/g/ - girl talk

>>523035
100% me. When I was 21-24 I was going out and meeting people going on dates just fully discovering my lesbian sexuality and being outgoing and social. Now I’m 29 and I haven’t even gotten the train by myself in like 5 years. I haven’t got a single friend or girlfriend. I have firmly regressed, but you know what? I’ve developed as a writer, built/am building my dream superhero body in my home gym, spending precious time with my elderly cat, just living my retiree-style indoors life. Maybe in a year or two I’ll jump back into society, but it’s TOTALLY OK to take time out. You are in control of your own life and can change things at any time.

I was in and out of several schools for mental health reasons, and then I fell ill. I now go to a place for fellow spergs but even then I am mostly absent. I am too drugged up on painkillers to participate in any hobbies to keep the loneliness at bay. I am incapable of getting a job because of my sickness. I spend a lot of time sleeping. I wish I had a cat at least but this house is too cramped and I likely would not be able to care for it properly. I cling mentally to short term therapy once a week because I get a visitor. I have nothing to contribute online. I know how friendships work and I have no access to a natural environment for a friendship to form. There are people I know through family but they're too busy with their lives. All I can do is watch myself deteriorate mentally and physically.

>>524212
Damn I dont even know what I could say to this to help. Im sorry.

I think I'm cursed with not making long-lasting online friends. My good friend blocked me (She's a TIM and it's a shame because we knew each other for a long time and was genuinely fun to talk to. Always told me about her interests and struggles irl, even before this gender shit got to her. I hope she doesn't kill herself.)
From Discord servers, Xitter (quit after a month), friend making sites, games, no such luck. It's not like I stare at the screen and expect people to respond or bombard people with messages, I actually do put in the effort and try to talk to them, especially on Discord. I'd be so excited, chat for a while, become disinterested, then leave the server. Always felt like I was walking on eggshells around them. In the only game I play, when I chat, no one responds to me - morning, noon or night. My side on Tumblr is quiet but it's so boring there and my mutual hasn't been online for over a year. We'd write long messages about our favorite anime and she bought merch because of me. I posted twice in the friend finder thread but the first anon hasn't responded in a year, the second in months. They're most likely busy, hope they're doing well. Semi-unrelated but anytime a nonna showed interest in a husbando I liked, I'd never hear her again.
I keep myself busy by doing non-strenuous chores, hobbies, anything to keep myself from thinking about how I should try again. Since I was diagnosed with PCOS, I've been so tired, even with treatment. A couple months ago, I cried a lot and wanted to commit suicide. Sometimes had the urge to cut but never went through with it. And due to my shrimp posture over the years, it hurts so bad, no matter what I do. I'm not lazy, I just want to rest.

I have a small friend group irl who I love to death but after Covid, I struggle to message them. Maybe I shouldn't worry too much about this because when we meet up, it's all good. In college, I felt like a grandma trying to fit in since everyone talks to much and I'm so out of the loop of what's popular nowadays. Glad it's over. As embarrassing as this sounds, the only persons I talk to daily are my mother and nana. We get along well.
I had speech delay growing up and was called the weird one by a lot of my female classmates during my school years so this might have been inevitable. Yes, I was bullied but it stopPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

i feel like i'll never be in a healthy relationship. i'm not appealing to guys, i'm in my mid 20s and still never had a relationship other than a few fucked up online situationships that ultimately resulted in me getting treated horribly. i'm not super ugly but i'm weird and mildly autistic and would prefer to date someone from a similar cultural background as i'm from. i'm trying to get involved in social circles now finally, but even then it feels futile as everyone else would prefer a normie or is already seeing someone. people tell me to settle with a weird ugly moid but even those don't treat you right.

i would love to have a love life reading if anyone is up to it. i know everyone and their mother wants one but i feel that am unable to meet and connect with prospective romantic partners due to my country and my sexuality. it bums me out seeing other (gay) women around me find partners by pure luck when i haven't even encountered someone i feel attraction towards to yet. (and when those aforementioned people are the only homosexual people i know) i feel really happy for them, don't get me wrong! i just really want to know what a relationship is like and when that is coming in for me.

>>528390
i am a beginner so take everything with a grain of salt.
the tower, strength, the lovers and the ten of swords on the bottom. the tower jumped out during shuffling… from what i understand i think quite soon something may happen that will shake the foundations of your current life and you will have to start all over again. i got the feeling that you may be forced to move away, but whatever this bad thing is described by the tower and the ten of swords its also necessary for anything good to happen. strength is basically advice to stay strong, and the lovers indicates a soulmate-like connection that follows this bad event. i know this reading doesnt seem so love-oriented, but as i understand it all of this will happen so suddenly in such quick succession that once the bad event has taken place you wont have time to wrap your head around everything before you meet this person. leo and gemini are represented by strength and the lovers respectively so it may be valuable to keep an eye out for these signs in people you meet or their seasons. sorry4vague but i hope you find a nice girlfriend either way, good luck nona

>>529015
tysm nonnie… i really appreciate your insight. i hope that no matter what happens, everything ties up nicely at the end like you said.

Hi nonies. Need a quick reading again for me. Working 9 to 5 full time for nearly a year now. Mid Twenties, newly single after a 3 month "serious" relationship

>is it a good time to make a career switch? Im only 1 year into my job and I had just graduated in 2023

>should I keep staying at my job

>is what im doing now helping my future plans to do remote work

>would my ex want me back for a third time if more time has passed?

Is he sorry for what he did to me? Is there a chance he could come back? Maybe fix things as good friends again.

>>526970
update : finished the audio and it gets gross by the middle please do not take it as a recommendation

https://tomhiddlestonsoundalike.tumblr.com/post/112509269026/warning-nsfw-after-many-repeated-requests-since-i
This is period drama.
https://tomhiddlestonsoundalike.tumblr.com/post/98544665276/incubus-written-by-ovri-hd-version-warning
And this is fantasy.
I wish this creator was still around. But he's been inactive for a decade. His voice is so hot.

damn august has been workinh hard
msub to mdom
https://n3.kemono.su/data/71/0c/710c3fd5a4067414e85882cb91b7313d5b0739f2a3bb292c457404965788419c.mp3?f=dom_Mix.mp3

usual mdom
https://n2.kemono.su/data/5b/37/5b3702578b1d962a6356076b6769d15b8e555463a0be22ad88d5e7c365799b1d.mp3?f=DT_April_25.mp3

>>526970
>intimacy kink
Why is everything a damn "kink" now, even normal shit?

>>529324
I think guys retardedly dress up everything like a fetish so they can get excited about doing intimate/vanilla things. He could've just said "Loses Control of his Passion" instead, which would've been way hotter imo

Does your eating disorder make you look older or younger? Most people seem to look younger but I got into disordered habits specifically to make my face look more mature

>>529078
Oh i totally know what you mean. But i really bet you look completely fine and thin, and literally nobody without ED-brain would think "chubby'. could you try compression shorts and sports bra for your walks?

>>529153
Your body in clothes would look younger but as soon as someone sees your face you immediately look older.

>>529189
I feel like my body looks older now because I used to have no muscle tone and no curves/hips either. I feel like I was always cursed to have an ED because my genetic dice roll seems to favour it.

>>529153
My face looks more mature with the lack of fat on it when I’m super thin but it didn’t age my skin or make my face look older permanently, my boobs however is another story kek

Probably doesn't count but I used to really hate attention or being looked at/perceived as anything. I just didn't want to be anything and felt like a theythem because female was something and I didn't feel like something, I didn't feel male, so guess I was another thing. But theythem is still a "something" so I ditched that too and went back to defaults kek. Still don't want to be seen, but at least don't buy into the gendie shit

I've just come off testosterone after being on it since 2016 and am deciding to detransition.
Basically what triggered it was starting to seriously bald, and getting into a relationship with a man. I am "stealth" and, allegedly, pass. I work in a supermarket and am almost never misgendered by colleagues or customers. I'm not saying this to be like I was the rare 100% passing tranny, but more so to point out that "transphobia" or not passing did not factor into my detransition, and that my transition would be viewed as an "ideal outcome". I know you can never really tell if you pass, but I've been living for years under the assumption that I am virtually indistinguishable from a male to the general population.
I was in that aforementioned relationship (my first one ever, at 27 years old) just chilling, feeling fully like a "gay man", whilst having PIV sex and having to go get the morning after pill because I'd let him cum in me sometimes (insane). He did say that being attracted to me and enjoying having sex with me made him realise he was Bi, which upset me a bit (I told him, "well its different for everyone, some gay men's sexuality is based around genitals and some's aren't", again… insane) but it also set some cogs turning. I kept getting UTIs too and having to go to the pharmacy and explain that yes, even though I look "like a man" I have a vagina so I do not need to go to my GP because I have UTI, please just give me antibiotics. And eventually went to the sexual health clinic to talk about birth control. I think these experiences started to break the cognitive dissonance a bit, because meanwhile I am on tumblr seeing people telling "transandrophobia truthers" that it is impossible to experience misogyny as a trans man. (this shit never made sense to me, even as a "passing" trans man, because I know most trans people especially trans women do not pass. And that women are not oppressed because they wear make up and have long hair).
I then started to really notice that there actually are massive differences between men and women, both physically and socially. I genuinely knew this as a young teenager but that tumblr brainwashing will really get ya. I realised too that I, in no way, felt or acted like a man, and that I didn't want to either. I'd been kind of ironically playing around with this before, saying I was a female-socialised man, or a "male lassie" kek, but I never wanted a Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>529229
It's 1am for me so I'm about to go to bed so I don't have any questions immediately but this was a really interesting read, I got a lot of insight from what you said. I wish you the best, nonna.

>>529229
not a question but good luck, nonna. i'm proud of you and ultimately you'll feel better in the end. be strong.

>>529229
this was so touching and sweet, i hope you can find some peace.

Every day feels worse than the day before. In a way i know it will get better but I don’t know if I have the strength and motivation to wait for it to get better. It’s just so exhausting. We had our issues but I was willing to work them out, he wasn’t. I’m trying not to idealize our relationship but I’ve never had such a connection with a man before, I felt safe and we had fun. I’ve been alone in our shared apartment, been looking for my own place but nothing yet. It’s all very tiresome.

>>528525
Thank you nona I needed to hear this. We both got out of it safe atleast. I hope everything becomes better for us and I hope you find someone deserving of you

>>528525
>>528887
I left my crappy ex about a year ago and I while I still struggle accepting it, the more time passes, the more the feeling of not being able to go back settles in.
It's like, I still sort of wish I could magically fix things, but I know that won't happen and more than anything I would hate going back way too much for it to happen.
Like, the rose colored glasses slowly wear off, and you start rethinking of the past without them and wonder why the fuck did you bear all of that.
Hang in there, it gets so much easier.

I'm not going to lie to you and say you won't care at all (for me that only really happens when I manage to love again which hasn't happened yet), but don't get impatient. It's a very slow process, it's freeing in a way that is so powerful and so grounded into reality. You will morph into a new, stronger person. Just hang in there long enough. This sort of trauma is devastating, but when you manage to grow out of it, you'll be so strong.

Like, I was so hurt, that now it feels like no one can hurt me anymore, I managed to move past this so I can move past anything, in the field of romance and friendship at least. It's so worth it nonnies.

How do you cope with giving every relationship your all only to be devalued and discarded by moids? I truly think moids like you less the better you treat them. I get male attention easily because of my looks, but I really do try to be a good partner beyond that because looks fade and I have more to offer than just that. I’ll cook, clean, give him back massages, sex daily, buy gifts for him, whatever. Maybe I sound like a pathetic pickme, but I like doing these things, and I only do them when the effort is reciprocal. But moids only like to chase. They don’t appreciate what you do for them because it makes you look easy.

He broke up with me today. He doesn't love me anymore. We've been together for over ten years. I'm so crushed by this and realizing that's the reason he had been distant for a while now. I work a shit job and just applied for higher education this year, I have no family to rely on so I have to be a live in ex-girlfriend while I save up for my own place. We balance each other out so much, every day with him has been so much fun. He's so good at everything I suck at and vice versa. I don't want to do this, this is my nightmare.

new thread >>527880

>>527767
This is a newer article. He must have been moved units after the lockdown. Diddy's prison consultant pretty much confirmed in a podcast prior to that they were in the same unit.

>>527853 I have an ask on my tumblr that answers this more in detail but:

- Search by image (chrome)
- Image Max URL (on github, you have to dl it as a developer since it's blocked by google)
- any free (or paid) VPN if you're outside the us
- Don't "Accept" image/webp (firefox)

I also use inspect elements and social media downloader sites to get pics/videos in their best quality.

And I figured out how to stop twitter pics from saving as jfif, basically blocking it on my computer from being requested from the servers.

Can we talk abt how half the fanpages of him are rude and think they own pictures of him?

>>529054
go to the new thread >>527880

>>528727
I agree, the art is bad but his expression is adorable.
>>rival, opponent, furniture/slave, ally, love interest/husband
I like it

There's something in the water in Korea.

>>528787
What is the source of the second pic?

>>528801
Killer beat https://templetoons.com/comic/killer-beat

>>528831
Thanks, I love big muscular subs.

True love isn't possible unless you're both virgins/have only had sex with each other.(baiting)

>>528145
They hated her because she spoke the truth.

Yes but not for me.

>>528036
>Randomly mentally ill
More money = more access to health care = more diagnoses smartass

I believe true love exists but the kind of love most people fixate on tends to be a lot more transactional, animalistic, and performative.

>>528029
it's a little mix of everything really. with touhou, you are never going to get properly defined characterization with anybody BUT you'll start noticing recurring themes with characters that appear in more than one game or in printed media. for instance, reimu and marisa appear in virtually everything so the more you go through touhou the more you'll see how they start coming to life. i especially love the official artbooks, reading them as you're going through the games make the characters pop even more though their story is never told to completion no matter which form of media you pick. that's where fan interpretations come in, and those loose ends are what makes doujin culture flourish.

yukari is a bit of an exception since she's supposed to be the "meta" character of touhou, her commentary about present/past affairs and the state of the world can be found spewn across all kinds of official work. she also has another iteration of her appearing and narrating many key things but well, that's a whole different can of worms.

I'm a little late but since we're posting Touhou girls, let me post my beautiful, revenge fueled wife ♥
I will gladly destroy the Lunarians just for you, Junko!!!

>>528040
Thanks for taking the time to explain, it actually sounds pretty fun assembling your own personal understanding of the character while absorbing various bits of media.

I hate DECO*27 for making Miku coomshit like Rabbit Hole but Monitoring Miku is doing something to me

>>528729
Honestly, I completely get it nonna. It's a very simple but aesthetically pleasing design, and girls with eyepatches are always top tier.