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Heather Steele is a former retro toy collecting and Fairy Kei fashion Youtuber who, at the end of 2018, decided to have a major meltdown and turned all her social media into a public diary. She began cheating on her allegedly abusive
husband, and re-wrote herself as some sort of pop Victorian goth and witchy explorer. She got incredibly defensive of her sudden change. In her defensiveness– which she vaguely admitted was to win the affections of a man– she threw a lot of her supporters under the bus, has been unreasonably cocky and aggressive with a lot of people including former friends, and distorted the criticisms (which were towards her overall behavior) into a narrative claiming everyone is just attacking her for her fashion and hobby choices.
She has a history of incredibly self-focused and self-destructive behavior. Over the past year, she has wildly flipped between “I’m a strong woman and I don’t need to validate myself” to having public meltdowns on social media, only to delete them within an hour. Despite this, she denies she’s mentally ill and attacks the mere notion she needs help, once again using the “people hate me because I’m goth now” narrative.
Heather has alienated herself from all her old friends, but continues to act like everyone was just a bad person and she’s a victim
who fled from a terrible life. She used and manipulated several people in her life, and spent her 20s being a homebody mooch, then went on to claim she was “living in a hellhole with an abusive
husband” in order to garner pity for a Gofundme and claim she was going to be homeless. She is now living back at home with her parents and has a job and a car, but continues all her usual crazy and continues putting all her energy towards seeking approval from “boys” and her followers.
She has tried to start up her Youtube channel again, but doesn’t seem to have any consistent plans despite claiming otherwise.
Other characters (because the “Ryans” can get confusing)>Adam: Heather’s ex husband. Not a stellar person himself, cheated and lied too, but Heather seems to exaggerate the “abuse”. Funded her and bought her gifts. Dating since 2012, engaged 2016, divorced 2019.>Adam’s new gf: “Hates Heather”, according to Heather. Heather used the new girlfreind’s visit to springboard into a breakdown about how she was in danger and going to be homeless.>Ryan 1: Motivational Youtuber. Heather latched onto him and he apparently tried to help the dysfunctional couple by suggesting Heather seek therapy. Eventually they both threw him to the dogs.>Ryan 2: Ryan Z. Urbex’er whom Heather latched onto and physically stalked several times by using other people for rides. Met up again Oct 2019, Heather posted some cutesy things, and in less than a day those posts were removed and she put him on blast.>Ryan 3: Short-lived gamer boy met through Tinder.>Damian: On-off Urbex boyfriend. Eventually put him on blast after their 500th breakup.>Ryan 4: Craig. Graveyard photographer Heather briefly dated, but they appear to still be friends.>Ryan 5: Clay. Alleged new boyfriend?>Juliet/Dera: Former friend who put Heather on a pedastal. Heather took advantage of this and used Heather to stalk Ryan 2 Jan 2019. Car ended up in a ditch and they’re not longer friends. Juliet has come out to explain what happened and reflect on it.>Sisters: Younger and older. Moved out to Cali where she met Adam at the start of the last decade under claims her elder sister was trying to kill her.>Parents: Claimed her parents wouldn’t take her in because they voted Trump. Is now living with them, but doesn’t admit to it.
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they are still together
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>>929121>Heather took advantage of this and used Juliet to stalk Ryan 2 Jan 2019. Car ended up in a ditch and they’re no longer friends.
Excuse the typos. I wrote this up fast.>>929138>the contrast between her smiling and him looking 200% dead inside.>>929139
She went from happy, to meltdown, to happy again, and likely only because she went on a date. But she's clearly not mentally ill.>>929144
Yeah, there was another shot but he kinda just had an awkward shit-eating toothless grin.
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>>929146>>Yeah, there was another shot but he kinda just had an awkward shit-eating toothless grin.
here it is for those interested in seeing his smile
>Adam’s New Gf:
Fun facet to this part of the tale:
Apparently, when this ‘went down’ Heather suddenly pulled the ‘I’m your wife not her. I belong in that apartment and she doesn’t. She needs to leave.’
So, what makes me lol the most about this is that Adam is ‘so abusive
’ until heather realizes she’s been replaced, and now suddenly she wants to play wifey again, rather than taking this opportunity to ‘escape her abuse.’ This is why I do not believe she was ever actually in any danger. Thoughts…?
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His hairline is tragic. Dude's got a haircut like a blonde bert.
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Mommy’s playing chauffeur for her 30 year old daughter again. So much for “adulting,” huh?
I can understand being a new driver and feeling daunted by driving in certain weather or at night, but she needs to practice and it's better to get that practice in now than in the coming weeks where it's likely to be worse and more frequent.
Honestly, it's like she's a STRONG INDEPENDENT WOMAN until it better servers her to be a helpless scared baby so she can make people do things for her.
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Remember what you put juliet through? It'll come around in full circle.
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Lol I was thinking the same thing. She wants to complain about driving in this, but girl forced someone to drive in worse than this so she could stalk Ryan Z.
Also we get it Heather, you lurk.
Same kinda. I no longer qualify as legally blind but I don't have a license because it's more financially feasible for me to use public transport than to buy a car. A lot of these things don't even take experiential knowledge, just rudimentary common sense and she still manages to fail at them.
Those icicles indicate her car's been sitting there for a little while, too.
Watching Heather fumble over things most people have a basic grasp on in their teens would almost make me feel sorry for her, but the way she broadcasts this stuff purely to prove something to internet strangers, she really isn't deserving of any pity.
Honestly I don't even know what Clay, Craig, or any of these other guys even see in her. She's not very bright, she's inept, she lies, she's wildly unstable, she's extremely codependent, she's completely unmotivated. She has no social life, no viable future plans; keeps putting all her energy towards validation from strangers and pipe-dreams that won't go anywhere. Like they can all do leagues better, so I don't get why they stick around.
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Her younger sister looks more accomplished then her, but I don't think that's saying much.
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99.9% percent sure it's her younger sister…
Pun intended for the 99.9%
She’s 30, looks 40, and acts 20. I don’t think her brain has developed past the level of high school. It’s astounding she even has any following left at this point. But most of her life recently has been like a car accident, it’s too difficult not to look away. It even baffles me as to why any proud man out there would even want to be with this parasite. She offers nothing, works hardly, can’t drive herself anywhere, is in massive amounts of debt, lives with her mother, and is still legally married. That’s not exactly prime dating material. These ‘men’ are either past the state of desperate, or have a hard case of ignorance towards narcs. Ryan #5 seems to be running the gauntlet with her though, and if I calculated right has already lasted longer than Ryans #4 and #3. So maybe our little gun toting cowboy will be the one to take her in when no one else wanted her around.
>>929734>>929735>She's so desperate for male attention that she'll do whatever it takes to get them to stick around.
A couple days ago she was suddenly excited over a signed Anne Rice novel when she's admitted multiple times in the past she's not a reader. Anne Rice and RL Stine are probably the only "gothy" authors she knows. Reading is really the only one of Clay's primary hobbies that's accessible to her.
It's coincidental because Rice is universally hated for shitting on her fanbase multiple times.
>She showed up at that guys job iirc and took photos of him looking terrified.
Yeah, Ryan 2, and that wasn't all she did. The person who drove her from PGH to WV was a random Tinder guy who was never seen or heard of again. The reason Dera was driving in a blizzard was because Heather wanted to go stalk Ryan to another event, and he ended up not even going so it was "the worst birthday ever". I think there was another time she tried to stalk him. She was using one of her side-profiles to interact with his, which means he probably had her main blocked.
Then she posted the leg photo in the OP image, and I wouldn't doubt that and the dinner photo were taken without his knowledge. My guess as to what happened was that he was trying to get her to knock it the fuck off in the most polite way he could manage in hopes of damage control, and she didn't like that, so she put him on blast so she could spin it as him being some kind of shitbird fuckboy instead of just some guy she unhealthily obsessed over to the point of changing herself for his approval and repeatedly stalking him in person.>>929840>our little gun toting cowboy will be the one to take her in when no one else wanted her around.
He won't be able to take her in because he doesn't live by himself or own the place he lives. Unless he plans on moving out and getting a place with her, but her issues with instability, lying, motivation, codependency, etc would wear into him fast. He has over a dozen guns and tons of ammo out in the open, several knives and swords. As unstable as she's shown herself to be, that's just a sad, shoddy third grade baking soda volcano ready to blow.
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Finally a normal pic instead of a mirror pic of the two of them. They don't look good together as a couple.
If that's Target, I'm gonna assume he must have picked her up from work because snow is scary n stuff, and she had a co-worker take it.
He's 5'10" ish, she's just always wearing her Killstar debt boots and he always stands like he's trying to unstick his balls from his thighs.
kek. My sides anon.>>929929>>929933
Does Ryan #5 wear circle lenses or something? Why does he look straight possessed in every photo of him she takes? His bone structure is almost handsome, but it's entirely ruined by the cringe ren faire tattoo taking up his entire neck/jawline, whatever the hell that haircut is supposed to be, and that god awful soulless stare. Heather just looks like miss potato head or something. Those glasses really do her no favors.
Holy crap anon i think you're 100% right. Creepy!
As an aside I appreciate that wrinkles ribbon on her neck that looks like it just came out of the plastic.
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Did some digging. Here’s him not looking dead inside, and stage one of that tattoo. He wears contacts but not circle lenses. I think part of it is that she keeps getting him facing forward and his eyes are kinda close together and his Mohawk and completed neck tat just elongate his face to the point of being visually jarring.
Man, how many filters does she use on her selfies. He looks like a completely different person here. kek.
He looks like idubbz ugly edgelord brother or something. I just can't get over the receding hairline and necktat.>>930096>boy toy who looks barely 20
Nah, dude is balding and uggo. It's the 50 layers of filters she's using to smooth everything out.
She'd look much better with dark hair and better glasses. I'm not sure why she insists on the white hair and glasses commonly worn by middle aged men. It ages her badly and don't match her "goff queen" aesthetic.
New guy has hair like Sloth from the Goonies.
>>930099>sloth from the goonies
Some of these roasts are gold.
He’s 34 by the way. I think his Facebook has some photos from the days he used to dye his hair brown and wear a ponytail mullet with emo bangs.
Ouch. That neck tattoo. When you want yoyr neck to look like the side of a stoner's van.
He doesn't look chiselled so much as sandblasted.
>>930171>binge eating and too depressed to clean her room because of anxiety about youtube.
>having to explain why I dress this way now, bla blavalidating myself…
Heather. Nobody cares about how you dress. They care about how you act.
>all this misinformation going around….
Uhhuh. Sure. If you have any kind of proof that what's being said about you is misinformation I'd love to hear it.
>and then I get a nasty message from somebody online because I didn't reply to their DM. I mean, really, can I get some personal space? It's not all about you, you're just some stranger on the internet!
Ah, Heather appreciating her fanbase.
Also refers to her boyfriend, presumably LurchRyan.
>>930119>Is this dude into poetry or was that Ryan 4 (Craig)? She is posting a bunch of poetry in her stories today.
No that's him.
One of her poems today was about how love is finding someone just as weird as you. I know Clay has this self-defeating mindset that he's just too weird to have a successful relationship– he told me this once. In a previous thread, Heather stated multiple times that she's also too weird and no man will ever find her attractive. They both seem to suffer from, I guess "Special snowflake" syndrome.
With Heather it's kind of like she's the female equivalent of Reddit Incels, "People don't like me because I like [hobby]" but it's actually because they're an absolute paint-chugging muppet.>>930199
The span of ONE week:>Happy to be doing youtube again, doesn't need to prove herself, has so many plans>Asking her followers for video ideas, posts some unsettling self-focused answers and segues into two paragraphs of breakdown.>So happy again. Patently obvious it's because of the dude.>Horribly depressed again, for all the same reasons. But everything is because of the internet.
Also how did she get a nasty message from someone because she didn't reply to their DM? She's said multiple times in the past month alone that she doesn't check her messages because of the "haters".
But Anon, then she'll have no one to seek approval from aside from her boyfriend who is going to get tired of her emotional baggage and instability and realize she doesn't actually see him as anything other than an object to be used, flaunted, and treated like her spine due to being unable to grow her own.
Looks like she's editing another boring video that won't break 1k views in a week.
She sounds like a kid who rehearsed a monologue to audition for the school play, and is trying way too hard to sell it.
>bla bla take back my power and bring back my creativity.
>social media is not a good place. It's an easy place to vent, and it's an easy place for just anyone to react to it.
Heather the fucking genius. This took you awhile hun. Too bad you don't seem eager to get off the internet for a while.
>keeps mentioning "I'll be driving to work" because she's adulting y'all!
>bold new chapter. Life is finally mine. Can't quit social media because she is just so creative.
>not justifying changing my style anymore. Whenever I was a teenager this was me. Everybody started hating me when I changed my style.
Bitch, nobody cares. We care about the gofundme scam and you talking shit about your old cummunity.
>starts to cry when talking about her drivers' license and "buying her own car."
>has a "fulltime job" but the hours have dropped a lot. Was working day and night.
Which is what we call a parttime job.
>switches back and forth between soft meak sad little girl voice and angry Karen wanting to speak to the manager voice.
>"I don't want to sit here and talk about myself. This is the last video I'm making like this"
>shows off her "art."
That was exhausting.
Rant from earlier today.
Being cocky and arrogant doesn't make you right or smart, nor does it negate the stalking, harassment, theft, and lying, which she continues to deny even though this thread is now the second result upon Googling both her alias', and the only saving grace is that it's a clusterfuck of commentary and difficult to sort through, on a site many people would turn away from purely because of its reputation.
If your mantra is “Fuck the haters!” and not “I’m going to assess where this criticism comes from, and either improve and grow, or ignore it.”
Then “the haters” probably have a fucking point.>>930645
Heather, no one cares about you being "fake", even though you have previously said "I'm still Heather Sparkles, I'm just trying out new things" and constantly complained that your cutesy aesthetic was preventing you from being appealing to men.
We care about you stalking someone who wouldn't return your affections, and you putting him on blast when he tried to give you closure and make you give him space.
We care about you routinely saying one thing and then contradicting it a week later solely for pity, like how you said you were getting help driving, then said no one was helping you, or that you had your learners permit, and then that you spent 500$ of crowdfunded money on driving lessons.
We care about the fact that you have routinely taken advantage of people, even using people for free rides so you could stalk Ryan at least three times, and coerced someone to drive in a Blizzard just so you could see this guy.
We care about the fact that you have alienated or shit-talked every single person who has attempted to even so much as offer you simple advice to get out of that bad situation, and how you turned down all that advice and the programs you yourself said were suggested to you.
We care about the fact that you go through enormous mood swings regularly, but deny the fact that you're mentally ill and in the process, belittle people with mental illness by implying its this dreaded, shameful thing.
We care about how you continually called the toy collecting and fairy kei communities cringey, childish, weird, etc because you were busy trying to prove yourself.
>"Because of other people"
No, because of YOU. Stop blaming others, stop seeking approval from others.
Everything you have gone through is self-created drama, or embellished. You weren't starving or in danger, you were offered multiple services to help you get out of there, and you turned every one of them down.
You don't need to constantly go back and talk about who you were as a teenager. Are we all supposed to go back to whatever we were as teenagers or else we're inauthentic?
>genuinely into those things
But you kept saying that was just a phase, you were never comfortable, you just felt accepted.
>Doing very bad things to me
If he was doing "very bad things to you" you wouldn't have turned down the programs suggested to you by followers and by the marriage counselor.
>people said I'd never be able to do
You yourself said you'd never be able to afford your own car, but now suddenly it's other people.
>bought myself a little something
No you went on massive spending sprees and admitted yourself that you were in debt with Killstar.
>you're not going to have this power over me anymore
If that were true, you'd just fucking create. You wouldn't feel the need to make these videos or your quickly deleted Insta stories at all. The video alone PROVES people still have power over you.
Aaaahaha awesome, you caught the bit at the end that she abridged for the video! Was>"Sometimes you just gotta put the hat on, fix your hair a little bit, and tell the haters to fuck off"
a little too edgy for youtube, heather?
Does the Download button on videos work for anyone? I think we should be collecting this and other videos in case she ends up deleting them.>>930662>This took you awhile hun. Too bad you don't seem eager to get off the internet for a while
A lot of this sudden self-awareness is likely less Heather, and more Heather regurgitating what her boyfriend tells her. She's done this before where she'll quote something she read or what someone said to her in order to sound like she knows what she's talking about, but she'll never actually ruminate on it and take it to heart.>>930690>going on Killstar shopping sprees and rewarding yourself every two seconds>you aren’t fooling anyone with how you bought your car.
These two things also happened at the same time, and she'd only just started at Target. She wouldn't have been able to afford her car yet.
>her troubles at home-everyone turned their back on her.
It boils my blood, as someone who has actually been in a very dangerous situation before, that she keeps exaggerating what Adam did and painting him as this horrendous monster who abused her rather than just some guy with a saviour complex. I really wish he'd sue her for defamation at this point. She posted those chop-shopped videos of his "abuse" and claimed the only reason she never shared them before was that she was taking him to court, but that never happened.
She has a platform and a voice, and she claims to have been abused so horribly and she clearly is able to be vocal about it, rather than repressing it. If she's so pressed for content ideas, why not make videos to offer advice and support for other victims
and survivors of domestic violence? Oh, right, because she's lying about it for public pity.
What a fucking toilet person.
Do Anons want screenshots of Ryan 5 lying about his involvement with my former friend to downplay it and make her look crazy? Or is that too OT?>>930737
Her pumpkin carving video still has comments enabled and the only things there are the exact things said in this thread. No one is criticizing her fashion there.
She looks like "the hitcher" from the Mighty Boosh. But that's the only problem I have with her style. I actually didn't find her channel until after her "re as l Heathet" phase. Sorry to blogpost, but I was in an abusive
relationship with a gaslighting Narc for about 12 years (15-26) so I really felt for her. I actually believed her "nobody wants me to grow up and change" bullshit for a short while because that had happened to me. So I approached her from a position of sympathy. It was her own manipulation, lies, and unhinged behaviour that made me dislike her.
Heather, the problem isn'tvyour style or interests. The problem is you.
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I forgot to share this, which was just before her rants. Idk if she deleted it. “Seems like a waste of time” but did it anyway. Opted to make a video filled with her contradicting herself instead of creating content, even though she still hasn’t opened her print shop, was shown editing a video yesterday, and could have gone out to take more redundant photos of trees like a high school student in their first day of photography class. Instead she chose to devote upwards of an hour to getting dressed and made up, recording, and editing that video which regardless of content, was completely unnecessary and self-serving.
Content creators create CONTENT, things that appeal to others. If she’s doing these for herself and doesn’t care about public reaction, she’s not a content creator, she’s just a hobbyist with an inflated sense of importance.
I'm starting to get the impression that her playing-victim
videos are her new form of expression and art lol, she seems to get powered up by ranting against the haters
She probably sees it like those channels for self-empowerment and helping others now. Girl acts like she's giving a Ted Talk whenever she whines ugh
lol! beat me to it anon.
this qween of fashun tho and let's not forget what a "badass," she is because she wears cheap ass killstar boots.
Former friend's an objectively shittier person than Heather, but Clay also lead her on, backed away, rinse repeat for several years. She put him on a pedestal and ruined a couple friendships over the guy, so she's not entirely innocent, but there was never any excuse for how he treated her (or me, but that's a long, OT story).
Things I have logs of her saying he did:>Cuddled during a Christmas visit and they talked about how they're still interested in each other but he needs to get over his ex and she needs to get her shit together>Held hands for hours on at least two occasions>Planned dates, he did most of the event planning since it was her coming out to PGH>Almost went on a road trip to NOLA just the two of them>Sent him a long confession of her feelings, and "the way Clay responded was positively while at the same time not really giving me a straight response to my admission" and "the relationship I had with him did change toward progress">Shared a private room and bed during a convention I was present for and witnessed, only three months after sending her confession>Kissed, and he insisted on cuddling
In 2017 she quit trying for him and went around calling him a douche again, and got involved with her fiance.
Clay and I discussed his involvement with her, but every time, what he said didn't match up with anything she'd told me. His claims:>"She came out for the 4th, nothing happened because I just wasn't feeling it.">"We were never together, she wanted us to be and I don't think she handles being told no very well.">"I kept having to keep sporadic contact with her because any time I would try to be friends she would start pushing and it was making me really uncomfortable.">"I felt really uncomfortable the whole weekend. I felt like I was only there with the expectation I was going to hook up with her." (re: the convention he shared a bed with, kissed, and cuddled her 3mo after she sent her confession)
Clay's an incredibly lonely person and it's mostly because of a lot of self-defeating behaviour and habits. He does things that cause people to get fed up and leave, but every time someone does something as a direct consequence of what he does, he plays it off and/or shirks/dodges responsibility instead of actually examining the ways he hurts people and working on those aspects of himself. He's wants to be wanted, and it backfires on him tremendously because it's an incredibly selfish want where he's also prone to rose-tinted goggles. He told me all his relationships were just "one bad decision after another" but when that's the case, usually the underlying is YOU.
I know Clay well enough to know that once the novelty and high wears off, he's going to start seeing the reality in that she's not actually the person she tries to portray herself as, and he'll become exhausted and overwhelmed by her rampant toxicity she aggressively denies. Clay really sucks at communication especially when he gets in his moods and Heather will not take well to that. Likewise, he will not be her backbone. She seems to have already put him in the same "mentor" position she's put a couple Ryans in, which means he's trapped. He's the next Ryan Z and her codependency will turn nuclear. >>930982
Black Friday or not, I'm going to guess that's all at least 300$. She has next to no social life, doesn't leave the house, none of those heels or platforms are good for rough terrain or abandoned buildings. She's likely only doing this because she still wants Killstar to notice her, but she's gone above and beyond to absolutely tank her reputation so that will never happen.
She has no plans for the future. She has no goals other than teenage pipe dreams that will not cover the cost of living.
New Insta stories rant. She regrets her video from yesterday but says they were thoughts that needed to be said. She made that statement in yesterday's video about how the internet is a bad place to vent- she says one thing while doing the opposite. She cannot differentiate between needs and wants.https://streamable.com/ol566
Since she said she's thinking about taking down her video from yesterday, here it is for archiving.https://streamable.com/p787ghttps://streamable.com/1xje5
Huh, weird. I wonder if it nuked the audio when it made me split it. The file itself is fine, so I'll just Dropbox it.https://www.dropbox.com/s/0ujn9musyqdyuwr/I%27m%20Moving%20Forward.mp4?dl=0>>931011
She won't because it's not about buying good boots, it's about being noticed by Killstar-sempai.
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So how long before we see a post showing she bought this ($54) and an explanation as to how she ‘EARNED IT’
Lol of course not. That would actually be respectable and nor self-fulfilling.
She's locked in her own bubble. She could pay it forward, she could actually work on self-assessment and self-improvement and use her platform as something good, wholesome, and beneficial. She could become an incredibly respectable person by being someone who is actually honest with herself and works on her flaws and tries to assess where they come from, but instead she just aggressively denies them while blaming everyone else and she'll never donate her money to charity because she could be hoarding useless shit instead.
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This is both hilarious and therapeutic to watch.
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Heather you’ve known this guy for like a month. Maybe two.
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“Independence” your boyfriend is the root of your happiness right now because your codependent. You live with your mom and aren’t working on finding your own place.
Imagine the blow up when this relationship inevitably falls apart. Oh boy.
How did she even meet Ryan #5?
>>931949>Imagine the blow up when this relationship inevitably falls apart. Oh boy.
Someone theorized in a previous thread that she'll try to go after his shooting hobbies to paint him as a violent monster, and I don't think that's too much of a reach.
She keeps pushing the envelope further and further with her accusations towards Adam. Her last video said he did "very bad things to her", which is a pretty fucking obvious allusion to physical/sexual violence even though we all know that's a steaming crock.
It's also pitifully obvious she's devoting more energy to this than to literally any other, far more important thing in her life and hasn't gone on any actual "adventures" despite continually talking about how adventurous she is.
Don't forget she also shared recordings of one of their arguments and her horrendous acting and equally horrendous attempts to edit the videos to omit stuff.>>892069
Back then she said she wasn't sharing them because she needed them for a court case. Of course, nothing of that sort has actually happened.
Aren't they still legally married? I remember some business in a previous thread about how her maiden name was Novak or something and she never changed it to Faylor when they got married. Is he still paying for the storage facility, since she seemingly hasn't done anything with her old stuff and complained about a month ago that he'd try to take her stuff in the divorce.
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And she just posted a video about it. Nice coincidence.
Another case of zero self awareness talking about the haters. Grabbed a recording. Gimme an hour or so and I’ll post it when I’m free.
Tracklist for Heather's newest album:https://streamable.com/ninjp
> 1. I'm gonna sell my stuff> 2. People hate me (they just don't understand me)> 3. Not going to explain myself> 4. Hold up let me explain myself> 5. Everybody hates me nobody likes me I guess I'll go eat worms (cover)> 6. Manic rambling Feat. Heather's ego> 7. I'm moving on I swear> 8. Pipedreams> 9. I have to work all the time (even though I JUST said my hours were massively cut)> 10. I'm moving on I swear (the remix)> 11. People think I'm crazy!> 12. I'M NOT CRAZY!!! I'm a HUMAN BEING!!!
She has had three of these mood swings in the past week and every upswing involves visiting him. She's so wildly codependent and has done nothing to address the core issues that keep impacting her life.
She had another but I didn't grab it in time and its already deleted. Just started talking about putting together a new video and I didn't get anything after that point.
I really, truly hope she tries to post another
video trying to sell her vintage toys and gets showered with downvotes and people angry that she's yet again
trying to suck money out of the toy collecting community after disparaging them and calling them creepy and childish. She really just can't "move on" like she so often claims she is doing because she just wants our damn money so bad she just can't
let it go. If she would just stop trying to milk the toy community for all they've got, people would forget eventually. But she just can't resist the easy money she could make from the last few naive souls in the toy collecting community and doesn't mind taking advantage of them for her own financial gain one bit.
Oh FUCK no. She says she's thinking about starting up thrifting for toys again in order to flip them online. Heather, absolutely not. Leave those toys in the thrift stores for the collectors and hobbyists, the people with children that they want to have the toys they had when they were kids, and the people who will ACTUALLY ENJOY THEM. Imagine being a toy collector in her area now having to compete with her greedy flipper ass. This shit is why people hate you, Heather, because you don't mind stepping on other people's toes if it can benefit you.
Rather than get a second job, she wants to revert back to what she knows and what is fun and easy. Thrifting all week is much more fun than working another part time job, and we all know spending is Heather's favorite activity. I just don't understand why she thinks starting up a vintage toy flipping business is a wonderful idea, when she literally was just going on about how she doesn't have space and doesn't want to keep paying for this storage unit. This woman is unhinged, narcissistic, and dumb as fuck.
>>932832>these toys are archeology to me, and so is climbing into old buildings.
Cool. Some people get a four year archeology degree and do either physically demanding fieldwork or painstaking labwork. But I guess they could also just go to goodwill and pose for selfies next to some flaking plaster.
>I want to start my own business. I've never been able to figure out tax stuff.
Oh here we go.
She obsesses over this guy and she hasn't even known him two months yet. Oof
She's not even going to get anywhere with that, nor is she going to even begin if she can hardly drive herself anywhere.
She keeps focusing on a dozen different pipe dreams and never pulling through with any of them, or just doesn't have the skill or knowledge. I sold stuff online (Ebay) for several years, it's neither stable nor reliable income unless you're going the whole nine yards to get yard/garage and estate sales first thing or bidding on storage units. One of the reasons the BJD community disliked her was because she'd flake on sales or take forever shipping stuff. Considering how her behaviour largely hasn't changed much and she's been flaking on literally everything else, it's bound to be a repeat of that.
She is making almost every single mistake I made ten years ago and aggressively (and publicly) deluding herself into believing she's this stable, mature, strong woman when really she's just dangerously unstable, pitifully codependent, and frightfully stubborn. She refuses to assess any of her horrible habits and actually fix her life. She keeps being an absolute pissbaby to mentally ill people by crying "I'm not crazy!" in the middle of a breakdown instead of accepting the fact that she has some sort of emotional regulation and Cluster B disorder, and she is going to continue ruining her life and her relationship.
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>>this post of hers is old as hell but I laugh now because of how ironic it is
No, the toy community will never take her back. Not only did she insult them, she showed everyone how mentality insane she is and they don’t want that in their community. I’m sure a lot of them have come here and are now informed. the only supporters she’d have are people who are too stupid to see what’s going on.
She’s on her own as far as communities. No one will take her.
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She went to a black metal coffee shop once and now she’s becoming Corpsegrinder.
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>“Until I settle into another place”
you have zero concept of budgeting and just showed off your room that you spent money decorating instead of prioritizing saving for an apartment and nest egg. You said your hours were cut and even though you later lied through your teeth (which you also waste money whitening) and used that “I work all the time” line, it’s patently obvious you’re trying to find alternative income because of the latter.
>“Not welcome to”
Wonder whose fault that is. Why does she feel the need to bring this up all the time? This person asked about your collection not whether or not you’ll post them again. Jesus Heather.
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New Instagram stories up. Just the same old story all over again:
- she’s “back on YouTube” for the 300th time this year, and she’s serious this time guys. Ok?
- has to figure out what kind of a content creator she is since urbex isnt panning our
- says that most of her new content will have to be filmed in her room because it’s too costly to travel out and film in other locations especially for urbex.
- she’s basically having to start from the ground up again as a YouTube creator. Granted she’s doing it on a solid foundation from “whenever” she was a toy collector….Still banking on that YouTube money because she has ZERO faith in her own ability to really start over again.
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Girls need not apply. Spoopy boys and those willing to provide transportation to the front of the line.
I gotchu, Anon.https://streamable.com/32n4y
She needs to learn to stop wasting her time on these videos. Other, successful content creators don't spend five minutes every three days talking about their plans, they set up a release schedule and spend their time creating.
Half of this video is just excuses as to why she can't do something. Heather just admit you don't actually want to do anything other than sit at home because it's what you're used to since Adam let you get away with it throughout your 20s and you don't want to step outside of your comfort zone.
She says the house she wants to take photos of is on a busy road and she doesn't know what people will think with her standing there with her "big ol camera" Heather where do you think real estate photos come from? People are too caught up in their own lives to care about some chick with a camera they see for two seconds on their way to wherever.
She says she has no idea what her new thing is going to be, despite having said several times she has plans.
Good looking out anon.
Also “busy road” sounds like code for many cars and her being afraid to drive there and people honking at her for being slow.
Her face looks fatter. All that binging and sleeping all day isn't doing her any favourd.
Only Heather can talk about how much "creative passion" she has one day, and then admit she has no idea what to film the next.
Update. She wasn't satisfied with the video she recorded of her antiques collection but since she got all dressed and made up she might drive to Sheetz and do an "eating video". She might not though and she might make it at home. Either she's trolling or she's so desperate for cash she's trying to hit up the niche fetish scene.
I thought she was totally done eating crap food though?
Heather one day you'll realize that you're the root of literally every single struggle in your life and that your continued denial of this fact and screaming "I'm not crazy!" in the middle of your third public meltdown of the week is a surefire sign you need therapy and medication, not youtube and dick.
Already has two cameras but might buy another at nearly 500$ because it's on sale, but still has Paypal credit debt (Killstar debt probably). The expensive camera will be "a treat" if she can dedicate herself to Youtube.
She has two other cameras. One is small but apparently not good quality. The other is her DSLR and its huge and heavy so she doesn't want to use it.
"I'm trying to be a youtuber but I don't know what I'm doing. I want to come back. I want to film my life and adventures but the truth is I don't really have a life or go on adventures. […] I don't really know what I want to make. So that's why I want to just start being a vlogger."
So basically, Heather latching onto pipedreams instead of living in the real world and wanting to blow more money on something she doesn't actually need but is trying to justify getting herself further in debt with.
After this she posted a preview of that room tour video.
If she has supposedly moved on from the toy collecting hobby because it's supposedly childish and fellow toy collectors suck etc (she herself was critical of the hobby and the people who are devoted to it) why is she holding onto them? She's trying to play victim
again by saying she's not welcome to show her pony collection but the idiot brought that on herself by bad mouthing the hobby because she's now all grown up and supposedly moved on. She'll always be terribly immature, the toy collecting hobby and its community has nothing to do with that. She's also super impulsive and wasteful with money, she needs to make more money not spend it on stuff she doesn't really need such as another camera. There are people on youtube that don't use expensive equipment yet they are still popular because they have watchable, interesting content. She needs to come up with original content, not just shopping hauls and room tours.
What an embarrassing humblebrag.
She spends a remarkable amount of time lamenting about her financials (and lying throughout) then flashes her multiple equipment options like they’re simply not good enough to document her shockingly simplistic life and trivial pursuits she touts as extraordinary.
She then has the gall to announce her intentions of spending yet more money she doesn’t have so that viewers can somehow be rewarded with an improvement in the quality of her vlogging efforts. Which is, in itself extraordinary because she routinely claims she’s universally hated for such efforts.
If she were homeless, she’d be vlogging about which of three cars to sleep in that night while giving strong consideration to begin claiming a fourth option.
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So many adds in one video…
I don't know if it works to prevent views/revenue, but it's worth a try even if it just skips ads.>>934250>>934232>>934231
I thought he was "the one" after knowing him for years and finally giving him a chance, because he and I related on a lot of levels and it felt uncanny. My friend of nine years thought he was "the one", and in the end, him and I dating caused her to throw an enormous shitfit even though she said she wasn't into him, and she tried to alienate me from friends because his and my involvement was a jolt to her ego because it said "you were never good enough but she was". My childhood best friend thought he was "the one" but hit a really bad spot in life and latched onto both him and I to a creepy degree, and it just added a self-inflicted layer to their suffering and I almost lost them.
He's just not THAT great, and I really don't know what it is that grants him this weird, "senpai" status that causes people to fall so head over heels in a month or so of knowing him, where lives are so negatively impacted. I think it's because he gets caught up in the dopamine rush of the "honeymoon phase" so he draws people in and he's unique enough that they think they've struck gold, and it becomes like an addiction.
It's obvious he's the next Ryan Z except he's given her more than Ryan Z did. If he ever wants out or starts backing away things are likely to get real volatile.(no1curr abour ur relationships)
Someone count how many times she says “mmmm!!”
Take a shot every time you hear mmmm!!
This might be good for her since she wants to make videos but doesn’t have any ideas what to make, also she likes to talk about pointless shit. She can eat and constantly repeat herself AND get a video to post about it all at the same time.
Also, she has the personality of a 70yr old lady. Constantly repeating herself and pointless conversation to go along with the way she talks and the kind of words she uses. It’s cringey, dated, and feels forced.
Oh my god that poor man. She’s spending so much time shoving that camera directly in his face antagonizing him and publicly shaming him over something so fucking petty. Shit, Heather. I hope you keep pushing the accusations and he files a defamation suit and shows clips like this. He looks so uncomfortable and like he’s trying not to have a completely justified frustrated response in front of the camera.
Though the reality is I’m sure Adam and Ryan Z both just want nothing to do with her anymore.
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I called it, she wants to "collect again"
Her collecting was the "real me"
So, what is the real you heather? Are you fuckin serious? First, collecting toys wasn't the real you. Then this stupid wanna be goth shit was the "real me"
For the longest time people on here say she has a mental problem, I didn't believe it at first but she's consistently proven time and time again that THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.
You want to revert back to toys because you want to make money. Here's an idea heather, GO.GET.A.FULL.TIME.JOB.
I'm so tired of the same speech over and over, omg heather just fuckin be a real adult and do something productive with your life. You're useless and stale for YouTube, just call it time of death 2018, your channel died. Accept it.
Gotchu (again) Anon.https://streamable.com/4yabh
She'll say "I'm not going to focus on it" and "I'm not going to validate myself anymore" while doing just that in these videos. Like you said she wants to get back into toys because she knows that's what makes her money, and she knows she's gonna catch flack after all she's said before so she's trying to preemptively justify it.
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Doublepost but look what she shared hardly a day after stuffing her face with Sheetz for YouTube and a week after saying multiple times that she was done eating junk food.
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All that energy wasted on trying to be praised and liked by an audience and she can’t make any friends. Poor Heather.
Aww, she wants us to feel bad that she's back stabbed everyone and used people for her own advantages
Heather, if you read this, fuck off. You have pissed off every community, go get into the slime community or some shit, maybe you have a shot there.
I like how she tries to say “I’m not a bad person,” as if she’s trying to convince herself as well as her audience. She really needs to sit and watch all her rants in one sitting to see that she’s clearly not mentally stable.
“I love mlp. It’s the real me!” Bitch, what happened to you burning your toys? We all knew you’d try to come crawling back.
I love that she's eating a cookie here and then posting something like >>935697
shortly after. Why do something today when you can just endlessly talk about doing it tomorrow. kek.
Constantly repeating herself, at the end, nothings changed.
“Adam, you were wrong and I was RIGHT! I was riiiioighttttt!”
She should have edited that out. It’s cringe. Poor Adam.
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Didn’t she just go out and buy a lens today?
You want to lose weight and be healthy, you have a nice camera but it’s too heavy. There’s a way you can kill two birds with one stone, you know.
That bridge BURNED a long time ago. I wouldn't accept any apology from her, nor would she ever apologize because in her mind, she did nothing wrong.
If she tried to come back, she would 100% get shitted on. People would open bot Instagram accounts and rip her a new one.
The problem is that she is lazy, lazy and doesn't want to get a real FULL TIME JOB.
She can stick to her photography for all I care, everyone think they are a photographer in this day in age, I'll let her have that. But she needs to stop with YouTube. That ship has long sailed, people feeling bad for her has long sailed, she fucked herself, let her suffer.
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Oh boy… (1/2)
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Didn’t mean to spoiler it, it’s just a camera post but I mis-tapped.
She obviously bought that lens if she’s experimenting on it in her house. There’s a chance she returned it but considering her history of lies there’s a nonzero chance she bought both is and hoping people don’t notice so she doesn’t have to VALIDATE HERSELF as to why she bought a lens and then a whole other camera.
Sage because again this related to old milk
Oh my god when she made him admit that he was wrong he looked so uncomfortable. I was waiting for him to start crying honestly. Like you can see it in his eyes, like he was thinking ‘oh god here we go again’. I just saw pain. I can’t speak for any other instances, but in this video alone, she’s bullying him and she’s instigating him, almost hoping to get a violent reaction so she can say ‘omg I was just messing with you.’ The fact that she has to keep saying ‘that’s how we are. This is how we are. We’re not really upset.’ Even though the look on his face said different. Like he put up with her walking all over him on the daily. Living with her would give anyone anxiety or depression or some kind of mental disorders I swear. How is this man still living life..? IN NO WAY am I WKing but watching that video was very triggering
placing myself in Adams shoes. It makes you really wonder if anything she’s ever claimed, abuse wise, can even be trusted.
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Is why it's not just a matter of apologies. We've also seen how Heather tends to say one thing and do the opposite- often while saying it. She has a whole lot more to apologize for than just what she's said about the toy community, and quite frankly, it's not so much about apologies as it is showing that she's capable of self-reflection and growth.
She used people to stalk and harass a guy, then publicly dragged him to thousands of Instagram followers when he wouldn't give her what she wanted. In her mind he was just a fuckboy who used her.
She used Adam and his weird saviour complex so she could be a NEET and live comfortably on his dime and when that wasn't working out anymore, she cheated and embellished details. In her mind he was an abusive
man who trapped her and "did horrible things to her".
She wanted to show off for a man to win his affections so she attacked your community to performatively prove her worth. In her mind you're all just babies and haters.
So she can apologize to throwing you guys under the bus, but she never will, and even if she did, until she can stand up and show that she's actually learned from her own mistakes and made appropriate choices to combat them instead of just re-writing the past to make it everyone else's fault and changing her tone in her Insta stories despite still spouting the same old (pic related) narc narrative, it'd just be empty words as blood for the masses.
Here's her latest Insta story.https://streamable.com/hlosw>Saw ClayRyan again, doesn't get to see him much because they're both adults with full time jobs>Basically her Knight In Shining Armour>Everything is beautiful and wonderful>Internet shit doesn't matter, everyone just misunderstands her>She has an income and a car and materialism isn't her game anymore
Comparatively, it's the same old stuff from previous Insta story diatribes, but she's just presenting it with this blissful joy rather than bitterness and a cocky attitude because she knows that won't win her any points. If she truly was living a happy life, and didn't care about the internet hate, she wouldn't feel the need to constantly do this. This is always just Heather giving herself a pep-talk in the mirror, except her "mirror" is social media because contrary to what she says at the end of the video, she thrives on outside validation due to a lack of self-reliance.
Anon(s) always coming through. Thank you.
I feel like she's calling herself a "misfit" "outcast" as if that's a term clay/ryan says about himself and what they call themselves as a couple, lol. I'd like to see her stories whenever he breaks up with her and what kind of stuff she will say he "did to her."
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I love that metaphor. For one it's a reflection she's stuck in a grade school mindset. For two it has no basis in reality. Even the most "bottom-rung" kids had friends. Saying that you "ate alone" just means that not even the other outcasts could tolerate you. It's not an indication of independence like she I guess thinks it is.
She keeps talking about being misunderstood. That's a self-defeating narrative often spouted by toxic
people who isolate themselves with their behaviour, then pin it on other people by claiming those people just don't Get Them.>>936963
Her tone of voice isn't authentic in any way, it's like she's reading from a script. She doesn't truly believe these things, she's just being showy and trying to make herself believe them by making other people believe them and reflect them back to her. Her audience is her mirror because she put zero points in her Self-Reliance skill.>>936907
No problem. Whenever this windbag has stories I'm like, "here we go again" and just tap a couple buttons and set my phone aside and then it's like opening a present except that present is rancid bog water.
She's put him on such a pedestal that she's likely going to not just go after him, but say her life is over. The thing with Narcs/Cluster B's is that when it's good it's great, when it's bad it's the end of the world as we know it and nothing feels fine.>>937081
There are billions of people on this Earth. People DO have their own lives. The hate she's getting stems from her own actions and SHE is the one doing the gaslighting. The proof of her actions is all in these threads or tucked away in her old videos like the one Anon shared, it's just a pain to sort through.
>I need more time.
You sure have enough time to post this shit on social media, Heather.
Either way, that's meltdown #4 in about two weeks. Not sure if last night's bad acting counts as one.
She's saying she's been boycotted. Is there a call to boycott her sales somewhere, or is this another case of Heather's mental illness doing its thing?
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Just like. Make your meltdowns motivational speeches and no one will notice they’re meltdowns. The patented Heather Method.
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Well. Lets see how this goes….
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of course she is keeping her collection.
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No one cares about your hobbies, Heather. Do your photography, live your life, but stop acting like you’re a social pariah just because you decided to choose a different path. People are holding you to task for your deceitful and destructive actions and your aggressive denial that said actions are rooted in a mental illness that you should be seeking professional help to work through for rather than masking with hobbies and thus faux motivational persona.
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See a therapist. Get on mood stabilizers. Stable, healthy adults don’t have meltdowns on social media weekly, Heather. Stop masking it as you being “over it” when you clearly aren’t.
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Soooo…..her tome on YouTube is done for buuuut….she just bought a brand new camera and lens to vlog/shoot youtube vids for??? And doesn't get why the "haters" see that as money that could've been used to pay back the go fund me donators/and or charity she promised to give to …ok.
HEATHER YOU STUPID BITCH.Let me Barney this for you. It's not validation people people want, it's JUSTIFICATION.
How is sweet fucking hell can you justify spending money on shit you CANNOT AFFORD??
- You ungratefully and disrespectfully live with mommy.
- You used money given to you by generous and kind people, and then continue to spend spend spend on frivolous things. It DOESN'T MATTER WHEN or WHAT you used that money on at the time, it's a slap in the face to everyone who helped you when you're in NO POSITION to be buying ANYTHING. AT ALL!!
- You shop for expensive organic bullshit food then stuff your fat filtered face with junk. TOTALLY REDUNDANT.
- You're a fucking idiot. Plain and simple. This next breakup is going to extinguish you. Guranteed. I can't wait
>>937516>Forced out of hobbies
I don't get why she acts like a few "mean" comments on the internet equals someone holding a gun to her head and saying she can't do what she "loves" anymore. If you're tired of validating your existence and explaining yourself, just stop, dumbass. Go do the thing you want to do.>>937540
Seriously. It's like her real hobbies are pity parties and being melodramatic about next to nothing. She spends more time and energy on responding to the "haturz" than she does into any of her hobbies. It's absurd. I guess finding herself the perfect spooky boy didn't solve all her problems like she had hoped it would?
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She's posting all this and hasn't responded to stuff on her sales Insta.>>937516>I'm tired of being painted as a monster for things I love to do.
Like emotionally abusing your SO's and then trying to claim you were just an innocent helpless victim
? Or stalking men who didn't want to be with you and then trying to "call them out" to your 3k+ followers? Or calling an entire community that supported you and sent you gifts cringey and childish because you wanted to prove to a man that Heather Sparkles wasn't "the real you" at the expense of others? Because that's all I see people painting you as a monster for, Heather.
She's only going to get worse. Hardly anything about Heather has changed.
Pic related. She keeps pulling this "I'm just a human with emotions" bullcrap, the problem isn't that you have emotions, it's that you handle them like someone half your age and you have a hair-trigger
response to everything.
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More bullshit rants, she just doesn't quit
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It's been bugging me for weeks, but I finally figured it out…
She's like 90% Killstar so if you haven't already, check Killstar.>>937657>>937658>>937659
There’s just so much wrong with this.
She’s locking yourself in the same old self-defeating patterns. Just because your environment is different doesn't mean your life is.
She made a lot of bad choices last year while you were on the outs with Adam and trying to win Ryan Z's affections. All of it was public. People aren't making things up about her; they're assessing things she’s said and done. There isn't some grand conspiracy against Heather just because Heather stopped being pastels and glitter.
What she calls "misunderstood" is that every time someone critiques something destructive, she feels the need to weave a web of justifications and excuses and when people see through that, she gets upset and claims they just misunderstand. Heather stop trying to dodge responsibility by trying to force people to be satisfied with some far-fetched deniability of your motives and choices.
She latches onto her uniqueness like it’s made her both a social pariah and is the core of her identity. When your image is the core of your identity, you become hypersensitive to criticism.
She was clearly deeply affected by some childhood trauma and THAT is why she needs a doctor. Not because of her hobbies or style of dress, but because everything she does is founded upon that trauma which runs so deep, she cannot sort through it on her own. No amount of adventures, photography, Youtubing, or shopping will help her– they're all the sober equivalent to drinking sorrows away. Like no one’s saying don’t do them, but she treats them like a cure and spends more time and money on them (see: today’s prints) than on actually working on herself and getting the help she needs.
She keeps having these meltdowns and then it’s all better. Then another, and she’s better. Again and again ad nauseam. That's not just "being human and having emotions" like you claimed in a previous episode, Heather, that's a symptom of a much larger issue.
A doctor will have the knowledge and resources to assist her but she keeps acting like that’s this shameful thing. It's not shameful to have cancer and it's not shameful to have whatever it is she has, but she needs to seek proper treatment because what is shameful is routinely destroying relationships, isolating yourself, wild emotional fluctuations, and weaponizing your emotions. Her deep attachment to her boyfriend so quick further indicates problems. She hardly knows the guy.
If buying a new camera and selling her toys brought up such a visceral reaction, that is not normal, and she’s had several meltdowns last week before listing toys or buying new camera stuff, so this cycles back to your tendency of making excuses. Heather stop blaming outside factors for your magnanimously inappropriate public emotional outbursts.
Setting aside the validity of her claims for a moment. She isn’t the only person on this planet who has been abused, heartbroken, lost their home, backstabbed, had to start from the bottom, etc. Heather your situations are not unique to you, but your responses are, and they are wildly inappropriate and destructive.
STOP being so catastrophically stubborn. STOP making excuses. STOP trying to pin the blame on other people or events. You are responsible for yourself, your actions, and your emotions.
Get. Help. Heather.
Or don't. And complain about the haters more. Welcome thread 6, "I got kicked out of my mom's house for prioritizing my hobbies over my responsibilities and my boyfriend got tired of my drama and dumped me and now he's the scum of the Earth and tried to murder me" edition.
Sorry for wall of text. It's like she always wants to do what's comfortable and not what's needed. The money she's spent between the new lens, new camera, and metallic prints altogether probably breaks a grand. She said herself that her hours were cut, mentioned that she still has debt with Paypal. But I'm sure that's not true and we're just misunderstanding words that came out of her mouth.
Solid points, anon. Echoed a lot of what many others have said time and time again. But realistically speaking there’s just no way Heather can afford to see a therapist in order to work through these issues.
She works a part time retail job, which doesn’t offer her any medical benefits. She’s too old to be under her moms insurance. She’s too reluctant to look into government assistance programs that could help her get some insurance. I just don’t see a feasible way for her to get any professional help even if she was open to it.
There are free or income based mental health services. There are advocacy programs especially for domestic violence survivors as she claims to be, who will help her get on Medicaid and gain access to any services she needs and qualifies for. If one of her videos from before leaving Adams house is any indication I think someone did suggest 211 to her or something like it. There is online therapy but she won’t be able to get a diagnosis and it still costs money, but if she outlines her habits and is honest with herself it’s still a help, and it’s better than her current habit of Splitting and having these episodes on people or the internet and telling herself it’s a healthy outlet for her totally normal emotions.
Her parents might be willing to help pay for psychiatric help but if her mentality towards mental illness is any indication, it’s possible they’re mental health denialists and she was raised on that notion. I don’t know.
Where theres a will there’s a way, and Heather has the will, but only towards stuff she wants and is used to.
But see, that’s the thing. She’s NOT a domestic abuse victim
/survivor. She’s a liar and deep down she knows it. That’s why she doesn’t ‘take advantage of all the resources she has’ because she has lied her way through life since she was a child, no doubt. I’ve never met a woman who escaped an abusive
marriage/relationship who prioritized having a boyfriend 24/7. They always shut down or went on to focus on themselves and become strong. A lot of them feared men for awhile and refused to be in relationships. The fact that she lies about something this serious is disgusting and it makes real abuse survivors look bad.
Agreed. Almost like the human experience is subjective and people deal with trauma in different ways. >>938317
really shouldn't be talking about what "real abuse victims
always do." Because some absolutely rush into new relationships, either for protection, or validation. Being abused is scary and does a number on your self esteem. Both those things can bring people to seek out romantic partners. Some women indeed shy away from seeking new partners. And sometimes it doesn't influence their dating habits. People are just different.
Saying that "real" abuse victims
shy away from dating just because Heather lied about being abused and likes to dickhop is dangerous. Because it invalidates the experiences of actual abuse victims
who seek out new partners. They don't need that on top of everything edlse.
Apologies if it came off as that’s the only way abuse victims
act. That’s not what I meant. I just worded it shitty. Obviously everyone reacts to situations differently. I meant more specifically that it’s obvious SHE is not a victim
of abuse because of how she acts. She shows no real signs of being abused and because she has some fake story about how every ex did (insert sob story) to her it just doesn’t fit. Obviously everyone experiences things differently and copes differently but based on how heather acts, when she’s scared of something/ dislikes it/ claims to be traumatized by something, she finds every excuse to avoid it. Sorry for slight text wall/rambling, just didn’t mean to come off as saying ‘if you didn’t react this way you’re a liar’. It applies to her only.
Wow. Hold on there. Just because Heather is a shitty person does not mean the Metoo movement is invalid. Vast numbers of women face abuse and intimidation ranging from minor but constant harrassment to full on sexual abuse. To say that the fact we are finally speaking out about it is a " mistake" is deeply fucked up.
It is important to believe women, because women are so often not believed.
There is one Anon here who seems to have a real MRA streak to them. I've noticed them before. Whatever sad incel bullshit you have going on is your problem, and has nothing to do with this board.
that's just gross. In the earlier threads you can read about her situations in her marriage. Thr Me too movement is important af
It seems she's reached the point where she's trying to salvage what's left of her fan base and her channel. I don't understand how someone that was Kawaii for so long suddenly is into the dark and the macabre. That mukbang was cringey af.
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Performatively bringing it up every other day in either a rant, faux motivational speech, or quote only shows it still impacts you and you’re not as “over it” as you claim to be, Heather.
Latest pep talk:https://streamable.com/t7w5r
Nothing new, really.>>938317
Oh I know she's lying, but that doesn't mean she can't lie her way into getting some help. Though you're right and she probably fears professionals will see through her act. Might have when she was 302'ed.>>938438
>>938088, Anon you replied to is someone else.
To address this discourse: I used to live with an abuse advocate and people do absolutely cope differently. However, this debate over #metoo and whether Heather was abused based upon her proclivity for pursuing a new relationship is moot not to mention entirely off-topic. The Sparkles video above shows Heather did her fair share of emotional abuse and I’m sure there’s more in her old videos. The way these things usually work is that both sides end up engaging in what could constitute abusive
behaviour because the initial victim
usually doesn’t up and leave at the first sign of abuse and starts acting out in defense. I think Heather was the initial abuser based solely upon the extreme behaviour she’s shown, and then Adam might have responded in kind like snapping at her when she's crossing a line, and she's using that. She’s absolutely exaggerating when it comes to that topic. She shared recordings of one of their fights she claimed she never shared before because she was going to use them in court, and all it shows is him trying to poorly work things out with her and her over-acting, fake scream-crying, and each of those videos was spliced to only show certain parts. If she was down to Earth and stable I’d believe her side more, but everything she’s put out there shows her ass as the type that will engage in manipulation and weaponizing her emotions for personal gain.>>938581
I mean it’s hard to bring this up without her twisting it into “people hate me for changing”. She keeps trying to use her HS goth phase that a lot of people her age went through as a way to prove she was always goth and Sparkles was her trying to win people over. Back when she was still hung up on Ryan she said she changed and started being her real self because of him, and “boys didn’t like kawaii Heather, now I’m more mature”. It’s one thing to have old interests rekindled or gain new interests, but Heather restructured herself and then kept trying to advertise in a manner that’s characteristic for Narcs who study the “object” of their affection and try to become what they think the idealized version of that person wants.>>938439
She mentioned him as her “amazing boyfriend” in today’s Instaramble. How he’s put up with her drama this long is beyond me, but he has a history of struggling to tell people "no" and if her attachment to Ryan Z is any indication, she has a history of not taking no for an answer.
re: her latest pep talk
So she IS going to make content again. Was it not just yesterday she said she was quitting youtube?
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She’s emotionally trigger
happy. When it’s bad everything is awful and everyone hates her and she can’t come back to YouTube. When it’s good it’s great and she’s thriving. Emotional stability eludes her and she can’t admit to the fact that that’s not healthy and make the appropriate choice to do something about it.
Also what even is this.
Previous bag: 23$ says she's keeping it for another camera.
Plus 6% state tax and whatever she spent on the new camera. Not sure if she gets an employee discount and how much that might be.
Might do more Mukbang despite saying she eats like she because of depression and wanted to eat better.
Flaunting her boyfriend again.
Afraid of deer for some reason? "I don't want them to mess me up"
Needs to film boring vlogs in order to get in the hang of being a YT'er again. "I promise interesting videos are on the way, I'm just in the early stages of coming back. Thank you those of you that still support me there's a lot we need to talk about but I'm not going to focus on negativity."
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She looks like Janice from the Muppets.
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I mean she’s gotten two comments supporting though Angel is kind of kissing her toes in every post. “I don’t check messages because I get so much hate” “I got a lot of messages requesting more mukbang” do counteract each other.
IF She works at Target, this would be her discount
"Target hands out a 10% employee discount. This discount is good for both in-store purchases as well as stuff you buy at Target.com. Also, according to this Target employee, workers get an extra 10% off fresh (and frozen) fruits and veggies bringing your discount to a whopping 20%."
Streamable Anon here. I’m at an event and couldn’t record this one but I saw she posted another video. It’s already gone as per usual.
Heather: FUCK your pride. Get help.
Of course she deleted it all. She's a fucking joke.
She also mentioned gaining 20 pounds so now none of her expensive tacky clothes fit her. She said she's going back on the starch solution (how will that work with your fast food mukbangs???) and that she hates herself for gaining the weight back. Honestly, why does she hate herself for her weight gain and not for her absolutely ludicrous mood swings and undiagnosed personality disorder? I can't imagine that's a fun brain to live inside.
I mean it just draws back the the clinical narcissism if that’s what she has. Narcs and people in that general cluster just want tangible things they can hold over others to prove they’re better. More possessions, prettier, bigger family, more accomplished. It’s why they’re so dangerous in relationships and as parents and super commonly abusers. They usually have an idealistic perception and any deviation from that upsets them. It’s also probably why she’s become so attached to ClayRyan so fast. She doesn’t love him, she loves the idealized image her mind created of him.
Heather either cares more about her image because it’s something she can flaunt, or she’s still hung up on the delusion she can model for Killstar. Her bog water personality isn’t a blip on the radar because she doesn’t see it as a tangible thing she can flaunt.
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That’s called codependency, Heather, not independence. If you rely on another person to magically fix your violent mood swings and be the retaining wall for your happiness you’re not being self-reliant. Plus the wild highs are probably why your meltdowns are getting so frequent. Maybe work on fixing your pendulous emotional state.
New video. It was a long one so I had to make two recordings. They do overlap so just skip ahead in the 2nd one.https://streamable.com/w003fhttps://streamable.com/hta7q
Making a ton of accusations against Adam including claiming he was a pedo. While there is hard evidence in her old videos that she abused Adam, there is also evidence in the first thread he was creepy towards women. Whether or not he was a pedo, I don't see anything to prove or disprove that claim. True or false is moot, with her status, posting these things online is unnecessary and only gives people something else to talk about.
It it's true, she needs to stop posting about it and just seek out an actual trained professional already.
If it's untrue, I really hope Adam files charges. I hope he can take these videos to a lawyer because it's not like he's some anonymous silhouette. She's been pushing the envelope farther and farther on accusations towards him.
Other than that it's the usual stuff about how people hate her and think she's crazy because she's goth.
This long video seems like a direct response to her meltdown from a couple days ago, though. It's an endless cycle she refuses to break free from. She'll have a down-swing and have a meltdown on Instagram. Then she'll have an up-swing and try to justify that meltdown by saying she has an amazing life ahead of her. It's the same old song and dance.
She wants to vlog but the only thing she ever seems to want to talk about is drama.
Funny, I watched it earlier when she first posted it and said to myself "I don't think she realizes how this can turn ugly real quick if she hasn't had her divorce yet"
Now, those videos of course are deleted. I don't know why she bothers posting anything, she literally deletes it 10 mins later. But this was the same shit over and over except with the added adam being a possible pedo, which, is a very strong accusation unless she has proof he was a pedophile, which, I don't think is the case. I 100% believe he is a fuckin weirdo and likes younger girls, but to the extreme she was making it out to be? No.
She needs to seriously take a step back and just stop posting lol she creates storms all on her own. No one else is making her look like an idiot except herself.
Her allegations are getting more extreme and will land her in hot water if she continues. It is highly unlikely that she was ever abused by her husband or that she truly understands what domestic abuse is. A man who allows her to devote a whole room to her toy collection and spoils her rotten, is only guilty of being a complete push-over. He was a prick for putting up with her behaviour for so long as he did, should have broke up with her long ago as she's trouble. If he ever dared disagree with some of her ideas or put his foot down when she wanted something, that to her is abuse. People like this are an insult to women who are truly victims
of abuse, be it physical, sexual or verbal. If she had been a victim
she wouldn't have dared sleep with another fella like she did for fear he would have beat the crap out of her. This spoilt brat just wants sympathy and an excuse for her terrible behaviour. Hopefully if he finds any libel against him online he will be able to record/save it for future use should they end up in court. Though she's so sneaky deleting the comments so soon after she's intially posted them it's tricky but not impossible if someone is lurking ready to pounce and grab screenshots ASAP. She certainly should not be making those allegations via the internet when she has a divorce still looming. She's clueless!!!
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She’s using her sales account to like her own selfie. Conceited much.
She said in one of her posts from the past week that she feels good after she does these, so it's just a coping mechanism and she completely lacks the critical thinking skills to realize it's not a healthy one.
Good call on his repulsion towards kids. I think she was trying to accuse him of being attracted to teenage minors rather than children. Some of her claims are an obvious reach though. I don't see how him wanting to "adopt" teenage girls is sexual. If his coddling and savoir complex towards Heather is any indication, he seems more paternal than pedophiliac.
Him masturbating on the couch isn't predatory when they're married, unless she told him she was uncomfortable with it and asked him to stop and he refused, but even then he's not a predator, just an ass. I get that maybe this was weird to her but it's benign and probably the biggest thing in the whole video showing that she's just grasping at straws and has little in the way of even anecdotal evidence of her claims. "My mom said he's a creep" is hardly evidence. Subjectively being put off by someone doesn't mean they're objectively a predator.
When she was trying to find another man after Adam, her whole spiel was that no men wanted Sparkles. Maybe she's flipping that to the next (il)logical conclusion of "If Adam was attracted to me then, clearly he's a kiddie diddler."
Also, she'll shit on mental health when people want to claim she's bipolar or Cluster B Narc/Borderline/Histrionic, but she's fully willing to self-diagnose with PTSD when it serves her narrative.
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More blah blah blah
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Uh huh…ok heather.
But you're NOT happy. That's the thing. If you were happy, you'd just log off and enjoy your life. Instead you're ranting, crying, and binging online.
If anybody really believed you were passionate about anything but yourself, you wouldn't get nearly as much attention as you do.
Masturbating on the couch? In his HOUSE? What a predator oh NO. Meanwhile you can’t tell me she never masturbated in that apartment while he was there. Besides. She probably made him sleep on the couch so technically wouldn’t that mean he was just doing that in his bed? Again, in HIS apartment that HE paid for?
And yes where is her proof that he ‘goes after young teenage girls’? Is that her knock at his new gf who seems to act more mature than heather ever has?
Adam traded in heather for a newer model so that makes him a pedo. Perfect logic heather.
>>939696>I don’t understand how someone who is disgusted by children (he’s stated this directly and indirectly by the way he’s reacted to kids/the memes he posts) could ever be a pedophile.
Dunno anything about Adam, but 'look! I hate X! I don't want anything to do with it, like ever!!!' is the oldest trick in the book of people that want to hide their unfulfilled obsessions and desires. It's like a kid saying that that toy that mommy refuses to buy them is stupid and for babies anyway.
In my opinion it's much mire suspicious that a guy claimes to be disgusted with kids. Most people thst don't want children in their life act indifferent about them.
Here’s a fun idea. Why don’t we just figure this shit out for ourselves instead of believing the cow? Since everyone seems to be so fascinated.
And also, you can certainly not like something and be disgusted by it. A lot of people have strong viewpoints.
And what’s so weird about him being excited to see his FAMILY? From what I heard, he was actually close to her family and she probably hated that and that’s why she continues to spin lies.
Masturbates on the couch all day? Sounds like she’s talking about herself. Obviously he went to work if he had to support her lazy ass.
idk if you're codependent, can't drive, don't work and a guy that you literally can't get away from
is jacking it in your eyeline when you have nowhere else to go, sounds pretty abusive
Why do you keep insisting that he just jacked off on the couch all day? He worked a full-time tech job, that simply does not make any sense. White knight begone.>>940156
She had an entire room with a closet and bathroom to herself and, again, why are you idiots just believing her? We have video evidence of her lying and exaggerating about this divorce from day zero. No wonder she posts emotionally unstable rants claiming she was abused all day long, morons like you will go up to bat for her and feed her narc fuel supply at the mere suggestion.
Why are we now
okay believing what Heather has to say? Because it's about Adam? Because it's about a woman being hypothetically "abused" by a man? This board is so quick to be intensely catty and suspicious of shit until a man enters the picture, then it's full-blown retard city. Seriously, if you all have posted in this thread before ragging on Heather for her other wildly unfounded accusations about the toy community, the BJD community, or her "haters," and only know are you choosing to believe something she has to say, you're braindead and hypocritical.
Because she needs something to gain pity points from her ‘fans’. Because she probably hasn’t finalized her divorce yet and is probably trying to create a front to try and get something out of said divorce. Again, she’s probably lying, exaggerating most of this. Adam is an asshole, yeah, but he doesn’t seem like the perv/creep she’s trying to make him out to be. People who are in the wrong typically feel the need to constantly defend and reassure (Heather). Have we ever seen him do this, even once? The fact that anyone here is suddenly stupid enough to believe her now…
I agree with the other anon. If you want answers to these questions so bad, find someone who would know and be truthful, and ask them.
>>939904>>939905>Other people just don't want me to be happy
The projection. She can't manage to be happy on her own so that lack of happiness has to be everyone else's fault. I wonder if she's getting all this from Clay. I don't think she's friends with any of his friends at all. I feel like they're both just enabling negative, defeatist, self-isolating ideologies in each other.
She says she's over the negative thinking but this "the world is against me" is the epitome of negative thinking. All her problems would be solved if she'd just own up to the things she's done wrong and take some personal responsibility, then be self-critical. Of course, she only seems intent on digging her hole deeper. These were both deleted less than an hour after being posted.>>940081
That doesn't mean he was sexually attracted to them.>>940156
Not sure if you're being sarcastic or you just forgot Heather has legs.>>940158
Unless he was forcing her to be present and watch, no, it's not assault. Maybe it made her uncomfortable but discomfort is not the basis of sexual assault, deliberate removal of power is.
The only valid
grounds she'd have for a sexual assault claim is if she asked him to do it somewhere else and informed him it made her uncomfortable and he refused and antagonized her with it. However, we won't know what the whole picture is.
The bottom line is that she's making these vague allegations immediately following a series of meltdowns, as a way to justify them and self-diagnose PTSD despite being awfully disgusting towards mental health in every other case. She isn't coming out about sexual assault in solidarity, she isn't engaging in a calculated call-out to prevent future incidents. She's grasping at anything and everything she can use to explain her emotional instability instead of just seeking out the proper avenues to deal with it.
If he really did all these bad things, then she can collect the evidence and use it in divorce proceedings as a basis of why she had to leave the marriage, not fumble around in an Insta story she deletes 20min later because she thinks simply throwing accusations will magically absolve her of all guilt and give her leverage against critics.>>940162
Agree 100%, Anon. When I shared those videos, I'd hoped people who've had more experience with Heather and Adam might have some better input but I figured it'd turn into a battle of opinion. I know this is probably a sensitive topic to some people and victims
often struggle to be believed, but Heather has a history of lying and being snippy towards Adam. He's by no means a saint and definitely seemed to lie and misunderstand boundaries, but that doesn't mean he was predatory or pedophiliac. >>940174
She keeps throwing him under the bus because despite saying she doesn't need to validate herself, she does anyway because she knows she's sitting on a throne of lies and half-truths. Paranoia of being exposed runs deep.
Agreed. Don't know anything about Adam either. But just because you're disgusted by small children doesn't mean you're not into young teenage girls. They're completely different.
Sorry to blogpost, but I feel it's relevant. The adult guy who groomed me at 14 also said he hated small kids. It was actually part of his playbook. "I don't like kids. But you're not a kid, you're so mature…"
Again, not saying anything about adam either way. But there is proof on the previous boards that he is a creep towards women. Things don't have to be black and white, and it doesn't excuse the way Heather is acting.
Okay yes but as someone who knows him, his other friends, heather, etc, he’s not like that. This whole discussion is just wrong and it’s no better than heather’s accusations. This could all be used in a defamation suit. Let’s make it clear he is not into kids, teenagers, or anyone under the legal age. Just because guys date women younger than them does not mean they’re creeps or pedos. Most guys just like to date younger women. This needs to stop because these jumping to conclusions and false accusations could result in him losing his job. Like the guy or hate him, wanting that is pretty fucked up. I’m pretty sure he’s just trying to escape the aftermath of his shitshow marriage, and as someone who went through the same thing, this is just sad.
Why everyone is suddenly so obsessed with the idea of Adam being into kids is fucking weird. If you have a fetish you want fulfilled, this isn’t the place for it. Making criminal accusations like that without any proof is a really bad idea. Heathers word is not solid proof. We don’t believe any other goddamn thing she says (with good reason) so why are you suddenly believing this?
>>”older threads” what the fuck proof was there then? More ‘heather said?’
Heather said he was creepy towards her sister? Heather also said her mom hates her guts and would never speak to or help her again and yet look who she’s living with. Isn’t it quite possible that she’s lying about this too?
Heather literally had an entire room to herself in that apartment. Not to mention, Adam had a full time job and was at work most of the day. She's obviously exaggerating, but it isn't like they were cramped in some small space and she was forced to watch him sit on the couch. Even if Adam truly is a shit person, he has every right to lay on the couch during his down time considering he was the one providing for them both.
I don't understand the slander against Adam now when she hasn't been with him for over a year. She's so comfortable sharing all of this information now, when all the evidence we've gotten (like those videos of her screaming at him) only makes her look bad, but she didn't attempt to do anything while she was still in the situation? That makes sense.
I'm all for the #MeToo movement, but Heather is a known liar and manipulator and I'm not sure why people are so quick to take her side.
That's what I don't understand. In the videos that >>939577
posted, Heather claims that she talked with her mother about this and her mother agreed that Adam was a creep, and they felt uncomfortable having him around. If this is true, why didn't they do anything about it back then? Why didn't they start to gather evidence on him while it was happening? Or put a stop to it since they knew what was going on.
To me, the fact that she spoke to her mother about it is further proof that Heather is a liar. All she has done is talk shit on her mom up until she moved back in, and even now she pretends that she's just in a temporary living arrangement and NOT living with her parents again. She's so quick to throw the people in her life under the bus if it can make her look like a better person. The political differences she claims she had with her mother? I call bs.
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Here it comes, another gofundme in the future .
Her computer shit the bed and now she seems to think she can't sell online? She said her
"only option" is to go buy a printer that can connect to her phone so she can print shipping labels. I sell online all the time and don't own a printer. Why is her solution to problems always to spend money???
She also said "I don't know if my computer is under attack from a certain individual" which is a whole new level of paranoia.
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Aaaaand stories are deleted and now replaced with this.
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Re: posts this morning, I feel like Heather posts more about why she can't go out and "adventure" than actually adventuring…
Second video. Didn't get the first one you guys are talking about with the accusations I can assume are toward Adam because of his career in computers. That's ridiculous though. He has zero way of getting malware on her computer unless she clicked a shady link.https://streamable.com/e27t6
It sounds like her CPU dying, from what she says. Windows just did an update that fucked with some people's computers but since her boyfriend went to school for computers I'm sure he's already suggested everything that could diagnose that.
She says she's going to buy a printer for her iphone, which could run 200$ if she's using one for letter paper. I assume her printer must not have AirPrint. Heather, the library is right there. If you want to save up money for a new laptop, don't spend it on something you don't even need. You have an iphone which you use to record these Insta videos, you don't need your several hundred dollar Canon to vlog right now. Someone suggested the library on her latest post and she said she can't because the library doesn't have lightroom. There's a wealth of online photo editing tools.
For such a creative person, she has no adaptability.
The over-emotional reaction leading to things like straight-up accusing Adam of attacking her computer and believing her life and all her hobbies and everything that makes her to be over is another drop in the bucket towards Cluster B. When it's good it's great, when it's bad it's awful and everything's over. I can't imagine what it's like being in a relationship with someone like that.
She's baiting her new Ryan to save her, nevermind a gofundme…what a pathetic waste of space.
Hmm wonder why she can't afford to get it fixed? Or even a refurbished one under $500?….could it be karma for buying a new camera she can't honestly justify spending money on?
I think so.
10 gallons of crazy in a 5 gallon bucket ladies and gents. You get what you give.
Let the shit show begin!!
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How does she not know such a rudimentary detail about her boyfriend who she's determined is "the one"? Does their relationship just consist of them going to the mall and talking about how unique they are? That's some real 90s goth there.
Her CPU is over-heating and throttling. Either the thermal paste is shot, or I wouldn't be surprised if she uses it in bed and covers the vents with blankets.
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When will she learn. You don’t need to vent, Heather, you need to learn how to manage your emotions. No matter what else is going on, taking to Instagram to flip out and say you’re done for and allege your ex husband is attacking your computer is not an appropriate response to a computer problem, especially when you have alternatives.
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>>940731>leads me to believe
If something is overheating you don’t continue to damage it further by using it. Sort and photograph your toys to list, read a book. Or else your laptop and whatever is on it might go from salvageable to a total lost cause.
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First off, you made the decision to go apeshit about it and post it for all to see. Sure play it off as some joke as you continue to have embarrassing meltdowns on the internet and wonder why people talk about you.
Second, I hope this doesn't mean she has been keeping her computer on all day everyday even when not in use? How could she be so dense?
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This isn’t just limited to Heather but I really wish people like her would stop taking words on Instagram as gospel. If doing what’s best for you pisses “a lot” of people off, maybe you’re not a great person.
I think they meant that, in light of something probably "overheating," it wouldn't be a good idea to just leave it on …>>941370
She posts the most juvenile inspirational pics; I swear it's what a 12 yr old would find profound, ugh
I feel like Heather spending her 20s a deliberate NEET has just stunted her growth immensely. She's had next to zero life experience to humble her and nothing to really challenge her worldview. She only ever seems to want things to go according to her expectations and loses her mind over minor setbacks like this computer thing. Instead of owning up to the fact that her reaction was unnecessary she'll just call it venting, blame someone else, blame an outside factor, anything other than sitting down and thinking critically about her actions. Your computer didn't make you do anything. People who rely on their computer for all their income have computer issues all the time and they don't '''vent'''' to an audience of over 3,000 people and act like it's the end of the world and then accuse an ex of hacking them.
The only people I've ever known like that in their 30s have only gotten worse over time. They're a lost cause and most of them deny anything is wrong because they've made it that far so clearly everything's fine. It doesn't help that her boyfriend seems to be enabling and supporting her behaviour.>>941528
It depends, but getting into the details would be wildly off-topic. It's not terrible but you have to clean it out more and Heather doesn't seem like she'd do that much. There's zero reason to leave a PC on all the time if you're running on SSD and I assume Adam built it within the past few years so she probably is.>>941900
Yeah. If its her CPU she risks frying it, and that's going to be the most costly thing to replace- more expensive than her camera. She said she cleaned it out which is good but she probably needs new thermal paste.
She's been pretty silent the past couple days. Hardly any quotes even. Holding out hope her string of breakdowns over the past couple weeks lead to some serious thinking.
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incoming rant in photo form
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>>941949>Holding out hope her string of breakdowns over the past couple weeks lead to some serious thinking.
Oh god damnit, Remind me never to have hope for this boisterous hag and her emotionally deficient ways.>>942191>>942192>Queen
You think you're a queen but you act like a spoiled, bratty princess because that's how you spent your 20s and that's what's been ingrained into your mind.>I offer no apology for […]
No, you offer no apology, period, and then create a strawman because "People hate me for changing my lifestyle" is easier than "People are disgusted with me for how I acted and continue to act.">I'm allowed to be spooky and still love old toys.
Does she just think that once you pick a lifestyle, you have to align with every facet of that lifestyle? Heather the only person who seems to think it's strange to be "goth" and like toys is you, because you're the only person who keeps talking about it.>I'm not Heather Explains
Then wtf you doin in these posts every week?>I break the rules
What rules? I know about a dozen people who are just like you, but a lot more down-to-earth.>you can keep being a miserable, jealous being
There's nothing to be jealous about. You're not successful, you don't have a respectable personality. You rely on external validation to do anything so you're not independent. You're hardly even driven or disciplined when all you are is talk, talk, talk.>feel SO insecure
If you're so strong and secure, why do you keep making these rants? You know what strong, secure people do? They just exist, they don't have to stand on a podium and announce to the world how wonderful they are and "fuck the haters" at least once a week. That's a sign of someone who doesn't believe what they're saying about themselves, like when creepos call themselves "nice guys" and then scream at women.
Switching to mobile to post the others Anon missed, and one from earlier.
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The fact that she always does these over same-y selfies is also a sign of self-obsession.
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>>942219>gave up on popularity and success
Actions speak louder than words, girl.>became a villain
And I’m sure calling your ex husband a pedophile in a very public rant while providing no evidence and shaky anecdotes and then accusing him of hacking your computer is not in any way malicious and villainous? >you were never a real friend
So those friends who tried to help you when you were on the outs with Adam and ended up blocked were only in it for the sparkles? Was Dera only in it for the sparkles? Nobody made you a villain, Heather. People choose to be villainous and are regarded accordingly. Nobody who loses their entire social circle is ever an innocent victim
Last one. So much for her diet. Again.
Every one of her rants are the same shit. Either she's depressed and the "haturz are making her quit" or she's manic and "no one can stop her, not even the jelly haturz". She's becoming so predictable and boring. Just imagine if she actually put as much effort into creating content as she did stressing out about lolcow.>>942196
Imagine thinking you need to adhere to only one style of dress at a time and loudly defending keeping an ugly pastel sweater to a bunch of strangers on the internet. The whole "I wear black now, get over it" really does seem like less of a personal preference than some weird edgy teen phase at this point. She's so stunted.
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Sage because it’s not terribly “milky” but these were some posts she had up and quickly deleted in favor of the series of features she had last night, and it’s peculiar she deleted them but left up a couple other posts unrelated to the features.
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It was just another case of Heather talking about why she can’t do something so either she realized they were pointless and deleted them, or saw the criticisms here.
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I doubt we'll be surprised. But glad to hear you're having multiple rare days off.
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Beat me to it, Anon. Missed the second part tho.
All deleted, obviously.>>942943>dealing with people who just won't let me be happy.>Other people trying to censor and control me
Comments on her stuff are either disabled or mutuals only. She can see previews of Insta messages and ignore them. She acts like she's being routinely harassed by a mob but not only is that not happening, she's kept her social media on lockdown so it factually can't. Her pumpkin carving video is completely unmoderated and the perfect place to comment these threats and toxicity, but all there is, is legitimate grievances. >I'm just to old for this
You're too old to be having weekly Insta stories meltdowns and not actually owning up to all the problems you created through your own poor choices, and too old to continue latching onto grade school to justify your self-defeating isolationism, but go off I guess.>I'm happy
You clearly aren't, and you refuse to actually make the proper choices to address that.>This goes back to middle school
Yes, you were the only person in the entire world who was every bullied in grade school so all your habits and ideologies are totally acceptable and not the sign of a deep-rooted problem. Stop blaming -children- from over a decade ago for your behaviour as an adult, Heather.
When the majority doesn't act as you do, maybe you're doing something wrong. If you're thirty years old and still using middle school bullies to explain your depression and isolation, you might need to think critically about that.>>942962
She has a bad cold now. Stick around for the next chapter in the Heather Saga: "I think I have corona virus. I'm going to die and I'll never be able to Youtube again and it's all the fault of [my ex husband/the haters/my parents].>>943013>Just go be the best you already, broken records eventually get worn out.
Pretty much. But as far as I can tell, Heather hardly knows what "herself" actually is.
That is the worst excuse I've ever heard. FFs just get some sunglasses and use the sun visor like everyone else. >>942946
You're labeled as a poser because of your fake attitude and lack of depth, Heather. You don't fit in because your intentions are ingenuine from the start. That's not other people's fault if they recognize that and call you out for it.>>942810
I mean, there's Princess Peachie. She's like the anti-Heather. Although, she doesn't make videos much on her collecting any more, but she has many on her channel. She goes through most of her collection in her old flat tour video. https://www.youtube.com/user/PeachieAngelPrincess
Not just sunglasses, but she’s perfectly capable of walking around locally and doesn’t have to deal with driving with sun glare. I thought she lived in a fairly rural or suburban area with some graveyards in walking distance?
I just noticed her and Ryan 4 (Craig) are no longer mutuals on her main (still following witch of the lens but I don’t know how often she uses that one). I don’t recall seeing any posts about it but if he left, good for him.
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Lol wtf. If shes as sick as she’s claiming, why isn’t she telling him to stay away until next week to avoid spreading what she has?
"I'm sooooo sick you guys. Like so horribly sick I can't go out even though I want to soooo bad. I just want to throw up and I struggled to clean my room. I can totally bring myself to primp and get all dressed up though."
Jesus Christ lol.>>943167
Update: I glanced at both their profiles and he still has Likes on her posts, but none of hers are on his posts, which means he has her blocked. The Heathbeast claims another victim
.>for real though, I hope it was just a case of him getting fed up and pulling a virtual "leaving without a word in the middle of the night."
Godspeed Ryan no4. Run wild, run free! But most importantly, run far and quietly. And be glad that you got off easy.
I actually think he was my favourite Ryan. Much more hilarious than Ryan's 2 and 3, but not as obviously uncomfortable as ClayRyan.
I feel like people have just forgotten about Damian lol. He was never even considered a "Ryan".
He was by far the biggest mess because they kept breaking up and getting back together like, what, four times? And twice put each other on blast and she went buckwild with shit like this: >>838170
. Trashier than a TLC reality show.>>943236>Heather Explains rant
Lol'ed. It's like the shitty, whiney, vapid knockoff Clarissa Explains It All.
Probably recent, considering it looks like he Liked one of photos from the barrage she put out a couple days ago. That lines up with either the benign posts that got deleted >>942713
in favour of a dozen "Features" of other graveyard and urbex photogs (which I don't remember if he was a part of or not), or these: >>942943
Everything is only speculation, but I wonder if her "poser" rant was influenced by this. Either way, if it was silent she'll figure it out eventually and I hope he remembers to block her other five-fucking-hundred sockpuppets.
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But she’s so sick and “puking everywhere” part 1
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Part 2. Miraculous recovery once your boyfriend decides to come over because you’re so sick.
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Or someone asked her why the absolute fuck she was putting her boyfriends health at risk especially during a pandemic. Posting the previous ones just for record-keeping.
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Who THE FUCK ever taught this toddler how to dress?? I mean seriously, wanna add another tacky pattern to really draw it all together or what?? This dumb bread takes EVERYTHING to the extreme…including her 1990's smokey eye slapped on mask…ffs…
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Oh, and some bonus ClayRyan irony from his Tumblr.>>943262
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Holy shit! I just realized who clayryan looks like…
Woman has no sense of self. She needs makeup to literally feel human.
She ties her personality to her hobbies and appearance. No wonder she can't seem to understand why people don't like her. All she is, according to herself, is her hobbies and appearance, so why would other people view her any differently? It's honestly super sad.
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Quite the quick recovery from being sooooo horribly ill she wanted to puke everywhere, to being perfectly capable of going to a graveyard and the mall as long as someone else drove her. At least she’s not risking someone else’s health.
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Dropping this series and some personal observations.
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These are all awful like he wasn’t even trying to get a good photo and was just trying to get it over with. I don’t know if he was using he Canon or phone for these.
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Look at how blurry these are.
But more than that. For someone who claims to be so into old graveyards and whatnot, she doesn’t seem to know one of the number one rule of graveyard photography: Do not touch old graves. They’re not your fucking props, Heather. You risk damaging them, just like old sculptures in art galleries.
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Last one. He can take stellar photos of his weapons and dog but can't even manage a mildly decent photo of his girlfriend. Good priorities though.
Heather is not a reliable source for the status of her relationships and will flaunt the fuck out of someone for clout with zero regard for their actual feelings. A guy can be giving her the cold shoulder and she'll tell Instagram he's sooooo into her. When she last saw Ryan Z, both photos seemed like they were snuck without his knowledge so she could boast about being out with him, until something caused her to do a total 180, edit the caption, and start flipping out. She had the same giddy teenager attitude when she was taking photos and videos of him after using a Tinder date to stalk him in WV.
The thing about ClayRyan is that he’s kind of a coward when it comes to emotional things and will basically just not speak up because he wants to avoid conflict even if it means making things worse and hurting people. If he can just avoid the consequences, then nothing else matters.
I've known of him since 2010 through a close friend, and he and I had been friends since 2015. From what I know of him, it’s entirely possible he’s well aware of her rancid personality and has been essentially biting the bullet (pun intended) because of how quickly she put him on a pedestal and was saying he was “the one”. It’s probably easier for him to just suck it up and remain in a relationship but keep it fairly under wraps, than it is for him to break up or even ghost her because he knows she’ll have an enormous conniption. Or he feels like being supportive of things like her photography and hobbies will gradually "mend" her.
Her meltdowns (pep talks included) are reminiscent of some trouble both of us had years ago with a friend of mine who hit a terrible spot in life and latched onto us. Clay doesn’t like petty drama, is put off by people having unprovoked "episodes", but he’s patient with people to a fault. He's also not a fan of being treated as a trophy, and all I've seen from Heather is her usual shallow shit. "Look at my amazing boyfriend!" "Look at what my boyfriend bought me!" It's the usual "me me me" and pathetically shallow.
Clay has a local friend who I went to HS with who is also an active part of that antique shop and black metal coffee house he took Heather too. She's super into occult, graveyards, and literature. She seems like someone Heather would be fast friends with, but in all the time Cleather have been an item, there seems to be no sign these two are friends, even just online. Heather is not friends with any of his friends at all from what I've been told, which is doubly peculiar when you consider one of the biggest ways he could help little miss lonely is to introduce her to new friends. He keeps his relationships fairly private but not that private, especially if he’s as in love with her as she is with him.
The Tumblr thing earlier probably isn’t a case of cognitive dissonance, but doesn’t know how to get away from the harpy without triggering
So, sage for minimal "milk" but I figured I’d at least offer a little more perspective on the disaster. He's clearly not helping her get any better if Anons' comments about her meltdowns being more frequent are anything to go off. Craig seemed like one of her big supporters so him having her blocked now is a sign of something.
I see a number of directions this could end up going but none of them are the pretty, fairytale future she seems to want. Heather is basically just Courtney Love'ing him.>>943506
Not even half of Heather could fit in the backseat of his car.>>943378
Yeah, I don't get it either. For how "adventurous" she claims to be, she seems to pick the least adventurous places.
Oh, sorry for doublepost but I forgot another point in the “Heather is probably exaggerating their relationship”.
They see each other Mondays and Heather claims it’s because they’re adults and work all the time, but it’s been two weeks in a row she’s also made a remark about having at least four days off.
Clay works two jobs and it’s likely his hours have changed but one is early in the morning weekdays and the other is inconsistent hours but not every day and he’s close enough to the owners that he can request time off. Monday’s it’s closed and Sundays it’s reduced hours. In the spring and summer, shooting season happens and he’s usually busy doing other outdoorsy stuff too.
The last time we saw each other he rearranged his schedule and drove 5hrs each way to hang out Fri-Sun morning. So if he can manage the time for that, it’s peculiar that they’re only seeing each other once a week when they only have an hour between them and she hardly works.
There have been others (kewtqween) but they haven't received anywhere as many views as Heather and a few have given up relatively quickly which continues to prove the theory that people weren't exactly watching Heathers videos because of the content but because she came across as rather babyish and had the advantage of appealing to kids despite owning toys that most wouldn't really relate to or be interested in normally. She spoke in a childish voice, had pink hair and acted like a kid (with enticing video thumbnails) which meant that she appealed to a lot of teenagers not mature adults. There are other toy collectors that produce regular quality content and have no where near the amount of subscribers because they behave in a more grown-up manner and youngsters simply don't find that as attractive. She fell into the trap though of being a supposed toy enthusiast by making her channel more and more about kawaii fashion etc because she'd seen some of the most popular toy collectors on Instagram happen to be interested in fair-kei/kawaii culture as a whole. She represented the very thing many of us adult toy collectors detest the most, which is the stereotype that to collect toys from that era (80's/90's) that happen to be colorful or pastel in color, you're also retarded, childish and are only interested in the so-called pastel aesthetic that is all the rage at the moment. Very boring, unoriginal and restrictive. She started to behave in a manner that she deemed was how most folks that collect toys from that time period act. Considering most people that were kids at that time are around 30+ years of age now, I'm not convinced many of them would be drawn to her silly persona. Take Bellastoychest for example, she collects toys (mainly those that are usually associated with men) and although her… urm cleavage is the main allure to male viewers, she does come across as truly enthusiast about collecting and preserving toys and she has a sense of humour but isn't juvenile, plus she's about the same age as Heather. I follow many people who happen to like the fairy-kei fashion trend who also collect toys but with Heather it didn't feel right and she obviously wasn't being genuine about how much she wanted to wear colourful clothes and have fantasy colored hair because she decided to toss that all aside and wear mainly black clothes with a bit of white. Yawn. Don't know why people limit themselves by wearing only certain colors etc but she could have worn a range of clothing, from goth, to cute and funky and still continued with toy videos if she'd been truly passionate about toy collecting but she proved she hadn't been honest and then had the audacity to turn on other toy collectors. There is an opportunity for someone to fill the void she's left on youtube and I think it's only a matter of time before it will happen. Someone far more alluring than her will probably come on the scene and be far more positive and informed than she was.
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And once again. How? The only way people can even contact her to "harass" her is through messages she can see previews of and choose to ignore. The only thing that could possibly be driving her away from Youtube is her own fucking paranoia and lack of motivation.>>943581>>943591
Re: her style change, it was confirmed back in the first threads by her own words that all her changes were to win Ryan Z over by crafting someone that would appeal to him. Her attacks toward your community were to prove to him that Sparkles was just a fake persona she >>815808>>814701>>815930
I know there's more but I don't feel like pouring through all the nonsense to find them.
Anon looking for alternatives to Heather, this was in an old thread, does it help you at all?https://youtu.be/0gbMbK2eLgI
I also found this when looking for the evidence of her changing for Ryan. Here's the post where she says she's going to match the donations to a women's shelter, which of course she hasn't, and just spent several hundred on a new camera, lens, 2 bags, and more expensive metallic prints for a shop she's been talking about opening for six months now, but I guess that was all a massive waste of money.>>862174>>943715
She said she showed him her Sparkles stuff and explained it all to him, obviously giving him the Heather-brand run-down but he's not retarded and after all her meltdowns as of late, I'm sure he'll begin to get suspicious and do his own investigating. He does know about this thread. Heather cannot front and hide her ugly truth forever.
>>943766>I'm sure he'll begin to get suspicious and do his own investigating
I wonder how he'll feel once he.'ll learn that Ryan no1, Ryan no2, Ryamian, Ryan no 3, and Ryan no 4 (tadpole Ryan) were all at one point "the one."
Or that she took her tinder date to stalk Ryan no 2.
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She did exactly what I expected her to do and is posting all these Clay posts because she now has to “prove” their relationship. All I see is a narc trying to show off her trophy boyfriend with flowery words to woo him and not a grown woman who truly loves and respects her s/o.
The comment under the boot one is amusing as hell because her boots are perfectly clean and hardly even a scuff because she doesn’t actually go on any adventures.>>943777
Yep. Ryan 1 was the person who meant everything to her, and she and Adam called him manipulative because he tried to help them. Ryan Z was worth rewriting herself for but once he no longer fit that idealistic image because I can only assume he tried to let her down easy, he was gone. Ryamian was “her world” and the person she wanted to build a future with, but every time they parted she was perfectly okay with putting him on blast and when they got together again there was no apology or correction.
Clays notoriously lonely which is probably why she’s had an easy time manipulating him, kinda like Damian actually. The only men who seem to put up with her are men who have their own pain and insecurity, and her shallow brand of love makes them feel good.
Definitely get the vibe that she's way more into him than he is her. I imagine with her very open schedule, her over eagerness to see him, low expectations/being excited over any little thing he does, etc. makes her a fairly easy to maintain girlfriend aside from her constant mini breakdowns. She seems like she's always riding the high of hanging around him when he is around though, so maybe he doesn't even have to deal with it and that's why she's still taking to the internet to cry and vent endlessly about everything?
Really though. She's the type of girl you take on a stroll through a target and that's a "date". Dude barely has to try and she's screeching on about how "omg amazing!!!" he is.
“People were afraid of me in school”
But didn’t she claim to be bullied for being different in some old video? I wouldn’t be surprised if she was actually the asshole.
“All I would do is go out and shop.”
Umm, don’t you still only do that???
Haha, this bitch is delusional as hell, “why I’m hurt.” The fuck out of here. She’s just trying to salvage whatever follower count she’s lost, is what it comes off as.
She definitely looks like she has gained weight, but she also looks much rougher and older (e.g. broader face, lines) without her usual 100 layers of selfie filters.
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Invid link. I'm still not 100% sure this prevents view revenue, but it's worth a shot and it blocks ads for those who don't have adblockers:https://invidio.us/watch?v=eou8fvFU6jI
>I'm over it
No you aren't.>The fashion change
Strawman. Again.>I just felt so insecure all the time
All your behaviour since your Ryan-inspired goth witch phase has shown nothing but insecurity. You talk about how you don't have to explain anything but you do anyway. You're incredibly focused on your image.>all changes in my life means I need to go see a doctor and I'm very sick
You meet multiple criteria for multiple mental illnesses. A casual observer can see that you're unwell, and it's not the fault of others because even if people were waging war on you for dressing goth, your reactions are not a healthy response. >You really wanted me to stay in a life I was so unhappy in?
Wut? People telling you that you need to see a doctor is not people saying you need to stay with Adam, it's people saying you need to be responsible for your own health and well-being and seeing a doctor would have also assisted you in getting out of his house. The fuck is this statement, even?>It just felt like people didn't see the human being behind the content.
Just went and watched that video, she doesn't mention her divorce or alleged abuse. Afaik from what I've seen in this thread, a majority of her Adam stuff at that time was on Snapchat, FB, and Insta. I'm sure she's exaggerating the number of comments she was getting, and you can't blame people who aren't familiar with her or only knew her through Youtube for not knowing the whole picture or why that stuff was in bags, so to accuse those people of being cruel and caring more about toys than a person is short-sighted and feels like she's just further trying to pull guilt trips and pity parties.>I'll do my hair and makeup and not know what I want to film
First of all, you do not NEED to do your hair and makeup, especially if you're just going out on adventures.>trying to ruin my life
You just mentioned going to other youtubers channels and reading their comments, do you see them having to disable comments and constantly talk about the haters? Your responses are your own.>>943929
God, I knew it the moment she started getting all dressed up she was going to make a Youtube video despite saying she was done for.>>943949
You guys keep comparing her to an old lady, and her repeating herself over and over just makes her look like she has dementia.
So, here, >>942715
she says she has three days off. I think I recall seeing a post claiming four days off, but I guess it wasn't logged. Four weeks ago there was this >>932780
40 hours would mean she needs to be working ten hour days, but Target's shifts don't exceed 8hrs and that's not factoring lunch break, which for an 8hr shift is about 45mins.>>943963
He didn't send her one, he Like'd one of her Instagram posts from yesterday.
Maybe I'm wrong. He might not be retarded, but he's so emotionally raw he's willing to accept the shallow love of someone like Heather. Wouldn't be the first time I've seen someone lose themselves in the flowery speech of a clinical narcissist. It's only been two months though, so I doubt they've had to deal with many conflicts and lovers quarrels.
Everything she ever says about him is he did this for me, he gave me this. She never talks about who he is or talks up his hobbies and goals or why she thinks he's such a wonderful person outside from how he does things for her. She only ever talks about what she gets from him. That's not love, that's idealization and codependency. I'm sure she compliments him on stuff, but her public flaunting of him reeks of that kind of self-serving, shallow obsession and he's treated like a retaining wall for her "wonderful new life".>>944064
I think her sickness was just a bug going around work and she was likely exaggerating it but is so clingy that she can magically drop that if being horribly ill meant she wouldn't get to see him that week. I think she's always ate junk food it's just more apparent now because she's hopped on the Mukbang trend. Anon might be right in that she's more emotional because she's trying to keep up a persona with ClayRyan and fears she'll scare him away if she rants to him all the time instead, and I think him being in her life but not putting his foot down and telling her to stop it with the instability and meltdowns means she thinks that it's perfectly healthy to "vent" every time her mood drops.
If it is true though, that would be a mess because they don't have the time, space, or finances for a newborn.
Also I keep forgetting this, but if her family criticized her goth phase and political beliefs so much, how exactly are they okay with her dating a heavily tattoo'ed guy with a mohawk?>>944088
Not to WK, but she's looking down at her phone in the first one and has overhead store lights, and the second one she probably spent more time pushing her chin out to get a good shot and has her professional lighting.
You could try Rosemaryonette, she's into the so-called pastel aesthetic, is known for her amazing make-up designs, and collects toys. She is interested in a range of toys not just vintage, but generally cute, kitcsh, creepy cute and some more bizarre but interesting and comical vintage dolls/figurines. As she has a real job she only posts videos now and again when she can as filming and editing can be somewhat time-consuming but if you haven't watched her videos yet it's certainly worth checking her channel out.
Sarahstrikesback is a collector of vintage toys (not really into kawaii fashion) but stopped making videos as she's much more successful on Instagram and it's far less hassle taking photographs than making videos where you spend the majority of the time rendering only then to get a few hundred views after several months. Again she has a more mature outlook than Heather.
That would be both hilarious, and deeply tragic for any potential child. Nobody needs a narc as a mom. She'd just show that baby off, and then let other people deal with it until it's old enough to provide narcissistic supply for her.
But honestly, I think she's just fat. She's had a history with binging, and she lost a lot of weight before. She just couldn't keep it off. If anything, she probably feels like shit because her diet is terrible and her exercise regimen non-existant. If you go from a relatively healthy diet and working out to eating lots of sugar and fat, and a sedentary lifestyle without the dopamine of regular exercise, it's going to affect your mood.
If she binges and gets high on sugar and fat, and then crashes and feels bad about her choices that could really exasperate her mood swings.
Thank you to the anon who saved the video!
I couldn't finish watching, it's so redundant. It's the same shit over and over. She's like stale bread growing mold.
The bottom line is that she reads this shit on here and goes into panic mode. Listen, if you want to wear black, just fuckin wear it, no one cares. But to keep justifying why you do, it's stupid and a waste of time.
She can live her life, no one on here or Instagram is stopping her but herself. Go make whatever videos you want, just don't expect to get the same views or watchers like you used to.
There are a ton of people who collect vintage toys on instagram, no one needs heather to do it. In fact, there are so many instagrammers who collect vintage toys who have better pictures then what she posted. Her pictures were overly filtered, just like her selfies.
I need to mention this but, my god heather, that hair color really doesn't suit you. It makes you hair look dirty and greasy. If she went with a nice brown color, she would look so much better. This platinum blonde color is gross on her.
Lastly, COLLECT WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT. A lot of people stopped giving a shit on what you do in your life. But you dragging it out and constantly reminding people that people hate you for changing is ridiculous. Get over yourself. You like vintage toys still? Great. You like old vintage photos? Great. Keep posting what you like, just stop whining like a bitch.
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I think this trip was with Damian. I get that she’s apparently editing and seeing these but imagine dating this girl and watching her post melodramatic song lyrics about an ex from months ago. I guess Clay Ryan isn’t good enough to heal all her wounds.
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And old milk but when trying to figure out of that was a reference to Damian ir Ryan I found this. Poor Clay Ryan has to live in Ryan’s shadow.
Talking about what she plans to do with her channel, and if she actually goes through with it it's one step in the right direction, but she's still bringing up the "hate". She's on a new Heather Explains, this time about "disrespecting graves". People minding their damn business walking in graveyards get it from crotchety old ladies all the time, so what? As long as you respect the specific graveyard's rules and don't use them as props/touch them unnecessarily, it's fine, but she has a tendency to use graves as props and touch them unnecessarily like in the photos from Monday.>>944117>Nobody needs a narc as a mom
The thing about NPD is that it's an inherited trait because those habits become ingrained during developmental years. Narc parents make narc kids who in turn make more narc kids until one manages the self-awareness and responsibility to end the cycle, which is why I personally think raising awareness of Narcs is incredibly important. Recognising clinical narcissism helps prevent future kids from having to grow up in those awful environments, and people like Heather who SHOULD be getting professional help to treat those traits.
They grow up with this idea that image is everything and subjective imperfections are a grave sin. I don't disbelieve Heather about some aspects of her upbringing and I can totally see her being an outcast who was mocked and had people "fake scared" of her. I can see her parents being typical narcs who were super strict on things like her appearance, behaviour, choices, and performance. But she refuses to actually address any of that trauma and the subsequent behaviours outside of blaming others for "giving her PTSD" while still shitting on the mental health community.>>944162>Thank you to the anon who saved the video!
Welcome. I figured she would deleted it because of the nature of it so I grabbed it quick.>>944508>>944514
She's not pregnant. Her having morning sickness would mean she'd have gotten pregnant less than half a month into her relationship with Clay. He's not the type who would be irresponsible enough to knock up a chick he just met, and hopefully I'm not wrong about that. Neither of them have the time, space, or money for a newborn, and IMAGINE the PPD she'd have (I don't want to, honestly).
Didn't an Anon say they knew Adam and Heather (the one who confirmed he's not a pedo)? Do they know if the divorce is finalized? I feel like Adam is stuck between a rock and a hard place because he probably just wants to live his life and be free, and knows how much of a mess the divorce will be.
Doublepost because she made another one. I'm gonna fuckin commit sudoku.
I don't like belittling at someone having a panic attack but I guess I find it hard to empathize with someone who keeps talking about how independent they are and dangles it above everyone (and from her neck, apparently), but can't even manage to do anything on her own, and aggressively refuses any sort of therapy for her veritable cocktail of mood and anxiety problems.https://streamable.com/4fiwc
STAGE 5 CLINGER HAS BREACHED CONTAINMENT.https://streamable.com/chzp6
(wait a couple seconds for sound)https://streamable.com/f18t0https://streamable.com/oq5bm
Other Anon got the rest of it while I was uploading everything, so only the beginning of this is fresh.
The thrilling (debatable) conclusion of the latest saga. In which Heather is okay (but is she, really?). She also has to pee really bad but has to do a lot of walking. This is the part when she drops trying to appeal to the feet crowd and the feeder crowd and starts trying to make bank off a different fetish (she didn't say this, but you all must now suffer the thought).
Heather is not okay. She also almost got kidnapped at a Walmart parking lot apparently. Now she's at home stress eating. She's also cringe but like, she has to make that cringe marketable, instead of going to therapy.
Her boyfriend and photography are the most important things in the world to her, which isn't codependency and likely to make him feel suffocated at all.
Is this what she's like in real life? Or is this just an Alex Jones kinda thing? I can't imagine what it must be like talking to this girl. Even when she has the opportunity to say something meaningful, engaging, and intellectual like her vintage shelf video, all she does is focus on herself. Butts Cassidy has GOT to be getting tired of this.
I would honestly rather listen to a man getting his balls caught in a zamboni than listen to what Heather has to say most of the time.>>944776
Yeah I was trying to grab everything. My phone is running out of space so I hope this goddamn gas station Emilie Autumn can shut up for the rest of the night.
Agreed. She literally had a chip falling out of her mouth. Complaining about the calories in vegan pizza while stuffing her face with chips.
Who the hell would want to kidnap heather? Has she been watching youtube videos about the dangers of white vans.
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Goddammit she needs to get off the internet.https://www.insider.com/suspicious-white-van-unfounded-facebook-stories-causing-mass-hysteria-2019-12
Poor guy was probably just getting something at walmart and ended up staring at the hysterical grandma who couldn't handle driving.
Yeah, honestly I was thinking “isn’t this like those human trafficking hoaxes thatve been going around?”
Also when you think about it… given the time she shared that on Insta, plus the time it would have taken for her panicky ass to calm down, it would have happened around 8pm. It wouldn’t be entirely dark out yet.
According to Google Maps and looking at the Brownsville parking lot, it would be incredibly difficult if not impossible to get away with a kidnapping without a soul noticing.
I’d bet she saw a van with two guys minding they damn business and started freaking out and they were staring on, confused by what was going on, and she just spun a story out of that so she could once again justify another stupid fucking mood swing and get attention instead of taking a lick of responsibility for herself.
Good job lying about something serious using a rumour that’s gotten innocent people killed, Heather.
Three things and them I'm off to have the adventures this conceited swamp demon wishes she had, so if she posts more video rants, please someone record them.
Confirmed Craig definitely sides against Heather now. He shared an obvious reference to her freakouts yesterday. I'm not going to share a screenshot because I respect and empathize with people who have the mind to recognize how fucked up she is and leave.
Her latest story, Clay obviously looks incredibly uncomfortable, but whether that's with the relationship or with her dragging into into a completely pointless selfie yet again, who knows. She has the caption "miss you" but you just saw him four days ago, Heather, you goddamn sea urchin.
She's removed the "Live YOUR life" caption that she was giving herself ass-pats for here >>937125
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I’m surprised this has never been discussed here but I’m so utterly baffled by this person. They comment on every single one of her photos with a solid paragraph treating her like she’s a flawless saint. I’d say beta orbiter but this person appears to be an older woman judging from her posts.
I googled the name and she comments on other people’s instagram posts too. She just seems like some older religious woman who wants to be supportive but doesn’t seem to grasp the dangers of feeding the destructive ego of someone like Heather.
once I came home and saw it again the ClayRyan photo seems to be from their first malldate, not recent, based off their outfits. He still looks so uncomfortable though. There hasn’t been photos of them together in a while. Just her holding a limp hand.
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Dropping the pic for reference for other anons. It's definitely an old pic.
Yeah. His expression made (and still makes) me so vividly uncomfortable that I couldn't look at the photo for more than the two seconds it shows up on her stories. I don't get how this girl can see that and go, "Yeah, this looks like a perfectly happy couple, I should post this!" Maybe Adam was right and she is autistic.
Clay unfortunately won't speak up when he's uncomfortable, and will typically just back away in that discomfort, but I understand that's virtually impossible with Heather because of how goddamn clingy and entitled she is, and how she's already latched onto him hard enough to be making worrying statements like "The only things that matter to me are my photography and my boyfriend." I don't get how this screeching croissant can say things like that and still delude herself into thinking she's so independent. When you put objects and people in the position of power over your self worth, you're risking severe emotional distress when you lose those objects and people. Typically the things that should matter the most are your hobbies and beneficial personality traits– things you have power over. Her photography is an okay thing to latch onto like that, but she needs to not depend so much on Clay because all she's doing is making him feel like he's bound to her forever.
Someone being that important isn't romantic, it means that you've basically trapped them in an emotional cage because if he ever were to tell her that he wants to break up, she'd likely have one of her biggest meltdowns yet. That's what I assume happened with Ryan Z; she didn't want his platonic friendship, she wanted him to put on her shelf, and when he made it clear that would NEVER happen, she freaked out. Everything to Heather is an object to stick on a shelf, including these men.
He looks like he's been taken hostage. Blink twice for help ClayRyan.
Here's to hoping the coronavirus scare will keep heather at home and he can have a bit of a breather.
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The psycho commenter is definitely a deluded fan…how sad.
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Yeah i wouldn’t be scared or panicked either if I had a mommy like hers as a safety net.
>>945357>Here's to hoping the coronavirus scare will keep heather at home and he can have a bit of a breather.
Silly Anon, a virus scare will only keep Heather from her "adventures". She's already shown she can go from wanting to vomit everywhere and hardly being able to get out of bed, to being well enough to have her boyfriend drive out and gallivant around with her within the span of three hours.>>945456
Two more in Allegheny (PGH) today. In reality there's probably hundreds more cases in western PA alone, just that many people weren't getting tested or couldn't due to accessibility. She works at a major department store and has had a higher chance of exposure for months, which is why it was incredibly stupid and selfish of her to make her boyfriend visit while she was allegedly really ill, especially considering he works, lives, and shoots around older people.>>945453
All her stuff about blocking people is bull. >>945415
Yep! And her rapid attachment. She idealizes him and probably love-bombs him if her public presentation is anything to go off of. I pointed this out earlier, but every time she posts about him, it's not about him, but about what she's getting from him. NPD falls into Cluster B along with Histrionic (lying about almost being kidnapped, embellishing her homelessness).
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So that’s how she’s going to justify being a jobless lazy leech now? Newsflash, Heather…lots of women suffer daily from ‘female problems’ and lots of them have it far worse than you do. That’s not to say it doesn’t suck, but stop acting like no one knows what it’s like. Stop using it as an excuse to be lazy.
It's either Endo or PCOS. No shit she was turned away by doctors, that's been the status of female health for decades, unfortunately. She needs to go tell her mom to take her to the ER if it's that bad. They'll put her on morphine for the pain for now and she can get tested for the above. There's more than one birth control and pretty much everyone cycles through medications until they find the right one.
Also is this her lurking and trying to say she's not pregnant and that her illness was just PMS and not actually illness in the most elaborate way possible? Haha.
Without a doubt, she is squashing those pregnancy rumours in her own special way.
Heather's comment fan is a bit frightening. She seems obsessed.
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Uh oh… break up?
Yeah. Planned Parenthood offers sliding scale based on income iirc. I get that things are tough sometimes but Heather just complains on Insta stories. She never tries. She never sits the hell down and says, "Alright, there's a problem, and I need to fix it," and with Heather she's got more problems than she's got pores on her face, apparently.>>945624
Did she delete her Insta stories? There was one that said "I'm so lonely. I think I'll edit some photos," and then another that just said, "I'm so lonely. :(" I think it's pretty solid evidence combined with the quote. If it's true, I'm incredibly relieved that he's safe, but with her attachment to him she's definitely going to be extremely hurt. I hope that the past half month and this is a wakeup call that she NEEDS to set aside her pride and all these delusions and just take responsibility for her mental health by being introspective and/or getting professional help.
I haven't heard anything from him, but I don't think I will.
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You're shitting me? All your dreams are dead? Just stop…
No one in the house has a computer and an SD card or thumb drive so she can transfer them? She could spent a small amount of money on storage and go to the library, then upload them somewhere like Dropbox, download them to her phone, and post.
It’s just like I said earlier. This girl would rather complain on Instagram and act like the world is falling apart than take the time to examine the problem and find solutions.
Fucking this. This shit is what makes her come across fake in her interests. If she really was passionate she'd find a way. It seems like she only wants the perks of showing off hobbies without actually putting in the work.
Her one true hobby is laziness and whining. Anything else she does is just an avenue to do more moaning and procrastinating.
It's the only thing she does with convincing passion.
>>945909>all my dreams are completely dead
Her dreams are to be a vlogger and photographer? But she also keeps talking about how she does this for herself. If those are her dreams, she's going to need to market herself, which means learning how to appeal to an audience. She doesn't seem to be able to decide whether she actually wants to do this for herself, or if she wants to make a career out of them.
She keeps talking about her "new content plan" but she seems to have no actual plan. She had an idea last week, but that just turned into freaking out because she had to veer off her determined path due to traffic, and then ending up at a Walmart where she made up a story about being kidnapped, based on a hoax that's gotten one person killed and a group of Rromani assaulted.
She doesn't seem to enjoy going on adventures. She shared those snow videos last night of that field right by her house. Why not venture into the forest? There's so much to find and photograph in forests.
I wish she'd take the time she spends whining on the internet and more time learning about photography and editing. A lot of her photos are better than your average snapshot so she's definitely trying, but she seems to have no grasp on a lot of the fundamentals. Like all the shots she uploaded today, the only decent one is of the pillar, and she over-filtered it. Vignettes have their place and you shouldn't be using them on everything. She tends to turn the contrast way up, and in a lot of her photos either she seems to have no idea what the subject actually is, or it takes up the entire photo. The samey tree photo and the… whatever that urbex one is are just junk. The green statue is an interesting subject but incredibly dull in how she framed and edited it.>>945984
Her sales Insta has been dead for a week. She seemed to sell most of it, so why not sell more?
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Found this post from a Psychologist in Europe regarding Narcs and this describes Heather and a lot of her recent statements about loneliness and how people just don’t understand her to a T.
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What if she's just being overly dramatic because she has a cold and isn't going out because of the Covid-19 situation?
Heather, people are dying. You're just too boring to entertain yourself. There's a difference.
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Oh spare me. If she really wanted to do her part she'd stay her dumb ass off the fucking roads. Nobody needs to see her pathetic ass for the whole 6 hours she's gonna work this week.
Cue community savior in 3…2…
>>946172>do my part for my community
What part? You HAVE to go to work until the government or Target says otherwise.
What ever happened to "doing your part" by paying forward the 500$ you said you were going to donate to a women's shelter?
She’s claiming that was just PMS (in saying last week she was wanting to throw up), but she’d also said everyone at work was sick too as if it was a bug going around, so who knows.
But yeah, if it was a bug I’m pretty fucking pissed she made him come out.
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>I'm not who you think I am
Generally, people don't have to prove themselves and people don't get this amount of criticism or for this long without having done something to warrant it. You chose to take certain actions, consequences of those actions happened, and now instead of accepting the consequences or admitting to fault and making things right, you just complain and spin bullshit stories like claiming people hate you for completely superficial things. It's an endless cycle of self-destruction you make the conscious decision to perpetuate.
This is only as difficult as you're making it, Heather.
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And…the moment we saw coming. He broke up with her
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>hey guys, I just wanted to talk to you cos I know I do have some friends here
>so my boyfriend broke up with mee
You didn't push him out with your "negativity", whatever that means. He's rightfully creeped out by you.
Half the video is just her repeating over and over that she loves him and doesn't want anyone else but him and will never be able to love again. Completely obsessive.
But I thought he was the one! And they understand each other perfectly? Wonder how long she'll wait before she starts shittalking clayryan.
Well, on to Ryan no6 I suppose.
And she continues to wonder why men run from her. Men don't like obsessive behavior like this. It's unattractive and this gives them so many red flags to hit and quit it while they can.
Clay can also be a piece of shit? No idea but from these past couple of Ryan's, there is a pattern showing..
I don't think anybody likes this kind of obsessive behaviour. It's creepy and wrong. We've seen in the past with Ryan Z that she's perfectly capable of full blown stalking.
Wonder if Clayryan found this board yet.
Yeah, I just… I can feel empathy for her suffering, but I can't sympathize. What she is doing by sharing this, the series of "lonely" posts, and the crying post, is just pouring salt on her wounds, which is what she seems to always do. All she's doing is engaging in the same old behavior that pushed him out. Heather has this habit of saying one thing while doing the opposite, and that's what's going on here.
Why doesn't she message Angel, or any of her other close followers, or any of the people who commented on her crying post offering to help, before she took it down? She does not need to broadcast this to an audience of 3,000 people who followed her for her graveyard or toy endeavors. She just wants either pity, or to guilt him into loving her.>>946578>I definitely fall too deep in love>it's going to take me a long time to get over him because I just love him so much
These statements just show how poor her self-awareness is. She admits she falls too deep, too fast, and then instead of reflecting on that and taking a step back, she goes on to engage in exactly the behaviour she just admitted wasn't healthy. Heather, you idealized him. Please learn the difference between love and infatuation via idealization. You have known this man for less than half a year, and have been "official" for two months. You haven't had the time to really get to know even half of him.>I knew it was going to lead to this.
So do what everyone has been urging you to do and be self-reflective and mindful of your behaviour.>It's going to be really hard to date again because I found my person, I found everything I've been looking for.
You said that exact same thing about Ryan Z and Damian. You're going to say it again in the future. You need to take a step back and get to know people before deciding they're "the one", and you need to stop regarding every breakup as the end of the world.>There's nothing I can do to fix it.
Yes, there is. Work on yourself and stop making excuses and shirking blame for everything. You are
negative and that's evident in how you're responding here and how you respond to every minor problem in your life, but you can work on that, you just keep choosing not to because you don't want to leave your comfort zone of isolation, melodrama, and other bad habits.>>946587>starts shittalking clayryan.
That sounds like a terrible idea, lol.>>946589
Amen. "I will never love again", it's like a teen soap opera. Heather of course you'll love again, people have learned to love again after their s/o's have left this world completely. Just process this and work on yourself before getting caught up in these weirdly intense idealistic romances.>>946594>Clay can also be a piece of shit?
He's not a piece of shit, but he doesn't always handle things well and then tends to just distance himself. Him actually breaking up with her is pretty big. Tinfoil but I just kept getting the feeling like he was in the still in the "dating" stage of getting to know her while she was running ahead into the "I love him, I want to marry him, he's the only person I ever want" stage and he wasn't down with it, but didn't know what to do.>>946595>>946603
I linked him here before they'd even become official. He knew, but I don't know if he's read through. But yeah, this thread is the second result upon googling both her alias', it's not hard to find it once she brings "the haters" up to everyone every three days.
At least she realizes it's her fault this time. I don't think the Heather Explains of two months ago would be willing to shoulder any responsibility.
This crumb of sympathy will be retracted if she goes on about this for several weeks via nightly stories.
She will. Then it'll be the "I am a strong independent woman who doesn't need a man" phase again. Some sad solo "dates", and the hunt for a new Ryan will be on.
Somebody posted a "heather cycle" image on the previous thread, and it's pretty accurate.
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breakups are hard but the way she overreacts to a 2-month relationship ending (blabbing about losing her one true love on social media) really does highlight how emotionally stunted she is
maybe by the time she's 40 (getting there) she will be more adjusted but hard to say lul
Whoa….anger much? Yeesh. Get a snickers
I believe the reason she posted these stories is for clay to see them. They are still friends, he'll eventually see her stories and reach out to her
Damn. Did Heather murder your parents or something? And are you seeking vengeance by means of capslock?
None of us like Heather, but jesus…
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thank you vidanon for the stream
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pls record anon
thanks for taking one for the team
Sooooooo many stories oh my god.https://streamable.com/j76m4
posted after the one the other Anon shared.https://streamable.com/vhoojhttps://streamable.com/c54hhhttps://streamable.com/89xip
She's skirting the line of demonizing him. Even blaming it on him being a Gemini, though one of the first things that tipped me off to them being involved was a series of posts with her gushing about Gemini's and how she wanted to be an Aquarius rather than a Capricorn because of all the positive stuff she was reading about Aquarius x Gemini pairings.
She's saying she needs to get back in shape and the boys will be liming up before she knows it. Heather please, work on your personality, not your image.
She's trying to avoid blaming him by blaming the internet haters.>>946661
I bet she thinks he will, but I'm going to bet he won't view her stories at all after one second of this. She's destroying her chances of even continuing a friendship with him.
Clay is not "your person", Heather, he's his own. Trying to force yourself to dislike him so you can feel better is just gonna be a bad time.
this is amazing
I like how she jumps to "I need to buy a new coat"
never change Heather
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>I can't, like, go on Tinder tomorrow and find another him
It's ok though, fuck social distancing. She has a coworker coming over to take her out.
>People wanted dirt on me
Your whole yard is dirt with a "free dirt!" sign embellished with Vegas lights.https://streamable.com/ib1in>>946694
Yeah… So much for "this is my fault".>>946696>I can't, like, go on Tinder tomorrow and find another him
Ha, no. I don't know what she's thinking. Looking for meaningful relationships or long-term commitment on Tinder is like looking for a cedar tree in the Sahara. Heather, develop your personality and cultivate your own happiness first, then find people in real life rather than through an app that's pretty much for hookups and flings.>>946725>>946729
Tbh she doesn't need to be close emotionally to her family for all that. I'm sure her parents just want her to learn how to support herself and not be homeless, but yeah, she's so taking advantage of that.
I think it's good that there's at least one person willing to take her out somewhere. If she can have someone to maybe calm her tf down and talk some sense into her while also avoiding going to any crowded places, that's a plus.
Next up in today's saga:https://streamable.com/czmwf
She decided to show her friend some abandoned buildings and I guess they were confronted by police for walking around the lot.>>946762
Despite all their rage, they are still just an incel that can't sage?
She makes it sound like she was arrested. It really sounds like she was just asked to leave.
Pretty sure we'll never hear about this colleague again. Heather cannot keep female friends. I mean, she can't keep male ones either. But if you don't have a dick she only has time for you when she's desperate.
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taking bets now on when Ryan 6 will show
>>946780>Despite all their rage, they are still just an incel that can't sage?
I love you anon.>>946679>>946696
This cow really milks herself, doesn't she? It's almost a shame it's a constant cycle of the same shit.
I give it a few weeks, but given the current social climate it might be a bit more difficult to find yet another sPoOkYbOy around her area. She's going to start getting a reputation in some circles at any rate.
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How many of the last few Ryans were pulled from tinder? Wonder if she's perked up because she's having luck on the app or she managed to guilt trip necktattoo douchcanoe into giving her a second chance.>>946931
Go back to /w/ weeb
Omg lol I laughed way too hard at that.
I think they will get back together, she has to be dramatic first. Her videos of her crying sounded just as forced as the video clip she played when she was crying to adam about timmy.
Speaking of which, I really hope timmy is doing ok, especially during this apocalyptic time. Prayers for timmy and the other cat (can't remember the name)
Look, Heather cut me off as a friend whenever I tried to help her a few years back, so I have every reason to hate her but it sounds like she literally hurt you and you're angry. Calm down, sit back, and enjoy the train wreck like the rest of us.>>946936
This is hilarious, anon! My only gripe is a nitpick. She's 30, not 32.
I finally watched these videos and Heather is so bad at acting, jfc. I never believe her when she starts crying, it feels so forced and fake. When she mentioned getting back in shape and "there will be boys lining up before I know it" I cringed so hard. Why is so only ever worried about dick? Worry about yourself first, you idiot. She even said that all these men in her life lead her on just to get in her pants, but maybe that wouldn't happen if she wasn't so quick to give them what they want.
It still bothers me so much that she plays the victim
when it comes to having no one to hang out with, not having friends, being shunned from different communities, because she did that to herself and won't acknowledge that she's the problem.
Now she wants to do Youtube again?
ClayRyan was the one? Really? Along with all the other Ryans?
She isn't close to her family? Yet her mother took her in at 29, despite having no job, no license, no life skills. Heather really is a piece of work, I don't know how anyone can stand to be around her for more than a few minutes.
I have no mouth but I must scream.https://streamable.com/ao0xj
It's so obvious she's trying make him pity her. She straight up isn't deleting stories at all like she normally does and has her account locked. She's at a point where she doesn't want her stories to stay visible, but she wants him to view them, and I know he isn't because I know he doesn't want anything to fucking do with this kind of drama.
She's now saying she didn't do anything wrong. I don't know if that's just Heather and none of her real life friends are challenging it, or they are and she's just not listening, or if they're trying to be "supportive" by enabling her and calling him an ass. Clay dodged a bullet (lol) by leaving this goddamn psycho.
She was bad back in the BJD days and I just forgot about her for a while but it just seems like she's gotten so much worse and continues to do so.
Kek>I fucked it up/it’s all my fault/not that I really did anything wrong
>It’s so hard/only want him/sooo I’m back on tinder
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I can't stop thinking about him…I love him so much!
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Or she's pulling all the stops and throwing all her cards in at once so she's trying to win him back with pity (crying), make him feel bad ("I know I didn't do anything wrong", "Why would you throw something away over something stupid?"), passion ("I just love him so much!"), and jealousy ("I'm already moving on by looking on Tinder"). Just… sweet baby jaysus.
Her "<3" gallery and all photos of him have been deleted. Good. Get help, Heather.
I see that the quarantine is serving you well lol. These are great and I haven't seen a lot of them!
Heather just so you know Ryan Z is single again. Redux.
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Not one single thought about how he feels…ya know, that person that she loves so much. Her relationship to humans is the same as her relationship to toys, clothes, antiques…things. They are all just things to collect, and as such, an extension of her personality. Ugly af.
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Yep! She’s in her banged-up tin garbage can, rolling rapidly downhill towards a permanent block! She’s named him, here’s hoping she’s not dumb enough to fully out him. Sharing the rest of the series for those without instas and those who aren’t following her since she’s locked everything.
Thanks Heather Explains YT archive Anon, btw.
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That tear…I cannot
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If you love him, you wouldn’t be acting entitled to his returned affections and putting more pressure on him. Are you not satisfied with friendships? You burn every bridge because you expect a specific relationship with people and in the absence of that, you discard them and vilify them. Get back into BJD so you can treat dolls like dolls instead of treating people like dolls.
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I do not need Validation
Why I'm Hurt
this basically sums it up
her woe is me emo selfies
tfw she has to include those tacky digital eyelashes every time
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I hope Ryan 6 turns up soon.
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She’s now driving around in a graveyard. Her big announcement is that she’s looking for people to hang with, to get out of her sulking zone and have F U N. Dear lord.
whenever (kek) she gets dumped she goes straight for that strappy boob top
please tell me I'm not the only one who has noticed lul
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“I want to start a new series where I am a travel guide and we go to weird places and that’s what I wanna doooo…”
She's live now on IG, talking about being on 'sanitation' duties at work, and that is what she's doing for her community during the virus times.
She also announced she does not have to mix with the general public, and that she hasn't seen lots of 'sick people' wandering around.
Repeatedly declares that she is banishing the 'sad feels' and isn't going to bother wasting time on sad feels over people who don't give a shit about her.
Saying right now that she wants to make a 'dark travel channel' because there's so many cool places she sees and wants to share them…a shame she's never heard of Atlas Obscura.
She also wants to make a paranormal team.
Says she can't be taking time to research stuff as she's such a creator all she can do is create and if she doesn't she will "die of depression".
I've lost the will to live.
Was trying to give info for other farmers but it's just too fucking boring. Can't record it where I am. Can anyone else? Is quite funny when she's on a rant…
She is going off on live kek>Massive FucK yOu to those people who talk shit>My marriage ruined youtube channel>I am a stubborn bitch and I will get through it all>I love the rain. We sat in the rain on our first date. That's all I want. Is ThAt ToO mUcH tO AsK?>I want a paranormal hunting team
Veering from manic high to bursting into tears. All over the place.
Streamable Anon here. I have a couple, but my phone just does not have the space to grab everything plus her Live. Hopefully one of the other recording Anons grabbed stuff for the people who wanted to see it.
I tried my best to take it all down verbatim.
>says the "wannabe security guard" at the Brownsville general hospital "chased us, stalked us, got our names, got in his car and left. There was no signs, no barricades.">I have such negative feelings about youtube. I don't feel like I'm welcome, I'm just this huge fucking disappointment>I want to make a dark travel channel>I have to be constantly creating or I'll die of depression>Its why I'm always making videos always talking on here I just have to film>I'm kind of like this fucking outcast people don't want to talk to me nobody wants to do anythign with me>Sorry I'm just venting, thanks for hanging out with me>Every tinder guy is like have you been to centralia and I'm like now>Wants to get back to the positive and start meetups>Whenever I opened up about the breakup, my Earth shattering breakup. He was everything I ever wanted and more, except he wasn't a photographer. We were dating for two months and then he fucking dumped me two days ago.>The virus situation that's why this breakup happened>I had been dwelling about shit that's been bothering me>Told him I was so upset about everything that's been going on>All I wanted to was to be with someone I loved>Now I just have to face this apocalypstic scenario on my own>I swiped liek every tinder person in my area and nothing>I opened up my heart again after so long>"fuckboy ghost hunter" (Damian? Ryan Z?)>I fell in love with this guy and we dated for two months and it was so amazing>I never felt like I could open up to him>I opened up about how my ex gaslit me and the things he did to me, and he was always like "Oh it doesn't matter now">He had this strange way of handling the things I talked to hi about>I just have to accept that he's gone>Instead of selling things I'm actually helping people (re: her job)>I needed to get over the internet shit. I'm done apologizing for how I dress. People are just fucking assholes, gatekeeping assholes>I'm tired of people saying I'm crazy and that's why I do this shit.>That's why I haven't done youtube I just bounce back to that>I'm not gonna let that strain my life anymore. I'm a very take it or leave it person>I'm just gonna be me no matter what>I learned its not about popularity, the right people are going to like you for you>I know people are disappointed because I don't post the kind of content I used to>These are things I find beauty in and I won't apologize for it>I feel like I'm not really for anyone (in response to someone giving her s positive comment)>People need to fuck off! Just let me live! (said in a happy-ish tone, not angry. I feel the tone needs to be clarified)>It felt so nice to have an amazing guy that I'm in love with. I just pictured so much>There's cute little froggies and I wanted to find froggies with him and watch the stars>It felt so good to have my head on someone's chest and feel safe>I'm never going to forgive myself for fucking this one up>At the same time I realize that I didn't really do anything wrong and maybe I'm better off>Its so hard for me to find anyone >I want to model but I've gained 20 pounds but it's hard for me to find a photographer, I want to take pictures I want to be in videos.>I have a ton of drama with one of my ex's and nobody wants to work with me>I'm really not a bad person, I wish people would just give me a chance>Now I gotta figure out like how am I going to get a boyfriend, how am I going to meet someone>How am I going to find someone who can handle my anxiety>I was safe from this dating hell and fuckboys and it's not, the cycle continues>I'm doing my best to be in good spirits.>I need to start focusing on my art. What people don't understand is that every single one of my photos has a feeling behind it, and emotion, a story>A lot of my abandoned photos are about a love story that was broken. I turned all that pain into art.>The picture of the rose at the burned house. That was one of the first things we saw. Now time has passed and the rose is covered in more things. >I do have prints I want to sell and now with this whole virus situation I don't know what to do. I need to get the right envelopes and I need to figure out the price>I just feel like with the time we have now I don't think it'll do well I know everyone is holding onto their money.>I have to be proactive I have to go out and search. I have to find my person. I would like to have a baby. I would like to have someone by my side on my adventures, I'd like to devote my life to someone>I have vented online I have been through a lot of stuff. I'm not a bad person. I've just been overwhelmed and I vented. I made mistakes and I own it. I know situations I could have handled better>I'm at a different point in my life. I'm mature now I'm on my own. I'm divorced now you know I work full time. I drive I own a car. The only thing I'm missing right now is my own place. At work my hours were cut.>I know there are people who watch my story and follow me because of that situation and fuck you, fuck you I don't care (/finger)>If only I had this mindset sooner by boyfriend wouldn't have dumped me>He said you bring me down by being sad>We're not gonna talk about him anymore. My whole life was ruined (referring to this past year, not the Clay breakup). People talk shit and I'm still here. >People have done crazy things to me and I'm still here. I will never give up on myself. I won't quit pushing forward for someone to love. I'm a stubborn bitch and I wouldn't have it any other way.>I have so many ghost stories, like things I can explain to people. Portal sessions that were fucking crazy.>I want to use my main channel because it's monetized>Every time I make a video people just hate me, they're so disappointed in me. I just want to get back into filming again. That's why I spent the money and bought this vlog camera.>I cannot continuously explain myself. People hate me.>The last time I made a video with comments I had the most psycho comments I've ever read. The things people think about me are wild.>I have to move forward or this is just going to fuck my life up>It's time for me to start vlogging again, I'm just gonna do it>If any of you know some nice explorer boys send them to my profile. Please for the love of god. (tone context again: she was smiling and laughing awkwardly)>I'm someone who is constantly like, consuming poetry. I'm pretty intelligent. I have this really neat perspective on things I just can't put it into words. I'm a visual artist.>It feels so good to sit here and talk to people. Me and my boyfriend we never talked on the phone. Like only once. >I just hate people alone. I just feel like I can't really trust anyone.>You guys are amazing thanks for making me feel better
For the record, I'm only writing the relevant stuff and proofreading while she's talking about things like how she enjoys the rain, and trying to find a way to play music in her car. Her whole live wasn't just her bitching. Aside from the "fuck you" to the haters, there was no crying or raging. It was mostly just her usual manic rambling and calm points in between. Other Anon says she was crying but I didn't see any tears. It sure sounded like she was on the verge several times.
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I apparently missed a couple things in my read through. Most are easy to figure out but “I hate people alone” should be “I hate being alone”. Also forgot to share the one screenshot I got because of the bottom comment. I really wish people wouldn’t encourage her but that’s what happens with the platform of social media. It doesn’t matter what your dumb belief is, 5 people support it and you no longer have to do any critical thinking.
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For those that can’t see her profile and cringe quotes.
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She’s a-comin’ for youuu
Bless you Anon. Taking one for the team.>>947786
Oh boy. Sucking in her stomach and on the prowl for Ryan no6.
How did she go from saying she "gained 20 lbs" just a day or so ago to now she "lost 7 lbs".
Also enjoy that her pjs are very not spoopy. Does killstar not make pajamas?
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>>948030>I’m way too good at goodbyes
But… you’re still following him…?
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Holy fuck anon, this is beyond cringe…I know you are secondhand cringing with me lol.
The song. The song. 10/10 cringe Heather.
Yesterday on her stream she said the place she went to where she was confronted by a "wannabe security guard" was the Brownsville General Hospital. She said she and her friend weren't in the lot, but that it has no signs or fences or anything. I looked it up on Google Maps (Old Brownsville general hospital). The photo of her friend puts them right in the back alley on Baltimore St.
There's fences and signs on Google Maps, but the photos were taken in 2012. This Facebook page also says there's No Trespassing signs FB /pg/abandonedbeauty9/photos/?tab=album&album_id=285923381568009. It's possible that since Brownsville is such a dilapidated ghost town, the fences and signs have been torn down and no one has bothered with the time and money to put them back up.
Either way, it took me zero effort to find all this. It further proves Heather does little to no research. She just impulsively goes to these places to prove something. She's going to get into serious legal trouble, or worse, if she keeps this up. I hope she does get her Urbex team together and has someone who actually knows what the fuck they're doing who will also yell at her if she keeps trying to go into "bandos" with Killstar boots and no ventilation mask.>>948045
Yeah I saw that and it's like. She said last night that this was the reason he dumped her; that she was concerned for their future and she just wanted to be with the person she loved, then he said she was all doom and gloom.
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she's posting selfies every day without any effort or expression, it's so creepy
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I remember when she used this exact song for Ryan Z too, because another Anon managed to screenshot it right at “happiness is like a butt”.
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She’s removed the lock on her profile finally.
But I don’t get it. What exactly is she hoping to achieve with posts like this?
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My god, she actually bought it…
What exactly is she going to vlog? Her getting ready in her room? We’re in a quarantine, Heather! If they haven’t implemented it yet her area is bound to get locked down, which will mean that unless you’re going out for food supplies, Doctor/hospital, or have an inexpendable job you’re stuck at home.
But yeah keep splurging needlessly. Maybe that will fill the hole you keep digging yourself into.
She's really only driving the dude away more by acting so obsessed and melodramatic about the whole thing. They dated for only a couple months. It's really no wonder he ran.>>948398>>948421
Sounds like she's planning on going out to "film the new series". So she's going to abandoned places/graveyards during the quarantine? I wonder if we'll see people call her out on not taking the quarantine seriously.
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Christmas has come early…>I’m going to do a sexy photoshoot
PA has closed all non-essential businesses but we're not under lockdown. I don't see the issue with her going out to film solo, though. She's more at risk working than she is going on solo adventures.
What confuses me is that she posts things like this is the end of the world and everything is so terrifying and claims it was the catalyst to her breakup, but she's still trying to hang out with people and (possibly) go on Tinder dates. She had a bunch of cropped screenshots of Tinder chats in her story last night but I don't know if she's just talking to these guys or planning to meet up. Co-workers are people she's exposed to anyway, but meeting up with other people outside of her co-workers just seems a little contradictory to her current mindset.>>948514>>948545
She talks like she wants a meaningful relationship, but what are her intentions with this? If she's trying to make herself attractive to guys, she's just going to keep reeling in the "fuckboys".
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She's just being a spiteful bitch at this point. She's posting this saying "clay still follows me and he'll see this and he'll miss me"
All your doing is showing your desperate, spiteful, and pathetic. Goodluck with your life, you definitely need it.
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Crazy eyes returns!
Oh my god Anon, I thought you were kidding lol. She seems to cut off right before saying more, did she delete part of her stories, by any chance?
I really don't give a contortionist fuck what she wants to do to herself, and I support her feeling good about her body, but Clay just wants peace and she's just being possessive and spiteful. I'm sure he wanted to remain friends with her and hasn't unfollowed her because that's just not what he does. He's not liking her posts, he's likely not viewing her stories so now she's trying to grab his attention with this, but this isn't the type of person he is.
Also she's saying she was fat and teased for it? But in all those old photos she shared of her HS years, she looked pretty skinny?
>All your doing is showing your desperate, spiteful, and pathetic. Goodluck with your life, you definitely need it.
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I did get cut off, I think there was an error when she was loading up all her stories at once.
This is just to grab Clay's attention. That's why she's posting the pictures on her actual page rather then her stories. Heather can't accept the break up. Hell. Heather couldn't accept when her husband found a new girlfriend. This is all typical heather behavior. If adam is happy, she'll post videos trying to make him out to be the bad guy of "wanting to go to a marriage counselor "
Same thing with ryans…and now clay.
Heather, since I know you will read this, this is not empowering. This is embarrassing, a reek of desperation, and if you want attention, just stick with tinder and go find fuckboys. Anyone who looks up your name will find the multiple threads of you. Really should stop while your ahead.
Stop being spiteful and just be the bigger person and move the fuck on already.
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Omfg the eyes lol I can't!! Lol how cringe lol
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Crazy obsessive to the left
Normal respectable person to the right
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Wow…you just can't leave him the fuck alone, can you? Pathetic heather
Yeah, she commented on it too. I'm not going to lurk his profile, but just an FYI: he Likes every comment on his posts usually. If he doesn't Like her comment, he's ghosting her.
I have the part of her stories where she confesses she's posting them because he's still following her, but I'm busy so I'll crop it and drop it in a bit.
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All I can do is shake my head.. wowm
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Wow she's gone full psycho bitch LOL
I'll take 12 things people regret before they die for 100 Alex
She's built like a fridge
and those crazy eyes yikes
Hahaha I saw this comment earlier and just felt baffled
>built like a fridge
My sides have departed
This is the only part I got since I didn't really have the ability to record the whole thing, but just… the fucking psycho vibes she oozes when she suddenly shifts her tone and body language.https://streamable.com/rj34a
It cuts off at "and he's gonna see wh-" so I assume she was going for, "he's gonna see what he lost" or "what he's missing" or something like that.>>948632
Did she say his name? I didn't see that part of her stories.>>948642
I bet she has notifications for his posts enabled.
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"It's not for any guys out there"
proceeds to mention ex
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Cringe that she is still commenting on his posts. Like the dude dumped you, have some dignity. Reminds when she showed up to Ryan's tour. Yuck
Im dying. I cant.
Heather…maybe try some seductive sexy faces…?
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That is her seductive face
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thousand yard stare
she's the cow that keeps on giving
today is a good day
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Thank you, archivist Anon. Also thank you because you seem to be getting all of these and I can stop trying to grab them lol.
Clay just wants to live his life and not deal with shit like this, which is the only reason he hasn't unfollowed her. He doesn't like completely burning bridges with people and I'm sure he enjoyed talking to and spending time with her when she was mellowed out, but this is asinine.>>948663
If he was maintaining a friendship with her that'd be fine, but it seems like he's just trying to ignore her and move on with his life and hope she moves on with hers (she won't).>>948669
Oh, I have most of those.
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She did a short video this morning when she woke up, where she said she was going to do her modeling stuff and she was definitely returning to Youtube. She mentioned the shirt and said she liked Fallout and that it was relevant and part of what got her into abandoned stuff. She's worn it before, and she used to do gamer stuff under KittySparkles and other handles.>>948694
Those songs. Oh my god.
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like accidentally walking into the room when your grandma is changing
Kek exactly what I thought
I can’t wait for her to get out of work and post more of this gruesome shit
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Lemme help the girl out…
"Celebrating myself" has never looked more depressing. I'm all for sex positivity. And if this photoshoot was really just her celebrating her sexuality, that would be great.
But it's so clearly an act of desperation. She doesn't look confident. She looks bitter and constipated. She looks like a mom who signed up for a "sexy" photoshoot package because she wanted to present her husband with a risqué anniversary gift, and is now regretting it.
Heather, if you want to do this, make some money off it. That is far more dignified than doing this in the vain hope some guy who is clearly not bothered will take you back. If anything, this kind of desperate behaviour is why he dumped your baba yaga ass to begin with.>>948791
No, not you Heather.
Damn those glasses frame her schnoz in an unfortunate way.
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Heather looking like a pyscho in this photo. Why does she keep her eyes open like that. It's not even remotely sexy. She complains no one wants her but her comments are filled with male fans drooling over this cursed picture. >>948859
She really lives in her own world.
Her disparate attempts at being sexy really shine through on her mommy's twin sized spare bed…>>948868
Have you gotten a look at those leaving comments? 99% are chicks and the guys are old disgusting perverts…bet anything she's trying to appeal that that fat nasty that wanted to collab with her a while ago….she's beyond pathetic, but watch, her trolling here will reveal new "haters" and "slut shamers" stories…can't wait!
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Jesus christ she has no good angles. It's fuckin horrifying.
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Stands out like a sore thumb. Just as with the Killstar brand, Heather doesn’t have the look for his type of modeling either.
At least lose the glasses next time.
Oh Heather. Gravity is not your friend.>>948880
Next phase: Heather the lifestyle channel?
She just isn't very good at this. It's not even about her face and body so much. Non-conventionally attractive models can do amazing shootd. But she just looks unhinged and uncomfortable. She doesn't look "empowered" at all.
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Was this account always 18+?
I cant find this account now.
I wanted to follow it lol
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Clay rejoicing every second he doesn’t have to spend with this moping child.
She's so transparent it's funny>Clay dumps her for being negative all of the time>Sudden super positive "I love myself" phase triggered>Also suddenly taking lewd pics and claiming "it's not for the boys">Literally said that she hoped clay would see them and miss her>Basically describes him as her "dream boy">Also makes subtle digs at him in the same post
Also love that despite the positive facade we are seeing right now, she's still making boohoo sad lyric posts like >>948984
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I guess all attention is good attention?
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Photo cred. to her “abusive husband.”
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Then how come she’s not a beaming ball of light all the time? She’s always doom and gloom with so much negativity.
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"I blame part of this virus for my breakup"
"I am limiting myself how many hours I work, I don't want my family to get infected"
Oh, so you DO live with your family?
Sounds like she's going to quit her job because "she's scared" lol ridiculous
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>>> “The last fucking thing we need is someone online terrorizing people.”
Yeah, like you’ve been doing to all the Ryans that have dunoed your frumpy ass.
Also, she FINALLY admits that she lives with mommy and not “on her own” as she’s been lying about for months. How fortunate you are Heather that you DO have mommy tonfall back on. Not everyone can be a hero on the front lines of all that unraveling, so it’s best that you stay home and get that onlyfans going already.
>>949134> Sounds like she's
Worked out she can use Corona as an excuse to >to quit her job because "she's scared"
Fixed it for you.
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"Take care of each other, spread kindness"
Yeah, you should take that advice and donate that gofundme money to "domestic abuse centers " since you claimed to do.
Oh heather, did you know since people are staying home domestics have went up 10%? And that certain states are opening domestic facilities to help actual REAL domestic abuse women?
Just saying heather…
She looks like a different person. I know she was younger and has a filter on these pics, but the shorter, dark hair and side bangs looks nice on her and the neutral makeup works for her. The small, dark frame glasses suit her better than her current granny glasses. Heather go back to this instead of this clown shit you've got going on now. You can still be goff with brown hair.
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Just do a damn only fans account already , you can not be a model with your face.
Agreed. I'm surprised, she was kind of cute in a girl next door way. The winged eyeliner, smaller frames, filled brows, and darker hair all looked a lot better than the mess she's got going on now. Love that she claims THIS was her "awkward phase" and not the mallgoth mess that is her now. >>949119>>949209
Calm down anon. You are starting to sound thirsty for her to do OF. kek. The cow will milk herself, this one always does.
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>>949214> Calm down anon. You are starting to sound thirsty for her to do OF. kek. The cow will milk herself, this one always does.
She’s already losing the plot. The absolute stench of passive aggression, I can sense her breakdown gland twitching.
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Spiralling into full isolation madness, she’s advising us how to get the complete Heather Explores look.
So, today is the day where she has declared her “person I am going to be”.
How many days until it all goes to shit, do we think?
This is going to be a tasty public collapse.
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She’s flipped from self censorship to sharing her every brain fart and footstep.
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ok wait this got buried under an avalanche of normal looking heather but this is fucking hysterical. "lovely tits" "thank ya!" holy cringe
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Looks like she found those seven pounds she lost the other day.
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Last thing you see before death…
Now now Anons. She's a perfectly servicable harpey.
It's not good when your two looks are "mediocre" and "horrifying."
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No worries there! You creep the hell out of everyone, Heather.
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This really should be Ryan 7
He's also in his 40s and looks like lex luthor with a chromosome missing. Not cute spoopy boy enough for heather. But as we've seen in >>949103
she'll take any attention where she can get it. kek.
‘Lovely tits’ kills me.
Yeah he in Germany but I can picture a long distance thing. Although he is too old and bald. You never know though.
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Could probably get the edit done if she just edited and stopped constantly telling us she is trying to get the edit done
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She’s sharing the news that the opening scene of her vlog is done. So we get this voiceover where she’s sharing her wiki facts about zinc gravestones, then goes on to say…”popular in the 1880s, then whenever WWI started…”
Come the fuck on Heather. If you’re facting, you cannot say a line like that kek “oh whenever that was”
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shes got a new rant up this morning.
>> "Please support me because this is what I wanna do!"
ok but that's not how planet earth works Heather, you gotta have something to offer. The entertainment market is so saturated nowadays it's really hard to break in. With creative ventures you have to have something eye-catching or be a cut above the rest, or at least have SOMETHING to offer.
As an artist who has slaved the last 10 years with no recognition (not that I'm complaining- it helped me realize how much I value doing the art over having the art to show off) and is only JUST starting to get to the point where I like everything I make, her lack of action combined with expectations of fame and adoring followers drives me pretty batty. She reminds me of 15-year-old me tbh, big dreams and expectations and no hard work or self-awareness to make those expectations happen.
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she says…>so excited vlog nearly done>bit worried it’s so heavy, she cried >people might not like it >so over it just wants to get it done>hair looks awful so she looks awful >YaY! I finished it >didn’t exercise so I am going to get in my car and drive somewhere
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Well that sense of achievement lasted for all of one nanosecond
she hits a big ol' mood swing a few times a day. I wonder if it coincides with checking this thread or Clay's insta, or any of the other Ryan's. She seems like the self destructive type who would constantly seek out the things that make her upset.
She really seems to focus hard on her new career as Professional Victim
. Like she doesn't feel normal unless she's whining and upset about something.
It's a trap I used to fall into with anxiety and depression, it got so bad at points that happiness was foreign to me and made me feel strange and like something was about to go wrong so I would self sabatoge really quickly, and I'm sure I came off like a dick.
The difference is I pulled myself together at like 24 and didn't cement it as part of a martyr complex lol. I can empathize with her, but I have no fucking sympathy. She's over 27 now, scientifically her brain has stopped growing, and any self improvement beyond this point will be WAY harder work. I think she's pretty much stuck in this loop forever unless she goes to therapy and makes a massive change in her attitude.
Easier said than done though.
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- doesn’t know where to drive to and film. Feels like she wasted the whole day editing a video that won’t be well received anyway.
-dating apps not going very well. Hasn’t met anyone and feels incredibly lonely.
- hoped that her last relationship would be long lasting but that wasn’t meant to be. Feels like she’s destined to be alone forever.
- probably just going to drive up the road and come back.
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Yeah I get all that, we’ve all been there, some more than others, life can be shit. She’s on the verge of tears wailing about how lonely she is but clearly has people she can talk to, she’s capable enough to lament online so it’s not like she can’t facilitate any outlet for this shit. She’s done a days work and it hasn’t turned out how she wanted. Welcome to the creative industries dickhead.
Half the world is in crisis and she’s just yak yak yak seriously Heather…stfu.
Bingo! She's so stuck in her Professional Victim
ways, she can't be arsed to just pretend like her "self improvement and positivity" act isn't more than just a passing moment. It's honestly really sad and pathetic to see a grown woman with this many privileges switch up between the woe is me and "I'm adulting so great!" acts daily. She lives for validation from strangers on the internet. She is constantly assuring people that she can't function like a normal human being without male attention. She has no identity despite trying to convince everyone otherwise. She keeps herself in a constant state of misery, hoping her pity party will bring along the next person she'll leech dry with her dependency problems. She could have room to excel if she could manage to cut off her validation hugbox social media accounts for a while so she could learn to actually live. Then she wouldn't be so miserable when life happens.
Thinking about it: nearly everything she does, she seems to do it so she could post it on Instagram.
More ranting and whining on IG stories. I’m anticipating an epic meltdown. She’s bemoaning the fact she has no friends yet must do something solid fun this weekend.
The world is on lockdown, dumbass.
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She’s on live now >I have 3,000 likes on Ok Cupid but there’s no way I’m paying $30 to see who
Admitted just now that she wants to use YouTube as a means to attract and find boys.
-would be just as happy having a couple of “cute boys to talk and text with.”
- would love to meet a boy and become a blogging couple.
- admitted that she “can’t even get laid.” Guess Craig couldn’t stick it in her.
- apparently talks to a psychic about her boy troubles.
- admits that she had times when she wants to get back together wkgh damian.
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Says she’s bisexual but is “ideally looking to date guys only at the moment.” But has thought about dating girls in light of her recent boy troubles.
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Gotta hand it to King.Qatar, 10/10 for persistence
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There's only two comments on her latest video. And they're both from the same person.
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Apparently she still has one fan
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She had a live a few hours ago. Same old story (dating online sucks, coming back to YouTube, wanting a spoopy big, wanting to explore etc.). She did say she wants to gonexooore with someone to “make memories”; translation: she wants a spoopy boy to drive her because she lacks the confidence to do so on her own.
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No Heather, you’re not too old to go back to school; you’re just too LAZY to do it.
Just like she’s too lazy to do research when doing voiceover work on her video; just like she was too lazy to get off her ass and list that collection of hers; or too lazy to get a job when her marriage was already over and instead waited till she had to be driven away to get anything going.
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Guess posting awkward and cringe lingerie pics to get the creeps off online is her way of helping people during this time of crisis.
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Wtf is this idiot talking about now? I sware, she either makes up shit or she does this to herself.
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Says she’s gonna stream soon. Anyone gonna record?
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Still no live.
Something that makes me laugh so hard every single time…her Killstar story highlight. There’s this walk that she does…it has me wheezing.
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The new Ryan, perhaps?
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This one. And I’m guessing he isn’t one of The Ryans.
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Ok? Do you want a medal? No one cares.
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ffs what part of staying at home does she not get?
This isn't milk?>>950992
You can go outside, but you need to social distance yourself from anyone not in within your household. Her going solo is still dumb due to other dangers though.
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