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No. 1063620
life is gay
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>>>/ot/1054520 No. 1063678
>>1063676yeah and i was never like this difficult patient often the doctors would tell me that they are glad that i am so self aware and everything like yeah i am self aware i do what you tell me to do could you be more aware of what i need like obviously drinking is a problem but telling me that i should drink more chocolate milk than beer isn't going to help?
like i always wanted to help for my root causes like i know what's the problem that caused all this (there's been death with me too like suicides in my damily etc) so could you help me with the root causes instead of the symptoms
No. 1063680
i am seething right now, my friend wanted to set me up with her longtime friend and i said yes because i haven't dated in 4 years and whatever need to practice etc. i show up and this guy is just…not attractive. his personality was okish, he made some weird jokes about me emasculating him while we were playing pool and his main hobby is playing video games. fucking barf. i'm pretty cute, just a bit overweight but losing it, i have a ton of hobbies and work at really cool jobs, i have varied interests and people tend to like me. i'm insulted kek. this is why blind dates are horrible, it shows what your friends think you deserve. she just texted asking if i like him and i have no fucking clue what to say. do if i say i'm not ready to date that implies i could be interested in him later, if i say he's not my type i'm vain, etc. i fucking hate dating and this just shoved me right back into my hermit hole.
while i'm bitching i'm so fucking mad, i have a newer coworker that's really cute and we have a ton of shit in common. he was flirting really fucking hard, like very prolonged eye contact, complimenting me up and down, getting VERY close/lightly touching me when there was absolutely no need/reason, caught him staring out of the corner of my eye yadda yadda whatever. i never think people are flirting but this was like over the top. come to find out this fucking moid has a gf that he lives with and he just never thought to bring her up until i asked a question that forced him to mention her. i fucking hate scrotes they really should be quarantined on an island
No. 1063690
>>1063678and since i started venting it kinda annoys me too how some people think suicide is this personal thing you can do without it affecting other people, when my whole life has been shaped by the multiple suicides in my family, i have had to stop my dad from killing himself, i have had to tell my sister not to kill herself, yeah it is infectious i also think about it a lot but i know if i did it that would be the last straw on the camels back and the rest of the family would go down if one of us snaps
and i wash my hands to keep control and think by magical powers rest of them will survive if i keep up
No. 1063709
>>1063690Nonny my beloved, I feel you so hard on this all. I have been suicidal on off since I was like 8 and even then I know I would ruin any semblance of family unit I have left. It’s not even me acting more important than I am, I’ve just seen what it does to people and whilst shit does feel unbelievably unbearable, my mom doesn’t deserve to bury for that. My dad drank himself to death so I have seen the usual suicide and the prolonged one, I still think it’s more of a male thing to try inflict extra pain by certain types of suicide. I also do understand why someone would need to go by suicide, but as of rn, I don’t think I would unless my physical stuff gets to a point of no treatment. What a long ass vent, you opened up something in me,
nonny.
No. 1063715
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I fucking lost dogmeat and can't find him anywhere
No. 1063717
>>1063655Holy shit I do a jaw thing too. And a lip thing. I fucking hate it and it's so embarrassing but tbh my ocd acts up only when I'm in my
abusive ass house. I'm also an excessive handwasher. Certain things can't be too close to me, certain noises from my abusers fuck up my routine, checking on things way too many fucking times even though I know I don't need to keep doing it, it's a bunch of random little shit that I don't even remember until I'm doing it like a crackhead. It's incredibly time consuming and exhausting. My compulsions also get worse at night time.
No. 1063735
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tired of wanting to die. but dear god if it isn't one thing it's another
No. 1063738
>>1063734same,
nonnie, i was happy to have finally found a friend but people get busy. hope your friend will get back to you soon, much love
No. 1063767
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I failed two of my fucking courses because I missed up their dates and slept in and that's it. Two permanent Fs on my record. Two permanent Fs. I was hoping to apply to a couple of internships abroad this summer. Instead I'll be retaking the dumbest, easiest courses. Everything is so fucked up. School, friends, life. I'm not good at remembering dates. I'm not good at anything except behaving like I'm lobotomized. And now those internships are completely gone too. It was a dumb dream. Everything feels unreal.
No. 1063823
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I'm so sick of trying to understand people and what I did wrong to make them ghost me. I don't want these people back as friends but I want to know the reason. If it is genuinely a bad quality I have then I want to be able to improve. Without them in my life. It's two people who know each other so it makes me think they've been talking shit about me this whole time. I would never do that to someone else.
No. 1063848
>>1063841Sorry using this as a hook to vent about doctors.
I tried telling a doctor I have severe anxiety issues when I was a minor and he awkwardly changed the topic. My school sent me to a psychiatrist because I was obviously unhinged and my mom was there the entire time to make sure I don't say anything about my home situation. He only got to ask 2 questions before I broke down crying and was sent out and then he talked to my mom for a while and she started therapy later???
As an adult I told a different doctor I feel extremely exhausted all the time and she told me to work out more and told me to leave her office when I said that makes it worse, telling me I'm trying to con her giving me paid time off and that the articles and studies I found that show that my symptoms are part of actual recognized disorders is just me thinking I'm better than her.
Doctors are utterly worthless for anything that isn't blindingly apparent.
At least if you're poor. I know a guy who is wealthy who gets all kinds of diagnostics done for the most vague hypochondriac shit while I read medical studies and ask for specific things to get told to fuck off.
Like I literally cannot even get blood work done, I ask for specific things and they take my blood and a week later they say the numbers are fine. I ask for the raw data and they say sure they'll mail it to me and then don't. I'm certain they bullshit and don't actually run the more expensive specific tests, they use all their budget to keep their precious boomers alive. Three doctors have done this by the way, one of them wasn't even paid by my insurance, but by my employer but she still lied to me. She gave the data to a coworker who also asked for hers, but not to me. Romanian bitch, I could hardly understand you, if that's a problem for you then die.
I had to lie to a nurse to get someone to do an ultrasonic and the guy spent literally under a minute on it and then told me all my organs are fine. Yeah you sure checked.
No. 1063856
>>1063844It's ok. For some, internet friends are seen as expendable or non-human. I had an argument with an IRL friend who also has internet friends, who said that since she can't see them, she doesn't consider them real, and would drop them whenever she needs to. Online friends are great, it's easier to find people with common interests online. I've loved the ones I have had. But for some, they still can't really consider someone behind a screen to be another person. It sucks. You deserve better friends. There are good ones out there, I guarantee it.
I dunno how long it's been since they ghosted you or what messages you sent asking about it. If it hasn't been long and you haven't said much, maybe ask if everything is ok. But if not, try to move on. People like that aren't worth it.
No. 1063859
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I get so depressed when I see people the same age as me. They're so lively, independent and competent. I'm so behind them, I feel like we're from different worlds or something.
No. 1063871
>>1063860Me too nonita, I feel so stuck and depressed it’s so hard
I see all my friends who are the same age doing so much and even ones younger than me got their own home and engaged and I’m just here like damn.
No. 1063875
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>>1063873but she just vibing
No. 1063876
>>1063859this is why everyone thinks I'm like 19, 25 year old women don't act like my spazzy crazed bitchass
you're expected to just be mature and boring and I don't have that shit in me, but it forever means people won't take me seriously
No. 1063877
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Sometimes I fantasize about letting some dirty old pervert use my body, just so I can feel someone's touch. Interacting with people and bonding with them is so difficult. I don't understand how other people can do this so easily.
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>>1063859I feel you. I'm 24 and never left home, dated, and have zero friends. I also just got my associates and I'm transferring for my bachelors, so I just feel so behind while people my age have their careers. I'd love to finish my education online but I'll be going in person just so I can talk to people. Having 1 close friend would be nice..
No. 1063955
>>1063928get him some earbuds and let him indulge
I'm sure it inspires him to stay in shape
(tbh I watch commentary on Amber too, it's more fun than watching her own videos, idk why it just is)
No. 1064159
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Everyone in my life thinks I’m 20 when I’m actually 23
No. 1064161
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>>1064148For you, nona. Go fuck yourself.
No. 1064287
>>1064253My last ex cheated on me and I weirdly stayed civil with him and every few months we would have a short email exchange. I cannot imagine that if I were the cheater he'd be so civil… He's moved on with someone and they got serious real fast which feels weird given I've sat here single and if anything slightly traumatised by some of the events. His betrayal had a lasting effect on me and I dread it bleeding into my future love life.
Keep reminding yourself of his negative traits. Being (an ongoing) cheat being a fucking massive one. Lately I wonder if I'm dumb for not telling him to just go to hell ATT. Why stay sorta friendly with someone who did that to you and keeps hurting women with the same patterns.
No. 1064297
>>1064287Oof, very relatable.
They are also together for two years and have been trying for a kid for a year, guess the fact he's tryinh to settle so fast now weird me out too
>>1064291She doesn't know he cheated on her multiple times
No. 1064306
>>1064297Going back to this then
>his current fiance is insecure and I'm his hurr duurr last ex, ehich seems to make me evil and the scum of the earth You're not innocent in all this if you're sitting on knowledge about him cheating on her and she's letting him rawdog her to get pregnant.. all while you worry about a wedding invitation and being his friend.
No. 1064323
>>1064306I stopped being his friend when he threw away 14 years of friendship for a chick he met 2 years ago and she shitalked me to all his friends without ever talking to me. You're not wrong tho.
But honestly, not my circus not my monkeys or however the saying goes. My vent was more about me not being able to pinpoint what I feel about him getting married, everything else is less important
No. 1064329
>>106432625 year old is le old
you're retarded
No. 1064336
>>1064334I'm
>>1064320 and I should've clarified I meant physically. Of course experience and choice making skills of a 18 year old compared to a 25 year old is very different.
No. 1064340
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>>1064296Nta but I knew I recognized the artist! It's Annie Stegg.
No. 1064341
>>1064339You're right that's what I meant and also
>Not to mention age gaps increase risk of autism in kidsI think rather than that, it's having older parents that raise autism risk. A younger woman or man is always going to make healthier babies, don't fall for scrote crap that says men's sperm doesn't decline, it's quality declines faster tham women's eggs.
No. 1064342
>>1064334I’m the original anon - I don’t have any intention to dating people below 21. I’m lying mostly for social reasons and to cope with my own turmoil.
>>1064332I think there is quite a noticeable difference in appearance. Its not really like fine lines or wrinkles so much as 18-20 there’s a kind of youthful “glow” (I don’t know how to describe this without sounding kind of creepy kek) whilst people in their mid 20s tend to get more tired looking, even if they still have perfect skin.
No. 1064451
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>>1064429huh? how can you look at this and think dog instead of idk squirrel
No. 1064553
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imagine if I put all of my time and effort making master-crafted baits that sometimes get a lot of replies into being a productive human being but when I actually put in the work no one gives a fuck so why should K work hard if no one even notices? are my ideas always bad? why am I always ignored? what am I doing wrong and I don’t know anymore I’m scared and confused tbh
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>>1064568I hope so if I ever make it to that day thank you nonna
No. 1064611
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its V-day tommorrow and i don't have a gf because im too fat and ugly,i hate life.
No. 1064774
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>>1064740How long is it that heavy for? Like does bleeding so hard make your period really short or do you just have enough uterine lining to make a blanket out of it?
No. 1064779
>>1063848>Doctors are utterly worthless for anything that isn't blindingly apparent.>Like I literally cannot even get blood work done, I ask for specific things and they take my blood and a week later they say the numbers are fine. I ask for the raw data and they say sure they'll mail it to me and then don't.all of this post hit for me. i'm also suffering from chest pains that no doctor could seem to diagnose; i went to like, four, got bullshit results and bullshit treatment from all of them, and just gave up. it's been two years since that doctor speedrun. so i just want you to know i understand.
it's so evil that people get a job that requires them to care about other people, and just don't. hope every shitty unsympathetic doctor kills themselves – or better yet, loses their license.
No. 1064795
>>1064774Heavy for 2-3 days. My periods last around 5 days, sometimes 6.
I once had a big clot that was half the size of an iPhone.
No. 1064886
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>see cute weird doll that looks like she'd be bffs with another doll I own
>visit faceup artist's twitter for more pictures
>fall in love
>the artist also seems to be new
>look at second accounts the faceup artist promotes in their bio
>it's full of hardcore lolicon shit, they even drew for a lolicon magazine
>now can't unsee that they probably designed the doll with some fetish shit in mind too
No. 1064906
>>1064818I read a youtube comment yesterday where an angry scrote (watching a vid about things like the orgasm gap) declared that women should be the ones paying men for sex because men do all the hard work… yes dude give up your day job and try to make that happen. Have the exact same type of sex you're having right now and then charge for it… see how many repeat customers will pay for your hard work you gigilo level sexual beast of a man. Men who camp out under vids about womens issues and who do nothing but spam harass women are definitely the best lays of all and worth paying for.
I'm guilty of having the shittest sex and not saying anything because I'd no idea if the guy would get pissed off or petty over my honest feedback. I've had guys brag about that orgasm I just had when tbh I was left scratching my head because I didn't have one. How do you make belief seeing an orgasm like that? I've had an ex just keep on escalating the amount of fetish shit he wanted when he wasn't even giving me a semi-regular orgasm in return. I wasn't getting basic pleasure and he wanted the most I've ever had a man think to ask (pester, beg) me for. He made it seem reasonable to never give up with these demands and I wondered if I was losing my damn mind arguing this shit with him. I've been berated by that same man for not providing a very 'out there' sex act when I never signed up to do it in the first place. I want to go back and smack the dumb out of my younger self for tolerating so much sexual bs, so much sex that wasn't worth having. I just gave up on wanting sex after being subjected to that guy in particular. Desire gone.
I know that alot of us don't feel like we can give honest feedback and be safe doing it. The older you get the more you see the shortcomings of those early days. Men (especially those chasing young young women) have no idea when they're a bad lay. The ones who brag about what cool shit their past lovers said about them in the sack.. usually the worst and building up a story of sexual success so you feel like you can't complain. I've had a virgin fuck better straight out of the gate. He was nervous as hell and still one of my better memories. Men with years of experience under their belt are somehow fucking worse than virgins are. They're picking up selfish habits and getting too cocky all as they essentially unlearn how to please a woman. Any time I hear a guy say "Well I've never heard any complaints about my performance hehe" … where do I even start in explaining how that comes to be. It's not the brag they think it is.
No. 1064970
>>1064906Great post.
>Men with years of experience under their belt are somehow fucking worse than virgins are. Because virgins are new and actually try to be more sensual. But they can change too as their egos grow.
I've had 2 men in my life and they both completely ignored my preferences and obvious signs I was uncomfortable. I have no interest in sex or dating when a vibrator is so much better and safer, both physically and emotionally. If I want to stop having an orgasm a day, I'll go get myself a man.
No. 1065173
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>be me
>have a fucked up digestive system
>Only able to eat some things
>stomach aches pretty badly
>see some (allowed) food
>yay
>sister wakes up
>"That's actually for me"
>"B-but could you eat something else? please, i can only eat this atm"
>"No"
>chaos ensues
>family now pissed at me
>stomach aches getting worse, no pills nearby, get frustrated
>call her a dumbass
>chaos ensues again, even though she calls me retard, dumbass, etc on regular basics
>"wow anon that was not okay"
>mfw
No. 1065178
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I keep having these realizations about how fucking dysfunctional I am. I can't get shit done. I can't even make myself do stuff I genuinely want to, let alone the things I'm supposed to. 85% of the books I have on my shelf I never touched even though I'm interested in them. I have a long list of films in my head that I always wanted to watch but somehow the actual sitting-down-and-watching-them part has never happened. The other day it dawned on me that I've had the Chernobyl TV show on my hard drive ever since it came out and never watched it and it came out in fucking 2019. I recklessly order food and spend a ridiculous amount of money. How do normal people live day-to-day? Like how the fuck do they just do stuff? Also….are my hobbies even my hobbies if I have to force myself to do them and can't even do them consistently?? I feel like every fucking day is a struggle
No. 1065246
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I just got word that my job is planning to lay off people and I told my sister who throws this shit on me. Fuck these stupid ass bitches who think that thinking positive thoughts are somehow gonna make their lives better.
No. 1065261
>>1065246Fingers crossed, I hope you keep your job (if you want to)
>>1065256Set a timer, and start with 10 minutes! take a break and come back to it. just handle it in bits!
No. 1065311
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>>1065282spot on. definitely felt that. if you're really in the shits, you can only ''complain'' to people who are right down there with you, which is bittersweet, since it's usually the people who you care about. the ones who aren't can't relate so they look at you like other, feel relief that they're not you, or pity you. that's why you keep it in. reason for apostrophes is that complaining is different from trauma dumping and trauma bonding. if your ''complaints'' go beyond anything that's the normal and the mundane and the ocasionally out of the norm mishaps, then it's no longer complaining, and something you should take up with a professional or a diary or someone you really truly trust. other people are just trying to live their lives, and don't owe you anything, not even to listen to you.
inb4 don't reply to bait!!! i know im replying to romanian-anon, but this is truly how i feel and this is the vent thread after all.
No. 1065314
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I feel like this year is going to be all about growth for me, but I’m at that uncomfortable spot where I need to start letting go of my old self, which I really really don’t want to.
Last night I dreamt I was walking through town on a festival night and I met and started flirting with a cute guy, but when we got to a bar he turned into my ex and all I could do was give him an awkward hug and leave. I went back to my apartment but it was full of my old hs classmates celebrating a joint birthday, and as soon as I stepped in the energy died and they all stared at me and giggled amongst themselves. I can’t wait until this part of it is over and I can start cultivating on all the progress I’ve made because this is just painful.
No. 1065325
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another day of writing applications for jobs and internships that i will be rejected from anyways based on my lack of prior experience. at this point i should just take advantage of still being listed as a student and find some minimum wage retail job or barista job before i'll be rejected from those as well because my degree makes me over qualified for such jobs.
No. 1065335
>>1065311it's not even fucking bait. If I post something that is an unpopular opinion or that offends the vast majority of people, it's not bait. This is why I use a fucking imageboard, to share out of the ordinary thoughts and observations.
It only seems like bait, because the people which my post seems like it is targeting get offended, but truthfully I am not even targeting anyone, I'm just making empirical observations of the world around me. People in bad situations close down inside themselves and also stay incredibly positive because their situation is so bad that a small shift in their attitude could mean that they are gonna turn homeless. Meanwhile, people that are somewhat financially secure can afford to be incredibly negativistic and also complain a lot. I think everything is tied down to financial privilege.
No. 1065337
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>therapy is tough as fuck
>gradually starting to hate my workplace
>trying to deal with my shitty body image
>dating life going nowhere
>pushing myself to continually take care of my personal relationships despite being exhausted
>doing my best to support all of my friends that are struggling with their own lives at the moment
>no one to talk to for emotional relief because of above point
I just want a hug nonas, I want to cry in someone's arms and just feel taken care of for once
No. 1065354
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>>1065348wow you sure got me queen
No. 1065364
>>1065355I am not. I just realized this at an early age, that complaining is reserved for people in good situations. When I was in middle school and high school I always hid my issues because my life had been so bad and I never spoke up for myself, but the ones in relatively secure financial/family situations were the ones constantly complaining about
le mental illness and how hard is. I've observed this in absolutely all social groups, those truly damaged with truly bad lives are simply not allowed to speak up and those that take up the entire room complaining are those in relatively ok situations, so I said fuck it to all of this and I thought it's literally financial class oppressions. If you have money you are allowed to do anything in society, even complain about being poor, while the actual poor never complain. I wish for people in truly bad situations to speak up and not care about the narcissists filling out the room or the people willing to drag them down for opening up and speaking about the atrocities they have endured
No. 1065368
>>1065361they're stupid mindless drone NPC that change their opinion and personality according to whatever is in trend. FUCK AMERICA HONESTLY. AMERICA HAS CAUSED ALL OF THIS WOKE BULLSHIT. THE MOST CANCEROUS NATION IN THE WORLD
WOKEISM=CAPITALISM
No. 1065378
>>1065374YEA. BITCH READ MY POST I SAID THAT I AM NOT AFRAID OF COMPLAINING AND THAT I AM NOT AFRAID OF SPEAKING UP ABOUT THE ATROCITIES OF MY LIFE OR MAKING PEOPLE
UNCOMFORTABLE AND I WISH THIS FOR ALL THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN BAD SITUATIONS, I WISH FOR THEM TO JUST UNAPOLOGETICALLY COMPLAIN
No. 1065389
>>1065382yea thanks kill yourself stupid cunt just suffer in misery I am placing a curse on you
My mom killed herself, my family situation has always been shit, I never had money and in high school and middle school those with
le depresshiun and
le mental illness were always those in good situations while me and another girl who had horrible home lives had to hide and always stay positive and be empathetic towards everyone and we didn't have mental illness, right????I was beaten, tortured, raped, starved, in misery, full of intestinal worms my entire childhood, neglected, beaten but I always had to act like the personal therapist of richer people than me or try to not step on the
feeee fees of those that run social groups and narcissists. Fuck all of you, if you had lived my life for a second you would have already ended up in prison
No. 1065403
>>1065325Ohhhh that's such a cute pic anon! I love Lolly.
I don't know what field you're in but have you tried to look for temporary contracts through recruitment agencies? You're probably technically overqualified but I had a job like that (and all 5 of my peers also just graduated, first job) and as soon as I had relevant industry experience I was being harassed on linkedin for job opportunities near daily. I only found this out after I got the job, but I guess it's win win. The employers know they're getting a more or less competent person for "cheap" and the applicant gets that all important experience, and since it's so short term you're not judged by future employers for jumping ship.
Or maybe at this point you're sick of job advice actually kek
No. 1065405
and my entire life will be affected by my childhood. Your life is set by your parents and socio economical situation from childhood. My entire life I will be mentally ill, poor and struggling because this has already been set for me and I will probably end up in an unheated apartment starving to death with nobody to help me like my mum, although my mum was a genius nobody helped her. The government and friends are not fuckinng real-friends are a lie. Friends is just economical exchange. If shit hits the fan nobody helps you but your family and if you don't have one or you're poor you're fucked. I had to see my mom, a genius. She could speak 5 languages, draw amazing landscapes and had a Phd in chemistry, I had to watch her die from mental illness and starve in poverty and nobody fucking helped her. With treatment, advice, food, money and her illness became too bad and they fired her from her prof position when I was 5 years old and she ended up jumping from 9th floor and I had to attend her funeral alone at 18 years old with nobody else there and I had no fucking money and I had to lend money from the bank because i had to pay for her funeral.
MONEY= EVERYTHING
if you don't have money, you don't have anything and you could also be very smart and kind person with a lot of skills but that does not mean you will make money. Capital is not distributed by talent or passion or even skill, it is purely distributed towards those that are manipulative enough to make money and that can play social games.
The socio-economical status of your family dictates your entire life forever. You are your parents, their poverty or richness, their trauma, their vices. You cannot escape your family and the world has such organization that if something bad happens and you cannot make money anymore you are literally made to die. To society you are just a disposable object that makes money, the moment in which you cannot make money anymore you're good to be disposed of and go to the trash, no matter how valuable you are as an indiviudal.
>>1065394you never read my fucking posts, you just read what your mind wants to make up about me. I never made 10k because I wouldn't get naked, I said that I could make it if I went through with it, but my values did not allow me to and exactly my communist, marxist values did not allow me to because it felt like I was losing my essence and turning into a cardboard cut out getting naked for coomers and I couldn't allow myself to do that, but I could have made a lot of money if not restrained by my belief system. I've got accused of so much shit on here from being told that I am jealous or ugly whore that totally wanted to be a camwhore although I have posted 1000 of times about my life situation. It's not hard to connect the dots. Sometimes I think about it and wish I could go back to it? Because money could literally solve all my issues, but something inside of myself is not allowing me to do it. I never made money because I never proceeded with getting naked or masturbating, because something inside of myself did not allow for that. I had been abused, raped my entire childhood and the money I could make as a camgirl could literally have made my life so much better but the values I have make it unable for me to proceed with it. I am mentally ill and I will probably never be able to hold down a normal job. But then you're all gonna make shit out about me. Everything you say or interpret from my posts is always a fucking huge lie.
No. 1065423
>>1065405My parents abused the shit out of me and we started off upper middle then plunged to middle then lower middle class, I don't understand how you can somehow equate money to other factors, just because you can somehow more easily get out of your situation? Spoiler alert: if your parents are
abusive or your family situation and mental health is shit then it's shit regardless of situation. I watched mine plunge in socioeconomic status but they were always the same old crazy asshats at the end of it all. And too much money can make one
abusive and megalomaniacal on their own. I don't really get your argument, I understand where you're coming from, but there is nuance to this subject beyond money. Money ain't going to solve everything, just look at all the unhappy rich people. You can have a shit childhood regardless of your family's economic status, shit parents don't suddenly cease to be shit parents because you're rich
No. 1065430
>>1065414How was me at 18 years old after my mom commited suicide while I was suicidal 24/24 working at mcdonalds more beneficial for the world than leading on coomers on some online platform? I was fucking homeless and tried to kill myself 30 times can you shut the fuck up. I was barely 18 and couldnt hold down some shit 400 euro slave job, I ended up being homeless, someone introduced me to it, I was desperate so I did it and I could have gone through with it in the sense that I could have made being a camwhore my job and I would have made a lot of money by now because I am beautiful, but I couldn't. Do you understand? I couldn't because my values did not allow me to. I am exactly a
victim of society and a
victim of capitalism. If I had financial stability and emotional stability in my family I could have worked a wagecuck job but how unstable everything was made it impossible. HOW IS WAGECUCK
YOU'RE SO FUCKING STUPID IF YOU KNEW ANYTHIGN ABOUT REAL COMMUNISM YOU'D KNOW THAT MARX WANTED TO OVERTHROW THE GOVERNMENT. WHY THE FUCK WOULD I CONTRIBUTE TO THE FINANCIAL EMPIRE OF ANOTHER PERSON WHICH IS MOST LIKELY A SCROTE THAT USES HIS POWER TO OPRESS OTHERS???? BE IT SOME NARCISSIST RUNNING THE GOVERNMENT, BE IT SOME NARCISSIST RUNNING A SEX WORK WEBSITE, BEING SOME NARCISSIST RUNNING SOME MEGA CORPORATION CHAIN LIKE MCDONALDS. IF YOU UNDERSTOOD COMMUNISM YOU'D KNEW ALL OF THESE ARE ABSOLUTELY THE SAME. AND WAGECUCKING IN ROMANIA IS NOT LIKE 1ST WORLD HERE YOU GET PAID 300 EUROS FOR AN IMMENSE WORK LOAD AND THE FOOD IS AS EXPENSIVE AS 1ST WORLD AND CLOTHES ARE AS EXPENSIVE AND RENT IS EXPENSIVE. I am not even a camgirl and haven't been one in almsot 2 years and I didn't even get naked, hence why i didnt make much money but I could have had if I did, but I never wanted to be a camgirl. I just needed money so I tried to get some simps to pay me for building some parasocial relationship but my groomers and the coomers on the website I worked on wanted to get me stuck there forever and get naked and do porn stuff
>>1065412Leftists are now a tool used by capitalism and corporatism in AMerica. There's no true leftism anymore due to the extremity of free market capitalism. The overlords running the world don't want an actual movement which actually fights against capitalism. THE MARXIST AND LEFTIST MOVEMENT WHICH WAS THE ONE SUPPOSED TO OVERTHROW THE GOVERNMENT AND TO OVERTHROW CAPITALISTIC OVERLORDS HAS BEEN BOYCOTTED BY THE CORPORATIONS THROUGH BRAIN WASHING AND SOCIAL MEDIA AND BY THE RICH. NOW ONLY THE RICH ASSOCIATE THEMSELVES WITH COMMUNISM THERE IS NO POLITICAL MOVEMENT ANYMORE THAT ACTUALLY FIGHTS AGAINST CAPITALISM OR CAPITALISTIC ABUSE AND AMERICAN CAPITALISM AND CORPORATISM WANTED TO DO THIS TO THE LEFTIST MOVEMENT. NOW WE ARE MEETING THE POLITICAL PARADOX, THE POLITICAL PARADOX MEANS THAT THE RIGHT WING IS TURNING MORE INTO WHAT THE LEFT WING WAS SUPPOSED TO BE. LEFT WINGERS WERE THE ONES THAT SHOULD HAVE FOUGHT AGAINST BIG PHARMA, VACCINES, THE ONES QUESTIONING SOCIETY AND THE GOVERNMENT BUT INSTEAD THEY ARE LITTLE DRONES TO THE GOVERNMENT THEY ARE CONSOOMERS BRAIN WASH ONE ANOTHER INTO BECOMING SLUTS FOR THE BIG PHARMA FOR THEIR ENTIRE LIFE. BEING TRANS ONLY BENEFITS CORPORATIONS. CORPORATIONS WANT YOU TO BE TRANS BECAUSE IT MAKES THEM MONEY. NOT TO MENTION ALMOST ALL PEOPLE INVOLVED WITH THE LEFT ARE NOT EVEN POOR OR THE WORKING CLASS, THEY ARE RICH AND HUGE CONSOOMERS AND THEIR IDEOLOGY HAS TRANSFORMED IN SUCH WAY THAT IS SUPPORTS CAPITALISTIC ABUSE AND THE DYSTOPIAN FUTURE. OUR WORLD IS BEING EASILY DESTROYED BY CAPITALISM AND TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCEMENT. IN 100 YEARS THE LIFE ON EARTH WILL BE DYSTOPIAN AND IN 200 YEARS THE WORLD WILL BECOME UNHABITABLE DUE TO CAPITALISM
>>1065423Yes, I agree but just think about it, having
abusive parents and being poor is way worse than having
abusive parents and being rich.
Nobody wants to make a revolution. We need a revolution or the human species might literally end and the only ones with a bit of revolutionary blood left in them happen to be right wingers. If you tell any leftie you want to overthrow pharmaceutical companies and capitalism and kill actual rich people like Hasan Abi they will call you a schizo meanwhile they keep
marxist as a way to define themselves on Twitter. Marx would have never written the manifesto if he knew how it has been corrupted by capitalism.
No. 1065436
>>1065405You don't even know who these anons are, for all you know they could have difficult lives too. You just assume you're the only one who understands. You're right though with how money is everything, without it you're truly trapped in whatever situation you're in. Nobody will help you.
>>1065430I get it, but the average anon is quite conservative and thinks you should just pull yourself up by your own bootstraps. They don't see you as any different from all the other lefties, because you don't think it's worth it to work for McDonalds for pennies. There's no point trying to explain. Go scam scrotes pls
No. 1065453
>>1065434yes but I don't believe in Psychiatry anymore, each psychiatrist I've been to has diagnosed me with something different. I did one of those in-depth personality disorder tests and I scored very high for OCD. The DSM is non sensical and symptoms of mental illness overlap with symptoms of other mental illness, to the point it could be even said there's one huge mental illness, or that if you are abused or have a certain genetical influence you will get symptoms that fit with a lot of mental illnesses.
I was diagnosed with panic disorder, chronic depression, OCD, BPD, schizotypal disorder, Bipolar, all by different docs. I just don't believe in mental health anymore and I refuse to take meds, I used to be addicted to benzodiazepines and used to take medications, but I realized it was just a way of pleasing the world. I do not have delusions, hallucinations, displaced emotions.
>>1065436it's funny because my values are more aligned with conservative American values than woke values. Real communists don't believe the woke bullshit and see through it. I am Christian Orthodox and I have been keeping this value since my childhood because my country practices it. I literally go to church every weekend and have been for the past 10 years. I hate woke shit, like promoting sex work, pronouns, gender ideology. I am skeptical of the vaccine, but all of these are at core marxist ( a lot of values which modern right wingers in America hold) because Marxism is the ideology that fights against the government and against capitalism. Wokeism is resulted from American capitalism. What the American conservatives don't understand is that the values they fight against so much PURELY EXIST ONLY BECAUSE AMERICA EXISTS. IF AMERICA NEVER HAPPENED WE WOULDN'T HAVE ALL THIS MENTAL ILLNESS WITH PRONOUNS, GENDER IDENTITY, OBSESSION WITH RACE, MEGA CORPORATE CAPITALISM. They say they love America so much, but it is exactly the values that have been born solely because of America that they fight against. America has changed capitalism completely and took it to another level and it is because of America that WOKE values exist. America has shifted the political compass and redifined both Marxism and communism, but in the past it was not as bad and leftist liberals were not as bad, but with the creation of the internet leftists are used as a tool of the government and capitalism. The government, which is ran by capitalism and corporations is trying to get complete control over the population through brain washing techniques implemented through social media
We are entering a new era of society because of modern capitalism and technology and it is very grim.
No. 1065454
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>Heard Arthur ended
>Final episode shows kids grown up
>Mfw Arthur looks weird
>Francine appears, not sure how I feel
>D.W. still sports the same haircut as an adult
I feel like it was rushed. I think the Calvin and Hobbes route would have been better.
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I had the worst day today nonnies. I need to vent.
I woke up feeling really cold during yesterday's night. I had to get up really early in the morning and I was tired the whole day. I hate getting up before 7.
After work I wanted to sit in a cafe for a pancake with cappuccino. I had to wait 20 minutes before the waitress got to me but the last pancake got sold right before me. I just left.
After that I ran to catch the bus, tripped, ripped my jeans, hurt my leg and got a bloody knee.
When I got home I got ready for a date I was hyped about, waited and waited for a message but got ghosted instead.
Tomorrow I have the longest work/classes day in a long time with 3 combined hours of commuting in the city buses/subway and I won't even have time to sleep enough today. I'm so tired I can't keep my concentration on during classes.
It can't get any worse.
I wish I could turn back time and be 19 again. Choose a different life with the knowledge I have now.
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idk if this is a vent so much but it feels like one but i'm so so tired of anxiety ruling my thoughts and making me think of ALL and every single worst outcome to ever apply to a situation.
i took my moms cat and he lives with me now, i finally took him off her for good because her dumb ass didn't even want to pay £80 to start his vaccination programme or get his health checked up at the vets. didn't even get him insurance.
i'm sorting all those things out for him now even though he's a little older (around 7 i'm guessing) but i cannot help but think as soon as i'll step foot into the vets office they'll tell me something is seriously wrong with him or that i need to pay xyz in order to fix him up. i've started to brush his teeth, improve his diet and the vaccines are booked but i'm just so scared of going in there and my brain is constantly cycling through the worst case scenarios.
i sound stupid yes but this cat means so much to me, i would do anything for this cat. he doesn't even seem unhealthy - his teeth could do with a little work but he still loves to eat, play and likes to be touched and enjoys going outside. his coat is also becoming very shiny and full since he moved in with me.
i wanna punch myself for not getting things booked/sorted for him sooner. i just really hope he lives a long healthy life. i don't even like pet insurance but the only reason i'm getting it is because i couldn't live with myself if i had to choose between money or my cats life. i also hate myself for even having to think about the worst thoughts or have such a pessimistic mindset in general.
picrel, it's my cat.
No. 1065525
>>1065513>>1065454Clipped from a news outlet: Arthur’s sister, D.W., is now a traffic cop. His best friend, Buster, is a schoolteacher. Francine runs a sneaker company. Muffy is running for mayor. Binky is an enthusiastic weatherman. And George now manages the Sugar Bowl.. No mentions of Brain, Sue Ellen, Fern, Jenna, Pruenella, Emily, or Tibbles. If I missed someone, they weren't mentioned. Also no cameos of older parents. Kate is a student of Buster's? Very confused as 20 years later, Kate should be 20. Kek. Make it make sense. No. 1065542
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>>1065537Fuck this gay earth lordt take me
No. 1065557
>>1065453I agree post capitalist society is a problem, but it's looking like there's little to stop it. I also agree that I'm hella skeptical of psychiatry, and currently feel helpless without my meds. Pills for the most part have broken my brain with the exception of lamictal and the one anti anxiety med I took. I can relate to you in aspects romananon, my hopelessness in the world has overtaken me and I couldn't care less about the bullshit in it and it's happenings. Just finding security and love that I know I will never have. Even in temporary form. What hurts is that the only thing I can see helping me, since I'm now an adult with a grim future, is money, but more than money. I just want security. I wish society weren't like this either. We are undermining the people at the top who are causing the most damage by feeding into them, but how are we supposed to overthrow them? It's a helplessness that extends beyond america, and as an American, I get you. I think if we could meet halfway instead of infighting all the time we'd gain a lot more understanding. I can sense your frustration, it's sad we don't have a solution for it. I have tried to bend technology to my will not to destroy me, and it has. Over and over. Yet I feel like I've reclaimed some of myself in that. Self awareness. I hate that the beauty of what was once great; our advancements, have become so banal
If it weren't for technology I also couldn't communicate with any of you. Surely there is a way we can take back our power. As people, as women, as the disenfranchised. I want to believe one day I'll be great enough to overcome the hell I've been dealt, and for the rest of you, I wish the same. All I'm down to at this point of nihilistic anger is wishing, hoping, and trying to understand. Even if I don't agree with some of you guys, all the time, I would like to hear you out. I'm not envious or angry, I'm not resentful, i'm so tired that I have freed myself from my concern, all that remains is emptiness. Is this true sadness? That I am feeling? I may not survive 2023 at this point, but our differences and similarities aside, we're all here for a reason, then why does that reason sometimes feel so lonely?
Whole lotta goobledegock, I wish you well romanon, I really do. Other people may shit on you sometimes, but I'm genuinely at the point of unwellness myself where I can't criticize you. Dare I say I understand you.
No. 1065573
>>1065557>but it's looking like there's little to stop itNTA but capitalism, just as any other old system, will be replaced by a more progressive system (just as capitalism is more progressive than feudalism) when it's time and possibly through violent revolution. Not now though, it's probably got a couple hundred years left. Nothing in history is permanent, even human beings adapt and evolve, so a system cannot exist forever.
I hope some positive changes come about in my lifetime, even if I don't get to see capitalism collapse.
No. 1065635
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My team leader invited me and a couple of other workers for her birthday dinner because she already considers us "part of the team" yada yada yada but I'm not going because I don't want to miss the premiere of a new episode of Attack on Titan. See this is what I mean when I say autism ruins my social life. I mean, I know that even if I go there, everyone is going to have a great time and I'm just gonna sit awkwardly not talking to anyone, because I don't feel like I have anything in common with them and I have nothing to talk about, and every time I try to talk it's cringe and it's just like 3 sentences and our "conversation" ends. Just being around them at work makes me insane. Sitting with them for 2 hours in a more pirivate setting would be just suicide fuel. I already refused two times when they invited me for a party, I'm scared that it will somehow influence the way my manager treats me, although she already treats me less fair and with bigger reserve than my normie coworker, even though our technical skills are on the same level and I never committed any mistakes unlike her. But she's super friendly and talkative so of course another normie will acknowledge her more than me.
I feel so insignificant and lonely in this world, I will never have any friends or a lover because the wall between me and other people is just too high. There's no possible way to get any satisfaction from interacting with others.
No. 1065641
>>1065636you’re acting like she said something simply bad like the n-word a long time ago, she
raped a child. it doesn’t matter if she was also a child at the time that does not reduce the harm she has spread and caused to other people just because she was abused too. people think children have the mental capacity of severely disabled people and don’t understand morality but they do, you would think logically the child who understands something really sinister is happening to them and other people they wouldn’t want that to continue to happen to other people. come the fuck on, really anon? she needs to end herself or get locked up permanently along with her abusers
No. 1065648
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>>1065629I was 8 years old and a 20 year old male molested me for 3 months and made me drink his piss until I lost my mind, in the village I used to live in all children would molest one another. I started taking the pants off little boys and making them touch themselves. I was a childhood abuse
victim in a place with no running water, toilets or basic education. All the kids from that village are now in prison for various crimes and the girls are street hookers. You don't understand how circumstances shape your psyche, especially as a child. I wonder how you would have done in my place? Probably absolutely the same, if not even worse. The place I lived in was literally like Gummo. I was being raped by a 20 year old scrote and all the children in there would mutually molest one another. The levels of trauma I have been through are that of a war veteran or worse and I've never been offered help for it.
No. 1065651
>>1065641are you Steven or something? she was eight. She was sexually abused and repeated (didn't
rape anyone. 8 year old girls can't rape ffs) those behaviors. of course it's horrible but it's retarded to blame her as an adult for it
>people think children have the mental capacity of severely disabled peoplethey literally do? children who are physically abused at home often are physically
abusive towards other kids. They repeat the behaviors they learned at home. Would you also blame an adult for bullying other kids when they were
eight?
No. 1065656
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Can’t fucking stand opening my message requests and looking in the spam folder and seeing a bunch of “hey” “hi” “hello gorgeous” from some random pajeets
No. 1065664
>>1065648>I wonder how you would act in my placeI wouldn’t because even though god is a stinky fictional XY he loves me and made me not be born in a euroshit country like romania which is clearly full of awful people and a clear lack of law enforcement. He also didn’t make me white trash <3
>>1065651she still harmed other children and might I add she also mentioned killing other animals and torturing them for fun. and honestly yes I would still blame an adult for bullying someone when they were 8 because that’s where children absorb values that will stick with them for life. a bully doesn’t truly learn their listen they are nearly forced to integrate into normal society and play chameleon in order to get a job and maintain long-term relationships unless they hang out with equally obnoxious people. no one truly learns their lesson the right way they are just given the benefit of the doubt and no one usually gives a fuck to obtain justice. i’m tired of this, i get that she was brutally abused and lived in pig scraps but going on here and breaking many rules and trying to get attention acting like we will ever solve her problems is annoying. she is a
victim but she clearly has a duty to herself and others to make things right, LC isn’t gonna do shit for her with her constant sob stories (which we will never really know the full story). she is borderline a lolcow yet I see other anons defending that piece of shit? wrong move. i’m not that ugly ass steven it’s frustrating seeing this all the time
No. 1065673
>>1065664<3 obvious newfag, go back to Twitter
are you literally jealous of me getting scraps of attention from random strangers on a bottle cap collecting forum because I vent about being brutally abused?
You lack basic empathy or are underaged. I think you might be an actual sociopath. You are jealous over a girl born in a 3rd world shithole and you think that people that are being abused or born in bad situations are at fault for it. You are
1. A mentally incapacitated adult unable of fostering empathy
2. A child.
3. Shitposting
(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 1065678
>>1065664>>1065629stfu you faggot, you really think you're morally superior to romanianon, uh? Steven, you're a psychopath, pull your head out of your ass and kys
>i’m not that ugly ass stevenglad you acknowledge that you're fugly, you useless, worthless scrote
No. 1065684
>>1065645You’re right,
nonnie, the anons talking about
>uwu y-you draw the line at coffins when we talk about le twansphobia and fatphobia?!?! How dare you disrespect the fat trans womerinos?! Y-you incubator!Are brain dead tbh, and either idiotic handmaidens or males. I honestly don’t see how making fun of a nasty ass man or some stupid fatty is “edgy”. That thread is just full of retards.
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>>1065674>bigger cow than the child molester and animal abuser kek you anons never fail to make me laugh, not everyone is a male or a “twitterfag” trying to troll I was literally there when she shat up the previous vent thread with her story trying to gather a personal army and the whole chaos with steven posting his ugly disgraceful selfies in typical scrote pride, disrupting the entirety of the thread for a good few hours because she was attention-hungry as any lolcow would be. constantly talking about wanting to commit suicide rather than actually doing it because she’s also a huge broken narcissist. steven and fuck romanian-anon
No. 1065743
>>1065740yes, what romanianon did wasn't rape, you can go read her post I don't want to repeat it because it's disgusting
>>1065734>they literally arethey are not by any measure, you're the only one who thinks this and it's extremely male of you
No. 1065744
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HI MY NAME IS Steven AND I CAME HERE TO HELP YOU NONNA, TO HELP YOU HEAL AND GROW BECAUSE YOUR'E SO, SO IMPORTANT TO THIS WORLD HONEY MUAKS XOXO. NOW TELL ME ALL YOUR SECRETS, YOU DEEPEST FEARS, I WILL HEAR YOU BECAUSE I'M HERE FOR YOU AND I WILL SAVE YOU FROM DESPAIR, I'M YOUR HERO AND YOUR GUARDIAN ANGEL
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>>1065740You realize how she doesn’t make any connection as to why she raped other children? She was also abused but she was never forced by her abuser to participate in the molestation which you would think would happen in that situation. She’s deliberately missing lots of details in her own story because she’s probably hiding a lot of shitty things she has done. We fucking get it children repeat behaviors but she still harmed children LMAO
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JFC I can’t believe you retards are still at it, whether you give a fuck or not about romanianon, nothing we say will be of use to her and Steven should listen to our advice and kill himself already.
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Highkey just want to be a VTuber as a profession, too bad i wasn't blessed with uwu cute anime girl voice kek, my job is ok, i make an ok amount of money for my age, but i feel so lonely, i don't want to make irl friends because of the classic autism but I want to feel like im actually talking to people.
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I hope the moid kills himself soon tbh.
No. 1065770
>>1065757I know that feel,
nonnie, I wish I could become a retarded Vtuber talking about whatever I want and getting paid for it.
No. 1065783
>>1065772Ok retard. I seriously don’t understand why you bunch of mongoloids keep talking about romanianon the retard and Steven the waste of resources who should kill himself as soon as possible.
You faggots are samefaging and pretending to be other anons for no reason and it’s getting obnoxious as fuck.
Shut the fuck up already and go fuck yourself.
No. 1065905
>>1065899I used my vibrator on my breast when I had a clogged milk duct when I was breast feeding. Yes it was clean and I had a t shirt wrapped around it. But vibrators have all kinds of uses.
Sorry about your depression and dying cat Nona.
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I genuinely despise positive people, they're the fakes types of neanderthals out there. I would %100 go with a mean ass girl because at least I know she is honest, but them fake ass "positivity good vibes only" hoes are the WORST because they are lying their teeth off 24/7. I'm low vibration, full on negativity,hope you get the rare type cancer bitch and I love it. Mean Girl Gang for Love.
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hellom im very drunk but ive been reading "stigma" by erving goffman and as someone with a cleft lip/palate i found the passage in the preface explaining that those with physical differences are perceived by others to be "not quite human" to be so incredibly cathartic to my own experience with having to exist in society and with strangers seeing on their faces the judegents and discernments flash across their faces as they first meet you. i just want to sperg out and say that anyone with a "physical difference" even being particualrly asymmetrical without an actual disfunction, that i love you and the whole world is a big fuck. and i am sorry. i am going to watch youtube poops for the rest of the nigjt now goodnight
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Normally I don't cry a lot but I've been crying everyday recently because of my intrusive thoughts of being molested as a child and sometimes I get so scared to go to bed and wake up abruptly, panicking and struggling to breath.
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Anon with the dying grandpa from the temp /g/ thread, unfortunately his condition has only gotten worse, he had another stroke yesterday and he’s been in and out of consciousness ever since. He’s got a DNR order so even if I can’t be there with him I know that it’s just a matter of time until he passes and he’s not going to suffer through any resus attempts.
Emotionally I’m a wreck bc his first stroke coincided with me getting a big promotion at work which I can barely focus on. I’ve been working from home all week but had to come in today to sort out a very time sensitive fault. It got me really stressed out and the people I had to work with lost their patience with me, and all it took was one of my coworkers asking me about my week as I was heading home and I completely lost it, I had a breakdown right at the moment that a bunch of people walked through our office, and most of them showed up after I had the chance to explain my grandpa was sick, they could only assume I was in hysterics because someone had a poor tone when talking to me.
I feel so pathetic, the whole time I’ve been there I’ve been working hard to not be seen as some silly little college girl and I feel like I’ve just undone all of it. This promotion was a huge step up in responsibility and it came on because my team senior, who at a time like this I would have been leaning on to help me with my workload, just quit and had his last day on Friday. I feel like all the work I’ve done is worth nothing now, it doesn’t matter how much I’ve gotten done within only eight months of being there, all that matters is that I left the office in tears and made a bunch of people uncomfortable. So fucking over everything right now.
No. 1066081
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>>1066051oh anon, ive never come across someone else here who also has a cleft lip/palate, its heartening to find someone else like that out in the wild. i feel you, the way people look away in revulsion. sometimes they even continue to stare at you, but never at your eyes, always at the scars and misshapen features on your face. from the moment they see you, and recognise you as looking "wrong" they disregard you completely, you are hardly human to them, just an unpleasant eyesore to avoid. enjoy your ytps.
No. 1066099
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One of my best friends sat down and explained to me that my ex was an abusive fuck, and that I need to stop convincing myself that we were just a mismatch that ended up toxic. I've already gotten told that he was abusive by a couple of other friends but I only thought they were being over protective, but this friend happens to also be a close friend with his current girlfriend that he manipulates the same way as he did with me.
What makes it all hurt, and makes me want to stay in denial, is that my only other adult relationship was also abusive. Knowing I've been in two different kinds of abusive relationships is a harsh blow to my pride and confidence, still trying to cope and the conversation with my friend is making my head spin in all kinds of directions. I don't know what do or think with/about myself. I feel like shit and I don't know where to turn.
No. 1066188
>>1066099I'm not in the same situation but also in denial, so I feel for you, anon. I'd never had a significant other till I met my ex and after him I can't let myself be open and vulnerable again, so I try to keep this illusion about our deep connection that just didn't work out because of the circumstances and us being fucked up in a similar way, but in reality, he was still really manipulative and neglectful. It's hard to accept because then it feels like I've never been truly needed and loved by anyone, and it means I'm truly alone. Even though that's probably yet another illusion.
That's what I came here to vent about - how I can't even trust my feelings and how I probably sabotage this good relationship that I have right now. I don't even know if it's good tbh. My boyfriend isn't
abusive but I fear that he doesn't really love me and I'm just convenient for him. Makes me want to stop having romantic relationships at all. I can't trust myself and I can't trust another person. And it's all just a big perpetual source of disappointment. At the same time, I just want to have somebody who'd be happy to be with me.
No. 1066201
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Lately I've been procrastinating super hard on things that are important to me. How I spend my time is a reflection of my values, so I get embarrassed when I review my actions and it seems the majority of my free time has been spent refreshing Lolcow, playing video games (each one for only 10 minutes before I get bored and look for a new one), and reading mediocre fanfic to masturbate. Writing that out made it even worse because it's not only unproductive, it makes me sound like a bottom of the barrel scrote who thinks forums and vidya are valid hobbies. I refuse to continue living this way. There are some obvious solutions like making to do lists, working my way through them, forcing myself to redirect my attention when I feel myself sliding into unhealthy activities, etc., but I feel like I can't move past this until I understand the mental deficiency that put me in this hell in the first place? What am I running from? Why am I like this? Is trying to understand myself yet another form of procrastination? I just want to feel proud of myself. I want to be the well rounded, happy, thriving person that I know I can be!!!
No. 1066229
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>>1066188I'm happy someone could so eloquently put it all into words, but I'm sorry you had to go through a similar experience anon. I'm sure your current partner loves and cares for you, but your fear is really
valid! When you've only been in
abusive relationships it's hard to know what a normal relationship is supposed to be, so you can't trust your own instincts anymore. Lots of "is this a red flag or am I over reacting out of fear?" moments and second guessing yourself on top of always keeping your guard up without ever learning how to lower it.
I hope you can move on from the fear anon, one step at a time. I'm sure one day we can let ourselves be loved again, and recognize that love.
No. 1066245
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Sometimes I wish I rode the vtuber train when it was really kicking off.
No. 1066250
>>1066245Sorry
nonnie, but you would have only made it big if you were backed by an agency or had a huge following before that
No. 1066279
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>>1066035So I just talked to my therapist this week and basically told her what I said here. She said I should probably fixate less on these friends and find people who are similar to me (single, care more about committing to plans, new to the city, etc.) because my current friends might be too wrapped up in other things to be able to be as available as I want. I see what she's saying and maybe if I find people in a similar circumstance as me it'd be easier to get close, but how I do that?? And I've already tried so hard to make these friends and now I have to go and make other friends too? I know it sounds melodramatic but I kind of want to cry out of frustration lol. Why does it have to be so hard to make friends who actually want to hang out with me? Fuck fuck fuck
No. 1066290
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I haven't been drinking nearly enough in the past two months, so my hemorrhoids are flaring up again. Never skip drinking water nonas, even if it means to literally force it down your throat.
No. 1066380
>>1066053I'm so sorry anon, I know what's it like to wake up panicking like that. I like to distract myself with nature videos on youtube, or colouring or just telling myself 'I am okay. I can breathe. this will pass' anything to take my mind off how I feel. hope you get some rest from this soon nona
>>1066201well if you're anything like me, there must be something rewarding about what you're currently doing that is stopping you changing your ways. I do much the same as you and wish I were different but I can't deny living this way has its perks. it's cosy and I love being lazy. maybe it's the same for you. I don't think dedicating time to finding out why is too bad but yes, don't let the why take up too much of your time. if you want to form new habits I recommend reading james's clears books 'atomic habits' which I'm also reading now as well as implementing a habits tracker for each day and rewarding yourself when you do well.
No. 1066384
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Anons, I feel so fucking dumb. I burnt myself and ended up popping one of the 8 blisters. That really sucked but it wasn't a big deal. Well, I covered the wound with gauze and without thinking I taped over the other blisters and guess what happened? They burst when I was taking the tape off. Having one open wound was already stressing me out, and even worse, the pus got all over my fucking leg. I don't even know if I should finish popping them since they only partially burst, but I don't want to risk exposing them more. I just hope I don't get an infection.
No. 1066385
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I’m ready to be old so I can just relax. Even if my health is shit, at least I won’t have to deal with men, won’t have to work constantly, can focus on whatever hobbies I want.
No. 1066406
Modern men are such sensitive bitches. Honestly a bunch of sissy faggots. My grandpas generation was the last generation of men, now we just have overgrown boys. They cant handle shit, they cry and whine and they cant even do handywork or go die in wars. They talk about going their own way, being traditional and not caring about what women want, tell a billion misogyny jokes, yet they shit themselves and cry over the tiniest misandry joke. Oh very manly and traditional of you. Plus "traditional" in their eyes is the woman doing everything, whiie they soil their diapers and jerks off to internet porn and gets pegged in the ass. They just want a mommy, pathetic.
"Men should be able to show emotions too" bitch, all men do is whine and cry and be emotional, they need to go back to repressing that shit, sucking it up and growing up. Nobody coddles women like that, we aren't allowed to be emotional crybaby bithes either. They don't cry to eachother, or even cry because they are actually sad, its just manipulative emotional labour for women.
Instead of equality between the sexes, we now have women doing the work of both genders, while men run around like children. I'd rather be a housewife to a strong stoic man, than be a breadwinner mommy maid gf to an even more misogynistic little man boy. They are even more rapey and disgusting due to being raised by internet porn. Low bar, but I'd rather have martital rape in missionary, than be anally raped by a pornsick freak fuck. Its not like we have less rape and assault nowadays, its just normalised to rape and choke and beat women now, its "kink uwu". Shit went wrong when libs decided we needed to care about poor widdle mens feelings and that men shoukd be able to cry too.
No. 1066426
>>1066385I wanna be a based chill granny just enjoying her life with you
nonny. It's the dream.
No. 1066458
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I hate how my house, particularly my bed, is infested with bedbugs. It makes me feel filthy. It’s embarrassing. I’m trying to get an exterminator, even though I know that they’ll just come back in 6-12 months
No. 1066465
>>1066458Bedbugs suck. If you get an exterminator, see if you can find one that uses biopesticide (name brand is Apprehend but some will just say it's a biopesticide). I got an exterminator who used this because it's pet safe, but also I found that it was very effective! It was one month between first and second treatment, and will last up to three months after so any stragglers and eggs that hatch later on will walk over the pesticide and die off. It's no silver bullet but I found it to be effective. Bonus is that you don't have to remove/move stuff around.
The exterminator I hired offered it as an option because our chemical treatment with another exterminator didn't work well (because my dad's a defensive hoarder), and he talked me out of a heat treatment because I live in an apartment and it would've been waaaaaaay more expensive.
Good luck
nonnie, I'm praying you'll be free soon.
No. 1066485
>>1066458I feel ya. My apartment got infested with moths and carpet beetles and I was fucking dumb and thought they were just butterflies and bugs or whatever (I sleep with a large window open in the summer). As you said, it makes me feel filthy and disgusting.
I've just thrown out like half of my stuff because I can't be arsed to clean them and don't have room in my tiny freezer to kill off the eggs. At least got rid of old clothes I didn't need anymore. I hate those little fuckers. I'm usually a gentle person but god I love to see them suffer when I catch them and flush them down the toilet. I already had one exterminator poison all the corners and cabins, and another one is coming, plus I ordered traps that are designed to kill off all adult males (kek) and prevent them from copulating, so maybe I'll get rid of them finally.
No. 1066521
>>1066502Their population blew up because I have a lot of fur and wool clothes (I tan leather myself and sew stuff so a lot of material laying around), and they absolutely destroyed those. When I removed all fur and wool they didin't seem to care about normal clothes, though. They did infest an old carpet that I had stored, literally hundreds of them.
When it comes to food pests, tbh i don't really care, at least if they don't leave visible feces in my pantry or something. Besides, it's easy to get rid of those by putting all new food in closed containers.
No. 1066542
>>1066375You see I'm still afraid of packing things like that because of room and they can be delicate. Thank you for the suggestions though
nonnie.
>>1066376Photography is nice but I honestly don't think I have the patience for digital art or writing anymore
No. 1066548
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hurry up and finish using the computer so i can resume my masturbation session
No. 1066558
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NO ONE EVER LISTENS TO ME
No. 1066587
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Starting to think I haven’t actually had uncurable depression since age 10 and instead have just been miserable because my life is miserable.
No. 1066591
>>1066574glad i could entertain you
i do neither of those things. i was complaining because the family computer is located in my bedroom and i don’t feel comfortable doing my business outside of my bed, kek
No. 1066629
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I'm struggling to fill out this form for school in a 'high-quality' way
No. 1066642
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I hate this fucking poster. It’s been years and i keep seeing it everywhere like haha funny meme. Peta set out to put out something against wool and sheepskin coats that were popping up everywhere and completely fucked it, just because they used incorrect terminology, and gave a platform to animal abusers.
It’s already been talked about, but the people doing the shearing often hurt and abuse the sheep.
Shearling coats are made out of shorn lamb skin. So the lamb on that picture would be killed and skinned and its inside out skin made into a coat.
No. 1066644
>>1066406Jesus nona you went for the jugular there but you're absolutely right. The "more emotionally intelligent and sensitive" men are still raping us, killing us, abusing us except now they're also living off us and expecting us to not only clean up after them but also be the breadwinners. This is not equality.
>I'd rather be a housewife to a strong stoic man, than be a breadwinner mommy maid gf to an even more misogynistic little man boy.Both are hell.
No. 1066782
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This isn't really a vent, moreso a mild annoyance. I kinda dislike how one of my peers sort of shamed me for using the St. Ives Apricot cleanser and nothing else. I'd say that my skin is pretty okay- I don't have acne unless I eat unhealthily and I don't even get rid of the hairs on my face. I wouldn't mind if it wasn't the fact that she was calling my face 'unclean' because the scrub I'm using doesn't 'clean' my face. Like mfer am I gonna get sick from my face?
No. 1066963
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Have two job interviews tomorrow, I'm trying to prep a bit but I keep getting distracted bc nerves. Rethinking if it was smart to schedule them both on the same day. Realistically not amazing odds of getting them bc both have like 100 applicants. Just want a big graduate girl job, god pls
No. 1067035
I am disgusting rn, haven’t showered in 2 days. My kid is getting over a stomach bug, I wanted to last night but mostly I’m sad because I have fucking no one to validate my feelings nobody, nobody wants to help not even his fucking dad. I could’ve showered last night and he could’ve put him to sleep but nooo, I didn’t even get to brush my damn teeth last night or wash my face because right after my kid fell asleep I crashed, I’m so exhausted, my kid had the shortest nap ever today, I didn’t even get to sob in the shower as I planned to, work out nothing I didn’t get to do anything for my damn self today except be told “why are you giving me so many commands” by my retard scrote after I asked him for some wipes, being told I shouldn’t be sad over things I’m sad about And I’m sorry I’m all over the damn place but I haven’t caught a damn break I just want to escape, I to be honest just want to kms
No. 1067052
>>1066782I used St. Ives for years and never had a problem with it. Stopped using it because of all the scaremongering around 'microtears' and damaging your skin - none of which was proven BTW - so I started doing chemical exfoliation only. Found that it didn't really do anything for my skin, so I went back to gently using St. Ives on my face once a week in the shower and my skin is good. It just makes me feel like I'm actually getting rid of the crud on my face.
It's also amazing on my upper arms and legs.
No. 1067293
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I'm taking out my protective style and being reminded of how incredibly thick my hair is
No. 1067329
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Someone followed me on tumblr a while ago and after a quick look at their blog, followed them back because they posted the same kind of things I do. After a while, they started to post more personal posts and less pretty pictures, and they got kind of annoying (just your typical annoying as fuck tumblrtard, so nothing out of the ordinary, but still obnoxious) and I finally looked at their about and they have a side gore blog linked, so anyone who looks at their about can click it and go to their gore blog. And then they say to block them if it makes you uncomfortable but please don't report! What the fuck. I am so tired of these fucking freaks. Can't anybody online just be fucking NORMAL? I posted this in the dumbass shit thread and deleted because it belongs in this thread
No. 1067448
>>1067404same
I gave up on hope for other people’s behavior towards me a while back, and finally I’m lowering my standards for myself
No. 1067537
> haven't peaked yet at this point
> my husband and I move in with a TiF and her gf
> TiF met my Nigel at a show his band was playing at
> she seemed nice enough and we were desperate for a room (both lost our jobs due to COVID)
> TiF follows my nigel like a sad puppy
> unbothered because she's a troon and my husband is, well, a total nigel
> tif and gf are always fighting
> seemingly hate each other while my husband and I are happy together
> nigel brings up his old goth phase pictures
> makeup, fishnets, etc
> "wow, you're really comfortable with your sexuality!"
> tif is a goth, while my husband and I are more into hardcore punk
> "nigel, you should wear makeup again!"
> I start to get annoyed with TiF at this point, it's clear she has a crush on my husband
> tif tries to show my nigel a picture of her half naked friend
> continues to do this in front of me until I tell her it makes both of us uncomfortable
> she goes off to my nigel about trans musicians and tra talking points
> troons have always kind of made him uneasy
> "nigel, I'm pretty sure you're pansexual. Have you ever been with a man?"
> "your best friend is gay! Is he a top or bottom?"
> "nigel I bought you fishnets"
> "nigel, you should put on a dress like rozz Williams!"
> husband quits hanging out near TiF and hides In our room
"Why don't you wear your fishnets?"
> invites nigel to gay strip club
> when he refuses invites him to regular strip club
> he refuses
> leaves yaoi out in living room on the table
> "nigel, I think anon is boring and doesn't let you be yourself"
> "she's transphobic"
> started getting into GC and radfem shit
> fucking peak
> nigel peaks too because I show him stuff and tif really creeps him out
> I relapse on heroin
> nigel supports me, asks if I need to go back to rehab, says he'll ask to borrow money from his mom for it
> nah, I'll go to detox and then get back on suboxone
> "you need to divorce anon! She's a piece-of-shit junkie. She won't let you date other people when you've never experimented before"
> nigel flips on her about everything, but especially about calling me a junkie and telling him to divorce me
> tif plays gay porn on tv while we're home
> while im at detox she tries to fucking kiss my husband and goes on about how t makes her horny
> nigel goes to a hotel while im in detox
> tif steals my klonopin and vraylar prescriptions when I come back
> nigel confronts her and she gives them back
> cries in front of me how her sweaty, acne ridden ass deserves my husband, because "he's clearly closeted"
> nigel tells me she tried to kiss him and groped him
> this time I flip and break her nose
> calls the cops despite "acab" tattoo
> we move the fuck out of this psycho fujos apartment during the night
> she cries to nigel and confesses her love to him
> she blows her clove smoke in my face and tells me "you're ungrateful cunt who will never love nigel like me!"
> never see that crazy bitch again
The fuck. She treated my husband like he was some gay animu that she could run away with. Also she was mean to our sweet, sweet dog. I probably shouldn't have broke her nose but I was so livid.
In all my years of going to cons, I never met a weeb that was literally psychotic like that. My nigel looks back on it and profusely apologizes for initially suggesting to move in with her. I dont blame him though, she had an empty room and we both thought it was a good idea. Kinda want to post a picture of her, but don't want anyone to recognize me.
No. 1067594
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>>1067537>> this time I flip and break her nose I'm proud of you anon. The crazy fakeboi was straight up sexually harassing your husband, I'm shocked it lasted that long actually.
No. 1067756
I wish the older women in my life would stop bringing up my last relationship casually as if it's something I can laugh about. It's not, I'm honestly a bit traumatized over it and I don't want to talk about it at all, let along unprompted, even in the context of "haha your ex was such a loser." They probably think I'm overreacting and that it wasn't that bad, especially compared to shit they put up with because they thought they had to and/or hated themselves. That's not my fault, I'm not the same as you, I'm sorry if you think I'm so weak and fragile and inexperienced for being so deeply hurt by what happened. I should be like you and smile and say it wasn't so bad. Let 1 or 2, maybe even 3 more guys treat me the same way and pretend it's fine because I'm a woman, and let it fester as mental illness later in my life. That's clearly the better option! Who cares that it wasn't that long ago, who cares if it's hard enough bringing it up to my therapist, who cares about how it's still affecting me, I just need to toughen up!
No. 1067785
>>1067743Me except this is how I’ve chosen to live
Social interaction is always uncomfortable to me
No. 1067791
>>1066972Hit the nail on the head
>>1067043Ive been trying to distance myself from them slowly over time. Like i said they have BPD and I don't want to make life harder for myself than it needs to be. I don't need world war 3 in my own life due to their black and white thinking lol. They aren't rational people.
No. 1067795
>>1067779I'm so glad that my boyfriend actually loves my hairy self. I only shave my armpit and my legs a few times during the summer.
Do not ever shave for a man anon and never be ashamed of it.
No. 1067802
>>1067795I'll never shave for a guy, ever! I really like my body hair and shaving is a retarded concept to begin with. So happy for you though your boyfriend sounds like a sweetheart
>>1067797He's not a bad guy in real life he just lives far away right now and we can only text. It's not that serious anyway, I just like talking bullshit with him and cuddling and whatnot. He just thinks it's unattractive and I told him 'that's your call, I don't care' or something and ever since he's distant lol. I never thought he was my true love but I didn't expect this from him. He always tells me to be more confident in myself so this is so weird. I guess he's just like all the other moids.
No. 1067805
>>1067743I'm the same, but I've come to think that it's better for me to be alone, I don't want to make anyone feel bad because of me or something I did ever again, so I just don't seek out friendships anymore. It's sometimes unbearably lonely and I wish there was someone I could share my thoughts with, but the feeling goes away quickly. I'm an artist and can sometimes talk to people commenting on my posts and that is enough, even if it's just a short exchange. I know I'll never be important to anyone and I can't force it anyway.
If you like drawing maybe you can look into art courses in your area? They are sometimes grouped by ages, so you won't end up in a room full of old ladies in their retirement painting animals and flowers to gift their families (but talking to them could also be pleasant). I did a course like that and met some fun people that I could hang out with outside of it while I was in that city. You can also look into different creative activities like pottery or similar if you can spare the money. Creative fields attract outgoing people and also the nerdy types, maybe you'll find someone to befriend! Wishing you the best of luck, I hope you can find someone to connect with!
No. 1067816
>>1067813I don't know why but this made my day lol. Thanks nonna. I told him at the time 'you have leg hair too' he said 'thats different' and when I said 'how?' he just laughed.
>>1067808He's a giant nerd I hate to say this about him but I really don't see any other girls looking through his tism.
No. 1067919
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She's back
No. 1067920
>>1067908Why don't you use your own personality to make money by streaming if that's such a profitable thing? Most popular streamers are evil or mentally ill too, so that wouldn't stop you from having success.
>I take 4 benzos and 5 pain killers dailyDid you get addicted to benzos again? What are you taking?
No. 1067938
>>1067920because I am not evil or mentally ill and I refuse to do those things. I cannot use the suffering of other people for my "content". Do you understand? I cannot make a 3 million views Youtube video talking about Venus Angelic or a mass murderer because that does not allign with my values but the
normal world is so evil. THE WORLD IS EVIL EVIL EVIL THAT IN SUCH WORLD FROM A PHILOSOPHICAL AND RATIONAL PERSPECTIVE YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY RATIONALIZE MURDER WHEN THE AVERAGE MEMBER OF SOCIETY COMMITS SUCH HORRIBLE ACTS YET THOSE ACTS ARE SEEN AS NORMAL. MOST PEOPLE ARE USING OTHERS AND MANIPULATING OTHERS TO CLIMB TO THE TOP, I CANNOT DO IT. I JUST NEED MONEY TO FIX MY FUCKING JAW AND NOT LIVE IN UNBERABLE PAIN. I DONT CARE ABOUT FAME I WAS HOMELESS BEFORE I COULD BE HOMELESS I JUST DONT WANT TO BE IN PAIN ANYMORE. I am not evil, I am the opposite of evil but the world is so evil it has turned me into the biggest evil. THIS WORLD IS COMPLETELYY LACKING SENSE AND KILLING SOMEONE IS GOOD YOU ARE LIBERATING THIS WORLD OF MISERY WHEN WE KILL WE AS A SPECIES SHOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED THE HUMAN SPECIES WAS A MISTAKE. WE ARE THE MOST IMMORAL AND UNETHICAL ANIMAL ON PLANET EARTH. WE ARE MORE UNETHICAL AND IMMORAL THAN ANY OTHER ANIMAL WE HAVE SELF AWARENESS YET WE WILLINGLY CHOOSE TO HURT OTHERS OR USE THEM FOR OUR OWN GAIN. HUMANS STEP ON OTHER HUMANS TO CLIMB TO THE TOP. I refuse. I'd rather murder than grift. I want to commit murder for all that which has been done to me and then millions of grifters will discuss my acts pretending to be moral when they are just amused at me. People will laugh at my laugh and at my suffering while pretending to be digusted at my murders. Humans are fake, evil, immoral inherently bad. HUmans should be nuked.
(relax) No. 1067952
what is normal is evil the normal world is evil and mentally ill all people are mentally ill monsters and people have even brought me to this place it is only people everyone that has ever approached me has brought me to this place. Nobody has ever helped me. I have went through it all abuse, neglect, poverty, bullying, being taken advantage of, having my work stolen, having my thoughts stolen, being accused of things I haven't done. Only people have brought me here. Nobody helps you if your life is fucked and exactly because your life is fucked they see a victim in you and when people see a victim their first thought is not " I could help them" their first thought is " I can use them for my own gain, they are weak and in a bad situation, I can use them to amuse myself, please myself or make money off them" we live in an inherently evil world. HUmans are evil yet they parade around like they have morals humans are so fucking fake(ban evasion)
No. 1067981
>>1067968When her e-boyfriend that everyone told her sound like a dark triad incel turned out to be a dark triad incel and posted her doxx on lolcow, she had a mental breakdown and spent a couple weeks alternating between traumadumping and threatening to murder people.
>>1067974Oh, I've only ben lurking these threads since autumn, I missed quite a bit.
>>1067975To me it feels more like a mental breakdown brought on by something, she was way more normal for a while (by her standards). I hadn't heard about her dad molesting her before, maybe something bad happened.
No. 1068006
>>1067998She said she was too mentally ill to work, and I believe her. If even half the things she says about her past are true she would get railroaded into permanent disability in the West.
Then again she maybe finished a university degree? I'd appreciate if a loremaster could fill me in on whether she dropped out or finished with a bachelor or what.
No. 1068080
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>>1067537>"nigel, you should put on a dress like rozz Williams!"Well at least she had good taste in men
No. 1068104
>>1068006I finished my bachelor's in Philosophy. My dream was to get a PhD, but I just couldn't go through with it due to environmental pressures and lack of money and I realized those I was competing against had better upringing than mine.
The world is fucked by politics. There is war in the middle east for 20 years because Americans go in the middle east with their military and cause war. America has been causing war forever
No. 1068201
>>1068169I hate cokeheads too
nonny and I don’t think you’re a hypocrite bc you smoke weed. Totally different. My cokehead ex ruined my life bc of financially instability and stealing from me and my family and our friends. Spending money on cocaine instead of dog food, getting our power shut off because he stole utilities money, etc. He’s a fucking asshole but like the coke amplified that x100000
No. 1068378
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Some man I met from tinder tried to fuck my mom…i think. I met a guy on tinder for a hookup. We had sex, he didn't enjoy the sex clearly and he stopped and left which was fine by me, we were respectful. I blocked him on snapchat, unmatched him and deleted his number. A week later on valentines night he texted me to ask if I wanna hook up again, I was like sure! This time we were chilling in the living room and my mom was there…after hours of drinking and chatting with my mom, my mom gave him her number because he says he does lawn work. We go to my bed room and I tell him I'm not really interested in fucking him and he leaves. After that I get a good night text from him wanting to confirm my mom's number. I confirmed it was hers and he didn't reply. After the meet I honestly was never going to talk to him again. Over the next few days he's texting my mom everyday and it's weird because it's a guy on tinder who I don't even know well yet. Of course my bpd rage came out when I discovered he's texting her behind my back and sent I'm a lengthy text explaining to him why it's fucked up. Of course he claims he just wants to be friends with my mom and I'm crazy/jealous. Idk if I'm overreacting because of my bpd or if I'm justified. Some texts included.
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>>1068378More of the texts.
No. 1068404
>>1068378LMFAOOOOOOOO
jfc I'm so glad I don't fuck random disgusting men from tinder, what are you doing
No. 1068415
>>1068404>what are you doing?Making poor life decisions
>>1068393He's been blocked plus I went bpd on him. He's not coming back. I didn't want to fuck him so he tried to move on to my mom
>>1068397He said he sees her as a mom lol
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>>1068418He basically denied the whole thing when called out on it
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>>1068423This is the text he sent my mom when I called him out
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>>1068442My last text message post about this. Then he claims he just likes hangout out with my mom. I thought I was just being crazy for a minute.
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>>1068454>????Whoever decided to have shower walls like this is a psycho who will bash your head into it
No. 1068612
I don't feel welcomed or understood in (large) female communities. I can't stop but thinking that they dislike me, and talk about how stupid I am behind my back. I always feel as I'm about to be banned if I happen to make 1 mistake. I don't understand if some behaviours are harmless fun, or indirect attempts to mock me or try to unnerve me, so that I have a negative reaction, in order to use it as a pretext to ban me.
I don't have this problem in large mixed gender groups, or small groups of female friends.
But in female only groups, such as lolita communities, I often feel brushed aside, or considered like an annoying tard. I'm considering quitting going to meets altogether, aswell as leaving some women only discords. I don't even bother with male dominated communities, because they're 10 times worse, but honestly I don't understand why I feel like this. Large groups should be more chill when you don't have the threat of sexual harassment and scrote entitlement ruining everything. Is there something inherently toxic gender-only groups or it's just me being socially impaired ?
No. 1068681
>>1068612Hey anon, you're not alone in those feelings, plenty of us feel the same (though to a lesser extent for many) and never voice it to eachother.
also maybe small comfort but people are often wondering if you're judging them when you walk into a room, and worried about what you think of them more than they would ever think about you.
You sound like you could be any of the sweet people I've met on discord or cc or lc, and while I can't know if we're in any the same servers, I'd be sad to know someone left because they felt unwelcome or unliked. Not on my watch! I hope you find the courage to tell a few people how you feel. Some idiots might judge you for it, but you will find many more women who care and would want you to feel welcome in any space you're already in
No. 1068695
>>1068681>>1068681Thank you nonna. This is why I enjoy this small server dedicated to posting cats.
I'm glad I'm not the only one, I feel less stupid now.
No. 1068760
>>1068612It sounds NLOG to say but the larger female-only groups get, the more likely you are to encounter the “queen bee” types who enjoy conflict and being bullies and alienating others for the hell of it. Sororities are a good example. Not everyone in the group is like that; in fact 80% of the women in the group are also
victim to it. You can try masking to fit in with the popular kids or you can just carve out your own niche. You’re an adult and who the hell has time or patience for bitter high school drama? If you’re feeling it I’m sure other people are too; just find those people and make friends with them.
No. 1068781
Sorry for delete + repost
Two years ago my family and I found out that my piece of shit faggot father preyed one of my friends when Friend was 11 or 12 years old. When we confronted my dad, lots of words were traded back and forth but the last thing he said to me was "I've always hated you, anon." He repeated it again to make sure I could hear.
I feel like I've been rejected by my mom too, like she also thinks I'm inherently annoying and stupid. When my parents split, I pretty much lost my mom to alcohol abuse. My dad promptly left the country, presumably to prey on young men in a new country (in hindsight). He was a fucking bus driver in the states before that. Disgusting pedo piece of shit. Imagine having the gall to be a pedophile but still shit on your daughter for not being an upstanding human being. The only time he showed interest in me was when he could use me to be around boys. My siblings bullied me really badly when I was a little girl.
Now I find it extremely difficult to interact with anyone at all because I hate myself so much.
I'm so sad and angry. I feel like one day I'm going to kms because my whole life has been a waste. Every time I speak to my mom I can tell she thinks I'm an idiot and doesn't care about what I have to say. We were besties when I was younger though. My dad is disgusted by women and emotions and I could feel it from a young age. I wish I had a loving father and I wish I had grown up around my aunts and uncles and cousins. I feel so rejected and alone. Every time I open my mouth I wish I had just stayed quiet. Things like grocery shopping are more difficult than they should be because my mind goes into overdrive imagining exactly how all the strangers around me rightfully dislike me. Somehow I've found and miraculously managed to keep a really kind a supportive boyfriend for years but I feel like it's not fair to him not to have a functioning adult partner. My life has been on hold for 15 years because I found a way to isolate myself completely and avoid every adult responsibility. No one cared enough to guide me in my adolescence when I started to drop all my friends and stopped going to school. Now I'm an empty husk of a woman with very little life experience. I tried meeting up with friends I knew from online recently and I could barely make it 24h before I dipped because I just couldn't stand myself. I ended up going home while they finished out the trip together. There is no structure to my life. I really just want to grow out of this stupid immature need for my mommy and daddy to tell me nice things (I will never speak to my dad or see him again though). If someone else had my life and healthy body I bet they would do a better job at taking advantage of all the things I've been blessed with but I have shitted it all away being sad. I can't believe others go through much more difficult hardships and continue on to live normal lives.
I'm sure I'll feel better in a little bit but I just got done texting with my mom and it made me feel really bad. I'm concerned about my teenaged niece because her dad has restricted her phone for over 6 months because he went through her phone and saw that she was venting about him to her friends and he found out she is demisexual (or something) and now she can't speak to her family. He owns guns and when my niece is of legal age, my sister plans to move out of state with my niece (they have been divorced for years). We all know how small-dicked, insecure, gun owning men like to own their daughters and wives. As I told my mom this, all she had to say was two word sentences with periods at the end. Okay, fuck me then.
I wish I could get angry instead of feeling like a sad sack of shit all the time. Fuck
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>>1068781Samefag but I'm afraid that the time I've allowed myself to heal away from my mom (I purposefully avoid visiting her for the past year or so because every time I do I get upset by something she does or doesn't say) is time wasted and that one day when she dies I'll regret needing so much space and time away from her.
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>>106884810 now.
It was supposed to be a cozy group of 4.
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if i kill myself, then i'm basically proving them all right. i'm admitting that i really am a mentally ill retard who couldn't, wouldn't amount to anything – but if i'm alive, i still have a chance.
i graduate from university next year, in the spring. i am running out of time to learn the things i need to learn to be prepared for the workplace. i wasted so much time on self-hatred, but no longer. i hope no longer. i really do.
so it's pettiness that's keeping me alive at this point. if i die it will be because some outside force took me out – an incurable disease or some shit. but i won't kill myself. i won't. i want to die! but i don't, not before my time.
No. 1069027
>>1068029I've known him for about 5 years and he's studying to become a pilot right now. I think it's super sweet how passionate he is about it and I love it when he talks about it, even though I barely understand it I can tell how happy it makes him. No I really like him and never expected him to be this superficial, I don't give a shit that he doesn't like my leg hair but he's been so distant ever since he found out I'm not some kind of handmaiden. I know it doesn't sound like it but there's a lot of things to like about him. He's super chill, ambitious. passionate, always tells me I'm pretty and talented, he's attractive and loves his family. I knew he wasn't perfect obviously but I didn't expect him to be this superficial. He hated my piercings too but he doesn't really care about them because he actually likes me. At least I thought so, he's a bit of a redneck so he sees it as a 'manly' thing. I just like autists, they understand me better than normies. And I've known him for so long I have a bit of a soft spot for him. Even though he's a year older than me in my mind he's 16, I really like him but this threw me off. I know because I'm a bit younger he thinks of me as a child and I honestly feel the same way about him. It's not like he's uneducated, he's just such a typical moid sometimes (and sometimes he;s a genrlwman. I don't know what to do with him, I like him very much and feel comfortable around him (which is super rare for me) but he can be so childish, it' annnoying as shit sometimes. So I have a bit of body hair, so does he so what does he care? Sage 4 sperg lol I'm a bit drunk.
No. 1069052
>>1069043She gave me some shit for it. My uncle defended my stance for making informed choices, and choosing the risk of vaccines over the "harmless flu", shit Karen I get the flu vaccine because it could kill me too. He's a ww2 survivor despite born disabilities.
I Just learning this has been going on.. Fuck. Her as the aggressor. Other cousin got hit too.. Its almost 6am and I just can't sleep. I'll have to take a walk. Anything to not go kick her out of bed right now and give her the fear of hell.
Oh, and my uncle? "a quiet anger", the one that comes after the loud anger, once your done with it all. That's how my cousin is describing him as right now. I hope I'm just watching too much true crime bullshit.
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I don't even feel like a female, I hang out with moids because I have moid interests and I feel like such a creep with a inferiority complex when I talk to girls, I never click with them. Sometimes I have these feelings I should just chop off my boobs and become a man, that's how much I'm alienated by my gender.
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>>1069110>>1069110>I don't even feel like a femaleWhat does this mean? Really think on it. How do you "feel" like a woman, anon? Through cooking? Through cleaning? Through wearing pink and miniskirts?
> that's how much I'm alienated by my gender.You probably feel alienated from
stereotypes, which is fine and good. It doesn't make you any less a woman. You're a woman because you were born a woman, and it's just that simple.
No. 1069137
>>1068681>>1068681Thank you nonna. This is why I enjoy this small server dedicated to posting cats.
I'm glad I'm not the only one, I feel less stupid now.>>1068699
>>1068703>>1068760>>1068775>>1068955Thank you for your kind replies. Sometimes I think it's good to let off the steam, and have a break from communities that don't feel so good to be a part of anymore. I think it's better to distance yourself temporarily rather than letting negative feelings grow up to the point they explode.
Btw,
>>1068760 >>1068775 , any experiences to share with these "queen bees"/narcs in large female groups? Any advice to deal with them?
No. 1069142
>>1069110Yeah stop hanging out in /r9k/ and grow up. Being female isnt a feeling, its having two x chromosones. Basing your femaleness on stereotypes created by men is dumb as fuck, especially ones created by woman hating moids. They only talk tp you because "you're not like those other girls" ie pander to them, which other women who respect themselves don't.
What makes you not female then? Having male friends? Not liking makeup? Because that has nothing to do with your sex.
No. 1069156
>>1069142Being female is literally just having something men can never have. Men can enjoy makeup, wear dresses, and have female friends, and so can women. Women can have male friends and enjoy doing things seen as 'manly'. Men can never menstruate, give birth, have a body with XX chromosomes that produces female gametes and has female DNA, etc. Our body is the only thing that makes us women, there is no women social role, as say the typical womens social role described like care giving can be done by men too. Only women give birth, but not all women choose to/have bodies without defects allowing them to. Their bodies still have the expected gametes, etc. Man and woman are the words used to refer to the male and female sex. If you are physically female, even if with a birth defect preventing the possibility of pregnancy, you are still female because your physical body is female. People only question this because scrotes reee about religion and shit and try to make it seem as if men are necessary for anything other than biology, making people believe in divine roles to insist on their superiority and therefore necessity.
No. 1069161
>>1069110I also hang out with moids and feel nervous and inferior around girls. It’s called being insecure. Men are easy to befriend for me because I have tits. Women are a little more complicated than that.
Women are always nice to me but I don’t think I’ll ever get over being bullied and ostracised in school. If you struggle with socialising and relating to others then something like that can be very traumatising even if it isn’t that big of a deal.
No. 1069170
>>1069165Then you don't want friends, you want orbiter slaves. No wonder you struggle with actual friendships.
>"Their boyfriends on the other hand don't value them as much as they value a male friend of theirs"Yeah and your male friends don't value you as much as their male friends either, they only value you as a potential set of tits they can fuck. At least their gf gets the girlfriend label, you're literally bragging about being even lower in their eyes.
No. 1069178
>>1068612Women are conditioned into thinking that every interaction they have with other women is some form of a competition so they're hyperaware of their own and the other peoples' behavior, paying too much attention and overthinking all signals which leads to the false belief of everyone being against you. In reality, even the most confident-sounding women are constantly second guessing what someone meant because we are always told that women hate each other because they're stealing away male attention or prestige, since due to tokenism women are only handed limited amounts of power.
Another reason why all-female group seem more hostile than mixed sex ones is that when you're only surrounded by women you're much more likely to let loose and be your real self. When men are around women are usually forced to be more docile and submissive, making them "nicer". I find myself biting back my words when men are present because I just don't want to make everyone uncomfortable or waste my time dealing with hurt male feelings either so that's something to consider.
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/m/ got nuked, including my pinniped thread.
I don't know what to say.
No. 1069220
>>1069207What even is 2x I have no idea
One of the best threads recently have been locked, is it because admin is scared of another attack by raging moids? I could understand that but damn. It was such an insightful and validating thread
No. 1069223
>>1069220If you don't understand what 2x is from
>>1069207 and can't find it you're pretty stupid or don't know how imageboards work.
No. 1069232
>>1069182>all studiesWe can't settle for "all" as it's just the available studies out there with the observed groups for data. Studies on girls with ADHD tend to show socialization issues in general, for example.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/labs/pmc/articles/PMC5117588/If you read specifically under "Friendship" it's extremely depressing.
I think that's probably a contributing factor, but I don't think that I've ever censored much at all around men. I say what I want, they might call me names or retaliate and I've done the same back because I don't care if they don't like me. Meanwhile if I'm with (not all) women, I have to pay extremely close attention to how I word things, because it's easier to be othered and shut out. It just requires a lot more of putting on a mask. If it's the opposite for you, I'm happy that you've had a positive experience with it.
No. 1069238
>>241908Sorry for the long post but I really have no idea what to do.
I had issues with my sister which I'm living with for college. I had problem wit her attitude, sometime she act very protective of me or has some very strange asocial interractions ( would stay in my room to use my saw at 11pm will I'm trying to sleep and get angry if ask her to do it in her room or during the day ).
I was talking with one of my longest airheaded childhood friends and she asked me if I remember that my sister would beat me ( she don't have a great memorie so I was surprised ). I know I brace myself when my sister get grumpy or do large arms movements near me but I didn't remember her beating me.
One day when I had a sick leave and stayed at the flat I would get a super strange feeling of burning disgust about her while she was chilling in her room. I had memories of very cringe stuff me and my sister did as child ( the kind of stuff you will took to the grave). But that day I really reflected about it and noticed that it was maybe more fucked up than what I was thinking.
I remember that one day we where playing as characters and some sexual things happened, we are 3 years appart, I think she was 11 and I was 8. When I put in perspective and it kind of hit me. At 11 years old I entered middle school (so did she) and kids from 9-7 where in the "kid you have the protection/ right to babysit". I'm kind of wondering if it could be seen as some kind of sexual abuse. Like it wasn't against my will in the moment but she should have been old enought to see it was inapropriate. It get me even more angry with the way she act with me, wondering if she remember it. I don't know if I should talk about it my childhood friend, my parents or just ignore it. Like I don't know if it was even such a fucked thing that happened at the time since I have no exterior input on it.
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I can't goddamn live with myself, it may seem minor but I feel like such a pathetic fuckup; I can't stop myself from e-stalking some people which worsens my bpd, blocked all the social media sites and trying my best to stop but somehow I fucking still managed to go on the multistep road of logging in to my secondary socials through incognito mode and went through years of content one person I'm obsessed with posts, now i came back to my senses and I want to off myself, how pathetic can a person be
No. 1069245
>>1069240I think that it is sort of like that. It's probably very reminiscent to moid typical behavior patterns. I don't know. I've always been hyperprotective with my female friends too, and that's ended in good friendships dying because shitty boyfriends that talk to them like garbage and/or yank them around in public spaces were more important I guess.
>>1069241It's fine. We're taught to conform to our group norms, that's just how our socialization patterns generally work. If anything, I hate that because it keeps a lot of women from speaking out when things bother them
ahem, namely the troon shit No. 1069255
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this quote in the book i'm reading right now just punched me in the gut. painfully relatable.
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I have one Instagram account. It’s the only form of social media I’ve ever really had and there’s nothing of me on it. It’s time to let it go. I log on a few times a week and more often than not, it’s not a very pleasant experience. I follow makeup and cat accounts but my noseyness gets the better of me and at best I wind up seeing something that makes me feel down for an hour and at worst leaves me a heartbroken mess. Tonight I’m leaning more towards the latter. I don’t have any irl friends, which is by choice, so this is the only connection I have to non-anonymous people. Going to feel weird at but the deleting needs to be done so I don’t get easily hurt over things that didn’t involve me in the first place.
No. 1069260
>>1069241Not
a male. But male-like. So the instincts feel something is “off” or defective.
No. 1069301
>>1069289live out of spite, us simply existing is
triggering moids so why give them that satisfaction
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/m/ still seems to be down so i want to ask if anyone here has seen/read mysterious skin. i just read it and i feel nauseous and like i’m going to cry. it disturbed me greatly which i guess was the point. i’m curious how they turned this into a film but i don’t think i want to watch it. idk. it was good but sickening. if you’ve read the book then you know that the author goes into a lot of detail about graphic sexual abuse of children and in my opinion it was unneeded and too much. i want to say i don’t regret reading it but i also hate how ill i feel at the moment
No. 1069321
These past two years have been way too difficult for me. Mom got cancer, I broke up, dog died, covid happened, med school sleep deprivation and stress, obligatory covid help and now a fucking war. I'm sure we're gonna get 'drafted' as medics again if it gets to my country… Which is very possible might happen soon as we're not far from Ukraine. It's seriously almost unreal. I'm so alone, so lonely, I'm losing motivation to do anything productive. What's the point of doing it when life is so shit when 'achieving'. I should have just been a neet, go on walks and play vidya. Hide somewhere and not be obliged to do shit. I'm losing weight, can't eat, can't sleep, sick every other week. But I can't stop because my family put so much faith and effort in me. And I don't want to disappoint myself. Can't take a break cause I already did 2 years ago.
No. 1069342
>>1069322no no no, I did not mean the story being about CSA. It's just incredibly unfucking pleasant. It starts with
the heroine cutting the inside of her vulva with a razorblade and it doesn't get better from then on
No. 1069389
>>1069255That’ sounds heartbreaking
nonny, know that you’re my beloved
also know that the care you did receive does make you just as loved as anyone else No. 1069412
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The shit that my boyfriend does, I don't even know if this relationship is worth it sometimes.
He's very much a full blown redneck normie from the south minus the specially nasty stuff like over the top religion, and he pretty much hates that I like to dress alternative, he says it makes me look like a freak and makes him look bad and that he wouldnt want to be seen with me on the street if wore some stuff i user to wear, I stopped dyeing my hair for him, I toned down my clothes, I made a sacrifice for the relationship but…When I look in the mirror I feel so ugly.
I feel like an alien wearing someone elses skin, my cofidence plummeted, fashion used to bring me so much happiness and now i just put on the same tshirt and jean shorts everytime i have to go out and barely brush my hair.
I don't want to break up with him, I do really love the guy and on top of that i always struggled with dating because i am quite obviously autistic, he's a lovely person who treats me above average what the usual straight man does and i feel like i should just suck it up and "grow up". But i look in the mirror and im just feel do ugly and small and worthless.
No. 1069414
>>1067537That was a wild ride
nonnie, glad you got out.
> calls the cops despite "acab" tattoothis part made me fucking lol
No. 1069418
>>1069412Making yourself feel ugly for a dick is quite idiotic.
If he started dating you when you were dressing alt, then he either has to stick to it or leave. I mean, what if he just wants to show off to everyone that he can control you and then he gets bored just to leave?
It’s better to not deal with this sort of shit and just leave his sorry ass, males are not some sort of treasure to be kept around in a crystal cage and to dance for so they’re entertained.
Unless you’re going to formal parties and fancy restaurants with hot topic and dollskill gear, then I don’t see what’s his big deal with you dressing alt.
No. 1069419
>>1069412>He's very much a full blown redneck normie from the south minus the specially nasty stuff like over the top religion, and he pretty much hates that I like to dress alternative, he says it makes me look like a freak and makes him look bad and that he wouldnt want to be seen with me on the street if wore some stuff i user to wear, I stopped dyeing my hair for him, I toned down my clothes, I made a sacrifice for the relationship but…When I look in the mirror I feel so ugly.Why are you with this piece of sh-
>i always struggled with dating because i am quite obviously autisticOh, there it is. Listen
nonnie, I've been in the same boat a few weeks ago and I finally dropped my scrote. It's only gonna get worse from now on. Get someone who will appreciate you for who you are. I 100% do not regret breaking up (we are friends now) and I'm looking forward to meeting someone that excites and inspires me
well I'm obsessing over someone who seems like my reflection, but we will see how it goes No. 1069431
>>1069418>>1069420>>1069425We met in college and i was dealing with a relative's and death and concurring legal bullshit so at the time I was way more toned down because i'd leave class and go talk to lawyers and the police and whatnot, not the time to go out in full cerimonial garb.
And in his own normie way he means well about it, I seriously dont think hes trying to control, he thinks it would be easier for me to make friends or get a better job if i looked normal and people would be less mean about my autistic stuff, more like in a stupid boomer mom way than
abusive scrote.
>>1069419Thanks anon, i just dont even think id put myself out in the market after this one, our relationship is awesome when im just at home wearing my pjs.
Before all of this i genuinely considered myself too autistic to be loved because the only people who wanted me were porn addicted bottom of the barrel scrotes.
No. 1069449
>>1069431You're repressing yourself for someone who doesn't give a single fuck about how you feel, think about it: would he treat you with respect if you dressed alt again? No, because he doesn't like ""freaks"", he doesn't like
you, he likes "his* version of you
No. 1069450
>>1069432Nevermind, I just realized that the Texas bill
didn't pass. Fucking shame. The way all these liberal fucking retards were chimping out about it, I assumed it had passed. Fuck me.
No. 1069464
>>1069459just an fyi texas government uses things like trans legislation to hide the fact that their cost of living is soaring, ercot, and the fact that abortion rights are basically nonexistent at this point and you people are falling for the psyop instead of focusing on the more harmful legislation and actions of texas lawmakers
i hope none of you actually live in texas if you're not aware of this
No. 1069541
>>1069456I don't know who that is, so I hope he doesn't fuck me.
>>1069459I just liked the "punishment" aspect that comes with the inevitability that these parents will troon their kids out. The speed at which they do it doesn't change the fact that they did it. Good point though.
>>1069464I don't live in Texas and only keep up with Americans through social media memes from libtards, and it's actually kinda funny that none of them are up in arms regarding the cost of living or the lack of abortion options. The only thing they talk about ad nauseum is "think of the twans children!!!1!"
>>1069509I love this post. I wish this was something I could talk about without being cancelled amongst the kweer arts crowd I'm stuck in.
No. 1069550
>>1069541there's a chance they are bad parents who are homophobic or sexist, but for many they are also
victims of the medical establishment pushing for child transition care and lied to about it being irreversible, kids will kill themselves if they don't transition, etc.
No. 1069608
>>1069593My parents keep saying that if the US
doesn’t intervene, then the world war will be kicked off because China will join in. I don’t know what to think anymore
No. 1069642
>>1069621Putin wants NATO dead, so no we can't all sign a treaty to just get along lmao they already tried that. Russia does not want to play nice. They are very invested in being the schoolyard bully that inconveniences everyone.
>>1069629Pearl harbor the US kept sailing into Japanese waters and hitting their boats while saying they were neutral until Japan hit back. Vietnam war the US said Vietnam sunk one of their ships and that started war then it was declassified it was the other way around. Twin Towars the US 100% knew an attack was coming and didn't stop it. America always makes excuses for war to get it's gullible populace on side. This is what happens when a country never fights a war on its own soil unless its against itself.
No. 1069662
>>1069642America needs to be nuked. It is ran by an incredibly corrupt government which is not a government in the classical sense. It simply is ran by mega corporations and the "conspirational" elites some American right wingers talk about. America have caused all the atrocities of the past 100 years. Including the war of with Japan, Vietnam, war in middle East where they are going to suck up their resources. WE ALL CRY ABOUT WAR IN LE UKRAINE BUT IN THE MIDDLE EAST THERE HAS BEEN WAR FOR 30 YEARS BECAUSE OF AMERICA which has caused aggresive Muslim secret religious organizations to come to the west and take their anger out on innocent people as a message to the world. America is controling media in the West and letting whatever they want us to hear and they always lie and make America seem like they are innocent and just rescuing the world.
America has made covid as a biological weapon and they are trying to establish the technofeudalism regime. America is the most authoritarian country in the world and they are trying to make us slaves to their mega corporations. I really do hope Russia and China form a powerful qualition so that they can combat America. If we let America win in 50 years we will all have no freedom and be connected to machines
No. 1069690
>>1069662>>1069678>technofeudalism>technofeudalism>technofeudalistic>technofeudalismJesus, shut up autist.
I honestly don't think anyone except the most hilly billy of burgers think America is good.
No. 1069691
>>1069666why? this is my job. I am interested in political philosophy and making predictions about the future. There are many people that have politics as a job but I am not in the socio economical position to turn this into my job and if I become public with my ideas I will get my ideas stolen from me by others that are in better life positions or I will simply get attacked and misunderstood. Most of the things I know and believe about the world are objective and true.
I am 100% sure we are heading towards a technofeudalistic regime and a dystopian future which America wants. America wants the corporations that run their government to have complete control over their population. American freedom and democracy is a big fat joke and illusion
No. 1069695
>>1069678>>1069662>America is bad because XYZ>I want country B to rule even though they do XYZ to a far greater degree than America without any of America's redeeming qualities?????????????????????
Take your medication.
No. 1069696
>>1069599Probably misconstrued it. Either way the religious rhetoric down south is highly anti women, and only propped up by the establishment. I think a lot of the tactics used by southern politicians to outrage people are distractions from their disastrous choices regarding environment and power as well, although texas is the worst, the way they treated the freeze with the power grid last year. Millions of people were left with no power to their homes and massive infrastructural and financial damages, but the pos governor won't nationalize the power grid and barely tightened regulations. And then ted cruz left the country like the coward he is. Beyond the rising cost of living and the power regulations texas politicians hate women, yet conservatives or people who are fiscally conservative lolburtarians prop it up as a fine great place to live based on low taxes. Whether you're fiscally conservative or not there's really nothing good about supporting politicians like cruz or abbott or anything they push, if it involves identity politics it's probably just a distraction from some deeper thing they're covering up.
I thoroughly believe at this point without being too tinfoily that these bastards all have massive skeletons in their closets and will one day pay for them. Because their hatred of women not only restrict abortion rights but also restrict access to lower cost healthcare or things like planned parenthood. These men hate women, So the way it fizzles out, yes, I couldn't really care about trannies when I see how abominable everything else these lawmakers support is. Same goes for basically any conservative politician in the US, the majority of them are bible thumping moralistic misogynists who force their mistresses to get abortions while condemning female citizens for doing the same, they can burn in hell for all I care
No. 1069705
>>1069698it's a disaster anon. Technology inherently is not bad but people are very egoistical and we are on a power trip to control each other. Thanks,
nonnie as a Philosopher I am very influenced by Ted's school of thought
No. 1069721
>>1069705Did you learn about Ted's personal live? I think it's interesting. He developed PTSD as a result of being tortured by sociopaths and broke down to withdraw from society after living a somewhat okay life for a couple years after that. He could never shake his mental illness, even in nature, it kept coming back to him. He thought he could combat it with petty revenge, or by spreading his ideas to many people, but it only got him arrested.
I think what he needed was mental health care and a social environment so he could learn to think properly.
No. 1069732
>>1069726She certainly seems to be having another episode of
something.
No. 1069845
>>1069825See
>>1013274 She already had a twitch but dropped it several times because she thinks everyone is out to get her and steal her brilliant ideas.
No. 1069876
i really just want to take advantage of a rich old scrote who's not terrible looking so i don't have to deal with the increasing wealth gap. i hate feeling this bout of desperation and sounding like a pickme, but i have no financial skills and am afraid of homelessness, and i have massive baggage and daddy issues that make me crave mentorship. i'm not the worst looking, so i figure I could do it. i hate taking back on my "I want to be a strong independent woman" resolve, but there's literally no way in hell i can survive being as unstable as i am without some kind of support until I put my foot in the door after college, I am unmedicated, and it's fucking killing me to realize how dependent and sloppy i am.
If someone could just give me a boost or provide me mentorship without there being expectations or sexual gratification tied into it, if only there were a woman leader or mentor who'd be willing to help teach me how to be a decent adult. but if im in my mid 20s and this much of a trainwreck im afraid I will never meet someone who wants to help me. being abused into this position sucks, and everyone always tells me who can't afford to help me that it's not my fault, but im tired of feeling pitied and infantized all the same, it's difficult to escape it.
if only I could make money off something inexplicably that would set me for life then I could fuck off and not have to be reliant on anyone. I wish that's what would happen. that's a virtual impossibility in this sexist society especially if your outstanding talents are laid bare by your retardation. also I suck at stem. stem is where the money is, women who are mediocre idiot savants at writing or art are a dime a dozen, nobody gives a fuck about us. that's why im just considering doing some temporary gold digging once I leave college. I'm not down for being a homeless junkie in the city in pursuit of my "dreams" until I succeed like some people, id just kms not being able to handle it. I hate how weak I am, and I hate that I'm considering this.
No. 1069879
>>1069870Probably because you weren't so psychotic that it's recognizable. You also apparently shitstirred and self-admittedly "trolled" in the server, then gossiped about them in the friend finder thread according to
>>1016070 which is why they kicked you out.
No. 1069881
>>1069870Look at this
>>1069875 are you addicted to benzos and taking four a day, or aren't you? Why don't you take the advice of the kind anons who still have sympathy for you? You will keep attracting negative attention if you don't.
No. 1069946
>>1069881because I am not here to recieve sympathy. Most sympathy is degrading. I don't want people to pity me. I am in the vent thread not in the advice thread. Most people's advice does not help me and does not apply to me and people give advice to make themselves feel good, not to help you.
Today, I simply vented my thoughts on a political issue.>>1069662
and you literally turned the entire thread in a discussion about me which is absolutely nnot even related to my initial post and then you accuse me of personality fagging. If you know it's me, Don't point out it's me, just tell me to kill myself if you disagree with me or ignore me and if you agree with me tell me so. Just don't say it's me. You're causing all of this shit and derailing and then accusing me of it.
No. 1069957
>>1069946You’re in here on a daily basis talking about how you’re going to murder people. The post you linked that’s “simply vented [your] thoughts on a political issue” was a call to nuke America.
Also why do you care about the global political climate in 50 years, let alone now. Aren’t you going to kill yourself in two months?
No. 1069992
>>1069985She doesn't want your pity, see here
>>1069946 she wants you to tell her to kill herself.
No. 1070019
>>1070014I just saw her older post, and she actually acted less insane, i don't know what happened but i'm assuming shit didn't get better for her
>>1070015This, i'll take romaninano shitting on fake "radfems" over (c)rap-chan's racist spergouts any day
No. 1070025
>>1070019I said that she was guilty of being a dramawhoring discordfag herself, not that she didn't used to be less insane. There's probably a good reason why her old discord clique doesn't like her but she paints herself as the
victim always.
No. 1070047
>>1070009he just talks to me lmao. This pandemic is taking a tol on my socializinh skills
>>1070010Noting this…maybe its my pussy thinking…perhaps he'll turn into a hon in a few years. I shall wait and see
he's tall and is financially stable i feel sick No. 1070054
>>1070048Nobody is saying romanianon's posts are offensive, and being offensive is not the only way to get anonymous board users to hate you or be annoyed with you. It's mainly with how annoying and spergy you are, and romanianon is both. She says she hates the pity users have shown her, yet she has a massive
victim complex (as a result of her trauma, I know). She needs psychiatric help obviously, but she's easy for anons to dislike.
No. 1070111
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I keep seeing posts on Tumblr about Ukraine that are so out of touch and self-centered. Even the ones that have a slightly better message like picrel still can’t help but say “WHAT ABOUT ME?” It’s especially annoying when people are like “my little brother turns 18 in 4 months I can’t stop crying” bitch what? People are dying or living in fear of dying like right the fuck now. Is it impossible for you think of anyone besides yourself, your “friends,” your little brother - who lives in fucking rural Ohio by the way?
No. 1070185
>>1070168you can kinda tell by the typing style? and romania anon and (c)rap anon have both been recognized in other threads and admitted it was them. unless it's some weird moid who's larping as the same insane woman on here but that would be kind of pointless on an anomymous site
>>1069977she's actually pretty based except for the murder stuff
No. 1070200
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>>1070168Do are these anons in the room with us right now?
No. 1070345
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This shit disgusts me
No. 1070367
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>>1070352sometimes life imitates art
https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/activity:6903016572370460672poltards are probably busy fantasizing about prostituted ukrainian women
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My sister (16) just told me I’m too old (30) to be wearing combat boots, what if she’s right? Picrel is what they look like
No. 1070706
>>1070693>what if she’s right?Nah. Edgy teens who wear combat boots don't even look that cool most of the time. You can be an adult and still wear them, with other less shitty styles.
>Picrel is what they look likekinda shitty tbh but that's just my preference. I'd rather wear something a bit shorter and closer to actual military boots. But that's just me
No. 1070707
>>1070695There's literal
bestiality porn on private/unlisted YouTube playlists. I hate the kind of shit that can be put on that site.
No. 1070808
>>1070344she wrote extensive posts on sex trafficking rings from Eastern Europe that run as camming studios and how some women there become pimps themselves. If anything she put herself in danger by doxxing someone that could hurt her like she did with Steven. The camwhore thread is stupid either way, who cares about some anorexic American woman called pumpy that does literally not do anything out of the ordinary. It's funny that you're all calling her a vendetta fag when she explains how in Eastern Europe a lot of women become pimps under studios. Romanianon was also groomed but she did not become a pimp. If what she is posting about that girl is true, then she deserves to be posted if Pumpy and Charlotte charms deserve to be posted in that thread, then why doesn't a woman that apparently grooms young and vulnerable girls from the mental hospital not be posted. It also appears that romanianon knows that woman personally. She didn't lie about Steven, so I don't get why she would lie about her. It strikes me as very mysoginistic to say a woman trying to expose an actual groomer is jealous just because the said groomer makes money from sex work. I watched that girl, she's very odd indeed. She kept mentioning "her father" repeatedly to an audience of 400 simps on a porn website. In her post, romanianon says that the girl is involved with an Eastern European camming studio trafficking ring and self admits to the mental hospital to groom girls and that she works under a pimp. I don't see why you would continously talk about "your father" on a pornsite in front of men that you give sexual services to unless "your father" is actually the pimp you work for. If romanianon was a sex trafficking
victim and she quit the industry after she realized and didn't proceed to hurt other women, I don't see why I should have sympathy for a woman that is actually grooming young mentally ill girls out of the mental hospital. It's insane to me how you're attacking romanianon calling her jealous over exposing a groomer. If you read romanianon's posts she says she was always poor, that she was homeless at one point and tried committing suicide which landed her in the Romanian mental hospital where she was groomed by another woman into working at a camming studio. From her posts it appears like she didn't want to work that and she said it's something that she used to do. Her story is very sad and all of the details of her story add up but she has so many posts.
What romanianon said about Steven was true, so I assume that what she says about that girl must be true as well. She spilled a lot of things about sex trafficking in Eastern Europe in her posts and it's really sad everyone looks past that while so many anons claim to feel bad for sex trafficking
victims or for groomed girls. The Ukrainian woman she posted is very strange. I wish that romanianon would quit this place because it's very obvious most people on here don't care about her being a sex trafficking
victim, or her trying to expose the industry of Eastern Europe while putting herself in danger. I thought these arguments were really stupid, you're literally calling her jealous over a possible BPD groomer. If she really wanted to do SW I think she would have found a way around it. From her posts it seems like she was groomed into, coerced into it by external circumstances and it wasn't what she truly wanted to do which is very dramatic. If she really wanted to be a camgirl/SW I think she would have just continued it. Romanianon quit the industry and did not continue working in a camming studio and did not groom girls, so why should she have sympathy for a woman that sexually trafficks other women? That girl is not like the average
pro sex work American woman that tweets about sw it seems that the woman she posted is actually strange and everything romanian posted about her added up after I watched her.
No. 1070824
>>1070820You're so fucking stupid. Learn how to read you stupid fucking cunt. She posted a camwhore barely 18 year old girl groomer in the camwhore thread and my post doesn't mention anything about creating a new thread. This website is not interested in discussing actually
problematic individuals. This website is just vendetta fagging. The camwhore thread is exclusively vendetta fagging towards Pumpy which doesn't do anything evil or bad at all, not even milky. I am starting to believe this place's userbase is negative in IQ because then I don't see why you would talk about making a thread when my post does not even imply that
No. 1070829
>>1070824>doesn't do anything evil or bad at allSo? Neither of those are prerequisites for being gossiped about on here.
This is a gossip website, not a website for "discussing
problematic individuals", that would be twitter
No. 1070831
>>1070829I’ll tell you who’s
problematic and evil. Romanianon. Cat killing kiddy fiddling narc who’s jealous of more successful camwhores.
No. 1070846
>>1070842Even the most mentally unstable anon on this site wouldn't defend this girl. Kek of course she was samefagging and wking.
>>1070841You're jealous, even you admitted she made more and that's why you're jealous. If you want action taken report it to authorities, gossiping or writing manifestos on imageboards do nothing.
No. 1070852
>>1070846you're jealous of a female pimp that lives with a 55 year old man and licks milk out of a bowl naked yea sure like I couldn't have done that too kek. You're just coping calling me jealous because you dislike me.
>>1070849I was 8 years old and I did not molest children. I was sexually abused and I lived in a shithole where everyone would rape each other. Stop.
No. 1070857
>>1070852You really think you’re justified in hurting innocent people just because you where hurt. You’re a disgusting person. Nobody pities you and you are responsible for molesting other children that where probably younger and weaker than yourself. You act like drinking milk out of a dog bowl is equally disgusting as literally fiddling little kids. Because you’re an eternal
victim in your mind and everything you do is justified. Everyone else is bad, but never you. You’re scum.
No. 1070865
>>1070857what you're saying makes no sense. I was a child being raped by an adult continously. You don't understand extreme poverty in the third world and how societies can function. I was sexually molested by younger children too. It was something normalized where I lived. I am not actually doing immoral acts now like grooming women for my 55 year old pimp
>>1070861I posted proof but there's no point in actually trying to do anything good. There's no place to expose sex trafficking and nobody cares about it and you're gonna attack and twist anything I say against me. Steven has been around here for years and he would have stayed if I didn't sacrifice myself.
doesn't centre what about learning english? I'm convinced most of you also lack reading comprehrension or common sense.
No. 1070868
>>1070865>he would have stayed if I didn’t sacrifice myselfNarcissist. You didn’t sacrifice shit. You do nothing but narc sperging and you think you’re some sort of hero for it. You are extremely retarded
>Romania is the 3rd worldNo it isn’t. Exaggerating for sympathy. Proves that everything else you say is most likely an exaggerated lie
No. 1070876
>>1070868you're stupid and misinformed. Romania has villages over villages of people that don't know how to read or write, where there is no morality or justice and I happened to spend my childhood in one of those place
>>1070871if my rage is focused at first world women then why have I been white knighting Venus Angelic, Luna, Moo simply because they don't do anything evil or out of the ordinary.
No. 1070881
>>1070879I've been white knighting them because compared to the average internet user they don't do anything bad or out of the ordinary and if anything some of them are actual
victims like Venus Angelic. They are not doing actually immoral acts. If I hate western women then why do I have empathy for many of them?
No. 1070882
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I went to make a post in the J-Music thread to drop some more proof that Miyavi stole several ideas from me since 2020, but the thread is somehow suddenly gone.
I figured out it was Richard Frias impersonating Miyavi to troll his fanbase for ideas during Covid, then absorb the most loyal and creative ones to Miyavi's staff. I, myself, was cut out bc I'm not medically able to go on tour, which I explained, and as well I'm not s model, photog, artist or anything thst would justify an otherwise broke nobody being on stage with Miyavi.
When I started seeing my shit like the Miyavi sake and hair wax (2 of my 6+ ideas) I contacted the Hangouts Miyavi account asking wtf. I was promised over a dozen times since mid 2021 to be cut in, but only if I acted like a manic little alt weeb fangirl eager to suck his cock, which as a 30 year old woman I am not.
Cue tonight, I message him to tell him I figured out it was Richard and Yuki, that I've reached out to Google abt my missing chat logs, and that I plan to make a video aboit all this shit. I have screenshots of literally everything, but legally speaking I need the original chatlog to prove my case and get paid. So far all I can prove is that I was connected by at least Richard, despite back in 2020 I did do a breif video call with actual Miyavi where he said my name and spoke to me, before later coming back and having some random black guy claim it was him the entire time. He panicked and asked for my cashapp and another videocall, but I said no. And now the thread I originally posted this in when I started noticing it is gone. I bet Kiki and Dakota wish they knew how that happened.
I literally can't believe this is real life. An Asian girl 5 years younger than me is wearing my skin to get close to a Jrocker I listened to since I was 11, who turned out to be a disgusting egotist, all bc he liked me so much he wanted to make me a groupie but I said no so she hopped into the role. She must need new selfies to copy too, bc "Miyavi"/Richard kept begging me for new selfies and a videocall in order to pay me.
Protip: if you think the nobody scrotes that get posted about here are entitled coomer assholes, I'm here to say they pale in comparison.
No. 1070894
>>1070888because I was completely uneducated in a place where everyone would kill animals and molest each other. I was molested too and yet nobody cared. You don't understand the effects and conditioning of your environment. I was 8 years old in a fucked up environment where everyone around me would molest one another and I only saw brutality displayed in front of me constantly. Why can't you have empathy now in adulthood for someone in an extremely
abusive environment? For a literal child.
No. 1070916
>>1070904He blocked me so I doubt it unless I can generate enough buzz about it. Everywhere I try to talk about it though, I get censored or everything gets deleted, and I don't wanna hijack a thread over it.
Yoshiki is somehow involved too, I'm talking with a Russian girl on IG who runs an account claiming a girl killed herself after talking with a Yoshiki account, and discovering that the Baccarat glass collab thing he just did was disclosed to her before it was announced anywhere else.
I think during Covid, when JP artists were struggling with their overseas markets hardest that some staff members began impersonating them to mine the fans for ideas, and reward the obedient, obsessive ones with the groupie experience or primises of a relationship/friendship. Idk how else to explain where Miyavi's 3 random nobodies came from, why they were/are there, or how they could all 3 afford new homes in LA after a pandemic with no steady work history just for goin on tour with Miyavi dressed like me.
I have so, sooo goddamn many screenshots, y'all. I just dunno where to put them. I made collages of my selfies against Yuki's oics since June 2020 and my family could barely tell which ones were her or me through all her filters and makeup. Jokes on her, I'm 30 and there wasn't ever a drop of makeup ony face in any of my selfies, hoe literally did her eye makeup for 2 years to mimic my eyelid discoloration and then went and got
permanent makeup done on her lips to match them to my natural shade.
No. 1070926
I feel like i'm legit, in the most literal sense, stupid. Like I can absorb and regurgitate information, I got my masters etc, but in terms of like, "getting it", I feel like I don't and I don't even realise it until much later.
Like with pokemon when I was a kid. I loved it, I had the poster and memorised all 150 pokemon, but I completely missed the whole one type is weak against the other, I suppose the basic mechanics of the actual game? I was about 15 when I realised I didn't have to cut my right toenails using my left hand, like you do with your hand nails. It was honestly like a revelation slowly transferring the clippers to my right hand kek.
And fucking forget about social dynamics and power plays in high school, I just assumed everyone except my friends were trying to catch me out and make fun of me, and with my friends I took everything they said at face value, only realising literally a decade later that they were sometimes deceptive. I think I'd basically be able to navigate that social landscape now but obviously people in my environment now are MORE socially advanced and i'm still behind. And like, for very obvious formulaic jokes I will not get it for longer than average. Like if I say "let's pretend this doesn't exist" and they reply "that what doesn't exist?" and i'm like "the thing we were just talking about duh…oh haha OK". You know?
Also, I can count the amount of quick comebacks I've made in my life on one hand, and they were always complete accidents eg someone's complaining "ugh you guys never listen to me" and after a few beats of awkward silence and I didn't hear i'm like "…what was that?" and everyone's like "lmao anon that's hilarious" and I feel like a fraud for going along with it.
I suppose the thing that sucks about it is that I don't know that I don't know but i'm aware that I'm probably missing stuff, and I don't really think there's any way to actually get smarter in that sense. Like with the understanding jokes, I only get it within a few seconds because it's such a common response to that statement, but i'm never any quicker on the uptake.
No. 1070934
>>1070916>>1070904>>1070882Oh, and they almost definitely know about LC as well or else Yoshiki, Miyavi and Yuki's posting patterns wouldn't have all changed as soon as I posted their patterns in the J-Music thread.
Soooo…
>>1070910 kek?
No. 1070955
>>1070940I've helped many homeless women with money although I have been broke my entire life. I have always stood up for the truth. I have helped people with mental illnesses that are too mentally ill and poor to get therapy or medication. I have tried to go against evil people in power positions, although I put myself in danger. Why do I need to justify myself in front of you? Because you think I want to rape children now and you pull this accusation out of your ass because I did something at 8 years old which according to the environment I was living in wasn't even evil. When evil is normalized in a social group it because the "normal". You tell me that I fiddle with children for me being an 8 year old child that was raped on a daily basis and that saw animals being killed in front of her and that would assist to sexual perversions daily, so I ended up replicating my environment. You tell me I am jealous of a female pimp because I was sexually trafficked. I cannot win.
The world is inherently immoral and we are always taking advantage of one another to climb to the top. There is no help for those in truly bad situations. Those with money don't aid those in bad social positions and the medical system is constructed in such way that people with mental illnesses cannot actual access the resources to improve their lives because often times those that are mentally ill are also incredibly poor. We live in a world where we need to become completely dead inside to put up with our daily lives. The misfortune of another is nothing more but an amusement for the average human being.
No. 1070970
>>1070958Hm, I don't know but that question really makes me think. At 30 years old is there any point in trying to get a diagnosis? I feel like high school was the worst of it, and I kidn of feel like if I went to a doctor and said I might have it they'd be like "and?".
If i'm holding down a job maybe it'd be seen as irrelevant.
No. 1071084
>>1071032the thing that disgusts me the most is that he was probably trying to make out with you.
>>1071074unfortunately some people need to learn things the hard way. dealing with men causes so much heartache though, but we can't save some people from their mistakes.
No. 1071091
>>1071085not even. even if they see you as a sister they will pounce when they get a chance. my friend's brother did the reverse of what happened to OP.
he was being vulnerable and tried to make out with
me when we were vaguely trying to console him. they just use any comforting interaction to try to have sex.
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i fucking hate how retarded everyone is and how it's all about appearing hot (very important!!) and (other adjective) to other people. it makes me lose faith in humanity because how would you know if someone is genuinely the person they claim to be when everyone invests more energy into giving off a certain vibe than cultivating actual interests? i don't care if people think i'm weird/boring for not being terminally online on social media and for having a "difficult" taste in books (i read what i like, not what makes me appear cool/mysterious/edgy) and a select few hobbies that don't seem to fit together into a coherent aesthetic. at least i genuinely enjoy what i'm doing and i'm not pretending someone i'm not.
no wonder these kids are in therapy and on anti-depressants when they constantly obsess over how strangers "perceive" them.
No. 1071192
>>1071093When I was a teen I got the short-lived idea that I wanted to be a nun (not as uncommon in my home country), when that news spread, suddenly every male that used to chat with me or regularly spoke to me through text or phone dropped off the face of the earth.
Males will view you only as a potential insemination event and someone to stroke their ego. There is no genuine friendship to get from them, they don't even comfort their fellow males when theyre falling apart.
No. 1071224
Each day my hate for trannoids grows further. I used to be a TRA and was so blind to just how fetishistic it is. They deny this, but it's the damn truth. I'm looking back on the ones I befriended and I'm seething.
One did not pass even remotely, and when I tried to suggest ways to improve his appearance and the steps to take it, including things covered by insurance, he denied the help each and every time. He just would rather wear nails and makeup and use purses, instead of getting rid of the fucking stubble on his face. When I suggested trying to get Starbucks insurance to get full FFS, he just whined and said that he wouldn't be able to wear nails at the job so it's not worth it. Oh but of course, talked super excitedly about getting a vagina one day. As if that'll just make your fat hairy ass turn into a woman.
Another I used to support is so deep into coomer shit now and I can't believe I once thought it was a valid thing. Since then, no effort to pass, just ugly 100gecs fashion choices and growing out his hair. No plans for passing surgery. Just hornyposts on twitter all day about getting HRT anally and fetishizing female reproduction. These sick fucks want uterus transplants just so they can get off. Not like it's even possible, but imagine being an organ donor and one day your uterus goes to some pervert using it for fetishy eUphOrIa points.
Yeah yeah I know, inb4 why were you friends with scrotes to begin with? Well I've seen the light so don't worry. I'd post this in /2X/ but it's dead as fuck.
No. 1071538
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Holy fuck. I spent this day with my mother and I feel exhausted. It's pretty hard to be with her in the first place because literally everything that leaves her mouth is a complaint (and literally about everything and anything….we went to a fast food place for instance and she complained about the food right in front of the guy serving us that it 'smelled awful' and that 'it barely has any prawns in it'. The rest of the day she was going on about the Ukranian war, and local political stuff, as well as everything being overpriced, her friend being stupid, her other friend wanting to buy the wrong colored couch because she should be thinking in greens instead of greys, yadda yadda').
But what annoyed me the most was that at the end of the day when she, in a tone that she thinks of as tactful, told me that even though the extra weight works for my face really well, I started to develop a bit of a stomach and should start working out. And I guess as a sort of comforting gesture she told me that she works out too.
I cannot. I just can't.
No. 1071575
>>1070882>>1070904>>1070916>>1070934In case anyone is actually interested in this, I just @ Miyavi and Yoshiki on Twitter with the hashtag #MYVscam. I'm gonna keep posting tweets until someone takes me seriously.
I honestly can't believe there isn't more interest in this since a while ago I remember seeing posts curious about all the "random" "Nigerian scammer" Jrocker accounts. In hindsight they were probably also staff members trying to see which fans they could manipulate the easiest. Funny how they all but stopped when I started posting abt all this in the JMusic thread as well, huh?
God. If this wasn't LC I'd post those selfie collages sooo fast.
No. 1071600
>>1071140sort of related but i stopped reading in public when i'm alone and easily approachable when i realized it only invites unwanted attention. either you have:
-old people commenting on how young people don't read anymore and how nice it is that i read - those are cute, but still… i'm trying to read in peace.
-fucking teenagers laughing because 'only nerds read.'
-men trying to strike up a conversation because they think you are sorely lacking in male attention and only their lefty bro 'wow ur different from other girls haha' attitude can fix this.
years ago i was in a starbucks (for the first time ever kek), after having signed the contract for my dorm room at university, and this guy struck up a conversation and wouldn't leave me alone. i was actually reading one of the books shown in the video. i thought he was just a weirdo but while i was waiting for my bus home, another dude approached me and squatted down next to me to read the book over my shoulder.
i have an e-reader now so people have no idea what the fuck i'm reading and that already robs them of an easy way to approach me. men are fucking pests.
No. 1071702
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>changed up my diet a bit and is losing some weight and bloat, yay!
>seeing the progress triggered some part of my brain that now gets anxious over the thought of food and eating
>picrel is me @ my shit brain
No. 1071762
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>be productive for 2 days
>be tired from it for the following 2 weeks
my brain is broken
No. 1071775
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My father (39) to me (21) just now: "Don't worry anon, I couldn't stand children when I was your age either, much less wanted any of my own. You'll grow out of it!". My mother basically picreled him before he even realized what he just said kek. I know dad, I know…
No. 1071788
>>1071617Feel this way too sometimes. I'm not really right or left leaning, but there's days where I feel more part of the "right wing racists". You can want women's rights, but then get ostracized and berated for saying something as simple as "trans shouldn't be in women's sports" or the biological fact of "mtf's can't get periods". You're no better than a nazi in their eyes if you don't agree. I used to be okay with some trans people, but after peaking, you literally can't see them the same way as before, and your eyes are opened to the sinister goals of their ideology. It really is some brainwashing; you're playing along to appease these trannies that just keep moving the goalposts. You have to ignore all facts and believe in their nonsense so as to not hurt their fee-fees and "be a good person".
Troons rarely come up in conversation with normies at least. I learned that libfems, ugly enbies, and trannies are the only ones that really talk about it. Don't miss that crowd at all, they're as
problematic and hateful as the "right-wing bigots", just in different ways. The constant pandering and discourse is annoying.
No. 1071807
>>1071648Feels that way to me too. People never want to be more than acquaintances. I have somewhat niche interests, but I'm open to talking about almost anything.
It seems that everyone already has their established friends, and there's no way to push through that defense.
No. 1071960
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/m/…I miss you…
No. 1071981
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>>1071978Fuck off seal hater.
No. 1071993
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>>1071986Wrong person, weirdo.
Anyway, I miss /m/. It's a scandal that it's still gone.
No. 1072035
>>1071960Retardation is the act or result of delaying; the extent to which anything is retarded or delayed; that which retards or delays.
Retardation or retarded or similar may refer to:
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Mental retardation, also known as intellectual disability, a disorder characterized by significantly impaired cognitive functioning and deficits in adaptive behaviors
Psychomotor retardation, a slowing-down of thought and a reduction of physical movements in an individual
A form of heterochrony, able to cause effects such as neoteny, retention by adults of traits previously seen only in the young
Physics and engineering
Retardation factor, in chromatography, the fraction of an analyte in the mobile phase of a chromatographic system
Retarded potential, in electrodynamics, electromagnetic potentials generated by time-varying electric current or charge distributions in the past
Retarded time, time when an electromagnetic field began to propagate from a point in a charge distribution to an observer
Retardation time
Music
Retardation (music), a suspension that resolves upward instead of downward
"Retarded" (song), a 1990 single by the band The Afghan Whigs
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(USER HAS BEEN PUT OUT TO PASTURE) No. 1072070
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>>1072059It's been confirmed it's her.
>>1072063On her account @sadcats2007 there are seals and she said it's her in one of the threads too.
No. 1072076
>>1072059>>1072068Lolcow tapestry?
>>1072074I joined for a sec then left
No. 1072090
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>>1072070Holy kek is seal anon a nazi?
No. 1072117
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>>1072090Samefag, I'm still looking through her Instagram and this retard has pictures of herself tagged. Amazing
No. 1072123
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>>1072117I think a surgery would save that severe case of overbite.
No. 1072139
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>>1072129if you're retarded enough to have your irl face on the same account where you post lolcow shit, you deserve to be dragged
besides she's annoying as shit
No. 1072221
>>1072217she makes it very obvious that it's her posting, basically avatarfagging
there's some discord dramu too
No. 1072284
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>>1072267stop ur embarassing me in front of the other nonnies
No. 1072355
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I don't knowif anyone here knows her, since she is a Dutch spokesperson, but she has featured in international projects. Anyway, I used to kind of admire Eva Vlaardingerbroek, since she is a beautiful Dutch woman who speaks her mind in an intellectual matter and managed to make that her job. Although I thought her points were not always very strong, I was worried to criticise her since others would often claim this was out of jealousy. Now that I don't really care about these things anymore, I decided to revisit her page and see where she is now. Again, I used to take inspiration from her. Watching some of her videos now made me notice how awful she actually is at presenting points and arguing. Her speeches are boring and follow default oratory conventions, her arguments appear as though they've never matured past 2016 talking points and her grasp of her opponent's perspective is superficial. Kissing Tucker Carlson and PragerU's ass should say enough, but I thought she was still somewhat intelligent and educated. Now I see that she doesn't even have that. Usually I would say it is sad for a woman with such potential to waste it the way she does, but I honestly can't even say she has that much potential. She's just an average Dutch woman. Maybe my standards are too high, but she just bores me and her works are flawed. This video alone is so poorly done. I was shocked to discover this is really how she chose to present the topic. She has to know that only neckbeards and tradthot clout chasers take her seriously, right? Them and sexist Dutch magazines who rank women based on their appearance. But it's an icky feminist thing to criticise male porn sickness, and Vlaardingerbroek would never dare offend precious conservative males! Anyway
No. 1072421
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>>1072053>>1072045They're just cute animals, I posted a seal with my post originally because it looked sad. That's not avatarfagging.
Seriously some anons need to take their meds.
The actual seal sperg can be identified because she actually spergs facts about seals.
No. 1072455
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coffee doesn't make me sleepy, but i think it might be triggering my restless leg since i usually drink a 2nd or 3rd cup with dinner. it only happens in one leg (right) and it's this really unpleasant, kind of "fizzy" feeling in my calf. i've had this periodically but it always went away after a week or two. now it's been three weeks and it just pisses me off so much. i'm gonna try and cut down on coffee so i'll only have a cup in the morning, but i'm already annoyed. i looove coffee. i also have one of those giant bean grinding coffee machines so i can't easily switch between normal beans and decaf.
No. 1072528
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>>1072505Boat anon got intimate on
No. 1072603
>>1072528kek
>>1072563When I see shit larps like this it really reminds me of how scrotes see us as nothing but evil vamps out to get them and being able to step on hearts wearing stilettos as if it was a fun game for us. Of course there's no real threat of getting us fucking murdered by a psycho XY playing games like that first. He's taking out his frustration and justifying his hate for women with this retarded "ugly scrotes are delusional and easily replaceable let me put on my corset and talk about my ex kek based girlboss!!!" fantasy.
No. 1072618
>>1072355No trying to argue or anything, but
>I used to kind of admire Eva Vlaardingerbroek, since she is a beautiful Dutch woman who speaks her mind >Them and sexist Dutch magazines who rank women based on their appearance.Uhh…
No. 1072619
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It’s fucking 8 in the morning on a fucking sunday, jfc.
No. 1072644
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when will /m/ - General Book Thread #2 come return from war
No. 1072649
I don't have to act to make the entire world suffer. It has been proven to me that everything I have to do is simply think when enough hatred has been placed in me.
Homo sapiens is a miserable species. We are constantly using each other. Taking advantage of those that are weaker than us. The human species is a mistake.
>>1072636No, I am only cursing America. The war is happening because of America either way. America has been creating tensions between them and the Eastern block since before covid. Romania and Ukraine are filled with American military research facilities and America never lets the world know their real political actions, what a big beautiful democracy. America has made Russia declare war. I hate America, it has only caused atrocities, yet it presents itself as the most pristine and democratic nation in the world. America has caused modern marketing, sjws, all modern cancer and it will cause the entire world to collapse. They are planning the most oppressive system that has ever existed. America is the most authoritarian nation that has ever existed. Death upon America.
No. 1072679
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I swear if I don't get this greenhouse job I'm going to blow my top.
No. 1072689
>>1072627I'm from Europé too, even know a person who owns a boat and it actually is rare af and expensive af so lmao
>>1072639kek
No. 1072712
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>>1072686But capitalism didn’t originate in the USA, it’s from Europe.
No. 1072807
>>1072694>>1072728Nta but damn humans do not live long enough and do not have that much value to be boot licking work like this. Must be that some anons
mentally handicapped politically conservative which whatever you do you girlboss kek but learn to shut up.
No. 1072892
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I have not washed my hair in two weeks. I started my period three days ago and haven’t put on a pad once. I have an extremely heavy flow (like, medically, it’s a problem sometimes) and I’ve just been soaking my pants, blankets, sheets, and bed. I’m not even depressed, I just hate living in a world where people with XY chromosomes exist and it has drained me to this point. I’m a husk. Her smile and optimism: gone
No. 1072937
>>1072908the entire point of the post was how much I hate men and how living in a world with them is draining. negative IQ
>>1072928wait how
No. 1072948
>>1072932Nta, but I wish people would stop saying this about menstrual cups. Yes you can get a prolapse, but only from incorrect removal (bearing down, which you're not supposed to do.).
>>1072937>wait howTSS, probably.
No. 1072953
>>1072947thank you honey, enjoy going outside today and interacting with and benefitting men who don’t see you as human
>>1072943I have absolutely no idea what you mean by this, this is the vent thread not 2X
>>1072948thanks anon I didn’t know it worked like that, guess I’ll look into it
No. 1073007
>>1072969you don’t have a job or leave the house? you have been in your grandfather’s house solely for years? I have bad news for you, anon… they are everywhere out here! interacting with them is entirely inevitable unless you are employed by a woman who only hires women and don’t go out otherwise.
>>1072970What are you talking about? She said she lived alone.
>>1072973>>1072985I’m truly just jaded. Interacting with men wears on the soul. I feel love for myself and am doing well in college and at my job. The only symptom I can relate to in the list on google is isolation.
No. 1073040
>>1073031internalized misogyny moment but unironically
imagine caring about falling into a stereotype made by brainless men aiming to silence women advocating for themselves
No. 1073072
>>1073057not sure if you’re saying I should do this or you do this because of the wording but it doesn’t do anything for me unfortunately. it’s like pouring water on a pile of towels, it will just soak to the floor. I wish plastic was more comfy.
>>1073060Yeah. Just the bed, though. I’m not squatting over the couch for fun, just trying to exist and sleep.
>>1073067Me! People who use pads are sitting in their own blood again after they pee, too. It doesn’t have any impact on you at all.
No. 1073079
>>1073057Yeah I have always used a towel whenever my flow felt unmanageable and I was being lazy.
Anon says it won't work for them but…honestly how are they dumping enough blood to soak through a fucking towel and not pass out?
Anon is anemic which contributes to her depressed mood.
No. 1073085
>>1073026I mean sure, but saying "menstrual cups cause prolapses" makes it seem like just using one causes a prolapse. If you cared about informing women of the risks, you could say how those prolapses actually happen.
>>1073030There's a risk with pretty much every menstrual product, nonna
No. 1073091
>>1073085Hmmm
Tampon risk, if you leave in for way too long,
toxic shock. Pad risk, if you wear it too long you could get a yeast infection. Menstrual cup, could cause UTERINE PROLAPSE if you clench the wrong way. Hm, yeah, I think I will take my chances with literally anything else but you do you
No. 1073106
>>1073091>Tampon risk, if you leave in for way too long, toxic shock. Nta but there's no realistic risk for
toxic shock by tampons at all. You've got to leave it in for literal days and even then it's a marginal risk, who's that stupid?
No. 1073365
>>1073057>>1072964I stopped using pads or tampons completely and just shove a rag down my pants, hated the feeling of sweaty foul smelling plastic and yeast infections and rashes. Should probbaly get some cloth pads but I'm lazy and cheap and rags work fine so meh.
I also have a retroverted uterus so the blood doesn't drip out unless I bear down or squat/sit down so that helps ig. So I also sometimes freebleed when I'm at home and can go to the toilet as I wish.
No. 1073371
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I hope that my manchild 33 year old sexually frustrated incel of a manager gets his fingers chopped off soon honestly I am so sick and tired of his passive aggressive self-entitled shit every week because he's still salty that a year later I won't suck his dick or be his girlfriend and instead he tries to shit on my relationship for being long distance while that's hilarious to me because his longterm ex dumped his ass after he constantly tried to cheat on her with big titty ladies from other countries he'd never met, why are some straight cis men such wet flannels? bitch
No. 1073392
>>1073380Yeah
nonny actually I take it back all men are fucking garbage outside of the ones I know who aren't straight or fully straight, fuck them
No. 1073419
>>1073411Oh
nonnie, I had a big moth infestation some years ago and it made me want to die waking up to I joke you not, two hundred and something or so of the fuckers. Got all over and into my old bedding, chewed my toy's eyes out, ruined clothes and underwear and made me miserable, they sent pest control to my flat and he recommended me this chrysantehum spray you can get on Amazon, and I swear by it. You will need to do all the other things farmers have added but for extra comfort I recommend that and also batch freezing all your clothes and toys.
No. 1073717
>>1073411>>1073396>>1073398>>1073419All advice taken on board, I'll re-do the cupboards and spray essential oils, get crysanthemum spray. I do hope it's only the food cupboard because there are a lot of gaps with exposed brick that if they were coming from or hiding there, I'd have to get an exterminator. I'm growing a bit of weed that I can't hide at this stage so I need to hold off on outsider intervention.
I pray that a maggot doesn't fall into my mouth when I'm sleeping and that these things get BTFO
No. 1073848
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Man I've been depressed lately. I always try to imagine like 'Things would be better if it was like this' or 'if I looked like this' but it never helps out my current situation. I'm going to try to stop thinking like this
No. 1074371
>>1073807The only guarantee that life will never get any better is to end it.
Don't do that.
It's hard as fuck, but trust me it's not what you really wanna do. You don't think properly when you're feeling like shit, so keep that in mind. Look up stories of people who have survived their suicide attempts and really take in ehat they have to say: nearly everyone who survives an attempt is grateful they did & regretted it the moment they felt themselves go past the "point of no return" before they got help.
I hope this is ok to say bc I know most ppl aren't really religious these days, but I'm gonna send up a prayer that you find your way out of whatever is giving you these feelings, for good, very soon. Be safe, anon.