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ITT:A thread for open/closeted ex-Muslims and or Muslims who are questioning their faith
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>>2516376>just leave hermaybe i shouldve specified this but i cant anymore since the exams i was supposed to take to leave were cancelled due to the recent shelling by india
and most unis wont pick me because id be deported anywaysand airspace is closed down where im at (so we cant even book a flight)…my post is more of a last cry in reality. we couldve gotten out we still can hopefully but just from yesterdays things are getting worse so i dont imagine we have the luxury of time anymore
and my city is closer to india im just hoping my retarded parents realize the shit theyre in and get out if not atleast i vented this here. being in a war zone kind of gives you courage to say anything since hell youre dying either way,i have to simultaneously prep myself that i might die tomorrow by a nuke or a drone strike (it hasnt stopped india shelling major cities) and i have to live with the fact that couldnt live or experience what i wanted that maybe my life is going to end soon that sometimes theres always one type of people who'll always suffer even when youve tried to make things better i just have to live with the fact that my life is going to end before i actually stepped into full adulthood. thanks for wishing me good luck though! i hope you get the best luck aswell!
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>>2516571That's beyond awful, I'm so sorry nonna. I really hope you and your loved ones can get out soon. Sending good luck and good health your way, I wish I could help you in a more concrete way.
Please keep us updated if you can.
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I hate to say this but I feel like my only option is killing myself. I just have so many problems that will never get solved and ruined my life. I know half of my problems wouldnt exist if I never born to this place. Moving to west isnt an option because I dont want to face with more bullying. But I just dont know anymore. Im completely lost. I gave up from life compeletly, I gave up from school, I gave up from myself. Everytime I share my pain people tell me to kill myself or get rude or talk like they dont even listen to me. I imagine being a man in the west, it feels surreal. My only consolation is hugging to my pillow and pretend to be loved by someone, it helps to calm me down a bit. I feel like seeking and help is pointless. I have a hate/love relationship with my mother and its exhausting, I hate that Im only alive because I feel obligated to live for her, I hate this reality. Everything is so exhausting, I dont know what to do anymore, I feel like at this point no matter what I do I will just sink into the mud more. And thats scary to think about. I wouldve killed myself already like I said if it wasnt because of my mother but I just feel like a slave. I will never self actualize because of this place, because of my ethnicity, because of my dysphoria. I hate that I have no body I can talk to and relate to. I hate people in here and I hate people in west for having easy lives too. I just want to be human