. 753754

A friend of mine is going through a hypomanic episode but she's in denial about it. She has been diagnosed with bipolar 2 (as have I, that's how I can tell she's manic) but she hasn't accepted the diagnosis and just pretends all she has is anxiety and depression. She was put on SSRI meds without a mood stabilizers which is a gigantic yikes as SSRI's are known to cause mania in bipolar people, I have no idea what her psych thought when he put her on that…. She's engaged and has a baby with the guy but she's actively ruining the relationship through manic texting and flirting with other people, including her co-workers (and even me, every time she's manic I get drunk texts from her at like 3AM asking what I'm wearing and other absolutely inappropriate shit like that). I tried telling her that she's manic and that she should try to calm down but she doesn't see anything wrong with herself or the flirting, and she got angry at me for even suggesting that it's a problem. But I can't even be offended at her getting angry because I've been manic and I know what it's like, you feel great and you go in such deep denial about all of the stupid shit you're doing that the only way to realize the consequences of your actions it is to come down from mania and just… regret everything in hindsight. It's a difficult thing to witness.
I also keep wondering if other people see manic me the way I see her rn, an inevitable train wreck that you're powerless to stop. It's an embarrassing thought.

No. 753756

>>753215
>one of the fakebois has parents who pay for private college and hrt and is just a precious sheltered baby boy who is here to inform me homophobia is over and now all the bigots are actually focused on killing the asexuals and hentai sexuals.
Reminds me so much of a straight girl I know who trooned out and claimed that gays should shut the fuck up about their problems and start focusing on helping trannies out. Deranged narcissists, all of them.

No. 753759

>>753752
Right back at ya retard

No. 753788

How do you show emotional support to someone? I'm autistic and I always had problem with that. People in family were either neglectful or abusive or two faced and I don't feel genuine need to show my support or affection towards them, I only force myself to do it out of obligation and it always comes out as robotnic and maybe they know I'm faking it. But there's a few people who never hurt me and I wish I could show them emotional support when I feel like they have problems, but I never know what to say, sometimes I open my mouth but nothing comes out and I hate myself for it. I'm trying to listen as much as I can but I wish I knew what to say. I tried to learn that from movies or just from listening to strangers talking and it always seems like something I just could not do. I feel like there's an invisible wall between me and other people and I will never get closer to another human being in my life

No. 753792

I have been with my boyfriend for 3+ years and his little brother is going crazy, he wants to go on a roadtrip to the other side of the world when he's 18. He's a coddled rich boy that never lived alone, has never worked & has been in therapy for self harm/suicidal thoughts.

I love my boyfriend but I really don't want to have anything to do with this, I'm seriously considering ending the relationship if this goes out of hands. I have a drama-free family so maybe that's why my tolerance for this shit is pretty low.

No. 753800

>>753792
you're unhinged, anon. first of all, why do you even care about his little brother? second of all, what's such a problem with a roadtrip? it's not rocket science, he can do it.

No. 753802

>>753792
I don't see what your bf's little brother's actions have to do with you or your relationship? Where most women are far too unwilling to break up with their shitty bf's, you seem to be on the other end of the extreme.

And what's so crazy about going on a roadtrip when he's 18? He's not a child anymore. Where I live it's common enough for late-teenagers who've just finished high school to travel to another continent for a couple of weeks or months.

No. 753805

>>753800
>>753802
I said a roadtrip but it's not really what he said. He wants to go to the other side of the world (more precisely going across North America) "to find himself" because he feels trapped. He has no plan, no idea of what he wants to do, no money, no sense of responsibility and he's mentally unstable.

His actions matter to me and my relationship because if something bad happens to him it will fall back on me. Already did when he almost killed himself. This is a really stressful situation for everyone in his family and I don't want to get involved in this. Thing is, I'm pretty close to them and can't turn a blind eye.

No. 753810

>>753805
>it will fall back on me
Literally how. You're not even directly related to him and aren't responsible for him whatsoever.

Considering the biggest problem in your relationship is your bf's brother your relationship must be solid. It'd be a huge waste to throw a good relationship away over a little brother with a dumb idea.

No. 753811

>>753805
My older brother was coddled his entire life and he's from UK, but he did a road trip in America. He saw someone commit suicide in a subway station in manhattan, but everything else he said was good.

No. 753815

>>753813
You could be right about the trip being a terrible idea, but you also could be wrong. Seeing new things and places may be good distraction for him. Him checking in his location periodically would be nice ofc.

No. 753816

I strongly disagree but there's no point in going back and forth about it so. Do what you think is best I guess.

No. 753818

deleted previous post too much personal info

>>753815
I hope I'm wrong, I'll come back and vent here anyway if he ends up eating poisonous berries in the middle of nowhere

No. 753826

I made a twitter account (first mistake) because I'm very into a certain game at the moment and simply just wanted to see more posts about it. Of course I have no followers because it's a new account and I just followed people that post things I like. I've been blocked a lot of times despite not having any posts and only liking things and I think it's because I have no followers and it makes people uncomfortable honestly. It annoys me how shallow people are why do I need to have followers to not be blocked.

No. 753836

>>753826
I don't know but I'm wondering how people even gain them, I'd had fan accounts in the past that nobody seemed to want to follow, I can't tell if it's because I'm an adult and they're all 13, or what, or because I refuse to reveal all personal information about myself and give into their ridiculous carrd craze pronounz in biooo bullshit, but I'm down to my private account and I'm contented with that. Desperately trying to gain validation or awaiting a viral post that'll never come makes no sense. Half of Twitter is a pointless echo chamber.

No. 753837

>>753836
Just look for stan accounts doing follow for follows lol

No. 753847

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I'm supportive of they/them pronouns but now even that's wrong? I'm so fucking confused how are boomers meant to keep up with this when a bleeding heart libtard like myself can't, I'm so done with this endless whack a mole game of language!

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>>752653
a bit down the road:
> why does my child have an eating disorder, I don't understand,
> I did everything right, it's the shitty child's fault
> the child is doing it on purpose to make me look bad

lol 4pc nuggets, I'd eat 20 piece box for lunch

No. 753856

okay farmers am i in the wrong here? was dating this guy for a few months just about. first time i meet him he makes sexual advances on me and i just go for it because i got out of a breakup and am pathetic. after that everytime i see him we have sex or something, it was ok at first but then it started to be excruciating, sex with him was so painful and on top of that he starts to do things to me that i didn’t ask for. choking, spitting in my mouth, pulling my hair, trying to finger my ass dry (sorry gross ik) and the pain of all this was so bad i would often go home and cry. i was sore for days and couldn’t sleep. but i never said stop or don’t or anything, and that’s totally on me. i figured since i didn’t say no when he first tried those things i couldn’t say it the other times because i’d be “changing my mind.” but again i didn’t say yes to these things and he didn’t ask. i hate when guys assume i’m into that kinky shit because of my style, i wear a lot of black and “alternative” kind of clothes, it’s happened before with other guys. besides sex all we would do is watch tv. after another particularly horrible bout of sex i went home and decided to never talk to him again. i just ghosted him and didn’t talk with him for a couple months. he still sent me messages saying he missed me and wanted to see me. last night i finally blocked him for good. was it wrong of me? i figure he’s a porn addict, and his life is basically useless as he lives with his mom and just smokes weed constantly.

No. 753857

>>753847
I’d be so tired too if I saw literally fucking everything as offensive and a personal attack. They/them are the only universally accepted gender neutral pronouns in the English language. There’s nothing offensive about it, it’s not a slur. Twitterfags need to go outside.

No. 753862

>>753847
>fatgayfemmeboy
>fat white woman who presents super feminine and refuses to wear a bra for her saggy fat girl tits
classic

No. 753863

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>>753847
This is what happens when you thonk too much, everything is now offensive and things change so drastically within a few years or even months, that soon no one will have any idea of what the fuck can be said or will get you canceled.
I hope the retarded mental gymnastics finally result in a huge implosion of their communities of whatever the fuck is Twitter right now.
I swear, it feels like anyone is hostage of everyone else.

No. 753867

I bought some sewing supplies on AliExpress (I know, I know) and got a message saying that the package had arrived in my country, hurray! I checked the tracking and it’s actually in a neighbouring country, not mine. It’s been “in transit” from said neighbouring country for two weeks now, longer than it took to get there from China. I could literally walk there in less than a day. Sigh.

No. 753868

>>753856
Why the fuck would it be wrong of you? You don't need any excuse or an explanation to ghost anyone, let alone some fuckbuddy who hurt you. Yea, you didn't say no, yea you didn't say yes but the point is that you owe his ass nothing, explanations included. Sorry he was a dick to you, anon.

No. 753871

>>753856
ghost him, block him, get him out of your life, you're not in the wrong

No. 753879

i feel so fucking guilty and bad
my grandpa suddenly got so fucking sick and has been suffering since few days and was in constant pain
today he broke down and had the ambulance called on him
its pretty serious and he is being operated on right now
he called me a few days prior all of this but i was to busy answer him
please let him fucking live i really love him with my whole heart anons please pray with me that i can see him again
i feel so horrible what if he dies there knowing that his granddaughter couldnt answer his last phone call?

No. 753880

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No. 753882

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Just saw and had to report cp on CC, and I already know they come here to try mess with us on LC too. Stay safe everyone.

No. 753884

>>753856
The only thing you did wrong was not standing up for yourself when you should've. You let yourself get choked and spit on when you didn't want to, please get some selfrespect.

No. 753896

>>753856
>i didn’t say no when he first tried those things i couldn’t say it the other times because i’d be “changing my mind.”
You can always change your mind, even in the middle of sex. Any person who ever tries to make you feel bad for "changing your mind" is manipulating you because they don't want you to have autonomy

>porn addict who just smokes weed in his moms house

>all we would do is watch tv.
Better off without him even if before all the gross shit he forced on you

Why do you feel like you're in the wrong, just because you ghosted him? I am completely armchairing here but maybe you feel upset, because of what happened, and instead of allowing yourself to accept that he did something bad you are instead seeing yourself as the person who did something wrong. If you want a sense of closure then it would be good to say that you didn't want or enjoy the things he did to you with affirmative consent but that's probably a very difficult conversation for you to have with him. Realistically, if you aren't comfortable verbalising what you want then he will just be able to talk you around before you block him.
This wasn't your fault and you didn't "deserve" it, but in future you need to practice saying no to people. Start with small every day things or practice saying what you like and don't like when you are alone at home.

No. 753910

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Since quarantine, my social anxiety is getting worst. I have not speak to my irl friends for months. I'm strugglling with loneliness, the fact that my emotional side of my brain said I rather when shizo and having delusion/Imiginary friends rather dealing with it. At this point I'm trying my best to stay sane and not to fall into the dark side
Anything I will do to prevent worst case scenario

No. 753954

This is how pretty much all my relationships go
>meet guy and try to be fwb. Not even concerned about a relationship just wanna have fun.
>I treat him like a friend and I'm nice to him
>men confuse me being nice to them as me wanting to marry them
>they start acting rude, negging and wont stfu about not being ready for a relationship
>I get bored of it and ghost
>after I ghost they start stalking me or suddenly they're ready for a relationship


Why do men do this?

No. 753955

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>>753910
I’m feeling that anon. Quarantine has destroyed my ability to meet new people on top of damaging my current friendships. It’s like I’ve become semi autistic. I cannot hold a conversation and if someone asks be something I just stare at them blankly now. FML

No. 753961

>>753954
They want to be the one who gets to decide. Males can dish it out but can’t take it basically

No. 753965

>>753954
Men like mind games and enjoy seeing if you will still bite their bait because it allows them to feel like you still desire them even though you weren't gun ho about a relationship with them. It's ego cope. They hate rejection.

No. 753993

I hate being friends with so many wokies because I feel like I can’t even share a post about invisible illnesses and say they affect predominantly women (endo, PCOS, lupus) without thinking someone will DM me about using non-inclusive language kms I’m so sick of this.

No. 754002

>>753993
Stop being friends with those woke troonfags and get better friends then. Be my friend, I hate woke troonfags

No. 754006

>>753750
Always say the word retard, fuck people you can say whatever you want

No. 754007

>>753993
>>754002
And please direct your woke friends my way. I feel as though this is a good trade.

No. 754020

>>753993
It fucking sucks having befriended all the TRAs and wokies in high school and then being unable to make new friends in adulthood so you're stuck with all these weird motherfuckers you hate who get worse every day following you on every platform

No. 754031

>>754020
Ironically this just made me feel better about the few friends I have, I like them lol.

No. 754034

I miss going to week-long DIY punk festivals. Everyday was spent circulating from one show to another, meeting new people from around the world and connecting through music, it was such a rush. It's interesting how the pandemic has brought a flood of nostalgic memories forward. I'm in my late 20's now and when I look back at the past 10 years I feel really happy about my personal development, I've improved a lot in just about every way. Can't wait to make new memories in the future when the lockdown is finally lifted.

No. 754036

>>754020
nayrt but my problem is similar, except I genuinely adore everything else about these friends. If they weren't prone to parroting tra bullshit they'd be perfect friends.

No. 754042

>>754020
So just say you don't agree with them? Friends don't have to agree on every single thing, and if that's a dealbreaker for them then you know what they were worth in the first place.

No. 754044

>>754042
was meant for >>753993

No. 754046

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I have a predicament
>last week
>get e-mail from professor in one of my past courses asking if she can nominate my essay for an award
>say yes
>he responds saying to put my name and some other info on a title page for the essay and send it in
>don't have stable internet connection for a few days, don't get to see this
>this week
>read the reply
>send him an e-mail back apologizing for the wait, and ask which essay he wants me to send in
>no reply
>it's been 3 days
I asked my mom if I should just leave it or reach out again, and she said to just add the info to all three of the essays I did for the course and send it to him with something like "Here are the details you asked for, attached to both essays". I said it'd look weird and passive-aggressive to double e-mail like that after the prof hasn't responded, and she said "The professor doesn't need to respond. You were given a set of instructions. If you want your work nominated, just follow them". I disagreed again and said it'd look desperate and rude because it's been days, and she was like "Okay. If you don't want your work nominated, don't send anything".
I'm second-guessing myself now. Was she right? Should I just e-mail him again with the essays amended and not care if it looks thirsty/awkward/rude? I have anxiety that makes me hyper self-conscious, so now I'm not even sure if this is just my fear acting up, or if I'm correct in thinking it'd look bad. Help

No. 754047

>>754046
Samefagging. In my email to him apologizing, I did state my internet connection was bad for the past 3 days (he e-mailed me last on Friday, so this was over the weekend)

No. 754048

>>754002
>>754020
Kek luckily my closest friends are pretty liberal but still normal/rooted in reality, but the acquaintances or college friends I talk to would be the ones trying to “educate,” me even though I know and just disagree/don’t care lol.
>>754036
Exactly! They’re very nice people, but they’re too deep into it online or are more concerned with inclusivity pandering than the objective reality that most people are just not trans nor identify outside of the binary.
>>754007
Kek of course, but don’t you get….like tired?
>>754042
I know, but being accused of TERF/transphobic shit is still a lil daunting, and I worry that’s exactly where they’d take it. It shouldn’t matter, but it does, especially in a small, queer college town. It’s fuckin gaaaayyy.

No. 754051

>>754046
100% send him another email, anon. Your work is important and there’s a chance he might’ve just missed your first email. I’ve had to do this a few times with professors and the past, and they’ve never seemed to mind it.

No. 754052

>>754047
Just do what your mom said to do, she was right imo. People do it all the time, and it’s usually more helpful than annoying when done tactfully. When someone double e-mails me, even in a more passive way (ie adding the information and saying “here are the essays attached with the information updated like your mom said), I’m usually super grateful bc I most like forgot or put the issue on the back burner, so it’s a great reminder—plus the info needed will be there. Go for it anon.

No. 754053

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Am I pearl clutching or are these web games aimed at literal little girls fucking fetishy and demented? Everything is so scrotal from concept to execution. I legit thought these were some hentai shit but they’re the most popular games on girlsgogames.

No. 754056

>>754053
you're right this is disgusting

No. 754057

>>754053
The give me the same vibe as those weird spiderman elsa videos that were going around a while ago. I don't think all of them are supposed to be fetishy though, I think some of its for shock value and the weird shit attracts people, especially kids, to play the game out of curiosity

No. 754059

>>754051
>>754052
Thanks anons, I'll reply again. Worst case scenario, I just don't get a response (again) and can move on, or someone else got picked (which can't be helped).

No. 754068

>>754053
What the actual fuck am I looking at

No. 754084

>>754057
my dad pointed out the other day that in one of the games he plays he keeps getting a graphic ad in between rounds for a game that allows you to pop feet pimples and warts, so it's not just children's games

No. 754089

got fucking damn, a Hawaiian bread sandwich will have you feeling heavy as all fuck

No. 754094

>>754089
But Hawaiian bread is so good anon it’s worth it

No. 754101

>>754084
Why is there so much pregnancy contents. I swear the pimple popping is thinly veiled excuse to rub cartoon feet.

No. 754111

>>753788
Sincerety is what counts, anon. I'd say ask to the people you want to be there for, ask what makes them feel better. Somebody may want to talk about it, somebody would rather you distract them. If all else fails get them their favorite snack (if appropriate)

No. 754144

I am really truly heartbroken. My sex life with my LTR boyfriend declined in both quantity and quality last year. For months I was agonizing over the possibility of my <10 lb weight gain being the cause, but I recently learned that my boyfriend likes to get high and masturbate to sissy porn while dressed up in heaven knows what. He doesn’t seem to recognize that this is impacting our sex life. I’m grateful for his sanity that he doesn’t currently ID as trans, but I can only imagine his fetish will lead him there eventually. This is completely out of the blue to me and I’m still shocked. I think the hardest part is we still love each other. I have wasted the last 4 years of my life, and for what?

No. 754152

>>754144
Jesus how did he get into all of that, that’s terrifying? Moids going from sweet, normal, and loving to degenerate with little to no warning makes me want to go febfem. I’m sorry, anon. Have you talked about it much, or is it the beginning of the problem?

No. 754170

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I feel too stupid for college. I am just stupid in general, my general reasoning sucks. I find myself not being able to justify shit. I am just stupid. IQ test is bullshit. I am going to fail college… I had 2.3 GPA my first semester and I just found out that I might not be able to get into the engineering program due to that GPA. I am failure. It's worse because I get treated like an idiot because I am a woman in STEM but now I am only confirming these biases.

No. 754171

>>754152
>>754144

wouldn't be surprised if he was exposed to 'gooner' videos. literal degeneracy 'brainwashing' videos that sites like PH push to the front page so even normies can be exposed to advanced level degeneracy.

it's literally just compilation videos embracing the idea of coomer induced brainrot and it's becoming a trend so much so that it now has it's own name/community much larger than just the sissy niche. terrifying

No. 754178

>>754171
Surely the post-fap regret from that stuff would motivate people sort their shit out…I hope

I stalked those gooner discords out of curiosity and the genuine talk of suicide is pretty depressing. Someone's brother actually came into one of them to let the rest know he killed himself last week, it was something lynchian in how tragic it was contrasted with the carnal pornography surrounding them and the sissy usernames.

No. 754181

>>754178
I dont feel bad because the moment you try to get them out of their fetishes they're ready to have a bitch fit

No. 754185

>>754170
You are me 10 years ago. I flunked out of college and didn't go back because I thought I was stupid and wasn't able to change. Turns out I have ADHD, got help, and now I'm back in classes and on the dean's list. It's never to late to decide tomorrow that you want your life to be different. I'm telling you from my heart you can do it.

No. 754186

In this shithole of a country called New Zealand someone can park their vehicle on your property and you have no way of removing it. My semi-senile neighbor has got it in her head that I don't have access to the shared right away and has dumped a vehicle on my property blocking it. I've fallen down a legal catch 22 because it's not a local government right of way so the council towtrucks won't sort it out. The two towing companies in town are scared shitless of touching the issue because of the amount of lawsuits they get from damage to vehicle while towing. I'll be charged with trespassing (strangely) because the vehicle itself is considered private property and I have no right to tow it myself. I can get a clamping company to put signs up and monitor the place, but once it's clamped and the $100 fine is sent they can just never pay it and leave the clamped car there (the car itself is a wreck that hasn't been legal in years)…And I'll still have no way of getting it removed. A tresspass notice won't work because it only applies for people coming onto the property, now the vehicle is dumped there it doesn't work.

I spent 3-4 hours on the phone and spent several emails trying to wrangle the cops in to sort it, and the most they can do is "have a word with them" because it's a civil dispute and nothing to do with them. At this point I'm going to have to go spend hundreds or thousands on a lawyer for the offchance there's a law I can do something about it. It's gone on for several months now, and I'm at the point where I'm going to have to go to war with them, which is a thing in itself. The problem is they're gang affiliated (their daughter married into one of the countries worst gangs) and the other neighbor who felt sorry for me warned me to "step lightly and be careful, they know some powerful people"

No. 754192

The term/name Dark Academia irritates me for no good reason. I hate it so much.

No. 754196

>>754186
Break into the car and push it out of the way. If you think a gang member is going to risk a murder charge because someone touched his mother-in-law's piece of junk car then you're better off just moving the fuck away from there. It's not going to stop here… it's no way to live to spend the next 20 years as a hostage to some bitter old lady.

No. 754198

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Miss abusive confused bisexual who claims to be a lesbian despite wanting to fuck men according to what I have heard, especially this annoying german scrote, come collect your ex from my tired hands. Girl, why'd you ever tell a man lolcow even exist? Either way you should be my bestie because you're actually based. Anyways, I really want to try my boyfriend's childhood wasabi chips they used to sell in his country. Honestly, I'm jealous because they have lame flavors here that only taste like salt and nothing else.

No. 754201

Yeah, it's going to have to go that way. I'm just gathering information atm to be able to properly push back.

I'm just annoyed with the law, the towing company said that it's not just me, hundreds of people fall into the same legal loophole and piece of shit criminal families know how to exploit it now. I think people in the United States underestimate the legal fuckery that takes place in places like New Zealand and the UK, my old man was taken to court for $12,000 for failing to make one phone call when he fired someone for smoking meth at work, despite the fact that this same person had a record of problems going way back. If you're a piece of shit here, the law is your friend, if you somewhat try to live legally you get hit with punitive measures at every turn.

I would love to just turn it into a cube and scrap it.

No. 754202

My brother and I are sharing a car right now (we have night/day shifts at our jobs), and every morning when he gets home from work he always without fail shuts himself in his room, gets crossfaded, and goes to sleep. Which is fine but every single time without fail he forgets to hang up the car keys and leaves them in his room somewhere, so I have to spend several minutes pounding on his door in an attempt to raise him from his chemical-induced slumber just so he can hand the keys over and I can go to fucking work.

No. 754203

>>754192
for me it's bc half the time, the corny nerds that use it are borderline illiterate and just like the aesthetic of holding an old beat up book and spouting shit about how deep they are

No. 754207

>>754202
Put a sign written in capital letters in front of his door room telling him to not forget about it. Like "PLEASE DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE THE CAR KEYS BY THE TABLE" or whatever. Works with my dad

No. 754208

>>754202
Dang that sucks. Would it be possible to get a second set of keys? I know nothing about cars tho

No. 754223

>>754208
NTA but sometimes a second set of keys can be as low as $50 to $400.

No. 754229

Tried to get along with a new coworker I had to train and work next to, but I'm done with this shit. First day on the job he made a mistake, said, "Where's the assistance, you're a demon!" I had no idea what he was even talking about until he asked me how to fix the mistake when he replies, "OH THERE's the assistance". You met me thirty minutes ago, go fuck yourself dipshit. Yesterday he got mad that I was working faster than him, told me to pretend to struggle. Didn't say shit to him. Later I was trying to look at the second page of the work newsletter on the board, he was a couple feet away I thought talking to someone and he suddenly yells, "Don't touch that!" at me. At that point I knew I wasn't even going to try to play nice with this immature retarded. He wears blacked out safety glasses and a black face cover so I can't even tell when he's looking at me let alone talking to me so I fucking ignore him as much as I can now. Retard wears the exact same deadpool shirt every day and spergs about superhero's, probably thinks he is one in his stupid face coverings. During our breaks he always falls asleep and someone has to wake him up. He claims he gets barley 4 hours of sleep at night. Not only is that a safety issue but he's a confirmed unstable person. Oh, did I mention he always yells when he talks even if you're an inch away from him. Today everyone else was packing there things up at the end of the shift, I started packing mine up, he asks if I'm going to finish the last two pieces and I said no. Thirsty as hell, exhausted, wanting to go home, I turn away from him and he starts sperging. "Oh really you're not going to tell me when you're done…ONE OF THESE DAYS!". A coworker laughed and pointed a me thinking it was hilarious this dipshit was yelling at me like that while I rolled my eyes into the back of my head. I'm fucking over this. I'm not his babysitter, I'm not giving him a single inch of emotional labor or whatever the fuck he expects out of me. Act like a crazy person and I'll ignore you. I tried being nice but I can't deal with him. He knows what time our breaks are, what time we stop, he has eye balls, he can clearly see everyone stopping work. He expects other people to wake him up after break, he expects me to pretend like my job is hard to comfort his manbaby feelings, expects me to tell him every single day that's break time or quitting time. Suck my ass. I hope he throws a fit like the child he is and quits soon.

No. 754231

A male acquaintance told me I don't get jokes/I don't have a sense of humor because I didn't find a rape joke funny

No. 754255

My brother-in-law told me I’m making mashed potatoes wrong (lol) because he saw someone do it differently in a YouTube video. He says this kinda dumb shit all the time and gives me all this unsolicited cooking “advice” because he saw it on fucking YouTube. This guy has never cooked anything but eggs and rice, but he watches Gordon Ramsay and thinks he knows more than anyone else. “Well, the pros make it like this” bitch I don’t care.

No. 754261

>>754255
Scrotes idolize Gordon Ramsay for his asshole personality on his shows and his “authority” on good cuisine, like there aren’t a million more talented chefs that know more than him.

No. 754262

>>754231
Start making vulgar comments about men in front of him

No. 754265

>>754261
What baffles me is that Ramsay larpers only use the 'angrily critiquing everything' part and think they are golden. Buddy, it's only tolerable when you are an expert and only valuable if you can follow it up with good advice. Yelling "this sucks" requires no talent.
Not that yelling at all is a positive trait, but damn. It's like wanting to be Batman, but only dead parents part, non of being rich and superhero nonsense.

No. 754269

>>754261
His asshole personality was put on for american TV viewers, he's acting up for reality TV. He's much calmer in the UK version of kitchen nightmares and the F Word. He's still kinda rude sometimes but he doesn't really yell and there's more disappointment than anger.

No. 754275

I'm so stressed. I'm going to court against my former employee for union-busting and unfairly firing me. I have never been to court before, and I don't understand most of the legalese in the documents of my case. Yesterday I had to ask what a litigator was after talking to one. I was really hoping that the employer was going to settle out of court, but they are a pretty big company so guess they think they are unstoppable. Luckily, I found another former employee who can be a witness, so I'm trying to stay confident. I have so much anxiety, I literally might just cry the whole trial though, lol.

No. 754277

>>754231
I guarantee if his ass got raped he wouldn't find it funny at all.

No. 754279

>>754269
Yeah, it’s true… I miss the days of Anthony Bourdain.

No. 754289

>>754192
Personally, I enjoy seeing edgy 16 year olds put black and white filters over rough british uni's and trying to pass it off as aethstetic

No. 754321

I work third shift so I have to sleep in the daytime. My upstairs neighbor is some neet that never sits still. I'm convinced hr animorphs into a hamster or something. He only leaves about one time each day for about 1 hour. He definitely doesn't even work at home because he never speaks. He never had company. Overall I should be glad it's not some loud mouth with 50 kids, but can he not just sit the fuck down and not wear his shoes indoors? Also all his constant movement is in his bedroom right above mine.

No. 754322

>>754275
Hi, I work for a court. Is there a pro se (not represented by counsel) resource in your city or region? It may be called community legal aid. Sometimes the local bar association does “Ask a Lawyer” days or phone conference lines. They can help you understand the legal terms on your forms and give you basic legal guidance for when you are in court. You can also try to retain an attorney and file paperwork to try and have the plaintiff (I’m guessing the company filed?) pay legal fees if the court weighs in your favor

No. 754337

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Mfw I moved across the country to escape abusive parents and got married at 18 and I realized I'm living in a shitty smelly godawful city with no opportunities and that my home city is overflowing with opportunities that I missed out on by moving. But if I stayed with my parents I probably would've killed myself by now so I guess it's better that I'm not getting my ass kicked every day. But I just fucking hate it here and don't wanna live in this place for the next 5 years but I probably will have to

No. 754347

I'm sad because I'm 30 and I'll never get to have a passionate love affair with someone hot who loves me and vice versa. It's a sad reality I gotta accept now.

No. 754348

>>754337
move with your husband into your old city, and don't live with your parents

No. 754354

>>753745
Honestly your friends sound like shitheads. I also find it weird that after this friend of yours (I assume the one you sent the letter to) said their spiel about how manipulative they think you are, she then said “we can be friends.” I just assume that staying friends would be a given (since aren’t you guys friends from the start?), but it sounds like they almost don’t even consider you one, or that they were reconsidering something. It just sounds like they don’t respect you.

It seems odd that they’re blowing up like this, but I’ve encountered people that project when they call out manipulation, or are being disingenuous. They also probably think that you don’t “value” them since you had other plans. A friend of mine would always have people pull this on her because she was a very nice and inviting person, so everyone would always feel entitled to her time and energy and blow up if they didn’t get their way.

I know you like these people and are afraid of being alone but really consider if they respect you or not. It’s not worth it to stay or try to fix things if they feel entitled to your emotional labor in this. My friend that I was mentioning would also always give herself freely, it’s not a bad thing, it just sometimes attracts people that leech on sincerity and don’t give any back.

No. 754357

>>754347
There’s no need to think like this, you never know anon

No. 754361

>>754348
I can't, he's in the military

No. 754367

>>754357
It didnt happen when I was young and free. I've never had good sex with a man I think is good looking and equally wants me. So at this point its settle time I guess.

No. 754370

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>>754347

My older sister is 37 and just got engaged to a guy whose her perfect match in every way. You never know when true love will come along, anon.

No. 754372

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Damn I know it’s common knowledge that google as a search engine is shit but wow it’s getting me so upset how I can’t get good results on ANYTHING. Even on google scholars. It’s always shit shit shit.

Today I was trying to find this article about a woman that took a pic of a humanoid (pic rel I just thought the bugger was funny and wanted it). As I type, no suggestions past “humanoid.” All the results are such garbage even up to the 5th page.

This even happens when I type in the urls of other search engines like duckduckgo and swisscows. No fill in past duck or swiss. I type in “woman captures small humanoid on camera” and it’s literally the first result on duckduckgo. I need to stop being lazy and switch the default search engine on my phone. Irredeemable piece of shit company. It’s so frustrating, how does anyone stand to use them anymore?

No. 754373

>>754152
>>754171
He admitted to it a week ago, but he didn't seem to think of it as a problem. Not sure how to proceed.
I was also surprised to hear it was not a recent development, but something of interest since childhood. I suspect, like many young men, he was exposed to internet porn too early.
He didn't say anything about Discords, but he does seem to be in quite a few groups (?) on there.

No. 754391

>>754370
I'm so happy for your sister!

No. 754395

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Masturbation feels good, but what I truly crave is having someone to give me some company in everyday life

I want someone to speak to as I do stuff, I'm tired of touching myself because I'm lonely and stressed

No. 754403

It makes me so depressed how everything is so sexualized. It's not just men who are sexualizing everything, it's everyone in society doing it. It's just so sad. Even things that aren't healthy are being sexualized. When did we stop thinking of these things as problems, and when did we start thinking of them as sources for our pleasure?

No. 754408

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I don't understand how people manage to eat healthy and also eat enough calories in a day. The only time in my life I've been able to consistently eat over 1,000 calories in a day was when I worked retail and was eating tons of chicken sandwiches and pizza due to convenience. Now I'm neet and basically starving to death because food is so fucking boring to me. I don't care enough about eating to bother with stuffing food in my mouth every hour. I just sit around hungry as fuck until it gets to be unbearable, and even then I'll only eat enough to not be completely famished. I've aged so hard this year due to weight loss, like from baby face to crypt keeper. I want to fucking scream.

No. 754409

Idk if I really trust my best friend. It's an awful feeling.

No. 754411

My grandma told me when I was a teenager that there is $30k (and possibly her house? I don't know) in her will for me, and I feel so upset knowing that. I just remember that sometimes and it fucks up my entire mood. I know it sounds fucking ridiculous and it's such a first world problem, but it makes me upset because: I hate to think about my grandmother dying, and I also feel like I have a lot of pressure to use that money wisely. She told me to save the money for a rainy day, and to keep it a secret from my mother and from any potential partners, even if I get married (I don't think that's legally possible?), but I feel like I should also do my best to invest it because my grandma didn't have much do to various reasons, and I know she did this for me because of my abusive mother, but it feels so fucked up to even be thinking of what I should do with the money that I get when she dies. I don't want my grandma to die, and I'd gladly be broke if it meant she could live forever, as fucking childish as it sounds. I haven't talked to her about it and tbh I don't want to

No. 754416

>>754347
You lot make me feel like I'm living on a different planet.
I'm thirty and in a decent LTR but still expect to have maybe two or more long term partners before I find my forever match.
Maybe the reason "all the good ones are gone" is because people gets scared by all this nonsense and they then hold onto their just okay enough matches forever out of fear that it's the best they can do

No. 754419

>>754416
People, esp women, need to be more comfortable with the idea of being single, maybe forever. It's not great but it's better than ruining your life by marrying the wrong person just to avoid being single. We're constantly told to lower our standards and settle, put up with poor treatment and fight to save a failing relationship beyond all rationality just to avoid being single. Fuck that.

No. 754425

>>754198
did an ai type this

No. 754436

>>754419
Exactly
I understand that being single is financially harder on people with low incomes so I don't judge people that get trapped in long term relationships to survive but I hope our generation gets over the obsessive need to shack up with a man for the sake of it. Most old couples that stayed together their whole lives out of habit aren't even friends anymore, the man dies early after she cares for him for years and then the woman gets put into a home
Be in a mutual partnership or be alone on your own terms

No. 754437

Oh no not adderall addiction time to over exercise for a week

No. 754439

>>754437
You forgot the neurotoxicity, heart strain and accelerated aging

No. 754451

I'm 30 and have been a serial monogamist, once being engaged but I always eventually get cold feet and while I am coming to terms that I do infact enjoy my own company moreso than not feeling wholly myself with a moid. The not having kids aspect is more difficult to accept. I love children and would love to be a mother but I know I wouldn't ever get pregnant without securing a stable relationship.

No. 754453

I hate my coworker, he smells so sweaty like he's been working out all day and hasn't showered. It's so freaking gross. He also takes forever to leave and tries to chat me up, like please get the heck away. And last time I came into work his hair was all over the desk and ground??? Like what the literal fuck, so freaking nasty.

No. 754457

>>754453
Wdym his hair??

No. 754460

>>754453
Did he shave it or something? What the actual fuck

No. 754467

>>754457
Like there was strands of black hair all over the desk and ground like he was pulling his hair out or something

No. 754472

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I cannot believe there's people who are so braindead that they can't tell the difference between a vent post, and someone asking for advice. Not even most autists who function on a normal level are this bad. No wonder people's intelligences are going to shit, they reinforce this echo chamber of stupidity by demanding labels for fucking everything like kindergarteners.

No. 754478

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I can't believe I have really bad body dysmorphia and have been an ana-chan for so long while also dealing with hypothyroidism and my stupid fucking implant. I was given the best cards, I love it here! at least when I finally was prescribed my thyroid meds my weight dropped, and I'm not saying death fats are right because you definitely can become underweight with it, but it takes fucking hard work. I hate being mentally ill though, wanting to die because of how you look is so dumb. I really can't take this

No. 754479

Why does everything make me angry

No. 754480

>>754479
Maybe because you have standards. The adverse of that would be not giving a shit about anything, which I think is more comforting, but worse for the world.

No. 754482

covid has made people more upfront about how much they don't give a shit if immunocompromised people die, and it makes me hate myself more
I know it's an American thing, but I'm in America, so
it literally makes me just want to go out and get coughed on
I've spent my entire life wracked with guilt for how much money it costs my family to keep me alive, and for what? I'm a piece of shit and I contribute nothign to society
and now society is unafraid to tell me, you're right, you should just die
I dunno man, I hate myself and I'm worthless
I wish I wasn't such a selfish cowardice piece of shit
I've spent 23 years in fear, why not just end it like everyone wants me to
what a worthless fucking person, loser piece of shit former taco john's employee

No. 754484

>>754480
I don't have standards, I'm just scared of everything. I see one little thing and bam overthinking session.

No. 754485

>>754479
I kinda relate. I don't reach the point of anger, but I get bothered very easily

No. 754487

>>754482
Trust me, people outside of the us don’t give a fuck either until they have covid and feel like shit for more than a week. Shit sucks.

No. 754489

>>754484
I don't want to pretend like I'm anon MD but from my layman's perspective it seems that you might use anger as a defense mechanism to protect yourself from an often cruel world. Nothing abnormal about it, just survival instincts.

No. 754491

>>754482
The assholes who say things like that are not for a single second thinking of actual immunocompromised or elderly individuals, all they are thinking is that they want to go party and not wear a mask and they don't care who it hurts. They just put vulnerable people into a separate category with no defining trait except not being that specific person, and therefore don't matter. They'd be singing another tune if it was them or someone they knew who was at risk, it's too easy for them to completely ignore the fact that it's real people at risk.

No. 754520

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Incoming giant vent because I just need to write my feelings down, sorry if it's stupid to act this way I'm just very scrambled. I've posted this before but it's so fucking sad that my mom is doing all this stuff for this disgusting scrote she met only 2 months ago. This dude's underage son killed himself not even a few months ago, divorced his wife in need, and is now leeching onto my mom to use her up. It's not like a regular relationship at all; he love bombs her with gifts, talks all night with her, and then doesn't talk to her for days and she comes to me and sobs that she's going to be alone forever because he's writing to other women weird things on their facebook feed.. then repeats the cycle. She has fucking bags underneath her eyes because she stays up all night to make him happy and cum and then she works extremely long hours afterwards, this faggot is literally a stay at home ex dad who ~paints and lives his life so freely~ who moved on way too fucking fast for his son's death, who the hell starts a sex thing with a random woman online after their CHILD dies only a few MONTHS AGO? only a man! She's almost 60 years old and she really only wants to finally be happy and meet her "prince charming" after divorcing my extremely abusive dad but instead she's on zoom doing cam shows for this pig, a person she met online not too long ago and openly shows her face. I literally tell her to be careful and do what she wants because I wouldn't be surprised if shit like this leaked because he is creepy, but she just gets angry and tells me he would never do that. All cool, I never mentioned it again, just one time because I wanted to let her know that men actually do this shit and it's literally happened to me. He's even convinced my mom that his ex wife was a "total bitch" who wouldn't give him sex, oh I wonder why!
He even told her he wants to meet up with her so bad during covid to have sex in an entirely different state from where they both live. I joked around and said to be careful because she could literally get murdered like A LOT OF WOMEN DO but she actually got very mad at me and wouldn't talk to me afterwards. I know everyone is like "she's an adult she can do what she wants" but she's obviously so out of it right now, it fucking breaks my heart to see her go through this. I literally talked to her therapist telling her that I was a little worried for her but she just said something along the lines like, "let your mom have fun!! she just go out of a bad relationship, it doesn't seem toxic AT ALL!" It might of been stupid to ask her therapist for advice but I just wanted to try.
I probably sound crazy to other people because I'm the only other person witnessing this full time, I just care for my mom so much but it's so upsetting to see her go through this.. I'm letting it go though and I understand that she's her own person and I can't stop this disgusting man from manipulating her. Maybe I'm angry too because I'm going through a sexual assault case and this random moid is telling her to spend even more time with him when I only usually get to talk to her for maybe an hour or two a day because of our work schedules. I get that I'm not entitled to her time, I understand, but I just miss sitting with her and talking about anything BUT her "boyfriend." I can't say I don't want to talk about him or get uneasy because she'll get upset, it's so tiring. I just miss my mom so bad especially during this time Also I feel so fucking bad for his son and wife, he literally told my mom that his son never liked spending time with his dad and honestly hated him and you know what? I trust that because my dad tell the same about me to a random woman

No. 754526

Apperently my coworker who screamed at me and called me ugly and said I looked like a drug addict because they thought I took too long in the bathroom didn't even get in trouble for it. I sure do love this company

No. 754529

>>754207
That's actually a good idea. He's not an asshole he's just forgetful, plus he is understandably wiped out after a graveyard shift and just wants to get fucked up and fall asleep. Honestly I wouldn't care if he just dropped the keys outside his door before going in lol I just need access to them.

No. 754530

>>754370
Idk it's probably because I'm drunk but i'm tearing up at this I am so happy for your sister omfg.

No. 754532

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>>754526
Drop his fucking location anon I have access to a shotgun and I'm not afraid to kill somebody.

No. 754537

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M y new colleague is telling me daily i should smile. Worst thing is he thinks he is charming or funny with it? I show him obviously what i think about it but apparently he doesn’t get it. He’s on the top of my list now.

No. 754538

>>754537
I don't get why moids do this.

No. 754543

I overheard my brother saying he'd fuck a tranny. He had like 5 friends over, and they found this tranny on Tinder. My brother said ''yo look at this tranny SHE totally looks like a girl''. Then one of his friends said ''honestly I'd fuck HER''. The rest of them agreed saying they don't give a shit that it's a guy.
It really bothered me for some reason. I'm grossed out. They're totally normal ''straight'' dudebros.

No. 754546

>>754543
This is why you shouldn't care about the opinions of men when most of them are homosexuals or pedophiles. I think the majority of men are bisexual pedophiles or hebephiles unironically

No. 754547

>>754538
I told him to give me a reason

No. 754558

>>754543
>>754546
With how many dicks they see in an orgasmic context on a daily basis from the age of eleven, it's no wonder a whole lot of them have memed themselves into wanting to have part of the fun, too.

No. 754563

My bf is not the same person than when we met. It's kinda normal I'd say, it's been a while, but now he only has negative traits and none of the positives. In my head I'm on "dump his ass" territory but it's really too convenient for lots of reasons being with him.

No. 754589

My brother is so scary when he’s angry. Why are men so scary when they’re angry.

Men love to harp on that “women are indecisive” when they forge women to be like this. I make a decision and then I’m berated and insulted and I have to hear loud noises of him slamming whatever is in his hands on the counter. I have to hear him call me an idiot. He’ll laud and congratulate my high grades but then just as quickly say it’s worth nothing if I can’t “understand” something (see it his way). I know he’s serious when he says this. My decisions are never respected. So I don’t make any. And then I have to hear “hur dur women no make desishuns women dumb” like maybe I don’t want my chest to feel like it’s made of porcelain whenever you slam shit and call me awful things. No I don’t want to fucking get doughnuts (that I will have to buy) I don’t care about the context. I just don’t want doughnuts. Why do I have to feel like shit for not wanting doughnuts. Why does that make me a dumbass, I weighed the pros and cons and I came up with the conclusion of NO.

No. 754692

>>754543
It's a huge red flag if a guy would even consider trannies. It most cases it means he isn't really capable of loving or being attracted to a woman as she is, but he just enjoys the performative aspect of femininity. "As long as it acts like a caricature of a woman then it's a woman!" sort of deal.

No. 754737

>>754395
You will find someone! Don't give up!

No. 754739

>>754478
I'm sorry :(
Please don't give up!

No. 754741

>>754370
Cute, I hope so for everyone :)

No. 754743

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I seriously think I’m growing to dislike relationships with other people and it makes me sad. I used to be really social when I was younger, to the point where I was constantly hanging out with or texting others. I really had a lot of fun. I’d even start to get frustrated from boredom if I couldn’t be out of the house or chatting with people. But now, the older I get, the more draining rather than fun every single relationship becomes (even if it’s drama-free and good stuff only). I’m fine talking to the same friend I’ve had for over a decade and I’m fine spending every moment with my scrote and anything else encroaching on that for more than a few hours makes my entire brain shut down. I feel like I turn into this silent, bored looking mega bitch all because my energy just completely depletes from faking fun and sociability for a single hour.

Its stupid and it’s probably going to come bite me in the ass later though. I really thought I had stopped being mentally ill years ago kek

No. 754745

>>754546
>bisexual pedophiles
Yeah, this. Most men being pedos is this open secret that no one ever admits. I thought it was the same with their bisexuality, but it's starting to come out into the open. Under the disguise of ''it's totally not gay because trannies look like girls''.

No. 754750

I was talking to guy online and I asked his sexuality, he tells me he's fluid, so my mind was made up that "yeah, I don't wanna talk to you anymore" but I said, "So your bisexual?"
And he describes how he likes to sleep with men and women so he's "fluid"", so I go, "So you flow between men and women? Meaning you like both? Meaning you are bisexual?"
and he told me I didn't understand and i ended up blocking him mid-conversation.
It feels like men want to have gay relations with each other but are terrified of being called gay/bisexual. I go by old school rules, but it's cool he was honest.
Maybe I'm being weird, but that shit is just another word for bisexual to me, I think men who sleep with troons are bisexual/gay and i've heard people say they are "Sexually fluid" because they include troons or some shit.
IDC about that.
What makes this all even weirder was is I'm pretty sure this guy is a gang. Maybe gangs are more accepting because half of them be dl on the low anyway.

No. 754751

My self harm urges are through the roof and my boyfriend has worked himself to death this week over a project so he told me he's not able to come over tonight. Pray for me, anons lol.

No. 754753

>>754411
I'm in a similar situation, my aunt told me that I will inherit everything she owns (she doesn't have children of her own) and it's a considerable amout of money. Like I can't even wrap my brain around it amount of money. But it makes me upset every time I think about it because I've done literally nothing to earn that money. I can't accept something like that, but I can't reject it either because damn I'm poor. But idk I wish she used the money on herself instead. It makes me sad to think about how she's been saving up for decades just to give it to a lazy piece of shit like me.

No. 754757

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A acquaintance of mine who I have never had a sexual or flirty conversation with texts me out of no where asking for nudes and for me to sext with him. I was actually fine with it but only if he paid me. He got all offended and started accusing me of trying to argue and I actually wasnt. I really just wanted $50 to get my nails done. I dont get why hes being butt hurt.

No. 754761

>>754753
Anon, you totally deserve it. We're told that slaving and toiling away for life is an acceptable way to live, but it really isn't. You deserve to have a comfortable life like everyone else.

No. 754763

The whole "girls mature faster than boys" is only parroted to rob them of their childhoods, and place more responsibility and expectations on them. I really don't see a difference in maturity between them and boys.

No. 754765

>>754757
Scrotes acting like the world is their brothel but then getting confused and hurt at the thought of paying for it. Kek

No. 754766

>>754757
ew he sounds like such a misogynist pos. Be careful around him anon, he sounds unhinged.

No. 754768

I don't like "lol" as a reply because I can't do anything with it. So I just assume a conversation is over.

No. 754769

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>>754765
Yeah and the way he texted me acting like he was giving me some great offer by giving me the privilege to send him nudes for free

No. 754772

>>754769
nta but ah i see why he was so angry lol, he already paid! you a compliment!

No. 754779

>>754753
Ayrt, I get what you mean. I feel kinda scared to have that money because I just have so much doubt (more like insecurity) for what I'm doing with my life. I don't wanna just ever end up in a spot where I have to use that money for dumb reasons because I fucked up in my life.
>>754757
lol
>Like I'm gonna take advice from some who can't afford to get her nails done
But why can't he afford to give you $50?

No. 754798

>>754791
Are more than you complaining about this or have you been busy? Vent is more for just venting but have you been clear that you wished for help? If not, maybe try reddit or something

No. 754800

>>754791
reddit, tragically. /r/rant - but if you rant & I sense the lolcow I and others will PM, the pseudo-anon unsolicited chat side of reddit is a superior realm to front facing neckbeardo land. You can get some freakish group chats as well

No. 754813

>>754779
Not to mention sexting seems kind of childish. What grown woman over the age of 19 is wasting their day sexting scrotes for free?

No. 754814

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No. 754822

weird weeaboos on my facebook are genuinely upset about the lola bunny redesign in the new space jam movie

1) it is 2021 you are 25 years old why the fuck do you care about space jam
2) this is a movie made for children, not you, why are you so mad that a children's movie isn't trying to get you horny
3) why are people so casual about "this was our sexual awakening when we were kids idk why they want to desexualize it now" - WHY are you so concerned about making sure kids will get off to the cartoon bunny

like, yeah this cartoon was your "sexual awakening" when you were five, our generation also had kids addicted to porn before they even hit puberty. why is this so normalized, why do people (adult men) feel so entitled to every piece of media and want it catered to them, and why do they make everything about sex

No. 754823

>>754822
It's weird when adults complain about children's media being too childish etc. Yeah dip shit that's because it's for children it's not for you to jerk off to or get deep meaning from it.

No. 754830

I just realized my fucking packages aren't arriving today, they're arriving tomorrow. Day ruined. It's like 6 items so I guess it's ok, but I pay for prime. I expect better smh

No. 754831

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Men be like
>I want degen weeb gf
But can't even fund her BL and gacha addiction. Pathetic. You have nothing to offer me.

No. 754832

>>754831
You’re correct, never settle

No. 754833

Idk why scrotes would think women would use them for food on dates. Getting ready and going on dates is actually a pain in the ass. I hate dates. It's like the worst job interview and it sucks even more because I'm putting on makeup and all this shit for someone I'm barely attracted to 90% of the time.

No. 754838

>>754831
One ahegao pic is $100 of primogems

No. 754841

>>754833
>it sucks even more because I'm putting on makeup and all this shit for someone I'm barely attracted to 90% of the time
protip: then don't unless you are crazy about the scrote

No. 754842

>>754833
Probably because a lot of twitterfags claim that they do only use men for food.

No. 754843

>>754833
I refuse to put on a full beat to go to a cheap date with men.

No. 754847

>>754842
Fucking cringe if these zoomers actually try to look cute to get chicken nuggets lmao meanwhile he gets to be seen in public with a cute girl while people assume that they're fucking. Just make men reimburse your ubereats and ghost them if they truly want to "use" men.

No. 754855

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>>754838
Queen shit.

No. 754859

>>754847
It's always cringe seeing zoomers brag about "gettin tha bag" and having a sugar daddy while posting pictures of food from applebees and shit men got them from aliexpress

No. 754865

>>754833
Men are just ridiculous. I remember I had a guy flip out on me and accusing me of using him for free food after I rejected him. Except I literally offered to pay for my half of the meal and asked a couple times after the meal if he was sure he wanted to pay.

No. 754866

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I swear I haven't seen a man above 6'0 with a decent body in months. Almost every man on the street is a frail manlet or a fat manlet, and if there's a 6'0+ guy (rarely) he looks really out of shape. What the fuck is going on with men

No. 754868

I just woke up from a dream where I was skinned alive and my remains burnt and collected in a row of people of various ages getting in line to get skinned alive and I'm having anxiety

How does one ground themselves in these cases?

No. 754870

Fuck I want to kms. It's my birthday and all I want to do is sleep, eat, and cry, but now I can't because my friend is having a mental breakdown, but I'm too busy ghosting because I don't know what to say.

No. 754871

>>754870
Happy birthday! Tell your friend today it's not the day. Have some boundaries and pretty much make them fuck off

No. 754874

>>754520

I hope everything goes well for you and your mom anon, it must fucking suck seeing your mom this way and feeling like you cant do anything about it. This guy sounds like a scumbag and your mom probably really does care about him, I hope he's not using his dead child/ex as a way to manipulate and get sympathy from her. Do you think she has an idea that he's a bit of a deadbeat but is too in denial/embarassed to admit it to herself? Sounds like she might if she gets so defensive about when you point it out. Maybe she would be more likely to listen if it was someone else pointing it out.

No. 754875

>>754870
Nope, ignore it. Happy birthday anon, I’d use all the emojis if I could kek

No. 754877

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Having a small stature fucking sucks, it can’t actually be healthy for any adult to only eat 995 calories fuck life

No. 754879

>>754877
This is some bullshit

No. 754883

>>754871
>>754875
Thank you for the happy birthdays anons, wish I was as blunt as you guys are but I'll try my best to ignore her for now and respond when it isnt my birthday kek

No. 754884

>>754877
Bruh it's to keep your current weight you can eat almost 1,500 per day

No. 754885

>>754884
I know that. I opened the cutting tab because I want to lose weight, anon.

No. 754886

>>754885
The 900 number is only temporary, it's nothing to fret over, you're barely overweight at all

No. 754890

>>754886
That’s a fair point, thank you. It’s just unfair and sucks. A 6’3 big guy friend had said, “I have 700 calories left for the day” the other night at dinner, and looking back now I’m seething. Ugh.

No. 754893

>>754890
Yeah, tall people suck honestly, I think they expend so much more energy just piloting a big ass body around

No. 754895

>>754890
Fuck men reeee even manlets can lose weight on comfortable calories and minimal exercise.

No. 754899

I'm bothered because my medical team is so insistent on me taking psychiatric drugs.
I understand that I'm unusual, but I'm fine with that, I don't bother anyone.
I just prefer to secretly larp as a particular character because it makes me feel more confident and secure.
I think I may do that because I didn't develop my own personality much.
Why should I have to be a drugged up zombie instead? Why is that assumed to be better even when I'm happy the way I am?
I don't bother anyone, don't even talk to other people much, that's why I use anonymous message boards, no one knows me from anyone else, I'm not bothering anyone and no one can bother me here
It makes me sad to think that someone who could be like me, but isn't as confident, could be so easily coerced into psychiatric medication that could actually make them feel bad instead of just a little weird but happy

No. 754900

>>754899
Who do you kin?

No. 754902

>>754900
Well, I don't call it that, and I certainly wouldn't tell anyone irl, but Gus Fring from Breaking Bad

No. 754903

>>754902
nta but I love you anon.

No. 754906

>>754903
ilu2, I hope you're doing well

No. 754907

>>754902
Omg lmao you're Gus Fringe anon just take the meds and sell them

No. 754909

>>754902
you are my heroine, Gus Fring anon. I love you. Take care of yourself

No. 754910

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>>754907
Oh my god, you're right, thank you

No. 754911

>>754909
I haven't done anything you can't do too; thank you, and I hope you're being good to yourself, ilu2

No. 754914

>>754899
I kind of do the same thing, and have ever since I was little. It makes me happy too. Glad there are others.

No. 754917

>>754914
>Glad there are others
I am too!

No. 754918

I don't mind penny pinching but my friend has always been a flat out scammer. They have all these items and even if it was the thing they wanted they will return it or ask for a refund but keep the item that is "a piece of shit." But will then brag they have it. Some stores don't fall for it, especially ones she's hit multiple times. This behavior doesn't stop with their family and friends either. Usually we pay most of the bill for vacations but my friend has to pay for travel or tickets. After the vacation is done my friend will scream at her family and even me how we should give HER money for even showing up because "Well I have a dog!" which is an excuse she uses often that makes no sense. We told them that they didn't HAVE to go and when we ask we assume you have your shit together.

The last straw with me was we were having lunch together and they finished their food. They called a waiter and said they aren't paying for their food because they didn't like it. It was embarrassing, so I just paid for the both of us. She was trying to be cute with me and thought we were going to keep hanging out, I just went home. Just found out she's been texting everyone how no one wants to hang out with her anymore and it's bs blah blah.
And I know what some of you are thinking "Well do activities where you don't have to buy anything." Hard to hang out with someone constantly begging for money and objects just for existing.

No. 754977

>>754589
Is he your older or younger brother? Either way, tell him to fuck off whenever he starts insulting your or banging things. Just don't interact with him at all unless he apologises for his behavior and promises to treat you better.

No. 754994

I hate my dumb fucking roommate for cooking eggs every fucking day like bitch get a new fucking meal. Fuck.

No. 755000

>>754994
I used to share a roommate like that but I honestly never minded although she liked boiled eggs so it smelled like farts a lot. But it's healthy and a cheap source of protein. I would make banana pancakes sometimes and it was nice having them together. I actually miss her.
lol sorry for the digression.

No. 755013

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>>754994
>mfw i’ve been doing this for months out of laziness, roommates haven’t said anything but i can sense that they hate me

No. 755017

>>754994
sounds like me

No. 755020

>>755000
>>755013
If she cleaned up and it didn't have that eggy, "wet dog" smell I'd be okay..but the stench of raw eggs is enough to make me super annoyed.

No. 755022

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lolita comm
autism
Yet another fucking sissy/diaperfag grown disgusting man joined and started commenting on fucking everything
I'm sick of it
I am fucking sick of never being able to escape men, even in the mst aggressively feminine fashion that exists, you can't fucking escape them
I do not fucking understand what fucking koolaid 20-something-year-old women have been drinking that makes them think we have to facilitate predatory fucking sick perverts jacking off, I do not get it, you can all fucking see that this isn't even some harmless little crossdresser faggot, this is a fucking predator that wants to fuck a little girl in a diaper and thinks he's found a club of them because he's so fucking pornsick and depraved he can't fucking differentiate between an adult woman's petticoat and a toddler's pull-up
I sperged out and called a spade a spade, I said something to the effect of "Why are we not allowed to ostracize porno creep men ? Why do we fucking have to let men bring their fucking boners to our private fucking teaparty?" and I got kicked out of the comm and blocked by more than a few people in it
If you know who this is, rat on me, I don't give a shit.
It's fucking sickening
I fucking hate men.

No. 755025

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No. 755028

>>755022
Good for you, fuck em. Maybe one day enough people who quietly agree will break off and you queens can have your own terf Lolita tea party. Fuck moids, fuck trannies. ♥

No. 755035

>>755028
Thank you, god damn, I just can't believe this shit, like of all the fucking groups of women to not be over this bullshit, it's fucking insane

No. 755040

I hate my country so fucking much. I live in an absolute fucking shithole. Our currency lost 10x its value and is still devaluing by the day. Food and medicine prices have skyrocketted. Unemployment is at an all time high. We can even withdraw our own fucking money from the banks. We can't transfer any of our money abroad either. I feel like I'm literally being held hostage by my own fucking country. To top it all off we don't even have a fucking government. My biggest fear is that I'll never be able to leave this shithole. I hate is to much here. i hate it i hate it i hate it

No. 755041

>>755022
Based anon. You did nothing wrong. Fuck sissies and diaperfags.
The funniest part is that they probably secretly agree with you, but they'd rather sacrifice another woman to get virtue signalling points and show how woke, open-minded and progressive they are than call a spade a spade.

No. 755045

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This is so unfair. Almost every woman could be 10/10 and youtube/instagram famous if she had enough money for good plastic surgeon. Beauty was always worshipped but, at least, back in the day you couldn't trick others and you had to live with what nature gave you. But now people who were born privileged because they had enough money can just fix their average faces and be worshipped like super models and live in Hollywood. Is there anything money can't buy kek

No. 755046

>>755045
Maybe I have low standards for women but she looked above average in the first pic too

No. 755047

I just saw a comment on Tik Tok that mentioned that people who like complaining about employees in customer service or retail jobs don't even say sorry when they're proven wrong. They just go "nevermind," which couldn't be truer! I hate that type of person so much. They don't know how to disregard their pride for even a nanosecond to maintain a sense of humanity.

No. 755051

>>755046
Even if that's above average for you, she wouldn't explode on instagram and she wouldn't earn big money from contracts with that look.

No. 755055

>>755045
We need to start lobbying our governments to subsidize plastic surgery.
If trannies can threaten suicide to get government-funded surgery and HRT, women should get feminine healthcare and cosmetic surgery free for the same fucking reasons (except in the case of the first one, we literally have more reason than they do).

No. 755060

>>755045
It's not really unfair, if anything it levels the playing field since beauty can now be achieved by more means than just luck (ie having the brains, motivation, work ethic, etc to earn money). I mean, there's nothing stopping you from getting PS just like them if you're jealous.

That's not to say I think it's a good thing, I wouldn't want PS or encourage anyone else to get it unless they seriously, seriously needed it.

No. 755062

>>755046
not only that but she also looks more unique. The one on the right looks conventionally hot.

No. 755064

People have no problems talking shit about fujoshi saying what they like is problematic and that fetishizing gay men is a step back for the lgbt+ community yet you never see anyone even thinking about the amount of fetishizing of lesbians that's basically omnipresent.

No. 755066

>>755060
Most people who have actual money were just born into it, they didn't "earn" shit.
Also, if someone was average or below average, PS won't fix their shitty genes and they will pass them on to their kids. Unless they're ok with their kids getting PS.

No. 755071

>>755066
Even if the only way someone could possibly afford PS was being born into money (which is obviously nonsense, being able to save 5-20k at some point in your life is very possible for people who weren't born rich…), that's STILL more fair than having one single way to be attractive.

I don't know what genetics or your kids looks have to do with this conversation, how does that relate to the fairness of becoming beautiful?

No. 755075

>>755064
I don't even like yaoi, but it pisses me off that it's one of few forms of porn that's made exclusively for women yet everyone, even women, go out of their way to demonize it. Fuck people.

No. 755084

>>755071
Do you really think most of those 20 year olds getting PS saved that money on their own? Because I think that, in most cases, their parents gave it to them. So again, the people getting PS didn't earn shit.
And yes, if you're able to spend 10k on a cosmetic surgery, you're privileged.

No. 755094

>>755045
Basically, yeah.

Beauty standards have always adjusted based on what can be gatekeeped and seen as a status symbol. Throughout many cultures, the women most well off either by inheritance or marriage always had the most access to beautify themselves and had a better quality of life to maintain that beauty.

It's not fair. Anyone trying to babble about plastic surgery "leveling" privilege is being dishonest.

No. 755095

>>755084
Uhh so you think it's perfectly fair when people are born with the advantage of good looks, but it's not fair when people are born with the advantage of money? It doesn't matter anyway, the point I'm making is that previously there was only ONE way of being beautiful (genetics), and now there are TWO, genetics and money. It is slightly more fair than it was before, because now more people have the option of making themselves attractive even if they weren't born that way.

No. 755097

>>755045
Photoshop and plastic surgery is literally the beauty standards these days. I fucking hate it cause it always looks fake and dare I say even autistic to me as well. Like something looks really soulless and cringy about that whole aesthetic

No. 755099

>>754877
This is why I don't listen to any men when they sperg out at women to just eat less if they want to lose weight because men have no fucking idea how lean eating only 1000 calories a day actually is.

For men, "dieting" is eating 1800 calories a day and not indulging in beer.

No. 755102

>>755095
nta but they all end up looking the fucking same and having the same look so this does nothing but homogenize the standard of beauty which winds up making it far more limiting than it was at the start

No. 755103

Sperg about my roommate:
He's a good person but his lack of confidence makes him so needy. Like, I understand you need someone to talk to but I'm not yours. I just woke up and have work in an hour and have to rush, I don't have time to talk to you about shit. I'm sorry. And you're racist. It makes me feel like shit saying that, considering I'm white, but you clearly think poorly of anyone that isn't asian and it shows. But all the times you tell me about racism that you faced when covid happened? Yeah. And like, stop acting like your problems are the worst. You had it so much easier than some people I know but you act like it was the worst because you can only judge by what you know.

No. 755106

>>755095
>the point I'm making is that previously there was only ONE way of being beautiful (genetics)

Ntayrt
People have for awhile been able to buy beauty though?
Royalty with fair skin and the ability to afford wigs were praised for beauty because it set them apart from peasants who labored in the fields under the sun all day.
In ancient times, fatter figures were praised for being beautiful because it signified health and the ability to provide food, whereas today being fat is seen as lower class because fattening food is cheaper and more convenient.

Being beautiful through money has been around for awhile.

No. 755109

>>755095
>Uhh so you think it's perfectly fair when people are born with the advantage of good looks, but it's not fair when people are born with the advantage of money?
Yeah? Maybe not perfectly fair, but something that comes purely from nature has less to do with ethics than a man-made currency in a system where the working class is being put down and if you don't have enough money people will tell you you simply aren't working hard enough lmao
And it doesn't make it any more "fair", because still, only those with class privilege can afford to make themselves "beautiful" with something more than just make up.

No. 755114

>>755062
I thought all three were the exact same person kek.

No. 755148

I hate how fucking at I am, I just bought a pair of 2x leggings and they're tight on me. anons pls bully me so I can lose weight

No. 755151

At my parents house so I can't take illegal drugs and can only drink legal alcohol and fuck me, drinking to get a buzz is absolutely shite. It doesn't taste great, it makes you bloated, if you drink too much too fast you will be sick, hangovers only get worse the more you age and its fattening and anti aging.i never get munchies so I would love to have a smoke now, have no stomach issues and go to bed. Instead I can hear my parents snoring while I try to down this gin so I can pass out but all it's giving me is room spin. I also think I have a hemorrhoid I have never had one before and I'm not liking what I am seeing.

No. 755152

>>755109
No offence but I have an extenely rich dad but he bailed on me when I was 10 and came back into my life just before my 20s and gave me a deposit for an apartment. He's known locally since he basically employs the entire county and I have had so many insecure and petty cunts harass me because they think I'm some stupid rich bitch even tho I qualified for all the government hand outs growing up because my dad did not ever pay child support. Although I also didn't hit any of the ugly branches on the way down from the family tree so maybe people hate me cuz I'm rich and not ugly since my biggest haters are usually ugly women.

No. 755159

>>755152
Lmao who cares. Some rare examples of "kids of rich parents who grew up poor" don't change the rule and don't change the reality of class privilege.

No. 755160

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Yo wtf?

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No. 755168

>>755160
I wish a faggot would try me like this but then hed threaten to murder me

No. 755175

>>755160
Why are they being so dramatic? All of that literally could have fit into one text. I don't even know what the appropriate response to that is besides "???", "ok", or "lol".

No. 755176

This sucks, one of my favorite radfem tiktokers was basically bullied off the app by libfems bc she wasn't "inclusive" enough. She gave up her account login info to a libfem just yesterday and that's basically the end of it. I admired her confidence and she knew quite a bit about current third world and developing country feminist issues that a lot of people didn't bc of language barriers. And like I can tell she had to turn herself into a doormat bc she was dealing with narcissists. I hate bullies so much.

No. 755177

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>>755160
Ghost that piece of rotting shit. Block his number, and if you can see him in public, get ready to shout for the police.

No. 755178

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Feel like pure shit just want cons back.

I miss the travelling, the meeting up with con friends, making new friends, buying trinkets at the artist alley, getting drunk and going to the rave, etc, etc

No. 755180

>>755177
>>755175
>>755168
>>755167
embarrassingly this is my retard husband. Don’t ignore red flags, lol.

No. 755181

>>755159
I guess, the "priveleged" kids at my highschool never liked me cause I got free lunches, but then my dad came out of nowhere and got me my own place as a teen so I was stunting on all those bitches for a while it was fun. Then I got into drugs.

No. 755183

>>755178
Me too, ever since the pandemic happened I feel like I don't have a real social life. I can't keep up with posting on Instagram or creating a TikTok for my cosplaying.

I just want something to look forward to but I know things wont be the same when the pandemic calms down

No. 755185

>>755180
What the fuck, anon? I’m so sorry.

No. 755186

Saw some lesbians on tv tonight doin a game show, they're opening a pet rescue together, God why can't that be me.

No. 755190

>>755181
Ok? People born poor usually stay poor or move "higher" but still stay within their own class, and they usually don't have magic rich dad appearing suddenly and buying them their own apartment. You grew up poor but, because of your rich parent, you received something poor people born from other poor people will never have. Again, I don't know how does your specific case refers to the discussion how beauty is basically gatekeeped by people who can afford it (privileged ones) or how most teens and 20-21 year olds getting plastic surgeries don't earn that money on their own but usually get it from their family members etc.

No. 755195

Things are getting bad again

No. 755201

When I go put with my pretty friend she doesnt even attract hot guys to talk to us at the bar it's always scrubs. God damn she gets the same quality of men my ugly add can get going to the bar alone…

No. 755214

>>755180
Dump him advice still stands

No. 755219

>>754833
The thought of someone "getting ready" doesn't even cross their minds because they don't do it either, maybe they take a shower if you're lucky kek

No. 755415

Why the fuck can't my boyfriend just say what he means instead of saying something else and getting mad at me when I call him out for it. I always ask if I can call or do something with him and he's like "yeah give me a few minutes" an hour ends up passing and I call him out as to why he didn't get back to me and he's like "I said a few minutes, I had no possible way to know when I actually was going to be done. Stop taking it so seriously." like bitch then say a fucking whole from now instead of a few minutes because I put off a fucking hour waiting for your stupid ass to basically just blow me off and then you had the audacity to get angry at me for wanting you to be more clear about shit but apparently you can't because you don't know how time works. Ugh

No. 755418

>>755195
it's going to be okay charlie

No. 755419

>>755180
divorce him, this is clearly a start into an abusive life.

No. 755486

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No. 755505

When I watch shows or weeb shit about sports I just feel happy and wish I could do something similar too. My parents never allowed me to play some sports or after school activities as a child and now if I see some (group especially) activity that looks fun I start feeling like doing it too. It's such a stupid thing, because I'm a grown woman and I shouldn't think about that anymore.

No. 755545

The anons who are into witchcraft/occultism/magic make me question the intelligence of the average person here.

No. 755606

I'm so fucking tired of it all.

No. 755647

>>755545
same. astrology too

No. 755649

i just hate konosuba. everything about it. that's it. please stop showing up on my feeds.

No. 755656

I've come to the recent revelation that I'm getting chubby and I feel like shit. I never imagined something like this would affect my self-esteem so hard, but it is and I've nearly cried because of it. I even tried to research tapeworm diets, but thankfully I came to my senses and realized that that's fucking dumb and that even if I wanted to do that, tapeworm pills aren't available anywhere. I feel like a huge fat bitch cause I'm eating doritos with chorizo, sour cream and cheese right now even though I told myself I would try to eat healthier. I think the Chloe Ting workouts look good, so I'll try those and do my best to remain optimistic before I completely lose my mind over gaining weight

No. 755725

I did the FODMAP diet for a while and today I tried eating some garlic for the first time and now I have farts that smell like rotting corpses and my stomach won't stop hurting. Pray for me nonnies

No. 755733

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