Thanks. Yeah later that day I thought I really should have just immediately punched him in the face. It might have felt good for a moment, but although he is a relatively thin guy I am considerably thinner and I don't think I would have caused him much pain. Perhaps I could have kicked his balls, but I agree it's probably good I held back as a physical assault would also have shown him how he affected me, not to mention it could have put me in trouble.
I also wish I would tell everyone about what he did and how gross he is (for example, his family and friends who all probably only know his nice and charming side), but for some reason I feel I don't have the courage to expose myself that way to others. I feel VERY ashamed to have been so invaded and violated by his filth, even though it's obviously not my fault. So I have to deal with these mixed feelings. From my understanding this can be common for sexual abuse victims
, not that my case is equally bad as more direct sexual violence.>>380899
Violated is extremely fitting for how I felt that moment and still feel to this day.
Many, many men are disgusting creeps and predators and this ordeal has opened my eyes towards the need for us girls to always be on the lookout for such people, in order to protect ourselves and the women and girls close to us. I certainly will always hide my personal objects and hygiene products whenever I feel there's a risk a man might have access to them and feel lewd about them.
I am aware there are decent, nice and family men out there, but until I know I can trust one I'll always be careful around every man, no exceptions. Thank you for your input.
Here's something that goes completely against my character (I am a curious girl and usually prefer to know stuff rather than to have the bliss of ignorance): sometimes I wish he had never told me about this. It would still be equally gross but at least I feel I would be able to move on with my life. But then I wouldn't know to be wary of seemingly educated and nice dudes. Also, knowing about it makes me definitely not look up to him at all anymore, so it seems fair that he does not get the good energy feelings from me anymore.
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