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No. 2206701
A thread for venting about difficult stuff going on in your life.
Previous vent thread:
>>2195183Follow all the /ot/ board rules & don't reply to bait.
Don't come to this thread to make fun of anons' vents, to demean them, or to try and be funny with some shit snark reply. It's annoying. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all.
No. 2206721
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I'm so sick of dating but decided to try again a bit. I downloaded bumble and in 2 days I have 950+ likes. I can't see them, I'd have to pay, but so far every person I swiped right on was a match. Are those real?? Or are they inflating the number so I'll pay. Because I always see scrotes complaining about not having a single match on there. Is there just so much more scrotes on there? But still 950+ seems crazy.
No. 2206776
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The domino effect of being completely isolated and sheltered in your most crucial developmental years really fucks over your adult social life in ways you can't even imagine.
Holy kek imagine not being able hold a proper conversation because you had no one to play house with as a toddler
FML
No. 2206820
>>2206776It's going to be tough and so embarrassing you want to die, but you can learn
t. isolated only child raised by the internet who has been in customer service for 15 years
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>>2206776I feel you nona, but kek what the fuck
No. 2206855
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>mfw
>live in thirdie shithole
>belong to a moderately liberal paki home
>older sister got into a relationship with a bpd scrote
>hes strangely pushing her to marry him
>belongs to a tribal family whose father has two wives and no one knows what happened to the first one (we dont even know shes dead or not)
>he is a serial cheater and uses rich women as his sugar mamas
>refuses to talk to me or my mom but he has forced my sister to meet his mom and sister
>manipulates my sister to fight other women he cheats on her with
>try to convince her to leave him as hes clearly only after the money
>she spazes out and refuses to eat or drink because of it
>mother is desperate because this retard took her with her to fight his side ho and humiliated her too
>brings in a arranged marriage
this bitch is so retarded she ruined her only chance to marry someone of her choice..now im scared that my parents will marry me off to a scrote too when i dont even like moids.. but im more concerned of her..how do you even convince someone like this to see the reality so she doesnt fuck up her life?
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got sick a week ago and thought it was just a random cold but now I'm 90% sure I had covid at the time. The cold and throat pain didn't last that long but now I'm stuck with loss of smell and insomnia and it's torture. I know I can survive it since I managed to do it the first time I got covid but it's so fucking miserable. I just want to sleep. To top it off I had a great job opportunity fall through all because my phone decided to stop receiving messages and calls. I just want to end it all.
No. 2206981
>>2206973i was mostly referring to the body nitpicker types and yes they are weird.
>>2206971i'm not going to specifically recall posts that give off jealous vibes but is it so hard to consider that the userbase of this site will also have mentally unwell people? they're not all going to outright say shit but there will be some level of fixation and jealousy.
No. 2206988
>>2206776You can still learn how to properly socialize, it's not over for you. You may always be a little awkward but the more you expose yourself to social situations and pay attention to how other people interact, the easier it gets.
>>2206964I don't follow many cows but from the threads I frequent, celebricows is the worst one in this regard. Anons rage and shittalk the most beautiful women with perfect bodies. It's 100% a cope.
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>>2207008Do you know the definition of the word bullying? Bullying is the act of attacking or belittling someone directly. Cowtipping and communicating directly with cows, or doing anything that could jeopardize the flow of milk (this includes bullying them online or in their dm’s or irl) is extremely discouraged here and is against the written rules kek. This is certainly not a “bullying” website, it’s a website to simply laugh at, make jokes about, and sometimes even analyze the decisions that people choose to make and air online.
No. 2207060
>>2206979trannies are either fetishistic as fuck towards women or petty and
toxic there is no in between
No. 2207133
>>2207123In an ideal world I would tell you to simply ask him if he watches it but moids always lie. There's ways you can sort of clock if he watches it though: does he mention very specific and categorized things he's attracted to? What is the sex itself like, does it feel like you're going through a checkbox of positions and kinks half the time or does it feel genuine? Does he also care about the fact that you don't orgasm sometimes? A good man would at least try and make you orgasm more often.
I had an ex that didn't even cum until about a year into the relationship. I thought that was just how he was until I realized he was beating his dick to online porn of women that looked nothing like me. Be aware that if he is a young man especially then it's very likely watching women get exploited will be on his schedule at some point.
No. 2207168
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Groceries are so expensive and I hate it so much. Prices don't ever seem to stop rising and it stresses me out whenever I need to plan my next trip to the store. It makes me seethe thinking that I'm basically just shitting this money down the toilet anyway, is this what I'm wasting all my time on, just to live? I've made so many budget cuts in my shopping that I'm deficient in a vast majority of vitamins anyway so I hardly feel like I'm living.
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I ate meat for the first time in years today (leftover al pastor burrito my dad didn’t want to eat). I feel incredibly guilty for it, but if I didn’t eat it would have gone to the landfill. I am anemic and I have been having intense cravings for meat for a while now. I became significantly more depressed after I stopped eating meat a couple years ago.
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>Yay finally managed to land an internship at a company I have a great gut feeling about!!!
>They are so nice and friendly
>What if I disappoint them
>Despite my grades making me look like a decent web developer on paper I'm definitely below average in class
>I'm an absolutely fucking dense idiot
>Oh god I'm really gonna disappoint them aren't I
>I'm a failure and they're gonna second guess their choice to take me in during the entire 6 month internship
No. 2207291
>>2207276Luckily I'm pretty good at asking questions and very friendly in general, but due to how nervous/anxious I get when it's about frontend it's very simple mistakes. But when it comes to backend I'm an absolute DUNCE, luckily I've been honest with them that I'm very weak when it comes to that and that my prime interest lies in frontend and accessibility; but despite that there is no guarantee they might put me on that specifically, since it is a fullstack education. I'm probably overthinking it all though since I know I'm coming from uni technically only knowing the basics kek I'm just so scared of coming out of all this a failure, having wasted time, money and my family's expectations
sorry for the ranty response I just have so many mixed thoughts and incredibly nervous
No. 2207296
15 years later, I'm still grossed out by my mother telling me "you can't walk naked from the bathroom to your room/closet any more, it makes dad uncomfortable." I get there's a divde, but phrasing, jesus. It's the only time I've had my family evoke a deep sense of shame in me, which I guess is why it sticks. I understand the parental need to make it clear when "I'm a small child, you were just changing my diaper, now I can run from the bathtub in my Spongebob towel to get into my pyjamas, then 10 minutes of lego playtime before bed" becomes "person in the process of developing an adult body, the concept of propriety must be learned" changes. Weirder still that it happened before I got the first sign of puberty. She got in early, I guess. I think my mum was trying to gently steer the natural family function along, and used a deterrenet she shouldn't have, and I think she was wrong for it."
No. 2207339
I'm a retard and was kinda rude to my apartment manager when he called about a noise complaint over my music. It's 2pm on a Monday and I was listening to music slightly loudly for about an hour. I'm sure (now) that the neighbor probably heard the thumps of bass. The guy underneath me absolutely blasts his sound system most nights and I always thought it was weird that he doesn't get noise complaints because his shit is LOUD like home-theater loud (it somehow doesn't actually reach our apartment proper though, you can hear it if you press your ear to the floor and you can feel it vibrate). So I thought a little bit of regular bass bumping would be ok. The apartment guy called and said he got MULTIPLE complaints about me. Which honestly I doubt because he's been a dick to me ever since I demanded that maintenance replace my microwave after a month (this is a large, corporate-owned complex), and one time I went into the office for a different reason and he like JUMPED at the chance to say "Oh yeah there were multiple noise complaints about your apartment last weekend.." and I was like, no, because at that time it was literally impossible. And he was like oh, yeah, actually it turned out to be someone else. Okay…. then why bring it up. Anyways I was sort of rude when he called just now and I have horrible social anxiety and avoidant personality disorder and I want to crawl into a hole and die because I was rude to this guy. I know, I know, it was a moid, who cares, but I feel fucking awful. He actually said, after like 5 seconds of silence, I thought he hung up, but he said "I was talking but you just kept talking over me so…" like in a mad way. And I was like "Well go ahead then…" Just stupid shit. I tried to save it a bit by being like "thank you for the call" at the end but he hung up. I just wanted to listen to some music to literally self-love and stimulate my vagus nerve because I'm fucking going through a lot right now ahhhhhhh I'm so fucking stupid why didn't I just say "Okay, thank you for letting me know!" and then just lower the bass a bit. And if it was still disruptive, then someone can come down and assess it because I swear this music isn't excessively loud… in an apartment you can't expect complete silence from your neighbors at all times. This is not during the quiet period from 9pm-8am. By the time he called I was listening to fucking Mazzy Star. Not even loud, bumpy music. I hate how fucking pathetic I am that this is making me cry and ruining my day at thirty-fucking-two-years old. So my neighbor probably works at home or something and made the complaint, and management has to follow up obviously, so I could have just said ok thanks and lowered it a little bit or turned down the bass, or hell, not even do that, and if the neighbor escalates it then I'm assuming management has to come out and make a judgement? When I moved in here I tried looking for legal and social guidelines for living in an apartment and making ANY discernable music/media noise, and there's not really a straight answer because there are so many variables I hateeeee that this isn't measurable in a realistic way. More than anything I just wish I wasn't such a pathetic, non-functioning adult. Fuck
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I feel like complete shit mentally and I hope this is just an indicator that my period is coming soon
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I had covid for a solid two weeks and as soon as I started to feel better, BAM, sinusitis
My face hurts reeeeee
No. 2207466
>>2207060Troonshit has ruined all nerd circles like crack did in the 80s, you cannot escape them and your mere existence
triggers them. I found some of the xitters of some attendees and they all constantly were screeching about "transphobia" and, interesting enough after I went to the event, "crypto terfs". All they can think about is "owning the heckin stupid transphobes" and it's so fucking exhausting seeing over and over again…
Misogynists just finding a loophole to be
abusive towards women for no reason other than them being women. Can't I just play the video game in peace and mind my own business without having to slobber all over some troon's aliexpress boots?
No. 2207508
>>2207488>>2207474Ahh, I meant poorer communities in America, the whole conspiracy theory that the CIA were behind it. Skipped over a few words in my post, sorry.
>>2207495I irl vomitted when the shark party orgy shit was being posted everywhere like you're a prude bigot who needs to grow up and understand adults have sex.
Then you have troons like DEB who hasn't attended any significant tourneys and instead is a vtuber with a gross big titty cow girl avatar, posting tweets about how he "loves leggings" and other gross fetish shit. If you see candids of him, he just looks like another greasy nerd in a wig.
So fucking tiring being a longtime anime fighter player, there's nothing you can do right by the discord mods that managed tourneys and events.
No. 2207521
Everyday i have to wake up, shower, brush my teeth, do my skincare, put on clothes go to work, do a full shift, get off work, possibly shower again, do my skincare again, brush my teeth again, and in between all of this I also have to eat at least once and find even just 30 mins-1 hour for my own enjoyment. It's just tiring.
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I’m going to commit suicide. I’m already thinking of plans of when to end it, I think I’m actually just done. I’m willing to forget how painful it will be during the first minutes of when I end my life just so I can finally have some freedom and peace in my life. I have to get out of here, there’s no chance for my happiness and I haven’t been happy since I was a preteen.
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when your brother's mother is staying with you and doesnt know how to wash dishes properly so i either end up rewashing them or having to put them in the dishwasher. i love this, i love doing this so fucking much.
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i love and enjoy my job a lot, it's been the most fulfilling job i've had so far and it's great and all, but i struggle to socialise with my coworkers because they're all above the age of 40 and i'm 25.
is this normal? in every other job i've had, i've had coworkers my age and i've always gotten along super well with them and now i genuinely feel like a retard. there's this lingering like.. almost power imbalance between me and everyone else.
they all basically treat me like i'm their daughter/granddaughter and it just feels really off. i feel like i don't get taken seriously at all and it's offputting because i'm incredibly capable and an integral part of the team, but i get treated like a child when i'm spoken to. like what the fuck?
No. 2207674
>>2207335in the same boat as you,
nonnie. i don't think all women are necessarily mean, i think we're all pitted against each other for hundreds of stupid reasons. i've just stuck to hanging around other girls with autism because we all get how shit it is.
i've been trying to find irl social group type things to make friends with other autistic women, and this sounds horrible - it's really hard to find a group that isn't just solely LGBTQ+ based or for women with profound mental disabilities. it'd be awesome if there was just a craft and hangout type thing instead of seeing shit for 'heckin queer neurospicy gurls group steven universe watch party' like fuck OFFFFFFF.
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Moids and pick me weeb yellow face women will give a pass to any degenerate japanse girl just because she’s Japanese. What the hell are those disgusting posters behind her. I know we shouldn’t be surprised by landmine whores but I want someone to harass her….(global rule 14)
No. 2207896
while my mum and her scrote and offspring were away i cleaned and decluttered the whole house, it was such hard work and a mammoth job because my mum holds onto everything even broken stuff and was never taught to mop, dust, this kind of general housekeeping. the stuff i cleaned hadn't been even wiped down in over a decade. the difference is insane, it's like you can finally breathe, before it was just downright embarrassing to see people living like that. i didn't expect so much as a good job, it looks nice in here, nothing. but still getting no kind of appreciation, just the same rudeness and abrasiveness, telling me off nonsensically for moving stuff and telling me i messed stuff up, it's genuinely delusional and it hurts. i keep my cool and remind myself i did it for the sake of it and not praise, but it still hurts to have your hard work genuinely be invisible to people and get negativity when i spent days of my life on fixing stuff up and fucking up my hands cleaning. and she lets her disgusting scrote berate me too. i did a good job and only got attacked for it. even when mopping i was getting moaned at. i just want to live in a nice clean space, i struggle a lot to get shit done so i was so proud of myself, and i hate that i have to fight every step to do it and get no love for it. deep in my heart it hurts. no one even notices.
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I get violently jealous whenever I'm reminded of my boyfriend's social life before he knew me.
The thing is that I'm socially successful now, but I was a sperg for years and none of this comes naturally to me. I spent much of my university years resenting everyone for easily getting along, and my boyfriend was one of them. Prior to our meeting this year we even shared a class where I judged him as being normal/"cool" and completely out of my league.
Appearances are bullshit and I now know he was likely relying a lot on substance abuse to get along with people because he's also weird and even weirder now because of what it did to his brain. But I still feel like a total loser when I think back to it or we run into someone he knew/knows, especially other women because of course women are better at seeing through my pretense and know I'm a hideous cringefail autist. And what if they have a fond opinion of him? Do they see me as undeserving?
In almost every way I know I am in his league, but this inferiority persists.
In past relationships this has also been an issue. I was lucky my ex-gf had no friends and was more autistic than I am because she had no one around to make me jealous. But I'd still find myself feeling broken and upset that she…existed before knowing me. It's fucking insane.
Maybe it all started when I dated a guy who was either ashamed for his friends to know me or vice versa. He was also into drugs and I've always been the most sober woman alive, which I guess also makes me feel like a loser.
I know my current bf isn't ashamed of me, I've never had someone hype me up as much as he does (and should). But I'm still convinced he is and, of course, angry that he existed before me.
No. 2207958
>>2207953I dont know how you can find the energy for that, sounds so
toxic. Retroactive jealousy and resentment are the killers of love.
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Every. Single. Time.
No. 2207987
>>2207595I don’t want to be here anymore anon, I wish I knew a more peaceful and non-invasive way
where I don’t inflict trauma on my female relatives from seeing my dead body to do it. Hopefully I can save enough money to help my mom get the house she wants that’s the most she deserves from her horrible life as well before I die.
>>2207621Fuck no, I have bigger things to worry about than that shit.
No. 2208004
>>2207969>>2207958The misery is very balanced by having someone who matches the intensity. Not healthy per se, but the level of understanding is a comfort. And when it's good we're soaring.
We're also both actively trying to not be like this because we do experience love and care, you know.
Part of my posting was that I wanted to avoid lashing out at him this time.
>>2207957Oh I agree, which is why I think dating each other is a public service.
Funnily enough my bf has talked about wanting to become one person multiple times.
No. 2208014
>>2208004>my bf has talked about wanting to become one person multiple timesI dunno how open you are to advice
nonny but that is a red flag. Like seriously, be careful. I know bippie love can feel fucking exhilarating, but when you've gotten to the point of enmeshing with each other, the relationship can turn real dangerous real quick. I'm glad you're happy nonners, but please be careful and keep your eyes open for any signs of danger, okay? This? This is one of the danger signs.
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>>2208010Yeah that’s some primitive Frankenstein’s lab shit right there kek
No. 2208030
>>2208027its definitely his mothers house lol
haha what a loser
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>>2207981>>2208002>>2208030This is some Buffalo Bill meets Norman Bates shit wtf
No. 2208037
>>2208006So this is why people open their relationships…
>>2208014>>2208021I'll take this into account. We're both getting help and are self-aware, I'm also more of the angry type and he's more of the manipulative self-destruction type so I focus on controlling my own urges. But I am aware of how things could go because I'm capable of that evil myself.
>>2208026It helps a bit, but definitely not a cure. Therapy helps but I think it's permanent damage to an extent.
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>>2208134Do it. Dutch oven him.
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If I go out of my way to cook a meal for both of us and then you can't even finish it because you "feel sick/don't have an appetite" but you didn't even bother to tell me this beforehand I honestly hope you starve. It's not fucking hard at all to have communication with me and it would have taken 2 seconds for you to come down and say "hey I don't feel well I don't think I'll eat this" when I was prepping the food and it would have been fine, not a problem at all. But no, your dumbass eating disordered habits that make you prefer Mcdonalds and cans of cola mean that every fucking time we eat together you just can't finish things because of some vague "sick" feeling or appetite problem. If that's the case then stop agreeing to having me cook stuff for you. I don't want to. It's a matter of respect and communication and yes I don't care if you have to force yourself to eat the food. That's life, grow up, adults need real food and not a diet of Mcdonalds and I don't even have an appetite most of the time but if someone has went out of their way to cook something for me you best believe I am going to show respect and try to eat a good amount of it. Stupid entitled retard. How about I just throw the frying pan at your head next time because there's a higher chance you'd eat that compared to ANY tasty healthy food your family tries to cook for you. Kill yourself.
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I came back from the dentist i got gingivitis and bruxism
No. 2208197
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>my mom: anon I don't know what went wrong! I don't know why our relationship is so bad! Everything used to be great aka, everything was great when I was an extremely young child barely capable of understanding her mistreatment of me! You don't even speak to me anymore!
>Picrel, me having flashbacks to the time where I was a child and I was rambling to her about something I was super into and she told me something along the lines of "I don't care" and made me cry. Or the time where I reached out in her direction and she said "don't touch me!" in disgust. Or the many times she was mad when I attempted to talk to her. Just to name a few instances.
She's not really in my life anymore but man
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>>2208203NTA but I'm in the fucked up gums club too. Get an electric toothbrush and interdental brushes like picrel. Use mouthwash, then the interdental brushes (also use these after eating) and normal floss, then brush your teeth for 2 minutes, all in this order.
No. 2208212
>>2208209thanks
nonny. The dentist guy told me it could be reversed with a deep cleaning but i dont know, is that true or am i cursed forever?
No. 2208238
>>2208172Also replying again but I somehow had a similar experience. I had this guy over and he kept acting weirdly competitive with how little we were eating, I already don't eat much but I got a snack for the night cause I work late and he had the same smug kind of "Yeah I just won't eat" thing but his tummy was singing the whole time.
I ate my snacks real quick so he wouldn't ask for some but now that you mention it I can't help but wonder if some guys feel self-conscious or try to neg girls like this lul. So petty
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>>2208247(laughs annoyingly)
No. 2208314
>>2208231The normiefication and fetishization of the word "
femcel" to the point it now means any female interest that is unconventional or just not makeup, marriage or clubbing is so gross. Males almost seem to think it's endearing to call someone that but it's just weird to talk about video games or say you like how a hello kitty keychain looks and you get "aww that's so
femcel coded" like fuck you meanwhile you guys are actually just low value males overcompensating for incel anxieties of not being enough no matter what you identify with by proxy or how woke you pretend to act.sheesh
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I just tapped up the most unhinged, rage-fueled rant to drop into the GIOYC thread….
And then deleted it.
*~growth~*
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You know you're in a living hell when basic necessities become treats like, "oh, i worked my ass off for that assignment, i think i'll nap when i get home". i can't tell if i'm being overemotional like i usually am at night or if the thought of having to spend the rest of my life like this is genuinely making me cry.
No. 2208529
>>2208472i know
nonnie, i'm just hypervigilant for the moment he decides to take his smear campaign outside of his discord circlejerk, while i'm pretending everywhere he never existed and not reacting at all
No. 2208606
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I need someone to scream at me and shake me and tell me that a certain moid will never love me so I stop being attached. I broke up with him but I still miss him. He treated me like human garbage and I hate to use the buzzword but he did truly abuse me. I need sense slapped into me nonnies, it’s really pathetic the way I miss him.
No. 2208619
>>2208606It’s tough to miss someone even after you know they did you dirty, but unfortunately it’s just a part of the grieving process that you can’t shortcut through. The fact that you broke up with him and you
know he treated you like shit means it’s just a matter of time before your heart catches up to your brain. Just remember that closure is something you make, not something you get.
No. 2208623
>>2208606You don't miss him you literally miss the idea of what he could be. Just remember that. Any time you start feeling down because you're missing what you could have NEVER FORGET all the shit that
actually happened in reality removed from the rose tinted glasses and hormone-starvation. Remember if he loved you he would have changed but he didn't so he never truly cared. Stacy up and forget that scrote.
No. 2208634
>>2208606Let me slap some reality into you nonna. They never change. They get worse even if they seem like they get better. Mine verbally emotionally and physically abused me and sexually as well. He was always kind of sorry and would subtlely lovebomb me back. So many years of my life wasted on loving this
abusive moid who has never been anything but a narc who isn’t even good at being a narc, I’m just such a pathetic autist and hopeless romantic I let it keep it happening.
Don’t let this trip you up. You’ll fall in love with a moid who actually loves you. Don’t go back to the other one. Don’t be like me and have to spend a night in fucking jail cause your moid hit you and then filmed you hitting him back (don’t worry nonnies state prosecutor dropped my charges completely before I was scheduled for my court arraignment hearing, they knew it was bullshit).
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>>2208634Thank you to all nonnies for your comforting and realistic messages, I want to thank you specifically too. Mine was
abusive too and he would do the same thing where he’d convince me he’s a
victim while stealing thousands of dollars from me and telling me my life isn’t worth living. I really was humiliated and my dignity was stripped from me. I know how it feels to be so frustrated that he’s making himself out to be a
victim after deeply hurting you and I am glad you have no more years wasted with that evil man.
No. 2208673
>>2208653Ayrt and
Nonnie I’m so very sorry he did all that to you. My point stands 1000x more and I’m so proud of you for leaving him you have no idea how strong you are for doing so. Mine would also tell me I belonged in an institution and didn’t deserve to be happy and would dehumanize me to the point where I’d start to lash out at myself and it almost killed me multiple times. Evil moids have no place in our lives. To a brighter future with actual loving healthy relationships, cheers!
No. 2208686
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>Get back into jfashion and egl
>Go to a meet
>ofc the style is not popular with people my age anymore so it's all younger girls
>They have a shitton of money, some of them are instagram influencers
>They don't actually know shit about burandos and they brag about their coords are all shein and how little they paid for such "good quality"
>The kogyal girls are wearing cosplay tier white shirt and gingham skirts, when they could thrift and look hundreds times better
>"Gatekeeping is not cool!"
Why can't zoomers make up their own fashion instead of shitting on already existing ones, didn't they do enough damage to the y2k fashion already.
Picrel is the dress I would wear to a Nonnie Comm Meetup
No. 2208742
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it's true that scrotes are only nice at the start of the relationship to reel you in. at first they are so sweet, cook you breakfast in the morning, ask about you and how you're doing, take you on dates walks in the park etc it's awesome but inevitably they will switch their behavior and stop pretending they gaf about you. someday I will understand this and stop acting shocked every time it happens
No. 2208745
>>2208744No, you are drunk and lonely and have only been talking to him for two hours.
No, they will get ruined.
No. 2208748
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Dang, just realised I’ve reached a level of my depression where I’m even apathetic to my usual suicidal ideations I’ve already worked through that habit through therapy, but it’s so ingrained in my being it now more works like an internal tantrum than anything too serious usually. I don’t care about anything. I don’t care about how lonely I am, I don’t care about whatever few plans I have, I don’t care about my beloved plants (watching them die one after another atm because I need to rotate their spots and couldn’t be arsed to do something about it), I don’t care about uni, I care about practicality nothing.
The only things I care about is gaming and my cat, I keep up a semblance of a lifestyle by going through the motions by studying (even if it’s to a lesser degree and more sloppily than before), checking out healthy recipes that I cook, going to the gym in the morning, cramming in a couple of hours of gaming before I go to bed between 9-10pm. It’s better than lying in bed feeling nothing at all but I have no passion or care about it all. I smile and laugh with my roommate but i forget the conversation immediately because I can’t bother to give a shit. There are events and exhibitions going on right now I would previously have been super hyped to go to but now I can’t even bother checking with friends if they wanna go.
No. 2208754
>>2208745>>2208746Okay. Thank you. I'll take off my headphones and hide my phone to stop my extra-scroticulars
>>2208749You're fucking with my head
No. 2208795
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It's starting to actually be fall and it's making my immune system suffer so bad. I have migraines, always getting canker sores in my mouth, no appetite, and feeling so so so lazy. I just want to hibernate
No. 2208800
>>2207639when she takes out the laundry you specifically put in so that u can remote start it so she can wash her own things. i love this so much.
protip, never let a mother in law stay with you, it's so fucking miserable man. i legit want to cry
No. 2208807
>>2208799What if she does though
nonny? Also I don't think being drunk necessarily means shes in a bad headspace
No. 2208873
>>2208767Drunk!OP checking in to say I'm fine, I didn't get murdered by any online dating moids, I just took an hour long shower (sans headphones) and then fed and watched some hedgehogs on my porch while drinking 2l of water and eating crackers. But fuck you tagged anon, I'm pretty sure I've seen you around before with your
>well I have found true lub with my hubby, so why can't other annonnys??!!! Real love exists!1!!rhetoric, and it annoys me every time. Life isn't a fairytale, and if anons in a vulnerable mood or position are in this thread and talking about moids, it's not the right time for you to come out of the woodworks to talk about how much you and your shitty nigel love each other. He probably watches "Barely legal big titted teen gets gangbanged"-porn btw.
Anyway good night, thanks for your concern everyone else. I am never drinking the devil's juice again
No. 2208910
>>2208897I'll check his when he checks mine, hows that sound
nonny?
>>2208905Usually when I drink it's with my nigel so no I haven't ever felt the urge to flirt with strangers when I'm drunk kek
>>2208904Well the post essentially said "I just talked to someone and think I'm in love" and I responded very innocently with "I knew I was in love with my husband very fast too" so I think I read it correctly
>>2208906Thank you anon ♥
No. 2208927
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>Nigel Stacies keep winning
Nonnies…It's so over
No. 2208935
>>2208922It's because she knows she would either find disgusting porn, or a weirdly squeaky clean browser history if he knows how to use incognito mode
>>2208927>nigel stacyOxymoron
No. 2208944
>>2208936Kek this is what I thought about my ex boyfriend. Turned out he was a closet faggot who watched gay porn. Do you think men are retarded enough to show their degeneracy in front of their wives/girlfriends who they know disapprove of porn?
>>2208939>>2208941>>2208917Why are you so obsessed with whiteknighting this nigelfag and her nigel?
No. 2208963
Samefag from here
>>2208947 spent a while scrolling there was no porn at all just restaurant websites, trustpilot shit, online vape shops, flower delivery (aww), his work in like 250 different tabs, gmail, and walmart which all made sense cause thats usually the stuff I see him actively looking at kek
No. 2208968
>>2208967Yeah, congrats anon, you have a better relationship history than most of the
femcels here. Btw how hot is he?
No. 2208974
>>2208968>femcelsNewfag spotted, go back to xitter/tiktok and learn that
femcels aren’t real
No. 2208988
>>2208983Kek yes because married or partnered men
never watch porn, only incels do. Right.
No. 2208997
>>2208968He is the most perfect creature in this world
>>2208971>>2208975Basically this kek; and he doesn't have any group chats or use messaging apps
No. 2209025
i'm starting to get sus of a friend whose pets keep dying all over the years that i know her. first, she rescued a cat at her mom's house but she decided she wanted to live with dad know so the cat either died or went to search another home because nobody in that house wanted it. secondly, her dog at her dad's house was run over because he always followed her and she couldn't even bother to check if her dog was still behind her or inside the house, so yeah. then, she adopted another cat and didn't sterilize her early so she had more kittens and kept 2. the mother cat was mauled to death by the neighboors dogs because she again, let them roam free and couldn't bother to block the entrance to the neighboors house. k.
time later, she adopted a sick ginger cat that she never bothered to check at the vet, and he was visibly sick, like drooling and smelling bad. she'd look at me like i'm being a bad person for not wanting to touch or interact with this cat, because i didn't want to carry biohazards and potentially get myself or my dog sick. the cat died of feline aids and she got to treat him when it was already too late and his kidneys were the size of prunes. it def wasn't a money thing because she always had money to doordash with her boyfriend, give him expensive gifts, and weed (and yes this bf doesn't reciprocate but she's a pickme that doesn't want to understand).
i started to realize this when again, one of her cats was run over in a very similar way to her previous dog. she died and with one cat left, she still does nothing to close her fucking patio. but that wasn't enough, she needed to prove how much of a good person she is by adopting another poor kitty. this time everything was going good, very poor litter higiene but this cat was feral and went domesticated with her love. and then this cats get visibly sick and complains everytime we touched her back, pointing to a strange and kind of big lump in there. i tell her to please take her to the vet ASAP and don't leave it be, but smh she ran away to her mother's house just to be near her stupid fucking boyfriend again, for weeks at time. fuck this, i've seen junkies take more care for her pets than her.
No. 2209034
>>2209026There is right now amd I'm just venting, whey are you so hostile lol
>>2209027His family has two houses and he will move to the other one cuz his brother is leaving the country. Its not that big of a deal
No. 2209039
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nonas I have GOT to start manifesting my actual potential. Human emotions have had me acting like a fucking clown for so long. There's no way I could have grown up normal but there's so much I'm leaving on the table by being this retarded
No. 2209044
>>2208978Nta but that still doesn't make those women "
femcels"
No. 2209045
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>mom calls me
>turns out she wants to speak to my brother (he had his phone on silent)
>has a nice chat and asks him about his day
>brother isn't really paying attention because he's playing fortnite while talking
>goes back to me
>hangs up on me talking mid sentence, I can't even say goodbye
>calls me again because she needed something from me that I didn't have time to tell her
>hangs up on me midgoodbye again
No. 2209047
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It's been three days
No. 2209053
>>2209040Sure, if you live in a nice country with many job opportunities you can do so, but sadly I can't, it also means spending years going to another university to try at another carreer and then hope to get hired by the people of said field when in my country you're a bunch of dry bones the moment you hit your 30's.
It's basically a luxury I can't have.
I honestly think I just should've killed myself as I planned when I was 15 years old.
No. 2209064
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>>2209056You wish you would be in her shoes in 20 years time but sadly your pusy stinks and you can't fuck
(continuously bating) No. 2209105
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I fucking hate make up shopping. They reformulated my old favorite foundation and it doesn't work for me anymore. I've been going back and forth trying to find something. This had my shade and I tried it in store, looked amazing, got home and saw it in better lighting and it's GARBAGE. I'll have to return it and try again. I hate that, I can't get a clear idea of how it looks until I get home, maybe the mirror in my bathroom is just extremely unflattering
No. 2209198
The fridge and pantry has never been so empty and I've been subsisting on bread and sunflower seeds because I just get hungry all the time. I told my mom how she can get some plain greek yogurt now since I told her that I needed a break from it a few weeks ago. When I said it I felt bad, I instantly started thinking about how I can't say anything in the house. I thought of how it was a mistake, because my brother was there. When I get back to my room he texts me calling me a fool which thankfully was tame and to tell my dad about anything supermarket related. I'm at the point where I'm too tired to care but before this would have made me so nervous. The other day I was sitting at the table waiting for my dad since he was making something specific but he was on the phone, and my mom offered for me to sit on the couch. I said no thanks and paid it no mind since I was ok sitting at the table but my brother made this whole argument with her about it for nearly five minutes. It was egregious. Warping her mind, until she conceded saying she said the wrong thing, and was thinking wrong. I'm starting to really get sick of this, because they've all cost me a lot in my life, for as much as I am grateful for them, and do love them. I just can't stand this bizarre shit, I just see life differently. It pains me a lot that my older neet brother can't just make a life for himself and do something instead of mulling over what he should do and spending money on premium cookware and random shit to stockpile on all in secret. It's just unfathomable to me. He would show me expensive cookware asking me which one to get while I was crippled sick asking for just one cream I wanted to try that kept getting rejected. I'm freaking over money but he won't let me get a job that's not in the major I studied and I haven't broken through my fear. Half the problems now are just money related and I can't understand how he can't just do anything instead of bitching about debt my dad owes him. It makes me depressed because I don't hate my brother, but when he has stayed yet another year here at home, yes it depresses me. I genuinely can't go on in my life because I want to avoid conflict. I haven't had an argument or any yelling with my mom in a long time and I cherish that a lot
No. 2209269
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>>2208686>zoomers fucking up y2k fashionThe first thing that popped into my mind was this chick's invention, "aaliyahcore". According to Guap, aaliyahcore is supposed to be a chimera of: "girlie, alternative, cyber y2k with a splash of Decora and Harajuku fashion". Honestly, this just proves that fashion genres are in different categories
for a reason.
No. 2209336
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I cannot fucking stand people like picrel. Every day I have to soothingly talk my friend out of this state and I become less sympathetic each time.
No. 2209352
>>2209263Maybe suggest she gets treatment for her depression, it would help a lot.
>>2209336I only got good results with these people when I stopped giving them the attention they ask for. Specifically, when I stopped coddling them out of their bullshit and started agreeing with them when they started grovelling. They're so fucking exhausting.
No. 2209359
I started volunteering in the evenings. The first night, I worked with two guys, and it went pretty well, though I was kind of annoyed having to spend so much time with moids. The second night, I worked with this super nice girl, and we had a lot of laughs, even though it was a bit awkward since we’d just met. Then the third night, I worked with another woman I hadn’t met yet, and it was super weird. When I got there, she told me to “wait five minutes,” then disappeared for like 15, leaving me standing in the hallway like an idiot. The whole evening, she pretty much ignored me. Every time I tried to chat, she'd just give me one-word answers like “yes,” “no,” or just “hmm.” So, I eventually stopped talking because it was so uncomfortable. Then, when the girl I’d worked with before came in, this woman suddenly became super chatty with her and kept ignoring me. Even when the other girl tried to include me, she’d do her best to leave me out. Eventually, she said she was exhausted from her day (they both volunteer full-time) and left to “go sleep.” After I finished up and was heading out, I saw her outside smoking with the two guys from the first night. They said goodbye to me, but she just ignored me again. What did I even do to deserve this? I’d hate for her to dislike me because she thinks I’m trying to get attention from scrotes. I joined this group to boost my application for school and hopefully make some friends (women only), this turn of event is making me sad.
No. 2209367
>>2209352Yeah but the problem is this friend is from an
abusive home that reinforces her tendency to do this at every opportunity. She's not just like this for no reason so it's pretty shit of me to rag on her for it when that's really just what she's expected to do to appease them.
I wish I had no conscience so I could punch her and scream PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER. But, I'm the only one on her side, so I have to be empathetic and patient.
No. 2209375
i need to scream into a void. im likely going to be homeless in a few weeks after just starting online schooling. my relationship fucking sucks sometimes. im stressed. im alone. i already wanted to die but this solidifies my thoughts
my mum rents, i live with her and her partner. landlord decided to sell the house before our lease is up. mums friend said we could apply to rent one of his houses, but his real estate agent are stupidly strict. my mum makes $20k a year and her partner and i dont work. her credit score is abysmall. we will never find a place. her partners mum is ok with taking them in, but not me, leaving me for the streets
i dont have highshool education. geds dont exist in my country. i just started tafe and ill likely drop out because of the homelessness shit. centrelink wont pay me enough to rent. im also super disabled, but not disabled enough for centrelink to give me pension even though i can barely walk, chronic pain everywhere, barely functional mentally too. semi diagnosed autism. possible ocd. practically manic anxiety. im literally retarded and insane
school started 2 days ago and i need to complete every assignment and test with a 100/100 to pass, apparently? what the fuck? i cant do this
ldr boyfriend is likely going to break up with me so ill lose my one support that isnt fucking drinking myself to blackout
i just want to stick a gun in my mouth and pull the trigger most days. i cant live in a shelter. i can't live on the streets. ive been sexually abused by both, pimped, treated like meat, i trust not a single person i dont trust living near men or women. not my own gender nor the opposite. ill have nowhere to go thats safe though. i have no friends, no family with space for me. i dont see a future for me nonnas
No. 2209395
>>2209341>>2209344OCD has been kicking my ass lately as well. I’m genuinely so tired of washing my hands. It’s driving me insane. My hands are almost always bright red from the frequent washing, and as much as I love colder weather, I’m dreading the heaters being on everywhere drying out my skin even more, because the combo of that with washing my hands all the time makes them feel like sandpaper. Which reminds me, I need to buy more hand cream. Thanks to an anon on here iirc, I finally found one that actually works and doesn’t sting my skin.
Anyhow, I hope your brains are more peaceful today.
No. 2209401
>>2209381I have been this person myself. I don't know how old you are, but if you're a young adult you may just grow out of it. Another thing that strangely helped me from being an emotional wreck was a several year period of isolation which taught me some kind of internal calmness I'd been lacking.
Specifically around extreme apology spirals, try to keep in mind even through the mental state that [more apologies = less angry] is above all not effective. It makes people try to placate and soothe you, so it feels like it works, but of course you know that it doesn't really. Try to make that sink in emotionally.
No. 2209472
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How do I brainwash myself into being asexual and a stupid handmaiden? I'm tired of being surrounded by gendie supporting retards and women who sacrifice their entire dignity to baby men. I don't want to be attracted to women if that just means I'll be single my whole life, but being straight would be worse because dating men is actual abuse. I just want to actually like my friends and to not worsen my suicidal thoughts. Stupid people are always happier. Should I look for a shady clinic in a shithole place that will give me a lobotomy?
(I know asexuality don't real but I want it to be real just for me)
No. 2209479
>>2209464I think the issue in the end is that women are expected to sacrifice everything, because if she wanted to work from home she would either get fired or get paid less, and when she wants to continue working even if she's about to give birth, then people get annoyed by her existence because she dared to want to have a family of her own.
Workplaces and people in general are just shit, I haven't been pregnant and I honestly don't plan to get pregnant any sooner, but I feel bad about the women that try to follow these implied rules like having to shut up even if you're not feeling okay and accepting whichever made up consequences people create for whatever you do.
No. 2209529
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I fear this may be the one, anons
No. 2209610
>>2209033omg
nonnie same, it would be funny if we were in the same class
No. 2209631
>>2209620>22you're a child and have all the time in the world to get your shit together and make a change if you want
I don't know who/what started this trend of 20-24 yr olds feeling like they failed at life but this shit needs to stop
there are people who do a 180 in their 30s, you have 2 choices:
>complain and whine and do nothing>get your shit together and try to find a solution to your problemIt's hard, because life is hard, but not impossible.
No. 2209640
>>2209620Sis, I fucked up and killed a man ten years after you're saying your life is over, and I still recovered. You'll be fine.
Option one, do commissions for degenerates and roll in the money. Or option two, use your bachelor's to get a government job. They didn't care what the bachelor's is in, they just require it to be hired. My friend with a bachelor's in egyptology now edits grants for a living and after only seven years of doing this she makes ninety thousand at a work from home job. It's just a piece of paper to prove to an employer that you're less retarded than average.
No. 2209650
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Who up not knowing who they actually are? Looking in the mirror and not recognizing the person you see
No. 2209658
>>2209649>toxic father who projects life failures onto his daughteryeah that explains a lot of your initial post, you need to detach yourself from your family, both physically (if possible, but the world is so fucked up rn) and emotionally, don't let him drag you down ever, he's lived his life, with his own choices, your life is yours and NOBODY else's
>I have seen the trend of people my age or younger thinking that life is over after X age because of social mediaI am 30+ and my previous post was speaking exactly from this perspective and from seeing this snowball in the recent years, the expectations are highly unrealistic, even at this age I feel like there's a lot of shit I don't have together and there is nothing wrong with that, life is about learning, for some things go smoother whereas for others - they're late bloomers
I think there might be value in your art degree but the market seems saturated at this point, the best advice I could give is thinking of a side hustle. IT & programming job market is also on shaky ground so I don't know if I could recommend that.
Accounting will always be needed, I personally hate it but I know women who switched from different jobs to that and have a stable and good source of income, and not that much stress compared to other jobs.
Best of luck to you young nonna, you can do this!
No. 2209662
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Why do men shill flat chests / petite bodies so much nowadays? back in 2013 men would talk about how women their age were attractive and they talked about big boobs and big butts. Almost all the men I have meet either have yellow fever or are lolicons or like women way younger than them (redpill theorist moids). It's like when I was a little girl men were normal and liked women their age and also built wholesome relationships, now that I am an adult most of the other adult women/older teenagers are trying to look as young as possible to pander to men, the beauty standard nowadays is anime-like neoteny.
I am unsure if this makes me mad or sad but it creates insecurity in women and it creates child rapist desires in men and they play it as a "funny based chad ironic joke". I know some guys like big boobs but they say shit like "mommy peg me" and sexualize females with developed bodies in a freudian way instead of seeing them as an equal. It's like modern men categorize women in two categories
>little naive virginal skinny girls who will do anything for them
>busty extra slutty milfs with very large breasts who will do anything for them
the internet was absolutely catastrophic for male sexuality and I fear I will never meet a normal man.
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So it's okay for you to make teasing comments about my weight or sexual history but I can't make a teasing comment back towards you? A harsh edgy joke that isn't even anything personal about you? Oh, okay. I see how it is. You're a faggot who can't handle any sort of mocking joke but is quite happy to do it towards me. No-one blinks an eye when the jokes have me as the subject but as soon as it's you suddenly there is a problem. Don't dish out what you can't take.
No. 2209700
>>2209698It genuinely repulses me when people (but especially males) act needy and spoiled when it comes to my attention.
>Oh…you're not talking then? WaaaaahLIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU PARASITE WE ARE ADULTS WITH JOBS
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I wish there was someplace I can meet real lesbians in their 20s and make friends. Not queers or trannies or "sapphic" straight women. Actual real homosexual women. They don't even have to be feminists, just normal.
I wish there was a strong women's/lesbian culture nowadays like there was in the 70s to 2000s. I just got done reading Dykes to Watch Out For and it made me sad because I know I'll never have that. A big group of lesbian friends just living life and doing stuff together. Same with The L Word.
I'm 23 years old and I live in a big metropolitan area. But everyone here is brainwashed into queerio shit. I don't really want online friends because I think I spent too much time behind a screen and I want to make some IRL connections too. I went to Big Mouth Girl (basically Michfest's spirit successor) last year and had a good time, but still felt lonely because even the youngest people there were twice my age. I work in the construction trades, but the only other woman my age working at my job is straight and wants to flirt with and talk about guys. I want some similar age friends. Not even a gf, but friends. I am so lonely.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm the last of my kind. I feel like the only 20-something normal feminist-leaning lesbian in the world. Sometimes I think I should just give up, and pretend I believe in tranny shit even though I never bought into it at all. Become non-binary or something just to have a friend group with women. (I never got along well with normie straight women because they're all so homophobic against lesbians but will suck up to trannies and RuPaul any day of the week, plus I can't relate with them, they're all getting married and having kids and icing out their non-mom friends.)
No. 2209741
>>2209732NTA but she said >I went to Big Mouth Girl (basically Michfest's spirit successor) last year and had a good time, but still felt lonely because even the youngest people there were twice my age.
Twice the age of 23 is 40 something which is fine but it's understandable to want to be friends with people closer to her age. I don't see her saying anything about being weary of younger millennials, but a lot of people in that age group also drank the trans-koolaid.
i would know as a bisexual woman in that age group No. 2209827
>>2209816Kek I meant DBT.
>>2209821I don't even know, I'm initially excited when I have a new friendship prospect but I get anxious when I see their message and I keep postponing the reply until I give up. I probably fear that I'm too boring and lame.
No. 2210016
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sweet mother of jesus
No. 2210057
>>2210040Wishing you and your friends well
nonnie. That is so traumatizing. I hope things get better for you. It's good to have you back.
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I want to go read by my apartment complex's pool, get some fresh air and sun on my skin and maybe take a quick dip in the pool but this group of Indian men who live here are ALWAYS THERE hanging around. They're literally ALWAYS fucking outside! I hate even walking through my complex to the mailbox because at some point I know I'll always run into a group of them hanging around and I can feel them staring. I just want to enjoy the fucking pool! GO AWAY MEN! LEAVE!
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>>2210027I remember Neil Cicierega narrating this a million years ago in school. Jfc I'm old
No. 2210127
>>2209662Oh shut the fuck up aren't you curvy big titty women are the
victims? You're not considered a real woman if you're curveless in our society. You will get transvestigated for having small or flat chest. But "uh men are so cruel to us feminine fertile sensual fertile women uhhhhhhhh"
No. 2210298
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I need a huge bloody mary with a fuck ton of toppings
No. 2210379
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I'm scared. That's a light way of putting it I'm a concentrated disaster who is terrified. I have my job, I can keep that. Mentally I can barely keep it together. I'm getting medicated. I have the pills beside me. Anti psychotic, anti depressant and another that just makes me shit normal. I'm so scared that I will lose myself to them. I have a light inside me that's dim and I don't want it to go out. I should be able to pull myself together but I clearly cant. I need to force this with medical help. I hate having to do this but nothing else is working. Goodbye to me so I can become a blister pack pill no psycho every morning bitch. I tried to make myself better on my own but if I continue I can see the collapse on the horizon. It isn't great but it is what it is. Pill me up, fix me up, scaffold this disaster so I rebuild.
No. 2210389
>>2210350Just wondering, how long is too long to be uncreative? I feel like I can't forgive myself for giving up my artistic hobbies for what's become multiple years.
That said, I hope you can get back into writing.
No. 2210396
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The way people and men treat you after losing a lot of weight is so fucking blackpilling. All the new attention is so strange and enraging. I actually feel seen. It’s all so terrible.
No. 2210429
>>2210419>most2 is most now?
>>2210422im annoyed by any posters insisting that a thread pic needs to stay "on theme" or anything like that, but its equally stupid to reee about a threadpic just because you dont like american dad or historical pictures of women or whatever
No. 2210536
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I don’t want to work on this project Jesus Christ let me rot in bed please
No. 2210637
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I can't believe how many rare books I failed to save off the Internet Archive. Bullshit hackers completely devastated my bookmarks folder. God damn it. Also this threadpic sucks.
No. 2210674
>>2210657It depends on what type of skinny you are. They expect women to somehow be skinny and still have curves, itty bitty waist and round hips with a big butt , big boobs and no stomach kek.
That’s why I stopped giving a fuck, as long as you’re healthy it doesn’t matter.
No. 2210691
>>2210059I hate men with nothing better to do than loiter all day. My old neighbourhood was full of adult men just hanging around doing nothing all day every day and they would block sidewalks and passages, just standing around. I’d have to shove my way past them to get into a building and when I came out three hours later they’d still be there. Holy shit if you can’t get a job then go do something else that’s productive instead of standing around
gossipping having deep manly discussions all day.
The worst part was that they were mostly Muslim men who refused to acknowledge my existence as a non-veiled non-Muslim woman. They would physically block passageways and pretend they couldn’t hear me asking them to please let me through, only politely stepping aside when a man walked by. I’m so glad I was able to move away from there.
No. 2210756
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I hate the job I have right now, I hate the small town I live in, I hate my body and my tired face, I hate the monotonous life I lead. Now I just wanna finish college and then leave, but I feel like by the time I will graduate it will be too late since I will be 26 then and where I live people have a good wage job, a long term relationship, stories to tell and I got none of these.
I lived by others’ rules (still do since I’m a coward) and it got me nothing besides 3 suicide attempts and having suicidal ideation occupying my mind the entirety of my academic career (which is why I dropped out of my first college). All that to be the perfect kid and even then I still wasn’t.
I wish I was a bad child instead since I never had been normal anyway - a good chunk of my childhood was spent in hospitals and I also got misdiagnosed with autism/mental delay at 2 and took strong meds for a short time and a bunch of other medical errors that probably crippled parts of my brain and ptsd for life.
Sometimes I wish I had commited suicide when I had those attempts on one hand, but on the other, I love my parents and I don’t want to do this to them and honestly, my life got better after I dropped out of college. And tbh, suicide sounds wack and boring to me at this point.
It’s just…I have no patience anymore, I wanna run from this life, but at this point, it might be too late for me. Seeing former classmates of mine doing great cements my idea that I should probably let the earth reclaim me, that way I will be useful somehow. Guess I will just delete instagram for the time being, makes me feel suicidal lately.
No. 2210803
>>2209620Wow, you sound just like me nona. I'm about to graduate and I fucked up because I'm majoring in a field that prefers people with the polar opposite personality type to mine in the workplace culture. Not to mention, I constantly find myself longing to be back in the country where I did a student exchange because I realised that I'm an outcast in my own country…
Have you ever considered taking a leave of absence from studying and returning when your mental health improves? During that time, you could work full time, or focus on side projects that you're passionate about.
No. 2210835
>>2210807> Seems like college isn't for you and i mean it in the nicest way possible.Don’t worry nonna, I already knew that which is why I chose one of the easiest unis in the country and I’m thriving here, it’s very chill(first uni was the most prestigious and with the most psycho teachers there kek). Unfortunately, in my country, having no uni is a ticket to minimum wage salary for most of your life and good jobs usually weed out the ones without at least a bachelor’s degree, even if they have experience and whatnot.
It’s also the fact that I want to leave this town and gain general life experience and I don’t have patience anymore, the thought that I have to rush before the years pass is eating me alive.
No. 2210854
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I’m a half normalfag half weirdofag. I’m mourning that I had to get rid of Genshin Impact (cringe game choice I know gatcha is for smelly tards I get it) but I had pretty decent well-built characters and I mainly liked it for the battle system. Had a good Yanfei, good Childe as a DPS with other good support characters like Raiden, Bennett, etc. and my Fischl was great and was building Sucrose as well. I was also trying to build other characters because I was getting lucky pulls with the artifacts but couldn’t keep up because every damn month they were inserting new characters in the game. I can’t imagine how bloated the game is with the ridiculous new characters and new worlds, they should’ve ended it right after that desert world but I get they have to cater to their designated players which are primarily the Chinese/Japanese. Mourning I can’t even play it because my phone can’t handle the graphics anymore due to it being like a computer desktop game with a bazillion DLCs but downloading it on a smaller device, can’t even play it on my laptop or it would heat up into a crisp. Gaming pcs cost hundreds to build and thousands to buy, I just want to seek out fun during my very tiring, stressful and draining part of my life, this feels more like an /m/ vent but seriously I just want to have fun!!! I like fighting games lol
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I gained 3lbs since the last time I weighed myself.
No. 2210919
>>2210914I really am sorry about your situation, nona, but
>overweight old dog nobody petsThis mental image made me so sad
No. 2210955
>>2210949Yes, it definitely is. I'm a mid looking woman who cleans up nice with the right makeup and clothes and it's very noticeable.
>>2210951Ok but fatties do overeat kek. You don't gain weight by drinking water and breathing.
No. 2210972
>>2210963Yeah but you weren’t fat anymore, that’s the thing. An average woman who has a BMI of 19 (which is healthy) and a woman with the same face , but who is fat , gets treated worse. Just look at how people treat fat women with contempt and pity. I even admit that I do that too and when I realize it I correct myself.
You don’t have to compare yourself to bombshell to see that difference nonna.
No. 2210973
>>2210964>which means he is suddenly repulsed by me. He has never liked me and no one has ever loved me because I am evil and disgusting inside.Why do you think you're repulsive and evil? It sounds to me like someone put those thoughts on your head in your formative years and now, even if there is no evidence, you still feel it. It's a mind parasite. Think about real situations: do your friends like being around you? If someone else did the things you feel evil for, would you find
them evil?
Maybe your boyfriend is going through something unrelated that is affecting his behavior. Maybe he just fell out of love. It happens, doesn't mean anything about your value as a human being.
Focus on the real life evidence you have of yourself and how other perceive you.
No. 2211050
>>2210964>My boyfriend is giving me less attention Shame on him. He's not doing his boyfriend duties. Have you told him you want to see him more?
>which means he is suddenly repulsed by me.Nonny how did you get here? Did you always think like you're evil? If so, you're probably wrong and need to work on those intrusive thoughts. If not and you only started feeling like this after you dated him, then he's inciting these feelings somehow. Either way, please feel better soon nonna.
No. 2211161
>>2211151It has side effects, be aware. It’s a good way to tackle obesity though, I’d implement diet change with it too, because you can’t expect to be on ozempic your whole life.
I don’t think it’s cheating , obesity is a disease.
No. 2211181
>>2211176And I just keep getting better cuz I do daily self art studies too. I haven't posted on social media for YEARS due to mental health. They kept telling me I'm soooo good and giving me positive feedback. Now that I'm actually back on socials and instantly seeing success now I'm not a real artist or "People are only following them because she's a chick"
Which again, no one knows my gender on any of my socials. I'm just posting. GUH!
I'm so happy they're out of the group. They just went back to Hyun's dojo. They can stay there.
No. 2211210
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nothing more pathetic than seeing a moderately good female streamer who keeps her coomer audience at bay fall into coomerbait shit for coombux..and playing a game that has canon zoo shit and pedoshit in it..im so tired of this shit
No. 2211367
I’m so tired of being a loser and having everyone think I’m weird, I thought that when women said they were the most insecure when they were young adults they were being dramatic but holy fuck I actually want to kill myself and have been contemplating ways to do it I just can’t anymore and on top of that i think I have mental issues and I’ve been telling the people you are supposed to tell this to (school counsellor, parents, old people I go to church with etc) but nobody gives a shit and it’s getting worse as time goes on. Idk if I’m actually mentally ill tho or just astronomically lazy but it’s getting harder and harder to go on with my life and I try to surround myself with people to feel something, anything, but ig everybody in the fucking world is just soooooooooooo busy right now huh?!? God, I’m just so tired like there’s really no point in going on, I can already tell my life is going to come at a standstill at some point and that’ll be it I won’t be able to keep the charade up anymore like I’m genuinely scared and feel alone but nobody fucking CARES that’s the part that’s pissing me off the most I just want someone to be like “aw, anon seems to be going through a rough patch and wanted to hang out today, I hope that I can cheer her up!” But no. This is why im so cringe, in a desperate attempt to mask whatever the fuck is going on internally, I’m so super annoying and act like fucking pinkie pie if she was touched as a kid or something and I can tell everyone thinks I’m weird af because in one second I go from 0 to 100 like -.- to XDDDDDDDDDD and I can’t even help it idk wtf is wrong with me. The way I act and my mannerisms are so fucking sped too idk whats up w that. I used to not care about this but now all I think about is how I come off to other people, how my hair looks, my clothes blah blah blah. All I want is someone to talk to about this (the mental stuff not my clothes). Heck I’ll even be content with a decrepit old man trying to groom me like I’d actually be happy that someone is even bothering to give me the time of day but even they don’t want me kek . I didn’t care about things like how others perceived me as a teenager but for whatever reason this eats me up alive whenever I think about what I did/said throughout the day. Don’t get me started on my parents. I remember there was a short period of time I tried to gain a little weight and started tracking my calorie intake or whatever and I was so shocked to see that on average I eat 700 calories a day because my mom makes it seem like I’m some insatiable elephant that will absolutely clean out our fridge if someone doesn’t stop me. I don’t even cook, I lay on my bed and starve instead of making anything because I have 0 motivation and even less energy to do it. She makes other stupid ass remarks about me but whatever. Whenever I tell my parents I’m not feeling well, they’ll be like ok and let me duke it out myself, won’t get me an appointment at the gp (im poor) but If they’re feeling generous, they might give me a paracetamol. I chalked it up to me being an adult now and them not feeling the need to “baby” me anymore but my older brother gets the opposite treatment that I get. Hes autistic and literally EVERYONE takes it seriously. No one tells him to excerise, eat or pray his autism away but when it comes to me, I can tell everyone thinks I’m being over dramatic. They all have that stupid sure jan look on their faces whenever I tell someone I’m not doing well mentally because my default is to over share, be high energy and cringe. I used to do the whole if no one loves me then atleast I have GOD! And it’s not that I don’t believe (I do) but I can’t use that cope anymore because my relationship with Him is pretty much shot. I’m JW and got baptised recently (time was ticking and if you’re born into it it’s kind of expected to do it when you’re under 20) so I can’t go out and be young and dumb to “feel alive” because now it actually matters. The only thing that brings me any semblance of happiness are songs that have really bad lyrics or masturbating to gay erotica fan fiction . Man that feels finally good to say it out loud. I keep a diary and never wrote that, I just kept it vague like dear diary I sinned today but today ig this stupid fucking rant on lol cow of all places is what finally gets me to admit it. Yes, I read GAY MEN VIOLENTLY FUCKINGGGGGGG AND GET OFF TO IT (and just porn in general sadly but mostly that). Sometimes I’ll even dedicate several hours of my day to getting off to pretending that I live in a fantasy land where people care about me and I have a big strong boyfriend who dicks me down good ok let me live it’s cold out here. And what’s even more cringe is that there’s this old man at work that I’ve absolutely latched on to omg it makes my skin crawl because I find any excuse to talk to him and ewwww everyone has noticed and gives me weird looks and no one wants to talk to me anymore. I think he liked me (not sexually or anything atleast I don’t think so) but because I’m so fucking weird he’s started to distance himself from me and apart from this one other girl he was the only person I talked to now everyone sees me as this weird freak loner loser that had a crush on an old man. Point is, I absolutely refuse to live like this and fuck the whole “you’ll just make everyone sad uguuu” why should I have to be miserable just to make others feel comfortable?????? FUCKK EVERYONEEE
Wow that felt really good to get off my chest. When I started to write this I was crying, but by the end I was feeling a lot more giddy. I hope whatever this is, it’s temporary because if not, there’s really no point.
No. 2211376
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Fuck my clapped ass face. i wish i was faceless or something
No. 2211380
A very, very dear friend of mine had to take her entire uterus out because of cancer last year, at that point it had gotten so bad her uterus was three times it's usual size. It seemed like they had gotten everything out and she was fine, even if it would take my otherwise very active friend some time to get back to her feet - if ever get back to be able to compete like she used to.
Yesterday she found out it was back. It hasn't even been a year. I don't know if it's because it's spread to different parts of her body, we haven't talked yet since she announced it on her social media because she doesn't want to do the rounds calling people close to her about it again.
I don't know what to do. My roommate and I are gonna try to get in touch and ask if she wanna come over and hang out, we don't wanna be the 25th person these past few days to ask how she's doing - she's most likely answered that question many times enough already.
But fuck, I know it's what everyone thinks when it's someone you care about but still, why did it have to be her? She has fought tooth and nail through her life to finally achieve her dreams, she has worked from living in the slums with a dad going in and out of jail to now working at her dream company doing what she loves. She is someone that cares about so many people and I've never met someone that believes in other people and their capabilities the way she does. She's a master at figuring out people's potential and help them realize it. She is such an incredibly generous person. I don't want her to go through this, and I don't want her to die. She has overcome so much, I don't want to believe the possibility that cancer out of everything is gonna be the thing taking her out.
No. 2211396
>>2211385There’s a trans bobs burgers character now? Glad I quit that show a long time ago. I guess it was never that great since most of the female characters were voiced by men since the start
>in the clurb we all famI’m still upset that Jewess sex poz Hilary voter Ilana from Broad City is an enby
No. 2211470
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i am fairly certain my boss browses lolcow which means i can't complain about my job anymore
No. 2211542
>>2211533stop that now and i say that as someone who does donate to causes like these no gazan is going to plead to people personally they always will ask for donations through
valid channels
we all know these kind of things are rife with scams. you probably got scammed nona
No. 2211647
>>2211637Bitches like you sit here and complain constantly. “Wow is me!” , you can break up.
It’s so damn pathetic each time, you have morons treating you like literal shit and who even have the balls to speak about their dream girl that is different from you 24/7, who are porn addicts and can’t even spare you a single compliment or appreciation. Letting a man walk all over you is the biggest disservice you could do to yourself.
Are you that scared of being alone?
No. 2211656
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I yapped too much today and opened up about a story I've been working on, only to get some awkward energy back from the person I was talking to. It wasn't outright negative but just made me feel stupid. No idea why I even talked about it at all since I've been writing it for myself, and I never plan to let anyone else actually see it. Ugh I can't help but cringe at the thought of my story now because it keeps reminding me of that interaction
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Bump
No. 2211688
>>2211682it’s ok to feel sad
nonny just don't defend his actions and there’s really nothing wrong
No. 2211745
>>2211740Speaking as a white woman this isn't even racebait, they have a retarded superiority complex which results in behaviour like this.
>>2211637He's negging you, nona, this is deliberate and calculated behaviour. Nobody except annoying porn addicted weebs gives a fuck about flat chests. Leave him.
No. 2211800
I am so jealous of my nigel's ex.
>junkie
>addicted to weed, percs, and addies since she was a teen
>bpd
>but very conventionally attractive
>much better looking than me
>attention whore
>honestly a cow kek
>they dated four years ago for six months
I was angry a while ago because he had some artwork his ex made for him as a vday gift still hanging on the wall when I moved into his house. I didn't think much of it for months until I stalked her socials and saw the same exact artwork. I confronted him in tears, and he sincerely apologized and threw the artwork away. He said he genuinely forgot it was there, and to be fair, it was sort of in an obscure area in the room. I believe him, but at the same time… what the fuck, dude? My nigel can be retarded at times. Everything else in our relationship has been perfect, we almost never argue, and loving him feels as easy as breathing. We're already talking about getting married. I know I should feel secure, but I cannot get over his ex. I really feel hideous compared to her. My bf actually quit smoking and weed because of me, and I feel like a killjoy. I'm not "fun" like her. I had a nightmare last night that he still had her nudes on his phone. I'm doomed, nonnies.
No. 2211817
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i hate ovulating because i get so horny that i get lonely and want a boyfriend ive never had one and it doesnt bother me that much usually but when im ovulating its like really bad
No. 2211829
>>2211800I mean…. Why did you stalk her so intensely? If they dated years ago, why did you dig that deep? Im not sure why you are wildin out on him. You're worried about a woman he dated at a different time in his life? If anything, doesn't the fact they broke up a good indicator of change?
He's with you, so why you are worried? Maybe going so deep in his past is a way to protect yourself for what you feel is inevitable. Plot twist, maybe you do deserve a good relationship and have chosen the right person. Its scary, but enjoy it. Especially if you are used to big arguments in a relationship. Focus on the problems that can be fixed, like how you helped him sober up.
Maybe be up front about the anxiety you are struggling with. Im sure he would understand.
And yes fully aware I am a question machine but I just smoked for the first time in a year… oops No. 2211844
Feeling devastated tonight because the guy I was in love with told me tonight that he has never loved me and lied to me about that, and our plans he future faked me about, because it was "beneficial" for him. Mostly keeping up pretense for me to be "happy" even though he did not love me back so he would not die alone. Most sociopathic shit I have ever heard. Claimed he warned me about not being a good person and dropping supposed hints, but golly gosh wouldn't telling me that he loves me, not acting like the piece of shit he was on the inside, and then playing up perfect chemistry might have gaslit me into believing otherwise??? Basically he gave me no choice: He cruelly said either I could accept things as they were to go back to being fake happy with me loving him while he did not love me, or ending it. I did what I had to do.
Aside from his comic book villain brand of sudden "honesty"…I am so mad at myself. I broke so many of my rules for him i.e. traveling to see him, buying him things for nothing in return, and all the while my efforts were being taken advantage of. It was all for nothing. Of course. Men don't respect women like me who do that for them. Ugh, he even shook my self-esteem a few times by calling me "homely hot" and saying how everyone around me thinks I'm standoffish. I fell into him more because I thought he understood me but I was such a fool.
Worst of all, he made it in good with his fake impressions with my close friend circle to the point where they are telling me to cool off and not to do anything rash (I asked them to remove him from our chat group and how I will not be attending the events he goes to) as if my screencap receipts of him literally telling me that he lied isn't absolutely batshit. He said to me over the phone that he would go to our mutual events just to dig into me to spite me.
I cannot believe they want to keep him around just because he's charming. I really hope they were just too busy to read the screenshots and are presuming it was a petty breakup cause otherwise…I don't know if I can be their friend anymore.
No. 2211861
>>2211857I find it so cringey that people are comfortable putting their name and face on the internet like it's nothing nowadays, especially children. Such a thing used to be unthinkable.
>>2211859People learning about how much attention they could get from the internet ruined everything.