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I have a really bad, mostly secret shopping addiction. I buy almost entirely designer clothing (I'm really stingy when it comes to eating out or vacations), and I spend a categorically retarded amount of money on it. I've successfully put off doing the math for a couple of years, but I finally got the courage yesterday and it's in the six figures…
Even thinking about that makes me feel weak and sweaty. I'm so fucking stupid, I could have paid for a house with that money. For someone reason I get fixated on one brand or one collection at a time, and I get autistic about getting individual pieces that I obsess over. I don't have any debt or family obligations (have been estranged since high school), and I make enough to cover my spending and not that much more.
I've tried to quit before, but it's never lasted for more than a week or so. It's hard when I'm like a magpie and need to have any shiny object that catches my attention, and films/television are filled with people wearing picturesque clothing. My bf knows about my problem, but no one else does and I'd be mortified if anyone found out I was this retarded. Idk what to do and am open to any advice.