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I have read a lot of posts here and resonate so much with a lot of them. From grooming, assaults, exposition to porn at an early age, hypersexualization to now having almost no libido and strugglig to not dissociate during sex. I have been in a loving and respectful relationship for years but I can't seem to fix the sex issue and reconnect with my own sexuality. The feeling of being broken, the shame and guilt and fear of vulnerability just doesn't seem to get away. I can only enjoy it when my eyes are closed, preferably turning my back towards him and being totally still. I feel like I'm slowly loosing more and more connection to myself and to my partner. It has now grown into self-sabotaging my relationship - I don't even know how my bf can cope with me, as I would have dumped me for way less. This has added even more negative emotions towards sex and making it even harder to progress. As anyone healed from that, managed to overcome? I know a lot of us face similar struggles, but how can we fix it? I struggle to find ressources and positive stories about women overcoming their sexual traumas, even though it is such a common experience. Hope is needed.