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No. 2502439

A thread for venting about difficult, weird, or stupid stuff going on in your life.

Previous vent thread:
>>>/ot/2491489


Follow all the /ot/ board rules & do not reply to bait.

Please, do not come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you do not have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.

No. 2502444

>>>/ot/2502244
I can relate, nona, I wasn't allowed an education or to leave the home at all until I was old enough to tell my mother to fuck off (21.. lol), for a few years I wasn't allowed to leave my room or speak at all. It's quite frustrating being misunderstood, people seem to think the trauma was just being bored, when it really affects pretty much every aspect of your life. Your life is only really starting now, it isn't fair to hold yourself to other people's standards and milestones because they haven't lived your life. I won't hijack your vent but since you mentioned feeling alone, I want you to know your experiences really resonate with mine - I can attach my email if you wanna talk. You're only 20, you have so much room to grow
prev thread hit reply limit once I tried to send this, oops

No. 2502445

I think I'm a weak person… Everytime I have an argument I end up crying… I also will overthink about that moment for the rest of my life, maybe I fear public opinion, maybe I just don't want people to see me in a vulnerable state, I just feel like there's never a reason for an argument because in my eyes we are all friends and everything can be solved in a non-conflict way… Wish I didn't care as much about people thinking negatively of me, but it takes a lot for me to think someone's bad or rude and I just wish it was like that for other people…

No. 2502446

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I'm sure it's been said on here many times before, but it's so sad to see a post on here and think that maybe that nonny and I would make great friends. It's not fair how moids can be as degen as they want, wherever they want, without a care in the world, and can easily find others like them, but being a weird and thought-criminal / scrote-hating woman just results in loneliness.

No. 2502456

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>Driving home from work after night shift
>Have radio station on because I work too short of a drive to bother with setting up my bluetooth
>Obnoxious trash talk show starts suddenly with prolonged fucking POLICE SIRENS in their intro
>freak out cause I'm literally driving home from a 12 hr nightshift and looking for sirens I can't find
>sirens stop and some man children who like The Offspring and talk about boobs like their 12 yr olds going through puberty come on instead

I consider myself pretty anti-censorship, but I strongly believe that emergency sirens and car honking sounds should not be allowed on the radio. It's a literal safety hazard.

And what's with dudes whose humor never evolved since they were in college in 2005 that still think making jokes about loving beer and boobs is the funniest thing ever? Makes me think of picrel

No. 2502462

Stupid non-problem in comparison to most but I never developed a sense of fashion or style or how to apply anything, or what is normal or looks good or even what the "rules" are, in any capacity, with no real female guidance or influence growing up. Great in a few ways but has caused issues too. I feel self conscious about it a lot of times. I have very unfortunate looking genetics, am older, and not well-off financially so "playing" with looks feels out of reach and I would be to overwhelmed and embarassed to try. I don't how to do anything. I feel terrible about myself a lot of times.

No. 2502463

OMG my mom is such a bitch about my hair. “It’s too long you have thin hair you need to cut it!” Omg I am aware it’s too long I have a haircut next month! She’s always been this way about me having long hair and I can’t have long hair because it’s thin blah blah blah. I will admit I have dead hair that needs to be cut but she’s so rude about my hair

No. 2502482

>>2502439
Seeing a picture I made ages ago as the thread pic makes me feel so strange. Someone liked it enough to save it? I'm happy you enjoyed it.

No. 2502496

>>2502456
Idk if youre american but i think this was actually almost banned here but it didnt happen because muh first amendment rights or whatever

No. 2502498

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Feeling so shite after wishing my aunt a happy birthday. I see in our text threads the last birthday text from last year. I can't even give her a call I'm too pathetic, I always mean to do better, to send a card and drawing every year for my family but never end up doing it. It's always some personal life tragedy happening and I deal with life so badly. I work 7 days in a row have two days left before a day off, while my "nigel" and I nearly breaking up during this time too, I couldn't make a card happen. She sends me some pictures of ducklings she saw and has "love you and miss you…" at the end of her text, I'm about to sob. I feel like the worst niece in the world. At least this will motivate me I hope to send out drawings and letters but I feel so ashamed. I wish all my relatives didn't live in different states I miss them all so much.

No. 2502504

>>2502456
Yes this shit pisses me off. You're not supposed to do it, and shows continue to do it specifically because it gets attention. I only listen to NPR if I'm not using bluetooth

No. 2502507

We need to return to our villages and communities of women living together and raising any offspring. Which delusional man convinced women that the nuclear family is all they need . a man could never replace a village he can’t even replace the support of one woman!

No. 2502511

>>2502496
If that's true, that's so ridiculous. Aren't curse words banned on the radio? Who tf is fighting for their right to be able to cause car wrecks, but doesn't have a problem with songs getting awkward shitty cuts

No. 2502515

>>2502456
the radio is so trash now no wonder it’s dying

No. 2502519

>>2502507
Nuclear families are the biggest psyop, raising children with your female relatives has got to be the most natural and ideal way to do it, even if it's just to minimize the risk of sex abuse and parental conflict.

I decided that I want to have a baby on my own because my sister had a baby and I get so much joy from being just with my parents and them, I realized a partner is totally optional for me. And in fact my biggest fears and concerns about having a child revolve around the father so it feels like a lifehack that I can exclude men from the process.

No. 2502530

>>2502519
nonna, please don’t make decisions based off baby fever. can you afford to raise a baby as a single mom? money is the biggest factor in women sticking with a moid

No. 2502533

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>>2502456
Your friend passes out at a party from drinkin' too much OxyClean. What do you do, take him to the hospital? GAAA-ayy! I got an idea. Sharpen a toothbrush into a knife, stab him in the neck with it, then start chugging his blood! It's got free OxyClean in it, am I right? I just pooped Ragú. Never mind the fact that 90% of the wealth in the world is owned by less than 1% of the population… we got rare audio of North American grizzly bears farting that we're gonna play over stock footage of mammograms. I just dick-queefed, MANSWERS!

No. 2502541

>>2502463
Projecting her own insecurities.

No. 2502551

>>2502530
I promise I'm not dumb enough to make life decisions based on something being cute. It was more like, I realized I'm extremely family oriented and there's nothing I value more than being with my immediate family. I've spent years lurking on forums and subreddits about parenting, motherhood, childfree life etc to ensure I make the right choice, and because of all the horror stories about men I assumed it wasn't for me. But as soon as I took that out of the equation, it became something I could really want.

I should be ok financially, I own my own home and have 6 figure savings in the bank. I'm not american so I'd get mat leave and subsidized childcare too.

No. 2502560

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I wanted to look for a cute sticker of an animal but it's all pride shit, said animal wearing a "save the dolls" or whatever shirt, or "resist" or anti-tariff messaging, like fuck OFF I just want a SIMPLE STICKER of a SPECIFIC ANIMAL either with a cute style or cooler realistic not this constant clown world shit everywhere all the time everything is so GAY and RETARDED all the god damn time

No. 2502587

>>2502560
go to a hobby store and buy some sticker paper and draw it yourself? or you could trace a pic you like. its pretty fun and its nice to look at knowing you made it

No. 2502614

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Yet another story about being a Nona in fandom

>be artist for fandom
>contribute lots to specific niche ship
>become moderately popular within that niche
>be close friends with a moid that also draws it for about two years
>moid and me get harassed by fandom retards
>openly defend him and shit on teenagers because I’m a ride or die type
>get harassed by two infamous community trannies
>terf out, lose a lot of people
>disappear for months
>moid sticks around
>stop being a total doormat appeasing fandom retards upon returning
>moid is extremely conflict averse, to an allergic degree, one of those uwu soft boy types
>moid increasingly unhappy with me being spicy to fandom retards
>too pussy to call me a bitch and tell me to fuck off, tries to control my words and “tone” instead
>so pussy I have to tell him to take distance from me, think this solves problem because he’s been demoted to casual acquaintance
>I am once more spicy in a fandom corner when someone whines about misgendering a fictional character, retards everywhere cry and shit about it
>hours long meltdown that I miss out on because I was just grocery shopping and having a chill afternoon while all of these idiots were throwing tantrums
>learn from second moid friend that moid #1 is talking about me elsewhere where I am not, waxing poetic about “separating art from the artist”and how “nonny’s behavior can’t be excused just because she is such a backbone of the community for our ship” in an extended testerical wall of text that goes in circles
>moid #2 tells me that to his annoyance moid #1 told him to be wary of me
>moid #1 was talking to me normally less than 5 days ago, all of this took place entirely behind my back

I blocked him without explanation and feel like the past two years and even the effort to keep him an acquaintance rather than cutting him off outright was a waste. I know it would be the inappropriate thing to do, so I didn’t do it, but I wish I told him he was a massive pussy before I blocked him. Moids can be so fucking ungrateful, I should have let the annoying kids and hysterical trannies tear him limb from limb since he was too much of a wimp to do it himself

No. 2502633

Finally fucked a guy I had been chasing for months and he had a weird shrimp dick. Plus he had to leave midway through the act because of his cat allergies (I have two cats). I've never been more underwhelmed by a guy before. Well at least now I can sleep peacefully knowing that I got what I wanted even though it didn't live up to my expectations. Still bummed about it though because I had been hyping it up in my head. Learnt my lesson about expecting anything good from a guy ever again though.

No. 2502639

what is it with people casually insulting their acquaintances behind their backs? like this guy picked up the phone, was fakely pleasant while looking mildly annoyed, then spent a few minutes ranting about them to me, does he not realize how untrustworthy that actually makes him look?

No. 2502642

>>2502463
what's wrong with thin long hair? mine are curly even, you just have to maintain them

No. 2502653

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I'm usually a moderately serious person, but when something bad happens to me, I always make a genuinely retarded joke about it. The jokes are never funny, but I do it anyway. I don't know what that psychological issue is, since I'm not a "joking" person in real life–or even online. I laugh at others' jokes, but I usually take things seriously, so I don't know where it's coming from. I was, by legal definitions, raped on Thursday and have been making jokes about it at my own expense and at his own behavior before it happened (because I am a petty bitch), but I'm still making rape jokes, which is fucked. I contacted three therapists on Friday and I'm hoping to get it resolved, but I hate having parts of myself that seem to have no logical sense (outside of "oowoo you're stressed"—please don't ban me, mods, I spelled it out instead). I don't really think about myself too much outside of what I need or want to do, and I feel like I have a good understanding of how I fit into what I do, so I hate having the more "mental" stuff. I wish I was a rock, or an ant, or something. I hate full consciousness. I am drunk and all of this is word vomit, so please forgive me.

No. 2502669

I have so much work to do in the next 48 hours idk how I am going to do it all. It’s all on a computer so my upper shoulders and neck are so fucking stiff and no matter what I do nothing relieves the tension

No. 2502686

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>>2502351
This one's on me.

No. 2502691

>>2502686
youll always be there for her. how sweet

No. 2502707

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Gonna see a dermatologist today. I'm really nervous.

Gonna ask them about some hyperpigmented zones on my face and maybe hair eval bc of my thrichotilomania. I'm worried they'll shit on me for having it.
But maybe I can at least fix my face.

No. 2502735

My friend used my disability as a gotcha in an argument by stating that it wasn't fair that I didn't have to work and she did. I asked if she wanted to trade places and that shut her right up but I really don't think I can ever forgive her for saying it in the first place. She knows that I had to leave school and a good internship in my chosen career because my health got so bad. I finally got over not wanting to kms due to being imo a useless leech, but this just brought everything back.

No. 2502754

>>2502735
The irony. Working "friend" but wants to be a neet. You, someone who can't work despite wanting to.

I don't think this is the first time she's done something shitty if she was soo rent free about saying that. I'm sorry for what happened nona, keep doing your best either way. You've definitely overcame and achieved more than she'll ever with that shit mentality.

No. 2502764

>>2502754
It's definitely a sucky situation. I feel for her and I understand her frustration because most people don't like working and she's got a carousel of jobs that she can't keep, but I am not the person she should bring that frustration to. Man with no shoes complains about his situation to the man with no feet. The way she said it was so uncalled for too, like it really opened my eyes how much she resents me and I don't know how we're supposed to stay friends through that.

No. 2502780

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Why is it so fucking hard to find petite clothing that's a little bit alternative in style. I either have to choose between something my grandma would wear or something insanely revealing for the club. It's like every clothing website said "oh you're under 5'3? here, you can have 3 dresses and most of them will still be too long for you and look like shit." Fuck off.

No. 2502783

>get a video from a small channel in my youtube recommended
>the person in the video looks and sounds a lot like me
>click on the channel
>it's an androgynous male tranny

why does this keep happening to me? i don't even have any strong masculine facial features, i just don't look hyperfeminine either. i don't have dysmorphia so it thankfully doesn't hit all that hard, but it makes me feel even more alienated from other (normie) women than i already am.

No. 2502786

>Lifelong prescription for melatonin
>Doesn't get covered by insurance
>Anemic and iron deficient
>GP puts me on iron supplements
>Doesn't get covered
>Regular blood tests to monitor anemia/deficiencies
>Doesn't get covered
>After two years of supplementing iron daily GP recommends I go on birth control instead
>Says it doesn't get covered by insurance
What am I even insured for at this point.

No. 2502787

It does not get better and I hate everyone who ever told me it would

No. 2502803

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>"I can't believe this is how badly you treat your friends"
written in the 50th letter from the scrote who's literally been stalking me for 2+ years and still won't leave me the fuck alone

No. 2502804

>>2502787
Fucking hate when I find YouTubers who make slightly decent videos, and they decide for some stupid reason to laugh like idiots. I can tell they are forcing it. I also hate this girl who talks about interesting topics but her mouth freaks me out, I don't like her mouth area.

No. 2502811

>>2502786
How do you even have a prescription for melatonin? Like you can't go and buy some? How are you so deficient you get a prescription for it like I just don't get it, I've never heard of anyone having a melatonin prescription in my entire life and it sounds like something some quack would do for a few extra pharmacy bucks or something. Not trying to be rude I've just never heard of this ever and I'm very curious.

No. 2502812

I'm so retarded, I literally do not know how to make a doctors appointment. I don't know who or where to call or what to say. Last time I saw one (my mom made the appointment for me) I brought up a medical issue and he went "that's not in my area" and ended it. Another doctor told me to get a pet to cure my depression, when I didn't even have depression. How the fuck do I know what area an issue is in and which doctor is the right one? And when I'm on the phone am I supposed to tell the receptionist or whoever answers my exact problems or do I just ask for an appointment? Like do I go "hi, so I'm bleeding out of my ass and also my period is highly irregular so I need an appointment please thank you" or do I just ask for an appointment and again get there and have a doctor tell me I paid money for nothing because it's not his area at all??? I'm just gonna die when I get sick.

No. 2502822

>>2502812
>who or where to call
the general clinic you're registered at (if that's how your country works; like a GP in the UK, family doctor in some other countries). Find the appointment info on their website, or ask your mom where she called last time. If your issue is too specific for them, it's their job to tell you who to talk to next.
>what to say
you say you want an appointment, they'll likely then ask for the reason, you give a short summary (so for you, blood in your stool is probably the most pressing issue), they offer a date, you agree to it.
>it's not his area at all???
if he's not able to prescribe tests himself (but for most things, he should be), you ask him to refer you to a specialist. If he refuses to (which would be weird, but some doctors are assholes), you need an appointment with another generalist doctor for a second opinion (if you can choose, a woman may take your issues a bit more seriously).
It's scary but us women often have to fight to actually get tests and help, that's been my experience at least.

No. 2502846

>>2502811
You can't get melatonin in high doses over the counter.

No. 2502848

>>2502822
>the general clinic you're registered at
How do I even find that out? I feel like such an alien, why was I never taught how to do anything?? Even my mom asked me once which department to call for me and I was like "??? what" and she asked "well what is the doctors name?" and that made me more confused because I've never seen the same doctor more than once, even for the same issue. But I guess she somehow figured it out for me that time so I should ask her… but at the same time I wish I didn't have to ask her. I wish I just knew how it all worked.

No. 2502860

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MY GAME IS STILL UNDER MAINTENANCE I'M GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING LOGIN STREAK

No. 2502868

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>>2502860
kek relax its going to end in like 10 hours

No. 2502871

>>2502860
It is a blessing to be freed from a prison of your own making.

No. 2502873

I followed an automotive page on ig because I want to get work done on my car. The moid running the page liked all my personal photos of me and unliked them days later? Way to make me feel fuckin weird.

No. 2502878

My parents’ mean cat struck and bit my arm. Hope I don’t have to go to urgent care. My sin was feeding him bfast, guess I wasn’t fast enough. I reminded him that he’s lucky he’s a handsome cat cause he’d get put down if he was a dog.

No. 2502882

Pmdd is making me lose my mind. The aggression bubbling inside of me has no way to be released and I want to kill myself.

No. 2502884

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>>2502868
>>2502871
Thank you nonnies

No. 2502886

got up an hour and a half late and i got to work an hour late. thank god it's fine because my boss doesn't really care but i know i'll be out of wack for the rest of the day now

No. 2502894

>>2502882
Bite somebody

No. 2502898

gendies can smell the antisocialness in me, same with any hobby group. I am just too disconnected and unique

No. 2502901

Kara dansky just followed me on twitter and now I feel like I can't ever shitpost again and have to pretend to be a proper and serious radfem, keeeeek. Shit.

No. 2502997

I've never been this fat before. I've been on the verge of tears for a month now. For some odd reason this year I've been gaining. I'm up 20 pounds. I'm about to go to the doctor to see if there's a hormonal imbalance. I'm also considering just going ana chan. 20 pounds is a lot, espicially on a short frame. I don't want to go out and be seen

No. 2503003

>>2502780
Korean and Japanese online stores /fashion sites are a godsend for cute petite fashion!

No. 2503008

>>2502462
i feel you nonny, i'm in the exact same boat and just slowly getting into it, despite not wanting to be perceived and having zero female guidance. what's helping is trying on lots of clothes, buying from thrift stores (it's cheap and i dont worry about wasting stuff if it doesn't fit), and watching Youtube tutorials. try on different styles, silhouettes, fabrics etc until you find stuff you like the look of / that suits you, and go from there! i also have an awkward body type which makes fast fashion a no-go unless i want to look weird, but i discovered vintage cuts/styles and it's helped a lot!

No. 2503014

The jojo siwa shit makes me so mad. She literally proved the redneck corpse that she could be turned not a lesbian right and the fugly moid that did it is probably so smug too. I don't even want to read what people are saying on twitter. I don't care how i sound, women are dissapointing.

No. 2503017

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I'm madly in love with a 35 year old man with a wife and 2 young kids and I don't know how to stop thinking about him. The only reason I like him is because he is kind and stares at me a lot

No. 2503018

>>2503014
I feel the exact same way nona. Things just get worse for lesbians every day

No. 2503021

>>2503017
>he's married with kids and stares at you a lot
This doesn't feel like a red flag to you?

No. 2503025

>>2503017
Is he fit and without a receeding hairline?

No. 2503029

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>>2503017
Tell us about your relationship with your father.

No. 2503030

>>2503017
Think about how you’d feel about him if he did leave his wife and kids for you. Would you still love him? That’s how I got myself to stop limerating (that’s not a word but it is now) over a supervisor I had a crush on years ago. There was just no way for us to be together without blowing up the lives of all these innocent people and I could never love a man who’d do that to his family anyway, so that was the bucket of cold water I needed.

No. 2503037

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my friend invited two people into our small friend group's discord server and i've been too uncomfortable to talk in there ever since. it's a really stupid reaction for a grown woman to have but i can't help it… i don't often use discord servers in the first place because i hate the platform, but now i can't even use the one my friends are all in. makes me sad

No. 2503051

>>2503021
I don't think I'm his type at all, I don't know what his wife looks like but his kids are blonde and I have black hair and dark skin
>>2503025
He is skinny with a full head of hair.
>>2503029
We are not close at all

No. 2503056

>>2503017
because hes kind and stares at you?
isnt that kind of easy to find in moids?…

No. 2503058

>>2503051
the "type" thing matters less than the fact you're single and younger that his wife

No. 2503072

I had lolcow open from yesterday when I switched to my web browser app and I think the person behind me saw.

No. 2503074

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Broke two of my toes by stubbing them in a doorframe and I have a trip to Spain in a few weeks that I’ve been looking forward to for months

No. 2503083

>>2503072
i did

No. 2503116

>>2502803
spit on it and mail it back

No. 2503117

im lowkey so depressed that guys my age are already so ugly. i never got to date a guy in highschool because i was insanely suicidal and depressed almost the whole time. now im only in my early 20s and for every 49 walled fugly moids theres maybe one decent looking guy that i wouldnt kill myself thinking about kissing. the guys at my community college are pretty good looking but i feel like nobody really talks to eachother much here and it seems kinda awkward to approach any of them. my libido is lower than average so i guess i dont really care if i died a virgin but im sad it feels like ill never have an attractive, loving, not-insane boyfriend. being a straight woman is so miserable

No. 2503120

I'm apparently such a socially aloof sperg that I get ghosted all the time, even in mid conversations by aquaintances
even online, I can make dozens of posts in an active thread, and get exactly zero replies, it's like I spend hours a day trying to socialize online, wait for the next day to check back on it, just to realize that no one gave a single fuck
you may thing it's an exaggeration but I can spend weeks, making hundreds of high effort posts, in dozens of threads, asking for follow-ups, and get absolutely zero interaction out of it, while the thread keeps flying with low effort posts
am I'm not talking about here specifically, it's everywhere
I hit up "old friends" on social media, they reply, I write-up something I thought they'd find relevant, 2 weeks later and still on read
it's like a constant fuck you thrown in my face, not even the decency to tell me wtf is wrong with me
sorry if I don't want to spend my life cheaply baiting for attention, I just want to get have conversations that I find interesting but that apparently no one else ever does
it's just tiresome and the painful realization that I'll never deserve friends no matter how hard I try

No. 2503123

>>2503120
if it makes you feel better i also experience something similar. one day we'll find a place where we fit. i'll hang in there if you do too

No. 2503125

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When I was a teenager I was friends with a girl that was tough but really sweet, she was the type to always have your back and had no problem calling out bullshit. A real larger-than-life character in her own right. She wasn't faring very well at home (I don't know all the details, but one of the things was that the parents would "accidentally" lock her outside for hours on end, among other things. According to my mom it was pretty bad), so she was always talking about becoming famous so they would regret their treatment of her - no matter the price.
During the really early 2010's, when blogging was the big thing on the internet, she made a post on her facebook saying that she was going to do an experiment: she is going to create two blogs - one for her art (she's always been an amazing artist), and one where she's pretending to be this dumb bimbo, and she was going to see which one would be more successful. Of course, the latter one was the one that went super viral in our country. She was trolling the shit out of our country by playing this character and manufacturing scandals, she was on the news a lot and even ended up in a season of Big Brother.
After a couple of years she got tired of the whole charade, went completely mask-off in a final post on her blog about the truth, and silently deleted the blog a short while after. She was completely silent for a while, until she one day - completely out of the blue - wrote to me. Just simply checking in. We hadn't spoken in maybe 5 years at that point, but I was happy to hear from her. She was living in Berlin, focusing on her art and apparently mingling with a few celebrities. When I checked out a couple of the names she dropped I asked if she was fine hanging out with men that were so much older, even if they were celebrities, (we were roughly 24-25 at the time, and the men were in their 40's) she just made a couple of raunchy jokes and said it was fine because was "having fun and getting contacts", and I didn't question it; she had always been the headstrong and sexually liberated type that would make raunchy jokes every 15 minutes when we were teens, and I figured some people never change since she seemed to be doing well. But suddenly during the conversation she drops "I wonder if I had been happier if I had focused more on enjoying manga and going to conventions with you back in the day", which left my autistic head spinning - wasn't she fine? She sounded happy with her choices right before this? What prompted this? Everyone I know from the convention scene are currently involved with a bunch of drama right now, and I knew several women - including myself - that have gotten sexually abused by moids connected to the convention scenes, so it's not exactly sunshine and rainbows. Would she really have been happier? Would she have been smart enough to avoid trouble if she had gone with me? Where would she have been today? I had all these questions and mixed feelings, so I didn't know what to say so I left it unanswered. I figured that maybe if I gave it a couple of hours I could perhaps come back with a well-worded answer. But I never did.
But she has always been on my mind, and I've always felt bad for not returning to her about it. It's been almost 10 years or so since. But I decided a couple of weeks ago to check in on her socials for some reason, and I discovered that she has recently released a book… called "To all my pimps", and my heart fucking sunk when I read the synopsis. Her art wasn't doing so well in Berlin, and she ended up doing sex work. The timeframe fits perfectly with the time she wrote to me. It was a call for help and my self-absorbed ass didn't catch up on it. She wasn't on her way to "party" with those crusty moids, they were her johns.
I feel so fucking awful about it, and I want to reach out and apologise to her for not picking up on it. She deserves an apology for being left dry like that. But I don't know how to word it, and I don't know if I should buy and read her book before or after - but I feel like it's the least I can do. I know I couldn't have known, but I still feel like an awful person and my heart aches for what she must have gone through. Dear friend, I am so, so sorry for leaving you like I did. I should have asked more questions. I should have checked in more. I am so sorry for not picking up the signs.

No. 2503126

>>2503083
Proof??

No. 2503128

>>2503120
I'm sorry this happens to you. I can relate to it - I feel like a ghost. Everyone else is interacting around me, I don't know what I'm doing wrong but hardly anything I say seems to be of any value to anyone so I just stopped posting online for the most part. Have you tried the friendfinder on here? I actually made some good connections

No. 2503132

>>2503125
I think you should read it and get in contact with her after. She wrote it in order to have her voice be heard, right? I think it'd help with the conversation, too

No. 2503143

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I really hate that I have bpdemon tendencies. I wasn't diagnosed with it so I won't claim it of course but this behavior of mine really isn't normal. I want to trust my gut feels and see things as obvious signs that these people do not actually want me as a friend and are only being nice, but it also feels really silly. It's little things like ignoring what I say and hearting every reply but mine. I'll just take the hint and fade away.

No. 2503180

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I was raped and reported it, and while I know it was the right thing to do, I wish I didn’t. I’m already tired and it’s only been five days. I’m trying to focus on how it helps other women and girls, but I hate all of this, and I just want to sleep but can’t, because my brain hates me. Fuck my stupid gay life.

No. 2503188

Venting into the void here and all that. It hurts my feelings that I have this one friend in particular who backhandedly negs me about my weight (i.e. "Your bf is such a big man you look smaller in comparison!") and outright makes sure to capture the most unflattering moments in pictures when we are out in group…and weirdly enough I suspect she edited me fatter in a picture she shared in our gc because of the weird spots the pic suddenly cuts and warps on my body. Whenever I take video or photos of her I always make sure they are flattering and I always "fix" the insecurities I know she's voiced before like her nose and general facial roundness just because I know it would make her happy even if she doesn't perceive that I have touched them up. Sometimes the filter she uses in group pics are tailored to fix her specific features which usually warps everyone else into weirdos. Not hard to look like the beauty queen in that scenario.
Not so secretly, I think she has a thing for wanting to be the pretty skinny friend while everyone around her is either ugly or fat or both.
I don't have the energy nor do I care per se, but I do notice and it is starting my impact to want to be around her…or at the least post her "real" unaltered pics while documenting her "silly funny" moments that so happen to capture her double chin and wrinkles, totally innocent of course.

No. 2503212

>>2503188
Nonna, I'm so sorry she's treating you like that. I think you're on the right track with her wanting to be the skinny, pretty friend. I don't know either of you IRL, but she does seem like a bit of an asshole, and I'd assume talking to her about it wouldn't really be helpful. Maybe you can slowly withdraw?

No. 2503218

>>2503180
I'm so sorry nonna. The worst that can happen is happening to you and I'll count my lucky stars every day that you're still alive with us. You were brave to report it and we're so proud of you for going through the trauma of the legal system to stand by helping other women. You're a good soul and I hope you can move past this

No. 2503231

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>>2503188
Damn , sleep with one eye open.

No. 2503239

>>2503125
That’s the art scene for women, you either open your legs or you get tossed away. It’s bleak.

No. 2503242

>>2503125
It’s not like you would have changed her mind years ago. People like her tend to realize that they are being abused much later on, she though she could gain something by putting herself through it.

No. 2503274

>>2503212
I don't see her often as is so that's why I don't very care if she so happens to snap a few mugshots the few times we hang out. I have a kind of pity for her that she's clearly very insecure and unconfident and the only thing that seems to soothe that for her is feeling like the best in the room while her attitude betrays her true nature of what she thinks about us.

No. 2503281

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>stalking situation couldn't possibly get worse
>second anonymous handwritten letter left under my front door
>just a bunch of dry openers you'd expect from the average /soc/poster
>doesn't even help me pinpoint who it could possibly be
a good reminder never to post about yourself online

No. 2503295

>>2503274
If you let someone like this talk down to you in a group setting it signals to other people that they can treat you like this, and soon you'll end up the group punching bag. You should either become more aggressive with her or distance yourself. There is also talking to her if she's open to conflict resolution but in my experience people like that will dismiss your issues.

No. 2503326

>>2503120
This has happened to me too, on here a lot of the time it's either being ignored, or getting replies with people just misunderstanding what I wrote because they're unintelligent and jump to conclusions, or just them being shitty towards me for no real reason. Sometimes there are still good replies in there, but still. For people I know personally I've been ghosted as well, I used to think it was all my fault and I must be a huge offputting sperg for them to be doing this, but even after actively changing my behavior, improving my looks, becoming more self aware, observing others to make sure I don't bother anyone, making my messages easy to reply to, not messaging them first, not that much actually changed. Which led me to believe it isn't actually about what I do and my actions as much as it is about other people and how they react to me. I could spend my time trying to make myself palleteable to others and it still wouldn't be good enough for everyone because on a whim they can just decide to ignore me or not feel like replying to me at all for their own reasons. Plus a lot of them didn't just ignore me specifically, they did this with other people too, so I just stopped seeing it as my fault. Lots of people are just assholes or simply don't care that much about online interactions, and I've been told as much by a few when I actually asked. They would always excuse themselves by saying this is just how they are even if they like me. So it's not necessarily about you everytime this happens, as much as it can feel that way after experiencing this multiple times. I thought I also didn't deserve friends and that something must be inherently wrong with me but even when people actively like me more than I do them they would still do this shit or simply treat me worse than I treated them. You can't teach people basic decency and manners and a lot of them will just treat you poorly because that's all they know how to do and their standards for interactions are low, especially online. They'll see your message and not even hate you but still not really reply to you out of laziness for example. I even had this happen when the other person was the one who initiated talking first, they would message me then leave me on read once I replied to what they said, even though my reply was totally normal and short. It made me stop really initiating interactions over time and engaging less when people talk to me because I was so sick of getting ignored or misunderstood by others when I did put effort into replying. And at this point, I pretty much see it in the opposite way, it's not that I'm uniquely terrible and that I don't deserve friends, it's that others aren't usually good enough for me and I've been really unlucky when it comes to making friends. Too many people are lazy, bad at communication, stupid, avoidant, and just generally shitty.

No. 2503391

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This stupid brand came out with vagina masks and it irritates me to no end. They promote it as something to rebuild your flora, to use after sports to freshen up , for menopausal women, after menstruations or after sex.
You have to wear this stuff over your underwear for twenty minutes. There’s already a bidet for that and the vagina self cleans already, what’s the point?!
I hate this clean wars on women, men can just let their stinky smegma balls marinate while women are told to always smell good , who cares if they risk their health anyway , because who knows if this stuff doesn’t actually fuck up your flora. I sperged on my friend and she told me that I’m exaggerating and it’s not a big deal, why are some women so fucking retarded and blind ughhhh.

No. 2503405

>>2503391
>Over your underwear
>Over
What the fuck is the point? Do they want to sell pussy masks and not get sued due to women getting BV from this? Which they will, by the way. Are people actually buying this scam? I'm pissed off too now

No. 2503415

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>>2503405
>over the underwear
Yes, you read that right nonna, It’s what I wondered too nonna. This is crazy to me.

No. 2503426

>>2503415
that doesn't say to wear it over the underwear though?

No. 2503431

>>2503426
Ops , I’m an Italian fag kek and translated it badly, my bad.

No. 2503469

As a very pale Irish woman I am starting to feel the real effects of climate change. It is late April and I am overheating like fuck during PMS. Everyone needs to take women very seriously when we want to cool a room or I will go fucking mental. I am not cut out for it to be 18 degrees at night

No. 2503502

>>2503281
Doesn't look handwritten to me, yet somehow this is even creepier

No. 2503503

>>2503072
i open lolcow in public with no care because no one knows what it is

No. 2503518

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>>2503502
it's google translated
here's the original

No. 2503524

I feel a burden that I am turning 29 this year and I haven’t been engaged yet. I never felt loved . I have a boyfriend but we’re in a LDR and it’s difficult to meet because he’s Syrian. Also, I don’t really know whether I want to get married or do I want a family or Just be loved! I want to be happy. Is that too much to ask for?

No. 2503542

I'm such a bad friend
Was on a vacation with my friend and I was mean-ish/grumpy on several occasions
>on the first day we slept on the same bed and she kept moving and waking me so I sighed at her
>at some point i got annoyed she kept eating at the ice cream and told ber not to eat everything
>asked "you don't do the dishes?" becauuse she left it for the next day (we saw roaches in the appartment and i didnt want them to be attracted)
>got annoyed at her for not wanting to come with me to a street chess, so i said 'ill go alone if you wont go" coldly and sort of stormed out (ended up having fun alone still)
>didn't want to buy almond milk because we already had regular milk
>we were rushing to an unknown bus stop and only had a few minutes left to reach it, she stopped to pet a cat and i yelled at her "we dont care about the damn cat!!"
Fells like a lot of them were justified but I still feel like this was a lot of occasions to be disagreeable in just one week. I especially feel bad because she told me she cried on the night we arrived, she said it wasn't because of me but maybe it was.
Idk I just feel bad.
On the bright side I handled most of the house chores including sweeping the floors, doing the dishes, cleaning the table and half of the cooking. I hope she didn't hate the vacation too much and will be willing to go with me again.
The again I say this but the question should be : do I want to go with her again?
Probably but for less expensive, more lazy vacations where the point is to get away and not to visit a lot. Because she isn't very adventurous and gets tired easily which would feel too bad in a brand new place. We discussed going to Japan, but it'd be frustrating going to Japan with someone who sleeps a lot.

No. 2503547

>>2503518
Isn't that your ex?

No. 2503548

>>2503542
I know i wouldn't be willing to go with you. I hate being snapped at all the time. I have traveled with a person like this and while she is still my friend, I will NEVER go on another trip with her again.

No. 2503555

>>2503547
might be, last letter looked like this >>2486038
but since it's been nearly a year since we last saw each other I'm not even sure

No. 2503558

>>2503518
>write "faggot" on it really big
>make copies
>post around neighborhood
>move asap
im so sorry this is happening to you nonna, do you have any form of protection or ability to purchase one? is it possible for you to install any security cameras? dont feel the need to respond, those are my only practical suggestions

No. 2503560

I wish I was skinny.

No. 2503568

>>2503548
Damn that makes me feel bad lol
But don't you think a lot of these were justified? Like,
>shes preventing me from sleeping after i had one hour of sleep becaus ehs ekeeps moving, do i just not sleep?
>should i just not have any ice cream
>should i do the dishes for the 10th time while i already handled sweeping and cooking all day?
>should we miss the bus so she pets a random cat for 2 minutes?
Chess one is the only one I feel was unjustified
I don't know if it's just personality differences and we can agree to disagree, or if I really am a hard ass and should learn to be more agreeable. It's a tough balance between being a doormat and being a hard ass..

No. 2503571

>>2503542
You’re not necessarily a bad friend but you should probably work on being a more patient and tolerant person if you want to travel with anyone in the future. A lot of your actions sound passive aggressive which is kind of awful to deal with, if you express your feelings in a clear way a lot of the time both parties will feel better and you might actually get a resolution to your problems. Passive aggressive people can be hard to read and end up making people around them feel like they’re stepping on eggshells to not piss them off without ever fully knowing why they’re so pissed off. If I were you I would apologize to my friend.

No. 2503579

>>2503568
I don't think you did anything wrong aside from throwing a tantrum at her for not wanting to go out with you. I'm kind of a hard-ass as well, maybe you just need to find people who are more dependable and less exhausting to be around. Kinda seems like you do a lot of emotional labor for her while she isn't considerate enough, and that's why you get pissy.

No. 2503582

>>2503571
We're leaving tomorrow so I'll ask her if she thought I was too harsh and apologize for it.
But to be honest I think most of these were understandable. Maybe I wasn't very good at expressing myself but I don't get why I'm the bad guy for trying to get us to catch the bus on time or have her clean the dishes just once (I did the dishes every single other time).

I mostly feel bad because I sense she might feel bad, but deep down I don't really get why it's worse to ask someone to do the dishes when it's their turn than to not do the dishes when it's your turn ; or worse to tell someone they are preventing you from sleeping than them not letting you sleep in the first place.
Then again maybe I did some unnerving things too that she didn't speak out about.
If you have a way to help me understand tell me.

No. 2503584

>>2503579
It just annoyede because we went to an aquarium I didn't really want to go to (because it was too expensive kek), so I felt her not even wanting to make the effort of accompanying me to that one FREE thing she could leave anytime if it was no fun was a bit.. unreciprocal?
I don't know. I'll apologize to try and salvage the friendship but for another big trip I'll go with someone else probably.

No. 2503590

Fucking pissed… I just don't have enough freetime. I've got a baby so that eats up a lot of freetime. My dad visited this weekend and I spent the entire weekend, plus Friday and Monday entertaining him, not really any time to myself. My mother is visiting next weekend so that's a wash and immediately after we are flying out to visit my husband's sister for a week. I should be greatful to be surrounded by people but I don't really know my husband's sister. In fact my whole husband's family is kind of a huge chore and he booked an airbnb in a couple months to spend two weeks in a house with them… just between all this obligations there's nothing left for me. I literally don't have a minute in the day to myself. My parents are getting older too, and my dad is beginning to make ominous remarks about the cruelty of putting parents in nursing homes… he's been a good father too so it would be cruel. But between his frequent visits, my mother, my sister always wants to hang out, my baby, and now my husband wants another baby, ideally I would want two but the first baby isn't even at an idependant stage. There's NOTHING, I don't have freetime. I haven't played video games in years. I think about when I was a teen and during weekends sometimes I would wake up, spend an entire day watching movies and playing video games, then go to bed and wake up and do it again. I thought i would have more freedom as an adult since I would have money and wouldn't have schoolwork but I was really wrong. Between groceries, housechores, family, baby, there's nothing left and I feel like I am grappling for an identity because it's been so long since I had anything to myself. Its difficult. I just want space. I am in my physical prime but I am just buried under obligations to others. I don't even really have friends because I don't have time to meet anyone. I don't know what to do there's no room to make space.

No. 2503591

>>2503568
ayrt, I do think a lot of this is just personality differences that don't mix well for traveling.

No. 2503595

>>2503582
It’s not that you’re the “bad guy”, it’s that there is no bad guy in this situation, there were conflicts that came up and instead of bringing them up in a way that could actually get your feelings across without hurting hers you sounded pretty passive aggressive for half of those issues. I’m not saying you’re a bad person I’m just saying if things piss you off you can bring them up to the person you’re with in a calm way and usually if the person cares about you they’ll try to change their ways to make you feel better. For example, if the dishes are bothering you, you could just say “hey do you mind doing those today since I washed them last time? I’m worried about roaches” or with the ice cream you could just ask her to save some for you instead. If she’s reasonable she’d say yes and if not you’d know she’s not the best friend, but as it stands you just gave off signals that you’re upset to her without indicating why.

No. 2503598

>>2503281
nonna please buy a gun

No. 2503606

>>2503595
>“hey do you mind doing those today since I washed them last time? I’m worried about roaches” or with the ice cream you could just ask her to save some for you instead.
Maybe I worded myself wrong because that's kind of what I said.
Exactly I said :
"You didn't do the dishes?" (normal voice)
"No, I'm tiredddd"
"I get that, if we didn't have roaches I wouldn't ask you to but we do.." and I did thank her afterwards
for the ice cream I just told her in a joking manner not to eat it all trying to make fun of how huge her spoonfuls were

Maybe now I sound like I'm freaking out about nothing. Maybe I'm just not used to resolving conflict with friends (it's like my 3rd trip without my family and I'm usually the one being pushed to do stuff) so just that felt like I was being a hard ass.

Maybe the sleeping situation couldve been handled better, like "could you move less please?" but to be honest there's no way to ask that doesn't sound snappy. Maybe I shouldve just left and slept on the couch but that felt kind of cucked to me, like why should I leave whe' shes the one moving.
Sorry for sperging so much about this, I'm just trying to learn how I could navigate these situations better. Idk if my lack of comunication and compromise skills ruined the trip or not, I wouldn't want that to happen again.

No. 2503612

>>2503518
Wasn’t me

No. 2503614

>>2503606
It’s okay Nona you taking the time to reflect on your actions this much reads to me like you’re a good friend and you do care a lot. I would talk to her about the trip and see how she’s feeling but you don’t have to beat yourself up about it. We all get snippy but I do feel like apologizing and trying to be more clear with your feelings can never hurt.

No. 2503617

>>2503614
Thanks for the advice. If anything I can only learn by asking her what she thought and apologizing, regardless of who was in the "wrong"

No. 2503618

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>Go on social media to check up on old friends
>Instant regret
>Feel bad about my life
I don’t even think I’m doing anything outside the norm. I hang out with friends, I do work, I take care of myself. I know everything posted is fake and is a summary of what everyone has been doing in the past culmination of weeks but I don’t know. Maybe this is a sign I need to take my meds

No. 2503623

I miss my friennddddd
I miss talking about stupid shit and going to eat yummy food

No. 2503624

I think I messed up my toe. I was jumping around to music and accidently jumped on my middle tow and the joint went backwards. It's a little weird looking now but I just ignored it since I've broken toes before and there's not much you can do. It's been like a week and a half though and it still hurts when it's moved any direction, I might have dislocated it or something. Augh.

No. 2503628

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Oh, I am so fucking lonely! I am alone! I have no one to talk to nor turn to! Oh, woe is fucking me over right now! I've been dealing with some heavy things lately, and I'd kill for someone to talk to about it, but the thing is I'm not gonna go and meet new people with the intent of eventually venting to them. I'm a pretty private person and it takes me a bit to crack at those walls around someone. I've lost a lot of my most meaningful friendships to inevitable "we're going out of state for college" time and distance, so the people I'm closest with now are all pretty new friends. I'm not gonna dump my years-long childhood trauma fucking with your adult life mess on them. Posting my problems anonymously sounds comforting in the short-term, but nothing's gonna cure loneliness better than having a trusted friend who knows all of your most complicated shit and just… existing in your general vicinity, as your friend, who knows your shit. Woe is me. I'm lonely. I'm gonna go buy a chocolate.

No. 2503632

Am on holiday with in laws and Nigel. Nigel was in a huge fight with me. It's 4 am and I'm crying whilst he sleeps. This was supposed to be fun, I don't want to bother the in laws

No. 2503633

the emptiness of my life is getting to me again

No. 2503636

>>2503628
Do anons feel like they have to keep discussing the same problems forever? You will never resolve these issues so you have to find unpaid therapists to help? I don't understand this, I've just made a new friend and the last thing I'd want to burden her with is some kind of transitory emotion like that. You should eventually learn coping skills and friends should be for fun, so they look forward to engaging with you. Instead of thinking of it as a depressing and tedious chore

No. 2503641

>>2503628
I think friendships deepen when you open up to each other. Maybe ask one of your new friends if they’re okay with you talking about heavy stuff with them. If it was me I wouldn’t mind. Hope you enjoy your chocolate.

No. 2503643

It’s so cool that I get to scurry around my neighborhood like a scared rat and she gets to do whatever she wants and flown out to conferences and free money and adulation for the rest of her life and if I told people nobody would believe me because of her professional victim status and the police told me they wouldn’t do anything and I get to live with this hanging over my head for the rest of my life. I LOVE IT HERE

No. 2503646

I think I’m tired of being alone and with myself all day, but I don’t know where to go or how to fix it.
>can’t afford hobby classes
>boyfriend lives in another state
>no friends, too insecure and sheltered anyway
>self-employed

I’m getting too depressed for my hobbies even. I just feel a bit empty and like my life is lacking excitement but I feel like it’s an excuse for my brain to not acclimate to being okay alone, but it has been so many years. I just want a change of environment. Do I get a waitressing job? What if I fuck that up or get too stressed out?

I sometimes think I could benefit from a website or youtube channel but it all seems retarded. Why can’t I love myself and be happy alone all day?

No. 2503648

For literally weeks I have had a loud voice in my head screaming at me that I am completely worthless, every single person who can see me believes I am worthless and is repulsed to even be near me. From when I was born my own parents told me they never wanted me and encouraged me to kill myself, as well as abusing me. It would be fine if I wasn't fucking autistic and able to carve connections from other people, but I am just that fucking worthless and autistic that I have no friend in the world and every person I think I am getting along with just fucking hates me and ghosts me as soon as we start getting to know each other. I look at other people who I know to be boring, morally bad people, bad friends, and always wonder why they are still worth so much more than me? It's because I am literally that worthless and a burden on the world. My boyfriend isn't autistic and is always trying to "help" me because he is so weirded out by my autism, he doesn't actually understand these aren't just issues I can be helped with, I will be like this always. If I didn't have my cats I would kill myself right now and not think twice.

I'm 32 now and it never got better. My biggest life regret is not succeeding when I tried to kill myself via exit bag in 2014. When I told my mother about that a year later she told me she was sad I had not died doing it. I completely understand her, and I know everyone who has met me would feel happy that I had died if I had succeeded. But yet again I fuck it all up

No. 2503651

>>2503648
I have been crying most of the day and night for about two weeks. I won't tell my boyfriend why. He just hugs me in bed and leaves it there. He doesn't want to be burdened with my nonsense and he is correct in that. I will never tell him about these thoughts I am having, and when my last cat dies I will kill myself and be done with it. That could be 15 years from now as my youngest cat is not even 2 years old sadly, but I cannot live with myself leaving them alone in this world that hates animals so much

No. 2503653

>>2503651
i wonder nonnie, would you tell younger you the same things? encourage her to kill herself and call her a burden? it really sounds like you need her and she needs you in this moment

No. 2503654

>>2503633
same this shit sucks

No. 2503655

>>2503653
Yes. Wholeheartedly I would do it. I was in therapy last year and the therapist went through all this "inner child" stuff. We talked at length about this. I would encourage her to kill herself and absolutely make sure she succeeded in doing it. Make it the number one priority, don't stop at any cost until you do it successfully. Make sure to choose a way you can pull off with no/low risk of failure (I won't go into detail here) If a dog is severely ill, we put it down as its cruel to allow it to live in pain. I truly feel the kindest thing I could do for her is encourage her to die quickly

No. 2503663

Everything I've learned about other people's sex lives has been against my will

No. 2503664

>>2503648
Your mother is a piece of shit tbh she should be the one to die. Tbh I wish I could swap us so you can know how it feels to be loved by a mother and then have the self worth to say that it's your own mother who should be the one to die and not you.

No. 2503667

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>>2503648
I'm really sorry your parents fucked you up like this. I want to believe you can still carve connections out with others, if that is what would help you hang on, but that is easy to say and hard to do and I am sure it is not for lack of trying.

No. 2503668

>>2503664
ntayrt but i agree. perhaps my “advice,” was unwarranted, but its clear that the voice which berates and wishes death upon herself is not her own; its her shithead mother’s.

No. 2503676

My drinking has been really bad this past year, I have sharp stomach pains and sweaty hands often. Today my right hand cramped up like a lobster claw kek and I learned it’s called tetany. As much as I hate leddit I’ve been lurking r/stopdrinking pretty much daily, it comforts me. I think I’m ready to pledge 24 hours tomorrow.

No. 2503681

>>2503667
I have tried my whole life. I have masked, I have unmasked, I have done everything between them. The only connection I can reliably maintain is with a male that can have sex with me. I have been with my bf for two years and begged him to tell me honestly what it is about me that people hate so deeply, he will not tell me. He will tell me why he loves me, and that every normal person has faults, and its not my fault. But I know for a fucking fact this is lies, but he will not tell me. I have tried carving connections with every type of person you can imagine, normie women, leftist women who preach equality, autistic women, very autistic women, femcel women, pick me women, every single one has hated me even if they will not admit it. My """Best friend""" of 15 years ghosted me when my cat, who is my rock and I will die without him (that is not an exaggeration) almost died of a urinary blockage (if any of you have cats you'll know how traumatic that is for everyone involved) then walked back into my life 3 years later saying she just had "mental health issues" while still maintaining friendships wtih every other friend she has, even the one that she did nothing but bad talk about to me. I have tried it all, I am literally meant to be outcasted from society, I can't fix it and i will never even understand what it is I'm doing wrong. If I just had family I woudl still be happy, if I can't have family I would be happy to have SOME type of connections that don't involve letting a male cum inside me, but I must live without either. I have been homeless twice and my own sister ghosted me when I texted her about it

>>2503668
I would agree if what my parents told me wasn't echoed through every single situation in my life also

No. 2503691

Why am I so sad?

No. 2503694

feeling stuck and angry at myself. i was supposed to be in a nice cool city right now instead of languishing in the southern heat. i just hate this job market and i hate that i feel so relieved that i've become super important at work due to several other people retiring and i hate how smug my mother is about me still being here and i HATE that our wfh days were cut down from 3 to 1. i have a lot to be grateful for and i'm luckier than many others and i hate myself for hating it all. i'm a spoiled shithead but i'm still annoyed as fuck about everything. and i still gotta go to work tomorrow

No. 2503707

>>2503676
Good luck Nona. I’ll be rooting for you!

No. 2503710

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sometimes i feel so overwhelmed by how much evil, hatred and perversion there is in the world. im so scared of people, especially men, that its not even funny. ive never had a partner but i feel like i never will because im so scared to trust people. i feel so alone and sometimes i just want to die so i can stop feeling tainted by living in such an ugly and miserable world. the only thing that makes me feel better is being kind and helpful to the people close to me, making art that i love, and living in my own world mentally

No. 2503719

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>Finally load up retarded game after maintenance
>Game takes me to CHOOSE AN IDOL TO PRODUCE screen and won't let me log in
Why this.

No. 2503720

>>2503719
Fellow enstarrie… who do you produce

No. 2503731

>>2503681
this honestly just breaks my heart. i have very similar struggles nona, it's so difficult to hold on sometimes all while constantly fighting for a place in life that won't get revoked from you. maybe that's why this hit me harder than i expected. you deserve so much better nona, to be happy and smile. to live in peace. i mean that. i wish i could hug you

No. 2503732

>>2503720
UNDEAD mainly hehe. I recently maxed out Rei's event card in En like a crazy person, I was playing that game in my sleep kek, it took half my inventory. I also like Valkyrie, 2wink, and Knights on the side. How about you nonnaaa?

No. 2503746

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OKAY I'M IN. WTF. I picked an idol but now everything is different. Crazy. Happy Element really went all out with this update.
My vent:
>I got scared I'd lost my account because the new update took me to the "new account? Choose an idol!" screen
>I was so prepared to delete the "new" account to get back into my old account
>However I'm glad I didn't because I would have been deleting my actual original account.
Screams gently into my pillow at my potential actions.(integrate)

No. 2503819

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I love when women shit on me for not being in "tech" because I work as a cashier instead of a engineering role or similar. They completely ignore the fact that my job makes me work with hardware, needing to be constantly be on top of the newest shit because people come in asking for advice, not just to buy shit. I assemble pcs and often have to troubleshoot peoblems with customers. I work with pc components, laptops, phones, consoles and network related stuff. Jack of all trades master of none as they say, but yea, because I don't have a degree I'm not in tech. Nope, not at all.

No. 2503823

im so depressed i cant take care of myself or do anything i dont know what to even do at this point

No. 2503826

>>2503819
Who are these women shittig on you for not being in ‘tech’?

No. 2503829

>>2503826
It's mostly reddit, nothing serious kek. Thought I had some conversations irl about it too

No. 2503834

>>2503829
Oh right, that makes more sense. Idk seems like such a moidish thing to do. You sound cool btw.

No. 2503838

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Fucking zoom meetings, do I have to be reminded of my ugly, fat, pink pig face when talking with a psychologist about my low self-esteem?

No. 2503839

I saw cp on another imageboard I hate my life and I want to die

No. 2503860

God I hate my retard brother so much right now. He’s so god damn annoying.

No. 2503876

I hate that my mind makes me over-analyze every interaction with any man where they're nice to me into them feeling sexual attraction towards me. I hate being so paranoid. I'm not saying this in a "not trusting my gut" way, but genuinely I am just paranoid and anxious all the time. I have various problems with anxiety, and I think this is going to be yet another thing that my brain makes eat me alive.

No. 2503902

my beautiful bf broke up with me because he didn't want to deal with a relationship and I was too negative. he was my first, the thing I looked forward to on my time off. I feel so disgusting. I didn't even want much just a hang out or two a week with texts in-between. He was a piece of shit with habits but I still wanted to see how far it would go. I look younger than my age and the only men who hit on me would be closer to my father's age it disgusts me so much. Finally get a beauty who ends up breaking my heart.

No. 2503940

my social life has boiled down to a succession of frustrations, disappointments, jealousies, and spite

No. 2503944

on the rare occasions where I've come to interact with socially well-adjusted people, it instantly becomes plainly obvious that I'll never make it, I may pick up on all their "tricks" but I'll never be able to wield them myself, nor would I ever really want to

No. 2503950

everyone besides me appears perfect to me
by the simple virtue of me, having no expectations for them
they might be stupid, they might be cringe, they might be annoying even, but that's just how it is
me, I'm all of that, but furthermore, and above all, I've disappointed myself
is this really what it means to have low self-esteem? because to be that sounds exactly like the opposite
me, me, me, that's just how imbued with myself I am
"get over yourself", but what else is there really?

No. 2503954

how could I ever be genuine towards anyone, when I cannot even be genuine towards myself?

No. 2504012

>>2503281
>"what scares you?"
>"do you hate me?"
Eww creepy. My stalker came from meeting him irl so it's not even just online moids… I'm >>2502803 so I really feel you nona. You can save it for future proof, but do not in any way acknowledge the letters in public. If they get ANY sense they got your attention they will get more spurred on. Tell your friends, family and work that you have a stalker and tell them to not give away any information about you if someone asks. Especially your work, they should know that if someone asks "hey does Anon work here?" they should deny it or say you quit recently.

No. 2504027

>>2503469
Finally someone gets me. I thought I was crazy. It's been getting way too hot here these past few years.

No. 2504028

>>2503542
Was it a hot country? Hot weather can make people crazy and act in ways they never would. Happened to me and my family and my friend too

No. 2504038

He said he prefers small breasts, but he RTs nothing but kyonyu shit where the girls have breasts the size of watermelons. Why do men always lie

No. 2504039

I came across a “porn” video that was clearly a rape. I reported it knowing nobody will do fucking anything about it. I feel like tearing the skin of my face off.

No. 2504043

POS colleague sees nothing wrong with poisining an unborn fetus with testosterone because she stands with trans people. "I'm sure it's just a tiny number of pregnancies affected" - ah, and that's why it's suddenly a-okay not to give a damn about a future life? Fuck you, dumb bitch!

No. 2504044

I did something really stupid last night and now I think my girlfriend hates me. I can’t stop ruining everything good I have

No. 2504046

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Every time my period comes around I get super constipated it’s so fucking annoying. “Don’t force it you’ll hurt yourself” sometimes you have to just get it out I can’t stand the feeling of having to shit.

No. 2504047

If I had a fucking dollar for every weird autistic college boy who physically touches me to get my attention to ask an asinine question holy shit I could retire

No. 2504058

>>2504047
They're pushing boundaries. Chimp out at them.

No. 2504079

slept like shit, feel like shit

No. 2504101

I am so hungry but I can't get anything to eat or my mother will go into a rage again. She was also trying to get me admitted to a mental ward for crying because of something SHE did earlier today so if I leave my room and we get into another argument she will probably call the police on me and make up an elaborate story (has happened before). I hate living with her, my life is unbearably bad and I see no way out, I can't believe I am still living with an abusive parent as an adult when all I've wanted my whole life is to get away from her. Right now though all I want is some canned soup.

No. 2504112

>thin
>huge ass thighs for my frame
>square ass
I hate my body shape so much bros

No. 2504144

Just saw a TikTok of a "dad of the year" and it was just the father arranging pillows around the baby. Tons of likes and admiring comments for doing the bare minimum. If it was a mother the comments would be all confused or critical. Men live life on easy mode, they can be violently mediocre and be praised endlessly for it.
That's just how it is on this bitch of an earth I guess.

No. 2504146

>>2504144
I saw one where the father used a fucking hoover to put his toddler daughters hair in a basic ponytail and they were saying the same.

No. 2504153

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>>2504046
Have you tried elevating your legs when you poop? There are some plastic stools for propping up your feet just enough to align your rectum and the poop just slides out with no effort.
Picrel is 40 fucking dollars for some reason but you can find some for 10 or less.

No. 2504154

i'm probably going to lose my job in a month and right now i can't care. and i don't even feel regret anymore so i won't regret it either. i hate my life so much and i guess i'm sick of it and in denial.

No. 2504155

>>2504154
Did you do something you feel you should regret?

No. 2504157

I am interested in this woman who clearly at least enjoys my company, she's bi and she's beautiful and we get along so well but maybe it's just platonic on her end but will never know because she has a dog. That dog cannot be separated from her or alone at all. I'm not a dog hater, I just don't like them, I don't like to witness what people need to do to live with them, kinda same with kids. I respectfully try to stay the hell away from dogs, kids and men, like you are allowed to exist but I don't really like any aspect of your thing. I feel like a walking reddit post, praying to find a woman with a cat or something.

No. 2504161

>>2504155
yes, near everything. i suppose that's why i can't feel it anymore. i avoid making decisions and put things off because it seems inevitable i make the wrong one.

No. 2504163

I'm sad again today. I have reasons to be happy but I just don't. there are things I need to do and there will be consequences if I don't do them but I can't bring myself to, and it's not like I'm enjoying my free time and relaxing, I'm just laying in bed consuming mindless content bored out of my mind. I feel like crying but nothing comes out. I had been eating well and exercising before this depression hit, now in eating garbage and barely moving.

No. 2504170

>>2504163
damn this is how i live and it sucks. making any decision of what you do and will not do and sticking to it feels good. how extreme are things and what can you eliminate?

No. 2504172

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Nothing I hate more than troons who omit the fact that they’re troons in fandom spaces. No, adding ‘she/her’ to your profile without the tranny flag doesnt make you a woman. No, you are nothing like any of these characters. You’re a mentally ill moid obsessed with Precure and porn VNs. Join the statistics.

No. 2504174

>>2504172
samefag but I did some digging and every time someone used to ask this troon if he’s a tranny or not he’d dodge the answer with “um its none of your business??”. pathetic scrote

No. 2504175

>>2504172
Even 'stealth' troons like that are easy to spot. Stuff like your picrel make it easy, as does excessive posting about TQ politics, moid video games, and anime. You do occasionally get severe pickmes in the net but they're rare.

No. 2504179

>>2504172
To be fair I knew a TIF that kinned Sailor Chibimoon and was in her 20s at the time. Also that coincidentally was trying to hit on me as a minor and who I found out tried to hit on another girl that was a minor at the time. Moids aren't the only ones that think they are little anime girls.

No. 2504189

>>2504172
Hanekawa is the furthest thing away from troons. She's literally extremely kind and hardworking.

No. 2504200

I wish I could just kill myself without making anyone upset

No. 2504210

Getting a vaginal ultrasound today. I don't have vaginismus anymore (thank christ) but I still have a difficult time with any insertion and they're gonna be sticking the wand in apparently. Not feeling good about it at all, but it must be done. Praying for a female tech, I won't do it/reschedule if it is a moid. Wish me luck!

No. 2504212

>>2504210
Good luck nona I hope you get a good female tech

No. 2504213

>>2504210
That would be creepy as fuck if it was some dude doing it and not another woman

No. 2504228

>>2504170
The things I need to do are normal adult things, work stuff, college stuff (it's not college it's like a half-college thing for people who work so it's a way lighter load), socialize, take care of my living space, misc responsibilities. I usually stay on top of them but I've been letting it all pile up these past few days and it feels horrible.
Other than that, I'm really lucky in life. I have money saved up, parents have enough money to help me if I ever need it, my friends are nice. I don't think eliminating any of those would be good, I just need some kind of reset so I can get back to my normal state of being a somewhat productive adult.
What's your life like? What's stressing you?

No. 2504237

I am having sick intrusive thoughts again

No. 2504240

I'm learning to drive and holy fuck it's so scary. I thought in movies they played up the whole stop go stop thing when it comes to new drivers but it's actually so real. It's like the car is stuttering and it freaks me out even though I'm the one causing it with my shitty driving. Everyone on the road must think I'm retarded.

>>2504210
Best of luck nonnie and I hope it goes well. It'll be so worth it even if you're dreading it now.

No. 2504243

>>2504172
>Hanekawa and Sakura
It's my fault for liking moidshit, but I still hate it when trannies latch onto the things I like. I'm in a VN discord server and surprisingly the few women there aren't TIMs.

No. 2504244

>>2504210
The want is pretty big but they put so much lube it just slides in. She'll move it around a bit and it's uncomfortable but I swear it's less bad than it seems. It's really quick

No. 2504248

I'm going to scream and kms
I applied to work at a different location for a job I did last year to avoid this manager that was intimating and scary to me and made me feel like dying every day. Today I just learned that said manager now works at the location I applied to. I have to work here but god WHY. and the different place is so much farther and bigger but I was willing to risk that if it meant not having to see her. so not only do I have to torture myself to get there I also have to endure the person I was trying to avoid in the first place.

No. 2504250

Back from my vacation and I'm actually glad to be getting back to work. I kind of like my daily routine I just need to get out of it sometimes to realize it.

No. 2504276

Why is it impossible for someone that I like to fall in love with me? Why is it always one way or the other?

No. 2504290

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My 2 only friends almost never reply to my messages on time and our friendship feels so shallow. Whenever I ask to hang out with one, she doesn't reply or makes some half assed excuse. Should I just leave them behind and try to make friends with less lazy people?

No. 2504299

So sick and tired of worrying about the same stupid shit and being so attached to someone who doesn't give a fuck about me. I wish I could just leave her but I made the mistake of reading some of our old messages (and they weren't even old some of them are from a month ago) where we planned to do fun things and she was being cute and nice and saying she liked being with me… now it seems like she's a complete stranger. And it's happened before so I should've left the first time but I'm retarded and love the attention she gives me and the things we talk about that I can't talk about with anyone else. Reading those messages ruined my day and it's not even noon. I have so much work to do but I can't fucking focus I keep staring at my phone hoping she'll text me like all is normal again but it's hopeless.

No. 2504326

>>2504290
>Should I just leave them behind and try to make friends with less lazy people?
You should do this. Your current friends will probably eventually ghost. All my recent friendships ended like this. You can call it pointless (since they weren't going to talk to me again anyway) or passive-aggressive, but I just cut them off by blocking them. I'm so sick of being in one-sided friendships.

No. 2504330

>>2504290
She doesn't sound like she's very invested in your friendship.. I'd look for new friends personally.

No. 2504334

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>>2504172
>estelle
I hate the amount of troons I've seen named after her. She's homophobic, what makes you think she wouldn't hate trannies?

No. 2504339

2nd day of stomach flu. Have to use the bathroom every 10 minutes. Severe cramps. Can't hold down food. I feel so miserable I wish I just die instead.

No. 2504342

>>2504334
"She's trans, the author just doesn't get it."

No. 2504346

>>2504334
No fuckimg way this is how I find out this weirdo nonbinary tranny at work who just looks like the long-haired guy from Workaholics named himself after some anime girl. Top fucking kek, of course it's an anime girl.

No. 2504350

Vaginal ultrasound anon here, thank you sincerely for the kind words (and shared disgust at the concept of a male tech doing this). Thankfully it was a woman and it was SO much easier than a pap, just uncomfortable. Now to wait for the results.

No. 2504368

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>>2504346
I feel bad because her game is legitimately good and it's one of my personal favorites, but because it has a female protagonist of course it attracts a lot of troons and yurifags. I block any troon on sight who tries to sully my homophobic diva's name.
Also if it's any consolation I met a tranny who named himself after the fairy loli from Bravely Default, which is probably worse kek.

No. 2504370

>>2504368
Airy? That's such a bad name

No. 2504386

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Nonas I am so tired of my mom using me as her free therapist/emotional dumpster. She had a rough childhood and the way she grew up, venting to your kid about how hard your life is because of said kid is normal to her. So if I try to disengage she gets pissed off like I don't love her enough to listen to her, as if she's just my friend that's venting.

Does anyone have any advice for this situation? Like I obviously feel really bad and want to help my mom, I love her so much and she really has gone through hell and back, but I just can't continue to listen to this shit all the time!!

No. 2504390

i hate accepting that as an autistic person im not meant to have close relationships like other people are. but it really hurts sometimes. i hate feeling so alone and i hate feeling jealous seeing other people with what i wish i could have

No. 2504394

>>2504390
What? You can have close relationships but they’ll only be able to be with other neurodivergent people

No. 2504398

My life is so hard.

No. 2504409

My mom really wants me to, but to be honest I don't know if I'll ever have kids
I don't know if I want it, I don't know if I'll be able to afford it, I don't even know if I'll find a man to raise the kids with.

No. 2504411

I like love on the spectrum but I’m legitimately jealous of some of the speds on there. Madison especially. Her family is filthy fucking rich and just so accepting or their retarded daughter. There’s no way she makes enough money to support herself with her little craft jobby, I doubt she even makes enough to buy more supplies. Her apartment is minimum $1600 a month, like bare fucking minimum, probably more around $2k+. Sounds like she was just allowed to be a fucking goblin and never was shamed or made to feel like any sort of a burden. It’s almost like loving accepting family can make all the difference, add in them being extremely wealthy and voila, you get a happy well adjusted individual. I’m really jealous of anyone with a rich generous family. My life could not be that much worse tbh. It’s only just barely acceptable enough that I haven’t killed myself, and even that’s a monthly struggle. If it was worse or if it gets worse I’ll definitely off myself. I’m able to escape most of the time because movies, tv, video games, and sleep exist. When I vent here on LC I’m mostly disconnected from my vent. I cant think too hard about my life cause I just sob at how good it could have been. The first episode of the new season of Black Mirror, Common People, hit way too close to home for me.

No. 2504413

wish I wasn't dumb and nervous any more

No. 2504416

I might have asian fever. Asian men are so cute! I hate myself for liking a certain "race" but they're just so cute.. I love their hair and their eyes and they all have nice hands.

No. 2504422

I am so pissed it took me this fucking long to find a good therapist. I imagine how good my life would have been if i had meet her a year ago. She would tell me this is dysfunctional thinking and to stop kek. I love her, but it pisses me off how the average therapist is a fucking blood sucker useless piece of shit. I hope most non CBT therapists get replaced by AI.

No. 2504425

>>2504422
>it pisses me off how the average therapist is a fucking blood sucker useless piece of shit.
You're so fucking right about that. Not even just judging by my own shitty experiences but a close family friend shared after she was raped her therapist blamed her for getting into a dangerous situation, said girl is very naive, unexperienced and obviously on the spectrum (diagnosed, which the therapist knew) who clearly lacks the social ability to judge bad men pretending to be nice so they can harm her. Like what the fuck

No. 2504427

>>2504409
If you're currently single there's no reason to worry about it yet nona

No. 2504434

>>2504422
i feel bad because the profession is mostly women now but honestly it is a fucking mess. it probably was bad too when it was just men as psychologists, they still weren't helping and were mostly bullying young women into line.

No. 2504440

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WHY I TAKE SO FUCKING LONG TO DO ANYTHING IN THE LAB? I'M ALWAYS ONE OF THE LAST TO FINISH THE EXPERIMENT, ALWAYS ONE OF THE LAST TO FINISH CALCULATING IT, I HATE IT.

No. 2504448

>>2504394
yeah but like 90% of other "neurodivergent" (i kinda hate this word) people are super shameless, immature, gooners, or other types of psychos. i mean i dont really fit in either but i guess getting bullied to death as a kid made me develop some shame and a need to conform so i learned to atleast act socially acceptable. and i know im in my early 20s and all but jesus everybody i know, even the ones older than me, are so emotionally immature its insane. i just wanna meet somebody who isnt fucking nuts but also is also charmed by my autistic tendencies. does anybody relate to this? I hate being too developmentally disordered for normies but not weird and maladjusted enough for the freaks

No. 2504449

>>2504422
>it pisses me off how the average therapist is a fucking blood sucker useless piece of shit
I have never been in therapy, but tbh this is my impression from just seeing the type of shit the average therapists says on the internet. I always found the "well, not every professional will be good" to be ridiculous and evasive, they want to be treated just as any other healthcare worker (as they should, because they are) but they also don't want to be subjected to the criticism other healthcare workers face.

No. 2504461

>>2504448
Honestly same. I am kind of a freak but I hide it and at least have put some effort into not being a massive burden on others. People can still tell there's something wrong with me on principle but I keep my shit to myself. But then I see other autists just spilling all of their spaghetti and embarrassing themselves by being super obnoxious and wearing hentai shirts and I hate it. Best you can do is avoid the self-dx/"queer neurodivergent" crowd and try to find more laid back autists to befriend.

No. 2504473

I hate my manager so much she's the worst. She's horrible at her job, I've never worked anywhere where everything was such a mess all the time and worst of all she plays favorites. She told me she's getting a complicated surgery soon and I felt sorry for her when she told me but fuck I'm so excited to have a replacement manager for a while. Maybe I'm a bad person but she's so useless as a manager, when I got sick last week I was the one who had to call up others to come work even though I've barely been working here for a month and don't even know any of them well. There's so many other issues too that could be fixed if she actually addressed them but whenever I bring something up all she says is "yeah isn't that annoying" and proceeds to do absolutely nothing about it. And I overheard her saying something racist, goddamn how she ended up in a higher position is beyond me.

No. 2504481

>>2504416
I think they're sexless but they do have nice hands, I'll give them that

No. 2504506

Why does my bf never initiate sex or pursue me anymore. It pisses me the fuck off. If I don’t initiate, we don’t fuck. He never turns me down or anything but I still hate it. I miss the start of our relationship when he was always trying to fuck me.

No. 2504508

>>2504370
NTA but kek not when you know find out what Airy actually looks like. It's glorious

No. 2504510

>>2504506
Have you talked to him about this? I worry that he's got a porn addiction or something else in that vein going on. He could also just be stressed but I feel like it's rare for men to want sex less when they're stressed and not the other way around.

No. 2504511

>>2504409
In this point in time, if the answer to "do you want a kid?" isn't a resounding YES!!! then don't have one.

No. 2504513

I can't stand people who have support system from family and loved ones who tell people without that support to "take risks" and other bullshit like that. Bitch your parents paid for your apartment, they gave you a car, they own a house in another country and could offer you a job in their own company if you wanted, and you tell me I have to take risks in life… when my parent is dead and I have no other close family to help me and no siblings like you, and I grew up poor unlike you and that fucked me up mentally on top of that. I'm not saying parents shouldn't help their kids. Of course they should! But I just don't want those people to behave like everyone is just as lucky as them, especially that even studies show how people who grew up in financially and emotionally stable families take risks more often than those who didn't. I'm bitter now and I can't stop comparing myself to others. And yes I'm jealous, I wish my family was well off so I could do all the cool stuff you can do when you have money, I wish I had a nice family to begin with

No. 2504527

I'm pretty sure I'm autistic and possibly adhd which I medicate with drugs. I am diagnosed with clinical depression and generalised anxiety but idk if I should be getting treatment for autism or if there is treatment for it lol. I use to have meltdowns over ridiculous things as a child and with the first guy I lived with but I don't have those weird hangups anymore and would think medicating myself has made me less highly strung in that aspect but I do not know why I'm such a loner? I feel like I am outgoing i had a lot of friends growing up although none of them stuck around long even though there was never a falling out. My best friends sort of ghosted me when I was breaking up with my first serious boyfriend who I lived with and they weren't even his friends so not sure what that was about tbh. Work friends usually only last as long as the job does and eventually fizzle out too. I've tried making friends and had friend dates but then I've felt like a dick cause I didn't think we clicked and stopped initiating and so did they but like, why are the standards so high lol. I feel like in Ireland if you haven't kept the same friends since childhood you're treated suspiciously and untrustworthy or something. Plus a lot of people are just randomly xenophobic against people from other areas (idk if this is just unique to northern ireland) but it's really fucking annoying. Like I've lived in an area for 6+years and because I don't have the local accent even though I was born 60 miles away people are fucking weird about it. The same shop assistants that have served me weekly still pretend its hard to make out my accent and if I'm visiting. I work with a lot of Europeans and they remark how much clearer and easier my accent is. I was visiting my family in my hometown last week and the difference in treatment from shop workers was bizarre. They were initiating conversation and even met a lady my age who was playing an album I like during her shift and we chatted for ten minutes like old friends. Like I would fucking love a friend to go to gigs with.

No. 2504529

>>2504510
I don’t think it’s porn addiction. He doesn’t struggle to get hard or lose his erection, he has no fetishes, he doesn’t disappear to the bathroom for hours on end. I mean it’s not impossible since he is a male at the end of the day but I’ve dated a porn addict and I see none of that in him. When I asked him he said it’s because he feels bad he’s not as fit as he used to be and did start working out more after that, but he will just let me do all the pursuing and it makes me feel gross like some kind of female pervert. Sometimes I feel like he gives subtle hints that he’s in the mood but I still have to be the one to act on them. It didn’t use to be like that.
I’m going to stop initiating all together and see what that does but it’s just gonna piss me off so much when he doesn’t respond.

No. 2504531

>>2504440
Accidentlly made explosives tend to end early. Maybe you need to think outside the box…or speed run it.

No. 2504542

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I was so excited to eat some cereal but the milk went bad and nobody told me.. It's the middle of the night now so I can't get more

No. 2504551

>>2504529
that's crazy nonna, because i'm in the same exact situation, my bf never initiates, rarely seems to be horny and no signs of porn addiction, he's vanilla as hell and not perverted at all, i have no idea what the issue could be, have you told him about how it makes you feel? the excuse my boyfriend gives me is that he's inexperienced and not used to it yet, i'm his first girlfriend but we have been together for a few months already, so i don't know.

No. 2504553

My fiance randomly just told me that our budget of 15k is too much for a wedding for 100 people. He said the only reason I need that much is because I want to show off. In my culture couples spend 30k on the wedding alone, along with at least one other party prior. I mentioned this and he started saying that in his home country weddings don't cost this much. I told him it's because his home country is cheaper, and that even his sister in Morocco ended up spending 8k. He said she was being extra too. I basically just hung up on him because I was so blindsided. He is so sweet and not cheap at all, yet he's acting like 15k for our WEDDING DAY is a fucked up amount. Is it a fucked up amount? He has to pay for the whole thing in our culture, but even then it's not THAT much. I offered to help a little if and when I finally get a job. I just feel like shit and I feel like I got my hopes up for nothing. We'll probably just get married without a wedding to save us both the headache of trying to plan under an insanely low budget. If I can't have the wedding I want, I don't care to have one at all.

No. 2504561

>>2504553
Put that money down on a house. Boo fuckin hoo holy shit.

No. 2504563

>>2504561
bitter

No. 2504567

>>2504553
why would you think "I still want to get married" when he's starting to show his colors now?

No. 2504568

>>2504563
Okay? The waaah no expensive wedding post is literally giving “but I wanted a BLUE MERCEDES” my super sweet 16 vibes. What a whiny bitch.

No. 2504571

>>2504553
I think you and your fiance are not on the same page for more things than just your wedding budget. Are you sure you're ready to get married?

No. 2504573

>>2504561
God forbid I want a wedding, planned it out and was about to put a deposit, and I am a little bummed out. You sound like you smell bad.
>>2504567
Because he's a really good person. I just don't like that he didn't plan his life out financially. I also think him being the cash cow for his family is affecting him and he's taking it out on me. At the end of the day I care about marrying him than having a wedding. It's the way he came at me over it that was just weird. He wasn't aggressive, he was just super irritated in general.

No. 2504574

>>2504567
Yeah exactly
>I was so blindsided. He is so sweet and not cheap at all
Sounds like he’s generous he just views weddings as a massive waste of money for a lame ass party. Which is exactly what weddings are kek. Nonna should dump him and give him my number he sounds perfect for me.

No. 2504575

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>>2504568
15k is not expensive for a wedding.

No. 2504579

>>2504573
You sound like you think you smell good but are actually a walking migraine trigger

No. 2504581

>>2504575
Idk I got married for $200 at a courthouse because we eloped and now we own 4 rental properties in part because we didn't have to waste 40k on a party.

No. 2504582

>>2504571
I'm sorry for not including this in my last response. I do think we're ready. We've never gotten into an extreme fight. We respect each other when we're upset and speak it out rationally. I've accepted him into my life and I love him despite his past, and he's never been cruel or unloving to me in the slightest. I had to quit my engineering job because I was experiencing severe health issues, so I can't help him with the bill. Like I said if it doesn't happen, I'll live. I just don't like that he switched up last minute and didn't even confront me about it in a calm and rational manner.

No. 2504583

>>2504581
That doesn't change the fact that those who do have weddings tend to spend much more than 15k. 15k is expensive, but not for a wedding.

No. 2504584

>>2504582
>We've never gotten into an extreme fight
Then you're probably not ready. You shouldn't marry someone until after you've had an explosive fight.
>I just don't like that he switched up last minute and didn't even confront me about it in a calm and rational manner.
Welcome to your married life.

No. 2504585

>>2504584
We've been together for 8 years. We just don't get explosive no matter how upset we are. I don't see how that's a sign of not knowing one another enough and or not knowing how to deal with conflicts.

No. 2504586

>>2504585
You won't see how it's a sign until you see it. Just threaten to break the engagement because of the wedding. See what happens, for your own sake.

No. 2504588

lmfao my mom is fucken ridiculous. dont know why she is so involved in her brothers bullshit. she acts like the messenger between three of them and "i want you to do this" "you can tell him this" then calls her other brother and be all "if he tells you this then tell him that" "you need to do this" she is getting involved for NO reason.

No. 2504590

>>2504553
15k is not a lot for a wedding. If he thinks that's too much money, that's honestly a red flag for your future.

No. 2504591

>>2504584
Don't listen to this anon, not having abusive retarded screaming matches is normal.

It's annoying if you've planned a wedding and were about to put the deposit down to secure the plans and he's backed out. He should have talked to you about it earlier to see what you can come to agreement about.

Maybe it's the romantic in me, but if you love him and want to marry him maybe postpone a bit until you can agree on something together.

No. 2504592

>>2504573
Be careful, because financial issues/differences are usually a break for most couples, and you arent even married yet. I hope things work out, but 15k is a good amount for a non expensive wedding. Especially for 100 people. I mean, food alone costs a shit ton. I would just not even have that many people at the wedding because now quality would be a concern.

No. 2504594

>>2504582
AYRT, please keep your eyes open and don't minimize any shite behavior on his part. Godspeed nonny, hoping the best for you!

No. 2504597

>>2504584
Seconding what >>2504591 said and ignore anon telling you to be verbally abusive. Other than that I have no advice to give you sorry anon. You should ask him what's wrong with you showing off on your big day though.

No. 2504598

>>2504586
I was having a culture shock cause of anon's concept of a wedding budget, but it has now been completely overshadowed by your concept of a healthy relationship

No. 2504599

Scrote friend won’t fuck me but did choke me last night when I was stressing out. It generally calms me down. It calmed me down a bit too much though cause next thing I know I’m on the floor and he’s shaking me and had dialed 911. I collapsed and started having a seizure for about 20 seconds

No. 2504602

>>2504599
Anon I am not exaggerating you are going to kill or cripple yourself doing this.

No. 2504604

>>2504602
Good she's retarded and needs to go

No. 2504606

>>2504604
I still have hope for nonny. she'll pull through

No. 2504609

I constantly feel like I'm mourning a million things at once

No. 2504610

>>2504599
cant you get brain damage from doing this

No. 2504611

>>2504551
It's probably low T

No. 2504614

>>2504599
Is this a gen z thing?

No. 2504617

>>2504614
She got choked so shes probably retarded now but you weren't and should be able to tell what's bait

No. 2504618

>>2504602
>>2504606
Yeah I agree. At least I made it so a moid who would otherwise agree to choke a woman will never do so again, he’s definitely scared straight kek. He was having the worst panic attack ever and saying he’s never choking me or anyone ever again cause of how scary it was. I’ve seen my friends faint and have small seizures many times (not from choking but from random shit which tbh is concerning thinking back on it, why have I seen so many of my friends pass out and have seizures that it’s just something I know how to deal with kek) but he had never seen that happen to someone before. I guess if I’d been in his shoes I’d be terrified too kek, when my friends passed out and seized I was never directly responsible for it.
>>2504610
Yeah, but I don’t think it’s any worse than the mild brain damage I’ve gotten from other shit that’s happened to me
>>2504614
I’m 30 so I guess I’m a zillennial

No. 2504620

>>2504618
So you're never doing this again, right?

No. 2504621

>>2504551
Is your bf overweight at all? Fat stores estrogen and reduces test. Some guys are so sensitive that even if he’s a little chubby he will lose a lot of interest. It happens with my bf. When he loses the weight he returns to normal

No. 2504623

>>2504620
I have a bit of a death wish so idk, but this one won’t do it again even if I begged (I wouldn’t). I’ve been getting scrotes to choke me for 16 years now, I’m surprised I haven’t gotten burned sooner tbh? Why am I only just now passing out from it and seizing?

No. 2504626

>>2504623
Because choking damage is cumulative and unavoidable. You've passed a threshold where you're getting more and more adverse reactions. It will not get better.

No. 2504644

I know y'all are fucking lying! Obvious attention seeking bait videos with captions like "You're too fat to wear that" with an extremely obese, unfortunate shaped, extremely stretched out skin, and just honestly ass ugly face woman in a bikini or trendy crop top summer outfit. Comment section filled with other women virtue signaling in fucking paragraphs how beautiful and perfect that woman is while saying they'd be her friend. Shut the fuck up. I would never want people to feel bad enough to lie to me now or if I was morbidly obese. Stupid clickbait bullshit.

No. 2504661

>>2504626
Will I die or become noticeably retarded/impaired? My disability case got denied so honestly this could help my next application. Also if you have any sources I’m genuinely interested. I want to gauge the risk/benefit of the situation especially if I’ve reached a threshold.

No. 2504689

>>2504506
This is happening to my husband… I think it's because he stopped working out as much. He used to do hockey twice a week and HIIT workouts and generally got a shit ton of cardio, but lately he stopped doing hockey or exercise at all and the amount he initiates has taken a nose dive. I have been trying to get him to start again and even convinced him to get some weight lifting equipment, but its been unused.

No. 2504692

keep telling myself to be a cool, mature woman who separates her work self from her actual self and some things can't be helped, but i feel myself spiraling anyway. the mind is strange. you rationally understand you should stop thinking but you literally can't stop yourself from thinking. i distrct myself for ten minutes but the bad thoughts return and i loop all my mistakes and invent a few. i'm exhausted of myself…i need to get over it. i need to win the lottery

No. 2504693

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>>2504661
>or become noticeably retarded/impaired
i mean youve been voluntarily letting moids choke you so you tell me

No. 2504694

Probably gonna make another attempt tonight. Doubt it'll work. Running outnof creative combinations to try. This new shit they got me on is making things so much worse. But if it does, I had a good run.
This site allowed me to at least see that I'm not alone in a lot of things. It was nice, feeling like I wasn't hallucinating everything. Just wish it didn't come out like this.

No. 2504696

>>2504694
What did you read/see here that helped you feel like you weren't alone? LC has helped me too so I'm curious how it's helped others

No. 2504699

>>2504696
Tons of things. Mostly things related to men, transgender nonsense, some instances confirming my suspicions that I was being treated differently due to being a woman, but everyone denied this. I always felt like I was born in the wrong era, because everyone around me IRL and online is either a generation or three older or younger. But then I see how many millennials are here, or people who describe experiences that mirror my own and their similar thoughts are. It's relieving, even amongst the paranoid and the crazy. Seeing people disagree with each other on this site instead of seeing a massive hug box regarding a problem you know is visible but goes unaddressed, etc. Just really seeing humans.

No. 2504703

>>2504694
You're just going to waste your time, eat something tasty instead. You've got to have something good in your kitchen or wherever you are, go find it. Go to a gas station and buy your favorite candy bar.

No. 2504705

>>2504694
Please be safe.

No. 2504707

>>2504699
>some instances confirming my suspicions that I was being treated differently due to being a woman, but everyone denied this
You sound kind of sheltered because this is the kind of thing you'd immediately learn about in a college sociology class

No. 2504711

My roommate plays Led Zeppelin constantly and while it gets on my nerves I don't really want to speak up about it. Music is music but when I was younger my dad would blast LZ and other classic rock an abuse tactic to keep my mom and I from falling asleep at night

No. 2504721

>>2504703
I can't leave the house due to problems. Driving is a no-go.
>>2504707
I went to a shitty art college and didn't take that class. Sorry, I guess?

No. 2504736

Why did my mom marry and have kids with a moid built like a linebacker if she was gonna find it super embarrassing to have a muscular daughter…my sister is getting recruited for d1 colleges and our mom has just never been proud or really supportive, has been making nitpicky passive aggressive comments about her getting “stocky” for going on a decade now like she’ll win at an event and her first comment will be to make sure the photos from the waist up or how she should stand in the middle to hide her arms and shoulders like it’s sooo awful. I want to shake her like a ragdoll and scream be fucking normal

No. 2504738

>>2504736
nona no offense but i hope your sister shoulder-checks her into the next century.

No. 2504740

Another way life sucks is that these terrible things can happen to you that dictate your entire world, from personality to appearance to whatever, and nobody really cares. You can tell them what happened (I never have – I've only seen how it goes for other people) and at best you become something they pity and try to avoid, and at worst they hate you for not getting over it. Normally, you're just a bit of gossip. It's shitty but that's just life. You can't do anything about it.

No. 2504746

>>2504738
Kek dwai, I feel the same way. I honestly can’t tell how much it bothers my sister, she’s always been confident even as a little kid and has a very full life, no trouble with dating either. I tried asking her about it and she just brushed it off and made a joke about me and our mom both being built like noodles. I probably seethe about it way more and idk I don’t wanna make a big fuss or like somehow push her into thinking about this because I don’t think there’s much of a solution

No. 2504749

i'm so retarded i have the worst days and feel like shit then make the same decisions. braindead.

No. 2504777

>>2504761
I really wish you would get treatment for your sexual OCD already

No. 2504783

>>2504390
>>2504448
I can relate I never had a best friend in highschool and will always start feeling distance from my friends. Now as an adult most of my friends are normie adjacent neurodivergents but I still feel isolated from them because they blend in socially and are functional professionally. I'm getting to 25 in a couple of years and still can't read proper social cues.

No. 2504790

Currently experiencing PMS and I was at the dermatologist's office looking into a facial scar I recently got from an accident. Even though the wound was closed with medical tape, it still left an atrophic scar and my dermatologist told me it might remain that way unless I get a subcision done later on. I stupidly cried a lot after my consultation due to my PMSing. I am a bit over it now but still coping hard by hoping the indentation will fill in a little more since it's only been two weeks and I keep religiously applying silicone to it.

No. 2504800

Life feels very acutely as if I am standing idle and stuck in some limbo. Hours just pass by without anything happening, yet also I cant even find time to meet my family. I work from 8 to 12, which is even less time spent on irrelevant stuff than in middle school and yet I cant manage to extract anything good from my days. I cant get anywhere. I have so many things I wanna do with life, but life itself seems to be running away from under my feet

No. 2504806

>>2504582
Obviously the person not paying and mooching off thinks 15k isn’t expensive at all kekk

No. 2504807

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>>2504599

No. 2504826

>>2502413
>and you deserve better
I sure hope so, I don't believe in reincarnation but sometimes I fell like I must've been some horrible person in a previous life.

No. 2504845

>>2504584
Not everybody has BPD, retard.

No. 2504847

>>2504689
Yeah my bf used to be muscular, did MMA and jogging but when he got with me he stopped going and started spending his time fishing instead. He’s constantly moaning and being down on himself for gaining but doesn’t do anything about it. I feel like it’s my fault, I’m not the most active person and I don’t do any more than hikes and swimming occasionally and that seems to be enough to keep me fairly fit. I don’t mind that he’s not so muscly anymore I just miss the sex life we used to have. He’s trying to start running again but he works a lot so it’s hard.
At least he never turns me down and gets hard basically on demand unlike one of my other exes whose penis straight up didn’t fucking work.

No. 2504851

i cant believe i gave that loser such heartfelt gifts that he cried and said they were the nicest gifts he ever got just for him to fuck me over like that. at this point i dont even feel like men are capable of love. they really arent. theyre barely even human

No. 2504894

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It's not talked about enough how when you gain weight your clothes don't fit anymore. It seems so obvious, but when I say "I have nothing to wear" I mean it. I can't dress up, I can't look professional for work, a heatwave rolls around and suddenly I do not have any summer clothes to wear, and in winter I'm freezing because my jacket won't close anymore. I can basically wear whatever oversized baggy clothes I already owned and look sloppy as fuck. I can't afford to replace my entire wardrobe either unless maybe I buy the cheapest shein slop. And I didn't gain THAT much, I slowly gained like 15kg, or 33lbs. Don't get me wrong it's still quite a bit, but I didn't even go up to obese and am "just" in the overweight bracket now.

I keep thinking "I'll just eat less and I'll be fine again" but it feels like everyone around is sabotaging me, maybe they even want me to gain more? Telling friends and family "I want to lose weight", "I need to watch what I eat" just seems to trigger them to encourage me to come out and eat MORE with them like the past year they've all been a "treat yo'self"-stereotype buying me all sorts of treats out of the blue. So in the end my weight kept creeping up more instead…

No. 2504904

>>2504894
I've spent my entire adult life stressing about my weight, which fluctuates maybe 5-10kg a year because half the time I'm dieting half the time I'm binging. But I've realised all my anxiety about weight gain is stress due to not fitting my clothes, and all my happiness losing weight is because I fit clothes better. I don't look great either way, nobody treats me differently, I don't have sex, so all this misery revolves around getting to wear what I like. Fucking pathetic tbh

No. 2504914

nonnas are lesbians even real? Every time I meet a lesbian they turn out to have boyfriends down the line, in the past, or start drooling over guys. it feels like they're all being hypnotised one by one and like it's bound to happen to me at some point even though I know it's silly. les nonnas in the real world where are you :(

No. 2504924

>>2504914
Its called compulsive heterosexuality. When being a lesbian is accepted, lesbians won't feel the need to try dating moids.

No. 2504930

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Got my white t-shirt dirty with sauce at the canteen because the stupid piece of meat fell from my fork and slapped in the vegetable tomato sauce. I felt like a piglet, why was this so humiliating.

No. 2504931

>>2504924
That is not compulsive heterosexuality kek. That is just being bisexual and in denial. That stupid comport made everyone’s brain so retarded.
If you actively seek men and enjoy men and having sex with them you are automatically not a lesbian. Being unhappy with how men are doesn’t make you a lesbian. It’s tiring.

No. 2504937

>>2504904
it really is harder mentally than it seems to lose all your clothes to weight gain! And since I do want and "plan" to lose weight it feels stupid to buy an entire new set of bigger clothes (that I also don't have the space for) just to abandon it all again when I've lost the weight. So you just kinda exist in this limbo not knowing what to do.

No. 2504941

>>2504931
It’s really not hard to label yourself “questioning” or “bisexual” instead of jumping onto the lesbian label. In my opinion it’s extremely disrespectful since the lesbian community gets shitted on constantly, before labeling myself bi I wasn’t going around calling myself lesbian despite the fact that I even questioned whether I even liked men in the first place (turns out I’m just disillusioned with them regarding how society views them and how they behave towards women).
You won’t die if you call yourself bisexual or even if you remain with no specific label as explore your identity kek.

No. 2504942

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>>2504240
Me too nona, I hate driving manual so much. I've been learning to drive for a couple of months now and eventhough I've improved a lot, I still get so anxious whenever I have to stop and drive at traffic lights for example kek. It will get easier with practice I guess. Good luck nona, may we both get our driver's license this year.

No. 2504943

>>2504924
So if everyone can be straight with enough encouragement why are gay rights needed. Since gay is apparently not a fixed thing to you


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