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I actually post about it before, but it keeps coming in bouts, so what the hell.
This is very dumb, but sometimes I still daydream about being in Tokyo/Japan for my research project and being scouted by someone on the street (like a real agent, not gaijin hunters) or catching the eye of an obnoxious japanese TV show and becoming a model/tarento. This is obviously never going to happen because I am literally the anti-japanese beauty standard lol
>not super skinny
>nearing my 30s
>despite having a gaijin nose, I have black hair and brown almond eyes so no "anglo gaijin novelty"
>kinda ugly anyway
The only way this would ever be possible is if I had a "Gap moe" appeal, having this image that is very "gangster" but actually being cute/polite/dressing in lolita maybe. Kinda like Lady Beard lol But not only is that a very, very small chance, but it's like… I'd probably have to be signed to an agency before going to Japan, anyway.
It's so stupid that I still have teenage tier daydreams like that, but I can't help it. Probably they'll disappear when I get to Japan again, because I'd be too busy to think about being a moderu tarento gaijin san kek