>>421683>>421669Okay so just an update.
Mom and manchild have been getting more distant and snubbing me more. Manchild is still always, ALWAYS talking or sitting around or walking in/out, so when I leave my room, I must pretend everything is fine and talk when he speaks. While Im trying to emotionally detach, its not easy as Im isolated so theyre just about I have irl. Pathetic ik.
When I was showering, I heard mom walk by (you can hear everything in this place), so she knows I was in there. All of a sudden the water turns super hot, scalding, due to laundry, so she did it on purpose, I think. Other times she told me she waits to do the laundry when manchild is in the shower for that reason.
Stupidly, I couldnt take it anymore and talked to mom about this. I was so wrecked up ugly crying and shaking what I was holding. She got mad at me! She raised her voice and started swearing, saying, "Fine! I wont fucking wash anything while youre in there!", "You think I would do that?", "FFS theres always something wrong!", "You hate us (her & manchild), I can feel it!". She threatened to not take the dog to the vet this week for its appointment, if "youre (me) going to be like this!" I told her to not punish our pet for this. She said she just said that cause she was mad, and that we are bringing the dog to the vet. Then she cried and said me and manchild are all she has, so she would never do such a thing (scalding) deliberately to me.
Stupidly I told her I was really depressed due to grief, and she asked if I should go to a psychologist. So now theyll probably make me out to be crazy, when really, they could use some therapy themselves. I said Id rather work on getting a career. Later on she apologized for her behavior and denied scalding on purpose.
Later that evening after dinner, not really late, they were both sleeping. I really, really wanted to leave. Ive never gone on a walk or out by myself in so long, due to agoraphobia and not being in the safest area.
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