>>585815Congrats, nona! The
feeling makes all the difference.
>>585635Sorry for the late reply, anon. It seems to me like you have a detachment issue, as well? If so, I understand, I'm just the same.
When we want something really big, it's natural to keep "checking" to see if it's already here when that's not the correct "energy"/mindset. If you had the things you desire, would you be constantly, desperately checking if they are truly yours? This comes from an idea that we don't have it already, and feeling/imagining/acting as if we do is the key. It's very hard though, because not only is hard to detach or forget something we really,
really want, but also because we are all logical enough to not be that deluded and think we have it already lol it's a weird balance. Whenever I'm having those doubts I just try to dismiss it (not put feeling into the lacking, if that makes sense), I'll go like "Nah, it's too late to backpedal now, I gotta brace myself for when it comes" or "Yeah, it's coming, but Rome was not built in a day. Let it happens when it needs to happen/when I'm truly ready" or "It's happening in an even better way, those surprises take time"
It's kinda cringe, but they are affirmations that don't sound too unreasonable to my mind and give an idea of detachment from the timing/exact scene I envisioned but not of the desire itself. You can find some that fit you best!
You could also try and exercise it by scripting and burning the paper, or deleting the file. Just make sure you have the feeling wash over you, the certainty and happiness of it being done, before you let it go.
Also, change yourself for the self you want to be when you have all of the things! You can start small, like dressing like you'd like to dress if you were completely confident, or doing that hike you think your better self would always want to do. Worst case scenario, you'll be happier and more confident in general.