I can't help you with your economic problem, nor I know about Canada, but I can answer the other issue.
If you can, get help. It doesn't matter what age you are, you are always able to change and get better (it's hard, but it's possible only if you want to). My parents had the same opinions about therapy and they gaslighted me for wanting to get help. After years of not knowing what was 'wrong' with me, I decided to go when I Was 28. I wished I have gone earlier! I wasted so many years being sad and angry. Now I'm happy and I no longer have anger issues.
Life gets easier when your head is clean of anger and you know yourself better.