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No. 1577609
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Bonehilda! My absolute favorite sims character. Picrel is me reading the morning newspaper (lolcow.farm).
No. 1577684
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My head has been hurting constantly for the past few days.
No. 1577702
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its been getting worse for a while, I'm getting kicked out of school and don't know if I even care at this point despite having only one course left to do. my parents are constantly talking about troon sibling being suddenly magically okay now that they came out telling that she's going to get treatment for that. and its all they talk about how she's so energetic and doing great now, like yeah great you finally get to cut your tits off, I'm sure it will cure everything and its the new start for you!!! god i hate it here Nonnas.
No. 1577769
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i'm tired, i'll try to decapitate myself tonight. tired of pretending that i'm not lonely and that life is not about me. i've never had the opportunity to live, it was always over. i don't want to keep on living like this. it's sad to be alive just because whenever i want to go serious about kms i start to think "what if…" and then nothing ever happens.
No. 1577772
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i wish 4fags was women only because it's so active i want to post a billion times in a specific thread but i've already taken up so much space and i want to actually talk to people but the only place i know of is maybe twitter or tumblr and posting with an account makes me feel genuinely sick to my stomach. i've already bothered my friend way too much with my sperging yet i still feel like a bloated beached whale on the verge of explosion. can't stand having an account can't stand moid interaction but this site is way too dead i'm in pain
No. 1577785
>>1577748I sometimes lament about not having a feminine uwu voice too, but what helped me was getting in a choir (be it church or anything else) and litsening to alto/contralto singers like Cher, Karen Carpenter, Linn Breggen (Ace of Base) and Keiko Kubota (Kalafina/FictionJunction).
Don't be shy, you can join a choir, no one's gonna talk bad about your voice, you'll rather get constructive help on it.
Hope my sperging helps, nonna, it is what it is. If your voice has 1 milion lovers, I'm one of them
No. 1577794
>>1577772Sometimes I feel like this too. What I do I vent to myself about the things I love, write notes and documents full of things I wish I could show others who would understand, and draw to my heart's content. Then keep it all to myself unless there's someone else who wants to see it.
And then I distract myself with other activities that have nothing to do with my hobbies, socializing with normal people. It's not ideal but at least it works for me.
No. 1577818
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I was this post
>>1577168I suppose it's only natural that now that I've finally cowboy'd up and decided to do something about all of this, my old elementary school was apparently permanently closed in 2011.
I can't find fucking anything.
I searched every directory and dug through the alumni on every website that would take a dummy phone number.
All I can remember is one teacher's last name. I don't know where any of my yearbooks or school memorabilia are, I never wanted any of it, and I left that district way before facebook was a thing so I don't remember any student names either.
I can't even find a reason why the school was closed, obviously schools get shut down all the time, especially in Missouri ffs, but I can't stop myself from wondering if csa is why.
I don't know what to do, but I have to do something now.
No. 1577834
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Came into work to find out we had a bunch of people callouts so now I have to cover for 2 people. Even funnier is as I was clocking in some women in a different department were also clocking in/ out wishing each other a happy mothers day, so the moms definitely all showed up for work.
Anyways Happy Mothers Day to all the nonnie mommies
No. 1577841
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>>1577823same about the former and it's not even funny i NEED so bad to be taken out to a forest and dealt with
No. 1577883
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>>1577785Thank you nonna, this is so sweet adhdkadjksl
No. 1577902
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My dumb boyfriend puked like for 10 minutes and woke me up. I'm pretty annoyed. And I'm not a heartless bitch but this dumb motherfucker pukes almost every morning and doesn't want to seek medical help and I don't have any sympathy left. Dumb piece of shit woke me in 04:20 and i can't fall asleep again and I'm supposed to get up at 07:00 for work. I hate that shit
No. 1577914
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>>1577818I am not fucking okay now.
so I've always remmebered how long I was in first grade because we were counting up to a gumball party
there was a gumball machine calendar, and every day that we went, so no weekends or holidays, no days off were counted
and I really wanted to stay for the party cuz we were already at 97
and I was a dumb fucking baby
but 97 was the last day I went
couldn't take three more days
well so I've always known it was 97 days, but I guess I kind of just forced that to be 3 months in my head because I've also always thought of it as about 3 months
90 days is about 3 months, that's not far off
well
I never wanted tocount before, I shouldn't have. What stupid fucking thing to do. What a stupid fucking girl I've been my whole life.
I'm not okay. I am not okay now lmfao
rofl, even
xD, if you will
I am fuckign not good right now holy shit.
No. 1577916
>>1577915oh jessus fucking christ okay so that means Care Bears Christmas would have been first grade, oh my god wow
You know, cuz some of my memories are just kind of fucking floating with no anchor? Like they say happens to traumatized people?
Omfg lmfao why not, even, what an absolute joke this whole life has been
No. 1577937
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I guess it's another day of imaging myself brutally killing my rapist in multiple scenarios to ease off my anger #492
No. 1577944
Nobody tells you how growing up poor fucks you up. Specific you grew up in something like the foster system. When I get depressed I reach a point where I feel like I'm not worth eating, sleeping, etc. Similar when I'm sick. If I'm not doing anything, I feel like I'm a useless piece of shit that doesn't deserve basic human needs. I would probably starve myself to death of nobody talked me out of it. It fucking sucks, and I fucking hate it, and I fucking hate it when my partner just goes "oh we're so tight on money this month" every single time we buy groceries. Like dude, have I not told you multiple times how my solution plan to an scenario where we don't have money for rent is killing myself so that you would be able to start living with your parents again?? Haven't I told you multiple times about it? About how miserable it makes me when you "complain" about me getting paid less than you? Don't you think I'm aware of that? Don't you think I hate it too?? Sorry I wasn't raised by middle class parents that were able to pay college. Sorry the relatives that were taking care of me died before I finished on high school, leaving me on the street. Sorry that I know more about dumpster diving and scamming guys than how to fill official papers for work. Sorry that my job is a entry level job, and that that's the most I can aspire to. Sorry for having to eat, and sleep, and sorry for not wanting to return to sleeping with random guys for a chance to spend the night under a roof. Sorry for being depressed and suicidal, and having to take off jobs because I get too unstable. If you hate it so much you should just let me kill myself and move on with your life, I'm not making you stay with me, so why the hell do you keep making me feel guilty for existing as if I asked to be born onto this rotten earth??
No. 1577945
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Someone so I made a thread on 4chan where I larped as an alternative black girl with picrel picture asking for a conservative Nazi boyfriend (totally reasonable, right?) and I was bombarded with nothing but n-bombs and pol-tards saying "send tits or gtfo", and within 10 minutes my post got removed and I got a 3 day ban for being "oFf t0PiC!!11" yet there has been a sissyhypno thread encouraging guys to anally masturbate with dildos that's been staying on there for a good hour now and not one of the mods has bothered to touch it. I swear and people don't act like tranny-jannies and faggot mods don't control things on 4chan with their globohomo agenda.
No. 1577949
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>>1577947>I know that I'm not the only one that imagined them connected to a machine and dying pathetically alone.with lungs painfully full of black slime and uncontrollable diarrhea no one cares to mop up
No. 1578001
>>1577982Some anon made a great post which I can't find right now about how the internet enables us to emotionally engage with people we will never meet, how it's too easy to get sucked into parasocial relationships from the amount of info people put on the net, something like that.
I'm in the same boat as you, it's so fucked that you know it's unattainable yet your body is like "yeah can't wait to fuck this person who I realistically know nothing about". I'm down horrendous for an online man and just hearing his voice sends me into like a lonely horny spiral kek.
No. 1578004
>>1577966It's not wrong nona because romance representation for
WOC is either so sparse and few in between
No. 1578029
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>>1577945This entire post and situation…
No. 1578034
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I enjoy using this site but I think it has done both fantastic and horrible things for my self esteem. a lot of the ideas and perspectives on here have really improved my quality of life and I think I would be a totally different person otherwise, but there are other things I see that just make me feel even more horribly paranoid about my appearance and my relationships with the people around me sometimes. yeah, I know that its just a stupid basket weaving board and that most people on here tend to be pretty maladjusted including myself, but I still get the idea in my head that people think I'm actually disgusting and repulsive irl and just don't say anything about it to me out of being polite and some of the petty shit on here just fuels it sometimes. ie. sometimes I feel like I can't tell if I'm genuinely attractive to other people or just being fetishized and am actually ugly as fuck because "well guys will still go for ugly girls if theyre the race they fetishize" and that "oh if a moid is EVER attracted to you its just for sex and sex only and btw even then they might still think that youre fucking gross and still pursue it anyways because they think youre easy". not saying that there isn't some truth in those statements a lot of times but yeah. I know anons are just trying to keep it real. I'm probably overthinking it. sorry. some of the nonas on here are genuinely very sweet though and I wish I could hug them.
No. 1578040
>>1578026When we first met he's not like that. We have been together 4 years since high school. He only got into cuntboy and trap this year.
>>1578022He said it was just a roleplay and it's not like he would be gay irl. I still fucking hate it but I don't want to lose him over a non issue. My bf is supportive and into most of the hobbies I have and generally nice it's just this weird thing.
No. 1578047
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My housemate is organising for a friend to come and stay after she found out her bf has been mentally and physically abusing for months , anyway to cut a long story short this is how I found out the ex boyfriend that my pretty, funny, sweet, intelligent houstmate has been hung up on since she moved in hit her more than once, and that she never considered it a terrible sign because her dad beat her and her siblings and put her mom in the hospital more than once. How the fuck could anyone ever do that to their signifcant other, letalone their fucking children? I fucking hate scrotes with such a burning passion.
No. 1578053
>>1578040he's getting confident about it, even to your face now, so I'm sure this is years coming.
please get out while you can. I let a lot of stuff slip until suddenly my bf (now ex obvs) was on tinder and going to see troon hookers. the pornsick male exists precariously at the top of a slippery slope right into degeneracy. think: if you are this uncomfortable now, imagine how awful you are going to feel when you learn the unfiltered truth about your potential life-partners proclivities.
you need to seriously ditch him now. shoot first, questions later. as a great woman once said, you have been kidnapped by a broke
read: pornsick and gay man.
nona, wherever you are and whatever you are doing please heed my words. "cuntboy"/"futa"/"trap" all translates directly into NEEDS A PENIS FOR ME TO COOM.
do you have a penis? no.
I left this until last because women rarely think to do this for themselves (because we're conditioned by coomer males and their handmaidens): what do YOU want?
don't even have the conversation with him, just leave. and if he asks, just say "you seem gay" and ghost. do yourself a favour for once in your life.
sorry to be harsh I hate this so much for you. I've literally been there. save yourself now. four years is too much wasted time already before you let sunk cost fallacy influence you.
No. 1578063
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>>1578060Have you tried Imodium?
Or you can take something that induces drowsiness to put you to sleep.
No. 1578070
>>1578061Not really farting at all but I am burping a lot!
>>1578063Thank you
nonnie!! I’m going to pick this up tomorrow or send my brother out for it… I’m too worried to buy something that will make me drowsy out of fear that I will straight shit myself multiple times in my sleep kek
No. 1578091
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pic unrelated. i never understand when people speak positively or are close with their grandparents because my maternal grandparents are crazy and i never really see them and they live many states away. my paternal grandparents were great but they died when i was very young, 5-6 years old. when people get really happy or whatever about their grandma or grandpa i can't relate at all and it almost makes me feel like something is missing for me? i am not upset or anything about it but it gives me this realization of "damn. idk that feel" like it is alien to me to think about relatives that much older than me. probably why people in their late 60s-70s make me feel uncomfortable and like they judge me a lot. i dont really have that familial connection to any people in that generation idk feels weird when i think about it
No. 1578101
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I think I'm getting sick again which means that this is the 3rd time this year I have gotten sick. I've always had a great immune system and used to rarely get sick but this year has been so bad
No. 1578240
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SO SLEEPY
No. 1578306
>>1578281>he wishes he were gay so he wouldn't have to deal with "female drama" and proceeding to go with "id be getting so much bussy rnWtf? I don't understand why he's saying that.
I'm bi and in a relationship with a man but I would never tell him something like that, in fact whenever he brings it up jokingly I shoot it down.
No. 1578310
>>1578306Let me translate
>People say women are good only for sex, but imo they're not good for that eitherIt's just misogynistic ramblings
No. 1578319
One of my closest friends has bpd and i'm getting so sick of her ass. She only ever talks abt herself and the guys she's obsessed with (for a few weeks each), there were some tragedies that happened around me and whenever i'd try to talk about it she'd usually flat out ignore me or start talking about her own shit, and it's like that for everything, i just didn't notice until now. Just because i dont do dumb shit on a daily basis because im not uwu crazy, she thinks my stories/experiences are boring compared to hers. She drinks heavily daily and smokes weed daily. She has sex with new random dudes every few weeks and gets obsessive. I like hanging out with her because we have the same sense of humor but it's starting to get so exhausting. She always blames everything on her bpd, even sending me her self harm pics after some dude ghosted her. Everything's always about her, her bpd, the moids she entertains, how drunk she is, how high she is, how much she starves herself etc. I cant take it anymore, having no close friends is so much better than this
No. 1578324
>>1578281I feel you. I'm
>>1578017 anon. I hope "bisexual" moids burn in hell
No. 1578368
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>"just bee yourself anon!!"
>bees myself
>"freak"/"bitch"/"weirdo"/"crybaby"/"why are you soo negative anon"/"you're so dramatic"/"why can't you be more like x"/"why do you act like that"
back to acting then
No. 1578379
>>1578057the point being that it spanned six months, I'm very sorry my mental break down in the vent thread about getting molested in first grade wasn't precise enough for you
It was still 97 days, no matter what, if that makes my mistake more acceptable
No. 1578409
>>1578368You're supposed to be yourself within the limits placed by common decency, not turn off all filters and act unhinged (unless you are a super normie, then you get to act out every demented thought and emotion because everyone is like you).
Normies can tell that you're not sharing yourself and it makes them angry, but the ones with triple digit IQ also appreciate that people can different and okay, but even they don't like being around mysterious people that never share anything or participate in conversations.
So what they mean is that you should strike a balance between being sociable and being socially acceptable. Normies do actually respect weird people who are calm and confident in who they are (may differ in your culture), but they universally dislike weird people that are secretive or insecure.
No. 1578424
i hate it here so much. i hate is so much. idk how to cope with living in texas/the south in general anymore. i don't feel ok being a woman living here. growing up, i seriously thought i was equal to everyone else and that the place i live is great, and all of that's just been shattered these past few years. when i try to talk to my family, my mom, sister, boyfriend about the abortion ban and all the constant fucked up political nonsense, about how it really distresses me and is a sign that things are becoming dangerous here especially for women, how it makes me want to leave the state, they just brush me off like i'm some crazy activist or some shit. i just can't take it anymore. i feel completely powerless and alone. when i was 19, asking my friends, family, and boyfriend to please come vote with me in the governor elections after roe v. wade got overturned, only my mom came with me to make me feel better. i just want to die so bad. i'm trying to make a change and it feels like nobody else cares, even the people who say they support the same things as me. i can't even leave the state because i have nothing and nobody else i'm with actually believes our state's problems affect them. i honestly don't know how to live like this anymore this place is a fucking hellhole for anyone with empathy and a rational mind
No. 1578430
>>1578417Are you in america?
Do you qualify for medicaid?
some states include basic tooth cleanings in the plan
No. 1578441
>>1578422Same.
I tried to "be myself" and open up to a couple friends who I
thought I was close to a few years ago… we're not friends anymore. Ironically, one of them told me that we weren't close at all, which came as a surprise considering I knew them for several years, we partied together, slept over at their place, etc. I wouldn't let someone I didn't trust sleep in my home. No, I wasn't acting unhinged but I guess calling out bullshit when you see it is "unhinged" to normies who rather smile-nod-walk away when confronted with it.
I just keep to myself now and try not to engage in deep conversations. People like me a lot more when I share less of my thoughts and feelings.
No. 1578472
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>>1578456>I wish I was whatever the opposite of someone who is naturally creatively inclined is.I've been feeling this lately. Like damn, I wish I was good at math instead of imagining things. But ultimately, I think they want what we have even more.
No. 1578491
>>1578466I don't think talked at is what was going on..Idk. I usually wait for them to start first. When I try to start it's just random topics or news I found interesting, idk if that's seen as being talked at or not, maybe I can't tell. I think I'm just born retarded because it's been like that since I was little. Tried being nice and happy, that's wrong, try having fun, that's wrong, sad about something, that's wrong, not talking is wrong, talking is wrong, stop smiling too much stop frowning too much every emotion is annoying and wrong to them, it's a lose-lose situation.
No. 1578494
>>1578456Same
So many ideas but I can’t do any of them so here I am practicing 4 different skills while I will most likely not get better at any
there are days i wish i never got into art, I’m fucking awful at it
No. 1578496
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I want friends!!!! I want a close friend group who care for eachother, accept each other for who they are and have fun together!! I want to listen to different kinds of people!! I want to listen to them interact!!! I want to experience casual life and have people to feel at ease with!!!!!!
i miss school i miss my friends i miss my class i miss being young
No. 1578499
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I'm so fed up of being bombarded with adverts. Has anyone noticed how pornographic they have become lately? I keep getting clothing ads of women in tight leggings, with camera shots showing nothing but their clearly photoshopped or plastic surgery ass, and then they'll do pornographic poses in them. And then all the moids in the comments thirsting over it. It just feels like porn is being shoved into our faces and I'm so sick of it. I have an adblock too but it doesn't filter those kinds out. I even see adverts out in the street for fast food referencing things alluding to the 'netflix and chill' meme, which we all know what that means. I know this isn't a new phenomenon and that 'sex sells' but it just feels like it's getting more blatant everyday.
No. 1578556
>>1578551Thats why when people whine about hypersexuality when it comes to female artist, I'm like
>Well all men do is like a post or watch the video on mute. EVERY hypersexual or even non-hypersexual female act has an mostly woman/gay male audience.Clearly women love hypersexual musical acts or whatever, because i'm posititve men who aren't gay aren't supporting most female entertainers.
No. 1578574
>>1578561they are literally fucking furious that you managed to escape their very carefully arranged plans to assure that you never possibly could
god bless, may they cope and seethe
No. 1578578
>>1578561The behavior of black moids as being deranged professional
victims peaked me on men so bad to the point where i refuse to ever date them and just men in general later on. No claims of self hating or internalised racism will stop me or change my mind. I judge any woman giving them chance idgaf.
No. 1578591
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I want to befriend kafkachan from the last thread. I followed her on twitter. I want to become her friend and converse with her. I would not ignore her like other nonnas. I could.. save her..
No. 1578592
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I want to befriend kafkachan from the last thread. I followed her on twitter. I want to become her friend and converse with her. I would not ignore her like other nonnas. I could.. save her..
No. 1578593
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I want to befriend kafkachan from the last thread. I followed her on twitter. I want to become her friend and converse with her. I would not ignore her like other nonnas. I could.. save her..
No. 1578594
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I want to befriend kafkachan from the last thread. I followed her on twitter. I want to become her friend and converse with her. I would not ignore her like other nonnas. I could.. save her..
No. 1578647
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I don't care about having a social life anymore, but I want to experience a romantic relationship. I'm so touch starved. I want physical intimacy and going on dates.
No. 1578657
>>15784052 years ago my rent was 950/month. now it's 1500. i feel this post. mao zedong was right about landlords.
>>1578417>my bf brushes his teeth once a day with basic bitch toothpaste, never had a cavity>i brush 2-3 times and use a bunch of special products for dental health. can't stop getting cavitiesfuck God
No. 1578672
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i "relapsed" and started cutting again and i feel cringe but i don't know what else to do. it feels like such a childish thing to do, i always see cutters clowned on. but my depression is getting significantly worse and i've been dealing with psychosis for over a year as well. i used to punch walls to relieve stress now i'm back to the above mentioned. i tried therapy and they were shitty, i can't afford therapy now. i've told 3 different trusted people that i'm struggling with suicidal thoughts and i feel myself getting worse and don't know what to do and opening up didn't help at all. i feel like i'm doing what i should be doing and asking for help but i forgot that also includes people who either know what to do or care. i don't expect them to do anything huge, i ask them before can i confide in you with something serious and i need advice. they've confided in me as well and i do my best for them
but it feels like its just. idk
we had a coworker that was a bad person, but he was actively crying for help. he told a few people he wanted to kill himself and they either laughed at him or said don't say that! i pointed him to our resources so he can get therapy. he tried it and said it didn't help him either and i just said im sorry i understand but i dont know what to do either cause im in the same boat and we would just vent to eachother. he ended up having a mental breakdown and trashed our workplace. people were like he's crazy! he's crazy! he literally asked for help and most of them laughed at him and our boss bullied him the worst, was insane the shit he said to him.
don't know where i'm going with this its just ok, this is what finally opening up got me. nothing. im still struggling. and its just getting worse and whats next? don't know anymore. anyways i feel cringe for cutting again
No. 1578763
>>1578762She had the right to be a cunt about it.
I'd be pissed too if some uppity bitch started flirting with my new partner
No. 1578865
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My friend who shouldn't be pregnant, is pregnant. She has so much debt, and can barely pay for her kids. Her ex husband is a ducking loser. I'm surprised she is happy and excited. She miscarried last month and I was lowkey happy because at least her kid wouldn't leave in fucking poverty.
No. 1578918
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This project is the dark night of the souls of projects.
No. 1579012
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One thing I cant stand is seeing zoomali moids in the West. Here pictured is one of the f@g variety in Canada at a pride parade. They run like bitches to white mens countries while their women and children starve and have no clean drinking water. I genuinely wonder WHY white people accept male migrants into their country? It's truly sickening how they pollute countries white men built for their people. Somalia is huge with a large resource reserve and population in need of infrastructure and business. I truly hope more white people vote right wing and kick these weak bitch parasites from their countries. Look at this bitch f@ggot.
I went on a run last night through s beautiful cemetery/park. It was blooming and the sun was setting do it was close to 8 pm. Infront of me i saw 3 zoomali males walking towards me. I panicked and ran another route and looking back wondering if they were following me. They are so fucking ugly and look completely out of place. The park is clean and i see workers all the time (white men) plant flowers and clean up during the day, all for these useless, fat, out of shape zoomali moids to enjoy. Fucking deport all of them. I hate seeing them everywhere and with their rapey look in their eyes. As a woman born and raised in a WHITE and SECULAR country I don't want to be exposed to these subhuman muzzlim rapey aypes who do nothing but terrorize and destroy white countries. They should be all shipped back and never allowed in through visas.
They are the ugliest moids to ever walk earth. Either they are skeletons from starvation or have fat asses from eating and sitting on their asses. There's a zoomali moid at my job who "goes to the gym" but he still looks like a alien skeleton with a bit of bicep. I swear these moids are genetic failures and disgustingly ugly. Best thing you can do for humanity is kys faggot.(r@ceb@iting newf@g)
No. 1579067
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my mums shitty uncle ruined my day by saying i didnt look good in my new dress at my aunts wedding LIKE WHO TF CARES ABOUT WHAT A MOID THINKS. i felt so bad all day couldn't even take photos smiling. I wanted to strangle his old ass neck
No. 1579135
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>>1579103No, that bitch needs her fucking license revoked; what the absolute
fuck does she think she's doing talking to patients like that? How many women go to therapy/psychiatry for sexual abuse?
Most of us who do go to therapy/psychiatry? Dust that fucking asshole, drag her, dump any shady info you have on her; she's a pedophile apologist, I guarantee you she's said shit to you that would make actual doctors tell their colleagues to blacklist her from reference. Fucking end her career. Pedo apologists are usually pedos themselves, and pedos deserve the fucking rope, who gives a shit if she loses her job; she doesn't deserve to have it. She should be rolling burritos somewhere where she can't hurt anyone else.
I'm so fucking sorry anon, I am so god damn fucking tired of the medical INDUSTRY in this shithole fucking country
No. 1579137
>>1579135samefagging to ad, my intake beast forced me to give her explicit details about my violent rape as a child
I do not trust
anyone who wants the part of the job where they get to be
alone wit hthe psych patients
That's a sus job to desire to have, and I do not hear or experience good things with these people.
No. 1579194
>>1579174>if they are hot - which is what i’m looking for - they are dumb as fuck and most of them don’t even seem to know basic grammarThey probably don't have to be very conversational considering only 1% of men on there are actually attractive and so their inboxes are probably overloaded with women who they can have their pick from.
They know it.
No. 1579204
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i fucking hate grad school!!! i feel so fucking worthless!!! i didn't get an assistantship even though i am infinitely more qualified and tangibly a better student than the girl that got it and all of the faculty treats me like i'm so pitiable retard who is delusional for thinking this is something i could do. it's like i tell my professors about my goals and they just keep going "wow we heard about all your hopes and dreams and we think they sound just fantastic, however we regret to inform you to go fuck yourself faggot"
i have a year left and i really don't know how i'm going to make it. i am lucky enough to have made some incredible friends in my program but i am so bitter and so angry at this point, i wanted to get my PhD after this but all of my passion and enthusiasm is just gone. everything i cared about when i got here means fucking nothing to me anymore. i just want to quit but i know i'll never be able to live with myself if i do.
i just wanted to learn about the things that mattered to me and i feel like the education i have gotten and am expected to continue with is totally worthless to me. i'm just getting a piece of paper that will make me more money one day. i'm not being enriched, i'm not even doing fucking research because the faculty in my department avoid students like the plague. i hate my life so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! my therapist literally asked me this morning if i feel like i can keep myself safe until we talk next week like holy shit i am so apocalyptically sad about this
No. 1579209
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>>1579174What country do you live in where hookup culture doesn’t exist? Sounds like a dream
No. 1579249
>>1579193i think i used the wrong expression. hookup culture definitely exists where i live (south america), in the sense that it’s normal to just have casual encounters and things like that, but it’s different from what it is in the U.S., and not as intense. like i can still only talk to people with the purpose of having a casual date or hookup, but it’s not so direct, people still expect you to make conversation and at least get to know them a little bit before and during it. i can’t just tell them what i want and schedule something right away, this is an unpopular behavior where i live, they all need to build a connexion first even for the very casual types of encounters. maybe it’s just a personal experience, but i feel like it’s impossible to get to the action without exchanging a considerable amount
of information first, which then leads to the very annoying and uninteresting conversations i’m having right now.
>>1579194i think you are right, anon. but even when they’re hot and i can tell they’re genuinely interested in getting to know me, they are still very dumb, like, they just don’t know things. but it makes sense, they never had to develop any personality or general knowledge at all, they absolutely thrive just by being an attractive male.
No. 1579436
Nonnas, I am fucking terrified. I do not know if I lost my virginity last night, I can't tell. My nigel tried inserting it in, and I felt something, but I was crying and screaming. I don't know if he just rubbed the tip. I'm scared. I feel ashamed with myself. I wanted to wait until marriage, but we were dating for 2 years and I let it overcome me. I knew him for 5 years. He couldn't put it in, because he said I kept pushing my legs against him and I just kept crying. It lasted for like 2 minutes before I gave up, again, I don't think it was in, but my stomach hurt after and I had cramps, but I do not know if that was because I was having a panic attack or what. I feel so terrible. I hope I still am one. I dont even know what it feels like for it to be in you, I searched it up and nothing. I consider myself a virgin still, but if I am not, I don't know what I'll do. I have been panicking since last night. He said he didn't feel anything, but I feel like he's lying because he knows how important it is to me, because I kept crying and panicking. I think I'm too scared for sex. I don't know how to get over it. I don't even know if I could do it on marriage night.
No. 1579440
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i dont know how to escape my life and change it. everything is doing downhill and i can feel myself spiraling. ive lost all my friends (which i was never really close with to begin with) and its impossible for me to make new ones because im too anxious and shy to even speak to people. im on academic probation and did horrible in all my classes this semester and i have no idea how to tell my mother and dont even know if i should because shes stressed out with my extended family badgering her for money. i suspect i failed because i have adhd and other mental health issues but i cant afford the treatment and i keep applying for jobs in hopes of paying for them but none of them even get back to me. i keep having terrifying hallucinations too when i try to sleep. idk if ill ever succeed or get my degree or even just be a normal healthy person, i just want to die and escape. i cant see myself ever living the life i want. i used to be so happy in high school and now im just completely different. i want to go back to who i used to be
No. 1579445
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>>1579378Wow Nona, I don’t even know what to say. I’m so sorry that happened to you and your dad. That’s 100% reportable though and you should speak to someone and get her fired. Sociopaths are attracted to the medical field unfortunately, so you have to watch out for twisted people like that. I’m sure if you keep shopping around you’ll be able to find someone kind and professional.
No. 1579464
>>1579440I've failed a semester of classes and I still graduated in the end. It took me several years longer than normies, but I still did it. I know you can do it to.
I know what it's like to struggle a lot mentally and still try to keep up with shit. It's really difficult. If you could, I would consider taking a semester off of school. You could try to find a job (even a shit tier one like McDonald's maybe), and try to work on getting diagnoses or medicine, since you suspect you have ADHD. It would probably help you a lot, plus if you have a diagnosis for something, a lot of schools are more lenient with grade forgiveness. I really advise going to a doctor if you can.
If you are going to take more classes for the next semester, maybe try to line up really easy ones, and then work on your mental health. Idk. It's difficult, but I hope you can find some relief soon, nonna.
No. 1579490
>Friend: "hey anon how are you doing?"
>I am lonely, I can't fit in anywhere because of how socially awkward I am, I am stressed out over the future, my hair is damaged and in dire need of a cut but I can't afford going to a hairdresser and I'm too much of an uncoordinated pussy to do it myself, I hate my body to the point I have anxiety attacks, I desperately want to refurnish parts of my home but I'm broke, and I threw up today because I had a random flashback to the number of SA I suffered by my ex 10 years ago
>My actual response: "Oh, I'm fine! Finally getting my life on track. How about you?"
>Friend: "Oh good, because I need your advice so I'm gonna trauma dump on you for an hour"
I know this is such a common situation, but I hate it. I feel like I can't open up to anyone because I always get a "uhm, okay" but I'm the one people usually hit up for advice on everything.
No. 1579497
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I want to format a HDD and so far it's taken 10 fucking hours. I know it's a 12TB drive but FFS.
No. 1579513
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>>1579436May you find peace with this someday, nona. Whether it's through therapy or whatever else it may be, I wish you didn't have to deal with this. I'm in a somewhat similar position where I'm scared of it going inside me, so I thought I'd reach out and say that your post resonated with me. Everything will be alright in the end.
No. 1579529
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Can't even play a game in peace without coming across tifs referring to themselves as a 'hole'. The absolute state of self-hating women. Hate that I just logged in and saw her friend request as first thing in the morning.
No. 1579547
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>>1579513Thank you. You are so dear to me for this post. I know I have some form of sexual trauma, and I wish I did not hold such importance on my celibacy, but I do not know how to get rid of it as it was ingrained to me since I was a child. I hope that one day we both can feel normal in such cases.
No. 1579554
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I feel so stupid getting upset over this but I forgot to submit an assignment for a class, and it brought my grade down to an A-. When I saw my final grade I was perfectly fine with it until I saw that I never uploaded the file.
No. 1579555
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>>1579547>I wish I did not hold such importance on my celibacyDo you feel that it gives you a sense of safety? For me, being celibate gives me a safe and secure feeling. Also, are your parents more traditional/conservative? I grew up with traditional parents who didn't want sex before marriage and so on, and my best friend had a similar experience. She didn't have sex until 8 years into her relationship, and now she's been married to that guy for over a decade. As long as you communicate with your boyfriend (and he's a considerate gem amongst men), I am certain you can get through this trauma. I'm wishing you all the best, nona.
No. 1579560
>>1579436Nonnie if it hurt he most likely was inside, i had a similar experience, kept telling the guy not to do it because I wanted to still be a virgin, but in the spur of the moment and horniness he pushed it in a bit.
I was keeping myself for marriage too but got fed up and lost it to said guy when I was 28.
So far only guy I ever had sex with, haven't met anyone I liked besides him.
No. 1579569
>>1579560I do not think he did, I felt like it was poking my uretha or something, because I checked my hymen and made sure it was still intact, but I don't know. I will check again.
>>1579555I did not have traditional parents, both my parents were not very active, it was my peers who was very "conservative". I was raised on the internet with pedophiles and constantly got told how important it was for women with the amount of "partners" they had, which is why I am terrified of it. I was heavily bullied in school and the space I was in online affected me a lot. I also did not take sexual education, so I do not know much about it.
No. 1579571
>>1579555Sorry, forgot to add, but I think I could not get over it with him specifically, as he is not a virgin, which was a dealbreaker for me, but he told me the other night that he is "basically one". I think he was trying to comfort me and would keep telling me he forgot what it felt like, and it's also why I don't feel comfortable with him doing specific things to me (giving head to me), because he's done it with other girls. He only had sex with one girl, but it made me feel insecure because he rejected me before having sex with this girl. I remember crying after giving him my first kiss because I felt like it was such a waste, like I defiled myself to a man who I wasn't even married to. I knew he had sex with a woman before me, but I just feel a bit wrong because he couldn't wait like I did, and I just feel a bit sad because he hid something from me. I really hope I didn't stop being a virgin, because I hate that I'd give it to him if he didn't even marry me to prove that he took me seriously.
No. 1579581
>>1579571how old are you? every person holds themselves to certain standards, he wasn't obligated to save himself for anyone
that being said, for me it would've been a dealbreaker if the guy was a virgin ( assuming we're both 25+) . Sex with virgins is awkward.
Yeah,it's a double standard , but everyone knows female virginity is much more prized than male one.
I have a different set of values so for me it's really weird you're putting so much thought into what this guy did or that he didn't want to wait until he's married to have sex.
If you think a guy has to marry to prove he takes you seriously…that's pretty childish/naive and you live in a fantasy world, one where I used to live too before I had a rude awakening.
No. 1579590
>>1579569>I checked my hymen and made sure it was still intact, but I don't know. I will check again.you have literally no idea what you are talking about. go read about the female body from real sources instead of religious literature
t. 30yo virgin
No. 1579594
>>1579585>met when you were 13, he was 19-20>he's 6-7 years older>he knew you liked him for 5-6 years>you told him you would save yourself for him>waited until you were legal age to date>you have severe feelings of anxiety and obsession over purity>he lied about having sex with a girl before youYeah this sounds
toxic and fucked, I'm sorry
No. 1579596
>>1579585Ok,given your age,I fully understand why you feel the way you do.
But given your age difference and everything you said, this doesn't sound alright and since you like him more than he likes you ,he won't be around for long if you don't want to sleep with him. You two clearly have some differences in views regarding relationships.
No man is worth suffering for.
No. 1579597
>>1579594Seriously, why would anon bother to have sex with him if she a. doesn't want it until married and b. knew he's a gigantic liar.
she needs to drop him and block him on everything and move on in life.
No. 1579601
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>>1579585The age difference wouldn't seem as bad if you both met as adults, but the fact that he specifically met you at a time where he would've been in college while you were in middle school is quite concerning..
No. 1579605
>>1579571He clearly does not care about you. he's just trying to convince you to have sex with him with the "basically a virgin" talking point, as he knows you think it is important but he does not. He will say anything to get you to comply, and it worked because you went against your personal convictions last night. you are probably going to be one of many stories where a young girl or woman is talked into having sex the first time with an older male and after it's over, he bails and is never heard from again.
Your reaction to what happened is a clear indicator that not only that is he NOT the right one to be in a relationship with, but also you are NOT ready to have sex. Do not force yourself into doing things you do not want to. Screaming and crying and panicking is not something that should be occuring. Everything should have stopped immediately once you started getting uncomfortable.
No. 1579662
>>1579445thank you so much for your reply nonna, i hadn't even though to report her or anything because i was so shocked and just wanted to get out of there tbh lol
>>1579536i've definitely gotten cynical like this too after having these experiences over and over again with different therapists and psychiatrists. it makes me afraid to open up again in any meaningful way. like this was the therapist i had been going to for years when i was a teen really struggling. i trusted her and now i realize why i'm doing so much better now that i've become an adult and i can't be forced to see her anymore. that whole time she was just making me feel shittier about my problems and everyone gaslit me into thinking it wasn't working because i wasn't trying hard enough lmao. literally half the session she would talk about herself and her own problems
No. 1579668
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>>1579542The Tale of Food. It's supposedly an 'otome' game (and you can choose play as a woman too) but the romance is minimal, in fact barely there because the characters only compliment you at most, and the rest of the game is pretty plot-heavy with many characters. I mainly like it because of the house pavilions, all the furniture and the characters being able to interact with them is really cool. It's not perfect though, it's obvious that it's created by moids because of some annoying 'trap' characters and shit.
No. 1579856
>>1579821I wish for the same, however I guess this just isn't the place. Mental health communities that aren't run by professionals end up as really
toxic bragging grounds about who suffers the most, and with most of our community being based on following lolcows it's a recipe for disaster lol. I guess we just need to support each other as anon the best we can.
No. 1579912
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Last night before I move. Mt neighbors cat spends all day at my house lately and I'll never see him again. (Cant steal him)
No. 1579926
I hate being depressed, I hate PTSD. Nobody cares if you're not a veteran, they tell you 'chin up and move on'. I wish other people could see that black cloud. Only way to give others some sort of look inside is to become an anachan or cut yourself but I won't do that. No matter how many times I tell family how I really feel they brush it off. I feel like they'd only care if I was dead.
>>1579896That's disgusting, I'm so sorry this is happening to you nonna.
>>1579912He's adorable! Remember he's in good hands, good luck with your move too!
No. 1579942
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I think I got groomed by a (female) teacher from ages 15-17. Anyway this was like 15 years ago, I've never told anyone. She's still a teacher at the school and has a husband and is a boymom.
No. 1579954
>>1577759Girl he's just some guy, you don't even know him. You'll find 10 others like him.
Good that he avoided you, imagine if he actually cheated. You'd be forever paranoid that he's gonna do the same to you (he would). Now you can go for guys you can actually have.
No. 1579973
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this stupid fucking realtor ghosted me when i asked for a viewing. it's been nearly a week and i sent a follow-up e-mail as well, how retarded does this moid have to be. do your fucking job idiot or kys so i can go through a realtor that isn't such a lazy piece of shit.
No. 1580063
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I cannot break the cycle of procrastinating and then panicking when the deadline is coming up and submitting shitty, half-done work. I literally cannot
No. 1580066
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sudden realization that I can’t be friends with girls no matter how hard I try, they always ditch me.
No. 1580091
>>1580088and i don't know how to meet new people. i have no interests where i can meet people in clubs or shit like that. anyways, when i meet someone new, they ditch me two days later. i don't know what i am doing wrong. i am just accepting that i will never have the friendship i'd like (someone who is as intense as i am, a profund love and connection, but not romantic or sexual, more like sisters and intellectual partners)
>>1580028 i feel you. i just found out a guy i like is or was married with someone who is more educated than i and i feel like shit
No. 1580107
>>1580066I know that feeling I vented about it on here a few days ago and some nice anon responded to me with a paragraph of tips to make friends better
I was thinking wow these would work great for anyone aside from me
No. 1580117
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i just took a low dose ssri (celexa) for the first time in like 10 years last night and i am so fucking out of it, my pupils are huge, i need to clean my house but i have just ben staring at a wall for 25mins help
No. 1580134
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I'm pushing 30's and have been happily single since covid happened deciding that marriage and kids wasn't for me. I dont know if i am classified as an asexual or if i am just simply unable to hold on to a romantic affection for more than several months. People said that love never lasts anyway but i don't know if marriage just amounts to tolerating your spouse and have an offspring together.
Married and older nonnies, do you have regrets of marrying and having kids or vice versa?
No. 1580154
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>>1580043audibly keked, ty
nonnie No. 1580175
>>1580171>used to be bisexualkek you don't just quit your sexual orientation like that.
>Idk what to doLeave him before you stab him to death?
No. 1580183
>>1580171…so why are you dating him if you dislike it so much?
>used to be Kek.
No. 1580187
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>>1580162It's more like "when you have fun, you're cheerful as if you're lying (about having depression)". Picrel is the context from one of those dumb morning shows which was discoursed about on Japanese internet a few years ago.
No. 1580203
>>1580200you don't suddenly stop liking men if you liked them before
so either he never was or he still is.
No. 1580278
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>>1580272this thread is the first I've heard of the footfag to child pornography pipeline. with everything else there are always subgroups, and i have seen pedos talking about little children's feet on that one russian image posting site whose name escapes me, so not saying it doesn't exist nor that i am surprised, but the ones ive known were definitely not outwardly interested in childrens feet. some of them were even strictly attracted to men's feet because of the hair.
No. 1580304
>>1580295Guys see what they wanna see.
When she says or does something that doesn't please him then suddenly the pedestal will be toppled and he will notice her flaws all at once. He's in his honeymoon phase of the relationship and that's normal.
No. 1580319
>>1580295Are you really expecting a man to sing praises about how bony, flat, and downright skeletal his girlfriend's ass is? You should be thankful that your male friend is attracted to and compliments his gf in such an incredibly normie way.
>>1580312Seconding.
No. 1580359
>>1580354I think she has a point. All those scrapy metal tools they use are absolutely causing harm. We get fucked two-fold: the diets we eat are garbage lacking in nutrients and covered in sugar and carbs that lead to malformation, demineralization, and rot; and then the dentists come and prod and gouge and try to diagnose you with as many cavities as possible so they can drill all your teeth away and get paid thousands to "fix" it, leading to people being mutilated for life.
I'm waiting for regenerative dentistry to come out, they're promising to be able to regrow teeth either partially (cavity) or entirely (pulled etc). It'll be another 10 fucking years minimum though. Our current dental interventions are primitive butchery and objectively harmful. At this rate by the time I'm 40 I'll have a dozen crowns and by 60 I'll be toothless.
No. 1580373
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Nonnas, how the fuck do you make IRL female friends if you are a neet? Meetups? I feel like it's so easy to make male friends (but not even as good friends.) but I cannot make female friends because everyone with my interests is either underaged or twice my age. Im in my early 20's. It would be so easy if I was in school, but just a few months ago I went to a convention center alone and literally forced myself in already made table top games, and I don't even like table top games. I met some people, but it was people I'd never see again. Seriously, how do you do it? I want friends so fucking bad. I wouldn't even mind meeting up with women off the internet because I have the money to do so. Most of the women I'm able to converse with and actually befriend are always older, and I just want to hang out with them. Hell, I'd even start getting into their interests if it meant they would hang out with me. I even wanted to join terven groups IRL, but it is so difficult to find that where I live.
No. 1580375
>>1580373I always get along with older women, I don't know why. Since middle school, I would always befriend my female teachers, in highschool before covid, I had an english teacher who I adored, she complimented my essays and her husband was my math teacher. I wish I could hang out with her IRL, but she probably wouldn't, if only I was 40-50 years old to hang out with her and be her friend. Maybe it is my mommy issues, but I just want to befriend them and hang out with them so bad. Even when I first worked at 18, I would gravitate towards all my female coworkers and befriend them. There was a 28 year old woman who I loved, and I wanted to hang out with her, and we were supposed to, but we never got to. I wish I was back pre internet era so I could have my female seperatist friend groups and I would buy gifts for them and cook for them just so they know how much I love them. I love all my women friends on the internet, I wish I knew them IRL.
No. 1580386
>>1580382To note: I know its selfish of me to think of leaving an
abusive relationship as an easy task but fucking hell he has apparently almost killed her several times in the past and much more
No. 1580396
>>1580297Indeed, I'm incredibly happy for him.
>>1580307>>1580326>bitter>jealousnot at all, if anything I'm really happy for him.
I just find it funny because taking into consideration his personality, this is one of the last things someone would expect from him. He's usually extremely blunt and calls others out when they act how he did.
No. 1580401
>>1580377the cynicalism of the younger generation is so gross. they genuinely think they are suffering the most so they dont bother with empathising with other people unless they can 100% relate to the situation. Thats why they simply refuse to empathise with people who have been trough extremely traumatic experiences. I often here the argument that so much has happened the past years and that their is a huge pressure on the young generation to fix shit in order to justify the cynicalism and that's just bullshit. Many past generations had to cope with wars and other awful manmade things but few off them developed active movements that was centred around mocking other people's pain. There where art movements post-wwI that was extremely cynical because it was made by people who struggled with poverty and the collective trauma of an industrial war but they still empathised with
victims of the war or poverty. Many people of my generation are proud of shitposting and think it defies our generation. I'm not saying that every movement post-wwI was flawless but it depresses me that what will defy my generation is shitposts either made by /pol/tards or people who are knees deep into americanised idpol
No. 1580404
maybe I'm overthinking shit but I feel guilty, my male coworker has a gf and she works in a different department but we have breaks at the same time, I think she's kinda cute but she's fat and maybe people would call her average at best idk, every time we're on break she stares at me, I don't know if she's jealous that I talk to her bf or what, also I think it's kinda weird that he sits with us instead of talking to her? Like if I had a gf and we had breaks at the same time I would sit with her and not with my coworkers, at least not always. But I was never in a relationship so maybe it's normal that when you live with someone in one apartment you don't feel like also spending time with them at work? I don't know, I just feel guilty for some reason.
I also feel guilty when I'm around women who are objectively less attractive than me. I wonder if this is how actual stacies feel when someone like me looks at them? Do they even care? Do they feel sorry for someone like me? I don't put value on looks at all but I know society does and when I'm around women who may be, in some ways, get worse treatment than me just because of their looks, I just feel bad. Personally I hate when people stare at me because I'm an autist, I don't give a fuck if someone finds me pretty, but I can objectively notice when it happens and it not only annoys me but also makes me feel guilty
No. 1580415
>>1580401People who have never felt struggle in their lives cannot empathize with struggle and trauma. This is why some of the greedily, most sociopathic, and
abusive people are those that were raised with a silver spoon.
No. 1580416
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I'm gonna act like an entitled brat so here I go.
Back in 2019 the waiting list for scheduling an appointment is roughly 2 weeks. Even in 2020 when the pandemic struck, it was still around 2 weeks. Fast forward to 2022, and the waiting list is a whopping 2 months. I thought "whatever, some people got traumatized by the pandemic and there's new people, I'll let it slide". Now its 3 months of waiting.
What the fuck is this bullshit?
I wish I could look into data of what the new patients are coming in for. I swear if its some tiktok retard who thinks they have 50 genders up their ass then I'm going to actually flip out. Here I am dealing with scheduled anxiety attacks, and trying to get cognitive behavioral therapy so I can sort them out faster and move on with my life.
Like I said, I'm acting like a spoiled cunt because its the heat of the moment. And there's a good chance that its people dealing with much worse shit like having family die out of now where (whether its from covid or the shitvax).
No. 1580428
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>>1579912>Cant steal himThen kidnap him nonna.
No. 1580555
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it's getting bad again, nonas. i'm not eating, not showering, letting chores and mess pile up. i don't want to do anything but sleep. i tried a new doctor, some new medication, but it's not doing anything, and i keep trying to look for a therapist but no one takes my insurance, or they're booked up until next decembuary, or they're fucking "faith-based". i just want to fall asleep and stay there.
No. 1580562
>>1580555damn, sup, me?
I hope somehow things get better for you as soon as they can; to be turned away from help when you finally work up the nerve to ask is devastating
No. 1580578
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we need a chatgpt/AI hate thread already
No. 1580668
>>1580664She's medium-sized, and he already saw that she's harmless because he pet her. And I told him her name…
>>1580665I'm definitely changing route for a while. Not sure if I can change my appearance because he looked at me closely and I can't remove things like glasses and change my entire wardrobe. He was creepy for sure, but maybe he does that to a lot of women and he'll forget eventually. I only tried to smile and be nice so the situation wouldn't escalate.
No. 1580702
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wanting it to be 2003 again consumes most of my waking thoughts
yes I'm ancient
No. 1580729
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I'm having more and more of these days where I wake up feeling like I have flu. Muscle aches all over, headache, foggy head, no energy, drowsy, barely able to drag myself to another room to make food or go to the bathroom. Heavy all over and even my eyes feel heavy. Feels just like the flu minus throat/sinus symptoms. The muscles in my fucking hands hurt. I have nobody. I've managed to luck out by having the worst episodes of it happen on my days off and I work through the 'only half as bad' days. I'm drained, I'm dreading having to look into what this is. I know these things tend to either take years to get answers for or they end up being cfs or some other vague sounding thing that for the most part people think is bullshit anyway. I can't afford to have this turn out to be something serious but I also really don't want to be told its something highly associated with munchies/mentalz. I don't want attention. I don't want to stop working. I don't want to admit how bad this is getting.
My legs are giving out from under me on the worst days now. I'm afraid that I'm going to end up collapsing in public and will have no choice but to be seen. Idk how I've made it this long keeping this to myself but now I feel like my timeline of this happening won't even be believed because I've held it together for so long.
No. 1580767
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>>1580744i read books and stories and watch videos of happy couples.
No. 1580770
moids don’t have the capacity for love, and i am wasting my time. i know. but i don’t understand why he won’t even compliment me when i shower him with affection. i understand he’s emotionally stunted, but i feel like i shouldn’t have to ask him to say nice things about me. this desire makes me ashamed because it implies that to look to him for validation, and we’ve only really been together for a couple of weeks. but that’s not it — it just feels good to be called beautiful. if you find me so attractive, why don’t you fucking say it? do i really have to ask him to call me beautiful, or smart, or funny? or should i stop complimenting him, too, so he can see how it feels? i doubt he’d even care, because moids don’t understand anything. for fuck’s sakes. and outside of this issue, he’s pleasant and supportive, especially compared to every other moid. he’s incredibly non-threatening, and i actually find him attractive. it’s just this concentrated issue that makes me so insecure. i hope it’s something that i can nip in the bud soon, but i don’t know how.
No. 1580791
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>>1580786At least disrespect from cats is cute.
>>1580784Not all moids will just straight up abandon you when you're old, I see old couples together all the time. But a lot of those moids probably put their wives thru hell back in the day, so there's that too.
No. 1580800
>>1580792A couple possibilies
1. You are an anachan whose ”trying” is eating 1400kcal instead of 1200kcal
2. You have a thyroid issue or similar health issue
A huge amount of people are overweight, clearly it’s not hard to gain weight.
No. 1580806
>>1580792It's hard to gain weight if you don't work out or spend energy at all because you'll have low appetite and even if you gain weight, you'll be skinnyfat not fit.
That's why most nerds are either skelly or obese, if you don't exercise or even do daily walks you'll fall into either of these groups.
No. 1580838
>>1580827this is why i use continuous cycle birth control. the hilarious thing is no one would prescribe it until recently. because LITERALLY the reason is, when birth control was invented, (pills), the roman catholic church wouldn't allow it unless women also got their period so they would still be assured to suffer. in reality women do NOT need to have periods. it provides no health benefits, and tons of detriments, both to health and to quality of life. periods are obsolete. i resent each and every period i was forced to needlessly suffer.
you know if moids bled out of their dick every fucking month and it gave them period shits, cramps, fatigue, etc, that they would put every research dollar into getting that solved for them. but for women we're told to suffer and expected to enjoy our suffering, to thank them for forcing us to suffer.
i want my uterus removed, i hate this retarded fucking organ, i resent that i am forced to carry it around all the time, i want it gone, and I do not CARE what shit anyone has to say about akshully and the "feminist" cutesy uterus drawings and menstrual blood earings. it's disgusting and i want it ripped out so i can stomp on it and hurl it into a trashbin. it isn't fucking cutesy and beneficial to suffer something that is easily preventable, that idea comes from THE FUCKING CHURCH, THAT THINKS WOMEN ARE INHERENTLY EVIL AND THEY DESERVE PAIN AND MISERY. periods are retarded uteruses should be removed at birth. if moids want kids they can get a uterus implant and birth their own fucking kids. why does a woman have to be inflited with 30 years of monthly agony just so a scrote can daydream that he might one day ruin her life and body by forcing her to be his broodmare to crap out his "legacy" that she has to stoop to the floor to wipe up the shit and vomit of and chase around to feed and bathe for 20 years.
reproduction is a problem. force men to give birth. force men to menstruate. i'm done with this shit and i'm done with scrotes
No. 1580849
>>1580843Usually it's more fun when there's more anons involved, when it just turns into one topic it gets boring. I get so tired of the husbandofags and personality posters, it's fine when it's in multiple threads but when it takes up the whole bunker I get bored but whatever I gotta go to bed anyway.
>>1580842It was a joke because the last couple topics were just about Rancefag and Kirbyanon, so I was making a joke about how those 2 seemed to be the only 2 having fun after you said you were having fun in there. I don't know anon I'm tired can't you just take it in jest like it was intended
No. 1580878
>>1580872nta, based
I used my friend's pcos symptoms to get my gyno to prescribe me an IUD and the pill at the same time so I could dry the fucking thing out and shut it down without turning into a TiF
No. 1580883
>>1580875People get their tonsils and appendix removed all the time. You have no idea what you're talking about.
>>1580877That has nothing to do with menstruation, but the hormones produced by the ovaries. A completely separate organ pair from the uterus. The uterus itself provides no benefit. It wastes tons of nutrients every month for no reason at all, and gives back nothing, only takes.
>>1580878They don't get it. Sad that they're repeating propaganda from the catholic church.
>>1580882>putting words in my mouth just to have an argument No. 1580885
>>1580872I wish I didn't menstruate either but they
are an important indicator of your health, not first whether you're pregnant or not.
Removing your uterus would come with a whole bunch of hormonal imbalances and health issues if not taken care of properly. Your reproductive system is an important part of your hormonal health.
No. 1580892
>>1580885nta, but I don't have to worry about getting pregnant, so that one's off the table anyway, but my periods were horriffic and retarded anyway when I did have them
My longest period ever was two months heavy-bleeding, one month spotting
hormonal imbalance? baby, I already got that in stacks, I'm pissing in the piss ocean at this point
No. 1580893
>>1580885Wasting nutrient-packed protein matter that my body could use for literally any other purpose, every month for no reason, is a "health test" more expensive than the proposed benefits.
The uterus itself does NOT produce hormones. The ovaries do. They are separate organs.
>>1580888pick up a book sometime, not my fault you've never seen a diagram of the female reproductive system
No. 1580903
>>1580883funny that you have to point to tonsils and appendixes… your uterus is literally holding up your vagina via the cervix. uterus removal is a last resort BECAUSE of the risk of vaginal prolapse (which sounds worse than a period to me personally). similarly, HEALTHY tonsils and appendix are almost never removed, and when they are it is because of a history of disease in those organs.
anyway for most women those first 100 or so periods are the worst ones because they're less regular and still feel like a new burden. you'll get used to it.
No. 1580904
>>1580901pretty sure ruining my life is harming my health, love
>>1580898>everyone i don't like is a moidas if men even know what a uterus is. they probably think it's a planet.
No. 1580911
>>1580856Oh my gosh, anon, I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm sending out any possible requests to universal power that they save the kitty and it lives. That is so horrendous, how did this happen? Were those terriers someone's pets that they unleashed and didn't supervise?
Take care of your well-being, too, nonna. You did the best you could and your kindness to animals is appreciated. Fuck anyone that allowed this to happen.
No. 1580923
>>1580916nta; don't get it removed, just end the menstrual cycle
pair a hormonal IUD with the pill, you basically become neutered, it's a much, much easier life
No. 1580939
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>>1580934Stop whiteknighting for appendixs just cause you wanted something to say.
No. 1580968
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>>1580939tbh i just think gut microbiome science is really cool and wanted to share
No. 1580970
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>>1580968Ok I'm sorry anon
No. 1580971
>>1580770My theory is that men, being born male, are smothered with affection and idolised by their mother as a child. They may or may not enjoy it, but they absolutely take it for granted and don't see it as any kind of extra effort or something to be reciprocated. After all, their mom acted like that when they were a stinky little shit, so if you do it, it must mean they're just amazing as usual and don't have to do anything in return.
Similarly, I think women who are hostile and insulting to men are seen as enticing because they think they have to earn the affection in their fucked up ape brains. If I were you I'd start slipping in snide comments here and there about his character. Watch him do a 180, I PROMISE you.
But then who wants affection from someone as dumb as that? There's no winning with moids.
No. 1580986
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ever since i've been going to the gym i hate my body. i was always kind of indifferent about my body and just wanted to get a bit stronger and have better stamina, but all the girls who go to my gym wear leggings and shorts that make their asses look bigger while they have tiny dangly legs and i feel like i just don't fit in. i know it is silly to think that way but it has really been affecting me and i don't know how to cope. i've been trying to go at different times when there are more elderly people, but no matter what time i go there is always a group of 20something legging girls. i also don't want to invest in a pair of push-up leggings cause i just find it silly and i like wearing my baggy shirts when working out… is this just society's fault or is it my own insecurities? i've never really felt this way before.
No. 1581002
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I have shit I need to do today but I keep procrastinating on lolcow instead
No. 1581018
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>>1580986>wear leggings and shorts that make their asses look bigger while they have tiny dangly legs and i feel like i just don't fit in.kek don't feel fooled by those nothingburgers, most of them have no ass and look really average without those leggings. for me i can spot them miles away,you can't have a big gym ass without having both hamstrings and quads developed
wear what's the comfiest and what helps you finish your workout while feeling good, remember you are there for YOURSELF, not for others . You are there to be the best version of yourself!
and don't hate yourself, we all started somewhere, trust the process, a year from now you're going to be amazed what hard work and consistency can achieve
remember to do weight training, nothing will ever beat that!
sincerely,
nonnie with 10+ years of gym experience and a nice ass
No. 1581023
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>be me, med student
>there is an actual retard in my course
>sexist, racist, rude and stupid
>literally no redeeming features
>compared black students to orangutans
>said that all women have borderline personality disorder as a "joke" in a psychiatry class in front of an actual patient and the psychiatrist
>openly cheats on every single exam
>touched a patients liver with his unwashed ungloved hands during a transplant surgery and was forcefully removed from the OR
>somehow hasnt been kicked out yet
>forensic medicine oral exam
>he was asked to name a type of child abuse by the teacher
>answer: "abortion"
>aggressively argued with the teacher when the teacher told him abortion isnt child abuse because the fetus isnt born yet
>his other oral topic was traffic accidents
>he said that if a train hits a car the people in the train will have fatal injuries but the people in the car will be fine and they will drive away from the scene
>somehow, the teacher passed him but with a low grade
>remained outside the exam room and questioned everyone who had the exam after him
>asked me if the teacher was mean to me as well
(the teacher was really nice)
>thinks spontaneous abortion (ie miscarriage) can be prevented by locking pregnant women into a psych ward
>doesnt know the definition of basic medical terms
>thinks the knee cap is half way up the thigh
>thinks that adult humans need to consume only 140 calories a day
>yet is somehow morbidly obese
>watches instagram bikini models and weird music videos during class on full volume
>harrassed the student representative of our year group so much the rep quit his position
the worst part is there is nowhere where i can report him to the university. he will most likely graduate and be a doctor.
No. 1581049
>>1581032thank you for the good wishes, anon.
>>1581037its not private. afaik this guy isnt paying tuition. he studied in another school in another country for at least 4 years before having to transfer here due to circumstances in the other country. hes been here for less than a year. ive heard rumours that his father may be bribing someone. ive never seen anyone else being enabled like he's been which is why its so jarring.
No. 1581076
>>1581066no
>>1581067me too. ive been frantically searching for any way my university has for reporting other students but there are none. im not sure who to go to. he will harm/kill patients if hes allowed to graduate.
No. 1581185
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I hate periods and the random diarrhea they ALWAYS bring along. Was just silently passing a lighthearted fart but then I realised that it felt wrong… really wrong. I'm glad I stopped before it could end up in an embarrassing situation which would've resulted in me banging my head against a pillar to greet death. I don't fucking get why my period lasts for only 3 days yet diarrhea starts to fuck with me around 5 days in advance and then stays for an entire week after my period ends.
No. 1581191
>>1581185>diharreaI wish,I'm constipated for 2-3 days when I'm on my period, and even before, when I'm PMSing. So it's 10 days of constipation each fucking month
stupid uterus
No. 1581292
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>>1581289attached picture of what the fuck im dealing with, potato quality for obvious reasons. needed to share this with other people because this has been the only thing getting me through this bullshit. who the fuck sends this to a coworker? as a 62 year old man? i have been saying "stay out of my inbox!!!!!" to everyone for the last few days now
ot but is trump chan my coworker
No. 1581365
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Why am I so autistic around women I’m attracted to
No. 1581368
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Chewing on the string of my pj pants and I guess something rubbed a weird way that made a sound that sounded a lot like a guinea pig. It remind me of my guinea pig that died and now I'm sad.
No. 1581383
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Eh, after all the said and done, at least Miss Swift will get to make her own version of Katy Perry's "Part of Me"..
(While Mr. Healy will dodge the bullet that The Arcade Fire couldn't since even The 1975 are sounding like their "Funeral/Neon Bible" era rn)
No. 1581406
>>1581169Nta but mods you couldn't have just let her have that sad face, of all the posts to redtext you couldn't just let that one slide.
I'm sorry Nona, something similar happened to my cat was when I a kid, it got into a fenced yard with two dogs and the dogs chased him around and barked at him. They didn't attack him though so I thought he'd be fine but he died of a heart attack from the panic of it about 20 minutes later. I'm sorry I wish all kitties would be safe too, I'm glad at the very least you were able to get him out of the shed so he could pass away in peace. Hope your okay ♥
No. 1581517
>>1581500They are all street cats / abandoned cats taken care of by my landlords who care for stray animals. They have tons of dogs inside so the cats are outside with shelters of course, the kitten was left outside so I cared for her inside and once she got bigger she was outside a lot more. This behavior is recent, I noticed only a couple weeks it started and I am upset.
>>1581507Yes they all live here. He was generally sweet before. Luckily there's another male cat who is very protective of her, they play a lot, he attacks other cats if the kitty looks scared or mad. I guess they fight over the rapey cat's behavior. The kitten is about seven months old, she is not tiny anymore but half the size of the adult cats, so I worry.
No. 1581547
>>1581507my friends dumb male cat was humping his sister
he got spayed but he STILL humps the poor kitten
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>>158125I’m the same situation with my girlfriend (8 months relationship), I get so scared of losing her most of the time. In the beginning it was worse, so I can tell you that if you give it time it will get better, because you’ll trust him more. It’s not easy to be vulnerable with someone else, especially if you’re insecure or used to people leaving you. If he’s the right one for you he’ll never stop reassuring you, remind yourself that he loves you as much as you love him. Something that helped me a lot is analyzing why I feel that way and where my insecurities are coming from…it’s usually never the other person. Also try to not accuse him of anything, especially if he’s not sending any negative signals. I promise you that with time it will get better.
I literally came here to vent about the fact that my girlfriend took a nap yesterday for like 2 hours (she woke up at 5 am, she also usually does this, so no red flags) but I was so convinced and scared that she was actually cheating on me. I talked with her and she immediately reassured me…I’m still upset, but communication is key. Always let your partner know what’s going on, and if they belittle and gaslight you, they’re not worth your time.
No. 1581613
>>1580744You're delusional, the fault when it comes to the marriage's end is more or less fairly shared between moids and women, accepting it should ease your mind. I do think most marriages are bullshit tho, for there are a number of traps, and the first one should be an overconfidence regarding love. Lifelong love is not a thing, but affection is another matter. Love is essential to start, but to choose a good partner you have to question yourself if his affection and yours are enough to take the reins. Your lifepartner have to be someone willing to stay despite a lack of love, same for you. It doesn't mean that your marriage will be sad, but I'll stop here this message is getting too long.
Going after somebody else everytime love runs dry, to try to relive that again and again is nothing but a pipe dream, you will end up truly alone. Their loss.
And don't choose moids overly focused on sex.
No. 1581619
>>1581613I've literally never seen a marriage that doesn't end with the man ignoring his family and wife, I know it exists and it's possible to have a lifelong respectful and loving relationship with a partner but it's near impossible to know who is capable of that maturity and love, it's not every male who can reach age mentally and that's the hard part. It's pretty much life russian roulette.
Personally I cope with it by knowing anything good might be temporary and that doesn't lessen from it as long as you are able to see the good in every situation. If my husband eventually grows cold and disinterested I honestly don't think I'd care much, I'd just move on to another plan and find other objectives (will hopefully not compromise my life and have enough achievements and goals by the time I'm old to just focus on that), alternatively focus on the kids or on having pleasant last days. The idea of cuddling up for someone in your old age sounds great but I don't think you'll feel as abandoned if it doesn't happen when you're old, you'll have lived enough and will have different needs. Hopefully this helps op
No. 1581742
>>1581457thanks anon, i am nauseous and my IBS is flaring up bcz of sleep deprivation, I'm almost there, going to drop like a potato at 10 pm, i'm counting the minutes until I shower and sleep
really hope my stomach won't hurt tomorrow
No. 1581827
>>1581613>Lifelong love is not a thing, but affection is another matter.That's literally my concern, the affection being gone, I've never seen an old couple who are still affectionate to each other. And the thought of being lonely and without affection when I'm older makes me want to kms.
>Your lifepartner have to be someone willing to stay despite a lack of loveBut how do I know that he's honest about wanting that? I'm sure most women in an affectionless marriage now once thought they were choosing a moid who wouldn't ignore them and treat them like they're worthless when they're older.
>Going after somebody else everytime love runs dry, to try to relive that again and again is nothing but a pipe dreamI don't and wouldn't do that, I've only ever had one boyfriend and I wouldn't date or be intimate with someone I didn't think had the same goal as me of a long term relationship.
>>1581619You summed that up perfectly, especially with the "life russian roulette" part. And that second part did help, thank you nona.
No. 1581883
>>1581615Old generation women are sometimes like that. I don't get why but they insist on such a lifestyle against all wishes of family and friends. It's some sort of mental illness and blaming the man is ignorant. It's not like the women are all stupid either. My guess would be growing up in a specific cultural environment and breaking along specific personality lines.
>>1581839>good-natured womenI loathe this way of phrasing it. In every other truecrime story the
victim is a complete imbecile living in their feelings without a care or thought in their head and they are always described as "sweet" and "kind" when nothing could be further from the point. They are sweet and kind because they lack the intellect to understand and actively participate in social situation, so they default to complete submission and slavery as a way to buy their way "in", and that is exactly why the criminals target them. Predators can detect this lack, and unlike normal people who might respond with pity or annoyance, they see easy prey.
Bit of a tangent, but I really hate how truecrime in general lionized
victims. Some of them really act heroically or just didn't have a chance, but many of them became
victims because of their own stupidity and stubbornness and I hate to hear about how poor an innocent they were in all of it, just because it ended up with them dead in the ground. Yeah, I'm sure the drug addict prostitute with a fetish for violent gangsters was the very best and most loving mother for her children whom she regularly abandoned at her ma's to go smoke meth with gangbangers.
No. 1581904
>>1581827>That's literally my concern, the affection being gone, I've never seen an old couple who are still affectionate to each other.Regarding your concern, I just wanted to tell you that affection is not as volatile as love, and it's often more intimate. A couple's affection is expressed in many ways, and changes over time. You can't be sure that there was no affection, especially when you have an outside perspective, unless the moid is downright awful.
I know how tempting it is to choose the worst thought when you are afraid but you shouldn't burden yourself with that
>I'm sure most women in an affectionless marriage now once thought they were choosing a moid who wouldn't ignore them and treat them like they're worthless when they're older. Many people make mistakes when it comes to choosing a partner, often because they are blinded by feelings. Being lucid from the start about your own compatibility with the other person is already a sure way to lower the risk of being with a jerk. And that's all, the next step is a big leap of faith, hoping you will keep your right mind to get out if things turn for the worse.
>I don't and wouldn't do that, I've only ever had one boyfriend and I wouldn't date or be intimate with someone I didn't think had the same goal as me of a long term relationship.Sorry for the misunderstanding, I wasn't aiming at you. It's just my thought regarding the futility of leaving your long-term partner once the love is no more.
Ultimately I just wanted to show you a bit of light about this topic. I do hope you will find your perfect moid nona
No. 1581920
>>1581913Sewing AND wearing the clothes >
I love making my own clothing!
No. 1581924
>>1581883I hate your second take no offense, a lot of these
victims are actually sweet and kind and don't imagine the horrors which shouldn't mean they deserve to be killed. That's
victim blamey as shit anon and not the cute take you hoped for
No. 1581932
>>1581924I don't mean they deserve to be killed for being stupid lowlifes, I mean that there's very clear cause and effect relationships that go entirely unaddressed because "
victim blaming bad". In most day to day cases the
victim can actually do many things to improve their situation and that's why I think blasting people 24/7 with holy virgin turn the other cheek propaganda is actively harmful. These people are NOT taken advantage of because they are morally superior to others, but because they are intellectually inferior and these people need to extra look out and ask people they can trust about big decisions AND LISTEN, they don't need to hear "You're an angel for putting up with your drunk piece of shit of a boyfriend and god will reward you in heaven for doing the most servile thing possible in every situation".
No. 1581944
>>1581932I understand your point now nonna, i'm sorry i just got
triggered by the first half of your initial message
No. 1581985
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I'm really confused by other women who say that they don't/wouldn't mind "trans women" in their female-only spaces. In my gym, the female changing rooms often have other women walking around nude sometimes in the shower and sauna areas. When it's just women there, none of us mind and it doesn't feel awkward at all. But when there is a male electrician or worker in there fixing the aircon etc the entire dynamic changes. You can't change next to your locker anymore, and no woman uses the sauna when there's a "male electrician working here" sign up. So thinking about these every day examples, it's really weird and tbh I find it completely unbelievable that handmaidens say they personally wouldn't mind troons in their spaces. Even when I was a libfem I still felt uncomfortable about the idea of a male coming into a female-only space. It's really fucking annoying to have irl interactions with women who think I am insane and hateful for saying that I don't want any male in these types of spaces.
No. 1581989
>>1581985The MSM says 24/7 that trans people pass and you will never know, so these MSM NPC people believe that transwomen are real women that look just like any other woman and the worst thing they have to deal with is an extremely flamboyant homosexual.
I was one of them until I started to immerse myself in trans culture (autistic focus, don't judge#) and started to learn what they really are, what their movement is really about.
Most people never do that, so when they hear about tranny child rapist#34563465 getting arrested they say that's not a true and honest tranny and they never even heard about him being put in a female proison because MSM will of course hush that up.
No. 1582021
>>1582000Moids will be moids
They take out their anger on others because they are spineless moids
Hopefully you can move out soon, even just finding a room with others or something and let him suffer alone
No. 1582022
>>1577621Break up with your boyfriend
Sounds he uses you as a sleeve
No. 1582042
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i hate zoomers, i hate corporations, i hate ai, i hate phones, i hate techbros
No. 1582056
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>be me on a date
>we start talking about the internet
>4chan comes up (forget if it was me or the guy who brought it up)
>we joke around about it and guy jokingly asks if i "have an account on 4chan"
>tell him that you don't make accounts on 4chan because it's anonymous
>proceeds to make fun of me the rest of the night for being an incel just for having basic level information about an anonymous imageboard
Holy fuck. I still think back on that date and cringe so much. I know I was retarded for actually answering his question seriously, but he was talking out of his ass about shit he knew nothing about and being so smug about it so I just wanted to correct him so bad. God I regret it so much. I also didn't think it'd be a big deal if he knew that I browsed it occasionally, but he kept bringing it up the whole time and it made me feel like such a loser (he actually called me a loser multiple times kek). It'd be one thing if he actually browsed or knew what he was talking about (I actually went on a date with a guy before who browsed it occasionally and he was way nicer even if he was more socially awkward/less attractive), but from the way he talked about it I could tell he literally knew nothing about it other than what he's read on Reddit or some shit like that. So it pissed me off because how could he be judgmental about something he barely knew anything about? I know it's my fault since I could have just pretended I had no idea what he was talking about. And the worst part is I even texted him after that date to see if he wanted to hang out again and he ghosted me. I've learned my lesson though. I don't talk to men anymore and also I'm trying not be as much of a retarded sperg. I wish I could just erase that whole experience from my memory.
No. 1582084
>>1582059i have it too and it's truly a fucking nightmare. There are meds that can relieve it a little if that's something you're comfortable with and therapy has helped me more than i expected.
i hope it eases up anon, i wish i had better advice
No. 1582113
>>1582060I honestly have no idea. I think he was the first guy I'd ever been on a date with who I actually thought was attractive so I guess that really blinded me. And he said everything vin a joking manner so it didn't register to me at the time how rude he was being. But I've learned my lesson so I won't repeat that mistake.
>>1582071Kek that's a good way to put it. It's a little cringe to think about because I feel like I was powerlevelling and so maybe I deserved to be made fun of it for that.
>>1582091Thanks noni. I beat myself up over that date for being a sperg, but you're right that even if I was being somewhat lame that his response to what I was saying probably wasn't justified. And yes, I always thought browsing imageboards isn't that niche of a hobby. I've met a couple of guys irl in random areas of my life who browsed (or used to browse) 4chan occasionally and they were totally normal about it when I said that I used to browse too.
No. 1582122
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my ex boyfriend who had a huge fight with me about 4 days ago and left, is now parked outside of my house in his car. no idea how long he has been there or will be there for
No. 1582126
>>1582123Oh shut up
>>1582122Lock him in the garage with the engine on
No. 1582140
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Gay men love to claim they aren't misogynistic solely because they aren't attracted to women but the amount of terminally online men being no different and at times worse than straight men continues to increase. I don't understand the obsession they have with women explicitly because they don't even have physical interest in them–yet they are the driving force behind hundreds of edits of female pop singers that are meant to highlight their weight or make them look mentally handicapped. Why be so hyperfixated on women when you don't even fucking like them, they aren't your barbie dolls. Don't get me started on how so many of them almost exclusively use mentally unwell or deficient women as reaction images. Lovelypeaches, trisha paytas, etc basically any woman that is overweight or sexually degrading themselves in some way, they save hundreds of pictures of them and use them on Twitter despite the fact that they NEVER do the same to men and pretend they care about ableism when it comes to men. Truly pathetic losers.
No. 1582159
>>1582157thanks nona i was having a good night and this just really destroyed it, gotta try and shake it off
>>1582153the shadows told me this wasn’t true and you’re a stinky poopoo liar
No. 1582169
>>1582140Many of them are jealous.
>>1582152Was it a woman? I wonder if he sent someone. If he is seeing a woman, he might be trying to triangulate you guys or whatever it is called.
>>1582056This is called negging. I usually peep it and immediately look for an escape route.
He's now trying to ignore you until x amount of time when he texts you back, to which you'll feel slightly elated (please don't), and he can use this to keep you around. Don't fall for it. It's so cringe of him. When he texts you back, which he likely will, then block him.
No. 1582287
>>1582221You might be onto something. I only dated someone I didn't like that much and we didn't sleep together. Maybe my insanity is from not getting laid.
Here's to both of us being normal someday.
No. 1582371
>>1582180She always looks like she is going to cry and really unstable, that she has no personality except "cali girl" and she follows whatever other asians do to fit in with them and whatever is trendy on youtube to fit in there and she has no real dreams or goals or purpose and it's killing her inside.
So a typical californian
No. 1582388
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I like to look good first and foremost for myself. But I do enjoy the attention from men/ envy from women and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. An ego boost is good at times.
Will I ever be as beautiful as Adriana Lima? Fuck no. But that doesn't mean I'm going to wallow and let myself become a goblin.
No matter how depressed or shitty I feel, I like to do at least a minimal skincare routine, keep my nails clean and tidy and find time to exercise at least a bit. This stuff makes me happy and keeps depression away. I slipped once really,really badly and I don't want to be in that mental space fucking ever again, one of the worst moments of my life.
No. 1582403
>>1582388Most people aren't even envious of Adriana Lima, they just think she's beautiful and that's nice and all then move on with their lives, and you expect me to believe people feel envious of
you?
No. 1582404
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The women who are dogpiling and attacking so-called "Karens" because these "Karens" are actually being assaulted and harassed and made to feel uncomfortable by non-white men: you will change your mind so fucking quick when it comes to you eventually facing the same situation. Tired of seeing sheltered libfems throwing other women under the bus because sniffing the cock of violent Muslims or black men is more important to them than protecting the safety and autonomy of other women. None of you retards have ever even listened to what black women, muslim women etc go through at the hands of these men and it shows. You are all traitors and the same men you're bootlicking would sooner see you exploited in porn or become another femicide statistic rather than fight for your liberation.
No. 1582410
>>1582404funny you say this because just yesterday i saw a video of some canadian woman being filmed by a muslim (?) man and everyone in the comments was defending HIM
there've been so many cases of white women brutally assaulted/murdered/rape by non-white men, it's fucking vile to defend them
i'm from a small city where everyone is white (nonUSA) but I've been seeing immigrants lately ,10-15 years ago the only black girl/guy you'd see was the occasional exchange student
France , UK , Germany have already been fucked by multiculturalism, I hope this shit doesn't spread to the few European countries who didnt buy into this meme
No. 1582416
>>1582404This is very accurate and I agree with you. Especially how black women will collectively agree that black men are a plague- and they're right. And most muslim males are cancerous as well.
I will say Asian men (East Asia + India) aren't as violent as a whole in the West but many are still weird/pervs (see bobs vagene memes) but I've never been harassed by Asian men the same way black moids or muslim moids have harassed me. Sometimes mexican moids. The way so many women will throw themselves infront of a train for moids who would enjoy if are as cancerous.
It's a plague and I look to move to safer, less black/muslim/mexican regions due to this.
No. 1582446
I really hate how so many of my interests, style, and life goals kind of coincide with the influx of conservative, "retvrn", racist "they're wiping out the white civilization!1!!!!11!", faux intellectual, misogynistic, manosphere, hyper religious, tinfoiler communities all across the 'net. It's like they're the only people in the internet really talking about this stuff, and now even if I post about those things on lolcow I run the risk of someone accusing me of being a "tradwife".
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>>1582404Reminds me of the post, might have been from r/aita, where a women was in a store, maybe a gas station or convenience store, being sexually harassed and followed around it by a black male even after telling him to GTFO. The other people in there witnessed this and said nothing despite her telling him to leave her alone numerous times. She then finally called him a nigger and everyone turned on her, saying she was out of bounds how dare she etc etc. Where was their concern when she was being harassed by this scrote? Not a single word or action came from the onlookers, they let him get away with it.
I think these people are scared that the violent males will turn on them which is why they do nothing or screech about the male's innocence and blame other women for being unreasonable after being accosted by those scrotoids.
No. 1582548
>>1582513Yep nonna I was following the updates and seeing many people still not apologise or take back their hostile and violent comments about her made me so fucking miserable. It already makes me miserable to see women not believed in general regardless of their race ofc, but between this "Karen" and the young autistic deaf woman who was bullied off the internet just a few weeks prior and called racist because she displayed visible discomfort after being randomly touched by a strange black man who was recording shit for Tiktok, it has made me so angry. Society tells women to be defensive and stand up for themselves yet when the man doing the attacking is not white and/or homeless suddenly the woman is the one to blame. It's absolutely insane, I guess I can't expect anything else from a society that turned the term "Karen" which was originally meant for genuinely racist white women into using it for women who dare to express emotion at muh precious kang trying to steal their shit or assault them.
>When a homeless guy rapes and murders grannyKek, right, the amount of "marxist" women I've seen defending homeless moids is crazy. I always ask them directly to invite homeless men into their home and give them a meal and see how wholesome it turns out to bootlick a demographic of typically drug-addicted and violent moids. And surprise surprise, it's crickets when it comes to how homeless moids treat homeless women…
No. 1582551
>>1582530>>1582515Holy shit this is crazy, I've never seen this post before. Just further proof that misogyny is so old and so innate in human society that people don't even bat an eye at disgusting terms and behaviour directed towards women. Congrats to this based woman for standing up for herself and biting back, if he didn't want to be called a slur attributed to him then maybe he shouldn't be going around calling using female-oriented slurs and making a woman feel unsafe. Fucking degenerates, honestly. Why can't moids just leave us alone and stop playing
victim for once in their lives.
No. 1582572
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Why do I often meet men who seem to be threatened by the fact I know something they don't know? One guy literally told me he likes when women are dumber than him. Or a guy meets me and is visibly attracted to me and the more we talk the more he withdraws from me, until he basically stops talking to me. And those are guys with master's degree. I'm not even college educated, but my general knowledge is definitely above average, and that's just because I'm just an autist who's interested in literally everything so I always read a lot since I was a kid, like archeology books when I was 6 years old, and I know many random stuff from physics and history to curious facts about animals, or philisophy or european art house cinema or video games or sports or plants or various cultures around the world and mythology and other shit, like we have this joke at my work place that when someone can't remember some fact about something they always come to me because I know for sure kek. School was a nightmare for me and after graduating high school I never wanted to enter the education system again. I know that education and degrees are very important to normal people, so I never thought that someone with a literal master's degree could be threatened by an autist, at least they act like they are. I don't get it. Also I noticed they assume that I for sure studied something and when they ask me for my degree and I say I never went to college they're surprised. So maybe my lack of higher education is the problem for them? I don't know anymore
No. 1582589
>>1582572men don't like women who are smarter than them and that's a fact, it's intimidating
I've seen it a lot of times when a girl/woman would play the silly girl part for her lover because otherwise he'd be threatened
No. 1582596
>>1582590>i can do my own laundry and cookMales don't even do this anymore. The only providing they want to do is with money but then they can't even do that.
>>1582589This is such a blackpill, you can't even be yourself around moids or they'll hate you.
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No. 1582627
>>1582572I'm alright with admitting I'm not well educated on alot of topics. I'm not into getting into debates. There's a handful of topics (nothing even that important or relevant to most peoples lives) that I have obsessions with. I'll read everything I can find on those things for years on end in private. I know the whole autist stereotype is "oh I bet you talk AT people about your interests and bore them to death with it" so I make sure to keep it to myself. But then I feel like any time a bf encourages you to actually talk about that rando thing you're a walking encyclopedia on..
> Mentions one cool fact about thing > Hahaha nonnie theres no way thats true! > I'm pretty sure it is but hey maybe google it, I'm open to being wrong > Guy googles, scrolls, scrolls, gets huffy, goes into silent treatment mode but keeps scrolling, refuses to say what he found, wont even move on or change topic because he now needs time to.. calm down?On shit where it really doesn't matter. Its nothing deep. They're topics that most people don't gaf about anyway. If even I'm not getting heated and these are 'my interests' then why tf would someone with no investment in the topic care so much.
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These are the ultimate cathartic threads. A wonderful place to blow-off steam. I feel much better after doing so, here. I love and trust you guys. It's nice to feel safe and secure. The shield of anonymity adds an extra layer of comfort as well.
Bless all of you beautiful people!
No. 1582650
I was just email template rejected from the job I was really gunning for. Not unemployed yet, another week to go, but it's hitting me with a force that I forgot just HOW shitty being unemployed is. This one I spent a lot of effort on the application, cover letter, did some hunting to find the responsible person then send them a personal email after a while of no response to get the blanket rejection.
Like hello?? I'm a good fit and actually WANT the job but I'm not even given the effort of, never mind a face to face meeting/interview, but maybe a personalised rejection from the one I emailed directly? No? I'm remembering now that I daily will have to face these indignities where bitches won't even TALK to me but I need to keep putting a consistent amount of effort forward. I think I (and many others) make this mistake of thinking that because a job is easy to do, then a job is easy to get, and they play down in our memories how hard it was while searching and interviewing. This will be the third time I've been unemployed and I keep forgetting just how bad it is kek
Like oh, they don't want a jobseeker who's desperate and YET, will non stop degrade people just trying to earn a living, making them jump through CRAZY hoops if they even acknowledge them in the first place. Ah but no, being jobless is having the easy life. Not having secured hours to make a set amount of money and generally being regarded as an equal in society. I remember when I got my first proper job, working properly for about 2 hours and slacking the rest, I was in disbelief that I thought it would be difficult. Unlike being employed I'll need to be on my A game always in case I get a phone call or short notice interview, and using my own initiative to seek out chances.
No. 1582729
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I am so sick of thieves, users and abusive assholes. I swear I set off predators alarm bells and bring out the violent angry savage cave person out of people and I am just tired of it. Pic related.
No. 1582737
I'm so fucking tired of being lonely. I feel like I have to to force any interaction, if I don't work on keeping contact, it will be gone, like no one actually wants me in their life, they're just ok with me being there, sometimes. I'm also unable to being emotionally close to someone, I mean, I had one opportunity and basically I ruined it with being unable to self soothe, establish my boundaries and respect other's. I just want someone to talk to about my interests and for them to tell me about their day, not love, not being cared about, I don't think I could ever have that. But a chill casual friends, that you catch up with once in a while, it shouldn't be that hard to have something like that, but it is, and I'm so hurt and bitter about it
No. 1582747
>>1582743Yup. Thank goodness for archived sites like
https://archive.org/web/ but yeah, sad.
No. 1582749
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Madonna is so scary now.
No. 1582777
>>1582773It's okay
nonny, don't be so hard on yourself. I struggle with this anxiety a lot, so do many other people. Beating yourself up about it is only going to add another layer of shame and anxiety, so try not to judge yourself too harshly (I need to take my own advice fr lol).
No. 1582810
>>1582780I decided last year that during June I will minimise my social media consumption as much as possible and spend most of my time focusing on my hobbies or learning new things. Honestly it was a blast and June passed by really quickly.
I have even more hobbies and an ambitious project and I managed to alter my tiktok to show me edits of my husbando.
The spicy straights can’t do shit to me now
No. 1582845
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I don't know why but having to live in society is very tiring for me. I was a neet for about 3 years and now I've gotten into college and I can't stand having to interact with people anymore. Even on weekends I have to answer someone over the phone. I've never been one to have many friends, currently I have 3 (?) relatively close friends and it's a pain to have to interact with them, I feel totally suffocated. Today is saturday and I spent the whole day without using the phone or social media and it was liberating for me. Am I just suffering from the consequences of capitalism or is this some mental disorder or something? I love my friends but I feel suffocated (especially one I've been hanging out with this whole week in college, this girl won't leave me alone I keep hoping she'll get tired of me eventually). Tomorrow I'm going to turn my cell phone back on to check my social media and I'm hoping she didn't send me any messages for me to reply. These days I even mentioned to my mother that I wanted to change colleges and start a new life and meet other people. I can not take it anymore.
No. 1582871
the guy who child-on-child diddled me had a freakout to his mom on me today
basement dwelling, greasy, fugly mother fucker apparently got mad over an argument i had, refused to specify, and now him and his mom cut me out of their life kek. good fucking riddance.
i'm only worried because my mom is her best friend and if his mom rats to mine (unlikely) i fear the worst.
this guy is uber misogynistic and homophobic and has fantasies about killing lesbians in particular, with firearms in his house, fantasizing about killing us online. and lives nearby. very fucking scary.
No. 1582886
>>1582806Lesbians are the true minorities, even do we are the only ones who do anything good in gay community.
>>1582810That's a good idea. I think I will do the same for June.
No. 1582945
>>1582932The only good reason to date older men is IF they have money AND ARE SPENDING IT on you.
It's cringe to have feelings for moids especially geriatrics.
No. 1582972
>>1582904im the one who vented about that, you're correct, my mom is friends with his mom, its been well over 10 years and only just now has he & his mom decided to cut contact.
i have no fucking idea if they'll ever come back, but considering our parents have been buddy-buddy since before i was even born, it's a matter of time until her clinically insane son forces himself back into my life no matter what i do
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Just when you thought it was safe to go back into the video game water.
No. 1582998
>>1582994How am I threatening to kill myself if I’m genuinely suicidal? You’re the one making all sorts of disgusting assumptions saying the way I feel is “theatrics” and “dramatics”. Like you’re actually making me want to kms more the way you doubt my sincerity/pain and egg it on.
>>1582995Ha you think but those jobs also won’t hire me, I’ve tried and they prefer people with retail/food service experience which I don’t have.
No. 1583002
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it might be nothing but I'm very worried because some money that was supposed to be coming in the mail hasn't come…it's now been over two weeks. I was going to use it to afford a medical device I desperately need for my condition, I barely feel alive right now. Being poor fuckin sucks.
No. 1583044
>>1578405same. moved out of my parents' house for my mental health. i guess my mental health improved insofar as i'm not getting routinely
triggered thanks to my ptsd. and there's a lot of opportunity for the future. but i don't feel like doing anything anymore. i just want to get focused on a hobby and do it forever. i very rarely go outside.
before i moved out i was very motivated to cook, but now i'm going through weeks where i get doordash every day, and i don't even wanna know how much money is getting wasted on that.
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Briefly went outside to free some moths and it's been so long since I've been outside, it's nice to breath some fresh air, I'm a trapped bird I'm trapped here
No. 1583079
>>1579535If you have enough for the new apartment without the roommate, go for it. The quality of life increase will make you more likely to be more productive and earn more money etc.
>>1577653Which leg is it? I hope all will be okay.
No. 1583112
>>1583110it gonna be alright
nonnie. you will make it out of this and go home. can you contact someone from your family or friends to help you? if not, it's better to wait until it stops raining and continue but stay calm and pay attention to the road path.
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>>1583117I always found that funny, same when they go "if you like/did X, let me know so I can block you", or some iteration of that. It is one of the most retarded behaviors one can engage in.
The advent of social media has truly screwed up people's ability to function properly
No. 1583182
>>1583170I don't think therapy would be good for you, you sound like one of those people who would use what they learn there to excuse your behaviours.
See: how you're already talking about "attachment" to two people as some mechanism and not your conscious choice which it is.
Also
>regulate my nervous systemDrop the quasi-medical speech, you don't have cancer, you're just in a shit relationship.
No. 1583198
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I am too scared and ashamed of my own art to open commissions again and it drives me crazy. My artwork is not too bad, but i feel terrified of being judged or turning out to be useless, despite seeing people with lower skill than mine pull bigger prices. I need to get money asap as a lot of things in my place are broken. Goddamit. Stupid mind.
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it's so humiliating but i'm in bed rn crying genuine tears because i'm not as good as i thought i was in the game i play lol. i slap the people in my rank without issue, but anyone above my rank just destroys me. the vast skill difference between just one rank is so incredibly depressing to me. i just want to be the player i dreamed of being as a kid
No. 1583209
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I feel like nothing is special anymore. I listen to stories of people going to blockbusters, talking to the employees, discussing which movies to pick, and it sounds so fun, like a whole experience. Scrolling 30 minutes on netflix to choose the least shit option and bing watching it in a day is so boring. I want to be actually excited for something instead of being more excited for the shitfest like all of the live action Disney movies. I also hear stories of teens or college students in the 90s going to forests or abandoned places to do weed, and it honestly sounds so cool. I dont even smoke weed. I stopped seeing all my friends because it was so boring. I swear there is nothing to do anymore, I am tired of watching a movie with these fuckers and them pulling out their phone. I wish i was born earlier, this timeline sucks.
No. 1583241
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>>1583209How old are you? I'm too young to have experience these things myself but I'm old enough to have seen how things have very slowly transitioned to being offline and sanitized while growing up and I get what you mean. I can't believe I'm going to say this but I miss when good movies and series were on TV and you were looking forward to the next episode the next day or the next week with everyone else. That's how I experienced anime as a kid and then teenager, the worst part was that not everyone had access to these channels so I had nobody to talk to about these shows irl but small forums and blogs online were comfy as fuck. That trend of remaking or rebooting popular shows and only making soulless sequels sucks ass too, fuck Disney and Netflix in particular for that. This also applies to video games somewhat but they have better excuses given how technology and the console and video game market work. I think something similar to how you described blockbusters would be small second hand shops. I always go to that same small retro game shop in my city and now I always make small talk with the employees and we recommend each other JRPGs and visual novels the few times I go there. Are there second hand bookshops and DVD stores? The ones I go to seem to have sellers who like to recommend stuff to customers, especially to casuals who have no clue what to look for and they tend to be nice from my experience. You probably won't get something like that from a big chain store that sells everything at the same time.
>I stopped seeing all my friends because it was so boring.Same, life got in the way for all of us to begin with but I stopped making that extra effort to see each other irl and they stopped long before me too. I'm sure we'll watch Barbie together once the movie gets released but before that we just make small talk online. I feel like if we met in middle or high school instead of uni we would have wanted to see movies together way more often. Now we work fulltime since we graduated and some of them moved abroad.
No. 1583353
>>1583324I'm opposite of that
nonnie, I love my body but hate my face and don't want a child to end up looking like me or my family members and remind me of them. They were horrible to me. I thought maybe getting a very different looking father would diversify the genes but I am still worried, and pregnancy and childbirth itself is extremely unappealing to me.
No. 1583354
>>1568614Idk if it counts cause it’s stupid but my coworker tried to touch me but it was weird? Like he’s been tryna grab me from behind n tickle me so I told him to fuck off cause I’ll hit him and I don’t like it considering it’s work. So we talked about it and he apologized and I didn’t wanna make it a bigger issue bc whatever he stopped. While tonight we were drinking and he showed up. He got rly deep cause he was drunk tellin me w bunch of deep ass childhood trama. We’ll I guess one of the things that happened
(He’s not V good w English) he was talking me about it and went to explain what happened. he tried to grab me and rub me like down there to show what happened to him but it was like weird n I pushed him off me and was like no wtf I don’t like that fuck off lol. He apologized n everything and felt bad but I’m just so grossed out I don’t even wanna go to work tomorrow. Just wanted to get it out I feel like shit.
No. 1583359
>>1583267Wanna hear some fucked up boy mom shit?
My brother was ab absolute fuck up mess, still is actually, caused so much stress and wreaked havoc on us all. Stealing money, stealing personal items to sell, using this money for various drugs, had drug dealers smashing up our mailbox and windows, dropout, attempted suicide, holes in the walls, slept with an underage girl and the parents cane raging at our house when I was 14, and btw both my parents before this were in and out of the hospital, on meds, can't afford the stress. The loser has so many diseases too. I was doing well in school, music, sports, many friends and it started affecting my mental health. Oh and despite trying to get a job no where would take me and I was blamed for not having money, blamed for not cleaning up messes he made, and yelled at for locking my door despite him breaking into it anyway because I marked the door with tape knew when someone entered to steal my things again.
And one day I have food for myself, at a time I started to be neglected and had to hide food for myself, and he tried to steal my entire pizza which is all I had for that day, and I refused and he beat me up, pulled a knife snd said he would kill me, I am a dumb bitch for crying over a pizza, in the end he didn't get it from me. He said don't tell anyone. I went to tell my mother later, it was difficult, she refused to even look at me and said this exactly "Well your brother says you pulled a knife on him. So I don't know who to believe." And silence. I was like believe me.. but it hurt so much I gave up.
I already hated them for a while but this actually killed me completely, I was extremely mean to them all after this, I realized I had no family, I had no one.
That bitch is dead and I am glad. She was probably sick her whole life because she deserved it.
No. 1583377
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There are actually a lot of "blackpill"/radfem fujoshi, shotacons, fetishists, etc. I don't really know how to parse this observation. I think it's better for any sort of "weird" woman to not troon out, and I don't have a huge problem with any of those groups (except for the ones who are actual groomers and the "I'm a lesbian and I fantasize about women/girls getting raped" sadists, most of which have some sort of callout post), but it's really weird seeing one general outlook on Lolcow, and then when I go into online radem spaces with western women, it's just something else entirely.
I assumed they were all trannies trying to make radfems look bad at first, but the ones I'm finding are actually part of the whole RF Twitter sphere, and people just talk to them like they're normal. I'm kind of rolling this around in my mind, I really don't know what to make of it.
No. 1583385
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I am so tired of having stupid little crushes on people I feel like fucking Sisyphus, I am okay on my own stupid brain STOP YEARNING FOR THE TOUCH OF ANOTHER
No. 1583415
I honestly thought walking around so much at my new job compared to my old job would take the edge off of my neuroticism. It really hasn't. Like, my body seems to have adjusted to normally moving around 12k steps a day compared to 3k steps before. I've been here for a month now and it's quick to adjust so fast. Along with that, my diet has stayed about the same, but my weight averages at 3lbs more than before. This might be muscle, but goddamn, it's hitting my body dysmorphia. The neuroticism, I still want to cry every week and my brain keeps on with the catastrophic surrounding me and my boyfriend. If I'm really feeling lonely for a day, I hyperfocus on his actions just for that day, even though none of his actions changed from before and I'm like, "Why aren't you looking at me more?" "Why aren't you watching me do x?" Maybe just on that particular day I want attention more than others and I need to better communicate it, but I'm seeing myself act a little retarded for attention and seeing it frustrate me witnessing it.
No. 1583416
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I was supposed to go on a date with a moid on Friday, but he’s finishing med school and his schedule is fucked up so he couldn’t leave the hospital until like 10:45 P.M. and we had to cancel/postpone it. He said he still really wanted to see me, and told me he was going to try and take me out for dinner on Saturday (aka yesterday). So yesterday came and he vanished, didn’t say a word, still hasn’t said a word so essentially he ghosted me. I’m not particularly upset because I barely knew him and was more excited for the date because HE seemed really excited and just couldn’t stop talking about how much he wanted to see me (he specifically begged me not to “forget about him” if we couldn’t see each other this weekend). So yeah, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, lately I have been having terrible luck with men and I don’t understand why, I’m not weird towards them or anything like that, and I’m not ugly either so I really don’t know. I think I will become a nun.
No. 1583453
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Nonnies, I managed to rent a room in a town where it's very hard to find something decent. At first the owner wanted 600 euro a month (he's a turkish guy btw), I've only seen the janny of the house and I asked the janny if he thinks it would be possible to lower the rent to like 550 euro and he was like no way. He also told me to send the photo of my ID to the owner. I sent it and now, two days later, the owner sent me a message which basically goes like this
>I have good news for you, the rent will be 550. But don't tell anyone about it or I will raise it to 600
And I'm immediately going into schizo mode. What if he thinks now I owe him something and he will try to get into my pants or something? Isn't it fishy? Also we are supposed to sign a contract on June 1st and now I wonder if the rent in the contract will be 600 or 550? What do I do if the rent on the paper is higher than the one we actually agreed on? Or maybe I'm worried for no reason?
No. 1583561
>>1583039>>1583045 Okay, so I confronted the issue by saying this. I have a feeling it made it worse because she’s been online but just straight up isn’t responding.
“I’m nervous about addressing this, because I could be overthinking, but
I just want to be absolutely clear about one thing. I don’t know if I made you feel uncomfortable with that one conversation in vent, and if you didn’t feel uncomfortable then I’m just worrying too much.
But if you did, I’m really sorry. That vent wasn’t about you, but I completely understand if you interpreted as being somewhat about you or evidence of some weird plan I have that doesn’t exist. It was moreso about the “real deal” person that would come along in the future, whenever I’d have the courage to make that happen. I know I said some pretty disagreeable things, but don’t apply what I said to you. I don’t have some secret agenda where I don’t actually view you as a friend or are trying to make you love me. I’m over you anyway. You were kind of a weird exception that tends to happen with people I meet online rather than irl and I never went into this friendship thinking “oh im going to make her fall for me!!1!” or whatever. That would be stupid. You seem paranoid of me lately but I kind of understand why. I just wanted to make that clear so you’re not taking anything the wrong way. I don’t have any like, “goals” or whatever. I don’t want it to be like that.
I kinda hope we never have to address this again and we can just be friends (albeit, probably not super close ones) without being at each other’s throats like last time. I want to address this just to get rid of any tension if there’s any to begin with.
If you have any other issue, please just tell me. I won’t be offended.”
No. 1583613
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i often write a reply, but get insecure and don't post it. it's never anything inflammatory even, just a normal reply, but i think it's useless and just leave the page. i'm like this irl, i've always been like that. i wish being social came easier and more natural to me sometimes, i obviously crave it, yet i am so scared, and it's much easier to be alone and keep to myself. i'm also exhausted, so it's making me feel worse about this than usual, i will feel better tomorrow
No. 1583667
>>1583654Really all I did was say something along the lines of “Its hard for me to see myself in a relationship with someone who is a friend” which people began interpreting as “youre only going into relationships with relationships in mind which isnt good and youre going to end up unhappy” which is what her gf responded weirdly to. It’s what I’m apologizing for.
The passive aggressive shit happened before that. Nothing happened before that.
No. 1583698
>>1583676You are assuming all these things that arent true.
Heres how what she said could be easily misconstrued:
>the audiobook conversation basically went like “hey i like your audiobook” “thanks i deleted it” she couldve meant that as a benign type of thing, like she deleted it before i commented on it and i didnt notice.
>as for the pfp, basically what happened was that me and her had sort of matching pfps because of this mbti joke we made. Then her gf decided to have matching pfps with her so all 3 of us sort of had matching pfps. It make sense they would both change because thats awkward, albeit an accident. I changed mine as well. No. 1583722
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every year immediately regret that I didn't get laser hair removal during the winter so I could enjoy my summer without worrying about shaving. I always get ingrown hairs from shaving and epilators are to painful no matter how much I do it and waxing doesn't work because I'm too stupid to do it right. Hair removal cream works but my hair grows m fast so it's only useful for a day. I also feel like I'm too old to laser hair removal anyway. shouldve done it years ago ugh
>just embrace your natural self and stop shaving
there still is a huge stigma around hairy women to a point where most women find it easier to troon out than to stop shaving. Besides I have shit genes so I'm hairier than the average womanI actually looked up charts made by doctors about body hair and mine is not normal. it's not me comparing myself to shooped actors I think even the most hardcore radfem would be grossed out by the amount of body hair I have
No. 1583728
I always knew he wasn’t the one but I need to vent a little because even when I know someday this will end, I just need to get it out of my chest. I didn’t tell anyone around me because I wanted to protect him and the opinion they have about him but I know it’s not worth it.
I come from a really toxic family environment and my parent’s relationship was truly fucked up. Of course I ended up being with someone who totally controlled me since the first moment but I couldn’t see it in the beginning.
I changed the way I acted, the way I thought, the way I interacted with everyone around me. And it was never enough, I was never enough.
We had a big argument around Christmas and that was the first moment in more than 10 years that I thought that I couldn’t do it anymore but more importantly that I didn’t WANT to do it anymore.And lately I keep reminding why it can’t work anyways.
When my grandmother died, he wasn’t there for me. He told me he could help me picking up stuff from her house but when the moment came, he told me he couldn’t be bothered because we had to do a few trips to get everything.
When we were abroad in a different country, he told to take a photo but I didn’t take it as he wanted so he started to tell me how useless I was and that I always did the same and then he left me alone at a museum. Of course he came back like 15 minutes later, when I was already having a panic attack because I couldn’t believe he would do that to me while on holidays, when we were supposed to have a good time.
I went for a one day trip with one of my best friends, something that we planned along for months and I wouldn’t be gone for more than 20 hours. 30 minutes before he had to get me to the airport, he got mad because of a shirt I was wearing. He complained about how I never dressed like that for him (I did, indeed). I knew it was just an excuse to get mad at me. Still, I had to put on a facade with my best friend and pretend to have a good time when he didn’t respond any of my text messages or my calls all day. Also, he didn’t pick me up from the airport. Our flight was delayed and we arrived at 2 A.M. No one could pick me up and he knew it. When I took a taxi and I arrived home, he was eating something in our kitchen and didn’t even look at me.
Two weeks ago I had a car accident. It wasn’t that bad but I truly hurt my back. Since then, I can barely move without feeling pain and I’ll probably need a surgery to get better. He saw me crawling on the floor the other day because the pain was unbearable and he proceeded to tell me that I was just making a fool of myself, how ridiculous the situation was and that he was starting to think that I was just faking it to piss him off.
Right now I was going upstairs to get something and I was just making discomfort noises because today is not a good day for my body. His response? “Yeah yeah we know you’re hurting and that your back is in pain blablabla you’re exhausting and tiring, you know that? Why don’t you go to another place to suffer in silence?”
I wish I had told someone something sooner. Now I feel trapped and I know someday I’ll be capable of getting out of here but still hurts because I love someone who doesn’t deserve it and my mind can’t understand it most of the time.
No. 1583730
>>1583676Update: she understands and said she didnt mean to come off as aggressive. It was just a series of coincidences she admits were kinda weird.
Can you guys stop saying Im a creep? Im not listening to this conversation. Thanks.
No. 1583731
I thought becoming an entrepreneur would be a good thing for me, but it's fucking soulless work and it's slowly destabilising my entire life. I get up at 5am about six days a week so I can do some yoga, get a work out in and then cook my wife and I breakfast before she leaves for work. After that I'm up 'til about 10pm-1am monitoring stock markets, crypto markets, exchange rates, sports news and betting odds; the most boring shit known to man while I chain-smoke, fill myself full of caffeine and sugar and abuse my medication. Things I had previously stopped doing prior to "becoming my own boss". The more money I make, the more it has a death grip on me. The more long term plans I make like retiring my mother, retiring my stepmother, trust funds for my sisters, trust funds for my future kids, etc, the more hours I put in than what I should. Motivation is a good thing, sure, but I've become obsessed. Funny thing is I've made more money than I ever thought I would. I should be loving life right now! But I'm paranoid it's not enough. The world is so destabilised atm and I'm hyper-aware of that because I'm watching markets all day. I've become paranoid as fuck. Seeing people similar to me speedrun bankruptcy reminds me how risky this business is. Regardless of money, though, the bottom line is that I'm not a good wife any more. Nor am I a good daughter, a good sister, or even a good friend. I guess my problem is I've always been obsessive about whatever I get into, so I've really thrown myself into this. And because I'm a stupid, stubborn bastard, I still work a couple days a week for a charity and do some sporadic volunteer work as well. Even when I'm doing that, though, I'm still checking financial shit on my phone whenever I get the chance. I'm never truly "off the clock" and it's obliterated my mental health. My life was so much better when I just worked my charity job and used my love of sports and the power of autism to make some money gambling on the side. My physical health has also taken a nosedive the past few days, and it's made me realise that this life is not sustainable. But I can't just give up on my goals like that. My mother shouldn't be working in her condition, and neither should my stepmother. I gotta show them how much I appreciate them. I gotta secure a good future for my sisters and potentially my children. If I even have any at this point, that is. Jesus Christ, my poor wife. I started this shit out with the best intentions to provide for her and our family. To give us a good life where we could work less and have more time to enjoy our life together, and instead I'm tearing our marriage apart. I miss the old us so fucking much.
No. 1583770
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>>1583766>Young rich men don’t want men don’t want mehuh
No. 1583777
>>1583774In my head
nonnie.
No. 1583790
>>1583728>He saw me crawling on the floor the other day because the pain was unbearable and he proceeded to tell me that I was just making a fool of myself, how ridiculous the situation was and that he was starting to think that I was just faking it to piss him off.It's ridiculous how mean it is, as if the other reasons were not already enough to dump this piece of shit scumfuck, you're in an
abusive relationship nona. It's a good thing you've mustered the courage to talk about it and realize you must leave him, but it has to be soon for your own good. How's your situation ? Are you independent enough to allow yourself to move out ?
No. 1583831
>>1583818Regardless of staff saying that they don't redtext every ban, it's honestly super clear that jannies use redtexts to show their bias. Otherwise it would make more sense to just redtext all banned posts. And they don't ban all participants in an infight either (I know because I've been in infights where I didn't get banned but other anons did)
And they can ban me for "take it to /meta/" idc, you guys are lousy and that board is barely used anyway.
No. 1583849
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>>1583827samefag, i wonder if there's a connection with that mod who banned the cancer anon and the anon who vented about racism
No. 1583863
I feel like my best friend won't stop subtweeting about me on twitter and I'm getting tired of it. Obviously the easy route is to confront her and tell her to knock that shit off, but I know it's going to spiral into a fight that I don't think is worth it. Yes she's my best friend but lately I've really been wondering if I want to continue our friendship. She's been tweeting every once in a while about how she's so tired of constantly having to reach out to friends and make plans otherwise she feels like she'll never see some people. I don't purposely ignore her and I don't maliciously plan to hang out every weekend with other friends to spite her and make her jealous. I just see and hang out with my other friends because I want to see them (and I rarely post on social media so it's not like I post things to shove them in her face).
I am truly just… tired. I just think it's the end of our friendship. We are growing into different people with different goals and different values and we are no longer who we were when we first met. The obvious answer is to just let the friendship fizzle out but because she's my best friend I know her very well, and I've seen her past friendships "fizzle out" before. They don't. She doesn't let them because when our ex friends started to pull away, she started confronting them and asking why they don't put in more effort to the friendship, why does she have to always plan things, why does she always have to initiate conversation. She would always vent to me about how they weren't pulling their weight in the friendship. I think they didn't want to outright say "I don't want to be friends anymore" but it all came to an ugly end anyway. All of her past friendships that I've seen end always end after a big fight or blow up. I used to always take her side, always think that they were just being rude and mean, but now I don't think that's the case anymore.
I know I should spare her the anxiety of me pulling away from her, but I hate confrontation and I really wish she would just let shit fizzle out naturally instead of taking offense and subtweeting at me just because I've been hanging out and talking with other people. I already know if it blows up into a fight she'll immediately bring up the fact that I keep seeing the same certain people all the time instead of her… and I'd like to hold my tongue and not just say "you're emotionally draining to be around and they are not!"
I feel like whenever we do hang out, I'm just going through the motions and only agreeing to it to appease her. I did hang out with her recently, a few times actually! but I feel like it's not enough for her. I feel like she won't feel like we're hanging out "enough" unless it's like the "good old days" when I used to basically see her every other week and sleep over at her place all the time. I would be totally fine if we just spoke once or twice a year, but she's the type of person that constantly has to be in touch with her friends. It's draining and I hate it.
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>>1583902I could be wrong but sage advice tends to meaning "thats sound advice" but maybe not
No. 1584040
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Who else's "friend group" was toxic growing up? and feel like it kind of fucked you up?
I mean online friend group ofc but it probably also applies to off line..
When I was 14 I stumbled across that small imageboard which was kind of a constant circle jerk/bullying/trolling cycle.
Somehow I felt intrigued and drawn to it as a friendless loser. I think I ended up sexualizing myself a lot and doing a bunch of dumb shit, I even sent nudes to one guy there.. Dunno I was a teen trying to figure out if I was attractive.
The worst has that it made me very racist, sexist, nihilistic, it made me a bully and I'm still recovering from that (for example a lot of people think I'm rude in real life and I literally can't tell I'm being rude).
There was also a lot of drugs involved, members would order them from the darkweb or try to get them from pharmacies. For me it wasn't too bad, but it sort of fucked up my grades in highschool (I'd show up high on opioids in class.
Recently, I learned one of our friends from that group died from a heroin suicide.
Looking back, I was just a teen but it was really fucked up how hard of bullies we were. We'd find the worst ways to talk to each other, talk about the dead father of a member, the childhood trauma of another member, doxx constantly to their families and to their jobs, do drugs and have that really nihilistic outlook on life where you just want to die asap.
Do you guys have similar stories or I'm alone?
I'm really curious to know if real life friend groups are as toxic, I guess not. I want to know what I missed out on by being edgy.
I had not realized until now how badly it affected me.
At 15, your personality starts crystallizing. What has mine crystallized around? Bullying, being racist, sexualizing myself, hurting other people, doing drugs and wanting to die. I sort of blame my teenagehood for how fucked up my social life is now.
I dunno if I should go to a therapist and talk about that or if I'm making a big deal out of it for no reason.
No. 1584049
>>1584013I'll gay marry you nona
Unfortunately I also live in a shithole but at least gays can date and marry here
No. 1584054
>>1584040I had irl friends in high school that were the polar opposite of yours but still the same.
They had an awful case of groupthink and were unfortunately also hardcore SJWs (as you'd call them then). We lived in a poor country with not that many minorities yet they gulped down any Western koolaid they found online, spoke English amongst themselves, were terminally online and always found shit to be offended/holier than thou about.
I had a pretty bad disability at the time and as soon as I disagreed with them on one little thing, I was pretty much ostracized from the friend group. Later found out that they called me names and made fun of said disability because I "must be lying and faking it" (I was not).
They also bullied people they simply didn't like and instead made up reasons to justify it, like claiming a clueless weeb they thought was annoying was "culturally appropriating" Japan by watching anime and learning Japanese, and that made her racist so she was okay to bully.
I'm sad to say I partook in this bullying and feel really bad about it now, she was always nice to me and ultimately not a bad person. I didn't bully her a lot and she herself didn't notice it since I just did it to belong, but it's enough that I feel horrible, she didn't deserve that.
No. 1584125
>>1584120you can do it
nonnie, and fruits are great
No. 1584127
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my local unemployment officer suggested I get autism bux after over an year trying to get me a job I can actually handle. I'm not sure if I should just accept I'm too retarded to work and embrace it or push further and try to adapt despite being around people or doing things being extremely exhausting to me.
No. 1584196
>>1584187you're totally right
nonnie I should just embrace being a spoony. if anything I am free to learn whatever the fuck I want once I get my tismbux going because I won't feel guilty of using nigel's money to buy art supplies or having to study something useful to be productive. thanks for the kind responses!
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i hate moving i hate being a renter i hate being poor
No. 1584259
you are so belligerent in discussions now, that it's actually a chore trying to navigate any kind of meaningful conversations with you anymore. i mean, yeah, we rarely ever talk about anything else, and neither of us is exactly what society would consider the crème de la crème of human ingenuity, but jesus fucking christ! would it kill you to step off your fucking soapbox for two seconds and attempt a modicum of conversational decorum? i get seething over the thing you're talking about and thinking you're right, and trying to articulate your POV in the best way you're able, but there are instances–it's most of them, actually–where you can't even manage to string two words together without looking like an angry sped who thinks you've been falsely wronged by every poor schmuck who's ever had the misfortune of being within ten feet of you. here's a clue: if it smells like shit everywhere you go, you are the one that's stepped in something. it's a small fucking wonder you can't keep any interpersonal relationships irl, because you can't even manage a bare minimum of decency to a veritable stranger on the internet. i shudder to think what you're life must be like outside of our conversations. if i were a praying woman, i'd pray for you, but even that, i'm sure, would be something you'd take umbrage with, if you knew i was doing it on your behalf. you are exhausting, off-putting, deranged, and insufferable to the nth degree, and you will never get the things you want because you will never change in any way that matters, so long as you insist on remaining as you are. find someone else to whine at, freak, cuz i'm out.
No. 1584266
>>1584245on the tinfoil thread topic of corrupt medical professionals, dentists are up on the list as well.
earlier this year i learned about how after you have braces, dentists will file your teeth down without asking you. they just do it and shoo you out the door. how absolutely horrifying.
No. 1584283
>>1584158>Education should be completely freeThere's no such thing as free education, teachers need to be paid their salaries, either the students pay or the taxpayers pay.
>and not focused on earning points and grades. Either you know it or you don't, And how do you expect teachers to know that students learned the information?
>when knowledge is free.Knowledge on the internet and in libraries are free, if you want to be taught knowledge by someone, you have to pay them.
No. 1584321
>>1584305I could afford it, but they're literally almost all booked except for dormitory hostels. It just matters to be within walking distance (even 45mn is fine) because driving probably won't be safe coming back at night (and there's no uber in that city). I'm retarded and thought the festival was later this summer, not soon. I've been trying to go for years.
>>1584302Obviously for that reason I likely won't, but I feel like if I wanted to hit a blunt and bum a bump of K off of someone just for that night, it shouldn't be grounds to lose my license when I'm very sober and it just happens to be in my system many days later.
No. 1584344
>>1584321I'm guessing you live in Europe?
Can you find a place even an hour away?
No. 1584353
>>1584348Next time he suggests to hang out, say: "idk I wouldnt want u mansplaining everything to me haha." and gaslight him if he tries to say ur sensitive. "haha um sure.. someones projecting… im actually busy tonight tho i have a date! ;) wish me luck :)"
and block him
No. 1584367
>>1583736were they really laxatives or just sugar-free hard candy? because those will also give you the shits. i tried some before and three pieces were enough to
trigger an explosion
No. 1584370
>>1583951you need to know those signs to notice them.
i mean, long bathroom breaks and watery eyes? that sounds more like taking a hard shit to most people.
No. 1584433
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I hate my bday so much nonnies
No. 1584455
>>1584433Same, like a yearly reminder of all the shit that I didn't manage to accomplish and how much time I wasted
I know in general the older you are, the more it is your responsibility to make your bday special, but honestly fuck that, wish I could forget about it
No. 1584491
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>when you aren't ready at the time you said you would be and now your mom is saying that you're telling her you don't love her or care about her or even so much as spare her a thought or give a shit about how she's doing or how it will effect her
each day I find another reason why I should just die already but man, the times I find out I've been abusing my mom? I dunno, "heartbreak" isn't strong enough, disappointment in myself is immeasurable blah blah blah
so sad, so sad, born bad
No. 1584495
>>1577602I can’t find the confessions thread at hand and I’m too distraught.
Two years ago I was at my lowest and my mom was nagging at me to invest 2000 dollars in crypto trading and because I’m a literal retard with low IQ and saw with my own eyes how she was doubling smaller inversions… I said yes.
Needlesss to say it didn’t work out for me because of course. I’m so frustrated. The year before that I had to put 6000 bucks to save her apartment from being collected by the bank. I wish I wasn’t stupid. I can’t believe I had talked out family members over and over from pyramid schemes and I go fall on it. In my defense I was truly desperate and I did see my mom’s life quality boosted a bit so I thought it was believable. I’m so depressed. I don’t want to be stupid anymore.
No. 1584499
>>1584491You are the most worthless and evil person in the world (your mother is a malignant narcissist and what she says is one of the most trite and classic abuse tactics these people apply to their
victims).
No. 1584573
>>1584569No, people reject me because I am too depressed. My living quality is really bad…so I am considerably depressed. Like, I have no money. Live in a dirty run down apartment. I don't even have a PC. When I'm on the internet people feel that and reject me. They feel that I am depressed. Most of my life I've been rejected even by the people that I've put a lot of effort into connecting with.
I am not complacent with my life. I wanted to make something of myself. I wanted to be successful… I wanted to be an artist..I wanted to be surrounded by other creative and intelligent people but people that are like me reject me and isolate me even if I put in a lot of effort into the relationships.
I don't know anymore really…
I tried really hard to advance with my life, make money, make friends, be around other creative people and reach my worth and nothing works…nothing ever works. I gave up….but it feels like I've been dismissed.
No. 1584577
>>1584573If all you ever talk about it how shit your life is then yeah, people will reject you. Do you think I tell my video game discord friends about how I was molested and beaten as a child and now do hard drugs and want to kill myself on the regular? Of course not, I post normal things that people like and they like me by proxy and I could probably deepen relationships if I wasn't so mentally broken I'm terrified of getting close to anyone under any circumstances.
Anyway it sounds like not having friends is the least of your problems, you need a job and failing that at least welfare.
No. 1584601
>>1584598Hmmm?????? I cannot work a normal job due to physical and mental illness. Wouldn't it be better to be surrounded by a loving group of friends and like minded people?? It's just self evident kek
That is such a guilt trip. I want to be around other people and find support in them. I'd like to be with a guy that I love and like and it would be nice if he would support me financially too. There's nothing wrong with surrounding yourself with people that are like you and that love you. Better than nothing
No. 1584617
>>1584601NTA, but at some point you have to realize that having a boyfriend and friends is great, but won't solve any of your mental illness or magically make you a functional human, nor should they bear that burden. You have to take small steps to meet people in the middle. Find people online who share your interests if its difficult to find people irl, people are generally open to talking to others about similar interests. People online don't give a shit about your apartment or lack of computer, it seems like your low self esteem is making people uncomfortable, but that's something you can work on. Start small by looking for a job that's work from home or reduced hours to work with your physical health issues, anything to keep you busy even if its short lived. It's tough to hear, but the reality is, no other person can cure your problems and it's up to you to make small efforts to move forward, many of us have learned this the hard way. I wish you the best though.
No. 1584644
>>1584630>man being melodramatic, exaggerative, aggressive, impulsive, profane, and a doomsayer>acceptable anger, kevin is angry for good reason!
>woman rightfully frustrated, loud, unsweet, defensive, and fed up with the status quo>hysterical bitchy karen stfu! We're just not allowed to express anything aside from pleasantries, nurturing, and servitude.
No. 1584647
>>1584641>rudefemsKek but don't be so sure it's always other women being bitches in the vent threads anon.
I'd greater assume men love kicking down vulnerable women in an anonymous space that provides that honesty.
I notice some choice vents about men gain particularly pissy reactions and there is no way those aren't coming from a Y chromosome.
No. 1584652
>>1584348Don't let the stinky balls talk down to you.
Fwiw, I had the arm implants between the years of 2012-2021. Never got periods. Had lots of sex and never got pregnant or worried (got pregnant twice and needed abortions post-removal btw so it doesn't impact fettility after long term use either). He just wants to scare you off it, the arm implant is actually MORE EFFECTIVE than sterilization last I checked, because of the possibility that sterilizations can be incomplete or repair.
Retarded scrotes talking about shit they don't know LMAO.
No. 1584657
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Browsing old confession blogs on tumblr makes me so nostalgic for 2012. But one thing in particular I miss is how unapologetically female fandom spaces where back then. Like most of the confessions just talks about how the feel about this franchise and thristing over the characters/actors but in a non-pornbrainrot way. This era of fandom was great too because people who faked a gazillion mental illnesses where rare and mostly in the anime fandom according to my observations.
What depresses me is I never got to experience this fandom era first hand I only got to hear about it from friends who where active in fandoms back then and would show me funny tumblr posts or tell me about the biggest ships etc. This sounds dumb but I really struggled with integrating into the internet(unless it was forums) back then. I have always struggled with talking to people or making decisions. I also struggled with understanding situations so while I knew how fandom worked in concept I had a hard time participating in practice. I had tumblr it never occurred to me that I could just exclusively follow blogs dedicated to my fandoms I had somehow convinced myself I wasnt allowed to do thatyes I know it sounds stupid but I was very very young and I wasnt the sharpest tool.
What makes matters worse was that I quickly fell into hardcore SJ spaces. I was young and gullible and extremely prone to feeling guilt. I never interacted with the SJ blogs I followed but my dash where just post after post of pure guilttripping telling me that everything was wrong or offensive. It let me to stop watching/reading anything so there are yeeeeeeeears of my life where I did nothing but doomscroll. I had black/white mindset and believe the stupidest things ever, like that the word stupid is ableist. Try to think of the most insane SJ strawman argument and there is a big chance that I unironically believed it. Idk I can't fault myself for my actions in the past but I wish I had a little more common sense back then and just had let myself be a goofy child on the internet. I think if I had been a bit smarter and participated in fandom earlier then I would have avoided this mess but there isnt much I can do about it now.
Unlearning the black/white mindset as an adult is hard too. I now have the opposite problem where I'm too offensive and edgy and have hurt other people's feelings
No. 1584670
>>1584348The arm implant is the most effective form of birth control. At least it was when I got mine. Which reminds me I need to get it replaced.
Tbh I’m not really into sex but it seems to have leveled out my mood a bit, idk if that’s a normal thing or what.
i’m deathly afraid of pregnancy, like the concept that I could potentially be able to get pregnant makes me really uncomfortable because what if something dreadful happens and i get raped? i know it sounds unreasonable of me to be so bothered like this but ive seen other anons express similar sentiments recently. but like thats why i got the implant (after 2 failed iud insertion attempts that were traumatic to say the least and i mean it, absolutely horrible experience). it’s a weight off of my mind because that’s pretty much the most you can do.
Side note: a few weeks ago one of my managers told me about how one time she thought she had cancer but she was just pregnant. her tubes were tied. she went to the trouble of getting her tubes tied and got pregnant anyway.
No. 1584719
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I hate having no mother figure I feel like theres an vacancy in my life that'll never feel fufilled
No. 1584720
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I really hate how whenever I get my period, there’s always an issue with the water at the neighborhood, now it’s mixed with diarrhea so I can’t stop shitting, so now my toilet is seriously disgusting with blood and shit because there isn’t a single drop of water at home.
I wouldn’t be surprised if I somehow got some infection because the discomfort I feel in the bathroom is quite terrible so I can’t move for a while.
And the best part is that whenever I sneeze, because of my allergies, because we can’t clean up at home properly since there’s no water, my stomach hurts a whole fucking lot and it makes me feel like I will shit myself if I’m not sitting on a toilet.
No. 1584741
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I am a horrible person. I sent my friend links to steroid source review website because he said he wanted to start doing steroids and I was afraid that he would go out onto the streets looking for illegal drugs and up poisoning himself because he wouldn’t know what he was doing. I thought it was harm reduction but it seems like he’s really intent on doing it and now I know I’ve enabled him.
On top of this I just found out someone who I cyberbullied has either killed themselves or attempted to kill themself today. They were a lolicon nazi troon but it doesn’t matter I still feel bad
No. 1584746
>>1584741>On top of this I just found out someone who I cyberbullied has either killed themselves or attempted to kill themself today. They were a lolicon nazi troon but it doesn’t matter I still feel badWhat
More details on this?
No. 1584762
>>1584757It's ot, anything goes
Now spill the tea
nonnie No. 1584764
I’m annoyed. I love my family but I’m sick of people pretending to have me doing all of the emotional labor at home. I won’t talk to my brother’s girlfriend about how it’s a bad idea for them to try and have a baby when she doesn’t even know what post-graduate studies she wants to try, it’s not my responsibility. I just know it’s a bad idea because they’re not even married and my brother is a manchild, plus her family is very, very dysfunctional.
They can make it work, they’re grown ass adults about to hit their 30’s soon, I want to live my own life even if that means just working to pay for my hobbies.
Like I’m sorry it took me so long to graduate because I’m too retarded, and that I’m too picky so I don’t conform with whatever moid that crosses my path.
But they’ve been really pushy with the stuff about us getting married at some point or having children and like, I just graduated, I want to live my life, I want a job, I want to save money, I want to be able to do the things that my brother has been doing since he was 21 years old.
If I could I would go back and force my ass go study languages instead of literature, but I’m too retarded so I picked the wrong career.
That doesn’t mean I have to be my brother’s life coach or something like that, we don’t even speak unless it’s strictly necessary. Why should I sit him down with his girlfriend and have a very serious talk with him? My parents are alive, they can talk to them.
This wouldn’t be happening if everyone could stop assuming that life as a woman ends when you hit your 30’s and that our uteruses wither if we don’t have a baby by the time we’re 18 years old. But that also you must be a professional and have a promising career while taking care of a home.
Like, if you want us to engage in recreational childbirth and childcare great. But pick one, either we are babymakers forever and ever or you let us take shit slowly and let us finish our studies before having kids.
No. 1584766
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I need a psychiatrist or a psychologist (ugh) but the hunt for one that would be good in my city is overwhelming. I have some things to get off my chest and there's nobody around me I could be sure wouldn't judge me. I also have long-standing depression. I liked my last psychiatrist and I felt like I could tell him anything but then he went to prison. That was 6 years ago.
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>>1584809Nona your not a failure, sending you hugs your way ♥
No. 1584841
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>>1584809this too will pass nona, here, have some snacks
No. 1585110
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It's so unfair to me that I'm as weird and awkward on the internet as I am irl. People are always saying that they're lonely introverts, but then they have this huge group of online friends to play with every night. It's so unfair that I get overwhelmed and overthink every small interaction. I feel like no one gets it, it makes me feel so useless and alone.
I grew up on 4chan so that's probably why I don't get people with social media, and how they can vent and they share their lives so openly. I'm so tired of this feeling of not belonging.
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>>1585110I get it
nonny, I'm like that too.
No. 1585150
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>>1585142I hate when people make it look so easy, and I hate when they pity me and try to help with generic advice. I wanna be alone and at the same time I crave a close group of people. I tried accepting being weird, I tried to force friendship and change myself, and I tried to learn to enjoy my own company. What's left for me? I was born wrong.
No. 1585172
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C.Ai has become so shit in the past week, I can't take this anymore
No. 1585181
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dad's a gross drunk but, he frequently leaves the house to hang with his son for like large swathes of time. he's coming back earlier than usual this month though and i'm pretty bummed out about it. hope i can get a job soon so i can leave kek. to a point i really hate it because it kind of feels like he's only returning so i can cook for him and shit (he said "tehe i might come back tomorrow~ we can have dinner together!). i'm going to tell him that i'm no longer getting my scholarship refunds from the university though, as i graduated recently, and am not going to feed us both when he has plenty of money